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-The Project Gutenberg eBook of Young Musgrave, by Mrs. Margaret Oliphant
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-Title: Young Musgrave
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-*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK YOUNG MUSGRAVE ***
-
-
-
-
- YOUNG MUSGRAVE.
-
- “Touching sacrifice: of thy worldly possessions give all, even to
- the spoiling of thy goods; for thus teaches our Lord Christ, and
- our blessed master San Francesco. If a poor person, more poor than
- thou, would have thy habit, which it is not permitted by the rule
- of the order to give, let him take it from thee: so wilt thou do no
- wrong; but thy life, which is not thine, give not: it is but given
- to thee for God’s service; thou canst not take it up, neither canst
- thou lay it down. This rule obey if thou wouldest be free from
- presumption. For our Lord Christ alone, whose life was His own,
- hath power and privilege to give it away.”--_Sermons, BB. Frati
- Ginepro e Lausdeo, dei Frati Minori._
-
-
-
-
- YOUNG MUSGRAVE
-
-
- BY
-
- MRS. OLIPHANT
-
- AUTHOR OF “THE CURATE IN CHARGE” ETC.
-
-
- “No man can redeem his brother.”--Ps. xlix. 7
-
-
- London
- MACMILLAN AND CO.
- AND NEW YORK
- 1894
-
-
- Richard Clay and Sons, Limited,
- LONDON AND BUNGAY.
-
-_First Edition_ (3 Vols. Crown 8vo.) 1877. _Second Edition_ (1 Vol. Crown 8vo.)
- 1878. _Reprinted_ (Globe 8vo.) 1883, 1886, (Crown 8vo.) 1894.
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS.
-
-
-PART I.
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
- PAGE
-THE FAMILY 1
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-MARY 10
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-THE NEW-COMERS 20
-
-
-PART II.
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-AFTER THE SILENCE OF YEARS 30
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-WAKING UP 37
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-AT THE VICARAGE 46
-
-
-PART III.
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-THE CHILDREN AT THE CASTLE 56
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-LADY STANTON 66
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-AT ELFDALE 77
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-THE OTHER SIDE 86
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-AN AFTERNOON’S WORK 95
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-VISITORS 104
-
-
-PART IV.
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-FAMILY CARES 116
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-AN UNLOOKED-FOR VISITOR 123
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-RANDOLPH 133
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-DUCKS AND DRAKES 144
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-THE BAMPFYLDES 156
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-A NEW FRIEND 169
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-A MIDNIGHT WALK 177
-
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-THE COTTAGE ON THE FELLS 187
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-AN EARLY MEETING 199
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-THE HENS AND THE DUCKLING 208
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-COUSIN MARY’S OPINION 218
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV.
-
-THE SQUIRE AT HOME 227
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV.
-
-A NEW VISITOR 240
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI.
-
-IN SUSPENSE 249
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII.
-
-AN APPARITION 261
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII.
-
-THE LOVES OF THE ANGELS 273
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX.
-
-NELLO’S JOURNEY 282
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX.
-
-A CHILD FORLORN 295
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI.
-
-A CRISIS AT PENNINGHAME 306
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXII.
-
-NELLO’S RESCUE 321
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIII.
-
-THE BABES IN THE WOOD 330
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIV.
-
-THE NEW-COMER 338
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXV.
-
-ANOTHER HELPER 348
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVI.
-
-THE BEGINNING OF THE END 358
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVII.
-
-A TRAITOR 366
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVIII.
-
-THE MOTHER 373
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIX.
-
-THE TRAGEDY ENDS 384
-
-
-CHAPTER XL.
-
-CONCLUSION 389
-
-
-
-
-YOUNG MUSGRAVE.
-
-
-
-
-PART I.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-THE FAMILY.
-
-
-It would be difficult to say how Penninghame Castle had got that
-imposing name. It was an old house standing almost on the roadside, at
-least at the termination of a rough country road leading from the
-village, which widened into a square space at the side of the house. The
-village road was lined with trees, and it pleased the Musgraves to
-believe that it had been in happier days the avenue to their ancient
-dwelling, while the rough square at the end had been the courtyard. The
-place itself consisted of a small mansion not important enough to be
-very distinctive in architecture, built on to the end of an old hall,
-the only remaining portion of a much older and greater house. This hall
-was entered directly by a great door of heavy oak, from which a slope of
-ancient causeway descended into the road below--an entrance which was
-the only thing like a castle in the whole _ensemble_, though it ought to
-have led to an ancient gateway and portcullis rather than to the great
-door generally wide open, through which, according to the story, a
-horseman once entered to scare the guests at their feast and defy the
-master at the head of the table. The hall was not used for such festive
-purposes now, nor threatened by such warlike intruders. It had known
-evil fortune in its day and had been degraded into a barn, its windows
-blocked up, its decorations destroyed--but had come to life again for
-the last fifty years and had come back to human use, though no longer as
-of old. Round the corner was the front of the old mansion, built in that
-pallid grey stone, which adds a sentiment of age, like the ashy paleness
-of very old people, to the robust antiquity of mason-work more lasting
-than any that is done now. Successive squires had nibbled at this old
-front, making windows there and doorways here: windows which cut through
-the string-courses above, and a prim Georgian front door, not even in
-the centre of the old arched entrance which had been filled up, which
-gave a certain air of disreputable irregularity to the pale and stern
-old dwelling-place. Ivy and other clinging growths fortunately hid a
-great deal of this, and added importance to the four great stacks of
-chimneys, which, mantled in its short, large leaves and perpetual
-greenness, looked like turrets, and dignified the house. A lake behind
-somewhat coldly blue, and a great hill in front somewhat coldly green,
-showed all the features of that north country which was not far enough
-north for the wild vigour and vivifying tints of brown bracken and
-heather. The lake came closely up in a little bay behind the older part
-of the house where there was a rocky harbour for the boats of the
-family; and between this little bay and the grey walls was the
-flower-garden, old-fashioned and bright, though turned to the unkindly
-east. Beyond this was a kind of broken park with some fine trees and a
-great deal of rough underwood, which stretched along the further shore
-of the lake and gave an air of dignity to the dwelling on that side.
-This was still called “the Chase” as the house was called the Castle, in
-memory it might be supposed of better days. The Musgraves had been
-Cavaliers, and had wasted their substance in favour of the Charleses,
-and their lands had been ravaged, their park broken up into fields,
-their avenue made a common road, half by hostile neighbours, half by
-vulgar intrusion, in the days when the Revolutionists had the upper
-hand. So they said, at least, and pleas of this kind are respected
-generally, save by the very cynical. Certainly the present occupants of
-the house believed it fervently, and so did the village; and if it was
-nothing more it was a great comfort and support to the family, and made
-them regard the rude approach to “the Castle” with forbearance. The
-public right of way had been established in those stormy times. It was a
-sign even of the old greatness of the house. It was better than trim
-lawns and smiling gardens, which would have required a great deal of
-keeping up. It was, however, a family understanding that the first
-Musgrave who made a rich marriage, or who in any other way became a
-favourite of fortune, should by some vague means--an act of parliament
-or otherwise--reclaim the old courtyard and avenue, and plant a pair of
-magnificent gates between the castle and the village: also buy back all
-the old property; also revive the title of Baron of Penninghame, which
-had been in abeyance for the last two hundred years; and do many other
-things to glorify and elevate the family to its pristine position; and
-no Musgrave doubted that this deliverer would come sooner or later,
-which took the bitterness out of their patience in the meantime and gave
-them courage to wait.
-
-Another encouraging circumstance in their lot was that they were fully
-acknowledged as the oldest family in the county. Other and richer
-persons pushed in before them to its dignities, and they were no doubt
-very much left out of its gaieties and pleasures; but no one doubted
-that they had a right to take the lead, if ever they were rich enough.
-This, however, did not seem likely, for the moment at least. The family
-at Penninghame had, what is much to be avoided by families which would
-be happy, a history, and a very recent one. There were two sons, but
-neither of them had been seen at the Castle for nearly fifteen years,
-and with the name of the elder of these there was connected a dark and
-painful story, not much known to the new generation, but very well
-remembered by all the middle-aged people in the county. Young Musgrave
-had been for a year or two the most popular young squire in the north
-country, but his brightness had ended in dismal clouds of misfortune and
-trouble and bloodshedding, with perhaps crime involved, and certainly
-many of the penalties of crime. He had not been seen in the north
-country since the crisis which made all the world acquainted with his
-unfortunate name; and his younger brother had re-appeared but once in
-their father’s house, which was thus left desolate, except for the one
-daughter, who had been its delight before and was now its only stay. So
-far as the county knew, young Musgrave still lived, though he was never
-mentioned, for there had been no signs of mourning in the house, such as
-must have intimated to the neighbours the fact of John’s death--which
-also of course would have made Randolph the heir. And save that once,
-not even Randolph had ever come to break the monotony of life in his
-father’s house. Squire Musgrave and his daughter lived there alone now.
-They had been alone these fifteen years. They had little society, and
-did not keep up a large establishment. He was old, and she was no longer
-young enough to care for the gaieties of the rural neighbourhood. Thus
-they had fallen out of the current of affairs. The family was “much
-respected,” but comparatively little heard of after the undesired and
-undesirable notoriety it had once gained.
-
-Thus abandoned by its sons, and denuded of the strongest elements of
-life, it may well be supposed that the castle at Penninghame was a
-melancholy house. What more easy than to conjure up the saddest picture
-of such a dwelling? The old man, seated in his desolate home, brooding
-over perhaps the sins of his sons, perhaps his own--some injudicious
-indulgence, or untimely severity which had driven them from him; while
-the sister, worn out by the monotony of her solitary life, shut herself
-out from all society, and spent her life in longing for the absent, and
-pleading for them--a sad, solitary woman, with no pleasure in her lot,
-except that of the past. The picture would have been as appropriate as
-touching, but it would not have been true. Old Mr. Musgrave was not the
-erring father of romance. He was a well-preserved and spare little man,
-over seventy, with cheeks of streaky red like winter apples, and white
-hair, which he wore rather long, falling on the velvet collar of his
-old-fashioned coat. He had been an outdoor man in his day, and had
-farmed, and shot, and hunted, like others of his kind, so far as his
-straitened means and limited stables permitted; but when years and
-circumstances had impaired his activity he had been strong enough to
-retire, of his own free will, while graceful abdication was still in his
-power. He spent most of his time now in his library, with only a
-constitutional walk, or easy ramble upon his steady old cob, to vary
-his life, except when quarter sessions called him forth, or any other
-duty of the magistracy, to which he still paid the most conscientious
-attention. The Musgraves were not people whom it was easy to crush, and
-Fate had a hard bargain in the old squire, who found himself one
-occupation when deprived of another with a spirit not often existing in
-old age. He had committed plenty of mistakes in his day, and some which
-had been followed by tragical consequences, a practical demonstration of
-evil which fortunately does not attend all the errors of life; but he
-did not brood over them in his old library, nor indulge unavailing
-compunctions, nor consider himself under any doom; but on the contrary
-studied his favourite problems in genealogy and heraldry, and county
-history, and corresponded with _Notes and Queries_, and was in his way
-very comfortable. He it was who first pointed out that doubtful
-blazoning of Marmion’s shield, “colour upon colour,” which raised so
-lively a discussion; and in questions of this kind he was an authority,
-and thoroughly enjoyed the little tilts and controversies involved, many
-of which were as warm as their subjects were insignificant. His family
-was dropping, or rather had dropped, into decay; his eldest son was
-virtually lost to his family and to society; his youngest son alienated
-and a stranger; and some of this at least was the father’s fault. But
-neither the decay of the house, nor the reflection that he was at least
-partially to blame, made any great difference to the squire. There had
-no doubt been moments, and even hours, when he had felt it bitterly; but
-these moments, though perhaps they count for more than years in a man’s
-life, do not certainly last so long, and age has a way of counterfeiting
-virtue, which is generally very successful, even to its personal
-consciousness. Mr. Musgrave was generally respected, and he felt himself
-to be entirely respectable. He sat in his library and worked away among
-his county histories, without either compunction or regret--who could
-throw a stone at him? He had been rather unfortunate in his family, that
-was all that could be said.
-
-And Mary Musgrave, his daughter, was just as little disposed to brood
-upon the past. She had shed many tears in her day, and suffered many
-things. Perhaps it was in consequence of the family troubles which had
-come upon her just at the turning-point in her life that she had never
-married; for she had been one of the beauties of the district--courted
-and admired by everybody, and wooed by many: by some who indeed still
-found her beautiful, and by some who had learned to laugh at the old
-unhappiness of which she was the cause. Miss Musgrave did not like these
-last, which was perhaps natural; and even now there would be a tone of
-satire in her voice when she noted the late marriage of one or another
-of her old adorers. Women do not like men whose hearts they have broken,
-to get quite healed, and console themselves; this is perhaps a poor
-feeling, but it is instinctive, and though it may be stoutly struggled
-against in some cases, and chidden into silence in many, it still
-maintains an untolerated yet obstinate life. But neither the failure of
-the adorations she once inspired nor the family misfortunes had crushed
-her spirit. She lived a not unhappy life, notwithstanding all that had
-happened. It was she who did everything that was done at Penninghame.
-The reins which her father had dropped almost unawares she had taken up.
-She managed the estate; kept the bailiff in order; did all business that
-was necessary with the lawyer; and what was a greater feat still, kept
-her father unaware of the almost absolute authority which she exercised
-in his affairs. It had to be done, and she had not hesitated to do it;
-and on the whole, she, too, though she had suffered many heartaches in
-her day, was not unhappy now, but lived a life full of activity and
-occupation. She was forty, and her hair began to be touched by grey--she
-who had been one of the fairest flowers of the north country. A woman
-always has to come down from that eminence somehow; whether she does it
-by becoming some one’s wife or by merely falling back into the silence
-of the past and leaving the place free for others, does not much matter.
-Perhaps, indeed, it is the old maid who has the best of it. A little
-romance continues to encircle her in the eyes of most of those who have
-worshipped her youth. She has not married; why has she not married--that
-once admired of all admirers? Has it been that she, too, sharing the lot
-which she inflicted on so many, was not loved where she loved? or was
-it perhaps that she had made a mistake--sent away some one, perhaps,
-who knows, the very man who thought of her thus kindly and
-regretfully--whom she was afterwards sorry to have sent away? Nobody
-said this in words, but Mary Musgrave at forty was more tenderly thought
-of than Lady Stanton, who had been the rival queen of the county. Lady
-Stanton was stout now-a-days; in men’s minds, when they met her sailing
-into a ball-room, prematurely indued with the duties of chaperon to her
-husband’s grown-up daughters, there would arise a half-amused wonder how
-they could have worshipped at her feet as they once did. “Can this
-muckle wife be my true love Jean?” they said to themselves. But Miss
-Musgrave, who was slim as a girl in her unwedded obscurity, and whose
-eyes some people thought as bright as ever, though her hair was grey,
-gave rise to no such irreverent thoughts. There were men scattered
-through the world who had a romantic regard, a profound respect still,
-for this woman whom they had loved, and who had preserved the
-distinction of loving no one in return. Nobody had died for love of her,
-though, some had threatened it; but this visionary atmosphere of past
-adoration supplied a delicate homage, such as is agreeable even to an
-old maiden’s heart.
-
-And Miss Musgrave’s life was spent chiefly in the old hall, as her
-father’s was spent in his library. She had been full of gay activity in
-her youth, a bold and graceful horsewoman, ready for anything that was
-going; but, with the same sense of fitness that led the squire to his
-retirement, she too had retired. She had put aside her riding-habits
-along with, her muslins, and wore nothing but rich neutral-tinted silk
-gowns. Her only extravagance was a pair of ponies, which she drove into
-the county town when she had business to do, or to pay an occasional
-visit to her friends: but by far the greater part of her life was spent
-in the old hall, where all her favourites and allies came, and all her
-poor people from the village, who found her seated like a scriptural
-potentate in the gate, ready to settle all quarrels and administer
-impartial justice. The hall was connected with the house by a short
-passage and two doors, which shut out all interchange of sound. There
-was nothing above it but the high-pitched roof, the turret chimneys, and
-the ivy, nor was any interposition of servants necessary to usher in
-visitors by that ever-open way. This was a thing which deeply affected
-the spirits and feelings of Eastwood, the only male functionary in the
-house--the most irreproachable of butlers. A door which opened straight
-into the lady’s favourite sitting-room was felt by him to be an insult
-to the family; it was more like a farmhouse than a castle; and as for
-Miss Musgrave, she was just as bad--too affable, a deal too affable,
-talking to any one that came to her, the tramps on the road as well as
-the ladies and gentlemen whose unwilling steeds pranced and curveted on
-the old slope of causeway. This was a standing grievance to the butler,
-whoso complaint was that the “presteedge” of the family was in hourly
-jeopardy; and his persistent complaint had thrown a shade of
-dissatisfaction over the household. This, however, did not move the lady
-of the house. Eastwood and the rest did not know, though some other
-people did, that it was the proudest woman in the county whom they
-accused of being too affable, and who received all the world in the old
-hall without the assistance of any gentleman usher. There were no
-windows in the side of the hall which fronted the road, but only this
-huge oaken door, all studded with bars and elaborate hinges of iron. On
-the other side there was a recess, with a large square window and
-cushioned seats, “restored” by village workmen in a not very perfect
-way, but still preserving the ample and noble lines of its original
-design. This windowed recess was higher than the rest of the hall, the
-walls of which were low, though the roof was lofty. But towards the
-front the only light was from the doorway, which looked due west, and
-beheld all the sunsets, flooding the ancient place with afternoon light
-and glories of evening colour. The slanting light seemed to sweep in
-like an actual visitor in all its sheen of crimson and purple, when the
-rest of the house was in the still and hush of the grey evening. This
-was where Miss Musgrave held her throne.
-
-Thus Penninghame Castle stood at the moment this story begins. The lake
-gleaming cold towards the north, rippling against the pebbles in the
-little inlet which held the two boats, the broken ground and ancient
-trees of the Chase, lying eastward, getting the early lights of the
-morning, as did the flower-garden, which lay bright under the old
-walls. A little genial hum of the kindly north-country women-servants,
-who had been there for a lifetime, or who were the daughters and cousins
-of those who had been there for a lifetime, with Eastwood strutting
-important among them--the one big cock among this barndoor company--made
-itself audible now and then, a respectful subdued human accompaniment to
-the ripple of the lake and the whispering of the wind among the trees:
-and now and then a cheerful cackle of poultry, the sound of the ponies
-in the stable, or the squire’s respectable cob: the heavy steps of the
-gardener walking slowly along the gravel paths. But for these tranquil
-sounds, which made the stillness more still, there was nothing but quiet
-in and about the old house. There had been a time when much had happened
-there, when there had been angry dissensions, family convulsions, storms
-of mutual reproach and reproof, outbursts of tears and crying. But all
-that was over. Nothing had happened at Penninghame for fifteen years.
-The old squire in his library and Mary in her favourite old chamber
-lived as though there were no breaks in life, no anguishes, no
-convulsions, as quietly as their trees, as steadily as their old walls,
-as if existence could neither change nor end. Thus they went on from day
-to day and from year to year, in a routine which occupied and satisfied,
-and kept the sense of living in their minds, but in a lull and hush of
-all adventure, of all commotion, of all excitement. Time passed over
-them and left no trace, save those touches imperceptible at the moment
-which sorrow or passion could surpass in effect in one day, yet which
-tell as surely at the end. This was how things were at Penninghame when
-this story begins.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-MARY.
-
-
-It was not one of Mary Musgrave’s fancies to furnish her hall like a
-drawing-room. She had collected round her a few things for use, but she
-was not rich enough to make her favourite place into a toy, as so many
-people do, nor had she the opportunity of “picking up” rarities to
-ornament it, as she might have liked to do had she been in the way of
-them. The room had been a barn fifty years before. Then it became a
-family storeroom, was fitted up at one end with closets and cupboards,
-and held the household linen, and sometimes the winter supply of fruit.
-It was Mary who had rescued it back again to gentler use; but she had
-not been able to re-decorate or renew it with such careful pretence at
-antiquity as is common nowadays. All that she could do for it was to
-collect her own doings there, and all the implements for her work. The
-windowed recess which got the morning sun was her business-room. There
-stood an old secretaire, chosen not because of its age or suitability,
-but because it was the only thing she had available, a necessity which
-often confers as much grace as the happiest choice. Opposite the doorway
-was an old buffet, rough, yet not uncharacteristic, which had been
-scrubbed clean by a generous housemaid when Miss Musgrave first took to
-the hall. And much it had wanted that cleansing; but the soap and the
-water and the scrubbing-brush had not agreed very well, it must be
-allowed, with the carved mahogany, which ought to have been oak. Between
-the open door and this big piece of furniture was a square of old Turkey
-carpet, very much faded, yet still agreeable to the eye, and a
-spindle-legged table of Queen Anne’s days, with drawers which held Miss
-Musgrave’s knitting and a book, and sometimes homelier matters, mendings
-which she chose to do herself, calculations which were not meant for the
-common eye.
-
-She was seated here, on an afternoon of October, warm with the shining
-of that second summer which comes even in the north. The sunshine came
-so far into the room that it caught the edges of the carpet, and made a
-false show of gold upon the faded wool; and it was so warm that Miss
-Musgrave had drawn her chair farther into the room than usual, and sat
-in the shade to escape the unusual warmth. At this moment she was not
-doing anything. She was sitting quite silent, the book she had been
-reading laid open upon her knee, enjoying the sun, as people enjoy it to
-whom it suddenly reveals itself after date when it is past expectation.
-In the end of October in the north country, people have ceased to think
-of warmth out of doors, or any blaze of kindly light from the skies--and
-the morning had been grey though very mild. The sudden glow had caught
-Mary as she sat, a little chilly, close to her opened door, thinking of
-a shawl, and had transfigured the landscape and the heavens and her own
-sentiments all at once. She was sitting with her hands in her lap, and
-the open book on her knee, thinking of it, surprised by the sweetness of
-it, feeling it penetrate into her very heart, though she had drawn her
-chair back out of the sun. No, not thinking--people do not think of the
-sunshine; but it went into her heart, bringing back a confused sweetness
-of recollection and of anticipation--or rather of the anticipations
-which were recollections--which had ceased to exist except in memory.
-Just so does youth expect some sudden sweetness to invade its life; and
-sometimes the memory of that expectation, even when unfulfilled, brings
-a half sad, half sweet amusement to the solitary. It was so with this
-lady seated alone in her old hall. She was Mary again, the young
-daughter of the house; and at the same time she was old Miss Musgrave
-smiling at herself.
-
-But as she did so a footstep sounded on the rough pavement of the
-ascent. No one could come unheard to her retreat, which was a safeguard.
-She gave a little shake to her head, and took up the open book, which
-was no old favourite to be dreamed over, but a modern book; and prepared
-herself for a visitor with that smoothing of the brow and closing up of
-mental windows which fits us to meet strange eyes. “It is only I,” said
-the familiar voice of some one who knew and understood this slight
-movement: and then she dropped the book again, and let the smile come
-back into her eyes.
-
-“Only you! then I may look as I please. I need not put on my company
-garb,” she said, with a smile.
-
-“I should hope not,” said the new-comer, reaching the door with that
-slight quickening of the breath which showed that even the half-dozen
-steps of ascent was a slight tax upon him. He did not even shake hands
-with her--probably they had met before that day--but took off his hat as
-he crossed the threshold, as if he had been going into a church. He was
-a clergyman, slim and slight, of middle size, or less than middle size,
-in somewhat rusty grey, with a mildness of aspect which did not promise
-much strength, bodily or mental. The Vicarage of Penninghame was a poor
-one, too poor to be worth reserving for a son of the family, and it had
-been given to the tutor of Mr. Musgrave’s sons twenty years ago. What
-had happened was natural enough, and might be seen in his eyes still,
-notwithstanding lapse of time and change of circumstances. Mr.
-Pennithorne had fallen in love, always hopelessly and mildly, as became
-his character, with the Squire’s daughter. He had always said it did not
-matter. He had no more hope of persuading her to love him than of
-getting the moon to come out of heaven, and circumstances having set
-marriage before him, he had married, and was happy enough as happiness
-goes. And he was the friend, and in a measure the confidant, of this
-lady whom he had loved in the superlative poetical way--knew all about
-her, shared her life in a manner, was acquainted with many of her
-thoughts and her troubles. A different light came into his eyes when he
-saw her, but he was not at all unhappy. He had a good wife and three
-nice children, and the kind of life he liked. At fifty, who is there who
-continues to revel in the unspeakable blisses of youth? Mr. Pennithorne
-was very well content: but still when he saw Mary Musgrave--and he saw
-her daily--there came a different kind of light into his eyes.
-
-“I was in mental _déshabille_,” she said, “and did not care to be
-caught; though after all it is not everybody who can see when one is not
-clothed and in one’s right mind.”
-
-“I never knew you out of your right mind, Miss Mary. What was it?--no
-new trouble?”
-
-“You are always a flatterer, Mr. Pen. You have seen me in all kinds of
-conditions. No, we don’t have any troubles now. Is that a rash speech?
-But really I mean it. My father is in very good health and enjoys
-himself, and I enjoy myself--in reason.”
-
-“You enjoy yourself! Yes, in the way of being good to other people.”
-
-“Hush!” she said, putting up her hand to stop him in his little speech,
-sincere as it was. “Shall I tell you what it was that put me out of
-order for any one’s eyes but an old friend’s? Nothing more than this
-sunshine, Mr. Pen. Don’t you recollect when we were young how a sudden
-thought of something that was coming would seize upon you, and flood you
-with delight--as the sun did just now?”
-
-“I recollect,” he said, fixing his mild eyes upon her, and shaking his
-head, with a sigh: “but it never came.”
-
-“That may be true enough; but the thought came, and ‘life is but
-thought,’ you know; the thing might not follow. However, we are all
-quite happy all the same.”
-
-He looked at her, still shaking his head.
-
-“I suppose so,” he said; “I suppose so; quite happy! but not as we meant
-to be; that was what you were thinking.”
-
-“I did not go so far. I was not thinking at all. I _think_ that I think
-very seldom. It only caught me as the old thought used to do, and
-brought so many things back.”
-
-She smiled, but he sighed.
-
-“Yes, everything is very different. Yourself--to see you here, offering
-up your life for others--making a sacrifice----”
-
-“I have made no sacrifice,” she said, somewhat proudly, then laughed.
-“Is that because I am unmarried, Mr. Pen? You wedded people, you are so
-sure of being better off than we are. You are too complacent. But _I_ am
-not so sure of that.”
-
-He did not join in her laugh, but looked at her with melting eyes--eyes
-in which there was some suspicion of tears. It was perhaps a trifle
-unkind of her to call him complacent in his conjugality. There were a
-hundred unspeakable things in his look--pity, reverence, devotion, not
-the old love perhaps, but something higher; something that was never to
-end.
-
-“On the whole, we are taking it too seriously,” she said, after a pause.
-“It is over now, and the sun is going down. And you came to talk to
-me?--perhaps of something in the parish that wants looking to?”
-
-“No--I came in only to look at you, and make sure that you were well.
-The children you were visiting the other day have the scarlet fever; and
-besides, I have had a feeling in my mind about you--a presentiment. I
-should not have been surprised to hear that there had been--letters--or
-some kind of advances made----”
-
-“From whom?”
-
-“Well,” he said, after a slight pause; “they are both brothers--both
-sons--but they are not the same to me, Miss Mary. From John; he has been
-so much in my mind these two or three days, I have got to dreaming about
-him. Yes, yes, I know that is not worth thinking of; but we were always
-in such sympathy, he and I. Don’t you believe in some communication
-between minds that were closely allied? I do. It is a superstition if
-you like. Nothing could happen to any of you but, if I were at ever so
-great a distance, I should know.”
-
-“Don’t be too sure of that, Mr. Pen. Sometimes the dearest to us perish,
-and we know nothing of it; but I prefer your view. You dreamt of poor
-John? What did you see? Alas! dreams are the only ways of divining
-anything about him now!”
-
-“And your father is as determined as ever?”
-
-“We never speak on the subject. It has disappeared like so many other
-things. Why continue a fruitless discussion which only embittered him
-and wore me out? If any critical moment should come, if--one must say it
-plainly--my father should be like to die--then I should speak, you need
-not fear.”
-
-“I never feared that you would do everything the best sister, the
-bravest friend, could do.”
-
-“Do not praise me too much. I tell you I am doing nothing, and have done
-nothing for years; and sometimes it strikes me with terror. If anything
-should happen suddenly! My father is an old man; but talking to him now
-is of no use; we must risk it. What did you see in your dream?”
-
-“Oh, you will laugh at me,” he said with a nervous flutter;
-“nothing--except that he was here. I dreamt of him before, that time
-that he came home--after----”
-
-“Don’t speak of it,” said Miss Musgrave, with a corresponding shiver.
-“To think that such things should happen, and be forgotten, and we
-should all go on so comfortably--quite comfortably! I have nothing
-particular to make me happy, and yet I am as happy as most
-people--notwithstanding all that I have come through, as the poor women
-say.”
-
-“That is because you are so unselfish--so----”
-
-“Insensible--more like. I am the same as other people. What the poor
-folk in the village come through, Mr. Pen!--loss of husbands, loss of
-children, one after another, grinding poverty, and want, and anxiety,
-and separation from all they care for. Is it insensibility? I never can
-tell; and especially now when I share it myself. I am as happy sometimes
-as when I was young. That sunshine gave me a ridiculous pleasure. What
-right have I to feel my heart light?--but I did somehow--and I do
-often--notwithstanding all that has happened, and all that I have ‘gone
-through.’”
-
-Mr. Pennithorne gave a vague smile, but he made no reply; for either she
-was accusing herself unjustly, or this was a mood of mind which perhaps
-derogated a little from Mary Musgrave’s perfection. He had a way himself
-of keeping on steadfastly on the one string of his anxiety, whatever it
-might be, and worrying everybody with it--and here he lost the object of
-his faithful worship. It might--nay, must--be right since so she felt;
-but he lost her here.
-
-“And speaking of happiness,” she went on after a pause, “I want the
-children to come with me to Pennington to see the archery. It is pretty,
-and they will like it. And they like to drive behind my ponies. They are
-quite well?--and Emily?”
-
-“Very well. Our cow has been ill, and she has been worrying about
-it--not much to worry about you will say, you who have so much more
-serious anxieties.”
-
-“Not at all. If I had a delicate child and wanted the milk, I should
-fret very much. Will you send up for some of ours? As usually happens,
-we, who don’t consume very much, have plenty.”
-
-“Thank you,” he said, “but you must not think that little Emmy is so
-delicate. She has not much colour--neither has her mother, you know.” He
-was a very anxious father, and looked up with an eager wistfulness into
-her face. Little Emmy was so delicate that it hurt him like a foreboding
-to hear her called so. He could not bear Miss Musgrave, whose word had
-authority, to give utterance to such a thought.
-
-“I spoke hastily,” she said; “I did not think of Emmy. She is ever so
-much stronger this year. As for paleness, I don’t mind paleness in the
-least. She has such a very fair complexion, and she is twice as strong
-as last year.”
-
-“I am so glad you think so,” he said, with the colour rising to his
-face. “That is true comfort--for eyes at a little distance are so much
-better than one’s own.”
-
-“Yes, she is a great deal stronger,” said Miss Musgrave, “but you must
-send down for the milk. I was pale too, don’t you remember, when you
-came first? When I was fifteen.”
-
-“I remember--everything,” he said; “even to the dress you wore. I bought
-my little Mary something like it when I was last in town. It was
-blue--how well I remember! But Mary will never be like you, though she
-is your godchild.”
-
-“She is a great deal better; she is like her mother,” said Miss Musgrave
-promptly; “and Johnny is like his father, the best possible
-distribution. You are happy with your children, Mr. Pen. I envy people
-their children, it is the only thing; though perhaps they would bore me
-if I had them always on my hands. You think not? Yes, I am almost sure
-they would bore me. We get a kind of fierce independence living alone.
-To be hampered by a little thing always wanting something--wanting
-attention and care--I don’t think I should like it. But Emily was born
-for such cares. How well she looks with her baby in her arms--all was
-the old picture over again--the Madonna and the child.”
-
-“Poor Emily,” he said, though why he could not have told, for Emily did
-not think herself poor. Mr. Pennithorne always felt a vague pity for his
-wife when he was with Miss Musgrave, as for a poor woman who had many
-excellent qualities, but was here thrown into the shade. He could not
-say any more. He got up to go away, consoled and made comfortable he
-could not quite tell why. She was always sweet he said to himself as he
-went home. What she had said about being bored by children was a mere
-delusion, or perhaps a little conscious effort of self-deception,
-persuading herself that to have no children and to be independent was
-the best. What a wife she would have made! What a mother! he said this
-to himself quite impartially, knowing well that she never could have
-been wife for him, and feeling a pang at his heart for the happiness she
-had lost. Married life was not unmixed happiness always; it had its
-difficulties, he knew. But if _she_ had married it was not possible that
-she could have been otherwise than happy. With her there could have been
-no drawbacks. Mr. Pennithorne looked upon the question from a husband’s
-point of view alone.
-
-When he was gone, Miss Musgrave sat still without changing her place, at
-first with a smile, which gradually faded away from her face, like the
-last suffusion of the sunshine, which was going too. She smiled at her
-fast friend, to whom she knew, notwithstanding his legitimate affection
-for his Emily, she herself stood first of created beings. It was a
-folly, but it did not hurt him, she reflected with a faint amusement;
-and Emily and the children, notwithstanding this sentiment, were first
-and foremost really in his heart. Poor Mr. Pen! he had always been like
-this, mildly sentimental, offering up an uninterrupted gentle incense.
-But he was not in the least unhappy, though perhaps he liked by times to
-think that he was. Few people were really unhappy. By moments life was
-hard; but the struggle itself made a kind of happiness, a strain of
-living which it was good to feel by times. This was her theory. Most
-people when they come to forty have some theory or another, some settled
-way of getting through their existence, and adapting themselves for it.
-Hers was this: that evil was very much less than good in every way, and
-that people suffered a great deal less than they gave themselves credit
-for. Life had its compensations, daily and hourly, she thought. Her own
-existence had no exciting source of joy in it, but how far it was from
-being unhappy! Had she been unhappy she would have scoffed at herself.
-What! so many things to enjoy, so many good and pleasant circumstances
-around, and not happy! Would not that have been a disgrace to any woman?
-So she was apt to think Mr. Pennithorne extracted a certain cunning
-enjoyment from that vain love for herself which had been so visionary at
-all times, and which he persuaded himself had saddened his life. She
-thought it had been a harmless delusion: a secret advantage rather;
-something to fall back upon; a soft and visionary grievance of which he
-never wearied. And perhaps she was right. She sat looking after him with
-a smile on her face.
-
-The sun had crept away from her open doorway as they had talked. It was
-stealing further and further off, withdrawing from the line of the road,
-from the village roofs, from the gleam of the lake--and like the sun her
-smile stole away, from her eyes first, and then from the lingering
-curves about her mouth. Why was it that he could think he felt some
-action upon him of John’s mind in the far distance, while she felt none?
-No kind of presentiment or premonition had come to her. It must be
-foolishness she was sure--superstition; for if sympathy could thus
-communicate even a vague thrill of warning from one to another through
-the atmosphere of the mind, surely she was a more likely object to
-receive it than Mr. Pennithorne! John knew her,--could not doubt her,
-surely. Therefore to her, if to any one, this secret communication must
-have come. The smile disappeared altogether from her mouth as she
-entered upon this subject, and her whole face and eyes became grave and
-grey, like the dull coldness of the east, half-resentful of the sunset
-which still went on upon the other edge of the horizon, dispersing all
-those vain reflections to every quarter except that from which the sun
-rose. Could it be possible after all that John might trust Mr.
-Pennithorne with a more perfect confidence, as one unconnected and
-unconcerned with all that had passed, than he could give to herself? The
-thought, even though founded on such visionary grounds, hurt her a
-little; yet there was a kind of reason in it. He might think that she,
-always at her father’s side, and able to influence him in so many ways,
-might have done more for her brother; whereas with Mr. Pennithorne, who
-could do nothing, the sentiment of trust would be unbroken. She sat thus
-idly making it out to herself, making wondering casts of thought after
-her brother in the darkness of the unknown, as inch by inch the light
-stole out of the sky. It was not a fine sunset that night. The sun was
-yellow and mournful; long lines of cloud broke darkly upon his sinking,
-catching only sick reflections of the pale light beneath. At last he was
-all gone, except one streaming yellow sheaf of rays that seemed to
-strike against and barb themselves into the damp green outline of the
-hill.
-
-Her eyes were upon this, watching that final display, which, somehow in
-the absorption of her thoughts, kept her from observing an object near
-at hand, an old hackney-coach from Pennington town--where there was a
-railway station--which came along the road, a black, slow, lumbering
-vehicle, making a dull roll of sound which might have been a country
-cart. It came nearer and nearer while Miss Musgrave watched the bundle
-of gold arrows flash into the hill-side and disappear. Her eyes were
-dazzled by them, and chilled by their sudden disappearance, which left
-all the landscape cold and wrapped in a greyness of sudden evening. Mary
-came to herself with a slight shiver and shock. And at that moment the
-dull roll of the cab ceased, and the thing stood revealed to her. She
-rose to her feet with a thrill of wonder and expectation. The hackney
-carriage had drawn up at the foot of the slope opposite to and beneath
-her. What was coming? Had Mr. Pennithorne been warned after all, while
-she had been left in darkness? Her heart seemed to leap into her throat,
-while she stood clasping her hands together to get some strength from
-them, and waiting for the revelation of this new thing, whatever it
-might be.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-THE NEW-COMERS.
-
-
-The cab was loaded with two boxes on the roof, foreign trunks, of a
-different shape from those used at home; and a woman’s face, in a
-fantastic foreign head-dress, peered through the window. Who could this
-be? Mary stood as if spell-bound, unable to make a movement. The driver,
-who was an ordinary cab-driver from Pennington, whose homely
-everydayness of appearance intensified the strangeness of the others,
-opened the door of the carriage, and lifted out, first a small boy, with
-a scared face and a finger in his mouth, who stared at the strange
-place, and the figures in the doorway, with a fixed gaze of panic, on
-the eve of tears. Then out came with a bound, as if pushed from behind
-as well as helped a little roughly by the cabman, the foreign woman, at
-whose dress the child clutched with a frightened cry. Then there was a
-pause, during which some one inside threw out a succession of wraps,
-small bags, and parcels; and then there stepped forth, with a great
-shawl on one arm, and a basket almost as large as herself on the other,
-clearly the leading spirit of the party, a little girl who appeared to
-be about ten years old. “You will wait a moment, man, till we get the
-pay for you,” said this little personage in a high-pitched voice, with a
-distinctness of enunciation which made it apparent that the language,
-though spoken with very little accent, was unfamiliar to her. Then she
-turned to the woman and said a few words much more rapidly, with as much
-aid of gesture as was compatible with the burdens. Mary felt herself
-look on at all this like a woman in a dream. What was it all--a dream or
-reality? She felt incapable of movement, or rather too much interested
-in the curious scene which was going on before her, to think of movement
-or interference of any kind. When she had given her directions, whatever
-they were, the little girl turned round and faced the open door and the
-lady who had not moved. She gave these new circumstances a long, steady,
-investigating look. They were within a dozen yards of each other, but
-the chatelaine stood still and said nothing, while the little invader
-inspected her, and prepared her assault. The child, who looked the
-impersonation of life and purpose between her helpless companion and the
-wondering stranger whom she confronted, was dark and pale, not like the
-fair English children to whom Mary Musgrave was accustomed. Her dark
-eyes seemed out of proportion to her small, colourless face, and gave it
-an eager look of precocious intelligence. Her features were small, her
-dark hair falling about her in half-curling masses, her head covered
-with a little velvet cap trimmed with fur, as unlike anything children
-wore in England at the time as the anxious meaning of her face was
-different from ordinary baby prettiness. She made a momentary
-pause--then put down the basket on the stones, threw the shawl on the
-top of it, and mounted the breach with resolute courage. The stones were
-rough to the little child’s feet; there was a dilation in her eyes that
-looked like coming tears, and as she faced the alarming stranger, who
-stood there looking at her, a burning red flush came momentarily over
-her face. But she neither sat down and cried as she would have liked to
-do, nor ran back again to cling to the nurse’s skirts like her little
-brother. The small thing had a duty to do, and did it with a courage
-which might have put heroes to shame. Resolutely she toiled her way up
-to Miss Musgrave at the open door.
-
-“Are you--Mary?” she said; the little voice was strange yet sweet, with
-its distinct pronunciation and unfamiliar accent. “Are you--Mary?” Her
-big eyes seemed to search the lady all over, making a rapid comparison
-with some description she had received. There was doubt in her tone when
-she repeated the name a second time, and the tears visibly came nearer,
-and got with a shake and tremor into her voice.
-
-“What do you want with Mary?” said Miss Musgrave; “who are you, little
-girl?”
-
-“I do not think you can be Mary,” said the child. “He said your hair was
-like Nello’s, but it is more like his own. And he said you were
-beautiful--so you are beautiful, but old--and he never said you were
-old. Oh, if you are not Mary, what shall we do? what shall we do?”
-
-She clasped her little hands together, and for a moment trembled on the
-edge of a childish outburst, but stopped herself with a sudden curb of
-unmistakable will. “I must think what is to be done,” she cried out
-sharply, putting her little hands upon her trembling mouth.
-
-“Who are you? who are you?” cried Mary Musgrave, trembling in her turn;
-“child, who was it that sent you to me?”
-
-The little thing kept her eyes fixed upon her, with that watchfulness
-which is the only defence of weakness, ready to fly like a little wild
-creature at any approach of danger. She opened a little bag which hung
-by her side and took a letter from it, never taking her great eyes all
-the time from Miss Musgrave’s face. “This was for you, if you were
-Mary,” she said; holding the letter jealously in both hands. “But he
-said, when I spoke to you, if it was you, you would know.”
-
-“You strange little girl!” cried Miss Musgrave, stepping out upon the
-stones and holding out her hands eagerly; but the child made a little
-move backward at the moment, in desperation of fear, yet courage.
-
-“I will not give it you! I will not give it! it is everything we
-have--unless you are Mary,” she cried, with the burst of a suppressed
-sob.
-
-“Who are you then, child? Yes, I am Mary, Mary Musgrave--give me the
-letter. Is not this the house you were told of? Give me the letter--the
-letter!” said Miss Musgrave, once more holding out her hands.
-
-And once more the child made her jealous mental comparison between what
-the lady was, and what she had been told to look for. “I cannot do what
-I please,” she said, with little quivering lips. “I have Nello to take
-care of. He is only such a little, little child. Yes, it is the house he
-told me of; but he said if you were Mary--Ah! he said you would know us
-and take us into your arms, and be so kind, so kind!”
-
-“Little girl,” said Miss Musgrave, the tears dropping from her cheeks.
-“There is only one man’s child that you can be. You are John’s little
-girl, my brother John, and I am his sister Mary. But I do not know your
-name, nor any thing about you. Give me John’s letter--and come to me,
-come to me, my child!”
-
-“I am Lilias,” said the little girl; but she held back, still examining
-with curious though less terrified eyes. “You will give it me back if
-you are not Mary?” she went on, at length holding out the letter; but
-she took no notice of the invitation to come nearer, which Mary herself
-forgot in the eagerness of her anxiety to get the letter, the first
-communication from her brother--if it was from her brother--for so many
-years. She took it quickly, almost snatching it from the child’s
-reluctant fingers, and leaning against the doorway in her agitation,
-tore it hastily open. Little Lilias was agitated too, with fear and
-desolate strangeness, and that terrible ignorance of any alternative
-between safety and utter destruction which makes danger insupportable to
-a child. What were they to do if their claims were not acknowledged?
-Wander into the woods and die in the darkness like the children in the
-story? Little Lilias had feared nothing till that first doubt had come
-over her at the door of the house, where, her father had instructed her,
-she was to be made so happy. But if they were not taken in and made
-happy, what were she and Nello to do? A terror of darkness, and cold,
-and starvation came upon the little girl. She would wrap the big shawl
-about her little brother, but what if wild beasts or robbers should come
-in the middle of the dark? Her little bosom swelled full, the sobs rose
-into her throat. Oh where could she go with Nello, if this was not Mary?
-But she restrained the sobs by a last effort, like a little hero. She
-sat down on the stone edge of the causeway, and held her hands clasped
-tight to keep herself together, and fixed her eyes upon the lady with
-the letter. The lady and the letter swam and changed, through the big
-tears that kept coming, but she never took those great dark, intense
-eyes from Miss Musgrave’s face. The Italian nurse was bending over
-Nello, fully occupied in hushing his little plaints. Nello was tired,
-hungry, sleepy, cold. He had no responsibility upon him, poor little
-mite, to overcome the weakness of nature. He looked no more than six,
-though he was older, a small and delicate child; and he clung to his
-nurse, holding her desperately, afraid of he knew not what. She had
-plenty to do to take care of him without thinking of what was going on
-above; though the woman was indignant to be kept waiting, and cast
-fierce looks, in the intervals of petting Nello, upon the lady, the cold
-Englishwoman who was so long of taking the children to her arms. As for
-the cabman, emblem of the general unconcern which surrounds every
-individual drama, he stood leaning calmly upon his horse, waiting for
-the _dénoûment_, whatever it might be. Miss Musgrave would see him paid
-one way or another, and this was the only thing for which he needed to
-care.
-
-“Lilias,” said Miss Musgrave, going hastily to the child, with tears
-running down her cheeks, “I am your aunt Mary, my darling, and you will
-soon learn to know me. Come and give me a kiss, and bring me your little
-brother. You are tired with your long journey, my poor child.”
-
-“No, no--I am not tired--only Nello; and he is h-hungry. Ah! Kiss Nello,
-Nello--come and kiss him; he is the baby. And are you Mary--real, real
-Mary?” cried the little girl, bursting out into sobs; “oh; I cannot
-h-help it. I did not mean it; I was fr-frightened. Nello, come, come,
-Mary is here.”
-
-“Yes, Mary is here,” said Miss Musgrave, taking the child into her arms,
-who, even while she sobbed against her shoulder, put out an impatient
-little hand and beckoned, crying, “Nello! Nello!” But it was not so easy
-to extract Nello from his nurse’s arms. He cried and clung all the
-faster from hearing his sister’s outburst; their poor little hearts were
-full; and what chokings of vague misery, the fatigue and discomfort
-infinitely deepened by a dumb consciousness of loneliness, danger, and
-strangeness behind, were in these little inarticulate souls! something
-more desperate in its inability to understand what it feared, its dim
-anguish of uncomprehension, than anything that can be realized and
-fathomed. Mary signed eagerly to the nurse to bring the little boy
-indoors into the hall, which was not a reassuring place, vast and dark
-as it was, in the dimness of the evening, to a child. But she had too
-many difficulties on her hands in this strange crisis to think of that.
-She had the boxes brought in also, and hastily sent the carriage away,
-with a desperate sense as of burning her ships, and leaving no possible
-way to herself of escape from the difficulty. The gardener, who had
-appeared round the corner, attracted by the sound, presented himself as
-much out of curiosity as of goodwill to assist in carrying in the boxes,
-“though it would be handiest to drive round to the front door, and tak’
-them straight oop t’ stair,” he said, innocently enough. But when Miss
-Musgrave gave authoritative directions that they were to be brought into
-the hall, naturally the gardener was surprised. This was a proceeding
-entirely unheard of, and not to be understood in any way.
-
-“It’ll be a deal more trouble after,” he said, under his breath, which
-did not matter much. But when he had obeyed his mistress’s orders, he
-went round to the kitchen full of the new event. “There’s something
-oop,” the gardener said, delighted to bring so much excitement with him,
-and he gave a full account of the two pale little children, the foreign
-woman with skewers stuck in her hair, and finally, most wonderful of
-all, the boxes which he had deposited with his own hands on the floor of
-the hall. “I ken nothing about it,” he said, “but them as has been
-longer aboot t’ house than me could tell a deal if they pleased; and
-Miss Brown, it’s her as is wanted,” he added leisurely at the end.
-
-Miss Brown, who was Mary Musgrave’s maid, and had been standing
-listening to his story with frequent contradictions and denials, in a
-state of general protestation, started at these words.
-
-“You great gaby,” she said, “why didn’t you say so at first?” and
-hurried out of the kitchen, not indisposed to get at the bottom of the
-matter. She had been Miss Musgrave’s favourite attendant for twenty
-years, and in that time had, as may be supposed, known about many things
-which her superiors believed locked in the depths of their own bosoms.
-She could have written the private history of the family with less
-inaccuracy than belongs to most records of secret history. And she was
-naturally indignant that Tom Gardener, a poor talkative creature, who
-could keep nothing to himself, should have known this new and startling
-event sooner than she did. She hurried through the long passage from the
-kitchen, casting a stealthy glance in passing at the closed door of the
-library, where the Squire sat unconscious. A subdued delight was in the
-mind of the old servant; certainly it is best when there are no
-mysteries in a family, when all goes well--but it is not so amusing. A
-great event of which it was evident the squire was in ignorance, which
-probably would have to be kept from him, and as much as possible from
-the household--well, it might be unfortunate that such things should be,
-but it was exciting, it woke people up.
-
-Miss Brown obeyed this summons with more genuine alacrity than she had
-felt for years.
-
-Very different were the feelings of her mistress standing there in the
-dimness of the old hall, her frame thrilling and her heart aching with
-the appeal which her brother had made to her, out of a silence which for
-more than a dozen years had been unbroken as that of the grave. She
-could scarcely believe yet that she had seen his very handwriting and
-read words which came straight from him and were signed by his now
-unfamiliar name. The children, who crouched together frightened by the
-darkness, were as phantoms to her, like a dream about which she had just
-got into the stage of doubt. Till now it had been all real to her, as
-dreams appear at first. But now, she stood, closing the door in the
-stillness of the evening, which, still as it was, was full of curiosity
-and questioning and prying eyes, and asked herself if these little
-figures were real, or inventions of her fancy. Real children of her
-living brother--was it true, was it possible? They were awe-stricken by
-the gathering dusk, by the strange half-empty room, by the dim circle of
-the unknown which surrounded them on every side. The nurse had put
-herself upon a chair on the edge of the carpet, where she sat holding
-the little boy on her knee, while little Lilias, who had backed slowly
-towards this one familiar figure, stood leaning against her, clutching
-her also with one hand, though she concealed instinctively this sign of
-fear. The boy withdrew the wondering whiteness of his face from the
-nurse’s shoulder now and then to give a frightened, fascinated look
-around, then buried it again in a dumb trance of dismay and terror, too
-frightened to cry. What was to be done with these frightened children
-and the strange woman to whom they clung? Mary could not keep them here
-to send them wild with alarm. They wanted soft beds, warm fires,
-cheerful lights, food and comfort, and they had come to seek it in the
-only house in the world which was closed by a curse and a vow against
-them. Mary Musgrave was not the kind of woman who is easily frightened
-by vows or curses; there was none of the romantic folly in her which
-would believe in the reality of an unjust or uncalled-for malediction.
-But she was persuaded of the reality of a thing which involved no
-supernatural mysteries, the obstinancy of her father’s mind, and his
-determination to hold by the verdict he had given. Years move and change
-everything, even the hills and the seas--but not the narrow mind of an
-obstinate and selfish man. She did not call him by these names; he was
-her father and she did not judge him; but no more did she hope in him.
-And in this wonderful moment a whole circle of possibilities ran through
-her mind. She might take them to the village; but there were other
-dangers there; or to the Parsonage, but Mr. Pen was weak and poor Emily
-a gossip. Could she dare the danger that was nearest, and take them
-somehow upstairs out of the way, and conceal them there, defying her
-father? In whatever way it was settled she would not desert them--but
-what was she to do? Miss Brown coming upon her suddenly in the dusk
-frightened her almost as much as the children were frightened. The want
-of light and the strangeness of the crisis combined made every new
-figure like a ghost.
-
-“Yes, I sent for you. I am in--difficulty, Martha. These children have
-just come--the children of a friend----” Her first idea was to conceal
-the real state of the case even from her confidential and well-informed
-maid.
-
-“Dear me,” said Miss Brown, with seeming innocence. “How strange! to
-bring a little lady and gentleman without any warning. But I’ll go and
-give orders, ma’am; there are plenty of rooms vacant, there need not be
-any difficulty----”
-
-Miss Musgrave caught her by the arm.
-
-“What I want for the moment is light, and some food _here_. Bring me the
-lamp I always use. No, not Eastwood; never mind Eastwood. I want you to
-bring it, they will be less afraid in the light.”
-
-“There is a fire in the dining-room, ma’am, it is only a step, and
-Eastwood is lighting the candles; and there you can have what you like
-for them.”
-
-It was confidence Miss Brown wanted--nothing but confidence. With that
-she was ready to do anything; without it she was Miss Musgrave’s
-respectable maid, to whom all mysteries were more or less improper. She
-crossed her hands firmly and waited. The room was growing darker and
-darker every minute, and the foreign nurse began to lose patience. She
-called “Madame! madame!” in a high voice; then poured forth into a
-stream of words, so rapid and so loud as both mistress and maid thought
-they had never heard spoken before. Miss Musgrave was not a great
-linguist. She knew enough to be aware that it was Italian the woman was
-speaking, but that was all.
-
-“I do not understand you,” she said in distress, going up to the little
-group. But as she approached a sudden accession of terror, instantly
-suppressed on the part of the little girl but irrepressible by the
-younger boy, and which broke forth in a disjointed way, arrested her
-steps. Were they afraid of her, these children? “Little Lilias,” she
-said piteously, “be a brave child and stand by me. I cannot take you out
-of this cold room yet, but lights are coming and you will be taken care
-of. If I leave you alone for a little while will you promise me to be
-brave and not to be afraid?”
-
-There was a pause, broken only by little flutterings of that nervous
-exhaustion which made the children so accessible to fear. Then a small
-voice said, dauntless, yet with a falter--
-
-“I will stay. I will not be afraid.”
-
-“Thank God,” said Mary Musgrave, to herself. The child was already a
-help and assistance. “Martha,” she said hastily, “tell no one; they
-are--my brother’s children--”
-
-“Good Lord!” said Martha Brown, frightened out of her primness. “And
-it’s dark, and there’s two big boxes, and master don’t know.”
-
-“That is the worst of all,” said Miss Musgrave sadly. She had never
-spoken to any one of her father’s inexorable verdict against John and
-all belonging to him. “The heir! and I must not take him into the house
-of his fathers! Take care of them, take care of them while I go---- And,
-Martha, say nothing--not a word.”
-
-“Not if they were to cut me in pieces, ma’am!” said Miss Brown
-fervently. She was too old a servant to work in the dark; but confidence
-restored all her faculties to her. It was not, however, in the nature of
-things that she should discharge her commission without a betrayal more
-or less of the emergency. “I want some milk, please,” she said to the
-cook, “for my lady.” It was only in moments of importance that she so
-spoke of her mistress. And the very sound of her step told a tale.
-
-“I told ye there was somethink oop,” said Tom Gardener, still lingering
-in the kitchen.
-
-And to see how the house brightened up, and all the servants grew alert
-in the flutter of this novelty! Nothing had happened at the castle for
-so long--they had a right to a sensation. Cook, who had been there for a
-long time, recounted her experience to her assistants in low tones of
-mystery.
-
-“Ah, if ye’d known the place when the gentlemen was at home,” said cook;
-“the things as happened in t’auld house--such goings on!--coming in late
-and early--o’er the watter and o’er the land--and the strivings, that
-was enough to make a body flee out of their skin!” She ended with a
-regretful sigh for the old times. “That was life, that was!” she said.
-
-Meanwhile Mary Musgrave came in out of the dark hall into the lighted
-warmth of the dining-room, where the glass and the silver shone red in
-the firelight. How cosy and pleasant it was there! how warm and
-cheerful! Just the place to comfort the children and make them forget
-their miseries. The children! How easily her mind had undertaken the
-charge of them--the fact of their existence; already they had become the
-chief feature in her life. She paused to look at herself in the mirror
-over the mantelpiece, to smooth her hair, and put the ribbon straight at
-her neck. The Squire was “very particular,” and yet she did not remember
-to have had this anxious desire to be pleasant to his eyes since that
-day when she had crept to him to implore a reversal of his sentence. She
-had obtained nothing from him then; would she be more fortunate now? The
-colour had gone out of her face, but her eyes were brighter and more
-resolute than usual. How her heart beat when Mr. Musgrave said, “Come
-in,” calmly from the midst of his studies, as she knocked trembling at
-the library door!
-
-
-
-
-PART II.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-AFTER THE SILENCE OF YEARS.
-
-
-“Come in,” said the Squire. He was sitting among his books, working with
-such a genuine sense of importance as was strange to see. Mary did not
-know that she thought anything in the world (except this present mission
-of hers) so important as he thought his search into the heraldic
-fortunes of the family. He was in full cry after a certain
-“augmentation” which had got into the Musgrave arms no one well knew
-how. It was only the Musgraves of Penninghame who bore this distinction,
-and how did they come by it? It appeared in the thirteenth century--in
-the age of the Crusades. Was it in recollection of some feat of a
-Crusader?--that was the question. He put down his pen and laid one open
-book upon another as she came in. He had no consciousness in his mind to
-make him critical or inquiring. He did not observe her paleness, nor the
-special glitter in her eyes. “I am busy,” he said, “so you must be
-brief. I think I have got hold of that ‘chief’ at last. After years of
-search it is exciting to find the first trace of it; but perhaps it is
-best to wait till I have verified my guesses--they are still not much
-more than guesses. What a satisfaction it will be when all is clear!”
-
-“I am glad you are to have this satisfaction, papa.”
-
-“Yes, I know you take little interest in it for itself. Ladies seldom
-do; though I can’t tell why, for heraldry ought to be an interesting
-science to them and quite within their reach. Nothing has happened about
-the dinner, I hope? I notice that is your general subject when you come
-into my room so late. Law business in the morning, dinner in the
-evening--a very good distribution. But I want a good dinner to-night, my
-dear, to celebrate my success.”
-
-“It is not about dinner. Father, we have been living a very quiet life
-for many years.”
-
-“Thank Heaven!” said the old man. “Yes, a quiet life. A man of my age is
-entitled to it, Mary. I never shrank from exertion in my time, nor do I
-now, as this will testify.” He laid his hand with a genial complaisance
-upon the half-written paper that lay before him. Then he said with a
-smile, “But make haste, my dear. There is still an hour before dinner,
-and I am in the spirit of my work. We need not occupy our time, you and
-I, with general remarks.”
-
-“I did not mean it for a general remark,” she said with a tremble in her
-voice. “It is that I have something important--very important to speak
-of, and I don’t know how to begin.”
-
-“Important--very important!” he said, with the indulgence of jocular
-superiority for a child’s undue gravity. “I know what these important
-matters are. Some poaching rascal that you don’t know how to manage, or
-a quarrel in the village? Bring them to me: but bring them to-morrow,
-Mary, when my mind is at rest--I cannot give my attention now.”
-
-“It is neither poaching nor quarrelling,” she said. “I can manage the
-village. There are other things. Father, though we have been quiet for
-so many years, it is not because there has been nothing to think of--no
-seeds of trouble in the past--no anxieties----”
-
-“I don’t know what you are thinking of,” he said, pettishly. “No
-anxieties? A man has them as long as he is in the world. We are mortal.
-Seeds of trouble? I have told you, Mary, that you may spare me general
-remarks.”
-
-“Oh, nothing was further from my mind than general remarks,” she cried.
-“I don’t know how to speak. Father--look here--read it; it will tell its
-own story best. This is what, after the silence of years, I have
-received to-day.”
-
-“The silence of years!” said the Squire. He had to fumble for his
-spectacles, which he had taken off, though he carefully restrained
-himself from betraying any special interest. A red colour had mounted to
-his face. Perhaps his mind did not go so far as to divine what it was;
-but still a sudden glimmering, like the tremble of pale light before the
-dawn, had come into his mind.
-
-And this was the thunderbolt that suddenly fell upon him in his
-quietness after the silence of years:--
-
- “My dear Sister Mary,--This will be given to you by my little
- daughter Lilias. The sight of my handwriting and of the children
- will be enough to startle you, so that I need not try to soften the
- shock which you must have already received. I claim from my father
- shelter for my children. Their mother is dead; so are the others of
- my family whose very names will never be known to my nearest
- relations. Never mind that now. I am a man both sick and sorry,
- worn by the world, lonely, and not much better than an adventurer.
- These children are the last of our race, and the boy, however
- reluctant you may be, is my father’s heir. I claim for them the
- shelter of the family roof. I have no home to give them, nor can I
- give them the care they require. Mary, you are a good woman: you
- are blameless one way or another. I charge you with my children.
- God do so to you and more also, according as you deal with them.
- Some time or other before I die I will drag myself home. That you
- may be sure of, unless God cuts short my life by the way, of which,
- if He will, I shall not complain.
-
- “Your brother,
-
- “JOHN MUSGRAVE.”
-
-
-
-This was the letter which the Squire placed upon his mouldy books, over
-the statement he had been writing. He did not speak, but read it
-steadily to the end, betraying no emotion except by the glow of colour
-that rose over his weather-beaten face. Who that has sat by, anxious,
-watching the effect of such a letter, needs to be told with what intense
-observation Mary Musgrave noted every sign of the rigid control he kept
-upon himself--the tight clutch of one hand upon the table, the tremor of
-the other which held the letter? But the Squire said nothing, not even
-when he had visibly come to the end. He held it before him still for
-some minutes; then he began to fold it elaborately--but said nothing
-still. The shadow of his head with its falling locks of white hair shook
-a little upon the wall. There is a peculiar tremble which shows the very
-severity of restraint, and this was of that kind.
-
-“Father! have you nothing to say?”
-
-“I thought it was a subject put aside, not to be mentioned between us,”
-he said. “I may be wrong--if I am wrong you can inform me; but I
-supposed this and all cognate subjects to be closed between us----”
-
-“How can this be closed; I have ceased to importune you, but this is a
-new opening. And there is more than the letter--the children----”
-
-“Ah!” He gave a slight cry. If he could it would have been an
-exclamation of scorn, but this was too much for him; the cry was sharp
-with impatient pain.
-
-“I could not keep _them_ a secret from you, father.”
-
-“I hate secrets,” he said; “nevertheless there are few families in which
-they are not necessary. When he had said this he pushed the letter
-towards her, drew forward his heraldry books, and took his pen in his
-hand.
-
-“Will you say nothing to me?” she cried. “Will you give me no answer?
-What am I to do?”
-
-“Do! It seems to me quite an unnecessary question. It is a long time
-since I have given up exercising any control over you, Mary,” he said.
-
-“But, father, have a little pity. The house is not mine to do as I like
-with.”
-
-“That is unfortunate,” he said with a cold precision which made it
-doubtful whether he spoke satirically or in earnest. “But it is not my
-fault. You cannot expect me to make place voluntarily for another; and
-even if I did, as you are a woman, it would be of very little use to
-you. You cannot be the heir----”
-
-“And this boy is!” she said with a gesture of appeal.
-
-Mr. Musgrave said nothing. He shook his head impatiently, pushed the
-letter to her with an energy that flung it into her lap, and resumed his
-writing. She stood by while he deliberately returned to his description
-of the “chief,” turning up a page in his heraldry book, where all the
-uses and meanings of that “augmentation” were discussed. According to
-all appearance his mind took up this important question exactly where he
-had left it; and he resumed his writing steadily, betraying agitation
-only by a larger, bolder, and firmer handwriting than usual. His
-daughter stood for a moment by his side, and watched him
-speechless--then went out of the room without another word. The Squire
-went on writing for a full minute more. The lines he wrote had not been
-so bold, so firm, so well-defined for years. Was it because he had to
-put forth the whole force that remained in him, soul and body, to get
-them upon the paper at all? When all sound of her departing steps had
-died out, he stopped suddenly, and, putting down his pen, let his head
-drop upon the open book and its figured page. An augmentation of honour!
-The days were over in which such gifts came from heralds and kings. And
-instead, here were struggles of a very different kind from those which
-won new blazons. But the most insensible, the most self-controlled of
-men, could not take such an interruption of his studies with absolute
-calm. He had never been in such desperate conflict with any man as with
-this son, and here his enemy, whom nature forbade to be his enemy, his
-antagonist, had come again after the silence of years and confronted
-him. To see such a one pass by could not but excite a certain emotion;
-but to meet him thus as it were face to face! The passion of parental
-love has been often portrayed. There is no passion more fervent, none
-perhaps even that can equal it; but there is another passion scarcely
-less intense--that which rises involuntarily in the bosom of a man
-between whom and his son there are no ties of mutual dependence, when
-the younger has become as the elder, knowing good and evil, and all the
-experiences of life; when there is no longer any question of authority
-and obedience, and natural affection yields to a strain of feeling which
-is too strong for it. Many long years had passed now since young
-Musgrave ceased to be his father’s pride and boyish second in
-everything. He had grown a man, his equal, and had resisted and held his
-own in the conflict half a lifetime ago. All the embitterment which
-close relationship gives to a deadly quarrel had been between them, and
-though the father had so far got the better as to drive the rebel out of
-his sight, he had not crushed his will or removed him from his
-standing-ground. He was the victor, though the vanquished. His son had
-not yielded, nor would ever yield. When Mr. Musgrave raised his head his
-face was pale, and his head shook with a nervous tremor; all the broken
-redness of his cheeks shone like pencilled lines through his pallor,
-increasing it. “This will never do,” he said to himself, and rising,
-went to an old oak cupboard in the corner, and poured himself a small
-glass of the strongest of liqueurs. Not for all that remained of the
-Musgrave property would he have shown himself so broken, so overcome.
-This other man who was no younger, but only stronger than himself, was
-at the same time his successor, ready to push him out of his seat;
-waiting for a triumph that must come sooner or later. He had been able
-to forget all about him for years; to thrust out the thought of him when
-it recurred; but here the man stood once more confronting him. The
-Squire was wise in his way, and knew that there was nothing in the world
-so bad for the health, or so likely to give his antagonist an advantage,
-as the indulgence of emotion--therefore he crushed it “upon the
-threshold of the mind.” He would not give him so much help towards the
-inevitable eventual triumph. He went back to his writing-table when he
-had fortified himself with that potent mouthful; but, knowing himself,
-tried his pen upon a stray bit of paper before he would resume his
-writing. What he wrote was in the quivering lines of old age. He tore it
-into pieces. No one should see such a sign of agitation in the
-manuscript which was to last longer than he. He took up the most learned
-of his books, and began to read with close attention. Here, at all
-events, the adversary should not get the better of him; or, at least, if
-thoughts did surge and rise, obliterating the old escutcheon altogether
-and the lion on its “chief,” nobody should be the wiser.
-
-Thus the old man sat, with a desperate courage worthy a better object,
-and mastered the furious excitement in his mind. But he was not thinking
-of the children as perhaps the reader of this story may suppose. He was
-not resisting the thrill of natural interest, the softening of heart
-which might have attended that sudden arrival. He did not even realize
-the existence of the children. His thoughts were of conflicts past, and
-of the opponent against whom he had striven so often: the opponent whom
-he could not altogether dismiss or get rid of, his rival, his heir, his
-successor, his son. There was nothing he had wished as a father, as a
-Musgrave, as the head of a great county family, which this man had not
-done his best to undo: and as he had by ill-fortune thirty years the
-advantage of his father, there was no doubt that he would, some time or
-other, undo and destroy to an extent of which he was incapable now;
-unless indeed he was prevented in the most disgraceful way,
-incapacitated by public conviction of crime--conviction, which was only
-too probable, which hung over his banished head and prevented his return
-home. What would there be but pain in the thought of such a son--an
-opponent if he were innocent, if he were guilty a disgrace to the family
-name? The more completely the Squire could banish this thought from his
-mind, the happier he was; and he had banished it with wonderful success
-for many years past. He had done all he could to evade the idea that he
-himself would one day be compelled to die. Many men do this who have no
-painful consciousness of the heir behind who is waiting to dispossess
-them; and Mr. Musgrave had, to a great degree, attained tranquillity on
-this point. The habit of living seems to grow stronger with men as they
-draw near the end of their lives. It has lasted so long; it has been so
-steady and uninterrupted, why should it ever cease? But here was the
-death’s-head rising at the feast; the executioner giving note of his
-presence behind backs. John! he had dismissed him from his mind. He had
-exercised even a kind of Christianity in forgetting him. But here he was
-again, incapable of being forgotten. What a tremor in his blood--what
-undue working of all that machinery of the heart which it was so
-essential to keep in calm good order had this interruption caused! he
-who had no vital energy to spare; who wanted it all for daily comfort
-and that continuance which with younger people is so lightly taken for
-granted. How much of that precious reserve had been consumed by this
-shock! It had been done on purpose, perhaps, to try what the effect of
-such a shock upon his nerves and fibres would be.
-
-Mr. Musgrave pushed back his chair again from the table, and gave all
-his faculties to the task of calming himself down. He would not allow
-himself to be overcome by John. But it took him a long time to
-accomplish this, to get his pulse back to its usual rate of beating.
-When he relaxed for a moment in his watch over himself, old
-recollections would come back, scenes of the long warfare, words that
-were as swords and smote him over again with burning and stinging
-wounds. He had to calm it all down and still memory altogether if he
-would recover his ordinary composure. It wanted about an hour of dinner
-when he began this process. Up to that time it did not so much matter
-except for wearing him out and diminishing his strength. But it was his
-determination that no one should know or see this agitation which he had
-not been able to master. His daughter thought she had a harder task
-before her when she left him and hurried back to the ghostly
-half-lighted hall where she had left the children; but what was her
-work, or the commotion of her thoughts, in comparison to that which
-raged within the bosom of the old man in his solitude, defying Heaven
-and nature, and all gentler influences--whose conflict was for himself
-only, as it was carried on unhelped and unthought of by himself alone?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-WAKING UP.
-
-
-Miss Musgrave went back to her visitors with a heightened colour and
-assured step. Her alarm had departed along with her wistful and hopeful
-ignorance as to what her father might do. Now that she knew, her courage
-came back to her. When she opened the door which led out of the little
-passage into the hall, the scene before her was striking and strange
-enough to arrest her like a picture. The great ancient room, with its
-high raftered roof and wide space, lay in darkness--all but one bright
-spot in the midst where the lamp stood on the table. Miss Brown had
-hastily arranged a kind of homely meal, a basket of oatcakes, some white
-bread in a napkin, biscuits, home-made gingerbread, and a jug of fresh
-milk. The white and brown bread, the tall white jug, the cloth upon the
-tray, all helped to increase the whiteness of that spot in the gloom.
-In the midst of this light sat the Italian nurse, dark and vigorous,
-with the silver pins in her black hair, and red ribbons at her breast.
-The pale little boy sat on her knee; he had a little fair head like an
-angel in a picture, light curling hair, and a delicate complexion, white
-and red, which was fully relieved against that dark background. The
-child’s alarm had given way a little, but still, in the intervals of his
-meal, he would pause, look round him into the gloom, and clutch with
-speechless fright at his attendant, who held him close and soothed him
-with all the soft words she could think of. Little Lilias stood by her
-on the further side, sufficiently recovered to eat a biscuit, but
-securing herself also, brave as she was, by a firm grasp of the nurse’s
-arm to which she hung, tightly embracing it with her own. Miss Brown was
-flitting about this strange little group, talking continuously, though
-the only one among them who was disposed to talk could not understand
-her, and the children were too worn out to pay any attention to what she
-said.
-
-There was a little start and thrill among the three who held so closely
-together when the lady returned. Little Lilias put down her biscuit. She
-became the head of the party as soon as Miss Musgrave came back--the
-plenipotentiary with whom to conduct all negotiations. Nello, on the
-other hand, buried his head in his nurse’s shoulder. In the midst of all
-her agitation and confusion it troubled Miss Musgrave that the child
-should hide his face from her. The boy who was like herself and her
-family was the one to whom her interest turned most. Lilias bore another
-resemblance, which was no passport to Mary Musgrave’s heart. Yet it was
-hard to resist the fascination of this child’s sense and courage; the
-boy, as yet, had shown himself capable of nothing but fear.
-
-“Go, and have fires lighted at once in the two west rooms--make
-everything ready,” Mary said, sending Miss Brown away peremptorily. It
-was not a worthy feeling perhaps, but it vexed her, agitated as she was,
-to see that her maid woke no alarm in the children, while she, their
-nearest relation, she who, if necessary, had made up her mind to
-sacrifice everything for them, was an object of fear. She thought even
-that the children clung closer to their nurse and shrank more from
-herself when Martha was sent away. Miss Musgrave stood at the other side
-of the table and looked at them with many conflicting thoughts. It was
-altogether new to her, this strange mixture of ignorance and wonder, and
-almost awe, with which she felt herself contemplating these unknown
-little creatures, henceforward to be wholly dependent upon her. They
-were afraid of her, but she was scarcely less afraid of them, wondering
-with an ache in her heart whether she would be able to feel towards them
-as she ought, to bring her middle-aged thoughts into sympathy with
-theirs, to be soft and gentle with them as their helplessness demanded.
-Love does not always come with the first claim upon it; how was she to
-love them, little unknown beings whose very existence she had never
-heard of before? And Mary thought of herself with a certain pity in this
-strange moment, remembering almost with a sense of injury that the
-fountain of mother’s love had never been awakened in her at all. Was it
-thus to be awakened? She was not an angelic woman, as poor Mr. Pen
-imagined her to be. She knew this well enough, though he did not know
-it. She had been young and full of herself when the family misfortunes
-happened, and since then what had there been in her life to warm or
-awaken the heart? Was she capable of loving? she asked herself; was
-there not a chill atmosphere about her which breathed cold upon the
-children and drove them away? This thought gave her a pang, as she stood
-and looked at the two helpless creatures before her, too frightened now
-to munch their biscuits, one gazing at her with big pathetic eyes, the
-other hiding his face. An ache of helplessness and pain not less great
-than theirs came into her mind. She was as helpless as they were,
-looking at them across the table, as if across a world of separation
-which she did not know how to bridge over, with not only them to
-vanquish, but herself. At last she put out her hands with the sense of
-weakness, such as perhaps she had never felt before. She had not been
-able, indeed, to influence her father, but she had not felt helpless
-before him; on the contrary, his hardness had stirred her to
-determination on her side, and a sense of power which quickened the
-flowing of her blood. But before these children she felt helpless; what
-was she to do with them, how bring herself into communication with them?
-She put out her hands--hands strong to guard, but powerless she thought
-to attract. “Lilias, will you come to me?” she said with a tremulous
-tone in her voice.
-
-The weariness, the strangeness, the darkness had been almost too much
-for Lilias; her mouthful of biscuit and draught of milk had been too
-quickly interrupted by the return of the strange, beautiful lady, with
-whom she alone, she was aware, could deal. And she could not respond to
-that appeal without quitting hold of Martuccia, who, though powerless to
-treat with the lady, was still a safeguard against the surrounding
-blackness, a something to cling to. But the child was brave as a hero,
-notwithstanding the nervous susceptibility of her nature. She disengaged
-her arm slowly from her one stay, keeping her eyes all the time fixed
-upon Miss Musgrave, half attracted by her, half to keep herself from
-seeing those dark corners in which mysterious dangers seemed to lurk;
-and came forward, repressing the sob that rose in her throat, her little
-pale face growing crimson with the strain of resolution which this
-effort cost her. It was all Lilias could do to move round the table
-quietly, not to make a rush of fright and violent clutch at the hand
-held out to her--even though it was the hand of a stranger, from which
-in itself she shrank. Mary put her arm round the little trembling
-figure, and smoothing away the dark hair from her forehead, kissed the
-little girl with lips that trembled too. She would do her duty by her;
-never would she forsake her brother’s child; and with the warmth of this
-resolution tears of pity and tenderness came into her eyes. But when
-Lilias felt the protection of the warm soft arm about her, and the
-tenderness of the kiss, her little heart burst forth with a strength of
-impulse which put all laws at defiance. With a sobbing cry she threw
-herself upon her new protector, caught at her dress, clung to her waist,
-nestled her head into her bosom, with a close pressure which was half
-gratitude, half terror, half nervous excitement. Mary was taken by
-storm. She did not understand the change that came over her. A sudden
-warmth seemed to come into her veins, tingling to her very
-finger-points. She too, mature and self-restrained as she was, began to
-weep, a sudden flood of tears rushing to her eyes against her will. “My
-child, my brave little girl!” she said almost unawares, recognising in
-her heart a soft surprise of feeling which was inexplicable; was this
-what nature did, sheer nature? she had never felt anything like it
-before. She held the child in her arms and cried over her, the tears
-falling over those dark curls which had nothing to do with the
-Musgraves, which even resembled another type with which the Musgraves
-would have nothing to do!
-
-As she stood thus overcome by the double sensation of the child’s
-nestling and clinging, and by the strange, sudden development of feeling
-in herself, Mary Musgrave felt two soft touches upon her hand which were
-not mistakable, and which made her start and flush, with the decorum of
-an Englishwoman surprised. It was Martuccia, who, moved like all her
-race by quick impulses of emotion, had risen hastily to her feet in
-sympathy, and had kissed the lady’s hand, and put forward her little
-charge to perform the same act of homage. This roused Mary from her
-momentary breaking down. She took the little boy by the hand whom she
-found at her feet, not quite so frightened as at first, but still
-holding fast by the nurse’s skirts, and led them both into the house.
-They were too much awed to make any noise, but went with her, keeping
-close to her, treading in her footsteps almost, closer and closer as
-they emerged into one unknown place after another. Wonder kept them
-still as she took them through the cheerful lighted dining-room, and up
-the stairs. Eastwood was busy about his table, putting it in that
-perfect order which it was his pride to keep up (“For who is more to me
-nor my family? what’s company?” said Eastwood; “it’s them as pays me as
-I’m bound to please”); but Eastwood was too good a servant to manifest
-any feeling. He had, of course, heard all about the arrival, not only
-from the gardener, but from every one in the kitchen; and he was aware,
-as nobody else was, that there had been a private interview between the
-father and daughter, to which she had gone with a pale face, and come
-back with nostrils expanded, and a glow of resolution upon her. Eastwood
-was not an old servant, but he had learned all that there was to learn
-about the family, and a little more. His interest in the Musgraves was
-not so warm as that of cook for instance, who had been born in the
-place, and had known them from their cradles; but he had the warm
-curiosity which is common to his kind. He gave a glance from beneath his
-eyebrows at the new-comers, wondering what was to become of them. Would
-they be received into the house for good; and if so, would that have any
-effect upon himself, Eastwood? would it, by and by, be an increase of
-trouble, a something additional to do? He was no worse than his
-neighbours, and the thought was instinctive and natural, for no one
-likes to have additional labour. “But he’s but a little chap; it’ll be
-long enough before he wants valeting--if ever,” Mr. Eastwood said to
-himself. What would be wanted would be a nurse, not a valet; and if that
-black-eyed foreigner didn’t stay, Eastwood knew a nice girl from the
-village whom the place would just suit. So he cast no unkindly eye upon
-the children as he went noiselessly about in his spotless coat, putting
-down his forks, which were quite as spotless. The sight of the table
-with its bouquet of autumn flowers excited Lilias. “Who is going to dine
-there?” she said, with a pretty childish wile, drawing down Miss
-Musgrave towards her to whisper in her ear.
-
-“I am, Lilias.”
-
-“May we come too?” said the little girl. “Nello is very good--he does
-not ask for anything; we know how to behave.”
-
-“There will be some one else besides me,” said Mary, faltering slightly.
-
-“Then we do not want to come,” said Lilias with decision. “We are not
-fond of strangers.”
-
-“I am a stranger, dear----”
-
-“Oh no, you are Mary!” said the child, embracing Miss Musgrave’s arm
-with her own two arms clasped round it, and raising her face with the
-confidence of perfect trust. These simple actions made Mary’s heart
-swell as it had not done for years--as indeed it had never done in her
-life. Other thrills there might have been in her day, but this fountain
-had never been opened before, and the new feeling was almost as
-strangely sweet to her as is the silent ecstasy in the bosom of the new
-mother, whose baby has just brought into the world such an atmosphere
-of love. It was like some strange new stream poured into her heart,
-filling up all her veins.
-
-The firelight had already begun to sparkle pleasantly in the bedrooms,
-and Mary found herself suddenly plunged into those pleasant cares of a
-mother which make time fly so swiftly. She had found so much to do for
-them, getting them to bed and making the weary little creatures
-comfortable, that the bell rang for dinner before she was aware. She
-left them hastily, and put herself into her evening gown with a speed
-which was anxiously seconded by Miss Brown, who for her part was just as
-eager to get back to the children as was her mistress. Miss Musgrave did
-not know what awaited her when she went down-stairs, or what battles she
-might have to fight. She had another duty now in the world beyond that
-claimed by her father. He had no such need of her as these children, who
-in all the wide world had no protector or succour but herself. Her heart
-beat a little louder and stronger than usual; her bearing was more
-dignified. The indifference which had been in her life this morning had
-passed away. How strange it seemed now to think of that calm which
-nothing affected much, in which she had been comparatively happy, but
-which now appeared so mean and poverty-stricken. The easy quiet had gone
-out of her life;--was it for ever?--and instead there had come in a
-commotion of anxieties, hopes, and doubts and questions manifold; but
-yet how miserable to her in comparison seemed now that long loveless
-tranquillity! She was another woman, a living woman, she thought to
-herself, bearing the natural burden of care, a burden sweetened by a
-hundred budding tendernesses and consolations. It is well to have good
-health and enough to do; these had been the bare elements of existence,
-out of which she had managed to form a cold version of living; but how
-different was this vivid existence, new-born yet eternal, of love and
-care! She was like one inspired. If she had been offered the
-alternative, as she almost expected, of leaving the house or giving up
-the children, with what pride would she have drawn her cloak round her
-and left her father’s house! This prospect seemed near enough and likely
-enough as she walked into the dining-room, with her head high, and a
-swell of conscious force in her bosom. Whatever might be coming she was
-prepared for any blow.
-
-Mr. Musgrave, too, was late. He who was the soul of punctuality did not
-enter the room for a minute or more after his daughter had hastened
-there, knowing herself late--but whereas she had hurried her toilet, his
-had never been more careful and precise. He took his seat with
-deliberate steadiness, and insisted upon carving the mutton and
-partridge which made their meal, though on ordinary occasions he left
-this office to Eastwood. It gratified him, however, to-day, to prove to
-himself and to her how capable he was and how steady were his nerves.
-And he talked while he did this with unusual energy, going over again
-all the history of the “chief.”
-
-“I hope it will interest the general reader,” he said. “Not many family
-questions do, but this is really an elucidation of history. It throws
-light upon a great many things. You scorn heraldry, Mary, I am aware.”
-
-“No, I do not think I scorn it.”
-
-“Well, at all events you are little interested; the details are not of
-much importance, you think. In short, I suspect,” he added, with a
-little laugh, “that if the truth were told, you and a great many other
-ladies secretly look upon the science as one of those play-sciences that
-keep men from being troublesome. You don’t say so, but I believe you
-think we fuss and make work for ourselves in this way while you are
-carrying on the real work of the world.”
-
-“I am not so self-important,” she said; but there was a great deal of
-truth in the suggestion if her mind had been free enough to think of it.
-What was it else but a play-science to keep country gentlemen too old
-for fox-hunting out of mischief? This is one of the private opinions of
-the gynecæum applying to many grave pursuits, an opinion which
-circulates there in strictest privacy and is not spoken to the world.
-Mary would have smiled at the Squire’s discrimination had her mind been
-free. As it was, she could do nothing but wonder at his liveliness and
-composure, and say to herself that he must be waiting till Eastwood went
-away. This, no doubt, was why he talked so much, and was so genial. He
-did not wish to betray anything to the man, and her heart began to beat
-once more with renewed force as the moment came for his withdrawal. No
-doubt the discussion she feared would come, and most likely come with
-double severity then. She had seen all this process gone through before.
-
-But when Eastwood went away the Squire continued smiling and
-conversational. He told her of a poacher who had been brought to him, a
-bumpkin from a distant farm, to whom he meant to be merciful; and of
-some land which was likely to be in the market, which would, if it could
-be got, restore an old corner of the estate and rectify the ancient
-boundary.
-
-“I do not suppose there is any hope of such a thing,” he said, with a
-sigh. “And besides, what does it matter to me that I should care? my
-time cannot be very long.”
-
-“The time of the family may be long enough,” she said, with a throb of
-rising excitement, for surely now he would speak; “one individual is not
-all.”
-
-“That is a sound sentiment, though perhaps it may seem a little
-cold-hearted when the individual is your father, Mary.”
-
-“I did not mean it to be cold-hearted; you have always taught me to
-consider the race.”
-
-“And so you ought,” he said, “though you don’t care so much for the
-blazon as I could wish. I should like to talk to Burn and to see what
-the lawyers would think of it. I confess I should like to be Lord of the
-Manor at Critchley again before I die.”
-
-“And so you shall, father, so you shall!” she cried. “We could do it
-with an effort: if only you would--if only you could----”
-
-He interrupted her hastily.
-
-“When Burn comes to-morrow let me see him,” he said. “This is no
-question of what I could or would. If it can be done it ought to be
-done. That is all I have to say. Is it not time you were having tea?”
-
-This was to send her away that he might have his evening nap after
-dinner. Mary rose at the well-known formula, but she came softly round
-to his end of the room to see that the fire was as he liked it, and
-lingered behind his chair, not knowing whether to make another appeal
-to him. Her presence seemed to make him restless; perhaps he divined
-what was floating in her mind. He got up quickly before she had time to
-speak.
-
-“On second thoughts,” he said, “as I was disturbed before dinner, I had
-better resume my work at once. You can send me a cup of tea to the
-library. It is not often that one has such a satisfactory piece of work
-in hand; that charms away drowsiness. Be sure you send me a cup of tea.”
-
-“You will not--over-fatigue yourself, father?” said Mary, faltering.
-“I--hope you will not do too much.”
-
-This was not what she meant to say, but these were the only words that
-she could manage to form out of her lips.
-
-“Oh, no; do not be uneasy. I shall not overwork myself,” said the Squire
-once more, with a laugh.
-
-And he went out of the room before her, erect and steady, looking
-younger and stronger in the force of that excitement which he was so
-careful to conceal. Mary did not know what to think. Was he postponing
-his sentence to make it more telling? or was he, happier thought, moved
-by the new event as she herself had been, warmed into forgiveness, into
-relenting, into the happiness of old age in children’s children? Could
-this be so? She stood over the fire in her agitation holding her hands
-out to the ruddy blaze, though she was not cold. Her heart beat
-violently against her breast. How uneasy a thing this life was, how
-restless and full of change and commotion! Yet so much more, so much
-greater than the gentler stagnation which was gone.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-AT THE VICARAGE.
-
-
-The vicarage was stilled in the quiet of the evening, the children in
-bed, the house at rest. It was not the beautiful and dignified old house
-which in England is the ideal dwelling of the gentleman parson, the
-ecclesiastical squire of the parish. And indeed Mr. Pennithorne was not
-of that order. Though there had been many jokes when he first entered
-upon the cure as to the resemblance between his name and that of the
-parish, Pennithorne of Penninghame was a purely accidental coincidence.
-Mr. Musgrave was the patron, but the living was not wealthy enough or
-important enough to form that appropriate provision for a second son
-which, according to the curious subordination and adaptation of public
-wants to family interests, has become the rule in England, unique, as
-are so many others. Randolph Musgrave had his rectory in one of the
-midland counties, in the district which was influenced by his mother’s
-family, where there was something more worth his acceptance; and his old
-tutor had got the family living. Mr. Pennithorne was not a distinguished
-scholar with chances of preferment through his college, and it had been
-considered a great thing for him when, after dragging the young
-Musgraves through a certain proportion of schooling and colleging, he
-had subsided into this quiet provision for the rest of his life. He was
-a clergyman’s son, with no prospects, and whatsoever glimmerings of
-young ambition there might have been in him, there was no coming down
-involved when he accepted the small rural vicarage where his heart was.
-We have already said that in his wildest hopes a vision of the
-possibility of bringing Mary Musgrave to the vicarage to share his
-humble circumstances with him had never entered into Mr. Pennithorne’s
-mind; but to be near her was something, and to be her trusted and
-confidential friend seemed the best that life could give him. Here he
-had remained ever since, being of some use to her, as he hoped, from
-time to time, and some comfort at least, if nothing more, in the
-convulsions of the family. During the first years of his incumbency, Mr.
-Pennithorne’s own mind had been subject to many convulsions as one
-suitor after another came to the Castle; but as they had all ridden away
-again with what grace they could after their rejection, comfort had come
-back. It was a curious passion, and one which we do not pretend to
-explain. After a while, impelled by friends, by convenience, and by the
-soft looks of Emily Coniston, the daughter of the clergyman in his
-native place, to which he had gone on a visit, he had himself found it
-possible to marry, without any failure of his allegiance to his
-visionary love; but still to this day though he had been Emily’s
-husband for ten years, it troubled the good vicar when any stranger came
-to the Castle whose society seemed specially pleasant to Miss Musgrave.
-He would hang about the place at such times like an alarmed hen when
-something threatens the brood, nor ceased to cluck and flutter his wings
-till the danger was over. Did he not wish her happiness? Ah, yes, and
-would, he thought, have given his life to procure it; but was it
-necessary that happiness should always be got in that one vulgar way?
-Marriage was well enough for the vulgar, but not for Mary. It would have
-been a descent from her maiden dignity, a lowering of her position. He
-was willing that everybody should love her and place her on a pedestal
-above all women; but it wounded his finest feelings to think that she
-too, in her turn, might love. There was no man good enough or great
-enough to be worthy of awakening such a sentiment in Mary Musgrave’s
-breast.
-
-As is not unusual in such cases, Mr. Pennithorne, the chief inspiration
-of whose life was a visionary passion of the most exalted and exalting
-kind for a woman, had married a woman for whom no one could entertain
-any very exalted or impassioned feelings. Perhaps the household drudge
-is a natural double or attendant of the goddess. They “got on” very well
-together, people said, and Mr. Pen put up with his wife’s little
-foolishnesses and fretfulnesses, as perhaps a man could not have done
-whose heart was fortified by no ideal passion. Emily was a good
-housekeeper of the narrow sort, caring very little for comfort, and very
-proud of her economy; and she was a good mother of the troublesome kind,
-whose children are always in the foreground, always wanting something,
-always claiming her attention. Mr. Pen adored them, and yet he was glad
-when they were got to bed, when his wife could be spoken to without one
-child clinging to her skirts, or another breaking in upon everything
-with plaintive appeals to mamma. But he took it for granted that this
-was how it must be, and that a more lovely course of life was
-impracticable. One woman excepted, all women, he thought, were like
-this; it is thus that the dogmatisms of common opinion are formed and
-kept up; and what could be done but to shrug his shoulders at the
-inevitable, escaping from it into his study, or with a sigh into that
-world of the ideal where imagination is never ruffled by the incidents
-of common life. The children were in bed on this October night, and
-everything was still. The vicarage was not a handsome house, nor was it
-old, but merely modern, badly built, and common-place, redeemed by
-nothing but its garden, which was large, and gave a pretty surrounding
-to the place in summer. But the night had become stormy, and the wind
-was raving in the trees, making their close neighbourhood anything but
-an advantage. Mrs. Pennithorne thought it extravagant to use two
-sitting-rooms, so the family ate and lived in the dining-room--a dark
-room papered and furnished as, in the days when Mr. Pen was married, it
-was thought right to decorate such places, with a red flock paper of a
-large pattern, which relieved the black horsehair of the furniture. The
-room was not very large. It had a black marble mantel-shelf, with a
-clock upon it, and some vases of Bohemian glass, and a red and blue
-table-cover upon the table, about which there lingered always a certain
-odour of food, especially in cold weather, when the windows were closed.
-Mrs. Pennithorne sat between the fire and the table. She had some
-dressmaking in hand, which made a litter about--dark winter stuff for
-little Mary’s frock; and as she had no genius for this work, it was a
-lingering and confusing business with her, and made her less amiable
-than usual. The reason why her husband was there at all instead of being
-in his study was that the evening was cold; but it had not yet become,
-according to Mrs. Pen’s code, time for fires. There was one in the
-dining-room, for she had not been well; but to light a second so early
-in October was against all her traditions, and Mr. Pen had been driven
-out of his study, where he had been sitting in his great-coat, and now
-stood with his back to the fire, warming himself, poor man, in
-preparation for another spell of work at his sermon. He was thin, and
-felt the cold. It was this, she had just been saying, that had brought
-him, and not any regard for her loneliness--which indeed was quite true.
-
-“No, Emily,” he said, meekly, “for I have my work to do, you know; but
-while I am here, I hope you are not sorry to see me. The children were
-rather late to-night.”
-
-“I am glad to keep them up a little for company,” she said. “It is not
-so cheerful sitting here all alone, hearing the wind roaring in the
-trees; and my nerves are quite gone. I never used to fear anything when
-I was a young girl, but now I start at every sound. I don’t mean to
-blame _you_--but it is lonely sitting by one’s self after being one of a
-large family.”
-
-“No doubt--no doubt,” he said, soothingly. “I suppose we gain something
-as years go on, but we do lose something. That must be taken for granted
-in life.”
-
-“I don’t like your philosophy, Mr. Pennithorne,” said Emily; “the way
-you have of always making out that things have to be! I don’t see it,
-for my part. I think a married woman should have a great deal to cheer
-her up that a girl can’t have----”
-
-“My dear,” he said, “perhaps I am not much--and you know the parish is
-my first duty; but have you not the children?--dear children they are. I
-do not think there can be any greater pleasure than one’s children----”
-
-“You have nothing to do but enjoy them,” said Mrs Pennithorne, slightly
-softened; “but if you had to work and slave like me! There is never a
-day that I have not something to do for them; mending, or making, or
-darning, or something. Fathers have an easy time of it; they play with
-the baby now and then, take out the elder ones for a walk, and that is
-all. That is nothing but pleasure; but to sit for days and work one’s
-fingers to the bone----”
-
-“I wish you would not, Emily. I have heard you say that Miss Price in
-the village was a very good dressmaker----”
-
-“For those who can afford her,” said Mrs. Pennithorne. “But,” she added,
-with a better inspiration, “you make me look as if I were complaining,
-and I don’t want to complain. Though it is dull, William, you must
-allow, sitting all the evening by one’s self----”
-
-“But I have to do the same,” he said, with gentle hypocrisy. “You know,
-Emily, if I wrote my sermon here, we should fall to talking, which no
-doubt is far pleasanter--but it is not duty, and duty must come before
-all----”
-
-“There is more than one kind of duty,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, who was
-tearing her fingers with pins putting together two sides of Mary’s
-frock. While she was bending over this, the maid came into the room with
-a note. There was something in the “Ah!” with which he took it which
-made his wife raise her head. She was not jealous of Miss Musgrave, who
-was nearly ten years older than herself, an old maid, and beneath
-consideration; but she did think that William thought a great deal too
-much of the Castle. “What is it now?” she said pettishly. Perhaps once
-more--they had done it several times already--it was an invitation to
-dinner for Mr. Pennithorne alone. But he was so much interested in what
-he was reading that he did not even hear her. She sat with her scissors
-in her hand, and looked at him while he read the note, his face
-changing, his whole mind absorbed. He did not look like that when their
-common affairs were discussed, or the education of his children, which
-ought to be more interesting to him than anything else. This was other
-people’s business--and how it took him up! Mrs. Pennithorne was a good
-woman, and did her duty to her neighbours when it was very clearly
-indicated; but still, of course, nothing could be of such consequence as
-your own family, and your duty to them. And to see how he was taken up,
-smiling, looking as if he might be going to cry! Nothing about Johnny or
-Mary ever excited him so. Mrs. Pennithorne was not only vexed on her own
-account, but felt it to be wrong.
-
-“Well, life is a wonderful thing,” he said suddenly. “I went to the
-Castle this afternoon----”
-
-“You are always going to the Castle,” she said, in a fretful voice.
-
-“--Expressly to tell Miss Musgrave how much my mind had been occupied
-about her brother John. You never knew him, Emily; but he was my pupil,
-and I was very fond of him----”
-
-“You are very fond of all the family, I think,” she said,
-half-interested, half-aggrieved.
-
-“Perhaps I was,” he said, with a little sigh, which, however, she did
-not notice; “but John particularly. He was a fine fellow, though he was
-so hot-headed. The other night I kept dreaming of him, all night
-long--over and over again.”
-
-“That was what made you so restless, I suppose,” Mrs. Pennithorne put
-in, in a parenthesis. “I am sure you have plenty belonging to yourself
-to dream of, if you want to dream.”
-
-“--And I went to ask if they had heard anything, smiling at myself--as
-she did, for being superstitious. But here is the wonderful thing: I had
-scarcely left, when the thing I had foreseen arrived. A carriage drew up
-containing John Musgrave’s children----”
-
-“Did you know John Musgrave’s children? I never knew he had any
-children----”
-
-“Nor did I, or any one!--that is the wonder of it. I felt sure something
-was happening to him or about him--and lo! the children arrived. It was
-no cleverness of mine,” said Mr. Pennithorne with gentle complacency,
-“but still I must say it was a wonderful coincidence. The very day!”
-
-Mrs. Pennithorne did not make any reply. She was not interested in a
-coincidence which had nothing to do with her own family. If Mr. Pen had
-divined when Johnny was to break his arm, so that they might have been
-prepared for that accident! but the Musgraves had plenty of people to
-take care of them, and there seemed no need for a new providential
-agency to give them warning of unsuspected arrivals. She put some more
-pins into little Mary’s frock--the two sides of the little bodice never
-would come the same. She pulled at them, measured them, repinned them,
-but could not get them right.
-
-“I have heard a great deal about John Musgrave,” she said with a pin in
-her mouth. “What was it he did that he had to run away?”
-
-“My dear Emily! don’t do that, for heaven’s sake--you frighten me; and
-besides, it is not--pretty--it is not becoming----”
-
-“I think I am old enough by this time to know what is becoming,” said
-Mrs. Pennithorne with some wrath, yet growing red as she took out the
-pins. She was conscious that it was not ladylike, and felt that this was
-the word her husband meant to use. “If you knew the trouble it is to get
-both sides the same!” she added, forgetting her resentment in vexation.
-
-It was a troublesome job. There are some people in whose hands
-everything goes wrong. Mrs. Pen shed a tear or two over the refractory
-frock.
-
-“My dear! I hope it is not my innocent remark----”
-
-“Oh no, it is not any innocent remark. It is so troublesome. Just when I
-thought I had got it quite straight! But what do you know about such
-things? You have nothing to say to Mary’s frock. You never would notice,
-I believe, if she had not one to her back, or wore the same old rag year
-after year----”
-
-“Yes, Emily, I should notice,” said Mr. Pen with some compunction; “and
-I am very sorry that you should have so much trouble. Send for Miss
-Price to-morrow, and I will pay her out of my own money. You must not
-take it off the house.”
-
-“Oh, William! William!” said his wife, “who is it that will suffer if
-your own money, as you call it, runs out? Do you think I am so
-inconsiderate as only to think of what I have for the house! Isn’t it
-all one purse, and will it not be the children that will suffer
-eventually whoever pays? No, your money shall not be spent to save me
-trouble. What is the good of us but to take trouble?” said Mrs. Pen with
-heroic fortitude.
-
-Mr. Pen sighed. Perhaps he was more conscious of the litter of
-dressmaking than of this fine sentiment. But anyhow he did not give any
-applause to the heroine. He left indeed this family subject altogether,
-and after a momentary pause, said, half to himself, “John Musgrave’s
-children! Who could have thought it! And how strange it all is----”
-
-“Really, Mr. Pennithorne,” said his wife, offended, “this is too much. I
-don’t believe you think one half so much of your own children as of
-those Musgraves. What did they ever do for us?”
-
-“They did this for us, my dear, that but for them I should not have had
-a home to offer you--nor a family at all,” said the vicar with a little
-warmth. “I might have been still travelling with boys about the
-world----”
-
-“Oh, William, not with your talents,” said his wife, looking at him with
-admiration. With all her fretfulness and insensibility to those fine
-points of internal arrangement for which he had a half-developed,
-half-subdued taste, Emily had still a great admiration for her husband.
-Now Mary Musgrave, who was, unknown to either, her spiritual rival, had
-no admiration for good Mr. Pen at all. This gave the partner of his life
-an infinite advantage. His voice softened as he replied, shaking his
-head:
-
-“Unfortunately, my love, other people do not appreciate my talents as
-you do.”
-
-“That is because they don’t know you so well,” she said with flattering
-promptitude. Mr. Pennithorne drew a chair to the fire and sat down. It
-was but rarely that he received this domestic adulation; but it warmed
-him, and did him good.
-
-“Ah, my dear, I fear I must not lay that flattering unction to my soul,”
-he said.
-
-“You are too modest, William; I have always said you were too modest,”
-said Mrs. Pennithorne, returning good for evil. How little notice he had
-taken of her fine heroic feeling and self-abnegation! Women are more
-generous; she behaved very differently to him. And the fact was, he very
-soon began to think that old Mr. Musgrave had made use of him, and given
-him a very poor return. The vicarage was not much--and the Squire had
-never attempted to do anything more. It is sweet to be told that you are
-above your fate--that Providence owes you something better. He roused
-himself up, however, after a time out of that unwholesome state of
-self-complacency. “What a strange state of affairs it is, Emily,” he
-said. He was not in the habit of making his wife his confidant on
-matters that concerned the Musgraves, but in a moment of weakness his
-resolution was overcome. “What a painful state of affairs! Mr. Musgrave
-knows of the coming of these children, but he takes no notice, and
-whether she is to be allowed to keep them or not----”
-
-“Dear me, think of having to get permission from your father at her time
-of life,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, with a naïve pity. “And whom did he
-marry, William, and what sort of person was their mother? I don’t think
-you ever told me that.”
-
-“Their mother was--John’s wife; I must have told you of her. She was not
-the person his family wished. But that often happens, my dear. It is no
-sign that a man is a bad man because he may make what you may call a
-mistaken choice.”
-
-“My dear William,” said Mrs. Pen, with authority, “there is nothing that
-shows a man’s character so much as the wife he chooses; my mother always
-said so. It is the best test if he is a nice feeling man or not,” the
-vicar’s wife said blandly, with a little conscious smile upon her face.
-
-Mr. Pennithorne made no reply. There was something humorous in this
-innocent little speech, considering who the speaker was, to any one who
-knew. But then nobody knew; scarcely even Mr. Pennithorne himself, who
-at this moment was so soothed by his wife’s “appreciation,” that he felt
-himself the most devoted of husbands. He shook his head a little,
-deprecating the implied condemnation of his old pupil; for the moment he
-did not think of himself.
-
-“Now that we are sitting together, and really comfortable for once in a
-way,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, dropping Mary’s bodice with all the pins,
-and drawing her chair a little nearer to the fire--“it does not happen
-very often--tell me, William, what it is all about, and what John
-Musgrave has done.”
-
-Again the vicar shook his head. “It’s a long story,” he said,
-reluctantly.
-
-“You tell things so nicely, William, I sha’n’t think it long; and think
-how strange it is, knowing so much about people, and yet not knowing
-anything. And of course I shall have to see the children. Poor little
-things, not to be sure of shelter in their grandfather’s house! but they
-will always have a friend in you.”
-
-“They will have Mary; what can they want more if they have _her_?” he
-said suddenly, with a fervour which surprised his wife; then blushed and
-faltered as he caught her eye. What right had he to speak of Miss
-Musgrave so? Mrs. Pennithorne stared a little, but the slip did not
-otherwise trouble her, for she saw no reason for the exaggerated respect
-with which the Squire’s daughter was treated. Why should not she be
-called Mary--was it not her name?
-
-“Mary, indeed! what does she know about children? But, William, I am
-waiting, and this is the question--What did John Musgrave do?”
-
-
-
-
-PART III.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-THE CHILDREN AT THE CASTLE.
-
-
-The arrival of the children was an era at Penninghame from which
-afterwards everything dated; but the immediate result was a very curious
-and not very comfortable one. As they had been introduced into the
-house, so they lived in it. Mr. Musgrave never mentioned them, never saw
-them or appeared to see them, ignored their existence, in short, as
-completely as if his faculties had been deadened in respect to them. His
-life was in no way changed indeed; the extraordinary revolution which
-had been made to every one else in the house by this change showed all
-the more strongly from the absence of all effect upon him. He read, he
-wrote, he studied, he took his usual quiet exercise exactly as he did
-before, and never owned by a word or look that he was conscious of any
-alteration in the household. For a little while the children were hushed
-not to make a noise, and huddled away into corners to keep them out of
-sight and hearing; but that arrangement was too unnatural to continue,
-and it very soon happened that their presence was forced upon him by
-unmistakable signs, by both sight and hearing. But the Squire took not
-the slightest notice. He looked over their heads and never saw them. His
-ear was engaged with other sounds and he did not hear them. By this
-system of unconsciousness he deprived himself indeed of some evident
-advantages; for how can you interfere with the proceedings of those
-whose very existence you ignore? He could not give orders that the
-children should make less noise, because he professed not to be aware of
-their presence; nor send them out of his sight, when he was supposed not
-to see them; and in consequence this blindness and deafness on his part
-was perhaps a greater gain to them than to himself. The mental commotion
-into which he had been thrown by their arrival had never been known to
-any one but himself. He had a slight illness a few days after--his
-liver out of order, the doctor said; and so worked off his excitement
-without disclosing it to any one. After this he resumed his serenity,
-and completed his heraldic study. The history of the augmentation
-granted to the Musgraves in the year 1393 in remembrance of the valour
-of Sir Egidio, or Giles, Musgrave in the Holy Land made rather a
-sensation among students in that kind. It was a very interesting
-monograph. Besides being a singularly striking chapter of family
-history, it was, everybody said, a most interesting contribution to the
-study of heraldic honours--how and why they were bestowed; especially as
-concerning “augmentations” bestowed on the field for acts of valour--a
-rare and exceptional distinction. The Squire made a little collection of
-the notices that appeared in the newspapers of his “Monograph” pasting
-them into a pretty little book, as is not unusual with amateur authors.
-He enjoyed them a great deal more than if he had been the author of a
-great history, and resented criticism with corresponding bitterness. He
-was very proud of Egidio, or Giles, who died in the fifteenth century;
-and it did not occur to him that there was any incongruity between this
-devotion to his ancestors and the fact that he persisted in ignoring the
-little boy upstairs.
-
-And yet day by day it grew more hard to ignore him. Mr. Musgrave in his
-study, after the enthusiasm of his monograph was over, could not help
-hearing voices which it was difficult to take no notice of. The
-enthusiasm of composition did a great deal for him: it carried him out
-of the present; it filled him with a delightful fervour and thrill of
-intellectual excitement. People who are always writing get used to it,
-and lose this sense of something fine and great which is the inheritance
-of the amateur. Even after the shock of renewed intercourse with the
-son, who had brought shame upon his name, and whom he had cast off, Mr.
-Musgrave, so long as his work lasted, found himself able to forget
-everything in the happiness it gave. When he woke in the morning his
-first thought was of this important occupation which awaited him, and he
-went to bed with the fumes of his own paragraphs in his head; he was
-carried away by it. But when all this intellectual commotion was over,
-and when the ennui of having nothing further to do had swallowed up the
-satisfaction of having finished a great piece of work, as it so soon
-does, then there came a very difficult interval for the Squire. He had
-no longer anything to absorb him and keep him comfortably above the
-circumstances of ordinary life; and as he sat in his library, only
-reading, only writing a letter, no longer absorbed by any special study,
-or by the pride and delight of recording in fine language the results of
-that study, ordinary life stole back, as it has a way of doing. He began
-to hear the knocks at the door, the ringing of bells, and to wonder what
-they meant; to hear steps going up and down the stairs, to be aware of
-Eastwood in the dining-room, and the rustle of Mary’s dress as she went
-about the house in the morning, and in the afternoon passed with a soft
-boom of the swinging door into her favourite hall. The routine of the
-house came back to the old man. He heard the servants in the kitchen,
-the ticking of that measured, leisurely old clock in the hall which took
-about five minutes to spell out the hour. He was not consciously paying
-any attention to these things. On the contrary, he was secluded from
-them, rapt in his books, knowing nothing of what was going on; yet he
-heard them all; and as he sat there through the long winter days and the
-still longer winter evenings, when there was rain or storm out of doors,
-and nothing to break the long, still blank of hours within, a sound
-would come to him now and then, even before the care of the household
-relaxed--the cry of a little voice, a running and pattering of small
-feet, sometimes an outburst of laughter, a small voice of weeping, which
-stirred strangely in the air about him and vaguely called forth old
-half-extinct sensations, as one might run over the jarred and
-half-silent keys of an old piano in the dark. This surprised him at
-first in his loneliness--then, when he had realized what it was, hurt
-him a little, rousing old wrath and bitterness, so that he would
-sometimes lay down his pen or close his book and all the past would come
-before him--the past, in which John his son had disappointed, mocked,
-insulted, and baffled his father. He would not allow himself to realize
-the presence of these children in the house, but he could not avoid
-thinking of the individual who stood between him and them, who was so
-real while they were so visionary. Always John! He had tried to live
-for years without thought of him and had been tranquil; it was grievous
-to be compelled thus to think of him again. This all happened, however,
-in the seclusion of his own mind, in the quiet of his library, and no
-one knew anything of it; not his daughter, who thought she knew his
-looks by heart; nor his servant, who had spelled him out by many guesses
-in the dark--as servants generally do--and imagined that he had his
-master at his fingers’ ends. But during all this time while these
-touches were playing upon him, bringing out ghosts of old sensations,
-muffled sounds and tones forgotten, Mr. Musgrave publicly ignored the
-fact that there were any children in the house, and contrived not to see
-them, nor to hear them, with a force of self-government and resolution
-which, in a nobler cause, would have been beyond all praise.
-
-The effect of the change upon Miss Musgrave was scarcely less remarkable
-though very different. Her mental and moral education had been of a very
-peculiar kind. The tragedy which swallowed up her brother had
-interrupted the soft flowing current of her young life. All had gone
-smoothly before in the natural brightness of the beginning. And Mary,
-who had little passion in her temperament, who was more thoughtful than
-intense, and whose heart had never been awakened by any strong
-attachment beyond the ties of nature, had borne the interruption better
-than most people would have borne it, and had done her duty between her
-offending brother and her enraged father with less strain and violence
-of suffering than might have been imagined. And she had got through the
-more quiet years since without bitterness, with a self-adaptation to the
-primitive monotony of existence which was much helped, as most such
-virtues are, by temperament. She had formed her own theory of life, as
-most people do by the time they reach even the earliest stages of middle
-age; and this theory was the philosophical one that happiness, or the
-calm which does duty for happiness in most mature lives, was in reality
-very independent of events; that it came from within, not from without;
-and that life was wonderfully equal, neither bringing so much good, nor
-so much evil, as people of lively imaginations gave it credit for doing.
-Thus she had herself lived, not unhappy, except at the very crisis of
-the family life. She had suffered then. Who could hope (she said to
-herself) to do other than suffer one time or another in their life? But
-since then the calm and regularity of existence had come back, the
-routine which charms time away and brings content. There had no doubt
-been expectations in her mind which had come to nothing--expectations of
-more active joy, more actual well-being, than had ever fallen to her
-lot; but these expectations had gradually glided away, and no harm had
-been done. If she had no intensity of enjoyment, neither had she any
-wretchedness. She had enough to do; her life was full, and she was
-fairly happy. So she said to herself; so she had said many a day to Mr.
-Pen, who shook his mildly melancholy head and dissented--as far as he
-ever dissented from anything said by Miss Mary. Her brother was
-lost--away--wandering in the darkness of the great world as in a desert.
-But if he had been near at hand, absorbed in his married life, his wife,
-who was not of her species, and his unknown children, would not he have
-been just as much lost to Mary? So she persuaded herself at least; and
-so lived tranquilly, happy enough--certainly not unhappy;--and why
-should an ordinary mortal, youth being over, wish for more?
-
-Now, however, all at once, so great a change had happened to her, that
-Mary could no longer understand, or even believe in, this state of mind
-which had been hers for so many years. Perfectly still, tranquil,
-fearing nothing--when her own flesh and blood were in such warfare in
-the world! How was it possible? Wondering pangs of self-reproach seized
-her; mysteries of death and of birth, such as had never touched her
-maidenly quiet, seemed to surround her, and mock at her former ease. All
-this time the gates of heaven had been opening and shutting to John.
-Hope sometimes, sometimes despair, love, anguish, want, pain, had
-struggled for him, while she had sat and looked on so calmly, and
-reasoned so placidly about the general equality of life. How could she
-have done it? The revelation was as painful as it was overwhelming.
-Nature seized upon her with a grip of iron, and avenged upon her in a
-moment all the indifferences of her previous life. The appeal of these
-frightened children, the solemn charge laid upon her by her brother,
-awoke her with a start and shiver. How had she dared to sit and look
-through calm windows, or on the threshold by her tranquil door, upon
-the struggles, pangs, and labours of the other human creatures about
-her? Was it excuse enough that she was neither wife nor mother? had she
-therefore nothing to do in guarding, and continuing, and handing down
-the nobler successions of life? Mary was startled altogether out of the
-state of mind habitual to her. Instead of remaining the calm lady of the
-manor, the female Squire, the lawgiver of the village which she had
-hitherto been--a little above the problems that were brought to her, a
-little wanting in consideration of motives and meaning, perhaps now and
-then too decided in her judgment, seeing the distinction between right
-and wrong too clearly, and entertaining a supreme, though gentle
-contempt for the trimmings and compromises, as well as for the fusses
-and agitations of the ordinary world--she felt herself to have plunged
-all at once into the midst of those agitations at a single step. She
-became anxious, timorous, yet rash, faltering even in opinion,
-hesitating, vacillating--she who had been so decided and so calm. Her
-feelings were all intensified, the cords of her nature tightened, as it
-were, vibrating to the lightest touch. And at the same time, which was
-strange enough, while thus the little circle, in which she stood, became
-full of such intense, unthought-of interest, the world widened around
-her as it had never widened before; into darknesses and silences
-indeed--but still with an extended horizon which expanded her heart.
-John was there in the wide unknown, which stretched round this one warm,
-lighted spot, wandering she knew not where, a solitary man. She had
-never realized him so before; and not only John, but thousands like him,
-strangers, wanderers, strugglers with fate. This sudden breath of
-novelty, of enlightenment, expanded her heart like a sob. Her composure,
-her satisfaction, her tranquillity fled from her; but how much greater,
-more real and true, more penetrating and actual, became her existence
-and the world! And all this was produced, not by any great mental
-enlightenment, any sudden development of character, but by the simple
-fact that two small helpless creatures had been put into her hands and
-made absolutely dependent upon her. This was all; but the whole world
-could not have been more to Mary. It changed her in every way. She who
-had been so rooted in her place, so absorbed in her occupations, would
-have relinquished all, had it been necessary, and gone out solitary into
-the world for the children. Could there be any office so important, any
-trust so precious? This, which sounded like the vulgarest commonplace,
-and at the same time most fictitious high-flown sentiment, on the lips
-of Mrs. Pennithorne, became all at once, in a moment, the leading
-principle of Miss Musgrave’s life.
-
-But she had to undergo various petty inconveniences from the curiosity
-of her neighbours, and their anxiety to advise her as to what she should
-do in the “trying circumstances.” What could she know about children?
-Mrs. Pen, for one, thought it very important to give Miss Musgrave the
-benefit of her advice. She made a solemn visit to inspect them, and tell
-her what she ought to do. The little boy, she felt sure, was delicate,
-and would require a great deal of care; but the thing that troubled Mrs.
-Pennithorne the most was that Miss Musgrave could not be persuaded to
-put on mourning for her brother’s wife. Notwithstanding that it was, as
-Mary pleaded, five years since she died, the vicar’s wife thought that
-crape would be a proof that all “misunderstandings” were over, and would
-show a Christian feeling. And when she could not make this apparent to
-the person principally concerned, she did all she could to impress it
-upon her husband, whom she implored to “speak to”--both father and
-daughter--on the subject. Most people would have been all the more
-particular to put on crape, and to wear it deep, because there had been
-“misunderstandings.” “Misunderstandings!” cried Mr. Pen. It was not,
-however, he who spoke to Miss Musgrave, but she who spoke to him on this
-important subject; and what she said somewhat bewildered the vicar, who
-could not fathom her mind in this respect.
-
-“Emily thinks we should put on mourning,” she said. “And, do you know, I
-really believe that is the reason that poor John is so much more in my
-thoughts?”
-
-“What--the mourning?” the vicar asked faltering.
-
-“_Her_ death. Hitherto the idea of one has been mingled with that of the
-other. Now he is just John; everything else has melted away; there is
-nothing but himself to think of. He has never been only John before. Do
-you know what I mean, Mr. Pen?”
-
-The vicar shook his head. He wondered if this could be a touch of
-feminine jealousy, knowing that even Mary was not perfect; and this gave
-him a momentary pang.
-
-“I don’t suppose that I should feel so;--I was very fond of John--but I,
-of course, could not be jealous--I mean of his love for one
-unworthy----”
-
-“How do you know even that she was unworthy? It is not that, Mr. Pen.
-But she was nothing to us, and confused him in our minds. Now he is
-himself--and where is he?” said Miss Musgrave, with tears in her eyes.
-
-“In God’s hands--in God’s hands, Miss Mary! and God bless him wherever
-he is--and I humbly beg your pardon,” cried Mr. Pen, with an excess of
-compunction which she scarcely understood. His feelings were almost too
-warm Mary thought.
-
-And as the news got spread through those invisible channels which convey
-reports all over a country, many were the visitors that came to the
-Castle to see what the story meant, though they did not announce this as
-the object of their visit. Among these visitors the most important was
-Lady Stanton, who had been Mary’s rival in beauty when the days were.
-They had not been rivals indeed to their own consciousness, but warm
-friends, in their youth and day of triumph; but events had separated the
-two girls, and the two women rarely met, and had outgrown all
-acquaintance; for Lady Stanton had been involved, almost more
-immediately than Mary Musgrave, in the tragedy which had so changed life
-at Penninghame, and this had changed their relations like everything
-else. This lady arrived one day to the great surprise of everybody, and
-came in with timid eagerness and haste, growing red and growing pale as
-she held out her hands to her old friend.
-
-“We never quarrelled,” she said; “why should we never see each other? Is
-there any reason?”
-
-“No reason,” said Miss Musgrave, making room upon the sofa beside her.
-But such an unexpected appeal agitated her, and for the moment she could
-not satisfy herself as to the object of the visit. Lady Stanton,
-however, was of a very simple mind, and could not conceal what that
-object was.
-
-“Oh, Mary,” she said, the tears coming into her eyes, “I heard that
-John’s children had come home. Is it true? You know I always took an
-interest----” And here she stopped, making a gulp of some emotion which,
-to a superficial spectator, might have seemed out of place in Sir Henry
-Stanton’s wife. She had grown stout, but that does not blunt the
-feelings. “I should like to see them,” she said, with an appeal in her
-eyes which few people could withstand. And Mary was touched too, partly
-by this sudden renewal of an old love, partly by the thought of all that
-had happened since she last sat by her old companion’s side, who was a
-Mary too.
-
-“I cannot bring them here,” she said, “but I will take you to the hall
-to see them. My father likes them to be kept--in their own part of the
-house.”
-
-“Oh, I hope he is kind to them!” said Lady Stanton, clasping her white
-dimpled hands. “Are they like your family? I hope they are like the
-Musgraves. But likenesses are so strange--mine are not like me,” said
-the old beauty, plaintively. Perhaps the trouble in her face was less on
-account of her own private trials in this respect than out of alarm lest
-John Musgrave’s children should bear the likeness of another face of
-which she could not think with kindness. There was so little disguise in
-her mind, that this sentiment also found its way into words. “Oh Mary,”
-she cried, “you and I were once the two beauties, and everybody was at
-our feet; but that common girl was more thought of than either you or
-me.”
-
-“Hush!” said Mary Musgrave, putting up her hand; “she is dead.”
-
-“Is she dead?” Lady Stanton was struck with a momentary horror; for it
-was a contemporary of whom they were speaking, and she could not but be
-conscious of a little shiver in her own well-developed person, to think
-of the other who was clay. “That is why they have come home?” she said,
-half under her breath.
-
-“Yes; and because he cannot carry them about with him wherever he
-goes.”
-
-“You have heard from him, Mary? I hope he is doing well. I hope he is
-not--very--heart-broken. If you are writing you might say I inquired. He
-might like to know that he was remembered; and you know I always
-took--an interest----”
-
-“I know you always had the kindest heart.”
-
-“I always took an interest, notwithstanding everything; and--will he
-come home? Now surely he might come home. It is so long ago; and surely
-now no one would interfere.”
-
-“I cannot say anything about that, for I don’t know,” said Miss
-Musgrave; “he does not say. Will you come and see the children, Lady
-Stanton?”
-
-“Oh, Mary, what have I done that you should call me Lady Stanton? I have
-never wished to stand aloof. It has not been my doing. Do you remember
-what friends we were? and I couldn’t call you Miss Musgrave if I tried.
-When I heard of the children I thought this was an opening,” said Lady
-Stanton, faltering a little. She told her little fib, which was an
-innocent one; but she was true at bottom and told it ill; and what
-difference did it make whether she sought the children for Mary’s sake,
-or Mary for the children’s? Miss Musgrave accepted her proffered embrace
-with kindness, yet with a smile. She was touched by the emotion of her
-old friend, and by the remnants of that “interest” which had survived
-fifteen years of married life, and much increase of substance. Perhaps a
-harsher judge might have thought the emotion slightly improper. But poor
-John had got but hard measure in the world; and a little compensating
-faithfulness was a salve to his sister’s feelings. She led her visitor
-downstairs and through the narrow passage, in all her wealth of silk and
-amplitude of shadow. Mary herself was still as slim as when they had
-skimmed about these passages together; and she was Mary still; for once
-in a way she felt herself not without some advantage over Sir Henry’s
-wife.
-
-Nello was standing full in the light when the ladies went into the hall,
-and he it was who came forward to be caressed by the pretty lady, who
-took to him all the more warmly that she had no boys of her own. Lady
-Stanton fairly cried over his fair head, with its soft curls. “What a
-little Musgrave he is!” she cried; “how like his father! I cannot help
-being glad he is like his father.” But when this vision of splendour
-and beauty, which Lilias came forward to admire, saw the little girl,
-she turned from her with a slight shiver. “Ah!” she cried, retreating,
-“is that--the little girl?” And the sight silenced her, and drove her
-away.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-LADY STANTON.
-
-
-Lady Stanton drove home from that visit with her heart and her eyes
-full. She was not intellectual, nor even clever, but a soft creature,
-made up of feelings easily touched, not perhaps very profound, nor
-likely to obscure to her the necessary course of daily living, but still
-true enough and faithful in their way. She might have been able to make
-sacrifices had she come in the way of them or found them necessary, but
-no such chance of moral devotion had come to her; nor had any teachings
-of experience or philosophy of middle age, such as works upon the
-majority of us, hardened her soft heart, or swept away the little
-romantic impulses, the quick sensibilities of youth. A nature so fresh
-indeed was scarcely compatible with much exercise of the intellectual
-faculties at all. Lady Stanton rarely read, and never under any
-circumstances read anything (of her own will and impulse) which rose
-above the most primitive and familiar elements; but on the other hand,
-the gentle sentimentalities which she did read went straight to her
-heart. She thought Mrs. Hemans the first of poets, and cried her eyes
-out over Mr. Dickens’s “Little Nell.” Anything about an unhappy love, or
-about a dead child, would move her more than Shakespeare; and she shed
-tears as ready as the morning dew. Practically, it is true, she had gone
-through a certain amount of experience like other people, and her
-everyday life was more or less affected by it; but in her heart Lady
-Stanton was still the same Mary Ridley whose gentle being had been
-involved in the wildest of tragic stories, even though she had come
-down to so commonplace a daily routine now. That story, so long past,
-took the place in her being of all the poetry and romance which the most
-of us get glorified from the hands of genius; and all her associations
-were attached to that one personal episode, which was unparalleled in
-life as she knew life. When she read one of the novels which pleased
-her, she would compare the situations in it with this; when she lingered
-over the vague melodious verses which represented poetry to her, there
-was always a little appropriation in her heart of their soft measures to
-the dim long past emergency. And now, here it was brought back upon her
-by every circumstance that could bring the past near. Her love--was it
-her love that was recalled to her? But then there was no love in it
-properly so called. She had taken an interest in John Musgrave, her
-friend’s brother--always had taken an interest in him; but she had no
-right to do so at any time, being betrothed to young Lord Stanton, who,
-for his part, had forgotten her for the sake of that dressmaker’s girl
-at Penninghame, to whom John Musgrave too had given his heart. What a
-complication it was! Mary Ridley, who had a pretty property close to
-his, had been destined for Lord Stanton from the beginning of time, and
-the boy and girl had lightly acquiesced, and had been happy enough in
-the parental arrangement. They had liked each other--well enough; they
-had been as gay as possible in the lightheartedness of their youth, and
-had taken this for happiness. Why should not they be happy? they were
-exactly suited to each other. She was the prettiest girl in the county
-(except the other Mary), and he was proud of her sweet looks, and fond
-of her, certainly fond of her; whereas she, unawakened, undisturbed,
-notwithstanding the interest she had always taken in John Musgrave,
-would have made him the most affectionate and charming wife in the
-world. Thus the early story had flowed on all smoothness and sunshine,
-the flowers blooming, the sun shining; until, one fatal day, young Lord
-Stanton, riding through Penninghame village on his way to the old
-Castle, had seen Lily, Miss Price’s assistant, at the window of the
-dressmaker’s parlour. Fatal day! full of all the issues of death.
-
-It is needless to inquire what manner of woman this Lily was, for whom
-these two men lost themselves and their existence. She did not know of
-any tragedy likely to be involved, but brushed about in her homely
-village way through these webs of fate, twisting the threads innocently
-enough, and throwing the weaving into endless confusion. Whether Lord
-Stanton was murdered by John Musgrave, as many people thought at first,
-or killed accidentally in a hot, sudden encounter, as most people
-believed now, was a thing which perhaps would never be cleared up. The
-guilty man (if he was guilty) had paid the penalty of his deed in exile,
-in poverty, in misery, ever since. His life had been as much broken off
-at that point as Stanton’s was who died--and the two families had been
-equally plunged into woe and mourning; though indeed it was the
-Musgraves who suffered most, by reason of the stigma put upon them, by
-the shame of John’s flight and of his marriage, and by the fact that he
-was still a criminal pursued by justice, though justice had long
-slackened her pursuit. As for the Stantons, there was nobody to mourn
-much. Aunts and uncles and cousins console themselves sooner than
-fathers and mothers, and the boy brother, who had succeeded to the
-title, had been too young to be capable of sustained sorrow. Everybody
-at that time had sympathized with the young bride who had lost her
-future husband, and her coronet, and all the joys of life in this sudden
-and miserable way, for there was no concealing what the cause of the
-quarrel was, and that Lord Stanton had been unfaithful to the beautiful
-Mary. Nobody knew, however, the complication which gave her a double
-pang, the knowledge that not only the man who was her own property, her
-betrothed husband, but the man in whom, innocently in girlish
-simplicity, she had avowed herself to “take an interest,” had preferred
-to her the village Lily, who was nobody and nothing, who had not been
-blameless between them, and whom everybody condemned. Everybody
-condemned: but _they_ loved her. Both of them! this secret and poignant
-addition to her trial Mary Ridley never confided to any one, but it
-still thrilled through and through her at any allusion to that old long
-past tragedy. Both of them!--the man whose best love was due to her, and
-the man who had caught her own girlish shy eyes, all unaware to either,
-somehow, innocently, unavowedly, in such a visionary way as harmed no
-one; both! It was hard. She wept for them both tenderly, abundantly, for
-the one not less than the other; and a little--with a cry in her heart
-of protestation and appeal--for herself, put aside, thrown over for this
-woman who was nothing, who was nobody, yet who was better beloved than
-she. All this had welled up in Lady Stanton’s heart when she saw the
-little girl who had Lily’s face. She had been unable to restrain the
-sting of old wonder and pain; the keen piercing of the old wound which
-she had felt to her heart. Both of them! and now a little ghost of this
-Lily, her shadow, her representative, had come back again to look her in
-the face. She cried as she drove back that long silent way by herself to
-Elfdale. It was seldom she had the chance of being so long alone, and
-there was a kind of luxury about it, not unmingled with compunction and
-a sense of guilt.
-
-For it still remains to be told how Mary Ridley came to be Lady Stanton,
-although Lord Stanton, who was the betrothed husband of her youth, had
-been killed, and all that apparently smooth and straightforward story
-had ended in grief and separation. She had married after some years a
-middle-aged cousin of her dead lover, Sir Henry Stanton, who had not
-long before come back from India where he had spent most of his life. It
-was but a poor fate for the beautiful Mary. Sir Henry had left his
-career and a full accomplished life behind him, when he first came to
-settle at Elfdale to the passive existence of a gentleman in the
-country, who could scarcely be called a country gentleman. He had been
-married and had children, a family of sons and daughters, and had only a
-second chapter of less vivid meaning, a sort of postscriptal life, to
-offer her. Why she had accepted him nobody could well say,--but she made
-him a good wife, kind, smiling, always gentle, though sadly put to it
-now and then to preserve unbroken the sweet good-temper with which
-nature had gifted her. So fair and sweet as she was, to get only the
-remains of a man’s heart after all, to be made use of as their chaperon
-and caretaker by his big, unlovely daughters; to have her own children,
-two dainty, lovely, fairy girls, kept in the background,--no more than
-“the little ones”--of no account in the house--all these things were
-somewhat trying, and a strange reversal of all that life had seemed to
-promise her, and all that had been indicated by the early worship which
-surrounded her youth. But perhaps few women could have carried this
-inappropriate fate as well. All those contradictions of circumstances,
-all those travesties of what might have been, met with no gloom or
-sourness of disappointment in her. The very fact that she was Lady
-Stanton carried with it a certain aggravation, a parrot-like adhesion to
-the letter and change of the spirit, such as had been in the promises
-made to Macbeth. Mary might have thought herself the victim of a
-perverse fate, keeping the word of promise to the ear and breaking it to
-the heart, had she been perversely disposed--but instead of that, all
-her thoughts at the present moment were occupied with the fact that she
-had taken an unfair advantage of Laura and Lydia, in not telling them
-where she was going, that they might have come with her had they been so
-disposed. She had stolen a march upon them; they would think it unkind.
-But then she could not have gone to Penninghame had Laura and Lydia been
-with her. Though they were so much less concerned than she had been,
-they kept up the Stanton feud with the Musgraves. They had no “interest”
-in John--on the contrary, they were of the few who still believed that
-he had “murdered” Lord Stanton--and would have had him hanged if he ever
-returned to England. They would not have entered the house, or permitted
-any kind inquiries in their presence. And therefore it was that she had
-stolen away without letting them know, and was at present conscious--in
-addition to all the jumble of emotions in her heart--of a certain prick
-of guilt.
-
-The Stantons were a great county family as well as the Musgraves, but in
-a very different way. When the Musgraves had been at their greatest, the
-Stantons had been nobody. They were nothing more than persistent,
-thrifty folk at first, adding field to field, building on ever a new
-addition to their old house. Then wealth had come, and then local
-importance; and last of all celebrity. The first who brought anything
-like fame to the name, and introduced the race to the knowledge of the
-world, was a soldier, a general under the Duke of Marlborough, who got
-a baronetcy and a reputation, and had a handsome new coat of arms
-invented for him--very appropriately gained indeed, on the field of
-battle, just as the augmentation of the Musgraves’ blazon had been
-gained, but a few hundred years too late unfortunately, and therefore
-not telling for nearly so much as if it had been won in the fifteenth
-century. The next man was a lawyer, who so cultivated that profession
-that it brought his son, in the reign of the Georges, to the bench, and
-a peerage--and since that time the family had taken their place among
-the magnates of the north country. Young Walter Lord Stanton was a much
-greater man than John Musgrave, though not half so great a man in one
-sense of the word. Two or three generations, however, tell just as much
-upon the individual mind as twenty, and the young peer was conscious of
-all his advantages over the commoner, without any sense of inferiority
-in point of race. And now the other Lord Stanton, Geoffrey, who had
-succeeded that unfortunate young man, was the greatest personage of his
-years in the district, regarded with interest by all his neighbours and
-with more than interest by some; for was it not in his power to make one
-of his feminine contemporaries, however humble she might be by birth,
-and however poor in this world’s goods, a great lady?--and so long as
-human nature remains as it is, this cannot cease to be a very potent
-attraction. Indeed the wonder is that young women should not be
-altogether demoralized by the perpetual recurrence of such chances of
-undeserved, unearned elevation. Young Lord Stanton could do this. He
-could give fine houses and lands, a title, and all the good things of
-this earth to his cousin Laura, or his cousin Lydia, or any other girl
-in the county that pleased him. Therefore it cannot be wondered at if
-his appearance fluttered the dovecotes with sentiments as powerful and
-more pleasant than those which fill the nests at the appearance of
-predatory hawk or eagle. But any such flutter of feeling was held in
-Elfdale to be an unwarrantable impertinence on the part of the other
-ladies of the county. Long ago, at the time when at six years old he had
-succeeded to his stepbrother, there had been a tacit family
-understanding to the effect that one of Sir Henry’s daughters should be
-the young lord’s wife. Sir Henry, though old enough to have been the
-father of his murdered cousin would have been his heir but for
-Geoff--and it was universally allowed to be hard upon him that when such
-an unlikely chance happened, as that young Lord Stanton should die,
-there should be this boy coming in the way forestalling his claim.
-Nobody had wanted that child who was suddenly turned into a personage of
-so much importance--not even his father, who had married with a
-single-minded idea of being comfortable in his own person, and who was
-much annoyed by the prospect of “a second family”--a prospect which was
-happily, however, cut short by his own speedy death. When therefore
-Walter Lord Stanton was killed, it was very generally felt that Sir
-Henry had a real grievance in the existence of the little stepbrother,
-who was in the way of everybody except his poor mother, whom the old
-lord had married to nurse him, and who had taken the unwarrantable
-liberty of adding little Geoffrey to the family. Poor little Geoff! he
-was bullied on all hands so long as his brother lived; and then, what a
-change came over his life and that of his mother, who was as pale and
-shy as her boy! Great good fortune may change even complexion, and Geoff
-as he grew to be a man was no longer pale. But Sir Henry never quite got
-over the blow dealt him by this succession. He had not resented Walter.
-Walter was so to speak the natural heir--and nobody expected him to die;
-but when he did die, so out of all calculation, to think there should be
-that boy! Sir Henry did not get over it for years--it was a positive
-wrong not to be forgotten.
-
-Accordingly, as a small compensation to his injured feelings, all the
-family had tacitly decided that Geoff should marry one of his cousins.
-This, it is true, was but a very small compensation, for Sir Henry was
-not the kind of parent who lives in his children and is indifferent to
-his own glory and greatness. Even now, fifteen years after the event, he
-was not an old man, and it made up very poorly for his personal
-disappointment that Laura or Lydia should share the advancement of which
-he had been deprived. Still it was so understood. Geoff paid many
-holiday visits at Elfdale, though there was no particular friendship
-between Sir Henry and the widowed Lady Stanton, who was Geoff’s guardian
-as well as his mother, and things were going smoothly enough between
-the young people. They liked each other, and had no objection to be
-together as much as was possible, and already the sisters had settled
-between them “which of us it is to be.” This Lydia, who was the most
-strong-minded, had thought desirable from the moment when she had become
-aware what was intended. “It does not matter at present,” she said, “we
-are none of us in love, and one is just as good as another, but we had
-better draw lots, or something--or toss up, as the boys do.” And what
-the mystic ordeal had been which decided this question we are unable to
-say, but decided it was in favour of Laura, who was the prettiest, and
-only a year younger than Geoff. Lydia, as soon as the die was cast,
-constituted herself the guardian of her sister’s fortunes so far as the
-young lord was concerned, and made herself into a quaint and really
-pretty version of a matchmaking mother on Laura’s behalf. Thus it will
-be seen that it was into the very heart of the opposite faction that
-Lady Stanton drove home with those tears in her soft eyes, and all that
-commotion of old thoughts in her heart. If they could have seen into it
-and known that it was the image of John Musgrave that had roused that
-commotion, what would these girls have said, towards whom she felt so
-guilty as having stolen a march upon them? “The murderer!” they would
-have cried with a shriek of horror. Lady Stanton could not, it is clear,
-have taken them to Penninghame with her, and surely she had a right to
-use her own horses and carriage; but still she felt guilty as she
-subdued, with all the effort she could make, the excitement in her
-heart.
-
-When she went in, she retired at once upstairs, and announced herself,
-through her maid, to have a headache, and had a cup of tea in her own
-room, to which her own children, little Fanny and Annie, a pair of
-inseparables, came noiselessly like two doves on the wing. Annie and
-Fanny liked nothing in the world so much as to get mamma to themselves
-like this, in the stillness of her room, with everybody else shut out.
-One was ten and the other eleven; they were about the same height, had
-the same flowing curly locks of light brown hair, the same rose-tinted
-faces, walked in each other’s steps, or rather flew about their little
-world of carpeted stairs and passages, together, always in sudden soft
-flights--like doves, as we have said, on the wing. “Is your head very
-bad, mamma?” they said; and the gentle hypocrite blushed as she replied.
-No, it was not very bad; a little quiet would make it quite well. They
-took off her “things” for her, and brought her her soft white
-dressing-gown, in which she looked like the mother of all the doves, and
-let down her hair, which was not much darker, and quite as abundant as
-their own--and gave her her cup of tea, thus soothing every tingling
-nerve; and by this time Lady Stanton’s head was not bad at all, though
-now and then one of them would administer eau-de-cologne or rosewater.
-She told them of the children she had seen--little orphans who had no
-mother--and the two crept closer to her, to hear of that awful,
-incomprehensible desolation, each clasping an arm of hers with two
-small, eager hands. To be without a mother! Annie and Fanny held their
-breath in reverential silence and pity; but wondered a little that it
-was the little boy (“called Nello--what a funny name!”) that mamma spoke
-of, not the girl, who was ten (“just the same age as me”).
-
-But not even the sympathy of her children, and the trance of interest
-which kept them breathless, could make Lady Stanton speak of the little
-girl. Her mother’s face! that face which had taken the best of
-everything in existence from Mary Ridley--how could Lady Stanton speak
-of it? She made some efforts to get over the feeling, but not with much
-success. But the rest restored her, and enabled her to appear, her
-headache quite charmed away, and her nerves still, at dinner. She took a
-little more care with her toilette than usual, by way of propitiation to
-the angry gods. And though Laura and Lydia were not much short of twenty
-years younger than their stepmother, it would have been an indifferent
-judge who had turned from her to them even in the fresh bloom of their
-youth. She came downstairs very conciliatory, ready to make the best of
-everything, and to make amends to them for all disloyal thoughts, and
-for having cheated them of their drive.
-
-“I hope your head is better, my Lady,” said Laura. “We have been
-wondering all the afternoon wherever you had gone.”
-
-The girls had a certain strain of vulgarity in them somehow, which could
-not be quite eradicated from their speech.
-
-“I went out for a drive as usual,” said Lady Stanton. “I thought I heard
-you say that you meant to walk.”
-
-“Oh yes; we wanted to walk to the village to settle about the school
-children,” said Laura; and Lydia added, “But I am sure we never said
-so,” and looked suspiciously at her stepmother.
-
-“I went by the Langdale woods, and all the way to Penninghame water,”
-said the culprit, very explanatory. “The lake looked so cold. I should
-not like to live near it. It chills all the landscape, and I am sure
-puts dreary thoughts into people’s heads. And as I was there, Henry,”
-she added, addressing her husband, “I did what you will think an odd
-thing.” Lady Stanton’s bosom heaved a little, and her breath came quick.
-It would have been far easier to say nothing about it; but then she knew
-by experience that everything gets found out. She made a momentary pause
-before the confession which she tried to treat so lightly. “I ran in for
-a moment to the old Castle and saw Mary--Mary, you know. We were great
-friends, she and I, when we were young, and it was such a temptation
-passing the old place.”
-
-“What whim took you near the old place?” said Sir Henry, gruffly. “I
-cannot think of any place in the world that should lie less in your
-way.”
-
-“Well, that is true,” she said, breathing a little more freely now that
-the worst was told, “and the proof of it is that I have not been there
-for years.”
-
-“I hope it will be still longer before you go again,” said her husband.
-
-He did not say any more because of the servants, and because he had too
-much good sense to do or say anything that would lessen his wife’s
-importance; but he was not pleased, and this troubled her, for she had a
-delicate conscience. She looked at him wistfully, and was imprudent
-enough in her anxiety to pursue the subject, and make bad worse.
-
-“It is strange to see an old friend whom you have known when you were
-young, after so many years,” she said; “though Mary is not so much
-altered as I am. You remember her, Henry? She was always so pretty;
-handsomer than--any one I know.”
-
-It was on her lips to say “handsomer than ever I was,” which was the
-real sentiment in her mind--a sentiment partly originating in the
-semi-guilt and humility produced by the consciousness of having grown
-stout, a kind of development which troubles women. She was very deeply
-aware of this, and it silenced all the claims of vanity. She had lost
-her figure; whereas Mary was still slim and straight as an arrow.
-Whatever might have been once, there was now no comparison between the
-two.
-
-“Do you mean Miss Musgrave?” cried the girls, one after the other. “Miss
-Musgrave! that old creature--that old maid--that man’s sister?”
-
-“She is no older than I am,” said Lady Stanton, with a flush on her
-face; “she was my dear friend in the old days. She is beautiful still,
-as much as she ever was, I think, and good; she has always been good.”
-
-“That will do,” said Sir Henry interposing. “We need not discuss the
-family; but I think you will see, my dear, that there could not be much
-pleasure in any intercourse at this time of day--whatever might have
-been the case when you were young.”
-
-“Intercourse--there could never be any intercourse,” cried Lydia, coming
-to the front. “Fancy, papa! intercourse with such people--after all that
-has happened! That would be tempting Providence; and it would be an
-insult to Geoff.”
-
-“Let Geoff take care of his own affairs,” said Sir Henry, angrily; and
-he gave a forcible twist to the conversation, and threw it into another
-channel; but Lady Stanton was very silent all the evening afterwards.
-She had wanted to conciliate, and she had not succeeded; and how indeed
-could she, among her hostile family, keep up any intercourse with her
-old friend?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-AT ELFDALE.
-
-
-Nevertheless this meeting could not be got out of Lady Stanton’s mind.
-She thought of it constantly; and in the stillness of her own room, when
-nobody but the little girls were by, she talked to them of the children,
-especially of little Nello, who had attracted her most. What a place of
-rest and refreshment that was for her, after all her trials with Laura
-and Lydia, and the seriousness of Sir Henry, who was displeased that she
-should have gone to Penninghame, and showed it in the way most painful
-to the soft-hearted woman, by silence, and a gravity which made her feel
-her indiscretion to her very heart. But notwithstanding Sir Henry’s
-annoyance, she could not but relieve her mind by going over the whole
-scene with Fanny and Annie, who knew, without a word said, that these
-private talks in which they delighted--in which their mother told them
-all manner of stories, and took them back with her into the time of her
-youth, and made them acquainted with all her early friends--were not to
-be repeated, but were their own special privilege to be kept for
-themselves alone. They had already heard of Mary Musgrave, and knew her
-intimately, as children do know the early companions of whom an
-indulgent mother tells them, to satisfy their boundless appetite for
-narrative. “And what are they to Mary?” the little girls asked,
-breathless in their interest about these strange children. They had
-already been told; but the relationship of aunt did not seem a very
-tender one to Annie and Fanny, who knew only their father’s sisters, old
-ladies to whom the elder girls, children of the first marriage, seemed
-the only legitimate and correct Stantons, and who looked down upon these
-little interlopers as unnecessary intruders. “Only their aunt!--is that
-all?”
-
-They were not in Lady Stanton’s room this time, but seated on an ottoman
-in the great bow-window, one on either side of her. Laura and Lydia were
-out; Sir Henry was in his library; the coast was clear; no one was
-likely to come in and dismiss the children with a sharp word, such
-as--“Go away, little girls--there is no saying a word to your mother
-while you are there!” or “The little ones again! When we were children
-we were kept in the nursery.” The children were aware now that when such
-speeches were made, it was better for them not to wait for their
-mother’s half-pained, half-beseeching look, but to run away at once, not
-to provoke any discussion. They were wise little women, and were, by
-nature, of their mother’s faction in this house, where both they and
-she, though she was the mistress of it, were more or less on sufferance.
-But at present everybody was out of the way. They were ready to fly off,
-with their pretty hair fluttering like a gleam of wings, should any of
-their critics appear; but the girls had gone a long way, and Sir Henry
-was very busy. It was a chance such as seldom occurred.
-
-“All? when children have not a mother, their aunt is next best;
-sometimes she is even better--much better,” said Lady Stanton, thinking
-in her heart that John’s wife was not likely to have been of any great
-service to her children. “And Mary is not like any one you know. She is
-a beautiful lady--not old, like Aunt Rebecca--though Aunt Rebecca is
-always very kind. I hope you have not forgotten those beautiful sashes
-she gave you.”
-
-“I don’t think very much of an aunt,” said Fanny, who was the saucy one,
-with a shrug of her little shoulders.
-
-“It must be different,” said Annie, hugging her mother’s arm. They were
-not impressed by the happiness of those poor little stranger children in
-being with Mary. “Has the little girl got no name, mamma--don’t you know
-her name? You say Nello; but that is the boy; though it is more like a
-girl than a boy.”
-
-“It is German--or something--I don’t remember. The little girl is called
-Lilias. Oh yes, it is a pretty name enough, but I don’t like it. I once
-knew one whom I did not approve of----”
-
-“We knew,” said Fanny, nodding her head at Annie, who nodded back again;
-“Mamma, we knew you did not like the little girl.”
-
-“I! not like her! Oh, children, how can you think me so unjust? I hope I
-am not unjust,” cried Lady Stanton, almost with tears. “Mary is very
-proud of her little niece. And she is very good to little Nello. Yes,
-perhaps I like him best, but there is no harm in that. He is a
-delightful little boy. If you could have had a little brother like
-that----”
-
-“We have only--big brothers,” said Annie, regretfully; “that is
-different.”
-
-“Yes, that is different. You could not imagine Charley with long, fair
-curls, and a little tunic, could you?” This made the children laugh, and
-concealed a little sigh on their mother’s part; for Charlie was a big
-dragoon, and Lady Stanton foresaw would not have too much consideration,
-should they ever require his help, for the little sisters whom he
-undisguisedly felt to be in his way.
-
-“I wonder if she wishes he was a little girl.”
-
-“I wonder! How she must want to have a sister! A little brother would be
-very nice, too; we used to play at having a little brother; but it would
-not be like Fanny and me. Does she like being at the Castle, mamma?”
-
-It troubled Lady Stanton that they should think of nothing but this
-little girl. It was Lilias that had won their interest, and she could
-not tell them why it was that she shrank from Lilias. “They have left
-their poor papa all alone and sad,” she said, in a low voice. “I used to
-know him too. And it must make them sad to think of him so far away.”
-
-Once more the children were greatly puzzled. They were not on such terms
-of tender intimacy with their father as were thus suggested, but, on the
-whole, were rather pleased than otherwise when he was absent, and did
-not follow him very closely with their thoughts. They were slightly
-humbled as they realized the existence of so much greater susceptibility
-and lovingness on the part of the little girl in whom they were so much
-interested, than they themselves possessed. How she surpassed them in
-this as well as in other things! She talked German as well as English
-(if it was German; their mother was not clear what language it
-was)--think of that! So perhaps it was not wonderful that she should be
-so much fonder of her papa. And a moment of silence ensued. Lady Stanton
-did not remark the confused pause in the minds of her children, because
-her own mind was filled with wistful compassion for the lonely man whom
-she had been thinking of more or less since ever she left Penninghame.
-Where was he, all alone in the world, shut out from his own house, an
-exile from his country--even his children away from him, in whom perhaps
-he had found some comfort?
-
-This momentary silence was interrupted abruptly by the sound of a voice.
-“Are you there, Cousin Mary? and what are you putting your heads
-together about?”
-
-At this sound, before they found out what it was, the children
-disengaged themselves suddenly each from her separate clinging to her
-mother’s arm, and approached each other as if for flight; but, falling
-back to their places when they recognized the voice, looked at each
-other, and said both together, with tones of relief, “Oh, it’s only
-Geoff!”
-
-Nothing more significant of the inner life of the family, and the
-position of these two little intruders, could have been.
-
-Geoff came forward with his boyish step and voice in all the smiling
-confidence of youth. “I thought I should startle you. Is it a story that
-is being told, or are you plotting something? Fanny and Annie, leave her
-alone for a moment. It is my turn now.”
-
-“O Geoff! it is about a little girl and a boy--mamma will tell you too,
-if you ask her; and there’s nobody in. We thought at first you were
-papa, but he’s so busy. Come and sit here.”
-
-Geoff came up, and kissed Lady Stanton on her soft, still beautiful
-cheek. He was a son of the house, and privileged. He sat down on the
-stool the children had placed for him. “I am glad there’s nobody in,” he
-said. “Of course the girls will be back before I go; but I wanted to
-speak to you--about something.”
-
-“Shall the children go, Geoff?”
-
-“Fancy! do you want them to hate me? No, go on with the story. This is
-what I like. Isn’t it pleasant, Annie and Fanny, to have her all to
-ourselves? Do you mind me?”
-
-“Oh, not in the least, Geoff--not in the very least. You are like--what
-is he like, Annie?--a brother, not a big brother, like Charley: but
-something young, something nice, like what mamma was telling us of--a
-_little_ brother--grown up----”
-
-“Is this a sneer at my height?” he said; “but go on, don’t let me stop
-the story. I like stories--and most other pleasant things.”
-
-“It was no story,” said Lady Stanton. “I was telling them only of some
-children:--you are very good and forgiving, Geoff--but I fear you will
-be angry with me when you know. I was--out by myself--and
-notwithstanding all we have against them, I went to see Mary Musgrave.
-There! I must tell you at once, and get it over. I shall be sorry if it
-annoys you; but Mary and I,” she said, faltering, “were such friends
-once, and I have not seen her for years.”
-
-“Why should I be annoyed--why should I be angry? I am not an avenger.
-Poor Cousin Mary! you were out--by yourself!--was that your only reason
-for going?”
-
-“Indeed it is true enough. It is very seldom I go out without the girls:
-and they--feel strongly, you know, about that.”
-
-“What have they to do with it? Yes, I know: they are _plus royalistes
-que le roi_. But this is not the story.”
-
-“Yes, indeed it is, my dear boy. I was telling Annie and Fanny of two
-poor children. They belong to a man who is--banished from his own
-country. He did wrong--when he was young--oh so many, so many years
-ago!--and he is still wandering about the world without a home, and far
-from his friends. He was young then, and now--it is so long ago;--ah,
-Geoff, you must not be angry with me. The little children are with Mary.
-She did not tell me much, for her heart did not soften to me as mine did
-to her. But there they are; the mother dead who was at the bottom of it
-all; and nobody to care for them but Mary; all through something that
-happened before they were born.”
-
-Lady Stanton grew red as she spoke, her voice trembled, her whole aspect
-was full of emotion. The young man shook his head--
-
-“I suppose a great many of us suffer from harm done before we were
-born,” he said, gravely. “This is no solitary instance.”
-
-“Ah, Geoff, it is natural, quite natural, that you should feel so. I
-forgot how deeply you were affected by all that happened then.”
-
-“I did not mean that,” he said, gravely. His youthful face had changed
-out of its light-hearted calm. “Indeed I had heard something of this,
-and I wanted to speak to you----”
-
-“Run away, my darlings,” said Lady Stanton; “go and see what--nurse is
-about. Make her go down with you to the village and take the tea and
-sugar to the old women in the almshouses. This is the day--don’t you
-remember?”
-
-“So it is,” said Annie. “But we did not want to remember,” said Fanny;
-“we liked better to stay with you.”
-
-However, they went off, reluctant yet obedient. They were used to being
-sent away. It was seldom their mother who did it, willingly--but
-everybody else did it with peremptory determination--and the little
-girls were used to obey. They untwined themselves from her arms, to
-which they had been clinging, and went away close together, with a soft
-rush and sweep as of one movement.
-
-“There go the doves,” said Geoff, looking after them with kind
-admiration like that of a brother. It pleased Lady Stanton to see the
-friendly pleasure in them which lighted the young man’s eyes. Whoever
-married him, he would always, she thought, be a brother to her neglected
-children, who counted for so little in the family. She looked after them
-with that mother-look which, whether in joy or sorrow, is close upon
-tears. Then she turned to him with eyes softened by that unspeakable
-tenderness:
-
-“Whatever you wish,” she said. “Tell me, Geoff; I am ready to hear.”
-
-“I am as bad as the rest. You have to send them away for me too.”
-
-“There is some reason in it this time. If you have heard about the
-little Musgraves you know how miserable it all is,” said Lady Stanton.
-“The old man will have nothing to say to them. He lets them live there,
-but takes no notice--his son’s children! And Mary has everything upon
-her shoulders.”
-
-“Cousin Mary, will it hurt you much to tell me all about it?” said the
-young man. “Forgive me, I know it must be painful; but all that is so
-long over, and everything is so changed----”
-
-“You mean I have married and forgotten,” she said, her lips beginning to
-quiver.
-
-“I scarcely remember anything about it,” said Geoff, looking away from
-her that his eyes might not disturb her more, “only a confused sort of
-excitement and wretchedness, and then a strange new sense of importance.
-We had been nobodies till then--my mother and I. But I have heard a few
-things lately. Walter,--will it pain you if I speak of him?”
-
-“Poor Walter!--no. Geoff, you must understand that Walter loved somebody
-else better than me.”
-
-She said this half in honest avowal of that humiliation which had been
-one of the great wonders of her life, partly in excuse of her own easy
-forgetfulness of him.
-
-“I have heard that too, Cousin Mary, with wonder; but never mind. He
-paid dearly for his folly. The other----”
-
-“Geoff,” said Lady Stanton, with a trembling voice, “the other is living
-still, and he has paid dearly for it all this time. We must not be hard
-upon him. I do not want to excuse him--it would be strange if I should
-be the one to excuse him; but only----”
-
-“I am very sorry for him, Cousin Mary. I am glad you feel as I do.
-Walter may have been in the wrong for anything I know. I do not think it
-was murder.”
-
-“That I am sure it was not! John Musgrave was not the man to do a
-murder--oh, no, no; Geoff! he was not that kind of man!”
-
-Geoff looked up surprised at her eager tone and the trembling in her
-voice.
-
-“You knew him--well?” he said, with that indifferent composure with
-which people comment upon the past, not knowing what depths those are
-over which they skim so lightly. Could he have seen into the agitation
-in Lady Stanton’s heart! But he would not have understood nor realized
-the commotion that was there.
-
-“I always--took an interest in him,” she said, faltering; and then she
-felt it her duty to do her best for him as an old friend. “I had known
-him all my life, Geoff, as well as I knew Walter. He was hasty and
-high-spirited, but so kind--he would have gone out of his way to help
-any one. Before he saw that young woman everybody was fond of John.”
-
-“Did you know _her_ too?”
-
-“No, no; I did not know her. God forbid! She was the destruction of
-every one who cared for her,” said Lady Stanton with a little outburst.
-Then she made an effort to subdue herself. “Perhaps I am not just to
-her,” she said with a faint smile. “She was preferred to me, you know,
-Geoff; and they say a woman cannot forget that--perhaps it is true.”
-
-“How could he? was he mad?” Geoff said. Geoff was himself tenderly,
-filially in love with his cousin Mary. He thought there was nobody in
-the world so beautiful and so kind. And even now she was not understood
-as she ought to be. Sir Henry thought her a good enough wife, a faithful
-creature, perfectly trustworthy, and so forth. It was in this light that
-all regarded her. Something better than an upper servant, a little
-dearer than a governess; something to be made use of, to do everything
-for everybody. She who, Geoff thought in his enthusiasm, was more lovely
-and sweet than the youngest of them, and ought to be held pre-eminent
-and sacred by everybody round her. This was not the lot that had fallen
-to her in life.
-
-“So I am not the best judge, you see,” said Lady Stanton with a little
-sigh. “In those days one felt more strongly perhaps. It all seems so
-vivid and clear,” she added half apologetically, though without entirely
-realizing how much light these half-confessions threw on her present
-state of less lively feeling, “that is the effect of being young----”
-
-“I think you will always be young,” he said tenderly; then added after a
-pause, “Was it a quarrel about--the woman?--” He blushed himself as he
-said so, feeling the wrong to her--yet only half knowing the wonder it
-was in her thoughts, the double pain it brought.
-
-“I think so. They were both fond of her; and Walter ought not to have
-been fond of her. John--was quite free. He was in no way engaged to any
-one. He had a right to love her if he pleased. But Walter interfered,
-and he was richer, greater, a far better match. So I suppose she
-wavered. This is my own explanation of it. They met then when their
-hearts were wild against each other, and there was a struggle. Ah,
-Geoff! Has it not cost John Musgrave his life as well as Walter? Has he
-ever ventured to show himself in his own country since? And now their
-poor little children have come home to Mary; but he will never be able
-to come home.”
-
-“It is hard,” said Geoff thoughtfully. “I wish I knew the law. Fifteen
-years is it? I was about six then. Could anything be done? I wonder if
-anything could be done.”
-
-She put her hand on his shoulder with an affectionate caressing touch,
-“Thanks for the thought, my dear boy--even if nothing could be done.”
-
-“You take a great deal of interest in him, Cousin Mary?”
-
-“Yes,” she said quickly; “I told you we were all young people together;
-and his sister was my dear friend. We were called the two Maries in
-those days. We were thought--pretty,” she said with a vivid blush and a
-little laugh. “You may have heard?”
-
-Geoff kissed the pretty hand which had been laid on his shoulder, and
-which was perhaps a little fuller and more dimply than was consistent
-with perfection. “I have eyes,” he said, with a little of the shyness of
-his years, “and I have always had a right as a Stanton to be proud of my
-cousin Mary. I wonder if Miss Musgrave is as beautiful as you are; I
-don’t believe it for my part.”
-
-“She is far prettier--she is not stout,” said Lady Stanton with a sigh;
-and then she laughed, and made her confession over again with a
-half-jest, which did not make her regret less real, “and I have lost my
-figure. I have developed, as people say. Mary is as slim as ever. Ah,
-you may laugh, but that makes a great difference; I feel it to the
-bottom of my heart.”
-
-Geoff looked at her with tender admiration in his eyes. “There has never
-been a time when I have not thought you the most beautiful woman in all
-the world,” he said, “and that all the great beauties must have been
-like you. You were always the dream of fair women to me--now one, now
-the other--all except Cleopatra. You never could have been like that
-black-browed witch----”
-
-“Hush! boy. I am too old to be flattered now; and I am stout,” she
-said, with that faint laugh of annoyance and humiliation just softened
-by jest. Geoff’s honest praise brought no blush to her soft matronly
-cheeks, but she liked it, as it pleased her when the children called her
-“Pretty Mamma.” They loved _her_ the best, though people had not always
-done so. The fact that she had grown stout did not affect their
-admiration. Only those who have known others to be preferred to
-themselves can realize what this is. After a moment’s hesitation, she
-added in a low voice: “I wonder--will you go and see them? It would have
-a great effect in the neighbourhood. Oh, Geoff, forgive me if I am
-saying too much; perhaps it would not be possible, perhaps it might be
-wrong in your position. You must take the advice of somebody more
-sensible, less affected by their feelings. Everybody likes you, Geoff,
-and you deserve it, my dear; and you are Lord Stanton. It would have a
-great effect upon the county; it would be almost like clearing him----”
-
-“Then I will go--at once--this very day,” said Geoff, starting up.
-
-“Oh no, no, no,” she said, catching him by the arm; “first of all you
-must speak to--some one more sensible than me.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-THE OTHER SIDE.
-
-
-While Lady Stanton spread the news of the arrival of the Musgrave
-children among the upper classes, this information was given to the
-lower, an equally or perhaps even more important influence in their
-history, by an authority of a very different kind, to whom, indeed, it
-would have been bitter to think that she was the channel of
-communication with the lower orders. But such is the irony of
-circumstances that it was Mrs. Pennithorne, who prided herself upon her
-gentility, and who would have made any sacrifice rather than descend to
-a sphere beneath her, who conveyed the report, which ran through the
-village like wildfire, and which spread over the surrounding country as
-rapidly and effectually as if it had been made known by beacons on the
-hill-tops. The village was more interested in the news than any other
-circle in the county could be, partly because the reigning house in a
-village is its standing romance, the drama most near to it, and most
-exciting when there is any drama at all; and partly for still more
-impressive personal reasons. The Castle had done much for the district
-in this way, having supplied it with more exciting food in the way of
-story and incident than any other great house in the north country.
-There had been a long interval of monotony, but now it appeared to all
-concerned that the more eventful circle of affairs was about to begin
-again. The manner in which the story fully reached the village was
-simple enough. Mrs. Pennithorne had, as might have been expected, failed
-entirely with Mary’s frock. It would not “come” as she wanted it to
-come, let her do what she would; and when all her own efforts had
-failed, and the stuff was effectually spoiled, soiled, and crumpled, and
-incapable of ever looking better than second-hand under any
-circumstances, she called in the doctor, as people are apt to do when
-they have cobbled at themselves in vain. The dress doctor in Penninghame
-and the neighbourhood, the rule of fashion, the grand authority for
-everything in the way of _chiffons_, was a certain Miss Price, a lively
-little old woman, who had one of the best houses in the village, where
-she let lodgings on occasion, but always made dresses. She had been in
-business for a great many years, and was an authority both up and down
-the water. It was not agreeable to Miss Price to be called in at the
-last moment, as it were, to heal the ailments of Mary’s frock; but
-partly because it was the clergyman’s house, and partly because of the
-gossip which was always involved, she obeyed the summons, as she had
-done on many previous occasions. And she did her best, as Mrs.
-Pennithorne had done her worst, upon the little habiliment. “Ladies know
-nothing about such things,” the little dressmaker said, pinning and
-unpinning with energetic ease and rapidity. And the Vicar’s wife, who
-looked on helpless but admiring, accepted the condemnation because of
-the flattery involved; for Mrs. Pen was elevated over Miss Price by so
-brief an interval that this accusation was a kind of acknowledgment of
-her gentility, and did her good, though it was not meant to be
-complimentary. She liked to feel that hers was that ladylike uselessness
-which is only appropriate to high position. She simpered a little, and
-avowed that indeed she had never been brought up to know about such
-things; and while Miss Price put the spoiled work to rights the Vicar’s
-wife did her best to entertain the beneficent fairy who was bringing the
-chaos into order. She did not blurt out suddenly the news with which she
-was overbrimming, but brought it forth cunningly in the course of
-conversation in the most agreeable way.
-
-“Is there any news, Miss Price?” she said; “but I tell the Vicar that
-nothing ever happens here. The people don’t even die.”
-
-“I beg your pardon, ma’am. There’s two within the last three months; but
-to be sure they were long past threescore and ten.”
-
-“That is what I say. It’s so healthy at Penninghame. Look at the old
-Squire now, how hale and hearty he is--and after all he has come
-through.”
-
-“Yes, he has come through a deal,” said Miss Price, putting her pins in
-her mouth, “and that’s too true.”
-
-“Poor old man; and still more and more to put up with. Have you seen the
-children, Miss Price? Oh dear! didn’t you know? Perhaps I ought not to
-have mentioned it; but people cannot hide up children as they hide
-secrets. I have been living here for ten years, and I scarcely know the
-rights of the story about John Musgrave yet.”
-
-“Children!” said Miss Price, with a start which shook the pins out of
-her fingers. “To be sure--that came in a coach from Pennington with a
-play-acting sort of a woman? But what has that to do with Mr. John?”
-
-The dressmaker dropped Mary’s frock upon her knees in the excitement of
-her feelings. There was more than curiosity involved. “To be sure,” she
-said. “To be sure!” going on with her own thoughts, “where should they
-come but to the Castle? and who should have them but his family?
-’Lizabeth Bampfylde is an honest woman, but not even me, I wouldn’t
-trust the children to her. His children! though they would be hers
-too----”
-
-“What do you mean, Miss Price?” said Mrs. Pen, half offended; “are you
-going out of your senses? I tell you something about the Squire’s
-family, and you get into a way about it as if it could be anything to
-you.”
-
-Miss Price recovered her composure with a rapid effort, but her little
-pale countenance reddened.
-
-“Nothing to me, ma’am,” she said, with what she felt to be a proper
-pride. “But if Mr. John has children, they had a mother as well as a
-father; and there was a time when that was something to me.”
-
-“Oh!” cried the Vicar’s wife, “then you knew Mrs. John? tell me about
-her. She was a low girl, that is all I know.”
-
-“She was no low girl, whoever told you,” cried the little dressmaker.
-“She was one as folks were fond of, as fond as if she had been a
-princess. She was no more low than--I am; she was----”
-
-“Oh, I did not mean to offend you, Miss Price. Of course I know how
-respectable you are--but not the equal of the Squire, you know, or
-of----”
-
-Miss Price looked at the woman who had spoiled Mary’s frock. There she
-stood, limp, and faded, and genteel, with no capacity in her fingers and
-not much in her head, with a smile of conscious superiority yet
-condescension. Miss Price was not her equal. “Good Lord! as if I would
-be that useless,” she said to herself, “for all the money in the world!
-or to be as grand as the Queen!” But though she was at once exasperated
-and contemptuous, politeness and policy at once forbade her to say
-anything. She would not “set up her face to a lady,” even when so very
-unimpressive as Mrs. Pennithorne; and it did not become the dressmaker
-in the village to be openly scornful of the Vicar’s wife. She saved
-herself by taking up again with energy and devotion the scattered pins
-and the miserable little spoiled bodice of Mary’s frock.
-
-“I am glad you know about this girl,” said Mrs. Pen, satisfied to have
-subdued her opponent, “for I want so much to hear about her. One cannot
-get much information from a gentleman, Miss Price. They tell you, ‘Oh
-yes, she was a pretty creature!’ as if that is all you cared to know.”
-
-“It’s what tells most with the gentlemen, ma’am,” said Miss Price,
-recovering her composure. “Yes, that she was. I’ve looked at her many a
-time and said just the same to myself. ‘Well, you are a pretty
-creature!’ I don’t wonder if their heads get turned when they are as
-pretty as that; though it isn’t only the pretty ones that get their
-heads turned. The girls that I’ve had through my hands! and not one in
-ten that went through with the business and kept it up as it ought to be
-kept up.”
-
-“Was Mrs. John Musgrave in the business? Was she in your hands? I
-declare! Did he marry her from your house?”
-
-“She was come of wild folks,” said Miss Price; “there was gipsy blood in
-them. They had a little bit of a sheep farm up among the hills in their
-best days, and a lone house, where there wasn’t a stranger to be seen
-twice in a year. ’Lizabeth Bampfylde, that’s her mother, comes about the
-village still. I can’t tell you what she does, she sells her eggs and
-chickens, and maybe she does tell fortunes. I won’t say. She never told
-me mine. I took a fancy to the lass, and I said, ‘Bring her to me. I’ll
-take her; I’ll train her a bit. Oh, how little we know! If I had but let
-her bide on the fells!--but what a pretty one she was! Such eyes as she
-had; and a skin that wasn’t to say dark--it was brown, but so clear!
-like the water when the sun is in it.”
-
-“You seem to think a great deal of people being pretty.”
-
-“So I do, ma’am, more than I ought. A woman should have more sense. I’m
-near as easy led away as the gentlemen. But there’s different kinds of
-beauty, and that is what they never see as want it most. There’s pretty
-faces that I can’t abide. They seem to give me a turn. Now that’s where
-the men fails,” said the little dressmaker; “all’s one to them, good or
-bad, they never see any difference. Lily was never one of the bad ones,
-poor dear. Lily? yes, that was the young woman; but she’s not such a
-young woman, not a girl now. She’ll be thirty-seven or eight, close upon
-that, if she’s living this day.”
-
-“She is not living--she died five years ago; and Miss Musgrave won’t
-believe me that she ought to go into black for her,” said Mrs.
-Pennithorne.
-
-“Ah!” said Miss Price with a sharp cry. She dropped her work at her feet
-with an indifference to it which deeply aggrieved Mrs. Pen. The
-announcement took her altogether by surprise, and went to her heart.
-“Dead! oh my poor Lily, my poor Lily! Was I thinking ill o’ thee? Dead!
-and so many left--and her in her prime!” Sudden sobs stopped the good
-little woman’s speech, with which she struggled as she went on, making a
-brave effort to recover herself as she picked up the little dress. “I
-beg your pardon, ma’am, but it was so sudden; it took me unprepared. Oh,
-ma’am, that’s the worst of it when you have to do with girls. Few of
-them go through with the business, though it would be best for them;
-they turn every one to her own way; that’s Scripture, but I mean it.
-They marry, and they think themselves so grand with their children, and
-it kills ’em. Oh, if I had but left her on the fells! or if she had
-stuck by the business like me!”
-
-“I did not think you took so much interest in her,” said Mrs. Pen,
-feeling guilty. “If I had known you cared, I would have been more
-careful what I said. But nobody seemed to think much of _her_. It is
-always the Musgraves the Vicar speaks of.”
-
-“The Vicar thought of nothing but Miss Mary,” said Miss Price hastily;
-then she corrected herself, “I mean of womanfolk,” she said; “the
-Musgraves, ma’am, as you say, that was all he thought of. And that’s
-always the way, as far as I can judge. The gentry thinks of their own
-side, and we that are but small folks, we think of ours; it’s natural.
-Miss Musgrave was not much to me. I never made her but one thing, and
-that was a cotton, a common morning frock; she was too grand to have her
-things made by the likes of me; but Lily, she sat by my side and sewed
-at the same seam. And she’s dead! the bonniest lass on all the water, as
-the village folks say.”
-
-“You don’t talk like the village folks, Miss Price.”
-
-“No. I’m from the south, as they call it--except when a word creeps in
-now and again through being so long here. It’s all pinned and straight,
-ma’am, now. It was done almost before I heard the news--and I’m glad of
-it, for my eyesight goes when I begin to cry. I don’t think you can go
-wrong now,” said Miss Price with a sigh, knowing the powers of her
-patroness in that direction. “It’s as well as I can make it--pinned and
-basted, and straight before your hand. No, thank you kindly, nothing
-for me. I’m that put out that the best thing I can do is to get home.”
-
-“But dear me, Miss Price--as she is not even a relation!”
-
-“A relation, what’s that? A girl that you’ve brought up is more than a
-relation,” cried the dressmaker, forgetting her manners. And she made up
-her patterns tremulously in a little bundle, and hurried out with the
-briefest leavetaking, which was not civil, Mrs. Pennithorne said
-indignantly. But Miss Price, in her way, was as important as the Vicar’s
-wife herself, being alone in her profession, and enjoying a monopoly. It
-is possible to be rude, when you are a monopolist, without damage to
-your trade; but this, to do her justice, was not the motive which
-actuated the little dressmaker, who, in her nature, was anxiously
-polite, and indisposed to offend any one; but the news she had heard was
-too much for all her little decorums. She made a long round out of her
-way to pass by the Castle, though she could scarcely tell why she did
-so--nor it was not the children that were most in her mind. Indeed she
-scarcely remembered them at all, in her excitement of pain and hot grief
-which took the shape of a kind of fiery resentment against life and
-nature. Children! what was the good of the children--helpless things
-that took a woman’s life, and made even the rest of death bitter to her,
-wringing her heart with misery to leave them after costing her her life!
-She was an old maid not by accident, but by nature; and what were a
-couple of miserable little children in exchange for the life of Lily!
-But when, not expecting to see them, not thinking of them save in this
-bitter way, Miss Price saw the two children at the door of the hall,
-another quick springing sensation rose suddenly in her hasty soul. She
-went slowly past, gazing at them, trying to say to herself that she
-hated the sight of them, Lily’s slayers! But her kind heart was too much
-for her quick temper, and as soon as they were out of sight, the little
-dressmaker sat down by the wayside and cried, sobbing like a child.
-Little dreadful creatures, who had worn their mother to death, and
-killed her in her prime! Poor little forlorn orphans, without a mother!
-She did not know which feeling was the warmest and strongest. But she
-reached home so shaken between the two emotions, that her present
-assistant, who filled the place to which Miss Price had hoped to train
-Lily, and who was a good girl with no nonsense in her head, fully
-intending to go through with the business, was frightened by the
-appearance of her principal, who stumbled into the little parlour all
-garlanded with paper patterns, with tremulous step and blanched cheeks,
-as if she had seen a ghost.
-
-“Something’s to do!” cried the girl.
-
-Miss Price made no immediate reply, but sank into a chair to get her
-breath.
-
-“Oh nothing; nothing you know of,” she said at last, “nothing that need
-trouble you;” and then after a pause, “nothing that will warn you even,
-not one of you, silly things. You’d all do just the same to-morrow,
-though it was to cost you your lives.”
-
-“I’ll run and get you a cup of tea,” said Sarah, which showed her to be
-a young woman of sense. Where lives the woman to whom this cordial,
-promptly and as it were accidentally administered, does not do good?
-Miss Price gradually recovered herself as she sipped the fragrant tea,
-and told her story with many sighs and lamentations, yet not without a
-certain melancholy pleasure.
-
-“If girls would only think,” she said; “if they would take a warning;
-but ne’er a one of you will do that. You think it’s grand to marry a
-gentleman; but it would be far better to go through with the business
-like I’ve done, far better! though you’ll never think so.”
-
-Sarah was respectfully sympathetic; she shook her head with a look of
-awe and melancholy acquiescence; but nevertheless she did not think so.
-She was only twenty, and thirty-seven was a good age. To marry a
-gentleman, even at the risk of dying at thirty-seven like Lily, was
-better than living till sixty like Miss Price; but she did not say so.
-She acquiesced, and even cried over the lost Lily, whom she had never
-seen, with the easy emotion of a girl. She herself meant sincerely to go
-through with the business; but anyhow Sarah was as much excited by the
-news as heart could desire. Miss Price was very determined that it
-should not be talked of, that the story should not be spread in the
-village. “Don’t let them say _again_ it came from us,” she said; but
-however that might be, before the next morning it had spread through
-the parish, and beyond the parish. Such things get into the atmosphere.
-What can conceal a secret? It is the one thing certain to be found out,
-and which every one is bound to know. There was nothing else talked
-about in the cottages or when neighbours met, for some days. The men
-talked of it over their beer, even, in the public-houses. “She were a
-bonnie lass,” the elder ones said; and all the girls in the district
-felt that they individually might have been Lily, and felt sad for her.
-The children (who could not be hid) were followed by eager looks of
-curiosity when they appeared, and the resemblance of Lilias to her
-mother was too remarkable not to strike every one who had known her; and
-the entire story which had excited the district so deeply in its time,
-and which, with its mixture of all the sentiments which are most
-interesting to humanity, was almost as exciting still as ever, was
-retold, a hundred times over, for the benefit of the younger generation.
-In these lower regions, as was natural, the interest all centred in the
-beautiful girl, who, though “come of wild folk,” and not even an
-appropriate bride for a well-to-do hopeful of the village, had “the
-offer of” two gentlemen, one the young lord, and the other the young
-squire. Had such fortune ever come before to a lass from the fells? How
-she had been courted! not as the village lovers wooed with a sense of
-equality, at least, if not perhaps something more; but John Musgrave and
-young Lord Stanton had thought nobody in the world like her. And the
-young lord, poor fellow! had even broken his word for her, a sin which
-was but a glory the more to Lily in the eyes of the village
-critics--however bitterly it might have been condemned had his forsaken
-bride been a village maiden too. That this rivalry should have gone the
-length of blood, all for Lily’s sweet looks, was a thing the middle-aged
-narrators shook their heads over with many a moral, “You see what the
-like of that comes to, lasses,” they said. But the lasses only put their
-heads closer, and felt their hearts beat higher. To be fought for, to be
-died for! It was terrible, no doubt, but glorious. “Such things never
-happen nowadays” they said to themselves with a sigh.
-
-And the news did not stop down below in the plain, but mounted with the
-winds and the clouds, and reached lone places in the fells, where it
-raised a wilder excitement still--at least in one melancholy and
-solitary place.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-AN AFTERNOON’S WORK.
-
-
-“You must not cry, Nello; for one thing you are too big to cry; or if
-you are not too big you are too old. You are eight--past! and then the
-old gentleman downstairs is such a funny, funny old man, that he will
-eat us, Nello, if we make a noise.”
-
-“I don’t believe you,” said the little boy, whom England had much
-improved in strength. “Old men do not eat children,” but he drew back a
-little, and stopped crying all the same.
-
-“We do not know no-ting about old men in England,” said Lilias--the _th_
-was still a difficulty to her; and they both pronounced their _rs_ in a
-way which was unfamiliar to English ears, though the letter exists and
-retains its natural sound in the north country. “They are very very
-strange; they sit in a chair all day, like the wild beasts. I go to the
-door and peep in. He has no cap on his head like Don Pepé, but a bare
-place here, where the cap should be, and white hair. And he never moves
-nor speaks. Sometimes I think he will be cut out of wood; and then all
-at once he rises up,--and me, I run away.”
-
-“Are you not afraid, Lilias? I should be frightened,” said the little
-boy, looking at her with large wondering eyes.
-
-“That is because you are only eight, but I am twelve, and one is never
-frightened after twelve. I run away, and it makes me beat and thump
-here,” Lilias put her hand to her heart to indicate the place, “and I
-like it.”
-
-“Yes,” said the little brother, “when you run it makes that beat; but I
-do not like it.”
-
-“Ah, you are a baby,” said Lilias. She stood with her dark hair shaken
-back, and her eyes shining, an image of visionary daring. Nothing could
-be more unlike than these two children. The boy had all the features of
-his race, blue eyes, fair hair, with a touch of gold in it, a fair
-complexion, browned and reddened, indeed, with his long journey and the
-warm sun he had been used to, but already changing into the pink and
-white of English childhood. But there were none of the Musgrave features
-in Lilias. Her dark eyes, dancing with life and energy, her warm colour,
-clear brown with an underlying rose tint, and a downy bloomy surface
-which softened every outline, and her crisp, yet shining dark hair, all
-belonged, not only to a different species, but to a different type of
-race. The Musgraves were robust and strong, but their strength was not
-of this buoyant kind. The cloud of anxiety which had been about her on
-her first appearance, that mystery of doubt with which a little human
-creature regards the strange and novel, in whatever form, not knowing if
-harm or good may be coming, had floated away, and Lilias had already
-taken back her natural character. She was at home in the house, every
-room of it, though she knew that she was hidden and thrust into corners,
-on account of “the old gentleman downstairs.” This did not depress or
-trouble her, but felt like a joke, a mystification and masquerading such
-as is dear to childhood. She threw herself into the spirit of it with
-enjoyment, instead of brooding over it with melancholy consciousness,
-which was what Mary, forgetting childhood, as all grown people do, had
-feared.
-
-The children were in the hall, which had now grown so familiar to them
-that they could not understand how they had ever feared it. It was one
-of those exceptional days which occur now and then in the winter before
-the turn of the year. The whole world was full of sunshine. There was
-not a cloud in the sky, and the great green hill in front of them rose
-up in dazzling clearness of relief, like a visible way of ascent into
-heaven. There was not a breath stirring; the trees, without a leaf upon
-them, printed themselves against the blue of the sky and the green of
-the hill, in minute perfection of branch and twig, like a photograph.
-The lake was as still and as blue as the sky--everything lay in the
-sunshine charmed and stilled, hanging motionless as it were between
-earth and heaven. The sense that it was mid-winter, the natural season
-of storms, seemed to have got into the air, which wondered over its own
-stillness, and into the skies, which excelled themselves in lightness
-and soft blueness, snatching this moment of delight with a fearful joy.
-Earth took that ecstasy as one who was well aware that she could not
-answer for the morrow. The great doorway of the hall stood wide open; it
-was after mid-day, and the sun streamed in, having got to the west so
-much earlier than in summer. Lilias and her little brother, children of
-the sun, were planted in the midst of it, enjoying it with unconscious
-exhilaration. Martuccia sat in the open doorway, basking in it,
-knitting; a tranquil, almost motionless figure, with that faculty of
-repose which is no doubt awarded to nurses in compensation for the
-endless calls upon their activity. She had put a little tartan
-shawl--congenial garment--upon her fine shoulders, and, with her silver
-pins and glowing black hair all whitened by the sunshine, sat perfectly
-motionless except for the little rustle of her hands and click of her
-knitting-needles. It seemed immaterial whether it might be years or
-moments that the robust and comely watcher should hold that peaceful
-guardian place. She was paying no attention to the children, yet the
-lightest appeal, a querulous exclamation, a longer pause than usual,
-anything or nothing, would have brought her to her nurselings. It was
-the repose of the mother, who sees everything and feels everything, even
-when she does not see: and the additional security which her presence
-brought to them, though she sat apart and had nothing to do with their
-talk or their play, the strong support of the background which she made,
-it would be hard to tell in words. They had been playing in the spacious
-place, all lighted and warmed through and through with sunshine. Miss
-Musgrave had not yet made her appearance; either she had less time to
-spend in her favourite resort, or the fact that it had been appropriated
-to the children, as specially suitable in its size and separateness for
-their enjoyment, had made her relinquish its use. The great bay window
-in the recess gave back a reflected light from the shining of the lake,
-which added a colder tone to the prevailing brightness; and in the old
-fireplace there burned a smouldering fire, half coals half wood. Every
-feature of the place had grown familiar to the two little things who
-were once so alarmed by its dark corners--so familiar that they could
-not understand how they had ever been afraid. The kind old spacious
-silent hall sheltered them with a large passive protection not unlike
-that of Martuccia herself.
-
-But the afternoon languor had stolen upon the boy and girl,
-notwithstanding the brightness. They, had come to a pause in their round
-of amusement, and though half-tired, were yet looking about with all
-their quick senses for some new delight. A little scuffle, a little
-quarrel and crying fit on Nello’s part, which had been put a stop to by
-the warning of Lilias already recorded, had left them free for a new
-start, but not with the old plays, which were worn out for the moment.
-They made an unconscious pause, and looked about them to find some
-novelty; and both pounced upon one at the same moment with a burst of
-sudden and unlooked-for rapture. A great broad sheet of something white
-lay stretched out on Mary’s table, in company with an open colour-box
-and brushes--a sight too tempting to be resisted by any child,
-especially after the exhaustion of a long day’s play. It was wonderful
-that they had overlooked it so long. They caught sight of it
-simultaneously now, and the result was a sudden rush of eager curiosity.
-The boy got first to the goal; perhaps he had been by a second of time
-the first to start. He grasped one side of the white sheet with his hot
-little hand, and climbing into the chair which stood before it, threw
-himself upon the new wonder. “It is Mary’s,” said Lilias, making a
-feeble effort to hold him back; but her own curiosity was much stronger
-than her sense of duty to Mary, who allowed them to see everything and
-share everything she had. They both leant over the table breathless, the
-mysterious whiteness crackling beneath their hands. It was a sheet of
-dazzling white vellum, ornamented with what they considered beautiful
-pictures, a puzzling, yet a tempting sight to the children. It was
-nothing less than a genealogical tree, their own pedigree, which Miss
-Musgrave, skilled in such works, was preparing for her father,
-ornamented with emblazoned coats of arms, some of them unfinished and
-inviting completion with a seductive force which made the children’s
-hearts beat.
-
-“What is it?” said Nello, in a tone of awe.
-
-“I know,” said Lilias, confidently; “it is a copy. You have had no
-education, you don’t know what a copy is: but me, I have done them,
-though never any so pretty as this. Mary is a grown-up lady, old, not
-like us; it must be Mary’s copy. You should not touch it, you are too
-little.”
-
-“I will try,” cried Nello, with his eyes upon the brushes. Already he
-had rubbed against something not yet dry, and had smudged the colour, to
-the horror of his sister. He had both his elbows upon it and the greater
-part of his small person.
-
-“Oh, what have you done, you naughty boy!” cried Lilias; “you cannot do
-it. Let me!”
-
-“Yes, I will do it, I will do it!” cried Nello, seizing the crackling
-vellum and dashing at it with a brush full of colour. Lilias had to
-stand and look on, sorest of miseries, while her little brother
-performed badly what she felt she could have done well. There was a
-large shield in the centre, upon which the cherished “augmentation,” the
-chief ornament of the Musgrave arms, was slightly drawn. Gules on a
-shield argent, it ought to have been--Nello made a blurred dash of
-bright blue, surrounded by a sea of red. “How it is pretty!” he cried in
-his half-foreign speech, with a crow of triumph. Colour upon colour! and
-such colour! the sight would have driven Mr. Musgrave wild.
-
-Lilias uttered a cry of horror; but the work of destruction was very
-captivating. Close to the vellum was the original draught of the
-genealogical tree, from which Mary had been copying. Lilias took
-possession of this, and carried it away to the table in the recess. She
-meant only to look at it, but the temptation was too much for her. At
-the bottom of the page an escutcheon void of all colour gradually caught
-her eye, a little white space which might be made, she thought, to
-resemble the others with great advantage to the whole. That this came
-opposite to the name of John Musgrave was nothing to the child, but the
-sight of it wrought her by degrees into a sort of creative frenzy. She
-would not spoil it as Nello was doing, but to complete what was wanting
-could be no harm. Lilias took a brush and filled it with fine broad
-vermilion, a colour about which there could be no mistake, and painted
-the vacant shield a strong decided gules, safe from any accident. The
-outline was not very firm, and there were overflowings and runs of
-colour outside, but at all events the hue was undeniable. She was
-standing looking at it with a satisfied yet agitated mind, with the
-brush still in her hand, when her elbow was grasped by some one behind
-and a hand laid on her shoulder. In the start she gave, the child’s arm
-made a nervous jerk of the brush over the paper, and ran a tremulous
-line of red over some half-dozen of the kindred names. “Mary!” she cried
-with a sudden perception of wrong-doing. But Lilias did not weep or
-excuse herself. She got quite pale, with a red spot on each cheek, and
-stood, not even dropping the brush, looking up at her judge, with the
-corners of her mouth suddenly turned downwards, and a gleam of awakened
-understanding in her alarmed eyes.
-
-“Lilias! I thought I could trust you; what have you been doing?” cried
-Mary. “And Nello?” she added, looking round with dismay at the more
-important work. Nello had already been roused to that instinctive sense
-of harm which comes with the arrival of an aggrieved person. But he did
-not face his victim as Lilias did. He threw down his streaming pencil on
-the vellum, got down from his chair in the twinkling of an eye, and fled
-to take shelter with Martuccia, who, ever ready to defend, and yet
-unaware who was wrong, put an arm round him at once and faced Miss
-Musgrave with prompt defiance.
-
-“Oh Mary!” cried Lilias, trembling, “Nello did not mean it. He is so
-little. Nello did not know.”
-
-Mary was not so angelically sweet as to be indifferent to the damage
-done, but she had not the freedom of reproof which people exercise with
-children familiar to them. The little meddlers were still strangers. So
-she restrained herself and said nothing. She went to the parchment and
-began to sponge off the still wet colour. Nello kept in his refuge
-regarding her from afar, ready to bolt behind Martuccia if she made any
-hostile advances and hide himself in his nurse’s skirt. But Lilias
-followed Miss Musgrave closely as her shadow. She watched the sponging
-with the gravest anxious attention. She kept herself close against
-Mary’s dress, touching it, and put herself in Mary’s way, and interposed
-her wistful face, now quite pale and troubled, between the vellum and
-Mary’s eyes. At last her aunt said, perhaps somewhat peevishly, “What do
-you want, child? You have done harm enough for one morning. Pray go out
-of my way.”
-
-“Have we done much harm?” said Lilias, with strained and anxious eyes.
-
-“Yes; you have spoiled my week’s work, you mischievous children,” said
-Mary, melting a little. “I shall have to do it over again. I did not
-expect this, Lilias, from you.”
-
-“It was very, very bad of me,” said the child, with perfect seriousness,
-her eyes slowly filling; “but Nello is such a little fellow--he did not
-know----”
-
-“Then why did you do it, Lilias?”
-
-The child looked up searchingly into her face. “I think it must have
-been the devil,” she said, with portentous gravity, drawing a heavy
-sigh.
-
-An impulse of laughter came to Miss Musgrave in the midst of her
-annoyance; but partly she restrained it for high moral reasons, and
-partly she was still too much annoyed to give way to laughter. “What do
-you know about--the devil?” she said. “I think it was your own little
-mischievous hands, and your curiosity.”
-
-“Oh, I know a great deal about him. Mr. Pennithorne told us on Sunday;
-and Martuccia must be of the same religion as Mr. Pen, for she worships
-him too,” said Lilias, aware of the advantages of digression when things
-were so serious as they were now.
-
-“Worships him, Lilias! You must not use such words.”
-
-“They are always thinking of him, and they say he does everything. They
-are very, very afraid of him,” said Lilias seriously, “and so am I--he
-can do whatever he pleases; but I cannot think he is as strong as God.”
-
-“And it was he who made you spoil my papers----?”
-
-“Oh, Mary, not Nello--only me. Nello is such a little fellow, he did not
-mean it--he did not know what he was doing----”
-
-“And did you?”
-
-Lilias pressed very close against Mary’s side. Her heart was beating
-loudly in her brave little bosom. Her sense of crime had not been
-lightened by the postponement of the punishment which must, she
-thought, be coming. But it was not in her to fly as her brother had
-done. She took a furtive hold of Mary’s gown. No hope of any forgiveness
-was in her serious soul; yet to whom could she cling in earth and heaven
-but only to this inflictor of stern justice? She kept her eyes fixed on
-Mary’s face, that she might see the fearful doom which was coming--that
-would always be a help in bearing it--and kept close to her, pressing
-against her. “_Aie-tu peur de moi? cache-toi dans mes bras_”--this was
-the child’s impulse in her penitence and terror.
-
-Mary forgot her vellum and its stains. She put her arm round the child,
-whose eyes opened a little wider thinking the judgment was coming, but
-who never shrank. “You will not do it again,” she said. Lilias could not
-understand that it was over. She bent back a little the better to see
-Mary’s face.
-
-“Will you not punish me?” said the child. Between the fear and the
-wonder she was breathless. This was the most wonderful of all.
-
-“No, dear--you will never do it again.”
-
-“Nor Nello?” She put her arms round Mary’s arm, with that soft clinging
-which is irresistible in a child, and leant her head against her, and
-began to sob as if her heart would break. Then Nello, seeing the worst
-was over, came out from his shelter, venturing a few steps, then a few
-more. Forgiveness did not touch him, as punishment would have done. He
-came slowly, ready to turn and fly at any hostile demonstration. Nello
-had, as it were, an army at his back, his ships to take refuge in; but
-still it was with great caution that he made his advance. This little
-exhibition of character, however, soon melted in a more agreeable
-sentiment. As soon as the contingency was over, both the children,
-restored to a tremulous ease of mind, were seized with a common impulse
-of curiosity and interest. They forgot their own culpability in watching
-the obliteration of the damage they had done. Fortunately the discovery
-had been made in time, and the process of reparation, if not so
-exciting, was almost as interesting to them as the delicious frenzy of
-mischief in which they had wrought this harm. They pressed upon Mary as
-she worked, one at each side. When the last trace had disappeared they
-gave a cry of joy. How clever Mary was! She could do everything. As for
-Nello, he was unmoved morally by the spectacle; it had been amusing all
-through, all but the moment of fear, which fortunately came to nothing.
-But Lilias never forgot this scene, and still less did Mary forget it,
-whose heart seemed to be learning a hundred sweet and subtle lessons,
-and to whom the child, even in her naughtiness, was like an angel,
-leading her to depths unsounded, nay, unthought of till now.
-
-But when they had gone away, joyous as usual, to their “tea,” which was
-a meal much scorned and wondered at by Martuccia, Mary went to the other
-table where lay the draught of the more important document upon which
-Lilias had been employed when she came into the hall. At this she smiled
-and shuddered, with a curious mixture of feelings. The little girl’s
-mischief had taken a symbolical form. The blank shield which represented
-her mother was blurred and blood-red, and a stroke like blood ran across
-her father’s name; and that of her father’s father, from the little pool
-of red in the daubed shield. Lilias knew nothing of the lives from which
-her little life had sprung. It was accident, caprice, a child’s fancy
-for bright colour--yet it made Mary shudder even when she smiled.
-
-Another incident, which she paid less attention to--indeed, did not
-think of at all--happened this same evening. She went to the door where
-Martuccia had been seated, her own favourite place, though now in great
-part given up to the children and their attendant, to look out upon the
-evening before she left the hall. When she had looked at the sky where
-the early wintry sunset was just over, leaving deep gorgeous tints of
-red and yellow upon a blue which was deepened by coming frost, Mary’s
-look came back, carelessly enough, by the lower level of the long brown
-road. And it was with a momentary start that she found herself almost
-face to face with an unthought-of spectator, who was standing at the
-foot of the little slope, gazing intently up to the hall door. Mary was
-puzzled to see that though the woman’s appearance was like that of many
-of the older women about, she did not know her; and at the same time she
-was equally perplexed by a consciousness that the face looking up at her
-thus eagerly was not that of a stranger. She could not associate it with
-any name, yet she seemed acquainted with the features, which were fine,
-and of an unusual cast. The stranger’s look was so intense that it
-struck Miss Musgrave like an audible petition. “Did you want anything?”
-she said with natural courtesy, making a step towards her. The woman
-turned sharp round on her heels with a hasty wave of her hand, and went
-hurriedly away towards the village without further reply. Who could she
-be? Mary asked herself lightly, and went in and forgot all about her.
-The people are independent in their ways, and not grateful for a casual
-address, in the north.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-VISITORS.
-
-
-“My Lord Stanton, ma’am,” said Eastwood, with a certain expansion in the
-throat and fulness of voice, like that swell and gurgle which
-accompanies in a bird the fullest tide of song. Who has not heard that
-roll in the voice of the man who mouths a title like a succulent morsel?
-A butler who loves his family, and who has the honour of announcing to
-them the visit of the greatest potentate about, is a happy man. And this
-was what Eastwood felt, as he uttered with a nightingale trill and swell
-of satisfaction this honoured name.
-
-“Lord--_whom_----?” Mary rose to her feet so much startled that she did
-not know what she said.
-
-“Lord Stanton, ma’am,” the butler repeated. “He asked if you would
-receive him. He said as he would not come in till I asked would you
-receive him, ma’am. I said you was at home, and not engaged--but he
-said----”
-
-“Lord Stanton!” The name seemed to hurt her, and a kind of dull fear
-rose in Mary’s mind. She knew, of course, who it was! the young
-successor of the man who, with intention or not, her brother had brought
-to his death. She knew well enough about Geoff. It had not been possible
-to hear the name at any time without interest, and in this way Mary had
-learned as much as strangers knew of the young lord. But what could he
-want here? A subdued panic seized her. She did not know what he could
-do, or if he could do anything; but that he should come merely as a
-friend did not seem probable. And how then had he come? She made a
-tremendous pause before she said, “Let him come in, Eastwood.” Eastwood
-thought Miss Musgrave was very properly impressed by the name of the
-young lord.
-
-Geoff, for his part, waited outside, anxious as to how he was to be
-received, and very desirous in his boyish generosity to make a good
-impression. He had driven to Penninghame, a long way, and his horses,
-drawn up at the door, made a great show, when the children passed,
-stealing round the corner like little intruders, but so much attracted
-by this sight, that they almost forgot their orders never to approach
-the hall door. Geoff himself was standing at some distance from his
-phaeton, waiting for his answer; but even Lilias was old enough to know
-that to address commendatory remarks and friendly overtures to a horse
-or a dog is more easy and natural than to address a man. She said, “Oh,
-look, Nello, what lovely horses!” but only ventured to look up shyly
-into the friendly face of their owner, though she was not without an
-impression that he, too, was nice, and that he might give his friends a
-drive perhaps, with the lovely horses, a service which was not in the
-power of the animals themselves.
-
-Geoff went up to them, holding out his hand. “You are the little
-Musgraves, I suppose?” he said.
-
-The boy hung back, as usual, hanging by Martuccia’s skirts. “Yes,” said
-Lilias, looking at him intently, as she always did; and she added at
-once, “This is Nello,” and did her best to put her small brother in the
-foreground, though he resisted, holding back and close to his protector.
-
-“Is he shy, or is he frightened? He need not be frightened of me,” said
-Geoff, unconsciously conscious of the facts between them which might
-have caused the child’s timidity had he been old enough to know. “Nello
-is an odd name for a boy.”
-
-“Because you do not know where he came from,” said Lilias quickly.
-“Nello is born in Florence. Here you will call him John. It is not so
-pretty. And me, I am born in France,” she continued; “but we are
-English children. That does not make any difference.”
-
-“Don’t you think so?” said simple Geoff. The little woman of twelve who
-thus fixed him with her great beautiful eyes, made him feel a boy in
-comparison with her mature childhood. She never relaxed in her watchful
-look. This was a habit Lilias had got, a habit born of helplessness, and
-of the sense of responsibility for her brother which was so strong in
-her mind. That intent, half-suspicious vigilance, as of one fully aware
-that he might mean harm, and quick to note the approach of danger,
-disconcerted Geoff, who meant nothing but good. “I know two little
-girls,” he said, trying to be conciliatory, “who would like very much to
-know you.”
-
-“Ah!” said Lilias, melting a little, but shaking her head. “I have to
-take care of Nello; but if they would come here, and would not mind
-Nello,” she added, “perhaps I might play with them. I could
-ask--Mary----”
-
-“Who is--Mary?”
-
-“Oh! don’t you know? If you do not know Mary we should not talk to
-you--we only ought to talk to friends--and besides, you have no right to
-call her Mary if you do not know her,” said Lilias. She turned back to
-say this after she had gone a few steps away from him, following Nello,
-who, tired of the conversation, had gone on with his guardian to the
-Chase.
-
-“That is quite true, and I beg your pardon,” said Geoff; “it must be
-Miss Musgrave you mean.”
-
-Lilias nodded approving. She began to take an interest in this big boy.
-He was not strictly handsome, but had a bright, attractive countenance,
-and the child scarcely ever saw any male creature except Eastwood and
-Mr. Pen. “Have you come to see her?” she asked wistfully; “are you going
-to be a--friend?”
-
-“Yes,” said Geoff with a little emotion, “if she will let me. I am
-waiting to know. And tell me your name?” he added, with a slight tremor
-in his voice, for he was young and easily touched. “I will always be a
-friend to you.”
-
-“I am Lilias,” she said shyly, giving him her hand, for which he had
-held out his. And this was how Eastwood found them when he came bustling
-out to inform my lord that Miss Musgrave would see his lordship, if he
-would be good enough to step this way. Eastwood was much “struck” to see
-his lordship holding “little Miss’s” hand. It raised little Miss in the
-butler’s opinion. “If she had been a bit older, now!” he said to
-himself. Geoff was half reluctant to leave this little new acquaintance
-for the audience which he had come here expressly to ask. Mary was not
-likely to be so easily conciliated as little Lilias. And being a lord
-did not make him less shy. He waved his hand and took off his hat with a
-little sigh, as he followed Eastwood into the house; and Lilias, for her
-part, followed Nello slowly, with various thoughts in her small head.
-These it must be allowed were chiefly about the little girls who wanted
-to make friends with her--and of whom her lonely imagination made
-ecstatic pictures--and of the lovely horses who could spin her away over
-the broad country, if that big boy would let them. But Lilias did not
-think very much about the big boy himself.
-
-Geoff went in blushing and tremulous to Miss Musgrave’s drawing-room. It
-was not a place so suitable to Mary as her favourite hall, being dark
-and somewhat low, not worthy either of her or of Penninghame Castle. She
-was standing, waiting to receive him, and after the bow with which he
-greeted her, Geoff did not know what to say to disclose his object. His
-object itself was vague, and he had no previous knowledge of her, as his
-cousin Mary had, to warrant him in addressing her. She offered him a
-chair, and she sat down opposite him; and then there began an
-embarrassing pause which she would not, and which he did not seem able
-to, break. At last, faltering and stammering--
-
-“I came, Miss Musgrave,” he began, “to say--I came to tell you--I came
-to ask--Circumstances,” cried Geoff, impatient of his own incapacity,
-“seem to have made our families enemies. I don’t know why they should
-have done so.”
-
-“If the story is true, Lord Stanton, it is easy enough to see how they
-should have done so. My brother was concerned, they say, in your
-brother’s death.”
-
-“No one could prove that he did it, Miss Musgrave.”
-
-“He did not do it with intention, I am sure,” she said. “But so much is
-true. It was done, and how could we be friends after? We should have
-been angels--you to pardon the loss you had sustained, we to pardon the
-wrong we had done.”
-
-There was a gleam of agitation and pain in her eyes which might well
-have been taken for anger. The young man was discouraged.
-
-“May I not say anything, then?” he said, wistfully. “My cousin Mary,
-Lady Stanton, whom you know, told me--but if you are set against us too,
-what need to say anything? I had hoped indeed, that you----”
-
-“What did you hope about me? I should be glad of any approach. I grieved
-for your brother as if he had been mine. Oh more, I think, more! if it
-had been poor John who had died----”
-
-“It would have been better,” said the young man. “Yes, yes, Miss
-Musgrave, that is what I feel; Walter had the best of it. Your brother
-has been more than killed. But I came to say, that so far as we are
-concerned, there need not be any more misery. Let him come home, Miss
-Musgrave, let him come home! We none of us can tell now how Walter
-died.”
-
-Mary was moved beyond the power of words. She got up hastily and took
-his hand, and pressed it between her own.
-
-“Thank you, I shall always thank you!” she cried, “whether he comes home
-or not. Oh, my dear boy, who are you that come with mercy on your lips?
-You are not like the rest of us!”
-
-Mary was thinking of others, more near, whose wrongs were not as the
-Stantons’, but whom nothing could induce to forgive.
-
-“I am my mother’s son,” said Geoff, his eyes brighter than usual, with a
-smile lighting up the moisture in them. What Mary said seemed a tribute
-to his mother, and this made him glad. “She does not know, but she would
-say so. Let him come home. I heard of the children, and that your
-brother----”
-
-“Yes,” said Miss Musgrave, “from Mary. She told you. She always took an
-interest in him. Do you know,” she added in a low voice of horror, “that
-there is a verdict against him, a coroner’s verdict of murder?”
-
-She shuddered at the word as she said it, and so did he.
-
-“But not a just one. No jury would say it was--that: not now----”
-
-“Heaven knows what a jury would say. It is all half forgotten now; and
-as for the dates, and all those trifles that tell in a trial, who knows
-anything about them? Even I--could I swear to the hour my brother went
-out that morning? I could once, and did, and it is all written down. But
-I don’t seem sure of anything now, not that there ever was a Walter
-Stanton, or that I had a brother John; and I am one of the interested;
-the people who were not specially interested, do you think they would
-have better memories? Ah, no; and he fled; God help him! I don’t know
-why he did it. That was against him; though I don’t think anyone
-believes that John Musgrave did _that_, now.”
-
-“I am sure they do not, and that is why I came. Let him come home, Miss
-Musgrave. He would not have been convicted had he been tried. I have
-been reading it all up, and I have taken advice. He would be cleared.
-And if there is risk in it, we would all stand by him. I would stand by
-him,” said the young man with a generous flush of resolution, “so much
-as I am worth. I want you to tell him so. Tell him to come home.”
-
-Mary shook her head. How long she had been calm about this terrible
-domestic tragedy, and how it all rose upon her now! She got up, in her
-agitation, and walked about the room.
-
-“How could he risk it--how could he risk it--with that sentence against
-him?” she said; then after a while she came back to her seat, and looked
-at Geoff piteously with a heartrending look in her eyes. She was past
-crying, which would have relieved her. “That is not all,” she said in a
-low voice. “Alas, alas! if all was well, and he might come home when he
-pleased, it would matter less. I know nothing about him, Lord Stanton. I
-don’t know my brother any longer, nor where he is, nor how he is living
-now.”
-
-“But his children have just come to you!”
-
-“Yes, out of the unknown. No one knows anything about him; and suddenly
-they came out of the darkness, as I tell you. That is where he is: out
-in the world, in the dark, in the unknown----”
-
-“There are ways of penetrating the unknown,” said Geoff, cheerfully.
-“There are advertisements; everybody sees the _Times_ nowadays. It goes
-all over the world. Wherever there is an Englishman he sees it somehow.
-Let us advertise.”
-
-“He would not see it.”
-
-“Then a detective--let us send some one----”
-
-“Oh no, no, no,--not that. I could not bear that. We must let him alone
-till he comes of his own accord. Let well alone,” said Mary, in her
-panic. She scarcely knew what she said.
-
-“Well! do you call it well, Miss Musgrave, that your brother should be
-away from his home, from everything he loves--his country lost to him,
-his position, all his friends?”
-
-“He has not been separated from everything he loves; he had wife and
-children; does a man care for anything else? What was this old house to
-him, and--us--in comparison? His wife is dead--that was God’s doing; and
-his children have come home--that is his own choice. I say, let well
-alone, Lord Stanton; when he wishes it he will--come--back; but not to
-those he loves,” Mary said in a low tone.
-
-Geoff could not fathom her meaning, it was beyond him. The accusation
-under which John Musgrave lay was bad enough. It was cowardly of him (he
-thought) to fly and leave this stigma, uncontested, upon his own name;
-but that there should be any further mystery did not seem possible to
-the young man. Perhaps there was something wrong with the family, some
-incipient insanity, monomania, eccentricity. He could not understand it.
-But at least he had shown his goodwill, if no more.
-
-“I must not dictate to you, Miss Musgrave,” he said; “you know best,”
-and he rose to go away, but stood hesitating, reluctant to consent to
-the failure of his generous mission. “If I can be of any use, at any
-time,” he added, blushing and faltering; “not that I can do much: but if
-you should--change your mind--if you should--think----”
-
-She took his hand once more in both of hers.
-
-“I shall always think that you have the kindest and most generous heart:
-and are a friend--a true friend--to John, and everybody in trouble.”
-
-“I hope so,” said the youth, fervently; “but that is nothing;--to you,
-Miss Musgrave, if I can ever be of any use.”
-
-“I will ask you, if it ever can be,” she said. “I will not forget.”
-
-He kept hold of her hands when she loosed them, and with a confused
-laugh and change of tone, asked “About the children? I met them just
-now. Might I bring my little cousins, Lady Stanton’s children, to see
-them? They want to meet.”
-
-“Sir Henry would not like it, though she might. Sir Henry is not like
-you.”
-
-“I know; he is _plus royalist que le roi_. But the children would. And
-they don’t deny me anything,” said Geoff, with a little laugh.
-
-He scarcely knew why this was--but it was so; nothing was denied to him;
-he was the _enfant gâté_ of Elfdale. Miss Musgrave was not, however,
-quite so complacent. She gave an assent which was cold and unwilling,
-and which quenched Geoff’s genial enthusiasm. He went back to his
-phaeton quite subdued and silent. “But I will see that little thing
-again,” he said to himself.
-
-In the mean time, while this conversation had been going on, Lilias had
-wandered forth alone into the Chase. Martuccia had gone before with
-Nello, while Lilias talked to the young man; and now the child followed
-dreamily, as she was in the habit of doing, her eyes abstracted, her
-whole being rapt in a separate consciousness, which surrounded her like
-an atmosphere of her own. She knew vaguely that the little brother and
-his nurse were in front of her; but the watchfulness of Lilias had
-relaxed, and she was not thinking of Nello. He was safe; here was no one
-who could interfere with him. She had taken up a branch of a tree which
-lay in her path and had caught her childish fancy, and with this she
-went on, using it like a pilgrim’s staff, and saying a kind of low
-chant, without words, to herself, to which the rough staff was made to
-keep time. What was she thinking of? everything, nothing; thought indeed
-was not necessary to the fresh soul in that subdued elation and
-speechless gladness. There was a vague sense in her mind of the brisk
-air, the sunshine, the blue sky, the floating clouds, all in one; but
-had the clouds been low upon the trees, and the air all damp instead of
-all exhilaration, it would have made little difference to Lilias. Her
-spring of unconscious blessedness was within herself. Her song was not
-music nor her movements harmony in any way that could be accounted for
-by rule; and indeed the low succession of sounds which came from her
-lips unawares, and to which her little steps and the stroke of the rough
-stick kept time, was more inartificial than even the twittering of the
-birds. A small, passive, embodied happiness went roaming along the
-rough, woodland path, with soft-glowing abstracted eyes that saw
-everything, yet nothing; with a little abstracted soul, all freshness
-and gladness, that took note of everything, yet nothing; a little
-pilgrim among life’s mysteries and wonders, herself the greatest wonder
-of all, throbbing with a soft consciousness, yet knowing nothing. Thus
-she went pacing on under the bare trees, and murmured her inarticulate
-chant, and kept time to it, a poet in being, though not in thought. Not
-far off the lake splashed softly upon the stones of the beach, and that
-north country air, which is vocal as the winds of the south, sounded a
-whole mystery of tones and semi-tones, deep through the fir-trees,
-shrill through the beeches, low and soft over the copse; and the brook,
-half-hidden in the overgreenness of the grass, added its tinkle; all
-surrounding the little figure which gave the central point of conscious
-intelligence to the landscape; but were all quite unnecessary to Lilias
-marching along in her dream to her own music, a something higher than
-they, a thing full of other and deeper suggestions, the wonder of the
-world.
-
-Lilias woke up, however, out of this other world, all in a moment, into
-the conscious existence of a lively, brave, fancifully-timid child, when
-she found herself suddenly confronted by a stranger, who did not pass on
-as strangers usually did, making a mere momentary jar and pause in the
-visionary atmosphere, but who made a decided pause, and stopped her. A
-little thrill of fear sprang up in the child’s breast, and she would
-have hurried on, or even run away, but for the pride of honour and
-courage in her little venturesome spirit which made it impossible to
-fly. It was an old woman who stood in her path, tall but stooping,
-dressed in a large grey cloak, the hood of which covered her white thick
-muslin cap. She was a woman considerably over sixty, with handsome
-features and brilliant dark eyes, and, notwithstanding her stooping
-figure, full of vigour and power. She carried a basket on her arm under
-her cloak, and had a stick in her hand, and at her neck a red
-handkerchief just showed, which would have replaced the hood on her cap
-had it been less cold. Just so the fairy in the fairy-tales appears to
-the little maiden in the wood, the Cinderella by the kitchen-fire.
-Lilias was not at all sure that it was not that poetical old woman who
-looked at her with those shining eyes. She made a brief, instantaneous
-resolution to draw water for her, or pick up sticks, or do anything she
-might require.
-
-“Little Miss, you belong to the Castle, don’t you now? and where may you
-come from?” was what the problematical fairy said, with a something wet
-and gleaming in her eyes such as never obscures the sight of fairies.
-Lilias was overawed by the tone of eager meaning, though she did not
-understand it, in the questioning voice, yet might not have answered but
-for that feeling that it was unsafe, as much experience had proved, to
-be less than obsequiously civil to old women with wands in their hands
-who could make (if you were so naughty as to give a rude answer) toads
-and frogs drop from your mouth.
-
-“Yes,” she said, with a little tremble in her clear, childish voice. “We
-come a very, very long way--over the mountains, and then over the sea.”
-
-“Do you know the name of the place you came from, little Miss?”
-
-“Oh yes, I know it very well, we were so often there. It was Bagni di
-Lucca. It was a very, very long way. Nello----”
-
-But the child paused. Why introduce Nello? who was not visible, to the
-knowledge of this uncertain person? who, if she was a fairy, might be a
-wicked one, or, if she was a woman, might be unkind, for anything Lilias
-knew. She stopped short nervously, and it was evident that the old woman
-had not taken any notice of the name.
-
-“Little Miss, your mamma would be sorry to send you away?”
-
-“It was papa,” said the little girl, with wondering eyes. “Poor
-mamma;--I was quite little when--it was when Nello was a little, little
-small baby. Now we have nobody but papa.”
-
-The old woman staggered and almost fell, but supported herself by her
-stick for a moment, while Lilias uttered a scream of terror; then sat
-down with a groan upon a fallen tree. “It’s nothing new, nothing new,”
-she said to herself; “I felt it long ago,” and covered her face with her
-hands, with once more a heavy groan. Little Lilias did not know what to
-do. She had screamed when the old woman staggered, not knowing what was
-going to happen; but what was she to do now, alone with this strange
-companion, seated there on the fallen trunk and rocking herself to and
-fro, with her face hidden in her hands. It did not occur to the child to
-associate this sudden trouble with the information she had herself
-given. What could this stranger have to do with her? And poor mamma had
-receded far into the background of Lilias’s memory, not even now an
-occasion of tears. She did not, however, need to go into this reasoning,
-but simply supposed that the poor old fairy was ill, or that something
-had happened to her, and never at all connected effect and cause. She
-stood for a little time irresolute, then, overcoming her own fears, went
-up to the sufferer and stroked her compassionately on the shoulder. “Are
-you ill, old woman?” she said.
-
-“Oh, call me Granny--call me Granny, my pretty dear!”
-
-Lilias was more puzzled than ever; but she made up her mind that she
-would do whatever was asked of her by this disguised personage, who
-might turn into--anything, in a moment. “Yes, Granny,” she said,
-trembling, and still stroking the old woman’s shoulder. “I hope you are
-not ill.”
-
-The answer she made to this was suddenly to clasp her arms round Lilias,
-who could scarcely suppress a cry of horror. What a strange--what a very
-strange old woman! Fortunately Lilias, brought up in a country where
-servants are friends, had no feeling of repulsion from the embrace. She
-was a little frightened, and did not understand it--that was all. The
-old woman’s breast heaved with great sobs; there could be no doubt that
-she was very deeply, strongly moved. She was “very sorry about
-something,” according to Lilias’ simple explanation. She clasped the
-child close, and kissed her with a tearful face, which left traces of
-its weeping upon the fresh cheeks. The little girl wiped them off,
-wondering. How could she tell why this was? Perhaps it was only to try
-her if she was the kind of little girl who was uncivil, or not; but she
-did not indeed try to account for it. It was not very pleasant, but she
-put up with it, partly in fear, partly in sympathy, partly because, as
-we have said, she had no horror of the too near approach of a poor old
-woman, as an English-bred child might have had. Poor old creature, how
-sorry she was about something! though Lilias could not imagine what it
-was.
-
-“God bless you, honeysweet,” said the old woman. “You’ve got her dear
-face, my jewel. It isn’t that I didn’t know it years and years ago. I
-was told it in my sleep; I read it in the clouds and on the water. Oh,
-if you think I wasn’t warned! But you’ve got her bonnie face. You’ll be
-a beauty, a darling beauty, like the rest of us. And look you here,
-little Miss, my jewel. If you see me when the gentry’s with you you’ll
-take no notice; but if you see me by myself you’ll give me a kiss and
-call me Granny. That’s fixed between us, honey, and you won’t forget?
-Call me Granny again, to give me a little comfort, my pretty dear.”
-
-“Yes, Granny,” said the child, trembling. The old woman kissed her
-again, drying her tears.
-
-“God bless you, and God bless you!” she said. “You can’t be none the
-worse of your old Granny’s blessing. And mind, if you’re with the
-gentlefolks you’ll take no notice. Oh, my honeysweet, my darling child!”
-
-Lilias looked after her with wondering, disturbed eyes. What a strange
-old woman she was! How strange that she should behave so! and yet Lilias
-did not attempt to inquire why. Grown-up people in her experience did a
-great many strange things. It was of no use trying to fathom what they
-meant, and this strange old person was only a little more strange than
-the rest, and startling to the calm little being who had grown in the
-midst of family troubles and mysteries without divining any of them.
-Strangely enough, the old woman felt equally independent of any
-necessity for explanation. It seemed so clear in her mind that everybody
-must know the past and understand her claims, whatever they were. She
-had no more idea of the tranquillity of innocent ignorance in Lilias’s
-mind than the little girl had of the mysteries of her experience. Lilias
-watched her going away through the high columns of the trees with great
-wonder yet respect, and it was not till she had disappeared that the
-little girl went on after Nello. Nello would have been frightened by
-that curious apparition. He would have cried perhaps, and struggled, and
-would not have said Granny. Perhaps he would have angered her. What a
-good thing that Nello had not been here!
-
-
-
-
-PART IV.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-FAMILY CARES.
-
-
-Lilias did not say much about the adventure in the wood, nothing at all
-indeed to Mary or any one in authority; nor did it dwell in her mind as
-a thing of much importance. The kind of things that strike a child’s
-mind as wonderful are not always those which would most impress an older
-person. There were many things at Penninghame very curious and strange
-to the little girl. The big chimneys of the old house, for instance, the
-sun-dial in the old garden, and on a lower level the way in which Cook’s
-cap kept on, which seemed to Lilias miraculous, no means of securing it
-being visible. She pondered much on these things, trying to arrive at
-feasible theories in respect to them, but there was no theory required
-about the other very natural incident. That an old woman should meet her
-in the woods, and kiss her, and ask to be called granny, and cry over
-her,--there was nothing wonderful in that; and indeed if, as she already
-suspected, it was no old woman at all, but a fairy, such as those in the
-story-books, who would probably appear again and set her tasks to do,
-much more difficult than calling her granny, and end by transforming
-herself into a beautiful lady--this would still remain quite
-comprehensible, not by any means unparalleled in the experience of one
-who had already mastered a great deal of literature treating of such
-subjects. She was interested but not surprised, for was it not always to
-a child or children by themselves in a wood that fairies did speak? She
-told Nello about the meeting, who was not surprised any more than she
-was; for though he was not very fond of reading himself, he had shared
-all his sister’s, having had true histories of fairies read to him
-almost ever since he could recollect anything. He made some cynical
-remarks prompted by his manhood, but it was like much manly cynicism,
-only from the lips, no deeper. “I thought fairies were all dead,” he
-said.
-
-“Oh, Nello; when you know they are spirits and never die! they are
-hundreds and hundreds of years older than we are, but they never die;
-and it is always children that see them. I thought she would tell us to
-do something----”
-
-“I would not do something,” said Nello; “I would say, ‘Old woman, do it
-yourself.’”
-
-“And do you know what would happen then?” said Lilias, severely;
-“whenever you opened your mouth, a toad or a frog would drop out of it.”
-
-“I should not mind; how funny it would be! how the people would be
-surprised.”
-
-“They would be frightened--fancy! every word you said; till all round
-there would be things creeping and creeping and crawling all over you;
-slimy cold things that would make people shiver and shriek. Oh!” said
-Lilias recoiling and putting up her hands, as if to put him away; “the
-frogs! squatting and jumping all over the floor.”
-
-At this lively realization of his problematical punishment, Nello
-himself grew pale, and nervously looked about him. “I would kill her!”
-he cried, furiously; “what right would she have to do that to me?”
-
-“Because you did not obey her, Nello.”
-
-“And why should I obey her?” cried the boy; “she is not papa, or
-Martuccia--or Mary.”
-
-“But we must always do what the fairies tell us,” said Lilias, “not
-perhaps because they have a right--for certainly it is different with
-papa--but because they would hurt us if we didn’t; and then if you are
-good and pick up the sticks, or draw the water from the well, then she
-gives you such beautiful presents. Oh! I will do whatever she tells
-_me_.”
-
-“What kind of presents, Lily? I want a little horse to ride--there are a
-great many things that I want. Do fairies give you what you want, or
-only what they like?”
-
-This was a puzzling question; and on the spur of the moment Lilias did
-not feel able to answer such a difficulty. “If you do it for the
-presents, not because they ask you, they will not give you anything,”
-she said; “that would be all wrong if you did it for the presents.”
-
-“But you said----”
-
-“Oh, Nello; you are too little, you don’t understand,” cried the elder
-sister, like many another perplexed authority; “when you are older you
-will know what I mean. I can tell you things, but I can’t make you
-understand?”
-
-“What is it he cannot understand?” said Mary, coming suddenly upon their
-confidential talk. The two children came apart hastily, and Lilias, who
-had two red spots of excitement on her cheeks, looked up startled, with
-lips apart. Nello laughed with a sense of mischief. He was fond of his
-sister, but to get her into trouble had a certain flavour of fun in it,
-not disagreeable to him.
-
-“It is about the fairies,” he cried, volubly. “She says you should do
-what they tell you. She says they give you beautiful presents. She says,
-she----”
-
-“Oh, about the fairies!” said Mary, calmly, with a smile, going on
-without any more notice. Lilias was very angry with her brother, but
-what was the use? And she was frightened lest she should be made to look
-ridiculous, a danger which is always present to the sensitive mind of a
-child. “I will never, never talk to you again,” she said to him under
-her breath; but knew she would talk to him again as soon as her mind
-wanted disburdening, and was not afraid.
-
-And of how many active thoughts, and wonderful musings, and lively
-continued motion of two small minds and bodies, the old hall was witness
-in those quiet days! Mary coming and going, and the solid figure of
-Martuccia in the sunshine, these two older and more important persons
-were as shadows in comparison with that ceaseless flow of existence. The
-amount of living in the whole house beside, was not half equal to that
-which went on in the motherly calm of the old hall, which held these two
-small things like specks in its tranquil embrace, where so much had come
-to pass. There was always something going on there. Such lively
-counterfeitings of the older life, such deeply-laid plans, dispersed in
-a moment by sudden changes of purpose, such profound gravity upset by
-the merest chance interruption, such perpetual busyness without thought
-of rest. Their days went on thus without hindrance or interruption,
-nothing being required of them except to be amused and healthy, and
-competent to occupy and please themselves. Had they been dull children,
-or subject to the precocious _ennui_ which is sometimes to be seen even
-in a nursery, no doubt measures would have been taken to bring about a
-better state of affairs; but as they were always busy, always gay, they
-were left completely to their own devices, protected, sheltered, and
-ignored, enjoying the freedom of a much earlier age, a freedom from all
-teaching and interference, such as seldom overpasses the first five
-years of human life. Mary had her whole _métier_ to learn in respect to
-the children, and there were many agitating circumstances which
-pre-occupied her mind and kept her from realizing the more simple
-necessities of the matter. It had cost her so much to establish them
-there, and the tacit victory over fate, unnatural prejudice, and all the
-bondage of family troubles, had been so great, that the trembling
-satisfaction of having gained it blunted her perceptions of further
-necessity. It was from a humble quarter that enlightenment first came to
-her. Her teacher was Miss Brown, her maid, who had early melted to the
-children, and who by this time was their devoted vassal, and especially
-the admiring slave of Nello, whom, with determined English propriety,
-she called Master John. Miss Brown’s affection was not unalloyed by
-other sentiments. Her love for the children indeed was intensified by
-strenuous disapproval of their other guardians--Martuccia with her
-foreign fashions, and Miss Musgrave, who was ignorant as a baby herself,
-and knew nothing about “children’s ways.” Between these two incapable
-persons her life became a burden to Miss Brown. “I can’t get my night’s
-rest for thinking of it,” she said to Cook, who like herself had the
-interest of many years’ service in the “the family.” “I would up and
-speak,” said Cook. “Speak!” cried Miss Brown, “I’m always speaking; but
-what can a body do, when folks won’t understand?” It is the lament of
-the superior intelligence over all the world. However, Miss Brown
-finally made up her mind to speak, and did so, pointing out that Master
-John was eight, though he looked no more than six, and that “schooling”
-was indispensable. The suggestion when once made could not be disputed,
-and it raised a great perturbation in Mary’s breast. She sent away the
-maid with some haste and impatience, but she could not send away the
-thought.
-
-And the more Mary thought upon this matter, the more serious it grew;
-she brooded over it till her head ached; and she was glad beyond measure
-to see Mr. Pennithorne coming slowly along the road. She could see him
-almost from the moment his spare figure turned the corner from the
-village; the outline and movement of him was so familiar to her, as he
-grew upon the quiet distance drawing nearer and nearer. It was seldom
-that she anticipated his approach with so much satisfaction. Not that
-Mr. Pennithorne, good man, was likely to invent an outlet out of a
-difficulty, but he was the only person to whom she could talk with
-absolute freedom upon this subject, and to put it forth in audible
-words, and set it thus in order to her own ear and mind, was always an
-advantage. How like Mr. Pen it was to come on so quietly step after
-step, while she was waiting impatient for him! not a step quicker than
-usual, no swing of more rapid motion in the droop of his long coat. Why
-should he quicken his steps? She laughed to herself at her own childish
-impatience. Ought he not to have divined that she wanted him urgently
-after all these years? Mary had gone into the hall, the children being
-absent on their daily walk. They were so much in her thoughts that she
-was glad to get them out of her sight for the moment and thus relieve
-the air which rustled and whispered with them. She went out to meet the
-slowly approaching counsellor. It was summer by this time, and all was
-green and fair, if still somewhat cold in its greenness to a southern
-eye. The sunshine was blazing over the lake, just approaching noon, and
-the sky was keenly blue, so clear that the pleasure of it was almost a
-pain, where the green shoulder of the hill stood against it in high
-relief. It was seldom that Mary was at leisure so early, and very seldom
-that in the morning when both were busy she should have a visit from Mr.
-Pen. As she made a few steps down the slope that led from the hall door,
-to meet him, the sunshine caught her full, streaming from behind the
-corner of the house. It caught in her hair, and shone in it, showing its
-unimpaired gloss and brightness. Mr. Pennithorne was dazzled by it as he
-came up, and asked himself if she was superior to time as to most things
-else, and, after all those years, was young as well as lovely still?
-
-“I am very glad to see you,” she said, holding out her hand. “I just
-wanted you; it is some good fairy that has sent you so early to-day.”
-
-His face brightened up with an answering gleam; or was it only the sun
-that had got hold of him too, and woke reflections in his middle-aged
-eyes? “I am very happy to have come when you wanted me,” he said, his
-eyelids growing moist with pleasure. He went in to the hall, where all
-was comparative dusk after that brilliant shining of the noon, and sat
-down on the stool which was Martuccia’s usual place. “Whatever you want,
-Miss Mary, here I am,” her faithful servant said.
-
-Then she unfolded to him her difficulty: “Their education!” what was she
-to do? what could be done? Mr. Pen sat by her very sympathetically and
-heard everything. He was not very clever about advising, seeing that it
-was generally from her that he took advice, instead of giving it. But he
-listened, and did not see his way out of it, which of itself was a
-comfort to Mary. If he had been clever, and had struck out a new idea at
-once, it is doubtful whether she would have liked it half so well. She
-went into the whole question, and eased her mind at least. What was she
-to do? Mr. Pen shook his head. He was quite ready to take Nello, and
-teach him all he remembered, after a life spent in rural forgetfulness,
-of Latin and Greek; but Lilias! and Lilias was the most urgent as being
-the eldest. There was no school within reach, and a governess, as Mr.
-Pen suggested with a little trembling--a governess! where could Mary put
-her,--what could she do with her? It seemed hopeless to think of that.
-
-“I don’t know what you will think of what I am going to say--but there
-is Randolph, Miss Mary; he is a family man himself. I suppose--of
-course--he knows about the children?”
-
-“Randolph!” said Mary, faltering; “Mr. Pen, you know what Randolph is as
-well as I do.”
-
-“People change,” said Mr. Pen, evasively. “It is not for me to say
-anything; but perhaps--he ought to know.”
-
-“He has never taken any interest in the house; he has never cared to
-be--one of us,” said Mary. “Perhaps because he was brought up away from
-us. You know all about it. When he came back--when he was with you and
-poor John---- You know him as well as I do,” she concluded abruptly. “I
-don’t see what help we could have from him.”
-
-“He is a family man himself,” said the vicar. “When children come they
-bring new feelings; they open the heart. He was not like you--or poor
-John; but he was like a great many people in this world; he would not be
-unkind. You write to him sometimes?”
-
-“Once or twice a year. He writes to ask how my father is--I often wonder
-why. He has only been here once since--since it all happened. He would
-not have it known that he was one of the family which was so much talked
-about--that he was the brother of----” Mary stopped with a flash of
-indignation in her eyes. “He has separated himself altogether from us,
-as you know; but he asks from time to time how my father is, though I
-scarcely know why.”
-
-“And you have told him, I suppose, about the children?”
-
-“No, Mr. Pen; he turned his back upon poor John from the beginning. Why
-should I tell him? what has he to do with it? We have left our subject
-altogether talking of Randolph, who is quite apart from it. Let us go
-back to our sheep--our lambs in this case. What is to be done with
-them?”
-
-“I will do what I can for them, as I did for their father,” said the
-vicar. “I was thinking that little Johnny must very soon--and Mary might
-as well--They can come to me for an hour or two every day; that would be
-something. But I think Randolph should be told. I think Randolph ought
-to know. He might be thinking, he might be calculating----”
-
-“What, Mr. Pen?” Mary confronted him with head erect and flashing eyes.
-“Why should he think or calculate about us? He has separated himself
-from the family. John’s children are nothing to him.”
-
-It was not often that Mr. Pen was worldly wise; but he had an
-inspiration this time. He shook his head slowly. “It is just that;
-John’s children might make all the difference to him,” he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-AN UNLOOKED-FOR VISITOR.
-
-
-Mr. Pennithorne went home thoughtful, and Miss Musgrave remained behind,
-if not exactly turned in a new direction, yet confused and excited in
-her mental being by the introduction of a new element. Randolph
-Musgrave, though her brother, was less known to Mary than he was to the
-tutor who had travelled and lived with him in the interval during which
-he had made his nearest approach to friendship with his own family. He
-had been brought up by an uncle on the mother’s side who did not love
-the Musgraves, and had succeeded to the family living belonging to that
-race, and lived now, as he had been brought up, in an atmosphere quite
-different from that which belonged to his nominal home in the north.
-Except now and then, in a holiday visit, Randolph had scarcely spent any
-portion of his life at Penninghame, except the short period just before,
-and for a little time after, his university career, when he shared with
-his brother John the special instructions of Mr. Pennithorne. The two
-young men had worked together then, or made believe to work, and they
-had travelled together; but being of very different dispositions, and
-brought up in ways curiously unlike, they had not been made into cordial
-friends by this period of semi-artificial union. Randolph had been
-trained to entertain but a small opinion of everything at Penninghame,
-and when Penninghame became public property, and John and all his
-affairs and peculiarities were discussed in the newspapers, the younger
-son did something very like the Scriptural injunction--shaking the dust
-from off his feet as he departed. He went away after some painful scenes
-with his father. It was not the old Squire’s fault that his eldest son
-had become in the eyes of the world a criminal; but Randolph was as
-bitter at the ignominy brought upon his name as if it had been a family
-contrivance to annoy and distress him, and had gone away vowing that
-never again would he have anything to do with his paternal home. There
-had been a long gap in their relations after that, but at his marriage
-there had been a kind of reconciliation, enough to give a decorous
-aspect to his relations with his “people.” He had brought his bride to
-his father’s house, and since then he had written, as Mary said, now and
-then, once or twice in the year, to inquire after his father’s health.
-This was not much, but it saved appearances, and prevented the open
-scandal of a family quarrel. But Mary, who replied punctiliously to
-these questions, did not see the need of making a further intimation to
-him of anything that affected the family. What had he to do with John’s
-children? She would no more have thought of informing him of any private
-event in her own history, or of looking to him for sympathy, than she
-would have stopped a beggar on the road to communicate her good or evil
-fortune. But the very name of Randolph suggested new complications. She
-was glad to escape from the whole matter and listen to the account of
-the lessons when Lilias and Nello came back from one of their earliest
-experiences of the instruction given by Mr. Pennithorne. The children
-came in breathless with the story they had to tell. “Then he made me
-read out of all the books,” said Lilias, her dark eyes shining; “but
-Nello, because he was so little, one book was enough for him.”
-
-“But it was not a girl’s book,” said Nello; “it was only for Johnnie and
-me.”
-
-“And I looked in it,” said his sister; “it is all mixed with
-Italian--such funny Italian: instead of _padre_ it was put _payter_--Mr.
-Pen called it so. But it would not do for Nello, when we go back, to say
-his Italian like that. Even Martuccia would laugh, and Martuccia is not
-educated.”
-
-“It was Latin,” said Nello; “Mr. Pen said so. He said girls didn’t want
-Latin. Girls learn to dance and sing; but I--and Johnnie----”
-
-“Will Mr. Pen teach me to dance--and sing, Mary?” said Lilias, with a
-grave face.
-
-“And me, I wrote a copy,” said Nello, indifferent to the interruption;
-“look!” and he held up fingers covered with ink. “You cannot read it
-yet, but you will soon be able to read it, Mr. Pen says. And then I will
-write you a letter, Mary.”
-
-“It would be better to write letters to some one far off,” said Lilias,
-half scornful of his want of information. “You can _talk_ to Mary,
-Nello. It is to far-off people that one makes letters.”
-
-“We have nobody that is far off,” said Nello, shaking his head with the
-sudden consciousness of a want not hitherto realized. “Then I need not
-write copies any more.”
-
-“Your father is far off, Nello,” said Mary; “your poor papa, who never
-hears any news of you. Some time I hope you will be able to write to
-him, and ask him to come home.”
-
-“Oh,” cried Lilias, “you need not be sorry about that, Mary. He will
-come home. Some day, in a moment when you are thinking of nothing, there
-will be a step on the stair, and Martuccia will give a shriek; and it
-will be as if the sun came shining out, and it will be papa! He is
-always like that--but you never know when he will come.”
-
-Mary’s eyes filled in spite of herself. What long, long years it was
-that she had thought but little of John! and yet there suddenly seemed
-to come before her a vision of his arrival from school or from college,
-all smiles and, making the old roof ring with his shout of pleasure. Was
-it possible that this would happen over again--that he would come in a
-moment, as his little daughter said? But Lilias did not know all the
-difficulties, nor the one great obstacle that stood in John’s way, and
-which perhaps he might never get over. She forgot herself in these
-thoughts, and did not perceive that Lilias was gazing wistfully at her,
-endeavouring with all her childish might to penetrate her mind and know
-the occasion of these tears. Mary was recalled to herself by feeling the
-child’s arm steal round her, and the soft touch of a little hand and
-handkerchief upon her wet eyes. “You are crying,” said Lilias. “Mary,
-is it for papa?--why should you cry for papa?”
-
-“My darling, we don’t know where he is, nor anything about him--”
-
-“That does not matter,” said Lilias, winking rapidly to throw off the
-sympathetic tears which had gathered in her own eyes; “he is always like
-that. We never knew where he was; but just when he could, just when it
-was possible, he came home. We never could tell when it would be--it
-might be any day. Some time when we are forgetting and not expecting
-him. Ah----!” cried the child, with a ring of wonder in the sudden
-exclamation. The hall-door was open as usual, and on the road was a
-distant figure just visible which drew from Lilias this sudden cry. She
-ran to the door, clutching her brother--“Come, Nello, Nello!” and rushed
-forth. Mary sat still, thinking her heart had stopped in her breast--or
-was it not rather suffocating her by the wildness of its beating? She
-sat immovable, watching the little pair at the door. Could it be that
-John had come home? John! he who would be the most welcome yet the most
-impossible of visitors; he who had a right to everything, yet dared not
-be seen in the old house. She sat and trembled, not daring to look out,
-already planning what she could do, what was to be done.
-
-But the children stopped short at the door. Lilias, with the wind in her
-skirts and her ribbons, half-flying, stopped; and Nello stopped, who
-went by her impulse, not by his own. They paused: they stood for a
-moment gazing; then they turned back sadly.
-
-“Oh no, no!” said Lilias. “No, Mary! no. It is a little, something
-like--a very little; it is the walking, and the shape of him. But no,
-no, it is not papa!”
-
-“Papa!” said Nello, “was that why you looked? I knew better. Papa is all
-that much more tall. Why are you crying, Lily? There is nothing that
-makes cry.”
-
-“I am disappointed,” said the little girl, who had seated herself
-suddenly on the floor and wept. It was a sudden sharp shower, but it was
-soon over; she sprang up drying her eyes. “But it will be for
-to-morrow!” she cried.
-
-Mary sat behind and looked on. She did not think again of the chance
-resemblance Lilias had seen, but only of the children themselves, with
-whom her heart was tuning itself more and more in sympathy. She had
-become a mother late and suddenly, without any gradual growth of
-feeling--leaping into it, as it were; and every response her mind made
-to the children was a new wonder to her. She looked at them, or rather
-at Lilias, who was always the leader in her rapid changes of sentiment,
-with a half-amused adoration. The crying and the smiles went to her
-heart as nothing else had ever done; and even Nello’s calm, the steadier
-going of the slower, less developed intelligence, which was so often
-carried along in the rush without any conscious intention, and which was
-so ready to take the part of the wise and say, “I knew it,” moved Mary
-with that mixture of pleased spectatorship and profound personal feeling
-which makes the enthusiasm of parents. Nello’s slowness might have
-seemed want of feeling in another child, and Lilias’s impetuosity a
-giddy haste and heedlessness; but all impartiality was driven from her
-mind by the sense that the children were her own. And she sat in a
-pleased abstraction yet lively readiness, following the little current
-of this swiftly-flowing, softly-babbling childhood which was so fair and
-pleasant to her eyes. The two set up an argument between themselves as
-she sat looking on. It was about some minute point in the day’s work
-which was so novel and unaccustomed; but trivial as it was Mary listened
-with a soft glow of light in her eyes. The finest drama in the world
-could not have taken her out of herself like the two little actors,
-playing their sincerest and most real copy of life before her. They were
-so much in earnest, and to her it was such exquisite play and delicate
-delightful fooling! And until the light in the open doorway was suddenly
-darkened by some one appearing, a figure which made her heart jump, she
-thought no more of the passer-by on the road who had roused the
-children. Her heart jumped, and then she followed her heart by rising
-suddenly to her feet, while the children stopped in their argument,
-rushed together for mutual support, and stood shyly with their heads
-together, the arrested talk still hovering about their lips. Seen thus
-against the light the visitor was undecipherable to Mary. She saw him,
-nothing but a black shadow, towards which she went quietly and said--
-
-“I beg your pardon, this is a private door,” with a polite defence of
-her own sanctuary.
-
-“I came to look for--my sister,” said the voice, which was one which
-woke agitating memories in her. “I am a--stranger. I came---- Ah! it is
-Mary after all.”
-
-“Randolph!” she cried, with a gasp in her throat.
-
-A thrill of terror, almost superstitious, came over her. What did it all
-mean? Good Mr. Pennithorne in his innocence had spoken to her of John,
-and that very day John’s children had arrived; he had spoken of
-Randolph, and Randolph was here. Was it fate, or some mysterious
-influence unknown? She was so startled that she forgot to go through the
-ordinary formulas of seeming welcome, and said nothing but his name.
-
-“Yes; I hope you are well,” he said, holding out his hand; “and that my
-father is well. I thought I would come and see how you were all getting
-on.”
-
-“It is a long time since you have been here,” she said. What could she
-say? She was not glad to see him, as a sister ought to be. And then
-there was a pause.
-
-The children stood staring open-mouthed while these chill greetings were
-said. (“I wonder who it is?” said Lilias, under her breath. “It is the
-one who is a little, a very little, like papa.” “It is a--gentleman,”
-said Nello. “Oh you silly, silly little boy! not to know that at the
-very first; but Mary is not very glad to see him,” said the little
-girl.)
-
-Mary did not even ask her visitor to come in; he stood still at the
-door, looking round him with watchful, unfriendly eyes. This was not a
-place for any one to come who was not tender of Mary, and of whomsoever
-she might shelter there. She did not want him in that special place.
-
-“Shall we go round to the house?” she said; “my father ought to know
-that you are here, and he never comes into the hall.”
-
-“I am very well where I am,” Randolph said. “I know it was always a
-favourite place with you. Do not change your sitting-room for me. You
-have it in very nice order, Mary. I see you share the popular passion
-for art furnishing; and children too! This is something more novel
-still. Who are the children, may I ask? They are visitors from the
-neighbourhood I suppose?”
-
-“No,” she said, faltering still more, “they are not
-visitors--they--belong to us----” Mary could not tell how it was that
-her lips trembled, and she hesitated to pronounce the name. She made an
-effort at last and got it out with difficulty. “They are--John’s
-children.”
-
-“John’s children! here is a wonderful piece of news,” said Randolph; but
-she saw by his countenance that it was no news. Howsoever he had heard
-it, Mary perceived in a moment not only that he knew, but that this was
-his real errand here. He stood with the appropriate gesture of one
-struck dumb in amazement; but he was not really surprised, only watchful
-and eager. This made his sister more nervous than ever.
-
-“Children,” she said, “come here--this is your uncle Randolph; come and
-speak to him.” Mary was so much perplexed that she could not see what
-was best to do--whether to be anxiously conciliatory and convince
-Randolph in spite of himself, without seeming to notice his opposition,
-or to defy him; the former, however, was always the safest way. He did
-not make any advance, but stood with a half-smile on his face, while the
-children drew near with suspicious looks.
-
-“It is the--gentleman who is--a little--not very much, just a little,
-like papa,” said Lilias, going forward, but slowly, and with that look
-of standing on the defensive which children unconsciously adopt to those
-they do not trust.
-
-Nello hung on to her skirts, and did as she did, regarding the stranger
-with cloudy eyes. Randolph put out his hand coldly to be shaken; his
-smile broadened into a half-laugh of amusement and contempt.
-
-“So they are said to be his children, are they?”
-
-“They _are_ his children,” said Mary.
-
-Randolph shrugged his shoulders and laughed. “They look like foreigners
-anyhow,” he said. “My father, I suppose, is delighted. It must be a new
-experience both for him and you.”
-
-“Go away, my darlings, go to Martuccia; you see I have some business
-with--this gentleman.” She could not again repeat the title she had
-given him. When the curious little spectators had gone, she turned to
-Randolph, who stood watching their exit, with an anxiety she did not
-attempt to conceal. “For Heaven’s sake do not talk to my father about
-them! I ask it as a favour. He consents tacitly that they should be
-here, but he takes no notice of them. Do not call his attention to them.
-It is the only thing I ask of you.”
-
-He looked at her fixedly still, with that set smile on his face with
-which he had looked at the children.
-
-“I am scarcely the person to be called upon to make things smooth with
-my father,” he said. “Come, come; my father is old, and can be made to
-believe anything, let us allow. But what do you mean by it, Mary, what
-do _you_ mean? You were never any friend to me.”
-
-“Friend to _you_! I am your sister, Randolph, though you don’t seem to
-remember it much. And what have you to do with it?” asked Mary, with a
-certain amount of exasperation in her voice; for of all offensive things
-in the world there is none so offensive as this pretence of finding you
-out in a transparent deception. Mary grew red and hot in spite of
-herself.
-
-“I have a great deal to do with it. I have not only my own interests to
-take care of, but my boy’s. And why you should prefer to us, about whom
-there can be no doubt, these little impostors, these supposed children
-of John----”
-
-“Randolph,” said Mary, with tears in her eyes, “there is no supposing
-about them. Oh don’t go against us and against truth and justice! They
-brought me a letter from their father. There was no room to doubt, no
-possibility. John himself is most unfortunate----”
-
-“Unfortunate! that is not the word I should use.”
-
-“But why remember it against _them_, poor little things, who have done
-no harm? Oh, Randolph, I have never been otherwise than your friend when
-I had the chance. Be mine now! There are a hundred things about which I
-want to consult you. You have a family of your own; you have been
-trained to it; you know how to take care of children. I wanted to ask
-your advice, to have your help----”
-
-“Do you think me a fool then,” he cried, “as silly as yourself? that you
-try to get _me_ to acknowledge this precious deception, and give you my
-support against myself? Why should I back you up in a wicked contrivance
-against my own interests?”
-
-“What is it you mean? Who has been guilty of wicked contrivances?” cried
-Mary, aghast. She gazed at him with such genuine surprise that he was
-arrested in his angry vituperation, and changed his tone to one of
-mockery, which affected her more.
-
-“Well,” he said, “let us allow that it is your first attempt, Mary, and
-that is why you do it so clumsily. The mistakes good people make when
-they first attempt to do badly are touching. Villany, like everything
-else, requires experience. But it is too funny to expect _me_ to be the
-one to stand up for you, to persuade my father to believe you.”
-
-“Oh,” she said, clasping her hands, “do you think this is what I ask? It
-is you who mistake, Randolph. It has never occurred to my father, or any
-one else, not to believe. He never doubted any more than I was capable
-of doubting. I will show you John’s letter.”
-
-Randolph put up his hand, waving off the suggested proof.
-
-“It is quite unnecessary. I am not to be taken in by such simple means.
-You forget I have a stake in it--which clears the judgment. And I warn
-you, Mary, that I am here to look after my personal interests, not to
-foist any nondescript brat into the family. I give you notice--it is not
-to help your schemes, it is for my own interests I am here.”
-
-“What do interests mean?” she said wondering. “Your own interests!--what
-does _that_ mean? I know _I_ have none.”
-
-“No--it cannot make much difference to you whatever happens; therefore
-you are free to plot at your leisure. I understand that fully; but, my
-dear, _I_ am here to look after myself--and my boy. You forget I have an
-heir of my own.”
-
-Mary looked at him with a dulness of intelligence quite unusual to her.
-There are things in the most limited minds which genius itself could not
-divine. The honourable and generous, and the selfish and grasping, do
-not know what each other mean. They are as if they spoke a different
-language. And her brother was to Mary as if he veiled his meaning in an
-unknown tongue. She gazed at him with a haze of dulness in her eyes.
-What was it he intended to let her know? Disbelief of her, a suggestion
-that she lied! and something more--she could not make out what, as the
-rule of his own conduct! He looked at her, on the other hand, with an
-air of penetration, a clever consciousness of seeing through and through
-her and her designs, which excited Mary to exasperation. How could they
-ever understand each other with all this between?
-
-“I am going to see my father,” said Randolph; “that of course is the
-object of my visit; I suppose he will not refuse to keep me for a day or
-two. And in the mean time why should we quarrel? I only warn you that I
-come with my eyes open, and am not to be made a dupe of. Good-bye for
-the present--we shall meet no doubt at dinner the best of friends.”
-
-Mary stood still where he left her, and watched him as he went slowly
-down the slope and round the corner of the house. He was shorter than
-John and stouter, with that amplitude of outline which a wealthy rural
-living and a small parish are apt to confer. A comfortable man, fond of
-good living, fond of his ease; yet taking the trouble to come here, for
-what?--to baffle some supposed wicked contrivances and plots against
-himself. Mary remembered that Randolph had taken the great family
-misfortune as a special wrong to him. How dared the evil fates to
-interfere with his comfort or rumour to assail his name? He had said
-frankly that it could be nothing to the others in comparison. And was it
-once more the idea that he himself was touched, which had roused him out
-of his comfortable rectory to come here and assert himself? But how did
-the arrival of John’s children affect that? Mary, in her long calm, had
-not entered into those speculations about the future which most people
-more or less think necessary when the head of the house is old. She had
-not asked herself what would happen when her father died, except vaguely
-in respect to herself, knowing that she would then in all likelihood
-leave the old Castle. John was the heir. Somehow or other, she did not
-know how, the inheritance would be taken up for him. This had been the
-conclusion in her mind without reason given or required. And Randolph
-had not come into the sphere of her imagination at all as having
-anything to do with it. What should he have to do with it when there was
-John? And even now Mary did not know and could not understand the reason
-of his objection to John’s children. She stood and looked after him with
-a dull beating of pain in her heart. And as he turned round the corner
-of the old house towards the door, he looked back and waved his hand.
-The gesture and look, she could scarcely tell why, gave her a sensation
-of sickening dismay and pain. She turned and went in, shutting the door
-in the sudden pang this gave her. And to shut the great door of the hall
-was the strangest thing, except in the very heart of winter. While the
-sun was shining and the air genial, such a thing had never happened
-before. It seemed in itself a portent of harm.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-RANDOLPH.
-
-
-Randolph Musgrave was a squire-parson, a class which possesses the
-features of two species without fully embodying either--which may be
-finer than either, the two halves of the joint character tempering each
-other--or may be a travesty of both, exaggerating their mutual defects.
-He was of the latter rather than of the former development. His living
-was small in one sense and large in another, the income being large, but
-the people few and very much given up to dissent, a fact which soured
-his character without moving him to exertion. He was not fond of
-exertion in any case, and it was all but hopeless in this. But not less
-was he daily and hourly irritated by the little Bethels and Salems, the
-lively Methodists, the pragmatical Baptists, who led his people away.
-They made him angry, for he was easily moved to anger, and they
-increased that tendency to listen to gossip and be moved by small
-matters which is one of the temptations of a rural life. He had become
-accustomed to make much of petty wrongs, calling them insults and
-crimes, and perhaps to be more disposed to petty vengeances than a man
-who is placed in the position of an example to others ought to be; and
-whereas he had always been disposed to consider himself a sacred person,
-above the ordinary slights of fortune, this tendency had grown and
-strengthened so, that every petty pin-prick was like a poisoned arrow to
-him. By natural laws of reverberation he heard more evil of himself, had
-more mishaps in the way of gossip, of receiving letters not intended for
-him, and otherwise surprising the sentiments of his neighbours, than
-almost any one else ever had--which had made him suspicious of his
-neighbours in the highest degree, and ready to believe every small
-offence a premeditated insult. This perhaps made him all the more ready
-to believe that his sister had conceived a villanous plan against him
-and his. He would not have done such a thing himself; but was not his
-life full of such attempts made upon him by others? everybody almost
-whom he encountered having one time or other conspired against his hopes
-or happiness. But he had always found out the plots in time. It was true
-that this villany might be John’s, of whom he would have believed
-anything; and Mary herself might be the dupe: but most likely it was
-Mary, who did not like him nor his wife, and who would no doubt be
-capable of anything to banish him finally from Penninghame, and set up
-there some creature of her own. This was the idea which had come into
-his mind, when he heard accidentally of the arrival which had made so
-much commotion in the north country. He had talked it over with his wife
-till they both saw gunpowder plots and conspiracies incalculable in it.
-“You had better go and see into it yourself,” Mrs. Randolph said. “I
-will,” was the Rector’s energetic reply. “And believe nobody, believe
-nothing but what you see with your own eyes.” “Never! I will put faith
-in nobody,” Randolph had said. And it was in this frame of mind that he
-had come here. He meant to believe nobody save when they warned him of
-plots against himself: to trust nothing save that all the world was in a
-league to work him harm. But for this determined pre-conclusion, he
-might perhaps have been less certain of his sister’s enmity to himself,
-and of the baseness of the deception she was practising; but he had no
-doubt whatever on this matter now. And he meant to expose her
-remorselessly. Why should he mince matters? His father was an old man
-and might die at any moment, and this villany ought to be exposed at
-once.
-
-With these thoughts in his mind he went round to the great door. How
-different was the grey north-country house from anything he was used to!
-The thought of his snug parsonage embosomed in greenery, roses climbing
-to the chimney-stacks, clustering about all the windows, soft velvet
-lawns and strict inclosures keeping all sacred--made him shiver at sight
-of the irregular building, the masses of ivy fostering damp, the open
-approach, a common road free to everybody. If it ever was his, or rather
-when it was his--for these supposititious children would soon be done
-away with, and John, a man under the ban of the law, how could he ever
-appear to claim his inheritance?--_when_ it was his, he would soon make
-a difference. He would bring forward the boundaries of the Chase so as
-to inclose the Castle. He would make the road into a stately avenue as
-it once was and ought to be. What did it matter who objected? He would
-do it; let the village burst with rage. The very idea of exasperating
-the village and making it own his power, made the idea all the more
-delightful. He would soon change all this; let it but get into his
-hands. In the midst of these thoughts, however, Randolph met a somewhat
-ludicrous rebuff from Eastwood, who opened the door suddenly and softly,
-as was his fashion, as if he hoped to find the visitor out in something
-improper. “Who shall I say, sir?” said Eastwood, deferentially. This
-gave Randolph a sense of the most ludicrous discomfiture; for to be
-asked what name is to be announced when you knock at the door of your
-father’s house is a curious sensation. It was nobody’s fault unless it
-might have been Randolph’s own, but the feeling was disagreeable. He
-stood for a moment dumb, staring at the questioner--then striding inside
-the door, pushed Eastwood out of his way. When he was within, however,
-somewhat conciliated by the alarmed aspect of the butler, who did not
-know whether to resist or what to do, he changed his mind.
-
-“I don’t want to startle my father,” he said; “say Mr. Randolph Musgrave
-has arrived.”
-
-“I beg your pardon humbly, sir,” cried Eastwood.
-
-“No, no, it was not your fault.” Randolph replied. It was not the
-servant’s fault; but it was _their_ fault who had made his home a place
-of disgrace, and no longer a fit home for him.
-
-The Squire was seated among his books, feeling the drowsy influence of
-the afternoon. He had no Monograph to support his soul, and no better
-occupation than to rummage dully through the records of antiquity,
-cheered up and enlivened if he found something to reply to in _Notes and
-Queries_, but otherwise living a heavy kind of half-animate life. When
-the critiques and the letters about that Monograph had ended, what a
-blank there was! and no other work was at hand to make up, or to tempt
-him to further exertions. The corner of land that he desired to attain
-had been bought, and had given him pleasure; but after a while his eyes
-were satisfied with the contemplation, and his mind almost satisfied
-with the calculation, of so many additional acres added to the property.
-The sweetness of it lay in the thought that the property was growing,
-that there was sufficient elasticity in the family income to make the
-acquisition of even a little bit of land possible. The Squire thought
-this was the fruit of his own self-denial, and it gave him that glow of
-conscious virtue which was once supposed to be the appropriate and
-unfailing reward of good actions, till conscious virtue went out of
-fashion. This was sweet; and it was sweet to go and look at the new
-fields which restored the old boundary of the Penninghame estate in that
-direction; but such gratifications cease to be sustaining to life after
-a time. And Mr. Musgrave was dull sitting among his books; the sounds
-were in his ears which he was always hearing now--the far-off ring of
-voices that made him sensible of those inmates in his house whom he
-never noticed, who were to him as if they did not exist. When the mind
-is not very closely occupied, sounds thus heard in the house come
-strangely across the quiescent spirit of the solitary. Voices beloved
-are as music, are as sunshine, conveying a sense of happiness and soft
-exhilaration. Hearing them far off, though beyond the reach of hearing,
-so to speak, does not the very distant sound, the tone of love in them,
-make work sweet and the air warm, softening everything round the
-recluse? But these were not voices beloved. The old man listened to
-them--or rather, not permitting himself to listen, _heard_ them acutely
-through the mist of a separation which he did not choose to overcome.
-They were like something from another world, voices in the air,
-inarticulate, mysterious, known yet unknown. He turned the leaves idly
-when these strange suggestions came to him in his solitude; he had
-nothing to do with them, and yet so much. This was how he was sitting,
-dully wistful, in that stillness of age which when it is not glad must
-be sad, and hearing almost, as if he were already a ghost out of his
-grave, the strange yet familiar stir in the unseen stairs and passages,
-the movements of the kindly house----
-
-“Mr. Randolph Musgrave!” The Squire was very much startled by the name.
-He rose hastily, and stood leaning upon his writing-table to see who it
-was that followed Eastwood into the room after a minute’s interval. It
-seemed scarcely possible to him that it could be his son. “Randolph!” he
-said. The children’s voices had made him think, in spite of himself, of
-the time--was it centuries ago?--when there were two small things
-running about those old passages continually, and a beautiful young
-mother smiling upon them--and him. This had softened his heart, though
-by means which he would not have acknowledged. He looked out eagerly
-with a sensation of pleasure and relief for his son. He would (perhaps)
-take Randolph’s advice, perhaps get some enlightenment from him. But the
-shock set his nerves off, and made him tremulous, though it was a shock
-of pleasure; and it hurt his pride so to be seen trembling, that he held
-himself up strained and rigid against his table. “Randolph! you are a
-stranger indeed,” he said, and his countenance lighted up with a cloudy
-and tremulous smile.
-
-(“Strange that he was never seen here before in my time,” said Eastwood
-as he withdrew. “I’ve seen a many queer things in families, but never
-nothing more queer than this--two sons as never have been seen in the
-house, and children as the Squire won’t give in he owns them. I thought
-he’d have walked right straight over little master Saturday last as if
-no one was there. But I don’t like the looks of _’im_. When he’s master
-here I march, and that I can tell you--pretty fast, Missis Cook.”
-
-“Mr. Randolph? He’ll never be master here, thank God for it,” said Cook
-with pious fervour, “or more than you will go.”)
-
-“Yes,” said Randolph, walking in, “I have been a stranger, but how can
-we help that! It is life that separates us. We must all run our own
-course. I hope you are well, sir. You look well--for your time of life.”
-
-It is not a pleasant thing to be told that you look well for your time
-of life--unless indeed you are ninety, and the time of life is itself a
-matter of pride. The Squire knew he was old, and that soon he must
-resign his place to others; but he did not care for such a distinct
-intimation that others thought so too.
-
-“I am very well,” he said, curtly. “You are so completely a stranger,
-Randolph, that I cannot make the usual remarks on your personal
-appearance. You deny me the opportunity of judging if you look ill or
-well.”
-
-“Ah,” said Randolph, “that is just what I said. We must all run our own
-course. My duties are at the other end of England, and I cannot be
-always running back and forward; but I hope to stay a few days now if
-you will have me. Relations should see each other now and then. I have
-just had a glimpse of Mary in the old hall as usual. She did not know me
-at first, nor, I daresay, if I had not seen her there, should I have
-known her”--
-
-“Mary is little changed,” said the Squire.
-
-“So you think, sir, seeing her every day; but there is a great change
-from what she was ten years ago. She was still a young woman then, and
-handsome. I am afraid even family partiality cannot call her anything
-but an old maid now.”
-
-Mr. Musgrave did not make any reply. He was not a particularly
-affectionate father, but Mary was part of himself, and it did not please
-him to hear her spoken of so.
-
-“And, by the bye,” said Randolph, “how did such a thing happen I wonder?
-for she _was_ handsome;--handsome and well-born, and with a little
-money. It is very odd she never has married. Was there anything to
-account for it? or is it mere ill-luck?”
-
-“Ill-luck to whom?” said the Squire. “Do you think perhaps your sister
-never had the chance, as people say? You may dismiss that idea from your
-mind. She has had enough of chances. I don’t know any reason; but there
-must have been one, I suppose. Either that nobody came whom she cared
-for, or--I really cannot form any other idea,” he concluded, sharply. It
-was certain that he would not have Mary discussed.
-
-“I meant no harm,” said Randolph. “She has got the old hall very nicely
-done up. It is not a place I would myself care to keep up, if the Castle
-were in my hands; but she has made it very nice. I found her there
-with--among her favourite studies,” he added, after a momentary pause.
-It was too early to begin direct upon the chapter of the children, he
-felt. The Squire did not show any sign of special understanding. He
-nodded his head in assent.
-
-“She was always fond of the hall,” he said. “I used to think she suited
-it. And now that she is--past her youth, as you say----”
-
-“Well into middle age I say, sir, like other people; which is a more
-serious affair for a woman than for a man; but I suppose all hopes are
-over now. She is not likely to marry at her time of life.” This was the
-second time he had mentioned the time of life. And the Squire did not
-like it; he answered curtly----
-
-“No, I don’t think it likely that Mary will marry. But yourself,
-Randolph, how are things going with you? You have not come so far merely
-to calculate your sister’s chances. Your wife is well, I hope; and your
-boy?”
-
-“Quite well. You are right in thinking, sir, that I did not come without
-an object. We are all getting on in life. I thought it only proper that
-there should be some understanding among us as to family
-affairs--something decided in the case of any emergency. We are all
-mortal----”
-
-“And I the most mortal of all, you will say, at my ‘time of life,’
-Randolph,” said the Squire, with a smile, which was far from genial. “I
-daresay you are quite right, perfectly right. I am an old man, and
-nobody can tell what an hour may bring forth.”
-
-“That is true at every age,” said Randolph, with professional
-seriousness. “The idea ought to be familiar to the youngest among us. In
-the midst of life we are in death. I recommend everybody over whom I
-have the least influence to settle their affairs, so that they may not
-leave a nest of domestic contentions behind them. It is only less
-important than needful spiritual preparation, which of course should be
-our first care.”
-
-“Just so,” said Mr. Musgrave. “I presume you don’t mean to bring me to
-book on that point?”
-
-“Certainly not, sir--unless there is any special point upon which I
-could be of use; but you are as well able to judge as I am, and have
-access to all the authorities,” said Randolph with dignity. “Besides,
-there is your own clergyman at hand, who is no doubt quite equal to the
-duties of his position. It is old Pennithorne, is it not?” he added,
-with a momentary lapse into a more familiar tone. “But there is no
-question of that. In such matters a man of your experience, sir, ought
-to be able to instruct the best of us.”
-
-“The bench of bishops even,” said the Squire, “sometimes I think I
-could--at my time of life. But that is not the question, as you say.”
-
-“No indeed--not to say that my best advice in every way is at your
-service, sir; but I thought very likely it would be an ease to your mind
-to see me, to give me any instructions or directions--in short, to feel
-that your nearest representative understood your wishes, whatever might
-happen.”
-
-Now Randolph was evidently his father’s representative, John being out
-of the question; and that John was absolutely out of the question, not
-only from external circumstances, but from the strong prejudice and
-prepossession against him in his father’s mind, was certain. Yet the
-Squire resented this assumption as much as if John had been his
-dearly-beloved son and apparent heir.
-
-“Thanks,” he said, “I feel your care for my comfort--but after all, you
-are not my direct representative.”
-
-“Sir!” cried Randolph reddening, “need I remind you of the disabilities,
-the privation of all natural rights----”
-
-“You need not remind me of anything,” said Mr. Musgrave, getting up
-hurriedly. “I don’t care to discuss that question--or anything else of
-the kind. Suppose we go and join Mary, who must be in the drawing-room,
-I suppose? It is she, after all, who is really my representative,
-knowing everything about my affairs.”
-
-“She--is a woman,” said Randolph, with a tone of contempt.
-
-“That is undeniable--but women are not considered exactly as they used
-to be in such matters.”
-
-“I hope, sir,” said the clergyman, with dignity, “that neither my sister
-nor you add your influence to the foolish movement about women’s
-rights.”
-
-“Do you mean that Mary does not want a vote?” said the Squire. “No, I
-don’t suppose it has occurred to her. We add our influence to very few
-public movements, Randolph, bad or good. The Musgraves are not what they
-once were in the county; the leading part we once took is taken by
-others who are richer than we are. Progress is not the thing for old
-families, for progress means money.”
-
-“There are other reasons why the Musgraves do not take their proper
-place. I have hopes, sir,” said Randolph, “that under more favourable
-circumstances--if we, perhaps, were to draw more together----”
-
-“What do you mean, sir?” said the Squire; “it was you who separated
-yourself from us, not us from you. You were too good, being a clergyman,
-as you said, to encounter the odium of our position. That’s enough,
-Randolph. It is not an agreeable subject. Let us dismiss it as it has
-been dismissed these fifteen years; and come--to Mary’s part of the
-house.”
-
-“Then, am I to understand,” said Randolph, sharply, rising, yet holding
-back, “that your mind is changing as old age gains upon you, that you
-are going to accept the disgrace of the family? and that it is with your
-sanction that Mary is receiving--adopting----”
-
-He stopped, overawed in spite of himself, by the old man’s look, who
-stood with his face fixed looking towards him, restraining with all his
-force the tremor of his nerves. The Squire had been subject all his life
-to sudden fits of passion, and had got the habit of subduing, by
-ignoring them, as all his family well knew. He made no reply, but the
-restrained fire in his eyes impressed even the dull imagination of his
-son, who was pertinacious rather than daring, and had no force in him to
-stand against passion. Mr. Musgrave turned round quickly, and took up
-his book, which lay on a table near.
-
-“Mary sent you a copy of the Monograph?” he said; “but I don’t remember
-that you gave me your opinion of it. It has had a very flattering
-reception generally. I could not have expected so much interest in the
-public mind on a question of such exclusive family interest. But so it
-has been. I have kept all the notices, and the letters I have received
-on the subject. You shall see them by and by; and I think you will agree
-with me, that a more flattering reception could scarcely have been. All
-sorts of people have written to me. It appears,” said the Squire, with
-modest pride, “that I have really been able to throw some light upon a
-difficulty. After dinner, Randolph, if you are interested, you shall see
-my collection.”
-
-“My time is short,” said Randolph, “and with so many more serious
-matters to discuss----”
-
-“I know few things more serious than the history of the family honours,”
-said the Squire, “especially as you have a boy to inherit the old
-blazon; but we’ll go into all that this evening, as your stay is to be
-short. Better come and see Mary before dinner. She will want to know all
-about your home-concerns, and your wife. The house is unchanged, you
-will perceive,” the Squire continued, talking cheerfully as he led the
-way; and the sound of his voice, somewhat high-pitched and shrill with
-age, travelled far through the old passages. “I hope no sacrilegious
-hands will ever change the house. My heirs may add to it if they please,
-but it is a monument of antiquity, which ought never to be
-touched--except to mend it delicately as Mary mends her old lace. This
-way, Randolph; I believe you have forgotten the way.”
-
-They were standing in an angle of the fine oak staircase, where the
-Squire waited till his son came up to him. At this moment a rush of
-small footsteps, and a whispering voice--“Run, Nello, Nello! he is
-coming,” was audible above. Randolph looked up quickly, with a look of
-intelligence, into the old man’s face. But the Squire did not move a
-muscle. His countenance was blank as that of a deaf man. If he had
-heard, he allowed no sign of hearing to be visible. “Come along,” he
-said, “it seems to me that my wind is better than yours even at my time
-of life,” with a half-sarcastic smile. Was he hard of hearing? a
-hypothesis rather agreeable to think of; or what was the meaning of it?
-Were these obnoxious children the pets of the house? but why should they
-run because he was coming. The hostile visitor was perplexed, and could
-not make it out. He followed into the drawing-room without a word, while
-the small footsteps were still audible. Mary was seated at a low table
-on which there was work, but she was not working. She rose to receive
-them with a certain formality; for except after dinner, when the Squire
-would sometimes come for a cup of tea, or when there were visitors in
-the house, she was generally alone in the low quaint drawing-room, which
-transported even the unimaginative Randolph back to childhood. The
-panelled walls, the spindle-legged furniture, the inlaid cabinets and
-tables, were all exactly as he remembered them. This touched him a
-little, though he had all the robustness against impression which
-fortifies a slow intelligence. “It seems like yesterday that I was
-here,” he said.
-
-This, in her turn, touched Mary, whose excitement made her subject to
-the lightest flutter of emotion. She smiled at him with greater kindness
-than she had yet felt. “Yes,” she said. “I feel so sometimes, too, when
-I look round; but it tells less upon us who are here always. And so much
-has happened since then.”
-
-“Ah, I suppose so: though you seem to vegetate pretty much in the old
-ways. Those children though, for instance,” said Randolph, with a laugh,
-“scurrying off in such haste as we came within hearing, that is not like
-the old ways. Are you ashamed of them, or afraid to have them here? I
-should not wonder, for my part.”
-
-The tears sprang to Mary’s eyes. She did not say anything in the sudden
-shock, but looked at Randolph piteously with a silent reproach. It was
-the first time since the day of their arrival that any public mention
-had been made of the children in her father’s presence. And there was a
-pause which seemed to her full of fate.
-
-“You must not look at me so,” said her brother. “I gave you fair
-warning. My father is not to be given up to your plots without a
-remonstrance at least. I believe it is a conspiracy, sir, from beginning
-to end. Do you intend our old family, with all the honours you are so
-proud of, to drop into disgrace? With the shadow of crime on it,” cried
-Randolph, warming into excitement; then, with a dull perception of
-something still more telling, his father’s weak point, “and the bar
-sinister of vice?” he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-DUCKS AND DRAKES.
-
-
-The Squire made use of that discretion which is the better part of
-valour. When Randolph for the second time insisted upon coming to an
-understanding on family affairs, which meant deciding what was to be
-done on the Squire’s death, Mr. Musgrave, not knowing how else to foil
-his son, got up and came away. “You can settle these matters with Mary,”
-he said, quietly enough. It would not have been dignified to treat the
-suggestion in any other way. But he went out with a slight acceleration
-of his pulses, caused half by anger and half by the natural human thrill
-of feeling with which a man has his own death brought home to him. The
-Squire knew that there was nothing unnatural in this anticipation of his
-own end. He was aware that it required to be done, and the emergency
-prepared for; but yet it was not agreeable to him. He thought they might
-have awaited the event, although in another point of view it would have
-been imprudent to await the event. He felt that there was something
-undesirable, unlovely, in the idea of your children consulting over you
-for their own comfort “afterwards.” But then his children were no longer
-children whose doings touched his affections much--they were middle-aged
-people, as old as he was--and in fact it _was_ important that they
-should come to an arrangement and settle everything. Only he could
-not--and this being so, would not--do it; and he said to himself that
-the cause of his refusal was no reluctance on his own part to consider
-the inevitable certainty of his own death, but only the intolerableness
-of the inquiry in other respects. He walked out in a little strain and
-excitement of feeling, though outwardly his calm was intense. He
-steadied himself, mind and body, by an effort, putting a smile upon his
-lip, and walking with a deliberate slow movement. He would have scorned
-himself had he showed any excitement; but strolled out with a leisurely
-slow step and a smile. They would talk the matter out, the two whom he
-had left; even though Mary’s heart would be more with him than with her
-brother, still she would be bound to follow Randolph’s lead. They would
-talk of his health, of how he was looking feeble, his age beginning to
-tell upon him, and how it would be very expedient to know what the
-conditions of his will were, and whether he had made any provision for
-the peculiar circumstances, or arrangement for the holding of the
-estate. “I ought to be the first person considered,” he thought he heard
-Randolph saying. Randolph had always thought himself the first person to
-be considered. At this penetration of his own the Squire smiled again,
-and walked away very steadily, very slowly, humming a bar of an
-old-fashioned air.
-
-He went thus through the broken woodland towards the east, and strolled
-into the Chase like a man taking a walk for pleasure. The birds sang
-overhead, little rabbits popped out from the great tree-trunks, and a
-squirrel ran up one of them and across a long branch, where it sat
-peering at him. All was familiar, certain, well known; he had seen the
-same sights and heard the same sounds for the last seventy years; and
-the sunshine shone with the same calm assurance of shining as at other
-times, and all this rustling, breathing life went on as it had always
-gone on. There was scarcely a leaf, scarcely a moss-covered stone that
-did not hide or shelter something living. The air was full of life;
-sounds of all kinds, twitter and hum and rustle, his own step among
-other movements, his own shadow moving across the sunshine. And he felt
-well enough, not running over with health and vigour as he had sometimes
-felt long ago, not disposed to vault over walls and gates in that
-unlicensed exuberance which belongs to youth only, but well
-enough--quite well, in short; steady afoot, his breathing easy, his head
-clear, everything about him comfortable. Notwithstanding which, his
-children were discussing, as in reference to a quite near and probable
-event, what was to be done when he should die! The Squire smiled at the
-thought, but it was a smile which got fixed and painful on his lip, and
-was not spontaneous or agreeable. The amusement to be got from such an
-idea is not of a genial kind. He was over seventy, and he knew, who
-better? that threescore and ten has been set down as the limit of mortal
-life. No doubt he must die--every man must die. It was a thing before
-him not to be eluded; the darkness, indeed, was very near, according to
-all ordinary law; but the Squire did not feel it, was not in his soul
-convinced of it. He believed it, of course; all other men of his age
-die, and in their case the precautions of the family are prudent and
-natural; in his own case it is true he did not feel the necessity; but
-yet no doubt it must be so. He kept smiling to himself; so living as he
-was, and everything round, it was an odd sort of discord to think of
-dying. He felt a kind of blank before him, a sense of being shut in. So
-one feels when one walks along a bit of road surrounded with walls, a
-_cul de sac_ from which there is no outlet. A sense of imprisonment is
-in it, of discouragement, too little air to breathe, too little space to
-move in--certainly a disagreeable, stifling, choking sensation.
-Involuntarily a sigh came from his breast; and yet he smiled
-persistently, feeling in himself a kind of defiance to all the world, a
-determination to be amused at it all, notwithstanding the sentence they
-were passing against him.
-
-While the Squire continued his walk, amid the twitter of the birds and
-the warble and the crackle and rustle and hum in the woods, and all the
-sounds of living, now and then another sound struck in--a sound not
-necessarily near, for in that still summer air sounds travel easily--an
-echo of voices, now one soft cry or laugh, now a momentary babble. It
-struck the old man as if an independent soul had been put into the
-scene. He knew very well what it meant--very well--no one better. By
-very dint of his opposition to them he recognized the sound of the
-children wherever they were. They were there now, the little things
-whose presence had moved Randolph to this assault upon his father. They
-were altogether antagonistic to Randolph, or rather he to them; this
-gave them a curious perverse interest in their grandfather’s eyes. They
-offered him an outlet from his _cul de sac_; the pressure seemed
-suddenly removed which had bowed him down; in a moment he felt relieved,
-delivered from that sense of confinement. A new idea was like the
-opening of a door to the old man; he was no longer compelled to
-contemplate the certainty before him, but was let softly down into the
-pleasant region of uncertainty--the world of happy chances. The very
-character of the smile upon his face changed. It became more natural,
-more easy, although he did not know the children, nor had any intention
-of noticing them. But they were there, and Randolph might scheme as he
-liked; here was one who must bring his schemes to confusion. A vague
-lightening came into the Squire’s thoughts. He was reprieved, if not
-from the inevitable conclusion, at least from the necessity of
-contemplating it; and he continued his walk with a lighter heart. By and
-by, after a somewhat long round, and making sundry observations to
-himself about the state of the timber which would bear cutting, and
-about the birds which, without any keeper to care for them, were
-multiplying at their own will, and might give some sport in September,
-Mr. Musgrave found himself by the lake again with that fascination
-towards the water which is so universal. The lake gleamed through the
-branches, prolonging the blue of the sky, and calling him with soft
-plashing upon the beach, the oldest of his friends, accompaniment of so
-many thoughts, and of all the vicissitudes of his life. He went towards
-it now in the commotion of feeling which was subsiding into calm, a calm
-which had something of fatigue in it; for reluctant as he was to enter
-into the question of age and the nearly approaching conclusion, the fact
-of age made him easily tired with everything, and with nothing more than
-excitement. He was fatigued with the strain he had been put to, and had
-fallen into a languid state which was not unpleasant; the condition in
-which we are specially disposed to be easily amused if any passive
-amusement comes in our way.
-
-So it happened that as he walked along the margin of the lake, with the
-water softly foaming over the pebbles at his feet, Mr. Musgrave’s ear
-was caught by a series of sharp little repetitions of sound, like a
-succession of small reports--one, two, three. He listened in the mild,
-easily-roused, and not very active curiosity of such a moment, and
-recognized with a smile the sound of pebbles skipping across the water;
-presently he saw the little missiles gleaming along from ripple to
-ripple, flung by a skilful but not very strong hand. The Squire did not
-even ask himself who it was, but went on quietly, doubting nothing.
-Suddenly turning round a corner upon the edge of a small bay, he saw a
-little figure between him and the shining water, making ducks and drakes
-with varying success.
-
-The Squire’s step was inaudible on the turf, and he paused in sympathy
-with the play. He himself had made ducks and drakes in the Penninghame
-water as long as he could recollect. He had taught his little boys to do
-it; he could not tell how it was that this suddenly came to his mind
-just now--though how it should do so with Randolph, a middle-aged,
-calculating parson, talking about family arrangements--Pah! but even
-this recollection did not affect him now as it did before. Never mind
-Randolph. This little fellow chose the stones with judgment, and really,
-for such a small creature, launched them well. The Squire felt half
-disposed to step forward and try his skill too. When one shot failed he
-was half-sorry, half-inclined to chuckle as over an antagonist; and when
-there came a great success, a succession of six or seven reports one
-after another as the flat pebble skimmed over fold after fold of the
-water, he could not help saying, “Bravo!” in generous applause;
-generous, for somehow or other he felt as if he were playing on the
-other side. This sensation aroused him; he had not been so
-self-forgetting for many a day. “Bravo!” he cried, with something like
-glee in his voice.
-
-The little boy turned round hastily. What a strange meeting! Oddly
-enough it had never occurred to the Squire to think who it was.
-Strangers were rife enough in these regions, and people would now and
-then come to Penninghame with their families--who would stray into the
-Chase, taking it for public property. But for the ducks and drakes
-which interested him, he would probably have collared the little fellow,
-and demanded to know what right he had to be here. He was therefore
-quite unprepared for the encounter, and looked with the strangest
-emotions of wonder and half-terror into the face which was so familiar
-to him, but so strange, the face of his grandson and heir. When once he
-had seen the child no further doubt was possible. He stared at him as if
-he had been a little ghost. He had not presence of mind to turn on his
-heel and go away at once, which would have been the only way of keeping
-up his former tactics; he was speechless and overpowered; and there was
-nobody by to spy upon him, no grown-up spectators--not even the other
-child to observe what he did, or listen to what he said. In this case
-the Squire did not feel the need to be vigilant, which in other
-circumstances would have given him self-command. Thus the shock and
-surprise, and the perfect freedom of his position, unwatched and unseen,
-alike broke down all his defences. After the first start he stood still
-and gazed at the child, who still, more frankly and with much less
-emotion, gazed at him.
-
-“Who are you, sir?” the grandfather said, with a tone that was meant to
-be very peremptory. The jar in it was incomprehensible to Nello: but yet
-it gave him greater courage.
-
-“I am Ne--that is to say,” the little fellow answered, with a sudden
-flush and change of countenance, “my name, it is John.”
-
-“John what? Speak up, sir. Do you know you are a little trespasser, and
-have no business to be here?”
-
-“Oh yes, I have a business to be here,” said Nello. “I don’t know what
-it is to be a trespasser. I live at the Castle, me. I can come when I
-please, and nobody has any business to send me away.”
-
-“Do you know who I am?” asked the Squire, bending his brows. Nello
-looked at him curiously, half amused, though he was half frightened. He
-had never been so near, or looked his grandfather in the face before.
-
-“I _know_; but I may not tell,” said Nello. He shook his head, and
-though he was not very quick-witted, some latent sense of fun brought a
-mischievous look to his face. “We know very well, but we are never to
-tell,” he added, shaking his head once more, looking up with watchful
-eyes, as children have a way of doing, to take his cue from the
-expression of the elder face; and there was something very strange in
-that gleam of fun in Nello’s eyes. “We know, but we are never, never to
-tell.
-
-“Who told you so?”
-
-“It was--Martuccia,” said the boy, with precocious discretion. His look
-grew more and more inquisitive and investigating. Now that he had the
-opportunity he determined to examine the old man well and to make out
-the kind of person he was.
-
-Mr. Musgrave did not answer. He on his side was investigating too, with
-less keenness and more feeling than the child showed. He would have been
-unmoved by the beauty of Lilias, though it was much greater than that of
-Nello. The little girl would have irritated him; but with the boy he
-felt himself safe, he could not tell how; he was more a child, less a
-stranger. Mr. Musgrave himself could not have explained it, but so it
-was. A desire to get nearer to his descendant came into the old man’s
-mind; old recollections crept upon him, and stole away all his strength.
-“You know who I am; do you know who you are, little fellow?” he asked,
-with a strange break in his voice.
-
-“I told you; you are--the old gentleman at home,” said Nello. “I know
-all about it. And me? I am John. There is no wonder about that. It is
-just--me. We were not always here. We are two children who have come a
-long way. But now I know English quite well, and I have lessons every
-day.”
-
-“Who gives you lessons, my little boy?” The Squire drew a step nearer.
-He had himself had a little brother sixty years ago, who was like Nello.
-So it seemed to him now. He would not think he had likewise had a son
-thirty years ago, whom Nello was like. He crept a little nearer the
-child, shuffling his foot along the turf, concealing the approach from
-himself. Had he been asked why he changed his position, he would have
-said it was a little damp, boggy, not quite sure footing just there.
-
-“Mr. Pen gives us lessons,” said Nello. “I have a book all to myself. It
-is Latin, it is more easy than English. But it takes a great deal of
-time; it does not leave so much for play.”
-
-“How long have you been at your lessons, my little man?”
-
-The Squire’s eyes began to soften, a smile came into them. His heart was
-melting. He gave a furtive glance round, and there was nobody near to
-make him afraid, not even the little girl.
-
-“Oh, a long, long time,” said Nello. “One whole hour, it was as much as
-that, or perhaps six hours. I did not think anything could be so long.”
-
-“One whole hour!” the Squire said in a voice of awe; and his eyes melted
-altogether into smiling, and his voice into a mellow softness which it
-had not known for years. Ah! this was the kind of son for an old man to
-have, not such as Randolph. Randolph was a hard, disagreeable equal,
-superior in so much as he had, or thought he had, many more years before
-him; but the child was delightful. He did the Squire good. “Or perhaps
-six hours! And when did this long spell of study happen? Is it long
-ago?”
-
-“There was no spell,” said Nello. “And it was to-day. I readed in my
-book, and so did Lily; but as she is a girl it was different from mine.
-Girls are not clever, Martuccia says. She can’t make the stones skim.
-That was a good one when you said ‘Bravo!’ Where did you find out to say
-Bravo? They don’t talk like that here.”
-
-“It was a very good one,” said the Squire; “suppose we were to try
-again.”
-
-“Oh! can _you_ do it?” said Nello, with round eyes of wonder. “Can you
-do it as well as me?”
-
-“When I was a child,” said the Squire, quite overcome, “I had a little
-brother just like you. We used to come out here, to this very place, and
-play ducks and drakes. He would make them go half across the water. You
-should have seen them skimming. As far out as that boat. Do you see that
-boat----”
-
-“When he was no bigger than me? And what did you do? were you little
-too? did you play against him? did he beat you? I wish I had a brother,”
-said Nello. “But you can’t have quite forgotten, though you are an old
-gentleman. Try now! There are capital stones here. I wish I could send
-one out as far as that boat. Come, come! Won’t you come and try?”
-
-The Squire gave another searching look round. He had a sort of
-shame-faced smile on his face. He was a little shy of himself in this
-new development. But there was no one near, not so much as a squirrel or
-a rabbit, which could watch and tell. The birds were singing high up in
-the tree-tops, quite absorbed in their own business; nothing was taking
-any notice. And the child had come close to him, quite confiding and
-fearless, with eager little eyes, waiting for his decision. He was the
-very image of that little brother so long lost. The Squire seemed to
-lose himself for a moment in a vague haze of personal uncertainty
-whether all this harsh, hard life had not been a delusion, and whether
-he himself still was not a child.
-
-“Come and try,” cried Nello, more and more emboldened, and catching at
-his coat. When the old man felt the touch, it was all he could do to
-suppress a cry. It was strange to him beyond measure, a touch not like
-any other--his own flesh and blood.
-
-“You must begin then,” he said, a strange falter in his voice,
-half-laughing, half-crying. That is one sign of age, that it is so much
-nearer to the springs of emotion than anything else, except youth.
-Indeed, are not these two the fitting partners, not that middle state,
-that insolent strength which stands between? The Squire permitted
-himself to be dragged to the margin of his own water, which lay all
-smiling in soft ripples before him as it had done when he was a child.
-Nello was as grave as a judge in the importance of the occasion,
-breathless with excitement and interest. He sought out his little store
-of stones with all the solemnity of a connoisseur, his little brows
-puckered, his red lips drawn in; but the Squire was shy and tremulous,
-half-laughing, half-crying, ashamed of his own weakness, and more near
-being what you might call happy (a word so long out of use for him!)
-than he had been, he could not remember when.
-
-Nello was vexed with his first throw. “When one wants to do very good,
-one never can,” he said, discomfited as his shot failed. “Now you try,
-now you try; it is your turn.” How the Squire laughed, tremulous, the
-broken red in his old cheeks flushing with pleasure and shame! He failed
-too, which encouraged Nello, who for his part made a splendid shot the
-second time. “Two, three, four, _five_, SIX, SEVEN!” cried the child in
-delight. “Don’t be afraid, you will do better next time. Me too, I could
-not make a shot at all at first. Now come, now come, it is your turn
-again.”
-
-What a thing it is to have a real long summer afternoon! It was
-afternoon when the Squire’s calm was broken by his son Randolph; and it
-was afternoon still, dropping into evening, but with a sun still bright
-and not yet low in the sky when Mr. Musgrave warmed to his work, and,
-encouraged by Nello, made such ducks and drakes as astonished himself.
-He got quite excited as they skimmed and danced across the water. “Two,
-three, four, five, _six_, _seven_, EIGHT!” Nello cried, with a shriek of
-delight. How clever the old gentleman was--how much nicer than _girls_.
-He had not enjoyed his play so much for--never before, Nello thought.
-“Come back to-morrow--will you come back to-morrow?” he said at every
-interval. He had got a playmate now after his own heart--better than Mr.
-Pen’s Johnnie, who was small and timid--better than any one he had ever
-seen here.
-
-The two players did not in the growing excitement of their game think
-any more of the chance of spectators; and did not see a second little
-figure which came running across the grass through the maze of the
-trees, and stopped wondering in the middle of the brushwood, holding
-back the branches with her hands to gaze at the strange scene. Lilias
-was never quite clear of the idea that this wood was fairy-land: so she
-was not surprised at anything she saw. Yet at this, for the first
-moment, she was tempted to be surprised. The old gentleman! playing at
-ducks and drakes with Nello! He who pretended never to see them, who
-looked over their heads whenever they appeared, for whom they always had
-to run out of the way, who never took any notice! Lilias stood for two
-or three whole minutes, holding the branches open, peeping through with
-a rapt gaze of wonder; yet not surprised. She applied her little
-faculties at once, on the instant, to solve the mystery; and what so
-natural as that the old gentleman had been “only pretending” all the
-time? Half the pleasure which Lilias herself had in her life came from
-“pretending.” Pretending to be Queen Elizabeth, pretending to be a
-fairy and change Nello into a lion or a mouse, both of which things
-Nello “pretended” to be with equal success; pretending to be Mr. Pen
-preaching a sermon, pretending to be Mary, pretending even now and then
-to be “the old gentleman” himself, sitting up in a chair with a big
-book, just like him. She stood and peeped through the branches, and made
-up her mind to this in a way that took away all her surprise. No doubt
-he was “only pretending” when he would not let it be seen that he saw
-them. Motives are not necessary to investigators of twelve; there was
-nothing strange in it; for was not pretending the chief occupation, the
-chief recreation of life? She stood and made this out to her own
-satisfaction, and then with self-denial and with a sigh went back to
-Martuccia. It was very tempting to see the pebbles skimming across the
-water, and so easy it seemed! “Me too, me too,” Lilias could scarcely
-help calling out. But then it came into her head that perhaps it was
-herself whom the old gentleman disliked. Perhaps he would not go on
-playing if she claimed a share, perhaps he would begin “pretending” not
-to see her. So Lilias sighed, and with self-denial gave up this new
-pleasure. It was very nice for Nello to have some one to play with--some
-one _new_. He was always the lucky one; but then he was the youngest,
-such a little fellow. She went back and told Martuccia he was playing,
-he was coming soon, he was not in any mischief--which was what the
-careful elder sister and mild indulgent nurse most feared.
-
-When Lilias let the branches go, however, with self-denial which was
-impulsive though so true, the sweep with which they came together again
-made more sound than could have been made by a rabbit or squirrel, and
-startled the Squire, who was quite hot and excited in his new sport. He
-came to himself with a start, and with the idea of having been seen,
-felt a pang of shame and half-anger. He looked round him and could see
-nobody; but the branches still vibrated as if some one had been there;
-and his very forehead, weather-beaten as it was, flushed red with the
-idea of having been seen, perhaps by Randolph himself. This gave him a
-kind of offence and resentment and self-assertion which mended matters.
-Why should he care for Randolph? What had Randolph to do with it? Was he
-to put himself under tutelage, and conform to the tastes of a fellow
-like that, a parson, an interloper? But all the same this possibility
-stopped the Squire. “There, my little man,” he said with some confusion,
-dropping his stone, “there! I think it is time to stop now.”
-
-“Oh!--was it some one come for you?” said Nello, following the direction
-of the old gentleman’s eyes. “Stay a little longer, just a little
-longer. Can’t you do just what you please--not like me----”
-
-“Can you not do what you please, my little boy?” The Squire was a little
-tremulous with the unusual exertion. Perhaps it was time to stop. He
-stooped down to lave his hand in the water where it came shallow among
-the rocks, and that act took away his breath still more, and made him
-glad to pause a moment before he went away.
-
-“It is a shame,” said Nello, “there is Lily, and there is Martuccia, and
-there is Mary,--they think I am too little to take care of myself; but I
-am not too little--I can do a great many things that they can’t do. But
-come to-morrow, won’t you _try_ to come to-morrow?” said the child,
-coming close up to his grandfather, and taking hold of the skirt of his
-coat. “Oh please, please _try_ to come! I never have any one to play
-with, and it has been such fun. Say you will come! Don’t you think you
-could come if you were to _try_?”
-
-The Squire burst out into a broken laugh. It would have been more easy
-to cry, but that does not do for a man. He put his soft old tremulous
-hand upon the boy’s head. “Little Johnny,” he said, “little
-Johnny!--that was my little brother’s name, long, long ago.”
-
-“Did he play with you? I wish I had a little brother. I have nothing but
-girls,” said Nello. “But say you will come to-morrow--do say you will
-try!”
-
-The Squire gave another look round him. Nobody was there, not a mouse or
-a bird. He took the child’s head between his trembling hands, and
-stooped down, and gave him a hasty kiss upon his soft round
-forehead--“God bless you, little man!” he said, and then turned round
-defiant, and faced the world--the world of tremulous branches and
-fluttering leaves, for there was nothing else to spy upon the
-involuntary blessing and caress. Then he plunged through the very
-passage in the brushwood where the branches had shaken so
-strangely--feeling that if it was Randolph he could defy him. What right
-had Randolph to control his actions? If he chose to acknowledge this
-child who belonged to him, who was the image of the little
-Johnny of sixty years ago, what was that to any one? What had
-Randolph,--_Randolph_, of all men in the world,--to do with it? He would
-tell him so to his face if he were there.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-THE BAMPFYLDES.
-
-
-The same day on which these incidents occurred the Stanton family were
-in full conclave at Elfdale. It was the birthday of Laura, and there
-were various merrymakings on hand, an afternoon party, designed to
-include all her “young friends,” besides a more select company in the
-evening. As Laura was the one whom the family intended to be Lady
-Stanton, her affairs, with the willing consent, and indeed by the active
-energy of her sister, were generally pushed into the foreground. And
-Geoff and his mother were the chief of the guests specially invited, the
-only visitors who were staying in the house.
-
-To say that the family intended Laura to be Lady Stanton is perhaps too
-wild a statement, though this settlement of conflicting claims had been
-tacitly decided upon when they were children. It was chiefly Lydia who
-actively intended it now, moved and backed up by some of the absent
-brothers, who thought it “hard luck” that the young unnecessary Geoff
-should have interfered between their father and the title, and vowed by
-Jove that the only fit thing to do in the circumstances was to marry him
-to one of the girls. Lydia, however, was the most active mind in the
-establishment at Elfdale, and carried things her own way, so that though
-Sir Henry disliked fuss, and disliked Geoff’s mother, who had done him
-so much wrong, yet the party in the evening had been specially selected
-to suit her, and Maria, Lady Stanton, was established in the house.
-
-“It can’t last long, papa,” Lydia said; “but we can’t have Geoff without
-her.”
-
-“What do you want with Geoff?” growled Sir Henry.
-
-“Papa! in the first place he is our cousin; and Laura likes him; and you
-know we girls must marry somebody. You can’t get commissions and
-nominations for us, more’s the pity; so we must marry. And Laura may as
-well have Stanton as any one else, don’t you think? and of course in
-that case she ought to be on good terms with her mother-in-law; and
-people expect us----”
-
-“Oh, that will do,” said Sir Henry, “ask whom you like, only free me
-from all this clatter. But keep that woman off me with her sanctified
-airs, confound her,” said the baronet. He had forgiven Geoff for being
-born, but he could not forgive Geoff’s mother for bringing him so
-unnecessarily into the world.
-
-And thus it was that Geoff and his mother were at Elfdale. The elder
-Lady Stanton was no more disposed to go than Sir Henry was to ask her.
-Visits of this kind are not rare--the inviters unwilling to ask, the
-invited indisposed to go; and with such cordial results as might be
-anticipated. “I care for nobody in that house except Cousin Mary,” Lady
-Stanton said, “and even she perhaps--though it is wrong to say so,
-Geoff, my dear boy, for of course everybody means for the best.” With
-these mutual objections the party had met all the same. The other Lady
-Stanton was very mild and very religious. She could not prevent herself
-from having an occasional opinion--that is to say, as she explained it
-herself, for “caring for” one person more than another; but that was
-because she had not seen enough of the others perhaps--had not quite
-understood them. “Yes, Geoff, I do not doubt, my dear, that the girls
-are very nice. So many things are changed since my time. Manners are
-different. And we are all such prejudiced, unjust creatures, we
-constantly take the outside for our standard as if that was everything.
-There is but One that sees fully, and what a blessing, Geoff, that it
-is Him whom we have most to deal with!” said his mother. For it was one
-of her troubles in life that she had uneasy instincts about the people
-she met with, and likings and dislikings such as she felt--the latter at
-least--a true Christian ought not to indulge in. There was a constant
-conflict of duty in her against such rebellious feelings. As for Cousin
-Mary, Sir Henry Stanton’s wife, she was one of those whom Geoff’s mother
-had no difficulty in liking, but a cold doubt had been breathed into her
-mind as to the “influence” which this lady might exercise over her boy.
-She could not quite get it out of her thoughts. Mary could mean no harm,
-that was certain, but--and then Lady Stanton would upbraid herself for
-the evil imagination that could thus believe in evil. So that altogether
-she was not happy to go to Elfdale. When she was there, however, the
-family paid her a sort of court, though the girls frankly considered her
-a hypocrite. What did that matter? “All the people one meets with are
-humbugs more or less,” Lydia said with superior philosophy. Lydia was
-the one who saw through everybody, and was always unmasking false
-pretensions. Laura only acquiesced in the discoveries her sister made,
-and generally followed her in whatever was going on.
-
-The morning of the birthday dawned brightly and promised to be all that
-could be desired, and the presents were pretty enough to please any
-_débutante_. Laura was nineteen, and so far as the county gaieties went
-she had been already “out” for nearly a year. Any more splendid
-introduction into society had been denied to the girls. They had
-entertained dreams of London, and had practised curtseys for a
-problematical drawing-room during one whole year, but it had come to
-nothing, Sir Henry being economical and Lady Stanton shy. It was to
-their stepmother’s account that Laura and Lydia set down this wrong,
-feeling convinced that if she had been their _real_ mother she would
-have managed it somehow. “You’ll see she’ll find some way of doing it
-when these little things grow up,” the elder sisters said to each other,
-and they bore her a grudge in consequence, and looked at her with
-glances of reproaches whenever London was spoken of--though that she was
-not their real mother could not be held to be poor Mary’s fault.
-However, all this was forgotten on the merry morning, when with the
-delights of the garden party and a dance before them they came to
-breakfast and found Laura’s place at table blocked up with presents.
-Many of them it is true were not of very much value, but there was a
-pretty bracelet from Geoff and a locket from his mother, which amply
-rewarded the young ladies for their determination to have their cousin
-and his mother invited. The opening of the presents made a little
-pleasant commotion. The donors were all moved by an agreeable curiosity
-to see how their gifts were received, and as Laura was lavish in her
-expressions of delight and Lydia in generous admiration, and the little
-girls hovered behind in fluttering awe, curiosity, and excitement, a
-general air of family concord, sympathy, and happiness was diffused over
-the scene. There was not very much love perhaps in the ill-compacted
-household. But Sir Henry could not help sharing the infection of the
-half-real amiability of the moment, and his wife could not but brighten
-under any semblance of kindness. They sat down quite happily to
-breakfast and began to chatter about the amusements of the afternoon.
-Even little Fanny and Annie were allowed to have their say. To them was
-allotted a share in the croquet, even in the delightful responsibility
-of arranging the players. All the old fogies, the old-fashioned people,
-the curate and his sister, the doctor and his niece, the humbler
-neighbours, were reserved for that pastime which is out of fashion--the
-girls kept the gayer circle and the more novel amusements for Geoff and
-their own set. And moved by the general good-nature of the moment Sir
-Henry made apologies to his guests for the occupations which would
-occupy his morning. He was an active magistrate, and found in this
-version of public duty a relief from the idleness of his retired life.
-
-“I have that scamp Bampfylde in hand again,” he said; “he is never out
-of mischief. Have you ever seen that fellow, Geoff? Wild Bampfylde they
-call him. I think the keepers have a sneaking kindness for him. There is
-not a poaching trick he is not up to. I am tired of hearing his name.”
-
-“What did you say was his name?” said Geoff’s mother.
-
-The other Lady Stanton had looked up too with a little start, which
-attracted Geoff’s attention. He stopped short in the middle of an
-animated discussion with the girls on the arrangements of the afternoon,
-to hear what was being said.
-
-“Ah! to be sure--Bampfylde; for the moment I had forgotten,” Sir Henry
-said. “Yes--that family of course, and a handsome fellow; as fine a man
-as you could see in the north country. Certainly they are a good-looking
-race.”
-
-“I suppose it is gipsy blood,” said the elder Lady Stanton, with a sigh.
-“Poor people! Yes, I say poor people, Sir Henry, for there is no one to
-care what evil ways they take. So far out of the way among the hills, no
-teaching, no clergyman; oh, I make every excuse for them! They will not
-be judged as we are, with our advantages.”
-
-“I don’t know about our advantages,” said Sir Henry, somewhat grimly;
-“but I sha’n’t make excuses for them. A pest to the country; not to
-speak of the tragedy they were involved in----”
-
-“Oh, don’t let us speak of that,” said Mary, under her breath.
-
-Sir Henry gave her a look which irritated young Geoff. The young man
-felt himself his beautiful cousin’s champion, and he would have liked to
-call even her husband to account for such a glance under frowning
-eyebrows at so gentle a creature. Sir Henry for his part did not like
-his wife to show any signs of recollecting her own past history. He did
-not do very much to make her forget it, and was a cold and indifferent
-husband, but still he was affronted that she should be able to remember
-that she had not always been his wife.
-
-“I wish it did not hurt you, Cousin Mary,” said Geoff, interposing, “for
-I should like to speak of it, to have it all gone into. I am sure there
-is wrong somewhere. You said yourself about that young Musgrave----”
-
-“Oh hush, hush, Geoff!” she said under her breath.
-
-“He cannot be young now,” said the elder lady. “I am very sorry for him
-too, my dear. It is not given to us to see into men’s hearts, but I
-never believed that John Musgrave---- I beg your pardon, Mary, for
-naming him before you, of course it must be painful. And to me too. But
-it is such a long time ago, and I think if it were all to do over
-again----”
-
-“It would have been done over again and the whole case sifted if John
-Musgrave had not behaved like a fool, or a guilty man,” said Sir Henry.
-“It is not a pleasant subject for discussion, is it? I was an idiot to
-bring up the fellow’s name. I forgot what good memories you ladies
-have,” he said, getting up and breaking up the party. And there was
-still a frown upon his face as he looked at his wife.
-
-“What is the matter with papa?” cried the girls in a breath. “You have
-been upsetting him. You have worried him somehow!” exclaimed Lydia,
-turning upon her stepmother. “And everything was going so well, and he
-was in such a good humour. But it is always the way just when we want a
-little peace and comfort. I never saw such a house as ours! And he is
-not very unreasonable, not when you know how to manage him--papa.”
-
-As for Mary, she broke down and cried, but smiled again, trying to keep
-up appearances. “It is nothing,” she said; “your father is not angry. It
-will all be right in a moment. I suppose I am very silly. Run, little
-ones, and bring me some eau-de-cologne, quick! You must not think Sir
-Henry was really annoyed,” she said, turning to Lady Stanton. “He is
-just a little impatient; you know he has all his old Indian ways; and I
-am so silly.”
-
-“I don’t think you are silly,” said Lady Stanton, who herself was
-flushed and excited. “It was natural you should be disturbed, and I too.
-Sir Henry need not have been so impatient; but we don’t know his
-motives,” she added hastily, with the habitual apology she made for
-everybody who was or seemed in the wrong.
-
-“Oh, how tiresome it all is,” cried Lydia, stamping her foot, “when
-people will make scenes! Come along, Geoff; come with us and let us see
-what is to be done. Everything has to be done still. I meant to ask papa
-to give the orders; but when he is put out, it is all over. Do come;
-there are the hoops to put up, and everything to do. Laura, never mind
-your tiresome presents. Come along! or the people will be here, and
-nothing will be done.”
-
-“That is how they always go on,” said Laura, following her sister with
-her lap full of her treasures, “Come, Geoff. It is so easy to put papa
-out; and when he is put out he is no good for anything. Do come. I do
-not think this time, Lydia, it was _her_ fault.”
-
-“Oh, it is always her fault,” said the harsher sister: “and sending
-these two tiresome children for the eau-de-cologne! She always sends
-them for the eau-de-cologne. As if that could do any good! like putting
-out a fire with rose-water. There now, Laura, put your rubbish away, and
-I will begin settling everything with Geoff.”
-
-The young man obeyed the call unwillingly; but he went with his cousins,
-having no excuse to stay, and did their work obediently, though his mind
-was full of very different things. He had put aside the Musgrave
-business since his visit to Penninghame, not knowing how to act, and he
-had not spoken of it to his mother; but now it returned upon him with
-greater interest than ever. Bampfylde he knew was the name of the girl
-whom John Musgrave had married, whom his brother Walter had loved, and
-whom the quarrel was about; and she it was who, with her mother, had
-been accused of helping young Musgrave’s escape. All the story seemed to
-reopen even upon him with the name; and how much more upon those two
-ladies who were so much more deeply interested. The two girls and their
-games had but a slight hold of Geoff’s mind in comparison with this
-deeper question. He did what they wanted him, but he was _distrait_ and
-preoccupied; and as soon as he was free went anxiously in search of his
-mother, who, he hoped, would tell him more about it. He knew all about
-it, but not as people must do who had been involved in the
-circumstances, and helped to enact that sad drama of real life. He found
-his mother very thoughtful and preoccupied too, seated alone in a little
-sitting-room up-stairs, which was Lady Stanton’s special sanctum. The
-elder Lady Stanton was very serious. She welcomed her son with a
-momentary smile and no more. “I have been thinking over that dreadful
-story,” she said; “it has all come back upon me, Geoff. Sometimes a name
-is enough to bring back years of one’s life. I was then as Mary is now.
-No, no, my dear, your good father was very different from Sir Henry; but
-a stepmother is often not very happy. It used to be the other way, the
-story-books say. Oh, Geoff, young people don’t mean it--they don’t
-think; but they can make a poor woman’s life very wretched. It has
-brought everything back to me. That--and the name of this man.”
-
-“You have never told me much about it, mother.”
-
-“What was the use, my dear? You were too young to do anything; and then,
-what was there to do? Poor Mr. Musgrave fled, you know. Everybody said
-that was such a pity. It would have been brought in only manslaughter if
-he had not escaped and gone away.”
-
-“Then it was madness and cowardice,” said Geoff.
-
-“It was the girl,” said his mother. “No, I am not blaming her; perhaps
-she knew no better. And his father and all his family were so opposed.
-Perhaps they thought, to fly away out of everybody’s reach, the two
-together, was the best way out of it. When young people are so much
-attached to each other,” said the anxious mother, faltering, half afraid
-even to speak of such mysteries to her son, “they are tempted to think
-that being together is everything. But it is not everything, Geoff. Many
-others, as well as John Musgrave, have lost themselves for such a
-delusion as that.”
-
-“Is it a delusion?” Geoff asked, making his mother tremble. Of whom
-could the boy be thinking? He was thinking of nobody--till it suddenly
-occurred to him how the eyes of that little girl at Penninghame might
-look if they were older; and that most likely it was the same eyes which
-had made up to John Musgrave for the loss of everything. After all,
-perhaps this unfortunate one, whom everybody pitied, might have had some
-compensation. As he was thinking thus, and his mother was watching him,
-very anxious to know what he was thinking, Lady Stanton came in suddenly
-by a private door, which opened from her own room. She had a little
-additional colour on her cheeks, and was breathless with haste.
-
-“Oh, where is Geoff, I wonder?” she said; then seeing him, ran up to
-him. “Geoff, there is some one down-stairs you will like to see. If you
-are really so interested in all that sad story--really so anxious to
-help poor John----”
-
-“Yes, who is it? Tell me who it is, and I will go.”
-
-“Elizabeth Bampfylde is down-stairs,” she said, breathless, putting her
-hand to her heart. “The mother of the man Sir Henry was speaking of--the
-mother of--the girl. There is no one knows so much as that woman. She is
-sitting there all alone, and there is nobody in the way.”
-
-“Mary!” cried the elder lady, “is it right to plunge my boy into it? We
-have suffered enough already. Is it right to make Geoff a victim--Geoff,
-who knows nothing about it? Oh, my dear, I know you mean it for the
-best!”
-
-Mary fell back abashed and troubled.
-
-“I did not mean to harm him, Lady Stanton. I did not think it would harm
-him. Never mind; never mind, if your mother does not approve. After all,
-perhaps, she knows no more than we do,” she said, with an attempt at a
-smile. “The sight of her made me forget myself.”
-
-“Where is she?” said the young man.
-
-“Ah! that is just what overcame me,” said Mary, with a sob, and a
-strange smile at the irony of fate--“down-stairs in _my_ husband’s room.
-I have seen her often in the road and in the village--but here, in my
-house! Never mind, Geoff; it was she that helped him to get out of
-prison. They were bold, they had no fear of anything; not like us, who
-are ladies, who cannot stir a step without being watched. Never mind,
-never mind! it is not really of any consequence. She is sitting there
-in--in my husband’s room!” Mary said, with a sob and a little hysterical
-laugh. It was not strange to the others, but simple enough and natural.
-She alone knew how strange it was. “But stop, stop--oh, don’t pay any
-attention. Don’t go now, Geoff!”
-
-“Geoff! my dear Geoff!” cried his mother running to the door after him,
-but for once Geoff paid no attention. He hurried down-stairs, clearing
-them four or five steps at a time. The ladies could not have followed
-him if they would. The door of Sir Henry’s business room stood open, and
-he could see an old woman seated like a statue, in perfect stillness, on
-a bench against the wall. She wore a large grey cloak with a hood
-falling back upon her shoulders, and a white cap, and sat with her hands
-crossed in her lap, waiting. She raised her eyes quickly when he came in
-with a look of anxiety and expectation, but when she found it was not
-the person she expected, bowed her fine head resignedly and relapsed
-into quiet. The delay which is always so irksome did not seem to affect
-her. There was something in the pose of the figure which showed that to
-be seated there quite still and undisturbed was not disagreeable to her.
-She was not impatient. She was an old woman and glad to rest; she could
-wait.
-
-“You are waiting for Sir Henry?” Geoff said, in his eagerness. “Have you
-seen him? Can I do anything for you?”
-
-“No, sir. I hope you’ll forgive me rising. I have walked far and I’m
-tired. Time is not of so much consequence now as it used to be. I can
-bide.” She gave him a faint smile as she spoke, and looked at him with
-eyes undimmed, eyes that reminded him of the child at Penninghame. Her
-voice was fine too, large and melodious, and there was nothing fretful
-or fidgety about her. Except for one line in her forehead everything
-about her was calm. She could bide.
-
-And this is a power which gives its possessor unbounded superiority over
-the impatient and restless. Geoff was all curiosity, excitement, and
-eagerness. “I don’t think Sir Henry will have any time for you to-day,”
-he said; “tell me what it is. I will do all I can for you. I should like
-to be of use to you. Sir Henry is going to his luncheon presently. I
-don’t think you will see him to-day.”
-
-Just at this moment a servant came in with the same information, but it
-was given in a somewhat different tone. “Look here, old lady,” said the
-man, “you’ll have to clear out of this. There’s a party this afternoon,
-and Sir Henry he hasn’t got any time for the likes of you. So march is
-the word.--I beg your lordship ten thousand pardons. I didn’t see as
-your lordship was there.”
-
-“You had better learn to be civil to every one,” said Geoff,
-indignantly; “beg _her_ pardon, not mine. You are--Mrs. Bampfylde, I
-think? May I speak to you, since Sir Henry cannot see you? I have very
-urgent business----”
-
-She rose slowly, paying no attention to the man--looking only at Geoff.
-“And you are the young lord?” she said with an intent look. There was a
-certain dignity about her movements, though she seemed to set herself in
-motion with difficulty, stiffly, as if the exertion cost her something.
-“I’ve had a long walk,” she added, with a faint smile and half apology
-for the effort, “there’s where age tells. And all my trouble for
-nothing!”
-
-“If I can be of any use to you I will,” said Geoff. Then he paused and
-added, “I want you to do something for me.”
-
-“What is it that old ’Lizabeth Bampfylde could do for a fine young
-gentleman? Your fortune?--ay, I’ll give you your fortune easy; a kind
-tongue and a bright eye carries that all over the world. And you look as
-if you had a kind heart.”
-
-“It is not my fortune,” he said with an involuntary smile.
-
-“You’re no believer in the likes of that? May be you have never met with
-one that had the power. It runs in families; it runs in the blood. There
-was one of your house, my young lord, that I could have warned of what
-was coming. I saw it in his face. And, oh that I had done it! But he
-would not have been warned. Oh! what that would have saved me and mine,
-as well as you and yours!”
-
-“You think of my brother then when you see me?” he said, eager at once
-to follow out this beginning. She looked at him again with a
-scrutinizing gaze.
-
-“What had I to do with your brother, young gentleman? He never asked me
-for his fortune any more than you; he did not believe in the likes of
-me. It is only the silly folk and the simple folk that believe in us. I
-wish they would be guided by us that are our own flesh and blood--and
-then they would never get into trouble like my boy.”
-
-“What has he done?” asked Geoff, thinking to conciliate. He had followed
-her out of the house, and was walking by her side through the
-shrubberies by the back way.
-
-“What has he done? Something, nothing. He’s taken a fish in the river,
-or a bird out of the wood. They’re God’s creatures, not yours, or Sir
-Henry’s. But the rich and the great, that have every dainty they can set
-their face to, make it a crime for a poor lad when he does that.”
-
-Geoff did not make any answer, for he had a respect for game, and would
-not commit himself; but he said, “I will do anything I can for your son,
-if you will help me. Yes, you can help me, and I think you know you can,
-Mrs. Bampfylde.”
-
-“I am called ’Lizabeth,” said the old woman, with dignity, as if she had
-said, I am called Princess. Her tone had so much effect upon Geoff that
-he cried, “I beg your pardon,” instinctively, and faltered and coloured
-as he went on--
-
-“I want to know about what happened when I was a child--about my
-brother’s death--about--the man who caused it. They tell me you know
-more than any one else. I am not asking for idle curiosity. You know a
-great deal, or so I have heard, about John Musgrave.”
-
-“Hus--sh!” she cried, “it is not safe to say names--you never know who
-may hear.”
-
-“But all the world may hear,” said Geoff. “I am not afraid. I want him
-to come home. I want him to be cleared. If you know anything that can
-help him, tell me. I will never rest now till I have got that sentence
-changed and he is cleared.”
-
-The old woman looked at him, growing pale, with a sort of alarmed
-admiration. “You’re a bold boy,” she said, “very bold! It’s because
-you’re so young--how should you know? When a man has enemies we should
-be careful how we name him. It might bring ill-luck or more harm.”
-
-“I don’t believe much in ill-luck, and I don’t believe in enemies at
-all,” said Geoff, with the confidence of his years.
-
-“Oh!” she cried, with a long moan, wringing her hands. “Oh, God help
-you, innocent boy!”
-
-“No,” Geoff repeated, more boldly still, “neither in enemies nor in
-ill-luck, if the man himself is innocent. But I believe in friends. I am
-one; and if you are one--if you are his friend, his true friend, why,
-there is nothing we may not do for him,” the young man cried, standing
-still to secure her attention. She paused too for a moment, gazing at
-him, with a low cry now and then of wonder and distress; her mind was
-travelling over regions to which young Geoff had no clue, but his
-courage and confidence had compelled her attention at least. She
-listened while he went on repeating his appeal; only to tell him what
-she knew, what she remembered--to tell him everything. It seemed all so
-simple to Geoff; he went on with his pleadings, following through the
-winding walk. It was all he could do to keep up with her large and
-steady stride as she went on quickening her pace. The stiffness had
-disappeared, and she walked like one accustomed to long tramping over
-moor and hill.
-
-“My young lord,” she exclaimed abruptly, stopping him in the midst of a
-sentence, “you’ve talked long enough; I know all you can say now; and
-here’s the bargain I’ll make. If my lad gets free, I’ll take his
-advice--and if he consents, and you have a mind to come up to the fells
-and see me where I bide----”
-
-“Certainly I will come,” cried Geoff, feeling a delightful gleam of
-adventure suddenly light up his more serious purpose. “Certainly I will
-come; only tell me where I shall find you----”
-
-“You’re going too fast, my young gentleman. I said if my lad gets free.
-Till I have talked to him I’ll tell you nothing. And my bit of a place
-is a lonely place where few folk ever come near.”
-
-“I can find it,” said Geoff. “I do not mind how lonely it is. I will
-come--to-morrow, whenever you please.”
-
-“Not till my lad comes to fetch you,” said ’Lizabeth, with a gleam of
-shrewd humour crossing her face for a moment. “I must see my lad first,
-and hear what he says, and then I’ll send him to show you the way.”
-
-“It would be better not to make it dependent on that chance,” said Geoff
-prudently. “He might not care to come; I don’t know your son; why should
-he take so much trouble for me? He may decline to do it, or he may
-dislike my interference, or----”
-
-“Or he may not get free,” said ’Lizabeth, stopping short, and dismissing
-her young attendant almost imperiously. “Here you and me part paths, my
-young lord. It will be soon enough to say more when my lad is free.”
-
-Geoff was left standing at the outer gate, startled by the abruptness of
-his dismissal, but incapable he felt of resisting. He gazed after her as
-she sped along the road with long swift steps, half-appalled, greatly
-excited, and with a touch of amusement too. “I am to cheat justice for
-her in the first place, and elude the law,” he said to himself as he
-watched her disappearing along the dusty road.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-A NEW FRIEND.
-
-
-The result of this interview was that Geoff, as was natural, threw
-himself body and soul into the cause of Wild Bampfylde. When he had once
-made up his mind to this, a certain comic element in the matter
-delighted him and gave him double fervour. The idea of defeating justice
-was delightful to the young man, not much older than a schoolboy. He
-talked to all the people he met about the case of this wild man of the
-woods, this innocent savage, to whom all the sylvan sins came by nature;
-and he engaged the best lawyer who could be had to defend him, and if
-possible get the wild fellow free. Where was the harm? Wild Bampfylde
-had never been guilty of violence to any human creature, he ascertained.
-It was only the creatures of the woods he waged war against, not even
-the gamekeepers. And when Sir Henry, coming home from Quarter Sessions,
-informed the party that Wild Bampfylde had managed to get off by some
-quibble, the magistrates being fairly tired of convicting him, everybody
-was delighted to hear of the safety of Geoff’s _protégé_ except the two
-elder ladies, who showed no satisfaction. Neither of them were glad,
-notwithstanding that Geoff was so much interested; Lady Stanton from a
-vague concern for her son, and Mary because of the prejudice in her
-which all her gentleness could not eradicate. She looked at Geoff with
-tears in her eyes. “You will have nothing to do with them,” she said;
-“him nor any of them? Oh, Geoff, promise!” which was inconsistent, as it
-was she herself who had put the old mother in his way. But Geoff only
-laughed, and asked what he could have to do with them, and made no
-promise. This episode had not interfered with the business of life, with
-the afternoon party or the dinner, the dancing or the croquet. All had
-“gone off” as well as possible. Laura and Lydia had “enjoyed
-themselves” to their hearts’ content. They had been admired and praised
-and fêted, and every one had said it was a delightful party. What more
-could any young lady of nineteen desire? Geoff was very good-natured,
-and did everything that was asked of him. And Laura wore his bracelet,
-which was much admired by her friends, and gave rise to many pleasant
-suggestions. “He is just the very person for you,” Lydia said
-reflectively, as she examined it. “Now I should have liked emeralds or
-diamonds, or grown-up jewels; but the turquoises are the very thing for
-you. He sees your taste. If he were not Lord Stanton, just for simple
-suitableness you should marry Geoff--he is the very person for you.”
-
-“I do not see why I should be made to marry any one for simple
-suitableness, as if I were a baby,” was Laura’s protestation; but she
-liked the turquoises, and she did not dislike the hints and smiling
-gossip. And when young Lord Stanton and his mother went away, the house
-regretted them from the highest to the lowest. The little girls stood
-behind backs, crying, when the carriage drove away. “I should like to
-know what they have to cry about,” Lydia said; “what is Geoff to them?
-It is such nonsense; but they always are encouraged in everything. You
-two little things, stop that, and be off with you! You are always in
-some one’s way.”
-
-“He is as much our cousin as yours,” said Fanny, who was always known to
-be saucy; but they skimmed away in a panic when Lydia turned round upon
-them, not knowing what she might do. “Oh, how nice it would be to have
-nothing but a mamma!” they said to each other as they alighted in her
-room, where it was always quiet, and smoothed down their ruffled plumes.
-Poor little doves! it was not for Geoff alone they were crying, for
-Geoff’s mother had been very good to them. They had hung about her for
-hours, and had stories told to them, and the world seemed an empty sort
-of place when these two visitors went away.
-
-The mother and son drove home to their own house, he a little sorry, she
-a little glad. It was wrong perhaps to be glad, implying a kind of tacit
-censure on the people she had left; but there was no harm in being
-happy to get home. Stanton Hall was not an immemorial place like
-Penninghame, nor a cosy unpretending country house like Elfdale, but a
-great mansion intended to be grand and splendid, and overawe the
-country. The splendour had fallen into a little disuse during Geoff’s
-long minority, but as he had lived chiefly at home with his mother, it
-had proportionately gained in comfort and the home aspect which only
-being lived in can give to a house. They lived chiefly in one wing,
-leaving the state part of the mansion almost unoccupied. Geoff had not
-been brought up as most youths of his age are brought up. His mother had
-been too timorous, both physically and spiritually, to trust her child
-amid all the appalling dangers and indulgences of a public school. And
-he had not even, more wonderful still, gone to any university. She was
-his sole guardian, no one sharing her powers, for it never had been
-supposed that little Geoff would be anybody in particular, or that it
-was of the least importance how his mother brought him up. His education
-had therefore been chiefly conducted at home by a tutor, chosen rather
-for his goodness than his learning. Did it matter very much? Geoff was
-not very clever, and it does not require much learning, as Mrs.
-Hardcastle concluded in the case of her son Tony Lumpkin, to spend
-fifteen thousand a year. Geoff had learned a great many things which
-university men do not much meddle with, and he had forgotten as
-successfully as any university man could do. He had a great deal less
-Greek, but a good deal more French than most of those heroes; and he was
-a good, honest, simple-hearted boy, as, Heaven be praised, in spite of
-their many advantages, a great many of those same university men manage
-to be. And, in short, he was very much like his contemporaries, though
-brought up so very differently--a fact which would have wounded his
-mother’s feelings more than anything else you could have said; for if
-the result is just about the same as it would have been by the other
-process, what is the good of taking a great deal of additional trouble?
-Mr. Tritton, the tutor, had been all alone at Stanton during this visit
-to Elfdale. He was a very good man. He had been as kind as a father to
-Geoff from the moment he took charge of him, and had watched over him
-with unfailing care; indeed he was like a second mother as
-well--perhaps more like that than the other--very anxious not to
-“over-tire” his pupil, or to put any strain on his faculties. They were
-the most peaceful household that could be conceived, and Geoff,
-according to all rule, ought to have grown up a very feminine youth. But
-by good luck he had not done so. In that demure household he got to be a
-lively, energetic, out-door sort of person, and loved adventure, and
-loved life perhaps all the better in consequence of the meek atmosphere
-of quietness which surrounded him. To tell the truth it was he who, for
-a long time, had held the helm of the house in his hand, and had
-everything his own way.
-
-Mr. Tritton was upon the steps to welcome them, and the servants, who
-were glad to see them back after the week of quiet. Who does not know
-the kind of servants Lady Stanton would have?--men and women who had
-seen the boy grow up, and thought or seemed to think there was nobody in
-the world like Geoff--a housekeeper to whom her mistress was very
-obsequious and conciliatory, but whom Geoff treated with a familiarity
-which sometimes froze the very blood in his mother’s veins, who would
-not for the world have taken such liberties; and a butler, who felt
-himself an independent country gentleman, and went and came very much at
-his own pleasure, and governed his inferiors _en bon prince_, but with a
-lively sense of his own importance. These all received the travellers
-with cordiality at the door, and brought them tea and were very kind to
-them. It was quite touching and gratifying to Lady Stanton that they
-should always be so kind. Harris, the butler, took her little
-travelling-bag, and carried it into the drawing-room with his own hand;
-and Mrs. Benson herself came to pour out her cup of tea. “I hope your
-ladyship is not too much tired with your long drive,” Mrs. Benson said;
-and Harris kindly lingered to hear her reply, and to assure her that all
-had been going on well at Stanton while she was away.
-
-Geoff did not pay so much attention to the kindness of the servants. He
-went off to the stables to give some orders, leaving Mr. Tritton with
-his mother. Geoff called his tutor Old Tritton as easily as if he had
-mixed in the world of men at Eton or Oxford, and went off about his own
-business unconcerned. But when he had turned the corner of the house to
-the stables, Geoff’s whistle stopped suddenly. He found a man standing
-there with his back against the wall, whose appearance startled him. A
-poacher is a thing that is obnoxious to every country gentleman, however
-easy his principles may be on the question of game; and a tramp is a
-thing that nobody with a house worth robbing can away with. The figure
-that presented itself thus suddenly before Lord Stanton’s eyes was the
-quintessence of both; a tall, loose-limbed man, with strong black locks
-and an olive skin, in coarse velveteen and gaiters, and a coat with
-multitudinous pockets, with a red handkerchief knotted round his neck, a
-soft felt hat crushed into all manner of shapes, and a big stick in his
-hand. He stood in a careless attitude, at his ease, leaning against the
-wall. What had such a man to do there? and yet there he was for a
-purpose, as any one could see, lying in wait; was it to rob, or to kill?
-Geoff’s heart gave a little leap at the sight of the intruder. He had
-not had much experience of this kind.
-
-“What are you doing here?” he asked sharply, the instincts of property
-and authority springing up in disapproval and resistance. What had such
-a fellow to do here?
-
-“I am doing nothing,” said the man, not changing his attitude, or even
-taking off his hat, or showing the smallest mark of respect. He
-continued even to lounge against the wall with rude indifference. “I am
-here on your business, not on mine,” he said, carelessly.
-
-“On my business! Yes, I know,” said Geoff, suddenly bethinking himself;
-“you are Bampfylde? I am glad you’ve got off; and you come to me
-from----”
-
-“Old ’Lizabeth; that is about it. She’s a funny woman: whatever silly
-thing she wants she always gets her way. She wants you now, and I’ve
-come to fetch you. I suppose you’ll come, since she says it. And you’d
-better make up your mind soon, for it does not suit me to stay here.”
-
-“I suppose not,” said Geoff, scarcely noticing what he said.
-
-“Why should you suppose not!” said the man, rousing himself with an air
-of offence. He was taller than Geoff, a lanky but muscular figure. “I
-have eyes and feelings as well as you. I like a fine place. Why
-shouldn’t I take my pleasure looking at it? You have a deal more, and
-yet you’re not content.”
-
-“We were not discussing our feelings,” said Geoff, half contemptuous,
-half sympathetic. “You have brought me a message, perhaps from your
-mother?”
-
-“I’ve come from old ’Lizabeth. She says if you like to start to-night
-along with me we’ll talk your business over, and if she can satisfy you
-she will. Look you here, my young lord, your lordship’s a deal of
-consequence to some, but it’s nothing to her and me. Come, if you like
-to come; it’s your business, not our’s. If there’s danger it’s your own
-risk, if there’s any good it’s you that will have it, not us----”
-
-“Danger!” said Geoff; “the danger of a walk up the fells! and good--to
-me? Yes, you can say it is to me if you like, but you ought to be more
-interested than I am. However, words don’t matter. Yes, let us say the
-good is mine, and the danger, if any, is mine----”
-
-“Have it your own way,” said Bampfylde. “I’ll come back again, since
-you’ve made up your mind, at ten to-night and show you the way.”
-
-“But why at night?” said Geoff; “to-morrow would be better. It is not
-too far to go in a day.”
-
-“There’s the difference between you and us. Night is our time, you see.
-It must be by night or not at all. Would you like to walk with me across
-country, my lord? I don’t think you would, nor I wouldn’t like it. We
-shouldn’t look natural together. But at night all’s one. I’ll be here at
-ten; there’s a moon--and a two hours’ walk, or say three at the most,
-it’s nothing to a young fellow like you.”
-
-This was a very startling proposition, and Geoff did not know what to
-make of it. It grew more and more like a mysterious adventure, and
-pleased him on that side; but he was a modern young man, with a keen
-perception of absurdity, and everything melodramatic was alarming to
-him. Why should he walk mysteriously in the middle of the night to a
-cottage about which there need be no mystery on a perfectly innocent and
-honest errand? He stared at his strange visitor with a perplexity beyond
-words.
-
-“What possible object could be gained,” he said at last, “by going in
-the night?”
-
-“Oh, if you’re afraid!” said this strange emissary, “don’t go--that’s
-all about it: neither me nor her are forcing you to hear what we may
-happen to know.”
-
-“I am not afraid,” said Geoff, colouring. It was an accusation which was
-very hard to bear. “But there is reason in all things. I don’t want to
-be ridiculous--” The man shrugged his shoulders--he laughed--nothing
-could have been more galling. Geoff standing, looking at him, felt the
-blood boiling in his veins.
-
-“Quite right too,” said Bampfylde. “What can we know that’s worth the
-trouble? You’ll take a drive up some day in your coach and four, and
-oblige us. That is just what I would do myself.”
-
-“In Heaven’s name, what am I expected to do?” cried Geoff; “make a
-melodramatic ass of myself, and go in the middle of the night?”
-
-“I’m no scholar: long words are not my sort. Do or don’t, that’s the
-thing I understand, and it is easy to settle. If you’re not coming, say
-No, and I’ll go. If you are coming, let me know, and I’ll be here.
-There’s nothing to make such a wonder about.”
-
-Geoff was in great doubt what was best to do. The adventure pleased him;
-but the idea of ridicule held him back. “It is not pleasant to be
-thought a fool,” he said. Then, nettled by the jeer in the face of this
-strange fellow who kept his eyes--great, dark, and brilliant as they
-were--fixed upon him, the young man cut the knot hurriedly. “Then never
-mind the absurdity; be here at ten, as you say, and wait if I am not
-ready. I don’t want everybody to know what a fool I am,” he said.
-
-“You are coming then?” said the man with a laugh. “That’s plucky
-whatever happens. You’re not afraid?”
-
-“Pooh!” cried Geoff, turning away. He was too indignant and annoyed to
-speak. He went on impatiently to the stables, leaving the stranger where
-he stood. He was not afraid; but his young frame thrilled in every fibre
-with excitement. Had not adventures of this kind sounded somewhat
-ridiculous to the ideas of to-day, the mysterious expedition would have
-been delightful to him. But that uneasy sense of the ridiculous kept
-down his anticipations. What could old ’Lizabeth have to tell that could
-justify such precautions? But if she chose to be fantastic about her
-secret, whatever it was, he must humour her. When he went in again,
-there was no sign of his visitor, except the half-effaced mark of a
-footstep on the soft gravel. The man had ground the heel of his boot
-into it while he stood talking, and there it was, his mark to show the
-place where he had been.
-
-The evening passed very strangely to young Lord Stanton. He heard his
-mother and Mr. Tritton talking calmly of to-morrow. To-morrow the old
-family lawyer was expected, and some of the arrangements attendant on
-his coming of age, which was approaching, were to be discussed; and he
-was asked, What he would like--in one or two respects. Should this be
-done, or that, when his birthday came? Geoff could not tell what curious
-trick of imagination affected him. He caught himself asking, Would he
-ever come of age? Would to-morrow be just as the other days, no more and
-no less? How absurd the question was! What could possibly happen to him
-in a long mountain walk, even though it might be through the darkness?
-There is nothing in that homely innocent country to make midnight
-dangerous. Wild Bampfylde might be an exciting sort of companion; but
-what more? As for enemies, Geoff remembered what he had said so short a
-time before. He did not believe in them; why should he? he himself, he
-felt convinced, possessed no such thing in all the world.
-
-But it was astonishing how difficult it was that evening to get free.
-Lady Stanton, who generally was fatigued with the shortest journey, was
-cheerful and talkative to-night, and overflowing with plans; and even
-Mr. Tritton was entertaining. It was only by saying that he had letters
-to write that Geoff at last managed to get away. He disliked writing
-letters so much that the plea was admitted with smiles. “We must not
-balk such a virtuous intention,” the tutor said. He went into the
-library with a beating heart. This room had a large window which opened
-upon the old-fashioned bowling-green. Geoff changed his dress with great
-speed and quiet, putting on a rough shooting suit. The night was dark,
-but soft, with stars faintly lighting up a hazy sky. He stepped out from
-the big window and closed it after him. The air was very fresh, a little
-chilly, as even a midsummer night generally is in the north country. He
-gave a little nervous shiver as he came out into the darkness and
-dullness. “There’s some one walking over your grave,” said a voice at
-his elbow. Geoff started, to his own intense shame and annoyance, as if
-he had received a shot. “Very likely,” he said, commanding himself;
-“over all our graves perhaps. That harms nobody. You are there,
-Bampfylde? That’s well; don’t talk, but go on.”
-
-“You’re a good bold one after all,” said the voice by his side. Geoff’s
-heart beat uneasily at the sound, and yet the commendation gave him a
-certain pleasure. He was more at his ease when they emerged from the
-shadow of the house, and he could see the outline of his companion’s
-figure, and realize him as something more than a voice. He gave a
-somewhat longing look back at the scattered lights in the windows as he
-set out thus through the silence and darkness. Would any one find out
-that he was gone? But his spirit rose as they went on, at a steady pace,
-swinging along under the deep hedgerows, and across the frequent bridges
-where so many streamlets kept crossing the road, adding an unseen tinkle
-to the sounds of the summer night.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-A MIDNIGHT WALK.
-
-
-When young Lord Stanton left his own house with Wild Bampfylde there was
-a tingle of excitement in the young man’s veins. Very few youths of his
-age are to be found so entirely home-bred as Geoff. He had never been in
-the way of mischief, and he had no natural tendency to lead him
-thitherward, so that he had passed these first twenty years of his
-existence without an adventure, without anything occurring to him that
-might not have been known to all the world. To leave your own house
-when other people are thinking of going to bed, for an expedition you
-know not where, under the guidance of you know not whom, is a
-sufficiently striking beginning to the path of mystery and adventure;
-and there was a touch of personal peril in it which gave Geoff a little
-tingle in his veins. His brother had been killed by some one with whom
-this wild fellow was closely connected; it was a secret of blood which
-the young man had set himself to solve one way or other; and this no
-doubt affected his imagination, and for a short time the consciousness
-of danger was strong in him, quickening his pulses and making his heart
-beat. This was increased by a sense of wrong-doing, in so far as Geoff
-felt that he might be exposing the tranquil household he had left behind
-to agonies of apprehension about him, did he not return sufficiently
-early to escape being found out. Finally, on the top of this
-consciousness of conditional fault came a feeling, perhaps the most
-strong of all, of the possible absurdity of his position. Romantic
-adventure, if it never ceases to be attractive to the young, is looked
-upon with different eyes at different periods, and the nineteenth
-century has agreed to make a joke of melodrama. Instead of being moved
-by a fine romantic situation, the modern youth laughs; and the idea of
-finding himself in such picturesque and dramatic circumstances strikes
-him as the most curious and laughable, if not ridiculous, idea. To
-recognize himself as setting out, like the hero of a novel or a play (of
-the old school), to search out a mystery--into the haunts of a
-law-defying and probably law-breaking class, under the guidance of a
-theatrical vagrant, tramp, or gipsy, to ask counsel of the weird old
-woman, bright-eyed and solemn, who held all the threads of the story in
-her hands, filled Geoff with mingled confusion and amusement. He had
-almost laughed to himself as he realized it; but with the laugh a flush
-came over his face--what would other people think? He felt that he would
-be laughed at as romantic, jibed at as being able to believe that any
-real or authentic information could be obtained in this ridiculous way.
-’Lizabeth Bampfylde in the witness-box would no doubt be valuable, but
-the romances she might tell in her own house, to a young man evidently
-so credulous and of such a theatrical temperament--these two things
-were entirely different, and he would be thoroughly laughed at for his
-foolishness.
-
-This consciousness of something ridiculous in the whole business
-reassured him, however; and better feelings rose as he went on with a
-half-pleased, half-excited, exhilaration and curiosity. The night was
-fine, warm, and genial, but dark; a few stars shone large and lambent in
-the veiled sky, but there was as yet no moon, so that all the light
-there was was concentrated above in the sky, and the landscape
-underneath was wrapped in darkness, a soft, cool, incense-breathing
-obscurity--for night is as full of odours as the morning. It is full of
-sounds too, all the more mysterious for having no kind of connection
-with the visible; and no country is so full of sounds as the North
-country, where the road will now thread the edge of a dark, unseen,
-heathery, thymy moor, and now cross, at a hundred links and folds, the
-course of some invisible stream, or some dozens of little runlets
-tinkling on their way to a bigger home of waters. Now dark hedgerows
-would close in the path; now it would open up and widen into that world
-of space, the odorous, dewy moorland; now lead by the little street, the
-bridge, the straggling outskirts of a village. Generally all was quiet
-in the hamlets, the houses closed, the inhabitants in bed, but sometimes
-there would be a sudden gleam of lightness into the night, a dazzle from
-an open door or unshuttered window. The first of these rural places was
-Stanton, the village close to the great House, where Geoff unconsciously
-stole closer into the shadow, afraid to be seen. Here it was the smithy
-that was still open, a dazzling centre of light in the gloom. The smith
-came forward to his door as they passed, roused by the steady tread of
-their footsteps, and looked curiously out upon them, his figure relieved
-against the red background of light. “What, Dick! is’t you, lad?” he
-said, peering out. “Got off again? that’s right, that’s right; and who’s
-that along with you this fine night?” Bampfylde did not stop to reply,
-to Geoff’s great relief. He went on with long swinging steps, taking no
-notice. “If anybody asks you, say you don’t know,” he said as he went
-on, throwing back a sort of challenge into the gloom. He did not talk to
-his companion. Sometimes he whistled low, but as clearly as a bird,
-imitating indeed the notes of the birds, the mournful cry of the
-lapwing, the grating call of the corn-crake; sometimes he would sing to
-himself low crooning songs. In this way they made rapid progress to the
-foot of the hills.
-
-Geoff had been glad of the silence at first; it served to deliver him
-from those uncomfortable thoughts which had filled his mind, the
-vagabond’s carelessness reassuring and calming his excitement; for
-neither the uneasy sense of danger he had started with, nor the equally
-uneasy sense of the ludicrous which had possessed him, were consistent
-with the presence of this easy, unexcited companion, who conducted
-himself as if he were alone, and would stop and listen to the whirr and
-flutter of wild creatures in the hedgerows or on the edge of the moor,
-as if he had forgotten Geoff’s very presence. All became simple as they
-went on, the very continuance of the walk settling down and calming the
-agitation of the outset. By and by, however, Geoff began to be impatient
-of the silence, and of the interest his companion showed in everything
-except himself. Could he be, perhaps, one of the “naturals” who are so
-common in the North, a little less imbecile than usual, but still
-incapable of continuous attention? Thus, after his first half-alarmed,
-half-curious sense of the solemnity of the enterprise, Geoff came back
-to an everyday boyish impatience of its unusual features and a
-disposition to return to the lighter intercourse of ordinary life.
-
-“How far have we to go now?” he asked. They had come to the end of the
-level, and were just about to ascend the lower slopes of hilly country
-which shut in the valley. The fells rising before them made the
-landscape still more dark and mysterious, and seemed to thrust
-themselves between the wayfarers’ eyes and that light which seemed to
-retire more and more into the clear pale shining of the sky.
-
-“Tired already?” said the man, with a shrug of his shoulders. He had
-stopped to investigate a hollow under a great gorse-bush, just below the
-level of the road, from which came rustlings and scratchings
-indistinguishable. Bampfylde raised himself with a half-laugh, and came
-back to Geoff’s side. “These small creatures is never tired,” he said;
-“they scuds about all day, and sleep that light at night that a breath
-wakes them; and yet they’re but small, not so big as my hand; and knows
-their way, they does, wherever they’ve got to go.”
-
-“I allow they are cleverer than I am,” said Geoff, good-humouredly, “but
-then they cannot speak to ask their way. Men have a little advantage.
-And even I am not so ignorant as you think. I have been on the fells in
-a mist, and knew my way, or guessed it. At all events, I got home again,
-and that is something.”
-
-“There will be no mist to-night,” said Bampfylde, looking up at the sky.
-
-“No; but it is dark enough for anything. Look here, I trust you, and you
-might trust me. You know why I am going.”
-
-“How do you trust me, my young lord?”
-
-“Well,” said Geoff; “supposing I am a match for you, one man against
-another, how can I tell you have not got comrades about? My brother lost
-his life--by some one connected with you. Did you know my brother?”
-
-The suddenness of this question took his companion by surprise. He
-wavered for a moment, and fell backward with an involuntary movement of
-alarm.
-
-“What’s that for, lad, bringing up a dead man’s name out here in the
-dark, and near midnight? Do you want to fley me? _I_ never meddled with
-him. He would be safe in his bed this night, and married to his bonnie
-lady, and bairns in his house to heir his title and take your lordship
-from you, if there had been nobody but me.”
-
-“I believe that,” said Geoff, softened. “They say you never harmed man.”
-
-“No, nor beast--except varmint, or the like of a hare or so--when the
-old wife wanted a bit o’ meat. Never man. For man’s blood is precious,”
-said the wild fellow with a shudder. “There’s something in it that’s not
-in a brute. If I were to kill you or you me in this lonesome place,
-police and that sort might never find it out; but all the same, the
-place would tell--there would be something there different; they say
-man’s blood never rubs out.”
-
-Geoff felt a little thrill run through his own veins as he saw his
-companion shiver and tremble; but it was not fear. The words somehow
-established perfect confidence between himself and his guide; and he had
-all the simplicity of mind of a youth whose faith had never been
-tampered with, and who believed with the unshaken sincerity of
-childhood. “The stain on the mind never wears out,” he said,
-thoughtfully. “I knew a boy once who had shot his brother without
-knowing it. How horrible it was! he never forgot it; and yet it was not
-his fault.”
-
-“Ah! I wish as I had been that lucky--to shoot my brother by accident,”
-said Wild Bampfylde, with a long sigh, shaking into its place a pouch or
-game-bag which he wore across his shoulder. “It would have been the best
-thing for him,” he added, in answer to Geoff’s cry of protest; “then he
-wouldn’t have lived--for worse----”
-
-“Have you a brother so unfortunate?”
-
-“Unfortunate! I don’t know if that is what you call it. Yes,
-unfortunate. He never meant bad. I don’t credit it.”
-
-“You are not speaking,” said Geoff, in a very low voice, overpowered at
-once with curiosity and interest, “of John Musgrave?”
-
-“The young Squire? No, I don’t mean him; he’s bad, and bad enough, but
-not so bad. You’ve got a deal to learn, my young lord. And what’s your
-concern with all that old business? If another man’s miserable, _that_
-don’t take bit or sup from you--nor a night’s rest, unless you let it.
-You’ve got everything that heart could desire. Why can’t you be content,
-and let other folks be?”
-
-“When we could help them, Bampfylde?” said Geoff. “Is that the way you
-would be done by? Left to languish abroad; left with a stain on your
-name, and no one to hold out a hand for you--nobody to try to get you
-righted; only thinking of their own comfort, and the bit and the sup and
-the night’s rest?”
-
-“You’ve never done without neither one nor t’other,” came in a hoarse
-undertone from Bampfylde’s lips. “It’s fine talking; but it’s little you
-know.”
-
-“No, I’ve never had the chance,” said Geoff. “I can’t tell what it’s
-like, that’s true; but if it ever comes my way----”
-
-“Ah, ay! it’s fine talking--it’s fine talking!”
-
-Geoff did not know how to reply. He went on impatiently, tossing aloft
-his young head, as a horse does, excited by his own words like the
-playing of a trumpet. They proceeded so up a stiff bit of ascent that
-taxed their strength and their breathing, and made conversation less
-practicable. The winding mountain road seemed to pierce into the very
-fastnesses of the hills, and the tall figure of the vagrant a stop in
-advance of him appeared to Geoff like the shadow of some ghostly pioneer
-working his way into the darkness. No twinkle of a lamp, no outline of
-any inhabited place looming against the lighter risings of the manifold
-slopes, encouraged their progress. The hills, which would have made the
-very brightness of the morning dark, increased the gloom of the night.
-Only the tinkle of here and there a little stream, the sound of their
-own footsteps as they passed on, one in advance of the other, the small
-noises which came so distinctly through the air--here a rustle, there a
-jar of movement, something stirring under a stone, something moving amid
-the heather, were to be heard. Bampfylde himself was stilled by these
-great shadows. His whistle dropped; and the low croon of song which he
-had raised from time to time did not take its place. He became almost
-inaudible, as he was almost invisible; only the sound of a measured step
-and a large confused outline seen at times against the uncertain
-openings and bits of darkling sky.
-
-When they came abreast again, however, on a comparatively smooth level,
-after a stiff piece of climbing, he spoke suddenly. “It’s queer work
-going like this through the dark. Many a night I have done it with no
-company, and then a man’s drawn out of himself watching the living
-things: one will stir at your foot, and one go whirr and strike across
-your very face, for they put more trust in you in the dark. You see they
-have the use of their eyesight, and the like of you and me haven’t. So
-they know their advantage. But put a man down beside another man, and
-a’s changed. I cannot understand the meaning of it. It puts things in
-your head, and it puts away the innocent creatures. Men’s seldom
-innocent: but they’re awful strange,” said the vagrant, with a sigh.
-
-“Do you think they are so strange? I am not sure that I do,” said Geoff,
-bewildered a little. “They are just like everything else--one is dull,
-one is clever; but except for that----”
-
-“Clever! it’s the creatures that are clever. Did you ever see a bird
-make a fuss to get you off where her nest was? A woman wouldn’t have
-sense to do that. She’d run and shriek, and get hold of her bairns; but
-the bird’s clever. That’s what I calls clever. It’s something stranger
-than that. When a man’s beside you, all’s different; there’s him
-thinking and you thinking; and though you’re close, and I can grip
-you”--here Bampfylde seized upon Geoff with a sudden, startling grasp,
-which alarmed the young man--“I can’t tell no more than Adam where your
-mind is. Asking your pardon, my young lord, I didn’t mean to startle
-you,” he added, dropping his hold. “Now the creatures is all there; you
-know where you have ’em. Far the contrary with a man.”
-
-Geoff was not given to abstract thoughts, and this sudden entry into the
-regions of the undiscovered perplexed him. “You like company, then?” he
-said, doubtfully. He knew a great deal more than his companion did of
-almost everything that could be suggested, but not of this.
-
-“Like company? it’s confusing, very confusing. But the creatures is
-simple. You can watch their ways, and they’re never double-minded.
-They’re at one thing, one thing at a time. Now, a man, there’s notions
-in his head, and you can never tell how they got there.”
-
-“I suppose,” said young Geoff, perplexed yet reverential, “it is because
-men are immortal; not like the beasts that perish.”
-
-“Ay, ay--I suppose they perish,” said Bampfylde. “What would they be
-like us for, and sicken, and pine? They get the good of it all the time;
-run wild as they like, and do mischief as they like, and never put in
-gaol for it. You think they’re sleeping now? and so they are, and waking
-too--as still as the stones and as lively as the stars up yonder. That’s
-them; but us, if we’re sleeping, it’s for hours long, and dreams with
-it; one bit of you lying like a log, t’other bit of you off at the ends
-of the airth. So, if you’re woke sudden, chances are you aren’t there to
-be woke--and there’s a business; but the creatures, they’re always
-there.”
-
-“That is true,” said Geoff, who was slightly overawed, and thought this
-very fine and poetical--finer than anything he had ever realized before.
-“But sometimes they are ill, I suppose, and suffer too?”
-
-“Then them that is merciful puts them out of their pain. The
-hardest-hearted ones will do that. A bird with a broken wing, or a beast
-with a broken leg, unless it be one of the gentlefolks’ pets, that’s
-half mankind, and has to suffer for it because his master’s fond of him
-(and that’s funny too)--the worst of folks will put them out of their
-pain. But a man--we canna’ do it,” cried the vagrant; “there’s law
-again’ it, and more than law. If it was nothing but law, little the
-likes of me would mind; but there’s something written here,” he said,
-putting his hand to his breast; “something that hinders you.”
-
-“I hope so indeed,” said Geoff, a little breathless, with a sense of
-horror; “you would not take away a life?”
-
-“But the creatures, ay; they have the best of it. You point your gun at
-them, or you wring their necks, and it’s all over. I’m fond of the
-creatures--creatures of all kinds. I’m fond of being out with them on a
-heathery moor like this all myself. They know me, and there’s no fear in
-them. In the morning early, when the air’s all blue with the dawn, the
-stirring and the moving there is, and the scudding about, setting the
-house in order! A thing not the size of your hand will come out with two
-bright eyes, and cock its head and look up at you. A cat may look at a
-king; a bit of a moor chicken, or a rabbit the size o’ my thumb, up and
-faces you, and, ‘Who are you, my man?’ That is what they looks like; but
-you never see them like that after it’s full day.”
-
-“Then is night their happy time?” said Geoff, humouring his strange
-companion.
-
-“Night, they’re free. There’s none about that wishes them harm; and
-though I snare varmint, and sometimes take a hare or a bird,--I’ll not
-deny it, my young lord, though you were to clap me in prison again
-to-morrow--they’re not afraid o’ me; they know I’ll not harm them. Even
-the varmint, if they didn’t behave bad and hurt the rest, I’d never have
-the heart. When you go back, if you do go back----”
-
-“I must go back,” said Geoff, very gravely. “Why should not I? You don’t
-think I could stay up here?”
-
-“I was not thinking one thing or another. The like of you is contrary.
-I’ve little to do with men; but when you go, if you go, it might be
-early morning, the blue time, at the dawn. Then’s the time to see; when
-there’s all the business to be done afore the day, and after the night.
-Children is curious,” said Bampfylde, with a softening of his voice,
-which felt in the darkness like a slowly dawning smile; “but creatures
-is more curious yet. I like to watch them. You’ll see all the life
-that’s in the moors if it’s that time when you go.”
-
-“I suppose if there is anything to tell me I cannot go sooner,” said
-Geoff. His tone was grave, and so was his face, though that was
-invisible. “Then it will be day before I get home, and they will all
-know--perhaps I was a fool.”
-
-“For coming?” said the man, turning round to peer into his face though
-it was covered by the darkness; and then he gave a low laugh. “I could
-have told you that!”
-
-For a moment Geoff’s blood ran colder; he felt a little thrill of
-dismay. Was this strange creature a “natural” as he had thought, or did
-what he said imply danger? But no more was said for a long time.
-Bampfylde sank back again all at once into the silence he had so
-suddenly broken, or rather into the low crooning of monotonous old songs
-with which he had beguiled the first part of the journey. There was a
-kind of slumbrous soothing in them which half-interested, half-stupefied
-Geoff. They all went to one tune, a tune not like anything he knew--a
-kind of low chant, recalling several airs that did not vary from verse
-to verse, but repeated itself, and so lulled the wayfarer that all
-active sensation seemed to go from him, and the monotonous, mechanical
-movement of his limbs seemed to beat time to the croon of sound which
-accompanied the gradual march. There was something weird in it,
-something like “the woven paces and the waving hands” of the
-enchantress. Geoff felt his eyes grow heavy, and his head sinking on his
-breast, as the low, regular tramp and chant went on.
-
-At length, all at once, the hills seemed to clear away from the sky,
-opening up on either hand; and straight before them, hanging low, like
-a signal of trouble, a late risen and waning moon that seemed thrust
-forward out into the air, and hanging from the sky, appeared in the
-luminous but mournful heaven in front of them. There is always something
-more or less baleful and troublous in this sudden apparition, so late
-and out of date, of a waning moon; the oil seems low in the lamp, the
-light ready to be extinguished, the flame quivering in the socket.
-Between them and the sky stood a long, low cottage, rambling and
-extensive, with a rough, grey stone wall built round it, upon which the
-pale moonlight shone. Long before they reached it, as soon as their
-steps could be audible, the mingled baying and howling of a dog was
-heard, rising doleful and ominous in the silence; and from under the
-roof--which was half rough thatch and half the coarse tiles used for
-labourers’ cottages--a light strangely red against the radiance of the
-moon flickered with a livid glare. A strange black silhouette of a house
-it was, with the low moonlight full upon it, showing here and there in a
-ghostly full white upon a bit of wall or roof, and contrasting with the
-red light in the window: it made a mystic sort of conclusion to the
-journey. Bampfylde directed his steps towards it without a word. He
-knocked a stroke or two on the door, which seemed to echo over all the
-country and up to the mountain-tops in their great stillness. “We are at
-home, now,” he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-THE COTTAGE ON THE FELLS.
-
-
-There was a sound of movement within the house, but no light visible as
-they stood at the door. Then a window was cautiously opened, and a voice
-called out into the darkness, “Is that you, my lad?” Geoff felt more and
-more the little thrill of alarm which was quite instinctive, and meant
-nothing except excited fancy; such precautions looked unlike the
-ordinary ease and freedom of a peasant’s house. A minute after the door
-was opened, and ’Lizabeth Bampfylde made her appearance. She had her
-red handkerchief as usual tied over her white cap, and the flash of this
-piece of colour and of the old woman’s brilliant eyes were the first
-things which warmed the gloom, the blackness and whiteness and mystic
-midnight atmosphere. She made an old-fashioned curtsey, with a certain
-dignity in it, when she saw Geoff, and her face, which had been somewhat
-eager in expression, paled and saddened instantly. The young man saw her
-arms come together with a gesture of pain, though the candle she held
-prevented the natural clasp of the hands. She was not glad to see him,
-though she had sent for him. This troubled Geoff, whom from his
-childhood most people had been pleased to see. “You’ve come, then, my
-young lord?” she said, with a half-suppressed groan.
-
-“Indeed, I thought you wanted me to come,” he said, unreasonably annoyed
-by this absence of welcome; “you sent for me.”
-
-“You thought the lad would be daunted,” said Wild Bampfylde, “and I told
-you he would not be daunted if he had any metal in him. So now you’re at
-the end of all your devices. Come in and welcome, my young lord. I’m
-glad of it, for one.”
-
-Saying this, the vagrant disappeared into the gloom of the interior,
-where his step was audible moving about, and was presently followed by
-the striking of a light, which revealed, through an open door, the
-old-fashioned cottage kitchen, so far in advance of other moorland
-cottages of the same kind, that it had a little square entrance from the
-door, which did not open direct into the family living-room. This rude
-little ante-room had even a kind of rude decoration, dimly apparent by
-the light of ’Lizabeth’s candle. A couple of old guns hung on one wall,
-another boasted a deer’s head with fine antlers. Once upon a time it had
-evidently been prized and cared for. The open door of the room into
-which Bampfylde had gone showed the ordinary cottage dresser with its
-gleaming plates (a decoration which in these days has mounted from the
-kitchen to the drawing-room), deal table, and old-fashioned settle,
-lighted dimly by a small lamp on the mantelpiece, and the smouldering
-red of the fire. ’Lizabeth closed the door slowly, and with trembling
-hands, which trembled still more when Geoff attempted to help her. “No,
-no; go in, go in, my young gentleman. Let me be. It’s me to serve the
-like of you, not the like of you to open or shut my door for me. Ah,
-these are the ways that make you differ from common folk!” she said, as
-the young man stood back to let her pass. “My son leaves me to do
-whatever’s to be done, and goes in before me, and calls me to serve him;
-but the like of you--. It was that, and not his name or his money, that
-took my Lily’s heart.”
-
-Geoff followed her into the kitchen. It was low and large, with a small
-deep-set window at each corner, as is usual in such cottages. Before the
-fire was spread a large rug of home manufacture, made of scraps of
-coloured cloth, arranged in an indistinct pattern upon a black
-background, and Bampfylde was occupying himself busily, putting forward
-a large high easy-chair in front of the fire, and breaking the
-“gathered” coals to give at once heat and light. “Sit you down there,”
-he said, thrusting Geoff into it almost with violence, “you’re little
-used to midnight strolling. Me, it’s meat and drink to me to be free and
-aneath the stars. Let her be, let her be. She’s not like one of your
-ladies. Her own way, that’s all the like of her can ever get to please
-them--and she’s gotten that,” he said, giving another vigorous poke to
-the fire. Up here among the fells the fire was pleasant, though it was
-the middle of August: and Geoff’s young frame was sufficiently unused to
-such long trudges to make him glad of the rest. He sat down and looked
-round him with a grateful sense of the warmth and repose. A
-north-country cottage was no strange place to young Lord Stanton, and
-all the tremour of the adventure had passed from him at the sight of the
-light and the homely, kindly interior. No harm could possibly happen in
-so familiar an atmosphere, and in such a natural place. Meantime old
-’Lizabeth, with a thrill of agitation in her movements which was very
-apparent, busied herself in laying the table, putting down a clean
-tablecloth, and placing bread, cheese, and milk upon it. “I have wine,
-if you like wine better,” she said. “He will get it, but he takes none
-himself--nothing, poor lad, nothing. He’s a good son and a good
-lad--many a time I’ve thanked God that He’s left me such a lad to be the
-comfort of my old age.”
-
-Wild Bampfylde gave a laugh which was harsh and broken. “You were not
-always so thankful,” he said, producing out of some unseen corner a
-black bottle; “but the milk is better of its kind, being natural, than
-the wine.”
-
-“Hush, lad; milk is little to the like of him; but _that’s_ good, for I
-have it here for--a sick person. Take something, take something, young
-gentleman. You can trust them that have broken bread in your presence,
-and sat at your table. Well, if you will have the milk, though it costs
-but little, it’s good too; I would not give my brown cow for ne’er a one
-in the dales; and eat a bit of the wheaten bread,--it’s baker’s bread,
-like what you eat at your own grand house. I would not be so mean as to
-set you down, a gentleman like you, to what’s good and good enough for
-us. The griddle-cake! no, but you’ll not eat that, my young lord, not
-that; it’s o’er homely for the like of you.”
-
-“I am not hungry,” said Geoff, “and I came here, you know, not to eat
-and drink, but to hear something you had to tell me, Mrs. Bampfylde--”
-
-“My name is ’Lizabeth--nobody says mistress to me.”
-
-“Well; but you have something to tell me. I left home without any
-explanation, and I wish to get back soon, that they--that my mother,”
-said Geoff, half-ashamed, yet too proud to omit the apparently (he
-thought) childish excuse, since it was true, “may not be uneasy.”
-
-“Your mother? forgive me that did not mind your mother! Oh, you’re a
-good lad; you’re worthy a woman’s trust that thinks of your mother, and
-dares to say it! Ay, ay--there’s plenty to tell; if I can make up my
-mind to it--if I can make up my mind!”
-
-“Was not your mind made up then,” said Geoff with some impatience, “when
-in this way, in the night, you sent for me?”
-
-“Oh lad!” cried ’Lizabeth, wringing her hands. “How was I to know you
-would come, the like of you to the like of me? I put it on Providence
-that has been often contrairy--oh, aye contrairy, to mine and me. I
-shouldn’t have tempted God. I said to myself, if he comes it will be the
-hand of Heaven. But who was to think you would come? You a lord, and a
-fine young gentleman, and me a poor old woman, old as your grandmother.
-I thought my heart would have sunk to my shoes when I saw he had come
-after a’!”
-
-“I told you he would come,” said Bampfylde, who stood leaning against
-the mantelpiece. He had taken his bread and cheese from the table, and
-was eating it where he stood.
-
-“Of course I would come,” said Geoff. “I could not suppose you would
-send for me for nothing. I knew it must be something important. Tell me
-now, for here I am.”
-
-’Lizabeth sat down, dropping into a wooden arm-chair at the end of the
-table with a kind of despair, and throwing her apron over her head, fell
-a-crying feebly. “What am I to do? what am I to do?” she said, sobbing.
-“I have tempted Providence--Oh, but I forgot what was written, ‘Thou
-shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.’”
-
-For a minute or two neither of the men spoke, and the sounds of her
-distress were all that was audible. Once or twice, indeed, Geoff thought
-he heard a faint sound, like the echo of some low wail or moan, come
-through the silence. Not the moan itself, but an echo, a ghost of it.
-But his companions took no notice of this, and he thought he must be
-mistaken. Everything besides was still. The fire by this time had burned
-up, and now and then broke into a little flutter of flame; the clock
-went on ticking with that measured steady movement which ‘beats out the
-little lives of men;’ and the broken sobs grew lower. An impatience of
-the stillness began to take possession of Geoff, but what was he to do?
-He restrained himself with an effort.
-
-“You should make a clean breast,” said Bampfylde, munching his bread and
-cheese as he spoke, with his eyes fixed on the fire, not looking at his
-mother. “Long since it would have been well to do it and an ease to your
-mind. I would make a clean breast now.”
-
-“Oh, lad, a clean breast, a clean breast!” she said, rocking herself.
-“If it was only me it concerned--if it was only me!”
-
-“If it was only you what would it matter?” said the vagrant, with a
-philosophy which sounded less harsh to the person addressed than to him
-who looked on. “You--you’re old, and you’ll die, and there would be an
-end of it; but them that suffer most have years and years before them,
-and if you die before you do justice----”
-
-“Then _you_ can tell, that have aye wanted to tell!” she cried with a
-hot outburst of indignation mingled with tears. Then she resumed that
-monotonous movement, rocking herself again and again, and calmed herself
-down. It is not so intolerable to a peasant to be told of his or her
-approaching end as it is to others. She was used to plain speech, and
-was it not reasonable what he said? “It’s all true, quite true. I’m old,
-and I cannot bide here for ever to watch him and think of him--and I
-might make a friend, the Lord grant it, and find one to stand by
-him----”
-
-“You mean another, a second one,” said her son. He stood through all
-this side dialogue munching his bread and cheese without once glancing
-at her even, his shoulders high against the mantelpiece, his eyes cast
-down.
-
-After a moment’s interval ’Lizabeth rose. She came forward moving feebly
-in her agitation to where Geoff sat. “My young lord, if I tell you
-_that_ that I would rather die than tell--that that breaks my heart;
-you’ll mind that I am doing it to make amends to the dead and to the
-living--and--you’ll swear to me first to keep it secret? You’ll swear
-your Bible oath?--without that, not another word.”
-
-“Swear!” said Geoff, in alarm.
-
-“Just swear--you can do it as well, they tell me, in one place as
-another, in a private house or a justice court. I hope we have Bibles
-here--Bibles enough--if we but make a right use of them,” said the old
-woman, perplexed, mingling the formulas of common life with the
-necessities of an extraordinary and unrealized emergency. “Here is a
-Testament, that is what is taken to witness in the very court itself.
-You’ll lay your hand upon it, and you’ll kiss the book and swear. Where
-are you going to, young man?”
-
-Geoff rose and pushed away the book she had placed before him. He was
-half indignant, half disappointed. “Swear!” he said, “do you know what I
-want this information for? Is it to lock it up in my mind, as you seem
-to have done? I want it for use. I want it to help a man who has been
-cruelly treated between you. I have no right to stand up for him,” said
-Geoff, his nostrils expanding, his cheeks flushing, “but I feel for
-him--and do you think I will consent to put my last chance away, and
-hear your story for no good? No indeed; if I am not to make use of it I
-will go back again and find out for myself--I don’t want to be told.”
-
-The old woman, and it may be added her son also, stood and gazed upon
-the glowing eager countenance of the young man with a mingling of
-feelings which it would be impossible to describe. Admiration, surprise,
-and almost incredulity were in them. He had not opposed them hitherto,
-and it was almost impossible to believe that he would have the courage
-to oppose them so decidedly; but as he stood confronting them, young,
-simple, ingenuous, reasonable, they were both convinced of their error.
-Geoff would yield no more than the hill behind. His very simplicity and
-easiness made him invulnerable. Wild Bampfylde burst into that sudden
-broken laugh which is with some the only evidence of emotion. He came
-forward hastily and patted Geoff’s shoulder, “That’s right, my lad,
-that’s right,” he cried.
-
-“You will not,” said old ’Lizabeth; “not swear?--and not hear me?--oh,
-but you’re bold--oh, but you’ve a stout heart to say that to me in my
-ain house! Then the Lord’s delivered me, and I’ll say nothing,” she said
-with a sudden cry of delight.
-
-Her son came up and took her by the arm. “Look here,” he said, “it was
-me that brought him. I did not approve, but I did your bidding, as I’ve
-always done your bidding; but I’ve changed my mind if you’ve changed
-yours. Now that he is here, make no more fuss, but tell him; for,
-remember, I know everything as well as you do, and if you will not, I
-will. We have come too far to go back now. Tell him; or I will take him
-where he can see with his own eyes.”
-
-“See! what will he see?” cried ’Lizabeth, with a flush of angry colour.
-“Do you threaten me, lad? He’ll see a poor afflicted creature; but that
-will tell him nothing.”
-
-“Mother! are you aye the same? Still _him_, always him, whatever
-happens. What has there been that has not yielded to him? the rest of
-us, your children as well, and justice and honour and right and your own
-comfort, and the young Squire’s life. Oh, it’s been a bonnie business
-from first to last! And if you will not tell now, then there is no hope
-that I can see; and I will do it myself. I am not threatening; but what
-must be, must be. Mother, I’ll have to do it myself.”
-
-When he first addressed her as mother, ’Lizabeth had started with a
-little cry. What might be the reason that made this mode of expression
-unusual it was impossible to say; but it affected the old woman as
-nothing had yet done. She looked up at him with a wondering, wistful
-inquiry in her face, as if to ask in what meaning he used the
-word--kindly or unkindly, taunting or loving? When he repeated the name
-she started up as if the sound stung her, and stood for a moment like
-one driven half out of herself by force of pressure. She looked wildly
-round her as if looking for some escape, then suddenly seized the
-lighted candle, which still burned on the table. “Then if it must be,
-let it be,” she said. “Oh, lad! it’s years and years since I’ve heard
-that name! you that would not, and him that could not, and her that was
-far away; was there ever a mother as sore punished?” But it would seem
-that this expression of feeling exhausted the more generous impulse, for
-she set down the light on the table again, and dropping into her seat,
-threw her apron over her head. “No, I canna do it; I canna do it. Let
-him die in quiet. It canna be long.”
-
-The vagrant watched her with a keen scrutiny quite unlike his usual
-careless ways. “It’s not them as are a burden on the earth that dies,”
-he said. “You’ve said that long--let him die in peace; let him die in
-peace. Am I wishing him harm? There’s ne’er a one will hurt _him_. He’s
-safe enough. Whoever suffers, it will not be him.”
-
-“Oh, lad, lad!” cried the mother, uncovering her face to look at him. At
-’Lizabeth’s age there are no floods of tears possible. Her eyes were
-drawn together and full of moisture--that was all, She looked at him
-with a passion of reproach and pain. “Did you say suffer? What’s a’ the
-troubles that have been into this house to his affliction? My son, my
-son, my miserable lad! You that can come and go as you like, that have a
-mind free, that have your light heart--oh ay, you have a light heart,
-or how could you waste your days and your nights among beasts and wild
-things? How can the like of you judge the like of him?”
-
-During this long discussion, to which he had no sort of clue, Geoff
-stood looking from one to another in a state of perplexity impossible to
-describe. It could not be John Musgrave they were talking of? Who could
-it be? Some one who was “afflicted,” yet who had been exempt from
-burdens which had fallen in his stead upon others. Young Lord Stanton,
-who had come here eager to hear all the story in which he was so much
-interested, anxious to discover everything, stood, his eyes growing
-larger, his lips dropping apart in sheer wonder, listening; and feeling
-all the time that these two peasants spoke a different language from
-himself, and one to which he had no clue. Just then, however, in the
-dead silence after ’Lizabeth had spoken, the faint sound like a muffled
-cry which he had heard before, broke in more loudly. It made Geoff
-start, who could not guess what it meant, and it roused his companions
-effectually, who did know. ’Lizabeth wrung her hands; she raised her
-head in an agony of listening. “He has got one of his ill turns,” she
-said. Bampfylde, too, abandoned his careless attitude by the
-mantelpiece, and stood up watchful, startled into readiness and
-preparation as for some emergency. But the cry was not repeated, and
-gradually the tension relaxed again. “It would be but an ill dream,”
-said ’Lizabeth, pressing a handkerchief to her wet eyes.
-
-Geoff did not know what to do. He was in the midst of some family
-mystery, which might or might not relate to the other mystery which it
-was his object to clear up; and this intense atmosphere of anxiety awoke
-the young man’s ready sympathies. All his feelings had changed since he
-came into the cottage. He who had come a stranger, ready to extract what
-they could tell by any means, harsh or kind, and who did not know what
-harshness he might encounter or what danger he might himself run, had
-passed over entirely to their side. He was as safe as in his own house;
-he was as deeply interested as he would have been in a personal trouble.
-His voice faltered as he spoke. “I don’t know what it is that distresses
-you,” he said; “I don’t want to pry into your trouble; but if I can
-help you you know I will, and I will betray none of your secrets that
-you trust me with. I will say nothing more than is necessary to clear
-Musgrave--if Musgrave can be cleared.
-
-“Musgrave! Musgrave!” cried old ’Lizabeth, impatiently; “it’s him you
-all think of, not my boy. And what has he lost, when all’s done? He got
-his way, and he got my Lily; never since then have I set eyes on her,
-and never will. I paid him the price of my Lily for what he did; and was
-that nothing? Musgrave! Speak no more o’ Musgrave to me!”
-
-“Oh, mother,” said her son, with kindred impatience, as he walked
-towards her and seized her arm in sudden passion; “oh, ’Lizabeth
-Bampfylde! You do more than murder men, for you kill the pity in them!
-What’s all you have done compared to what John Musgrave has done? and
-me--am I nothing? Two--three of us! Lily, too, you’ve sacrificed Lily!
-And is it all to go on to another generation, and the wrong to last? I
-think you have a heart of stone--a heart of stone to them and to me!”
-
-At this moment there was another louder cry, and mother and son started
-together with one impulse, forgetting their struggle. ’Lizabeth took up
-the candle from the table, and Bampfylde hastily went to a cupboard in
-the corner, from which he took out something. He made an imperative sign
-to Geoff to follow, as he hurried after his mother. They went through a
-narrow winding passage lighted only by the flickering of the candle
-which ’Lizabeth carried, and by what looked like a mass of something
-white breaking the blackness, but was in reality the moonlight streaming
-in through a small window. At the end of the passage was a steep stair,
-almost like a ladder. Already Geoff, hurrying after the mother and son,
-was prepared by the cries for what the revelation was likely to be; and
-he was scarcely surprised when, after careful reconnoitring by an
-opening in the door, defended by iron bars, they both entered hastily,
-though with precaution, leaving him outside. Geoff heard the struggle
-that ensued, the wild cries of the madman, the aggravation of frenzy
-which followed, when it was evident they had secured him. Neither mother
-nor son spoke, but went about their work with the precision of long
-use. Geoff had not the heart to look in through the opening which
-Bampfylde had left free. Why should he spy upon them? He could not tell
-what connection this prison chamber had with the story of John Musgrave,
-but there could be little doubt of the secret here inclosed. He did not
-know how long he waited outside, his young frame all thrilling with
-excitement and painful sympathy. How could he help them? was what the
-young man thought. It was against the law, he knew, to keep a lunatic
-thus in a private house, but Geoff thought only of the family, the
-mysterious burden upon their lives, the long misery of the sufferer. He
-was overawed, as youth naturally is, by contact with misery so hopeless
-and so terrible. After a long time Bampfylde came out, his dress torn
-and disordered, and great drops of moisture hanging on his forehead.
-“Have you seen him?” he asked in a whisper. He did not understand
-Geoff’s hesitation and delicacy, but with a certain impatience pointed
-him to the opening in the door, which was so high up that Geoff had to
-ascend two rough wooden steps placed there for the purpose, to look
-through. The room within was higher than could have been supposed from
-the height of the cottage; it was not ceiled, but showed the
-construction of the roof, and in a rude way it was padded here and
-there, evidently to prevent the inmate doing himself a mischief. The
-madman lay upon a mattress on the floor, so confined now that he could
-only lie there and pant and cry; his mother sat by him, motionless.
-Though his face was wild and distorted, and his eyes gleaming furiously
-out of its paleness, this unhappy creature had the same handsome
-features which distinguished the family. Young Geoff could scarcely
-restrain a shiver, not of fear, but of nervous excitement, as he looked
-at this miserable sight. Old ’Lizabeth sat confronting him, unconscious
-of the hurried look which was all Geoff could give. She was clasping her
-knees with her hands in one of those forced and rigid attitudes almost
-painful, which seem to give a kind of ease to pain--and sat with her
-head raised, and her strained eyes pitifully vacant, in that pause of
-half-unconsciousness in which all the senses are keen, yet the mind
-stilled with very excitement. “I cannot spy upon them,” said Geoff, in a
-whisper. “Is it safe to leave her there?”
-
-“Quite safe; and at his maddest he never harmed her,” said Bampfylde,
-leading the way down-stairs. “That’s my brother,” he said, with
-bitterness, when they had reached the living-room again; “my gentleman
-brother! him that was to be our honour and glory. You see what it’s come
-to; but nothing will win her heart from him. If we should all perish,
-what of that? ’Lizabeth Bampfylde will aye have saved her son from
-shame. But come, come, sit down and eat a bit, my young lord. At your
-age the like of all this is bad for you.”
-
-“For me--what does it matter about me?” cried Geoff; “you seem to have
-borne it for years.”
-
-“You may say that: for years--and would for years more, if she had her
-way; but a man must eat and drink, if his heart be sore. Take a morsel
-of something and a drink to give you strength to go home.”
-
-“I am very, very sorry for you,” said Geoff, “but--you will think it
-heartless to say so--I have learned nothing. There is some mystery, but
-I knew as much as that before.”
-
-Bampfylde was moving about in the back-ground searching for something.
-He re-appeared as Geoff spoke with a bottle in his hand, and poured out
-for him a glass of dark-coloured wine. It was port, the wine most
-trusted in such humble houses. “Take this,” he said; “take it, it’s
-good, it will keep up your strength; and bide a moment till she comes.
-She will tell you herself--or if not I will tell you; but now you’ve
-seen all the mysteries of this house, she will have to yield, she will
-have to yield at the last.”
-
-Geoff obeyed, being indeed very much exhausted and shaken by all that
-had happened. He swallowed the sweet, strong decoction of unknown
-elements, which Bampfylde called port wine, and believed in as a
-panacea, and tried to eat a morsel of the oat-cake. They heard the
-distant moans gradually die out, as the blueness of dawn stole in at the
-window. Bampfylde, whose tongue seemed to be loosed by this climax of
-excitement, began to talk; he told Geoff of the long watch of years
-which they had kept, how his mother and he relieved each other, and how
-they had hoped the patient was growing calmer, how he had mended and
-calmed down, sometimes for long intervals, but then grown worse again;
-and the means they had used to restrain him, and all the details of his
-state. When the ice was thus broken, it seemed a relief to talk of it.
-“He was to make all our fortunes,” Bampfylde said; “he was a
-gentleman--and he was a great scholar. All her pride was in him; and
-this is what it’s come to now.”
-
-They had fallen into silence when ’Lizabeth came in. Their excitement
-had decreased, thanks to the conversation and the natural relief which
-comes after a crisis, but hers was still at its full height. She came in
-solemnly, and sat down amongst them, the blue light from the window
-making a paleness about her as she placed herself in front of it; though
-the lamp was still burning on the mantelshelf, and the fire kept up a
-ruddy variety of light. She seated herself in the big wooden arm-chair
-with a solemn countenance and fixed her eyes upon Geoff, who, moved
-beyond measure by pity and reverence, did not know what to think.
-
-“He will have told you,” she said. “I would have died sooner, my young
-lord; and soon I’ll die--but, my boy first, I pray God. Ay, you’ve seen
-him now. That was him that was my pride; that was the hope I had in my
-life; that was him that killed young Lord Stanton and made John Musgrave
-an exile and a wanderer. Ay--you know it all now.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-AN EARLY MEETING
-
-
-Geoff left the cottage when the sun had just risen. He was half-giddy,
-half-stunned by the strange new light, unexpected up to the last moment,
-which had been thrown upon the whole question which he had undertaken to
-solve. He was giddy too with fatigue, the night’s watch, the long walk,
-the want of sleep. Besides all these confusing influences there is
-something in the atmosphere of the very early morning, the active
-stillness, the absence of human life, the pre-occupation of Nature with
-a hundred small (as it were) domestic cares such as she never exhibits
-to the eye of man, that moves the mind of an unaccustomed observer to a
-kind of rapture, bewildering in its solemn influence. To come out from
-the lonely little house folded among the hills, with all its miseries
-past and present, its sad story, its secret, the atmosphere of human
-suffering in it, to all the still glory of the summer morning, was of
-itself a bewilderment. The same world, and only a step between them: but
-one all pain and darkness, mortal anguish and confusion--the other all
-so clear, so sweet, so still, solemn with the serious beginning of the
-new day, and instinct with that great, still pressure of something more
-than what is seen, some soul of earth and sky which goes deeper than all
-belief, and which no sceptic of the higher kind, but only the gross and
-earthly, can disbelieve in. Young Geoff disbelieving nothing, his heart
-full of the faith and conviction of youth, came out into this wide
-purity and calm with an expansion of all his being. It was all he could
-do not to burst into sudden tears when he felt the sudden relief--the
-dew crept to his eyelids though it did not fall, his bosom contracted
-and expanded as with a sob. To this world of mountain and cloud--of
-rising sunshine and soft-breathing air, and serene delicious silence,
-pervaded by the soft indistinguishable hum of unseen water and rustling
-grasses, and minute living creatures unseen too beneath the mountain
-herbage--what is the noblest palace built with hands but a visible
-limitation and contraction of the world, an appropriation of a petty
-corner out of which human conceit makes its centre of the earth?
-Bampfylde, who had come out with him, and to whom the story Geoff had
-just heard was not new, felt the relief more simply. He drew a long
-breath of refreshment and ease, expanding his breast and stretching out
-his arms; and then this rough vagrant fellow, unconscious of literature,
-did what Virgil in the _Purgatorio_ did in such a morning for his poet
-companion; he spread both his hands upon the fragrant grass, all heavy
-with the early dew, and bathed his face and weary eyes.
-
-“That’s life,” said the man of woods and hills; the freshness of nature
-was all the help he had, all the support as well as all the poetry his
-maimed existence could possess.
-
-Bampfylde went with his young companion round the shoulder of the hill
-to show him the way. It was a nearer and shorter road to the level
-country than that by which they had come, for Geoff was anxious to get
-home early. Bampfylde pointed out to him the line of road which twisted
-about and about like a ribbon, crossing now one slope, now another, till
-it disappeared upon the shadowed side of the green hill which presided
-over Penninghame, and beyond which the lake gleamed blue, not yet
-reached by the sunshine.
-
-“It’s like the story,” he said; “it’s like a parable; ye come by
-Stanton, my young lord, and ye go by Penninghame. It’s your nearest way;
-and there, if you ask at John Armstrong’s in the village, ye’ll get a
-trap to take you home.”
-
-Geoff was not sufficiently free in mind to be able to give any attention
-to the parable. Those fantastic symbolisms of accident or circumstance
-which so often would seem to be arranged like shadows of more important
-matters by some elfish secondary providence, need a spirit at rest to
-enter into them. He was glad to be alone, to realise all that he had
-heard, to compose the wonderful tangle of new information and new
-thoughts into something coherent, without troubling himself about the
-fact that he was now bending his steps direct, the representative of
-Walter Stanton who had been killed, towards the house from which John
-Musgrave had been wrongfully driven for having killed him. He did not
-even yet know all the particulars of the story, and as he endeavoured to
-disentangle them in his mind Geoff felt in his bewilderment that
-absolute want of control over his own intelligence and thoughts which is
-the common result of fatigue and overstrain. Instead of thinking out the
-imbroglio and deciding what was to be done, his mind, like a tired
-child, kept playing with the rising light which touched every moment a
-new peak and caught every moment a new reflection in some bit of
-mountain stream or waterfall, or even in a ditch or moorland cutting, so
-impartial is Heaven; or his ear was caught by that hum of mystic
-indistinguishable multitude--“the silence of the hills,” so called--the
-soft rapture of sound in which not one tone is distinct or anything
-audible; or his eye by the gradual unrolling of the landscape as he went
-on, one fold opening beyond another, the distant hills on one hand, the
-long stretch of Penninghame water with all its miniature bays and
-curves. Then for a little while he lost the lake by a doubling of the
-path, which seemed to reinclose him among the hollows of the hills, and
-which pleased his languid faculties with the complete change of its
-shade and greenness; until turning the next corner, he found the sun
-triumphant over all the landscape, and Penninghame water lying like a
-sheet of silver or palest gold, dazzling and flashing between its
-slopes. This wonderful glory so suddenly bursting upon him completed the
-discomfiture of young Geoff’s attempts at thought. He gave it up then,
-and went on with weary limbs and a mind full of languid soft delight in
-the air about him and the scene before his eyes, attempting no more
-deductions from what he had heard or arrangements as to what he should
-do. Emotion and exertion together had worn him out.
-
-About the time he resigned himself (with the drowsy surprise we feel in
-dreams) to this incapable state, his eye was caught by a speck upon the
-road beneath advancing towards him, so small in the distance that
-Geoff’s languid imagination, capable of no more active exercise, began
-to wonder who the little pilgrim could be, so little and so lonely, and
-so early astir. Perhaps it was the distance that made the advancing
-passenger look so small. Little Lilias at the Castle would have
-satisfied her mind by the easy conclusion that it was some little fairy
-old woman, the traveller most naturally to be met with at such an hour
-and place. But Geoff, more artificial, did not think of that. He kept
-watching the little wayfarer, as the figure appeared and disappeared on
-the winding road. By and by he made out that it was either a very small
-woman or a little girl, coming on steadily to meet him, with now and
-then an occasional pause for breath, for the ascent was steep. Geoff’s
-mind got quite entangled with this little figure. Who could it be? who
-could she be? A little cottager bound on some early expedition, seeking
-some of the mountain fruits, blackberries, cranberries, wild
-strawberries, perhaps; but then she never turned aside to the rougher
-ground, but kept on the path;--or she might be going to some farmhouse
-to get milk for the family breakfast: but then there were no farmhouses
-in that direction. Altogether Geoff felt himself quite sufficiently
-occupied as he came gradually downwards watching this child, his limbs
-feeling heavy, and his head somewhat light. At last, after losing sight
-of the little figure which had given him for some time a sort of distant
-companionship, another turn brought him full in sight of her, and so
-near that he recognised her with the most curious and startling
-interest. He could not restrain an exclamation of surprise. It was the
-little girl whom he had met at the door of Penninghame Castle, John
-Musgrave’s child, the most appropriate, yet the most extraordinary, of
-all encounters he could have made. He stood still in his surprise,
-awaiting her: and as for little Lilias, she made a sudden spring towards
-him, holding out her hand with a cry of joy, her little pale face
-crimsoned over with relief and pleasure. Her heart and limbs were
-beginning to fail her; she had begun to grow frightened and discouraged
-by the loneliness; and to see a face that had been seen before, that had
-looked friendly, that recognised her--what a relief it was to the little
-wayfaring soul! She sprang forward to him, and then in the comfort of it
-fairly broke down, and sobbed and cried, trying to smile all the time,
-and to tell him that she was glad, and that he must not mind.
-
-Geoff, however, minded very much. He was full of concern and sympathy.
-He took her hand, and putting his arm round her (for she was still a
-child), led her to the soft, mossy bank on the edge of the path, and
-placed her there to rest. He was not at all sorry to place himself
-beside her, notwithstanding his haste. He, too, was so young and so
-tired! though for the moment he forgot both his fatigue and his youth,
-and felt most fatherly, soothing the little girl, and entreating her to
-take comfort, and not to cry.
-
-“Oh,” said little Lilias, when she recovered the power of speech, “I am
-not crying for trouble, _now_; I am crying for pleasure. It was so
-lonely. I thought everybody must be dead, and there was no one but only
-me in all the world.”
-
-“That was exactly what I felt too,” said Geoff; “but what are you doing
-here, so far away, and all alone? Have you lost yourself? Has anything
-happened? When you have rested a little, you must come back with me, and
-I will take you home.”
-
-The tears were still upon the child’s cheeks, and two great lucid pools
-in her eyes, which made their depths of light more unfathomable than
-ever. And after the sudden flush of excitement and pleasure, Lilias had
-paled again; her little countenance was strangely white; her dark hair
-hung, loosely curling, about her cheeks; her eyes were full of pathetic
-meaning. Geoff, who had thrown himself down beside her, with one arm
-half round her, and holding her small hand in his, felt his young breast
-swell with the tenderest sympathy. What was the child’s trouble that was
-so great? Poor little darling! How sweet it was to be able to fill up
-her world, and prove to her that there was not “only me.” One other made
-all the difference; and Geoff felt this as much as she did. Her face had
-gleamed so often across his imagination since he saw it: the most
-innocent visitant that could come and look a young man in the face in
-the midst of his dreams--only a child! He felt disposed to kiss the
-little hand in half fondness, half reverence; but did not, being
-restrained by something more reverent and tender still.
-
-“I would like to go with you,” said Lilias, “but not home. I am not
-going home. I am going up there--up, I don’t know how far--where the old
-woman lives. I am trying to find something out, something about papa.
-Oh, I wonder if you know! Are you a friend of my papa? You look as if
-you had a friend’s face--but I don’t know your name.”
-
-“My name--is Geoffrey Stanton--but most people call me Geoff. I should
-like you to call me Geoff--and I am a friend, little Lily. You are Lily
-_too_, are you not? I am a sworn friend to your papa.”
-
-“Lilias,” said the child, with a sigh; “but I don’t think I am little
-any more. I was little when I came, but old; oh! much older than any one
-thought. They thought I was only ten because I was so little; but I was
-twelve! and that will soon be a year ago. I have always taken care of
-Nello as long as I can remember, and that makes one old, you know. And
-now here is this about papa, which I never knew, which I never heard of,
-which is not true, I know. I know it is not true. Papa kill any one!
-_papa?_ Do you know what that means? It is as if---- the sky should
-kill some one, or the beautiful kind light, or a little child. All that,
-all that, sooner than papa! Me, I have often felt as if I could kill
-somebody; but _he_----” the tears were streaming in a torrent down the
-child’s cheeks, and got into her voice; but she went on, “he! people
-don’t know what they are saying. I do not know any words to tell you how
-different he is--that it is impossible, _impossible_! _impossible_!” she
-cried, her voice rising in intensity of emphasis. As for Geoff, he held
-her hand ever closer, and kept gazing at her with the tears coming to
-his own eyes.
-
-“He did not do it,” he said. “Listen to me, Lilias, and if you write to
-him, you can tell him. Tell him Geoffrey Stanton knows everything, and
-will never rest till he is cleared. Do you know what I mean? You must
-tell him----”
-
-“But I never write--we do not know where he is; but tell me over again
-for me, _me_. He did not do it! Do you think I do not know that? But Mr.
-Geoff (if that is your name), come with me up to the old woman, and take
-her to the tribunal, and make her tell what she knows. That is the right
-way, Martuccia says so, and I have read it in books. She must go to the
-judge, and she must say it all, and have it written down in a book. It
-is like that--I am not so ignorant. Come with me to the old woman, Mr.
-Geoff.”
-
-“What old woman?” he asked. “And tell me how you heard of all this,
-Lilias? You did not know it when I saw you before.”
-
-“Last night--only last night; there is a man, an unkind, disagreeable
-man, who is at the Castle now. Mary said he was my uncle Randolph. They
-were in the hall, and I heard them talking. That man said it all; but
-Mary did not say No as I do, she only cried. And then I rushed and asked
-Miss Brown what it meant. Miss Brown is Mary’s maid, and she knows
-everything. She told me about a gentleman, and then of some one who was
-mamma, and of an old woman who could tell it all, up, up on the
-mountain. I think, perhaps, it is the same old woman I saw.”
-
-“Did you see her? When did you see her, Lily?”
-
-“I was little then,” said Lilias, with mournful, childish dignity. “I
-had not begun to know. I thought, perhaps, it was a fairy. Yes, you will
-laugh. I was only not much better than a child. And when children are in
-the woods, don’t you know, fairies often come? I was ignorant, that was
-what I thought. She was very kind. She kissed me, and asked if I would
-call her granny. Poor old woman! She was very very sorry for something.
-I think that must be the old woman. She knows everything, Miss Brown
-says. Mr. Geoff,” said Lilias turning round upon him, putting her two
-clasped hands suddenly upon his shoulder, and fixing her eyes upon his
-face, “I am going to her, will you not come with me? It is dreadful,
-dreadful, to go away far alone--everything looks so big and so high, and
-one only, one is so small; and everything is singing altogether, and it
-is all so still; and then your heart beats and thumps, and you have no
-breath, and it is so far, far away. Mr. Geoff, oh! I would love you so
-much, I would thank you for ever, I would do anything for you, if you
-would only come with me! I am not really tired; only frightened. If I
-could have brought Nello, it would have been nothing. I should have had
-him to take care of,--but Nello is such a little fellow. He does not
-understand anything; he could not know about papa as I do, and as you
-seem to do. Mr. Geoff, when was it you saw papa? Oh! will you come up,
-up yonder, and go to the old woman with me?”
-
-“Dear little Lily,” said Geoff, holding her in his arms, “you are not
-able to walk so far; it is too much for you; you must come with me,
-home.”
-
-“I am able to go to the end of the world,” cried Lilias, proudly. “I am
-not tired. Oh, if you had never come I should have gone on, straight on!
-I was thinking, perhaps, you would go with me, that made me so stupid.
-No, never mind, since you do not choose to come. Good-bye, Mr. Geoff.
-No, I am not angry. Perhaps you are tired yourself:--and then,” said
-Lilias, her voice quivering, “you are not papa’s child, and it is not
-your business. Oh! I am quite able to go on. I am not tired--not at all
-tired; it was only,” she said, vehemently, the tears overpowering her
-voice, “only because I caught sight of you so suddenly, and I thought
-‘he will come with me,’ and it made my heart so easy--but never mind,
-never mind!”
-
-By this time she was struggling to escape from him, to go on drying her
-tears with a hasty hand. Her lips were quivering, scarcely able to form
-the words. The disappointment, after that little burst of hope, was
-almost more than Lilias could bear.
-
-“Lily,” he said, holding her fast, despite her struggles, “listen first.
-I have just been there. I have seen the old woman. There is nothing more
-for you to do, dear. Won’t you listen to me,--won’t you believe me? Dear
-little Lily, I have found out everything. I know everything. I cannot
-tell it you all, out here on the hill-side; but it was another who did
-it, and your father was so kind, so good, that he allowed it to be
-supposed it was he, to save the other man----”
-
-“Ah!” cried Lilias, ceasing to struggle, “ah! yes, that is like him. I
-know my papa, there! yes, that is what he would do. Oh, Mr. Geoff, dear
-Mr. Geoff, tell me more, more!”
-
-“As we go home,” said Geoff. He was so tired that it was all he could do
-to raise himself again from the soft cushions of the mossy grass. He
-held Lilias still by the hand. And in this way the two wearied young
-creatures went down the rest of the long road together--she, eager, with
-her face raised to him; he stooping towards her. They leaned against
-each other in their weariness, walking on irregularly, now slow, now
-faster, hand in hand. And oh! how much shorter the way seemed to Lilias
-as she went back. She vowed never, never to tell any one; never to talk
-of it except to Mr. Geoff: while Geoff, on his part, promised that
-everything should be set right, that everybody should know her father to
-be capable of nothing evil, but of everything good; that all should be
-well with him; that he should come and live at home for ever, and that
-all good people should be made happy, and all evil ones confounded. The
-one was scarcely more confident than the other that all this was
-possible and likely, as the boy and the girl came sweetly down the hill
-together, tired but happy, with traces of tears about their eyes, but
-infinite relief in their hearts. The morning, now warm with the full
-glory of the sun, was sweet beyond all thought--the sky, fathomless
-blue, above them--the lake a dazzling sheet of silver at their feet.
-Here and there sounds began to stir of awakening in the little
-farmhouses, and under the thatched cottage eaves; but still they had the
-earth all to themselves like a younger Adam and Eve--nothing but blue
-space and distance, sweet sunshine warming and rising, breathing of
-odours and soft baptism of dew upon the new-created pair.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-THE HENS AND THE DUCKLING.
-
-
-It was still early, and Stanton, so easy-going and leisurely a house,
-was not yet astir when Geoff got home. Hours of sunshine and morning
-light are over even in August before seven o’clock, which was the
-earliest hour at which Lady Stanton’s servants, who were all “so kind”
-to her, began to stir. They kept earlier hours at Penninghame, where
-Geoff managed to get a dog-cart, with an inquisitive driver, who
-recognised, and would fain have discovered what brought him from home at
-that hour. The young man, however, first took leave of his little
-companion, whom he deposited safely at the door of the old hall, which
-was already open, and where they parted with mutual vows of reliance and
-faith in each other. These vows, however, were not exchanged by the
-hall-gate, but in a shady corner of the Chase, where the two young
-creatures paused for a moment.
-
-“You will trust me that I will do everything for him, as if he had been
-my own father?” said Geoff.
-
-Lilias, over whom some doubts had begun to steal, faltered a little, and
-replied with some hesitation:
-
-“I would rather it was me; I would rather find out everything, and bring
-him home,” she said.
-
-“But, Lily, what could you do? while you see I know a great deal
-already,” Geoff said. Now that he was about to vanish out of her sight
-the bargain began to feel less satisfactory to the little woman, who was
-thus condemned, as so many grown women have been, to wait indefinitely
-for the action of another, in a matter so deeply interesting to herself.
-Lilias looked at him wistfully, with an anxious curve over her eyebrows,
-and a quiver in her mouth. The tension of suspense had begun for her,
-which is one of the hardest burdens of a woman. Oh, if she could but
-have gone herself, not waiting for any one, to the old woman on the
-hill! It was true the mountains were very lonely, and the relief of
-meeting Geoff had been intense; and though she had not gone half way, or
-nearly so much, her limbs were aching with the unusual distance; but yet
-to be tired, and lonely, and frightened is nothing, as Lilias felt, to
-this waiting, which might never come to an end. And already the ease and
-comfort and sudden relief with which she had leant upon Geoff’s
-understanding and sympathy, had evaporated a little, leaving behind only
-the strange story about her father, the sudden discovery of trouble and
-sorrow which had startled her almost into womanhood out of childhood.
-She looked up into Geoff’s face very wistfully--very anxiously; her eyes
-dilated, and gleaming with that curve over them which once indented in
-young brows so seldom altogether disappears again.
-
-“Oh, Mr. Geoff!” she said, “but papa--is not your papa: and you will
-perhaps have other things to do: or--perhaps--you will forget. But me, I
-shall be always thinking, I shall never forget,” said the little girl.
-
-“And neither shall I forget, my little Lily!” he cried. He too was
-nervous and tremulous with excitement and fatigue. He stooped towards
-her, holding her hands. “Give me a kiss, Lily, and I will never forget.”
-
-The day before she would not have thought much of that infantile
-salutation--and she put up her soft cheek readily enough, with the
-child’s simple habit; but when the two faces touched, a flood of colour
-came over both, scorching Lilias, as it seemed, with a sense of shame
-which bewildered her, which she did not understand. She drew back
-hastily, with a sudden cry. Sympathy, or some other feeling still more
-subtle and incomprehensible, made Geoff’s young countenance flame too.
-He looked at her with a tenderness that brought the tears to his eyes.
-
-“You are only a child,” he said, hastily, apologetically; “and I suppose
-I am not much more, as people say,” he added, with a little broken
-laugh. Then, after a pause--“But, Lily, we will never forget that we
-have met this morning; and what one of us does will be for both of us;
-and you will always think of me as I shall always think of you. Is it a
-bargain, Lily?”
-
-“Always!” said the little girl, very solemnly; and she gave him her hand
-again which she had drawn away, and her other cheek; and this time the
-kiss got accomplished solemnly, as if it had been a religious ceremony
-on both sides--which indeed, perhaps, in one way or another it was.
-
-When Geoff felt himself carried rapidly, after this, behind a fresh
-country horse, with the inquisitive ruddy countenance of Robert Gill
-from the “Penninghame Arms” by his side, along the margin of Penninghame
-Water towards his home, there was a thrill and tremor in him which he
-could not quite account for. By the time he had got half way home,
-however, he had begun to believe that the tremor meant nothing more than
-a nervous uncertainty as to how he should get into Stanton, and in what
-state of abject terror he might find his mother. Even to his own
-unsophisticated mind, the idea of being out all night had an alarming
-and disreputable sound; and probably Lady Stanton had been devoured by
-all manner of terrors. The perfectly calm aspect of the house, however,
-comforted Geoff; no one seemed stirring, except in the lower regions,
-where the humblest of its inhabitants--the servants’ servants--were
-preparing for their superiors.
-
-Geoff dismissed his dog-cart outside the gates, leaving upon the mind of
-Robert Gill a very strong certainty that the young lord was “a wild one,
-like them that went before him,” and had been upon “no good gait.”
-“Folks don’t stay out all night, and creep into th’ house through a side
-door as quiet as pussy, for good,” said the rural sage, with perfect
-reasonableness.
-
-As for Geoff, he stole up through the shrubberies to reconnoitre the
-house and see where he could most easily make an entrance, with a
-half-comic sense of vagabondism; a man who behaved so ought to be
-guilty. But he was greatly surprised to see the library window through
-which he had come out on the previous night wide open; and yet more
-surprised to hear, at the sound of his own cautious footstep on the
-gravel, a still more cautious movement within, and to descry the kindly
-countenance of Mr. Tritton, his tutor, with a red nose and red eyes as
-from want of sleep, looking out with great precaution.
-
-Mr. Tritton’s anxious countenance lighted up at the sight of him. He
-came to the window very softly, but with great eagerness, to admit
-Geoff, and threw himself upon his pupil. “Where have you been--where
-have you been? But thank God you have come back,” he cried, in a voice
-which was broken by agitation.
-
-Geoff could not but laugh, serious as he had been before. Good Mr.
-Tritton had a dressing-gown thrown over his evening toilet of the
-previous night; his white tie was all rumpled and disreputable. He had
-caught a cold, poor good man, with the open window, and sneezed even as
-he received his prodigal; his nose was red, and so were his eyes, which
-watered, half with cold, half with emotion.
-
-“Oh, my dear Geoff,” he cried, with a shiver: “what is the cause of
-this? I have spent a most unhappy night. What can be the cause of it!
-But thank God you have come back; and if I can keep it from the
-knowledge of her ladyship, I will.” Then, though he was so tired and so
-serious, Geoff could not but laugh.
-
-“Have you been sitting up for me? How good of you! and what a cold you
-have got!” he said, struggling between mirth and gratitude. “Have you
-kept it from my mother? But I have been doing no harm, master. You need
-not look at me so anxiously. I have been walking almost all the night,
-and doing no harm.”
-
-“My dear Geoff? I have been very uneasy, of course. You never did
-anything of the kind before. Walking all night? you must be dead tired;
-but that is secondary, quite secondary: if you can really assure me, on
-your honour----” said the anxious tutor, looking at him, with his little
-white whiskers framing his little red face, more like a good little old
-woman than ever, and with a look of the most anxious scrutiny in his
-watery eyes. Mr. Tritton was very virtuous and very particular in his
-own bachelorly person, and there had crept upon him besides something
-of the feminine fervour of anxiety about his charge, which was in the
-air of this feminine and motherly house.
-
-“On my honour!” said Geoff, meeting his gaze with laughing eyes.
-
-And a pang of relief filled Mr. Tritton’s mind. He was almost overcome
-by it, and could have cried but for his dignity--and, indeed, did cry
-for his cold. He said, faltering, “Thank Heaven, Geoff! I have been very
-anxious, my dear boy. Your mother does not know anything about it. I
-found the window open, and then I found your room vacant. I thought you
-might have--stepped out--perhaps gone to smoke a cigar. A cigar in the
-fresh air after dinner is perhaps the least objectionable form of the
-indulgence, as you have often heard me say. So I waited, especially as I
-had something to say to you. Then as I found you did not come in, I
-became anxious--yes, very anxious as the night went on. You never did
-anything of the kind before; and when the morning came and awoke me--for
-I suppose I must have dozed, though I was too miserable to sleep, in a
-draught----”
-
-“Yes, I see, you have caught cold. Go to bed now, master, and so shall
-I,” said Geoff. “I am dead tired. What a sneeze! and all on my account;
-and you have such bad colds.”
-
-“Yes,” said Mr. Tritton, blowing his nose vehemently, “I have very bad
-colds. They last so long. I have sneezed so I really did fear the house
-would be roused, but servants fortunately sleep through anything. Geoff!
-I don’t want to force confidence, but it really would be right that you
-should confide in me: otherwise how can I be sure that her
-ladyship--ought not,” said the good man with a fresh sneeze, “to
-know--?”
-
-“You ought to be in bed, and so ought I,” said Geoff. “I will tell my
-mother, don’t fear; but perhaps it will be as well not to say anything
-more just at present. Master, you must really go this moment and take
-care of yourself. Come, and I will see you to your room----”
-
-“Ah! it is my part to look after you, Geoff,” said good Mr. Tritton. “It
-might be supposed--her ladyship might think--that I had neglected----”
-
-“Come along,” said Geoff, arbitrarily, “to bed.” And how glad he was to
-stretch out his own young limbs and forget everything in the profound
-sleep of his age! Mr. Tritton had very much the worst of it. He did
-nothing but sneeze for the next two hours, waking himself up every time
-he went to sleep; and his head ached, and his eyes watered, and the good
-man felt thoroughly wretched.
-
-“Oh, there is that poor Mr. Tritton with one of his bad colds again,”
-Lady Stanton said, who was disturbed by the sound; and, though she was a
-good woman, the pity in her face was not unmixed by other sentiments.
-“We shall have nothing but sneezing for the next month,” she said to
-herself in an undertone. And doubtless still less favourable judgments
-were pronounced down-stairs. A glass was found on the table of the
-library in which Mr. Tritton, good man, had taken some camphor by way of
-staving off his cold while he sat and watched. Harris the butler,
-perversely and unkindly (for who could mistake the smell of camphor?)
-declared that “old Tritton had been making a night of it. He don’t
-surprise me with his bad colds,” said that functionary; “look at the
-colour of his nose!” And indeed it could not be denied that this was
-red, as the nose of a man subject to fits of sneezing is apt to be.
-
-When Geoff woke in the broad sunshine, and found that it was nearly
-noon, his first feeling of consternation was soon lost in the strange
-realization of all that had happened since his last waking, which
-suddenly came upon his mind like something new, and more real than
-before. The perspective even of a few hours’ sleep makes any new fact or
-discovery more distinct. So many emotions had followed each other
-through his mind, that such an interval was necessary to make him feel
-the real importance of all that he had heard and seen. ’Lizabeth
-Bampfylde had said what there was to say in few words, but the facts
-alone were sufficient to make the strange story clear. The chief
-difficulty was that Geoff had never heard of the elder son, whom the
-vagrant called his gentleman brother, and to whom the family and more
-than the family seemed to have been sacrificed. He did not remember any
-mention of the Bampfyldes except of the mother and daughter who had
-helped John Musgrave to escape, and one of whom had disappeared with
-him, and the mystery which surrounded this other individual, who seemed
-really the chief actor in the tragedy, had yet to be made out. His mind
-was full of this as he dressed hastily, with sundry interruptions. The
-household had not quite made out the events of the past night, but that
-there had been something “out of the common” was evident to the meanest
-capacity. The library window had been open all night, which was the
-fault of Mr. Tritton, who had undertaken to close it, begging Harris to
-go to bed, and not to mind. Mr. Tritton himself had been seen by an
-early scullion in his white tie, very much ruffled, at six o’clock; and
-the volleys of sneezing which had disturbed the house at seven had been
-distinctly heard moving about like musketry on a march, now at one
-point, now another, of the corridor and stairs. To crown all these
-strange commotions was the fact that the young master of the house,
-instead of obeying Harris’s call at half-past seven, did not budge (and
-then with reluctance) till eleven o’clock. If all these occurrences
-meant nothing, why then Mr. Harris pronounced himself a Dutchman; and
-the wonder breathed upwards from the kitchen and housekeeper’s room to
-my lady’s chamber, where her maid did all a maid could do (and this is
-not little, as most heads of a family know) to awaken suspicion. It was
-suggested to her ladyship that it was very strange that Mr. Tritton
-should have been walking about the house at six in the morning, waking
-up my lady with his sneezings--and it was a mercy there had not been a
-robbery, with the library window “open to the ground,” left open all
-night: and then for my lord to be in bed at eleven was a thing that had
-never happened before since his lordship had the measles. “I hope he is
-not sickening for one of these fevers,” Lady Stanton’s attendant said.
-
-This made Geoff’s mother start, and give a suppressed scream of
-apprehension, and inquire anxiously whether there was any fever about.
-She had already in her cool drawing-room, over her needlework, felt a
-vague uneasiness. Geoff had never, since those days of the measles,
-missed breakfast and prayers before; he had sent her word that he had
-overslept himself, that he had been sitting up late on the previous
-night--but altogether it was odd. Lady Stanton, however, subdued her
-panic, and sat still and dismissed her maid, waiting with many tremors
-in her soul till Geoff should come to account for himself. He had been
-the best boy in the world, and had never given her any anxiety; but all
-Lady Stanton’s neighbours had predicted the coming of a time when Geoff
-would “break out,” and when the goodness of his earlier days would but
-increase the riot of the inevitable sowing of wild oats. Lady Stanton
-had smiled at this, but with a smouldering sense of insecurity in her
-heart; alarmed, though she knew there was no cause. Mothers are an order
-of beings peculiarly constituted, full of certainties and doubts, which
-moment by moment give each other the lie. Ah, no, Geoff would not “break
-out,” would not “go wrong;” it was not in him. He was too true, too
-honourable, too pure--did not she know every thought in his mind, and
-feeling in his heart? But oh, the anguish if Geoff should not be so true
-and so pure--if he should be weak, be tempted and fall, and stain the
-whiteness which his mother so deeply trusted in, yet so trembled for!
-Who can understand such paradoxes? She would have believed no harm of
-her boy--and yet in her horror of harm for him the very name of evil
-gave her a panic. Nothing wonderful in that. She sat and trembled to the
-very tyings of her shoe, and yet was sure, certain, ready to answer to
-the whole world for her son, who had done no evil. Other women who have
-sons know what Lady Stanton felt. She sat nervously still, listening to
-every sound, till he should come and explain himself. Why was he so
-late? What had happened last night to make the house uneasy? Lady
-Stanton would not allow herself to think that she was alarmed. It was
-true that pulses beat in her ears, and her heart mounted to her throat,
-but she sat still as a statue, and went on with her knitting. “One may
-not be able to help being foolish, but one can always help showing it,”
-she said to herself.
-
-The sight of Geoff when he appeared, fresh and blooming, made all the
-throbbings subside at once. She even made a fine effort to laugh. “What
-does this mean, Geoff? I never knew you so late. The servants have been
-trying to frighten me, and I hear Mr. Tritton has got a very bad cold,”
-she said, getting the words out hurriedly, afraid lest she might break
-down or betray herself. She eyed him very curiously over her knitting,
-but she made believe not to be looking at him at all.
-
-“Yes; poor old Tritton,” he said; “it is my fault; he sat up for me. I
-went out----” he made a little pause; for Geoff reflected that other
-people’s secrets were not his to confide, even to his mother--“with wild
-Bampfylde, who came, I suppose, out of gratitude for what little I did
-for him.”
-
-“You went out--with that poacher fellow, Geoff?”
-
-“Yes:” he nodded, meeting her horrified eyes quite calmly and with a
-smile; “why not, mother? You did not think I should be afraid of him, I
-hope?”
-
-“Oh how very imprudent, Geoff! You, whose life is of so much value!--who
-are so very important to me and everybody!”
-
-“Most fellows are important who have mothers to make a fuss,” he said,
-smiling. “I don’t think there is much more in me than the rest. But he
-has not harmed me much, you can see. I have all my limbs as usual; I am
-none the worse.”
-
-“Thank God for that!” said Lady Stanton; “but you must not do the like
-again. Indeed, indeed, Geoff, you are too bold; you must not put
-yourself in the way of trouble. Think of your poor brother. Oh, my dear,
-what an example! You must not be so rash again.”
-
-“I will not be rash--in that way,” he said. “But, mother, I want you to
-tell me something. You remember all about it: did you ever know of any
-more Bampfyldes? There was the mother, and this fellow. Did you ever
-know of any other?”
-
-“You are missing out the chief one, Geoff--Lily, the girl.”
-
-“Yes, yes; I know about her. I did not mean the girl. But think! Were
-those three all? Were there more--another----?”
-
-Lady Stanton shook her head. “I do not remember any other. I think three
-were quite enough. There is mischief in one even, of that kind.”
-
-“What do you mean by that kind? You did not know them. I hope my mother
-is not one of the kind who, not knowing people, are unjust to them.”
-
-“Geoff!” Lady Stanton was bewildered by this grand tone. She looked up
-at him with sudden curiosity, and this curiosity was mixed inevitably
-with some anxiety too; for, when your son betrays an unjustifiable
-partisanship, what so natural as to feel that he must have “some
-motive”? “Of course I did not mean to be unjust. But I do not pretend to
-remember everything that came out on the trial. It was the mother and
-daughter that interested me. You should ask your cousin Mary; she
-recollects better than I do. But have you heard anything about another?
-What did the poacher say? Had you a great deal of conversation with him?
-And don’t you think it was rash to put yourself in the power of such a
-lawless sort of fellow? Thank God! you are safe and sound.”
-
-“What do you mean about putting myself in his power? Do you think I am
-not a match for him? He is not such a giant, mother. Yes, I am quite
-safe and sound. And we had a great deal of talk. I never met with
-anybody so interesting. He talked about everything; chiefly about ‘the
-creatures,’ as he calls them.”
-
-“What creatures?” said Lady Stanton, wondering and alarmed. There were
-“creatures” in the world, this innocent lady knew, about whom a vagabond
-was very likely to talk, but who could not be mentioned between her and
-her boy.
-
-“The wild things in the woods, birds and mice, and such small deer, and
-all their ways, and what they mean, and how to make acquaintance with
-them. I don’t suppose he knows very much out of books,” said young
-Geoff; “but the bit of dark moor grew quite different with that wild
-fellow in it--like the hill in the _Lady of the Lake_, when all Clan
-Alpine got up from behind the rocks and the bushes. Don’t you remember,
-mother? One could hear ‘the creatures’ rustling and moving, and
-multitudes of living things one never gave a thought to. It felt like
-poetry, too, though I don’t know any poem like it. It was very strange
-and interesting. That pleases me more than your clever people,” said
-Geoff.
-
-“Oh, my dear, I beg your pardon,” said Lady Stanton, suddenly getting up
-and kissing her boy’s cheek as she passed him. She went away to hide the
-penitence in her eyes. As for Geoff, he took this very easily and
-simply. He thought it was natural she should apologize to Bampfylde for
-not thinking well of him. He had not a notion of the shame of
-evil-thinking thus brought home to her, which scorched Lady Stanton’s
-cheeks.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-COUSIN MARY’S OPINION.
-
-
-Geoff spent the remainder of this day at home, looking once more over
-the file of old newspapers in which the Musgrave case was printed at
-such length, the _Times_ and the local papers, with all their little
-diversities of evidence, one supplementing another; but lie could not
-make out any reference at all distinct to a third person in the story.
-The two suitors of the village beauty, one of whom she preferred in
-feeling, though the second of them had evidently made her waver in her
-allegiance by the attractions of his superior rank and wealth, were
-enough to fill up the canvas. They were so naturally and appropriately
-pitted against each other, that neither the curiosity of the period nor
-the art of the story-teller required any additional actor in the little
-tragedy. What more natural than that these two rivals should
-meet--should go from angry words to blows--and that, in the frenzy of
-the moment, one should give to the other the fatal but unpremeditated
-stroke which made an end of his rivalry and his life? The public
-imagination is simple, and loves a simple story, and this was so
-well-constructed and well-balanced--perfect in all its parts. What more
-likely than that the humble coquette should hesitate and almost swerve
-from her faith to her accepted lover when the young lord, so much more
-splendid than the young squire, came on the scene? or that, when her
-wavering produced such fatal consequences, the poor girl, not being
-wicked, but only foolish, should have devoted herself with heroism to
-the man whom she had been the means of drawing into deadly peril? Geoff,
-however, with his eyes enlightened, could dimly perceive the traces of
-another person unaccounted for, who had appeared casually in the course
-of the drama. Indeed, the counsel for the prosecution had expressed his
-regret that he could not call this person as a witness, as he was
-supposed to have emigrated, and no trace could be found of him. His
-name, however, was not mentioned, though the counsel for the defence,
-evidently in complete ignorance, taunted his learned brother with the
-non-appearance of this mysterious stranger, and defied him to prove, by
-the production of him, that there had ever been feelings of bitter
-animosity between Musgrave and Lord Stanton. “The jury would like to
-know more about this anonymous gentleman,” the coroner had said. But no
-evidence had ever been produced. Geoff searched through the whole case
-carefully, making various notes, and feeling that he himself, anxious as
-he had been, had never before noticed, except in the most incidental
-way, these slight, mysterious references. Even now he was misty about
-it. He was so tired, indeed, that his mind was less clear than usual;
-and when good Mr. Tritton appeared in the afternoon, very red with
-perpetual sneezing, his eyes running as with tears, he found Geoff in
-the library, in a great chair, with all the papers strewed about,
-sleeping profoundly, the old yellow _Times_ in his hand, and the
-_Dalesman’s Gazette_ at his feet. The young man jumped up when Mr.
-Tritton laid his hand on his shoulder, with quite unnecessary energy,
-almost knocking down his respected instructor. “Take care, take care,
-Geoff!” he cried; “I am not going to hurt you, my boy!” a speech which
-amused Geoff greatly, who could have picked Mr. Tritton up and thrown
-him across his shoulder. This interruption of his studies stopped them
-for the time; but next morning--not without causing his mother some
-anxiety--he proposed to ride over once more to Elfdale, to consult
-Cousin Mary.
-
-“It is but two days since we left, my dear,” Lady Stanton said, with a
-sigh, thinking of all she had heard on the subject of “elderly sirens”;
-but Geoff showed her so clearly how it was that he must refer his
-difficulties to the person most qualified to solve them, that his mother
-yielded; though she too began to ask herself why her son should be so
-much concerned about John Musgrave. What was John Musgrave to Geoff? She
-did not feel that it was quite appropriate that the person most
-interested about poor Walter’s slayer should be Walter’s successor, he
-who had most profited by the deed.
-
-Geoff, however, had his way, and went to his cousin Mary with a great
-deal of caution and anxiety, to hear all that she knew, and carefully to
-conceal from her what he knew. He found her fortunately by herself, in
-the languor of the afternoon, even Annie and Fanny having left her for
-some garden game or other. Lady Stanton the younger was much surprised
-to see her young cousin, and startled by his sudden appearance. “What is
-the matter?” she asked, with a woman’s ready terror; and was still more
-surprised that nothing was the matter, and that Geoff was but paying her
-a simple visit. It may even be suspected that for a moment his mother’s
-alarm communicated itself to Mary. Was it to see _her_ the boy had come
-back so soon and so far? The innocent, kind woman was alarmed. She had
-known herself a beauty for years, and she knew the common opinion (not
-in her experience quite corroborated by fact) that for a beautiful face
-a man will commit any folly. Was she in danger (“at my age!”) of
-becoming a difficulty and a trouble to Geoff? But Geoff soon relieved
-her mind, making her blush hotly at her own self-conceit and folly.
-
-“I have come to ask you some questions,” he said; “you remember the man,
-the poacher, whom you spoke to me about--the brother, you
-know?--Bampfylde, whom they call Wild Bampfylde?”
-
-“I know,” said Lady Stanton, with a suppressed shiver.
-
-“I met him--the other night--and we got talking. I want you to tell me,
-Cousin Mary: did you ever hear of--another of them--a brother they had?”
-
-“Ah! that is it,” said Lady Stanton, clasping her hands together.
-
-“That is what? Do you know anything about him? I should like to find
-out; from something they--from something this poacher fellow said--he is
-not a bad fellow,” said Geoff, in an undertone, with a kind of apology
-in his mind to the vagrant of whom he seemed to be speaking
-disrespectfully.
-
-“Oh, Geoff, don’t have anything to do with them, dear. You don’t know
-the ways of people like that. Young men think it is fine to show that
-they are above the prejudices of their class, but it never comes to any
-good. Poor Walter, if he had never seen her face, might have been--and
-poor John--”
-
-“But, Cousin Mary, about the brother?”
-
-“Yes: he was their brother, but we did not find it out for a long time.
-He was very clever, they said, and a scholar, but ashamed to belong to
-such poor people. He never went there when he could help it. He took no
-notice, I believe, of the others. He pretended to be a stranger visiting
-the Lakes.”
-
-“Cur!” said Geoff.
-
-“Ye--es: it was not--nice; but it must be a temptation, Geoff, when a
-man has been brought up so differently. Some relation had given him his
-education, and he was very clever. I have never felt sure whether it was
-a happy thing for a boy to be brought so far out of his class. He met
-John Musgrave somewhere, but John did not know who he was. And just
-about the time it all happened he went away. I used to think perhaps he
-might have known something; but I suppose he thought it would all come
-out, and his family be known. Fancy being ashamed of your own mother,
-Geoff! But it was hard upon him too--an old woman who would tell your
-fortune--who would stand with her basket in the market, you know: and
-he, a great scholar, and considered a gentleman. It _was_ hard; I don’t
-excuse him, but I was sorry for him; and I always thought if he came
-back again, that he might know----”
-
-Lady Stanton was not accustomed to speak so long and continuously. Her
-delicate cheeks were stained with red patches; her breath came quick.
-
-“Do you mean to say he has turned up again--at last?” she added, with a
-little gasp.
-
-“I have heard of him,” said Geoff. “I wondered--if he could have
-anything to do with it.”
-
-“I will tell you all about him, Geoff. It was John Musgrave who met with
-him somewhere. Mary could tell you, too. She was John’s only sister, and
-I her great friend; and I always took an interest. They met, I think,
-abroad--and he--was of use to John somehow--I forget exactly:--that is
-to say, Mr. Bampfield (he spelt his name differently from the others)
-did something for him--in short, John said he saved his life. It was
-among the Alps, on some precipice, or something of that sort. You see I
-can only give you my recollection,” said Lady Stanton, falteringly
-conscious of remembering everything about it. “John asked him to
-Penninghame, but he would not come. He told us this new friend of his
-knew the country quite well, but no one could get out of him where he
-had lived. And then he came on a visit to some one else--to the
-Fieldings, at Langdale--that was the family; and we all knew him. He was
-very handsome; but who was to suppose that a gentleman visiting in such
-a house was old ’Lizabeth’s son, or--or--that girl’s brother? No one
-thought of such a thing. It was John who found it out at the very last.
-It was because of something about myself. Oh, Geoff, I was not
-offended--I was only sorry. Poor fellow! he was wrong, but it was hard
-upon him. He thought he--took a fancy to me; and poor John was so
-indignant. No, I assure you not on that account,” said Lady Stanton,
-growing crimson to the eyes, and becoming incoherent. “Never! we were
-like brother and sister. John never had such a thought in his mind. I
-always--always took an interest in _him_--but there was never anything
-of _that_ kind.”
-
-Young Geoff felt himself blush too, as he listened to this confession.
-He coloured in sympathy and tender fellow-feeling for her; for it was
-not hard to read between the lines of Cousin Mary’s humble story. John
-“never had such a thought in his mind;” but she “had always taken an
-interest.” And the blush on her cheek and the water in her eyes told of
-that interest still.
-
-Then Geoff grew redder still, with another feeling. The madman in the
-cottage had dared to lift his eyes to this woman so much above him.
-
-“I don’t wonder Musgrave was furious,” he said.
-
-“That is the right word,” she said, with a faint smile; “he was furious;
-and Walter--your brother--laughed. I did not like that--it was
-insulting. We were all young people together. Why should not he have
-cared for--me?--when both of _them_----. But we must not think of
-that--we must not talk of that, Geoff--we cannot blame your poor
-brother. He is dead, poor fellow; and such a death, in the very flower
-of his youth! What were a few little silly boyish faults to that? He
-died, you know, and all the trouble came. Walter had been very
-stinging--very insulting, to that poor fellow just the day before, and
-he could not bear it. He went off that very day, and I have never heard
-of him again. I don’t think people in general even knew who he was. The
-Fieldings do not to this day. But Walter’s foolish joking drove him
-away. Poor Walter, he had a way of talking--and I suppose he must have
-found the secret out--or guessed. I have often--often wondered whether
-Mr. Bampfield knew anything, whether if he had come back he would have
-said anything about any quarrel between them. I used to pray for him to
-be found, and then I used to pray that he might not be found; for I
-always thought he could throw some light--and after all, what could that
-light be but of one kind?”
-
-“Did any one ever--suspect--_him_?”
-
-“Geoff! you frighten me. Him! whom? You know who was suspected. I don’t
-think it was intended, Geoff. I know--I know he did not mean it; but who
-but one could have done if? There could not, alas, be any doubt about
-that.”
-
-“If Bampfield had been insulted and made angry, as you say, why should
-not he have been suspected as well as Musgrave? The one, it seems to me,
-was just as likely as the other----”
-
-“Geoff! you take away my breath! But he was away; he left the day
-before.”
-
-“Suppose it was found out that he did not go away, Cousin Mary? Was he
-more or less likely than Musgrave was to have done a crime?”
-
-Lady Stanton looked at him with her eyes wide open, and her lips apart.
-
-“You do not--mean anything? You have not--found out anything, Geoff?”
-
-“I--can’t tell,” he said. “I think I have got a clue. If it were found
-out that Bampfield did not go away--that he was still here, and met poor
-Walter that fatal morning, what would you say then, you who knew them
-all?”
-
-All the colour ebbed out of Lady Stanton’s face. She kept looking at
-him with wistful eyes, into which tears had risen, questioning him with
-an earnestness beyond speech.
-
-“I dare not say the words,” she said, faltering; “I don’t venture to say
-the words. But, Geoff, you would not speak like this if you did not mean
-something. Do you think--really _think_--oh, it is not possible--it is
-not possible!--it is only a fancy. You can’t--suppose--that it
-matters--much--to me. You are only--speculating. Perhaps it ought not to
-matter much to me. But oh, Geoff! if--if you knew what that time was in
-my life. Do you mean anything--do you mean anything, my dear?”
-
-“You have not answered my question,” he said. “Which was the most likely
-to have done a crime?”
-
-Lady Stanton wrung her hands; she could not speak, but kept her eyes
-upon him in beseeching suspense.
-
-Geoff felt that he had raised a spirit beyond his power to calm again,
-and he had not intended to commit himself or betray so soon what he had
-heard.
-
-“Nothing must be known as yet,” he said; “but I think I have some reason
-to speak. Bampfield did not leave the country when you thought he did.
-He saw poor Walter that morning. If Musgrave saw him at all----”
-
-Lady Stanton gave a little cry--“You mean Walter, Geoff?”
-
-“Yes; if Musgrave saw him at all, it was not till after. And Bampfield
-was the brother of the girl John was going to marry, and had saved his
-life.”
-
-“My God!” This was no profane exclamation in Mary’s mouth. She said it
-low to herself, clasping her hands together, her face utterly
-colourless, her eyes wild with wonder and excitement. The shock of this
-disclosure had driven away the rising tears: and yet Geoff did not mean
-it as a disclosure. He had trusted in the gentle slowness of her
-understanding. But there are cases in which feeling supplies all, and
-more than all, that intellect could give. She said nothing, but sat
-there silent, with her hands clasped, thinking it over, piecing
-everything together. No one like Mary had kept hold of every detail; she
-remembered everything as clearly as if (God forbid!) it had happened
-yesterday. She put one thing to another which she remembered but no one
-else did: and gradually it all became clear to her. Geoff, though he was
-so much more clever, did not understand the process by which in silence
-she arranged and perceived every point; but then Geoff had not the
-minute acquaintance with the subject nor the feeling which touched every
-point with interest. By and by Mary began to sob, her gentle breast
-heading with emotion. “Oh, Geoff,” she cried, “what a heart--what a
-heart! He is like our Saviour; he has given his life for his enemy. Not
-even his friend; he was not fond of him; he did not love him. Who could
-love him--a man who was ashamed of his own, his very own people? I--oh,
-how little and how poor we are! I might have done it perhaps for my
-friend; but he--he is like our Saviour.”
-
-“Don’t say so. It was not just--it was not right; he ought not to have
-done it,” cried Geoff. “Think, if it saved something, how much trouble
-it has made.”
-
-“Then it is all true!” she cried, triumphant. In perfect good faith and
-tender feeling Mary had made her comment upon this strange, sad
-revelation; yet she could not but feel all the same the triumph of
-having thus caught Geoff, and of establishing beyond all doubt that it
-was true. She fell a-crying in the happiness of the discovery. The
-moment it was certain, the solemnity of it blew aside, as do the mists
-before the wind. “Then he will come home again; he will have his poor
-little children, and all will be well,” she said; and cried as if her
-heart would break. It was vain for Geoff to tell her that nothing was as
-yet proved, that he did not know how to approach the subject; no
-difficulties troubled Mary. Her heart was delivered as of a load; and
-why should not everything at once be told? But she wept all the same,
-and Geoff had no clue to the meaning of her tears. She was glad beyond
-measure for John Musgrave; but yet while he was an exile, who had
-(secretly) stood up for him as she had done? But when he came home, what
-would Mary have to do with him? Nothing! She would never see him, though
-she had always taken an interest, and he would never know what interest
-she had taken. How glad she was! and yet how the tears poured down!
-
-Geoff had a long ride home. He was half alarmed that he had allowed so
-much to be known, but yet he had not revealed Lizabeth’s secret. Mary
-had required no particulars, no proof. The suggestion was enough for
-her. She was not judge or jury--but one to whom the slightest outlet
-from that dark maze meant full illumination. Geoff could not but
-speculate a little on the surface of the subject as he rode along
-through the soft evening, in that unbroken yet active solitude which
-makes a long ride or walk the most pleasant and sure moment for
-“thinking over.” Geoff’s thoughts were quite superficial, as his
-knowledge was. He wondered if John Musgrave had “taken an interest” in
-Mary as she had done in him; and how it was that Mary had been his
-brother’s betrothed, yet with so warm a sympathy for his brother’s
-supposed slayer? And how it was that John Musgrave, if he had responded
-at all to the “interest” she took in him, could have loved and married
-Lily? All this perplexed Geoff. He did not go any deeper; he did not
-think of the mingled feelings of the present moment, but only of the
-tangled web of the past.
-
-It grew dark before he got home. No moon, and a cloudy night disturbed
-by threatenings or rather promise of rain, which the farmers were
-anxious for, as they generally are when a short break of fine weather
-bewilders their operations, in the north. As he turned out of the last
-cross road, and got upon the straight way to Stanton, he suddenly became
-aware of some one running by him on the green turf that edged the road
-and in the shadow of the hedgerow. Geoff was startled by the first sight
-of this moving shadow running noiselessly by his side. It was a safe
-country, where there was no danger from thieves, and a “highwayman” was
-a thing of the last century. But still Geoff shortened his whip in his
-hand with a certain sense of insecurity. As he did so a voice came from
-the shadow of the hedge. “It is but me, my young lord.” “You!” he cried.
-He was relieved by the sound, for a close attendant on the road in the
-dark, when all faces are alike undiscernible, is not pleasant. “What are
-you doing here, Bampfylde? Are you snaring my birds, or scaring them, or
-have you come to look after me?”
-
-“Neither the one nor the other,” said Wild Bampfylde. “I have other
-thoughts in my mind than the innocent creatures that harm no one. My
-young lord, I cannot tell you what is coming, but something is coming.
-It’s no you, and it’s no me, but it’s in the air; and I’m about,
-whatever happens. If you want me, I’ll aye be within call. Not that I’m
-spying on you; but whatever happens, I’m here.”
-
-“And I want you. I want to ask you something,” cried Geoff; but he was
-slow in putting his next question. It was about his cousin; and what he
-wanted was some one who would see, without forcing him to put them into
-words, the thoughts that arose in his mind. Therefore it was a long time
-before he spoke again. But in the silence that ensued it soon became
-evident to Geoff that the figure running along under the shadow of the
-bushes had disappeared. He stopped his horse, but heard no footfall.
-“Are you there, Bampfylde?” but his own voice was all he heard, falling
-with startling effect into the silence. The vagrant had disappeared, and
-not a creature was near. Geoff went on with a strange mixture of
-satisfaction and annoyance. To have this wanderer “about” seemed a kind
-of aid, and yet to have his movements spied upon did not please the
-young man. But Bampfylde was no spy.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV.
-
-THE SQUIRE AT HOME.
-
-
-The Squire went home after his game of ducks and drakes in the most
-curious, bewildered state of mind. The shock of all these recent events
-had affected him much more than any one was aware, and Randolph’s visit
-and desire to make sure about “family arrangements,” had filled up the
-already almost overflowing measure of secret pain. It had momentarily
-recalled, like a stimulant too sharp and strong, not only his usual
-power of resistance, but a force of excitement strong enough to
-overwhelm the faculties which for the time it invigorated; and while he
-walked about his woods after his first interview with his son, the
-Squire was on the edge of a catastrophe, his brain reeling, his
-strained powers on the verge of giving way. The encounter with little
-Nello on the lake-side had exercised a curious arresting power upon the
-old and worn edifice of the mind which was just then tottering to its
-fall. It stopped this fall for the moment. The trembling old walls were
-not perhaps in a less dangerous state, but the wind that had threatened
-them dropped, and the building stood, shaken to its foundation, and at
-the mercy of the next blast, but yet so far safe--safe for the moment,
-and with all the semblance of calm about it. To leave metaphor, the
-Squire’s mind was hushed and lulled by that encounter with the soft
-peacefulness of childhood, in the most curious, and to himself,
-inexplicable way. Not, indeed, that he tried to explain. He was as
-unconscious of what was going on in himself as most of us are. He did
-not know that the various events which had shaken him had anything more
-than pain in them--he was unaware of the danger. Even Randolph’s
-appearance and the thought of the discussions which must go on when his
-back was turned, as to the things that would happen after his death--he
-was not aware that there was more in them than an injury against which
-his whole spirit revolted. He did not know that this new annoyance had
-struck at the very stronghold of vitality, the little strength left to
-him. Which of us does know when the _coup-de-grâce_ is given? He only
-knew the hurt--the wound--and the forlorn stand he had made against it,
-and the almost giddy lightness with which he had tried to himself to
-smile it down, and feel himself superior. Neither did he know what Nello
-had done for him. His meeting with the child was like the touch of
-something soft and healing upon a wound. The contact cooled and calmed
-his entire being. It seemed to put out of his mind all sense of wounding
-and injury. It did more; it took all distinctness at once from the moral
-and the physical landmarks round him. The harsher outlines of life grew
-blurred and dim, and instead of the bitter facts of the past, which he
-had so long determined to ignore, and the facts of the present which had
-so pushed themselves upon him, the atmosphere fell all into a soft
-confusion. A kind of happiness stole over him. What had he to be happy
-about? yet he was so. Sometimes in our English summers there is a mist
-of heat in the air, confusing all the lines of the landscape as much as
-a fog in winter--in which the hills and lakes and sky are nothing but
-one dazzle and faint glory of suppressed light and warmth--light
-confusing but penetrating: warmth perhaps stifling to the young and
-active, but consolatory to those whose blood runs chill. This was the
-mental condition in which the Squire was. His troubles seemed to die
-away, though he had so many of them. Randolph, his middle-aged son,
-ceased to be an assailant and invader, and dropped into the dark like
-other troublesome things--not a son to be proud of, but one to put up
-with easily enough. John? he did not remember much about John; but he
-remembered very distinctly his old playfellow little Johnny, his little
-brother. “Eighteen months--only eighteen months between them:” he almost
-could hear the tone in which his mother said that long ago. If Johnny
-had lived he would have been--how old would he have been now? Johnny
-would have been seventy-four or so had he lived--but the Squire did not
-identify the number of years. There was eighteen months between them,
-that was all he could remember, and of that he sat and mused, often
-saying the words over to himself with a soft dreamy smile upon his face.
-He was often not quite clear that it was not Johnny himself, little
-Johnny, with whom he had been playing on the water-side.
-
-This change affected him in all things. He had never been so entirely
-amiable. When Randolph returned to the assault, the Squire would smile
-and make no reply. He was no longer either irritated or saddened by
-anything his son might say--indeed he did not take much notice of him
-one way or another, but would speak of the weather, or take up a book,
-smiling, when his son began. This was very bewildering to the family.
-Randolph, who was dull and self-important, was driven half frantic by
-it, thinking that his father meant to insult him. But the Squire had no
-purpose of any kind, and Mary, who knew him better, at last grew vaguely
-alarmed without knowing what she feared. He kept up all his old habits,
-took his walks as usual, dressed with his ordinary care--but did
-everything in a vague and hazy way, requiring to be recalled to himself
-when anything important happened. When he was in his library, where he
-had read and written and studied so much, the Squire arranged all his
-tools as usual, opened his book, even began to write his letters,
-putting the date--but did no more. Having accomplished that beginning he
-would lean back in his chair and muse for hours together. It was not
-thinking even, but only musing; no subject abode with him in these long
-still hours, and not even any consistent thread of recollections.
-Shadows of the past came sailing--floating about him, that was all; very
-often only that soft, wandering thought about little Johnny, occupied
-all his faculties.--Eighteen months between them, no more! He rarely got
-beyond that fact, though he never could quite tell whether it was the
-little brother’s face or another--his son’s, or his son’s son’s--which
-floated through this mist of recollections. He was quite happy in the
-curious trance which had taken possession of him. He had no active
-personal feelings, except that of pleasure in the recollection and
-thought of little Johnny--a thought which pleased and amused, and
-touched his heart. All anger and harm went out of the old man; he spoke
-softly when he spoke at all, and suffered himself to be disturbed as he
-never would have done before. Indeed he was far too gentle and good to
-be natural. The servants talked of his condition with dismay, yet with
-that agreeable anticipation of something new which makes even a “death
-in the house” more or less desirable. “Th’ owd Squire’s not long for
-this world,” the Cook and Tom Gardener said to each other. As for
-Eastwood, he shook his head with mournful importance. “I give you my
-word, I might drop a trayful of things at his side, and he wouldn’t take
-no notice,” the man said, almost tearfully; “it’s clean again nature,
-that is.” And the other servants shook their heads, and said in their
-turn that they “didn’t like the looks of him,” and that certainly the
-Squire was not long for this world.
-
-This same event of Randolph’s visit had produced other results almost as
-remarkable. It had turned little Lilias all at once into the slim
-semblance of a woman, grown-up, and full of thoughts. It is perhaps too
-much to say that she had grown in outward appearance as suddenly as she
-had done in mind; but it is no unusual thing in the calmest domestic
-quiet, where no commotion is, nor fierce, sudden heat of excitement to
-quicken a tardy growth, that the elder members of a family should wake
-up all in a moment, to notice how a child has grown. She had perhaps
-been springing up gradually; but now in a moment every one perceived it;
-and the moment was coincident with that in which Lilias heard with
-unspeakable wrath, horror, shame, pity, and indignation, her father’s
-story--that he would be put in prison if he came back; that he dared not
-come back; that he might be--executed. (Lilias would not permit even her
-thoughts to say hanged--most ignominious of all endings--though Miss
-Brown had not hesitated to employ the word.) This suggestion had struck
-into her soul like a fiery arrow. The guilt suggested might have
-impressed her imagination also; but the horrible reality of the penalty
-had gone through and through the child. All the wonderful enterprises
-she had planned on the moment are past our telling. She would go to the
-Queen and get his pardon. She would go to the old woman on the hills and
-find out everything. Ah! what would she not do? And then had come the
-weary pilgrimage which Geoff had intercepted; and now the ache of pity
-and terror had yielded to that spell of suspense which, more than
-anything else, takes the soul out of itself. What had come to the child?
-Miss Brown said; and all the maids and Martuccia watched her without
-saying anything. Miss Brown, who had been the teller of the story, did
-not think of identifying it with this result. She said, and all the
-female household said, that if Miss Lily had been a little older, they
-knew what they would have thought. And the only woman in the house who
-took no notice was Mary--herself so full of anxieties that her mind had
-little leisure for speculation. She said, yes, Lilias had grown; yes,
-she was changing. But what time had she to consider Lilias’ looks in
-detail? Randolph was Mary’s special cross; he was always about, always
-in her way, making her father uncomfortable, talking at the children.
-Mary felt herself hustled about from place to place, wearied and worried
-and kept in perpetual commotion. She could not look into the causes of
-the Squire’s strange looks and ways; she could not give her attention to
-the children; she could scarcely even do her business, into which
-Randolph would fain have forced his way, while her all-investigating
-brother was close by. Would he but go away and leave the harassed
-household in peace!
-
-But Randolph for his part was not desirous of going away. He could not
-go away, he represented to himself, without coming to some understanding
-with his father, though that understanding seemed as far off as ever. So
-he remained from day to day, acting as a special irritant to the whole
-household. He had nothing to do, and consequently he roamed about the
-garden, pointing out to the gardener a great many imperfections in his
-work; and about the stables, driving well-nigh out of his wits the
-steady-going, respectable groom, who nowadays had things very much his
-own way. He found fault with the wine, making himself obnoxious to
-Eastwood, and with the made dishes, exasperating Cook. Indeed there was
-nothing disagreeable which this visitor did not do to set his father’s
-house by the ears. Finally sauntering into the drawing-room, where Mary
-sat, driven by him out of her favourite hall, where his comments
-offended her more than she could bear, he reached the climax of all
-previous exasperations by suddenly urging upon her the undeniable fact
-that Nello ought to go to school. “The boy,” Randolph called him;
-nothing would have induced him to employ any pet name to a child,
-especially a foreign name like Nello--his virtue was of too severe an
-order to permit any such trifling. He burst out with this advice all at
-once. “You should send the boy to school; he ought to be at school. Old
-Pen’s lessons are rubbish. The boy should be at school, Mary,” he said.
-This sudden fulmination disturbed Mary beyond anything that had gone
-before, for it was quite just and true. “And I know a place--a nice
-homely, good sort of place, where he would be well taught and well taken
-care of,” he added. “Why should not you get him ready at once? and I
-will place him there on my way home.” This was, to do him justice, a
-sudden thought, not premeditated--an idea which had flashed into his
-mind since he began to speak, but which immediately gained
-attractiveness to him, when he saw the consternation in Mary’s eyes.
-
-“Oh, thank you, Randolph,” she said, faintly. Had not Mr. Pen
-advised--had not she herself thought of asking her brother’s advice, who
-was himself the father of a boy, and no doubt knew better about
-education than she did? “But,” she added, faltering, “he could not be
-got ready in a moment; it would require a little time. I fear that it
-would not be possible, though it is so very kind.”
-
-“Possible? Oh yes, easily possible, if you give your mind to it,” cried
-Randolph; and he pointed out to her at great length the advantages of
-the plan, while Mary sat trembling, in spite of herself, feeling that
-her horror of the idea was unjustifiable, and that she would probably
-have no excuse for rejecting so reasonable and apparently kind a
-proposal. Was it kind? It seemed so on the outside; and how could she
-venture to impute bad motives to Randolph, when he offered to serve her?
-She did not know what reply to make; but her mind was thrown into sudden
-and most unreasonable agitation. She got up at last, agitated and
-tremulous, and explained that she was compelled to go out to visit some
-of her poor people. “I have not been in the village since you came,” she
-said, breathless in her explanations; “and there are several who are
-ill; and I have something to say to Mr. Pen.”
-
-“Oh, yes, consult old Pen, of course,” Randolph had said. “I would not
-deprive a lady of her usual spiritual adviser because she happens to be
-my sister. Of course you must talk it over with Pen.” This assumption of
-her dependence upon poor Mr. Pen’s advice galled Mary, who had by no
-means elected Mr. Pen to be her spiritual adviser. However, she would
-not stay to argue the question, but hurried away anxiously with a sense
-of escape. She had escaped for the moment; yet she had a painful sense
-in her mind that she could not always escape from Randolph. The proposal
-was sudden, but it was reasonable and kind--quite kind. It was the thing
-a good uncle ought to do; no one but would think better of Randolph that
-he was willing to take so much trouble. Randolph for his part felt that
-it was very kind; he had no other meaning in the original suggestion;
-but when he had thus once put it forth, a curious expansion of the idea
-came into his mind. Little Nello was a terrible bugbear to Randolph. He
-had long dwelt upon the thought that it was he who would succeed to
-Penninghame on his father’s death--at first, perhaps, nominally on
-John’s account. But there was very little chance that John would dare
-the dangers of a trial, and reappear again, to be arraigned for murder,
-of which crime Randolph had always simply and stolidly believed him
-guilty; and the younger brother had entertained no doubt that, sooner or
-later, the unquestioned inheritance would fall into his hands. But this
-child baffled all his plans. What could be done while he was there?
-though there was no proof who he was, and none that he was legitimate,
-or anything but a little impostor: certainly, he was as far from being a
-lawful and proper English heir--such as an old family like the Musgraves
-ought to have--such as his own boy would be--as could be supposed. And
-of course, the best that could be done for himself was to send him to
-school. It was only of Nello that Randolph thought in this way. The
-little girl, though a more distinct individual, did not trouble him. She
-might be legitimate enough--another Mary, to whom, of course, Mary would
-leave her money--and there would be an end of it. Randolph did not
-believe, even if there had been no girl of John’s, that Mary’s money
-would ever come his way. She would alienate it rather, he felt
-sure--found a hospital for cats, or something of that description (for
-Mary was nothing but a typical old maid to Randolph, who regarded
-her, as an unmarried woman, with much masculine and married
-contemptuousness), rather than let it come to his side of the family. So
-let that pass--let the girl pass; but for the boy! That little, small,
-baby-faced Nello--a little nothing--a creature that might be crushed by
-a strong hand--a thing unprotected, unacknowledged, without either power
-or influence, or any one to care for him! how he stood in Randolph’s
-way! But he did not at this moment mean him any harm; that is, no
-particular harm. The school he had suddenly thought of had nothing wrong
-in it; it was a school for the sons of farmers or poor clergymen, and
-people in “reduced circumstances.” It would do Nello a great deal of
-good. It would clear his mind from any foolish notion of being the heir.
-And he would be out of the way; and once at school, there is no telling
-what may happen between the years of ten and twenty. But of one thing
-Randolph was quite sure--that he meant no harm, no particular harm, to
-the boy.
-
-When Mary left him in this hurried way, he strolled out in search of
-something to amuse or employ the lingering afternoon. Tom Gardener now
-gave him nothing but sullen answers, and the groom began to dash about
-pails of water, and make hideous noises as soon as he appeared, so that
-it did not consist with his dignity to have anything more to say to
-these functionaries; so that sheer absence of occupation, mingled with a
-sudden interest in the boy, on whose behalf he had thus been suddenly
-“led” to interfere, induced Randolph to look for the children. They were
-not in their favourite place at the door of the old hall, and he turned
-his steps instinctively to the side of the water, the natural attraction
-to everybody at Penninghame. When he came within sight of the little
-cove where the boats lay, he saw that it was occupied by the little
-group he sought. He went towards them with some eagerness, though not
-with any sense of interest or natural beauty such as would have moved
-most people. Nello was seated on the edge of the rocky step relieved
-against the blue water; Lilias placed higher up, with the wind ruffling
-her brown curls, and the slant sunshine grazing her cheek. The boy had a
-book open on his knees, but was trying furtive ducks and drakes under
-cover of the lesson, except when Lilias recalled him to it, when he
-resumed his learning with much demonstration, saying it over under his
-breath with visibly moving lips. Lilias had got through her own portion
-of study. Mr. Pen’s lessons were not long or severe, and she had a
-girl’s conscientiousness and quickness in learning. Her book was closed
-on her knee; her head turned a little towards that road which she
-watched with a long dreamy gaze, looking for some one--but some one very
-visionary and far away. Her pensive, abstracted look and pose, and the
-sudden growth and development which had so suddenly changed Lilias,
-seemed to have charmed the little girl out of childhood altogether. Was
-she looking already for the fairy prince, the visionary hero? And to say
-the truth, though she was still only a child, this was exactly what
-Lilias was doing. It was the knight-deliverer, the St. George who kills
-the dragon, the prince with shoes of swiftness and invisible coat,
-brought down to common life, and made familiar by being entitled “Mr.
-Geoff,” for whom, with that kind of visionary childish anticipation
-which takes no note of possibilities, she was looking. Time and the
-world are at once vaster, and vaguer, and more narrow at her age than at
-any other. He might come _now_, suddenly appearing at any moment; and
-Lilias could not but feel vaguely disappointed every moment that he did
-not appear. And yet there was no knowing when he would come, to-morrow,
-next year, she could not tell when. Meanwhile she kept her eyes fixed on
-the distance, watching for him. But Lilias was not thinking of herself
-in conjunction with “Mr. Geoff.” She was much too young for love; no
-flutter of even possible sentiment disturbed the serenity of her soul.
-Nevertheless her mind was concentrated upon the young hero as entirely
-as the mind of any dreaming maiden could be. He was more than her hero;
-he was her representative, doing for her the work which perhaps Lilias
-was not old enough or strong enough to do. So other people, grown-up
-people, thought at least. And until he came she could do nothing, know
-nothing. Already, by this means, the child had taken up the burden of
-her womanhood. Her eyes “were busy in the distance shaping things,” that
-made her heart beat quick. She was waiting already, not for love to
-come, of which at her age she knew nothing, but for help to come, which
-she would have given her little life to bestow, but could not, her own
-hand being too slight and feeble to give help. This thought gave her a
-pang, while the expectation of help kept her in that woman’s purgatory
-of suspense. Why could not she do it herself? but yet there was a
-certain sweetness in the expectation which was vague, and had not
-existed long enough to be tedious. And yet how long, how long it was
-even since yesterday! From daylight to dusk, even in August, what a
-world of time. Every one of these slow, big round hours floated by
-Lilias like clouds when there is no wind, moving imperceptibly; great
-globes of time never to be done with. Her heart gave a throb whenever
-any one appeared. But it was Tom Gardener, it was Mr. Pen, it was some
-one from the village, it was never Mr. Geoff; and finally here was some
-one quite antagonistic, the enemy in person, the stranger whom people
-called Uncle Randolph. Lilias gave her little brother a note of warning;
-and she opened her own book again.
-
-When Randolph approached, they had thus the air of being very busily
-employed, both;--Lilias intent upon her book, while Nello, furtively
-feeling in his pocket for the stones which he had stored there for use,
-busied himself, to all appearance, with his lesson, repeating it to
-himself with moving lips. Randolph had taken very little notice of the
-children, except by talking at them to his sister. He came to a pause
-now, and looked at them with curiosity--or at least he looked at Nello;
-for after all, it did not matter about the girl. She might be John’s
-daughter, or she might not; but in any case she was not worth a thought.
-He did not see the humour of the preternatural closeness of study which
-the children exhibited; but it afforded a means of opening
-communications.
-
-“Are these your lessons for Mr. Pennithorne?” he said.
-
-Nello, to whom the question was addressed, made no answer. Was he not
-much to busy to answer? his eyes were riveted upon his book. Lilias kept
-silence too as long as politeness would let her; but at last the
-rudeness of it struck her acutely. This might be an enemy, but children
-ought not to be rude. She therefore said timidly, “Yes;” and added by
-way of explanation, “Nello’s is Latin; but me, it is only English I
-have.”
-
-“Is it hard?” said Randolph, still directing his question to the boy.
-
-Nello gave a glance out of the corner of his eyes at his questioner, but
-said nothing, only learned harder than ever; and again it became
-needful, for the sake of courtesy, that Lilias should answer.
-
-“The Latin is not hard,” she said; “oh, not near so hard as the English.
-It is so easy to say; but Mr. Pen does not know how it goes; he says it
-all wrong; he says it like English. I hope Nello will not learn it that
-way.”
-
-Randolph stared at her, but took no further notice. “Can’t you speak?”
-he said to Nello, “when I ask you a question? Stop your lesson and
-listen to me. Shouldn’t you like to go to school?”
-
-Nello looked up with round and astonished eyes, and equally roundly,
-with all the force of the monosyllable, said “No,” as probably he would
-have answered to any question.
-
-“No? but you don’t know what school is; not lessons only, but a number
-of fellows to play with, and all kinds of games. You would like it a
-great deal better than being here, and learning with Mr. Pennithorne.”
-
-“No,” said Nello again; but his tone was less sure, and he paused to
-look into his questioner’s face. “Would Lily come too?” he said,
-suddenly accepting the idea. For from No to Yes is not a very long way
-at eight years old.
-
-“Why, you don’t want to drag a girl with you,” said Randolph, laughing;
-“a girl who can’t play at anything, wherever you go?”
-
-This argument secured Nello’s attention. He said, “N--no,” reddening a
-little, and with a glance at Lilias, against whose sway he dared
-scarcely rebel all at once; but the sense of superiority even at such an
-early age is sweet.
-
-“He must not go without me,” cried Lilias, roused. “I am to take care of
-him _always_! Papa said so. Oh, don’t listen, Nello, to this--gentleman!
-You know what I told you--papa is perhaps coming home. Mr. Geoff
-said--Mr. Geoff knows something that will make everything right again.
-Mr. Geoff is going to fetch papa----”
-
-“Oh!” cried Nello, reproachfully, “you said I was not to tell; and there
-you have gone and told yourself!”
-
-“What is that? what is that?” asked Randolph, pricking up his ears.
-
-But the boy and girl looked at each other and were silent. The curious
-uncle felt that he would most willingly have whipped them both, and that
-amiable sentiment showed itself in his face.
-
-“And, Lily,” said Nello, “I think the old gentleman would not let me go.
-He will want me to play with; he has never had anybody to play with
-for--I don’t know how long--never since a little boy called little
-Johnny: and he said that was my name too----”
-
-“Oh, Nello! now it is you who are forgetting; he said (you know you told
-me) that you were never, never to tell!”
-
-Randolph turned from one to another, bewildered. What did they mean?
-Had they the audacity to play upon his fears, the little foundlings, the
-little impostors! He drew a long breath of fury, and clenched his fist
-involuntarily. “Children should never have secrets,” he said. “Do you
-know it is wicked, very wicked? You ought to be whipped for it. Tell me
-directly what you mean!”
-
-But this is not the way to get at any child’s secret. The brother and
-sister looked at each other, and shut fast their mouths. As for Nello,
-he felt the edges of that stone in his pocket, and thought he would like
-to throw it at the man. Lilias had no stone, and was not warlike; but
-she looked at him with the calm of superior knowledge. “It would be
-dishonourable,” she said, faltering over the pronunciation, but firm in
-the sentiment, “to tell what we were told not to tell.”
-
-“You are going to school with me--on Saturday,” said Randolph, with a
-virulence of irritation which children are just as apt to call forth as
-their elders. “You will be taught better there; you will not venture to
-conceal anything, I can tell you, my boy.”
-
-And he left them with an angry determination to carry out his plans, and
-to give over Nello to hands that would tame him effectually, “the best
-thing for him.” The children, though they had secretly enjoyed his
-discomfiture, were a little appalled by this conclusion. “Oh, Nello, I
-will tell you what he is--he is the wicked uncle in the _Babes in the
-Wood_. He will take you and leave you somewhere, where you will lose
-yourself and starve, and never be heard of. But I will find you. I will
-go after you. I will never leave you!” cried Lilias with sudden tears.
-
-“I could ask which way to go,” said Nello, much impressed, however, by
-this view. “I can speak English now. I could ask the way home; or
-something better!--listen, Lily--if he takes me, when we have gone ten
-miles, or a hundred miles, I will run away!”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV.
-
-A NEW VISITOR.
-
-
-Notwithstanding her dislike to have it supposed that Mr. Pen was her
-spiritual adviser, Mary did make a hurried visit to the Vicarage to ask
-his advice. Not that she had much confidence in the good Vicar’s advice;
-but to act in such a case, where experience fails you altogether,
-entirely on your own judgment without even the comfort of “talking it
-over,” is a hard thing to do. “Talking it over” is always an advantage.
-The for and against of any argument are always clearer when they are put
-into words and made audible, and thus acquire, as it were, though they
-may be your own words, a separate existence. Thus Mary became her own
-adviser when she consulted Mr. Pen, and there was no one else at hand
-who could fulfil this office. They talked it over anxiously, Mr. Pen
-being, as she knew he would be, entirely on Randolph’s side. To him it
-appeared that it would be a great advantage for Nello to be taken to
-school by his uncle. It would be “the right thing to do”--better than if
-Mary did it--better than Mr. Pen himself could do it. Mary could not
-find any arguments to meet this conventional certainty. She restrained
-her distrust and fear, but she could not say anything against the fact
-that it was kind of Randolph to propose this, and that it would be
-injurious and unkind on her part to reject it. She went home dispirited
-and cast down, but set to work at once with the practical preparations.
-Saturday was the day on which Randolph had said he must go--and it was
-already Thursday--and there was not a moment to lose. But it was not
-till the Friday afternoon, the eve of separation, that Miss Musgrave
-could screw her courage to the point of informing the children what lay
-before them. The afternoon was half over, and the sun beginning to send
-long rays aslant from the west. She came in from the village, where she
-had gone in mere restlessness, feeling that this communication could be
-delayed no longer; but she disliked it so much herself that the thought
-of Nello’s consternation and the tears of Lilias was almost more than
-their tender guardian could bear.
-
-But when she came in sight of the old hall door, a group encountered her
-which bewildered Mary. A young man on horseback had drawn up at the side
-of the ascent, and with his hat off, and the sun shining upon his
-curling hair and smiling countenance, was looking up and talking to
-little Lilias, who leaned over the low wall, like a lady of romance
-looking over her battlements. The sun gleamed full upon Lilias too,
-lighting up her dark eyes and warmly-tinted cheek and the hair which
-hung about her shoulders, and making a pretty picture. Her face was full
-of earnest meaning, grave and eager and tremulous. Nello, at the hall
-door, above this strange pair, contemplated them with a mixture of
-jealousy and wonder. Mary had come upon them so suddenly that she could
-hear the young man answering something to the eager demands of the
-little girl. “But, you are sure, quite sure? Oh, are you certain, Mr.
-Geoff?”
-
-“Quite sure,” he was saying. “But you must think of me all the time,
-Lily; you must think of nothing but me--promise me that, and I shall not
-be afraid.”
-
-“I promise!” cried Lilias, clasping her hands. Mary stood and listened
-altogether confounded, and Nello, from above, bewildered and only half
-satisfied, looked on. Who was the young man? It seemed to Miss Musgrave
-that she had seen him before. And what was it that had changed Lilias
-into this little princess, this small heroine? The heroic aspect,
-however, gave way before Mary could interfere, and the child murmured
-something softer, something less unlike the little girl with all whose
-ways Mary was familiar.
-
-“But I always think of you,” she said; “always! since _that_ day.”
-
-“Do you, indeed, my little Lily? That makes me happy. You must always
-keep up so good a custom.”
-
-And the young man smiled, with eyes full of tenderness, and took the
-child’s hand and held it in his own. Lilias was too young for any
-comment or false interpretation, but what did it mean? The spectator
-behind, besides, was too much astonished to move.
-
-“Good-bye, my Lily; good-bye, Nello,” cried the young man, nodding his
-head to the children. And then he put on his hat and rode round the
-corner towards the door.
-
-Lilias stood looking after him, like a little saint in an ecstasy. She
-clasped her hands again, and looked up to the sky, her lips moving, and
-tears glittering in her eyes.
-
-“Oh, Nello, don’t you think God will help him?” she said, one tear
-overbrimming suddenly, and rolling down her cheek. She started when
-Mary, with tones a little sharpened by consternation, called her. Lilias
-had no sense of shame in her innocent mind, but as there is no telling
-in what light those curious beings called grown-up people might regard a
-child’s actions, a little thrill of alarm went through her. What might
-Mary say? What would she think when she knew that Mr. Geoff “had come to
-set everything right about papa”? Lilias felt instinctively that Geoff’s
-mission would not appear in exactly the same light to Mary as it did to
-herself. She turned round with a sudden flush of surprise and agitation
-on her face. It looked like the blush of a maturer sentiment to Mary.
-
-“At twelve years old!” she said to herself! And unconsciously there
-glanced through her mind a recollection of the first Lily--the child’s
-mother--she who had been the beginning of all the trouble. Was it in the
-blood?
-
-“Who is that gentleman?” Mary asked, with much disturbance of mind.
-“Lilias! I could not have expected this of you.”
-
-Lilias followed into the hall, very still and pale, feeling herself a
-culprit, though she did not know why. Her hands dropped straight by her
-side, after the manner of a creature accused; and she looked up to Mary
-with eyes full of vague alarm, into which the tears were ready to come
-at a moment’s notice.
-
-“I have not done anything wrong?” she said, turning her assertion into a
-faltering question. “It was Mr. Geoff.”
-
-“Mr. Geoff!--who is Mr. Geoff?”
-
-“He is--very kind--oh, very kind, Mary; he is--some one who knows about
-papa: he is--the gentleman who once came with two beautiful horses in a
-carriage (oh, don’t you remember, Nello?) to see _you_.”
-
-“Yes,” said Nello, with ready testimony; “he said I should ride upon
-them. They were two bay horses, in one of those high-up funny carriages,
-not like Mary’s carriage. I wonder if I might ride upon his horse now?”
-
-“To see _me_?” Mary was entirely bewildered. “And what do you mean about
-your father?” she said. “Knows about papa! Lilias! come here; I am not
-angry. What does he know about papa?”
-
-Lilias came up slowly to her side, half unwilling to communicate her own
-knowledge on this point. For Mary had not told her the secret, she
-remembered suddenly. But the confusion of Lilias was interrupted by
-something more startling and agitating. Eastwood came into the hall,
-with a certain importance and solemnity. “If you please, ma’am,” he
-said, “my Lord Stanton has just come in, and I’ve shown him into the
-library--to my master. I thought you would like to know.”
-
-“Lord Stanton--to my father, Eastwood? my father ought not to be
-troubled with strangers. Lord Stanton!--to be sure it was that boy.
-Quick, say that I shall be glad to see him up-stairs.”
-
-“If you please, ma’am, his lordship asked for my master; and my
-master--he said, ‘Yes, certainly.’ He was quite smiling like, and
-cheerful. He said, ‘Yes; certainly, Eastwood.’ So, what was I to do? I
-showed his lordship in--and there they are now--as friendly--as
-friendly, if I may venture to make a comparison: His lordship,” said
-Eastwood, prudently pausing before he committed himself to metaphor,
-“is, if I may make bold to say so, one of the nicest young gentleman!”
-
-Mary had risen hastily to interrupt this dangerous interview, which
-alarmed her. She stood, paying no attention to Eastwood while the man
-was talking, feeling herself crowded and pressed on all hands by a
-multitude of thoughts. The hum of them was in her ears, like the sound
-of a throng of people. Should she go to the library, whatever her father
-might think of the interruption? Should she stop this meeting at all
-hazards? or should she let it go on, and that come which would? All was
-confusion around her, her heart beating loudly in her ears, and a
-hundred suggestions sounding through that stormy throbbing. But when
-Eastwood’s commonplace voice, to which she had been paying no heed,
-stopped, Mary’s thoughts came to a stop also. She grew faint, and the
-light seemed to vanish from her eyes.
-
-The Squire had been sitting alone all day. He had seemed to all the
-servants (the most accurate of observers in such a case) more feeble
-than usual. His daughter, agitated and full of trouble about other
-things, had not remarked any change. But Eastwood had shaken his head
-down-stairs, and had said that he did not like the looks of master. He
-had never been so gentle before. Whatever you said to him he smiled,
-which was not at all the Squire’s way. And though he had a book before
-him, Eastwood had remarked that he did not read. He would cast his eyes
-upon his book when any one went in, but it was always the same page.
-Eastwood had made a great many pretences of business, in order to see
-how his master was--pretences which the Squire in his usual health would
-have put a stop to summarily, but which to-day he either did not observe
-at all, or received smilingly. In this way Eastwood had remarked a great
-many things which filled him with dismay; for he liked his old master,
-and the place suited him to perfection. He noticed the helpless sort of
-way in which Mr. Musgrave sat; his knees feebly leaning against each
-other, his fingers falling in a heap upon the arm of his chair, his
-eyelids half covering his eyes. It was half the instinct of obedience,
-and half a benevolent desire to rouse his master, which made Eastwood
-introduce the visitor into the library without consulting Miss Musgrave.
-Judging by his own feelings, the man felt that nothing was so likely to
-stimulate and rouse up the Squire as a visit from a lord. There were not
-too many of them about; visitors of any kind, indeed, were not over
-plentiful at Penninghame; and a nice, cheerful, affable young lordship
-was a thing to do anybody good.
-
-And Geoff went in, full of the mission he had taken in hand. It was a
-bold thing to do, after all he had heard of the inexorable old Squire
-who had shut his heart to his son, and would hear nothing of him, as
-everybody said. But it seemed to Geoff, in the rash generosity of his
-youth, that if he, who was the representative of the injured family,
-were to interfere, the other must be convinced--must yield, at least,
-to reason, and consent to consider the subject. But he did not expect a
-very warm reception, and went in with a beating heart.
-
-Mr. Musgrave had risen up to receive him; he had not failed in any of
-his faculties. He could still hear as well as he did twenty years
-before, and Lord Stanton’s name was unusual enough to call his attention
-for the moment. He had raised himself from his chair, and stood leaning
-forward, supporting himself with both hands upon the writing-table
-before him. This had been a favourite attitude, when he had no occasion
-for support; but now the feeble hands leaned heavily with all the weight
-of his frame upon them. He said the name that had been announced to him
-with a wavering of suspicion in his tone, “Lord Stanton!” then pointed
-with a tremulous sweep of his hand to a seat, and himself dropped back
-into his chair. He was not the stern old chief whom Geoff expected to
-find in arms against every suggestion of mercy, but a feeble old man,
-smiling faintly, with a kind of veiled intelligence in his eyes. He
-murmured something about “an unusual pleasure,” which Geoff could not
-make out.
-
-“I have come to you, sir, about important business. I hope you will not
-think I am taking too much upon myself. I thought, as I was--the chief
-person on one side, and you on the other, that you might allow me to
-speak?”
-
-Geoff was as nervous as a child; his colour went and came. It awed him,
-he could scarcely tell why, to see the feebleness of the old figure, the
-dreary, abstracted look in the old face.
-
-“Surely--surely,” said the old man. “Why should you not speak to me? Our
-family is perhaps better known; but yours, Mr.--I mean, my Lord Stanton,
-yours is--”
-
-He half forgot what he was saying, getting slower and slower, and now
-stopped all at once. Then, after a moment, rousing himself, resumed,
-with a wave of his hand, “Surely--you must say--what you have to say.”
-
-This was worse for Geoff than if he had forbidden him altogether. What
-could he do to rouse interest in the old man’s breast?
-
-“I want to speak, sir,” he said, faltering, “of your son.”
-
-“My son?--ah! yes, Randolph is here. He is too old for me--too old--not
-like a son. What does it matter who is your father when it comes to that
-age?”
-
-“It was not Randolph, sir. I did not know him; but it is your other
-son--your eldest son, I mean--John.”
-
-“Eh?” The old man roused up a little. “John--that was my little brother;
-we called him Johnny--a delightful boy. There is just such another in
-the house now, I believe. I think he is in the house.”
-
-“Oh, sir!” said Geoff, “I want to speak to you--to plead with you for
-some one who is not in the house--for your son John--John who has been
-so long away. You know--don’t you know whom I mean?--your eldest son,
-Mr. Musgrave--_John_, who left us and left everything so many years
-ago.”
-
-A wavering light came over the old man’s face. He opened his eyes wide
-and gazed at Geoff, who, for his part, was too much troubled and alarmed
-to know what to do.
-
-“Eh!” he said again, with a curious blank stare, “my--what? Son? but not
-Randolph. No more about sons, they are a trouble and a sorrow. To tell
-the truth I am drowsy rather. I suppose--I have not been very well. Have
-you seen the little boy?”
-
-“The little boy?--your grandson, sir?”
-
-“Eh! you call him that! He is just such another as little Johnny, my
-little brother, who was eighteen months younger than I. You were saying
-something else, my--my--friend! But to tell the truth, this is all I am
-good for now. The elders would like to push us from the scene; but the
-little ones,” said the Squire, with a curious sudden break of laughter,
-which sounded full of tears, “the little ones--are fond of old people;
-that is all I am good for nowadays--to play with the little boy----”
-
-“Oh, sir!” said Geoff in his eagerness, “it is something very different
-that is expected of you. To save the little boy’s father--your son--to
-bring him back with honour. It is honour, not shame, that he deserves. I
-who am a stranger, who am the brother of the man who was killed, I have
-come to entreat you to do John Musgrave justice. You know how he has
-been treated. You know, to our disgrace, not his, that there is still a
-sentence against him. It is John Musgrave--John Musgrave we ought to
-think of. Listen to me--oh, listen to me! Your son--”
-
-The old man rose to his feet, and stood wavering, gazing with troubled
-wide-open eyes, full of the dismal perplexity of an intelligence which
-feels itself giving way. “John Musgrave!” he said, with pale lips which
-trembled and dropped apart; and a thrill and trembling came over his
-whole frame. Geoff sprang up and came towards him in alarm to support
-him, but the Squire waved him away with both his tremulous hands, and
-gave a bewildered look round him as if for some other prop. Suddenly he
-caught sight of the little carved oak cupboard against the wall. “Ah!”
-he said, with an exclamation of relief. This was what he wanted. He
-turned and made a feeble step towards it, opened it, and took from it
-the cordial which he used in great emergencies, and to which he turned
-vaguely in this utter overthrowal of all his forces now. But then ensued
-a piteous spectacle; all his strength was not sufficient to pour it out.
-He made one or two despairing efforts, then put the bottle and glass
-down upon the table with a low cry, and sank back into his chair. He
-looked at Geoff with the very anguish of feebleness in his eyes. “Ah!”
-he faltered, “it is true--they are right. I am old--old--and good for
-nothing. Let them push me away, and take my place.” A few sobs, bitter
-and terrible, came with the words, and two or three tears dropped down
-the old man’s grey-pale cheeks. The depth of mortal humiliation was in
-this last cry.
-
-Geoff almost wept too in the profound pity of his generous young
-soul--it went to his very heart. “Let me help you,” he cried, pouring
-out the cordial with anxious care. It was all the Squire could do to put
-it to his lips. He laid one of his trembling hands upon Geoff’s shoulder
-as he gave back the glass, and whispered to him hoarsely, “Not
-Randolph,” he said; “don’t let Randolph come. Bring me--do you
-know?--the little boy.”
-
-“Yes, sir, yes,” cried Geoff; “I understand.”
-
-The old Squire still held him with a hand which was heavy as lead upon
-his arm, “God bless you, my lad,” he said. He did not know who Geoff
-was; but trusted to him as in utter prostration we trust to any hand
-held out to us. And a little temporary ease came with the potion. He
-smiled feebly once more, laid back his head, and closed his eyes. “My
-little Johnny!” he said; and his hands fell as Eastwood had described
-them, the fingers crumbled together all in a heap, upon the arms of his
-chair.
-
-Geoff rushed out of the room with a beating heart, feeling himself all
-at once thrust into a position of importance in this unknown house. He
-had never seen death or its approach, and in his inexperience did not
-know how difficult it was to shuffle off the coils of mortality. He
-thought the old man was dying. Accordingly, he rushed up the slope to
-the old hall like a whirlwind, where Mary and the children were. “Come,
-come,” he cried; “he is ill, very ill!” and snatching Nello’s reluctant
-hand, ran back, dragging the child with him, who resisted with all his
-might. “Come, your grandfather wants you,” cried Geoff. Mary followed,
-alarmed, and wondering, and--scarcely knowing where she went in her
-agitation--found herself, behind the young man and the boy, at the door
-of that sacred library which the children had never entered, and where
-their very existence was ignored. Her father was lying back in his great
-chair; Eastwood, whom Geoff had hastily summoned, standing behind. The
-old man’s heavy eyes were watching the door, his old limbs huddled
-together in the chair, like something inanimate thrown down in a heap,
-and lying as it fell. At sight of this awful figure, little Nello gave a
-loud cry of childish terror, and turning round, would have fled but for
-Geoff, who stood behind him. At the sound of the child’s voice, the old
-man roused himself feebly; he moved his arms--extending them in
-intention at least--and his lips with inaudible words. “Go to him, go to
-him!” cried Geoff in an imperative whisper. Little Nello was not without
-courage, though he was afraid. Finding the way of escape blocked up, he
-turned round again, stood irresolute for a moment, and then advanced
-with the strength of desperation. The old man, with a last effort, put
-out his arms, and drew the child between his knees. “My little Johnny!”
-he said, with an only half-articulate outbreak of crying and strange
-laughter. Then his arms fell powerless; his head drooped on his breast.
-Nello broke out wildly into crying; but stood fascinated between the
-feeble knees.
-
-Was he dead? Geoff thought so in his simplicity as he led the child
-away, and left Mary and the servants, whom he had summoned, in this
-death-chamber. He led Nello back to the hall, and sat down beside the
-children and talked to them in low tones. His mind was full of awe and
-solemn feeling; his own youth, and strength, and happiness seeming a
-kind of insult to the old and dying. He went back after a while very
-grave and humble, to ask how it was, and what he could do. But the
-Squire was not dead. He was stricken by that _avant-courier_ of the
-great king, who kills the mind before the body dies. It was “a stroke,”
-Eastwood said, in all the awe, yet importance, of so tragic an event. He
-had seen it coming for weeks before, he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI.
-
-IN SUSPENSE.
-
-
-Randolph Musgrave was extremely annoyed at the turn things had taken. On
-the day of his father’s seizure indeed a kind of serene solemnity came
-over him. He would not have been so indiscreet or indecorous as to admit
-that he was glad of the “stroke” which might terminate the Squire’s
-life; such an evil sentiment was far from him. Still if his dear father
-was indeed in the providence of God to be taken away from this mortal
-scene, there was a sad satisfaction in having it happen while he was
-still at the Castle and ready to be of use. As the only male member of
-the family, it was indeed very important that he should be there on such
-a melancholy occasion. Mary would have enough on her hands with the
-nursing and the strictly feminine duties, and he was the only one to
-turn to, the only one who could do anything. He telegraphed to his wife
-what the sad occasion was that detained him, and went to bed with a
-comfortable sense that his visit had not been in vain. It was melancholy
-to think that all might be over before the morning; but yet he could do
-no good by staying up and wearing himself out. If it should so happen
-that his own sad prognostications were correct, why then he had occasion
-for all his strength, for he it would be who must do everything. And no
-martyr could have contemplated the stake with more elevated resignation
-and satisfaction than Randolph looked at the labours and troubles he
-would have to take upon him. He lay down, solemnly going over them in
-his mind--the details of the funeral, the reading of the will, the
-taking possession of the estate. He resolved that he would take
-possession in his brother’s name. No one knew where John was; he could
-not be called at a moment’s notice like respectable men. Nor, indeed,
-would it be kind to think of such a thing as bringing him here to the
-endangerment of his life. No, he would take possession for his brother.
-He would put his brother’s little son to school. The girl of course
-would go with Mary, who for her part must, he supposed, have the house
-on the way to Pennington, which was called the Dower-house, though he
-did not think an unmarried sister had any real right to a place which
-was intended for the widow of the previous Squire. But that might pass:
-Mary had been accustomed to have everything her own way, and she should
-have the Dower-house by grace at least, if not by right. He fell asleep
-as he was arranging all these things with a great deal of serious
-satisfaction. Of course it was sad: what is there in this vale of tears
-that is not mixed with sadness? But it was not (he said to himself) as
-if his father were a young man, or carried off in the midst of his work.
-He was old, he had lived out the life of man, he had arrived at the time
-when a man has a right to expect that his day is over, and must know
-that in the course of nature he ought to give place to his successors.
-And as things were to take such a serious turn, how well it was that he,
-Randolph, should be on the spot to do everything! His satisfaction in
-this was really the foremost feeling in his mind.
-
-But all was not over in the morning, as Randolph had so certainly
-anticipated. He got up in the same solemnized but resigned and serene
-condition, and wondered a little to see how late it was. For indeed the
-turn things had taken, though so serious, had been peace-inspiring,
-removing anxiety from his mind, and he had slept later than usual in
-consequence. And it was clear that as yet there had been “no change.”
-Eastwood, who was late too, having stayed up late on the previous night
-indulging the solemn excitement which was natural to this crisis, came
-in with profound seriousness and an air as solemn as Randolph’s. “Just
-the same, sir,” he said; “the doctor is with him now.” Randolph could
-not help a slight sensation of disappointment. He had made up his mind
-so distinctly what was to happen, and there are cases in which even good
-news are out of place. It was with less resignation and more anxiety
-that he hurried out to hear what the doctor said.
-
-And he was much provoked and annoyed when a week later there was still
-no progress made, and it became apparent that no such easy solution of
-all difficulties as he had expected was to be looked for. The Squire was
-in much the same state on the next Saturday and the next, and it was
-apparent that the illness was to be a lingering and tedious one--the
-kind of thing which wears out everybody round. When people are going to
-die, what a pity that they should not do it speedily, relieving both
-themselves and others! But nature, so often acting in a manner contrary
-to all prognostications, was not to be hurried. To jog her gently on,
-and relieve the sufferer authoritatively from his troubles, is not yet
-permissible in England. On the contrary, medical science acts just the
-other way, with questionable mercy, prolonging lives in which there is
-nothing but suffering, and stimulating the worn-out machinery of the
-frame to go on a little longer, to suffer a little more, with all that
-wheezing and creaking of the rusty wheels which bears witness to the
-unnaturalness of the process. This was what Randolph felt with much
-restrained warmth of annoyance. It was unnatural; it was almost impious.
-Two doctors, a professional nurse, and Mary, who was as good, all
-labouring by every possible invention to keep mere life in their
-patient. Was it right to do so? Providence had evidently willed to
-release the old man, but science was forcing him to remain imprisoned in
-the flesh. It was very hard upon the Squire, and upon Randolph too,
-especially as the latter could not venture to express his real
-sentiments on this matter, but was compelled to be glad of every little
-sign of tenacity and vitality which the patient gave. If it had been
-recovery indeed, he said to himself, there might have been some reason
-for satisfaction; but as it was only holding by life, mere existing and
-nothing more, what ground was there for thankfulness? It would be better
-for the sufferer himself, better for everybody, that it should be over
-soon. After this state of things had lasted for a fortnight, Randolph
-could not bear it any longer. He sent for Mary from the sick room, and
-gave her to understand that he must go.
-
-“Had I expected he would last so long,” he said, “I should have gone
-last week. Of course it does not matter for you who have nothing else to
-do; but my work and my time are of importance. If anything were likely
-to happen directly, of course I should think it my duty to stay; but, so
-far as I can see, nothing is likely to happen,” said Randolph in an
-aggrieved tone. Mary was too sad to laugh and too languid to be angry,
-but there came a gleam of mingled resentment and amusement into her
-eyes.
-
-“It is not for us to wish that anything should happen,” she said.
-
-“Wish? Did I talk of wishing? I stated a fact. And in the meantime my
-parish is being neglected and my work waiting for me. I cannot hang on
-here for ever. Of course,” Randolph added, “if anything should happen,
-you have only to telegraph, and I will come.”
-
-“I don’t see that it is necessary, Randolph. My father may rally, or he
-may linger for months, the doctors say; and whatever happens--of course
-you shall hear immediately; but so far as I am concerned, it does not
-seem necessary to disturb your work and unsettle your parish----”
-
-“That is ridiculous; of course I shall come the moment I am summoned. It
-is quite essential that there should be some man to manage matters. And
-the boy is all ready,” he added; “you had his outfit prepared before my
-father’s attack came on. Let them pack up for him, and on Friday we
-shall go.”
-
-“The boy! How could I send him away now, when my father might recover
-his consciousness, and want him?”
-
-“My father want him? This is too much,” said Randolph--“my father, from
-whom you concealed his very existence--who never cared for children at
-any time. My _father_? What could he possibly want with the boy? He
-should have gone a fortnight ago. I wrote to enter his name of course,
-and the money is running on. I can’t afford to pay for nothing whatever
-you may do, Mary. Let his things be packed up, and let him go with me.”
-
-“I think your brother is right,” said the Vicar, who was present. “Nello
-is doing no good with me. We have been so much disturbed with all that
-has taken place; and Emily has been so poorly--you know how poorly she
-has been--and one feels with one’s own children the time can always be
-made up somehow. That is the worst of lessons at home,” said Mr. Pen,
-with a sigh.
-
-“But my father sent for him--wanted him; how can I send the child away!
-Mr. Pen, you know, if Randolph does not, that he is the heir, and his
-grandfather has a right to have him close at hand.”
-
-“It is no use arguing with women,” said Randolph, white with rage. “I
-don’t understand this nonsense about my father wanting him. I don’t
-believe a word of it. But I tell you this, Mary, if he is the heir, I am
-his uncle, his next friend; and I say, he sha’n’t lose his time here and
-get ruined among a pack of women. He must go to school. Supposing even
-that my father did want him (which is absolute absurdity; why, my father
-pretends not to know of his existence!) would you put a selfish old
-man’s fancy against the boy’s good?”
-
-“Randolph! how do you dare, when he is so ill,” cried Mary, with
-trembling lips, “to speak of my father so!”
-
-“It is true enough anyhow,” said the undutiful son. “When he is so ill!
-Why, that is the reason I can speak freely. One would not hurt his
-feelings if he could ever know it. But he was always known to be
-selfish. I did not think there was any doubt about that. The boy must
-not be ruined for an old man’s whim, even if it is true.”
-
-“It is dreadful to go against you,” said the Vicar, looking at her with
-piteous eyes, beseeching her forgiveness; “but Randolph is in the right.
-Nello is losing his time; he is doing no good; he ought to go to
-school.”
-
-“You too!” cried Mary. She could not but smile, though the tears were in
-her eyes. And poor Mr. Pen’s dissent from her cost the good man so much.
-He looked at her, his eyes too filling, with deprecating, beseeching,
-wistful looks, as a dog does. When he thus took part so distinctly
-against Mary, conscience, it was clear, must have been strong within Mr.
-Pen. He had tried hard for her sake to overcome the habit of irregular
-hours and desultory occupation which had grown upon him, and to give the
-children their lessons steadily, at the same hours, day by day. But poor
-Mr. Pen had not known how hard it would be to accomplish this. The idea
-of being able to make up the failing lessons at any odd moment which
-made the children at the Vicarage so uncertain in their hours, had soon
-returned after the first bracing up of duty towards Lilias and Nello had
-come to an end. And then Mrs. Pen had been ill, and could not bear the
-noise of the children; and then the Squire had been ill, upsetting
-everybody and everything; and then--the Vicar did not know what more to
-say for himself. He had got out of the way of teaching, out of the habit
-of exact hours, and Emily had been very poorly, and, on the whole,
-Randolph was right, and the boy ought to go to school.
-
-Several of these discussions, however, took place before Mary gave way.
-The account Randolph had heard of the last scene in the library, before
-the Squire had his “stroke,” had not been at all satisfactory to his
-mind. He sincerely believed (though with an uneasy sense of something in
-it that sounded like truth) that this story was a fabrication to suit a
-purpose. But, on the other hand, his own intentions were very distinct.
-The mere fact that such a story had been invented showed the meaning on
-the other side. This boy was to be foisted into the place which, for
-years, he had supposed himself to occupy. John not being possible, who
-but Randolph could fill that place? Another heir was ridiculous, was
-shameful, and a wrong to him. He would not suffer it. What right had
-John, an outlaw and exile, to have a son, if it came to that? He would
-not allow the child to stay here to be petted and pampered, and made to
-believe himself the heir. For, in the end, Randolph had made up his mind
-that the boy could not and should not be admitted to the advantages of
-heirship without a very different kind of proof of identity from any
-they possessed. And it would be ruin to the child to be allowed to fill
-such a false position now. The mere idea of it filled him with
-suppressed rage. He did not mean the boy any harm--not any real harm. On
-the contrary, it would be a real advantage to him in any case to be bred
-up frugally and industriously; and this he would insist upon, in spite
-of every resistance. He would not leave the child here to have him
-wormed into the old man’s affections, made a tool of by Mary in John’s
-interests, and to his own detriment. He was determined to get rid of
-Nello, whatever it cost him: not to do him harm, but to get him out of
-the way. This idea began to possess him like a mania--to get rid of the
-child who was more dangerous, a great deal more dangerous, than John
-himself. And all the circumstances of the house favoured his removal at
-this moment, when the Squire’s illness occupied everybody’s attention.
-And then it was a great point to have enlisted on his side the reluctant
-and abashed, yet conscientious support of Mr. Pen.
-
-As for the children themselves, a subtle discomfort had stolen into
-their life. The old gentleman’s illness, though it did not affect them,
-affected the house. The severe and dangerous illness of an important
-member of any household has always a confusing influence upon domestic
-life. It changes the centre of existence, so that everything, which once
-radiated from the cheerful hearth becomes absorbed in the sick-chamber,
-making of it the temporary and fictitious centre of the dwelling. In
-this changed orbit, all the stars of the household firmament shine, and
-beyond it everything is left cold, and sunless, and neglected. Children
-are always the first to feel this atmospheric change, which affects them
-more than it does the watchers and nurses, whose time and minds are
-absorbed in the new occupation. It was as if the sun had gone out of the
-sky to the children at Penninghame. They were left free indeed, to go
-and come as they liked, nobody attempting to hustle them out of the way,
-to say, “Run, children, some one is coming.” All the world might go and
-come, and it did not matter. Neither did it matter to them now where
-they went, for every room was equally dreary and empty. Mary, who meant
-home to them, and to whom they carried all their grievances and
-pleasures, had disappeared from their view; and Miss Brown, who was
-their directress in minor matters, had become invisible too, swallowed
-up by that sick-room, which absorbed everything. It was no pleasure to
-roam about the drawing-room, generally forbidden ground, and even
-through and through the passages from the hall to the dining-room,
-though they had so often longed to do it, when nobody was to be found
-there, either to laugh with them, or to find fault. Even Eastwood was
-swept up in the same whirlpool; and as for Mary, their domestic
-divinity, all that was seen of her was when she passed from one room to
-another, crossing the corridor, disappearing within the door of the
-mysterious chamber, where doctors and nurses, and every sort of
-medicine, and drinks, and appliances of all kinds, were being taken. How
-could the old gentleman want so much? Twice over a new kind of bed was
-taken into that strange gulf of a sick-room, and all so
-silently--Eastwood standing on the stairs, deprecating with voice and
-gesture, “No noise, no noise!” That was what everybody said. Mary would
-smile at them when she met them, or wave her hand from the end of the
-corridor, or over the stairs. Sometimes she would pause and stoop down
-and kiss them, looking very pale and worn out. “No, dear, he is no
-better,” she would say. Except for these encounters, and the accounts
-which the servants gave them of their grandfather’s state,--how he was
-lying, just breathing, knowing nobody, not able to speak,--accounts
-which froze the children’s blood in their veins--they had no life at
-all; only dull meals which they ate under this shadow, and dull hours in
-which, having nothing to do, they huddled together, weary and lonely,
-and with nothing before them but to go to bed. Out of doors it was not
-much better. Mr. Pen had fallen into all the old disorder of his ways,
-out of which he had made a strenuous effort to wake for their benefit.
-He never was ready for them when they went with their lessons. “I will
-hear you to-morrow,” he would say, looking at them with painful
-humility, feeling the grave countenance of Lilias more terrible than
-that of any judge; and when to-morrow came, there were always a hundred
-excuses. “Go on to the next page and learn the next lesson. I have had
-such a press of work--and Mrs. Pennithorne is so poorly,” the poor man
-would say. All this shook the pillars of the earth to Lilias and Nello.
-They were shaken out of everything they knew, and left to blunder out
-their life as best they could, without any guide.
-
-And this was hardest upon the one who understood it least. Lilias, whose
-mind was open to everything, and who sat looking out as from a door,
-making observations, keenly interested in all that went on, and at the
-same time with a reserve of imagination to fall back upon, was fully
-occupied at least if nothing more. Every day she watched for “Mr. Geoff”
-with news of her father. The suspense was too visionary to crush her
-with that sickening depression which affects elder minds. All had a
-softening vagueness and confusion to the child. She hoped and hoped, and
-cried with imaginative misery, then dried her eyes and hoped again. She
-thought everything would come right if Mr. Geoff would only bring papa;
-and Mr. Geoff’s ability sooner or later to find and bring papa she never
-doubted. It was dreadful to have to wait so long--so long; but still
-every morning, any morning he might come. This hope in her mind absorbed
-Lilias, and made her silent, indisposed for play. At other times she
-would talk eagerly, demanding her brother’s interest and response to
-things he did not understand. Children can go on a long time without
-understanding, each carrying on his or her monologue, two separate
-streams, which, flowing tranquilly together, feel like something mutual,
-and answer all the ends of intercourse; and in this way neither of them
-was aware how far apart they were. But Nello was dull; he had so little
-to do. He had no pony, he could not play cricket as Johnny Pen did with
-the village boys. He was small, even for his age, and he had not been
-educated in the art of knocking about as English boys are. He was even a
-little timid of the water and the boats, in which other boys might have
-found solace. Half of his time he wandered about, listless, not knowing
-what to make of himself.
-
-This was the condition of mind in which Randolph met him on one of
-these lingering afternoons. The child had strayed out all by himself; he
-was standing by the water-side at his old amusement, but not enjoying it
-this time. “What are you doing?” said his uncle, calling out to him as
-he approached. Randolph was not a favourite with the children; but it
-was half an amusement to see any one coming near, and to have to answer
-a question. He said “Nothing,” with a sigh; not a single skip could he
-get out of those dull slates. The water would not carry them; they would
-not go; they went to the bottom with a prosaic splash and thud. How
-different from that day with the old gentleman, when they flew as if
-they had been alive! Perhaps this new comer might have luck, and do as
-well as the old gentleman. “Will you have a try?” he said; “here is a
-good one--it ought to be a good one; but I can’t make them go to-day.”
-
-“I--have a try?” Randolph was startled by the suggestion. But he was
-anxious to conciliate the little fellow whom he wanted so much to get
-rid of. And it was only for once. He took suspiciously (for he was
-always suspicious) the stone Nello held out to him, and looked at it as
-if it might be poison--or it might be an attempt on his dignity got up
-by somebody. When he had satisfied himself that it was a common piece of
-slate, he took courage, and, with a smile that sat very awkwardly upon
-his face, threw it, but with the most complete unsuccess.
-
-“Ah! you are not good, like the old gentleman; his skipped seven times!
-He was so clever at it! I wish he was not ill,” said Nello, checking an
-incipient yawn. It was, perhaps, the first time any one had uttered such
-a wish. It had been taken for granted, even by his daughter, that the
-Squire’s illness was the most natural thing in the world.
-
-“Did he really come and play with you? But old men are no better than
-children,” said Randolph. “I suppose he had nothing else to do.”
-
-“It is very nice to have somebody to play with when you have nothing
-else to do,” said Nello, reflectively. “And he was clever. You--you
-don’t know even how to throw; you throw like a girl--like this. But this
-is how the old gentleman did,” cried Nello, suiting the action to the
-word, “and so do I.”
-
-“Do you know nothing but these baby-games? I suppose you never played
-cricket?” said Randolph, with, though he was a man, a pleasurable sense
-of being thus able to humiliate the little creature beside him. Nello
-coloured to the roots of his hair.
-
-“I do not like cricket. Must every one like the same things? It is too
-hot; and one cannot play by oneself,” the boy added with a sigh.
-
-“You ought not to play by yourself, it is not good for you. Have you no
-one to play with, little boy?”
-
-“Nobody,” said Nello, with emphasis; “not one person. There is Lily; but
-what does it matter about a girl? And sometimes Johnny Pen comes. He is
-not much good; he likes the green best, and all the village boys. Then
-they say I am too little;--and I don’t know them,” the boy added with a
-gleam of moisture in his eyes. The village boys had not been kind to
-Nello; they had laughed at him for a little foreigner, and made remarks
-about his hair, which was cut straight across his forehead. “I don’t
-want to know them.” This was said with vehemence; for Nello was sore at
-the want of appreciation which had been shown him. They did not care for
-_him_, but they made a great deal of Johnny Pen!
-
-“You should go to school; that is where all boys should go. A boy should
-not be brought up like a little girl; he should learn to use his hands,
-and his fists even. Now, what should you do if there was a fight?”
-
-“A fight?” Nello grew pale and then grew red. “If it was--some one else,
-I would walk away; but if it was me--if any one touched me, I should
-kill him!” cried the child, setting his little white teeth.
-
-Randolph ought professionally to have improved the occasion; but he only
-laughed--that insulting laugh which is offensive to everybody, and
-specially exasperates a child. “How could you kill him? That is easier
-said than done, my boy.”
-
-“I would get a gun, or a sword; but first,” said Nello, calming down, “I
-would tell him to go away, because I should not _wish_ to kill him. I
-have seen people fighting with guns and swords--have you?”
-
-Here Randolph, being obliged to own himself inferior, fell back upon
-what was right, as he ought to have done before.
-
-“Fighting is very wrong,” he said. “It is dreadful to think of people
-cutting each other to pieces, like wild beasts; but it is not so bad if
-you defend yourself with your fists. Only foreigners fight with swords;
-it is thoroughly un-English. You should never fight; but you would have
-to defend yourself if you were at school.”
-
-Nello looked at his uncle with an agreeable sense of superiority. “But I
-have seen _real_ fighting,” he said; “not like children. I saw them
-fighting the Austrians--that was not wrong. Papa said so. It was to get
-back their houses and their country. I was little then, and I was
-frightened. But they won!” cried the boy, with a gleam in his dark eyes.
-What a little savage he was! Randolph was startled by the sudden
-reference to “papa,” and this made him more warm and eager in his turn.
-
-“Whoever has trained you to be a partisan has done very wrong,” he said.
-“What do you know about it? But look here, my little man. I am going
-away on Friday, and you are to come with me. It will be a great deal
-better for you than growing up like a little girl here. You are exactly
-like a little girl now, with your long hair and your name which is a
-girl’s name. You would be Jack if you were at school. I want to make a
-man of you. You will never be anything but a little lady if you don’t go
-to school. Come; you have only to put on a frock like your sister.
-Nelly! Why, that’s a girl’s name! You should be Jack if you were at
-school.”
-
-“I am not a girl!” cried Nello. His face grew crimson, and he darted his
-little brown fist--not so feebly as his size promised--in his uncle’s
-face. Randolph took a step backwards in his surprise. “I hate you!”
-cried the child. “You shall never, never come here when I am a man. When
-the old gentleman is dead, and papa is dead, and everything is mine, I
-will shut up all the doors, I will turn out the dogs, and you shall
-never come here. I know now it is true what Lily says--you are the bad
-uncle that killed the babes in the wood. But when I am a big man and
-grown up, you shall never come here!”
-
-“So!” said Randolph, furious but politic; “it is all to be yours? I did
-not know that. The castle, and the woods, and everything? How do you
-know it will be yours?”
-
-“Oh! everybody knows that,” said Nello, recovering his composure as
-lightly as he had lost it; “Martuccia and every one. But first the old
-gentleman must be dead, and, I think, papa. I am not so sure about papa.
-And do you think they would teach me cricket at school, and to fight? I
-don’t really care for cricket, not really. But Johnny Pen and the rest,
-they think so much of it. I should like to knock down all their wickets,
-and get all the runs; that would teach them! and lick them after!” said
-the bloodthirsty Nello, with gleaming eyes.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII.
-
-AN APPARITION.
-
-
-Thus Randolph overcame Nello’s opposition to school, to his own extreme
-surprise. Though he had a child of his own, and all the experiences of a
-middle-aged clergyman, he had never yet learned the A B C of childhood.
-But it may be supposed that the conversation generally had not made him
-love his nephew more dearly. He shook his fist at the boy as he ran
-along the water-side, suddenly seized by the delight of the novelty and
-the thought of Johnny Pen’s envy. “If I had you, my boy!” Randolph said,
-between his teeth, thinking grimly of the heirship which the child was
-so sure of. Pride would have a fall in this as in other cases. The
-child’s pretensions would not count for very much where he was going. To
-be flogged out of all such nonsense would be far the best thing for him;
-and a good flogging never did a boy much harm. Randolph, though he was
-not a bad man, felt a certain gratification in thinking of the change
-that would occur in Nello’s life. There was nothing wrong about the
-school; it was a very humble place, where farmers’ sons were trained
-roughly but not unkindly. It would make a man of the delicate little
-half-foreign boy, who knew nothing about cricket. No doubt it would be
-different from anything he was used to; but what of that? It was the
-best thing for him. Randolph was not cruel, but still it gave him a
-little pleasure to think how the impudent little wretch would be brought
-to his senses; no harm done to him--no _real_ harm--but only such a
-practical lesson as would sweep all nonsense out of his head. If Nello
-had been a man of his own age, a rival, he could not have anticipated
-his humiliation with more zest. He would have liked to be a boy himself
-to fag the little upstart. There would be probably no fagging at the
-farmers’ school, but there would be--well! he smiled to himself. Nello
-would not like it; but it would bring the little monkey to his senses,
-and for that good purpose there was no objection to be taken to the
-means.
-
-And as he walked through the Chase, through the trees, seeing in the
-distance before him the blunt turret-chimneys, all veiled and dignified
-with ivy, of the old house, many thoughts were in Randolph’s heart. He
-was a Musgrave, after all, if not a very fine example of the race. His
-wife was well off. If it had not been for John, who was a criminal, and
-this boy--what he would have done for the old place! What he might do
-still, if things went---- well! Was that, perhaps, the word to
-use--well? That is, if John could be somehow disposed of, prevented from
-coming home, and the boy pushed quietly to one side. As for John, he
-could not come home. It would be death--perhaps; certainly renewed
-disgrace. He would have to stand his trial, and, if he fled from that
-trial once, how was he likely to be able to face it now? He would stay
-abroad, of course--the only safe place for him. If he could but be
-communicated with, wherever he was, and would send for his son and
-daughter, some arrangement might be made: a share of the income settled
-upon him, and the family inheritance left for those who could enjoy it.
-This would be, in every way, the best thing that could be done; best for
-John himself; best for the house which had been always an honourable
-one, and never connected with disgrace. It is so easy to believe what
-one wishes that Randolph, after a while, going over the subject in his
-mind, succeeded in smoothing away all difficulties, except, indeed, the
-initial one of getting into correspondence, one way or another, with
-John. If this could be done, surely all the rest was smooth enough! John
-was not a fool; he must see that he could not come home. He must see how
-difficult it would be to prove his marriage and his son’s birth, and
-make everything clear (though why this should be so difficult Randolph
-did not explain even to himself). Then he must see equally well that, to
-put the property and the old castle into the hands of a man with money,
-who could really do something to improve them, would be far better for
-the family than to go on as he (John) must do, having no money, if even
-he could come lawfully into possession. All this was so evident, no man
-in his senses could refuse to see it. And as for communicating with
-John: there was, of course, one way, which seemed the natural way, and
-which surely must be infallible in that case as in most other cases--the
-_Times_. However far out of the world John might be, surely he would
-have opportunities from year to year of seeing the _Times_! No
-Englishman, even though banished, could live without that. And, sooner
-or later, if often enough repeated, the advertisement must reach him.
-Suppose it to be put something in this form:--“J. M., of P.--His brother
-R. wishes to communicate with him on urgent business connected with the
-death of their father.” This would attract no particular attention from
-any one, and John could not fail to perceive that he was meant. Thus he
-had, to his satisfaction, made everything clear.
-
-It was just when he came to this satisfactory settlement of the
-difficulty, so perfectly easy in theory, though no doubt there might be
-certain difficulties about carrying it out, that Randolph suddenly saw,
-a little way before him, some one making his way through the trees. The
-Chase was private, and very few people had the right of coming here;
-neither did Randolph see whence this unexpected passenger had come, for
-there was no tributary path by which he might have made his way down to
-the foot-walk through the elms and oaks. He was within easy sight,
-obscured a little by the brushwood, and with his back to the spectator;
-but the sight of him gave Randolph a great start and shock, which he
-could not very well explain. The man was in dark clothes, with a broad
-felt hat, quite unlike anything worn in this district; and there was
-something about his attitude and walk (no doubt a merely fantastic
-resemblance, or some impression on his mind from his pre-occupation with
-the idea of John) which recalled his brother to Randolph’s mind. He was
-more startled than words could say. For a moment he could not even think
-or move, but stood open-mouthed, staring at the figure before him, which
-went on straight, not turning to the right or to the left.
-
-When Randolph came to himself, he tried to laugh at his own folly--then
-coughed loudly and meaningly, by way of catching the stranger’s
-attention, and seeing who it was. But his cough attracted no manner of
-attention from the wayfarer, who went on pushing through the trees, like
-one who knew every turn and winding. Randolph was at the end of his
-invention. If he called out “Hi!” it might turn out to be somebody of
-importance. If he spoke more politely, and called the stranger to halt,
-he might be a nobody--if indeed it was not----. A vague impression, half
-of fear, came upon him. What nonsense it was! In broad daylight, in so
-well-known and familiar a place. Had it been in the dark, in any of the
-ghostly passages of the old house! but out here in the sunshine, in the
-open air!
-
-Randolph took off his hat, to let the air blow freely about him for he
-had grown hot and uncomfortable. His hand with the hat in it dropped for
-a moment between him and the other who was so near him. When he raised
-it again there was no one there. He rubbed his eyes, looked again, and
-darted forward to see whether the man was hiding among the trees; but
-there was no one there. Randolph took off his hat once more, to wipe his
-streaming forehead; his hand trembled so that he could scarcely do it.
-What did it mean? When he had convinced himself there was no one to be
-seen, he turned and hurried away from the place, with his heart beating
-loudly in his breast. He never looked behind him, but hastened on till
-he had got to the broad road, where there was not a bush to hide an
-apparition. Then he permitted himself to draw breath.
-
-It would be doing Randolph injustice to suppose that after he was out of
-the shadow of the trees, and in safety, with a broad level bit of road
-before him, on which everything was distinctly visible all round, he
-could be capable of believing that he had seen a ghost. Nothing of the
-kind. It must have been one of the people about the place, poking among
-the bushes, who had disappeared under the branches of the trees, and
-whom he thought like John only because he had been thinking of John--or
-perhaps his thought of John had produced an optical delusion, and
-imagination had painted some passing shadow as a substantial thing, and
-endued it with his brother’s image. It might have been merely an
-eccentric tree, on the outline of which fancy had wrought, showing a
-kind of grotesque resemblance. It might be, and probably was, just
-nothing at all. And it was supremely ridiculous that his heart should so
-thump for such an absurd delusion; but thump it did, and that in the
-most violent manner. He was out of breath, though he had made no
-exertion. And he could not pick up his thoughts where he had dropped
-them, when he saw that--figure. A thrill as of guilt was in his soul; he
-was afraid to begin again where he had left off. He found himself still
-rather breathless before the house, looking up at the veiled windows of
-his father’s room. For the first time Randolph thought with a little awe
-of his father lying there between life and death. He had not thought of
-him at all in his own person, but rather of the Squire officially, the
-old life who kept a younger generation out of the estate. It was time
-the elders were out of the way, and age superseded by middle age. But
-now for a moment he realized the man lying helpless there, in the very
-pathway of death--not freed by the Great Deliverer, but imprisoned by
-Him, all his senses and faculties bound up, a captive tied hand and foot
-by the grim potency who conquers all men. Randolph was frightened
-altogether by the mysterious encounter and impressed with awe. If there
-had been daily service he would have gone to church, but as there was
-nothing of the sort in Penninghame, he went into the library to read a
-good book as the next best thing to do. But he could not stay in the
-library. The silence of it was awful. He seemed to see his father,
-seated there in his usual chair, silent, gazing at him with eyes of
-disapproval that went through and through him. After five minutes he
-could stand it no longer. He took his good book, and went out to the
-side of the water, within sight of the road where people were coming
-and going. It was a comfort to him to see even the doctor’s boy with his
-phials, and the footman who came with his mistress’s card to inquire how
-the Squire was. And he looked out, but looked in vain, with mingled
-eagerness and fear for the broad hat he had seen so mysteriously
-appearing and disappearing. Who could it be?--some stranger
-astray in the Chase--some one of the many tourists who wander
-everywhere--or--Randolph shuddered in spite of himself.
-
-It is generally people without imagination, or with the most elementary
-and rude embryo of that poetic faculty, who see ghosts. This sounds like
-a paradox, yet there is reason in it. The people who are literal and
-matter-of-fact in mind, are those to whom wonders and prodigies come
-naturally; those who possess the finer eye of fancy do not need those
-actual revelations. Randolph’s was as stolid a mind as ever asked for a
-sign--and he had not asked for a sign in this case, nor felt that
-anything of the kind was necessary; but his entire mental balance was
-upset by what he had seen, or supposed himself to have seen; and he
-could not free his mind from the impression. As he sat and read, or
-rather pretended to read, his mind kept busy with the one question--What
-was it? Was it a real person, a stranger who had got astray, and
-stumbled into some copse or brushwood, which Randolph had forgotten--a
-man with a chance resemblance to John, heightened by the pre-occupation
-and previous reference to John in Randolph’s mind? or was it John
-himself, come to look after his own interests--John--in the body, or out
-of the body, who could tell?
-
-As for Nello, he ran home by the water-side, his mind possessed by the
-new thing that was about to be accomplished--school! Boys to play with,
-novelty of all kinds, and then that cricket, which he pretended to
-despise, but secretly admired and desired with all his heart--the game
-which came to Johnny Pen by nature, but which the little foreign boy
-could not master; all this buzzed through his little head. When he came
-home from school he would know all about it; he would have played with
-much better players than Johnny Pen ever saw. The revolution in his
-thoughts was great and sudden. But as he ran home, eager to tell Lilias
-about the change in his fortunes, Nello too met with a little
-adventure. He came suddenly, just as he emerged from the woods upon the
-water-side where it was open to the road, on a man whom he had
-repeatedly seen before, and who was generally accompanied by a dog,
-which was Nello’s admiration. The dog was not with his master now; but
-he took a something white and furry out of his great pocket, which
-stopped Nello even in the hot current of his excitement.
-
-“Would you like to have this, my little gentleman?” the man said.
-
-It was a white rabbit, with the biggest ears that Nello had ever seen.
-How his eyes danced that had been all aglow before!
-
-“But I have no money,” he said, disposed to cry in disappointment as
-sudden as his delight.
-
-“It’s not for money, it’s a present,” said the stranger, with a smile,
-“and I’ll give you another soon. They tell me you’re going to school, my
-young gentleman; is that true?”
-
-“Am I to have it all for myself, or will you come back again for it, and
-take it away? Oh yes, I’m going to school,” said Nello, drooping into
-indifference. “Will it eat out of my hand? Has it got a name? And am I
-to have it all for myself?” The rabbit already had eclipsed school for
-the moment in Nello’s mind.
-
-“It’s all for you, and better things than that--and what day are you
-going, my bonnie little lad?”
-
-“To-morrow; oh give it me! I want to show it to Lily,” cried the child.
-“Thank you very much. Let me run and show it to Lily. We never, never
-had a rabbit before.”
-
-The man stood and looked after Nello with a tender illumination of his
-dark face. “The old woman likes the other best; but this one is mine,”
-he said to himself. As for Nello, he flew home with his precious burden,
-out of breath. He said a man had given it to him; but thought of the
-donor no more.
-
-Randolph spent this, his last evening at home, in anything but an
-agreeable way; he was altogether unhinged, nervous, and restless, not
-caring to sit alone. In this respect he was in harmony with the house,
-which was all upset, tremulous, and full of excitement and expectation.
-Human nature is always impatient of the slow progress of fate. After
-the thunderclap of a great event, it is painful to relapse into
-stillness, and feel the ordinary day resuming its power without any
-following out of the convulsion. But dramatic sequence, rapidity, and
-completeness are rare in human affairs. All the little crowd of
-lookers-on outside the Squire’s room watched eagerly for some change.
-Two or three women were always hanging about the passages, ready, as
-they said, to run for anything that might be wanted, and always in the
-way to learn if anything occurred. They kept a little lamp burning on
-the table against the wall, at either end of which was a chair, on which
-sometimes Cook herself, sometimes lesser functionaries, would be found,
-but always two together, throwing exaggerated shadows on the wall, and
-talking in whispers of their own fears, and how well they had perceived
-what was coming. There was not one of them that had not intended, one
-time or other, to make so bold as to speak to Miss Mary. “But trouble is
-always soon enough when it comes,” they said, shaking their heads. Then
-Eastwood would come and join them, his shadow wavering over the
-staircase. When the privileged persons who had the _entrée_ went or
-came, Miss Brown or the nurse, or even Mary herself, there was a little
-thrill and universal movement.
-
-“Change! no, there’s no change--there never will be but one change,”
-Miss Brown said, standing solemnly by the table, with the light on her
-grave face; and it was upon this Rembrandtish group that Randolph came,
-as he wandered about in a similar frame of mind, glad to find himself in
-company with others, though these others were only the maids of the
-house.
-
-“Is my father worse?” he asked, pausing, with his arm upon the
-banisters. Such a group of eager, pale faces! and the darkness all round
-in which others still might be lurking unseen.
-
-“No change, sir,” said Miss Brown, shaking her head. She was impatient
-too, like the rest, but yet felt a sort of superior resignation, as one
-who was in the front of affairs. And she had something to say besides.
-She gave a glance at the other women, who responded with secret nods of
-encouragement, then cleared her throat and delivered her soul--“Mr.
-Randolph, sir, might I make so bold as to say a word?”
-
-“Say whatever you like,” said Randolph. He could not help but give a
-little glance round him, to make sure that there was no one else about.
-
-“It is just this, sir--when you see him lying there, that white, as if
-he was gone already, and know that better he can’t be--oh, it brings a
-many thoughts into the mind! I’ve stood by dying beds before now, and
-seen them as were marked for death, but I never saw it more clear. And
-oh, Mr. Randolph, if there were things that might lie on his mind, and
-keep him from going quiet, as an old gentleman ought! If there were
-folks he ought to see afore all’s over----!”
-
-“I don’t see what you are driving at,” Randolph said hastily. “Speak out
-if you’ve anything to say.”
-
-“Oh, sir,” said Miss Brown, “don’t you think----. I am not one that
-likes to interfere, but I am an old servant, and when a body has been
-long about a place, it’s natural to feel an interest. If it wasn’t your
-family at all--if it was another that your advice was asked
-for--shouldn’t you say that Mr. John ought to know?”
-
-This appeal startled Randolph. He had not been looking for it; and he
-gave an uncomfortable look round him. Then he felt a strange irritation
-and indignation that were more easy to express. “Am I my brother’s
-keeper?” he said. “I don’t know where Mr. John is, that I should go and
-hunt for him to let him know.”
-
-“Oh, sir,” said Miss Brown, “don’t you be angry! Cook here is like me:
-she thinks it’s only his due. I would say it to Miss Mary, not troubling
-you that are ‘most a stranger, but she’s night and day, she never will
-leave her father; she has a deal upon her. And a gentleman knows ways
-that womanfolk don’t think of. If you would be but that kind, Mr.
-Randolph! Oh, where there’s a will there’s always a way!”
-
-“It is none of my business,” said Randolph; “and I don’t know where he
-is,” he added, looking round him once more. He might be here already in
-the dark, waiting till the breath was out of his father’s body--waiting
-to seize possession of the house, felon as he was. And if Randolph was
-the means of betraying him into the hands of justice, what would
-everybody say? He went abruptly away down the uncarpeted, polished
-stairs, on which his hasty step rang and slid. John, always John! he
-seemed to be in the air. Even Eastwood, when he attended him with his
-bed-candle, could not refrain from adding a word. “The doctor looks very
-serious, sir,” Eastwood said; “and if there’s any telegraph to be sent,
-I’ll keep the groom ready to go at a moment’s notice. ‘It would be well
-to send for all friends,’ the doctor said.”
-
-“I don’t know any one to send for,” said Randolph peremptorily; “let the
-groom go to bed.” And he went to bed himself sooner than usual, to get
-rid of these appeals and of equally imperative thoughts. He went to bed,
-but he could not go to sleep, and kept his candle burning half the
-night. He heard the watchers moving about in his father’s room, which
-was over-head, all the night through. Sometimes there would be a little
-rush of steps, and then he held his breath, thinking this might be at
-last the “change” which was looked for. But then everything grew still
-again, and he dozed, with the one poor candle, feeble but steadfast
-watcher, burning on till it became a pale intruder into the full glory
-of day.
-
-Randolph, however, slept deeply in the morning, and got up with the
-greater part of those cobwebs blown away. John lost his hold upon the
-imagination in daylight, and he was able to laugh at his foolish alarm.
-How could it be John whom he had seen? He durst not show himself in the
-country where still his crime was so well remembered, and the sentence
-out against him. And as for the appearance being anything more than
-mortal, or less than human, Randolph laughed at the state of his own
-nerves which rendered such an idea tenable for a moment. He was a
-materialist by nature--as so many are; though he said his creed without
-any intrusive doubts; and the absurdity was too patent after he had
-slept and been refreshed. But no doubt it was bad for his health, bad
-for his _morale_, to stay here. There was something in the atmosphere
-that was demoralizing; the air had a creeping sensation in it as of
-something more than met the eye. Death was in it; death, creeping on
-slowly, silently--loitering about with faint odours of mortality and
-sickening stillness. Randolph felt that he must escape into a more
-natural and wholesome air before further harm was done.
-
-As for Mary, the occupations of the sick-room, and the sudden problems
-of the hereafter thus thrust upon her, were enough to fill her mind, and
-make her even comparatively indifferent to the departure of Nello,
-though it was against her judgment. It was not the hereafter of the
-spirit, which thus lay death-bound on the verge of the unseen, which
-occupied her. We must all die, everybody knows; but who thinks it true
-in their own case until it comes? Mary had known very well that a man
-much over seventy could not live very much longer; but it was only when
-her father fell back in his chair unconscious, his body motionless, his
-mind veiled within blinding mists, that she felt the real weight of all
-that was to follow. It was for her to act as soon as the breath should
-be out of his body. She did not trust her younger brother, and she did
-not know what to do for her elder brother. The crisis had arrived while
-she was still unprepared. She went down mechanically to see Randolph go
-away, her eyes seeing many other things more clearly than she saw the
-two figures actually before her; the man suspicious as usual, and
-putting no faith in her--the boy in a subdued excitement, his eyes
-sparkling with the light of novelty and adventure. Randolph had gone
-into his father’s room that morning, and had walked suspiciously round
-the bed, making quite sure that the “no change” was true. “I suppose he
-may last like this for weeks yet?” he said, in a querulous
-undertone--and yet not so low but that everybody heard it--to the
-doctor. “Oh, hush, for Heaven’s sake, Randolph! How can you tell that he
-does not hear?” said Mary. “Pshaw how can he hear?” Randolph replied,
-turning with a certain contempt from the helpless and powerless frame
-which lay there making no sign, yet living when it would be so much
-better that he should die. The awe of such a presence gives way to
-familiarity and weariness even with the most reverent watcher; but
-Randolph, though he had no desire to be indecorous, could not help
-feeling a certain irritation at his father, who balked him by this
-insensibility just as he had balked him while yet he had all his wits
-about him. It seemed incredible that this half-dead, half-living
-condition, which brought everything to a standstill, should not be more
-or less a man’s own fault.
-
-Thus he went away, irritated and baffled, but still full of excitement;
-the moment which must decide all could not be very far off. He left the
-strongest charges upon the household, from his sister to Eastwood, to
-send for him instantly when “any change” occurred. “If it should be
-to-morrow,” he said; “I shall hold myself always ready.” He kept his
-eyes fixed on the Castle as long as he could see it, feeling that even
-now there might be a sign recalling him. And he thought he had made up
-his mind what to do. He would bring his wife with him and take
-possession at once. Mary would not be able to look after everything; or,
-at least, if she should be, she ought not to be; no really
-delicate-minded woman, no _lady_ should be able to make any exertion at
-such a moment. He would come with his household, as a kindness to Mary,
-and take possession at once.
-
-As for Nello, he took leave very cavalierly of Lilias, who cried, yet
-would not cry, angry at his desertion and deeply wounded by his
-indifference, at the door. Poor little Lilias, it was her first
-disappointment in life. He was not thinking of her, but a great deal of
-his new portmanteau and the sandwiches put up for him, and the important
-position as a traveller in which he stood--but neither was Nello unkind.
-He took pains to console his sister.
-
-“Don’t cry,” he said, “Lily I shall come back in the holidays, and
-sometimes I will write you letters; and there is always the white rabbit
-I gave you, and little Mary Pen for you to play with.”
-
-“I don’t want to play,” said Lilias, with a burst of tears; “is play
-everything? I am too old for that. But oh, Nello, you are going to leave
-me, and you don’t care. You do not care for Mary, or Martuccia, or any
-one. Me, I should not mind--but you do not love _any one_. You care for
-nobody but yourself.”
-
-“Oh yes I do,” said Nello, “everybody,” and he cracked the coachman’s
-whip which was placed in readiness; “but boys have to go out and see the
-world; Eastwood says so. If I don’t like being at school I shall come
-back and stay at home, and then you will have me again; but I hope not,
-and I don’t think so, for school is jolly, very jolly, so Uncle Randolph
-says.”
-
-“You can go with Uncle Randolph,” cried Lilias, in a blaze of sharp
-anger, “and I hope you will not come back. I hope you will always stay
-away, you cruel, cruel boy!”
-
-This bewildered Nello for a moment, as did the hurried wiping of Lilias’
-eyes and the tremulous quiver of her lip with which it was accompanied;
-but there was no time for more. He laughed and waved his hand to her as
-he was hurried into the carriage. He had scarcely ever looked so gay
-before. He took off his hat and waved it as he went out of sight.
-Hurrah! they heard his shrill little voice shouting. Lilias sat down on
-the ground and cried her heart out. It was not only that he was
-unkind--but Nello thus showed himself wanting to all the needs of the
-situation. No little hero of a story had ever gone away without a
-tribute to the misery of parting. This thought contracted her heart with
-a visionary pang more exquisite than the real. Nello was no hero,
-nothing but a little cruel, common, vulgar boy, not fit to put into any
-story, to go away so.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII.
-
-THE LOVES OF THE ANGELS.
-
-
-While these events were going on at the Castle, Lord Stanton, for his
-part, had come to a standstill in the matter which he had been drawn
-into so inadvertently, and which had become so very serious an
-occupation in his life. He was young, and unacquainted with the ways of
-the world, and he did not know what step to take next. And he too was
-paralyzed by the sudden catastrophe which had happened to the Squire.
-Was it his fault? He could scarcely help an uneasy sense that by
-agitating him unduly he had helped to bring on the sudden attack, and
-thus he had left the Castle that evening with a heavy burden on his
-mind. And Geoff, with entire unconsciousness of the lingering pangs of
-life and the tenacity of the human frame, believed, without any doubt,
-that Mr. Musgrave would die, and did not know what was to be done about
-the exile, whose condition would thus be completely changed. In the
-mean time it seemed to him necessary to wait until the issue of this
-illness should be known. Thus his doubtfulness was supplanted by an
-apparent necessity, and the time went on with nothing done.
-
-He went at first daily to inquire for the old man, and never failed to
-see Lilias somewhere waiting for him with serious, intent face, and eyes
-which questioned even when the lips did not speak. Lilias did not say
-much at any time. She examined his face with her eyes and said “Papa?”
-with a voice which trembled; but it became by degrees less easy to
-satisfy Lilias by telling her, as he did so often, that he had not
-forgotten, that he was doing everything that could be done, smoothing
-the way for her father’s return, or waiting till he could more
-successfully smooth the way. “You do not believe me, Lily,” Geoff said,
-with a sense of being doubted, which hurt him sadly. “Yes; but he is not
-your papa, Mr. Geoff, and you are grown up and don’t want any one,”
-Lilias said, with her lip quivering. The visionary child was deeply cast
-down by the condition of the house and the recollection of the
-melancholy rigid figure which she had seen carried past, with a pang of
-indescribable pain and terror. Lilias seemed to see him lying in his
-room, where Mary now spent almost all her time, pale with that deadly
-ashen paleness, his faded eyes half open, his helpless hands lying like
-bits of rag, all the grey fingers huddled together. Fright and sorrow
-together brought a sob out of her heart whenever she thought of this;
-not moving, not able to speak, or turn round, or look up at those who
-watched him; and still not dead! Lilias felt her heart stand still as
-she thought of her grandfather. And she had no one to take refuge with.
-Martuccia was frightened too, and would not go up or down stairs alone.
-Lilias, for her part, did all she could, out of pride, and shame of her
-own weakness, to conceal her terror; but oh, to have papa nigh to creep
-close to, to feel safe because he was there! A few tears dropped from
-her eyes. “You are grown up and you don’t want any one.” This went to
-Geoff’s heart.
-
-“Oh Lily, don’t you think they would let you come to my mother?” he
-cried; “this is too sad for you, this dismal house; and if Nello goes
-away as you said----”
-
-“Do you think I would go and leave Mary all alone? Nobody is sorry for
-Mary except me--and Mr. Pen. When she comes out of her room I go and I
-kiss her hand, and she cries. She would be more ill and more weary,”
-said Lilias, with a precocious understanding, “if there was not some
-little thing to give her an excuse and make her cry.”
-
-“My little Lily! who taught you all that? it must have been the angels,”
-cried Geoff, kissing in his turn the little hand.
-
-But this touch had the same effect upon Lilias that her own kiss had on
-Mary. She cried and sobbed and did her best to swallow it down. “Oh Mr.
-Geoff! I want papa!” she cried, with that little convulsive break in her
-voice which is so pitiful in a child. She was seated on Mary’s chair at
-the door of the hall, and he on the threshold at her feet. Geoff did not
-know what kind of half-admiring, half-pitying sentiment he had for this
-child. He could not admire her enough, or wonder at her. She was but a
-child, not equal to him in his young manhood; and yet that very
-childhood in its unconsciousness was worlds above him, he thought. He
-felt like the man in the story who loved the fairy maiden--the young
-Immortal; would she give up her visionary paradise for his sake and
-learn to look at him, not as an angel but as a woman? but for that she
-must be a woman first, and at present she was but a child. When he
-kissed her hand it cost Lilias no blush. She accepted it with childish,
-angelical dignity. “She took the kiss sedately--” and the dark fountains
-of her eyes filled full, and two great tears tumbled over, and a piteous
-quiver came to her lips, and she said, “Oh, Mr. Geoff, I want papa!”
-
-This was when the Squire had been ill about a week, six or seven days
-before Randolph took Nello away. Geoff went home riding, very full of
-thought. What could he do to please his little Lily? He preferred that
-she should creep close to himself and tell him her troubles, but he
-could not resist that plaint, and even though it should be against
-himself he must try what he could do to bring her father to her. Geoff
-thought a great deal on this subject, but it was very fatiguing and
-unsatisfactory, for he did not know what to do, and after a while he
-relapsed into the pleasanter path, and began to think of Lily. “Because
-of the angels,” he said to himself as he jogged softly along, much more
-slowly and reflectively than his horse liked to go. He forgot where he
-was going and the engagements he had, and everything that was practical
-and important, as he rambled on. The day was sweet in early autumn, the
-lake rippling musically upon the beach, the sky blue and crossed by
-floating atoms of snowy cloud. Everything in the world was sweet and
-pleasant to the young man. “Because of the angels;” he had never been
-quite clear what these words meant, but he seemed to see quite plainly
-now, though he could no more have explained than he could have written
-_Hamlet_. “Because of the angels!” He seemed to make a little song of it
-as he went on, a drowsy, delicious burden like the humming of the bee.
-It was not he that said it, he thought, but it murmured all about him,
-wrapping him in a soft enchantment. Such a visionary love as his,
-perhaps, has need of those intoxications of ethereal fancy: for nothing
-can be so like the love of an angel as that of a young man possessed by
-a tender visionary passion for a child.
-
-Geoff was so rapt in his own thoughts that he did not see for some time
-the beckonings and signals that were coming to him from a carriage drawn
-up on the road to which the path descended, along which he was moving so
-gently. When his attention was at last caught, he saw it was his Cousin
-Mary, leaning half out of the window in her eagerness.
-
-“Give your horse to the footman and come in here--I have so much to say
-to you,” she said.
-
-But when he had done as she told him and taken his seat beside her, Lady
-Stanton kept looking at her young cousin.
-
-“What is it?” she said; “you keep on smiling, and there is a little
-drowsy, dreamy, intoxicated air about you; what has happened, Geoff?”
-
-“Nothing; and it is unkind to say I look intoxicated. Could you not find
-a prettier word?”
-
-“I believe you are really, really!--Geoff, I think I know what it means,
-and I hope it is somebody very nice. Tell me, who is she?”
-
-“This is strange,” said Geoff; “indeed, it is true, I have been visiting
-a lady; but she is only twelve years old,” he said, turning to her with
-a vivid blush.
-
-“Oh, Geoff!” Mary’s brow contracted, “you do not mean _that_ little
-girl?”
-
-“Why shouldn’t I mean her? I will make you my confessor, Cousin Mary. I
-don’t think. I shall ever marry any one but little Lily. Of course she
-is very little, and when she is grown up she will probably have nothing
-to say to me; but I shall never care for any one else. Why should you
-shake your head? I never saw any one like her,” said Geoff, growing
-solemn, and shaking off his blush as he saw himself opposed.
-
-“Oh, Geoff!” Mary shook her head and contracted her beautiful brow, “I
-do not think anything good can come out of that family; but I must not
-speak. I am jealous, I suppose. How did you know I did not want you for
-Annie or Fanny?” she went on with a smile that was a little strained and
-fictitious; for Mary knew very well that she was jealous, but not for
-Annie, or Fanny, or Geoff.
-
-“Hush,” he said, “I loved you before Lily, but you could not have me; it
-is Lily, failing you. If you could but have seen her just now! The
-Squire is lying between life and death, and Miss Musgrave, who was so
-good to her, is with him night and day, and poor little Lily is so
-lonely and frightened. She looks at me with her little lip all
-quivering, and says, ‘Papa! I want papa.’” Geoff almost cried himself to
-recollect her piteous tone, and the tears came to Mary’s eyes.
-
-“Ah! if she takes after _him_, Geoff! but that is just what I want to
-talk to you about. I have done something that you may think rash. I have
-spoken to Sir Henry. He is--well, he has his faults like the rest of
-us--but he is just; he would not do a wrong thing. I told him that you
-had found out something----”
-
-“What did he say?” cried Geoff, breathless, for Lady Stanton made a
-sudden pause.
-
-She was looking across him out at the window; her eyes had strayed past
-his face, looking away from him as people do with a natural artifice to
-allow the first signs of displeasure to blow over, before they look an
-offended person in the face. But as she looked, Lady Stanton’s
-countenance changed, her lips fell apart, her eyes widened out, her face
-paled, as if a cloud had passed over it. She gave a great cry, “Oh
-John, _John_!” she said.
-
-“What is it?--who is it?” cried Geoff.
-
-She made him signs to have the carriage stopped; she could not speak.
-Geoff did what he could to make the coachman hear him; but it was by no
-means the affair of a moment to gain the attention of that functionary,
-and induce him to stop. When, however, this was accomplished, Geoff
-obeyed the passionate desire in Lady Stanton’s face, who all the time
-had been straining to look out, and jumped to the ground. He looked
-round anxiously, while she, half out of the carriage, gazed back, fixing
-her eyes upon one of those recesses in the road which are common in the
-north country. “I see no one,” said Geoff. He came back to the place on
-which her gaze was fixed, and looked behind the wall that bounded it,
-and all about, but could see nothing. When he returned he found that
-Mary had fallen back in her corner, and was weeping bitterly. “He looked
-at me with such reproachful eyes. Oh, he need not; there was no reason.
-I would have saved or served him with my life,” she cried; “and he had
-never any claim on me, Geoff, never any claim on me!--why should he come
-and look at me with such reproachful eyes? If he is dead, he ought to
-know better than that. Surely he ought to know----”
-
-The carriage, standing in the middle of the road, the young man
-searching about, not knowing what he was looking for; the coachman
-superbly indifferent on the box, contemplating the agitation of his
-inferiors with god-like calm; the footman, on Geoff’s horse, with his
-mouth open, staring, while the beautiful lady wept inside, made the
-strangest picture. As a matter of course, the footman, riding on in
-advance, had seen nothing and nobody. He avowed frankly that he was not
-taking any notice of the folks on the road. He might have seen a man
-seated on the stones, he could not be certain. Neither had the coachman
-taken any notice. Foot passengers did not interest either of these
-functionaries. And Lady Stanton did not seem able to give any further
-explanation. The only thing to be done was to go on. She had been on her
-way to Stanton to give Geoff the advantage of Sir Henry’s advice and
-opinion, and thither, accordingly, they proceeded after this
-interruption. Geoff took his place again beside his cousin, perhaps a
-little impatient of the stoppage; but as she lay back in the corner,
-covering her face with her hands, Geoff’s heart was too soft not to
-forget every other sentiment. He thought only of consoling her.
-
-“Tell me what it was,” he said, soothingly. “You saw--some one? Do not
-cry so bitterly. You never harmed anybody in your life. Tell me--you
-thought you saw----?”
-
-“I saw _him_, as plainly as I see you, Geoff; don’t tell me it was a
-fancy. He was sitting, resting, like a man tired with walking, dusty and
-worn out. I noticed his weary look before I saw his face, and just as we
-passed he raised his head. Oh, why should he have looked at _me_ like
-that, Geoff? No, I never did any one harm, much less him. I have always
-stood up for him, you know, since you first spoke to me. I have always
-said, always--even before this was found out: living people mistake each
-other continually; but the dead--the dead ought to know----”
-
-“Who is dead?” said Geoff; “are you speaking of John Musgrave, who is as
-much alive as I am?”
-
-“If he were a living man,” said Mary, solemnly, “how could I have seen
-him? Geoff, it is no mistake. I saw him, as I see you.”
-
-“And is that why you think him dead?” said Geoff, with natural surprise.
-
-Lady Stanton raised herself erect in her corner. “Geoff, oh, can you not
-understand?” she cried. But she did not herself quite understand what
-she meant. She thought from the suddenness of it, from the shock it gave
-her, and from the disappearance of the wayfarer, which was so
-inexplicable, that it was an apparition she had seen. John Musgrave
-could not be there, in the flesh, seated by the roadside; it was not
-possible; but when Geoff asked whether having seen him was an argument
-for thinking him dead, she had nothing to say. She wrung her hands. “I
-have seen him whether he is living or dead,” she repeated, “and he
-looked at me with such eyes. He was not young as he used to be, but
-worn, and a little grey. I came to tell you what Sir Henry said; but
-here is something far, far more important. Know him! Could I mistake
-him, do you think?--how could I mistake him? Geoff, how could it be
-_he_, sitting there without any warning, without a word? but if it was
-he, if that was possible, why are we going on like this? Are we to
-desert him?--give him up? I am talking folly,” she said, again clasping
-her hands. “Oh, Geoff, a living man would not have looked at me with
-such eyes.”
-
-“He has not very much right to happy eyes, has he?” said Geoff; “coming
-home an outlaw, not venturing to speak to any one. It would not be half
-so sad if he were a ghost. But to come back, and not to dare to trust
-even his friends, not to know if he has any friends, not to be able to
-go home and see his children like any other man, to rest on the stones
-at the roadside, he to whom all the land belongs! I don’t wonder he
-looked sad,” cried Geoff, half-sympathetic, half-indignant. “How was he
-to know even that he would find a friend in you?”
-
-Mary was sobbing, scarcely able to speak. “Oh, tell them to go back
-again--tell them to go back,” she cried. There was no way of satisfying
-her but this: the carriage turned slowly round, rolling like a ship at
-sea. The coachman was disgusted and unwilling. “What did she want now?”
-he said, telegraphing with uplifted hands and eyes to the surprised
-footman on Geoff’s horse. Lady Stanton was not a hard mistress like her
-stepdaughters, nor fantastical and unreasonable as they were. She took
-the carriage humbly when she could get it, and would consult this very
-coachman’s convenience before bringing him out, which no one else
-thought of doing. Nevertheless Lady Stanton had her character in the
-house, and human nature required that it should be kept up. She was the
-stepmother, the scapegoat. “What is she after now?” the coachman said.
-
-She got out of the carriage herself, trembling, to aid in the search,
-and the footman getting down, looked everywhere, even under the stones,
-and in the roadside hedges, but no one was there. When they resumed
-their way again, Mary lay back in her corner too much worn out with
-excitement and emotion to be able even to speak. Geoff could not tell
-whether she was glad or sorry to be brought to acknowledge that it was
-more likely to be John Musgrave whom she had seen than his ghost. She
-was convinced by his reasoning. Oh, yes; no doubt, she said, it must be
-so. Because you saw a man unexpectedly, that was no reason for supposing
-him to be dead. Oh, no--Geoff was quite right; she saw the reason of all
-he said. But Mary’s head and her heart and all her being thrilled with
-the shock. There was a ringing in her ears, and pulses were beating all
-over, and her blood coursing through her veins. The very country, so
-familiar, seemed to change its aspect. No stronger commentary could have
-been on the passage of time than the sudden glimpse of the face which
-she had seen just now on the roadside. But Mary did not think of that.
-The lake and the rural road that ran by it, and the hills in the
-distance, seemed to take again the colours of her youth. He was nothing
-to her, and never had been. She had not loved him, only had “taken an
-interest.” But all that was most poignant in her life came back to her,
-with the knowledge that he was here. Once more it seemed to be that time
-when all is vivid, when every day may be the turning-point of life--the
-time that was consciously but a drift and floating on of hour by hour
-when it existed, as is the present moment--but which, looking back upon
-it, seemed the time of free action, of choice, of every possibility. Was
-it so? Might he be met with round any corner--this man who had been
-banished so long? In the face of death and danger had he come back, he
-whom nobody had expected ever to come back? A strange half-question
-whether everything else had come back with him, and half-certainty that
-nothing for her could change, was in Mary’s mind as she lay back,
-quivering with emotion, hearing Geoff’s voice in her ears, not knowing a
-word he said. What had Geoff to do with it--young Geoff, to whom nothing
-had ever happened? She smiled vaguely to herself to think that the boy
-could think he knew. How was he to know?--he was not of that time. But
-all the people in the road, and the very water itself, and the villages
-and houses, seemed to ask her, Was it true?
-
-This was all the evidence on the subject from which a judgment could be
-formed. Randolph Musgrave (who told no one) had seen, in his own words,
-a something, a some one, whose face he did not see, but who suggested
-John to him so strongly that his very heart seemed to stop beating--then
-disappeared. And Lady Stanton from the window of the carriage, driving
-past, saw a face, which was John Musgrave’s face grown older and worn,
-with hair that was slightly grey, instead of the brown curls of former
-years, and which disappeared too in the twinkling of an eye, and being
-searched for, could be found no more. What was it?--an apparition
-conjured up by their interest or their fears? or John Musgrave, in his
-own person, come home?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX.
-
-NELLO’S JOURNEY.
-
-
-Randolph Musgrave drove from the door of his father’s house with a sigh
-of relief, yet of anxiety. He had not done what he meant to do, and
-affairs were more critical than when he went to Penninghame a few weeks
-before; but it was something at least to be out of the troubled
-atmosphere, and he had arranged in his own mind what he should do, which
-was in its way a gain, as soon as the breath was out of the old man’s
-body,--but when would that be? It was not to be desired, Randolph said
-to himself piously, that his father should linger long; his life was
-neither of use nor comfort to any one, and no pleasure, no advantage to
-himself. To lie there speechless, motionless, as much shut out of all
-human intercourse as if he were already in his coffin--what could any
-one desire but that, as soon as might be, it should come to an end?
-
-He did not pay very much attention to his small companion. For the
-moment, Nello, having been thus secured and brought within his power,
-had no further importance, and Randolph sat with knitted brows pondering
-all he was to do, without any particular reference to the child. Nello
-had left the Castle easily enough; he had parted from Mary and from
-Lilias without any lingering of emotion, getting over it as quickly as
-possible. When it came to that he was eager to be off, to set out into
-the world. The little fellow’s veins were full of excitement; he
-expected to see, he did not know what wonderful things, what objects of
-entrancing interest, as soon as he got outside the little region where
-everything was known to him. “Good-bye, Mary--good-bye, Lily,” he said,
-waving his hand. He had his own little portmanteau with his name on it,
-a new little silver watch in his pocket--what could child want more?
-Lily, though she was his sister, was not a sensation like that watch. He
-took it out, and turned it round and round, and opened the case, and
-wound it up--he had wound it up twice this morning already, so that one
-turn of the key was all that was practicable. Nothing at the Castle,
-nothing in the society of Lily, was equal to this. He compared his watch
-with the clock at the druggist’s in the village and found it fast: he
-compared it with the clock at the station and found that slow. He did
-not take any notice of his uncle, nor his uncle of him; each was
-indifferent, though partly hostile, to the other. Randolph was at his
-ease because he had this child, this troublesome atom, who might do harm
-though he could do no good, in his power; but Nello was at his ease
-through pure indifference. He was not at the moment frightened of his
-uncle, and no other sentiment in regard to him had been developed in his
-mind. As calm as if Randolph had been a cabbage, Nello sat by his side,
-and looked at his watch. The watch excited him, but his uncle----. Thus
-they went on, an unsympathetic pair. Nello stood about on the platform
-and looked at everything, while Randolph took the tickets. He was
-slightly hurt to hear that a half-ticket was still enough for himself,
-and moved away at once to the other side of the station, where the
-locomotive enthralled him. He stood and gazed at it with transport. What
-he would have given to have travelled there with the man who drove it,
-and left Uncle Randolph behind! But still Nello took his place in the
-train with much indifference to Uncle Randolph. He was wholly occupied
-with what was going on before and about him: the rush across country,
-trees and fields flying by, and the stations where there was always
-something new, the groups of people standing about, the rush of some for
-the train, the late arrival just as the doors were shut of those who
-were too late. These last made Nello laugh, their blank looks were so
-funny--and yet he was sorry for them; for what a thing it must be, he
-thought, to see other people go rushing out over the world to see
-everything, while you yourself were left dull at home! He remembered
-once himself being left with Martuccia in the still, deserted house when
-all the others had gone to the _festa_; how he thought the day would
-never end--and Martuccia thought so too. This made him sorry, very
-sorry, for the people who had lost their train. It did not occur to
-Nello that it might be no _festa_ he was going to, or they were going
-to. What could any one want more than the journey itself? If you wearied
-of seeing the trains rush past, and counting the houses, now on one
-side, now on another, there was the endless pleasure of dashing up to
-one station after another, where Nello could look down with fine
-superiority on the people who were not going, on the children above all,
-who looked up envious, and envied him, he felt sure.
-
-By and by, however, though he would not confess it to himself, the
-delights of the journey began to pall: his little eyes grew fatigued
-with looking, and his little mind with the continuous spectacle of those
-long, flying breadths of country; and even the stations lost their
-charm. He would have liked to have somebody to talk to, and cast one or
-two wistful glances to see whether Uncle Randolph was practicable, but
-found no encouragement in that countenance, pre-occupied, and somewhat
-lowering by nature, which appeared now and then in the wavering of the
-train, over the newspaper his uncle was reading. What a long time it
-took to read that paper! How it crackled when it was opened out! How
-tired Nello grew of seeing it opposite to him! And he began to grow
-cramped with sitting; his limbs wanted stretching, his mind wanted
-change; and he began to be hungry. Randolph, who scorned the poor
-refreshments of the railway, and thought it better to wait for his meal
-till he reached home, did not think of the difference between himself
-and the child. They travelled on and on through the dulness of the
-afternoon. Nello, who had been so excited, felt disposed to sleep, but
-was too proud to yield to it; and then he began to think of his sister
-and the home he had left. It is natural, it is selfish, to remember home
-when we miss its comforts: but if that is not of the higher nature of
-love, it is yet the religion of the weak, and not despised by the great
-Succourer who bids men call upon Him in time of trouble. Nello’s heart,
-when he began to feel tired and famished, recurred, with a pathetic
-trust in the tenderness and in the certainty of the well-being that
-abode there, to his home.
-
-When they stopped at a lively, bustling junction to change their
-direction, things mended a little. Nello ventured to buy himself a cake,
-his uncle not interfering, as they waited. “You will spoil your stomach
-with that sweet stuff,” Randolph said, but he allowed the child to
-munch. And they had half-an-hour to wait, which of itself was something.
-Nello walked about, imitating Randolph’s longer stride, though he did
-not accompany his uncle; and though he felt forlorn and very small among
-the crowd, marched about and looked at everything as the gentlemen did,
-recovering his spirits a little. And suddenly, with a great glow of
-pleasure all over him, Nello spied, among the strangers who were
-hurrying to and fro, a face he had seen before; it is true it was only
-the face of the countryman who had accosted him in the Chase, and with
-whom he had but a small acquaintance, but even this was something in the
-waste of the unknown that surrounded him. The boy rushed up to him with
-a gleam of joy upon his small countenance. “I say, have you come
-from--home?”
-
-“Yes, my little gentleman,” said Wild Bampfylde. “I’m taking a journey
-like you, but I like best to tramp on my two legs. I’m going no farther
-in your carriages, that give you the cramp. I reckon you’re tired too.”
-
-“A little,” said Nello; “but that’s no matter. What have you in your
-basket?--is it another rabbit? I gave mine to Lily. They would not let
-me bring it, though I wanted to bring it. School, you know,” said the
-boy, seriously, “is not like home. You have to be just like as if you
-were grown up there. Little--you cannot help being little; but you have
-to be like as if you were grown up there.”
-
-“Ay, ay, that’s the way to take it,” said the countryman, looking down
-with a twinkle in his eye, half smiling, half sad, at the small creature
-beside him. “The thing is to be a man, and to mind that you must stand
-up like a man, whatever happens. If one hits you, you must hit him
-again, and be sure not to cry.”
-
-“Hit me!” said Nello--“cry? Ah, you do not know the kind of school I am
-going to--for you are not a gentleman,” he added, looking with superb
-condescension at his adviser. “I like you just the same,” said Nello,
-“but you are not a gentleman, are you? and how can you know?”
-
-“The Lord forbid!” said Bampfylde, “one’s enough in a family. It would
-be ill for us, and maybe for you too, if I were a gentleman. Look you
-here, my little man. Look at the bonnie bird in this basket--it’s better
-than your rabbit. A rabbit, though it’s one o’ God’s harmless creatures,
-has little sense, and cannot learn; but this bonnie thing is of use to
-God and man, as well as being bonnie to look at. Look at him! what a
-bonnie head he has, and an eye as meaning as your own.”
-
-“A pigeon!” said Nello, with a cry of delight. “Oh, I wish I might have
-him! Do you think I might have him? I could put him under the seat, and
-nobody would see the basket; and then when we got there----”
-
-“Ay, that’s the question--when you got there?”
-
-“I would say--it was my--fishing-basket,” said Nello. “_He_ said they
-went fishing; and nobody would know. I would say Mary had--put things in
-it: nobody would ever find out, and I would keep it in my room, and buy
-seed for it and give it water, and it would live quite comfortable. And
-it would soon come to know me, wouldn’t it? and hop about and sit on my
-shoulder. Oh, let me have it; won’t you let me have it? Look here, I
-have a great deal of money,” cried Nello, turning out his pocket; “five
-shillings to spend, and a sovereign Mary gave me. I will give you money
-for it, as much money as ever you please----”
-
-“Whisht, my little lad; put back your money and keep it safe, for you’ll
-have need of it. I brought the bird to give you. If they’re kind folks
-they’ll let you keep him. You must keep him safe, and take care he has
-his meat every day; and if they’re unkind to you or treat you bad, put
-you his basket in the window and open the lid, and, puff! he’ll flee
-away and let your friends know.”
-
-“But I should not like him to flee away. I would like him to stay with
-me always, and sit on my shoulder, and eat out of my hand.”
-
-“My little gentleman,” said Bampfylde. “I’m afraid your uncle will hear
-us. Try to understand. If you’re ill-used, if they’re unkind, let the
-bird fly, and he’ll come and tell us. Mind now, what I’m saying. He’ll
-come and tell us. Did you never read in your story-books----”
-
-“Then it is an enchanted bird,” said Nello, looking down, very gravely,
-into the basket. Lily had read to him of such things. He was not very
-much surprised: but a bird that some day would turn into a young prince
-did not attract him so much as one that would hop on his shoulder
-without ulterior object. He looked down at it very seriously, with more
-respect perhaps, but not so warm an interest. His little face had lost
-its animation. How Lily would have glowed and brightened at the thought!
-But Nello was no idealist. He preferred a real pigeon to all the
-enchanted princes in the world.
-
-“Nay,” said Bampfylde, with a gleam of a smile across his dark face,
-“it’s no fairy, but it’s a carrier. Did you never hear of that? And when
-you let it fly it will fly to me, and let me know that you are wanting
-something--that they’re not kind to you, or that you’re wanting to be
-away.”
-
-“Oh, they’ll be kind,” said Nello, carelessly; “I would rather he would
-stay with me, and never, never fly away.”
-
-“I’ll put him in the carriage for you,” said Bampfylde, hurriedly, “for
-here’s somebody coming. And don’t you let any one know that you were
-speaking to me, or ever saw me before. And God bless you, my little
-gentleman!” said the vagrant, suddenly disappearing among the crowd.
-
-While Nello stood staring after him, Randolph came up, and tapped him
-sharply on the shoulder.
-
-“What are you staring at? Have you seen any one you know?”
-
-It was Nello’s first lesson in deceiving.
-
-“I--I was looking at a man--with wild beasts,” he said.
-
-“With wild beasts!--in the station?--here?”
-
-“Yes, white rabbits and pigeons--and things; at least,” said Nello to
-himself, “he once had a white rabbit, if he hasn’t got one now.”
-
-“Rabbits!” said Randolph. “Come along, here is our train. It is late;
-and before I have got you settled, and got back here again, and am able
-to think of myself, it will be midnight, I believe. You children don’t
-know what a trouble you are. I shall have lost my day looking after you.
-I should have been at home now but for you; and little gratitude I am
-likely to get, when all is done.”
-
-This moved Nello’s spirit, for of all things in the world there is
-nothing that so excites opposition among great and little, as a claim
-upon our gratitude. Anything and everything else the mind may concede,
-but even a child kicks against this demand. Nello’s feelings towards his
-uncle were not unkind; but, little as he was, instinct woke in him an
-immediate resistance.
-
-“It was not me that did it,” he said; “it was you. I should have stayed
-at home, and when the old gentleman is better he would have come out and
-played with me. And Mary would have let me stay. I like home,” said
-Nello, “and perhaps I shall not like school; but if I don’t like it,” he
-added, brightening and forgetting the secret he had been so sworn to
-keep, “I know how to get away.”
-
-“How shall you get away?” said Randolph. But he was so sure of this
-matter, which was in his own hands, that he did not wait for any answer.
-“They will take care of that at school,” he said; “and it will be the
-worse for you, my boy, if you make yourself disagreeable. Come along, or
-we shall miss the train.”
-
-Nello saw that the basket had been placed under his seat as he got in;
-and as the train swept away from the station, he caught a glimpse of the
-lonely figure of his new friend, standing among the little crowd that
-watched the departure. Bampfylde made a warning gesture to the child,
-who, forgetful of precaution, nodded and waved his hand in reply.
-
-“Who is that?” cried Randolph, suspiciously, getting up to cast a
-searching look behind.
-
-“Oh, it is the man with the wild beasts,” Nello said.
-
-And then came another silent sweep through the green smooth country,
-which was not like the hilly north. It was all Nello could do to keep
-himself from pulling his basket from beneath the seat, and examining his
-new treasure. He could hear it rustling and fluttering its wings
-against the wickerwork. Oh, to be able to take it out, to give it some
-crumbs of biscuit which were still in his pocket, to begin to train it
-to know him! Nello only restrained himself painfully, by the thought
-that if he betrayed his own secret thus, his pigeon might be taken from
-him. How eager he was now to be there! “Are there many more stations?”
-he asked, anxiously; then counted them on his fingers--one, two, three.
-And how delighted he was when they came at last to the little place,
-standing alone in a plain, with no other house visible that Nello could
-see (but he did not look; he was so anxious about his pigeon), which was
-their journey’s end. A kind of farmer’s shandry, half cart, half gig,
-with a rough horse, and a rougher driver, was in waiting. Nello got his
-basket out with his own hands, and put his little great-coat over it, so
-that no one could see. His heart beat loudly with fright, lest his uncle
-should hear the sounds beneath the cover--the rustle and flutter. But
-Randolph’s mind was otherwise engaged. As for the boy, he thought of
-nothing but this treasure, which he was so happy to feel in his arms. He
-could carry it so, quite comfortably, with the little great-coat over
-it; he neither remarked the rudeness of the jolting vehicle, nor the
-bare country, with here and there a flat line of road running between
-turnip and potato fields. When they came to the house--a new, square
-house, in the middle of the fields--Nello thought nothing about it one
-way or another. He thought, “I wonder which will be my window; I wonder
-where I can keep the bird.” That was all. His little soul, all eagerness
-after his new delight, had room for nothing more.
-
-Randolph and his charge were taken into a plain room, very simply
-furnished and not over-dainty in point of cleanness, where the principal
-of the school, a man in rusty black, came to receive them. There was
-nothing repulsive in his looks, nothing more in any way than the same
-plain unvarnished rusticity and homeliness which showed in his house.
-The school was intended for farmers’ sons, and the education was partly
-industrial--honest, simple training, without either deceit or villany
-involved, though not at all suitable for Nello. It was with reluctance
-even that so young a boy had been accepted at all; and the schoolmaster
-looked at him with doubtfulness, as the slim little curled darling, so
-different from his other pupils, came in, hugging his basket.
-
-“He’s young, and he’s small,” said Mr. Swan.
-
-“Very young, and small for his age,” Randolph echoed. “All the more
-reason why he should lead an out-of-door life, and learn that he is a
-boy, and will one day be a man.”
-
-Then Nello was put into the hands of the principal’s wife, while
-Randolph gave further directions.
-
-“His case is quite peculiar,” the uncle said. “He is an orphan, or as
-good as an orphan, and I took him from the hands of ladies who were
-making a fool of the boy. What he wants is hardening. You must not be
-led away by his delicate looks; he is a strong boy, and he wants
-hardening. Send him out to the fields, let him learn to work like the
-rest, and don’t listen to any complaints. Above all, don’t let him send
-complaints home.”
-
-“I never interfere with what they write home,” said honest Mr. Swan.
-
-“But you must in this case. If he sends home a complaining letter, his
-aunt will rush here next morning and take him away. I am his uncle, and
-I won’t permit that--and a family quarrel is what will follow, unless
-you will exercise your discretion. Keep him from writing, or keep him
-from grumbling. You will be the saving of the boy.”
-
-“It is a great responsibility to undertake. I should not have undertaken
-it, had I known----”
-
-“I am sure you have too serious a sense of the good that can be done, to
-shrink from responsibility,” said Randolph; “but, indeed, are we not all
-responsible for everything we touch? If you find him too much for you,
-write to me. Don’t write to what he calls ‘home.’ And do not let him be
-taken away without my authority. I have to protect him from injudicious
-kindness. A parcel of women--you know what harm they can do to a boy,
-petting and spoiling him. He will never be a man at all, if you don’t
-take him in hand.”
-
-With these arguments, Randolph overcame the resistance of the
-schoolmaster, and with redoubled injunctions that it was himself that
-was to be communicated with, in case of anything happening to Nello,
-went away. He was in haste to get back for his train; and “No, no,” he
-said, “you need not call the boy--the fewer partings the better. I don’t
-want to upset him. Tell him I was obliged to hurry away.”
-
-And it would be impossible to describe with what relief Randolph threw
-himself into the clumsy shandry, to go away. He had got the boy disposed
-of--for the moment at least--where no harm could happen to him, but also
-where he could do no harm. If his grandfather regained his
-consciousness, and, remembering that freak of his dotage, called again
-for the boy, it would be out of Mary’s power to spoil everything by
-humouring the old man, and reviving all those images which it would be
-much better to make an end of. And when the Squire’s life was over, how
-much easier to take all those measures which it was so advisable to
-take, without the little interloper about, whom foolish people would no
-doubt insist on calling the heir. The heir! Let him stay here, and get a
-little strength and manhood, to struggle for his rights, if he had any
-rights. More must be known of him than any one knew as yet, Randolph
-said to himself, before he, for one, would acknowledge him as the heir.
-
-Nello was taken into Mrs. Swan’s parlour, and there had some bread and
-butter offered to him, which he accepted with great satisfaction. The
-bread was dry and the butter salt, but he was hungry, which made it very
-agreeable.
-
-“You’ll have your tea with the rest at six,” said Mrs. Swan; “and now
-come I’ll show you where you are to sleep. What is that you’re
-carrying?”
-
-“A basket,” said Nello, in the mildest tone; and she asked no further
-questions, but led him upstairs, not however to the little bedroom of
-which the child had been dreaming, where he could keep his new pet in
-safety, but to a long dormitory, containing about a dozen beds.
-
-“This is yours, my little man, and you must be tidy and keep your things
-in order. There are no nurses here, and the boys are a bit rough; but
-you will soon get used to them. Put down your things here; this chair is
-yours, and that washing-stand, and----”
-
-“Must I sleep there?” cried Nello. It was not so much the little
-bed--the close neighbourhood of the other boys--that appalled him; but
-where was there a window for his bird? “Mayn’t I have that bed?” he
-said, pointing to one which stood near the window at the end of the
-room.
-
-“I daresay,” said Mrs. Swan; “why that is for the head boy, and you are
-the least, and the last. It is only by a chance that there is room for
-you at all here.”
-
-“But I don’t want to be here,” said Nello. “Oh, mayn’t I be by the
-window? The head boy hasn’t got a----. What would it matter to him? but
-I want to be there. I want to be at the window.”
-
-“My little master, you’ll be where I choose to place you,” said Mrs.
-Swan, becoming irritated. “We allow no self-will, and no rebellion
-here.”
-
-“But what shall I do with my----.” Nello did not venture to name the
-name of the bird. He crept up to the head of the little bed which was to
-be allotted to him, and surveyed the blank wall tearfully. There was but
-a very little space between him and the next bed, and he was in the
-middle of the room, the darkest part of it. Nello began to cry. He
-called upon Mary, and upon Martuccia, in his heart. Neither of them
-would suffer him to be treated so. “Oh, mayn’t I go to another room
-where there is a window?” he cried, through his tears.
-
-“My word, that one is a stubborn one; you will have your hands full with
-him,” said Mrs. Swan, leaving Nello to have his cry out, which
-experience had taught her was the best way. She found her husband very
-serious, and full of care, thinking over the charge he had received.
-
-“It’s a gentleman’s son, not one of the commoner sort,” he said; “but
-why they should have brought him to me--such a little fellow--is more
-than I can see.”
-
-Nello sat by his little bed and cried. His heart was full, and his
-little frame worn out. In the state of depression which had followed
-upon the delight of the morning, novelty had departed, and strangeness
-had come in its place--a very different matter; everything was strange
-wherever he turned: and no place to put his pigeon! By and by the vacant
-spaces would fill, and boys--boys whom he did not know--big boys, rough
-boys, and that head boy, who had the window--would pour in; and he had
-no place to put his bird.
-
-Nello’s tears fell like summer rain upon the precious basket, till the
-storm had worn itself out. Then, first symptom of amelioration, his ear
-was caught by the rustle of the bird in the cage. He took it up, then
-placed it in his lap, then opened the cover a little way, and,
-entrancing moment! saw it--the glossy head, the keen little eye gleaming
-at him, the soft, ruffled feathers. It made a small dab at him as he
-peered in--and oh, how delighted, how miserable, how frightened was
-Nello! He drew back from the tiny assault, then approached his head
-closer, and took from his pocket a bit of his bread and butter, which he
-had saved on purpose. Then he sat down on the floor, a small creature,
-scarcely visible, hidden between the beds, betraying himself only by the
-reverberation of the sobs which still shook his little bosom from time
-to time, entranced over his bird. The pigeon gurgled its soft coo, as it
-picked up the crumbs. The little boy, after his trouble, forgot
-everything but this novel delight; a thing all his own, feeding from his
-hand already, looking up at him sidelong, with that glimmer of an eye,
-with a flutter towards him if it could but have got loose. No doubt when
-he set it free it would come upon his shoulder directly. Nello lost
-himself and all his grief in pleasure. He forgot even that he had not a
-window in which to hang his bird.
-
-By and by, however, there came a rush and a tramp of feet, and eleven
-big boys, earthy and hot from the field where they had been working,
-came pouring in. They filled the room like a flood, like a whirlwind,
-catching Nello upon their surface as the stream would catch a straw. One
-of the big, hobnailed fellows stumbled over him as he sat on the floor.
-
-“Hallo, what’s here?” he cried; “what little kid are you?” seizing the
-child by the shoulders. He did not mean any harm, but grasped the little
-boy’s shoulder with the grip of a playful ploughman. Then there was a
-rush of the whole band to see what it was. The new boy! but such a
-boy--a baby--a gentleman baby--a creature of a different order.
-
-“Let’s see him,” they cried, tumbling over each other, while Nello,
-dragged to his feet, stood shrinking, confronting them, making trial of
-all the manhood he possessed. He would not cry; he drew back against his
-bed, and doubled his little fist, his heart heaving, his lip quivering.
-
-“I have done no harm,” said Nello, with a sob in his voice; and the head
-boy called out, good-humouredly enough, though the thunder of his boyish
-bass sounded to Nello like the voice of doom, to “let him be.”
-
-“What’s he got there?” he asked.
-
-The basket was snatched from the child’s hand, notwithstanding his
-resistance. Nello gave a great cry when it was taken from him.
-
-“Oh, my bird, my pigeon, my bird!--you are not to hurt my bird.”
-
-“Give it here,” said the head boy.
-
-But the first who had seized the treasure held it fast.
-
-“I’ve got it, and I’ll keep it,” he cried.
-
-“Give it here!” shouted the other.
-
-The conflict and the cloud of big forms, and the rough voices and
-snatchings, filled Nello with speechless dismay. He leaned back against
-his bed, and watched with feelings indescribable the basket which
-contained his treasure pulled and dragged about from one to another.
-First the handle gave way, then the lid was torn off, as one after
-another snatched at it. Oh, why was Nello so small and weak, and the
-others so big and strong!
-
-“Give it here!” shouted the head boy; but in the midst of the scuffle,
-something happened which frightened them all--the bird got loose,
-carefully as it had been secured, flew up over their heads, fluttered
-for a moment, driven wild by the cloud of arms stretched out to catch
-it, and then, with a sweep of its wings, darted out through the open
-window, and was seen no more.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX.
-
-A CHILD FORLORN.
-
-
-Nello sobbed himself to sleep that night, scarcely conscious of the
-hubbub that was going on around him. He had watched with a pang
-unspeakable the escape of his bird, then had rushed blindly among the
-culprits, fighting and struggling in a passion of tears and childish
-rage, raining down harmless blows all around him, struggling to get out
-after it, to try to bring it back. Then Nello had been caught, too
-desperate to know who held him, in the hands of the head boy, who paid
-no more attention to his kicks and struggles than to his cries, and held
-him until, half dead with passion and misery, the poor little fellow
-sank exhausted, almost fainting, in the rough hands of his captors. Then
-the boys, who were not cruel, laid him on his bed and summoned Mrs.
-Swan. They all crowded round her to tell their story. Nobody had meant
-any harm. They had taken his basket to look at it, and the pigeon had
-got loose. “And it was a carrier!” the head boy said regretfully. They
-were as sorry as Nello could be, though by this time, under the combined
-influences of loneliness, desolation, homesickness, weariness, and loss,
-poor little Nello was almost beyond feeling the full extent of his
-troubles. “He’s a mammy’s boy,” said Mrs. Swan, who was rough, but not
-unkind. “He has never been at school before. A spoiled child, by all I
-can see.” But why had a spoiled child been sent here? This was what the
-good woman could not understand.
-
-Nello slept and forgot his woes; and when he was awoke in the morning by
-the tumult, all the eleven jumping out of bed at once, performing their
-noisy but scanty ablutions, tossing boots about, and scrambling for
-clothes, the child lay trembling yet anxious, and half amused in spite
-of himself. The rough fun that was going on tempted Nello to laugh,
-though he was miserable. He shrank from them all, so big, so loud, so
-coarsely clothed, and in such a hurry; but he was tickled by their
-horse-play with each other--the hits and misses with which their
-missiles went and came. When the head boy was caught by a pillow
-straight in the face as he approached to execute justice upon one of the
-laggards, Nello could not restrain a little broken chuckle, which
-attracted the attention of the combatants. This, however, drew upon him
-the arrest of fate. “I say, little one, ain’t you going to get
-up?--bell’s rung!” said his next neighbour. The head boy was aggrieved
-by the poor little laugh. “Get up, you lazy little beggar!” he cried. “I
-say, let’s toss him!” cried another, with sudden perception of fun to be
-had easily. The boys meant no particular harm; but they made a
-simultaneous rush at the little trembling creature. Nello felt himself
-seized, he knew not for what purpose. Then the noise, and the rude,
-laughing faces--which looked to him in his fright like demons--all swam
-in giddy uncertainty round him, and the poor little fellow came down
-upon the floor, slipping out of their rough and careless hands, faint
-and sick and sore, his head turning, his little bones aching. But though
-in his giddiness and faintness he scarcely saw anything--even the faces
-turning into misty spectres--Nello’s spirit survived for a moment the
-collapse of his little frame. He got to his feet in a frenzy, and struck
-out at them with his white little childish fists. “I will kill you!”
-cried Nello, through his teeth; and a great horse-laugh got up. But this
-was soon extinguished in dismay and horror when the little fellow fell
-back fainting. They all gathered around, horror-stricken. “Lift him on
-his bed,” said the head boy almost in a whisper. They did not know
-anything about faints; they thought the child was dead. Then there was a
-pause. In their horror it occurred to more than one inexperienced
-imagination to hide the little body and run away. “What can they do to
-us?” said another, awe-stricken. “We didn’t mean it.” For a moment the
-boys had all that thrill of horrible sensation which ought to (but, it
-would seem, does not always) accompany homicide. At the end, however,
-humanity prevailed over villanous panic, and Mrs. Swan was called to the
-rescue. The boys were too glad to troop away, already subject to
-punishment on account of being late, and, huddling together, went down
-to the schoolroom in a band, where vengeance awaited them--though not
-for Nello’s murder, as some of them thought.
-
-Nello came to himself at last, after giving Mrs. Swan a great deal of
-trouble; and there was nothing for it but to leave him in bed all day;
-for the child was bruised with the fall, aching in every limb, and too
-resentful and wretched to make any effort. He lay and cried and brooded,
-what between childish plans of vengeance and equally childish projects
-of escape. Oh, the pangs of impotence with which the small boy wronged
-contemplated the idea of those big fellows who had been so cruel to him!
-How should weakness be aware that strength does not intend to be cruel?
-Nello could not be tolerant, or understanding, at his age, even if there
-had not been his aching bones to prove the wickedness of his assailants.
-He hated them all. How could he help hating them? He lay and planned
-what he would do to them. But Nello’s dreams were not malicious. At the
-last moment, when they had suffered torments of dread in prospect of the
-punishment which he permitted them (in his fancy) to see approaching,
-Nello’s vengeance suddenly turned into magnanimous contempt. He would
-not condescend to reprisals; he would crush them with forgiveness as
-soon as they saw his power. Such were the plans which the child lay and
-concocted, and which amused him, though he was not aware of it. But when
-the boys came in Nello shrank to the farther side of his bed; he would
-not look at them; he would not listen to the rough inquiries. When they
-went away again, however, and he was left alone, a sudden fit of longing
-came over him. Oh, to see somebody he knew!--somebody that was kind!
-Schemes of vengeance pall, like every other amusement. He gazed round
-upon the bare walls, the range of beds, the strange, ugly, desolate
-place. He could not tell if it was worse when the savages were there,
-filling it with noise, stumblings of heavy feet, cries of rough voices,
-or when the sounds all died away, and he was left lonely, not a soul to
-speak to him; no kind hand to touch his hot little head; nobody to give
-him a drink, though he wanted it so much. Nello had to clamber out of
-bed, to pour himself out a cup of water from the great brown jug, which
-he could scarcely lift--and fell upon his bed again, utterly heartsick
-and desolate. Nobody to give him a drink! How they used to pet him when
-he had a headache! How Martuccia would croon over him, and bathe his
-head, and kiss his hands, and bring him everything she could think of
-to please him! And Mary would come and stand by his side, and put her
-cool, white hand upon his head--that hand which he had once called “as
-soft as snow.” Nello remembered the smile that came on Mary’s face when
-he had called her hand “as soft as snow.” He did not himself see the
-poetry of the phrase, but he thought he could feel again that mingled
-coolness, and softness, and whiteness. And Lily! Lily would sit by him
-all day long, and read to him, or sing to him, or tell him stories, or
-play when he got a little better and could play. A great lump came in
-Nello’s throat. “Oh, my Lily!” he cried, with a lamentable cry. He had
-no mother to appeal to, poor child--not even the imagination of a
-mother. Lily had been everything. Nothing had ever been so bad with him
-but could be borne when Lily was there. Naturally he had not so much
-felt the want of Lily when it was pleasure (as he thought) that he was
-going to. He could part with her without much emotion in the excitement
-of novelty and childish hope; but now----. Nello turned his face to the
-wall and sobbed. The lonely place--all the lonelier for bearing traces
-of that rude multitude--held him, a little atom, in its midst. Nobody
-heard his crying, or cared. He tore the bedclothes with his little
-frantic hands, with that sense of the intolerable which comes so easily
-to a child. But what did it matter that it was intolerable? Little
-Nello, like older people, had to bear it all the same.
-
-It was best to leave the child quiet, the Swans thought. They were not
-unkind, but they were not used to take much trouble. The boys who came
-to them generally were robust boys, able to take care of themselves, and
-to whom it did no harm to be hustled about--who enjoyed the scrimmages
-and struggles. Mrs. Swan had her own children to look after. “I’ve left
-him to himself; he’s better to be quite quiet,” she said to her husband,
-and the husband approved; “far better for him to be quiet.” Attempts to
-amuse a child, in such circumstances, would have been foolish, they
-thought, and as for petting and sympathising with him, far better that
-he should get accustomed to it, and make up his mind to put up with it
-like the rest. They could not make any difference between one and
-another; and if he had a day’s rest, and was allowed to lie in bed,
-what could the child want more? There was no imagination in the house
-lively enough to _envisager_ the circumstances from Nello’s point of
-view, or to understand what chills of terror, what flushes of passion,
-came over the child, when the others poured in to bed again in the
-evening, driving him desperate with fear and wild with anger. Who could
-imagine anything so vehement in the mind of such a little boy? But Nello
-was not molested that next evening; they were disposed rather to be
-obsequious to him, asking, in their rough way, how he was, and offering
-him half-eaten apples and bits of sticky sweetmeats, by way of
-compensation. But Nello would not listen to these clumsy overtures. He
-turned his face to the wall persistently, and would have nothing to say
-to them. Even the tumult that was going on did not tempt him to turn
-round, though, after the first moment of fright, the crowd in the room
-was rather comforting than otherwise to Nello. The sound of their voices
-kept him from that melancholy absorption in himself.
-
-Next morning he had to get up, though he was still sick and sore. Nello
-was so obstinate in his refusal to do so, that the master himself had to
-be summoned. Mr. Swan would stand no nonsense.
-
-“Get up, my boy,” he said, “you’ll get no good lying there. There has
-nothing happened to you more than happens to new boys everywhere. Come,
-you’re not a baby to cry. Get up, and be a man.”
-
-“I want to go home,” said Nello.
-
-“I daresay you do; but you’re not going home. So your plan is to make
-the best of it,” said the schoolmaster. “Now come, I let you off
-yesterday; but I’ll send a man to take you out of bed if you don’t get
-up now. Come along, boy. I see you want to be a baby, as your uncle
-said.”
-
-“I am no baby,” cried Nello, furious; but the schoolmaster only laughed.
-
-“I give you half-an-hour,” he said; and in half-an-hour, indeed, Nello,
-giddy and weak, managed to struggle down to the schoolroom. His watch
-was no longer going. He had forgotten it in the misery of the past day;
-it lay there dead, as Nello felt--and his bird was flown. He stumbled
-downstairs, feeling as if he must fall at each step, and took his seat
-on the lowest bench. The lessons were not much, but Nello was not equal
-to them. The big figures about seemed to darken the very air to the
-boy--to darken it, and fill it up. He had no room to breathe. His hand
-shook, so that he could not write a copy, which seemed a simple matter
-enough. “Put him at the very bottom; he knows nothing,” Mr. Swan said to
-his assistant; and how this galled the poor little gentleman, to whom,
-in his feebleness, this was the only way left of proving a little
-superiority, what words could say? Poor little Nello! he cried over the
-copy, mingling his tears with the ink, and blurring the blurred page
-still more. He could not get the figures right in the simplest of sums.
-He was self-convicted of being not only the least, but the very last,
-the dunce of the school. When the others went out to play, he sat
-wretched in a corner of the wretched schoolroom, where there was no air
-to breathe. He had not energy enough to do anything or think of
-anything; and it was only the sight of another boy, seated at a desk
-writing a letter, which put it into his head that he too might find a
-way of appeal against this cruelty. He could not write anything but the
-largest of large hands. But he tore a leaf out of the copybook, and
-scrawled a few lines across it. “I am verrey meeserble,” he wrote; “Oh,
-Lily, ask Mary to kome and take me home.”
-
-“Will you put it into a cover for me?” he said to the boy who was
-writing, who proved to be the very head boy who reigned over Nello’s
-room. “Oh, please, put it into a cover. I’ll forgive you if you will,”
-cried Nello.
-
-The head boy looked at him with a grin.
-
-“You little toad, don’t you forgive me without that? I never meant to
-hurt you,” he said: but melting, he added, “give it here.” Nello’s
-epistle, written across the lined paper, in big letters, did not seem to
-require any ceremony as a private communication. The head boy read it
-and laughed. “They won’t pay any attention,” he said; “they never do.
-Little boys are always miserable. And won’t you catch it from Swan if he
-sees it!”
-
-“It is for my sister Lily; it is not for Mr. Swan,” cried the child,
-upon which the head boy laughed again.
-
-That letter never reached Penninghame. The schoolmaster read it
-according to his orders, and put it into the fire. He wrote himself to
-the address which Nello had given, to say that the little gentleman was
-rather homesick, but pretty well; and that perhaps it would be better,
-in the circumstances, not to write to him till he had got a little
-settled down, and used to his new home. He hoped his little pupil would
-soon be able to write a decent letter; but he feared his education had
-been very much neglected hitherto, Mr. Swan wrote. Thus it came to pass
-that Nello lived on, day after day, eagerly expecting some event which
-never happened. He expected, first of all, Mary to arrive in a beautiful
-chariot, such as was wont to appear in Lily’s stories, with beautiful
-prancing horses--(where they were to come from, Nello never asked
-himself, though he was intimately acquainted with the two brown ponies
-and the cob, which were all the inhabitants of the Squire’s stables),
-and with an aspect splendid, but severe, to proceed to the punishment of
-his adversaries. Nello did not settle what deaths they were to die; but
-all was arranged except that insignificant circumstance. Mary would
-come; she would punish all who had done wrong; she would give presents
-to those who had been kind; and all the boys who had laughed at little
-Nello would see him drive away glorious behind those horses, with their
-arching necks, and high-stepping, dainty feet. Then after a few days,
-which produced nothing, Nello settled, with a pang of visionary
-disappointment, that it was Mr. Pen who could come. He would not make a
-splendid dash up to the door like Mary in her chariot; but still he
-would deliver the little captive. Another day, and Nello, coming down
-and down in his demands, thought it might at least be Martuccia, or
-perhaps Miss Brown, who would come for him. That would not be so
-satisfactory to his pride, for he felt that the boys would laugh and
-jeer at him, and say it was his nurse who had come; but still even Miss
-Brown would be good to see in this strange place. At the end of the
-week, however, all Nello’s courage fled. He thought then faintly of a
-letter, and watched when the postman came with packets of letters for
-the other boys. He could not read writing very well; but he could make
-it out if they would only write to him. Why would not they write to him?
-Had they forgotten him altogether, clean forgotten him, though he had
-been but a week away?
-
-Nello did what he was told to do at school: but he was very slow about
-it, being so little, and so unused to work--for which he was punished;
-and he could not learn his lessons for brooding over his troubles, and
-wondering when _they_ would come, or what they could mean; and naturally
-he was punished for that too. The big boys hustled him about; they
-played him a hundred tricks: they laughed at his timid, baby-washings,
-his carefulness, the good order to which he had been trained. To toss
-everything about, to do everything loudly, and noisily, and carelessly,
-was the religion of Mr. Swan’s boys, as everything that was the reverse
-of this had been the religion in which Nello was trained. Poor little
-boy, his life was as full of care as if he had been fifty. He was sent
-here and there on a hundred errands; he had impositions which he could
-not write, and lessons which he could not learn; and not least, perhaps,
-meals which he could not eat; and out-of-door tasks quite unsuitable for
-him, and which he could not perform. He was for ever toiling after
-something he ought to have done. He grew dirty, neglected, unkempt,
-miserable. He could not clean his own boots, which was one thing
-required of him; but plastered him self all over with mysterious
-blacking, in a vain attempt to fulfil this task, he who had scarcely
-dressed himself till now, scarcely brushed his own hair. He kept up a
-struggle against all these labours, which were more cruel than those of
-Hercules, as long as he had the hope within him that somebody must come
-to deliver him; for, with a childish jump at what he wished, he had
-believed that some one might come “to-morrow,” when he sent, or thought
-he sent, his letter away. The to-morrow pushed itself on and on, hope
-getting fainter, and misery stronger, yet still seemed to gleam upon
-him, a possibility still. “Oh, pray God send Mary,” he said, every night
-and morning. When a week was over, he added a more urgent cry, “Oh, pray
-God send _some one_, only some one! Oh, pray God take me home!” the
-child cried. He repeated it one night aloud, in the exhaustion of his
-disappointment, with an irrepressible moaning and crying: “Oh, pray God
-take me home!” He was very tired, poor little boy; he was half wrapped
-in his little bit of curtain, to hide him as he said his prayers, and he
-had fallen half asleep while he said them, and was struggling with
-drowsiness, and duty, and a hope which though now falling more and more
-into despondency, still gave pertinacity to his prayer. He was anxious,
-very anxious to press this petition on God’s notice. Repetition; is not
-that the simplest primitive necessity of earnest supplication? Perhaps
-God might not take any notice the first time, but He might the next.
-“Oh, take me home. Oh, pray God take me home!” God too, like Mary and
-the rest, seemed to pay no attention; but God did not require written
-letters or directions in a legible hand: He could be approached more
-easily. So Nello repeated and repeated, half-asleep, yet with his little
-heart full of trouble, and all his cares awake, this appeal to the only
-One who could help him, “Oh, pray God, pray God, take me home!”
-
-But in this trance of beseeching supplication, half asleep, half
-conscious, poor little Nello caught the eye of one of his room-fellows,
-who pointed out the spectacle to the rest. “Little beggar! pretending to
-say his prayers; and much he cares for his prayers, going to sleep in
-the middle of them,” they said. Then one wag suggested, “Let’s wake him
-up!” It was a very funny idea. They got his water-jug, a small enough
-article indeed, not capable of doing very much harm. Had poor little
-Nello been less sleepy in his half-dream of pathetic appeal, he must
-have heard the titterings and whisperings behind him; but he was too
-much wrapt in that drowsy, painful abstraction, to take any notice, till
-all at once he started bolt upright, crying and gasping, woke up and
-drenched by the sudden dash of cold water over him. A shout of laughter
-burst from all the room, as Nello turned round frantic, and flew at the
-nearest of his assailants with impotent rage. What did the big fellow
-care for his little blows? he lay back and laughed and did not mind,
-while the small creature in his drenched nightgown, his face crimson
-with rage, his little frame shivering, his curly locks falling about his
-cheeks, flew at his throat. The head boy, however, awakening to a sense
-of the indiscretion, and perhaps touched by a pang of remorse at sight
-of the misery and fury in the child’s face, got hold of Nello in his
-strong arms, and plucked the wet garment off him, and threw him into his
-bed. “Let the child alone, I tell you. I won’t have him meddled with,”
-he said to the others--and covered him up with the bedclothes. Poor
-little Nello! he wanted to strike at and struggle with his defender. He
-was wild with rage and misery. His small heart was full, and he could
-bear no more.
-
-After this, however, the boys, half ashamed of themselves, got quickly
-to bed; and darkness, and such silence as can exist in the heavy
-atmosphere where twelve rustics sleep and snore, succeeded to the tumult
-and riot. Nello, exhausted, sobbed himself to sleep under the
-bedclothes; but woke up in the middle of the night to remember all his
-wrongs and his misery. His cup was full; even God would not pay any
-attention to him, and it seemed to Nello that it would be better to die
-than to bear this any longer. Though the dark frightened him, it was
-less alarming than the rough boys, the hard lessons, the pangs of
-longing and waiting for a deliverance which never came. He had still the
-sovereign which Mary gave him, and the watch he had been so proud of,
-though that was dead now, and he had not spirit enough left to wind it
-up. It was October, and the nights were long. Though it was but in
-reality between two and three o’clock in the morning, Nello thought it
-would soon be time for all these savage companions to get out of bed
-again, and for the noisy dreadful day to begin. He got up very quietly,
-trembling at every sound. There was a window at the end of the room
-through which the moon shone, and the light gave him a little
-consolation. He kept his eye fixed upon it, and groped for his clothes,
-and put them on very stealthily. If any one should hear him, he would be
-lost; but Nello’s little rustlings, like a bird in the dark, what were
-they to break the slumbers of all those outdoor lads, who slept
-violently, as they did everything else! No one stirred; the snoring and
-the breathing drowned all the little misadventures which chilled Nello
-with terror, as when his boots dropt out of his hand, or the buttons on
-his trousers struck shrilly against the chair. Nothing happened; nobody
-stirred, and Nello crept out of the room, holding his breath with the
-courage of despair. He got downstairs, trembling and stumbling at almost
-every step. When he got to the lower story, that kind moon, which had
-seemed to look at him through the window, almost to smile at him in
-encouragement and cheerful support, showed him a little window which had
-been left open by some chance. He clambered through and found himself in
-the garden. There was a great dog in front of the house, of which Nello
-was in mortal terror; but here at the back there was no dog, only the
-kitchen garden, with the tranquil breadth of a potato-field on the other
-side of the hedge. It was not easy to get through that hedge; but a
-small boy not quite nine years old can go through gaps which would
-scarcely show to the common eye. It scratched him and tore his trousers;
-but there was nothing in such simple accidents to stop the little
-fugitive. And what it was to feel himself outside, free and safe, and
-all his tormentors snoring! Nello looked up at the moon, which was
-mellow and mild, not white as usual, and which seemed to smile at him.
-The potato-field was big and black, with its long lines running to a
-point on either side of him; and the whole world seemed to lie round him
-dark and still; nothing stirred, except now and then a rat in the ditch,
-which chilled Nello with horror. Had he known it was so early, the child
-would have been doubly frightened; but he felt that it was morning, not
-night, which encouraged him. And how big the world was! how vast, and
-silent, and solitary! only Nello, one little atom, with a small heart
-beating, a little pulse throbbing in the midst of that infinite quiet.
-The space grew vaster, the stillness more complete, the distance more
-visionary, and there was a deeper sable in the dark, because of Nello’s
-little heart beating so fast, and his eyes that took everything in. What
-was he to do, poor little soul, there by himself in the open country, in
-the unknown world all in the middle of the night!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI.
-
-A CRISIS AT PENNINGHAME.
-
-
-All this time the old Squire lay in the same stupor of death in life. He
-did not rally. Sometimes there was a look in his eyes--a quiver as of
-meaning, between the half-closed lids. But they could not tell what it
-meant, or indeed if it was anything but vague reflection of the light
-that would break in through a drawn curtain or raised blind. There he
-lay, day after day, wearing out all his nurses. If he ever slept, or
-ever was awake, no one could tell; but this old man, in the grip of
-deadly disease, lay there motionless, and tired out all the younger
-people who watched over him. A nurse had been got for him from the
-nearest town, and Mary was rarely out of the sick-chamber. Both of these
-attendants were worn to death as the monotonous days and nights went
-past; but the Squire lay just the same. They grew pale and hollow-eyed,
-but he apparently had stopped short at the point where he was when their
-vigil began.
-
-In these circumstances all the world flocked to Penninghame to inquire
-for Mr. Musgrave. Rural importance shows in such circumstances. He was
-“by rights” the greatest man in the district, though superior wealth had
-come in and taken his pre-eminence from him--but everybody recollected
-his pretensions now. Inquiries came for him daily from every one near
-who could pretend to be anything. The great great people, and the small
-great people, the new families and the old, the clergy (who were as good
-as anybody), and all who sought for a place among the gentry, with
-whatever hope or right, all interested themselves about the invalid.
-“His eldest son is still living, I believe. And what will happen when
-Mr. Musgrave dies?” the people asked. And all who had any possibility of
-knowing, all who had any right to know, exerted themselves to supply
-answers to this question. One had it on the best authority, that John
-Musgrave was waiting, ready to come home, and that there would be
-another trial immediately. Some, on the other hand, were certain that
-John Musgrave never would come home at all to tempt Providence. “There
-will be an effort made to pass him over, and make his little son heir
-instead,” they said; and some believed it to be certain that the other
-brother would pension him off, so that the house might not be shamed by
-a convict squire.
-
-Naturally, Mary knew nothing about these discussions. She spent her time
-in her father’s room, relieving the nurse when her hours for sleep came,
-resting herself only when she could no longer bear up against the
-fatigue, seeing nobody but Mr. Pen and Lilias. Mary took little notice
-now of Nello’s departure, and the schoolmaster’s letter. It had all been
-done against her will, but she was too much occupied, now that it was
-done, to dwell upon it. It was very shameful that he was so backward,
-and perhaps Mr. Pen and Randolph were right in sending him to school.
-Her mind was too much pre-occupied for the moment to give anything but
-this half-angry, reluctant assent to what had been done. And perhaps it
-would be better _now_ if Lilias could go to school too, out of this
-melancholy house, out of the loneliness which was so hard upon the
-child. But Lilias was the only consolation Mary herself had; she had
-grown to be part of herself during this long year. It might be doing the
-child injustice, as she feared; but how could she send her only
-companion, her consoler and sympathiser, away? As for Lilias, though she
-was deeply moved by Nello’s departure, the want of news of him did not
-move her much. Her father never wrote, never communicated with the
-child. They had not the custom of letters. It was very dreary, no doubt,
-but still when he came back unexpectedly, perhaps just at the moment he
-was most wanted, stepping in, with all the delight of surprise added to
-the pleasure of again seeing the absent, that was worth waiting for.
-This was the philosophy of the family. It was not their habit to write
-letters. Lilias accepted her own loneliness with resignation, not
-thinking of any possible alleviation; and she watched, sitting at the
-door of the old hall, for every one who might come along the road. It
-was October--the days getting short, the air more chilly, the sun less
-genial. The woods began to put on robes of colour, as if the rosy sunset
-clouds had floated down among them. The air blew cold in her face, as
-she sat outside the hall door. Martuccia within, in the background,
-shivered, and drew her shawl more closely across her ample shoulders.
-But Lilias did not feel the cold. She was looking out for some one--for
-papa, who might come all at once, at any time--for Mr. Geoff, who might
-bring news of papa--for something to come and break the monotony of this
-life. Something Lilias felt sure must be coming; it could not go on like
-this for ever.
-
-“Nello was always company for his sister,” Mary said. Though she
-assented, she could not but complain. She had come out to breathe the
-air, and was walking up and down, Mr. Pen by her side. “It is very hard
-upon Lily, just at this moment, when everything is hanging in the
-balance, that her little brother should have been sent away.”
-
-“It would be very well,” said Mr. Pen, “if you would send her away too.
-Nello wanted it. He would never have learned anything at home. He will
-come back so much improved. If he is to be received as the heir of
-everything----”
-
-“If, Mr. Pen?”
-
-“Well; I would not go against you for the world; but there is truth in
-what Randolph says. Randolph says there must be certificates of his
-birth, and all that; quite easy--quite easy to get--but where is your
-brother John to look after it all? He ought to be here now.”
-
-“Yes, he ought to be here. But would it be safe for him to come, Mr.
-Pen?”
-
-“Miss Mary, I can’t help wondering about that,” said Mr. Pen, with
-troubled looks--had he grown unfaithful to John?--“if he is innocent,
-why shouldn’t he come _now_? No jury would convict----”
-
-Mary stopped him with a motion of her hand. “Randolph has been gaining
-you over to his side,” she said. They were walking up and down the road
-close to the house. Just where the great gates ought to be--if the
-Musgraves were ever rich enough to restore the courtyard of the old
-Castle--was the limit of their walk. Mary could not allow herself to be
-out of reach even for an hour. She was here, ready to be called, in case
-her father should come to any semblance of himself. “I do not say he has
-not some reason on his side, now that my father is--as he is.
-Everything seems to have grown so much nearer. It is dreadful not to
-know where John is, not to be able to communicate with him. I wrote to
-the last place where they were living--the place the children came
-from--but I have never had any answer. When my poor father goes--as go
-he must, I suppose--what am I to do?”
-
-“You must let Randolph manage for you. Randolph must do it. God knows,
-Miss Mary, I don’t want to go against you----”
-
-“But you do,” she said with a half-smile. She smiled at it, but she did
-not like it. It is hard, even when a dog who has been your special
-follower turns away and follows some one else.
-
-“You never did it before since we have known each other, Mr. Pen.”
-
-Poor Mr. Pen felt the reproach. He was ready to weep himself, and looked
-at her with wistful, deprecating eyes; but was it not for her sake?
-
-“I don’t know what else to say to you. It breaks my heart to go against
-you,” he said. “Whatever pleases you seems always best to me. But
-Randolph says--and I cannot deny it, Miss Mary, there’s truth in what he
-says.”
-
-“Yes, there’s truth in what he says. He has got the child away, and
-placed him out of reach, with your help, Mr. Pen; and he will push the
-father away, out of his just place, and make all the difficulties
-double. He has put you against him already that was his friend, and he
-will put other people against him. I begin to see what he is aiming at;”
-cried Mary, clasping her hands together, with indignant vehemence.
-
-Mr. Pen did not know what to say or do to soothe her. He was full of
-compunction, feeling himself guilty. He to have turned against her! He
-felt all the horror of it to his very heart.
-
-“We should be just to Randolph too,” he said, tremulously; “he means to
-do what is right. And if I seem to cross you, ’tis but to serve you,
-Miss Mary. How could you stand in the breach, and bear all that will
-have to be borne? If Randolph does not come to do what has to be done,
-you would have to do it; and it would be more than should be put upon
-you.”
-
-“Have I ever shrunk from what has to be done?” she said, with again a
-half-smile of pained surprise.
-
-Mr. Pen had no answer to make; he knew very well she had not failed
-hitherto; and in his heart he was aware that Randolph’s motives were
-very different from Mary’s. Still, he held with a gentle obstinacy to
-the lesson he had learned. It was going against her, but it was for her
-sake. They took one or two turns together in silence, neither saying any
-more. As they turned again, however, towards the house for the third
-time, Eastwood met them, hurrying from the door. Nurse had sent
-downstairs for Miss Musgrave, begging her to come without delay. The
-urgent message, and the man’s haste and anxious, eager looks, frightened
-Mary. The household generally had come to that state of expectation
-which welcomes any event, howsoever melancholy, as a relief to the
-strain of nerve and strength which long suspense produces. Eastwood was
-eager that there might be some change--if for the better, so much the
-better--but that was scarcely to be looked for--anyhow a change, a new
-event. The same thrill of anticipation ran through Mary’s veins. Was it
-come now--the moment of fate, the crisis which would affect so many? She
-bade Mr. Pen to follow her, with a movement of her hand. “Wait in the
-library,” she said, as she went upstairs.
-
-While Mary took the air in this anxious little promenade up and down,
-Lilias sat at the hall door, looking out upon the road, looking far away
-for the something that was coming. She did not know that the rider on
-the pale horse was the most likely passenger to come that way. Happier
-visitors were in Lilias’ thoughts--her father himself to clear up
-everything, who would go and fetch Nello back, and put all right that
-was wrong; or Mr. Geoff, who was not so good, but yet very comforting,
-and between whom and Lilias there existed a link of secret alliance,
-unknown to anybody, which was sweet to the child. Lilias was looking out
-far upon the road, vaguely thinking of Geoff, for he was the most likely
-person to come--he who rode along the road so often to ask for the
-Squire: far more likely than her father, who was a hope rather than an
-expectation. She was looking far away, as is the wont of the dreamer,
-pursuing her hope to the very horizon whence it might come--when
-suddenly, all at once, Lilias woke to the consciousness that there was
-some one standing near her, close to her, saying nothing, but looking at
-her with that intent look which wakes even a sleeper when fixed upon
-him, much more a dreamer, linked to common earth by the daylight, and
-all the sounds and touches of ordinary life. She rose to her feet with a
-start--frightened yet satisfied--for here was something which had
-happened, if not the something for which she looked. But Lilias’ eyes
-enlarged to twice their size, and her heart gave a great jump, when she
-saw that the figure standing beside her was that of the old woman whom
-she had met in the Chase.
-
-’Lizabeth had come up unobserved from the water-side. She was dressed
-exactly as she had been when Lilias saw her before, with the hood of her
-grey cloak over her white cap--a stately figure, notwithstanding the
-homely dress.
-
-Lilias gave a cry at the sight, and ran to her. “Oh, old woman!” she
-cried--“oh, I want to ask you--I want to ask you so many things.”
-
-“Honeysweet!” said ’Lizabeth, with a glow in her dark eyes. She did not
-for the moment think either of what she had come to say, or of the risk
-that attended her communications with her daughter’s child. She thought
-only of the face she saw reflected in that other face, and of the secret
-property she had in the child who was so beautiful and so sweet. This
-was ’Lizabeth’s heiress, the inheritor of the beauty which the old woman
-had been conscious of in her own person, and still more conscious of in
-the person of her daughter. Lilias was the third in that fair line.
-Pride filled the old woman’s heart, along with the warm gush of
-tenderness. No one had ever looked at Lilias with such passionate love
-and admiration. She did not venture to take the child into her arms as
-she had done in the solitude of the woods, but she looked at her with
-all her heart in her eyes.
-
-Lilias seized her by the hand and drew her to the seat from which she
-had herself risen. “Come!” she said eagerly. “They say you know
-everything about papa--and I have a right to know; no one has so good a
-right to hear as I. Oh, tell me! tell me! Sit down here and rest. I once
-went up the hill, far away up the hill, to go to you, but there I met
-Mr. Geoff. Do you know Mr. Geoff? Come, come, sit down here and tell me
-about papa----”
-
-“My darling,” said. ’Lizabeth, “blessings on your bonnie face! but I
-dare not stay. Some time--soon, if it’s God’s will, you’ll hear all the
-like of you could understand, and you’ll get him back to enjoy his own.
-God bless my bairn that would give me her own seat, and think no shame
-of old ’Lizabeth! That’s like my Lily,” the old woman said, with ready
-tears. “But listen, honey, for this is what I came to say. You must tell
-the lady to send and bring back the little boy. The bairn is in trouble.
-I cannot tell you what kind of trouble, but she must send and bring him
-back. My honey, do you hear what I say?”
-
-“The little boy, and the lady?” said Lilias, wondering; then she
-exclaimed suddenly with a cry of pain, “Nello! my little brother!” and
-in her eagerness caught ’Lizabeth’s hands and drew her down upon the
-seat.
-
-“Ay, just your little brother, my honeysweet. My lad is away that would
-go and look after him, so you must tell the lady. No, no, I must not
-stay. The time will maybe come. But tell the lady, my darling. The
-little boy has need of her, or of you. He is too little a bairn to be
-away among strangers. I cannot think upon his name--nor I cannot think,”
-said ’Lizabeth, with a gleam of grandmotherly disapproval, “what my Lily
-could be thinking of to give a little lad such an outlandish name. But
-tell the lady to send and bring him home.”
-
-“Oh, I will go, I will go directly. Wait till I tell you what Mary
-says,” cried Lilias; and without pausing a moment, she rushed through
-the hall, her hair flying behind her, her face flushed with eagerness.
-The old woman stood for a moment looking after her with a smile;
-listening to the sound of the doors which swung behind the child in her
-rapid course through the passages which led to the inhabited part of the
-house. ’Lizabeth stood stately yet rustic in her grey cloak, with her
-hands folded, and looked after Lilias with a tender smile on her face.
-She had nothing left to be proud of, she so proud by nature, and to whom
-it was the essence of life to have something belonging to her in which
-she could glory. ’Lizabeth’s pride had been broken down with many a
-blow, but it sprang up again vigorous as ever on the small argument of
-this child. Her beauty, her childish refinement and ladyhood, gave the
-old woman a pleasure more exquisite perhaps than any she had ever felt
-in her life. There was little in her lot now to give her pleasure. Her
-daughter was dead, her days full of the hideous charge which she had
-concealed for so many years from all the world; and she was old,
-approaching the end of all things, with nothing better to hope for than
-that death might release her unfortunate son before herself. At this
-moment even a worse terror and misery was upon her; yet as she stood
-there, looking after the little princess who was of her blood, her
-representative, yet so much above anything that had ever belonged to
-’Lizabeth, there was a glow through all her veins, more warm, more sweet
-than any she had ever felt in her life. Pride, and love, and delight
-swelled in her. Her child’s child--heir of her face, her voice, all the
-little traits of attitude and gesture, which mark individuality--and yet
-the young lady of the Castle, born to a life so different from hers. She
-stood so, gazing after Lilias till the sound of her feet and the door,
-closing behind her, had died away. Her heart was so full that she turned
-to Martuccia sitting motionless behind with her knitting. “Oh, that her
-life may be as sweet as her face!” she said involuntarily. Martuccia
-turned upon her with a smile, but shook her head and said, “Not speak
-Inglese.” The sound of the voice called ’Lizabeth to herself. The smile
-faded from her face. Little had she to smile for, less than ever at this
-moment. She sighed, coming to herself, and turned and walked away.
-
-Lilias ran against Mary as she entered the house at Eastwood’s call.
-“Oh!” she cried, breathless, “Nello! will you send for Nello? Oh, Mary,
-he is in trouble, the old woman says--he is ill, or he is unhappy, or I
-cannot tell you what it is. Will you send for him, will you send for
-him, Mary? What shall I do? for papa will think it was my fault. Oh,
-Mary, Mary, send for my Nello! Wait a moment, only wait a moment, and
-hear what the old woman says----”
-
-“Speak to her, Mr. Pen,” said Mary; “I cannot stay.” She was going to
-her father, who must, she felt sure, want her more urgently than Lilias
-could. Even then it went to Mary’s heart to neglect the child’s appeal.
-“Mr. Pen will hear all about it, Lilias,” she said, as she hastened
-upstairs. But Mr. Pen paid very little attention to what Lilias said.
-
-“An old woman! What old woman? My dear child, you cannot expect us at
-such a moment as this--” said the Vicar. He was walking up and down the
-library with his ears open to every sound, expecting to be called to the
-Squire’s bedside, feeling in his pocket for his prayer-book. For it
-seemed to Mr. Pen that the hasty summons could mean only one thing. It
-must be death that had come--and it would be a happy release--what else
-could any one say? But death, even when it is a happy release, is a
-serious visitor to come into a house. He has to be received with due
-preparation, like the potentate he is. Not without services of solemn
-meaning, attendants kneeling round the solemn bedside, the commendatory
-prayer rising from authorised lips--not without these formulas should
-the destroying angel be received into a Christian house. He was ready
-for his part, and waiting to be called; and to be interrupted at such a
-moment by tales of an old woman, by the grumblings of a fretful child
-sent to school against his will--even the gentle Mr. Pen rebelled. He
-would not hear what Lilias said. “Your grandfather is very ill, my
-dear,” he told her solemnly, “very ill. In an hour or so you may have no
-grandfather, Lilias; he is going to appear in the presence of God----”
-
-“Is he afraid of God, Mr. Pen?” asked Lilias with solemn eyes.
-
-“Afraid!--you--you do not understand. It is a solemn thing--a very
-solemn thing,” said the Vicar, “to go into God’s presence! to stand
-before Him and answer----”
-
-“Oh!” cried the little girl, interrupting him, “Nello is far worse, far
-worse. Would God do him any harm, Mr. Pen? But cruel people might do a
-little boy a great deal of harm. God is what takes care of us. The old
-gentleman will be safe, quite safe there; but my Nello! he is so little,
-and he never was away from me before. _I_ always took care of him
-before. I said you were not to send him away, but you would not pay any
-attention. Oh, my Nello, my Nello, Mr. Pen!”
-
-“Hush, Lilias, you do not know what you are speaking of. What can
-Nello’s troubles be? Perhaps the people will not pet him as he has been
-petted; that will do him no harm whatever--it will be better for him. My
-dear, you are too little to know. Hush, and let me listen. I must be
-ready when I am called for. Nothing that can happen to Nello can be of
-so much importance as this is now.”
-
-And the Vicar went to the door to look out and listen. Lilias followed
-him with her anxious eyes. She was awed, but she was not afraid for the
-old gentleman. Would God hurt him? but anybody that was strong could
-hurt Nello. She made one more appeal when the Vicar had returned,
-hearing nothing and leaving the door ajar.
-
-“Mr. Pen! oh, please, please, think of Nello a little! What am I to do?
-Papa said, ‘Lily, I trust him to you--you are to take care of him.’ What
-shall I say to papa if he comes home and asks me, ‘Where is my little
-Nello?’ Papa may come any day. That is his way, he never writes to tell
-us, but when he can, he comes. He might come to-day,” cried Lilias. “Mr.
-Pen, oh, send somebody for Nello. Will you not listen to me? What should
-I say to papa if he came home to-day?”
-
-“My dear little Lilias,” said Mr. Pen, shaking his head mournfully,
-“your papa will not come to-day. Heaven knows if he will ever be able to
-come. You must not think it is such an easy matter. There are things
-which make it very difficult for him to come home; things of which you
-don’t know----”
-
-“Yes,” said Lilias eagerly, “about the man who was killed; but papa did
-not do it, Mr. Pen.”
-
-Mr. Pen shook his head again. “Who has told the child?” he said. “I hope
-not--I hope not, Lilias; but that is what nobody knows.”
-
-“Yes,” she cried, “Mr. Geoff knows; he told me. He says it was another
-man, and that papa went away to save him. Mr. Pen, papa may come any
-day.”
-
-“Who is Mr. Geoff?” said the Vicar; but he did not pay any attention to
-what the child was saying. There seemed to be a sound on the stairs of
-some one coming down. “Oh, run away, my dear! run away! Run and play,
-or do whatever you like. I have not time to attend to you now.”
-
-Lilias did not say a word more, or even look at him again, but walked
-away with a stately tread, not condescending even to turn her head
-towards him. In this solemn way she went back to the hall, expecting to
-find ’Lizabeth; but when she found that even the old woman was gone, in
-whom she put a certain trust as the one person who knew everything,
-Lilias had a moment of black despair. What was she to do? She stood and
-gazed out into vacancy--her eyes intent, her mind passionately at work.
-It was to her after all, and not to Mary, that Nello had been intrusted,
-and if nobody would think of him, or attend to him, it was she who must
-interfere for her brother. She stood for a minute or two fixed--then
-turned hastily, paying no attention to Martuccia, and went to her room.
-Lilias, too, had a sovereign, which Mary had given her, and something
-more besides. She took her money out of its repository, and put on her
-hat and jacket. A great resolution was in her face. She had seen at last
-what was the only thing to do.
-
-“I think, ma’am, there is a change,” the nurse said, as Mary noiselessly
-but swiftly, as long nursing teaches women to move, came into the room.
-The nurse was an experienced person. When Miss Brown, and even Mary
-herself, had seen “a change,” or fancied they had seen it, before, nurse
-had never said so. It was the first time she had called any one to the
-Squire’s room, or made the slightest movement of alarm. She led the way
-now to the bedside. The patient was lying in much the same attitude as
-before, but he was moving his hands restlessly, his lips were moving,
-and his head on the pillow. “He is saying something, but I cannot make
-out what it is,” the nurse said. Mary put her ear close to the
-inarticulate mouth. How dreadful was that living prison of
-flesh!--living, yet dead--the spirit pent up and denied all its usual
-modes of utterance. Mary wrung her hands with a sense of the intolerable
-as she tried in vain to distinguish the words, which seemed to be
-repeated over and over again, though they could make nothing of them.
-“Cannot you help us?--can you make it out? Is there nothing we can do?”
-she cried; “no cordial to give him strength?” but the nurse could only
-shake her head, and the doctor when he came was equally helpless. He
-told Mary it was a sign of returning consciousness--which, indeed, was
-evident enough--but could not even say whether this promised for or
-against recovery. The nurse, it was clear, did not think it a good sign.
-He might even recover his speech _at the end_, she said. And hours
-passed while they waited, watching closely lest any faint beginning of
-sound should struggle through. The whole night was passed in this way.
-Mary never left the bedside. It was not that he could say anything of
-great importance to any one but himself. The Squire was helpless as
-respected his estate. It was entailed, and went to his eldest son,
-whether he liked it or not; and his will was made long ago, and all his
-affairs settled. What he had to say could not much affect any one; but
-of all pitiful sights, it seemed to his daughter the most pitiful, to
-see this old man, always so entirely master of himself, trying to make
-some communication which all their anxiety could not decipher. Could he
-be himself aware of how it was that no response was made to him?--could
-he realise the horror of the position?--something urgent to say, and no
-way of getting to the ears of those concerned, notwithstanding their
-most anxious attention? “No, no,” the nurse said; “he’s all in a maze;
-he maybe don’t even know what he’s saying;” and the constant movement
-and evident repetition gave favour to this idea. Mary stood by him, and
-looked at him, however, with a pain as great as if he had been
-consciously labouring on one side to express himself as she was on the
-other to understand him, instead of lying, as was most probable, in a
-feverish dream, through which some broken gleam of fancy or memory
-struggled. When the chilly dawn broke upon the long night, that
-dreariest and coldest moment of a vigil, worn out with the long strain,
-she dropped asleep in the chair by her father’s bedside. But when she
-woke hurriedly, a short time after, while yet it was scarcely full day,
-the nurse was standing by her with a hand upon her shoulder. The woman
-had grasped at her to wake her. “Listen, ma’am! he says--‘the little
-boy,’” she said; Mary sprang up, shaking off her drowsiness in a moment.
-The old man’s face had recovered a little intelligence--a faint flush
-seemed to waver about his ashy cheeks. It was some time before, even
-now, she could make any meaning out of the babble that came from his
-lips. Then by degrees she gleaned, now one word, now another. “Little
-boy--little Johnny; bring the little boy.” She could scarcely imagine
-even now that there was meaning in the desire. Most likely it was but
-some pale reflection, through the dim awakening of the old man’s mind,
-of the last idea that was in it. It went on, however, in one long strain
-of mumbled repetition--“Little Johnny--little boy.” There seemed nothing
-else in his mind to say. The nurse laid her hand once more on Mary’s
-arm, as she stood by her, listening. “If you can humour the poor
-gentleman, ma’am, you ought to do it,” said the woman. She was a
-stranger, and did not know the story of the house.
-
-What could Mary do? She sent out one of the servants to call Mr. Pen,
-who had stayed late on the previous night, always holding his book open
-with his finger at the place, but who got up now obedient at her
-summons, though his wife had not meant to let him be disturbed for
-hours. Then the feeble demand went on so continuously, that Mary in
-despair sent Miss Brown for Lilias, vaguely hoping that the presence of
-the one child, if not the other, might perhaps be of some use in the dim
-state of semi-consciousness in which her father seemed to be. Miss Brown
-went with hesitation and a doubtful look, which Mary was too much
-occupied to notice, but came back immediately to say that Miss Lilias
-had got up early and gone out. “Gone out!” Mary said, surprised; but she
-had no leisure to be disturbed about anything, her whole mind being
-pre-occupied. She went downstairs to Mr. Pen when he came. He had his
-prayer-book all ready. To dismiss the departing soul with all its
-credentials, with every solemnity that became such a departure, was what
-he thought of. He was altogether taken by surprise by Mary’s hasty
-address--
-
-“Mr. Pen, you must go at once and bring Nello. I cannot send a servant.
-He would not, perhaps, be allowed to come. If you will go, you can fetch
-him at once--to-morrow early.”
-
-“But, Miss Mary----”
-
-“Don’t say anything against it, Mr. Pen. He is asking for the little
-boy, the little boy! Nello must come, and come directly. You would not
-cross him in perhaps the last thing he may ever ask for?” cried Mary,
-the tears of agitation and weariness coming in a sudden gush from her
-eyes.
-
-“Let me send for your brother,” said the Vicar. “Let me send for
-Randolph. He will know best what to do.”
-
-“Randolph! what has he to do with it?” she cried. “Oh go, Mr. Pen; do
-not vex me now.”
-
-“I will go.” Mr. Pen closed his book with regret and put it into his
-pocket. He did not like the idea that the old Squire should depart out
-of the world like any common man, uncared for. After his long connection
-with the family, that such a thing should happen without him! Mr.
-Musgrave had not perhaps been so regardful as was to be desired of all
-the services of the Church, and Mr. Pen was all the more anxious, now
-that he could have everything his own way, that all should be done in
-order. But how could he resist Mary’s will and wish? He put his book in
-his pocket with a sigh.
-
-“I will do what you wish, Miss Mary; but--it is a journey of many
-hours--and trains may not suit. Do you think he will--go on--so long?”
-
-“He is asking for the little boy,” said Mary, hastily. “Come and see
-him, and it will go to your heart. How can I tell you any more? We do
-not know even whether he is to live or to die.”
-
-“Ah, you must not cherish false hopes,” said the Vicar, as he followed
-her upstairs. The servants were peeping on the staircase and at the
-doors; they were half disappointed, like Mr. Pen, that the “change” was
-not more decided. They had hoped that all was nearly over at last.
-
-The darkened room, where the night-light was still burning though full
-day broke in muffled through the half-shuttered windows, was of itself
-very impressive to Mr. Pen, coming out of the fresh fulness of the
-morning light. He followed Mary, going elaborately on tiptoe round the
-foot of the great heavily-curtained bed. The Squire’s head had been
-propped up a little. He had become even a little more conscious since
-Mary had left him. But his voice was so babbling and inarticulate that
-Mr. Pen, unused to it, and deeply touched by the condition in which he
-saw his old friend and patron, could not make out the words--“Bring the
-little boy--the little boy, not Randolph--little Johnny: bring the
-little boy.” Thus he went murmuring on, and there had gradually come a
-kind of wish into the face, and a kind of consciousness of their
-presence. “I wanted to bring Lilias, but Lilias they tell me has gone
-out; I cannot tell where she can have gone,” Mary whispered. “And he
-never took any notice of Lilias--it is the boy he wants--listen, Mr.
-Pen, always the boy.”
-
-“I cannot make anything of it,” said Mr. Pen, moved to tears.
-
-“Oh listen! He says, ‘Not Randolph, the boy!’ It is the boy he wants.
-Look! I almost think he knows you. Oh, what is it he wants?” cried Mary.
-
-The light which had been so nearly extinguished was leaping up in the
-socket. A sudden convulsion seemed to run over the old man’s frame: he
-made an effort to raise himself. His ashen face grew red, perspiration
-burst out upon his forehead. Ghost-like and rigid as he was, he moved
-himself upward as if to get from his bed. The nurse had put herself
-quietly at her post on one side and she called to Mary to go to the
-other, while poor Mr. Pen stood by helpless, as if he were assisting at
-a visible resurrection. “Don’t get excited, ma’am,” the nurse said
-steadily; “one moment! I hear the doctor coming upstairs.”
-
-The steady tread of some one approaching reassured the women as they
-half aided, half controlled, the spasmodic force of apparent recovery.
-The foot came nearer and nearer, thank God. The door opened and some one
-came in.
-
-It was not the doctor. It was a tall man with light hair mingled with
-grey and a fair complexion turned brown. He came straight into the room
-like one familiar with the place. Miss Brown, who stood near the door,
-recoiled with a quivering cry, and Mr. Pen, whom he encountered next,
-fell back with the same quaver of consternation in his voice. He went to
-where Mary stood, who alone had not looked at him, her eyes being intent
-on her father’s face. He put her aside tenderly, taking her place. “This
-is my work as much as yours,” he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXII.
-
-NELLO’S RESCUE.
-
-
-The house was very still in the afternoon languor--all its life
-suspended. Between the sick-room, in which all the interest of the
-family existence was absorbed, and the servants’ part of the house, in
-which life went on cheerfully enough under all circumstances, but
-without any intrusion into the still world above-stairs, there was
-nothing going on. Little Lilias went up into her own room, and down all
-the long staircases and passages, without meeting or seeing any one.
-Martuccia was in the old hall, tranquilly knitting and waiting for her
-young lady’s return; but the house was empty of all sound or presence,
-nobody visible. It was like the enchanted palace through which the young
-prince walks, meeting no one, until he reaches the one chamber in which
-the secret lies. This idea passed through the mind of Lilias,
-pre-occupied as she was. Any one might come in--might pass from room to
-room, finding all deserted, until he had penetrated to the dim centre of
-the family life where death was hovering. She went down the oak
-staircase with her light foot, a little tremulous, but inspired with
-resolution. It was the afternoon of Nello’s last day at school. He had
-not quite made up his mind, or been driven by childish misery, to the
-determination of running away when his sister set out to succour him.
-Had he waited, Lilias no doubt would have arrived in time to introduce a
-new element into the matter; but what could the little girl’s arrival
-have effected? Who would have given any importance to that? They would
-have taken Lilias in, and made a little prisoner of her, and sent her
-back. As it was, neither knew anything of what the other was doing.
-Lilias had opened her most secret place, a little old-fashioned wooden
-box, in which she kept some special relics, little trinkets, half toys,
-half ornaments, which she had brought with her, and the remains of the
-money which her father had given her when he sent the little party away.
-There had been something over when they arrived, and Lilias had guarded
-it carefully. She took it out now, and put the purse containing it
-within the bodice of her dress--the safest place. It might be wanted for
-Nello. He had the best right to everything; and if he was in trouble----
-Lilias did not try to think what kind of trouble the little boy could be
-in. She took her little store, and went away with her heart beating
-high. This time she would herself do it; she would not trust to any one.
-Mr. Geoff had undertaken to deliver her father, and stopped her; but he
-had not done it. Already a long time had elapsed, and nothing had
-happened. She would not trust to Mr. Geoff or any one this time. If old
-’Lizabeth had not gone away before Lilias returned to the hall, she had
-thoughts of asking the old woman to go with her; and even a weak
-inclination to take Martuccia as a companion and support had crossed her
-mind. Martuccia would have been useless, but she would have made all the
-difference between a feasible expedition and an impossible one; but
-perhaps it was for this very reason that Lilias rejected the idea. No;
-this time she would be kept back by no advice. She would go to Nello’s
-aid by herself. He should owe his deliverance to no one but his sister.
-Who could understand him so well--know so well what he must want? And it
-was to her that papa had intrusted Nello. She made dismal pictures to
-herself of her little brother in trouble. What could “in trouble” mean?
-She thought of him as out in the cold, out in the rain, crying, with no
-place to go to; lost in a strange country, or perhaps ill with a fever,
-and nobody to sit by him, nobody to give him a drink when he wanted it,
-and tell him stories. What other kind of trouble was possible? That he
-might not be able to learn his lessons without her to help him, and that
-he might perhaps be whipped--could such an atrocity be?--just gleamed
-across the child’s thoughts; but it made her heart beat so with rage and
-indignation, and her cheeks burn with such a flush, that she thrust the
-idea aside; but so long as he was unhappy, so long as he wanted her, was
-not that enough? She buttoned her little coat with a stout but trembling
-heart, and took a shawl over her arm (was not that how travellers always
-provided themselves?) and, with her sovereign in her hand for immediate
-expenditure, and her purse in her bosom, went down the silent stairs.
-How still, how deserted it seemed! Mr. Pen came out from the library
-door when he heard the step, to see who it was, but took no notice of
-her except a momentary glance of disappointment. Thus she went out of
-the house brave and resolute, yet with a tremor of the unknown in her
-breast.
-
-Lilias knew what to do: to walk to Pennington, where the railway station
-was, and then to take a ticket, and to get into a railway carriage. The
-walk along the highroad was long, but it was not so overwhelming as that
-early expedition she had made all alone up into the hills when she had
-met Geoff. How glad she had been to meet him, and to hear from him that
-she need go no further! Lilias had not ceased to believe in Mr. Geoff,
-but nothing had been done, and her heart was sick of the waiting. She
-did not want to meet him now; her little heart gave a jump when she saw
-any one riding towards her; but it was certain she did not want to meet
-Geoff, to have her mission again taken out of her hands. Nothing was
-more likely than that she should meet him, and her eyes travelled along
-the dusty line of road, somewhat wistfully looking out--in hopes not to
-see him--which much resembled the hope of seeing him, though it was
-differently expressed. And now and then a cloud of dust would rise--now
-and then a horseman would appear far off, skimming lightly over the long
-line of road, which it took Lilias so much time to get over. Once a
-beautiful carriage dashed past her, with the beautiful lady in it whom
-she had once seen, and who had kissed and cried over Nello without
-taking much notice of Lilias. Could it be that the beautiful lady had
-heard too that he was in trouble? Lilias mended her pace and pushed on.
-What fancies she met with as she plodded along the road! It was a long
-dusty highway, running for a little while in sight of the lake, then
-turning through the village, then striking across the country up and
-down, as even a highroad is obliged to do in the north country, where
-there is nothing but heights and hollows. It seemed to stretch into
-infinity before Lilias, mounting one brae after another, showing in a
-long level line here and there; appearing on the other side of that
-clump of trees, beyond that far-off farmhouse, looking as if it led
-without pause back to the end of the world. Lilias wove one dream after
-another as she went along from landmark to landmark. How vivid they
-were! So real, that the child seemed to enact every scene in them as
-they floated through her mind; far more real than the actual events of
-her life. She saw herself arriving at a great spacious place, which was
-Nello’s school--undefined, yet lofty and wide and splendid, with marble
-pillars, and great colonnades and halls. She saw people coming to gaze
-and wonder at the little girl--the little wandering princess--who had
-come to seek her brother. “The girl looked at them all, and said, ‘Take
-me to Nello.’ The girl turned round upon them, and her lip curled with
-scorn.” (Lilias suited the action to the word; and her innocent lip did
-curl, with what version of fine disdain it could execute.) “What did she
-care for all they could do for her? ‘It is my brother I want,’ she
-said.” This was how she carried on her parable. Perhaps her own little
-figure was too much in the front of all these visions. Perhaps her own
-fine indifference to all blandishments and devotion to Nello was the
-chief principle made apparent. This was how it ran on, however,
-accompanying and shortening the way. She made long dialogues between
-herself and the master, between herself and Nello. How he clung to her;
-how glad he was that she had come. “It is Lily; I knew Lily would come,”
-she made him say. He would not be surprised; he would know that this was
-the most natural thing. If they had locked her up in prison to keep her
-away from him, what would it have mattered? Lilias would have found a
-way to go to him when Nello was in trouble; and Nello knew that as well
-as she.
-
-She was very tired, however, and it was dark when she arrived at
-Pennington. Lilias put on her grand air, but it was rather difficult to
-impose upon the station-master and porters. They all wanted to be very
-kind, to take care of her, and arrange everything for the little
-traveller. The station-master called her “my dear,” and wanted Lilias to
-go to his house, where his wife would take care of her till the morning.
-“You are too little to travel by the night train,” he said; and the
-porters were eloquent on the wickedness of sending a little lady like
-this by herself. “I am going to my brother, who is ill,” Lilias said,
-with dignity. “And have you no mamma to go to him, my little miss?” said
-the porter, friendly, yet respectful. They were all very kind. No one
-knew her, and they asked many questions to find out who she was. They
-said to each other it was well seen she had no mother, and made Lilias’s
-heart swell so, that she forgave them for treating her as a child,
-rather than as the little princess she had dreamed of being. Finally,
-they arranged for her that she should travel to the great junction where
-Nello had met Bampfylde at once--and that the guard should take care of
-her, and put her in the night train, which arrived at a very early hour
-in the morning at the station she wanted to go to. All this was arranged
-for her with the kindest care by these rough men. They installed her in
-the little waiting-room till the train should go. They came and fetched
-her when it was going, and placed her in her corner. “Poor little lady!”
-they said. Lilias was half-humiliated, half-pleased by all these
-attentions. She submitted to them, not able to be anything but grateful
-to the men who were so kind to her, yet feeling uneasily that it was not
-in this homely way that she meant them to be kind. They did not look up
-to her, but looked down upon her with compassionate tenderness, as upon
-a motherless little girl--a child who recalled children of their own.
-Just so the good woman looked upon her who got into the train along with
-her. “All that way, and all alone, my poor little thing?” the woman
-said. It hurt Lilias’s pride to be called a poor little thing, but yet
-it was pleasant to have some one to creep close to. The world did not
-seem to be as it is represented in books, for nobody was unkind. Lilias
-was very glad to sit close to her new acquaintance, feeling comfort
-unspeakable in the breadth of the honest shoulder against which she
-leant as she travelled on in the dark. Those breadths of country which
-Nello had watched flying past the window were almost invisible now. Now
-and then a darker gloom in the air showed where the hills were high over
-the railway in a deep cutting. Sometimes there would be gleams of light
-visible here and there, which showed a village. Her companion dropped
-into a doze, but Lilias, leaning against her, was far too much excited
-for sleep. She watched the moon come out and shine over the breadth of
-country, reflecting itself in the little streams, and turning the houses
-to silver. It was late then, quite late, for the moon was on the wane.
-And the train was slow, stopping at every station, creeping (though
-when it was in motion it seemed to fly) across the plains and valleys.
-It was midnight when they got to the junction, and Lilias, with her
-great eyes more wide awake than ever, was handed out. There were only a
-few lights burning, and the place looked miserable and deserted, the
-cold wind sweeping through it, and the two or three people who got out,
-and the two porters who received them, looking like ghosts in the
-imperfect light. The guard, who lived there, was very kind to the little
-girl before he went off to his house. He wanted to take her with him to
-make her comfortable till the morning, but Lilias could not be persuaded
-to wait. At last he established her in a corner, the least chilly
-possible, wrapping her shawl round her feet.
-
-There she was left alone, with one lamp to bear her company, the long
-lines running into darkness at either side of her, blackness taking
-refuge in the high roof of the station, above the watchlight of that one
-lamp. How strange it was to sit all alone, with the chill of the air and
-gloom of midnight all around her! Nobody was stirring in the deserted
-place. The one porter had withdrawn to some warm refuge, to re-appear
-when the train came. But little Lilias sat alone in her corner, sole
-inhabitant of the big, chilly, desolate place. How her heart jumped to
-her mouth! What tremors and terrors at first every sigh of the wind,
-every creak of the lamp, gave her. But at last she perceived that
-nothing was going to happen, and sat still, and did not trouble except
-when imagination suggested to her a stealthy step, or some one behind in
-the darkness. How dreary it was! The night wind sang a dismal cadence in
-the telegraph wires, the air coursed over the deserted platforms, the
-dark lines of way, and blew the flames of gas about even within the
-inclosure of the lamp. Just then Nello was creeping, stumbling, out of
-the window, making his way through the prickling hedge, standing alone
-eyeing the moon in the potato-field. Lilias could not even see the moon
-in her corner. Nothing was before her but the waning gleam of that
-solitary lamp.
-
-At last the train came lumbering up through the darkness, and the
-porters re-appeared from corners where they had been attendant. One of
-them came, for Lily, kind as everybody had been, and put her into a
-carriage by herself, and showed her how she could lie down and make
-herself comfortable. “You’ll be there at five o’clock,” the porter said.
-“Lie down, little miss, and get a sleep.” Never in her life had Lilias
-been more wide awake, and there was no kind woman here with broad
-shoulders to lean upon and feel safe. The train swept through the night
-while she sat upright and gazed out with big, round, unslumbering eyes.
-
-Lilias watched and waked through the night, counting out the hours of
-darkness, saying her prayers over and over, feeling herself lost in the
-long whirl of distance and gloom and confusing sound; but as the night
-began to tremble towards the dawning, she began to doze unawares, her
-eyes closing in spite of herself, and much against her will; and it was
-with a shiver that she woke up very wide awake, but feeling wretched, in
-consequence of her doze, at the little roadside station, one small house
-placed on the edge of a wide expanse of fields, chiefly pasture land,
-and with no character at all. A great belt of wood stretched to the
-right hand, to the left there was nothing but fields, and a long endless
-road dividing them, visible for miles with a little turn in it here and
-there, but nothing beside to break its monotony. Lilias clambered out of
-the carriage when she felt the jar and clang of the stoppage, and heard
-the name of the station drowsily called out. The man in charge of it
-gazed at her as though she had dropped from the clouds; he did not even
-see her till the train was in motion again, creaking and swinging away
-into the distance. To see her standing there with her great eyes gave
-him a thrill of strange sensation, almost of terror. Fatigue and
-excitement had made her face paler than usual, and had drawn great
-circles round her eyes. She looked like a ghost standing there in the
-faint grey of the dawn, cold and trembling, yet courageous as ever. “Mr.
-Swan’s? Oh yes, I can tell you the way to Mr. Swan’s; but you should
-have spoken sooner. They’ve been and carried off your luggage.” Lilias
-had not strength of mind to confess that she had no luggage, and indeed
-was too much confused and upset by her snatch of sleep to be sure what
-he was saying, and stumbled forth on the road, when he showed her how to
-go, half-dazed, and scarcely more than half-conscious. But the pinch of
-the keen morning air, and the sensation of strange stillness and
-loneliness, soon restored her to the use of her faculties. The
-benevolent railway man was loth to let her go. “It’s very early, and
-you’re very small,” he said. “You’re welcome to wait here, my little
-lady, till they send for you. Perhaps they did not expect you so early?”
-“Oh, it does not matter,” said Lilias. “Thank you; I am quite able to
-walk.” The man stood and watched her as she made her way in the faint
-light along the road. He dared not leave his post, or he would have gone
-with her out of sheer compassion. So young, and with such a pale little
-beautiful face, and all alone at such an hour of the morning, while it
-was still night! “It will be one of them boyses sisters,” he said to
-himself with singular discrimination. And then he recollected the pale
-little boy who had gone to Mr. Swan’s so short a time before. This gave
-clue to the mysterious little passenger, which set his mind at rest.
-
-And Lilias went on along the darkling road. It was not possible to
-mistake the road--a long white streak upon the landscape, which was
-visible even in the dark; and it was not altogether dark now, but a
-ghostly, damp, autumnal glimmer of morning, before the sun-rising. The
-hedges had mists of gossamer over them, which would shine like rainbow
-webs when the sun rose. The fields glimmered colourless still, but
-growing every moment more perceptible in the chill dreariness of the
-season--not cold enough for frost, yet very cold. Everything was grey,
-the few shivering half-grown trees in the hedgerows, the sky all banked
-with clouds, the face of the half-seen landscape. There was one cottage
-by the roadside, and that was grey too, all shut up and asleep, the door
-closed, the windows all black. Little Lilias, the one moving atom in
-that great still landscape, felt afraid of it, and of herself, and the
-sound of her own steps, which seemed loud enough to wake a whole world
-of people. It seemed to Lilias that the kindly earth was dead, and she
-alone a little ghost, walking about its grave. None of her dreams, none
-of the poetry, nor anything out of her fairy lore could help her here.
-The reality was more than any dream. How still!--how very still it
-was!--how dark! and yet with that weird lightening which grew about her,
-making everything more visible moment by moment, as if by some strange
-magical clearing of her own tired eyes! She was so tired, so worn out;
-faint for want of food, though she was not hungry--and for want of
-rest, though she did not wish to go to sleep. Such an atom in all that
-great grey insensible universe, and yet the only thing alive!
-
-No--not the only thing. Lilias’ heart contracted with a thrill, first of
-relief, then of fear, when she saw something else moving besides
-herself. It was in one of the great fields that stretched colourless and
-vast towards the horizon. Lilias could not tell what it was. It might be
-a spirit; it might be an enchanted creature bound by some spell to stay
-there among the ploughed furrows; it might be some mysterious wild
-beast, the legendary monster, of whose existence children are always
-ready to be convinced. She concealed herself behind a bush, and looked
-anxiously down the long brown furrow. It was something very little--not
-so big as a man--smaller even than herself; something that toiled along
-with difficulty, stumbling sometimes, and falling in the soft earth. By
-and by a faint breath of sound began to steal towards her--very faint,
-yet carried far on the absolute stillness of the morning. Some one who
-was in trouble--some one who was _crying_. Lilias’ bosom began to swell.
-She was very tired and confused herself; very lonely and frightened of
-the dead world, and of her own forlorn livingness in it. But the sound
-of the feeble crying brought her back to herself. Did she divine already
-who it was? She scrambled through a gap in the hedge, jumped across the
-ditch, and plunged too into the yielding, heavy soil of the ploughed
-furrow. She was not surprised. There did not seem to be anything
-wonderful in meeting her brother so. Had she not been sent to him
-because he was in trouble? It was natural that he should be here in the
-cold, dim morning, in the wild field, toiling along towards her, faintly
-crying in the last confusion and misery of childish weariness, his way
-lost, and his courage lost, and all his little bewildered faculties. She
-called out “Nello!”--cautiously, lest any one should hear--“Nello!” and
-then there was an outcry of amazement and joy--“Oh, Lily!” It was a
-half-shriek of incredulous happiness with which poor Nello, toiling
-through the field, weary, lost, forlorn, and afraid, heard the familiar
-sound of her voice. He was not so much surprised either. He did not
-think it was impossible, though nothing could have been more impossible
-to an elder mind. Children hold no such reckonings as we do with
-probability. He had been saying, “Oh, Lily! my Lily!” to himself--crying
-for her--and here she was! He had no doubt of it, made no question how
-she got there, but threw himself upon her with a great cry that thrilled
-the dim morning through and through, and made the sleep-bound world
-alive.
-
-And they sat down together in the furrow, and clung to each other, and
-cried--for misery, but for happiness too. All seemed safe now they had
-found each other. The two forlorn creatures, after their sleepless,
-wintry night, felt a sudden beatitude creep over their little weary
-bodies and aching hearts. Two--how different that is from one! They held
-each other fast, and kissed, and were happy in the dark furrow, which
-seemed big enough and dark enough to furnish them both with a grave.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIII.
-
-THE BABES IN THE WOOD.
-
-
-“Are you very hungry, Nello?’
-
-“Oh, very, _very_. Are you? I have not had any breakfast. It was night,
-dark night when I came away. Have you had any breakfast, Lily?”
-
-“How could I, when I have been in the railway all the night? Do you
-think you can get over the ditch? Jump! I jumped, and you always could
-jump better than I.”
-
-“You forget everything when you go to school,” said Nello, mournfully,
-“and I am all trembling, I cannot help it. It is so cold. Oh Lily, if
-they come up--if they find us--you will not let them take me back?”
-
-“Never, Nello! but let us get on, let us get on to the railway. Quick,
-it is not far off. If you would only jump. Now give me your hand. I am
-cold too, but we must get over it, we _must_ get over it!” said Lilias,
-almost crying. Poor Nello’s limbs were cramped, he was chilled to the
-heart. He did not feel it possible to get on, all the courage was gone
-out of him. He had kept up until, after scrambling through many rough
-places, his poor little feet had sunk in that soft, newly-ploughed
-furrow. This had taken all the life out of him, and perhaps his meeting
-with Lilias, and the tumult of joyful emotion it caused, had not
-increased Nello’s power of endurance. He had always had the habit of
-trusting to her. But Lily it was quite certain could not drag him over
-the ditch. He made an effort at last to jump and failed, and stuck in
-the mud. That accident seemed at the moment to make an end of them both
-in their utter weariness. They mingled their tears, Lilias hanging on
-upon the bank above, Nello in the heavy soil below. The cry relieved
-them however, and by and by, by the help of his sister’s hand, he
-managed to scramble up the bank, and get through the scattered bushes on
-to the highroad. One of his feet was wet and clogged with the mud, and
-oh, how tired they both were, fit for nothing but to lie down and cry
-themselves to sleep.
-
-“Oh, Nello, if you were at home, should you ever--ever want to go away
-again?”
-
-Nello did not make any reply. He was too tired for anything but a dull
-little sob now and then, involuntary, the mere breathing of his
-weakness. And the highway looked so long, longer even than the fields.
-There was always some hope at the end of a field that deliverance might
-come round the corner, but a long unchangeable highway, how endless it
-was! They went on thus together for a little way in silence; then: “Oh,
-Lily, I am so hungry,” said Nello. What could she do? She was hungry
-too, more hungry than he was, for she had eaten nothing since the
-afternoon of the previous day.
-
-“I have a shilling in my pocket, but we cannot eat a shilling,” said
-poor Lilias.
-
-“And I have a shilling too--more than that--I have the golden sovereign
-Mary gave me.”
-
-“We must just hurry--hurry to the railway, Nello, for we cannot eat
-money, and the railway will soon take us home; or there is a place, a
-big station, where we could buy a cake. Oh!’ cried Lilias, with a gleam
-of eager satisfaction in her eyes.
-
-“What is it, Lily?”
-
-“Look, only look?” She dragged him forward by the arm in her eagerness.
-“Oh, a few steps further, Nello--only a few steps further--look!”
-
-The roadside cottage which had been so blank as she passed had awoke--a
-woman stood by the door--but the thing that caught Lilias’ eye was a few
-stale cakes and opaque glasses with strange confectionery in them. It
-was these that gave strength to her wearied feet. She hurried forward,
-while the woman looked at the strange little pair in wonder. “Oh, will
-you give us a little breakfast,” she said, “a little milk to drink, and
-some bread and butter for this little boy?”
-
-“Where have you come from, you two children, at this hour in the
-morning?” cried the woman in consternation.
-
-“Oh, we are going to the train,” said Lilias. “We are obliged to go; we
-must get the early train, and we don’t know, we don’t quite know when it
-goes; and my poor little brother has fallen into the mud--see! and--he
-got his breakfast so very early before he came away that he is hungry
-again. We have plenty of money,” cried the little girl, “plenty of
-money! We will give you a shilling if you will give us some milk and
-bread.”
-
-“A shilling--two, three shillings,” said Nello, interposing. He was so
-hungry; and what was the good of shillings?--you could not eat them. The
-woman looked at them suspiciously. They were not little tramps; they
-were nicely dressed children, though the little boy was so muddy. She
-did not see what harm it could do to take them in; likewise her heart
-was touched by the poor little things standing there looking up at her
-as though she was the arbiter of their fate.
-
-“You may come in and sit by the fire; there’s no train for two hours
-yet. It’s not six o’clock. Come in, you poor little things, and rest,
-and I’ll give you some nice hot tea. But you must tell me all the truth,
-for I know you’ve run away from somewhere,” she said.
-
-“No,” said Lilias, looking her in the face. “Oh no, I have not run away
-from anywhere. My little brother was not happy, and I came to fetch him,
-that is all. I did not run away.”
-
-“And what sort of people was it that sent a baby like you?” said the
-woman. “Come in, you poor little things, and sit by the fire. What could
-your mother be thinking of to send you----”
-
-“We have not got any mother.” Nello took no share in this conversation.
-He was quite lost in the delight of the hard old settle that stood by
-the fire. Nestling up into the corner he thought he should like to fall
-asleep there, and never move any more. “We have not got any mother,”
-Lilias said, “and who could come but me? No one. I travelled all night,
-and now I am going to take him home. We are children without any
-mother.” Lilias could not but know that these words were a sure passport
-to any woman’s heart.
-
-“You poor little things!” the woman said, with the tears in her eyes.
-Whether it has its origin in the self-complacency of womankind, it is
-difficult to say, but whereas men are generally untouched by the
-unhappiness of being fatherless, women are without defence in most cases
-before a motherless child. Such a plea has instant recognition with high
-and low. No mother!--everything is pardoned, everything conceded to a
-creature with such a plea. She was not quite satisfied with the story,
-which seemed to her very improbable, but she could not refuse her
-succour to the motherless children. Her little shop, such as it was, had
-no visitors till much later in the day, when the village children went
-past her door to school. She had made her own tea, which stood keeping
-itself hot upon the hob, and she came in hastily and put out cups and
-saucers, and shared the hot and comfortable fluid, though it was very
-weak and would not have suited more fastidious palates than the
-children’s. What life it seemed to pour into their wearied little
-frames! The bread was coarse and stale, but it tasted like bread from
-heaven. Nello in his corner of the settle began to blink and nod. He was
-even falling asleep, when suddenly a gig rattled past the windows. The
-child sprang up in a moment. “Oh, Lily, Lily!” he cried in horror, “they
-are after me! what shall I do?”
-
-The woman had gone to the back of the house with the cups they had used,
-and so was not near to hear this revelation.
-
-“Who is it?” cried Lilias, peering out of the window. She was restored
-to herself, and the name of an enemy, a pursuer, put her on her mettle.
-She had never encountered such a thing before, but she knew everything
-about it, how to behave. “Come, Nello, come,” she said, “we will go out
-the back way while nobody is looking. Let us go away, let us go away
-before any one can come here.”
-
-Lilias seized some of the cakes which the woman had put in paper for
-them; wonderful productions, which nothing but a child’s appetite could
-contemplate, and put down two shillings in the centre of the table. On
-second thoughts it seemed better to her to go out at the front and get
-round under cover of the hedge to the wood on the other side of the
-station, which appeared temptingly near, rather than incur the risk of
-speaking to the woman. It did not occur to her that her own presence was
-enough to put any one completely off the scent who was seeking Nello.
-She got him away out of the house successfully, and through the gap
-behind the hedge where was a little footpath. “Now we must run--run! We
-must get past, while they are asking at the station. We must not say a
-word to the woman or any one. Oh, Nello, run--run!” Nello, still more
-anxious than she was, managed to run for a little way, but only for a
-little way. He broke down of all places in the world opposite to the
-station, where Mr. Swan was standing talking to the keeper. When Nello
-saw him through the hedge he turned round and clasped his sister
-convulsively, hiding his face on her shoulder. Lilias did not dare to
-say a word. They were hid from view, yet any movement might betray them,
-or any sound. She stood with trembling limbs, bearing Nello’s weight
-upon her shoulder, and watched through the hawthorn bush.
-
-“Nobody has been here, not a mouse, far less a little boy. The train is
-not due for two hours,” said the station-keeper.
-
-“A bit of a little fellow,” said Mr. Swan. “I can’t think he could have
-got so far; more likely he’s lying behind a hedge somewhere; but I
-thought it best to try first here.”
-
-“He’s not here,” the station-keeper said again. He answered curtly, his
-sympathies being all with the fugitive, and he could not but give the
-troubled schoolmaster a corner of his mind. “It’s only a month since you
-lost the last one,” he said. “If it was my house the boys ran away from
-I should not like it.”
-
-“Talk of things you know something of,” said Mr. Swan hotly; and then he
-added, shaking his head; “It is not my fault. My wife and I do
-everything we can, but it’s those rough boys and their practical jokes.”
-
-“Little fellows, they don’t seem to understand them kind of jokes,” said
-the railway man.
-
-Mr. Swan shook his head. It was not his fault. He was sorry, and vexed,
-and ashamed. “I would rather have lost the money twice over,” he said.
-Then he turned and gave a searching glance all around. Lilias quaked,
-and her heart sank within her. She held her little brother close to her
-breast. If he should stir, if he should cry, all would be over. She knew
-her situation well enough. Either their enemy would go away and get
-bloodhounds and fierce wicked men to put on their track, during which
-time the fugitives would have time to get into some wonderful cave, or
-to be taken into some old, old house by some benevolent stranger, and so
-escape; or else he would come straight to the very place where they
-were, guided by some influence unfavourable to them. Lilias stood and
-held her breath. “Oh, be still, Nello, be still, he is looking!” she
-whispered into Nello’s ear. Her limbs were nearly giving way, but she
-resisted fate and held out.
-
-The schoolmaster made long inspection of all the landscape. “He was
-specially commended to me, too--I was warned--I was warned,” he said.
-Then he turned to the station-keeper, giving him the most urgent
-injunctions. “If he comes here you will secure him at once,” he said,
-filling Lilias with dismay, who did not see the shrug of the man’s
-shoulders, and the look with which he turned aside. Thus their retreat
-was cut off, the little girl thought, with anguish indescribable; how
-then were they to get home? This thought was so dreadful that Lilias was
-not relieved as she otherwise would have been by the sound of the wheels
-and the horse’s hoofs as the gig turned, and their enemy drove away. He
-had gone in his own person, but had he not left a horrible retainer to
-guard the passage? And how, oh how was she to take Nello home? She did
-not know where the next station was. She did not know the way in this
-strange, desolate, unknown country. “Nello,” she cried, in a whisper of
-despair, “we must get into that wood, it is the only thing we can do;
-they will not look for us there. I don’t know why, but I feel sure they
-will not look for us there. And perhaps we shall meet some one who will
-take care of us. Oh, Nello, rouse up, come quick, come quick. Perhaps
-there may be a hermit living there, perhaps----. Come, Nello, can you
-not go a little further? Oh, try, try.”
-
-“Oh, Lily, I am so tired--I am so sleepy”
-
-“I am tired too,” she said, a little rush of tears coming to her eyes;
-and then they stumbled on together, holding each other up. The wood
-looked gay and bright in the early morning. The sun had come out, which
-warmed everything, and the bright autumn colour on the trees cheered the
-children as a similar hour, and the beauty of the wild creatures of the
-woods, cheered the poet:--
-
- “Si che a bene sperar m’era cagione
- Di quella fera alla gaietta pelle
- L’ora del tempo, e la dolce stagione.”
-
-The trees seemed to sweep with a great luxuriance of shadow over a broad
-stretch of country. It must be possible to find some refuge there. There
-might be--a hermit, perhaps, in a little cell, who would give them nuts
-and some milk from his goat--or a charcoal burner, wild but kind, like
-those Lilias remembered to have seen in the forest with wild locks
-hanging over their eyes. If only no magician should be there to beguile
-them into his den, pretending to be kind! Thus Lilias mixed fact and
-fiction, her own broken remembrances of Italian woods sounding as
-fictitious among the English elms and beeches as the wildest visions of
-fancy. For this wood, though it had poetic corners in it, was traversed
-by the highroad, from end to end, and was as innocent of
-charcoal-burners as of magicians. And it turned out a great deal further
-off than they thought. They walked and walked, and still it lay before
-them, smiling in its yellow and red, waving and beckoning in the
-breeze, which was less chilly now that the sun was up. The sun reached
-to the footpath behind the hedge, and warmed the little wayfarers
-through and through--that was the best thing that had happened to
-them--for how good it is to be warmed when one is chilled and weary; and
-what a rising of hope and courage there is when the misty dawn disperses
-before the rising of the brave sun!
-
-Nello almost recovered his spirits when he got within the wood. There
-were side-aisles even to the highroad, and deep corners in its depths
-where shelter could be had, and the ground was all flaked with shadow
-and sunshine; and there were green glades, half visible at every side,
-with warm grass all lit by the sun.
-
-“Let us go and sit down, Lily. Oh, what a pretty place to sit down! Oh,
-Lily, I cannot--I cannot walk any more; I am so tired,” cried Nello.
-
-“I am tired too,” she said, with a quiver in her mouth, looking vainly
-round for some trace of the charcoal-burner or of the hermit. All was
-silent, sunny, fresh with the morning, but vacant as the fields. And
-Lilias could not be satisfied with mere rest, though she wanted it so
-much. “How are we to get home, if we dare not go to the railway? and
-there is no other way,” she said. “Oh, Nello, it will be very nice to
-rest--but how are we to get home?”
-
-“Oh, never mind; I am so tired,” said weary little Nello. “Look, Lily,
-what a warm place. It is quite dry, and a tree to lean against. Let us
-stay here.”
-
-Never had a more tempting spot been seen; green soft turf at one side of
-the big tree, and beech-mast, soft and dry and brown, the droppings of
-the trees, on the other. The foot sank in it, it was so soft, and the
-early sun had dried it, and the thick boughs overhead had kept off the
-dew. It was as soft as a bed of velvet, and the little branches waved
-softly over it, while the greater boughs, more still, shaded and
-protected the children. They sat down, utterly worn out, and Lilias took
-out her cakes, which they ate together with delight, though these
-dainties were far from delicious; and there, propped up against each
-other, an arm of each round the other, Nello lying across Lilias’ lap,
-with his head pillowed upon her; she, half-seated, half-reclining,
-holding him, and held in her turn by a hollow of the tree: these babes
-in the wood first nodded, then dozed, and woke and dozed again, and
-finally, the yellow leaves dropping now and then upon them like a caress
-of nature, the sun cherishing their little limbs, fell fast asleep in
-the guardianship of God.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIV.
-
-THE NEW-COMER.
-
-
-Nobody in the sick-room said a word of the great consternation and
-wonder and fear that sprang to life in them at the appearance of the
-stranger. How could they, though their hearts were full of it? when all
-their care and skill were wanted for the patient, who, half-conscious,
-struggled with them to raise himself, to get out of bed. To find out
-what he wanted, to satisfy the hazy anxiety in his mind, and do for him
-the something, whatever it was, that he was so anxious to do, was the
-first necessity of the moment, notwithstanding the new excitement which
-was wild in their veins. Where did he come from? How had he got
-here?--familiar, unmistakable, as if he had been absent but a day. How
-did he know he was wanted? And was it he--really _he_--after all those
-dreary years? These questions surged through the minds of all the
-bystanders, in an impetuous, yet secondary current. The first thing, and
-the most urgent, was the Squire. Brother and sister, friend and friend,
-had not leisure to take each other by the hand, or say a word of
-greeting.
-
-Mary and her newly-arrived assistant stood side by side, touching each
-other, but could not speak or make even a sign of mutual recognition.
-_He_ took her place in supporting, and at the same time, restraining the
-patient. _She_ held her father’s hand, with which he seemed to be
-appealing to some one, or using, in dumb show, to aid some argument.
-
-“The little boy,” he said, hoarsely, “bring me the little boy.”
-
-“Is it Nello he means?” the stranger asked, in a low voice.
-
-“I--think so--I--suppose so,” said Mary, trembling, and wholly overcome
-by this strange ease and familiarity, and even by the sound of the voice
-so long silent in this place. But he took no notice--only followed his
-question by another.
-
-“Why not bring the child then? That might satisfy him. Does he care for
-the child, or is it only a fancy, a wandering in his head? Anyhow, let
-them bring him. It might be of some use.”
-
-“Do you think he--knows? Do you think he understands--and--means what he
-is saying?”
-
-Mary faltered forth these words, scarcely knowing what she said, feeling
-that she could not explain how it was that Nello was not near--and
-finding it so strange, so strange to be talking thus to--John; could it
-be really John? After all that had sundered them, after the miseries
-that had passed over him, the price still set upon his head, was it he
-who stood so quietly, assuming his household place, taking his part in
-the nursing of the old man? She could not believe her senses, and how
-could she talk to him, calmly as the circumstances required, gently and
-steadily, as if he had never been away?
-
-“Most likely not,” he said; “but something has excited his fancy, and
-the sight of my boy might calm it. Let some one bring Nello.”
-
-He spoke with the air of one used to be obeyed, and whom also in this
-particular it would be easy to obey.
-
-“We sent him to school. I am very sorry--I was against it,” said Mary,
-trembling more and more.
-
-Mr. Pen was frightened too. It is one thing doing “for the best” with a
-little unprotected parentless child, and quite a different thing to
-answer the child’s father when he comes and asks for it. Mr. Pen paled
-and reddened ten times in a minute. He added, faltering--
-
-“It was by my advice--John. I thought it was the best thing for him. You
-see I did not know----”
-
-Here he broke off abruptly, in the confusion of his mind.
-
-“Then it is needless saying any more,” said the stranger, hastily, with
-a tone in which a little sharpness of personal disappointment and
-vexation seemed to mingle.
-
-This conversation had been in an undertone, as attendants in a sick-room
-communicate with each other, without intermitting their special services
-to the patient. The Squire had been still in their hands for the moment,
-ceasing to struggle, apparently caught in some dim confused way by the
-sound of their voices. He looked about him confusedly, like a blind man,
-turning his head slightly, as if his powers were being restored to him,
-to the side on which John stood. A gleam of half-meaning, of interest,
-and wavering, half-roused attention, seemed to come over his face. Then
-he sank back gently on his pillows, struggling no longer. The paroxysm
-was over. The nurse withdrew her hand with a sigh of relief.
-
-“Now,” she said, “if we leave him perfectly quiet, he may get some
-sleep. I will call you in a moment if there is any change.”
-
-The woman saw, with her experienced eyes, that something more than could
-be read on the surface was in this family combination. She put them
-gently from the bedside, and shaded the patient’s eyes from the light,
-for it was nearly noon by this time, and everything was brilliant
-outside. The corridor, however, into which they passed outside was still
-dark, as it was always, the glimmering pale reflections in the wainscot
-of the long narrow window on the staircase being its sole communication
-with the day.
-
-Mary put out her hands to her brother as they emerged from the
-sick-room.
-
-“Is it you--you, John?”
-
-“Yes,” he said, grasping them, “it is I. I do not wonder you are
-startled--I heard my father was worse--that there was a change--and came
-in without warning. So Nello has been sent away? May I see my little
-girl? You have been good to her, I am sure, Mary.”
-
-“I love her,” said Mary, hastily, “as if she were my own. John, do not
-take my little companion away.”
-
-He had been grave enough, and but little moved hitherto by the meeting,
-which was not so strange or unlooked-for to him as to them. Now his
-countenance beamed suddenly, lighting all over, and a tender moisture
-came to his eyes.
-
-“It is what I have desired most for her,” he said, and took his sister’s
-hands again and kissed her cheek. “But send for my little Lily,” he
-added, with an indescribable softening in his voice.
-
-Here Miss Brown, who had been following, came out from the dusk of the
-room behind. “I beg your pardon, ma’am. I did not like to tell you in
-your trouble; but I’m very uneasy about Miss Lily.”
-
-“Has she never come in yet? You said she had gone out for a walk.”
-
-“I said whatever I could think of to save you, Miss Mary. We none of us
-know where she’s gone. I’ve sent everywhere. She is not at the Vicarage,
-nor she’s not at the village; and--oh, what will Mr. John think of us?”
-cried the woman in tears. “Not one in the house has seen her since
-yesterday, and Martuccia, she’s breaking her heart. She says Miss Lily
-has gone after her brother; she says----”
-
-“Is Martuccia here?”
-
-“Yes, sir,” said Miss Brown, with a curtsey. She could not take her eyes
-off him, as she afterwards said. More serious, far more serious than
-when he was a young gentleman always about the house, but the same
-man--still the same man.
-
-“Then send her to me at once. It is you, Martha, the same as ever,” he
-said, with a momentary smile in the midst of his anxiety. Just as Mr.
-John used to do--always a kind word for everybody and a smile. She made
-him another curtsey, crying and smiling together.
-
-“And glad, glad, sir, to see you come home,” she said. There was this
-excuse for Miss Brown’s lingering, that Mary had rushed off at once to
-find Martuccia. John bowed his head gravely. He had grown very serious.
-The habit of smiling was no longer his grand characteristic. He went
-downstairs into the library, the nearest sitting-room in his way, the
-door of which was standing open. Eastwood was there lingering about,
-pretending to put things in order, but in reality waiting for news of
-the old Squire. Eastwood knew that he had not let this man in. He had
-not got admission in any legitimate way. “I beg your pardon, sir,” he
-began, not altogether respectfully, with the intention of demanding what
-he did there.
-
-“What?” said the stranger, looking up with a little impatience.
-
-Eastwood drew back with another “Beg your pardon, sir!” and his tone was
-changed. He did not know who it was, but he dared not say anything more.
-This was the strangest house in the world surely, full of suspicions,
-full of new people who did not come in at the front door.
-
-When Martuccia came, her story, which, had been almost inarticulate in
-her broken English, flowed forth volubly enough to her master, whom she
-recognized with a shriek of delight. She gave him a clear enough account
-of what had happened. How an old woman had come, a peasant of the
-country, and told Miss Lily that her little brother was in _trouble_.
-This word she transferred to her narrative without attempting to
-translate it, so that Mary, standing by, who did not understand the
-rest, seemed to hear nothing but this word recurring again and again.
-“Trouble!” it was an ominous word. Nothing but trouble seemed to
-surround them. She stood and listened anxiously, though she did not
-understand.
-
-“It is clear, then,” said her brother, turning to her, “that Lily has
-gone after her little brother, supposed to be in some mysterious
-trouble. When did he go, and where did he go, and who persuaded you to
-send him away?”
-
-“It was Randolph--Randolph has been here. I believe he wanted to be
-kind. He said Nello was being ruined here, and so did Mr. Pen. It was
-against my will--against my wish.”
-
-“Randolph!” he said. This alarmed him more than all the rest. “Both my
-children! I thought I should find them safe--happy in your hands,
-whatever happened to me----”
-
-“Oh John, what can I say?” cried Mary, wringing her hands. No one could
-be more guiltless of any unkind intention, but, as was natural, it was
-she who bore the blame. A man may be pardoned if he is a little unjust
-in such circumstances. John was ready to rush out of the house again
-directly to go after his children, but what could be done unless the
-railway helped him? Mary got the time-tables and consulted them
-anxiously; and Mr. Pen came in and stood by; very serious and a little
-crestfallen, as one of the authors of the blunder. And it was found, as
-so often happens, that nothing was to be done at the moment. The early
-train was going off as they talked, the next did not go till the
-evening, the same by which Lilias had travelled on the night before. And
-in the mean time, what might be happening to the little girl, who was
-wandering about the world in search of her brother? While the brother
-and sister consulted, Mr. Pen looked sorrowfully over their heads, which
-were bent over these time-tables. He did not himself pretend to
-understand these lines of mysterious figures. He looked from one face to
-another to read what they meant. He was too much abashed by his own
-share in the misfortune to put forward his advice. But when he saw that
-they were both at their wits’ end, Mr. Pen suggested that the place
-where Nello was was nearer to Randolph than to themselves, and that he
-might get there that night if he was informed at once, and give them
-news, at least let them know whether Lilias had reached the house where
-her brother was. “And I will go by the first train,” Mr. Pen said
-timidly. “Let me go, as I have had a hand in it. John knows I could not
-mean any harm to his boy----.”
-
-Nobody had meant any harm, but the fact that the two children were both
-gone, and one, a girl like Lilias, wandering by herself no one knew
-where, was as bad as if they had meant it a hundred times over. Who
-could it be who had beguiled her with this story of Nello’s trouble? If
-John, who had suffered so much, and who had come from the country where
-feuds and vengeance still flourish, suspected an enemy in it, suspected
-even his brother who had never been his friend, who could wonder? They
-telegraphed to Randolph, and to Mr. Swan, and to the stations on the
-way, John himself hurrying to Pennington to do so. And then when all
-this was done, which made an exciting bustle for a moment, there was
-nothing further possible but to wait till evening for the train. Such
-pauses are due to the very speed and superior possibilities of modern
-life. A post-chaise was slower than the railway, but it could be had at
-once, and those long and dreary hours of delay, of time which one feels
-to be lost, and in which, while we wait, anything fatal may happen, are
-the reverse side of the medal, the attendant disadvantage upon headlong
-speed and annihilation of distance. What a miserable house it was during
-all that eternal day! Anxieties of every kind filled their minds--those
-which concerned life and the living coming uppermost and shutting out
-the solemn interest of the chamber over which death had been hovering.
-The Squire slept, but only his nurse, unmoved in professional calm,
-watched over him; and when he woke, still wrapped in a mist and haze of
-half-consciousness which subdued all his being, yet with an aspect less
-deathlike, Mary came and went to and from his room, in an enforced
-stillness almost beyond bearing, not daring to stay long in one place
-lest she should betray herself. She dared not allow herself to think of
-little Lilias, perhaps in evil hands, perhaps wandering alone. Her
-little Lily! Mary felt it would be impossible to sit still, impossible
-to endure at all if she did not thrust away this thought. A little
-woman-child, at that tender age, too young for self-protection, too old
-for absolute impunity from harm. Mary clasped her hands tightly together
-and forced her thoughts into another channel. There was no lack indeed
-of other channels for her anxieties; her father thus lying between life
-and death, and her brother with all the penalties of old on his head,
-going and coming without concealment, without even an attempt to
-disguise himself. It would have been better even for John, Mary felt
-instinctively, if the Squire had been visibly dying instead of rallying.
-What if he should wake again to full consciousness, and order the doors
-of his house to be closed against his son as he had done before? What
-if, seeing this, and seeing him there without attempt at concealment,
-rejected by his own family, the old prosecution should be revived and
-John taken? After that--But Mary shuddered and dropped this thread of
-thought also. The other, even the other was less terrible. Thus passed
-this miserable day.
-
-Randolph had been alarmed even before the family were, though in a
-different fashion. Almost as soon as he had seated himself at his
-respectable clergymanly breakfast-table, after prayers and all due
-offices of the morning, a telegram was put into his hand. This made his
-pulse beat quicker, and he called to his wife to listen, while a whole
-phantasmagoria of possibilities seemed to rise like a haze about the
-yellow envelope, ugliest of inclosures. What could it be but his
-father’s death that was thus intimated to him--an event which must have
-such important issues? When he had read it, however, he threw it on the
-table with an impatient “Pshaw! The little boy, always the little boy,”
-he cried; “I think that little boy will be the death of me.” Mrs.
-Randolph, who had heard of this child as the most troublesome of
-children, gave all her sympathy to her husband, and he contented himself
-with another message back again, saying that he had no doubt Mr. Swan
-would soon find the little fugitive, who had not come to him as the
-schoolmaster supposed. The day, however, which had begun thus in
-excitement, soon had other incidents to make it memorable. Early in the
-afternoon other telegrams came. The one he first opened was from Mr.
-Pen; this at least must be what he hoped for. But instead of telling of
-the Squire’s death, Mr. Pen telegraphed to him an entreaty which he
-could not understand. “Lilias is missing too--for God’s sake go at once
-to the school and ascertain if she is there.” What did he mean--what did
-the old fool mean?
-
-“Here is another, Randolph,” said his wife, composing her face into
-solemnity. “I fear--I fear this at least must be bad news from the
-Castle.”
-
-In the heat of his disappointment and impatience Randolph was as nearly
-as possible exclaiming in over-sincerity, “Fear!--I hope it is, with all
-my heart.” But when he opened it he stood aghast; his brother’s name
-stared him in the face--“John Musgrave.” How came it there--that
-outlawed name? It filled him with such a hurry and ferment of agitation
-that he cared nothing what the message was; he let it drop and looked up
-aghast in his wife’s face.
-
-“Is it so?” she said, assuming the very tone, the right voice with which
-a clergyman’s wife ought to speak of a death. “Alas, my poor dear
-husband, is it so? is he gone indeed?”
-
-But Randolph forgot that he was a clergyman and all proprieties. He
-threw down the hideous bit of paper and jumped to his feet and paced
-about the room in his excitement. “He has come, confound him!” he cried.
-
-Not gone! that would have been nothing but good news--but this was bad
-indeed, something unthought of, never calculated upon; worse than any
-misgiving he had ever entertained. He had been uneasy about the child,
-the boy whom everybody would assume to be the heir; but John--that John
-should return--that he should be there before his father died--this
-combination was beyond all his fears.
-
-After he had got over the first shock he took up the telegram to see
-what it was that “John Musgrave, Penninghame Castle,”--the name written
-out in full letters, almost with ostentation, no concealing or
-disguising of it, though it was a name lying under the utmost penalties
-of the law--had to say to him.
-
-“_My little daughter has been decoyed away under pretence that her
-brother was in danger. You can reach the place to-day. I cannot. Will
-you serve me for once, and go and telegraph if she is safe?_” This was
-the communication. Randolph’s breast swelled high with what he felt to
-be natural indignation. “I serve him! I go a hundred miles or so for his
-convenience. I will see him--hanged first!” Hanged--yes, that was what
-would happen to the fellow if he were caught, if everybody were not so
-weakly indulgent, so ready to defeat the law. And this was the man who
-ventured to bid his brother “serve him for once,” treating him,
-Randolph, a clergyman, a person irreproachable, in this cavalier
-fashion. What had he to do with it if the little girl had been decoyed
-away? No doubt the little monkey, if all were known, was ready enough to
-go. He hoped in his heart they were both gone together, and would never
-be heard of more.
-
-When he came as far as this, however, Randolph pulled himself up short.
-After all, he was not a bad man to rejoice in the afflictions of his
-neighbours; he only wished them out of his way, he did not wish any harm
-to them; and he felt that what he had just said in his heart was wicked,
-and might bring down a “judgment.” To come the length of a wish that
-your neighbour may not thrive is a thing that no respectable person
-should allow himself to do; a little grudging of your neighbour’s
-prosperity, a little secret satisfaction in his trouble, is a different
-matter,--but articulately to wish him harm! This brought him to himself
-and made him aware of his wife’s eyes fixed upon him with some anxiety.
-She was a gentle little believing sort of woman, without any brains to
-speak of, and she thought dear Randolph’s feelings had been too much for
-him. Her eyes were fixed on him with devout sympathy. How much feeling
-he had, though he did not speak much of it; what strong affections he
-had! Randolph paused a little to calm himself down. These all-trusting
-women are sometimes an exasperation unspeakable in their innocence, but
-still, on the other hand, a man must often make an effort not to dispel
-such belief. He said, “No, my dear, it is not what I thought; my father
-is not dead, but suffering, which is almost worse; and my brother whom
-you have heard of--who has been such a grief to us all--has come home
-unexpectedly.”
-
-“Oh, Randolph!” The innocent wife went to him and took his hand and
-caressed it. “How hard upon you! How much for you to bear! Two such
-troubles at once.”
-
-“Yes, indeed,” he said, accepting her sympathy, “and the little boy whom
-I told you of, whom I took to school,--well, he has run away----”
-
-“Oh, Randolph dear, what mountains of anxiety upon you!”
-
-“You may say so. I must go, I suppose, and look after this little
-wretch. Put me up something in the little portmanteau--and from thence I
-suppose I had better go on to Penninghame again. Who knows what trouble
-may follow John’s most ill-advised return?”
-
-“And they all lean so on you,” said the foolish wife. Notwithstanding
-these dozen years of separation between him and his family, she was able
-to persuade herself of this, and that he was the prop and saviour of his
-race. There is nothing that foolish wives will not believe.
-
-Randolph, however, wavered in his decision after he had made up his mind
-to go. Why should he go, putting himself to so much trouble at John’s
-order? He changed his mind half a dozen times in succession. Finally,
-however, he did go, sending two messages back on his way, one to John,
-the other to Mr. Pen. To John he said: “_I am alarmed beyond measure to
-see your name. Is it safe for you to be there? Know nothing about
-little girl, but hear that little boy has run away from school and am
-going to see._” Thus he planted, or meant to plant, an additional sting
-in his brother’s breast. And as he travelled along in the afternoon,
-going to see after Nello, his own exasperation and resentment became so
-hot within him, that when he arrived at the junction, he sent a message
-of a very different tenor to Mr. Pen. He did not perhaps quite know what
-he was doing. He was furious with disappointment and annoyance and
-confusion, feeling himself cheated, thrust aside, put out of the place
-which he ought to have filled. Nello would have had harsh justice had he
-been brought before him at such a moment, “Little troublesome,
-effeminate baby, good for nothing, and now to be ruined in every way.
-But I wash my hands of him,” Randolph said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXV.
-
-ANOTHER HELPER.
-
-
-On that same morning when so many things occurred, young Lord Stanton
-was seated in the library at Stanton, with a great deal of business to
-do. He had letters to write, he had the accounts of his agent to look
-over, and a hundred other very pressing matters which demanded his close
-attention. Perhaps it was only natural in these circumstances that Geoff
-should be unusually idle, and not at all disposed to tackle to his work.
-Generally he was so much interested in what was real work that he did it
-heartily, glad of the honest compulsion; but on this morning he was
-unsettled, and not in his usual mood of industry. He watched the leaves
-dropping from the trees outside, he listened idly to the sounds within;
-he scribbled on the margin of his accounts, now a bit of Latin verse
-(for Mr. Tritton was an elegant scholar), now a grotesque face, anything
-but the steady calculations he ought to have made. Now and then a sudden
-recollection of something he had read would cross his mind, when he
-would get up in the middle of a letter to seek the book in which he
-thought it was and verify his recollection on the spot, a thing he would
-not have taken the trouble to do had that floating recollection had any
-connection with the work in which he professed to be engaged. In short,
-he was entirely idle, distracted, and _desœuvré_. Mr. Tritton was
-reading to Lady Stanton in her morning room. It was early; the household
-were all busy and occupied,--all except the young master of it, who
-could not settle to his work.
-
-He was sitting thus when his easily distracted attention was caught by a
-movement outside, not like anything that could be made by bird or dog,
-the only two living creatures likely to be there so close to his window.
-It was the same window through which he had gone out the evening he made
-his night expedition to the hills. The sound caught his attention, as
-anything would have done that gave him an excuse for raising his head
-from the letters he was now trying to write, having given up the
-accounts in despair. When he saw a shadow skirt the grass, Geoff watched
-with eager interest for what would follow--then there was a pause, and
-he had bent over the letter again, thinking it a mere trick of fancy,
-when a sound close to him made him start and look up. Some one was
-standing with his back to the morning light--standing across the
-window-sill with one foot within the room. Geoff started to his feet
-with momentary alarm. “Who are you? Ah! is it Bampfylde?” he said.
-
-“Just me, my young lord. May I come in and speak a word?”
-
-“Certainly--come in. But why not go to the front door and come in like
-any one else? You do not suppose I should have shut my doors on _you_?”
-
-“Maybe, no; but I’m not a visitor for the like of you. I’m little credit
-about a grand house. I’ve not come here for nothing now, but to ask you
-a service.”
-
-“What is it, Bampfylde? If I can do anything for you I will.”
-
-“It’s not exactly for me, but you can do it if you will, my young lord.
-It’s something I’m hindered from doing. It’s for the young ones at the
-Castle, that you know of. Both the bairns are in trouble, so far as I
-can judge. I gave the little boy a carrier to let off if he wanted help.
-Me, and still more the old woman, we misdoubted that brother. And nigh a
-week ago the carrier came home, but I was away on--on a hard job, that
-I’m on still, and she did not understand. And when I saw her and told
-her yesterday what the sign was, what does the old woman do but tell the
-little lady--the little miss--and so far as I can hear _she’s_ away, the
-creature herself, a flower of a thing, no bigger than my arm, the very
-image of our Lily: her--that atom--she’s away to deliver her brother, my
-young lord,” said the vagrant, leaning against the window. “I’m most
-worn out by the same sort o’ work. There’s far too much of that been
-done among us one way and another, and _she’s_ away now on the same
-errand--to save her brother. It’s laughable if you think on’t,” he said,
-with a curious gurgle in his throat of forlorn ridicule.
-
-Geoff, who had leaned forward at the name of the children, saw that
-Bampfylde was very pale and worn, his clothes in less order than usual,
-and an air of utter weariness and harassment about him. He looked like a
-man who had not slept or undressed for days.
-
-“Has anything new happened?” Geoff asked hurriedly. “Of course I will do
-whatever I can for the children--but tell me first--has anything
-happened with you?”
-
-“Ay, plenty,” said the rough fellow with a great sigh, which was not
-sentiment but fatigue. “If that will not vex you, my young lord, saving
-your presence, I’ll sit down and rest my bones while I talk to you, for
-I’m near dead with tiredness. _He’s_ given us the slip--I cannot tell
-you how. Many a fear we’ve had, but this time it’s come true. Tuesday
-was a week he got away, the day after I’d been to see about the little
-lad. We thought he was but hanging about the fells in corners that none
-but him and me know, as he once did before, and I got him back. But it’s
-worse than that. Lord! there’s many an honest man lost on the fells in
-the mists, that has a wife and bairns looking to him. Would it not be
-more natural to take the likes of him, and let the father of a family go
-free? I cannot touch him, but there’s no law to bind the Almighty. But
-all that’s little to the purpose. He’s loose ranging about the country
-and me on his heels. I’ve all but had him three or four times, but he’s
-aye given me the slip.”
-
-“But this is terrible; it is a danger for the whole country,” said
-Geoff. “The children!” The young man shuddered, he did not realize that
-the children were at a distance. He thought of nothing more than perhaps
-an expedition among the fells for Lilias--and what if she should fall
-into the madman’s hands? “You should have help--you should rouse the
-country,” he said.
-
-“I’ll no do that. Please God I’ll get him yet, and this will be the
-end,” said Bampfylde solemnly. “She cannot make up her mind to it even
-now. She’s infatuate with him. I thought it would have ended when you
-put your hand into the web, my young lord.”
-
-“It is my fault,” said Geoff. “I should have done something more; but
-then Mr. Musgrave fell ill, and I have been waiting. If he dies,
-everything must be gone into. I was but waiting.”
-
-“I am not blaming you. She cannot bide to hear a word, and so she’s been
-all this long time. Now and then her heart will speak for the
-others--them that suffer and have suffered--but it aye goes back to him.
-And I don’t blame her neither,” said Bampfylde. “Its aye her son to her,
-that was a gentleman and her pride.” He had placed himself not on the
-comfortable chair which Geoff had pushed forward for him, but on the
-hard seat formed by the library steps, where he sat with his elbows on
-his knees, and his head supported in his hands, thus reposing himself
-upon himself. “It’s good to rest,” he said, with something of the
-garrulousness of weakness, glad in his exhaustion to stretch himself
-out, as it were, body and soul, and ease his mind after long silence. He
-almost forgot even his mission in the charm of this momentary repose.
-“Poor woman!” he added, pathetically; “I’ve never blamed her. This was
-her one pride, and how it has ended--if it were but ended! No,” he went
-on after a pause, “please God there will be no harm. He’s no
-murdering-mad, like some poor criminals that have done less harm than
-him. It’s the solitary places he flees to, not the haunts o’ men; we’re
-brothers so far as that’s counting. And I drop a word of warning as I
-go. I tell the folks that I hear there’s a poor creature ranging the
-country that is bereft of his senses, and a man after him. I’m the man,”
-said Bampfylde, with a low laugh, “but I tell nobody that; and oh the
-dance he’s led me!” Then rousing himself with an effort, “But I’m losing
-time, and you’re losing time, my young lord. If you would be a help to
-them you should be away. Get out your horse or your trap to take you to
-the train.”
-
-“Where has she gone--by the train?”
-
-“Ay--and a long road. She’s away there last night, the atom, all by
-herself. That’s our blood,” said Bampfylde, with again the low laugh,
-which was near tears. “But I need not say our blood neither, for her
-father has suffered the most of all, poor gentleman--the most of all!
-Look here, my young lord,” he said, suddenly rising up, “if I sit there
-longer I’ll go to sleep, and forget everything; and we’ve no time for
-sleep, neither you nor me. Here’s the place. There’s a train at
-half-past eleven that gets there before dark. You cannot get back
-to-night; you’ll have to leave word that you cannot get back to-night.
-And go now; go, for the love of God!”
-
-Geoff did not hesitate; he rang the bell hastily, and ordered his
-dog-cart to be ready at once, and wrote two or three lines of
-explanation to his mother. And he ordered the servant, who stared at his
-strange companion, to bring some food and wine. But Bampfylde shook his
-head. “Not so,” he said; “not so. Bit nor sup I could not take here. We
-that once made this house desolate, it’s not for us to eat in it or
-drink in it. You’re o’er good, o’er good, my young lord; but I’ll not
-forget the offer,” he added, the water rushing to his eyes. He stood in
-front of the light stretching his long limbs in the languor of
-exhaustion, a smile upon his face.
-
-“You have overdone yourself, Bampfylde. You are not fit for any more
-exertion. What more can you do than you have done? I’ll send out all the
-men about the house, and----”
-
-“Nay, but I’ll go to the last--as long as I can crawl. Mind you the
-young ones,” he said; “and for all you’re doing, and for your good
-heart, God bless you, my young lord!”
-
-It seemed to Geoff like a dream when he found himself standing alone in
-the silent room among his books, with neither sight nor sound of any
-one near. Bampfylde disappeared as he had come, in a moment, vanishing
-among the shrubberies; and the young man found himself charged with a
-commission he did not understand, with a piece of dirty paper in his
-hand, upon which an address was rudely scrawled. What was he to do at
-this school, a day’s journey off, about which he knew nothing? He would
-have laughed at the wild errand had he not been too deeply impressed by
-his visitor’s appearance and manner to be amused by anything thus
-suggested. But wild as it was, Geoff was resolved to carry it out. Even
-the vaguest intimation of danger to Lilias would have sufficed to rouse
-him, but he had scarcely taken that thought into his mind. He could
-think of nothing but Bampfylde, and this with a pang of sympathy and
-interest which he could scarcely explain to himself. As he drove along
-towards the Stanton station, the first from Pennington, his mind was
-entirely occupied with this rough fellow. Something tragic about him, in
-his exhaustion, in the _effusion_ of his weakness, had gone to Geoff’s
-heart. He looked eagerly for traces of him--behind every bush, in every
-cross-road. And to increase his anxiety, the servant who accompanied him
-began to entertain him with accounts of a madman who had escaped from an
-asylum, and who kept the country in alarm. “Has he been seen anywhere?
-has he harmed any one?” Geoff asked, eagerly. But there were no details
-to be had; nothing but the general statement. Geoff gave the man orders
-to warn the gamekeepers and out-door servants, and to have him secured
-if possible. It was scarcely loyal perhaps to poor Bampfylde, who had
-trusted him. Thus he had no thought but Bampfylde in his mind when he
-found himself in the train, rushing along on the errand he did not
-understand. It was a quick train, the one express of the day; and even
-at the junction there were only a few minutes to wait: very unlike the
-vigil that poor little Lilias had held there in the middle of night
-under the dreary flickering of the lamp. Geoff knew nothing of this; but
-by dint of thinking he had evolved something like a just idea of the
-errand on which he was going. Lilias had been warned that her brother
-was not happy, and had gone like a little Quixote to relieve him. Geoff
-could even form an idea to himself of the pre-occupation of the house
-with the Squire’s illness, which would close all ears to Lilias’ appeal
-about Nello’s fancied unhappiness. Little nuisance! Geoff himself felt
-disposed to say--thinking any unhappiness that could happen to Nello of
-much less importance than the risk of Lilias. But he had not, of course,
-the least idea of Nello’s flight. He arrived at the station about five
-o’clock in the afternoon, adding another bewilderment to the solitary
-official there, who had been telegraphed to from Penninghame, and
-already that day had been favoured by two interviews with Mr. Swan. “A
-young lady? I wish all young ladies were---- Here’s a message about her;
-and the schoolmaster, he’s been at me, till I am sick of my life. What
-young lady could there be here? Do you think I’m a-hiding of her?” he
-cried, with that instinctive suspicion of being held responsible which
-is so strong in his class. Geoff however, elicited by degrees all that
-there was to find out, and discovered at the same time that the matter
-was much more serious than he supposed. The little boy had run away from
-school; the little girl, evidently coming to meet him, had disappeared
-with him. It was supposed that they must have made for the railway, as
-the woman in the cottage close by had confessed to having given them
-breakfast; but they had disappeared from her ken, so that she
-half-thought they had been ghost-children, with no reality in them; and
-though the country had been scoured everywhere, neither they, nor any
-trace of them, were to be found.
-
-This was the altogether unsatisfactory ground upon which Geoff had to
-work,--and at five o’clock on an October afternoon there is but little
-time for detailed investigation of a country. His eye turned, as that of
-Lilias had done, to the wood. It was the place in which she would
-naturally take refuge. Had the wood been examined? he asked. Yes, every
-corner of it. Geoff was at his wits’ end, and did not know what to do;
-he went down the road where Lilias had gone in the morning and talked to
-the woman, who told him a moving story of the tired pair, and declared
-that she would not have let them go, seeing very well that they were a
-little lady and gentleman, but that they had stolen away when her back
-was turned. Geoff stood at the cottage door gazing round him, when he
-saw something that no one else had noticed, a small matter enough.
-Caught upon the hedge, which reached close to the cottage, there was a
-shred of blue--the merest rag, a few threads, nothing more--such an
-almost invisible indication as a savage might leave to enable his
-companions to track him--a thing that could be seen only by instructed
-eyes. Geoff’s eyes were inexperienced, but they were keen: and he knew
-the colour of Lilias’ dress, which the other searchers were not aware
-of. He disentangled the threads carefully from the twig. One long hair,
-and that too was Lilias’ colour, had caught on the same thorn. This
-seemed to him a trace unmistakeable, notwithstanding that the woman of
-the cottage immediately claimed it. “Dear, I did not know that I had
-torn my best blue dress,” she said, with genuine alarm. Geoff, however,
-left her abruptly, and followed out his clue. He hastened by the
-footpath behind the hedge towards the wood. It was the natural place for
-Lilias to be. By this time the young man had forgotten everything except
-the girl, who was at once a little child appealing to all his tenderest
-sympathies, and a little visionary princess to whom he had vowed
-himself. She was both in the combination of the moment--a tired child
-whom he could almost carry away in his arms, who would not be afraid of
-him, or shrink from these brotherly arms; but, at the same time, the
-little mother-woman, the defender and protector of one more helpless
-than herself. Geoff’s heart swelled with a kind of heavenly enthusiasm
-and love. Never could there have been a purer passion. He hurried
-through the wood and through the wood, searching in all its glades and
-dells, peering into the very hollows of the old trees. There was
-nothing: Was there nothing? Not a movement, not a sound, except the
-birds chirping, the rush of a rabbit or squirrel, the flutter of the
-leaves in the evening air. For it was evening by this time, that could
-not be denied; the last, long, slant rays of the sun were sloping along
-the trunks and roots of the trees, and the mossy greenness that covered
-them. The day was over in which a man could work, and night--night that
-would chill the children to the heart, and drive them wild with
-fear--desolate, dark night, full of visionary terrors, and also real
-dangers, was coming. Geoff had made up his mind certainly that they were
-there. He did not think of a magician’s cave or a hermit’s cell, as
-Lilias had done, but only whether there was some little hut anywhere,
-where they could have found refuge,--a hollow, unknown to him, where
-they might have hid themselves, not knowing a friend was near. The sun
-had lit up an illumination in the west, and shone through the red and
-yellow leaves with reflections of colour softer and more varying, but
-still more brilliant, than their own. The world seemed all ablaze
-between the two, with crimson and gold--autumn sun above, autumn foliage
-below. Then tone by tone and colour by colour died out from the skies,
-and the soft yet cold grey of the evening took possession of all. The
-paths of the wood seemed to grow ghostly in the gathering dusk, the
-colour stole out of the trees, the very sky seemed to drop lower as the
-night gathered in. Geoff walked about in a kind of despair. He called
-them, but there came no answer; he seemed to himself to poke into every
-corner, into the damp depths where the cold dew seemed to ooze out from
-the ground weighing down every leaflet. He was sure they were there.
-Must they spend the night in the dark, and be frozen and frightened to
-death before the morning? Geoff’s heart was full of anxiety and pity. It
-seemed to him that he must stay there to keep them company, whether he
-could find them or not.
-
-Then all at once he heard a sound like a low sob. It seemed to come from
-the ground, close to where he was standing, but he could see nothing but
-a little tangle of wild brambles, long branches with still a solitary
-berry here and there, the leaves scanty, scarlet and brown with the
-frost. They were all clustered about the trunk of a big tree, a little
-thicket, prickly and impregnable, but close to the path. And was it the
-breathing of the night air only, or some wild creature in the brushwood,
-or human respiration, that came soft, almost indistinguishable in the
-soft murmur of the wood? He stood still, scarcely venturing himself to
-breathe, so intent was he to listen; and by and by he heard the sound
-again. A child’s sob, the soft pathetic reverberation of a sob, such as
-continues to come after the weeping is over. With trembling eagerness,
-yet caution, Geoff put aside the long tangles of the bramble which fell
-in a kind of arch. It was a hard piece of work, and had to be done with
-caution not to disturb the poor little nestlings, if nestlings there
-were. There Geoff disclosed to the waning light the prettiest pathetic
-picture. It was not the same green hollow in which the children had
-first taken refuge. They had been roused by the sound of passengers
-through the wood, and the voices of the people who were searching for
-themselves, and had woke up in fright. When these noises ceased they had
-strayed deeper into the wood to another and safer shelter, Nello being
-too frightened and miserable to go on as Lilias wished. At last they had
-found this refuge under the bramble bushes where nobody surely could
-ever find them, meaning to lie there all day and creep out at night to
-continue their journey. Lilias had seated herself first, spreading out
-her skirt to protect her brother from the damp. There, lying with his
-head and shoulders supported on her lap, he had gone to sleep again,
-while Lilias waked and pondered; very anxious, frightened too, and
-dissatisfied with the loss of time, she sat erect, supporting Nello, and
-gazed up at the dark figure in the twilight with alarmed eyes, which
-seemed to grow larger and larger as they shone in a passion of terror
-through the long tangles of the bush. Lilias had covered her brother
-with her shawl--she drew it over him now, covering the white little face
-on her arm, “What do you want with me? I am only resting. There is no
-one here to do any harm,” she said, with the sob coming again in spite
-of her. She thought it was the cruel schoolmaster, the more cruel uncle,
-who had condemned Nello to so many sufferings. She held her arms over
-him, protecting him--resolute not to let him be taken from her. “Oh, do
-not meddle with me!” she went on, growing more and more desperate. “I
-have some money I will give you, if you will only--only leave me alone.
-There is nobody--but me.”
-
-Oh that sob! if she could only swallow it down and talk to him, this
-robber chief, this Robin Hood, as if she were not afraid! for sometimes
-these men are kind and do not hurt the weak. Lilias gazed, nothing but
-her eyes appearing, glowing through the gathering shade: then suddenly
-threw her brother off her lap in a transport of wild delight, “Oh Nello,
-Nello, Nello!” she cried, till the wood rang, “it is Mr. Geoff!”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVI.
-
-THE BEGINNING OF THE END.
-
-
-Geoff took the children home without let or hindrance. There was no inn
-near where they could pass the night; and as he had no legitimate right
-to their custody, and was totally unknown and very young, and might not
-awaken any lively faith in the bosom of authority as against the
-schoolmaster or the uncle, he thought it wisest to take them away at
-once. He managed to get some simplest food for them with difficulty--a
-little bread and milk--and made them lie down propped amid the cushions
-of a first-class carriage, which was to be hooked on to the evening
-train when it arrived. Before they left the little station he had the
-satisfaction of seeing Randolph Musgrave arrive, looking sour and
-sullen. Geoff did not know that Randolph had done anything unkind to the
-children. Certainly it was none of his fault that Lilias was there; but
-what good partisan ever entered too closely into an examination of the
-actual rights and wrongs of a question? Randolph might have been
-innocent--as indeed he was--of any downright evil intention; but this
-availed him nothing. Geoff looked out of the window of his own carriage
-as they glided away from the station, and gazed with intensest schoolboy
-pleasure on the glum and sour countenance of the churlish uncle, who,
-but for his own intervention, might have wrought destruction to those
-new babes in the wood. He shivered when he thought of the two helpless
-creatures lying under the brambles too frightened to move, and feeling
-to their hearts all the fantastic horrors of the darkness. Now, though
-still in movement, and undergoing still further fatigue, the absolute
-rest which had fallen upon their childish spirits from the mere fact
-that he was there, touched the young man to the heart. They were willing
-to let him take them anywhere; their cares were over. Nello had even
-made a feeble little attempt to shake his draggled plumes and swagger a
-little, sore and uncomfortable though he was, before he clambered into
-the carriage; and Lilias lay in the nest he had made for her, looking
-out with eyes of measureless content--so changed from those great,
-wistful, unfathomable oceans of anxiety and fear which had looked at him
-through the brambles! She put her hand into his as he settled himself in
-his corner beside her--the little soft child’s hand, which he warmed in
-his strong clasp, and which clung to him with a hold which did not relax
-even in her dreams; for she went to sleep so, holding him fast, feeling
-the sense of safety glow over her in delicious warmth and ease. Through
-all the night, even when she slept, at every movement he made, her soft
-fingers closed more firmly upon his hand. It was the child’s anchor of
-safety; and this clinging, conscious and unconscious, went straight to
-Geoff’s heart. In the dark, under the waning light of the lamp overhead,
-he watched the little face sinking into sleep, with now a faint little
-smile upon it--a complete relaxation of all the strained muscles--with a
-sensation of happiness which was beyond words. Sometimes, for the mere
-pleasure of it, he would make a movement wantonly to feel the renewed
-clasp of the little hand and see the drowsy opening of the eyes. “Are
-you there, Mr. Geoff?” she said now and then, with a voice as soft (he
-thought) as the coo of a dove. “Yes, my Lily;” he would say, with his
-heart swelling in his young bosom; and Lilias would drop to sleep again,
-smiling at him, with sleepy eyes, in what ease and infinite content! As
-for Nello, he snored now and then out of very satisfaction and
-slumbering confidence; little snores, something between a little
-cherub’s trumpet and the native utterance of the tenderest of little
-pigs--at that age when even little piggies, by reason of babyhood, have
-something cherubic about them too.
-
-At midnight, at the great junction, a tall, sunburnt, anxious-faced man
-walked along the line of carriages, looking in with eager looks. “Are
-these your children?” he said to Geoff, seeing the two little figures
-laid up among the cushions, and not remarking how young their companion
-was. He spoke abruptly, but taking off his hat with an apologetic grace,
-which Geoff thought “foreign,” as we are all so apt to suppose unusual
-courtesy to be. A sudden inspiration seized the young man. He did not
-know who this was, but somehow he never doubted who it was the stranger
-sought. “They are the little Musgraves of Penninghame,” he said, simply,
-“whom I am taking home.”
-
-The tall stranger wavered for a moment, as though he might have fallen;
-then, in a voice half-choked, he asked, “May I come beside you?” He sat
-down in the seat opposite to Geoff. After an anxious inspection of the
-two little faces, now settled into profound sleep, “Thank God!” he said.
-“They are all I have in the world.”
-
-Who could it be? Geoff’s ears seemed to tingle with the words--“all I
-have in the world.” He sat in his dark corner and gazed at this strange
-new-comer, who was more in the light. And the new-comer gazed at him.
-Seeing, after a while, the child’s hand clasped in his--a mark of trust
-which, sweet as it was, kept young Geoff in a somewhat forced attitude
-not comfortable for a long night journey,--“I do not know you,” he said,
-“but my little girl seems to put her whole trust in you, and that must
-make me your grateful servant too.”
-
-“Then you are John Musgrave?” cried the young man. “Oh, sir, I am
-glad--most glad, that you have come home! Yes, I think she likes me; and
-child or woman,” cried young Geoff, clasping the little hand close with
-a sudden _effusion_, “I shall never care for any one else.”
-
-Serious, careworn, in peril of his life, John Musgrave laughed softly in
-his beard. “This is my first welcome home,” he said.
-
-Geoff found a carriage waiting for him at Stanton. His first impulse
-having been to take the children to his mother, he gave them up now with
-a pang, having first witnessed the surprise of incredulous delight with
-which Lilias flung herself at her waking upon her father. The cry with
-which she hailed him, the illumination of her face, and, Geoff felt, her
-utter forgetfulness of his own claims, half-vexed the young man after
-his uncomfortable night; and it was with a certain pang that he gave the
-children up to their natural guardian. “Papa, this is Mr. Geoff,” Lilias
-said; “no one has ever been so kind; and he knows about you something
-that nobody else knows.”
-
-John Musgrave looked up with a gleam of surprise and a faint suffusion
-of colour on his serious face. “Every one here knows about _me_,” he
-said, with a sigh; and then he turned to the young guardian of his
-children, “Lily’s introduction is of the slightest,” he said. “I don’t
-know you, nor how you have been made to take so much interest in
-them--how you knew even that they wanted help: but I am grateful to you
-with all my heart, all the same.”
-
-“I am Geoffrey Stanton,” said the young man. He did not know how to make
-the announcement, but coloured high with consciousness of the pain that
-must be associated with his name. But it was best, he felt, to make the
-revelation at once. “The brother of Walter Stanton, whom----. As Lilias
-says, sir, I know more about you than others know. I have heard
-everything.”
-
-John Musgrave shook his head. “Everything! till death steps in to one or
-another of the people concerned, that is what no one will ever know; but
-so long as you do not shrink from me, Lord Stanton---- You are Lord
-Stanton; is it not so?”
-
-“I am not making any idle brag,” said Geoff. “I know _everything_. It
-was Bampfylde himself--Dick Bampfylde himself--who sent me after the
-children. I know the truth of it all, and I am ready to stand by you,
-sir, whenever and howsoever you want me----”
-
-Geoff bent forward eagerly, holding out his hand, with a flush of
-earnestness and enthusiasm on his young face. Musgrave looked at him
-with great and serious surprise. His face darkened and lighted up, and
-he started slightly at the name of Bampfylde. At last, with a moment’s
-hesitation, he took Geoff’s outstretched hand, and pressed it warmly. “I
-dare not ask what it is you do know,” he said, “but there is nothing on
-my hand to keep me from taking yours; and thank you a thousand
-times--thank you for _them_. About everything else we can talk
-hereafter.”
-
-In ten minutes after Geoff was whirling along the quiet country road on
-his way home. It was like a dream to him that all this should have
-happened since he last drove between those hedgerows, and he had the
-half-disappointed, half-injured feeling of one who has not carried out
-an adventure to its final end. He was worn out too, and excited, and he
-did not like giving up Lily into the hands of her father. Had it been
-Miss Musgrave he would have felt no difficulty. It was chilly in the
-early morning, and he buttoned up his coat to his chin, and put his
-hands in his pockets, and let his groom drive, who had evidently
-something to say to him which could scarcely be kept in till they got
-clear of the station. Geoff had seen it so distinctly in the man’s face,
-that he had asked at once, “Is all right at home?” But he was too tired
-to pay much attention to anything beyond that. When they had gone on for
-about a quarter of an hour, the groom himself broke the silence. “I beg
-your pardon, my lord----”
-
-“What is it?” Geoff, retired into the recesses of his big coat, had been
-half asleep.
-
-Then the man began an excited story. He had heard a scuffle and a
-struggle at a point of the road which they were about approaching when
-on his way to meet his master. Wild cries “not like a human being,” he
-said, and the sound of a violent encounter. “I thought of the madman I
-was telling your lordship of yesterday.” “And what was it?” cried Geoff,
-rousing up to instant interest; upon which the groom became apologetic.
-
-“How could I leave my horse, my lord?--a young beast, very fresh, as
-your lordship knows. He’d have bolted if I’d have left him for a moment.
-It was all I could do, as it was, to hold him in with such cries in his
-ears. I sent on the first man I met. A man does not grapple with a
-madman unless he is obliged to----”
-
-“But you sent the other man to do it,” said Geoff, half-amused,
-half-angry. He sprang from the phaeton as they came to the spot which
-the groom pointed out. It was a little dell, the course of a streamlet,
-widening as it ascended, and clothed with trees. Geoff knew the spot
-well. About half a mile further up, on a little green plateau in the
-midst of the line of sheltering wood which covered these slopes, his
-brother’s body had been found. He had been taken to see the spot with
-shuddering interest when he was a child, and had never forgotten the
-fatal place. The wood was very thick, with rank, dark, water-loving
-trees; and, whether it was fancy or reality, had always seemed to Geoff
-the most dismal spot in the county. All was quiet now, or so he thought
-at first. But there was no mistaking the evidence of wet, broken, and
-trampled grass, which showed where some deadly struggle had been. The
-spot was not far from the road--about five minutes of ascent, no
-more--and the young man pressed on, guided by signs of the fray, and in
-increasing anxiety; for almost at the first step he saw an old
-game-pouch thrown on the ground, which he recognised as having been worn
-by Bampfylde. Presently he heard, a little in advance of him, a low
-groan, and the sound of a sympathetic voice. “Could you walk, with my
-arm to steady you? Will you try to walk, my man?” Another low moaning
-cry followed. “My walking’s done in this world,” said a feeble voice.
-Geoff hurried forward, stifling a cry of grief and pain. He had known it
-since he first set foot on that fatal slope. It was Bampfylde’s voice;
-and presently he came in sight of the group. The sympathiser was the
-same labouring man, no doubt, whom his groom had sent to the rescue.
-Wild Bampfylde lay propped upon the mossy bank, his head supported upon
-a bush of heather. The stranger who stood by him had evidently washed
-the blood from his face and unbuttoned his shirt, which was open. There
-was a wound on his forehead, however, from which blood was slowly
-oozing, and his face was pallid as death. “Let me be--let me be,” he
-said with a groan, as his kind helper tried to raise him. Then a faint
-glimmer of pleasure came over his ghastly face. “Ah, my young lord!” he
-said.
-
-“What is it, Bampfylde? What has happened? Is he much hurt?” cried
-Geoff, kneeling down by his side. The man did not say anything, but
-shook his head. The vagrant himself smiled, with a kind of faint
-amusement in the mournful glimmer of his eyes.
-
-“Not hurt, my young gentleman; just killed,” he said; “but you’re
-back--and they’re safe?”
-
-“Safe, Bampfylde; and listen!--with their father. He has come to take
-care of his own.”
-
-A warmer gleam lighted up the vagrant’s face. “John Musgrave here! Ah,
-but it’s well timed,” he cried feebly. “My young lord, I’m grieved but
-for one thing,--the old woman. Who will take care of old ’Lizabeth’? and
-she’s been a good woman--if it had not been her son that went between
-her and her wits. I’m sorry for her, poor old body; very, very sorry for
-her, poor ’Lizabeth. He’ll never be taken now, my young lord. Now he’s
-killed me, there’s none will ever take him. And so we’ll all be ended,
-and the old woman left to die without one--without one----!”
-
-“My cart is at the foot of the hill,” said Geoff, quickly, addressing
-the labourer, who stood by with tears in his eyes; “take it, and bid the
-groom drive as fast as the horse will go--and he’s fresh--for the first
-doctor you can find; and bid them send an easy carriage from
-Stanton--quick! For every moment you save I’ll give you----”
-
-“I want no giving. What a man can do for poor Dick Bampfylde, I will,”
-cried the other as he rushed down the slope. The vagrant smiled feebly
-again.
-
-“They’re all good-hearted,” he said. “Not one of them but would do poor
-Dick Bampfylde a good turn; that’s a pleasure, my young lord. And
-you--you’re the best of all. Ay, let him go, it’ll please you; but me,
-my hour’s come.”
-
-“Bampfylde, does it hurt you to speak? Can you tell me how it was?”
-
-The poor fellow’s eyes were glazing over. He made an effort, when
-Geoff’s voice caught him as it were, and arrested the stupor. “Eh, my
-young lord? What needs to tell? Poor creature, he did not know me for a
-friend, far less a brother. And madness is strong--it’s strong. Tell the
-old woman that--it was not _me_ he killed--but--one that tried to take
-him. Ay--we were all playing about the beck, and her calling us to come
-in--all the family; him and--Lily--and me. I was always the least
-account--but it was me that would aye be first to answer;--and now we
-are all coming home--Poor old ’Lizabeth--Eh! what were you saying, my
-young lord?”
-
-“Bampfylde! has he got clean off again, after this? Where is he? Can you
-tell me--for the sake of others if not for your own?”
-
-“For mine!--Would it mend me to tell upon him?--Nay, nay, you’ll never
-take him--never now--but he’ll die--like the rest of us--that is what
-puts things square, my young lord--death!--it settles all; you’ll find
-him some place on the green turf--we were aye a family that liked the
-green grass underneath us--you’ll find him--as peaceable as me.”
-
-“Oh, Bampfylde,” cried Geoff, “keep up your courage a little, the men
-will come directly and carry you to Stanton.”
-
-“To carry me--to the kirkyard--that’s my place; and put green turf over
-me--nothing but green turf. So long as you will be kind to old
-’Lizabeth; she’ll live--she’s not the kind that dies--and not one of us
-to the fore! What did we do--we or our fathers?” said the vagrant
-solemnly. “But, oh, that’s true, true--that’s God’s word: neither he did
-it nor his fathers--but that the works of God might be manifest. Eh, but
-I cannot see--I cannot see how the work of God is in it. My
-eyes--there’s not much good in my eyes now.”
-
-Geoff kneeled beside the dying man not knowing what to do or say. Should
-he speak to him of religion? Should he question him about his own hard
-fate, that they might bring it home to the culprit? But Bampfylde was
-not able for either of these subjects. He was wading in the vague and
-misty country which is between life and death. He threw out his arms in
-the languor and restlessness of dying, and one of them dropped so that
-the fingers dipped in the little brook. This brought another gleam of
-faint pleasure to his pallid face.
-
-“Water--give me some--to drink,” he murmured, moving his lips. And then,
-as Geoff brought it to him in the hollow of a leaf, the only thing he
-could think of, and moistened his lips and bathed his forehead, “Thank
-you, Lily,” he said. “That’s pleasant, oh, that’s pleasant. And what was
-it brought you here--_you_ here?--they’re all safe, the young
-ones--thanks to---- Eh! it’s not Lily--but I thought I saw Lily; it’s
-you, my young lord?”
-
-“Yes, I am here--lean on me, Bampfylde. What can I do for you, what can
-I do?” Geoff had never seen death, and he trembled with awe and solemn
-reverence, far more deeply moved than the dying vagrant who was floating
-away on gentle waves of unconsciousness.
-
-“Ay, Lily--d’ye hear her calling?--the house is dark, and the night’s
-fine. But let’s go to her--let’s go; he was aye the last, though she
-likes him best.” Bampfylde raised himself suddenly with a
-half-convulsive movement. “Poor ’Lizabeth!--poor old ’Lizabeth--all
-gone--all gone!” he said.
-
-And what an hour Geoff spent supporting the poor head and moistening the
-dry lips of the man who was dead, yet could not die! He did not know
-there had been such struggles in the world.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVII.
-
-A TRAITOR.
-
-
-Mr. Pennithorne was at the Castle almost all the day during which so
-many things occurred. While the children wandered in the wood and young
-Lord Stanton went in search of them, the Vicar could not leave the
-centre of anxiety. There was no possibility of going upon that quest
-till the evening, and good Mr. Pen thought it his bounden duty to stay
-with John to “take off his attention,” to distract his mind if possible
-from the object of his anxieties. It was all John Musgrave could do, by
-way of consideration for an old friend, to put up with these attentions,
-but he managed to do so without betraying his impatience, and Mr. Pen
-thought he had performed the first duty of friendship. He suggested
-everything he could think of that might have happened; most of his
-suggestions going to prove that Lilias was in very great peril indeed,
-though she might be saved by various ingenious ways. And he took Mary
-aside and shook his head, and said he was afraid it was a very bad
-business. He believed, good man, that he was of the greatest use to them
-both, and congratulated himself on having stayed to discharge this
-Christian duty. But Mrs. Pen at the Vicarage got cross and nervous, and
-did not think her husband was doing his duty to his home. When a
-telegram came in the afternoon, she was not only curious but
-frightened--for telegrams she thought were always messages of evil. What
-could it tell but harm? Perhaps that her father had been taken ill (Mr.
-Pen himself had no family, nor anybody to speak of belonging to him);
-perhaps that the investment had gone wrong in which all their little
-money was. She tore it open in great agitation, and read as follows:--
-
-“_John Musgrave is in the county and near you. Do you remember what is
-your duty as a magistrate, and what is the penalty of not performing
-it?_”
-
-Mrs. Pen read this alarming missive two or three times over before she
-could understand what it meant. John Musgrave! By degrees it became
-clear to her. This was why her husband deserted her, and spent his whole
-day at the Castle. He a magistrate, whose first duty it was to send John
-Musgrave to prison. The penalty--what was the penalty? The poor woman
-was in such a frenzy of agitation and terror that she did not know what
-to believe. What could they do to him if it was found out? She went to
-the window and looked for him; she went out and walked to the garden
-gate; she was not able to keep still. The penalty--what was it? Could
-they put him in prison instead of the criminal he allowed to go free?
-That seemed the most natural thing, and imagination conjured up before
-her the dreadful scene of Mr. Pen’s arrest, perhaps when he was going to
-church, perhaps when the house was full of people--everybody
-seeing--everybody knowing it. Mrs. Pen saw her husband dragged along the
-road in handcuffs before she came to an end of her imaginations. Was
-there nothing she could do to save him? She was ready to put herself in
-the breach, to say, like a heroine, “Take me, and let him go free?” but
-it did not appear to her likely that the myrmidons of the law would pay
-any attention to such a touching interposition. Then it occurred to her
-to look who it was, a thing she had not noticed at first, who had sent
-this kind warning. But this alarmed her more and more. It was some one
-who called himself “Friend,” who had taken the trouble from a distant
-place in the midland counties to telegraph thus to Mr. Pennithorne. A
-friend--it was then an anonymous warning, a very alarming thing indeed
-to the vulgar mind. Mrs. Pen worked herself up into a state of intense
-nervous agitation. She sent for the gardener that she might send him at
-once to the Castle for her husband. But before he came another train of
-reflections came across her mind. John Musgrave was her William’s
-friend. He was devoted to the family generally, and to this member of it
-in particular. Was he not capable of going to prison--of letting himself
-be handcuffed and dragged along the public road, and cast into a
-dungeon, rather than give up his friend to justice? Oh, what could the
-poor woman do? If she could but take some step--do something to save him
-before he knew.
-
-All at once there occurred to Mrs. Pen a plan of action which would put
-everything right--save William in spite of himself, and without his
-knowledge, and put John Musgrave in the hands of justice without any
-action of his which could be supposed unfriendly. She herself, Mrs. Pen,
-did not even know John, so that if she betrayed him it would be nothing
-unkind, nobody could blame her, not Mary Musgrave herself. When the
-gardener came, instead of sending him to the Castle for her husband, she
-sent him to the village to order the fly in which she occasionally paid
-visits; and she put on her best clothes with a quiver of anxiety and
-terror in her heart. She put the telegram in her pocket, and drove
-away--with a half-satisfaction in her own appearance and half-pride in
-bidding the man drive to Elfdale, to Sir Henry Stanton’s, mingling with
-the real anxiety in her heart. She was frightened too at what she was
-about to do--but nobody could expect from her any consideration for John
-Musgrave, whom she had never seen; whereas, to save her husband from the
-consequences of his foolish faithfulness, was not that the evident and
-first duty of a wife? It was a long drive, and she had many misgivings
-as she drove along, with plenty of time to consider and reconsider all
-the arguments she had already gone over; but yet when she got to Elfdale
-she did not seem to have had any time to think at all. She was hurried
-in, before she knew, to Sir Henry Stanton’s presence. He was the nearest
-magistrate of any importance, and Mrs. Pen had a slight visiting
-acquaintance, of which she was very proud, with Lady Stanton. Had she
-repented at the last of her mission, she could always make out to
-herself that it was Lady Stanton she had come to visit. But it was Sir
-Henry whom she asked for, alarm for her husband at the last moment
-getting the better of her fears.
-
-Sir Henry received her with a great deal of surprise. What could the
-little country clergyman’s wife want with him? But he was still more
-surprised when he heard her errand. John Musgrave at home!--within
-reach--daring justice--defying the law! His wife had told him of some
-supposed discovery which she at least imagined likely to clear Musgrave,
-by bringing in another possible criminal, but that must be some merely
-nonsensical theory he had no doubt, such as women and boys are apt to
-indulge:--for if anything could be worse than women, Sir Henry felt it
-was boys inspired by women, and carrying out their fancies. Therefore he
-had paid very little regard to what his wife said. Mrs. Pennithorne had
-the advantage of rousing him into excitement. “What! come back!--daring
-justice to touch him--insulting the family of the man he had killed, and
-the laws of the country!” Sir Henry fumed at the audacity, the evident
-absence of all remorse or compunction. “He must be a shameless,
-heartless ruffian,” he said; and then he looked at the harmless little
-woman who had brought him this news. “It is very public-spirited to
-bestir yourself in the matter,” he said. “Have you seen the man, Mrs.
-Pennithorne, or how have you come to know?”
-
-“I have not seen him. Sir Henry. I don’t know anything about him,
-therefore nobody could say that it was unkind in _me_. How can you have
-any feeling for a person you never saw? I got--the news--to-day when my
-husband was at the Castle--_he_ did not tell me--he has nothing to do
-with it. He is a great friend of the Musgraves, Sir Henry; and I was
-told if he knew and did not tell it would bring him into trouble; so I
-came to you. I thought it was a wife’s duty. I did not wait till he came
-in to show him the telegram, but I came straight on to you.”
-
-“Then you got a telegram?”
-
-“Did I say a telegram?” she said, frightened. “Oh--I did not think what
-I was saying. But why should I conceal it? Yes, indeed, Sir Henry, this
-afternoon there came a telegram. I have never had a moment’s peace since
-then. I thought at first I would send for him and see what he would do,
-but then I thought--he thinks so much of the Musgraves--no doubt it
-would be a trouble to him to go against them; and so I thought before he
-came in I would come to you. I would not do anything without consulting
-my husband in any ordinary way, indeed, I assure you, Sir Henry. I am
-not a woman of that kind; but in a thing that might have brought him
-into such trouble----”
-
-“And is that telegram all you know, Mrs. Pennithorne?”
-
-A horrible dread that he was going to disapprove of her, instead of
-commending her, ran through her mind.
-
-“It is all,” she said, faltering; “I have it in my pocket.”
-
-To show the telegram was the last thing in her mind, yet she produced it
-now in impetuous self-defence. Having made such a sacrifice as she had
-done, acted on her own authority, incurred the expense of the fly,
-absented herself from home without anybody’s knowledge (though William
-was far too much wrapped up in the Musgraves to be aware of that), it
-was more than Mrs. Pennithorne could bear to have her motives thus
-unappreciated. She held out the telegram without pausing to think. He
-took it, and read it, with a curious look on his face. Sir Henry took a
-low view of wives, and of women in general. If she belonged to him how
-he would put her down, this meddling woman! but he was glad to learn
-what she had to tell, and to be able to act upon it. To approve of your
-informant and to use the information obtained are two very different
-things.
-
-“This is a threat,” he said; “this is a very curious communication, Mrs.
-Pennithorne. Do you know who sent it? Friend! Is it a friend in the
-abstract, or does your husband know any one of the name?”
-
-“I don’t know who it is. Oh no, Sir Henry. William knows no one--no one
-whom I don’t know! His friends are my friends. My husband is the best of
-men. He has not a secret from me. If I may seem to be acting behind his
-back it is only to save him, Sir Henry--only for his good.”
-
-“You are acting in the most public-spirited way, Mrs. Pennithorne; but
-it is very strange, and I wonder who could have sent it. Do you know any
-one at this place?”
-
-“Nobody,” she said, composing herself, yet not quite satisfied either,
-for public-spirited was but a poor sort of praise. She was conscious
-that she was betraying her husband as well as John Musgrave, and nothing
-but distinct applause and assurance that she had saved her William could
-have put her conscience quite at ease.
-
-“It is very odd--very odd,” he said; “but I am very much obliged to you
-for bringing this information to me, and I shall lose no time in acting
-upon it. For a long time, a very long time, this man has evaded the law;
-but it will not do to defy it--it never does to defy it. He shall find
-that it is more watchful than he thought.”
-
-“And, Sir Henry, of course it is of my husband I must think first. You
-will not say he knew? You will not let him get into trouble about it?--a
-clergyman, a man whom every one looks up to! You will save him from the
-penalty, Sir Henry? Indeed I have no reason to believe he knew at all;
-he has never seen this thing. I don’t suppose he knows at all. But he
-might be so easily got into trouble! Oh, Sir Henry! you will not let
-them bring in William’s name?”
-
-“I shall take care that Mr. Pennithorne is not mentioned at all,” he
-said, with a polite bow; but he did not add, “You are a heroic woman and
-you have saved your husband,” which was the thing poor Mrs. Pen wanted
-to support her. She put back her telegram in her pocket very humbly, and
-rose up, feeling herself more a culprit than a heroine, to go away. At
-this moment Lady Stanton herself came in hurriedly.
-
-“I heard Mrs. Pennithorne was here,” she said, with a half-apology to
-her husband, “and I thought I might come and ask what was the last
-news from Penninghame--if there was any change. I am not
-interrupting--business?”
-
-“No; you will be interested in the news Mrs. Pennithorne brings me,”
-said Sir Henry, with a certain satisfaction. “Mr. Musgrave’s son John,
-in whom you have always shown so much interest, Walter Stanton’s
-murderer----”
-
-“No, no,” she said, with a shudder, folding her hands instinctively;
-“no, no!” The colour went out of her very lips. She was about to hear
-that he had died. He must have died on the very day she saw him. She
-listened, looking at her husband all pale and awe-stricken, with a gasp
-in her throat.
-
---“Is here,” said Sir Henry, deliberately. “Here, where it was done,
-defying the law.”
-
-Mary uttered a great cry of mingled relief and despair.
-
-“Then it was he--it was he--and no ghost!” she cried.
-
-“What! you knew and never told me? I am not so happy in my wife,” said
-Sir Henry, with a threatening smile, “as Mr. Pennithorne.”
-
-“Oh, was it he--was it he?--no spirit--but himself? God help him,” cried
-Lady Stanton, with sudden tears. “No, I could not have told you, for I
-thought it was an apparition. And I would not, Henry,” she added with a
-kind of generous passion, “I would not, if I could. How could I betray
-an innocent man?”
-
-“Happily Mrs. Pennithorne has saved you the trouble,” he said, getting
-up impatiently from his seat. He resented his wife’s silence, but he
-scorned the other woman who had brought him the news. “Do not let me
-disturb you, ladies, but this is too important for delay. The warrant
-must be out to-night. I trust to your honour, or I might arrest you
-both,” he said with a sneer--“two fair prisoners--lest you should warn
-the man and defeat justice again.”
-
-“Henry, you are not going to arrest him--to _arrest_ him--after what I
-told you? I told you that Geoff----”
-
-“Geoff! send Geoff to your nursery, to play with your children, Lady
-Stanton,” he cried, in rising wrath, “rather than make a puppet of him
-to carry out your own ideas. I have had enough of boys’ nonsense and
-women’s. Go to your tea-table, my lady, and leave me to manage my own
-concerns.”
-
-Then Lady Stanton--was it not natural?--with a white, self-contained
-passion, turned upon the other commonplace woman by her side, who stood
-trembling before the angry man, yet siding with him in her heart, as
-such women do.
-
-“And is it you that have betrayed him?” she cried; “do you know that
-your husband owes everything to him--everything? Oh, it cannot be Mr.
-Pen’s doing--he loved them all too well. If it is you, how will you bear
-to have his blood on your head? God knows what they may prove against
-him, or what they may do to him; but whatever it is, it will be a lie,
-and his blood will be on your head. Oh, how could you, a woman, betray
-an innocent man?”
-
-Lady Stanton’s passion, Sir Henry’s lowering countenance, the sudden
-atmosphere of tragedy in which she found herself, were too much for
-poor Mrs. Pen. She burst into hysterical crying, and dropped down upon
-the floor between these two excited people. Perhaps it was as good a way
-as any other of extricating herself out of the most difficult position
-in which a poor little, well-intentioned clergywoman had ever been.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVIII.
-
-THE MOTHER.
-
-
-The afternoon of the day on which poor Bampfylde died was bright and
-fine, one of those beautiful October days which are more lovely in their
-wistful brightness, more touching, than any other period of the
-year--Summer still lingering, the smile on her lip and the tear in her
-eye, dressed out in borrowed splendour, her own fair garniture of
-flowers and greenery worn out, but wearing her Indian mantle with a
-tender grace, subdued and sweet. The late mignonette over-blown, yet
-fragrant, was sweet in the little village gardens, underneath the pale
-China roses that still kept up a little glow of blossom. Something had
-excited the village; the people were at their doors, and gathered in
-groups about. Miss Price, the dressmaker, held a little court. There was
-evidently something to tell, something to talk over more than was usual.
-The few passengers who were about stayed to hear, and each little knot
-of people which had managed to secure a new listener was happy. They
-were all in full tide of talk, commenting upon and discussing some
-occurrence with a certain hush, at the same time, of awe about them,
-which showed that the news was not of a joyful character--when some one
-came down through the village whose appearance raised the excitement to
-fever point. It was the well-known figure of the old woman in her grey
-cloak--so well known up the water and down the water, which thus
-suddenly appeared among them--old ’Lizabeth Bampfylde! The gossips
-shrank closer together, and gazed at her with eager curiosity all, with
-sympathy some. They drew away from her path with a feeling which was
-half reverence and half fear. “Does she know--do you think she knows?”
-some of them asked; and exclamations of, “Poor old body--poor woman,”
-were rife among the kind-hearted; but all under their breath. ’Lizabeth
-took no notice of the people in her path; perhaps she did not even see
-them. She was warm with her long walk from the fells, and had thrown off
-her hood and knotted her red handkerchief over her cap. She went along
-thus with the long swing of her still vigorous limbs, stately and
-self-absorbed. Whatever she knew, her mind was too much occupied to take
-any notice of the people in her way. She had walked far, and she had far
-to walk still. She went on steadily through the midst of them without a
-pause, looking neither to the right nor the left. There was a tragic
-directness in the very way she moved, going straight as a bird flies, at
-least as straight as the houses permitted, minding no windings of the
-road. The people in front of her stood back and whispered; the people
-behind closed upon her path. Did she know? Would she have had the
-fortitude to come walking down here all this long way had she known? Was
-she going to Stanton, where _they_ were? Last of all, timidly, the
-people said among themselves, “Should not some one tell her?--some one
-should speak to her;” but by this time she had passed through the
-village, and they all felt with a sensation of relief that it was too
-late.
-
-’Lizabeth walked on steadily along the water-side. It was a long way
-that she had still before her. She was going all the way down the water
-to Sir Henry Stanton’s, as Mrs. Pennithorne had gone the day before. The
-walk was nothing to her, and the long silence of it was grateful to her
-mind. She knew nothing of what had happened on the other side of the
-lake. Up in her little house among the hills, all alone in the strange
-cessation of work, the dead leisure which seemed to have fallen upon
-her, she had thought of everything till her head and her heart ached
-alike. Everything now seemed to have gone wrong. Her daughter dead in
-exile, and her daughter’s husband still a banished man, all for the sake
-of him who was roaming over the country, a fugitive escaped from her
-care. The life of her son Dick had been ruined by the same means. And
-now the cycle of misfortune was enlarging. The little boy, who was the
-heir of the Musgraves, was lost too, because he had no one to protect
-him--Lily’s child; and the other Lily, the little lady whom she felt to
-be her own representative as well as Lily’s, who could tell what would
-become of her? It seemed to ’Lizabeth that this child was the most
-precious of all. All the rest had suffered for the sake of her madman;
-but the second Lily, the little princess, who had sprung from her common
-stock, nothing must touch. Yet it cannot be said that it was for Lily’s
-sake that she made up her mind at last; it was nothing so simple, it was
-a combination and complication of many motives. He was gone out of her
-hands who had been for years the absorbing occupation of her life. Dick
-was after him, it was true; but if Dick failed, how was he to be got
-without public help? and that help could not be given until the whole
-story was told. Then her own loneliness wrought upon her, and all the
-whispers and echoes that circled about the cottage, when he was not
-there. Her son, ill-fated companion, the ruin of all who had any
-connection with him, absorbed her so much in general, that she had no
-time to survey the surroundings and think of all that was, and had been,
-and might be. Was it he after all that was the cause of all the
-suffering? What did he know of it? The story of Lily and of John
-Musgrave was a blank to him. He knew nothing of what they had suffered,
-was innocent of it in reality. Had he known, would he not have given
-himself up a hundred times rather than the innocent should suffer for
-him? Was it he, then, or his mother, who was the cause of all? Several
-times, during their long agony, such thoughts had overwhelmed
-’Lizabeth’s mind. They had come over her in full force when the children
-came to the Castle, and then it was that she had been brought to the
-length of revealing her secret to young Lord Stanton. Now everything was
-desperate about her; the little boy lost, the madman himself lost; no
-telling at any moment what misery and horror might come next. She
-thought this over day after day as the time passed, and no news came;
-waiting in the great loneliness, with her doors all open, that he might
-come in if some new impulse, or some touch of use and wont, should lead
-him back, her ears intent to hear every sound; her mind prepared (she
-thought) for anything; fresh violence, perhaps violence to himself;
-miserable death, terrible discovery. She thought she heard his wild
-whoops and cries every time the wind raved among the hills; if a
-mountain stream rushed down a little quicker than usual, swollen by the
-rain, over its pebbles, she thought it was his hurrying steps. It was
-always of him that her thoughts were, not of her other son who was
-pursuing the madman all about, subject to the same accidents, and who
-might perhaps be his victim instead of his captor. She never thought of
-that. But she was driven at last to a supreme resolution. Nobody could
-doubt his madness, could think it was a feint put on to escape
-punishment, now. And God, who was angry, might be propitiated if at last
-she made Him, though unwillingly, this sacrifice, this homage to justice
-and truth. This was the idea which finally prevailed in her mind. She
-would go and tell her story, and perhaps an angry God would accept, and
-restore the wanderer to her. If he were safe, safe even in prison, in
-some asylum, it would be better at least than his wild career of madness
-among all the dangers of the hills. She had risen in the morning from
-her uneasy bed, where she lay half-dressed, always watching, listening
-to every sound, with this determination upon her. She would propitiate
-God. She would do this thing she ought to have done so long ago. She did
-not deny that she ought to have done it, and now certainly she would do
-it, and God would be satisfied, and the tide of fate would turn.
-
-All this struggle had not been without leaving traces upon her. Her
-ruddy colour, the colour of exposure as well as of health and vigour,
-was not altogether gone, but she was more brown than ruddy, and this
-partial paleness and the extreme gravity of her countenance added to the
-stately aspect she bore. She might have been a peasant-queen, as she
-moved along with her steady, long, swinging footstep, able for any
-exertion, above fatigue or common weakness. A mile or two more or less,
-what did that matter? It did not occur to her to go to Mr. Pennithorne,
-though he was nearer, with her story. She went straight to Sir Henry
-Stanton. He had a family right to be the avenger of blood. It would be
-all the compensation that could be made to the Stantons, as well as a
-sacrifice propitiating God. And now that she had made up her mind there
-was no detail from which she shrank. ’Lizabeth never remarked the
-pitying and wondering looks which were cast upon her. She went on
-straight to her end with a sense of the solemnity and importance of her
-mission, which perhaps gave her a certain support. It was no light thing
-that she was about to do. That there was a certain commotion and
-agitation about Elfdale did not strike her in the excited state of her
-mind. It was natural that agitation should accompany her wherever she
-went. It harmonized with her mood, and seemed to her (unconsciously) a
-homage and respectful adhesion of nature to what she was about to do.
-
-The great door was open, the hall empty, the way all clear to the room
-in which Sir Henry held his little court of justice. ’Lizabeth had come
-by instinct to the great hall door--a woman with such a tragical object
-does not steal in behind-backs or enter like one of the unconsidered
-poor. She went in unchallenged, seeing nobody except one of the girls,
-who peeped out from a door, and retreated again at sight of her.
-’Lizabeth saw nothing strange in all this. She went in, more
-majestically, more slowly than ever, like a woman in a procession--a
-woman marching to the stake. What stake, what burning could be so
-terrible? Two of the county police were at the open door; they looked at
-her with wondering awe, and let her pass. What could any one say to her?
-An army would have let her pass--_the mother_!--for they knew, though
-she did not know. ’Lizabeth saw but vaguely a number of people in the
-room--so much the better; let all hear who would hear. It would be so
-much the greater propitiation to an outraged heaven. She came in with a
-kind of dumb state about her, everybody giving way before her. “The
-mother!” they all said to each other with dismay, yet excitement. Some
-one brought her a chair with anxious and pitying looks. She put it away
-with a wave of her hand, yet made a little curtsey of acknowledgment in
-old-fashioned politeness. It never occurred to her mind to inquire why
-she was received with such obsequious attention. She advanced to the
-table at which Sir Henry sat. He too looked pityingly, kindly at her,
-not like his usual severity. God had prepared everything for her
-atonement--was it not an earnest of its acceptance that He should thus
-have put every obstacle out of her way?
-
-“Sir Henry Stanton,” she said, “I’ve come to make you acquaint with a
-story that all the country should have heard long ago. I’ve not had the
-courage to tell it till this moment when the Lord has given me strength.
-Bid them take pen and paper and put it all down in hand of write, and
-I’ll set my name to it. It’s to clear them that are innocent that I’ve
-come to speak, and to let it be known who was guilty; but it wasna him
-that was guilty--it wasna him--but the madness in him,” she said, her
-voice breaking for a moment. “My poor distracted lad!’
-
-“Give her a seat,” said Sir Henry. “My poor woman, if you have any
-information to give about this terrible event----”
-
-“Ay, I have information--plenty information. Nay, I want no seat. I’m
-standing as if I was at the judgment-seat of God; there’s where I’ve
-stood this many a year, and been judged, but aye held fast. What is man,
-a worm, to strive with his Maker?--but me, I’ve done that, that am but a
-woman. I humbly crave the Almighty’s pardon, and I’ve made up my mind to
-do justice now--at the last.”
-
-The people about looked at each other, questioning one another what it
-was, all but two, who knew what she meant. Young Lord Stanton, who was
-close to the table, looked across at a tall stranger behind, by whom the
-village constable was standing, and who replied to Geoff’s look by a
-melancholy half-smile. The others looked at each other, and ’Lizabeth,
-though she saw no one, saw this wave of meaning, and felt it natural
-too.
-
-“Ay,” she said, “you may wonder; and you’ll wonder more before all’s
-done. I am a woman that was the mother of three; bonny bairns--though I
-say it that ought not; ye might have ranged the country from Carlisle to
-London town, and not found their like. My Lily was the beauty of the
-whole water; up or down, there was not one that you would look at when
-my lass was by. What need I speak? You all know that as well as me.”
-
-The swell of pride in her as she spoke filled the whole company with a
-thrill of admiration and wonder, like some great actress disclosing the
-greatness of impassioned nature in the simplest words. She was old, but
-she was beautiful too. She looked round upon them with the air of a
-dethroned empress, from whom the recollection of her imperial state
-could never depart. Rachel could not have done it, nor perhaps any other
-of her profession. There was the sweetness of remembered triumph in the
-midst of the most tragic depths; a gleam of pride and pleasure out of
-the background of shame and pain.
-
-“Ah! that’s all gone and past,” she went on with a sigh. “My eldest lad
-was more than handsome, he was a genius as well. He was taken away from
-me when he was but a little lad--and never came home again till--till
-the devil got hold of him, and made him think shame of his poor mother,
-and the poor place he was born in. I would never have blamed him. I
-would have had him hold his head with the highest, as he had a
-right--for had he not gotten that place for himself?--but when he came
-back to the water-side a great gentleman and scholar, and would never
-have let on where he belonged to, one that is not here to bear the
-blame,” said ’Lizabeth, setting her teeth--“one that is gone to his
-account--and well I wot the Almighty has punished him for his ill
-deeds--betrayed my lad. Some of the gentry were good to him--as good as
-the angels in heaven--but some were as devils, that being their nature.
-And this is what I’ve got to say:” here she made a pause, raised herself
-to her full height, and threw off the red kerchief from her head in her
-agitation. “I’ve come here to accuse before God, and you, Sir Henry, my
-son, Abel Bampfylde, him I was most proud of and loved best, of the
-murder of young Lord Stanton, which took place on the morning of the 2nd
-of August, eighteen hundred and forty-five--fifteen years ago and more.”
-
-The sensation that followed is indescribable. Sir Henry Stanton himself
-rose from his seat, excited by wonder, horror, and pity, beyond all
-ordinary rule. The bystanders had but a vague sense of the extraordinary
-revelation she made, so much were they moved by the more extraordinary
-passion in her, and the position in which she stood. “My good woman, my
-poor woman!” he cried, “this last dreadful tragedy has gone to your
-brain--and no wonder. You don’t know what you say.”
-
-She smiled--mournfully enough, but still it was a smile--and shook her
-head. “If you had said it as often to yourself as I have done--night and
-day--night and day; open me when I’m dead, and you’ll find it here,” she
-cried--all unaware that this same language of passion had been used
-before--and pressing her hand upon her breast. “The second of August,
-eighteen hundred and forty-five--if you had said it over as often as
-me!”
-
-There was a whisper all about, and the lawyer of the district, who acted
-as Sir Henry’s clerk on important occasions, stooped towards him and
-said something. “The date is right. Yes, yes, I know the date is right,”
-Sir Henry said, half-angrily. Then added, “There must be insanity in the
-family. What more like the effort of a diseased imagination than to link
-the old crime of fifteen years ago with what has happened to-day?”
-
-“Is it me that you call insane?” said ’Lizabeth. “Eh, if it was but me!
-But well I know what I’m saying.” Then the wild looks of all around her
-suddenly impressed the old woman, too much occupied hitherto to think
-what their looks meant. She turned round upon them with slowly awakening
-anxiety. “You’re looking strange at me,” she cried, “you’re all looking
-strange at me! What is this you’re saying that has happened to-day? Oh,
-my lad is mad!--he’s roaming the hills, and Dick after him; he does na
-know that he’s doing; he’s out of his senses; it’s no ill meaning. Lads,
-some of you tell me, I’m going distracted. What has happened to-day?”
-
-The change in her appearance was wonderful; her solemn stateliness and
-abstraction were gone. Here was something she did not know. The flush of
-anxiety came to her cheeks, her eyes contracted, her lips fell apart.
-
-“Tell me,” she said, “for the love of God!”
-
-No one moved. They looked at each other with pale, alarmed faces. How
-could they tell her? Geoff stepped forward and took her by the arm very
-gently. “Will you come with me?” he said. “Something has happened;
-something that will grieve you deeply. I--I promised Dick to tell you,
-but not here. Won’t you come with me?”
-
-She drew herself out of his grasp with some impatience. “There’s been
-some new trouble,” she said to herself--“some new trouble! No doubt more
-violence. Oh, God, forgive him; but he does not know what he’s doing.
-It’s you, my young lord?--you know it’s true what I’ve been saying. But
-this new trouble, what is it?--more blood? Oh, tell me the worst; I can
-bear it all, say, even if he was dead.”
-
-“’Lizabeth,” said Geoff, with tears in his eyes--and again everybody
-looked on as at a tragedy--“you are a brave woman; you have borne a
-great deal in your life. He is dead; but that is not all.”
-
-She did not note, nor perhaps hear, the last words. How should she? The
-first was enough. She stood still in the midst of them, all gazing at
-her, with her hands clasped before her. For a moment she said nothing.
-The last drop of blood seemed to ebb from her brown cheeks. Then she
-raised her face upward, with a smile upon it. “The Lord God be praised,”
-she said; “He’s taken my lad before me.”
-
-And when they brought to her the seat she had rejected, ’Lizabeth
-allowed herself to be placed upon it. The extreme tension of both body
-and mind seemed to have relaxed. The look of tragic endurance left her
-face. A softened aspect of suffering, a kind of faint smile, like a wan
-sunbeam, stole over it. The moisture came to her strained eyes. “Gone?
-Is he gone at last? On the hill-side was it?--in some wild corner, where
-none but God could be near, not his mother? And me that was dreading and
-dreading I would be taken first; for who would have patience like his
-mother? But after all, you know, neighbours, the father comes foremost;
-and had more to do with him--more to do with him--than even me.”
-
-“Take her away, Geoff,” said Sir Henry. The men were all overcome with
-this scene, and with the knowledge of what remained to be told. Sir
-Henry was not easily moved, but there was something even in _his_ throat
-which choked him. He could not bear it, though it was nothing to him.
-“Geoff, this is not a place to tell her all you have got to tell. Take
-her away--take her--to Lady Stanton.”
-
-“Nay, nay,” she said; “it’s my deathdoom, but it’s not like other
-sorrow--I know well what grief is--when I heard for certain my Lily was
-dead and gone, and me never to see her more. But this is not the same;
-it’s my death, but I cannot call it sorrow; not like the loss of a son.
-I’m glad too, if you understand that. Poor lad!--my Abel! Ay, ay; you’ll
-not tell me but what God understands, and is more pitiful of His
-handiwork, say than the like of you or me.”
-
-“Come with me,” said Geoff, taking her by the arm. “Come, and I will
-tell you everything, my poor ’Lizabeth. You know you have a friend in
-me.”
-
-“Ay, my young lord; but first let them write down what I’ve said, and
-let me put my name to it. All the more because he’s dead and gone this
-day.”
-
-“Everything shall be done as you wish,” said Geoff anxiously; “but come
-with me--come with me--my poor woman; this is not a place for you.”
-
-“No,” she said--she would not rise from her seat. She turned round to
-the table where Sir Henry and his clerk sat. “I must end my work now
-it’s begun--I’ve another son, my kind gentlemen, and he will never
-forgive me if I do not end my work. Write it out and let me sign. I have
-but my Dick to think of now.”
-
-A thrill of horror ran through the little assembly: to tell her that he
-too was gone, who would dare to do it? John Musgrave, whom she had not
-seen, stood behind, and covered his face with his hands. Sir Henry, for
-all his steady nerves and unsympathetic mind, fell back in his chair
-with a low groan. Only young Geoff, his features all quivering, the
-tears in his eyes, stood by her side.
-
-“Humour her,” he said. “Let her have her own way. None of us at this
-moment surely could refuse her her way.”
-
-The lawyer nodded. He had a heart of flesh and not of stone; and
-’Lizabeth sat and waited, with her hands clasped together, her head a
-little raised, her countenance beyond the power of painting. Grief and
-joy mingled in it, and relief and anguish. Her eyes were dilated and
-wet, but she shed no tears; their very orbits seemed enlarged, and there
-was a quivering smile upon her mouth--a smile such as makes spectators
-weep. “Here I and sorrow sit.” There was never a king worthy the name
-but would have felt his state as nothing in this presence. But there was
-no struggle in her now. She had yielded, and all was peace about her.
-She would have waited for days had it been necessary. That what she had
-begun should be ended was the one thing above all.
-
-A man came hurriedly in as all the people present waited round,
-breathless and reverential, for the completion of her testimony. Their
-business, whatever it was, was arrested by force of nature. The kind old
-Dogberry from the village, who had been standing by John Musgrave’s side
-by way of guarding him, put up his hand to his forehead and made a
-rustic bow to his supposed prisoner. “I always knowed that was how it
-would turn out,” he said, as he hobbled off, to which John Musgrave
-replied only by a faint smile, but stood still, as motionless as a
-picture, though all semblance of restraint had melted away. But while
-all waited thus reverentially a sudden messenger came rushing in, and
-addressing Sir Henry in a loud voice, announced that the coroner had
-sent him to make preparations for the inquest. “And he wants to know
-what time it will be most convenient for the jury to inspect the two
-bodies; and if they are both in the same place; and if it’s true.”
-
-There was a universal hush, at which the man stopped in amazement. Then
-his eye, guided by the looks of the others, fell upon the old woman in
-the chair. She had heard him, and she was roused. Her face turned
-towards him with a growing wonder. “She here! O Lord, forgive me!” he
-cried, and fell back.
-
-“Two bodies!” she said. A shudder came over her. She got up slowly from
-her seat and looked round upon them all. “Two--another, another!--oh, my
-unhappy lad!” She wrung her hands and looked round upon them, “Maybe
-another house made desolate; maybe another woman--Will you tell me who
-the other was?”
-
-Here the labouring man, who had been with Wild Bampfylde on the
-hill-side, and who was standing by, suddenly succumbed to the strange
-horror and anguish of the moment. He burst out loudly into tears, crying
-like a child. “Oh, poor ’Lizabeth, poor ’Lizabeth!” he cried; he could
-not bear any more.
-
-’Lizabeth looked at this man with the air of one awakening from a dream.
-Then she turned a look of inquiry upon those around her. No one would
-meet her eye. They shrank one behind another away from her, and more
-than one man burst forth into momentary weeping like the first, and some
-covered their faces in their hands. Even Geoff, sobbing like a child,
-turned away from her for a moment. She held out her hands to them with a
-pitiful cry, “Say it’s not that--say it’s not that!” she cried. The
-shrill scream of anguish ran through the house. It brought Lady Stanton
-and all the women shuddering from every corner. They all knew what it
-was and how it was. The mother! What more needed to be said? They came
-in and surrounded her, the frivolous girls and the rough women from the
-kitchen, all together, while the men stood about looking on. Not even
-Sir Henry could resist the passion of horror and sorrow which had taken
-possession of the place. He cried with a voice all hoarse and trembling,
-“Take her away!--take her away!”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIX.
-
-THE TRAGEDY ENDS.
-
-
-’Lizabeth Bampfylde went on to Stanton that same afternoon, where the
-remains of her two sons were lying. But she would not go in Lady
-Stanton’s carriage.
-
-“Nay, nay; carriages were never made for me. I will walk, my lady. It’s
-best for me, body and soul.”
-
-She had recovered herself after the anguish of that discovery. Before
-the sympathisers round her had ceased to sob, ’Lizabeth had raised
-herself up in the midst of them like an old tower. The storm had raged
-round her, but had not crushed her. Her face and even her lips had lost
-all trace of colour, her eyes were hollow and widened out in their
-sockets, like caves to hold the slow welling out of salt tears. There
-was a convulsive trembling now in the pose of her fine head, and in her
-hands; but her strength was not touched.
-
-“Oh, how can you walk?” Lady Stanton said; “you are not able for it.”
-
-“I am able for anything it’s God’s pleasure to send,” she said; “though
-it’s little even He can do to me now.” The women stood round her with
-pitiful looks, some of them weeping unrestrainedly; but the tears that
-’Lizabeth shed came one by one, slow gathering, rarely falling. She put
-on her red handkerchief over her cap again, with hands that were steady
-enough till that twitch of nervous movement took them. “It should be
-black,” she said, with a half-smile; “ay, I should be a’ black from head
-to foot, from head to foot, if there was one left to mind.” Then she
-turned upon them with again her little stately curtsey. “I’m not a woman
-of many words, and ye may judge what heart I have to speak; but I thank
-ye all,” and, with once more a kind of smile, she set out upon her way.
-
-John Musgrave had been standing by; he had spoken to no one, not even to
-Lady Stanton, who, trembling with a consciousness that he was there, had
-not been able, in the presence of this great anguish, to think of any
-other. He, and his story, and his return, altogether had been thrown
-entirely into the background by these other events. He came forward now,
-and followed ’Lizabeth out of the gate. “I am going with you,” he said.
-The name “mother” was on his lips, but he dared not say it. She gave a
-slight glance at him, and recognised him. But if one had descended from
-heaven to accompany her, what would that have been to ’Lizabeth? It was
-as if they had parted yesterday.
-
-“Ay,” she said; then, after a pause, “it’s you that has the best right.”
-
-The tragedy had closed very shortly after that penultimate chapter which
-ended with the death of Wild Bampfylde. When the carriage and its
-attendants arrived to remove him to Stanton he was lying on Geoff’s
-shoulder, struggling for his last breath. It was too late then to
-disturb the agony. The men stood about reverentially till the last gasp
-was over, then carried the vagrant tenderly to the foot of the hill,
-with a respect which no one had ever shown him before. One of the party,
-a straggler, who had strayed further up the dell in the interval of
-waiting, saw traces above among the broken bushes, which made him call
-some of his comrades as soon as their first duty was done. And there on
-the little plateau, where Walter Stanton’s body had been found fifteen
-years before, lay that of his murderer, the madman who had wrought so
-much misery. He was found lying across the stream as if he had stooped
-to drink, and had not been able to raise himself. The running water had
-washed all traces of murder from him. When they lifted him, with much
-precaution, not knowing whether his stillness might mean a temporary
-swoon, or a feint of madness to beguile them, his pale marble
-countenance seemed a reproach to the lookers-on. Even with the aspect of
-his victim fresh in their eyes, the men could not believe that this had
-ever been a furious maniac or man slayer. One of them went to look for
-Geoff, and to arrest the progress of the other funeral procession.
-“There’s another one, my lord,” he said, “all torn and tattered in his
-clothes, but with the look of a king.” And Geoff, notwithstanding his
-horror, could not but look with a certain awe upon the worn countenance.
-It might have been that of a man worn with great labours, with thought,
-with the high musings of philosophy, or schemes of statesmanship. He was
-carried down and laid by the side of his brother whom he had killed. All
-the cottagers, the men from the field, the passengers on the way, stood
-looking on, or followed the strange procession. Such a piece of news, as
-may be supposed, flew over the country like wildfire. There was no
-family better known than the Bampfyldes, notwithstanding their humble
-rank. The handsome Bampfyldes: and here they had come to an end!
-
-Old ’Lizabeth, as she made her way to Stanton, was followed everywhere
-by the same atmosphere of sympathy. The women came out to their doors to
-look after her, and even strong men sobbed as she passed. What would
-become of her, poor lonely woman? She gave a great cry when she saw the
-two pale faces lying peacefully together. They were both men in the full
-prime of life, in the gravity of middle age, fully developed, strongly
-knit, men all formed for life, and full of its matured vigour. They lay
-side by side as they had lain when they were children. That one of them
-had taken the life of the other, who could have imagined possible? The
-poacher and vagrant looked like some great general nobly dead in
-battle, the madman like a sage. Death had redeemed them from their
-misery, their poverty, the misfortunes which were greater than either.
-Their mother gave a great cry of anguish yet pride as she stood beside
-them. “My lads,” she cried, “my two handsome lads, my bonny boys!”
-’Lizabeth had come to that pass when words have no meaning to express
-the depths and the heights. What could a woman say who sees her sons
-stretched dead before her? She uttered one inarticulate wail of anguish,
-as a dumb creature might have done, and then her overwrought soul
-reeling, tottered almost on the verge of reason, and she cried out in
-pride and agony, “My handsome lads! my bonny boys!”
-
-“Come home with me,” said John Musgrave. “We have made a bad business of
-it, ’Lizabeth, you and I. This is all our sacrifice has come to. Nothing
-left but your wreck of life, and mine. But come home with me. Where I
-am, there will always be a place for Lily’s mother. And there is little
-Lily still, and she will comfort you----”
-
-“Eh! comfort me!” She smiled at the word. “Nay, I must go to my own
-house. I thank you, John Musgrave, and I do not deserve it at your hand.
-This fifteen years it has been me that has murdered you, not my lad
-yonder, not my Abel. What did he know? And I humbly beg your pardon, and
-your little bairns’ pardon, on my knees--but nay, nay, I must go home.
-My own house--there is no other place for me.”
-
-They came round her and took her hands, and pleaded with her too--Geoff,
-and his mother, with the tears streaming from her eyes. “Oh, my poor
-woman, my poor woman!” Lady Stanton cried, “stay here while _they_ are
-here.” But nothing moved ’Lizabeth. She made her little curtsey to them
-all, with that strange smile like a pale light wavering upon her face.
-
-“Nay, nay,” she said. “Nay, nay--I humbly thank my lady and my lord, and
-a’ kind friends--but my own house, that is the only place for me.”
-
-“But you cannot go so far, if that were all. You must be worn out with
-walking only--if there was nothing more----”
-
-“Me--worn out!--with walking!” It was a kind of laugh which came from
-her dry throat. “Ay, very near--very near it--that will come soon, if
-the Lord pleases. But good-day to you all, and my humble thanks, my lord
-and my lady--you’re kind--kind to give them house-room; till Friday; but
-they’ll give no trouble, no trouble!” she said, with again that
-something which sounded like a laugh. Laughing or crying, it was all one
-to ’Lizabeth. The common modes of expression were garments too small for
-her soul.
-
-“Stay only to-night--it will be dark long before you can be there. Stay
-to-night,” they pleaded. She broke from them with a cry.
-
-“I canna bide this, I canna bide it! I’m wanting the stillness of the
-fells, and the arms of them about me. Let me be--oh, let me be! There’s
-a moon,” she added, abruptly, “and dark or light, I’ll never lose my
-way.”
-
-Thus they had to leave her to do as she pleased in the end. She would
-not eat anything, or even sit down, but went out with her hood over her
-head into the gathering shadows. They stood watching her till the sound
-of her steps died out on the way--firm, steady, unfaltering steps. Life
-and death, and mortal anguish, and wearing care, had done their worst
-upon old ’Lizabeth. She stood like a rock against them all.
-
-She came down to the funeral on Friday, as she had herself appointed,
-and saw her sons laid in their grave, and again she was entreated to
-remain. But even little Lilias, whom her father brought forward to aid
-the pleadings of the others, could not move her. “Honey-sweet!” she
-said, with a tender light in her eyes; but she had more room for the
-children when her heart was full of living cares. It was empty now, and
-there was no room. A few weeks after, she was found dying peaceably in
-her bed, giving all kinds of directions to her children. “Abel will have
-your father’s watch, he aye wanted it from a baby--and Lily gets all my
-things, as is befitting. They will set her up for her wedding. And Dick,
-my little Dick, that has aye been the little one--who says I was not
-thinking of Dick? He’s been my prop and my right hand when a’ deserted
-me. The poor little house and the little bit of land, and a’ his mother
-has--who should they be for, but Dick?” Thus she died tranquilly, seeing
-them all round her; and all that was cruel and bitter in the lot of the
-Bampfyldes came to an end.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XL.
-
-CONCLUSION.
-
-
-John Musgrave settled down without any commotion into his natural place
-in his father’s house. The old Squire himself mended from the day when
-Nello, very timid, but yet brave to repress the signs of his reluctance,
-was brought into his room. He played with the child as if he had been a
-child himself, and so grew better day by day, and got out of bed again,
-and save for a little dragging of one leg as he limped along, brought no
-external sign of his “stroke” out of his sick-room. But he wrote no more
-Monographs, studied no more. His life had come back to him as the Syrian
-lord in the Bible got back his health after his leprosy--“like the flesh
-of a little child.” The Squire recovered after a while the power of
-taking his part in a conversation, and looked more venerable than ever
-with his faded colour and subdued forces. But his real life was all with
-little Nello, who by and by got quite used to his grandfather, and
-lorded it over him as children so often do. When the next summer came,
-they went out together, the Squire generally in a wheeled chair, Nello
-walking, or riding by his side on the pony his grandpapa had given him.
-There was no doubt now as to who was heir. When Randolph came to
-Penninghame, after spending a day and a half in vain researches for
-Nello, life having become too exciting at that moment at the Castle to
-leave any one free to send word of the children’s safety--he found all
-doubt and notion of danger over for John--- and he himself established
-in his natural place. Whether the Squire had forgotten everything in his
-illness, or whether he had understood the story which Mary took care to
-repeat two or three times very distinctly by his bedside, no one knew.
-But he never objected to John’s presence, made no question about
-him--accepted him as if he had been always there. Absolutely as if there
-had been no breach in the household existence at all, the eldest son
-took his place; and that Nello was the heir was a thing beyond doubt in
-any reasonable mind. This actual settlement of all difficulties had
-already come about when Randolph came. His father took no notice of him,
-and John, who thought it was his brother’s fault that his little son had
-been so unkindly treated, found it difficult to afford Randolph any
-welcome. He did not, however, want any welcome in such circumstances. He
-stayed for a single night, feeling himself coldly looked upon by all.
-Mr. Pen, who spent half his time at the Castle, more than any one turned
-a cold shoulder upon his brother clergyman.
-
-“You felt it necessary that the child should go to school quite as much
-as I did,” Randolph said, on the solitary occasion when the matter was
-discussed.
-
-“Yes, but not to any school,” the Vicar said. “I would rather----” he
-paused for a sufficiently strong image, but it was hard to find; “I
-would rather--have got up at six o’clock every day, and sacrificed
-everything--rather than have exposed Nello to the life he had
-there;--and you who are a father yourself.”
-
-“Yes; but my boy has neither a girl’s name nor a girl’s want of courage.
-He is not a baby that would flinch at the first rough word. I did not
-know the nature of the thing,” said Randolph, with a sneer. “I have no
-acquaintance with any but straightforward and manly ways.”
-
-The Vicar followed him out in righteous wrath. He produced from his
-pocket a hideous piece of pink paper.
-
-“Do you know who sent this?” he asked.
-
-Randolph looked at it, taken aback, and tried to bluster forth an
-expression of wonder--
-
-“I--how should I know?”
-
-“What did you mean by it?” cried the gentle Vicar, in high
-excitement;--“did you think I did not know my duty? did you think I was
-a cold-blooded reptile like--like the man that sent that? Do you think
-it was in me to betray my brother? I know nothing bad enough for him who
-made such a suggestion. And he nearly gained his point. The devil knows
-what tools to work with. He works with the weakness of good people as
-well as with the strength of bad,” cried mild Mr. Pen, inspired for once
-in his life with righteous indignation. “Judas did it himself at least,
-bad as he was. He did not whisper treason in a man’s ears nor in a
-woman’s heart.”
-
-“I don’t know what you mean,” said Randolph, with guilt in his face.
-
-“Not all, no; fortunately you don’t know, nor any one else, the trouble
-you might have made. But no less, though it never came to pass, was it
-that traitor’s fault.”
-
-“When you take to speaking riddles I give it up,” said Randolph,
-shrugging his shoulders.
-
-But Mr. Pen was so hot in moral force that he was glad to get away. He
-slept one night under his father’s roof, no one giving him much
-attention, and then went away, never to return again; but went back to
-his believing wife, too good a fate, who smoothed him down and healed
-all his wounds. “My husband is like most people who struggle to do their
-duty,” she said. “His brother was very ungrateful, though Randolph had
-done so much for him. And the little boy, who had been dreadfully
-spoiled, ran away from the school when he had cost my husband so much
-trouble. And even his sister Mary showed him no kindness; that is the
-way when a man is so disinterested as Randolph, doing all he can for his
-own family, for their _real_ good.”
-
-And this, at the end, came to be what Randolph himself thought.
-
-Mrs. Pen, after coming home hysterical from Elfdale, made a clean breast
-to her husband, and showed him the telegram, and confessed all her
-apprehensions for him. What could a man do but forgive the folly or even
-wickedness done for his sweet sake? And Mrs. Pen went through a few
-dreadful hours, when in the morning John Musgrave came back from his
-night journey and the warrant was put in force. If they should hang him
-what would become of her? She always believed afterwards that it was her
-William’s intervention which had saved John, and she never believed in
-John’s innocence, let her husband say what he would. For Mrs. Pen said
-wisely, that wherever there is smoke there must be fire, and it was no
-use telling her that Lord Stanton had not been killed; for it was in the
-last edition of the _Fellside History_, and therefore must be true.
-
-When all was over Sir Henry and Lady Stanton made a formal visit of
-congratulation at Penninghame. Sir Henry told John that it had been a
-painful necessity to issue the warrant, but that a man must do his duty,
-whatever it is; and as, under Providence, this was the means of making
-everything clear he could not regret that he had done it now. Lady
-Stanton said nothing, or next to nothing. She talked a little to Mary,
-making stray little remarks about the children, and drawing Nello to her
-side. Lilias she was afraid of, with those great eyes. Was that child to
-be Geoff’s wife? she thought. Ah! how much better, had he been the kind
-young husband who should have delivered her own Annie or Fanny. This
-little girl would want nothing of the kind; her father would watch over
-her, he would let no one meddle with her, not like a poor woman with a
-hard husband and stepdaughters. She trembled a little when she put her
-hand into John’s. She looked at him with moisture in her eyes.
-
-“I have always believed in you, always hoped to see you here again,” she
-said.
-
-“Come, Mary, the carriage is waiting,” said Sir Henry. He said after
-that this was all that was called for, and here the intercourse between
-the two houses dropped. Mary could not help “taking an interest” in John
-Musgrave still, but what did it matter? everybody took an interest in
-him now.
-
-As for Geoff, he became, as he had a way of doing, the sun of the house
-at Penninghame; even the old Squire took notice of his kind, cheerful
-young face. He neglected Elfdale and his young cousins, and even Cousin
-Mary, whom he loved. But it was not to be supposed that John Musgrave
-would allow a series of love passages to go on indefinitely for years
-between his young neighbour and his daughter Lilias, as yet not quite
-thirteen years old. The young man was sent away after a most affecting
-parting, not to return for three years. Naturally, Lady Stanton rebelled
-much, she who had kept her son at home during all his life; but what
-could she do? Instead of struggling vainly she took the wiser part, and
-though it was a trial to tear herself from Stanton and all the servants,
-who were so kind, and the household which went upon wheels, upon velvet,
-and gave her no trouble, she made up her mind to it, and took her maid
-and Benson and Mr. Tritton and went “abroad” too. What is it to go
-abroad when a lady is middle-aged and has a grown-up son and such an
-establishment?--but she did it: “for I shall not have him very long!”
-she said, with a sigh.
-
-Lilias was sixteen when Geoff came home. Can any one doubt that the
-child had grown up with her mind full of the young hero who had acted so
-great a part in her young life? When the old Squire died and Nello went
-to school, a very different school from Mr. Swan’s, the idea of “Mr.
-Geoff” became more and more her companion. It was not love, perhaps, in
-the ordinary meaning of the word; Lilias did not know what that meant.
-Half an elder brother, half an enchanted prince, more than half a hero
-of romance, he wove himself with every story and every poem that was
-written, to Lilias. He it was, and no Prince Ferdinand, whom Miranda
-thought so fair. It was he who slew all the dragons and giants, and
-delivered whole dungeons full of prisoners. Her girlhood was somewhat
-lonely, chiefly because of this soft mist of semi-betrothal which was
-about her. Not only was she already a woman, though a child, but a woman
-separated from others, a bride doubly virginal because he was absent to
-whom all her thoughts were due. “What if he should forget her?” Mary
-Musgrave would say, alarmed. She thought it neither safe nor right for
-the child, who was the beauty and flower of Penninghame, as she herself
-had been, though in so different a way. Mary now had settled down as the
-lady of Penninghame, as her brother was its lawful lord. John was not
-the kind of man to make a second marriage, even if, as his sister
-sometimes fancied, his first had but little satisfied his heart. But of
-this he said nothing, thankful to be able at the end to redeem some
-portion of the life thus swallowed up by one of those terrible, but
-happily rare, mistakes, which are no less wretched that they are half
-divine. He had all he wanted in his sister’s faithful companionship and
-in his children. There is no more attractive household than that in
-which, after the storms of life, a brother and sister set up peacefully
-together the old household gods, never dispersed, which were those of
-their youth. Mary was a little more careful, perhaps, of her niece, a
-little more afraid of the troubles in her way, than if she had been her
-daughter. She watched Lilias with great anxiety, and read between the
-lines of Geoff’s letters with vague scrutiny, looking always for
-indications of some change.
-
-Lilias was sixteen in the end of October, the third after the previous
-events recorded here. She had grown to her full height, and her beauty
-had a dreamy, poetical touch from the circumstances, which greatly
-changed the natural expression appropriate to the liquid dark eyes and
-noble features she had from her mother and her mother’s mother. Her eyes
-were less brilliant than they would have been had they not looked so far
-away, but they were more sweet. Her brightness altogether was tempered
-and softened, and kept within that modesty of childhood to which her
-youthful age really belonged, though nature and life had developed her
-more than her years. Though she was grown up she kept many of her
-childish ways, and still sat, as Mary had always done, at the door of
-the old hall, now wonderfully decorated and restored, but yet the old
-hall still. The two ladies shared it between them for all their hours of
-leisure, but Mary had given up her seat at the door to the younger
-inhabitant, partly because she loved to see Lilias there with the sun
-upon her, partly because she herself began to feel the cool airs of the
-north less halcyon than of old. The books that Lilias carried with her
-were no longer fairy tales, but maturer enchantments of poetry. And
-there she sat absorbed in verse and lost to all meaner delights, on the
-eve of her birthday, a soft air ruffling the little curls on her
-forehead, the sun shining upon her uncovered head. Lilias loved the sun.
-She was not afraid of it nor her complexion, and the sun of October is
-not dangerous. She had a hand up to shade the book, which was too
-dazzling in the light, but nothing to keep the golden light from her.
-She sat warm and glorified in the long, slanting, dazzling rays.
-
-Mary had heard a horse’s hoofs, and, being a little restless, came
-forward softly from her seat behind to see who it was; but Lilias, lost
-in the poetry and the sunshine, heard nothing.
-
- “She wept with pity and delight,
- She blush’d with love and virgin shame,
- And like the murmur of a dream
- I heard her breathe my name.
-
- “Her bosom heaved, she stepp’d aside
- As conscious of my look she stept,
- Then suddenly, with timorous eye,
- She fled to me and wept.”
-
-Mary saw what Lilias did not see, the horseman at the foot of the slope.
-He looked and smiled, and signed to her over the lovely head in the
-sunshine. He was brown and ruddy with health and travel, his eyes
-shining, his breath coming quick. Three years! as long as a
-lifetime--but it was over. Suddenly, “Lily--my little Lily,” he cried,
-unable to keep silence more.
-
-She sprang to her feet like a startled deer; the book fell from her
-hands; her eyes gave a great gleam and flash, and softened in the golden
-light of sunset and tenderness. The poetry or the life, which was the
-most sweet? “Yes, Mr. Geoff,” she said.
-
-
-THE END.
-
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-<p class="c">YOUNG MUSGRAVE.</p>
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-<div class="blockquot1"><p>“Touching sacrifice: of thy worldly possessions give all, even to
-the spoiling of thy goods; for thus teaches our Lord Christ, and
-our blessed master San Francesco. If a poor person, more poor than
-thou, would have thy habit, which it is not permitted by the rule
-of the order to give, let him take it from thee: so wilt thou do no
-wrong; but thy life, which is not thine, give not: it is but given
-to thee for God’s service; thou canst not take it up, neither canst
-thou lay it down. This rule obey if thou wouldest be free from
-presumption. For our Lord Christ alone, whose life was His own,
-hath power and privilege to give it away.”&mdash;<i>Sermons, BB. Frati
-Ginepro e Lausdeo, dei Frati Minori.</i></p></div>
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-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_iii" id="page_iii">{iii}</a></span>&nbsp; </p>
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-<h1>YOUNG MUSGRAVE</h1>
-
-<p class="c">BY<br />
-<br />
-MRS. OLIPHANT<br />
-<br /><small>
-AUTHOR OF “THE CURATE IN CHARGE” ETC.</small><br />
-<br />
-<br />
-“No man can redeem his brother.”&mdash;Ps. xlix. 7<br />
-<br />
-<br />
-<span class="eng">London</span><br />
-MACMILLAN AND CO.<br />
-AND NEW YORK<br />
-1894<br />
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_iv" id="page_iv">{iv}</a></span><br />
-<br /><small>
-<span class="smcap">Richard Clay and Sons, Limited</span>,<br />
-LONDON AND BUNGAY.<br />
-<br />
-<i>First Edition</i> (3 Vols. Crown 8vo.) 1877. <i>Second Edition</i> (1 Vol. Crown 8vo.)<br />
-1878. <i>Reprinted</i> (Globe 8vo.) 1883, 1886, (Crown 8vo.) 1894.<br /></small>
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_v" id="page_v">{v}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CONTENTS" id="CONTENTS"></a>CONTENTS.</h2>
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-<tr><th class="prt"><a href="#PART_I">PART I.</a></th></tr>
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-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_I">CHAPTER I.</a></th></tr>
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-<tr><td>&nbsp;</td><td class="rt"><small>PAGE</small></td></tr>
-
-<tr><td>THE FAMILY </td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_1">1</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_II">CHAPTER II.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>MARY</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_10">10</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_III">CHAPTER III.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE NEW-COMERS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_20">20</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th class="prt"><a href="#PART_II">PART II.</a></th></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_IV">CHAPTER IV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AFTER THE SILENCE OF YEARS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_30">30</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_V">CHAPTER V.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>WAKING UP</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_37">37</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_VI">CHAPTER VI.</a>
-
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_vi" id="page_vi">{vi}</a></span></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AT THE VICARAGE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_46">46</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th class="prt"><a href="#PART_III">PART III.</a></th></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_VII">CHAPTER VII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE CHILDREN AT THE CASTLE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_56">56</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_VIII">CHAPTER VIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>LADY STANTON</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_66">66</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_IX">CHAPTER IX.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AT ELFDALE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_77">77</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_X">CHAPTER X.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE OTHER SIDE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_86">86</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XI">CHAPTER XI.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AN AFTERNOON’S WORK</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_95">95</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XII">CHAPTER XII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>VISITORS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_104">104</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th class="prt"><a href="#PART_IV">PART IV.</a></th></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XIII">CHAPTER XIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>FAMILY CARES</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_116">116</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XIV">CHAPTER XIV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AN UNLOOKED-FOR VISITOR</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_123">123</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XV">CHAPTER XV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>RANDOLPH</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_133">133</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XVI">CHAPTER XVI.</a>
-
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_vii" id="page_vii">{vii}</a></span></th></tr>
-
-<tr><td>DUCKS AND DRAKES</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_144">144</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XVII">CHAPTER XVII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE BAMPFYLDES</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_156">156</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XVIII">CHAPTER XVIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A NEW FRIEND</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_169">169</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XIX">CHAPTER XIX.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A MIDNIGHT WALK</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_177">177</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XX">CHAPTER XX.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE COTTAGE ON THE FELLS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_187">187</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXI">CHAPTER XXI.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AN EARLY MEETING</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_199">199</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXII">CHAPTER XXII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE HENS AND THE DUCKLING</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_208">208</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXIII">CHAPTER XXIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>COUSIN MARY’S OPINION</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_218">218</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXIV">CHAPTER XXIV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE SQUIRE AT HOME</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_227">227</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXV">CHAPTER XXV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A NEW VISITOR</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_240">240</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXVI">CHAPTER XXVI.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>IN SUSPENSE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_249">249</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXVII">CHAPTER XXVII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>AN APPARITION</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_261">261</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXVIII">CHAPTER XXVIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE LOVES OF THE ANGELS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_273">273</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXIX">CHAPTER XXIX.</a>
-
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_viii" id="page_viii">{viii}</a></span></th></tr>
-<tr><td>NELLO’S JOURNEY</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_282">282</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXX">CHAPTER XXX.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A CHILD FORLORN</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_295">295</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXI">CHAPTER XXXI.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A CRISIS AT PENNINGHAME</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_306">306</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXII">CHAPTER XXXII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>NELLO’S RESCUE</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_321">321</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIII">CHAPTER XXXIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE BABES IN THE WOOD</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_330">330</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIV">CHAPTER XXXIV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE NEW-COMER</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_338">338</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXV">CHAPTER XXXV.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>ANOTHER HELPER</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_348">348</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVI">CHAPTER XXXVI.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE BEGINNING OF THE END</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_358">358</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVII">CHAPTER XXXVII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>A TRAITOR</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_366">366</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVIII">CHAPTER XXXVIII.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE MOTHER</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_373">373</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIX">CHAPTER XXXIX.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>THE TRAGEDY ENDS</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_384">384</a></td></tr>
-
-<tr><th><a href="#CHAPTER_XL">CHAPTER XL.</a></th></tr>
-<tr><td>CONCLUSION</td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_389">389</a></td></tr>
-</table>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_1" id="page_1">{1}</a></span></p>
-
-<h1>YOUNG MUSGRAVE.</h1>
-
-<h2><a name="PART_I" id="PART_I"></a>PART I.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_I" id="CHAPTER_I"></a>CHAPTER I.<br /><br />
-<small>THE FAMILY.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">It</span> would be difficult to say how Penninghame Castle had got that
-imposing name. It was an old house standing almost on the roadside, at
-least at the termination of a rough country road leading from the
-village, which widened into a square space at the side of the house. The
-village road was lined with trees, and it pleased the Musgraves to
-believe that it had been in happier days the avenue to their ancient
-dwelling, while the rough square at the end had been the courtyard. The
-place itself consisted of a small mansion not important enough to be
-very distinctive in architecture, built on to the end of an old hall,
-the only remaining portion of a much older and greater house. This hall
-was entered directly by a great door of heavy oak, from which a slope of
-ancient causeway descended into the road below&mdash;an entrance which was
-the only thing like a castle in the whole <i>ensemble</i>, though it ought to
-have led to an ancient gateway and portcullis rather than to the great
-door generally wide open, through which, according to the story, a
-horseman once entered to scare the guests at their feast and defy the
-master at the head of the table. The hall was not used for such festive
-purposes now, nor threatened by such warlike intruders. It had known
-evil fortune in its day and had been degraded into a barn, its windows
-blocked up, its decorations destroyed&mdash;but had come<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_2" id="page_2">{2}</a></span> to life again for
-the last fifty years and had come back to human use, though no longer as
-of old. Round the corner was the front of the old mansion, built in that
-pallid grey stone, which adds a sentiment of age, like the ashy paleness
-of very old people, to the robust antiquity of mason-work more lasting
-than any that is done now. Successive squires had nibbled at this old
-front, making windows there and doorways here: windows which cut through
-the string-courses above, and a prim Georgian front door, not even in
-the centre of the old arched entrance which had been filled up, which
-gave a certain air of disreputable irregularity to the pale and stern
-old dwelling-place. Ivy and other clinging growths fortunately hid a
-great deal of this, and added importance to the four great stacks of
-chimneys, which, mantled in its short, large leaves and perpetual
-greenness, looked like turrets, and dignified the house. A lake behind
-somewhat coldly blue, and a great hill in front somewhat coldly green,
-showed all the features of that north country which was not far enough
-north for the wild vigour and vivifying tints of brown bracken and
-heather. The lake came closely up in a little bay behind the older part
-of the house where there was a rocky harbour for the boats of the
-family; and between this little bay and the grey walls was the
-flower-garden, old-fashioned and bright, though turned to the unkindly
-east. Beyond this was a kind of broken park with some fine trees and a
-great deal of rough underwood, which stretched along the further shore
-of the lake and gave an air of dignity to the dwelling on that side.
-This was still called “the Chase” as the house was called the Castle, in
-memory it might be supposed of better days. The Musgraves had been
-Cavaliers, and had wasted their substance in favour of the Charleses,
-and their lands had been ravaged, their park broken up into fields,
-their avenue made a common road, half by hostile neighbours, half by
-vulgar intrusion, in the days when the Revolutionists had the upper
-hand. So they said, at least, and pleas of this kind are respected
-generally, save by the very cynical. Certainly the present occupants of
-the house believed it fervently, and so did the village; and if it was
-nothing more it was a great comfort and support to the family, and made
-them regard the rude approach to “the Castle” with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_3" id="page_3">{3}</a></span> forbearance. The
-public right of way had been established in those stormy times. It was a
-sign even of the old greatness of the house. It was better than trim
-lawns and smiling gardens, which would have required a great deal of
-keeping up. It was, however, a family understanding that the first
-Musgrave who made a rich marriage, or who in any other way became a
-favourite of fortune, should by some vague means&mdash;an act of parliament
-or otherwise&mdash;reclaim the old courtyard and avenue, and plant a pair of
-magnificent gates between the castle and the village: also buy back all
-the old property; also revive the title of Baron of Penninghame, which
-had been in abeyance for the last two hundred years; and do many other
-things to glorify and elevate the family to its pristine position; and
-no Musgrave doubted that this deliverer would come sooner or later,
-which took the bitterness out of their patience in the meantime and gave
-them courage to wait.</p>
-
-<p>Another encouraging circumstance in their lot was that they were fully
-acknowledged as the oldest family in the county. Other and richer
-persons pushed in before them to its dignities, and they were no doubt
-very much left out of its gaieties and pleasures; but no one doubted
-that they had a right to take the lead, if ever they were rich enough.
-This, however, did not seem likely, for the moment at least. The family
-at Penninghame had, what is much to be avoided by families which would
-be happy, a history, and a very recent one. There were two sons, but
-neither of them had been seen at the Castle for nearly fifteen years,
-and with the name of the elder of these there was connected a dark and
-painful story, not much known to the new generation, but very well
-remembered by all the middle-aged people in the county. Young Musgrave
-had been for a year or two the most popular young squire in the north
-country, but his brightness had ended in dismal clouds of misfortune and
-trouble and bloodshedding, with perhaps crime involved, and certainly
-many of the penalties of crime. He had not been seen in the north
-country since the crisis which made all the world acquainted with his
-unfortunate name; and his younger brother had re-appeared but once in
-their father’s house, which was thus left desolate, except for the one
-daughter, who had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_4" id="page_4">{4}</a></span> been its delight before and was now its only stay. So
-far as the county knew, young Musgrave still lived, though he was never
-mentioned, for there had been no signs of mourning in the house, such as
-must have intimated to the neighbours the fact of John’s death&mdash;which
-also of course would have made Randolph the heir. And save that once,
-not even Randolph had ever come to break the monotony of life in his
-father’s house. Squire Musgrave and his daughter lived there alone now.
-They had been alone these fifteen years. They had little society, and
-did not keep up a large establishment. He was old, and she was no longer
-young enough to care for the gaieties of the rural neighbourhood. Thus
-they had fallen out of the current of affairs. The family was “much
-respected,” but comparatively little heard of after the undesired and
-undesirable notoriety it had once gained.</p>
-
-<p>Thus abandoned by its sons, and denuded of the strongest elements of
-life, it may well be supposed that the castle at Penninghame was a
-melancholy house. What more easy than to conjure up the saddest picture
-of such a dwelling? The old man, seated in his desolate home, brooding
-over perhaps the sins of his sons, perhaps his own&mdash;some injudicious
-indulgence, or untimely severity which had driven them from him; while
-the sister, worn out by the monotony of her solitary life, shut herself
-out from all society, and spent her life in longing for the absent, and
-pleading for them&mdash;a sad, solitary woman, with no pleasure in her lot,
-except that of the past. The picture would have been as appropriate as
-touching, but it would not have been true. Old Mr. Musgrave was not the
-erring father of romance. He was a well-preserved and spare little man,
-over seventy, with cheeks of streaky red like winter apples, and white
-hair, which he wore rather long, falling on the velvet collar of his
-old-fashioned coat. He had been an outdoor man in his day, and had
-farmed, and shot, and hunted, like others of his kind, so far as his
-straitened means and limited stables permitted; but when years and
-circumstances had impaired his activity he had been strong enough to
-retire, of his own free will, while graceful abdication was still in his
-power. He spent most of his time now in his library, with only a
-constitutional walk, or easy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_5" id="page_5">{5}</a></span> ramble upon his steady old cob, to vary
-his life, except when quarter sessions called him forth, or any other
-duty of the magistracy, to which he still paid the most conscientious
-attention. The Musgraves were not people whom it was easy to crush, and
-Fate had a hard bargain in the old squire, who found himself one
-occupation when deprived of another with a spirit not often existing in
-old age. He had committed plenty of mistakes in his day, and some which
-had been followed by tragical consequences, a practical demonstration of
-evil which fortunately does not attend all the errors of life; but he
-did not brood over them in his old library, nor indulge unavailing
-compunctions, nor consider himself under any doom; but on the contrary
-studied his favourite problems in genealogy and heraldry, and county
-history, and corresponded with <i>Notes and Queries</i>, and was in his way
-very comfortable. He it was who first pointed out that doubtful
-blazoning of Marmion’s shield, “colour upon colour,” which raised so
-lively a discussion; and in questions of this kind he was an authority,
-and thoroughly enjoyed the little tilts and controversies involved, many
-of which were as warm as their subjects were insignificant. His family
-was dropping, or rather had dropped, into decay; his eldest son was
-virtually lost to his family and to society; his youngest son alienated
-and a stranger; and some of this at least was the father’s fault. But
-neither the decay of the house, nor the reflection that he was at least
-partially to blame, made any great difference to the squire. There had
-no doubt been moments, and even hours, when he had felt it bitterly; but
-these moments, though perhaps they count for more than years in a man’s
-life, do not certainly last so long, and age has a way of counterfeiting
-virtue, which is generally very successful, even to its personal
-consciousness. Mr. Musgrave was generally respected, and he felt himself
-to be entirely respectable. He sat in his library and worked away among
-his county histories, without either compunction or regret&mdash;who could
-throw a stone at him? He had been rather unfortunate in his family, that
-was all that could be said.</p>
-
-<p>And Mary Musgrave, his daughter, was just as little disposed to brood
-upon the past. She had shed many tears in her day,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_6" id="page_6">{6}</a></span> and suffered many
-things. Perhaps it was in consequence of the family troubles which had
-come upon her just at the turning-point in her life that she had never
-married; for she had been one of the beauties of the district&mdash;courted
-and admired by everybody, and wooed by many: by some who indeed still
-found her beautiful, and by some who had learned to laugh at the old
-unhappiness of which she was the cause. Miss Musgrave did not like these
-last, which was perhaps natural; and even now there would be a tone of
-satire in her voice when she noted the late marriage of one or another
-of her old adorers. Women do not like men whose hearts they have broken,
-to get quite healed, and console themselves; this is perhaps a poor
-feeling, but it is instinctive, and though it may be stoutly struggled
-against in some cases, and chidden into silence in many, it still
-maintains an untolerated yet obstinate life. But neither the failure of
-the adorations she once inspired nor the family misfortunes had crushed
-her spirit. She lived a not unhappy life, notwithstanding all that had
-happened. It was she who did everything that was done at Penninghame.
-The reins which her father had dropped almost unawares she had taken up.
-She managed the estate; kept the bailiff in order; did all business that
-was necessary with the lawyer; and what was a greater feat still, kept
-her father unaware of the almost absolute authority which she exercised
-in his affairs. It had to be done, and she had not hesitated to do it;
-and on the whole, she, too, though she had suffered many heartaches in
-her day, was not unhappy now, but lived a life full of activity and
-occupation. She was forty, and her hair began to be touched by grey&mdash;she
-who had been one of the fairest flowers of the north country. A woman
-always has to come down from that eminence somehow; whether she does it
-by becoming some one’s wife or by merely falling back into the silence
-of the past and leaving the place free for others, does not much matter.
-Perhaps, indeed, it is the old maid who has the best of it. A little
-romance continues to encircle her in the eyes of most of those who have
-worshipped her youth. She has not married; why has she not married&mdash;that
-once admired of all admirers? Has it been that she, too, sharing the lot
-which she inflicted on so many, was not loved where she loved? or was
-it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_7" id="page_7">{7}</a></span> perhaps that she had made a mistake&mdash;sent away some one, perhaps,
-who knows, the very man who thought of her thus kindly and
-regretfully&mdash;whom she was afterwards sorry to have sent away? Nobody
-said this in words, but Mary Musgrave at forty was more tenderly thought
-of than Lady Stanton, who had been the rival queen of the county. Lady
-Stanton was stout now-a-days; in men’s minds, when they met her sailing
-into a ball-room, prematurely indued with the duties of chaperon to her
-husband’s grown-up daughters, there would arise a half-amused wonder how
-they could have worshipped at her feet as they once did. “Can this
-muckle wife be my true love Jean?” they said to themselves. But Miss
-Musgrave, who was slim as a girl in her unwedded obscurity, and whose
-eyes some people thought as bright as ever, though her hair was grey,
-gave rise to no such irreverent thoughts. There were men scattered
-through the world who had a romantic regard, a profound respect still,
-for this woman whom they had loved, and who had preserved the
-distinction of loving no one in return. Nobody had died for love of her,
-though, some had threatened it; but this visionary atmosphere of past
-adoration supplied a delicate homage, such as is agreeable even to an
-old maiden’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>And Miss Musgrave’s life was spent chiefly in the old hall, as her
-father’s was spent in his library. She had been full of gay activity in
-her youth, a bold and graceful horsewoman, ready for anything that was
-going; but, with the same sense of fitness that led the squire to his
-retirement, she too had retired. She had put aside her riding-habits
-along with, her muslins, and wore nothing but rich neutral-tinted silk
-gowns. Her only extravagance was a pair of ponies, which she drove into
-the county town when she had business to do, or to pay an occasional
-visit to her friends: but by far the greater part of her life was spent
-in the old hall, where all her favourites and allies came, and all her
-poor people from the village, who found her seated like a scriptural
-potentate in the gate, ready to settle all quarrels and administer
-impartial justice. The hall was connected with the house by a short
-passage and two doors, which shut out all interchange of sound. There
-was nothing above it but the high-pitched roof, the turret chimneys, and
-the ivy, nor was any<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_8" id="page_8">{8}</a></span> interposition of servants necessary to usher in
-visitors by that ever-open way. This was a thing which deeply affected
-the spirits and feelings of Eastwood, the only male functionary in the
-house&mdash;the most irreproachable of butlers. A door which opened straight
-into the lady’s favourite sitting-room was felt by him to be an insult
-to the family; it was more like a farmhouse than a castle; and as for
-Miss Musgrave, she was just as bad&mdash;too affable, a deal too affable,
-talking to any one that came to her, the tramps on the road as well as
-the ladies and gentlemen whose unwilling steeds pranced and curveted on
-the old slope of causeway. This was a standing grievance to the butler,
-whoso complaint was that the “presteedge” of the family was in hourly
-jeopardy; and his persistent complaint had thrown a shade of
-dissatisfaction over the household. This, however, did not move the lady
-of the house. Eastwood and the rest did not know, though some other
-people did, that it was the proudest woman in the county whom they
-accused of being too affable, and who received all the world in the old
-hall without the assistance of any gentleman usher. There were no
-windows in the side of the hall which fronted the road, but only this
-huge oaken door, all studded with bars and elaborate hinges of iron. On
-the other side there was a recess, with a large square window and
-cushioned seats, “restored” by village workmen in a not very perfect
-way, but still preserving the ample and noble lines of its original
-design. This windowed recess was higher than the rest of the hall, the
-walls of which were low, though the roof was lofty. But towards the
-front the only light was from the doorway, which looked due west, and
-beheld all the sunsets, flooding the ancient place with afternoon light
-and glories of evening colour. The slanting light seemed to sweep in
-like an actual visitor in all its sheen of crimson and purple, when the
-rest of the house was in the still and hush of the grey evening. This
-was where Miss Musgrave held her throne.</p>
-
-<p>Thus Penninghame Castle stood at the moment this story begins. The lake
-gleaming cold towards the north, rippling against the pebbles in the
-little inlet which held the two boats, the broken ground and ancient
-trees of the Chase, lying eastward, getting the early lights of the
-morning, as did the flower-garden,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_9" id="page_9">{9}</a></span> which lay bright under the old
-walls. A little genial hum of the kindly north-country women-servants,
-who had been there for a lifetime, or who were the daughters and cousins
-of those who had been there for a lifetime, with Eastwood strutting
-important among them&mdash;the one big cock among this barndoor company&mdash;made
-itself audible now and then, a respectful subdued human accompaniment to
-the ripple of the lake and the whispering of the wind among the trees:
-and now and then a cheerful cackle of poultry, the sound of the ponies
-in the stable, or the squire’s respectable cob: the heavy steps of the
-gardener walking slowly along the gravel paths. But for these tranquil
-sounds, which made the stillness more still, there was nothing but quiet
-in and about the old house. There had been a time when much had happened
-there, when there had been angry dissensions, family convulsions, storms
-of mutual reproach and reproof, outbursts of tears and crying. But all
-that was over. Nothing had happened at Penninghame for fifteen years.
-The old squire in his library and Mary in her favourite old chamber
-lived as though there were no breaks in life, no anguishes, no
-convulsions, as quietly as their trees, as steadily as their old walls,
-as if existence could neither change nor end. Thus they went on from day
-to day and from year to year, in a routine which occupied and satisfied,
-and kept the sense of living in their minds, but in a lull and hush of
-all adventure, of all commotion, of all excitement. Time passed over
-them and left no trace, save those touches imperceptible at the moment
-which sorrow or passion could surpass in effect in one day, yet which
-tell as surely at the end. This was how things were at Penninghame when
-this story begins.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_10" id="page_10">{10}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_II" id="CHAPTER_II"></a>CHAPTER II.<br /><br />
-<small>MARY.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">It</span> was not one of Mary Musgrave’s fancies to furnish her hall like a
-drawing-room. She had collected round her a few things for use, but she
-was not rich enough to make her favourite place into a toy, as so many
-people do, nor had she the opportunity of “picking up” rarities to
-ornament it, as she might have liked to do had she been in the way of
-them. The room had been a barn fifty years before. Then it became a
-family storeroom, was fitted up at one end with closets and cupboards,
-and held the household linen, and sometimes the winter supply of fruit.
-It was Mary who had rescued it back again to gentler use; but she had
-not been able to re-decorate or renew it with such careful pretence at
-antiquity as is common nowadays. All that she could do for it was to
-collect her own doings there, and all the implements for her work. The
-windowed recess which got the morning sun was her business-room. There
-stood an old secretaire, chosen not because of its age or suitability,
-but because it was the only thing she had available, a necessity which
-often confers as much grace as the happiest choice. Opposite the doorway
-was an old buffet, rough, yet not uncharacteristic, which had been
-scrubbed clean by a generous housemaid when Miss Musgrave first took to
-the hall. And much it had wanted that cleansing; but the soap and the
-water and the scrubbing-brush had not agreed very well, it must be
-allowed, with the carved mahogany, which ought to have been oak. Between
-the open door and this big piece of furniture was a square of old Turkey
-carpet, very much faded, yet still agreeable to the eye, and a
-spindle-legged table of Queen Anne’s days, with drawers which held Miss
-Musgrave’s knitting and a book, and sometimes homelier matters, mendings
-which she chose to do herself, calculations which were not meant for the
-common eye.</p>
-
-<p>She was seated here, on an afternoon of October, warm with the shining
-of that second summer which comes even in the north. The sunshine came
-so far into the room that it caught<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_11" id="page_11">{11}</a></span> the edges of the carpet, and made a
-false show of gold upon the faded wool; and it was so warm that Miss
-Musgrave had drawn her chair farther into the room than usual, and sat
-in the shade to escape the unusual warmth. At this moment she was not
-doing anything. She was sitting quite silent, the book she had been
-reading laid open upon her knee, enjoying the sun, as people enjoy it to
-whom it suddenly reveals itself after date when it is past expectation.
-In the end of October in the north country, people have ceased to think
-of warmth out of doors, or any blaze of kindly light from the skies&mdash;and
-the morning had been grey though very mild. The sudden glow had caught
-Mary as she sat, a little chilly, close to her opened door, thinking of
-a shawl, and had transfigured the landscape and the heavens and her own
-sentiments all at once. She was sitting with her hands in her lap, and
-the open book on her knee, thinking of it, surprised by the sweetness of
-it, feeling it penetrate into her very heart, though she had drawn her
-chair back out of the sun. No, not thinking&mdash;people do not think of the
-sunshine; but it went into her heart, bringing back a confused sweetness
-of recollection and of anticipation&mdash;or rather of the anticipations
-which were recollections&mdash;which had ceased to exist except in memory.
-Just so does youth expect some sudden sweetness to invade its life; and
-sometimes the memory of that expectation, even when unfulfilled, brings
-a half sad, half sweet amusement to the solitary. It was so with this
-lady seated alone in her old hall. She was Mary again, the young
-daughter of the house; and at the same time she was old Miss Musgrave
-smiling at herself.</p>
-
-<p>But as she did so a footstep sounded on the rough pavement of the
-ascent. No one could come unheard to her retreat, which was a safeguard.
-She gave a little shake to her head, and took up the open book, which
-was no old favourite to be dreamed over, but a modern book; and prepared
-herself for a visitor with that smoothing of the brow and closing up of
-mental windows which fits us to meet strange eyes. “It is only I,” said
-the familiar voice of some one who knew and understood this slight
-movement: and then she dropped the book again, and let the smile come
-back into her eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_12" id="page_12">{12}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Only you! then I may look as I please. I need not put on my company
-garb,” she said, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“I should hope not,” said the new-comer, reaching the door with that
-slight quickening of the breath which showed that even the half-dozen
-steps of ascent was a slight tax upon him. He did not even shake hands
-with her&mdash;probably they had met before that day&mdash;but took off his hat as
-he crossed the threshold, as if he had been going into a church. He was
-a clergyman, slim and slight, of middle size, or less than middle size,
-in somewhat rusty grey, with a mildness of aspect which did not promise
-much strength, bodily or mental. The Vicarage of Penninghame was a poor
-one, too poor to be worth reserving for a son of the family, and it had
-been given to the tutor of Mr. Musgrave’s sons twenty years ago. What
-had happened was natural enough, and might be seen in his eyes still,
-notwithstanding lapse of time and change of circumstances. Mr.
-Pennithorne had fallen in love, always hopelessly and mildly, as became
-his character, with the Squire’s daughter. He had always said it did not
-matter. He had no more hope of persuading her to love him than of
-getting the moon to come out of heaven, and circumstances having set
-marriage before him, he had married, and was happy enough as happiness
-goes. And he was the friend, and in a measure the confidant, of this
-lady whom he had loved in the superlative poetical way&mdash;knew all about
-her, shared her life in a manner, was acquainted with many of her
-thoughts and her troubles. A different light came into his eyes when he
-saw her, but he was not at all unhappy. He had a good wife and three
-nice children, and the kind of life he liked. At fifty, who is there who
-continues to revel in the unspeakable blisses of youth? Mr. Pennithorne
-was very well content: but still when he saw Mary Musgrave&mdash;and he saw
-her daily&mdash;there came a different kind of light into his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I was in mental <i>déshabille</i>,” she said, “and did not care to be
-caught; though after all it is not everybody who can see when one is not
-clothed and in one’s right mind.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never knew you out of your right mind, Miss Mary. What was it?&mdash;no
-new trouble?”</p>
-
-<p>“You are always a flatterer, Mr. Pen. You have seen me in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_13" id="page_13">{13}</a></span> all kinds of
-conditions. No, we don’t have any troubles now. Is that a rash speech?
-But really I mean it. My father is in very good health and enjoys
-himself, and I enjoy myself&mdash;in reason.”</p>
-
-<p>“You enjoy yourself! Yes, in the way of being good to other people.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush!” she said, putting up her hand to stop him in his little speech,
-sincere as it was. “Shall I tell you what it was that put me out of
-order for any one’s eyes but an old friend’s? Nothing more than this
-sunshine, Mr. Pen. Don’t you recollect when we were young how a sudden
-thought of something that was coming would seize upon you, and flood you
-with delight&mdash;as the sun did just now?”</p>
-
-<p>“I recollect,” he said, fixing his mild eyes upon her, and shaking his
-head, with a sigh: “but it never came.”</p>
-
-<p>“That may be true enough; but the thought came, and ‘life is but
-thought,’ you know; the thing might not follow. However, we are all
-quite happy all the same.”</p>
-
-<p>He looked at her, still shaking his head.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose so,” he said; “I suppose so; quite happy! but not as we meant
-to be; that was what you were thinking.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not go so far. I was not thinking at all. I <i>think</i> that I think
-very seldom. It only caught me as the old thought used to do, and
-brought so many things back.”</p>
-
-<p>She smiled, but he sighed.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, everything is very different. Yourself&mdash;to see you here, offering
-up your life for others&mdash;making a sacrifice&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I have made no sacrifice,” she said, somewhat proudly, then laughed.
-“Is that because I am unmarried, Mr. Pen? You wedded people, you are so
-sure of being better off than we are. You are too complacent. But <i>I</i> am
-not so sure of that.”</p>
-
-<p>He did not join in her laugh, but looked at her with melting eyes&mdash;eyes
-in which there was some suspicion of tears. It was perhaps a trifle
-unkind of her to call him complacent in his conjugality. There were a
-hundred unspeakable things in his look&mdash;pity, reverence, devotion, not
-the old love perhaps, but something higher; something that was never to
-end.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_14" id="page_14">{14}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“On the whole, we are taking it too seriously,” she said, after a pause.
-“It is over now, and the sun is going down. And you came to talk to
-me?&mdash;perhaps of something in the parish that wants looking to?”</p>
-
-<p>“No&mdash;I came in only to look at you, and make sure that you were well.
-The children you were visiting the other day have the scarlet fever; and
-besides, I have had a feeling in my mind about you&mdash;a presentiment. I
-should not have been surprised to hear that there had been&mdash;letters&mdash;or
-some kind of advances made&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“From whom?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” he said, after a slight pause; “they are both brothers&mdash;both
-sons&mdash;but they are not the same to me, Miss Mary. From John; he has been
-so much in my mind these two or three days, I have got to dreaming about
-him. Yes, yes, I know that is not worth thinking of; but we were always
-in such sympathy, he and I. Don’t you believe in some communication
-between minds that were closely allied? I do. It is a superstition if
-you like. Nothing could happen to any of you but, if I were at ever so
-great a distance, I should know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t be too sure of that, Mr. Pen. Sometimes the dearest to us perish,
-and we know nothing of it; but I prefer your view. You dreamt of poor
-John? What did you see? Alas! dreams are the only ways of divining
-anything about him now!”</p>
-
-<p>“And your father is as determined as ever?”</p>
-
-<p>“We never speak on the subject. It has disappeared like so many other
-things. Why continue a fruitless discussion which only embittered him
-and wore me out? If any critical moment should come, if&mdash;one must say it
-plainly&mdash;my father should be like to die&mdash;then I should speak, you need
-not fear.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never feared that you would do everything the best sister, the
-bravest friend, could do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do not praise me too much. I tell you I am doing nothing, and have done
-nothing for years; and sometimes it strikes me with terror. If anything
-should happen suddenly! My father is an old man; but talking to him now
-is of no use; we must risk it. What did you see in your dream?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, you will laugh at me,” he said with a nervous flutter;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_15" id="page_15">{15}</a></span>
-“nothing&mdash;except that he was here. I dreamt of him before, that time
-that he came home&mdash;after&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t speak of it,” said Miss Musgrave, with a corresponding shiver.
-“To think that such things should happen, and be forgotten, and we
-should all go on so comfortably&mdash;quite comfortably! I have nothing
-particular to make me happy, and yet I am as happy as most
-people&mdash;notwithstanding all that I have come through, as the poor women
-say.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is because you are so unselfish&mdash;so&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Insensible&mdash;more like. I am the same as other people. What the poor
-folk in the village come through, Mr. Pen!&mdash;loss of husbands, loss of
-children, one after another, grinding poverty, and want, and anxiety,
-and separation from all they care for. Is it insensibility? I never can
-tell; and especially now when I share it myself. I am as happy sometimes
-as when I was young. That sunshine gave me a ridiculous pleasure. What
-right have I to feel my heart light?&mdash;but I did somehow&mdash;and I do
-often&mdash;notwithstanding all that has happened, and all that I have ‘gone
-through.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pennithorne gave a vague smile, but he made no reply; for either she
-was accusing herself unjustly, or this was a mood of mind which perhaps
-derogated a little from Mary Musgrave’s perfection. He had a way himself
-of keeping on steadfastly on the one string of his anxiety, whatever it
-might be, and worrying everybody with it&mdash;and here he lost the object of
-his faithful worship. It might&mdash;nay, must&mdash;be right since so she felt;
-but he lost her here.</p>
-
-<p>“And speaking of happiness,” she went on after a pause, “I want the
-children to come with me to Pennington to see the archery. It is pretty,
-and they will like it. And they like to drive behind my ponies. They are
-quite well?&mdash;and Emily?”</p>
-
-<p>“Very well. Our cow has been ill, and she has been worrying about
-it&mdash;not much to worry about you will say, you who have so much more
-serious anxieties.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not at all. If I had a delicate child and wanted the milk, I should
-fret very much. Will you send up for some of ours? As usually happens,
-we, who don’t consume very much, have plenty.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_16" id="page_16">{16}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Thank you,” he said, “but you must not think that little Emmy is so
-delicate. She has not much colour&mdash;neither has her mother, you know.” He
-was a very anxious father, and looked up with an eager wistfulness into
-her face. Little Emmy was so delicate that it hurt him like a foreboding
-to hear her called so. He could not bear Miss Musgrave, whose word had
-authority, to give utterance to such a thought.</p>
-
-<p>“I spoke hastily,” she said; “I did not think of Emmy. She is ever so
-much stronger this year. As for paleness, I don’t mind paleness in the
-least. She has such a very fair complexion, and she is twice as strong
-as last year.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am so glad you think so,” he said, with the colour rising to his
-face. “That is true comfort&mdash;for eyes at a little distance are so much
-better than one’s own.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, she is a great deal stronger,” said Miss Musgrave, “but you must
-send down for the milk. I was pale too, don’t you remember, when you
-came first? When I was fifteen.”</p>
-
-<p>“I remember&mdash;everything,” he said; “even to the dress you wore. I bought
-my little Mary something like it when I was last in town. It was
-blue&mdash;how well I remember! But Mary will never be like you, though she
-is your godchild.”</p>
-
-<p>“She is a great deal better; she is like her mother,” said Miss Musgrave
-promptly; “and Johnny is like his father, the best possible
-distribution. You are happy with your children, Mr. Pen. I envy people
-their children, it is the only thing; though perhaps they would bore me
-if I had them always on my hands. You think not? Yes, I am almost sure
-they would bore me. We get a kind of fierce independence living alone.
-To be hampered by a little thing always wanting something&mdash;wanting
-attention and care&mdash;I don’t think I should like it. But Emily was born
-for such cares. How well she looks with her baby in her arms&mdash;all was
-the old picture over again&mdash;the Madonna and the child.”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor Emily,” he said, though why he could not have told, for Emily did
-not think herself poor. Mr. Pennithorne always felt a vague pity for his
-wife when he was with Miss Musgrave, as for a poor woman who had many
-excellent qualities, but was here thrown into the shade. He could not
-say any more. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_17" id="page_17">{17}</a></span> got up to go away, consoled and made comfortable he
-could not quite tell why. She was always sweet he said to himself as he
-went home. What she had said about being bored by children was a mere
-delusion, or perhaps a little conscious effort of self-deception,
-persuading herself that to have no children and to be independent was
-the best. What a wife she would have made! What a mother! he said this
-to himself quite impartially, knowing well that she never could have
-been wife for him, and feeling a pang at his heart for the happiness she
-had lost. Married life was not unmixed happiness always; it had its
-difficulties, he knew. But if <i>she</i> had married it was not possible that
-she could have been otherwise than happy. With her there could have been
-no drawbacks. Mr. Pennithorne looked upon the question from a husband’s
-point of view alone.</p>
-
-<p>When he was gone, Miss Musgrave sat still without changing her place, at
-first with a smile, which gradually faded away from her face, like the
-last suffusion of the sunshine, which was going too. She smiled at her
-fast friend, to whom she knew, notwithstanding his legitimate affection
-for his Emily, she herself stood first of created beings. It was a
-folly, but it did not hurt him, she reflected with a faint amusement;
-and Emily and the children, notwithstanding this sentiment, were first
-and foremost really in his heart. Poor Mr. Pen! he had always been like
-this, mildly sentimental, offering up an uninterrupted gentle incense.
-But he was not in the least unhappy, though perhaps he liked by times to
-think that he was. Few people were really unhappy. By moments life was
-hard; but the struggle itself made a kind of happiness, a strain of
-living which it was good to feel by times. This was her theory. Most
-people when they come to forty have some theory or another, some settled
-way of getting through their existence, and adapting themselves for it.
-Hers was this: that evil was very much less than good in every way, and
-that people suffered a great deal less than they gave themselves credit
-for. Life had its compensations, daily and hourly, she thought. Her own
-existence had no exciting source of joy in it, but how far it was from
-being unhappy! Had she been unhappy she would have scoffed at herself.
-What! so many things to enjoy, so many good and pleasant circumstances<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_18" id="page_18">{18}</a></span>
-around, and not happy! Would not that have been a disgrace to any woman?
-So she was apt to think Mr. Pennithorne extracted a certain cunning
-enjoyment from that vain love for herself which had been so visionary at
-all times, and which he persuaded himself had saddened his life. She
-thought it had been a harmless delusion: a secret advantage rather;
-something to fall back upon; a soft and visionary grievance of which he
-never wearied. And perhaps she was right. She sat looking after him with
-a smile on her face.</p>
-
-<p>The sun had crept away from her open doorway as they had talked. It was
-stealing further and further off, withdrawing from the line of the road,
-from the village roofs, from the gleam of the lake&mdash;and like the sun her
-smile stole away, from her eyes first, and then from the lingering
-curves about her mouth. Why was it that he could think he felt some
-action upon him of John’s mind in the far distance, while she felt none?
-No kind of presentiment or premonition had come to her. It must be
-foolishness she was sure&mdash;superstition; for if sympathy could thus
-communicate even a vague thrill of warning from one to another through
-the atmosphere of the mind, surely she was a more likely object to
-receive it than Mr. Pennithorne! John knew her,&mdash;could not doubt her,
-surely. Therefore to her, if to any one, this secret communication must
-have come. The smile disappeared altogether from her mouth as she
-entered upon this subject, and her whole face and eyes became grave and
-grey, like the dull coldness of the east, half-resentful of the sunset
-which still went on upon the other edge of the horizon, dispersing all
-those vain reflections to every quarter except that from which the sun
-rose. Could it be possible after all that John might trust Mr.
-Pennithorne with a more perfect confidence, as one unconnected and
-unconcerned with all that had passed, than he could give to herself? The
-thought, even though founded on such visionary grounds, hurt her a
-little; yet there was a kind of reason in it. He might think that she,
-always at her father’s side, and able to influence him in so many ways,
-might have done more for her brother; whereas with Mr. Pennithorne, who
-could do nothing, the sentiment of trust would be unbroken. She sat thus
-idly making it out to herself, making<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_19" id="page_19">{19}</a></span> wondering casts of thought after
-her brother in the darkness of the unknown, as inch by inch the light
-stole out of the sky. It was not a fine sunset that night. The sun was
-yellow and mournful; long lines of cloud broke darkly upon his sinking,
-catching only sick reflections of the pale light beneath. At last he was
-all gone, except one streaming yellow sheaf of rays that seemed to
-strike against and barb themselves into the damp green outline of the
-hill.</p>
-
-<p>Her eyes were upon this, watching that final display, which, somehow in
-the absorption of her thoughts, kept her from observing an object near
-at hand, an old hackney-coach from Pennington town&mdash;where there was a
-railway station&mdash;which came along the road, a black, slow, lumbering
-vehicle, making a dull roll of sound which might have been a country
-cart. It came nearer and nearer while Miss Musgrave watched the bundle
-of gold arrows flash into the hill-side and disappear. Her eyes were
-dazzled by them, and chilled by their sudden disappearance, which left
-all the landscape cold and wrapped in a greyness of sudden evening. Mary
-came to herself with a slight shiver and shock. And at that moment the
-dull roll of the cab ceased, and the thing stood revealed to her. She
-rose to her feet with a thrill of wonder and expectation. The hackney
-carriage had drawn up at the foot of the slope opposite to and beneath
-her. What was coming? Had Mr. Pennithorne been warned after all, while
-she had been left in darkness? Her heart seemed to leap into her throat,
-while she stood clasping her hands together to get some strength from
-them, and waiting for the revelation of this new thing, whatever it
-might be.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_20" id="page_20">{20}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_III" id="CHAPTER_III"></a>CHAPTER III.<br /><br />
-<small>THE NEW-COMERS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> cab was loaded with two boxes on the roof, foreign trunks, of a
-different shape from those used at home; and a woman’s face, in a
-fantastic foreign head-dress, peered through the window. Who could this
-be? Mary stood as if spell-bound, unable to make a movement. The driver,
-who was an ordinary cab-driver from Pennington, whose homely
-everydayness of appearance intensified the strangeness of the others,
-opened the door of the carriage, and lifted out, first a small boy, with
-a scared face and a finger in his mouth, who stared at the strange
-place, and the figures in the doorway, with a fixed gaze of panic, on
-the eve of tears. Then out came with a bound, as if pushed from behind
-as well as helped a little roughly by the cabman, the foreign woman, at
-whose dress the child clutched with a frightened cry. Then there was a
-pause, during which some one inside threw out a succession of wraps,
-small bags, and parcels; and then there stepped forth, with a great
-shawl on one arm, and a basket almost as large as herself on the other,
-clearly the leading spirit of the party, a little girl who appeared to
-be about ten years old. “You will wait a moment, man, till we get the
-pay for you,” said this little personage in a high-pitched voice, with a
-distinctness of enunciation which made it apparent that the language,
-though spoken with very little accent, was unfamiliar to her. Then she
-turned to the woman and said a few words much more rapidly, with as much
-aid of gesture as was compatible with the burdens. Mary felt herself
-look on at all this like a woman in a dream. What was it all&mdash;a dream or
-reality? She felt incapable of movement, or rather too much interested
-in the curious scene which was going on before her, to think of movement
-or interference of any kind. When she had given her directions, whatever
-they were, the little girl turned round and faced the open door and the
-lady who had not moved. She gave these new circumstances a long, steady,
-investigating look. They were within a dozen yards of each<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_21" id="page_21">{21}</a></span> other, but
-the chatelaine stood still and said nothing, while the little invader
-inspected her, and prepared her assault. The child, who looked the
-impersonation of life and purpose between her helpless companion and the
-wondering stranger whom she confronted, was dark and pale, not like the
-fair English children to whom Mary Musgrave was accustomed. Her dark
-eyes seemed out of proportion to her small, colourless face, and gave it
-an eager look of precocious intelligence. Her features were small, her
-dark hair falling about her in half-curling masses, her head covered
-with a little velvet cap trimmed with fur, as unlike anything children
-wore in England at the time as the anxious meaning of her face was
-different from ordinary baby prettiness. She made a momentary
-pause&mdash;then put down the basket on the stones, threw the shawl on the
-top of it, and mounted the breach with resolute courage. The stones were
-rough to the little child’s feet; there was a dilation in her eyes that
-looked like coming tears, and as she faced the alarming stranger, who
-stood there looking at her, a burning red flush came momentarily over
-her face. But she neither sat down and cried as she would have liked to
-do, nor ran back again to cling to the nurse’s skirts like her little
-brother. The small thing had a duty to do, and did it with a courage
-which might have put heroes to shame. Resolutely she toiled her way up
-to Miss Musgrave at the open door.</p>
-
-<p>“Are you&mdash;Mary?” she said; the little voice was strange yet sweet, with
-its distinct pronunciation and unfamiliar accent. “Are you&mdash;Mary?” Her
-big eyes seemed to search the lady all over, making a rapid comparison
-with some description she had received. There was doubt in her tone when
-she repeated the name a second time, and the tears visibly came nearer,
-and got with a shake and tremor into her voice.</p>
-
-<p>“What do you want with Mary?” said Miss Musgrave; “who are you, little
-girl?”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not think you can be Mary,” said the child. “He said your hair was
-like Nello’s, but it is more like his own. And he said you were
-beautiful&mdash;so you are beautiful, but old&mdash;and he never said you were
-old. Oh, if you are not Mary, what shall we do? what shall we do?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_22" id="page_22">{22}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>She clasped her little hands together, and for a moment trembled on the
-edge of a childish outburst, but stopped herself with a sudden curb of
-unmistakable will. “I must think what is to be done,” she cried out
-sharply, putting her little hands upon her trembling mouth.</p>
-
-<p>“Who are you? who are you?” cried Mary Musgrave, trembling in her turn;
-“child, who was it that sent you to me?”</p>
-
-<p>The little thing kept her eyes fixed upon her, with that watchfulness
-which is the only defence of weakness, ready to fly like a little wild
-creature at any approach of danger. She opened a little bag which hung
-by her side and took a letter from it, never taking her great eyes all
-the time from Miss Musgrave’s face. “This was for you, if you were
-Mary,” she said; holding the letter jealously in both hands. “But he
-said, when I spoke to you, if it was you, you would know.”</p>
-
-<p>“You strange little girl!” cried Miss Musgrave, stepping out upon the
-stones and holding out her hands eagerly; but the child made a little
-move backward at the moment, in desperation of fear, yet courage.</p>
-
-<p>“I will not give it you! I will not give it! it is everything we
-have&mdash;unless you are Mary,” she cried, with the burst of a suppressed
-sob.</p>
-
-<p>“Who are you then, child? Yes, I am Mary, Mary Musgrave&mdash;give me the
-letter. Is not this the house you were told of? Give me the letter&mdash;the
-letter!” said Miss Musgrave, once more holding out her hands.</p>
-
-<p>And once more the child made her jealous mental comparison between what
-the lady was, and what she had been told to look for. “I cannot do what
-I please,” she said, with little quivering lips. “I have Nello to take
-care of. He is only such a little, little child. Yes, it is the house he
-told me of; but he said if you were Mary&mdash;Ah! he said you would know us
-and take us into your arms, and be so kind, so kind!”</p>
-
-<p>“Little girl,” said Miss Musgrave, the tears dropping from her cheeks.
-“There is only one man’s child that you can be. You are John’s little
-girl, my brother John, and I am his sister Mary. But I do not know your
-name, nor any thing about<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_23" id="page_23">{23}</a></span> you. Give me John’s letter&mdash;and come to me,
-come to me, my child!”</p>
-
-<p>“I am Lilias,” said the little girl; but she held back, still examining
-with curious though less terrified eyes. “You will give it me back if
-you are not Mary?” she went on, at length holding out the letter; but
-she took no notice of the invitation to come nearer, which Mary herself
-forgot in the eagerness of her anxiety to get the letter, the first
-communication from her brother&mdash;if it was from her brother&mdash;for so many
-years. She took it quickly, almost snatching it from the child’s
-reluctant fingers, and leaning against the doorway in her agitation,
-tore it hastily open. Little Lilias was agitated too, with fear and
-desolate strangeness, and that terrible ignorance of any alternative
-between safety and utter destruction which makes danger insupportable to
-a child. What were they to do if their claims were not acknowledged?
-Wander into the woods and die in the darkness like the children in the
-story? Little Lilias had feared nothing till that first doubt had come
-over her at the door of the house, where, her father had instructed her,
-she was to be made so happy. But if they were not taken in and made
-happy, what were she and Nello to do? A terror of darkness, and cold,
-and starvation came upon the little girl. She would wrap the big shawl
-about her little brother, but what if wild beasts or robbers should come
-in the middle of the dark? Her little bosom swelled full, the sobs rose
-into her throat. Oh where could she go with Nello, if this was not Mary?
-But she restrained the sobs by a last effort, like a little hero. She
-sat down on the stone edge of the causeway, and held her hands clasped
-tight to keep herself together, and fixed her eyes upon the lady with
-the letter. The lady and the letter swam and changed, through the big
-tears that kept coming, but she never took those great dark, intense
-eyes from Miss Musgrave’s face. The Italian nurse was bending over
-Nello, fully occupied in hushing his little plaints. Nello was tired,
-hungry, sleepy, cold. He had no responsibility upon him, poor little
-mite, to overcome the weakness of nature. He looked no more than six,
-though he was older, a small and delicate child; and he clung to his
-nurse, holding her desperately, afraid of he knew not what. She had
-plenty to do to take care<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_24" id="page_24">{24}</a></span> of him without thinking of what was going on
-above; though the woman was indignant to be kept waiting, and cast
-fierce looks, in the intervals of petting Nello, upon the lady, the cold
-Englishwoman who was so long of taking the children to her arms. As for
-the cabman, emblem of the general unconcern which surrounds every
-individual drama, he stood leaning calmly upon his horse, waiting for
-the <i>dénoûment</i>, whatever it might be. Miss Musgrave would see him paid
-one way or another, and this was the only thing for which he needed to
-care.</p>
-
-<p>“Lilias,” said Miss Musgrave, going hastily to the child, with tears
-running down her cheeks, “I am your aunt Mary, my darling, and you will
-soon learn to know me. Come and give me a kiss, and bring me your little
-brother. You are tired with your long journey, my poor child.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no&mdash;I am not tired&mdash;only Nello; and he is h-hungry. Ah! Kiss Nello,
-Nello&mdash;come and kiss him; he is the baby. And are you Mary&mdash;real, real
-Mary?” cried the little girl, bursting out into sobs; “oh; I cannot
-h-help it. I did not mean it; I was fr-frightened. Nello, come, come,
-Mary is here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Mary is here,” said Miss Musgrave, taking the child into her arms,
-who, even while she sobbed against her shoulder, put out an impatient
-little hand and beckoned, crying, “Nello! Nello!” But it was not so easy
-to extract Nello from his nurse’s arms. He cried and clung all the
-faster from hearing his sister’s outburst; their poor little hearts were
-full; and what chokings of vague misery, the fatigue and discomfort
-infinitely deepened by a dumb consciousness of loneliness, danger, and
-strangeness behind, were in these little inarticulate souls! something
-more desperate in its inability to understand what it feared, its dim
-anguish of uncomprehension, than anything that can be realized and
-fathomed. Mary signed eagerly to the nurse to bring the little boy
-indoors into the hall, which was not a reassuring place, vast and dark
-as it was, in the dimness of the evening, to a child. But she had too
-many difficulties on her hands in this strange crisis to think of that.
-She had the boxes brought in also, and hastily sent the carriage away,
-with a desperate sense as of burning her ships, and leaving no possible
-way to herself of escape from the difficulty. The gardener, who had
-appeared<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_25" id="page_25">{25}</a></span> round the corner, attracted by the sound, presented himself as
-much out of curiosity as of goodwill to assist in carrying in the boxes,
-“though it would be handiest to drive round to the front door, and tak’
-them straight oop t’ stair,” he said, innocently enough. But when Miss
-Musgrave gave authoritative directions that they were to be brought into
-the hall, naturally the gardener was surprised. This was a proceeding
-entirely unheard of, and not to be understood in any way.</p>
-
-<p>“It’ll be a deal more trouble after,” he said, under his breath, which
-did not matter much. But when he had obeyed his mistress’s orders, he
-went round to the kitchen full of the new event. “There’s something
-oop,” the gardener said, delighted to bring so much excitement with him,
-and he gave a full account of the two pale little children, the foreign
-woman with skewers stuck in her hair, and finally, most wonderful of
-all, the boxes which he had deposited with his own hands on the floor of
-the hall. “I ken nothing about it,” he said, “but them as has been
-longer aboot t’ house than me could tell a deal if they pleased; and
-Miss Brown, it’s her as is wanted,” he added leisurely at the end.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Brown, who was Mary Musgrave’s maid, and had been standing
-listening to his story with frequent contradictions and denials, in a
-state of general protestation, started at these words.</p>
-
-<p>“You great gaby,” she said, “why didn’t you say so at first?” and
-hurried out of the kitchen, not indisposed to get at the bottom of the
-matter. She had been Miss Musgrave’s favourite attendant for twenty
-years, and in that time had, as may be supposed, known about many things
-which her superiors believed locked in the depths of their own bosoms.
-She could have written the private history of the family with less
-inaccuracy than belongs to most records of secret history. And she was
-naturally indignant that Tom Gardener, a poor talkative creature, who
-could keep nothing to himself, should have known this new and startling
-event sooner than she did. She hurried through the long passage from the
-kitchen, casting a stealthy glance in passing at the closed door of the
-library, where the Squire sat unconscious. A subdued delight was in the
-mind of the old servant; certainly it is best when there are no
-mysteries<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_26" id="page_26">{26}</a></span> in a family, when all goes well&mdash;but it is not so amusing. A
-great event of which it was evident the squire was in ignorance, which
-probably would have to be kept from him, and as much as possible from
-the household&mdash;well, it might be unfortunate that such things should be,
-but it was exciting, it woke people up.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Brown obeyed this summons with more genuine alacrity than she had
-felt for years.</p>
-
-<p>Very different were the feelings of her mistress standing there in the
-dimness of the old hall, her frame thrilling and her heart aching with
-the appeal which her brother had made to her, out of a silence which for
-more than a dozen years had been unbroken as that of the grave. She
-could scarcely believe yet that she had seen his very handwriting and
-read words which came straight from him and were signed by his now
-unfamiliar name. The children, who crouched together frightened by the
-darkness, were as phantoms to her, like a dream about which she had just
-got into the stage of doubt. Till now it had been all real to her, as
-dreams appear at first. But now, she stood, closing the door in the
-stillness of the evening, which, still as it was, was full of curiosity
-and questioning and prying eyes, and asked herself if these little
-figures were real, or inventions of her fancy. Real children of her
-living brother&mdash;was it true, was it possible? They were awe-stricken by
-the gathering dusk, by the strange half-empty room, by the dim circle of
-the unknown which surrounded them on every side. The nurse had put
-herself upon a chair on the edge of the carpet, where she sat holding
-the little boy on her knee, while little Lilias, who had backed slowly
-towards this one familiar figure, stood leaning against her, clutching
-her also with one hand, though she concealed instinctively this sign of
-fear. The boy withdrew the wondering whiteness of his face from the
-nurse’s shoulder now and then to give a frightened, fascinated look
-around, then buried it again in a dumb trance of dismay and terror, too
-frightened to cry. What was to be done with these frightened children
-and the strange woman to whom they clung? Mary could not keep them here
-to send them wild with alarm. They wanted soft beds, warm fires,
-cheerful lights, food and comfort,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_27" id="page_27">{27}</a></span> and they had come to seek it in the
-only house in the world which was closed by a curse and a vow against
-them. Mary Musgrave was not the kind of woman who is easily frightened
-by vows or curses; there was none of the romantic folly in her which
-would believe in the reality of an unjust or uncalled-for malediction.
-But she was persuaded of the reality of a thing which involved no
-supernatural mysteries, the obstinancy of her father’s mind, and his
-determination to hold by the verdict he had given. Years move and change
-everything, even the hills and the seas&mdash;but not the narrow mind of an
-obstinate and selfish man. She did not call him by these names; he was
-her father and she did not judge him; but no more did she hope in him.
-And in this wonderful moment a whole circle of possibilities ran through
-her mind. She might take them to the village; but there were other
-dangers there; or to the Parsonage, but Mr. Pen was weak and poor Emily
-a gossip. Could she dare the danger that was nearest, and take them
-somehow upstairs out of the way, and conceal them there, defying her
-father? In whatever way it was settled she would not desert them&mdash;but
-what was she to do? Miss Brown coming upon her suddenly in the dusk
-frightened her almost as much as the children were frightened. The want
-of light and the strangeness of the crisis combined made every new
-figure like a ghost.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I sent for you. I am in&mdash;difficulty, Martha. These children have
-just come&mdash;the children of a friend&mdash;&mdash; ” Her first idea was to conceal
-the real state of the case even from her confidential and well-informed
-maid.</p>
-
-<p>“Dear me,” said Miss Brown, with seeming innocence. “How strange! to
-bring a little lady and gentleman without any warning. But I’ll go and
-give orders, ma’am; there are plenty of rooms vacant, there need not be
-any difficulty&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Musgrave caught her by the arm.</p>
-
-<p>“What I want for the moment is light, and some food <i>here</i>. Bring me the
-lamp I always use. No, not Eastwood; never mind Eastwood. I want you to
-bring it, they will be less afraid in the light.”</p>
-
-<p>“There is a fire in the dining-room, ma’am, it is only a step,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_28" id="page_28">{28}</a></span> and
-Eastwood is lighting the candles; and there you can have what you like
-for them.”</p>
-
-<p>It was confidence Miss Brown wanted&mdash;nothing but confidence. With that
-she was ready to do anything; without it she was Miss Musgrave’s
-respectable maid, to whom all mysteries were more or less improper. She
-crossed her hands firmly and waited. The room was growing darker and
-darker every minute, and the foreign nurse began to lose patience. She
-called “Madame! madame!” in a high voice; then poured forth into a
-stream of words, so rapid and so loud as both mistress and maid thought
-they had never heard spoken before. Miss Musgrave was not a great
-linguist. She knew enough to be aware that it was Italian the woman was
-speaking, but that was all.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not understand you,” she said in distress, going up to the little
-group. But as she approached a sudden accession of terror, instantly
-suppressed on the part of the little girl but irrepressible by the
-younger boy, and which broke forth in a disjointed way, arrested her
-steps. Were they afraid of her, these children? “Little Lilias,” she
-said piteously, “be a brave child and stand by me. I cannot take you out
-of this cold room yet, but lights are coming and you will be taken care
-of. If I leave you alone for a little while will you promise me to be
-brave and not to be afraid?”</p>
-
-<p>There was a pause, broken only by little flutterings of that nervous
-exhaustion which made the children so accessible to fear. Then a small
-voice said, dauntless, yet with a falter&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I will stay. I will not be afraid.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thank God,” said Mary Musgrave, to herself. The child was already a
-help and assistance. “Martha,” she said hastily, “tell no one; they
-are&mdash;my brother’s children&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Good Lord!” said Martha Brown, frightened out of her primness. “And
-it’s dark, and there’s two big boxes, and master don’t know.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is the worst of all,” said Miss Musgrave sadly. She had never
-spoken to any one of her father’s inexorable verdict against John and
-all belonging to him. “The heir! and I must not take him into the house
-of his fathers! Take care of them, take care of them while I go&mdash;&mdash; And,
-Martha, say nothing&mdash;not a word.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_29" id="page_29">{29}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Not if they were to cut me in pieces, ma’am!” said Miss Brown
-fervently. She was too old a servant to work in the dark; but confidence
-restored all her faculties to her. It was not, however, in the nature of
-things that she should discharge her commission without a betrayal more
-or less of the emergency. “I want some milk, please,” she said to the
-cook, “for my lady.” It was only in moments of importance that she so
-spoke of her mistress. And the very sound of her step told a tale.</p>
-
-<p>“I told ye there was somethink oop,” said Tom Gardener, still lingering
-in the kitchen.</p>
-
-<p>And to see how the house brightened up, and all the servants grew alert
-in the flutter of this novelty! Nothing had happened at the castle for
-so long&mdash;they had a right to a sensation. Cook, who had been there for a
-long time, recounted her experience to her assistants in low tones of
-mystery.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, if ye’d known the place when the gentlemen was at home,” said cook;
-“the things as happened in t’auld house&mdash;such goings on!&mdash;coming in late
-and early&mdash;o’er the watter and o’er the land&mdash;and the strivings, that
-was enough to make a body flee out of their skin!” She ended with a
-regretful sigh for the old times. “That was life, that was!” she said.</p>
-
-<p>Meanwhile Mary Musgrave came in out of the dark hall into the lighted
-warmth of the dining-room, where the glass and the silver shone red in
-the firelight. How cosy and pleasant it was there! how warm and
-cheerful! Just the place to comfort the children and make them forget
-their miseries. The children! How easily her mind had undertaken the
-charge of them&mdash;the fact of their existence; already they had become the
-chief feature in her life. She paused to look at herself in the mirror
-over the mantelpiece, to smooth her hair, and put the ribbon straight at
-her neck. The Squire was “very particular,” and yet she did not remember
-to have had this anxious desire to be pleasant to his eyes since that
-day when she had crept to him to implore a reversal of his sentence. She
-had obtained nothing from him then; would she be more fortunate now? The
-colour had gone out of her face, but her eyes were brighter and more
-resolute than usual. How her heart beat when Mr. Musgrave said, “Come
-in,” calmly from the midst of his studies, as she knocked trembling at
-the library door!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_30" id="page_30">{30}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="PART_II" id="PART_II"></a>PART II.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_IV" id="CHAPTER_IV"></a>CHAPTER IV.<br /><br />
-<small>AFTER THE SILENCE OF YEARS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">“Come</span> in,” said the Squire. He was sitting among his books, working with
-such a genuine sense of importance as was strange to see. Mary did not
-know that she thought anything in the world (except this present mission
-of hers) so important as he thought his search into the heraldic
-fortunes of the family. He was in full cry after a certain
-“augmentation” which had got into the Musgrave arms no one well knew
-how. It was only the Musgraves of Penninghame who bore this distinction,
-and how did they come by it? It appeared in the thirteenth century&mdash;in
-the age of the Crusades. Was it in recollection of some feat of a
-Crusader?&mdash;that was the question. He put down his pen and laid one open
-book upon another as she came in. He had no consciousness in his mind to
-make him critical or inquiring. He did not observe her paleness, nor the
-special glitter in her eyes. “I am busy,” he said, “so you must be
-brief. I think I have got hold of that ‘chief’ at last. After years of
-search it is exciting to find the first trace of it; but perhaps it is
-best to wait till I have verified my guesses&mdash;they are still not much
-more than guesses. What a satisfaction it will be when all is clear!”</p>
-
-<p>“I am glad you are to have this satisfaction, papa.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know you take little interest in it for itself. Ladies seldom
-do; though I can’t tell why, for heraldry ought to be an interesting
-science to them and quite within their reach. Nothing has happened about
-the dinner, I hope? I notice that is your general subject when you come
-into my room so late. Law business in the morning, dinner in the
-evening&mdash;a very good distribution. But I want a good dinner to-night, my
-dear, to celebrate my success.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not about dinner. Father, we have been living a very quiet life
-for many years.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_31" id="page_31">{31}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Thank Heaven!” said the old man. “Yes, a quiet life. A man of my age is
-entitled to it, Mary. I never shrank from exertion in my time, nor do I
-now, as this will testify.” He laid his hand with a genial complaisance
-upon the half-written paper that lay before him. Then he said with a
-smile, “But make haste, my dear. There is still an hour before dinner,
-and I am in the spirit of my work. We need not occupy our time, you and
-I, with general remarks.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not mean it for a general remark,” she said with a tremble in her
-voice. “It is that I have something important&mdash;very important to speak
-of, and I don’t know how to begin.”</p>
-
-<p>“Important&mdash;very important!” he said, with the indulgence of jocular
-superiority for a child’s undue gravity. “I know what these important
-matters are. Some poaching rascal that you don’t know how to manage, or
-a quarrel in the village? Bring them to me: but bring them to-morrow,
-Mary, when my mind is at rest&mdash;I cannot give my attention now.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is neither poaching nor quarrelling,” she said. “I can manage the
-village. There are other things. Father, though we have been quiet for
-so many years, it is not because there has been nothing to think of&mdash;no
-seeds of trouble in the past&mdash;no anxieties&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know what you are thinking of,” he said, pettishly. “No
-anxieties? A man has them as long as he is in the world. We are mortal.
-Seeds of trouble? I have told you, Mary, that you may spare me general
-remarks.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nothing was further from my mind than general remarks,” she cried.
-“I don’t know how to speak. Father&mdash;look here&mdash;read it; it will tell its
-own story best. This is what, after the silence of years, I have
-received to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“The silence of years!” said the Squire. He had to fumble for his
-spectacles, which he had taken off, though he carefully restrained
-himself from betraying any special interest. A red colour had mounted to
-his face. Perhaps his mind did not go so far as to divine what it was;
-but still a sudden glimmering, like the tremble of pale light before the
-dawn, had come into his mind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_32" id="page_32">{32}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>And this was the thunderbolt that suddenly fell upon him in his
-quietness after the silence of years:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot2"><p>“<span class="smcap">My dear Sister Mary</span>,&mdash;This will be given to you by my little
-daughter Lilias. The sight of my handwriting and of the children
-will be enough to startle you, so that I need not try to soften the
-shock which you must have already received. I claim from my father
-shelter for my children. Their mother is dead; so are the others of
-my family whose very names will never be known to my nearest
-relations. Never mind that now. I am a man both sick and sorry,
-worn by the world, lonely, and not much better than an adventurer.
-These children are the last of our race, and the boy, however
-reluctant you may be, is my father’s heir. I claim for them the
-shelter of the family roof. I have no home to give them, nor can I
-give them the care they require. Mary, you are a good woman: you
-are blameless one way or another. I charge you with my children.
-God do so to you and more also, according as you deal with them.
-Some time or other before I die I will drag myself home. That you
-may be sure of, unless God cuts short my life by the way, of which,
-if He will, I shall not complain.</p>
-
-<p class="rt">
-<span style="margin-right: 6em;">“Your brother,</span><br />
-“<span class="smcap">John Musgrave</span>.”<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>This was the letter which the Squire placed upon his mouldy books, over
-the statement he had been writing. He did not speak, but read it
-steadily to the end, betraying no emotion except by the glow of colour
-that rose over his weather-beaten face. Who that has sat by, anxious,
-watching the effect of such a letter, needs to be told with what intense
-observation Mary Musgrave noted every sign of the rigid control he kept
-upon himself&mdash;the tight clutch of one hand upon the table, the tremor of
-the other which held the letter? But the Squire said nothing, not even
-when he had visibly come to the end. He held it before him still for
-some minutes; then he began to fold it elaborately&mdash;but said nothing
-still. The shadow of his head with its falling locks of white hair shook
-a little upon the wall. There is a peculiar tremble which shows the very
-severity of restraint, and this was of that kind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_33" id="page_33">{33}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Father! have you nothing to say?”</p>
-
-<p>“I thought it was a subject put aside, not to be mentioned between us,”
-he said. “I may be wrong&mdash;if I am wrong you can inform me; but I
-supposed this and all cognate subjects to be closed between us&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“How can this be closed; I have ceased to importune you, but this is a
-new opening. And there is more than the letter&mdash;the children&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” He gave a slight cry. If he could it would have been an
-exclamation of scorn, but this was too much for him; the cry was sharp
-with impatient pain.</p>
-
-<p>“I could not keep <i>them</i> a secret from you, father.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hate secrets,” he said; “nevertheless there are few families in which
-they are not necessary. When he had said this he pushed the letter
-towards her, drew forward his heraldry books, and took his pen in his
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Will you say nothing to me?” she cried. “Will you give me no answer?
-What am I to do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Do! It seems to me quite an unnecessary question. It is a long time
-since I have given up exercising any control over you, Mary,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“But, father, have a little pity. The house is not mine to do as I like
-with.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is unfortunate,” he said with a cold precision which made it
-doubtful whether he spoke satirically or in earnest. “But it is not my
-fault. You cannot expect me to make place voluntarily for another; and
-even if I did, as you are a woman, it would be of very little use to
-you. You cannot be the heir&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“And this boy is!” she said with a gesture of appeal.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave said nothing. He shook his head impatiently, pushed the
-letter to her with an energy that flung it into her lap, and resumed his
-writing. She stood by while he deliberately returned to his description
-of the “chief,” turning up a page in his heraldry book, where all the
-uses and meanings of that “augmentation” were discussed. According to
-all appearance his mind took up this important question exactly where he
-had left it; and he resumed his writing steadily, betraying agitation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_34" id="page_34">{34}</a></span>
-only by a larger, bolder, and firmer handwriting than usual. His
-daughter stood for a moment by his side, and watched him
-speechless&mdash;then went out of the room without another word. The Squire
-went on writing for a full minute more. The lines he wrote had not been
-so bold, so firm, so well-defined for years. Was it because he had to
-put forth the whole force that remained in him, soul and body, to get
-them upon the paper at all? When all sound of her departing steps had
-died out, he stopped suddenly, and, putting down his pen, let his head
-drop upon the open book and its figured page. An augmentation of honour!
-The days were over in which such gifts came from heralds and kings. And
-instead, here were struggles of a very different kind from those which
-won new blazons. But the most insensible, the most self-controlled of
-men, could not take such an interruption of his studies with absolute
-calm. He had never been in such desperate conflict with any man as with
-this son, and here his enemy, whom nature forbade to be his enemy, his
-antagonist, had come again after the silence of years and confronted
-him. To see such a one pass by could not but excite a certain emotion;
-but to meet him thus as it were face to face! The passion of parental
-love has been often portrayed. There is no passion more fervent, none
-perhaps even that can equal it; but there is another passion scarcely
-less intense&mdash;that which rises involuntarily in the bosom of a man
-between whom and his son there are no ties of mutual dependence, when
-the younger has become as the elder, knowing good and evil, and all the
-experiences of life; when there is no longer any question of authority
-and obedience, and natural affection yields to a strain of feeling which
-is too strong for it. Many long years had passed now since young
-Musgrave ceased to be his father’s pride and boyish second in
-everything. He had grown a man, his equal, and had resisted and held his
-own in the conflict half a lifetime ago. All the embitterment which
-close relationship gives to a deadly quarrel had been between them, and
-though the father had so far got the better as to drive the rebel out of
-his sight, he had not crushed his will or removed him from his
-standing-ground. He was the victor, though the vanquished. His son had
-not yielded, nor would ever yield. When Mr. Musgrave raised his head his
-face was pale, and his head shook<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_35" id="page_35">{35}</a></span> with a nervous tremor; all the broken
-redness of his cheeks shone like pencilled lines through his pallor,
-increasing it. “This will never do,” he said to himself, and rising,
-went to an old oak cupboard in the corner, and poured himself a small
-glass of the strongest of liqueurs. Not for all that remained of the
-Musgrave property would he have shown himself so broken, so overcome.
-This other man who was no younger, but only stronger than himself, was
-at the same time his successor, ready to push him out of his seat;
-waiting for a triumph that must come sooner or later. He had been able
-to forget all about him for years; to thrust out the thought of him when
-it recurred; but here the man stood once more confronting him. The
-Squire was wise in his way, and knew that there was nothing in the world
-so bad for the health, or so likely to give his antagonist an advantage,
-as the indulgence of emotion&mdash;therefore he crushed it “upon the
-threshold of the mind.” He would not give him so much help towards the
-inevitable eventual triumph. He went back to his writing-table when he
-had fortified himself with that potent mouthful; but, knowing himself,
-tried his pen upon a stray bit of paper before he would resume his
-writing. What he wrote was in the quivering lines of old age. He tore it
-into pieces. No one should see such a sign of agitation in the
-manuscript which was to last longer than he. He took up the most learned
-of his books, and began to read with close attention. Here, at all
-events, the adversary should not get the better of him; or, at least, if
-thoughts did surge and rise, obliterating the old escutcheon altogether
-and the lion on its “chief,” nobody should be the wiser.</p>
-
-<p>Thus the old man sat, with a desperate courage worthy a better object,
-and mastered the furious excitement in his mind. But he was not thinking
-of the children as perhaps the reader of this story may suppose. He was
-not resisting the thrill of natural interest, the softening of heart
-which might have attended that sudden arrival. He did not even realize
-the existence of the children. His thoughts were of conflicts past, and
-of the opponent against whom he had striven so often: the opponent whom
-he could not altogether dismiss or get rid of, his rival, his heir, his
-successor, his son. There was nothing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_36" id="page_36">{36}</a></span> he had wished as a father, as a
-Musgrave, as the head of a great county family, which this man had not
-done his best to undo: and as he had by ill-fortune thirty years the
-advantage of his father, there was no doubt that he would, some time or
-other, undo and destroy to an extent of which he was incapable now;
-unless indeed he was prevented in the most disgraceful way,
-incapacitated by public conviction of crime&mdash;conviction, which was only
-too probable, which hung over his banished head and prevented his return
-home. What would there be but pain in the thought of such a son&mdash;an
-opponent if he were innocent, if he were guilty a disgrace to the family
-name? The more completely the Squire could banish this thought from his
-mind, the happier he was; and he had banished it with wonderful success
-for many years past. He had done all he could to evade the idea that he
-himself would one day be compelled to die. Many men do this who have no
-painful consciousness of the heir behind who is waiting to dispossess
-them; and Mr. Musgrave had, to a great degree, attained tranquillity on
-this point. The habit of living seems to grow stronger with men as they
-draw near the end of their lives. It has lasted so long; it has been so
-steady and uninterrupted, why should it ever cease? But here was the
-death’s-head rising at the feast; the executioner giving note of his
-presence behind backs. John! he had dismissed him from his mind. He had
-exercised even a kind of Christianity in forgetting him. But here he was
-again, incapable of being forgotten. What a tremor in his blood&mdash;what
-undue working of all that machinery of the heart which it was so
-essential to keep in calm good order had this interruption caused! he
-who had no vital energy to spare; who wanted it all for daily comfort
-and that continuance which with younger people is so lightly taken for
-granted. How much of that precious reserve had been consumed by this
-shock! It had been done on purpose, perhaps, to try what the effect of
-such a shock upon his nerves and fibres would be.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave pushed back his chair again from the table, and gave all
-his faculties to the task of calming himself down. He would not allow
-himself to be overcome by John. But it took him a long time to
-accomplish this, to get his pulse back to its<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_37" id="page_37">{37}</a></span> usual rate of beating.
-When he relaxed for a moment in his watch over himself, old
-recollections would come back, scenes of the long warfare, words that
-were as swords and smote him over again with burning and stinging
-wounds. He had to calm it all down and still memory altogether if he
-would recover his ordinary composure. It wanted about an hour of dinner
-when he began this process. Up to that time it did not so much matter
-except for wearing him out and diminishing his strength. But it was his
-determination that no one should know or see this agitation which he had
-not been able to master. His daughter thought she had a harder task
-before her when she left him and hurried back to the ghostly
-half-lighted hall where she had left the children; but what was her
-work, or the commotion of her thoughts, in comparison to that which
-raged within the bosom of the old man in his solitude, defying Heaven
-and nature, and all gentler influences&mdash;whose conflict was for himself
-only, as it was carried on unhelped and unthought of by himself alone?</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_V" id="CHAPTER_V"></a>CHAPTER V.<br /><br />
-<small>WAKING UP.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Miss Musgrave</span> went back to her visitors with a heightened colour and
-assured step. Her alarm had departed along with her wistful and hopeful
-ignorance as to what her father might do. Now that she knew, her courage
-came back to her. When she opened the door which led out of the little
-passage into the hall, the scene before her was striking and strange
-enough to arrest her like a picture. The great ancient room, with its
-high raftered roof and wide space, lay in darkness&mdash;all but one bright
-spot in the midst where the lamp stood on the table. Miss Brown had
-hastily arranged a kind of homely meal, a basket of oatcakes, some white
-bread in a napkin, biscuits, home-made gingerbread, and a jug of fresh
-milk. The white and brown bread, the tall white jug, the cloth upon the
-tray, all helped to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_38" id="page_38">{38}</a></span> increase the whiteness of that spot in the gloom.
-In the midst of this light sat the Italian nurse, dark and vigorous,
-with the silver pins in her black hair, and red ribbons at her breast.
-The pale little boy sat on her knee; he had a little fair head like an
-angel in a picture, light curling hair, and a delicate complexion, white
-and red, which was fully relieved against that dark background. The
-child’s alarm had given way a little, but still, in the intervals of his
-meal, he would pause, look round him into the gloom, and clutch with
-speechless fright at his attendant, who held him close and soothed him
-with all the soft words she could think of. Little Lilias stood by her
-on the further side, sufficiently recovered to eat a biscuit, but
-securing herself also, brave as she was, by a firm grasp of the nurse’s
-arm to which she hung, tightly embracing it with her own. Miss Brown was
-flitting about this strange little group, talking continuously, though
-the only one among them who was disposed to talk could not understand
-her, and the children were too worn out to pay any attention to what she
-said.</p>
-
-<p>There was a little start and thrill among the three who held so closely
-together when the lady returned. Little Lilias put down her biscuit. She
-became the head of the party as soon as Miss Musgrave came back&mdash;the
-plenipotentiary with whom to conduct all negotiations. Nello, on the
-other hand, buried his head in his nurse’s shoulder. In the midst of all
-her agitation and confusion it troubled Miss Musgrave that the child
-should hide his face from her. The boy who was like herself and her
-family was the one to whom her interest turned most. Lilias bore another
-resemblance, which was no passport to Mary Musgrave’s heart. Yet it was
-hard to resist the fascination of this child’s sense and courage; the
-boy, as yet, had shown himself capable of nothing but fear.</p>
-
-<p>“Go, and have fires lighted at once in the two west rooms&mdash;make
-everything ready,” Mary said, sending Miss Brown away peremptorily. It
-was not a worthy feeling perhaps, but it vexed her, agitated as she was,
-to see that her maid woke no alarm in the children, while she, their
-nearest relation, she who, if necessary, had made up her mind to
-sacrifice everything for them, was an object of fear. She thought even
-that the children<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_39" id="page_39">{39}</a></span> clung closer to their nurse and shrank more from
-herself when Martha was sent away. Miss Musgrave stood at the other side
-of the table and looked at them with many conflicting thoughts. It was
-altogether new to her, this strange mixture of ignorance and wonder, and
-almost awe, with which she felt herself contemplating these unknown
-little creatures, henceforward to be wholly dependent upon her. They
-were afraid of her, but she was scarcely less afraid of them, wondering
-with an ache in her heart whether she would be able to feel towards them
-as she ought, to bring her middle-aged thoughts into sympathy with
-theirs, to be soft and gentle with them as their helplessness demanded.
-Love does not always come with the first claim upon it; how was she to
-love them, little unknown beings whose very existence she had never
-heard of before? And Mary thought of herself with a certain pity in this
-strange moment, remembering almost with a sense of injury that the
-fountain of mother’s love had never been awakened in her at all. Was it
-thus to be awakened? She was not an angelic woman, as poor Mr. Pen
-imagined her to be. She knew this well enough, though he did not know
-it. She had been young and full of herself when the family misfortunes
-happened, and since then what had there been in her life to warm or
-awaken the heart? Was she capable of loving? she asked herself; was
-there not a chill atmosphere about her which breathed cold upon the
-children and drove them away? This thought gave her a pang, as she stood
-and looked at the two helpless creatures before her, too frightened now
-to munch their biscuits, one gazing at her with big pathetic eyes, the
-other hiding his face. An ache of helplessness and pain not less great
-than theirs came into her mind. She was as helpless as they were,
-looking at them across the table, as if across a world of separation
-which she did not know how to bridge over, with not only them to
-vanquish, but herself. At last she put out her hands with the sense of
-weakness, such as perhaps she had never felt before. She had not been
-able, indeed, to influence her father, but she had not felt helpless
-before him; on the contrary, his hardness had stirred her to
-determination on her side, and a sense of power which quickened the
-flowing of her blood. But before these<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_40" id="page_40">{40}</a></span> children she felt helpless; what
-was she to do with them, how bring herself into communication with them?
-She put out her hands&mdash;hands strong to guard, but powerless she thought
-to attract. “Lilias, will you come to me?” she said with a tremulous
-tone in her voice.</p>
-
-<p>The weariness, the strangeness, the darkness had been almost too much
-for Lilias; her mouthful of biscuit and draught of milk had been too
-quickly interrupted by the return of the strange, beautiful lady, with
-whom she alone, she was aware, could deal. And she could not respond to
-that appeal without quitting hold of Martuccia, who, though powerless to
-treat with the lady, was still a safeguard against the surrounding
-blackness, a something to cling to. But the child was brave as a hero,
-notwithstanding the nervous susceptibility of her nature. She disengaged
-her arm slowly from her one stay, keeping her eyes all the time fixed
-upon Miss Musgrave, half attracted by her, half to keep herself from
-seeing those dark corners in which mysterious dangers seemed to lurk;
-and came forward, repressing the sob that rose in her throat, her little
-pale face growing crimson with the strain of resolution which this
-effort cost her. It was all Lilias could do to move round the table
-quietly, not to make a rush of fright and violent clutch at the hand
-held out to her&mdash;even though it was the hand of a stranger, from which
-in itself she shrank. Mary put her arm round the little trembling
-figure, and smoothing away the dark hair from her forehead, kissed the
-little girl with lips that trembled too. She would do her duty by her;
-never would she forsake her brother’s child; and with the warmth of this
-resolution tears of pity and tenderness came into her eyes. But when
-Lilias felt the protection of the warm soft arm about her, and the
-tenderness of the kiss, her little heart burst forth with a strength of
-impulse which put all laws at defiance. With a sobbing cry she threw
-herself upon her new protector, caught at her dress, clung to her waist,
-nestled her head into her bosom, with a close pressure which was half
-gratitude, half terror, half nervous excitement. Mary was taken by
-storm. She did not understand the change that came over her. A sudden
-warmth seemed to come into her veins, tingling to her very
-finger-points. She too, mature and self-restrained as she was, began to
-weep, a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_41" id="page_41">{41}</a></span> sudden flood of tears rushing to her eyes against her will. “My
-child, my brave little girl!” she said almost unawares, recognising in
-her heart a soft surprise of feeling which was inexplicable; was this
-what nature did, sheer nature? she had never felt anything like it
-before. She held the child in her arms and cried over her, the tears
-falling over those dark curls which had nothing to do with the
-Musgraves, which even resembled another type with which the Musgraves
-would have nothing to do!</p>
-
-<p>As she stood thus overcome by the double sensation of the child’s
-nestling and clinging, and by the strange, sudden development of feeling
-in herself, Mary Musgrave felt two soft touches upon her hand which were
-not mistakable, and which made her start and flush, with the decorum of
-an Englishwoman surprised. It was Martuccia, who, moved like all her
-race by quick impulses of emotion, had risen hastily to her feet in
-sympathy, and had kissed the lady’s hand, and put forward her little
-charge to perform the same act of homage. This roused Mary from her
-momentary breaking down. She took the little boy by the hand whom she
-found at her feet, not quite so frightened as at first, but still
-holding fast by the nurse’s skirts, and led them both into the house.
-They were too much awed to make any noise, but went with her, keeping
-close to her, treading in her footsteps almost, closer and closer as
-they emerged into one unknown place after another. Wonder kept them
-still as she took them through the cheerful lighted dining-room, and up
-the stairs. Eastwood was busy about his table, putting it in that
-perfect order which it was his pride to keep up (“For who is more to me
-nor my family? what’s company?” said Eastwood; “it’s them as pays me as
-I’m bound to please”); but Eastwood was too good a servant to manifest
-any feeling. He had, of course, heard all about the arrival, not only
-from the gardener, but from every one in the kitchen; and he was aware,
-as nobody else was, that there had been a private interview between the
-father and daughter, to which she had gone with a pale face, and come
-back with nostrils expanded, and a glow of resolution upon her. Eastwood
-was not an old servant, but he had learned all that there was to learn
-about the family, and a little more. His<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_42" id="page_42">{42}</a></span> interest in the Musgraves was
-not so warm as that of cook for instance, who had been born in the
-place, and had known them from their cradles; but he had the warm
-curiosity which is common to his kind. He gave a glance from beneath his
-eyebrows at the new-comers, wondering what was to become of them. Would
-they be received into the house for good; and if so, would that have any
-effect upon himself, Eastwood? would it, by and by, be an increase of
-trouble, a something additional to do? He was no worse than his
-neighbours, and the thought was instinctive and natural, for no one
-likes to have additional labour. “But he’s but a little chap; it’ll be
-long enough before he wants valeting&mdash;if ever,” Mr. Eastwood said to
-himself. What would be wanted would be a nurse, not a valet; and if that
-black-eyed foreigner didn’t stay, Eastwood knew a nice girl from the
-village whom the place would just suit. So he cast no unkindly eye upon
-the children as he went noiselessly about in his spotless coat, putting
-down his forks, which were quite as spotless. The sight of the table
-with its bouquet of autumn flowers excited Lilias. “Who is going to dine
-there?” she said, with a pretty childish wile, drawing down Miss
-Musgrave towards her to whisper in her ear.</p>
-
-<p>“I am, Lilias.”</p>
-
-<p>“May we come too?” said the little girl. “Nello is very good&mdash;he does
-not ask for anything; we know how to behave.”</p>
-
-<p>“There will be some one else besides me,” said Mary, faltering slightly.</p>
-
-<p>“Then we do not want to come,” said Lilias with decision. “We are not
-fond of strangers.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am a stranger, dear&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, you are Mary!” said the child, embracing Miss Musgrave’s arm
-with her own two arms clasped round it, and raising her face with the
-confidence of perfect trust. These simple actions made Mary’s heart
-swell as it had not done for years&mdash;as indeed it had never done in her
-life. Other thrills there might have been in her day, but this fountain
-had never been opened before, and the new feeling was almost as
-strangely sweet to her as is the silent ecstasy in the bosom of the new
-mother, whose baby has just brought into the world such an<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_43" id="page_43">{43}</a></span> atmosphere
-of love. It was like some strange new stream poured into her heart,
-filling up all her veins.</p>
-
-<p>The firelight had already begun to sparkle pleasantly in the bedrooms,
-and Mary found herself suddenly plunged into those pleasant cares of a
-mother which make time fly so swiftly. She had found so much to do for
-them, getting them to bed and making the weary little creatures
-comfortable, that the bell rang for dinner before she was aware. She
-left them hastily, and put herself into her evening gown with a speed
-which was anxiously seconded by Miss Brown, who for her part was just as
-eager to get back to the children as was her mistress. Miss Musgrave did
-not know what awaited her when she went down-stairs, or what battles she
-might have to fight. She had another duty now in the world beyond that
-claimed by her father. He had no such need of her as these children, who
-in all the wide world had no protector or succour but herself. Her heart
-beat a little louder and stronger than usual; her bearing was more
-dignified. The indifference which had been in her life this morning had
-passed away. How strange it seemed now to think of that calm which
-nothing affected much, in which she had been comparatively happy, but
-which now appeared so mean and poverty-stricken. The easy quiet had gone
-out of her life;&mdash;was it for ever?&mdash;and instead there had come in a
-commotion of anxieties, hopes, and doubts and questions manifold; but
-yet how miserable to her in comparison seemed now that long loveless
-tranquillity! She was another woman, a living woman, she thought to
-herself, bearing the natural burden of care, a burden sweetened by a
-hundred budding tendernesses and consolations. It is well to have good
-health and enough to do; these had been the bare elements of existence,
-out of which she had managed to form a cold version of living; but how
-different was this vivid existence, new-born yet eternal, of love and
-care! She was like one inspired. If she had been offered the
-alternative, as she almost expected, of leaving the house or giving up
-the children, with what pride would she have drawn her cloak round her
-and left her father’s house! This prospect seemed near enough and likely
-enough as she walked into the dining-room, with her head high, and a
-swell of conscious force in her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_44" id="page_44">{44}</a></span> bosom. Whatever might be coming she was
-prepared for any blow.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave, too, was late. He who was the soul of punctuality did not
-enter the room for a minute or more after his daughter had hastened
-there, knowing herself late&mdash;but whereas she had hurried her toilet, his
-had never been more careful and precise. He took his seat with
-deliberate steadiness, and insisted upon carving the mutton and
-partridge which made their meal, though on ordinary occasions he left
-this office to Eastwood. It gratified him, however, to-day, to prove to
-himself and to her how capable he was and how steady were his nerves.
-And he talked while he did this with unusual energy, going over again
-all the history of the “chief.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope it will interest the general reader,” he said. “Not many family
-questions do, but this is really an elucidation of history. It throws
-light upon a great many things. You scorn heraldry, Mary, I am aware.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I do not think I scorn it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, at all events you are little interested; the details are not of
-much importance, you think. In short, I suspect,” he added, with a
-little laugh, “that if the truth were told, you and a great many other
-ladies secretly look upon the science as one of those play-sciences that
-keep men from being troublesome. You don’t say so, but I believe you
-think we fuss and make work for ourselves in this way while you are
-carrying on the real work of the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not so self-important,” she said; but there was a great deal of
-truth in the suggestion if her mind had been free enough to think of it.
-What was it else but a play-science to keep country gentlemen too old
-for fox-hunting out of mischief? This is one of the private opinions of
-the gynecæum applying to many grave pursuits, an opinion which
-circulates there in strictest privacy and is not spoken to the world.
-Mary would have smiled at the Squire’s discrimination had her mind been
-free. As it was, she could do nothing but wonder at his liveliness and
-composure, and say to herself that he must be waiting till Eastwood went
-away. This, no doubt, was why he talked so much, and was so genial. He
-did not wish to betray anything<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_45" id="page_45">{45}</a></span> to the man, and her heart began to beat
-once more with renewed force as the moment came for his withdrawal. No
-doubt the discussion she feared would come, and most likely come with
-double severity then. She had seen all this process gone through before.</p>
-
-<p>But when Eastwood went away the Squire continued smiling and
-conversational. He told her of a poacher who had been brought to him, a
-bumpkin from a distant farm, to whom he meant to be merciful; and of
-some land which was likely to be in the market, which would, if it could
-be got, restore an old corner of the estate and rectify the ancient
-boundary.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not suppose there is any hope of such a thing,” he said, with a
-sigh. “And besides, what does it matter to me that I should care? my
-time cannot be very long.”</p>
-
-<p>“The time of the family may be long enough,” she said, with a throb of
-rising excitement, for surely now he would speak; “one individual is not
-all.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is a sound sentiment, though perhaps it may seem a little
-cold-hearted when the individual is your father, Mary.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not mean it to be cold-hearted; you have always taught me to
-consider the race.”</p>
-
-<p>“And so you ought,” he said, “though you don’t care so much for the
-blazon as I could wish. I should like to talk to Burn and to see what
-the lawyers would think of it. I confess I should like to be Lord of the
-Manor at Critchley again before I die.”</p>
-
-<p>“And so you shall, father, so you shall!” she cried. “We could do it
-with an effort: if only you would&mdash;if only you could&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>He interrupted her hastily.</p>
-
-<p>“When Burn comes to-morrow let me see him,” he said. “This is no
-question of what I could or would. If it can be done it ought to be
-done. That is all I have to say. Is it not time you were having tea?”</p>
-
-<p>This was to send her away that he might have his evening nap after
-dinner. Mary rose at the well-known formula, but she came softly round
-to his end of the room to see that the fire was as he liked it, and
-lingered behind his chair, not knowing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_46" id="page_46">{46}</a></span> whether to make another appeal
-to him. Her presence seemed to make him restless; perhaps he divined
-what was floating in her mind. He got up quickly before she had time to
-speak.</p>
-
-<p>“On second thoughts,” he said, “as I was disturbed before dinner, I had
-better resume my work at once. You can send me a cup of tea to the
-library. It is not often that one has such a satisfactory piece of work
-in hand; that charms away drowsiness. Be sure you send me a cup of tea.”</p>
-
-<p>“You will not&mdash;over-fatigue yourself, father?” said Mary, faltering.
-“I&mdash;hope you will not do too much.”</p>
-
-<p>This was not what she meant to say, but these were the only words that
-she could manage to form out of her lips.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, no; do not be uneasy. I shall not overwork myself,” said the Squire
-once more, with a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>And he went out of the room before her, erect and steady, looking
-younger and stronger in the force of that excitement which he was so
-careful to conceal. Mary did not know what to think. Was he postponing
-his sentence to make it more telling? or was he, happier thought, moved
-by the new event as she herself had been, warmed into forgiveness, into
-relenting, into the happiness of old age in children’s children? Could
-this be so? She stood over the fire in her agitation holding her hands
-out to the ruddy blaze, though she was not cold. Her heart beat
-violently against her breast. How uneasy a thing this life was, how
-restless and full of change and commotion! Yet so much more, so much
-greater than the gentler stagnation which was gone.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VI" id="CHAPTER_VI"></a>CHAPTER VI.<br /><br />
-<small>AT THE VICARAGE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> vicarage was stilled in the quiet of the evening, the children in
-bed, the house at rest. It was not the beautiful and dignified old house
-which in England is the ideal dwelling of the gentleman parson, the
-ecclesiastical squire of the parish. And indeed Mr. Pennithorne was not
-of that order. Though there had been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_47" id="page_47">{47}</a></span> many jokes when he first entered
-upon the cure as to the resemblance between his name and that of the
-parish, Pennithorne of Penninghame was a purely accidental coincidence.
-Mr. Musgrave was the patron, but the living was not wealthy enough or
-important enough to form that appropriate provision for a second son
-which, according to the curious subordination and adaptation of public
-wants to family interests, has become the rule in England, unique, as
-are so many others. Randolph Musgrave had his rectory in one of the
-midland counties, in the district which was influenced by his mother’s
-family, where there was something more worth his acceptance; and his old
-tutor had got the family living. Mr. Pennithorne was not a distinguished
-scholar with chances of preferment through his college, and it had been
-considered a great thing for him when, after dragging the young
-Musgraves through a certain proportion of schooling and colleging, he
-had subsided into this quiet provision for the rest of his life. He was
-a clergyman’s son, with no prospects, and whatsoever glimmerings of
-young ambition there might have been in him, there was no coming down
-involved when he accepted the small rural vicarage where his heart was.
-We have already said that in his wildest hopes a vision of the
-possibility of bringing Mary Musgrave to the vicarage to share his
-humble circumstances with him had never entered into Mr. Pennithorne’s
-mind; but to be near her was something, and to be her trusted and
-confidential friend seemed the best that life could give him. Here he
-had remained ever since, being of some use to her, as he hoped, from
-time to time, and some comfort at least, if nothing more, in the
-convulsions of the family. During the first years of his incumbency, Mr.
-Pennithorne’s own mind had been subject to many convulsions as one
-suitor after another came to the Castle; but as they had all ridden away
-again with what grace they could after their rejection, comfort had come
-back. It was a curious passion, and one which we do not pretend to
-explain. After a while, impelled by friends, by convenience, and by the
-soft looks of Emily Coniston, the daughter of the clergyman in his
-native place, to which he had gone on a visit, he had himself found it
-possible to marry, without any failure of his allegiance to his
-visionary love; but still to this day<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_48" id="page_48">{48}</a></span> though he had been Emily’s
-husband for ten years, it troubled the good vicar when any stranger came
-to the Castle whose society seemed specially pleasant to Miss Musgrave.
-He would hang about the place at such times like an alarmed hen when
-something threatens the brood, nor ceased to cluck and flutter his wings
-till the danger was over. Did he not wish her happiness? Ah, yes, and
-would, he thought, have given his life to procure it; but was it
-necessary that happiness should always be got in that one vulgar way?
-Marriage was well enough for the vulgar, but not for Mary. It would have
-been a descent from her maiden dignity, a lowering of her position. He
-was willing that everybody should love her and place her on a pedestal
-above all women; but it wounded his finest feelings to think that she
-too, in her turn, might love. There was no man good enough or great
-enough to be worthy of awakening such a sentiment in Mary Musgrave’s
-breast.</p>
-
-<p>As is not unusual in such cases, Mr. Pennithorne, the chief inspiration
-of whose life was a visionary passion of the most exalted and exalting
-kind for a woman, had married a woman for whom no one could entertain
-any very exalted or impassioned feelings. Perhaps the household drudge
-is a natural double or attendant of the goddess. They “got on” very well
-together, people said, and Mr. Pen put up with his wife’s little
-foolishnesses and fretfulnesses, as perhaps a man could not have done
-whose heart was fortified by no ideal passion. Emily was a good
-housekeeper of the narrow sort, caring very little for comfort, and very
-proud of her economy; and she was a good mother of the troublesome kind,
-whose children are always in the foreground, always wanting something,
-always claiming her attention. Mr. Pen adored them, and yet he was glad
-when they were got to bed, when his wife could be spoken to without one
-child clinging to her skirts, or another breaking in upon everything
-with plaintive appeals to mamma. But he took it for granted that this
-was how it must be, and that a more lovely course of life was
-impracticable. One woman excepted, all women, he thought, were like
-this; it is thus that the dogmatisms of common opinion are formed and
-kept up; and what could be done but to shrug his shoulders at the
-inevitable, escaping from it into<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_49" id="page_49">{49}</a></span> his study, or with a sigh into that
-world of the ideal where imagination is never ruffled by the incidents
-of common life. The children were in bed on this October night, and
-everything was still. The vicarage was not a handsome house, nor was it
-old, but merely modern, badly built, and common-place, redeemed by
-nothing but its garden, which was large, and gave a pretty surrounding
-to the place in summer. But the night had become stormy, and the wind
-was raving in the trees, making their close neighbourhood anything but
-an advantage. Mrs. Pennithorne thought it extravagant to use two
-sitting-rooms, so the family ate and lived in the dining-room&mdash;a dark
-room papered and furnished as, in the days when Mr. Pen was married, it
-was thought right to decorate such places, with a red flock paper of a
-large pattern, which relieved the black horsehair of the furniture. The
-room was not very large. It had a black marble mantel-shelf, with a
-clock upon it, and some vases of Bohemian glass, and a red and blue
-table-cover upon the table, about which there lingered always a certain
-odour of food, especially in cold weather, when the windows were closed.
-Mrs. Pennithorne sat between the fire and the table. She had some
-dressmaking in hand, which made a litter about&mdash;dark winter stuff for
-little Mary’s frock; and as she had no genius for this work, it was a
-lingering and confusing business with her, and made her less amiable
-than usual. The reason why her husband was there at all instead of being
-in his study was that the evening was cold; but it had not yet become,
-according to Mrs. Pen’s code, time for fires. There was one in the
-dining-room, for she had not been well; but to light a second so early
-in October was against all her traditions, and Mr. Pen had been driven
-out of his study, where he had been sitting in his great-coat, and now
-stood with his back to the fire, warming himself, poor man, in
-preparation for another spell of work at his sermon. He was thin, and
-felt the cold. It was this, she had just been saying, that had brought
-him, and not any regard for her loneliness&mdash;which indeed was quite true.</p>
-
-<p>“No, Emily,” he said, meekly, “for I have my work to do, you know; but
-while I am here, I hope you are not sorry to see me. The children were
-rather late to-night.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_50" id="page_50">{50}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I am glad to keep them up a little for company,” she said. “It is not
-so cheerful sitting here all alone, hearing the wind roaring in the
-trees; and my nerves are quite gone. I never used to fear anything when
-I was a young girl, but now I start at every sound. I don’t mean to
-blame <i>you</i>&mdash;but it is lonely sitting by one’s self after being one of a
-large family.”</p>
-
-<p>“No doubt&mdash;no doubt,” he said, soothingly. “I suppose we gain something
-as years go on, but we do lose something. That must be taken for granted
-in life.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t like your philosophy, Mr. Pennithorne,” said Emily; “the way
-you have of always making out that things have to be! I don’t see it,
-for my part. I think a married woman should have a great deal to cheer
-her up that a girl can’t have&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear,” he said, “perhaps I am not much&mdash;and you know the parish is
-my first duty; but have you not the children?&mdash;dear children they are. I
-do not think there can be any greater pleasure than one’s children&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You have nothing to do but enjoy them,” said Mrs Pennithorne, slightly
-softened; “but if you had to work and slave like me! There is never a
-day that I have not something to do for them; mending, or making, or
-darning, or something. Fathers have an easy time of it; they play with
-the baby now and then, take out the elder ones for a walk, and that is
-all. That is nothing but pleasure; but to sit for days and work one’s
-fingers to the bone&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would not, Emily. I have heard you say that Miss Price in
-the village was a very good dressmaker&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“For those who can afford her,” said Mrs. Pennithorne. “But,” she added,
-with a better inspiration, “you make me look as if I were complaining,
-and I don’t want to complain. Though it is dull, William, you must
-allow, sitting all the evening by one’s self&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“But I have to do the same,” he said, with gentle hypocrisy. “You know,
-Emily, if I wrote my sermon here, we should fall to talking, which no
-doubt is far pleasanter&mdash;but it is not duty, and duty must come before
-all&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“There is more than one kind of duty,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, who was
-tearing her fingers with pins putting together two sides<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_51" id="page_51">{51}</a></span> of Mary’s
-frock. While she was bending over this, the maid came into the room with
-a note. There was something in the “Ah!” with which he took it which
-made his wife raise her head. She was not jealous of Miss Musgrave, who
-was nearly ten years older than herself, an old maid, and beneath
-consideration; but she did think that William thought a great deal too
-much of the Castle. “What is it now?” she said pettishly. Perhaps once
-more&mdash;they had done it several times already&mdash;it was an invitation to
-dinner for Mr. Pennithorne alone. But he was so much interested in what
-he was reading that he did not even hear her. She sat with her scissors
-in her hand, and looked at him while he read the note, his face
-changing, his whole mind absorbed. He did not look like that when their
-common affairs were discussed, or the education of his children, which
-ought to be more interesting to him than anything else. This was other
-people’s business&mdash;and how it took him up! Mrs. Pennithorne was a good
-woman, and did her duty to her neighbours when it was very clearly
-indicated; but still, of course, nothing could be of such consequence as
-your own family, and your duty to them. And to see how he was taken up,
-smiling, looking as if he might be going to cry! Nothing about Johnny or
-Mary ever excited him so. Mrs. Pennithorne was not only vexed on her own
-account, but felt it to be wrong.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, life is a wonderful thing,” he said suddenly. “I went to the
-Castle this afternoon&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You are always going to the Castle,” she said, in a fretful voice.</p>
-
-<p>“&mdash;Expressly to tell Miss Musgrave how much my mind had been occupied
-about her brother John. You never knew him, Emily; but he was my pupil,
-and I was very fond of him&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You are very fond of all the family, I think,” she said,
-half-interested, half-aggrieved.</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps I was,” he said, with a little sigh, which, however, she did
-not notice; “but John particularly. He was a fine fellow, though he was
-so hot-headed. The other night I kept dreaming of him, all night
-long&mdash;over and over again.”</p>
-
-<p>“That was what made you so restless, I suppose,” Mrs. Pennithorne put
-in, in a parenthesis. “I am sure you have plenty belonging to yourself
-to dream of, if you want to dream.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_52" id="page_52">{52}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“&mdash;And I went to ask if they had heard anything, smiling at myself&mdash;as
-she did, for being superstitious. But here is the wonderful thing: I had
-scarcely left, when the thing I had foreseen arrived. A carriage drew up
-containing John Musgrave’s children&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you know John Musgrave’s children? I never knew he had any
-children&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Nor did I, or any one!&mdash;that is the wonder of it. I felt sure something
-was happening to him or about him&mdash;and lo! the children arrived. It was
-no cleverness of mine,” said Mr. Pennithorne with gentle complacency,
-“but still I must say it was a wonderful coincidence. The very day!”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Pennithorne did not make any reply. She was not interested in a
-coincidence which had nothing to do with her own family. If Mr. Pen had
-divined when Johnny was to break his arm, so that they might have been
-prepared for that accident! but the Musgraves had plenty of people to
-take care of them, and there seemed no need for a new providential
-agency to give them warning of unsuspected arrivals. She put some more
-pins into little Mary’s frock&mdash;the two sides of the little bodice never
-would come the same. She pulled at them, measured them, repinned them,
-but could not get them right.</p>
-
-<p>“I have heard a great deal about John Musgrave,” she said with a pin in
-her mouth. “What was it he did that he had to run away?”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Emily! don’t do that, for heaven’s sake&mdash;you frighten me; and
-besides, it is not&mdash;pretty&mdash;it is not becoming&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I think I am old enough by this time to know what is becoming,” said
-Mrs. Pennithorne with some wrath, yet growing red as she took out the
-pins. She was conscious that it was not ladylike, and felt that this was
-the word her husband meant to use. “If you knew the trouble it is to get
-both sides the same!” she added, forgetting her resentment in vexation.</p>
-
-<p>It was a troublesome job. There are some people in whose hands
-everything goes wrong. Mrs. Pen shed a tear or two over the refractory
-frock.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_53" id="page_53">{53}</a></span></p><p>“My dear! I hope it is not my innocent remark&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, it is not any innocent remark. It is so troublesome. Just when I
-thought I had got it quite straight! But what do you know about such
-things? You have nothing to say to Mary’s frock. You never would notice,
-I believe, if she had not one to her back, or wore the same old rag year
-after year&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Emily, I should notice,” said Mr. Pen with some compunction; “and
-I am very sorry that you should have so much trouble. Send for Miss
-Price to-morrow, and I will pay her out of my own money. You must not
-take it off the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, William! William!” said his wife, “who is it that will suffer if
-your own money, as you call it, runs out? Do you think I am so
-inconsiderate as only to think of what I have for the house! Isn’t it
-all one purse, and will it not be the children that will suffer
-eventually whoever pays? No, your money shall not be spent to save me
-trouble. What is the good of us but to take trouble?” said Mrs. Pen with
-heroic fortitude.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pen sighed. Perhaps he was more conscious of the litter of
-dressmaking than of this fine sentiment. But anyhow he did not give any
-applause to the heroine. He left indeed this family subject altogether,
-and after a momentary pause, said, half to himself, “John Musgrave’s
-children! Who could have thought it! And how strange it all is&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Really, Mr. Pennithorne,” said his wife, offended, “this is too much. I
-don’t believe you think one half so much of your own children as of
-those Musgraves. What did they ever do for us?”</p>
-
-<p>“They did this for us, my dear, that but for them I should not have had
-a home to offer you&mdash;nor a family at all,” said the vicar with a little
-warmth. “I might have been still travelling with boys about the
-world&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, William, not with your talents,” said his wife, looking at him with
-admiration. With all her fretfulness and insensibility to those fine
-points of internal arrangement for which he had a half-developed,
-half-subdued taste, Emily had still a great admiration for her husband.
-Now Mary Musgrave, who was, unknown to either, her spiritual rival, had
-no admiration for good Mr. Pen at all. This gave the partner of his life
-an infinite advantage. His voice softened as he replied, shaking his
-head:<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_54" id="page_54">{54}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Unfortunately, my love, other people do not appreciate my talents as
-you do.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is because they don’t know you so well,” she said with flattering
-promptitude. Mr. Pennithorne drew a chair to the fire and sat down. It
-was but rarely that he received this domestic adulation; but it warmed
-him, and did him good.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, my dear, I fear I must not lay that flattering unction to my soul,”
-he said.</p>
-
-<p>“You are too modest, William; I have always said you were too modest,”
-said Mrs. Pennithorne, returning good for evil. How little notice he had
-taken of her fine heroic feeling and self-abnegation! Women are more
-generous; she behaved very differently to him. And the fact was, he very
-soon began to think that old Mr. Musgrave had made use of him, and given
-him a very poor return. The vicarage was not much&mdash;and the Squire had
-never attempted to do anything more. It is sweet to be told that you are
-above your fate&mdash;that Providence owes you something better. He roused
-himself up, however, after a time out of that unwholesome state of
-self-complacency. “What a strange state of affairs it is, Emily,” he
-said. He was not in the habit of making his wife his confidant on
-matters that concerned the Musgraves, but in a moment of weakness his
-resolution was overcome. “What a painful state of affairs! Mr. Musgrave
-knows of the coming of these children, but he takes no notice, and
-whether she is to be allowed to keep them or not&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear me, think of having to get permission from your father at her time
-of life,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, with a naïve pity. “And whom did he
-marry, William, and what sort of person was their mother? I don’t think
-you ever told me that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Their mother was&mdash;John’s wife; I must have told you of her. She was not
-the person his family wished. But that often happens, my dear. It is no
-sign that a man is a bad man because he may make what you may call a
-mistaken choice.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear William,” said Mrs. Pen, with authority, “there is nothing that
-shows a man’s character so much as the wife he chooses; my mother always
-said so. It is the best test if he is a nice feeling man or not,” the
-vicar’s wife said blandly, with a little conscious smile upon her face.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_55" id="page_55">{55}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pennithorne made no reply. There was something humorous in this
-innocent little speech, considering who the speaker was, to any one who
-knew. But then nobody knew; scarcely even Mr. Pennithorne himself, who
-at this moment was so soothed by his wife’s “appreciation,” that he felt
-himself the most devoted of husbands. He shook his head a little,
-deprecating the implied condemnation of his old pupil; for the moment he
-did not think of himself.</p>
-
-<p>“Now that we are sitting together, and really comfortable for once in a
-way,” said Mrs. Pennithorne, dropping Mary’s bodice with all the pins,
-and drawing her chair a little nearer to the fire&mdash;“it does not happen
-very often&mdash;tell me, William, what it is all about, and what John
-Musgrave has done.”</p>
-
-<p>Again the vicar shook his head. “It’s a long story,” he said,
-reluctantly.</p>
-
-<p>“You tell things so nicely, William, I sha’n’t think it long; and think
-how strange it is, knowing so much about people, and yet not knowing
-anything. And of course I shall have to see the children. Poor little
-things, not to be sure of shelter in their grandfather’s house! but they
-will always have a friend in you.”</p>
-
-<p>“They will have Mary; what can they want more if they have <i>her</i>?” he
-said suddenly, with a fervour which surprised his wife; then blushed and
-faltered as he caught her eye. What right had he to speak of Miss
-Musgrave so? Mrs. Pennithorne stared a little, but the slip did not
-otherwise trouble her, for she saw no reason for the exaggerated respect
-with which the Squire’s daughter was treated. Why should not she be
-called Mary&mdash;was it not her name?</p>
-
-<p>“Mary, indeed! what does she know about children? But, William, I am
-waiting, and this is the question&mdash;What did John Musgrave do?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_56" id="page_56">{56}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<h2><a name="PART_III" id="PART_III"></a>PART III.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VII" id="CHAPTER_VII"></a>CHAPTER VII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE CHILDREN AT THE CASTLE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> arrival of the children was an era at Penninghame from which
-afterwards everything dated; but the immediate result was a very curious
-and not very comfortable one. As they had been introduced into the
-house, so they lived in it. Mr. Musgrave never mentioned them, never saw
-them or appeared to see them, ignored their existence, in short, as
-completely as if his faculties had been deadened in respect to them. His
-life was in no way changed indeed; the extraordinary revolution which
-had been made to every one else in the house by this change showed all
-the more strongly from the absence of all effect upon him. He read, he
-wrote, he studied, he took his usual quiet exercise exactly as he did
-before, and never owned by a word or look that he was conscious of any
-alteration in the household. For a little while the children were hushed
-not to make a noise, and huddled away into corners to keep them out of
-sight and hearing; but that arrangement was too unnatural to continue,
-and it very soon happened that their presence was forced upon him by
-unmistakable signs, by both sight and hearing. But the Squire took not
-the slightest notice. He looked over their heads and never saw them. His
-ear was engaged with other sounds and he did not hear them. By this
-system of unconsciousness he deprived himself indeed of some evident
-advantages; for how can you interfere with the proceedings of those
-whose very existence you ignore? He could not give orders that the
-children should make less noise, because he professed not to be aware of
-their presence; nor send them out of his sight, when he was supposed not
-to see them; and in consequence this blindness and deafness on his part
-was perhaps a greater gain to them than to himself. The mental commotion
-into which he had been thrown by their arrival had never been known to
-any one but himself. He had a slight illness a few<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_57" id="page_57">{57}</a></span> days after&mdash;his
-liver out of order, the doctor said; and so worked off his excitement
-without disclosing it to any one. After this he resumed his serenity,
-and completed his heraldic study. The history of the augmentation
-granted to the Musgraves in the year 1393 in remembrance of the valour
-of Sir Egidio, or Giles, Musgrave in the Holy Land made rather a
-sensation among students in that kind. It was a very interesting
-monograph. Besides being a singularly striking chapter of family
-history, it was, everybody said, a most interesting contribution to the
-study of heraldic honours&mdash;how and why they were bestowed; especially as
-concerning “augmentations” bestowed on the field for acts of valour&mdash;a
-rare and exceptional distinction. The Squire made a little collection of
-the notices that appeared in the newspapers of his “Monograph” pasting
-them into a pretty little book, as is not unusual with amateur authors.
-He enjoyed them a great deal more than if he had been the author of a
-great history, and resented criticism with corresponding bitterness. He
-was very proud of Egidio, or Giles, who died in the fifteenth century;
-and it did not occur to him that there was any incongruity between this
-devotion to his ancestors and the fact that he persisted in ignoring the
-little boy upstairs.</p>
-
-<p>And yet day by day it grew more hard to ignore him. Mr. Musgrave in his
-study, after the enthusiasm of his monograph was over, could not help
-hearing voices which it was difficult to take no notice of. The
-enthusiasm of composition did a great deal for him: it carried him out
-of the present; it filled him with a delightful fervour and thrill of
-intellectual excitement. People who are always writing get used to it,
-and lose this sense of something fine and great which is the inheritance
-of the amateur. Even after the shock of renewed intercourse with the
-son, who had brought shame upon his name, and whom he had cast off, Mr.
-Musgrave, so long as his work lasted, found himself able to forget
-everything in the happiness it gave. When he woke in the morning his
-first thought was of this important occupation which awaited him, and he
-went to bed with the fumes of his own paragraphs in his head; he was
-carried away by it. But when all this intellectual commotion was over,
-and when the ennui of having nothing further to do had swallowed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_58" id="page_58">{58}</a></span> up the
-satisfaction of having finished a great piece of work, as it so soon
-does, then there came a very difficult interval for the Squire. He had
-no longer anything to absorb him and keep him comfortably above the
-circumstances of ordinary life; and as he sat in his library, only
-reading, only writing a letter, no longer absorbed by any special study,
-or by the pride and delight of recording in fine language the results of
-that study, ordinary life stole back, as it has a way of doing. He began
-to hear the knocks at the door, the ringing of bells, and to wonder what
-they meant; to hear steps going up and down the stairs, to be aware of
-Eastwood in the dining-room, and the rustle of Mary’s dress as she went
-about the house in the morning, and in the afternoon passed with a soft
-boom of the swinging door into her favourite hall. The routine of the
-house came back to the old man. He heard the servants in the kitchen,
-the ticking of that measured, leisurely old clock in the hall which took
-about five minutes to spell out the hour. He was not consciously paying
-any attention to these things. On the contrary, he was secluded from
-them, rapt in his books, knowing nothing of what was going on; yet he
-heard them all; and as he sat there through the long winter days and the
-still longer winter evenings, when there was rain or storm out of doors,
-and nothing to break the long, still blank of hours within, a sound
-would come to him now and then, even before the care of the household
-relaxed&mdash;the cry of a little voice, a running and pattering of small
-feet, sometimes an outburst of laughter, a small voice of weeping, which
-stirred strangely in the air about him and vaguely called forth old
-half-extinct sensations, as one might run over the jarred and
-half-silent keys of an old piano in the dark. This surprised him at
-first in his loneliness&mdash;then, when he had realized what it was, hurt
-him a little, rousing old wrath and bitterness, so that he would
-sometimes lay down his pen or close his book and all the past would come
-before him&mdash;the past, in which John his son had disappointed, mocked,
-insulted, and baffled his father. He would not allow himself to realize
-the presence of these children in the house, but he could not avoid
-thinking of the individual who stood between him and them, who was so
-real while they were so visionary.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_59" id="page_59">{59}</a></span> Always John! He had tried to live
-for years without thought of him and had been tranquil; it was grievous
-to be compelled thus to think of him again. This all happened, however,
-in the seclusion of his own mind, in the quiet of his library, and no
-one knew anything of it; not his daughter, who thought she knew his
-looks by heart; nor his servant, who had spelled him out by many guesses
-in the dark&mdash;as servants generally do&mdash;and imagined that he had his
-master at his fingers’ ends. But during all this time while these
-touches were playing upon him, bringing out ghosts of old sensations,
-muffled sounds and tones forgotten, Mr. Musgrave publicly ignored the
-fact that there were any children in the house, and contrived not to see
-them, nor to hear them, with a force of self-government and resolution
-which, in a nobler cause, would have been beyond all praise.</p>
-
-<p>The effect of the change upon Miss Musgrave was scarcely less remarkable
-though very different. Her mental and moral education had been of a very
-peculiar kind. The tragedy which swallowed up her brother had
-interrupted the soft flowing current of her young life. All had gone
-smoothly before in the natural brightness of the beginning. And Mary,
-who had little passion in her temperament, who was more thoughtful than
-intense, and whose heart had never been awakened by any strong
-attachment beyond the ties of nature, had borne the interruption better
-than most people would have borne it, and had done her duty between her
-offending brother and her enraged father with less strain and violence
-of suffering than might have been imagined. And she had got through the
-more quiet years since without bitterness, with a self-adaptation to the
-primitive monotony of existence which was much helped, as most such
-virtues are, by temperament. She had formed her own theory of life, as
-most people do by the time they reach even the earliest stages of middle
-age; and this theory was the philosophical one that happiness, or the
-calm which does duty for happiness in most mature lives, was in reality
-very independent of events; that it came from within, not from without;
-and that life was wonderfully equal, neither bringing so much good, nor
-so much evil, as people of lively imaginations gave it credit for doing.
-Thus she had herself lived, not unhappy, except at the very crisis of
-the family life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_60" id="page_60">{60}</a></span> She had suffered then. Who could hope (she said to
-herself) to do other than suffer one time or another in their life? But
-since then the calm and regularity of existence had come back, the
-routine which charms time away and brings content. There had no doubt
-been expectations in her mind which had come to nothing&mdash;expectations of
-more active joy, more actual well-being, than had ever fallen to her
-lot; but these expectations had gradually glided away, and no harm had
-been done. If she had no intensity of enjoyment, neither had she any
-wretchedness. She had enough to do; her life was full, and she was
-fairly happy. So she said to herself; so she had said many a day to Mr.
-Pen, who shook his mildly melancholy head and dissented&mdash;as far as he
-ever dissented from anything said by Miss Mary. Her brother was
-lost&mdash;away&mdash;wandering in the darkness of the great world as in a desert.
-But if he had been near at hand, absorbed in his married life, his wife,
-who was not of her species, and his unknown children, would not he have
-been just as much lost to Mary? So she persuaded herself at least; and
-so lived tranquilly, happy enough&mdash;certainly not unhappy;&mdash;and why
-should an ordinary mortal, youth being over, wish for more?</p>
-
-<p>Now, however, all at once, so great a change had happened to her, that
-Mary could no longer understand, or even believe in, this state of mind
-which had been hers for so many years. Perfectly still, tranquil,
-fearing nothing&mdash;when her own flesh and blood were in such warfare in
-the world! How was it possible? Wondering pangs of self-reproach seized
-her; mysteries of death and of birth, such as had never touched her
-maidenly quiet, seemed to surround her, and mock at her former ease. All
-this time the gates of heaven had been opening and shutting to John.
-Hope sometimes, sometimes despair, love, anguish, want, pain, had
-struggled for him, while she had sat and looked on so calmly, and
-reasoned so placidly about the general equality of life. How could she
-have done it? The revelation was as painful as it was overwhelming.
-Nature seized upon her with a grip of iron, and avenged upon her in a
-moment all the indifferences of her previous life. The appeal of these
-frightened children, the solemn charge laid upon her by her brother,
-awoke her with a start and shiver. How had she dared to sit and look
-through<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_61" id="page_61">{61}</a></span> calm windows, or on the threshold by her tranquil door, upon
-the struggles, pangs, and labours of the other human creatures about
-her? Was it excuse enough that she was neither wife nor mother? had she
-therefore nothing to do in guarding, and continuing, and handing down
-the nobler successions of life? Mary was startled altogether out of the
-state of mind habitual to her. Instead of remaining the calm lady of the
-manor, the female Squire, the lawgiver of the village which she had
-hitherto been&mdash;a little above the problems that were brought to her, a
-little wanting in consideration of motives and meaning, perhaps now and
-then too decided in her judgment, seeing the distinction between right
-and wrong too clearly, and entertaining a supreme, though gentle
-contempt for the trimmings and compromises, as well as for the fusses
-and agitations of the ordinary world&mdash;she felt herself to have plunged
-all at once into the midst of those agitations at a single step. She
-became anxious, timorous, yet rash, faltering even in opinion,
-hesitating, vacillating&mdash;she who had been so decided and so calm. Her
-feelings were all intensified, the cords of her nature tightened, as it
-were, vibrating to the lightest touch. And at the same time, which was
-strange enough, while thus the little circle, in which she stood, became
-full of such intense, unthought-of interest, the world widened around
-her as it had never widened before; into darknesses and silences
-indeed&mdash;but still with an extended horizon which expanded her heart.
-John was there in the wide unknown, which stretched round this one warm,
-lighted spot, wandering she knew not where, a solitary man. She had
-never realized him so before; and not only John, but thousands like him,
-strangers, wanderers, strugglers with fate. This sudden breath of
-novelty, of enlightenment, expanded her heart like a sob. Her composure,
-her satisfaction, her tranquillity fled from her; but how much greater,
-more real and true, more penetrating and actual, became her existence
-and the world! And all this was produced, not by any great mental
-enlightenment, any sudden development of character, but by the simple
-fact that two small helpless creatures had been put into her hands and
-made absolutely dependent upon her. This was all; but the whole world
-could not have been more to Mary. It changed her in every way. She who<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_62" id="page_62">{62}</a></span>
-had been so rooted in her place, so absorbed in her occupations, would
-have relinquished all, had it been necessary, and gone out solitary into
-the world for the children. Could there be any office so important, any
-trust so precious? This, which sounded like the vulgarest commonplace,
-and at the same time most fictitious high-flown sentiment, on the lips
-of Mrs. Pennithorne, became all at once, in a moment, the leading
-principle of Miss Musgrave’s life.</p>
-
-<p>But she had to undergo various petty inconveniences from the curiosity
-of her neighbours, and their anxiety to advise her as to what she should
-do in the “trying circumstances.” What could she know about children?
-Mrs. Pen, for one, thought it very important to give Miss Musgrave the
-benefit of her advice. She made a solemn visit to inspect them, and tell
-her what she ought to do. The little boy, she felt sure, was delicate,
-and would require a great deal of care; but the thing that troubled Mrs.
-Pennithorne the most was that Miss Musgrave could not be persuaded to
-put on mourning for her brother’s wife. Notwithstanding that it was, as
-Mary pleaded, five years since she died, the vicar’s wife thought that
-crape would be a proof that all “misunderstandings” were over, and would
-show a Christian feeling. And when she could not make this apparent to
-the person principally concerned, she did all she could to impress it
-upon her husband, whom she implored to “speak to”&mdash;both father and
-daughter&mdash;on the subject. Most people would have been all the more
-particular to put on crape, and to wear it deep, because there had been
-“misunderstandings.” “Misunderstandings!” cried Mr. Pen. It was not,
-however, he who spoke to Miss Musgrave, but she who spoke to him on this
-important subject; and what she said somewhat bewildered the vicar, who
-could not fathom her mind in this respect.</p>
-
-<p>“Emily thinks we should put on mourning,” she said. “And, do you know, I
-really believe that is the reason that poor John is so much more in my
-thoughts?”</p>
-
-<p>“What&mdash;the mourning?” the vicar asked faltering.</p>
-
-<p>“<i>Her</i> death. Hitherto the idea of one has been mingled with that of the
-other. Now he is just John; everything else has melted away; there is
-nothing but himself to think of. He has<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_63" id="page_63">{63}</a></span> never been only John before. Do
-you know what I mean, Mr. Pen?”</p>
-
-<p>The vicar shook his head. He wondered if this could be a touch of
-feminine jealousy, knowing that even Mary was not perfect; and this gave
-him a momentary pang.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t suppose that I should feel so;&mdash;I was very fond of John&mdash;but I,
-of course, could not be jealous&mdash;I mean of his love for one
-unworthy&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“How do you know even that she was unworthy? It is not that, Mr. Pen.
-But she was nothing to us, and confused him in our minds. Now he is
-himself&mdash;and where is he?” said Miss Musgrave, with tears in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“In God’s hands&mdash;in God’s hands, Miss Mary! and God bless him wherever
-he is&mdash;and I humbly beg your pardon,” cried Mr. Pen, with an excess of
-compunction which she scarcely understood. His feelings were almost too
-warm Mary thought.</p>
-
-<p>And as the news got spread through those invisible channels which convey
-reports all over a country, many were the visitors that came to the
-Castle to see what the story meant, though they did not announce this as
-the object of their visit. Among these visitors the most important was
-Lady Stanton, who had been Mary’s rival in beauty when the days were.
-They had not been rivals indeed to their own consciousness, but warm
-friends, in their youth and day of triumph; but events had separated the
-two girls, and the two women rarely met, and had outgrown all
-acquaintance; for Lady Stanton had been involved, almost more
-immediately than Mary Musgrave, in the tragedy which had so changed life
-at Penninghame, and this had changed their relations like everything
-else. This lady arrived one day to the great surprise of everybody, and
-came in with timid eagerness and haste, growing red and growing pale as
-she held out her hands to her old friend.</p>
-
-<p>“We never quarrelled,” she said; “why should we never see each other? Is
-there any reason?”</p>
-
-<p>“No reason,” said Miss Musgrave, making room upon the sofa beside her.
-But such an unexpected appeal agitated her, and for the moment she could
-not satisfy herself as to the object of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_64" id="page_64">{64}</a></span> the visit. Lady Stanton,
-however, was of a very simple mind, and could not conceal what that
-object was.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mary,” she said, the tears coming into her eyes, “I heard that
-John’s children had come home. Is it true? You know I always took an
-interest&mdash;&mdash; ” And here she stopped, making a gulp of some emotion which,
-to a superficial spectator, might have seemed out of place in Sir Henry
-Stanton’s wife. She had grown stout, but that does not blunt the
-feelings. “I should like to see them,” she said, with an appeal in her
-eyes which few people could withstand. And Mary was touched too, partly
-by this sudden renewal of an old love, partly by the thought of all that
-had happened since she last sat by her old companion’s side, who was a
-Mary too.</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot bring them here,” she said, “but I will take you to the hall
-to see them. My father likes them to be kept&mdash;in their own part of the
-house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I hope he is kind to them!” said Lady Stanton, clasping her white
-dimpled hands. “Are they like your family? I hope they are like the
-Musgraves. But likenesses are so strange&mdash;mine are not like me,” said
-the old beauty, plaintively. Perhaps the trouble in her face was less on
-account of her own private trials in this respect than out of alarm lest
-John Musgrave’s children should bear the likeness of another face of
-which she could not think with kindness. There was so little disguise in
-her mind, that this sentiment also found its way into words. “Oh Mary,”
-she cried, “you and I were once the two beauties, and everybody was at
-our feet; but that common girl was more thought of than either you or
-me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush!” said Mary Musgrave, putting up her hand; “she is dead.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is she dead?” Lady Stanton was struck with a momentary horror; for it
-was a contemporary of whom they were speaking, and she could not but be
-conscious of a little shiver in her own well-developed person, to think
-of the other who was clay. “That is why they have come home?” she said,
-half under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; and because he cannot carry them about with him wherever he
-goes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_65" id="page_65">{65}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“You have heard from him, Mary? I hope he is doing well. I hope he is
-not&mdash;very&mdash;heart-broken. If you are writing you might say I inquired. He
-might like to know that he was remembered; and you know I always
-took&mdash;an interest&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I know you always had the kindest heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“I always took an interest, notwithstanding everything; and&mdash;will he
-come home? Now surely he might come home. It is so long ago; and surely
-now no one would interfere.”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot say anything about that, for I don’t know,” said Miss
-Musgrave; “he does not say. Will you come and see the children, Lady
-Stanton?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mary, what have I done that you should call me Lady Stanton? I have
-never wished to stand aloof. It has not been my doing. Do you remember
-what friends we were? and I couldn’t call you Miss Musgrave if I tried.
-When I heard of the children I thought this was an opening,” said Lady
-Stanton, faltering a little. She told her little fib, which was an
-innocent one; but she was true at bottom and told it ill; and what
-difference did it make whether she sought the children for Mary’s sake,
-or Mary for the children’s? Miss Musgrave accepted her proffered embrace
-with kindness, yet with a smile. She was touched by the emotion of her
-old friend, and by the remnants of that “interest” which had survived
-fifteen years of married life, and much increase of substance. Perhaps a
-harsher judge might have thought the emotion slightly improper. But poor
-John had got but hard measure in the world; and a little compensating
-faithfulness was a salve to his sister’s feelings. She led her visitor
-downstairs and through the narrow passage, in all her wealth of silk and
-amplitude of shadow. Mary herself was still as slim as when they had
-skimmed about these passages together; and she was Mary still; for once
-in a way she felt herself not without some advantage over Sir Henry’s
-wife.</p>
-
-<p>Nello was standing full in the light when the ladies went into the hall,
-and he it was who came forward to be caressed by the pretty lady, who
-took to him all the more warmly that she had no boys of her own. Lady
-Stanton fairly cried over his fair head, with its soft curls. “What a
-little Musgrave he is!” she cried; “how like his father! I cannot help
-being glad he is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_66" id="page_66">{66}</a></span> like his father.” But when this vision of splendour
-and beauty, which Lilias came forward to admire, saw the little girl,
-she turned from her with a slight shiver. “Ah!” she cried, retreating,
-“is that&mdash;the little girl?” And the sight silenced her, and drove her
-away.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VIII" id="CHAPTER_VIII"></a>CHAPTER VIII.<br /><br />
-<small>LADY STANTON.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Lady Stanton</span> drove home from that visit with her heart and her eyes
-full. She was not intellectual, nor even clever, but a soft creature,
-made up of feelings easily touched, not perhaps very profound, nor
-likely to obscure to her the necessary course of daily living, but still
-true enough and faithful in their way. She might have been able to make
-sacrifices had she come in the way of them or found them necessary, but
-no such chance of moral devotion had come to her; nor had any teachings
-of experience or philosophy of middle age, such as works upon the
-majority of us, hardened her soft heart, or swept away the little
-romantic impulses, the quick sensibilities of youth. A nature so fresh
-indeed was scarcely compatible with much exercise of the intellectual
-faculties at all. Lady Stanton rarely read, and never under any
-circumstances read anything (of her own will and impulse) which rose
-above the most primitive and familiar elements; but on the other hand,
-the gentle sentimentalities which she did read went straight to her
-heart. She thought Mrs. Hemans the first of poets, and cried her eyes
-out over Mr. Dickens’s “Little Nell.” Anything about an unhappy love, or
-about a dead child, would move her more than Shakespeare; and she shed
-tears as ready as the morning dew. Practically, it is true, she had gone
-through a certain amount of experience like other people, and her
-everyday life was more or less affected by it; but in her heart Lady
-Stanton was still the same Mary Ridley whose gentle being had been
-involved in the wildest of tragic<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_67" id="page_67">{67}</a></span> stories, even though she had come
-down to so commonplace a daily routine now. That story, so long past,
-took the place in her being of all the poetry and romance which the most
-of us get glorified from the hands of genius; and all her associations
-were attached to that one personal episode, which was unparalleled in
-life as she knew life. When she read one of the novels which pleased
-her, she would compare the situations in it with this; when she lingered
-over the vague melodious verses which represented poetry to her, there
-was always a little appropriation in her heart of their soft measures to
-the dim long past emergency. And now, here it was brought back upon her
-by every circumstance that could bring the past near. Her love&mdash;was it
-her love that was recalled to her? But then there was no love in it
-properly so called. She had taken an interest in John Musgrave, her
-friend’s brother&mdash;always had taken an interest in him; but she had no
-right to do so at any time, being betrothed to young Lord Stanton, who,
-for his part, had forgotten her for the sake of that dressmaker’s girl
-at Penninghame, to whom John Musgrave too had given his heart. What a
-complication it was! Mary Ridley, who had a pretty property close to
-his, had been destined for Lord Stanton from the beginning of time, and
-the boy and girl had lightly acquiesced, and had been happy enough in
-the parental arrangement. They had liked each other&mdash;well enough; they
-had been as gay as possible in the lightheartedness of their youth, and
-had taken this for happiness. Why should not they be happy? they were
-exactly suited to each other. She was the prettiest girl in the county
-(except the other Mary), and he was proud of her sweet looks, and fond
-of her, certainly fond of her; whereas she, unawakened, undisturbed,
-notwithstanding the interest she had always taken in John Musgrave,
-would have made him the most affectionate and charming wife in the
-world. Thus the early story had flowed on all smoothness and sunshine,
-the flowers blooming, the sun shining; until, one fatal day, young Lord
-Stanton, riding through Penninghame village on his way to the old
-Castle, had seen Lily, Miss Price’s assistant, at the window of the
-dressmaker’s parlour. Fatal day! full of all the issues of death.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_68" id="page_68">{68}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>It is needless to inquire what manner of woman this Lily was, for whom
-these two men lost themselves and their existence. She did not know of
-any tragedy likely to be involved, but brushed about in her homely
-village way through these webs of fate, twisting the threads innocently
-enough, and throwing the weaving into endless confusion. Whether Lord
-Stanton was murdered by John Musgrave, as many people thought at first,
-or killed accidentally in a hot, sudden encounter, as most people
-believed now, was a thing which perhaps would never be cleared up. The
-guilty man (if he was guilty) had paid the penalty of his deed in exile,
-in poverty, in misery, ever since. His life had been as much broken off
-at that point as Stanton’s was who died&mdash;and the two families had been
-equally plunged into woe and mourning; though indeed it was the
-Musgraves who suffered most, by reason of the stigma put upon them, by
-the shame of John’s flight and of his marriage, and by the fact that he
-was still a criminal pursued by justice, though justice had long
-slackened her pursuit. As for the Stantons, there was nobody to mourn
-much. Aunts and uncles and cousins console themselves sooner than
-fathers and mothers, and the boy brother, who had succeeded to the
-title, had been too young to be capable of sustained sorrow. Everybody
-at that time had sympathized with the young bride who had lost her
-future husband, and her coronet, and all the joys of life in this sudden
-and miserable way, for there was no concealing what the cause of the
-quarrel was, and that Lord Stanton had been unfaithful to the beautiful
-Mary. Nobody knew, however, the complication which gave her a double
-pang, the knowledge that not only the man who was her own property, her
-betrothed husband, but the man in whom, innocently in girlish
-simplicity, she had avowed herself to “take an interest,” had preferred
-to her the village Lily, who was nobody and nothing, who had not been
-blameless between them, and whom everybody condemned. Everybody
-condemned: but <i>they</i> loved her. Both of them! this secret and poignant
-addition to her trial Mary Ridley never confided to any one, but it
-still thrilled through and through her at any allusion to that old long
-past tragedy. Both of them!&mdash;the man whose best love was due to her, and
-the man who had caught her own girlish<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_69" id="page_69">{69}</a></span> shy eyes, all unaware to either,
-somehow, innocently, unavowedly, in such a visionary way as harmed no
-one; both! It was hard. She wept for them both tenderly, abundantly, for
-the one not less than the other; and a little&mdash;with a cry in her heart
-of protestation and appeal&mdash;for herself, put aside, thrown over for this
-woman who was nothing, who was nobody, yet who was better beloved than
-she. All this had welled up in Lady Stanton’s heart when she saw the
-little girl who had Lily’s face. She had been unable to restrain the
-sting of old wonder and pain; the keen piercing of the old wound which
-she had felt to her heart. Both of them! and now a little ghost of this
-Lily, her shadow, her representative, had come back again to look her in
-the face. She cried as she drove back that long silent way by herself to
-Elfdale. It was seldom she had the chance of being so long alone, and
-there was a kind of luxury about it, not unmingled with compunction and
-a sense of guilt.</p>
-
-<p>For it still remains to be told how Mary Ridley came to be Lady Stanton,
-although Lord Stanton, who was the betrothed husband of her youth, had
-been killed, and all that apparently smooth and straightforward story
-had ended in grief and separation. She had married after some years a
-middle-aged cousin of her dead lover, Sir Henry Stanton, who had not
-long before come back from India where he had spent most of his life. It
-was but a poor fate for the beautiful Mary. Sir Henry had left his
-career and a full accomplished life behind him, when he first came to
-settle at Elfdale to the passive existence of a gentleman in the
-country, who could scarcely be called a country gentleman. He had been
-married and had children, a family of sons and daughters, and had only a
-second chapter of less vivid meaning, a sort of postscriptal life, to
-offer her. Why she had accepted him nobody could well say,&mdash;but she made
-him a good wife, kind, smiling, always gentle, though sadly put to it
-now and then to preserve unbroken the sweet good-temper with which
-nature had gifted her. So fair and sweet as she was, to get only the
-remains of a man’s heart after all, to be made use of as their chaperon
-and caretaker by his big, unlovely daughters; to have her own children,
-two dainty, lovely, fairy girls, kept in the background,&mdash;no more than
-“the little ones”&mdash;of no account<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_70" id="page_70">{70}</a></span> in the house&mdash;all these things were
-somewhat trying, and a strange reversal of all that life had seemed to
-promise her, and all that had been indicated by the early worship which
-surrounded her youth. But perhaps few women could have carried this
-inappropriate fate as well. All those contradictions of circumstances,
-all those travesties of what might have been, met with no gloom or
-sourness of disappointment in her. The very fact that she was Lady
-Stanton carried with it a certain aggravation, a parrot-like adhesion to
-the letter and change of the spirit, such as had been in the promises
-made to Macbeth. Mary might have thought herself the victim of a
-perverse fate, keeping the word of promise to the ear and breaking it to
-the heart, had she been perversely disposed&mdash;but instead of that, all
-her thoughts at the present moment were occupied with the fact that she
-had taken an unfair advantage of Laura and Lydia, in not telling them
-where she was going, that they might have come with her had they been so
-disposed. She had stolen a march upon them; they would think it unkind.
-But then she could not have gone to Penninghame had Laura and Lydia been
-with her. Though they were so much less concerned than she had been,
-they kept up the Stanton feud with the Musgraves. They had no “interest”
-in John&mdash;on the contrary, they were of the few who still believed that
-he had “murdered” Lord Stanton&mdash;and would have had him hanged if he ever
-returned to England. They would not have entered the house, or permitted
-any kind inquiries in their presence. And therefore it was that she had
-stolen away without letting them know, and was at present conscious&mdash;in
-addition to all the jumble of emotions in her heart&mdash;of a certain prick
-of guilt.</p>
-
-<p>The Stantons were a great county family as well as the Musgraves, but in
-a very different way. When the Musgraves had been at their greatest, the
-Stantons had been nobody. They were nothing more than persistent,
-thrifty folk at first, adding field to field, building on ever a new
-addition to their old house. Then wealth had come, and then local
-importance; and last of all celebrity. The first who brought anything
-like fame to the name, and introduced the race to the knowledge of the
-world, was a soldier, a general under the Duke of Marlborough, who<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_71" id="page_71">{71}</a></span> got
-a baronetcy and a reputation, and had a handsome new coat of arms
-invented for him&mdash;very appropriately gained indeed, on the field of
-battle, just as the augmentation of the Musgraves’ blazon had been
-gained, but a few hundred years too late unfortunately, and therefore
-not telling for nearly so much as if it had been won in the fifteenth
-century. The next man was a lawyer, who so cultivated that profession
-that it brought his son, in the reign of the Georges, to the bench, and
-a peerage&mdash;and since that time the family had taken their place among
-the magnates of the north country. Young Walter Lord Stanton was a much
-greater man than John Musgrave, though not half so great a man in one
-sense of the word. Two or three generations, however, tell just as much
-upon the individual mind as twenty, and the young peer was conscious of
-all his advantages over the commoner, without any sense of inferiority
-in point of race. And now the other Lord Stanton, Geoffrey, who had
-succeeded that unfortunate young man, was the greatest personage of his
-years in the district, regarded with interest by all his neighbours and
-with more than interest by some; for was it not in his power to make one
-of his feminine contemporaries, however humble she might be by birth,
-and however poor in this world’s goods, a great lady?&mdash;and so long as
-human nature remains as it is, this cannot cease to be a very potent
-attraction. Indeed the wonder is that young women should not be
-altogether demoralized by the perpetual recurrence of such chances of
-undeserved, unearned elevation. Young Lord Stanton could do this. He
-could give fine houses and lands, a title, and all the good things of
-this earth to his cousin Laura, or his cousin Lydia, or any other girl
-in the county that pleased him. Therefore it cannot be wondered at if
-his appearance fluttered the dovecotes with sentiments as powerful and
-more pleasant than those which fill the nests at the appearance of
-predatory hawk or eagle. But any such flutter of feeling was held in
-Elfdale to be an unwarrantable impertinence on the part of the other
-ladies of the county. Long ago, at the time when at six years old he had
-succeeded to his stepbrother, there had been a tacit family
-understanding to the effect that one of Sir Henry’s daughters should be
-the young lord’s wife. Sir Henry, though<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_72" id="page_72">{72}</a></span> old enough to have been the
-father of his murdered cousin would have been his heir but for
-Geoff&mdash;and it was universally allowed to be hard upon him that when such
-an unlikely chance happened, as that young Lord Stanton should die,
-there should be this boy coming in the way forestalling his claim.
-Nobody had wanted that child who was suddenly turned into a personage of
-so much importance&mdash;not even his father, who had married with a
-single-minded idea of being comfortable in his own person, and who was
-much annoyed by the prospect of “a second family”&mdash;a prospect which was
-happily, however, cut short by his own speedy death. When therefore
-Walter Lord Stanton was killed, it was very generally felt that Sir
-Henry had a real grievance in the existence of the little stepbrother,
-who was in the way of everybody except his poor mother, whom the old
-lord had married to nurse him, and who had taken the unwarrantable
-liberty of adding little Geoffrey to the family. Poor little Geoff! he
-was bullied on all hands so long as his brother lived; and then, what a
-change came over his life and that of his mother, who was as pale and
-shy as her boy! Great good fortune may change even complexion, and Geoff
-as he grew to be a man was no longer pale. But Sir Henry never quite got
-over the blow dealt him by this succession. He had not resented Walter.
-Walter was so to speak the natural heir&mdash;and nobody expected him to die;
-but when he did die, so out of all calculation, to think there should be
-that boy! Sir Henry did not get over it for years&mdash;it was a positive
-wrong not to be forgotten.</p>
-
-<p>Accordingly, as a small compensation to his injured feelings, all the
-family had tacitly decided that Geoff should marry one of his cousins.
-This, it is true, was but a very small compensation, for Sir Henry was
-not the kind of parent who lives in his children and is indifferent to
-his own glory and greatness. Even now, fifteen years after the event, he
-was not an old man, and it made up very poorly for his personal
-disappointment that Laura or Lydia should share the advancement of which
-he had been deprived. Still it was so understood. Geoff paid many
-holiday visits at Elfdale, though there was no particular friendship
-between Sir Henry and the widowed Lady Stanton, who was Geoff’s guardian
-as well as his mother, and things were going<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_73" id="page_73">{73}</a></span> smoothly enough between
-the young people. They liked each other, and had no objection to be
-together as much as was possible, and already the sisters had settled
-between them “which of us it is to be.” This Lydia, who was the most
-strong-minded, had thought desirable from the moment when she had become
-aware what was intended. “It does not matter at present,” she said, “we
-are none of us in love, and one is just as good as another, but we had
-better draw lots, or something&mdash;or toss up, as the boys do.” And what
-the mystic ordeal had been which decided this question we are unable to
-say, but decided it was in favour of Laura, who was the prettiest, and
-only a year younger than Geoff. Lydia, as soon as the die was cast,
-constituted herself the guardian of her sister’s fortunes so far as the
-young lord was concerned, and made herself into a quaint and really
-pretty version of a matchmaking mother on Laura’s behalf. Thus it will
-be seen that it was into the very heart of the opposite faction that
-Lady Stanton drove home with those tears in her soft eyes, and all that
-commotion of old thoughts in her heart. If they could have seen into it
-and known that it was the image of John Musgrave that had roused that
-commotion, what would these girls have said, towards whom she felt so
-guilty as having stolen a march upon them? “The murderer!” they would
-have cried with a shriek of horror. Lady Stanton could not, it is clear,
-have taken them to Penninghame with her, and surely she had a right to
-use her own horses and carriage; but still she felt guilty as she
-subdued, with all the effort she could make, the excitement in her
-heart.</p>
-
-<p>When she went in, she retired at once upstairs, and announced herself,
-through her maid, to have a headache, and had a cup of tea in her own
-room, to which her own children, little Fanny and Annie, a pair of
-inseparables, came noiselessly like two doves on the wing. Annie and
-Fanny liked nothing in the world so much as to get mamma to themselves
-like this, in the stillness of her room, with everybody else shut out.
-One was ten and the other eleven; they were about the same height, had
-the same flowing curly locks of light brown hair, the same rose-tinted
-faces, walked in each other’s steps, or rather flew about their little
-world of carpeted stairs and passages, together, always in sudden<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_74" id="page_74">{74}</a></span> soft
-flights&mdash;like doves, as we have said, on the wing. “Is your head very
-bad, mamma?” they said; and the gentle hypocrite blushed as she replied.
-No, it was not very bad; a little quiet would make it quite well. They
-took off her “things” for her, and brought her her soft white
-dressing-gown, in which she looked like the mother of all the doves, and
-let down her hair, which was not much darker, and quite as abundant as
-their own&mdash;and gave her her cup of tea, thus soothing every tingling
-nerve; and by this time Lady Stanton’s head was not bad at all, though
-now and then one of them would administer eau-de-cologne or rosewater.
-She told them of the children she had seen&mdash;little orphans who had no
-mother&mdash;and the two crept closer to her, to hear of that awful,
-incomprehensible desolation, each clasping an arm of hers with two
-small, eager hands. To be without a mother! Annie and Fanny held their
-breath in reverential silence and pity; but wondered a little that it
-was the little boy (“called Nello&mdash;what a funny name!”) that mamma spoke
-of, not the girl, who was ten (“just the same age as me”).</p>
-
-<p>But not even the sympathy of her children, and the trance of interest
-which kept them breathless, could make Lady Stanton speak of the little
-girl. Her mother’s face! that face which had taken the best of
-everything in existence from Mary Ridley&mdash;how could Lady Stanton speak
-of it? She made some efforts to get over the feeling, but not with much
-success. But the rest restored her, and enabled her to appear, her
-headache quite charmed away, and her nerves still, at dinner. She took a
-little more care with her toilette than usual, by way of propitiation to
-the angry gods. And though Laura and Lydia were not much short of twenty
-years younger than their stepmother, it would have been an indifferent
-judge who had turned from her to them even in the fresh bloom of their
-youth. She came downstairs very conciliatory, ready to make the best of
-everything, and to make amends to them for all disloyal thoughts, and
-for having cheated them of their drive.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope your head is better, my Lady,” said Laura. “We have been
-wondering all the afternoon wherever you had gone.”</p>
-
-<p>The girls had a certain strain of vulgarity in them somehow, which could
-not be quite eradicated from their speech.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_75" id="page_75">{75}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I went out for a drive as usual,” said Lady Stanton. “I thought I heard
-you say that you meant to walk.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes; we wanted to walk to the village to settle about the school
-children,” said Laura; and Lydia added, “But I am sure we never said
-so,” and looked suspiciously at her stepmother.</p>
-
-<p>“I went by the Langdale woods, and all the way to Penninghame water,”
-said the culprit, very explanatory. “The lake looked so cold. I should
-not like to live near it. It chills all the landscape, and I am sure
-puts dreary thoughts into people’s heads. And as I was there, Henry,”
-she added, addressing her husband, “I did what you will think an odd
-thing.” Lady Stanton’s bosom heaved a little, and her breath came quick.
-It would have been far easier to say nothing about it; but then she knew
-by experience that everything gets found out. She made a momentary pause
-before the confession which she tried to treat so lightly. “I ran in for
-a moment to the old Castle and saw Mary&mdash;Mary, you know. We were great
-friends, she and I, when we were young, and it was such a temptation
-passing the old place.”</p>
-
-<p>“What whim took you near the old place?” said Sir Henry, gruffly. “I
-cannot think of any place in the world that should lie less in your
-way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, that is true,” she said, breathing a little more freely now that
-the worst was told, “and the proof of it is that I have not been there
-for years.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope it will be still longer before you go again,” said her husband.</p>
-
-<p>He did not say any more because of the servants, and because he had too
-much good sense to do or say anything that would lessen his wife’s
-importance; but he was not pleased, and this troubled her, for she had a
-delicate conscience. She looked at him wistfully, and was imprudent
-enough in her anxiety to pursue the subject, and make bad worse.</p>
-
-<p>“It is strange to see an old friend whom you have known when you were
-young, after so many years,” she said; “though Mary is not so much
-altered as I am. You remember her, Henry? She was always so pretty;
-handsomer than&mdash;any one I know.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_76" id="page_76">{76}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>It was on her lips to say “handsomer than ever I was,” which was the
-real sentiment in her mind&mdash;a sentiment partly originating in the
-semi-guilt and humility produced by the consciousness of having grown
-stout, a kind of development which troubles women. She was very deeply
-aware of this, and it silenced all the claims of vanity. She had lost
-her figure; whereas Mary was still slim and straight as an arrow.
-Whatever might have been once, there was now no comparison between the
-two.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean Miss Musgrave?” cried the girls, one after the other. “Miss
-Musgrave! that old creature&mdash;that old maid&mdash;that man’s sister?”</p>
-
-<p>“She is no older than I am,” said Lady Stanton, with a flush on her
-face; “she was my dear friend in the old days. She is beautiful still,
-as much as she ever was, I think, and good; she has always been good.”</p>
-
-<p>“That will do,” said Sir Henry interposing. “We need not discuss the
-family; but I think you will see, my dear, that there could not be much
-pleasure in any intercourse at this time of day&mdash;whatever might have
-been the case when you were young.”</p>
-
-<p>“Intercourse&mdash;there could never be any intercourse,” cried Lydia, coming
-to the front. “Fancy, papa! intercourse with such people&mdash;after all that
-has happened! That would be tempting Providence; and it would be an
-insult to Geoff.”</p>
-
-<p>“Let Geoff take care of his own affairs,” said Sir Henry, angrily; and
-he gave a forcible twist to the conversation, and threw it into another
-channel; but Lady Stanton was very silent all the evening afterwards.
-She had wanted to conciliate, and she had not succeeded; and how indeed
-could she, among her hostile family, keep up any intercourse with her
-old friend?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_77" id="page_77">{77}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_IX" id="CHAPTER_IX"></a>CHAPTER IX.<br /><br />
-<small>AT ELFDALE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Nevertheless</span> this meeting could not be got out of Lady Stanton’s mind.
-She thought of it constantly; and in the stillness of her own room, when
-nobody but the little girls were by, she talked to them of the children,
-especially of little Nello, who had attracted her most. What a place of
-rest and refreshment that was for her, after all her trials with Laura
-and Lydia, and the seriousness of Sir Henry, who was displeased that she
-should have gone to Penninghame, and showed it in the way most painful
-to the soft-hearted woman, by silence, and a gravity which made her feel
-her indiscretion to her very heart. But notwithstanding Sir Henry’s
-annoyance, she could not but relieve her mind by going over the whole
-scene with Fanny and Annie, who knew, without a word said, that these
-private talks in which they delighted&mdash;in which their mother told them
-all manner of stories, and took them back with her into the time of her
-youth, and made them acquainted with all her early friends&mdash;were not to
-be repeated, but were their own special privilege to be kept for
-themselves alone. They had already heard of Mary Musgrave, and knew her
-intimately, as children do know the early companions of whom an
-indulgent mother tells them, to satisfy their boundless appetite for
-narrative. “And what are they to Mary?” the little girls asked,
-breathless in their interest about these strange children. They had
-already been told; but the relationship of aunt did not seem a very
-tender one to Annie and Fanny, who knew only their father’s sisters, old
-ladies to whom the elder girls, children of the first marriage, seemed
-the only legitimate and correct Stantons, and who looked down upon these
-little interlopers as unnecessary intruders. “Only their aunt!&mdash;is that
-all?”</p>
-
-<p>They were not in Lady Stanton’s room this time, but seated on an ottoman
-in the great bow-window, one on either side of her. Laura and Lydia were
-out; Sir Henry was in his library; the coast was clear; no one was
-likely to come in and dismiss the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_78" id="page_78">{78}</a></span> children with a sharp word, such
-as&mdash;“Go away, little girls&mdash;there is no saying a word to your mother
-while you are there!” or “The little ones again! When we were children
-we were kept in the nursery.” The children were aware now that when such
-speeches were made, it was better for them not to wait for their
-mother’s half-pained, half-beseeching look, but to run away at once, not
-to provoke any discussion. They were wise little women, and were, by
-nature, of their mother’s faction in this house, where both they and
-she, though she was the mistress of it, were more or less on sufferance.
-But at present everybody was out of the way. They were ready to fly off,
-with their pretty hair fluttering like a gleam of wings, should any of
-their critics appear; but the girls had gone a long way, and Sir Henry
-was very busy. It was a chance such as seldom occurred.</p>
-
-<p>“All? when children have not a mother, their aunt is next best;
-sometimes she is even better&mdash;much better,” said Lady Stanton, thinking
-in her heart that John’s wife was not likely to have been of any great
-service to her children. “And Mary is not like any one you know. She is
-a beautiful lady&mdash;not old, like Aunt Rebecca&mdash;though Aunt Rebecca is
-always very kind. I hope you have not forgotten those beautiful sashes
-she gave you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think very much of an aunt,” said Fanny, who was the saucy one,
-with a shrug of her little shoulders.</p>
-
-<p>“It must be different,” said Annie, hugging her mother’s arm. They were
-not impressed by the happiness of those poor little stranger children in
-being with Mary. “Has the little girl got no name, mamma&mdash;don’t you know
-her name? You say Nello; but that is the boy; though it is more like a
-girl than a boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is German&mdash;or something&mdash;I don’t remember. The little girl is called
-Lilias. Oh yes, it is a pretty name enough, but I don’t like it. I once
-knew one whom I did not approve of&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“We knew,” said Fanny, nodding her head at Annie, who nodded back again;
-“Mamma, we knew you did not like the little girl.”</p>
-
-<p>“I! not like her! Oh, children, how can you think me so unjust? I hope I
-am not unjust,” cried Lady Stanton, almost with tears. “Mary is very
-proud of her little niece. And she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_79" id="page_79">{79}</a></span> is very good to little Nello. Yes,
-perhaps I like him best, but there is no harm in that. He is a
-delightful little boy. If you could have had a little brother like
-that&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“We have only&mdash;big brothers,” said Annie, regretfully; “that is
-different.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that is different. You could not imagine Charley with long, fair
-curls, and a little tunic, could you?” This made the children laugh, and
-concealed a little sigh on their mother’s part; for Charlie was a big
-dragoon, and Lady Stanton foresaw would not have too much consideration,
-should they ever require his help, for the little sisters whom he
-undisguisedly felt to be in his way.</p>
-
-<p>“I wonder if she wishes he was a little girl.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wonder! How she must want to have a sister! A little brother would be
-very nice, too; we used to play at having a little brother; but it would
-not be like Fanny and me. Does she like being at the Castle, mamma?”</p>
-
-<p>It troubled Lady Stanton that they should think of nothing but this
-little girl. It was Lilias that had won their interest, and she could
-not tell them why it was that she shrank from Lilias. “They have left
-their poor papa all alone and sad,” she said, in a low voice. “I used to
-know him too. And it must make them sad to think of him so far away.”</p>
-
-<p>Once more the children were greatly puzzled. They were not on such terms
-of tender intimacy with their father as were thus suggested, but, on the
-whole, were rather pleased than otherwise when he was absent, and did
-not follow him very closely with their thoughts. They were slightly
-humbled as they realized the existence of so much greater susceptibility
-and lovingness on the part of the little girl in whom they were so much
-interested, than they themselves possessed. How she surpassed them in
-this as well as in other things! She talked German as well as English
-(if it was German; their mother was not clear what language it
-was)&mdash;think of that! So perhaps it was not wonderful that she should be
-so much fonder of her papa. And a moment of silence ensued. Lady Stanton
-did not remark the confused pause in the minds of her children, because
-her own mind was filled with wistful compassion for the lonely man whom
-she had been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_80" id="page_80">{80}</a></span> thinking of more or less since ever she left Penninghame.
-Where was he, all alone in the world, shut out from his own house, an
-exile from his country&mdash;even his children away from him, in whom perhaps
-he had found some comfort?</p>
-
-<p>This momentary silence was interrupted abruptly by the sound of a voice.
-“Are you there, Cousin Mary? and what are you putting your heads
-together about?”</p>
-
-<p>At this sound, before they found out what it was, the children
-disengaged themselves suddenly each from her separate clinging to her
-mother’s arm, and approached each other as if for flight; but, falling
-back to their places when they recognized the voice, looked at each
-other, and said both together, with tones of relief, “Oh, it’s only
-Geoff!”</p>
-
-<p>Nothing more significant of the inner life of the family, and the
-position of these two little intruders, could have been.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff came forward with his boyish step and voice in all the smiling
-confidence of youth. “I thought I should startle you. Is it a story that
-is being told, or are you plotting something? Fanny and Annie, leave her
-alone for a moment. It is my turn now.”</p>
-
-<p>“O Geoff! it is about a little girl and a boy&mdash;mamma will tell you too,
-if you ask her; and there’s nobody in. We thought at first you were
-papa, but he’s so busy. Come and sit here.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff came up, and kissed Lady Stanton on her soft, still beautiful
-cheek. He was a son of the house, and privileged. He sat down on the
-stool the children had placed for him. “I am glad there’s nobody in,” he
-said. “Of course the girls will be back before I go; but I wanted to
-speak to you&mdash;about something.”</p>
-
-<p>“Shall the children go, Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“Fancy! do you want them to hate me? No, go on with the story. This is
-what I like. Isn’t it pleasant, Annie and Fanny, to have her all to
-ourselves? Do you mind me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, not in the least, Geoff&mdash;not in the very least. You are like&mdash;what
-is he like, Annie?&mdash;a brother, not a big brother, like Charley: but
-something young, something nice, like what mamma was telling us of&mdash;a
-<i>little</i> brother&mdash;grown up&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Is this a sneer at my height?” he said; “but go on, do<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_81" id="page_81">{81}</a></span>n’t let me stop
-the story. I like stories&mdash;and most other pleasant things.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was no story,” said Lady Stanton. “I was telling them only of some
-children:&mdash;you are very good and forgiving, Geoff&mdash;but I fear you will
-be angry with me when you know. I was&mdash;out by myself&mdash;and
-notwithstanding all we have against them, I went to see Mary Musgrave.
-There! I must tell you at once, and get it over. I shall be sorry if it
-annoys you; but Mary and I,” she said, faltering, “were such friends
-once, and I have not seen her for years.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should I be annoyed&mdash;why should I be angry? I am not an avenger.
-Poor Cousin Mary! you were out&mdash;by yourself!&mdash;was that your only reason
-for going?”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed it is true enough. It is very seldom I go out without the girls:
-and they&mdash;feel strongly, you know, about that.”</p>
-
-<p>“What have they to do with it? Yes, I know: they are <i>plus royalistes
-que le roi</i>. But this is not the story.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, indeed it is, my dear boy. I was telling Annie and Fanny of two
-poor children. They belong to a man who is&mdash;banished from his own
-country. He did wrong&mdash;when he was young&mdash;oh so many, so many years
-ago!&mdash;and he is still wandering about the world without a home, and far
-from his friends. He was young then, and now&mdash;it is so long ago;&mdash;ah,
-Geoff, you must not be angry with me. The little children are with Mary.
-She did not tell me much, for her heart did not soften to me as mine did
-to her. But there they are; the mother dead who was at the bottom of it
-all; and nobody to care for them but Mary; all through something that
-happened before they were born.”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton grew red as she spoke, her voice trembled, her whole aspect
-was full of emotion. The young man shook his head&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose a great many of us suffer from harm done before we were
-born,” he said, gravely. “This is no solitary instance.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, Geoff, it is natural, quite natural, that you should feel so. I
-forgot how deeply you were affected by all that happened then.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_82" id="page_82">{82}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not mean that,” he said, gravely. His youthful face had changed
-out of its light-hearted calm. “Indeed I had heard something of this,
-and I wanted to speak to you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Run away, my darlings,” said Lady Stanton; “go and see what&mdash;nurse is
-about. Make her go down with you to the village and take the tea and
-sugar to the old women in the almshouses. This is the day&mdash;don’t you
-remember?”</p>
-
-<p>“So it is,” said Annie. “But we did not want to remember,” said Fanny;
-“we liked better to stay with you.”</p>
-
-<p>However, they went off, reluctant yet obedient. They were used to being
-sent away. It was seldom their mother who did it, willingly&mdash;but
-everybody else did it with peremptory determination&mdash;and the little
-girls were used to obey. They untwined themselves from her arms, to
-which they had been clinging, and went away close together, with a soft
-rush and sweep as of one movement.</p>
-
-<p>“There go the doves,” said Geoff, looking after them with kind
-admiration like that of a brother. It pleased Lady Stanton to see the
-friendly pleasure in them which lighted the young man’s eyes. Whoever
-married him, he would always, she thought, be a brother to her neglected
-children, who counted for so little in the family. She looked after them
-with that mother-look which, whether in joy or sorrow, is close upon
-tears. Then she turned to him with eyes softened by that unspeakable
-tenderness:</p>
-
-<p>“Whatever you wish,” she said. “Tell me, Geoff; I am ready to hear.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am as bad as the rest. You have to send them away for me too.”</p>
-
-<p>“There is some reason in it this time. If you have heard about the
-little Musgraves you know how miserable it all is,” said Lady Stanton.
-“The old man will have nothing to say to them. He lets them live there,
-but takes no notice&mdash;his son’s children! And Mary has everything upon
-her shoulders.”</p>
-
-<p>“Cousin Mary, will it hurt you much to tell me all about it?” said the
-young man. “Forgive me, I know it must be painful; but all that is so
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_83" id="page_83">{83}</a></span>long over, and everything is so changed&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You mean I have married and forgotten,” she said, her lips beginning to
-quiver.</p>
-
-<p>“I scarcely remember anything about it,” said Geoff, looking away from
-her that his eyes might not disturb her more, “only a confused sort of
-excitement and wretchedness, and then a strange new sense of importance.
-We had been nobodies till then&mdash;my mother and I. But I have heard a few
-things lately. Walter,&mdash;will it pain you if I speak of him?”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor Walter!&mdash;no. Geoff, you must understand that Walter loved somebody
-else better than me.”</p>
-
-<p>She said this half in honest avowal of that humiliation which had been
-one of the great wonders of her life, partly in excuse of her own easy
-forgetfulness of him.</p>
-
-<p>“I have heard that too, Cousin Mary, with wonder; but never mind. He
-paid dearly for his folly. The other&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff,” said Lady Stanton, with a trembling voice, “the other is living
-still, and he has paid dearly for it all this time. We must not be hard
-upon him. I do not want to excuse him&mdash;it would be strange if I should
-be the one to excuse him; but only&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I am very sorry for him, Cousin Mary. I am glad you feel as I do.
-Walter may have been in the wrong for anything I know. I do not think it
-was murder.”</p>
-
-<p>“That I am sure it was not! John Musgrave was not the man to do a
-murder&mdash;oh, no, no; Geoff! he was not that kind of man!”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff looked up surprised at her eager tone and the trembling in her
-voice.</p>
-
-<p>“You knew him&mdash;well?” he said, with that indifferent composure with
-which people comment upon the past, not knowing what depths those are
-over which they skim so lightly. Could he have seen into the agitation
-in Lady Stanton’s heart! But he would not have understood nor realized
-the commotion that was there.</p>
-
-<p>“I always&mdash;took an interest in him,” she said, faltering; and then she
-felt it her duty to do her best for him as an old friend. “I had known
-him all my life, Geoff, as well as I knew Walter. He was hasty and
-high-spirited, but so kind&mdash;he would have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_84" id="page_84">{84}</a></span> gone out of his way to help
-any one. Before he saw that young woman everybody was fond of John.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you know <i>her</i> too?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; I did not know her. God forbid! She was the destruction of
-every one who cared for her,” said Lady Stanton with a little outburst.
-Then she made an effort to subdue herself. “Perhaps I am not just to
-her,” she said with a faint smile. “She was preferred to me, you know,
-Geoff; and they say a woman cannot forget that&mdash;perhaps it is true.”</p>
-
-<p>“How could he? was he mad?” Geoff said. Geoff was himself tenderly,
-filially in love with his cousin Mary. He thought there was nobody in
-the world so beautiful and so kind. And even now she was not understood
-as she ought to be. Sir Henry thought her a good enough wife, a faithful
-creature, perfectly trustworthy, and so forth. It was in this light that
-all regarded her. Something better than an upper servant, a little
-dearer than a governess; something to be made use of, to do everything
-for everybody. She who, Geoff thought in his enthusiasm, was more lovely
-and sweet than the youngest of them, and ought to be held pre-eminent
-and sacred by everybody round her. This was not the lot that had fallen
-to her in life.</p>
-
-<p>“So I am not the best judge, you see,” said Lady Stanton with a little
-sigh. “In those days one felt more strongly perhaps. It all seems so
-vivid and clear,” she added half apologetically, though without entirely
-realizing how much light these half-confessions threw on her present
-state of less lively feeling, “that is the effect of being young&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I think you will always be young,” he said tenderly; then added after a
-pause, “Was it a quarrel about&mdash;the woman?&mdash;” He blushed himself as he
-said so, feeling the wrong to her&mdash;yet only half knowing the wonder it
-was in her thoughts, the double pain it brought.</p>
-
-<p>“I think so. They were both fond of her; and Walter ought not to have
-been fond of her. John&mdash;was quite free. He was in no way engaged to any
-one. He had a right to love her if he pleased. But Walter interfered,
-and he was richer, greater, a far better match. So I suppose she
-wavered. This is my own explanation of it. They met then when their
-hearts were wild<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_85" id="page_85">{85}</a></span> against each other, and there was a struggle. Ah,
-Geoff! Has it not cost John Musgrave his life as well as Walter? Has he
-ever ventured to show himself in his own country since? And now their
-poor little children have come home to Mary; but he will never be able
-to come home.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is hard,” said Geoff thoughtfully. “I wish I knew the law. Fifteen
-years is it? I was about six then. Could anything be done? I wonder if
-anything could be done.”</p>
-
-<p>She put her hand on his shoulder with an affectionate caressing touch,
-“Thanks for the thought, my dear boy&mdash;even if nothing could be done.”</p>
-
-<p>“You take a great deal of interest in him, Cousin Mary?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said quickly; “I told you we were all young people together;
-and his sister was my dear friend. We were called the two Maries in
-those days. We were thought&mdash;pretty,” she said with a vivid blush and a
-little laugh. “You may have heard?”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff kissed the pretty hand which had been laid on his shoulder, and
-which was perhaps a little fuller and more dimply than was consistent
-with perfection. “I have eyes,” he said, with a little of the shyness of
-his years, “and I have always had a right as a Stanton to be proud of my
-cousin Mary. I wonder if Miss Musgrave is as beautiful as you are; I
-don’t believe it for my part.”</p>
-
-<p>“She is far prettier&mdash;she is not stout,” said Lady Stanton with a sigh;
-and then she laughed, and made her confession over again with a
-half-jest, which did not make her regret less real, “and I have lost my
-figure. I have developed, as people say. Mary is as slim as ever. Ah,
-you may laugh, but that makes a great difference; I feel it to the
-bottom of my heart.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff looked at her with tender admiration in his eyes. “There has never
-been a time when I have not thought you the most beautiful woman in all
-the world,” he said, “and that all the great beauties must have been
-like you. You were always the dream of fair women to me&mdash;now one, now
-the other&mdash;all except Cleopatra. You never could have been like that
-black-browed witch&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush! boy. I am too old to be flattered now; and I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_86" id="page_86">{86}</a></span> am stout,” she
-said, with that faint laugh of annoyance and humiliation just softened
-by jest. Geoff’s honest praise brought no blush to her soft matronly
-cheeks, but she liked it, as it pleased her when the children called her
-“Pretty Mamma.” They loved <i>her</i> the best, though people had not always
-done so. The fact that she had grown stout did not affect their
-admiration. Only those who have known others to be preferred to
-themselves can realize what this is. After a moment’s hesitation, she
-added in a low voice: “I wonder&mdash;will you go and see them? It would have
-a great effect in the neighbourhood. Oh, Geoff, forgive me if I am
-saying too much; perhaps it would not be possible, perhaps it might be
-wrong in your position. You must take the advice of somebody more
-sensible, less affected by their feelings. Everybody likes you, Geoff,
-and you deserve it, my dear; and you are Lord Stanton. It would have a
-great effect upon the county; it would be almost like clearing him&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Then I will go&mdash;at once&mdash;this very day,” said Geoff, starting up.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, no, no,” she said, catching him by the arm; “first of all you
-must speak to&mdash;some one more sensible than me.”</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_X" id="CHAPTER_X"></a>CHAPTER X.<br /><br />
-<small>THE OTHER SIDE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">While</span> Lady Stanton spread the news of the arrival of the Musgrave
-children among the upper classes, this information was given to the
-lower, an equally or perhaps even more important influence in their
-history, by an authority of a very different kind, to whom, indeed, it
-would have been bitter to think that she was the channel of
-communication with the lower orders. But such is the irony of
-circumstances that it was Mrs. Pennithorne, who prided herself upon her
-gentility, and who would have made any sacrifice rather than descend to
-a sphere beneath her, who conveyed the report, which ran through the
-village like<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_87" id="page_87">{87}</a></span> wildfire, and which spread over the surrounding country as
-rapidly and effectually as if it had been made known by beacons on the
-hill-tops. The village was more interested in the news than any other
-circle in the county could be, partly because the reigning house in a
-village is its standing romance, the drama most near to it, and most
-exciting when there is any drama at all; and partly for still more
-impressive personal reasons. The Castle had done much for the district
-in this way, having supplied it with more exciting food in the way of
-story and incident than any other great house in the north country.
-There had been a long interval of monotony, but now it appeared to all
-concerned that the more eventful circle of affairs was about to begin
-again. The manner in which the story fully reached the village was
-simple enough. Mrs. Pennithorne had, as might have been expected, failed
-entirely with Mary’s frock. It would not “come” as she wanted it to
-come, let her do what she would; and when all her own efforts had
-failed, and the stuff was effectually spoiled, soiled, and crumpled, and
-incapable of ever looking better than second-hand under any
-circumstances, she called in the doctor, as people are apt to do when
-they have cobbled at themselves in vain. The dress doctor in Penninghame
-and the neighbourhood, the rule of fashion, the grand authority for
-everything in the way of <i>chiffons</i>, was a certain Miss Price, a lively
-little old woman, who had one of the best houses in the village, where
-she let lodgings on occasion, but always made dresses. She had been in
-business for a great many years, and was an authority both up and down
-the water. It was not agreeable to Miss Price to be called in at the
-last moment, as it were, to heal the ailments of Mary’s frock; but
-partly because it was the clergyman’s house, and partly because of the
-gossip which was always involved, she obeyed the summons, as she had
-done on many previous occasions. And she did her best, as Mrs.
-Pennithorne had done her worst, upon the little habiliment. “Ladies know
-nothing about such things,” the little dressmaker said, pinning and
-unpinning with energetic ease and rapidity. And the Vicar’s wife, who
-looked on helpless but admiring, accepted the condemnation because of
-the flattery involved; for Mrs. Pen was elevated over Miss Price by so
-brief an interval<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_88" id="page_88">{88}</a></span> that this accusation was a kind of acknowledgment of
-her gentility, and did her good, though it was not meant to be
-complimentary. She liked to feel that hers was that ladylike uselessness
-which is only appropriate to high position. She simpered a little, and
-avowed that indeed she had never been brought up to know about such
-things; and while Miss Price put the spoiled work to rights the Vicar’s
-wife did her best to entertain the beneficent fairy who was bringing the
-chaos into order. She did not blurt out suddenly the news with which she
-was overbrimming, but brought it forth cunningly in the course of
-conversation in the most agreeable way.</p>
-
-<p>“Is there any news, Miss Price?” she said; “but I tell the Vicar that
-nothing ever happens here. The people don’t even die.”</p>
-
-<p>“I beg your pardon, ma’am. There’s two within the last three months; but
-to be sure they were long past threescore and ten.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is what I say. It’s so healthy at Penninghame. Look at the old
-Squire now, how hale and hearty he is&mdash;and after all he has come
-through.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he has come through a deal,” said Miss Price, putting her pins in
-her mouth, “and that’s too true.”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor old man; and still more and more to put up with. Have you seen the
-children, Miss Price? Oh dear! didn’t you know? Perhaps I ought not to
-have mentioned it; but people cannot hide up children as they hide
-secrets. I have been living here for ten years, and I scarcely know the
-rights of the story about John Musgrave yet.”</p>
-
-<p>“Children!” said Miss Price, with a start which shook the pins out of
-her fingers. “To be sure&mdash;that came in a coach from Pennington with a
-play-acting sort of a woman? But what has that to do with Mr. John?”</p>
-
-<p>The dressmaker dropped Mary’s frock upon her knees in the excitement of
-her feelings. There was more than curiosity involved. “To be sure,” she
-said. “To be sure!” going on with her own thoughts, “where should they
-come but to the Castle? and who should have them but his family?
-’Lizabeth Bampfylde is an honest woman, but not even me, I wouldn’t
-trust the children to her. His children! though they would be hers
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_89" id="page_89">{89}</a></span>too&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you mean, Miss Price?” said Mrs. Pen, half offended; “are you
-going out of your senses? I tell you something about the Squire’s
-family, and you get into a way about it as if it could be anything to
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Price recovered her composure with a rapid effort, but her little
-pale countenance reddened.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing to me, ma’am,” she said, with what she felt to be a proper
-pride. “But if Mr. John has children, they had a mother as well as a
-father; and there was a time when that was something to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” cried the Vicar’s wife, “then you knew Mrs. John? tell me about
-her. She was a low girl, that is all I know.”</p>
-
-<p>“She was no low girl, whoever told you,” cried the little dressmaker.
-“She was one as folks were fond of, as fond as if she had been a
-princess. She was no more low than&mdash;I am; she was&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I did not mean to offend you, Miss Price. Of course I know how
-respectable you are&mdash;but not the equal of the Squire, you know, or
-of&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Price looked at the woman who had spoiled Mary’s frock. There she
-stood, limp, and faded, and genteel, with no capacity in her fingers and
-not much in her head, with a smile of conscious superiority yet
-condescension. Miss Price was not her equal. “Good Lord! as if I would
-be that useless,” she said to herself, “for all the money in the world!
-or to be as grand as the Queen!” But though she was at once exasperated
-and contemptuous, politeness and policy at once forbade her to say
-anything. She would not “set up her face to a lady,” even when so very
-unimpressive as Mrs. Pennithorne; and it did not become the dressmaker
-in the village to be openly scornful of the Vicar’s wife. She saved
-herself by taking up again with energy and devotion the scattered pins
-and the miserable little spoiled bodice of Mary’s frock.</p>
-
-<p>“I am glad you know about this girl,” said Mrs. Pen, satisfied to have
-subdued her opponent, “for I want so much to hear about her. One cannot
-get much information from a gentleman, Miss Price. They tell you, ‘Oh
-yes, she was a pretty creature!’ as if that is all you cared to know.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_90" id="page_90">{90}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“It’s what tells most with the gentlemen, ma’am,” said Miss Price,
-recovering her composure. “Yes, that she was. I’ve looked at her many a
-time and said just the same to myself. ‘Well, you are a pretty
-creature!’ I don’t wonder if their heads get turned when they are as
-pretty as that; though it isn’t only the pretty ones that get their
-heads turned. The girls that I’ve had through my hands! and not one in
-ten that went through with the business and kept it up as it ought to be
-kept up.”</p>
-
-<p>“Was Mrs. John Musgrave in the business? Was she in your hands? I
-declare! Did he marry her from your house?”</p>
-
-<p>“She was come of wild folks,” said Miss Price; “there was gipsy blood in
-them. They had a little bit of a sheep farm up among the hills in their
-best days, and a lone house, where there wasn’t a stranger to be seen
-twice in a year. ’Lizabeth Bampfylde, that’s her mother, comes about the
-village still. I can’t tell you what she does, she sells her eggs and
-chickens, and maybe she does tell fortunes. I won’t say. She never told
-me mine. I took a fancy to the lass, and I said, ‘Bring her to me. I’ll
-take her; I’ll train her a bit. Oh, how little we know! If I had but let
-her bide on the fells!&mdash;but what a pretty one she was! Such eyes as she
-had; and a skin that wasn’t to say dark&mdash;it was brown, but so clear!
-like the water when the sun is in it.”</p>
-
-<p>“You seem to think a great deal of people being pretty.”</p>
-
-<p>“So I do, ma’am, more than I ought. A woman should have more sense. I’m
-near as easy led away as the gentlemen. But there’s different kinds of
-beauty, and that is what they never see as want it most. There’s pretty
-faces that I can’t abide. They seem to give me a turn. Now that’s where
-the men fails,” said the little dressmaker; “all’s one to them, good or
-bad, they never see any difference. Lily was never one of the bad ones,
-poor dear. Lily? yes, that was the young woman; but she’s not such a
-young woman, not a girl now. She’ll be thirty-seven or eight, close upon
-that, if she’s living this day.”</p>
-
-<p>“She is not living&mdash;she died five years ago; and Miss Musgrave won’t
-believe me that she ought to go into black for her,” said Mrs.
-Pennithorne.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Miss Price with a sharp cry. She dropped her work at her feet
-with an indifference to it which deeply aggrieved<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_91" id="page_91">{91}</a></span> Mrs. Pen. The
-announcement took her altogether by surprise, and went to her heart.
-“Dead! oh my poor Lily, my poor Lily! Was I thinking ill o’ thee? Dead!
-and so many left&mdash;and her in her prime!” Sudden sobs stopped the good
-little woman’s speech, with which she struggled as she went on, making a
-brave effort to recover herself as she picked up the little dress. “I
-beg your pardon, ma’am, but it was so sudden; it took me unprepared. Oh,
-ma’am, that’s the worst of it when you have to do with girls. Few of
-them go through with the business, though it would be best for them;
-they turn every one to her own way; that’s Scripture, but I mean it.
-They marry, and they think themselves so grand with their children, and
-it kills ’em. Oh, if I had but left her on the fells! or if she had
-stuck by the business like me!”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not think you took so much interest in her,” said Mrs. Pen,
-feeling guilty. “If I had known you cared, I would have been more
-careful what I said. But nobody seemed to think much of <i>her</i>. It is
-always the Musgraves the Vicar speaks of.”</p>
-
-<p>“The Vicar thought of nothing but Miss Mary,” said Miss Price hastily;
-then she corrected herself, “I mean of womanfolk,” she said; “the
-Musgraves, ma’am, as you say, that was all he thought of. And that’s
-always the way, as far as I can judge. The gentry thinks of their own
-side, and we that are but small folks, we think of ours; it’s natural.
-Miss Musgrave was not much to me. I never made her but one thing, and
-that was a cotton, a common morning frock; she was too grand to have her
-things made by the likes of me; but Lily, she sat by my side and sewed
-at the same seam. And she’s dead! the bonniest lass on all the water, as
-the village folks say.”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t talk like the village folks, Miss Price.”</p>
-
-<p>“No. I’m from the south, as they call it&mdash;except when a word creeps in
-now and again through being so long here. It’s all pinned and straight,
-ma’am, now. It was done almost before I heard the news&mdash;and I’m glad of
-it, for my eyesight goes when I begin to cry. I don’t think you can go
-wrong now,” said Miss Price with a sigh, knowing the powers of her
-patroness in that direction. “It’s as well as I can make it&mdash;pinned and
-basted, and straight before your hand. No, thank you kindly, nothing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_92" id="page_92">{92}</a></span>
-for me. I’m that put out that the best thing I can do is to get home.”</p>
-
-<p>“But dear me, Miss Price&mdash;as she is not even a relation!”</p>
-
-<p>“A relation, what’s that? A girl that you’ve brought up is more than a
-relation,” cried the dressmaker, forgetting her manners. And she made up
-her patterns tremulously in a little bundle, and hurried out with the
-briefest leavetaking, which was not civil, Mrs. Pennithorne said
-indignantly. But Miss Price, in her way, was as important as the Vicar’s
-wife herself, being alone in her profession, and enjoying a monopoly. It
-is possible to be rude, when you are a monopolist, without damage to
-your trade; but this, to do her justice, was not the motive which
-actuated the little dressmaker, who, in her nature, was anxiously
-polite, and indisposed to offend any one; but the news she had heard was
-too much for all her little decorums. She made a long round out of her
-way to pass by the Castle, though she could scarcely tell why she did
-so&mdash;nor it was not the children that were most in her mind. Indeed she
-scarcely remembered them at all, in her excitement of pain and hot grief
-which took the shape of a kind of fiery resentment against life and
-nature. Children! what was the good of the children&mdash;helpless things
-that took a woman’s life, and made even the rest of death bitter to her,
-wringing her heart with misery to leave them after costing her her life!
-She was an old maid not by accident, but by nature; and what were a
-couple of miserable little children in exchange for the life of Lily!
-But when, not expecting to see them, not thinking of them save in this
-bitter way, Miss Price saw the two children at the door of the hall,
-another quick springing sensation rose suddenly in her hasty soul. She
-went slowly past, gazing at them, trying to say to herself that she
-hated the sight of them, Lily’s slayers! But her kind heart was too much
-for her quick temper, and as soon as they were out of sight, the little
-dressmaker sat down by the wayside and cried, sobbing like a child.
-Little dreadful creatures, who had worn their mother to death, and
-killed her in her prime! Poor little forlorn orphans, without a mother!
-She did not know which feeling was the warmest and strongest. But she
-reached home so shaken between the two emotions, that her present
-assistant,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_93" id="page_93">{93}</a></span> who filled the place to which Miss Price had hoped to train
-Lily, and who was a good girl with no nonsense in her head, fully
-intending to go through with the business, was frightened by the
-appearance of her principal, who stumbled into the little parlour all
-garlanded with paper patterns, with tremulous step and blanched cheeks,
-as if she had seen a ghost.</p>
-
-<p>“Something’s to do!” cried the girl.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Price made no immediate reply, but sank into a chair to get her
-breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh nothing; nothing you know of,” she said at last, “nothing that need
-trouble you;” and then after a pause, “nothing that will warn you even,
-not one of you, silly things. You’d all do just the same to-morrow,
-though it was to cost you your lives.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll run and get you a cup of tea,” said Sarah, which showed her to be
-a young woman of sense. Where lives the woman to whom this cordial,
-promptly and as it were accidentally administered, does not do good?
-Miss Price gradually recovered herself as she sipped the fragrant tea,
-and told her story with many sighs and lamentations, yet not without a
-certain melancholy pleasure.</p>
-
-<p>“If girls would only think,” she said; “if they would take a warning;
-but ne’er a one of you will do that. You think it’s grand to marry a
-gentleman; but it would be far better to go through with the business
-like I’ve done, far better! though you’ll never think so.”</p>
-
-<p>Sarah was respectfully sympathetic; she shook her head with a look of
-awe and melancholy acquiescence; but nevertheless she did not think so.
-She was only twenty, and thirty-seven was a good age. To marry a
-gentleman, even at the risk of dying at thirty-seven like Lily, was
-better than living till sixty like Miss Price; but she did not say so.
-She acquiesced, and even cried over the lost Lily, whom she had never
-seen, with the easy emotion of a girl. She herself meant sincerely to go
-through with the business; but anyhow Sarah was as much excited by the
-news as heart could desire. Miss Price was very determined that it
-should not be talked of, that the story should not be spread in the
-village. “Don’t let them say <i>again</i> it came from us,” she said; but
-however that might be, before the next morning it had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_94" id="page_94">{94}</a></span> spread through
-the parish, and beyond the parish. Such things get into the atmosphere.
-What can conceal a secret? It is the one thing certain to be found out,
-and which every one is bound to know. There was nothing else talked
-about in the cottages or when neighbours met, for some days. The men
-talked of it over their beer, even, in the public-houses. “She were a
-bonnie lass,” the elder ones said; and all the girls in the district
-felt that they individually might have been Lily, and felt sad for her.
-The children (who could not be hid) were followed by eager looks of
-curiosity when they appeared, and the resemblance of Lilias to her
-mother was too remarkable not to strike every one who had known her; and
-the entire story which had excited the district so deeply in its time,
-and which, with its mixture of all the sentiments which are most
-interesting to humanity, was almost as exciting still as ever, was
-retold, a hundred times over, for the benefit of the younger generation.
-In these lower regions, as was natural, the interest all centred in the
-beautiful girl, who, though “come of wild folk,” and not even an
-appropriate bride for a well-to-do hopeful of the village, had “the
-offer of” two gentlemen, one the young lord, and the other the young
-squire. Had such fortune ever come before to a lass from the fells? How
-she had been courted! not as the village lovers wooed with a sense of
-equality, at least, if not perhaps something more; but John Musgrave and
-young Lord Stanton had thought nobody in the world like her. And the
-young lord, poor fellow! had even broken his word for her, a sin which
-was but a glory the more to Lily in the eyes of the village
-critics&mdash;however bitterly it might have been condemned had his forsaken
-bride been a village maiden too. That this rivalry should have gone the
-length of blood, all for Lily’s sweet looks, was a thing the middle-aged
-narrators shook their heads over with many a moral, “You see what the
-like of that comes to, lasses,” they said. But the lasses only put their
-heads closer, and felt their hearts beat higher. To be fought for, to be
-died for! It was terrible, no doubt, but glorious. “Such things never
-happen nowadays” they said to themselves with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>And the news did not stop down below in the plain, but mounted with the
-winds and the clouds, and reached lone places<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_95" id="page_95">{95}</a></span> in the fells, where it
-raised a wilder excitement still&mdash;at least in one melancholy and
-solitary place.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XI" id="CHAPTER_XI"></a>CHAPTER XI.<br /><br />
-<small>AN AFTERNOON’S WORK.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">“You</span> must not cry, Nello; for one thing you are too big to cry; or if
-you are not too big you are too old. You are eight&mdash;past! and then the
-old gentleman downstairs is such a funny, funny old man, that he will
-eat us, Nello, if we make a noise.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t believe you,” said the little boy, whom England had much
-improved in strength. “Old men do not eat children,” but he drew back a
-little, and stopped crying all the same.</p>
-
-<p>“We do not know no-ting about old men in England,” said Lilias&mdash;the <i>th</i>
-was still a difficulty to her; and they both pronounced their <i>rs</i> in a
-way which was unfamiliar to English ears, though the letter exists and
-retains its natural sound in the north country. “They are very very
-strange; they sit in a chair all day, like the wild beasts. I go to the
-door and peep in. He has no cap on his head like Don Pepé, but a bare
-place here, where the cap should be, and white hair. And he never moves
-nor speaks. Sometimes I think he will be cut out of wood; and then all
-at once he rises up,&mdash;and me, I run away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Are you not afraid, Lilias? I should be frightened,” said the little
-boy, looking at her with large wondering eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“That is because you are only eight, but I am twelve, and one is never
-frightened after twelve. I run away, and it makes me beat and thump
-here,” Lilias put her hand to her heart to indicate the place, “and I
-like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said the little brother, “when you run it makes that beat; but I
-do not like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, you are a baby,” said Lilias. She stood with her dark hair shaken
-back, and her eyes shining, an image of visionary daring. Nothing could
-be more unlike than these two children. The boy had all the features of
-his race, blue eyes, fair hair, with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_96" id="page_96">{96}</a></span> a touch of gold in it, a fair
-complexion, browned and reddened, indeed, with his long journey and the
-warm sun he had been used to, but already changing into the pink and
-white of English childhood. But there were none of the Musgrave features
-in Lilias. Her dark eyes, dancing with life and energy, her warm colour,
-clear brown with an underlying rose tint, and a downy bloomy surface
-which softened every outline, and her crisp, yet shining dark hair, all
-belonged, not only to a different species, but to a different type of
-race. The Musgraves were robust and strong, but their strength was not
-of this buoyant kind. The cloud of anxiety which had been about her on
-her first appearance, that mystery of doubt with which a little human
-creature regards the strange and novel, in whatever form, not knowing if
-harm or good may be coming, had floated away, and Lilias had already
-taken back her natural character. She was at home in the house, every
-room of it, though she knew that she was hidden and thrust into corners,
-on account of “the old gentleman downstairs.” This did not depress or
-trouble her, but felt like a joke, a mystification and masquerading such
-as is dear to childhood. She threw herself into the spirit of it with
-enjoyment, instead of brooding over it with melancholy consciousness,
-which was what Mary, forgetting childhood, as all grown people do, had
-feared.</p>
-
-<p>The children were in the hall, which had now grown so familiar to them
-that they could not understand how they had ever feared it. It was one
-of those exceptional days which occur now and then in the winter before
-the turn of the year. The whole world was full of sunshine. There was
-not a cloud in the sky, and the great green hill in front of them rose
-up in dazzling clearness of relief, like a visible way of ascent into
-heaven. There was not a breath stirring; the trees, without a leaf upon
-them, printed themselves against the blue of the sky and the green of
-the hill, in minute perfection of branch and twig, like a photograph.
-The lake was as still and as blue as the sky&mdash;everything lay in the
-sunshine charmed and stilled, hanging motionless as it were between
-earth and heaven. The sense that it was mid-winter, the natural season
-of storms, seemed to have got into the air, which wondered over its own
-stillness,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_97" id="page_97">{97}</a></span> and into the skies, which excelled themselves in lightness
-and soft blueness, snatching this moment of delight with a fearful joy.
-Earth took that ecstasy as one who was well aware that she could not
-answer for the morrow. The great doorway of the hall stood wide open; it
-was after mid-day, and the sun streamed in, having got to the west so
-much earlier than in summer. Lilias and her little brother, children of
-the sun, were planted in the midst of it, enjoying it with unconscious
-exhilaration. Martuccia sat in the open doorway, basking in it,
-knitting; a tranquil, almost motionless figure, with that faculty of
-repose which is no doubt awarded to nurses in compensation for the
-endless calls upon their activity. She had put a little tartan
-shawl&mdash;congenial garment&mdash;upon her fine shoulders, and, with her silver
-pins and glowing black hair all whitened by the sunshine, sat perfectly
-motionless except for the little rustle of her hands and click of her
-knitting-needles. It seemed immaterial whether it might be years or
-moments that the robust and comely watcher should hold that peaceful
-guardian place. She was paying no attention to the children, yet the
-lightest appeal, a querulous exclamation, a longer pause than usual,
-anything or nothing, would have brought her to her nurselings. It was
-the repose of the mother, who sees everything and feels everything, even
-when she does not see: and the additional security which her presence
-brought to them, though she sat apart and had nothing to do with their
-talk or their play, the strong support of the background which she made,
-it would be hard to tell in words. They had been playing in the spacious
-place, all lighted and warmed through and through with sunshine. Miss
-Musgrave had not yet made her appearance; either she had less time to
-spend in her favourite resort, or the fact that it had been appropriated
-to the children, as specially suitable in its size and separateness for
-their enjoyment, had made her relinquish its use. The great bay window
-in the recess gave back a reflected light from the shining of the lake,
-which added a colder tone to the prevailing brightness; and in the old
-fireplace there burned a smouldering fire, half coals half wood. Every
-feature of the place had grown familiar to the two little things who
-were once so alarmed by its dark corners&mdash;so familiar that they could
-not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_98" id="page_98">{98}</a></span> understand how they had ever been afraid. The kind old spacious
-silent hall sheltered them with a large passive protection not unlike
-that of Martuccia herself.</p>
-
-<p>But the afternoon languor had stolen upon the boy and girl,
-notwithstanding the brightness. They, had come to a pause in their round
-of amusement, and though half-tired, were yet looking about with all
-their quick senses for some new delight. A little scuffle, a little
-quarrel and crying fit on Nello’s part, which had been put a stop to by
-the warning of Lilias already recorded, had left them free for a new
-start, but not with the old plays, which were worn out for the moment.
-They made an unconscious pause, and looked about them to find some
-novelty; and both pounced upon one at the same moment with a burst of
-sudden and unlooked-for rapture. A great broad sheet of something white
-lay stretched out on Mary’s table, in company with an open colour-box
-and brushes&mdash;a sight too tempting to be resisted by any child,
-especially after the exhaustion of a long day’s play. It was wonderful
-that they had overlooked it so long. They caught sight of it
-simultaneously now, and the result was a sudden rush of eager curiosity.
-The boy got first to the goal; perhaps he had been by a second of time
-the first to start. He grasped one side of the white sheet with his hot
-little hand, and climbing into the chair which stood before it, threw
-himself upon the new wonder. “It is Mary’s,” said Lilias, making a
-feeble effort to hold him back; but her own curiosity was much stronger
-than her sense of duty to Mary, who allowed them to see everything and
-share everything she had. They both leant over the table breathless, the
-mysterious whiteness crackling beneath their hands. It was a sheet of
-dazzling white vellum, ornamented with what they considered beautiful
-pictures, a puzzling, yet a tempting sight to the children. It was
-nothing less than a genealogical tree, their own pedigree, which Miss
-Musgrave, skilled in such works, was preparing for her father,
-ornamented with emblazoned coats of arms, some of them unfinished and
-inviting completion with a seductive force which made the children’s
-hearts beat.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?” said Nello, in a tone of awe.</p>
-
-<p>“I know,” said Lilias, confidently; “it is a copy. You have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_99" id="page_99">{99}</a></span> had no
-education, you don’t know what a copy is: but me, I have done them,
-though never any so pretty as this. Mary is a grown-up lady, old, not
-like us; it must be Mary’s copy. You should not touch it, you are too
-little.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will try,” cried Nello, with his eyes upon the brushes. Already he
-had rubbed against something not yet dry, and had smudged the colour, to
-the horror of his sister. He had both his elbows upon it and the greater
-part of his small person.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what have you done, you naughty boy!” cried Lilias; “you cannot do
-it. Let me!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I will do it, I will do it!” cried Nello, seizing the crackling
-vellum and dashing at it with a brush full of colour. Lilias had to
-stand and look on, sorest of miseries, while her little brother
-performed badly what she felt she could have done well. There was a
-large shield in the centre, upon which the cherished “augmentation,” the
-chief ornament of the Musgrave arms, was slightly drawn. Gules on a
-shield argent, it ought to have been&mdash;Nello made a blurred dash of
-bright blue, surrounded by a sea of red. “How it is pretty!” he cried in
-his half-foreign speech, with a crow of triumph. Colour upon colour! and
-such colour! the sight would have driven Mr. Musgrave wild.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias uttered a cry of horror; but the work of destruction was very
-captivating. Close to the vellum was the original draught of the
-genealogical tree, from which Mary had been copying. Lilias took
-possession of this, and carried it away to the table in the recess. She
-meant only to look at it, but the temptation was too much for her. At
-the bottom of the page an escutcheon void of all colour gradually caught
-her eye, a little white space which might be made, she thought, to
-resemble the others with great advantage to the whole. That this came
-opposite to the name of John Musgrave was nothing to the child, but the
-sight of it wrought her by degrees into a sort of creative frenzy. She
-would not spoil it as Nello was doing, but to complete what was wanting
-could be no harm. Lilias took a brush and filled it with fine broad
-vermilion, a colour about which there could be no mistake, and painted
-the vacant shield a strong decided gules, safe from any accident. The
-outline was not very firm, and there were overflowings and runs of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_100" id="page_100">{100}</a></span>
-colour outside, but at all events the hue was undeniable. She was
-standing looking at it with a satisfied yet agitated mind, with the
-brush still in her hand, when her elbow was grasped by some one behind
-and a hand laid on her shoulder. In the start she gave, the child’s arm
-made a nervous jerk of the brush over the paper, and ran a tremulous
-line of red over some half-dozen of the kindred names. “Mary!” she cried
-with a sudden perception of wrong-doing. But Lilias did not weep or
-excuse herself. She got quite pale, with a red spot on each cheek, and
-stood, not even dropping the brush, looking up at her judge, with the
-corners of her mouth suddenly turned downwards, and a gleam of awakened
-understanding in her alarmed eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Lilias! I thought I could trust you; what have you been doing?” cried
-Mary. “And Nello?” she added, looking round with dismay at the more
-important work. Nello had already been roused to that instinctive sense
-of harm which comes with the arrival of an aggrieved person. But he did
-not face his victim as Lilias did. He threw down his streaming pencil on
-the vellum, got down from his chair in the twinkling of an eye, and fled
-to take shelter with Martuccia, who, ever ready to defend, and yet
-unaware who was wrong, put an arm round him at once and faced Miss
-Musgrave with prompt defiance.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh Mary!” cried Lilias, trembling, “Nello did not mean it. He is so
-little. Nello did not know.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary was not so angelically sweet as to be indifferent to the damage
-done, but she had not the freedom of reproof which people exercise with
-children familiar to them. The little meddlers were still strangers. So
-she restrained herself and said nothing. She went to the parchment and
-began to sponge off the still wet colour. Nello kept in his refuge
-regarding her from afar, ready to bolt behind Martuccia if she made any
-hostile advances and hide himself in his nurse’s skirt. But Lilias
-followed Miss Musgrave closely as her shadow. She watched the sponging
-with the gravest anxious attention. She kept herself close against
-Mary’s dress, touching it, and put herself in Mary’s way, and interposed
-her wistful face, now quite pale and troubled, between the vellum and
-Mary’s eyes. At last her aunt said, perhaps somewhat peevishly, “What do
-you want, child?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_101" id="page_101">{101}</a></span> You have done harm enough for one morning. Pray go out
-of my way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have we done much harm?” said Lilias, with strained and anxious eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; you have spoiled my week’s work, you mischievous children,” said
-Mary, melting a little. “I shall have to do it over again. I did not
-expect this, Lilias, from you.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was very, very bad of me,” said the child, with perfect seriousness,
-her eyes slowly filling; “but Nello is such a little fellow&mdash;he did not
-know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why did you do it, Lilias?”</p>
-
-<p>The child looked up searchingly into her face. “I think it must have
-been the devil,” she said, with portentous gravity, drawing a heavy
-sigh.</p>
-
-<p>An impulse of laughter came to Miss Musgrave in the midst of her
-annoyance; but partly she restrained it for high moral reasons, and
-partly she was still too much annoyed to give way to laughter. “What do
-you know about&mdash;the devil?” she said. “I think it was your own little
-mischievous hands, and your curiosity.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I know a great deal about him. Mr. Pennithorne told us on Sunday;
-and Martuccia must be of the same religion as Mr. Pen, for she worships
-him too,” said Lilias, aware of the advantages of digression when things
-were so serious as they were now.</p>
-
-<p>“Worships him, Lilias! You must not use such words.”</p>
-
-<p>“They are always thinking of him, and they say he does everything. They
-are very, very afraid of him,” said Lilias seriously, “and so am I&mdash;he
-can do whatever he pleases; but I cannot think he is as strong as God.”</p>
-
-<p>“And it was he who made you spoil my papers&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mary, not Nello&mdash;only me. Nello is such a little fellow, he did not
-mean it&mdash;he did not know what he was doing&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“And did you?”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias pressed very close against Mary’s side. Her heart was beating
-loudly in her brave little bosom. Her sense of crime had not been
-lightened by the postponement of the punishment<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_102" id="page_102">{102}</a></span> which must, she
-thought, be coming. But it was not in her to fly as her brother had
-done. She took a furtive hold of Mary’s gown. No hope of any forgiveness
-was in her serious soul; yet to whom could she cling in earth and heaven
-but only to this inflictor of stern justice? She kept her eyes fixed on
-Mary’s face, that she might see the fearful doom which was coming&mdash;that
-would always be a help in bearing it&mdash;and kept close to her, pressing
-against her. “<i>Aie-tu peur de moi? cache-toi dans mes bras</i>”&mdash;this was
-the child’s impulse in her penitence and terror.</p>
-
-<p>Mary forgot her vellum and its stains. She put her arm round the child,
-whose eyes opened a little wider thinking the judgment was coming, but
-who never shrank. “You will not do it again,” she said. Lilias could not
-understand that it was over. She bent back a little the better to see
-Mary’s face.</p>
-
-<p>“Will you not punish me?” said the child. Between the fear and the
-wonder she was breathless. This was the most wonderful of all.</p>
-
-<p>“No, dear&mdash;you will never do it again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nor Nello?” She put her arms round Mary’s arm, with that soft clinging
-which is irresistible in a child, and leant her head against her, and
-began to sob as if her heart would break. Then Nello, seeing the worst
-was over, came out from his shelter, venturing a few steps, then a few
-more. Forgiveness did not touch him, as punishment would have done. He
-came slowly, ready to turn and fly at any hostile demonstration. Nello
-had, as it were, an army at his back, his ships to take refuge in; but
-still it was with great caution that he made his advance. This little
-exhibition of character, however, soon melted in a more agreeable
-sentiment. As soon as the contingency was over, both the children,
-restored to a tremulous ease of mind, were seized with a common impulse
-of curiosity and interest. They forgot their own culpability in watching
-the obliteration of the damage they had done. Fortunately the discovery
-had been made in time, and the process of reparation, if not so
-exciting, was almost as interesting to them as the delicious frenzy of
-mischief in which they had wrought this harm. They pressed upon Mary as
-she worked, one at each side. When the last trace had disappeared they
-gave a cry of joy. How clever Mary was! She could do<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_103" id="page_103">{103}</a></span> everything. As for
-Nello, he was unmoved morally by the spectacle; it had been amusing all
-through, all but the moment of fear, which fortunately came to nothing.
-But Lilias never forgot this scene, and still less did Mary forget it,
-whose heart seemed to be learning a hundred sweet and subtle lessons,
-and to whom the child, even in her naughtiness, was like an angel,
-leading her to depths unsounded, nay, unthought of till now.</p>
-
-<p>But when they had gone away, joyous as usual, to their “tea,” which was
-a meal much scorned and wondered at by Martuccia, Mary went to the other
-table where lay the draught of the more important document upon which
-Lilias had been employed when she came into the hall. At this she smiled
-and shuddered, with a curious mixture of feelings. The little girl’s
-mischief had taken a symbolical form. The blank shield which represented
-her mother was blurred and blood-red, and a stroke like blood ran across
-her father’s name; and that of her father’s father, from the little pool
-of red in the daubed shield. Lilias knew nothing of the lives from which
-her little life had sprung. It was accident, caprice, a child’s fancy
-for bright colour&mdash;yet it made Mary shudder even when she smiled.</p>
-
-<p>Another incident, which she paid less attention to&mdash;indeed, did not
-think of at all&mdash;happened this same evening. She went to the door where
-Martuccia had been seated, her own favourite place, though now in great
-part given up to the children and their attendant, to look out upon the
-evening before she left the hall. When she had looked at the sky where
-the early wintry sunset was just over, leaving deep gorgeous tints of
-red and yellow upon a blue which was deepened by coming frost, Mary’s
-look came back, carelessly enough, by the lower level of the long brown
-road. And it was with a momentary start that she found herself almost
-face to face with an unthought-of spectator, who was standing at the
-foot of the little slope, gazing intently up to the hall door. Mary was
-puzzled to see that though the woman’s appearance was like that of many
-of the older women about, she did not know her; and at the same time she
-was equally perplexed by a consciousness that the face looking up at her
-thus eagerly was not that of a stranger. She could not associate it with
-any name, yet she seemed acquainted with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_104" id="page_104">{104}</a></span> features, which were fine,
-and of an unusual cast. The stranger’s look was so intense that it
-struck Miss Musgrave like an audible petition. “Did you want anything?”
-she said with natural courtesy, making a step towards her. The woman
-turned sharp round on her heels with a hasty wave of her hand, and went
-hurriedly away towards the village without further reply. Who could she
-be? Mary asked herself lightly, and went in and forgot all about her.
-The people are independent in their ways, and not grateful for a casual
-address, in the north.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XII" id="CHAPTER_XII"></a>CHAPTER XII.<br /><br />
-<small>VISITORS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">“My</span> Lord Stanton, ma’am,” said Eastwood, with a certain expansion in the
-throat and fulness of voice, like that swell and gurgle which
-accompanies in a bird the fullest tide of song. Who has not heard that
-roll in the voice of the man who mouths a title like a succulent morsel?
-A butler who loves his family, and who has the honour of announcing to
-them the visit of the greatest potentate about, is a happy man. And this
-was what Eastwood felt, as he uttered with a nightingale trill and swell
-of satisfaction this honoured name.</p>
-
-<p>“Lord&mdash;<i>whom</i>&mdash;&mdash;?” Mary rose to her feet so much startled that she did
-not know what she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Lord Stanton, ma’am,” the butler repeated. “He asked if you would
-receive him. He said as he would not come in till I asked would you
-receive him, ma’am. I said you was at home, and not engaged&mdash;but he
-said&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Lord Stanton!” The name seemed to hurt her, and a kind of dull fear
-rose in Mary’s mind. She knew, of course, who it was! the young
-successor of the man who, with intention or not, her brother had brought
-to his death. She knew well enough about Geoff. It had not been possible
-to hear the name at any time without interest, and in this way Mary had
-learned as much<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_105" id="page_105">{105}</a></span> as strangers knew of the young lord. But what could he
-want here? A subdued panic seized her. She did not know what he could
-do, or if he could do anything; but that he should come merely as a
-friend did not seem probable. And how then had he come? She made a
-tremendous pause before she said, “Let him come in, Eastwood.” Eastwood
-thought Miss Musgrave was very properly impressed by the name of the
-young lord.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff, for his part, waited outside, anxious as to how he was to be
-received, and very desirous in his boyish generosity to make a good
-impression. He had driven to Penninghame, a long way, and his horses,
-drawn up at the door, made a great show, when the children passed,
-stealing round the corner like little intruders, but so much attracted
-by this sight, that they almost forgot their orders never to approach
-the hall door. Geoff himself was standing at some distance from his
-phaeton, waiting for his answer; but even Lilias was old enough to know
-that to address commendatory remarks and friendly overtures to a horse
-or a dog is more easy and natural than to address a man. She said, “Oh,
-look, Nello, what lovely horses!” but only ventured to look up shyly
-into the friendly face of their owner, though she was not without an
-impression that he, too, was nice, and that he might give his friends a
-drive perhaps, with the lovely horses, a service which was not in the
-power of the animals themselves.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff went up to them, holding out his hand. “You are the little
-Musgraves, I suppose?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>The boy hung back, as usual, hanging by Martuccia’s skirts. “Yes,” said
-Lilias, looking at him intently, as she always did; and she added at
-once, “This is Nello,” and did her best to put her small brother in the
-foreground, though he resisted, holding back and close to his protector.</p>
-
-<p>“Is he shy, or is he frightened? He need not be frightened of me,” said
-Geoff, unconsciously conscious of the facts between them which might
-have caused the child’s timidity had he been old enough to know. “Nello
-is an odd name for a boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Because you do not know where he came from,” said Lilias quickly.
-“Nello is born in Florence. Here you will call him John. It is not so
-pretty. And me, I am born in France,” she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_106" id="page_106">{106}</a></span> continued; “but we are
-English children. That does not make any difference.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t you think so?” said simple Geoff. The little woman of twelve who
-thus fixed him with her great beautiful eyes, made him feel a boy in
-comparison with her mature childhood. She never relaxed in her watchful
-look. This was a habit Lilias had got, a habit born of helplessness, and
-of the sense of responsibility for her brother which was so strong in
-her mind. That intent, half-suspicious vigilance, as of one fully aware
-that he might mean harm, and quick to note the approach of danger,
-disconcerted Geoff, who meant nothing but good. “I know two little
-girls,” he said, trying to be conciliatory, “who would like very much to
-know you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Lilias, melting a little, but shaking her head. “I have to
-take care of Nello; but if they would come here, and would not mind
-Nello,” she added, “perhaps I might play with them. I could
-ask&mdash;Mary&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Who is&mdash;Mary?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! don’t you know? If you do not know Mary we should not talk to
-you&mdash;we only ought to talk to friends&mdash;and besides, you have no right to
-call her Mary if you do not know her,” said Lilias. She turned back to
-say this after she had gone a few steps away from him, following Nello,
-who, tired of the conversation, had gone on with his guardian to the
-Chase.</p>
-
-<p>“That is quite true, and I beg your pardon,” said Geoff; “it must be
-Miss Musgrave you mean.”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias nodded approving. She began to take an interest in this big boy.
-He was not strictly handsome, but had a bright, attractive countenance,
-and the child scarcely ever saw any male creature except Eastwood and
-Mr. Pen. “Have you come to see her?” she asked wistfully; “are you going
-to be a&mdash;friend?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Geoff with a little emotion, “if she will let me. I am
-waiting to know. And tell me your name?” he added, with a slight tremor
-in his voice, for he was young and easily touched. “I will always be a
-friend to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am Lilias,” she said shyly, giving him her hand, for which he had
-held out his. And this was how Eastwood found them when he came bustling
-out to inform my lord that Miss Musgrave<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_107" id="page_107">{107}</a></span> would see his lordship, if he
-would be good enough to step this way. Eastwood was much “struck” to see
-his lordship holding “little Miss’s” hand. It raised little Miss in the
-butler’s opinion. “If she had been a bit older, now!” he said to
-himself. Geoff was half reluctant to leave this little new acquaintance
-for the audience which he had come here expressly to ask. Mary was not
-likely to be so easily conciliated as little Lilias. And being a lord
-did not make him less shy. He waved his hand and took off his hat with a
-little sigh, as he followed Eastwood into the house; and Lilias, for her
-part, followed Nello slowly, with various thoughts in her small head.
-These it must be allowed were chiefly about the little girls who wanted
-to make friends with her&mdash;and of whom her lonely imagination made
-ecstatic pictures&mdash;and of the lovely horses who could spin her away over
-the broad country, if that big boy would let them. But Lilias did not
-think very much about the big boy himself.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff went in blushing and tremulous to Miss Musgrave’s drawing-room. It
-was not a place so suitable to Mary as her favourite hall, being dark
-and somewhat low, not worthy either of her or of Penninghame Castle. She
-was standing, waiting to receive him, and after the bow with which he
-greeted her, Geoff did not know what to say to disclose his object. His
-object itself was vague, and he had no previous knowledge of her, as his
-cousin Mary had, to warrant him in addressing her. She offered him a
-chair, and she sat down opposite him; and then there began an
-embarrassing pause which she would not, and which he did not seem able
-to, break. At last, faltering and stammering&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I came, Miss Musgrave,” he began, “to say&mdash;I came to tell you&mdash;I came
-to ask&mdash;Circumstances,” cried Geoff, impatient of his own incapacity,
-“seem to have made our families enemies. I don’t know why they should
-have done so.”</p>
-
-<p>“If the story is true, Lord Stanton, it is easy enough to see how they
-should have done so. My brother was concerned, they say, in your
-brother’s death.”</p>
-
-<p>“No one could prove that he did it, Miss Musgrave.”</p>
-
-<p>“He did not do it with intention, I am sure,” she said. “But so much is
-true. It was done, and how could we be friends after?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_108" id="page_108">{108}</a></span> We should have
-been angels&mdash;you to pardon the loss you had sustained, we to pardon the
-wrong we had done.”</p>
-
-<p>There was a gleam of agitation and pain in her eyes which might well
-have been taken for anger. The young man was discouraged.</p>
-
-<p>“May I not say anything, then?” he said, wistfully. “My cousin Mary,
-Lady Stanton, whom you know, told me&mdash;but if you are set against us too,
-what need to say anything? I had hoped indeed, that you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What did you hope about me? I should be glad of any approach. I grieved
-for your brother as if he had been mine. Oh more, I think, more! if it
-had been poor John who had died&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“It would have been better,” said the young man. “Yes, yes, Miss
-Musgrave, that is what I feel; Walter had the best of it. Your brother
-has been more than killed. But I came to say, that so far as we are
-concerned, there need not be any more misery. Let him come home, Miss
-Musgrave, let him come home! We none of us can tell now how Walter
-died.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary was moved beyond the power of words. She got up hastily and took
-his hand, and pressed it between her own.</p>
-
-<p>“Thank you, I shall always thank you!” she cried, “whether he comes home
-or not. Oh, my dear boy, who are you that come with mercy on your lips?
-You are not like the rest of us!”</p>
-
-<p>Mary was thinking of others, more near, whose wrongs were not as the
-Stantons’, but whom nothing could induce to forgive.</p>
-
-<p>“I am my mother’s son,” said Geoff, his eyes brighter than usual, with a
-smile lighting up the moisture in them. What Mary said seemed a tribute
-to his mother, and this made him glad. “She does not know, but she would
-say so. Let him come home. I heard of the children, and that your
-brother&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Miss Musgrave, “from Mary. She told you. She always took an
-interest in him. Do you know,” she added in a low voice of horror, “that
-there is a verdict against him, a coroner’s verdict of murder?”</p>
-
-<p>She shuddered at the word as she said it, and so did he.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_109" id="page_109">{109}</a></span></p><p>“But not a just one. No jury would say it was&mdash;that: not now&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Heaven knows what a jury would say. It is all half forgotten now; and
-as for the dates, and all those trifles that tell in a trial, who knows
-anything about them? Even I&mdash;could I swear to the hour my brother went
-out that morning? I could once, and did, and it is all written down. But
-I don’t seem sure of anything now, not that there ever was a Walter
-Stanton, or that I had a brother John; and I am one of the interested;
-the people who were not specially interested, do you think they would
-have better memories? Ah, no; and he fled; God help him! I don’t know
-why he did it. That was against him; though I don’t think anyone
-believes that John Musgrave did <i>that</i>, now.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure they do not, and that is why I came. Let him come home, Miss
-Musgrave. He would not have been convicted had he been tried. I have
-been reading it all up, and I have taken advice. He would be cleared.
-And if there is risk in it, we would all stand by him. I would stand by
-him,” said the young man with a generous flush of resolution, “so much
-as I am worth. I want you to tell him so. Tell him to come home.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary shook her head. How long she had been calm about this terrible
-domestic tragedy, and how it all rose upon her now! She got up, in her
-agitation, and walked about the room.</p>
-
-<p>“How could he risk it&mdash;how could he risk it&mdash;with that sentence against
-him?” she said; then after a while she came back to her seat, and looked
-at Geoff piteously with a heartrending look in her eyes. She was past
-crying, which would have relieved her. “That is not all,” she said in a
-low voice. “Alas, alas! if all was well, and he might come home when he
-pleased, it would matter less. I know nothing about him, Lord Stanton. I
-don’t know my brother any longer, nor where he is, nor how he is living
-now.”</p>
-
-<p>“But his children have just come to you!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, out of the unknown. No one knows anything about him; and suddenly
-they came out of the darkness, as I tell you. That is where he is: out
-in the world, in the dark, in the unknown&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“There are ways of penetrating the unknown,” said Geoff, cheerfully.
-“There are advertisements; everybody sees the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_110" id="page_110">{110}</a></span> <i>Times</i> nowadays. It goes
-all over the world. Wherever there is an Englishman he sees it somehow.
-Let us advertise.”</p>
-
-<p>“He would not see it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then a detective&mdash;let us send some one&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, no, no,&mdash;not that. I could not bear that. We must let him alone
-till he comes of his own accord. Let well alone,” said Mary, in her
-panic. She scarcely knew what she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Well! do you call it well, Miss Musgrave, that your brother should be
-away from his home, from everything he loves&mdash;his country lost to him,
-his position, all his friends?”</p>
-
-<p>“He has not been separated from everything he loves; he had wife and
-children; does a man care for anything else? What was this old house to
-him, and&mdash;us&mdash;in comparison? His wife is dead&mdash;that was God’s doing; and
-his children have come home&mdash;that is his own choice. I say, let well
-alone, Lord Stanton; when he wishes it he will&mdash;come&mdash;back; but not to
-those he loves,” Mary said in a low tone.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff could not fathom her meaning, it was beyond him. The accusation
-under which John Musgrave lay was bad enough. It was cowardly of him (he
-thought) to fly and leave this stigma, uncontested, upon his own name;
-but that there should be any further mystery did not seem possible to
-the young man. Perhaps there was something wrong with the family, some
-incipient insanity, monomania, eccentricity. He could not understand it.
-But at least he had shown his goodwill, if no more.</p>
-
-<p>“I must not dictate to you, Miss Musgrave,” he said; “you know best,”
-and he rose to go away, but stood hesitating, reluctant to consent to
-the failure of his generous mission. “If I can be of any use, at any
-time,” he added, blushing and faltering; “not that I can do much: but if
-you should&mdash;change your mind&mdash;if you should&mdash;think&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>She took his hand once more in both of hers.</p>
-
-<p>“I shall always think that you have the kindest and most generous heart:
-and are a friend&mdash;a true friend&mdash;to John, and everybody in trouble.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope so,” said the youth, fervently; “but that is nothing;&mdash;to you,
-Miss Musgrave, if I can ever be of any use.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_111" id="page_111">{111}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I will ask you, if it ever can be,” she said. “I will not forget.”</p>
-
-<p>He kept hold of her hands when she loosed them, and with a confused
-laugh and change of tone, asked “About the children? I met them just
-now. Might I bring my little cousins, Lady Stanton’s children, to see
-them? They want to meet.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sir Henry would not like it, though she might. Sir Henry is not like
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know; he is <i>plus royalist que le roi</i>. But the children would. And
-they don’t deny me anything,” said Geoff, with a little laugh.</p>
-
-<p>He scarcely knew why this was&mdash;but it was so; nothing was denied to him;
-he was the <i>enfant gâté</i> of Elfdale. Miss Musgrave was not, however,
-quite so complacent. She gave an assent which was cold and unwilling,
-and which quenched Geoff’s genial enthusiasm. He went back to his
-phaeton quite subdued and silent. “But I will see that little thing
-again,” he said to himself.</p>
-
-<p>In the mean time, while this conversation had been going on, Lilias had
-wandered forth alone into the Chase. Martuccia had gone before with
-Nello, while Lilias talked to the young man; and now the child followed
-dreamily, as she was in the habit of doing, her eyes abstracted, her
-whole being rapt in a separate consciousness, which surrounded her like
-an atmosphere of her own. She knew vaguely that the little brother and
-his nurse were in front of her; but the watchfulness of Lilias had
-relaxed, and she was not thinking of Nello. He was safe; here was no one
-who could interfere with him. She had taken up a branch of a tree which
-lay in her path and had caught her childish fancy, and with this she
-went on, using it like a pilgrim’s staff, and saying a kind of low
-chant, without words, to herself, to which the rough staff was made to
-keep time. What was she thinking of? everything, nothing; thought indeed
-was not necessary to the fresh soul in that subdued elation and
-speechless gladness. There was a vague sense in her mind of the brisk
-air, the sunshine, the blue sky, the floating clouds, all in one; but
-had the clouds been low upon the trees, and the air all damp instead of
-all exhilaration, it would have made little difference<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_112" id="page_112">{112}</a></span> to Lilias. Her
-spring of unconscious blessedness was within herself. Her song was not
-music nor her movements harmony in any way that could be accounted for
-by rule; and indeed the low succession of sounds which came from her
-lips unawares, and to which her little steps and the stroke of the rough
-stick kept time, was more inartificial than even the twittering of the
-birds. A small, passive, embodied happiness went roaming along the
-rough, woodland path, with soft-glowing abstracted eyes that saw
-everything, yet nothing; with a little abstracted soul, all freshness
-and gladness, that took note of everything, yet nothing; a little
-pilgrim among life’s mysteries and wonders, herself the greatest wonder
-of all, throbbing with a soft consciousness, yet knowing nothing. Thus
-she went pacing on under the bare trees, and murmured her inarticulate
-chant, and kept time to it, a poet in being, though not in thought. Not
-far off the lake splashed softly upon the stones of the beach, and that
-north country air, which is vocal as the winds of the south, sounded a
-whole mystery of tones and semi-tones, deep through the fir-trees,
-shrill through the beeches, low and soft over the copse; and the brook,
-half-hidden in the overgreenness of the grass, added its tinkle; all
-surrounding the little figure which gave the central point of conscious
-intelligence to the landscape; but were all quite unnecessary to Lilias
-marching along in her dream to her own music, a something higher than
-they, a thing full of other and deeper suggestions, the wonder of the
-world.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias woke up, however, out of this other world, all in a moment, into
-the conscious existence of a lively, brave, fancifully-timid child, when
-she found herself suddenly confronted by a stranger, who did not pass on
-as strangers usually did, making a mere momentary jar and pause in the
-visionary atmosphere, but who made a decided pause, and stopped her. A
-little thrill of fear sprang up in the child’s breast, and she would
-have hurried on, or even run away, but for the pride of honour and
-courage in her little venturesome spirit which made it impossible to
-fly. It was an old woman who stood in her path, tall but stooping,
-dressed in a large grey cloak, the hood of which covered her white thick
-muslin cap. She was a woman considerably over sixty, with handsome
-features and brilliant dark eyes, and,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_113" id="page_113">{113}</a></span> notwithstanding her stooping
-figure, full of vigour and power. She carried a basket on her arm under
-her cloak, and had a stick in her hand, and at her neck a red
-handkerchief just showed, which would have replaced the hood on her cap
-had it been less cold. Just so the fairy in the fairy-tales appears to
-the little maiden in the wood, the Cinderella by the kitchen-fire.
-Lilias was not at all sure that it was not that poetical old woman who
-looked at her with those shining eyes. She made a brief, instantaneous
-resolution to draw water for her, or pick up sticks, or do anything she
-might require.</p>
-
-<p>“Little Miss, you belong to the Castle, don’t you now? and where may you
-come from?” was what the problematical fairy said, with a something wet
-and gleaming in her eyes such as never obscures the sight of fairies.
-Lilias was overawed by the tone of eager meaning, though she did not
-understand it, in the questioning voice, yet might not have answered but
-for that feeling that it was unsafe, as much experience had proved, to
-be less than obsequiously civil to old women with wands in their hands
-who could make (if you were so naughty as to give a rude answer) toads
-and frogs drop from your mouth.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, with a little tremble in her clear, childish voice. “We
-come a very, very long way&mdash;over the mountains, and then over the sea.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you know the name of the place you came from, little Miss?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes, I know it very well, we were so often there. It was Bagni di
-Lucca. It was a very, very long way. Nello&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>But the child paused. Why introduce Nello? who was not visible, to the
-knowledge of this uncertain person? who, if she was a fairy, might be a
-wicked one, or, if she was a woman, might be unkind, for anything Lilias
-knew. She stopped short nervously, and it was evident that the old woman
-had not taken any notice of the name.</p>
-
-<p>“Little Miss, your mamma would be sorry to send you away?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was papa,” said the little girl, with wondering eyes. “Poor
-mamma;&mdash;I was quite little when&mdash;it was when Nello was a little, little
-small baby. Now we have nobody but papa.”</p>
-
-<p>The old woman staggered and almost fell, but supported herself<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_114" id="page_114">{114}</a></span> by her
-stick for a moment, while Lilias uttered a scream of terror; then sat
-down with a groan upon a fallen tree. “It’s nothing new, nothing new,”
-she said to herself; “I felt it long ago,” and covered her face with her
-hands, with once more a heavy groan. Little Lilias did not know what to
-do. She had screamed when the old woman staggered, not knowing what was
-going to happen; but what was she to do now, alone with this strange
-companion, seated there on the fallen trunk and rocking herself to and
-fro, with her face hidden in her hands. It did not occur to the child to
-associate this sudden trouble with the information she had herself
-given. What could this stranger have to do with her? And poor mamma had
-receded far into the background of Lilias’s memory, not even now an
-occasion of tears. She did not, however, need to go into this reasoning,
-but simply supposed that the poor old fairy was ill, or that something
-had happened to her, and never at all connected effect and cause. She
-stood for a little time irresolute, then, overcoming her own fears, went
-up to the sufferer and stroked her compassionately on the shoulder. “Are
-you ill, old woman?” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, call me Granny&mdash;call me Granny, my pretty dear!”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias was more puzzled than ever; but she made up her mind that she
-would do whatever was asked of her by this disguised personage, who
-might turn into&mdash;anything, in a moment. “Yes, Granny,” she said,
-trembling, and still stroking the old woman’s shoulder. “I hope you are
-not ill.”</p>
-
-<p>The answer she made to this was suddenly to clasp her arms round Lilias,
-who could scarcely suppress a cry of horror. What a strange&mdash;what a very
-strange old woman! Fortunately Lilias, brought up in a country where
-servants are friends, had no feeling of repulsion from the embrace. She
-was a little frightened, and did not understand it&mdash;that was all. The
-old woman’s breast heaved with great sobs; there could be no doubt that
-she was very deeply, strongly moved. She was “very sorry about
-something,” according to Lilias’ simple explanation. She clasped the
-child close, and kissed her with a tearful face, which left traces of
-its weeping upon the fresh cheeks. The little girl wiped them off,
-wondering. How could she tell why this was? Perhaps it was only to try
-her if she was the kind of little girl who was uncivil,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_115" id="page_115">{115}</a></span> or not; but she
-did not indeed try to account for it. It was not very pleasant, but she
-put up with it, partly in fear, partly in sympathy, partly because, as
-we have said, she had no horror of the too near approach of a poor old
-woman, as an English-bred child might have had. Poor old creature, how
-sorry she was about something! though Lilias could not imagine what it
-was.</p>
-
-<p>“God bless you, honeysweet,” said the old woman. “You’ve got her dear
-face, my jewel. It isn’t that I didn’t know it years and years ago. I
-was told it in my sleep; I read it in the clouds and on the water. Oh,
-if you think I wasn’t warned! But you’ve got her bonnie face. You’ll be
-a beauty, a darling beauty, like the rest of us. And look you here,
-little Miss, my jewel. If you see me when the gentry’s with you you’ll
-take no notice; but if you see me by myself you’ll give me a kiss and
-call me Granny. That’s fixed between us, honey, and you won’t forget?
-Call me Granny again, to give me a little comfort, my pretty dear.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Granny,” said the child, trembling. The old woman kissed her
-again, drying her tears.</p>
-
-<p>“God bless you, and God bless you!” she said. “You can’t be none the
-worse of your old Granny’s blessing. And mind, if you’re with the
-gentlefolks you’ll take no notice. Oh, my honeysweet, my darling child!”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias looked after her with wondering, disturbed eyes. What a strange
-old woman she was! How strange that she should behave so! and yet Lilias
-did not attempt to inquire why. Grown-up people in her experience did a
-great many strange things. It was of no use trying to fathom what they
-meant, and this strange old person was only a little more strange than
-the rest, and startling to the calm little being who had grown in the
-midst of family troubles and mysteries without divining any of them.
-Strangely enough, the old woman felt equally independent of any
-necessity for explanation. It seemed so clear in her mind that everybody
-must know the past and understand her claims, whatever they were. She
-had no more idea of the tranquillity of innocent ignorance in Lilias’s
-mind than the little girl had of the mysteries of her experience. Lilias
-watched her going away through the high columns of the trees with great
-wonder yet respect, and it was not till she had disappeared that the
-little girl<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_116" id="page_116">{116}</a></span> went on after Nello. Nello would have been frightened by
-that curious apparition. He would have cried perhaps, and struggled, and
-would not have said Granny. Perhaps he would have angered her. What a
-good thing that Nello had not been here!</p>
-
-<h2><a name="PART_IV" id="PART_IV"></a>PART IV.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XIII" id="CHAPTER_XIII"></a>CHAPTER XIII.<br /><br />
-<small>FAMILY CARES.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Lilias</span> did not say much about the adventure in the wood, nothing at all
-indeed to Mary or any one in authority; nor did it dwell in her mind as
-a thing of much importance. The kind of things that strike a child’s
-mind as wonderful are not always those which would most impress an older
-person. There were many things at Penninghame very curious and strange
-to the little girl. The big chimneys of the old house, for instance, the
-sun-dial in the old garden, and on a lower level the way in which Cook’s
-cap kept on, which seemed to Lilias miraculous, no means of securing it
-being visible. She pondered much on these things, trying to arrive at
-feasible theories in respect to them, but there was no theory required
-about the other very natural incident. That an old woman should meet her
-in the woods, and kiss her, and ask to be called granny, and cry over
-her,&mdash;there was nothing wonderful in that; and indeed if, as she already
-suspected, it was no old woman at all, but a fairy, such as those in the
-story-books, who would probably appear again and set her tasks to do,
-much more difficult than calling her granny, and end by transforming
-herself into a beautiful lady&mdash;this would still remain quite
-comprehensible, not by any means unparalleled in the experience of one
-who had already mastered a great deal of literature treating of such
-subjects. She was interested but not surprised, for was it not always to
-a child or children by them<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_117" id="page_117">{117}</a></span>selves in a wood that fairies did speak? She
-told Nello about the meeting, who was not surprised any more than she
-was; for though he was not very fond of reading himself, he had shared
-all his sister’s, having had true histories of fairies read to him
-almost ever since he could recollect anything. He made some cynical
-remarks prompted by his manhood, but it was like much manly cynicism,
-only from the lips, no deeper. “I thought fairies were all dead,” he
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Nello; when you know they are spirits and never die! they are
-hundreds and hundreds of years older than we are, but they never die;
-and it is always children that see them. I thought she would tell us to
-do something&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I would not do something,” said Nello; “I would say, ‘Old woman, do it
-yourself.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>“And do you know what would happen then?” said Lilias, severely;
-“whenever you opened your mouth, a toad or a frog would drop out of it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I should not mind; how funny it would be! how the people would be
-surprised.”</p>
-
-<p>“They would be frightened&mdash;fancy! every word you said; till all round
-there would be things creeping and creeping and crawling all over you;
-slimy cold things that would make people shiver and shriek. Oh!” said
-Lilias recoiling and putting up her hands, as if to put him away; “the
-frogs! squatting and jumping all over the floor.”</p>
-
-<p>At this lively realization of his problematical punishment, Nello
-himself grew pale, and nervously looked about him. “I would kill her!”
-he cried, furiously; “what right would she have to do that to me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Because you did not obey her, Nello.”</p>
-
-<p>“And why should I obey her?” cried the boy; “she is not papa, or
-Martuccia&mdash;or Mary.”</p>
-
-<p>“But we must always do what the fairies tell us,” said Lilias, “not
-perhaps because they have a right&mdash;for certainly it is different with
-papa&mdash;but because they would hurt us if we didn’t; and then if you are
-good and pick up the sticks, or draw the water from the well, then she
-gives you such beautiful presents. Oh! I will do whatever she tells
-<i>me</i>.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_118" id="page_118">{118}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“What kind of presents, Lily? I want a little horse to ride&mdash;there are a
-great many things that I want. Do fairies give you what you want, or
-only what they like?”</p>
-
-<p>This was a puzzling question; and on the spur of the moment Lilias did
-not feel able to answer such a difficulty. “If you do it for the
-presents, not because they ask you, they will not give you anything,”
-she said; “that would be all wrong if you did it for the presents.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you said&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Nello; you are too little, you don’t understand,” cried the elder
-sister, like many another perplexed authority; “when you are older you
-will know what I mean. I can tell you things, but I can’t make you
-understand?”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it he cannot understand?” said Mary, coming suddenly upon their
-confidential talk. The two children came apart hastily, and Lilias, who
-had two red spots of excitement on her cheeks, looked up startled, with
-lips apart. Nello laughed with a sense of mischief. He was fond of his
-sister, but to get her into trouble had a certain flavour of fun in it,
-not disagreeable to him.</p>
-
-<p>“It is about the fairies,” he cried, volubly. “She says you should do
-what they tell you. She says they give you beautiful presents. She says,
-she&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, about the fairies!” said Mary, calmly, with a smile, going on
-without any more notice. Lilias was very angry with her brother, but
-what was the use? And she was frightened lest she should be made to look
-ridiculous, a danger which is always present to the sensitive mind of a
-child. “I will never, never talk to you again,” she said to him under
-her breath; but knew she would talk to him again as soon as her mind
-wanted disburdening, and was not afraid.</p>
-
-<p>And of how many active thoughts, and wonderful musings, and lively
-continued motion of two small minds and bodies, the old hall was witness
-in those quiet days! Mary coming and going, and the solid figure of
-Martuccia in the sunshine, these two older and more important persons
-were as shadows in comparison with that ceaseless flow of existence. The
-amount of living in the whole house beside, was not half equal to that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_119" id="page_119">{119}</a></span>
-which went on in the motherly calm of the old hall, which held these two
-small things like specks in its tranquil embrace, where so much had come
-to pass. There was always something going on there. Such lively
-counterfeitings of the older life, such deeply-laid plans, dispersed in
-a moment by sudden changes of purpose, such profound gravity upset by
-the merest chance interruption, such perpetual busyness without thought
-of rest. Their days went on thus without hindrance or interruption,
-nothing being required of them except to be amused and healthy, and
-competent to occupy and please themselves. Had they been dull children,
-or subject to the precocious <i>ennui</i> which is sometimes to be seen even
-in a nursery, no doubt measures would have been taken to bring about a
-better state of affairs; but as they were always busy, always gay, they
-were left completely to their own devices, protected, sheltered, and
-ignored, enjoying the freedom of a much earlier age, a freedom from all
-teaching and interference, such as seldom overpasses the first five
-years of human life. Mary had her whole <i>métier</i> to learn in respect to
-the children, and there were many agitating circumstances which
-pre-occupied her mind and kept her from realizing the more simple
-necessities of the matter. It had cost her so much to establish them
-there, and the tacit victory over fate, unnatural prejudice, and all the
-bondage of family troubles, had been so great, that the trembling
-satisfaction of having gained it blunted her perceptions of further
-necessity. It was from a humble quarter that enlightenment first came to
-her. Her teacher was Miss Brown, her maid, who had early melted to the
-children, and who by this time was their devoted vassal, and especially
-the admiring slave of Nello, whom, with determined English propriety,
-she called Master John. Miss Brown’s affection was not unalloyed by
-other sentiments. Her love for the children indeed was intensified by
-strenuous disapproval of their other guardians&mdash;Martuccia with her
-foreign fashions, and Miss Musgrave, who was ignorant as a baby herself,
-and knew nothing about “children’s ways.” Between these two incapable
-persons her life became a burden to Miss Brown. “I can’t get my night’s
-rest for thinking of it,” she said to Cook, who like herself had the
-interest of many years’ service in the “the family.” “I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_120" id="page_120">{120}</a></span> would up and
-speak,” said Cook. “Speak!” cried Miss Brown, “I’m always speaking; but
-what can a body do, when folks won’t understand?” It is the lament of
-the superior intelligence over all the world. However, Miss Brown
-finally made up her mind to speak, and did so, pointing out that Master
-John was eight, though he looked no more than six, and that “schooling”
-was indispensable. The suggestion when once made could not be disputed,
-and it raised a great perturbation in Mary’s breast. She sent away the
-maid with some haste and impatience, but she could not send away the
-thought.</p>
-
-<p>And the more Mary thought upon this matter, the more serious it grew;
-she brooded over it till her head ached; and she was glad beyond measure
-to see Mr. Pennithorne coming slowly along the road. She could see him
-almost from the moment his spare figure turned the corner from the
-village; the outline and movement of him was so familiar to her, as he
-grew upon the quiet distance drawing nearer and nearer. It was seldom
-that she anticipated his approach with so much satisfaction. Not that
-Mr. Pennithorne, good man, was likely to invent an outlet out of a
-difficulty, but he was the only person to whom she could talk with
-absolute freedom upon this subject, and to put it forth in audible
-words, and set it thus in order to her own ear and mind, was always an
-advantage. How like Mr. Pen it was to come on so quietly step after
-step, while she was waiting impatient for him! not a step quicker than
-usual, no swing of more rapid motion in the droop of his long coat. Why
-should he quicken his steps? She laughed to herself at her own childish
-impatience. Ought he not to have divined that she wanted him urgently
-after all these years? Mary had gone into the hall, the children being
-absent on their daily walk. They were so much in her thoughts that she
-was glad to get them out of her sight for the moment and thus relieve
-the air which rustled and whispered with them. She went out to meet the
-slowly approaching counsellor. It was summer by this time, and all was
-green and fair, if still somewhat cold in its greenness to a southern
-eye. The sunshine was blazing over the lake, just approaching noon, and
-the sky was keenly blue, so clear that the pleasure of it was almost a
-pain, where the green shoulder of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_121" id="page_121">{121}</a></span> hill stood against it in high
-relief. It was seldom that Mary was at leisure so early, and very seldom
-that in the morning when both were busy she should have a visit from Mr.
-Pen. As she made a few steps down the slope that led from the hall door,
-to meet him, the sunshine caught her full, streaming from behind the
-corner of the house. It caught in her hair, and shone in it, showing its
-unimpaired gloss and brightness. Mr. Pennithorne was dazzled by it as he
-came up, and asked himself if she was superior to time as to most things
-else, and, after all those years, was young as well as lovely still?</p>
-
-<p>“I am very glad to see you,” she said, holding out her hand. “I just
-wanted you; it is some good fairy that has sent you so early to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>His face brightened up with an answering gleam; or was it only the sun
-that had got hold of him too, and woke reflections in his middle-aged
-eyes? “I am very happy to have come when you wanted me,” he said, his
-eyelids growing moist with pleasure. He went in to the hall, where all
-was comparative dusk after that brilliant shining of the noon, and sat
-down on the stool which was Martuccia’s usual place. “Whatever you want,
-Miss Mary, here I am,” her faithful servant said.</p>
-
-<p>Then she unfolded to him her difficulty: “Their education!” what was she
-to do? what could be done? Mr. Pen sat by her very sympathetically and
-heard everything. He was not very clever about advising, seeing that it
-was generally from her that he took advice, instead of giving it. But he
-listened, and did not see his way out of it, which of itself was a
-comfort to Mary. If he had been clever, and had struck out a new idea at
-once, it is doubtful whether she would have liked it half so well. She
-went into the whole question, and eased her mind at least. What was she
-to do? Mr. Pen shook his head. He was quite ready to take Nello, and
-teach him all he remembered, after a life spent in rural forgetfulness,
-of Latin and Greek; but Lilias! and Lilias was the most urgent as being
-the eldest. There was no school within reach, and a governess, as Mr.
-Pen suggested with a little trembling&mdash;a governess! where could Mary put
-her,&mdash;what could she do with her? It seemed hopeless to think of that.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_122" id="page_122">{122}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know what you will think of what I am going to say&mdash;but there
-is Randolph, Miss Mary; he is a family man himself. I suppose&mdash;of
-course&mdash;he knows about the children?”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph!” said Mary, faltering; “Mr. Pen, you know what Randolph is as
-well as I do.”</p>
-
-<p>“People change,” said Mr. Pen, evasively. “It is not for me to say
-anything; but perhaps&mdash;he ought to know.”</p>
-
-<p>“He has never taken any interest in the house; he has never cared to
-be&mdash;one of us,” said Mary. “Perhaps because he was brought up away from
-us. You know all about it. When he came back&mdash;when he was with you and
-poor John&mdash;&mdash; You know him as well as I do,” she concluded abruptly. “I
-don’t see what help we could have from him.”</p>
-
-<p>“He is a family man himself,” said the vicar. “When children come they
-bring new feelings; they open the heart. He was not like you&mdash;or poor
-John; but he was like a great many people in this world; he would not be
-unkind. You write to him sometimes?”</p>
-
-<p>“Once or twice a year. He writes to ask how my father is&mdash;I often wonder
-why. He has only been here once since&mdash;since it all happened. He would
-not have it known that he was one of the family which was so much talked
-about&mdash;that he was the brother of&mdash;&mdash; ” Mary stopped with a flash of
-indignation in her eyes. “He has separated himself altogether from us,
-as you know; but he asks from time to time how my father is, though I
-scarcely know why.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you have told him, I suppose, about the children?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, Mr. Pen; he turned his back upon poor John from the beginning. Why
-should I tell him? what has he to do with it? We have left our subject
-altogether talking of Randolph, who is quite apart from it. Let us go
-back to our sheep&mdash;our lambs in this case. What is to be done with
-them?”</p>
-
-<p>“I will do what I can for them, as I did for their father,” said the
-vicar. “I was thinking that little Johnny must very soon&mdash;and Mary might
-as well&mdash;They can come to me for an hour or two every day; that would be
-something. But I think Randolph should be told. I think Randolph ought
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_123" id="page_123">{123}</a></span>to know. He might be thinking, he might be calculating&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What, Mr. Pen?” Mary confronted him with head erect and flashing eyes.
-“Why should he think or calculate about us? He has separated himself
-from the family. John’s children are nothing to him.”</p>
-
-<p>It was not often that Mr. Pen was worldly wise; but he had an
-inspiration this time. He shook his head slowly. “It is just that;
-John’s children might make all the difference to him,” he said.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XIV" id="CHAPTER_XIV"></a>CHAPTER XIV.<br /><br />
-<small>AN UNLOOKED-FOR VISITOR.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Pennithorne</span> went home thoughtful, and Miss Musgrave remained behind,
-if not exactly turned in a new direction, yet confused and excited in
-her mental being by the introduction of a new element. Randolph
-Musgrave, though her brother, was less known to Mary than he was to the
-tutor who had travelled and lived with him in the interval during which
-he had made his nearest approach to friendship with his own family. He
-had been brought up by an uncle on the mother’s side who did not love
-the Musgraves, and had succeeded to the family living belonging to that
-race, and lived now, as he had been brought up, in an atmosphere quite
-different from that which belonged to his nominal home in the north.
-Except now and then, in a holiday visit, Randolph had scarcely spent any
-portion of his life at Penninghame, except the short period just before,
-and for a little time after, his university career, when he shared with
-his brother John the special instructions of Mr. Pennithorne. The two
-young men had worked together then, or made believe to work, and they
-had travelled together; but being of very different dispositions, and
-brought up in ways curiously unlike, they had not been made into cordial
-friends by this period of semi-artificial union. Randolph had been
-trained to entertain but a small opinion of everything at Penninghame,
-and when Penninghame became public property, and John and all his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_124" id="page_124">{124}</a></span>
-affairs and peculiarities were discussed in the newspapers, the younger
-son did something very like the Scriptural injunction&mdash;shaking the dust
-from off his feet as he departed. He went away after some painful scenes
-with his father. It was not the old Squire’s fault that his eldest son
-had become in the eyes of the world a criminal; but Randolph was as
-bitter at the ignominy brought upon his name as if it had been a family
-contrivance to annoy and distress him, and had gone away vowing that
-never again would he have anything to do with his paternal home. There
-had been a long gap in their relations after that, but at his marriage
-there had been a kind of reconciliation, enough to give a decorous
-aspect to his relations with his “people.” He had brought his bride to
-his father’s house, and since then he had written, as Mary said, now and
-then, once or twice in the year, to inquire after his father’s health.
-This was not much, but it saved appearances, and prevented the open
-scandal of a family quarrel. But Mary, who replied punctiliously to
-these questions, did not see the need of making a further intimation to
-him of anything that affected the family. What had he to do with John’s
-children? She would no more have thought of informing him of any private
-event in her own history, or of looking to him for sympathy, than she
-would have stopped a beggar on the road to communicate her good or evil
-fortune. But the very name of Randolph suggested new complications. She
-was glad to escape from the whole matter and listen to the account of
-the lessons when Lilias and Nello came back from one of their earliest
-experiences of the instruction given by Mr. Pennithorne. The children
-came in breathless with the story they had to tell. “Then he made me
-read out of all the books,” said Lilias, her dark eyes shining; “but
-Nello, because he was so little, one book was enough for him.”</p>
-
-<p>“But it was not a girl’s book,” said Nello; “it was only for Johnnie and
-me.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I looked in it,” said his sister; “it is all mixed with
-Italian&mdash;such funny Italian: instead of <i>padre</i> it was put <i>payter</i>&mdash;Mr.
-Pen called it so. But it would not do for Nello, when we go back, to say
-his Italian like that. Even Martuccia would laugh, and Martuccia is not
-educated.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_125" id="page_125">{125}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“It was Latin,” said Nello; “Mr. Pen said so. He said girls didn’t want
-Latin. Girls learn to dance and sing; but I&mdash;and Johnnie&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Will Mr. Pen teach me to dance&mdash;and sing, Mary?” said Lilias, with a
-grave face.</p>
-
-<p>“And me, I wrote a copy,” said Nello, indifferent to the interruption;
-“look!” and he held up fingers covered with ink. “You cannot read it
-yet, but you will soon be able to read it, Mr. Pen says. And then I will
-write you a letter, Mary.”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be better to write letters to some one far off,” said Lilias,
-half scornful of his want of information. “You can <i>talk</i> to Mary,
-Nello. It is to far-off people that one makes letters.”</p>
-
-<p>“We have nobody that is far off,” said Nello, shaking his head with the
-sudden consciousness of a want not hitherto realized. “Then I need not
-write copies any more.”</p>
-
-<p>“Your father is far off, Nello,” said Mary; “your poor papa, who never
-hears any news of you. Some time I hope you will be able to write to
-him, and ask him to come home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” cried Lilias, “you need not be sorry about that, Mary. He will
-come home. Some day, in a moment when you are thinking of nothing, there
-will be a step on the stair, and Martuccia will give a shriek; and it
-will be as if the sun came shining out, and it will be papa! He is
-always like that&mdash;but you never know when he will come.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary’s eyes filled in spite of herself. What long, long years it was
-that she had thought but little of John! and yet there suddenly seemed
-to come before her a vision of his arrival from school or from college,
-all smiles and, making the old roof ring with his shout of pleasure. Was
-it possible that this would happen over again&mdash;that he would come in a
-moment, as his little daughter said? But Lilias did not know all the
-difficulties, nor the one great obstacle that stood in John’s way, and
-which perhaps he might never get over. She forgot herself in these
-thoughts, and did not perceive that Lilias was gazing wistfully at her,
-endeavouring with all her childish might to penetrate her mind and know
-the occasion of these tears. Mary was recalled to herself by feeling the
-child’s arm steal round her, and the soft touch of a little hand and
-handkerchief upon her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_126" id="page_126">{126}</a></span> wet eyes. “You are crying,” said Lilias. “Mary,
-is it for papa?&mdash;why should you cry for papa?”</p>
-
-<p>“My darling, we don’t know where he is, nor anything about him&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That does not matter,” said Lilias, winking rapidly to throw off the
-sympathetic tears which had gathered in her own eyes; “he is always like
-that. We never knew where he was; but just when he could, just when it
-was possible, he came home. We never could tell when it would be&mdash;it
-might be any day. Some time when we are forgetting and not expecting
-him. Ah&mdash;&mdash;!” cried the child, with a ring of wonder in the sudden
-exclamation. The hall-door was open as usual, and on the road was a
-distant figure just visible which drew from Lilias this sudden cry. She
-ran to the door, clutching her brother&mdash;“Come, Nello, Nello!” and rushed
-forth. Mary sat still, thinking her heart had stopped in her breast&mdash;or
-was it not rather suffocating her by the wildness of its beating? She
-sat immovable, watching the little pair at the door. Could it be that
-John had come home? John! he who would be the most welcome yet the most
-impossible of visitors; he who had a right to everything, yet dared not
-be seen in the old house. She sat and trembled, not daring to look out,
-already planning what she could do, what was to be done.</p>
-
-<p>But the children stopped short at the door. Lilias, with the wind in her
-skirts and her ribbons, half-flying, stopped; and Nello stopped, who
-went by her impulse, not by his own. They paused: they stood for a
-moment gazing; then they turned back sadly.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, no!” said Lilias. “No, Mary! no. It is a little, something
-like&mdash;a very little; it is the walking, and the shape of him. But no,
-no, it is not papa!”</p>
-
-<p>“Papa!” said Nello, “was that why you looked? I knew better. Papa is all
-that much more tall. Why are you crying, Lily? There is nothing that
-makes cry.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am disappointed,” said the little girl, who had seated herself
-suddenly on the floor and wept. It was a sudden sharp shower, but it was
-soon over; she sprang up drying her eyes. “But it will be for
-to-morrow!” she cried.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_127" id="page_127">{127}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mary sat behind and looked on. She did not think again of the chance
-resemblance Lilias had seen, but only of the children themselves, with
-whom her heart was tuning itself more and more in sympathy. She had
-become a mother late and suddenly, without any gradual growth of
-feeling&mdash;leaping into it, as it were; and every response her mind made
-to the children was a new wonder to her. She looked at them, or rather
-at Lilias, who was always the leader in her rapid changes of sentiment,
-with a half-amused adoration. The crying and the smiles went to her
-heart as nothing else had ever done; and even Nello’s calm, the steadier
-going of the slower, less developed intelligence, which was so often
-carried along in the rush without any conscious intention, and which was
-so ready to take the part of the wise and say, “I knew it,” moved Mary
-with that mixture of pleased spectatorship and profound personal feeling
-which makes the enthusiasm of parents. Nello’s slowness might have
-seemed want of feeling in another child, and Lilias’s impetuosity a
-giddy haste and heedlessness; but all impartiality was driven from her
-mind by the sense that the children were her own. And she sat in a
-pleased abstraction yet lively readiness, following the little current
-of this swiftly-flowing, softly-babbling childhood which was so fair and
-pleasant to her eyes. The two set up an argument between themselves as
-she sat looking on. It was about some minute point in the day’s work
-which was so novel and unaccustomed; but trivial as it was Mary listened
-with a soft glow of light in her eyes. The finest drama in the world
-could not have taken her out of herself like the two little actors,
-playing their sincerest and most real copy of life before her. They were
-so much in earnest, and to her it was such exquisite play and delicate
-delightful fooling! And until the light in the open doorway was suddenly
-darkened by some one appearing, a figure which made her heart jump, she
-thought no more of the passer-by on the road who had roused the
-children. Her heart jumped, and then she followed her heart by rising
-suddenly to her feet, while the children stopped in their argument,
-rushed together for mutual support, and stood shyly with their heads
-together, the arrested talk still hovering about their lips. Seen thus
-against the light the visitor was undecipherable to Mary.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_128" id="page_128">{128}</a></span> She saw him,
-nothing but a black shadow, towards which she went quietly and said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I beg your pardon, this is a private door,” with a polite defence of
-her own sanctuary.</p>
-
-<p>“I came to look for&mdash;my sister,” said the voice, which was one which
-woke agitating memories in her. “I am a&mdash;stranger. I came&mdash;&mdash; Ah! it is
-Mary after all.”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph!” she cried, with a gasp in her throat.</p>
-
-<p>A thrill of terror, almost superstitious, came over her. What did it all
-mean? Good Mr. Pennithorne in his innocence had spoken to her of John,
-and that very day John’s children had arrived; he had spoken of
-Randolph, and Randolph was here. Was it fate, or some mysterious
-influence unknown? She was so startled that she forgot to go through the
-ordinary formulas of seeming welcome, and said nothing but his name.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; I hope you are well,” he said, holding out his hand; “and that my
-father is well. I thought I would come and see how you were all getting
-on.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a long time since you have been here,” she said. What could she
-say? She was not glad to see him, as a sister ought to be. And then
-there was a pause.</p>
-
-<p>The children stood staring open-mouthed while these chill greetings were
-said. (“I wonder who it is?” said Lilias, under her breath. “It is the
-one who is a little, a very little, like papa.” “It is a&mdash;gentleman,”
-said Nello. “Oh you silly, silly little boy! not to know that at the
-very first; but Mary is not very glad to see him,” said the little
-girl.)</p>
-
-<p>Mary did not even ask her visitor to come in; he stood still at the
-door, looking round him with watchful, unfriendly eyes. This was not a
-place for any one to come who was not tender of Mary, and of whomsoever
-she might shelter there. She did not want him in that special place.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall we go round to the house?” she said; “my father ought to know
-that you are here, and he never comes into the hall.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am very well where I am,” Randolph said. “I know it was always a
-favourite place with you. Do not change your sitting-room for me. You
-have it in very nice order, Mary. I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_129" id="page_129">{129}</a></span> see you share the popular passion
-for art furnishing; and children too! This is something more novel
-still. Who are the children, may I ask? They are visitors from the
-neighbourhood I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said, faltering still more, “they are not
-visitors&mdash;they&mdash;belong to us&mdash;&mdash; ” Mary could not tell how it was that
-her lips trembled, and she hesitated to pronounce the name. She made an
-effort at last and got it out with difficulty. “They are&mdash;John’s
-children.”</p>
-
-<p>“John’s children! here is a wonderful piece of news,” said Randolph; but
-she saw by his countenance that it was no news. Howsoever he had heard
-it, Mary perceived in a moment not only that he knew, but that this was
-his real errand here. He stood with the appropriate gesture of one
-struck dumb in amazement; but he was not really surprised, only watchful
-and eager. This made his sister more nervous than ever.</p>
-
-<p>“Children,” she said, “come here&mdash;this is your uncle Randolph; come and
-speak to him.” Mary was so much perplexed that she could not see what
-was best to do&mdash;whether to be anxiously conciliatory and convince
-Randolph in spite of himself, without seeming to notice his opposition,
-or to defy him; the former, however, was always the safest way. He did
-not make any advance, but stood with a half-smile on his face, while the
-children drew near with suspicious looks.</p>
-
-<p>“It is the&mdash;gentleman who is&mdash;a little&mdash;not very much, just a little,
-like papa,” said Lilias, going forward, but slowly, and with that look
-of standing on the defensive which children unconsciously adopt to those
-they do not trust.</p>
-
-<p>Nello hung on to her skirts, and did as she did, regarding the stranger
-with cloudy eyes. Randolph put out his hand coldly to be shaken; his
-smile broadened into a half-laugh of amusement and contempt.</p>
-
-<p>“So they are said to be his children, are they?”</p>
-
-<p>“They <i>are</i> his children,” said Mary.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph shrugged his shoulders and laughed. “They look like foreigners
-anyhow,” he said. “My father, I suppose, is delighted. It must be a new
-experience both for him and you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Go away, my darlings, go to Martuccia; you see I have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_130" id="page_130">{130}</a></span> some business
-with&mdash;this gentleman.” She could not again repeat the title she had
-given him. When the curious little spectators had gone, she turned to
-Randolph, who stood watching their exit, with an anxiety she did not
-attempt to conceal. “For Heaven’s sake do not talk to my father about
-them! I ask it as a favour. He consents tacitly that they should be
-here, but he takes no notice of them. Do not call his attention to them.
-It is the only thing I ask of you.”</p>
-
-<p>He looked at her fixedly still, with that set smile on his face with
-which he had looked at the children.</p>
-
-<p>“I am scarcely the person to be called upon to make things smooth with
-my father,” he said. “Come, come; my father is old, and can be made to
-believe anything, let us allow. But what do you mean by it, Mary, what
-do <i>you</i> mean? You were never any friend to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Friend to <i>you</i>! I am your sister, Randolph, though you don’t seem to
-remember it much. And what have you to do with it?” asked Mary, with a
-certain amount of exasperation in her voice; for of all offensive things
-in the world there is none so offensive as this pretence of finding you
-out in a transparent deception. Mary grew red and hot in spite of
-herself.</p>
-
-<p>“I have a great deal to do with it. I have not only my own interests to
-take care of, but my boy’s. And why you should prefer to us, about whom
-there can be no doubt, these little impostors, these supposed children
-of John&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph,” said Mary, with tears in her eyes, “there is no supposing
-about them. Oh don’t go against us and against truth and justice! They
-brought me a letter from their father. There was no room to doubt, no
-possibility. John himself is most unfortunate&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Unfortunate! that is not the word I should use.”</p>
-
-<p>“But why remember it against <i>them</i>, poor little things, who have done
-no harm? Oh, Randolph, I have never been otherwise than your friend when
-I had the chance. Be mine now! There are a hundred things about which I
-want to consult you. You have a family of your own; you have been
-trained to it; you know how to take care of children. I wanted to ask
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_131" id="page_131">{131}</a></span>your advice, to have your help&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think me a fool then,” he cried, “as silly as yourself? that you
-try to get <i>me</i> to acknowledge this precious deception, and give you my
-support against myself? Why should I back you up in a wicked contrivance
-against my own interests?”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it you mean? Who has been guilty of wicked contrivances?” cried
-Mary, aghast. She gazed at him with such genuine surprise that he was
-arrested in his angry vituperation, and changed his tone to one of
-mockery, which affected her more.</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” he said, “let us allow that it is your first attempt, Mary, and
-that is why you do it so clumsily. The mistakes good people make when
-they first attempt to do badly are touching. Villany, like everything
-else, requires experience. But it is too funny to expect <i>me</i> to be the
-one to stand up for you, to persuade my father to believe you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” she said, clasping her hands, “do you think this is what I ask? It
-is you who mistake, Randolph. It has never occurred to my father, or any
-one else, not to believe. He never doubted any more than I was capable
-of doubting. I will show you John’s letter.”</p>
-
-<p>Randolph put up his hand, waving off the suggested proof.</p>
-
-<p>“It is quite unnecessary. I am not to be taken in by such simple means.
-You forget I have a stake in it&mdash;which clears the judgment. And I warn
-you, Mary, that I am here to look after my personal interests, not to
-foist any nondescript brat into the family. I give you notice&mdash;it is not
-to help your schemes, it is for my own interests I am here.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do interests mean?” she said wondering. “Your own interests!&mdash;what
-does <i>that</i> mean? I know <i>I</i> have none.”</p>
-
-<p>“No&mdash;it cannot make much difference to you whatever happens; therefore
-you are free to plot at your leisure. I understand that fully; but, my
-dear, <i>I</i> am here to look after myself&mdash;and my boy. You forget I have an
-heir of my own.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary looked at him with a dulness of intelligence quite unusual to her.
-There are things in the most limited minds which genius itself could not
-divine. The honourable and generous, and the selfish and grasping, do
-not know what each<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_132" id="page_132">{132}</a></span> other mean. They are as if they spoke a different
-language. And her brother was to Mary as if he veiled his meaning in an
-unknown tongue. She gazed at him with a haze of dulness in her eyes.
-What was it he intended to let her know? Disbelief of her, a suggestion
-that she lied! and something more&mdash;she could not make out what, as the
-rule of his own conduct! He looked at her, on the other hand, with an
-air of penetration, a clever consciousness of seeing through and through
-her and her designs, which excited Mary to exasperation. How could they
-ever understand each other with all this between?</p>
-
-<p>“I am going to see my father,” said Randolph; “that of course is the
-object of my visit; I suppose he will not refuse to keep me for a day or
-two. And in the mean time why should we quarrel? I only warn you that I
-come with my eyes open, and am not to be made a dupe of. Good-bye for
-the present&mdash;we shall meet no doubt at dinner the best of friends.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary stood still where he left her, and watched him as he went slowly
-down the slope and round the corner of the house. He was shorter than
-John and stouter, with that amplitude of outline which a wealthy rural
-living and a small parish are apt to confer. A comfortable man, fond of
-good living, fond of his ease; yet taking the trouble to come here, for
-what?&mdash;to baffle some supposed wicked contrivances and plots against
-himself. Mary remembered that Randolph had taken the great family
-misfortune as a special wrong to him. How dared the evil fates to
-interfere with his comfort or rumour to assail his name? He had said
-frankly that it could be nothing to the others in comparison. And was it
-once more the idea that he himself was touched, which had roused him out
-of his comfortable rectory to come here and assert himself? But how did
-the arrival of John’s children affect that? Mary, in her long calm, had
-not entered into those speculations about the future which most people
-more or less think necessary when the head of the house is old. She had
-not asked herself what would happen when her father died, except vaguely
-in respect to herself, knowing that she would then in all likelihood
-leave the old Castle. John was the heir. Somehow or other, she did not
-know how, the inheritance would be taken up for him. This had been the
-conclusion in her mind<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_133" id="page_133">{133}</a></span> without reason given or required. And Randolph
-had not come into the sphere of her imagination at all as having
-anything to do with it. What should he have to do with it when there was
-John? And even now Mary did not know and could not understand the reason
-of his objection to John’s children. She stood and looked after him with
-a dull beating of pain in her heart. And as he turned round the corner
-of the old house towards the door, he looked back and waved his hand.
-The gesture and look, she could scarcely tell why, gave her a sensation
-of sickening dismay and pain. She turned and went in, shutting the door
-in the sudden pang this gave her. And to shut the great door of the hall
-was the strangest thing, except in the very heart of winter. While the
-sun was shining and the air genial, such a thing had never happened
-before. It seemed in itself a portent of harm.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XV" id="CHAPTER_XV"></a>CHAPTER XV.<br /><br />
-<small>RANDOLPH.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Randolph Musgrave</span> was a squire-parson, a class which possesses the
-features of two species without fully embodying either&mdash;which may be
-finer than either, the two halves of the joint character tempering each
-other&mdash;or may be a travesty of both, exaggerating their mutual defects.
-He was of the latter rather than of the former development. His living
-was small in one sense and large in another, the income being large, but
-the people few and very much given up to dissent, a fact which soured
-his character without moving him to exertion. He was not fond of
-exertion in any case, and it was all but hopeless in this. But not less
-was he daily and hourly irritated by the little Bethels and Salems, the
-lively Methodists, the pragmatical Baptists, who led his people away.
-They made him angry, for he was easily moved to anger, and they
-increased that tendency to listen to gossip and be moved by small
-matters which is one<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_134" id="page_134">{134}</a></span> of the temptations of a rural life. He had become
-accustomed to make much of petty wrongs, calling them insults and
-crimes, and perhaps to be more disposed to petty vengeances than a man
-who is placed in the position of an example to others ought to be; and
-whereas he had always been disposed to consider himself a sacred person,
-above the ordinary slights of fortune, this tendency had grown and
-strengthened so, that every petty pin-prick was like a poisoned arrow to
-him. By natural laws of reverberation he heard more evil of himself, had
-more mishaps in the way of gossip, of receiving letters not intended for
-him, and otherwise surprising the sentiments of his neighbours, than
-almost any one else ever had&mdash;which had made him suspicious of his
-neighbours in the highest degree, and ready to believe every small
-offence a premeditated insult. This perhaps made him all the more ready
-to believe that his sister had conceived a villanous plan against him
-and his. He would not have done such a thing himself; but was not his
-life full of such attempts made upon him by others? everybody almost
-whom he encountered having one time or other conspired against his hopes
-or happiness. But he had always found out the plots in time. It was true
-that this villany might be John’s, of whom he would have believed
-anything; and Mary herself might be the dupe: but most likely it was
-Mary, who did not like him nor his wife, and who would no doubt be
-capable of anything to banish him finally from Penninghame, and set up
-there some creature of her own. This was the idea which had come into
-his mind, when he heard accidentally of the arrival which had made so
-much commotion in the north country. He had talked it over with his wife
-till they both saw gunpowder plots and conspiracies incalculable in it.
-“You had better go and see into it yourself,” Mrs. Randolph said. “I
-will,” was the Rector’s energetic reply. “And believe nobody, believe
-nothing but what you see with your own eyes.” “Never! I will put faith
-in nobody,” Randolph had said. And it was in this frame of mind that he
-had come here. He meant to believe nobody save when they warned him of
-plots against himself: to trust nothing save that all the world was in a
-league to work him harm. But for this determined pre-conclusion, he
-might perhaps have been less certain of his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_135" id="page_135">{135}</a></span> sister’s enmity to himself,
-and of the baseness of the deception she was practising; but he had no
-doubt whatever on this matter now. And he meant to expose her
-remorselessly. Why should he mince matters? His father was an old man
-and might die at any moment, and this villany ought to be exposed at
-once.</p>
-
-<p>With these thoughts in his mind he went round to the great door. How
-different was the grey north-country house from anything he was used to!
-The thought of his snug parsonage embosomed in greenery, roses climbing
-to the chimney-stacks, clustering about all the windows, soft velvet
-lawns and strict inclosures keeping all sacred&mdash;made him shiver at sight
-of the irregular building, the masses of ivy fostering damp, the open
-approach, a common road free to everybody. If it ever was his, or rather
-when it was his&mdash;for these supposititious children would soon be done
-away with, and John, a man under the ban of the law, how could he ever
-appear to claim his inheritance?&mdash;<i>when</i> it was his, he would soon make
-a difference. He would bring forward the boundaries of the Chase so as
-to inclose the Castle. He would make the road into a stately avenue as
-it once was and ought to be. What did it matter who objected? He would
-do it; let the village burst with rage. The very idea of exasperating
-the village and making it own his power, made the idea all the more
-delightful. He would soon change all this; let it but get into his
-hands. In the midst of these thoughts, however, Randolph met a somewhat
-ludicrous rebuff from Eastwood, who opened the door suddenly and softly,
-as was his fashion, as if he hoped to find the visitor out in something
-improper. “Who shall I say, sir?” said Eastwood, deferentially. This
-gave Randolph a sense of the most ludicrous discomfiture; for to be
-asked what name is to be announced when you knock at the door of your
-father’s house is a curious sensation. It was nobody’s fault unless it
-might have been Randolph’s own, but the feeling was disagreeable. He
-stood for a moment dumb, staring at the questioner&mdash;then striding inside
-the door, pushed Eastwood out of his way. When he was within, however,
-somewhat conciliated by the alarmed aspect of the butler, who did not
-know whether to resist or what to do, he changed his mind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_136" id="page_136">{136}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want to startle my father,” he said; “say Mr. Randolph Musgrave
-has arrived.”</p>
-
-<p>“I beg your pardon humbly, sir,” cried Eastwood.</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, it was not your fault.” Randolph replied. It was not the
-servant’s fault; but it was <i>their</i> fault who had made his home a place
-of disgrace, and no longer a fit home for him.</p>
-
-<p>The Squire was seated among his books, feeling the drowsy influence of
-the afternoon. He had no Monograph to support his soul, and no better
-occupation than to rummage dully through the records of antiquity,
-cheered up and enlivened if he found something to reply to in <i>Notes and
-Queries</i>, but otherwise living a heavy kind of half-animate life. When
-the critiques and the letters about that Monograph had ended, what a
-blank there was! and no other work was at hand to make up, or to tempt
-him to further exertions. The corner of land that he desired to attain
-had been bought, and had given him pleasure; but after a while his eyes
-were satisfied with the contemplation, and his mind almost satisfied
-with the calculation, of so many additional acres added to the property.
-The sweetness of it lay in the thought that the property was growing,
-that there was sufficient elasticity in the family income to make the
-acquisition of even a little bit of land possible. The Squire thought
-this was the fruit of his own self-denial, and it gave him that glow of
-conscious virtue which was once supposed to be the appropriate and
-unfailing reward of good actions, till conscious virtue went out of
-fashion. This was sweet; and it was sweet to go and look at the new
-fields which restored the old boundary of the Penninghame estate in that
-direction; but such gratifications cease to be sustaining to life after
-a time. And Mr. Musgrave was dull sitting among his books; the sounds
-were in his ears which he was always hearing now&mdash;the far-off ring of
-voices that made him sensible of those inmates in his house whom he
-never noticed, who were to him as if they did not exist. When the mind
-is not very closely occupied, sounds thus heard in the house come
-strangely across the quiescent spirit of the solitary. Voices beloved
-are as music, are as sunshine, conveying a sense of happiness and soft
-exhilaration. Hearing them far off, though beyond the reach of hearing,
-so to speak, does not the very<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_137" id="page_137">{137}</a></span> distant sound, the tone of love in them,
-make work sweet and the air warm, softening everything round the
-recluse? But these were not voices beloved. The old man listened to
-them&mdash;or rather, not permitting himself to listen, <i>heard</i> them acutely
-through the mist of a separation which he did not choose to overcome.
-They were like something from another world, voices in the air,
-inarticulate, mysterious, known yet unknown. He turned the leaves idly
-when these strange suggestions came to him in his solitude; he had
-nothing to do with them, and yet so much. This was how he was sitting,
-dully wistful, in that stillness of age which when it is not glad must
-be sad, and hearing almost, as if he were already a ghost out of his
-grave, the strange yet familiar stir in the unseen stairs and passages,
-the movements of the kindly house&mdash;&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Randolph Musgrave!” The Squire was very much startled by the name.
-He rose hastily, and stood leaning upon his writing-table to see who it
-was that followed Eastwood into the room after a minute’s interval. It
-seemed scarcely possible to him that it could be his son. “Randolph!” he
-said. The children’s voices had made him think, in spite of himself, of
-the time&mdash;was it centuries ago?&mdash;when there were two small things
-running about those old passages continually, and a beautiful young
-mother smiling upon them&mdash;and him. This had softened his heart, though
-by means which he would not have acknowledged. He looked out eagerly
-with a sensation of pleasure and relief for his son. He would (perhaps)
-take Randolph’s advice, perhaps get some enlightenment from him. But the
-shock set his nerves off, and made him tremulous, though it was a shock
-of pleasure; and it hurt his pride so to be seen trembling, that he held
-himself up strained and rigid against his table. “Randolph! you are a
-stranger indeed,” he said, and his countenance lighted up with a cloudy
-and tremulous smile.</p>
-
-<p>(“Strange that he was never seen here before in my time,” said Eastwood
-as he withdrew. “I’ve seen a many queer things in families, but never
-nothing more queer than this&mdash;two sons as never have been seen in the
-house, and children as the Squire won’t give in he owns them. I thought
-he’d have walked right straight over little master Saturday last as if
-no one was there.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_138" id="page_138">{138}</a></span> But I don’t like the looks of <i>’im</i>. When he’s master
-here I march, and that I can tell you&mdash;pretty fast, Missis Cook.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Randolph? He’ll never be master here, thank God for it,” said Cook
-with pious fervour, “or more than you will go.”)</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Randolph, walking in, “I have been a stranger, but how can
-we help that! It is life that separates us. We must all run our own
-course. I hope you are well, sir. You look well&mdash;for your time of life.”</p>
-
-<p>It is not a pleasant thing to be told that you look well for your time
-of life&mdash;unless indeed you are ninety, and the time of life is itself a
-matter of pride. The Squire knew he was old, and that soon he must
-resign his place to others; but he did not care for such a distinct
-intimation that others thought so too.</p>
-
-<p>“I am very well,” he said, curtly. “You are so completely a stranger,
-Randolph, that I cannot make the usual remarks on your personal
-appearance. You deny me the opportunity of judging if you look ill or
-well.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah,” said Randolph, “that is just what I said. We must all run our own
-course. My duties are at the other end of England, and I cannot be
-always running back and forward; but I hope to stay a few days now if
-you will have me. Relations should see each other now and then. I have
-just had a glimpse of Mary in the old hall as usual. She did not know me
-at first, nor, I daresay, if I had not seen her there, should I have
-known her”&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“Mary is little changed,” said the Squire.</p>
-
-<p>“So you think, sir, seeing her every day; but there is a great change
-from what she was ten years ago. She was still a young woman then, and
-handsome. I am afraid even family partiality cannot call her anything
-but an old maid now.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave did not make any reply. He was not a particularly
-affectionate father, but Mary was part of himself, and it did not please
-him to hear her spoken of so.</p>
-
-<p>“And, by the bye,” said Randolph, “how did such a thing happen I wonder?
-for she <i>was</i> handsome;&mdash;handsome and well-born, and with a little
-money. It is very odd she never has married. Was there anything to
-account for it? or is it mere ill-luck?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_139" id="page_139">{139}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Ill-luck to whom?” said the Squire. “Do you think perhaps your sister
-never had the chance, as people say? You may dismiss that idea from your
-mind. She has had enough of chances. I don’t know any reason; but there
-must have been one, I suppose. Either that nobody came whom she cared
-for, or&mdash;I really cannot form any other idea,” he concluded, sharply. It
-was certain that he would not have Mary discussed.</p>
-
-<p>“I meant no harm,” said Randolph. “She has got the old hall very nicely
-done up. It is not a place I would myself care to keep up, if the Castle
-were in my hands; but she has made it very nice. I found her there
-with&mdash;among her favourite studies,” he added, after a momentary pause.
-It was too early to begin direct upon the chapter of the children, he
-felt. The Squire did not show any sign of special understanding. He
-nodded his head in assent.</p>
-
-<p>“She was always fond of the hall,” he said. “I used to think she suited
-it. And now that she is&mdash;past her youth, as you say&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Well into middle age I say, sir, like other people; which is a more
-serious affair for a woman than for a man; but I suppose all hopes are
-over now. She is not likely to marry at her time of life.” This was the
-second time he had mentioned the time of life. And the Squire did not
-like it; he answered curtly&mdash;&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“No, I don’t think it likely that Mary will marry. But yourself,
-Randolph, how are things going with you? You have not come so far merely
-to calculate your sister’s chances. Your wife is well, I hope; and your
-boy?”</p>
-
-<p>“Quite well. You are right in thinking, sir, that I did not come without
-an object. We are all getting on in life. I thought it only proper that
-there should be some understanding among us as to family
-affairs&mdash;something decided in the case of any emergency. We are all
-mortal&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“And I the most mortal of all, you will say, at my ‘time of life,’
-Randolph,” said the Squire, with a smile, which was far from genial. “I
-daresay you are quite right, perfectly right. I am an old man, and
-nobody can tell what an hour may bring forth.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is true at every age,” said Randolph, with professional<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_140" id="page_140">{140}</a></span>
-seriousness. “The idea ought to be familiar to the youngest among us. In
-the midst of life we are in death. I recommend everybody over whom I
-have the least influence to settle their affairs, so that they may not
-leave a nest of domestic contentions behind them. It is only less
-important than needful spiritual preparation, which of course should be
-our first care.”</p>
-
-<p>“Just so,” said Mr. Musgrave. “I presume you don’t mean to bring me to
-book on that point?”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly not, sir&mdash;unless there is any special point upon which I
-could be of use; but you are as well able to judge as I am, and have
-access to all the authorities,” said Randolph with dignity. “Besides,
-there is your own clergyman at hand, who is no doubt quite equal to the
-duties of his position. It is old Pennithorne, is it not?” he added,
-with a momentary lapse into a more familiar tone. “But there is no
-question of that. In such matters a man of your experience, sir, ought
-to be able to instruct the best of us.”</p>
-
-<p>“The bench of bishops even,” said the Squire, “sometimes I think I
-could&mdash;at my time of life. But that is not the question, as you say.”</p>
-
-<p>“No indeed&mdash;not to say that my best advice in every way is at your
-service, sir; but I thought very likely it would be an ease to your mind
-to see me, to give me any instructions or directions&mdash;in short, to feel
-that your nearest representative understood your wishes, whatever might
-happen.”</p>
-
-<p>Now Randolph was evidently his father’s representative, John being out
-of the question; and that John was absolutely out of the question, not
-only from external circumstances, but from the strong prejudice and
-prepossession against him in his father’s mind, was certain. Yet the
-Squire resented this assumption as much as if John had been his
-dearly-beloved son and apparent heir.</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks,” he said, “I feel your care for my comfort&mdash;but after all, you
-are not my direct representative.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sir!” cried Randolph reddening, “need I remind you of the disabilities,
-the privation of all natural rights&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You need not remind me of anything,” said Mr. Musgrave, getting up
-hurriedly. “I don’t care to discuss that question<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_141" id="page_141">{141}</a></span>&mdash;or anything else of
-the kind. Suppose we go and join Mary, who must be in the drawing-room,
-I suppose? It is she, after all, who is really my representative,
-knowing everything about my affairs.”</p>
-
-<p>“She&mdash;is a woman,” said Randolph, with a tone of contempt.</p>
-
-<p>“That is undeniable&mdash;but women are not considered exactly as they used
-to be in such matters.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope, sir,” said the clergyman, with dignity, “that neither my sister
-nor you add your influence to the foolish movement about women’s
-rights.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean that Mary does not want a vote?” said the Squire. “No, I
-don’t suppose it has occurred to her. We add our influence to very few
-public movements, Randolph, bad or good. The Musgraves are not what they
-once were in the county; the leading part we once took is taken by
-others who are richer than we are. Progress is not the thing for old
-families, for progress means money.”</p>
-
-<p>“There are other reasons why the Musgraves do not take their proper
-place. I have hopes, sir,” said Randolph, “that under more favourable
-circumstances&mdash;if we, perhaps, were to draw more together&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you mean, sir?” said the Squire; “it was you who separated
-yourself from us, not us from you. You were too good, being a clergyman,
-as you said, to encounter the odium of our position. That’s enough,
-Randolph. It is not an agreeable subject. Let us dismiss it as it has
-been dismissed these fifteen years; and come&mdash;to Mary’s part of the
-house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then, am I to understand,” said Randolph, sharply, rising, yet holding
-back, “that your mind is changing as old age gains upon you, that you
-are going to accept the disgrace of the family? and that it is with your
-sanction that Mary is receiving&mdash;adopting&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>He stopped, overawed in spite of himself, by the old man’s look, who
-stood with his face fixed looking towards him, restraining with all his
-force the tremor of his nerves. The Squire had been subject all his life
-to sudden fits of passion, and had got the habit of subduing, by
-ignoring them, as all his family well knew. He made no reply, but the
-restrained fire in his eyes impressed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_142" id="page_142">{142}</a></span> even the dull imagination of his
-son, who was pertinacious rather than daring, and had no force in him to
-stand against passion. Mr. Musgrave turned round quickly, and took up
-his book, which lay on a table near.</p>
-
-<p>“Mary sent you a copy of the Monograph?” he said; “but I don’t remember
-that you gave me your opinion of it. It has had a very flattering
-reception generally. I could not have expected so much interest in the
-public mind on a question of such exclusive family interest. But so it
-has been. I have kept all the notices, and the letters I have received
-on the subject. You shall see them by and by; and I think you will agree
-with me, that a more flattering reception could scarcely have been. All
-sorts of people have written to me. It appears,” said the Squire, with
-modest pride, “that I have really been able to throw some light upon a
-difficulty. After dinner, Randolph, if you are interested, you shall see
-my collection.”</p>
-
-<p>“My time is short,” said Randolph, “and with so many more serious
-matters to discuss&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I know few things more serious than the history of the family honours,”
-said the Squire, “especially as you have a boy to inherit the old
-blazon; but we’ll go into all that this evening, as your stay is to be
-short. Better come and see Mary before dinner. She will want to know all
-about your home-concerns, and your wife. The house is unchanged, you
-will perceive,” the Squire continued, talking cheerfully as he led the
-way; and the sound of his voice, somewhat high-pitched and shrill with
-age, travelled far through the old passages. “I hope no sacrilegious
-hands will ever change the house. My heirs may add to it if they please,
-but it is a monument of antiquity, which ought never to be
-touched&mdash;except to mend it delicately as Mary mends her old lace. This
-way, Randolph; I believe you have forgotten the way.”</p>
-
-<p>They were standing in an angle of the fine oak staircase, where the
-Squire waited till his son came up to him. At this moment a rush of
-small footsteps, and a whispering voice&mdash;“Run, Nello, Nello! he is
-coming,” was audible above. Randolph looked up quickly, with a look of
-intelligence, into the old man’s face. But the Squire did not move a
-muscle. His countenance<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_143" id="page_143">{143}</a></span> was blank as that of a deaf man. If he had
-heard, he allowed no sign of hearing to be visible. “Come along,” he
-said, “it seems to me that my wind is better than yours even at my time
-of life,” with a half-sarcastic smile. Was he hard of hearing? a
-hypothesis rather agreeable to think of; or what was the meaning of it?
-Were these obnoxious children the pets of the house? but why should they
-run because he was coming. The hostile visitor was perplexed, and could
-not make it out. He followed into the drawing-room without a word, while
-the small footsteps were still audible. Mary was seated at a low table
-on which there was work, but she was not working. She rose to receive
-them with a certain formality; for except after dinner, when the Squire
-would sometimes come for a cup of tea, or when there were visitors in
-the house, she was generally alone in the low quaint drawing-room, which
-transported even the unimaginative Randolph back to childhood. The
-panelled walls, the spindle-legged furniture, the inlaid cabinets and
-tables, were all exactly as he remembered them. This touched him a
-little, though he had all the robustness against impression which
-fortifies a slow intelligence. “It seems like yesterday that I was
-here,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>This, in her turn, touched Mary, whose excitement made her subject to
-the lightest flutter of emotion. She smiled at him with greater kindness
-than she had yet felt. “Yes,” she said. “I feel so sometimes, too, when
-I look round; but it tells less upon us who are here always. And so much
-has happened since then.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, I suppose so: though you seem to vegetate pretty much in the old
-ways. Those children though, for instance,” said Randolph, with a laugh,
-“scurrying off in such haste as we came within hearing, that is not like
-the old ways. Are you ashamed of them, or afraid to have them here? I
-should not wonder, for my part.”</p>
-
-<p>The tears sprang to Mary’s eyes. She did not say anything in the sudden
-shock, but looked at Randolph piteously with a silent reproach. It was
-the first time since the day of their arrival that any public mention
-had been made of the children in her father’s presence. And there was a
-pause which seemed to her full of fate.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_144" id="page_144">{144}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“You must not look at me so,” said her brother. “I gave you fair
-warning. My father is not to be given up to your plots without a
-remonstrance at least. I believe it is a conspiracy, sir, from beginning
-to end. Do you intend our old family, with all the honours you are so
-proud of, to drop into disgrace? With the shadow of crime on it,” cried
-Randolph, warming into excitement; then, with a dull perception of
-something still more telling, his father’s weak point, “and the bar
-sinister of vice?” he said.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XVI" id="CHAPTER_XVI"></a>CHAPTER XVI.<br /><br />
-<small>DUCKS AND DRAKES.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> Squire made use of that discretion which is the better part of
-valour. When Randolph for the second time insisted upon coming to an
-understanding on family affairs, which meant deciding what was to be
-done on the Squire’s death, Mr. Musgrave, not knowing how else to foil
-his son, got up and came away. “You can settle these matters with Mary,”
-he said, quietly enough. It would not have been dignified to treat the
-suggestion in any other way. But he went out with a slight acceleration
-of his pulses, caused half by anger and half by the natural human thrill
-of feeling with which a man has his own death brought home to him. The
-Squire knew that there was nothing unnatural in this anticipation of his
-own end. He was aware that it required to be done, and the emergency
-prepared for; but yet it was not agreeable to him. He thought they might
-have awaited the event, although in another point of view it would have
-been imprudent to await the event. He felt that there was something
-undesirable, unlovely, in the idea of your children consulting over you
-for their own comfort “afterwards.” But then his children were no longer
-children whose doings touched his affections much&mdash;they were middle-aged
-people, as old as he was&mdash;and in fact it <i>was</i> important that they
-should come to an arrangement and settle everything. Only he could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_145" id="page_145">{145}</a></span>
-not&mdash;and this being so, would not&mdash;do it; and he said to himself that
-the cause of his refusal was no reluctance on his own part to consider
-the inevitable certainty of his own death, but only the intolerableness
-of the inquiry in other respects. He walked out in a little strain and
-excitement of feeling, though outwardly his calm was intense. He
-steadied himself, mind and body, by an effort, putting a smile upon his
-lip, and walking with a deliberate slow movement. He would have scorned
-himself had he showed any excitement; but strolled out with a leisurely
-slow step and a smile. They would talk the matter out, the two whom he
-had left; even though Mary’s heart would be more with him than with her
-brother, still she would be bound to follow Randolph’s lead. They would
-talk of his health, of how he was looking feeble, his age beginning to
-tell upon him, and how it would be very expedient to know what the
-conditions of his will were, and whether he had made any provision for
-the peculiar circumstances, or arrangement for the holding of the
-estate. “I ought to be the first person considered,” he thought he heard
-Randolph saying. Randolph had always thought himself the first person to
-be considered. At this penetration of his own the Squire smiled again,
-and walked away very steadily, very slowly, humming a bar of an
-old-fashioned air.</p>
-
-<p>He went thus through the broken woodland towards the east, and strolled
-into the Chase like a man taking a walk for pleasure. The birds sang
-overhead, little rabbits popped out from the great tree-trunks, and a
-squirrel ran up one of them and across a long branch, where it sat
-peering at him. All was familiar, certain, well known; he had seen the
-same sights and heard the same sounds for the last seventy years; and
-the sunshine shone with the same calm assurance of shining as at other
-times, and all this rustling, breathing life went on as it had always
-gone on. There was scarcely a leaf, scarcely a moss-covered stone that
-did not hide or shelter something living. The air was full of life;
-sounds of all kinds, twitter and hum and rustle, his own step among
-other movements, his own shadow moving across the sunshine. And he felt
-well enough, not running over with health and vigour as he had sometimes
-felt long ago, not disposed to vault over walls and gates in that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_146" id="page_146">{146}</a></span>
-unlicensed exuberance which belongs to youth only, but well
-enough&mdash;quite well, in short; steady afoot, his breathing easy, his head
-clear, everything about him comfortable. Notwithstanding which, his
-children were discussing, as in reference to a quite near and probable
-event, what was to be done when he should die! The Squire smiled at the
-thought, but it was a smile which got fixed and painful on his lip, and
-was not spontaneous or agreeable. The amusement to be got from such an
-idea is not of a genial kind. He was over seventy, and he knew, who
-better? that threescore and ten has been set down as the limit of mortal
-life. No doubt he must die&mdash;every man must die. It was a thing before
-him not to be eluded; the darkness, indeed, was very near, according to
-all ordinary law; but the Squire did not feel it, was not in his soul
-convinced of it. He believed it, of course; all other men of his age
-die, and in their case the precautions of the family are prudent and
-natural; in his own case it is true he did not feel the necessity; but
-yet no doubt it must be so. He kept smiling to himself; so living as he
-was, and everything round, it was an odd sort of discord to think of
-dying. He felt a kind of blank before him, a sense of being shut in. So
-one feels when one walks along a bit of road surrounded with walls, a
-<i>cul de sac</i> from which there is no outlet. A sense of imprisonment is
-in it, of discouragement, too little air to breathe, too little space to
-move in&mdash;certainly a disagreeable, stifling, choking sensation.
-Involuntarily a sigh came from his breast; and yet he smiled
-persistently, feeling in himself a kind of defiance to all the world, a
-determination to be amused at it all, notwithstanding the sentence they
-were passing against him.</p>
-
-<p>While the Squire continued his walk, amid the twitter of the birds and
-the warble and the crackle and rustle and hum in the woods, and all the
-sounds of living, now and then another sound struck in&mdash;a sound not
-necessarily near, for in that still summer air sounds travel easily&mdash;an
-echo of voices, now one soft cry or laugh, now a momentary babble. It
-struck the old man as if an independent soul had been put into the
-scene. He knew very well what it meant&mdash;very well&mdash;no one better. By
-very dint of his opposition to them he recognized the sound of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_147" id="page_147">{147}</a></span>
-children wherever they were. They were there now, the little things
-whose presence had moved Randolph to this assault upon his father. They
-were altogether antagonistic to Randolph, or rather he to them; this
-gave them a curious perverse interest in their grandfather’s eyes. They
-offered him an outlet from his <i>cul de sac</i>; the pressure seemed
-suddenly removed which had bowed him down; in a moment he felt relieved,
-delivered from that sense of confinement. A new idea was like the
-opening of a door to the old man; he was no longer compelled to
-contemplate the certainty before him, but was let softly down into the
-pleasant region of uncertainty&mdash;the world of happy chances. The very
-character of the smile upon his face changed. It became more natural,
-more easy, although he did not know the children, nor had any intention
-of noticing them. But they were there, and Randolph might scheme as he
-liked; here was one who must bring his schemes to confusion. A vague
-lightening came into the Squire’s thoughts. He was reprieved, if not
-from the inevitable conclusion, at least from the necessity of
-contemplating it; and he continued his walk with a lighter heart. By and
-by, after a somewhat long round, and making sundry observations to
-himself about the state of the timber which would bear cutting, and
-about the birds which, without any keeper to care for them, were
-multiplying at their own will, and might give some sport in September,
-Mr. Musgrave found himself by the lake again with that fascination
-towards the water which is so universal. The lake gleamed through the
-branches, prolonging the blue of the sky, and calling him with soft
-plashing upon the beach, the oldest of his friends, accompaniment of so
-many thoughts, and of all the vicissitudes of his life. He went towards
-it now in the commotion of feeling which was subsiding into calm, a calm
-which had something of fatigue in it; for reluctant as he was to enter
-into the question of age and the nearly approaching conclusion, the fact
-of age made him easily tired with everything, and with nothing more than
-excitement. He was fatigued with the strain he had been put to, and had
-fallen into a languid state which was not unpleasant; the condition in
-which we are specially disposed to be easily amused if any passive
-amusement comes in our way.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_148" id="page_148">{148}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>So it happened that as he walked along the margin of the lake, with the
-water softly foaming over the pebbles at his feet, Mr. Musgrave’s ear
-was caught by a series of sharp little repetitions of sound, like a
-succession of small reports&mdash;one, two, three. He listened in the mild,
-easily-roused, and not very active curiosity of such a moment, and
-recognized with a smile the sound of pebbles skipping across the water;
-presently he saw the little missiles gleaming along from ripple to
-ripple, flung by a skilful but not very strong hand. The Squire did not
-even ask himself who it was, but went on quietly, doubting nothing.
-Suddenly turning round a corner upon the edge of a small bay, he saw a
-little figure between him and the shining water, making ducks and drakes
-with varying success.</p>
-
-<p>The Squire’s step was inaudible on the turf, and he paused in sympathy
-with the play. He himself had made ducks and drakes in the Penninghame
-water as long as he could recollect. He had taught his little boys to do
-it; he could not tell how it was that this suddenly came to his mind
-just now&mdash;though how it should do so with Randolph, a middle-aged,
-calculating parson, talking about family arrangements&mdash;Pah! but even
-this recollection did not affect him now as it did before. Never mind
-Randolph. This little fellow chose the stones with judgment, and really,
-for such a small creature, launched them well. The Squire felt half
-disposed to step forward and try his skill too. When one shot failed he
-was half-sorry, half-inclined to chuckle as over an antagonist; and when
-there came a great success, a succession of six or seven reports one
-after another as the flat pebble skimmed over fold after fold of the
-water, he could not help saying, “Bravo!” in generous applause;
-generous, for somehow or other he felt as if he were playing on the
-other side. This sensation aroused him; he had not been so
-self-forgetting for many a day. “Bravo!” he cried, with something like
-glee in his voice.</p>
-
-<p>The little boy turned round hastily. What a strange meeting! Oddly
-enough it had never occurred to the Squire to think who it was.
-Strangers were rife enough in these regions, and people would now and
-then come to Penninghame with their families&mdash;who would stray into the
-Chase, taking it for public property.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_149" id="page_149">{149}</a></span> But for the ducks and drakes
-which interested him, he would probably have collared the little fellow,
-and demanded to know what right he had to be here. He was therefore
-quite unprepared for the encounter, and looked with the strangest
-emotions of wonder and half-terror into the face which was so familiar
-to him, but so strange, the face of his grandson and heir. When once he
-had seen the child no further doubt was possible. He stared at him as if
-he had been a little ghost. He had not presence of mind to turn on his
-heel and go away at once, which would have been the only way of keeping
-up his former tactics; he was speechless and overpowered; and there was
-nobody by to spy upon him, no grown-up spectators&mdash;not even the other
-child to observe what he did, or listen to what he said. In this case
-the Squire did not feel the need to be vigilant, which in other
-circumstances would have given him self-command. Thus the shock and
-surprise, and the perfect freedom of his position, unwatched and unseen,
-alike broke down all his defences. After the first start he stood still
-and gazed at the child, who still, more frankly and with much less
-emotion, gazed at him.</p>
-
-<p>“Who are you, sir?” the grandfather said, with a tone that was meant to
-be very peremptory. The jar in it was incomprehensible to Nello: but yet
-it gave him greater courage.</p>
-
-<p>“I am Ne&mdash;that is to say,” the little fellow answered, with a sudden
-flush and change of countenance, “my name, it is John.”</p>
-
-<p>“John what? Speak up, sir. Do you know you are a little trespasser, and
-have no business to be here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes, I have a business to be here,” said Nello. “I don’t know what
-it is to be a trespasser. I live at the Castle, me. I can come when I
-please, and nobody has any business to send me away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you know who I am?” asked the Squire, bending his brows. Nello
-looked at him curiously, half amused, though he was half frightened. He
-had never been so near, or looked his grandfather in the face before.</p>
-
-<p>“I <i>know</i>; but I may not tell,” said Nello. He shook his head, and
-though he was not very quick-witted, some latent sense of fun brought a
-mischievous look to his face. “We know very well, but we are never to
-tell,” he added, shaking his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_150" id="page_150">{150}</a></span> head once more, looking up with watchful
-eyes, as children have a way of doing, to take his cue from the
-expression of the elder face; and there was something very strange in
-that gleam of fun in Nello’s eyes. “We know, but we are never, never to
-tell.</p>
-
-<p>“Who told you so?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was&mdash;Martuccia,” said the boy, with precocious discretion. His look
-grew more and more inquisitive and investigating. Now that he had the
-opportunity he determined to examine the old man well and to make out
-the kind of person he was.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave did not answer. He on his side was investigating too, with
-less keenness and more feeling than the child showed. He would have been
-unmoved by the beauty of Lilias, though it was much greater than that of
-Nello. The little girl would have irritated him; but with the boy he
-felt himself safe, he could not tell how; he was more a child, less a
-stranger. Mr. Musgrave himself could not have explained it, but so it
-was. A desire to get nearer to his descendant came into the old man’s
-mind; old recollections crept upon him, and stole away all his strength.
-“You know who I am; do you know who you are, little fellow?” he asked,
-with a strange break in his voice.</p>
-
-<p>“I told you; you are&mdash;the old gentleman at home,” said Nello. “I know
-all about it. And me? I am John. There is no wonder about that. It is
-just&mdash;me. We were not always here. We are two children who have come a
-long way. But now I know English quite well, and I have lessons every
-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who gives you lessons, my little boy?” The Squire drew a step nearer.
-He had himself had a little brother sixty years ago, who was like Nello.
-So it seemed to him now. He would not think he had likewise had a son
-thirty years ago, whom Nello was like. He crept a little nearer the
-child, shuffling his foot along the turf, concealing the approach from
-himself. Had he been asked why he changed his position, he would have
-said it was a little damp, boggy, not quite sure footing just there.</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Pen gives us lessons,” said Nello. “I have a book all to myself. It
-is Latin, it is more easy than English. But it takes a great deal of
-time; it does not leave so much for play.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_151" id="page_151">{151}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“How long have you been at your lessons, my little man?”</p>
-
-<p>The Squire’s eyes began to soften, a smile came into them. His heart was
-melting. He gave a furtive glance round, and there was nobody near to
-make him afraid, not even the little girl.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, a long, long time,” said Nello. “One whole hour, it was as much as
-that, or perhaps six hours. I did not think anything could be so long.”</p>
-
-<p>“One whole hour!” the Squire said in a voice of awe; and his eyes melted
-altogether into smiling, and his voice into a mellow softness which it
-had not known for years. Ah! this was the kind of son for an old man to
-have, not such as Randolph. Randolph was a hard, disagreeable equal,
-superior in so much as he had, or thought he had, many more years before
-him; but the child was delightful. He did the Squire good. “Or perhaps
-six hours! And when did this long spell of study happen? Is it long
-ago?”</p>
-
-<p>“There was no spell,” said Nello. “And it was to-day. I readed in my
-book, and so did Lily; but as she is a girl it was different from mine.
-Girls are not clever, Martuccia says. She can’t make the stones skim.
-That was a good one when you said ‘Bravo!’ Where did you find out to say
-Bravo? They don’t talk like that here.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was a very good one,” said the Squire; “suppose we were to try
-again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! can <i>you</i> do it?” said Nello, with round eyes of wonder. “Can you
-do it as well as me?”</p>
-
-<p>“When I was a child,” said the Squire, quite overcome, “I had a little
-brother just like you. We used to come out here, to this very place, and
-play ducks and drakes. He would make them go half across the water. You
-should have seen them skimming. As far out as that boat. Do you see that
-boat&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“When he was no bigger than me? And what did you do? were you little
-too? did you play against him? did he beat you? I wish I had a brother,”
-said Nello. “But you can’t have quite forgotten, though you are an old
-gentleman. Try now! There are capital stones here. I wish I could send
-one out as far as that boat. Come, come! Won’t you come and try?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_152" id="page_152">{152}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>The Squire gave another searching look round. He had a sort of
-shame-faced smile on his face. He was a little shy of himself in this
-new development. But there was no one near, not so much as a squirrel or
-a rabbit, which could watch and tell. The birds were singing high up in
-the tree-tops, quite absorbed in their own business; nothing was taking
-any notice. And the child had come close to him, quite confiding and
-fearless, with eager little eyes, waiting for his decision. He was the
-very image of that little brother so long lost. The Squire seemed to
-lose himself for a moment in a vague haze of personal uncertainty
-whether all this harsh, hard life had not been a delusion, and whether
-he himself still was not a child.</p>
-
-<p>“Come and try,” cried Nello, more and more emboldened, and catching at
-his coat. When the old man felt the touch, it was all he could do to
-suppress a cry. It was strange to him beyond measure, a touch not like
-any other&mdash;his own flesh and blood.</p>
-
-<p>“You must begin then,” he said, a strange falter in his voice,
-half-laughing, half-crying. That is one sign of age, that it is so much
-nearer to the springs of emotion than anything else, except youth.
-Indeed, are not these two the fitting partners, not that middle state,
-that insolent strength which stands between? The Squire permitted
-himself to be dragged to the margin of his own water, which lay all
-smiling in soft ripples before him as it had done when he was a child.
-Nello was as grave as a judge in the importance of the occasion,
-breathless with excitement and interest. He sought out his little store
-of stones with all the solemnity of a connoisseur, his little brows
-puckered, his red lips drawn in; but the Squire was shy and tremulous,
-half-laughing, half-crying, ashamed of his own weakness, and more near
-being what you might call happy (a word so long out of use for him!)
-than he had been, he could not remember when.</p>
-
-<p>Nello was vexed with his first throw. “When one wants to do very good,
-one never can,” he said, discomfited as his shot failed. “Now you try,
-now you try; it is your turn.” How the Squire laughed, tremulous, the
-broken red in his old cheeks flushing with pleasure and shame! He failed
-too, which encouraged Nello, who for his part made a splendid shot the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_153" id="page_153">{153}</a></span>
-second time. “Two, three, four, <i>five</i>, <small>SIX</small>, <small>SEVEN</small>!” cried the child in
-delight. “Don’t be afraid, you will do better next time. Me too, I could
-not make a shot at all at first. Now come, now come, it is your turn
-again.”</p>
-
-<p>What a thing it is to have a real long summer afternoon! It was
-afternoon when the Squire’s calm was broken by his son Randolph; and it
-was afternoon still, dropping into evening, but with a sun still bright
-and not yet low in the sky when Mr. Musgrave warmed to his work, and,
-encouraged by Nello, made such ducks and drakes as astonished himself.
-He got quite excited as they skimmed and danced across the water. “Two,
-three, four, five, <i>six</i>, <i>seven</i>, <small>EIGHT</small>!” Nello cried, with a shriek of
-delight. How clever the old gentleman was&mdash;how much nicer than <i>girls</i>.
-He had not enjoyed his play so much for&mdash;never before, Nello thought.
-“Come back to-morrow&mdash;will you come back to-morrow?” he said at every
-interval. He had got a playmate now after his own heart&mdash;better than Mr.
-Pen’s Johnnie, who was small and timid&mdash;better than any one he had ever
-seen here.</p>
-
-<p>The two players did not in the growing excitement of their game think
-any more of the chance of spectators; and did not see a second little
-figure which came running across the grass through the maze of the
-trees, and stopped wondering in the middle of the brushwood, holding
-back the branches with her hands to gaze at the strange scene. Lilias
-was never quite clear of the idea that this wood was fairy-land: so she
-was not surprised at anything she saw. Yet at this, for the first
-moment, she was tempted to be surprised. The old gentleman! playing at
-ducks and drakes with Nello! He who pretended never to see them, who
-looked over their heads whenever they appeared, for whom they always had
-to run out of the way, who never took any notice! Lilias stood for two
-or three whole minutes, holding the branches open, peeping through with
-a rapt gaze of wonder; yet not surprised. She applied her little
-faculties at once, on the instant, to solve the mystery; and what so
-natural as that the old gentleman had been “only pretending” all the
-time? Half the pleasure which Lilias herself had in her life came from
-“pretending.” Pretending to be Queen Elizabeth,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_154" id="page_154">{154}</a></span> pretending to be a
-fairy and change Nello into a lion or a mouse, both of which things
-Nello “pretended” to be with equal success; pretending to be Mr. Pen
-preaching a sermon, pretending to be Mary, pretending even now and then
-to be “the old gentleman” himself, sitting up in a chair with a big
-book, just like him. She stood and peeped through the branches, and made
-up her mind to this in a way that took away all her surprise. No doubt
-he was “only pretending” when he would not let it be seen that he saw
-them. Motives are not necessary to investigators of twelve; there was
-nothing strange in it; for was not pretending the chief occupation, the
-chief recreation of life? She stood and made this out to her own
-satisfaction, and then with self-denial and with a sigh went back to
-Martuccia. It was very tempting to see the pebbles skimming across the
-water, and so easy it seemed! “Me too, me too,” Lilias could scarcely
-help calling out. But then it came into her head that perhaps it was
-herself whom the old gentleman disliked. Perhaps he would not go on
-playing if she claimed a share, perhaps he would begin “pretending” not
-to see her. So Lilias sighed, and with self-denial gave up this new
-pleasure. It was very nice for Nello to have some one to play with&mdash;some
-one <i>new</i>. He was always the lucky one; but then he was the youngest,
-such a little fellow. She went back and told Martuccia he was playing,
-he was coming soon, he was not in any mischief&mdash;which was what the
-careful elder sister and mild indulgent nurse most feared.</p>
-
-<p>When Lilias let the branches go, however, with self-denial which was
-impulsive though so true, the sweep with which they came together again
-made more sound than could have been made by a rabbit or squirrel, and
-startled the Squire, who was quite hot and excited in his new sport. He
-came to himself with a start, and with the idea of having been seen,
-felt a pang of shame and half-anger. He looked round him and could see
-nobody; but the branches still vibrated as if some one had been there;
-and his very forehead, weather-beaten as it was, flushed red with the
-idea of having been seen, perhaps by Randolph himself. This gave him a
-kind of offence and resentment and self-assertion which mended matters.
-Why should he care for Randolph? What had Randolph to do with it? Was he
-to put<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_155" id="page_155">{155}</a></span> himself under tutelage, and conform to the tastes of a fellow
-like that, a parson, an interloper? But all the same this possibility
-stopped the Squire. “There, my little man,” he said with some confusion,
-dropping his stone, “there! I think it is time to stop now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!&mdash;was it some one come for you?” said Nello, following the direction
-of the old gentleman’s eyes. “Stay a little longer, just a little
-longer. Can’t you do just what you please&mdash;not like me&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Can you not do what you please, my little boy?” The Squire was a little
-tremulous with the unusual exertion. Perhaps it was time to stop. He
-stooped down to lave his hand in the water where it came shallow among
-the rocks, and that act took away his breath still more, and made him
-glad to pause a moment before he went away.</p>
-
-<p>“It is a shame,” said Nello, “there is Lily, and there is Martuccia, and
-there is Mary,&mdash;they think I am too little to take care of myself; but I
-am not too little&mdash;I can do a great many things that they can’t do. But
-come to-morrow, won’t you <i>try</i> to come to-morrow?” said the child,
-coming close up to his grandfather, and taking hold of the skirt of his
-coat. “Oh please, please <i>try</i> to come! I never have any one to play
-with, and it has been such fun. Say you will come! Don’t you think you
-could come if you were to <i>try</i>?”</p>
-
-<p>The Squire burst out into a broken laugh. It would have been more easy
-to cry, but that does not do for a man. He put his soft old tremulous
-hand upon the boy’s head. “Little Johnny,” he said, “little
-Johnny!&mdash;that was my little brother’s name, long, long ago.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did he play with you? I wish I had a little brother. I have nothing but
-girls,” said Nello. “But say you will come to-morrow&mdash;do say you will
-try!”</p>
-
-<p>The Squire gave another look round him. Nobody was there, not a mouse or
-a bird. He took the child’s head between his trembling hands, and
-stooped down, and gave him a hasty kiss upon his soft round
-forehead&mdash;“God bless you, little man!” he said, and then turned round
-defiant, and faced the world&mdash;the world of tremulous branches and
-fluttering leaves, for there was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_156" id="page_156">{156}</a></span> nothing else to spy upon the
-involuntary blessing and caress. Then he plunged through the very
-passage in the brushwood where the branches had shaken so
-strangely&mdash;feeling that if it was Randolph he could defy him. What right
-had Randolph to control his actions? If he chose to acknowledge this
-child who belonged to him, who was the image of the little Johnny of
-sixty years ago, what was that to any one? What had
-Randolph,&mdash;<i>Randolph</i>, of all men in the world,&mdash;to do with it? He would
-tell him so to his face if he were there.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XVII" id="CHAPTER_XVII"></a>CHAPTER XVII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE BAMPFYLDES.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> same day on which these incidents occurred the Stanton family were
-in full conclave at Elfdale. It was the birthday of Laura, and there
-were various merrymakings on hand, an afternoon party, designed to
-include all her “young friends,” besides a more select company in the
-evening. As Laura was the one whom the family intended to be Lady
-Stanton, her affairs, with the willing consent, and indeed by the active
-energy of her sister, were generally pushed into the foreground. And
-Geoff and his mother were the chief of the guests specially invited, the
-only visitors who were staying in the house.</p>
-
-<p>To say that the family intended Laura to be Lady Stanton is perhaps too
-wild a statement, though this settlement of conflicting claims had been
-tacitly decided upon when they were children. It was chiefly Lydia who
-actively intended it now, moved and backed up by some of the absent
-brothers, who thought it “hard luck” that the young unnecessary Geoff
-should have interfered between their father and the title, and vowed by
-Jove that the only fit thing to do in the circumstances was to marry him
-to one of the girls. Lydia, however, was the most active mind in the
-establishment at Elfdale, and carried things her own way, so that though
-Sir Henry disliked fuss,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_157" id="page_157">{157}</a></span> and disliked Geoff’s mother, who had done him
-so much wrong, yet the party in the evening had been specially selected
-to suit her, and Maria, Lady Stanton, was established in the house.</p>
-
-<p>“It can’t last long, papa,” Lydia said; “but we can’t have Geoff without
-her.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you want with Geoff?” growled Sir Henry.</p>
-
-<p>“Papa! in the first place he is our cousin; and Laura likes him; and you
-know we girls must marry somebody. You can’t get commissions and
-nominations for us, more’s the pity; so we must marry. And Laura may as
-well have Stanton as any one else, don’t you think? and of course in
-that case she ought to be on good terms with her mother-in-law; and
-people expect us&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, that will do,” said Sir Henry, “ask whom you like, only free me
-from all this clatter. But keep that woman off me with her sanctified
-airs, confound her,” said the baronet. He had forgiven Geoff for being
-born, but he could not forgive Geoff’s mother for bringing him so
-unnecessarily into the world.</p>
-
-<p>And thus it was that Geoff and his mother were at Elfdale. The elder
-Lady Stanton was no more disposed to go than Sir Henry was to ask her.
-Visits of this kind are not rare&mdash;the inviters unwilling to ask, the
-invited indisposed to go; and with such cordial results as might be
-anticipated. “I care for nobody in that house except Cousin Mary,” Lady
-Stanton said, “and even she perhaps&mdash;though it is wrong to say so,
-Geoff, my dear boy, for of course everybody means for the best.” With
-these mutual objections the party had met all the same. The other Lady
-Stanton was very mild and very religious. She could not prevent herself
-from having an occasional opinion&mdash;that is to say, as she explained it
-herself, for “caring for” one person more than another; but that was
-because she had not seen enough of the others perhaps&mdash;had not quite
-understood them. “Yes, Geoff, I do not doubt, my dear, that the girls
-are very nice. So many things are changed since my time. Manners are
-different. And we are all such prejudiced, unjust creatures, we
-constantly take the outside for our standard as if that was everything.
-There is but One that sees fully, and what a blessing,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_158" id="page_158">{158}</a></span> Geoff, that it
-is Him whom we have most to deal with!” said his mother. For it was one
-of her troubles in life that she had uneasy instincts about the people
-she met with, and likings and dislikings such as she felt&mdash;the latter at
-least&mdash;a true Christian ought not to indulge in. There was a constant
-conflict of duty in her against such rebellious feelings. As for Cousin
-Mary, Sir Henry Stanton’s wife, she was one of those whom Geoff’s mother
-had no difficulty in liking, but a cold doubt had been breathed into her
-mind as to the “influence” which this lady might exercise over her boy.
-She could not quite get it out of her thoughts. Mary could mean no harm,
-that was certain, but&mdash;and then Lady Stanton would upbraid herself for
-the evil imagination that could thus believe in evil. So that altogether
-she was not happy to go to Elfdale. When she was there, however, the
-family paid her a sort of court, though the girls frankly considered her
-a hypocrite. What did that matter? “All the people one meets with are
-humbugs more or less,” Lydia said with superior philosophy. Lydia was
-the one who saw through everybody, and was always unmasking false
-pretensions. Laura only acquiesced in the discoveries her sister made,
-and generally followed her in whatever was going on.</p>
-
-<p>The morning of the birthday dawned brightly and promised to be all that
-could be desired, and the presents were pretty enough to please any
-<i>débutante</i>. Laura was nineteen, and so far as the county gaieties went
-she had been already “out” for nearly a year. Any more splendid
-introduction into society had been denied to the girls. They had
-entertained dreams of London, and had practised curtseys for a
-problematical drawing-room during one whole year, but it had come to
-nothing, Sir Henry being economical and Lady Stanton shy. It was to
-their stepmother’s account that Laura and Lydia set down this wrong,
-feeling convinced that if she had been their <i>real</i> mother she would
-have managed it somehow. “You’ll see she’ll find some way of doing it
-when these little things grow up,” the elder sisters said to each other,
-and they bore her a grudge in consequence, and looked at her with
-glances of reproaches whenever London was spoken of&mdash;though that she was
-not their real mother could not be held to be poor Mary’s fault.
-However, all this was forgotten<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_159" id="page_159">{159}</a></span> on the merry morning, when with the
-delights of the garden party and a dance before them they came to
-breakfast and found Laura’s place at table blocked up with presents.
-Many of them it is true were not of very much value, but there was a
-pretty bracelet from Geoff and a locket from his mother, which amply
-rewarded the young ladies for their determination to have their cousin
-and his mother invited. The opening of the presents made a little
-pleasant commotion. The donors were all moved by an agreeable curiosity
-to see how their gifts were received, and as Laura was lavish in her
-expressions of delight and Lydia in generous admiration, and the little
-girls hovered behind in fluttering awe, curiosity, and excitement, a
-general air of family concord, sympathy, and happiness was diffused over
-the scene. There was not very much love perhaps in the ill-compacted
-household. But Sir Henry could not help sharing the infection of the
-half-real amiability of the moment, and his wife could not but brighten
-under any semblance of kindness. They sat down quite happily to
-breakfast and began to chatter about the amusements of the afternoon.
-Even little Fanny and Annie were allowed to have their say. To them was
-allotted a share in the croquet, even in the delightful responsibility
-of arranging the players. All the old fogies, the old-fashioned people,
-the curate and his sister, the doctor and his niece, the humbler
-neighbours, were reserved for that pastime which is out of fashion&mdash;the
-girls kept the gayer circle and the more novel amusements for Geoff and
-their own set. And moved by the general good-nature of the moment Sir
-Henry made apologies to his guests for the occupations which would
-occupy his morning. He was an active magistrate, and found in this
-version of public duty a relief from the idleness of his retired life.</p>
-
-<p>“I have that scamp Bampfylde in hand again,” he said; “he is never out
-of mischief. Have you ever seen that fellow, Geoff? Wild Bampfylde they
-call him. I think the keepers have a sneaking kindness for him. There is
-not a poaching trick he is not up to. I am tired of hearing his name.”</p>
-
-<p>“What did you say was his name?” said Geoff’s mother.</p>
-
-<p>The other Lady Stanton had looked up too with a little start, which
-attracted Geoff’s attention. He stopped short in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_160" id="page_160">{160}</a></span> middle of an
-animated discussion with the girls on the arrangements of the afternoon,
-to hear what was being said.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! to be sure&mdash;Bampfylde; for the moment I had forgotten,” Sir Henry
-said. “Yes&mdash;that family of course, and a handsome fellow; as fine a man
-as you could see in the north country. Certainly they are a good-looking
-race.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose it is gipsy blood,” said the elder Lady Stanton, with a sigh.
-“Poor people! Yes, I say poor people, Sir Henry, for there is no one to
-care what evil ways they take. So far out of the way among the hills, no
-teaching, no clergyman; oh, I make every excuse for them! They will not
-be judged as we are, with our advantages.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know about our advantages,” said Sir Henry, somewhat grimly;
-“but I sha’n’t make excuses for them. A pest to the country; not to
-speak of the tragedy they were involved in&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, don’t let us speak of that,” said Mary, under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>Sir Henry gave her a look which irritated young Geoff. The young man
-felt himself his beautiful cousin’s champion, and he would have liked to
-call even her husband to account for such a glance under frowning
-eyebrows at so gentle a creature. Sir Henry for his part did not like
-his wife to show any signs of recollecting her own past history. He did
-not do very much to make her forget it, and was a cold and indifferent
-husband, but still he was affronted that she should be able to remember
-that she had not always been his wife.</p>
-
-<p>“I wish it did not hurt you, Cousin Mary,” said Geoff, interposing, “for
-I should like to speak of it, to have it all gone into. I am sure there
-is wrong somewhere. You said yourself about that young Musgrave&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh hush, hush, Geoff!” she said under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“He cannot be young now,” said the elder lady. “I am very sorry for him
-too, my dear. It is not given to us to see into men’s hearts, but I
-never believed that John Musgrave&mdash;&mdash; I beg your pardon, Mary, for
-naming him before you, of course it must be painful. And to me too. But
-it is such a long time ago, and I think if it were all to do over
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_161" id="page_161">{161}</a></span>again&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“It would have been done over again and the whole case sifted if John
-Musgrave had not behaved like a fool, or a guilty man,” said Sir Henry.
-“It is not a pleasant subject for discussion, is it? I was an idiot to
-bring up the fellow’s name. I forgot what good memories you ladies
-have,” he said, getting up and breaking up the party. And there was
-still a frown upon his face as he looked at his wife.</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter with papa?” cried the girls in a breath. “You have
-been upsetting him. You have worried him somehow!” exclaimed Lydia,
-turning upon her stepmother. “And everything was going so well, and he
-was in such a good humour. But it is always the way just when we want a
-little peace and comfort. I never saw such a house as ours! And he is
-not very unreasonable, not when you know how to manage him&mdash;papa.”</p>
-
-<p>As for Mary, she broke down and cried, but smiled again, trying to keep
-up appearances. “It is nothing,” she said; “your father is not angry. It
-will all be right in a moment. I suppose I am very silly. Run, little
-ones, and bring me some eau-de-cologne, quick! You must not think Sir
-Henry was really annoyed,” she said, turning to Lady Stanton. “He is
-just a little impatient; you know he has all his old Indian ways; and I
-am so silly.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think you are silly,” said Lady Stanton, who herself was
-flushed and excited. “It was natural you should be disturbed, and I too.
-Sir Henry need not have been so impatient; but we don’t know his
-motives,” she added hastily, with the habitual apology she made for
-everybody who was or seemed in the wrong.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, how tiresome it all is,” cried Lydia, stamping her foot, “when
-people will make scenes! Come along, Geoff; come with us and let us see
-what is to be done. Everything has to be done still. I meant to ask papa
-to give the orders; but when he is put out, it is all over. Do come;
-there are the hoops to put up, and everything to do. Laura, never mind
-your tiresome presents. Come along! or the people will be here, and
-nothing will be done.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is how they always go on,” said Laura, following her sister with
-her lap full of her treasures, “Come, Geoff. It is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_162" id="page_162">{162}</a></span> so easy to put papa
-out; and when he is put out he is no good for anything. Do come. I do
-not think this time, Lydia, it was <i>her</i> fault.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it is always her fault,” said the harsher sister: “and sending
-these two tiresome children for the eau-de-cologne! She always sends
-them for the eau-de-cologne. As if that could do any good! like putting
-out a fire with rose-water. There now, Laura, put your rubbish away, and
-I will begin settling everything with Geoff.”</p>
-
-<p>The young man obeyed the call unwillingly; but he went with his cousins,
-having no excuse to stay, and did their work obediently, though his mind
-was full of very different things. He had put aside the Musgrave
-business since his visit to Penninghame, not knowing how to act, and he
-had not spoken of it to his mother; but now it returned upon him with
-greater interest than ever. Bampfylde he knew was the name of the girl
-whom John Musgrave had married, whom his brother Walter had loved, and
-whom the quarrel was about; and she it was who, with her mother, had
-been accused of helping young Musgrave’s escape. All the story seemed to
-reopen even upon him with the name; and how much more upon those two
-ladies who were so much more deeply interested. The two girls and their
-games had but a slight hold of Geoff’s mind in comparison with this
-deeper question. He did what they wanted him, but he was <i>distrait</i> and
-preoccupied; and as soon as he was free went anxiously in search of his
-mother, who, he hoped, would tell him more about it. He knew all about
-it, but not as people must do who had been involved in the
-circumstances, and helped to enact that sad drama of real life. He found
-his mother very thoughtful and preoccupied too, seated alone in a little
-sitting-room up-stairs, which was Lady Stanton’s special sanctum. The
-elder Lady Stanton was very serious. She welcomed her son with a
-momentary smile and no more. “I have been thinking over that dreadful
-story,” she said; “it has all come back upon me, Geoff. Sometimes a name
-is enough to bring back years of one’s life. I was then as Mary is now.
-No, no, my dear, your good father was very different from Sir Henry; but
-a stepmother is often not very happy. It used to be the other way, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_163" id="page_163">{163}</a></span>
-story-books say. Oh, Geoff, young people don’t mean it&mdash;they don’t
-think; but they can make a poor woman’s life very wretched. It has
-brought everything back to me. That&mdash;and the name of this man.”</p>
-
-<p>“You have never told me much about it, mother.”</p>
-
-<p>“What was the use, my dear? You were too young to do anything; and then,
-what was there to do? Poor Mr. Musgrave fled, you know. Everybody said
-that was such a pity. It would have been brought in only manslaughter if
-he had not escaped and gone away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it was madness and cowardice,” said Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>“It was the girl,” said his mother. “No, I am not blaming her; perhaps
-she knew no better. And his father and all his family were so opposed.
-Perhaps they thought, to fly away out of everybody’s reach, the two
-together, was the best way out of it. When young people are so much
-attached to each other,” said the anxious mother, faltering, half afraid
-even to speak of such mysteries to her son, “they are tempted to think
-that being together is everything. But it is not everything, Geoff. Many
-others, as well as John Musgrave, have lost themselves for such a
-delusion as that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is it a delusion?” Geoff asked, making his mother tremble. Of whom
-could the boy be thinking? He was thinking of nobody&mdash;till it suddenly
-occurred to him how the eyes of that little girl at Penninghame might
-look if they were older; and that most likely it was the same eyes which
-had made up to John Musgrave for the loss of everything. After all,
-perhaps this unfortunate one, whom everybody pitied, might have had some
-compensation. As he was thinking thus, and his mother was watching him,
-very anxious to know what he was thinking, Lady Stanton came in suddenly
-by a private door, which opened from her own room. She had a little
-additional colour on her cheeks, and was breathless with haste.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, where is Geoff, I wonder?” she said; then seeing him, ran up to
-him. “Geoff, there is some one down-stairs you will like to see. If you
-are really so interested in all that sad story&mdash;really so anxious to
-help poor John&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, who is it? Tell me who it is, and I will go.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_164" id="page_164">{164}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Elizabeth Bampfylde is down-stairs,” she said, breathless, putting her
-hand to her heart. “The mother of the man Sir Henry was speaking of&mdash;the
-mother of&mdash;the girl. There is no one knows so much as that woman. She is
-sitting there all alone, and there is nobody in the way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mary!” cried the elder lady, “is it right to plunge my boy into it? We
-have suffered enough already. Is it right to make Geoff a victim&mdash;Geoff,
-who knows nothing about it? Oh, my dear, I know you mean it for the
-best!”</p>
-
-<p>Mary fell back abashed and troubled.</p>
-
-<p>“I did not mean to harm him, Lady Stanton. I did not think it would harm
-him. Never mind; never mind, if your mother does not approve. After all,
-perhaps, she knows no more than we do,” she said, with an attempt at a
-smile. “The sight of her made me forget myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Where is she?” said the young man.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! that is just what overcame me,” said Mary, with a sob, and a
-strange smile at the irony of fate&mdash;“down-stairs in <i>my</i> husband’s room.
-I have seen her often in the road and in the village&mdash;but here, in my
-house! Never mind, Geoff; it was she that helped him to get out of
-prison. They were bold, they had no fear of anything; not like us, who
-are ladies, who cannot stir a step without being watched. Never mind,
-never mind! it is not really of any consequence. She is sitting there
-in&mdash;in my husband’s room!” Mary said, with a sob and a little hysterical
-laugh. It was not strange to the others, but simple enough and natural.
-She alone knew how strange it was. “But stop, stop&mdash;oh, don’t pay any
-attention. Don’t go now, Geoff!”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff! my dear Geoff!” cried his mother running to the door after him,
-but for once Geoff paid no attention. He hurried down-stairs, clearing
-them four or five steps at a time. The ladies could not have followed
-him if they would. The door of Sir Henry’s business room stood open, and
-he could see an old woman seated like a statue, in perfect stillness, on
-a bench against the wall. She wore a large grey cloak with a hood
-falling back upon her shoulders, and a white cap, and sat with her hands
-crossed in her lap, waiting. She raised her eyes quickly when he came in
-with a look of anxiety and expectation,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_165" id="page_165">{165}</a></span> but when she found it was not
-the person she expected, bowed her fine head resignedly and relapsed
-into quiet. The delay which is always so irksome did not seem to affect
-her. There was something in the pose of the figure which showed that to
-be seated there quite still and undisturbed was not disagreeable to her.
-She was not impatient. She was an old woman and glad to rest; she could
-wait.</p>
-
-<p>“You are waiting for Sir Henry?” Geoff said, in his eagerness. “Have you
-seen him? Can I do anything for you?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, sir. I hope you’ll forgive me rising. I have walked far and I’m
-tired. Time is not of so much consequence now as it used to be. I can
-bide.” She gave him a faint smile as she spoke, and looked at him with
-eyes undimmed, eyes that reminded him of the child at Penninghame. Her
-voice was fine too, large and melodious, and there was nothing fretful
-or fidgety about her. Except for one line in her forehead everything
-about her was calm. She could bide.</p>
-
-<p>And this is a power which gives its possessor unbounded superiority over
-the impatient and restless. Geoff was all curiosity, excitement, and
-eagerness. “I don’t think Sir Henry will have any time for you to-day,”
-he said; “tell me what it is. I will do all I can for you. I should like
-to be of use to you. Sir Henry is going to his luncheon presently. I
-don’t think you will see him to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>Just at this moment a servant came in with the same information, but it
-was given in a somewhat different tone. “Look here, old lady,” said the
-man, “you’ll have to clear out of this. There’s a party this afternoon,
-and Sir Henry he hasn’t got any time for the likes of you. So march is
-the word.&mdash;I beg your lordship ten thousand pardons. I didn’t see as
-your lordship was there.”</p>
-
-<p>“You had better learn to be civil to every one,” said Geoff,
-indignantly; “beg <i>her</i> pardon, not mine. You are&mdash;Mrs. Bampfylde, I
-think? May I speak to you, since Sir Henry cannot see you? I have very
-urgent business&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>She rose slowly, paying no attention to the man&mdash;looking only at Geoff.
-“And you are the young lord?” she said with an<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_166" id="page_166">{166}</a></span> intent look. There was a
-certain dignity about her movements, though she seemed to set herself in
-motion with difficulty, stiffly, as if the exertion cost her something.
-“I’ve had a long walk,” she added, with a faint smile and half apology
-for the effort, “there’s where age tells. And all my trouble for
-nothing!”</p>
-
-<p>“If I can be of any use to you I will,” said Geoff. Then he paused and
-added, “I want you to do something for me.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it that old ’Lizabeth Bampfylde could do for a fine young
-gentleman? Your fortune?&mdash;ay, I’ll give you your fortune easy; a kind
-tongue and a bright eye carries that all over the world. And you look as
-if you had a kind heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not my fortune,” he said with an involuntary smile.</p>
-
-<p>“You’re no believer in the likes of that? May be you have never met with
-one that had the power. It runs in families; it runs in the blood. There
-was one of your house, my young lord, that I could have warned of what
-was coming. I saw it in his face. And, oh that I had done it! But he
-would not have been warned. Oh! what that would have saved me and mine,
-as well as you and yours!”</p>
-
-<p>“You think of my brother then when you see me?” he said, eager at once
-to follow out this beginning. She looked at him again with a
-scrutinizing gaze.</p>
-
-<p>“What had I to do with your brother, young gentleman? He never asked me
-for his fortune any more than you; he did not believe in the likes of
-me. It is only the silly folk and the simple folk that believe in us. I
-wish they would be guided by us that are our own flesh and blood&mdash;and
-then they would never get into trouble like my boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“What has he done?” asked Geoff, thinking to conciliate. He had followed
-her out of the house, and was walking by her side through the
-shrubberies by the back way.</p>
-
-<p>“What has he done? Something, nothing. He’s taken a fish in the river,
-or a bird out of the wood. They’re God’s creatures, not yours, or Sir
-Henry’s. But the rich and the great, that have every dainty they can set
-their face to, make it a crime for a poor lad when he does that.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff did not make any answer, for he had a respect for game,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_167" id="page_167">{167}</a></span> and would
-not commit himself; but he said, “I will do anything I can for your son,
-if you will help me. Yes, you can help me, and I think you know you can,
-Mrs. Bampfylde.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am called ’Lizabeth,” said the old woman, with dignity, as if she had
-said, I am called Princess. Her tone had so much effect upon Geoff that
-he cried, “I beg your pardon,” instinctively, and faltered and coloured
-as he went on&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I want to know about what happened when I was a child&mdash;about my
-brother’s death&mdash;about&mdash;the man who caused it. They tell me you know
-more than any one else. I am not asking for idle curiosity. You know a
-great deal, or so I have heard, about John Musgrave.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hus&mdash;sh!” she cried, “it is not safe to say names&mdash;you never know who
-may hear.”</p>
-
-<p>“But all the world may hear,” said Geoff. “I am not afraid. I want him
-to come home. I want him to be cleared. If you know anything that can
-help him, tell me. I will never rest now till I have got that sentence
-changed and he is cleared.”</p>
-
-<p>The old woman looked at him, growing pale, with a sort of alarmed
-admiration. “You’re a bold boy,” she said, “very bold! It’s because
-you’re so young&mdash;how should you know? When a man has enemies we should
-be careful how we name him. It might bring ill-luck or more harm.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t believe much in ill-luck, and I don’t believe in enemies at
-all,” said Geoff, with the confidence of his years.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” she cried, with a long moan, wringing her hands. “Oh, God help
-you, innocent boy!”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” Geoff repeated, more boldly still, “neither in enemies nor in
-ill-luck, if the man himself is innocent. But I believe in friends. I am
-one; and if you are one&mdash;if you are his friend, his true friend, why,
-there is nothing we may not do for him,” the young man cried, standing
-still to secure her attention. She paused too for a moment, gazing at
-him, with a low cry now and then of wonder and distress; her mind was
-travelling over regions to which young Geoff had no clue, but his
-courage and confidence had compelled her attention at least. She
-listened while he went on repeating his appeal; only to tell him what
-she knew, what she remembered&mdash;to tell him everything. It<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_168" id="page_168">{168}</a></span> seemed all so
-simple to Geoff; he went on with his pleadings, following through the
-winding walk. It was all he could do to keep up with her large and
-steady stride as she went on quickening her pace. The stiffness had
-disappeared, and she walked like one accustomed to long tramping over
-moor and hill.</p>
-
-<p>“My young lord,” she exclaimed abruptly, stopping him in the midst of a
-sentence, “you’ve talked long enough; I know all you can say now; and
-here’s the bargain I’ll make. If my lad gets free, I’ll take his
-advice&mdash;and if he consents, and you have a mind to come up to the fells
-and see me where I bide&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly I will come,” cried Geoff, feeling a delightful gleam of
-adventure suddenly light up his more serious purpose. “Certainly I will
-come; only tell me where I shall find you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You’re going too fast, my young gentleman. I said if my lad gets free.
-Till I have talked to him I’ll tell you nothing. And my bit of a place
-is a lonely place where few folk ever come near.”</p>
-
-<p>“I can find it,” said Geoff. “I do not mind how lonely it is. I will
-come&mdash;to-morrow, whenever you please.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not till my lad comes to fetch you,” said ’Lizabeth, with a gleam of
-shrewd humour crossing her face for a moment. “I must see my lad first,
-and hear what he says, and then I’ll send him to show you the way.”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be better not to make it dependent on that chance,” said Geoff
-prudently. “He might not care to come; I don’t know your son; why should
-he take so much trouble for me? He may decline to do it, or he may
-dislike my interference, or&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Or he may not get free,” said ’Lizabeth, stopping short, and dismissing
-her young attendant almost imperiously. “Here you and me part paths, my
-young lord. It will be soon enough to say more when my lad is free.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was left standing at the outer gate, startled by the abruptness of
-his dismissal, but incapable he felt of resisting. He gazed after her as
-she sped along the road with long swift steps, half-appalled, greatly
-excited, and with a touch of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_169" id="page_169">{169}</a></span> amusement too. “I am to cheat justice for
-her in the first place, and elude the law,” he said to himself as he
-watched her disappearing along the dusty road.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XVIII" id="CHAPTER_XVIII"></a>CHAPTER XVIII.<br /><br />
-<small>A NEW FRIEND.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> result of this interview was that Geoff, as was natural, threw
-himself body and soul into the cause of Wild Bampfylde. When he had once
-made up his mind to this, a certain comic element in the matter
-delighted him and gave him double fervour. The idea of defeating justice
-was delightful to the young man, not much older than a schoolboy. He
-talked to all the people he met about the case of this wild man of the
-woods, this innocent savage, to whom all the sylvan sins came by nature;
-and he engaged the best lawyer who could be had to defend him, and if
-possible get the wild fellow free. Where was the harm? Wild Bampfylde
-had never been guilty of violence to any human creature, he ascertained.
-It was only the creatures of the woods he waged war against, not even
-the gamekeepers. And when Sir Henry, coming home from Quarter Sessions,
-informed the party that Wild Bampfylde had managed to get off by some
-quibble, the magistrates being fairly tired of convicting him, everybody
-was delighted to hear of the safety of Geoff’s <i>protégé</i> except the two
-elder ladies, who showed no satisfaction. Neither of them were glad,
-notwithstanding that Geoff was so much interested; Lady Stanton from a
-vague concern for her son, and Mary because of the prejudice in her
-which all her gentleness could not eradicate. She looked at Geoff with
-tears in her eyes. “You will have nothing to do with them,” she said;
-“him nor any of them? Oh, Geoff, promise!” which was inconsistent, as it
-was she herself who had put the old mother in his way. But Geoff only
-laughed, and asked what he could have to do with them, and made no
-promise. This episode had not interfered with the business of life, with
-the afternoon party or the dinner, the dancing or the croquet. All had
-“gone off” as well as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_170" id="page_170">{170}</a></span> possible. Laura and Lydia had “enjoyed
-themselves” to their hearts’ content. They had been admired and praised
-and fêted, and every one had said it was a delightful party. What more
-could any young lady of nineteen desire? Geoff was very good-natured,
-and did everything that was asked of him. And Laura wore his bracelet,
-which was much admired by her friends, and gave rise to many pleasant
-suggestions. “He is just the very person for you,” Lydia said
-reflectively, as she examined it. “Now I should have liked emeralds or
-diamonds, or grown-up jewels; but the turquoises are the very thing for
-you. He sees your taste. If he were not Lord Stanton, just for simple
-suitableness you should marry Geoff&mdash;he is the very person for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not see why I should be made to marry any one for simple
-suitableness, as if I were a baby,” was Laura’s protestation; but she
-liked the turquoises, and she did not dislike the hints and smiling
-gossip. And when young Lord Stanton and his mother went away, the house
-regretted them from the highest to the lowest. The little girls stood
-behind backs, crying, when the carriage drove away. “I should like to
-know what they have to cry about,” Lydia said; “what is Geoff to them?
-It is such nonsense; but they always are encouraged in everything. You
-two little things, stop that, and be off with you! You are always in
-some one’s way.”</p>
-
-<p>“He is as much our cousin as yours,” said Fanny, who was always known to
-be saucy; but they skimmed away in a panic when Lydia turned round upon
-them, not knowing what she might do. “Oh, how nice it would be to have
-nothing but a mamma!” they said to each other as they alighted in her
-room, where it was always quiet, and smoothed down their ruffled plumes.
-Poor little doves! it was not for Geoff alone they were crying, for
-Geoff’s mother had been very good to them. They had hung about her for
-hours, and had stories told to them, and the world seemed an empty sort
-of place when these two visitors went away.</p>
-
-<p>The mother and son drove home to their own house, he a little sorry, she
-a little glad. It was wrong perhaps to be glad, implying a kind of tacit
-censure on the people she had left; but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_171" id="page_171">{171}</a></span> there was no harm in being
-happy to get home. Stanton Hall was not an immemorial place like
-Penninghame, nor a cosy unpretending country house like Elfdale, but a
-great mansion intended to be grand and splendid, and overawe the
-country. The splendour had fallen into a little disuse during Geoff’s
-long minority, but as he had lived chiefly at home with his mother, it
-had proportionately gained in comfort and the home aspect which only
-being lived in can give to a house. They lived chiefly in one wing,
-leaving the state part of the mansion almost unoccupied. Geoff had not
-been brought up as most youths of his age are brought up. His mother had
-been too timorous, both physically and spiritually, to trust her child
-amid all the appalling dangers and indulgences of a public school. And
-he had not even, more wonderful still, gone to any university. She was
-his sole guardian, no one sharing her powers, for it never had been
-supposed that little Geoff would be anybody in particular, or that it
-was of the least importance how his mother brought him up. His education
-had therefore been chiefly conducted at home by a tutor, chosen rather
-for his goodness than his learning. Did it matter very much? Geoff was
-not very clever, and it does not require much learning, as Mrs.
-Hardcastle concluded in the case of her son Tony Lumpkin, to spend
-fifteen thousand a year. Geoff had learned a great many things which
-university men do not much meddle with, and he had forgotten as
-successfully as any university man could do. He had a great deal less
-Greek, but a good deal more French than most of those heroes; and he was
-a good, honest, simple-hearted boy, as, Heaven be praised, in spite of
-their many advantages, a great many of those same university men manage
-to be. And, in short, he was very much like his contemporaries, though
-brought up so very differently&mdash;a fact which would have wounded his
-mother’s feelings more than anything else you could have said; for if
-the result is just about the same as it would have been by the other
-process, what is the good of taking a great deal of additional trouble?
-Mr. Tritton, the tutor, had been all alone at Stanton during this visit
-to Elfdale. He was a very good man. He had been as kind as a father to
-Geoff from the moment he took charge of him, and had watched over him
-with unfailing care;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_172" id="page_172">{172}</a></span> indeed he was like a second mother as
-well&mdash;perhaps more like that than the other&mdash;very anxious not to
-“over-tire” his pupil, or to put any strain on his faculties. They were
-the most peaceful household that could be conceived, and Geoff,
-according to all rule, ought to have grown up a very feminine youth. But
-by good luck he had not done so. In that demure household he got to be a
-lively, energetic, out-door sort of person, and loved adventure, and
-loved life perhaps all the better in consequence of the meek atmosphere
-of quietness which surrounded him. To tell the truth it was he who, for
-a long time, had held the helm of the house in his hand, and had
-everything his own way.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Tritton was upon the steps to welcome them, and the servants, who
-were glad to see them back after the week of quiet. Who does not know
-the kind of servants Lady Stanton would have?&mdash;men and women who had
-seen the boy grow up, and thought or seemed to think there was nobody in
-the world like Geoff&mdash;a housekeeper to whom her mistress was very
-obsequious and conciliatory, but whom Geoff treated with a familiarity
-which sometimes froze the very blood in his mother’s veins, who would
-not for the world have taken such liberties; and a butler, who felt
-himself an independent country gentleman, and went and came very much at
-his own pleasure, and governed his inferiors <i>en bon prince</i>, but with a
-lively sense of his own importance. These all received the travellers
-with cordiality at the door, and brought them tea and were very kind to
-them. It was quite touching and gratifying to Lady Stanton that they
-should always be so kind. Harris, the butler, took her little
-travelling-bag, and carried it into the drawing-room with his own hand;
-and Mrs. Benson herself came to pour out her cup of tea. “I hope your
-ladyship is not too much tired with your long drive,” Mrs. Benson said;
-and Harris kindly lingered to hear her reply, and to assure her that all
-had been going on well at Stanton while she was away.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff did not pay so much attention to the kindness of the servants. He
-went off to the stables to give some orders, leaving Mr. Tritton with
-his mother. Geoff called his tutor Old Tritton as easily as if he had
-mixed in the world of men at Eton or Oxford, and went off about his own
-business unconcerned. But<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_173" id="page_173">{173}</a></span> when he had turned the corner of the house to
-the stables, Geoff’s whistle stopped suddenly. He found a man standing
-there with his back against the wall, whose appearance startled him. A
-poacher is a thing that is obnoxious to every country gentleman, however
-easy his principles may be on the question of game; and a tramp is a
-thing that nobody with a house worth robbing can away with. The figure
-that presented itself thus suddenly before Lord Stanton’s eyes was the
-quintessence of both; a tall, loose-limbed man, with strong black locks
-and an olive skin, in coarse velveteen and gaiters, and a coat with
-multitudinous pockets, with a red handkerchief knotted round his neck, a
-soft felt hat crushed into all manner of shapes, and a big stick in his
-hand. He stood in a careless attitude, at his ease, leaning against the
-wall. What had such a man to do there? and yet there he was for a
-purpose, as any one could see, lying in wait; was it to rob, or to kill?
-Geoff’s heart gave a little leap at the sight of the intruder. He had
-not had much experience of this kind.</p>
-
-<p>“What are you doing here?” he asked sharply, the instincts of property
-and authority springing up in disapproval and resistance. What had such
-a fellow to do here?</p>
-
-<p>“I am doing nothing,” said the man, not changing his attitude, or even
-taking off his hat, or showing the smallest mark of respect. He
-continued even to lounge against the wall with rude indifference. “I am
-here on your business, not on mine,” he said, carelessly.</p>
-
-<p>“On my business! Yes, I know,” said Geoff, suddenly bethinking himself;
-“you are Bampfylde? I am glad you’ve got off; and you come to me
-from&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Old ’Lizabeth; that is about it. She’s a funny woman: whatever silly
-thing she wants she always gets her way. She wants you now, and I’ve
-come to fetch you. I suppose you’ll come, since she says it. And you’d
-better make up your mind soon, for it does not suit me to stay here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose not,” said Geoff, scarcely noticing what he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Why should you suppose not!” said the man, rousing himself with an air
-of offence. He was taller than Geoff, a lanky but muscular figure. “I
-have eyes and feelings as well as you.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_174" id="page_174">{174}</a></span> I like a fine place. Why
-shouldn’t I take my pleasure looking at it? You have a deal more, and
-yet you’re not content.”</p>
-
-<p>“We were not discussing our feelings,” said Geoff, half contemptuous,
-half sympathetic. “You have brought me a message, perhaps from your
-mother?”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve come from old ’Lizabeth. She says if you like to start to-night
-along with me we’ll talk your business over, and if she can satisfy you
-she will. Look you here, my young lord, your lordship’s a deal of
-consequence to some, but it’s nothing to her and me. Come, if you like
-to come; it’s your business, not our’s. If there’s danger it’s your own
-risk, if there’s any good it’s you that will have it, not us&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Danger!” said Geoff; “the danger of a walk up the fells! and good&mdash;to
-me? Yes, you can say it is to me if you like, but you ought to be more
-interested than I am. However, words don’t matter. Yes, let us say the
-good is mine, and the danger, if any, is mine&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Have it your own way,” said Bampfylde. “I’ll come back again, since
-you’ve made up your mind, at ten to-night and show you the way.”</p>
-
-<p>“But why at night?” said Geoff; “to-morrow would be better. It is not
-too far to go in a day.”</p>
-
-<p>“There’s the difference between you and us. Night is our time, you see.
-It must be by night or not at all. Would you like to walk with me across
-country, my lord? I don’t think you would, nor I wouldn’t like it. We
-shouldn’t look natural together. But at night all’s one. I’ll be here at
-ten; there’s a moon&mdash;and a two hours’ walk, or say three at the most,
-it’s nothing to a young fellow like you.”</p>
-
-<p>This was a very startling proposition, and Geoff did not know what to
-make of it. It grew more and more like a mysterious adventure, and
-pleased him on that side; but he was a modern young man, with a keen
-perception of absurdity, and everything melodramatic was alarming to
-him. Why should he walk mysteriously in the middle of the night to a
-cottage about which there need be no mystery on a perfectly innocent and
-honest errand? He stared at his strange visitor with a perplexity beyond
-words.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_175" id="page_175">{175}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“What possible object could be gained,” he said at last, “by going in
-the night?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, if you’re afraid!” said this strange emissary, “don’t go&mdash;that’s
-all about it: neither me nor her are forcing you to hear what we may
-happen to know.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not afraid,” said Geoff, colouring. It was an accusation which was
-very hard to bear. “But there is reason in all things. I don’t want to
-be ridiculous&mdash;” The man shrugged his shoulders&mdash;he laughed&mdash;nothing
-could have been more galling. Geoff standing, looking at him, felt the
-blood boiling in his veins.</p>
-
-<p>“Quite right too,” said Bampfylde. “What can we know that’s worth the
-trouble? You’ll take a drive up some day in your coach and four, and
-oblige us. That is just what I would do myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“In Heaven’s name, what am I expected to do?” cried Geoff; “make a
-melodramatic ass of myself, and go in the middle of the night?”</p>
-
-<p>“I’m no scholar: long words are not my sort. Do or don’t, that’s the
-thing I understand, and it is easy to settle. If you’re not coming, say
-No, and I’ll go. If you are coming, let me know, and I’ll be here.
-There’s nothing to make such a wonder about.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was in great doubt what was best to do. The adventure pleased him;
-but the idea of ridicule held him back. “It is not pleasant to be
-thought a fool,” he said. Then, nettled by the jeer in the face of this
-strange fellow who kept his eyes&mdash;great, dark, and brilliant as they
-were&mdash;fixed upon him, the young man cut the knot hurriedly. “Then never
-mind the absurdity; be here at ten, as you say, and wait if I am not
-ready. I don’t want everybody to know what a fool I am,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“You are coming then?” said the man with a laugh. “That’s plucky
-whatever happens. You’re not afraid?”</p>
-
-<p>“Pooh!” cried Geoff, turning away. He was too indignant and annoyed to
-speak. He went on impatiently to the stables, leaving the stranger where
-he stood. He was not afraid; but his young frame thrilled in every fibre
-with excitement. Had not adventures of this kind sounded somewhat
-ridiculous to the ideas of to-day, the mysterious expedition would have
-been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_176" id="page_176">{176}</a></span> delightful to him. But that uneasy sense of the ridiculous kept
-down his anticipations. What could old ’Lizabeth have to tell that could
-justify such precautions? But if she chose to be fantastic about her
-secret, whatever it was, he must humour her. When he went in again,
-there was no sign of his visitor, except the half-effaced mark of a
-footstep on the soft gravel. The man had ground the heel of his boot
-into it while he stood talking, and there it was, his mark to show the
-place where he had been.</p>
-
-<p>The evening passed very strangely to young Lord Stanton. He heard his
-mother and Mr. Tritton talking calmly of to-morrow. To-morrow the old
-family lawyer was expected, and some of the arrangements attendant on
-his coming of age, which was approaching, were to be discussed; and he
-was asked, What he would like&mdash;in one or two respects. Should this be
-done, or that, when his birthday came? Geoff could not tell what curious
-trick of imagination affected him. He caught himself asking, Would he
-ever come of age? Would to-morrow be just as the other days, no more and
-no less? How absurd the question was! What could possibly happen to him
-in a long mountain walk, even though it might be through the darkness?
-There is nothing in that homely innocent country to make midnight
-dangerous. Wild Bampfylde might be an exciting sort of companion; but
-what more? As for enemies, Geoff remembered what he had said so short a
-time before. He did not believe in them; why should he? he himself, he
-felt convinced, possessed no such thing in all the world.</p>
-
-<p>But it was astonishing how difficult it was that evening to get free.
-Lady Stanton, who generally was fatigued with the shortest journey, was
-cheerful and talkative to-night, and overflowing with plans; and even
-Mr. Tritton was entertaining. It was only by saying that he had letters
-to write that Geoff at last managed to get away. He disliked writing
-letters so much that the plea was admitted with smiles. “We must not
-balk such a virtuous intention,” the tutor said. He went into the
-library with a beating heart. This room had a large window which opened
-upon the old-fashioned bowling-green. Geoff changed his dress with great
-speed and quiet, putting on a rough shooting suit.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_177" id="page_177">{177}</a></span> The night was dark,
-but soft, with stars faintly lighting up a hazy sky. He stepped out from
-the big window and closed it after him. The air was very fresh, a little
-chilly, as even a midsummer night generally is in the north country. He
-gave a little nervous shiver as he came out into the darkness and
-dullness. “There’s some one walking over your grave,” said a voice at
-his elbow. Geoff started, to his own intense shame and annoyance, as if
-he had received a shot. “Very likely,” he said, commanding himself;
-“over all our graves perhaps. That harms nobody. You are there,
-Bampfylde? That’s well; don’t talk, but go on.”</p>
-
-<p>“You’re a good bold one after all,” said the voice by his side. Geoff’s
-heart beat uneasily at the sound, and yet the commendation gave him a
-certain pleasure. He was more at his ease when they emerged from the
-shadow of the house, and he could see the outline of his companion’s
-figure, and realize him as something more than a voice. He gave a
-somewhat longing look back at the scattered lights in the windows as he
-set out thus through the silence and darkness. Would any one find out
-that he was gone? But his spirit rose as they went on, at a steady pace,
-swinging along under the deep hedgerows, and across the frequent bridges
-where so many streamlets kept crossing the road, adding an unseen tinkle
-to the sounds of the summer night.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XIX" id="CHAPTER_XIX"></a>CHAPTER XIX.<br /><br />
-<small>A MIDNIGHT WALK.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">When</span> young Lord Stanton left his own house with Wild Bampfylde there was
-a tingle of excitement in the young man’s veins. Very few youths of his
-age are to be found so entirely home-bred as Geoff. He had never been in
-the way of mischief, and he had no natural tendency to lead him
-thitherward, so that he had passed these first twenty years of his
-existence without an adventure, without anything occurring to him that
-might not have been known to all the world. To leave your own house<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_178" id="page_178">{178}</a></span>
-when other people are thinking of going to bed, for an expedition you
-know not where, under the guidance of you know not whom, is a
-sufficiently striking beginning to the path of mystery and adventure;
-and there was a touch of personal peril in it which gave Geoff a little
-tingle in his veins. His brother had been killed by some one with whom
-this wild fellow was closely connected; it was a secret of blood which
-the young man had set himself to solve one way or other; and this no
-doubt affected his imagination, and for a short time the consciousness
-of danger was strong in him, quickening his pulses and making his heart
-beat. This was increased by a sense of wrong-doing, in so far as Geoff
-felt that he might be exposing the tranquil household he had left behind
-to agonies of apprehension about him, did he not return sufficiently
-early to escape being found out. Finally, on the top of this
-consciousness of conditional fault came a feeling, perhaps the most
-strong of all, of the possible absurdity of his position. Romantic
-adventure, if it never ceases to be attractive to the young, is looked
-upon with different eyes at different periods, and the nineteenth
-century has agreed to make a joke of melodrama. Instead of being moved
-by a fine romantic situation, the modern youth laughs; and the idea of
-finding himself in such picturesque and dramatic circumstances strikes
-him as the most curious and laughable, if not ridiculous, idea. To
-recognize himself as setting out, like the hero of a novel or a play (of
-the old school), to search out a mystery&mdash;into the haunts of a
-law-defying and probably law-breaking class, under the guidance of a
-theatrical vagrant, tramp, or gipsy, to ask counsel of the weird old
-woman, bright-eyed and solemn, who held all the threads of the story in
-her hands, filled Geoff with mingled confusion and amusement. He had
-almost laughed to himself as he realized it; but with the laugh a flush
-came over his face&mdash;what would other people think? He felt that he would
-be laughed at as romantic, jibed at as being able to believe that any
-real or authentic information could be obtained in this ridiculous way.
-’Lizabeth Bampfylde in the witness-box would no doubt be valuable, but
-the romances she might tell in her own house, to a young man evidently
-so credulous and of such a theatrical temperament&mdash;these two things
-were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_179" id="page_179">{179}</a></span> entirely different, and he would be thoroughly laughed at for his
-foolishness.</p>
-
-<p>This consciousness of something ridiculous in the whole business
-reassured him, however; and better feelings rose as he went on with a
-half-pleased, half-excited, exhilaration and curiosity. The night was
-fine, warm, and genial, but dark; a few stars shone large and lambent in
-the veiled sky, but there was as yet no moon, so that all the light
-there was was concentrated above in the sky, and the landscape
-underneath was wrapped in darkness, a soft, cool, incense-breathing
-obscurity&mdash;for night is as full of odours as the morning. It is full of
-sounds too, all the more mysterious for having no kind of connection
-with the visible; and no country is so full of sounds as the North
-country, where the road will now thread the edge of a dark, unseen,
-heathery, thymy moor, and now cross, at a hundred links and folds, the
-course of some invisible stream, or some dozens of little runlets
-tinkling on their way to a bigger home of waters. Now dark hedgerows
-would close in the path; now it would open up and widen into that world
-of space, the odorous, dewy moorland; now lead by the little street, the
-bridge, the straggling outskirts of a village. Generally all was quiet
-in the hamlets, the houses closed, the inhabitants in bed, but sometimes
-there would be a sudden gleam of lightness into the night, a dazzle from
-an open door or unshuttered window. The first of these rural places was
-Stanton, the village close to the great House, where Geoff unconsciously
-stole closer into the shadow, afraid to be seen. Here it was the smithy
-that was still open, a dazzling centre of light in the gloom. The smith
-came forward to his door as they passed, roused by the steady tread of
-their footsteps, and looked curiously out upon them, his figure relieved
-against the red background of light. “What, Dick! is’t you, lad?” he
-said, peering out. “Got off again? that’s right, that’s right; and who’s
-that along with you this fine night?” Bampfylde did not stop to reply,
-to Geoff’s great relief. He went on with long swinging steps, taking no
-notice. “If anybody asks you, say you don’t know,” he said as he went
-on, throwing back a sort of challenge into the gloom. He did not talk to
-his companion. Sometimes he whistled low, but as clearly as a bird,
-imitating indeed the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_180" id="page_180">{180}</a></span> notes of the birds, the mournful cry of the
-lapwing, the grating call of the corn-crake; sometimes he would sing to
-himself low crooning songs. In this way they made rapid progress to the
-foot of the hills.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff had been glad of the silence at first; it served to deliver him
-from those uncomfortable thoughts which had filled his mind, the
-vagabond’s carelessness reassuring and calming his excitement; for
-neither the uneasy sense of danger he had started with, nor the equally
-uneasy sense of the ludicrous which had possessed him, were consistent
-with the presence of this easy, unexcited companion, who conducted
-himself as if he were alone, and would stop and listen to the whirr and
-flutter of wild creatures in the hedgerows or on the edge of the moor,
-as if he had forgotten Geoff’s very presence. All became simple as they
-went on, the very continuance of the walk settling down and calming the
-agitation of the outset. By and by, however, Geoff began to be impatient
-of the silence, and of the interest his companion showed in everything
-except himself. Could he be, perhaps, one of the “naturals” who are so
-common in the North, a little less imbecile than usual, but still
-incapable of continuous attention? Thus, after his first half-alarmed,
-half-curious sense of the solemnity of the enterprise, Geoff came back
-to an everyday boyish impatience of its unusual features and a
-disposition to return to the lighter intercourse of ordinary life.</p>
-
-<p>“How far have we to go now?” he asked. They had come to the end of the
-level, and were just about to ascend the lower slopes of hilly country
-which shut in the valley. The fells rising before them made the
-landscape still more dark and mysterious, and seemed to thrust
-themselves between the wayfarers’ eyes and that light which seemed to
-retire more and more into the clear pale shining of the sky.</p>
-
-<p>“Tired already?” said the man, with a shrug of his shoulders. He had
-stopped to investigate a hollow under a great gorse-bush, just below the
-level of the road, from which came rustlings and scratchings
-indistinguishable. Bampfylde raised himself with a half-laugh, and came
-back to Geoff’s side. “These small creatures is never tired,” he said;
-“they scuds about all day, and sleep that light at night that a breath
-wakes them; and yet<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_181" id="page_181">{181}</a></span> they’re but small, not so big as my hand; and knows
-their way, they does, wherever they’ve got to go.”</p>
-
-<p>“I allow they are cleverer than I am,” said Geoff, good-humouredly, “but
-then they cannot speak to ask their way. Men have a little advantage.
-And even I am not so ignorant as you think. I have been on the fells in
-a mist, and knew my way, or guessed it. At all events, I got home again,
-and that is something.”</p>
-
-<p>“There will be no mist to-night,” said Bampfylde, looking up at the sky.</p>
-
-<p>“No; but it is dark enough for anything. Look here, I trust you, and you
-might trust me. You know why I am going.”</p>
-
-<p>“How do you trust me, my young lord?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said Geoff; “supposing I am a match for you, one man against
-another, how can I tell you have not got comrades about? My brother lost
-his life&mdash;by some one connected with you. Did you know my brother?”</p>
-
-<p>The suddenness of this question took his companion by surprise. He
-wavered for a moment, and fell backward with an involuntary movement of
-alarm.</p>
-
-<p>“What’s that for, lad, bringing up a dead man’s name out here in the
-dark, and near midnight? Do you want to fley me? <i>I</i> never meddled with
-him. He would be safe in his bed this night, and married to his bonnie
-lady, and bairns in his house to heir his title and take your lordship
-from you, if there had been nobody but me.”</p>
-
-<p>“I believe that,” said Geoff, softened. “They say you never harmed man.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, nor beast&mdash;except varmint, or the like of a hare or so&mdash;when the
-old wife wanted a bit o’ meat. Never man. For man’s blood is precious,”
-said the wild fellow with a shudder. “There’s something in it that’s not
-in a brute. If I were to kill you or you me in this lonesome place,
-police and that sort might never find it out; but all the same, the
-place would tell&mdash;there would be something there different; they say
-man’s blood never rubs out.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff felt a little thrill run through his own veins as he saw his
-companion shiver and tremble; but it was not fear. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_182" id="page_182">{182}</a></span> words somehow
-established perfect confidence between himself and his guide; and he had
-all the simplicity of mind of a youth whose faith had never been
-tampered with, and who believed with the unshaken sincerity of
-childhood. “The stain on the mind never wears out,” he said,
-thoughtfully. “I knew a boy once who had shot his brother without
-knowing it. How horrible it was! he never forgot it; and yet it was not
-his fault.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! I wish as I had been that lucky&mdash;to shoot my brother by accident,”
-said Wild Bampfylde, with a long sigh, shaking into its place a pouch or
-game-bag which he wore across his shoulder. “It would have been the best
-thing for him,” he added, in answer to Geoff’s cry of protest; “then he
-wouldn’t have lived&mdash;for worse&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Have you a brother so unfortunate?”</p>
-
-<p>“Unfortunate! I don’t know if that is what you call it. Yes,
-unfortunate. He never meant bad. I don’t credit it.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are not speaking,” said Geoff, in a very low voice, overpowered at
-once with curiosity and interest, “of John Musgrave?”</p>
-
-<p>“The young Squire? No, I don’t mean him; he’s bad, and bad enough, but
-not so bad. You’ve got a deal to learn, my young lord. And what’s your
-concern with all that old business? If another man’s miserable, <i>that</i>
-don’t take bit or sup from you&mdash;nor a night’s rest, unless you let it.
-You’ve got everything that heart could desire. Why can’t you be content,
-and let other folks be?”</p>
-
-<p>“When we could help them, Bampfylde?” said Geoff. “Is that the way you
-would be done by? Left to languish abroad; left with a stain on your
-name, and no one to hold out a hand for you&mdash;nobody to try to get you
-righted; only thinking of their own comfort, and the bit and the sup and
-the night’s rest?”</p>
-
-<p>“You’ve never done without neither one nor t’other,” came in a hoarse
-undertone from Bampfylde’s lips. “It’s fine talking; but it’s little you
-know.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I’ve never had the chance,” said Geoff. “I can’t tell what it’s
-like, that’s true; but if it ever comes my way&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, ay! it’s fine talking&mdash;it’s fine talking!”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff did not know how to reply. He went on impatiently,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_183" id="page_183">{183}</a></span> tossing aloft
-his young head, as a horse does, excited by his own words like the
-playing of a trumpet. They proceeded so up a stiff bit of ascent that
-taxed their strength and their breathing, and made conversation less
-practicable. The winding mountain road seemed to pierce into the very
-fastnesses of the hills, and the tall figure of the vagrant a stop in
-advance of him appeared to Geoff like the shadow of some ghostly pioneer
-working his way into the darkness. No twinkle of a lamp, no outline of
-any inhabited place looming against the lighter risings of the manifold
-slopes, encouraged their progress. The hills, which would have made the
-very brightness of the morning dark, increased the gloom of the night.
-Only the tinkle of here and there a little stream, the sound of their
-own footsteps as they passed on, one in advance of the other, the small
-noises which came so distinctly through the air&mdash;here a rustle, there a
-jar of movement, something stirring under a stone, something moving amid
-the heather, were to be heard. Bampfylde himself was stilled by these
-great shadows. His whistle dropped; and the low croon of song which he
-had raised from time to time did not take its place. He became almost
-inaudible, as he was almost invisible; only the sound of a measured step
-and a large confused outline seen at times against the uncertain
-openings and bits of darkling sky.</p>
-
-<p>When they came abreast again, however, on a comparatively smooth level,
-after a stiff piece of climbing, he spoke suddenly. “It’s queer work
-going like this through the dark. Many a night I have done it with no
-company, and then a man’s drawn out of himself watching the living
-things: one will stir at your foot, and one go whirr and strike across
-your very face, for they put more trust in you in the dark. You see they
-have the use of their eyesight, and the like of you and me haven’t. So
-they know their advantage. But put a man down beside another man, and
-a’s changed. I cannot understand the meaning of it. It puts things in
-your head, and it puts away the innocent creatures. Men’s seldom
-innocent: but they’re awful strange,” said the vagrant, with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think they are so strange? I am not sure that I do,” said Geoff,
-bewildered a little. “They are just like<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_184" id="page_184">{184}</a></span> everything else&mdash;one is dull,
-one is clever; but except for that&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Clever! it’s the creatures that are clever. Did you ever see a bird
-make a fuss to get you off where her nest was? A woman wouldn’t have
-sense to do that. She’d run and shriek, and get hold of her bairns; but
-the bird’s clever. That’s what I calls clever. It’s something stranger
-than that. When a man’s beside you, all’s different; there’s him
-thinking and you thinking; and though you’re close, and I can grip
-you”&mdash;here Bampfylde seized upon Geoff with a sudden, startling grasp,
-which alarmed the young man&mdash;“I can’t tell no more than Adam where your
-mind is. Asking your pardon, my young lord, I didn’t mean to startle
-you,” he added, dropping his hold. “Now the creatures is all there; you
-know where you have ’em. Far the contrary with a man.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was not given to abstract thoughts, and this sudden entry into the
-regions of the undiscovered perplexed him. “You like company, then?” he
-said, doubtfully. He knew a great deal more than his companion did of
-almost everything that could be suggested, but not of this.</p>
-
-<p>“Like company? it’s confusing, very confusing. But the creatures is
-simple. You can watch their ways, and they’re never double-minded.
-They’re at one thing, one thing at a time. Now, a man, there’s notions
-in his head, and you can never tell how they got there.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose,” said young Geoff, perplexed yet reverential, “it is because
-men are immortal; not like the beasts that perish.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, ay&mdash;I suppose they perish,” said Bampfylde. “What would they be
-like us for, and sicken, and pine? They get the good of it all the time;
-run wild as they like, and do mischief as they like, and never put in
-gaol for it. You think they’re sleeping now? and so they are, and waking
-too&mdash;as still as the stones and as lively as the stars up yonder. That’s
-them; but us, if we’re sleeping, it’s for hours long, and dreams with
-it; one bit of you lying like a log, t’other bit of you off at the ends
-of the airth. So, if you’re woke sudden, chances are you aren’t there to
-be woke&mdash;and there’s a business; but the creatures, they’re always
-there.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_185" id="page_185">{185}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“That is true,” said Geoff, who was slightly overawed, and thought this
-very fine and poetical&mdash;finer than anything he had ever realized before.
-“But sometimes they are ill, I suppose, and suffer too?”</p>
-
-<p>“Then them that is merciful puts them out of their pain. The
-hardest-hearted ones will do that. A bird with a broken wing, or a beast
-with a broken leg, unless it be one of the gentlefolks’ pets, that’s
-half mankind, and has to suffer for it because his master’s fond of him
-(and that’s funny too)&mdash;the worst of folks will put them out of their
-pain. But a man&mdash;we canna’ do it,” cried the vagrant; “there’s law
-again’ it, and more than law. If it was nothing but law, little the
-likes of me would mind; but there’s something written here,” he said,
-putting his hand to his breast; “something that hinders you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope so indeed,” said Geoff, a little breathless, with a sense of
-horror; “you would not take away a life?”</p>
-
-<p>“But the creatures, ay; they have the best of it. You point your gun at
-them, or you wring their necks, and it’s all over. I’m fond of the
-creatures&mdash;creatures of all kinds. I’m fond of being out with them on a
-heathery moor like this all myself. They know me, and there’s no fear in
-them. In the morning early, when the air’s all blue with the dawn, the
-stirring and the moving there is, and the scudding about, setting the
-house in order! A thing not the size of your hand will come out with two
-bright eyes, and cock its head and look up at you. A cat may look at a
-king; a bit of a moor chicken, or a rabbit the size o’ my thumb, up and
-faces you, and, ‘Who are you, my man?’ That is what they looks like; but
-you never see them like that after it’s full day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then is night their happy time?” said Geoff, humouring his strange
-companion.</p>
-
-<p>“Night, they’re free. There’s none about that wishes them harm; and
-though I snare varmint, and sometimes take a hare or a bird,&mdash;I’ll not
-deny it, my young lord, though you were to clap me in prison again
-to-morrow&mdash;they’re not afraid o’ me; they know I’ll not harm them. Even
-the varmint, if they didn’t behave bad and hurt the rest, I’d never have
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_186" id="page_186">{186}</a></span>the heart. When you go back, if you do go back&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I must go back,” said Geoff, very gravely. “Why should not I? You don’t
-think I could stay up here?”</p>
-
-<p>“I was not thinking one thing or another. The like of you is contrary.
-I’ve little to do with men; but when you go, if you go, it might be
-early morning, the blue time, at the dawn. Then’s the time to see; when
-there’s all the business to be done afore the day, and after the night.
-Children is curious,” said Bampfylde, with a softening of his voice,
-which felt in the darkness like a slowly dawning smile; “but creatures
-is more curious yet. I like to watch them. You’ll see all the life
-that’s in the moors if it’s that time when you go.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose if there is anything to tell me I cannot go sooner,” said
-Geoff. His tone was grave, and so was his face, though that was
-invisible. “Then it will be day before I get home, and they will all
-know&mdash;perhaps I was a fool.”</p>
-
-<p>“For coming?” said the man, turning round to peer into his face though
-it was covered by the darkness; and then he gave a low laugh. “I could
-have told you that!”</p>
-
-<p>For a moment Geoff’s blood ran colder; he felt a little thrill of
-dismay. Was this strange creature a “natural” as he had thought, or did
-what he said imply danger? But no more was said for a long time.
-Bampfylde sank back again all at once into the silence he had so
-suddenly broken, or rather into the low crooning of monotonous old songs
-with which he had beguiled the first part of the journey. There was a
-kind of slumbrous soothing in them which half-interested, half-stupefied
-Geoff. They all went to one tune, a tune not like anything he knew&mdash;a
-kind of low chant, recalling several airs that did not vary from verse
-to verse, but repeated itself, and so lulled the wayfarer that all
-active sensation seemed to go from him, and the monotonous, mechanical
-movement of his limbs seemed to beat time to the croon of sound which
-accompanied the gradual march. There was something weird in it,
-something like “the woven paces and the waving hands” of the
-enchantress. Geoff felt his eyes grow heavy, and his head sinking on his
-breast, as the low, regular tramp and chant went on.</p>
-
-<p>At length, all at once, the hills seemed to clear away from the sky,
-opening up on either hand; and straight before them,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_187" id="page_187">{187}</a></span> hanging low, like
-a signal of trouble, a late risen and waning moon that seemed thrust
-forward out into the air, and hanging from the sky, appeared in the
-luminous but mournful heaven in front of them. There is always something
-more or less baleful and troublous in this sudden apparition, so late
-and out of date, of a waning moon; the oil seems low in the lamp, the
-light ready to be extinguished, the flame quivering in the socket.
-Between them and the sky stood a long, low cottage, rambling and
-extensive, with a rough, grey stone wall built round it, upon which the
-pale moonlight shone. Long before they reached it, as soon as their
-steps could be audible, the mingled baying and howling of a dog was
-heard, rising doleful and ominous in the silence; and from under the
-roof&mdash;which was half rough thatch and half the coarse tiles used for
-labourers’ cottages&mdash;a light strangely red against the radiance of the
-moon flickered with a livid glare. A strange black silhouette of a house
-it was, with the low moonlight full upon it, showing here and there in a
-ghostly full white upon a bit of wall or roof, and contrasting with the
-red light in the window: it made a mystic sort of conclusion to the
-journey. Bampfylde directed his steps towards it without a word. He
-knocked a stroke or two on the door, which seemed to echo over all the
-country and up to the mountain-tops in their great stillness. “We are at
-home, now,” he said.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XX" id="CHAPTER_XX"></a>CHAPTER XX.<br /><br />
-<small>THE COTTAGE ON THE FELLS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">There</span> was a sound of movement within the house, but no light visible as
-they stood at the door. Then a window was cautiously opened, and a voice
-called out into the darkness, “Is that you, my lad?” Geoff felt more and
-more the little thrill of alarm which was quite instinctive, and meant
-nothing except excited fancy; such precautions looked unlike the
-ordinary ease and freedom of a peasant’s house. A minute after the door
-was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_188" id="page_188">{188}</a></span> opened, and ’Lizabeth Bampfylde made her appearance. She had her
-red handkerchief as usual tied over her white cap, and the flash of this
-piece of colour and of the old woman’s brilliant eyes were the first
-things which warmed the gloom, the blackness and whiteness and mystic
-midnight atmosphere. She made an old-fashioned curtsey, with a certain
-dignity in it, when she saw Geoff, and her face, which had been somewhat
-eager in expression, paled and saddened instantly. The young man saw her
-arms come together with a gesture of pain, though the candle she held
-prevented the natural clasp of the hands. She was not glad to see him,
-though she had sent for him. This troubled Geoff, whom from his
-childhood most people had been pleased to see. “You’ve come, then, my
-young lord?” she said, with a half-suppressed groan.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, I thought you wanted me to come,” he said, unreasonably annoyed
-by this absence of welcome; “you sent for me.”</p>
-
-<p>“You thought the lad would be daunted,” said Wild Bampfylde, “and I told
-you he would not be daunted if he had any metal in him. So now you’re at
-the end of all your devices. Come in and welcome, my young lord. I’m
-glad of it, for one.”</p>
-
-<p>Saying this, the vagrant disappeared into the gloom of the interior,
-where his step was audible moving about, and was presently followed by
-the striking of a light, which revealed, through an open door, the
-old-fashioned cottage kitchen, so far in advance of other moorland
-cottages of the same kind, that it had a little square entrance from the
-door, which did not open direct into the family living-room. This rude
-little ante-room had even a kind of rude decoration, dimly apparent by
-the light of ’Lizabeth’s candle. A couple of old guns hung on one wall,
-another boasted a deer’s head with fine antlers. Once upon a time it had
-evidently been prized and cared for. The open door of the room into
-which Bampfylde had gone showed the ordinary cottage dresser with its
-gleaming plates (a decoration which in these days has mounted from the
-kitchen to the drawing-room), deal table, and old-fashioned settle,
-lighted dimly by a small lamp on the mantelpiece, and the smouldering
-red of the fire.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_189" id="page_189">{189}</a></span> ’Lizabeth closed the door slowly, and with trembling
-hands, which trembled still more when Geoff attempted to help her. “No,
-no; go in, go in, my young gentleman. Let me be. It’s me to serve the
-like of you, not the like of you to open or shut my door for me. Ah,
-these are the ways that make you differ from common folk!” she said, as
-the young man stood back to let her pass. “My son leaves me to do
-whatever’s to be done, and goes in before me, and calls me to serve him;
-but the like of you&mdash;. It was that, and not his name or his money, that
-took my Lily’s heart.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff followed her into the kitchen. It was low and large, with a small
-deep-set window at each corner, as is usual in such cottages. Before the
-fire was spread a large rug of home manufacture, made of scraps of
-coloured cloth, arranged in an indistinct pattern upon a black
-background, and Bampfylde was occupying himself busily, putting forward
-a large high easy-chair in front of the fire, and breaking the
-“gathered” coals to give at once heat and light. “Sit you down there,”
-he said, thrusting Geoff into it almost with violence, “you’re little
-used to midnight strolling. Me, it’s meat and drink to me to be free and
-aneath the stars. Let her be, let her be. She’s not like one of your
-ladies. Her own way, that’s all the like of her can ever get to please
-them&mdash;and she’s gotten that,” he said, giving another vigorous poke to
-the fire. Up here among the fells the fire was pleasant, though it was
-the middle of August: and Geoff’s young frame was sufficiently unused to
-such long trudges to make him glad of the rest. He sat down and looked
-round him with a grateful sense of the warmth and repose. A
-north-country cottage was no strange place to young Lord Stanton, and
-all the tremour of the adventure had passed from him at the sight of the
-light and the homely, kindly interior. No harm could possibly happen in
-so familiar an atmosphere, and in such a natural place. Meantime old
-’Lizabeth, with a thrill of agitation in her movements which was very
-apparent, busied herself in laying the table, putting down a clean
-tablecloth, and placing bread, cheese, and milk upon it. “I have wine,
-if you like wine better,” she said. “He will get it, but he takes none
-himself&mdash;nothing, poor lad, nothing. He’s a good son and a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_190" id="page_190">{190}</a></span> good
-lad&mdash;many a time I’ve thanked God that He’s left me such a lad to be the
-comfort of my old age.”</p>
-
-<p>Wild Bampfylde gave a laugh which was harsh and broken. “You were not
-always so thankful,” he said, producing out of some unseen corner a
-black bottle; “but the milk is better of its kind, being natural, than
-the wine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush, lad; milk is little to the like of him; but <i>that’s</i> good, for I
-have it here for&mdash;a sick person. Take something, take something, young
-gentleman. You can trust them that have broken bread in your presence,
-and sat at your table. Well, if you will have the milk, though it costs
-but little, it’s good too; I would not give my brown cow for ne’er a one
-in the dales; and eat a bit of the wheaten bread,&mdash;it’s baker’s bread,
-like what you eat at your own grand house. I would not be so mean as to
-set you down, a gentleman like you, to what’s good and good enough for
-us. The griddle-cake! no, but you’ll not eat that, my young lord, not
-that; it’s o’er homely for the like of you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not hungry,” said Geoff, “and I came here, you know, not to eat
-and drink, but to hear something you had to tell me, Mrs. Bampfylde&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My name is ’Lizabeth&mdash;nobody says mistress to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well; but you have something to tell me. I left home without any
-explanation, and I wish to get back soon, that they&mdash;that my mother,”
-said Geoff, half-ashamed, yet too proud to omit the apparently (he
-thought) childish excuse, since it was true, “may not be uneasy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Your mother? forgive me that did not mind your mother! Oh, you’re a
-good lad; you’re worthy a woman’s trust that thinks of your mother, and
-dares to say it! Ay, ay&mdash;there’s plenty to tell; if I can make up my
-mind to it&mdash;if I can make up my mind!”</p>
-
-<p>“Was not your mind made up then,” said Geoff with some impatience, “when
-in this way, in the night, you sent for me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh lad!” cried ’Lizabeth, wringing her hands. “How was I to know you
-would come, the like of you to the like of me? I put it on Providence
-that has been often contrairy&mdash;oh, aye contrairy, to mine and me. I
-shouldn’t have tempted God. I said to myself, if he comes it will be the
-hand of Heaven. But who<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_191" id="page_191">{191}</a></span> was to think you would come? You a lord, and a
-fine young gentleman, and me a poor old woman, old as your grandmother.
-I thought my heart would have sunk to my shoes when I saw he had come
-after a’!”</p>
-
-<p>“I told you he would come,” said Bampfylde, who stood leaning against
-the mantelpiece. He had taken his bread and cheese from the table, and
-was eating it where he stood.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course I would come,” said Geoff. “I could not suppose you would
-send for me for nothing. I knew it must be something important. Tell me
-now, for here I am.”</p>
-
-<p>’Lizabeth sat down, dropping into a wooden arm-chair at the end of the
-table with a kind of despair, and throwing her apron over her head, fell
-a-crying feebly. “What am I to do? what am I to do?” she said, sobbing.
-“I have tempted Providence&mdash;Oh, but I forgot what was written, ‘Thou
-shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>For a minute or two neither of the men spoke, and the sounds of her
-distress were all that was audible. Once or twice, indeed, Geoff thought
-he heard a faint sound, like the echo of some low wail or moan, come
-through the silence. Not the moan itself, but an echo, a ghost of it.
-But his companions took no notice of this, and he thought he must be
-mistaken. Everything besides was still. The fire by this time had burned
-up, and now and then broke into a little flutter of flame; the clock
-went on ticking with that measured steady movement which ‘beats out the
-little lives of men;’ and the broken sobs grew lower. An impatience of
-the stillness began to take possession of Geoff, but what was he to do?
-He restrained himself with an effort.</p>
-
-<p>“You should make a clean breast,” said Bampfylde, munching his bread and
-cheese as he spoke, with his eyes fixed on the fire, not looking at his
-mother. “Long since it would have been well to do it and an ease to your
-mind. I would make a clean breast now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, lad, a clean breast, a clean breast!” she said, rocking herself.
-“If it was only me it concerned&mdash;if it was only me!”</p>
-
-<p>“If it was only you what would it matter?” said the vagrant, with a
-philosophy which sounded less harsh to the person addressed than to him
-who looked on. “You&mdash;you’re old, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_192" id="page_192">{192}</a></span> you’ll die, and there would be an
-end of it; but them that suffer most have years and years before them,
-and if you die before you do justice&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Then <i>you</i> can tell, that have aye wanted to tell!” she cried with a
-hot outburst of indignation mingled with tears. Then she resumed that
-monotonous movement, rocking herself again and again, and calmed herself
-down. It is not so intolerable to a peasant to be told of his or her
-approaching end as it is to others. She was used to plain speech, and
-was it not reasonable what he said? “It’s all true, quite true. I’m old,
-and I cannot bide here for ever to watch him and think of him&mdash;and I
-might make a friend, the Lord grant it, and find one to stand by
-him&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“You mean another, a second one,” said her son. He stood through all
-this side dialogue munching his bread and cheese without once glancing
-at her even, his shoulders high against the mantelpiece, his eyes cast
-down.</p>
-
-<p>After a moment’s interval ’Lizabeth rose. She came forward moving feebly
-in her agitation to where Geoff sat. “My young lord, if I tell you
-<i>that</i> that I would rather die than tell&mdash;that that breaks my heart;
-you’ll mind that I am doing it to make amends to the dead and to the
-living&mdash;and&mdash;you’ll swear to me first to keep it secret? You’ll swear
-your Bible oath?&mdash;without that, not another word.”</p>
-
-<p>“Swear!” said Geoff, in alarm.</p>
-
-<p>“Just swear&mdash;you can do it as well, they tell me, in one place as
-another, in a private house or a justice court. I hope we have Bibles
-here&mdash;Bibles enough&mdash;if we but make a right use of them,” said the old
-woman, perplexed, mingling the formulas of common life with the
-necessities of an extraordinary and unrealized emergency. “Here is a
-Testament, that is what is taken to witness in the very court itself.
-You’ll lay your hand upon it, and you’ll kiss the book and swear. Where
-are you going to, young man?”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff rose and pushed away the book she had placed before him. He was
-half indignant, half disappointed. “Swear!” he said, “do you know what I
-want this information for? Is it to lock it up in my mind, as you seem
-to have done? I want it for use.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_193" id="page_193">{193}</a></span> I want it to help a man who has been
-cruelly treated between you. I have no right to stand up for him,” said
-Geoff, his nostrils expanding, his cheeks flushing, “but I feel for
-him&mdash;and do you think I will consent to put my last chance away, and
-hear your story for no good? No indeed; if I am not to make use of it I
-will go back again and find out for myself&mdash;I don’t want to be told.”</p>
-
-<p>The old woman, and it may be added her son also, stood and gazed upon
-the glowing eager countenance of the young man with a mingling of
-feelings which it would be impossible to describe. Admiration, surprise,
-and almost incredulity were in them. He had not opposed them hitherto,
-and it was almost impossible to believe that he would have the courage
-to oppose them so decidedly; but as he stood confronting them, young,
-simple, ingenuous, reasonable, they were both convinced of their error.
-Geoff would yield no more than the hill behind. His very simplicity and
-easiness made him invulnerable. Wild Bampfylde burst into that sudden
-broken laugh which is with some the only evidence of emotion. He came
-forward hastily and patted Geoff’s shoulder, “That’s right, my lad,
-that’s right,” he cried.</p>
-
-<p>“You will not,” said old ’Lizabeth; “not swear?&mdash;and not hear me?&mdash;oh,
-but you’re bold&mdash;oh, but you’ve a stout heart to say that to me in my
-ain house! Then the Lord’s delivered me, and I’ll say nothing,” she said
-with a sudden cry of delight.</p>
-
-<p>Her son came up and took her by the arm. “Look here,” he said, “it was
-me that brought him. I did not approve, but I did your bidding, as I’ve
-always done your bidding; but I’ve changed my mind if you’ve changed
-yours. Now that he is here, make no more fuss, but tell him; for,
-remember, I know everything as well as you do, and if you will not, I
-will. We have come too far to go back now. Tell him; or I will take him
-where he can see with his own eyes.”</p>
-
-<p>“See! what will he see?” cried ’Lizabeth, with a flush of angry colour.
-“Do you threaten me, lad? He’ll see a poor afflicted creature; but that
-will tell him nothing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mother! are you aye the same? Still <i>him</i>, always him, whatever
-happens. What has there been that has not yielded<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_194" id="page_194">{194}</a></span> to him? the rest of
-us, your children as well, and justice and honour and right and your own
-comfort, and the young Squire’s life. Oh, it’s been a bonnie business
-from first to last! And if you will not tell now, then there is no hope
-that I can see; and I will do it myself. I am not threatening; but what
-must be, must be. Mother, I’ll have to do it myself.”</p>
-
-<p>When he first addressed her as mother, ’Lizabeth had started with a
-little cry. What might be the reason that made this mode of expression
-unusual it was impossible to say; but it affected the old woman as
-nothing had yet done. She looked up at him with a wondering, wistful
-inquiry in her face, as if to ask in what meaning he used the
-word&mdash;kindly or unkindly, taunting or loving? When he repeated the name
-she started up as if the sound stung her, and stood for a moment like
-one driven half out of herself by force of pressure. She looked wildly
-round her as if looking for some escape, then suddenly seized the
-lighted candle, which still burned on the table. “Then if it must be,
-let it be,” she said. “Oh, lad! it’s years and years since I’ve heard
-that name! you that would not, and him that could not, and her that was
-far away; was there ever a mother as sore punished?” But it would seem
-that this expression of feeling exhausted the more generous impulse, for
-she set down the light on the table again, and dropping into her seat,
-threw her apron over her head. “No, I canna do it; I canna do it. Let
-him die in quiet. It canna be long.”</p>
-
-<p>The vagrant watched her with a keen scrutiny quite unlike his usual
-careless ways. “It’s not them as are a burden on the earth that dies,”
-he said. “You’ve said that long&mdash;let him die in peace; let him die in
-peace. Am I wishing him harm? There’s ne’er a one will hurt <i>him</i>. He’s
-safe enough. Whoever suffers, it will not be him.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, lad, lad!” cried the mother, uncovering her face to look at him. At
-’Lizabeth’s age there are no floods of tears possible. Her eyes were
-drawn together and full of moisture&mdash;that was all, She looked at him
-with a passion of reproach and pain. “Did you say suffer? What’s a’ the
-troubles that have been into this house to his affliction? My son, my
-son, my miserable lad! You that can come and go as you like, that have a
-mind free,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_195" id="page_195">{195}</a></span> that have your light heart&mdash;oh ay, you have a light heart,
-or how could you waste your days and your nights among beasts and wild
-things? How can the like of you judge the like of him?”</p>
-
-<p>During this long discussion, to which he had no sort of clue, Geoff
-stood looking from one to another in a state of perplexity impossible to
-describe. It could not be John Musgrave they were talking of? Who could
-it be? Some one who was “afflicted,” yet who had been exempt from
-burdens which had fallen in his stead upon others. Young Lord Stanton,
-who had come here eager to hear all the story in which he was so much
-interested, anxious to discover everything, stood, his eyes growing
-larger, his lips dropping apart in sheer wonder, listening; and feeling
-all the time that these two peasants spoke a different language from
-himself, and one to which he had no clue. Just then, however, in the
-dead silence after ’Lizabeth had spoken, the faint sound like a muffled
-cry which he had heard before, broke in more loudly. It made Geoff
-start, who could not guess what it meant, and it roused his companions
-effectually, who did know. ’Lizabeth wrung her hands; she raised her
-head in an agony of listening. “He has got one of his ill turns,” she
-said. Bampfylde, too, abandoned his careless attitude by the
-mantelpiece, and stood up watchful, startled into readiness and
-preparation as for some emergency. But the cry was not repeated, and
-gradually the tension relaxed again. “It would be but an ill dream,”
-said ’Lizabeth, pressing a handkerchief to her wet eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff did not know what to do. He was in the midst of some family
-mystery, which might or might not relate to the other mystery which it
-was his object to clear up; and this intense atmosphere of anxiety awoke
-the young man’s ready sympathies. All his feelings had changed since he
-came into the cottage. He who had come a stranger, ready to extract what
-they could tell by any means, harsh or kind, and who did not know what
-harshness he might encounter or what danger he might himself run, had
-passed over entirely to their side. He was as safe as in his own house;
-he was as deeply interested as he would have been in a personal trouble.
-His voice faltered as he spoke. “I don’t know what it is that distresses
-you,” he said; “I do<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_196" id="page_196">{196}</a></span>n’t want to pry into your trouble; but if I can
-help you you know I will, and I will betray none of your secrets that
-you trust me with. I will say nothing more than is necessary to clear
-Musgrave&mdash;if Musgrave can be cleared.</p>
-
-<p>“Musgrave! Musgrave!” cried old ’Lizabeth, impatiently; “it’s him you
-all think of, not my boy. And what has he lost, when all’s done? He got
-his way, and he got my Lily; never since then have I set eyes on her,
-and never will. I paid him the price of my Lily for what he did; and was
-that nothing? Musgrave! Speak no more o’ Musgrave to me!”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, mother,” said her son, with kindred impatience, as he walked
-towards her and seized her arm in sudden passion; “oh, ’Lizabeth
-Bampfylde! You do more than murder men, for you kill the pity in them!
-What’s all you have done compared to what John Musgrave has done? and
-me&mdash;am I nothing? Two&mdash;three of us! Lily, too, you’ve sacrificed Lily!
-And is it all to go on to another generation, and the wrong to last? I
-think you have a heart of stone&mdash;a heart of stone to them and to me!”</p>
-
-<p>At this moment there was another louder cry, and mother and son started
-together with one impulse, forgetting their struggle. ’Lizabeth took up
-the candle from the table, and Bampfylde hastily went to a cupboard in
-the corner, from which he took out something. He made an imperative sign
-to Geoff to follow, as he hurried after his mother. They went through a
-narrow winding passage lighted only by the flickering of the candle
-which ’Lizabeth carried, and by what looked like a mass of something
-white breaking the blackness, but was in reality the moonlight streaming
-in through a small window. At the end of the passage was a steep stair,
-almost like a ladder. Already Geoff, hurrying after the mother and son,
-was prepared by the cries for what the revelation was likely to be; and
-he was scarcely surprised when, after careful reconnoitring by an
-opening in the door, defended by iron bars, they both entered hastily,
-though with precaution, leaving him outside. Geoff heard the struggle
-that ensued, the wild cries of the madman, the aggravation of frenzy
-which followed, when it was evident they had secured him. Neither mother
-nor son spoke, but went about their work<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_197" id="page_197">{197}</a></span> with the precision of long
-use. Geoff had not the heart to look in through the opening which
-Bampfylde had left free. Why should he spy upon them? He could not tell
-what connection this prison chamber had with the story of John Musgrave,
-but there could be little doubt of the secret here inclosed. He did not
-know how long he waited outside, his young frame all thrilling with
-excitement and painful sympathy. How could he help them? was what the
-young man thought. It was against the law, he knew, to keep a lunatic
-thus in a private house, but Geoff thought only of the family, the
-mysterious burden upon their lives, the long misery of the sufferer. He
-was overawed, as youth naturally is, by contact with misery so hopeless
-and so terrible. After a long time Bampfylde came out, his dress torn
-and disordered, and great drops of moisture hanging on his forehead.
-“Have you seen him?” he asked in a whisper. He did not understand
-Geoff’s hesitation and delicacy, but with a certain impatience pointed
-him to the opening in the door, which was so high up that Geoff had to
-ascend two rough wooden steps placed there for the purpose, to look
-through. The room within was higher than could have been supposed from
-the height of the cottage; it was not ceiled, but showed the
-construction of the roof, and in a rude way it was padded here and
-there, evidently to prevent the inmate doing himself a mischief. The
-madman lay upon a mattress on the floor, so confined now that he could
-only lie there and pant and cry; his mother sat by him, motionless.
-Though his face was wild and distorted, and his eyes gleaming furiously
-out of its paleness, this unhappy creature had the same handsome
-features which distinguished the family. Young Geoff could scarcely
-restrain a shiver, not of fear, but of nervous excitement, as he looked
-at this miserable sight. Old ’Lizabeth sat confronting him, unconscious
-of the hurried look which was all Geoff could give. She was clasping her
-knees with her hands in one of those forced and rigid attitudes almost
-painful, which seem to give a kind of ease to pain&mdash;and sat with her
-head raised, and her strained eyes pitifully vacant, in that pause of
-half-unconsciousness in which all the senses are keen, yet the mind
-stilled with very excitement. “I cannot spy upon them,” said Geoff, in a
-whisper. “Is it safe to leave her there?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_198" id="page_198">{198}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Quite safe; and at his maddest he never harmed her,” said Bampfylde,
-leading the way down-stairs. “That’s my brother,” he said, with
-bitterness, when they had reached the living-room again; “my gentleman
-brother! him that was to be our honour and glory. You see what it’s come
-to; but nothing will win her heart from him. If we should all perish,
-what of that? ’Lizabeth Bampfylde will aye have saved her son from
-shame. But come, come, sit down and eat a bit, my young lord. At your
-age the like of all this is bad for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“For me&mdash;what does it matter about me?” cried Geoff; “you seem to have
-borne it for years.”</p>
-
-<p>“You may say that: for years&mdash;and would for years more, if she had her
-way; but a man must eat and drink, if his heart be sore. Take a morsel
-of something and a drink to give you strength to go home.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am very, very sorry for you,” said Geoff, “but&mdash;you will think it
-heartless to say so&mdash;I have learned nothing. There is some mystery, but
-I knew as much as that before.”</p>
-
-<p>Bampfylde was moving about in the back-ground searching for something.
-He re-appeared as Geoff spoke with a bottle in his hand, and poured out
-for him a glass of dark-coloured wine. It was port, the wine most
-trusted in such humble houses. “Take this,” he said; “take it, it’s
-good, it will keep up your strength; and bide a moment till she comes.
-She will tell you herself&mdash;or if not I will tell you; but now you’ve
-seen all the mysteries of this house, she will have to yield, she will
-have to yield at the last.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff obeyed, being indeed very much exhausted and shaken by all that
-had happened. He swallowed the sweet, strong decoction of unknown
-elements, which Bampfylde called port wine, and believed in as a
-panacea, and tried to eat a morsel of the oat-cake. They heard the
-distant moans gradually die out, as the blueness of dawn stole in at the
-window. Bampfylde, whose tongue seemed to be loosed by this climax of
-excitement, began to talk; he told Geoff of the long watch of years
-which they had kept, how his mother and he relieved each other, and how
-they had hoped the patient was growing calmer, how he had mended and
-calmed down, sometimes for long intervals, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_199" id="page_199">{199}</a></span> then grown worse again;
-and the means they had used to restrain him, and all the details of his
-state. When the ice was thus broken, it seemed a relief to talk of it.
-“He was to make all our fortunes,” Bampfylde said; “he was a
-gentleman&mdash;and he was a great scholar. All her pride was in him; and
-this is what it’s come to now.”</p>
-
-<p>They had fallen into silence when ’Lizabeth came in. Their excitement
-had decreased, thanks to the conversation and the natural relief which
-comes after a crisis, but hers was still at its full height. She came in
-solemnly, and sat down amongst them, the blue light from the window
-making a paleness about her as she placed herself in front of it; though
-the lamp was still burning on the mantelshelf, and the fire kept up a
-ruddy variety of light. She seated herself in the big wooden arm-chair
-with a solemn countenance and fixed her eyes upon Geoff, who, moved
-beyond measure by pity and reverence, did not know what to think.</p>
-
-<p>“He will have told you,” she said. “I would have died sooner, my young
-lord; and soon I’ll die&mdash;but, my boy first, I pray God. Ay, you’ve seen
-him now. That was him that was my pride; that was the hope I had in my
-life; that was him that killed young Lord Stanton and made John Musgrave
-an exile and a wanderer. Ay&mdash;you know it all now.”</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXI" id="CHAPTER_XXI"></a>CHAPTER XXI.<br /><br />
-<small>AN EARLY MEETING</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Geoff</span> left the cottage when the sun had just risen. He was half-giddy,
-half-stunned by the strange new light, unexpected up to the last moment,
-which had been thrown upon the whole question which he had undertaken to
-solve. He was giddy too with fatigue, the night’s watch, the long walk,
-the want of sleep. Besides all these confusing influences there is
-something in the atmosphere of the very early morning, the active
-stillness, the absence of human life, the pre-occupation of Nature with
-a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_200" id="page_200">{200}</a></span> hundred small (as it were) domestic cares such as she never exhibits
-to the eye of man, that moves the mind of an unaccustomed observer to a
-kind of rapture, bewildering in its solemn influence. To come out from
-the lonely little house folded among the hills, with all its miseries
-past and present, its sad story, its secret, the atmosphere of human
-suffering in it, to all the still glory of the summer morning, was of
-itself a bewilderment. The same world, and only a step between them: but
-one all pain and darkness, mortal anguish and confusion&mdash;the other all
-so clear, so sweet, so still, solemn with the serious beginning of the
-new day, and instinct with that great, still pressure of something more
-than what is seen, some soul of earth and sky which goes deeper than all
-belief, and which no sceptic of the higher kind, but only the gross and
-earthly, can disbelieve in. Young Geoff disbelieving nothing, his heart
-full of the faith and conviction of youth, came out into this wide
-purity and calm with an expansion of all his being. It was all he could
-do not to burst into sudden tears when he felt the sudden relief&mdash;the
-dew crept to his eyelids though it did not fall, his bosom contracted
-and expanded as with a sob. To this world of mountain and cloud&mdash;of
-rising sunshine and soft-breathing air, and serene delicious silence,
-pervaded by the soft indistinguishable hum of unseen water and rustling
-grasses, and minute living creatures unseen too beneath the mountain
-herbage&mdash;what is the noblest palace built with hands but a visible
-limitation and contraction of the world, an appropriation of a petty
-corner out of which human conceit makes its centre of the earth?
-Bampfylde, who had come out with him, and to whom the story Geoff had
-just heard was not new, felt the relief more simply. He drew a long
-breath of refreshment and ease, expanding his breast and stretching out
-his arms; and then this rough vagrant fellow, unconscious of literature,
-did what Virgil in the <i>Purgatorio</i> did in such a morning for his poet
-companion; he spread both his hands upon the fragrant grass, all heavy
-with the early dew, and bathed his face and weary eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“That’s life,” said the man of woods and hills; the freshness of nature
-was all the help he had, all the support as well as all the poetry his
-maimed existence could possess.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_201" id="page_201">{201}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Bampfylde went with his young companion round the shoulder of the hill
-to show him the way. It was a nearer and shorter road to the level
-country than that by which they had come, for Geoff was anxious to get
-home early. Bampfylde pointed out to him the line of road which twisted
-about and about like a ribbon, crossing now one slope, now another, till
-it disappeared upon the shadowed side of the green hill which presided
-over Penninghame, and beyond which the lake gleamed blue, not yet
-reached by the sunshine.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s like the story,” he said; “it’s like a parable; ye come by
-Stanton, my young lord, and ye go by Penninghame. It’s your nearest way;
-and there, if you ask at John Armstrong’s in the village, ye’ll get a
-trap to take you home.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was not sufficiently free in mind to be able to give any attention
-to the parable. Those fantastic symbolisms of accident or circumstance
-which so often would seem to be arranged like shadows of more important
-matters by some elfish secondary providence, need a spirit at rest to
-enter into them. He was glad to be alone, to realise all that he had
-heard, to compose the wonderful tangle of new information and new
-thoughts into something coherent, without troubling himself about the
-fact that he was now bending his steps direct, the representative of
-Walter Stanton who had been killed, towards the house from which John
-Musgrave had been wrongfully driven for having killed him. He did not
-even yet know all the particulars of the story, and as he endeavoured to
-disentangle them in his mind Geoff felt in his bewilderment that
-absolute want of control over his own intelligence and thoughts which is
-the common result of fatigue and overstrain. Instead of thinking out the
-imbroglio and deciding what was to be done, his mind, like a tired
-child, kept playing with the rising light which touched every moment a
-new peak and caught every moment a new reflection in some bit of
-mountain stream or waterfall, or even in a ditch or moorland cutting, so
-impartial is Heaven; or his ear was caught by that hum of mystic
-indistinguishable multitude&mdash;“the silence of the hills,” so called&mdash;the
-soft rapture of sound in which not one tone is distinct or anything
-audible; or his eye by the gradual unrolling of the landscape as he went
-on, one fold<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_202" id="page_202">{202}</a></span> opening beyond another, the distant hills on one hand, the
-long stretch of Penninghame water with all its miniature bays and
-curves. Then for a little while he lost the lake by a doubling of the
-path, which seemed to reinclose him among the hollows of the hills, and
-which pleased his languid faculties with the complete change of its
-shade and greenness; until turning the next corner, he found the sun
-triumphant over all the landscape, and Penninghame water lying like a
-sheet of silver or palest gold, dazzling and flashing between its
-slopes. This wonderful glory so suddenly bursting upon him completed the
-discomfiture of young Geoff’s attempts at thought. He gave it up then,
-and went on with weary limbs and a mind full of languid soft delight in
-the air about him and the scene before his eyes, attempting no more
-deductions from what he had heard or arrangements as to what he should
-do. Emotion and exertion together had worn him out.</p>
-
-<p>About the time he resigned himself (with the drowsy surprise we feel in
-dreams) to this incapable state, his eye was caught by a speck upon the
-road beneath advancing towards him, so small in the distance that
-Geoff’s languid imagination, capable of no more active exercise, began
-to wonder who the little pilgrim could be, so little and so lonely, and
-so early astir. Perhaps it was the distance that made the advancing
-passenger look so small. Little Lilias at the Castle would have
-satisfied her mind by the easy conclusion that it was some little fairy
-old woman, the traveller most naturally to be met with at such an hour
-and place. But Geoff, more artificial, did not think of that. He kept
-watching the little wayfarer, as the figure appeared and disappeared on
-the winding road. By and by he made out that it was either a very small
-woman or a little girl, coming on steadily to meet him, with now and
-then an occasional pause for breath, for the ascent was steep. Geoff’s
-mind got quite entangled with this little figure. Who could it be? who
-could she be? A little cottager bound on some early expedition, seeking
-some of the mountain fruits, blackberries, cranberries, wild
-strawberries, perhaps; but then she never turned aside to the rougher
-ground, but kept on the path;&mdash;or she might be going to some farmhouse
-to get milk for the family breakfast: but then there were no<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_203" id="page_203">{203}</a></span> farmhouses
-in that direction. Altogether Geoff felt himself quite sufficiently
-occupied as he came gradually downwards watching this child, his limbs
-feeling heavy, and his head somewhat light. At last, after losing sight
-of the little figure which had given him for some time a sort of distant
-companionship, another turn brought him full in sight of her, and so
-near that he recognised her with the most curious and startling
-interest. He could not restrain an exclamation of surprise. It was the
-little girl whom he had met at the door of Penninghame Castle, John
-Musgrave’s child, the most appropriate, yet the most extraordinary, of
-all encounters he could have made. He stood still in his surprise,
-awaiting her: and as for little Lilias, she made a sudden spring towards
-him, holding out her hand with a cry of joy, her little pale face
-crimsoned over with relief and pleasure. Her heart and limbs were
-beginning to fail her; she had begun to grow frightened and discouraged
-by the loneliness; and to see a face that had been seen before, that had
-looked friendly, that recognised her&mdash;what a relief it was to the little
-wayfaring soul! She sprang forward to him, and then in the comfort of it
-fairly broke down, and sobbed and cried, trying to smile all the time,
-and to tell him that she was glad, and that he must not mind.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff, however, minded very much. He was full of concern and sympathy.
-He took her hand, and putting his arm round her (for she was still a
-child), led her to the soft, mossy bank on the edge of the path, and
-placed her there to rest. He was not at all sorry to place himself
-beside her, notwithstanding his haste. He, too, was so young and so
-tired! though for the moment he forgot both his fatigue and his youth,
-and felt most fatherly, soothing the little girl, and entreating her to
-take comfort, and not to cry.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” said little Lilias, when she recovered the power of speech, “I am
-not crying for trouble, <i>now</i>; I am crying for pleasure. It was so
-lonely. I thought everybody must be dead, and there was no one but only
-me in all the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“That was exactly what I felt too,” said Geoff; “but what are you doing
-here, so far away, and all alone? Have you lost yourself? Has anything
-happened? When you have rested a little, you must come back with me, and
-I will take you home.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_204" id="page_204">{204}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>The tears were still upon the child’s cheeks, and two great lucid pools
-in her eyes, which made their depths of light more unfathomable than
-ever. And after the sudden flush of excitement and pleasure, Lilias had
-paled again; her little countenance was strangely white; her dark hair
-hung, loosely curling, about her cheeks; her eyes were full of pathetic
-meaning. Geoff, who had thrown himself down beside her, with one arm
-half round her, and holding her small hand in his, felt his young breast
-swell with the tenderest sympathy. What was the child’s trouble that was
-so great? Poor little darling! How sweet it was to be able to fill up
-her world, and prove to her that there was not “only me.” One other made
-all the difference; and Geoff felt this as much as she did. Her face had
-gleamed so often across his imagination since he saw it: the most
-innocent visitant that could come and look a young man in the face in
-the midst of his dreams&mdash;only a child! He felt disposed to kiss the
-little hand in half fondness, half reverence; but did not, being
-restrained by something more reverent and tender still.</p>
-
-<p>“I would like to go with you,” said Lilias, “but not home. I am not
-going home. I am going up there&mdash;up, I don’t know how far&mdash;where the old
-woman lives. I am trying to find something out, something about papa.
-Oh, I wonder if you know! Are you a friend of my papa? You look as if
-you had a friend’s face&mdash;but I don’t know your name.”</p>
-
-<p>“My name&mdash;is Geoffrey Stanton&mdash;but most people call me Geoff. I should
-like you to call me Geoff&mdash;and I am a friend, little Lily. You are Lily
-<i>too</i>, are you not? I am a sworn friend to your papa.”</p>
-
-<p>“Lilias,” said the child, with a sigh; “but I don’t think I am little
-any more. I was little when I came, but old; oh! much older than any one
-thought. They thought I was only ten because I was so little; but I was
-twelve! and that will soon be a year ago. I have always taken care of
-Nello as long as I can remember, and that makes one old, you know. And
-now here is this about papa, which I never knew, which I never heard of,
-which is not true, I know. I know it is not true. Papa kill any one!
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_205" id="page_205">{205}</a></span><i>papa?</i> Do you know what that means? It is as if&mdash;&mdash; the sky should
-kill some one, or the beautiful kind light, or a little child. All that,
-all that, sooner than papa! Me, I have often felt as if I could kill
-somebody; but <i>he</i>&mdash;&mdash; ” the tears were streaming in a torrent down the
-child’s cheeks, and got into her voice; but she went on, “he! people
-don’t know what they are saying. I do not know any words to tell you how
-different he is&mdash;that it is impossible, <i>impossible</i>! <i>impossible</i>!” she
-cried, her voice rising in intensity of emphasis. As for Geoff, he held
-her hand ever closer, and kept gazing at her with the tears coming to
-his own eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“He did not do it,” he said. “Listen to me, Lilias, and if you write to
-him, you can tell him. Tell him Geoffrey Stanton knows everything, and
-will never rest till he is cleared. Do you know what I mean? You must
-tell him&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“But I never write&mdash;we do not know where he is; but tell me over again
-for me, <i>me</i>. He did not do it! Do you think I do not know that? But Mr.
-Geoff (if that is your name), come with me up to the old woman, and take
-her to the tribunal, and make her tell what she knows. That is the right
-way, Martuccia says so, and I have read it in books. She must go to the
-judge, and she must say it all, and have it written down in a book. It
-is like that&mdash;I am not so ignorant. Come with me to the old woman, Mr.
-Geoff.”</p>
-
-<p>“What old woman?” he asked. “And tell me how you heard of all this,
-Lilias? You did not know it when I saw you before.”</p>
-
-<p>“Last night&mdash;only last night; there is a man, an unkind, disagreeable
-man, who is at the Castle now. Mary said he was my uncle Randolph. They
-were in the hall, and I heard them talking. That man said it all; but
-Mary did not say No as I do, she only cried. And then I rushed and asked
-Miss Brown what it meant. Miss Brown is Mary’s maid, and she knows
-everything. She told me about a gentleman, and then of some one who was
-mamma, and of an old woman who could tell it all, up, up on the
-mountain. I think, perhaps, it is the same old woman I saw.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you see her? When did you see her, Lily?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_206" id="page_206">{206}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I was little then,” said Lilias, with mournful, childish dignity. “I
-had not begun to know. I thought, perhaps, it was a fairy. Yes, you will
-laugh. I was only not much better than a child. And when children are in
-the woods, don’t you know, fairies often come? I was ignorant, that was
-what I thought. She was very kind. She kissed me, and asked if I would
-call her granny. Poor old woman! She was very very sorry for something.
-I think that must be the old woman. She knows everything, Miss Brown
-says. Mr. Geoff,” said Lilias turning round upon him, putting her two
-clasped hands suddenly upon his shoulder, and fixing her eyes upon his
-face, “I am going to her, will you not come with me? It is dreadful,
-dreadful, to go away far alone&mdash;everything looks so big and so high, and
-one only, one is so small; and everything is singing altogether, and it
-is all so still; and then your heart beats and thumps, and you have no
-breath, and it is so far, far away. Mr. Geoff, oh! I would love you so
-much, I would thank you for ever, I would do anything for you, if you
-would only come with me! I am not really tired; only frightened. If I
-could have brought Nello, it would have been nothing. I should have had
-him to take care of,&mdash;but Nello is such a little fellow. He does not
-understand anything; he could not know about papa as I do, and as you
-seem to do. Mr. Geoff, when was it you saw papa? Oh! will you come up,
-up yonder, and go to the old woman with me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear little Lily,” said Geoff, holding her in his arms, “you are not
-able to walk so far; it is too much for you; you must come with me,
-home.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am able to go to the end of the world,” cried Lilias, proudly. “I am
-not tired. Oh, if you had never come I should have gone on, straight on!
-I was thinking, perhaps, you would go with me, that made me so stupid.
-No, never mind, since you do not choose to come. Good-bye, Mr. Geoff.
-No, I am not angry. Perhaps you are tired yourself:&mdash;and then,” said
-Lilias, her voice quivering, “you are not papa’s child, and it is not
-your business. Oh! I am quite able to go on. I am not tired&mdash;not at all
-tired; it was only,” she said, vehemently, the tears overpowering her
-voice, “only because I caught sight of you so suddenly, and I thought
-‘he will<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_207" id="page_207">{207}</a></span> come with me,’ and it made my heart so easy&mdash;but never mind,
-never mind!”</p>
-
-<p>By this time she was struggling to escape from him, to go on drying her
-tears with a hasty hand. Her lips were quivering, scarcely able to form
-the words. The disappointment, after that little burst of hope, was
-almost more than Lilias could bear.</p>
-
-<p>“Lily,” he said, holding her fast, despite her struggles, “listen first.
-I have just been there. I have seen the old woman. There is nothing more
-for you to do, dear. Won’t you listen to me,&mdash;won’t you believe me? Dear
-little Lily, I have found out everything. I know everything. I cannot
-tell it you all, out here on the hill-side; but it was another who did
-it, and your father was so kind, so good, that he allowed it to be
-supposed it was he, to save the other man&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” cried Lilias, ceasing to struggle, “ah! yes, that is like him. I
-know my papa, there! yes, that is what he would do. Oh, Mr. Geoff, dear
-Mr. Geoff, tell me more, more!”</p>
-
-<p>“As we go home,” said Geoff. He was so tired that it was all he could do
-to raise himself again from the soft cushions of the mossy grass. He
-held Lilias still by the hand. And in this way the two wearied young
-creatures went down the rest of the long road together&mdash;she, eager, with
-her face raised to him; he stooping towards her. They leaned against
-each other in their weariness, walking on irregularly, now slow, now
-faster, hand in hand. And oh! how much shorter the way seemed to Lilias
-as she went back. She vowed never, never to tell any one; never to talk
-of it except to Mr. Geoff: while Geoff, on his part, promised that
-everything should be set right, that everybody should know her father to
-be capable of nothing evil, but of everything good; that all should be
-well with him; that he should come and live at home for ever, and that
-all good people should be made happy, and all evil ones confounded. The
-one was scarcely more confident than the other that all this was
-possible and likely, as the boy and the girl came sweetly down the hill
-together, tired but happy, with traces of tears about their eyes, but
-infinite relief in their hearts. The morning, now warm with the full
-glory of the sun, was sweet beyond all thought&mdash;the sky, fathomless
-blue, above them&mdash;the lake a dazzling sheet<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_208" id="page_208">{208}</a></span> of silver at their feet.
-Here and there sounds began to stir of awakening in the little
-farmhouses, and under the thatched cottage eaves; but still they had the
-earth all to themselves like a younger Adam and Eve&mdash;nothing but blue
-space and distance, sweet sunshine warming and rising, breathing of
-odours and soft baptism of dew upon the new-created pair.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXII" id="CHAPTER_XXII"></a>CHAPTER XXII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE HENS AND THE DUCKLING.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">It</span> was still early, and Stanton, so easy-going and leisurely a house,
-was not yet astir when Geoff got home. Hours of sunshine and morning
-light are over even in August before seven o’clock, which was the
-earliest hour at which Lady Stanton’s servants, who were all “so kind”
-to her, began to stir. They kept earlier hours at Penninghame, where
-Geoff managed to get a dog-cart, with an inquisitive driver, who
-recognised, and would fain have discovered what brought him from home at
-that hour. The young man, however, first took leave of his little
-companion, whom he deposited safely at the door of the old hall, which
-was already open, and where they parted with mutual vows of reliance and
-faith in each other. These vows, however, were not exchanged by the
-hall-gate, but in a shady corner of the Chase, where the two young
-creatures paused for a moment.</p>
-
-<p>“You will trust me that I will do everything for him, as if he had been
-my own father?” said Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias, over whom some doubts had begun to steal, faltered a little, and
-replied with some hesitation:</p>
-
-<p>“I would rather it was me; I would rather find out everything, and bring
-him home,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“But, Lily, what could you do? while you see I know a great deal
-already,” Geoff said. Now that he was about to vanish out of her sight
-the bargain began to feel less satisfactory to the little woman, who was
-thus condemned, as so many grown<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_209" id="page_209">{209}</a></span> women have been, to wait indefinitely
-for the action of another, in a matter so deeply interesting to herself.
-Lilias looked at him wistfully, with an anxious curve over her eyebrows,
-and a quiver in her mouth. The tension of suspense had begun for her,
-which is one of the hardest burdens of a woman. Oh, if she could but
-have gone herself, not waiting for any one, to the old woman on the
-hill! It was true the mountains were very lonely, and the relief of
-meeting Geoff had been intense; and though she had not gone half way, or
-nearly so much, her limbs were aching with the unusual distance; but yet
-to be tired, and lonely, and frightened is nothing, as Lilias felt, to
-this waiting, which might never come to an end. And already the ease and
-comfort and sudden relief with which she had leant upon Geoff’s
-understanding and sympathy, had evaporated a little, leaving behind only
-the strange story about her father, the sudden discovery of trouble and
-sorrow which had startled her almost into womanhood out of childhood.
-She looked up into Geoff’s face very wistfully&mdash;very anxiously; her eyes
-dilated, and gleaming with that curve over them which once indented in
-young brows so seldom altogether disappears again.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mr. Geoff!” she said, “but papa&mdash;is not your papa: and you will
-perhaps have other things to do: or&mdash;perhaps&mdash;you will forget. But me, I
-shall be always thinking, I shall never forget,” said the little girl.</p>
-
-<p>“And neither shall I forget, my little Lily!” he cried. He too was
-nervous and tremulous with excitement and fatigue. He stooped towards
-her, holding her hands. “Give me a kiss, Lily, and I will never forget.”</p>
-
-<p>The day before she would not have thought much of that infantile
-salutation&mdash;and she put up her soft cheek readily enough, with the
-child’s simple habit; but when the two faces touched, a flood of colour
-came over both, scorching Lilias, as it seemed, with a sense of shame
-which bewildered her, which she did not understand. She drew back
-hastily, with a sudden cry. Sympathy, or some other feeling still more
-subtle and incomprehensible, made Geoff’s young countenance flame too.
-He looked at her with a tenderness that brought the tears to his eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_210" id="page_210">{210}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“You are only a child,” he said, hastily, apologetically; “and I suppose
-I am not much more, as people say,” he added, with a little broken
-laugh. Then, after a pause&mdash;“But, Lily, we will never forget that we
-have met this morning; and what one of us does will be for both of us;
-and you will always think of me as I shall always think of you. Is it a
-bargain, Lily?”</p>
-
-<p>“Always!” said the little girl, very solemnly; and she gave him her hand
-again which she had drawn away, and her other cheek; and this time the
-kiss got accomplished solemnly, as if it had been a religious ceremony
-on both sides&mdash;which indeed, perhaps, in one way or another it was.</p>
-
-<p>When Geoff felt himself carried rapidly, after this, behind a fresh
-country horse, with the inquisitive ruddy countenance of Robert Gill
-from the “Penninghame Arms” by his side, along the margin of Penninghame
-Water towards his home, there was a thrill and tremor in him which he
-could not quite account for. By the time he had got half way home,
-however, he had begun to believe that the tremor meant nothing more than
-a nervous uncertainty as to how he should get into Stanton, and in what
-state of abject terror he might find his mother. Even to his own
-unsophisticated mind, the idea of being out all night had an alarming
-and disreputable sound; and probably Lady Stanton had been devoured by
-all manner of terrors. The perfectly calm aspect of the house, however,
-comforted Geoff; no one seemed stirring, except in the lower regions,
-where the humblest of its inhabitants&mdash;the servants’ servants&mdash;were
-preparing for their superiors.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff dismissed his dog-cart outside the gates, leaving upon the mind of
-Robert Gill a very strong certainty that the young lord was “a wild one,
-like them that went before him,” and had been upon “no good gait.”
-“Folks don’t stay out all night, and creep into th’ house through a side
-door as quiet as pussy, for good,” said the rural sage, with perfect
-reasonableness.</p>
-
-<p>As for Geoff, he stole up through the shrubberies to reconnoitre the
-house and see where he could most easily make an entrance, with a
-half-comic sense of vagabondism; a man who behaved so ought to be
-guilty. But he was greatly surprised to see the library window through
-which he had come out on the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_211" id="page_211">{211}</a></span> previous night wide open; and yet more
-surprised to hear, at the sound of his own cautious footstep on the
-gravel, a still more cautious movement within, and to descry the kindly
-countenance of Mr. Tritton, his tutor, with a red nose and red eyes as
-from want of sleep, looking out with great precaution.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Tritton’s anxious countenance lighted up at the sight of him. He
-came to the window very softly, but with great eagerness, to admit
-Geoff, and threw himself upon his pupil. “Where have you been&mdash;where
-have you been? But thank God you have come back,” he cried, in a voice
-which was broken by agitation.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff could not but laugh, serious as he had been before. Good Mr.
-Tritton had a dressing-gown thrown over his evening toilet of the
-previous night; his white tie was all rumpled and disreputable. He had
-caught a cold, poor good man, with the open window, and sneezed even as
-he received his prodigal; his nose was red, and so were his eyes, which
-watered, half with cold, half with emotion.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my dear Geoff,” he cried, with a shiver: “what is the cause of
-this? I have spent a most unhappy night. What can be the cause of it!
-But thank God you have come back; and if I can keep it from the
-knowledge of her ladyship, I will.” Then, though he was so tired and so
-serious, Geoff could not but laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Have you been sitting up for me? How good of you! and what a cold you
-have got!” he said, struggling between mirth and gratitude. “Have you
-kept it from my mother? But I have been doing no harm, master. You need
-not look at me so anxiously. I have been walking almost all the night,
-and doing no harm.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Geoff? I have been very uneasy, of course. You never did
-anything of the kind before. Walking all night? you must be dead tired;
-but that is secondary, quite secondary: if you can really assure me, on
-your honour&mdash;&mdash; ” said the anxious tutor, looking at him, with his little
-white whiskers framing his little red face, more like a good little old
-woman than ever, and with a look of the most anxious scrutiny in his
-watery eyes. Mr. Tritton was very virtuous and very particular in his
-own bachelorly person, and there had crept upon him besides<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_212" id="page_212">{212}</a></span> something
-of the feminine fervour of anxiety about his charge, which was in the
-air of this feminine and motherly house.</p>
-
-<p>“On my honour!” said Geoff, meeting his gaze with laughing eyes.</p>
-
-<p>And a pang of relief filled Mr. Tritton’s mind. He was almost overcome
-by it, and could have cried but for his dignity&mdash;and, indeed, did cry
-for his cold. He said, faltering, “Thank Heaven, Geoff! I have been very
-anxious, my dear boy. Your mother does not know anything about it. I
-found the window open, and then I found your room vacant. I thought you
-might have&mdash;stepped out&mdash;perhaps gone to smoke a cigar. A cigar in the
-fresh air after dinner is perhaps the least objectionable form of the
-indulgence, as you have often heard me say. So I waited, especially as I
-had something to say to you. Then as I found you did not come in, I
-became anxious&mdash;yes, very anxious as the night went on. You never did
-anything of the kind before; and when the morning came and awoke me&mdash;for
-I suppose I must have dozed, though I was too miserable to sleep, in a
-draught&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I see, you have caught cold. Go to bed now, master, and so shall
-I,” said Geoff. “I am dead tired. What a sneeze! and all on my account;
-and you have such bad colds.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Mr. Tritton, blowing his nose vehemently, “I have very bad
-colds. They last so long. I have sneezed so I really did fear the house
-would be roused, but servants fortunately sleep through anything. Geoff!
-I don’t want to force confidence, but it really would be right that you
-should confide in me: otherwise how can I be sure that her
-ladyship&mdash;ought not,” said the good man with a fresh sneeze, “to
-know&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“You ought to be in bed, and so ought I,” said Geoff. “I will tell my
-mother, don’t fear; but perhaps it will be as well not to say anything
-more just at present. Master, you must really go this moment and take
-care of yourself. Come, and I will see you to your room&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! it is my part to look after you, Geoff,” said good Mr. Tritton. “It
-might be supposed&mdash;her ladyship might think&mdash;that I had neglected&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Come along,” said Geoff, arbitrarily, “to bed.” And how<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_213" id="page_213">{213}</a></span> glad he was to
-stretch out his own young limbs and forget everything in the profound
-sleep of his age! Mr. Tritton had very much the worst of it. He did
-nothing but sneeze for the next two hours, waking himself up every time
-he went to sleep; and his head ached, and his eyes watered, and the good
-man felt thoroughly wretched.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, there is that poor Mr. Tritton with one of his bad colds again,”
-Lady Stanton said, who was disturbed by the sound; and, though she was a
-good woman, the pity in her face was not unmixed by other sentiments.
-“We shall have nothing but sneezing for the next month,” she said to
-herself in an undertone. And doubtless still less favourable judgments
-were pronounced down-stairs. A glass was found on the table of the
-library in which Mr. Tritton, good man, had taken some camphor by way of
-staving off his cold while he sat and watched. Harris the butler,
-perversely and unkindly (for who could mistake the smell of camphor?)
-declared that “old Tritton had been making a night of it. He don’t
-surprise me with his bad colds,” said that functionary; “look at the
-colour of his nose!” And indeed it could not be denied that this was
-red, as the nose of a man subject to fits of sneezing is apt to be.</p>
-
-<p>When Geoff woke in the broad sunshine, and found that it was nearly
-noon, his first feeling of consternation was soon lost in the strange
-realization of all that had happened since his last waking, which
-suddenly came upon his mind like something new, and more real than
-before. The perspective even of a few hours’ sleep makes any new fact or
-discovery more distinct. So many emotions had followed each other
-through his mind, that such an interval was necessary to make him feel
-the real importance of all that he had heard and seen. ’Lizabeth
-Bampfylde had said what there was to say in few words, but the facts
-alone were sufficient to make the strange story clear. The chief
-difficulty was that Geoff had never heard of the elder son, whom the
-vagrant called his gentleman brother, and to whom the family and more
-than the family seemed to have been sacrificed. He did not remember any
-mention of the Bampfyldes except of the mother and daughter who had
-helped John Musgrave to escape, and one of whom had disappeared with
-him, and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_214" id="page_214">{214}</a></span> mystery which surrounded this other individual, who seemed
-really the chief actor in the tragedy, had yet to be made out. His mind
-was full of this as he dressed hastily, with sundry interruptions. The
-household had not quite made out the events of the past night, but that
-there had been something “out of the common” was evident to the meanest
-capacity. The library window had been open all night, which was the
-fault of Mr. Tritton, who had undertaken to close it, begging Harris to
-go to bed, and not to mind. Mr. Tritton himself had been seen by an
-early scullion in his white tie, very much ruffled, at six o’clock; and
-the volleys of sneezing which had disturbed the house at seven had been
-distinctly heard moving about like musketry on a march, now at one
-point, now another, of the corridor and stairs. To crown all these
-strange commotions was the fact that the young master of the house,
-instead of obeying Harris’s call at half-past seven, did not budge (and
-then with reluctance) till eleven o’clock. If all these occurrences
-meant nothing, why then Mr. Harris pronounced himself a Dutchman; and
-the wonder breathed upwards from the kitchen and housekeeper’s room to
-my lady’s chamber, where her maid did all a maid could do (and this is
-not little, as most heads of a family know) to awaken suspicion. It was
-suggested to her ladyship that it was very strange that Mr. Tritton
-should have been walking about the house at six in the morning, waking
-up my lady with his sneezings&mdash;and it was a mercy there had not been a
-robbery, with the library window “open to the ground,” left open all
-night: and then for my lord to be in bed at eleven was a thing that had
-never happened before since his lordship had the measles. “I hope he is
-not sickening for one of these fevers,” Lady Stanton’s attendant said.</p>
-
-<p>This made Geoff’s mother start, and give a suppressed scream of
-apprehension, and inquire anxiously whether there was any fever about.
-She had already in her cool drawing-room, over her needlework, felt a
-vague uneasiness. Geoff had never, since those days of the measles,
-missed breakfast and prayers before; he had sent her word that he had
-overslept himself, that he had been sitting up late on the previous
-night&mdash;but altogether it was odd. Lady Stanton, however, subdued her
-panic, and sat still<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_215" id="page_215">{215}</a></span> and dismissed her maid, waiting with many tremors
-in her soul till Geoff should come to account for himself. He had been
-the best boy in the world, and had never given her any anxiety; but all
-Lady Stanton’s neighbours had predicted the coming of a time when Geoff
-would “break out,” and when the goodness of his earlier days would but
-increase the riot of the inevitable sowing of wild oats. Lady Stanton
-had smiled at this, but with a smouldering sense of insecurity in her
-heart; alarmed, though she knew there was no cause. Mothers are an order
-of beings peculiarly constituted, full of certainties and doubts, which
-moment by moment give each other the lie. Ah, no, Geoff would not “break
-out,” would not “go wrong;” it was not in him. He was too true, too
-honourable, too pure&mdash;did not she know every thought in his mind, and
-feeling in his heart? But oh, the anguish if Geoff should not be so true
-and so pure&mdash;if he should be weak, be tempted and fall, and stain the
-whiteness which his mother so deeply trusted in, yet so trembled for!
-Who can understand such paradoxes? She would have believed no harm of
-her boy&mdash;and yet in her horror of harm for him the very name of evil
-gave her a panic. Nothing wonderful in that. She sat and trembled to the
-very tyings of her shoe, and yet was sure, certain, ready to answer to
-the whole world for her son, who had done no evil. Other women who have
-sons know what Lady Stanton felt. She sat nervously still, listening to
-every sound, till he should come and explain himself. Why was he so
-late? What had happened last night to make the house uneasy? Lady
-Stanton would not allow herself to think that she was alarmed. It was
-true that pulses beat in her ears, and her heart mounted to her throat,
-but she sat still as a statue, and went on with her knitting. “One may
-not be able to help being foolish, but one can always help showing it,”
-she said to herself.</p>
-
-<p>The sight of Geoff when he appeared, fresh and blooming, made all the
-throbbings subside at once. She even made a fine effort to laugh. “What
-does this mean, Geoff? I never knew you so late. The servants have been
-trying to frighten me, and I hear Mr. Tritton has got a very bad cold,”
-she said, getting the words out hurriedly, afraid lest she might break
-down or betray<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_216" id="page_216">{216}</a></span> herself. She eyed him very curiously over her knitting,
-but she made believe not to be looking at him at all.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; poor old Tritton,” he said; “it is my fault; he sat up for me. I
-went out&mdash;&mdash; ” he made a little pause; for Geoff reflected that other
-people’s secrets were not his to confide, even to his mother&mdash;“with wild
-Bampfylde, who came, I suppose, out of gratitude for what little I did
-for him.”</p>
-
-<p>“You went out&mdash;with that poacher fellow, Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes:” he nodded, meeting her horrified eyes quite calmly and with a
-smile; “why not, mother? You did not think I should be afraid of him, I
-hope?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh how very imprudent, Geoff! You, whose life is of so much value!&mdash;who
-are so very important to me and everybody!”</p>
-
-<p>“Most fellows are important who have mothers to make a fuss,” he said,
-smiling. “I don’t think there is much more in me than the rest. But he
-has not harmed me much, you can see. I have all my limbs as usual; I am
-none the worse.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thank God for that!” said Lady Stanton; “but you must not do the like
-again. Indeed, indeed, Geoff, you are too bold; you must not put
-yourself in the way of trouble. Think of your poor brother. Oh, my dear,
-what an example! You must not be so rash again.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will not be rash&mdash;in that way,” he said. “But, mother, I want you to
-tell me something. You remember all about it: did you ever know of any
-more Bampfyldes? There was the mother, and this fellow. Did you ever
-know of any other?”</p>
-
-<p>“You are missing out the chief one, Geoff&mdash;Lily, the girl.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes; I know about her. I did not mean the girl. But think! Were
-those three all? Were there more&mdash;another&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton shook her head. “I do not remember any other. I think three
-were quite enough. There is mischief in one even, of that kind.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you mean by that kind? You did not know them. I hope my mother
-is not one of the kind who, not knowing people, are unjust to them.”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff!” Lady Stanton was bewildered by this grand tone.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_217" id="page_217">{217}</a></span> She looked up
-at him with sudden curiosity, and this curiosity was mixed inevitably
-with some anxiety too; for, when your son betrays an unjustifiable
-partisanship, what so natural as to feel that he must have “some
-motive”? “Of course I did not mean to be unjust. But I do not pretend to
-remember everything that came out on the trial. It was the mother and
-daughter that interested me. You should ask your cousin Mary; she
-recollects better than I do. But have you heard anything about another?
-What did the poacher say? Had you a great deal of conversation with him?
-And don’t you think it was rash to put yourself in the power of such a
-lawless sort of fellow? Thank God! you are safe and sound.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you mean about putting myself in his power? Do you think I am
-not a match for him? He is not such a giant, mother. Yes, I am quite
-safe and sound. And we had a great deal of talk. I never met with
-anybody so interesting. He talked about everything; chiefly about ‘the
-creatures,’ as he calls them.”</p>
-
-<p>“What creatures?” said Lady Stanton, wondering and alarmed. There were
-“creatures” in the world, this innocent lady knew, about whom a vagabond
-was very likely to talk, but who could not be mentioned between her and
-her boy.</p>
-
-<p>“The wild things in the woods, birds and mice, and such small deer, and
-all their ways, and what they mean, and how to make acquaintance with
-them. I don’t suppose he knows very much out of books,” said young
-Geoff; “but the bit of dark moor grew quite different with that wild
-fellow in it&mdash;like the hill in the <i>Lady of the Lake</i>, when all Clan
-Alpine got up from behind the rocks and the bushes. Don’t you remember,
-mother? One could hear ‘the creatures’ rustling and moving, and
-multitudes of living things one never gave a thought to. It felt like
-poetry, too, though I don’t know any poem like it. It was very strange
-and interesting. That pleases me more than your clever people,” said
-Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my dear, I beg your pardon,” said Lady Stanton, suddenly getting up
-and kissing her boy’s cheek as she passed him. She went away to hide the
-penitence in her eyes. As for Geoff, he took this very easily and
-simply. He thought it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_218" id="page_218">{218}</a></span> was natural she should apologize to Bampfylde for
-not thinking well of him. He had not a notion of the shame of
-evil-thinking thus brought home to her, which scorched Lady Stanton’s
-cheeks.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXIII.<br /><br />
-<small>COUSIN MARY’S OPINION.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Geoff</span> spent the remainder of this day at home, looking once more over
-the file of old newspapers in which the Musgrave case was printed at
-such length, the <i>Times</i> and the local papers, with all their little
-diversities of evidence, one supplementing another; but lie could not
-make out any reference at all distinct to a third person in the story.
-The two suitors of the village beauty, one of whom she preferred in
-feeling, though the second of them had evidently made her waver in her
-allegiance by the attractions of his superior rank and wealth, were
-enough to fill up the canvas. They were so naturally and appropriately
-pitted against each other, that neither the curiosity of the period nor
-the art of the story-teller required any additional actor in the little
-tragedy. What more natural than that these two rivals should
-meet&mdash;should go from angry words to blows&mdash;and that, in the frenzy of
-the moment, one should give to the other the fatal but unpremeditated
-stroke which made an end of his rivalry and his life? The public
-imagination is simple, and loves a simple story, and this was so
-well-constructed and well-balanced&mdash;perfect in all its parts. What more
-likely than that the humble coquette should hesitate and almost swerve
-from her faith to her accepted lover when the young lord, so much more
-splendid than the young squire, came on the scene? or that, when her
-wavering produced such fatal consequences, the poor girl, not being
-wicked, but only foolish, should have devoted herself with heroism to
-the man whom she had been the means of drawing into deadly peril? Geoff,
-however, with his eyes enlightened,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_219" id="page_219">{219}</a></span> could dimly perceive the traces of
-another person unaccounted for, who had appeared casually in the course
-of the drama. Indeed, the counsel for the prosecution had expressed his
-regret that he could not call this person as a witness, as he was
-supposed to have emigrated, and no trace could be found of him. His
-name, however, was not mentioned, though the counsel for the defence,
-evidently in complete ignorance, taunted his learned brother with the
-non-appearance of this mysterious stranger, and defied him to prove, by
-the production of him, that there had ever been feelings of bitter
-animosity between Musgrave and Lord Stanton. “The jury would like to
-know more about this anonymous gentleman,” the coroner had said. But no
-evidence had ever been produced. Geoff searched through the whole case
-carefully, making various notes, and feeling that he himself, anxious as
-he had been, had never before noticed, except in the most incidental
-way, these slight, mysterious references. Even now he was misty about
-it. He was so tired, indeed, that his mind was less clear than usual;
-and when good Mr. Tritton appeared in the afternoon, very red with
-perpetual sneezing, his eyes running as with tears, he found Geoff in
-the library, in a great chair, with all the papers strewed about,
-sleeping profoundly, the old yellow <i>Times</i> in his hand, and the
-<i>Dalesman’s Gazette</i> at his feet. The young man jumped up when Mr.
-Tritton laid his hand on his shoulder, with quite unnecessary energy,
-almost knocking down his respected instructor. “Take care, take care,
-Geoff!” he cried; “I am not going to hurt you, my boy!” a speech which
-amused Geoff greatly, who could have picked Mr. Tritton up and thrown
-him across his shoulder. This interruption of his studies stopped them
-for the time; but next morning&mdash;not without causing his mother some
-anxiety&mdash;he proposed to ride over once more to Elfdale, to consult
-Cousin Mary.</p>
-
-<p>“It is but two days since we left, my dear,” Lady Stanton said, with a
-sigh, thinking of all she had heard on the subject of “elderly sirens”;
-but Geoff showed her so clearly how it was that he must refer his
-difficulties to the person most qualified to solve them, that his mother
-yielded; though she too began to ask herself why her son should be so
-much concerned about John Musgrave. What was John Musgrave to Geoff? She
-did<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_220" id="page_220">{220}</a></span> not feel that it was quite appropriate that the person most
-interested about poor Walter’s slayer should be Walter’s successor, he
-who had most profited by the deed.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff, however, had his way, and went to his cousin Mary with a great
-deal of caution and anxiety, to hear all that she knew, and carefully to
-conceal from her what he knew. He found her fortunately by herself, in
-the languor of the afternoon, even Annie and Fanny having left her for
-some garden game or other. Lady Stanton the younger was much surprised
-to see her young cousin, and startled by his sudden appearance. “What is
-the matter?” she asked, with a woman’s ready terror; and was still more
-surprised that nothing was the matter, and that Geoff was but paying her
-a simple visit. It may even be suspected that for a moment his mother’s
-alarm communicated itself to Mary. Was it to see <i>her</i> the boy had come
-back so soon and so far? The innocent, kind woman was alarmed. She had
-known herself a beauty for years, and she knew the common opinion (not
-in her experience quite corroborated by fact) that for a beautiful face
-a man will commit any folly. Was she in danger (“at my age!”) of
-becoming a difficulty and a trouble to Geoff? But Geoff soon relieved
-her mind, making her blush hotly at her own self-conceit and folly.</p>
-
-<p>“I have come to ask you some questions,” he said; “you remember the man,
-the poacher, whom you spoke to me about&mdash;the brother, you
-know?&mdash;Bampfylde, whom they call Wild Bampfylde?”</p>
-
-<p>“I know,” said Lady Stanton, with a suppressed shiver.</p>
-
-<p>“I met him&mdash;the other night&mdash;and we got talking. I want you to tell me,
-Cousin Mary: did you ever hear of&mdash;another of them&mdash;a brother they had?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! that is it,” said Lady Stanton, clasping her hands together.</p>
-
-<p>“That is what? Do you know anything about him? I should like to find
-out; from something they&mdash;from something this poacher fellow said&mdash;he is
-not a bad fellow,” said Geoff, in an undertone, with a kind of apology
-in his mind to the vagrant of whom he seemed to be speaking
-disrespectfully.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Geoff, don’t have anything to do with them, dear. You<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_221" id="page_221">{221}</a></span> don’t know
-the ways of people like that. Young men think it is fine to show that
-they are above the prejudices of their class, but it never comes to any
-good. Poor Walter, if he had never seen her face, might have been&mdash;and
-poor John&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Cousin Mary, about the brother?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes: he was their brother, but we did not find it out for a long time.
-He was very clever, they said, and a scholar, but ashamed to belong to
-such poor people. He never went there when he could help it. He took no
-notice, I believe, of the others. He pretended to be a stranger visiting
-the Lakes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Cur!” said Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>“Ye&mdash;es: it was not&mdash;nice; but it must be a temptation, Geoff, when a
-man has been brought up so differently. Some relation had given him his
-education, and he was very clever. I have never felt sure whether it was
-a happy thing for a boy to be brought so far out of his class. He met
-John Musgrave somewhere, but John did not know who he was. And just
-about the time it all happened he went away. I used to think perhaps he
-might have known something; but I suppose he thought it would all come
-out, and his family be known. Fancy being ashamed of your own mother,
-Geoff! But it was hard upon him too&mdash;an old woman who would tell your
-fortune&mdash;who would stand with her basket in the market, you know: and
-he, a great scholar, and considered a gentleman. It <i>was</i> hard; I don’t
-excuse him, but I was sorry for him; and I always thought if he came
-back again, that he might know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton was not accustomed to speak so long and continuously. Her
-delicate cheeks were stained with red patches; her breath came quick.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean to say he has turned up again&mdash;at last?” she added, with a
-little gasp.</p>
-
-<p>“I have heard of him,” said Geoff. “I wondered&mdash;if he could have
-anything to do with it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will tell you all about him, Geoff. It was John Musgrave who met with
-him somewhere. Mary could tell you, too. She was John’s only sister, and
-I her great friend; and I always took an interest. They met, I think,
-abroad&mdash;and he&mdash;was of use to John somehow&mdash;I forget exactly:&mdash;that is
-to say, Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_222" id="page_222">{222}</a></span> Bampfield (he spelt his name differently from the others)
-did something for him&mdash;in short, John said he saved his life. It was
-among the Alps, on some precipice, or something of that sort. You see I
-can only give you my recollection,” said Lady Stanton, falteringly
-conscious of remembering everything about it. “John asked him to
-Penninghame, but he would not come. He told us this new friend of his
-knew the country quite well, but no one could get out of him where he
-had lived. And then he came on a visit to some one else&mdash;to the
-Fieldings, at Langdale&mdash;that was the family; and we all knew him. He was
-very handsome; but who was to suppose that a gentleman visiting in such
-a house was old ’Lizabeth’s son, or&mdash;or&mdash;that girl’s brother? No one
-thought of such a thing. It was John who found it out at the very last.
-It was because of something about myself. Oh, Geoff, I was not
-offended&mdash;I was only sorry. Poor fellow! he was wrong, but it was hard
-upon him. He thought he&mdash;took a fancy to me; and poor John was so
-indignant. No, I assure you not on that account,” said Lady Stanton,
-growing crimson to the eyes, and becoming incoherent. “Never! we were
-like brother and sister. John never had such a thought in his mind. I
-always&mdash;always took an interest in <i>him</i>&mdash;but there was never anything
-of <i>that</i> kind.”</p>
-
-<p>Young Geoff felt himself blush too, as he listened to this confession.
-He coloured in sympathy and tender fellow-feeling for her; for it was
-not hard to read between the lines of Cousin Mary’s humble story. John
-“never had such a thought in his mind;” but she “had always taken an
-interest.” And the blush on her cheek and the water in her eyes told of
-that interest still.</p>
-
-<p>Then Geoff grew redder still, with another feeling. The madman in the
-cottage had dared to lift his eyes to this woman so much above him.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t wonder Musgrave was furious,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“That is the right word,” she said, with a faint smile; “he was furious;
-and Walter&mdash;your brother&mdash;laughed. I did not like that&mdash;it was
-insulting. We were all young people together. Why should not he have
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_223" id="page_223">{223}</a></span>cared for&mdash;me?&mdash;when both of <i>them</i>&mdash;&mdash;. But we must not think of
-that&mdash;we must not talk of that, Geoff&mdash;we cannot blame your poor
-brother. He is dead, poor fellow; and such a death, in the very flower
-of his youth! What were a few little silly boyish faults to that? He
-died, you know, and all the trouble came. Walter had been very
-stinging&mdash;very insulting, to that poor fellow just the day before, and
-he could not bear it. He went off that very day, and I have never heard
-of him again. I don’t think people in general even knew who he was. The
-Fieldings do not to this day. But Walter’s foolish joking drove him
-away. Poor Walter, he had a way of talking&mdash;and I suppose he must have
-found the secret out&mdash;or guessed. I have often&mdash;often wondered whether
-Mr. Bampfield knew anything, whether if he had come back he would have
-said anything about any quarrel between them. I used to pray for him to
-be found, and then I used to pray that he might not be found; for I
-always thought he could throw some light&mdash;and after all, what could that
-light be but of one kind?”</p>
-
-<p>“Did any one ever&mdash;suspect&mdash;<i>him</i>?”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff! you frighten me. Him! whom? You know who was suspected. I don’t
-think it was intended, Geoff. I know&mdash;I know he did not mean it; but who
-but one could have done if? There could not, alas, be any doubt about
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>“If Bampfield had been insulted and made angry, as you say, why should
-not he have been suspected as well as Musgrave? The one, it seems to me,
-was just as likely as the other&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff! you take away my breath! But he was away; he left the day
-before.”</p>
-
-<p>“Suppose it was found out that he did not go away, Cousin Mary? Was he
-more or less likely than Musgrave was to have done a crime?”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton looked at him with her eyes wide open, and her lips apart.</p>
-
-<p>“You do not&mdash;mean anything? You have not&mdash;found out anything, Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;can’t tell,” he said. “I think I have got a clue. If it were found
-out that Bampfield did not go away&mdash;that he was still here, and met poor
-Walter that fatal morning, what would you say then, you who knew them
-all?”</p>
-
-<p>All the colour ebbed out of Lady Stanton’s face. She kept<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_224" id="page_224">{224}</a></span> looking at
-him with wistful eyes, into which tears had risen, questioning him with
-an earnestness beyond speech.</p>
-
-<p>“I dare not say the words,” she said, faltering; “I don’t venture to say
-the words. But, Geoff, you would not speak like this if you did not mean
-something. Do you think&mdash;really <i>think</i>&mdash;oh, it is not possible&mdash;it is
-not possible!&mdash;it is only a fancy. You can’t&mdash;suppose&mdash;that it
-matters&mdash;much&mdash;to me. You are only&mdash;speculating. Perhaps it ought not to
-matter much to me. But oh, Geoff! if&mdash;if you knew what that time was in
-my life. Do you mean anything&mdash;do you mean anything, my dear?”</p>
-
-<p>“You have not answered my question,” he said. “Which was the most likely
-to have done a crime?”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton wrung her hands; she could not speak, but kept her eyes
-upon him in beseeching suspense.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff felt that he had raised a spirit beyond his power to calm again,
-and he had not intended to commit himself or betray so soon what he had
-heard.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing must be known as yet,” he said; “but I think I have some reason
-to speak. Bampfield did not leave the country when you thought he did.
-He saw poor Walter that morning. If Musgrave saw him at all&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton gave a little cry&mdash;“You mean Walter, Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; if Musgrave saw him at all, it was not till after. And Bampfield
-was the brother of the girl John was going to marry, and had saved his
-life.”</p>
-
-<p>“My God!” This was no profane exclamation in Mary’s mouth. She said it
-low to herself, clasping her hands together, her face utterly
-colourless, her eyes wild with wonder and excitement. The shock of this
-disclosure had driven away the rising tears: and yet Geoff did not mean
-it as a disclosure. He had trusted in the gentle slowness of her
-understanding. But there are cases in which feeling supplies all, and
-more than all, that intellect could give. She said nothing, but sat
-there silent, with her hands clasped, thinking it over, piecing
-everything together. No one like Mary had kept hold of every detail; she
-remembered everything as clearly as if (God forbid!) it had happened
-yesterday. She put one thing to another which she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_225" id="page_225">{225}</a></span> remembered but no one
-else did: and gradually it all became clear to her. Geoff, though he was
-so much more clever, did not understand the process by which in silence
-she arranged and perceived every point; but then Geoff had not the
-minute acquaintance with the subject nor the feeling which touched every
-point with interest. By and by Mary began to sob, her gentle breast
-heading with emotion. “Oh, Geoff,” she cried, “what a heart&mdash;what a
-heart! He is like our Saviour; he has given his life for his enemy. Not
-even his friend; he was not fond of him; he did not love him. Who could
-love him&mdash;a man who was ashamed of his own, his very own people? I&mdash;oh,
-how little and how poor we are! I might have done it perhaps for my
-friend; but he&mdash;he is like our Saviour.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t say so. It was not just&mdash;it was not right; he ought not to have
-done it,” cried Geoff. “Think, if it saved something, how much trouble
-it has made.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it is all true!” she cried, triumphant. In perfect good faith and
-tender feeling Mary had made her comment upon this strange, sad
-revelation; yet she could not but feel all the same the triumph of
-having thus caught Geoff, and of establishing beyond all doubt that it
-was true. She fell a-crying in the happiness of the discovery. The
-moment it was certain, the solemnity of it blew aside, as do the mists
-before the wind. “Then he will come home again; he will have his poor
-little children, and all will be well,” she said; and cried as if her
-heart would break. It was vain for Geoff to tell her that nothing was as
-yet proved, that he did not know how to approach the subject; no
-difficulties troubled Mary. Her heart was delivered as of a load; and
-why should not everything at once be told? But she wept all the same,
-and Geoff had no clue to the meaning of her tears. She was glad beyond
-measure for John Musgrave; but yet while he was an exile, who had
-(secretly) stood up for him as she had done? But when he came home, what
-would Mary have to do with him? Nothing! She would never see him, though
-she had always taken an interest, and he would never know what interest
-she had taken. How glad she was! and yet how the tears poured down!</p>
-
-<p>Geoff had a long ride home. He was half alarmed that he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_226" id="page_226">{226}</a></span> allowed so
-much to be known, but yet he had not revealed Lizabeth’s secret. Mary
-had required no particulars, no proof. The suggestion was enough for
-her. She was not judge or jury&mdash;but one to whom the slightest outlet
-from that dark maze meant full illumination. Geoff could not but
-speculate a little on the surface of the subject as he rode along
-through the soft evening, in that unbroken yet active solitude which
-makes a long ride or walk the most pleasant and sure moment for
-“thinking over.” Geoff’s thoughts were quite superficial, as his
-knowledge was. He wondered if John Musgrave had “taken an interest” in
-Mary as she had done in him; and how it was that Mary had been his
-brother’s betrothed, yet with so warm a sympathy for his brother’s
-supposed slayer? And how it was that John Musgrave, if he had responded
-at all to the “interest” she took in him, could have loved and married
-Lily? All this perplexed Geoff. He did not go any deeper; he did not
-think of the mingled feelings of the present moment, but only of the
-tangled web of the past.</p>
-
-<p>It grew dark before he got home. No moon, and a cloudy night disturbed
-by threatenings or rather promise of rain, which the farmers were
-anxious for, as they generally are when a short break of fine weather
-bewilders their operations, in the north. As he turned out of the last
-cross road, and got upon the straight way to Stanton, he suddenly became
-aware of some one running by him on the green turf that edged the road
-and in the shadow of the hedgerow. Geoff was startled by the first sight
-of this moving shadow running noiselessly by his side. It was a safe
-country, where there was no danger from thieves, and a “highwayman” was
-a thing of the last century. But still Geoff shortened his whip in his
-hand with a certain sense of insecurity. As he did so a voice came from
-the shadow of the hedge. “It is but me, my young lord.” “You!” he cried.
-He was relieved by the sound, for a close attendant on the road in the
-dark, when all faces are alike undiscernible, is not pleasant. “What are
-you doing here, Bampfylde? Are you snaring my birds, or scaring them, or
-have you come to look after me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Neither the one nor the other,” said Wild Bampfylde. “I have other
-thoughts in my mind than the innocent creatures<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_227" id="page_227">{227}</a></span> that harm no one. My
-young lord, I cannot tell you what is coming, but something is coming.
-It’s no you, and it’s no me, but it’s in the air; and I’m about,
-whatever happens. If you want me, I’ll aye be within call. Not that I’m
-spying on you; but whatever happens, I’m here.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I want you. I want to ask you something,” cried Geoff; but he was
-slow in putting his next question. It was about his cousin; and what he
-wanted was some one who would see, without forcing him to put them into
-words, the thoughts that arose in his mind. Therefore it was a long time
-before he spoke again. But in the silence that ensued it soon became
-evident to Geoff that the figure running along under the shadow of the
-bushes had disappeared. He stopped his horse, but heard no footfall.
-“Are you there, Bampfylde?” but his own voice was all he heard, falling
-with startling effect into the silence. The vagrant had disappeared, and
-not a creature was near. Geoff went on with a strange mixture of
-satisfaction and annoyance. To have this wanderer “about” seemed a kind
-of aid, and yet to have his movements spied upon did not please the
-young man. But Bampfylde was no spy.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXIV.<br /><br />
-<small>THE SQUIRE AT HOME.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> Squire went home after his game of ducks and drakes in the most
-curious, bewildered state of mind. The shock of all these recent events
-had affected him much more than any one was aware, and Randolph’s visit
-and desire to make sure about “family arrangements,” had filled up the
-already almost overflowing measure of secret pain. It had momentarily
-recalled, like a stimulant too sharp and strong, not only his usual
-power of resistance, but a force of excitement strong enough to
-overwhelm the faculties which for the time it invigorated; and while he
-walked about his woods after his first interview with his son, the
-Squire was on the edge<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_228" id="page_228">{228}</a></span> of a catastrophe, his brain reeling, his
-strained powers on the verge of giving way. The encounter with little
-Nello on the lake-side had exercised a curious arresting power upon the
-old and worn edifice of the mind which was just then tottering to its
-fall. It stopped this fall for the moment. The trembling old walls were
-not perhaps in a less dangerous state, but the wind that had threatened
-them dropped, and the building stood, shaken to its foundation, and at
-the mercy of the next blast, but yet so far safe&mdash;safe for the moment,
-and with all the semblance of calm about it. To leave metaphor, the
-Squire’s mind was hushed and lulled by that encounter with the soft
-peacefulness of childhood, in the most curious, and to himself,
-inexplicable way. Not, indeed, that he tried to explain. He was as
-unconscious of what was going on in himself as most of us are. He did
-not know that the various events which had shaken him had anything more
-than pain in them&mdash;he was unaware of the danger. Even Randolph’s
-appearance and the thought of the discussions which must go on when his
-back was turned, as to the things that would happen after his death&mdash;he
-was not aware that there was more in them than an injury against which
-his whole spirit revolted. He did not know that this new annoyance had
-struck at the very stronghold of vitality, the little strength left to
-him. Which of us does know when the <i>coup-de-grâce</i> is given? He only
-knew the hurt&mdash;the wound&mdash;and the forlorn stand he had made against it,
-and the almost giddy lightness with which he had tried to himself to
-smile it down, and feel himself superior. Neither did he know what Nello
-had done for him. His meeting with the child was like the touch of
-something soft and healing upon a wound. The contact cooled and calmed
-his entire being. It seemed to put out of his mind all sense of wounding
-and injury. It did more; it took all distinctness at once from the moral
-and the physical landmarks round him. The harsher outlines of life grew
-blurred and dim, and instead of the bitter facts of the past, which he
-had so long determined to ignore, and the facts of the present which had
-so pushed themselves upon him, the atmosphere fell all into a soft
-confusion. A kind of happiness stole over him. What had he to be happy
-about? yet he was so. Sometimes in our English<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_229" id="page_229">{229}</a></span> summers there is a mist
-of heat in the air, confusing all the lines of the landscape as much as
-a fog in winter&mdash;in which the hills and lakes and sky are nothing but
-one dazzle and faint glory of suppressed light and warmth&mdash;light
-confusing but penetrating: warmth perhaps stifling to the young and
-active, but consolatory to those whose blood runs chill. This was the
-mental condition in which the Squire was. His troubles seemed to die
-away, though he had so many of them. Randolph, his middle-aged son,
-ceased to be an assailant and invader, and dropped into the dark like
-other troublesome things&mdash;not a son to be proud of, but one to put up
-with easily enough. John? he did not remember much about John; but he
-remembered very distinctly his old playfellow little Johnny, his little
-brother. “Eighteen months&mdash;only eighteen months between them:” he almost
-could hear the tone in which his mother said that long ago. If Johnny
-had lived he would have been&mdash;how old would he have been now? Johnny
-would have been seventy-four or so had he lived&mdash;but the Squire did not
-identify the number of years. There was eighteen months between them,
-that was all he could remember, and of that he sat and mused, often
-saying the words over to himself with a soft dreamy smile upon his face.
-He was often not quite clear that it was not Johnny himself, little
-Johnny, with whom he had been playing on the water-side.</p>
-
-<p>This change affected him in all things. He had never been so entirely
-amiable. When Randolph returned to the assault, the Squire would smile
-and make no reply. He was no longer either irritated or saddened by
-anything his son might say&mdash;indeed he did not take much notice of him
-one way or another, but would speak of the weather, or take up a book,
-smiling, when his son began. This was very bewildering to the family.
-Randolph, who was dull and self-important, was driven half frantic by
-it, thinking that his father meant to insult him. But the Squire had no
-purpose of any kind, and Mary, who knew him better, at last grew vaguely
-alarmed without knowing what she feared. He kept up all his old habits,
-took his walks as usual, dressed with his ordinary care&mdash;but did
-everything in a vague and hazy way, requiring to be recalled to himself
-when anything important<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_230" id="page_230">{230}</a></span> happened. When he was in his library, where he
-had read and written and studied so much, the Squire arranged all his
-tools as usual, opened his book, even began to write his letters,
-putting the date&mdash;but did no more. Having accomplished that beginning he
-would lean back in his chair and muse for hours together. It was not
-thinking even, but only musing; no subject abode with him in these long
-still hours, and not even any consistent thread of recollections.
-Shadows of the past came sailing&mdash;floating about him, that was all; very
-often only that soft, wandering thought about little Johnny, occupied
-all his faculties.&mdash;Eighteen months between them, no more! He rarely got
-beyond that fact, though he never could quite tell whether it was the
-little brother’s face or another&mdash;his son’s, or his son’s son’s&mdash;which
-floated through this mist of recollections. He was quite happy in the
-curious trance which had taken possession of him. He had no active
-personal feelings, except that of pleasure in the recollection and
-thought of little Johnny&mdash;a thought which pleased and amused, and
-touched his heart. All anger and harm went out of the old man; he spoke
-softly when he spoke at all, and suffered himself to be disturbed as he
-never would have done before. Indeed he was far too gentle and good to
-be natural. The servants talked of his condition with dismay, yet with
-that agreeable anticipation of something new which makes even a “death
-in the house” more or less desirable. “Th’ owd Squire’s not long for
-this world,” the Cook and Tom Gardener said to each other. As for
-Eastwood, he shook his head with mournful importance. “I give you my
-word, I might drop a trayful of things at his side, and he wouldn’t take
-no notice,” the man said, almost tearfully; “it’s clean again nature,
-that is.” And the other servants shook their heads, and said in their
-turn that they “didn’t like the looks of him,” and that certainly the
-Squire was not long for this world.</p>
-
-<p>This same event of Randolph’s visit had produced other results almost as
-remarkable. It had turned little Lilias all at once into the slim
-semblance of a woman, grown-up, and full of thoughts. It is perhaps too
-much to say that she had grown in outward appearance as suddenly as she
-had done in mind; but it is no unusual thing in the calmest domestic
-quiet, where no commotion<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_231" id="page_231">{231}</a></span> is, nor fierce, sudden heat of excitement to
-quicken a tardy growth, that the elder members of a family should wake
-up all in a moment, to notice how a child has grown. She had perhaps
-been springing up gradually; but now in a moment every one perceived it;
-and the moment was coincident with that in which Lilias heard with
-unspeakable wrath, horror, shame, pity, and indignation, her father’s
-story&mdash;that he would be put in prison if he came back; that he dared not
-come back; that he might be&mdash;executed. (Lilias would not permit even her
-thoughts to say hanged&mdash;most ignominious of all endings&mdash;though Miss
-Brown had not hesitated to employ the word.) This suggestion had struck
-into her soul like a fiery arrow. The guilt suggested might have
-impressed her imagination also; but the horrible reality of the penalty
-had gone through and through the child. All the wonderful enterprises
-she had planned on the moment are past our telling. She would go to the
-Queen and get his pardon. She would go to the old woman on the hills and
-find out everything. Ah! what would she not do? And then had come the
-weary pilgrimage which Geoff had intercepted; and now the ache of pity
-and terror had yielded to that spell of suspense which, more than
-anything else, takes the soul out of itself. What had come to the child?
-Miss Brown said; and all the maids and Martuccia watched her without
-saying anything. Miss Brown, who had been the teller of the story, did
-not think of identifying it with this result. She said, and all the
-female household said, that if Miss Lily had been a little older, they
-knew what they would have thought. And the only woman in the house who
-took no notice was Mary&mdash;herself so full of anxieties that her mind had
-little leisure for speculation. She said, yes, Lilias had grown; yes,
-she was changing. But what time had she to consider Lilias’ looks in
-detail? Randolph was Mary’s special cross; he was always about, always
-in her way, making her father uncomfortable, talking at the children.
-Mary felt herself hustled about from place to place, wearied and worried
-and kept in perpetual commotion. She could not look into the causes of
-the Squire’s strange looks and ways; she could not give her attention to
-the children; she could scarcely even do her business, into which
-Randolph would fain have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_232" id="page_232">{232}</a></span> forced his way, while her all-investigating
-brother was close by. Would he but go away and leave the harassed
-household in peace!</p>
-
-<p>But Randolph for his part was not desirous of going away. He could not
-go away, he represented to himself, without coming to some understanding
-with his father, though that understanding seemed as far off as ever. So
-he remained from day to day, acting as a special irritant to the whole
-household. He had nothing to do, and consequently he roamed about the
-garden, pointing out to the gardener a great many imperfections in his
-work; and about the stables, driving well-nigh out of his wits the
-steady-going, respectable groom, who nowadays had things very much his
-own way. He found fault with the wine, making himself obnoxious to
-Eastwood, and with the made dishes, exasperating Cook. Indeed there was
-nothing disagreeable which this visitor did not do to set his father’s
-house by the ears. Finally sauntering into the drawing-room, where Mary
-sat, driven by him out of her favourite hall, where his comments
-offended her more than she could bear, he reached the climax of all
-previous exasperations by suddenly urging upon her the undeniable fact
-that Nello ought to go to school. “The boy,” Randolph called him;
-nothing would have induced him to employ any pet name to a child,
-especially a foreign name like Nello&mdash;his virtue was of too severe an
-order to permit any such trifling. He burst out with this advice all at
-once. “You should send the boy to school; he ought to be at school. Old
-Pen’s lessons are rubbish. The boy should be at school, Mary,” he said.
-This sudden fulmination disturbed Mary beyond anything that had gone
-before, for it was quite just and true. “And I know a place&mdash;a nice
-homely, good sort of place, where he would be well taught and well taken
-care of,” he added. “Why should not you get him ready at once? and I
-will place him there on my way home.” This was, to do him justice, a
-sudden thought, not premeditated&mdash;an idea which had flashed into his
-mind since he began to speak, but which immediately gained
-attractiveness to him, when he saw the consternation in Mary’s eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, thank you, Randolph,” she said, faintly. Had not Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_233" id="page_233">{233}</a></span> Pen
-advised&mdash;had not she herself thought of asking her brother’s advice, who
-was himself the father of a boy, and no doubt knew better about
-education than she did? “But,” she added, faltering, “he could not be
-got ready in a moment; it would require a little time. I fear that it
-would not be possible, though it is so very kind.”</p>
-
-<p>“Possible? Oh yes, easily possible, if you give your mind to it,” cried
-Randolph; and he pointed out to her at great length the advantages of
-the plan, while Mary sat trembling, in spite of herself, feeling that
-her horror of the idea was unjustifiable, and that she would probably
-have no excuse for rejecting so reasonable and apparently kind a
-proposal. Was it kind? It seemed so on the outside; and how could she
-venture to impute bad motives to Randolph, when he offered to serve her?
-She did not know what reply to make; but her mind was thrown into sudden
-and most unreasonable agitation. She got up at last, agitated and
-tremulous, and explained that she was compelled to go out to visit some
-of her poor people. “I have not been in the village since you came,” she
-said, breathless in her explanations; “and there are several who are
-ill; and I have something to say to Mr. Pen.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, consult old Pen, of course,” Randolph had said. “I would not
-deprive a lady of her usual spiritual adviser because she happens to be
-my sister. Of course you must talk it over with Pen.” This assumption of
-her dependence upon poor Mr. Pen’s advice galled Mary, who had by no
-means elected Mr. Pen to be her spiritual adviser. However, she would
-not stay to argue the question, but hurried away anxiously with a sense
-of escape. She had escaped for the moment; yet she had a painful sense
-in her mind that she could not always escape from Randolph. The proposal
-was sudden, but it was reasonable and kind&mdash;quite kind. It was the thing
-a good uncle ought to do; no one but would think better of Randolph that
-he was willing to take so much trouble. Randolph for his part felt that
-it was very kind; he had no other meaning in the original suggestion;
-but when he had thus once put it forth, a curious expansion of the idea
-came into his mind. Little Nello was a terrible bugbear to Randolph. He
-had long dwelt upon the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_234" id="page_234">{234}</a></span> thought that it was he who would succeed to
-Penninghame on his father’s death&mdash;at first, perhaps, nominally on
-John’s account. But there was very little chance that John would dare
-the dangers of a trial, and reappear again, to be arraigned for murder,
-of which crime Randolph had always simply and stolidly believed him
-guilty; and the younger brother had entertained no doubt that, sooner or
-later, the unquestioned inheritance would fall into his hands. But this
-child baffled all his plans. What could be done while he was there?
-though there was no proof who he was, and none that he was legitimate,
-or anything but a little impostor: certainly, he was as far from being a
-lawful and proper English heir&mdash;such as an old family like the Musgraves
-ought to have&mdash;such as his own boy would be&mdash;as could be supposed. And
-of course, the best that could be done for himself was to send him to
-school. It was only of Nello that Randolph thought in this way. The
-little girl, though a more distinct individual, did not trouble him. She
-might be legitimate enough&mdash;another Mary, to whom, of course, Mary would
-leave her money&mdash;and there would be an end of it. Randolph did not
-believe, even if there had been no girl of John’s, that Mary’s money
-would ever come his way. She would alienate it rather, he felt
-sure&mdash;found a hospital for cats, or something of that description (for
-Mary was nothing but a typical old maid to Randolph, who regarded her,
-as an unmarried woman, with much masculine and married
-contemptuousness), rather than let it come to his side of the family. So
-let that pass&mdash;let the girl pass; but for the boy! That little, small,
-baby-faced Nello&mdash;a little nothing&mdash;a creature that might be crushed by
-a strong hand&mdash;a thing unprotected, unacknowledged, without either power
-or influence, or any one to care for him! how he stood in Randolph’s
-way! But he did not at this moment mean him any harm; that is, no
-particular harm. The school he had suddenly thought of had nothing wrong
-in it; it was a school for the sons of farmers or poor clergymen, and
-people in “reduced circumstances.” It would do Nello a great deal of
-good. It would clear his mind from any foolish notion of being the heir.
-And he would be out of the way; and once at school, there is no telling
-what may happen between the years of ten and twenty. But of one thing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_235" id="page_235">{235}</a></span>
-Randolph was quite sure&mdash;that he meant no harm, no particular harm, to
-the boy.</p>
-
-<p>When Mary left him in this hurried way, he strolled out in search of
-something to amuse or employ the lingering afternoon. Tom Gardener now
-gave him nothing but sullen answers, and the groom began to dash about
-pails of water, and make hideous noises as soon as he appeared, so that
-it did not consist with his dignity to have anything more to say to
-these functionaries; so that sheer absence of occupation, mingled with a
-sudden interest in the boy, on whose behalf he had thus been suddenly
-“led” to interfere, induced Randolph to look for the children. They were
-not in their favourite place at the door of the old hall, and he turned
-his steps instinctively to the side of the water, the natural attraction
-to everybody at Penninghame. When he came within sight of the little
-cove where the boats lay, he saw that it was occupied by the little
-group he sought. He went towards them with some eagerness, though not
-with any sense of interest or natural beauty such as would have moved
-most people. Nello was seated on the edge of the rocky step relieved
-against the blue water; Lilias placed higher up, with the wind ruffling
-her brown curls, and the slant sunshine grazing her cheek. The boy had a
-book open on his knees, but was trying furtive ducks and drakes under
-cover of the lesson, except when Lilias recalled him to it, when he
-resumed his learning with much demonstration, saying it over under his
-breath with visibly moving lips. Lilias had got through her own portion
-of study. Mr. Pen’s lessons were not long or severe, and she had a
-girl’s conscientiousness and quickness in learning. Her book was closed
-on her knee; her head turned a little towards that road which she
-watched with a long dreamy gaze, looking for some one&mdash;but some one very
-visionary and far away. Her pensive, abstracted look and pose, and the
-sudden growth and development which had so suddenly changed Lilias,
-seemed to have charmed the little girl out of childhood altogether. Was
-she looking already for the fairy prince, the visionary hero? And to say
-the truth, though she was still only a child, this was exactly what
-Lilias was doing. It was the knight-deliverer, the St. George who kills
-the dragon, the prince with shoes of swiftness and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_236" id="page_236">{236}</a></span> invisible coat,
-brought down to common life, and made familiar by being entitled “Mr.
-Geoff,” for whom, with that kind of visionary childish anticipation
-which takes no note of possibilities, she was looking. Time and the
-world are at once vaster, and vaguer, and more narrow at her age than at
-any other. He might come <i>now</i>, suddenly appearing at any moment; and
-Lilias could not but feel vaguely disappointed every moment that he did
-not appear. And yet there was no knowing when he would come, to-morrow,
-next year, she could not tell when. Meanwhile she kept her eyes fixed on
-the distance, watching for him. But Lilias was not thinking of herself
-in conjunction with “Mr. Geoff.” She was much too young for love; no
-flutter of even possible sentiment disturbed the serenity of her soul.
-Nevertheless her mind was concentrated upon the young hero as entirely
-as the mind of any dreaming maiden could be. He was more than her hero;
-he was her representative, doing for her the work which perhaps Lilias
-was not old enough or strong enough to do. So other people, grown-up
-people, thought at least. And until he came she could do nothing, know
-nothing. Already, by this means, the child had taken up the burden of
-her womanhood. Her eyes “were busy in the distance shaping things,” that
-made her heart beat quick. She was waiting already, not for love to
-come, of which at her age she knew nothing, but for help to come, which
-she would have given her little life to bestow, but could not, her own
-hand being too slight and feeble to give help. This thought gave her a
-pang, while the expectation of help kept her in that woman’s purgatory
-of suspense. Why could not she do it herself? but yet there was a
-certain sweetness in the expectation which was vague, and had not
-existed long enough to be tedious. And yet how long, how long it was
-even since yesterday! From daylight to dusk, even in August, what a
-world of time. Every one of these slow, big round hours floated by
-Lilias like clouds when there is no wind, moving imperceptibly; great
-globes of time never to be done with. Her heart gave a throb whenever
-any one appeared. But it was Tom Gardener, it was Mr. Pen, it was some
-one from the village, it was never Mr. Geoff; and finally here was some
-one quite antagonistic, the enemy in person, the stranger whom<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_237" id="page_237">{237}</a></span> people
-called Uncle Randolph. Lilias gave her little brother a note of warning;
-and she opened her own book again.</p>
-
-<p>When Randolph approached, they had thus the air of being very busily
-employed, both;&mdash;Lilias intent upon her book, while Nello, furtively
-feeling in his pocket for the stones which he had stored there for use,
-busied himself, to all appearance, with his lesson, repeating it to
-himself with moving lips. Randolph had taken very little notice of the
-children, except by talking at them to his sister. He came to a pause
-now, and looked at them with curiosity&mdash;or at least he looked at Nello;
-for after all, it did not matter about the girl. She might be John’s
-daughter, or she might not; but in any case she was not worth a thought.
-He did not see the humour of the preternatural closeness of study which
-the children exhibited; but it afforded a means of opening
-communications.</p>
-
-<p>“Are these your lessons for Mr. Pennithorne?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>Nello, to whom the question was addressed, made no answer. Was he not
-much to busy to answer? his eyes were riveted upon his book. Lilias kept
-silence too as long as politeness would let her; but at last the
-rudeness of it struck her acutely. This might be an enemy, but children
-ought not to be rude. She therefore said timidly, “Yes;” and added by
-way of explanation, “Nello’s is Latin; but me, it is only English I
-have.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is it hard?” said Randolph, still directing his question to the boy.</p>
-
-<p>Nello gave a glance out of the corner of his eyes at his questioner, but
-said nothing, only learned harder than ever; and again it became
-needful, for the sake of courtesy, that Lilias should answer.</p>
-
-<p>“The Latin is not hard,” she said; “oh, not near so hard as the English.
-It is so easy to say; but Mr. Pen does not know how it goes; he says it
-all wrong; he says it like English. I hope Nello will not learn it that
-way.”</p>
-
-<p>Randolph stared at her, but took no further notice. “Can’t you speak?”
-he said to Nello, “when I ask you a question? Stop your lesson and
-listen to me. Shouldn’t you like to go to school?”</p>
-
-<p>Nello looked up with round and astonished eyes, and equally<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_238" id="page_238">{238}</a></span> roundly,
-with all the force of the monosyllable, said “No,” as probably he would
-have answered to any question.</p>
-
-<p>“No? but you don’t know what school is; not lessons only, but a number
-of fellows to play with, and all kinds of games. You would like it a
-great deal better than being here, and learning with Mr. Pennithorne.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Nello again; but his tone was less sure, and he paused to
-look into his questioner’s face. “Would Lily come too?” he said,
-suddenly accepting the idea. For from No to Yes is not a very long way
-at eight years old.</p>
-
-<p>“Why, you don’t want to drag a girl with you,” said Randolph, laughing;
-“a girl who can’t play at anything, wherever you go?”</p>
-
-<p>This argument secured Nello’s attention. He said, “N&mdash;no,” reddening a
-little, and with a glance at Lilias, against whose sway he dared
-scarcely rebel all at once; but the sense of superiority even at such an
-early age is sweet.</p>
-
-<p>“He must not go without me,” cried Lilias, roused. “I am to take care of
-him <i>always</i>! Papa said so. Oh, don’t listen, Nello, to this&mdash;gentleman!
-You know what I told you&mdash;papa is perhaps coming home. Mr. Geoff
-said&mdash;Mr. Geoff knows something that will make everything right again.
-Mr. Geoff is going to fetch papa&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” cried Nello, reproachfully, “you said I was not to tell; and there
-you have gone and told yourself!”</p>
-
-<p>“What is that? what is that?” asked Randolph, pricking up his ears.</p>
-
-<p>But the boy and girl looked at each other and were silent. The curious
-uncle felt that he would most willingly have whipped them both, and that
-amiable sentiment showed itself in his face.</p>
-
-<p>“And, Lily,” said Nello, “I think the old gentleman would not let me go.
-He will want me to play with; he has never had anybody to play with
-for&mdash;I don’t know how long&mdash;never since a little boy called little
-Johnny: and he said that was my name too&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Nello! now it is you who are forgetting; he said (you know you told
-me) that you were never, never to tell!”</p>
-
-<p>Randolph turned from one to another, bewildered. What<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_239" id="page_239">{239}</a></span> did they mean?
-Had they the audacity to play upon his fears, the little foundlings, the
-little impostors! He drew a long breath of fury, and clenched his fist
-involuntarily. “Children should never have secrets,” he said. “Do you
-know it is wicked, very wicked? You ought to be whipped for it. Tell me
-directly what you mean!”</p>
-
-<p>But this is not the way to get at any child’s secret. The brother and
-sister looked at each other, and shut fast their mouths. As for Nello,
-he felt the edges of that stone in his pocket, and thought he would like
-to throw it at the man. Lilias had no stone, and was not warlike; but
-she looked at him with the calm of superior knowledge. “It would be
-dishonourable,” she said, faltering over the pronunciation, but firm in
-the sentiment, “to tell what we were told not to tell.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are going to school with me&mdash;on Saturday,” said Randolph, with a
-virulence of irritation which children are just as apt to call forth as
-their elders. “You will be taught better there; you will not venture to
-conceal anything, I can tell you, my boy.”</p>
-
-<p>And he left them with an angry determination to carry out his plans, and
-to give over Nello to hands that would tame him effectually, “the best
-thing for him.” The children, though they had secretly enjoyed his
-discomfiture, were a little appalled by this conclusion. “Oh, Nello, I
-will tell you what he is&mdash;he is the wicked uncle in the <i>Babes in the
-Wood</i>. He will take you and leave you somewhere, where you will lose
-yourself and starve, and never be heard of. But I will find you. I will
-go after you. I will never leave you!” cried Lilias with sudden tears.</p>
-
-<p>“I could ask which way to go,” said Nello, much impressed, however, by
-this view. “I can speak English now. I could ask the way home; or
-something better!&mdash;listen, Lily&mdash;if he takes me, when we have gone ten
-miles, or a hundred miles, I will run away!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_240" id="page_240">{240}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXV" id="CHAPTER_XXV"></a>CHAPTER XXV.<br /><br />
-<small>A NEW VISITOR.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Notwithstanding</span> her dislike to have it supposed that Mr. Pen was her
-spiritual adviser, Mary did make a hurried visit to the Vicarage to ask
-his advice. Not that she had much confidence in the good Vicar’s advice;
-but to act in such a case, where experience fails you altogether,
-entirely on your own judgment without even the comfort of “talking it
-over,” is a hard thing to do. “Talking it over” is always an advantage.
-The for and against of any argument are always clearer when they are put
-into words and made audible, and thus acquire, as it were, though they
-may be your own words, a separate existence. Thus Mary became her own
-adviser when she consulted Mr. Pen, and there was no one else at hand
-who could fulfil this office. They talked it over anxiously, Mr. Pen
-being, as she knew he would be, entirely on Randolph’s side. To him it
-appeared that it would be a great advantage for Nello to be taken to
-school by his uncle. It would be “the right thing to do”&mdash;better than if
-Mary did it&mdash;better than Mr. Pen himself could do it. Mary could not
-find any arguments to meet this conventional certainty. She restrained
-her distrust and fear, but she could not say anything against the fact
-that it was kind of Randolph to propose this, and that it would be
-injurious and unkind on her part to reject it. She went home dispirited
-and cast down, but set to work at once with the practical preparations.
-Saturday was the day on which Randolph had said he must go&mdash;and it was
-already Thursday&mdash;and there was not a moment to lose. But it was not
-till the Friday afternoon, the eve of separation, that Miss Musgrave
-could screw her courage to the point of informing the children what lay
-before them. The afternoon was half over, and the sun beginning to send
-long rays aslant from the west. She came in from the village, where she
-had gone in mere restlessness, feeling that this communication could be
-delayed no longer; but she disliked it so much herself that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_241" id="page_241">{241}</a></span> the thought
-of Nello’s consternation and the tears of Lilias was almost more than
-their tender guardian could bear.</p>
-
-<p>But when she came in sight of the old hall door, a group encountered her
-which bewildered Mary. A young man on horseback had drawn up at the side
-of the ascent, and with his hat off, and the sun shining upon his
-curling hair and smiling countenance, was looking up and talking to
-little Lilias, who leaned over the low wall, like a lady of romance
-looking over her battlements. The sun gleamed full upon Lilias too,
-lighting up her dark eyes and warmly-tinted cheek and the hair which
-hung about her shoulders, and making a pretty picture. Her face was full
-of earnest meaning, grave and eager and tremulous. Nello, at the hall
-door, above this strange pair, contemplated them with a mixture of
-jealousy and wonder. Mary had come upon them so suddenly that she could
-hear the young man answering something to the eager demands of the
-little girl. “But, you are sure, quite sure? Oh, are you certain, Mr.
-Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“Quite sure,” he was saying. “But you must think of me all the time,
-Lily; you must think of nothing but me&mdash;promise me that, and I shall not
-be afraid.”</p>
-
-<p>“I promise!” cried Lilias, clasping her hands. Mary stood and listened
-altogether confounded, and Nello, from above, bewildered and only half
-satisfied, looked on. Who was the young man? It seemed to Miss Musgrave
-that she had seen him before. And what was it that had changed Lilias
-into this little princess, this small heroine? The heroic aspect,
-however, gave way before Mary could interfere, and the child murmured
-something softer, something less unlike the little girl with all whose
-ways Mary was familiar.</p>
-
-<p>“But I always think of you,” she said; “always! since <i>that</i> day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you, indeed, my little Lily? That makes me happy. You must always
-keep up so good a custom.”</p>
-
-<p>And the young man smiled, with eyes full of tenderness, and took the
-child’s hand and held it in his own. Lilias was too young for any
-comment or false interpretation, but what did it mean? The spectator
-behind, besides, was too much astonished to move.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_242" id="page_242">{242}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Good-bye, my Lily; good-bye, Nello,” cried the young man, nodding his
-head to the children. And then he put on his hat and rode round the
-corner towards the door.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias stood looking after him, like a little saint in an ecstasy. She
-clasped her hands again, and looked up to the sky, her lips moving, and
-tears glittering in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Nello, don’t you think God will help him?” she said, one tear
-overbrimming suddenly, and rolling down her cheek. She started when
-Mary, with tones a little sharpened by consternation, called her. Lilias
-had no sense of shame in her innocent mind, but as there is no telling
-in what light those curious beings called grown-up people might regard a
-child’s actions, a little thrill of alarm went through her. What might
-Mary say? What would she think when she knew that Mr. Geoff “had come to
-set everything right about papa”? Lilias felt instinctively that Geoff’s
-mission would not appear in exactly the same light to Mary as it did to
-herself. She turned round with a sudden flush of surprise and agitation
-on her face. It looked like the blush of a maturer sentiment to Mary.</p>
-
-<p>“At twelve years old!” she said to herself! And unconsciously there
-glanced through her mind a recollection of the first Lily&mdash;the child’s
-mother&mdash;she who had been the beginning of all the trouble. Was it in the
-blood?</p>
-
-<p>“Who is that gentleman?” Mary asked, with much disturbance of mind.
-“Lilias! I could not have expected this of you.”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias followed into the hall, very still and pale, feeling herself a
-culprit, though she did not know why. Her hands dropped straight by her
-side, after the manner of a creature accused; and she looked up to Mary
-with eyes full of vague alarm, into which the tears were ready to come
-at a moment’s notice.</p>
-
-<p>“I have not done anything wrong?” she said, turning her assertion into a
-faltering question. “It was Mr. Geoff.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Geoff!&mdash;who is Mr. Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“He is&mdash;very kind&mdash;oh, very kind, Mary; he is&mdash;some one who knows about
-papa: he is&mdash;the gentleman who once came with two beautiful horses in a
-carriage (oh, don’t you remember, Nello?) to see <i>you</i>.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_243" id="page_243">{243}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Nello, with ready testimony; “he said I should ride upon
-them. They were two bay horses, in one of those high-up funny carriages,
-not like Mary’s carriage. I wonder if I might ride upon his horse now?”</p>
-
-<p>“To see <i>me</i>?” Mary was entirely bewildered. “And what do you mean about
-your father?” she said. “Knows about papa! Lilias! come here; I am not
-angry. What does he know about papa?”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias came up slowly to her side, half unwilling to communicate her own
-knowledge on this point. For Mary had not told her the secret, she
-remembered suddenly. But the confusion of Lilias was interrupted by
-something more startling and agitating. Eastwood came into the hall,
-with a certain importance and solemnity. “If you please, ma’am,” he
-said, “my Lord Stanton has just come in, and I’ve shown him into the
-library&mdash;to my master. I thought you would like to know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Lord Stanton&mdash;to my father, Eastwood? my father ought not to be
-troubled with strangers. Lord Stanton!&mdash;to be sure it was that boy.
-Quick, say that I shall be glad to see him up-stairs.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you please, ma’am, his lordship asked for my master; and my
-master&mdash;he said, ‘Yes, certainly.’ He was quite smiling like, and
-cheerful. He said, ‘Yes; certainly, Eastwood.’ So, what was I to do? I
-showed his lordship in&mdash;and there they are now&mdash;as friendly&mdash;as
-friendly, if I may venture to make a comparison: His lordship,” said
-Eastwood, prudently pausing before he committed himself to metaphor,
-“is, if I may make bold to say so, one of the nicest young gentleman!”</p>
-
-<p>Mary had risen hastily to interrupt this dangerous interview, which
-alarmed her. She stood, paying no attention to Eastwood while the man
-was talking, feeling herself crowded and pressed on all hands by a
-multitude of thoughts. The hum of them was in her ears, like the sound
-of a throng of people. Should she go to the library, whatever her father
-might think of the interruption? Should she stop this meeting at all
-hazards? or should she let it go on, and that come which would? All was
-confusion around her, her heart beating loudly in her ears, and a
-hundred suggestions sounding through that stormy throbbing. But when<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_244" id="page_244">{244}</a></span>
-Eastwood’s commonplace voice, to which she had been paying no heed,
-stopped, Mary’s thoughts came to a stop also. She grew faint, and the
-light seemed to vanish from her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>The Squire had been sitting alone all day. He had seemed to all the
-servants (the most accurate of observers in such a case) more feeble
-than usual. His daughter, agitated and full of trouble about other
-things, had not remarked any change. But Eastwood had shaken his head
-down-stairs, and had said that he did not like the looks of master. He
-had never been so gentle before. Whatever you said to him he smiled,
-which was not at all the Squire’s way. And though he had a book before
-him, Eastwood had remarked that he did not read. He would cast his eyes
-upon his book when any one went in, but it was always the same page.
-Eastwood had made a great many pretences of business, in order to see
-how his master was&mdash;pretences which the Squire in his usual health would
-have put a stop to summarily, but which to-day he either did not observe
-at all, or received smilingly. In this way Eastwood had remarked a great
-many things which filled him with dismay; for he liked his old master,
-and the place suited him to perfection. He noticed the helpless sort of
-way in which Mr. Musgrave sat; his knees feebly leaning against each
-other, his fingers falling in a heap upon the arm of his chair, his
-eyelids half covering his eyes. It was half the instinct of obedience,
-and half a benevolent desire to rouse his master, which made Eastwood
-introduce the visitor into the library without consulting Miss Musgrave.
-Judging by his own feelings, the man felt that nothing was so likely to
-stimulate and rouse up the Squire as a visit from a lord. There were not
-too many of them about; visitors of any kind, indeed, were not over
-plentiful at Penninghame; and a nice, cheerful, affable young lordship
-was a thing to do anybody good.</p>
-
-<p>And Geoff went in, full of the mission he had taken in hand. It was a
-bold thing to do, after all he had heard of the inexorable old Squire
-who had shut his heart to his son, and would hear nothing of him, as
-everybody said. But it seemed to Geoff, in the rash generosity of his
-youth, that if he, who was the representative of the injured family,
-were to interfere, the other<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_245" id="page_245">{245}</a></span> must be convinced&mdash;must yield, at least,
-to reason, and consent to consider the subject. But he did not expect a
-very warm reception, and went in with a beating heart.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Musgrave had risen up to receive him; he had not failed in any of
-his faculties. He could still hear as well as he did twenty years
-before, and Lord Stanton’s name was unusual enough to call his attention
-for the moment. He had raised himself from his chair, and stood leaning
-forward, supporting himself with both hands upon the writing-table
-before him. This had been a favourite attitude, when he had no occasion
-for support; but now the feeble hands leaned heavily with all the weight
-of his frame upon them. He said the name that had been announced to him
-with a wavering of suspicion in his tone, “Lord Stanton!” then pointed
-with a tremulous sweep of his hand to a seat, and himself dropped back
-into his chair. He was not the stern old chief whom Geoff expected to
-find in arms against every suggestion of mercy, but a feeble old man,
-smiling faintly, with a kind of veiled intelligence in his eyes. He
-murmured something about “an unusual pleasure,” which Geoff could not
-make out.</p>
-
-<p>“I have come to you, sir, about important business. I hope you will not
-think I am taking too much upon myself. I thought, as I was&mdash;the chief
-person on one side, and you on the other, that you might allow me to
-speak?”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was as nervous as a child; his colour went and came. It awed him,
-he could scarcely tell why, to see the feebleness of the old figure, the
-dreary, abstracted look in the old face.</p>
-
-<p>“Surely&mdash;surely,” said the old man. “Why should you not speak to me? Our
-family is perhaps better known; but yours, Mr.&mdash;I mean, my Lord Stanton,
-yours is&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>He half forgot what he was saying, getting slower and slower, and now
-stopped all at once. Then, after a moment, rousing himself, resumed,
-with a wave of his hand, “Surely&mdash;you must say&mdash;what you have to say.”</p>
-
-<p>This was worse for Geoff than if he had forbidden him altogether. What
-could he do to rouse interest in the old man’s breast?</p>
-
-<p>“I want to speak, sir,” he said, faltering, “of your son.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_246" id="page_246">{246}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“My son?&mdash;ah! yes, Randolph is here. He is too old for me&mdash;too old&mdash;not
-like a son. What does it matter who is your father when it comes to that
-age?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was not Randolph, sir. I did not know him; but it is your other
-son&mdash;your eldest son, I mean&mdash;John.”</p>
-
-<p>“Eh?” The old man roused up a little. “John&mdash;that was my little brother;
-we called him Johnny&mdash;a delightful boy. There is just such another in
-the house now, I believe. I think he is in the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir!” said Geoff, “I want to speak to you&mdash;to plead with you for
-some one who is not in the house&mdash;for your son John&mdash;John who has been
-so long away. You know&mdash;don’t you know whom I mean?&mdash;your eldest son,
-Mr. Musgrave&mdash;<i>John</i>, who left us and left everything so many years
-ago.”</p>
-
-<p>A wavering light came over the old man’s face. He opened his eyes wide
-and gazed at Geoff, who, for his part, was too much troubled and alarmed
-to know what to do.</p>
-
-<p>“Eh!” he said again, with a curious blank stare, “my&mdash;what? Son? but not
-Randolph. No more about sons, they are a trouble and a sorrow. To tell
-the truth I am drowsy rather. I suppose&mdash;I have not been very well. Have
-you seen the little boy?”</p>
-
-<p>“The little boy?&mdash;your grandson, sir?”</p>
-
-<p>“Eh! you call him that! He is just such another as little Johnny, my
-little brother, who was eighteen months younger than I. You were saying
-something else, my&mdash;my&mdash;friend! But to tell the truth, this is all I am
-good for now. The elders would like to push us from the scene; but the
-little ones,” said the Squire, with a curious sudden break of laughter,
-which sounded full of tears, “the little ones&mdash;are fond of old people;
-that is all I am good for nowadays&mdash;to play with the little boy&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir!” said Geoff in his eagerness, “it is something very different
-that is expected of you. To save the little boy’s father&mdash;your son&mdash;to
-bring him back with honour. It is honour, not shame, that he deserves. I
-who am a stranger, who am the brother of the man who was killed, I have
-come to entreat you to do John Musgrave justice. You know how he has
-been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_247" id="page_247">{247}</a></span> treated. You know, to our disgrace, not his, that there is still a
-sentence against him. It is John Musgrave&mdash;John Musgrave we ought to
-think of. Listen to me&mdash;oh, listen to me! Your son&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>The old man rose to his feet, and stood wavering, gazing with troubled
-wide-open eyes, full of the dismal perplexity of an intelligence which
-feels itself giving way. “John Musgrave!” he said, with pale lips which
-trembled and dropped apart; and a thrill and trembling came over his
-whole frame. Geoff sprang up and came towards him in alarm to support
-him, but the Squire waved him away with both his tremulous hands, and
-gave a bewildered look round him as if for some other prop. Suddenly he
-caught sight of the little carved oak cupboard against the wall. “Ah!”
-he said, with an exclamation of relief. This was what he wanted. He
-turned and made a feeble step towards it, opened it, and took from it
-the cordial which he used in great emergencies, and to which he turned
-vaguely in this utter overthrowal of all his forces now. But then ensued
-a piteous spectacle; all his strength was not sufficient to pour it out.
-He made one or two despairing efforts, then put the bottle and glass
-down upon the table with a low cry, and sank back into his chair. He
-looked at Geoff with the very anguish of feebleness in his eyes. “Ah!”
-he faltered, “it is true&mdash;they are right. I am old&mdash;old&mdash;and good for
-nothing. Let them push me away, and take my place.” A few sobs, bitter
-and terrible, came with the words, and two or three tears dropped down
-the old man’s grey-pale cheeks. The depth of mortal humiliation was in
-this last cry.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff almost wept too in the profound pity of his generous young
-soul&mdash;it went to his very heart. “Let me help you,” he cried, pouring
-out the cordial with anxious care. It was all the Squire could do to put
-it to his lips. He laid one of his trembling hands upon Geoff’s shoulder
-as he gave back the glass, and whispered to him hoarsely, “Not
-Randolph,” he said; “don’t let Randolph come. Bring me&mdash;do you
-know?&mdash;the little boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, sir, yes,” cried Geoff; “I understand.”</p>
-
-<p>The old Squire still held him with a hand which was heavy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_248" id="page_248">{248}</a></span> as lead upon
-his arm, “God bless you, my lad,” he said. He did not know who Geoff
-was; but trusted to him as in utter prostration we trust to any hand
-held out to us. And a little temporary ease came with the potion. He
-smiled feebly once more, laid back his head, and closed his eyes. “My
-little Johnny!” he said; and his hands fell as Eastwood had described
-them, the fingers crumbled together all in a heap, upon the arms of his
-chair.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff rushed out of the room with a beating heart, feeling himself all
-at once thrust into a position of importance in this unknown house. He
-had never seen death or its approach, and in his inexperience did not
-know how difficult it was to shuffle off the coils of mortality. He
-thought the old man was dying. Accordingly, he rushed up the slope to
-the old hall like a whirlwind, where Mary and the children were. “Come,
-come,” he cried; “he is ill, very ill!” and snatching Nello’s reluctant
-hand, ran back, dragging the child with him, who resisted with all his
-might. “Come, your grandfather wants you,” cried Geoff. Mary followed,
-alarmed, and wondering, and&mdash;scarcely knowing where she went in her
-agitation&mdash;found herself, behind the young man and the boy, at the door
-of that sacred library which the children had never entered, and where
-their very existence was ignored. Her father was lying back in his great
-chair; Eastwood, whom Geoff had hastily summoned, standing behind. The
-old man’s heavy eyes were watching the door, his old limbs huddled
-together in the chair, like something inanimate thrown down in a heap,
-and lying as it fell. At sight of this awful figure, little Nello gave a
-loud cry of childish terror, and turning round, would have fled but for
-Geoff, who stood behind him. At the sound of the child’s voice, the old
-man roused himself feebly; he moved his arms&mdash;extending them in
-intention at least&mdash;and his lips with inaudible words. “Go to him, go to
-him!” cried Geoff in an imperative whisper. Little Nello was not without
-courage, though he was afraid. Finding the way of escape blocked up, he
-turned round again, stood irresolute for a moment, and then advanced
-with the strength of desperation. The old man, with a last effort, put
-out his arms, and drew the child between his knees. “My<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_249" id="page_249">{249}</a></span> little Johnny!”
-he said, with an only half-articulate outbreak of crying and strange
-laughter. Then his arms fell powerless; his head drooped on his breast.
-Nello broke out wildly into crying; but stood fascinated between the
-feeble knees.</p>
-
-<p>Was he dead? Geoff thought so in his simplicity as he led the child
-away, and left Mary and the servants, whom he had summoned, in this
-death-chamber. He led Nello back to the hall, and sat down beside the
-children and talked to them in low tones. His mind was full of awe and
-solemn feeling; his own youth, and strength, and happiness seeming a
-kind of insult to the old and dying. He went back after a while very
-grave and humble, to ask how it was, and what he could do. But the
-Squire was not dead. He was stricken by that <i>avant-courier</i> of the
-great king, who kills the mind before the body dies. It was “a stroke,”
-Eastwood said, in all the awe, yet importance, of so tragic an event. He
-had seen it coming for weeks before, he said.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXVI.<br /><br />
-<small>IN SUSPENSE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Randolph Musgrave</span> was extremely annoyed at the turn things had taken. On
-the day of his father’s seizure indeed a kind of serene solemnity came
-over him. He would not have been so indiscreet or indecorous as to admit
-that he was glad of the “stroke” which might terminate the Squire’s
-life; such an evil sentiment was far from him. Still if his dear father
-was indeed in the providence of God to be taken away from this mortal
-scene, there was a sad satisfaction in having it happen while he was
-still at the Castle and ready to be of use. As the only male member of
-the family, it was indeed very important that he should be there on such
-a melancholy occasion. Mary would have enough on her hands with the
-nursing and the strictly feminine duties, and he was the only one to
-turn to, the only one who could do anything. He telegraphed to his wife
-what the sad occasion was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_250" id="page_250">{250}</a></span> that detained him, and went to bed with a
-comfortable sense that his visit had not been in vain. It was melancholy
-to think that all might be over before the morning; but yet he could do
-no good by staying up and wearing himself out. If it should so happen
-that his own sad prognostications were correct, why then he had occasion
-for all his strength, for he it would be who must do everything. And no
-martyr could have contemplated the stake with more elevated resignation
-and satisfaction than Randolph looked at the labours and troubles he
-would have to take upon him. He lay down, solemnly going over them in
-his mind&mdash;the details of the funeral, the reading of the will, the
-taking possession of the estate. He resolved that he would take
-possession in his brother’s name. No one knew where John was; he could
-not be called at a moment’s notice like respectable men. Nor, indeed,
-would it be kind to think of such a thing as bringing him here to the
-endangerment of his life. No, he would take possession for his brother.
-He would put his brother’s little son to school. The girl of course
-would go with Mary, who for her part must, he supposed, have the house
-on the way to Pennington, which was called the Dower-house, though he
-did not think an unmarried sister had any real right to a place which
-was intended for the widow of the previous Squire. But that might pass:
-Mary had been accustomed to have everything her own way, and she should
-have the Dower-house by grace at least, if not by right. He fell asleep
-as he was arranging all these things with a great deal of serious
-satisfaction. Of course it was sad: what is there in this vale of tears
-that is not mixed with sadness? But it was not (he said to himself) as
-if his father were a young man, or carried off in the midst of his work.
-He was old, he had lived out the life of man, he had arrived at the time
-when a man has a right to expect that his day is over, and must know
-that in the course of nature he ought to give place to his successors.
-And as things were to take such a serious turn, how well it was that he,
-Randolph, should be on the spot to do everything! His satisfaction in
-this was really the foremost feeling in his mind.</p>
-
-<p>But all was not over in the morning, as Randolph had so certainly
-anticipated. He got up in the same solemnized but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_251" id="page_251">{251}</a></span> resigned and serene
-condition, and wondered a little to see how late it was. For indeed the
-turn things had taken, though so serious, had been peace-inspiring,
-removing anxiety from his mind, and he had slept later than usual in
-consequence. And it was clear that as yet there had been “no change.”
-Eastwood, who was late too, having stayed up late on the previous night
-indulging the solemn excitement which was natural to this crisis, came
-in with profound seriousness and an air as solemn as Randolph’s. “Just
-the same, sir,” he said; “the doctor is with him now.” Randolph could
-not help a slight sensation of disappointment. He had made up his mind
-so distinctly what was to happen, and there are cases in which even good
-news are out of place. It was with less resignation and more anxiety
-that he hurried out to hear what the doctor said.</p>
-
-<p>And he was much provoked and annoyed when a week later there was still
-no progress made, and it became apparent that no such easy solution of
-all difficulties as he had expected was to be looked for. The Squire was
-in much the same state on the next Saturday and the next, and it was
-apparent that the illness was to be a lingering and tedious one&mdash;the
-kind of thing which wears out everybody round. When people are going to
-die, what a pity that they should not do it speedily, relieving both
-themselves and others! But nature, so often acting in a manner contrary
-to all prognostications, was not to be hurried. To jog her gently on,
-and relieve the sufferer authoritatively from his troubles, is not yet
-permissible in England. On the contrary, medical science acts just the
-other way, with questionable mercy, prolonging lives in which there is
-nothing but suffering, and stimulating the worn-out machinery of the
-frame to go on a little longer, to suffer a little more, with all that
-wheezing and creaking of the rusty wheels which bears witness to the
-unnaturalness of the process. This was what Randolph felt with much
-restrained warmth of annoyance. It was unnatural; it was almost impious.
-Two doctors, a professional nurse, and Mary, who was as good, all
-labouring by every possible invention to keep mere life in their
-patient. Was it right to do so? Providence had evidently willed to
-release the old man, but science was forcing him to remain imprisoned in
-the flesh. It was very hard upon the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_252" id="page_252">{252}</a></span> Squire, and upon Randolph too,
-especially as the latter could not venture to express his real
-sentiments on this matter, but was compelled to be glad of every little
-sign of tenacity and vitality which the patient gave. If it had been
-recovery indeed, he said to himself, there might have been some reason
-for satisfaction; but as it was only holding by life, mere existing and
-nothing more, what ground was there for thankfulness? It would be better
-for the sufferer himself, better for everybody, that it should be over
-soon. After this state of things had lasted for a fortnight, Randolph
-could not bear it any longer. He sent for Mary from the sick room, and
-gave her to understand that he must go.</p>
-
-<p>“Had I expected he would last so long,” he said, “I should have gone
-last week. Of course it does not matter for you who have nothing else to
-do; but my work and my time are of importance. If anything were likely
-to happen directly, of course I should think it my duty to stay; but, so
-far as I can see, nothing is likely to happen,” said Randolph in an
-aggrieved tone. Mary was too sad to laugh and too languid to be angry,
-but there came a gleam of mingled resentment and amusement into her
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“It is not for us to wish that anything should happen,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Wish? Did I talk of wishing? I stated a fact. And in the meantime my
-parish is being neglected and my work waiting for me. I cannot hang on
-here for ever. Of course,” Randolph added, “if anything should happen,
-you have only to telegraph, and I will come.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t see that it is necessary, Randolph. My father may rally, or he
-may linger for months, the doctors say; and whatever happens&mdash;of course
-you shall hear immediately; but so far as I am concerned, it does not
-seem necessary to disturb your work and unsettle your parish&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“That is ridiculous; of course I shall come the moment I am summoned. It
-is quite essential that there should be some man to manage matters. And
-the boy is all ready,” he added; “you had his outfit prepared before my
-father’s attack came on. Let them pack up for him, and on Friday we
-shall go.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_253" id="page_253">{253}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“The boy! How could I send him away now, when my father might recover
-his consciousness, and want him?”</p>
-
-<p>“My father want him? This is too much,” said Randolph&mdash;“my father, from
-whom you concealed his very existence&mdash;who never cared for children at
-any time. My <i>father</i>? What could he possibly want with the boy? He
-should have gone a fortnight ago. I wrote to enter his name of course,
-and the money is running on. I can’t afford to pay for nothing whatever
-you may do, Mary. Let his things be packed up, and let him go with me.”</p>
-
-<p>“I think your brother is right,” said the Vicar, who was present. “Nello
-is doing no good with me. We have been so much disturbed with all that
-has taken place; and Emily has been so poorly&mdash;you know how poorly she
-has been&mdash;and one feels with one’s own children the time can always be
-made up somehow. That is the worst of lessons at home,” said Mr. Pen,
-with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“But my father sent for him&mdash;wanted him; how can I send the child away!
-Mr. Pen, you know, if Randolph does not, that he is the heir, and his
-grandfather has a right to have him close at hand.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is no use arguing with women,” said Randolph, white with rage. “I
-don’t understand this nonsense about my father wanting him. I don’t
-believe a word of it. But I tell you this, Mary, if he is the heir, I am
-his uncle, his next friend; and I say, he sha’n’t lose his time here and
-get ruined among a pack of women. He must go to school. Supposing even
-that my father did want him (which is absolute absurdity; why, my father
-pretends not to know of his existence!) would you put a selfish old
-man’s fancy against the boy’s good?”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph! how do you dare, when he is so ill,” cried Mary, with
-trembling lips, “to speak of my father so!”</p>
-
-<p>“It is true enough anyhow,” said the undutiful son. “When he is so ill!
-Why, that is the reason I can speak freely. One would not hurt his
-feelings if he could ever know it. But he was always known to be
-selfish. I did not think there was any doubt about that. The boy must
-not be ruined for an old man’s whim, even if it is true.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_254" id="page_254">{254}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“It is dreadful to go against you,” said the Vicar, looking at her with
-piteous eyes, beseeching her forgiveness; “but Randolph is in the right.
-Nello is losing his time; he is doing no good; he ought to go to
-school.”</p>
-
-<p>“You too!” cried Mary. She could not but smile, though the tears were in
-her eyes. And poor Mr. Pen’s dissent from her cost the good man so much.
-He looked at her, his eyes too filling, with deprecating, beseeching,
-wistful looks, as a dog does. When he thus took part so distinctly
-against Mary, conscience, it was clear, must have been strong within Mr.
-Pen. He had tried hard for her sake to overcome the habit of irregular
-hours and desultory occupation which had grown upon him, and to give the
-children their lessons steadily, at the same hours, day by day. But poor
-Mr. Pen had not known how hard it would be to accomplish this. The idea
-of being able to make up the failing lessons at any odd moment which
-made the children at the Vicarage so uncertain in their hours, had soon
-returned after the first bracing up of duty towards Lilias and Nello had
-come to an end. And then Mrs. Pen had been ill, and could not bear the
-noise of the children; and then the Squire had been ill, upsetting
-everybody and everything; and then&mdash;the Vicar did not know what more to
-say for himself. He had got out of the way of teaching, out of the habit
-of exact hours, and Emily had been very poorly, and, on the whole,
-Randolph was right, and the boy ought to go to school.</p>
-
-<p>Several of these discussions, however, took place before Mary gave way.
-The account Randolph had heard of the last scene in the library, before
-the Squire had his “stroke,” had not been at all satisfactory to his
-mind. He sincerely believed (though with an uneasy sense of something in
-it that sounded like truth) that this story was a fabrication to suit a
-purpose. But, on the other hand, his own intentions were very distinct.
-The mere fact that such a story had been invented showed the meaning on
-the other side. This boy was to be foisted into the place which, for
-years, he had supposed himself to occupy. John not being possible, who
-but Randolph could fill that place? Another heir was ridiculous, was
-shameful, and a wrong to him. He would not suffer it. What right had
-John, an outlaw and exile, to have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_255" id="page_255">{255}</a></span> a son, if it came to that? He would
-not allow the child to stay here to be petted and pampered, and made to
-believe himself the heir. For, in the end, Randolph had made up his mind
-that the boy could not and should not be admitted to the advantages of
-heirship without a very different kind of proof of identity from any
-they possessed. And it would be ruin to the child to be allowed to fill
-such a false position now. The mere idea of it filled him with
-suppressed rage. He did not mean the boy any harm&mdash;not any real harm. On
-the contrary, it would be a real advantage to him in any case to be bred
-up frugally and industriously; and this he would insist upon, in spite
-of every resistance. He would not leave the child here to have him
-wormed into the old man’s affections, made a tool of by Mary in John’s
-interests, and to his own detriment. He was determined to get rid of
-Nello, whatever it cost him: not to do him harm, but to get him out of
-the way. This idea began to possess him like a mania&mdash;to get rid of the
-child who was more dangerous, a great deal more dangerous, than John
-himself. And all the circumstances of the house favoured his removal at
-this moment, when the Squire’s illness occupied everybody’s attention.
-And then it was a great point to have enlisted on his side the reluctant
-and abashed, yet conscientious support of Mr. Pen.</p>
-
-<p>As for the children themselves, a subtle discomfort had stolen into
-their life. The old gentleman’s illness, though it did not affect them,
-affected the house. The severe and dangerous illness of an important
-member of any household has always a confusing influence upon domestic
-life. It changes the centre of existence, so that everything, which once
-radiated from the cheerful hearth becomes absorbed in the sick-chamber,
-making of it the temporary and fictitious centre of the dwelling. In
-this changed orbit, all the stars of the household firmament shine, and
-beyond it everything is left cold, and sunless, and neglected. Children
-are always the first to feel this atmospheric change, which affects them
-more than it does the watchers and nurses, whose time and minds are
-absorbed in the new occupation. It was as if the sun had gone out of the
-sky to the children at Penninghame. They were left free indeed, to go
-and come as they liked, nobody attempting to hustle them out of the way,
-to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_256" id="page_256">{256}</a></span> say, “Run, children, some one is coming.” All the world might go and
-come, and it did not matter. Neither did it matter to them now where
-they went, for every room was equally dreary and empty. Mary, who meant
-home to them, and to whom they carried all their grievances and
-pleasures, had disappeared from their view; and Miss Brown, who was
-their directress in minor matters, had become invisible too, swallowed
-up by that sick-room, which absorbed everything. It was no pleasure to
-roam about the drawing-room, generally forbidden ground, and even
-through and through the passages from the hall to the dining-room,
-though they had so often longed to do it, when nobody was to be found
-there, either to laugh with them, or to find fault. Even Eastwood was
-swept up in the same whirlpool; and as for Mary, their domestic
-divinity, all that was seen of her was when she passed from one room to
-another, crossing the corridor, disappearing within the door of the
-mysterious chamber, where doctors and nurses, and every sort of
-medicine, and drinks, and appliances of all kinds, were being taken. How
-could the old gentleman want so much? Twice over a new kind of bed was
-taken into that strange gulf of a sick-room, and all so
-silently&mdash;Eastwood standing on the stairs, deprecating with voice and
-gesture, “No noise, no noise!” That was what everybody said. Mary would
-smile at them when she met them, or wave her hand from the end of the
-corridor, or over the stairs. Sometimes she would pause and stoop down
-and kiss them, looking very pale and worn out. “No, dear, he is no
-better,” she would say. Except for these encounters, and the accounts
-which the servants gave them of their grandfather’s state,&mdash;how he was
-lying, just breathing, knowing nobody, not able to speak,&mdash;accounts
-which froze the children’s blood in their veins&mdash;they had no life at
-all; only dull meals which they ate under this shadow, and dull hours in
-which, having nothing to do, they huddled together, weary and lonely,
-and with nothing before them but to go to bed. Out of doors it was not
-much better. Mr. Pen had fallen into all the old disorder of his ways,
-out of which he had made a strenuous effort to wake for their benefit.
-He never was ready for them when they went with their lessons. “I will
-hear you to-morrow,” he would say, looking at them with painful<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_257" id="page_257">{257}</a></span>
-humility, feeling the grave countenance of Lilias more terrible than
-that of any judge; and when to-morrow came, there were always a hundred
-excuses. “Go on to the next page and learn the next lesson. I have had
-such a press of work&mdash;and Mrs. Pennithorne is so poorly,” the poor man
-would say. All this shook the pillars of the earth to Lilias and Nello.
-They were shaken out of everything they knew, and left to blunder out
-their life as best they could, without any guide.</p>
-
-<p>And this was hardest upon the one who understood it least. Lilias, whose
-mind was open to everything, and who sat looking out as from a door,
-making observations, keenly interested in all that went on, and at the
-same time with a reserve of imagination to fall back upon, was fully
-occupied at least if nothing more. Every day she watched for “Mr. Geoff”
-with news of her father. The suspense was too visionary to crush her
-with that sickening depression which affects elder minds. All had a
-softening vagueness and confusion to the child. She hoped and hoped, and
-cried with imaginative misery, then dried her eyes and hoped again. She
-thought everything would come right if Mr. Geoff would only bring papa;
-and Mr. Geoff’s ability sooner or later to find and bring papa she never
-doubted. It was dreadful to have to wait so long&mdash;so long; but still
-every morning, any morning he might come. This hope in her mind absorbed
-Lilias, and made her silent, indisposed for play. At other times she
-would talk eagerly, demanding her brother’s interest and response to
-things he did not understand. Children can go on a long time without
-understanding, each carrying on his or her monologue, two separate
-streams, which, flowing tranquilly together, feel like something mutual,
-and answer all the ends of intercourse; and in this way neither of them
-was aware how far apart they were. But Nello was dull; he had so little
-to do. He had no pony, he could not play cricket as Johnny Pen did with
-the village boys. He was small, even for his age, and he had not been
-educated in the art of knocking about as English boys are. He was even a
-little timid of the water and the boats, in which other boys might have
-found solace. Half of his time he wandered about, listless, not knowing
-what to make of himself.</p>
-
-<p>This was the condition of mind in which Randolph met him<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_258" id="page_258">{258}</a></span> on one of
-these lingering afternoons. The child had strayed out all by himself; he
-was standing by the water-side at his old amusement, but not enjoying it
-this time. “What are you doing?” said his uncle, calling out to him as
-he approached. Randolph was not a favourite with the children; but it
-was half an amusement to see any one coming near, and to have to answer
-a question. He said “Nothing,” with a sigh; not a single skip could he
-get out of those dull slates. The water would not carry them; they would
-not go; they went to the bottom with a prosaic splash and thud. How
-different from that day with the old gentleman, when they flew as if
-they had been alive! Perhaps this new comer might have luck, and do as
-well as the old gentleman. “Will you have a try?” he said; “here is a
-good one&mdash;it ought to be a good one; but I can’t make them go to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;have a try?” Randolph was startled by the suggestion. But he was
-anxious to conciliate the little fellow whom he wanted so much to get
-rid of. And it was only for once. He took suspiciously (for he was
-always suspicious) the stone Nello held out to him, and looked at it as
-if it might be poison&mdash;or it might be an attempt on his dignity got up
-by somebody. When he had satisfied himself that it was a common piece of
-slate, he took courage, and, with a smile that sat very awkwardly upon
-his face, threw it, but with the most complete unsuccess.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! you are not good, like the old gentleman; his skipped seven times!
-He was so clever at it! I wish he was not ill,” said Nello, checking an
-incipient yawn. It was, perhaps, the first time any one had uttered such
-a wish. It had been taken for granted, even by his daughter, that the
-Squire’s illness was the most natural thing in the world.</p>
-
-<p>“Did he really come and play with you? But old men are no better than
-children,” said Randolph. “I suppose he had nothing else to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is very nice to have somebody to play with when you have nothing
-else to do,” said Nello, reflectively. “And he was clever. You&mdash;you
-don’t know even how to throw; you throw like a girl&mdash;like this. But this
-is how the old gentleman did,” cried Nello, suiting the action to the
-word, “and so do I.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_259" id="page_259">{259}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you know nothing but these baby-games? I suppose you never played
-cricket?” said Randolph, with, though he was a man, a pleasurable sense
-of being thus able to humiliate the little creature beside him. Nello
-coloured to the roots of his hair.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not like cricket. Must every one like the same things? It is too
-hot; and one cannot play by oneself,” the boy added with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“You ought not to play by yourself, it is not good for you. Have you no
-one to play with, little boy?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nobody,” said Nello, with emphasis; “not one person. There is Lily; but
-what does it matter about a girl? And sometimes Johnny Pen comes. He is
-not much good; he likes the green best, and all the village boys. Then
-they say I am too little;&mdash;and I don’t know them,” the boy added with a
-gleam of moisture in his eyes. The village boys had not been kind to
-Nello; they had laughed at him for a little foreigner, and made remarks
-about his hair, which was cut straight across his forehead. “I don’t
-want to know them.” This was said with vehemence; for Nello was sore at
-the want of appreciation which had been shown him. They did not care for
-<i>him</i>, but they made a great deal of Johnny Pen!</p>
-
-<p>“You should go to school; that is where all boys should go. A boy should
-not be brought up like a little girl; he should learn to use his hands,
-and his fists even. Now, what should you do if there was a fight?”</p>
-
-<p>“A fight?” Nello grew pale and then grew red. “If it was&mdash;some one else,
-I would walk away; but if it was me&mdash;if any one touched me, I should
-kill him!” cried the child, setting his little white teeth.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph ought professionally to have improved the occasion; but he only
-laughed&mdash;that insulting laugh which is offensive to everybody, and
-specially exasperates a child. “How could you kill him? That is easier
-said than done, my boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“I would get a gun, or a sword; but first,” said Nello, calming down, “I
-would tell him to go away, because I should not <i>wish</i> to kill him. I
-have seen people fighting with guns and swords&mdash;have you?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_260" id="page_260">{260}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>Here Randolph, being obliged to own himself inferior, fell back upon
-what was right, as he ought to have done before.</p>
-
-<p>“Fighting is very wrong,” he said. “It is dreadful to think of people
-cutting each other to pieces, like wild beasts; but it is not so bad if
-you defend yourself with your fists. Only foreigners fight with swords;
-it is thoroughly un-English. You should never fight; but you would have
-to defend yourself if you were at school.”</p>
-
-<p>Nello looked at his uncle with an agreeable sense of superiority. “But I
-have seen <i>real</i> fighting,” he said; “not like children. I saw them
-fighting the Austrians&mdash;that was not wrong. Papa said so. It was to get
-back their houses and their country. I was little then, and I was
-frightened. But they won!” cried the boy, with a gleam in his dark eyes.
-What a little savage he was! Randolph was startled by the sudden
-reference to “papa,” and this made him more warm and eager in his turn.</p>
-
-<p>“Whoever has trained you to be a partisan has done very wrong,” he said.
-“What do you know about it? But look here, my little man. I am going
-away on Friday, and you are to come with me. It will be a great deal
-better for you than growing up like a little girl here. You are exactly
-like a little girl now, with your long hair and your name which is a
-girl’s name. You would be Jack if you were at school. I want to make a
-man of you. You will never be anything but a little lady if you don’t go
-to school. Come; you have only to put on a frock like your sister.
-Nelly! Why, that’s a girl’s name! You should be Jack if you were at
-school.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not a girl!” cried Nello. His face grew crimson, and he darted his
-little brown fist&mdash;not so feebly as his size promised&mdash;in his uncle’s
-face. Randolph took a step backwards in his surprise. “I hate you!”
-cried the child. “You shall never, never come here when I am a man. When
-the old gentleman is dead, and papa is dead, and everything is mine, I
-will shut up all the doors, I will turn out the dogs, and you shall
-never come here. I know now it is true what Lily says&mdash;you are the bad
-uncle that killed the babes in the wood. But when I am a big man and
-grown up, you shall never come here!”</p>
-
-<p>“So!” said Randolph, furious but politic; “it is all to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_261" id="page_261">{261}</a></span> yours? I did
-not know that. The castle, and the woods, and everything? How do you
-know it will be yours?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! everybody knows that,” said Nello, recovering his composure as
-lightly as he had lost it; “Martuccia and every one. But first the old
-gentleman must be dead, and, I think, papa. I am not so sure about papa.
-And do you think they would teach me cricket at school, and to fight? I
-don’t really care for cricket, not really. But Johnny Pen and the rest,
-they think so much of it. I should like to knock down all their wickets,
-and get all the runs; that would teach them! and lick them after!” said
-the bloodthirsty Nello, with gleaming eyes.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXVII.<br /><br />
-<small>AN APPARITION.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Thus</span> Randolph overcame Nello’s opposition to school, to his own extreme
-surprise. Though he had a child of his own, and all the experiences of a
-middle-aged clergyman, he had never yet learned the A B C of childhood.
-But it may be supposed that the conversation generally had not made him
-love his nephew more dearly. He shook his fist at the boy as he ran
-along the water-side, suddenly seized by the delight of the novelty and
-the thought of Johnny Pen’s envy. “If I had you, my boy!” Randolph said,
-between his teeth, thinking grimly of the heirship which the child was
-so sure of. Pride would have a fall in this as in other cases. The
-child’s pretensions would not count for very much where he was going. To
-be flogged out of all such nonsense would be far the best thing for him;
-and a good flogging never did a boy much harm. Randolph, though he was
-not a bad man, felt a certain gratification in thinking of the change
-that would occur in Nello’s life. There was nothing wrong about the
-school; it was a very humble place, where farmers’ sons were trained
-roughly but not unkindly. It would make a man of the delicate little
-half-foreign boy, who knew<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_262" id="page_262">{262}</a></span> nothing about cricket. No doubt it would be
-different from anything he was used to; but what of that? It was the
-best thing for him. Randolph was not cruel, but still it gave him a
-little pleasure to think how the impudent little wretch would be brought
-to his senses; no harm done to him&mdash;no <i>real</i> harm&mdash;but only such a
-practical lesson as would sweep all nonsense out of his head. If Nello
-had been a man of his own age, a rival, he could not have anticipated
-his humiliation with more zest. He would have liked to be a boy himself
-to fag the little upstart. There would be probably no fagging at the
-farmers’ school, but there would be&mdash;well! he smiled to himself. Nello
-would not like it; but it would bring the little monkey to his senses,
-and for that good purpose there was no objection to be taken to the
-means.</p>
-
-<p>And as he walked through the Chase, through the trees, seeing in the
-distance before him the blunt turret-chimneys, all veiled and dignified
-with ivy, of the old house, many thoughts were in Randolph’s heart. He
-was a Musgrave, after all, if not a very fine example of the race. His
-wife was well off. If it had not been for John, who was a criminal, and
-this boy&mdash;what he would have done for the old place! What he might do
-still, if things went&mdash;&mdash; well! Was that, perhaps, the word to
-use&mdash;well? That is, if John could be somehow disposed of, prevented from
-coming home, and the boy pushed quietly to one side. As for John, he
-could not come home. It would be death&mdash;perhaps; certainly renewed
-disgrace. He would have to stand his trial, and, if he fled from that
-trial once, how was he likely to be able to face it now? He would stay
-abroad, of course&mdash;the only safe place for him. If he could but be
-communicated with, wherever he was, and would send for his son and
-daughter, some arrangement might be made: a share of the income settled
-upon him, and the family inheritance left for those who could enjoy it.
-This would be, in every way, the best thing that could be done; best for
-John himself; best for the house which had been always an honourable
-one, and never connected with disgrace. It is so easy to believe what
-one wishes that Randolph, after a while, going over the subject in his
-mind, succeeded in smoothing away all difficulties, except, indeed, the
-initial one of getting<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_263" id="page_263">{263}</a></span> into correspondence, one way or another, with
-John. If this could be done, surely all the rest was smooth enough! John
-was not a fool; he must see that he could not come home. He must see how
-difficult it would be to prove his marriage and his son’s birth, and
-make everything clear (though why this should be so difficult Randolph
-did not explain even to himself). Then he must see equally well that, to
-put the property and the old castle into the hands of a man with money,
-who could really do something to improve them, would be far better for
-the family than to go on as he (John) must do, having no money, if even
-he could come lawfully into possession. All this was so evident, no man
-in his senses could refuse to see it. And as for communicating with
-John: there was, of course, one way, which seemed the natural way, and
-which surely must be infallible in that case as in most other cases&mdash;the
-<i>Times</i>. However far out of the world John might be, surely he would
-have opportunities from year to year of seeing the <i>Times</i>! No
-Englishman, even though banished, could live without that. And, sooner
-or later, if often enough repeated, the advertisement must reach him.
-Suppose it to be put something in this form:&mdash;“J. M., of P.&mdash;His brother
-R. wishes to communicate with him on urgent business connected with the
-death of their father.” This would attract no particular attention from
-any one, and John could not fail to perceive that he was meant. Thus he
-had, to his satisfaction, made everything clear.</p>
-
-<p>It was just when he came to this satisfactory settlement of the
-difficulty, so perfectly easy in theory, though no doubt there might be
-certain difficulties about carrying it out, that Randolph suddenly saw,
-a little way before him, some one making his way through the trees. The
-Chase was private, and very few people had the right of coming here;
-neither did Randolph see whence this unexpected passenger had come, for
-there was no tributary path by which he might have made his way down to
-the foot-walk through the elms and oaks. He was within easy sight,
-obscured a little by the brushwood, and with his back to the spectator;
-but the sight of him gave Randolph a great start and shock, which he
-could not very well explain. The man was in dark clothes, with a broad
-felt hat, quite unlike anything worn<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_264" id="page_264">{264}</a></span> in this district; and there was
-something about his attitude and walk (no doubt a merely fantastic
-resemblance, or some impression on his mind from his pre-occupation with
-the idea of John) which recalled his brother to Randolph’s mind. He was
-more startled than words could say. For a moment he could not even think
-or move, but stood open-mouthed, staring at the figure before him, which
-went on straight, not turning to the right or to the left.</p>
-
-<p>When Randolph came to himself, he tried to laugh at his own folly&mdash;then
-coughed loudly and meaningly, by way of catching the stranger’s
-attention, and seeing who it was. But his cough attracted no manner of
-attention from the wayfarer, who went on pushing through the trees, like
-one who knew every turn and winding. Randolph was at the end of his
-invention. If he called out “Hi!” it might turn out to be somebody of
-importance. If he spoke more politely, and called the stranger to halt,
-he might be a nobody&mdash;if indeed it was not&mdash;&mdash;. A vague impression, half
-of fear, came upon him. What nonsense it was! In broad daylight, in so
-well-known and familiar a place. Had it been in the dark, in any of the
-ghostly passages of the old house! but out here in the sunshine, in the
-open air!</p>
-
-<p>Randolph took off his hat, to let the air blow freely about him for he
-had grown hot and uncomfortable. His hand with the hat in it dropped for
-a moment between him and the other who was so near him. When he raised
-it again there was no one there. He rubbed his eyes, looked again, and
-darted forward to see whether the man was hiding among the trees; but
-there was no one there. Randolph took off his hat once more, to wipe his
-streaming forehead; his hand trembled so that he could scarcely do it.
-What did it mean? When he had convinced himself there was no one to be
-seen, he turned and hurried away from the place, with his heart beating
-loudly in his breast. He never looked behind him, but hastened on till
-he had got to the broad road, where there was not a bush to hide an
-apparition. Then he permitted himself to draw breath.</p>
-
-<p>It would be doing Randolph injustice to suppose that after he was out of
-the shadow of the trees, and in safety, with a broad level bit of road
-before him, on which everything was distinctly<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_265" id="page_265">{265}</a></span> visible all round, he
-could be capable of believing that he had seen a ghost. Nothing of the
-kind. It must have been one of the people about the place, poking among
-the bushes, who had disappeared under the branches of the trees, and
-whom he thought like John only because he had been thinking of John&mdash;or
-perhaps his thought of John had produced an optical delusion, and
-imagination had painted some passing shadow as a substantial thing, and
-endued it with his brother’s image. It might have been merely an
-eccentric tree, on the outline of which fancy had wrought, showing a
-kind of grotesque resemblance. It might be, and probably was, just
-nothing at all. And it was supremely ridiculous that his heart should so
-thump for such an absurd delusion; but thump it did, and that in the
-most violent manner. He was out of breath, though he had made no
-exertion. And he could not pick up his thoughts where he had dropped
-them, when he saw that&mdash;figure. A thrill as of guilt was in his soul; he
-was afraid to begin again where he had left off. He found himself still
-rather breathless before the house, looking up at the veiled windows of
-his father’s room. For the first time Randolph thought with a little awe
-of his father lying there between life and death. He had not thought of
-him at all in his own person, but rather of the Squire officially, the
-old life who kept a younger generation out of the estate. It was time
-the elders were out of the way, and age superseded by middle age. But
-now for a moment he realized the man lying helpless there, in the very
-pathway of death&mdash;not freed by the Great Deliverer, but imprisoned by
-Him, all his senses and faculties bound up, a captive tied hand and foot
-by the grim potency who conquers all men. Randolph was frightened
-altogether by the mysterious encounter and impressed with awe. If there
-had been daily service he would have gone to church, but as there was
-nothing of the sort in Penninghame, he went into the library to read a
-good book as the next best thing to do. But he could not stay in the
-library. The silence of it was awful. He seemed to see his father,
-seated there in his usual chair, silent, gazing at him with eyes of
-disapproval that went through and through him. After five minutes he
-could stand it no longer. He took his good book, and went out to the
-side of the water, within sight of the road<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_266" id="page_266">{266}</a></span> where people were coming
-and going. It was a comfort to him to see even the doctor’s boy with his
-phials, and the footman who came with his mistress’s card to inquire how
-the Squire was. And he looked out, but looked in vain, with mingled
-eagerness and fear for the broad hat he had seen so mysteriously
-appearing and disappearing. Who could it be?&mdash;some stranger astray in
-the Chase&mdash;some one of the many tourists who wander
-everywhere&mdash;or&mdash;Randolph shuddered in spite of himself.</p>
-
-<p>It is generally people without imagination, or with the most elementary
-and rude embryo of that poetic faculty, who see ghosts. This sounds like
-a paradox, yet there is reason in it. The people who are literal and
-matter-of-fact in mind, are those to whom wonders and prodigies come
-naturally; those who possess the finer eye of fancy do not need those
-actual revelations. Randolph’s was as stolid a mind as ever asked for a
-sign&mdash;and he had not asked for a sign in this case, nor felt that
-anything of the kind was necessary; but his entire mental balance was
-upset by what he had seen, or supposed himself to have seen; and he
-could not free his mind from the impression. As he sat and read, or
-rather pretended to read, his mind kept busy with the one question&mdash;What
-was it? Was it a real person, a stranger who had got astray, and
-stumbled into some copse or brushwood, which Randolph had forgotten&mdash;a
-man with a chance resemblance to John, heightened by the pre-occupation
-and previous reference to John in Randolph’s mind? or was it John
-himself, come to look after his own interests&mdash;John&mdash;in the body, or out
-of the body, who could tell?</p>
-
-<p>As for Nello, he ran home by the water-side, his mind possessed by the
-new thing that was about to be accomplished&mdash;school! Boys to play with,
-novelty of all kinds, and then that cricket, which he pretended to
-despise, but secretly admired and desired with all his heart&mdash;the game
-which came to Johnny Pen by nature, but which the little foreign boy
-could not master; all this buzzed through his little head. When he came
-home from school he would know all about it; he would have played with
-much better players than Johnny Pen ever saw. The revolution in his
-thoughts was great and sudden. But as he ran home, eager to tell Lilias
-about the change in his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_267" id="page_267">{267}</a></span> fortunes, Nello too met with a little
-adventure. He came suddenly, just as he emerged from the woods upon the
-water-side where it was open to the road, on a man whom he had
-repeatedly seen before, and who was generally accompanied by a dog,
-which was Nello’s admiration. The dog was not with his master now; but
-he took a something white and furry out of his great pocket, which
-stopped Nello even in the hot current of his excitement.</p>
-
-<p>“Would you like to have this, my little gentleman?” the man said.</p>
-
-<p>It was a white rabbit, with the biggest ears that Nello had ever seen.
-How his eyes danced that had been all aglow before!</p>
-
-<p>“But I have no money,” he said, disposed to cry in disappointment as
-sudden as his delight.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s not for money, it’s a present,” said the stranger, with a smile,
-“and I’ll give you another soon. They tell me you’re going to school, my
-young gentleman; is that true?”</p>
-
-<p>“Am I to have it all for myself, or will you come back again for it, and
-take it away? Oh yes, I’m going to school,” said Nello, drooping into
-indifference. “Will it eat out of my hand? Has it got a name? And am I
-to have it all for myself?” The rabbit already had eclipsed school for
-the moment in Nello’s mind.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s all for you, and better things than that&mdash;and what day are you
-going, my bonnie little lad?”</p>
-
-<p>“To-morrow; oh give it me! I want to show it to Lily,” cried the child.
-“Thank you very much. Let me run and show it to Lily. We never, never
-had a rabbit before.”</p>
-
-<p>The man stood and looked after Nello with a tender illumination of his
-dark face. “The old woman likes the other best; but this one is mine,”
-he said to himself. As for Nello, he flew home with his precious burden,
-out of breath. He said a man had given it to him; but thought of the
-donor no more.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph spent this, his last evening at home, in anything but an
-agreeable way; he was altogether unhinged, nervous, and restless, not
-caring to sit alone. In this respect he was in harmony with the house,
-which was all upset, tremulous, and full of excitement and expectation.
-Human nature is always<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_268" id="page_268">{268}</a></span> impatient of the slow progress of fate. After
-the thunderclap of a great event, it is painful to relapse into
-stillness, and feel the ordinary day resuming its power without any
-following out of the convulsion. But dramatic sequence, rapidity, and
-completeness are rare in human affairs. All the little crowd of
-lookers-on outside the Squire’s room watched eagerly for some change.
-Two or three women were always hanging about the passages, ready, as
-they said, to run for anything that might be wanted, and always in the
-way to learn if anything occurred. They kept a little lamp burning on
-the table against the wall, at either end of which was a chair, on which
-sometimes Cook herself, sometimes lesser functionaries, would be found,
-but always two together, throwing exaggerated shadows on the wall, and
-talking in whispers of their own fears, and how well they had perceived
-what was coming. There was not one of them that had not intended, one
-time or other, to make so bold as to speak to Miss Mary. “But trouble is
-always soon enough when it comes,” they said, shaking their heads. Then
-Eastwood would come and join them, his shadow wavering over the
-staircase. When the privileged persons who had the <i>entrée</i> went or
-came, Miss Brown or the nurse, or even Mary herself, there was a little
-thrill and universal movement.</p>
-
-<p>“Change! no, there’s no change&mdash;there never will be but one change,”
-Miss Brown said, standing solemnly by the table, with the light on her
-grave face; and it was upon this Rembrandtish group that Randolph came,
-as he wandered about in a similar frame of mind, glad to find himself in
-company with others, though these others were only the maids of the
-house.</p>
-
-<p>“Is my father worse?” he asked, pausing, with his arm upon the
-banisters. Such a group of eager, pale faces! and the darkness all round
-in which others still might be lurking unseen.</p>
-
-<p>“No change, sir,” said Miss Brown, shaking her head. She was impatient
-too, like the rest, but yet felt a sort of superior resignation, as one
-who was in the front of affairs. And she had something to say besides.
-She gave a glance at the other women, who responded with secret nods of
-encouragement, then cleared her throat and delivered her soul&mdash;“Mr.
-Randolph, sir, might I make so bold as to say a word?”</p>
-
-<p>“Say whatever you like,” said Randolph. He could not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_269" id="page_269">{269}</a></span> help but give a
-little glance round him, to make sure that there was no one else about.</p>
-
-<p>“It is just this, sir&mdash;when you see him lying there, that white, as if
-he was gone already, and know that better he can’t be&mdash;oh, it brings a
-many thoughts into the mind! I’ve stood by dying beds before now, and
-seen them as were marked for death, but I never saw it more clear. And
-oh, Mr. Randolph, if there were things that might lie on his mind, and
-keep him from going quiet, as an old gentleman ought! If there were
-folks he ought to see afore all’s over&mdash;&mdash;!”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t see what you are driving at,” Randolph said hastily. “Speak out
-if you’ve anything to say.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir,” said Miss Brown, “don’t you think&mdash;&mdash;. I am not one that
-likes to interfere, but I am an old servant, and when a body has been
-long about a place, it’s natural to feel an interest. If it wasn’t your
-family at all&mdash;if it was another that your advice was asked
-for&mdash;shouldn’t you say that Mr. John ought to know?”</p>
-
-<p>This appeal startled Randolph. He had not been looking for it; and he
-gave an uncomfortable look round him. Then he felt a strange irritation
-and indignation that were more easy to express. “Am I my brother’s
-keeper?” he said. “I don’t know where Mr. John is, that I should go and
-hunt for him to let him know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir,” said Miss Brown, “don’t you be angry! Cook here is like me:
-she thinks it’s only his due. I would say it to Miss Mary, not troubling
-you that are ‘most a stranger, but she’s night and day, she never will
-leave her father; she has a deal upon her. And a gentleman knows ways
-that womanfolk don’t think of. If you would be but that kind, Mr.
-Randolph! Oh, where there’s a will there’s always a way!”</p>
-
-<p>“It is none of my business,” said Randolph; “and I don’t know where he
-is,” he added, looking round him once more. He might be here already in
-the dark, waiting till the breath was out of his father’s body&mdash;waiting
-to seize possession of the house, felon as he was. And if Randolph was
-the means of betraying him into the hands of justice, what would
-everybody say? He went abruptly away down the uncarpeted, polished
-stairs, on<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_270" id="page_270">{270}</a></span> which his hasty step rang and slid. John, always John! he
-seemed to be in the air. Even Eastwood, when he attended him with his
-bed-candle, could not refrain from adding a word. “The doctor looks very
-serious, sir,” Eastwood said; “and if there’s any telegraph to be sent,
-I’ll keep the groom ready to go at a moment’s notice. ‘It would be well
-to send for all friends,’ the doctor said.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know any one to send for,” said Randolph peremptorily; “let the
-groom go to bed.” And he went to bed himself sooner than usual, to get
-rid of these appeals and of equally imperative thoughts. He went to bed,
-but he could not go to sleep, and kept his candle burning half the
-night. He heard the watchers moving about in his father’s room, which
-was over-head, all the night through. Sometimes there would be a little
-rush of steps, and then he held his breath, thinking this might be at
-last the “change” which was looked for. But then everything grew still
-again, and he dozed, with the one poor candle, feeble but steadfast
-watcher, burning on till it became a pale intruder into the full glory
-of day.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph, however, slept deeply in the morning, and got up with the
-greater part of those cobwebs blown away. John lost his hold upon the
-imagination in daylight, and he was able to laugh at his foolish alarm.
-How could it be John whom he had seen? He durst not show himself in the
-country where still his crime was so well remembered, and the sentence
-out against him. And as for the appearance being anything more than
-mortal, or less than human, Randolph laughed at the state of his own
-nerves which rendered such an idea tenable for a moment. He was a
-materialist by nature&mdash;as so many are; though he said his creed without
-any intrusive doubts; and the absurdity was too patent after he had
-slept and been refreshed. But no doubt it was bad for his health, bad
-for his <i>morale</i>, to stay here. There was something in the atmosphere
-that was demoralizing; the air had a creeping sensation in it as of
-something more than met the eye. Death was in it; death, creeping on
-slowly, silently&mdash;loitering about with faint odours of mortality and
-sickening stillness. Randolph felt that he must escape into a more
-natural and wholesome air before further harm was done.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_271" id="page_271">{271}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>As for Mary, the occupations of the sick-room, and the sudden problems
-of the hereafter thus thrust upon her, were enough to fill her mind, and
-make her even comparatively indifferent to the departure of Nello,
-though it was against her judgment. It was not the hereafter of the
-spirit, which thus lay death-bound on the verge of the unseen, which
-occupied her. We must all die, everybody knows; but who thinks it true
-in their own case until it comes? Mary had known very well that a man
-much over seventy could not live very much longer; but it was only when
-her father fell back in his chair unconscious, his body motionless, his
-mind veiled within blinding mists, that she felt the real weight of all
-that was to follow. It was for her to act as soon as the breath should
-be out of his body. She did not trust her younger brother, and she did
-not know what to do for her elder brother. The crisis had arrived while
-she was still unprepared. She went down mechanically to see Randolph go
-away, her eyes seeing many other things more clearly than she saw the
-two figures actually before her; the man suspicious as usual, and
-putting no faith in her&mdash;the boy in a subdued excitement, his eyes
-sparkling with the light of novelty and adventure. Randolph had gone
-into his father’s room that morning, and had walked suspiciously round
-the bed, making quite sure that the “no change” was true. “I suppose he
-may last like this for weeks yet?” he said, in a querulous
-undertone&mdash;and yet not so low but that everybody heard it&mdash;to the
-doctor. “Oh, hush, for Heaven’s sake, Randolph! How can you tell that he
-does not hear?” said Mary. “Pshaw how can he hear?” Randolph replied,
-turning with a certain contempt from the helpless and powerless frame
-which lay there making no sign, yet living when it would be so much
-better that he should die. The awe of such a presence gives way to
-familiarity and weariness even with the most reverent watcher; but
-Randolph, though he had no desire to be indecorous, could not help
-feeling a certain irritation at his father, who balked him by this
-insensibility just as he had balked him while yet he had all his wits
-about him. It seemed incredible that this half-dead, half-living
-condition, which brought everything to a standstill, should not be more
-or less a man’s own fault.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_272" id="page_272">{272}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Thus he went away, irritated and baffled, but still full of excitement;
-the moment which must decide all could not be very far off. He left the
-strongest charges upon the household, from his sister to Eastwood, to
-send for him instantly when “any change” occurred. “If it should be
-to-morrow,” he said; “I shall hold myself always ready.” He kept his
-eyes fixed on the Castle as long as he could see it, feeling that even
-now there might be a sign recalling him. And he thought he had made up
-his mind what to do. He would bring his wife with him and take
-possession at once. Mary would not be able to look after everything; or,
-at least, if she should be, she ought not to be; no really
-delicate-minded woman, no <i>lady</i> should be able to make any exertion at
-such a moment. He would come with his household, as a kindness to Mary,
-and take possession at once.</p>
-
-<p>As for Nello, he took leave very cavalierly of Lilias, who cried, yet
-would not cry, angry at his desertion and deeply wounded by his
-indifference, at the door. Poor little Lilias, it was her first
-disappointment in life. He was not thinking of her, but a great deal of
-his new portmanteau and the sandwiches put up for him, and the important
-position as a traveller in which he stood&mdash;but neither was Nello unkind.
-He took pains to console his sister.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t cry,” he said, “Lily I shall come back in the holidays, and
-sometimes I will write you letters; and there is always the white rabbit
-I gave you, and little Mary Pen for you to play with.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want to play,” said Lilias, with a burst of tears; “is play
-everything? I am too old for that. But oh, Nello, you are going to leave
-me, and you don’t care. You do not care for Mary, or Martuccia, or any
-one. Me, I should not mind&mdash;but you do not love <i>any one</i>. You care for
-nobody but yourself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes I do,” said Nello, “everybody,” and he cracked the coachman’s
-whip which was placed in readiness; “but boys have to go out and see the
-world; Eastwood says so. If I don’t like being at school I shall come
-back and stay at home, and then you will have me again; but I hope not,
-and I don’t think so, for school is jolly, very jolly, so Uncle Randolph
-says.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_273" id="page_273">{273}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“You can go with Uncle Randolph,” cried Lilias, in a blaze of sharp
-anger, “and I hope you will not come back. I hope you will always stay
-away, you cruel, cruel boy!”</p>
-
-<p>This bewildered Nello for a moment, as did the hurried wiping of Lilias’
-eyes and the tremulous quiver of her lip with which it was accompanied;
-but there was no time for more. He laughed and waved his hand to her as
-he was hurried into the carriage. He had scarcely ever looked so gay
-before. He took off his hat and waved it as he went out of sight.
-Hurrah! they heard his shrill little voice shouting. Lilias sat down on
-the ground and cried her heart out. It was not only that he was
-unkind&mdash;but Nello thus showed himself wanting to all the needs of the
-situation. No little hero of a story had ever gone away without a
-tribute to the misery of parting. This thought contracted her heart with
-a visionary pang more exquisite than the real. Nello was no hero,
-nothing but a little cruel, common, vulgar boy, not fit to put into any
-story, to go away so.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXVIII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE LOVES OF THE ANGELS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">While</span> these events were going on at the Castle, Lord Stanton, for his
-part, had come to a standstill in the matter which he had been drawn
-into so inadvertently, and which had become so very serious an
-occupation in his life. He was young, and unacquainted with the ways of
-the world, and he did not know what step to take next. And he too was
-paralyzed by the sudden catastrophe which had happened to the Squire.
-Was it his fault? He could scarcely help an uneasy sense that by
-agitating him unduly he had helped to bring on the sudden attack, and
-thus he had left the Castle that evening with a heavy burden on his
-mind. And Geoff, with entire unconsciousness of the lingering pangs of
-life and the tenacity of the human frame, believed, without any doubt,
-that Mr. Musgrave would die, and did not know what was to be done about
-the exile, whose condition would thus be completely<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_274" id="page_274">{274}</a></span> changed. In the
-mean time it seemed to him necessary to wait until the issue of this
-illness should be known. Thus his doubtfulness was supplanted by an
-apparent necessity, and the time went on with nothing done.</p>
-
-<p>He went at first daily to inquire for the old man, and never failed to
-see Lilias somewhere waiting for him with serious, intent face, and eyes
-which questioned even when the lips did not speak. Lilias did not say
-much at any time. She examined his face with her eyes and said “Papa?”
-with a voice which trembled; but it became by degrees less easy to
-satisfy Lilias by telling her, as he did so often, that he had not
-forgotten, that he was doing everything that could be done, smoothing
-the way for her father’s return, or waiting till he could more
-successfully smooth the way. “You do not believe me, Lily,” Geoff said,
-with a sense of being doubted, which hurt him sadly. “Yes; but he is not
-your papa, Mr. Geoff, and you are grown up and don’t want any one,”
-Lilias said, with her lip quivering. The visionary child was deeply cast
-down by the condition of the house and the recollection of the
-melancholy rigid figure which she had seen carried past, with a pang of
-indescribable pain and terror. Lilias seemed to see him lying in his
-room, where Mary now spent almost all her time, pale with that deadly
-ashen paleness, his faded eyes half open, his helpless hands lying like
-bits of rag, all the grey fingers huddled together. Fright and sorrow
-together brought a sob out of her heart whenever she thought of this;
-not moving, not able to speak, or turn round, or look up at those who
-watched him; and still not dead! Lilias felt her heart stand still as
-she thought of her grandfather. And she had no one to take refuge with.
-Martuccia was frightened too, and would not go up or down stairs alone.
-Lilias, for her part, did all she could, out of pride, and shame of her
-own weakness, to conceal her terror; but oh, to have papa nigh to creep
-close to, to feel safe because he was there! A few tears dropped from
-her eyes. “You are grown up and you don’t want any one.” This went to
-Geoff’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh Lily, don’t you think they would let you come to my mother?” he
-cried; “this is too sad for you, this dismal house; and if Nello goes
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_275" id="page_275">{275}</a></span>away as you said&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think I would go and leave Mary all alone? Nobody is sorry for
-Mary except me&mdash;and Mr. Pen. When she comes out of her room I go and I
-kiss her hand, and she cries. She would be more ill and more weary,”
-said Lilias, with a precocious understanding, “if there was not some
-little thing to give her an excuse and make her cry.”</p>
-
-<p>“My little Lily! who taught you all that? it must have been the angels,”
-cried Geoff, kissing in his turn the little hand.</p>
-
-<p>But this touch had the same effect upon Lilias that her own kiss had on
-Mary. She cried and sobbed and did her best to swallow it down. “Oh Mr.
-Geoff! I want papa!” she cried, with that little convulsive break in her
-voice which is so pitiful in a child. She was seated on Mary’s chair at
-the door of the hall, and he on the threshold at her feet. Geoff did not
-know what kind of half-admiring, half-pitying sentiment he had for this
-child. He could not admire her enough, or wonder at her. She was but a
-child, not equal to him in his young manhood; and yet that very
-childhood in its unconsciousness was worlds above him, he thought. He
-felt like the man in the story who loved the fairy maiden&mdash;the young
-Immortal; would she give up her visionary paradise for his sake and
-learn to look at him, not as an angel but as a woman? but for that she
-must be a woman first, and at present she was but a child. When he
-kissed her hand it cost Lilias no blush. She accepted it with childish,
-angelical dignity. “She took the kiss sedately&mdash;” and the dark fountains
-of her eyes filled full, and two great tears tumbled over, and a piteous
-quiver came to her lips, and she said, “Oh, Mr. Geoff, I want papa!”</p>
-
-<p>This was when the Squire had been ill about a week, six or seven days
-before Randolph took Nello away. Geoff went home riding, very full of
-thought. What could he do to please his little Lily? He preferred that
-she should creep close to himself and tell him her troubles, but he
-could not resist that plaint, and even though it should be against
-himself he must try what he could do to bring her father to her. Geoff
-thought a great deal on this subject, but it was very fatiguing and
-unsatisfactory, for he did not know what to do, and after a while he
-relapsed into the pleasanter path, and began to think of Lily. “Because
-of the angels,” he said to himself as he jogged softly along, much<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_276" id="page_276">{276}</a></span> more
-slowly and reflectively than his horse liked to go. He forgot where he
-was going and the engagements he had, and everything that was practical
-and important, as he rambled on. The day was sweet in early autumn, the
-lake rippling musically upon the beach, the sky blue and crossed by
-floating atoms of snowy cloud. Everything in the world was sweet and
-pleasant to the young man. “Because of the angels;” he had never been
-quite clear what these words meant, but he seemed to see quite plainly
-now, though he could no more have explained than he could have written
-<i>Hamlet</i>. “Because of the angels!” He seemed to make a little song of it
-as he went on, a drowsy, delicious burden like the humming of the bee.
-It was not he that said it, he thought, but it murmured all about him,
-wrapping him in a soft enchantment. Such a visionary love as his,
-perhaps, has need of those intoxications of ethereal fancy: for nothing
-can be so like the love of an angel as that of a young man possessed by
-a tender visionary passion for a child.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff was so rapt in his own thoughts that he did not see for some time
-the beckonings and signals that were coming to him from a carriage drawn
-up on the road to which the path descended, along which he was moving so
-gently. When his attention was at last caught, he saw it was his Cousin
-Mary, leaning half out of the window in her eagerness.</p>
-
-<p>“Give your horse to the footman and come in here&mdash;I have so much to say
-to you,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>But when he had done as she told him and taken his seat beside her, Lady
-Stanton kept looking at her young cousin.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?” she said; “you keep on smiling, and there is a little
-drowsy, dreamy, intoxicated air about you; what has happened, Geoff?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing; and it is unkind to say I look intoxicated. Could you not find
-a prettier word?”</p>
-
-<p>“I believe you are really, really!&mdash;Geoff, I think I know what it means,
-and I hope it is somebody very nice. Tell me, who is she?”</p>
-
-<p>“This is strange,” said Geoff; “indeed, it is true, I have been visiting
-a lady; but she is only twelve years old,” he said, turning to her with
-a vivid blush.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_277" id="page_277">{277}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Geoff!” Mary’s brow contracted, “you do not mean <i>that</i> little
-girl?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why shouldn’t I mean her? I will make you my confessor, Cousin Mary. I
-don’t think. I shall ever marry any one but little Lily. Of course she
-is very little, and when she is grown up she will probably have nothing
-to say to me; but I shall never care for any one else. Why should you
-shake your head? I never saw any one like her,” said Geoff, growing
-solemn, and shaking off his blush as he saw himself opposed.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Geoff!” Mary shook her head and contracted her beautiful brow, “I
-do not think anything good can come out of that family; but I must not
-speak. I am jealous, I suppose. How did you know I did not want you for
-Annie or Fanny?” she went on with a smile that was a little strained and
-fictitious; for Mary knew very well that she was jealous, but not for
-Annie, or Fanny, or Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>“Hush,” he said, “I loved you before Lily, but you could not have me; it
-is Lily, failing you. If you could but have seen her just now! The
-Squire is lying between life and death, and Miss Musgrave, who was so
-good to her, is with him night and day, and poor little Lily is so
-lonely and frightened. She looks at me with her little lip all
-quivering, and says, ‘Papa! I want papa.’<span class="lftspc">”</span> Geoff almost cried himself to
-recollect her piteous tone, and the tears came to Mary’s eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! if she takes after <i>him</i>, Geoff! but that is just what I want to
-talk to you about. I have done something that you may think rash. I have
-spoken to Sir Henry. He is&mdash;well, he has his faults like the rest of
-us&mdash;but he is just; he would not do a wrong thing. I told him that you
-had found out something&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What did he say?” cried Geoff, breathless, for Lady Stanton made a
-sudden pause.</p>
-
-<p>She was looking across him out at the window; her eyes had strayed past
-his face, looking away from him as people do with a natural artifice to
-allow the first signs of displeasure to blow over, before they look an
-offended person in the face. But as she looked, Lady Stanton’s
-countenance changed, her lips fell apart, her eyes widened out, her face
-paled, as if a cloud had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_278" id="page_278">{278}</a></span> passed over it. She gave a great cry, “Oh
-John, <i>John</i>!” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?&mdash;who is it?” cried Geoff.</p>
-
-<p>She made him signs to have the carriage stopped; she could not speak.
-Geoff did what he could to make the coachman hear him; but it was by no
-means the affair of a moment to gain the attention of that functionary,
-and induce him to stop. When, however, this was accomplished, Geoff
-obeyed the passionate desire in Lady Stanton’s face, who all the time
-had been straining to look out, and jumped to the ground. He looked
-round anxiously, while she, half out of the carriage, gazed back, fixing
-her eyes upon one of those recesses in the road which are common in the
-north country. “I see no one,” said Geoff. He came back to the place on
-which her gaze was fixed, and looked behind the wall that bounded it,
-and all about, but could see nothing. When he returned he found that
-Mary had fallen back in her corner, and was weeping bitterly. “He looked
-at me with such reproachful eyes. Oh, he need not; there was no reason.
-I would have saved or served him with my life,” she cried; “and he had
-never any claim on me, Geoff, never any claim on me!&mdash;why should he come
-and look at me with such reproachful eyes? If he is dead, he ought to
-know better than that. Surely he ought to know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>The carriage, standing in the middle of the road, the young man
-searching about, not knowing what he was looking for; the coachman
-superbly indifferent on the box, contemplating the agitation of his
-inferiors with god-like calm; the footman, on Geoff’s horse, with his
-mouth open, staring, while the beautiful lady wept inside, made the
-strangest picture. As a matter of course, the footman, riding on in
-advance, had seen nothing and nobody. He avowed frankly that he was not
-taking any notice of the folks on the road. He might have seen a man
-seated on the stones, he could not be certain. Neither had the coachman
-taken any notice. Foot passengers did not interest either of these
-functionaries. And Lady Stanton did not seem able to give any further
-explanation. The only thing to be done was to go on. She had been on her
-way to Stanton to give Geoff the advantage of Sir Henry’s advice and
-opinion, and thither,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_279" id="page_279">{279}</a></span> accordingly, they proceeded after this
-interruption. Geoff took his place again beside his cousin, perhaps a
-little impatient of the stoppage; but as she lay back in the corner,
-covering her face with her hands, Geoff’s heart was too soft not to
-forget every other sentiment. He thought only of consoling her.</p>
-
-<p>“Tell me what it was,” he said, soothingly. “You saw&mdash;some one? Do not
-cry so bitterly. You never harmed anybody in your life. Tell me&mdash;you
-thought you saw&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“I saw <i>him</i>, as plainly as I see you, Geoff; don’t tell me it was a
-fancy. He was sitting, resting, like a man tired with walking, dusty and
-worn out. I noticed his weary look before I saw his face, and just as we
-passed he raised his head. Oh, why should he have looked at <i>me</i> like
-that, Geoff? No, I never did any one harm, much less him. I have always
-stood up for him, you know, since you first spoke to me. I have always
-said, always&mdash;even before this was found out: living people mistake each
-other continually; but the dead&mdash;the dead ought to know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Who is dead?” said Geoff; “are you speaking of John Musgrave, who is as
-much alive as I am?”</p>
-
-<p>“If he were a living man,” said Mary, solemnly, “how could I have seen
-him? Geoff, it is no mistake. I saw him, as I see you.”</p>
-
-<p>“And is that why you think him dead?” said Geoff, with natural surprise.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton raised herself erect in her corner. “Geoff, oh, can you not
-understand?” she cried. But she did not herself quite understand what
-she meant. She thought from the suddenness of it, from the shock it gave
-her, and from the disappearance of the wayfarer, which was so
-inexplicable, that it was an apparition she had seen. John Musgrave
-could not be there, in the flesh, seated by the roadside; it was not
-possible; but when Geoff asked whether having seen him was an argument
-for thinking him dead, she had nothing to say. She wrung her hands. “I
-have seen him whether he is living or dead,” she repeated, “and he
-looked at me with such eyes. He was not young as he used to be, but
-worn, and a little grey. I came to tell you what Sir Henry said; but
-here is something far, far<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_280" id="page_280">{280}</a></span> more important. Know him! Could I mistake
-him, do you think?&mdash;how could I mistake him? Geoff, how could it be
-<i>he</i>, sitting there without any warning, without a word? but if it was
-he, if that was possible, why are we going on like this? Are we to
-desert him?&mdash;give him up? I am talking folly,” she said, again clasping
-her hands. “Oh, Geoff, a living man would not have looked at me with
-such eyes.”</p>
-
-<p>“He has not very much right to happy eyes, has he?” said Geoff; “coming
-home an outlaw, not venturing to speak to any one. It would not be half
-so sad if he were a ghost. But to come back, and not to dare to trust
-even his friends, not to know if he has any friends, not to be able to
-go home and see his children like any other man, to rest on the stones
-at the roadside, he to whom all the land belongs! I don’t wonder he
-looked sad,” cried Geoff, half-sympathetic, half-indignant. “How was he
-to know even that he would find a friend in you?”</p>
-
-<p>Mary was sobbing, scarcely able to speak. “Oh, tell them to go back
-again&mdash;tell them to go back,” she cried. There was no way of satisfying
-her but this: the carriage turned slowly round, rolling like a ship at
-sea. The coachman was disgusted and unwilling. “What did she want now?”
-he said, telegraphing with uplifted hands and eyes to the surprised
-footman on Geoff’s horse. Lady Stanton was not a hard mistress like her
-stepdaughters, nor fantastical and unreasonable as they were. She took
-the carriage humbly when she could get it, and would consult this very
-coachman’s convenience before bringing him out, which no one else
-thought of doing. Nevertheless Lady Stanton had her character in the
-house, and human nature required that it should be kept up. She was the
-stepmother, the scapegoat. “What is she after now?” the coachman said.</p>
-
-<p>She got out of the carriage herself, trembling, to aid in the search,
-and the footman getting down, looked everywhere, even under the stones,
-and in the roadside hedges, but no one was there. When they resumed
-their way again, Mary lay back in her corner too much worn out with
-excitement and emotion to be able even to speak. Geoff could not tell
-whether she was glad or sorry to be brought to acknowledge that it was
-more likely to be John Musgrave whom she had seen than his ghost. She
-was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_281" id="page_281">{281}</a></span> convinced by his reasoning. Oh, yes; no doubt, she said, it must be
-so. Because you saw a man unexpectedly, that was no reason for supposing
-him to be dead. Oh, no&mdash;Geoff was quite right; she saw the reason of all
-he said. But Mary’s head and her heart and all her being thrilled with
-the shock. There was a ringing in her ears, and pulses were beating all
-over, and her blood coursing through her veins. The very country, so
-familiar, seemed to change its aspect. No stronger commentary could have
-been on the passage of time than the sudden glimpse of the face which
-she had seen just now on the roadside. But Mary did not think of that.
-The lake and the rural road that ran by it, and the hills in the
-distance, seemed to take again the colours of her youth. He was nothing
-to her, and never had been. She had not loved him, only had “taken an
-interest.” But all that was most poignant in her life came back to her,
-with the knowledge that he was here. Once more it seemed to be that time
-when all is vivid, when every day may be the turning-point of life&mdash;the
-time that was consciously but a drift and floating on of hour by hour
-when it existed, as is the present moment&mdash;but which, looking back upon
-it, seemed the time of free action, of choice, of every possibility. Was
-it so? Might he be met with round any corner&mdash;this man who had been
-banished so long? In the face of death and danger had he come back, he
-whom nobody had expected ever to come back? A strange half-question
-whether everything else had come back with him, and half-certainty that
-nothing for her could change, was in Mary’s mind as she lay back,
-quivering with emotion, hearing Geoff’s voice in her ears, not knowing a
-word he said. What had Geoff to do with it&mdash;young Geoff, to whom nothing
-had ever happened? She smiled vaguely to herself to think that the boy
-could think he knew. How was he to know?&mdash;he was not of that time. But
-all the people in the road, and the very water itself, and the villages
-and houses, seemed to ask her, Was it true?</p>
-
-<p>This was all the evidence on the subject from which a judgment could be
-formed. Randolph Musgrave (who told no one) had seen, in his own words,
-a something, a some one, whose face he did not see, but who suggested
-John to him so strongly that his very heart seemed to stop beating&mdash;then
-disappeared. And Lady<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_282" id="page_282">{282}</a></span> Stanton from the window of the carriage, driving
-past, saw a face, which was John Musgrave’s face grown older and worn,
-with hair that was slightly grey, instead of the brown curls of former
-years, and which disappeared too in the twinkling of an eye, and being
-searched for, could be found no more. What was it?&mdash;an apparition
-conjured up by their interest or their fears? or John Musgrave, in his
-own person, come home?</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXIX.<br /><br />
-<small>NELLO’S JOURNEY.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Randolph Musgrave</span> drove from the door of his father’s house with a sigh
-of relief, yet of anxiety. He had not done what he meant to do, and
-affairs were more critical than when he went to Penninghame a few weeks
-before; but it was something at least to be out of the troubled
-atmosphere, and he had arranged in his own mind what he should do, which
-was in its way a gain, as soon as the breath was out of the old man’s
-body,&mdash;but when would that be? It was not to be desired, Randolph said
-to himself piously, that his father should linger long; his life was
-neither of use nor comfort to any one, and no pleasure, no advantage to
-himself. To lie there speechless, motionless, as much shut out of all
-human intercourse as if he were already in his coffin&mdash;what could any
-one desire but that, as soon as might be, it should come to an end?</p>
-
-<p>He did not pay very much attention to his small companion. For the
-moment, Nello, having been thus secured and brought within his power,
-had no further importance, and Randolph sat with knitted brows pondering
-all he was to do, without any particular reference to the child. Nello
-had left the Castle easily enough; he had parted from Mary and from
-Lilias without any lingering of emotion, getting over it as quickly as
-possible. When it came to that he was eager to be off, to set out into
-the world. The little fellow’s veins were full of excitement; he
-expected to see,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_283" id="page_283">{283}</a></span> he did not know what wonderful things, what objects of
-entrancing interest, as soon as he got outside the little region where
-everything was known to him. “Good-bye, Mary&mdash;good-bye, Lily,” he said,
-waving his hand. He had his own little portmanteau with his name on it,
-a new little silver watch in his pocket&mdash;what could child want more?
-Lily, though she was his sister, was not a sensation like that watch. He
-took it out, and turned it round and round, and opened the case, and
-wound it up&mdash;he had wound it up twice this morning already, so that one
-turn of the key was all that was practicable. Nothing at the Castle,
-nothing in the society of Lily, was equal to this. He compared his watch
-with the clock at the druggist’s in the village and found it fast: he
-compared it with the clock at the station and found that slow. He did
-not take any notice of his uncle, nor his uncle of him; each was
-indifferent, though partly hostile, to the other. Randolph was at his
-ease because he had this child, this troublesome atom, who might do harm
-though he could do no good, in his power; but Nello was at his ease
-through pure indifference. He was not at the moment frightened of his
-uncle, and no other sentiment in regard to him had been developed in his
-mind. As calm as if Randolph had been a cabbage, Nello sat by his side,
-and looked at his watch. The watch excited him, but his uncle&mdash;&mdash;. Thus
-they went on, an unsympathetic pair. Nello stood about on the platform
-and looked at everything, while Randolph took the tickets. He was
-slightly hurt to hear that a half-ticket was still enough for himself,
-and moved away at once to the other side of the station, where the
-locomotive enthralled him. He stood and gazed at it with transport. What
-he would have given to have travelled there with the man who drove it,
-and left Uncle Randolph behind! But still Nello took his place in the
-train with much indifference to Uncle Randolph. He was wholly occupied
-with what was going on before and about him: the rush across country,
-trees and fields flying by, and the stations where there was always
-something new, the groups of people standing about, the rush of some for
-the train, the late arrival just as the doors were shut of those who
-were too late. These last made Nello laugh, their blank looks were so
-funny&mdash;and yet he was sorry for them; for what a thing it must be, he
-thought,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_284" id="page_284">{284}</a></span> to see other people go rushing out over the world to see
-everything, while you yourself were left dull at home! He remembered
-once himself being left with Martuccia in the still, deserted house when
-all the others had gone to the <i>festa</i>; how he thought the day would
-never end&mdash;and Martuccia thought so too. This made him sorry, very
-sorry, for the people who had lost their train. It did not occur to
-Nello that it might be no <i>festa</i> he was going to, or they were going
-to. What could any one want more than the journey itself? If you wearied
-of seeing the trains rush past, and counting the houses, now on one
-side, now on another, there was the endless pleasure of dashing up to
-one station after another, where Nello could look down with fine
-superiority on the people who were not going, on the children above all,
-who looked up envious, and envied him, he felt sure.</p>
-
-<p>By and by, however, though he would not confess it to himself, the
-delights of the journey began to pall: his little eyes grew fatigued
-with looking, and his little mind with the continuous spectacle of those
-long, flying breadths of country; and even the stations lost their
-charm. He would have liked to have somebody to talk to, and cast one or
-two wistful glances to see whether Uncle Randolph was practicable, but
-found no encouragement in that countenance, pre-occupied, and somewhat
-lowering by nature, which appeared now and then in the wavering of the
-train, over the newspaper his uncle was reading. What a long time it
-took to read that paper! How it crackled when it was opened out! How
-tired Nello grew of seeing it opposite to him! And he began to grow
-cramped with sitting; his limbs wanted stretching, his mind wanted
-change; and he began to be hungry. Randolph, who scorned the poor
-refreshments of the railway, and thought it better to wait for his meal
-till he reached home, did not think of the difference between himself
-and the child. They travelled on and on through the dulness of the
-afternoon. Nello, who had been so excited, felt disposed to sleep, but
-was too proud to yield to it; and then he began to think of his sister
-and the home he had left. It is natural, it is selfish, to remember home
-when we miss its comforts: but if that is not of the higher nature of
-love, it is yet the religion of the weak, and not despised by the great
-Succourer who bids men call upon Him in time of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_285" id="page_285">{285}</a></span> trouble. Nello’s heart,
-when he began to feel tired and famished, recurred, with a pathetic
-trust in the tenderness and in the certainty of the well-being that
-abode there, to his home.</p>
-
-<p>When they stopped at a lively, bustling junction to change their
-direction, things mended a little. Nello ventured to buy himself a cake,
-his uncle not interfering, as they waited. “You will spoil your stomach
-with that sweet stuff,” Randolph said, but he allowed the child to
-munch. And they had half-an-hour to wait, which of itself was something.
-Nello walked about, imitating Randolph’s longer stride, though he did
-not accompany his uncle; and though he felt forlorn and very small among
-the crowd, marched about and looked at everything as the gentlemen did,
-recovering his spirits a little. And suddenly, with a great glow of
-pleasure all over him, Nello spied, among the strangers who were
-hurrying to and fro, a face he had seen before; it is true it was only
-the face of the countryman who had accosted him in the Chase, and with
-whom he had but a small acquaintance, but even this was something in the
-waste of the unknown that surrounded him. The boy rushed up to him with
-a gleam of joy upon his small countenance. “I say, have you come
-from&mdash;home?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, my little gentleman,” said Wild Bampfylde. “I’m taking a journey
-like you, but I like best to tramp on my two legs. I’m going no farther
-in your carriages, that give you the cramp. I reckon you’re tired too.”</p>
-
-<p>“A little,” said Nello; “but that’s no matter. What have you in your
-basket?&mdash;is it another rabbit? I gave mine to Lily. They would not let
-me bring it, though I wanted to bring it. School, you know,” said the
-boy, seriously, “is not like home. You have to be just like as if you
-were grown up there. Little&mdash;you cannot help being little; but you have
-to be like as if you were grown up there.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, ay, that’s the way to take it,” said the countryman, looking down
-with a twinkle in his eye, half smiling, half sad, at the small creature
-beside him. “The thing is to be a man, and to mind that you must stand
-up like a man, whatever happens. If one hits you, you must hit him
-again, and be sure not to cry.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hit me!” said Nello&mdash;“cry? Ah, you do not know the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_286" id="page_286">{286}</a></span> kind of school I am
-going to&mdash;for you are not a gentleman,” he added, looking with superb
-condescension at his adviser. “I like you just the same,” said Nello,
-“but you are not a gentleman, are you? and how can you know?”</p>
-
-<p>“The Lord forbid!” said Bampfylde, “one’s enough in a family. It would
-be ill for us, and maybe for you too, if I were a gentleman. Look you
-here, my little man. Look at the bonnie bird in this basket&mdash;it’s better
-than your rabbit. A rabbit, though it’s one o’ God’s harmless creatures,
-has little sense, and cannot learn; but this bonnie thing is of use to
-God and man, as well as being bonnie to look at. Look at him! what a
-bonnie head he has, and an eye as meaning as your own.”</p>
-
-<p>“A pigeon!” said Nello, with a cry of delight. “Oh, I wish I might have
-him! Do you think I might have him? I could put him under the seat, and
-nobody would see the basket; and then when we got there&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, that’s the question&mdash;when you got there?”</p>
-
-<p>“I would say&mdash;it was my&mdash;fishing-basket,” said Nello. “<i>He</i> said they
-went fishing; and nobody would know. I would say Mary had&mdash;put things in
-it: nobody would ever find out, and I would keep it in my room, and buy
-seed for it and give it water, and it would live quite comfortable. And
-it would soon come to know me, wouldn’t it? and hop about and sit on my
-shoulder. Oh, let me have it; won’t you let me have it? Look here, I
-have a great deal of money,” cried Nello, turning out his pocket; “five
-shillings to spend, and a sovereign Mary gave me. I will give you money
-for it, as much money as ever you please&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Whisht, my little lad; put back your money and keep it safe, for you’ll
-have need of it. I brought the bird to give you. If they’re kind folks
-they’ll let you keep him. You must keep him safe, and take care he has
-his meat every day; and if they’re unkind to you or treat you bad, put
-you his basket in the window and open the lid, and, puff! he’ll flee
-away and let your friends know.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I should not like him to flee away. I would like him to stay with
-me always, and sit on my shoulder, and eat out of my hand.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_287" id="page_287">{287}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“My little gentleman,” said Bampfylde. “I’m afraid your uncle will hear
-us. Try to understand. If you’re ill-used, if they’re unkind, let the
-bird fly, and he’ll come and tell us. Mind now, what I’m saying. He’ll
-come and tell us. Did you never read in your story-books&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it is an enchanted bird,” said Nello, looking down, very gravely,
-into the basket. Lily had read to him of such things. He was not very
-much surprised: but a bird that some day would turn into a young prince
-did not attract him so much as one that would hop on his shoulder
-without ulterior object. He looked down at it very seriously, with more
-respect perhaps, but not so warm an interest. His little face had lost
-its animation. How Lily would have glowed and brightened at the thought!
-But Nello was no idealist. He preferred a real pigeon to all the
-enchanted princes in the world.</p>
-
-<p>“Nay,” said Bampfylde, with a gleam of a smile across his dark face,
-“it’s no fairy, but it’s a carrier. Did you never hear of that? And when
-you let it fly it will fly to me, and let me know that you are wanting
-something&mdash;that they’re not kind to you, or that you’re wanting to be
-away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, they’ll be kind,” said Nello, carelessly; “I would rather he would
-stay with me, and never, never fly away.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll put him in the carriage for you,” said Bampfylde, hurriedly, “for
-here’s somebody coming. And don’t you let any one know that you were
-speaking to me, or ever saw me before. And God bless you, my little
-gentleman!” said the vagrant, suddenly disappearing among the crowd.</p>
-
-<p>While Nello stood staring after him, Randolph came up, and tapped him
-sharply on the shoulder.</p>
-
-<p>“What are you staring at? Have you seen any one you know?”</p>
-
-<p>It was Nello’s first lesson in deceiving.</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;I was looking at a man&mdash;with wild beasts,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“With wild beasts!&mdash;in the station?&mdash;here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, white rabbits and pigeons&mdash;and things; at least,” said Nello to
-himself, “he once had a white rabbit, if he hasn’t got one now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Rabbits!” said Randolph. “Come along, here is our train.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_288" id="page_288">{288}</a></span> It is late;
-and before I have got you settled, and got back here again, and am able
-to think of myself, it will be midnight, I believe. You children don’t
-know what a trouble you are. I shall have lost my day looking after you.
-I should have been at home now but for you; and little gratitude I am
-likely to get, when all is done.”</p>
-
-<p>This moved Nello’s spirit, for of all things in the world there is
-nothing that so excites opposition among great and little, as a claim
-upon our gratitude. Anything and everything else the mind may concede,
-but even a child kicks against this demand. Nello’s feelings towards his
-uncle were not unkind; but, little as he was, instinct woke in him an
-immediate resistance.</p>
-
-<p>“It was not me that did it,” he said; “it was you. I should have stayed
-at home, and when the old gentleman is better he would have come out and
-played with me. And Mary would have let me stay. I like home,” said
-Nello, “and perhaps I shall not like school; but if I don’t like it,” he
-added, brightening and forgetting the secret he had been so sworn to
-keep, “I know how to get away.”</p>
-
-<p>“How shall you get away?” said Randolph. But he was so sure of this
-matter, which was in his own hands, that he did not wait for any answer.
-“They will take care of that at school,” he said; “and it will be the
-worse for you, my boy, if you make yourself disagreeable. Come along, or
-we shall miss the train.”</p>
-
-<p>Nello saw that the basket had been placed under his seat as he got in;
-and as the train swept away from the station, he caught a glimpse of the
-lonely figure of his new friend, standing among the little crowd that
-watched the departure. Bampfylde made a warning gesture to the child,
-who, forgetful of precaution, nodded and waved his hand in reply.</p>
-
-<p>“Who is that?” cried Randolph, suspiciously, getting up to cast a
-searching look behind.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it is the man with the wild beasts,” Nello said.</p>
-
-<p>And then came another silent sweep through the green smooth country,
-which was not like the hilly north. It was all Nello could do to keep
-himself from pulling his basket from beneath the seat, and examining his
-new treasure. He could hear it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_289" id="page_289">{289}</a></span> rustling and fluttering its wings
-against the wickerwork. Oh, to be able to take it out, to give it some
-crumbs of biscuit which were still in his pocket, to begin to train it
-to know him! Nello only restrained himself painfully, by the thought
-that if he betrayed his own secret thus, his pigeon might be taken from
-him. How eager he was now to be there! “Are there many more stations?”
-he asked, anxiously; then counted them on his fingers&mdash;one, two, three.
-And how delighted he was when they came at last to the little place,
-standing alone in a plain, with no other house visible that Nello could
-see (but he did not look; he was so anxious about his pigeon), which was
-their journey’s end. A kind of farmer’s shandry, half cart, half gig,
-with a rough horse, and a rougher driver, was in waiting. Nello got his
-basket out with his own hands, and put his little great-coat over it, so
-that no one could see. His heart beat loudly with fright, lest his uncle
-should hear the sounds beneath the cover&mdash;the rustle and flutter. But
-Randolph’s mind was otherwise engaged. As for the boy, he thought of
-nothing but this treasure, which he was so happy to feel in his arms. He
-could carry it so, quite comfortably, with the little great-coat over
-it; he neither remarked the rudeness of the jolting vehicle, nor the
-bare country, with here and there a flat line of road running between
-turnip and potato fields. When they came to the house&mdash;a new, square
-house, in the middle of the fields&mdash;Nello thought nothing about it one
-way or another. He thought, “I wonder which will be my window; I wonder
-where I can keep the bird.” That was all. His little soul, all eagerness
-after his new delight, had room for nothing more.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph and his charge were taken into a plain room, very simply
-furnished and not over-dainty in point of cleanness, where the principal
-of the school, a man in rusty black, came to receive them. There was
-nothing repulsive in his looks, nothing more in any way than the same
-plain unvarnished rusticity and homeliness which showed in his house.
-The school was intended for farmers’ sons, and the education was partly
-industrial&mdash;honest, simple training, without either deceit or villany
-involved, though not at all suitable for Nello. It was with reluctance
-even that so young a boy had been accepted at all; and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_290" id="page_290">{290}</a></span> schoolmaster
-looked at him with doubtfulness, as the slim little curled darling, so
-different from his other pupils, came in, hugging his basket.</p>
-
-<p>“He’s young, and he’s small,” said Mr. Swan.</p>
-
-<p>“Very young, and small for his age,” Randolph echoed. “All the more
-reason why he should lead an out-of-door life, and learn that he is a
-boy, and will one day be a man.”</p>
-
-<p>Then Nello was put into the hands of the principal’s wife, while
-Randolph gave further directions.</p>
-
-<p>“His case is quite peculiar,” the uncle said. “He is an orphan, or as
-good as an orphan, and I took him from the hands of ladies who were
-making a fool of the boy. What he wants is hardening. You must not be
-led away by his delicate looks; he is a strong boy, and he wants
-hardening. Send him out to the fields, let him learn to work like the
-rest, and don’t listen to any complaints. Above all, don’t let him send
-complaints home.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never interfere with what they write home,” said honest Mr. Swan.</p>
-
-<p>“But you must in this case. If he sends home a complaining letter, his
-aunt will rush here next morning and take him away. I am his uncle, and
-I won’t permit that&mdash;and a family quarrel is what will follow, unless
-you will exercise your discretion. Keep him from writing, or keep him
-from grumbling. You will be the saving of the boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a great responsibility to undertake. I should not have undertaken
-it, had I known&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure you have too serious a sense of the good that can be done, to
-shrink from responsibility,” said Randolph; “but, indeed, are we not all
-responsible for everything we touch? If you find him too much for you,
-write to me. Don’t write to what he calls ‘home.’ And do not let him be
-taken away without my authority. I have to protect him from injudicious
-kindness. A parcel of women&mdash;you know what harm they can do to a boy,
-petting and spoiling him. He will never be a man at all, if you don’t
-take him in hand.”</p>
-
-<p>With these arguments, Randolph overcame the resistance of the
-schoolmaster, and with redoubled injunctions that it was himself that
-was to be communicated with, in case of anything<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_291" id="page_291">{291}</a></span> happening to Nello,
-went away. He was in haste to get back for his train; and “No, no,” he
-said, “you need not call the boy&mdash;the fewer partings the better. I don’t
-want to upset him. Tell him I was obliged to hurry away.”</p>
-
-<p>And it would be impossible to describe with what relief Randolph threw
-himself into the clumsy shandry, to go away. He had got the boy disposed
-of&mdash;for the moment at least&mdash;where no harm could happen to him, but also
-where he could do no harm. If his grandfather regained his
-consciousness, and, remembering that freak of his dotage, called again
-for the boy, it would be out of Mary’s power to spoil everything by
-humouring the old man, and reviving all those images which it would be
-much better to make an end of. And when the Squire’s life was over, how
-much easier to take all those measures which it was so advisable to
-take, without the little interloper about, whom foolish people would no
-doubt insist on calling the heir. The heir! Let him stay here, and get a
-little strength and manhood, to struggle for his rights, if he had any
-rights. More must be known of him than any one knew as yet, Randolph
-said to himself, before he, for one, would acknowledge him as the heir.</p>
-
-<p>Nello was taken into Mrs. Swan’s parlour, and there had some bread and
-butter offered to him, which he accepted with great satisfaction. The
-bread was dry and the butter salt, but he was hungry, which made it very
-agreeable.</p>
-
-<p>“You’ll have your tea with the rest at six,” said Mrs. Swan; “and now
-come I’ll show you where you are to sleep. What is that you’re
-carrying?”</p>
-
-<p>“A basket,” said Nello, in the mildest tone; and she asked no further
-questions, but led him upstairs, not however to the little bedroom of
-which the child had been dreaming, where he could keep his new pet in
-safety, but to a long dormitory, containing about a dozen beds.</p>
-
-<p>“This is yours, my little man, and you must be tidy and keep your things
-in order. There are no nurses here, and the boys are a bit rough; but
-you will soon get used to them. Put down your things here; this chair is
-yours, and that washing-stand, and&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Must I sleep there?” cried Nello. It was not so much the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_292" id="page_292">{292}</a></span> little
-bed&mdash;the close neighbourhood of the other boys&mdash;that appalled him; but
-where was there a window for his bird? “Mayn’t I have that bed?” he
-said, pointing to one which stood near the window at the end of the
-room.</p>
-
-<p>“I daresay,” said Mrs. Swan; “why that is for the head boy, and you are
-the least, and the last. It is only by a chance that there is room for
-you at all here.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I don’t want to be here,” said Nello. “Oh, mayn’t I be by the
-window? The head boy hasn’t got a&mdash;&mdash;. What would it matter to him? but
-I want to be there. I want to be at the window.”</p>
-
-<p>“My little master, you’ll be where I choose to place you,” said Mrs.
-Swan, becoming irritated. “We allow no self-will, and no rebellion
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>“But what shall I do with my&mdash;&mdash;.” Nello did not venture to name the
-name of the bird. He crept up to the head of the little bed which was to
-be allotted to him, and surveyed the blank wall tearfully. There was but
-a very little space between him and the next bed, and he was in the
-middle of the room, the darkest part of it. Nello began to cry. He
-called upon Mary, and upon Martuccia, in his heart. Neither of them
-would suffer him to be treated so. “Oh, mayn’t I go to another room
-where there is a window?” he cried, through his tears.</p>
-
-<p>“My word, that one is a stubborn one; you will have your hands full with
-him,” said Mrs. Swan, leaving Nello to have his cry out, which
-experience had taught her was the best way. She found her husband very
-serious, and full of care, thinking over the charge he had received.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s a gentleman’s son, not one of the commoner sort,” he said; “but
-why they should have brought him to me&mdash;such a little fellow&mdash;is more
-than I can see.”</p>
-
-<p>Nello sat by his little bed and cried. His heart was full, and his
-little frame worn out. In the state of depression which had followed
-upon the delight of the morning, novelty had departed, and strangeness
-had come in its place&mdash;a very different matter; everything was strange
-wherever he turned: and no place to put his pigeon! By and by the vacant
-spaces would fill, and boys&mdash;boys whom he did not know&mdash;big boys, rough
-boys, and that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_293" id="page_293">{293}</a></span> head boy, who had the window&mdash;would pour in; and he had
-no place to put his bird.</p>
-
-<p>Nello’s tears fell like summer rain upon the precious basket, till the
-storm had worn itself out. Then, first symptom of amelioration, his ear
-was caught by the rustle of the bird in the cage. He took it up, then
-placed it in his lap, then opened the cover a little way, and,
-entrancing moment! saw it&mdash;the glossy head, the keen little eye gleaming
-at him, the soft, ruffled feathers. It made a small dab at him as he
-peered in&mdash;and oh, how delighted, how miserable, how frightened was
-Nello! He drew back from the tiny assault, then approached his head
-closer, and took from his pocket a bit of his bread and butter, which he
-had saved on purpose. Then he sat down on the floor, a small creature,
-scarcely visible, hidden between the beds, betraying himself only by the
-reverberation of the sobs which still shook his little bosom from time
-to time, entranced over his bird. The pigeon gurgled its soft coo, as it
-picked up the crumbs. The little boy, after his trouble, forgot
-everything but this novel delight; a thing all his own, feeding from his
-hand already, looking up at him sidelong, with that glimmer of an eye,
-with a flutter towards him if it could but have got loose. No doubt when
-he set it free it would come upon his shoulder directly. Nello lost
-himself and all his grief in pleasure. He forgot even that he had not a
-window in which to hang his bird.</p>
-
-<p>By and by, however, there came a rush and a tramp of feet, and eleven
-big boys, earthy and hot from the field where they had been working,
-came pouring in. They filled the room like a flood, like a whirlwind,
-catching Nello upon their surface as the stream would catch a straw. One
-of the big, hobnailed fellows stumbled over him as he sat on the floor.</p>
-
-<p>“Hallo, what’s here?” he cried; “what little kid are you?” seizing the
-child by the shoulders. He did not mean any harm, but grasped the little
-boy’s shoulder with the grip of a playful ploughman. Then there was a
-rush of the whole band to see what it was. The new boy! but such a
-boy&mdash;a baby&mdash;a gentleman baby&mdash;a creature of a different order.</p>
-
-<p>“Let’s see him,” they cried, tumbling over each other, while Nello,
-dragged to his feet, stood shrinking, confronting them,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_294" id="page_294">{294}</a></span> making trial of
-all the manhood he possessed. He would not cry; he drew back against his
-bed, and doubled his little fist, his heart heaving, his lip quivering.</p>
-
-<p>“I have done no harm,” said Nello, with a sob in his voice; and the head
-boy called out, good-humouredly enough, though the thunder of his boyish
-bass sounded to Nello like the voice of doom, to “let him be.”</p>
-
-<p>“What’s he got there?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p>The basket was snatched from the child’s hand, notwithstanding his
-resistance. Nello gave a great cry when it was taken from him.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my bird, my pigeon, my bird!&mdash;you are not to hurt my bird.”</p>
-
-<p>“Give it here,” said the head boy.</p>
-
-<p>But the first who had seized the treasure held it fast.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve got it, and I’ll keep it,” he cried.</p>
-
-<p>“Give it here!” shouted the other.</p>
-
-<p>The conflict and the cloud of big forms, and the rough voices and
-snatchings, filled Nello with speechless dismay. He leaned back against
-his bed, and watched with feelings indescribable the basket which
-contained his treasure pulled and dragged about from one to another.
-First the handle gave way, then the lid was torn off, as one after
-another snatched at it. Oh, why was Nello so small and weak, and the
-others so big and strong!</p>
-
-<p>“Give it here!” shouted the head boy; but in the midst of the scuffle,
-something happened which frightened them all&mdash;the bird got loose,
-carefully as it had been secured, flew up over their heads, fluttered
-for a moment, driven wild by the cloud of arms stretched out to catch
-it, and then, with a sweep of its wings, darted out through the open
-window, and was seen no more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_295" id="page_295">{295}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXX" id="CHAPTER_XXX"></a>CHAPTER XXX.<br /><br />
-<small>A CHILD FORLORN.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Nello</span> sobbed himself to sleep that night, scarcely conscious of the
-hubbub that was going on around him. He had watched with a pang
-unspeakable the escape of his bird, then had rushed blindly among the
-culprits, fighting and struggling in a passion of tears and childish
-rage, raining down harmless blows all around him, struggling to get out
-after it, to try to bring it back. Then Nello had been caught, too
-desperate to know who held him, in the hands of the head boy, who paid
-no more attention to his kicks and struggles than to his cries, and held
-him until, half dead with passion and misery, the poor little fellow
-sank exhausted, almost fainting, in the rough hands of his captors. Then
-the boys, who were not cruel, laid him on his bed and summoned Mrs.
-Swan. They all crowded round her to tell their story. Nobody had meant
-any harm. They had taken his basket to look at it, and the pigeon had
-got loose. “And it was a carrier!” the head boy said regretfully. They
-were as sorry as Nello could be, though by this time, under the combined
-influences of loneliness, desolation, homesickness, weariness, and loss,
-poor little Nello was almost beyond feeling the full extent of his
-troubles. “He’s a mammy’s boy,” said Mrs. Swan, who was rough, but not
-unkind. “He has never been at school before. A spoiled child, by all I
-can see.” But why had a spoiled child been sent here? This was what the
-good woman could not understand.</p>
-
-<p>Nello slept and forgot his woes; and when he was awoke in the morning by
-the tumult, all the eleven jumping out of bed at once, performing their
-noisy but scanty ablutions, tossing boots about, and scrambling for
-clothes, the child lay trembling yet anxious, and half amused in spite
-of himself. The rough fun that was going on tempted Nello to laugh,
-though he was miserable. He shrank from them all, so big, so loud, so
-coarsely clothed, and in such a hurry; but he was tickled by their
-horse-play with each other&mdash;the hits and misses with which their
-missiles went and came. When the head boy was caught by a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_296" id="page_296">{296}</a></span> pillow
-straight in the face as he approached to execute justice upon one of the
-laggards, Nello could not restrain a little broken chuckle, which
-attracted the attention of the combatants. This, however, drew upon him
-the arrest of fate. “I say, little one, ain’t you going to get
-up?&mdash;bell’s rung!” said his next neighbour. The head boy was aggrieved
-by the poor little laugh. “Get up, you lazy little beggar!” he cried. “I
-say, let’s toss him!” cried another, with sudden perception of fun to be
-had easily. The boys meant no particular harm; but they made a
-simultaneous rush at the little trembling creature. Nello felt himself
-seized, he knew not for what purpose. Then the noise, and the rude,
-laughing faces&mdash;which looked to him in his fright like demons&mdash;all swam
-in giddy uncertainty round him, and the poor little fellow came down
-upon the floor, slipping out of their rough and careless hands, faint
-and sick and sore, his head turning, his little bones aching. But though
-in his giddiness and faintness he scarcely saw anything&mdash;even the faces
-turning into misty spectres&mdash;Nello’s spirit survived for a moment the
-collapse of his little frame. He got to his feet in a frenzy, and struck
-out at them with his white little childish fists. “I will kill you!”
-cried Nello, through his teeth; and a great horse-laugh got up. But this
-was soon extinguished in dismay and horror when the little fellow fell
-back fainting. They all gathered around, horror-stricken. “Lift him on
-his bed,” said the head boy almost in a whisper. They did not know
-anything about faints; they thought the child was dead. Then there was a
-pause. In their horror it occurred to more than one inexperienced
-imagination to hide the little body and run away. “What can they do to
-us?” said another, awe-stricken. “We didn’t mean it.” For a moment the
-boys had all that thrill of horrible sensation which ought to (but, it
-would seem, does not always) accompany homicide. At the end, however,
-humanity prevailed over villanous panic, and Mrs. Swan was called to the
-rescue. The boys were too glad to troop away, already subject to
-punishment on account of being late, and, huddling together, went down
-to the schoolroom in a band, where vengeance awaited them&mdash;though not
-for Nello’s murder, as some of them thought.</p>
-
-<p>Nello came to himself at last, after giving Mrs. Swan a great<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_297" id="page_297">{297}</a></span> deal of
-trouble; and there was nothing for it but to leave him in bed all day;
-for the child was bruised with the fall, aching in every limb, and too
-resentful and wretched to make any effort. He lay and cried and brooded,
-what between childish plans of vengeance and equally childish projects
-of escape. Oh, the pangs of impotence with which the small boy wronged
-contemplated the idea of those big fellows who had been so cruel to him!
-How should weakness be aware that strength does not intend to be cruel?
-Nello could not be tolerant, or understanding, at his age, even if there
-had not been his aching bones to prove the wickedness of his assailants.
-He hated them all. How could he help hating them? He lay and planned
-what he would do to them. But Nello’s dreams were not malicious. At the
-last moment, when they had suffered torments of dread in prospect of the
-punishment which he permitted them (in his fancy) to see approaching,
-Nello’s vengeance suddenly turned into magnanimous contempt. He would
-not condescend to reprisals; he would crush them with forgiveness as
-soon as they saw his power. Such were the plans which the child lay and
-concocted, and which amused him, though he was not aware of it. But when
-the boys came in Nello shrank to the farther side of his bed; he would
-not look at them; he would not listen to the rough inquiries. When they
-went away again, however, and he was left alone, a sudden fit of longing
-came over him. Oh, to see somebody he knew!&mdash;somebody that was kind!
-Schemes of vengeance pall, like every other amusement. He gazed round
-upon the bare walls, the range of beds, the strange, ugly, desolate
-place. He could not tell if it was worse when the savages were there,
-filling it with noise, stumblings of heavy feet, cries of rough voices,
-or when the sounds all died away, and he was left lonely, not a soul to
-speak to him; no kind hand to touch his hot little head; nobody to give
-him a drink, though he wanted it so much. Nello had to clamber out of
-bed, to pour himself out a cup of water from the great brown jug, which
-he could scarcely lift&mdash;and fell upon his bed again, utterly heartsick
-and desolate. Nobody to give him a drink! How they used to pet him when
-he had a headache! How Martuccia would croon over him, and bathe his
-head, and kiss<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_298" id="page_298">{298}</a></span> his hands, and bring him everything she could think of
-to please him! And Mary would come and stand by his side, and put her
-cool, white hand upon his head&mdash;that hand which he had once called “as
-soft as snow.” Nello remembered the smile that came on Mary’s face when
-he had called her hand “as soft as snow.” He did not himself see the
-poetry of the phrase, but he thought he could feel again that mingled
-coolness, and softness, and whiteness. And Lily! Lily would sit by him
-all day long, and read to him, or sing to him, or tell him stories, or
-play when he got a little better and could play. A great lump came in
-Nello’s throat. “Oh, my Lily!” he cried, with a lamentable cry. He had
-no mother to appeal to, poor child&mdash;not even the imagination of a
-mother. Lily had been everything. Nothing had ever been so bad with him
-but could be borne when Lily was there. Naturally he had not so much
-felt the want of Lily when it was pleasure (as he thought) that he was
-going to. He could part with her without much emotion in the excitement
-of novelty and childish hope; but now&mdash;&mdash;. Nello turned his face to the
-wall and sobbed. The lonely place&mdash;all the lonelier for bearing traces
-of that rude multitude&mdash;held him, a little atom, in its midst. Nobody
-heard his crying, or cared. He tore the bedclothes with his little
-frantic hands, with that sense of the intolerable which comes so easily
-to a child. But what did it matter that it was intolerable? Little
-Nello, like older people, had to bear it all the same.</p>
-
-<p>It was best to leave the child quiet, the Swans thought. They were not
-unkind, but they were not used to take much trouble. The boys who came
-to them generally were robust boys, able to take care of themselves, and
-to whom it did no harm to be hustled about&mdash;who enjoyed the scrimmages
-and struggles. Mrs. Swan had her own children to look after. “I’ve left
-him to himself; he’s better to be quite quiet,” she said to her husband,
-and the husband approved; “far better for him to be quiet.” Attempts to
-amuse a child, in such circumstances, would have been foolish, they
-thought, and as for petting and sympathising with him, far better that
-he should get accustomed to it, and make up his mind to put up with it
-like the rest. They could not make any difference between one and
-another; and if he had a day’s rest,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_299" id="page_299">{299}</a></span> and was allowed to lie in bed,
-what could the child want more? There was no imagination in the house
-lively enough to <i>envisager</i> the circumstances from Nello’s point of
-view, or to understand what chills of terror, what flushes of passion,
-came over the child, when the others poured in to bed again in the
-evening, driving him desperate with fear and wild with anger. Who could
-imagine anything so vehement in the mind of such a little boy? But Nello
-was not molested that next evening; they were disposed rather to be
-obsequious to him, asking, in their rough way, how he was, and offering
-him half-eaten apples and bits of sticky sweetmeats, by way of
-compensation. But Nello would not listen to these clumsy overtures. He
-turned his face to the wall persistently, and would have nothing to say
-to them. Even the tumult that was going on did not tempt him to turn
-round, though, after the first moment of fright, the crowd in the room
-was rather comforting than otherwise to Nello. The sound of their voices
-kept him from that melancholy absorption in himself.</p>
-
-<p>Next morning he had to get up, though he was still sick and sore. Nello
-was so obstinate in his refusal to do so, that the master himself had to
-be summoned. Mr. Swan would stand no nonsense.</p>
-
-<p>“Get up, my boy,” he said, “you’ll get no good lying there. There has
-nothing happened to you more than happens to new boys everywhere. Come,
-you’re not a baby to cry. Get up, and be a man.”</p>
-
-<p>“I want to go home,” said Nello.</p>
-
-<p>“I daresay you do; but you’re not going home. So your plan is to make
-the best of it,” said the schoolmaster. “Now come, I let you off
-yesterday; but I’ll send a man to take you out of bed if you don’t get
-up now. Come along, boy. I see you want to be a baby, as your uncle
-said.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am no baby,” cried Nello, furious; but the schoolmaster only laughed.</p>
-
-<p>“I give you half-an-hour,” he said; and in half-an-hour, indeed, Nello,
-giddy and weak, managed to struggle down to the schoolroom. His watch
-was no longer going. He had forgotten it in the misery of the past day;
-it lay there dead, as Nello felt<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_300" id="page_300">{300}</a></span>&mdash;and his bird was flown. He stumbled
-downstairs, feeling as if he must fall at each step, and took his seat
-on the lowest bench. The lessons were not much, but Nello was not equal
-to them. The big figures about seemed to darken the very air to the
-boy&mdash;to darken it, and fill it up. He had no room to breathe. His hand
-shook, so that he could not write a copy, which seemed a simple matter
-enough. “Put him at the very bottom; he knows nothing,” Mr. Swan said to
-his assistant; and how this galled the poor little gentleman, to whom,
-in his feebleness, this was the only way left of proving a little
-superiority, what words could say? Poor little Nello! he cried over the
-copy, mingling his tears with the ink, and blurring the blurred page
-still more. He could not get the figures right in the simplest of sums.
-He was self-convicted of being not only the least, but the very last,
-the dunce of the school. When the others went out to play, he sat
-wretched in a corner of the wretched schoolroom, where there was no air
-to breathe. He had not energy enough to do anything or think of
-anything; and it was only the sight of another boy, seated at a desk
-writing a letter, which put it into his head that he too might find a
-way of appeal against this cruelty. He could not write anything but the
-largest of large hands. But he tore a leaf out of the copybook, and
-scrawled a few lines across it. “I am verrey meeserble,” he wrote; “Oh,
-Lily, ask Mary to kome and take me home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Will you put it into a cover for me?” he said to the boy who was
-writing, who proved to be the very head boy who reigned over Nello’s
-room. “Oh, please, put it into a cover. I’ll forgive you if you will,”
-cried Nello.</p>
-
-<p>The head boy looked at him with a grin.</p>
-
-<p>“You little toad, don’t you forgive me without that? I never meant to
-hurt you,” he said: but melting, he added, “give it here.” Nello’s
-epistle, written across the lined paper, in big letters, did not seem to
-require any ceremony as a private communication. The head boy read it
-and laughed. “They won’t pay any attention,” he said; “they never do.
-Little boys are always miserable. And won’t you catch it from Swan if he
-sees it!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_301" id="page_301">{301}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“It is for my sister Lily; it is not for Mr. Swan,” cried the child,
-upon which the head boy laughed again.</p>
-
-<p>That letter never reached Penninghame. The schoolmaster read it
-according to his orders, and put it into the fire. He wrote himself to
-the address which Nello had given, to say that the little gentleman was
-rather homesick, but pretty well; and that perhaps it would be better,
-in the circumstances, not to write to him till he had got a little
-settled down, and used to his new home. He hoped his little pupil would
-soon be able to write a decent letter; but he feared his education had
-been very much neglected hitherto, Mr. Swan wrote. Thus it came to pass
-that Nello lived on, day after day, eagerly expecting some event which
-never happened. He expected, first of all, Mary to arrive in a beautiful
-chariot, such as was wont to appear in Lily’s stories, with beautiful
-prancing horses&mdash;(where they were to come from, Nello never asked
-himself, though he was intimately acquainted with the two brown ponies
-and the cob, which were all the inhabitants of the Squire’s stables),
-and with an aspect splendid, but severe, to proceed to the punishment of
-his adversaries. Nello did not settle what deaths they were to die; but
-all was arranged except that insignificant circumstance. Mary would
-come; she would punish all who had done wrong; she would give presents
-to those who had been kind; and all the boys who had laughed at little
-Nello would see him drive away glorious behind those horses, with their
-arching necks, and high-stepping, dainty feet. Then after a few days,
-which produced nothing, Nello settled, with a pang of visionary
-disappointment, that it was Mr. Pen who could come. He would not make a
-splendid dash up to the door like Mary in her chariot; but still he
-would deliver the little captive. Another day, and Nello, coming down
-and down in his demands, thought it might at least be Martuccia, or
-perhaps Miss Brown, who would come for him. That would not be so
-satisfactory to his pride, for he felt that the boys would laugh and
-jeer at him, and say it was his nurse who had come; but still even Miss
-Brown would be good to see in this strange place. At the end of the
-week, however, all Nello’s courage fled. He thought then faintly of a
-letter, and watched when the postman came with packets of letters for
-the other boys. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_302" id="page_302">{302}</a></span> could not read writing very well; but he could make
-it out if they would only write to him. Why would not they write to him?
-Had they forgotten him altogether, clean forgotten him, though he had
-been but a week away?</p>
-
-<p>Nello did what he was told to do at school: but he was very slow about
-it, being so little, and so unused to work&mdash;for which he was punished;
-and he could not learn his lessons for brooding over his troubles, and
-wondering when <i>they</i> would come, or what they could mean; and naturally
-he was punished for that too. The big boys hustled him about; they
-played him a hundred tricks: they laughed at his timid, baby-washings,
-his carefulness, the good order to which he had been trained. To toss
-everything about, to do everything loudly, and noisily, and carelessly,
-was the religion of Mr. Swan’s boys, as everything that was the reverse
-of this had been the religion in which Nello was trained. Poor little
-boy, his life was as full of care as if he had been fifty. He was sent
-here and there on a hundred errands; he had impositions which he could
-not write, and lessons which he could not learn; and not least, perhaps,
-meals which he could not eat; and out-of-door tasks quite unsuitable for
-him, and which he could not perform. He was for ever toiling after
-something he ought to have done. He grew dirty, neglected, unkempt,
-miserable. He could not clean his own boots, which was one thing
-required of him; but plastered him self all over with mysterious
-blacking, in a vain attempt to fulfil this task, he who had scarcely
-dressed himself till now, scarcely brushed his own hair. He kept up a
-struggle against all these labours, which were more cruel than those of
-Hercules, as long as he had the hope within him that somebody must come
-to deliver him; for, with a childish jump at what he wished, he had
-believed that some one might come “to-morrow,” when he sent, or thought
-he sent, his letter away. The to-morrow pushed itself on and on, hope
-getting fainter, and misery stronger, yet still seemed to gleam upon
-him, a possibility still. “Oh, pray God send Mary,” he said, every night
-and morning. When a week was over, he added a more urgent cry, “Oh, pray
-God send <i>some one</i>, only some one! Oh, pray God take me home!” the
-child cried. He repeated it one night aloud, in the exhaus<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_303" id="page_303">{303}</a></span>tion of his
-disappointment, with an irrepressible moaning and crying: “Oh, pray God
-take me home!” He was very tired, poor little boy; he was half wrapped
-in his little bit of curtain, to hide him as he said his prayers, and he
-had fallen half asleep while he said them, and was struggling with
-drowsiness, and duty, and a hope which though now falling more and more
-into despondency, still gave pertinacity to his prayer. He was anxious,
-very anxious to press this petition on God’s notice. Repetition; is not
-that the simplest primitive necessity of earnest supplication? Perhaps
-God might not take any notice the first time, but He might the next.
-“Oh, take me home. Oh, pray God take me home!” God too, like Mary and
-the rest, seemed to pay no attention; but God did not require written
-letters or directions in a legible hand: He could be approached more
-easily. So Nello repeated and repeated, half-asleep, yet with his little
-heart full of trouble, and all his cares awake, this appeal to the only
-One who could help him, “Oh, pray God, pray God, take me home!”</p>
-
-<p>But in this trance of beseeching supplication, half asleep, half
-conscious, poor little Nello caught the eye of one of his room-fellows,
-who pointed out the spectacle to the rest. “Little beggar! pretending to
-say his prayers; and much he cares for his prayers, going to sleep in
-the middle of them,” they said. Then one wag suggested, “Let’s wake him
-up!” It was a very funny idea. They got his water-jug, a small enough
-article indeed, not capable of doing very much harm. Had poor little
-Nello been less sleepy in his half-dream of pathetic appeal, he must
-have heard the titterings and whisperings behind him; but he was too
-much wrapt in that drowsy, painful abstraction, to take any notice, till
-all at once he started bolt upright, crying and gasping, woke up and
-drenched by the sudden dash of cold water over him. A shout of laughter
-burst from all the room, as Nello turned round frantic, and flew at the
-nearest of his assailants with impotent rage. What did the big fellow
-care for his little blows? he lay back and laughed and did not mind,
-while the small creature in his drenched nightgown, his face crimson
-with rage, his little frame shivering, his curly locks falling about his
-cheeks, flew at his throat. The head boy, however, awakening to a sense
-of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_304" id="page_304">{304}</a></span> indiscretion, and perhaps touched by a pang of remorse at sight
-of the misery and fury in the child’s face, got hold of Nello in his
-strong arms, and plucked the wet garment off him, and threw him into his
-bed. “Let the child alone, I tell you. I won’t have him meddled with,”
-he said to the others&mdash;and covered him up with the bedclothes. Poor
-little Nello! he wanted to strike at and struggle with his defender. He
-was wild with rage and misery. His small heart was full, and he could
-bear no more.</p>
-
-<p>After this, however, the boys, half ashamed of themselves, got quickly
-to bed; and darkness, and such silence as can exist in the heavy
-atmosphere where twelve rustics sleep and snore, succeeded to the tumult
-and riot. Nello, exhausted, sobbed himself to sleep under the
-bedclothes; but woke up in the middle of the night to remember all his
-wrongs and his misery. His cup was full; even God would not pay any
-attention to him, and it seemed to Nello that it would be better to die
-than to bear this any longer. Though the dark frightened him, it was
-less alarming than the rough boys, the hard lessons, the pangs of
-longing and waiting for a deliverance which never came. He had still the
-sovereign which Mary gave him, and the watch he had been so proud of,
-though that was dead now, and he had not spirit enough left to wind it
-up. It was October, and the nights were long. Though it was but in
-reality between two and three o’clock in the morning, Nello thought it
-would soon be time for all these savage companions to get out of bed
-again, and for the noisy dreadful day to begin. He got up very quietly,
-trembling at every sound. There was a window at the end of the room
-through which the moon shone, and the light gave him a little
-consolation. He kept his eye fixed upon it, and groped for his clothes,
-and put them on very stealthily. If any one should hear him, he would be
-lost; but Nello’s little rustlings, like a bird in the dark, what were
-they to break the slumbers of all those outdoor lads, who slept
-violently, as they did everything else! No one stirred; the snoring and
-the breathing drowned all the little misadventures which chilled Nello
-with terror, as when his boots dropt out of his hand, or the buttons on
-his trousers struck shrilly against the chair. Nothing happened; nobody
-stirred, and Nello crept out of the room, holding his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_305" id="page_305">{305}</a></span> breath with the
-courage of despair. He got downstairs, trembling and stumbling at almost
-every step. When he got to the lower story, that kind moon, which had
-seemed to look at him through the window, almost to smile at him in
-encouragement and cheerful support, showed him a little window which had
-been left open by some chance. He clambered through and found himself in
-the garden. There was a great dog in front of the house, of which Nello
-was in mortal terror; but here at the back there was no dog, only the
-kitchen garden, with the tranquil breadth of a potato-field on the other
-side of the hedge. It was not easy to get through that hedge; but a
-small boy not quite nine years old can go through gaps which would
-scarcely show to the common eye. It scratched him and tore his trousers;
-but there was nothing in such simple accidents to stop the little
-fugitive. And what it was to feel himself outside, free and safe, and
-all his tormentors snoring! Nello looked up at the moon, which was
-mellow and mild, not white as usual, and which seemed to smile at him.
-The potato-field was big and black, with its long lines running to a
-point on either side of him; and the whole world seemed to lie round him
-dark and still; nothing stirred, except now and then a rat in the ditch,
-which chilled Nello with horror. Had he known it was so early, the child
-would have been doubly frightened; but he felt that it was morning, not
-night, which encouraged him. And how big the world was! how vast, and
-silent, and solitary! only Nello, one little atom, with a small heart
-beating, a little pulse throbbing in the midst of that infinite quiet.
-The space grew vaster, the stillness more complete, the distance more
-visionary, and there was a deeper sable in the dark, because of Nello’s
-little heart beating so fast, and his eyes that took everything in. What
-was he to do, poor little soul, there by himself in the open country, in
-the unknown world all in the middle of the night!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_306" id="page_306">{306}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXI" id="CHAPTER_XXXI"></a>CHAPTER XXXI.<br /><br />
-<small>A CRISIS AT PENNINGHAME.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">All</span> this time the old Squire lay in the same stupor of death in life. He
-did not rally. Sometimes there was a look in his eyes&mdash;a quiver as of
-meaning, between the half-closed lids. But they could not tell what it
-meant, or indeed if it was anything but vague reflection of the light
-that would break in through a drawn curtain or raised blind. There he
-lay, day after day, wearing out all his nurses. If he ever slept, or
-ever was awake, no one could tell; but this old man, in the grip of
-deadly disease, lay there motionless, and tired out all the younger
-people who watched over him. A nurse had been got for him from the
-nearest town, and Mary was rarely out of the sick-chamber. Both of these
-attendants were worn to death as the monotonous days and nights went
-past; but the Squire lay just the same. They grew pale and hollow-eyed,
-but he apparently had stopped short at the point where he was when their
-vigil began.</p>
-
-<p>In these circumstances all the world flocked to Penninghame to inquire
-for Mr. Musgrave. Rural importance shows in such circumstances. He was
-“by rights” the greatest man in the district, though superior wealth had
-come in and taken his pre-eminence from him&mdash;but everybody recollected
-his pretensions now. Inquiries came for him daily from every one near
-who could pretend to be anything. The great great people, and the small
-great people, the new families and the old, the clergy (who were as good
-as anybody), and all who sought for a place among the gentry, with
-whatever hope or right, all interested themselves about the invalid.
-“His eldest son is still living, I believe. And what will happen when
-Mr. Musgrave dies?” the people asked. And all who had any possibility of
-knowing, all who had any right to know, exerted themselves to supply
-answers to this question. One had it on the best authority, that John
-Musgrave was waiting, ready to come home, and that there would be
-another trial immediately. Some, on the other hand, were certain that
-John Musgrave never would come home at all to tempt<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_307" id="page_307">{307}</a></span> Providence. “There
-will be an effort made to pass him over, and make his little son heir
-instead,” they said; and some believed it to be certain that the other
-brother would pension him off, so that the house might not be shamed by
-a convict squire.</p>
-
-<p>Naturally, Mary knew nothing about these discussions. She spent her time
-in her father’s room, relieving the nurse when her hours for sleep came,
-resting herself only when she could no longer bear up against the
-fatigue, seeing nobody but Mr. Pen and Lilias. Mary took little notice
-now of Nello’s departure, and the schoolmaster’s letter. It had all been
-done against her will, but she was too much occupied, now that it was
-done, to dwell upon it. It was very shameful that he was so backward,
-and perhaps Mr. Pen and Randolph were right in sending him to school.
-Her mind was too much pre-occupied for the moment to give anything but
-this half-angry, reluctant assent to what had been done. And perhaps it
-would be better <i>now</i> if Lilias could go to school too, out of this
-melancholy house, out of the loneliness which was so hard upon the
-child. But Lilias was the only consolation Mary herself had; she had
-grown to be part of herself during this long year. It might be doing the
-child injustice, as she feared; but how could she send her only
-companion, her consoler and sympathiser, away? As for Lilias, though she
-was deeply moved by Nello’s departure, the want of news of him did not
-move her much. Her father never wrote, never communicated with the
-child. They had not the custom of letters. It was very dreary, no doubt,
-but still when he came back unexpectedly, perhaps just at the moment he
-was most wanted, stepping in, with all the delight of surprise added to
-the pleasure of again seeing the absent, that was worth waiting for.
-This was the philosophy of the family. It was not their habit to write
-letters. Lilias accepted her own loneliness with resignation, not
-thinking of any possible alleviation; and she watched, sitting at the
-door of the old hall, for every one who might come along the road. It
-was October&mdash;the days getting short, the air more chilly, the sun less
-genial. The woods began to put on robes of colour, as if the rosy sunset
-clouds had floated down among them. The air blew cold in her face, as
-she sat outside<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_308" id="page_308">{308}</a></span> the hall door. Martuccia within, in the background,
-shivered, and drew her shawl more closely across her ample shoulders.
-But Lilias did not feel the cold. She was looking out for some one&mdash;for
-papa, who might come all at once, at any time&mdash;for Mr. Geoff, who might
-bring news of papa&mdash;for something to come and break the monotony of this
-life. Something Lilias felt sure must be coming; it could not go on like
-this for ever.</p>
-
-<p>“Nello was always company for his sister,” Mary said. Though she
-assented, she could not but complain. She had come out to breathe the
-air, and was walking up and down, Mr. Pen by her side. “It is very hard
-upon Lily, just at this moment, when everything is hanging in the
-balance, that her little brother should have been sent away.”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be very well,” said Mr. Pen, “if you would send her away too.
-Nello wanted it. He would never have learned anything at home. He will
-come back so much improved. If he is to be received as the heir of
-everything&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“If, Mr. Pen?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well; I would not go against you for the world; but there is truth in
-what Randolph says. Randolph says there must be certificates of his
-birth, and all that; quite easy&mdash;quite easy to get&mdash;but where is your
-brother John to look after it all? He ought to be here now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he ought to be here. But would it be safe for him to come, Mr.
-Pen?”</p>
-
-<p>“Miss Mary, I can’t help wondering about that,” said Mr. Pen, with
-troubled looks&mdash;had he grown unfaithful to John?&mdash;“if he is innocent,
-why shouldn’t he come <i>now</i>? No jury would convict&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Mary stopped him with a motion of her hand. “Randolph has been gaining
-you over to his side,” she said. They were walking up and down the road
-close to the house. Just where the great gates ought to be&mdash;if the
-Musgraves were ever rich enough to restore the courtyard of the old
-Castle&mdash;was the limit of their walk. Mary could not allow herself to be
-out of reach even for an hour. She was here, ready to be called, in case
-her father should come to any semblance of himself. “I do not say he has
-not some reason on his side, now that my father <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_309" id="page_309">{309}</a></span>is&mdash;as he is.
-Everything seems to have grown so much nearer. It is dreadful not to
-know where John is, not to be able to communicate with him. I wrote to
-the last place where they were living&mdash;the place the children came
-from&mdash;but I have never had any answer. When my poor father goes&mdash;as go
-he must, I suppose&mdash;what am I to do?”</p>
-
-<p>“You must let Randolph manage for you. Randolph must do it. God knows,
-Miss Mary, I don’t want to go against you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“But you do,” she said with a half-smile. She smiled at it, but she did
-not like it. It is hard, even when a dog who has been your special
-follower turns away and follows some one else.</p>
-
-<p>“You never did it before since we have known each other, Mr. Pen.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Mr. Pen felt the reproach. He was ready to weep himself, and looked
-at her with wistful, deprecating eyes; but was it not for her sake?</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know what else to say to you. It breaks my heart to go against
-you,” he said. “Whatever pleases you seems always best to me. But
-Randolph says&mdash;and I cannot deny it, Miss Mary, there’s truth in what he
-says.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, there’s truth in what he says. He has got the child away, and
-placed him out of reach, with your help, Mr. Pen; and he will push the
-father away, out of his just place, and make all the difficulties
-double. He has put you against him already that was his friend, and he
-will put other people against him. I begin to see what he is aiming at;”
-cried Mary, clasping her hands together, with indignant vehemence.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pen did not know what to say or do to soothe her. He was full of
-compunction, feeling himself guilty. He to have turned against her! He
-felt all the horror of it to his very heart.</p>
-
-<p>“We should be just to Randolph too,” he said, tremulously; “he means to
-do what is right. And if I seem to cross you, ’tis but to serve you,
-Miss Mary. How could you stand in the breach, and bear all that will
-have to be borne? If Randolph does not come to do what has to be done,
-you would have to do it; and it would be more than should be put upon
-you.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_310" id="page_310">{310}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Have I ever shrunk from what has to be done?” she said, with again a
-half-smile of pained surprise.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pen had no answer to make; he knew very well she had not failed
-hitherto; and in his heart he was aware that Randolph’s motives were
-very different from Mary’s. Still, he held with a gentle obstinacy to
-the lesson he had learned. It was going against her, but it was for her
-sake. They took one or two turns together in silence, neither saying any
-more. As they turned again, however, towards the house for the third
-time, Eastwood met them, hurrying from the door. Nurse had sent
-downstairs for Miss Musgrave, begging her to come without delay. The
-urgent message, and the man’s haste and anxious, eager looks, frightened
-Mary. The household generally had come to that state of expectation
-which welcomes any event, howsoever melancholy, as a relief to the
-strain of nerve and strength which long suspense produces. Eastwood was
-eager that there might be some change&mdash;if for the better, so much the
-better&mdash;but that was scarcely to be looked for&mdash;anyhow a change, a new
-event. The same thrill of anticipation ran through Mary’s veins. Was it
-come now&mdash;the moment of fate, the crisis which would affect so many? She
-bade Mr. Pen to follow her, with a movement of her hand. “Wait in the
-library,” she said, as she went upstairs.</p>
-
-<p>While Mary took the air in this anxious little promenade up and down,
-Lilias sat at the hall door, looking out upon the road, looking far away
-for the something that was coming. She did not know that the rider on
-the pale horse was the most likely passenger to come that way. Happier
-visitors were in Lilias’ thoughts&mdash;her father himself to clear up
-everything, who would go and fetch Nello back, and put all right that
-was wrong; or Mr. Geoff, who was not so good, but yet very comforting,
-and between whom and Lilias there existed a link of secret alliance,
-unknown to anybody, which was sweet to the child. Lilias was looking out
-far upon the road, vaguely thinking of Geoff, for he was the most likely
-person to come&mdash;he who rode along the road so often to ask for the
-Squire: far more likely than her father, who was a hope rather than an
-expectation. She was looking far away, as is the wont of the dreamer,
-pursuing her hope to the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_311" id="page_311">{311}</a></span> very horizon whence it might come&mdash;when
-suddenly, all at once, Lilias woke to the consciousness that there was
-some one standing near her, close to her, saying nothing, but looking at
-her with that intent look which wakes even a sleeper when fixed upon
-him, much more a dreamer, linked to common earth by the daylight, and
-all the sounds and touches of ordinary life. She rose to her feet with a
-start&mdash;frightened yet satisfied&mdash;for here was something which had
-happened, if not the something for which she looked. But Lilias’ eyes
-enlarged to twice their size, and her heart gave a great jump, when she
-saw that the figure standing beside her was that of the old woman whom
-she had met in the Chase.</p>
-
-<p>’Lizabeth had come up unobserved from the water-side. She was dressed
-exactly as she had been when Lilias saw her before, with the hood of her
-grey cloak over her white cap&mdash;a stately figure, notwithstanding the
-homely dress.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias gave a cry at the sight, and ran to her. “Oh, old woman!” she
-cried&mdash;“oh, I want to ask you&mdash;I want to ask you so many things.”</p>
-
-<p>“Honeysweet!” said ’Lizabeth, with a glow in her dark eyes. She did not
-for the moment think either of what she had come to say, or of the risk
-that attended her communications with her daughter’s child. She thought
-only of the face she saw reflected in that other face, and of the secret
-property she had in the child who was so beautiful and so sweet. This
-was ’Lizabeth’s heiress, the inheritor of the beauty which the old woman
-had been conscious of in her own person, and still more conscious of in
-the person of her daughter. Lilias was the third in that fair line.
-Pride filled the old woman’s heart, along with the warm gush of
-tenderness. No one had ever looked at Lilias with such passionate love
-and admiration. She did not venture to take the child into her arms as
-she had done in the solitude of the woods, but she looked at her with
-all her heart in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias seized her by the hand and drew her to the seat from which she
-had herself risen. “Come!” she said eagerly. “They say you know
-everything about papa&mdash;and I have a right to know; no one has so good a
-right to hear as I. Oh, tell me! tell me! Sit down here and rest. I once
-went up<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_312" id="page_312">{312}</a></span> the hill, far away up the hill, to go to you, but there I met
-Mr. Geoff. Do you know Mr. Geoff? Come, come, sit down here and tell me
-about papa&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“My darling,” said. ’Lizabeth, “blessings on your bonnie face! but I
-dare not stay. Some time&mdash;soon, if it’s God’s will, you’ll hear all the
-like of you could understand, and you’ll get him back to enjoy his own.
-God bless my bairn that would give me her own seat, and think no shame
-of old ’Lizabeth! That’s like my Lily,” the old woman said, with ready
-tears. “But listen, honey, for this is what I came to say. You must tell
-the lady to send and bring back the little boy. The bairn is in trouble.
-I cannot tell you what kind of trouble, but she must send and bring him
-back. My honey, do you hear what I say?”</p>
-
-<p>“The little boy, and the lady?” said Lilias, wondering; then she
-exclaimed suddenly with a cry of pain, “Nello! my little brother!” and
-in her eagerness caught ’Lizabeth’s hands and drew her down upon the
-seat.</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, just your little brother, my honeysweet. My lad is away that would
-go and look after him, so you must tell the lady. No, no, I must not
-stay. The time will maybe come. But tell the lady, my darling. The
-little boy has need of her, or of you. He is too little a bairn to be
-away among strangers. I cannot think upon his name&mdash;nor I cannot think,”
-said ’Lizabeth, with a gleam of grandmotherly disapproval, “what my Lily
-could be thinking of to give a little lad such an outlandish name. But
-tell the lady to send and bring him home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I will go, I will go directly. Wait till I tell you what Mary
-says,” cried Lilias; and without pausing a moment, she rushed through
-the hall, her hair flying behind her, her face flushed with eagerness.
-The old woman stood for a moment looking after her with a smile;
-listening to the sound of the doors which swung behind the child in her
-rapid course through the passages which led to the inhabited part of the
-house. ’Lizabeth stood stately yet rustic in her grey cloak, with her
-hands folded, and looked after Lilias with a tender smile on her face.
-She had nothing left to be proud of, she so proud by nature, and to whom
-it was the essence of life to have something<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_313" id="page_313">{313}</a></span> belonging to her in which
-she could glory. ’Lizabeth’s pride had been broken down with many a
-blow, but it sprang up again vigorous as ever on the small argument of
-this child. Her beauty, her childish refinement and ladyhood, gave the
-old woman a pleasure more exquisite perhaps than any she had ever felt
-in her life. There was little in her lot now to give her pleasure. Her
-daughter was dead, her days full of the hideous charge which she had
-concealed for so many years from all the world; and she was old,
-approaching the end of all things, with nothing better to hope for than
-that death might release her unfortunate son before herself. At this
-moment even a worse terror and misery was upon her; yet as she stood
-there, looking after the little princess who was of her blood, her
-representative, yet so much above anything that had ever belonged to
-’Lizabeth, there was a glow through all her veins, more warm, more sweet
-than any she had ever felt in her life. Pride, and love, and delight
-swelled in her. Her child’s child&mdash;heir of her face, her voice, all the
-little traits of attitude and gesture, which mark individuality&mdash;and yet
-the young lady of the Castle, born to a life so different from hers. She
-stood so, gazing after Lilias till the sound of her feet and the door,
-closing behind her, had died away. Her heart was so full that she turned
-to Martuccia sitting motionless behind with her knitting. “Oh, that her
-life may be as sweet as her face!” she said involuntarily. Martuccia
-turned upon her with a smile, but shook her head and said, “Not speak
-Inglese.” The sound of the voice called ’Lizabeth to herself. The smile
-faded from her face. Little had she to smile for, less than ever at this
-moment. She sighed, coming to herself, and turned and walked away.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias ran against Mary as she entered the house at Eastwood’s call.
-“Oh!” she cried, breathless, “Nello! will you send for Nello? Oh, Mary,
-he is in trouble, the old woman says&mdash;he is ill, or he is unhappy, or I
-cannot tell you what it is. Will you send for him, will you send for
-him, Mary? What shall I do? for papa will think it was my fault. Oh,
-Mary, Mary, send for my Nello! Wait a moment, only wait a moment, and
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_314" id="page_314">{314}</a></span>hear what the old woman says&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Speak to her, Mr. Pen,” said Mary; “I cannot stay.” She was going to
-her father, who must, she felt sure, want her more urgently than Lilias
-could. Even then it went to Mary’s heart to neglect the child’s appeal.
-“Mr. Pen will hear all about it, Lilias,” she said, as she hastened
-upstairs. But Mr. Pen paid very little attention to what Lilias said.</p>
-
-<p>“An old woman! What old woman? My dear child, you cannot expect us at
-such a moment as this&mdash;” said the Vicar. He was walking up and down the
-library with his ears open to every sound, expecting to be called to the
-Squire’s bedside, feeling in his pocket for his prayer-book. For it
-seemed to Mr. Pen that the hasty summons could mean only one thing. It
-must be death that had come&mdash;and it would be a happy release&mdash;what else
-could any one say? But death, even when it is a happy release, is a
-serious visitor to come into a house. He has to be received with due
-preparation, like the potentate he is. Not without services of solemn
-meaning, attendants kneeling round the solemn bedside, the commendatory
-prayer rising from authorised lips&mdash;not without these formulas should
-the destroying angel be received into a Christian house. He was ready
-for his part, and waiting to be called; and to be interrupted at such a
-moment by tales of an old woman, by the grumblings of a fretful child
-sent to school against his will&mdash;even the gentle Mr. Pen rebelled. He
-would not hear what Lilias said. “Your grandfather is very ill, my
-dear,” he told her solemnly, “very ill. In an hour or so you may have no
-grandfather, Lilias; he is going to appear in the presence of God&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Is he afraid of God, Mr. Pen?” asked Lilias with solemn eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Afraid!&mdash;you&mdash;you do not understand. It is a solemn thing&mdash;a very
-solemn thing,” said the Vicar, “to go into God’s presence! to stand
-before Him and answer&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” cried the little girl, interrupting him, “Nello is far worse, far
-worse. Would God do him any harm, Mr. Pen? But cruel people might do a
-little boy a great deal of harm. God is what takes care of us. The old
-gentleman will be safe, quite safe there; but my Nello! he is so little,
-and he never was away from me before. <i>I</i> always took care of him
-before. I said you were not to send him away, but you would not pay any
-attention. Oh, my Nello, my Nello, Mr. Pen!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_315" id="page_315">{315}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush, Lilias, you do not know what you are speaking of. What can
-Nello’s troubles be? Perhaps the people will not pet him as he has been
-petted; that will do him no harm whatever&mdash;it will be better for him. My
-dear, you are too little to know. Hush, and let me listen. I must be
-ready when I am called for. Nothing that can happen to Nello can be of
-so much importance as this is now.”</p>
-
-<p>And the Vicar went to the door to look out and listen. Lilias followed
-him with her anxious eyes. She was awed, but she was not afraid for the
-old gentleman. Would God hurt him? but anybody that was strong could
-hurt Nello. She made one more appeal when the Vicar had returned,
-hearing nothing and leaving the door ajar.</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Pen! oh, please, please, think of Nello a little! What am I to do?
-Papa said, ‘Lily, I trust him to you&mdash;you are to take care of him.’ What
-shall I say to papa if he comes home and asks me, ‘Where is my little
-Nello?’ Papa may come any day. That is his way, he never writes to tell
-us, but when he can, he comes. He might come to-day,” cried Lilias. “Mr.
-Pen, oh, send somebody for Nello. Will you not listen to me? What should
-I say to papa if he came home to-day?”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear little Lilias,” said Mr. Pen, shaking his head mournfully,
-“your papa will not come to-day. Heaven knows if he will ever be able to
-come. You must not think it is such an easy matter. There are things
-which make it very difficult for him to come home; things of which you
-don’t know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Lilias eagerly, “about the man who was killed; but papa did
-not do it, Mr. Pen.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pen shook his head again. “Who has told the child?” he said. “I hope
-not&mdash;I hope not, Lilias; but that is what nobody knows.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she cried, “Mr. Geoff knows; he told me. He says it was another
-man, and that papa went away to save him. Mr. Pen, papa may come any
-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who is Mr. Geoff?” said the Vicar; but he did not pay any attention to
-what the child was saying. There seemed to be a sound on the stairs of
-some one coming down. “Oh, run away,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_316" id="page_316">{316}</a></span> my dear! run away! Run and play,
-or do whatever you like. I have not time to attend to you now.”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias did not say a word more, or even look at him again, but walked
-away with a stately tread, not condescending even to turn her head
-towards him. In this solemn way she went back to the hall, expecting to
-find ’Lizabeth; but when she found that even the old woman was gone, in
-whom she put a certain trust as the one person who knew everything,
-Lilias had a moment of black despair. What was she to do? She stood and
-gazed out into vacancy&mdash;her eyes intent, her mind passionately at work.
-It was to her after all, and not to Mary, that Nello had been intrusted,
-and if nobody would think of him, or attend to him, it was she who must
-interfere for her brother. She stood for a minute or two fixed&mdash;then
-turned hastily, paying no attention to Martuccia, and went to her room.
-Lilias, too, had a sovereign, which Mary had given her, and something
-more besides. She took her money out of its repository, and put on her
-hat and jacket. A great resolution was in her face. She had seen at last
-what was the only thing to do.</p>
-
-<p>“I think, ma’am, there is a change,” the nurse said, as Mary noiselessly
-but swiftly, as long nursing teaches women to move, came into the room.
-The nurse was an experienced person. When Miss Brown, and even Mary
-herself, had seen “a change,” or fancied they had seen it, before, nurse
-had never said so. It was the first time she had called any one to the
-Squire’s room, or made the slightest movement of alarm. She led the way
-now to the bedside. The patient was lying in much the same attitude as
-before, but he was moving his hands restlessly, his lips were moving,
-and his head on the pillow. “He is saying something, but I cannot make
-out what it is,” the nurse said. Mary put her ear close to the
-inarticulate mouth. How dreadful was that living prison of
-flesh!&mdash;living, yet dead&mdash;the spirit pent up and denied all its usual
-modes of utterance. Mary wrung her hands with a sense of the intolerable
-as she tried in vain to distinguish the words, which seemed to be
-repeated over and over again, though they could make nothing of them.
-“Cannot you help us?&mdash;can you make it out? Is there nothing we can do?”
-she cried; “no cordial to give him strength?” but the nurse could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_317" id="page_317">{317}</a></span> only
-shake her head, and the doctor when he came was equally helpless. He
-told Mary it was a sign of returning consciousness&mdash;which, indeed, was
-evident enough&mdash;but could not even say whether this promised for or
-against recovery. The nurse, it was clear, did not think it a good sign.
-He might even recover his speech <i>at the end</i>, she said. And hours
-passed while they waited, watching closely lest any faint beginning of
-sound should struggle through. The whole night was passed in this way.
-Mary never left the bedside. It was not that he could say anything of
-great importance to any one but himself. The Squire was helpless as
-respected his estate. It was entailed, and went to his eldest son,
-whether he liked it or not; and his will was made long ago, and all his
-affairs settled. What he had to say could not much affect any one; but
-of all pitiful sights, it seemed to his daughter the most pitiful, to
-see this old man, always so entirely master of himself, trying to make
-some communication which all their anxiety could not decipher. Could he
-be himself aware of how it was that no response was made to him?&mdash;could
-he realise the horror of the position?&mdash;something urgent to say, and no
-way of getting to the ears of those concerned, notwithstanding their
-most anxious attention? “No, no,” the nurse said; “he’s all in a maze;
-he maybe don’t even know what he’s saying;” and the constant movement
-and evident repetition gave favour to this idea. Mary stood by him, and
-looked at him, however, with a pain as great as if he had been
-consciously labouring on one side to express himself as she was on the
-other to understand him, instead of lying, as was most probable, in a
-feverish dream, through which some broken gleam of fancy or memory
-struggled. When the chilly dawn broke upon the long night, that
-dreariest and coldest moment of a vigil, worn out with the long strain,
-she dropped asleep in the chair by her father’s bedside. But when she
-woke hurriedly, a short time after, while yet it was scarcely full day,
-the nurse was standing by her with a hand upon her shoulder. The woman
-had grasped at her to wake her. “Listen, ma’am! he says&mdash;‘the little
-boy,’<span class="lftspc">”</span> she said; Mary sprang up, shaking off her drowsiness in a moment.
-The old man’s face had recovered a little intelligence&mdash;a faint flush
-seemed to waver about his ashy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_318" id="page_318">{318}</a></span> cheeks. It was some time before, even
-now, she could make any meaning out of the babble that came from his
-lips. Then by degrees she gleaned, now one word, now another. “Little
-boy&mdash;little Johnny; bring the little boy.” She could scarcely imagine
-even now that there was meaning in the desire. Most likely it was but
-some pale reflection, through the dim awakening of the old man’s mind,
-of the last idea that was in it. It went on, however, in one long strain
-of mumbled repetition&mdash;“Little Johnny&mdash;little boy.” There seemed nothing
-else in his mind to say. The nurse laid her hand once more on Mary’s
-arm, as she stood by her, listening. “If you can humour the poor
-gentleman, ma’am, you ought to do it,” said the woman. She was a
-stranger, and did not know the story of the house.</p>
-
-<p>What could Mary do? She sent out one of the servants to call Mr. Pen,
-who had stayed late on the previous night, always holding his book open
-with his finger at the place, but who got up now obedient at her
-summons, though his wife had not meant to let him be disturbed for
-hours. Then the feeble demand went on so continuously, that Mary in
-despair sent Miss Brown for Lilias, vaguely hoping that the presence of
-the one child, if not the other, might perhaps be of some use in the dim
-state of semi-consciousness in which her father seemed to be. Miss Brown
-went with hesitation and a doubtful look, which Mary was too much
-occupied to notice, but came back immediately to say that Miss Lilias
-had got up early and gone out. “Gone out!” Mary said, surprised; but she
-had no leisure to be disturbed about anything, her whole mind being
-pre-occupied. She went downstairs to Mr. Pen when he came. He had his
-prayer-book all ready. To dismiss the departing soul with all its
-credentials, with every solemnity that became such a departure, was what
-he thought of. He was altogether taken by surprise by Mary’s hasty
-address&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Pen, you must go at once and bring Nello. I cannot send a servant.
-He would not, perhaps, be allowed to come. If you will go, you can fetch
-him at once&mdash;to-morrow early.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Miss Mary&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t say anything against it, Mr. Pen. He is asking for the little
-boy, the little boy! Nello must come, and come<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_319" id="page_319">{319}</a></span> directly. You would not
-cross him in perhaps the last thing he may ever ask for?” cried Mary,
-the tears of agitation and weariness coming in a sudden gush from her
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Let me send for your brother,” said the Vicar. “Let me send for
-Randolph. He will know best what to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph! what has he to do with it?” she cried. “Oh go, Mr. Pen; do
-not vex me now.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will go.” Mr. Pen closed his book with regret and put it into his
-pocket. He did not like the idea that the old Squire should depart out
-of the world like any common man, uncared for. After his long connection
-with the family, that such a thing should happen without him! Mr.
-Musgrave had not perhaps been so regardful as was to be desired of all
-the services of the Church, and Mr. Pen was all the more anxious, now
-that he could have everything his own way, that all should be done in
-order. But how could he resist Mary’s will and wish? He put his book in
-his pocket with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“I will do what you wish, Miss Mary; but&mdash;it is a journey of many
-hours&mdash;and trains may not suit. Do you think he will&mdash;go on&mdash;so long?”</p>
-
-<p>“He is asking for the little boy,” said Mary, hastily. “Come and see
-him, and it will go to your heart. How can I tell you any more? We do
-not know even whether he is to live or to die.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, you must not cherish false hopes,” said the Vicar, as he followed
-her upstairs. The servants were peeping on the staircase and at the
-doors; they were half disappointed, like Mr. Pen, that the “change” was
-not more decided. They had hoped that all was nearly over at last.</p>
-
-<p>The darkened room, where the night-light was still burning though full
-day broke in muffled through the half-shuttered windows, was of itself
-very impressive to Mr. Pen, coming out of the fresh fulness of the
-morning light. He followed Mary, going elaborately on tiptoe round the
-foot of the great heavily-curtained bed. The Squire’s head had been
-propped up a little. He had become even a little more conscious since
-Mary had left him. But his voice was so babbling and inarticulate that
-Mr. Pen, unused to it, and deeply touched by the condition in which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_320" id="page_320">{320}</a></span> he
-saw his old friend and patron, could not make out the words&mdash;“Bring the
-little boy&mdash;the little boy, not Randolph&mdash;little Johnny: bring the
-little boy.” Thus he went murmuring on, and there had gradually come a
-kind of wish into the face, and a kind of consciousness of their
-presence. “I wanted to bring Lilias, but Lilias they tell me has gone
-out; I cannot tell where she can have gone,” Mary whispered. “And he
-never took any notice of Lilias&mdash;it is the boy he wants&mdash;listen, Mr.
-Pen, always the boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot make anything of it,” said Mr. Pen, moved to tears.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh listen! He says, ‘Not Randolph, the boy!’ It is the boy he wants.
-Look! I almost think he knows you. Oh, what is it he wants?” cried Mary.</p>
-
-<p>The light which had been so nearly extinguished was leaping up in the
-socket. A sudden convulsion seemed to run over the old man’s frame: he
-made an effort to raise himself. His ashen face grew red, perspiration
-burst out upon his forehead. Ghost-like and rigid as he was, he moved
-himself upward as if to get from his bed. The nurse had put herself
-quietly at her post on one side and she called to Mary to go to the
-other, while poor Mr. Pen stood by helpless, as if he were assisting at
-a visible resurrection. “Don’t get excited, ma’am,” the nurse said
-steadily; “one moment! I hear the doctor coming upstairs.”</p>
-
-<p>The steady tread of some one approaching reassured the women as they
-half aided, half controlled, the spasmodic force of apparent recovery.
-The foot came nearer and nearer, thank God. The door opened and some one
-came in.</p>
-
-<p>It was not the doctor. It was a tall man with light hair mingled with
-grey and a fair complexion turned brown. He came straight into the room
-like one familiar with the place. Miss Brown, who stood near the door,
-recoiled with a quivering cry, and Mr. Pen, whom he encountered next,
-fell back with the same quaver of consternation in his voice. He went to
-where Mary stood, who alone had not looked at him, her eyes being intent
-on her father’s face. He put her aside tenderly, taking her place. “This
-is my work as much as yours,” he said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_321" id="page_321">{321}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXII" id="CHAPTER_XXXII"></a>CHAPTER XXXII.<br /><br />
-<small>NELLO’S RESCUE.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> house was very still in the afternoon languor&mdash;all its life
-suspended. Between the sick-room, in which all the interest of the
-family existence was absorbed, and the servants’ part of the house, in
-which life went on cheerfully enough under all circumstances, but
-without any intrusion into the still world above-stairs, there was
-nothing going on. Little Lilias went up into her own room, and down all
-the long staircases and passages, without meeting or seeing any one.
-Martuccia was in the old hall, tranquilly knitting and waiting for her
-young lady’s return; but the house was empty of all sound or presence,
-nobody visible. It was like the enchanted palace through which the young
-prince walks, meeting no one, until he reaches the one chamber in which
-the secret lies. This idea passed through the mind of Lilias,
-pre-occupied as she was. Any one might come in&mdash;might pass from room to
-room, finding all deserted, until he had penetrated to the dim centre of
-the family life where death was hovering. She went down the oak
-staircase with her light foot, a little tremulous, but inspired with
-resolution. It was the afternoon of Nello’s last day at school. He had
-not quite made up his mind, or been driven by childish misery, to the
-determination of running away when his sister set out to succour him.
-Had he waited, Lilias no doubt would have arrived in time to introduce a
-new element into the matter; but what could the little girl’s arrival
-have effected? Who would have given any importance to that? They would
-have taken Lilias in, and made a little prisoner of her, and sent her
-back. As it was, neither knew anything of what the other was doing.
-Lilias had opened her most secret place, a little old-fashioned wooden
-box, in which she kept some special relics, little trinkets, half toys,
-half ornaments, which she had brought with her, and the remains of the
-money which her father had given her when he sent the little party away.
-There had been something over when they arrived, and Lilias had guarded
-it carefully. She took it out now, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_322" id="page_322">{322}</a></span> put the purse containing it
-within the bodice of her dress&mdash;the safest place. It might be wanted for
-Nello. He had the best right to everything; and if he was in trouble&mdash;&mdash;
-Lilias did not try to think what kind of trouble the little boy could be
-in. She took her little store, and went away with her heart beating
-high. This time she would herself do it; she would not trust to any one.
-Mr. Geoff had undertaken to deliver her father, and stopped her; but he
-had not done it. Already a long time had elapsed, and nothing had
-happened. She would not trust to Mr. Geoff or any one this time. If old
-’Lizabeth had not gone away before Lilias returned to the hall, she had
-thoughts of asking the old woman to go with her; and even a weak
-inclination to take Martuccia as a companion and support had crossed her
-mind. Martuccia would have been useless, but she would have made all the
-difference between a feasible expedition and an impossible one; but
-perhaps it was for this very reason that Lilias rejected the idea. No;
-this time she would be kept back by no advice. She would go to Nello’s
-aid by herself. He should owe his deliverance to no one but his sister.
-Who could understand him so well&mdash;know so well what he must want? And it
-was to her that papa had intrusted Nello. She made dismal pictures to
-herself of her little brother in trouble. What could “in trouble” mean?
-She thought of him as out in the cold, out in the rain, crying, with no
-place to go to; lost in a strange country, or perhaps ill with a fever,
-and nobody to sit by him, nobody to give him a drink when he wanted it,
-and tell him stories. What other kind of trouble was possible? That he
-might not be able to learn his lessons without her to help him, and that
-he might perhaps be whipped&mdash;could such an atrocity be?&mdash;just gleamed
-across the child’s thoughts; but it made her heart beat so with rage and
-indignation, and her cheeks burn with such a flush, that she thrust the
-idea aside; but so long as he was unhappy, so long as he wanted her, was
-not that enough? She buttoned her little coat with a stout but trembling
-heart, and took a shawl over her arm (was not that how travellers always
-provided themselves?) and, with her sovereign in her hand for immediate
-expenditure, and her purse in her bosom, went down the silent stairs.
-How still, how deserted it seemed! Mr. Pen came out<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_323" id="page_323">{323}</a></span> from the library
-door when he heard the step, to see who it was, but took no notice of
-her except a momentary glance of disappointment. Thus she went out of
-the house brave and resolute, yet with a tremor of the unknown in her
-breast.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias knew what to do: to walk to Pennington, where the railway station
-was, and then to take a ticket, and to get into a railway carriage. The
-walk along the highroad was long, but it was not so overwhelming as that
-early expedition she had made all alone up into the hills when she had
-met Geoff. How glad she had been to meet him, and to hear from him that
-she need go no further! Lilias had not ceased to believe in Mr. Geoff,
-but nothing had been done, and her heart was sick of the waiting. She
-did not want to meet him now; her little heart gave a jump when she saw
-any one riding towards her; but it was certain she did not want to meet
-Geoff, to have her mission again taken out of her hands. Nothing was
-more likely than that she should meet him, and her eyes travelled along
-the dusty line of road, somewhat wistfully looking out&mdash;in hopes not to
-see him&mdash;which much resembled the hope of seeing him, though it was
-differently expressed. And now and then a cloud of dust would rise&mdash;now
-and then a horseman would appear far off, skimming lightly over the long
-line of road, which it took Lilias so much time to get over. Once a
-beautiful carriage dashed past her, with the beautiful lady in it whom
-she had once seen, and who had kissed and cried over Nello without
-taking much notice of Lilias. Could it be that the beautiful lady had
-heard too that he was in trouble? Lilias mended her pace and pushed on.
-What fancies she met with as she plodded along the road! It was a long
-dusty highway, running for a little while in sight of the lake, then
-turning through the village, then striking across the country up and
-down, as even a highroad is obliged to do in the north country, where
-there is nothing but heights and hollows. It seemed to stretch into
-infinity before Lilias, mounting one brae after another, showing in a
-long level line here and there; appearing on the other side of that
-clump of trees, beyond that far-off farmhouse, looking as if it led
-without pause back to the end of the world. Lilias wove one dream after
-another as she went along from landmark to landmark. How vivid they
-were! So real, that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_324" id="page_324">{324}</a></span> the child seemed to enact every scene in them as
-they floated through her mind; far more real than the actual events of
-her life. She saw herself arriving at a great spacious place, which was
-Nello’s school&mdash;undefined, yet lofty and wide and splendid, with marble
-pillars, and great colonnades and halls. She saw people coming to gaze
-and wonder at the little girl&mdash;the little wandering princess&mdash;who had
-come to seek her brother. “The girl looked at them all, and said, ‘Take
-me to Nello.’ The girl turned round upon them, and her lip curled with
-scorn.” (Lilias suited the action to the word; and her innocent lip did
-curl, with what version of fine disdain it could execute.) “What did she
-care for all they could do for her? ‘It is my brother I want,’ she
-said.” This was how she carried on her parable. Perhaps her own little
-figure was too much in the front of all these visions. Perhaps her own
-fine indifference to all blandishments and devotion to Nello was the
-chief principle made apparent. This was how it ran on, however,
-accompanying and shortening the way. She made long dialogues between
-herself and the master, between herself and Nello. How he clung to her;
-how glad he was that she had come. “It is Lily; I knew Lily would come,”
-she made him say. He would not be surprised; he would know that this was
-the most natural thing. If they had locked her up in prison to keep her
-away from him, what would it have mattered? Lilias would have found a
-way to go to him when Nello was in trouble; and Nello knew that as well
-as she.</p>
-
-<p>She was very tired, however, and it was dark when she arrived at
-Pennington. Lilias put on her grand air, but it was rather difficult to
-impose upon the station-master and porters. They all wanted to be very
-kind, to take care of her, and arrange everything for the little
-traveller. The station-master called her “my dear,” and wanted Lilias to
-go to his house, where his wife would take care of her till the morning.
-“You are too little to travel by the night train,” he said; and the
-porters were eloquent on the wickedness of sending a little lady like
-this by herself. “I am going to my brother, who is ill,” Lilias said,
-with dignity. “And have you no mamma to go to him, my little miss?” said
-the porter, friendly, yet respectful. They were all very kind. No one
-knew her, and they asked many questions to find out<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_325" id="page_325">{325}</a></span> who she was. They
-said to each other it was well seen she had no mother, and made Lilias’s
-heart swell so, that she forgave them for treating her as a child,
-rather than as the little princess she had dreamed of being. Finally,
-they arranged for her that she should travel to the great junction where
-Nello had met Bampfylde at once&mdash;and that the guard should take care of
-her, and put her in the night train, which arrived at a very early hour
-in the morning at the station she wanted to go to. All this was arranged
-for her with the kindest care by these rough men. They installed her in
-the little waiting-room till the train should go. They came and fetched
-her when it was going, and placed her in her corner. “Poor little lady!”
-they said. Lilias was half-humiliated, half-pleased by all these
-attentions. She submitted to them, not able to be anything but grateful
-to the men who were so kind to her, yet feeling uneasily that it was not
-in this homely way that she meant them to be kind. They did not look up
-to her, but looked down upon her with compassionate tenderness, as upon
-a motherless little girl&mdash;a child who recalled children of their own.
-Just so the good woman looked upon her who got into the train along with
-her. “All that way, and all alone, my poor little thing?” the woman
-said. It hurt Lilias’s pride to be called a poor little thing, but yet
-it was pleasant to have some one to creep close to. The world did not
-seem to be as it is represented in books, for nobody was unkind. Lilias
-was very glad to sit close to her new acquaintance, feeling comfort
-unspeakable in the breadth of the honest shoulder against which she
-leant as she travelled on in the dark. Those breadths of country which
-Nello had watched flying past the window were almost invisible now. Now
-and then a darker gloom in the air showed where the hills were high over
-the railway in a deep cutting. Sometimes there would be gleams of light
-visible here and there, which showed a village. Her companion dropped
-into a doze, but Lilias, leaning against her, was far too much excited
-for sleep. She watched the moon come out and shine over the breadth of
-country, reflecting itself in the little streams, and turning the houses
-to silver. It was late then, quite late, for the moon was on the wane.
-And the train was slow, stopping at every station, creeping (though
-when<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_326" id="page_326">{326}</a></span> it was in motion it seemed to fly) across the plains and valleys.
-It was midnight when they got to the junction, and Lilias, with her
-great eyes more wide awake than ever, was handed out. There were only a
-few lights burning, and the place looked miserable and deserted, the
-cold wind sweeping through it, and the two or three people who got out,
-and the two porters who received them, looking like ghosts in the
-imperfect light. The guard, who lived there, was very kind to the little
-girl before he went off to his house. He wanted to take her with him to
-make her comfortable till the morning, but Lilias could not be persuaded
-to wait. At last he established her in a corner, the least chilly
-possible, wrapping her shawl round her feet.</p>
-
-<p>There she was left alone, with one lamp to bear her company, the long
-lines running into darkness at either side of her, blackness taking
-refuge in the high roof of the station, above the watchlight of that one
-lamp. How strange it was to sit all alone, with the chill of the air and
-gloom of midnight all around her! Nobody was stirring in the deserted
-place. The one porter had withdrawn to some warm refuge, to re-appear
-when the train came. But little Lilias sat alone in her corner, sole
-inhabitant of the big, chilly, desolate place. How her heart jumped to
-her mouth! What tremors and terrors at first every sigh of the wind,
-every creak of the lamp, gave her. But at last she perceived that
-nothing was going to happen, and sat still, and did not trouble except
-when imagination suggested to her a stealthy step, or some one behind in
-the darkness. How dreary it was! The night wind sang a dismal cadence in
-the telegraph wires, the air coursed over the deserted platforms, the
-dark lines of way, and blew the flames of gas about even within the
-inclosure of the lamp. Just then Nello was creeping, stumbling, out of
-the window, making his way through the prickling hedge, standing alone
-eyeing the moon in the potato-field. Lilias could not even see the moon
-in her corner. Nothing was before her but the waning gleam of that
-solitary lamp.</p>
-
-<p>At last the train came lumbering up through the darkness, and the
-porters re-appeared from corners where they had been attendant. One of
-them came, for Lily, kind as everybody had been, and put her into a
-carriage by herself, and showed her how she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_327" id="page_327">{327}</a></span> could lie down and make
-herself comfortable. “You’ll be there at five o’clock,” the porter said.
-“Lie down, little miss, and get a sleep.” Never in her life had Lilias
-been more wide awake, and there was no kind woman here with broad
-shoulders to lean upon and feel safe. The train swept through the night
-while she sat upright and gazed out with big, round, unslumbering eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias watched and waked through the night, counting out the hours of
-darkness, saying her prayers over and over, feeling herself lost in the
-long whirl of distance and gloom and confusing sound; but as the night
-began to tremble towards the dawning, she began to doze unawares, her
-eyes closing in spite of herself, and much against her will; and it was
-with a shiver that she woke up very wide awake, but feeling wretched, in
-consequence of her doze, at the little roadside station, one small house
-placed on the edge of a wide expanse of fields, chiefly pasture land,
-and with no character at all. A great belt of wood stretched to the
-right hand, to the left there was nothing but fields, and a long endless
-road dividing them, visible for miles with a little turn in it here and
-there, but nothing beside to break its monotony. Lilias clambered out of
-the carriage when she felt the jar and clang of the stoppage, and heard
-the name of the station drowsily called out. The man in charge of it
-gazed at her as though she had dropped from the clouds; he did not even
-see her till the train was in motion again, creaking and swinging away
-into the distance. To see her standing there with her great eyes gave
-him a thrill of strange sensation, almost of terror. Fatigue and
-excitement had made her face paler than usual, and had drawn great
-circles round her eyes. She looked like a ghost standing there in the
-faint grey of the dawn, cold and trembling, yet courageous as ever. “Mr.
-Swan’s? Oh yes, I can tell you the way to Mr. Swan’s; but you should
-have spoken sooner. They’ve been and carried off your luggage.” Lilias
-had not strength of mind to confess that she had no luggage, and indeed
-was too much confused and upset by her snatch of sleep to be sure what
-he was saying, and stumbled forth on the road, when he showed her how to
-go, half-dazed, and scarcely more than half-conscious. But the pinch of
-the keen morning air, and the sensation of strange stillness and
-loneliness, soon restored her to the use of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_328" id="page_328">{328}</a></span> her faculties. The
-benevolent railway man was loth to let her go. “It’s very early, and
-you’re very small,” he said. “You’re welcome to wait here, my little
-lady, till they send for you. Perhaps they did not expect you so early?”
-“Oh, it does not matter,” said Lilias. “Thank you; I am quite able to
-walk.” The man stood and watched her as she made her way in the faint
-light along the road. He dared not leave his post, or he would have gone
-with her out of sheer compassion. So young, and with such a pale little
-beautiful face, and all alone at such an hour of the morning, while it
-was still night! “It will be one of them boyses sisters,” he said to
-himself with singular discrimination. And then he recollected the pale
-little boy who had gone to Mr. Swan’s so short a time before. This gave
-clue to the mysterious little passenger, which set his mind at rest.</p>
-
-<p>And Lilias went on along the darkling road. It was not possible to
-mistake the road&mdash;a long white streak upon the landscape, which was
-visible even in the dark; and it was not altogether dark now, but a
-ghostly, damp, autumnal glimmer of morning, before the sun-rising. The
-hedges had mists of gossamer over them, which would shine like rainbow
-webs when the sun rose. The fields glimmered colourless still, but
-growing every moment more perceptible in the chill dreariness of the
-season&mdash;not cold enough for frost, yet very cold. Everything was grey,
-the few shivering half-grown trees in the hedgerows, the sky all banked
-with clouds, the face of the half-seen landscape. There was one cottage
-by the roadside, and that was grey too, all shut up and asleep, the door
-closed, the windows all black. Little Lilias, the one moving atom in
-that great still landscape, felt afraid of it, and of herself, and the
-sound of her own steps, which seemed loud enough to wake a whole world
-of people. It seemed to Lilias that the kindly earth was dead, and she
-alone a little ghost, walking about its grave. None of her dreams, none
-of the poetry, nor anything out of her fairy lore could help her here.
-The reality was more than any dream. How still!&mdash;how very still it
-was!&mdash;how dark! and yet with that weird lightening which grew about her,
-making everything more visible moment by moment, as if by some strange
-magical clearing of her own tired eyes! She was so tired, so worn out;
-faint for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_329" id="page_329">{329}</a></span> want of food, though she was not hungry&mdash;and for want of
-rest, though she did not wish to go to sleep. Such an atom in all that
-great grey insensible universe, and yet the only thing alive!</p>
-
-<p>No&mdash;not the only thing. Lilias’ heart contracted with a thrill, first of
-relief, then of fear, when she saw something else moving besides
-herself. It was in one of the great fields that stretched colourless and
-vast towards the horizon. Lilias could not tell what it was. It might be
-a spirit; it might be an enchanted creature bound by some spell to stay
-there among the ploughed furrows; it might be some mysterious wild
-beast, the legendary monster, of whose existence children are always
-ready to be convinced. She concealed herself behind a bush, and looked
-anxiously down the long brown furrow. It was something very little&mdash;not
-so big as a man&mdash;smaller even than herself; something that toiled along
-with difficulty, stumbling sometimes, and falling in the soft earth. By
-and by a faint breath of sound began to steal towards her&mdash;very faint,
-yet carried far on the absolute stillness of the morning. Some one who
-was in trouble&mdash;some one who was <i>crying</i>. Lilias’ bosom began to swell.
-She was very tired and confused herself; very lonely and frightened of
-the dead world, and of her own forlorn livingness in it. But the sound
-of the feeble crying brought her back to herself. Did she divine already
-who it was? She scrambled through a gap in the hedge, jumped across the
-ditch, and plunged too into the yielding, heavy soil of the ploughed
-furrow. She was not surprised. There did not seem to be anything
-wonderful in meeting her brother so. Had she not been sent to him
-because he was in trouble? It was natural that he should be here in the
-cold, dim morning, in the wild field, toiling along towards her, faintly
-crying in the last confusion and misery of childish weariness, his way
-lost, and his courage lost, and all his little bewildered faculties. She
-called out “Nello!”&mdash;cautiously, lest any one should hear&mdash;“Nello!” and
-then there was an outcry of amazement and joy&mdash;“Oh, Lily!” It was a
-half-shriek of incredulous happiness with which poor Nello, toiling
-through the field, weary, lost, forlorn, and afraid, heard the familiar
-sound of her voice. He was not so much surprised either. He did not
-think it was impossible,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_330" id="page_330">{330}</a></span> though nothing could have been more impossible
-to an elder mind. Children hold no such reckonings as we do with
-probability. He had been saying, “Oh, Lily! my Lily!” to himself&mdash;crying
-for her&mdash;and here she was! He had no doubt of it, made no question how
-she got there, but threw himself upon her with a great cry that thrilled
-the dim morning through and through, and made the sleep-bound world
-alive.</p>
-
-<p>And they sat down together in the furrow, and clung to each other, and
-cried&mdash;for misery, but for happiness too. All seemed safe now they had
-found each other. The two forlorn creatures, after their sleepless,
-wintry night, felt a sudden beatitude creep over their little weary
-bodies and aching hearts. Two&mdash;how different that is from one! They held
-each other fast, and kissed, and were happy in the dark furrow, which
-seemed big enough and dark enough to furnish them both with a grave.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXIII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE BABES IN THE WOOD.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">“Are</span> you very hungry, Nello?’</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, very, <i>very</i>. Are you? I have not had any breakfast. It was night,
-dark night when I came away. Have you had any breakfast, Lily?”</p>
-
-<p>“How could I, when I have been in the railway all the night? Do you
-think you can get over the ditch? Jump! I jumped, and you always could
-jump better than I.”</p>
-
-<p>“You forget everything when you go to school,” said Nello, mournfully,
-“and I am all trembling, I cannot help it. It is so cold. Oh Lily, if
-they come up&mdash;if they find us&mdash;you will not let them take me back?”</p>
-
-<p>“Never, Nello! but let us get on, let us get on to the railway. Quick,
-it is not far off. If you would only jump. Now give me your hand. I am
-cold too, but we must get over it, we <i>must</i> get over it!” said Lilias,
-almost crying. Poor Nell<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_331" id="page_331">{331}</a></span>o’s limbs were cramped, he was chilled to the
-heart. He did not feel it possible to get on, all the courage was gone
-out of him. He had kept up until, after scrambling through many rough
-places, his poor little feet had sunk in that soft, newly-ploughed
-furrow. This had taken all the life out of him, and perhaps his meeting
-with Lilias, and the tumult of joyful emotion it caused, had not
-increased Nello’s power of endurance. He had always had the habit of
-trusting to her. But Lily it was quite certain could not drag him over
-the ditch. He made an effort at last to jump and failed, and stuck in
-the mud. That accident seemed at the moment to make an end of them both
-in their utter weariness. They mingled their tears, Lilias hanging on
-upon the bank above, Nello in the heavy soil below. The cry relieved
-them however, and by and by, by the help of his sister’s hand, he
-managed to scramble up the bank, and get through the scattered bushes on
-to the highroad. One of his feet was wet and clogged with the mud, and
-oh, how tired they both were, fit for nothing but to lie down and cry
-themselves to sleep.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Nello, if you were at home, should you ever&mdash;ever want to go away
-again?”</p>
-
-<p>Nello did not make any reply. He was too tired for anything but a dull
-little sob now and then, involuntary, the mere breathing of his
-weakness. And the highway looked so long, longer even than the fields.
-There was always some hope at the end of a field that deliverance might
-come round the corner, but a long unchangeable highway, how endless it
-was! They went on thus together for a little way in silence; then: “Oh,
-Lily, I am so hungry,” said Nello. What could she do? She was hungry
-too, more hungry than he was, for she had eaten nothing since the
-afternoon of the previous day.</p>
-
-<p>“I have a shilling in my pocket, but we cannot eat a shilling,” said
-poor Lilias.</p>
-
-<p>“And I have a shilling too&mdash;more than that&mdash;I have the golden sovereign
-Mary gave me.”</p>
-
-<p>“We must just hurry&mdash;hurry to the railway, Nello, for we cannot eat
-money, and the railway will soon take us home; or there is a place, a
-big station, where we could buy a cake.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_332" id="page_332">{332}</a></span> Oh!’ cried Lilias, with a gleam
-of eager satisfaction in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it, Lily?”</p>
-
-<p>“Look, only look?” She dragged him forward by the arm in her eagerness.
-“Oh, a few steps further, Nello&mdash;only a few steps further&mdash;look!”</p>
-
-<p>The roadside cottage which had been so blank as she passed had awoke&mdash;a
-woman stood by the door&mdash;but the thing that caught Lilias’ eye was a few
-stale cakes and opaque glasses with strange confectionery in them. It
-was these that gave strength to her wearied feet. She hurried forward,
-while the woman looked at the strange little pair in wonder. “Oh, will
-you give us a little breakfast,” she said, “a little milk to drink, and
-some bread and butter for this little boy?”</p>
-
-<p>“Where have you come from, you two children, at this hour in the
-morning?” cried the woman in consternation.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, we are going to the train,” said Lilias. “We are obliged to go; we
-must get the early train, and we don’t know, we don’t quite know when it
-goes; and my poor little brother has fallen into the mud&mdash;see! and&mdash;he
-got his breakfast so very early before he came away that he is hungry
-again. We have plenty of money,” cried the little girl, “plenty of
-money! We will give you a shilling if you will give us some milk and
-bread.”</p>
-
-<p>“A shilling&mdash;two, three shillings,” said Nello, interposing. He was so
-hungry; and what was the good of shillings?&mdash;you could not eat them. The
-woman looked at them suspiciously. They were not little tramps; they
-were nicely dressed children, though the little boy was so muddy. She
-did not see what harm it could do to take them in; likewise her heart
-was touched by the poor little things standing there looking up at her
-as though she was the arbiter of their fate.</p>
-
-<p>“You may come in and sit by the fire; there’s no train for two hours
-yet. It’s not six o’clock. Come in, you poor little things, and rest,
-and I’ll give you some nice hot tea. But you must tell me all the truth,
-for I know you’ve run away from somewhere,” she said.</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_333" id="page_333">{333}</a></span></p>
-<p>“No,” said Lilias, looking her in the face. “Oh no, I have not run away
-from anywhere. My little brother was not happy, and I came to fetch him,
-that is all. I did not run away.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what sort of people was it that sent a baby like you?” said the
-woman. “Come in, you poor little things, and sit by the fire. What could
-your mother be thinking of to send you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“We have not got any mother.” Nello took no share in this conversation.
-He was quite lost in the delight of the hard old settle that stood by
-the fire. Nestling up into the corner he thought he should like to fall
-asleep there, and never move any more. “We have not got any mother,”
-Lilias said, “and who could come but me? No one. I travelled all night,
-and now I am going to take him home. We are children without any
-mother.” Lilias could not but know that these words were a sure passport
-to any woman’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>“You poor little things!” the woman said, with the tears in her eyes.
-Whether it has its origin in the self-complacency of womankind, it is
-difficult to say, but whereas men are generally untouched by the
-unhappiness of being fatherless, women are without defence in most cases
-before a motherless child. Such a plea has instant recognition with high
-and low. No mother!&mdash;everything is pardoned, everything conceded to a
-creature with such a plea. She was not quite satisfied with the story,
-which seemed to her very improbable, but she could not refuse her
-succour to the motherless children. Her little shop, such as it was, had
-no visitors till much later in the day, when the village children went
-past her door to school. She had made her own tea, which stood keeping
-itself hot upon the hob, and she came in hastily and put out cups and
-saucers, and shared the hot and comfortable fluid, though it was very
-weak and would not have suited more fastidious palates than the
-children’s. What life it seemed to pour into their wearied little
-frames! The bread was coarse and stale, but it tasted like bread from
-heaven. Nello in his corner of the settle began to blink and nod. He was
-even falling asleep, when suddenly a gig rattled past the windows. The
-child sprang up in a moment. “Oh, Lily, Lily!” he cried in horror, “they
-are after me! what shall I do?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_334" id="page_334">{334}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>The woman had gone to the back of the house with the cups they had used,
-and so was not near to hear this revelation.</p>
-
-<p>“Who is it?” cried Lilias, peering out of the window. She was restored
-to herself, and the name of an enemy, a pursuer, put her on her mettle.
-She had never encountered such a thing before, but she knew everything
-about it, how to behave. “Come, Nello, come,” she said, “we will go out
-the back way while nobody is looking. Let us go away, let us go away
-before any one can come here.”</p>
-
-<p>Lilias seized some of the cakes which the woman had put in paper for
-them; wonderful productions, which nothing but a child’s appetite could
-contemplate, and put down two shillings in the centre of the table. On
-second thoughts it seemed better to her to go out at the front and get
-round under cover of the hedge to the wood on the other side of the
-station, which appeared temptingly near, rather than incur the risk of
-speaking to the woman. It did not occur to her that her own presence was
-enough to put any one completely off the scent who was seeking Nello.
-She got him away out of the house successfully, and through the gap
-behind the hedge where was a little footpath. “Now we must run&mdash;run! We
-must get past, while they are asking at the station. We must not say a
-word to the woman or any one. Oh, Nello, run&mdash;run!” Nello, still more
-anxious than she was, managed to run for a little way, but only for a
-little way. He broke down of all places in the world opposite to the
-station, where Mr. Swan was standing talking to the keeper. When Nello
-saw him through the hedge he turned round and clasped his sister
-convulsively, hiding his face on her shoulder. Lilias did not dare to
-say a word. They were hid from view, yet any movement might betray them,
-or any sound. She stood with trembling limbs, bearing Nello’s weight
-upon her shoulder, and watched through the hawthorn bush.</p>
-
-<p>“Nobody has been here, not a mouse, far less a little boy. The train is
-not due for two hours,” said the station-keeper.</p>
-
-<p>“A bit of a little fellow,” said Mr. Swan. “I can’t think he could have
-got so far; more likely he’s lying behind a hedge somewhere; but I
-thought it best to try first here.”</p>
-
-<p>“He’s not here,” the station-keeper said again. He answered<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_335" id="page_335">{335}</a></span> curtly, his
-sympathies being all with the fugitive, and he could not but give the
-troubled schoolmaster a corner of his mind. “It’s only a month since you
-lost the last one,” he said. “If it was my house the boys ran away from
-I should not like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Talk of things you know something of,” said Mr. Swan hotly; and then he
-added, shaking his head; “It is not my fault. My wife and I do
-everything we can, but it’s those rough boys and their practical jokes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Little fellows, they don’t seem to understand them kind of jokes,” said
-the railway man.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Swan shook his head. It was not his fault. He was sorry, and vexed,
-and ashamed. “I would rather have lost the money twice over,” he said.
-Then he turned and gave a searching glance all around. Lilias quaked,
-and her heart sank within her. She held her little brother close to her
-breast. If he should stir, if he should cry, all would be over. She knew
-her situation well enough. Either their enemy would go away and get
-bloodhounds and fierce wicked men to put on their track, during which
-time the fugitives would have time to get into some wonderful cave, or
-to be taken into some old, old house by some benevolent stranger, and so
-escape; or else he would come straight to the very place where they
-were, guided by some influence unfavourable to them. Lilias stood and
-held her breath. “Oh, be still, Nello, be still, he is looking!” she
-whispered into Nello’s ear. Her limbs were nearly giving way, but she
-resisted fate and held out.</p>
-
-<p>The schoolmaster made long inspection of all the landscape. “He was
-specially commended to me, too&mdash;I was warned&mdash;I was warned,” he said.
-Then he turned to the station-keeper, giving him the most urgent
-injunctions. “If he comes here you will secure him at once,” he said,
-filling Lilias with dismay, who did not see the shrug of the man’s
-shoulders, and the look with which he turned aside. Thus their retreat
-was cut off, the little girl thought, with anguish indescribable; how
-then were they to get home? This thought was so dreadful that Lilias was
-not relieved as she otherwise would have been by the sound of the wheels
-and the horse’s hoofs as the gig turned, and their enemy drove away. He
-had gone in his own person, but had he not left a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_336" id="page_336">{336}</a></span> horrible retainer to
-guard the passage? And how, oh how was she to take Nello home? She did
-not know where the next station was. She did not know the way in this
-strange, desolate, unknown country. “Nello,” she cried, in a whisper of
-despair, “we must get into that wood, it is the only thing we can do;
-they will not look for us there. I don’t know why, but I feel sure they
-will not look for us there. And perhaps we shall meet some one who will
-take care of us. Oh, Nello, rouse up, come quick, come quick. Perhaps
-there may be a hermit living there, perhaps&mdash;&mdash;. Come, Nello, can you
-not go a little further? Oh, try, try.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Lily, I am so tired&mdash;I am so sleepy”</p>
-
-<p>“I am tired too,” she said, a little rush of tears coming to her eyes;
-and then they stumbled on together, holding each other up. The wood
-looked gay and bright in the early morning. The sun had come out, which
-warmed everything, and the bright autumn colour on the trees cheered the
-children as a similar hour, and the beauty of the wild creatures of the
-woods, cheered the poet:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“Si che a bene sperar m’era cagione<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">Di quella fera alla gaietta pelle<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">L’ora del tempo, e la dolce stagione.”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p>The trees seemed to sweep with a great luxuriance of shadow over a broad
-stretch of country. It must be possible to find some refuge there. There
-might be&mdash;a hermit, perhaps, in a little cell, who would give them nuts
-and some milk from his goat&mdash;or a charcoal burner, wild but kind, like
-those Lilias remembered to have seen in the forest with wild locks
-hanging over their eyes. If only no magician should be there to beguile
-them into his den, pretending to be kind! Thus Lilias mixed fact and
-fiction, her own broken remembrances of Italian woods sounding as
-fictitious among the English elms and beeches as the wildest visions of
-fancy. For this wood, though it had poetic corners in it, was traversed
-by the highroad, from end to end, and was as innocent of
-charcoal-burners as of magicians. And it turned out a great deal further
-off than they thought. They walked and walked, and still it lay before
-them, smiling in its<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_337" id="page_337">{337}</a></span> yellow and red, waving and beckoning in the
-breeze, which was less chilly now that the sun was up. The sun reached
-to the footpath behind the hedge, and warmed the little wayfarers
-through and through&mdash;that was the best thing that had happened to
-them&mdash;for how good it is to be warmed when one is chilled and weary; and
-what a rising of hope and courage there is when the misty dawn disperses
-before the rising of the brave sun!</p>
-
-<p>Nello almost recovered his spirits when he got within the wood. There
-were side-aisles even to the highroad, and deep corners in its depths
-where shelter could be had, and the ground was all flaked with shadow
-and sunshine; and there were green glades, half visible at every side,
-with warm grass all lit by the sun.</p>
-
-<p>“Let us go and sit down, Lily. Oh, what a pretty place to sit down! Oh,
-Lily, I cannot&mdash;I cannot walk any more; I am so tired,” cried Nello.</p>
-
-<p>“I am tired too,” she said, with a quiver in her mouth, looking vainly
-round for some trace of the charcoal-burner or of the hermit. All was
-silent, sunny, fresh with the morning, but vacant as the fields. And
-Lilias could not be satisfied with mere rest, though she wanted it so
-much. “How are we to get home, if we dare not go to the railway? and
-there is no other way,” she said. “Oh, Nello, it will be very nice to
-rest&mdash;but how are we to get home?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, never mind; I am so tired,” said weary little Nello. “Look, Lily,
-what a warm place. It is quite dry, and a tree to lean against. Let us
-stay here.”</p>
-
-<p>Never had a more tempting spot been seen; green soft turf at one side of
-the big tree, and beech-mast, soft and dry and brown, the droppings of
-the trees, on the other. The foot sank in it, it was so soft, and the
-early sun had dried it, and the thick boughs overhead had kept off the
-dew. It was as soft as a bed of velvet, and the little branches waved
-softly over it, while the greater boughs, more still, shaded and
-protected the children. They sat down, utterly worn out, and Lilias took
-out her cakes, which they ate together with delight, though these
-dainties were far from delicious; and there, propped up against each
-other, an arm of each round the other, Nello lying across Lilias’ lap,
-with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_338" id="page_338">{338}</a></span> his head pillowed upon her; she, half-seated, half-reclining,
-holding him, and held in her turn by a hollow of the tree: these babes
-in the wood first nodded, then dozed, and woke and dozed again, and
-finally, the yellow leaves dropping now and then upon them like a caress
-of nature, the sun cherishing their little limbs, fell fast asleep in
-the guardianship of God.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXXIV.<br /><br />
-<small>THE NEW-COMER.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Nobody</span> in the sick-room said a word of the great consternation and
-wonder and fear that sprang to life in them at the appearance of the
-stranger. How could they, though their hearts were full of it? when all
-their care and skill were wanted for the patient, who, half-conscious,
-struggled with them to raise himself, to get out of bed. To find out
-what he wanted, to satisfy the hazy anxiety in his mind, and do for him
-the something, whatever it was, that he was so anxious to do, was the
-first necessity of the moment, notwithstanding the new excitement which
-was wild in their veins. Where did he come from? How had he got
-here?&mdash;familiar, unmistakable, as if he had been absent but a day. How
-did he know he was wanted? And was it he&mdash;really <i>he</i>&mdash;after all those
-dreary years? These questions surged through the minds of all the
-bystanders, in an impetuous, yet secondary current. The first thing, and
-the most urgent, was the Squire. Brother and sister, friend and friend,
-had not leisure to take each other by the hand, or say a word of
-greeting.</p>
-
-<p>Mary and her newly-arrived assistant stood side by side, touching each
-other, but could not speak or make even a sign of mutual recognition.
-<i>He</i> took her place in supporting, and at the same time, restraining the
-patient. <i>She</i> held her father’s hand, with which he seemed to be
-appealing to some one, or using, in dumb show, to aid some argument.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_339" id="page_339">{339}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“The little boy,” he said, hoarsely, “bring me the little boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is it Nello he means?” the stranger asked, in a low voice.</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;think so&mdash;I&mdash;suppose so,” said Mary, trembling, and wholly overcome
-by this strange ease and familiarity, and even by the sound of the voice
-so long silent in this place. But he took no notice&mdash;only followed his
-question by another.</p>
-
-<p>“Why not bring the child then? That might satisfy him. Does he care for
-the child, or is it only a fancy, a wandering in his head? Anyhow, let
-them bring him. It might be of some use.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think he&mdash;knows? Do you think he understands&mdash;and&mdash;means what he
-is saying?”</p>
-
-<p>Mary faltered forth these words, scarcely knowing what she said, feeling
-that she could not explain how it was that Nello was not near&mdash;and
-finding it so strange, so strange to be talking thus to&mdash;John; could it
-be really John? After all that had sundered them, after the miseries
-that had passed over him, the price still set upon his head, was it he
-who stood so quietly, assuming his household place, taking his part in
-the nursing of the old man? She could not believe her senses, and how
-could she talk to him, calmly as the circumstances required, gently and
-steadily, as if he had never been away?</p>
-
-<p>“Most likely not,” he said; “but something has excited his fancy, and
-the sight of my boy might calm it. Let some one bring Nello.”</p>
-
-<p>He spoke with the air of one used to be obeyed, and whom also in this
-particular it would be easy to obey.</p>
-
-<p>“We sent him to school. I am very sorry&mdash;I was against it,” said Mary,
-trembling more and more.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Pen was frightened too. It is one thing doing “for the best” with a
-little unprotected parentless child, and quite a different thing to
-answer the child’s father when he comes and asks for it. Mr. Pen paled
-and reddened ten times in a minute. He added, faltering&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“It was by my advice&mdash;John. I thought it was the best thing for him. You
-see I did not know&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Here he broke off abruptly, in the confusion of his mind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_340" id="page_340">{340}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Then it is needless saying any more,” said the stranger, hastily, with
-a tone in which a little sharpness of personal disappointment and
-vexation seemed to mingle.</p>
-
-<p>This conversation had been in an undertone, as attendants in a sick-room
-communicate with each other, without intermitting their special services
-to the patient. The Squire had been still in their hands for the moment,
-ceasing to struggle, apparently caught in some dim confused way by the
-sound of their voices. He looked about him confusedly, like a blind man,
-turning his head slightly, as if his powers were being restored to him,
-to the side on which John stood. A gleam of half-meaning, of interest,
-and wavering, half-roused attention, seemed to come over his face. Then
-he sank back gently on his pillows, struggling no longer. The paroxysm
-was over. The nurse withdrew her hand with a sigh of relief.</p>
-
-<p>“Now,” she said, “if we leave him perfectly quiet, he may get some
-sleep. I will call you in a moment if there is any change.”</p>
-
-<p>The woman saw, with her experienced eyes, that something more than could
-be read on the surface was in this family combination. She put them
-gently from the bedside, and shaded the patient’s eyes from the light,
-for it was nearly noon by this time, and everything was brilliant
-outside. The corridor, however, into which they passed outside was still
-dark, as it was always, the glimmering pale reflections in the wainscot
-of the long narrow window on the staircase being its sole communication
-with the day.</p>
-
-<p>Mary put out her hands to her brother as they emerged from the
-sick-room.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it you&mdash;you, John?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” he said, grasping them, “it is I. I do not wonder you are
-startled&mdash;I heard my father was worse&mdash;that there was a change&mdash;and came
-in without warning. So Nello has been sent away? May I see my little
-girl? You have been good to her, I am sure, Mary.”</p>
-
-<p>“I love her,” said Mary, hastily, “as if she were my own. John, do not
-take my little companion away.”</p>
-
-<p>He had been grave enough, and but little moved hitherto by<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_341" id="page_341">{341}</a></span> the meeting,
-which was not so strange or unlooked-for to him as to them. Now his
-countenance beamed suddenly, lighting all over, and a tender moisture
-came to his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“It is what I have desired most for her,” he said, and took his sister’s
-hands again and kissed her cheek. “But send for my little Lily,” he
-added, with an indescribable softening in his voice.</p>
-
-<p>Here Miss Brown, who had been following, came out from the dusk of the
-room behind. “I beg your pardon, ma’am. I did not like to tell you in
-your trouble; but I’m very uneasy about Miss Lily.”</p>
-
-<p>“Has she never come in yet? You said she had gone out for a walk.”</p>
-
-<p>“I said whatever I could think of to save you, Miss Mary. We none of us
-know where she’s gone. I’ve sent everywhere. She is not at the Vicarage,
-nor she’s not at the village; and&mdash;oh, what will Mr. John think of us?”
-cried the woman in tears. “Not one in the house has seen her since
-yesterday, and Martuccia, she’s breaking her heart. She says Miss Lily
-has gone after her brother; she says&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Is Martuccia here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, sir,” said Miss Brown, with a curtsey. She could not take her eyes
-off him, as she afterwards said. More serious, far more serious than
-when he was a young gentleman always about the house, but the same
-man&mdash;still the same man.</p>
-
-<p>“Then send her to me at once. It is you, Martha, the same as ever,” he
-said, with a momentary smile in the midst of his anxiety. Just as Mr.
-John used to do&mdash;always a kind word for everybody and a smile. She made
-him another curtsey, crying and smiling together.</p>
-
-<p>“And glad, glad, sir, to see you come home,” she said. There was this
-excuse for Miss Brown’s lingering, that Mary had rushed off at once to
-find Martuccia. John bowed his head gravely. He had grown very serious.
-The habit of smiling was no longer his grand characteristic. He went
-downstairs into the library, the nearest sitting-room in his way, the
-door of which was standing open. Eastwood was there lingering about,
-pretending to put things in order, but in reality waiting for news of
-the old<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_342" id="page_342">{342}</a></span> Squire. Eastwood knew that he had not let this man in. He had
-not got admission in any legitimate way. “I beg your pardon, sir,” he
-began, not altogether respectfully, with the intention of demanding what
-he did there.</p>
-
-<p>“What?” said the stranger, looking up with a little impatience.</p>
-
-<p>Eastwood drew back with another “Beg your pardon, sir!” and his tone was
-changed. He did not know who it was, but he dared not say anything more.
-This was the strangest house in the world surely, full of suspicions,
-full of new people who did not come in at the front door.</p>
-
-<p>When Martuccia came, her story, which, had been almost inarticulate in
-her broken English, flowed forth volubly enough to her master, whom she
-recognized with a shriek of delight. She gave him a clear enough account
-of what had happened. How an old woman had come, a peasant of the
-country, and told Miss Lily that her little brother was in <i>trouble</i>.
-This word she transferred to her narrative without attempting to
-translate it, so that Mary, standing by, who did not understand the
-rest, seemed to hear nothing but this word recurring again and again.
-“Trouble!” it was an ominous word. Nothing but trouble seemed to
-surround them. She stood and listened anxiously, though she did not
-understand.</p>
-
-<p>“It is clear, then,” said her brother, turning to her, “that Lily has
-gone after her little brother, supposed to be in some mysterious
-trouble. When did he go, and where did he go, and who persuaded you to
-send him away?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was Randolph&mdash;Randolph has been here. I believe he wanted to be
-kind. He said Nello was being ruined here, and so did Mr. Pen. It was
-against my will&mdash;against my wish.”</p>
-
-<p>“Randolph!” he said. This alarmed him more than all the rest. “Both my
-children! I thought I should find them safe&mdash;happy in your hands,
-whatever happened to me&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh John, what can I say?” cried Mary, wringing her hands. No one could
-be more guiltless of any unkind intention, but, as was natural, it was
-she who bore the blame. A man may be pardoned if he is a little unjust
-in such circumstances. John was ready to rush out of the house again
-directly to go after his children, but what could be done unless the
-railway helped him?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_343" id="page_343">{343}</a></span> Mary got the time-tables and consulted them
-anxiously; and Mr. Pen came in and stood by; very serious and a little
-crestfallen, as one of the authors of the blunder. And it was found, as
-so often happens, that nothing was to be done at the moment. The early
-train was going off as they talked, the next did not go till the
-evening, the same by which Lilias had travelled on the night before. And
-in the mean time, what might be happening to the little girl, who was
-wandering about the world in search of her brother? While the brother
-and sister consulted, Mr. Pen looked sorrowfully over their heads, which
-were bent over these time-tables. He did not himself pretend to
-understand these lines of mysterious figures. He looked from one face to
-another to read what they meant. He was too much abashed by his own
-share in the misfortune to put forward his advice. But when he saw that
-they were both at their wits’ end, Mr. Pen suggested that the place
-where Nello was was nearer to Randolph than to themselves, and that he
-might get there that night if he was informed at once, and give them
-news, at least let them know whether Lilias had reached the house where
-her brother was. “And I will go by the first train,” Mr. Pen said
-timidly. “Let me go, as I have had a hand in it. John knows I could not
-mean any harm to his boy&mdash;&mdash;.”</p>
-
-<p>Nobody had meant any harm, but the fact that the two children were both
-gone, and one, a girl like Lilias, wandering by herself no one knew
-where, was as bad as if they had meant it a hundred times over. Who
-could it be who had beguiled her with this story of Nello’s trouble? If
-John, who had suffered so much, and who had come from the country where
-feuds and vengeance still flourish, suspected an enemy in it, suspected
-even his brother who had never been his friend, who could wonder? They
-telegraphed to Randolph, and to Mr. Swan, and to the stations on the
-way, John himself hurrying to Pennington to do so. And then when all
-this was done, which made an exciting bustle for a moment, there was
-nothing further possible but to wait till evening for the train. Such
-pauses are due to the very speed and superior possibilities of modern
-life. A post-chaise was slower than the railway, but it could be had at
-once, and those long and dreary hours of delay, of time which one<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_344" id="page_344">{344}</a></span> feels
-to be lost, and in which, while we wait, anything fatal may happen, are
-the reverse side of the medal, the attendant disadvantage upon headlong
-speed and annihilation of distance. What a miserable house it was during
-all that eternal day! Anxieties of every kind filled their minds&mdash;those
-which concerned life and the living coming uppermost and shutting out
-the solemn interest of the chamber over which death had been hovering.
-The Squire slept, but only his nurse, unmoved in professional calm,
-watched over him; and when he woke, still wrapped in a mist and haze of
-half-consciousness which subdued all his being, yet with an aspect less
-deathlike, Mary came and went to and from his room, in an enforced
-stillness almost beyond bearing, not daring to stay long in one place
-lest she should betray herself. She dared not allow herself to think of
-little Lilias, perhaps in evil hands, perhaps wandering alone. Her
-little Lily! Mary felt it would be impossible to sit still, impossible
-to endure at all if she did not thrust away this thought. A little
-woman-child, at that tender age, too young for self-protection, too old
-for absolute impunity from harm. Mary clasped her hands tightly together
-and forced her thoughts into another channel. There was no lack indeed
-of other channels for her anxieties; her father thus lying between life
-and death, and her brother with all the penalties of old on his head,
-going and coming without concealment, without even an attempt to
-disguise himself. It would have been better even for John, Mary felt
-instinctively, if the Squire had been visibly dying instead of rallying.
-What if he should wake again to full consciousness, and order the doors
-of his house to be closed against his son as he had done before? What
-if, seeing this, and seeing him there without attempt at concealment,
-rejected by his own family, the old prosecution should be revived and
-John taken? After that&mdash;But Mary shuddered and dropped this thread of
-thought also. The other, even the other was less terrible. Thus passed
-this miserable day.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph had been alarmed even before the family were, though in a
-different fashion. Almost as soon as he had seated himself at his
-respectable clergymanly breakfast-table, after prayers and all due
-offices of the morning, a telegram was put<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_345" id="page_345">{345}</a></span> into his hand. This made his
-pulse beat quicker, and he called to his wife to listen, while a whole
-phantasmagoria of possibilities seemed to rise like a haze about the
-yellow envelope, ugliest of inclosures. What could it be but his
-father’s death that was thus intimated to him&mdash;an event which must have
-such important issues? When he had read it, however, he threw it on the
-table with an impatient “Pshaw! The little boy, always the little boy,”
-he cried; “I think that little boy will be the death of me.” Mrs.
-Randolph, who had heard of this child as the most troublesome of
-children, gave all her sympathy to her husband, and he contented himself
-with another message back again, saying that he had no doubt Mr. Swan
-would soon find the little fugitive, who had not come to him as the
-schoolmaster supposed. The day, however, which had begun thus in
-excitement, soon had other incidents to make it memorable. Early in the
-afternoon other telegrams came. The one he first opened was from Mr.
-Pen; this at least must be what he hoped for. But instead of telling of
-the Squire’s death, Mr. Pen telegraphed to him an entreaty which he
-could not understand. “Lilias is missing too&mdash;for God’s sake go at once
-to the school and ascertain if she is there.” What did he mean&mdash;what did
-the old fool mean?</p>
-
-<p>“Here is another, Randolph,” said his wife, composing her face into
-solemnity. “I fear&mdash;I fear this at least must be bad news from the
-Castle.”</p>
-
-<p>In the heat of his disappointment and impatience Randolph was as nearly
-as possible exclaiming in over-sincerity, “Fear!&mdash;I hope it is, with all
-my heart.” But when he opened it he stood aghast; his brother’s name
-stared him in the face&mdash;“John Musgrave.” How came it there&mdash;that
-outlawed name? It filled him with such a hurry and ferment of agitation
-that he cared nothing what the message was; he let it drop and looked up
-aghast in his wife’s face.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it so?” she said, assuming the very tone, the right voice with which
-a clergyman’s wife ought to speak of a death. “Alas, my poor dear
-husband, is it so? is he gone indeed?”</p>
-
-<p>But Randolph forgot that he was a clergyman and all proprieties. He
-threw down the hideous bit of paper and jumped<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_346" id="page_346">{346}</a></span> to his feet and paced
-about the room in his excitement. “He has come, confound him!” he cried.</p>
-
-<p>Not gone! that would have been nothing but good news&mdash;but this was bad
-indeed, something unthought of, never calculated upon; worse than any
-misgiving he had ever entertained. He had been uneasy about the child,
-the boy whom everybody would assume to be the heir; but John&mdash;that John
-should return&mdash;that he should be there before his father died&mdash;this
-combination was beyond all his fears.</p>
-
-<p>After he had got over the first shock he took up the telegram to see
-what it was that “John Musgrave, Penninghame Castle,”&mdash;the name written
-out in full letters, almost with ostentation, no concealing or
-disguising of it, though it was a name lying under the utmost penalties
-of the law&mdash;had to say to him.</p>
-
-<p>“<i>My little daughter has been decoyed away under pretence that her
-brother was in danger. You can reach the place to-day. I cannot. Will
-you serve me for once, and go and telegraph if she is safe?</i>” This was
-the communication. Randolph’s breast swelled high with what he felt to
-be natural indignation. “I serve him! I go a hundred miles or so for his
-convenience. I will see him&mdash;hanged first!” Hanged&mdash;yes, that was what
-would happen to the fellow if he were caught, if everybody were not so
-weakly indulgent, so ready to defeat the law. And this was the man who
-ventured to bid his brother “serve him for once,” treating him,
-Randolph, a clergyman, a person irreproachable, in this cavalier
-fashion. What had he to do with it if the little girl had been decoyed
-away? No doubt the little monkey, if all were known, was ready enough to
-go. He hoped in his heart they were both gone together, and would never
-be heard of more.</p>
-
-<p>When he came as far as this, however, Randolph pulled himself up short.
-After all, he was not a bad man to rejoice in the afflictions of his
-neighbours; he only wished them out of his way, he did not wish any harm
-to them; and he felt that what he had just said in his heart was wicked,
-and might bring down a “judgment.” To come the length of a wish that
-your neighbour may not thrive is a thing that no respectable person
-should allow himself to do; a little grudging of your neighbour’s
-prosperity, a little secret satisfaction in his trouble, is a different<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_347" id="page_347">{347}</a></span>
-matter,&mdash;but articulately to wish him harm! This brought him to himself
-and made him aware of his wife’s eyes fixed upon him with some anxiety.
-She was a gentle little believing sort of woman, without any brains to
-speak of, and she thought dear Randolph’s feelings had been too much for
-him. Her eyes were fixed on him with devout sympathy. How much feeling
-he had, though he did not speak much of it; what strong affections he
-had! Randolph paused a little to calm himself down. These all-trusting
-women are sometimes an exasperation unspeakable in their innocence, but
-still, on the other hand, a man must often make an effort not to dispel
-such belief. He said, “No, my dear, it is not what I thought; my father
-is not dead, but suffering, which is almost worse; and my brother whom
-you have heard of&mdash;who has been such a grief to us all&mdash;has come home
-unexpectedly.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Randolph!” The innocent wife went to him and took his hand and
-caressed it. “How hard upon you! How much for you to bear! Two such
-troubles at once.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, indeed,” he said, accepting her sympathy, “and the little boy whom
-I told you of, whom I took to school,&mdash;well, he has run away&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Randolph dear, what mountains of anxiety upon you!”</p>
-
-<p>“You may say so. I must go, I suppose, and look after this little
-wretch. Put me up something in the little portmanteau&mdash;and from thence I
-suppose I had better go on to Penninghame again. Who knows what trouble
-may follow John’s most ill-advised return?”</p>
-
-<p>“And they all lean so on you,” said the foolish wife. Notwithstanding
-these dozen years of separation between him and his family, she was able
-to persuade herself of this, and that he was the prop and saviour of his
-race. There is nothing that foolish wives will not believe.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph, however, wavered in his decision after he had made up his mind
-to go. Why should he go, putting himself to so much trouble at John’s
-order? He changed his mind half a dozen times in succession. Finally,
-however, he did go, sending two messages back on his way, one to John,
-the other to Mr. Pen. To John he said: “<i>I am alarmed beyond measure to
-see<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_348" id="page_348">{348}</a></span> your name. Is it safe for you to be there? Know nothing about
-little girl, but hear that little boy has run away from school and am
-going to see.</i>” Thus he planted, or meant to plant, an additional sting
-in his brother’s breast. And as he travelled along in the afternoon,
-going to see after Nello, his own exasperation and resentment became so
-hot within him, that when he arrived at the junction, he sent a message
-of a very different tenor to Mr. Pen. He did not perhaps quite know what
-he was doing. He was furious with disappointment and annoyance and
-confusion, feeling himself cheated, thrust aside, put out of the place
-which he ought to have filled. Nello would have had harsh justice had he
-been brought before him at such a moment, “Little troublesome,
-effeminate baby, good for nothing, and now to be ruined in every way.
-But I wash my hands of him,” Randolph said.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXV" id="CHAPTER_XXXV"></a>CHAPTER XXXV.<br /><br />
-<small>ANOTHER HELPER.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">On</span> that same morning when so many things occurred, young Lord Stanton
-was seated in the library at Stanton, with a great deal of business to
-do. He had letters to write, he had the accounts of his agent to look
-over, and a hundred other very pressing matters which demanded his close
-attention. Perhaps it was only natural in these circumstances that Geoff
-should be unusually idle, and not at all disposed to tackle to his work.
-Generally he was so much interested in what was real work that he did it
-heartily, glad of the honest compulsion; but on this morning he was
-unsettled, and not in his usual mood of industry. He watched the leaves
-dropping from the trees outside, he listened idly to the sounds within;
-he scribbled on the margin of his accounts, now a bit of Latin verse
-(for Mr. Tritton was an elegant scholar), now a grotesque face, anything
-but the steady calculations he ought to have made. Now and then a sudden
-recollection of something he had read would cross his mind,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_349" id="page_349">{349}</a></span> when he
-would get up in the middle of a letter to seek the book in which he
-thought it was and verify his recollection on the spot, a thing he would
-not have taken the trouble to do had that floating recollection had any
-connection with the work in which he professed to be engaged. In short,
-he was entirely idle, distracted, and <i>desœuvré</i>. Mr. Tritton was
-reading to Lady Stanton in her morning room. It was early; the household
-were all busy and occupied,&mdash;all except the young master of it, who
-could not settle to his work.</p>
-
-<p>He was sitting thus when his easily distracted attention was caught by a
-movement outside, not like anything that could be made by bird or dog,
-the only two living creatures likely to be there so close to his window.
-It was the same window through which he had gone out the evening he made
-his night expedition to the hills. The sound caught his attention, as
-anything would have done that gave him an excuse for raising his head
-from the letters he was now trying to write, having given up the
-accounts in despair. When he saw a shadow skirt the grass, Geoff watched
-with eager interest for what would follow&mdash;then there was a pause, and
-he had bent over the letter again, thinking it a mere trick of fancy,
-when a sound close to him made him start and look up. Some one was
-standing with his back to the morning light&mdash;standing across the
-window-sill with one foot within the room. Geoff started to his feet
-with momentary alarm. “Who are you? Ah! is it Bampfylde?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Just me, my young lord. May I come in and speak a word?”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly&mdash;come in. But why not go to the front door and come in like
-any one else? You do not suppose I should have shut my doors on <i>you</i>?”</p>
-
-<p>“Maybe, no; but I’m not a visitor for the like of you. I’m little credit
-about a grand house. I’ve not come here for nothing now, but to ask you
-a service.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it, Bampfylde? If I can do anything for you I will.”</p>
-
-<p>“It’s not exactly for me, but you can do it if you will, my young lord.
-It’s something I’m hindered from doing. It’s for the young ones at the
-Castle, that you know of. Both the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_350" id="page_350">{350}</a></span> bairns are in trouble, so far as I
-can judge. I gave the little boy a carrier to let off if he wanted help.
-Me, and still more the old woman, we misdoubted that brother. And nigh a
-week ago the carrier came home, but I was away on&mdash;on a hard job, that
-I’m on still, and she did not understand. And when I saw her and told
-her yesterday what the sign was, what does the old woman do but tell the
-little lady&mdash;the little miss&mdash;and so far as I can hear <i>she’s</i> away, the
-creature herself, a flower of a thing, no bigger than my arm, the very
-image of our Lily: her&mdash;that atom&mdash;she’s away to deliver her brother, my
-young lord,” said the vagrant, leaning against the window. “I’m most
-worn out by the same sort o’ work. There’s far too much of that been
-done among us one way and another, and <i>she’s</i> away now on the same
-errand&mdash;to save her brother. It’s laughable if you think on’t,” he said,
-with a curious gurgle in his throat of forlorn ridicule.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff, who had leaned forward at the name of the children, saw that
-Bampfylde was very pale and worn, his clothes in less order than usual,
-and an air of utter weariness and harassment about him. He looked like a
-man who had not slept or undressed for days.</p>
-
-<p>“Has anything new happened?” Geoff asked hurriedly. “Of course I will do
-whatever I can for the children&mdash;but tell me first&mdash;has anything
-happened with you?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, plenty,” said the rough fellow with a great sigh, which was not
-sentiment but fatigue. “If that will not vex you, my young lord, saving
-your presence, I’ll sit down and rest my bones while I talk to you, for
-I’m near dead with tiredness. <i>He’s</i> given us the slip&mdash;I cannot tell
-you how. Many a fear we’ve had, but this time it’s come true. Tuesday
-was a week he got away, the day after I’d been to see about the little
-lad. We thought he was but hanging about the fells in corners that none
-but him and me know, as he once did before, and I got him back. But it’s
-worse than that. Lord! there’s many an honest man lost on the fells in
-the mists, that has a wife and bairns looking to him. Would it not be
-more natural to take the likes of him, and let the father of a family go
-free? I cannot touch him, but there’s no law to bind the Almighty. But
-all that’s little to the purpose.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_351" id="page_351">{351}</a></span> He’s loose ranging about the country
-and me on his heels. I’ve all but had him three or four times, but he’s
-aye given me the slip.”</p>
-
-<p>“But this is terrible; it is a danger for the whole country,” said
-Geoff. “The children!” The young man shuddered, he did not realize that
-the children were at a distance. He thought of nothing more than perhaps
-an expedition among the fells for Lilias&mdash;and what if she should fall
-into the madman’s hands? “You should have help&mdash;you should rouse the
-country,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll no do that. Please God I’ll get him yet, and this will be the
-end,” said Bampfylde solemnly. “She cannot make up her mind to it even
-now. She’s infatuate with him. I thought it would have ended when you
-put your hand into the web, my young lord.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is my fault,” said Geoff. “I should have done something more; but
-then Mr. Musgrave fell ill, and I have been waiting. If he dies,
-everything must be gone into. I was but waiting.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not blaming you. She cannot bide to hear a word, and so she’s been
-all this long time. Now and then her heart will speak for the
-others&mdash;them that suffer and have suffered&mdash;but it aye goes back to him.
-And I don’t blame her neither,” said Bampfylde. “Its aye her son to her,
-that was a gentleman and her pride.” He had placed himself not on the
-comfortable chair which Geoff had pushed forward for him, but on the
-hard seat formed by the library steps, where he sat with his elbows on
-his knees, and his head supported in his hands, thus reposing himself
-upon himself. “It’s good to rest,” he said, with something of the
-garrulousness of weakness, glad in his exhaustion to stretch himself
-out, as it were, body and soul, and ease his mind after long silence. He
-almost forgot even his mission in the charm of this momentary repose.
-“Poor woman!” he added, pathetically; “I’ve never blamed her. This was
-her one pride, and how it has ended&mdash;if it were but ended! No,” he went
-on after a pause, “please God there will be no harm. He’s no
-murdering-mad, like some poor criminals that have done less harm than
-him. It’s the solitary places he flees to, not the haunts o’ men; we’re
-brothers so far as that’s counting. And I drop a word of warning as I
-go. I tell the folks that I hear<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_352" id="page_352">{352}</a></span> there’s a poor creature ranging the
-country that is bereft of his senses, and a man after him. I’m the man,”
-said Bampfylde, with a low laugh, “but I tell nobody that; and oh the
-dance he’s led me!” Then rousing himself with an effort, “But I’m losing
-time, and you’re losing time, my young lord. If you would be a help to
-them you should be away. Get out your horse or your trap to take you to
-the train.”</p>
-
-<p>“Where has she gone&mdash;by the train?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay&mdash;and a long road. She’s away there last night, the atom, all by
-herself. That’s our blood,” said Bampfylde, with again the low laugh,
-which was near tears. “But I need not say our blood neither, for her
-father has suffered the most of all, poor gentleman&mdash;the most of all!
-Look here, my young lord,” he said, suddenly rising up, “if I sit there
-longer I’ll go to sleep, and forget everything; and we’ve no time for
-sleep, neither you nor me. Here’s the place. There’s a train at
-half-past eleven that gets there before dark. You cannot get back
-to-night; you’ll have to leave word that you cannot get back to-night.
-And go now; go, for the love of God!”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff did not hesitate; he rang the bell hastily, and ordered his
-dog-cart to be ready at once, and wrote two or three lines of
-explanation to his mother. And he ordered the servant, who stared at his
-strange companion, to bring some food and wine. But Bampfylde shook his
-head. “Not so,” he said; “not so. Bit nor sup I could not take here. We
-that once made this house desolate, it’s not for us to eat in it or
-drink in it. You’re o’er good, o’er good, my young lord; but I’ll not
-forget the offer,” he added, the water rushing to his eyes. He stood in
-front of the light stretching his long limbs in the languor of
-exhaustion, a smile upon his face.</p>
-
-<p>“You have overdone yourself, Bampfylde. You are not fit for any more
-exertion. What more can you do than you have done? I’ll send out all the
-men about the house, and&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Nay, but I’ll go to the last&mdash;as long as I can crawl. Mind you the
-young ones,” he said; “and for all you’re doing, and for your good
-heart, God bless you, my young lord!”</p>
-
-<p>It seemed to Geoff like a dream when he found himself standing alone in
-the silent room among his books, with neither sight<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_353" id="page_353">{353}</a></span> nor sound of any
-one near. Bampfylde disappeared as he had come, in a moment, vanishing
-among the shrubberies; and the young man found himself charged with a
-commission he did not understand, with a piece of dirty paper in his
-hand, upon which an address was rudely scrawled. What was he to do at
-this school, a day’s journey off, about which he knew nothing? He would
-have laughed at the wild errand had he not been too deeply impressed by
-his visitor’s appearance and manner to be amused by anything thus
-suggested. But wild as it was, Geoff was resolved to carry it out. Even
-the vaguest intimation of danger to Lilias would have sufficed to rouse
-him, but he had scarcely taken that thought into his mind. He could
-think of nothing but Bampfylde, and this with a pang of sympathy and
-interest which he could scarcely explain to himself. As he drove along
-towards the Stanton station, the first from Pennington, his mind was
-entirely occupied with this rough fellow. Something tragic about him, in
-his exhaustion, in the <i>effusion</i> of his weakness, had gone to Geoff’s
-heart. He looked eagerly for traces of him&mdash;behind every bush, in every
-cross-road. And to increase his anxiety, the servant who accompanied him
-began to entertain him with accounts of a madman who had escaped from an
-asylum, and who kept the country in alarm. “Has he been seen anywhere?
-has he harmed any one?” Geoff asked, eagerly. But there were no details
-to be had; nothing but the general statement. Geoff gave the man orders
-to warn the gamekeepers and out-door servants, and to have him secured
-if possible. It was scarcely loyal perhaps to poor Bampfylde, who had
-trusted him. Thus he had no thought but Bampfylde in his mind when he
-found himself in the train, rushing along on the errand he did not
-understand. It was a quick train, the one express of the day; and even
-at the junction there were only a few minutes to wait: very unlike the
-vigil that poor little Lilias had held there in the middle of night
-under the dreary flickering of the lamp. Geoff knew nothing of this; but
-by dint of thinking he had evolved something like a just idea of the
-errand on which he was going. Lilias had been warned that her brother
-was not happy, and had gone like a little Quixote to relieve him. Geoff
-could even form an idea to himself of the pre-occupation of the house
-with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_354" id="page_354">{354}</a></span> Squire’s illness, which would close all ears to Lilias’ appeal
-about Nello’s fancied unhappiness. Little nuisance! Geoff himself felt
-disposed to say&mdash;thinking any unhappiness that could happen to Nello of
-much less importance than the risk of Lilias. But he had not, of course,
-the least idea of Nello’s flight. He arrived at the station about five
-o’clock in the afternoon, adding another bewilderment to the solitary
-official there, who had been telegraphed to from Penninghame, and
-already that day had been favoured by two interviews with Mr. Swan. “A
-young lady? I wish all young ladies were&mdash;&mdash; Here’s a message about her;
-and the schoolmaster, he’s been at me, till I am sick of my life. What
-young lady could there be here? Do you think I’m a-hiding of her?” he
-cried, with that instinctive suspicion of being held responsible which
-is so strong in his class. Geoff however, elicited by degrees all that
-there was to find out, and discovered at the same time that the matter
-was much more serious than he supposed. The little boy had run away from
-school; the little girl, evidently coming to meet him, had disappeared
-with him. It was supposed that they must have made for the railway, as
-the woman in the cottage close by had confessed to having given them
-breakfast; but they had disappeared from her ken, so that she
-half-thought they had been ghost-children, with no reality in them; and
-though the country had been scoured everywhere, neither they, nor any
-trace of them, were to be found.</p>
-
-<p>This was the altogether unsatisfactory ground upon which Geoff had to
-work,&mdash;and at five o’clock on an October afternoon there is but little
-time for detailed investigation of a country. His eye turned, as that of
-Lilias had done, to the wood. It was the place in which she would
-naturally take refuge. Had the wood been examined? he asked. Yes, every
-corner of it. Geoff was at his wits’ end, and did not know what to do;
-he went down the road where Lilias had gone in the morning and talked to
-the woman, who told him a moving story of the tired pair, and declared
-that she would not have let them go, seeing very well that they were a
-little lady and gentleman, but that they had stolen away when her back
-was turned. Geoff stood at the cottage door gazing round him, when he
-saw something that no<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_355" id="page_355">{355}</a></span> one else had noticed, a small matter enough.
-Caught upon the hedge, which reached close to the cottage, there was a
-shred of blue&mdash;the merest rag, a few threads, nothing more&mdash;such an
-almost invisible indication as a savage might leave to enable his
-companions to track him&mdash;a thing that could be seen only by instructed
-eyes. Geoff’s eyes were inexperienced, but they were keen: and he knew
-the colour of Lilias’ dress, which the other searchers were not aware
-of. He disentangled the threads carefully from the twig. One long hair,
-and that too was Lilias’ colour, had caught on the same thorn. This
-seemed to him a trace unmistakeable, notwithstanding that the woman of
-the cottage immediately claimed it. “Dear, I did not know that I had
-torn my best blue dress,” she said, with genuine alarm. Geoff, however,
-left her abruptly, and followed out his clue. He hastened by the
-footpath behind the hedge towards the wood. It was the natural place for
-Lilias to be. By this time the young man had forgotten everything except
-the girl, who was at once a little child appealing to all his tenderest
-sympathies, and a little visionary princess to whom he had vowed
-himself. She was both in the combination of the moment&mdash;a tired child
-whom he could almost carry away in his arms, who would not be afraid of
-him, or shrink from these brotherly arms; but, at the same time, the
-little mother-woman, the defender and protector of one more helpless
-than herself. Geoff’s heart swelled with a kind of heavenly enthusiasm
-and love. Never could there have been a purer passion. He hurried
-through the wood and through the wood, searching in all its glades and
-dells, peering into the very hollows of the old trees. There was
-nothing: Was there nothing? Not a movement, not a sound, except the
-birds chirping, the rush of a rabbit or squirrel, the flutter of the
-leaves in the evening air. For it was evening by this time, that could
-not be denied; the last, long, slant rays of the sun were sloping along
-the trunks and roots of the trees, and the mossy greenness that covered
-them. The day was over in which a man could work, and night&mdash;night that
-would chill the children to the heart, and drive them wild with
-fear&mdash;desolate, dark night, full of visionary terrors, and also real
-dangers, was coming. Geoff had made up his mind certainly that they were
-there. He did not think of a magicia<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_356" id="page_356">{356}</a></span>n’s cave or a hermit’s cell, as
-Lilias had done, but only whether there was some little hut anywhere,
-where they could have found refuge,&mdash;a hollow, unknown to him, where
-they might have hid themselves, not knowing a friend was near. The sun
-had lit up an illumination in the west, and shone through the red and
-yellow leaves with reflections of colour softer and more varying, but
-still more brilliant, than their own. The world seemed all ablaze
-between the two, with crimson and gold&mdash;autumn sun above, autumn foliage
-below. Then tone by tone and colour by colour died out from the skies,
-and the soft yet cold grey of the evening took possession of all. The
-paths of the wood seemed to grow ghostly in the gathering dusk, the
-colour stole out of the trees, the very sky seemed to drop lower as the
-night gathered in. Geoff walked about in a kind of despair. He called
-them, but there came no answer; he seemed to himself to poke into every
-corner, into the damp depths where the cold dew seemed to ooze out from
-the ground weighing down every leaflet. He was sure they were there.
-Must they spend the night in the dark, and be frozen and frightened to
-death before the morning? Geoff’s heart was full of anxiety and pity. It
-seemed to him that he must stay there to keep them company, whether he
-could find them or not.</p>
-
-<p>Then all at once he heard a sound like a low sob. It seemed to come from
-the ground, close to where he was standing, but he could see nothing but
-a little tangle of wild brambles, long branches with still a solitary
-berry here and there, the leaves scanty, scarlet and brown with the
-frost. They were all clustered about the trunk of a big tree, a little
-thicket, prickly and impregnable, but close to the path. And was it the
-breathing of the night air only, or some wild creature in the brushwood,
-or human respiration, that came soft, almost indistinguishable in the
-soft murmur of the wood? He stood still, scarcely venturing himself to
-breathe, so intent was he to listen; and by and by he heard the sound
-again. A child’s sob, the soft pathetic reverberation of a sob, such as
-continues to come after the weeping is over. With trembling eagerness,
-yet caution, Geoff put aside the long tangles of the bramble which fell
-in a kind of arch. It was a hard piece of work, and had to be done with
-caution not to disturb the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_357" id="page_357">{357}</a></span> poor little nestlings, if nestlings there
-were. There Geoff disclosed to the waning light the prettiest pathetic
-picture. It was not the same green hollow in which the children had
-first taken refuge. They had been roused by the sound of passengers
-through the wood, and the voices of the people who were searching for
-themselves, and had woke up in fright. When these noises ceased they had
-strayed deeper into the wood to another and safer shelter, Nello being
-too frightened and miserable to go on as Lilias wished. At last they had
-found this refuge under the bramble bushes where nobody surely could
-ever find them, meaning to lie there all day and creep out at night to
-continue their journey. Lilias had seated herself first, spreading out
-her skirt to protect her brother from the damp. There, lying with his
-head and shoulders supported on her lap, he had gone to sleep again,
-while Lilias waked and pondered; very anxious, frightened too, and
-dissatisfied with the loss of time, she sat erect, supporting Nello, and
-gazed up at the dark figure in the twilight with alarmed eyes, which
-seemed to grow larger and larger as they shone in a passion of terror
-through the long tangles of the bush. Lilias had covered her brother
-with her shawl&mdash;she drew it over him now, covering the white little face
-on her arm, “What do you want with me? I am only resting. There is no
-one here to do any harm,” she said, with the sob coming again in spite
-of her. She thought it was the cruel schoolmaster, the more cruel uncle,
-who had condemned Nello to so many sufferings. She held her arms over
-him, protecting him&mdash;resolute not to let him be taken from her. “Oh, do
-not meddle with me!” she went on, growing more and more desperate. “I
-have some money I will give you, if you will only&mdash;only leave me alone.
-There is nobody&mdash;but me.”</p>
-
-<p>Oh that sob! if she could only swallow it down and talk to him, this
-robber chief, this Robin Hood, as if she were not afraid! for sometimes
-these men are kind and do not hurt the weak. Lilias gazed, nothing but
-her eyes appearing, glowing through the gathering shade: then suddenly
-threw her brother off her lap in a transport of wild delight, “Oh Nello,
-Nello, Nello!” she cried, till the wood rang, “it is Mr. Geoff!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_358" id="page_358">{358}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXXVI.<br /><br />
-<small>THE BEGINNING OF THE END.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Geoff</span> took the children home without let or hindrance. There was no inn
-near where they could pass the night; and as he had no legitimate right
-to their custody, and was totally unknown and very young, and might not
-awaken any lively faith in the bosom of authority as against the
-schoolmaster or the uncle, he thought it wisest to take them away at
-once. He managed to get some simplest food for them with difficulty&mdash;a
-little bread and milk&mdash;and made them lie down propped amid the cushions
-of a first-class carriage, which was to be hooked on to the evening
-train when it arrived. Before they left the little station he had the
-satisfaction of seeing Randolph Musgrave arrive, looking sour and
-sullen. Geoff did not know that Randolph had done anything unkind to the
-children. Certainly it was none of his fault that Lilias was there; but
-what good partisan ever entered too closely into an examination of the
-actual rights and wrongs of a question? Randolph might have been
-innocent&mdash;as indeed he was&mdash;of any downright evil intention; but this
-availed him nothing. Geoff looked out of the window of his own carriage
-as they glided away from the station, and gazed with intensest schoolboy
-pleasure on the glum and sour countenance of the churlish uncle, who,
-but for his own intervention, might have wrought destruction to those
-new babes in the wood. He shivered when he thought of the two helpless
-creatures lying under the brambles too frightened to move, and feeling
-to their hearts all the fantastic horrors of the darkness. Now, though
-still in movement, and undergoing still further fatigue, the absolute
-rest which had fallen upon their childish spirits from the mere fact
-that he was there, touched the young man to the heart. They were willing
-to let him take them anywhere; their cares were over. Nello had even
-made a feeble little attempt to shake his draggled plumes and swagger a
-little, sore and uncomfortable though he was, before he clambered into
-the carriage; and Lilias lay in the nest he had made for her, looking
-out with eyes of measureless content<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_359" id="page_359">{359}</a></span>&mdash;so changed from those great,
-wistful, unfathomable oceans of anxiety and fear which had looked at him
-through the brambles! She put her hand into his as he settled himself in
-his corner beside her&mdash;the little soft child’s hand, which he warmed in
-his strong clasp, and which clung to him with a hold which did not relax
-even in her dreams; for she went to sleep so, holding him fast, feeling
-the sense of safety glow over her in delicious warmth and ease. Through
-all the night, even when she slept, at every movement he made, her soft
-fingers closed more firmly upon his hand. It was the child’s anchor of
-safety; and this clinging, conscious and unconscious, went straight to
-Geoff’s heart. In the dark, under the waning light of the lamp overhead,
-he watched the little face sinking into sleep, with now a faint little
-smile upon it&mdash;a complete relaxation of all the strained muscles&mdash;with a
-sensation of happiness which was beyond words. Sometimes, for the mere
-pleasure of it, he would make a movement wantonly to feel the renewed
-clasp of the little hand and see the drowsy opening of the eyes. “Are
-you there, Mr. Geoff?” she said now and then, with a voice as soft (he
-thought) as the coo of a dove. “Yes, my Lily;” he would say, with his
-heart swelling in his young bosom; and Lilias would drop to sleep again,
-smiling at him, with sleepy eyes, in what ease and infinite content! As
-for Nello, he snored now and then out of very satisfaction and
-slumbering confidence; little snores, something between a little
-cherub’s trumpet and the native utterance of the tenderest of little
-pigs&mdash;at that age when even little piggies, by reason of babyhood, have
-something cherubic about them too.</p>
-
-<p>At midnight, at the great junction, a tall, sunburnt, anxious-faced man
-walked along the line of carriages, looking in with eager looks. “Are
-these your children?” he said to Geoff, seeing the two little figures
-laid up among the cushions, and not remarking how young their companion
-was. He spoke abruptly, but taking off his hat with an apologetic grace,
-which Geoff thought “foreign,” as we are all so apt to suppose unusual
-courtesy to be. A sudden inspiration seized the young man. He did not
-know who this was, but somehow he never doubted who it was the stranger
-sought. “They are the little Musgraves of Penninghame,” he said, simply,
-“whom I am taking home.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_360" id="page_360">{360}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>The tall stranger wavered for a moment, as though he might have fallen;
-then, in a voice half-choked, he asked, “May I come beside you?” He sat
-down in the seat opposite to Geoff. After an anxious inspection of the
-two little faces, now settled into profound sleep, “Thank God!” he said.
-“They are all I have in the world.”</p>
-
-<p>Who could it be? Geoff’s ears seemed to tingle with the words&mdash;“all I
-have in the world.” He sat in his dark corner and gazed at this strange
-new-comer, who was more in the light. And the new-comer gazed at him.
-Seeing, after a while, the child’s hand clasped in his&mdash;a mark of trust
-which, sweet as it was, kept young Geoff in a somewhat forced attitude
-not comfortable for a long night journey,&mdash;“I do not know you,” he said,
-“but my little girl seems to put her whole trust in you, and that must
-make me your grateful servant too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you are John Musgrave?” cried the young man. “Oh, sir, I am
-glad&mdash;most glad, that you have come home! Yes, I think she likes me; and
-child or woman,” cried young Geoff, clasping the little hand close with
-a sudden <i>effusion</i>, “I shall never care for any one else.”</p>
-
-<p>Serious, careworn, in peril of his life, John Musgrave laughed softly in
-his beard. “This is my first welcome home,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>Geoff found a carriage waiting for him at Stanton. His first impulse
-having been to take the children to his mother, he gave them up now with
-a pang, having first witnessed the surprise of incredulous delight with
-which Lilias flung herself at her waking upon her father. The cry with
-which she hailed him, the illumination of her face, and, Geoff felt, her
-utter forgetfulness of his own claims, half-vexed the young man after
-his uncomfortable night; and it was with a certain pang that he gave the
-children up to their natural guardian. “Papa, this is Mr. Geoff,” Lilias
-said; “no one has ever been so kind; and he knows about you something
-that nobody else knows.”</p>
-
-<p>John Musgrave looked up with a gleam of surprise and a faint suffusion
-of colour on his serious face. “Every one here knows about <i>me</i>,” he
-said, with a sigh; and then he turned to the young guardian of his
-children, “Lily’s introduction is of the slightest,” he said. “I don’t
-know you, nor how you have been made to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_361" id="page_361">{361}</a></span> take so much interest in
-them&mdash;how you knew even that they wanted help: but I am grateful to you
-with all my heart, all the same.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am Geoffrey Stanton,” said the young man. He did not know how to make
-the announcement, but coloured high with consciousness of the pain that
-must be associated with his name. But it was best, he felt, to make the
-revelation at once. “The brother of Walter Stanton, whom&mdash;&mdash;. As Lilias
-says, sir, I know more about you than others know. I have heard
-everything.”</p>
-
-<p>John Musgrave shook his head. “Everything! till death steps in to one or
-another of the people concerned, that is what no one will ever know; but
-so long as you do not shrink from me, Lord Stanton&mdash;&mdash; You are Lord
-Stanton; is it not so?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not making any idle brag,” said Geoff. “I know <i>everything</i>. It
-was Bampfylde himself&mdash;Dick Bampfylde himself&mdash;who sent me after the
-children. I know the truth of it all, and I am ready to stand by you,
-sir, whenever and howsoever you want me&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff bent forward eagerly, holding out his hand, with a flush of
-earnestness and enthusiasm on his young face. Musgrave looked at him
-with great and serious surprise. His face darkened and lighted up, and
-he started slightly at the name of Bampfylde. At last, with a moment’s
-hesitation, he took Geoff’s outstretched hand, and pressed it warmly. “I
-dare not ask what it is you do know,” he said, “but there is nothing on
-my hand to keep me from taking yours; and thank you a thousand
-times&mdash;thank you for <i>them</i>. About everything else we can talk
-hereafter.”</p>
-
-<p>In ten minutes after Geoff was whirling along the quiet country road on
-his way home. It was like a dream to him that all this should have
-happened since he last drove between those hedgerows, and he had the
-half-disappointed, half-injured feeling of one who has not carried out
-an adventure to its final end. He was worn out too, and excited, and he
-did not like giving up Lily into the hands of her father. Had it been
-Miss Musgrave he would have felt no difficulty. It was chilly in the
-early morning, and he buttoned up his coat to his chin, and put his
-hands in his pockets, and let his groom drive, who had evidently<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_362" id="page_362">{362}</a></span>
-something to say to him which could scarcely be kept in till they got
-clear of the station. Geoff had seen it so distinctly in the man’s face,
-that he had asked at once, “Is all right at home?” But he was too tired
-to pay much attention to anything beyond that. When they had gone on for
-about a quarter of an hour, the groom himself broke the silence. “I beg
-your pardon, my lord&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?” Geoff, retired into the recesses of his big coat, had been
-half asleep.</p>
-
-<p>Then the man began an excited story. He had heard a scuffle and a
-struggle at a point of the road which they were about approaching when
-on his way to meet his master. Wild cries “not like a human being,” he
-said, and the sound of a violent encounter. “I thought of the madman I
-was telling your lordship of yesterday.” “And what was it?” cried Geoff,
-rousing up to instant interest; upon which the groom became apologetic.</p>
-
-<p>“How could I leave my horse, my lord?&mdash;a young beast, very fresh, as
-your lordship knows. He’d have bolted if I’d have left him for a moment.
-It was all I could do, as it was, to hold him in with such cries in his
-ears. I sent on the first man I met. A man does not grapple with a
-madman unless he is obliged to&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“But you sent the other man to do it,” said Geoff, half-amused,
-half-angry. He sprang from the phaeton as they came to the spot which
-the groom pointed out. It was a little dell, the course of a streamlet,
-widening as it ascended, and clothed with trees. Geoff knew the spot
-well. About half a mile further up, on a little green plateau in the
-midst of the line of sheltering wood which covered these slopes, his
-brother’s body had been found. He had been taken to see the spot with
-shuddering interest when he was a child, and had never forgotten the
-fatal place. The wood was very thick, with rank, dark, water-loving
-trees; and, whether it was fancy or reality, had always seemed to Geoff
-the most dismal spot in the county. All was quiet now, or so he thought
-at first. But there was no mistaking the evidence of wet, broken, and
-trampled grass, which showed where some deadly struggle had been. The
-spot was not far<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_363" id="page_363">{363}</a></span> from the road&mdash;about five minutes of ascent, no
-more&mdash;and the young man pressed on, guided by signs of the fray, and in
-increasing anxiety; for almost at the first step he saw an old
-game-pouch thrown on the ground, which he recognised as having been worn
-by Bampfylde. Presently he heard, a little in advance of him, a low
-groan, and the sound of a sympathetic voice. “Could you walk, with my
-arm to steady you? Will you try to walk, my man?” Another low moaning
-cry followed. “My walking’s done in this world,” said a feeble voice.
-Geoff hurried forward, stifling a cry of grief and pain. He had known it
-since he first set foot on that fatal slope. It was Bampfylde’s voice;
-and presently he came in sight of the group. The sympathiser was the
-same labouring man, no doubt, whom his groom had sent to the rescue.
-Wild Bampfylde lay propped upon the mossy bank, his head supported upon
-a bush of heather. The stranger who stood by him had evidently washed
-the blood from his face and unbuttoned his shirt, which was open. There
-was a wound on his forehead, however, from which blood was slowly
-oozing, and his face was pallid as death. “Let me be&mdash;let me be,” he
-said with a groan, as his kind helper tried to raise him. Then a faint
-glimmer of pleasure came over his ghastly face. “Ah, my young lord!” he
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it, Bampfylde? What has happened? Is he much hurt?” cried
-Geoff, kneeling down by his side. The man did not say anything, but
-shook his head. The vagrant himself smiled, with a kind of faint
-amusement in the mournful glimmer of his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Not hurt, my young gentleman; just killed,” he said; “but you’re
-back&mdash;and they’re safe?”</p>
-
-<p>“Safe, Bampfylde; and listen!&mdash;with their father. He has come to take
-care of his own.”</p>
-
-<p>A warmer gleam lighted up the vagrant’s face. “John Musgrave here! Ah,
-but it’s well timed,” he cried feebly. “My young lord, I’m grieved but
-for one thing,&mdash;the old woman. Who will take care of old ’Lizabeth’? and
-she’s been a good woman&mdash;if it had not been her son that went between
-her and her wits. I’m sorry for her, poor old body; very, very sorry for
-her, poor ’Lizabeth. He’ll never be taken now, my young lord.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_364" id="page_364">{364}</a></span> Now he’s
-killed me, there’s none will ever take him. And so we’ll all be ended,
-and the old woman left to die without one&mdash;without one&mdash;&mdash;!”</p>
-
-<p>“My cart is at the foot of the hill,” said Geoff, quickly, addressing
-the labourer, who stood by with tears in his eyes; “take it, and bid the
-groom drive as fast as the horse will go&mdash;and he’s fresh&mdash;for the first
-doctor you can find; and bid them send an easy carriage from
-Stanton&mdash;quick! For every moment you save I’ll give you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“I want no giving. What a man can do for poor Dick Bampfylde, I will,”
-cried the other as he rushed down the slope. The vagrant smiled feebly
-again.</p>
-
-<p>“They’re all good-hearted,” he said. “Not one of them but would do poor
-Dick Bampfylde a good turn; that’s a pleasure, my young lord. And
-you&mdash;you’re the best of all. Ay, let him go, it’ll please you; but me,
-my hour’s come.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bampfylde, does it hurt you to speak? Can you tell me how it was?”</p>
-
-<p>The poor fellow’s eyes were glazing over. He made an effort, when
-Geoff’s voice caught him as it were, and arrested the stupor. “Eh, my
-young lord? What needs to tell? Poor creature, he did not know me for a
-friend, far less a brother. And madness is strong&mdash;it’s strong. Tell the
-old woman that&mdash;it was not <i>me</i> he killed&mdash;but&mdash;one that tried to take
-him. Ay&mdash;we were all playing about the beck, and her calling us to come
-in&mdash;all the family; him and&mdash;Lily&mdash;and me. I was always the least
-account&mdash;but it was me that would aye be first to answer;&mdash;and now we
-are all coming home&mdash;Poor old ’Lizabeth&mdash;Eh! what were you saying, my
-young lord?”</p>
-
-<p>“Bampfylde! has he got clean off again, after this? Where is he? Can you
-tell me&mdash;for the sake of others if not for your own?”</p>
-
-<p>“For mine!&mdash;Would it mend me to tell upon him?&mdash;Nay, nay, you’ll never
-take him&mdash;never now&mdash;but he’ll die&mdash;like the rest of us&mdash;that is what
-puts things square, my young lord&mdash;death!&mdash;it settles all; you’ll find
-him some place on the green turf&mdash;we were aye a family that liked the
-green grass underneath us&mdash;you’ll find him&mdash;as peaceable as me.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_365" id="page_365">{365}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Bampfylde,” cried Geoff, “keep up your courage a little, the men
-will come directly and carry you to Stanton.”</p>
-
-<p>“To carry me&mdash;to the kirkyard&mdash;that’s my place; and put green turf over
-me&mdash;nothing but green turf. So long as you will be kind to old
-’Lizabeth; she’ll live&mdash;she’s not the kind that dies&mdash;and not one of us
-to the fore! What did we do&mdash;we or our fathers?” said the vagrant
-solemnly. “But, oh, that’s true, true&mdash;that’s God’s word: neither he did
-it nor his fathers&mdash;but that the works of God might be manifest. Eh, but
-I cannot see&mdash;I cannot see how the work of God is in it. My
-eyes&mdash;there’s not much good in my eyes now.”</p>
-
-<p>Geoff kneeled beside the dying man not knowing what to do or say. Should
-he speak to him of religion? Should he question him about his own hard
-fate, that they might bring it home to the culprit? But Bampfylde was
-not able for either of these subjects. He was wading in the vague and
-misty country which is between life and death. He threw out his arms in
-the languor and restlessness of dying, and one of them dropped so that
-the fingers dipped in the little brook. This brought another gleam of
-faint pleasure to his pallid face.</p>
-
-<p>“Water&mdash;give me some&mdash;to drink,” he murmured, moving his lips. And then,
-as Geoff brought it to him in the hollow of a leaf, the only thing he
-could think of, and moistened his lips and bathed his forehead, “Thank
-you, Lily,” he said. “That’s pleasant, oh, that’s pleasant. And what was
-it brought you here&mdash;<i>you</i> here?&mdash;they’re all safe, the young
-ones&mdash;thanks to&mdash;&mdash; Eh! it’s not Lily&mdash;but I thought I saw Lily; it’s
-you, my young lord?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I am here&mdash;lean on me, Bampfylde. What can I do for you, what can
-I do?” Geoff had never seen death, and he trembled with awe and solemn
-reverence, far more deeply moved than the dying vagrant who was floating
-away on gentle waves of unconsciousness.</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, Lily&mdash;d’ye hear her calling?&mdash;the house is dark, and the night’s
-fine. But let’s go to her&mdash;let’s go; he was aye the last, though she
-likes him best.” Bampfylde raised himself suddenly with a
-half-convulsive movement. “Poor ’Lizabeth!&mdash;poor old ’Lizabeth&mdash;all
-gone&mdash;all gone!” he said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_366" id="page_366">{366}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>And what an hour Geoff spent supporting the poor head and moistening the
-dry lips of the man who was dead, yet could not die! He did not know
-there had been such struggles in the world.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVII.<br /><br />
-<small>A TRAITOR.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Pennithorne</span> was at the Castle almost all the day during which so
-many things occurred. While the children wandered in the wood and young
-Lord Stanton went in search of them, the Vicar could not leave the
-centre of anxiety. There was no possibility of going upon that quest
-till the evening, and good Mr. Pen thought it his bounden duty to stay
-with John to “take off his attention,” to distract his mind if possible
-from the object of his anxieties. It was all John Musgrave could do, by
-way of consideration for an old friend, to put up with these attentions,
-but he managed to do so without betraying his impatience, and Mr. Pen
-thought he had performed the first duty of friendship. He suggested
-everything he could think of that might have happened; most of his
-suggestions going to prove that Lilias was in very great peril indeed,
-though she might be saved by various ingenious ways. And he took Mary
-aside and shook his head, and said he was afraid it was a very bad
-business. He believed, good man, that he was of the greatest use to them
-both, and congratulated himself on having stayed to discharge this
-Christian duty. But Mrs. Pen at the Vicarage got cross and nervous, and
-did not think her husband was doing his duty to his home. When a
-telegram came in the afternoon, she was not only curious but
-frightened&mdash;for telegrams she thought were always messages of evil. What
-could it tell but harm? Perhaps that her father had been taken ill (Mr.
-Pen himself had no family, nor anybody to speak of belonging to him);
-perhaps that the investment had gone wrong in which all their little
-money was. She tore it open in great agitation, and read as follows:&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“<i>John Musgrave is in the county and near you. Do you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_367" id="page_367">{367}</a></span> remember what is
-your duty as a magistrate, and what is the penalty of not performing
-it?</i>”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Pen read this alarming missive two or three times over before she
-could understand what it meant. John Musgrave! By degrees it became
-clear to her. This was why her husband deserted her, and spent his whole
-day at the Castle. He a magistrate, whose first duty it was to send John
-Musgrave to prison. The penalty&mdash;what was the penalty? The poor woman
-was in such a frenzy of agitation and terror that she did not know what
-to believe. What could they do to him if it was found out? She went to
-the window and looked for him; she went out and walked to the garden
-gate; she was not able to keep still. The penalty&mdash;what was it? Could
-they put him in prison instead of the criminal he allowed to go free?
-That seemed the most natural thing, and imagination conjured up before
-her the dreadful scene of Mr. Pen’s arrest, perhaps when he was going to
-church, perhaps when the house was full of people&mdash;everybody
-seeing&mdash;everybody knowing it. Mrs. Pen saw her husband dragged along the
-road in handcuffs before she came to an end of her imaginations. Was
-there nothing she could do to save him? She was ready to put herself in
-the breach, to say, like a heroine, “Take me, and let him go free?” but
-it did not appear to her likely that the myrmidons of the law would pay
-any attention to such a touching interposition. Then it occurred to her
-to look who it was, a thing she had not noticed at first, who had sent
-this kind warning. But this alarmed her more and more. It was some one
-who called himself “Friend,” who had taken the trouble from a distant
-place in the midland counties to telegraph thus to Mr. Pennithorne. A
-friend&mdash;it was then an anonymous warning, a very alarming thing indeed
-to the vulgar mind. Mrs. Pen worked herself up into a state of intense
-nervous agitation. She sent for the gardener that she might send him at
-once to the Castle for her husband. But before he came another train of
-reflections came across her mind. John Musgrave was her William’s
-friend. He was devoted to the family generally, and to this member of it
-in particular. Was he not capable of going to prison&mdash;of letting himself
-be handcuffed and dragged along the public road, and cast into a
-dungeon,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_368" id="page_368">{368}</a></span> rather than give up his friend to justice? Oh, what could the
-poor woman do? If she could but take some step&mdash;do something to save him
-before he knew.</p>
-
-<p>All at once there occurred to Mrs. Pen a plan of action which would put
-everything right&mdash;save William in spite of himself, and without his
-knowledge, and put John Musgrave in the hands of justice without any
-action of his which could be supposed unfriendly. She herself, Mrs. Pen,
-did not even know John, so that if she betrayed him it would be nothing
-unkind, nobody could blame her, not Mary Musgrave herself. When the
-gardener came, instead of sending him to the Castle for her husband, she
-sent him to the village to order the fly in which she occasionally paid
-visits; and she put on her best clothes with a quiver of anxiety and
-terror in her heart. She put the telegram in her pocket, and drove
-away&mdash;with a half-satisfaction in her own appearance and half-pride in
-bidding the man drive to Elfdale, to Sir Henry Stanton’s, mingling with
-the real anxiety in her heart. She was frightened too at what she was
-about to do&mdash;but nobody could expect from her any consideration for John
-Musgrave, whom she had never seen; whereas, to save her husband from the
-consequences of his foolish faithfulness, was not that the evident and
-first duty of a wife? It was a long drive, and she had many misgivings
-as she drove along, with plenty of time to consider and reconsider all
-the arguments she had already gone over; but yet when she got to Elfdale
-she did not seem to have had any time to think at all. She was hurried
-in, before she knew, to Sir Henry Stanton’s presence. He was the nearest
-magistrate of any importance, and Mrs. Pen had a slight visiting
-acquaintance, of which she was very proud, with Lady Stanton. Had she
-repented at the last of her mission, she could always make out to
-herself that it was Lady Stanton she had come to visit. But it was Sir
-Henry whom she asked for, alarm for her husband at the last moment
-getting the better of her fears.</p>
-
-<p>Sir Henry received her with a great deal of surprise. What could the
-little country clergyman’s wife want with him? But he was still more
-surprised when he heard her errand. John Musgrave at home!&mdash;within
-reach&mdash;daring justice&mdash;defying the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_369" id="page_369">{369}</a></span> law! His wife had told him of some
-supposed discovery which she at least imagined likely to clear Musgrave,
-by bringing in another possible criminal, but that must be some merely
-nonsensical theory he had no doubt, such as women and boys are apt to
-indulge:&mdash;for if anything could be worse than women, Sir Henry felt it
-was boys inspired by women, and carrying out their fancies. Therefore he
-had paid very little regard to what his wife said. Mrs. Pennithorne had
-the advantage of rousing him into excitement. “What! come back!&mdash;daring
-justice to touch him&mdash;insulting the family of the man he had killed, and
-the laws of the country!” Sir Henry fumed at the audacity, the evident
-absence of all remorse or compunction. “He must be a shameless,
-heartless ruffian,” he said; and then he looked at the harmless little
-woman who had brought him this news. “It is very public-spirited to
-bestir yourself in the matter,” he said. “Have you seen the man, Mrs.
-Pennithorne, or how have you come to know?”</p>
-
-<p>“I have not seen him. Sir Henry. I don’t know anything about him,
-therefore nobody could say that it was unkind in <i>me</i>. How can you have
-any feeling for a person you never saw? I got&mdash;the news&mdash;to-day when my
-husband was at the Castle&mdash;<i>he</i> did not tell me&mdash;he has nothing to do
-with it. He is a great friend of the Musgraves, Sir Henry; and I was
-told if he knew and did not tell it would bring him into trouble; so I
-came to you. I thought it was a wife’s duty. I did not wait till he came
-in to show him the telegram, but I came straight on to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you got a telegram?”</p>
-
-<p>“Did I say a telegram?” she said, frightened. “Oh&mdash;I did not think what
-I was saying. But why should I conceal it? Yes, indeed, Sir Henry, this
-afternoon there came a telegram. I have never had a moment’s peace since
-then. I thought at first I would send for him and see what he would do,
-but then I thought&mdash;he thinks so much of the Musgraves&mdash;no doubt it
-would be a trouble to him to go against them; and so I thought before he
-came in I would come to you. I would not do anything without consulting
-my husband in any ordinary way, indeed, I assure you, Sir Henry. I am
-not a woman of that kind;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_370" id="page_370">{370}</a></span> but in a thing that might have brought him
-into such trouble&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“And is that telegram all you know, Mrs. Pennithorne?”</p>
-
-<p>A horrible dread that he was going to disapprove of her, instead of
-commending her, ran through her mind.</p>
-
-<p>“It is all,” she said, faltering; “I have it in my pocket.”</p>
-
-<p>To show the telegram was the last thing in her mind, yet she produced it
-now in impetuous self-defence. Having made such a sacrifice as she had
-done, acted on her own authority, incurred the expense of the fly,
-absented herself from home without anybody’s knowledge (though William
-was far too much wrapped up in the Musgraves to be aware of that), it
-was more than Mrs. Pennithorne could bear to have her motives thus
-unappreciated. She held out the telegram without pausing to think. He
-took it, and read it, with a curious look on his face. Sir Henry took a
-low view of wives, and of women in general. If she belonged to him how
-he would put her down, this meddling woman! but he was glad to learn
-what she had to tell, and to be able to act upon it. To approve of your
-informant and to use the information obtained are two very different
-things.</p>
-
-<p>“This is a threat,” he said; “this is a very curious communication, Mrs.
-Pennithorne. Do you know who sent it? Friend! Is it a friend in the
-abstract, or does your husband know any one of the name?”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know who it is. Oh no, Sir Henry. William knows no one&mdash;no one
-whom I don’t know! His friends are my friends. My husband is the best of
-men. He has not a secret from me. If I may seem to be acting behind his
-back it is only to save him, Sir Henry&mdash;only for his good.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are acting in the most public-spirited way, Mrs. Pennithorne; but
-it is very strange, and I wonder who could have sent it. Do you know any
-one at this place?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nobody,” she said, composing herself, yet not quite satisfied either,
-for public-spirited was but a poor sort of praise. She was conscious
-that she was betraying her husband as well as John Musgrave, and nothing
-but distinct applause and assurance that she had saved her William could
-have put her conscience quite at ease.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_371" id="page_371">{371}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“It is very odd&mdash;very odd,” he said; “but I am very much obliged to you
-for bringing this information to me, and I shall lose no time in acting
-upon it. For a long time, a very long time, this man has evaded the law;
-but it will not do to defy it&mdash;it never does to defy it. He shall find
-that it is more watchful than he thought.”</p>
-
-<p>“And, Sir Henry, of course it is of my husband I must think first. You
-will not say he knew? You will not let him get into trouble about it?&mdash;a
-clergyman, a man whom every one looks up to! You will save him from the
-penalty, Sir Henry? Indeed I have no reason to believe he knew at all;
-he has never seen this thing. I don’t suppose he knows at all. But he
-might be so easily got into trouble! Oh, Sir Henry! you will not let
-them bring in William’s name?”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall take care that Mr. Pennithorne is not mentioned at all,” he
-said, with a polite bow; but he did not add, “You are a heroic woman and
-you have saved your husband,” which was the thing poor Mrs. Pen wanted
-to support her. She put back her telegram in her pocket very humbly, and
-rose up, feeling herself more a culprit than a heroine, to go away. At
-this moment Lady Stanton herself came in hurriedly.</p>
-
-<p>“I heard Mrs. Pennithorne was here,” she said, with a half-apology to
-her husband, “and I thought I might come and ask what was the last news
-from Penninghame&mdash;if there was any change. I am not
-interrupting&mdash;business?”</p>
-
-<p>“No; you will be interested in the news Mrs. Pennithorne brings me,”
-said Sir Henry, with a certain satisfaction. “Mr. Musgrave’s son John,
-in whom you have always shown so much interest, Walter Stanton’s
-murderer&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no,” she said, with a shudder, folding her hands instinctively;
-“no, no!” The colour went out of her very lips. She was about to hear
-that he had died. He must have died on the very day she saw him. She
-listened, looking at her husband all pale and awe-stricken, with a gasp
-in her throat.</p>
-
-<p>&mdash;“Is here,” said Sir Henry, deliberately. “Here, where it was done,
-defying the law.”</p>
-
-<p>Mary uttered a great cry of mingled relief and despair.</p>
-
-<p>“Then it was he&mdash;it was he&mdash;and no ghost!” she cried.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_372" id="page_372">{372}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“What! you knew and never told me? I am not so happy in my wife,” said
-Sir Henry, with a threatening smile, “as Mr. Pennithorne.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, was it he&mdash;was it he?&mdash;no spirit&mdash;but himself? God help him,” cried
-Lady Stanton, with sudden tears. “No, I could not have told you, for I
-thought it was an apparition. And I would not, Henry,” she added with a
-kind of generous passion, “I would not, if I could. How could I betray
-an innocent man?”</p>
-
-<p>“Happily Mrs. Pennithorne has saved you the trouble,” he said, getting
-up impatiently from his seat. He resented his wife’s silence, but he
-scorned the other woman who had brought him the news. “Do not let me
-disturb you, ladies, but this is too important for delay. The warrant
-must be out to-night. I trust to your honour, or I might arrest you
-both,” he said with a sneer&mdash;“two fair prisoners&mdash;lest you should warn
-the man and defeat justice again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Henry, you are not going to arrest him&mdash;to <i>arrest</i> him&mdash;after what I
-told you? I told you that Geoff&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Geoff! send Geoff to your nursery, to play with your children, Lady
-Stanton,” he cried, in rising wrath, “rather than make a puppet of him
-to carry out your own ideas. I have had enough of boys’ nonsense and
-women’s. Go to your tea-table, my lady, and leave me to manage my own
-concerns.”</p>
-
-<p>Then Lady Stanton&mdash;was it not natural?&mdash;with a white, self-contained
-passion, turned upon the other commonplace woman by her side, who stood
-trembling before the angry man, yet siding with him in her heart, as
-such women do.</p>
-
-<p>“And is it you that have betrayed him?” she cried; “do you know that
-your husband owes everything to him&mdash;everything? Oh, it cannot be Mr.
-Pen’s doing&mdash;he loved them all too well. If it is you, how will you bear
-to have his blood on your head? God knows what they may prove against
-him, or what they may do to him; but whatever it is, it will be a lie,
-and his blood will be on your head. Oh, how could you, a woman, betray
-an innocent man?”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Stanton’s passion, Sir Henry’s lowering countenance, the sudden
-atmosphere of tragedy in which she found herself, were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_373" id="page_373">{373}</a></span> too much for
-poor Mrs. Pen. She burst into hysterical crying, and dropped down upon
-the floor between these two excited people. Perhaps it was as good a way
-as any other of extricating herself out of the most difficult position
-in which a poor little, well-intentioned clergywoman had ever been.</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVIII.<br /><br />
-<small>THE MOTHER.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> afternoon of the day on which poor Bampfylde died was bright and
-fine, one of those beautiful October days which are more lovely in their
-wistful brightness, more touching, than any other period of the
-year&mdash;Summer still lingering, the smile on her lip and the tear in her
-eye, dressed out in borrowed splendour, her own fair garniture of
-flowers and greenery worn out, but wearing her Indian mantle with a
-tender grace, subdued and sweet. The late mignonette over-blown, yet
-fragrant, was sweet in the little village gardens, underneath the pale
-China roses that still kept up a little glow of blossom. Something had
-excited the village; the people were at their doors, and gathered in
-groups about. Miss Price, the dressmaker, held a little court. There was
-evidently something to tell, something to talk over more than was usual.
-The few passengers who were about stayed to hear, and each little knot
-of people which had managed to secure a new listener was happy. They
-were all in full tide of talk, commenting upon and discussing some
-occurrence with a certain hush, at the same time, of awe about them,
-which showed that the news was not of a joyful character&mdash;when some one
-came down through the village whose appearance raised the excitement to
-fever point. It was the well-known figure of the old woman in her grey
-cloak&mdash;so well known up the water and down the water, which thus
-suddenly appeared among them&mdash;old ’Lizabeth Bampfylde! The gossips
-shrank closer together, and gazed at her with eager curiosity all, with
-sympathy some. They drew away<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_374" id="page_374">{374}</a></span> from her path with a feeling which was
-half reverence and half fear. “Does she know&mdash;do you think she knows?”
-some of them asked; and exclamations of, “Poor old body&mdash;poor woman,”
-were rife among the kind-hearted; but all under their breath. ’Lizabeth
-took no notice of the people in her path; perhaps she did not even see
-them. She was warm with her long walk from the fells, and had thrown off
-her hood and knotted her red handkerchief over her cap. She went along
-thus with the long swing of her still vigorous limbs, stately and
-self-absorbed. Whatever she knew, her mind was too much occupied to take
-any notice of the people in her way. She had walked far, and she had far
-to walk still. She went on steadily through the midst of them without a
-pause, looking neither to the right nor the left. There was a tragic
-directness in the very way she moved, going straight as a bird flies, at
-least as straight as the houses permitted, minding no windings of the
-road. The people in front of her stood back and whispered; the people
-behind closed upon her path. Did she know? Would she have had the
-fortitude to come walking down here all this long way had she known? Was
-she going to Stanton, where <i>they</i> were? Last of all, timidly, the
-people said among themselves, “Should not some one tell her?&mdash;some one
-should speak to her;” but by this time she had passed through the
-village, and they all felt with a sensation of relief that it was too
-late.</p>
-
-<p>’Lizabeth walked on steadily along the water-side. It was a long way
-that she had still before her. She was going all the way down the water
-to Sir Henry Stanton’s, as Mrs. Pennithorne had gone the day before. The
-walk was nothing to her, and the long silence of it was grateful to her
-mind. She knew nothing of what had happened on the other side of the
-lake. Up in her little house among the hills, all alone in the strange
-cessation of work, the dead leisure which seemed to have fallen upon
-her, she had thought of everything till her head and her heart ached
-alike. Everything now seemed to have gone wrong. Her daughter dead in
-exile, and her daughter’s husband still a banished man, all for the sake
-of him who was roaming over the country, a fugitive escaped from her
-care. The life of her son Dick had been ruined by the same means. And
-now the cycle of misfortune<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_375" id="page_375">{375}</a></span> was enlarging. The little boy, who was the
-heir of the Musgraves, was lost too, because he had no one to protect
-him&mdash;Lily’s child; and the other Lily, the little lady whom she felt to
-be her own representative as well as Lily’s, who could tell what would
-become of her? It seemed to ’Lizabeth that this child was the most
-precious of all. All the rest had suffered for the sake of her madman;
-but the second Lily, the little princess, who had sprung from her common
-stock, nothing must touch. Yet it cannot be said that it was for Lily’s
-sake that she made up her mind at last; it was nothing so simple, it was
-a combination and complication of many motives. He was gone out of her
-hands who had been for years the absorbing occupation of her life. Dick
-was after him, it was true; but if Dick failed, how was he to be got
-without public help? and that help could not be given until the whole
-story was told. Then her own loneliness wrought upon her, and all the
-whispers and echoes that circled about the cottage, when he was not
-there. Her son, ill-fated companion, the ruin of all who had any
-connection with him, absorbed her so much in general, that she had no
-time to survey the surroundings and think of all that was, and had been,
-and might be. Was it he after all that was the cause of all the
-suffering? What did he know of it? The story of Lily and of John
-Musgrave was a blank to him. He knew nothing of what they had suffered,
-was innocent of it in reality. Had he known, would he not have given
-himself up a hundred times rather than the innocent should suffer for
-him? Was it he, then, or his mother, who was the cause of all? Several
-times, during their long agony, such thoughts had overwhelmed
-’Lizabeth’s mind. They had come over her in full force when the children
-came to the Castle, and then it was that she had been brought to the
-length of revealing her secret to young Lord Stanton. Now everything was
-desperate about her; the little boy lost, the madman himself lost; no
-telling at any moment what misery and horror might come next. She
-thought this over day after day as the time passed, and no news came;
-waiting in the great loneliness, with her doors all open, that he might
-come in if some new impulse, or some touch of use and wont, should lead
-him back, her ears intent to hear every sound; her mind prepared<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_376" id="page_376">{376}</a></span> (she
-thought) for anything; fresh violence, perhaps violence to himself;
-miserable death, terrible discovery. She thought she heard his wild
-whoops and cries every time the wind raved among the hills; if a
-mountain stream rushed down a little quicker than usual, swollen by the
-rain, over its pebbles, she thought it was his hurrying steps. It was
-always of him that her thoughts were, not of her other son who was
-pursuing the madman all about, subject to the same accidents, and who
-might perhaps be his victim instead of his captor. She never thought of
-that. But she was driven at last to a supreme resolution. Nobody could
-doubt his madness, could think it was a feint put on to escape
-punishment, now. And God, who was angry, might be propitiated if at last
-she made Him, though unwillingly, this sacrifice, this homage to justice
-and truth. This was the idea which finally prevailed in her mind. She
-would go and tell her story, and perhaps an angry God would accept, and
-restore the wanderer to her. If he were safe, safe even in prison, in
-some asylum, it would be better at least than his wild career of madness
-among all the dangers of the hills. She had risen in the morning from
-her uneasy bed, where she lay half-dressed, always watching, listening
-to every sound, with this determination upon her. She would propitiate
-God. She would do this thing she ought to have done so long ago. She did
-not deny that she ought to have done it, and now certainly she would do
-it, and God would be satisfied, and the tide of fate would turn.</p>
-
-<p>All this struggle had not been without leaving traces upon her. Her
-ruddy colour, the colour of exposure as well as of health and vigour,
-was not altogether gone, but she was more brown than ruddy, and this
-partial paleness and the extreme gravity of her countenance added to the
-stately aspect she bore. She might have been a peasant-queen, as she
-moved along with her steady, long, swinging footstep, able for any
-exertion, above fatigue or common weakness. A mile or two more or less,
-what did that matter? It did not occur to her to go to Mr. Pennithorne,
-though he was nearer, with her story. She went straight to Sir Henry
-Stanton. He had a family right to be the avenger of blood. It would be
-all the compensation that could be made to the Stantons, as well as a
-sacrifice propitiating God. And now<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_377" id="page_377">{377}</a></span> that she had made up her mind there
-was no detail from which she shrank. ’Lizabeth never remarked the
-pitying and wondering looks which were cast upon her. She went on
-straight to her end with a sense of the solemnity and importance of her
-mission, which perhaps gave her a certain support. It was no light thing
-that she was about to do. That there was a certain commotion and
-agitation about Elfdale did not strike her in the excited state of her
-mind. It was natural that agitation should accompany her wherever she
-went. It harmonized with her mood, and seemed to her (unconsciously) a
-homage and respectful adhesion of nature to what she was about to do.</p>
-
-<p>The great door was open, the hall empty, the way all clear to the room
-in which Sir Henry held his little court of justice. ’Lizabeth had come
-by instinct to the great hall door&mdash;a woman with such a tragical object
-does not steal in behind-backs or enter like one of the unconsidered
-poor. She went in unchallenged, seeing nobody except one of the girls,
-who peeped out from a door, and retreated again at sight of her.
-’Lizabeth saw nothing strange in all this. She went in, more
-majestically, more slowly than ever, like a woman in a procession&mdash;a
-woman marching to the stake. What stake, what burning could be so
-terrible? Two of the county police were at the open door; they looked at
-her with wondering awe, and let her pass. What could any one say to her?
-An army would have let her pass&mdash;<i>the mother</i>!&mdash;for they knew, though
-she did not know. ’Lizabeth saw but vaguely a number of people in the
-room&mdash;so much the better; let all hear who would hear. It would be so
-much the greater propitiation to an outraged heaven. She came in with a
-kind of dumb state about her, everybody giving way before her. “The
-mother!” they all said to each other with dismay, yet excitement. Some
-one brought her a chair with anxious and pitying looks. She put it away
-with a wave of her hand, yet made a little curtsey of acknowledgment in
-old-fashioned politeness. It never occurred to her mind to inquire why
-she was received with such obsequious attention. She advanced to the
-table at which Sir Henry sat. He too looked pityingly, kindly at her,
-not like his usual severity. God had prepared everything for her
-atonement&mdash;was it not an earnest of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_378" id="page_378">{378}</a></span> its acceptance that He should thus
-have put every obstacle out of her way?</p>
-
-<p>“Sir Henry Stanton,” she said, “I’ve come to make you acquaint with a
-story that all the country should have heard long ago. I’ve not had the
-courage to tell it till this moment when the Lord has given me strength.
-Bid them take pen and paper and put it all down in hand of write, and
-I’ll set my name to it. It’s to clear them that are innocent that I’ve
-come to speak, and to let it be known who was guilty; but it wasna him
-that was guilty&mdash;it wasna him&mdash;but the madness in him,” she said, her
-voice breaking for a moment. “My poor distracted lad!’</p>
-
-<p>“Give her a seat,” said Sir Henry. “My poor woman, if you have any
-information to give about this terrible event&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, I have information&mdash;plenty information. Nay, I want no seat. I’m
-standing as if I was at the judgment-seat of God; there’s where I’ve
-stood this many a year, and been judged, but aye held fast. What is man,
-a worm, to strive with his Maker?&mdash;but me, I’ve done that, that am but a
-woman. I humbly crave the Almighty’s pardon, and I’ve made up my mind to
-do justice now&mdash;at the last.”</p>
-
-<p>The people about looked at each other, questioning one another what it
-was, all but two, who knew what she meant. Young Lord Stanton, who was
-close to the table, looked across at a tall stranger behind, by whom the
-village constable was standing, and who replied to Geoff’s look by a
-melancholy half-smile. The others looked at each other, and ’Lizabeth,
-though she saw no one, saw this wave of meaning, and felt it natural
-too.</p>
-
-<p>“Ay,” she said, “you may wonder; and you’ll wonder more before all’s
-done. I am a woman that was the mother of three; bonny bairns&mdash;though I
-say it that ought not; ye might have ranged the country from Carlisle to
-London town, and not found their like. My Lily was the beauty of the
-whole water; up or down, there was not one that you would look at when
-my lass was by. What need I speak? You all know that as well as me.”</p>
-
-<p>The swell of pride in her as she spoke filled the whole company with a
-thrill of admiration and wonder, like some great actress disclosing the
-greatness of impassioned nature in the simplest<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_379" id="page_379">{379}</a></span> words. She was old, but
-she was beautiful too. She looked round upon them with the air of a
-dethroned empress, from whom the recollection of her imperial state
-could never depart. Rachel could not have done it, nor perhaps any other
-of her profession. There was the sweetness of remembered triumph in the
-midst of the most tragic depths; a gleam of pride and pleasure out of
-the background of shame and pain.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! that’s all gone and past,” she went on with a sigh. “My eldest lad
-was more than handsome, he was a genius as well. He was taken away from
-me when he was but a little lad&mdash;and never came home again till&mdash;till
-the devil got hold of him, and made him think shame of his poor mother,
-and the poor place he was born in. I would never have blamed him. I
-would have had him hold his head with the highest, as he had a
-right&mdash;for had he not gotten that place for himself?&mdash;but when he came
-back to the water-side a great gentleman and scholar, and would never
-have let on where he belonged to, one that is not here to bear the
-blame,” said ’Lizabeth, setting her teeth&mdash;“one that is gone to his
-account&mdash;and well I wot the Almighty has punished him for his ill
-deeds&mdash;betrayed my lad. Some of the gentry were good to him&mdash;as good as
-the angels in heaven&mdash;but some were as devils, that being their nature.
-And this is what I’ve got to say:” here she made a pause, raised herself
-to her full height, and threw off the red kerchief from her head in her
-agitation. “I’ve come here to accuse before God, and you, Sir Henry, my
-son, Abel Bampfylde, him I was most proud of and loved best, of the
-murder of young Lord Stanton, which took place on the morning of the 2nd
-of August, eighteen hundred and forty-five&mdash;fifteen years ago and more.”</p>
-
-<p>The sensation that followed is indescribable. Sir Henry Stanton himself
-rose from his seat, excited by wonder, horror, and pity, beyond all
-ordinary rule. The bystanders had but a vague sense of the extraordinary
-revelation she made, so much were they moved by the more extraordinary
-passion in her, and the position in which she stood. “My good woman, my
-poor woman!” he cried, “this last dreadful tragedy has gone to your
-brain&mdash;and no wonder. You don’t know what you say.”</p>
-
-<p>She smiled&mdash;mournfully enough, but still it was a smile&mdash;and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_380" id="page_380">{380}</a></span> shook her
-head. “If you had said it as often to yourself as I have done&mdash;night and
-day&mdash;night and day; open me when I’m dead, and you’ll find it here,” she
-cried&mdash;all unaware that this same language of passion had been used
-before&mdash;and pressing her hand upon her breast. “The second of August,
-eighteen hundred and forty-five&mdash;if you had said it over as often as
-me!”</p>
-
-<p>There was a whisper all about, and the lawyer of the district, who acted
-as Sir Henry’s clerk on important occasions, stooped towards him and
-said something. “The date is right. Yes, yes, I know the date is right,”
-Sir Henry said, half-angrily. Then added, “There must be insanity in the
-family. What more like the effort of a diseased imagination than to link
-the old crime of fifteen years ago with what has happened to-day?”</p>
-
-<p>“Is it me that you call insane?” said ’Lizabeth. “Eh, if it was but me!
-But well I know what I’m saying.” Then the wild looks of all around her
-suddenly impressed the old woman, too much occupied hitherto to think
-what their looks meant. She turned round upon them with slowly awakening
-anxiety. “You’re looking strange at me,” she cried, “you’re all looking
-strange at me! What is this you’re saying that has happened to-day? Oh,
-my lad is mad!&mdash;he’s roaming the hills, and Dick after him; he does na
-know that he’s doing; he’s out of his senses; it’s no ill meaning. Lads,
-some of you tell me, I’m going distracted. What has happened to-day?”</p>
-
-<p>The change in her appearance was wonderful; her solemn stateliness and
-abstraction were gone. Here was something she did not know. The flush of
-anxiety came to her cheeks, her eyes contracted, her lips fell apart.</p>
-
-<p>“Tell me,” she said, “for the love of God!”</p>
-
-<p>No one moved. They looked at each other with pale, alarmed faces. How
-could they tell her? Geoff stepped forward and took her by the arm very
-gently. “Will you come with me?” he said. “Something has happened;
-something that will grieve you deeply. I&mdash;I promised Dick to tell you,
-but not here. Won’t you come with me?”</p>
-
-<p>She drew herself out of his grasp with some impatience. “There’s been
-some new trouble,” she said to herself&mdash;“some new trouble! No doubt more
-violence. Oh, God, forgive him;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_381" id="page_381">{381}</a></span> but he does not know what he’s doing.
-It’s you, my young lord?&mdash;you know it’s true what I’ve been saying. But
-this new trouble, what is it?&mdash;more blood? Oh, tell me the worst; I can
-bear it all, say, even if he was dead.”</p>
-
-<p>“<span class="lftspc">’</span>Lizabeth,” said Geoff, with tears in his eyes&mdash;and again everybody
-looked on as at a tragedy&mdash;“you are a brave woman; you have borne a
-great deal in your life. He is dead; but that is not all.”</p>
-
-<p>She did not note, nor perhaps hear, the last words. How should she? The
-first was enough. She stood still in the midst of them, all gazing at
-her, with her hands clasped before her. For a moment she said nothing.
-The last drop of blood seemed to ebb from her brown cheeks. Then she
-raised her face upward, with a smile upon it. “The Lord God be praised,”
-she said; “He’s taken my lad before me.”</p>
-
-<p>And when they brought to her the seat she had rejected, ’Lizabeth
-allowed herself to be placed upon it. The extreme tension of both body
-and mind seemed to have relaxed. The look of tragic endurance left her
-face. A softened aspect of suffering, a kind of faint smile, like a wan
-sunbeam, stole over it. The moisture came to her strained eyes. “Gone?
-Is he gone at last? On the hill-side was it?&mdash;in some wild corner, where
-none but God could be near, not his mother? And me that was dreading and
-dreading I would be taken first; for who would have patience like his
-mother? But after all, you know, neighbours, the father comes foremost;
-and had more to do with him&mdash;more to do with him&mdash;than even me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Take her away, Geoff,” said Sir Henry. The men were all overcome with
-this scene, and with the knowledge of what remained to be told. Sir
-Henry was not easily moved, but there was something even in <i>his</i> throat
-which choked him. He could not bear it, though it was nothing to him.
-“Geoff, this is not a place to tell her all you have got to tell. Take
-her away&mdash;take her&mdash;to Lady Stanton.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nay, nay,” she said; “it’s my deathdoom, but it’s not like other
-sorrow&mdash;I know well what grief is&mdash;when I heard for certain my Lily was
-dead and gone, and me never to see her more. But this is not the same;
-it’s my death, but I cannot<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_382" id="page_382">{382}</a></span> call it sorrow; not like the loss of a son.
-I’m glad too, if you understand that. Poor lad!&mdash;my Abel! Ay, ay; you’ll
-not tell me but what God understands, and is more pitiful of His
-handiwork, say than the like of you or me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Come with me,” said Geoff, taking her by the arm. “Come, and I will
-tell you everything, my poor ’Lizabeth. You know you have a friend in
-me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, my young lord; but first let them write down what I’ve said, and
-let me put my name to it. All the more because he’s dead and gone this
-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Everything shall be done as you wish,” said Geoff anxiously; “but come
-with me&mdash;come with me&mdash;my poor woman; this is not a place for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said&mdash;she would not rise from her seat. She turned round to
-the table where Sir Henry and his clerk sat. “I must end my work now
-it’s begun&mdash;I’ve another son, my kind gentlemen, and he will never
-forgive me if I do not end my work. Write it out and let me sign. I have
-but my Dick to think of now.”</p>
-
-<p>A thrill of horror ran through the little assembly: to tell her that he
-too was gone, who would dare to do it? John Musgrave, whom she had not
-seen, stood behind, and covered his face with his hands. Sir Henry, for
-all his steady nerves and unsympathetic mind, fell back in his chair
-with a low groan. Only young Geoff, his features all quivering, the
-tears in his eyes, stood by her side.</p>
-
-<p>“Humour her,” he said. “Let her have her own way. None of us at this
-moment surely could refuse her her way.”</p>
-
-<p>The lawyer nodded. He had a heart of flesh and not of stone; and
-’Lizabeth sat and waited, with her hands clasped together, her head a
-little raised, her countenance beyond the power of painting. Grief and
-joy mingled in it, and relief and anguish. Her eyes were dilated and
-wet, but she shed no tears; their very orbits seemed enlarged, and there
-was a quivering smile upon her mouth&mdash;a smile such as makes spectators
-weep. “Here I and sorrow sit.” There was never a king worthy the name
-but would have felt his state as nothing in this presence. But there was
-no struggle in her now. She had yielded, and all was peace<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_383" id="page_383">{383}</a></span> about her.
-She would have waited for days had it been necessary. That what she had
-begun should be ended was the one thing above all.</p>
-
-<p>A man came hurriedly in as all the people present waited round,
-breathless and reverential, for the completion of her testimony. Their
-business, whatever it was, was arrested by force of nature. The kind old
-Dogberry from the village, who had been standing by John Musgrave’s side
-by way of guarding him, put up his hand to his forehead and made a
-rustic bow to his supposed prisoner. “I always knowed that was how it
-would turn out,” he said, as he hobbled off, to which John Musgrave
-replied only by a faint smile, but stood still, as motionless as a
-picture, though all semblance of restraint had melted away. But while
-all waited thus reverentially a sudden messenger came rushing in, and
-addressing Sir Henry in a loud voice, announced that the coroner had
-sent him to make preparations for the inquest. “And he wants to know
-what time it will be most convenient for the jury to inspect the two
-bodies; and if they are both in the same place; and if it’s true.”</p>
-
-<p>There was a universal hush, at which the man stopped in amazement. Then
-his eye, guided by the looks of the others, fell upon the old woman in
-the chair. She had heard him, and she was roused. Her face turned
-towards him with a growing wonder. “She here! O Lord, forgive me!” he
-cried, and fell back.</p>
-
-<p>“Two bodies!” she said. A shudder came over her. She got up slowly from
-her seat and looked round upon them all. “Two&mdash;another, another!&mdash;oh, my
-unhappy lad!” She wrung her hands and looked round upon them, “Maybe
-another house made desolate; maybe another woman&mdash;Will you tell me who
-the other was?”</p>
-
-<p>Here the labouring man, who had been with Wild Bampfylde on the
-hill-side, and who was standing by, suddenly succumbed to the strange
-horror and anguish of the moment. He burst out loudly into tears, crying
-like a child. “Oh, poor ’Lizabeth, poor ’Lizabeth!” he cried; he could
-not bear any more.</p>
-
-<p>’Lizabeth looked at this man with the air of one awakening from a dream.
-Then she turned a look of inquiry upon those<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_384" id="page_384">{384}</a></span> around her. No one would
-meet her eye. They shrank one behind another away from her, and more
-than one man burst forth into momentary weeping like the first, and some
-covered their faces in their hands. Even Geoff, sobbing like a child,
-turned away from her for a moment. She held out her hands to them with a
-pitiful cry, “Say it’s not that&mdash;say it’s not that!” she cried. The
-shrill scream of anguish ran through the house. It brought Lady Stanton
-and all the women shuddering from every corner. They all knew what it
-was and how it was. The mother! What more needed to be said? They came
-in and surrounded her, the frivolous girls and the rough women from the
-kitchen, all together, while the men stood about looking on. Not even
-Sir Henry could resist the passion of horror and sorrow which had taken
-possession of the place. He cried with a voice all hoarse and trembling,
-“Take her away!&mdash;take her away!”</p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXXIX.<br /><br />
-<small>THE TRAGEDY ENDS.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">’Lizabeth</span> Bampfylde went on to Stanton that same afternoon, where the
-remains of her two sons were lying. But she would not go in Lady
-Stanton’s carriage.</p>
-
-<p>“Nay, nay; carriages were never made for me. I will walk, my lady. It’s
-best for me, body and soul.”</p>
-
-<p>She had recovered herself after the anguish of that discovery. Before
-the sympathisers round her had ceased to sob, ’Lizabeth had raised
-herself up in the midst of them like an old tower. The storm had raged
-round her, but had not crushed her. Her face and even her lips had lost
-all trace of colour, her eyes were hollow and widened out in their
-sockets, like caves to hold the slow welling out of salt tears. There
-was a convulsive trembling now in the pose of her fine head, and in her
-hands; but her strength was not touched.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_385" id="page_385">{385}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, how can you walk?” Lady Stanton said; “you are not able for it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am able for anything it’s God’s pleasure to send,” she said; “though
-it’s little even He can do to me now.” The women stood round her with
-pitiful looks, some of them weeping unrestrainedly; but the tears that
-’Lizabeth shed came one by one, slow gathering, rarely falling. She put
-on her red handkerchief over her cap again, with hands that were steady
-enough till that twitch of nervous movement took them. “It should be
-black,” she said, with a half-smile; “ay, I should be a’ black from head
-to foot, from head to foot, if there was one left to mind.” Then she
-turned upon them with again her little stately curtsey. “I’m not a woman
-of many words, and ye may judge what heart I have to speak; but I thank
-ye all,” and, with once more a kind of smile, she set out upon her way.</p>
-
-<p>John Musgrave had been standing by; he had spoken to no one, not even to
-Lady Stanton, who, trembling with a consciousness that he was there, had
-not been able, in the presence of this great anguish, to think of any
-other. He, and his story, and his return, altogether had been thrown
-entirely into the background by these other events. He came forward now,
-and followed ’Lizabeth out of the gate. “I am going with you,” he said.
-The name “mother” was on his lips, but he dared not say it. She gave a
-slight glance at him, and recognised him. But if one had descended from
-heaven to accompany her, what would that have been to ’Lizabeth? It was
-as if they had parted yesterday.</p>
-
-<p>“Ay,” she said; then, after a pause, “it’s you that has the best right.”</p>
-
-<p>The tragedy had closed very shortly after that penultimate chapter which
-ended with the death of Wild Bampfylde. When the carriage and its
-attendants arrived to remove him to Stanton he was lying on Geoff’s
-shoulder, struggling for his last breath. It was too late then to
-disturb the agony. The men stood about reverentially till the last gasp
-was over, then carried the vagrant tenderly to the foot of the hill,
-with a respect which no one had ever shown him before. One of the party,
-a straggler, who had strayed further up the dell in the interval of
-waiting, saw traces<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_386" id="page_386">{386}</a></span> above among the broken bushes, which made him call
-some of his comrades as soon as their first duty was done. And there on
-the little plateau, where Walter Stanton’s body had been found fifteen
-years before, lay that of his murderer, the madman who had wrought so
-much misery. He was found lying across the stream as if he had stooped
-to drink, and had not been able to raise himself. The running water had
-washed all traces of murder from him. When they lifted him, with much
-precaution, not knowing whether his stillness might mean a temporary
-swoon, or a feint of madness to beguile them, his pale marble
-countenance seemed a reproach to the lookers-on. Even with the aspect of
-his victim fresh in their eyes, the men could not believe that this had
-ever been a furious maniac or man slayer. One of them went to look for
-Geoff, and to arrest the progress of the other funeral procession.
-“There’s another one, my lord,” he said, “all torn and tattered in his
-clothes, but with the look of a king.” And Geoff, notwithstanding his
-horror, could not but look with a certain awe upon the worn countenance.
-It might have been that of a man worn with great labours, with thought,
-with the high musings of philosophy, or schemes of statesmanship. He was
-carried down and laid by the side of his brother whom he had killed. All
-the cottagers, the men from the field, the passengers on the way, stood
-looking on, or followed the strange procession. Such a piece of news, as
-may be supposed, flew over the country like wildfire. There was no
-family better known than the Bampfyldes, notwithstanding their humble
-rank. The handsome Bampfyldes: and here they had come to an end!</p>
-
-<p>Old ’Lizabeth, as she made her way to Stanton, was followed everywhere
-by the same atmosphere of sympathy. The women came out to their doors to
-look after her, and even strong men sobbed as she passed. What would
-become of her, poor lonely woman? She gave a great cry when she saw the
-two pale faces lying peacefully together. They were both men in the full
-prime of life, in the gravity of middle age, fully developed, strongly
-knit, men all formed for life, and full of its matured vigour. They lay
-side by side as they had lain when they were children. That one of them
-had taken the life of the other, who could have imagined possible? The
-poacher and vagrant looked like some<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_387" id="page_387">{387}</a></span> great general nobly dead in
-battle, the madman like a sage. Death had redeemed them from their
-misery, their poverty, the misfortunes which were greater than either.
-Their mother gave a great cry of anguish yet pride as she stood beside
-them. “My lads,” she cried, “my two handsome lads, my bonny boys!”
-’Lizabeth had come to that pass when words have no meaning to express
-the depths and the heights. What could a woman say who sees her sons
-stretched dead before her? She uttered one inarticulate wail of anguish,
-as a dumb creature might have done, and then her overwrought soul
-reeling, tottered almost on the verge of reason, and she cried out in
-pride and agony, “My handsome lads! my bonny boys!”</p>
-
-<p>“Come home with me,” said John Musgrave. “We have made a bad business of
-it, ’Lizabeth, you and I. This is all our sacrifice has come to. Nothing
-left but your wreck of life, and mine. But come home with me. Where I
-am, there will always be a place for Lily’s mother. And there is little
-Lily still, and she will comfort you&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Eh! comfort me!” She smiled at the word. “Nay, I must go to my own
-house. I thank you, John Musgrave, and I do not deserve it at your hand.
-This fifteen years it has been me that has murdered you, not my lad
-yonder, not my Abel. What did he know? And I humbly beg your pardon, and
-your little bairns’ pardon, on my knees&mdash;but nay, nay, I must go home.
-My own house&mdash;there is no other place for me.”</p>
-
-<p>They came round her and took her hands, and pleaded with her too&mdash;Geoff,
-and his mother, with the tears streaming from her eyes. “Oh, my poor
-woman, my poor woman!” Lady Stanton cried, “stay here while <i>they</i> are
-here.” But nothing moved ’Lizabeth. She made her little curtsey to them
-all, with that strange smile like a pale light wavering upon her face.</p>
-
-<p>“Nay, nay,” she said. “Nay, nay&mdash;I humbly thank my lady and my lord, and
-a’ kind friends&mdash;but my own house, that is the only place for me.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you cannot go so far, if that were all. You must be worn out with
-walking only&mdash;if there was nothing more&mdash;&mdash; ”</p>
-
-<p>“Me&mdash;worn out!&mdash;with walking!” It was a kind of laugh which came from
-her dry throat. “Ay, very near&mdash;very near it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_388" id="page_388">{388}</a></span>&mdash;that will come soon, if
-the Lord pleases. But good-day to you all, and my humble thanks, my lord
-and my lady&mdash;you’re kind&mdash;kind to give them house-room; till Friday; but
-they’ll give no trouble, no trouble!” she said, with again that
-something which sounded like a laugh. Laughing or crying, it was all one
-to ’Lizabeth. The common modes of expression were garments too small for
-her soul.</p>
-
-<p>“Stay only to-night&mdash;it will be dark long before you can be there. Stay
-to-night,” they pleaded. She broke from them with a cry.</p>
-
-<p>“I canna bide this, I canna bide it! I’m wanting the stillness of the
-fells, and the arms of them about me. Let me be&mdash;oh, let me be! There’s
-a moon,” she added, abruptly, “and dark or light, I’ll never lose my
-way.”</p>
-
-<p>Thus they had to leave her to do as she pleased in the end. She would
-not eat anything, or even sit down, but went out with her hood over her
-head into the gathering shadows. They stood watching her till the sound
-of her steps died out on the way&mdash;firm, steady, unfaltering steps. Life
-and death, and mortal anguish, and wearing care, had done their worst
-upon old ’Lizabeth. She stood like a rock against them all.</p>
-
-<p>She came down to the funeral on Friday, as she had herself appointed,
-and saw her sons laid in their grave, and again she was entreated to
-remain. But even little Lilias, whom her father brought forward to aid
-the pleadings of the others, could not move her. “Honey-sweet!” she
-said, with a tender light in her eyes; but she had more room for the
-children when her heart was full of living cares. It was empty now, and
-there was no room. A few weeks after, she was found dying peaceably in
-her bed, giving all kinds of directions to her children. “Abel will have
-your father’s watch, he aye wanted it from a baby&mdash;and Lily gets all my
-things, as is befitting. They will set her up for her wedding. And Dick,
-my little Dick, that has aye been the little one&mdash;who says I was not
-thinking of Dick? He’s been my prop and my right hand when a’ deserted
-me. The poor little house and the little bit of land, and a’ his mother
-has&mdash;who should they be for, but Dick?” Thus she died tranquilly, seeing
-them all round her; and all that was cruel and bitter in the lot of the
-Bampfyldes came to an end.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_389" id="page_389">{389}</a></span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_XL" id="CHAPTER_XL"></a>CHAPTER XXX.<br /><br />
-<small>CONCLUSION.</small></h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">John Musgrave</span> settled down without any commotion into his natural place
-in his father’s house. The old Squire himself mended from the day when
-Nello, very timid, but yet brave to repress the signs of his reluctance,
-was brought into his room. He played with the child as if he had been a
-child himself, and so grew better day by day, and got out of bed again,
-and save for a little dragging of one leg as he limped along, brought no
-external sign of his “stroke” out of his sick-room. But he wrote no more
-Monographs, studied no more. His life had come back to him as the Syrian
-lord in the Bible got back his health after his leprosy&mdash;“like the flesh
-of a little child.” The Squire recovered after a while the power of
-taking his part in a conversation, and looked more venerable than ever
-with his faded colour and subdued forces. But his real life was all with
-little Nello, who by and by got quite used to his grandfather, and
-lorded it over him as children so often do. When the next summer came,
-they went out together, the Squire generally in a wheeled chair, Nello
-walking, or riding by his side on the pony his grandpapa had given him.
-There was no doubt now as to who was heir. When Randolph came to
-Penninghame, after spending a day and a half in vain researches for
-Nello, life having become too exciting at that moment at the Castle to
-leave any one free to send word of the children’s safety&mdash;he found all
-doubt and notion of danger over for John&mdash;- and he himself established
-in his natural place. Whether the Squire had forgotten everything in his
-illness, or whether he had understood the story which Mary took care to
-repeat two or three times very distinctly by his bedside, no one knew.
-But he never objected to John’s presence, made no question about
-him&mdash;accepted him as if he had been always there. Absolutely as if there
-had been no breach in the household existence at all, the eldest son
-took his place; and that Nello was the heir was a thing beyond doubt in
-any reasonable mind. This actual settlement of all difficulties had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_390" id="page_390">{390}</a></span>
-already come about when Randolph came. His father took no notice of him,
-and John, who thought it was his brother’s fault that his little son had
-been so unkindly treated, found it difficult to afford Randolph any
-welcome. He did not, however, want any welcome in such circumstances. He
-stayed for a single night, feeling himself coldly looked upon by all.
-Mr. Pen, who spent half his time at the Castle, more than any one turned
-a cold shoulder upon his brother clergyman.</p>
-
-<p>“You felt it necessary that the child should go to school quite as much
-as I did,” Randolph said, on the solitary occasion when the matter was
-discussed.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, but not to any school,” the Vicar said. “I would rather&mdash;&mdash; ” he
-paused for a sufficiently strong image, but it was hard to find; “I
-would rather&mdash;have got up at six o’clock every day, and sacrificed
-everything&mdash;rather than have exposed Nello to the life he had
-there;&mdash;and you who are a father yourself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; but my boy has neither a girl’s name nor a girl’s want of courage.
-He is not a baby that would flinch at the first rough word. I did not
-know the nature of the thing,” said Randolph, with a sneer. “I have no
-acquaintance with any but straightforward and manly ways.”</p>
-
-<p>The Vicar followed him out in righteous wrath. He produced from his
-pocket a hideous piece of pink paper.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you know who sent this?” he asked.</p>
-
-<p>Randolph looked at it, taken aback, and tried to bluster forth an
-expression of wonder&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;how should I know?”</p>
-
-<p>“What did you mean by it?” cried the gentle Vicar, in high
-excitement;&mdash;“did you think I did not know my duty? did you think I was
-a cold-blooded reptile like&mdash;like the man that sent that? Do you think
-it was in me to betray my brother? I know nothing bad enough for him who
-made such a suggestion. And he nearly gained his point. The devil knows
-what tools to work with. He works with the weakness of good people as
-well as with the strength of bad,” cried mild Mr. Pen, inspired for once
-in his life with righteous indignation. “Judas did it himself at least,
-bad as he was. He did not whisper treason in a man’s ears nor in a
-woman’s heart.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_391" id="page_391">{391}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know what you mean,” said Randolph, with guilt in his face.</p>
-
-<p>“Not all, no; fortunately you don’t know, nor any one else, the trouble
-you might have made. But no less, though it never came to pass, was it
-that traitor’s fault.”</p>
-
-<p>“When you take to speaking riddles I give it up,” said Randolph,
-shrugging his shoulders.</p>
-
-<p>But Mr. Pen was so hot in moral force that he was glad to get away. He
-slept one night under his father’s roof, no one giving him much
-attention, and then went away, never to return again; but went back to
-his believing wife, too good a fate, who smoothed him down and healed
-all his wounds. “My husband is like most people who struggle to do their
-duty,” she said. “His brother was very ungrateful, though Randolph had
-done so much for him. And the little boy, who had been dreadfully
-spoiled, ran away from the school when he had cost my husband so much
-trouble. And even his sister Mary showed him no kindness; that is the
-way when a man is so disinterested as Randolph, doing all he can for his
-own family, for their <i>real</i> good.”</p>
-
-<p>And this, at the end, came to be what Randolph himself thought.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Pen, after coming home hysterical from Elfdale, made a clean breast
-to her husband, and showed him the telegram, and confessed all her
-apprehensions for him. What could a man do but forgive the folly or even
-wickedness done for his sweet sake? And Mrs. Pen went through a few
-dreadful hours, when in the morning John Musgrave came back from his
-night journey and the warrant was put in force. If they should hang him
-what would become of her? She always believed afterwards that it was her
-William’s intervention which had saved John, and she never believed in
-John’s innocence, let her husband say what he would. For Mrs. Pen said
-wisely, that wherever there is smoke there must be fire, and it was no
-use telling her that Lord Stanton had not been killed; for it was in the
-last edition of the <i>Fellside History</i>, and therefore must be true.</p>
-
-<p>When all was over Sir Henry and Lady Stanton made a formal visit of
-congratulation at Penninghame. Sir Henry told<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_392" id="page_392">{392}</a></span> John that it had been a
-painful necessity to issue the warrant, but that a man must do his duty,
-whatever it is; and as, under Providence, this was the means of making
-everything clear he could not regret that he had done it now. Lady
-Stanton said nothing, or next to nothing. She talked a little to Mary,
-making stray little remarks about the children, and drawing Nello to her
-side. Lilias she was afraid of, with those great eyes. Was that child to
-be Geoff’s wife? she thought. Ah! how much better, had he been the kind
-young husband who should have delivered her own Annie or Fanny. This
-little girl would want nothing of the kind; her father would watch over
-her, he would let no one meddle with her, not like a poor woman with a
-hard husband and stepdaughters. She trembled a little when she put her
-hand into John’s. She looked at him with moisture in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I have always believed in you, always hoped to see you here again,” she
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“Come, Mary, the carriage is waiting,” said Sir Henry. He said after
-that this was all that was called for, and here the intercourse between
-the two houses dropped. Mary could not help “taking an interest” in John
-Musgrave still, but what did it matter? everybody took an interest in
-him now.</p>
-
-<p>As for Geoff, he became, as he had a way of doing, the sun of the house
-at Penninghame; even the old Squire took notice of his kind, cheerful
-young face. He neglected Elfdale and his young cousins, and even Cousin
-Mary, whom he loved. But it was not to be supposed that John Musgrave
-would allow a series of love passages to go on indefinitely for years
-between his young neighbour and his daughter Lilias, as yet not quite
-thirteen years old. The young man was sent away after a most affecting
-parting, not to return for three years. Naturally, Lady Stanton rebelled
-much, she who had kept her son at home during all his life; but what
-could she do? Instead of struggling vainly she took the wiser part, and
-though it was a trial to tear herself from Stanton and all the servants,
-who were so kind, and the household which went upon wheels, upon velvet,
-and gave her no trouble, she made up her mind to it, and took her maid
-and Benson and Mr. Tritton and went<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_393" id="page_393">{393}</a></span> “abroad” too. What is it to go
-abroad when a lady is middle-aged and has a grown-up son and such an
-establishment?&mdash;but she did it: “for I shall not have him very long!”
-she said, with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias was sixteen when Geoff came home. Can any one doubt that the
-child had grown up with her mind full of the young hero who had acted so
-great a part in her young life? When the old Squire died and Nello went
-to school, a very different school from Mr. Swan’s, the idea of “Mr.
-Geoff” became more and more her companion. It was not love, perhaps, in
-the ordinary meaning of the word; Lilias did not know what that meant.
-Half an elder brother, half an enchanted prince, more than half a hero
-of romance, he wove himself with every story and every poem that was
-written, to Lilias. He it was, and no Prince Ferdinand, whom Miranda
-thought so fair. It was he who slew all the dragons and giants, and
-delivered whole dungeons full of prisoners. Her girlhood was somewhat
-lonely, chiefly because of this soft mist of semi-betrothal which was
-about her. Not only was she already a woman, though a child, but a woman
-separated from others, a bride doubly virginal because he was absent to
-whom all her thoughts were due. “What if he should forget her?” Mary
-Musgrave would say, alarmed. She thought it neither safe nor right for
-the child, who was the beauty and flower of Penninghame, as she herself
-had been, though in so different a way. Mary now had settled down as the
-lady of Penninghame, as her brother was its lawful lord. John was not
-the kind of man to make a second marriage, even if, as his sister
-sometimes fancied, his first had but little satisfied his heart. But of
-this he said nothing, thankful to be able at the end to redeem some
-portion of the life thus swallowed up by one of those terrible, but
-happily rare, mistakes, which are no less wretched that they are half
-divine. He had all he wanted in his sister’s faithful companionship and
-in his children. There is no more attractive household than that in
-which, after the storms of life, a brother and sister set up peacefully
-together the old household gods, never dispersed, which were those of
-their youth. Mary was a little more careful, perhaps, of her niece, a
-little more afraid of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_394" id="page_394">{394}</a></span> the troubles in her way, than if she had been her
-daughter. She watched Lilias with great anxiety, and read between the
-lines of Geoff’s letters with vague scrutiny, looking always for
-indications of some change.</p>
-
-<p>Lilias was sixteen in the end of October, the third after the previous
-events recorded here. She had grown to her full height, and her beauty
-had a dreamy, poetical touch from the circumstances, which greatly
-changed the natural expression appropriate to the liquid dark eyes and
-noble features she had from her mother and her mother’s mother. Her eyes
-were less brilliant than they would have been had they not looked so far
-away, but they were more sweet. Her brightness altogether was tempered
-and softened, and kept within that modesty of childhood to which her
-youthful age really belonged, though nature and life had developed her
-more than her years. Though she was grown up she kept many of her
-childish ways, and still sat, as Mary had always done, at the door of
-the old hall, now wonderfully decorated and restored, but yet the old
-hall still. The two ladies shared it between them for all their hours of
-leisure, but Mary had given up her seat at the door to the younger
-inhabitant, partly because she loved to see Lilias there with the sun
-upon her, partly because she herself began to feel the cool airs of the
-north less halcyon than of old. The books that Lilias carried with her
-were no longer fairy tales, but maturer enchantments of poetry. And
-there she sat absorbed in verse and lost to all meaner delights, on the
-eve of her birthday, a soft air ruffling the little curls on her
-forehead, the sun shining upon her uncovered head. Lilias loved the sun.
-She was not afraid of it nor her complexion, and the sun of October is
-not dangerous. She had a hand up to shade the book, which was too
-dazzling in the light, but nothing to keep the golden light from her.
-She sat warm and glorified in the long, slanting, dazzling rays.</p>
-
-<p>Mary had heard a horse’s hoofs, and, being a little restless, came
-forward softly from her seat behind to see who it was; but Lilias, lost
-in the poetry and the sunshine, heard nothing.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“She wept with pity and delight,<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">She blush’d with love and virgin shame,<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">And like the murmur of a dream<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">I heard her breathe my name.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_395" id="page_395">{395}</a></span><br /></span>
-</div><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“Her bosom heaved, she stepp’d aside<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">As conscious of my look she stept,<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">Then suddenly, with timorous eye,<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">She fled to me and wept.”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p>Mary saw what Lilias did not see, the horseman at the foot of the slope.
-He looked and smiled, and signed to her over the lovely head in the
-sunshine. He was brown and ruddy with health and travel, his eyes
-shining, his breath coming quick. Three years! as long as a
-lifetime&mdash;but it was over. Suddenly, “Lily&mdash;my little Lily,” he cried,
-unable to keep silence more.</p>
-
-<p>She sprang to her feet like a startled deer; the book fell from her
-hands; her eyes gave a great gleam and flash, and softened in the golden
-light of sunset and tenderness. The poetry or the life, which was the
-most sweet? “Yes, Mr. Geoff,” she said.</p>
-
-<p class="fint">THE END.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_396" id="page_396">{396}</a></span></p>
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