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TIME, THE IDOL-BREAKER +XIX. SHARPER THAN A SWORD +XX. EACH AFTER HIS OWN ORDER +XXI. "THERE IS NOTHING HIDDEN WHICH SHALL NOT BE REVEALED" +XXII. AS IN A GLASS DARKLY +XXIII. THE TENTS OF CUSHAN +XXIV. THE QUESTIONER +XXV. THE VOICE THROUGH THE DOOR +XXVI. "I OWE YOU NOTHING" +XXVII. THE AWAKENING + + + +CHAPTER XV + +SOOLSBY'S HAND UPON THE CURTAIN + +Faith raised her eyes from the paper before her and poised her head +meditatively. + +"How long is it, friend, since--" + +"Since he went to Egypt?" + +"Nay, since thee--" + +"Since I went to Mass?" he grumbled humorously. + +She laughed whimsically. "Nay, then, since thee made the promise--" + +"That I would drink no more till his return--ay, that was my bargain; +till then and no longer! I am not to be held back then, unless I change +my mind when I see him. Well, 'tis three years since--" + +"Three years! Time hasn't flown. Is it not like an old memory, his +living here in this house, Soolsby, and all that happened then?" + +Soolsby looked at her over his glasses, resting his chin on the back of +the chair he was caning, and his lips worked in and out with a suppressed +smile. + +"Time's got naught to do with you. He's afeard of you," he continued. +"He lets you be." + +"Friend, thee knows I am almost an old woman now." She made marks +abstractedly upon the corner of a piece of paper. "Unless my hair turns +grey presently I must bleach it, for 'twill seem improper it should +remain so brown." + +She smoothed it back with her hand. Try as she would to keep it trim +after the manner of her people, it still waved loosely on her forehead +and over her ears. And the grey bonnet she wore but added piquancy to +its luxuriance, gave a sweet gravity to the demure beauty of the face it +sheltered. + +"I am thirty now," she murmured, with a sigh, and went on writing. + +The old man's fingers moved quickly among the strips of cane, and, after +a silence, without raising his head, he said: "Thirty, it means naught." + +"To those without understanding," she rejoined drily. + +"'Tis tough understanding why there's no wedding-ring on yonder finger. +There's been many a man that's wanted it, that's true--the Squire's son +from Bridgley, the lord of Axwood Manor, the long soldier from Shipley +Wood, and doctors, and such folk aplenty. There's where understanding +fails." + +Faith's face flushed, then it became pale, and her eyes, suffused, +dropped upon the paper before her. At first it seemed as though she must +resent his boldness; but she had made a friend of him these years past, +and she knew he meant no rudeness. In the past they had talked of things +deeper and more intimate still. Yet there was that in his words which +touched a sensitive corner of her nature. + +"Why should I be marrying?" she asked presently. "There was my sister's +son all those years. I had to care for him." + +"Ay, older than him by a thimbleful!" he rejoined. + +"Nay, till he came to live in this hut alone older by many a year. Since +then he is older than me by fifty. I had not thought of marriage before +he went away. Squire's son, soldier, or pillman, what were they to me! +He needed me. They came, did they? Well, and if they came?" + +"And since the Egyptian went?" + +A sort of sob came into her throat. "He does not need me, but he may--he +will one day; and then I shall be ready. But now--" + +Old Soolsby's face turned away. His house overlooked every house in the +valley beneath: he could see nearly every garden; he could even recognise +many in the far streets. Besides, there hung along two nails on the wall +a telescope, relic of days when he sailed the main. The grounds of the +Cloistered House and the fruit-decked garden-wall of the Red Mansion were +ever within his vision. Once, twice, thrice, he had seen what he had +seen, and dark feelings, harsh emotions, had been roused in him. + +"He will need us both--the Egyptian will need us both one day," he +answered now; "you more than any, me because I can help him, too--ay, +I can help him. But married or single you could help him; so why waste +your days here?" + +"Is it wasting my days to stay with my father? He is lonely, most lonely +since our Davy went away; and troubled, too, for the dangers of that life +yonder. His voice used to shake when he prayed, in those days when Davy +was away in the desert, down at Darfur and elsewhere among the rebel +tribes. He frightened me then, he was so stern and still. Ah, but that +day when we knew he was safe, I was eighteen, and no more!" she added, +smiling. "But, think you, I could marry while my life is so tied to him +and to our Egyptian?" + +No one looking at her limpid, shining blue eyes but would have set her +down for twenty-three or twenty-four, for not a line showed on her smooth +face; she was exquisite of limb and feature, and had the lissomeness of a +girl of fifteen. There was in her eyes, however, an unquiet sadness; she +had abstracted moments when her mind seemed fixed on some vexing problem. +Such a mood suddenly came upon her now. The pen lay by the paper +untouched, her hands folded in her lap, and a long silence fell upon +them, broken only by the twanging of the strips of cane in Soolsby's +hands. At last, however, even this sound ceased; and the two scarce +moved as the sun drew towards the middle afternoon. At last they were +roused by the sound of a horn, and, looking down, they saw a four-in-hand +drawing smartly down the road to the village over the gorse-spread +common, till it stopped at the Cloistered House. As Faith looked, her +face slightly flushed. She bent forward till she saw one figure get down +and, waving a hand to the party on the coach as it moved on, disappear +into the gateway of the Cloistered House. + +"What is the office they have given him?" asked Soolsby, disapproval in +his tone, his eyes fixed on the disappearing figure. + +"They have made Lord Eglington Under-Secretary for Foreign Affairs," she +answered. + +"And what means that to a common mind?" + +"That what his Government does in Egypt will mean good or bad to our +Egyptian," she returned. + +"That he can do our man good or ill?" Soolsby asked sharply--"that he, +yonder, can do that?" + +She inclined her head. + +"When I see him doing ill--well, when I see him doing that"--he snatched +up a piece of wood from the floor--"then I will break him, so!" + +He snapped the stick across his knee, and threw the pieces on the ground. +He was excited. He got to his feet and walked up and down the little +room, his lips shut tight, his round eyes flaring. + +Faith watched him in astonishment. In the past she had seen his face +cloud over, his eyes grow sulky, at the mention of Lord Eglington's name; +she knew that Soolsby hated him; but his aversion now was more definite +and violent than he had before shown, save on that night long ago when +David went first to Egypt, and she had heard hard words between them in +this same hut. She supposed it one of those antipathies which often grow +in inverse ratio to the social position of those concerned. She replied +in a soothing voice: + +"Then we shall hope that he will do our Davy only good." + +"You would not wish me to break his lordship? You would not wish it?" +He came over to her, and looked sharply at her. "You would not wish it?" +he repeated meaningly. + +She evaded his question. "Lord Eglington will be a great man one day +perhaps," she answered. "He has made his way quickly. How high he has +climbed in three years--how high!" + +Soolsby's anger was not lessened. "Pooh! Pooh! He is an Earl. An Earl +has all with him at the start--name, place, and all. But look at our +Egyptian! Look at Egyptian David--what had he but his head and an honest +mind? What is he? He is the great man of Egypt. Tell me, who helped +Egyptian David? That second-best lordship yonder, he crept about coaxing +this one and wheedling that. I know him--I know him. He wheedles and +wheedles. No matter whether 'tis a babe or an old woman, he'll talk, and +talk, and talk, till they believe in him, poor folks! No one's too small +for his net. There's Martha Higham yonder. She's forty five. If he +sees her, as sure as eggs he'll make love to her, and fill her ears with +words she'd never heard before, and 'd never hear at all if not from him. +Ay, there's no man too sour and no woman too old that he'll not blandish, +if he gets the chance." + +As he spoke Faith shut her eyes, and her fingers clasped tightly +together--beautiful long, tapering fingers, like those in Romney's +pictures. When he stopped, her eyes opened slowly, and she gazed before +her down towards that garden by the Red Mansion where her lifetime had +been spent. + +"Thee says hard words, Soolsby," she rejoined gently. "But maybe thee is +right." Then a flash of humour passed over her face. "Suppose we ask +Martha Higham if the Earl has 'blandished' her. If the Earl has +blandished Martha, he is the very captain of deceit. Why, he has himself +but twenty-eight years. Will a man speak so to one older than himself, +save in mockery? So, if thee is right in this, then--then if he speak +well to deceive and to serve his turn, he will also speak ill; and he +will do ill when it may serve his turn; and so he may do our Davy ill, +as thee says, Soolsby." + +She rose to her feet and made as if to go, but she kept her face from +him. Presently, however, she turned and looked at him. "If he does ill +to Davy, there will be those like thee, Soolsby, who will not spare him." + +His fingers opened and shut maliciously, he nodded dour assent. After an +instant, while he watched her, she added: "Thee has not heard my lord is +to marry?" + +"Marry--who is the blind lass?" + +"Her name is Maryon, Miss Hylda Maryon: and she has a great fortune. But +within a month it is to be." + +"Thee remembers the woman of the cross-roads, her that our Davy--" + +"Her the Egyptian kissed, and put his watch in her belt--ay, +Kate Heaver!" + +"She is now maid to her Lord Eglington will wed. She is to spend +to-night with us." + +"Where is her lad that was, that the Egyptian rolled like dough in a +trough?" + +"Jasper Kimber? He is at Sheffield. He has been up and down, now sober +for a year, now drunken for a month, now in, now out of a place, until +this past year. But for this whole year he has been sober, and he may +keep his pledge. He is working in the trades-unions. Among his fellow- +workers he is called a politician--if loud speaking and boasting can make +one. Yet if these doings give him stimulant instead of drink, who shall +complain?" + +Soolsby's head was down. He was looking out over the far hills, while +the strips of cane were idle in his hands. "Ay, 'tis true--'tis true," +he nodded. "Give a man an idee which keeps him cogitating, makes him +think he's greater than he is, and sets his pulses beating, why, that's +the cure to drink. Drink is friendship and good company and big thoughts +while it lasts; and it's lonely without it, if you've been used to it. +Ay, but Kimber's way is best. Get an idee in your noddle, to do a thing +that's more to you than work or food or bed, and 'twill be more than +drink, too." + +He nodded to himself, then began weaving the strips of cane furiously. +Presently he stopped again, and threw his head back with a chuckle. +"Now, wouldn't it be a joke, a reg'lar first-class joke, if Kimber and +me both had the same idee, if we was both workin' for the same thing-- +an' didn't know it? I reckon it might be so." + +"What end is thee working for, friend? If the public prints speak true, +Kimber is working to stand for Parliament against Lord Eglington." + +Soolsby grunted and laughed in his throat. "Now, is that the game of +Mister Kimber? Against my Lord Eglington! Hey, but that's a joke, my +lord!" + +"And what is thee working for, Soolsby?" + +"What do I be working for? To get the Egyptian back to England--what +else?" + +"That is no joke." + +"Ay, but 'tis a joke." The old man chuckled. "'Tis the best joke in the +boilin'." He shook his head and moved his body backwards and forwards +with glee. "Me and Kimber! Me and Kimber!" he roared, "and neither of +us drunk for a year--not drunk for a whole year. Me and Kimber--and +him!" + +Faith put her hand on his shoulder. "Indeed, I see no joke, but only +that which makes my heart thankful, Soolsby." + +"Ay, you will be thankful, you will be thankful, by-and-by," he said, +still chuckling, and stood up respectfully to show her out. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + +THE DEBT AND THE ACCOUNTING + +His forehead frowning, but his eyes full of friendliness, Soolsby watched +Faith go down the hillside and until she reached the main road. Here, +instead of going to the Red Mansion, she hesitated a moment, and then +passed along a wooded path leading to the Meetinghouse, and the +graveyard. It was a perfect day of early summer, the gorse was in full +bloom, and the may and the hawthorn were alive with colour. The path she +had taken led through a narrow lane, overhung with blossoms and greenery. +By bearing away to the left into another path, and making a detour, she +could reach the Meeting-house through a narrow lane leading past a now +disused mill and a small, strong stream flowing from the hill above. + +As she came down the hill, other eyes than Soolsby's watched her. From +his laboratory--the laboratory in which his father had worked, in which +he had lost his life--Eglington had seen the trim, graceful figure. He +watched it till it moved into the wooded path. Then he left his garden, +and, moving across a field, came into the path ahead of her. Walking +swiftly, he reached the old mill, and waited. + +She came slowly, now and again stooping to pick a flower and place it in +her belt. Her bonnet was slung on her arm, her hair had broken a little +loose and made a sort of hood round the face, so still, so composed, into +which the light of steady, soft, apprehending eyes threw a gentle +radiance. It was a face to haunt a man when the storm of life was round +him. It had, too, a courage which might easily become a delicate +stubbornness, a sense of duty which might become sternness, if roused by +a sense of wrong to herself or others. + +She reached the mill and stood and listened towards the stream and the +waterfall. She came here often. The scene quieted her in moods of +restlessness which came from a feeling that her mission was interrupted, +that half her life's work had been suddenly taken from her. When David +went, her life had seemed to shrivel; for with him she had developed as +he had developed; and when her busy care of him was withdrawn, she had +felt a sort of paralysis which, in a sense, had never left her. Then +suitors had come--the soldier from Shipley Wood, the lord of Axwood +Manor, and others, and, in a way, a new sense was born in her, though she +was alive to the fact that the fifteen thousand pounds inherited from her +Uncle Benn had served to warm the air about her into a wider circle. Yet +it was neither to soldier, nor squire, nor civil engineer, nor surgeon +that the new sense stirring in her was due. The spring was too far +beneath to be found by them. + +When, at last, she raised her head, Lord Eglington was in the path, +looking at her with a half-smile. She did not start, but her face turned +white, and a mist came before her eyes. + +Quickly, however, as though fearful lest he should think he could trouble +her composure, she laid a hand upon herself. + +He came near to her and held out his hand. "It has been a long six +months since we met here," he said. + +She made no motion to take his hand. "I find days grow shorter as I grow +older," she rejoined steadily, and smoothed her hair with her hand, +making ready to put on her bonnet. + +"Ah, do not put it on," he urged quickly, with a gesture. "It becomes +you so--on your arm." + +She had regained her self-possession. Pride, the best weapon of a woman, +the best tonic, came to her resource. "Thee loves to please thee at any +cost," she replied. She fastened the grey strings beneath her chin. + +"Would it be costly to keep the bonnet on your arm?" + +"It is my pleasure to have it on my head, and my pleasure has some value +to myself." + +"A moment ago," he rejoined laughing, "it was your pleasure to have it on +your arm." + +"Are all to be monotonous except Lord Eglington? Is he to have the only +patent of change?" + +"Do I change?" He smiled at her with a sense of inquisition, with an air +that seemed to say, "I have lifted the veil of this woman's heart; I am +the master of the situation." + +She did not answer to the obvious meaning of his words, but said: + +"Thee has done little else but change, so far as eye can see. Thee and +thy family were once of Quaker faith, but thee is a High Churchman now. +Yet they said a year ago thee was a sceptic or an infidel." + +"There is force in what you say," he replied. "I have an inquiring mind; +I am ever open to reason. Confucius said: 'It is only the supremely wise +or the deeply ignorant who never alter.'" + +"Thee has changed politics. Thee made a 'sensation, but that was not +enough. Thee that was a rebel became a deserter." + +He laughed. "Ah, I was open to conviction! I took my life in my hands, +defied consequences." He laughed again. + +"It brought office." + +"I am Under-Secretary for Foreign Affairs," he murmured complacently. + +"Change is a policy with thee, I think. It has paid thee well, so it +would seem." + +"Only a fair rate of interest for the capital invested and the risks I've +taken," he answered with an amused look. + +"I do not think that interest will increase. Thee has climbed quickly, +but fast climbing is not always safe climbing." + +His mood changed. His voice quickened, his face lowered. "You think I +will fail? You wish me to fail?" + +"In so far as thee acts uprightly, I wish thee well. But if, out of +office, thee disregards justice and conscience and the rights of others, +can thee be just and faithful in office? Subtlety will not always avail. +The strong man takes the straight course. Subtlety is not intellect." + +He flushed. She had gone to the weakest point in his defences. His +vanity was being hurt. She had an advantage now. + +"You are wrong," he protested. "You do not understand public life, here +in a silly Quaker village." + +"Does thee think that all that happens in 'public life' is of +consequence? That is not sensible. Thee is in the midst of a thousand +immaterial things, though they have importance for the moment. But the +chief things that matter to all, does thee not know that a 'silly Quaker +village' may realise them to the full--more fully because we see them +apart from the thousand little things that do not matter? I remember a +thing in political life that mattered. It was at Heddington after the +massacre at Damascus. Does thee think that we did not know thee spoke +without principle then, and only to draw notice?" + +"You would make me into a demagogue," he said irritably. + +"Thee is a demagogue," she answered candidly. + +"Why did you never say all this to me long ago? Years have passed since +then, and since then you and I have--have been friends. You have--" + +He paused, for she made a protesting motion, and a fire sprang into her +eyes. Her voice got colder. "Thee made me believe--ah, how many times +did we speak together? Six times it was, not more. Thee made me believe +that what I thought or said helped thee to see things better. Thee said +I saw things truly like a child, with the wisdom of a woman. Thee +remembers that?" + +"It was so," he put in hastily. + +"No, not for a moment so, though I was blinded to think for an instant +that it was. Thee subtly took the one way which could have made me +listen to thee. Thee wanted help, thee said; and if a word of mine could +help thee now and then, should I withhold it, so long as I thought thee +honest?" + +"Do you think I was not honest in wanting your friendship?" + +"Nay, it was not friendship thee wanted, for friendship means a giving +and a getting. Thee was bent on getting what was, indeed, of but little +value save to the giver; but thee gave nothing; thee remembered nothing +of what was given thee." + +"It is not so, it is not so," he urged eagerly, nervously. "I gave, and +I still give." + +"In those old days, I did not understand," she went on, "what it was thee +wanted. I know now. It was to know the heart and mind of a woman--of a +woman older than thee. So that thee should have such sort of experience, +though I was but a foolish choice of the experiment. They say thee has a +gift for chemistry like thy father; but if thee experiments no more +wisely in the laboratory than with me, thee will not reach distinction." + +"Your father hated my father and did not believe in him, I know not why, +and you are now hating and disbelieving me." + +"I do not know why my father held the late Earl in abhorrence; I know he +has no faith in thee; and I did ill in listening to thee, in believing +for one moment there was truth in thee. But no, no, I think I never +believed it. I think that even when thee said most, at heart I believed +least." + +"You doubt that? You doubt all I said to you?" he urged softly, coming +close to her. + +She drew aside slightly. She had steeled herself for this inevitable +interview, and there was no weakening of her defences; but a great +sadness came into her eyes, and spread over her face, and to this was +added, after a moment, a pity which showed the distance she was from him, +the safety in which she stood. + +"I remember that the garden was beautiful, and that thee spoke as though +thee was part of the garden. Thee remembers that, at our meeting in the +Cloistered House, when the woman was ill, I had no faith in thee; but +thee spoke with grace, and turned common things round about, so that they +seemed different to the ear from any past hearing; and I listened. I did +not know, and I do not know now, why it is my duty to shun any of thy +name, and above all thyself; but it has been so commanded by my father +all my life; and though what he says may be in a little wrong, in much it +must ever be right." + +"And so, from a hatred handed down, your mind has been tuned to shun even +when your heart was learning to give me a home--Faith?" + +She straightened herself. "Friend, thee will do me the courtesy to +forget to use my Christian name. I am not a child-indeed, I am well on +in years"--he smiled--"and thee has no friendship or kinship for warrant. +If my mind was tuned to shun thee, I gave proof that it was willing to +take thee at thine own worth, even against the will of my father, against +the desire of David, who knew thee better than I--he gauged thee at first +glance." + +"You have become a philosopher and a statesman," he said ironically. +"Has your nephew, the new Joseph in Egypt, been giving you instructions +in high politics? Has he been writing the Epistles of David to the +Quakers?" + +"Thee will leave his name apart," she answered with dignity. "I have +studied neither high politics nor statesmanship, though in the days when +thee did flatter me thee said I had a gift for such things. Thee did not +speak the truth. And now I will say that I do not respect thee. No +matter how high thee may climb, still I shall not respect thee; for thee +will ever gain ends by flattery, by subtlety, and by using every man and +every woman for selfish ends. Thee cannot be true-not even to that which +by nature is greatest in thee.". + +He withered under her words. + +"And what is greatest in me?" he asked abruptly, his coolness and self- +possession striving to hold their own. + +"That which will ruin thee in the end." Her eyes looked beyond his into +the distance, rapt and shining; she seemed scarcely aware of his +presence. "That which will bring thee down--thy hungry spirit of +discovery. It will serve thee no better than it served the late Earl. +But thee it will lead into paths ending in a gulf of darkness." + +"Deborah!" he answered, with a rasping laugh. "Continuez! Forewarned +is forearmed." + +"No, do not think I shall be glad," she answered, still like one in a +dream. "I shall lament it as I lament--as I lament now. All else fades +away into the end which I see for thee. Thee will live alone without a +near and true friend, and thee will die alone, never having had a true +friend. Thee will never be a true friend, thee will never love truly man +or woman, and thee will never find man or woman who will love thee truly, +or will be with thee to aid thee in the dark and falling days." + +"Then," he broke in sharply, querulously, "then, I will stand alone. +I shall never come whining that I have been ill-used, to fate or fortune, +to men or to the Almighty." + +"That I believe. Pride will build up in thee a strength which will be +like water in the end. Oh, my lord," she added, with a sudden change in +her voice and manner, "if thee could only be true--thee who never has +been true to any one!" + +"Why does a woman always judge a man after her own personal experience +with him, or what she thinks is her own personal experience?" + +A robin hopped upon the path before her. She watched it for a moment +intently, then lifted her head as the sound of a bell came through the +wood to her. She looked up at the sun, which was slanting towards +evening. She seemed about to speak, but with second thought, moved on +slowly past the mill and towards the Meeting-house. He stepped on beside +her. She kept her eyes fixed in front of her, as though oblivious of his +presence. + +"You shall hear me speak. You shall listen to what I have to say, though +it is for the last time," he urged stubbornly. "You think ill of me. +Are you sure you are not pharisaical?" + +"I am honest enough to say that which hurts me in the saying. I do not +forget that to believe thee what I think is to take all truth from what +thee said to me last year, and again this spring when the tulips first +came and there was good news from Egypt." + +"I said," he rejoined boldly, "that I was happier with you than with any +one else alive. I said that what you thought of me meant more to me than +what any one else in the world thought; and that I say now, and will +always say it." + +The old look of pity came into her face. "I am older than thee by two +years," she answered quaintly, "and I know more of real life, though I +have lived always here. I have made the most of the little I have seen; +thee has made little of the much that thee has seen. Thee does not know +the truth concerning thee. Is it not, in truth, vanity which would have +me believe in thee? If thee was happier with me than with any one alive, +why then did thee make choice of a wife even in the days thee was +speaking to me as no man shall ever speak again? Nothing can explain +so base a fact. No, no, no, thee said to me what thee said to others, +and will say again without shame. But--but see, I will forgive; yes, I +will follow thee with good wishes, if thee will promise to help David, +whom thee has ever disliked, as, in the place held by thee, thee can do +now. Will thee offer this one proof, in spite of all else that +disproves, that thee spoke any words of truth to me in the Cloistered +House, in the garden by my father's house, by yonder mill, and hard by +the Meeting-house yonder-near to my sister's grave by the willow-tree? +Will thee do that for me?" + +He was about to reply, when there appeared in the path before them Luke +Claridge. His back was upon them, but he heard their footsteps and swung +round. As though turned to stone, he waited for them. As they +approached, his lips, dry and pale, essayed to speak, but no sound came. +A fire was in his eyes which boded no good. Amazement, horror, deadly +anger, were all there, but, after a moment, the will behind the tumult +commanded it, the wild light died away, and he stood calm and still +awaiting them. Faith was as pale as when she had met Eglington. As she +came nearer, Luke Claridge said, in a low voice: + +"How do I find thee in this company, Faith?" There was reproach +unutterable in his voice, in his face. He seemed humiliated and shamed, +though all the while a violent spirit in him was struggling for the +mastery. + +"As I came this way to visit my sister's grave I met my lord by the mill. +He spoke to me, and, as I wished a favour of him, I walked with him +thither--but a little way. I was going to visit my sister's grave." + +"Thy sister's grave!" The fire flamed up again, but the masterful will +chilled it down, and he answered: "What secret business can thee have +with any of that name which I have cast out of knowledge or notice?" + +Ignorant as he was of the old man's cause for quarrel or dislike, +Eglington felt himself aggrieved, and, therefore, with an advantage. + +"You had differences with my father, sir," he said. "I do not know what +they were, but they lasted his lifetime, and all my life you have treated +me with aversion. I am not a pestilence. I have never wronged you. +I have lived your peaceful neighbour under great provocation, for your +treatment would have done me harm if my place were less secure. I think +I have cause for complaint." + +"I have never acted in haste concerning thee, or those who went before +thee. What business had thee with him, Faith?" he asked again. His +voice was dry and hard. + +Her impulse was to tell the truth, and so for ever have her conscience +clear, for there would never be any more need for secrecy. The wheel of +understanding between Eglington and herself had come full circle, and +there was an end. But to tell the truth would be to wound her father, to +vex him against Eglington even as he had never yet been vexed. Besides, +it was hard, while Eglington was there, to tell what, after all, was the +sole affair of her own life. In one literal sense, Eglington was not +guilty of deceit. Never in so many words had he said to her: "I love +you;" never had he made any promise to her or exacted one; he had done no +more than lure her to feel one thing, and then to call it another thing. +Also there was no direct and vital injury, for she had never loved him; +though how far she had travelled towards that land of light and trial she +could never now declare. These thoughts flashed through her mind as she +stood looking at her father. Her tongue seemed imprisoned, yet her soft +and candid eyes conquered the austerity in the old man's gaze. + +Eglington spoke for her. + +"Permit me to answer, neighbour," he said. "I wished to speak with +your daughter, because I am to be married soon, and my wife will, at +intervals, come here to live. I wished that she should not be shunned +by you and yours as I have been. She would not understand, as I do not. +Yours is a constant call to war, while all your religion is an appeal for +peace. I wished to ask your daughter to influence you to make it +possible for me and mine to live in friendship among you. My wife will +have some claims upon you. Her mother was an American, of a Quaker +family from Derbyshire. She has done nothing to merit your aversion." + +Faith listened astonished and baffled. Nothing of this had he said to +her. Had he meant to say it to her? Had it been in his mind? Or was it +only a swift adaptation to circumstances, an adroit means of working upon +the sympathies of her father, who, she could see, was in a quandary? +Eglington had indeed touched the old man as he had not been touched in +thirty years and more by one of his name. For a moment the insinuating +quality of the appeal submerged the fixed idea in a mind to which the +name of Eglington was anathema. + +Eglington saw his advantage. He had felt his way carefully, and he +pursued it quickly. "For the rest, your daughter asked what I was ready +to offer--such help as, in my new official position, I can give to +Claridge Pasha in Egypt. As a neighbour, as Minister in the Government, +I will do what I can to aid him." + +Silent and embarrassed, the old man tried to find his way. Presently he +said tentatively: "David Claridge has a title to the esteem of all +civilised people." Eglington was quick with his reply. "If he succeeds, +his title will become a concrete fact. There is no honour the Crown +would not confer for such remarkable service." + +The other's face darkened. "I did not speak, I did not think, of handles +to his name. I find no good in them, but only means for deceiving and +deluding the world. Such honours as might make him baronet, or duke, +would add not a cubit to his stature. If he had such a thing by right" +--his voice hardened, his eyes grew angry once again--"I would wish it +sunk into the sea." + +"You are hard on us, sir, who did not give ourselves our titles, but took +them with our birth as a matter of course. There was nothing inspiring +in them. We became at once distinguished and respectable by patent." + +He laughed good-humouredly. Then suddenly he changed, and his eyes took +on a far-off look which Faith had seen so often in the eyes of David, +but in David's more intense and meaning, and so different. With what +deftness and diplomacy had he worked upon her father! He had crossed a +stream which seemed impassable by adroit, insincere diplomacy. + +She saw that it was time to go, while yet Eglington's disparagement of +rank and aristocracy was ringing in the old man's ears; though she knew +there was nothing in Eglington's equipment he valued more than his title +and the place it gave him. Grateful, however, for his successful +intervention, Faith now held out her hand. + +"I must take my father away, or it will be sunset before we reach the +Meeting-house," she said. "Goodbye-friend," she added gently. + +For an instant Luke Claridge stared at her, scarce comprehending that his +movements were being directed by any one save himself. Truth was, Faith +had come to her cross-roads in life. For the first time in her memory +she had seen her father speak to an Eglington without harshness; and, as +he weakened for a moment, she moved to take command of that weakness, +though she meant it to seem like leading. While loving her and David +profoundly, her father had ever been quietly imperious. If she could but +gain ascendency even in a little, it might lead to a more open book of +life for them both. + +Eglington held out his hand to the old man. "I have kept you too long, +sir. Good-bye--if you will." + +The offered hand was not taken, but Faith slid hers into the old man's +palm, and pressed it, and he said quietly to Eglington: + +"Good evening, friend." + +"And when I bring my wife, sir?" Eglington added, with a smile. + +"When thee brings the lady, there will be occasion to consider--there +will be occasion then." + +Eglington raised his hat, and turned back upon the path he and Faith had +travelled. + +The old man stood watching him until he was out of view. Then he seemed +more himself. Still holding Faith's hand, he walked with her on the +gorse-covered hill towards the graveyard. + +"Was it his heart spoke or his tongue--is there any truth in him?" he +asked at last. + +Faith pressed his hand. "If he help Davy, father--" + +"If he help Davy; ay, if he help Davy! Nay, I cannot go to the +graveyard, Faith. Take me home," he said with emotion. + +His hand remained in hers. She had conquered. She was set upon a new +path of influence. Her hand was upon the door of his heart. + +"Thee is good to me, Faith," he said, as they entered the door of the Red +Mansion. + +She glanced over towards the Cloistered House. Smoke was coming from the +little chimney of the laboratory. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + +THE WOMAN OF THE CROSS-ROADS + +The night came down slowly. There was no moon, the stars were few, but a +mellow warmth was in the air. At the window of her little sitting-room +up-stairs Faith sat looking out into the stillness. Beneath was the +garden with its profusion of flowers and fruit; away to the left was the +common; and beyond-far beyond--was a glow in the sky, a suffused light, +of a delicate orange, merging away into a grey-blueness, deepening into +a darker blue; and then a purple depth, palpable and heavy with a +comforting silence. + +There was something alluring and suggestive in the soft, smothered +radiance. It had all the glamour of some distant place of pleasure and +quiet joy, of happiness and ethereal being. It was, in fact, the far-off +mirror of the flaming furnace of the great Heddington factories. The +light of the sky above was a soft radiance, as of a happy Arcadian land; +the fire of the toil beneath was the output of human striving, an +intricate interweaving of vital forces which, like some Titanic machine, +wrought out in pain--a vast destiny. + +As Faith looked, she thought of the thousands beneath struggling and +striving, none with all desires satisfied, some in an agony of want and +penury, all straining for the elusive Enough; like Sisyphus ever rolling +the rock of labour up a hill too steep for them. + +Her mind flew to the man Kimber and his task of organising labour for its +own advance. What a life-work for a man! Here might David have spent +his days, here among his own countrymen, instead of in that far-off land +where all the forces of centuries were fighting against him. Here the +forces would have been fighting for him; the trend was towards the +elevation of the standards of living and the wider rights of labour, +to the amelioration of hard conditions of life among the poor. David's +mind, with its equity, its balance, and its fire--what might it not have +accomplished in shepherding such a cause, guiding its activity? + +The gate of the garden clicked. Kate Heaver had arrived. Faith got to +her feet and left the room. + +A few minutes later the woman of the cross-roads was seated opposite +Faith at the window. She had changed greatly since the day David had +sent her on her way to London and into the unknown. Then there had been +recklessness, something of coarseness, in the fine face. Now it was +strong and quiet, marked by purpose and self-reliance. + +Ignorance had been her only peril in the past, as it had been the cause +of her unhappy connection with Jasper Kimber. The atmosphere in which +she was raised had been unmoral; it had not been consciously immoral. +Her temper and her indignation against her man for drinking had been the +means of driving them apart. He would have married her in those days, if +she had given the word, for her will was stronger than his own; but she +had broken from him in an agony of rage and regret and despised love. + +She was now, again, as she had been in those first days before she went +with Jasper Kimber; when she was the rose-red angel of the quarters; when +children were lured by the touch of her large, shapely hands; when she +had been counted a great nurse among her neighbours. The old simple +untutored sympathy was in her face. + +They sat for a long time in silence, and at length Faith said: "Thee is +happy now with her who is to marry Lord Eglington?" + +Kate nodded, smiling. "Who could help but be happy with her! Yet a +temper, too--so quick, and then all over in a second. Ah, she is one +that'd break her heart if she was treated bad; but I'd be sorry for him +that did it. For the like of her goes mad with hurting, and the mad cut +with a big scythe." + +"Has thee seen Lord Eglington?" + +"Once before I left these parts and often in London." Her voice was +constrained; she seemed not to wish to speak of him. + +"Is it true that Jasper Kimber is to stand against him for Parliament?" + +"I do not know. They say my lord has to do with foreign lands now. If +he helps Mr. Claridge there, then it would be a foolish thing for Jasper +to fight him; and so I've told him. You've got to stand by those that +stand by you. Lord Eglington has his own way of doing things. There's +not a servant in my lady's house that he hasn't made his friend. He's +one that's bound to have his will. I heard my lady say he talks better +than any one in England, and there's none she doesn't know from duchesses +down." + +"She is beautiful?" asked Faith, with hesitation. + +"Taller than you, but not so beautiful." + +Faith sighed, and was silent for a moment, then she laid a hand upon the +other's shoulder. "Thee has never said what happened when thee first got +to London. Does thee care to say?" + +"It seems so long ago," was the reply. . . . "No need to tell of the +journey to London. When I got there it frightened me at first. My head +went round. But somehow it came to me what I should do. I asked my way +to a hospital. I'd helped a many that was hurt at Heddington and +thereabouts, and doctors said I was as good as them that was trained. +I found a hospital at last, and asked for work, but they laughed at me-- +it was the porter at the door. I was not to be put down, and asked to +see some one that had rights to say yes or no. So he opened the door and +told me to go. I said he was no man to treat a woman so, and I would not +go. Then a fine white-haired gentleman came forward. He had heard all +we had said, standing in a little room at one side. He spoke a kind word +or two, and asked me to go into the little room. Before I had time to +think, he came to me with the matron, and left me with her. I told her +the whole truth, and she looked at first as if she'd turn me out. But +the end of it was I stayed there for the night, and in the morning the +old gentleman came again, and with him his lady, as kind and sharp of +tongue as himself, and as big as three. Some things she said made my +tongue ache to speak back to her; but I choked it down. I went to her to +be a sort of nurse and maid. She taught me how to do a hundred things, +and by-and-by I couldn't be too thankful she had taken me in. I was with +her till she died. Then, six months ago I went to Miss Maryon, who knew +about me long before from her that died. With her I've been ever since-- +and so that's all." + +"Surely God has been kind to thee." + +"I'd have gone down--down--down, if it hadn't been for Mr. Claridge at +the cross-roads." + +"Does thee think I shall like her that will live yonder?" She nodded +towards the Cloistered House. "There's none but likes her. She will +want a friend, I'm thinking. She'll be lonely by-and-by. Surely, she +will be lonely." + +Faith looked at her closely, and at last leaned over, and again laid a +soft hand on her shoulder. "Thee thinks that--why?" + +"He cares only what matters to himself. She will be naught to him but +one that belongs. He'll never try to do her good. Doing good to any but +himself never comes to his mind." + +"How does thee know him, to speak so surely?" + +"When, at the first, he gave me a letter for her one day, and slipped a +sovereign into my hand, and nodded, and smiled at me, I knew him right +enough. He never could be true to aught." + +"Did thee keep the sovereign?" Faith asked anxiously. + +"Ay, that I did. If he was for giving his money away, I'd take it fast +enough. The gold gave father boots for a year. Why should I mind?" + +Faith's face suffused. How low was Eglington's estimate of humanity! + +In the silence that followed the door of her room opened, and her father +entered. He held in one hand a paper, in the other a candle. His face +was passive, but his eyes were burning. + +"David--David is coming," he cried, in a voice that rang. "Does thee +hear, Faith? Davy is coming home!" A woman laughed exultantly. It was +not Faith. But still two years passed before David came. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + +TIME, THE IDOL-BREAKER + +Lord Windlehurst looked meditatively round the crowded and brilliant +salon. His host, the Foreign Minister, had gathered in the vast golden +chamber the most notable people of a most notable season, and in as +critical a period of the world's politics as had been known for a quarter +of a century. After a moment's survey, the ex-Prime-Minister turned to +answer the frank and caustic words addressed to him by the Duchess of +Snowdon concerning the Under-Secretary for Foreign Affairs. Presently he +said: + +"But there is method in his haste, dear lady. He is good at his +dangerous game. He plays high, he plunges; but, somehow, he makes it do. +I've been in Parliament a generation or so, and I've never known an +amateur more daring and skilful. I should have given him office had I +remained in power. Look at him, and tell me if he wouldn't have been +worth the backing." + +As Lord Windlehurst uttered the last word with an arid smile, he looked +quizzically at the central figure of a group of people gaily talking. + +The Duchess impatiently tapped her knee with a fan. "Be thankful you +haven't got him on your conscience," she rejoined. "I call Eglington +unscrupulous and unreliable. He has but one god--getting on; and he has +got on, with a vengeance. Whenever I look at that dear thing he's +married, I feel there's no trusting Providence, who seems to make the +deserving a footstool for the undeserving. I've known Hylda since she +was ten, and I've known him since the minute he came into the world, and +I've got the measure of both. She is the finest essence the middle class +can distil, and he, oh, he's paraffin-vin ordinaire, if you like it +better, a selfish, calculating adventurer!" + +Lord Windlehurst chuckled mordantly. "Adventurer! That's what they +called me--with more reason. I spotted him as soon as he spoke in the +House. There was devilry in him, and unscrupulousness, as you say; but, +I confess, I thought it would give way to the more profitable habit of +integrity, and that some cause would seize him, make him sincere and +mistaken, and give him a few falls. But in that he was more original +than I thought. He is superior to convictions. You don't think he +married yonder Queen of Hearts from conviction, do you?" + +He nodded towards a corner where Hylda, under a great palm, and backed by +a bank of flowers, stood surrounded by a group of people palpably amused +and interested; for she had a reputation for wit--a wit that never hurt, +and irony that was only whimsical. + +"No, there you are wrong," the Duchess answered. "He married from +conviction, if ever a man did. Look at her beauty, look at her fortune, +listen to her tongue. Don't you think conviction was easy?" + +Lord Windlehurst looked at Hylda approvingly. She has the real gift-- +little information, but much knowledge, the primary gift of public life. +Information is full of traps; knowledge avoids them, it reads men; and +politics is men--and foreign affairs, perhaps! She is remarkable. I've +made some hay in the political world, not so much as the babblers think, +but I hadn't her ability at twenty-five." + +"Why didn't she see through Eglington?" + +"My dear Betty, he didn't give her time. He carried her off her feet. +You know how he can talk." + +"That's the trouble. She was clever, and liked a clever man, and he--!" + +"Quite so. He'd disprove his own honest parentage, if it would help him +on--as you say." + +"I didn't say it. Now don't repeat that as from me. I'm not clever +enough to think of such things. But that Eglington lot--I knew his +father and his grandfather. Old Broadbrim they called his grandfather +after he turned Quaker, and he didn't do that till he had had his fling, +so my father used to say. And Old Broadbrim's father was called I-want- +to-know. He was always poking his nose into things, and playing at being +a chemist-like this one and the one before. They all fly off. This +one's father used to disappear for two or three years at a time. This +one will fly off, too. You'll see! + +"He is too keen on Number One for that, I fancy. He calculates like a +mathematician. As cool as a cracksman of fame and fancy." + +The Duchess dropped the fan in her lap. "My dear, I've said nothing as +bad as that about him. And there he is at the Foreign Office!" + +"Yet, what has he done, Betty, after all? He has never cheated at cards, +or forged a cheque, or run away with his neighbour's wife." + +"There's no credit in not doing what you don't want to do. There's no +virtue in not falling, when you're not tempted. Neighbour's wife! He +hasn't enough feeling to face it. Oh no, he'll not break the heart of +his neighbour's wife. That's melodrama, and he's a cold-blooded artist. +He will torture that sweet child over there until she poisons him, or +runs away." + +"Isn't he too clever for that? She has a million!" + +"He'll not realise it till it's all over. He's too selfish to see--how I +hate him!" + +Lord Windlehurst smiled indulgently at her. "Ah, you never hated any +one--not even the Duke." + +"I will not have you take away my character. Of course I've hated, or I +wouldn't be worth a button. I'm not the silly thing you've always +thought me." + +His face became gentler. "I've always thought you one of the wisest +women of this world--adventurous, but wise. If it weren't too late, if +my day weren't over, I'd ask the one great favour, Betty, and--" + +She tapped his arm sharply with her fan. "What a humbug you are--the +Great Pretender! But tell me, am I not right about Eglington?" + +Windlehurst became grave. "Yes, you are right--but I admire him, too. +He is determined to test himself to the full. His ambition is boundless +and ruthless, but his mind has a scientific turn--the obligation of +energy to apply itself, of intelligence to engage itself to the farthest +limit. But service to humanity--" + +"Service to humanity!" she sniffed. + +"Of course he would think it 'flap-doodle'--except in a speech; but +I repeat, I admire him. Think of it all. He was a poor Irish peer, +with no wide circle of acquaintance, come of a family none too popular. +He strikes out a course for himself--a course which had its dangers, +because it was original. He determines to become celebrated--by becoming +notorious first. He uses his title as a weapon for advancement as though +he were a butter merchant. He plans carefully and adroitly. He writes +a book of travel. It is impudent, and it traverses the observations of +authorities, and the scientific geographers prance with rage. That was +what he wished. He writes a novel. It sets London laughing at me, his +political chief. He knew me well enough to be sure I would not resent +it. He would have lampooned his grandmother, if he was sure she would +not, or could not, hurt him. Then he becomes more audacious. He +publishes a monograph on the painters of Spain, artificial, confident, +rhetorical, acute: as fascinating as a hide-and-seek drawing-room play-- +he is so cleverly escaping from his ignorance and indiscretions all the +while. Connoisseurs laugh, students of art shriek a little, and Ruskin +writes a scathing letter, which was what he had played for. He had got +something for nothing cheaply. The few who knew and despised him did not +matter, for they were able and learned and obscure, and, in the world +where he moves, most people are superficial, mediocre, and 'tuppence +coloured.' It was all very brilliant. He pursued his notoriety, and got +it." + +"Industrious Eglington!" + +"But, yes, he is industrious. It is all business. It was an enormous +risk, rebelling against his party, and leaving me, and going over; but +his temerity justified itself, and it didn't matter to him that people +said he went over to get office as we were going out. He got the office- +and people forget so soon. Then, what does he do--" + +"He brings out another book, and marries a wife, and abuses his old +friends--and you." + +"Abuse? With his tongue in his cheek, hoping that I should reply. +Dev'lishly ingenious! But on that book of Electricity and Disease he +scored. In most other things he's a barber-shop philosopher, but in +science he has got a flare, a real talent. So he moves modestly in this +thing, for which he had a fine natural gift and more knowledge than he +ever had before in any department, whose boundaries his impertinent and +ignorant mind had invaded. That book gave him a place. It wasn't full +of new things, but it crystallised the discoveries, suggestions, and +expectations of others; and, meanwhile, he had got a name at no cost. He +is so various. Look at it dispassionately, and you will see much to +admire in his skill. He pleases, he amuses, he startles, he baffles, he +mystifies." + +The Duchess made an impatient exclamation. "The silly newspapers call +him a 'remarkable man, a personality.' Now, believe me, Windlehurst, he +will overreach himself one of these days, and he'll come down like a +stick." + +"There you are on solid ground. He thinks that Fate is with him, and +that, in taking risks, he is infallible. But the best system breaks at +political roulette sooner or later. You have got to work for something +outside yourself, something that is bigger than the game, or the end is +sickening." + +"Eglington hasn't far to go, if that's the truth." + +"Well, well, when it comes, we must help him--we must help him up again." + +The Duchess nervously adjusted her wig, with ludicrously tiny fingers for +one so ample, and said petulantly: "You are incomprehensible. He has +been a traitor to you and to your party, he has thrown mud at you, he has +played with principles as my terrier plays with his rubber ball, and yet +you'll run and pick him up when he falls, and--" + +"'And kiss the spot to make it well,'" he laughed softly, then added with +a sigh: "Able men in public life are few; 'far too few, for half our +tasks; we can spare not one.' Besides, my dear Betty, there is his +pretty lass o' London." + +The Duchess was mollified at once. "I wish she had been my girl," she +said, in a voice a little tremulous. "She never needed looking after. +Look at the position she has made for herself. Her father wouldn't go +into society, her mother knew a mere handful of people, and--" + +"She knew you, Betty." + +"Well, suppose I did help her a little--I was only a kind of reference. +She did the rest. She's set a half-dozen fashions herself--pure genius. +She was born to lead. Her turnouts were always a little smarter, her +horses travelled a little faster, than other people's. She took risks, +too, but she didn't play a game; she only wanted to do things well. We +all gasped when she brought Adelaide to recite from 'Romeo and Juliet' at +an evening party, but all London did the same the week after." + +"She discovered, and the Duchess of Snowdon applied the science. +Ah, Betty, don't think I don't agree. She has the gift. She has +temperament. No woman should have temperament. She hasn't scope enough +to wear it out in some passion for a cause. Men are saved in spite of +themselves by the law of work. Forty comes to a man of temperament, +and then a passion for a cause seizes him, and he is safe. A woman of +temperament at forty is apt to cut across the bows of iron-clad +convention and go down. She has temperament, has my lady yonder, and I +don't like the look of her eyes sometimes. There's dark fire smouldering +in them. She should have a cause; but a cause to a woman now-a-days +means 'too little of pleasure, too much of pain,' for others." + +"What was your real cause, Windlehurst? You had one, I suppose, for +you've never had a fall." + +"My cause? You ask that? Behold the barren figtree! A lifetime in my +country's service, and you who have driven me home from the House in your +own brougham, and told me that you understood--oh, Betty!" + +She laughed. "You'll say something funny as you're dying, Windlehurst." + +"Perhaps. But it will be funny to know that presently I'll have a secret +that none of you know, who watch me 'launch my pinnace into the dark.' +But causes? There are hundreds, and all worth while. I've come here +to-night for a cause--no, don't start, it's not you, Betty, though you +are worth any sacrifice. I've come here to-night to see a modern +Paladin, a real crusader: + +"'Then felt I like some watcher of the skies, When a new planet swims +into his ken.'" + +"Yes, that's poetry, Windlehurst, and you know I love it-I've always kept +yours. But who's the man--the planet?" + +"Egyptian Claridge." + +"Ah, he is in England?" + +"He will be here to-night; you shall see him." + +"Really! What is his origin?" + +He told her briefly, adding: "I've watched the rise of Claridge Pasha. +I've watched his cause grow, and now I shall see the man--ah, but here +comes our lass o' London!" + +The eyes of both brightened, and a whimsical pleasure came to the mask- +like face of Lord Windlehurst. There was an eager and delighted look in +Hylda's face also as she quickly came to them, her cavaliers following. + +The five years that had passed since that tragic night in Cairo had been +more than kind to her. She was lissome, radiant, and dignified, her face +was alive with expression, and a delicate grace was in every movement. +The dark lashes seemed to have grown longer, the brown hair fuller, the +smile softer and more alluring. + +"She is an invaluable asset to the Government," Lord Windlehurst murmured +as she came. "No wonder the party helped the marriage on. London +conspired for it, her feet got tangled in the web--and he gave her no +time to think. Thinking had saved her till he came." + +By instinct Lord Windlehurst knew. During the first year after the +catastrophe at Kaid's Palace Hylda could scarcely endure the advances +made by her many admirers, the greatly eligible and the eager ineligible, +all with as real an appreciation of her wealth as of her personal +attributes. But she took her place in London life with more than the +old will to make for herself, with the help of her aunt Conyngham, +an individual position. + +The second year after her visit to Egypt she was less haunted by the dark +episode of the Palace, memory tortured her less; she came to think of +David and the part he had played with less agitation. At first the +thought of him had moved her alternately to sympathy and to revolt. +His chivalry had filled her with admiration, with a sense of confidence, +of dependence, of touching and vital obligation; but there was, too, +another overmastering feeling. He had seen her life naked, as it were, +stripped of all independence, with the knowledge of a dangerous +indiscretion which, to say the least, was a deformity; and she inwardly +resented it, as one would resent the exposure of a long-hidden physical +deformity, even by the surgeon who saved one's life. It was not a very +lofty attitude of mind, but it was human--and feminine. + +These moods had been always dissipated, however, when she recalled, +as she did so often, David as he stood before Nahoum Pasha, his soul +fighting in him to make of his enemy--of the man whose brother he had +killed--a fellow-worker in the path of altruism he had mapped out for +himself. David's name had been continually mentioned in telegraphic +reports and journalistic correspondence from Egypt; and from this source +she had learned that Nahoum Pasha was again high in the service of Prince +Kaid. When the news of David's southern expedition to the revolting +slave-dealing tribes began to appear, she was deeply roused. Her +agitation was the more intense because she never permitted herself to +talk of him to others, even when his name was discussed at dinner-tables, +accompanied by strange legends of his origin and stranger romances +regarding his call to power by Kaid. + +She had surrounded him with romance; he seemed more a hero of history +than of her own real and living world, a being apart. Even when there +came rumblings of disaster, dark dangers to be conquered by the Quaker +crusader, it all was still as of another life. True it was, that when +his safe return to Cairo was announced she had cried with joy and relief; +but there was nothing emotional or passionate in her feeling; it was the +love of the lower for the higher, the hero-worship of an idealist in +passionate gratitude. + +And, amid it all, her mind scarcely realised that they would surely meet +again. At the end of the second year the thought had receded into an +almost indefinite past. She was beginning to feel that she had lived +two lives, and that this life had no direct or vital bearing upon her +previous existence, in which David had moved. Yet now and then the +perfume of the Egyptian garden, through which she had fled to escape from +tragedy, swept over her senses, clouded her eyes in the daytime, made +them burn at night. + +At last she had come to meet and know Eglington. From the first moment +they met he had directed his course towards marriage. He was the man of +the moment. His ambition seemed but patriotism, his ardent and +overwhelming courtship the impulse of a powerful nature. As Lord +Windlehurst had said, he carried her off her feet, and, on a wave of +devotion and popular encouragement, he had swept her to the altar, + +The Duchess held both her hands for a moment, admiring her, and, +presently, with a playful remark upon her unselfishness, left her alone +with Lord Windlehurst. + +As they talked, his mask-like face became lighted from the brilliant fire +in the inquisitorial eyes, his lips played with topics of the moment in a +mordant fashion, which drew from her flashing replies. Looking at her, +he was conscious of the mingled qualities of three races in her--English, +Welsh, and American-Dutch of the Knickerbocker strain; and he contrasted +her keen perception and her exquisite sensitiveness with the purebred +Englishwomen round him, stately, kindly, handsome, and monotonously +intelligent. + +"Now I often wonder," he said, conscious of, but indifferent to, the +knowledge that he and the brilliant person beside him were objects of +general attention--"I often wonder, when I look at a gathering like this, +how many undiscovered crimes there are playing about among us. They +never do tell--or shall I say, we never do tell?" + +All day, she knew not why, Hylda had been nervous and excited. Without +reason his words startled her. Now there flashed before her eyes a room +in a Palace at Cairo, and a man lying dead before her. The light slowly +faded out of her eyes, leaving them almost lustreless, but her face was +calm, and the smile on her lips stayed. She fanned herself slowly, and +answered nonchalantly: "Crime is a word of many meanings. I read in the +papers of political crimes--it is a common phrase; yet the criminals +appear to go unpunished." + +"There you are wrong," he answered cynically. "The punishment is, that +political virtue goes unrewarded, and in due course crime is the only +refuge to most. Yet in politics the temptation to be virtuous is great." + +She laughed now with a sense of relief. The intellectual stimulant +had brought back the light to her face. "How is it, then, with you-- +inveterate habit or the strain of the ages? For they say you have not +had your due reward." + +He smiled grimly. "Ah, no, with me virtue is the act of an inquiring +mind--to discover where it will lead me. I began with political crime-- +I was understood! I practise political virtue: it embarrasses the world, +it fogs them, it seems original, because so unnecessary. Mine is the +scientific life. Experiment in old substances gives new--well, say, new +precipitations. But you are scientific, too. You have a laboratory, and +have much to do--with retorts." + +"No, you are thinking of my husband. The laboratory is his." + +"But the retorts are yours." + +"The precipitations are his." + +"Ah, well, at least you help him to fuse the constituents! . . . But +now, be quite confidential to an old man who has experimented too. Is +your husband really an amateur scientist, or is he a scientific amateur? +Is it a pose or a taste? I fiddled once--and wrote sonnets; one was a +pose, the other a taste." + +It was mere persiflage, but it was a jest which made an unintended wound. +Hylda became conscious of a sudden sharp inquiry going on in her mind. +There flashed into it the question, Does Eglington's heart ever really +throb for love of any object or any cause? Even in moments of greatest +intimacy, soon after marriage, when he was most demonstrative towards +her, he had seemed preoccupied, except when speaking about himself and +what he meant to do. Then he made her heart throb in response to his +confident, ardent words--concerning himself. But his own heart, did it +throb? Or was it only his brain that throbbed? + +Suddenly, with an exclamation, she involuntarily laid a hand upon +Windlehurst's arm. She was looking down the room straight before her to +a group of people towards which other groups were now converging, +attracted by one who seemed to be a centre of interest. + +Presently the eager onlookers drew aside, and Lord Windlehurst observed +moving up the room a figure he had never seen before. The new-comer was +dressed in a grey and blue official dress, unrelieved save by silver +braid at the collar and at the wrists. There was no decoration, but on +the head was a red fez, which gave prominence to the white, broad +forehead, with the dark hair waving away behind the ears. Lord +Windlehurst held his eye-glass to his eye in interested scrutiny. "H'm," +he said, with lips pursed out, "a most notable figure, a most remarkable +face! My dear, there's a fortune in that face. It's a national asset." + +He saw the flush, the dumb amazement, the poignant look in Lady +Eglington's face, and registered it in his mind. "Poor thing," he said +to himself, "I wonder what it is all about--I wonder. I thought she had +no unregulated moments. She gave promise of better things." The Foreign +Minister was bringing his guest towards them. The new-comer did not look +at them till within a few steps of where they stood. Then his eyes met +those of Lady Eglington. For an instant his steps were arrested. A +swift light came into his face, softening its quiet austerity and +strength. + +It was David. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + +SHARPER THAN A SWORD + +A glance of the eye was the only sign of recognition between David and +Hylda; nothing that others saw could have suggested that they had ever +met before. Lord Windlehurst at once engaged David in conversation. + +At first when Hylda had come back from Egypt, those five years ago, she +had often wondered what she would think or do if she ever were to see +this man again; whether, indeed, she could bear it. Well, the moment and +the man had come. Her eyes had gone blind for an instant; it had seemed +for one sharp, crucial moment as though she could not bear it; then the +gulf of agitation was passed, and she had herself in hand. + +While her mind was engaged subconsciously with what Lord Windlehurst and +David said, comprehending it all, and, when Lord Windlehurst appealed to +her, offering by a word contribution to the 'pourparler', she was +studying David as steadily as her heated senses would permit her. + +He seemed to her to have put on twenty years in the steady force of his +personality--in the composure of his bearing, in the self-reliance of his +look, though his face and form were singularly youthful. The face was +handsome and alight, the look was that of one who weighed things; yet she +was conscious of a great change. The old delicate quality of the +features was not so marked, though there was nothing material in the +look, and the head had not a sordid line, while the hand that he now and +again raised, brushing his forehead meditatively, had gained much in +strength and force. Yet there was something--something different, that +brought a slight cloud into her eyes. It came to her now, a certain +melancholy in the bearing of the figure, erect and well-balanced as it +was. Once the feeling came, the certainty grew. And presently she found +a strange sadness in the eyes, something that lurked behind all that he +did and all that he was, some shadow over the spirit. It was even more +apparent when he smiled. + +As she was conscious of this new reading of him, a motion arrested her +glance, a quick lifting of the head to one side, as though the mind had +suddenly been struck by an idea, the glance flying upward in abstracted +questioning. This she had seen in her husband, too, the same brisk +lifting of the head, the same quick smiling. Yet this face, unlike +Eglington's, expressed a perfect single-mindedness; it wore the look of a +self-effacing man of luminous force, a concentrated battery of energy. +Since she had last seen him every sign of the provincial had vanished. +He was now the well-modulated man of affairs, elegant in his simplicity +of dress, with the dignified air of the intellectual, yet with the +decision of a man who knew his mind. + +Lord Windlehurst was leaving. Now David and she were alone. Without a +word they moved on together through the throng, the eyes of all following +them, until they reached a quiet room at one end of the salon, where were +only a few people watching the crowd pass the doorway. + +"You will be glad to sit," he said, motioning her to a chair beside some +palms. Then, with a change of tone, he added: "Thee is not sorry I am +come?" + +Thee--the old-fashioned simple Quaker word! She put her fingers to her +eyes. Her senses were swimming with a distant memory. The East was in +her brain, the glow of the skies, the gleam of the desert, the swish of +the Nile, the cry of the sweet-seller, the song of the dance-girl, the +strain of the darabukkeh, the call of the skis. She saw again the +ghiassas drifting down the great river, laden with dourha; she saw the +mosque of the blue tiles with its placid fountain, and its handful of +worshippers praying by the olive-tree. She watched the moon rise above +the immobile Sphinx, she looked down on the banqueters in the Palace, +David among them, and Foorgat Bey beside her. She saw Foorgat Bey again +lying dead at her feet. She heard the stir of the leaves; she caught the +smell of the lime-trees in the Palace garden as she fled. She recalled +her reckless return to Cairo from Alexandria. She remembered the little +room where she and David, Nahoum and Mizraim, crossed a bridge over a +chasm, and stood upon ground which had held good till now--till this +hour, when the man who had played a most vital part in her life had +come again out of a land which, by some forced obliquity of mind and +stubbornness of will, she had assured herself she would never see again. + +She withdrew her hand from her eyes, and saw him looking at her calmly, +though his face was alight. "Thee is fatigued," he said. "This is +labour which wears away the strength." He made a motion towards the +crowd. + +She smiled a very little, and said: "You do not care for such things as +this, I know. Your life has its share of it, however, I suppose." + +He looked out over the throng before he answered. "It seems an eddy of +purposeless waters. Yet there is great depth beneath, or there were no +eddy; and where there is depth and the eddy there is danger--always." +As he spoke she became almost herself again. "You think that deep +natures have most perils?" + +"Thee knows it is so. Human nature is like the earth: the deeper the +plough goes into the soil unploughed before, the more evil substance is +turned up--evil that becomes alive as soon as the sun and the air fall +upon it." + +"Then, women like me who pursue a flippant life, who ride in this merry- +go-round"--she made a gesture towards the crowd beyond--"who have no +depth, we are safest, we live upon the surface." Her gaiety was forced; +her words were feigned. + +"Thee has passed the point of danger, thee is safe," he answered +meaningly. + +"Is that because I am not deep, or because the plough has been at work?" +she asked. "In neither case I am not sure you are right." + +"Thee is happily married," he said reflectively; "and the prospect is +fair." + +"I think you know my husband," she said in answer, and yet not in answer. + +"I was born in Hamley where he has a place--thee has been there?" he +asked eagerly. + +"Not yet. We are to go next Sunday, for the first time to the Cloistered +House. I had not heard that my husband knew you, until I saw in the +paper a few days ago that your home was in Hamley. Then I asked +Eglington, and he told me that your family and his had been neighbours +for generations." + +"His father was a Quaker," David rejoined, "but he forsook the faith." + +"I did not know," she answered, with some hesitation. There was no +reason why, when she and Eglington had talked of Hamley, he should not +have said his own father had once been a Quaker; yet she had dwelt so +upon the fact that she herself had Quaker blood, and he had laughed so +much over it, with the amusement of the superior person, that his silence +on this one point struck her now with a sense of confusion. + +"You are going to Hamley--we shall meet there?" she continued. + +"To-day I should have gone, but I have business at the Foreign Office +to-morrow. One needs time to learn that all 'private interests and +partial affections' must be sacrificed to public duty." + +"But you are going soon? You will be there on Sunday?" + +"I shall be there to-morrow night, and Sunday, and for one long week at +least. Hamley is the centre of the world, the axle of the universe--you +shall see. You doubt it?" he added, with a whimsical smile. + +"I shall dispute most of what you say, and all that you think, if you do +not continue to use the Quaker 'thee' and 'thou'--ungrammatical as you +are so often." + +"Thee is now the only person in London, or in England, with whom I use +'thee' and 'thou.' I am no longer my own master, I am a public servant, +and so I must follow custom." + +"It is destructive of personality. The 'thee' and 'thou' belong to you. +I wonder if the people of Hamley will say 'thee' and 'thou' to me. I +hope, I do hope they will." + +"Thee may be sure they will. They are no respecters of persons there. +They called your husband's father Robert--his name was Robert. Friend +Robert they called him, and afterwards they called him Robert Denton till +he died." + +"Will they call me Hylda?" she asked, with a smile. "More like they +will call thee Friend Hylda; it sounds simple and strong," he replied. + +"As they call Claridge Pasha Friend David," she answered, with a smile. +"David is a good name for a strong man." + +"That David threw a stone from a sling and smote a giant in the forehead. +The stone from this David's sling falls into the ocean and is lost +beneath the surface." + +His voice had taken on a somewhat sombre tone, his eyes looked away into +the distance; yet he smiled too, and a hand upon his knee suddenly closed +in sympathy with an inward determination. + +A light of understanding came into her face. They had been keeping +things upon the surface, and, while it lasted, he seemed a lesser man +than she had thought him these past years. But now--now there was the +old unschooled simplicity, the unique and lonely personality, the homely +soul and body bending to one root-idea, losing themselves in a wave of +duty. Again he was to her, once more, the dreamer, the worker, the +conqueror--the conqueror of her own imagination. She had in herself the +soul of altruism, the heart of the crusader. Touched by the fire of a +great idea, she was of those who could have gone out into the world +without wallet or scrip, to work passionately for some great end. + +And she had married the Earl of Eglington! + +She leaned towards David, and said eagerly: "But you are satisfied--you +are satisfied with your work for poor Egypt?" + +"Thee says 'poor Egypt,'" he answered, "and thee says well. Even now she +is not far from the day of Rameses and Joseph. Thee thinks perhaps thee +knows Egypt--none knows her." + +"You know her--now?" + +He shook his head slowly. "It is like putting one's ear to the mouth of +the Sphinx. Yet sometimes, almost in despair, when I have lain down in +the desert beside my camel, set about with enemies, I have got a message +from the barren desert, the wide silence, and the stars." He paused. + +"What is the message that comes?" she asked softly. "It is always the +same: Work on! Seek not to know too much, nor think that what you do is +of vast value. Work, because it is yours to be adjusting the machinery +in your own little workshop of life to the wide mechanism of the universe +and time. One wheel set right, one flying belt adjusted, and there is a +step forward to the final harmony--ah, but how I preach!" he added +hastily. + +His eyes were fixed on hers with a great sincerity, and they were clear +and shining, yet his lips were smiling--what a trick they had of smiling! +He looked as though he should apologise for such words in such a place. + +She rose to her feet with a great suspiration, with a light in her eyes +and a trembling smile. + +"But no, no, no, you inspire one. Thee inspires me," she said, with a +little laugh, in which there was a note of sadness. "I may use 'thee,' +may I not, when I will? I am a little a Quaker also, am I not? My +people came from Derbyshire, my American people, that is--and only forty +years ago. Almost thee persuades me to be a Quaker now," she added. +"And perhaps I shall be, too," she went on, her eyes fixed on the crowd +passing by, Eglington among them. + +David saw Eglington also, and moved forward with her. + +"We shall meet in Hamley," she said composedly, as she saw her husband +leave the crush and come towards her. As Eglington noticed David, +a curious enigmatical glance flashed from his eyes. He came forward, +however, with outstretched hand. + +"I am sorry I was not at the Foreign Office when you called to-day. +Welcome back to England, home--and beauty." He laughed in a rather +mirthless way, but with a certain empressement, conscious, as he always +was, of the onlookers. "You have had a busy time in Egypt?" he +continued cheerfully, and laughed again. + +David laughed slightly, also, and Hylda noticed that it had a certain +resemblance in its quick naturalness to that of her husband. + +"I am not sure that we are so busy there as we ought to be," David +answered. "I have no real standards. I am but an amateur, and have +known nothing of public life. But you should come and see." + +"It has been in my mind. An ounce of eyesight is worth a ton of print. +My lady was there once, I believe"--he turned towards her--"but before +your time, I think. Or did you meet there, perhaps?" He glanced at both +curiously. He scarcely knew why a thought flashed into his mind--as +though by some telepathic sense; for it had never been there before, +and there was no reason for its being there now. + +Hylda saw what David was about to answer, and she knew instinctively that +he would say they had never met. It shamed her. She intervened as she +saw he was about to speak. + +"We were introduced for the first time to-night," she said; "but Claridge +Pasha is part of my education in the world. It is a miracle that Hamley +should produce two such men," she added gaily, and laid her fan upon her +husband's arm lightly. "You should have been a Quaker, Harry, and then +you two would have been--" + +"Two Quaker Don Quixotes," interrupted Eglington ironically. + +"I should not have called you a Don Quixote," his wife lightly rejoined, +relieved at the turn things had taken. "I cannot imagine you tilting at +wind-mills--" + +"Or saving maidens in distress? Well, perhaps not; but you do not +suggest that Claridge Pasha tilts at windmills either--or saves maidens +in distress. Though, now I come to think, there was an episode." He +laughed maliciously. "Some time ago it was--a lass of the cross-roads. +I think I heard of such an adventure, which did credit to Claridge +Pasha's heart, though it shocked Hamley at the time. But I wonder, +was the maiden really saved?" + +Lady Eglington's face became rigid. "Well, yes," she said slowly, "the +maiden was saved. She is now my maid. Hamley may have been shocked, but +Claridge Pasha has every reason to be glad that he helped a fellow-being +in trouble." + +"Your maid--Heaver?" asked Eglington in surprise, a swift shadow +crossing his face. + +"Yes; she only told me this morning. Perhaps she had seen that Claridge +Pasha was coming to England. I had not, however. At any rate, Quixotism +saved her." + +David smiled. "It is better than I dared to hope," he remarked quietly. + +"But that is not all," continued Hylda. "There is more. She had been +used badly by a man who now wants to marry her--has tried to do so for +years. Now, be prepared for a surprise, for it concerns you rather +closely, Eglington. Fate is a whimsical jade. Whom do you think it is? +Well, since you could never guess, it was Jasper Kimber." + +Eglington's eyes opened wide. "This is nothing but a coarse and +impossible stage coincidence," he laughed. "It is one of those tricks +played by Fact to discredit the imagination. Life is laughing at us +again. The longer I live, the more I am conscious of being an object of +derision by the scene-shifters in the wings of the stage. What a cynical +comedy life is at the best!" + +"It all seems natural enough," rejoined David. + +"It is all paradox." + +"Isn't it all inevitable law? I have no belief in 'antic Fate.'" + +Hylda realised, with a new and poignant understanding, the difference of +outlook on life between the two men. She suddenly remembered the words +of Confucius, which she had set down in her little book of daily life: +"By nature we approximate, it is only experience that drives us apart." + +David would have been content to live in the desert all his life for the +sake of a cause, making no calculations as to reward. Eglington must +ever have the counters for the game. + +"Well, if you do not believe in 'antic Fate,' you must be greatly puzzled +as you go on," he rejoined, laughing; "especially in Egypt, where the +East and the West collide, race against race, religion against religion, +Oriental mind against Occidental intellect. You have an unusual quantity +of Quaker composure, to see in it all 'inevitable law.' And it must be +dull. But you always were, so they say in Hamley, a monument of +seriousness." + +"I believe they made one or two exceptions," answered David drily. +"I had assurances." + +Eglington laughed boyishly. "You are right. You achieved a name for +humour in a day--'a glass, a kick, and a kiss,' it was. Do you have such +days in Egypt?" + +"You must come and see," David answered lightly, declining to notice the +insolence. "These are critical days there. The problems are worthy of +your care. Will you not come?" + +Eglington was conscious of a peculiar persuasive influence over himself +that he had never felt before. In proportion, however, as he felt its +compelling quality, there came a jealousy of the man who was its cause. +The old antagonism, which had had its sharpest expression the last time +they had met on the platform at Heddington, came back. It was one strong +will resenting another--as though there was not room enough in the wide +world of being for these two atoms of life, sparks from the ceaseless +wheel, one making a little brighter flash than the other for the moment, +and then presently darkness, and the whirring wheel which threw them off, +throwing off millions of others again. + +On the moment Eglington had a temptation to say something with an edge, +which would show David that his success in Egypt hung upon the course +that he himself and the weak Foreign Minister, under whom he served, +would take. And this course would be his own course largely, since he +had been appointed to be a force and strength in the Foreign Office which +his chief did not supply. He refrained, however, and, on the moment, +remembered the promise he had given to Faith to help David. + +A wave of feeling passed over him. His wife was beautiful, a creature of +various charms, a centre of attraction. Yet he had never really loved +her--so many sordid elements had entered into the thought of marriage +with her, lowering the character of his affection. With a perversity +which only such men know, such heart as he had turned to the unknown +Quaker girl who had rebuked him, scathed him, laid bare his soul before +himself, as no one ever had done. To Eglington it was a relief that +there was one human being--he thought there was only one--who read him +through and through; and that knowledge was in itself as powerful an +influence as was the secret between David and Hylda. It was a kind of +confessional, comforting to a nature not self-contained. Now he +restrained his cynical intention to deal David a side-thrust, +and quietly said: + +"We shall meet at Hamley, shall we not? Let us talk there, and not at +the Foreign Office. You would care to go to Egypt, Hylda?" + +She forced a smile. "Let us talk it over at Hamley." With a smile to +David she turned away to some friends. + +Eglington offered to introduce David to some notable people, but he said +that he must go--he was fatigued after his journey. He had no wish to be +lionised. + +As he left the salon, the band was playing a tune that made him close his +eyes, as though against something he would not see. The band in Kaid's +Palace had played it that night when he had killed Foorgat Bey. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + +EACH AFTER HIS OWN ORDER + +With the passing years new feelings had grown up in the heart of Luke +Claridge. Once David's destiny and career were his own peculiar and +self-assumed responsibility. "Inwardly convicted," he had wrenched the +lad away from the natural circumstances of his life, and created a scheme +of existence for him out of his own conscience--a pious egoist. + +After David went to Egypt, however, his mind involuntarily formed the +resolution that "Davy and God should work it out together." + +He had grown very old in appearance, and his quiet face was almost +painfully white; but the eyes burned with more fire than in the past. +As the day approached when David should arrive in England, he walked by +himself continuously, oblivious of the world round him. He spoke to no +one, save the wizened Elder Meacham, and to John Fairley, who rightly +felt that he had a share in the making of Claridge Pasha. + +With head perched in the air, and face half hidden in his great white +collar, the wizened Elder, stopping Luke Claridge in the street one day, +said: + +"Does thee think the lad will ride in Pharaoh's chariot here?" + +There were sly lines of humour about the mouth of the wizened Elder as he +spoke, but Luke Claridge did not see. + +"Pride is far from his heart," he answered portentously. "He will ride +in no chariot. He has written that he will walk here from Heddington, +and none is to meet him." + +"He will come by the cross-roads, perhaps," rejoined the other piously. +"Well, well, memory is a flower or a rod, as John Fox said, and the +cross-roads have memories for him." + +Again flashes of humour crossed his face, for he had a wide humanity, of +insufficient exercise. + +"He has made full atonement, and thee does ill to recall the past, +Reuben," rejoined the other sternly. + +"If he has done no more that needs atonement than he did that day at the +cross-roads, then has his history been worthy of Hamley," rejoined the +wizened Elder, eyes shut and head buried in his collar. "Hamley made +him--Hamley made him. We did not spare advice, or example, or any +correction that came to our minds--indeed, it was almost a luxury. Think +you, does he still play the flute--an instrument none too grave, Luke?" + +But, to this, Luke Claridge exclaimed impatiently and hastened on; and +the little wizened Elder chuckled to himself all the way to the house of +John Fairley. None in Hamley took such pride in David as did these two +old men, who had loved him from a child, but had discreetly hidden their +favour, save to each other. Many times they had met and prayed together +in the weeks when his life was in notorious danger in the Soudan. + +As David walked through the streets of Heddington making for the open +country, he was conscious of a new feeling regarding the place. It was +familiar, but in a new sense. Its grimy, narrow streets, unlovely +houses, with shut windows, summer though it was, and no softening +influences anywhere, save here and there a box of sickly geraniums in the +windows, all struck his mind in a way they had never done before. A mile +away were the green fields, the woods, the roadsides gay with flowers and +shrubs-loveliness was but over the wall, as it were; yet here the +barrack-like houses, the grey, harsh streets, seemed like prison walls, +and the people in them prisoners who, with every legal right to call +themselves free, were as much captives as the criminal on some small +island in a dangerous sea. Escape--where? Into the gulf of no work and +degradation? + +They never lifted their eyes above the day's labour. They were scarce +conscious of anything beyond. What were their pleasures? They had +imitations of pleasures. To them a funeral or a wedding, a riot or a +vociferous band, a dog-fight or a strike, were alike in this, that they +quickened feelings which carried them out of themselves, gave them a +sense of intoxication. + +Intoxication? David remembered the far-off day of his own wild rebellion +in Hamley. From that day forward he had better realised that in the +hearts of so many of the human race there was a passion to forget +themselves; to blot out, if for a moment only, the troubles of life and +time; or, by creating a false air of exaltation, to rise above them. +Once in the desert, when men were dying round him of fever and dysentery, +he had been obliged, exhausted and ill, scarce able to drag himself from +his bed, to resort to an opiate to allay his own sufferings, that he +might minister to others. He remembered how, in the atmosphere it had +created--an intoxication, a soothing exhilaration and pervasive thrill-- +he had saved so many of his followers. Since then the temptation had +come upon him often when trouble weighed or difficulties surrounded him +--accompanied always by recurrence of fever--to resort to the insidious +medicine. Though he had fought the temptation with every inch of his +strength, he could too well understand those who sought for "surcease of +pain" + + "Seeking for surcease of pain, + Pilgrim to Lethe I came; + Drank not, for pride was too keen, + Stung by the sound of a name!" + +As the plough of action had gone deep into his life and laid bare his +nature to the light, there had been exposed things which struggled for +life and power in him, with the fiery strength which only evil has. + +The western heavens were aglow. On every hand the gorse and the may were +in bloom, the lilacs were coming to their end, but wild rhododendrons +were glowing in the bracken, as he stepped along the road towards the +place where he was born. Though every tree and roadmark was familiar, +yet he was conscious of a new outlook. He had left these quiet scenes +inexperienced and untravelled, to be thrust suddenly into the thick of a +struggle of nations over a sick land. He had worked in a vortex of +debilitating local intrigue. All who had to do with Egypt gained except +herself, and if she moved in revolt or agony, they threatened her. +Once when resisting the pressure and the threats of war of a foreign +diplomatist, he had, after a trying hour, written to Faith in a burst of +passionate complaint, and his letter had ended with these words. + + "In your onward march, O men, + White of face, in promise whiter, + You unsheath the sword, and then + Blame the wronged as the fighter. + + "Time, ah, Time, rolls onward o'er + All these foetid fields of evil, + While hard at the nation's core + Eats the burning rust and weevill + + "Nathless, out beyond the stars + Reigns the Wiser and the Stronger, + Seeing in all strifes and wars + Who the wronged, who the wronger." + +Privately he had spoken thus, but before the world he had given way to +no impulse, in silence finding safety from the temptation to diplomatic +evasion. Looking back over five years, he felt now that the sum of his +accomplishment had been small. + +He did not realise the truth. When his hand was almost upon the object +for which he had toiled and striven--whether pacifying a tribe, meeting a +loan by honest means, building a barrage, irrigating the land, financing +a new industry, or experimenting in cotton--it suddenly eluded him. +Nahoum had snatched it away by subterranean wires. On such occasions +Nahoum would shrug his shoulders, and say with a sigh, "Ah, my friend, +let us begin again. We are both young; time is with us; and we will +flourish palms in the face of Europe yet. We have our course set by a +bright star. We will continue." + +Yet, withal, David was the true altruist. Even now as he walked this +road which led to his old home, dear to him beyond all else, his thoughts +kept flying to the Nile and to the desert. + +Suddenly he stopped. He was at the cross-roads. Here he had met Kate +Heaver, here he had shamed his neighbours--and begun his work in life. +He stood for a moment, smiling, as he looked at the stone where he had +sat those years ago, his hand feeling instinctively for his flute. +Presently he turned to the dusty road again. + +Walking quickly away, he swung into the path of the wood which would +bring him by a short cut to Hamley, past Soolsby's cottage. Here was the +old peace, the old joy of solitude among the healing trees. Experience +had broadened his life, had given him a vast theatre of work; but the +smell of the woods, the touch of the turf, the whispering of the trees, +the song of the birds, had the ancient entry to his heart. + +At last he emerged on the hill where Soolsby lived. He had not meant, if +he could help it, to speak to any one until he had entered the garden of +the Red Mansion, but he had inadvertently come upon this place where he +had spent the most momentous days of his life, and a feeling stronger +than he cared to resist drew him to the open doorway. The afternoon sun +was beating in over the threshold as he reached it, and, at his footstep, +a figure started forward from the shadow of a corner. + +It was Kate Heaver. + +Surprise, then pain showed in her face; she flushed, was agitated. + +"I am sorry. It's too bad--it's hard on him you should see," she said in +a breath, and turned her head away for an instant; but presently looked +him in the face again, all trembling and eager. "He'll be sorry enough +to-morrow," she added solicitously, and drew away from something, she had +been trying to hide. + +Then David saw. On a bench against a wall lay old Soolsby--drunk. +A cloud passed across his face and left it pale. + +"Of course," he said simply, and went over and touched the heaving +shoulders reflectively. "Poor Soolsby!" + +"He's been sober four years--over four," she said eagerly. "When he knew +you'd come again, he got wild, and he would have the drink in spite of +all. Walking from Heddington, I saw him at the tavern, and brought him +home." + +"At the tavern--" David said reflectively. + +"The Fox and Goose, sir." She turned her face away again, and David's +head came up with a quick motion. There it was, five years ago, that he +had drunk at the bar, and had fought Jasper Kimber. + +"Poor fellow!" he said again, and listened to Soolsby's stertorous +breathing, as a physician looks at a patient whose case he cannot +control, does not wholly understand. + +The hand of the sleeping man was suddenly raised, his head gave a jerk, +and he said mumblingly: "Claridge for ever!" + +Kate nervously intervened. "It fair beat him, your coming back, sir. +It's awful temptation, the drink. I lived in it for years, and it's +cruel hard to fight it when you're worked up either way, sorrow or joy. +There's a real pleasure in being drunk, I'm sure. While it lasts you're +rich, and you're young, and you don't care what happens. It's kind of +you to take it like this, sir, seeing you've never been tempted and +mightn't understand." David shook his head sadly, and looked at Soolsby +in silence. + +"I don't suppose he took a quarter what he used to take, but it made him +drunk. 'Twas but a minute of madness. You've saved him right enough." + +"I was not blaming him. I understand--I understand." + +He looked at her clearly. She was healthy and fine-looking, with large, +eloquent eyes. Her dress was severe and quiet, as became her occupation +--a plain, dark grey, but the shapely fulness of the figure gave softness +to the outlines. It was no wonder Jasper Kimber wished to marry her; +and, if he did, the future of the man was sure. She had a temperament +which might have made her an adventuress--or an opera-singer. She had +been touched in time, and she had never looked back. + +"You are with Lady Eglington now, I have heard?" he asked. + +She nodded. + +"It was hard for you in London at first?" + +She met his look steadily. "It was easy in a way. I could see round me +what was the right thing to do. Oh, that was what was so awful in the +old life over there at Heddington,"--she pointed beyond the hill, "we +didn't know what was good and what was bad. The poor people in big +working-places like Heddington ain't much better than heathens, leastways +as to most things that matter. They haven't got a sensible religion, not +one that gets down into what they do. The parson doesn't reach them--he +talks about church and the sacraments, and they don't get at what good +it's going to do them. And the chapel preachers ain't much better. +They talk and sing and pray, when what the people want is light, +and hot water, and soap, and being shown how to live, and how to bring +up children healthy and strong, and decent-cooked food. I'd have food- +hospitals if I could, and I'd give the children in the schools one good +meal a day. I'm sure the children of the poor go wrong and bad more +through the way they live than anything. If only they was taught right +--not as though they was paupers! Give me enough nurses of the right +sort, and enough good, plain cooks, and meat three times a week, and milk +and bread and rice and porridge every day, and I'd make a new place of +any town in England in a year. I'd--" + +She stopped all at once, however, and flushing, said: "I didn't stop to +think I was talking to you, sir." + +"I am glad you speak to me so," he answered gently. "You and I are both +reformers at heart." + +"Me? I've done nothing, sir, not any good to anybody or anything." + +"Not to Jasper Kimber?" + +"You did that, sir; he says so; he says you made him." + +A quick laugh passed David's lips. "Men are not made so easily. I think +I know the trowel and the mortar that built that wall! Thee will marry +him, friend?" + +Her eyes burned as she looked at him. She had been eternally +dispossessed of what every woman has the right to have--one memory +possessing the elements of beauty. Even if it remain but for the moment, +yet that moment is hers by right of her sex, which is denied the wider +rights of those they love and serve. She had tasted the cup of +bitterness and drunk of the waters of sacrifice. Married life had no +lure for her. She wanted none of it. The seed of service had, however, +taken root in a nature full of fire and light and power, undisciplined +and undeveloped as it was. She wished to do something--the spirit of +toil, the first habit of the life of the poor, the natural medium for the +good that may be in them, had possession of her. + +This man was to her the symbol of work. To have cared for his home, to +have looked after his daily needs, to have sheltered him humbly from +little things, would have been her one true happiness. And this was +denied her. Had she been a man, it would have been so easy. She could +have offered to be his servant; could have done those things which she +could do better than any, since hers would be a heart-service. + +But even as she looked at him now, she had a flash of insight and +prescience. She had, from little things said or done, from newspapers +marked and a hundred small indications, made up her mind that her +mistress's mind dwelt much upon "the Egyptian." The thought flashed now +that she might serve this man, after all; that a day might come when she +could say that she had played a part in his happiness, in return for all +he had done for her. Life had its chances--and strange things had +happened. In her own mind she had decided that her mistress was not +happy, and who could tell what might happen? Men did not live for ever! +The thought came and went, but it left behind a determination to answer +David as she felt. + +"I will not marry Jasper," she answered slowly. "I want work, not +marriage." + +"There would be both," he urged. + +"With women there is the one or the other, not both." + +"Thee could help him. He has done credit to himself, and he can do good +work for England. Thee can help him." + +"I want work alone, not marriage, sir." + +"He would pay thee his debt." + +"He owes me nothing. What happened was no fault of his, but of the life +we were born in. He tired of me, and left me. Husbands tire of their +wives, but stay on and beat them." + +"He drove thee mad almost, I remember." + +"Wives go mad and are never cured, so many of them. I've seen them die, +poor things, and leave the little ones behind. I had the luck wi' me. +I took the right turning at the cross-roads yonder." + +"Thee must be Jasper's wife if he asks thee again," he urged. + +"He will come when I call, but I will not call," she answered. + +"But still thee will marry him when the heart is ready," he persisted. +"It shall be ready soon. He needs thee. Good-bye, friend. Leave +Soolsby alone. He will be safe. And do not tell him that I have seen +him so." He stooped over and touched the old man's shoulder gently. + +He held out his hand to her. She took it, then suddenly leaned over and +kissed it. She could not speak. + +He stepped to the door and looked out. Behind the Red Mansion the sun +was setting, and the far garden looked cool and sweet. He gave a happy +sigh, and stepped out and down. + +As he disappeared, the woman dropped into a chair, her arms upon a table. +Her body shook with sobs. She sat there for an hour, and then, when the +sun was setting, she left the drunken man sleeping, and made her way down +the hill to the Cloistered House. Entering, she was summoned to her +mistress's room. "I did not expect my lady so soon," she said, +surprised. + +"No; we came sooner than we expected. Where have you been?" + +"At Soolsby's hut on the hill, my lady." + +"Who is Soolsby?" + +Kate told her all she knew, and of what had happened that afternoon--but +not all. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + +"THERE IS NOTHING HIDDEN WHICH SHALL NOT BE REVEALED" + +A fortnight had passed since they had come to Hamley--David, Eglington, +and Hylda--and they had all travelled a long distance in mutual +understanding during that time, too far, thought Luke Claridge, who +remained neutral and silent. He would not let Faith go to the Cloistered +House, though he made no protest against David going; because he +recognised in these visits the duty of diplomacy and the business of the +nation--more particularly David's business, which, in his eyes, swallowed +all. Three times David had gone to the Cloistered House; once Hylda and +he had met in the road leading to the old mill, and once at Soolsby's +hut. Twice, also, in the garden of his old home he had seen her, when +she came to visit Faith, who had captured her heart at once. Eglington +and Faith had not met, however. He was either busy in his laboratory, +or with his books, or riding over the common and through the woods, +and their courses lay apart. + +But there came an afternoon when Hylda and David were a long hour +together at the Cloistered House. They talked freely of his work in +Egypt. At last she said: "And Nahoum Pasha?" + +"He has kept faith." + +"He is in high place again?" + +"He is a good administrator." + +"You put him there!" + +"Thee remembers what I said to him, that night in Cairo?" + +Hylda closed her eyes and drew in a long breath. Had there been a word +spoken that night when she and David and Nahoum met which had not bitten +into her soul! That David had done so much in Egypt without ruin or +death was a tribute to his power. Nevertheless, though Nahoum had not +struck yet, she was certain he would one day. All that David now told +her of the vicissitudes of his plans, and Nahoum's sympathy and help, +only deepened this conviction. She could well believe that Nahoum gave +David money from his own pocket, which he replaced by extortion from +other sources, while gaining credit with David for co-operation. +Armenian Christian Nahoum might be, but he was ranged with the East +against the West, with the reactionary and corrupt against advance, +against civilisation and freedom and equality. Nahoum's Christianity was +permeated with Orientalism, the Christian belief obscured by the theism +of the Muslim. David was in a deadlier struggle than he knew. Yet it +could serve no good end to attempt to warn him now. He had outlived +peril so far; might it not be that, after all, he would win? + +So far she had avoided Nahoum's name in talks with David. She could +scarcely tell why she did, save that it opened a door better closed, +as it were; but the restraint had given way at last. + +"Thee remembers what I said that night?" David repeated slowly. + +"I remember--I understand. You devise your course and you never change. +It is like building on a rock. That is why nothing happens to you as bad +as might happen." + +"Nothing bad ever happens to me." + +"The philosophy of the desert," she commented smiling. "You are living +in the desert even when you are here. This is a dream; the desert and +Egypt only are real. + +"That is true, I think. I seem sometimes like a sojourner here, like a +spirit 'revisiting the scenes of life and time.'" He laughed boyishly. + +"Yet you are happy here. I understand now why and how you are what you +are. Even I that have been here so short a time feel the influence upon +me. I breathe an air that, somehow, seems a native air. The spirit of +my Quaker grandmother revives in me. Sometimes I sit hours thinking, +scarcely stirring; and I believe I know now how people might speak to +each other without words. Your Uncle Benn and you--it was so with you, +was it not? You heard his voice speaking to you sometimes; you +understood what he meant to say to you? You told me so long ago." + +David inclined his head. "I heard him speak as one might speak through +a closed door. Sometimes, too, in the desert I have heard Faith speak +to me." + +"And your grandfather?" + +"Never my grandfather--never. It would seem as though, in my thoughts, +I could never reach him; as though masses of opaque things lay between. +Yet he and I--there is love between us. I don't know why I never hear +him." + +"Tell me of your childhood, of your mother. I have seen her grave under +the ash by the Meeting-house, but I want to know of her from you." + +"Has not Faith told you?" + +"We have only talked of the present. I could not ask her; but I can ask +you. I want to know of your mother and you together." + +"We were never together. When I opened my eyes she closed hers. It was +so little to get for the life she gave. See, was it not a good face?" +He drew from his pocket a little locket which Faith had given him years +ago, and opened it before her. + +Hylda looked long. "She was exquisite," she said, "exquisite." + +"My father I never knew either. He was a captain of a merchant ship. +He married her secretly while she was staying with an aunt at Portsmouth. +He sailed away, my mother told my grandfather all, and he brought her +home here. The marriage was regular, of course, but my grandfather, +after announcing it, and bringing it before the Elders, declared that she +should never see her husband again. She never did, for she died a few +months after, when I came, and my father died very soon, also. I never +saw him, and I do not know if he ever tried to see me. I never had any +feeling about it. My grandfather was the only father I ever knew, and +Faith, who was born a year before me, became like a sister to me, though +she soon made other pretensions!" He laughed again, almost happily. +"To gain an end she exercised authority as my aunt!" + +"What was your father's name?" + +"Fetherdon--James Fetherdon." + +"Fetherdon--James Fetherdon !" Involuntarily Hylda repeated the name +after him. Where had she heard the name before--or where had she seen +it? It kept flashing before her eyes. Where had she seen it? For days +she had been rummaging among old papers in the library of the Cloistered +House, and in an old box full of correspondence and papers of the late +countess, who had died suddenly. Was it among them that she had seen the +name? She could not tell. It was all vague, but that she had seen it or +heard it she was sure. + +"Your father's people, you never knew them?" + +He shook his head. "Nor of them. Here was my home--I had no desire to +discover them. We draw in upon ourselves here." + +"There is great force in such a life and such a people," she answered. +"If the same concentration of mind could be carried into the wide life of +the world, we might revolutionise civilisation; or vitalise and advance +it, I mean--as you are doing in Egypt." + +"I have done nothing in Egypt. I have sounded the bugle--I have not had +my fight." + +"That is true in a sense," she replied. "Your real struggle is before +you. I do not know why I say it, but I do say it; I feel it. Something +here"--she pressed her hand to her heart--"something here tells me that +your day of battle is yet to come." Her eyes were brimming and full of +excitement. "We must all help you." She gained courage with each word. +"You must not fight alone. You work for civilisation; you must have +civilisation behind you." Her hands clasped nervously; there was a catch +in her throat. "You remember then, that I said I would call to you one +day, as your Uncle Benn did, and you should hear and answer me. It shall +not be that I will call. You--you will call, and I will help you if I +can. I will help, no matter what may seem to prevent, if there is +anything I can do. I, surely I, of all the world owe it to you to do +what I can, always. + +"I owe so much--you did so much. Oh, how it haunts me! Sometimes in the +night I wake with a start and see it all--all!" + +The flood which had been dyked back these years past had broken loose in +her heart. + +Out of the stir and sweep of social life and duty, of official and +political ambition-heart-hungry, for she had no child; heart-lonely, +though she had scarce recognised it in the duties and excitements round +her--she had floated suddenly into this backwater of a motionless life in +Hamley. Its quiet had settled upon her, the shackles of her spirit had +been loosed, and dropped from her; she had suddenly bathed her heart and +soul in a freer atmosphere than they had ever known before. And David +and Hamley had come together. The old impulses, dominated by a divine +altruism, were swinging her out upon a course leading she knew not, +reeked not, whither--for the moment reeked not. This man's career, the +work he was set to do, the ideal before him, the vision of a land +redeemed, captured her, carried her panting into a resolve which, however +she might modify her speech or action, must be an influence in her life +hereafter. Must the penance and the redemption be his only? This life +he lived had come from what had happened to her and to him in Egypt. +In a deep sense her life was linked with his. + +In a flash David now felt the deep significance of their relations. +A curtain seemed suddenly to have been drawn aside. He was blinded for +a moment. Her sympathy, her desire to help, gave him a new sense of hope +and confidence, but--but there was no room in his crusade for any woman; +the dear egotism of a life-dream was masterful in him, possessed him. + +Yet, if ever his heart might have dwelt upon a woman with thought of the +future, this being before him--he drew himself up with a start! . . . +He was going to Egypt again in a few days; they might probably never meet +again--would not, no doubt--should not. He had pressed her husband to go +to Egypt, but now he would not encourage it; he must "finish his journey +alone." + +He looked again in her eyes, and their light and beauty held him. His +own eyes swam. The exaltation of a great idea was upon them, was a bond +of fate between them. It was a moment of peril not fully realised by +either. David did realise, however, that she was beautiful beyond all +women he had ever seen--or was he now for the first time really aware of +the beauty of woman? She had an expression, a light of eye and face, +finely alluring beyond mere outline of feature. Yet the features were +there, too, regular and fine; and her brown hair waving away from her +broad, white forehead over eyes a greyish violet in colour gave her a +classic distinction. In the quietness of the face there was that strain +of the Quaker, descending to her through three generations, yet enlivened +by a mind of impulse and genius. + +They stood looking at each other for a moment, in which both had taken a +long step forward in life's experience. But presently his eyes looked +beyond her, as though at something that fascinated them. + +"Of what are you thinking? What do you see?" she asked. + +"You, leaving the garden of my house in Cairo, I standing by the fire," +he answered, closing his eyes for an instant. + +"It is what I saw also," she said breathlessly. "It is what I saw and +was thinking of that instant." When, as though she must break away from +the cords of feeling drawing her nearer and nearer to him, she said, with +a little laugh, "Tell me again of my Chicago cousin? I have not had a +letter for a year." + +"Lacey, he is with me always. I should have done little had it not been +for him. He has remarkable resource; he is never cast down. He has but +one fault." + +"What is that?" + +"He is no respecter of persons. His humour cuts deep. He has a wide +heart for your sex. When leaving the court of the King of Abyssinia he +said to his Majesty: 'Well, good-bye, King. Give my love to the girls.'" + +She laughed again. "How absurd and childish he is! But he is true and +able. And how glad you should be that you are able to make true friends, +without an effort. Yesterday I met neighbour Fairley, and another little +old Elder who keeps his chin in his collar and his eyes on the sky. They +did little else but sing your praises. One might have thought that you +had invented the world-or Hamley." + +"Yet they would chafe if I were to appear among them without these." He +glanced down at the Quaker clothes he wore, and made a gesture towards +the broadbrimmed hat reposing on a footstool near by. + +"It is good to see that you are not changed, not spoiled at all," she +remarked, smiling. "Though, indeed, how could you be, who always work +for others and never for yourself? All I envy you is your friends. You +make them and keep them so." + +She sighed, and a shadow came into her eyes suddenly. She was thinking +of Eglington. Did he make friends--true friends? In London--was there +one she knew who would cleave to him for love of him? In England--had +she ever seen one? In Hamley, where his people had been for so many +generations, had she found one? + +Herself? Yes, she was his true friend. She would do what would she not +do to help him, to serve his interests? What had she not done since she +married Her fortune, it was his; her every waking hour had been filled +with something devised to help him on his way. Had he ever said to her: +"Hylda, you are a help to me"? He had admired her--but was he singular +in that? Before she married there were many--since, there had been many +--who had shown, some with tact and carefulness, others with a crudeness +making her shudder, that they admired her; and, if they might, would have +given their admiration another name with other manifestations. Had she +repelled it all? She had been too sure of herself to draw her skirts +about her; she was too proud to let any man put her at any disadvantage. +She had been safe, because her heart had been untouched. The Duchess of +Snowdon, once beautiful, but now with a face like a mask, enamelled and +rouged and lifeless, had said to her once: "My dear, I ought to have died +at thirty. When I was twenty-three I wanted to squeeze the orange dry in +a handful of years, and then go out suddenly, and let the dust of +forgetfulness cover my bones. I had one child, a boy, and would have no +more; and I squeezed the orange! But I didn't go at thirty, and yet the +orange was dry. My boy died; and you see what I am--a fright, I know it; +and I dress like a child of twenty; and I can't help it." + +There had been moments, once, when Hylda, too, had wished to squeeze the +orange dry, but something behind, calling to her, had held her back. She +had dropped her anchor in perilous seas, but it had never dragged. + +"Tell me how to make friends--and keep them," she added gaily. + +"If it be true I make friends, thee taught me how," he answered, "for +thee made me a friend, and I forget not the lesson." + +She smiled. "Thee has learnt another lesson too well," she answered +brightly. "Thee must not flatter. It is not that which makes thee keep +friends. Thee sees I also am speaking as they do in Hamley--am I not +bold? I love the grammarless speech." + +"Then use it freely to-day, for this is farewell," he answered, not +looking at her. + +"This--is--farewell," she said slowly, vaguely. Why should it startle +her so? "You are going so soon--where?" + +"To-morrow to London, next week to Egypt." + +She laid a hand upon herself, for her heart was beating violently. "Thee +is not fair to give no warning--there is so much to say," she said, in so +low a tone that he could scarcely hear her. "There is the future, your +work, what we are to do here to help. What I am to do. + +"Thee will always be a friend to Egypt, I know," he answered. "She needs +friends. Thee has a place where thee can help." + +"Will not right be done without my voice?" she asked, her eyes half +closing. "There is the Foreign Office, and English policy, and the +ministers, and--and Eglington. What need of me?" + +He saw the thought had flashed into her mind that he did not trust her +husband. "Thee knows and cares for Egypt, and knowing and caring make +policy easier to frame," he rejoined. + +Suddenly a wave of feeling went over her. He whose life had been flung +into this field of labour by an act of her own, who should help him but +herself? + +But it all baffled her, hurt her, shook her. She was not free to help as +she wished. Her life belonged to another; and he exacted the payment of +tribute to the uttermost farthing. She was blinded by the thought. Yet +she must speak. "I will come to Egypt--we will come to Egypt," she said +quickly. "Eglington shall know, too; he shall understand. You shall +have his help. You shall not work alone." + +"Thee can work here," he said. "It may not be easy for Lord Eglington to +come." + +"You pressed it on him." + +Their eyes met. She suddenly saw what was in his mind. + +"You know best what will help you most," she added gently. + +"You will not come?" he asked. + +"I will not say I will not come--not ever," she answered firmly. "It may +be I should have to come." Resolution was in her eyes. She was thinking +of Nahoum. "I may have to come," she added after a pause, "to do right +by you." + +He read her meaning. "Thee will never come," he continued confidently. +He held out his hand. "Perhaps I shall see you in town," she rejoined, +as her hand rested in his, and she looked away. "When do you start for +Egypt?" + +"To-morrow week, I think," he answered. "There is much to do." + +"Perhaps we shall meet in town," she repeated. But they both knew they +would not. + +"Farewell," he said, and picked up his hat. + +As he turned again, the look in her eyes brought the blood to his face, +then it became pale. A new force had come into his life. + +"God be good to thee," he said, and turned away. + +She watched him leave the room and pass through the garden. + +"David! David!" she said softly after him. + +At the other end of the room her husband, who had just entered, watched +her. He heard her voice, but did not hear what she said. + +"Come, Hylda, and have some music," he said brusquely. + +She scrutinised him calmly. His face showed nothing. His look was +enigmatical. + +"Chopin is the thing for me," he said, and opened the piano. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + +AS IN A GLASS DARKLY + +It was very quiet and cool in the Quaker Meeting-house, though outside +there was the rustle of leaves, the low din of the bees, the whistle of a +bird, or the even tread of horses' hoofs as they journeyed on the London +road. The place was full. For a half-hour the worshippers had sat +voiceless. They were waiting for the spirit to move some one to speak. +As they waited, a lady entered and glided into a seat. Few saw, and +these gave no indication of surprise, though they were little used to +strangers, and none of the name borne by this lady had entered the +building for many years. It was Hylda. + +At last the silence was broken. The wizened Elder, with eyes upon the +ceiling and his long white chin like ivory on his great collar, began to +pray, sitting where he was, his hands upon his knees. He prayed for all +who wandered "into by and forbidden paths." He prayed for one whose work +was as that of Joseph, son of Jacob; whose footsteps were now upon the +sea, and now upon the desert; whose way was set among strange gods and +divers heresies--"'For there must also be heresies, that they which are +approved may be made manifest among the weak.'" A moment more, and then +he added: "He hath been tried beyond his years; do Thou uphold his hands. +Once with a goad did we urge him on, when in ease and sloth he was among +us, but now he spurreth on his spirit and body in too great haste. O put +Thy hand upon the bridle, Lord, that He ride soberly upon Thy business." + +There was a longer silence now, but at last came the voice of Luke +Claridge. + +"Father of the fatherless," he said, "my days are as the sands in the +hour-glass hastening to their rest; and my place will soon be empty. He +goeth far, and I may not go with him. He fighteth alone, like him that +strove with wild beasts at Ephesus; do Thou uphold him that he may bring +a nation captive. And if a viper fasten on his hand, as chanced to Paul +of old, give him grace to strike it off without hurt. O Lord, he is to +me, Thy servant, as the one ewe lamb; let him be Thine when Thou +gatherest for Thy vineyard!" + +"And if a viper fasten on his hand--" David passed his hand across his +forehead and closed his eyes. The beasts at Ephesus he had fought, and +he would fight them again--there was fighting enough to do in the land of +Egypt. And the viper would fasten on his hand--it had fastened on his +hand, and he had struck it off; but it would come again, the dark thing +against which he had fought in the desert. + +Their prayers had unnerved him, had got into that corner of his nature +where youth and its irresponsibility loitered yet. For a moment he was +shaken, and then, looking into the faces of the Elders, said: "Friends, I +go again upon paths that lead into the wilderness. I know not if I ever +shall return. Howsoe'er that may be, I shall walk with firmer step +because of all ye do for me." + +He closed his eyes and prayed: "O God, I go into the land of ancient +plagues and present pestilence. If it be Thy will, bring me home to this +good land, when my task is done. If not, by Thy goodness let me be as a +stone set by the wayside for others who come after; and save me from the +beast and from the viper. 'Thou art faithful, who wilt not suffer us to +be tempted above that we are able; but wilt with the temptation also make +a way of escape, that we may be able to bear it!'" + +He sat down, and all grew silent again; but suddenly some one sobbed +aloud-sobbed, and strove to stay the sobbing, and could not, and, getting +up, hastened towards the door. + +It was Faith. David heard, and came quickly after her. As he took her +arm gently, his eyes met those of Hylda. She rose and came out also. + +"Will thee take her home?" he said huskily. "I can bear no more." + +Hylda placed her arm round Faith, and led her out under the trees and +into the wood. As they went, Faith looked back. + +"Oh, forgive me, forgive me, Davy," she said softly. + +Three lights burned in Hamley: one in the Red Mansion, one in the +Cloistered House, and one in Soolsby's hut upon the hill. In the Red +Mansion old Luke Claridge, his face pale with feeling, his white hair +tumbling about, his head thrust forward, his eyes shining, sat listening, +as Faith read aloud letters which Benn Claridge had written from the East +many years before. One letter, written from Bagdad, he made her read +twice. The faded sheet had in it the glow and glamour of the East; it +was like a heart beating with life; emotion rose and fell in it like the +waves of the sea. Once the old man interrupted Faith. + +"Davy--it is as though Davy spoke. It is like Davy--both Claridge, both +Claridge," he said. "But is it not like Davy? Davy is doing what it was +in Benn's heart to do. Benn showed the way; Benn called, and Davy came." + +He laid both hands upon his knees and raised his eyes. "O Lord, I have +sought to do according to Thy will," he whispered. He was thinking of a +thing he had long hidden. Through many years he had no doubt, no qualm; +but, since David had gone to Egypt, some spirit of unquiet had worked in +him. He had acted against the prayer of his own wife, lying in her +grave--a quiet-faced woman, who had never crossed him, who had never +shown a note of passion in all her life, save in one thing concerning +David. Upon it, like some prophetess, she had flamed out. With the +insight which only women have where children are concerned, she had told +him that he would live to repent of what he had done. She had died soon +after, and was laid beside the deserted young mother, whose days had +budded and blossomed, and fallen like petals to the ground, while yet it +was the spring. + +Luke Claridge had understood neither, not his wife when she had said: +"Thee should let the Lord do His own work, Luke," nor his dying daughter +Mercy, whose last words had been: "With love and sorrow I have sowed; he +shall reap rejoicing--my babe. Thee will set him in the garden in the +sun, where God may find him--God will not pass him by. He will take him +by the hand and lead him home." The old man had thought her touched by +delirium then, though her words were but the parable of a mind fed by the +poetry of life, by a shy spirit, to which meditation gave fancy and +farseeing. David had come by his idealism honestly. The half-mystical +spirit of his Uncle Benn had flowed on to another generation through the +filter of a woman's sad soul. It had come to David a pure force, a +constructive and practical idealism. + +Now, as Faith read, there were ringing in the old man's ears the words +which David's mother had said before she closed her eyes and passed away: +"Set him in the garden in the sun, where God may find him--God will not +pass him by." They seemed to weave themselves into the symbolism of Benn +Claridge's letter, written from the hills of Bagdad. + +"But," the letter continued, "the Governor passed by with his suite, the +buckles of the harness of his horses all silver, his carriage shining +with inlay of gold, his turban full of precious stones. When he had +passed, I said to a shepherd standing by, 'If thou hadst all his wealth, +shepherd, what wouldst thou do?' and he answered, 'If I had his wealth, I +would sit on the south side of my house in the sun all day and every +day.' To a messenger of the Palace, who must ever be ready night and day +to run at his master's order, I asked the same. He replied, 'If I had +all the Effendina's wealth, I would sleep till I died.' To a blind +beggar, shaking the copper in his cup in the highways, pleading dumbly to +those who passed, I made similar inquisition, and he replied 'If the +wealth of the exalted one were mine, I would sit on the mastaba by the +bake-house, and eat three times a day, save at Ramadan, when I would +bless Allah the compassionate and merciful, and breakfast at sunset with +the flesh of a kid and a dish of dates.' To a woman at the door of a +tomb hung with relics of hundreds of poor souls in misery, who besought +the buried saint to intercede for her with Allah, I made the same +catechism, and she answered, 'Oh, effendi, if his wealth were mine, +I would give my son what he has lost.' 'What has he lost, woman?' said +I; and she answered: 'A little house with a garden, and a flock of ten +goats, a cow and a dovecote, his inheritance of which he has been +despoiled by one who carried a false debt 'gainst his dead father.' And +I said to her: 'But if thy wealth were as that of the ruler of the city, +thy son would have no need of the little house and garden and the flock +of goats, and a cow and a dovecote.' Whereupon she turned upon me in +bitterness, and said: 'Were they not his own as the seed of his father? +Shall not one cherish that which is his own, which cometh from seed to +seed? Is it not the law?' 'But,' said I, 'if his wealth were thine, +there would be herds of cattle, and flocks of sheep, and carpets spread, +and the banquet-tables, and great orchards.' But she stubbornly shook +her head. 'Where the eagle built shall not the young eagle nest? How +should God meet me in the way and bless him who stood not by his birth +right? The plot of ground was the lad's, and all that is thereon. +I pray thee, mock me not.' God knows I did not mock her, for her words +were wisdom. So did it work upon me that, after many days, I got for the +lad his own again, and there he is happier, and his mother happier, than +the Governor in his palace. Later I did learn some truths from the +shepherd, the messenger, and the beggar, and the woman with the child; +but chiefly from the woman and the child. The material value has no +relation to the value each sets upon that which is his own. Behind this +feeling lies the strength of the world. Here on this hill of Bagdad I am +thinking these things. And, Luke, I would have thee also think on my +story of the woman and the child. There is in it a lesson for thee." + +When Luke Claridge first read this letter years before, he had put it +from him sternly. Now he heard it with a soft emotion. He took the +letter from Faith at last and put it in his pocket. With no apparent +relevancy, and laying his hand on Faith's shoulder, he said: + +"We have done according to our conscience by Davy--God is our witness, +so!" + +She leaned her cheek against his hand, but did not speak. + +In Soolsby's hut upon the hill David sat talking to the old chair-maker. +Since his return he had visited the place several times, only to find +Soolsby absent. The old man, on awaking from his drunken sleep, had been +visited by a terrible remorse, and, whenever he had seen David coming, +had fled into the woods. This evening, however, David came in the dark, +and Soolsby was caught. + +When David entered first, the old man broke down. He could not speak, +but leaned upon the back of a chair, and though his lips moved, no sound +came forth. But David took him by the shoulders and set him down, and +laughed gently in his face, and at last Soolsby got voice and said: + +"Egyptian! O Egyptian!" + +Then his tongue was loosened and his eye glistened, and he poured out +question after question, many pertinent, some whimsical, all frankly +answered by David. But suddenly he stopped short, and his eyes sank +before the other, who had laid a hand upon his knee. + +"But don't, Egyptian, don't! Don't have aught to do with me. I'm only a +drunken swine. I kept sober four years, as she knows--as the Angel down +yonder in the Red Mansion knows; but the day you came, going out to meet +you, I got drunk--blind drunk. I had only been pretending all the time. +I was being coaxed along--made believe I was a real man, I suppose. But +I wasn't. I was a pillar of sand. When pressure came I just broke down +--broke down, Egyptian. Don't be surprised if you hear me grunt. It's +my natural speech. I'm a hog, a drink-swilling hog. I wasn't decent +enough to stay sober till you had said 'Good day,' and 'How goes it, +Soolsby?' I tried it on; it was no good. I began to live like a man, but +I've slipped back into the ditch. You didn't know that, did you?" + +David let him have his say, and then in a low voice said: "Yes, I knew +thee had been drinking, Soolsby." He started. "She told you--Kate +Heaver--" + +"She did not tell me. I came and found you here with her. You were +asleep." + +"A drunken sweep!" He spat upon the ground in disgust at himself. + +"I ought never have comeback here," he added. "It was no place for me. +But it drew me. I didn't belong; but it drew me." + +"Thee belongs to Hamley. Thee is an honour to Hamley, Soolsby." + +Soolsby's eyes widened; the blurred look of rage and self-reproach in +them began to fade away. + +"Thee has made a fight, Soolsby, to conquer a thing that has had thee by +the throat. There's no fighting like it. It means a watching every +hour, every minute--thee can never take the eye off it. Some days it's +easy, some days it's hard, but it's never so easy that you can say, +'There is no need to watch.' In sleep it whispers and wakes you; in the +morning, when there are no shadows, it casts a shadow on the path. It +comes between you and your work; you see it looking out of the eyes of a +friend. And one day, when you think it has been conquered, that you have +worn it down into oblivion and the dust, and you close your eyes and say, +'I am master,' up it springs with fury from nowhere you can see, and +catches you by the throat; and the fight begins again. But you sit +stronger, and the fight becomes shorter; and after many battles, and you +have learned never to be off guard, to know by instinct where every +ambush is, then at last the victory is yours. It is hard, it is bitter, +and sometimes it seems hardly worth the struggle. But it is--it is worth +the struggle, dear old man." + +Soolsby dropped on his knees and caught David by the arms. "How did you +know-how did you know?" he asked hoarsely. "It's been just as you say. +You've watched some one fighting?" + +"I have watched some one fighting--fighting," answered David clearly, but +his eyes were moist. + +"With drink, the same as me?" + +"No, with opium--laudanum." + +"Oh, I've heard that's worse, that it makes you mad, the wanting it." + +"I have seen it so." + +"Did the man break down like me?" + +"Only once, but the fight is not yet over with him." "Was he--an +Englishman?" + +David inclined his head. "It's a great thing to have a temptation to +fight, Soolsby. Then we can understand others." + +"It's not always true, Egyptian, for you have never had temptation to +fight. Yet you know it all." + +"God has been good to me," David answered, putting a hand on the old +man's shoulder. "And thee is a credit to Hamley, friend. Thee will +never fall again." + +"You know that--you say that to me! Then, by Mary the mother of God, I +never will be a swine again," he said, getting to his feet. + +"Well, good-bye, Soolsby. I go to-morrow," David said presently. + +Soolsby frowned; his lips worked. "When will you come back?" he asked +eagerly. + +David smiled. "There is so much to do, they may not let me come--not +soon. I am going into the desert again." + +Soolsby was shaking. He spoke huskily. "Here is your place," he said. +"You shall come back--Oh, but you shall come back, here, where you +belong." + +David shook his head and smiled, and clasped the strong hand again. A +moment later he was gone. From the door of the but Soolsby muttered to +himself: + +"I will bring you back. If Luke Claridge doesn't, then I will bring you +back. If he dies, I will bring you--no, by the love of God, I will bring +you back while he lives!" + + ........................... + +Two thousand miles away, in a Nile village, women sat wailing in dark +doorways, dust on their heads, black mantles covering their faces. By +the pond where all the people drank, performed their ablutions, bathed +their bodies and rinsed their mouths, sat the sheikh-el-beled, the +village chief, taking counsel in sorrow with the barber, the holy man, +and others. Now speaking, now rocking their bodies to and fro, in the +evening sunlight, they sat and watched the Nile in flood covering the +wide wastes of the Fayoum, spreading over the land rich deposits of earth +from the mountains of Abyssinia. When that flood subsided there would be +fields to be planted with dourha and onions and sugar-cane; but they +whose strong arms should plough and sow and wield the sickle, the youth, +the upstanding ones, had been carried off in chains to serve in the army +of Egypt, destined for the far Soudan, for hardship, misery, and death, +never to see their kindred any more. Twice during three months had the +dread servant of the Palace come and driven off their best like sheep to +the slaughter. The brave, the stalwart, the bread-winners, were gone; +and yet the tax-gatherer would come and press for every impost--on the +onion-field, the date-palm, the dourha-field, and the clump of sugar- +cane, as though the young men, the toilers, were still there. The old +and infirm, the children, the women, must now double and treble their +labour. The old men must go to the corvee, and mend the banks of the +Nile for the Prince and his pashas, providing their own food, their own +tools, their own housing, if housing there would be--if it was more than +sleeping under a bush by the riverside, or crawling into a hole in the +ground, their yeleks their clothes by day, their only covering at night. + +They sat like men without hope, yet with the proud, bitter mien of those +who had known good and had lost it, had seen content and now were +desolate. + +Presently one--a lad--the youngest of them, lifted up his voice and began +to chant a recitative, while another took a small drum and beat it in +unison. He was but just recovered from an illness, or he had gone also +in chains to die for he knew not what, leaving behind without hope all +that he loved: + + "How has the cloud fallen, and the leaf withered on the tree, + The lemon-tree, that standeth by the door. + The melon and the date have gone bitter to the taste, + The weevil, it has eaten at the core + The core of my heart, the mildew findeth it. + My music, it is but the drip of tears, + The garner empty standeth, the oven hath no fire, + Night filleth me with fears. + O Nile that floweth deeply, hast thou not heard his voice? + His footsteps hast thou covered with thy flood? + He was as one who lifteth up the yoke, + He was as one who taketh off the chain, + As one who sheltereth from the rain, + As one who scattereth bread to the pigeons flying. + His purse was at his side, his mantle was for me, + For any who passeth were his mantle and his purse, + And now like a gourd is he withered from our eyes. + His friendship, it was like a shady wood + Whither has he gone?--Who shall speak for us? + Who shall save us from the kourbash and the stripes? + Who shall proclaim us in the palace? + Who shall contend for us in the gate? + The sakkia turneth no more; the oxen they are gone; + The young go forth in chains, the old waken in the night, + They waken and weep, for the wheel turns backward, + And the dark days are come again upon us-- + Will he return no more? + His friendship was like a shady wood, + O Nile that floweth deeply, hast thou not heard his voice? + Hast thou covered up his footsteps with thy flood? + The core of my heart, the mildew findeth it!" + +Another-an old man-took up the strain, as the drum kept time to the beat +of the voice with its undulating call and refrain: + +"When his footsteps were among us there was peace; +War entered not the village, nor the call of war. +Now our homes are as those that have no roofs. +As a nest decayed, as a cave forsaken, +As a ship that lieth broken on the beach, +Is the house where we were born. +Out in the desert did we bury our gold, +We buried it where no man robbed us, for his arm was strong. +Now are the jars empty, gold did not avail +To save our young men, to keep them from the chains. +God hath swallowed his voice, or the sea hath drowned it, +Or the Nile hath covered him with its flood; +Else would he come when our voices call. +His word was honey in the prince's ear +Will he return no more?" + +And now the sheikh-el-beled spoke. "It hath been so since Nahoum Pasha +passed this way four months agone. He hath changed all. War will not +avail. David Pasha, he will come again. His word is as the centre of +the world. Ye have no hope, because ye see the hawks among the starving +sheep. But the shepherd will return from behind the hill, and the hawks +will flee away. + +". . . Behold, once was I in the desert. Listen, for mine are the +words of one who hath travelled far--was I not at Damascus and Palmyra +and Bagdad, and at Medina by the tomb of Mahomet?" + +Reverently he touched the green turban on his head, evidence of his +journey to Mahomet's tomb. "Once in the desert I saw afar off an oasis +of wood and water, and flying things, and houses where a man might rest. +And I got me down from my camel, and knelt upon my sheepskin, and gave +thanks in the name of Allah. Thereupon I mounted again and rode on +towards that goodly place. But as I rode it vanished from my sight. +Then did I mourn. Yet once again I saw the trees, and flocks of pigeons +and waving fields, and I was hungry and thirsty, and longed exceedingly. +Yet got I down, and, upon my sheep-skin, once more gave thanks to Allah. +And I mounted thereafter in haste and rode on; but once again was I +mocked. Then I cried aloud in my despair. It was in my heart to die +upon the sheep-skin where I had prayed; for I was burned up within, and +there seemed naught to do but say malaish, and go hence. But that goodly +sight came again. My heart rebelled that I should be so mocked. I bent +down my head upon my camel that I might not see, yet once more I loosed +the sheep-skin. Lifting up my heart, I looked again, and again I took +hope and rode on. Farther and farther I rode, and lo! I was no longer +mocked; for I came to a goodly place of water and trees, and was saved. +So shall it be with us. We have looked for his coming again, and our +hearts have fallen and been as ashes, for that he has not come. Yet +there be mirages, and one day soon David Pasha will come hither, and our +pains shall be eased." + +"Aiwa, aiwa--yes, yes," cried the lad who had sung to them. + +"Aiwa, aiwa," rang softly over the pond, where naked children stooped to +drink. + +The smell of the cooking-pots floated out from the mud-houses near by. + +"Malaish," said one after another, "I am hungry. He will come again- +perhaps to-morrow." So they moved towards the houses over the way. + +One cursed his woman for wailing in the doorway; one snatched the lid +from a cooking-pot; one drew from an oven cakes of dourha, and gave them +to those who had none; one knelt and bowed his forehead to the ground in +prayer; one shouted the name of him whose coming they desired. + +So was David missed in Egypt. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + +THE TENTS OF CUSHAN + + "I saw the tents of Cushan in affliction, and the curtains + of the Land of Midian did tremble." + +A Hurdy-Gurdy was standing at the corner, playing with shrill insistence +a medley of Scottish airs. Now "Loch Lomond" pleaded for pennies from +the upper windows: + + "For you'll tak' the high road, + and I'll tak' the low road, + And I'll be in Scotland before ye: + But I and my true love will never meet again, + On the bonnie, bonnie banks of Loch Lomond!" + +The hurdy-gurdy was strident and insistent, but for a long time no +response came. At last, however, as the strains of "Loch Lomond" ceased, +a lady appeared on the balcony of a drawing-room, and, leaning over a +little forest of flowers and plants, threw a half-crown to the sorry +street-musician. She watched the grotesque thing trundle away, then +entering the house again, took a 'cello from the corner of the room and +tuned the instrument tenderly. It was Hylda. + +Something of the peace of Hamley had followed her to London, but the +poignant pain of it had come also. Like Melisande, she had looked into +the quiet pool of life and had seen her own face, its story and its +foreshadowings. Since then she had been "apart." She had watched life +move on rather than shared in its movement. Things stood still for her. +That apathy of soul was upon her which follows the inward struggle that +exhausts the throb and fret of inward emotions, leaving the mind +dominant, the will in abeyance. + +She had become conscious that her fate and future were suspended over a +chasm, as, on the trapeze of a balloon, an adventurous aeronaut hangs +uncertain over the hungry sea, waiting for the coming wind which will +either blow the hazardous vessel to its doom or to safe refuge on the +land. + +She had not seen David after he left Hamley. Their last words had been +spoken at the Meeting-house, when he gave Faith to her care. That scene +came back to her now, and a flush crept slowly over her face and faded +away again. She was recalling, too, the afternoon of that day when she +and David had parted in the drawing-room of the Cloistered House, and +Eglington had asked her to sing. She thought of the hours with Eglington +that followed, first at the piano and afterwards in the laboratory, where +in his long blue smock he made experiments. Had she not been conscious +of something enigmatical in his gaiety that afternoon, in his cheerful +yet cheerless words, she would have been deeply impressed by his +appreciation of her playing, and his keen reflections on the merits of +the composers; by his still keener attention to his subsequent +experiments, and his amusing comments upon them. But, somehow, that very +cheerless cheerfulness seemed to proclaim him superficial. Though she +had no knowledge of science, she instinctively doubted his earnestness +even in this work, which certainly was not pursued for effect. She had +put the feeling from her, but it kept returning. She felt that in +nothing did he touch the depths. Nothing could possess him wholly; +nothing inherent could make him self-effacing. + +Yet she wondered, too, if she was right, when she saw his fox-terrier +watching him, ever watching him with his big brown eyes as he buoyantly +worked, and saw him stoop to pat its head. Or was this, after all, mere +animalism, mere superficial vitality, love of health and being? She +shuddered, and shut her eyes, for it came home to her that to him she was +just such a being of health, vitality and comeliness, on a little higher +plane. She put the thought from her, but it had had its birth, and it +would not down. He had immense vitality, he was tireless, and abundant +in work and industry; he went from one thing to another with ease and +swiftly changing eagerness. Was it all mere force--mere man and mind? +Was there no soul behind it? There in the laboratory she had laid her +hand on the terrier, and prayed in her heart that she might understand +him for her own good, her own happiness, and his. Above all else she +wanted to love him truly, and to be loved truly, and duty was to her a +daily sacrifice, a constant memorial. She realised to the full that +there lay before her a long race unilluminated by the sacred lamp which, +lighted at the altar, should still be burning beside the grave. + +Now, as she thought of him, she kept saying to herself: "We should have +worked out his life together. Work together would have brought peace. +He shuts me out--he shuts me out." + +At last she drew the bow across the instrument, once, twice, and then she +began to play, forgetful of the world. She had a contralto voice, and +she sang with a depth of feeling and a delicate form worthy of a +professional; on the piano she was effective and charming, but into the +'cello she poured her soul. + +For quite an hour she played with scarce an interruption. At last, with +a sigh, she laid the instrument against her knee and gazed out of the +window. As she sat lost in her dream--a dream of the desert--a servant +entered with letters. One caught her eye. It was from Egypt--from her +cousin Lacey. Her heart throbbed violently, yet she opened the official- +looking envelope with steady fingers. She would not admit even to her +self that news from the desert could move her so. She began to read +slowly, but presently, with a little cry, she hastened through the pages. +It ran: + + THE SOUDAN. + + DEAR LADY COUSIN, + + I'm still not certain how I ought to style you, but I thought I'd + compromise as per above. Anyway, it's a sure thing that I haven't + bothered you much with country-cousin letters. I figure, however, + that you've put some money in Egypt, so to speak, and what happens + to this sandy-eyed foundling of the Nile you would like to know. So + I've studied the only "complete letter-writer" I could find between + the tropic of Capricorn and Khartoum, and this is the contemptible + result, as the dagos in Mexico say. This is a hot place by reason + of the sun that shines above us, and likewise it is hot because of + the niggers that swarm around us. I figure, if we get out of this + portion of the African continent inside our skins, that we will have + put up a pretty good bluff, and pulled off a ticklish proposition. + + It's a sort of early Christian business. You see, David the Saadat + is great on moral suasion--he's a master of it; and he's never + failed yet--not altogether; though there have been minutes by a + stop-watch when I've thought it wouldn't stand the strain. Like the + Mississippi steamboat which was so weak that when the whistle blew + the engines stopped! When those frozen minutes have come to us, + I've tried to remember the correct religious etiquette, but I've not + had much practise since I stayed with Aunt Melissa, and lived on + skim-milk and early piety. When things were looking as bad as they + did for Dives, "Now I lay me down to sleep," and "For what we are + about to receive," was all that I could think of. But the Saadat, + he's a wonder from Wondertown. With a little stick, or maybe his + flute under his arm, he'll smile and string these heathen along, + when you'd think they weren't waiting for anybody. A spear took off + his fez yesterday. He never blinked--he's a jim-dandy at keeping + cool; and when a hundred mounted heathens made a rush down on him + the other day, spears sticking out like quills on a porcupine--2.5 + on the shell-road the chargers were going--did he stir? Say, he + watched 'em as if they were playing for his benefit. And sure + enough, he was right. They parted either side of him when they were + ten feet away, and there he was quite safe, a blessing in the storm, + a little rock island in the rapids--but I couldn't remember a proper + hymn of praise to say. + + There's no getting away from the fact that he's got a will or + something, a sort of force different from most of us, or perhaps any + of us. These heathen feel it, and keep their hands off him. They + say he's mad, but they've got great respect for mad people, for they + think that God has got their souls above with Him, and that what's + left behind on earth is sacred. He talks to'em, too, like a father + in Israel; tells 'em they must stop buying and selling slaves, and + that if they don't he will have to punish them! And I sit holding + my sides, for we're only two white men and forty "friendlies" + altogether, and two revolvers among us; and I've got the two! And + they listen to his blarneying, and say, "Aiwa, Saadat! aiwa, + Saadat!" as if he had an army of fifty thousand behind him. + Sometimes I've sort of hinted that his canoe was carrying a lot of + sail; but my! he believes in it all as if there wasn't a spear or a + battle-axe or a rifle within a hundred miles of him. We've been at + this for two months now, and a lot of ground we covered till we got + here. I've ridden the gentle camel at the rate of sixty and seventy + miles a day--sort of sweeping through the land, making treaties, + giving presents, freeing slaves, appointing governors and sheikhs- + el-beled, doing it as if we owned the continent. He mesmerised 'em, + simply mesmerised 'em-till we got here. I don't know what happened + then. Now we're distinctly rating low, the laugh is on us somehow. + But he--mind it? He goes about talking to the sheikhs as though we + were all eating off the same corn-cob, and it seems to stupefy them; + they don't grasp it. He goes on arranging for a post here and a + station there, and it never occurs to him that it ain't really + actual. He doesn't tell me, and I don't ask him, for I came along + to wipe his stirrups, so to speak. I put my money on him, and I'm + not going to worry him. He's so dead certain in what he does, and + what he is, that I don't lose any sleep guessing about him. It will + be funny if we do win out on this proposition--funnier than + anything. + + Now, there's one curious thing about it all which ought to be + whispered, for I'm only guessing, and I'm not a good guesser; I + guessed too much in Mexico about three railways and two silvermines. + The first two days after we came here, everything was all right. + Then there came an Egyptian, Halim Bey, with a handful of niggers + from Cairo, and letters for Claridge Pasha. + + From that minute there was trouble. I figure it out this way: Halim + was sent by Nahoum Pasha to bring letters that said one thing to the + Saadat, and, when quite convenient, to say other things to Mustafa, + the boss-sheikh of this settlement. Halim Bey has gone again, but + he has left his tale behind him. I'd stake all I lost, and more + than I ever expect to get out of Mexico on that, and maybe I'll get + a hatful out of Mexico yet. I had some good mining propositions + down there. The Saadat believes in Nahoum, and has made Nahoum what + he is; and on the surface Nahoum pretends to help him; but he is + running underground all the time. I'd like to help give him a villa + at Fazougli. When the Saadat was in England there was a bad time in + Egypt. I was in Cairo; I know. It was the same bad old game--the + corvee, the kourbash, conscription, a war manufactured to fill the + pockets of a few, while the poor starved and died. It didn't come + off, because the Saadat wasn't gone long enough, and he stopped it + when he came back. But Nahoumhe laid the blame on others, and the + Saadat took his word for it, and, instead of a war, there came this + expedition of his own. + + Ten days later.--Things have happened. First, there's been awful + sickness among the natives, and the Saadat has had his chance. His + medicine-chest was loaded, he had a special camel for it--and he has + fired it off. Night and day he has worked, never resting, never + sleeping, curing most, burying a few. He looks like a ghost now, + but it's no use saying or doing anything. He says: "Sink your own + will; let it be subject to a higher, and you need take no thought." + It's eating away his life and strength, but it has given us our + return tickets, I guess. They hang about him as if he was Moses in + the wilderness smiting the rock. It's his luck. Just when I get + scared to death, and run down and want a tonic, and it looks as if + there'd be no need to put out next week's washing, then his luck + steps in, and we get another run. But it takes a heap out of a man, + getting scared. Whenever I look on a lot of green trees and cattle + and horses, and the sun, to say nothing of women and children, and + listen to music, or feel a horse eating up the ground under me, 2.10 + in the sand, I hate to think of leaving it, and I try to prevent it. + Besides, I don't like the proposition of going, I don't know where. + That's why I get seared. But he says that it's no more than turning + down the light and turning it up again. They used to call me a + dreamer in Mexico, because I kept seeing things that no one else had + thought of, and laid out railways and tapped mines for the future; + but I was nothing to him. I'm a high-and-dry hedge-clipper + alongside. I'm betting on him all the time; but no one seems to be + working to make his dreams come true, except himself. I don't + count; I'm no good, no real good. I'm only fit to run the + commissariat, and see that he gets enough to eat, and has a safe + camel, and so on. + + Why doesn't some one else help him? He's working for humanity. + Give him half a chance, and Haroun-al-Raschid won't be in it. Kaid + trusts him, depends on him, stands by him, but doesn't seem to know + how to help him when help would do most good. The Saadat does it + all himself; and if it wasn't that the poor devil of a fellah sees + what he's doing, and cottons to him, and the dervishes and Arabs + feel he's right, he might as well leave. But it's just there he + counts. There's something about him, something that's Quaker in + him, primitive, silent, and perceptive--if that's a real word--which + makes them feel that he's honest, and isn't after anything for + himself. Arabs don't talk much; they make each other understand + without many words. They think with all their might on one thing at + a time, and they think things into happening--and so does he. He's + a thousand years old, which is about as old-fashioned as I mean, and + as wise, and as plain to read as though you'd write the letters of + words as big as a date-palm. That's where he makes the running with + them, and they can read their title clear to mansions in the skies! + + You should hear him talk with Ebn Ezra Bey--perhaps you don't know + of Ezra? He was a friend of his Uncle Benn, and brought the news of + his massacre to England, and came back with the Saadat. Well, three + days ago Ebn Ezra came, and there came with him, too, Halim Bey, the + Egyptian, who had brought the letters to us from Cairo. Elm Ezra + found him down the river deserted by his niggers, and sick with this + new sort of fever, which the Saadat is knocking out of time. And + there he lies, the Saadat caring for him as though he was his + brother. But that's his way; though, now I come to think of it, the + Saadat doesn't suspect what I suspect, that Halim Bey brought word + from Nahoum to our sheikhs here to keep us here, or lose us, or do + away with us. Old Ebn Ezra doesn't say much himself, doesn't say + anything about that; but he's guessing the same as me. And the + Saadat looks as though he was ready for his grave, but keeps going, + going, going. He never seems to sleep. What keeps him alive I + don't know. Sometimes I feel clean knocked out myself with the + little I do, but he's a travelling hospital all by his lonesome. + + Later.--I had to stop writing, for things have been going on-- + several. I can see that Ebn Ezra has told the Saadat things that + make him want to get away to Cairo as soon as possible. That it's + Nahoum Pasha and others--oh, plenty of others, of course--I'm + certain; but what the particular game is I don't know. Perhaps you + know over in England, for you're nearer Cairo than we are by a few + miles, and you've got the telegraph. Perhaps there's a revolution, + perhaps there's been a massacre of Europeans, perhaps Turkey is + kicking up a dust, perhaps Europe is interfering--all of it, all at + once. + + Later still.--I've found out it's a little of all, and the Saadat is + ready to go. I guess he can go now pretty soon, for the worst of + the fever is over. But something has happened that's upset him- + knocked him stony for a minute. Halim Bey was killed last night--by + order of the sheikhs, I'm told; but the sheikhs won't give it away. + When the Saadat went to them, his eyes blazing, his face pale as a + sheet, and as good as swore at them, and treated them as though he'd + string them up the next minute, they only put their hands on their + heads, and said they were "the fallen leaves for his foot to + scatter," the "snow on the hill for his breath to melt"; but they + wouldn't give him any satisfaction. So he came back and shut + himself up in his tent, and he sits there like a ghost all + shrivelled up for want of sleep, and his eyes like a lime-kiln + burning; for now he knows this at least, that Halim Bey had brought + some word from Kaid's Palace that set these Arabs against him, and + nearly stopped my correspondence. You see, there's a widow in + Cairo--she's a sister of the American consul, and I've promised to + take her with a party camping in the Fayoum--cute as she can be, and + plays the guitar. But it's all right now, except that the Saadat is + running too close and fine. If he has any real friends in England + among the Government people, or among those who can make the + Government people sit up, and think what's coming to Egypt and to + him, they'll help him now when he needs it. He'll need help real + bad when he gets back to Cairo--if we get that far. It isn't yet a + sure thing, for we've got to fight in the next day or two--I forgot + to tell you that sooner. There's a bull-Arab on the rampage with + five thousand men, and he's got a claim out on our sheikh, Mustafa, + for ivory he has here, and there's going to be a scrimmage. We've + got to make for a better position to-morrow, and meet Abdullah, the + bull-Arab, further down the river. That's one reason why Mustafa + and all our friends here are so sweet on us now. They look on the + Saadat as a kind of mascot, and they think that he can wipe out the + enemy with his flute, which they believe is a witch-stick to work + wonders. + + He's just sent for me to come, and I must stop soon. Say, he hasn't + had sleep for a fortnight. It's too much; he can't stand it. I + tried it, and couldn't. It wore me down. He's killing himself for + others. I can't manage him; but I guess you could. I apologise, + dear Lady Cousin. I'm only a hayseed, and a failure, but I guess + you'll understand that I haven't thought only of myself as I wrote + this letter. The higher you go in life the more you'll understand; + that's your nature. I'll get this letter off by a nigger to-morrow, + with those the Saadat is sending through to Cairo by some + friendlies. It's only a chance; but everything's chance here now. + Anyhow, it's safer than leaving it till the scrimmage. If you get + this, won't you try and make the British Government stand by the + Saadat? Your husband, the lord, could pull it off, if he tried; and + if you ask him, I guess he'd try. I must be off now. David Pasha + will be waiting. Well, give my love to the girls! + + Your affectionate cousin, + + TOM LACEY. + + P. S.--I've got a first-class camel for our scrimmage day after + to-morrow. Mustafa sent it to me this morning. I had a fight on + mules once, down at Oaxaca, but that was child's play. This will be + "slaughter in the pan," if the Saadat doesn't stop it somehow. + Perhaps he will. If I wasn't so scared I'd wish he couldn't stop + it, for it will be a way-up Barbarian scrap, the tongs and the + kettle, a bully panjandrum. It gets mighty dull in the desert when + you're not moving. But "it makes to think," as the French say. + Since I came out here I've had several real centre thoughts, sort of + main principles-key-thoughts, that's it. What I want now is a sort + of safety-ring to string 'em on and keep 'em safe; for I haven't a + good memory, and I get mighty rattled sometimes. Thoughts like + these are like the secret of a combination lock; they let you into + the place where the gold and securities and title-deeds of life are. + Trouble is, I haven't got a safety-ring, and I'm certain to lose + them. I haven't got what you'd call an intellectual memory. Things + come in flashes to me out of experiences, and pull me up short, and + I say, "Yes, that's it--that's it; I understand." I see why it's + so, and what it means, and where it leads, and how far it spreads. + It's five thousand years old. Adam thought it after Cain killed + Abel, or Abel thought it just before he died, or Eve learned it from + Lilith, or it struck Abraham when he went to sacrifice Isaac. + Sometimes things hit me deep like that here in the desert. Then I + feel I can see just over on the horizon the tents of Moab in the + wilderness; that yesterday and to-day are the same; that I've + crossed the prairies of the everlasting years, and am playing about + with Ishmael in the wild hills, or fighting with Ahab. Then the + world and time seem pretty small potatoes. + + You see how it is. I never was trained to think, and I get stunned + by thoughts that strike me as being dug right out of the centre. + Sometimes I'd like to write them down; but I can't write; I can only + talk as I'm talking to you. If you weren't so high up, and so much + cleverer than I am, and such a thinker, I'd like you to be my + safety-ring, if you would. I could tell the key-thoughts to you + when they came to me, before I forgot them with all their bearings; + and by-and-by they'd do me a lot of good when I got away from this + influence, and back into the machinery of the Western world again. + If you could come out here, if you could feel what I feel here--and + you would feel a thousand times as much--I don't know what you + wouldn't do. + + It's pretty wonderful. The nights with the stars so white and + glittering, and so near that you'd think you could reach up and hand + them down; the dark, deep, blue beyond; such a width of life all + round you, a sort of never-ending space, that everything you ever + saw or did seems little, and God so great in a kind of hovering + sense like a pair of wings; and all the secrets of time coming out + of it all, and sort of touching your face like a velvet wind. I + expect you'll think me sentimental, a first-class squash out of the + pumpkin-garden; but it's in the desert, and it gets into you and + saturates you, till you feel that this is a kind of middle space + between the world of cities, and factories, and railways, and + tenement-houses, and the quiet world to come--a place where they + think out things for the benefit of future generations, and convey + them through incarnations, or through the desert. Say, your + ladyship, I'm a chatterer, I'm a two-cent philosopher, I'm a baby; + but you are too much like your grandmother, who was the daughter of + a Quaker like David Pasha, to laugh at me. + + I've got a suit of fine chain-armour which I bought of an Arab down + by Darfur. I'm wondering if it would be too cowardly to wear it in + the scrap that's coming. I don't know, though, but what I'll wear + it, I get so scared. But it will be a frightful hot thing under my + clothes, and it's hot enough without that, so I'm not sure. It + depends how much my teeth chatter when I see "the dawn of battle." + + I've got one more thing before I stop. I'm going to send you a + piece of poetry which the Saadat wrote, and tore in two, and threw + away. He was working off his imagination, I guess, as you have to + do out here. I collected it and copied it, and put in the + punctuation--he didn't bother about that. Perhaps he can't + punctuate. I don't understand quite what the poetry means, but + maybe you will. Anyway, you'll see that it's a real desert piece. + Here it is: + + + "THE DESERT ROAD + + "In the sands I lived in a hut of palm, + There was never a garden to see; + There was never a path through the desert calm, + Nor a way through its storms for me. + + "Tenant was I of a lone domain; + The far pale caravans wound + To the rim of the sky, and vanished again; + My call in the waste was drowned. + + "The vultures came and hovered and fled; + And once there stole to my door + A white gazelle, but its eyes were dread + With the hurt of the wounds it bore. + + "It passed in the dusk with a foot of fear, + And the white cold mists rolled in; + + "And my heart was the heart of a stricken deer, + Of a soul in the snare of sin. + + "My days they withered like rootless things, + And the sands rolled on, rolled wide; + Like a pelican I, with broken wings, + Like a drifting barque on the tide. + + "But at last, in the light of a rose-red day, + In the windless glow of the morn, + From over the hills and from far away, + You came--ah, the joy of the morn! + + "And wherever your footsteps fell, there crept + A path--it was fair and wide: + A desert road which no sands have swept, + Where never a hope has died. + + "I followed you forth, and your beauty held + My heart like an ancient song; + By that desert road to the blossoming plains + I came-and the way was long! + + "So I set my course by the light of your eyes; + I care not what fate may send; + On the road I tread shine the love-starred skies-- + The road with never an end." + + Not many men can do things like that, and the other things, too, + that he does. Perhaps he will win through, by himself, but is it + fair to have him run the risk? If he ever did you a good turn, as + you once said to me he did, won't you help him now? You are on the + inside of political things, and if you make up your mind to help, + nothing will stop you--that was your grandmother's way. He ought to + get his backing pretty soon, or it won't be any good. . . . I + hear him at his flute. I expect he's tired waiting for me. Well, + give my love to the girls! + T. L. + + +As Hylda read, she passed through phases of feeling begotten of new +understanding which shook her composure. She had seen David and all that +David was doing; Egypt, and all that was threatening the land through the +eyes of another who told the whole truth--except about his own cowardice, +which was untrue. She felt the issues at stake. While the mention of +David's personal danger left her sick for a moment, she saw the wider +peril also to the work he had set out to do. + +What was the thing without the man? It could not exist--it had no +meaning. Where was he now? What had been the end of the battle? He had +saved others, had he saved himself? The most charmed life must be +pierced by the shaft of doom sooner or later; but he was little more than +a youth yet, he had only just begun! + +"And the Saadat looks as though he was ready for his grave--but keeps +going, going, going.!" The words kept ringing in her ears. Again: "And +he sits there like a ghost all shrivelled up for want of sleep, and his +eyes like a lime-kiln burning. . . . He hasn't had sleep for a +fortnight. . . . He's killing himself for others." + +Her own eyes were shining with a dry, hot light, her lips were quivering, +but her hands upon the letter were steady and firm. What could she do? + +She went to a table, picked up the papers, and scanned them hurriedly. +Not a word about Egypt. She thought for a moment, then left the drawing- +room. Passing up a flight of stairs to her husband's study, she knocked +and entered. It was empty; but Eglington was in the house, for a red +despatch-box lay open on his table. Instinctively she glanced at the +papers exposed in the box, and at the letters beside it. The document on +the top of the pile in the box related to Cyprus--the name caught her +eye. Another document was half-exposed beneath it. Her hand went to her +heart. She saw the words, "Soudan" and "Claridge Pasha." She reached +for it, then drew back her hand, and her eyes closed as though to shut it +out from her sight. Why should she not see it? They were her husband's +papers, husband and wife were one. Husband and wife one! She shrank +back. Were they one? An overmastering desire was on her. It seemed +terrible to wait, when here before her was news of David, of life or +death. Suddenly she put out her hand and drew the Cyprus paper over the +Egyptian document, so that she might not see it. + +As she did so the door opened on her, and Eglington entered. He had seen +the swift motion of her hand, and again a look peculiar to him crossed +his face, enigmatical, cynical, not pleasant to see. + +She turned on him slowly, and he was aware of her inward distress to some +degree, though her face was ruled to quietness. + +He nodded at her and smiled. She shrank, for she saw in his nod and his +smile that suggestion of knowing all about everything and everybody, and +thinking the worst, which had chilled her so often. Even in their short +married life it had chilled those confidences which she would gladly have +poured out before him, if he had been a man with an open soul. Had there +been joined to his intellect and temperament a heart capable of true +convictions and abiding love, what a man he might have been! But his +intellect was superficial, and his temperament was dangerous, because +there were not the experiences of a soul of truth to give the deeper hold +upon the meaning of life. She shrank now, as, with a little laugh and +glancing suggestively at the despatch-box, he said: + +"And what do you think of it all?" + +She felt as though something was crushing her heart within its grasp, and +her eyes took on a new look of pain. "I did not read the papers," she +answered quietly. + +"I saw them in your fingers. What creatures women are--so dishonourable +in little things," he said ironically. + +She laid a hand on his. "I did not read them, Harry," she urged. + +He smiled and patted her arm. "There, there, it doesn't matter," he +laughed. He watched her narrowly. "It matters greatly," she answered +gently, though his words had cut her like a knife. "I did not read the +papers. I only saw the word 'Cyprus' on the first paper, and I pushed it +over the paper which had the word 'Egypt' on it 'Egypt' and 'Claridge,' +lest I should read it. I did not wish to read it. I am not +dishonourable, Harry." + +He had hurt her more than he had ever done; and only the great matter +at stake had prevented the lesser part of her from bursting forth in +indignation, from saying things which she did not wish to say. She had +given him devotion--such devotion, such self-effacement in his career as +few women ever gave. Her wealth--that was so little in comparison with +the richness of her nature--had been his; and yet his vast egotism took +it all as his right, and she was repaid in a kind of tyranny, the more +galling and cruel because it was wielded by a man of intellect and +culture, and ancient name and tradition. If he had been warned that +he was losing his wife's love, he would have scouted the idea, his self- +assurance was so strong, his vanity complete. If, however, he had been +told that another man was thinking of his wife, he would have believed +it, as he believed now that David had done; and he cherished that belief, +and let resentment grow. He was the Earl of Eglington, and no matter +what reputation David had reached, he was still a member of a Quaker +trader's family, with an origin slightly touched with scandal. Another +resentment, however, was steadily rising in him. It galled him that +Hylda should take so powerful an interest in David's work in Egypt; and +he knew now that she had always done so. It did not ease his vexed +spirit to know that thousands of others of his fellow-countrymen did the +same. They might do so, but she was his wife, and his own work was the +sun round which her mind and interest should revolve. + +"Why should you be so keen about Egypt and Claridge Pasha?" he said to +her now. + +Her face hardened a little. Had he the right to torture her so? To +suspect her? She could read it in his eyes. Her conscience was clear. +She was no man's slave. She would not be any man's slave. She was +master of her own soul. What right had he to catechise her--as though +she were a servant or a criminal? But she checked the answer on her +tongue, because she was hurt deeper than words could express, and she +said, composedly: + +"I have here a letter from my cousin Lacey, who is with Claridge Pasha. +It has news of him, of events in the Soudan. He had fever, there was to +be a fight, and I wished to know if you had any later news. I thought +that document there might contain news, but I did not read it. I +realised that it was not yours, that it belonged to the Government, that +I had no right. Perhaps you will tell me if you have news. Will you?" +She leaned against the table wearily, holding her letter. + +"Let me read your letter first," he said wilfully. + +A mist seemed to come before her eyes; but she was schooled to self- +command, and he did not see he had given her a shock. Her first impulse +was to hand the letter over at once; then there came the remembrance of +all it contained, all it suggested. Would he see all it suggested? She +recalled the words Lacey had used regarding a service which David had +once done her. If Eglington asked, what could she say? It was not her +secret alone, it was another's. Would she have the right, even if she +wished it, to tell the truth, or part of the truth? Or, would she be +entitled to relate some immaterial incident which would evade the real +truth? What good could it do to tell the dark story? What could it +serve? Eglington would horribly misunderstand it--that she knew. There +were the verses also. They were more suggestive than anything else, +though, indeed, they might have referred to another woman, or were merely +impersonal; but she felt that was not so. And there was Eglington's +innate unbelief in man and woman! Her first impulse held, however. She +would act honestly. She would face whatever there was to face. She +would not shelter herself; she would not give him the right in the future +to say she had not dealt fairly by him, had evaded any inquest of her +life or mind which he might make. + +She gave him the letter, her heart standing still, but she was filled +with a regnant determination to defend herself, to defend David against +any attack, or from any consequences. + +All her life and hopes seemed hanging in the balance, as he began to read +the letter. With fear she saw his face cloud over, heard an impatient +exclamation pass his lips. She closed her eyes to gather strength for +the conflict which was upon her. He spoke, and she vaguely wondered what +passage in the letter had fixed his attention. His voice seemed very far +away. She scarcely understood. But presently it pierced the clouds of +numbness between them, and she realised what he was saying: + +"Vulgar fellow--I can't congratulate you upon your American cousin. So, +the Saadat is great on moral suasion, master of it--never failed yet--not +altogether--and Aunt Melissa and skim-milk and early piety!' And 'the +Saadat is a wonder from Wondertown'--like a side-show to a circus, a +marvel on the flying trapeze! Perhaps you can give me the sense of the +letter, if there is any sense in it. I can't read his writing, and it +seems interminable. Would you mind?" + +A sigh of relief broke from her. A weight slipped away from her heart +and brain. It was as though one in armour awaited the impact of a heavy, +cruel, overwhelming foe, who suddenly disappeared, and the armour fell +from the shoulders, and breath came easily once again. + +"Would you mind?" he repeated drily, as he folded up the letter slowly. + +He handed it back to her, the note of sarcasm in his voice pricking her +like the point of a dagger. She felt angered with herself that he could +rouse her temper by such small mean irony. She had a sense of bitter +disappointment in him--or was it a deep hurt?--that she had not made him +love her, truly love her. If he had only meant the love that he swore +before they had married! Why had he deceived her? It had all been in +his hands, her fate and future; but almost before the bridal flowers had +faded, she had come to know two bitter things: that he had married with a +sordid mind; that he was incapable of the love which transmutes the half- +comprehending, half-developed affection of the maid into the absorbing, +understanding, beautiful passion of the woman. She had married not +knowing what love and passion were; uncomprehending, and innocent because +uncomprehending; with a fine affection, but capable of loving wholly. +One thing had purified her motives and her life--the desire to share with +Eglington his public duty and private hopes, to be his confidante, his +friend, his coadjutor, proud of him, eager for him, determined to help +him. But he had blocked the path to all inner companionship. He did no +more than let her share the obvious and outer responsibilities of his +life. From the vital things, if there were vital things, she was shut +out. What would she not give for one day of simple tenderness and quiet +affection, a true day with a true love! + +She was now perfectly composed. She told him the substance of the +letter, of David's plight, of the fever, of the intended fight, of Nahoum +Pasha, of the peril to David's work. He continued to interrogate her, +while she could have shrieked out the question, "What is in yonder +document? What do you know? Have you news of his safety?" Would he +never stop his questioning? It was trying her strength and patience +beyond endurance. At last he drew the document slowly from the despatch- +box, and glanced up and down it musingly. "I fancy he won the battle," +he said slowly, "for they have news of him much farther down the river. +But from this letter I take it he is not yet within the zone of safety-- +so Nahoum Pasha says." He flicked the document upwards with his thumb. + +"What is our Government doing to help him?" she asked, checking her +eagerness. + +His heart had gradually hardened towards Egypt. Power had emphasised +a certain smallness in him. Personal considerations informed the policy +of the moment. He was not going to be dragged at the chariot-wheels of +the Quaker. To be passive, when David in Egypt had asked for active +interest; to delay, when urgency was important to Claridge Pasha; to +speak coldly on Egyptian affairs to his chief, the weak Foreign +Secretary, this was the policy he had begun. + +So he answered now: "It is the duty of the Egyptian Government to help +him--of Prince Kaid, of Nahoum Pasha, who is acting for him in his +absence, who governs finance, and therefore the army. Egypt does not +belong to England." + +"Nahoum Pasha is his enemy. He will do nothing to help, unless you force +him." + +"Why do you say that?" + +"Because I know Nahoum Pasha." + +"When did you know Nahoum?" + +"In Egypt, years ago." + +"Your acquaintance is more varied than I thought," he said sarcastically. + +"Oh, do not speak to me like that!" she returned, in a low, indignant +voice. + +"Do not patronise me; do not be sarcastic." + +"Do not be so sensitive," he answered unemotionally. + +"You surely do not mean that you--that the Government will not help him? +He is doing the work of Europe, of civilisation, of Christianity there. +He is sacrificing himself for the world. Do you not see it? Oh, but you +do! You would realise his work if you knew Egypt as I have seen it." + +"Expediency must govern the policy of nations," he answered critically. + +"But, if through your expediency he is killed like a rat in a trap, and +his work goes to pieces--all undone! Is there no right in the matter?" + +"In affairs of state other circumstances than absolute 'right' enter. +Here and there the individual is sacrificed who otherwise would be saved +--if it were expedient." + +"Oh, Eglington! He is of your own county, of your own village, is your +neighbour, a man of whom all England should be proud. You can intervene +if you will be just, and say you will. I know that intervention has been +discussed in the Cabinet." + +"You say he is of my county. So are many people, and yet they are not +county people. A neighbour he was, but more in a Scriptural than social +sense." He was hurting her purposely. + +She made a protesting motion of her hand. "No, no, no, do not be so +small. This is a great matter. Do a great thing now; help it to be done +for your own honour, for England's honour--for a good man's sake, for +your country's sake." + +There came a knock at the door. An instant afterwards a secretary +entered. "A message from the Prime Minister, sir." He handed over a +paper. + +"Will you excuse me?" he asked Hylda suavely, in his eyes the +enigmatical look that had chilled her so often before. She felt that her +appeal had been useless. She prepared to leave the room. He took her +hand, kissed it gallantly, and showed her out. It was his way--too civil +to be real. + +Blindly she made her way to her room. Inside, she suddenly swayed and +sank fainting to the ground, as Kate Heaver ran forward to her. Kate saw +the letter in the clinched hand. Loosening it, she read two or three +sentences with a gasp. They contained Tom Lacey's appeal for David. She +lifted Hylda's head to her shoulder with endearing words, and chafed the +cold hands, murmuring to herself the while. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + +THE QUESTIONER + +"What has thee come to say?" + +Sitting in his high-backed chair, Luke Claridge seemed a part of its +dignified severity. In the sparsely furnished room with its uncarpeted +floor, its plain teak table, its high wainscoting and undecorated walls, +the old man had the look of one who belonged to some ancient consistory, +a judge whose piety would march with an austerity that would save a human +soul by destroying the body, if need be. + +A crisis had come, vaguely foreseen, sombrely eluded. A questioner was +before him who, poor, unheeded, an ancient victim of vice, could yet +wield a weapon whose sweep of wounds would be wide. Stern and masterful +as he looked in his arid isolation, beneath all was a shaking anxiety. + +He knew well what the old chair-maker had come to say, but, in the +prologue of the struggle before him, he was unwittingly manoeuvring for +position. + +"Speak," he added presently, as Soolsby fumbled in his great loose +pockets, and drew forth a paper. "What has thee to say?" + +Without a word, Soolsby handed over the paper, but the other would not +take it. + +"What is it?" he asked, his lips growing pale. "Read--if thee can +read." + +The gibe in the last words made the colour leap into Soolsby's face, and +a fighting look came. He too had staved off this inevitable hour, had +dreaded it, but now his courage shot up high. + +"Doost think I have forgotten how to read since the day I put my hand to +a writing you've hid so long from them it most concerns? Ay, I can read, +and I can write, and I will prove that I can speak too before I've done." + +"Read--read," rejoined the old man hoarsely, his hands tightly gripping +the chair-arm. + +"The fever caught him at Shendy--that is the place--" + +"He is not dead--David is not dead?" came the sharp, pained +interruption. The old man's head strained forward, his eyes were misty +and dazed. + +Soolsby's face showed no pity for the other's anxiety; it had a kind of +triumph in it. "Nay, he is living," he answered. "He got well of the +fever, and came to Cairo, but he's off again into the desert. It's the +third time. You can't be tempting Providence for ever. This paper here +says it's too big a job for one man--like throwing a good life away. +Here in England is his place, it says. And so say I; and so I have come +to say, and to hear you say so, too. What is he there? One man against +a million. What put it in his head that he thinks he can do it?" + +His voice became lower; he fixed his eyes meaningly on the other. "When +a man's life got a twist at the start, no wonder it flies off madlike to +do the thing that isn't to be done, and leave undone the thing that's +here for it to do. Doost think a straight line could come from the +crooked line you drew for him?" + +"He is safe--he is well and strong again?" asked the old man painfully. +Suddenly he reached out a hand for the paper. "Let me read," he said, in +a voice scarce above a whisper. + +He essayed to take the paper calmly, but it trembled in his hands. He +spread it out and fumbled for his glasses, but could not find them, and +he gazed helplessly at the page before him. Soolsby took the paper from +him and read slowly: + +". . . Claridge Pasha has done good work in Egypt, but he is a +generation too soon, it may be two or three too soon. We can but regard +this fresh enterprise as a temptation to Fate to take from our race one +of the most promising spirits and vital personalities which this +generation has produced. It is a forlorn hope. Most Englishmen familiar +with Claridge Pasha's life and aims will ask--" + +An exclamation broke from the old man. In the pause which followed he +said: "It was none of my doing. He went to Egypt against my will." + +"Ay, so many a man's said that's not wanted to look his own acts straight +in the face. If Our Man had been started different, if he'd started in +the path where God A'mighty dropped him, and not in the path Luke +Claridge chose, would he have been in Egypt to-day wearing out his life? +He's not making carpets there, he's only beating them." + +The homely illustration drawn from the business in which he had been +interested so many years went home to Claridge's mind. He shrank back, +and sat rigid, his brows drawing over the eyes, till they seemed sunk in +caverns of the head. Suddenly Soolsby's voice rose angrily. Luke +Claridge seemed so remorseless and unyielding, so set in his vanity and +self-will! Soolsby misread the rigid look in the face, the pale +sternness. He did not know that there had suddenly come upon Luke +Claridge the full consciousness of an agonising truth--that all he had +done where David was concerned had been a mistake. The hard look, the +sternness, were the signals of a soul challenging itself. + +"Ay, you've had your own will," cried Soolsby mercilessly. "You've said +to God A'mighty that He wasn't able to work out to a good end what He'd +let happen; and so you'd do His work for Him. You kept the lad hid away +from the people that belonged to him, you kept him out of his own, and +let others take his birthright. You put a shame upon him, hiding who his +father and his father's people were, and you put a shame upon her that +lies in the graveyard--as sweet a lass, as good, as ever lived on earth. +Ay, a shame and a scandal! For your eyes were shut always to the +sidelong looks, your ears never heard the things people said--'A good- +for-nothing ship-captain, a scamp and a ne'er-do-weel, one that had a +lass at every port, and, maybe, wives too; one that none knew or ever had +seen--a pirate maybe, or a slave-dealer, or a jail-bird, for all they +knew! Married--oh yes, married right enough, but nothing else--not even +a home. Just a ring on the finger, and then, beyond and away!' Around +her life that brought into the world our lad yonder you let a cloud draw +down; and you let it draw round his, too, for he didn't even bear his +father's name--much less knew who his father was--or live in his father's +home, or come by his own in the end. You gave the lad shame and scandal. +Do you think, he didn't feel it, was it much or little? He wasn't +walking in the sun, but--" + +"Mercy! Mercy!" broke in the old man, his hand before his eyes. He was +thinking of Mercy, his daughter, of the words she had said to him when +she died, "Set him in the sun, father, where God can find him," and her +name now broke from his lips. + +Soolsby misunderstood. "Ay, there'll be mercy when right's been done +Our Man, and not till then. I've held my tongue for half a lifetime, but +I'll speak now and bring him back. Ay, he shall come back and take the +place that is his, and all that belongs to him. That lordship yonder-- +let him go out into the world and make his place as the Egyptian did. +He's had his chance to help Our Man, and he has only hurt, not helped +him. We've had enough of his second-best lordship and his ways." + +The old man's face was painful in its stricken stillness now. He had +regained control of himself, his brain had recovered greatly from its +first suffusion of excitement. + +"How does thee know my lord yonder has hurt and not helped him?" he +asked in an even voice, his lips tightening, however. "How does thee +know it surely?" + +"From Kate Heaver, my lady's maid. My lady's illness--what was it? +Because she would help Our Man, and, out of his hatred, yonder second son +said that to her which no woman can bear that's a true woman; and then, +what with a chill and fever, she's been yonder ailing these weeks past. +She did what she could for him, and her husband did what he could against +him." + +The old man settled back in his chair again. "Thee has kept silent all +these years? Thee has never told any that lives?" + +"I gave my word to her that died--to our Egyptian's mother--that I would +never speak unless you gave me leave to speak, or if you should die +before me. It was but a day before the lad was born. So have I kept my +word. But now you shall speak. Ay, then, but you shall speak, or I'll +break my word to her, to do right by her son. She herself would speak if +she was here, and I'll answer her, if ever I see her after Purgatory, for +speaking now." + +The old man drew himself up in his chair as though in pain, and said very +slowly, almost thickly: "I shall answer also for all I did. The spirit +moved me. He is of my blood--his mother was dead--in his veins is +the blood that runs in mine. His father--aristocrat, spendthrift, +adventurer, renegade, who married her in secret, and left her, bidding +her return to me, until he came again, and she to bear him a child--was +he fit to bring up the boy?" + +He breathed heavily, his face became wan and haggard, as he continued: +"Restless on land or sea, for ever seeking some new thing, and when he +found it, and saw what was therein, he turned away forgetful. God put it +into my heart to abjure him and the life around him. The Voice made me +rescue the child from a life empty and bare and heartless and proud. +When he returned, and my child was in her grave, he came to me in secret; +he claimed the child of that honest lass whom he had married under a +false name. I held my hand lest I should kill him, man of peace as I am. +Even his father--Quaker though he once became--did we not know ere the +end that he had no part or lot with us, that he but experimented with his +soul, as with all else? Experiment--experiment--experiment, until at +last an Eglington went exploring in my child's heart, and sent her to her +grave--the God of Israel be her rest and refuge! What should such high- +placed folk do stooping out of their sphere to us who walk in plain +paths? What have we in common with them? My soul would have none of +them--masks of men, the slaves of riches and titles, and tyrants over the +poor." + +His voice grew hoarse and high, and his head bent forward. He spoke as +though forgetful of Soolsby's presence: "As the East is from the West, so +were we separate from these lovers of this world, the self-indulgent, the +hard-hearted, the proud. I chose for the child that he should stay with +me and not go to him, to remain among his own people and his own class. +He was a sinister, an evil man. Was the child to be trusted with him?" + +"The child was his own child," broke in Soolsby. "Your daughter was his +lady--the Countess of Eglington! Not all the Quakers in heaven or earth +could alter that. His first-born son is Earl of Eglington, and has been +so these years past; and you, nor his second-best lordship there, nor all +the courts in England can alter that. . . . Ay, I've kept my peace, +but I will speak out now. I was with the Earl--James Fetherdon he called +himself--when he married her that's gone to heaven, if any ever went to +heaven; and I can prove all. There's proof aplenty, and 'tis a pity, ay, +God's pity! that 'twas not used long ago. Well I knew, as the years +passed, that the Earl's heart was with David, but he had not the courage +to face it all, so worn away was the man in him. Ah, if the lad had +always been with him--who can tell?--he might have been different! +Whether so or not, it was the lad's right to take his place his mother +gave him, let be whatever his father was. 'Twas a cruel thing done to +him. His own was his own, to run his race as God A'mighty had laid the +hurdles, not as Luke Claridge willed. I'm sick of seeing yonder fellow +in Our Man's place, he that will not give him help, when he may; he that +would see him die like a dog in the desert, brother or no brother--" + +"He does not know--Lord Eglington does not know the truth?" interposed +the old man in a heavy whisper. "He does not know, but, if he knew, +would it matter to him! So much the more would he see Our Man die yonder +in the sands. I know the breed. I know him yonder, the skim-milk lord. +There is no blood of justice, no milk of kindness in him. Do you think +his father that I friended in this thing--did he ever give me a penny, +or aught save that hut on the hill that was not worth a pound a year? +Did he ever do aught to show that he remembered?--Like father like son. +I wanted naught. I held my peace, not for him, but for her--for the +promise I made her when she smiled at me and said: 'If I shouldn't be +seeing thee again, Soolsby, remember; and if thee can ever prove a friend +to the child that is to be, prove it.' And I will prove it now. He must +come back to his own. Right's right, and I will have it so. More brains +you may have, and wealth you have, but not more common sense than any +common man like me. If the spirit moved you to hold your peace, it moves +me to make you speak. With all your meek face you've been a hard, stiff- +necked man, a tyrant too, and as much an aristocrat to such as me as any +lord in the land. But I've drunk the mug of silence to the bottom. +I've--" He stopped short, seeing a strange look come over the other's +face, then stepped forward quickly as the old man half rose from his +chair, murmuring thickly: + +"Mercy--David, my lord, come--!" he muttered, and staggered, and fell +into Soolsby's arms. + +His head dropped forward on his breast, and with a great sigh he sank +into unconsciousness. Soolsby laid him on a couch, and ran to the door +and called aloud for help. + + .......................... + +The man of silence was silent indeed now. In the room where paralysis +had fallen on him a bed was brought, and he lay nerveless on the verge of +a still deeper silence. The hours went by. His eyes opened, he saw and +recognised them all, but his look rested only on Faith and Soolsby; and, +as time went on, these were the only faces to which he gave an answering +look of understanding. Days wore away, but he neither spoke nor moved. + +People came and went softly, and he gave no heed. There was ever a +trouble in his eyes when they were open. Only when Soolsby came did it +seem to lessen. Faith saw this, and urged Soolsby to sit by him. She +had questioned much concerning what had happened before the stroke fell, +but Soolsby said only that the old man had been greatly troubled about +David. Once Lady Eglington, frail and gentle and sympathetic, came, but +the trouble deepened in his eyes, and the lids closed over them, so that +he might not see her face. + +When she had gone, Soolsby, who had been present and had interpreted the +old man's look according to a knowledge all his own, came over to the +bed, leaned down and whispered: "I will speak now." + +Then the eyes opened, and a smile faintly flickered at the mouth. + +"I will speak now," Soolsby said again into the old man's ear. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + +THE VOICE THROUGH THE DOOR + +That night Soolsby tapped at the door of the lighted laboratory of the +Cloistered House where Lord Eglington was at work; opened it, peered in, +and stepped inside. + +With a glass retort in his hand Eglington faced him. "What's this--what +do you want?" he demanded. + +"I want to try an experiment," answered Soolsby grimly. + +"Ah, a scientific turn!" rejoined Eglington coolly--looking at him +narrowly, however. He was conscious of danger of some kind. + +Then for a minute neither spoke. Now that Soolsby had come to the moment +for which he had waited for so many ,years, the situation was not what he +had so often prefigured. The words he had chosen long ago were gone from +his memory; in his ignorance of what had been a commonplace to Soolsby's +dark reflection so long, the man he had meant to bring low stood up +before him on his own ground, powerful and unabashed. + +Eglington wore a blue smock, and over his eyes was a green shade to +protect them from the light, but they peered sharply out at the chair- +maker, and were boldly alive to the unexpected. He was no physical +coward, and, in any case, what reason had he for physical fear in the +presence of this man weakened by vice and age? Yet ever since he was a +boy there had existed between them an antagonism which had shown itself +in many ways. There had ever been something sinister in Soolsby's +attitude to his father and himself. + +Eglington vaguely knew that now he was to face some trial of mind and +nerve, but with great deliberation he continued dropping liquid from a +bottle into the glass retort he carried, his eyes, however, watchful of +his visitor, who involuntarily stared around the laboratory. + +It was fifteen years since Soolsby had been in this room; and then he had +faced this man's father with a challenge on his tongue such as he meant +to speak now. The smell of the chemicals, the carboys filled with acids, +the queer, tapering glasses with engraved measurements showing against +the coloured liquids, the great blue bottles, the mortars and pestles, +the microscopic instruments--all brought back the far-off, acrid scene +between the late Earl and himself. Nothing had changed, except that now +there were wires which gave out hissing sparks, electrical instruments +invented since the earlier day; except that this man, gently dropping +acids into the round white bottle upon a crystal which gave off musty +fumes, was bolder, stronger, had more at stake than the other. + +Slowly Eglington moved back to put the retort on a long table against the +wall, and Soolsby stepped forward till he stood where the electric sparks +were gently hissing about him. Now Eglington leaned against the table, +poured some alcohol on his fingers to cleanse the acid from them, and +wiped them with a piece of linen, while he looked inquiringly at Soolsby. +Still, Soolsby did not speak. Eglington lit a cigarette, and took away +the shade from his eyes. + +"Well, now, what is your experiment?" he asked, "and why bring it here? +Didn't you know the way to the stables or the scullery?" + +"I knew my way better here," answered Soolsby, steadying himself. + +"Ah, you've been here often?" asked Eglington nonchalantly, yet feeling +for the cause of this midnight visit. + +"It is fifteen years since I was here, my lord. Then I came to see the +Earl of Eglington." + +"And so history repeats itself every fifteen years! You came to see the +Earl of Eglington then; you come to see the Earl of Eglington again-- +after fifteen years!" + +"I come to speak with him that's called the Earl of Eglington." + +Eglington's eyes half closed, as though the light hurt them. "That +sounds communistic, or is it pure Quakerism? I believe they used to call +my father Friend Robert till he backslided. But you are not a Quaker, +Soolsby, so why be too familiar? Or is it merely the way of the old +family friend?" + +"I knew your father before you were born, my lord--he troosted me then." + +"So long? And fifteen years ago--here?" He felt a menace, vague and +penetrating. His eyes were hard and cruel. + +"It wasn't a question of troost then; 'twas one of right or wrong--naught +else." + +"Ah--and who was right, and what was wrong?" At that moment there came a +tap at the door leading into the living part of the house, and the butler +entered. "The doctor--he has used up all his oxygen, my lord. He begs +to know if you can give him some for Mr. Claridge. Mr. Claridge is bad +to-night." + +A sinister smile passed over Eglington's face. "Who brings the message, +Garry?" + +"A servant--Miss Claridge's, my lord." + +An ironical look came into Eglington's eyes; then they softened a little. +In a moment he placed a jar of oxygen in the butler's hands. + +"My compliments to Miss Claridge, and I am happy to find my laboratory of +use at last to my neighbours," he said, and the door closed upon the man. + +Then he came back thoughtfully. Soolsby had not moved. + +"Do you know what oxygen's for, Soolsby?" he asked quizzically. + +"No, my lord, I've never heerd tell of it." + +"Well, if you brought the top of Ben Lomond to the bottom of a coal-mine +--breath to the breathless--that's it. + +"You've been doing that to Mr. Claridge, my lord?" + +"A little oxygen more or less makes all the difference to a man--it +probably will to neighbour Claridge, Soolsby; and so I've done him a good +turn." + +A grim look passed over Soolsby's face. "It's the first, I'm thinking, +my lord, and none too soon; and it'll be the last, I'm thinking, too. +It's many a year since this house was neighbourly to that." + +Eglington's eyes almost closed, as he studied the other's face; then he +said: "I asked you a little while ago who was right and what was wrong +when you came to see my father here fifteen years ago. Well?" + +Suddenly a thought flashed into his eyes, and it seemed to course through +his veins like some anaesthetic, for he grew very still, and a minute +passed before he added quietly: "Was it a thing between my father and +Luke Claridge? There was trouble--well, what was it?" All at once he +seemed to rise above the vague anxiety that possessed him, and he +fingered inquiringly a long tapering glass of acids on the bench beside +him. "There's been so much mystery, and I suppose it was nothing, after +all. What was it all about? Or do you know--eh? Fifteen years ago you +came to see my father, and now you have come to see me--all in the light +o' the moon, as it were; like a villain in a play. Ah, yes, you said it +was to make an experiment--yet you didn't know what oxygen was! It's +foolish making experiments, unless you know what you are playing with, +Soolsby. See, here are two glasses." He held them up. "If I poured one +into the other, we'd have an experiment--and you and I would be picked up +in fragments and carried away in a basket. And that wouldn't be a +successful experiment, Soolsby." + +"I'm not so sure of that, my lord. Some things would be put right then." + +"H'm, there would be a new Under-Secretary for Foreign Affairs, and--" + +"And Claridge Pasha would come back from Egypt, my lord," was the sharp +interjection. Suddenly Soolsby's anger flared up, his hands twitched. +"You had your chance to be a friend to him, my lord. You promised her +yonder at the Red Mansion that you would help him--him that never wronged +you, him you always wronged, and you haven't lifted hand to help him in +his danger. A moment since you asked me who was right and what was +wrong. You shall know. If you had treated him right, I'd have held my +peace, and kept my word to her that's gone these thirty-odd years. I'll +hold it no more, and so I told Luke Claridge. I've been silent, but not +for your father's sake or yours, for he was as cruel as you, with no +heart, and a conscience like a pin's head, not big enough for use. . . +Ay, you shall know. You are no more the Earl of Eglington than me. + +"The Earl of Eglington is your elder brother, called David Claridge." + +As Soolsby's words poured forth passionately, weighty, Eglington listened +like one in a dream. Since this man entered the laboratory fifty reasons +for his coming had flashed across his mind; he had prepared himself at +many corners for defence, he had rallied every mental resource, he had +imagined a dozen dangerous events which his father and Luke Claridge +shared--with the balance against his father; but this thing was beyond +all speculation. Yet on the instant the words were said he had a +conviction of their inevitable truth. Even as they were uttered, +kaleidoscopic memories rushed in, and David's face, figure, personal +characteristics, flashed before him. He saw, he felt, the likeness to +his father and himself; a thousand things were explained that could only +be explained by this fatal fact launched at him without warning. It was +as though, fully armed for his battle of life, he had suddenly been +stripped of armour and every weapon, and left naked on the field. But he +had the mind of the gamester, and the true gamester's self-control. He +had taken chances so often that the tornado of ill-luck left him +standing. + +"What proof have you?" he asked quietly. Soolsby's explicit answer left +no ground for doubt. He had not asked the question with any idea of +finding gaps in the evidence, but rather to find if there were a chance +for resistance, of escape, anywhere. The marriage certificate existed; +identification of James Fetherdon with his father could be established by +Soolsby and Luke Claridge. + +Soolsby and Luke Claridge! Luke Claridge--he could not help but smile +cynically, for he was composed and calculating now. A few minutes ago +he had sent a jar of oxygen to keep Luke Claridge alive! But for it one +enemy to his career, to his future, would be gone. He did not shrink +from the thought. Born a gentleman, there were in him some degenerate +characteristics which heart could not drown or temperament refine. +Selfishness was inwoven with every fibre of his nature. + +Now, as he stood with eyes fixed on Soolsby, the world seemed to narrow +down to this laboratory. It was a vacuum where sensation was suspended, +and the million facts of ordinary existence disappeared into inactivity. +There was a fine sense of proportion in it all. Only the bare essential +things that concerned him remained: David Claridge was the Earl of +Eglington, this man before him knew, Luke Claridge knew; and there was +one thing yet to know! When he spoke his voice showed no excitement--the +tones were even, colourless. + +"Does he know?" In these words he acknowledged that he believed the tale +told him. + +Soolsby had expected a different attitude; he was not easier in mind +because his story had not been challenged. He blindly felt working in +the man before him a powerful mind, more powerful because it faced the +truth unflinchingly; but he knew that this did not mean calm acceptance +of the consequences. He, not Eglington, was dazed and embarrassed, was +not equal to the situation. He moved uneasily, changed his position. + +"Does he know?" Eglington questioned again quietly. There was no need +for Eglington to explain who he was. + +"Of course he does not know--I said so. If he knew, do you think he'd be +in Egypt and you here, my lord?" + +Eglington was very quiet. His intellect more than his passions were now +at work. + +"I am not sure. You never can tell. This might not mean much to him. +He has got his work cut out; he wasn't brought up to this. What he has +done is in line with the life he has lived as a pious Quaker. What good +would it do to bring him back? I have been brought up to it; I am used +to it; I have worked things out 'according to the state of life to which +I was called.' Take what I've always had away from me, and I am +crippled; give him what he never had, and it doesn't work into his +scheme. It would do him no good and me harm--Where's the use? Besides, +I am still my father's son. Don't you see how unreasonable you are? +Luke Claridge was right. He knew that he and his belonged to a different +sphere. He didn't speak. Why do you speak now after all these years +when we are all set in our grooves? It's silly to disturb us, Soolsby." + +The voice was low, persuasive, and searching; the mind was working as it +had never worked before, to achieve an end by peaceful means, when war +seemed against him. And all the time he was fascinated by the fact that +Soolsby's hand was within a few inches of a live electric wire, which, if +he touched, would probably complete "the experiment" he had come to make; +and what had been the silence of a generation would continue +indefinitely. It was as though Fate had deliberately tempted him and +arranged the necessary conditions, for Soolsby's feet were in a little +pool of liquid which had been spilled on the floor--the experiment was +exact and real. + +For minutes he had watched Soolsby's hand near the wire-had watched as he +talked, and his talk was his argument for non-interference against +warning the man who had come to destroy him and his career. Why had Fate +placed that hand so near the wire there, and provided the other perfect +conditions for tragedy? Why should he intervene? It would never have +crossed his mind to do Soolsby harm, yet here, as the man's arm was +stretched out to strike him, Fate offered an escape. Luke Claridge was +stricken with paralysis, no doubt would die; Soolsby alone stood in his +way. + +"You see, Soolsby, it has gone on too long," he added, in a low, +penetrating tone. "It would be a crime to alter things now. Give him +the earldom and the estates, and his work in Egypt goes to pieces; he +will be spoiled for all he wants to do. I've got my faults, but, on the +whole, I'm useful, and I play my part here, as I was born to it, as well +as most. Anyhow, it's no robbery for me to have what has been mine by +every right except the accident of being born after him. I think you'll +see that you will do a good thing to let it all be. Luke Claridge, if he +was up and well, wouldn't thank you for it--have you got any right to +give him trouble, too? Besides, I've saved his life to-night, and. . . . +and perhaps I might save yours, Soolsby, if it was in danger." + +Soolsby's hand had moved slightly. It was only an inch from the wire. +For an instant the room was terribly still. + +An instant, and it might be too late. An instant, and Soolsby would be +gone. Eglington watched the hand which had been resting on the table +turn slowly over to the wire. Why should he intervene? Was it his +business? This thing was not his doing. Destiny had laid the train of +circumstance and accident, and who was stronger than Destiny? In spite +of himself his eyes fixed themselves on Soolsby's hand. It was but a +hair's breadth from the wire. The end would come now. Suddenly a voice +was heard outside the door. "Eglington!" it called. + +Soolsby started, his hand drew spasmodically away from the wire, and he +stepped back quickly. + +The door opened, and Hylda entered. + +"Mr. Claridge is dead, Eglington," she said. Destiny had decided. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + +"I OWE YOU NOTHING" + +Beside the grave under the willow-tree another grave had been made. It +was sprinkled with the fallen leaves of autumn. In the Red Mansion +Faith's delicate figure moved forlornly among relics of an austere, +beloved figure vanished from the apricot-garden and the primitive +simplicity of wealth combined with narrow thought. + +Since her father's death, the bereaved girl had been occupied by matters +of law and business, by affairs of the estate; but the first pressure was +over, long letters had been written to David which might never reach him; +and now, when the strain was withdrawn, the gentle mind was lost in a +grey mist of quiet suffering. In Hamley there were but two in whom she +had any real comfort and help--Lady Eglington and the old chair-maker. +Of an afternoon or evening one or the other was to be seen in the long +high-wainscoted room, where a great fire burned, or in the fruitless +garden where the breeze stirred the bare branches. + +Almost as deep a quiet brooded in the Cloistered House as in the home +where mourning enjoined movement in a minor key. Hylda had not recovered +wholly from the illness which had stricken her down on that day in London +when she had sought news of David from Eglington, at such cost to her +peace and health and happiness. Then had come her slow convalescence in +Hamley, and long days of loneliness, in which Eglington seemed to retreat +farther and farther from her inner life. Inquiries had poured in from +friends in town, many had asked to come and see her; flowers came from +one or two who loved her benignly, like Lord Windlehurst; and now and +then she had some cheerful friend with her who cared for music or could +sing; and then the old home rang; but she was mostly alone, and Eglington +was kept in town by official business the greater part of each week. She +did not gain strength as quickly as she ought to have done, and this was +what brought the Duchess of Snowdon down on a special mission one day of +early November. + +Ever since the night she had announced Luke Claridge's death to +Eglington, had discovered Soolsby with him, had seen the look in her +husband's face and caught the tension of the moment on which she had +broken, she had been haunted by a hovering sense of trouble. What had +Soolsby been doing in the laboratory at that time of night? What was the +cause of this secret meeting? All Hamley knew--she had long known--how +Luke Claridge had held the Cloistered House in abhorrence, and she knew +also that Soolsby worshipped David and Faith, and, whatever the cause of +the family antipathy, championed it. She was conscious of a shadow +somewhere, and behind it all was the name of David's father, James +Fetherdon. That last afternoon when she had talked with him, and he had +told her of his life, she had recalled the name as one she had seen or +heard, and it had floated into her mind at last that she had seen it +among the papers and letters of the late Countess of Eglington. + +As the look in Eglington's face the night she came upon him and Soolsby +in the laboratory haunted her, so the look in her own face had haunted +Soolsby. Her voice announcing Luke Claridge's death had suddenly opened +up a new situation to him. It stunned him; and afterwards, as he saw +Hylda with Faith in the apricot-garden, or walking in the grounds of the +Cloistered House hour after hour alone or with her maid, he became vexed +by a problem greater than had yet perplexed him. It was one thing to +turn Eglington out of his lands and home and title; it was another thing +to strike this beautiful being, whose smile had won him from the first, +whose voice, had he but known, had saved his life. Perhaps the truth in +some dim way was conveyed to him, for he came to think of her a little as +he thought of Faith. + +Since the moment when he had left the laboratory and made his way to the +Red Mansion, he and Eglington had never met face to face; and he avoided +a meeting. He was not a blackmailer, he had no personal wrongs to +avenge, he had not sprung the bolt of secrecy for evil ends; and when he +saw the possible results of his disclosure, he was unnerved. His mind +had seen one thing only, the rights of "Our Man," the wrong that had been +done him and his mother; but now he saw how the sword of justice, which +he had kept by his hand these many years, would cut both ways. His mind +was troubled, too, that he had spoken while yet Luke Claridge lived, and +so broken his word to Mercy Claridge. If he had but waited till the old +man died--but one brief half-hour--his pledge would have been kept. +Nothing had worked out wholly as he expected. The heavens had not +fallen. The "second-best lordship" still came and went, the wheels went +round as usual. There was no change; yet, as he sat in his hut and +looked down into the grounds of the Cloistered House, he kept saying to +himself. + +"It had to be told. It's for my lord now. He knows the truth. I'll +wait and see. It's for him to do right by Our Man that's beyond and +away." + +The logic and fairness of this position, reached after much thinking, +comforted him. He had done his duty so far. If, in the end, the +"second-best lordship" failed to do his part, hid the truth from the +world, refused to do right by his half-brother, the true Earl, then would +be time to act again. Also he waited for word out of Egypt; and he had a +superstitious belief that David would return, that any day might see him +entering the door of the Red Mansion. + +Eglington himself was haunted by a spectre which touched his elbow by +day, and said: "You are not the Earl of Eglington," and at night laid a +clammy finger on his forehead, waking him, and whispering in his ear: +"If Soolsby had touched the wire, all would now be well!" And as deep as +thought and feeling in him lay, he felt that Fate had tricked him--Fate +and Hylda. If Hylda had not come at that crucial instant, the +chairmaker's but on the hill would be empty. Why had not Soolsby told +the world the truth since? Was the man waiting to see what course he +himself would take? Had the old chair-maker perhaps written the truth +to the Egyptian--to his brother David. + +His brother! The thought irritated every nerve in him. No note of +kindness or kinship or blood stirred in him. If, before, he had had +innate antagonism and a dark, hovering jealousy, he had a black +repugnance now--the antipathy of the lesser to the greater nature, +of the man in the wrong to the man in the right. + +And behind it all was the belief that his wife had set David above him-- +by how much or in what fashion he did not stop to consider; but it made +him desire that death and the desert would swallow up his father's son +and leave no trace behind. + +Policy? His work in the Foreign Office now had but one policy so far as +Egypt was concerned. The active sophistry in him made him advocate non- +intervention in Egyptian affairs as diplomatic wisdom, though it was but +personal purpose; and he almost convinced himself that he was acting from +a national stand-point. Kaid and Claridge Pasha pursued their course of +civilisation in the Soudan, and who could tell what danger might not +bring forth? If only Soolsby held his peace yet a while! + +Did Faith know? Luke Claridge was gone without speaking, but had Soolsby +told Faith? How closely had he watched the faces round him at Luke +Claridge's funeral, to see if they betrayed any knowledge! + +Anxious days had followed that night in the laboratory. His boundless +egotism had widened the chasm between Hylda and himself, which had been +made on the day when she fell ill in London, with Lacey's letter in her +hand. It had not grown less in the weeks that followed. He nursed a +grievance which had, so far as he knew, no foundation in fact; he was +vaguely jealous of a man--his brother--thousands of miles away; he was +not certain how far Hylda had pierced the disguise of sincerity which he +himself had always worn, or how far she understood him. He thought that +she shrank from what she had seen of his real self, much or little, and +he was conscious of so many gifts and abilities and attractive personal +qualities that he felt a sense of injury. Yet what would his position +be without her? Suppose David should return and take the estates and +titles, and suppose that she should close her hand upon her fortune and +leave him, where would he be? + +He thought of all this as he sat in his room at the Foreign Office and +looked over St. James's Park, his day's work done. He was suddenly +seized by a new-born anxiety, for he had been so long used to the open +purse and the unchecked stream of gold, had taken it so much as a matter +of course, as not to realise the possibility of its being withdrawn. +He was conscious of a kind of meanness and ugly sordidness in the +suggestion; but the stake--his future, his career, his position in the +world--was too high to allow him to be too chivalrous. His sense of the +real facts was perverted. He said to himself that he must be practical. + +Moved by the new thought, he seized a time-table and looked up the +trains. He had been ten days in town, receiving every morning a little +note from Hylda telling of what she had done each day; a calm, dutiful +note, written without pretence, and out of a womanly affection with which +she surrounded the man who, it seemed once--such a little while ago--must +be all in all to her. She had no element of pretence in her. What she +could give she gave freely, and it was just what it appeared to be. He +had taken it all as his due, with an underlying belief that, if he chose +to make love to her again, he could blind her to all else in the world. +Hurt vanity and egotism and jealousy had prevented him from luring her +back to that fine atmosphere in which he had hypnotised her so few years +ago. But suddenly, as he watched the swans swimming in the pond below, a +new sense of approaching loss, all that Hylda had meant in his march and +progress, came upon him; and he hastened to return to Hamley. + +Getting out of the train at Heddington, he made up his mind to walk home +by the road that David had taken on his return from Egypt, and he left +word at the station that he would send for his luggage. + +His first objective was Soolsby's hut, and, long before he reached it, +darkness had fallen. From a light shining through the crack of the blind +he knew that Soolsby was at home. He opened the door and entered without +knocking. Soolsby was seated at a table, a map and a newspaper spread +out before him. Egypt and David, always David and Egypt! + +Soolsby got to his feet slowly, his eyes fixed inquiringly on his +visitor. + +"I didn't knock," said Eglington, taking off his greatcoat and reaching +for a chair; then added, as he seated himself: "Better sit down, +Soolsby." + +After a moment he continued: "Do you mind my smoking?" + +Soolsby did not reply, but sat down again. He watched Eglington light a +cigar and stretch out his hands to the wood fire with an air of comfort. + +A silence followed. Eglington appeared to forget the other's presence, +and to occupy himself with thoughts that glimmered in the fire. + +At last Soolsby said moodily: "What have you come for, my lord?" + +"Oh, I am my lord still, am I?" Eglington returned lazily. "Is it a +genealogical tree you are studying there?" He pointed to the map. + +"I've studied your family tree with care, as you should know, my lord; +and a map of Egypt"--he tapped the parchment before him--"goes well with +it. And see, my lord, Egypt concerns you too. Lord Eglington is there, +and 'tis time he was returning-ay, 'tis time." + +There was a baleful look in Soolsby's eyes. Whatever he might think, +whatever considerations might arise at other times, a sinister feeling +came upon him when Eglington was with him. + +"And, my lord," he went on, "I'd be glad to know that you've sent for +him, and told him the truth." + +"Have you?" Eglington flicked the ash from his cigar, speaking coolly. + +Soolsby looked at him with his honest blue eyes aflame, and answered +deliberately: "I was not for taking your place, my lord. 'Twas my duty +to tell you, but the rest was between you and the Earl of Eglington." + +"That was thoughtful of you, Soolsby. And Miss Claridge?" + +"I told you that night, my lord, that only her father and myself knew; +and what was then is now." + +A look of relief stole across Eglington's face. "Of course--of course. +These things need a lot of thought, Soolsby. One must act with care-- +no haste, no flurry, no mistakes." + +"I would not wait too long, my lord, or be too careful." There was +menace in the tone. + +"But if you go at things blind, you're likely to hurt where you don't +mean to hurt. When you're mowing in a field by a school-house, you must +look out for the children asleep in the grass. Sometimes the longest way +round is the shortest way home." + +"Do you mean to do it or not, my lord? I've left it to you as a +gentleman." + +"It's going to upset more than you think, Soolsby. Suppose he, out there +in Egypt"--he pointed again to the map--"doesn't thank me for the +information. Suppose he says no, and--" + +"Right's right. Give him the chance, my lord. How can you know, unless +you tell him the truth?" + +"Do you like living, Soolsby?" + +"Do you want to kill me, my lord?" + +There was a dark look in Eglington's face. "But answer me, do you want +to live?" + +"I want to live long enough to see the Earl of Eglington in his own +house." + +"Well, I've made that possible. The other night when you were telling me +your little story, you were near sending yourself into eternity--as near +as I am knocking this ash off my cigar." His little finger almost +touched the ash. "Your hand was as near touching a wire charged with +death. I saw it. It would have been better for me if you had gone; but +I shut off the electricity. Suppose I hadn't, could I have been blamed? +It would have been an accident. Providence did not intervene; I did. +You owe me something, Soolsby." + +Soolsby stared at him almost blindly for a moment. A mist was before his +eyes; but through the mist, though he saw nothing of this scene in which +he now was, he saw the laboratory, and himself and Eglington, and +Eglington's face as it peered at him, and, just before the voice called +outside, Eglington's eyes fastened on his hand. It all flashed upon him +now, and he saw himself starting back at the sound of the voice. + +Slowly he got up now, went to the door, and opened it. "My lord, it is +not true," he said. "You have not spoken like a gentleman. It was my +lady's voice that saved me. This is my castle, my lord--you lodge +yonder." He pointed down into the darkness where the lights of the +village shone. "I owe you nothing. I pay my debts. Pay yours, my lord, +to him that's beyond and away." + +Eglington kept his countenance as he drew on his great-coat and slowly +passed from the house. + +"I ought to have let you die, Soolsby. Y'ou'll think better of this +soon. But it's quite right to leave the matter to me. It may take a +little time, but everything will come right. Justice shall be done. +Well, good night, Soolsby. You live too much alone, and imagination +is a bad thing for the lonely. Good night-good night." + +Going down the hill quickly, he said to himself: "A sort of second sight +he had about that wire. But time is on my side, time and the Soudan-- +and 'The heathen in his blindness. . . .' I will keep what is mine. +I will keep it!" + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + +THE AWAKENING + +In her heart of hearts Hylda had not greatly welcomed the Duchess of +Snowdon to Hamley. There was no one whose friendship she prized more; +but she was passing through a phase of her life when she felt that she +was better apart, finding her own path by those intuitions and +perceptions which belonged to her own personal experience. She vaguely +felt, what all realise sooner or later, that we must live our dark hours +alone. + +Yet the frank downright nature of the once beautiful, now faded, Duchess, +the humorous glimmer in the pale-blue eyes, the droll irony and dry truth +of her speech, appealed to Hylda, made her smile a warm greeting when she +would rather have been alone. For, a few days before, she had begun a +quest which had absorbed her, fascinated her. The miner, finding his way +across the gap of a reef to pick up the vein of quartz at some distant +and uncertain point, could not have been more lost to the world than was +the young wife searching for a family skeleton, indefinitely embodied in +her imagination by the name, James Fetherdon. + +Pile after pile of papers and letters of the late Earl and his Countess +had passed through her hands from chaos to order. As she had read, hour +after hour, the diaries of the cold, blue-eyed woman, Sybil Eglington, +who had lived without love of either husband or son, as they, in turn, +lived without love of each other, she had been overwhelmed by the +revelation of a human heart, whose powers of expression were smothered by +a shy and awkward temperament. The late Countess's letters were the +unclothing of a heart which had never expanded to the eyes of those whose +love would have broken up a natural reserve, which became at last a proud +coldness, and gave her a reputation for lack of feeling that she carried +to her grave. + +In the diaries which Hylda unearthed--the Countess had died suddenly-- +was the muffled cry of a soul tortured through different degrees of +misunderstanding; from the vague pain of suffered indifference, of being +left out of her husband's calculations, to the blank neglect narrowing +her life down to a tiny stream of duty, which was finally lost in the +sands. She had died abroad, and alone, save for her faithful maid, who, +knowing the chasm that lay between her mistress and her lord, had brought +her letters and papers back to the Cloistered House, and locked them away +with all the other papers and correspondence which the Countess had +accumulated. + +Among these papers was a letter to the late Lord Eglington written the +day before she died. In the haste and confusion ensuing on her death, +the maid had not seen it. It had never reached his hands, but lay in a +pocket of the dead woman's writing-portfolio, which Hylda had explored +without discovering. Only a few hours, however, before the Duchess of +Snowdon came, Hylda had found again an empty envelope on which was +written the name, James Fetherdon. The writing on the envelope was that +of Sybil Lady Eglington. + +When she discovered the envelope, a sense of mystery and premonition +possessed her. What was the association between the Countess of +Eglington and James Fetherdon, the father of David Claridge? In vain she +searched among the voluminous letters and papers, for it would seem that +the dead woman had saved every letter she received, and kept copies of +numberless letters she had written. But she had searched without avail. +Even the diaries, curiously frank and without reserve, never mentioned +the name, so far as she could find, though here and there were strange +allusive references, hints of a trouble that weighed her down, phrases of +exasperation and defiance. One phrase, or the idea in it, was, however, +much repeated in the diaries during the course of years, and towards the +last almost feverishly emphasised--"Why should I bear it for one who +would bear nothing for me, for his sake, who would do nothing for my +sake? Is it only the mother in me, not the love in me?" + +These words were haunting Hylda's brain when the telegram from the +Duchess of Snowdon came. They followed her to Heddington, whither she +went in the carriage to bring her visitor to Hamley, and kept repeating +themselves at the back of her mind through the cheerful rallying of the +Duchess, who spread out the wings of good-humour and motherly freedom +over her. + +After all, it was an agreeable thing to be taken possession of, and "put +in her proper place," as the Duchess said; made to understand that her +own affairs were not so important, after all; and that it was far more +essential to hear the charming gossip about the new and most popular +Princess of Wales, or the quarrel between Dickens and Thackeray. Yet, +after dinner, in the little sitting-room, where the Duchess, in a white +gown with great pink bows, fitter for a girl fresh from Confirmation, and +her cheeks with their fixed colour, which changed only at the discretion +of her maid, babbled of nothing that mattered, Hylda's mind kept turning +to the book of life an unhappy woman had left behind her. The sitting- +room had been that of the late Countess also, and on the wall was an oil- +painting of her, stately and distant and not very alluring, though the +mouth had a sweetness which seemed unable to break into a smile. + +"What was she really like--that wasn't her quite, was it?" asked Hylda, +at last, leaning her chin on the hand which held the 'cello she had been +playing. + +"Oh, yes, it's Sybil Eglington, my dear, but done in wood; and she wasn't +the graven image that makes her out to be. That's as most people saw +her; as the fellow that painted her saw her; but she had another side to +her. She disapproved of me rather, because I was squeezing the orange +dry, and trying to find yesterday's roses in to-morrow's garden. But she +didn't shut her door in my face--it's hard to do that to a Duchess; which +is one of the few advantages of living naked in the street, as it were, +with only the strawberry leaves to clothe you. No, Sybil Eglington was a +woman who never had her chance. Your husband's forbears were difficult, +my dear. They didn't exactly draw you out. She needed drawing out; and +her husband drove her back into her corner, where she sulked rather till +she died--died alone at Wiesbaden, with a German doctor, a stray curate, +and a stuttering maid to wish her bon voyage. Yet I fancy she went glad +enough, for she had no memories, not even an affaire to repent of, and to +cherish. La, la! she wasn't so stupid, Sybil there, and she was an +ornament to her own sex and the despair of the other. His Serene +Highness Heinrich of Saxe-Gunden fancied the task of breaking that ice, +and he was an adept and an Apollo, but it broke his reputation instead. + +"No doubt she is happy now. I shall probably never see!" + +In spite of the poignant nature of the talk, Hylda could not but smile at +the last words. + +"Don't despair," she rejoined; "one star differeth from another star in +glory, but that is no reason why they should not be on visiting terms." + +"My dear, you may laugh--you may laugh, but I am sixty-five, and I am not +laughing at the idea of what company I may be obliged to keep presently. +In any case I'm sure I shall not be comfortable. If I'm where she is, I +shall be dull; if I'm where her husband is, I'll have no reputation; and +if there is one thing I want, it is a spotless reputation--sometime." + +Hylda laughed--the manner and the voice were so droll--but her face +saddened too, and her big eyes with the drooping lashes looked up +pensively at the portrait of her husband's mother. + +"Was it ever a happy family, or a lucky family?" she asked. + +"It's lucky now, and it ought to be happy now," was the meaning reply. + +Hylda made no answer, but caught the strings of the 'cello lightly, and +shook her head reprovingly, with a smile meant to be playful. For a +moment she played, humming to herself, and then the Duchess touched the +hand that was drawing the bow softly across the strings. She had behind +her garishness a gift for sympathy and a keen intuition, delicacy, and +allusiveness. She knew what to say and what to leave unsaid, when her +heart was moved. + +"My darling," she said now, "you are not quite happy; but that is because +you don't allow yourself to get well. You've never recovered from your +attack last summer; and you won't, until you come out into the world +again and see people. This autumn you ought to have been at Homburg or +at Aix, where you'd take a little cure of waters and a great deal of cure +of people. You were born to bask in friendship and the sun, and to draw +from the world as much as you deserve, a little from many, for all you +give in return. Because, dearest, you are a very agreeable person, with +enough wit and humanity to make it worth the world's while to conspire to +make you do what will give it most pleasure, and let yourself get most-- +and that's why I've come." + +"What a person of importance I am!" answered Hylda, with a laugh that +was far from mirthful, though she caught the plump, wrinkled little hand +of the Duchess and pressed it. "But really I'm getting well here fast. +I'm very strong again. It is so restful, and one's days go by so +quietly." + +"Yet, I'm not sure that it's rest you want. I don't think it is. You +want tonics--men and women and things. Monte Carlo would do you a world +of good--I'd go with you. Eglington gambles here"--she watched Hylda +closely--"why shouldn't you gamble there?" + +"Eglington gambles?" Hylda's face took on a frightened look, then it +cleared again, and she smiled. "Oh, of course, with international +affairs, you mean. Well, I must stay here and be the croupier." + +"Nonsense! Eglington is his own croupier. Besides, he is so much in +London, and you so much here. You sit with the distaff; he throws the +dice." + +Hylda's lips tightened a little. Her own inner life, what Eglington was +to her or she to Eglington, was for the ears of no human being, however +friendly. She had seen little of him of late, but in one sense that had +been a relief, though she would have done anything to make that feeling +impossible. His rather precise courtesy and consideration, when he was +with her, emphasised the distance between "the first fine careless +rapture" and this grey quiet. And, strange to say, though in the first +five years after the Cairo days and deeds, Egypt seemed an infinite space +away, and David a distant, almost legendary figure, now Egypt seemed but +beyond the door--as though, opening it, she would stand near him who +represented the best of all that she might be capable of thinking. Yet +all the time she longed for Eglington to come and say one word, which +would be like touching the lever of the sluice-gates of her heart, to let +loose the flood. As the space grew between her and Eglington, her spirit +trembled, she shrank back, because she saw that sea towards which she was +drifting. + +As she did not answer the last words of the Duchess, the latter said +presently: "When do you expect Eglington?" + +"Not till the week-end; it is a busy week with him," Hylda answered; then +added hastily, though she had not thought of it till this moment: "I +shall probably go up to town with you to-morrow." + +She did not know that Eglington was already in the house, and had given +orders to the butler that she was not to be informed of his arrival for +the present. + +"Well, if you get that far, will you come with me to the Riviera, or to +Florence, or Sicily--or Cairo?" the other asked, adjusting her gold- +brown wig with her babyish hands. + +Cairo! Cairo! A light shot up into Hylda's eyes. The Duchess had +spoken without thought, but, as she spoke, she watched the sudden change +in Hylda. What did it mean? Cairo--why should Cairo have waked her so? +Suddenly she recalled certain vague references of Lord Windlehurst, and, +for the first time, she associated Hylda with Claridge Pasha in a way +which might mean much, account for much, in this life she was leading. + +"Perhaps! Perhaps!" answered Hylda abstractedly, after a moment. + +The Duchess got to her feet. She had made progress. She would let her +medicine work. + +"I'm going to bed, my dear. I'm sixty-five, and I take my sleep when I +can get it. Think it over, Sicily--Cairo!" + +She left the room, saying to herself that Eglington was a fool, and that +danger was ahead. "But I hold a red light--poor darling!" she said +aloud, as she went up the staircase. She did not know that Eglington, +standing in a deep doorway, heard her, and seized upon the words eagerly +and suspiciously, and turned them over in his mind. + +Below, at the desk where Eglington's mother used to write, Hylda sat with +a bundle of letters before her. For some moments she opened, glanced +through them, and put them aside. Presently she sat back in her chair, +thinking--her mind was invaded by the last words of the Duchess; and +somehow they kept repeating themselves with the words in the late +Countess's diary: "Is it only the mother in me, not the love in me?" +Mechanically her hand moved over the portfolio of the late Countess, and +it involuntarily felt in one of its many pockets. Her hand came upon a +letter. This had remained when the others had been taken out. It was +addressed to the late Earl, and was open. She hesitated a moment, then, +with a strange premonition and a tightening of her heart-strings, she +spread it out and read it. + +At first she could scarcely see because of the mist in her eyes; but +presently her sight cleared, and she read quickly, her cheeks burning +with excitement, her heart throbbing violently. The letter was the last +expression of a disappointed and barren life. The slow, stammering +tongue of an almost silent existence had found the fulness of speech. +The fountains of the deep had been broken up, and Sybil Eglington's +repressed emotions, undeveloped passions, tortured by mortal sufferings, +and refined and vitalised by the atmosphere blown in upon her last hours +from the Hereafter, were set free, given voice and power at last. + +The letter reviewed the life she had lived with her husband during +twenty-odd years, reproved herself for not speaking out and telling him +his faults at the beginning, and for drawing in upon herself, when she +might have compelled him to a truer understanding; and, when all that was +said, called him to such an account as only the dying might make--the +irrevocable, disillusionising truth which may not be altered, the +poignant record of failure and its causes. + + ". . . I could not talk well, I never could, as a girl," the + letter ran; "and you could talk like one inspired, and so + speciously, so overwhelmingly, that I felt I could say nothing in + disagreement, not anything but assent; while all the time I felt how + hollow was so much you said--a cloak of words to cover up the real + thought behind. Before I knew the truth, I felt the shadow of + secrecy in your life. When you talked most, I felt you most + secretive, and the feeling slowly closed the door upon all frankness + and sympathy and open speech between us. I was always shy and self- + conscious and self-centred, and thought little of myself; and I + needed deep love and confidence and encouragement to give out what + was in me. I gave nothing out, nothing to you that you wanted, or + sought for, or needed. You were complete, self-contained. Harry, + my beloved babe Harry, helped at first; but, as the years went on, + he too began to despise me for my little intellect and slow + intelligence, and he grew to be like you in all things--and + secretive also, though I tried so hard to be to him what a mother + should be. Oh, Bobby, Bobby--I used to call you that in the days + before we were married, and I will call you that now when all is + over and done--why did you not tell me all? Why did you not tell me + that my boy, my baby Harry, was not your only child, that there had + been another wife, and that your eldest son was alive? + + "I know all. I have known all for years. The clergyman who married + you to Mercy Claridge was a distant relative of my mother's, and + before he died he told me. When you married her, he knew you only + as James Fetherdon, but, years afterwards, he saw and recognised + you. He held his peace then, but at last he came to me. And I did + not speak. I was not strong enough, nor good enough, to face the + trouble of it all. I could not endure the scandal, to see my own + son take the second place--he is so brilliant and able and + unscrupulous, like yourself; but, oh, so sure of winning a great + place in the world, surer than yourself ever was, he is so + calculating and determined and ambitious! And though he loves me + little, as he loves you little, too, yet he is my son, and for what + he is we are both responsible, one way or another; and I had not the + courage to give him the second place, and the Quaker, David + Claridge, the first place. Why Luke Claridge, his grandfather, + chose the course he did, does not concern me, no more than why you + chose secrecy, and kept your own firstborn legitimate son, of whom + you might well be proud, a stranger to you and his rights all these + years. Ah, Eglington, you never knew what love was, you never had + a heart--experiment, subterfuge, secrecy, 'reaping where you had + not sowed, and gathering where you had not strawed.' Always, + experiment, experiment, experiment! + + "I shall be gone in a few hours--I feel it, but before I go I must + try to do right, and to warn you. I have had such bad dreams about + you and Harry--they haunt me--that I am sure you will suffer + terribly, will have some awful tragedy, unless you undo what was + done long ago, and tell the truth to the world, and give your titles + and estates where they truly belong. Near to death, seeing how + little life is, and how much right is in the end, I am sure that I + was wrong in holding my peace; for Harry cannot prosper with this + black thing behind him, and you cannot die happy if you smother up + the truth. Night after night I have dreamed of you in your + laboratory, a vague, dark, terrifying dream of you in that + laboratory which I have hated so. It has always seemed to me the + place where some native evil and cruelty in your blood worked out + its will. I know I am an ignorant woman, with no brain, but God has + given me clear sight at the last, and the things I see are true + things, and I must warn you. Remember that. . . ." + +The letter ended there. She had been interrupted or seized with illness, +and had never finished it, and had died a few hours afterwards; and the +letter was now, for the first time, read by her whom it most concerned, +into whose heart and soul the words sank with an immitigable pain and +agonised amazement. A few moments with this death-document had +transformed Hylda's life. + +Her husband and--and David, were sons of the same father; and the name +she bore, the home in which she was living, the estates the title +carried, were not her husband's, but another's--David's. She fell back +in her chair, white and faint, but, with a great effort, she conquered +the swimming weakness which blinded her. Sons of the same father! The +past flashed before her, the strange likeness she had observed, the trick +of the head, the laugh, the swift gesture, the something in the voice. +She shuddered as she had done in reading the letter. But they were +related only in name, in some distant, irreconcilable way--in a way +which did not warrant the sudden scarlet flush that flooded her face. +Presently she recovered herself. She--what did she suffer, compared +with her who wrote this revelation of a lifetime of pain, of bitter and +torturing knowledge! She looked up at the picture on the wall, at the +still, proud, emotionless face, the conventional, uninspired personality, +behind which no one had seen, which had agonised alone till the last. +With what tender yet pitiless hand had she laid bare the lives of her +husband and her son! How had the neglected mother told the bitter truth +of him to whom she had given birth! "So brilliant and able, and +unscrupulous, like yourself; but, oh, sure of winning a great place in +the world . . . so calculating and determined and ambitious. . . . +That laboratory which I have hated so. It has always seemed to me the +place where some native evil and cruelty in your blood worked out its +will. . . ." + +With a deep-drawn sigh Hylda said to herself: "If I were dying to-morrow, +would I say that? She loved them so--at first must have loved them so; +and yet this at the last! And I--oh, no, no, no!" She looked at a +portrait of Eglington on the table near, touched it caressingly, and +added, with a sob in her voice: "Oh, Harry, no, it is not true! It is +not native evil and cruelty in your blood. It has all been a mistake. +You will do right. We will do right, Harry. You will suffer, it will +hurt, the lesson will be hard--to give up what has meant so much to you; +but we will work it out together, you and I, my very dear. Oh, say that +we shall, that.... " She suddenly grew silent. A tremor ran through +her, she became conscious of his presence near her, and turned, as though +he were behind her. There was nothing. Yet she felt him near, and, +as she did so, the soul-deep feeling with which she had spoken to the +portrait fled. Why was it that, so often, when absent from him, her +imagination helped her to make excuses for him, inspired her to press the +real truth out of sight, and to make believe that he was worthy of a love +which, but through some inner fault of her own, might be his altogether, +and all the love of which he was capable might be hers? + +She felt him near her, and the feelings possessing her a moment before +slowly chilled and sank away. Instinctively her eyes glanced towards the +door. She saw the handle turn, and she slipped the letter inside the +portfolio again. + +The door opened briskly now, and Eglington entered with what his enemies +in the newspaper press had called his "professional smile"--a criticism +which had angered his wife, chiefly because it was so near the truth. He +smiled. Smiling was part of his equipment, and was for any one at any +time that suited him. + +Her eyes met his, and he noted in her something that he had never seen +before. Something had happened. The Duchess of Snowdon was in the +house; had it anything to do with her? Had she made trouble? There was +trouble enough without her. He came forward, took Hylda's hand and +kissed it, then kissed her on the cheek. As he did so, she laid a hand +on his arm with a sudden impulse, and pressed it. Though his presence +had chilled the high emotions of a few moments before, yet she had to +break to him a truth which would hurt him, dismay him, rob his life of so +much that helped it; and a sudden protective, maternal sense was roused +in her, reached out to shelter him as he faced his loss and the call of +duty. + +"You have just come?" she said, in a voice that, to herself, seemed far +away. + +"I have been here some hours," he answered. Secrecy again--always the +thing that had chilled the dead woman, and laid a cold hand upon herself +--"I felt the shadow of secrecy in your life. When you talked most I +felt you most secretive, and the feeling slowly closed the door upon all +frankness and sympathy and open speech between us." + +"Why did you not see me--dine with me?" she asked. "What can the +servants think?" Even in such a crisis the little things had place-- +habit struck its note in the presence of her tragedy. + +"You had the Duchess of Snowdon, and we are not precisely congenial; +besides, I had much to do in the laboratory. I'm working for that new +explosive of which I told you. There's fame and fortune in it, and I'm +on the way. I feel it coming"--his eyes sparkled a little. "I made it +right with the servants; so don't be apprehensive." + +"I have not seen you for nearly a week. It doesn't seem--friendly." + +"Politics and science are stern masters," he answered gaily. + +"They leave little time for your mistress," she rejoined meaningly. + +"Who is my mistress?" + +"Well, I am not greatly your wife," she replied. "I have the dregs of +your life. I help you--I am allowed to help you--so little, to share so +little in the things that matter to you." + +"Now, that's imagination and misunderstanding," he rejoined. "It has +helped immensely your being such a figure in society, and entertaining +so much, and being so popular, at any rate until very lately." + +"I do not misunderstand," she answered gravely. "I do not share your +real life. I do not help you where your brain works, in the plans and +purposes and hopes that lie behind all that you do--oh, yes, I know your +ambitions and what positions you are aiming for; but there is something +more than that. There is the object of it all, the pulse of it, the +machinery down, down deep in your being that drives it all. Oh, I am not +a child! I have some intellect, and I want--I want that we should work +it out together." + +In spite of all that had come and gone, in spite of the dead mother's +words and all her own convictions, seeing trouble coming upon him, she +wanted to make one last effort for what might save their lives--her life- +-from shipwreck in the end. If she failed now, she foresaw a bitter, +cynical figure working out his life with a narrowing soul, a hard spirit +unrelieved by the softening influence of a great love--even yet the woman +in her had a far-off hope that, where the law had made them one by book +and scrip, the love which should consecrate such a union, lift it above +an almost offensive relation, might be theirs. She did not know how much +of her heart, of her being, was wandering over the distant sands of +Egypt, looking for its oasis. Eglington had never needed or wanted more +than she had given him--her fortune, her person, her charm, her ability +to play an express and definite part in his career. It was this material +use to which she was so largely assigned, almost involuntarily but none +the less truly, that had destroyed all of the finer, dearer, more +delicate intimacy invading his mind sometimes, more or less vaguely, +where Faith was concerned. So extreme was his egotism that it had never +occurred to him, as it had done to the Duchess of Snowdon and Lord +Windlehurst, that he might lose Hylda herself as well as her fortune; +that the day might come when her high spirit could bear it no longer. As +the Duchess of Snowdon had said: "It would all depend upon the other man, +whoever he might be." + +So he answered her with superficial cheerfulness now; he had not the +depth of soul to see that they were at a crisis, and that she could bear +no longer the old method of treating her as though she were a child, to +be humoured or to be dominated. + +"Well, you see all there is," he answered; "you are so imaginative, +crying for some moon there never was in any sky." + +In part he had spoken the truth. He had no high objects or ends or +purposes. He wanted only success somehow or another, and there was no +nobility of mind or aspiration behind it. In her heart of hearts she +knew it; but it was the last cry of her soul to him, seeking, though in +vain, for what she had never had, could never have. + +"What have you been doing?" he added, looking at the desk where she had +sat, glancing round the room. "Has the Duchess left any rags on the +multitude of her acquaintances? I wonder that you can make yourself +contented here with nothing to do. You don't look much stronger. I'm +sure you ought to have a change. My mother was never well here; though, +for the matter of that, she was never very well anywhere. I suppose it's +the laboratory that attracts me here, as it did my father, playing with +the ancient forces of the world in these Arcadian surroundings--Arcady +without beauty or Arcadians." He glanced up at his mother's picture. +"No, she never liked it--a very silent woman, secretive almost." + +Suddenly her eyes flared up. Anger possessed her. She choked it down. +Secretive--the poor bruised soul who had gone to her grave with a broken +heart! + +"She secretive? No, Eglington," she rejoined gravely, "she was +congealed. She lived in too cold an air. She was not secretive, but yet +she kept a secret--another's." + +Again Eglington had the feeling which possessed him when he entered the +room. She had changed. There was something in her tone, a meaning, he +had never heard before. He was startled. He recalled the words of the +Duchess as she went up the staircase. + +What was it all about? + +"Whose secrets did she keep?" he asked, calmly enough. + +"Your father's, yours, mine," she replied, in a whisper almost. + +"Secret? What secret? Good Lord, such mystery!" He laughed +mirthlessly. + +She came close to him. "I am sorry--sorry, Harry," she said with +difficulty. "It will hurt you, shock you so. It will be a blow to you, +but you must bear it." + +She tried to speak further, but her heart was beating so violently that +she could not. She turned quickly to the portfolio on the desk, drew +forth the fatal letter, and, turning to the page which contained the +truth concerning David, handed it to him. "It is there," she said. + +He had great self-control. Before looking at the page to which she had +directed his attention, he turned the letter over slowly, fingering the +pages one by one. "My mother to my father," he remarked. + +Instinctively he knew what it contained. "You have been reading my +mother's correspondence," he added in cold reproof. + +"Do you forget that you asked me to arrange her papers?" she retorted, +stung by his suggestion. + +"Your imagination is vivid," he exclaimed. Then he bethought himself +that, after all, he might sorely need all she could give, if things went +against him, and that she was the last person he could afford to +alienate; "but I do remember that I asked you that," he added--"no doubt +foolishly." + +"Read what is there," she broke in, "and you will see that it was not +foolish, that it was meant to be." He felt a cold dead hand reaching out +from the past to strike him; but he nerved himself, and his eyes searched +the paper with assumed coolness-even with her he must still be acting. +The first words he saw were: "Why did you not tell me that my boy, my +baby Harry, was not your only child, and that your eldest son was alive?" + +So that was it, after all. Even his mother knew. Master of his nerves +as he was, it blinded him for a moment. Presently he read on--the whole +page--and lingered upon the words, that he might have time to think what +he must say to Hylda. Nothing of the tragedy of his mother touched him, +though he was faintly conscious of a revelation of a woman he had never +known, whose hungering caresses had made him, as a child, rather peevish, +when a fit of affection was not on him. Suddenly, as he read the lines +touching himself, "Brilliant and able and unscrupulous.... and though he +loves me little, as he loves you little too," his eye lighted up with +anger, his face became pale--yet he had borne the same truths from Faith +without resentment, in the wood by the mill that other year. For a +moment he stood infuriated, then, going to the fireplace, he dropped the +letter on the coals, as Hylda, in horror, started forward to arrest his +hand. + +"Oh, Eglington--but no--no! It is not honourable. It is proof of all!" + +He turned upon her slowly, his face rigid, a strange, cold light in his +eyes. "If there is no more proof than that, you need not vex your mind," +he said, commanding his voice to evenness. + +A bitter anger was on him. His mother had read him through and through-- +he had not deceived her even; and she had given evidence against him to +Hylda, who, he had ever thought, believed in him completely. Now there +was added to the miserable tale, that first marriage, and the rights +of David--David, the man who, he was convinced, had captured her +imagination. Hurt vanity played a disproportionate part in this crisis. + +The effect on him had been different from what Hylda had anticipated. +She had pictured him stricken and dumfounded by the blow. It had never +occurred to her, it did not now, that he had known the truth; for, +of course, to know the truth was to speak, to restore to David his own, +to step down into the second and unconsidered place. After all, to her +mind, there was no disgrace. The late Earl had married secretly, but he +had been duly married, and he did not marry again until Mercy Claridge +was dead. The only wrong was to David, whose grandfather had been even +more to blame than his own father. She had looked to help Eglington in +this moment, and now there seemed nothing for her to do. He was superior +to the situation, though it was apparent in his pale face and rigid +manner that he had been struck hard. + +She came near to him, but there was no encouragement to her to play that +part which is a woman's deepest right and joy and pain in one--to comfort +her man in trouble, sorrow, or evil. Always, always, he stood alone, +whatever the moment might be, leaving her nothing to do--" playing his +own game with his own weapons," as he had once put it. Yet there was +strength in it too, and this came to her mind now, as though in excuse +for whatever else there was in the situation which, against her will, +repelled her. + +"I am so sorry for you," she said at last. + +"What do you mean?" he asked. + +"To lose all that has been yours so long." + +This was their great moment. The response to this must be the touchstone +of their lives. A--half dozen words might alter all the future, might be +the watch word to the end of all things. Involuntarily her heart +fashioned the response he ought to give--"I shall have you left, Hylda." + +The air seemed to grow oppressive, and the instant's silence a torture, +and, when he spoke, his words struck a chill to her heart--rough notes of +pain. "I have not lost yet," were his words. + +She shrank. "You will not hide it. You will do right by--by him," she +said with difficulty. + +"Let him establish his claim to the last item of fact," he said with +savage hate. + +"Luke Claridge knew. The proofs are but just across the way, no doubt," +she answered, almost coldly, so had his words congealed her heart. + +Their great moment had passed. It was as though a cord had snapped that +held her to him, and in the recoil she had been thrown far off from him. +Swift as his mind worked, it had not seen his opportunity to win her to +his cause, to asphyxiate her high senses, her quixotic justice, by that +old flood of eloquence and compelling persuasion of the emotions with +which he had swept her to the altar--an altar of sacrifice. He had not +even done what he had left London to do--make sure of her, by an alluring +flattery and devotion, no difficult duty with one so beautiful and +desirable; though neither love of beauty nor great desire was strong +enough in him to divert him from his course for an hour, save by his own +initiative. His mother's letter had changed it all. A few hours before +he had had a struggle with Soolsby, and now another struggle on the same +theme was here. Fate had dealt illy with him, who had ever been its +spoiled child and favourite. He had not learned yet the arts of defence +against adversity. + +"Luke Claridge is dead," he answered sharply. "But you will tell--him, +you will write to Egypt and tell your brother?" she said, the conviction +slowly coming to her that he would not. + +"It is not my duty to displace myself, to furnish evidence against +myself--" + +"You have destroyed the evidence," she intervened, a little scornfully. + +"If there were no more than that--" He shrugged his shoulders +impatiently. + +"Do you know there is more?" she asked searchingly. "In whose interests +are you speaking?" he rejoined, with a sneer. A sudden fury possessed +him. Claridge Pasha--she was thinking of him! + +"In yours--your conscience, your honour." + +"There is over thirty years' possession on my side," he rejoined. + +"It is not as if it were going from your family," she argued. + +"Family--what is he to me!" + +"What is any one to you?" she returned bitterly. + +"I am not going to unravel a mystery in order to facilitate the cutting +of my own throat." + +"It might be worth while to do something once for another's sake than +your own--it would break the monotony," she retorted, all her sense +tortured by his words, and even more so by his manner. + +Long ago Faith had said in Soolsby's but that he "blandished" all with +whom he came in contact; but Hylda realised with a lacerated heart that +he had ceased to blandish her. Possession had altered that. Yet how had +he vowed to her in those sweet tempestuous days of his courtship when the +wind of his passion blew so hard! Had one of the vows been kept? + +Even as she looked at him now, words she had read some days before +flashed through her mind--they had burnt themselves into her brain: + + "Broken faith is the crown of evils, + Broken vows are the knotted thongs + Set in the hands of laughing devils, + To scourge us for deep wrongs. + + "Broken hearts, when all is ended, + Bear the better all after-stings; + Bruised once, the citadel mended, + Standeth through all things." + +Suddenly he turned upon her with aggrieved petulance. "Why are you so +eager for proof?" + +"Oh, I have," she said, with a sudden flood of tears in her voice, though +her eyes were dry--"I have the feeling your mother had, that nothing will +be well until you undo the wrong your father did. I know it was not your +fault. I feel for you--oh, believe me, I feel as I have never felt, +could never feel, for myself. It was brought on you by your father, +but you must be the more innocent because he was so guilty. You have had +much out of it, it has helped you on your way. It does not mean so much +now. By-and-by another--an English-peerage may be yours by your own +achievement. Let it go. There is so much left, Harry. It is a small +thing in a world of work. It means nothing to me." Once again, even +when she had given up all hope, seeing what was the bent of his mind-- +once again she made essay to win him out of his selfishness. If he would +only say, "I have you left," how she would strive to shut all else out of +her life! + +He was exasperated. His usual prescience and prudence forsook him. It +angered him that she should press him to an act of sacrifice for the man +who had so great an influence upon her. Perversity possessed him. +Lifelong egotism was too strong for wisdom, or discretion. + +Suddenly he caught her hands in both of his and said hoarsely: "Do you +love me--answer me, do you love me with all your heart and soul? The +truth now, as though it were your last word on earth." + +Always self. She had asked, if not in so many words, for a little love, +something for herself to feed on in the darkening days for him, for her, +for both; and he was thinking only of himself. + +She shrank, but her hands lay passive in his. "No, not with all my heart +and soul--but, oh--!" + +He flung her hands from him. "No, not with all your heart and soul-- +I know! You are willing to sacrifice me for him, and you think I do not +understand." + +She drew herself up, with burning cheeks and flashing eyes. "You +understand nothing--nothing. If you had ever understood me, or any human +being, or any human heart, you would not have ruined all that might have +given you an undying love, something that would have followed you through +fire and flood to the grave. You cannot love. You do not understand +love. Self--self, always self. Oh, you are mad, mad, to have thrown it +all away, all that might have given happiness! All that I have, all that +I am, has been at your service; everything has been bent and tuned to +your pleasure, for your good. All has been done for you, with thought +of you and your position and your advancement, and now--now, when you +have killed all that might have been yours, you cry out in anger that it +is dying, and you insinuate what you should kill another for insinuating. +Oh, the wicked, cruel folly of it all! You suggest--you dare! I never +heard a word from David Claridge that might not be written on the +hoardings. His honour is deeper than that which might attach to the +title of Earl of Eglington." + +She seemed to tower above him. For an instant she looked him in the eyes +with frigid dignity, but a great scorn in her face. Then she went to the +door--he hastened to open it for her. + +"You will be very sorry for this," he said stubbornly. He was too +dumfounded to be discreet, too suddenly embarrassed by the turn affairs +had taken. He realised too late that he had made a mistake, that he had +lost his hold upon her. + +As she passed through, there suddenly flashed before her mind the scene +in the laboratory with the chairmaker. She felt the meaning of it now. + +"You do not intend to tell him--perhaps Soolsby has done so," she said +keenly, and moved on to the staircase. + +He was thunderstruck at her intuition. "Why do you want to rob +yourself?" he asked after her vaguely. She turned back. "Think of your +mother's letter that you destroyed," she rejoined solemnly and quietly. +"Was it right?" + +He shut the door, and threw himself into a chair. "I will put it +straight with her to-morrow," he said helplessly. + +He sat for a half-hour silent, planning his course. + +At last there came a tap at the door, and the butler appeared. + +"Some one from the Foreign Office, my lord," he said. A moment +afterwards a young official, his subordinate, entered. "There's the +deuce to pay in Egypt, sir; I've brought the despatch," he said. + + + + +GLOSSARY + +Aiwa----Yes. +Allah hu Achbar----God is most Great. +Al'mah----Female professional singers, signifying "a learned female." +Ardab----A measure equivalent to five English bushels. + +Backsheesh----Tip, douceur. +Balass----Earthen vessel for carrying water. +Bdsha----Pasha. +Bersim----Clover. +Bismillah----In the name of God. +Bowdb----A doorkeeper. + +Dahabieh----A Nile houseboat with large lateen sails. +Darabukkeh----A drum made of a skin stretched over an earthenware funnel. +Dourha----Maize. + +Effendina----Most noble. +El Azhar----The Arab University at Cairo. + +Fedddn----A measure of land representing about an acre. +Fellah----The Egyptian peasant. + +Ghiassa----Small boat. + +Hakim----Doctor. +Hasheesh----Leaves of hemp. + +Inshallah----God willing. + +Kdnoon----A musical instrument like a dulcimer. +Kavass----An orderly. +Kemengeh----A cocoanut fiddle. +Khamsin----A hot wind of Egypt and the Soudan. + +Kourbash----A whip, often made of rhinoceros hide. + +La ilaha illa-llah----There is no deity but God. + +Malaish----No matter. +Malboos----Demented. +Mastaba----A bench. +Medjidie----A Turkish Order. +Mooshrabieh----Lattice window. +Moufettish----High Steward. +Mudir----The Governor of a +Mudirieh, or province. +Muezzin----The sheikh of the mosque who calls to prayer. + +Narghileh----A Persian pipe. +Nebool----A quarter-staff. + +Ramadan----The Mahommedan season of fasting. + +Saadat-el-bdsha----Excellency Pasha. +Sdis----Groom. +Sakkia----The Persian water-wheel. +Salaam----Eastern salutation. +Sheikh-el-beled----Head of a village. + +Tarboosh----A Turkish turban. + +Ulema----Learned men. + +Wakf----Mahommedan Court dealing with succession, etc. +Welee----A holy man or saint. + +Yashmak----A veil for the lower part of the face. +Yelek----A long vest or smock. + + + + +ETEXT EDITOR'S BOOKMARKS: + +A cloak of words to cover up the real thought behind +Antipathy of the lesser to the greater nature +Antipathy of the man in the wrong to the man in the right +Friendship means a giving and a getting +He's a barber-shop philosopher +Monotonously intelligent +No virtue in not falling, when you're not tempted +Of course I've hated, or I wouldn't be worth a button +Only the supremely wise or the deeply ignorant who never alter +Passion to forget themselves +Political virtue goes unrewarded +She knew what to say and what to leave unsaid +Smiling was part of his equipment +Sometimes the longest way round is the shortest way home +Soul tortured through different degrees of misunderstanding +The vague pain of suffered indifference +There's no credit in not doing what you don't want to do +Tricks played by Fact to discredit the imagination +We must live our dark hours alone +Woman's deepest right and joy and pain in one--to comfort + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE WEAVERS BY PARKER, V3 *** + +******* This file should be named 6263.txt or 6263.zip ******* + +This eBook was produced by David Widger + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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