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-THE VALLEY OF THE
-SQUINTING WINDOWS
-
-BY
-BRINSLEY MACNAMARA
-
-[Illustration: Logo]
-
-NEW YORK
-BRENTANO'S
-1920
-
-
-
-
-Copyright, 1919, by
-BRENTANO'S
-
-_All rights reserved_
-
-
-
-
-To
-ONE WHO WAITED
-FOR THIS STORY
-
-
-_And the Lord spake unto Moses saying_:
-
-_Speak unto Aaron saying whosoever he be of thy seed in their
-generations that hath any blemish let him not approach to offer the
-bread of his God._
-
-LEVITICUS xxi. 16-17.
-
-
-
-
-PREFATORY NOTE
-
-
-In the parlor, as they call it, or best room of every Irish farmhouse,
-one may come upon a certain number of books that are never read, laid
-there in lonely repose upon the big square table on the middle of the
-floor. A novel entitled "Knocknagow" is almost always certain to be
-amongst them, yet scarcely as the result of selection, although its
-constant occurrence cannot be considered purely accidental. There must
-lurk an explanation somewhere about these quiet Irish houses connecting
-the very atmosphere with "Knocknagow". A stranger, thinking of some of
-the great books of the world, would almost feel inclined to believe
-that this story of the quiet homesteads of Ireland must be one of them,
-a book full of inspiration and truth and beauty, a story sprung from
-the bleeding realities which were before the present comfort of these
-homes. Yet for all the expectations which might be raised up in one
-by this most popular, this typical Irish novel, it is most certainly
-the book with which the new Irish novelist would endeavor to contrast
-his own. For he would be writing of life, as the modern novelist's art
-is essentially a realistic one, and not of the queer, distant, half
-pleasing, half saddening thing which could make one Irish farmer's
-daughter say to another at any time within the past forty years:
-
-"And you'd often see things happening nearly in real life like in
-'Knocknagow.' Now wouldn't you?"
-
-Nearer by a long way than Charles Joseph Kickham to what the Irish
-novelist should have been was William Carleton in his great, gloomy,
-melodramatic stories of the land. He was prevented by the agrarian
-obsession of his time from having the clear vision and wide pity, in
-keeping with his vehemence, which might have made him the Irish Balzac.
-
-Even in Ireland Lever and Lover have become unpopular. They are read
-only by Englishmen who still try to perpetuate their comic convention
-when they write newspaper articles about Ireland.
-
-As with Kickham, largely in his treatment of the Irish peasant, Gerald
-Griffin in "The Collegians" did not succeed in giving his Irish middle
-or "strong farmer" class characters the spiritual energy so necessary
-to the literary subject.
-
-Here are five writers then, who included in their work such exact
-opposites as saints and sinners, heroes and _omadhanns_, earnest
-passionate men and _broths of bhoys_. And somehow between them, between
-those who wrote to degrade us and those who have idealized us, the real
-Irishman did not come to be set down. From its fiction, reality was
-absent, as from most other aspects of Irish life.
-
-To a certain extent the realistic method has been employed by the
-dramatists of the Irish Literary Movement, but necessarily limited by
-the scope and conventions of the stage and by the narrower appeal of
-the spoken word in the mouth of an actor. The stage, too, has a way of
-developing cults and conventions and of its very nature must display
-a certain amount of artificiality, even in the handling of realistic
-material. Thus comes a sudden stagnation, a sudden completion always
-of a literary movement developed mostly upon the dramatic side, as has
-come upon the work of the Abbey Theater.
-
-It appears rather accidental, but perhaps on the whole to its benefit,
-that the dramatic form should have been adopted by J. M. Synge and not
-the epical form of the novel. Synge fell with a lash of surprise upon
-the Ireland of his time, for the Irish play had been as fully degraded
-as the Irish novel. Furthermore the shock of his genius created an
-opportunity which made possible the realistic Irish novelist. At the
-Abbey Theater they performed plays dealing with subjects which no Irish
-novelist, thinking of a public, would have dreamt of handling. Somehow
-their plays have come to be known and accepted throughout Ireland. Thus
-a reading public for this realistic Irish novel has been slowly created
-and the urge to write like this has come to many storytellers.
-
-Of necessity, as part of the reaction from the work of the feeble
-masters we have known, the first examples of the new Irish novel
-were bound to be a little savage and pitiless. In former pictures of
-Irish life there was heavy labor always to give us the shade at the
-expense of the light, in fact at the expense of the truth which is
-life itself. In Ireland the protest of the realist is not so much
-against Romanticism as against an attempt made to place before us a
-pseudo-realism. According as the Irish people resign themselves to the
-fact that this is not a thing which should not be done, the work of
-the Irish realist will approximate more nearly to the quality of the
-Russian novelists, in which there are neither exaggerations of Light
-nor of Shade, but a picture of life all gray and quiet, and brightened
-only by the beauty of tragic reality.
-
-It leaves room for interesting speculation, that at a time of political
-chaos, at a time when in Ireland there is a great coming and going of
-politicians of all brands, dreamers, sages and mystics, the decline
-of the Irish Literary Movement on its dramatic side should have given
-the realistic Irish novelist his opportunity to appear. The urgent
-necessity of reality in Irish life at the moment fills one with the
-thought that a school of Irish realists might have brought finer things
-to the heart of Ireland than the Hy Brazil of the politicians.
-
-The function of the Irish novelist to evoke reality has been proved in
-the case of "The Valley of the Squinting Windows." Upon its appearance
-the people of that part of Ireland with whom I deal in my writings
-became highly incensed. They burned my book after the best medieval
-fashion and resorted to acts of healthy violence. The romantic period
-seemed to have been cut out of their lives and they were full of
-life again. The story of my story became widely exaggerated through
-gradually increasing venom and my book, which had been well received
-by the official Irish Press,--whose reviewers generally read the books
-they write about--was supposed by some of my own people to contain the
-most frightful things. To the peasant mind, fed so long upon unreal
-tales of itself, the thing I had done became identified after the most
-incongruous fashion and very curiously with an aspect of the very
-literary association from which I had sprung. Language out of Synge's
-"Playboy of the Western World" came to my ears from every side during
-the days in which I was made to suffer for having written "The Valley
-of the Squinting Windows."
-
-"And saving your presence, sir, are you the man that killed your
-father?"
-
-"I am, God help me!"
-
-"Well then, my thousand blessings to you!"
-
-The country as a whole did not dislike my picture of Irish life or say
-it was untrue. It was only the particular section of life which was
-pictured that still asserted its right to the consolation of romantic
-treatment, but in its very attempt to retain romance in theory it
-became realistic in practise. It did exactly what it should have done
-a great many years ago with the kind of books from which it drew a
-certain poisonous comfort towards its own intellectual and political
-enslavement. The rest of Ireland was amused by the performance of those
-who did not think, with Mr. Yeats, that romantic Ireland was dead and
-gone. The realist had begun to evoke reality and no longer did a great
-screech sound through the land that this kind of thing should not be
-done. A change had come, by miraculous coincidence, upon the soul
-of Ireland. It was not afraid of realism now,--for it had faced the
-tragic reality of the travail which comes before a healthy national
-consciousness can be born. No longer would the realist be described
-in his own country as merely a morbid scoundrel or an enemy of the
-Irish people. They would not need again the solace of the sentimental
-novelist for all the offenses of the caricaturists in Irish fiction,
-because, with the wider and clearer vision of their own souls fully
-realized, had they already begun to look out upon the world.
-
-BRINSLEY MACNAMARA.
-
-Dublin, March 1st, 1919.
-
-
-
-
-THE VALLEY OF THE SQUINTING WINDOWS
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I
-
-
-Mrs. Brennan took her seat again at the sewing-machine by the window.
-She sighed as she turned her tired eyes in search of some inducement
-to solace down the white road through the valley of Tullahanogue. The
-day was already bright above the fields and groups of children were
-beginning to pass through the morning on their way to school. Mrs.
-Brennan beheld their passage, yet now as always she seemed to miss the
-small beauty of the little pageant.
-
-"God help them, the poor little things!" she condoled to herself, "and
-may He enlighten the unfortunate parents who send them to that quare,
-ould, ignorant pair, Master Donnellan and Mrs. Wyse, the mistress.
-Musha, sure they're no teachers!"
-
-From this it might seem that Mrs. Brennan, the dressmaker of the valley
-and one well entitled to be giving out an opinion, did not think very
-highly of National Education. Yet it was not true that she failed
-to regard the lofty fact of education with all a peasant's stupid
-reverence, for was she not the mother of John Brennan, who was now
-preparing for the priesthood at a grand college in England? A priest,
-mind you! That was what you might call something for a woman to be!
-
-The pride of her motherhood struck a high and resounding note in the
-life of the valley. Furthermore, it gave her authority to assert
-herself as a woman of remarkable standing amongst the people. She
-devoted her prerogative to the advancement of the Catholic Church. She
-manifested herself as one intensely interested in its welfare. There
-was no cheap religious periodical, from _The Catholic Times_ to _The
-Messenger_, that she did not regularly purchase. All these she read to
-her husband, Ned Brennan, in the long quiet evenings after the manner
-of one discharging a religious duty.
-
-This was a curious side of her. She kept him in comfort and in ease,
-and yet when his body had been contented she must needs apply herself
-to the welfare of his soul. For, although he spent many a penny of
-her money in the village of Garradrimna, was he not the father of
-John Brennan, who was going to be a priest of God? She forgave him
-everything on this account, even the coarse and blasphemous expressions
-he continually let fly from his mouth the while she read for him the
-most holy stories by Jesuit Fathers.
-
-Just now she had given him two shillings with which to entertain
-himself. He had threatened to strike her in the event of her
-refusal.... That was why she had been sighing and why the tears were
-now creeping into her great tired eyes as she began to set her machine
-in motion for the tasks of the day. Dear, dear, wasn't he the cruel,
-hard man?... Yet beyond all this thought of him was her bright dream of
-the day when, with the few pounds she had saved so secretly from the
-wide grasp of his thirst, she must fit him out in a rich suit of black
-and go by his side proudly to attend the ordination of their son John.
-It was because she so dearly loved her dream that she bore him with
-immense patience.
-
-Also it was because she had been thinking of that grand day and of the
-descending splendor of her son that she now commented so strongly upon
-the passage of the children to school. She had spoken bitterly to her
-own heart, but in that heart of hers she was a bitter woman.
-
-This was such a sunny, lovely morning. It was the day of the June Races
-in the town of Mullaghowen, and most of the valley-dwellers had gone
-there. The winding, dusty road through Tullahanogue was a long lane of
-silence amid the sunlight. It appeared as an avenue to the Palace of
-Dreams. So it was not at all strange that Mrs. Brennan was dreaming
-forward into the future and filling her mind with fancies of the past.
-She was remembering herself as Nan Byrne, the prettiest girl in the
-valley. This was no illusion of idle vanity, for was there not an old
-daguerreotype in an album on the table behind her at this very moment
-to prove that beauty had been hers? And she had been ruined because
-of that proud beauty. It was curious to think how her sister and she
-had both gone the same way.... The period of a generation had passed
-since the calamity had fallen upon them almost simultaneously. It was
-the greatest scandal that had ever happened in these parts. The holy
-priest, whose bones were now moldering beneath the sanctuary of the
-chapel, had said hard words of her. From the altar of God he had spoken
-his pity of her father, and said that she was a bad woman.
-
-"May God strengthen him, for this is the bitter burden to bear. Philip
-Byrne is a decent man for all his daughter Nan is a woman of shame. I
-pray you avoid her every one who has the trace of God's purity in his
-heart. Let you go not into that house which she has made an abode of
-lust, nor allow the fair name of your own house to be blemished by the
-contamination of her presence within its walls."
-
-Yes, it was true that all this had been said of her by the holy father,
-and in the very spot beneath which his bones were now at rest. They
-were the hard words surely to have issued from the lips of God's
-anointed. Even in the fugitive remembrance of them now they seemed to
-have left red marks like whip-lash weals across her soul. The burning
-hurt of them drove her deeper into remembrance. She had already come to
-the full development of her charms when her ambition had also appeared.
-It was, in short, to effect the "catch" of one of the strong farmers of
-the valley. She entered into conspiracy with her sister and, together,
-they laid their plans. Henry Shannon was the one upon whom she had set
-her eye and Loughlin Mulvey the one her sister Bridget had begun to
-desire. They were both men of family and substance, and hard drinkers
-after the fashion of the fields. They often called at the house to
-see the sisters. Philip Byrne, whose occupation as head-groom at the
-stables of the Moores of Garradrimna often took him away from Ireland,
-would always be absent during those visitations. But their mother would
-be there, Mrs. Abigail Byrne, ambitious for her daughters, in great
-style. It was never known to happen that either of the strong farmers
-called to the house without a bottle of whiskey. Mrs. Byrne always
-looked favorably upon them for their high decency, and the whiskey was
-good whiskey.
-
-Here in this very room where she now sat remembering it all there
-had been such scenes! Her hair had been so thick and brown and there
-had been a rare bloom upon her skin as she had sat here alone with
-Henry Shannon, talking with him of queer things and kissing his dark,
-handsome face. And all through those far, bygone times she used to be
-thinking of his grand house and of his broad fields and the way she
-would one day assert herself in the joy of such possessions over her
-less fortunate sisters of the valley. Yet, ever mixed with her bright
-pieces of imagination, there had been such torturing doubts.... Her
-sister Bridget had always been so certain of her prey.
-
-There had been times when Henry Shannon spent the night in the house.
-In those nights had been laid the foundations of her shame.... Very,
-very clearly did she remember the sickening, dreadful morning she had
-come to her mother with the story that she was going to have a child.
-How angry the elder woman had been, so lit within her all the wild
-instincts of the female against the betrayer of her sex? Why had she
-gone so far? Why had she not played her cards like her sister? There
-was no fear of her yet although she had got a proper hold of Loughlin
-Mulvey.... What was she to do at all? She who had had great ambitions
-was to become lower than the lowest in the valley.
-
-Yet the three of them had conferred together, for all the others were
-so angry with her because of her disastrous condition into which she
-had allowed herself to slip without having first made certain of Henry
-Shannon. The only course left now was to "make a show" of him if he
-could not see his way to marry her.
-
-She could now remember every line of the angry, misspelled letter she
-had sent to her whilom lover, and how it had brought him to the house
-in a mood of drunken repentance. He presented her with material for a
-new dress on the very same night, and, as she laughed and cried over
-it in turn, she thought how very curious it was that he should wish to
-see her figure richly adorned when already it had begun to put on those
-signs of disfigurement which announce the coming of a child. But he was
-very, very kind, and all suspicion fell away from her. Before he went
-he whispered an invitation to spend a few days with him in Dublin....
-What did it matter now, and it was so kind of him to ask her? It showed
-what was in his mind, and therefore no talk of marriage passed between
-them. It did not seem necessary.
-
-Then had followed quickly those lovely days in Dublin, she stopping
-with him as "Mrs. Henry Shannon" at a grand hotel. He had given her a
-wedding-ring, but while it remained upon her finger it was ever the
-little accusing symbol, filling her with an intense conviction of her
-sin.
-
-This great adventure had marked the beginning of her acquaintance with
-the world beyond the valley, and, even now, through the gloom of her
-mood, she could remember it with a certain amount of gladness coming
-back to her mind. But it was queer that the brightest moment of her
-life should also have been the moment of darkest disaster.... She
-re-created the slight incidents of their quarrel. It was so strange
-of him after all the grand kindness he had just been showing her....
-She had returned to the valley alone and with her disgrace already
-beginning to be heavy upon her.... She never saw Henry Shannon or spoke
-with him again. When she wrote referring distantly to their approaching
-marriage and making mention of the wedding-ring, the reply came back
-from Mr. Robinson, the solicitor in Garradrimna, who was his cousin and
-sporting companion. She knew how they had already begun to talk of her
-in the valley for having gone off to Dublin with Henry Shannon, and
-now, when an ugly word to describe her appeared there black and plain
-in the solicitor's letter, she felt, in blind shame, that the visit
-to Dublin had been planned to ruin her. The air of the valley seemed
-full of whispers to tell her that she had done a monstrous thing. Maybe
-they could give her jail for having done a thing like that, and she
-knew well that Henry Shannon's people would stop at nothing to destroy
-her, for they were a dark, spiteful crew. They were rich and powerful,
-with lawyers in the family, and what chance would she have in law now
-that every one was turned against her. So that night she went out when
-it was very dark and threw away the wedding-ring. The small, sad act
-appeared as the renunciation of her great ambition.
-
-She remembered with a surpassing clearness the wide desolation of
-the time that followed. Loughlin Mulvey had been compelled to marry
-her sister Bridget because he had not been clever enough to effect a
-loophole of escape like Henry Shannon. Already three months after the
-marriage (bit by bit was she now living the past again) the child had
-been born to Bridget, and now she herself was waiting for the birth of
-her child.... Indeed Bridget need not have been so angry.
-
-She had been delirious and upon the brink of death, and when, at last,
-she had recovered sufficiently to realize the sharpness of her mother's
-tongue once more the child had disappeared. She had escaped to England
-with all that was left of her beauty. There she had met Ned Brennan,
-and there had her son John Brennan been born. For a short while she had
-known happiness. Ned was rough, but in his very strength there was a
-sense of security and protection which made him bearable. And there was
-little John. He was not a bit like her short, wild impression of the
-other little child. Her disgrace had been the means of bringing Philip
-Byrne to his grave; and, after six or seven years, her mother had died,
-and she had returned to the valley of Tullahanogue. It was queer that,
-with all her early knowledge of the people of the valley, she had never
-thought it possible that some of them would one day impart to him the
-terrible secret she had concealed so well while acting the ingenuous
-maiden before his eyes.
-
-Yet they were not settled a month at the cottage in the valley when Ned
-came from Garradrimna one night a changed man. Larry Cully, a loafer
-of the village, had attacked him with the whole story.... Was this the
-kind of people among whom she had brought him to live, and was this
-a fact about her? She confessed her share, but, illtreat her how he
-would, she could not tell him what had been done with the child.
-
-Henceforth he was so different, settling gradually into his present
-condition. He could not go about making inquiries as to the past of his
-wife, and the people of the valley, gloating over his condition, took
-no pains to ease his mind. It was more interesting to see him torture
-himself with suspicion. They hardly fancied she had told him all. It
-was grand to see him drinking in his endeavors to forget the things he
-must needs be thinking of.
-
-Thus had Mrs. Brennan lived with her husband for eighteen years, and no
-other child had been born to them. His original occupation of plumber's
-laborer found no opportunity for its exercise in the valley, but he
-sometimes lime-washed stables and mended roofs and gutters. For the
-most part, however, she kept him through her labor at the machine.
-
-Her story was not without its turn of pathos, for it was strange to
-think of her reading the holy books to him in the long, quiet evenings
-all the while he despised her for what she had been with a hatred that
-all the magnanimous examples of religion could not remove.
-
-She was thinking over it all now, and so keenly, for he had just
-threatened to strike her again. Eighteen years had not removed from
-his mind the full and bitter realization of her sin.... They were both
-beginning to grow gray, and her living atonement for what she had been,
-her son John who was going on for the Church, was in his twentieth
-year. Would her husband forgive her when he saw John in the garb of a
-priest? She wondered and wondered.
-
-So deep was she in this thought that she did not notice the entrance
-of old Marse Prendergast, who lived in a cabin just across the road.
-Marse was a superannuated shuiler and a terror in the valley. The tears
-had been summoned to her eyes by the still unchanging quality of Ned's
-tone. They were at once detected by the old woman.
-
-"Still crying, are ye, Nan Byrne, for Henry Shannon that's dead and
-gone?"
-
-This was a sore cut, but it was because of its severity that it had
-been given. Marse Prendergast's method was to attack the person from
-whom she desired an alms instead of making an approach in fear and
-trembling.
-
-"Well, what's the use in regretting now that he didn't marry ye after
-all?... Maybe you could give me a bit of Ned's tobacco for me little
-pipe, or a few coppers to buy some."
-
-"I will in troth," she said, searching her apron pocket, only to
-discover that Ned had taken all her spare coppers. She communicated her
-regrets to the old woman, but her words fell upon ears that doubted.
-
-"Ah-ha, the lie is on your lip yet, Nan Byrne, just as it was there
-for your poor husband the day he married you, God save us all from
-harm--you who were what you were before you went away to England.
-And now the cheek you have to go refuse me the few coppers. Ye think
-ye're a great one, don't you, with your son at college, and he going
-on to be a priest. Well, let me tell you that a priest he'll never be,
-your grand son, John. Ye have the quare nerve to imagine it indeed if
-you ever think of what happened to your other little son.... Maybe
-'tis what ye don't remember that, Nan Bryne.... The poor little thing
-screeching in the night-time, and some one carrying a box out into the
-garden in the moonlight, and them digging the hole.... Ah, 'tis well I
-know all that, Nan Byrne, although you may think yourself very clever
-and mysterious. And 'tis maybe I'll see you swing for it yet with
-your refusals and the great annoyance you put me to for the means of
-a smoke, and I a real ould woman and all. But listen here to me, Nan
-Byrne! 'Tis maybe to your grand son, John Brennan, I'll be telling the
-whole story some day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
-
-Her tongue still clacking in soliloquy, Marse Prendergast hobbled out
-of the house, and Mrs. Brennan went to the small back window of the
-sewing-room. She gazed wistfully down the long, sloping fields towards
-the little lake which nestled in the bosom of the valley. Within the
-periods of acute consciousness which came between her sobs she began
-to examine the curious edifice of life which housed her soul. An
-unaccountable, swift power to do this came to her as she saw the place
-around which she had played as a child, long ago, when she had a brow
-snow-white and smooth, with nice hair and laughing eyes. Her soul,
-too, at that time was clean--clean like the water. And she was wont to
-have glad thoughts of the coming years when she had sprung to girlhood
-and could wear pretty frocks and bind up her hair. Across her mind had
-never fallen the faintest shadow of the thing that was to happen to her.
-
-Yet now, as she ran over everything in her mind, she marveled not a
-little that, although she could not possibly have returned to the
-perfect innocence of her childhood state, she had triumphed over
-the blight of certain circumstances to an extraordinary extent. She
-was surprised to realize that there must have been some strength of
-character in her not possessed by the other women of the valley. It had
-been her mother's mark of distinction, but the dead woman had used it
-towards the achievement of different ends. Ends, too, which had left
-their mark upon the lives of both her daughters.
-
-It struck her now, with another lash of surprise, that it had been
-an amazingly cheeky thing to have returned to the valley; but, as
-the shining waters of the lake led her mind into the quiet ways of
-contemplation, she could not help thinking that she had triumphed well.
-
-To be living here at all with such a husband, and her son away in
-England preparing for the priesthood, seemed the very queerest,
-queerest thing. It was true that she held herself up well and had a
-fine conceit of herself, if you please. The mothers of the neighborhood
-had, for the most part, chosen to forget the contamination that might
-have arisen from sending their daughters to a woman like her for their
-dresses, and, in consequence, she had been enabled to build up this
-little business. She asserted herself in the ways of assertion which
-were open to the dwellers in the valley. She attended to her religious
-duties with admirable regularity. It was not alone that she fulfilled
-the obligation of hearing Mass on Sundays and Holydays, but also on
-many an ordinary morning when there was really no need to be so very
-pious. She went just to show them that she was passionately devoted to
-religion. Yet her neighbors never once regarded her in the light of
-a second Mary Magdalene. They entered into competition with her, it
-was true, for they could not let it be said that Nan Byrne was more
-religious than they, and so, between them, they succeeded in degrading
-the Mysteries. But it was the only way that was open to them of showing
-off their souls.
-
-On a Sunday morning the procession they formed was like a flock of
-human crows. And the noise they made was a continual caw of calumny.
-The one presently absent was set down as the sinner. They were
-eternally the Pharisees and she the Publican. Mrs. Brennan was great
-among these crows of calumny. It was her place of power. She could give
-out an opinion coming home from Mass upon any person at all that would
-almost take the hearing out of your ears. She effectively beat down
-the voice of criticism against herself by her sweeping denunciations
-of all others. It was an unusual method, and resembled that of
-Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, from whom it may probably have been
-copied. It led many to form curious estimates as to the exact type of
-mind possessed by the woman who made use of it. There were some who
-described it as "thickness," a rather remarkable designation given to
-a certain quality of temper by the people of the valley. But there was
-no denying that it had won for her a cumulative series of results which
-had built up about her something definite and original and placed her
-resolutely in the life of the valley.
-
-She would often say a thing like this, and it might be taken as a
-good example of her talk and as throwing a light as well upon the
-conversation of those with whom she walked home the road from the House
-of God. A young couple would have done the best thing by marrying at
-the right age, and these long-married women with the queer minds would
-be putting before them the very worst prospects. Mrs. Brennan would
-distinguish herself by saying a characteristic thing:
-
-"Well, if there's quarreling between them, and musha! the same is sure
-to be, the names they'll call one another won't be very nice for the
-_pedigree_ is not too _clean_ on either side of the house."
-
-No word of contradiction or comment would come from the others, for
-this was a morsel too choice to be disdained, seeing that it so
-perfectly expressed their own thoughts and the most intimate wishes
-of their hearts. It was when they got home, however, and, during the
-remaining portion of the Sunday, their happy carnival of destructive
-gossip, that they would think of asking themselves the question--"What
-right had Nan Byrne of all people to be thinking of little slips
-that had happened in the days gone by?" But the unreasonableness
-of her words never appeared in this light to her own mind. She was
-self-righteous to an enormous degree, and it was her particular fancy
-to consider all women as retaining strongly their primal degradation.
-And yet it was at such a time she remembered, not penitently however,
-or in terms of abasement, but with a heavy sadness numbing her every
-faculty. It was her connection with a great sin and her love for her
-son John which would not become reconciled.
-
-When she returned to the valley with her husband and her young child
-she had inaugurated her life's dream. Her son John was to be her
-final justification before the world and, in a most wondrous way, had
-her dream begun to come true. She had reared him well, and he was so
-different from Ned Brennan. He was of a kindly disposition and, in the
-opinion of Master Donnellan, who was well hated by his mother, gave
-promise of great things. He had passed through the National School in
-some way that was known only to Mrs. Brennan, to "a grand College in
-England." He appeared as an extraordinary exception to the breed of
-the valley, especially when one considered the characters of both his
-parents.
-
-Mrs. Brennan dearly loved her son, but even here, as in every phase of
-her life, the curious twist of her nature revealed itself. Hers was a
-selfish love, for it had mostly to do with the triumph he represented
-for her before the people of the valley. But this was her dream, and a
-dream may often become dearer than a child. It was her one sustaining
-joy, and she could not bear to think of any shadow falling down to
-darken its grandeur. The least suspicion of a calamity of this kind
-always had the effect of reducing to ruins the brazen front of the Mrs.
-Brennan who presented herself to the valley and of giving her a kind of
-fainting in her very heart.
-
-Her lovely son! She wiped her tear-stained cheeks now with the corner
-of her black apron, for Farrell McGuinness, the postman, was at the
-door. He said, "Good-morra, Mrs. Brennan!" and handed her a letter.
-It was from John, telling her that his summer holidays were almost at
-hand. It seemed strange that, just now, when she had been thinking of
-him, this letter should have come.... Well, well, how quickly the time
-passed, now that the snow had settled upon her hair.
-
-Farrell McGuinness was loitering by the door waiting to have a word
-with her when she had read her letter.
-
-"I hear Mary Cooney over in Cruckenerega is home from Belfast again.
-Aye, and that she's shut herself up in a room and not one can see a
-sight of her. Isn't that quare now? Isn't it, Mrs. Brennan?"
-
-"It's great, isn't it, Farrell? You may be sure there's something the
-matter with her."
-
-"God bless us now, but wouldn't that be the hard blow to her father and
-mother and to her little sisters?"
-
-"Arrah musha, between you and me and the wall, the divil a loss. What
-could she be, anyhow?"
-
-"That's true for you, Mrs. Brennan!"
-
-"Aye, and to think that it was in Belfast, of all places, that it
-happened. Now, d'ye know what I'm going to tell ye, Farrell? 'Tis the
-bad, Orange, immoral hole of a place is the same Belfast!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III
-
-
-Farrell McGuinness, grinning to himself, had moved away on his red
-bicycle, and a motor now came towards her in its envelope of dust down
-the long road of Tullahanogue. This was the first hire motor that
-had appeared in the village of Garradrimna and was the property of
-Charlie Clarke, an excellent, religious man, who had interested himself
-so successfully in bazaars and the charities that he had been thus
-enabled to purchase it. Its coming amongst them had been a sensational
-occurrence. If a neighbor wished to flout a neighbor it was done by
-hiring Clarke's car; and Mrs. Brennan immediately thought what a grand
-thing it would be to take it on the coming Thursday and make a brave
-show with her son John sitting up beside her and he dressed in black.
-The dignity of her son, now moving so near the priesthood, demanded
-such a demonstration. She hailed Charlie Clarke, and the car came
-suddenly to a standstill. The petrol fumes mingling with the rising
-dust of the summer road, floated to her nostrils like some incense of
-pride.
-
-"Good morning, Mrs. Brennan!"
-
-"Good morning, Mr. Clarke!"
-
-"You're not at the races of Mullaghowen?"
-
-"Not yet, Mrs. Brennan, but I'm going--and with the Houlihans of
-Clonabroney."
-
-"The Houlihans of Clonabroney, well, well; that's what you might call a
-_quality_ drive."
-
-"Oh, indeed, 'tis almost exclusively to the quality and to the priests
-my drives are confined, Mrs. Brennan. I'm not patronized by the beggars
-of the valley."
-
-"That's right, Mr. Clarke, that's right. Keep your car _clean_ at all
-costs.... It's what I just stopped you to see if you could drive me
-over to Kilaconnaghan to meet my son John on Thursday. He's coming
-home."
-
-"Is that so? Well you may say that's grand, Mrs. Brennan. Oh, indeed,
-John is the rare credit to you, so he is. You should be proud of him,
-for 'tis the fine beautiful thing to be going on for the Church. In
-fact, do ye know what it is, Mrs. Brennan? Only I'm married, I'd be
-thinking this very minute of giving up motor, shop, land and everything
-and going into a monastery. I would so."
-
-"Now aren't you the fine, noble-minded man to be thinking of the like?"
-
-"I am so.... Well, I'll drive you, Mrs. Brennan. On Thursday, you say,
-to Kilaconnaghan. The round trip will cost you fifteen shillings."
-
-"Fifteen shillings?"
-
-Charlie Clarke had already re-started the car which was again humming
-dustily down the road. Mrs. Brennan turned wearily into the sewing-room
-and seated herself once more by the machine. She was crushed a little
-by the thought of the fifteen shillings. She saw clearly before her the
-long procession of the hours of torture for her eyes that the amount
-represented. It appeared well that she had not given the few coppers to
-old Marse Prendergast, for, even as things stood, she must approach
-some of her customers towards the settlement of small accounts to
-enable her to spend fifteen shillings in the display of her pride....
-For eighteen years it had been thus with her, this continual scraping
-and worrying about money. She wondered and wondered now was she ever
-destined to find release from mean tortures. Maybe when her son had
-become a priest he would be good to his mother? She had known of
-priests and the relatives of priests, who had grown amazingly rich.
-
-She was recalled from her long reverie by the return of Ned Brennan
-from Garradrimna. The signs of drink were upon him.
-
-"Where's me dinner?" he said, in a flat, heavy voice.
-
-"Your dinner, is it? Oh dear, dear, 'tis how I never thought of putting
-it on yet. I had a letter from John, and sure it set me thinking. God
-knows I'll have it ready for you as soon as I can."
-
-"Aye, John. A letter from John.... Begad.... Begad.... And I wanting me
-dinner!"
-
-"So you'll have it, so you'll have it. Now aren't you the wild,
-impatient man? Can't you wait a minute?"
-
-"I never did see such a woman as you, and I in a complete hurry. Three
-slates slipped down off the school roof in the bit of wind the other
-night, and I'm after getting instructions from Father O'Keeffe to put
-them on."
-
-"Ah, sure, 'tis well I know how good and industrious you are, Ned.
-That's the sixth time this year you've put on the very same slates.
-You're a good man, indeed, and a fine tradesman."
-
-For the moment his anger was appeased by this ironical compliment,
-which she did not intend as irony; but at heart he was deeply vexed
-because he was going to do this little job. She knew he must be talking
-of it for months to come. When the few shillings it brought him were
-spent she must give him others and others as a continuous reward for
-his vast effort. This she must do as a part of her tragic existence,
-while beholding at the same time how he despised her in his heart.
-
-But, just now, the bitterness of this realization did not assail
-her with the full power of the outer darkness, for her mind was lit
-brilliantly to-day by the thought of John. And during the hours that
-passed after she had fitted out Ned for his adventurous expedition to
-the roof she could just barely summon up courage to turn the machine,
-so consumed was she by a great yearning for her son.
-
-The days, until Thursday, seemed to stretch themselves into an age.
-But at three o'clock, when Charlie Clarke's white motor drew up at the
-door, she was still preparing for the journey. In the room which had
-known another aspect of her life she had been adorning herself for long
-hours. The very best clothes and all the personal ornaments in her
-possession must needs be brought into use. For it had suddenly appeared
-to her that she was about to enter into an unique ceremony comparable
-only to the ordination of John.
-
-Searching in an unfrequented drawer of the dressing-table for
-hair-pins, she had come upon an old cameo-brooch, one of Henry
-Shannon's costly presents to her during the period of their
-strange "honeymoon." It was a pretty thing, so massive and so
-respectable-looking. It was of that heavy Victorian period to which
-her story also belonged. With trembling hands she fastened it upon her
-bosom. In a deeper recess of the drawer she came upon a powder puff in
-a small round box, which still held some of the aid to beauty remaining
-dry and useful through all the years. She had once used it to heighten
-her graces in the eyes of Henry Shannon. And now, for all the blanching
-trouble through which she had passed, she could not resist the impulses
-of the light woman in her and use it to assert her pride in her son. It
-must be a part of her decking-out as she passed through the valley in a
-motor for the first time, going forth to meet her son.
-
-She took her seat at last by the side of Charlie Clarke, and passed
-proudly down the valley road. Things might have gone as agreeably
-as she had planned but for the peculiar religious warp there was
-in Charlie. He might have talked about the mechanism of his car or
-remarked at length upon the beauty of the summer day, but he must
-inevitably twist the conversation in the direction of religion.
-
-"I suppose," said he, "that it's a fine thing to be the mother of a
-young fellow going on for the Church. It must make you very contented
-in yourself when you think of all the Masses he will say for you during
-your lifetime and all the Masses he will say for the repose of your
-soul when you are dead and gone."
-
-"Aye, indeed, that's a grand and a true saying for you, Mr. Clarke. But
-sure what else could one expect from you, and yourself the good man
-that goes to Mass every day?"
-
-"And, Mrs. Brennan, woman dear, to see him saying the Holy Mass, and
-he having his face shining with the Light of Heaven!"
-
-"A beautiful sight, Mr. Clarke, as sure as you're there."
-
-The car was speeding along merrily, and now it had just passed, with
-a slight bump, over the culvert of a stream, which here and there was
-playing musically about little stones, and here and there was like bits
-of molten silver spitting in the sun. It was a grand day.
-
-Whether or not the unusual sensation of the throbbing car was too much
-for Mrs. Brennan, she was speaking little although listening eagerly to
-the words of Charlie Clarke, asking him once or twice to repeat some
-sentences she had been kept from hearing by the noise of the engine.
-Now she was growing more and more silent, for they had not yet passed
-out of the barony of Tullahanogue. She saw many a head suddenly fill
-many a squinting window, and men and women they met on the road turn
-round with a sneer to gaze back at her sitting up there beside Charlie
-Clarke, the saintly chauffeur who went to Mass every day.
-
-Her ears were burning, and into her mind, in powerful battalions, were
-coming all the thoughts that had just been born in the minds of the
-others. The powder she had applied to her cheeks was now like a burning
-sweat upon her skin. The cameo-brooch felt like a great weight where
-it lay upon her bosom heavily. It caught her breath and so prevented
-her maintaining conversation with Charlie Clarke. It reminded her
-insistently of the dear baby head of John reposing, as in a bower of
-tenderness, upon the same place.
-
-"It must be the grand and blessed thing for a mother to go to
-confession to her son. Now wouldn't it be wonderful to think of
-telling him, as the minister of God's mercy, the little faults she had
-committed before he was born or before she married his father. Now
-isn't that the queer thought, Mrs. Brennan?"
-
-She did not reply, and it took all she could marshal of self-possession
-to protect her from tears as the motor hummed into the village of
-Kilaconnaghan, where the railway station was. They had arrived well in
-advance of the train's time. She passed through the little waiting-room
-and looked into the advertisement for Jameson's Whiskey, which was
-also a mirror. She remembered that it was in this very room she had
-waited before going away for that disastrous "honeymoon" with Henry
-Shannon.... This was a better mirror than the one at home, and she
-saw that the blaze upon her cheeks had already subdued the power of
-the powder, making it unnecessary and as the merest dirt upon her
-face.... The cameo-brooch looked so large and gaudy.... She momentarily
-considered herself not at all unlike some faded women of the pavement
-she had seen move, like malignant specters, beneath the lamplight in
-Dublin city.... She plucked away the brooch from her bosom and thrust
-it into her pocket. Then she wiped her face clean with her handkerchief.
-
-Far off, and as a glad sound coming tentatively to her ears, she could
-hear the train that was bearing her beloved son home to the valley and
-to her. It was nearly a year since she last saw him, and she fancied he
-must have changed so within that space of time. Who knew how he might
-change towards her some day? This was her constant dread. And now as
-the increasing noise of the train told that it was drawing nearer she
-felt immensely lonely.
-
-The few stray passengers who ever came to Kilaconnaghan by the
-afternoon train had got out, and John Brennan was amongst them. On the
-journey from Dublin he had occupied a carriage with Myles Shannon,
-who was the surviving brother of Henry Shannon and the magnate of the
-valley. The time had passed pleasantly enough, for Mr. Shannon was
-a well-read, interesting man. He had spoken in an illuminating way
-of the Great War. He viewed it in the light of a scourge and a just
-reckoning of calamity that the nations must pay for bad deeds they
-had done. "It is strange," said he, "that even a nation, just like an
-individual, must pay its just toll for its sins. It cannot escape, for
-the punishment is written down with the sin. There is not one of us who
-may not be made to feel the wide sweep of God's justice in this Great
-War, even you, my boy, who may think yourself far removed from such a
-possibility."
-
-These were memorable words, and John Brennan allowed himself to fall
-into a spell of silence that he might the better ponder them. Looking
-up suddenly, he caught the other gazing intently at him with a harsh
-smile upon his face.
-
-So now that they were to part they turned to shake hands.
-
-"Good-by, Mr. Brennan!" said Myles Shannon to the student. "I wish
-you an enjoyable holiday-time. Maybe you could call over some evening
-to see my nephew Ulick, my brother Henry's son. He's here on holidays
-this year for the first time, and he finds the valley uncommonly dull
-after the delights of Dublin. He's a gay young spark, I can tell you,
-but students of physic are generally more inclined to be lively than
-students of divinity."
-
-This he said with a flicker of his harsh smile as they shook hands, and
-John Brennan thanked him for his kind invitation. Catching sight of
-Mrs. Brennan, Mr. Shannon said, "Good-day!" coolly and moved out of the
-station.
-
-To Mrs. Brennan this short conversation on the platform had seemed
-protracted to a dreadful length. As she beheld it from a little
-distance a kind of desolation had leaped up to destroy the lovely day.
-It compelled her to feel a kind of hurt that her son should have chosen
-to expend the few first seconds of his home-coming in talking, of all
-people, to one of the Shannon family. But he was a young gentleman and
-must, of course, show off his courtesy and nice manners. And he did not
-know.... But Myles Shannon knew.... His cool "Good-day!" to her as he
-moved out of the station appeared to her delicate sensitiveness of the
-moment as an exhibition of his knowledge. Immediately she felt that she
-must warn John against the Shannons.
-
-He came towards her at last, a thin young man in black, wearing cheap
-spectacles. He looked tenderly upon the woman who had borne him. She
-embraced him and entered into a state of rapt admiration. Within the
-wonder of his presence she was as one translated, her sad thoughts
-began to fall from her one by one. On the platform of this dusty
-wayside station in Ireland she became a part of the glory of motherhood
-as she stood there looking with pride upon her son.
-
-The motor had surprised him. He would have been better pleased if
-this expense had been avoided, for he was not without knowledge
-and appreciation of the condition of his parents' affairs. Besides
-the little donkey and trap had always appeared so welcome in
-their simplicity, and it was by means of them that all his former
-home-comings had been effected. Those easy voyages had afforded
-opportunity for contemplation upon the splendor of the fields, but now
-the fields seemed to slip past as if annoyed by their faithlessness.
-Yet he knew that his mother had done this thing to please him, and how
-could he find it in his heart to be displeased with her?
-
-She was speaking kind words to him, which were being rudely destroyed,
-in their tender intonation, by the noise of the engine. She was setting
-forth the reasons why she had taken the car. It was the right thing now
-around Garradrimna.--The Houlihans of Clonabroney.--Again the changing
-of the gears cut short her explanation.
-
-"That man who was down with you in the train, Mr. Shannon, what was he
-saying to you?"
-
-"Indeed he was kindly inviting me over to see his nephew. I never knew
-he had a nephew, but it seems he has lived up in Dublin. He said that
-his brother, Henry Shannon, was the father of this young man."
-
-The feelings which her son's words brought rushing into her mind seemed
-to cloud out all the brightness which, for her, had again returned
-to the day. Yes, this young man, this Ulick Shannon, was the son of
-Henry Shannon and Henry Shannon was the one who had brought the great
-darkness into her life.... It would be queer, she thought, beyond
-all the queerness of the world, to see the son of that man and her
-son walking together through the valley. The things that must be said
-of them, the terrible sneer by which they would be surrounded--Henry
-Shannon's son and the son of Nan Byrne.... She grew so silent beneath
-the sorrow of her vision that, even in the less noisy spaces of the
-humming car, the amount of time during which she did not speak seemed a
-great while.
-
-"What is the matter, mother?" said John Brennan.
-
-"It was how I was thinking that maybe it would be better now if you had
-nothing to do with the Shannons."
-
-"But it was very kind of Mr. Shannon to invite me."
-
-"I know, I know; but I'd rather than the world it was any other family
-at all only the Shannons. They're a curious clan."
-
-In the painful silence that had come upon them she too was thinking
-of the reasons from which her words had sprung. Of how Henry Shannon
-had failed to marry her after he had ruined her; of how the disgrace
-had done no harm at all to him with his money and his fine farm. Then
-there was the burning thought of how he had married Grace Gogarty, the
-proudest and grandest girl in the whole parish, and of how this young
-man had been born prematurely and, by a curious chance, about the same
-time as her own little child. The one thing that she always dreaded
-more than any other, in the pain of its remembrance, was the fact that
-Henry Shannon had married Grace Gogarty directly after the "honeymoon"
-with her in Dublin. Yes, it was hardest of all to think of that, and of
-how Grace Gogarty had so held up her head all through the short period
-of her wedded life with Henry Shannon. And after his death she had gone
-about with such conceited sorrowfulness in her widow's weeds.
-
-These thoughts had passed through her mind with swift definition, each
-one cutting deeper the gap which separated her from the long-dreamt-of
-joy of John's home-coming. And her lovely son sitting up beside her had
-grown so silent.
-
-As the car stopped by the house and Ned Brennan came out to meet them,
-unshaven and walking doggedly, she felt very certain that a shadow
-had settled down upon this particular return of John. The remembrance
-of her sin, from which it seemed impossible to escape, made the great
-thing she had planned so little and desolate.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV
-
-
-There arose a continual coming and going of John Brennan to and from
-the house of his mother through the valley. He was an object of
-curiosity and conjecture. The windows would squint at him as he went
-past through power of the leering faces behind; men working in the
-fields would run to the hedges and gaze after him as he went far down
-the road.
-
-In the evenings black prophets would foregather and say: "Now isn't he
-the fine-looking young fellow indeed, with the grand black clothes upon
-him; but he'll never be a priest, and that's as sure as you're there,
-for his mother is Nan Byrne, and she was a bad woman, God help us all!
-'Tis a pity of him, when you come to think of it, for it isn't his
-fault, happening as it did before he was born."
-
-John Brennan was innocent of guile, and so he did not become aware of
-the attitude of those among whom he passed. He did not realize that in
-his own person he stood as an affront to them, that he was the Levite
-standing nearer God than they in their crude condition as clods of the
-earth. It was his mother who had created this position for him, for she
-had directed his studies towards divinity. If his natural abilities
-had won him the promise of any other elevation, it might not have
-annoyed them so deeply. But this was something they could not have
-been expected to bear, for not one amongst them had a son a priest,
-although they believed as implicitly as Mrs. Brennan in the virtue of
-religion, and there was always a feeling of intense righteousness upon
-them when they remembered her story.
-
-Yet, although this was the way they looked upon him, they were not
-without a certain cringing respect for the realization he represented.
-Thus it was that when they spoke to him there was a touch of deference
-in their voices although there was a sneer in their hearts. It could
-not be expected that he should see them as they really were. Yet
-there were odd, great moments when his larger vision enabled him to
-behold them moving infinitesimally, in affright, beneath the shadow
-of the Divine Hand. He possessed a certain gift of observation, but
-it was superficial and of little consequence to his character for it
-flourished side by side with the large charity of his heart.
-
-One morning he encountered old Marse Prendergast upon the road. She
-was gathering a few green sticks from the hedge-rows. She seemed to be
-always looking for the means of a fire, and, to John Brennan, there
-appeared something that touched him greatly in the spectacle of this
-whining old woman, from whom the spark of life was so quickly fading,
-having no comfort, even on a summer day, but just to be sitting over
-a few smoldering sticks, sucking at an old black pipe and breaking
-out into occasional converse with herself. She who had given birth
-to strong sons and lovely daughters sitting here in her little cabin
-alone. Her clutch was gone from her to America, to the streets, and to
-the grave.
-
-John Brennan felt the pity of her, although he did not notice that the
-curtsey she gave him from the ditch was an essential portion of her
-contempt for the son of Nan Byrne (the cheek of him going on for to be
-a priest!), or that when she addressed him as _Mr._ Brennan it was in
-derision.
-
-"And glory be to God, sure we'll soon have to be calling you _Father_
-Brennan!" she repeated, as if silently marveling at the impossibility
-of the combination of words.
-
-He saw her move to accompany him down the road, her old back bent
-cruelly beneath the load of the weighty, green branches. He was
-touched, for he was not blind to the symbolism for which she stood, and
-offered to carry the branches for her, and she, accepting his offer,
-called down upon his head the blessing of God.
-
-As they moved slowly along the road she recounted, in snatches between
-her questions regarding his life at college, all the intimate woes
-of her life. Her lamentations, as they drew near the cottage of Mrs.
-Brennan, attracted the attention of his mother, who saw a sight
-filling her eyes which cut her to the bone. She saw her son John, her
-hope and pride, conversing with Marse Prendergast, the long-tongued
-shuiler who tramped the country with her stories and in quest of more
-stories--Marse Prendergast who knew her secret as no other knew it, and
-who had so recently reminded her of that knowledge. And he was carrying
-her sticks along the public road in the full light of day.... So
-powerful was the hurt of her maternal feelings that she almost fainted
-sitting there by her machine.
-
-When John came into the room she looked so pale that he fancied she
-must be ill. He inquired as to the causes of her condition, but she
-only replied that she would try to tell him when he had taken his
-breakfast.
-
-As he was eating in silence she wondered what at all she could say to
-him or how she would attempt to place her view of things before him.
-This incident of the morning might be taken as a direct foreshadowing
-of what might happen if his foolish charity extended further down
-the valley. She did not dare to imagine what things he might be told
-or what stories might be suggested to his mind by the talk of the
-neighbors. But it was clearly her duty doubly to protect him from such
-a possibility. She saw that he had finished his breakfast.
-
-"That was the quare thing you were doing just now, John? It was the
-quarest thing at all, so it was."
-
-"Queer, mother; what was?"
-
-"Talking to old Marse Prendergast, son, and she only a woman of the
-roads with a bad tongue on her."
-
-"I only stopped talking with her, mother, so that I might carry her
-sticks. She was not able."
-
-"And she used the fine opportunity, I'll warrant, to drag information
-out of you and carry it all through the valley. That's what she was at!
-That's what she was at!"
-
-There was a kind of mournful wail in Mrs. Brennan's tones as if she
-saw in John's action of the morning some irretrievable distance placed
-between herself and him. The people of the valley loomed ever great as
-an army between her and the desire of her heart, and John had just now,
-as it were, afforded an opening to the enemy.
-
-He received a certain amount of hurt from her words, for although
-he knew her only as his mother and a good woman who was well nigh
-faultless in her practise of the Christian religion, why was it that
-this simple action of his, with its slight touch of charity, was
-resented by her? Yet he allowed her to proceed without question,
-listening always with that high and fine attention which must have been
-the attitude of Christ as He listened to His Mother in Galilee.
-
-She painted a picture of the valley for his consideration. She
-proceeded to do this with a great concern moving her, for she was quick
-to perceive the change in him since his last holidays. He was a man
-now, and it was to his manhood condition she appealed. She began to
-tell him, with such a rush of words, the life-histories of those around
-him. There was not a slight detail she did not go to great pains to
-enlarge, no skeleton she did not cause to jump from its cupboard and
-run alive once more through the valley. She painted a new portrait of
-every inhabitant in a way that amazed John, who had not known of such
-things.
-
-But over his first feelings of surprise came a great realization of
-sadness. For this was his mother who was speaking. Hitherto he had
-looked upon her as one untouched by the clayey villainies of earth, a
-patient and very noble woman, with tired eyes and busy hands rather
-fashioned to confer benedictions than waste themselves in labor. Now
-he was listening to one most subtly different, to a woman who had been
-suddenly metamorphosed into the likeness of something primeval and
-startling. And she was oh! so bitter.
-
-Mrs. Brennan had no notion of the change that had come upon her. To
-herself there still appeared no difference in herself. She was doing
-all this for love of her son John, as she had done much for love of him.
-
-There fell a thick silence between them when she had finished. The
-mother and the son were both exhausted, he from listening to her and
-she from reading the pedigrees of every one to whom her mind could
-possibly extend, including Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, and the
-Shannons, who were almost gentlemen like the Houlihans of Clonabroney.
-
-John Brennan sighed as he said out of the innocence of his heart:
-
-"It is good, mother, that we are not as the rest of these."
-
-Mrs. Brennan did not reply.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V
-
-
-In rural Ireland the "bona-fide," or rather _mala-fide_, traveler
-constitutes a certain blasphemous aspect in the celebration of
-the Sabbath. There are different types of "bona-fide," whose
-characteristics may be said to vary in direct proportion to their love
-and enthusiasm for porter. The worship of porter, when it has attained
-the proportions of a perfect passion, is best described as "the pursuit
-of porter in a can." It is the cause of many drunken skirmishes with
-the law, and it is interesting to observe such mistaken heroes in the
-execution of their plans.
-
-At a given signal a sudden descent is made upon a pub. A series of
-whistles from sentries in various parts of the village has announced
-the arrival of the propitious moment. A big tin'can is the only visible
-evidence of their dark intention. One almost forgets its betraying
-presence in the whirling moment of the brave deed. Then the deed is
-done. By some extraordinary process the can that was empty is found to
-be filled. It is the miracle of the porter.... When the sergeant and
-his colleagues come on the scene some hours later, an empty can with
-slight traces of froth upon the sides, "like beaded bubbles winking at
-the brim," constitutes the remaining flimsy evidence of the great thing
-that has happened.
-
-The mind of John Brennan was more or less foreign to this aspect of
-life amongst the fields. He would be the very last to realize that
-such were essential happenings in the life of his native village of
-Garradrimna. On his first Sunday at home he went walking, after second
-Mass, through the green woods which were the western boundary of the
-village. His thoughts were dwelling upon Father O'Keeffe's material
-interpretation of the Gospel story. At last they eddied into rest as he
-moved there along the bright path between the tall trees, so quiet as
-with adoration.
-
-When he came by that portion of the demesne wall, which lay at the back
-of Brannagan's public-house, he heard a scurrying of rabbits among the
-undergrowth. In the sudden hush which followed he heard a familiar
-voice raised in a tense whisper.
-
-"Hurry, quick! quick! There's some one in black coming up the path. It
-must be Sergeant McGoldrick. The can! the can!"
-
-His cheeks were suddenly flushed by a feeling of shame, for it was
-his father who had spoken. He stood behind a wide beech tree in mere
-confusion and not that he desired to see what was going forward.
-
-His father, Ned Brennan, bent down like an acrobat across the demesne
-wall and took the can from some one beneath. Then he ran down through
-the undergrowth, the brown froth of the porter dashing out upon his
-trousers, his quick eyes darting hither and thither like those of a
-frightened animal. But he did not catch sight of John, who saw him
-raise the can to his lips.
-
-It was a new experience for John Brennan to see his father thus
-spending the Sabbath in this dark place in the woods, while out in the
-young summer day spilled and surged all the wonder of the world.... A
-sort of pity claimed possession of him as he took a different way among
-the cathedral trees.... His father was the queer man, queer surely,
-and moving lonely in his life. He was not the intimate of his son nor
-of the woman who was his son's mother. He had never seemed greatly
-concerned to do things towards the respect and honor of that woman. And
-yet John Brennan could not forget that he was his father.
-
-Just now another incident came to divert his mood. He encountered an
-ancient dryad flitting through the woods. This was Padna Padna, a
-famous character in Garradrimna. For all his name was that of the great
-apostle of his country, his affinities were pagan. Although he was
-eighty, he got drunk every day and never went to Mass. In his early
-days he had been the proprietor of a little place and the owner of a
-hackney car. When the posting business fell into decline, he had had
-to sell the little place and the horse and car, and the purchase money
-had been left for his support with a distant relative in the village.
-He was a striking figure as he moved abroad in the disguise of a cleric
-not altogether devoted to the service of God. He always dressed in
-solemn black, and his coat was longer than that of a civilian. His
-great hat gave him a downcast look, as of one who has peered into the
-Mysteries. His face was wasted and small, and this, with his partially
-blinded eyes behind the sixpenny spectacles, gave him a certain
-asceticism of look. Yet it was the way he carried himself rather than
-his general aspect which created this impression of him. He was very
-small, and shrinking daily. His eyes were always dwelling upon his
-little boots in meditation. Were you unaware of his real, character,
-you might foolishly imagine that he was thinking of high, immortal
-things, but he was in reality thinking of drink.
-
-This was his daily program. He got up early and, on most mornings,
-crossed the street to Bartle Donohoe, the village barber, for a shave.
-Bartle would be waiting for him, his dark eye hanging critically as
-he tested the razor edge against the skin of his thumb. The little
-blade would be glinting in the sunlight.... Sometimes Bartle would
-become possessed of the thought that the morning might come when,
-after an unusually hard carouse on the previous night, he would not be
-responsible for all his razor might do, that it might suddenly leap out
-of his shivering hand and make a shocking end of Padna Padna and all
-his tyranny.... But his reputation as the drunkard with the steadiest
-hand in Garradrimna had to be maintained. If he did not shave Padna
-Padna the fact would be published in every house.
-
-"Bartle Donohoe was too shaky to shave me this morning; too shaky, I
-say. Ah, he's going wrong, going wrong! And will ye tell me this now?
-How is it that if ye buy a clock, a little ordinary clock for a couple
-of shillings, and give it an odd wind, it'll go right; but a man, a
-great, clever man'll go wrong no matter what way ye strive for to
-manage him?"
-
-If Bartle shaved him, Padna Padna would take his barber over to Tommy
-Williams's to give him a drink, which was the only payment he ever
-expected. After this, his first one, Padna Padna would say, "Not
-going to drink any more to-day," to which Bartle Donohoe would reply
-sententiously: "D'ye tell me so? Well, well! Is that a fact?"
-
-Then, directly, he would proceed to take a little walk before his
-breakfast, calling at every house of entertainment and referring
-distantly to the fact that Bartle Donohoe had a shake in his hand this
-morning. "A shame for him, and he an only son and all!"
-
-And thus did he spend the days of his latter end, pacing the sidewalks
-of Garradrimna, entering blindly into pubs and discussing the habits of
-every one save himself.
-
-He was great in the field of reminiscence.
-
-"Be the Holy Farmer!" he would say, "but there's no drinking nowadays
-tost what used to be longo. There's no decent fellows, and that's a
-fact. Ah, they were the decent fellows longo. You couldn't go driving
-them a place but they'd all come home mad. And sure I often didn't
-know where I'd be driving them, I'd be that bloody drunk. Aye, decent
-fellows! Sure they're all dead now through the power and the passion of
-drink."
-
-So this was the one whom John Brennan now encountered amid the green
-beauty of the woodland places. To him Padna Padna was one of the
-immortals. Succeeding holiday after succeeding holiday had he met the
-ancient man, fading surely but never wholly declining or disappearing.
-The impulse which had prompted him to speak to Marse Prendergast a few
-days previously now made him say: "How are you, old man?" to Padna
-Padna.
-
-The venerable drunkard, by way of immediate reply, tapped upon his
-lips with his fingers and then blew upon his fingers and whistled
-in cogitation. It was with his ears that he saw, and he possessed an
-amazing faculty for distinguishing between the different voices of
-different people.
-
-"John Brennan!" he at length exclaimed, in his high, thin voice. "Is
-that John Brennan?"
-
-"It is, the very one."
-
-"And how are ye, John?"
-
-"Very well, indeed, Padna. How are you?"
-
-"Poorly only. Ah, John, this is the hard day on me always, the Sunday.
-I declare to me God I detest Sunday. Here am I marching through the
-woods since seven and I having no drink whatever. That cursed Sergeant
-McGoldrick! May he have a tongue upon him some day the color of an ould
-brick and he in the seventh cavern of Hell! Did ye see Ned?"
-
-The sudden and tense question was not immediately intelligible to John
-Brennan. There were so many of the name about Garradrimna. Padna Padna
-pranced impatiently as he waited for an answer.
-
-"Ah, is it letting on you are that you don't know who I mean, and you
-with your grand ecclesiastical learning and all to that. 'Tis your own
-father, Ned Brennan, that I mean. I was in a 'join' with him to get a
-can out of Brannigan's. Mebbe you didn't see him anywhere down through
-the wood, for I have an idea that he's going to swindle me. Did ye see
-him, I'm asking you?"
-
-Even still John did not reply, for something seemed to have caught him
-by the throat and was robbing him of the power of speech. The valley,
-with its vast malevolence of which his mother had so recently warned
-him, was now driving him to say something which was not true.
-
-"No, Padna, I did not see him!" he at last managed to jerk out.
-
-"Mebbe he didn't manage to get me drink for me yet, and mebbe he did
-get it and is after drinking it somewhere in the shadows of the trees
-where he couldn't be seen. But what am I saying at all? Sure if he was
-drinking it there before me, where you're standing, I couldn't see him,
-me eyes is that bad. Isn't it the poor and the hard case to be blinded
-to such an extent?"
-
-John Brennan felt no pity, so horrible was the expression that now
-struggled into those dimming eyes. He thought of a puzzling fact of his
-parentage. Why was it that his mother had never been able to save his
-father from the ways of degradation into which he had fallen, the low
-companions, the destruction of the valley; from all of which to even
-the smallest extent she was now so anxious to save her son?
-
-Padna Padna was still blowing upon his fingers and regretting:
-
-"Now isn't it the poor and the hard case that there's no decent fellows
-left in the world at all. To think that I can meet never a one now, me
-that spent so much of me life driving decent fellows, driving, driving.
-John, do ye know what it is now? You're after putting me in mind of
-Henry Shannon. He was the decentest fellow! Many's the time I drove him
-down to your grandmother's place when he wouldn't have a foot under him
-to leave Garradrimna. That was when your mother was a young girl, John.
-Hee, hee, hee!"
-
-John could not divine the reasons for the old man's glee, nor did he
-perceive that the mind of Padna Padna, even in the darkening stages of
-its end, was being lit by a horrible sneer at him and the very fact of
-his existence. Instead he grew to feel rather a stir of compassion for
-this old man, with his shattered conception of happiness such as it
-was, burning his mind with memories while he rode down so queerly to
-the grave.
-
-As he moved away through the long, peaceful aisles of the trees, his
-soul was filled with gray questioning because of what he had just seen
-of his father and because of the distant connection of his mother with
-the incident. Why was it at all that his mother had never been able to
-save his father?
-
-As he emerged from the last circle of the woods there seemed to be a
-shadow falling low over the fields. He went with no eagerness towards
-the house of his mother. This was Sunday, and it was her custom to
-spend a large portion of the Sabbath in speaking of her neighbors. But
-she would never say anything about his father, even though Ned Brennan
-would not be in the house.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI
-
-
-Just now there happened something of such unusual importance in the
-valley that Mrs. Brennan became excited about it. The assistant teacher
-of Tullahanogue Girls' School, Miss Mary Jane O'Donovan, had left, and
-a new assistant was coming in her stead. Miss O'Donovan had always
-given the making of her things to Mrs. Brennan, so she spoke of her,
-now that she was gone, as having been "a _very_ nice girl." Just yet,
-of course, she was not in a position to say as much about the girl who
-was coming. But the entry of a new person into the life of the valley
-was a great event! Such new things could be said!
-
-On Monday morning Mrs. Brennan called her son into the sewing-room to
-describe the imminent nature of the event. The sense of depression that
-had come upon him during the previous day did not become averted as he
-listened.
-
-What an extraordinary mixture this woman who was his mother now
-appeared before his eyes! And yet he could not question her in any
-action or in any speech; she was his mother, and so everything
-that fell from her must be taken in a mood of noble and respectful
-acceptance. But she was without charity, and as he saw her in this
-guise he was compelled to think of his father and the incident of
-yesterday, and he could not help wondering. He suddenly realized that
-what was happening presently in this room was happening in every house
-down the valley. Even before her coming she was being condemned. It was
-beneath the shadow of this already created cloud she would have to live
-and move and earn her little living in the schoolhouse of Tullahanogue.
-John Brennan began to have some pity for the girl.
-
-Ned Brennan now appeared at the door leading to the kitchen and
-beckoned to his wife. She went at his calling, and John noticed that at
-her return some part of her had fallen away. His father went from the
-house whistling at a pitch that was touched with delight.
-
-"Where is my father bound for?"
-
-"He's gone to Garradrimna, John, to order lead for the roof of the
-school. The valley behind the chimney is leaking again and he has to
-cobble it. 'Tis the great bother he gets with that roof, whatever sort
-it is. Isn't it a wonder now that Father O'Keeffe wouldn't put a new
-one on it, and all the money he gets so handy ...?"
-
-"My father seems to be always at that roof. He used to be at it when I
-was going to school there."
-
-The words of her son came to Mrs. Brennan's ears with a sound of sad
-complaint. It caused her to glimpse momentarily all the villainy of Ned
-Brennan towards her through all the years, and of how she had borne
-it for the sake of John. And here was John before her now becoming
-reverently magnified in that part of her mind which was a melting
-tenderness. It was him she must now save from the valley which had
-ruined her man. Thus was she fearful again and the heart within her
-caused to become troubled and to rush to and fro in her breast like
-rushing water. Then, as if her whole will was sped by some fearful
-ecstasy, she went on to talk in her accustomed way of every one around
-her, including the stranger who had not yet come to the valley.
-
-It was on the evening of this day that Rebecca Kerr, the new assistant
-teacher, came through the village of Garradrimna to the valley of
-Tullahanogue. Paddy McCann drove McDermott's hackney car down past
-the old castle of the De Lacys. It carried her as passenger from
-Mullaghowen, with her battered trunk strapped over the well. The group
-of spitting idlers crowding around Brannagan's loudly asserted so much
-as Paddy McCann and his cargo loomed out of the shadows beneath the
-old castle and swung into the amazing realities of the village. It was
-just past ten o'clock and the mean place now lay amid the enclosing
-twilight. The conjunctive thirsts for drink and gossip which come at
-this hour had attacked the ejected topers, and their tongues began to
-water about the morsel now placed before them.
-
-A new schoolmistress, well, well! Didn't they change them shocking
-often in Tullahanogue? And quare-looking things they were too, every
-one of them. And here was another one, not much to look at either. They
-said this as she came past. And what was her name? "Kerr is her name!"
-said some one who had heard it from the very lips of Father O'Keeffe
-himself.
-
-"Rebecca Kerr is her name," affirmed Farrell McGuinness, who had just
-left a letter for her at the Presbytery.
-
-"Rebecca what? Kerr--Kerr--Kerr, is it?" sputtered Padna Padna; "what
-for wouldn't it be _Carr_ now, just common and simple? But of course
-_Kerr_ has a ring of the quality about it. _Kerr_, be God!"
-
-These were the oracles of Garradrimna who were now speaking of her
-thus. But she had no thought of them at all as she glanced hurriedly
-at the shops and puzzled her brains to guess where the best draper's
-shop might be. She had a vague, wondering notion as to where she might
-get all those little things so necessary for a girl. She had a fleeting
-glimpse of herself standing outside one of those worn counters she was
-very certain existed somewhere in the village, talking ever so much
-talk with the faded girl who dispensed the vanities of other days, or
-else exchanging mild confidences with the vulgar and ample mistress of
-the shop, who was sure to be always floating about the place immensely.
-Yes, just there was the very shop with its brave selection from the
-fashions of yester-year in the fly-blown windows.
-
-And there was the Post Office through which her letters to link her
-with the outer world would come and go. She quickly figured the old
-bespectacled postmistress, already blinded partially, and bent from
-constant, anxious scrutiny, poring exultantly over the first letters
-that might be sent to "Miss Rebecca Kerr," and examining the postmark.
-Then the quality and gender of the writing, and being finally troubled
-exceedingly as to the person it could have come from--sister, mother,
-brother, father, friend, or "boy." Even although the tall candles of
-Romance had long since guttered and gone out amid the ashes of her
-mind the assaulting suspicion that it was from "a boy" would drive
-her to turn the letter in her hand and take a look at the flap. Then
-the temptation that was a part of her life would prove too strong
-for her and a look of longing would come into the dull eyes as she
-went hobbling into the kitchen to place it over the boiling kettle and
-so embark it upon its steamy voyage to discovery. In a few minutes
-she would be reading it, her hands trembling as she chuckled in
-her obscene glee at all the noble sentiments it might contain. The
-subsequent return of the letter to the envelope after the addition of
-some gum from a penny bottle if the old sticking did not suffice. Her
-interludiary sigh of satisfaction when she remembered that one could
-re-stick so many opened envelopes with a penny bottle of gum by using
-it economically. The inevitable result of this examination, a superior
-look of wisdom upon the withered face when the new schoolmistress,
-Rebecca Kerr, came for the first time into the office to ask for a
-letter from her love.... But so far in her life she had formed no deep
-attachment.
-
-It was thus and thus that Rebecca Kerr ran through her mind a few
-immediate sketchy realizations of this village in Ireland. She had
-lived in others, and this one could not be so very different....
-There now was the butcher's stall, kept filthily, where she might
-buy her bit of beef or mutton occasionally. She caught a glimpse of
-the victualler standing with his dirty wife amid the strong-smelling
-meat. The name above the door was that of the publichouse immediately
-beside it. A little further on, upon the same side, was the newsagent's
-and stationer's, where they sold sweets and everything. It was here
-she might buy her notepaper to write to her own people in Donegal,
-or else to some of her college friends with whom she still kept up
-a correspondence. And here also she might treat herself, on rare
-occasions, to a box of cheap chocolates, or to some of the injurious,
-colored sweets which always gave her the toothache, presenting the most
-of them, perhaps, to some child to whom she had taken a fancy.
-
-By little bits like these, which formed a series of flashes, she saw
-some aspects of the life she might lead here. Each separate flash left
-something of an impression before it went out of her mind.
-
-The jingling car swung on past the various groups upon the street,
-each group twisting its head as one man to observe the spectacle of
-her passing. "That's the new schoolmistress!" "There she is, begad!"
-"I heard Paddy McCann saying she was coming this evening!" She was
-now in line with the famous house of Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man.
-She knew from the look of it that it was here she must buy her few
-groceries, for this was the principal house in Garradrimna and, even so
-far as she, the octopus of Gombeenism was sure to extend itself. To be
-sure, the gombeen-man would be the father of a family, for it is the
-clear duty of such pillars of the community to rear up a long string
-of patriots. If those children happened to be of school-going age, it
-was certain they would not be sent to even the most convenient school
-unless the teachers dealt in the shop. This is how gombeenism is made
-to exercise control over National Education. Anyhow Rebecca Kerr was
-very certain that she must enter the various-smelling shop to discuss
-the children with the gombeen-man's wife.
-
-It was indeed a dreary kind of life that she would be compelled to lead
-in this place, and, as she passed the pretty chapel, which seemed to
-stand up in the sight of Heaven as excuse for the affront that was
-Garradrimna, she had a strange notion how she must go there sometimes
-to find respite from the relentless crush of it all. On bitter
-evenings, when her mind should ring with the mean tumults of the life
-around her, it was there only she might go and, slipping in through the
-dim vestibule where there were many mortuary cards to remind her of
-all the dead, she would walk quickly to the last pew and, bending her
-throbbing head, pour out her soul in prayer with the aid of her little
-mother-of-pearl rosary.... They had gone a short distance past the
-chapel and along the white road towards the valley.
-
-"This is the place," said Paddy McCann.
-
-She got down from the car wearily, and McCann carried her battered
-trunk into the house of Sergeant McGoldrick which had been assigned as
-her lodging by Father O'Keeffe. He emerged with a leer of expectation
-upon his countenance, and she gave him a shilling from her little
-possessions. At the door she was compelled to introduce herself.
-
-"So you are the new teacher. Well, begad! The missus is up in the
-village. Come in. Begad!"
-
-He stood there, a big, ungainly man, at his own door as he gave the
-invitation, a squalling baby in his arms, and in went Rebecca Kerr,
-into the sitting-room where Mrs. McGoldrick made clothes for the
-children. The sergeant proceeded to do his best to be entertaining. She
-knew the tribe. He remained smoking his great black pipe and punctuated
-the squalls of the baby by spitting huge volumes of saliva which hit
-the fender with dull thuds.
-
-"It's a grand evening in the country," said Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-"Yes, a nice evening surely," said Rebecca Kerr.
-
-"Oh, it was a grand, lovely day in the country, the day. I was out in
-the country all through the day. I was collecting the census of the
-crops, so I was; a difficult and a critical job, I can tell you!"
-
-With an air of pride he took down the books of lists and showed her
-the columns of names and particulars.... It was stupidly simple. Yet
-here was this hulk of a man expanding his chest because of his childish
-achievement. He had even stopped smoking and spitting to give space
-to his own amazement, and the baby had ceased mewling to marvel in
-infantile wonder at the spacious cleverness of her da.
-
-After nearly half an hour of this performance Mrs. McGoldrick bustled
-into the room. She was a coarse-looking woman, whose manner had
-evidently been made even more harsh by the severe segregation to
-which the wives of policemen are subjected. Her voice was loud and
-unmusical, and it appeared to Rebecca from the very first that not even
-the appalling cleverness of her husband was a barrier to her strong
-government of her own house. The sergeant disappeared immediately,
-taking the baby with him, and left the women to their own company. Mrs.
-McGoldrick had seen the battered, many-corded trunk in the hall-way,
-and she now made a remark which was, perhaps, natural enough for a
-woman:
-
-"You haven't much luggage anyway!" was what she said.
-
-"No!" replied Rebecca dully.
-
-Then she allowed her head to droop for what seemed a long while, during
-all of which she was acutely conscious that the woman by her side was
-staring at her, forming impressions of her, summing her up.
-
-"I don't think you're as tall as Miss O'Donovan was, and you haven't as
-nice hair!"
-
-Rebecca made no comment of any kind upon this candor, but now that the
-way had been opened Mrs. McGoldrick poured out a flood of information
-regarding the late assistant of the valley school. She was reduced to
-little pieces and, as it were, cremated in the furnace of this woman's
-mind until tiny specks of the ashes of her floated about and danced and
-scintillated before the tired eyes of Rebecca Kerr.
-
-As the heavier dusk of the short, warm night began to creep into
-the little room her soul sank slowly lower. She was hungry now and
-lonely. In the mildest way she distantly suggested a cup of tea, but
-Mrs. McGoldrick at once resented this uncalled-for disturbance of her
-harangue by bringing out what was probably meant to be taken as the one
-admirable point in the other girl's character.
-
-"Miss O'Donovan used always get her own tea."
-
-But the desolating silence of Rebecca at length drove her towards the
-kitchen, and she returned, after what seemed an endless period, with
-some greasy-looking bread, a cup without a handle, and a teapot from
-which the tea dribbled in agony on to the tablecloth through a wound in
-its side.
-
-The sickening taste of the stuff that came out of the teapot only added
-to Rebecca's sinking feeling. Her thoughts crept ever downward.... At
-last there came a blessed desire for sleep-sleep and forgetfulness of
-this day and the morrow. Her head was already beginning to spin as she
-inquired for her room.
-
-"Your room?" exclaimed Mrs. McGoldrick in harsh surprise. "Why, 'tis
-upstairs. There's only two rooms there, myself and the sergeant's and
-the lodger's room--that's yours. I hadn't time this week back to make
-the bed since Miss O'Donovan left, but of course you'll do that for
-yourself. The sergeant is gone up to the barracks, so I'll have to help
-you carry up your box, as I suppose you'll be wanting to get out some
-of your things."
-
-It was a cruelly hard job getting the trunk up the steep staircase, but
-between them they managed it. Rebecca was not disappointed by the bare,
-ugly room. Mrs. McGoldrick closed the door behind them and stood in an
-attitude of expectation. Even in the present dull state of her mind
-Rebecca saw that her landlady was, with tense curiosity, awaiting the
-opening of the box which held her poor belongings.... Then something of
-the combative, selfish attitude of the woman to her kind stirred within
-her, and she bravely resolved to fight, for a short space, this prying
-woman who was trying to torment her soul.
-
-She looked at the untidied bed with the well-used sheets.... What
-matter? It was only the place whereon the body of another poor tortured
-creature like herself had lain. She would bear with this outrage
-against her natural delicacy.
-
-In perfect silence she took off her skirt and blouse and corset. She
-let fall her long, heavy hair and, before the broken looking-glass,
-began to dally wearily with its luxuriance. This hair was very fair
-and priceless, and it was hers who had not great possessions. Her
-shining neck and blossomy breasts showed as a pattern in ivory against
-the background that it made.... Some man, she thought, would like to
-see her now and love her maybe. Beyond this vision of herself she could
-see the ugly, anxious face of the woman behind her. She could feel
-the discord of that woman's thoughts with the wandering strands of
-withering hair.
-
-No word had passed between them since they came together into the room,
-and Mrs. McGoldrick, retreating from the situation which had been
-created, left with abruptness, closing the door loudly behind her.
-
-With as much haste as she could summon, Rebecca took off her shoes and
-got her night-gown out of the trunk. Then she threw herself into the
-bed. She put out the light and fumbled in her faded vanity bag for her
-little mother-of-pearl rosary. There was a strange excitement upon her,
-even in the final moments of her escape, and soon a portion of her
-pillow was wet with tears. Between loud sobs arose the sound of her
-prayers ascending:
-
-"Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou
-amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace...."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII
-
-
-At tea-time Mrs. Brennan was still talking to John of the girl who was
-coming to the valley. Outside the day was still full of the calm glory
-of summer. He went to the window and looked down upon the clean, blue
-stretch of the little lake.... He had grown weary of his mother's talk.
-What possible interest could he have in this unknown girl? He took
-a book from a parcel on the table. With this volume in his hand and
-reading it, as he might his breviary at some future time, he went out
-and down towards the lake. On his way, he met a few men moving to and
-from their tasks in the fields. He bade them the time of day and spoke
-about the beauty of the afternoon. As they replied, a curious kind of
-smile played around their lips, and there was not one who failed to
-notice his enviable condition of idleness.
-
-"Indeed 'tis you that has the fine times!" "Indeed you might say 'tis
-you that has the fine times!" "Now isn't the learning the grand thing,
-to say that when you have it in your head you need never do a turn with
-your hands?"
-
-Their petty comments had the effect of filling him with a distracting
-sense of irritation, and it was some time before he could pick up any
-continued interest in the book. It was the story of a young priest,
-such as he might expect to be in a few years. Suddenly it appeared
-remarkable that he should be reading this foreshadowing of his future.
-That he should be seeing himself with all his ideas translated into
-reality and his training changed into the work for which he had been
-trained. Strange that this thought should have come into his mind with
-smashing force here now and at this very time. Hitherto his future had
-appeared as a thing apart from him, but now it seemed intimately bound
-up with everything he could possibly do.
-
-He began to see very clearly for the first time the reason for his
-mother's anxiety to keep him apart from the life of the valley. Did it
-spring directly from her love for him, or was it merely selfish and
-contributory to her pride? The whole burden of her talk showed clearly
-that she was a proud woman. He could never come to have her way of
-looking at things, and so he now felt that if he became a priest it was
-she and not himself who would have triumphed.... He was still reading
-the book, but it was in a confused way and with little attention. The
-threads of the story had become entangled somehow with the threads
-of his own story.... Occasionally his own personality would cease to
-dominate it, and the lonely woman in the cottage, his mother sitting in
-silence at her machine, would become the principal character.... The
-hours went past him as he pondered.
-
-The evening shadows had begun to steal down from the hills. The western
-sky was like the color of a golden chalice. Men were coming home weary
-from the labor of the fields; cows were moving towards field gates with
-wise looks in their eyes to await the milking; the young calves were
-lowing for their evening meal. The quiet fir trees, which had slept
-all through the day, now seemed to think of some forgotten trust and
-were like vigilant sentries all down through the valley of Tullahanogue.
-
-Suddenly the eyes of John Brennan were held by a splendid picture. The
-sweep of the Hill of Annus lay outlined in all the wonder of its curve,
-and, on the ridge of it, moving with humped body, was Shamesy Golliher,
-the most famous drunkard of the valley. He passed like a figure of
-destruction above the valley against the sunset. John smiled, for he
-remembered him and his habits, as both were known far and wide. He was
-now going towards a certain wood where the rabbits were plentiful.
-His snares were set there. The thin, pitiful cry of the entrapped
-creature now split the stillness, and the man upon the sweep of the
-world began to move with a more determined stride.... John Brennan, his
-mind quickening towards remembrance of incidents of his boyhood, knew
-that the cunning of Shamesy Golliher had triumphed over the cunning
-of the rabbits. Their hot little eager bodies must soon be sold for
-eightpence apiece and the money spent on porter in Garradrimna. It was
-strange to think of this being the ultimate fate of the rabbits that
-had once frisked so innocently over the green spaces of the woods....
-He listened, with a slight turn of regret stirring him, until the last
-squeal had been absorbed by the stillness. Then he arose and prepared
-to move away from the lake. He was being filled by a deadly feeling of
-sadness. Hitherto the continuous adventure of adolescence had sustained
-him, but now he was a man and thinking of his future.
-
-On his way across the sweep of the hill he encountered Shamesy
-Golliher. The famous drunkard was laden with the rabbits he had just
-taken from the snares. The strength of his thirst had also begun to
-attack him, so that by reason of both defects his legs now bent under
-him weakly as he walked. Yet his attitude did not suggest defeat, for
-he had never failed to maintain his reputation in the valley. He was
-the local bard, the satiric poet of the neighborhood. He was the only
-inhabitant of the valley who continually did what he pleased, for he
-throve within the traditional Gaelic dread of satire. No matter how he
-debased himself no man or woman dared talk of it for fear they might be
-made the subject of a song to be ranted in the taprooms of Garradrimna.
-And he was not one to respect the feelings of those whom he put into
-his rimes, for all of them were conceived in a mood of ribald and
-malignant glee.
-
-"Me sound man John, how are ye?" he said, extending a white, nervous
-hand.
-
-"I'm very well, thanks; and how are you, Shamesy?"
-
-"Ah, just only middling. I don't look the very best. You'll excuse me
-not being shaved. But that's on account of the neuralgia. God blast it!
-it has me near killed. It has the nerves destroyed on me. Look at me
-hand." ... It was the idiosyncrasy of Shamesy Golliher to assert that
-drink was no part of his life.
-
-Immediately he dropped into his accustomed vein. He gazed down the Hill
-of Annus and found material for his tongue. There were the daughters of
-Hughie Murtagh. They had no brother, and were helping their father in
-the fields.
-
-"Them's the men, them's the men!" said Shamesy, "though glory be to
-God! 'twill be the hard case with them when they come to be married,
-for sure you wouldn't like to marry a man, now would you? And for
-pity's sake will you look at Oweneen Kiernan, the glutton! I hear he
-ate five loaves at the ball in Ballinamult; and as sure as you're there
-that powerful repast'll have to be made the material for a song."
-
-A loud laugh sprang from the lips of Shamesy Golliher and floated far
-across the lake, and John Brennan was immediately surprised to find
-himself laughing in the same way.
-
-The rimer was still pursuing Oweneen down the field of his mind.
-
-"Aye, and I thank ye, ye'll see him doing his best after the new
-schoolmistress that's coming to us this evening. There's a great
-look-out, I can tell you, to see what kind she'll be. Indeed the last
-one wasn't much. Grand-looking whipsters, moryah! to be teaching the
-young idea. Indeed I wouldn't be at all surprised to see one of them
-going away from here sometime and she in the family way, although may
-God pardon me for alluding to the like and I standing in the presence
-of the makings of a priest!"
-
-John Brennan felt himself blushing ever so slightly.
-
-"And who d'ye think was in Garradrimna this evening? Why Ulick Shannon,
-and he a big man. Down to stop with his uncle Myles he is for a
-holiday. He wasn't here since he was a weeshy gosoon; for, what d'ye
-think, didn't his mother and father send him away to Dublin to be
-nursed soon after he was born and never seemed to care much about him
-afterwards; but they were the quare pair, and it was no good end that
-happened to themselves, for Henry Shannon and the girl he married,
-Grace Gogarty, both died within the one year. He in the full pride of
-his red life, and she while she was gallivanting about the country
-wearing mourning for him and looking for another husband that she never
-got before she went into the clay. Well, to make a long story short,
-Myles Shannon looked after the orphan, paying for his rearing and his
-education, and having him live as a gentleman in Dublin--until now
-he's a great-looking fellow entirely, and going on, I suppose, for
-Doctoring, or the Law, or some other profitable devilment like that.
-The Shannons were always an unlucky family, but maybe Ulick'll break
-the black curse, although I don't know, for he's the very spit and
-image of his father and able to take his drink like a good one, I can
-tell ye. This evening he came into McDermott's. There was no one there
-but meself, it being the high evening, so says he to me:
-
-"'What'll ye have?'
-
-"'Begad, Mr. Shannon,' says I, 'I'll have a pint. And more power to
-ye, sir!' says I, although I was grinning to meself all the time, for
-I couldn't help thinking that he was only the son of Henry Shannon,
-one of the commonest blackguards that ever disgraced this part of the
-country. You didn't know him, but your mother could tell you about him.
-You might swear your mother could tell you about him!"
-
-John Brennan did not notice the light of merriment which overspread the
-face of Shamesy Golliher, for he was looking down towards the hush of
-the lake, and experiencing a certain feeling of annoyance that this
-young man should be becoming gradually introduced to him in this way.
-But Shamesy was still speaking:
-
-"He stood me four pints and two glasses, and nothing would do him when
-he was going away but he should buy me a whole glass of whiskey. He's
-what you might call a gay fellow, I can tell you. And God save us!
-isn't it grand to be that way, even though you never earned it, and
-not have to be getting your drink like me be nice contriving among the
-small game of the fields?"
-
-They parted in silence, Shamesy Golliher going eastward towards
-Garradrimna and John Brennan in the opposite direction and towards
-his mother's house. His mind had begun to slip into a condition of
-vacancy when an accident happened to turn it again in the direction of
-religion. As he came out upon the road he passed a group of children
-playing between two neighboring houses. The group was made up of the
-children of two families, the O'Briens and the Vaughans. It was said of
-Mrs. Vaughan that although she had been married by Father O'Keeffe, and
-went to Mass every second Sunday, she still clung to the religion into
-which she had been born. Now her eldest child, a pretty, fair-haired
-boy, was in the midst of the O'Briens' children. Their mother was what
-you might call a good woman, for, although she had the most slovenly
-house along the valley road, she went to Mass as often as Mrs. Brennan.
-They were making the innocent child repeat phrases out of their prayers
-and then laughing and mocking him because he could not properly
-pronounce the long words. They were trying to make him bless himself,
-but the hands of little Edward could not master the gestures of the
-formula, and they were jeering at him for his ill-success. When he
-seemed just upon the verge of tears they began to ask him questions in
-the answers to which he would seem to have been well trained aforetime,
-for he repeated them with glibness and enjoyment.
-
-"What religion are ye?"
-
-"I'm a little black Protestant."
-
-"And where will ye go when ye die?"
-
-"I'll go to hell."
-
-"What's hell?"
-
-"A big place bigger than the chapel or the church, with a terrible,
-grand fire in it."
-
-"And what is it full of?"
-
-"It's full of little fellows like me!"
-
-This was the melancholy piece of catechism John Brennan was constrained
-to hear as he went past.
-
-It added the last wave of sadness to the gray mood which had been
-descending upon him by degrees since the beginning of the day.... He
-stood upon the road and listened for anything in the nature of a sound
-which might connect his mind with a thought that had some brightness.
-Although only a few days had elapsed since his return his ears were
-already beginning to redevelop that delicate perception of slight
-sounds which comes to one in the quiet places. He now heard a car come
-through Garradrimna and move a short distance down the valley road.
-That, he thought, should be Paddy McCann driving the new mistress to
-her lodging in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-The small realization held occupation of his mind as he went into the
-house of his mother. He was surprised to find that it was past ten.
-Still lonely as he went to his room, he thought once more of the kind
-invitation of Mr. Myles Shannon.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII
-
-
-Myles Shannon had ever borne a passionate grudge against Mrs. Brennan.
-He had loved his brother Henry, and he felt that she, of all people,
-had had the most powerful hand in instituting the remorse which had
-hurried him to his doom. Mrs. Brennan, on the other hand, believed
-firmly that Henry Shannon would have married her, and made of her
-a decent woman, but for the intervention of his brother Myles.
-Furthermore, she believed darkly in her heart that the subtle plan
-of the disastrous "honeymoon" had originated in the brain of Myles,
-although in this she was wrong. She thought of Henry as being never of
-that sort. He was wild and mad, with nothing too hot or too heavy for
-him, but he was not one to concoct schemes. So, when Henry died, Mrs.
-Brennan had thought well to transmit her hatred of the Shannon family
-to his brother Myles.
-
-Myles Shannon lived a quiet life there in his big house among the trees
-upon the side of Scarden, one of the hills which overlooked the valley.
-In lonely, silent moments he often thought of his brother Henry and of
-the strange manner in which he had burned out his life. With the end
-of his brother before him always as a deterrent example, he did not
-interest himself in women. He interested himself in the business of
-his cattle and sheep all through each and every day of the year. He
-did not feel the years slipping past him as he went about his easy,
-contented life, watching, with great interest, his beef and mutton grow
-up in the fields.
-
-The cattle in particular stood for the absorbing interest and the one
-excitement of his life. He looked upon his goings and comings to and
-from the markets at Dublin and at Wakefield in England as holiday
-excursions of great enjoyment.
-
-It was during one of his trips to England that he had met Helena Cooper
-at some hotel in Manchester. He was one to whom the powers of Romance
-had remained strangers, yet now, when they at last came into his life,
-it was with a force that carried away all the protection of his mind.
-He wanted some one to fill the loneliness of the big house on Scarden
-Hill, and so he set his heart upon Helena Cooper.
-
-He returned to the valley a different man. Quite suddenly he began to
-have a greater interest in his appearance, and it was noticed that
-he grew sentimental and became easy in his dealings. It began to be
-whispered around that, even so late in life, almost at the close of
-the middle period which surely marks the end of a man's prime, Myles
-Shannon had fallen in love and was about to be married.
-
-It was a notable rumor, and although it was fifteen years since the
-death of Henry Shannon, Mrs. Brennan, as one having a good reason to be
-interested in the affairs of the Shannon family, became excited.
-
-"Indeed it was high time for him to think of it," she said to a
-neighbor one Sunday morning, "before he turned into a real ould
-blackguard of a bachelor--and who d'ye say the girl is?"
-
-"Why, then, they say she's an English lady, and that she's grand and
-young."
-
-Mrs. Brennan was a great one for "ferreting-out" things. Once she
-had set her mind upon knowing a thing, there was little possibility
-of preventing her. And now she was most anxious to know whom Myles
-Shannon was about to marry. So when she saw the old bent postmistress
-taking the air upon the valley road later on in the day she brought her
-into the sewing-room and, over a cup of tea, proceeded to satisfy her
-curiosity.
-
-"There must be letters?" she said after they had come round to a
-discussion of the rumored marriage.
-
-"Oh, yes, indeed. There's letters coming and going, coming and going,"
-the old lady wheezed. "A nice-looking ould codger, isn't he, to be
-writing letters to a young girl?"
-
-"And how d'ye know she's young?"
-
-"How do I know, is it, how do I know? Well, well, isn't that my
-business? To know and to mind."
-
-"You're a great woman."
-
-"I do my duty, that's all, Mrs. Brennan, as sure as you're there. And
-d'ye imagine for a moment I was going to let Myles Shannon pass, for
-all he's such a great swank of a farmer? She _is_ a young girl."
-
-"Well, well?"
-
-"There's no reason to misdoubt me in the least, for I saw her photo and
-it coming through the post."
-
-"A big, enlarged photo, I suppose?"
-
-"Aye, the photo of a young girl in her bloom."
-
-"I suppose she's very nice?"
-
-"She's lovely, and 'tis what I said to myself as I looked upon her
-face, that it would be the pity of the world to see her married to a
-middling ould fellow like Myles Shannon."
-
-"And I suppose, now, that she has a nice name?"
-
-"Aye. It is that. And what you might call a grand name."
-
-A long pause now fell between the two women, as if both were
-endeavoring to form in their minds some great resolve to which their
-hearts were prompting them. The old postmistress delivered her next
-speech in a whisper:
-
-"Her name is Helena Cooper, and her address is 15 Medway Avenue,
-Manchester!"
-
-The two women now nudged one another in simultaneous delight. Mrs.
-Brennan ran the direction over and over in her mind as if suddenly
-fearful that some dreadful stroke of forgetfulness might come to
-overthrow her chance of revenge upon her false, dead lover through the
-great injury she now contemplated doing to his brother.... She made
-an excuse of going to the kitchen to put more water upon the teapot
-and, when she went there, scribbled the name and address upon the wall
-beside the fireplace.
-
-When she returned to the sewing-room the old postmistress was using
-her handkerchief to hide the smile of satisfaction which was dancing
-around her mouth. She knew what was just presently running through
-Mrs. Brennan's mind, and she was glad and thankful that she herself
-was about to be saved the trouble of writing to Miss Cooper.... Her
-hand was beginning to be quavery and incapable of writing a hard,
-vindictive letter. Besides that Mr. Shannon was an influential man in
-the district, and the Post Office was not above suspicion. She was
-thankful to Mrs. Brennan now, and said the tea was nice, very nice.
-
-Yet, immediately that the information, for which she had hungered since
-the rumor of Myles Shannon's marriage began to go the rounds, was in
-her keeping, Mrs. Brennan ceased to display any unusual interest in
-the old, bespectacled maid. Nor did the postmistress continue to be
-excited by the friendly presence of Mrs. Brennan, for she, on her part,
-was immensely pleased and considered that the afternoon had attained
-to a remarkable degree of success.... From what she had read of her
-productions passing through the post, she knew that Mrs. Brennan was
-the woman who could write the strong, poisonous letter. Besides, who
-had a better right to be writing it--about one of the Shannon family?
-
-Soon she was going out the door and down the white road towards
-Garradrimna.... Now wasn't Mrs. Brennan the anxious and the prompt
-woman; she would be writing to Miss Cooper this very evening?... As
-she went she met young couples on bicycles passing to distant places
-through the fragrant evening. The glamor of Romance seemed to hang
-around them.
-
-"Now isn't that the quare way for them to be spending the Sabbath?" she
-said to herself as she hobbled along.
-
-The Angelus was just beginning to ring out across the waving fields
-with its sweet, clear sound as Mrs. Brennan regained the sewing-room
-after having seen her visitor to the door, but, good woman though she
-was, she did not stop to answer its holy summons. Her mind was driving
-her relentlessly towards the achievement of her intention. The pen
-was already in her hand, and she was beginning to scratch out "a full
-account," as she termed it, of Mr. Myles Shannon for the benefit of
-Miss Helena Cooper, whoever she might be. Through page after page she
-continued her attack while the fire of her hate was still burning
-brightly through her will.
-
-It had been her immemorial custom to send full accounts abroad whenever
-one of the valley dwellers made attempts at assertion, but not one of
-the Shannons had so far offered her such a golden opportunity. For the
-moment she was in her glory.
-
-She announced herself as a good friend of this girl, whose name she
-had only heard just now. She wrote that she would not like to see Miss
-Cooper deceived by a man she had no opportunity of knowing in his real
-character, such as Mr. Shannon.
-
-Now it was a fact that Myles, unlike his brother Henry, had not been
-a notable antagonist of the Commandments. It was true, of course,
-that he was not distinguished for the purity of his ways when he went
-adventuring about the bye-ways of Dublin after a day at the cattle
-market, and people from the valley, cropping up most unexpectedly, had
-witnessed some of his exploits and had sent magnified stories winging
-afar. But he had ruined no girl, and was even admirable in his habits
-when at home in his lonely house among the trees.
-
-This, however, was not the Mr. Shannon that Mrs. Brennan set down in
-her letter to Helena Cooper. It was rather the portrait of his brother
-Henry, the wild libertine, that she painted, for, in the high moments
-of her hate, she was as one blinded by the ecstasy that had come upon
-her. The name of Shannon held for her only one significance, and, for
-the moment, it was an abysmal vision which dazzled her eyes.
-
-Soon there came a communication from Miss Cooper to Mr. Shannon
-which had the effect of nipping his green romance while it was still
-young.... It asked him was this true and was that true?... The easy,
-sentimental way he had looked upon the matter was suddenly kindled
-into a deeper feeling, and he thought of having the girl now at all
-costs.... He wrote a fine reply in justification. It was a clear,
-straight piece of writing, and, although it pained him greatly, he was
-compelled to admit that the statements about which Miss Cooper wished
-to be satisfied were no more than the truth in relation to a certain
-member of the Shannon family. But they related to his dead brother
-Henry and not to him.... He prayed the forgiveness of forgetfulness
-for the dead.... He volunteered the production of convincing proof for
-every statement here made in regard to himself.
-
-But the old lady at the Post Office had something to say in the matter.
-She had read Miss Cooper's letter, and as she now read the letter of
-Mr. Shannon she knew that should it reach her this girl must be fully
-satisfied as to his character, for his was a fine piece of pleading....
-But she could not let Mrs. Brennan have all the secret satisfaction for
-the destruction of his love-affair. The bitter woman in the valley had
-done the ugly, obvious part of the work, but she was in a position to
-hurry it to secret, deadly completion.... So that evening the letter,
-which it had given Myles Shannon such torture to write, was burned at
-the fire in the kitchen behind the Post Office.... He wrote to Helena
-Cooper again and yet again, but the same thing happened.... His third
-letter had turned purely pathetic in its tone. The old lady said to
-herself that it made her laugh like anything.
-
-At last he fell to considering that her affection for him could not
-have been very deep seeing that she had allowed it to be so strongly
-influenced by some poisonous letter from an anonymous enemy.... Yet
-there were moments when he knew that he could never forget her nor
-escape, through all the years he might live, from the grand dream her
-first tenderness had raised up in his heart. In its immediate aspect
-he was a little angry that the rumor of a contemplated marriage on his
-part should have gone abroad. But he had almost triumphed over this
-slight feeling of annoyance when there came to him, some month later,
-the "account" that had been written about him to Miss Cooper without
-a word of comment enclosed.... The old lady at the office had seen to
-that, for the letter accompanying it as far as Garradrimna had gone the
-way of Mr. Shannon's letters.... This had made her laugh also with its
-note of wonder as to why he had made no attempt to explain.... If only
-he would say that the statements made against him were all mere lies.
-Of course she did not believe a word of them, but she wished him to say
-so in a letter to her.... The Post Office was saved from suspicion by
-this second bit of destruction, although it had done its work well.
-
-The bare, scurrilous note caused a blaze of indignation turning to
-hatred to take possession of his soul which had hitherto been largely
-distinguished by kindly influences. He had his suspicions at once that
-it was the work of Mrs. Brennan.
-
-There was a letter of hers locked in a bureau in the parlor with other
-things which had been the property of his dead brother Henry. They were
-all sad things which related intimately to the queer life he had led.
-This old faded letter from Nan Byrne was the one she had written asking
-him for Christ's sake to marry her, now that she felt her misfortune
-coming upon her.... A hard look came into his eyes as he began to
-compare the weak handwriting. Yes, it was hers surely, beyond a shadow
-of doubt.... He locked this thing which had so changed the course of
-his life with the things of his brother.
-
-It was queer, he thought, that she, of all people, who should be prone
-to silence, had thought fit, after the passage of so many years, to
-meddle with dead things in the hope of ending other dreams which,
-until now, had lived brightly. He continued to brood himself into
-bitter determinations. He resolved that, as no other girl had come
-greatly into his life before the coming of Helena Cooper, no other one
-must enter now that she was gone. She was gone, and must the final
-disaster of his affections narrow down to a mere piece of sentimental
-renunciation? Strange, contradictory attitudes built themselves up in
-his mind.
-
-Out of his brooding there grew before him the structure of a plan. This
-woman had besmirched his brother, helping him towards the destruction
-of his life, for it was in this light, as a brother, he had viewed the
-matter always; and now, in her attempt to besmirch himself, she had
-spoiled his dream. He had grown angry after the slow fashion which was
-the way of his thought, but his resolve was now sure and deliberate.
-
-There was her son! He had just gone to some kind of college in England
-to prepare for the priesthood, and the antecedents of a priest must be
-without blemish. It was not the youth's fault, but his mother was Nan
-Byrne, and some one must pay.... And why should she desire to bring
-punishment of any kind upon him for his brother's sin with her? He had
-loved his brother, and it was only natural to think that she loved her
-son. And through that love might come the desolation of her heart. To
-allow the blossom to brighten in her eye and then, suddenly, to wither
-it at a blast. To permit this John Brennan to approach the sacred
-portals of the priesthood and then to cause him to be cast adrift.
-
-The thought of how he might put a more delicate turn to the execution
-of his plan had come to him as he journeyed down from Dublin with John
-Brennan. He knew that his nephew, Ulick, had lived the rather reckless
-student life of Dublin. Just recently he had been drawing him out. But
-he was no weakling, and it was not possible that any of those ways
-might yet submerge him. However, his influence acting upon a weaker
-mind might have effect and produce again the degenerate that had not
-fully leaped to life in him. If he were brought into contact with John
-Brennan it might be the means of effecting, in a less direct way, the
-result which must be obtained.
-
-It was with this thought simmering in his brain that Myles Shannon had
-invited John Brennan to the friendship and company of his nephew. When
-he had spoken of the Great War it was the condition of his own mind
-that had prompted the thought, for it was filled with the impulse of
-destruction.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX
-
-
-It is on his passage through the village of Garradrimna that we may
-most truly observe John Brennan, in sharp contrast with his dingy
-environment, as he goes to hear morning Mass at the instigation of
-his mother, whose pathetic fancy fails to picture him in any other
-connection. It is a beautiful morning, and the sun is already high.
-There is a clean freshness upon all things. The tall trees which form
-a redeeming background for the uneven line of the ugly houses on the
-western side of the street are flinging their rich raiment wildly
-upon the light breeze where it floats like the decorative garments of
-a ballet dancer. The light winds are whipping the lightness of the
-morning.
-
-The men of drink are already stirring about in anticipation.
-Hubert Manning is striking upon the door of Flynn's, the grocery
-establishment, which, in the heavy blindness of his thirst, he takes to
-be one of the seven publichouses of Garradrimna. He is running about
-like some purged sinner, losing patience at last hard by the Gate of
-Heaven. In the course of her inclusive chronicles his mother had told
-John Brennan the life history of Hubert Manning. For sixty odd years
-he had bent his body in hard battle with the clay, until the doubtful
-benefit of a legacy had come to change the current of his life. The
-fortune, with its sudden diversion towards idleness and enjoyment, had
-caused all the latent villainy of the man, which the soil had subdued,
-to burst forth with violence. He was now a drunken old cur whom
-Sergeant McGoldrick caused to spend a fortune in fines.
-
-"Just imagine the people who do be left the money!" said Mrs. Brennan,
-as she told the story.
-
-John Brennan passes on. He meets the bill-poster, Thomas James. His
-dark, red face displays an immense anxiety. He is going for his first
-pint with a pinch of salt held most carefully in his hand. His present
-condition is a fact to be deplored, for he was famous in his time and
-held the record in Garradrimna for fast drinking of a pint. He could
-drink twenty pints in a day. Hence his decline and the pinch of salt
-now held so carefully in his hand. This is to keep down the first pint,
-and if the operation be safely effected it is quite possible that the
-other nineteen will give him no trouble.
-
-Coming in the valley road are Shamesy Golliher and Martin Connell.
-In the distance they appear as small, shrinking figures, moving in
-abasement beneath the Gothic arches of the elms. They represent the
-advance guard of those who leave the sunlit fields on a summer morning
-to come into the dark, cavernous pubs of Garradrimna.
-
-On the side of the street, distant from that upon which John Brennan
-is walking, moves the famous figure of Padna Padna, slipping along
-like some spirit of discontent and immortal longing, doomed forever to
-wander. He mistakes the student for one of the priests and salutes him
-by tipping his great hat lightly with his little fore-finger.
-
-And here comes yet another, this one with speed and determination in
-his stride, for it is Anthony Shaughness, who has spent three-fourths
-of his life running away from Death.
-
-"Will you save a life; will you save a life?" he whispers wildly,
-clutching John by the arm. "I have a penny, but sure a penny is no
-good, sir; and I want tuppence-ha'penny to add to it for the price of a
-pint; but sure you won't mind when it's to save my life! I know you'll
-give it to me for the love of God!"
-
-This is a very well-known request in the mouth of Anthony Shaughness,
-and John Brennan has attended it so very often during the past few
-years as to deserve a medal for life-saving. Yet he now takes the
-coppers from his small store of pocket-money and gives them to the
-dipsomaniac, who moves rapidly in the direction of "The World's End."
-
-There is presently an exciting interlude. They are just opening up at
-Brannagan's as he goes past. The sleepy-looking barmaid has come to the
-newly-opened door, and makes an ungraceful gesture in gathering up her
-ugly dishevelled hair. A lout of a lad with a dirty cigarette in his
-mouth appears suddenly. They begin to grin at one another in foolish
-rapture, for it is a lovers' meeting. Through the doorway at which they
-stand the smell of stale porter is already assaulting the freshness
-of the morning. They enter the bar surreptitiously and John Brennan
-can hear the swish of a pint in the glass in which it is being filled.
-The usual morning gift, he thinks, with which this maiden favors this
-gallant lover of a new Romance.... There comes to him suddenly the idea
-that his name has been mentioned in this dark place just now.... He
-goes on walking quickly towards the chapel.
-
-
-The plan which Myles Shannon had originated was not lacking in
-subtlety. He foresaw a certain clash of character, between his nephew
-and the son of Nan Byrne, which must become most interesting as he
-watched it out of his malevolence. He could never, never, forget what
-she had done.... And always, beyond the desolation which appeared from
-concentration of his revengeful intentions, he beheld the ruins of her
-son.
-
-He often thought it puzzling how she should never have imagined that
-some one like him might be tempted to do at some time what he was
-now about to do. It seemed remarkable beyond all else that her mind
-should possess such an opaque oneness of purpose, such an extraordinary
-"thickness," to use the term of the valley.
-
-Yet this was a quality peculiar to the gentle hush of the grassy
-places. It seemed to arise from the removal of an intelligent feeling
-of humanity from the conduct of life and the replacement of it by a
-spitefulness that killed and blinded. It was the explanation of many
-of the tragedies of the valley. Like a malignant wind, it warped the
-human growth within the valley's confines. It was what had happened to
-Mrs. Brennan and, because of the action he was taking in regard to her,
-what was now about to happen to Myles Shannon. He seemed to forget, as
-he went about his vengeance, that subtlety is akin to humor, and that
-humor, in its application to the satiric perception of things, is the
-quality which constantly heals the cut it has made. He might certainly
-leave the mark of his vengeance upon Mrs. Brennan, but there was the
-danger of the weapon recoiling upon himself and his kinsman. It was a
-horrible plan indeed, this, of setting one young man to ruin another.
-It was such a conflict, with such an anticipated ending, as had shaped
-itself inevitably out of the life of the valley. Where life was an
-endless battle of conflicting characters and antagonized dispositions
-it seemed particularly meet that a monumental conflict should at last
-have been instituted.
-
-
-Ulick Shannon was finding the valley very little to his mind. But for
-the intervention of his uncle he was several times upon the point of
-returning to Dublin. Although it was for a rest he had come the place
-was too damnably dull. Garradrimna was an infernal hole! Yet he went
-there often, and it was remarkable that his uncle said never a word
-when he arrived home from the village, several nights, in a condition
-that was not one of absolute sobriety. On the contrary, he seemed to
-take a certain joyful interest in such happenings. His uncle often
-spoke of the young man, John Brennan, whom he desired him to meet, and
-it was surprising that this young man had not made the visit he had
-promised to the house among the trees.
-
-Myles Shannon was beginning to be annoyed by the appearance of this
-slight obstruction in the path of his plan. Had Mrs. Brennan forbidden
-the friendship he had proposed? It was very like her indeed, and of
-course she had her reasons.... But it would never do to let her triumph
-over him now, and he having such a lovely plan. He would go so far as
-to send his nephew to call at her house to make the acquaintance of
-Nan Byrne's son. It would be queer surely to see him calling at that
-house and inquiring for John Brennan when his father had gone there
-aforetime to see John Brennan's mother. But how was Ulick to know and
-view from such an angle this aspect of his existence?
-
-Yet, after all, the meeting of John Brennan and Ulick Shannon happened
-quite accidentally and upon such a morning as we have seen John in
-Garradrimna.
-
-Ulick had gone for a walk around that way before his breakfast. He was
-not feeling particularly well as he paused at the end of the valley
-road to survey the mean street of Garradrimna, down which he had
-marched last night with many a wild thought rushing into his mind as
-the place and the people fell far beneath his high gaze.
-
-His quick eye caught sight of something now which seemed a curiously
-striking piece in the drab mosaic of his morning. It was a little party
-of four going towards the chapel. The pair in front could possibly be
-none other than the bridegroom and his bride. It was easy to see that
-marriage was their purpose from the look of open rapture upon their
-faces. The bridesmaid and the best man were laughing and chatting gaily
-as they walked behind them. They seemed to be having the best of it.
-
-Ulick thought it interesting to see this pair moving eagerly towards
-a mysterious purpose.... He was struck by the fact that it was a most
-merciful thing that all men do not lift the veil of life so early as he
-had done.... The harsh, slight laugh which came from him was like the
-remembered laughter of a dead man.
-
-Now that his eyes were falling, with an unfilled look, upon the street
-along which the four had gone he began to see people who had been
-looking out move away from the squinting windows and a few seconds
-later come hurriedly out of their houses and go towards the chapel.
-
-The poor, self-conscious clod, who had dearly desired to marry the girl
-of his fancy quietly and with no prying eyes, amid the fragrance of
-the fine June morning, had, after all, succeeded only in drawing about
-him the leering attention of all the village. There were ever so many
-people going towards the chapel this morning. The lot was large enough
-to remind one of a Sunday congregation at either Mass, this black drove
-now moving up the laneway. Ulick Shannon went forward to join it.
-
-Coming near the chapel he encountered a young man in black, who wore
-the look of a student. This must be John Brennan, he thought, of whom
-his uncle had so repeatedly spoken. He turned and said:
-
-"Good morning! I'm Ulick Shannon, and I fancy you're Brennan, the chap
-my uncle has talked of so often. He has been expecting you to call at
-Scarden House."
-
-They shook hands.
-
-"Yes, I'm John Brennan, and I'm delighted to meet you. I have not
-forgotten your uncle's kind invitation."
-
-Together they entered the House of God.... Father O'Keeffe was already
-engaged in uniting the couple. Distantly they could hear him mumbling
-the words of the ceremony.... All eyes were upon the priest and the
-four people at the altar.... Suddenly Ulick giggled openly, and John
-Brennan blushed in confusion, for this was irreverence such as he had
-never before experienced in the presence of sacred things.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X
-
-
-Next day Ulick Shannon made a call upon John Brennan and invited him
-for a drive. Outside upon the road Charlie Clarke's motor was snorting
-and humming. Ulick had learned to drive a car in Dublin, and had now
-hired Mr. Clarke's machine for the day.
-
-"You see," he said airily, "that I have dispensed with the
-sanctimonious Charlie and am driving myself. Meaning no respect to you,
-Brennan, one approach to a priest is as much as I can put up with at a
-time."
-
-Mrs. Brennan had come to the window, which looked out upon the little
-garden wicket by which they were standing.... Her eyes were dancing and
-wild thoughts were rushing into her mind.... Here, at last, was the
-achieved disaster and the sight her eyes had most dreaded to see--her
-son and the son of Henry Shannon talking together as brothers.
-
-An ache that was akin to hunger seemed to have suddenly attacked her.
-Her lips became parched and dry and her jaws went through the actions
-of swallowing although there was nothing in her mouth. Then she felt
-herself being altogether obliterated as she stood there by the window.
-She was like a wounded bird that had broken itself in an attempt to
-attain to the sunlight beyond.... And to think that it had fallen at
-last, this shadow of separation from her lovely son. John came to the
-door and called in:
-
-"I'm going for a drive in the motor with Mr. Shannon, mother."
-
-These were his very words, and they caused her to move away towards
-the sewing-room with the big tears gathering into her eyes. From her
-seat she saw her son take up his proud position by the side of Ulick
-Shannon. There was something for you, now! Her son driving in a motor
-car with a young man who was going on to be a doctor, in the high noon
-of a working day, all down through the valley of Tullahanogue. If only
-it happened to be with any other one in the whole world. What would
-all the people say but what they must say?... She saw the two students
-laughing just before the car started as if some joke had suddenly
-leaped into being between them.
-
-Ned Brennan came into the room. He had been making an effort to do
-something in the garden when the car had distracted him from his task.
-Well, that was what you might call a grand thing! While he was here
-digging in his drought, his son, I thank ye, going off to drive in a
-motor with a kind of a gentleman. His mind went swiftly moving towards
-a white heat of temper which must be eventually cooled in the black
-pools of Garradrimna. He came into the room, a great blast of a man in
-his anger, his boots heavy with the clay of the garden.
-
-"Well, be the Holy Farmer! that's the grand turn-out!... But sure
-they're a kind of connections, don't you know, and I suppose 'tis only
-natural?"
-
-Great God! He had returned again to this, and to the words she feared
-most of all to hear falling from his mouth.
-
-"A curious attraction, don't you know, that the breed of the Byrnes
-always had for the breed of the Shannons. Eh, Nan?"
-
-Mrs. Brennan said nothing. It had been the way with her that she felt
-a certain horror of Ned when he came to her in this state, but now she
-was being moved by a totally different feeling. She was not without a
-kind of pity for him as she suddenly realized once more how she had
-done him a terrible and enduring injury.... As he stood there glowering
-down upon her he was of immense bulk and significance. If he struck her
-now she would not mind in the least.
-
-"And they're like one another too, them two chaps, as like as brothers.
-And mebbe they are brothers. Eh, Nan, eh; what happened the child
-you had for Henry Shannon? It died, did it? Why 'tis only the other
-night that Larry Cully came at me again about it in Garradrimna. 'I
-see you have your sons home about you,' says he, 'and that must be
-the great comfort to a man, your son John,' says he, 'and your son
-Ulick. Maybe ye never heard tell,' says he, 'that Grace Gogarty's child
-died young and that Henry Shannon bought his other son from his other
-mother-in-law to prevent it being a rising disgrace to him. Bought it
-for a small sum,' says he, 'and put it in the place of his lawful son,
-and his wife never suspected anything until the day she died, poor
-woman; for she was to be pitied, having married such a blackguard.' Is
-that true, is it, Nan?"
-
-Oh, Blessed Mother! this was even more terrible than the suspicion
-Marse Prendergast had put upon her. It seemed less of a crime that
-the little innocent babe should have been murdered in this house
-and buried in the garden than that her old, dead mother should have
-sold it to Henry Shannon. And how was she to know? Twenty-five years
-had passed since that time when she had been at Death's door, nor
-realizing anything.... And her mother had never told her.... It would
-be strange if she had gone digging at any time for the tiny bones of
-the little infant that had never been baptized. People passing the
-road might suspect her purpose and say hard things.... But sure they
-said hard things of her still after all the years. It was dreadful to
-think how any one could concoct a lie like this, and that no one could
-forget. Old Marse Prendergast knew well. Deep in her wicked mind, for
-twenty-five years, the secret had been hidden. It was a torture to
-think of the way she would be hinting at it forever.... And just quite
-recently she had threatened to tell John.
-
-Bit by bit was being erected in her mind the terrible speculation as
-to what really was the truth and the full extent of her sin. Yet it
-was not a thing she could set about making inquiries after.... She
-wondered and wondered did Myles Shannon, the uncle of Ulick, know the
-full truth. Why did not her husband drop that grimy, powerful hand? Her
-breasts craved its blow now, even as they had yearned long ago for the
-fumbling of the little, blind mouth.
-
-But he was merely asking her for money to buy drink for himself in
-Garradrimna. Hitherto this request had always given her pain, but now,
-somehow, it came differently to her ears. There was no hesitation on
-her part, no making of excuses. She went upstairs to the box which held
-her most dear possession--the money she had saved so well through all
-the years for the fitting-out of Ned to go proudly with her to attend
-the ordination of their son John. She opened the box with the air of
-one doing a deliberate thing. The money, which amounted in all to about
-five pounds, was still in the form in which she had managed to scrape
-it together. In notes and gold and silver, and even copper. Before this
-it would have appeared as a sacrilege on her part to have touched a
-penny of it, but now she had no thought of this kind. Ned wanted the
-money to purchase the means of forgetfulness of the great injury she
-had done him.
-
-She counted thirty pennies, one by one, into the pocket of her apron.
-This seemed the least suspicious way of giving it to him, for he had
-still no idea that she could have any little store laid by. It was
-hardly possible when one considered how much he drank upon her in the
-village.
-
-She came down the stairs in silence, and spoke no word to him as she
-handed over the money. His lips seemed to split into a sort of sneer
-as he took it from her. Then he went out the door quickly and down the
-white road toward Garradrimna.
-
-
-For the admiration and surprise of John Brennan, Ulick Shannon had
-been displaying his skill with the wheel. Soon the white, tidy houses
-beyond the valley were whizzing past and they were running down the
-easy road which led into the village of Ballinamult. They had moved in
-a continuous cloud of dust from Tullahanogue.
-
-Ulick said he was choked with dust as he brought the car to a
-standstill outside the "North Leinster Arms." He marched deliberately
-into the public bar, and John Brennan followed after with less sure
-footsteps, for it was his first appearance in a place of this kind.
-There was a little, plump girl standing up on a chair rearranging the
-bottles of whiskey and dusting the shelves.
-
-Ulick would seem to have already visited this tavern, for he addressed
-the girl rather familiarly as "Mary Essie." She looked at the young
-man impudently as she wheeled around to exhibit herself to the best
-advantage. Ulick leaned his elbows upon the low counter and gazed
-towards her with his deep, dark eyes. Some quite unaccountable thing
-caused John Brennan to blush, but he noticed that the girl was not
-blushing. She was more brazenly forcing her body into exhibition.
-
-Ulick called for a drink, whatever his friend Brennan would have, and
-a bottle of Bass for himself. It appeared a little wrong to John that
-he should be about to partake of a drink in a pub., for the "North
-Leinster Arms" was nothing more than a sufficiently bad public-house.
-He had a sudden recollection of having once been given cakes and sweets
-in an evil-smelling tap-room one day he had gone with his mother
-long ago to Mullaghowen. He thought of the kind of wine he had been
-given that day and immediately the name was forced to his lips by the
-thought--"Port wine!"
-
-When the barmaid turned around to fill their drinks the young men had
-a view of the curves of her body. John Brennan was surprised to find
-himself dwelling upon them in the intense way of his friend.
-
-Before they left Ulick had many drinks of various kinds, and it was
-interesting to observe how he expanded with their influence. He began
-to tell "smutty" stories to Mary Essie. She listened with attention.
-No blush came into her face, and her glad neck looked brazen.... John
-Brennan felt himself swallowing great gulps of disgust.... His training
-had led him to associate the female form with the angelic form coming
-down from Heaven. Yet here was something utterly different.... A vulgar
-girl, with fat, round hands and big breasts, her lips red as a recent
-wound in soft flesh, and looking lonely.
-
-He was glad when they regained the sunlight, yet the day was of such
-a character as creates oppression by the very height of its splendor.
-Ulick was in such a mood for talk that they had almost forgotten the
-luncheon-basket at the back of the car.
-
-Beyond Ballinamult they stopped again where the ruins of a moldering
-Abbey lay quietly surrounded by a circle of furze-covered hills....
-Ulick expanded still further with the meal, yet his discourse still ran
-along the old trail. He was favoring his friend with a sketch of his
-life, and it seemed to be made up largely of the women he had known
-in Dublin. Quite suddenly he said what seemed to John a very terrible
-thing:
-
-"I have learned a lot from them, and let me tell you this--it has been
-my experience that you could not trust your own mother or the girl of
-your heart. They seem to lack control, even the control of religion.
-They do not realize religion at all. They are creatures of impulse."
-
-Here was a sentiment that questioned the very fact of existence....
-It seemed dreadful to connect the triumph of love and devotion that
-was his mother with this consequent suggestion of the failure of
-existence.... Together they went across the grassy distance towards
-the crumbling ruin wherein the good monks of old had lived and prayed.
-And surely, he thought, the great spirit of holiness which had led
-men hither to spend their lives in penance and good works could not
-have departed finally from this quiet place, nor from the green fields
-beyond the rim of furze-covered hills.
-
-Yet upon his ears were falling the even, convincing tones of Ulick
-Shannon, still speaking cynically.
-
-"Behold," he was saying, "that it is to this place the younger
-generation throng on the Sabbath. Around you, upon the ruined and bare
-walls, you will observe not pious words, but the coupled names of those
-who have come here to sin."
-
-"And look at this!" he exclaimed, picking from a niche in the wall
-a long shin bone of one of the ancient monks, which possessed the
-reputed power of cures and miracles. For a moment he examined it with a
-professional eye, then handed it to John Brennan. There were two names
-scribbled upon it in pencil, and beneath them a lewd expression. Ulick
-had only laid hands upon it by the merest accident, but it immediately
-gave body to all the airy ideas he had been putting forth. There was
-something so greatly irreverent in the appearance of this accidental
-piece of evidence that no argument could be put forward against it. It
-was terrible and conclusive.
-
-The evening was far advanced when John Brennan returned home. His
-mother and father were seated in the kitchen. His father was drunk,
-and she was reading him a holy story, with an immeasurable feeling of
-despondence in her tones. John became aware of this as he entered the
-house.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI
-
-
-Rebecca Kerr had been ill for a few days and did not attend school
-until the Monday following her arrival in the valley. There she made
-the acquaintance of Mrs. Wyse, the principal of Tullahanogue Girls'
-School, and Monica McKeon, the assistant of Tullahanogue Boys' School.
-Mrs. Wyse was a woman who divided her energies between the education of
-other women's children and the production of children of her own. Year
-by year, and with her growing family, had her life narrowed down to
-the painful confines of its present condition. She had the reputation
-of being a hard mistress to the children and a harsh superior to
-her assistants. From the very first she seemed anxious to show her
-authority over Rebecca Kerr.
-
-In the forenoon of this day she was standing by her blackboard at the
-east end of the school, imparting some history to her most advanced
-class. Rebecca was at the opposite end teaching elementary arithmetic
-to the younger children when something in the would-be impressive
-seriousness of her principal's tone caused her to smile openly.
-
-Mrs. Wyse saw the smile, and it lit her anger. She called loudly:
-
-"Miss Kerr, are you quite sure that that exercise in simple addition is
-correct?"
-
-"Yes, perfectly certain, Mrs. Wyse."
-
-The chalk had slipped upon the greasy blackboard, making a certain 5
-to appear as a 6 from the distance at which she stood, and it was into
-this accidental trap that Mrs. Wyse had fallen. Previous assistants
-had studied her ways and had given up the mistake of contradicting her
-even when she was obviously in the wrong. But this was such a straight
-issue, and Rebecca Kerr had had no opportunity of knowing her. She
-came down in a flaming temper from the rostrum. Rebecca awaited her
-near approach with a smiling and assured complacency which must have
-been maddening. But Mrs. Wyse was not one to admit a mistake. Quick as
-lightning she struck upon the complaint that the exercise was beyond
-the course of instruction scheduled for this particular standard....
-And here were the foundations of an enmity laid between these two
-women. They would not be friends in any fine way through the length of
-all the long days they might teach together.
-
-Thus for Rebecca the first day in the valley school dragged out its
-slow length and was dreary and dreadful until noon. Then Monica McKeon
-came in from the Boys' School and they took their luncheon together....
-They went on chattering away until the door of the schoolroom was
-suddenly darkened by the shadows of two men. The three women arose
-in confusion as Master Donnellan called them to the door. There was
-a young man standing outside who presented a strong contrast to
-the venerable figure of the master. The latter, in his roundabout,
-pedagogic way, went on to tell how the stranger had strayed into the
-school playground and made himself known. He wished to show him the
-whole of the building, and introduced him as "Mr. Ulick Shannon, Mr.
-Myles Shannon's nephew, you know."
-
-The three female teachers took an immediate mental note of the young
-man. They saw him as neat and well-dressed, with a half-thoughtful,
-half-reckless expression upon his fine face, with its deep-set,
-romantic eyes. The few words he spoke during the general introduction
-appeared to Rebecca to be in such a gentle voice. There were some
-moments of awkward silence. Then, between the five of them, they
-managed to say a few conventional things. All the while those great,
-deep eyes seemed to be set upon Rebecca, and she was experiencing the
-disquieting feeling that she had met him at some previous time in some
-other place in this wide world. The eyes of Monica McKeon were upon
-both of them in a way that seemed an attempt to search their minds for
-their thoughts of the moment.
-
-Immediately he was gone Mrs. Wyse and Miss McKeon fell to talking of
-him:
-
-"He's the hateful-looking thing; I'd hate him like poison," said Monica.
-
-"Indeed what could he be and the kind of a father he had? Sure I
-remember him well, a quare character," said Mrs. Wyse.
-
-"I wonder what could have brought him around here to-day of all days
-since he came to Scarden?"
-
-This with her eyes set firmly upon Rebecca.
-
-Mrs. Wyse was not slow to pick up the insinuation.
-
-"Oh, looking after fresh girls always, the same as his father."
-
-"He's not bad-looking."
-
-"No; but wouldn't you know well he has himself destroyed with the kind
-of life he lives up in Dublin? They say he's gone to the bad and that
-he'll never pass his exams."
-
-Every word of the conversation seemed to be spoken with the direct
-intention of attacking certain feelings which had already begun to rise
-in the breast of Rebecca Kerr.... Her mind was being held fast by the
-well-remembered spell of his eyes.
-
-The afternoon passed swiftly for Mrs. Wyse. She was so engrossed by
-thought of this small thing that had happened that she gave wrong dates
-in another history lesson, false notes in the music lesson, and more
-than one incorrect answer to simple sums in the arithmetic lesson.
-
-Rebecca was glad when three o'clock and her freedom at last came. Out
-in the sunlight she would be able to indulge in certain realizations
-which were impossible of enjoyment here in this crowded schoolroom. The
-day was still enthroned beneath the azure dome. This was the period
-of its languorous yawn when it seemed to dream for a space and gather
-strength before it came down from its high place and went into the
-long, winding ways of evening.
-
-There were men engaged in raising sand from a pit by the roadside as
-she passed along. A pause in the ringing of their shovels made her
-conscious that they had stopped in their labor to gaze after her as she
-went.... Her neck was warm and blushing beneath the shadow of her hair.
-
-Her confusion extended to every portion of her body when she came upon
-Ulick Shannon around a bend of the road, book in hand, sauntering along.
-
-He saluted as she overtook him, and spoke of the pleasant
-afternoon.... She hoped he was enjoying his holidays here in the
-valley. He seemed to be spending the time very quietly. Reading?
-Poetry? Just fancy! _The Daffodil Fields_, by John Masefield. What a
-pretty name! Was he devoted to poetry, and was this particular poem a
-good one?
-
-"It is a great tale of love and passion that happened in one of the
-quiet places of the world," he told her with a kind of enthusiasm
-coming into his words for the first time.
-
-"One of the quiet places?" she murmured, evidently at a loss for
-something else to say.
-
-"Yes, a quiet place which must have been like this place and yet, at
-the same time, most wonderfully different, for no poet at all could
-imagine any tale of love and passion springing from the life about us
-here. The people of the valley seem to have died before they were born.
-I will lend you this poem, if you'd care to have it."
-
-"Oh, thank you, Mr. Shannon!" she said.
-
-They had wandered down a lane which led from the high road towards the
-peaceful fields beyond the little lake. This lane, he told her, was
-called "The Road of the Dead," and would afford her a short cut to her
-lodging at Sergeant McGoldrick's.
-
-For lack of anything else to say, she remarked upon the strangeness of
-this name--The Road of the Dead. He said it seemed a title particularly
-suitable. He went on to elaborate the idea he had just expressed:
-
-"Around and about here they are all dead--dead. No passion of any kind
-comes to light their existence. Their life is a thing done meanly,
-shudderingly within the shadow of the grave. That is how I have been
-seeing it for the past few weeks. They hate the occurrence of new
-people in their midst. They hate me already, and now they will hate
-you. The sight of us walking together like this must surely cause them
-to hate us still more."
-
-She was wondering that his words should hold a sense of consideration
-for her, seeing that they had been acquainted only such a short while.
-
-"This way leads from a graveyard to a graveyard, and they have a
-silly superstition that dead couples are sometimes seen walking
-here. Particularly dismal also do I consider this picture of their
-imagination. The idea of any one thinking us a dead couple!"
-
-As he said this her blushing cheek showed certainly that life was
-strong in her.... Upon the wings of his words grand thoughts had gone
-flying through her mind. All day she had been looking forward with
-dread to the yellow, sickly, sunlit time after school. And now to think
-that the miracle of this romantic young man had happened.... Both grew
-silent. Rebecca's eyes were filling with visions and wandering over a
-field of young green corn. They were dancing upon the waves of sunlight
-which shimmered over all the clean, feathery surface of the field. The
-eyes of Ulick were straying from the landscape and dwelling upon her
-deeply, upon the curves of her throat and bosom, and upon the gentle
-billows of her hair. Over all his face was clouding that mysterious,
-murky expression which had come as he gazed upon the little barmaid of
-the "North Leinster Arms" a few days previously.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII
-
-
-Rebecca wanted some light blouses. Those she possessed had survived
-through one summer, and it was all that could be expected of them. So
-one day she ran down to Brennan's, during the half hour allowed for
-recreation, to leave the order. When she entered the sewing-room Mrs.
-Brennan was busy at her machine. Her ever-tired eyes struggled into a
-beaming look upon Rebecca.
-
-The young girl, with her rich body, seemed to bring a clean freshness
-into the room. For a moment the heavy smell of the miscellaneous
-materials about her died down in the nostrils of Mrs. Brennan. But this
-might have arisen from a lapse of other faculties occasioned by her
-agreeable surprise. So here was the new teacher who had so recently
-occupied her tongue to such an extent. She now beheld her hungrily.
-
-Rebecca laid her small parcel of muslin upon the table, and became
-seated at the request of Mrs. Brennan.
-
-"That's the grand day, ma'am," said she.
-
-"'Tis the grand day indeed, miss," said Mrs. Brennan.
-
-"Not nice, however, to be in a stuffy schoolroom."
-
-"Indeed you might swear that, especially in such a school as
-Tullahanogue, with a woman like Mrs. Wyse; she's the nice-looking
-article of a mistress!"
-
-Rebecca almost bounded in her chair. She had fancied Mrs. Brennan,
-from the nature of her occupation, as a gabster, but she had not
-reckoned upon such a sudden and emphatic confirmation of her notion.
-Immediately she tried to keep the conversation from taking this turn,
-which, in a way, might bring it to a personal issue. But Mrs. Brennan
-was not to be baulked of her opportunity.
-
-She began to favor her visitor with a biography of Mrs. Wyse. It was a
-comprehensive study, including all her aspects and phases. Her father
-and his exact character, and her mother and what she was. Her husband,
-and how the marriage had been arranged. How she had managed to gain her
-position. Everything was explained with a wealth of detail.
-
-Rebecca out of the haze into which the garrulous recital had led her,
-spoke suddenly and reminded Mrs. Brennan of the passage of the half
-hour. Mrs. Brennan quickly fancied that the cause of the girl's lack of
-enthusiasm in this outpouring of information might have arisen from the
-fact that Mrs. Wyse had forestalled her with a previous attack. Thus,
-by a piece of swift transition, she must turn the light upon herself
-and upon the far, bright period of her young girlhood.
-
-Now maybe Miss Kerr would like to look through the album of photos upon
-the table. This was a usual extension of feminine curiosity.... Rebecca
-opened the heavy, embossed album and began to turn over the pages....
-There was a photo of a young girl near the beginning. She was of
-considerable beauty, even so far as could be discerned from this faded
-photo, taken in the early eighties. As Rebecca lingered over it, the
-face of Mrs. Brennan was lit by a sad smile.
-
-"She was nice, and who might she have been?" said Rebecca.
-
-"That was me when I was little and innocent," said Mrs. Brennan.
-
-Rebecca looked from Mrs. Brennan to the photo, and again from the photo
-to Mrs. Brennan. She found it difficult to believe that this young
-girl, with the long, brown hair and the look of pure innocence in the
-fine eyes, could be the faded, anxious, gossipy woman sitting here at
-her labor in this room.... She thought of the years before herself and
-of all the tragedy of womanhood.... There was silence between them for
-a space. Mrs. Brennan appeared as if she had been overpowered by some
-sad thought, for not a word fell from her as she began to untie the
-parcel of blouse material her customer had brought. There was no sound
-in the wide noontide stillness save the light fall of the album leaves
-as they were being turned.... Rebecca had paused again, and this time
-was studying the photos of two young men set in opposite pages. Both
-were arrayed in the fashions of 1890, and each had the same correct,
-stiff pose by an impossible-looking pedestal, upon which a French-gray
-globe reposed. But there was a great difference to be immediately
-observed as existing between the two men. One was handsome and of such
-a hearing as instantly appeals to feminine eyes. It was curious that
-they should have been placed in such contiguous contradistinction, for
-the other man seemed just the very opposite in every way to the one who
-was so handsome. It could not have been altogether by accident, was
-Rebecca's thought, and, with the intuition of a woman at work in her,
-she proceeded to lay the foundations of a romance.... Mrs. Brennan was
-observing her closely, and it grew upon her that she had been destined
-to bare her soul to this girl in this moment.
-
-"That was the nice young man," said Rebecca, indicating the one who,
-despite his stiff pose by the pedestal, looked soldierly with his great
-mustache.
-
-"Indeed he was all that," said Mrs. Brennan. "I met him when I was away
-off in England. He was a rich, grand young man, and as fond of me as
-the day was long; but he was a Protestant and fearful of his people to
-change his religion, and to be sure I could not change mine. For the
-sake of me holy religion I gave up all thoughts of him and married Ned
-Brennan, whose likeness you see on the other page."
-
-Rebecca lifted her eyes from the album and looked full at Mrs. Brennan.
-She wondered how much truth could be in this story. The dressmaker
-was a coarse woman and not at all out of place in this mean room. She
-imagined the heavy husband of her choice as a suitable mate for her.
-
-This sudden adoption of the attitude of a kind of martyr did not seem
-to fit well upon her. Rebecca could not so quickly imagine her as
-having done a noble and heroic thing for which she had not received
-sufficient beatification.
-
-Rebecca was still turning the leaves. She had hurried through this
-little pageant of other generations, and was at the last pages. Now
-she was among people of the present, and her attention was no longer
-held by the peculiarities of the costumes.... Her mind was beginning to
-wander. Suddenly she was looking down upon a photo in the older style
-and the anachronism was startling. Had it been placed in any other
-portion of the album she might not have so particularly noticed it. It
-was the likeness of a dark, handsome man on horseback.
-
-"Who was he?" she said, almost unconsciously.
-
-A flush passed over the face of Mrs. Brennan, but she recovered herself
-by an effort. She smiled queerly through her confusion and said:
-
-"Indeed 'tis you who ought to know that."
-
-"How should I know?"--Rebecca was amazed.
-
-"Don't you know Ulick Shannon?"
-
-It was now Rebecca's turn to be confused.
-
-Fancy this woman knowing that she had been talking just once with Ulick
-Shannon.... Evidently the tongue of this place had already begun to
-curl around her.
-
-"But this is not Ulick Shannon!" She blushed as she found herself
-speaking his name.
-
-"No, but it is the photo of his dead father, Henry Shannon."
-
-Mrs. Brennan heaved a great sigh as she said this. She rose from her
-seat by the machine and moved towards the place where Rebecca was
-bending over the album. She gazed down at the picture of the dead man
-with moist eyes.... There was silence between them now for what seemed
-a long time. Rebecca became alarmed as she thought that she might have
-overstayed the half hour. At the school the priest or the inspector
-might have called and found her absent from her post.
-
-She broke in abruptly upon Mrs. Brennan's fit of introspection, and
-gave a few hurried orders about the blouses.
-
-"Will you be giving me the making of your next new costume?" said Mrs.
-Brennan.
-
-"Well, I'm sorry--I don't think so. You see I have it being made
-already in Dublin."
-
-"In Dublin itself? Well, well! that'll be the great style."
-
-She felt it as an affront to her reputation that any one who lived in
-the neighborhood should patronize other places for their needs. She
-took such doings as exhibitions of spite and malice against her. And,
-somehow, she could not get rid of the idea now, although this girl
-evidently knew nothing of her history.
-
-She was seeing Rebecca to the door when John Brennan came up the little
-path. She introduced him, and told how he was her son and, with vanity
-in her tones, that he was going to be a priest.
-
-"That'll give her something to think of, with her slighting me be
-telling how she was having her costume made be another. A woman that's
-going to have a son a priest ought to be good enough to make for her,
-and she a whipster that's after coming from God knows where."
-
-The mind of Mrs. Brennan was saying this to itself as she stood there
-at her own door gazing in pride upon her son. Rebecca Kerr was looking
-up into his face with a laugh in her eyes. He was such a nice young
-fellow, she was thinking. John Brennan was blushing in the presence of
-this girl and glancing shyly at her hair.
-
-Suddenly she broke away from them with a laughing word upon her lips,
-ran out to the road, and down towards the school.
-
-"She's a very nice girl, mother."
-
-"Oh! indeed she's not much, John; and I knew well I wouldn't like her
-from the very first I heard tell of her coming."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII
-
-
-Large posters everywhere announced the holding of a concert in
-Garradrimna. As in many other aspects of life in the village, it was
-not given to John Brennan to see their full meaning. He had not even
-seen in Thomas James, who posted the bills, a symbolic figure, but only
-one whom disaster had overtaken through the pursuit of his passion. For
-many a year had Thomas James gone about in this way, foretelling some
-small event in the life of Garradrimna. Now it was a race-meeting or a
-circus, again an auction or a fair. All the while he had been slipping
-into his present condition, and herein lay the curious pathos of him.
-For he would never post like this the passing of his own life; he would
-never set up a poster of Eternity.
-
-It was curious to think of that, no poster at all of the exact moment
-amid the mass of Time when the Great White Angel would blow his blast
-upon the Shining Trumpet to awaken all Earth by its clear, wide ringing
-across the Seven Seas.
-
-John Brennan spoke to his mother of the concert.
-
-"The cheek of them I do declare, with their concert. People don't find
-it hard enough to get their money without giving it to them. Bits of
-shop-boys and shop-girls! But I suppose they want new clothes and
-costumes for the summer. I'll go bail you'll see them girls with new
-hats after this venture."
-
-"The bills announce that it is for the Temperance Club funds."
-
-"And them's the quare funds, you might say, and the quare club. Young
-fellows and young girls meeting in the one room to get up plays. No
-good can come of it."
-
-"Of course we need not attend if we don't like."
-
-"Ah, we must go all the same. If we didn't, 'tis what they would say
-mebbe that we hadn't the means, and so we must let them know that we
-have. It wouldn't be nice to see you away from it."
-
-"I have no desire to go, mother, I assure you. A quiet evening more or
-less will not matter."
-
-"But sure it'll be a bit of diversion and amusement."
-
-"Yes, that is exactly what I was thinking, so I didn't see anything
-very wrong in going or in supporting those who organized it. But if you
-don't care to go, it does not matter."
-
-"Ah, but wouldn't it be the quare thing to see your mother ignorant and
-not having a word to say about what was after passing to any one that
-would come in, and they knowing the whole thing? Now what you'll do for
-me, John, is this. You'll go into Phillips's this evening and get two
-of the most expensive tickets, one for yourself and one for me."
-
-John Brennan had a momentary realization of the pitiful vanity behind
-this speech. He remained thinking while she went upstairs for the price
-of the tickets, for that must be her object, he fancied, in ascending
-into the upper story. He could hear her moving a trunk and opening it.
-The sounds came to him with perfect clearness in the still room and
-struck him with a sense of their little mournfulness, even though he
-was quite unaware that his mother had secretly begun the destruction
-of a bright portion of her life's dream.
-
-In the evening he went to the village for the tickets.
-
-"It'll be a grand turn-out," said Jimmy Phillips, as he took in the
-money and blinked in anticipation with his one eye.
-
-"I'm sure," said John, as he left the little shop where you might buy
-the daily newspaper and sweets and everything.
-
-He strolled up the street towards the old castle of the De Lacys. The
-local paper, published at Mullaghowen, was never tired of setting down
-its fame. The uncouth historians of the village had almost exhausted
-their adjectives in relating the exploits of this marauding baron of
-the Normans who had here built him a fortress, from which his companies
-of conquering freebooters had sallied forth so long ago. Yet, as an
-extraordinary mistake on the part of those who concerned themselves so
-intimately with the life around them, they had altogether missed the
-human side of the crumbling ruin. Of what romances of knighthood it
-had once been the scene? Of what visions of delight when fair women
-had met cuirassed gallants? Of all that pride which must have reared
-itself aloft in this place which was now the resort, by night, of the
-most humble creatures of the wild? Not one of them had ever been able
-to fancy the thoughts which must have filled the mind of Hugh De Lacy
-as he drew near this noble monument of his glory after some successful
-expedition against the chieftains of the Pale.
-
-Through the thin curtain of the twilight John Brennan saw two figures
-stealing from the labyrinthine ways which led beneath the castle into
-what were known as "The Cells." These were dark, narrow places in which
-two together would be in close proximity, and it was out from them that
-this man and this woman were now stealing. He could not be certain of
-their identity, but they looked like two whom he knew.... And he had
-heard that Rebecca Kerr was going to sing at the concert, and also
-that Ulick Shannon was coaching the Garradrimna Dramatic Class in the
-play they were to produce, which was one he had seen at the Abbey
-Theater.... A curious thrill ran through him which was like a spasm of
-pain. Could it be this girl and this young man who had spoken with such
-disgusting intimacy of the female sex in the bar of the "North Leinster
-Arms" in Ballinamult ...? They went by a back way into the Club, where
-the rehearsals were now going forward.
-
-
-John Brennan was sitting stiffly beside his mother in the front
-seats. Around and about him were people of renowned respectability,
-who had also paid two shillings each for their tickets. The seven
-publicans of Garradrimna were there, some with their wives, some with
-their wives and daughters, and some with their wives and daughters
-and sisters-in-law. The Clerk of the Union continually adjusting and
-re-adjusting his lemon-colored gloves. The old bespectacled maid from
-the Post Office sitting near the gray, bullet-headed postmaster,
-whose apoplectic jowl was shining. They were keeping up a continual
-chatter and buzz and giggle before the rise of the curtain. The jaws
-of the ancient postmistress never ceased to work, and those hot words
-of criticism and scorn which did not sizzle outwardly from her lips
-dropped inwardly to feed the fire of her mind, which was a volcano in
-perpetual eruption.
-
-Mrs. Brennan sat in silence by the side of her son, in the pride of his
-presence, glad that he and she were here. She was as fine as any of
-them, for she kept fine raiment for such occasions. In the first place
-as an advertisement for her craft of dressmaker, and, secondly, to
-afford a cloak for her past, even as those among whom she sat cloaked
-their pasts in heavy garments of pride. Her attention was concentrated
-not so much upon the performance she was about to witness as upon the
-audience assembled to witness it. To her the audience was the concert,
-and, although she was speaking no word, she was as nervously observant
-as the old postmistress. She was concerned by the task before her, for
-would she not be in honor bound to "go over" all that passed to any one
-who might happen into the sewing-room next day, and lay everything bare
-with a searching and deadly analysis for her son John? Thus was she not
-distracted by the chattering and giggling, but perfectly at ease while
-her mind worked nimbly within the limits of its purpose.
-
-The mind of John Brennan was not enjoying the same contentment. He was
-a little excited by the presence of Rebecca Kerr on a seat adjacent.
-She had a place on the program, and was awaiting her time to appear.
-His eye was dwelling upon her hair, which lifted gracefully from her
-white neck in a smooth wave of gold. It was the fairest thing in this
-clouded place of human fumes, and the dear softness from which it
-sprang such a recess of beauty.
-
-The concert had at last begun. Harry Holton, the comic, was holding the
-stage and the audience was in convulsions. Harry Holton was a distant
-disciple of Harry Lauder. Having heard the funny Scotchman upon the
-gramophone he rather fancied that it was he who should have been Harry
-Lauder. In course of time, he had grown to think that it was Lauder and
-not himself who was doing the impersonation. His effort to be broadly
-Scotch, while the marks of the son of Erin were so strong upon him, was
-where, all unseen, his power to move towards laughter really lay. Yet
-the audience rocked its sides in crude mirth at this crude exhibition,
-and each man asked his neighbor was it not the funniest damned thing?
-The seven sleek publicans of Garradrimna threatened to explode.... John
-Brennan saw big beads of perspiration rise upon the comedian's brow and
-gleam in the sickly glare of the lamplight. Beyond the excitement, from
-behind the scenes, came a new sound--the popping of a cork--and through
-a chink in the back cloth he saw Ulick Shannon take his drink from
-the bottle.... Had Rebecca Kerr seen that as well as he or----. But
-his speculation was cut short by the exit of the comedian after many
-encores, amidst tumultuous applause.
-
-Next came Agnes McKeon, a near relation of Monica's and the
-schoolmistress of Ballinamult. Her big spectacles gave her the look of
-her profession, and although she sang well in a pleasing contralto, she
-appeared stiff and unalluring in her white dress, which was starched to
-a too strong resplendence. John heard two old maids with scraggy necks
-remarking, not upon the power of Miss McKeon's voice, but upon the
-extraordinary whiteness of her dress, and saying it was grand surely,
-but they anxiously wondered were all her garments as clean for they
-were ready to credit her with extreme slovenliness of habit.
-
-The play was the notable event of the evening. Although the work of a
-famous Abbey playwright, it had been evidently re-written for Harry
-Holton, who was the principal character. It was purely a Harry Holton
-show. Dramatic point and sequence were sacrificed to give scope to
-his renowned abilities. The other players would seem to have merged
-themselves to give him prominence. But the ladies had not merged their
-natural vanity. One in particular, who was supposed to represent an old
-woman of Ireland, wore an attractive dress which was in the prevailing
-fashion. It was the illiterate pronunciation of even the simplest words
-which chiefly amused John Brennan. Herein might be detected the touch
-of Ulick Shannon, who, in coaching the production, had evidently added
-this means of diversion for his own amusement. John fancied that his
-friend must be enjoying it hugely in there behind the scenes.
-
-When the play had been concluded by Harry Holton giving a few steps
-of a dance, John Brennan saw Rebecca moving towards the stage. He
-observed the light grace with which she went to the ordeal. Here was no
-self-consciousness, but instead that easy quietness which is a part of
-dignity.... It was Ulick Shannon who held aside the curtain allowing
-her to pass in upon the stage.
-
-"Well now, isn't that one the brazen thing?"
-
-This was the expression of opinion which came clearly from out the
-whispering and giggling. It was an unpardonable offense to appear in
-public like this without a certain obvious fluttering and fear which
-it was one of Garradrimna's most notable powers to create. It was a
-great flout. Even his mother was moved to nudge him, so unusual was the
-method of this strange girl, appearing in public before the place into
-which she had come to earn a living.
-
-But she was singing. Rebecca Kerr was singing, and to John Brennan
-this was all he wished to know. He trembled as he listened and grew
-weary with delight. He became nervous, as before some unaccountable
-apprehension, and turned to his mother. She was looking quizzically
-at the girl on the stage. But the stage to him was now a sort of haze
-through which there moved ever little dancing specks.
-
-The concert was over and his mind had not yet returned to realization.
-Rebecca had not come from behind the scenes. He moved with his mother
-out into the night, and, as they went, glanced around the corner of the
-hall. He saw Rebecca Kerr and Ulick Shannon standing within the shadow
-of the surrounding wood. He spoke no word to his mother as they went
-down the road towards the house in the valley.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV
-
-
-As if from the excitement of the concert, John Brennan felt weary next
-morning. He had been awake since early hours listening to the singing
-of the birds in all the trees near the house. The jolly sounds came to
-him as a great comfort. Consequently it was with an acute sensation
-of annoyance that there crowded in upon his sense of hearing little
-distracting noises. Now it was the heavy rumble of a cart, again
-the screech of a bicycle ridden by Farrell McGuinness on his way to
-Garradrimna for the letters of his rounds; and, continually, the hard
-rasp of nailed boots upon the gravel of the road.
-
-His mother was moving about in the sewing-room beneath. He could hear
-the noise made by her scissors as, from time to time, she laid it down
-and picked it up again, while, mingled with these actions, occasionally
-came up to him the little, unmusical song of the machine. His father
-was still snoring.
-
-Last night Rebecca Kerr had shone in his eyes.... But how exactly had
-she appeared before the eyes of Garradrimna and the valley? After what
-manner would she survive the strong blast of talk? The outlook of his
-mother would be representative of the feeling which had been created.
-Yet he felt that it would be repugnant to him to speak with his mother
-of Rebecca Kerr. There would be that faded woman, looking at him with
-a kind of loving anxiety which seemed always to have the effect of
-crushing him back relentlessly towards the realities of the valley and
-his own reality. After his thoughts of last night and this morning he
-hated to face his mother.
-
-When at last he went down into the room where she sat sewing he had
-such an unusual look in his eyes as seemed to require the solace of an
-incident to fill it. If he had expected to find a corresponding look
-upon his mother's face he was disappointed. It seemed to wear still the
-quizzical expression of last night, and a slight curl at the corners
-of her mouth told that her mind was being sped by some humorous or
-satirical impulse.
-
-"Whatever was the matter with you last night, John?" she asked.
-
-She did not give him time to frame an answer, but went on:
-
-"And I dying down dead to talk to you about the concert, I could not
-get you to speak one word to me and we coming home."
-
-He noticed that she was in good heart, and, although it was customary
-with him to be pleased to see his mother in a mood of gladness, he
-could not enter into laughter and gossip with her now.
-
-But she could not be silent. This small expedition into the outer world
-of passing events was now causing her mind to leap, with surprising
-agility, from topic to topic.... Yet what was striking John more than
-her talk, and with a more arresting realization, was, that although
-the hour of his Mass-going was imminent, she was not reminding him or
-urging him to remembrance of the good custom.... At last he was driven
-by some scruple to remind her of the time, and it was her answer that
-finally amazed him:
-
-"Ah, sure you mightn't go to-day, John. You're tired and all to that, I
-know, and I want to tell you.... He! he! he! Now wasn't it the funniest
-thing to see the schoolmistress of Ballinamult and the schoolmistress
-of Tullahanogue and they up upon the one stage with Harry Holton's
-dramatics making sport for a lot of grinning idiots? Like a couple of
-circus girls they were, the brazen things! Indeed Miss Kerr is the
-bold-looking hussy, with not a bit of shame in her at all. But sure
-we may say she fell among her equals, for there wasn't much class
-connected with it anyhow."
-
-"I think Ulick Shannon was knocking about the stage."
-
-The words strayed, without much sense of meaning or direction, out of
-the current of his musing, but they produced a swift and certain effect
-upon Mrs. Brennan. Her eyes seemed to cloud suddenly behind her glasses.
-
-"Aye ... I wonder who was the girl he went off with through the wood as
-we came out. Never fear it was the new schoolmistress."
-
-She said this with a curious, dead quietness in her tones, and when she
-had spoken she seemed instantly sorry that the words had slipped from
-her lips.... It seemed a queer thing to say to her son and he going on
-to be a priest.
-
-John thought it very strange that she too should have observed this
-incident, which he had imagined must have been hidden from all eyes
-save his own. He now wondered how many more must have seen it as he
-tried to recall the sensations with which it had filled him.... But
-beyond this remarkable endeavor of his mind his mother was again
-speaking:
-
-"If you went now, you'd be in time for half-past eight Mass."
-
-He did not fail to notice the immediate change which had taken place in
-her, and wondered momentarily what could have been its sudden cause.
-He was beginning to notice of late that she had grown more and more
-subject to such unaccountable fits.
-
-In his desire to obey her he was still strong, but, this morning, as he
-walked along to Garradrimna he was possessed by a certain feeling of
-annoyance which seemed to strain the bond that stretched between them.
-
-In the chapel he knelt beside Charlie Clarke, like the voteens around
-them, with a lifeless acquiescence in the ceremony. He was here not
-because his heart was here, but merely because his mother had wished
-it. When his lips moved, in mechanical mimicry of the priest, he felt
-that the way of the hypocrite must be hard and lonely.
-
-When he came out, upon the road he was confused to find himself face
-to face with Rebecca Kerr. It seemed a trick of coincidence that he
-should meet her now, for it had never happened on any other morning.
-Then he suddenly remembered how his mother had kept him late from
-"eight o'clock" by her talk of the concert, and it was now Miss Kerr's
-school-going time.... She smiled and spoke to him.
-
-She looked handsome as she moved there along the road from the house
-of Sergeant McGoldrick to the Girls' School of Tullahanogue. She was
-in harmony with the beauty of the morning. There had been a dull pain
-upon his mind since he had last seen her, but already it was gone.
-
-Although the concert might appear as the immediate subject to which
-their minds would turn, this was not so. They began to talk of places
-and things away from Garradrimna.
-
-She spun for his amusement many little yarns of the nuns who conducted
-the college where she had been trained. He told her stories of the
-priests who taught in the English college where he was being educated
-for the priesthood. They enlarged upon the peculiarities of monastic
-establishments.
-
-"And you're going to be a priest?" she said, looking up into his face
-suddenly with dancing eyes.
-
-Such a question had never before been put to him in exactly this way.
-
-"I am.... At least, I think so.... Oh, yes!" he faltered.
-
-She laughed in a ringing, musical way that seemed to hold just the
-faintest trace of mockery in its tones, but it seemed, next instant,
-to be only by way of preface to another conventual tale which she
-proceeded to tell.
-
-Through the period of this story they did not notice that they were
-being stared at by those they were meeting upon the road.... As she
-chatted and laughed, his eyes would be straying, in spite of him, to
-that soft place upon her neck from which her hair sprang upward.
-
-It was with painful abruptness that she said: "Good morning, Mr.
-Brennan!" and went into the old, barrack-like school.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV
-
-
-When John regained the house he saw that his father's boots had
-disappeared from their accustomed place beside the fire. No doubt he
-had gone away in them to Garradrimna. He had not met him on the road,
-but there was a short way across the fields and through the woods, a
-backward approach to three of the seven publichouses along which Ned
-Brennan, some rusty plumber's tool in his hand and his head downcast,
-might be seen passing on any day.
-
-He did not go straight into the sewing-room, for the door was closed
-and he could hear the low murmur of talk within. It must be some
-customer come to his mother, he thought, or else some one who had
-called in off the road to talk about the concert. Immediately he
-realized that he was wrong in both surmises, for it was the voice
-of Marse Prendergast raised in one of its renowned outbursts of
-supplication.
-
-"Now I suppose it's what you think that you're the quare, clever woman,
-Nan Byrne, with your refusing me continually of me little needs; but
-you'd never know what I'd be telling on you some day, and mebbe to your
-grand son John."
-
-"Sssh--sssh--sure I'll get it for you when he goes from the kitchen."
-
-This last was in a low tone and spoken by his mother.
-
-"Mebbe it's what you're ashamed to let him see you giving to me.
-That's a grand thing now, and I knowing what I know!"
-
-"Can't you be easy now and maybe 'tis a whole shilling I'll be giving
-you in a few minutes."
-
-This was altogether too generous of his mother. It gave scope to Marse
-Prendergast to exercise her tyranny. Her threat was part of the begging
-convention she had framed for herself, and so it did not move him
-towards speculation or suspicion. His mind drifted on to the enjoyment
-of other thoughts, the girl he had just walked with down the valley,
-the remembered freshness of the morning road. He came out to the door.
-The little kitchen garden stretched away from his feet. An abandoned
-spade stood up lonely and erect in the middle of the cabbage-plot.
-Around it were a few square feet of freshly-turned earth. It was the
-solitary trace of his existence that his father had left behind.... As
-the mind of John Brennan came to dwell upon the lonely spectacle of the
-spade the need for physical exertion grew upon him.
-
-He went out into the little garden and lifted the rude implement of
-cultivation in his hand. He had not driven it many times into the soft
-clay of the cabbage-bed when a touch of peace seemed to fall upon him.
-The heavy burden that had occupied his mind was falling into the little
-trench that was being made by the spade.
-
-He had become so interested in his task that he had not heard his
-mother go upstairs nor seen Marse Prendergast emerge from the house
-some moments later.
-
-The old shuiler called out to him in her high, shrill voice:
-
-"That's right, John! That's right! 'Tis glad myself is to see you doing
-something useful at last. Digging the cabbage-plot, me sweet gosoon,
-and your father in Garradrimna be this time with his pint in his hand!"
-
-Mrs. Brennan had followed her to the door, and her cruelty was stirred
-to give the sore cut by reviving the old dread.
-
-"That's the lad! That's the lad! But mind you don't dig too far, for
-you could never tell what you'd find. And indeed it would be the quare
-find you might say!"
-
-He laughed as she said this, for he remembered that, as a child she
-had entertained him with the strangest stories of leprecauns and their
-crocks of gold, which were hidden in every field. The old woman passed
-out on the road, and his mother came over to him with a pitiful look of
-sadness in her eyes.
-
-"Now, John, I'm surprised at you to have a spade in your hand before
-Marse Prendergast and all. That's your father's work and not yours, and
-you with your grand education."
-
-The speech struck him as being rather painful to hear, and he felt as
-if he should like to say: "Well, what is good enough for my father
-ought to be good enough for me!" But this, to his mother, might have
-looked like a back-answer, a piece of impertinence, so he merely
-stammered in confusion: "Oh, sure I was only exercising and amusing
-myself. When this little bit is finished I'm going down to have a read
-by the lake."
-
-"That's right, John!" she said in a flat, sad voice, and turned back to
-her endless labor.
-
-He stopped, his hands folded on the handle-end of the spade, and fell
-into a condition of dulness which even the slightest labor of the body
-brings to those unaccustomed to it. All things grew so still of a
-sudden. There seemed to come a perfect lull in the throbbing, nervous
-realization of his brain from moment to moment.... He felt himself
-listening for the hum of his mother's machine, but it was another
-sound that came to him--the desolating sound of her lonely sobbing.
-She was crying to herself there now in the sewing-room and mourning
-forever as if for some lost thing.... There were her regular sobs,
-heavy with an eternal sadness as he listened to them. Into such acute
-self-consciousness had his mood now moved that he could not imagine
-her crying as being connected with anything beyond himself. He was
-the perpetual cause of all her pain.... If only she would allow him,
-for short spaces, to go out of her mind they might both come into the
-enjoyment of a certain freedom, but sometimes the most trivial incident
-seemed to put her out so. This morning she had been in such heart and
-humor, and last night so interested in the concert, and here now she
-was in tears. It could not have been the visit of Marse Prendergast
-or her talk, for there was nobody so foolish, he thought, as to take
-any notice of either. It must have been the digging and the fact that
-people passing the road might see him. Now was not that foolish of her,
-for did not Father O'Keeffe himself dig in his own garden with his own
-two blessed hands ...? But he must bend in obedience to her desire, and
-go walking like a leisured gentleman through the valley. He was looking
-forward to this with dread, for, inevitably, it must throw him back
-upon his own thoughts.
-
-As he came down past the school he could hear a dull drone from among
-the trees. The school had not yet settled down to the business of the
-day, and the scholars were busy with the preparation of their lessons.
-John stopped by the low wall, which separated its poor playground from
-the road, to gaze across at the hive of intellect. Curious that his
-mother should now possess a high contempt for this rude academy where
-he had been introduced to learning. But he had not yet parted company
-with his boyhood. He was remembering the companions of his schooldays
-and how this morning preparation had been such a torture. Still moving
-about the yard before his formal entrance to the school, was Master
-Donnellan. As John Brennan saw him now he appeared as one misunderstood
-by the people of the valley, and yet as one in whom the lamp of the
-intellect was set bright and high. But beyond this immediate thought
-of him he appeared as a man with overthrown ambitions and shattered
-dreams, whose occasional outbursts of temper for these reasons had
-often the effect of putting him at enmity with the parents of the
-children.
-
-Master Donnellan was a very slave of the ferrule. He had spent his
-brains in vain attempts to impart some knowledge to successive
-generations of dunces of the fields. It had been his ambition to be
-the means of producing some great man whose achievements in the world
-might be his monument of pride. But no pupil of his in the valley
-school had ever arisen as a great man. Many a time, in the long summer
-evenings, when the day would find it hard to disappear from Ireland,
-he would come quietly to the old school with a step of reverence,
-and going into the moldy closet, where all the old roll-books and
-register-books were kept, take them down one by one and go searching
-through the lists of names. His mind would be filled with the ringing
-achievements of men who had become notable in the world.... Not a
-trace of any of those famous names could he find here, however far he
-might search in all the musty books until the day had faded.... Then
-he would rely upon his memory in a further aspect of his search. He
-had not even produced a local great man. In his time no priests had
-come out of the valley. There was a strange thing now--no priests, and
-it was a thing that was always said by angry mothers and fathers when
-they called at the valley school to attack him for his conduct towards
-their children--"And you never to have made a priest or a ha'porth!"
-It was not the unreasonableness of their words that annoyed him, but
-rather the sense of impotence with which they filled him.... If only it
-would happen that he could say he had produced one famous man. A priest
-would be sufficiently fine to justify him in the eyes of the valley. It
-was so strange that, although he had seen many young men move towards
-high attainment, some fatality had always happened to avert his poor
-triumph. He thought of young Brennan as his present hope and pride.
-
-John went on towards the lake. When he came to the water's edge he
-was filled with a sense of peace. He sat down beneath one of the fir
-trees and, in the idleness of his mood, began to pick up some of the
-old dried fir-cones which were fallen beneath. They appeared to him
-as things peculiarly bereft of any sap or life. He gathered until he
-had a handful and then cast them from him one by one on the surface of
-the water. It seemed a surprising thing that the small eddies which
-the light splashes of them made rolled distantly to the shores of the
-little lake. He began to wonder would his life come to be like that--a
-small thing to be flung by the Hand of Fate and creating its little
-ripple to eddy to the far shores of Time.
-
-"Me sound man, John!"
-
-It was the voice of Shamesy Golliher coming from behind a screen of
-reeds where he had been fishing.
-
-"'Tis a warm day," he said, pushing back his faded straw hat from his
-brow, "Glory be to the Son of God!"
-
-This was a pious exclamation, but the manner of its intonation seemed
-to make it comical for John Brennan laughed and Shamesy Golliher
-laughed.
-
-"Now isn't them the clever, infernal little gets of fishes? The divil
-a one can I catch only the size of pinkeens, and I wanting to go to
-Garradrimna with a hell of a thirst!"
-
-"And is that all you have troubling you?" said John.
-
-"Is that all? Begad if it isn't enough after last night. If the priests
-knew all the drink that bees drunk at concerts in aid of Temperance
-Halls you wouldn't see a building of that kind in the country.
-
-"Now down with me last night to the concert with me two lovely
-half-pints of malt. Well, to make a long story short, I finished one
-of them before I went in. I wasn't long inside, and I think it was
-while Harry Holton was singing, when who should give me a nudge only
-Hubert Manning: 'Are ye coming out, Shamesy?' says he. He had two
-bottles of stout and a naggin, and we had them finished before Harry
-Holton had done his first song. I was striving for to crush back into
-me place when who should I knock against only Farrell McGuinness?
-He had a lot of bottles in his pocket. He seemed to have about four
-dozen of stout on his person, according to the noise he made: 'For the
-honor of Jases,' says he, 'will you not spill me porter?' But then
-when he saw it was me he had in it: 'Come to hell oura this,' says he,
-'into the night air.' I was so glad to see that he hadn't broken his
-bottles, I introduced th'other half pint. Sure he nearly swallowed
-it, bottle and all. Then we fell to at the porter, and such a bloody
-piece of drinking never was seen. And it wasn't that we had plenty of
-drink of our own, but strange people were coming running through the
-wood putting half-pints and naggins into our mouths just as if we were
-little sucking childer. I fell a corpse under a tree about eleven. I
-don't know how long I was insensible, but when I came to I had a quare
-feeling that I was in Hell or some place. I wasn't able to move an
-inch, I was that stiff and sick.... Somewhere near me I could hear two
-whispering and hugging in the darkness. They were as close as ever they
-could be. I couldn't stir to get a better look for fear they'd hear me.
-But there was quare goings on I can tell you, things I wouldn't like to
-mention or describe. Whisper, I'm near sure it was Ulick Shannon and
-the schoolmistress, Miss Kerr, or whatever the hell her name is----."
-
-Shamesy's sickening realism was brought to an abrupt end by the ducking
-of his cork, which had been floating upon the surface of the water.
-There was a short moment of joyous excitement and then a dying perch
-lay on the grass by the side of John Brennan.
-
-He viewed with sorrow that clean, shining thing wriggling there beneath
-the high heavens. Its end had come through the same pitiful certainty
-as that of the rabbits which had aforetime contributed to the thirst of
-Shamesy, who presently said with delight:
-
-"Now I have the correct number. I can sell them for sixpence in 'The
-World's End,' and you'd never know the amount of good drink that
-sixpence might bring."
-
-He prepared to take his departure, but ere he went across the hill he
-turned to John and said:
-
-"That was the fine walk you were doing with Ulick Shannon's girl this
-morning! She was in great form after last night."
-
-He said it with such a leer of suggestion as cast John, still blushing,
-back into his gloom.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI
-
-
-Last night and this morning, what Shamesy Golliher had told him of
-last night and said of the walk with Rebecca this morning--all this
-was now recurring clearly to his mind, although Shamesy had long since
-disappeared across the sweep of the hill on his way to Garradrimna.
-
-Mrs. Brennan had so recently reminded her son of his coming exaltation
-that the suggestion was now compelling him beyond the battle of his
-thought to picture himself as a priest ordained. Yet an immense gulf of
-difference still separated him from the condition of Father O'Keeffe,
-for instance. His thought had been further helped to move this way by
-the sudden appearance of Father O'Keeffe riding along The Road of the
-Dead.
-
-John did not see the man as he really was. Yet it was the full reality
-of him that was exercising a subconscious influence upon his mind and
-helping, with other things, to turn his heart away from the priesthood.
-
-
-Father O'Keeffe came directly from that class so important in
-Ireland--the division of the farmer class which has come to be known as
-"The Grabbers." The word "grabber" had not been invented to describe a
-new class, but rather to denote the remarkable character of a class
-already in existence. That was their innermost nature, these farmers,
-to be close-fisted and to guard with an almost savage tenacity those
-possessions to which they had already attained. It was notable also
-that they were not too careful or particular as to the means they
-employed to come into possession. This was the full answer to the
-question why so many of them put a son on for the Church. It was a
-double reason, to afford a means of acquiring still further and to be
-as an atonement in the sight of Heaven for the means they had used in
-acquiring thus far. This at once appeared amazingly true if one applied
-it to the case of Father O'Keeffe, who could on occasion put on such a
-look of remoteness from this world, that it was difficult to set about
-analyzing him by any earthly standard. Yet, among all the _pedigrees_
-she had read for him, as a notable example in Mrs. Brennan's crowd
-of examples, had continually appeared and re-appeared this family of
-O'Keeffe. His mother had always endeavored to fix firmly in his mind
-the wonder of their uprise. It was through the gates of the Church
-that the O'Keeffes had gone to their enjoyment. No doubt they had
-denied themselves to educate this Louis O'Keeffe who had become P.P. of
-Garradrimna, but their return had been more than satisfying. There was
-now no relation of his to the most distant degree of blood who did not
-possess great comfort and security in the land.
-
-At bottom Father O'Keeffe was still a man of the clay and loved the
-rich grass and the fine cattle it produced. He had cattle in every
-quarter of the parish. Men bought them and saw to their fattening
-and sold them for him, even going so far as adding the money to
-his account in the bank. He had most discreetly used a seeming
-unworldliness to screen his advance upon the ramparts of Mammon. Citing
-the examples of Scripture, he consorted with notable, though suddenly
-converted, sinners, and, when some critic from among the common people
-was moved to speak his mind as one of the converted sinners performed
-a particularly unscrupulous stroke of business, he was immediately
-silenced by the unassailable spectacle of his parish priest walking
-hand in hand with the man whose actions he was daring to question. The
-combination was of mutual benefit; the gombeen man, the auctioneer and
-the publican were enabled to proceed with their swindle of the poor by
-maintaining his boon companionship.
-
-Thus, while publicly preaching the admonishing text of the camel and
-the rich man and the needle's eye, Father O'Keeffe was privately
-engaged in putting himself in such a condition that the task of
-negotiating the needle's eye might be as difficult to him as the camel.
-He went daily for a walk, reading his office, and returned anxiously
-scanning stock exchange quotations and letters from cattle salesmen in
-Dublin. But in spite of this he was a sportsman, and thought nothing of
-risking a ten-pound note upon a horse or a night's card-play.
-
-When he first came to the parish his inclinations were quickly
-determined. In the whirl of other interests cards had fallen into
-disuse in Garradrimna. They had come to be considered old-fashioned,
-but now suddenly they became "all the rage." Old card-tables were
-rediscovered and renewed, and it was said that Tommy Williams was
-compelled to order several gross of playing cars--for, what the
-"elite" of the parish did, the "commonality" must needs follow and do.
-Thus was a public advantage of doubtful benefit created; for laboring
-men were known to lose their week's wages to the distress of their
-wives and children.... At the "gorgeous card-plays" never an eyelid was
-lifted when Father O'Keeffe "renayged."
-
-These took place in the houses of shopkeepers and strong farmers, and
-were cultivated to a point of excessive brilliance. Ancient antagonists
-of the tongue met upon this new field, and strategic attempts were made
-to snatch Father O'Keeffe as a prize of battle. Thus was an extravagant
-sense of his value at once created and, as in all such cases, the worst
-qualities of the man came to be developed. His natural snobbishness,
-for one thing, which led him to associate a great deal with the gilded
-youth of Garradrimna--officials of the Union and people of that kind
-who had got their positions through every effort of bribery and
-corruption. At athletic sports or coursing matches you would see him
-among a group of them, while they smoked stinking "Egyptian" cigarettes
-up into his face.
-
-Yet it must not be thought that Father O'Keeffe neglected the ladies.
-In evenings in the village he might be seen standing outside the worn
-drapery counters back-biting between grins and giggles with the women
-of the shops. This curious way of spending the time had once led an
-irreverent American to describe him as "the flirtatious shop-boy of
-Garradrimna."
-
-His interest in the female sex often led him upon expeditions beyond
-the village. Many a time he might be seen riding his old, fat, white
-horse, so strangely named, "King Billy," down some rutted boreen on
-the way to a farmer's house where there were big daughters with weighty
-fortunes. Those were match-making expeditions when he had come to tell
-them of his brother Robert O'Keeffe and his broad acres.... While "King
-Billy" was comforting himself with a plentiful feed of oats, he would
-be sitting in the musty parlor with the girl and her mother, taking
-wine and smoking cigars, which were kept in every house since it had
-come to be known that Father O'Keeffe was fond of them. He generally
-smoked a good few at a sitting, and those he did not consume he carried
-away in his pocket for future use in his den at the Presbytery.
-
-"Isn't Father O'Keeffe, God bless him, the walking terror for cigars?"
-was all the comment ever made upon this extraordinary habit.
-
-Robert O'Keeffe, in the intentions of his brother, was a much-married
-man, for there was not a house in the parish holding a marriageable
-girl into which Father O'Keeffe had not gone to get him a match. He had
-enlarged upon the excellence of his brother, upon his manners and ways
-and the breadth of his fields.
-
-"He's the grand, fine man, is Robert," he would say, by way of giving a
-final touch to the picture.
-
-Upon those whose social standing was not a thing of any great certitude
-this had always a marked effect towards their own advantage and that
-of Father O'Keeffe. It gave them a certain pride in their own worth to
-have a priest calling attentively at the house and offering his brother
-in marriage. It would be a gorgeous thing to be married to a priest's
-brother, and have your brother-in-law with power in his hands to help
-you out of many a difficulty. He never inquired after the cattle their
-fathers were grazing free of charge for him until he would be leaving
-the house.
-
-
-John Brennan followed the black figure upon the white horse down all
-The Road of the Dead until Father O'Keeffe had disappeared among the
-trees which surrounded the Schools of Tullahanogue, where he was making
-a call.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII
-
-
-John now saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him across the Hill of Annus.
-It was strange that he should be appearing now whose presence had just
-been created by the Rabelaisian recital of Shamesy Golliher. As he
-came along boldly his eyes roamed cheerfully over the blue expanse of
-water and seemed to catch something there which moved him to joyous
-whistling. John Brennan felt a certain amount of reserve spring up
-between them as they shook hands.... For a moment that seemed to
-lengthen out interminably the two young men were silent. The lake was
-without a ripple in the intense calm of the summer day.... Suddenly it
-reflected the movement of them walking away, arm in arm, towards the
-village.
-
-It was high noontide when they reached Garradrimna. The Angelus was
-ringing. Men had turned them from their various occupations to bend
-down for a space in prayer. The drunkards had put away the pints from
-their mouths in reverence. The seven sleek publicans were coming to
-their doors with their hats in their hands, beating their breasts in
-a frenzy of zeal and genuflecting. Yet, upon the appearance of the
-students, a different excitement leaped up to animate them. They began
-to hurry their prayers, the words becoming jumbled pell mell in their
-mouths as they cleared a way for their tongues to say to one another
-the thing they wanted to say of the two young men.
-
-By their God, there was John Brennan and Ulick Shannon coming into
-Garradrimna in the middle of the day. To drink, they at once supposed.
-Their tongues had been finding fine exercise upon Ulick Shannon for
-a considerable time, but it was certainly a comfort to have the same
-to say of John Brennan. A clerical student coming up the street with
-a Dublin scamp. That was a grand how-d'ye-do! But sure they supposed,
-by their God again, that it was only what she deserved (they were
-referring to Mrs. Brennan).
-
-Her mention at once brought recollection of her story, and it came to
-be discussed there in the heat of the day until the lonely woman, who
-was still crying probably as she sat working by her machine in the
-little house in the valley, became as a corpse while the vultures of
-Garradrimna circled round it flapping great wings in glee.
-
-The students strode on, reciting the Angelus beneath their breaths with
-a devotion that did not presently give place to any worldly anxiety.
-They were doing many things now, as if they formed a new personality
-in which the will and the inclination of each were merged. They turned
-into McDermott's, and it seemed their collective intention from the
-direction they took upon entering the shop to take refuge in the
-retirement of the particular portion known as Connellan's office. It
-was the place where Mick Connellan, the local auctioneer, transacted
-business on Fridays. On all other days it was considered the more
-select and secluded portion of this publichouse. But when they entered
-it was occupied. Padna Padna, the ancient drunkard, was sitting by the
-empty grate poking the few drawn corks in it as if they were coals. He
-was speaking to himself in mournful jeremiads, and after the fashion of
-one upon whom a great sorrow has fallen down.
-
-"Now what the hell does he want with his mission, and it too good we
-are? A mission, indeed, for to make us pay him money every night, and
-the cosht of everything, drink and everything. He, he, he! To pay the
-price of a drink every night to hear the missioners denounce drink. Now
-that's the quarest thing ever any one heard. To go pay the price of
-a drink for hearing a man that doesn't even know the taste of it say
-that drink is not good for the human soul. Begad Father O'Keeffe is the
-funny man!"
-
-After this fashion did Padna Padna run on in soliloquy. He had seen
-many a mission come to bring, in the words of the good missioners, "a
-superabundance of grace to the parish," and seen it go without bringing
-any appreciable addition of grace to him or any change in his way of
-life. It seemed a pity that his tradition had set Padna Padna down as
-a Christian, and would not allow him to live his life upon Pagan lines
-and in peace. The struggle which continually held occupation of his
-mind was one between Christian principles and Pagan inclinations. He
-now began whispering to himself--"The Book of God! The Book of God! A
-fellow's name bees written in the Book of God!" ... So absorbed was he
-in his immense meditation that he had hardly noticed the entry of the
-students. But as he became aware of their presence he stumbled to his
-feet and gripping John Brennan by the arm whispered tensely: "Isn't
-that a fact, young fellow, that one's name bees down there always, and
-what one does, and that it's never blotted out?"
-
-"It is thus we are told," said John, speaking dogmatically and as if he
-were repeating a line out of the Bible.
-
-Padna Padna, as he heard these words and recognized the voice of
-their speaker, put on what was really his most gruesome expression.
-He stripped his shrunken gums in a ghastly little smile, and a queer
-"Tee-Hee!" issued from his furrowed throat.... Momentarily his concern
-for Eternity was forgotten in a more immediate urgency of this world.
-He gripped John still more tightly and in a higher whisper said: "Are
-ye able to stand?"
-
-It was a strange anti-climax and at once betrayed his sudden descent
-in the character of his meditation, from thinking of what the Angel
-had written of him to his immortal longing for what had determined the
-character of that record regarding immortality.
-
-"Yes, I'll stand," said Ulick, breaking in upon John Brennan's reply to
-Padna Padna and pushing the bell.
-
-Mr. McDermott himself, half drunk and smelling of bad whiskey, came in
-and soon the drinks were before them. New life seemed to come pushing
-into the ancient man as he took his "half one." He looked up in blind
-thankfulness into their faces, his eyes running water and his mouth
-dribbling like that of a young child.... His inclinations were again
-becoming rapidly Pagan.... From smiling dumbly he began to screech with
-laughter, and moved from the room slowly tapping his way with his short
-stick.... He was going forth to fresh adventures. Spurred on by this
-slight addition of drink he would be encouraged to enter the other six
-publichouses of Garradrimna, and no man could tell upon what luck he
-might happen to fall. So fortunate might his half-dozen expeditions
-prove that he would probably return to the house of the good woman who
-was his guardian, led by Shamesy Golliher, or some other one he would
-strike up with in the last dark pub, as if he were a toddling infant
-babbling foolish nonsense about all the gay delights which had been his
-of old. The mad drives from distant villages upon his outside car, his
-passengers in the same condition as himself--a state of the wildest
-abandon, and dwelling exultingly in that moment wherein they might make
-fitting models for a picture by Jack B. Yeats.
-
-Ulick and John were now alone. The day outside was hot and still upon
-the dusty street, but this office of Connellan's was a cool place like
-some old cellar full of forgotten summers half asleep in wine.... They
-were entering still deeper into the mood of one another.... Ulick had
-closed the door when Padna Padna had passed through, tapping blindly
-as he moved towards the far places of the village. He would seem to
-have gone for no other purpose than to publish broadcast the presence
-of Ulick Shannon and John Brennan together in McDermott's, and they
-drinking. For now the door of Connellan's office was being opened and
-closed every few minutes. People were calling upon the pretense of
-looking for other people, and going away leaving the door open wide
-behind them so that some others might come also and see for themselves
-the wonderful thing that was happening.... Padna Padna was having such
-a time as compared favorably with the high times of old. A "half-one"
-of malt from every man he brought to see the sight was by no means
-a small reward. And so he was coming and going past the door like a
-sentry on guard of some great treasure which increased in value from
-moment to moment. He was blowing upon his fingers and tapping his lips
-and giggling and screeching with merriment down in his shivering frame.
-
-And most wonderful of all, the two young men who were creating all
-this excitement were quite unconscious of it.... They were talking a
-great deal, but each, as it were, from behind the barricade of his
-personality, for each was now beginning for the first time to notice
-a peculiar thing. They were discovering that their personalities were
-complementary. John lacked the gift, which was Ulick's, of stating
-things brilliantly out of life and experience and the views of those
-modern authors whom he admired. On the other hand, he seemed to possess
-a deeper sense of the relative realities of certain things, a faculty
-which sprang out of his ecclesiastical training and which held no
-meaning for Ulick, who spoke mockingly of such things. Ulick skimmed
-lightly over the surface of life in discussing it; John was inclined to
-plow deeply.
-
-Suddenly a desire fell upon John to hear Ulick discuss again those
-matters he had talked of at the "North Leinster Arms" in Ballinamult.
-It was very curious that this should be the nature of his thoughts
-now, this inclination towards things which from him should always
-have remained far distant and unknown.... But it may have been that
-some subtle impulse had stirred in him, and that he now wished to
-see whether the outlook of Ulick had changed in any way through his
-rumored friendship with Rebecca Kerr. Would it be a cleaner thing and
-purified through power of that girl? He fondly fancied that no thought
-at all could be soiled within the splendid precinct of her presence.
-
-Josie Guinan, the new barmaid of McDermott's, came in to attend them
-with other and other drinks. Her bosom was attractive and ample,
-although her hair was still down upon her back in rich brown plaits....
-She dallied languorously within the presence of the two young men....
-Ulick began to tell some of the stories he had told to Mary Essie, and
-she stood even as brazenly enjoying them with her back to the door
-closed behind her. Then the two came together and whispered something,
-and a vulgar giggle sprang up between them.
-
-And to think that this was the man to whom Rebecca Kerr might be giving
-the love of her heart.... If John had seen as much of life as the other
-he would have known that Ulick was the very kind of man who, at all
-times, has most strongly appealed to women. Yet it was in this moment
-and in this place that he fell in love with Rebecca.... He became
-possessed of an infinite willingness to serve and protect her, and it
-was upon the strength of his desire that he arose.
-
-Through all this secret, noble passage, Ulick remained laughing as at
-some great joke. He, too, was coming into possession of a new joy, for
-he was beginning to glimpse the conflagration of another's soul. Out
-of sheer devilment, and in conspiracy with Josie Guinan, he had caused
-John Brennan's drink, the small, mild measure of port wine, to be dosed
-with flaming whiskey. Even the wine in the frequency of its repetition
-had already been getting the better of him. They had been hours
-sitting here, and outside the day was fading.
-
-John began to stutter now in the impotence of degradation which was
-upon him. His thoughts were all burning into one blazing thought. The
-small room seemed suddenly to cramp and confine his spirit as if it
-were a prison cell.... And Ulick was still smiling that queer smile of
-his with his thick red lips and sunken eyes.
-
-He sprang towards the door and, turning the handle, rushed out into the
-air.... Soon he was fleeing as if from some Unknown Force, staggering
-between the rows of the elms which stretched all along the road into
-the valley. It had rained a shower and the strong, young leaves held
-each its burden of pearly drops. A light wind now stirred them and like
-an aspergillus they flung a blessing down upon him as he passed. And
-ever did he mutter her name to himself as he stumbled on:
-
-"Rebecca Kerr, Rebecca Kerr, I love you, Rebecca, I love you surely!
-Oh, my dear Rebecca!"
-
-She was moving before him, with her hair all shining through the
-twilight.
-
-"Oh, dear Rebecca! I love you! Oh, my dear!"
-
-He turned The Road of the Dead and down by the lake, where he lay
-in the quiet spot from which Ulick Shannon had taken him away to
-Garradrimna. There he remained until far on in the evening, when his
-mother, concerned for his welfare, came to look for him. She found him
-sleeping by the lake.
-
-She had no notion of how he had passed the evening. Her imagination
-was, after all, only a very small thing and worked rigorously within
-the romantic confines of the holy stories which were her continual
-reading. When she had awakened him she asked a characteristic question:
-
-"And I suppose, John, you're after seeing visions and things have
-appeared to you?"
-
-"Yes, mother, I have seen a vision, I think," he said, as he opened
-his eyes and blinked stupidly at the lake. He was still midway between
-two conditions, but he was not noticeable to her, who could not have
-imagined the like.
-
-These were the only words he spoke to her before he went to bed.
-
-Back in McDermott's a great crowd thronged the public bar. Every man
-seemed to be in high glee and a hum of jubilation hung low between
-them. A momentous thing had happened, and it was of this great event
-they were talking. _John Brennan had left the house and he was
-reeling._ Men from the valley foregathered in one group and, as each
-new-comer arrived, the news was re-broken. It was about the best thing
-that had ever happened. The sudden enrichment of any of their number
-could not have been half so welcome in its importance.
-
-Padna Padna and Shamesy Golliher were standing in one corner taking sup
-for sup.
-
-"Damn it, but it was one of the greatest days ever I seen in
-Garradrimna since the ould times. It was a pity you missed of it," said
-Padna Padna. "If you were to see him!"
-
-"Sure I'm after seeing him, don't I tell ye, lying a corpse be the
-lake."
-
-"A corpse be the lake. He, he, he! Boys-a-day! Boys-a-day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII
-
-
-Mrs. Brennan, although she pondered it deeply, had made no advance
-towards full realization of her son's condition by the lakeside. Yet
-John felt strangely diffident about appearing before her next morning.
-It seemed to him that another attack had been made upon the bond
-between them. But when at last he came into the sewing-room she was
-smiling, although there was a sinking feeling around his heart as he
-looked upon her. Yet this would pass, he hoped, when they began to talk.
-
-The children were going the road to school, and it was the nature
-of Mrs. Brennan that she must needs be making comment upon what was
-passing before her eyes.
-
-"God help the poor, little girls," she cried, "sure 'tis the grand
-example they're being set by that new one, Miss Kerr, with her quare
-dresses and her light ways. They say she was out half the night after
-the concert with Ulick Shannon, and that Mrs. McGoldrick and the
-Sergeant are in terror of their lives for fear of robbers or the likes,
-seeing that they have to leave the door on the latch for her to come in
-at any time she pleases from her night-walking. And the lad she bees
-with that's after knocking about Dublin and couldn't be good anyway.
-But sure, be the same token, there's a touch of Dublin about her too.
-How well she wouldn't give me the making of her new dress? But I
-suppose I'm old-fashioned in my cut. Old-fashioned, how are ye; and I
-buying _Weldon's Ladies' Journal_ every week? But of course she had to
-go to Dublin to be in the tip of the fashion and see what they wear in
-Grafton Street in the lamplight. She had to get an outfit of immodest
-fol-the-dols to be a disgrace in the chapel every Sunday, and give
-room to the missioners when they come to say things that may have an
-injurious effect upon poor dressmakers like myself who strive to earn a
-living as decently as we can."
-
-This harangue was almost unnoticed by John Brennan. It was a failing
-of his mother to be always speaking thus in terms of her trade. He
-knew that if Miss Kerr had come here with her new dress, fine words
-and encomiums would now be spoken of her in this room. But it was his
-mother who was speaking--and he was thinking of the girl who had filled
-his vision.
-
-And his mother was still talking:
-
-"That Ulick Shannon, I hate him. I wish you wouldn't let yourself be
-seen along with him. It is not good for you, _avic machree_. Of course
-I know the kind of talk you do be having, son. About books and classes
-and the tricks and pranks of you at college. Ah, dear, I know; but I'd
-rather to God it was any other one in the whole world. I'm fearing in
-me heart that there's a black, black side to him. It's well known that
-he bees always drinking in Garradrimna, and now see how he's after
-striking up with the schoolmistress one. Maybe 'tis what he'd try to
-change you sometime, for as sure as you're there I'm afraid and afraid.
-And to think after all I have prayed for you through all the years,
-upon me two bare knees in the lonely nights, if an affliction should
-come."
-
-"What affliction, mother? What is it?"
-
-He came nearer, and gazing deep into her face saw that there were tears
-in her eyes. Her eyes were shining like deep wells.
-
-"Ah, this, son. If it should ever come that you did not think well to
-do me wish, after all I have done--"
-
-She checked herself of a sudden, and it was some moments before John
-replied. He, too, was thinking of Ulick Shannon. There was a side to
-his friend that he did not like. Yesterday he had not liked him. There
-were moments when he had hated him. But that mood and the reason for
-it seemed to have passed from him during the night. It was a far thing
-now, and Ulick Shannon was as he had been to John, who could not think
-ill of him. Yet it was curious that his mother should be hinting at
-things which, if he allowed his mind to dwell upon them at all, must
-bring back his feelings of yesterday.... But he felt that he must speak
-well of his friend.
-
-"Ah, sure there is nothing, mother. You are only fancying queer things.
-At college I have to meet hundreds of fellows. He's not a bad chap, and
-I like speaking to him. It is lonely here without such intercourse. He
-realizes keenly how people are always talking of him, how the smallest
-action of his is construed and constructed in a hundred different ways,
-until he's driven to do wild things out of very defiance to show what
-he thinks of the mean people of the valley and their opinion of him--"
-
-"They're not much, I know--"
-
-"But at heart, I think, he's somehow like myself, and I can't help
-liking him."
-
-"All the same he shouldn't be going with a girl and, especially, a
-little chit of a schoolmistress like this one, for I can't stand her."
-
-Why did she continue to hammer so upon the pulse of his thought?...
-With bowed head he began to drift out of the room. Why had she driven
-him to think now of Rebecca Kerr?... He was already in the sunlight.
-
-To-day he would not go towards the lake, but up through the high green
-fields of Scarden. He was taking _The Imitation of Christ_ with him,
-and, under the shade of some noble tree, it was his intention to turn
-his thoughts to God and away from the things of life.
-
-It seemed grand to him, with a grandeur that had more than a touch of
-the color of Heaven, to be ascending cool slopes through the green,
-soft grass and to be looking down upon the valley at its daily labor.
-The potatoes and turnips still required attention. He saw men move
-patiently behind their horses over the broken fields of red earth
-beneath the fine, clear clay, and thought that here surely was the true
-vocation of him who would incline himself unto God.... But how untrue
-was this fancy when one came to consider the real personality of these
-tillers of the soil? There was not one of whom Mrs. Brennan could not
-tell an ugly story. Not one who did not consider it his duty to say
-uncharitable things of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca Kerr. Not one who
-would not have danced with gladness if a great misfortune had befallen
-John Brennan, and made a holiday in Garradrimna if anything terrible
-had happened to any one within the circle of their acquaintance.
-
-John Brennan's attention was now attracted by a man who moved with an
-air of proprietorship among a field of sheep. He was a tall man in
-black, moving darkly among the white crowd of the sheep, counting them
-leisurely and allowing his mind to dwell upon the pageant of their
-perfect whiteness. He seemed to be reckoning their value as the pure
-yield of his pastures. Here was another aspect of the fields.... The
-man in black was coming towards him with long strides.
-
-It took John some moments to realize that he had strayed into the
-farm of the Shannons and that this was Myles Shannon who was coming
-over to meet him.... He was a fine, clean man seen here amid the
-rich surroundings of his own fields. But he had advanced far into
-bachelorhood, and the russet was beginning to go out of his cheeks. It
-seemed a pity of the world that he had not married, for just there,
-hidden behind the billowy trees, was the fine house to which he might
-have brought home a wife and reared up a family to love and honor him
-in his days. But his romance had been shattered by a piece of villainy
-which had leaped out from the darkness of the valley. And now he was
-living here alone. But he was serenely independent, exhibiting a
-fine contempt, as well he might, for the mean strugglers around him.
-He took his pleasures here by himself in this quiet house among the
-trees. Had he been asked to name them, he could have told you in three
-words--books and drink. Not that they entered into his life to any
-great extent, for he was a wise man even in his indulgence.... But who
-was there to see him or know since he did not choose to publish himself
-in Garradrimna? And there was many a time when he worked himself into
-a great frenzy while brooding over the story of his dead brother Henry,
-and his own story, and Nan Byrne.... Even now he was thinking darkly of
-Nan Byrne as he came forward to meet her son across his own field.
-
-"Good-day, Mr. Brennan!" he said affably. He had no personal grudge
-against this young man, but his scheme of revenge inevitably included
-him, for it was through John Brennan, her son, that Nan Byrne now hoped
-to aspire, and it was him she hoped to embody as a monument of her
-triumph over destructive circumstances before the people of the valley.
-
-John went forward and shook the hand of Mr. Shannon with deference.
-
-A fine cut of a man, surely, this Myles Shannon, standing here where
-he might be clearly viewed. He appeared as a survival from the latter
-part of the Victorian era. He was still mutton-chopped and mustachioed
-after the fashion of those days. He wore a long-tailed black coat like
-a morning-coat. His waistcoat was of the same material. Across the
-expanse of it extended a wide gold chain, from which dangled a bunch
-of heavy seals. These shook and jingled with his every movement. His
-trousers were of a dark gray material, with stripes, which seemed
-to add to the height and erectness of his figure. His tall, stiff
-collar corrected the thoughtful droop of his head, and about it was
-tastefully fixed a wide black tie of shiny silk which reached down
-underneath his low-cut waistcoat. His person was surmounted by an
-uncomfortable-looking bowler hat with a very hard, curly brim.
-
-When he smiled, as just now, his teeth showed in even, fine rows and
-exhibited some of the cruelty of one who has allowed his mind to dwell
-darkly upon a passionate purpose. But the ring of his laugh was hearty
-enough and had the immediate effect of dispelling suspicions of any
-sinister purpose.
-
-He said he was glad to see how his casual suggestion, made upon the day
-they had journeyed down from Dublin together, had borne fruit, that Mr.
-Brennan and his nephew, Ulick, had so quickly become friends.
-
-John thanked him, and began to speak in terms of praise about Ulick
-Shannon.
-
-Mr. Shannon again bared his even, white teeth in a smile as he
-listened.... A strong friendship, with its consequent community of
-inclinations, had already been established. And he knew his nephew.
-
-"He's a clever chap, I'll admit, but he's so damned erratic. He seems
-bent upon crushing the experience of a lifetime into a few years. Why
-I'm a man, at the ripened, mellow period of life, and it's a fact that
-he could teach me things about Dublin and all that."
-
-John Brennan was uncertain in what way he should confirm this, but at
-last he managed to stammer out:
-
-"Ulick is very clever!"
-
-"He's very fond of Garradrimna, and I think he's very fond of the
-girls."
-
-"It's so dull around here compared with Dublin."
-
-John appeared a fool by the side of this man of the world, who was
-searching him with a look as he spoke again:
-
-"It's all right for a young fellow to gain his experience as early as
-he can, but he's a bit too fond of his pleasure. He's going a bit too
-far."
-
-John put on a strained look of advocacy, but he spoke no word.
-
-"He's not a doctor yet, and even then his living would not be assured;
-and do ye know what he had the cheek to come telling me the other
-night--
-
-"'I've got infernally fond of that little girl,' he says.
-
-"'What girl?' I asked in amazement.
-
-"'Why, that schoolmistress--Rebecca Kerr. I'm "gone" about her. I'm in
-love with her. She's not at all like any of the others.'"
-
-Myles Shannon, with his keen eyes, saw the sudden light of surprise
-that leaped into the eyes of John Brennan. The passion of his hatred
-and the joy of his cruelty were stirred, and he went on to develop the
-plot of the story he had invented.
-
-"And what for," said I to him, "are you thinking of any girl in that
-way. I, as your guardian, am able to tell you that you are not in a
-position to marry. Surely you're not going to ruin this girl, or allow
-her to ruin you. Besides she is only a strolling schoolmistress from
-some unknown part of Donegal, and you are one of the Shannon family.
-'But I'm "gone" about her,' was what Ulick said. How was I to argue
-against such a silly statement?"
-
-The color was mounting ever higher on John Brennan's cheeks.
-
-But the relentless man went on playing with him.
-
-"Of course I have not seen her, but, by all accounts, she's a pretty
-girl and possesses the usual share of allurements. Is not that so?"
-
-"She's very nice."
-
-"And, do you know what? It has come to me up here, although I may seem
-to be a hermit among the fields who takes no interest in the world,
-that you have been seen walking down the valley road together. D'ye
-remember yesterday morning, eh?"
-
-John was blushing still, and a kind of sickly smile made his fine face
-look queer. All kinds of expressions were trying to form themselves
-upon his tongue, yet not one of them could he manage to articulate.
-
-"Not that I blame a young fellow, even one intended for the Church, if
-he should have a few inclinations that way. But I can see that you are
-the good friend of my nephew, and indeed it would be a pity if anything
-came to spoil that friendship, least of all a bit of a girl.... And
-both of you being the promising young men you are.... It would be
-terrible if anything like that should come to pass."
-
-Even to this John could frame no reply. But the ear of Mr. Shannon did
-not desire it, for his eye had seen all that he wished to know. He
-beheld John Brennan shivering as within the cold and dismal shadows of
-fatality.... They spoke little more until they shook hands again, and
-parted amid the dappled grass.
-
-To Myles Shannon the interview had been an extraordinary success....
-Yet, quite suddenly, he found himself beginning to think of the
-position of Rebecca Kerr.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX
-
-
-Outside the poor round of diversions afforded by the valley and her
-meetings with Ulick Shannon, the days passed uneventfully for Rebecca
-Kerr. It was a dreary kind of life, wherein she was concerned to avoid
-as far as possible the fits of depression which sprang out of the
-quality of her lodgings at Sergeant McGoldrick's.
-
-She snatched a hasty breakfast early in the mornings, scarcely ever
-making anything like a meal. When she did it was always followed
-by a feeling of nausea as she went on The Road of the Dead towards
-the valley school. When she returned after her day's hard work her
-dinner would be half cold and unappetizing by the red ashy fire. Mrs.
-McGoldrick would be in the sitting-room, where she made clothes for the
-children, the sergeant himself probably digging in the garden before
-the door, his tunic open, his face sweating, and the dirty clay upon
-his big boots.... He was always certain to shout out some idiotic
-salutation as she passed in. Then Mrs. McGoldrick would be sure to
-follow her into the kitchen, a baby upon her left arm and a piece of
-soiled sewing in her right hand. She was always concerned greatly about
-the number at school on any particular day, and how Mrs. Wyse was and
-Miss McKeon, and how the average was keeping up, and if it did not keep
-up to a certain number would Mrs. Wyse's salary be reduced, and what
-was the average required for Miss McKeon to get her salary from the
-Board, and so on.
-
-Sometimes Rebecca would be so sick at heart of school affairs and of
-this mean, prying woman that no word would come from her, and Mrs.
-McGoldrick would drift huffily away, her face a perfect study in
-disappointment. And against those there were times when Rebecca, with
-a touch of good humor, would tell the most fantastical stories of
-inspectors and rules and averages and increments and pensions, Mrs.
-McGoldrick breathless between her "Well, wells!" of amazement.... Then
-Rebecca would have a rare laugh to herself as she pictured her landlady
-repeating everything to the sergeant, who would make mental comparisons
-the while of the curious correspondence existing between those pillars
-of law and learning, the Royal Irish Constabulary, and the National
-Teachers of Ireland.
-
-Next day, perhaps, Mrs. McGoldrick would enlarge upon the excellent and
-suitable match a policeman and a teacher make, and how it is such a
-general thing throughout the country. She always concluded a discourse
-of this nature by saying a thing she evidently wished Rebecca to
-remember:
-
-"Let me tell you this, now--a policeman is the very best match that any
-girl can make!"
-
-And big louts of young constables would be jumping off high bicycles
-and calling in the evenings.... This was at the instigation of Mrs.
-McGoldrick, but they made no impression whatsoever upon Rebecca, even
-when they arrived in mufti.
-
-In school the ugly, discolored walls which had been so badly
-distempered by Ned Brennan; the monotony of the maps and desks; the
-constant sameness of the children's faces. All this was infinitely
-wearying, but a more subtle and powerful torment arose beyond the hum
-of the children learning by heart. Rebecca always became aware of it
-through a burning feeling at the back of her neck. Glancing around
-she would see that, although presumably intent upon their lessons,
-many eyes were upon her, peering furtively from behind their books,
-observing her, forming opinions of her, and concocting stories to tell
-their parents when they went home. For this was considered an essential
-part of their training--the proper satisfaction of their elders'
-curiosity. It was one of the reasons why the bigger girls were sent to
-school. They escaped the drudgery of house and farm because they were
-able to return with fresh stories from the school every evening. Thus
-were their faculties for lying and invention brought into play. They
-feared Mrs. Wyse, and so these faculties came to be trained in full
-strength upon Rebecca. As she moved about the school-room, she was made
-the constant object of their scrutiny. They would stare at her with
-their mean, impudent eyes above the top edges of their books. Then they
-would withdraw them behind the opened pages and sneer and concoct. And
-it was thus the forenoon would pass until the half-hour allowed for
-recreation, when she would be thrown back upon the company of Mrs. Wyse
-and Monica McKeon. No great pleasure was in store for her here, for
-their conversation was always sure to turn upon the small affairs of
-the valley.
-
-There was something so ingenuous about the relations of Rebecca and
-Ulick Shannon that neither of the two women had the courage to comment
-upon the matter openly. But the method they substituted was a greater
-torture. In the course of half an hour they would suggest a thousand
-hateful things.
-
-"I heard Ulick Shannon was drunk last night, and having arguments with
-people in Garradrimna," Miss McKeon would say.
-
-Mrs. Wyse would snatch up the words hastily. "Is that so? Oh, he's
-going to the bad. He'll never pass his exams, never!"
-
-"Isn't it funny how his uncle does not keep better control of him. Why
-he lets him do what he likes?"
-
-"Control, is it? It doesn't look much like control indeed to see him
-encouraging his dead brother's son to keep the company he favors.
-Indeed and indeed it gives me a kind of a turn when I see him going
-about with Nan Byrne's son, young John Brennan, who's going on to be
-a priest. Well, I may tell you that it is 'going on' he is, for his
-mother as sure as you're there'll never see him saying his first Mass.
-Now I suppose the poor rector of the college in England where he is
-hasn't a notion of his antecedents. The cheek of it indeed! But what
-else could you expect from the likes of Nan Byrne? Indeed I have a good
-mind to let the ecclesiastical authorities know all, and if nothing
-turns up from the Hand of God to right the matter, sure I'll have to do
-it myself. Bedad then I will!"
-
-"Musha, the same John Brennan doesn't look up to much, and they say
-Ulick Shannon can wind him around his little finger. He'll maybe make a
-_lad_ of him before the end of the summer holidays."
-
-"I can't understand Myles Shannon letting them go about together so
-openly unless he's enjoying the whole thing as a sneer. But it would
-be more to his credit indeed to have found other material for his fun
-than a blood relation. I'm surprised at him indeed, and he knowing what
-he knows about Nan Byrne and his brother Henry."
-
-With slight variations of this theme falling on her ears endlessly
-Rebecca was compelled to endure the torture of this half hour every
-day. No matter what took place in the valley Monica would manage,
-somehow, to drag the name of Ulick into it. If it merely happened to
-be a copy of the _Irish Independent_ they were looking at, and if they
-came upon some extraordinary piece of news, Monica would say:
-
-"Just like a thing that Ulick Shannon would do, isn't it?"
-
-And if they came across a photo in the magazine section, Monica would
-say again:
-
-"Now wouldn't you imagine that gentleman has a look of Ulick Shannon?"
-
-Rebecca had become so accustomed to all this that, overleaping its
-purpose, it ceased to have any considerable effect upon her. She had
-begun to care too much for Ulick to show her affection in even the
-glimpse of an aspect to the two who were trying to discover her for the
-satisfaction of their spite. It was thus that she remained a puzzle to
-her colleagues, and Monica in particular was at her wit's end to know
-what to think. At the end of the half hour she was always in a deeper
-condition of defeat than before it began, and went out to the Boys'
-School with only one idea warming her mind, that, some day, she might
-have the great laugh at Rebecca Kerr. She knew that it is not possible
-for a woman to hide her feelings forever, even though she thought
-this one cute surely, cute beyond all the suggestion of her innocent
-exterior.
-
-Towards the end of each day Rebecca was thrown altogether with the
-little ones who, despite all the entreaties of their parents, had not
-yet come very far away from Heaven. She found great pleasure in their
-company and in their innocent stories. For example:
-
-"Miss Kerr, I was in the wood last night. With the big bear and the
-little bear in the wood. I went into the wood, and there was the big
-bear walking round and round the wood after the little bear, and the
-big bear was walking round and round the wood."
-
-"I was in America last night, and I saw all the motor cars ever were,
-and people riding on horses, and the highest, whitest buildings ever
-were, and people going to Mass--big crowds of people going to Mass."
-
-"My mammy brought me into the chapel last night, and I saw God. I was
-talking to God and He was asking me about you. I said: 'Miss Kerr is
-nice, so she is.' I said this to God, but God did not answer me. I
-asked God again did He know Miss Kerr who teaches in the valley school,
-and He said He did, and I said again: 'Miss Kerr is nice, so she is.'
-But He went away and did not answer me."
-
-Rebecca would enter into their innocence and so experience the happiest
-hours of the day.
-
-She would be recalled from her rapt condition by the harsh voice of
-Mrs. Wyse shouting an order to one of the little girls in her class,
-this being a hint that she herself was not attending to her business.
-
-But soon the last blessed period of the day would come, the half hour
-devoted to religious instruction. She found a pleasure in this task,
-for she loved to hear the little children at their prayers. Sometimes
-she would ask them to say for her the little prayer she had taught them:
-
-"O God, I offer up this prayer for the poor intentions of Thy servant
-Rebecca Kerr, that they may be fulfilled unto the glory of Thy Holy
-Will. And that being imperfect, she may approach to Thy Perfection
-through the Grace and Mercy of Jesus Christ, Our Lord."
-
-She would feel a certain happiness for a short space after this, at
-least while the boisterous business of taking leave of the school was
-going forward. But once upon the road she would be meeting people who
-always stared at her strangely, and passing houses with squinting
-windows.... Then would come a heavy sense of depression, which might be
-momentarily dispelled by the appearance of John Brennan either coming
-or going upon the road. For a while she had considered this happening
-coincidental, but of late it had been borne in upon her that it was
-very curious he should appear daily at the same time.... The silly
-boy, and he with his grand purpose before him.... She would smile upon
-him very pleasantly, and fall into chat sometimes, but only for a few
-minutes. She looked upon herself as being ever so much wiser. And she
-thought it queer that he should find an attraction for his eyes in her
-form as it moved before him down the road. She always fancied that she
-felt low and mean within herself while his eyes were upon her.... But
-he would be forever coming out of his mother's cottage to meet her
-thus upon the road.
-
-After dinner in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick she would betake
-herself to her little room. It would be untidy after the hurry in which
-she had left it, and now she would set about putting it to rights.
-This would occupy her half an hour or more. Then there would be a few
-letters to be written, to her people away in Donegal and to some of
-the companions of her training college days. She kept up a more or
-less regular correspondence with about half-a-dozen of these girls.
-Her letters were all after the frivolous style of their schooldays. To
-all of them she imparted the confidence that she had met "a very nice
-fellow" here in Garradrimna, but that the place was so lonely, and how
-there was "nothing like a girl friend."
-
-"Ah, Anna," she would write, or "Lily" or "Lena," "There's surely
-nothing after all like a girl friend."
-
-After tea she would put on one of her tidiest hats, and taking the
-letters with her go towards the Post Office of Garradrimna. This was a
-torture, for always the eyes of the old, bespectacled maid were upon
-her, looking into her mind, as she stood waiting for her stamps outside
-the ink-stained counter. And, further, she always felt that the doors
-and windows of the village were forever filled with eyes as she went
-by them. Her neck and face would burn until she took the road that led
-out past the old castle of the De Lacys. There was a footpath which
-took one to the west gate of the demesne of the Moores. The Honorable
-Reginald Moore was the modern lord of Garradrimna. It was this way she
-would go, meeting all kinds of stragglers from the other end of the
-parish. People she did not know and who did not know her, queer, dark
-men coming into Garradrimna through the high evening in quest of porter.
-
-"Fine evening, miss!" they would say.
-
-Once on the avenue her little walk became a golden journey for Ulick
-always met her when she came this way. It was their custom to meet here
-or on The Road of the Dead. But this was their favorite spot, where
-the avenue led far into the quiet woods. A scurrying-away of rabbits
-through the undergrowth would announce their approach to one another.
-
-Many were the happy talks they had here, of books and of decent life
-beyond the boorishness of Garradrimna. She had given him _The Poems of
-Tennyson_ in exchange for _The Daffodil Fields_. Tastefully illuminated
-in red ink on the fly-leaf he had found her "favorite lines" from
-Tennyson, whom she considered "exquisite":
-
-
- "Glitter like a storm of fire-flies tangled in a silver braid."
-
-
- "Cursed be the gold that gilds the straightened forehead of
- the fool."
-
-
- "Many an evening by the waters did we watch the stately ships,
- And our spirits rushed together at the touching of the lips."
-
-
-These had made him smile, and then he did not read any more of
-Tennyson.... He was fond of telling her about the younger Irish poets
-and of quoting passages from their poems. Now it would be a line or so
-from Colum or Stephens, again a verse from Seumas O'Sullivan or Joseph
-Campbell. Continually he spoke with enthusiasm of the man they called
-Æ.... She found it difficult to believe that such men could be living
-in Ireland at the present time.
-
-"And would you see them about Dublin?"
-
-"Yes, you'd see them often."
-
-"_Real_ poets?"
-
-"Real poets surely. But of course they have earthly interests as well.
-One is a farmer--"
-
-"A farmer!!!"
-
-This she found it hardest of all to believe, for the word "farmer" made
-her see so clearly the sullen men with the dirty beards who came in the
-white roads every evening to drink in Garradrimna. There was no poetry
-in them.
-
-Often they would remain talking after this fashion until night had
-filled up all the open spaces of the woods. They would feel so far
-away from life amid the perfect stillness.... Their peace was rudely
-shattered one night by a sudden breaking away from them through the
-withered branches.... Instantly Ulick knew that this was some loafer
-sent to spy on them from Garradrimna, and Rebecca clung to him for
-protection.
-
-Occasionally through the summer a lonely wailing had been heard in the
-woods of Garradrimna at the fall of night. Men drinking in the pubs
-would turn to one another and say:
-
-"The Lord save us! Is that the _Banshee_ I hear crying for one of the
-Moores? She cries like that always when one of them dies, they being a
-noble family. Maybe the Honorable Reginald is after getting his death
-at last in some whore-house in London."
-
-"Arrah not at all, man, sure that's only Anthony Shaughness and he
-going crying through the woods for drink, the poor fellow!"
-
-But the sound had ceased to disturb them for Anthony Shaughness had
-found an occupation at last. This evening he came running down from
-the woods into McDermott's bar, the loose soles of his boots slapping
-against the cobbles of the yard. Josie Guinan went up to him excitedly
-when he entered.
-
-"Well?" This in a whisper as their heads came close together over the
-counter.
-
-"Gimme a drink? I'm choked with the running, so I am!"
-
-"Tell me did you see them first, or not a sup you'll get. Don't be so
-smart now, Anthony Shaughness!"
-
-"Oh, I saw them all right. Gimme the drink?"
-
-She filled the drink, making it overflow the glass in her hurry.
-
-"Well?"
-
-"Bedad I saw them all right. Heard every word they were saying, so I
-did, and everything! It was the devil's father to find them, so it was,
-they were that well hid in the woods.... Gimme another sup, Josie?"
-
-"Now, Anthony?"
-
-"Ah, but you don't know all I have to tell ye!"
-
-Again she overflowed the glass in her mounting excitement.
-
-"Well?"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX
-
-
-The summer was beginning to wane, August having sped to its end. The
-schools had given vacation, and Rebecca Kerr had gone away from the
-valley to Donegal. Ulick Shannon had returned to Dublin. This was
-the uneventful season in the valley. Mrs. Brennan, finding little to
-talk about, had grown quiet in herself. Ned had taken his departure
-to Ballinamult, where he was engaged in putting some lead upon the
-roof of the police-barracks. He was drinking to his heart's content,
-she knew, and would come home to her without a penny saved against
-his long spell of idleness or the coming rigors of the winter. But
-she was thankful for the present that he had removed himself from the
-presence of his son. It was not good for such a son to be compelled
-to look upon such a father. She had prayed for this blessing and lo!
-it had come. And it extended further. Ulick Shannon too was gone from
-the valley, and so she was no longer annoyed by seeing him in company
-with her son. Their friendship had progressed through the months of
-July and August, and she was aware that they had been seen together
-many times in Garradrimna. She did not know the full truth but, as on
-the first occasion, the lake could tell. Rebecca Kerr was gone, and
-so there was no need to speak of this strange girl for whom some wild
-feeling had enkindled a flame of hatred within her. Thus was she left
-in loneliness and peace to dwell upon the wonder of her son. He seemed
-more real to her during these quiet days, nearer perhaps, than he had
-ever been since she had first begun to dream her great dream.
-
-Of late he had taken to his room upstairs, where he did a little study
-daily. "So that it won't be altogether too strange when I go back again
-to college," he told her on more than one occasion when she besought
-him not to be blinding his eyes while there was yet leisure to rest
-them. There were times during the long quiet day in the house when
-her flood of love for him would so well up within her that she would
-call him down for no other reason than that she might have the great
-pleasure of allowing her eyes to rest upon him for a short space only.
-She would speak no word at all, so fearful would she be of disturbing
-the holy peace which fell between them. In the last week of his
-present stay in the valley this happened so often that it became a
-little wearying to John, who had begun to experience a certain feeling
-of independence in his own mind. It pained him greatly now that his
-mother should love him so.... And there were many times when he longed
-to be back in his English college, with his books and friends, near
-opportunities to escape from the influences which had conspired to
-change him.
-
-One morning, after his mother had gazed upon him in this way, he came
-out of the house and leaned over the little wicket gate to take a look
-at the day. It was approaching Farrell McGuinness's time to be along
-with the post, and John expected him to have a letter from the rector
-of the College giving some directions as to the date of return. Yet he
-was not altogether so anxious to return as he had been towards the
-ends of former vacations.... At last Farrell McGuinness appeared around
-the turn of the road. His blue uniform was dusty, and he carried his
-hard little cap in his hand. He dismounted from his red bicycle and
-took two letters out of his bag. He smirked obviously as he performed
-this action. John glanced in excitement at the letters. One was
-addressed in the handwriting of his friend Ulick Shannon and the other
-in the handwriting of a girl. It was this last one that had caused
-Farrell McGuinness to smirk so loudly.
-
-"'Tis you that has the times, begad!" he said to John as he mounted his
-red bicycle and went on up the road, fanning his hot brow with his hard
-cap.
-
-Mrs. Brennan came to the door to hear tidings of the letters from her
-son, but John was already hurrying down through the withering garden,
-tearing open both letters simultaneously.
-
-"Who are they from?" she called out.
-
-"From Ulick Shannon."
-
-"And th'other one?"
-
-"From a chap in the college," he shouted across his shoulder, lying
-boldly to her for the first time in his life. But if only she could see
-the confusion upon his face?
-
-She went back into the sewing-room, a feeling of annoyance showing in
-the deep lines about her eyes. It seemed strange that he had not rushed
-immediately into the house to tell her what was in the letters, strange
-beyond all how he had not seen his way to make that much of her.
-
-Down the garden John was reading Rebecca Kerr's letter first, for it
-was from her that the letter from "one of the chaps in the college" had
-come.
-
-It told of how she was spending her holidays at a seaside village in
-Donegal. "It is even far quieter than Garradrimna and the valley. I go
-down to the sea in the mornings, but it is only to think and dream. The
-sea is just like one big lake, more lonely by far than the lake in the
-valley. This is surely the loneliest place you could imagine, but there
-is a certain sense of peace about it that is quite lovely. It is some
-distance from my home, and it is nice to be amongst people who have no
-immense concern for your eternal welfare. I like this, and so I have
-avoided making acquaintances here. But next week I am expecting a very
-dear friend to join me, and so, I dare say, my holidays will have a
-happy ending after all. I suppose you will have gone from the valley
-when I go back in October. And it will be the dreary place then...."
-She signed herself, "Yours very sincerely, Rebecca Kerr."
-
-His eyes were dancing as he turned to read Ulick Shannon's letter....
-In the opening passages it treated only in a conventional way of
-college affairs, but suddenly he was upon certain lines which to his
-mind seemed so blackly emphasized:
-
-"Now I was just beginning to settle back into the routine of things
-when who should come along but Miss Kerr? She was looking fine. She
-stayed a few days here in Dublin, and I spent most of them with her.
-I gave her the time of her life, the poor little thing! Theaters
-every night, and all the rest of it. She was just lost for a bit of
-enjoyment. Grinding away, you know, in those cursed National Schools
-from year's end to year's end. Do you know what it is, John? I am
-getting fonder and fonder of that girl. She is the best little soul in
-all the world.
-
-"She is spending her holidays up in some God-forsaken village in
-Donegal. Away from her people and by herself, you know. She has a girl
-friend going to see her next week. You will not be able to believe it
-probably--_but I am the girl friend_."
-
-He read them and re-read them, these two letters which bore so
-intimately upon one another and which, through the coincidence of their
-arrival together, held convincing evidence of the dramatic moment that
-had arrived in the adventure of those two lives.
-
-He became filled by an aching feeling that made him shiver and grow
-weak as if with some unknown expectation.... Yet why was he so
-disturbed in his mind as to this happening; what had he to do with it?
-He was one whose life must be directed away from such things. But the
-vision of Rebecca Kerr would be filling his eyes forever. And why had
-she written to him? Why had she so graphically pictured her condition
-of loneliness wherein he might enter and speak to her? His acquaintance
-with her was very slight, and yet he desired to know her beyond all the
-knowledge and beauty of the world.... And to think that it was Ulick
-Shannon who was now going where he longed to go.
-
-A heavy constraint came between him and his mother during the remaining
-days. He spoke little and moved about in meditation like one fearful
-of things about to happen. But she fondly fancied as always that he
-was immersed in contemplation of the future she had planned for him.
-She never saw him setting forth into the autumn fields, a book in his
-hand, that she did not fancy the look of austere aloofness upon his
-face to be the expression of a priest reading his office. But thoughts
-of this kind were far from his mind in the fields or by the little
-wicket gate across which he often leaned, his eyes fixed upon the
-white, hard road which seemed to lead nowhere.
-
-The day of his release at last came. Now that Ned was away from her,
-working in Ballinamult, she had managed to scrape together the price of
-another motor drive to Kilaconnaghan, but it was in the misfortune of
-things that Charlie Clarke's car should have been engaged for the very
-day of John's departure by the Houlihans of Clonabroney. It worried her
-greatly that she could not have this piece of grandeur upon this second
-occasion. Her intense devotion to religious literature had made her
-superstitious to a distressing degree. It appeared to her as an omen
-across the path of John and her own magnification. But John did not
-seem to mind.
-
-It was notable that through his advance into contemplation he had
-triumphed over the power of the valley to a certain extent. So long
-as his mind had been altogether absorbed in thought of the priesthood
-he had moved about furtively, a fugitive, as it were, before the
-hateful looks of the people of the valley and the constant stare of the
-squinting windows. Now he had come into a little tranquillity and his
-heart was not without some happiness in the enjoyment of his larger
-vision.... And yet he was far from being completely at peace.
-
-As he sat driving with his mother in the ass-trap to Kilaconnaghan,
-on his way back to the grand college in England, his doubts were
-assailing him although he was so quiet, to all seeming, sitting there.
-Those who passed them upon the road never guessed that this pale-faced
-young man in black was at war with his soul.... Few words passed
-between him and his mother, for the constraint of the past week had not
-yet been lifted. She was beginning to feel so lonely, and she was vexed
-with herself that the period of his stay in the valley had not been all
-she had dreamt of making it. It had been disappointing to a depressing
-extent, and now especially in its concluding stage. This sad excursion
-in the little ass-trap, without any of the pomp and circumstance which
-John so highly deserved, was a poor, mean ending.
-
-He was running over in his mind the different causes which had given
-this vacation its unusual character. First there came remembrance of
-his journey down from Dublin with Mr. Myles Shannon, who had then
-suggested the friendship with his nephew Ulick. Springing out of this
-thought was a very vivid impression of Garradrimna, that ugly place
-which he had discovered in its true colors for the first time; its vile
-set of drunkards and the few secret lapses it had occasioned him. Then
-there was his father, that fallen and besotted man whom the valley had
-ruined past all hope. As a more intimate recollection his own doubts
-of the religious life by the lakeside arose clear before him. And the
-lake itself seemed very near, for it had been the silent witness of all
-his moods and conditions, the dead thing that had gathered to itself
-a full record of his sojourn in the valley. But, above all, there was
-Rebecca Kerr, whom he had contrived to meet so often as she went from
-school. It was she who now brought light to all the darkened places of
-his memory. Her letter to him the other day was the one real thing he
-had been given to take away from the valley. How he longed to read it
-again! But his mother's eyes were upon him.... At last he began to have
-a little thought of the part she had played.
-
-Already they had reached the railway station of Kilaconnaghan. They
-went together through the little waiting-room, which held sad memories
-for Mrs. Brennan, and out upon the platform, where a couple of porters
-leaned against their barrows chewing tobacco. Two or three passengers
-were sitting around beside their luggage waiting to take the train for
-Dublin. A few bank clerks from the town were standing in a little group
-which possessed an imaginary distinction, laughing in a genteel way
-at a puerile joke from some of the London weekly journals. They were
-wearing sporting clothes and had fresh fags in their mouths. It was
-an essential portion of their occupation, this perpetual delight in
-watching the outgoing afternoon train.
-
-"Aren't they the grand-looking young swells?" said Mrs. Brennan; "I
-suppose them have the great jobs now?"
-
-"Great!" replied John, quite unconscious of what he said.
-
-He spoke no other word till he took his place in the train. She kissed
-him through the open window and hung affectionately to his hand....
-Then there fluttered in upon them the moment of parting.... Smiling
-wistfully and waving her hand, she watched the train until it had
-rounded a curve. She lingered for a moment by the advertisement for
-Jameson's Whiskey in the waiting-room to wipe her eyes. She began to
-remember how she had behaved here in this very place on the day of
-John's home-coming, and of how he had left her standing while he talked
-to Myles Shannon.... He seemed to have slipped away from her now,
-and her present thought made her feel that the shadow of the Shannon
-family, stretching far across her life, had attended his going as it
-had attended his coming.
-
-She went out to the little waiting ass and, mounting into the trap,
-drove out of Kilaconnaghan into the dark forest of her fears.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI
-
-
-Through the earlier part of this term at college there was no peace
-in the mind of John Brennan, and his unsettled state arose, for the
-most part, from simple remembrance of things that had happened in
-the valley. Now it was because he could see again, some afternoon in
-the summer, Rebecca Kerr coming towards him down the road in a brown
-and white striped dress, that he thought was pretty, and swinging a
-sun-bonnet by its long cotton strings from her soft, small hand. Or
-again, some hour he had spent listening to Ulick Shannon as he talked
-about the things of life which are marked only by the beauty of passion
-and death. Always, too, with the aid of two letters he still treasured,
-his imagination would leap towards the creation of a picture--Rebecca
-and Ulick together in far-off Donegal.
-
-He did not go home at Christmas because it was so expensive to return
-to Ireland, and in the lonely stretches of the vacation, when all his
-college friends were away from him, he felt that they must surely be
-meeting again, meeting and kissing in some quiet, dusky place--Rebecca
-as he had seen her always and Ulick as he had known him.
-
-Even if he had wished to leave Ulick and Rebecca out of his mind, it
-would have been impossible, so persistently did his mother refer to
-both in her letters. There was never a letter which did not contain
-some allusion to "them two" or "that one" or "that fellow." In
-February, when the days began to stretch out again, he thought only of
-the valley coming nearer, with its long period of delight.... Within
-the fascination of his musing he grew forgetful of his lofty future.
-Yet there were odd moments when he remembered that he had moved into
-the valley a very different man at the beginning of last June. The
-valley had changed him, and might continue to change him when he went
-there again.
-
-Nothing came to stay the even rise of his yearning save his mother's
-letters, which were the same recitals at all times of stories about the
-same people. At no time did he expect to find anything new in them, and
-so it was all the stronger blow when from one letter leaped out the
-news that Ulick Shannon had failed to pass his final medical exam., and
-was now living at home in Scarden House with his uncle Myles. That he
-had been "expelled from the University and disgraced" was the way she
-put it. It did not please John to see that she was exulting over what
-had happened to Ulick while hinting at the same time that there was no
-fear of a like calamity happening to her son. To him it appeared as
-not at all such an event as one might exult about. It rather evoked
-pity and condolence in the thought that it might happen to any man. It
-might happen to himself. Here surely was a fearful thing--the sudden
-dread of his return to the valley, a disgrace for life, and his mother
-a ruined woman in the downfall of her son.... This last letter of hers
-had brought him to review all the brave thoughts that had come to him
-by the lakeside, wild thoughts of living his own life, not in the way
-appointed for him by any other person, but freely, after the bent of
-his own will. Yet when he came to think of it quietly there was not
-much he could do in the world with his present education. It seemed
-to have fitted him only for one kind of life. And his thoughts of the
-summer might have been only passing distractions which must disappear
-with the full development of his mind. To think of those ideas ever
-coming suddenly to reality would be a blow too powerful to his mother.
-It would kill her. For, with other knowledge, the summer holidays had
-brought him to see how much she looked forward to his becoming a priest.
-
-Quite unconsciously, without the least effort of his will, he found
-himself returning to his old, keen interest in his studies. He found
-himself coming back to his lost peace of mind. He felt somehow that
-his enjoyment of this grand contentment was the very best way he could
-flash back his mother's love. Besides it was the best earnest he had of
-the enjoyment of his coming holidays.
-
-Then the disaster came. The imminence of it had been troubling the
-rector for a long time. His college was in a state of disintegration,
-for the Great War had cast its shadow over the quiet walls.
-
-It was a charity college. This was a secret that had been well kept
-from the people of the valley by Mrs. Brennan. "A grand college in
-England" was the utmost information she would ever vouchsafe to any
-inquirer. She had formed a friendly alliance with the old, bespectacled
-postmistress and made all her things free of charge for keeping close
-the knowledge of John's exact whereabouts in England. Yet there was
-never a letter from mother to son or from son to mother that the old
-maid did not consider it her bounden duty to open and read.
-
-The college had been supported by good people who could find nothing
-else to do with their money. But, in war-time, charity was diverted
-into other channels, and its income had consequently dwindled almost to
-vanishing point. Coupled with this, many of the students had left aside
-their books and gone into the Army. One morning the rector appeared in
-the lecture-hall to announce to the remnant that the college was about
-to be closed for "some time." He meant indefinitely, but the poor man
-could not put it in that way.
-
-John heard the news with mingled feelings. In a dumb way he had longed
-for this after his return from the valley, but now he saw in it,
-not the arrival of a desired event, but a postponement of the great
-intention that had begun to absorb him again. He was achieving his
-desire in a way that made it a punishment.... To-morrow he would be
-going home.... But of course his mother knew everything by this time
-and was already preparing a welcome for him.
-
-The March evening was gray and cold when he came into the deserted
-station of Kilaconnaghan. It had been raining ceaselessly since
-Christmas, and around and away from him stretched the sodden country.
-He got a porter to take his trunk out to the van and stand it on end
-upon the platform. Then he went into the waiting-room to meet his
-mother. But she was not there. Nor was the little donkey and trap
-outside the station house. Perhaps she was coming to meet him with
-Charlie Clarke in the grand and holy motor car. If he went on he might
-meet them coming through Kilaconnaghan. He got the porter to take his
-box from its place on the platform and put it into the waiting-room.
-All down through the town there was no sign of them, and when he got
-out upon the road to Garradrimna and the valley there was no sign of
-them either. The night had fallen thick and heavy, and John, as he
-went on through the rain, looked forward to the comforting radiance of
-Charlie Clarke's headlights suddenly to flash around every corner. But
-the car did not come and he began to grow weary of tramping through the
-wet night. All along the way he was meeting people who shouldered up
-to him and strove to peer into his face as he slipped past. He did not
-come on to the valley road by way of Garradrimna, but instead by The
-Road of the Dead, down which he went slopping through great pools at
-every few yards.
-
-He was very weary when he came at last to the door of his mother's
-house. Before knocking he had listened for a while to the low hum of
-her reading to his father. Then he heard her moving to open the door,
-and immediately she was silhouetted in the lamp-light.
-
-"Is that you, John? We knew you were coming home. We got the rector's
-letter."
-
-He noticed a queer coldness in her tone.
-
-"I'd rather to God that anything in the world had happened than this.
-What'll they say now? They'll say you were expelled. As sure as God,
-they'll say you were expelled!"
-
-He threw himself into the first chair he saw.
-
-"Did any one meet you down the road? Did many meet you from this to
-Kilaconnaghan?"
-
-He did not answer. This was a curious welcome he was receiving. Yet he
-noticed that tears were beginning to creep into her eyes, which were
-also red as if from much recent weeping.
-
-"Oh, God knows, and God knows again, John, I'd rather have died than it
-should have come to this. And why was it that after all me contriving
-and after all me praying and good works this bitter cross should have
-fallen? I don't know. I can't think for what I am being punished and
-why misfortune should come to you. And what'll they say at all at all?
-Oh you may depend upon it that it's the worst thing they'll say. But
-you mustn't tell them that the college is finished. For I suppose it's
-finished now the way everything is going to be finished before the war.
-But you mustn't say that. You must say that it is on special holidays
-you are, after having passed a Special examination. And you must behave
-as if you were on holidays!"
-
-Such a dreadful anxiety was upon her that she appeared no longer as his
-mother, the infinitely tender woman he had known. She now seemed to
-possess none of the pure contentment her loving tenderness should have
-brought her. She was altogether concerned as to what the people would
-say and not as to the effect of the happening upon her son's career.
-He had begun to think of this for himself, but it was not of it that
-she was now thinking.... She was thinking of herself, of her pride, and
-that was why she had not come to meet him. And now his clothes were wet
-and he was tired, for he had walked from Kilaconnaghan in the rain.
-
-Ned Brennan, stirring out of his drunken doze, muttered thickly: "Ah,
-God blast yourselves and your college, can't you let a fellow have a
-sleep be the fire after his hard day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII
-
-
-John went from the kitchen to a restless night. Soon after daybreak he
-got up and looked out of the window. The crows had been flying across
-it darkly since the beginning of the light. He gazed down now towards
-the stretch of trees about the lake. They were dark figures in the
-somber picture. He had not seen them since autumn, and even then some
-of the brightness of summer had lingered with them. Now they looked
-as if they had been weeping. He could see the lake between the clumps
-of fir-trees. The water was all dark like the scene in which it was
-framed. It now beat itself into a futile imitation of billows, into
-a kind of make-believe before the wild things around that it was an
-angry sea, holding deep in its caverns the relics of great dooms. But
-the trees seemed to rock in enjoyment and to join forces with the wild
-things in tormenting the lake.
-
-John looked at the clock. It was early hours, and there would be no
-need to go out for a long time. He went back to bed and remained there
-without sleep, gazing up at the ceiling.... He fell to thinking of what
-he would have to face in the valley now.... His mother had hinted at
-the wide scope of it last night when she said that she would rather
-anything in God's world had happened than this thing, this sudden
-home-coming.... She was thinking only of her own pride. It was an
-offense against her pride, he felt, and that was all. It stood to
-lessen the exalted position which the purpose of his existence gave
-her before the other women of the valley. But he had begun to feel the
-importance of his own person in the scheme of circumstance by which he
-was surrounded. It had begun to appear to him that he mattered somehow;
-that in some undreamt-of way he might leave his mark upon the valley
-before he died.
-
-He would go to Mass in Garradrimna this morning. He very well knew how
-this attendance at morning Mass was a comfort to his mother. He was
-about to do this thing to please her now. Yet, how was the matter going
-to affect himself? He would be stared at by the very walls and trees as
-he went the wet road into Garradrimna; and no matter what position he
-might take up in the chapel there would be very certain to be a few who
-would come kneeling together into a little group and, in hushed tones
-within the presence of their God upon the altar, say:
-
-"Now, isn't that John Brennan I see before me, or can I believe my
-eyes? Aye, it must be him. Expelled, I suppose. Begad that's great.
-Expelled! Begad!" If he happened to take the slightest side-glance
-around, he would catch glimpses of eyes sunk low beneath brows which
-published expressions midway between pity and contempt, between delight
-and curiosity.... In some wonderful way the first evidence of his long
-hoped for downfall would spread throughout the small congregation.
-Those in front would let their heads or prayerbooks fall beside or
-behind them, so that they might have an excuse for turning around to
-view the young man who, in his unfortunate presence here, stood for
-this glad piece of intelligence. The acolytes serving Father O'Keeffe,
-and having occasional glimpses of the congregation, would see the
-black-coated figure set there in contradistinction to Charlie Clarke
-and the accustomed voteens with the bobbing bonnets. In their wise
-looks up at him they would seem to communicate the news to the priest.
-
-And although only a very few seconds had elapsed, Father O'Keeffe
-would have thrown off his vestments and be going bounding towards the
-Presbytery for his breakfast as John emerged from the chapel. It would
-be an ostentatious meeting. Although he had neither act nor part in it,
-nor did he favor it in any way, Father O'Keeffe always desired people
-to think that it was he who was "doing for Mrs. Brennan's boy beyond
-in England." ... There would be the usual flow of questions, a deep
-pursing of the lips, and the sudden creation of a wise, concerned,
-ecclesiastical look at every answer. Then there was certain to come
-the final brutal question: "And what are you going to do with yourself
-meanwhile, is it any harm to ask?" As he continued to stare up vacantly
-at the ceiling, John could not frame a possible answer to that
-question. And yet he knew it would be the foremost of Father O'Keeffe's
-questions.
-
-There would be the hurried crowding into every doorway and into all
-the squinting windows as he went past. Outwardly there would be smiles
-of welcome for him, but in the seven publichouses of Garradrimna the
-exultation would be so great as to make men who had been ancient
-enemies stand drinks to one another in the moment of gladness which had
-come upon them with the return of John Brennan.
-
-"'Tis expelled he is like Ulick Shannon. That's as sure as you're
-there!"
-
-"To be sure he's expelled. And wouldn't any one know he was going to
-be expelled the same as the other fellow, the way they were conducting
-themselves last summer, running after gerrls and drinking like hell?"
-
-"And did ye ever hear such nonsense? The idea of him going on for to be
-a priest!" Then there would be a shaking of wise heads and a coming of
-wise looks into their faces.
-
-He could see what would happen when he met the fathers of Garradrimna,
-when he met Padna Padna or Shamesy Golliher. There would be the short,
-dry laugh from Padna Padna, and a pathetic scrambling of the dimming
-intelligence to recognize him.
-
-"And is that you, John? Back again! Well, boys-a-day! And isn't it
-grand that Ulick Shannon is at home these times too? Isn't it a pity
-about Ulick, for he's a decent fellow? Every bit as decent as his
-father, Henry Shannon, was, and he was a damned decent fellow. Ah, 'tis
-a great pity of him to be exshpelled. Aye, _'tis a great pity of any
-one that does be exshpelled_."
-
-The meeting with Shamesy Golliher formed as a clearer picture before
-his mind.
-
-"Arrah me sound man, John, sure I thought you'd be saying the Mass
-before this time. There's nothing strange in the valley at all. Only
-'tis harder than ever to get the rabbits, the weeshy devils! Only for
-Ulick Shannon I don't know what I'd do for a drink sometimes. But,
-damn it, he's the decentest fellow.... You're only a few minutes late,
-sure 'tis only this blessed minute that Miss Kerr's gone on to the
-school.... And you could have been chatting with her so grandly all the
-way!"
-
-That John Brennan should be thinking after this fashion, creating all
-those little scenes before the eye of his mind and imagining their
-accompanying conversations, was indicative of the way the valley and
-the village had forced their reality upon him last summer. But this
-pictured combination of incidents was intensified by a certain morbid
-way of dwelling upon things his long spells of meditation by the lake
-had brought him. Yet he knew that even all his clear vision of the
-mean ways of life around him would not act as an incentive to combat
-them but, most extraordinary to imagine, as a sort of lure towards the
-persecution of their scenes and incidents.
-
-"It must be coming near time to rise for Mass," he said aloud to
-himself, as he felt that he had been quite a long time giving himself
-up to speculations in which there was no joy.
-
-There was a tap upon the door. It was his mother calling him, as had
-been her custom during all the days of his holiday times. The door
-opened and she came into the room. Her manner seemed to have changed
-somewhat from the night before. The curious look of tenderness she had
-always displayed while gazing upon him seemed to have struggled back
-into her eyes. She came and sat by the bedside and, for a few moments,
-both were silent.
-
-"'Tis very cold this morning, mother," was the only thing John could
-think of saying.
-
-A slight confusion seemed to have come upon her since her entrance to
-the room. Without any warning by a word, she suddenly threw her arms
-about him as he lay there on the bed and covered his face with kisses.
-He was amazed, but her kisses seemed to hurt him.... It must have been
-years and years since she had kissed him like this, and now he was a
-man.... When she released him so that he could look up at her he saw
-that she was crying.
-
-"I'm sorry about last night, John," she said. "I'm sorry, darling;
-but surely I could not bring myself to do it. Even for a few hours I
-wanted to keep them from knowing. I even wanted to keep your father
-from knowing. So I did not tell him until I heard your poor, wet foot
-come sopping up to the door. He did not curse much then, for he seems
-to have begun to feel a little respect for you. But the curses of him
-all through the night were enough to lift the roof off the house. Oh,
-he's the terrible man, for all me praying and all me reading to him of
-good, holy books; and 'tis no wonder for all kinds of misfortune to
-fall, though God between us and all harm, what am I saying at all?...
-It was the hard, long walk down the wet, dark road from Kilaconnaghan
-last night, and it pained me every inch of the way. If it hurt your
-feet and your limbs, _avic_, remember that your suffering was nothing
-to the pain that plowed through your mother's heart all the while you
-were coming along to this house.... But God only knows I couldn't. I
-couldn't let them see me setting off into the twilight upon the little
-ass, and I going for me son. I even went so far as to catch the little
-ass and yoke him, and put on the grand clothes I was decked out in when
-I met you last June with the motor. But somehow I hadn't the heart
-for the journey this time, and you coming home before you were due. I
-couldn't let them see me! I couldn't let them see me, so I couldn't!"
-
-"But it is not my fault, mother. I have not brought it about directly
-by any action of mine. It comes from the changed state of everything on
-account of the Great War. You may say it came naturally."
-
-"Ah, sure I know that, dear, I know it well, and don't be troubling
-yourself. In the letter of the rector before the very last one didn't
-he mention the change of resigned application that had at last come to
-you, and that you had grown less susceptible--I think that is the grand
-word he used--aye, less susceptible to distractions and more quiet in
-your mind? And I knew as well as anything that it was coming to pass
-so beautifully, that all the long prayers I had said for you upon me
-two bare, bended knees were after being heard at last, and a great joy
-was just beginning to come surging into me heart when the terrible blow
-of the last letter fell down upon me. But sure I used to be having the
-queerest dreams, and I felt that nothing good was going to happen when
-Ulick Shannon came down here expelled from the University in Dublin.
-You used to be a great deal in his company last summer, and mebbe there
-was some curse put upon the both of you together. May God forgive me,
-but I hate that young fellow like poison. I don't know rightly why
-it is, but it vexes me to see him idling around the way he is after
-what's happened to him. Bragging about being expelled he bees every
-day in McDermott's of Garradrimna. And his uncle Myles is every bit
-as bad, going to keep him at home until the end of next summer. 'To
-give him time to think of things,' he says. 'I'm going to find a use
-for him,' he says to any one that asks him, 'never you fear!' Well,
-begad, 'tis a grand thing not to know what to do with your money like
-the Shannons of Scarden Hill.... But sure I'm talking and talking. 'Tis
-what I came in to tell you now of the plan I have been making up all
-night. If we let them see that we're lying down under this misfortune
-we're bet surely. We must put a brave face upon it. You must make
-a big show-off that you're after getting special holidays for some
-great, successful examination you've passed ahead of any one else in
-the college. I'll let on I'm delighted, and be mad to tell it to every
-customer that comes into the sewing-room. But you must help me; you
-must go about saying hard things of Ulick Shannon that's after being
-expelled, for that's the very best way you can do it. He'll mebbe seek
-your company like last year, but you must let him see for certain that
-you consider yourself a deal above him. But you mustn't be so quiet
-and go moping so much about the lake as you used to. You must go about
-everywhere, talking of yourself and what you're going to be. Now you
-must do all this for my sake--won't you, John?"
-
-His tremulous "yes" was very unenthusiastic and seemed to hold no great
-promise of fulfilment. These were hard things his mother was asking him
-to do, and he would require some time to think them over.... But even
-now he wondered was it in him to do them at all. The attitude towards
-Ulick Shannon which she now proposed would be a curious thing, for they
-had been the best of friends.
-
-"And while you're doing this thing for me, John, I'll be going on with
-me plans for your future. It was me, and me only, that set up this
-beautiful plan of the priesthood as the future I wanted for you. I got
-no one to help me, I can tell you that. Only every one to raise their
-hands against me. And in spite of all that I carried me plan to what
-success the rector spoke of in his last letter. And even though this
-shadow has fallen across it, me son and meself between us are not going
-to let it be the end. For I want to see you a priest, John. I want to
-see you a priest before I die. God knows I want to see that before I
-die. Nan Byrne's son a priest before she dies!"
-
-Her speech mounted to such a pitch of excitement that towards the end
-it trailed away into a long, frenzied scream. It awoke Ned Brennan
-where he dozed fitfully in the next room, and he roared out:
-
-"Ah, what the hell are yous gosthering and croaking about in there at
-this hour of the morning, the two of yous? It'd be serving you a lot
-better to be down getting me breakfast, Nan Byrne!"
-
-She came away very quietly from the bedside of her son and left the
-room. John remained for some time thinking over the things she had been
-saying. Then he rose wearily and went downstairs. It was only now he
-noticed that his mother had dried his clothes. It must have taken her
-a good portion of the night to do this. His boots, which had been so
-wet and muddy after his walk from Kilaconnaghan, were now polished
-to resplendence and standing clean and dry beside the fire. The full
-realization of these small actions brought a fine feeling of tenderness
-into his mind.... He quickly prepared himself to leave the house. She
-observed him with concern as she went about cooking the breakfast for
-her man.
-
-"You're not going to Mass this morning, are ye, John?"
-
-"Oh, no!" he replied with a nervous quickness. "Our chat delayed me. It
-is now past nine."
-
-"Ah, dear, sure I never thought while I was talking. The last time I
-kept you it was the morning after the concert, and even then you were
-in time for 'half-past eight'.... But sure, anyhow, you're too tired
-this morning."
-
-"I'm going for a little walk before breakfast."
-
-The words broke in queerly upon the thought she had just expressed,
-but his reason was nothing more than to avoid his father, who would be
-presently snapping savagely at his breakfast in the kitchen.
-
-The wet road was cheerless and the bare trees and fields were cold and
-lonely. Everything was in contrast to the mood in which he had known it
-last summer. It seemed as if he would never know it in that mood again.
-Now that he had returned it was a poor thing and very small beside the
-pictures his dream had made.... He was wandering down The Road of the
-Dead and there was a girl coming towards him. He knew it was Rebecca
-Kerr, and this meeting did not appear in the least accidental.
-
-She was dressed, as he had not previously seen her, in a heavy brown
-coat, a thick scarf about her throat and a pretty velvet cap which hid
-most of her hair. Her small feet were well shod in strong boots, and
-she came radiantly down the wet road. A look of surprise sprang into
-her eyes when she saw him, and she seemed uncertain of herself as they
-stopped to speak.
-
-"Back again?" she said, not without some inquisitive surprise in her
-tones.
-
-"Yes, another holiday," he said quickly.
-
-"Nothing wrong?" she queried.
-
-"Well, well, no; but the college has closed down for the period of the
-war."
-
-"That is a pity."
-
-He laughed a queer, excited little laugh, in which there did not seem
-to be any mirth or meaning. Then he picked himself up quickly.
-
-"You won't tell anybody?"
-
-"What about?"
-
-"This that I have told you, about the college."
-
-"Oh, dear no!" she replied very quickly, as if amazed and annoyed that
-he should have asked her to respect this little piece of information as
-a confidence. And she had not reckoned on meeting him at all. Besides
-she had not spoken so many words to him since the morning after the
-concert.
-
-She lifted her head high and went on walking between the muddy puddles
-on the way to the valley school.
-
-John felt somewhat crushed by her abruptness, especially after what
-he had told her. And where was the fine resolve with which his mother
-had hoped to infuse him of acting a brave part for her sake before the
-people of the valley?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII
-
-
-Myles Shannon and his nephew Ulick sat at breakfast in the dining-room
-of the big house among the trees. The _Irish Times_ of the previous
-day's date was crackling in the elder man's hand.
-
-"Did you ever think of joining the Army, Ulick? It is most
-extraordinary, the number of ne'er-do-wells who manage to get
-commissions just now. Why I think there should be no bother at all
-if you tried. With your knowledge I fancy you could get into the
-R.A.M.C. It is evidently infernally easy. I suppose your conduct at the
-University would have nothing to do with your chances of acceptance or
-rejection?"
-
-"Oh, not at all."
-
-"I thought not."
-
-"But I fancied, uncle, that when I came down here from Dublin I had
-done with intending myself to kill people. That is, with joining any
-combination for purposes of slaughter."
-
-Myles Shannon lifted his eyes from the paper and smiled. Evidently he
-did not appreciate the full, grim point of the joke, but he rather
-fancied there was something subtle about it, and it was in that quiet
-and venerable tradition of humorous things his training had led him to
-enjoy. This was one of the reasons why, even though a Catholic and a
-moderate Nationalist, he had remained a devoted reader of the _Irish
-Times_. He was conservative even in his humor.
-
-"But in Army medical work, however, there is always the compensating
-chance of the gentleman with the license to kill getting killed
-himself," continued Ulick.
-
-His lips closed now, for he had at last come to the end of his joke.
-The conversation lapsed, and Mr. Shannon went on with his reading.
-Ulick had been to Garradrimna on the previous evening, and he was
-acutely conscious of many defects in his own condition and in the
-condition of the world about him this morning. His thoughts were now
-extending with all the power of which they were capable to his uncle,
-that silent, intent man, whose bald head stretched expansively before
-him.
-
-Myles Shannon was a singularly fine man, and in thinking of him as such
-his mind began to fill with imaginations of the man his father must
-have been. He had never known his father nor, for the matter of that,
-could he boast of any deep acquaintance with his uncle, yet what an
-excellent, restrained type of man he was to be sure! Another in the
-same position as his guardian would have flogged himself into a fury
-over the mess he had made of his studies. But it had not been so with
-his uncle. He had behaved with a calm forbearance. He had supplied him
-with time and money, and had gone even so far as to look kindly upon
-the affair with Rebecca Kerr. He had been here since the beginning of
-the year, and all his uncle had so far said to him by way of asserting
-his authority was spoken very quietly:
-
-"Now, I'll give you a fair time to think over things. I'll give you
-till the end of the summer holidays, till after young Brennan comes and
-goes." These had been his uncle's exact words, and he had not attempted
-to question them or to qualify them at the time. But just now they were
-running through his brain with the most curious throbbing insistence.
-"Till after young Brennan comes and goes." He knew that his uncle had
-taken an unusual fancy to John Brennan and evidently wished that his
-summer holidays should be spent enjoyably. But it was a long time until
-summer, and he was not a person one might conscientiously commend to
-the friendship of a clerical student. He very often went to Garradrimna.
-
-Ulick had already formed some impressions of his fellow man. He
-held it as his opinion that at the root of an action, which may
-appear extraordinary because of its goodness, is always an amount of
-selfishness. Yet, somehow, as he carefully considered his uncle in the
-meditative spaces of the breakfast he could not fit him in with this
-idea.
-
-As he went on with his thought he felt that it was the very excess of
-his uncle's qualities which had had such a curious effect upon his
-relations with Rebecca Kerr. It was the very easiness of the path he
-had afforded to love-making which now made it so difficult. If they had
-been forbidden and if they had been persecuted, their early affection
-must have endured more strongly. The opposition of the valley and the
-village still continued, but Ulick considered their bearing upon him
-now as he had always considered it--with contempt.
-
-There had been a good deal of wild affection transported into their
-snatched meetings during the past summer in Donegal. After Christmas,
-too, he had gone there to see her, and then had happened the climax of
-their love-making in a quiet cottage within sound of the sea.... Both
-had moved away from that glowing moment forever changed. Neither could
-tell of the greatness of the shadow that had fallen between them.
-
-He remembered all her tears on the first evening he had met her after
-coming back to the valley. There had been nothing in her letters, only
-the faintest suggestion of some strained feeling. Then had come this
-unhappy meeting.... She had tortured herself into the belief that it
-was she who was responsible for his failure.
-
-"With all the time you have wasted coming to see me I have destroyed
-you. When you should have been at your studies I was taking you up to
-Donegal."
-
-As he listened to these words between her sobs, there rushed in upon
-him full realization of all her goodness and the contrast of two
-pictures her words had called to his mind.... There was he by her side,
-her head upon his shoulder in that lonely cottage in Donegal, their
-young lives lighting the cold, bare place around them.... And then
-the other picture of himself bent low over his dirty, thumb-greased
-books in that abominable street up and down which a cart was always
-lumbering. All the torture of this driving him to Doyle's pub at the
-corner, and afterwards along some squalid street of ill-fame with a few
-more drunken medical students.
-
-He was glad to be with her again. They met very often during his first
-month at his uncle's house, in dark spots along the valley road and The
-Road of the Dead. Then he began to notice a curious reserve springing
-up between them. She was becoming mysterious while at the same time
-remaining acutely present in his life.
-
-One morning she had asked him if he intended to remain long in the
-valley, and he had not known how to reply to her. Another time she
-had asked him if he was going to retire altogether from the study of
-medicine, and with what did he intend to occupy himself now? And, upon
-a certain occasion, she had almost asked him was it the intention of
-his uncle to leave him the grand farm and the lovely house among the
-trees?
-
-These were vexatious questions and so different from any part of the
-talk they used to have here in the valley last summer or at the cottage
-in Donegal. Her feeling of surrender in his presence had been replaced
-by a sense of possession which seemed the death of all that kindling of
-her heart. Then it had happened that, despite the encouragement of his
-uncle, a shadow had fallen upon his love-affair with Rebecca Kerr....
-He was growing tired of his idle existence in the valley. Very slowly
-he was beginning to see life from a new angle. He was disgusted with
-himself and with the mess he had made of things in Dublin. He could not
-say whether it was her talk with him that had shamed him into thinking
-about it, but he felt again like making something of himself away from
-this mean place. Once or twice he wondered whether it was because he
-wanted to get away from her. Somehow his uncle and himself were the
-only people who seemed directly concerned in the matter. His uncle
-was a very decent man, and he felt that he could not presume on his
-hospitality any longer.
-
-Mr. Shannon took off his spectacles and laid by the _Irish Times_.
-There was an intimate bond between the man and his paper. He always
-considered it as hitting off his own opinions to a nicety upon any
-subject under the sun. This always after he had read the leaders which
-dealt with these subjects. It afforded a contribution to his thought
-and ideas out of which he spoke with a surer word.
-
-Old Susan Hennessy came into the room with some letters that Farrell
-McGuinness was after leaving. She hobbled in, a hunched, decrepit
-woman, now in the concluding stages of her long life as housekeeper to
-the Shannons, and put the letters into her master's hand.... Then she
-lingered, quite unnecessarily, about the breakfast-table. Her toothless
-gums were stripping as words began to struggle into her mouth.... Mr.
-Shannon took notice of her. This was her usual behavior when she had
-anything of uncommon interest to say.
-
-"Well, what is it now?" said Mr. Shannon, not without some weariness in
-his tones, for he expected only to hear some poor piece of local gossip.
-
-"It's how Farrell McGuinness is after telling me, sir, that John
-Brennan is home."
-
-"Is that a fact?"
-
-"And Farrell says that by the looks on the outside of a certain letter
-that came to Mrs. Brennan th'other day it is what he is after being
-expelled."
-
-"Expelled. Well, well!"
-
-There was a mixture of interest and anxiety in Mr. Shannon's tones.
-
-"A good many of those small English colleges are getting broken up
-and the students drifting into the Army, I suppose that's the reason;
-but of course they'll say he's been expelled," Ulick ventured as old
-Susan slipped from the room and down to the loneliness of the kitchen,
-where she might brood to her heart's content over this glad piece of
-information, for she was one who well knew the story of John Brennan's
-mother and "poor Misther Henery Shannon."
-
-"Is that so?" The interest of Mr. Shannon was rapidly mounting towards
-excitement.
-
-"A case like that is rather hard," said Ulick.
-
-"Yes, it will be rather hard on Mrs. Brennan, I fancy, she being so
-stuck-up with pride in him."
-
-He could just barely hide his feelings of exultation.
-
-"And John Brennan is not a bad fellow."
-
-"I daresay he's not."
-
-There was now a curious note of impatience in the elder man's tones as
-if he wished, for some reason or other, to have done speaking of the
-matter.
-
-"It will probably mean the end of his intention for the Church."
-
-"That is more than likely. These sudden changes have the effect of
-throwing a shadow over many a young fellow's vocation."
-
-His eyes twinkled, but he fingered his mustache nervously as he said
-this.
-
-"Funny to think of the two of us getting thrown down together, we being
-such friends!"
-
-The doubtful humor in the coincidence had appealed to the queer kink
-that was in the mind of Ulick, and it was because of it he now spoke.
-It was the merest wantonness that he should have said this thing, and
-yet it seemed instantly to have struck some hidden chord of deeper
-thought in his uncle's mind. When Myles Shannon spoke again it was
-abruptly, and his words seemed to spring out of a sudden impulse:
-
-"You'd better think over that matter of the Army I have just mentioned."
-
-It was the first time his uncle Myles had spoken to him in this way,
-and now that the rod of correction had fallen even thus lightly he did
-not like it at all. He felt that his face was already flushing.... And
-into his mind was burning again the thought of how he had made such a
-mess of things.... He moved towards the door, and there was his uncle's
-voice again raised as if in the reproof of authority:
-
-"And where might you be going to-day?"
-
-"Down the valley to see my friend John Brennan, who'll be surely lonely
-on the first day at home," he said, rather hurriedly, as he went out in
-the hallway to get his overcoat.
-
-When Myles Shannon was left alone he immediately drifted into deeper
-thought there in the empty room with his back to the fire. With one
-hand he clasped his long coat-tails, and with the other nervously
-twirled his long mustache. He was thinking rapidly, and his thoughts
-were so strong within him that he was speaking them aloud.
-
-"I might not have gone so far. Don't you see how I might have waited in
-patience and allowed the hand of Fate to adjust things? See how grandly
-they are coming around.... And now maybe I have gone too far. Maybe I
-have helped to spoil Ulick's life into the bargain. And then there's
-the third party, this girl, Rebecca Kerr?"
-
-He looked straight out before him now, and away over the remains of
-the breakfast.... He crossed to the window and gazed for a while over
-the wet fields. He moved into the cold, empty parlor and gazed from
-its window also over the fields.... Then he turned and for a space
-remained looking steadfastly at the bureau which held so much of
-_Her_. Quite suddenly he crossed over and unlocked it.... Yes, there,
-with the other dead things, were the photograph of Helena Cooper and
-the letters she had written, and the letter John Brennan's mother had
-written about him. He raised his eyes from the few, poor relics and
-they gathered into their depths the loneliness of the parlor.... Here
-was the picture of this girl, who was young and lovely, while around
-him, surging emptily forever, was the loneliness of his house. It was
-Nan Byrne who had driven him to this, and it was Nan Byrne who had
-ruined his brother Henry.... And yet he was weakly questioning his
-just feelings of revenge against this woman, but for whom he might now
-be a happy man. He might have laughter in this house and the sound
-of children at play. But now he had none of these things, and he was
-lonely.... He looked into the over-mantel, and there he was, an empty
-figure, full of a strong family pride that really stood for nothing,
-a polite survival from the mild romance of the early nineties of the
-last century, a useless thing amid his flocks and herds. A man who had
-none of the contentment which comes from the company of a woman or her
-children, a mean creature, who, during visits to the cattle-market,
-occasionally wasted his manhood in dingy adventure about low streets
-in Dublin. One who remained apart from the national thought of his own
-country reading queer articles in the _Irish Times_ about "resolute"
-government of Ireland.
-
-His head lay low upon his chest because he was a man mightily oppressed
-by a great feeling of abasement.
-
-"In the desolation of her heart through the destruction of her son," he
-muttered to himself, not without a certain weariness, as he moved away
-from the mirror.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV
-
-
-Whenever a person from the valley went abroad now to fair or market the
-question was always asked:
-
-"Is it a fact that Ulick Shannon was expelled from the University in
-Dublin and is at home? And is it a fact that John Brennan is at home
-from the college he was at too, the grand college in England whose
-story his mother spread far and wide?"
-
-"That's quite so, ma'am. It's a double fact!"
-
-"Well, well!"
-
-"And is it a fact that they do be always together, going by back ways
-into the seven publichouses of Garradrimna?"
-
-"Oh, indeed, that's true, ma'am, and now you have the whole of it. Sure
-it was in the same seven publichouses that the pair of them laid the
-foundations of their ruination last summer. Sure, do ye know what I'm
-going to tell you? They couldn't be kept out of them, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"
-
-Now it was true that if Ulick had gone at all towards Garradrimna it
-was through very excess of spirits, and it was for the very same reason
-that he had enticed John Brennan to go with him.... That time they were
-full of hope and their minds were held by their thoughts of Rebecca.
-But now, somehow, she seemed to have slipped out of the lives of both
-of them. And because both had chosen. The feeling had entered into
-Ulick's heart. But in the case of John Brennan it was not so certain.
-What had brought him out upon the first morning of his homecoming to
-take a look at her? It would seem that, through the sudden quickening
-of his mind towards study just before the break-up of the college,
-he should have forgotten her.... His life now seemed to hang in the
-balance shudderingly; a breath might direct it anyway.
-
-He felt that he should have liked to make some suggestions of his own
-concerning his future, but there was always that tired look of love in
-his mother's eyes to frustrate his intention.... Often he would go into
-the sewing-room of a morning and she would say so sadly as she bent
-over her machine--"I'm contriving, John; I'm contriving!" He had come
-to the years of manhood and yet he must needs leave every initiative in
-her hands since she would have it so.... Thus was he driven from the
-house at many a time of the day.
-
-He went to morning Mass as usual, but the day was long and dreary after
-that, for the weather was wet and the coldness of winter still lay
-heavy over the fields. The evenings were the dreariest as he sat over
-his books in his room and listened to the hum of his mother's machine.
-Later this would give place to the tumultuous business of his father's
-home-coming from Garradrimna. Sometimes things were broken, and the
-noise would destroy his power of application. Thus it was that, for the
-most part, he avoided the house in the evenings. At the fall of dark he
-would go slipping along the wet road on his way to Garradrimna. Where
-the way from Scarden joined the way from Tullahanogue he generally met
-Ulick Shannon, comfortably top-coated, bound for the same place.
-
-It seemed as if the surrounding power of the talk their presence in the
-valley had created was driving them towards those scenes in which that
-talk had pictured them. Through the dusk people would smirk at them as
-they were seen going the road.... They would slip into McDermott's by
-the same back way that Ned Brennan had often gone to Brannagan's. Many
-a time did they pass the place in the woods where John had beheld the
-adventure of his father and the porter last summer.... In the bottling
-room of McDermott's they would fancy they were unseen, but Shamesy
-Golliher or Padna Padna or Thomas James would be always cropping up
-most unaccountably to tell the tale when they went out into the bar
-again after what would appear the most accidental glance into the
-bottling-room.... John would take port wine and Ulick whatever drink he
-preferred. But even the entertainment of themselves after this fashion
-did not evoke the subtle spell of last summer. There was no laughter,
-no stories, even of a questionable kind, when Josie Guinan came to
-answer their call. Every evening she would ask the question:
-
-"Well, how is Rebecca, Ulick?"
-
-This gross familiarity irritated him greatly, for his decent breeding
-made him desire that she should keep her distance. Besides he did not
-want any one to remind him of Rebecca just now. He never answered this
-question, nor the other by which it was always followed:
-
-"You don't see her very often now, do ye? But of course the woods bees
-wet these times."
-
-The mere mention of Rebecca's name in this filthy place annoyed John
-Brennan, who thought of her continuously as some one far beyond all
-aspects of Garradrimna.
-
-Yet they would be forever coming here to invite this persecution. Ulick
-would ever and again retreat into long silences that were painful for
-his companion. But John found some solace come to him through the
-port wine. So much was this the case that he began to have a certain
-hankering after spending the evening in this way. When the night
-had fallen thick and dark over Garradrimna they would come out of
-McDermott's and spend long hours walking up and down the valley road.
-Ulick would occasionally give vent to outbursts of talk upon impersonal
-subjects--the war and politics, the tragic trend of modern literature.
-John always listened with interest. He never wished to return early to
-the house, for he dreaded the afflicted drone of his mother reading the
-holy books to his father by the kitchen fire.
-
-During those brief spells, when the weather brightened for a day or
-two, he often took walks down by the school and towards the lake....
-Always he felt, through power of an oppressive realization, that
-the eyes of Master Donnellan were upon him as he slipped past the
-school.... So he began to go by a lane which did not take him before
-the disappointed eyes of the old man.
-
-Going this way one day he came upon a battered school-reader of an
-advanced standard, looking so pathetic in its final desertion by its
-owner, for there is nothing so lonely as the things a schoolboy leaves
-behind him.... He began to remember the days when he, too, had gone
-to the valley school and there instituted the great promise which, so
-far, had not come to fulfilment. He was turning over the leaves when
-he came on a selection from Carlyle's _French Revolution_--"Thy foot
-to light on softness, thy eye on splendor." He pondered it as he stood
-by the water's edge and until it connected itself with his thought of
-Rebecca. _Thy foot to light on softness, thy eye on splendor._
-
-It would be nearing three o'clock now, he thought, and Rebecca must
-soon be going from school. He might see her passing along between the
-muddy puddles on The Road of the Dead.
-
-He had fallen down before her again.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV
-
-
-In the high, gusty evening Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, was
-standing proudly at his own door surveying the street of Garradrimna.
-It was his custom to appear thus at the close of the day in
-contemplation of his great possessions. He owned four houses in the
-village, four proud buildings which advertised his worth before the
-beggars of the parish--out of whom he had made the price of them. But
-he was distrustful of his customers to an enormous degree, and his
-purpose in standing thus at his own door was not altogether one of
-aimless speculation upon his own spacious importance in Garradrimna.
-He was watching to see that some people going down the valley road
-upon ass-carts did not attempt to take away any of the miscellaneous
-merchandise exhibited outside the door. As he stood against the
-background of his shop, from which he might be said to have derived his
-personality, one could view the man in his true proportions beneath his
-hard, high hat. His short beard was beginning to show tinges of gray,
-and the deepening look of preoccupation behind his glasses gave him the
-appearance of becoming daily more and more like John Dillon.
-
-Father O'Keeffe came by and said: "Good-evening, Tommy!" This was a
-tribute to his respectability and worth. He was the great man of the
-village, the head and front of everything. Events revolved around him.
-He would have you know that he was somebody, so he was. A politician
-after the fashion in the Ireland of his time, he organized and spoke
-at public meetings. He always wanted to be saying things in support
-of "The Cause." "The Cause" was to him a kind of poetic ideal. His
-patriotic imagination had intensified its glory. But it was not the
-future of Ireland he yearned to see made glorious. He looked forward
-only to the triumph of "The Cause."
-
-Upon the death of his father, also a patriot, the little mean huckstery
-at the tail end of the village street had descended to him; and
-although he had risen to the dignity and proprietorship of four houses,
-this establishment had never changed, for, among the many ancient
-superstitions which crowded his mind, the hoary one of the existence
-of luck where there is muck occupied a place of prominence. And like
-his father he was a rebel--in his mind. The more notable political
-mountebanks of his time were all men who had fought as upon a field
-of battle. Words served them as weapons, and words were the weapons
-that he loved; he might have died if he were not fighting, and to him
-talk meant battle. He used to collect all the supplemental pictures of
-those patriots from _The Weekly Freeman_ and paste them in a scrapbook
-for edification of his eldest son, whom he desired to be some day a
-unit of their combination. An old-fashioned print of Dan O'Connell
-hung side by side with a dauby caricature of Robert Emmet in the old
-porter-smelling parlor off the bar. The names of the two men were
-linked inseparably with one of his famous phrases--"The undying spirit
-of Irish Nationality."
-
-Occasionally, when he had a drunken and enthusiastic crowd in that
-part of his many-sided establishment which was a public bar, he would
-read out in a fine loud voice how "The Cause" was progressing, and,
-having learned by heart a speech of John Dillon's, he would lash it
-out to them as a composition of his own. Whereupon the doubly excited
-audience would shake his hand as one man and shout: "More power there,
-mister; 'tis yourself is the true Irishman, me sweet fellow!" He could
-be very funny too when occasion demanded, and tell stories of Father
-Healy of Bray at pleasant little dinners which took place in the upper
-story of his house after every political meeting held in Garradrimna.
-He never missed the opportunity and the consequent honor of singing "On
-an old Irish Hill in the Morning" at every one of those dinners. He was
-always warmly applauded by Father O'Keeffe, who invariably occupied
-the chair. He was treasurer of the fund, out of which he was paid for
-supplying all this entertainment.
-
-His wife was the daughter of a farmer of the "red-hat" class. He had
-been compelled to marry her.... If this had happened to a poor man
-the talk would have followed him to the grave. But they were afraid
-to talk censoriously of the patriot who had enveloped all of them.
-He practically owned them.... The priest could not deliver an attack
-upon the one who headed his lists of Offerings and Easter Dues and
-the numerous collections which brought in the decent total of Father
-O'Keeffe's income.
-
-To Rebecca Kerr had been given the position of governess to the
-Williams household. She had not sought it, but, on the removal of the
-two boys, Michael Joseph and Paddy, from the care of Master Donnellan
-to this more genteel way of imparting knowledge and giving correction,
-which savored somewhat of the splendor of the Moores of Garradrimna
-and the Houlihans of Clonabroney, had merely accepted it as part of
-the system of the place. She had fully anticipated such possibilities
-upon the very evening of her arrival.... Besides old Master Donnellan
-had thanked her from his heart for the release she had been the means
-of affording him, and she liked the master for a quiet, kind old man
-who did not prate or meddle. So far she had made little improvement in
-either of the boys. But Mrs. Williams was evidently delighted for "our
-governess, Miss Kerr," was the one person she ever spoke a good word of
-to Father O'Keeffe.
-
-This evening Rebecca was in the parlor, seated just beneath the
-pictures of Dan O'Connell and Robert Emmet, wrestling hard with the
-boys. All at once her pupils commanded her to be silent. "Whist!" they
-said in unison. She was momentarily amazed into eavesdropping at their
-behest....
-
-"Oh, not at all, Mrs. Brennan, sure and I couldn't think of the like at
-all at all!"
-
-"Well, Mr. Williams, as a well-known benefactor of the college at
-Ballinamult and a good, religious man to boot, I thought that mebbe you
-could give John a recommendation. It would be grand to see him there
-and he working himself up to the summit of his ambition. There would be
-a great reward to your soul for doing the like of that, Mr. Williams,
-as sure as you're there."
-
-"And now, woman-a-dear, what about my own sons, Michael Joseph and
-Paddy?"
-
-"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them, Mr. Williams!"
-
-"But I could not think of jeopardizing them while I'd be doing for the
-families or the sons of the stranger."
-
-"But sure, sir, I'll pay you at any rate of interest you like if
-only you could see your way to give me this help. Enough to buy a
-bicycle that'll take him over to Ballinamult every day and your grand
-recommendation to the priests that'll be worth gold. I'll pay you every
-penny I can, and sure the poor boy will repay you everything when he
-comes into the position that's due to him."
-
-"Well, I don't know. I don't think the missus--"
-
-At this very moment Mrs. Williams came into the parlor where Rebecca
-sat with them, and beamed upon her sons.
-
-"Oh, my poor boys, sure it is killed you are with the terrible strain
-of the study. Sure it is what you'd better go out into the fields now
-with the pony; but mind, be careful! You poor little fellows!"
-
-Michael Joseph and Paddy at once snatched up their caps and rushed
-for the door. So much for the extent of their training and Rebecca's
-control of them, for this was a daily happening. But another part of
-her hour of torture at the gombeen-man's house had yet to come. Of
-late Mrs. Williams had made of her a kind of _confidante_ in the small
-concerns of her household. She was the sort of woman who must needs be
-always talking to some one of her affairs. Now she enlarged upon the
-immediate story of how Mrs. Brennan had been begging and craving of
-Tommy to do something for her son John, who had been sent home from
-the place he was in England. "The cheek of her, mind you, that Mrs.
-Brennan!" emphasized Mrs. Williams.
-
-If it had been any other schoolmistress or girl of any kind at all
-that Mrs. Williams had ever known, they would have acquiesced in this
-statement of denunciation and said: "That's a sure fact for you,
-ma'am!" or "Just so!" But this had never been Rebecca's way. She merely
-said: "John Brennan is a very nice young fellow!"
-
-Although Mrs. Williams was surprised, she merely said: "Is that so?
-Sure I know very little about him only to see him pass the door. They
-say he's taken the fashion of tippling a bit, and it's to McDermott's
-he does go, d'ye mind, with Ulick Shannon, and not to this house. But,
-of course, it's my bold Ulick that's spending. Easy for him, begad, and
-it not his own."
-
-Rebecca saw the dirty meanness that stirred in this speech.
-
-"That's what they say and it is surely a great pity to see him wasting
-his time about the roads of the valley. I think it would be a grand
-piece of charity on the part of any one who would be the means of
-taking him away from this place. If only he could be afforded some
-little help. 'Tis surely not his fault that the college in England
-broke down, and although his mother is, I believe, contriving the best
-for his future, sure it is hard for her. She is only a poor woman, and
-the people of the valley seem queerly set against her. I don't know
-why. They seem to hate the very sight of her."
-
-"You may say that indeed, and it is the good reasons they have--"
-
-Mrs. Williams suddenly checked herself, for there flashed across her
-mind a chapter of her own story. She had been one of the lucky ones....
-Besides, by slow steps, Rebecca was coming to have some power over her.
-
-
-"Of course it would be no loss to Tommy if he did give this help. He'd
-be bound to get the interest of his money, even if he were to sell her
-out of house and home. He knows his business, and he's not against it
-himself, I may tell you; for he sees a return in many a way. It was
-myself that was keeping him from it on account of the boy's mother.
-But, of course, if you think it would be a nice, good thing to do--"
-
-"It would be a good thing, and a very good thing, and one of the best
-actions you could put for luck before your own sons."
-
-"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them! Is it Michael Joseph or Paddy?"
-
-"Of course not, indeed, nor did I mean anything of the kind. I only
-said it to soften you, Mrs. Williams."
-
-"Well, I may tell you it's all right, Miss Kerr. Mrs. Brennan is out
-there in the shop, and she's craving from me man.... It'll be all
-right, Miss Kerr, and that's a fact.... I'll make it all right, never
-you fear!"
-
-In this way was John Brennan again led back into the paths of the
-Church. Curious that it should have been given Rebecca to effect the
-change in his condition--Rebecca, whose beauty, snatching at his
-spirit always, had drawn his mind into other ways of contemplation.
-In less than a week, through the powerful ecclesiastical influence of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, he was riding daily to the college at
-Ballinamult. By teaching outside the hours allotted for his own study
-he was earning part of his fees, and, as a further example of his worth
-to the community, Tommy Williams was paying the other portion, although
-as a purely financial speculation.... In a year it was expected he
-would win one of the Diocesan Scholarships and go up to Maynooth.
-Mrs. Brennan knew more joy than had ever before possessed her. Her son
-was to be ordained in Ireland after all, and maybe given a curacy in
-his own diocese. Who knew but he might yet follow in the footsteps of
-Father O'Keeffe and become Parish Priest of Garradrimna while she was
-still alive here in this little house in the valley!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI
-
-
-The meetings of Ulick and Rebecca had become less and less frequent.
-Sometimes she would not see him for days at a stretch, and such periods
-would appear as desert spaces. She would be driven by them into the
-life of the valley, where no echo of comfort ever came to her. Even
-the little children created an irritation with their bright faces
-continually reminding her of all the prayers they had said for her
-intentions.... It was curious that she never asked them to say a prayer
-for her intentions now. And their looks would seem to be beseeching
-her forever. And yet she could not--she could not ask them now....
-Each distinct phase of the day seemed to hold for her its own peculiar
-tortures. These seemed to have reached their climax and very moment of
-ecstasy on the days succeeding upon one another when Monica McKeon came
-in at the recreation hour to take her luncheon in company with Mrs.
-Wyse.
-
-Monica would be certain to say with the most unfailing regularity and,
-in fact, with exactly the same intonation upon all occasions: "I wonder
-when that Ulick Shannon is going away?" To which Mrs. Wyse would reply
-in a tone which would seem to have comprehended all knowledge: "Ah,
-sure, he'll never go far!" Presently Monica would begin to let fall
-from her slyly her usual string of phrases: "Wouldn't you be inclined
-to say, now, that Ulick Shannon is good-looking?" Talking of some
-other one, she would describe him as being "Just like Ulick Shannon,
-don't you know!" And if they happened to be discussing the passage of
-some small event it would invariably circle around the breathless point
-of interest--"And who do you think was there only Ulick Shannon?" Then
-from where she sat supping her tea out of a saucerless cup Mrs. Wyse
-would give out her full opinion of Ulick Shannon.
-
-"He's the quare sort, just like his father. I don't think I've ever
-seen a son to take after his father so closely. And _he_ was what you
-might call a quare character in his day. It was said that a girl as
-well as lost her good name if she was seen talking twice in succession
-to Henry Shannon, he was that bad. Like father, like son is surely the
-case between Henry and Ulick Shannon!"
-
-This seemed at all times the strangest talk for Rebecca to be
-hearing.... It often caused her to shiver even though spring was well
-on its way. And they would never let it out of their minds; they would
-never let it rest. They were always talking at her about Ulick Shannon,
-for they seemed to know.
-
-But no one knew save herself. It was a grand secret. Not even Ulick
-knew. She hugged the dear possession of her knowledge to herself. There
-was the strangest excitement upon her to escape from school in the
-evenings so that she might enjoy her secret in loneliness.
-
-Even this joy had been dissipated by her certainty of meeting
-John Brennan somewhere upon the road in the near vicinity of the
-school.... Now, as she thought of it upon an evening a few days after
-she had spoken to Mrs. Williams in his favor, she fancied that his
-lonely admiration for her must have been growing in strength since
-his return.... There had always been a sense of sudden relief in
-his presence after the torture of the two women, a feeling of high
-emancipation like the rushing in of some clean wind.... Only a few
-words had ever passed between them on those occasions, but now they
-were to her throbbing brain of blessed and sweet memory. And there had
-always been the same look upon his face, making her try to puzzle out
-in what possible way he could look upon her. Could it be in the way
-she had looked upon him, with a full kindliness working into the most
-marvelous ways of sympathy? Yet she missed him ever so much, now that
-he was to be no longer seen upon the road.
-
-It was strange enough, too, as she thought of it, that although the
-reason of Mrs. Williams in taking a fancy to her was no more than the
-selfish one of showing her dislike for Master Donnellan, it should
-have borne good fruit after this fashion. Yet a certain loneliness, a
-certain feeling of empty sadness was to be her reward because she had
-done a good thing.... No one at all now to take her mind away as she
-wandered from torture to torture in the afternoons.... On one of the
-first evenings of the changed condition of things Mrs. McGoldrick,
-noticing in her keen mind that Rebecca was a minute or so earlier than
-usual, said, after the manner of one proud of being able to say it:
-
-"Is it a fact, Miss Kerr, that John Brennan bees going as a kind of a
-charity teacher or something to the college at Ballinamult?"
-
-"Well, if it's a fact, it is a fact," said Rebecca in a tired, dull
-voice and without showing any interest whatsoever. But even this
-attitude did not baulk the sergeant's wife, for she hurried on:
-
-"Ah, God help his innocent wit, but sure he'll never be a priest, he'll
-never be a priest! 'Tis a pity of his mother, but sure she could hardly
-expect it to be so, for she wasn't a good woman, they tell me, and she
-ought to know, you know, that she could hardly expect it to be so!"
-
-Rebecca saw at once that her landlady was in one of her fits of
-garrulousness, so she concluded in consequence that there would not be
-much pleasure in her dinner to-day. She passed it untasted and went
-upstairs wearily. There was a certain grim comfort in thinking that
-she had left Mrs. McGoldrick with her harangue unfinished and a great
-longing upon her to be talking.... She flung herself upon the bed in
-the still untidied room. She was weary with some great, immeasurable
-weariness this blessed evening.... Her corset hurt her, and she sat
-up again to take it off. She caught sight of herself reflected in
-the mirror opposite.... How worn she looked! Her brows, with their
-even curves, did not take from the desolation that had fallen upon
-her forehead, where it was grown harder as beneath the blows of some
-tyrannic thought. And it seemed as if the same thought had plowed all
-the lines which were beginning to appear there now.... It must be that
-she had long since entered into a mood of mourning for the things she
-had lost in the valley.
-
-She fell to remembering the first evening she had come to it, and of
-how she had begun to play with her beauty on that very first evening.
-It had appeared then as the only toy in her possession in this place
-of dreary immensity. And now it seemed to have run through many and
-sudden vicissitudes. She had allowed Ulick Shannon to play with it
-too.... But his language had been so sweet when he had praised her in
-the silent woods.... And in the lonely cottage in Donegal, where he
-had gone to see her after Christmas, there had been abiding joy, while
-outside the night swept wild and dark upon the cold, gray sea.... Here
-there came sudden qualms as to whether she had helped to ruin him by
-taking him away from preparation for his final exam. But there was such
-an urge of dear remembrance upon her that her mind sprang quickly back
-again to all the thoughts they had had between them then.... Back into
-her mind too were thronging the exact words he had used upon that night
-they had spent together in the cottage.
-
-And by the side of all this, was it not queer that he came so seldom to
-see her now although he lived distant from her by only a few fields?
-Even when he came their partings were so abrupt, after a little period
-of strained conversation, when he always went with a slight excuse in
-his mouth to Garradrimna. Yet all the time she longed for his presence
-by her side with an even greater longing than that she had experienced
-in Donegal.... It was also painfully notable how he gave shifty answers
-to her every question. And had she not a good right to be asking him
-questions now?... And surely he must guess by this time.
-
-She threw her head back upon the pillow once more, and once more she
-was weeping. She thought, through the mist of her tears, of how she
-had so bitterly wept upon the first evening of her coming to this
-room. But on that evening also she had prayed, and she could not pray
-now. Nor could she sleep. She remained there upon the bed, inert in
-every sense save for her empty stare up at the discolored ceiling. It
-was broken only by the queer smile she would take to herself ever and
-again.... At last she began to count upon her fingers. She was simply
-counting the number of times she had seen Ulick since his return to his
-uncle's house.
-
-"Oh, dear, dear, and what have I done to him?" she muttered
-incessantly, biting her lips occasionally between her words as if in a
-very ecstasy of desire for the pain he was causing her.... There came
-moments, winged and clean like shining angels, to bring her comfort,
-when she wildly fancied it was the very loveliest thing to endure great
-pain for his sake.
-
-But the powers of her mind for any wild gladness were being gradually
-annihilated by dark thoughts coming down to defeat her thoughts of
-beauty. She turned from contemplation of the ceiling and began to
-glance around the room in search of some distraction. In one corner
-she saw an old novelette thrown aside in its gaudy covers. The reading
-of rubbish was Mrs. McGoldrick's recreation when she was not sewing or
-nursing the baby.
-
-She had called the girls after heroines of passionate love-stories,
-just as her husband, the sergeant, had seen that the boys were called
-after famous men in the world of the police. Thus the girls bore names
-like Euphemia McGoldrick and Clementina McGoldrick, while the boys bore
-names like John Ross McGoldrick and Neville Chamberlain McGoldrick.
-The girls, although they were ugly and ill-mannered, had already been
-invested with the golden lure of Romance, and the boys were already
-policemen although they were still far distant from the age when they
-could put on a belt or a baton.
-
-Rebecca began to snatch at paragraphs here and there through the story,
-which was entitled _The Desecration of the Hearth_. There was one
-passage which seemed to hold an unaccountable fascination as her eyes
-lingered over it:
-
-
- "_Then suddenly, and without a minute's warning, Lord Archibald
- Molyneux dashed the poor, ruined girl from him, and soon she was
- struggling for life in the swirling stream._
-
- "_'Ah-a-ha!' he said once more, hissing out his every word
- between his thin, cruel lips. 'That will may be put an end to
- your scandalous allegations against a scion of the noble house of
- Molyneux.'_
-
- "_'Mercy! Pity! Oh, God! The Child!' she wailed piteously as she
- felt herself being caught in the maelstrom of the current._
-
- "_But Lord Archibald Molyneux merely twirled his dark, handsome
- mustache with his white hands, after the fashion that was peculiar
- to him, and waited until his unfortunate victim had disappeared
- completely beneath the surface of the water._"
-
-
-Rebecca's eyes had closed over the passage, and she was dozing now,
-but only fitfully.... To occupy small instants would come the most
-terrifying dreams in long waves of horror which would seem to take
-great spaces of time for their final passage from her mind. Then there
-would flow in a brief space of respite, but only as a prelude to the
-dread recurrence of her dreams again. And all jumbled together, bits
-of wild reality which were and were not parts of her experience would
-cause her to start up ever and anon.
-
-There fell a knock upon the door, and a little girl came in with some
-tea-things on a tray. She called: "Miss Kerr, your tea!" and when
-Rebecca woke up with a terrible start it appeared as if she had not
-slumbered at all.
-
-"Oh, is that yourself, Euphemia? I declare to goodness the dusk is
-falling outside. I must have been sleeping."
-
-"Yes, miss!"
-
-"You are late in coming this evening?"
-
-"Well, wait till I tell you, miss. I went into the village for some
-things for my mother, and what d'ye think but when I was coming home I
-thought I saw a strange man just outside the ditch opposite the door,
-and I was afraid for to pass, so I was."
-
-"A strange man! Is that a fact?"
-
-"Well, sure then I thought, miss, it might be Ulick Shannon, but I may
-tell you I got the surprise of my life when I found it was only John
-Brennan, and he standing there alone by himself looking up at your
-window."
-
-Long before she had got through it, with many lisps and lapses, Rebecca
-was wearied by the triteness of the little one's statement, so well
-copied was it from the model of her mother's gossipy communication of
-the simplest fact.
-
-But what could John Brennan be doing there so near her again? This was
-the thought that held Rebecca as she went on with an attempt to take
-her tea.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII
-
-
-John Brennan came down the valley. The trees by the roadside were
-being shaken heavily by soft winds. Yet, for all the kindness of May
-that lingered about it, there seemed to be some shadow hanging over
-the evening. No look of peace or pity had struggled into the squinting
-windows.... Would the valley ever again put on the smile it had worn
-last summer? That time it had been so dearly magnified. At leaving it
-there had been such a crush of feeling in his breast.
-
-He seemed to see it more clearly now. There was something that hurt him
-in the thought of how he was preparing for a genteel kind of life while
-his father remained a common sponger around the seven publichouses of
-Garradrimna, asking people to stand him drinks for the love of God like
-Anthony Shaughness. He could not forget that the valley had wrought
-this destruction upon Ned Brennan, and that Ned Brennan was his father.
-
-This thought arose out of a definite cause. At the college in
-Ballinamult he had made the acquaintance of Father George Considine,
-who had already begun to exercise an influence over him. This priest
-was a simple, holy man, who had devoted his life usefully, remaining
-far away from the ways of pride. Although gombeen-men like Tommy
-Williams had some influence with those who controlled the college, they
-had no influence over him. He was in curious contrast to the system
-which tied him to this place. It was impossible to think that his
-ordination had represented a triumph to any one at all, yet he had been
-far ahead of his contemporaries and while yet a young man had been made
-principal of this college in Ballinamult. His name had gone out into
-the world. The satisfaction that had been denied to Master Donnellan
-was his. He had had a hand in the education of men whose names were
-now notable in many a walk of life. And yet, to see him moving about
-the grounds of the college in his faded coat with the frayed sleeves
-and shiny collar, no man would think that his name, the name of "poor
-Father Considine," was spoken with respect in distant places.
-
-But Mrs. Brennan did not approve of him. On the evening of John's first
-day in Ballinamult, after she had made every other possible inquiry she
-said:
-
-"And did you meet Father Considine?"
-
-"I did indeed, mother; a nice man!"
-
-"Ah, a quare ould oddity! Wouldn't you think now that he'd have a
-little pride in himself and dress a bit better, and he such a very
-learned man?"
-
-"Maybe that's just the reason why he's not proud. The saints were not
-proud, mother; then why should he be?"
-
-She always gave a deaf ear to any word of this kind from John, for
-her ideal was Father O'Keeffe, with his patent leather top-boots,
-silver-mounted whip and silk hat, riding to hounds with the Cromwellian
-descendants of the district.... Here was where Father Considine stood
-out in sharp contrast, for he was in spiritual descent from those
-priests who had died with the people in the Penal Days. It was men
-like him who had carried down the grandeur of Faith and Idealism from
-generation to generation. One felt that life was a small thing to him
-beyond the chance it gave to make it beautiful. He had written a little
-book of poems in honor of Mary, the Mother of God, and to feel that it
-had brought some comfort to many a troubled one and to know that he had
-been the means of shaping young men's lives towards useful ends was all
-that this world meant to him.
-
-John Brennan knew very well that if he became a priest it was in the
-steps of Father Considine he would follow rather than in those of
-Father O'Keeffe. This he felt must mean the frustration of half his
-mother's grand desire, but, inevitable, it must be so, for it was the
-way his meditative mind would lead him. Thus was he troubled again.
-
-Father Considine had spoken to him of Father O'Keeffe:
-
-"A touch of the farmer about that man don't you think? But maybe a
-worthy man for all that!"
-
-Then he had looked long into the young man's eyes and said:
-
-"Be humble, my son, be humble, so that great things may be done unto
-you!"
-
-John had pondered these words as he cycled home that evening past the
-rich fields. He began to think how his friend Ulick would have put all
-his thoughts so clearly. How he would have spoken of the rank green
-grass now rising high over County Meath as a growth that had sprung
-from the graves of men's rotted souls; of all the hate and pride that
-had come out of their hunger for the luscious land; of how Faith and
-Love and Beauty had gone forever from this golden vale to the wild
-places of his country, where there was a letting-in of wind and sun
-and sea.... It was easy to connect Father O'Keeffe's pride with the
-land. Remembrance of the man's appearance was sufficient. It was not so
-easy in the case of his mother. But, of course, John had no knowledge
-of how she had set her heart upon Henry Shannon's lovely farm in the
-days gone by.
-
-Hitherto his thoughts of his future condition had been bound up with
-consideration of his mother, but now there had come this realization
-of his father. It was not without its sadness to think that his father
-had been a stranger to him always and that he should now behold him
-stumbling down to old age amid the degradation of Garradrimna. He felt
-curiously desirous of doing something for him. But the heavy constraint
-between them still existed as always. He was unequal to the task of
-plucking up courage to speak to him. This evening, too, as he tried,
-after his accustomed fashion, in a vacant moment to catch a glimpse of
-his own future, he acutely felt the impossibility of seeing himself
-as a monument of pride.... Always there would arise before his mind a
-broken column in the middle of the valley.
-
-And he was lonely. He had not seen Ulick Shannon or Rebecca since he
-had begun to cycle daily to Ballinamult. Often, in some of the vacant
-stretches of thought which came to him as he hurried along, he pictured
-the two of them meeting during some of those long, sweet evenings and
-being kind to one another. Despite sudden flashes of a different regard
-that would come sweeping his thoughts of all kinds, he loved these
-two and was glad that they were fond of one another. It now seemed
-surprising that he had ever thought so deeply of Rebecca Kerr, and
-wished to meet her upon the road and look longingly into her eyes. All
-this while going on to be a priest seemed far from him now that he had
-begun to be influenced by Father Considine.
-
-He had to pass the house of Sergeant McGoldrick by the way he was
-going, and it seemed an action altogether outside him that he had
-gone into an adjacent field and gazed for quite a long time up at
-her window.... He was all confusion when he noticed the child of the
-McGoldricks observing him.... He drifted away, his cheeks hot and a
-little sense of shame dimming his eyes.... He took to the road again
-and at once saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him. The old, insinuating
-smile which had so often been used upon his weak points, was spread
-over the face of his friend.
-
-"And at last you have succeeded in coming to see her thus far?"
-
-The words seemed to fall out of Ulick's oblique smile.
-
-"She?" he said in surprise.
-
-"Oh, I thought it was that you had intentions of becoming my rival!"
-
-John laughed now, for this was the old Ulick come back again. He went
-on laughing as if at a good joke, and the two students went together
-down the road.
-
-"Don't let me delay you!" John said abruptly.
-
-"Oh, you're not preventing me in any way at all."
-
-"But Rebecca?"
-
-"Even the austerities of Ballinamult have not made you forget Rebecca?"
-
-"Hardly--I shouldn't like to think that I had been the cause of keeping
-you from her even for a short while."
-
-There came between them now one of those long spells of silence which
-seemed essential parts of their friendship.
-
-"You're in a queer mood this evening?" John said at last.
-
-"I suppose I am, and that there's no use in trying to hide it....
-D'ye know what it is, Brennan? We two seem to have changed a great
-deal since last summer. _I_ simply can't look at things in the same
-light-hearted way. I suppose I went too far, and that I must be paying
-for it now. But there are just a few things I have done for which I am
-sorry--I'm sorry about this affair with Rebecca Kerr."
-
-John was listening with quiet attention to the remarks which Ulick was
-letting fall from him disjointedly.
-
-"I'm sorry, sorry, sorry that I should ever have come here to meet her,
-for somehow it has brought me to this state of mind and not to any
-happiness at all. I'm doubtful, too, if it has brought any happiness to
-her."
-
-"That's strange," said John, "and I thought you two were very happy in
-your friendship."
-
-"Happiness!" jerked out the other in a full, strong sneer. "That's
-a funny word now, and a funny thing. Do you think that we deserve
-happiness any more than those we see working around us in the valley?
-Not at all! Rather less do we deserve. Just think of them giving their
-blood and sweat so crudely in mortal combat with the fields! And what
-does it avail them in the end? What do they get out of it but the
-satisfaction of a few unkind thoughts and a few low lies? In the mean
-living of their own lives they represent futile expeditions in quest
-of joy. Yet what brings the greatest joy it is possible for them to
-experience? Why, the fact that another's hope of happiness has been
-finally desolated. If any great disaster should suddenly come upon one
-or other of the three of us, upon you or me or Rebecca Kerr, they would
-see more glory in the fulfilment of their spite than in the harvest
-promise of their fields. And yet I here assert that these deserve to
-be happy. They labor in the hard way it was ordained that man should
-labor at Adam's fall, and they attend to their religion. They pray for
-happiness, and this is the happiness that comes to them. Some must be
-defeated and driven down from the hills of their dreams so that the
-other ones, the deserving and the pious, may be given material for
-their reward of joy. That, Brennan, is the only happiness that ever
-descends upon the people of the valley. It may be said that they get
-their reward in this life."
-
-Ulick was in one of those moods of eloquence which always came to him
-after a visit to Garradrimna, and when a very torrent of words might
-be expected to pour forth from him. John Brennan merely lifted his
-eyebrows in mild surprise and said nothing as the other went on:
-
-"Happiness indeed. What have I ever done to deserve happiness? I have
-not worked like a horse, I have not prayed?"
-
-"I was not thinking of any broad generalizations of happiness. I was
-only thinking of happiness in your relation to Rebecca Kerr."
-
-Ulick now gave a sudden turn to the conversation:
-
-"Where were you wandering to the night?" he inquired of John Brennan.
-
-"Oh, nowhere in particular--just down the road."
-
-"Well, it seems strange that you should have come this way, past the
-house of Sergeant McGoldrick."
-
-It appeared as if Ulick had glimpsed the tender spot upon which John
-Brennan's thoughts were working and struck it with the sharp point of
-his words. John did not reply, but it could be seen that his cheeks
-were blushing even in the gloom that had come towards them down the
-road.
-
-"I hope you will be very kind to her, John, when I am gone from here.
-She's very nice, and this is the drear, lonely place for her to be. I
-expect to be going away pretty soon."
-
-It seemed extraordinary that this thing should be happening now.... He
-began to remember how he had longed for Rebecca last summer, and how
-his poor yearning had been reduced to nothing by the favor with which
-she looked upon his friend. And later how he had turned away out of the
-full goodness of his own heart and returned again through power of a
-fateful accident to his early purpose. And now how the good influence
-of Father Considine had just come into his life to lead him finally
-into the way for which he had been intended by his mother from the
-beginning.
-
-He did not yet fully realize that this quiet and casual meeting which
-had been effected because Ulick Shannon had accidentally come around
-this way from Garradrimna represented the little moment which stood for
-the turning-point of his life. But it had certainly moved into being
-along definite lines of dramatic significance.
-
-Presently Ulick mounted a stile which gave upon a path leading up
-through the fields of his uncle Myles and to the lonely house among the
-trees. Then it was true that he was not seeing Rebecca to-night.... A
-great gladness seemed to have rushed in upon John Brennan because he
-had become aware of this thing. And further, Ulick Shannon was going
-away from the valley and Rebecca remaining here to be lonely. But he,
-who had once so dearly longed for her company, would be coming and
-going from the valley daily, and summer was upon them again.... Ulick
-must have bade him a "Good-night!" that he had not heard, for already
-he could see him disappearing into the sea of white mist which would
-seem to have rolled into the valley from the eternity of the silent
-places.... He was left here now upon this lonely, quiet shore while his
-mind had turned into a tumbling sea.
-
-When at last he roused himself and went into the kitchen he saw that
-his mother had already settled herself to the task of reading a
-religious paper to his father.... The elder man was sitting there so
-woebegone by the few wet sods that were the fire. He was not very drunk
-this evening, and the usual wild glint in his eyes was replaced by
-the look of one who is having thoughts of final dissolution.... John
-experienced a little shudder with the thought that he did not possess
-any desire to speak to his father now.
-
-But his mother had broken in with a question:
-
-"Was that Ulick Shannon was with you outside just now?"
-
-"Yes, mother, it was."
-
-"He went home very early, didn't he?"
-
-"I suppose it is rather early for him to go home."
-
-"I think 'tis very seldom he bees with Rebecca Kerr now, whatever's the
-reason, _whatever's the reason_."
-
-It was her repetition and emphasis of the final words which brought
-about the outburst.
-
-Ned Brennan suddenly flamed up and snarled out:
-
-"Look ye here, Nan Byrne, that's no kind of talk to be giving out to
-your grand, fine, educated young fellow of a son, and he be going on to
-be a priest. That's the quare, suggestive kind of talk. But sure 'tis
-very like you, Nan Byrne. 'Tis very like you!"
-
-Mrs. Brennan had just been on the point of beginning to read the
-religious paper, and, with the thought of all her reading surging in
-upon her in one crushing moment, she felt the cutting rebuff most
-keenly and showed her confusion. She made no reply as John went up to
-the room where his books were.... Long after, as he tried to recall
-forgotten, peaceful thoughts, he could hear his father speaking out of
-the heat of anger in the kitchen below.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII
-
-
-After she had failed to take her tea Rebecca walked the valley road
-many times, passing and repassing their usual meeting place. But no
-sign of Ulick did she find. She peered longingly into the sea of white
-fog, but he did not come.... What in the world was happening to him at
-all? Never before had he missed this night of the week.... She did not
-care to return so early, for she feared that Mrs. McGoldrick might come
-with that awful look of scrutiny she detested. Just to pass the time
-she wandered down The Road of the Dead towards the lake. To-night it
-seemed so lonely set there amid the sea of white.
-
-It was strange to think that this place could ever have had a fair look
-about it or given pleasure to any person at all. Yet it was here that
-John Brennan had loved to walk and dream. She wondered how it was with
-him now. She began to think of the liking he had shown for her. Maybe
-he fancied she did not know why he happened to meet her so often upon
-the road. But well did she know--well. And to think that he had come to
-look up at her window this evening.
-
-Yet even now she was fearful of acknowledging these things to herself.
-It appeared as a double sacrilege. It was an attack upon her love for
-Ulick and it questioned the noble intention of Mrs. Brennan in devoting
-her son to God. But all chance that it might ever come to anything
-was now over. The ending had been effected by herself in the parlor of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, and Mrs. Brennan might never be able
-to guess the hand she had had in it. It was a thing upon which she
-might well pride herself if there grew in her the roots of pride. But
-she was not of that sort. And now she was in no frame of delight at all
-for the thought of him had united her unto the thought of Ulick, and
-Ulick had not come to her this evening.... She felt herself growing
-cold in the enveloping mist. The fir trees were like tall ghosts in
-the surrounding gloom.... But immediately the lake had lost its aspect
-of terror when she remembered what she had done might have averted the
-possibility of having John Brennan ever again to wander lonely.... And
-yes, in spite of any comforting thought, the place would continue to
-fill her with a nameless dread. She was shivering and expectant.
-
-Suddenly a big pike made a splash among the reeds and Rebecca gave a
-loud, wild cry. It rang all down the lonely aisle of the fir-trees and
-united its sound with that of a lone bird crying on the other side of
-the lake. Then it died upon the banks of mist up against the silent
-hills.
-
-For a few moments its source seemed to flutter and bubble within her
-breast, and then it ended in a long, sobbing question to herself--Why
-had she cried out at all? She might have known it was only a fish or
-some such harmless thing. And any one within reasonable distance could
-have heard the cry and thought it was the signal of some terrible thing
-that had happened here by the lakeside. It was not so far distant from
-two roads, and who knew but some one had heard? Yet she could hardly
-fancy herself behaving in this way if she had not possessed an idea
-that it was a lonely place and seldom that any one went by in the
-night-time.
-
-But she hurried away from the feeling of terror she had caused to
-fill the place and back towards the house of Sergeant McGoldrick. As
-quickly as possible she got to bed. Here seemed a little comfort. She
-remembered how this had been her place of refuge as a child, how she
-felt safe from all ghosts and goblins once her head was hidden beneath
-the clothes. And the instinct had survived into womanhood.
-
-Again a series of those fitful, half sleeping and waking conditions
-began to pass over her. Side by side with the most dreadful feelings of
-impending doom came thronging memories of glad phases of life through
-which she had passed.... And to think that this life of hers was now
-narrowing towards this end. Were the valley and its people to behold
-her final disaster? Was it to be that way with her?
-
-She had intended to tell Ulick if he had come to her this evening,
-but he had not come, and what was she to do now? In the slough of
-her torment she could not think of the right thing.... Maybe if she
-wrote an angry letter upbraiding him.... But how could she write an
-angry letter to him? Yet she must let him know, and immediately--when
-the dawn had broken into the room she would write. For there was no
-use in thinking of sleeping. She could not sleep. Yes, when the dawn
-had broken into the room she would write surely. But not an angry
-letter.... Very slowly she began to notice the corners of the room
-appearing in the new light before her wide open eyes. And to feel that
-this was the place she had so fiercely hated from the first moment
-of setting foot in it, and that it was now about to see her write
-the acknowledgment of her shame.... The dawn was a great while in
-breaking.... If he did not--well then, what could her future life hope
-to be? She began to grow strangely dizzy as she fell to thinking of it.
-Dizzy and fearful as she drew near in mind to that very great abyss.
-
-The leaping-up of the day did not fill her with any of its gradual
-delight.... She rose with a weariness numbing her limbs. The putting-on
-of her few clothes was an immense task.... She went to the table upon
-which she had written all those letters to her school-companions which
-described that "there was nothing like a girlfriend." She pulled
-towards her, with a small, trembling hand, the box of _Ancient Irish
-Vellum_, upon which her special letters were always written. Her mind
-had focussed itself to such small compass that this letter seemed more
-important than any that had ever before been written in this world.
-
-But for a long time she could not begin. She did not know by what term
-of endearment to address him now.... They had been so particularly
-intimate.... And then it was so hard to describe her condition to
-him in poor words of writing with pen and ink upon paper. If only
-he had come to her last night it might have been a task of far less
-difficulty. A few sobs, a gathering of her little troubled body unto
-him, and a beseeching look up into his face.... But it was so hard to
-put any single feeling into any separate sentence.
-
-After hours, during which the sun had been mounting high and bright,
-she had the letter finished at last and was reading it over. Some
-sentences like the following leaped out before her eyes here within
-this sickly-looking room--Whatever was the matter with him that he
-could not come to her? Surely he was not so blind, and he with his
-medical knowledge. He must know what was the matter with her, and that
-this was scarcely the time to be leaving her alone. His uncle, Myles
-Shannon, was a very rich man, and did he not remember how often he had
-told her how his uncle looked with favor upon her? Here she included
-the very words in which Ulick had many a time described his uncle's
-opinion of her--"I like that little schoolmistress, Rebecca Kerr!" "It
-was all so grand, Ulick, our love and meetings; but here comes the
-paying of the penalty, and surely you will not leave poor little me
-to pay it in full. You have enjoyed me, have you not, Ulick?" She was
-more immediately personal now, and this was exactly how the sentences
-continued: "You know very well what this will mean to me. I'll have
-to go away from here, and where, I ask you, can I go? Not back to my
-father's house surely, nor to my aunt's little cottage in Donegal....
-I have no money. The poor salary I earn here is barely able to buy me
-a little food and clothing and keep a roof over my head. Did I not
-often tell you that when you were away from me there were times when
-I could hardly afford the price of stamps? If it should happen that
-this thing become public while I am yet here I could never get another
-day's teaching, for Father O'Keeffe would warn every manager in Ireland
-against engaging me. But surely, darling, you will not allow things to
-go so far.... You will please come down to see me at 5.30 this evening.
-You will find me at the old place upon The Road of the Dead. Don't you
-remember that it was there we had our first talk, Ulick?"
-
-Great as the torture of writing it had been, the torture of reading
-it was still greater. Some of the lines seemed to lash out and strike
-her and to fill her eyes with tears, and there were some that seemed
-so hard upon him that she struck them out, not wishing, as ever,
-to hurt her dearest Ulick at all. At one moment she felt a curious
-desire to tear it into pieces and let her fate come to her as it had
-been ordained from the beginning.... But there was little Euphemia
-McGoldrick knocking at the door to be allowed to enter with the
-breakfast. Who would ever imagine that it was so late?
-
-She had written a great deal. Why it filled pages and pages. She
-hurriedly thrust it into a large envelope that she had bought for the
-purpose of sending a card of greeting to John Brennan at Christmas,
-thinking better of it only at the last moment. It was useful now, for
-the many sheets were bulky.
-
-"The breakfast, miss!" announced Euphemia as she left the room.
-
-This was the third meal in twenty-four hours that Rebecca could make
-no attempt to take, but, to avert suspicion, she wrapped up the sliced
-and buttered bread in a few leaves from the novelette from which she
-had read those desperate passages on the previous evening. The tea she
-threw out into the garden. It fell in a shining shower down over the
-bright green vegetables.... She put on her dust-coat and, stuffing the
-letter to Ulick into one pocket and her uneaten breakfast by way of a
-luncheon she would not eat into the other, hurried out of doors and up
-the road, for this morning she had important business in the village
-before going on to the school.
-
-Mrs. McGoldrick was set near the foot of the stairs holding Euphemia
-and Clementina by the hand, all three in action there to behold the
-exit of Rebecca. This was a morning custom and something in the nature
-of a rite. It was the last clout of torture always inflicted by Mrs.
-McGoldrick.
-
-Rebecca went on into Garradrimna. The village street was deserted save
-by Thomas James, who held solitary occupation. He was posting the
-bills for a circus at the market square. She was excited as she went
-over to speak to him and did not notice the eyes of the bespectacled
-postmistress that were trained upon her from the office window with the
-relentlessness of howitzers. She asked Thomas James would he take a
-letter from her to Mr. Ulick Shannon.
-
-"Oh yes, miss; O Lord, yes!"
-
-She slipped the letter into his hand when she thought that no one was
-looking. She had adopted this mode of caution in preference to sending
-it through the Post Office. She was evidently anxious that it should be
-delivered quickly and unread by any other person.
-
-"O Lord, yes, miss; just as soon as I have an auction bill posted after
-this. You know, miss, that Mickeen Connellan, the auctioneer, is one of
-my best patrons. He doesn't pay as well as the circus people, but he
-pays oftener."
-
-That was in the nature of a very broad hint, but Rebecca had
-anticipated it and had the shilling already prepared and ready to slip
-into his other hand.
-
-"Thanks, miss!"
-
-With remarkable alacrity Thomas James had "downed tools" and
-disappeared into Brannagan's. Rebecca could hear the swish of his pint
-as she went by the door after having remained a few moments looking
-at the lurid circus-bills. Inside, Mrs. Brannagan, the publican and
-victualler's wife, took notice that he possessed the air of a man bent
-upon business.
-
-"Ah, it's how I'm going to do a little message for the assistant
-schoolmistress," he said, taking his matutinal pinch of salt, for this
-was his first pint and one could never tell what might happen.
-
-"Is that so?"
-
-"Aye, indeed; a letter to young Shannon."
-
-"Well now? And why for wouldn't it do to send it by the post?"
-
-"Ah, mebbe that way wouldn't be grand enough for her. Mebbe it is what
-it would be too chape--a penny, you know, for the stamp, and this
-costs a shilling for the porter. Give us another volume of this, Mrs.
-Brannagan, if you please? Ha-ha-ha!" He laughed loudly, but without any
-mirth, at his own joke and the peculiar blend of subtlety by which he
-had marked it.
-
-Mrs. Brannagan was all anxiety and excitement about the letter.
-
-"Well now, just imagine!" she said to herself about forty times as she
-filled the second pint for Thomas James. Then she rose up from her bent
-posture at the half barrel and, placing the drink before him on the
-bar, said:
-
-"I wonder what would be in that letter. Let me see?"
-
-"Oh, 'tis only a letter in a big envelope. Aren't you the inquisitive
-woman now, Mrs. Brannagan?"
-
-"What'll you have, Thomas?"
-
-"Ah, another pint, Mrs. Brannagan, thanks!"
-
-His second drink had been despatched with his own celebrated speed.
-
-Mrs. Brannagan was a notably hard woman, and he could not let the
-opportunity of having her stand him a drink go by. She was the hardest
-woman in Garradrimna. Her childlessness had made her so. She was
-beginning to grow stale and withered, and anything in the nature of
-love and marriage, with their possible results, was to her a constant
-source of affliction and annoyance.
-
-Her heart was now bounding within her breast in curiosity.
-
-"Drink that quick, Thomas, and have another before the boss comes
-down." But there was no need to command him. It had already
-disappeared.... The fourth pint had found its way to his lips. He was
-beginning to grow mellow now and to lose his cross-sickness of the
-morning.
-
-"Will ye let me see the letter?"
-
-"Certainly, Mrs. Brannagan. O Lord, yes!"
-
-He handed it across the counter.
-
-"Such a quare letter? Oh, I hear the boss coming in across the yard."
-... She had taken the empty glass from before Thomas James, and again
-was it filled.... Her husband stood before her. And this was the moment
-she had worked up to so well.
-
-"I'll hand it back to you when he goes out," she whispered.
-
-"All right, ma'am!"
-
-Thomas James and Mr. Brannagan fell into a chat while she went towards
-the kitchen. She took the letter from her flat bosom, where she had
-hastily thrust it and looked at it from every possible angle. It seemed
-to possess a compelling attraction. But she could not open it here.
-She would run across to her friend the postmistress, who had every
-appliance for an operation of the kind. Besides she was the person
-who had first right to open it.... Soon the bespectacled maid and the
-barren woman were deep in examination of Rebecca Kerr's letter to Ulick
-Shannon. Into their minds was beginning to leap a terrible joy as they
-read the lines it had cost Rebecca immense torture to write.
-
-"This is great, this is great!" said the ancient postmistress, clicking
-her tongue continually in satisfaction. "The cheek of her, mind you,
-not to send it by the public post like another. But I knew well there
-was something quare when I saw her calloguing with Thomas James at the
-market square."
-
-"Wasn't she the sly, hateful, little thing. Why you'd never have
-thought it of her?"
-
-"A grand person indeed to have in charge of little, innocent girls!"
-
-"Indeed I shouldn't like to have a child if I thought it was to a purty
-thing like that she'd be sent to school!"
-
-"Nor me," said the old lady, from whom the promise of motherhood had
-departed for many a long year.
-
-They shook in righteous anger and strong detestation of the sin of
-Rebecca Kerr, and together they held council as to what might be the
-best thing to do? They closed the letter, and Mrs. Brannagan again
-stuck it into her bosom.... What should they do? The children must
-be saved from contamination anyhow.... An approach to solution of
-the difficulty immediately presented itself, for there was Mrs. Wyse
-herself just passing down the street with her ass-load of children.
-Mrs. Brannagan rushed out of the office and called:
-
-"Mrs. Wyse, I want to see you in private for just a minute!"
-
-The schoolmistress bent over the back of the trap, and they whispered
-for several minutes. At last, out of her shocked condition, Mrs. Wyse
-was driven to exclaim:
-
-"Well now, isn't that the limit?"
-
-It seemed an affront to her authority that another should have first
-discovered it, so she was anxious to immediately recover her lost
-position of superiority.
-
-"Sure I was having my suspicions of her since ever she come back from
-the Christmas holidays, and even Monica McKeon too, although she's
-a single girl and not supposed to know. It's a terrible case, Mrs.
-Brannagan."
-
-"Terrible, Mrs. Wyse. One of the terriblest ever happened in the
-valley.... And before the children and all."
-
-"God bless and save us! But we must only leave it in Father O'Keeffe's
-hands. He'll know what is best to do, never fear. I'll send for him as
-soon as I get to the school."
-
-There was a note of mournful resignation in her tones as she moved away
-in the ass-trap with her children, like an old hen in the midst of her
-brood.... There was a peculiar smirk of satisfaction about the lips
-of Mrs. Brannagan as she returned to the shop, bent upon sending the
-letter on its way once more.
-
-"Much good it'll do her now, the dirty little fool!" she said in the
-happiness of some dumb feeling of vengeance against one who was merely
-a woman like herself. But she was a woman who had never had a child.
-
-Thomas James was considerably drunk. He had spent the remainder of the
-shilling upon porter, and Mr. Brannagan had stood him another pint.
-
-"Be sure and deliver it safely now, _for maybe it's important_!" said
-Mrs. Brannagan, as she returned the letter.
-
-"It's a great letter anyhow. It's after getting me nine pints. That's
-long over half-a-crown's worth of drink," he said, laughing foolishly
-as he wandered out to do his errand.
-
-It was a hard journey across the rising meadows to the house of Myles
-Shannon, where dwelt his nephew Ulick. Thomas James fell many times and
-wallowed in the tall, green grass, and he fell as he went leaping high
-hedges, and cut his hands and tore his red face with briars until it
-was streaked with blood. He was, therefore, an altogether deplorable
-figure when he at last presented himself at the house of Myles Shannon.
-Mr. Shannon came to the door to meet him, and in his fuddled condition
-he laughed to himself as he fished the letter out of his pocket. It was
-covered red with blood where he had felt it with his torn hand from
-time to time to see whether or not he still retained possession of it.
-
-"From Mr. Brannagan, I suppose," said Mr. Shannon, thinking it had been
-written hurriedly by the victualler just fresh from the slaughterhouse
-and that it was a request for prime beef or mutton from the rich
-fields of Scarden. He opened it, for his nephew's name on the envelope
-could not be seen through the blood-stains. He did not notice that it
-began "My dearest Ulick" until he read down to the sentences that gave
-him pause.... Thomas James was coughing insinuatingly beside him, so
-he took half-a-crown from his pocket and handed it to the bedraggled
-messenger. It was a tremendous reward, and the man of porter did not
-fully perceive it until he had slipped out into the sunlight.
-
-"Be the Holy Farmer!" he stuttered, "another half-crown's worth of
-drink, and I after drinking long more than that already. That was the
-best letter I ever got to carry in me life. A few more like it and
-I'd either get me death of drink or be a millionaire like John D.
-Rockefeller or Andrew Carnegie!"
-
-Inside the parlor Myles Shannon was reading Rebecca Kerr's letter with
-blanched face.... Here was a terrible thing; here had come to him this
-great trouble for the second time. Something the like of this had
-happened twenty-five or six years ago, when his brother had been in the
-same case with Nan Byrne. Curious how it should be repeating itself
-now! He pondered it for a few moments in its hereditary aspect. But
-there was more in it than that. There was the trace of his own hand
-determining it. He had encouraged his nephew with this girl. He had
-directed him into many reckless ways just that he might bring sorrow to
-the heart of Nan Byrne in the destruction of her son. It was a wicked
-thing for him to have done. His own nephew--just to satisfy his desire
-for revenge. And at the bottom of things he loved his nephew even as he
-had loved his brother Henry. But he would try to save him the results,
-the pains and penalties of his infatuation, even as he had tried
-to save his brother Henry the results of his. But the girl and her
-fate.... He would not be able to forget that until his dying day....
-For it was he who had done this thing entirely, done it in cold blood
-too because he had heard that John Brennan had soft eyes for Rebecca
-Kerr and that, to encourage his nephew and produce a certain rivalry,
-might be the very best means of ruining the fair promise of Nan Byrne's
-son.
-
-Only last night he had heard from Ulick that John Brennan had entered
-the college at Ballinamult and that his prospects never looked so good
-as at present.... To think of that now was to see how just it was that
-his scheme should have so resulted, for it had been constructed upon a
-very terrible plan. He had done it to avenge his defeated love for one
-girl, and lo! it had brought another to her ruin.
-
-"Your uncle is a wealthy man." This sentence from the letter burned
-before him, and he thought for a moment that here appeared the full
-solution of the difficulty. But no. Of what use was that when the
-dread thing was about to happen to her?... But for all that he would
-send her money to-day or to-morrow, in some quiet way, and tell her
-the truth and beseech her to go away before the final disgrace of
-discovery fell upon her. His nephew must not know. He was too young
-to marry now, least of all, a compulsory marriage after this fashion
-to a schoolmistress. It was an ascent in the social standing of the
-girl surely, for his brother Henry had disgraced himself with a mere
-dressmaker. But any connection beyond the regrettable and painful
-mistake of the whole thing was out of the question because, for long
-years, the Shannons had been almost gentlemen in the valley.
-
-Ulick came into the room now.
-
-"Anything strange, uncle?"
-
-"Oh, nothing at all, only a letter from Mr. Brannagan about--about the
-sheep. I suppose you're not going anywhere to-day. Please don't, for
-I want you to give me a hand with the lambs after the shearing. And
-to-night I'll want you to help me with some letters and accounts that
-I've let slip for ever so long. I want you particularly."
-
-"All right, uncle!"
-
-How tractable and obliging his nephew had become ...! Last summer he
-would not do a thing like this for any amount of coaxing. He would have
-business in the valley at all times. But there was a far Power that
-adjusted matters beyond the plans of men. Ulick had drifted out of the
-room and Mr. Shannon again took the letter from his pocket. The sight
-of the blood upon it still further helped the color of his thoughts
-towards terror.... He crossed hurriedly to the bureau and slipped it
-beneath the elastic band which held his letters from Helena Cooper, and
-Mrs. Brennan's letter to her, and Mrs. Brennan's letter to his dead
-brother Henry.... It seemed to belong there by right of the sad quality
-which is the distinction of all shattered dreams.... And, just imagine,
-he had considered his a wonderful scheme of revenge! But now it seemed
-a poor and a mean thing. He could hardly think of it as a part of the
-once proud, easy-going Myles Shannon, but rather the bitter and ugly
-result of some devilish prompting that had come to him here in the lone
-stretches of his life in this quiet house among the trees.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX
-
-
-More than ever on this morning was Rebecca aware that the keen eye
-of Mrs. Wyse was upon her as she moved about the schoolroom. One of
-the bigger girls was despatched to the other school for Monica McKeon
-and Master Donnellan's assistant came in to Mrs. Wyse. She nodded the
-customary greeting to Rebecca as she passed in. This interview was
-unusual at such an early hour of the day. But it was never the custom
-of either of them to tell her of what they were talking. As she busied
-herself teaching the very smallest of the children she felt that the
-eyes of both women were upon her.
-
-After what appeared to be a very long time Monica passed out. On this
-second occasion she looked loftily across her glasses and gave no nod
-of acknowledgment to Rebecca. Rebecca blushed at this open affront. She
-felt that Mrs. Wyse must have something against her, something she had
-told Monica just now.... And now the principal was exceedingly busy
-with her pen as if writing a hurried note.... Rebecca heard the high,
-coarse voice raised in command:
-
-"Euphemia McGoldrick, I want you!"
-
-Then came the timid "Yes, ma'am!" of Euphemia.
-
-"Here are two letters, child. Take this one to Father O'Keeffe, your
-parish priest, and this to your mother, like a good child."
-
-"Yes'm!"
-
-Some fear of unknown things began to stir in the breast of Rebecca.
-This connection of Mrs. McGoldrick with Mrs. Wyse's occupation of the
-morning seemed to announce some dragging of her into the matter. But as
-yet, although her mind moved tremulously in its excitement, she had,
-curiously enough, no suspicion of what was about to happen. It could
-not be that Mrs. Wyse had suspected. Oh, not at all. There was still
-no danger. But it might be a near thing.... Already she had begun to
-wonder would Ulick come to-night. But of course he would come. He was
-not such a bad fellow. And he might be taken up with his own condition
-just now. He had missed his examination in Dublin: missed it, maybe,
-through his foolishness in coming to see her.... But already she had
-thoroughly blamed herself for this.... To ease the pain of her mind
-she went busily about her work. She knew that the eye of Mrs. Wyse was
-upon her and that the very best way of defeating it was by putting on
-this air of industry. The day, in its half-hour divisions, was passing
-rapidly towards noon.
-
-A little girl came quickly in to say that Father O'Keeffe was coming up
-the road. Rebecca glanced out of the window and, sure enough, there he
-was upon his big, fat, white horse coming into the yard. She heard his
-loud cries calling into the Boys' School "for a chap to come out and
-hold his horse." When the boy came to do his bidding he held forth at
-great length upon the best way of leading "King Billy" around the yard.
-
-Then the reverend manager of Tullahanogue Schools moved into the
-female portion of the establishment. At the door he twisted his round
-face into an aspect of severity which was still humorous in its alien
-incongruity. Here also he removed his hat from his head, which was
-white and bald like the apex of an egg above the red curve of his
-countenance. It was his custom to visit the schools of which he was
-manager, thus precociously to make up in some way for what he lacked in
-educational knowledge and enthusiasm. As his short, squat figure moved
-up the passage by the desks, the massive head bowed low upon the broad
-chest and the fat fingers of both hands coiled behind his back, he was
-not at all unlike an actor made up as Napoleon Bonaparte. His voice was
-disciplined in the accents of militarism and dictatorship.
-
-Rebecca noticed on the instant that to-day he was as one intensified.
-He began to slap his legs continuously with his silver-mounted riding
-whip. He did not speak to her as he passed in. But, although it caused
-her heart to flutter for a moment, this appeared to her as no unusual
-occurrence. He never took notice of her unless when she called at the
-vestry after Mass upon occasion to deliver up a slice of her salary in
-Dues and Offerings. Then the Napoleonic powerfulness disappeared and
-he fell to talking, with laughter in his words, about the richness of
-Royal Meath in comparison with the wild barrenness of Donegal.
-
-He moved up to where Mrs. Wyse was at work. Rebecca could distinctly
-hear the loud "Well, what's your best news?" with which he
-always prefaced his conversations. In low whispers they began to
-communicate.... It was not till now that she began to have immense
-doubts as to the purpose of his visit, and already she was trembling in
-presence of the little children.
-
-"An example of her, Father!"
-
-"Oh yes, an example of her. Nothing less, Mrs. Wyse!"
-
-The words came down to Rebecca clearly through the deep silence that
-had fallen upon the school since the entrance of Father O'Keeffe. The
-bigger girls were listening, listening in a great hush of patience for
-all that had to be reported when they went home. Each one was preparing
-for her respective examination--
-
-"Was there any one in the school to-day?"
-
-"Yes, mother!"
-
-"Who, the inspector?"
-
-"No, the Priest!"
-
-"Father O'Keeffe?"
-
-"Well, anything else?"
-
-"He was talking to Mrs. Wyse."
-
-"And what was he saying?"
-
-"I couldn't hear, mother, so I couldn't."
-
-"And why didn't you listen? What am I slaving myself to send you to
-school for?"
-
-And so they were listening with such eagerness now. They were looking
-down at Rebecca as if she were the object of the whole discussion. Her
-thoughts were beginning to well into a swirling unconsciousness....
-Great sounds, like those of roaring cataracts and the drumming of
-mighty armies were rolling up to her ears.
-
-Father O'Keeffe and Mrs. Wyse now came down the schoolroom together.
-As they passed Rebecca, Father O'Keeffe beckoned to her with his
-riding-whip in the way one might call to a very inferior hireling.
-Shaken by unique and powerful impulses, she went out into the
-hall-way to meet her superiors.... Instantaneously she knew what had
-happened--they knew.
-
-"Well, isn't this a nice thing?" began Father O'Keeffe.
-
-"Ye might say it's a nice thing, Father!" echoed Mrs. Wyse.
-
-"An enormous thing!"
-
-"A terrible thing! Father!"
-
-"You're a nice lady!" he said, addressing Rebecca angrily. "To come
-into a parish where there is none save decent people to leave a black
-disgrace upon it and you going away!"
-
-"Was ever the like known, Father? And just imagine her keeping it so
-secret. Why we thought there was nothing in this affair with Ulick
-Shannon. There was such an amount of cuteness in the way they used to
-meet at times and in places we never knew of. In the woods, I suppose!"
-
-Father O'Keeffe was addressing her directly again.
-
-"Why, when I think of the disgrace to this school and all that, it
-drives me near mad."
-
-"And, mind you, the shocking insult it is to me and to the little
-children."
-
-"The shocking insult to you and to the little children. True for you,
-Mrs. Wyse."
-
-"And when I think of how you have contrived to besmirch the fair name
-of one of the fine, respectable families of the parish, gentlemen, as
-you might say, without one blot upon their escutcheon."
-
-"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney."
-
-"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney, Mrs. Wyse."
-
-His eye was upon Rebecca with a sudden gleam.
-
-"When I think of that, I consider it an enormous offense...." She did
-not flinch before them. She was thinking only of the way in which they
-had come to hear it.... She was concerned now that Ulick should not
-suffer, that his grand family name should not be dragged down with
-hers.... If he had not come to her she would have slipped away without
-a word.... And now to think that it had become public. The previous
-burning of her mind had been nothing to this.... But Father O'Keeffe
-was still speaking:
-
-"Listen to me, girl! You are to go from hence, but not, as you may
-imagine, to the place from whence you came. For this very evening I
-intend to warn your pastor of your lapse from virtue while in our
-midst, so that you may not return to your father's house and have no
-more hope of teaching in any National school within the four seas of
-Ireland."
-
-"That is only right and proper, Father!" put in Mrs. Wyse.
-
-Rebecca was not listening or else she might have shuddered within the
-shadow of the torture his words held for her. In these moments she
-had soared far beyond them.... Through the high mood in which she
-was accepting her tragedy she was becoming exalted.... What glorious
-moments there would be, what divine compensation in whispering of the
-torture surrounding its beginning to the little child when it came?
-
-"So now, Rebecca Kerr, I command you to go forth from this school and
-from the little children that you corrupt towards your own abomination
-by further presence among them."
-
-As he moved angrily out of the school she moved quietly, and without
-speaking a word, to take her coat and hat down from the rack.
-
-"Oh, wait!" commanded Mrs. Wyse, "you must not leave until three,
-until you have made an example of yourself here in a way that all the
-children may bring home the story. God knows it will be the hard thing
-for them to be telling their mothers when they go home. The poor little
-things!"
-
-Rebecca stood there desolately alone in the hall-way through the
-remainder of the afternoon. In one aspect she appeared as a bold child
-being thus corrected by a harsh superior. On many more occasions than
-appeared absolutely necessary Monica McKeon passed and repassed her
-there as she stood so lonely. The assistant of the Boys' School was
-a model of disdain as, with her lip curled, she looked away out over
-her glasses. And ever and anon Mrs. Wyse passed in and out, muttering
-mournfully to herself:
-
-"The cheek of that now, before the children and all!"
-
-And the elder girls moved about her in a procession of sneering. They
-knew, and they were examining her for the purpose of giving full
-accounts when they went home.
-
-But, occasionally, some of the little ones would come and gaze up into
-her eyes with wild looks. Although they did not know why, they seemed
-to possess for her an immense, mute pity.
-
-"Poor Miss Kerr!" they would say, stroking her dress, but their big
-sisters would come and whisk them away.
-
-"Don't touch her. She's dirty----" Then Monica would pass again. At
-last she heard the merciful stroke of three.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX
-
-
-When John Brennan went to his room after his father's outburst it was
-with the intention of doing some preparation for the morrow's work at
-the college; but although he opened several books in turn, he could
-feel no quickening of knowledge in his mind.... There she was again
-continually recurring to his thoughts. And now she was far grander.
-This was the fear that had always been hidden in his heart,--that
-somehow her friendship with Ulick was not a thing that should have
-happened. But he had considered it a reality he could not attempt to
-question. Yet he knew that but for Ulick she must be very near to him.
-And Ulick had admitted his unworthiness, and so the separation was at
-an end.
-
-It was surprising that this should have happened now. His mind sprang
-back to all that tenderness with which his thoughts of her had been
-surrounded through these long days of dreaming, when he had contrived
-to meet her, as if by accident, on her way from school.
-
-All through the next day his heart was upon her; the thought of her
-would give peace. Into every vacant moment she would come with the full
-light of her presence. He had suddenly relapsed into the mood that had
-imprisoned him after the summer holidays. He stood aloof from Father
-Considine and did not wish to see him through the whole of his long day
-in the college at Ballinamult.... All the way home he pictured her.
-She was luring him now as she had always lured him--towards a fairer
-vision of the valley.
-
-He noticed how the summer was again flooding over the fields like a
-great river spilling wide. It was a glorious coincidence that she
-should be returning to him now, a creature of brightness at a time of
-beauty.
-
-The road seemed short this pleasant afternoon, and the customary
-feeling of dusty weariness was not upon him as he leapt lightly off
-the bicycle at his mother's door. Mrs. Brennan came out to meet him
-eagerly. This was no unusual occurrence now that he had again begun to
-ascend the ladder of the high condition she had planned for him. She
-was even a far prouder woman now, for, somehow, she had always half
-remembered the stain of charity hanging over his uprise in England.
-Besides this he was nearer to her, moving intimately through the
-valley, a living part of her justification.... Her fading eyes now
-looked out tenderly at her son. There seemed to be a great light in
-them this afternoon, a great light of love for him.... He was moved
-beneath their gaze. And still she continued to smile upon him in a
-weak way as within the grip of some strong excitement. He saw when he
-entered that his dinner was not set out as usual on the white table in
-the kitchen.... She brought him into the sewing-room. And still she
-had the same smile trembling upon her lips and the same light in her
-eyes.... All this was growing mysterious and oppressive. But his mood
-was proof against sad influences. It must be some tale of good fortune
-come to their house of which his mother had now to tell.
-
-"D'ye know what, John? The greatest thing ever is after happening!"
-
-"Is that a fact, mother?"
-
-"Though mebbe 'tis not right for me to tell you and you all as one as a
-priest, I may say. But sure you're bound to hear it, and mebbe a little
-knowledge of the kind might not be amiss even to one in your exalted
-station. And then to make it better, it concerns two very near friends
-of yours, Mr. Ulick Shannon and Miss Rebecca Kerr, I thank you!"
-
-John Brennan's mind leaped immediately to interest. Were they gone back
-to one another, and after what he had thought to-day? This was the
-question his lips carried inwardly to himself.
-
-"I don't know how I can tell you. But Father O'Keeffe was at school
-to-day in a great whet. He made a show of her before the children, Mrs.
-Wyse and Miss McKeon, of course, giving him good help. He dismissed
-her, and told her to go about her business. He'll mebbe speak of her
-publicly from the altar on Sunday."
-
-"And what is it, mother, what--?"
-
-"Oh, she's going to have a misfortune, me son. She's going to be a
-mother, God bless us all! and not married or a ha'porth!"
-
-"O God!"
-
-"But sure she put in for nothing else, with her going up and all that
-to Dublin to have her dresses made, instead of getting them done nice
-and quiet and modest and respectable be me. I may tell you that I was
-more than delighted to hear it."
-
-"Well now, and the--"
-
-John was biting his lips in passion, but she took another view of it as
-she interrupted him.
-
-"Ah, you may well ask who _he_ is, who but that scoundrel Ulick
-Shannon, that I was never done asking you not to speak to. You were
-young and innocent, of course, and could not be expected to know what I
-know. But mebbe you'll avoid him now, although I think he won't be long
-here, for mebbe Father O'Keeffe'll run him out of the parish. Maybe
-not though, for his uncle has bags of money. Indeed I wouldn't put it
-apast him if _he_ was the lad encouraged him to this, for the Shannons
-were always blackguards in their hearts.... But it'll be great to hear
-Father O'Keeffe on Sunday. I must be sure and go to his Mass. Oh, it'll
-be great to hear him!"
-
-"Yes, I suppose it will be great to hear him."
-
-John spoke out of the gathering bitterness of his heart.
-
-"I wonder what'll become of her now. I wonder where'll she go. Oh, to
-Dublin, I suppose. She was always fond of it."
-
-His mother was in a very ecstasy of conjecture as to the probable
-extent of Rebecca's fate. And this was the woman who had always
-expressed a melting tenderness in her actions towards him. This was his
-mother who had spoken now with all uncharitableness. There was such
-an absence of human pity in her words as most truly appalled him....
-Very quickly he saw too that it was upon his own slight connection with
-this tragic thing her mind was dwelling. This was to him now a token,
-not of love, but rather of enormous selfishness.... Her eyes were upon
-him still, watering in admiration with a weak gleam.... The four walls
-seemed to be moving in to crush him after the manner of some medieval
-torture chamber.... Within them, too, was beginning to rise a horrid
-stench as of dead human things.... This ghastliness that had sprung
-up between mother and son seemed to have momentarily blotted out the
-consciousness of both. They stared at one another now with glassy,
-unseeing eyes.
-
-After three Rebecca took her lonely way from the school. Neither Mrs.
-Wyse nor Monica McKeon had a word for her at parting. Neither this
-woman, who was many times a mother, nor this girl who might yet be a
-mother many times. They were grinning loudly and passing some sneer
-between them, as they moved away from one another alone.
-
-Down the valley road she went, the sunlight dazzling her tired eyes.
-A thought of something that had happened upon this day last year came
-with her remembrance of the date. It was the first anniversary of some
-slight, glad event that had brought her happiness, and yet what a day
-it was of dire happening? Just one short year ago she had not known the
-valley or Ulick or this fearful thing.... There were friends about her
-on this day last year and the sound of laughter, and she had not been
-so far distant from her father's house. And, O God! to think that now
-she was so much alone.
-
-Suddenly she became aware that there was some one running by her side
-and calling "Miss Kerr! Miss Kerr!"
-
-"Oh, Janet Comaskey!" she said, turning. "Is it you?"
-
-"Yes, Miss Kerr. I want to tell you that I was talking to God last
-night, and I was telling Him about you. He asked me did I like you, and
-I said I did. 'And so do I,' said He. 'I like Miss Kerr very much,' He
-said, 'for she's very nice, very, very nice.'"
-
-Rebecca had never disliked this queer child, but she loved her now, and
-bending down, warmly kissed her wild face.
-
-"Thanks, miss. I only wanted to tell you about God," said Janet,
-dropping behind.
-
-Rebecca was again alone, but now she was within sight of the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick. It seemed to be dozing there in the sunlight. She
-began to question herself did those within already know ...? Now that
-the full publicity of her condition seemed imminent an extraordinary
-feeling of vanity was beginning to take possession of her. She took off
-her dust-coat and hung it upon her arm. Thus uncloaked she would face
-the eyes of Mrs. McGoldrick and her daughters, Euphemia and Clementina,
-and the eyes, very probably, of John Ross McGoldrick and Neville
-Chamberlain McGoldrick....
-
-But when she entered the house she experienced the painful stillness of
-a tomb-like place. There was no one to be seen. She went upstairs with
-a kind of faltering in her limbs, but her head was erect and her fine
-eyes were flashing.... Even still was she soaring beyond and beyond
-them. Her eye was caught by a note pinned upon her door. It seemed very
-funny and, despite her present condition of confusion and worry, she
-smiled, for this was surely a melodramatic trick that Mrs. McGoldrick
-had acquired from the character of her reading.... Still smiling, she
-tore it open. It read like a proclamation, and was couched in the very
-best handwriting of Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-
- "Miss Kerr,
-
- Rev. Louis O'Keeffe, P.P., Garradrimna, has given notice that,
- on account of certain deplorable circumstances, we are to refuse
- you permission to lodge with us any longer. This we hasten to
- do without any regret, considering that, to oblige you at the
- instigation of Father O'Keeffe, we broke the Regulation of the
- Force, which forbids the keeping of lodgers by any member of that
- body. We hereby give you notice to be out of this house by 6 p.m.
- on this evening, May --, 19--, having, it is understood, by that
- time packed up your belongings and discharged your liabilities to
- Mrs. McGoldrick. Father O'Keeffe has, very magnanimously, arranged
- that Mr. Charles Clarke is to call for you with his motor and take
- you with all possible speed to the station at Kilaconnaghan.
-
- Sylvester McGoldrick (Sergeant, R.I.C.)."
-
-
-The official look of the pronouncement seemed only to increase
-its gloomy finality, but the word "magnanimously," fresh from the
-dictionary at the Barrack, made her laugh outright. The offense she had
-committed was unnamed, too terrible for words. She was being sentenced
-like a doomed Easter rebel.... Yet, even still, she was not without
-some thought of the practical aspect of her case. She owed thirty
-shillings to Mrs. McGoldrick. This would leave her very little, out of
-the few pounds she had saved from her last instalment of salary, with
-which to face the world. This, of course, if Ulick did not come....
-And here was her dinner, set untidily in the stuffy room where the
-window had not been opened since the time she had left it this morning
-in confusion. And the whole house was quiet as the grave. She never
-remembered to have heard it so quiet at any other time. It seemed as
-if all this silence had been designed with a studied calculation of
-the pain it would cause. There was no kindness in this woman either,
-although she too was a mother and had young daughters. It appeared so
-greatly uncharitable that in these last terrible moments she could
-not cast from her the small and pitiful enmity she had begun upon the
-evening of Rebecca's arrival in the valley. She would not come even
-now and help her pack up her things, and she so weary?... But it was
-easily done. The few articles that had augmented her wardrobe since
-her coming to the valley would go into the basket she had used to
-carry those which were barely necessary for her comfort when she went
-to that lonely cottage in Donegal.... The mean room was still bare as
-when she had first come to it. She had not attempted to decorate it. In
-a pile in one corner stood the full series of _Irish School Weeklies_
-and _Weldon's Ladies' Journals_ she had purchased since her coming
-here. She had little use for either of these publications now, little
-use for the one that related to education or the other that related to
-adornment.
-
-There came a feverish haste upon her to get done with her preparations
-for departure, and soon they were completed. She had her trunk corded
-and all ready. She had no doubt that Ulick would meet her upon The
-Road of the Dead at 5.30, the hour she had named in the letter of this
-morning. It was lucky she had so accurately guessed her possible time
-of departure, although somehow she had had no notion this morning of
-leaving so soon. But already it was more than 4.30 by her little
-wristlet watch. She put on her best dress, which had been left out on
-the bed, and redid her hair. It was still the certain salvage from the
-wreck she was becoming. Ulick or any other man, for all he had ruined
-her, must still love her for that hair of gold. It needed no crown at
-all, but a woman's vanity was still hers, and she put on a pretty hat
-which Ulick had fancied in Dublin. She had worn it for the first time
-last summer in Donegal, and it became her better than any hat she had
-ever worn.... What would they say if they saw her moving about in this
-guise, so brazenly as it seemed, when she might be spoken of from the
-altar on Sunday?
-
-Now fell upon her a melancholy desire to see the chapel. There was yet
-time to go there and pray just as she had thought of praying on her
-first evening on coming to Garradrimna. She took a final glance at the
-little, mean room. It had not been a room of mirth for her, and she
-was not sorry to leave it--there was the corded trunk to tell the tale
-of its inhospitality. She took the money for Mrs. McGoldrick from her
-purse and put it into an envelope.... Going downstairs she left it upon
-the kitchen table. There was no one to be seen, but she could hear the
-scurrying of small feet from her as if she were some monstrous and
-forbidden thing.
-
-As she went up the bright road there was a flickering consciousness
-in her breast that she was an offense against the sunlight, but this
-feeling fled away from her when she went into the chapel and knelt down
-to pray. Her mind was full of her purpose, and she did not experience
-the distraction of one single, selfish thought. But when she put her
-hands up to her face in an attitude of piety she felt that her face was
-burning.
-
-It was a day for confessions, but there were few people in the chapel,
-and those not approaching the confessionals. The two young curates,
-Father Forde and Father Fagan, were moving about the quiet aisles,
-each deeply intent upon the reading of his office. They were nearer
-the altar than to her, but for all the air of piety in which they
-seemed to be enveloped, they detected her presence immediately and
-simultaneously. Soon they began to extend their back and forward pacing
-to include her within the range of their sidelong vision.... By the
-time she had got half way around her little mother-of-pearl rosary
-they were moving past her and towards one another at her back. She was
-saying her poor prayers as well as she could, but there they were with
-their heads working up and down as they looked alternately at her and
-at their holy books.... Just as she got to the end of the last decade
-she was conscious that they had come together and were whispering
-behind her.... It was not until then that she saw the chapel for what
-it stood in regard to her. It was the place where, on Sunday next, mean
-people would smirk in satisfaction as they sat listening in all their
-lack of charity and fulness of pride.... The realization brought the
-pulsing surge of anger to her blood and she rose to come away. But when
-she turned around abruptly there were the two curates with their eyes
-still fixed upon her.... She did not meet their looks full straight,
-for they turned away as if to avoid the contamination of her as she ran
-from the House of God.
-
-When John Brennan reached a point in his disgust where further
-endurance was impossible he broke away from the house and from his
-mother. He went out wildly through the green fields.
-
-But he would see her. He would go to her, for surely she had need of
-him now.... If Ulick did not come.... And there was much in his manner
-and conversation of the previous night to make it doubtful.... If he
-did not take her away from this place and make her his own to protect
-and cherish, there was only one course left open.... He knew little of
-these things, for he knew little of the ways of life, but instinctively
-he felt that Rebecca would now cling to Ulick and that Ulick would be a
-great scoundrel if he spurned her from him. And what, he asked himself,
-would he, John Brennan, do in that case?
-
-No answer would spring directly to his thoughts, but some ancient,
-primeval feeling was stirring in his heart--the answer that men have
-held to be the only answer from the beginning of the world. But that
-was a dreadful thing which, in its eddying circles of horror, might
-compass his own end also.
-
-But, maybe the whole story was untrue. He had heard his mother speak
-many a time after the same fashion, and there was never one case of the
-kind but had proved untrue. Yet it was terrible that no answer would
-come flashing out from his wild thoughts, and already he had reached
-The Road of the Dead.
-
-His wandering eyes had at last begun to rest upon a wide, green field.
-He saw the wind and sun conspiring to ripple the grass into the
-loveliest little waves. He had loved this always, and even the present
-state of his mind did not refuse the sensation of its beauty. He went
-and leaned across the field gate to gaze upon it.
-
-He turned suddenly, for there was a step approaching him along the
-road. Yes, surely it was she. It was Rebecca Kerr herself coming
-towards him down The Road of the Dead.... She was smiling, but from the
-dark, red shadows about her eyes it was easy to see that she had quite
-recently been crying.
-
-"Good evening, John Brennan!" she said.
-
-"Good evening, Miss Kerr!"
-
-There was a deep touch of concern, turning to anxiety, almost a rich
-tenderness in his words. She heard them for what they were, and there
-came to her clearly their accents of pity.... For the moment neither
-seemed capable of finding speech.... Her eyes were searching The Road
-of the Dead for the man she expected to meet her here. But he was not
-coming. In the silence that had fallen between them John Brennan had
-clearly glimpsed the dumb longing that was upon her.... He felt the
-final gloom that was moving in around her ... yet he could not find
-speech.
-
-"I'm going away from the valley," said Rebecca.
-
-He made some noise in his throat, but she could hear no distinct word.
-
-"It was not _you_ I expected to meet here this evening. It is so
-strange how we have met like this."
-
-"I just came out for a walk," he stammered, at a loss for something
-better to say.
-
-"I'm glad we have met," she said, "for this is the last time."
-
-It was easy to see that her words held much meaning for herself and
-him.... He seemed to be nearer the brink as her eyes turned from him
-again to search the road.
-
-"He will not come," she said, and there was a kind of wretched
-recklessness in her tones. "I know he will not come, for that
-possibility has never been." She grew more resigned of a sudden. She
-saw that John Brennan too was searching the road with his eyes.... Then
-he knew the reason why she was going away.
-
-He was such a nice boy, and between his anxious watching now for her
-sake he was gazing with pity into her eyes.... He must know Ulick too
-as a man knows his friend, and that Ulick would not come to her in this
-her hour of trial.... The knowledge seemed the more terrible since it
-was through John Brennan it had come; and yet it was less terrible
-since he did not disdain her for what she had done. She saw through his
-excuse. He had come this way with the special purpose of seeing her,
-and if he had not met her thus accidentally he must inevitably have
-called at the house of Sergeant McGoldrick to extend his farewell. She
-was glad that she had saved him this indignity by coming out to her
-own disappointment.... She was sorry that he had again returned to his
-accustomed way of thinking of her, that he had again departed from the
-way into which she had attempted to direct him.
-
-And now there loomed up for her great terror in this thought. Yet she
-could read it very clearly in the way he was looking so friendly upon
-her.... Why had he always looked upon her in this way? Surely she had
-never desired it. She had never desired him. It was Ulick she had
-longed for always. It was Ulick she had longed for this evening, and
-it was John Brennan who had come.... Yes, how well he had come? It was
-very simple and very beautiful, this action of his, but in its simple
-goodness there was a fair promise of its high desolation. It appeared
-that she stood for his ruin also, and, even now, in the mounting
-moments of her fear, this appeared as an ending far more appalling....
-She was coming to look at her own fate as a thing she might be able to
-bear, but there was something so vastly filled with torture in this
-thought.... Whenever she would look into the eyes of the child and make
-plans for its little future she would think of John Brennan and what
-had happened to him.
-
-She felt that they had been a long time standing here at this gate, by
-turns gazing anxiously up and down the road, by turns looking vacantly
-out over the sea of grass. Time was of more account than ever before,
-for was it not upon this very evening that she was being banished from
-the valley?
-
-"I must go now," she said; "_he_ will never come."
-
-He did not answer, but moved as if to accompany her.... She grew
-annoyed as she observed his action.
-
-"No, no, you must not come with me now. You must not speak with me
-again. I have placed myself forever beyond your friendship or your
-thought!"
-
-As she extended her hand to him her heart was moved by a thousand
-impulses.
-
-"Good-by, John Brennan!" she said simply.
-
-"Good-by, Rebecca!" said he at last, finding speech by a tremendous
-effort.... And without another word they parted there on The Road of
-the Dead.
-
-Outside the garden gate of Sergeant McGoldrick Charlie Clarke was
-waiting for her with his motor-car. Her trunk had been put in at the
-back. This was an unholy job for a saintly chauffeur, but it was Father
-O'Keeffe's command and his will must be done. When the news of it had
-been communicated to him he had said a memorable thing:
-
-"Well, now, the quare jobs a religious man has sometimes to do; but
-maybe these little punishments are by way of satisfaction for some
-forgotten and far-distant sin!"
-
-Rebecca understood his anxiety to have her off his hands as she saw him
-jump in behind the wheel at her approach. She got in beside her poor
-trunk, and presently the car would be ready to start. There was not
-a trace of any of the McGoldrick family to be seen.... But there was
-a sudden breaking through the green hedge upon the other side of the
-road, and Janet Comaskey stood beside the car. Rebecca was surprised by
-the sudden appearance of the little, mad girl at this moment.
-
-"Miss Kerr, Miss Kerr!" she called. "I got this from God. God told me
-to give you this!"
-
-The car started away, and Rebecca saw that the superscription on the
-letter she had been handed was in the pronounced Vere Foster style of
-Master Donnellan. Doubtless it was some long-winded message of farewell
-from the kind-hearted master, and she would not open it now. It would
-be something to read as she moved away towards Dublin.
-
-Just now her eyes were being filled by the receding pageant of the
-valley, that place of all earth's places which had so powerfully
-arrayed its villainy against her.... And to think that he had not
-come.... It was the Valley of Hinnom.... Yes, to think that he had not
-come after all she had been to him, after all the love of her heart
-she had given him. No word could ever, ever pass between them again.
-They were upon the very brink of the eternity of separation. She knew
-now that for all the glory in which she had once beheld him, he must
-shrivel down to the bitter compass of a little, painful memory. Oh,
-God! to think he had not replied to her letter, and the writing of it
-had given her such pain.
-
-They were at the station of Kilaconnaghan. Charlie Clarke had not
-spoken all through the journey, but now he came up to her indignantly,
-as if very vexed for being compelled to speak to her at all, and said:
-"The fare is one pound!"
-
-The words smote her with a little sense of shock. She had been
-expecting something by way of climax. She was very certain in her
-consciousness that the valley would not let her slip thus quietly
-away.--A pound for the journey, although it was Father O'Keeffe who
-had engaged the car.--She must pay this religious robber a huge price
-for the drive. There rushed through her mind momentarily a mad flash
-of rebellion. The valley was carrying its tyranny a little too far....
-She would not pay.... But almost immediately she was searching for a
-note in her purse.... There were so very few of them now. Yet she could
-not leave the valley with any further little stain upon her. They would
-talk of a thing like this for years and years.
-
-
-With a deadly silence hanging over him and fearful thoughts coming into
-his mind Myles Shannon had kept himself and his nephew Ulick at work
-all through the day. After tea in the lonely dining-room he fetched
-in his inky account books, which had been neglected for many a month.
-His nephew would here have work to occupy him for the remainder of the
-evening and probably far into the night. Ulick was glad of the task,
-for his mind was very far from being at ease.
-
-Then Mr. Shannon took £100 from the old-fashioned bureau in the parlor,
-which held, with the other things, all his papers and accounts,
-and while the evening was yet high went down towards the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick to see Rebecca Kerr. Around a bend of the road he
-encountered Charlie Clarke on his way back from Kilaconnaghan, where he
-had been delayed upon bazaar business.
-
-The saintly chauffeur at once put on the brakes. This was Mr. Myles
-Shannon and some one worth speaking to. He bowed a groveling salute.
-
-"You're out pretty late?" said Mr. Shannon.
-
-"Oh, yes!" And then he went on to describe his work of the evening.
-He felt inclined to offer his condolence to Mr. Shannon in a most
-respectful whisper, but thought better of it at the last moment.
-
-"And no one knows where she has gone?"
-
-"No one. She has disappeared from the valley."
-
-"She went away very suddenly."
-
-"Yes, Father O'Keeffe saw that, in the public interest, she should
-disappear after this fashion. The motor was a help, you know."
-
-Charlie Clarke offered to drive Mr. Shannon to his home. No word passed
-between them as they drew up the avenue to the lonely house among the
-trees.
-
-In the train, moving on towards Dublin, Rebecca Kerr had just opened
-the letter from Master Donnellan. It contained a £5 note.... This was
-like a cry of mercy and pardon for the valley.... The rich fields of
-Meath were racing by.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI
-
-
-There was a curious hush about the lake next evening, although the
-little cottage of Hughie Murtagh was swept by winds which stirred
-mournfully through all the bright abundance of early summer. Even the
-orange-blossoms of the furze seemed to put on an aspect of surrender.
-There was no challenge in their color now; they looked almost white
-against a somber sunset. John Brennan moped about among the fir-trees.
-He came to a stand-still by one that had begun to decay and which was
-even more mournful in its failure to contribute another plumed head to
-the general effect of mourning. But it seemed to shake enraged at this
-impotence in its poor foundation over the deserted warren, from which
-Shamesy Golliher had long since driven the little rabbits towards that
-dark Chicago of slaughter which was represented to them by Garradrimna.
-
-The same color of desolation was upon the reeds which separated
-him from the water. The water itself had, beneath its pretense of
-brightness upon the surface, the appearance of ooze, as if it had come
-washing over the slime of dead things.
-
-It was here that John Brennan had come to wait for Ulick Shannon, and,
-as he waited, his mood became that of his surroundings.... He fell to
-running over what had happened to him. Alternately, in the swirl of his
-consciousness, it appeared as the power of the valley and as the Hand
-of God. Yet, whatever it might be in truth, this much was certain. It
-had reduced his life to ruins. It was a fearful thing, and he shuddered
-a little while he endeavored to produce a clear picture of it for the
-chastisement as well as the morbid excitement of his imagination.
-
-But there came instead a far different picture, which seemed to have
-the effect of lifting for a moment the surrounding gloom. He saw
-Rebecca Kerr again as upon many an afternoon they had met. For one
-brave moment he strove to recover the fine feeling that had filled
-him at those times. But it would not come. Something had happened,
-something terrible which soiled and spoiled her forever.
-
-For love of her he had dreamed even unto the desire of defeating his
-mother's love. And yet there was no triumph in his heart now, nothing
-save defeat and a great weariness. Neither his mother nor Rebecca Kerr
-were any longer definite hopes upon which his mind might dwell....
-His thoughts were running altogether upon Ulick Shannon. It was for
-Ulick he waited now in this lonely, wind-swept place, like any villain
-he had ever seen depicted upon the cover of a penny dreadful in
-Phillips's window when he was a boy. He now saw himself fixed in his
-own imagination after this fashion. Ulick Shannon would soon come.
-There was no doubt of this, for a definite appointment had been made
-during the day. He had remained at home from the college in Ballinamult
-to bring it about. Soon they would be endeavoring to enter what must
-be the final and tragic bye-way of their story. And it must be all so
-dreadfully interesting, this ending he had planned.... Now the water
-came flowing towards him more rapidly as if to hurry the tragedy. It
-came more thickly and muddily and with long, billowy strides as if
-it yearned to gather some other body still holding life to its wild
-breast. Its waters kept flowing as if from some wide wound that ached
-and would not be satisfied; that bled and called aloud for blood
-forever.
-
-Now also the evening shadows were beginning to creep down the hills and
-with them a deeper hush was coming upon the wild longing of all things.
-Yet it was no hush of peace, but rather the concentration of some
-horrible purpose upon one place.
-
-"I am going away on Friday," Ulick had written in one of the two notes
-that had been exchanged between them by the messenger during the day,
-"and I would like to see you for what must, unfortunately, be the last
-time. I am slipping away unknown to my uncle or to any one, and it is
-hardly probable that I will be seen in these parts again."
-
-At length he beheld the approach of Ulick down the long Hill of
-Annus.... His spirit thrilled within him and flamed again into a white
-flame of love for the girl who was gone.... And coming hither was the
-man who had done this thing.... The thickest shadows of the evening
-would soon be gathered closely about the scene they were to witness....
-The very reeds were rustling now in dread.
-
-The lake was deep here at the edge of the water.... And in the
-rabbit-warren beneath his feet were the heavy pieces of lead piping
-he had transported in the night. He had taken them from his father's
-stock of plumber's materials, that moldy, unused stock which had so
-long lain in the back yard and which, in a distant way, possessed an
-intimate connection with this heaped-up story.... In a little instant
-of peculiar consciousness he wondered whether it would be pliable
-enough.... There were pieces for the legs and pieces for the arms which
-would enfold those members as in a weighty coffin.... And hidden nearer
-to his hand was the strangely-shaped, uncouth weapon his father had
-used many a time with such lack of improvement upon the school slates
-and with which one might kill a man.... The body would rest well down
-there beneath the muddy waters.... There would be no possibility of
-suspicion falling upon him, for the story of Rebecca Kerr's disgrace
-and Ulick Shannon's connection with it had already got about the
-valley.... He had been listening to his mother telling it to people all
-day.... Ulick's disappearance, in a way self-effacing and unnamed, was
-hourly expected. This opportunity appeared the one kind trick of Fate
-which had been so unkind to the passionate yearnings of John Brennan.
-
-But Ulick Shannon was by his side, and they were talking again
-as friends of different things in the light way of old.... Their
-talk moved not at all within the shadows of things about to happen
-presently.... But the shadows were closing in, and very soon they must
-fall and lie heavily upon all things here by the lake.
-
-"Isn't it rather wonderful, Brennan, that I should be going hence
-through the power of a woman? It is very strange how they always manage
-to have their revenge, how they beat us in the long run no matter how
-we may plume ourselves on a triumph that we merely fancy. Although
-we may degrade and rob them of their treasure, ours is the final
-punishment. Do you remember how I told you on that day we were at the
-'North Leinster Arms,' in Ballinamult, there was no trusting any woman?
-Not even your own mother! Now this Rebecca Kerr, she--"
-
-The sentence was never finished. John Brennan had not spoken, but his
-hand had moved twice--to lift the uncouth weapon from the foot of
-the tree and again to strike the blow.... The mold of unhappy clay
-from which the words of Ulick had just come was stilled forever. The
-great cry which struggled to break from the lips resulted only in a
-long-drawn sigh that was like a queer swoon. The mournful screech of a
-wild bird flying low over the lake drowned the little gust of sound....
-Then the last lone silence fell between the two young men who had once
-been most dear companions.
-
-No qualms of any kind came to the breast of John Brennan. He had
-hardened his heart between the leaping flames of Love and Hate, and
-there was upon him now the feeling of one who has done a fine thing.
-He was in the moment of his triumph, yet he was beginning to be amazed
-by his sudden power and the result of his decision.... That he, John
-Brennan, should have had it in him to murder his friend.... But no, it
-was his enemy he had murdered, the man who had desecrated the beauty of
-the world.... And there was a rare grandeur in what he had done. It was
-a thing of beauty snatched from the red hands of Death.
-
-Yet as he went about his preparations for submerging the body he felt
-something akin to disgust for this the mean business of the murder....
-Here was where the beauty that had been his deed snapped finally from
-existence in his consciousness and disappeared from him.
-
-Henceforth gray thought after gray thought came tumbling into his
-mind. Ulick had not been a bad fellow. He had tried to be kind to
-him--all the motor-drives and the walks and talks they had had. Even
-the bits of days and nights spent together in Garradrimna.... And how
-was Ulick to know of his affection for Rebecca Kerr? There had never
-been the faintest statement of the fact between them; his whole manner
-and conversation and the end for which he was intended forbade any
-suspicion of the kind. In fact to have had such a doubt would have
-been a sin in the eyes of many a Catholic.... The legs and arms were
-well weighted now.... This might not have happened if his mother had
-been attended in the right spirit of filial obedience.... But with
-the arrogance of youth, which he now realized for the first time, he
-had placed himself above her opinion and done what he had desired at
-the moment. And why had he done so?... She would seem to have had
-foreboding of all this in the way she had looked upon him so tenderly
-with her tired eyes many a time since his memorable home-coming last
-summer. She had always been so fearfully anxious.... Here must have
-been the melancholy end she had seen at the back of all dreaming.... He
-could feel that sad look clearly, all dimmed by dark presentiments.
-
-The body was a great weight. He strove to lift it in his arms in such a
-way that his clothes might not be soiled by the blood.... His face was
-very near the pale, dead face with the red blood now clotting amongst
-the hair.... He was almost overpowered by his burden as he dragged it
-to the water's edge.... It was a very fearful thing to look at just as
-the water closed over it with a low, gurgling sound, as if of mourning,
-like the cry of the bird in the moment the murder had been done.
-
-As he staggered back from the sighing reeds he noticed that the ground
-was blood-drenched beneath the tree.... But he was doing the thing most
-thoroughly. In a frenzy of precautionary industry he began to hack away
-the earth with the slating implement very much as Shamesy Golliher
-might hack it in search of a rabbit.
-
-Later he seemed to put on the very appearance of Shamesy himself as,
-with bent body, he slouched away across the ridge of the world. He too
-had just effected a piece of slaughter and Garradrimna seemed to call
-him.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXII
-
-
-When he came out upon the valley road he was no longer the admirable
-young man he had been less than a year since. He was a broken thing,
-and he was stained by another's blood. He was marked eternally by what
-he had done, and there was upon him a degradation unspeakable. He was
-an offense against existence and against the gathering, blessed gloom
-of the quiet evening.... He had murdered one who had been his friend,
-and it was a thing he might never be able to forget. The body, with
-all the lovely life so recently gone from it, he had weighted and sunk
-beneath the surface of the lake.... It was down there now, a poor, dead
-thing among the ooze of dead things from which the water had taken its
-color and quality. The wild spirit that had been Ulick Shannon, so
-contradictory in its many aspects, was now soaring lightly aloft upon
-the wings of clean winds and he, John Brennan, who had effected this
-grand release, felt the weights still heavy about his heart.
-
-He came on a group of children playing by the roadside. It seemed
-as if they had been driven across his path to thwart him with their
-innocence. He instantly remembered that other evening when he had been
-pained to hear them express the ugly, uncharitable notions of their
-parents regarding a child of another religion. Now they were playing
-merrily as God had intended them to play, and religion, with its
-tyranny of compulsion towards thoughts of death and sin, seemed distant
-from them, and distant was it from him too. His mind was empty of any
-thought. Would no kindly piece of imagination come down to cool his
-spirit with its grace or lift from his heart the oppression of the
-leaden weights he had bound about the body of Ulick Shannon?... At last
-he had remembrance of his mother. It had been borne in upon him during
-some of his lonely cycle-rides to and from Ballinamult that things
-should not be, somehow, as they were. He was moving along exalted ways
-while his mother labored in lonely silence at her machine.... Where
-was the money coming from? Such an unproductive state as his required
-money for its upkeep. His father was no toiler, but she was always
-working there alone in the lonely room. Her hands were grown gnarled
-and hard through her years of labor.... Just presently she was probably
-discussing a dismal matter of ways and means with some woman of the
-valley, saying as she had said through the long years:
-
-"Thank God and His Blessed Mother this night, I still have me
-hands. Aye, that's what I was just saying to Mrs. So and So this
-morning--Thank God I still have me hands!"
-
-Thus she was going on now, he imagined, as he had always heard her, a
-pathetic figure sitting there and looking painfully through the heavy,
-permanent mist that was falling down upon her eyes. And yet it was
-not thus she really was at this moment. For although it was a woman
-who held her company, there was no mood of peace between them. It was
-Marse Prendergast who was with her, and she was proceeding busily with
-her eternal whine. Mrs. Brennan was now disturbed in her mind and
-fearful of the great calamity that might happen. While she had bravely
-maintained the money in the little chest upstairs there had lingered,
-in spite of every affliction, a sense of quietness and independence.
-But now she was without help and as one distraught. Of late this
-gibbering old woman had obtained a certain power over her, and a
-considerable portion of the once proud Mrs. Brennan had fallen finally
-away. Although, at unaccountable moments, her strong pride would spring
-up to dazzle the people of the valley, she did not now possess that
-remarkable imperviousness which had so distinguished her attitude
-towards life. Now she was in a condition of disintegration, unable
-to maintain an antagonism or hide a purpose. The old ruined woman,
-the broken shuiler of the roads, was beginning to behold the ruins of
-another woman, the ruins of Mrs. Brennan, who had once been so "thick"
-and proud.
-
-"So you won't hearken to me request?"
-
-"I can't, Marse dear. I have no money to give you!"
-
-This was a true word, for the little store upstairs had gone this way
-and that. Tommy Williams had had to be given his interest, and although
-people might think that John was getting his education for charity, no
-one knew better than she the heavy fees of the college in Ballinamult.
-Besides, he must keep up a good appearance in the valley.
-
-But when Marse Prendergast made a demand she knew no reason and could
-make no allowance.
-
-"Well, Nan, me dear, I must do me duty. I must speak out when you can't
-bribe me to be silent. I must do a horrid piece of business this night.
-I must turn a son against his mother. Yes, that must be the way of it
-now, a son turned for good against his mother. For surely there could
-be no pardon in his grand, holy eyes for what you were once upon a
-time. But let me tell you this, that I'd have acquainted him anyhow,
-for I'd not have gone to me grave with that sin on me no matter what.
-They say it isn't right to offer a son to God where there's after being
-any big blemish in the family, and that if you do a woful misfortune or
-a black curse comes of it. And sure that was the quare, big blemish in
-your family, Nan Byrne, the quarest blemish ever was."
-
-Mrs. Brennan began to cry. She seemed to have come at last to the end
-of all her long attempt to brazen things out.... Marse Prendergast was
-not slow to observe this acceptance of defeat, and saw that now surely
-was her time to be hard and bitter. She was growing so old, a withered
-stump upon the brink of years, and there was upon her an enormous
-craving for a little money. People were even driven, by her constant
-whine for this thing and that, to say how she had a little store of her
-own laid by which she gloated over with a wicked and senile delight.
-And for what, in God's name, was she hoarding and she an old, lone
-woman with the life just cross-wise in her?... And it was always Mrs.
-Brennan whom she had visited with her singular and special persecution.
-
-"I suppose now you think you're the quare, clever one to be going on
-with your refusals from day to day. I suppose you think I don't know
-that you have a _chesht_ full of money that you robbed from poor Henry
-Shannon, God be good to him, when he used to be coming running to see
-you, the foolish fellow!"
-
-"As God's me judge, Marse Prendergast, I haven't e'er a penny in the
-house. I'm in debt in Garradrimna this blessed minute, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"
-
-"Go on out of that with your talk of debts, and you to be sending your
-son John through his college courses before all our eyes like any fine
-lady in the land. And think of all the grand money you'll be getting
-bye and bye in rolls and cartloads!"
-
-"Aye, with the help of God!"
-
-Even in the moment of her torment Mrs. Brennan could not restrain her
-vanity of her son.
-
-"And to think of all that being before you now and still you keep up
-your mean refusals of the little thing I ask," said the old woman with
-the pertinacious unreasonableness of age.
-
-"I haven't got the money, Marse, God knows I haven't."
-
-"God knows nothing, Nan Byrne, only your shocking villainy. And 'tis
-the great sin for you surely. And if God knows this, it is for some one
-else to know your sin. It is for your son John to know the kind of a
-mother that he loves and honors."
-
-Mrs. Brennan had heard this threat on many an occasion yet even now
-the repetition of it made her grow suddenly pale.... An expression
-of sickliness was upon her face seen even through the shadowed
-sewing-room. Always this thought had haunted her that some time John
-might come to know.
-
-"Long threatening comes at last!" was a phrase that had always held for
-her the darkest meaning. She could never listen to any woman make use
-of it without shuddering violently. Marse Prendergast had threatened
-so often and often.
-
-"Ah, no, Nan Byrne, this is something I could never let pass. And all
-the long days I saw you contriving here at the machine, and you so
-anxious and attentive, sure I used to be grinning to myself at the
-thoughts of the bloody fine laugh I'd be having at you some day. I
-used, that's God's truth!"
-
-It seemed terrible to be told the story of this hate that had been
-so well hidden, now springing up before her in a withering blast of
-ingratitude and being borne to her understanding upon such quiet
-words.... She sighed ever so slightly, and her lips moved gently in the
-aspiration of a prayer.
-
-"O Jesus, Mary and Joseph!" was what she said.
-
-The pious ejaculation seemed to leap at once towards the accomplishment
-of a definite purpose, for immediately it had the effect of moving
-Marse Prendergast towards the door.
-
-"I'm going now!"
-
-The words were spoken with an even more chilling quietness. Mrs.
-Brennan made a noise as if to articulate something, but no words would
-come from her.
-
-"And let you not be thinking that 'tis only this little thing I'm going
-to tell him, for there's a whole lot more. I'm going to tell him _all_
-I know, _all that I didn't tell you_ through the length of the years,
-though, God knows, it has been often burning me to tell.... You think,
-I suppose, as clever as you are, that the child was buried in the
-garden. Well, that's not a fact, nor the color of a fact, for all I've
-made you afraid of it so often.... Grace Gogarty had no child of her
-own for Henry Shannon. _Ulick Shannon is your own child that was sold
-be your ould mother for a few pound!_"
-
-"That's a lie for you, Marse Prendergast!"
-
-"'Tis no lie at all I'm telling you, but the naked truth. I suppose
-neither of them lads, Ulick nor John, ever guessed the reason why they
-were so fond of one another, but that was the reason; and 'tis I used
-to enjoy seeing them together and I knowing it well. Isn't it curious
-now to say that you're the mother of a blackguard and the mother of the
-makings of a priest?... Mebbe you'd give me the little bit of money
-now? Mebbe?"
-
-Mrs. Brennan did not answer. Big tears were rolling down her cheeks
-one after the other.... Her heart had been rent by this sudden flash
-of information. Even the last remaining stronghold of her vanity had
-been swept away. That she, who had claim in her own estimation to be
-considered the wise woman of the valley, could not have long since
-guessed at the existence of a fact so intimate.... Her heart was
-wounded, not unto death, but immortally.... Her son! Ulick Shannon her
-son! O Mother of God!
-
-
-John Brennan was still in his agony as he saw the long-tongued shuiler
-coming towards him down the road. She was making little journeys into
-the ditches as she came along. She was gathering material for a fire
-although every bush was green.... She was always shivering at the
-fall of night. The appearance of the children had filled him with
-speculations as to where he might look for some comfort.... Could it be
-derived from the precepts of religion translated into acts of human
-kindness? Momentarily he was confused as he attempted to realize some
-act of goodness to be done here and now. He was unable to see.
-
-Old Marse Prendergast, coming towards him slowly, was the solitary
-link connecting his mind with any thought. To him she appeared the
-poor old woman in need of pity who was gathering green sticks from the
-hedge-rows to make her a fire which would not kindle. He remembered
-that morning, now some time distant, when he had helped her carry home
-a bundle of her sticks on his way from Mass. It had appeared to him
-then, as it did now, a Christ-like action, but his mother had rebuked
-him for it. Yet he had always wished his mother to take the place of
-Mary when he tried to snatch some comfort from the Gospel story. Soon
-he was by her side speaking as kindly as he could.... Great fear was
-already upon him.
-
-"God bless you, me little Johneen, me little son; sure 'tis yourself
-has the decent, kind heart to be taking pity upon the old. Arrah now!
-You're alone and lonely this evening, I notice, for your friend is gone
-from you. It bees lonely when one loses one's comrade. Ah, 'tis many a
-year and more since I lost me comrade through the valley of life. Since
-Marks Prendergast, the good husband of me heart and the father of me
-children, was lost on me. Sure he was murdered on me one St. Patrick's
-Day fair in Garradrimna. He was ripped open with a knife and left there
-upon the street in his blood for me to see.... That's the way, that's
-the way, me sweet gosoon; some die clean and quiet, and some go away in
-their blood like the way they came."
-
-Had she devoted much time and skill to it she could not have produced
-a more dire effect upon John than by this accidental turn of her
-talk.... The scene by the lakeside swam clearly into his eyes again.
-
-"I suppose _your_ good comrade is gone away?"
-
-"Whom, what?"
-
-"Ulick Shannon, to be sure. I suppose he's after slipping away be this
-time anyway."
-
-"Aye, he's gone away."
-
-"That was what you might call the nice lad. And it was no wonder at all
-that you were so much attached to one another. Never a bit of wonder at
-all.... Sure you were like brothers."
-
-John was so solicitous in maintaining his silence that he did not
-notice the old woman's terrible sententiousness.... He went on pulling
-green sticks from the hedge and placing them very carefully by the side
-of those she had already gathered.
-
-"Just like brothers. That's what ye were, just like brothers. He, he,
-he!"
-
-Although he did not detect the note of laughter in it that was hollow
-and a mockery, he was nevertheless appalled by what should appear as
-a commendation of him who was gone.... He felt himself shaking even
-as the leaves in the hedgerows were being shaken by the light wind of
-evening.
-
-"Like brothers, _avic machree_."
-
-Even still he did not reply.
-
-"Like brothers, I say, and that's the whole story. For ye were
-brothers. At least you were of the one blood, because ye had the same
-woman for the mother of ye both."
-
-Certainly she was raving, but her words were having an unusual effect
-upon him. He was keeping closer to the hedge as if trying to hide his
-face.
-
-"To-night, me fine gosoon, I'm going to do a terrible thing. I'm going
-to tell you who your mother is, and then you'll know a quare story.
-You'll know that Ulick Shannon, good luck to him wherever he's gone,
-was nothing less than your own brother.... It is she that is after
-forcing me on to it be her penurious and miserly ways. I didn't want to
-tell ye, John! I say, I didn't want to tell ye!"
-
-Her old, cracked voice trailed away into a high screech. John Brennan
-was like a man stunned by a blow as he waited for her to speak the rest
-of the story.
-
-"Ulick Shannon's father, Henry Shannon, was the one your mother loved.
-She never cared for your father, nor he for her. So you might say you
-are no love child. But there was a love child in it to be sure, and
-that child was Ulick Shannon. Your mother was his mother. He was born
-out of wedlock surely, but he happened handy, and was put in the place
-of Grace Gogarty's child that died and it a weeshy, young thing.... It
-was your grandmother that sold him, God forgive her, if you want to
-know, for I was watching the deed being done.... Your mother always
-thought the bastard was murdered in the house and buried in the garden.
-I used to be forever tormenting her by making her think that only it
-was me could tell. There was no one knew it for certain in the whole
-world, only me and them that were dead and gone. So your mother could
-not have found out from any one but me, and she might never have found
-out only for the way she used to be refusing me of me little dues....
-But I can tell you that she found out this evening how she was the
-mother of Ulick Shannon, and that you, the beloved son she cherished
-in her heart and put on in all her pride to be a priest of God, was a
-near blood relation of the boy she was never done but running down. The
-boy that she, above all others, with her prate and gab made a drunkard
-of in the first place, and then rushed on, be always talking of the
-like about him, to do great harm to this girl. But sure it was myself
-that could not blame him at all, for it was in him both ways, the poor,
-unfortunate gosoon!"
-
-There was no reason to doubt the old shuiler's story, with such
-passionate vehemence did it fall from her. And its coherence was very
-convincing. It struck him as a greater blow which almost obliterated
-his understanding. In the first moment he could stand apart from it
-and look even blindly it appeared as the swift descent of Divine
-vengeance upon him for what he had just done.... He moved away, his
-mind a bursting tumult, and without a sight in his eyes.... The mocking
-laughter of Marse Prendergast rang in his ears. Now why was she
-laughing at him when it was his mother who was her enemy?
-
-He was walking, but the action was almost unnoticed by him. He was
-moving aimlessly within the dark, encircling shadow of his doom.... Yet
-he saw that he was not far distant from Garradrimna.... The last time
-he had been there at the period of the day he had been in company with
-Ulick Shannon. It was what had sprung out of those comings together
-that was now responsible for this red ending.... He remembered also
-how the port wine had lifted him out of himself and helped him to see
-Rebecca Kerr.... The windows were squinting through the gloom as he
-went the road.
-
-There was stronger drink in Garradrimna and pubs. of greater intensity
-than McDermott's. There was "The World's End," for instance, that
-tavern so fantastically named by the Hon. Reginald Moore in memory of
-an inn of the same name that had struck his fancy in England.... The
-title now seemed particularly appropriate.
-
-It was towards this place his feet were moving. In another spell
-of thought which surprised him by the precaution it exhibited, he
-remembered that his father would not be there; for, although it had
-been Ned Brennan's famous haunt aforetime, he had been long ago
-forbidden its doors. It was in this, one of the seven places of
-degradation in Garradrimna, he was now due to appear.
-
-He went very timidly up to the back-door, which opened upon a little,
-secluded passage. He ordered a glass of whiskey from the greasy barmaid
-who came to attend him.... He felt for the money so carefully wrapped
-in tissue-paper in his waistcoat pocket. It was a bright gold sovereign
-that his mother had given him on the first day of his course at
-Ballinamult College to keep against any time he might be called upon to
-show off the fact that he was a gentleman. As he unfolded it now, from
-the careful covering in which she had wrapped it, it seemed to put on a
-tragic significance.... He was fearfully anxious to be in the condition
-that had brought him his vision on the night he had slept by the lake.
-
-He drank the whiskey at one gulp, and it seemed a long time until
-the barmaid returned with the change. Sovereigns were marvels of
-rare appearance at "The World's End." He thanked her and called for
-another, paying her as she went. She was remarkably mannerly, for, in
-the narrow gloom of the place, she took him to be some rich stranger.
-She had seen the color of his money and liked it well.
-
-The whiskey seemed to possess magical powers. It rapidly restored him
-to a mood wherein the distress that was his might soon appear a small
-thing. Yet he grew restless with the urgency that was upon him and
-glanced around in search of a distraction for his galloping brain....
-He bent down and peered through the little aperture which opened upon
-the public bar of "The World's End." In there he saw a man in a heated
-atmosphere and enveloped by dense clouds of tobacco-smoke. They were
-those who had come in the roads to forget their sweat and labor in the
-black joy of porter. Theirs was a part of the tragedy of the fields,
-but it was a meaner tragedy. Yet were they suddenly akin to him....
-Through the lugubrious expression on their dark faces a sudden light
-was shining. It was the light as if of some ecstasy. A desire fell upon
-him to enter into their dream, whatever it might be.... In the wild
-whirl that the whiskey had whipped up in his brain there now came a
-sudden lull. It was a lull after a great crescendo, as in Beethoven's
-music.... He was hearing, with extraordinary clearness, what they were
-saying. They were speaking of the case of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca
-Kerr. These names were linked inseparably and were going hand in hand
-down all the byeways of their talk.... They were sure and certain that
-he had gone away. There was not a sign of him in Garradrimna this
-evening. That put the cap on his guilt surely. Wasn't she the grand
-whipster, and she supposed to be showing a good example and teaching
-religion to the childer? A nice one to have in the parish indeed! It
-was easy knowing from the beginning what she was and the fellow she
-struck up with--Henry Shannon's son. Wasn't that enough for you? Henry
-Shannon, who was the best blackguard of his time!... Just inside, and
-very near to John, a knot of men were discussing the more striking
-aspects of the powerful scandal.... They were recounting, with minute
-detail, the story of Nan Byrne.... Wasn't it the strangest thing now
-how she had managed more or less to live it down? But people would
-remember it all again in the light of this thing. What Ulick Shannon
-had done now would make people think of what his father had done, and
-then they must needs remember her.... And to think that no one ever
-knew rightly what had become of the child. Some there were who would
-tell you that her sister, Bridget Mulvey, and her mother, Abigail
-Byrne, buried it in the garden, and there were those who would tell you
-that it was living somewhere at the present time.... Her son John was
-not a bad sort, but wasn't it the greatest crime for her to put him on
-to be a priest after what had happened to her, and surely no good could
-come of it?... And why wouldn't Ned Brennan know of it, and wasn't it
-that and nothing else that had made him the ruined wreck of a man he
-was? Sure he'd never done a day's good since the night Larry Cully
-had lashed out the whole story for his benefit. And wasn't it quite
-possible that some one would be bad enough to tell John himself some
-time, or the ecclesiastical authorities? What about the mee-aw that had
-happened to him in the grand college in England that so much had been
-heard of? And there was sure to be something else happening before he
-was through the college at Ballinamult. A priest, how are ye?
-
-The whiskey had gone to his head, but, as he listened, John Brennan
-felt himself grow more sober than he had ever before been.... So this
-was the supplement to the story he had heard a while ago. And now that
-he knew the whole story he began to tremble. Continually flashing
-across his mind were the words of the man who was dead and silent at
-the bottom of the lake--"You could never know a woman, you could never
-trust her; you could not even trust your own mother." This was a hard
-thing for any man at all to have said in his lifetime, and yet how
-full of grim, sad truth did it now appear?... The kind forgetfulness
-of his choking bitterness that he had so passionately longed for
-would not come to him.... The dregs of his heart were beginning to
-turn again towards thoughts of magnanimity as they had already done
-in the first, clear spell of thought after his deed. He had then gone
-to gather sticks for the old woman, a kind thing, as Jesus might have
-done in Nazareth.... The change of the sovereign was in his hand and
-his impulse was strong upon him. He could not resist. It seemed as if
-a strong magnet was pulling a light piece of steel.... He had walked
-into the public bar of "The World's End." Around him was a sea of
-faces, laughing, sneering, drinking, sweating, swearing, spitting. He
-was calling for a drink for himself and a round for the shop.... Now
-the sea of faces was becoming as one face. And there was a look upon it
-which seemed made up of incredulity and contempt.... This was replaced
-by a different look when the pints were in their hands.... They were
-saying: "Good health, Mr. Brennan!" with a sneer in their tones and a
-smile of flattery upon those lips which had just now been vomiting out
-the slime of their minds.
-
-There was another and yet another round. As long as he could remain on
-his feet he remained standing drinks to them. There was a longing upon
-him to be doing this thing. And beyond it was the guiding desire to be
-rid of every penny of the sovereign his mother had given him to help
-him appear as a gentleman if he met company.... Now it seemed to soil
-him, coming as it did from her. Curious that feeling after all she had
-done for him, and she his mother. But it would not leave him.
-
-The drink he had bought was fast trickling down the many throats that
-were burning to receive it. The rumor of his prodigality was spreading
-abroad through Garradrimna, and men had gone into the highways and the
-byeways to call their friends to the banquet. Two tramps on their way
-to the Workhouse had heard of it and were already deep in their pints.
-Upon John's right hand, arrived as if by magic, stood Shamesy Golliher,
-and upon his left the famous figure of Padna Padna, who was looking up
-into his face with admiration and brightness striving hard to replace
-the stare of vacancy in the dimming eyes. As he drank feverishly,
-fearful of losing any, Shamesy Golliher continuously ejaculated: "Me
-sweet fellow, John! Me sweet fellow!" And Padna Padna kept speaking to
-himself of the grand thing it was that there was one decent fellow left
-in the world, even if he was only Nan Byrne's son. Around John Brennan
-was a hum of flattery essentially in the same vein.... And it seemed to
-him that, in his own mind, he had soared far beyond them.... Outwardly
-he was drunk, but inwardly he knew himself to be very near that rapture
-which would bring thoughts of Rebecca as he staggered home alone along
-the dark road.
-
-The companions of his Bacchic night had begun to drift away from
-him. Ten o'clock was on the point of striking, and he was in such a
-condition that he might be upon their hands at any moment. They did not
-want Walter Clinton, the proprietor of "The World's End," to be giving
-any of them the job of taking him home. The hour struck and the remnant
-went charging through the doorways like sheep through a gap. Shamesy
-Golliher limped out, leading Padna Padna by the hand, as if the ancient
-man had suddenly become metamorphosed into his second childishness....
-"The bloody-looking idiot!" they were all sniggering to one another.
-"Wasn't it a hell of a pity that Ned Brennan, his father, and he always
-bowseying for drink in McDermott's and Brannagan's, wasn't in 'The
-World's End' to-night?"
-
-John was alone amidst the dregs of the feast. Where the spilt drink
-was shining on the counter there was such a sight of glasses as he had
-never before seen. There were empty glasses and glasses still standing
-with half their drink in them, and glasses in which the porter had not
-been touched so drunk had everybody been.
-
-Walter Clinton came in indignantly and said that it was a shame for
-him to be in such a state, and to go home out of that at once before
-the peelers got a hold of him.... And he went out with difficulty and
-down the old road of the elms towards his mother's house in the valley.
-He could hear the hurrying, heavy feet of those he had entertained so
-lavishly far down before him on the road.... For the moment he was
-happy. Before his burning eyes was the form of Rebecca Kerr. Her face
-had a look of quiet loveliness. He thought it was like the faces of
-the Madonnas in Father O'Keeffe's parlor.... "Rebecca! Rebecca!" he
-called to her ever in the agony of his love. "Thy hands, dear Rebecca!"
-... She was not soiled now by any earthly sin, for he had purified her
-through the miracle of blood. And she was clean like the night wind.
-
-He was a pitiable sight as he went staggering on, crying out this
-ruined girl's name to the night silence of the lonely places.... At
-last he fell somewhere in the soft, dewy grass. For a long while he
-remained here--until he began to realize that his vision was passing
-with the decline within him of the flame by which it had been created.
-The winds upon his face and hair were cold, and it seemed that he was
-lying in a damp place. His eyes sprang open.... He was lying by the
-lakeside and at the place where he had murdered Ulick Shannon.
-
-He jumped up of a sudden, for his fear had come back to him. With his
-mouth wide open and a clammy sweat upon his brow, he started to run
-across what seemed a never-ending grassy space.... He broke madly
-through fences of thorn and barbed wire, which tore his clothes and his
-hands. He stumbled across fields of tillage.... At last, with every
-limb shivering, he came near his mother's door.... Presently he grew
-coldly conscious.... He could hear his father muttering drunkenly
-within. He came nearer, striving hard to steady himself and walk erect.
-He quickened his step to further maintain his pretense of sobriety. His
-foot tripped against something, and he lurched forward. He was caught
-in his mother's arms, for, at the sound of his approach, she had opened
-the door in resigned and mournful expectation.
-
-"O Jesus!" she said.
-
-There were two of them now.
-
-
-THE END
-
-
-
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-<div class="mynote"><p class="center">Transcriber's Note:<br /><br />
-A Table of Contents has been added.<br /><br /><br />
-Obvious typographic errors have been corrected.<br /></p></div>
-
-<hr />
-
-<div class="center"><a name="cover.jpg" id="cover.jpg"></a><img src="images/cover.jpg" alt="cover" /></div>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_i" id="Page_i">[Pg i]</a></span></p>
-
-<h1>THE VALLEY OF THE <br />SQUINTING WINDOWS</h1>
-
-<hr />
-
-<div class="center"><img src="images/title.jpg" alt="title page" /></div>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_iii" id="Page_iii">[Pg iii]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">THE VALLEY OF THE<br /> SQUINTING WINDOWS</p>
-
-<p class="bold space-above">BY</p>
-<p class="bold2"><span class="smcap">BRINSLEY MacNAMARA</span></p>
-
-<div class="center space-above"><img src="images/logo.jpg" alt="logo" /></div>
-
-<p class="bold space-above">NEW YORK<br />BRENTANO'S<br />1920</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_iv" id="Page_iv">[Pg iv]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="center">Copyright, 1919, by<br />BRENTANO'S<br />
-&mdash;&mdash;<br /><i>All rights reserved</i></p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_v" id="Page_v">[Pg v]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="center">To<br />ONE WHO WAITED<br />FOR THIS STORY</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_vii" id="Page_vii">[Pg vii]</a></span></p>
-
-<div class="box">
-<p><i>And the Lord spake unto Moses saying</i>:<br />
-<i>Speak unto Aaron saying whosoever he be of thy seed in their
-generations that hath any blemish let him not approach to offer the
-bread of his God.</i></p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Leviticus</span> xxi. 16-17.</p></div>
-
-<hr />
-
-<h2><span>CONTENTS</span></h2>
-
-<table summary="CONTENTS">
- <tr>
- <td></td>
- <td><span class="smaller">PAGE</span></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">PREFATORY NOTE</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_ix">ix</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER I</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_1">1</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER II</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_12">12</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER III</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_18">18</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER IV</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_30">30</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER V</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_36">36</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER VI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_44">44</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER VII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_55">55</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER VIII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_64">64</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER IX</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_75">75</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER X</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_83">83</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_91">91</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_97">97</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XIII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_104">104</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XIV</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_112">112</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XV</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_117">117</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XVI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_126">126</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XVII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_132">132</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XVIII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_141">141</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XIX</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_150">150</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XX</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_161">161</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_170">170</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_177">177</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXIII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_188">188</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXIV</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_198">198</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXV</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_203">203</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXVI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_211">211</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXVII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_219">219</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXVIII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_229">229</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXIX</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_245">245</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXX</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_253">253</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXXI</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_271">271</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td class="left">CHAPTER XXXII</td>
- <td><a href="#Page_278">278</a></td>
- </tr>
-</table>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_ix" id="Page_ix">[Pg ix]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>PREFATORY NOTE</h2>
-
-<p>In the parlor, as they call it, or best room of every Irish farmhouse,
-one may come upon a certain number of books that are never read, laid
-there in lonely repose upon the big square table on the middle of the
-floor. A novel entitled "Knocknagow" is almost always certain to be
-amongst them, yet scarcely as the result of selection, although its
-constant occurrence cannot be considered purely accidental. There must
-lurk an explanation somewhere about these quiet Irish houses connecting
-the very atmosphere with "Knocknagow". A stranger, thinking of some of
-the great books of the world, would almost feel inclined to believe
-that this story of the quiet homesteads of Ireland must be one of them,
-a book full of inspiration and truth and beauty, a story sprung from
-the bleeding realities which were before the present comfort of these
-homes. Yet for all the expectations which might be raised up in one
-by this most popular, this typical Irish novel, it is most certainly
-the book with which the new Irish novelist would endeavor to contrast
-his own. For he would be writing of life, as the modern novelist's art
-is essentially a realistic one, and not of the queer, distant, half
-pleasing, half saddening thing which could make one Irish farmer's
-daughter say to another at any time within the past forty years:</p>
-
-<p>"And you'd often see things happening nearly in real life like in
-'Knocknagow.' Now wouldn't you?"</p>
-
-<p>Nearer by a long way than Charles Joseph Kickham<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_x" id="Page_x">[Pg x]</a></span> to what the Irish
-novelist should have been was William Carleton in his great, gloomy,
-melodramatic stories of the land. He was prevented by the agrarian
-obsession of his time from having the clear vision and wide pity, in
-keeping with his vehemence, which might have made him the Irish Balzac.</p>
-
-<p>Even in Ireland Lever and Lover have become unpopular. They are read
-only by Englishmen who still try to perpetuate their comic convention
-when they write newspaper articles about Ireland.</p>
-
-<p>As with Kickham, largely in his treatment of the Irish peasant, Gerald
-Griffin in "The Collegians" did not succeed in giving his Irish middle
-or "strong farmer" class characters the spiritual energy so necessary
-to the literary subject.</p>
-
-<p>Here are five writers then, who included in their work such exact
-opposites as saints and sinners, heroes and <i>omadhanns</i>, earnest
-passionate men and <i>broths of bhoys</i>. And somehow between them, between
-those who wrote to degrade us and those who have idealized us, the real
-Irishman did not come to be set down. From its fiction, reality was
-absent, as from most other aspects of Irish life.</p>
-
-<p>To a certain extent the realistic method has been employed by the
-dramatists of the Irish Literary Movement, but necessarily limited by
-the scope and conventions of the stage and by the narrower appeal of
-the spoken word in the mouth of an actor. The stage, too, has a way of
-developing cults and conventions and of its very nature must display
-a certain amount of artificiality, even in the handling of realistic
-material. Thus comes a sudden stagnation, a sudden completion always<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_xi" id="Page_xi">[Pg xi]</a></span>
-of a literary movement developed mostly upon the dramatic side, as has
-come upon the work of the Abbey Theater.</p>
-
-<p>It appears rather accidental, but perhaps on the whole to its benefit,
-that the dramatic form should have been adopted by J. M. Synge and not
-the epical form of the novel. Synge fell with a lash of surprise upon
-the Ireland of his time, for the Irish play had been as fully degraded
-as the Irish novel. Furthermore the shock of his genius created an
-opportunity which made possible the realistic Irish novelist. At the
-Abbey Theater they performed plays dealing with subjects which no Irish
-novelist, thinking of a public, would have dreamt of handling. Somehow
-their plays have come to be known and accepted throughout Ireland. Thus
-a reading public for this realistic Irish novel has been slowly created
-and the urge to write like this has come to many storytellers.</p>
-
-<p>Of necessity, as part of the reaction from the work of the feeble
-masters we have known, the first examples of the new Irish novel
-were bound to be a little savage and pitiless. In former pictures of
-Irish life there was heavy labor always to give us the shade at the
-expense of the light, in fact at the expense of the truth which is
-life itself. In Ireland the protest of the realist is not so much
-against Romanticism as against an attempt made to place before us a
-pseudo-realism. According as the Irish people resign themselves to the
-fact that this is not a thing which should not be done, the work of
-the Irish realist will approximate more nearly to the quality of the
-Russian novelists, in which there are neither exaggerations of Light
-nor of Shade, but a picture of life all<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_xii" id="Page_xii">[Pg xii]</a></span> gray and quiet, and brightened
-only by the beauty of tragic reality.</p>
-
-<p>It leaves room for interesting speculation, that at a time of political
-chaos, at a time when in Ireland there is a great coming and going of
-politicians of all brands, dreamers, sages and mystics, the decline
-of the Irish Literary Movement on its dramatic side should have given
-the realistic Irish novelist his opportunity to appear. The urgent
-necessity of reality in Irish life at the moment fills one with the
-thought that a school of Irish realists might have brought finer things
-to the heart of Ireland than the Hy Brazil of the politicians.</p>
-
-<p>The function of the Irish novelist to evoke reality has been proved in
-the case of "The Valley of the Squinting Windows." Upon its appearance
-the people of that part of Ireland with whom I deal in my writings
-became highly incensed. They burned my book after the best medieval
-fashion and resorted to acts of healthy violence. The romantic period
-seemed to have been cut out of their lives and they were full of
-life again. The story of my story became widely exaggerated through
-gradually increasing venom and my book, which had been well received
-by the official Irish Press,&mdash;whose reviewers generally read the books
-they write about&mdash;was supposed by some of my own people to contain the
-most frightful things. To the peasant mind, fed so long upon unreal
-tales of itself, the thing I had done became identified after the most
-incongruous fashion and very curiously with an aspect of the very
-literary association from which I had sprung. Language out of Synge's
-"Playboy of the Western World" came to my ears from every side during
-the days in which I was made to suffer for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_xiii" id="Page_xiii">[Pg xiii]</a></span> having written "The Valley
-of the Squinting Windows."</p>
-
-<p>"And saving your presence, sir, are you the man that killed your
-father?"</p>
-
-<p>"I am, God help me!"</p>
-
-<p>"Well then, my thousand blessings to you!"</p>
-
-<p>The country as a whole did not dislike my picture of Irish life or say
-it was untrue. It was only the particular section of life which was
-pictured that still asserted its right to the consolation of romantic
-treatment, but in its very attempt to retain romance in theory it
-became realistic in practise. It did exactly what it should have done
-a great many years ago with the kind of books from which it drew a
-certain poisonous comfort towards its own intellectual and political
-enslavement. The rest of Ireland was amused by the performance of those
-who did not think, with Mr. Yeats, that romantic Ireland was dead and
-gone. The realist had begun to evoke reality and no longer did a great
-screech sound through the land that this kind of thing should not be
-done. A change had come, by miraculous coincidence, upon the soul
-of Ireland. It was not afraid of realism now,&mdash;for it had faced the
-tragic reality of the travail which comes before a healthy national
-consciousness can be born. No longer would the realist be described
-in his own country as merely a morbid scoundrel or an enemy of the
-Irish people. They would not need again the solace of the sentimental
-novelist for all the offenses of the caricaturists in Irish fiction,
-because, with the wider and clearer vision of their own souls fully
-realized, had they already begun to look out upon the world.</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Brinsley MacNamara.</span></p>
-
-<p>Dublin, March 1st, 1919.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_xv" id="Page_xv">[Pg xv]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">THE VALLEY OF THE<br /> SQUINTING WINDOWS</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_1" id="Page_1">[Pg 1]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">THE VALLEY OF THE SQUINTING<br /> WINDOWS</p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER I</h2>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan took her seat again at the sewing-machine by the window.
-She sighed as she turned her tired eyes in search of some inducement
-to solace down the white road through the valley of Tullahanogue. The
-day was already bright above the fields and groups of children were
-beginning to pass through the morning on their way to school. Mrs.
-Brennan beheld their passage, yet now as always she seemed to miss the
-small beauty of the little pageant.</p>
-
-<p>"God help them, the poor little things!" she condoled to herself, "and
-may He enlighten the unfortunate parents who send them to that quare,
-ould, ignorant pair, Master Donnellan and Mrs. Wyse, the mistress.
-Musha, sure they're no teachers!"</p>
-
-<p>From this it might seem that Mrs. Brennan, the dressmaker of the valley
-and one well entitled to be giving out an opinion, did not think very
-highly of National Education. Yet it was not true that she failed
-to regard the lofty fact of education with all a peasant's stupid
-reverence, for was she not the mother of John Brennan, who was now
-preparing for the priesthood at a grand college in England? A priest,
-mind you! That was what you might call something for a woman to be!</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_2" id="Page_2">[Pg 2]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The pride of her motherhood struck a high and resounding note in the
-life of the valley. Furthermore, it gave her authority to assert
-herself as a woman of remarkable standing amongst the people. She
-devoted her prerogative to the advancement of the Catholic Church. She
-manifested herself as one intensely interested in its welfare. There
-was no cheap religious periodical, from <i>The Catholic Times</i> to <i>The
-Messenger</i>, that she did not regularly purchase. All these she read to
-her husband, Ned Brennan, in the long quiet evenings after the manner
-of one discharging a religious duty.</p>
-
-<p>This was a curious side of her. She kept him in comfort and in ease,
-and yet when his body had been contented she must needs apply herself
-to the welfare of his soul. For, although he spent many a penny of
-her money in the village of Garradrimna, was he not the father of
-John Brennan, who was going to be a priest of God? She forgave him
-everything on this account, even the coarse and blasphemous expressions
-he continually let fly from his mouth the while she read for him the
-most holy stories by Jesuit Fathers.</p>
-
-<p>Just now she had given him two shillings with which to entertain
-himself. He had threatened to strike her in the event of her
-refusal.... That was why she had been sighing and why the tears were
-now creeping into her great tired eyes as she began to set her machine
-in motion for the tasks of the day. Dear, dear, wasn't he the cruel,
-hard man?... Yet beyond all this thought of him was her bright dream of
-the day when, with the few pounds she had saved so secretly from the
-wide grasp of his thirst, she must fit him out in a rich suit of black
-and go by his side proudly to attend the ordination of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_3" id="Page_3">[Pg 3]</a></span> their son John.
-It was because she so dearly loved her dream that she bore him with
-immense patience.</p>
-
-<p>Also it was because she had been thinking of that grand day and of the
-descending splendor of her son that she now commented so strongly upon
-the passage of the children to school. She had spoken bitterly to her
-own heart, but in that heart of hers she was a bitter woman.</p>
-
-<p>This was such a sunny, lovely morning. It was the day of the June Races
-in the town of Mullaghowen, and most of the valley-dwellers had gone
-there. The winding, dusty road through Tullahanogue was a long lane of
-silence amid the sunlight. It appeared as an avenue to the Palace of
-Dreams. So it was not at all strange that Mrs. Brennan was dreaming
-forward into the future and filling her mind with fancies of the past.
-She was remembering herself as Nan Byrne, the prettiest girl in the
-valley. This was no illusion of idle vanity, for was there not an old
-daguerreotype in an album on the table behind her at this very moment
-to prove that beauty had been hers? And she had been ruined because
-of that proud beauty. It was curious to think how her sister and she
-had both gone the same way.... The period of a generation had passed
-since the calamity had fallen upon them almost simultaneously. It was
-the greatest scandal that had ever happened in these parts. The holy
-priest, whose bones were now moldering beneath the sanctuary of the
-chapel, had said hard words of her. From the altar of God he had spoken
-his pity of her father, and said that she was a bad woman.</p>
-
-<p>"May God strengthen him, for this is the bitter <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_4" id="Page_4">[Pg 4]</a></span>burden to bear. Philip
-Byrne is a decent man for all his daughter Nan is a woman of shame. I
-pray you avoid her every one who has the trace of God's purity in his
-heart. Let you go not into that house which she has made an abode of
-lust, nor allow the fair name of your own house to be blemished by the
-contamination of her presence within its walls."</p>
-
-<p>Yes, it was true that all this had been said of her by the holy father,
-and in the very spot beneath which his bones were now at rest. They
-were the hard words surely to have issued from the lips of God's
-anointed. Even in the fugitive remembrance of them now they seemed to
-have left red marks like whip-lash weals across her soul. The burning
-hurt of them drove her deeper into remembrance. She had already come to
-the full development of her charms when her ambition had also appeared.
-It was, in short, to effect the "catch" of one of the strong farmers of
-the valley. She entered into conspiracy with her sister and, together,
-they laid their plans. Henry Shannon was the one upon whom she had set
-her eye and Loughlin Mulvey the one her sister Bridget had begun to
-desire. They were both men of family and substance, and hard drinkers
-after the fashion of the fields. They often called at the house to
-see the sisters. Philip Byrne, whose occupation as head-groom at the
-stables of the Moores of Garradrimna often took him away from Ireland,
-would always be absent during those visitations. But their mother would
-be there, Mrs. Abigail Byrne, ambitious for her daughters, in great
-style. It was never known to happen that either of the strong farmers
-called to the house without a bottle of whiskey. Mrs. Byrne always
-looked <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_5" id="Page_5">[Pg 5]</a></span>favorably upon them for their high decency, and the whiskey was
-good whiskey.</p>
-
-<p>Here in this very room where she now sat remembering it all there
-had been such scenes! Her hair had been so thick and brown and there
-had been a rare bloom upon her skin as she had sat here alone with
-Henry Shannon, talking with him of queer things and kissing his dark,
-handsome face. And all through those far, bygone times she used to be
-thinking of his grand house and of his broad fields and the way she
-would one day assert herself in the joy of such possessions over her
-less fortunate sisters of the valley. Yet, ever mixed with her bright
-pieces of imagination, there had been such torturing doubts.... Her
-sister Bridget had always been so certain of her prey.</p>
-
-<p>There had been times when Henry Shannon spent the night in the house.
-In those nights had been laid the foundations of her shame.... Very,
-very clearly did she remember the sickening, dreadful morning she had
-come to her mother with the story that she was going to have a child.
-How angry the elder woman had been, so lit within her all the wild
-instincts of the female against the betrayer of her sex? Why had she
-gone so far? Why had she not played her cards like her sister? There
-was no fear of her yet although she had got a proper hold of Loughlin
-Mulvey.... What was she to do at all? She who had had great ambitions
-was to become lower than the lowest in the valley.</p>
-
-<p>Yet the three of them had conferred together, for all the others were
-so angry with her because of her disastrous condition into which she
-had allowed herself to slip without having first made certain of Henry
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_6" id="Page_6">[Pg 6]</a></span>Shannon. The only course left now was to "make a show" of him if he
-could not see his way to marry her.</p>
-
-<p>She could now remember every line of the angry, misspelled letter she
-had sent to her whilom lover, and how it had brought him to the house
-in a mood of drunken repentance. He presented her with material for a
-new dress on the very same night, and, as she laughed and cried over
-it in turn, she thought how very curious it was that he should wish to
-see her figure richly adorned when already it had begun to put on those
-signs of disfigurement which announce the coming of a child. But he was
-very, very kind, and all suspicion fell away from her. Before he went
-he whispered an invitation to spend a few days with him in Dublin....
-What did it matter now, and it was so kind of him to ask her? It showed
-what was in his mind, and therefore no talk of marriage passed between
-them. It did not seem necessary.</p>
-
-<p>Then had followed quickly those lovely days in Dublin, she stopping
-with him as "Mrs. Henry Shannon" at a grand hotel. He had given her a
-wedding-ring, but while it remained upon her finger it was ever the
-little accusing symbol, filling her with an intense conviction of her
-sin.</p>
-
-<p>This great adventure had marked the beginning of her acquaintance with
-the world beyond the valley, and, even now, through the gloom of her
-mood, she could remember it with a certain amount of gladness coming
-back to her mind. But it was queer that the brightest moment of her
-life should also have been the moment of darkest disaster.... She
-re-created the slight incidents of their quarrel. It was so strange
-of him after all the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[Pg 7]</a></span> grand kindness he had just been showing her....
-She had returned to the valley alone and with her disgrace already
-beginning to be heavy upon her.... She never saw Henry Shannon or spoke
-with him again. When she wrote referring distantly to their approaching
-marriage and making mention of the wedding-ring, the reply came back
-from Mr. Robinson, the solicitor in Garradrimna, who was his cousin and
-sporting companion. She knew how they had already begun to talk of her
-in the valley for having gone off to Dublin with Henry Shannon, and
-now, when an ugly word to describe her appeared there black and plain
-in the solicitor's letter, she felt, in blind shame, that the visit
-to Dublin had been planned to ruin her. The air of the valley seemed
-full of whispers to tell her that she had done a monstrous thing. Maybe
-they could give her jail for having done a thing like that, and she
-knew well that Henry Shannon's people would stop at nothing to destroy
-her, for they were a dark, spiteful crew. They were rich and powerful,
-with lawyers in the family, and what chance would she have in law now
-that every one was turned against her. So that night she went out when
-it was very dark and threw away the wedding-ring. The small, sad act
-appeared as the renunciation of her great ambition.</p>
-
-<p>She remembered with a surpassing clearness the wide desolation of
-the time that followed. Loughlin Mulvey had been compelled to marry
-her sister Bridget because he had not been clever enough to effect a
-loophole of escape like Henry Shannon. Already three months after the
-marriage (bit by bit was she now living the past again) the child had
-been born to Bridget, and now<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_8" id="Page_8">[Pg 8]</a></span> she herself was waiting for the birth of
-her child.... Indeed Bridget need not have been so angry.</p>
-
-<p>She had been delirious and upon the brink of death, and when, at last,
-she had recovered sufficiently to realize the sharpness of her mother's
-tongue once more the child had disappeared. She had escaped to England
-with all that was left of her beauty. There she had met Ned Brennan,
-and there had her son John Brennan been born. For a short while she had
-known happiness. Ned was rough, but in his very strength there was a
-sense of security and protection which made him bearable. And there was
-little John. He was not a bit like her short, wild impression of the
-other little child. Her disgrace had been the means of bringing Philip
-Byrne to his grave; and, after six or seven years, her mother had died,
-and she had returned to the valley of Tullahanogue. It was queer that,
-with all her early knowledge of the people of the valley, she had never
-thought it possible that some of them would one day impart to him the
-terrible secret she had concealed so well while acting the ingenuous
-maiden before his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Yet they were not settled a month at the cottage in the valley when Ned
-came from Garradrimna one night a changed man. Larry Cully, a loafer
-of the village, had attacked him with the whole story.... Was this the
-kind of people among whom she had brought him to live, and was this
-a fact about her? She confessed her share, but, illtreat her how he
-would, she could not tell him what had been done with the child.</p>
-
-<p>Henceforth he was so different, settling gradually into his present
-condition. He could not go about making inquiries as to the past of his
-wife, and the people<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[Pg 9]</a></span> of the valley, gloating over his condition, took
-no pains to ease his mind. It was more interesting to see him torture
-himself with suspicion. They hardly fancied she had told him all. It
-was grand to see him drinking in his endeavors to forget the things he
-must needs be thinking of.</p>
-
-<p>Thus had Mrs. Brennan lived with her husband for eighteen years, and no
-other child had been born to them. His original occupation of plumber's
-laborer found no opportunity for its exercise in the valley, but he
-sometimes lime-washed stables and mended roofs and gutters. For the
-most part, however, she kept him through her labor at the machine.</p>
-
-<p>Her story was not without its turn of pathos, for it was strange to
-think of her reading the holy books to him in the long, quiet evenings
-all the while he despised her for what she had been with a hatred that
-all the magnanimous examples of religion could not remove.</p>
-
-<p>She was thinking over it all now, and so keenly, for he had just
-threatened to strike her again. Eighteen years had not removed from
-his mind the full and bitter realization of her sin.... They were both
-beginning to grow gray, and her living atonement for what she had been,
-her son John who was going on for the Church, was in his twentieth
-year. Would her husband forgive her when he saw John in the garb of a
-priest? She wondered and wondered.</p>
-
-<p>So deep was she in this thought that she did not notice the entrance
-of old Marse Prendergast, who lived in a cabin just across the road.
-Marse was a superannuated shuiler and a terror in the valley. The tears
-had been summoned to her eyes by the still <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_10" id="Page_10">[Pg 10]</a></span>unchanging quality of Ned's
-tone. They were at once detected by the old woman.</p>
-
-<p>"Still crying, are ye, Nan Byrne, for Henry Shannon that's dead and
-gone?"</p>
-
-<p>This was a sore cut, but it was because of its severity that it had
-been given. Marse Prendergast's method was to attack the person from
-whom she desired an alms instead of making an approach in fear and
-trembling.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, what's the use in regretting now that he didn't marry ye after
-all?... Maybe you could give me a bit of Ned's tobacco for me little
-pipe, or a few coppers to buy some."</p>
-
-<p>"I will in troth," she said, searching her apron pocket, only to
-discover that Ned had taken all her spare coppers. She communicated her
-regrets to the old woman, but her words fell upon ears that doubted.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah-ha, the lie is on your lip yet, Nan Byrne, just as it was there
-for your poor husband the day he married you, God save us all from
-harm&mdash;you who were what you were before you went away to England.
-And now the cheek you have to go refuse me the few coppers. Ye think
-ye're a great one, don't you, with your son at college, and he going
-on to be a priest. Well, let me tell you that a priest he'll never be,
-your grand son, John. Ye have the quare nerve to imagine it indeed if
-you ever think of what happened to your other little son.... Maybe
-'tis what ye don't remember that, Nan Bryne.... The poor little thing
-screeching in the night-time, and some one carrying a box out into the
-garden in the moonlight, and them digging the hole.... Ah, 'tis well I
-know all that, Nan Byrne, although you may think yourself very clever
-and mysterious. And<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[Pg 11]</a></span> 'tis maybe I'll see you swing for it yet with
-your refusals and the great annoyance you put me to for the means of
-a smoke, and I a real ould woman and all. But listen here to me, Nan
-Byrne! 'Tis maybe to your grand son, John Brennan, I'll be telling the
-whole story some day!"</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[Pg 12]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER II</h2>
-
-<p>Her tongue still clacking in soliloquy, Marse Prendergast hobbled out
-of the house, and Mrs. Brennan went to the small back window of the
-sewing-room. She gazed wistfully down the long, sloping fields towards
-the little lake which nestled in the bosom of the valley. Within the
-periods of acute consciousness which came between her sobs she began
-to examine the curious edifice of life which housed her soul. An
-unaccountable, swift power to do this came to her as she saw the place
-around which she had played as a child, long ago, when she had a brow
-snow-white and smooth, with nice hair and laughing eyes. Her soul,
-too, at that time was clean&mdash;clean like the water. And she was wont to
-have glad thoughts of the coming years when she had sprung to girlhood
-and could wear pretty frocks and bind up her hair. Across her mind had
-never fallen the faintest shadow of the thing that was to happen to her.</p>
-
-<p>Yet now, as she ran over everything in her mind, she marveled not a
-little that, although she could not possibly have returned to the
-perfect innocence of her childhood state, she had triumphed over
-the blight of certain circumstances to an extraordinary extent. She
-was surprised to realize that there must have been some strength of
-character in her not possessed by the other women of the valley. It had
-been her mother's mark of <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[Pg 13]</a></span>distinction, but the dead woman had used it
-towards the achievement of different ends. Ends, too, which had left
-their mark upon the lives of both her daughters.</p>
-
-<p>It struck her now, with another lash of surprise, that it had been
-an amazingly cheeky thing to have returned to the valley; but, as
-the shining waters of the lake led her mind into the quiet ways of
-contemplation, she could not help thinking that she had triumphed well.</p>
-
-<p>To be living here at all with such a husband, and her son away in
-England preparing for the priesthood, seemed the very queerest,
-queerest thing. It was true that she held herself up well and had a
-fine conceit of herself, if you please. The mothers of the neighborhood
-had, for the most part, chosen to forget the contamination that might
-have arisen from sending their daughters to a woman like her for their
-dresses, and, in consequence, she had been enabled to build up this
-little business. She asserted herself in the ways of assertion which
-were open to the dwellers in the valley. She attended to her religious
-duties with admirable regularity. It was not alone that she fulfilled
-the obligation of hearing Mass on Sundays and Holydays, but also on
-many an ordinary morning when there was really no need to be so very
-pious. She went just to show them that she was passionately devoted to
-religion. Yet her neighbors never once regarded her in the light of
-a second Mary Magdalene. They entered into competition with her, it
-was true, for they could not let it be said that Nan Byrne was more
-religious than they, and so, between them, they succeeded in degrading
-the Mysteries. But it was the only way that was open to them of showing
-off their souls.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_14" id="Page_14">[Pg 14]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>On a Sunday morning the procession they formed was like a flock of
-human crows. And the noise they made was a continual caw of calumny.
-The one presently absent was set down as the sinner. They were
-eternally the Pharisees and she the Publican. Mrs. Brennan was great
-among these crows of calumny. It was her place of power. She could give
-out an opinion coming home from Mass upon any person at all that would
-almost take the hearing out of your ears. She effectively beat down
-the voice of criticism against herself by her sweeping denunciations
-of all others. It was an unusual method, and resembled that of
-Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, from whom it may probably have been
-copied. It led many to form curious estimates as to the exact type of
-mind possessed by the woman who made use of it. There were some who
-described it as "thickness," a rather remarkable designation given to
-a certain quality of temper by the people of the valley. But there was
-no denying that it had won for her a cumulative series of results which
-had built up about her something definite and original and placed her
-resolutely in the life of the valley.</p>
-
-<p>She would often say a thing like this, and it might be taken as a
-good example of her talk and as throwing a light as well upon the
-conversation of those with whom she walked home the road from the House
-of God. A young couple would have done the best thing by marrying at
-the right age, and these long-married women with the queer minds would
-be putting before them the very worst prospects. Mrs. Brennan would
-distinguish herself by saying a characteristic thing:</p>
-
-<p>"Well, if there's quarreling between them, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_15" id="Page_15">[Pg 15]</a></span> musha! the same is sure
-to be, the names they'll call one another won't be very nice for the
-<i>pedigree</i> is not too <i>clean</i> on either side of the house."</p>
-
-<p>No word of contradiction or comment would come from the others, for
-this was a morsel too choice to be disdained, seeing that it so
-perfectly expressed their own thoughts and the most intimate wishes
-of their hearts. It was when they got home, however, and, during the
-remaining portion of the Sunday, their happy carnival of destructive
-gossip, that they would think of asking themselves the question&mdash;"What
-right had Nan Byrne of all people to be thinking of little slips
-that had happened in the days gone by?" But the unreasonableness
-of her words never appeared in this light to her own mind. She was
-self-righteous to an enormous degree, and it was her particular fancy
-to consider all women as retaining strongly their primal degradation.
-And yet it was at such a time she remembered, not penitently however,
-or in terms of abasement, but with a heavy sadness numbing her every
-faculty. It was her connection with a great sin and her love for her
-son John which would not become reconciled.</p>
-
-<p>When she returned to the valley with her husband and her young child
-she had inaugurated her life's dream. Her son John was to be her
-final justification before the world and, in a most wondrous way, had
-her dream begun to come true. She had reared him well, and he was so
-different from Ned Brennan. He was of a kindly disposition and, in the
-opinion of Master Donnellan, who was well hated by his mother, gave
-promise of great things. He had passed through the National School in
-some way that was known only to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[Pg 16]</a></span> Mrs. Brennan, to "a grand College in
-England." He appeared as an extraordinary exception to the breed of
-the valley, especially when one considered the characters of both his parents.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan dearly loved her son, but even here, as in every phase of
-her life, the curious twist of her nature revealed itself. Hers was a
-selfish love, for it had mostly to do with the triumph he represented
-for her before the people of the valley. But this was her dream, and a
-dream may often become dearer than a child. It was her one sustaining
-joy, and she could not bear to think of any shadow falling down to
-darken its grandeur. The least suspicion of a calamity of this kind
-always had the effect of reducing to ruins the brazen front of the Mrs.
-Brennan who presented herself to the valley and of giving her a kind of
-fainting in her very heart.</p>
-
-<p>Her lovely son! She wiped her tear-stained cheeks now with the corner
-of her black apron, for Farrell McGuinness, the postman, was at the
-door. He said, "Good-morra, Mrs. Brennan!" and handed her a letter.
-It was from John, telling her that his summer holidays were almost at
-hand. It seemed strange that, just now, when she had been thinking of
-him, this letter should have come.... Well, well, how quickly the time
-passed, now that the snow had settled upon her hair.</p>
-
-<p>Farrell McGuinness was loitering by the door waiting to have a word
-with her when she had read her letter.</p>
-
-<p>"I hear Mary Cooney over in Cruckenerega is home from Belfast again.
-Aye, and that she's shut herself up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[Pg 17]</a></span> in a room and not one can see a
-sight of her. Isn't that quare now? Isn't it, Mrs. Brennan?"</p>
-
-<p>"It's great, isn't it, Farrell? You may be sure there's something the
-matter with her."</p>
-
-<p>"God bless us now, but wouldn't that be the hard blow to her father and
-mother and to her little sisters?"</p>
-
-<p>"Arrah musha, between you and me and the wall, the divil a loss. What
-could she be, anyhow?"</p>
-
-<p>"That's true for you, Mrs. Brennan!"</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, and to think that it was in Belfast, of all places, that it
-happened. Now, d'ye know what I'm going to tell ye, Farrell? 'Tis the
-bad, Orange, immoral hole of a place is the same Belfast!"</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_18" id="Page_18">[Pg 18]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER III</h2>
-
-<p>Farrell McGuinness, grinning to himself, had moved away on his red
-bicycle, and a motor now came towards her in its envelope of dust down
-the long road of Tullahanogue. This was the first hire motor that
-had appeared in the village of Garradrimna and was the property of
-Charlie Clarke, an excellent, religious man, who had interested himself
-so successfully in bazaars and the charities that he had been thus
-enabled to purchase it. Its coming amongst them had been a sensational
-occurrence. If a neighbor wished to flout a neighbor it was done by
-hiring Clarke's car; and Mrs. Brennan immediately thought what a grand
-thing it would be to take it on the coming Thursday and make a brave
-show with her son John sitting up beside her and he dressed in black.
-The dignity of her son, now moving so near the priesthood, demanded
-such a demonstration. She hailed Charlie Clarke, and the car came
-suddenly to a standstill. The petrol fumes mingling with the rising
-dust of the summer road, floated to her nostrils like some incense of
-pride.</p>
-
-<p>"Good morning, Mrs. Brennan!"</p>
-
-<p>"Good morning, Mr. Clarke!"</p>
-
-<p>"You're not at the races of Mullaghowen?"</p>
-
-<p>"Not yet, Mrs. Brennan, but I'm going&mdash;and with the Houlihans of
-Clonabroney."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_19" id="Page_19">[Pg 19]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"The Houlihans of Clonabroney, well, well; that's what you might call a
-<i>quality</i> drive."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed, 'tis almost exclusively to the quality and to the priests
-my drives are confined, Mrs. Brennan. I'm not patronized by the beggars
-of the valley."</p>
-
-<p>"That's right, Mr. Clarke, that's right. Keep your car <i>clean</i> at all
-costs.... It's what I just stopped you to see if you could drive me
-over to Kilaconnaghan to meet my son John on Thursday. He's coming
-home."</p>
-
-<p>"Is that so? Well you may say that's grand, Mrs. Brennan. Oh, indeed,
-John is the rare credit to you, so he is. You should be proud of him,
-for 'tis the fine beautiful thing to be going on for the Church. In
-fact, do ye know what it is, Mrs. Brennan? Only I'm married, I'd be
-thinking this very minute of giving up motor, shop, land and everything
-and going into a monastery. I would so."</p>
-
-<p>"Now aren't you the fine, noble-minded man to be thinking of the like?"</p>
-
-<p>"I am so.... Well, I'll drive you, Mrs. Brennan. On Thursday, you say,
-to Kilaconnaghan. The round trip will cost you fifteen shillings."</p>
-
-<p>"Fifteen shillings?"</p>
-
-<p>Charlie Clarke had already re-started the car which was again humming
-dustily down the road. Mrs. Brennan turned wearily into the sewing-room
-and seated herself once more by the machine. She was crushed a little
-by the thought of the fifteen shillings. She saw clearly before her the
-long procession of the hours of torture for her eyes that the amount
-represented. It appeared well that she had not given the few coppers to
-old Marse Prendergast, for, even as things stood,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_20" id="Page_20">[Pg 20]</a></span> she must approach
-some of her customers towards the settlement of small accounts to
-enable her to spend fifteen shillings in the display of her pride....
-For eighteen years it had been thus with her, this continual scraping
-and worrying about money. She wondered and wondered now was she ever
-destined to find release from mean tortures. Maybe when her son had
-become a priest he would be good to his mother? She had known of
-priests and the relatives of priests, who had grown amazingly rich.</p>
-
-<p>She was recalled from her long reverie by the return of Ned Brennan
-from Garradrimna. The signs of drink were upon him.</p>
-
-<p>"Where's me dinner?" he said, in a flat, heavy voice.</p>
-
-<p>"Your dinner, is it? Oh dear, dear, 'tis how I never thought of putting
-it on yet. I had a letter from John, and sure it set me thinking. God
-knows I'll have it ready for you as soon as I can."</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, John. A letter from John.... Begad.... Begad.... And I wanting me
-dinner!"</p>
-
-<p>"So you'll have it, so you'll have it. Now aren't you the wild,
-impatient man? Can't you wait a minute?"</p>
-
-<p>"I never did see such a woman as you, and I in a complete hurry. Three
-slates slipped down off the school roof in the bit of wind the other
-night, and I'm after getting instructions from Father O'Keeffe to put
-them on."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, sure, 'tis well I know how good and industrious you are, Ned.
-That's the sixth time this year you've put on the very same slates.
-You're a good man, indeed, and a fine tradesman."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_21" id="Page_21">[Pg 21]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>For the moment his anger was appeased by this ironical compliment,
-which she did not intend as irony; but at heart he was deeply vexed
-because he was going to do this little job. She knew he must be talking
-of it for months to come. When the few shillings it brought him were
-spent she must give him others and others as a continuous reward for
-his vast effort. This she must do as a part of her tragic existence,
-while beholding at the same time how he despised her in his heart.</p>
-
-<p>But, just now, the bitterness of this realization did not assail
-her with the full power of the outer darkness, for her mind was lit
-brilliantly to-day by the thought of John. And during the hours that
-passed after she had fitted out Ned for his adventurous expedition to
-the roof she could just barely summon up courage to turn the machine,
-so consumed was she by a great yearning for her son.</p>
-
-<p>The days, until Thursday, seemed to stretch themselves into an age.
-But at three o'clock, when Charlie Clarke's white motor drew up at the
-door, she was still preparing for the journey. In the room which had
-known another aspect of her life she had been adorning herself for long
-hours. The very best clothes and all the personal ornaments in her
-possession must needs be brought into use. For it had suddenly appeared
-to her that she was about to enter into an unique ceremony comparable
-only to the ordination of John.</p>
-
-<p>Searching in an unfrequented drawer of the dressing-table for
-hair-pins, she had come upon an old cameo-brooch, one of Henry
-Shannon's costly presents to her during the period of their
-strange "honeymoon." It was a pretty thing, so massive and so
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_22" id="Page_22">[Pg 22]</a></span>respectable-looking. It was of that heavy Victorian period to which
-her story also belonged. With trembling hands she fastened it upon her
-bosom. In a deeper recess of the drawer she came upon a powder puff in
-a small round box, which still held some of the aid to beauty remaining
-dry and useful through all the years. She had once used it to heighten
-her graces in the eyes of Henry Shannon. And now, for all the blanching
-trouble through which she had passed, she could not resist the impulses
-of the light woman in her and use it to assert her pride in her son. It
-must be a part of her decking-out as she passed through the valley in a
-motor for the first time, going forth to meet her son.</p>
-
-<p>She took her seat at last by the side of Charlie Clarke, and passed
-proudly down the valley road. Things might have gone as agreeably
-as she had planned but for the peculiar religious warp there was
-in Charlie. He might have talked about the mechanism of his car or
-remarked at length upon the beauty of the summer day, but he must
-inevitably twist the conversation in the direction of religion.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose," said he, "that it's a fine thing to be the mother of a
-young fellow going on for the Church. It must make you very contented
-in yourself when you think of all the Masses he will say for you during
-your lifetime and all the Masses he will say for the repose of your
-soul when you are dead and gone."</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, indeed, that's a grand and a true saying for you, Mr. Clarke. But
-sure what else could one expect from you, and yourself the good man
-that goes to Mass every day?"</p>
-
-<p>"And, Mrs. Brennan, woman dear, to see him saying<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_23" id="Page_23">[Pg 23]</a></span> the Holy Mass, and
-he having his face shining with the Light of Heaven!"</p>
-
-<p>"A beautiful sight, Mr. Clarke, as sure as you're there."</p>
-
-<p>The car was speeding along merrily, and now it had just passed, with
-a slight bump, over the culvert of a stream, which here and there was
-playing musically about little stones, and here and there was like bits
-of molten silver spitting in the sun. It was a grand day.</p>
-
-<p>Whether or not the unusual sensation of the throbbing car was too much
-for Mrs. Brennan, she was speaking little although listening eagerly to
-the words of Charlie Clarke, asking him once or twice to repeat some
-sentences she had been kept from hearing by the noise of the engine.
-Now she was growing more and more silent, for they had not yet passed
-out of the barony of Tullahanogue. She saw many a head suddenly fill
-many a squinting window, and men and women they met on the road turn
-round with a sneer to gaze back at her sitting up there beside Charlie
-Clarke, the saintly chauffeur who went to Mass every day.</p>
-
-<p>Her ears were burning, and into her mind, in powerful battalions, were
-coming all the thoughts that had just been born in the minds of the
-others. The powder she had applied to her cheeks was now like a burning
-sweat upon her skin. The cameo-brooch felt like a great weight where
-it lay upon her bosom heavily. It caught her breath and so prevented
-her maintaining conversation with Charlie Clarke. It reminded her
-insistently of the dear baby head of John reposing, as in a bower of
-tenderness, upon the same place.</p>
-
-<p>"It must be the grand and blessed thing for a mother<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_24" id="Page_24">[Pg 24]</a></span> to go to
-confession to her son. Now wouldn't it be wonderful to think of
-telling him, as the minister of God's mercy, the little faults she had
-committed before he was born or before she married his father. Now
-isn't that the queer thought, Mrs. Brennan?"</p>
-
-<p>She did not reply, and it took all she could marshal of self-possession
-to protect her from tears as the motor hummed into the village of
-Kilaconnaghan, where the railway station was. They had arrived well in
-advance of the train's time. She passed through the little waiting-room
-and looked into the advertisement for Jameson's Whiskey, which was
-also a mirror. She remembered that it was in this very room she had
-waited before going away for that disastrous "honeymoon" with Henry
-Shannon.... This was a better mirror than the one at home, and she
-saw that the blaze upon her cheeks had already subdued the power of
-the powder, making it unnecessary and as the merest dirt upon her
-face.... The cameo-brooch looked so large and gaudy.... She momentarily
-considered herself not at all unlike some faded women of the pavement
-she had seen move, like malignant specters, beneath the lamplight in
-Dublin city.... She plucked away the brooch from her bosom and thrust
-it into her pocket. Then she wiped her face clean with her handkerchief.</p>
-
-<p>Far off, and as a glad sound coming tentatively to her ears, she could
-hear the train that was bearing her beloved son home to the valley and
-to her. It was nearly a year since she last saw him, and she fancied he
-must have changed so within that space of time. Who knew how he might
-change towards her some day? This was her constant dread. And now as
-the increasing noise<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_25" id="Page_25">[Pg 25]</a></span> of the train told that it was drawing nearer she
-felt immensely lonely.</p>
-
-<p>The few stray passengers who ever came to Kilaconnaghan by the
-afternoon train had got out, and John Brennan was amongst them. On the
-journey from Dublin he had occupied a carriage with Myles Shannon,
-who was the surviving brother of Henry Shannon and the magnate of the
-valley. The time had passed pleasantly enough, for Mr. Shannon was
-a well-read, interesting man. He had spoken in an illuminating way
-of the Great War. He viewed it in the light of a scourge and a just
-reckoning of calamity that the nations must pay for bad deeds they
-had done. "It is strange," said he, "that even a nation, just like an
-individual, must pay its just toll for its sins. It cannot escape, for
-the punishment is written down with the sin. There is not one of us who
-may not be made to feel the wide sweep of God's justice in this Great
-War, even you, my boy, who may think yourself far removed from such a
-possibility."</p>
-
-<p>These were memorable words, and John Brennan allowed himself to fall
-into a spell of silence that he might the better ponder them. Looking
-up suddenly, he caught the other gazing intently at him with a harsh
-smile upon his face.</p>
-
-<p>So now that they were to part they turned to shake hands.</p>
-
-<p>"Good-by, Mr. Brennan!" said Myles Shannon to the student. "I wish
-you an enjoyable holiday-time. Maybe you could call over some evening
-to see my nephew Ulick, my brother Henry's son. He's here on holidays
-this year for the first time, and he finds the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_26" id="Page_26">[Pg 26]</a></span> valley uncommonly dull
-after the delights of Dublin. He's a gay young spark, I can tell you,
-but students of physic are generally more inclined to be lively than
-students of divinity."</p>
-
-<p>This he said with a flicker of his harsh smile as they shook hands, and
-John Brennan thanked him for his kind invitation. Catching sight of
-Mrs. Brennan, Mr. Shannon said, "Good-day!" coolly and moved out of the
-station.</p>
-
-<p>To Mrs. Brennan this short conversation on the platform had seemed
-protracted to a dreadful length. As she beheld it from a little
-distance a kind of desolation had leaped up to destroy the lovely day.
-It compelled her to feel a kind of hurt that her son should have chosen
-to expend the few first seconds of his home-coming in talking, of all
-people, to one of the Shannon family. But he was a young gentleman and
-must, of course, show off his courtesy and nice manners. And he did not
-know.... But Myles Shannon knew.... His cool "Good-day!" to her as he
-moved out of the station appeared to her delicate sensitiveness of the
-moment as an exhibition of his knowledge. Immediately she felt that she
-must warn John against the Shannons.</p>
-
-<p>He came towards her at last, a thin young man in black, wearing cheap
-spectacles. He looked tenderly upon the woman who had borne him. She
-embraced him and entered into a state of rapt admiration. Within the
-wonder of his presence she was as one translated, her sad thoughts
-began to fall from her one by one. On the platform of this dusty
-wayside station in Ireland she became a part of the glory of motherhood
-as she stood there looking with pride upon her son.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_27" id="Page_27">[Pg 27]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The motor had surprised him. He would have been better pleased if
-this expense had been avoided, for he was not without knowledge
-and appreciation of the condition of his parents' affairs. Besides
-the little donkey and trap had always appeared so welcome in
-their simplicity, and it was by means of them that all his former
-home-comings had been effected. Those easy voyages had afforded
-opportunity for contemplation upon the splendor of the fields, but now
-the fields seemed to slip past as if annoyed by their faithlessness.
-Yet he knew that his mother had done this thing to please him, and how
-could he find it in his heart to be displeased with her?</p>
-
-<p>She was speaking kind words to him, which were being rudely destroyed,
-in their tender intonation, by the noise of the engine. She was setting
-forth the reasons why she had taken the car. It was the right thing now
-around Garradrimna.&mdash;The Houlihans of Clonabroney.&mdash;Again the changing
-of the gears cut short her explanation.</p>
-
-<p>"That man who was down with you in the train, Mr. Shannon, what was he
-saying to you?"</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed he was kindly inviting me over to see his nephew. I never knew
-he had a nephew, but it seems he has lived up in Dublin. He said that
-his brother, Henry Shannon, was the father of this young man."</p>
-
-<p>The feelings which her son's words brought rushing into her mind seemed
-to cloud out all the brightness which, for her, had again returned
-to the day. Yes, this young man, this Ulick Shannon, was the son of
-Henry Shannon and Henry Shannon was the one who had brought the great
-darkness into her life.... It would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_28" id="Page_28">[Pg 28]</a></span> be queer, she thought, beyond
-all the queerness of the world, to see the son of that man and her
-son walking together through the valley. The things that must be said
-of them, the terrible sneer by which they would be surrounded&mdash;Henry
-Shannon's son and the son of Nan Byrne.... She grew so silent beneath
-the sorrow of her vision that, even in the less noisy spaces of the
-humming car, the amount of time during which she did not speak seemed a
-great while.</p>
-
-<p>"What is the matter, mother?" said John Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"It was how I was thinking that maybe it would be better now if you had
-nothing to do with the Shannons."</p>
-
-<p>"But it was very kind of Mr. Shannon to invite me."</p>
-
-<p>"I know, I know; but I'd rather than the world it was any other family
-at all only the Shannons. They're a curious clan."</p>
-
-<p>In the painful silence that had come upon them she too was thinking
-of the reasons from which her words had sprung. Of how Henry Shannon
-had failed to marry her after he had ruined her; of how the disgrace
-had done no harm at all to him with his money and his fine farm. Then
-there was the burning thought of how he had married Grace Gogarty, the
-proudest and grandest girl in the whole parish, and of how this young
-man had been born prematurely and, by a curious chance, about the same
-time as her own little child. The one thing that she always dreaded
-more than any other, in the pain of its remembrance, was the fact that
-Henry Shannon had married Grace Gogarty directly after the "honeymoon"
-with her in Dublin. Yes, it was hardest of all to think of that, and of
-how Grace Gogarty had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_29" id="Page_29">[Pg 29]</a></span> so held up her head all through the short period
-of her wedded life with Henry Shannon. And after his death she had gone
-about with such conceited sorrowfulness in her widow's weeds.</p>
-
-<p>These thoughts had passed through her mind with swift definition, each
-one cutting deeper the gap which separated her from the long-dreamt-of
-joy of John's home-coming. And her lovely son sitting up beside her had
-grown so silent.</p>
-
-<p>As the car stopped by the house and Ned Brennan came out to meet them,
-unshaven and walking doggedly, she felt very certain that a shadow
-had settled down upon this particular return of John. The remembrance
-of her sin, from which it seemed impossible to escape, made the great
-thing she had planned so little and desolate.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_30" id="Page_30">[Pg 30]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2>
-
-<p>There arose a continual coming and going of John Brennan to and from
-the house of his mother through the valley. He was an object of
-curiosity and conjecture. The windows would squint at him as he went
-past through power of the leering faces behind; men working in the
-fields would run to the hedges and gaze after him as he went far down
-the road.</p>
-
-<p>In the evenings black prophets would foregather and say: "Now isn't he
-the fine-looking young fellow indeed, with the grand black clothes upon
-him; but he'll never be a priest, and that's as sure as you're there,
-for his mother is Nan Byrne, and she was a bad woman, God help us all!
-'Tis a pity of him, when you come to think of it, for it isn't his
-fault, happening as it did before he was born."</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan was innocent of guile, and so he did not become aware of
-the attitude of those among whom he passed. He did not realize that in
-his own person he stood as an affront to them, that he was the Levite
-standing nearer God than they in their crude condition as clods of the
-earth. It was his mother who had created this position for him, for she
-had directed his studies towards divinity. If his natural abilities
-had won him the promise of any other elevation, it might not have
-annoyed them so deeply. But this was something they could not have
-been expected to bear, for not one<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_31" id="Page_31">[Pg 31]</a></span> amongst them had a son a priest,
-although they believed as implicitly as Mrs. Brennan in the virtue of
-religion, and there was always a feeling of intense righteousness upon
-them when they remembered her story.</p>
-
-<p>Yet, although this was the way they looked upon him, they were not
-without a certain cringing respect for the realization he represented.
-Thus it was that when they spoke to him there was a touch of deference
-in their voices although there was a sneer in their hearts. It could
-not be expected that he should see them as they really were. Yet
-there were odd, great moments when his larger vision enabled him to
-behold them moving infinitesimally, in affright, beneath the shadow
-of the Divine Hand. He possessed a certain gift of observation, but
-it was superficial and of little consequence to his character for it
-flourished side by side with the large charity of his heart.</p>
-
-<p>One morning he encountered old Marse Prendergast upon the road. She
-was gathering a few green sticks from the hedge-rows. She seemed to be
-always looking for the means of a fire, and, to John Brennan, there
-appeared something that touched him greatly in the spectacle of this
-whining old woman, from whom the spark of life was so quickly fading,
-having no comfort, even on a summer day, but just to be sitting over
-a few smoldering sticks, sucking at an old black pipe and breaking
-out into occasional converse with herself. She who had given birth
-to strong sons and lovely daughters sitting here in her little cabin
-alone. Her clutch was gone from her to America, to the streets, and to
-the grave.</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan felt the pity of her, although he did not<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_32" id="Page_32">[Pg 32]</a></span> notice that the
-curtsey she gave him from the ditch was an essential portion of her
-contempt for the son of Nan Byrne (the cheek of him going on for to be
-a priest!), or that when she addressed him as <i>Mr.</i> Brennan it was in
-derision.</p>
-
-<p>"And glory be to God, sure we'll soon have to be calling you <i>Father</i>
-Brennan!" she repeated, as if silently marveling at the impossibility
-of the combination of words.</p>
-
-<p>He saw her move to accompany him down the road, her old back bent
-cruelly beneath the load of the weighty, green branches. He was
-touched, for he was not blind to the symbolism for which she stood, and
-offered to carry the branches for her, and she, accepting his offer,
-called down upon his head the blessing of God.</p>
-
-<p>As they moved slowly along the road she recounted, in snatches between
-her questions regarding his life at college, all the intimate woes
-of her life. Her lamentations, as they drew near the cottage of Mrs.
-Brennan, attracted the attention of his mother, who saw a sight
-filling her eyes which cut her to the bone. She saw her son John, her
-hope and pride, conversing with Marse Prendergast, the long-tongued
-shuiler who tramped the country with her stories and in quest of more
-stories&mdash;Marse Prendergast who knew her secret as no other knew it, and
-who had so recently reminded her of that knowledge. And he was carrying
-her sticks along the public road in the full light of day.... So
-powerful was the hurt of her maternal feelings that she almost fainted
-sitting there by her machine.</p>
-
-<p>When John came into the room she looked so pale that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_33" id="Page_33">[Pg 33]</a></span> he fancied she
-must be ill. He inquired as to the causes of her condition, but she
-only replied that she would try to tell him when he had taken his
-breakfast.</p>
-
-<p>As he was eating in silence she wondered what at all she could say to
-him or how she would attempt to place her view of things before him.
-This incident of the morning might be taken as a direct foreshadowing
-of what might happen if his foolish charity extended further down
-the valley. She did not dare to imagine what things he might be told
-or what stories might be suggested to his mind by the talk of the
-neighbors. But it was clearly her duty doubly to protect him from such
-a possibility. She saw that he had finished his breakfast.</p>
-
-<p>"That was the quare thing you were doing just now, John? It was the
-quarest thing at all, so it was."</p>
-
-<p>"Queer, mother; what was?"</p>
-
-<p>"Talking to old Marse Prendergast, son, and she only a woman of the
-roads with a bad tongue on her."</p>
-
-<p>"I only stopped talking with her, mother, so that I might carry her
-sticks. She was not able."</p>
-
-<p>"And she used the fine opportunity, I'll warrant, to drag information
-out of you and carry it all through the valley. That's what she was at!
-That's what she was at!"</p>
-
-<p>There was a kind of mournful wail in Mrs. Brennan's tones as if she
-saw in John's action of the morning some irretrievable distance placed
-between herself and him. The people of the valley loomed ever great as
-an army between her and the desire of her heart, and John had just now,
-as it were, afforded an opening to the enemy.</p>
-
-<p>He received a certain amount of hurt from her words,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_34" id="Page_34">[Pg 34]</a></span> for although
-he knew her only as his mother and a good woman who was well nigh
-faultless in her practise of the Christian religion, why was it that
-this simple action of his, with its slight touch of charity, was
-resented by her? Yet he allowed her to proceed without question,
-listening always with that high and fine attention which must have been
-the attitude of Christ as He listened to His Mother in Galilee.</p>
-
-<p>She painted a picture of the valley for his consideration. She
-proceeded to do this with a great concern moving her, for she was quick
-to perceive the change in him since his last holidays. He was a man
-now, and it was to his manhood condition she appealed. She began to
-tell him, with such a rush of words, the life-histories of those around
-him. There was not a slight detail she did not go to great pains to
-enlarge, no skeleton she did not cause to jump from its cupboard and
-run alive once more through the valley. She painted a new portrait of
-every inhabitant in a way that amazed John, who had not known of such
-things.</p>
-
-<p>But over his first feelings of surprise came a great realization of
-sadness. For this was his mother who was speaking. Hitherto he had
-looked upon her as one untouched by the clayey villainies of earth, a
-patient and very noble woman, with tired eyes and busy hands rather
-fashioned to confer benedictions than waste themselves in labor. Now
-he was listening to one most subtly different, to a woman who had been
-suddenly metamorphosed into the likeness of something primeval and
-startling. And she was oh! so bitter.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had no notion of the change that had come upon her. To
-herself there still appeared no <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_35" id="Page_35">[Pg 35]</a></span>difference in herself. She was doing
-all this for love of her son John, as she had done much for love of him.</p>
-
-<p>There fell a thick silence between them when she had finished. The
-mother and the son were both exhausted, he from listening to her and
-she from reading the pedigrees of every one to whom her mind could
-possibly extend, including Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, and the
-Shannons, who were almost gentlemen like the Houlihans of Clonabroney.</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan sighed as he said out of the innocence of his heart:</p>
-
-<p>"It is good, mother, that we are not as the rest of these."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan did not reply.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_36" id="Page_36">[Pg 36]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER V</h2>
-
-<p>In rural Ireland the "bona-fide," or rather <i>mala-fide</i>, traveler
-constitutes a certain blasphemous aspect in the celebration of
-the Sabbath. There are different types of "bona-fide," whose
-characteristics may be said to vary in direct proportion to their love
-and enthusiasm for porter. The worship of porter, when it has attained
-the proportions of a perfect passion, is best described as "the pursuit
-of porter in a can." It is the cause of many drunken skirmishes with
-the law, and it is interesting to observe such mistaken heroes in the
-execution of their plans.</p>
-
-<p>At a given signal a sudden descent is made upon a pub. A series of
-whistles from sentries in various parts of the village has announced
-the arrival of the propitious moment. A big tin'can is the only visible
-evidence of their dark intention. One almost forgets its betraying
-presence in the whirling moment of the brave deed. Then the deed is
-done. By some extraordinary process the can that was empty is found to
-be filled. It is the miracle of the porter.... When the sergeant and
-his colleagues come on the scene some hours later, an empty can with
-slight traces of froth upon the sides, "like beaded bubbles winking at
-the brim," constitutes the remaining flimsy evidence of the great thing
-that has happened.</p>
-
-<p>The mind of John Brennan was more or less foreign<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_37" id="Page_37">[Pg 37]</a></span> to this aspect of
-life amongst the fields. He would be the very last to realize that
-such were essential happenings in the life of his native village of
-Garradrimna. On his first Sunday at home he went walking, after second
-Mass, through the green woods which were the western boundary of the
-village. His thoughts were dwelling upon Father O'Keeffe's material
-interpretation of the Gospel story. At last they eddied into rest as he
-moved there along the bright path between the tall trees, so quiet as
-with adoration.</p>
-
-<p>When he came by that portion of the demesne wall, which lay at the back
-of Brannagan's public-house, he heard a scurrying of rabbits among the
-undergrowth. In the sudden hush which followed he heard a familiar
-voice raised in a tense whisper.</p>
-
-<p>"Hurry, quick! quick! There's some one in black coming up the path. It
-must be Sergeant McGoldrick. The can! the can!"</p>
-
-<p>His cheeks were suddenly flushed by a feeling of shame, for it was
-his father who had spoken. He stood behind a wide beech tree in mere
-confusion and not that he desired to see what was going forward.</p>
-
-<p>His father, Ned Brennan, bent down like an acrobat across the demesne
-wall and took the can from some one beneath. Then he ran down through
-the undergrowth, the brown froth of the porter dashing out upon his
-trousers, his quick eyes darting hither and thither like those of a
-frightened animal. But he did not catch sight of John, who saw him
-raise the can to his lips.</p>
-
-<p>It was a new experience for John Brennan to see his father thus
-spending the Sabbath in this dark place in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_38" id="Page_38">[Pg 38]</a></span> the woods, while out in the
-young summer day spilled and surged all the wonder of the world.... A
-sort of pity claimed possession of him as he took a different way among
-the cathedral trees.... His father was the queer man, queer surely,
-and moving lonely in his life. He was not the intimate of his son nor
-of the woman who was his son's mother. He had never seemed greatly
-concerned to do things towards the respect and honor of that woman. And
-yet John Brennan could not forget that he was his father.</p>
-
-<p>Just now another incident came to divert his mood. He encountered an
-ancient dryad flitting through the woods. This was Padna Padna, a
-famous character in Garradrimna. For all his name was that of the great
-apostle of his country, his affinities were pagan. Although he was
-eighty, he got drunk every day and never went to Mass. In his early
-days he had been the proprietor of a little place and the owner of a
-hackney car. When the posting business fell into decline, he had had
-to sell the little place and the horse and car, and the purchase money
-had been left for his support with a distant relative in the village.
-He was a striking figure as he moved abroad in the disguise of a cleric
-not altogether devoted to the service of God. He always dressed in
-solemn black, and his coat was longer than that of a civilian. His
-great hat gave him a downcast look, as of one who has peered into the
-Mysteries. His face was wasted and small, and this, with his partially
-blinded eyes behind the sixpenny spectacles, gave him a certain
-asceticism of look. Yet it was the way he carried himself rather than
-his general aspect which created this impression of him. He was very
-small,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_39" id="Page_39">[Pg 39]</a></span> and shrinking daily. His eyes were always dwelling upon his
-little boots in meditation. Were you unaware of his real, character,
-you might foolishly imagine that he was thinking of high, immortal
-things, but he was in reality thinking of drink.</p>
-
-<p>This was his daily program. He got up early and, on most mornings,
-crossed the street to Bartle Donohoe, the village barber, for a shave.
-Bartle would be waiting for him, his dark eye hanging critically as
-he tested the razor edge against the skin of his thumb. The little
-blade would be glinting in the sunlight.... Sometimes Bartle would
-become possessed of the thought that the morning might come when,
-after an unusually hard carouse on the previous night, he would not be
-responsible for all his razor might do, that it might suddenly leap out
-of his shivering hand and make a shocking end of Padna Padna and all
-his tyranny.... But his reputation as the drunkard with the steadiest
-hand in Garradrimna had to be maintained. If he did not shave Padna
-Padna the fact would be published in every house.</p>
-
-<p>"Bartle Donohoe was too shaky to shave me this morning; too shaky, I
-say. Ah, he's going wrong, going wrong! And will ye tell me this now?
-How is it that if ye buy a clock, a little ordinary clock for a couple
-of shillings, and give it an odd wind, it'll go right; but a man, a
-great, clever man'll go wrong no matter what way ye strive for to
-manage him?"</p>
-
-<p>If Bartle shaved him, Padna Padna would take his barber over to Tommy
-Williams's to give him a drink, which was the only payment he ever
-expected. After this, his first one, Padna Padna would say, "Not
-going<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_40" id="Page_40">[Pg 40]</a></span> to drink any more to-day," to which Bartle Donohoe would reply
-sententiously: "D'ye tell me so? Well, well! Is that a fact?"</p>
-
-<p>Then, directly, he would proceed to take a little walk before his
-breakfast, calling at every house of entertainment and referring
-distantly to the fact that Bartle Donohoe had a shake in his hand this
-morning. "A shame for him, and he an only son and all!"</p>
-
-<p>And thus did he spend the days of his latter end, pacing the sidewalks
-of Garradrimna, entering blindly into pubs and discussing the habits of
-every one save himself.</p>
-
-<p>He was great in the field of reminiscence.</p>
-
-<p>"Be the Holy Farmer!" he would say, "but there's no drinking nowadays
-tost what used to be longo. There's no decent fellows, and that's a
-fact. Ah, they were the decent fellows longo. You couldn't go driving
-them a place but they'd all come home mad. And sure I often didn't
-know where I'd be driving them, I'd be that bloody drunk. Aye, decent
-fellows! Sure they're all dead now through the power and the passion of
-drink."</p>
-
-<p>So this was the one whom John Brennan now encountered amid the green
-beauty of the woodland places. To him Padna Padna was one of the
-immortals. Succeeding holiday after succeeding holiday had he met the
-ancient man, fading surely but never wholly declining or disappearing.
-The impulse which had prompted him to speak to Marse Prendergast a few
-days previously now made him say: "How are you, old man?" to Padna
-Padna.</p>
-
-<p>The venerable drunkard, by way of immediate reply, tapped upon his
-lips with his fingers and then blew upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_41" id="Page_41">[Pg 41]</a></span> his fingers and whistled
-in cogitation. It was with his ears that he saw, and he possessed an
-amazing faculty for distinguishing between the different voices of
-different people.</p>
-
-<p>"John Brennan!" he at length exclaimed, in his high, thin voice. "Is
-that John Brennan?"</p>
-
-<p>"It is, the very one."</p>
-
-<p>"And how are ye, John?"</p>
-
-<p>"Very well, indeed, Padna. How are you?"</p>
-
-<p>"Poorly only. Ah, John, this is the hard day on me always, the Sunday.
-I declare to me God I detest Sunday. Here am I marching through the
-woods since seven and I having no drink whatever. That cursed Sergeant
-McGoldrick! May he have a tongue upon him some day the color of an ould
-brick and he in the seventh cavern of Hell! Did ye see Ned?"</p>
-
-<p>The sudden and tense question was not immediately intelligible to John
-Brennan. There were so many of the name about Garradrimna. Padna Padna
-pranced impatiently as he waited for an answer.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, is it letting on you are that you don't know who I mean, and you
-with your grand ecclesiastical learning and all to that. 'Tis your own
-father, Ned Brennan, that I mean. I was in a 'join' with him to get a
-can out of Brannigan's. Mebbe you didn't see him anywhere down through
-the wood, for I have an idea that he's going to swindle me. Did ye see
-him, I'm asking you?"</p>
-
-<p>Even still John did not reply, for something seemed to have caught him
-by the throat and was robbing him of the power of speech. The valley,
-with its vast malevolence of which his mother had so recently warned
-him,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_42" id="Page_42">[Pg 42]</a></span> was now driving him to say something which was not true.</p>
-
-<p>"No, Padna, I did not see him!" he at last managed to jerk out.</p>
-
-<p>"Mebbe he didn't manage to get me drink for me yet, and mebbe he did
-get it and is after drinking it somewhere in the shadows of the trees
-where he couldn't be seen. But what am I saying at all? Sure if he was
-drinking it there before me, where you're standing, I couldn't see him,
-me eyes is that bad. Isn't it the poor and the hard case to be blinded
-to such an extent?"</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan felt no pity, so horrible was the expression that now
-struggled into those dimming eyes. He thought of a puzzling fact of his
-parentage. Why was it that his mother had never been able to save his
-father from the ways of degradation into which he had fallen, the low
-companions, the destruction of the valley; from all of which to even
-the smallest extent she was now so anxious to save her son?</p>
-
-<p>Padna Padna was still blowing upon his fingers and regretting:</p>
-
-<p>"Now isn't it the poor and the hard case that there's no decent fellows
-left in the world at all. To think that I can meet never a one now, me
-that spent so much of me life driving decent fellows, driving, driving.
-John, do ye know what it is now? You're after putting me in mind of
-Henry Shannon. He was the decentest fellow! Many's the time I drove him
-down to your grandmother's place when he wouldn't have a foot under him
-to leave Garradrimna. That was when your mother was a young girl, John.
-Hee, hee, hee!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_43" id="Page_43">[Pg 43]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>John could not divine the reasons for the old man's glee, nor did he
-perceive that the mind of Padna Padna, even in the darkening stages of
-its end, was being lit by a horrible sneer at him and the very fact of
-his existence. Instead he grew to feel rather a stir of compassion for
-this old man, with his shattered conception of happiness such as it
-was, burning his mind with memories while he rode down so queerly to
-the grave.</p>
-
-<p>As he moved away through the long, peaceful aisles of the trees, his
-soul was filled with gray questioning because of what he had just seen
-of his father and because of the distant connection of his mother with
-the incident. Why was it at all that his mother had never been able to
-save his father?</p>
-
-<p>As he emerged from the last circle of the woods there seemed to be a
-shadow falling low over the fields. He went with no eagerness towards
-the house of his mother. This was Sunday, and it was her custom to
-spend a large portion of the Sabbath in speaking of her neighbors. But
-she would never say anything about his father, even though Ned Brennan
-would not be in the house.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_44" id="Page_44">[Pg 44]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2>
-
-<p>Just now there happened something of such unusual importance in the
-valley that Mrs. Brennan became excited about it. The assistant teacher
-of Tullahanogue Girls' School, Miss Mary Jane O'Donovan, had left, and
-a new assistant was coming in her stead. Miss O'Donovan had always
-given the making of her things to Mrs. Brennan, so she spoke of her,
-now that she was gone, as having been "a <i>very</i> nice girl." Just yet,
-of course, she was not in a position to say as much about the girl who
-was coming. But the entry of a new person into the life of the valley
-was a great event! Such new things could be said!</p>
-
-<p>On Monday morning Mrs. Brennan called her son into the sewing-room to
-describe the imminent nature of the event. The sense of depression that
-had come upon him during the previous day did not become averted as he
-listened.</p>
-
-<p>What an extraordinary mixture this woman who was his mother now
-appeared before his eyes! And yet he could not question her in any
-action or in any speech; she was his mother, and so everything
-that fell from her must be taken in a mood of noble and respectful
-acceptance. But she was without charity, and as he saw her in this
-guise he was compelled to think of his father and the incident of
-yesterday, and he could not help <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_45" id="Page_45">[Pg 45]</a></span>wondering. He suddenly realized that
-what was happening presently in this room was happening in every house
-down the valley. Even before her coming she was being condemned. It was
-beneath the shadow of this already created cloud she would have to live
-and move and earn her little living in the schoolhouse of Tullahanogue.
-John Brennan began to have some pity for the girl.</p>
-
-<p>Ned Brennan now appeared at the door leading to the kitchen and
-beckoned to his wife. She went at his calling, and John noticed that at
-her return some part of her had fallen away. His father went from the
-house whistling at a pitch that was touched with delight.</p>
-
-<p>"Where is my father bound for?"</p>
-
-<p>"He's gone to Garradrimna, John, to order lead for the roof of the
-school. The valley behind the chimney is leaking again and he has to
-cobble it. 'Tis the great bother he gets with that roof, whatever sort
-it is. Isn't it a wonder now that Father O'Keeffe wouldn't put a new
-one on it, and all the money he gets so handy ...?"</p>
-
-<p>"My father seems to be always at that roof. He used to be at it when I
-was going to school there."</p>
-
-<p>The words of her son came to Mrs. Brennan's ears with a sound of sad
-complaint. It caused her to glimpse momentarily all the villainy of Ned
-Brennan towards her through all the years, and of how she had borne
-it for the sake of John. And here was John before her now becoming
-reverently magnified in that part of her mind which was a melting
-tenderness. It was him she must now save from the valley which had
-ruined her man. Thus was she fearful again and the heart within her
-caused to become troubled and to rush to and fro in her breast like
-rushing water. Then, as if her whole<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[Pg 46]</a></span> will was sped by some fearful
-ecstasy, she went on to talk in her accustomed way of every one around
-her, including the stranger who had not yet come to the valley.</p>
-
-<p>It was on the evening of this day that Rebecca Kerr, the new assistant
-teacher, came through the village of Garradrimna to the valley of
-Tullahanogue. Paddy McCann drove McDermott's hackney car down past
-the old castle of the De Lacys. It carried her as passenger from
-Mullaghowen, with her battered trunk strapped over the well. The group
-of spitting idlers crowding around Brannagan's loudly asserted so much
-as Paddy McCann and his cargo loomed out of the shadows beneath the
-old castle and swung into the amazing realities of the village. It was
-just past ten o'clock and the mean place now lay amid the enclosing
-twilight. The conjunctive thirsts for drink and gossip which come at
-this hour had attacked the ejected topers, and their tongues began to
-water about the morsel now placed before them.</p>
-
-<p>A new schoolmistress, well, well! Didn't they change them shocking
-often in Tullahanogue? And quare-looking things they were too, every
-one of them. And here was another one, not much to look at either. They
-said this as she came past. And what was her name? "Kerr is her name!"
-said some one who had heard it from the very lips of Father O'Keeffe
-himself.</p>
-
-<p>"Rebecca Kerr is her name," affirmed Farrell McGuinness, who had just
-left a letter for her at the Presbytery.</p>
-
-<p>"Rebecca what? Kerr&mdash;Kerr&mdash;Kerr, is it?" sputtered Padna Padna; "what
-for wouldn't it be <i>Carr</i> now,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[Pg 47]</a></span> just common and simple? But of course
-<i>Kerr</i> has a ring of the quality about it. <i>Kerr</i>, be God!"</p>
-
-<p>These were the oracles of Garradrimna who were now speaking of her
-thus. But she had no thought of them at all as she glanced hurriedly
-at the shops and puzzled her brains to guess where the best draper's
-shop might be. She had a vague, wondering notion as to where she might
-get all those little things so necessary for a girl. She had a fleeting
-glimpse of herself standing outside one of those worn counters she was
-very certain existed somewhere in the village, talking ever so much
-talk with the faded girl who dispensed the vanities of other days, or
-else exchanging mild confidences with the vulgar and ample mistress of
-the shop, who was sure to be always floating about the place immensely.
-Yes, just there was the very shop with its brave selection from the
-fashions of yester-year in the fly-blown windows.</p>
-
-<p>And there was the Post Office through which her letters to link her
-with the outer world would come and go. She quickly figured the old
-bespectacled postmistress, already blinded partially, and bent from
-constant, anxious scrutiny, poring exultantly over the first letters
-that might be sent to "Miss Rebecca Kerr," and examining the postmark.
-Then the quality and gender of the writing, and being finally troubled
-exceedingly as to the person it could have come from&mdash;sister, mother,
-brother, father, friend, or "boy." Even although the tall candles of
-Romance had long since guttered and gone out amid the ashes of her
-mind the assaulting suspicion that it was from "a boy" would drive
-her to turn the letter in her hand and take a look at the flap. Then
-the temptation that was a part of her life would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[Pg 48]</a></span> prove too strong
-for her and a look of longing would come into the dull eyes as she
-went hobbling into the kitchen to place it over the boiling kettle and
-so embark it upon its steamy voyage to discovery. In a few minutes
-she would be reading it, her hands trembling as she chuckled in
-her obscene glee at all the noble sentiments it might contain. The
-subsequent return of the letter to the envelope after the addition of
-some gum from a penny bottle if the old sticking did not suffice. Her
-interludiary sigh of satisfaction when she remembered that one could
-re-stick so many opened envelopes with a penny bottle of gum by using
-it economically. The inevitable result of this examination, a superior
-look of wisdom upon the withered face when the new schoolmistress,
-Rebecca Kerr, came for the first time into the office to ask for a
-letter from her love.... But so far in her life she had formed no deep
-attachment.</p>
-
-<p>It was thus and thus that Rebecca Kerr ran through her mind a few
-immediate sketchy realizations of this village in Ireland. She had
-lived in others, and this one could not be so very different....
-There now was the butcher's stall, kept filthily, where she might
-buy her bit of beef or mutton occasionally. She caught a glimpse of
-the victualler standing with his dirty wife amid the strong-smelling
-meat. The name above the door was that of the publichouse immediately
-beside it. A little further on, upon the same side, was the newsagent's
-and stationer's, where they sold sweets and everything. It was here
-she might buy her notepaper to write to her own people in Donegal,
-or else to some of her college friends with whom she still kept up
-a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[Pg 49]</a></span> correspondence. And here also she might treat herself, on rare
-occasions, to a box of cheap chocolates, or to some of the injurious,
-colored sweets which always gave her the toothache, presenting the most
-of them, perhaps, to some child to whom she had taken a fancy.</p>
-
-<p>By little bits like these, which formed a series of flashes, she saw
-some aspects of the life she might lead here. Each separate flash left
-something of an impression before it went out of her mind.</p>
-
-<p>The jingling car swung on past the various groups upon the street,
-each group twisting its head as one man to observe the spectacle of
-her passing. "That's the new schoolmistress!" "There she is, begad!"
-"I heard Paddy McCann saying she was coming this evening!" She was
-now in line with the famous house of Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man.
-She knew from the look of it that it was here she must buy her few
-groceries, for this was the principal house in Garradrimna and, even so
-far as she, the octopus of Gombeenism was sure to extend itself. To be
-sure, the gombeen-man would be the father of a family, for it is the
-clear duty of such pillars of the community to rear up a long string
-of patriots. If those children happened to be of school-going age, it
-was certain they would not be sent to even the most convenient school
-unless the teachers dealt in the shop. This is how gombeenism is made
-to exercise control over National Education. Anyhow Rebecca Kerr was
-very certain that she must enter the various-smelling shop to discuss
-the children with the gombeen-man's wife.</p>
-
-<p>It was indeed a dreary kind of life that she would be compelled to lead
-in this place, and, as she passed the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[Pg 50]</a></span> pretty chapel, which seemed to
-stand up in the sight of Heaven as excuse for the affront that was
-Garradrimna, she had a strange notion how she must go there sometimes
-to find respite from the relentless crush of it all. On bitter
-evenings, when her mind should ring with the mean tumults of the life
-around her, it was there only she might go and, slipping in through the
-dim vestibule where there were many mortuary cards to remind her of
-all the dead, she would walk quickly to the last pew and, bending her
-throbbing head, pour out her soul in prayer with the aid of her little
-mother-of-pearl rosary.... They had gone a short distance past the
-chapel and along the white road towards the valley.</p>
-
-<p>"This is the place," said Paddy McCann.</p>
-
-<p>She got down from the car wearily, and McCann carried her battered
-trunk into the house of Sergeant McGoldrick which had been assigned as
-her lodging by Father O'Keeffe. He emerged with a leer of expectation
-upon his countenance, and she gave him a shilling from her little
-possessions. At the door she was compelled to introduce herself.</p>
-
-<p>"So you are the new teacher. Well, begad! The missus is up in the
-village. Come in. Begad!"</p>
-
-<p>He stood there, a big, ungainly man, at his own door as he gave the
-invitation, a squalling baby in his arms, and in went Rebecca Kerr,
-into the sitting-room where Mrs. McGoldrick made clothes for the
-children. The sergeant proceeded to do his best to be entertaining. She
-knew the tribe. He remained smoking his great black pipe and punctuated
-the squalls of the baby by spitting huge volumes of saliva which hit
-the fender with dull thuds.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[Pg 51]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"It's a grand evening in the country," said Sergeant McGoldrick.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, a nice evening surely," said Rebecca Kerr.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, it was a grand, lovely day in the country, the day. I was out in
-the country all through the day. I was collecting the census of the
-crops, so I was; a difficult and a critical job, I can tell you!"</p>
-
-<p>With an air of pride he took down the books of lists and showed her
-the columns of names and particulars.... It was stupidly simple. Yet
-here was this hulk of a man expanding his chest because of his childish
-achievement. He had even stopped smoking and spitting to give space
-to his own amazement, and the baby had ceased mewling to marvel in
-infantile wonder at the spacious cleverness of her da.</p>
-
-<p>After nearly half an hour of this performance Mrs. McGoldrick bustled
-into the room. She was a coarse-looking woman, whose manner had
-evidently been made even more harsh by the severe segregation to
-which the wives of policemen are subjected. Her voice was loud and
-unmusical, and it appeared to Rebecca from the very first that not even
-the appalling cleverness of her husband was a barrier to her strong
-government of her own house. The sergeant disappeared immediately,
-taking the baby with him, and left the women to their own company. Mrs.
-McGoldrick had seen the battered, many-corded trunk in the hall-way,
-and she now made a remark which was, perhaps, natural enough for a
-woman:</p>
-
-<p>"You haven't much luggage anyway!" was what she said.</p>
-
-<p>"No!" replied Rebecca dully.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[Pg 52]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Then she allowed her head to droop for what seemed a long while, during
-all of which she was acutely conscious that the woman by her side was
-staring at her, forming impressions of her, summing her up.</p>
-
-<p>"I don't think you're as tall as Miss O'Donovan was, and you haven't as
-nice hair!"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca made no comment of any kind upon this candor, but now that the
-way had been opened Mrs. McGoldrick poured out a flood of information
-regarding the late assistant of the valley school. She was reduced to
-little pieces and, as it were, cremated in the furnace of this woman's
-mind until tiny specks of the ashes of her floated about and danced and
-scintillated before the tired eyes of Rebecca Kerr.</p>
-
-<p>As the heavier dusk of the short, warm night began to creep into
-the little room her soul sank slowly lower. She was hungry now and
-lonely. In the mildest way she distantly suggested a cup of tea, but
-Mrs. McGoldrick at once resented this uncalled-for disturbance of her
-harangue by bringing out what was probably meant to be taken as the one
-admirable point in the other girl's character.</p>
-
-<p>"Miss O'Donovan used always get her own tea."</p>
-
-<p>But the desolating silence of Rebecca at length drove her towards the
-kitchen, and she returned, after what seemed an endless period, with
-some greasy-looking bread, a cup without a handle, and a teapot from
-which the tea dribbled in agony on to the tablecloth through a wound in
-its side.</p>
-
-<p>The sickening taste of the stuff that came out of the teapot only added
-to Rebecca's sinking feeling. Her thoughts crept ever downward.... At
-last there came<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[Pg 53]</a></span> a blessed desire for sleep-sleep and forgetfulness of
-this day and the morrow. Her head was already beginning to spin as she
-inquired for her room.</p>
-
-<p>"Your room?" exclaimed Mrs. McGoldrick in harsh surprise. "Why, 'tis
-upstairs. There's only two rooms there, myself and the sergeant's and
-the lodger's room&mdash;that's yours. I hadn't time this week back to make
-the bed since Miss O'Donovan left, but of course you'll do that for
-yourself. The sergeant is gone up to the barracks, so I'll have to help
-you carry up your box, as I suppose you'll be wanting to get out some
-of your things."</p>
-
-<p>It was a cruelly hard job getting the trunk up the steep staircase, but
-between them they managed it. Rebecca was not disappointed by the bare,
-ugly room. Mrs. McGoldrick closed the door behind them and stood in an
-attitude of expectation. Even in the present dull state of her mind
-Rebecca saw that her landlady was, with tense curiosity, awaiting the
-opening of the box which held her poor belongings.... Then something of
-the combative, selfish attitude of the woman to her kind stirred within
-her, and she bravely resolved to fight, for a short space, this prying
-woman who was trying to torment her soul.</p>
-
-<p>She looked at the untidied bed with the well-used sheets.... What
-matter? It was only the place whereon the body of another poor tortured
-creature like herself had lain. She would bear with this outrage
-against her natural delicacy.</p>
-
-<p>In perfect silence she took off her skirt and blouse and corset. She
-let fall her long, heavy hair and, before the broken looking-glass,
-began to dally wearily<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[Pg 54]</a></span> with its luxuriance. This hair was very fair
-and priceless, and it was hers who had not great possessions. Her
-shining neck and blossomy breasts showed as a pattern in ivory against
-the background that it made.... Some man, she thought, would like to
-see her now and love her maybe. Beyond this vision of herself she could
-see the ugly, anxious face of the woman behind her. She could feel
-the discord of that woman's thoughts with the wandering strands of
-withering hair.</p>
-
-<p>No word had passed between them since they came together into the room,
-and Mrs. McGoldrick, retreating from the situation which had been
-created, left with abruptness, closing the door loudly behind her.</p>
-
-<p>With as much haste as she could summon, Rebecca took off her shoes and
-got her night-gown out of the trunk. Then she threw herself into the
-bed. She put out the light and fumbled in her faded vanity bag for her
-little mother-of-pearl rosary. There was a strange excitement upon her,
-even in the final moments of her escape, and soon a portion of her
-pillow was wet with tears. Between loud sobs arose the sound of her
-prayers ascending:</p>
-
-<p>"Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou
-amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace...."</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[Pg 55]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER VII</h2>
-
-<p>At tea-time Mrs. Brennan was still talking to John of the girl who was
-coming to the valley. Outside the day was still full of the calm glory
-of summer. He went to the window and looked down upon the clean, blue
-stretch of the little lake.... He had grown weary of his mother's talk.
-What possible interest could he have in this unknown girl? He took
-a book from a parcel on the table. With this volume in his hand and
-reading it, as he might his breviary at some future time, he went out
-and down towards the lake. On his way, he met a few men moving to and
-from their tasks in the fields. He bade them the time of day and spoke
-about the beauty of the afternoon. As they replied, a curious kind of
-smile played around their lips, and there was not one who failed to
-notice his enviable condition of idleness.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed 'tis you that has the fine times!" "Indeed you might say 'tis
-you that has the fine times!" "Now isn't the learning the grand thing,
-to say that when you have it in your head you need never do a turn with
-your hands?"</p>
-
-<p>Their petty comments had the effect of filling him with a distracting
-sense of irritation, and it was some time before he could pick up any
-continued interest in the book. It was the story of a young priest,
-such as he might expect to be in a few years. Suddenly it <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[Pg 56]</a></span>appeared
-remarkable that he should be reading this foreshadowing of his future.
-That he should be seeing himself with all his ideas translated into
-reality and his training changed into the work for which he had been
-trained. Strange that this thought should have come into his mind with
-smashing force here now and at this very time. Hitherto his future had
-appeared as a thing apart from him, but now it seemed intimately bound
-up with everything he could possibly do.</p>
-
-<p>He began to see very clearly for the first time the reason for his
-mother's anxiety to keep him apart from the life of the valley. Did it
-spring directly from her love for him, or was it merely selfish and
-contributory to her pride? The whole burden of her talk showed clearly
-that she was a proud woman. He could never come to have her way of
-looking at things, and so he now felt that if he became a priest it was
-she and not himself who would have triumphed.... He was still reading
-the book, but it was in a confused way and with little attention. The
-threads of the story had become entangled somehow with the threads
-of his own story.... Occasionally his own personality would cease to
-dominate it, and the lonely woman in the cottage, his mother sitting in
-silence at her machine, would become the principal character.... The
-hours went past him as he pondered.</p>
-
-<p>The evening shadows had begun to steal down from the hills. The western
-sky was like the color of a golden chalice. Men were coming home weary
-from the labor of the fields; cows were moving towards field gates with
-wise looks in their eyes to await the milking; the young calves were
-lowing for their evening meal. The quiet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[Pg 57]</a></span> fir trees, which had slept
-all through the day, now seemed to think of some forgotten trust and
-were like vigilant sentries all down through the valley of Tullahanogue.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly the eyes of John Brennan were held by a splendid picture. The
-sweep of the Hill of Annus lay outlined in all the wonder of its curve,
-and, on the ridge of it, moving with humped body, was Shamesy Golliher,
-the most famous drunkard of the valley. He passed like a figure of
-destruction above the valley against the sunset. John smiled, for he
-remembered him and his habits, as both were known far and wide. He was
-now going towards a certain wood where the rabbits were plentiful.
-His snares were set there. The thin, pitiful cry of the entrapped
-creature now split the stillness, and the man upon the sweep of the
-world began to move with a more determined stride.... John Brennan, his
-mind quickening towards remembrance of incidents of his boyhood, knew
-that the cunning of Shamesy Golliher had triumphed over the cunning
-of the rabbits. Their hot little eager bodies must soon be sold for
-eightpence apiece and the money spent on porter in Garradrimna. It was
-strange to think of this being the ultimate fate of the rabbits that
-had once frisked so innocently over the green spaces of the woods....
-He listened, with a slight turn of regret stirring him, until the last
-squeal had been absorbed by the stillness. Then he arose and prepared
-to move away from the lake. He was being filled by a deadly feeling of
-sadness. Hitherto the continuous adventure of adolescence had sustained
-him, but now he was a man and thinking of his future.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[Pg 58]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>On his way across the sweep of the hill he encountered Shamesy
-Golliher. The famous drunkard was laden with the rabbits he had just
-taken from the snares. The strength of his thirst had also begun to
-attack him, so that by reason of both defects his legs now bent under
-him weakly as he walked. Yet his attitude did not suggest defeat, for
-he had never failed to maintain his reputation in the valley. He was
-the local bard, the satiric poet of the neighborhood. He was the only
-inhabitant of the valley who continually did what he pleased, for he
-throve within the traditional Gaelic dread of satire. No matter how he
-debased himself no man or woman dared talk of it for fear they might be
-made the subject of a song to be ranted in the taprooms of Garradrimna.
-And he was not one to respect the feelings of those whom he put into
-his rimes, for all of them were conceived in a mood of ribald and
-malignant glee.</p>
-
-<p>"Me sound man John, how are ye?" he said, extending a white, nervous
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm very well, thanks; and how are you, Shamesy?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, just only middling. I don't look the very best. You'll excuse me
-not being shaved. But that's on account of the neuralgia. God blast it!
-it has me near killed. It has the nerves destroyed on me. Look at me
-hand." ... It was the idiosyncrasy of Shamesy Golliher to assert that
-drink was no part of his life.</p>
-
-<p>Immediately he dropped into his accustomed vein. He gazed down the Hill
-of Annus and found material for his tongue. There were the daughters of
-Hughie Murtagh. They had no brother, and were helping their father in
-the fields.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[Pg 59]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Them's the men, them's the men!" said Shamesy, "though glory be to
-God! 'twill be the hard case with them when they come to be married,
-for sure you wouldn't like to marry a man, now would you? And for
-pity's sake will you look at Oweneen Kiernan, the glutton! I hear he
-ate five loaves at the ball in Ballinamult; and as sure as you're there
-that powerful repast'll have to be made the material for a song."</p>
-
-<p>A loud laugh sprang from the lips of Shamesy Golliher and floated far
-across the lake, and John Brennan was immediately surprised to find
-himself laughing in the same way.</p>
-
-<p>The rimer was still pursuing Oweneen down the field of his mind.</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, and I thank ye, ye'll see him doing his best after the new
-schoolmistress that's coming to us this evening. There's a great
-look-out, I can tell you, to see what kind she'll be. Indeed the last
-one wasn't much. Grand-looking whipsters, moryah! to be teaching the
-young idea. Indeed I wouldn't be at all surprised to see one of them
-going away from here sometime and she in the family way, although may
-God pardon me for alluding to the like and I standing in the presence
-of the makings of a priest!"</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan felt himself blushing ever so slightly.</p>
-
-<p>"And who d'ye think was in Garradrimna this evening? Why Ulick Shannon,
-and he a big man. Down to stop with his uncle Myles he is for a
-holiday. He wasn't here since he was a weeshy gosoon; for, what d'ye
-think, didn't his mother and father send him away to Dublin to be
-nursed soon after he was born and never seemed to care much about him
-afterwards; but they<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[Pg 60]</a></span> were the quare pair, and it was no good end that
-happened to themselves, for Henry Shannon and the girl he married,
-Grace Gogarty, both died within the one year. He in the full pride of
-his red life, and she while she was gallivanting about the country
-wearing mourning for him and looking for another husband that she never
-got before she went into the clay. Well, to make a long story short,
-Myles Shannon looked after the orphan, paying for his rearing and his
-education, and having him live as a gentleman in Dublin&mdash;until now
-he's a great-looking fellow entirely, and going on, I suppose, for
-Doctoring, or the Law, or some other profitable devilment like that.
-The Shannons were always an unlucky family, but maybe Ulick'll break
-the black curse, although I don't know, for he's the very spit and
-image of his father and able to take his drink like a good one, I can
-tell ye. This evening he came into McDermott's. There was no one there
-but meself, it being the high evening, so says he to me:</p>
-
-<p>"'What'll ye have?'</p>
-
-<p>"'Begad, Mr. Shannon,' says I, 'I'll have a pint. And more power to
-ye, sir!' says I, although I was grinning to meself all the time, for
-I couldn't help thinking that he was only the son of Henry Shannon,
-one of the commonest blackguards that ever disgraced this part of the
-country. You didn't know him, but your mother could tell you about him.
-You might swear your mother could tell you about him!"</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan did not notice the light of merriment which overspread the
-face of Shamesy Golliher, for he was looking down towards the hush of
-the lake, and experiencing a certain feeling of annoyance that this<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[Pg 61]</a></span>
-young man should be becoming gradually introduced to him in this way.
-But Shamesy was still speaking:</p>
-
-<p>"He stood me four pints and two glasses, and nothing would do him when
-he was going away but he should buy me a whole glass of whiskey. He's
-what you might call a gay fellow, I can tell you. And God save us!
-isn't it grand to be that way, even though you never earned it, and
-not have to be getting your drink like me be nice contriving among the
-small game of the fields?"</p>
-
-<p>They parted in silence, Shamesy Golliher going eastward towards
-Garradrimna and John Brennan in the opposite direction and towards
-his mother's house. His mind had begun to slip into a condition of
-vacancy when an accident happened to turn it again in the direction of
-religion. As he came out upon the road he passed a group of children
-playing between two neighboring houses. The group was made up of the
-children of two families, the O'Briens and the Vaughans. It was said of
-Mrs. Vaughan that although she had been married by Father O'Keeffe, and
-went to Mass every second Sunday, she still clung to the religion into
-which she had been born. Now her eldest child, a pretty, fair-haired
-boy, was in the midst of the O'Briens' children. Their mother was what
-you might call a good woman, for, although she had the most slovenly
-house along the valley road, she went to Mass as often as Mrs. Brennan.
-They were making the innocent child repeat phrases out of their prayers
-and then laughing and mocking him because he could not properly
-pronounce the long words. They were trying to make him bless himself,
-but the hands of little Edward could not <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[Pg 62]</a></span>master the gestures of the
-formula, and they were jeering at him for his ill-success. When he
-seemed just upon the verge of tears they began to ask him questions in
-the answers to which he would seem to have been well trained aforetime,
-for he repeated them with glibness and enjoyment.</p>
-
-<p>"What religion are ye?"</p>
-
-<p>"I'm a little black Protestant."</p>
-
-<p>"And where will ye go when ye die?"</p>
-
-<p>"I'll go to hell."</p>
-
-<p>"What's hell?"</p>
-
-<p>"A big place bigger than the chapel or the church, with a terrible,
-grand fire in it."</p>
-
-<p>"And what is it full of?"</p>
-
-<p>"It's full of little fellows like me!"</p>
-
-<p>This was the melancholy piece of catechism John Brennan was constrained
-to hear as he went past.</p>
-
-<p>It added the last wave of sadness to the gray mood which had been
-descending upon him by degrees since the beginning of the day.... He
-stood upon the road and listened for anything in the nature of a sound
-which might connect his mind with a thought that had some brightness.
-Although only a few days had elapsed since his return his ears were
-already beginning to redevelop that delicate perception of slight
-sounds which comes to one in the quiet places. He now heard a car come
-through Garradrimna and move a short distance down the valley road.
-That, he thought, should be Paddy McCann driving the new mistress to
-her lodging in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick.</p>
-
-<p>The small realization held occupation of his mind as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[Pg 63]</a></span> he went into the
-house of his mother. He was surprised to find that it was past ten.
-Still lonely as he went to his room, he thought once more of the kind
-invitation of Mr. Myles Shannon.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[Pg 64]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon had ever borne a passionate grudge against Mrs. Brennan.
-He had loved his brother Henry, and he felt that she, of all people,
-had had the most powerful hand in instituting the remorse which had
-hurried him to his doom. Mrs. Brennan, on the other hand, believed
-firmly that Henry Shannon would have married her, and made of her
-a decent woman, but for the intervention of his brother Myles.
-Furthermore, she believed darkly in her heart that the subtle plan
-of the disastrous "honeymoon" had originated in the brain of Myles,
-although in this she was wrong. She thought of Henry as being never of
-that sort. He was wild and mad, with nothing too hot or too heavy for
-him, but he was not one to concoct schemes. So, when Henry died, Mrs.
-Brennan had thought well to transmit her hatred of the Shannon family
-to his brother Myles.</p>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon lived a quiet life there in his big house among the trees
-upon the side of Scarden, one of the hills which overlooked the valley.
-In lonely, silent moments he often thought of his brother Henry and of
-the strange manner in which he had burned out his life. With the end
-of his brother before him always as a deterrent example, he did not
-interest himself in women. He interested himself in the business of
-his cattle and sheep all through each and every day of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[Pg 65]</a></span> year. He
-did not feel the years slipping past him as he went about his easy,
-contented life, watching, with great interest, his beef and mutton grow
-up in the fields.</p>
-
-<p>The cattle in particular stood for the absorbing interest and the one
-excitement of his life. He looked upon his goings and comings to and
-from the markets at Dublin and at Wakefield in England as holiday
-excursions of great enjoyment.</p>
-
-<p>It was during one of his trips to England that he had met Helena Cooper
-at some hotel in Manchester. He was one to whom the powers of Romance
-had remained strangers, yet now, when they at last came into his life,
-it was with a force that carried away all the protection of his mind.
-He wanted some one to fill the loneliness of the big house on Scarden
-Hill, and so he set his heart upon Helena Cooper.</p>
-
-<p>He returned to the valley a different man. Quite suddenly he began to
-have a greater interest in his appearance, and it was noticed that
-he grew sentimental and became easy in his dealings. It began to be
-whispered around that, even so late in life, almost at the close of
-the middle period which surely marks the end of a man's prime, Myles
-Shannon had fallen in love and was about to be married.</p>
-
-<p>It was a notable rumor, and although it was fifteen years since the
-death of Henry Shannon, Mrs. Brennan, as one having a good reason to be
-interested in the affairs of the Shannon family, became excited.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed it was high time for him to think of it," she said to a
-neighbor one Sunday morning, "before he turned into a real ould
-blackguard of a bachelor&mdash;and who d'ye say the girl is?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[Pg 66]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Why, then, they say she's an English lady, and that she's grand and
-young."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan was a great one for "ferreting-out" things. Once she
-had set her mind upon knowing a thing, there was little possibility
-of preventing her. And now she was most anxious to know whom Myles
-Shannon was about to marry. So when she saw the old bent postmistress
-taking the air upon the valley road later on in the day she brought her
-into the sewing-room and, over a cup of tea, proceeded to satisfy her
-curiosity.</p>
-
-<p>"There must be letters?" she said after they had come round to a
-discussion of the rumored marriage.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, yes, indeed. There's letters coming and going, coming and going,"
-the old lady wheezed. "A nice-looking ould codger, isn't he, to be
-writing letters to a young girl?"</p>
-
-<p>"And how d'ye know she's young?"</p>
-
-<p>"How do I know, is it, how do I know? Well, well, isn't that my
-business? To know and to mind."</p>
-
-<p>"You're a great woman."</p>
-
-<p>"I do my duty, that's all, Mrs. Brennan, as sure as you're there. And
-d'ye imagine for a moment I was going to let Myles Shannon pass, for
-all he's such a great swank of a farmer? She <i>is</i> a young girl."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, well?"</p>
-
-<p>"There's no reason to misdoubt me in the least, for I saw her photo and
-it coming through the post."</p>
-
-<p>"A big, enlarged photo, I suppose?"</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, the photo of a young girl in her bloom."</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose she's very nice?"</p>
-
-<p>"She's lovely, and 'tis what I said to myself as I looked upon her
-face, that it would be the pity of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[Pg 67]</a></span> world to see her married to a
-middling ould fellow like Myles Shannon."</p>
-
-<p>"And I suppose, now, that she has a nice name?"</p>
-
-<p>"Aye. It is that. And what you might call a grand name."</p>
-
-<p>A long pause now fell between the two women, as if both were
-endeavoring to form in their minds some great resolve to which their
-hearts were prompting them. The old postmistress delivered her next
-speech in a whisper:</p>
-
-<p>"Her name is Helena Cooper, and her address is 15 Medway Avenue,
-Manchester!"</p>
-
-<p>The two women now nudged one another in simultaneous delight. Mrs.
-Brennan ran the direction over and over in her mind as if suddenly
-fearful that some dreadful stroke of forgetfulness might come to
-overthrow her chance of revenge upon her false, dead lover through the
-great injury she now contemplated doing to his brother.... She made
-an excuse of going to the kitchen to put more water upon the teapot
-and, when she went there, scribbled the name and address upon the wall
-beside the fireplace.</p>
-
-<p>When she returned to the sewing-room the old postmistress was using
-her handkerchief to hide the smile of satisfaction which was dancing
-around her mouth. She knew what was just presently running through
-Mrs. Brennan's mind, and she was glad and thankful that she herself
-was about to be saved the trouble of writing to Miss Cooper.... Her
-hand was beginning to be quavery and incapable of writing a hard,
-vindictive letter. Besides that Mr. Shannon was an influential man in
-the district, and the Post Office was not above<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[Pg 68]</a></span> suspicion. She was
-thankful to Mrs. Brennan now, and said the tea was nice, very nice.</p>
-
-<p>Yet, immediately that the information, for which she had hungered since
-the rumor of Myles Shannon's marriage began to go the rounds, was in
-her keeping, Mrs. Brennan ceased to display any unusual interest in
-the old, bespectacled maid. Nor did the postmistress continue to be
-excited by the friendly presence of Mrs. Brennan, for she, on her part,
-was immensely pleased and considered that the afternoon had attained
-to a remarkable degree of success.... From what she had read of her
-productions passing through the post, she knew that Mrs. Brennan was
-the woman who could write the strong, poisonous letter. Besides, who
-had a better right to be writing it&mdash;about one of the Shannon family?</p>
-
-<p>Soon she was going out the door and down the white road towards
-Garradrimna.... Now wasn't Mrs. Brennan the anxious and the prompt
-woman; she would be writing to Miss Cooper this very evening?... As
-she went she met young couples on bicycles passing to distant places
-through the fragrant evening. The glamor of Romance seemed to hang
-around them.</p>
-
-<p>"Now isn't that the quare way for them to be spending the Sabbath?" she
-said to herself as she hobbled along.</p>
-
-<p>The Angelus was just beginning to ring out across the waving fields
-with its sweet, clear sound as Mrs. Brennan regained the sewing-room
-after having seen her visitor to the door, but, good woman though she
-was, she did not stop to answer its holy summons. Her mind was driving
-her relentlessly towards the achievement of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[Pg 69]</a></span> her intention. The pen
-was already in her hand, and she was beginning to scratch out "a full
-account," as she termed it, of Mr. Myles Shannon for the benefit of
-Miss Helena Cooper, whoever she might be. Through page after page she
-continued her attack while the fire of her hate was still burning
-brightly through her will.</p>
-
-<p>It had been her immemorial custom to send full accounts abroad whenever
-one of the valley dwellers made attempts at assertion, but not one of
-the Shannons had so far offered her such a golden opportunity. For the
-moment she was in her glory.</p>
-
-<p>She announced herself as a good friend of this girl, whose name she
-had only heard just now. She wrote that she would not like to see Miss
-Cooper deceived by a man she had no opportunity of knowing in his real
-character, such as Mr. Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>Now it was a fact that Myles, unlike his brother Henry, had not been
-a notable antagonist of the Commandments. It was true, of course,
-that he was not distinguished for the purity of his ways when he went
-adventuring about the bye-ways of Dublin after a day at the cattle
-market, and people from the valley, cropping up most unexpectedly, had
-witnessed some of his exploits and had sent magnified stories winging
-afar. But he had ruined no girl, and was even admirable in his habits
-when at home in his lonely house among the trees.</p>
-
-<p>This, however, was not the Mr. Shannon that Mrs. Brennan set down in
-her letter to Helena Cooper. It was rather the portrait of his brother
-Henry, the wild libertine, that she painted, for, in the high moments
-of her hate, she was as one blinded by the ecstasy that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[Pg 70]</a></span> had come upon
-her. The name of Shannon held for her only one significance, and, for
-the moment, it was an abysmal vision which dazzled her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Soon there came a communication from Miss Cooper to Mr. Shannon
-which had the effect of nipping his green romance while it was still
-young.... It asked him was this true and was that true?... The easy,
-sentimental way he had looked upon the matter was suddenly kindled
-into a deeper feeling, and he thought of having the girl now at all
-costs.... He wrote a fine reply in justification. It was a clear,
-straight piece of writing, and, although it pained him greatly, he was
-compelled to admit that the statements about which Miss Cooper wished
-to be satisfied were no more than the truth in relation to a certain
-member of the Shannon family. But they related to his dead brother
-Henry and not to him.... He prayed the forgiveness of forgetfulness
-for the dead.... He volunteered the production of convincing proof for
-every statement here made in regard to himself.</p>
-
-<p>But the old lady at the Post Office had something to say in the matter.
-She had read Miss Cooper's letter, and as she now read the letter of
-Mr. Shannon she knew that should it reach her this girl must be fully
-satisfied as to his character, for his was a fine piece of pleading....
-But she could not let Mrs. Brennan have all the secret satisfaction for
-the destruction of his love-affair. The bitter woman in the valley had
-done the ugly, obvious part of the work, but she was in a position to
-hurry it to secret, deadly completion.... So that evening the letter,
-which it had given Myles Shannon such torture to write, was burned at
-the fire in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_71" id="Page_71">[Pg 71]</a></span> kitchen behind the Post Office.... He wrote to Helena
-Cooper again and yet again, but the same thing happened.... His third
-letter had turned purely pathetic in its tone. The old lady said to
-herself that it made her laugh like anything.</p>
-
-<p>At last he fell to considering that her affection for him could not
-have been very deep seeing that she had allowed it to be so strongly
-influenced by some poisonous letter from an anonymous enemy.... Yet
-there were moments when he knew that he could never forget her nor
-escape, through all the years he might live, from the grand dream her
-first tenderness had raised up in his heart. In its immediate aspect
-he was a little angry that the rumor of a contemplated marriage on his
-part should have gone abroad. But he had almost triumphed over this
-slight feeling of annoyance when there came to him, some month later,
-the "account" that had been written about him to Miss Cooper without
-a word of comment enclosed.... The old lady at the office had seen to
-that, for the letter accompanying it as far as Garradrimna had gone the
-way of Mr. Shannon's letters.... This had made her laugh also with its
-note of wonder as to why he had made no attempt to explain.... If only
-he would say that the statements made against him were all mere lies.
-Of course she did not believe a word of them, but she wished him to say
-so in a letter to her.... The Post Office was saved from suspicion by
-this second bit of destruction, although it had done its work well.</p>
-
-<p>The bare, scurrilous note caused a blaze of indignation turning to
-hatred to take possession of his soul which had hitherto been largely
-distinguished by kindly<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_72" id="Page_72">[Pg 72]</a></span> influences. He had his suspicions at once that
-it was the work of Mrs. Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>There was a letter of hers locked in a bureau in the parlor with other
-things which had been the property of his dead brother Henry. They were
-all sad things which related intimately to the queer life he had led.
-This old faded letter from Nan Byrne was the one she had written asking
-him for Christ's sake to marry her, now that she felt her misfortune
-coming upon her.... A hard look came into his eyes as he began to
-compare the weak handwriting. Yes, it was hers surely, beyond a shadow
-of doubt.... He locked this thing which had so changed the course of
-his life with the things of his brother.</p>
-
-<p>It was queer, he thought, that she, of all people, who should be prone
-to silence, had thought fit, after the passage of so many years, to
-meddle with dead things in the hope of ending other dreams which,
-until now, had lived brightly. He continued to brood himself into
-bitter determinations. He resolved that, as no other girl had come
-greatly into his life before the coming of Helena Cooper, no other one
-must enter now that she was gone. She was gone, and must the final
-disaster of his affections narrow down to a mere piece of sentimental
-renunciation? Strange, contradictory attitudes built themselves up in
-his mind.</p>
-
-<p>Out of his brooding there grew before him the structure of a plan. This
-woman had besmirched his brother, helping him towards the destruction
-of his life, for it was in this light, as a brother, he had viewed the
-matter always; and now, in her attempt to besmirch<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_73" id="Page_73">[Pg 73]</a></span> himself, she had
-spoiled his dream. He had grown angry after the slow fashion which was
-the way of his thought, but his resolve was now sure and deliberate.</p>
-
-<p>There was her son! He had just gone to some kind of college in England
-to prepare for the priesthood, and the antecedents of a priest must be
-without blemish. It was not the youth's fault, but his mother was Nan
-Byrne, and some one must pay.... And why should she desire to bring
-punishment of any kind upon him for his brother's sin with her? He had
-loved his brother, and it was only natural to think that she loved her
-son. And through that love might come the desolation of her heart. To
-allow the blossom to brighten in her eye and then, suddenly, to wither
-it at a blast. To permit this John Brennan to approach the sacred
-portals of the priesthood and then to cause him to be cast adrift.</p>
-
-<p>The thought of how he might put a more delicate turn to the execution
-of his plan had come to him as he journeyed down from Dublin with John
-Brennan. He knew that his nephew, Ulick, had lived the rather reckless
-student life of Dublin. Just recently he had been drawing him out. But
-he was no weakling, and it was not possible that any of those ways
-might yet submerge him. However, his influence acting upon a weaker
-mind might have effect and produce again the degenerate that had not
-fully leaped to life in him. If he were brought into contact with John
-Brennan it might be the means of effecting, in a less direct way, the
-result which must be obtained.</p>
-
-<p>It was with this thought simmering in his brain that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_74" id="Page_74">[Pg 74]</a></span> Myles Shannon had
-invited John Brennan to the friendship and company of his nephew. When
-he had spoken of the Great War it was the condition of his own mind
-that had prompted the thought, for it was filled with the impulse of destruction.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_75" id="Page_75">[Pg 75]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2>
-
-<p>It is on his passage through the village of Garradrimna that we may
-most truly observe John Brennan, in sharp contrast with his dingy
-environment, as he goes to hear morning Mass at the instigation of
-his mother, whose pathetic fancy fails to picture him in any other
-connection. It is a beautiful morning, and the sun is already high.
-There is a clean freshness upon all things. The tall trees which form
-a redeeming background for the uneven line of the ugly houses on the
-western side of the street are flinging their rich raiment wildly
-upon the light breeze where it floats like the decorative garments of
-a ballet dancer. The light winds are whipping the lightness of the
-morning.</p>
-
-<p>The men of drink are already stirring about in anticipation.
-Hubert Manning is striking upon the door of Flynn's, the grocery
-establishment, which, in the heavy blindness of his thirst, he takes to
-be one of the seven publichouses of Garradrimna. He is running about
-like some purged sinner, losing patience at last hard by the Gate of
-Heaven. In the course of her inclusive chronicles his mother had told
-John Brennan the life history of Hubert Manning. For sixty odd years
-he had bent his body in hard battle with the clay, until the doubtful
-benefit of a legacy had come to change the current of his life. The
-fortune, with its sudden diversion towards idleness and enjoyment, had
-caused<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_76" id="Page_76">[Pg 76]</a></span> all the latent villainy of the man, which the soil had subdued,
-to burst forth with violence. He was now a drunken old cur whom
-Sergeant McGoldrick caused to spend a fortune in fines.</p>
-
-<p>"Just imagine the people who do be left the money!" said Mrs. Brennan,
-as she told the story.</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan passes on. He meets the bill-poster, Thomas James. His
-dark, red face displays an immense anxiety. He is going for his first
-pint with a pinch of salt held most carefully in his hand. His present
-condition is a fact to be deplored, for he was famous in his time and
-held the record in Garradrimna for fast drinking of a pint. He could
-drink twenty pints in a day. Hence his decline and the pinch of salt
-now held so carefully in his hand. This is to keep down the first pint,
-and if the operation be safely effected it is quite possible that the
-other nineteen will give him no trouble.</p>
-
-<p>Coming in the valley road are Shamesy Golliher and Martin Connell.
-In the distance they appear as small, shrinking figures, moving in
-abasement beneath the Gothic arches of the elms. They represent the
-advance guard of those who leave the sunlit fields on a summer morning
-to come into the dark, cavernous pubs of Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>On the side of the street, distant from that upon which John Brennan
-is walking, moves the famous figure of Padna Padna, slipping along
-like some spirit of discontent and immortal longing, doomed forever to
-wander. He mistakes the student for one of the priests and salutes him
-by tipping his great hat lightly with his little fore-finger.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_77" id="Page_77">[Pg 77]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>And here comes yet another, this one with speed and determination in
-his stride, for it is Anthony Shaughness, who has spent three-fourths
-of his life running away from Death.</p>
-
-<p>"Will you save a life; will you save a life?" he whispers wildly,
-clutching John by the arm. "I have a penny, but sure a penny is no
-good, sir; and I want tuppence-ha'penny to add to it for the price of a
-pint; but sure you won't mind when it's to save my life! I know you'll
-give it to me for the love of God!"</p>
-
-<p>This is a very well-known request in the mouth of Anthony Shaughness,
-and John Brennan has attended it so very often during the past few
-years as to deserve a medal for life-saving. Yet he now takes the
-coppers from his small store of pocket-money and gives them to the
-dipsomaniac, who moves rapidly in the direction of "The World's End."</p>
-
-<p>There is presently an exciting interlude. They are just opening up at
-Brannagan's as he goes past. The sleepy-looking barmaid has come to the
-newly-opened door, and makes an ungraceful gesture in gathering up her
-ugly dishevelled hair. A lout of a lad with a dirty cigarette in his
-mouth appears suddenly. They begin to grin at one another in foolish
-rapture, for it is a lovers' meeting. Through the doorway at which they
-stand the smell of stale porter is already assaulting the freshness
-of the morning. They enter the bar surreptitiously and John Brennan
-can hear the swish of a pint in the glass in which it is being filled.
-The usual morning gift, he thinks, with which this maiden favors this
-gallant lover of a new Romance.... There comes to him suddenly the idea
-that his name has been <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[Pg 78]</a></span>mentioned in this dark place just now.... He
-goes on walking quickly towards the chapel.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The plan which Myles Shannon had originated was not lacking in
-subtlety. He foresaw a certain clash of character, between his nephew
-and the son of Nan Byrne, which must become most interesting as he
-watched it out of his malevolence. He could never, never, forget what
-she had done.... And always, beyond the desolation which appeared from
-concentration of his revengeful intentions, he beheld the ruins of her
-son.</p>
-
-<p>He often thought it puzzling how she should never have imagined that
-some one like him might be tempted to do at some time what he was
-now about to do. It seemed remarkable beyond all else that her mind
-should possess such an opaque oneness of purpose, such an extraordinary
-"thickness," to use the term of the valley.</p>
-
-<p>Yet this was a quality peculiar to the gentle hush of the grassy
-places. It seemed to arise from the removal of an intelligent feeling
-of humanity from the conduct of life and the replacement of it by a
-spitefulness that killed and blinded. It was the explanation of many
-of the tragedies of the valley. Like a malignant wind, it warped the
-human growth within the valley's confines. It was what had happened to
-Mrs. Brennan and, because of the action he was taking in regard to her,
-what was now about to happen to Myles Shannon. He seemed to forget, as
-he went about his vengeance, that subtlety is akin to humor, and that
-humor, in its application to the satiric perception of things, is the
-quality which constantly heals the cut it has made. He might <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[Pg 79]</a></span>certainly
-leave the mark of his vengeance upon Mrs. Brennan, but there was the
-danger of the weapon recoiling upon himself and his kinsman. It was a
-horrible plan indeed, this, of setting one young man to ruin another.
-It was such a conflict, with such an anticipated ending, as had shaped
-itself inevitably out of the life of the valley. Where life was an
-endless battle of conflicting characters and antagonized dispositions
-it seemed particularly meet that a monumental conflict should at last
-have been instituted.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Ulick Shannon was finding the valley very little to his mind. But for
-the intervention of his uncle he was several times upon the point of
-returning to Dublin. Although it was for a rest he had come the place
-was too damnably dull. Garradrimna was an infernal hole! Yet he went
-there often, and it was remarkable that his uncle said never a word
-when he arrived home from the village, several nights, in a condition
-that was not one of absolute sobriety. On the contrary, he seemed to
-take a certain joyful interest in such happenings. His uncle often
-spoke of the young man, John Brennan, whom he desired him to meet, and
-it was surprising that this young man had not made the visit he had
-promised to the house among the trees.</p>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon was beginning to be annoyed by the appearance of this
-slight obstruction in the path of his plan. Had Mrs. Brennan forbidden
-the friendship he had proposed? It was very like her indeed, and of
-course she had her reasons.... But it would never do to let her triumph
-over him now, and he having such a lovely plan. He would go so far as
-to send his nephew<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[Pg 80]</a></span> to call at her house to make the acquaintance of
-Nan Byrne's son. It would be queer surely to see him calling at that
-house and inquiring for John Brennan when his father had gone there
-aforetime to see John Brennan's mother. But how was Ulick to know and
-view from such an angle this aspect of his existence?</p>
-
-<p>Yet, after all, the meeting of John Brennan and Ulick Shannon happened
-quite accidentally and upon such a morning as we have seen John in
-Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick had gone for a walk around that way before his breakfast. He was
-not feeling particularly well as he paused at the end of the valley
-road to survey the mean street of Garradrimna, down which he had
-marched last night with many a wild thought rushing into his mind as
-the place and the people fell far beneath his high gaze.</p>
-
-<p>His quick eye caught sight of something now which seemed a curiously
-striking piece in the drab mosaic of his morning. It was a little party
-of four going towards the chapel. The pair in front could possibly be
-none other than the bridegroom and his bride. It was easy to see that
-marriage was their purpose from the look of open rapture upon their
-faces. The bridesmaid and the best man were laughing and chatting gaily
-as they walked behind them. They seemed to be having the best of it.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick thought it interesting to see this pair moving eagerly towards
-a mysterious purpose.... He was struck by the fact that it was a most
-merciful thing that all men do not lift the veil of life so early as he
-had done.... The harsh, slight laugh which came<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[Pg 81]</a></span> from him was like the
-remembered laughter of a dead man.</p>
-
-<p>Now that his eyes were falling, with an unfilled look, upon the street
-along which the four had gone he began to see people who had been
-looking out move away from the squinting windows and a few seconds
-later come hurriedly out of their houses and go towards the chapel.</p>
-
-<p>The poor, self-conscious clod, who had dearly desired to marry the girl
-of his fancy quietly and with no prying eyes, amid the fragrance of
-the fine June morning, had, after all, succeeded only in drawing about
-him the leering attention of all the village. There were ever so many
-people going towards the chapel this morning. The lot was large enough
-to remind one of a Sunday congregation at either Mass, this black drove
-now moving up the laneway. Ulick Shannon went forward to join it.</p>
-
-<p>Coming near the chapel he encountered a young man in black, who wore
-the look of a student. This must be John Brennan, he thought, of whom
-his uncle had so repeatedly spoken. He turned and said:</p>
-
-<p>"Good morning! I'm Ulick Shannon, and I fancy you're Brennan, the chap
-my uncle has talked of so often. He has been expecting you to call at
-Scarden House."</p>
-
-<p>They shook hands.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I'm John Brennan, and I'm delighted to meet you. I have not
-forgotten your uncle's kind invitation."</p>
-
-<p>Together they entered the House of God.... Father O'Keeffe was already
-engaged in uniting the couple.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[Pg 82]</a></span> Distantly they could hear him mumbling
-the words of the ceremony.... All eyes were upon the priest and the
-four people at the altar.... Suddenly Ulick giggled openly, and John
-Brennan blushed in confusion, for this was irreverence such as he had
-never before experienced in the presence of sacred things.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[Pg 83]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER X</h2>
-
-<p>Next day Ulick Shannon made a call upon John Brennan and invited him
-for a drive. Outside upon the road Charlie Clarke's motor was snorting
-and humming. Ulick had learned to drive a car in Dublin, and had now
-hired Mr. Clarke's machine for the day.</p>
-
-<p>"You see," he said airily, "that I have dispensed with the
-sanctimonious Charlie and am driving myself. Meaning no respect to you,
-Brennan, one approach to a priest is as much as I can put up with at a
-time."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had come to the window, which looked out upon the little
-garden wicket by which they were standing.... Her eyes were dancing and
-wild thoughts were rushing into her mind.... Here, at last, was the
-achieved disaster and the sight her eyes had most dreaded to see&mdash;her
-son and the son of Henry Shannon talking together as brothers.</p>
-
-<p>An ache that was akin to hunger seemed to have suddenly attacked her.
-Her lips became parched and dry and her jaws went through the actions
-of swallowing although there was nothing in her mouth. Then she felt
-herself being altogether obliterated as she stood there by the window.
-She was like a wounded bird that had broken itself in an attempt to
-attain to the sunlight beyond.... And to think that it had fallen at
-last, this shadow of separation from her lovely son. John came to the
-door and called in:</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[Pg 84]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I'm going for a drive in the motor with Mr. Shannon, mother."</p>
-
-<p>These were his very words, and they caused her to move away towards
-the sewing-room with the big tears gathering into her eyes. From her
-seat she saw her son take up his proud position by the side of Ulick
-Shannon. There was something for you, now! Her son driving in a motor
-car with a young man who was going on to be a doctor, in the high noon
-of a working day, all down through the valley of Tullahanogue. If only
-it happened to be with any other one in the whole world. What would
-all the people say but what they must say?... She saw the two students
-laughing just before the car started as if some joke had suddenly
-leaped into being between them.</p>
-
-<p>Ned Brennan came into the room. He had been making an effort to do
-something in the garden when the car had distracted him from his task.
-Well, that was what you might call a grand thing! While he was here
-digging in his drought, his son, I thank ye, going off to drive in a
-motor with a kind of a gentleman. His mind went swiftly moving towards
-a white heat of temper which must be eventually cooled in the black
-pools of Garradrimna. He came into the room, a great blast of a man in
-his anger, his boots heavy with the clay of the garden.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, be the Holy Farmer! that's the grand turn-out!... But sure
-they're a kind of connections, don't you know, and I suppose 'tis only
-natural?"</p>
-
-<p>Great God! He had returned again to this, and to the words she feared
-most of all to hear falling from his mouth.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[Pg 85]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"A curious attraction, don't you know, that the breed of the Byrnes
-always had for the breed of the Shannons. Eh, Nan?"</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan said nothing. It had been the way with her that she felt
-a certain horror of Ned when he came to her in this state, but now she
-was being moved by a totally different feeling. She was not without a
-kind of pity for him as she suddenly realized once more how she had
-done him a terrible and enduring injury.... As he stood there glowering
-down upon her he was of immense bulk and significance. If he struck her
-now she would not mind in the least.</p>
-
-<p>"And they're like one another too, them two chaps, as like as brothers.
-And mebbe they are brothers. Eh, Nan, eh; what happened the child
-you had for Henry Shannon? It died, did it? Why 'tis only the other
-night that Larry Cully came at me again about it in Garradrimna. 'I
-see you have your sons home about you,' says he, 'and that must be
-the great comfort to a man, your son John,' says he, 'and your son
-Ulick. Maybe ye never heard tell,' says he, 'that Grace Gogarty's child
-died young and that Henry Shannon bought his other son from his other
-mother-in-law to prevent it being a rising disgrace to him. Bought it
-for a small sum,' says he, 'and put it in the place of his lawful son,
-and his wife never suspected anything until the day she died, poor
-woman; for she was to be pitied, having married such a blackguard.' Is
-that true, is it, Nan?"</p>
-
-<p>Oh, Blessed Mother! this was even more terrible than the suspicion
-Marse Prendergast had put upon her. It seemed less of a crime that
-the little innocent babe should<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[Pg 86]</a></span> have been murdered in this house
-and buried in the garden than that her old, dead mother should have
-sold it to Henry Shannon. And how was she to know? Twenty-five years
-had passed since that time when she had been at Death's door, nor
-realizing anything.... And her mother had never told her.... It would
-be strange if she had gone digging at any time for the tiny bones of
-the little infant that had never been baptized. People passing the
-road might suspect her purpose and say hard things.... But sure they
-said hard things of her still after all the years. It was dreadful to
-think how any one could concoct a lie like this, and that no one could
-forget. Old Marse Prendergast knew well. Deep in her wicked mind, for
-twenty-five years, the secret had been hidden. It was a torture to
-think of the way she would be hinting at it forever.... And just quite
-recently she had threatened to tell John.</p>
-
-<p>Bit by bit was being erected in her mind the terrible speculation as
-to what really was the truth and the full extent of her sin. Yet it
-was not a thing she could set about making inquiries after.... She
-wondered and wondered did Myles Shannon, the uncle of Ulick, know the
-full truth. Why did not her husband drop that grimy, powerful hand? Her
-breasts craved its blow now, even as they had yearned long ago for the
-fumbling of the little, blind mouth.</p>
-
-<p>But he was merely asking her for money to buy drink for himself in
-Garradrimna. Hitherto this request had always given her pain, but now,
-somehow, it came differently to her ears. There was no hesitation on
-her part, no making of excuses. She went upstairs to the box which held
-her most dear possession&mdash;the money she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[Pg 87]</a></span> had saved so well through all
-the years for the fitting-out of Ned to go proudly with her to attend
-the ordination of their son John. She opened the box with the air of
-one doing a deliberate thing. The money, which amounted in all to about
-five pounds, was still in the form in which she had managed to scrape
-it together. In notes and gold and silver, and even copper. Before this
-it would have appeared as a sacrilege on her part to have touched a
-penny of it, but now she had no thought of this kind. Ned wanted the
-money to purchase the means of forgetfulness of the great injury she
-had done him.</p>
-
-<p>She counted thirty pennies, one by one, into the pocket of her apron.
-This seemed the least suspicious way of giving it to him, for he had
-still no idea that she could have any little store laid by. It was
-hardly possible when one considered how much he drank upon her in the
-village.</p>
-
-<p>She came down the stairs in silence, and spoke no word to him as she
-handed over the money. His lips seemed to split into a sort of sneer
-as he took it from her. Then he went out the door quickly and down the
-white road toward Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">For the admiration and surprise of John Brennan, Ulick Shannon had
-been displaying his skill with the wheel. Soon the white, tidy houses
-beyond the valley were whizzing past and they were running down the
-easy road which led into the village of Ballinamult. They had moved in
-a continuous cloud of dust from Tullahanogue.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick said he was choked with dust as he brought the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[Pg 88]</a></span> car to a
-standstill outside the "North Leinster Arms." He marched deliberately
-into the public bar, and John Brennan followed after with less sure
-footsteps, for it was his first appearance in a place of this kind.
-There was a little, plump girl standing up on a chair rearranging the
-bottles of whiskey and dusting the shelves.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick would seem to have already visited this tavern, for he addressed
-the girl rather familiarly as "Mary Essie." She looked at the young
-man impudently as she wheeled around to exhibit herself to the best
-advantage. Ulick leaned his elbows upon the low counter and gazed
-towards her with his deep, dark eyes. Some quite unaccountable thing
-caused John Brennan to blush, but he noticed that the girl was not
-blushing. She was more brazenly forcing her body into exhibition.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick called for a drink, whatever his friend Brennan would have, and
-a bottle of Bass for himself. It appeared a little wrong to John that
-he should be about to partake of a drink in a pub., for the "North
-Leinster Arms" was nothing more than a sufficiently bad public-house.
-He had a sudden recollection of having once been given cakes and sweets
-in an evil-smelling tap-room one day he had gone with his mother
-long ago to Mullaghowen. He thought of the kind of wine he had been
-given that day and immediately the name was forced to his lips by the
-thought&mdash;"Port wine!"</p>
-
-<p>When the barmaid turned around to fill their drinks the young men had
-a view of the curves of her body. John Brennan was surprised to find
-himself dwelling upon them in the intense way of his friend.</p>
-
-<p>Before they left Ulick had many drinks of various kinds, and it was
-interesting to observe how he <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_89" id="Page_89">[Pg 89]</a></span>expanded with their influence. He began
-to tell "smutty" stories to Mary Essie. She listened with attention.
-No blush came into her face, and her glad neck looked brazen.... John
-Brennan felt himself swallowing great gulps of disgust.... His training
-had led him to associate the female form with the angelic form coming
-down from Heaven. Yet here was something utterly different.... A vulgar
-girl, with fat, round hands and big breasts, her lips red as a recent
-wound in soft flesh, and looking lonely.</p>
-
-<p>He was glad when they regained the sunlight, yet the day was of such
-a character as creates oppression by the very height of its splendor.
-Ulick was in such a mood for talk that they had almost forgotten the
-luncheon-basket at the back of the car.</p>
-
-<p>Beyond Ballinamult they stopped again where the ruins of a moldering
-Abbey lay quietly surrounded by a circle of furze-covered hills....
-Ulick expanded still further with the meal, yet his discourse still ran
-along the old trail. He was favoring his friend with a sketch of his
-life, and it seemed to be made up largely of the women he had known
-in Dublin. Quite suddenly he said what seemed to John a very terrible
-thing:</p>
-
-<p>"I have learned a lot from them, and let me tell you this&mdash;it has been
-my experience that you could not trust your own mother or the girl of
-your heart. They seem to lack control, even the control of religion.
-They do not realize religion at all. They are creatures of impulse."</p>
-
-<p>Here was a sentiment that questioned the very fact of existence....
-It seemed dreadful to connect the triumph of love and devotion that
-was his mother with this consequent suggestion of the failure of
-existence....<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_90" id="Page_90">[Pg 90]</a></span> Together they went across the grassy distance towards
-the crumbling ruin wherein the good monks of old had lived and prayed.
-And surely, he thought, the great spirit of holiness which had led
-men hither to spend their lives in penance and good works could not
-have departed finally from this quiet place, nor from the green fields
-beyond the rim of furze-covered hills.</p>
-
-<p>Yet upon his ears were falling the even, convincing tones of Ulick
-Shannon, still speaking cynically.</p>
-
-<p>"Behold," he was saying, "that it is to this place the younger
-generation throng on the Sabbath. Around you, upon the ruined and bare
-walls, you will observe not pious words, but the coupled names of those
-who have come here to sin."</p>
-
-<p>"And look at this!" he exclaimed, picking from a niche in the wall
-a long shin bone of one of the ancient monks, which possessed the
-reputed power of cures and miracles. For a moment he examined it with a
-professional eye, then handed it to John Brennan. There were two names
-scribbled upon it in pencil, and beneath them a lewd expression. Ulick
-had only laid hands upon it by the merest accident, but it immediately
-gave body to all the airy ideas he had been putting forth. There was
-something so greatly irreverent in the appearance of this accidental
-piece of evidence that no argument could be put forward against it. It
-was terrible and conclusive.</p>
-
-<p>The evening was far advanced when John Brennan returned home. His
-mother and father were seated in the kitchen. His father was drunk,
-and she was reading him a holy story, with an immeasurable feeling of
-despondence in her tones. John became aware of this as he entered the house.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_91" id="Page_91">[Pg 91]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XI</h2>
-
-<p>Rebecca Kerr had been ill for a few days and did not attend school
-until the Monday following her arrival in the valley. There she made
-the acquaintance of Mrs. Wyse, the principal of Tullahanogue Girls'
-School, and Monica McKeon, the assistant of Tullahanogue Boys' School.
-Mrs. Wyse was a woman who divided her energies between the education of
-other women's children and the production of children of her own. Year
-by year, and with her growing family, had her life narrowed down to
-the painful confines of its present condition. She had the reputation
-of being a hard mistress to the children and a harsh superior to
-her assistants. From the very first she seemed anxious to show her
-authority over Rebecca Kerr.</p>
-
-<p>In the forenoon of this day she was standing by her blackboard at the
-east end of the school, imparting some history to her most advanced
-class. Rebecca was at the opposite end teaching elementary arithmetic
-to the younger children when something in the would-be impressive
-seriousness of her principal's tone caused her to smile openly.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Wyse saw the smile, and it lit her anger. She called loudly:</p>
-
-<p>"Miss Kerr, are you quite sure that that exercise in simple addition is
-correct?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, perfectly certain, Mrs. Wyse."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_92" id="Page_92">[Pg 92]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The chalk had slipped upon the greasy blackboard, making a certain 5
-to appear as a 6 from the distance at which she stood, and it was into
-this accidental trap that Mrs. Wyse had fallen. Previous assistants
-had studied her ways and had given up the mistake of contradicting her
-even when she was obviously in the wrong. But this was such a straight
-issue, and Rebecca Kerr had had no opportunity of knowing her. She
-came down in a flaming temper from the rostrum. Rebecca awaited her
-near approach with a smiling and assured complacency which must have
-been maddening. But Mrs. Wyse was not one to admit a mistake. Quick as
-lightning she struck upon the complaint that the exercise was beyond
-the course of instruction scheduled for this particular standard....
-And here were the foundations of an enmity laid between these two
-women. They would not be friends in any fine way through the length of
-all the long days they might teach together.</p>
-
-<p>Thus for Rebecca the first day in the valley school dragged out its
-slow length and was dreary and dreadful until noon. Then Monica McKeon
-came in from the Boys' School and they took their luncheon together....
-They went on chattering away until the door of the schoolroom was
-suddenly darkened by the shadows of two men. The three women arose
-in confusion as Master Donnellan called them to the door. There was
-a young man standing outside who presented a strong contrast to
-the venerable figure of the master. The latter, in his roundabout,
-pedagogic way, went on to tell how the stranger had strayed into the
-school playground and made himself known. He wished to show him the
-whole of the building, and introduced him as "Mr. Ulick<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_93" id="Page_93">[Pg 93]</a></span> Shannon, Mr.
-Myles Shannon's nephew, you know."</p>
-
-<p>The three female teachers took an immediate mental note of the young
-man. They saw him as neat and well-dressed, with a half-thoughtful,
-half-reckless expression upon his fine face, with its deep-set,
-romantic eyes. The few words he spoke during the general introduction
-appeared to Rebecca to be in such a gentle voice. There were some
-moments of awkward silence. Then, between the five of them, they
-managed to say a few conventional things. All the while those great,
-deep eyes seemed to be set upon Rebecca, and she was experiencing the
-disquieting feeling that she had met him at some previous time in some
-other place in this wide world. The eyes of Monica McKeon were upon
-both of them in a way that seemed an attempt to search their minds for
-their thoughts of the moment.</p>
-
-<p>Immediately he was gone Mrs. Wyse and Miss McKeon fell to talking of
-him:</p>
-
-<p>"He's the hateful-looking thing; I'd hate him like poison," said Monica.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed what could he be and the kind of a father he had? Sure I
-remember him well, a quare character," said Mrs. Wyse.</p>
-
-<p>"I wonder what could have brought him around here to-day of all days
-since he came to Scarden?"</p>
-
-<p>This with her eyes set firmly upon Rebecca.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Wyse was not slow to pick up the insinuation.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, looking after fresh girls always, the same as his father."</p>
-
-<p>"He's not bad-looking."</p>
-
-<p>"No; but wouldn't you know well he has himself destroyed with the kind
-of life he lives up in Dublin?<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[Pg 94]</a></span> They say he's gone to the bad and that
-he'll never pass his exams."</p>
-
-<p>Every word of the conversation seemed to be spoken with the direct
-intention of attacking certain feelings which had already begun to rise
-in the breast of Rebecca Kerr.... Her mind was being held fast by the
-well-remembered spell of his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>The afternoon passed swiftly for Mrs. Wyse. She was so engrossed by
-thought of this small thing that had happened that she gave wrong dates
-in another history lesson, false notes in the music lesson, and more
-than one incorrect answer to simple sums in the arithmetic lesson.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca was glad when three o'clock and her freedom at last came. Out
-in the sunlight she would be able to indulge in certain realizations
-which were impossible of enjoyment here in this crowded schoolroom. The
-day was still enthroned beneath the azure dome. This was the period
-of its languorous yawn when it seemed to dream for a space and gather
-strength before it came down from its high place and went into the
-long, winding ways of evening.</p>
-
-<p>There were men engaged in raising sand from a pit by the roadside as
-she passed along. A pause in the ringing of their shovels made her
-conscious that they had stopped in their labor to gaze after her as she
-went.... Her neck was warm and blushing beneath the shadow of her hair.</p>
-
-<p>Her confusion extended to every portion of her body when she came upon
-Ulick Shannon around a bend of the road, book in hand, sauntering along.</p>
-
-<p>He saluted as she overtook him, and spoke of the <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[Pg 95]</a></span>pleasant
-afternoon.... She hoped he was enjoying his holidays here in the
-valley. He seemed to be spending the time very quietly. Reading?
-Poetry? Just fancy! <i>The Daffodil Fields</i>, by John Masefield. What a
-pretty name! Was he devoted to poetry, and was this particular poem a
-good one?</p>
-
-<p>"It is a great tale of love and passion that happened in one of the
-quiet places of the world," he told her with a kind of enthusiasm
-coming into his words for the first time.</p>
-
-<p>"One of the quiet places?" she murmured, evidently at a loss for
-something else to say.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, a quiet place which must have been like this place and yet, at
-the same time, most wonderfully different, for no poet at all could
-imagine any tale of love and passion springing from the life about us
-here. The people of the valley seem to have died before they were born.
-I will lend you this poem, if you'd care to have it."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, thank you, Mr. Shannon!" she said.</p>
-
-<p>They had wandered down a lane which led from the high road towards the
-peaceful fields beyond the little lake. This lane, he told her, was
-called "The Road of the Dead," and would afford her a short cut to her
-lodging at Sergeant McGoldrick's.</p>
-
-<p>For lack of anything else to say, she remarked upon the strangeness of
-this name&mdash;The Road of the Dead. He said it seemed a title particularly
-suitable. He went on to elaborate the idea he had just expressed:</p>
-
-<p>"Around and about here they are all dead&mdash;dead. No passion of any kind
-comes to light their existence. Their life is a thing done meanly,
-shudderingly within<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[Pg 96]</a></span> the shadow of the grave. That is how I have been
-seeing it for the past few weeks. They hate the occurrence of new
-people in their midst. They hate me already, and now they will hate
-you. The sight of us walking together like this must surely cause them
-to hate us still more."</p>
-
-<p>She was wondering that his words should hold a sense of consideration
-for her, seeing that they had been acquainted only such a short while.</p>
-
-<p>"This way leads from a graveyard to a graveyard, and they have a
-silly superstition that dead couples are sometimes seen walking
-here. Particularly dismal also do I consider this picture of their
-imagination. The idea of any one thinking us a dead couple!"</p>
-
-<p>As he said this her blushing cheek showed certainly that life was
-strong in her.... Upon the wings of his words grand thoughts had gone
-flying through her mind. All day she had been looking forward with
-dread to the yellow, sickly, sunlit time after school. And now to think
-that the miracle of this romantic young man had happened.... Both grew
-silent. Rebecca's eyes were filling with visions and wandering over a
-field of young green corn. They were dancing upon the waves of sunlight
-which shimmered over all the clean, feathery surface of the field. The
-eyes of Ulick were straying from the landscape and dwelling upon her
-deeply, upon the curves of her throat and bosom, and upon the gentle
-billows of her hair. Over all his face was clouding that mysterious,
-murky expression which had come as he gazed upon the little barmaid of
-the "North Leinster Arms" a few days previously.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[Pg 97]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XII</h2>
-
-<p>Rebecca wanted some light blouses. Those she possessed had survived
-through one summer, and it was all that could be expected of them. So
-one day she ran down to Brennan's, during the half hour allowed for
-recreation, to leave the order. When she entered the sewing-room Mrs.
-Brennan was busy at her machine. Her ever-tired eyes struggled into a
-beaming look upon Rebecca.</p>
-
-<p>The young girl, with her rich body, seemed to bring a clean freshness
-into the room. For a moment the heavy smell of the miscellaneous
-materials about her died down in the nostrils of Mrs. Brennan. But this
-might have arisen from a lapse of other faculties occasioned by her
-agreeable surprise. So here was the new teacher who had so recently
-occupied her tongue to such an extent. She now beheld her hungrily.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca laid her small parcel of muslin upon the table, and became
-seated at the request of Mrs. Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"That's the grand day, ma'am," said she.</p>
-
-<p>"'Tis the grand day indeed, miss," said Mrs. Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"Not nice, however, to be in a stuffy schoolroom."</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed you might swear that, especially in such a school as
-Tullahanogue, with a woman like Mrs. Wyse; she's the nice-looking
-article of a mistress!"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca almost bounded in her chair. She had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[Pg 98]</a></span> fancied Mrs. Brennan,
-from the nature of her occupation, as a gabster, but she had not
-reckoned upon such a sudden and emphatic confirmation of her notion.
-Immediately she tried to keep the conversation from taking this turn,
-which, in a way, might bring it to a personal issue. But Mrs. Brennan
-was not to be baulked of her opportunity.</p>
-
-<p>She began to favor her visitor with a biography of Mrs. Wyse. It was a
-comprehensive study, including all her aspects and phases. Her father
-and his exact character, and her mother and what she was. Her husband,
-and how the marriage had been arranged. How she had managed to gain her
-position. Everything was explained with a wealth of detail.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca out of the haze into which the garrulous recital had led her,
-spoke suddenly and reminded Mrs. Brennan of the passage of the half
-hour. Mrs. Brennan quickly fancied that the cause of the girl's lack of
-enthusiasm in this outpouring of information might have arisen from the
-fact that Mrs. Wyse had forestalled her with a previous attack. Thus,
-by a piece of swift transition, she must turn the light upon herself
-and upon the far, bright period of her young girlhood.</p>
-
-<p>Now maybe Miss Kerr would like to look through the album of photos upon
-the table. This was a usual extension of feminine curiosity.... Rebecca
-opened the heavy, embossed album and began to turn over the pages....
-There was a photo of a young girl near the beginning. She was of
-considerable beauty, even so far as could be discerned from this faded
-photo, taken in the early eighties. As Rebecca lingered over it, the
-face of Mrs. Brennan was lit by a sad smile.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[Pg 99]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"She was nice, and who might she have been?" said Rebecca.</p>
-
-<p>"That was me when I was little and innocent," said Mrs. Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca looked from Mrs. Brennan to the photo, and again from the photo
-to Mrs. Brennan. She found it difficult to believe that this young
-girl, with the long, brown hair and the look of pure innocence in the
-fine eyes, could be the faded, anxious, gossipy woman sitting here at
-her labor in this room.... She thought of the years before herself and
-of all the tragedy of womanhood.... There was silence between them for
-a space. Mrs. Brennan appeared as if she had been overpowered by some
-sad thought, for not a word fell from her as she began to untie the
-parcel of blouse material her customer had brought. There was no sound
-in the wide noontide stillness save the light fall of the album leaves
-as they were being turned.... Rebecca had paused again, and this time
-was studying the photos of two young men set in opposite pages. Both
-were arrayed in the fashions of 1890, and each had the same correct,
-stiff pose by an impossible-looking pedestal, upon which a French-gray
-globe reposed. But there was a great difference to be immediately
-observed as existing between the two men. One was handsome and of such
-a hearing as instantly appeals to feminine eyes. It was curious that
-they should have been placed in such contiguous contradistinction, for
-the other man seemed just the very opposite in every way to the one who
-was so handsome. It could not have been altogether by accident, was
-Rebecca's thought, and, with the intuition of a woman at work in her,
-she proceeded to lay the foundations of a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[Pg 100]</a></span> romance.... Mrs. Brennan was
-observing her closely, and it grew upon her that she had been destined
-to bare her soul to this girl in this moment.</p>
-
-<p>"That was the nice young man," said Rebecca, indicating the one who,
-despite his stiff pose by the pedestal, looked soldierly with his great
-mustache.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed he was all that," said Mrs. Brennan. "I met him when I was away
-off in England. He was a rich, grand young man, and as fond of me as
-the day was long; but he was a Protestant and fearful of his people to
-change his religion, and to be sure I could not change mine. For the
-sake of me holy religion I gave up all thoughts of him and married Ned
-Brennan, whose likeness you see on the other page."</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca lifted her eyes from the album and looked full at Mrs. Brennan.
-She wondered how much truth could be in this story. The dressmaker
-was a coarse woman and not at all out of place in this mean room. She
-imagined the heavy husband of her choice as a suitable mate for her.</p>
-
-<p>This sudden adoption of the attitude of a kind of martyr did not seem
-to fit well upon her. Rebecca could not so quickly imagine her as
-having done a noble and heroic thing for which she had not received
-sufficient beatification.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca was still turning the leaves. She had hurried through this
-little pageant of other generations, and was at the last pages. Now
-she was among people of the present, and her attention was no longer
-held by the peculiarities of the costumes.... Her mind was beginning to
-wander. Suddenly she was looking down upon a photo in the older style
-and the anachronism was <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[Pg 101]</a></span>startling. Had it been placed in any other
-portion of the album she might not have so particularly noticed it. It
-was the likeness of a dark, handsome man on horseback.</p>
-
-<p>"Who was he?" she said, almost unconsciously.</p>
-
-<p>A flush passed over the face of Mrs. Brennan, but she recovered herself
-by an effort. She smiled queerly through her confusion and said:</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed 'tis you who ought to know that."</p>
-
-<p>"How should I know?"&mdash;Rebecca was amazed.</p>
-
-<p>"Don't you know Ulick Shannon?"</p>
-
-<p>It was now Rebecca's turn to be confused.</p>
-
-<p>Fancy this woman knowing that she had been talking just once with Ulick
-Shannon.... Evidently the tongue of this place had already begun to
-curl around her.</p>
-
-<p>"But this is not Ulick Shannon!" She blushed as she found herself
-speaking his name.</p>
-
-<p>"No, but it is the photo of his dead father, Henry Shannon."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan heaved a great sigh as she said this. She rose from her
-seat by the machine and moved towards the place where Rebecca was
-bending over the album. She gazed down at the picture of the dead man
-with moist eyes.... There was silence between them now for what seemed
-a long time. Rebecca became alarmed as she thought that she might have
-overstayed the half hour. At the school the priest or the inspector
-might have called and found her absent from her post.</p>
-
-<p>She broke in abruptly upon Mrs. Brennan's fit of introspection, and
-gave a few hurried orders about the blouses.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[Pg 102]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Will you be giving me the making of your next new costume?" said Mrs.
-Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I'm sorry&mdash;I don't think so. You see I have it being made
-already in Dublin."</p>
-
-<p>"In Dublin itself? Well, well! that'll be the great style."</p>
-
-<p>She felt it as an affront to her reputation that any one who lived in
-the neighborhood should patronize other places for their needs. She
-took such doings as exhibitions of spite and malice against her. And,
-somehow, she could not get rid of the idea now, although this girl
-evidently knew nothing of her history.</p>
-
-<p>She was seeing Rebecca to the door when John Brennan came up the little
-path. She introduced him, and told how he was her son and, with vanity
-in her tones, that he was going to be a priest.</p>
-
-<p>"That'll give her something to think of, with her slighting me be
-telling how she was having her costume made be another. A woman that's
-going to have a son a priest ought to be good enough to make for her,
-and she a whipster that's after coming from God knows where."</p>
-
-<p>The mind of Mrs. Brennan was saying this to itself as she stood there
-at her own door gazing in pride upon her son. Rebecca Kerr was looking
-up into his face with a laugh in her eyes. He was such a nice young
-fellow, she was thinking. John Brennan was blushing in the presence of
-this girl and glancing shyly at her hair.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly she broke away from them with a laughing word upon her lips,
-ran out to the road, and down towards the school.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[Pg 103]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"She's a very nice girl, mother."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! indeed she's not much, John; and I knew well I wouldn't like her
-from the very first I heard tell of her coming."</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[Pg 104]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XIII</h2>
-
-<p>Large posters everywhere announced the holding of a concert in
-Garradrimna. As in many other aspects of life in the village, it was
-not given to John Brennan to see their full meaning. He had not even
-seen in Thomas James, who posted the bills, a symbolic figure, but only
-one whom disaster had overtaken through the pursuit of his passion. For
-many a year had Thomas James gone about in this way, foretelling some
-small event in the life of Garradrimna. Now it was a race-meeting or a
-circus, again an auction or a fair. All the while he had been slipping
-into his present condition, and herein lay the curious pathos of him.
-For he would never post like this the passing of his own life; he would
-never set up a poster of Eternity.</p>
-
-<p>It was curious to think of that, no poster at all of the exact moment
-amid the mass of Time when the Great White Angel would blow his blast
-upon the Shining Trumpet to awaken all Earth by its clear, wide ringing
-across the Seven Seas.</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan spoke to his mother of the concert.</p>
-
-<p>"The cheek of them I do declare, with their concert. People don't find
-it hard enough to get their money without giving it to them. Bits of
-shop-boys and shop-girls! But I suppose they want new clothes and
-costumes for the summer. I'll go bail you'll see them girls with new
-hats after this venture."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"The bills announce that it is for the Temperance Club funds."</p>
-
-<p>"And them's the quare funds, you might say, and the quare club. Young
-fellows and young girls meeting in the one room to get up plays. No
-good can come of it."</p>
-
-<p>"Of course we need not attend if we don't like."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, we must go all the same. If we didn't, 'tis what they would say
-mebbe that we hadn't the means, and so we must let them know that we
-have. It wouldn't be nice to see you away from it."</p>
-
-<p>"I have no desire to go, mother, I assure you. A quiet evening more or
-less will not matter."</p>
-
-<p>"But sure it'll be a bit of diversion and amusement."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, that is exactly what I was thinking, so I didn't see anything
-very wrong in going or in supporting those who organized it. But if you
-don't care to go, it does not matter."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, but wouldn't it be the quare thing to see your mother ignorant and
-not having a word to say about what was after passing to any one that
-would come in, and they knowing the whole thing? Now what you'll do for
-me, John, is this. You'll go into Phillips's this evening and get two
-of the most expensive tickets, one for yourself and one for me."</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan had a momentary realization of the pitiful vanity behind
-this speech. He remained thinking while she went upstairs for the price
-of the tickets, for that must be her object, he fancied, in ascending
-into the upper story. He could hear her moving a trunk and opening it.
-The sounds came to him with perfect clearness in the still room and
-struck him with a sense of their little mournfulness, even though he
-was quite<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</a></span> unaware that his mother had secretly begun the destruction
-of a bright portion of her life's dream.</p>
-
-<p>In the evening he went to the village for the tickets.</p>
-
-<p>"It'll be a grand turn-out," said Jimmy Phillips, as he took in the
-money and blinked in anticipation with his one eye.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm sure," said John, as he left the little shop where you might buy
-the daily newspaper and sweets and everything.</p>
-
-<p>He strolled up the street towards the old castle of the De Lacys. The
-local paper, published at Mullaghowen, was never tired of setting down
-its fame. The uncouth historians of the village had almost exhausted
-their adjectives in relating the exploits of this marauding baron of
-the Normans who had here built him a fortress, from which his companies
-of conquering freebooters had sallied forth so long ago. Yet, as an
-extraordinary mistake on the part of those who concerned themselves so
-intimately with the life around them, they had altogether missed the
-human side of the crumbling ruin. Of what romances of knighthood it
-had once been the scene? Of what visions of delight when fair women
-had met cuirassed gallants? Of all that pride which must have reared
-itself aloft in this place which was now the resort, by night, of the
-most humble creatures of the wild? Not one of them had ever been able
-to fancy the thoughts which must have filled the mind of Hugh De Lacy
-as he drew near this noble monument of his glory after some successful
-expedition against the chieftains of the Pale.</p>
-
-<p>Through the thin curtain of the twilight John Brennan saw two figures
-stealing from the labyrinthine ways<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</a></span> which led beneath the castle into
-what were known as "The Cells." These were dark, narrow places in which
-two together would be in close proximity, and it was out from them that
-this man and this woman were now stealing. He could not be certain of
-their identity, but they looked like two whom he knew.... And he had
-heard that Rebecca Kerr was going to sing at the concert, and also
-that Ulick Shannon was coaching the Garradrimna Dramatic Class in the
-play they were to produce, which was one he had seen at the Abbey
-Theater.... A curious thrill ran through him which was like a spasm of
-pain. Could it be this girl and this young man who had spoken with such
-disgusting intimacy of the female sex in the bar of the "North Leinster
-Arms" in Ballinamult ...? They went by a back way into the Club, where
-the rehearsals were now going forward.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">John Brennan was sitting stiffly beside his mother in the front
-seats. Around and about him were people of renowned respectability,
-who had also paid two shillings each for their tickets. The seven
-publicans of Garradrimna were there, some with their wives, some with
-their wives and daughters, and some with their wives and daughters
-and sisters-in-law. The Clerk of the Union continually adjusting and
-re-adjusting his lemon-colored gloves. The old bespectacled maid from
-the Post Office sitting near the gray, bullet-headed postmaster,
-whose apoplectic jowl was shining. They were keeping up a continual
-chatter and buzz and giggle before the rise of the curtain. The jaws
-of the ancient postmistress never ceased to work, and those hot words
-of criticism and scorn which did not sizzle outwardly<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</a></span> from her lips
-dropped inwardly to feed the fire of her mind, which was a volcano in
-perpetual eruption.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan sat in silence by the side of her son, in the pride of his
-presence, glad that he and she were here. She was as fine as any of
-them, for she kept fine raiment for such occasions. In the first place
-as an advertisement for her craft of dressmaker, and, secondly, to
-afford a cloak for her past, even as those among whom she sat cloaked
-their pasts in heavy garments of pride. Her attention was concentrated
-not so much upon the performance she was about to witness as upon the
-audience assembled to witness it. To her the audience was the concert,
-and, although she was speaking no word, she was as nervously observant
-as the old postmistress. She was concerned by the task before her, for
-would she not be in honor bound to "go over" all that passed to any one
-who might happen into the sewing-room next day, and lay everything bare
-with a searching and deadly analysis for her son John? Thus was she not
-distracted by the chattering and giggling, but perfectly at ease while
-her mind worked nimbly within the limits of its purpose.</p>
-
-<p>The mind of John Brennan was not enjoying the same contentment. He was
-a little excited by the presence of Rebecca Kerr on a seat adjacent.
-She had a place on the program, and was awaiting her time to appear.
-His eye was dwelling upon her hair, which lifted gracefully from her
-white neck in a smooth wave of gold. It was the fairest thing in this
-clouded place of human fumes, and the dear softness from which it
-sprang such a recess of beauty.</p>
-
-<p>The concert had at last begun. Harry Holton, the comic, was holding the
-stage and the audience was in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[Pg 109]</a></span> convulsions. Harry Holton was a distant
-disciple of Harry Lauder. Having heard the funny Scotchman upon the
-gramophone he rather fancied that it was he who should have been Harry
-Lauder. In course of time, he had grown to think that it was Lauder and
-not himself who was doing the impersonation. His effort to be broadly
-Scotch, while the marks of the son of Erin were so strong upon him, was
-where, all unseen, his power to move towards laughter really lay. Yet
-the audience rocked its sides in crude mirth at this crude exhibition,
-and each man asked his neighbor was it not the funniest damned thing?
-The seven sleek publicans of Garradrimna threatened to explode.... John
-Brennan saw big beads of perspiration rise upon the comedian's brow and
-gleam in the sickly glare of the lamplight. Beyond the excitement, from
-behind the scenes, came a new sound&mdash;the popping of a cork&mdash;and through
-a chink in the back cloth he saw Ulick Shannon take his drink from
-the bottle.... Had Rebecca Kerr seen that as well as he or&mdash;&mdash;. But
-his speculation was cut short by the exit of the comedian after many
-encores, amidst tumultuous applause.</p>
-
-<p>Next came Agnes McKeon, a near relation of Monica's and the
-schoolmistress of Ballinamult. Her big spectacles gave her the look of
-her profession, and although she sang well in a pleasing contralto, she
-appeared stiff and unalluring in her white dress, which was starched to
-a too strong resplendence. John heard two old maids with scraggy necks
-remarking, not upon the power of Miss McKeon's voice, but upon the
-extraordinary whiteness of her dress, and saying it was grand surely,
-but they anxiously wondered were all her garments as clean<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[Pg 110]</a></span> for they
-were ready to credit her with extreme slovenliness of habit.</p>
-
-<p>The play was the notable event of the evening. Although the work of a
-famous Abbey playwright, it had been evidently re-written for Harry
-Holton, who was the principal character. It was purely a Harry Holton
-show. Dramatic point and sequence were sacrificed to give scope to
-his renowned abilities. The other players would seem to have merged
-themselves to give him prominence. But the ladies had not merged their
-natural vanity. One in particular, who was supposed to represent an old
-woman of Ireland, wore an attractive dress which was in the prevailing
-fashion. It was the illiterate pronunciation of even the simplest words
-which chiefly amused John Brennan. Herein might be detected the touch
-of Ulick Shannon, who, in coaching the production, had evidently added
-this means of diversion for his own amusement. John fancied that his
-friend must be enjoying it hugely in there behind the scenes.</p>
-
-<p>When the play had been concluded by Harry Holton giving a few steps
-of a dance, John Brennan saw Rebecca moving towards the stage. He
-observed the light grace with which she went to the ordeal. Here was no
-self-consciousness, but instead that easy quietness which is a part of
-dignity.... It was Ulick Shannon who held aside the curtain allowing
-her to pass in upon the stage.</p>
-
-<p>"Well now, isn't that one the brazen thing?"</p>
-
-<p>This was the expression of opinion which came clearly from out the
-whispering and giggling. It was an unpardonable offense to appear in
-public like this without a certain obvious fluttering and fear which
-it was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[Pg 111]</a></span> one of Garradrimna's most notable powers to create. It was a
-great flout. Even his mother was moved to nudge him, so unusual was the
-method of this strange girl, appearing in public before the place into
-which she had come to earn a living.</p>
-
-<p>But she was singing. Rebecca Kerr was singing, and to John Brennan
-this was all he wished to know. He trembled as he listened and grew
-weary with delight. He became nervous, as before some unaccountable
-apprehension, and turned to his mother. She was looking quizzically
-at the girl on the stage. But the stage to him was now a sort of haze
-through which there moved ever little dancing specks.</p>
-
-<p>The concert was over and his mind had not yet returned to realization.
-Rebecca had not come from behind the scenes. He moved with his mother
-out into the night, and, as they went, glanced around the corner of the
-hall. He saw Rebecca Kerr and Ulick Shannon standing within the shadow
-of the surrounding wood. He spoke no word to his mother as they went
-down the road towards the house in the valley.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[Pg 112]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XIV</h2>
-
-<p>As if from the excitement of the concert, John Brennan felt weary next
-morning. He had been awake since early hours listening to the singing
-of the birds in all the trees near the house. The jolly sounds came to
-him as a great comfort. Consequently it was with an acute sensation
-of annoyance that there crowded in upon his sense of hearing little
-distracting noises. Now it was the heavy rumble of a cart, again
-the screech of a bicycle ridden by Farrell McGuinness on his way to
-Garradrimna for the letters of his rounds; and, continually, the hard
-rasp of nailed boots upon the gravel of the road.</p>
-
-<p>His mother was moving about in the sewing-room beneath. He could hear
-the noise made by her scissors as, from time to time, she laid it down
-and picked it up again, while, mingled with these actions, occasionally
-came up to him the little, unmusical song of the machine. His father
-was still snoring.</p>
-
-<p>Last night Rebecca Kerr had shone in his eyes.... But how exactly had
-she appeared before the eyes of Garradrimna and the valley? After what
-manner would she survive the strong blast of talk? The outlook of his
-mother would be representative of the feeling which had been created.
-Yet he felt that it would be repugnant to him to speak with his mother
-of Rebecca Kerr. There would be that faded woman, <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[Pg 113]</a></span>looking at him with
-a kind of loving anxiety which seemed always to have the effect of
-crushing him back relentlessly towards the realities of the valley and
-his own reality. After his thoughts of last night and this morning he
-hated to face his mother.</p>
-
-<p>When at last he went down into the room where she sat sewing he had
-such an unusual look in his eyes as seemed to require the solace of an
-incident to fill it. If he had expected to find a corresponding look
-upon his mother's face he was disappointed. It seemed to wear still the
-quizzical expression of last night, and a slight curl at the corners
-of her mouth told that her mind was being sped by some humorous or
-satirical impulse.</p>
-
-<p>"Whatever was the matter with you last night, John?" she asked.</p>
-
-<p>She did not give him time to frame an answer, but went on:</p>
-
-<p>"And I dying down dead to talk to you about the concert, I could not
-get you to speak one word to me and we coming home."</p>
-
-<p>He noticed that she was in good heart, and, although it was customary
-with him to be pleased to see his mother in a mood of gladness, he
-could not enter into laughter and gossip with her now.</p>
-
-<p>But she could not be silent. This small expedition into the outer world
-of passing events was now causing her mind to leap, with surprising
-agility, from topic to topic.... Yet what was striking John more than
-her talk, and with a more arresting realization, was, that although
-the hour of his Mass-going was imminent, she was not reminding him or
-urging him to remembrance<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[Pg 114]</a></span> of the good custom.... At last he was driven
-by some scruple to remind her of the time, and it was her answer that
-finally amazed him:</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, sure you mightn't go to-day, John. You're tired and all to that, I
-know, and I want to tell you.... He! he! he! Now wasn't it the funniest
-thing to see the schoolmistress of Ballinamult and the schoolmistress
-of Tullahanogue and they up upon the one stage with Harry Holton's
-dramatics making sport for a lot of grinning idiots? Like a couple of
-circus girls they were, the brazen things! Indeed Miss Kerr is the
-bold-looking hussy, with not a bit of shame in her at all. But sure
-we may say she fell among her equals, for there wasn't much class
-connected with it anyhow."</p>
-
-<p>"I think Ulick Shannon was knocking about the stage."</p>
-
-<p>The words strayed, without much sense of meaning or direction, out of
-the current of his musing, but they produced a swift and certain effect
-upon Mrs. Brennan. Her eyes seemed to cloud suddenly behind her glasses.</p>
-
-<p>"Aye ... I wonder who was the girl he went off with through the wood as
-we came out. Never fear it was the new schoolmistress."</p>
-
-<p>She said this with a curious, dead quietness in her tones, and when she
-had spoken she seemed instantly sorry that the words had slipped from
-her lips.... It seemed a queer thing to say to her son and he going on
-to be a priest.</p>
-
-<p>John thought it very strange that she too should have observed this
-incident, which he had imagined must have been hidden from all eyes
-save his own. He now wondered how many more must have seen it as he
-tried<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[Pg 115]</a></span> to recall the sensations with which it had filled him.... But
-beyond this remarkable endeavor of his mind his mother was again
-speaking:</p>
-
-<p>"If you went now, you'd be in time for half-past eight Mass."</p>
-
-<p>He did not fail to notice the immediate change which had taken place in
-her, and wondered momentarily what could have been its sudden cause.
-He was beginning to notice of late that she had grown more and more
-subject to such unaccountable fits.</p>
-
-<p>In his desire to obey her he was still strong, but, this morning, as he
-walked along to Garradrimna he was possessed by a certain feeling of
-annoyance which seemed to strain the bond that stretched between them.</p>
-
-<p>In the chapel he knelt beside Charlie Clarke, like the voteens around
-them, with a lifeless acquiescence in the ceremony. He was here not
-because his heart was here, but merely because his mother had wished
-it. When his lips moved, in mechanical mimicry of the priest, he felt
-that the way of the hypocrite must be hard and lonely.</p>
-
-<p>When he came out, upon the road he was confused to find himself face
-to face with Rebecca Kerr. It seemed a trick of coincidence that he
-should meet her now, for it had never happened on any other morning.
-Then he suddenly remembered how his mother had kept him late from
-"eight o'clock" by her talk of the concert, and it was now Miss Kerr's
-school-going time.... She smiled and spoke to him.</p>
-
-<p>She looked handsome as she moved there along the road from the house
-of Sergeant McGoldrick to the Girls' School of Tullahanogue. She was
-in harmony with the beauty of the morning. There had been a dull<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[Pg 116]</a></span> pain
-upon his mind since he had last seen her, but already it was gone.</p>
-
-<p>Although the concert might appear as the immediate subject to which
-their minds would turn, this was not so. They began to talk of places
-and things away from Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>She spun for his amusement many little yarns of the nuns who conducted
-the college where she had been trained. He told her stories of the
-priests who taught in the English college where he was being educated
-for the priesthood. They enlarged upon the peculiarities of monastic
-establishments.</p>
-
-<p>"And you're going to be a priest?" she said, looking up into his face
-suddenly with dancing eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Such a question had never before been put to him in exactly this way.</p>
-
-<p>"I am.... At least, I think so.... Oh, yes!" he faltered.</p>
-
-<p>She laughed in a ringing, musical way that seemed to hold just the
-faintest trace of mockery in its tones, but it seemed, next instant,
-to be only by way of preface to another conventual tale which she
-proceeded to tell.</p>
-
-<p>Through the period of this story they did not notice that they were
-being stared at by those they were meeting upon the road.... As she
-chatted and laughed, his eyes would be straying, in spite of him, to
-that soft place upon her neck from which her hair sprang upward.</p>
-
-<p>It was with painful abruptness that she said: "Good morning, Mr.
-Brennan!" and went into the old, barrack-like school.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[Pg 117]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XV</h2>
-
-<p>When John regained the house he saw that his father's boots had
-disappeared from their accustomed place beside the fire. No doubt he
-had gone away in them to Garradrimna. He had not met him on the road,
-but there was a short way across the fields and through the woods, a
-backward approach to three of the seven publichouses along which Ned
-Brennan, some rusty plumber's tool in his hand and his head downcast,
-might be seen passing on any day.</p>
-
-<p>He did not go straight into the sewing-room, for the door was closed
-and he could hear the low murmur of talk within. It must be some
-customer come to his mother, he thought, or else some one who had
-called in off the road to talk about the concert. Immediately he
-realized that he was wrong in both surmises, for it was the voice
-of Marse Prendergast raised in one of its renowned outbursts of
-supplication.</p>
-
-<p>"Now I suppose it's what you think that you're the quare, clever woman,
-Nan Byrne, with your refusing me continually of me little needs; but
-you'd never know what I'd be telling on you some day, and mebbe to your
-grand son John."</p>
-
-<p>"Sssh&mdash;sssh&mdash;sure I'll get it for you when he goes from the kitchen."</p>
-
-<p>This last was in a low tone and spoken by his mother.</p>
-
-<p>"Mebbe it's what you're ashamed to let him see you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[Pg 118]</a></span> giving to me.
-That's a grand thing now, and I knowing what I know!"</p>
-
-<p>"Can't you be easy now and maybe 'tis a whole shilling I'll be giving
-you in a few minutes."</p>
-
-<p>This was altogether too generous of his mother. It gave scope to Marse
-Prendergast to exercise her tyranny. Her threat was part of the begging
-convention she had framed for herself, and so it did not move him
-towards speculation or suspicion. His mind drifted on to the enjoyment
-of other thoughts, the girl he had just walked with down the valley,
-the remembered freshness of the morning road. He came out to the door.
-The little kitchen garden stretched away from his feet. An abandoned
-spade stood up lonely and erect in the middle of the cabbage-plot.
-Around it were a few square feet of freshly-turned earth. It was the
-solitary trace of his existence that his father had left behind.... As
-the mind of John Brennan came to dwell upon the lonely spectacle of the
-spade the need for physical exertion grew upon him.</p>
-
-<p>He went out into the little garden and lifted the rude implement of
-cultivation in his hand. He had not driven it many times into the soft
-clay of the cabbage-bed when a touch of peace seemed to fall upon him.
-The heavy burden that had occupied his mind was falling into the little
-trench that was being made by the spade.</p>
-
-<p>He had become so interested in his task that he had not heard his
-mother go upstairs nor seen Marse Prendergast emerge from the house
-some moments later.</p>
-
-<p>The old shuiler called out to him in her high, shrill voice:</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[Pg 119]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"That's right, John! That's right! 'Tis glad myself is to see you doing
-something useful at last. Digging the cabbage-plot, me sweet gosoon,
-and your father in Garradrimna be this time with his pint in his hand!"</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had followed her to the door, and her cruelty was stirred
-to give the sore cut by reviving the old dread.</p>
-
-<p>"That's the lad! That's the lad! But mind you don't dig too far, for
-you could never tell what you'd find. And indeed it would be the quare
-find you might say!"</p>
-
-<p>He laughed as she said this, for he remembered that, as a child she
-had entertained him with the strangest stories of leprecauns and their
-crocks of gold, which were hidden in every field. The old woman passed
-out on the road, and his mother came over to him with a pitiful look of
-sadness in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>"Now, John, I'm surprised at you to have a spade in your hand before
-Marse Prendergast and all. That's your father's work and not yours, and
-you with your grand education."</p>
-
-<p>The speech struck him as being rather painful to hear, and he felt as
-if he should like to say: "Well, what is good enough for my father
-ought to be good enough for me!" But this, to his mother, might have
-looked like a back-answer, a piece of impertinence, so he merely
-stammered in confusion: "Oh, sure I was only exercising and amusing
-myself. When this little bit is finished I'm going down to have a read
-by the lake."</p>
-
-<p>"That's right, John!" she said in a flat, sad voice, and turned back to
-her endless labor.</p>
-
-<p>He stopped, his hands folded on the handle-end of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[Pg 120]</a></span> spade, and fell
-into a condition of dulness which even the slightest labor of the body
-brings to those unaccustomed to it. All things grew so still of a
-sudden. There seemed to come a perfect lull in the throbbing, nervous
-realization of his brain from moment to moment.... He felt himself
-listening for the hum of his mother's machine, but it was another
-sound that came to him&mdash;the desolating sound of her lonely sobbing.
-She was crying to herself there now in the sewing-room and mourning
-forever as if for some lost thing.... There were her regular sobs,
-heavy with an eternal sadness as he listened to them. Into such acute
-self-consciousness had his mood now moved that he could not imagine
-her crying as being connected with anything beyond himself. He was
-the perpetual cause of all her pain.... If only she would allow him,
-for short spaces, to go out of her mind they might both come into the
-enjoyment of a certain freedom, but sometimes the most trivial incident
-seemed to put her out so. This morning she had been in such heart and
-humor, and last night so interested in the concert, and here now she
-was in tears. It could not have been the visit of Marse Prendergast
-or her talk, for there was nobody so foolish, he thought, as to take
-any notice of either. It must have been the digging and the fact that
-people passing the road might see him. Now was not that foolish of her,
-for did not Father O'Keeffe himself dig in his own garden with his own
-two blessed hands ...? But he must bend in obedience to her desire, and
-go walking like a leisured gentleman through the valley. He was looking
-forward to this with dread, for, inevitably, it must throw him back
-upon his own thoughts.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[Pg 121]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>As he came down past the school he could hear a dull drone from among
-the trees. The school had not yet settled down to the business of the
-day, and the scholars were busy with the preparation of their lessons.
-John stopped by the low wall, which separated its poor playground from
-the road, to gaze across at the hive of intellect. Curious that his
-mother should now possess a high contempt for this rude academy where
-he had been introduced to learning. But he had not yet parted company
-with his boyhood. He was remembering the companions of his schooldays
-and how this morning preparation had been such a torture. Still moving
-about the yard before his formal entrance to the school, was Master
-Donnellan. As John Brennan saw him now he appeared as one misunderstood
-by the people of the valley, and yet as one in whom the lamp of the
-intellect was set bright and high. But beyond this immediate thought
-of him he appeared as a man with overthrown ambitions and shattered
-dreams, whose occasional outbursts of temper for these reasons had
-often the effect of putting him at enmity with the parents of the
-children.</p>
-
-<p>Master Donnellan was a very slave of the ferrule. He had spent his
-brains in vain attempts to impart some knowledge to successive
-generations of dunces of the fields. It had been his ambition to be
-the means of producing some great man whose achievements in the world
-might be his monument of pride. But no pupil of his in the valley
-school had ever arisen as a great man. Many a time, in the long summer
-evenings, when the day would find it hard to disappear from Ireland,
-he would come quietly to the old school with a step of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[Pg 122]</a></span> reverence,
-and going into the moldy closet, where all the old roll-books and
-register-books were kept, take them down one by one and go searching
-through the lists of names. His mind would be filled with the ringing
-achievements of men who had become notable in the world.... Not a
-trace of any of those famous names could he find here, however far he
-might search in all the musty books until the day had faded.... Then
-he would rely upon his memory in a further aspect of his search. He
-had not even produced a local great man. In his time no priests had
-come out of the valley. There was a strange thing now&mdash;no priests, and
-it was a thing that was always said by angry mothers and fathers when
-they called at the valley school to attack him for his conduct towards
-their children&mdash;"And you never to have made a priest or a ha'porth!"
-It was not the unreasonableness of their words that annoyed him, but
-rather the sense of impotence with which they filled him.... If only it
-would happen that he could say he had produced one famous man. A priest
-would be sufficiently fine to justify him in the eyes of the valley. It
-was so strange that, although he had seen many young men move towards
-high attainment, some fatality had always happened to avert his poor
-triumph. He thought of young Brennan as his present hope and pride.</p>
-
-<p>John went on towards the lake. When he came to the water's edge he
-was filled with a sense of peace. He sat down beneath one of the fir
-trees and, in the idleness of his mood, began to pick up some of the
-old dried fir-cones which were fallen beneath. They appeared to him
-as things peculiarly bereft of any sap or life. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[Pg 123]</a></span> gathered until he
-had a handful and then cast them from him one by one on the surface of
-the water. It seemed a surprising thing that the small eddies which
-the light splashes of them made rolled distantly to the shores of the
-little lake. He began to wonder would his life come to be like that&mdash;a
-small thing to be flung by the Hand of Fate and creating its little
-ripple to eddy to the far shores of Time.</p>
-
-<p>"Me sound man, John!"</p>
-
-<p>It was the voice of Shamesy Golliher coming from behind a screen of
-reeds where he had been fishing.</p>
-
-<p>"'Tis a warm day," he said, pushing back his faded straw hat from his
-brow, "Glory be to the Son of God!"</p>
-
-<p>This was a pious exclamation, but the manner of its intonation seemed
-to make it comical for John Brennan laughed and Shamesy Golliher
-laughed.</p>
-
-<p>"Now isn't them the clever, infernal little gets of fishes? The divil
-a one can I catch only the size of pinkeens, and I wanting to go to
-Garradrimna with a hell of a thirst!"</p>
-
-<p>"And is that all you have troubling you?" said John.</p>
-
-<p>"Is that all? Begad if it isn't enough after last night. If the priests
-knew all the drink that bees drunk at concerts in aid of Temperance
-Halls you wouldn't see a building of that kind in the country.</p>
-
-<p>"Now down with me last night to the concert with me two lovely
-half-pints of malt. Well, to make a long story short, I finished one
-of them before I went in. I wasn't long inside, and I think it was
-while Harry Holton was singing, when who should give me a nudge only
-Hubert Manning: 'Are ye coming out, Shamesy?' says he. He had two
-bottles of stout and a naggin, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[Pg 124]</a></span> we had them finished before Harry
-Holton had done his first song. I was striving for to crush back into
-me place when who should I knock against only Farrell McGuinness?
-He had a lot of bottles in his pocket. He seemed to have about four
-dozen of stout on his person, according to the noise he made: 'For the
-honor of Jases,' says he, 'will you not spill me porter?' But then
-when he saw it was me he had in it: 'Come to hell oura this,' says he,
-'into the night air.' I was so glad to see that he hadn't broken his
-bottles, I introduced th'other half pint. Sure he nearly swallowed
-it, bottle and all. Then we fell to at the porter, and such a bloody
-piece of drinking never was seen. And it wasn't that we had plenty of
-drink of our own, but strange people were coming running through the
-wood putting half-pints and naggins into our mouths just as if we were
-little sucking childer. I fell a corpse under a tree about eleven. I
-don't know how long I was insensible, but when I came to I had a quare
-feeling that I was in Hell or some place. I wasn't able to move an
-inch, I was that stiff and sick.... Somewhere near me I could hear two
-whispering and hugging in the darkness. They were as close as ever they
-could be. I couldn't stir to get a better look for fear they'd hear me.
-But there was quare goings on I can tell you, things I wouldn't like to
-mention or describe. Whisper, I'm near sure it was Ulick Shannon and
-the schoolmistress, Miss Kerr, or whatever the hell her name is&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>Shamesy's sickening realism was brought to an abrupt end by the ducking
-of his cork, which had been floating upon the surface of the water.
-There was a short moment of joyous excitement and then a dying<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[Pg 125]</a></span> perch
-lay on the grass by the side of John Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>He viewed with sorrow that clean, shining thing wriggling there beneath
-the high heavens. Its end had come through the same pitiful certainty
-as that of the rabbits which had aforetime contributed to the thirst of
-Shamesy, who presently said with delight:</p>
-
-<p>"Now I have the correct number. I can sell them for sixpence in 'The
-World's End,' and you'd never know the amount of good drink that
-sixpence might bring."</p>
-
-<p>He prepared to take his departure, but ere he went across the hill he
-turned to John and said:</p>
-
-<p>"That was the fine walk you were doing with Ulick Shannon's girl this
-morning! She was in great form after last night."</p>
-
-<p>He said it with such a leer of suggestion as cast John, still blushing,
-back into his gloom.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[Pg 126]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XVI</h2>
-
-<p>Last night and this morning, what Shamesy Golliher had told him of
-last night and said of the walk with Rebecca this morning&mdash;all this
-was now recurring clearly to his mind, although Shamesy had long since
-disappeared across the sweep of the hill on his way to Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had so recently reminded her son of his coming exaltation
-that the suggestion was now compelling him beyond the battle of his
-thought to picture himself as a priest ordained. Yet an immense gulf of
-difference still separated him from the condition of Father O'Keeffe,
-for instance. His thought had been further helped to move this way by
-the sudden appearance of Father O'Keeffe riding along The Road of the Dead.</p>
-
-<p>John did not see the man as he really was. Yet it was the full reality
-of him that was exercising a subconscious influence upon his mind and
-helping, with other things, to turn his heart away from the priesthood.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Father O'Keeffe came directly from that class so important in
-Ireland&mdash;the division of the farmer class which has come to be known as
-"The Grabbers." The word "grabber" had not been invented to describe a
-new class, but rather to denote the remarkable character<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[Pg 127]</a></span> of a class
-already in existence. That was their innermost nature, these farmers,
-to be close-fisted and to guard with an almost savage tenacity those
-possessions to which they had already attained. It was notable also
-that they were not too careful or particular as to the means they
-employed to come into possession. This was the full answer to the
-question why so many of them put a son on for the Church. It was a
-double reason, to afford a means of acquiring still further and to be
-as an atonement in the sight of Heaven for the means they had used in
-acquiring thus far. This at once appeared amazingly true if one applied
-it to the case of Father O'Keeffe, who could on occasion put on such a
-look of remoteness from this world, that it was difficult to set about
-analyzing him by any earthly standard. Yet, among all the <i>pedigrees</i>
-she had read for him, as a notable example in Mrs. Brennan's crowd
-of examples, had continually appeared and re-appeared this family of
-O'Keeffe. His mother had always endeavored to fix firmly in his mind
-the wonder of their uprise. It was through the gates of the Church
-that the O'Keeffes had gone to their enjoyment. No doubt they had
-denied themselves to educate this Louis O'Keeffe who had become P.P. of
-Garradrimna, but their return had been more than satisfying. There was
-now no relation of his to the most distant degree of blood who did not
-possess great comfort and security in the land.</p>
-
-<p>At bottom Father O'Keeffe was still a man of the clay and loved the
-rich grass and the fine cattle it produced. He had cattle in every
-quarter of the parish. Men bought them and saw to their fattening
-and sold them for him, even going so far as adding the money<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[Pg 128]</a></span> to
-his account in the bank. He had most discreetly used a seeming
-unworldliness to screen his advance upon the ramparts of Mammon. Citing
-the examples of Scripture, he consorted with notable, though suddenly
-converted, sinners, and, when some critic from among the common people
-was moved to speak his mind as one of the converted sinners performed
-a particularly unscrupulous stroke of business, he was immediately
-silenced by the unassailable spectacle of his parish priest walking
-hand in hand with the man whose actions he was daring to question. The
-combination was of mutual benefit; the gombeen man, the auctioneer and
-the publican were enabled to proceed with their swindle of the poor by
-maintaining his boon companionship.</p>
-
-<p>Thus, while publicly preaching the admonishing text of the camel and
-the rich man and the needle's eye, Father O'Keeffe was privately
-engaged in putting himself in such a condition that the task of
-negotiating the needle's eye might be as difficult to him as the camel.
-He went daily for a walk, reading his office, and returned anxiously
-scanning stock exchange quotations and letters from cattle salesmen in
-Dublin. But in spite of this he was a sportsman, and thought nothing of
-risking a ten-pound note upon a horse or a night's card-play.</p>
-
-<p>When he first came to the parish his inclinations were quickly
-determined. In the whirl of other interests cards had fallen into
-disuse in Garradrimna. They had come to be considered old-fashioned,
-but now suddenly they became "all the rage." Old card-tables were
-rediscovered and renewed, and it was said that Tommy Williams was
-compelled to order several gross of <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[Pg 129]</a></span>playing cars&mdash;for, what the
-"elite" of the parish did, the "commonality" must needs follow and do.
-Thus was a public advantage of doubtful benefit created; for laboring
-men were known to lose their week's wages to the distress of their
-wives and children.... At the "gorgeous card-plays" never an eyelid was
-lifted when Father O'Keeffe "renayged."</p>
-
-<p>These took place in the houses of shopkeepers and strong farmers, and
-were cultivated to a point of excessive brilliance. Ancient antagonists
-of the tongue met upon this new field, and strategic attempts were made
-to snatch Father O'Keeffe as a prize of battle. Thus was an extravagant
-sense of his value at once created and, as in all such cases, the worst
-qualities of the man came to be developed. His natural snobbishness,
-for one thing, which led him to associate a great deal with the gilded
-youth of Garradrimna&mdash;officials of the Union and people of that kind
-who had got their positions through every effort of bribery and
-corruption. At athletic sports or coursing matches you would see him
-among a group of them, while they smoked stinking "Egyptian" cigarettes
-up into his face.</p>
-
-<p>Yet it must not be thought that Father O'Keeffe neglected the ladies.
-In evenings in the village he might be seen standing outside the worn
-drapery counters back-biting between grins and giggles with the women
-of the shops. This curious way of spending the time had once led an
-irreverent American to describe him as "the flirtatious shop-boy of
-Garradrimna."</p>
-
-<p>His interest in the female sex often led him upon expeditions beyond
-the village. Many a time he might be seen riding his old, fat, white
-horse, so strangely named,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[Pg 130]</a></span> "King Billy," down some rutted boreen on
-the way to a farmer's house where there were big daughters with weighty
-fortunes. Those were match-making expeditions when he had come to tell
-them of his brother Robert O'Keeffe and his broad acres.... While "King
-Billy" was comforting himself with a plentiful feed of oats, he would
-be sitting in the musty parlor with the girl and her mother, taking
-wine and smoking cigars, which were kept in every house since it had
-come to be known that Father O'Keeffe was fond of them. He generally
-smoked a good few at a sitting, and those he did not consume he carried
-away in his pocket for future use in his den at the Presbytery.</p>
-
-<p>"Isn't Father O'Keeffe, God bless him, the walking terror for cigars?"
-was all the comment ever made upon this extraordinary habit.</p>
-
-<p>Robert O'Keeffe, in the intentions of his brother, was a much-married
-man, for there was not a house in the parish holding a marriageable
-girl into which Father O'Keeffe had not gone to get him a match. He had
-enlarged upon the excellence of his brother, upon his manners and ways
-and the breadth of his fields.</p>
-
-<p>"He's the grand, fine man, is Robert," he would say, by way of giving a
-final touch to the picture.</p>
-
-<p>Upon those whose social standing was not a thing of any great certitude
-this had always a marked effect towards their own advantage and that
-of Father O'Keeffe. It gave them a certain pride in their own worth to
-have a priest calling attentively at the house and offering his brother
-in marriage. It would be a gorgeous thing to be married to a priest's
-brother, and have your brother-in-law with power in his hands to help
-you out of many<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[Pg 131]</a></span> a difficulty. He never inquired after the cattle their
-fathers were grazing free of charge for him until he would be leaving
-the house.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">John Brennan followed the black figure upon the white horse down all
-The Road of the Dead until Father O'Keeffe had disappeared among the
-trees which surrounded the Schools of Tullahanogue, where he was making a call.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[Pg 132]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XVII</h2>
-
-<p>John now saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him across the Hill of Annus.
-It was strange that he should be appearing now whose presence had just
-been created by the Rabelaisian recital of Shamesy Golliher. As he
-came along boldly his eyes roamed cheerfully over the blue expanse of
-water and seemed to catch something there which moved him to joyous
-whistling. John Brennan felt a certain amount of reserve spring up
-between them as they shook hands.... For a moment that seemed to
-lengthen out interminably the two young men were silent. The lake was
-without a ripple in the intense calm of the summer day.... Suddenly it
-reflected the movement of them walking away, arm in arm, towards the
-village.</p>
-
-<p>It was high noontide when they reached Garradrimna. The Angelus was
-ringing. Men had turned them from their various occupations to bend
-down for a space in prayer. The drunkards had put away the pints from
-their mouths in reverence. The seven sleek publicans were coming to
-their doors with their hats in their hands, beating their breasts in
-a frenzy of zeal and genuflecting. Yet, upon the appearance of the
-students, a different excitement leaped up to animate them. They began
-to hurry their prayers, the words becoming jumbled pell mell in their
-mouths as they cleared a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[Pg 133]</a></span> way for their tongues to say to one another
-the thing they wanted to say of the two young men.</p>
-
-<p>By their God, there was John Brennan and Ulick Shannon coming into
-Garradrimna in the middle of the day. To drink, they at once supposed.
-Their tongues had been finding fine exercise upon Ulick Shannon for
-a considerable time, but it was certainly a comfort to have the same
-to say of John Brennan. A clerical student coming up the street with
-a Dublin scamp. That was a grand how-d'ye-do! But sure they supposed,
-by their God again, that it was only what she deserved (they were
-referring to Mrs. Brennan).</p>
-
-<p>Her mention at once brought recollection of her story, and it came to
-be discussed there in the heat of the day until the lonely woman, who
-was still crying probably as she sat working by her machine in the
-little house in the valley, became as a corpse while the vultures of
-Garradrimna circled round it flapping great wings in glee.</p>
-
-<p>The students strode on, reciting the Angelus beneath their breaths with
-a devotion that did not presently give place to any worldly anxiety.
-They were doing many things now, as if they formed a new personality
-in which the will and the inclination of each were merged. They turned
-into McDermott's, and it seemed their collective intention from the
-direction they took upon entering the shop to take refuge in the
-retirement of the particular portion known as Connellan's office. It
-was the place where Mick Connellan, the local auctioneer, transacted
-business on Fridays. On all other days it was considered the more
-select and secluded portion of this publichouse. But when they entered
-it was <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[Pg 134]</a></span>occupied. Padna Padna, the ancient drunkard, was sitting by the
-empty grate poking the few drawn corks in it as if they were coals. He
-was speaking to himself in mournful jeremiads, and after the fashion of
-one upon whom a great sorrow has fallen down.</p>
-
-<p>"Now what the hell does he want with his mission, and it too good we
-are? A mission, indeed, for to make us pay him money every night, and
-the cosht of everything, drink and everything. He, he, he! To pay the
-price of a drink every night to hear the missioners denounce drink. Now
-that's the quarest thing ever any one heard. To go pay the price of
-a drink for hearing a man that doesn't even know the taste of it say
-that drink is not good for the human soul. Begad Father O'Keeffe is the
-funny man!"</p>
-
-<p>After this fashion did Padna Padna run on in soliloquy. He had seen
-many a mission come to bring, in the words of the good missioners, "a
-superabundance of grace to the parish," and seen it go without bringing
-any appreciable addition of grace to him or any change in his way of
-life. It seemed a pity that his tradition had set Padna Padna down as
-a Christian, and would not allow him to live his life upon Pagan lines
-and in peace. The struggle which continually held occupation of his
-mind was one between Christian principles and Pagan inclinations. He
-now began whispering to himself&mdash;"The Book of God! The Book of God! A
-fellow's name bees written in the Book of God!" ... So absorbed was he
-in his immense meditation that he had hardly noticed the entry of the
-students. But as he became aware of their presence he stumbled to his
-feet and gripping John Brennan by the arm whispered<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[Pg 135]</a></span> tensely: "Isn't
-that a fact, young fellow, that one's name bees down there always, and
-what one does, and that it's never blotted out?"</p>
-
-<p>"It is thus we are told," said John, speaking dogmatically and as if he
-were repeating a line out of the Bible.</p>
-
-<p>Padna Padna, as he heard these words and recognized the voice of
-their speaker, put on what was really his most gruesome expression.
-He stripped his shrunken gums in a ghastly little smile, and a queer
-"Tee-Hee!" issued from his furrowed throat.... Momentarily his concern
-for Eternity was forgotten in a more immediate urgency of this world.
-He gripped John still more tightly and in a higher whisper said: "Are
-ye able to stand?"</p>
-
-<p>It was a strange anti-climax and at once betrayed his sudden descent
-in the character of his meditation, from thinking of what the Angel
-had written of him to his immortal longing for what had determined the
-character of that record regarding immortality.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I'll stand," said Ulick, breaking in upon John Brennan's reply to
-Padna Padna and pushing the bell.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. McDermott himself, half drunk and smelling of bad whiskey, came in
-and soon the drinks were before them. New life seemed to come pushing
-into the ancient man as he took his "half one." He looked up in blind
-thankfulness into their faces, his eyes running water and his mouth
-dribbling like that of a young child.... His inclinations were again
-becoming rapidly Pagan.... From smiling dumbly he began to screech with
-laughter, and moved from the room slowly tapping his way with his short
-stick.... He was going forth to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[Pg 136]</a></span> fresh adventures. Spurred on by this
-slight addition of drink he would be encouraged to enter the other six
-publichouses of Garradrimna, and no man could tell upon what luck he
-might happen to fall. So fortunate might his half-dozen expeditions
-prove that he would probably return to the house of the good woman who
-was his guardian, led by Shamesy Golliher, or some other one he would
-strike up with in the last dark pub, as if he were a toddling infant
-babbling foolish nonsense about all the gay delights which had been his
-of old. The mad drives from distant villages upon his outside car, his
-passengers in the same condition as himself&mdash;a state of the wildest
-abandon, and dwelling exultingly in that moment wherein they might make
-fitting models for a picture by Jack B. Yeats.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick and John were now alone. The day outside was hot and still upon
-the dusty street, but this office of Connellan's was a cool place like
-some old cellar full of forgotten summers half asleep in wine.... They
-were entering still deeper into the mood of one another.... Ulick had
-closed the door when Padna Padna had passed through, tapping blindly
-as he moved towards the far places of the village. He would seem to
-have gone for no other purpose than to publish broadcast the presence
-of Ulick Shannon and John Brennan together in McDermott's, and they
-drinking. For now the door of Connellan's office was being opened and
-closed every few minutes. People were calling upon the pretense of
-looking for other people, and going away leaving the door open wide
-behind them so that some others might come also and see for themselves
-the wonderful thing that was happening.... Padna Padna was having such
-a time<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[Pg 137]</a></span> as compared favorably with the high times of old. A "half-one"
-of malt from every man he brought to see the sight was by no means
-a small reward. And so he was coming and going past the door like a
-sentry on guard of some great treasure which increased in value from
-moment to moment. He was blowing upon his fingers and tapping his lips
-and giggling and screeching with merriment down in his shivering frame.</p>
-
-<p>And most wonderful of all, the two young men who were creating all
-this excitement were quite unconscious of it.... They were talking a
-great deal, but each, as it were, from behind the barricade of his
-personality, for each was now beginning for the first time to notice
-a peculiar thing. They were discovering that their personalities were
-complementary. John lacked the gift, which was Ulick's, of stating
-things brilliantly out of life and experience and the views of those
-modern authors whom he admired. On the other hand, he seemed to possess
-a deeper sense of the relative realities of certain things, a faculty
-which sprang out of his ecclesiastical training and which held no
-meaning for Ulick, who spoke mockingly of such things. Ulick skimmed
-lightly over the surface of life in discussing it; John was inclined to
-plow deeply.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly a desire fell upon John to hear Ulick discuss again those
-matters he had talked of at the "North Leinster Arms" in Ballinamult.
-It was very curious that this should be the nature of his thoughts
-now, this inclination towards things which from him should always
-have remained far distant and unknown.... But it may have been that
-some subtle impulse had stirred in him, and that he now wished to
-see whether the <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[Pg 138]</a></span>outlook of Ulick had changed in any way through his
-rumored friendship with Rebecca Kerr. Would it be a cleaner thing and
-purified through power of that girl? He fondly fancied that no thought
-at all could be soiled within the splendid precinct of her presence.</p>
-
-<p>Josie Guinan, the new barmaid of McDermott's, came in to attend them
-with other and other drinks. Her bosom was attractive and ample,
-although her hair was still down upon her back in rich brown plaits....
-She dallied languorously within the presence of the two young men....
-Ulick began to tell some of the stories he had told to Mary Essie, and
-she stood even as brazenly enjoying them with her back to the door
-closed behind her. Then the two came together and whispered something,
-and a vulgar giggle sprang up between them.</p>
-
-<p>And to think that this was the man to whom Rebecca Kerr might be giving
-the love of her heart.... If John had seen as much of life as the other
-he would have known that Ulick was the very kind of man who, at all
-times, has most strongly appealed to women. Yet it was in this moment
-and in this place that he fell in love with Rebecca.... He became
-possessed of an infinite willingness to serve and protect her, and it
-was upon the strength of his desire that he arose.</p>
-
-<p>Through all this secret, noble passage, Ulick remained laughing as at
-some great joke. He, too, was coming into possession of a new joy, for
-he was beginning to glimpse the conflagration of another's soul. Out
-of sheer devilment, and in conspiracy with Josie Guinan, he had caused
-John Brennan's drink, the small, mild measure of port wine, to be dosed
-with flaming whiskey. Even the wine in the frequency of its repetition
-had already<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[Pg 139]</a></span> been getting the better of him. They had been hours
-sitting here, and outside the day was fading.</p>
-
-<p>John began to stutter now in the impotence of degradation which was
-upon him. His thoughts were all burning into one blazing thought. The
-small room seemed suddenly to cramp and confine his spirit as if it
-were a prison cell.... And Ulick was still smiling that queer smile of
-his with his thick red lips and sunken eyes.</p>
-
-<p>He sprang towards the door and, turning the handle, rushed out into the
-air.... Soon he was fleeing as if from some Unknown Force, staggering
-between the rows of the elms which stretched all along the road into
-the valley. It had rained a shower and the strong, young leaves held
-each its burden of pearly drops. A light wind now stirred them and like
-an aspergillus they flung a blessing down upon him as he passed. And
-ever did he mutter her name to himself as he stumbled on:</p>
-
-<p>"Rebecca Kerr, Rebecca Kerr, I love you, Rebecca, I love you surely!
-Oh, my dear Rebecca!"</p>
-
-<p>She was moving before him, with her hair all shining through the
-twilight.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, dear Rebecca! I love you! Oh, my dear!"</p>
-
-<p>He turned The Road of the Dead and down by the lake, where he lay
-in the quiet spot from which Ulick Shannon had taken him away to
-Garradrimna. There he remained until far on in the evening, when his
-mother, concerned for his welfare, came to look for him. She found him
-sleeping by the lake.</p>
-
-<p>She had no notion of how he had passed the evening. Her imagination
-was, after all, only a very small thing and worked rigorously within
-the romantic confines of the holy stories which were her continual
-reading.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[Pg 140]</a></span> When she had awakened him she asked a characteristic question:</p>
-
-<p>"And I suppose, John, you're after seeing visions and things have
-appeared to you?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, mother, I have seen a vision, I think," he said, as he opened
-his eyes and blinked stupidly at the lake. He was still midway between
-two conditions, but he was not noticeable to her, who could not have
-imagined the like.</p>
-
-<p>These were the only words he spoke to her before he went to bed.</p>
-
-<p>Back in McDermott's a great crowd thronged the public bar. Every man
-seemed to be in high glee and a hum of jubilation hung low between
-them. A momentous thing had happened, and it was of this great event
-they were talking. <i>John Brennan had left the house and he was
-reeling.</i> Men from the valley foregathered in one group and, as each
-new-comer arrived, the news was re-broken. It was about the best thing
-that had ever happened. The sudden enrichment of any of their number
-could not have been half so welcome in its importance.</p>
-
-<p>Padna Padna and Shamesy Golliher were standing in one corner taking sup
-for sup.</p>
-
-<p>"Damn it, but it was one of the greatest days ever I seen in
-Garradrimna since the ould times. It was a pity you missed of it," said
-Padna Padna. "If you were to see him!"</p>
-
-<p>"Sure I'm after seeing him, don't I tell ye, lying a corpse be the
-lake."</p>
-
-<p>"A corpse be the lake. He, he, he! Boys-a-day! Boys-a-day!"</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[Pg 141]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XVIII</h2>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan, although she pondered it deeply, had made no advance
-towards full realization of her son's condition by the lakeside. Yet
-John felt strangely diffident about appearing before her next morning.
-It seemed to him that another attack had been made upon the bond
-between them. But when at last he came into the sewing-room she was
-smiling, although there was a sinking feeling around his heart as he
-looked upon her. Yet this would pass, he hoped, when they began to talk.</p>
-
-<p>The children were going the road to school, and it was the nature
-of Mrs. Brennan that she must needs be making comment upon what was
-passing before her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>"God help the poor, little girls," she cried, "sure 'tis the grand
-example they're being set by that new one, Miss Kerr, with her quare
-dresses and her light ways. They say she was out half the night after
-the concert with Ulick Shannon, and that Mrs. McGoldrick and the
-Sergeant are in terror of their lives for fear of robbers or the likes,
-seeing that they have to leave the door on the latch for her to come in
-at any time she pleases from her night-walking. And the lad she bees
-with that's after knocking about Dublin and couldn't be good anyway.
-But sure, be the same token, there's a touch of Dublin about her too.
-How well she wouldn't give me<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[Pg 142]</a></span> the making of her new dress? But I
-suppose I'm old-fashioned in my cut. Old-fashioned, how are ye; and I
-buying <i>Weldon's Ladies' Journal</i> every week? But of course she had to
-go to Dublin to be in the tip of the fashion and see what they wear in
-Grafton Street in the lamplight. She had to get an outfit of immodest
-fol-the-dols to be a disgrace in the chapel every Sunday, and give
-room to the missioners when they come to say things that may have an
-injurious effect upon poor dressmakers like myself who strive to earn a
-living as decently as we can."</p>
-
-<p>This harangue was almost unnoticed by John Brennan. It was a failing
-of his mother to be always speaking thus in terms of her trade. He
-knew that if Miss Kerr had come here with her new dress, fine words
-and encomiums would now be spoken of her in this room. But it was his
-mother who was speaking&mdash;and he was thinking of the girl who had filled
-his vision.</p>
-
-<p>And his mother was still talking:</p>
-
-<p>"That Ulick Shannon, I hate him. I wish you wouldn't let yourself be
-seen along with him. It is not good for you, <i>avic machree</i>. Of course
-I know the kind of talk you do be having, son. About books and classes
-and the tricks and pranks of you at college. Ah, dear, I know; but I'd
-rather to God it was any other one in the whole world. I'm fearing in
-me heart that there's a black, black side to him. It's well known that
-he bees always drinking in Garradrimna, and now see how he's after
-striking up with the schoolmistress one. Maybe 'tis what he'd try to
-change you sometime, for as sure as you're there I'm afraid and afraid.
-And to think after all I have prayed for you through all the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[Pg 143]</a></span> years,
-upon me two bare knees in the lonely nights, if an affliction should
-come."</p>
-
-<p>"What affliction, mother? What is it?"</p>
-
-<p>He came nearer, and gazing deep into her face saw that there were tears
-in her eyes. Her eyes were shining like deep wells.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, this, son. If it should ever come that you did not think well to
-do me wish, after all I have done&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>She checked herself of a sudden, and it was some moments before John
-replied. He, too, was thinking of Ulick Shannon. There was a side to
-his friend that he did not like. Yesterday he had not liked him. There
-were moments when he had hated him. But that mood and the reason for
-it seemed to have passed from him during the night. It was a far thing
-now, and Ulick Shannon was as he had been to John, who could not think
-ill of him. Yet it was curious that his mother should be hinting at
-things which, if he allowed his mind to dwell upon them at all, must
-bring back his feelings of yesterday.... But he felt that he must speak
-well of his friend.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, sure there is nothing, mother. You are only fancying queer things.
-At college I have to meet hundreds of fellows. He's not a bad chap, and
-I like speaking to him. It is lonely here without such intercourse. He
-realizes keenly how people are always talking of him, how the smallest
-action of his is construed and constructed in a hundred different ways,
-until he's driven to do wild things out of very defiance to show what
-he thinks of the mean people of the valley and their opinion of him&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"They're not much, I know&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_144" id="Page_144">[Pg 144]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"But at heart, I think, he's somehow like myself, and I can't help
-liking him."</p>
-
-<p>"All the same he shouldn't be going with a girl and, especially, a
-little chit of a schoolmistress like this one, for I can't stand her."</p>
-
-<p>Why did she continue to hammer so upon the pulse of his thought?...
-With bowed head he began to drift out of the room. Why had she driven
-him to think now of Rebecca Kerr?... He was already in the sunlight.</p>
-
-<p>To-day he would not go towards the lake, but up through the high green
-fields of Scarden. He was taking <i>The Imitation of Christ</i> with him,
-and, under the shade of some noble tree, it was his intention to turn
-his thoughts to God and away from the things of life.</p>
-
-<p>It seemed grand to him, with a grandeur that had more than a touch of
-the color of Heaven, to be ascending cool slopes through the green,
-soft grass and to be looking down upon the valley at its daily labor.
-The potatoes and turnips still required attention. He saw men move
-patiently behind their horses over the broken fields of red earth
-beneath the fine, clear clay, and thought that here surely was the true
-vocation of him who would incline himself unto God.... But how untrue
-was this fancy when one came to consider the real personality of these
-tillers of the soil? There was not one of whom Mrs. Brennan could not
-tell an ugly story. Not one who did not consider it his duty to say
-uncharitable things of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca Kerr. Not one who
-would not have danced with gladness if a great misfortune had befallen
-John Brennan, and made a holiday in Garradrimna if anything terrible
-had happened to any one within the circle of their acquaintance.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[Pg 145]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>John Brennan's attention was now attracted by a man who moved with an
-air of proprietorship among a field of sheep. He was a tall man in
-black, moving darkly among the white crowd of the sheep, counting them
-leisurely and allowing his mind to dwell upon the pageant of their
-perfect whiteness. He seemed to be reckoning their value as the pure
-yield of his pastures. Here was another aspect of the fields.... The
-man in black was coming towards him with long strides.</p>
-
-<p>It took John some moments to realize that he had strayed into the
-farm of the Shannons and that this was Myles Shannon who was coming
-over to meet him.... He was a fine, clean man seen here amid the
-rich surroundings of his own fields. But he had advanced far into
-bachelorhood, and the russet was beginning to go out of his cheeks. It
-seemed a pity of the world that he had not married, for just there,
-hidden behind the billowy trees, was the fine house to which he might
-have brought home a wife and reared up a family to love and honor him
-in his days. But his romance had been shattered by a piece of villainy
-which had leaped out from the darkness of the valley. And now he was
-living here alone. But he was serenely independent, exhibiting a
-fine contempt, as well he might, for the mean strugglers around him.
-He took his pleasures here by himself in this quiet house among the
-trees. Had he been asked to name them, he could have told you in three
-words&mdash;books and drink. Not that they entered into his life to any
-great extent, for he was a wise man even in his indulgence.... But who
-was there to see him or know since he did not choose to publish himself
-in Garradrimna? And there was many a time when he worked<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[Pg 146]</a></span> himself into
-a great frenzy while brooding over the story of his dead brother Henry,
-and his own story, and Nan Byrne.... Even now he was thinking darkly of
-Nan Byrne as he came forward to meet her son across his own field.</p>
-
-<p>"Good-day, Mr. Brennan!" he said affably. He had no personal grudge
-against this young man, but his scheme of revenge inevitably included
-him, for it was through John Brennan, her son, that Nan Byrne now hoped
-to aspire, and it was him she hoped to embody as a monument of her
-triumph over destructive circumstances before the people of the valley.</p>
-
-<p>John went forward and shook the hand of Mr. Shannon with deference.</p>
-
-<p>A fine cut of a man, surely, this Myles Shannon, standing here where
-he might be clearly viewed. He appeared as a survival from the latter
-part of the Victorian era. He was still mutton-chopped and mustachioed
-after the fashion of those days. He wore a long-tailed black coat like
-a morning-coat. His waistcoat was of the same material. Across the
-expanse of it extended a wide gold chain, from which dangled a bunch
-of heavy seals. These shook and jingled with his every movement. His
-trousers were of a dark gray material, with stripes, which seemed
-to add to the height and erectness of his figure. His tall, stiff
-collar corrected the thoughtful droop of his head, and about it was
-tastefully fixed a wide black tie of shiny silk which reached down
-underneath his low-cut waistcoat. His person was surmounted by an
-uncomfortable-looking bowler hat with a very hard, curly brim.</p>
-
-<p>When he smiled, as just now, his teeth showed in even,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[Pg 147]</a></span> fine rows and
-exhibited some of the cruelty of one who has allowed his mind to dwell
-darkly upon a passionate purpose. But the ring of his laugh was hearty
-enough and had the immediate effect of dispelling suspicions of any
-sinister purpose.</p>
-
-<p>He said he was glad to see how his casual suggestion, made upon the day
-they had journeyed down from Dublin together, had borne fruit, that Mr.
-Brennan and his nephew, Ulick, had so quickly become friends.</p>
-
-<p>John thanked him, and began to speak in terms of praise about Ulick
-Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Shannon again bared his even, white teeth in a smile as he
-listened.... A strong friendship, with its consequent community of
-inclinations, had already been established. And he knew his nephew.</p>
-
-<p>"He's a clever chap, I'll admit, but he's so damned erratic. He seems
-bent upon crushing the experience of a lifetime into a few years. Why
-I'm a man, at the ripened, mellow period of life, and it's a fact that
-he could teach me things about Dublin and all that."</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan was uncertain in what way he should confirm this, but at
-last he managed to stammer out:</p>
-
-<p>"Ulick is very clever!"</p>
-
-<p>"He's very fond of Garradrimna, and I think he's very fond of the
-girls."</p>
-
-<p>"It's so dull around here compared with Dublin."</p>
-
-<p>John appeared a fool by the side of this man of the world, who was
-searching him with a look as he spoke again:</p>
-
-<p>"It's all right for a young fellow to gain his experience as early as
-he can, but he's a bit too fond of his pleasure. He's going a bit too
-far."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[Pg 148]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>John put on a strained look of advocacy, but he spoke no word.</p>
-
-<p>"He's not a doctor yet, and even then his living would not be assured;
-and do ye know what he had the cheek to come telling me the other
-night&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"'I've got infernally fond of that little girl,' he says.</p>
-
-<p>"'What girl?' I asked in amazement.</p>
-
-<p>"'Why, that schoolmistress&mdash;Rebecca Kerr. I'm "gone" about her. I'm in
-love with her. She's not at all like any of the others.'"</p>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon, with his keen eyes, saw the sudden light of surprise
-that leaped into the eyes of John Brennan. The passion of his hatred
-and the joy of his cruelty were stirred, and he went on to develop the
-plot of the story he had invented.</p>
-
-<p>"And what for," said I to him, "are you thinking of any girl in that
-way. I, as your guardian, am able to tell you that you are not in a
-position to marry. Surely you're not going to ruin this girl, or allow
-her to ruin you. Besides she is only a strolling schoolmistress from
-some unknown part of Donegal, and you are one of the Shannon family.
-'But I'm "gone" about her,' was what Ulick said. How was I to argue
-against such a silly statement?"</p>
-
-<p>The color was mounting ever higher on John Brennan's cheeks.</p>
-
-<p>But the relentless man went on playing with him.</p>
-
-<p>"Of course I have not seen her, but, by all accounts, she's a pretty
-girl and possesses the usual share of allurements. Is not that so?"</p>
-
-<p>"She's very nice."</p>
-
-<p>"And, do you know what? It has come to me up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[Pg 149]</a></span> here, although I may seem
-to be a hermit among the fields who takes no interest in the world,
-that you have been seen walking down the valley road together. D'ye
-remember yesterday morning, eh?"</p>
-
-<p>John was blushing still, and a kind of sickly smile made his fine face
-look queer. All kinds of expressions were trying to form themselves
-upon his tongue, yet not one of them could he manage to articulate.</p>
-
-<p>"Not that I blame a young fellow, even one intended for the Church, if
-he should have a few inclinations that way. But I can see that you are
-the good friend of my nephew, and indeed it would be a pity if anything
-came to spoil that friendship, least of all a bit of a girl.... And
-both of you being the promising young men you are.... It would be
-terrible if anything like that should come to pass."</p>
-
-<p>Even to this John could frame no reply. But the ear of Mr. Shannon did
-not desire it, for his eye had seen all that he wished to know. He
-beheld John Brennan shivering as within the cold and dismal shadows of
-fatality.... They spoke little more until they shook hands again, and
-parted amid the dappled grass.</p>
-
-<p>To Myles Shannon the interview had been an extraordinary success....
-Yet, quite suddenly, he found himself beginning to think of the
-position of Rebecca Kerr.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[Pg 150]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XIX</h2>
-
-<p>Outside the poor round of diversions afforded by the valley and her
-meetings with Ulick Shannon, the days passed uneventfully for Rebecca
-Kerr. It was a dreary kind of life, wherein she was concerned to avoid
-as far as possible the fits of depression which sprang out of the
-quality of her lodgings at Sergeant McGoldrick's.</p>
-
-<p>She snatched a hasty breakfast early in the mornings, scarcely ever
-making anything like a meal. When she did it was always followed
-by a feeling of nausea as she went on The Road of the Dead towards
-the valley school. When she returned after her day's hard work her
-dinner would be half cold and unappetizing by the red ashy fire. Mrs.
-McGoldrick would be in the sitting-room, where she made clothes for the
-children, the sergeant himself probably digging in the garden before
-the door, his tunic open, his face sweating, and the dirty clay upon
-his big boots.... He was always certain to shout out some idiotic
-salutation as she passed in. Then Mrs. McGoldrick would be sure to
-follow her into the kitchen, a baby upon her left arm and a piece of
-soiled sewing in her right hand. She was always concerned greatly about
-the number at school on any particular day, and how Mrs. Wyse was and
-Miss McKeon, and how the average was keeping up, and if it did not keep
-up to a certain number would Mrs. Wyse's salary be reduced, and what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[Pg 151]</a></span>
-was the average required for Miss McKeon to get her salary from the
-Board, and so on.</p>
-
-<p>Sometimes Rebecca would be so sick at heart of school affairs and of
-this mean, prying woman that no word would come from her, and Mrs.
-McGoldrick would drift huffily away, her face a perfect study in
-disappointment. And against those there were times when Rebecca, with
-a touch of good humor, would tell the most fantastical stories of
-inspectors and rules and averages and increments and pensions, Mrs.
-McGoldrick breathless between her "Well, wells!" of amazement.... Then
-Rebecca would have a rare laugh to herself as she pictured her landlady
-repeating everything to the sergeant, who would make mental comparisons
-the while of the curious correspondence existing between those pillars
-of law and learning, the Royal Irish Constabulary, and the National
-Teachers of Ireland.</p>
-
-<p>Next day, perhaps, Mrs. McGoldrick would enlarge upon the excellent and
-suitable match a policeman and a teacher make, and how it is such a
-general thing throughout the country. She always concluded a discourse
-of this nature by saying a thing she evidently wished Rebecca to
-remember:</p>
-
-<p>"Let me tell you this, now&mdash;a policeman is the very best match that any
-girl can make!"</p>
-
-<p>And big louts of young constables would be jumping off high bicycles
-and calling in the evenings.... This was at the instigation of Mrs.
-McGoldrick, but they made no impression whatsoever upon Rebecca, even
-when they arrived in mufti.</p>
-
-<p>In school the ugly, discolored walls which had been so badly
-distempered by Ned Brennan; the monotony of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[Pg 152]</a></span> the maps and desks; the
-constant sameness of the children's faces. All this was infinitely
-wearying, but a more subtle and powerful torment arose beyond the hum
-of the children learning by heart. Rebecca always became aware of it
-through a burning feeling at the back of her neck. Glancing around
-she would see that, although presumably intent upon their lessons,
-many eyes were upon her, peering furtively from behind their books,
-observing her, forming opinions of her, and concocting stories to tell
-their parents when they went home. For this was considered an essential
-part of their training&mdash;the proper satisfaction of their elders'
-curiosity. It was one of the reasons why the bigger girls were sent to
-school. They escaped the drudgery of house and farm because they were
-able to return with fresh stories from the school every evening. Thus
-were their faculties for lying and invention brought into play. They
-feared Mrs. Wyse, and so these faculties came to be trained in full
-strength upon Rebecca. As she moved about the school-room, she was made
-the constant object of their scrutiny. They would stare at her with
-their mean, impudent eyes above the top edges of their books. Then they
-would withdraw them behind the opened pages and sneer and concoct. And
-it was thus the forenoon would pass until the half-hour allowed for
-recreation, when she would be thrown back upon the company of Mrs. Wyse
-and Monica McKeon. No great pleasure was in store for her here, for
-their conversation was always sure to turn upon the small affairs of
-the valley.</p>
-
-<p>There was something so ingenuous about the relations of Rebecca and
-Ulick Shannon that neither of the two women had the courage to comment
-upon the matter<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[Pg 153]</a></span> openly. But the method they substituted was a greater
-torture. In the course of half an hour they would suggest a thousand
-hateful things.</p>
-
-<p>"I heard Ulick Shannon was drunk last night, and having arguments with
-people in Garradrimna," Miss McKeon would say.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Wyse would snatch up the words hastily. "Is that so? Oh, he's
-going to the bad. He'll never pass his exams, never!"</p>
-
-<p>"Isn't it funny how his uncle does not keep better control of him. Why
-he lets him do what he likes?"</p>
-
-<p>"Control, is it? It doesn't look much like control indeed to see him
-encouraging his dead brother's son to keep the company he favors.
-Indeed and indeed it gives me a kind of a turn when I see him going
-about with Nan Byrne's son, young John Brennan, who's going on to be
-a priest. Well, I may tell you that it is 'going on' he is, for his
-mother as sure as you're there'll never see him saying his first Mass.
-Now I suppose the poor rector of the college in England where he is
-hasn't a notion of his antecedents. The cheek of it indeed! But what
-else could you expect from the likes of Nan Byrne? Indeed I have a good
-mind to let the ecclesiastical authorities know all, and if nothing
-turns up from the Hand of God to right the matter, sure I'll have to do
-it myself. Bedad then I will!"</p>
-
-<p>"Musha, the same John Brennan doesn't look up to much, and they say
-Ulick Shannon can wind him around his little finger. He'll maybe make a
-<i>lad</i> of him before the end of the summer holidays."</p>
-
-<p>"I can't understand Myles Shannon letting them go about together so
-openly unless he's enjoying the whole<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[Pg 154]</a></span> thing as a sneer. But it would
-be more to his credit indeed to have found other material for his fun
-than a blood relation. I'm surprised at him indeed, and he knowing what
-he knows about Nan Byrne and his brother Henry."</p>
-
-<p>With slight variations of this theme falling on her ears endlessly
-Rebecca was compelled to endure the torture of this half hour every
-day. No matter what took place in the valley Monica would manage,
-somehow, to drag the name of Ulick into it. If it merely happened to
-be a copy of the <i>Irish Independent</i> they were looking at, and if they
-came upon some extraordinary piece of news, Monica would say:</p>
-
-<p>"Just like a thing that Ulick Shannon would do, isn't it?"</p>
-
-<p>And if they came across a photo in the magazine section, Monica would
-say again:</p>
-
-<p>"Now wouldn't you imagine that gentleman has a look of Ulick Shannon?"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca had become so accustomed to all this that, overleaping its
-purpose, it ceased to have any considerable effect upon her. She had
-begun to care too much for Ulick to show her affection in even the
-glimpse of an aspect to the two who were trying to discover her for the
-satisfaction of their spite. It was thus that she remained a puzzle to
-her colleagues, and Monica in particular was at her wit's end to know
-what to think. At the end of the half hour she was always in a deeper
-condition of defeat than before it began, and went out to the Boys'
-School with only one idea warming her mind, that, some day, she might
-have the great laugh at Rebecca Kerr. She knew that it is not possible
-for a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[Pg 155]</a></span> woman to hide her feelings forever, even though she thought
-this one cute surely, cute beyond all the suggestion of her innocent
-exterior.</p>
-
-<p>Towards the end of each day Rebecca was thrown altogether with the
-little ones who, despite all the entreaties of their parents, had not
-yet come very far away from Heaven. She found great pleasure in their
-company and in their innocent stories. For example:</p>
-
-<p>"Miss Kerr, I was in the wood last night. With the big bear and the
-little bear in the wood. I went into the wood, and there was the big
-bear walking round and round the wood after the little bear, and the
-big bear was walking round and round the wood."</p>
-
-<p>"I was in America last night, and I saw all the motor cars ever were,
-and people riding on horses, and the highest, whitest buildings ever
-were, and people going to Mass&mdash;big crowds of people going to Mass."</p>
-
-<p>"My mammy brought me into the chapel last night, and I saw God. I was
-talking to God and He was asking me about you. I said: 'Miss Kerr is
-nice, so she is.' I said this to God, but God did not answer me. I
-asked God again did He know Miss Kerr who teaches in the valley school,
-and He said He did, and I said again: 'Miss Kerr is nice, so she is.'
-But He went away and did not answer me."</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca would enter into their innocence and so experience the happiest
-hours of the day.</p>
-
-<p>She would be recalled from her rapt condition by the harsh voice of
-Mrs. Wyse shouting an order to one of the little girls in her class,
-this being a hint that she herself was not attending to her business.</p>
-
-<p>But soon the last blessed period of the day would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[Pg 156]</a></span> come, the half hour
-devoted to religious instruction. She found a pleasure in this task,
-for she loved to hear the little children at their prayers. Sometimes
-she would ask them to say for her the little prayer she had taught them:</p>
-
-<p>"O God, I offer up this prayer for the poor intentions of Thy servant
-Rebecca Kerr, that they may be fulfilled unto the glory of Thy Holy
-Will. And that being imperfect, she may approach to Thy Perfection
-through the Grace and Mercy of Jesus Christ, Our Lord."</p>
-
-<p>She would feel a certain happiness for a short space after this, at
-least while the boisterous business of taking leave of the school was
-going forward. But once upon the road she would be meeting people who
-always stared at her strangely, and passing houses with squinting
-windows.... Then would come a heavy sense of depression, which might be
-momentarily dispelled by the appearance of John Brennan either coming
-or going upon the road. For a while she had considered this happening
-coincidental, but of late it had been borne in upon her that it was
-very curious he should appear daily at the same time.... The silly
-boy, and he with his grand purpose before him.... She would smile upon
-him very pleasantly, and fall into chat sometimes, but only for a few
-minutes. She looked upon herself as being ever so much wiser. And she
-thought it queer that he should find an attraction for his eyes in her
-form as it moved before him down the road. She always fancied that she
-felt low and mean within herself while his eyes were upon her.... But
-he would be forever<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_157" id="Page_157">[Pg 157]</a></span> coming out of his mother's cottage to meet her
-thus upon the road.</p>
-
-<p>After dinner in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick she would betake
-herself to her little room. It would be untidy after the hurry in which
-she had left it, and now she would set about putting it to rights.
-This would occupy her half an hour or more. Then there would be a few
-letters to be written, to her people away in Donegal and to some of
-the companions of her training college days. She kept up a more or
-less regular correspondence with about half-a-dozen of these girls.
-Her letters were all after the frivolous style of their schooldays. To
-all of them she imparted the confidence that she had met "a very nice
-fellow" here in Garradrimna, but that the place was so lonely, and how
-there was "nothing like a girl friend."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, Anna," she would write, or "Lily" or "Lena," "There's surely
-nothing after all like a girl friend."</p>
-
-<p>After tea she would put on one of her tidiest hats, and taking the
-letters with her go towards the Post Office of Garradrimna. This was a
-torture, for always the eyes of the old, bespectacled maid were upon
-her, looking into her mind, as she stood waiting for her stamps outside
-the ink-stained counter. And, further, she always felt that the doors
-and windows of the village were forever filled with eyes as she went
-by them. Her neck and face would burn until she took the road that led
-out past the old castle of the De Lacys. There was a footpath which
-took one to the west gate of the demesne of the Moores. The Honorable
-Reginald Moore was the modern lord of Garradrimna. It was this way she
-would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_158" id="Page_158">[Pg 158]</a></span> go, meeting all kinds of stragglers from the other end of the
-parish. People she did not know and who did not know her, queer, dark
-men coming into Garradrimna through the high evening in quest of porter.</p>
-
-<p>"Fine evening, miss!" they would say.</p>
-
-<p>Once on the avenue her little walk became a golden journey for Ulick
-always met her when she came this way. It was their custom to meet here
-or on The Road of the Dead. But this was their favorite spot, where
-the avenue led far into the quiet woods. A scurrying-away of rabbits
-through the undergrowth would announce their approach to one another.</p>
-
-<p>Many were the happy talks they had here, of books and of decent life
-beyond the boorishness of Garradrimna. She had given him <i>The Poems of
-Tennyson</i> in exchange for <i>The Daffodil Fields</i>. Tastefully illuminated
-in red ink on the fly-leaf he had found her "favorite lines" from
-Tennyson, whom she considered "exquisite":</p>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div>"Glitter like a storm of fire-flies tangled in a silver braid."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div>"Cursed be the gold that gilds the straightened forehead of the fool."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div>"Many an evening by the waters did we watch the stately ships,</div>
-<div>And our spirits rushed together at the touching of the lips."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>These had made him smile, and then he did not read any more of
-Tennyson.... He was fond of telling her about the younger Irish poets
-and of quoting passages from their poems. Now it would be a line or so
-from Colum or Stephens, again a verse from Seumas O'Sullivan or Joseph
-Campbell. Continually he spoke with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_159" id="Page_159">[Pg 159]</a></span> enthusiasm of the man they called
-&AElig;.... She found it difficult to believe that such men could be living
-in Ireland at the present time.</p>
-
-<p>"And would you see them about Dublin?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, you'd see them often."</p>
-
-<p>"<i>Real</i> poets?"</p>
-
-<p>"Real poets surely. But of course they have earthly interests as well.
-One is a farmer&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"A farmer!!!"</p>
-
-<p>This she found it hardest of all to believe, for the word "farmer" made
-her see so clearly the sullen men with the dirty beards who came in the
-white roads every evening to drink in Garradrimna. There was no poetry
-in them.</p>
-
-<p>Often they would remain talking after this fashion until night had
-filled up all the open spaces of the woods. They would feel so far
-away from life amid the perfect stillness.... Their peace was rudely
-shattered one night by a sudden breaking away from them through the
-withered branches.... Instantly Ulick knew that this was some loafer
-sent to spy on them from Garradrimna, and Rebecca clung to him for
-protection.</p>
-
-<p>Occasionally through the summer a lonely wailing had been heard in the
-woods of Garradrimna at the fall of night. Men drinking in the pubs
-would turn to one another and say:</p>
-
-<p>"The Lord save us! Is that the <i>Banshee</i> I hear crying for one of the
-Moores? She cries like that always when one of them dies, they being a
-noble family. Maybe the Honorable Reginald is after getting his death
-at last in some whore-house in London."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_160" id="Page_160">[Pg 160]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Arrah not at all, man, sure that's only Anthony Shaughness and he
-going crying through the woods for drink, the poor fellow!"</p>
-
-<p>But the sound had ceased to disturb them for Anthony Shaughness had
-found an occupation at last. This evening he came running down from
-the woods into McDermott's bar, the loose soles of his boots slapping
-against the cobbles of the yard. Josie Guinan went up to him excitedly
-when he entered.</p>
-
-<p>"Well?" This in a whisper as their heads came close together over the
-counter.</p>
-
-<p>"Gimme a drink? I'm choked with the running, so I am!"</p>
-
-<p>"Tell me did you see them first, or not a sup you'll get. Don't be so
-smart now, Anthony Shaughness!"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, I saw them all right. Gimme the drink?"</p>
-
-<p>She filled the drink, making it overflow the glass in her hurry.</p>
-
-<p>"Well?"</p>
-
-<p>"Bedad I saw them all right. Heard every word they were saying, so I
-did, and everything! It was the devil's father to find them, so it was,
-they were that well hid in the woods.... Gimme another sup, Josie?"</p>
-
-<p>"Now, Anthony?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, but you don't know all I have to tell ye!"</p>
-
-<p>Again she overflowed the glass in her mounting excitement.</p>
-
-<p>"Well?"</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_161" id="Page_161">[Pg 161]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XX</h2>
-
-<p>The summer was beginning to wane, August having sped to its end. The
-schools had given vacation, and Rebecca Kerr had gone away from the
-valley to Donegal. Ulick Shannon had returned to Dublin. This was
-the uneventful season in the valley. Mrs. Brennan, finding little to
-talk about, had grown quiet in herself. Ned had taken his departure
-to Ballinamult, where he was engaged in putting some lead upon the
-roof of the police-barracks. He was drinking to his heart's content,
-she knew, and would come home to her without a penny saved against
-his long spell of idleness or the coming rigors of the winter. But
-she was thankful for the present that he had removed himself from the
-presence of his son. It was not good for such a son to be compelled
-to look upon such a father. She had prayed for this blessing and lo!
-it had come. And it extended further. Ulick Shannon too was gone from
-the valley, and so she was no longer annoyed by seeing him in company
-with her son. Their friendship had progressed through the months of
-July and August, and she was aware that they had been seen together
-many times in Garradrimna. She did not know the full truth but, as on
-the first occasion, the lake could tell. Rebecca Kerr was gone, and
-so there was no need to speak of this strange girl for whom some wild
-feeling had enkindled a flame of hatred within her. Thus was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[Pg 162]</a></span> she left
-in loneliness and peace to dwell upon the wonder of her son. He seemed
-more real to her during these quiet days, nearer perhaps, than he had
-ever been since she had first begun to dream her great dream.</p>
-
-<p>Of late he had taken to his room upstairs, where he did a little study
-daily. "So that it won't be altogether too strange when I go back again
-to college," he told her on more than one occasion when she besought
-him not to be blinding his eyes while there was yet leisure to rest
-them. There were times during the long quiet day in the house when
-her flood of love for him would so well up within her that she would
-call him down for no other reason than that she might have the great
-pleasure of allowing her eyes to rest upon him for a short space only.
-She would speak no word at all, so fearful would she be of disturbing
-the holy peace which fell between them. In the last week of his
-present stay in the valley this happened so often that it became a
-little wearying to John, who had begun to experience a certain feeling
-of independence in his own mind. It pained him greatly now that his
-mother should love him so.... And there were many times when he longed
-to be back in his English college, with his books and friends, near
-opportunities to escape from the influences which had conspired to
-change him.</p>
-
-<p>One morning, after his mother had gazed upon him in this way, he came
-out of the house and leaned over the little wicket gate to take a look
-at the day. It was approaching Farrell McGuinness's time to be along
-with the post, and John expected him to have a letter from the rector
-of the College giving some directions as to the date of return. Yet he
-was not altogether so anxious<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[Pg 163]</a></span> to return as he had been towards the
-ends of former vacations.... At last Farrell McGuinness appeared around
-the turn of the road. His blue uniform was dusty, and he carried his
-hard little cap in his hand. He dismounted from his red bicycle and
-took two letters out of his bag. He smirked obviously as he performed
-this action. John glanced in excitement at the letters. One was
-addressed in the handwriting of his friend Ulick Shannon and the other
-in the handwriting of a girl. It was this last one that had caused
-Farrell McGuinness to smirk so loudly.</p>
-
-<p>"'Tis you that has the times, begad!" he said to John as he mounted his
-red bicycle and went on up the road, fanning his hot brow with his hard
-cap.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan came to the door to hear tidings of the letters from her
-son, but John was already hurrying down through the withering garden,
-tearing open both letters simultaneously.</p>
-
-<p>"Who are they from?" she called out.</p>
-
-<p>"From Ulick Shannon."</p>
-
-<p>"And th'other one?"</p>
-
-<p>"From a chap in the college," he shouted across his shoulder, lying
-boldly to her for the first time in his life. But if only she could see
-the confusion upon his face?</p>
-
-<p>She went back into the sewing-room, a feeling of annoyance showing in
-the deep lines about her eyes. It seemed strange that he had not rushed
-immediately into the house to tell her what was in the letters, strange
-beyond all how he had not seen his way to make that much of her.</p>
-
-<p>Down the garden John was reading Rebecca Kerr's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[Pg 164]</a></span> letter first, for it
-was from her that the letter from "one of the chaps in the college" had
-come.</p>
-
-<p>It told of how she was spending her holidays at a seaside village in
-Donegal. "It is even far quieter than Garradrimna and the valley. I go
-down to the sea in the mornings, but it is only to think and dream. The
-sea is just like one big lake, more lonely by far than the lake in the
-valley. This is surely the loneliest place you could imagine, but there
-is a certain sense of peace about it that is quite lovely. It is some
-distance from my home, and it is nice to be amongst people who have no
-immense concern for your eternal welfare. I like this, and so I have
-avoided making acquaintances here. But next week I am expecting a very
-dear friend to join me, and so, I dare say, my holidays will have a
-happy ending after all. I suppose you will have gone from the valley
-when I go back in October. And it will be the dreary place then...."
-She signed herself, "Yours very sincerely, Rebecca Kerr."</p>
-
-<p>His eyes were dancing as he turned to read Ulick Shannon's letter....
-In the opening passages it treated only in a conventional way of
-college affairs, but suddenly he was upon certain lines which to his
-mind seemed so blackly emphasized:</p>
-
-<p>"Now I was just beginning to settle back into the routine of things
-when who should come along but Miss Kerr? She was looking fine. She
-stayed a few days here in Dublin, and I spent most of them with her.
-I gave her the time of her life, the poor little thing! Theaters
-every night, and all the rest of it. She was just lost for a bit of
-enjoyment. Grinding away, you know, in those cursed National Schools
-from year's end to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[Pg 165]</a></span> year's end. Do you know what it is, John? I am
-getting fonder and fonder of that girl. She is the best little soul in
-all the world.</p>
-
-<p>"She is spending her holidays up in some God-forsaken village in
-Donegal. Away from her people and by herself, you know. She has a girl
-friend going to see her next week. You will not be able to believe it
-probably&mdash;<i>but I am the girl friend</i>."</p>
-
-<p>He read them and re-read them, these two letters which bore so
-intimately upon one another and which, through the coincidence of their
-arrival together, held convincing evidence of the dramatic moment that
-had arrived in the adventure of those two lives.</p>
-
-<p>He became filled by an aching feeling that made him shiver and grow
-weak as if with some unknown expectation.... Yet why was he so
-disturbed in his mind as to this happening; what had he to do with it?
-He was one whose life must be directed away from such things. But the
-vision of Rebecca Kerr would be filling his eyes forever. And why had
-she written to him? Why had she so graphically pictured her condition
-of loneliness wherein he might enter and speak to her? His acquaintance
-with her was very slight, and yet he desired to know her beyond all the
-knowledge and beauty of the world.... And to think that it was Ulick
-Shannon who was now going where he longed to go.</p>
-
-<p>A heavy constraint came between him and his mother during the remaining
-days. He spoke little and moved about in meditation like one fearful
-of things about to happen. But she fondly fancied as always that he
-was immersed in contemplation of the future she had planned for him.
-She never saw him setting forth into the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[Pg 166]</a></span> autumn fields, a book in his
-hand, that she did not fancy the look of austere aloofness upon his
-face to be the expression of a priest reading his office. But thoughts
-of this kind were far from his mind in the fields or by the little
-wicket gate across which he often leaned, his eyes fixed upon the
-white, hard road which seemed to lead nowhere.</p>
-
-<p>The day of his release at last came. Now that Ned was away from her,
-working in Ballinamult, she had managed to scrape together the price of
-another motor drive to Kilaconnaghan, but it was in the misfortune of
-things that Charlie Clarke's car should have been engaged for the very
-day of John's departure by the Houlihans of Clonabroney. It worried her
-greatly that she could not have this piece of grandeur upon this second
-occasion. Her intense devotion to religious literature had made her
-superstitious to a distressing degree. It appeared to her as an omen
-across the path of John and her own magnification. But John did not
-seem to mind.</p>
-
-<p>It was notable that through his advance into contemplation he had
-triumphed over the power of the valley to a certain extent. So long
-as his mind had been altogether absorbed in thought of the priesthood
-he had moved about furtively, a fugitive, as it were, before the
-hateful looks of the people of the valley and the constant stare of the
-squinting windows. Now he had come into a little tranquillity and his
-heart was not without some happiness in the enjoyment of his larger
-vision.... And yet he was far from being completely at peace.</p>
-
-<p>As he sat driving with his mother in the ass-trap to Kilaconnaghan,
-on his way back to the grand college in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[Pg 167]</a></span> England, his doubts were
-assailing him although he was so quiet, to all seeming, sitting there.
-Those who passed them upon the road never guessed that this pale-faced
-young man in black was at war with his soul.... Few words passed
-between him and his mother, for the constraint of the past week had not
-yet been lifted. She was beginning to feel so lonely, and she was vexed
-with herself that the period of his stay in the valley had not been all
-she had dreamt of making it. It had been disappointing to a depressing
-extent, and now especially in its concluding stage. This sad excursion
-in the little ass-trap, without any of the pomp and circumstance which
-John so highly deserved, was a poor, mean ending.</p>
-
-<p>He was running over in his mind the different causes which had given
-this vacation its unusual character. First there came remembrance of
-his journey down from Dublin with Mr. Myles Shannon, who had then
-suggested the friendship with his nephew Ulick. Springing out of this
-thought was a very vivid impression of Garradrimna, that ugly place
-which he had discovered in its true colors for the first time; its vile
-set of drunkards and the few secret lapses it had occasioned him. Then
-there was his father, that fallen and besotted man whom the valley had
-ruined past all hope. As a more intimate recollection his own doubts
-of the religious life by the lakeside arose clear before him. And the
-lake itself seemed very near, for it had been the silent witness of all
-his moods and conditions, the dead thing that had gathered to itself
-a full record of his sojourn in the valley. But, above all, there was
-Rebecca Kerr, whom he had contrived to meet so often as she went from
-school. It was she who now brought light to all the darkened<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[Pg 168]</a></span> places of
-his memory. Her letter to him the other day was the one real thing he
-had been given to take away from the valley. How he longed to read it
-again! But his mother's eyes were upon him.... At last he began to have
-a little thought of the part she had played.</p>
-
-<p>Already they had reached the railway station of Kilaconnaghan. They
-went together through the little waiting-room, which held sad memories
-for Mrs. Brennan, and out upon the platform, where a couple of porters
-leaned against their barrows chewing tobacco. Two or three passengers
-were sitting around beside their luggage waiting to take the train for
-Dublin. A few bank clerks from the town were standing in a little group
-which possessed an imaginary distinction, laughing in a genteel way
-at a puerile joke from some of the London weekly journals. They were
-wearing sporting clothes and had fresh fags in their mouths. It was
-an essential portion of their occupation, this perpetual delight in
-watching the outgoing afternoon train.</p>
-
-<p>"Aren't they the grand-looking young swells?" said Mrs. Brennan; "I
-suppose them have the great jobs now?"</p>
-
-<p>"Great!" replied John, quite unconscious of what he said.</p>
-
-<p>He spoke no other word till he took his place in the train. She kissed
-him through the open window and hung affectionately to his hand....
-Then there fluttered in upon them the moment of parting.... Smiling
-wistfully and waving her hand, she watched the train until it had
-rounded a curve. She lingered for a moment by the advertisement for
-Jameson's Whiskey in the waiting-room to wipe her eyes. She began to
-remember<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[Pg 169]</a></span> how she had behaved here in this very place on the day of
-John's home-coming, and of how he had left her standing while he talked
-to Myles Shannon.... He seemed to have slipped away from her now,
-and her present thought made her feel that the shadow of the Shannon
-family, stretching far across her life, had attended his going as it
-had attended his coming.</p>
-
-<p>She went out to the little waiting ass and, mounting into the trap,
-drove out of Kilaconnaghan into the dark forest of her fears.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[Pg 170]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXI</h2>
-
-<p>Through the earlier part of this term at college there was no peace
-in the mind of John Brennan, and his unsettled state arose, for the
-most part, from simple remembrance of things that had happened in
-the valley. Now it was because he could see again, some afternoon in
-the summer, Rebecca Kerr coming towards him down the road in a brown
-and white striped dress, that he thought was pretty, and swinging a
-sun-bonnet by its long cotton strings from her soft, small hand. Or
-again, some hour he had spent listening to Ulick Shannon as he talked
-about the things of life which are marked only by the beauty of passion
-and death. Always, too, with the aid of two letters he still treasured,
-his imagination would leap towards the creation of a picture&mdash;Rebecca
-and Ulick together in far-off Donegal.</p>
-
-<p>He did not go home at Christmas because it was so expensive to return
-to Ireland, and in the lonely stretches of the vacation, when all his
-college friends were away from him, he felt that they must surely be
-meeting again, meeting and kissing in some quiet, dusky place&mdash;Rebecca
-as he had seen her always and Ulick as he had known him.</p>
-
-<p>Even if he had wished to leave Ulick and Rebecca out of his mind, it
-would have been impossible, so persistently did his mother refer to
-both in her letters. There was never a letter which did not contain
-some allusion<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[Pg 171]</a></span> to "them two" or "that one" or "that fellow." In
-February, when the days began to stretch out again, he thought only of
-the valley coming nearer, with its long period of delight.... Within
-the fascination of his musing he grew forgetful of his lofty future.
-Yet there were odd moments when he remembered that he had moved into
-the valley a very different man at the beginning of last June. The
-valley had changed him, and might continue to change him when he went
-there again.</p>
-
-<p>Nothing came to stay the even rise of his yearning save his mother's
-letters, which were the same recitals at all times of stories about the
-same people. At no time did he expect to find anything new in them, and
-so it was all the stronger blow when from one letter leaped out the
-news that Ulick Shannon had failed to pass his final medical exam., and
-was now living at home in Scarden House with his uncle Myles. That he
-had been "expelled from the University and disgraced" was the way she
-put it. It did not please John to see that she was exulting over what
-had happened to Ulick while hinting at the same time that there was no
-fear of a like calamity happening to her son. To him it appeared as
-not at all such an event as one might exult about. It rather evoked
-pity and condolence in the thought that it might happen to any man. It
-might happen to himself. Here surely was a fearful thing&mdash;the sudden
-dread of his return to the valley, a disgrace for life, and his mother
-a ruined woman in the downfall of her son.... This last letter of hers
-had brought him to review all the brave thoughts that had come to him
-by the lakeside, wild thoughts of living his own life, not in the way
-appointed for him by any other person, but freely, after<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[Pg 172]</a></span> the bent of
-his own will. Yet when he came to think of it quietly there was not
-much he could do in the world with his present education. It seemed
-to have fitted him only for one kind of life. And his thoughts of the
-summer might have been only passing distractions which must disappear
-with the full development of his mind. To think of those ideas ever
-coming suddenly to reality would be a blow too powerful to his mother.
-It would kill her. For, with other knowledge, the summer holidays had
-brought him to see how much she looked forward to his becoming a priest.</p>
-
-<p>Quite unconsciously, without the least effort of his will, he found
-himself returning to his old, keen interest in his studies. He found
-himself coming back to his lost peace of mind. He felt somehow that
-his enjoyment of this grand contentment was the very best way he could
-flash back his mother's love. Besides it was the best earnest he had of
-the enjoyment of his coming holidays.</p>
-
-<p>Then the disaster came. The imminence of it had been troubling the
-rector for a long time. His college was in a state of disintegration,
-for the Great War had cast its shadow over the quiet walls.</p>
-
-<p>It was a charity college. This was a secret that had been well kept
-from the people of the valley by Mrs. Brennan. "A grand college in
-England" was the utmost information she would ever vouchsafe to any
-inquirer. She had formed a friendly alliance with the old, bespectacled
-postmistress and made all her things free of charge for keeping close
-the knowledge of John's exact whereabouts in England. Yet there was
-never a letter from mother to son or from son to mother that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[Pg 173]</a></span> the old
-maid did not consider it her bounden duty to open and read.</p>
-
-<p>The college had been supported by good people who could find nothing
-else to do with their money. But, in war-time, charity was diverted
-into other channels, and its income had consequently dwindled almost to
-vanishing point. Coupled with this, many of the students had left aside
-their books and gone into the Army. One morning the rector appeared in
-the lecture-hall to announce to the remnant that the college was about
-to be closed for "some time." He meant indefinitely, but the poor man
-could not put it in that way.</p>
-
-<p>John heard the news with mingled feelings. In a dumb way he had longed
-for this after his return from the valley, but now he saw in it,
-not the arrival of a desired event, but a postponement of the great
-intention that had begun to absorb him again. He was achieving his
-desire in a way that made it a punishment.... To-morrow he would be
-going home.... But of course his mother knew everything by this time
-and was already preparing a welcome for him.</p>
-
-<p>The March evening was gray and cold when he came into the deserted
-station of Kilaconnaghan. It had been raining ceaselessly since
-Christmas, and around and away from him stretched the sodden country.
-He got a porter to take his trunk out to the van and stand it on end
-upon the platform. Then he went into the waiting-room to meet his
-mother. But she was not there. Nor was the little donkey and trap
-outside the station house. Perhaps she was coming to meet him with
-Charlie Clarke in the grand and holy motor car. If he went on he might
-meet them coming through Kilaconnaghan. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[Pg 174]</a></span> got the porter to take his
-box from its place on the platform and put it into the waiting-room.
-All down through the town there was no sign of them, and when he got
-out upon the road to Garradrimna and the valley there was no sign of
-them either. The night had fallen thick and heavy, and John, as he
-went on through the rain, looked forward to the comforting radiance of
-Charlie Clarke's headlights suddenly to flash around every corner. But
-the car did not come and he began to grow weary of tramping through the
-wet night. All along the way he was meeting people who shouldered up
-to him and strove to peer into his face as he slipped past. He did not
-come on to the valley road by way of Garradrimna, but instead by The
-Road of the Dead, down which he went slopping through great pools at
-every few yards.</p>
-
-<p>He was very weary when he came at last to the door of his mother's
-house. Before knocking he had listened for a while to the low hum of
-her reading to his father. Then he heard her moving to open the door,
-and immediately she was silhouetted in the lamp-light.</p>
-
-<p>"Is that you, John? We knew you were coming home. We got the rector's
-letter."</p>
-
-<p>He noticed a queer coldness in her tone.</p>
-
-<p>"I'd rather to God that anything in the world had happened than this.
-What'll they say now? They'll say you were expelled. As sure as God,
-they'll say you were expelled!"</p>
-
-<p>He threw himself into the first chair he saw.</p>
-
-<p>"Did any one meet you down the road? Did many meet you from this to
-Kilaconnaghan?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[Pg 175]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>He did not answer. This was a curious welcome he was receiving. Yet he
-noticed that tears were beginning to creep into her eyes, which were
-also red as if from much recent weeping.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, God knows, and God knows again, John, I'd rather have died than it
-should have come to this. And why was it that after all me contriving
-and after all me praying and good works this bitter cross should have
-fallen? I don't know. I can't think for what I am being punished and
-why misfortune should come to you. And what'll they say at all at all?
-Oh you may depend upon it that it's the worst thing they'll say. But
-you mustn't tell them that the college is finished. For I suppose it's
-finished now the way everything is going to be finished before the war.
-But you mustn't say that. You must say that it is on special holidays
-you are, after having passed a Special examination. And you must behave
-as if you were on holidays!"</p>
-
-<p>Such a dreadful anxiety was upon her that she appeared no longer as his
-mother, the infinitely tender woman he had known. She now seemed to
-possess none of the pure contentment her loving tenderness should have
-brought her. She was altogether concerned as to what the people would
-say and not as to the effect of the happening upon her son's career.
-He had begun to think of this for himself, but it was not of it that
-she was now thinking.... She was thinking of herself, of her pride, and
-that was why she had not come to meet him. And now his clothes were wet
-and he was tired, for he had walked from Kilaconnaghan in the rain.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[Pg 176]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Ned Brennan, stirring out of his drunken doze, muttered thickly: "Ah,
-God blast yourselves and your college, can't you let a fellow have a
-sleep be the fire after his hard day!"</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[Pg 177]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXII</h2>
-
-<p>John went from the kitchen to a restless night. Soon after daybreak he
-got up and looked out of the window. The crows had been flying across
-it darkly since the beginning of the light. He gazed down now towards
-the stretch of trees about the lake. They were dark figures in the
-somber picture. He had not seen them since autumn, and even then some
-of the brightness of summer had lingered with them. Now they looked
-as if they had been weeping. He could see the lake between the clumps
-of fir-trees. The water was all dark like the scene in which it was
-framed. It now beat itself into a futile imitation of billows, into
-a kind of make-believe before the wild things around that it was an
-angry sea, holding deep in its caverns the relics of great dooms. But
-the trees seemed to rock in enjoyment and to join forces with the wild
-things in tormenting the lake.</p>
-
-<p>John looked at the clock. It was early hours, and there would be no
-need to go out for a long time. He went back to bed and remained there
-without sleep, gazing up at the ceiling.... He fell to thinking of what
-he would have to face in the valley now.... His mother had hinted at
-the wide scope of it last night when she said that she would rather
-anything in God's world had happened than this thing, this sudden<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[Pg 178]</a></span>
-home-coming.... She was thinking only of her own pride. It was an
-offense against her pride, he felt, and that was all. It stood to
-lessen the exalted position which the purpose of his existence gave
-her before the other women of the valley. But he had begun to feel the
-importance of his own person in the scheme of circumstance by which he
-was surrounded. It had begun to appear to him that he mattered somehow;
-that in some undreamt-of way he might leave his mark upon the valley
-before he died.</p>
-
-<p>He would go to Mass in Garradrimna this morning. He very well knew how
-this attendance at morning Mass was a comfort to his mother. He was
-about to do this thing to please her now. Yet, how was the matter going
-to affect himself? He would be stared at by the very walls and trees as
-he went the wet road into Garradrimna; and no matter what position he
-might take up in the chapel there would be very certain to be a few who
-would come kneeling together into a little group and, in hushed tones
-within the presence of their God upon the altar, say:</p>
-
-<p>"Now, isn't that John Brennan I see before me, or can I believe my
-eyes? Aye, it must be him. Expelled, I suppose. Begad that's great.
-Expelled! Begad!" If he happened to take the slightest side-glance
-around, he would catch glimpses of eyes sunk low beneath brows which
-published expressions midway between pity and contempt, between delight
-and curiosity.... In some wonderful way the first evidence of his long
-hoped for downfall would spread throughout the small congregation.
-Those in front would let their heads or prayerbooks fall beside or
-behind them, so that they might have<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[Pg 179]</a></span> an excuse for turning around to
-view the young man who, in his unfortunate presence here, stood for
-this glad piece of intelligence. The acolytes serving Father O'Keeffe,
-and having occasional glimpses of the congregation, would see the
-black-coated figure set there in contradistinction to Charlie Clarke
-and the accustomed voteens with the bobbing bonnets. In their wise
-looks up at him they would seem to communicate the news to the priest.</p>
-
-<p>And although only a very few seconds had elapsed, Father O'Keeffe
-would have thrown off his vestments and be going bounding towards the
-Presbytery for his breakfast as John emerged from the chapel. It would
-be an ostentatious meeting. Although he had neither act nor part in it,
-nor did he favor it in any way, Father O'Keeffe always desired people
-to think that it was he who was "doing for Mrs. Brennan's boy beyond
-in England." ... There would be the usual flow of questions, a deep
-pursing of the lips, and the sudden creation of a wise, concerned,
-ecclesiastical look at every answer. Then there was certain to come
-the final brutal question: "And what are you going to do with yourself
-meanwhile, is it any harm to ask?" As he continued to stare up vacantly
-at the ceiling, John could not frame a possible answer to that
-question. And yet he knew it would be the foremost of Father O'Keeffe's
-questions.</p>
-
-<p>There would be the hurried crowding into every doorway and into all
-the squinting windows as he went past. Outwardly there would be smiles
-of welcome for him, but in the seven publichouses of Garradrimna the
-exultation would be so great as to make men who had been<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[Pg 180]</a></span> ancient
-enemies stand drinks to one another in the moment of gladness which had
-come upon them with the return of John Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"'Tis expelled he is like Ulick Shannon. That's as sure as you're
-there!"</p>
-
-<p>"To be sure he's expelled. And wouldn't any one know he was going to
-be expelled the same as the other fellow, the way they were conducting
-themselves last summer, running after gerrls and drinking like hell?"</p>
-
-<p>"And did ye ever hear such nonsense? The idea of him going on for to be
-a priest!" Then there would be a shaking of wise heads and a coming of
-wise looks into their faces.</p>
-
-<p>He could see what would happen when he met the fathers of Garradrimna,
-when he met Padna Padna or Shamesy Golliher. There would be the short,
-dry laugh from Padna Padna, and a pathetic scrambling of the dimming
-intelligence to recognize him.</p>
-
-<p>"And is that you, John? Back again! Well, boys-a-day! And isn't it
-grand that Ulick Shannon is at home these times too? Isn't it a pity
-about Ulick, for he's a decent fellow? Every bit as decent as his
-father, Henry Shannon, was, and he was a damned decent fellow. Ah, 'tis
-a great pity of him to be exshpelled. Aye, <i>'tis a great pity of any
-one that does be exshpelled</i>."</p>
-
-<p>The meeting with Shamesy Golliher formed as a clearer picture before
-his mind.</p>
-
-<p>"Arrah me sound man, John, sure I thought you'd be saying the Mass
-before this time. There's nothing strange in the valley at all. Only
-'tis harder than ever to get the rabbits, the weeshy devils! Only for
-Ulick<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[Pg 181]</a></span> Shannon I don't know what I'd do for a drink sometimes. But,
-damn it, he's the decentest fellow.... You're only a few minutes late,
-sure 'tis only this blessed minute that Miss Kerr's gone on to the
-school.... And you could have been chatting with her so grandly all the
-way!"</p>
-
-<p>That John Brennan should be thinking after this fashion, creating all
-those little scenes before the eye of his mind and imagining their
-accompanying conversations, was indicative of the way the valley and
-the village had forced their reality upon him last summer. But this
-pictured combination of incidents was intensified by a certain morbid
-way of dwelling upon things his long spells of meditation by the lake
-had brought him. Yet he knew that even all his clear vision of the
-mean ways of life around him would not act as an incentive to combat
-them but, most extraordinary to imagine, as a sort of lure towards the
-persecution of their scenes and incidents.</p>
-
-<p>"It must be coming near time to rise for Mass," he said aloud to
-himself, as he felt that he had been quite a long time giving himself
-up to speculations in which there was no joy.</p>
-
-<p>There was a tap upon the door. It was his mother calling him, as had
-been her custom during all the days of his holiday times. The door
-opened and she came into the room. Her manner seemed to have changed
-somewhat from the night before. The curious look of tenderness she had
-always displayed while gazing upon him seemed to have struggled back
-into her eyes. She came and sat by the bedside and, for a few moments,
-both were silent.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[Pg 182]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"'Tis very cold this morning, mother," was the only thing John could
-think of saying.</p>
-
-<p>A slight confusion seemed to have come upon her since her entrance to
-the room. Without any warning by a word, she suddenly threw her arms
-about him as he lay there on the bed and covered his face with kisses.
-He was amazed, but her kisses seemed to hurt him.... It must have been
-years and years since she had kissed him like this, and now he was a
-man.... When she released him so that he could look up at her he saw
-that she was crying.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm sorry about last night, John," she said. "I'm sorry, darling;
-but surely I could not bring myself to do it. Even for a few hours I
-wanted to keep them from knowing. I even wanted to keep your father
-from knowing. So I did not tell him until I heard your poor, wet foot
-come sopping up to the door. He did not curse much then, for he seems
-to have begun to feel a little respect for you. But the curses of him
-all through the night were enough to lift the roof off the house. Oh,
-he's the terrible man, for all me praying and all me reading to him of
-good, holy books; and 'tis no wonder for all kinds of misfortune to
-fall, though God between us and all harm, what am I saying at all?...
-It was the hard, long walk down the wet, dark road from Kilaconnaghan
-last night, and it pained me every inch of the way. If it hurt your
-feet and your limbs, <i>avic</i>, remember that your suffering was nothing
-to the pain that plowed through your mother's heart all the while you
-were coming along to this house.... But God only knows I couldn't. I
-couldn't let them see me setting off into the twilight upon the little
-ass, and I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[Pg 183]</a></span> going for me son. I even went so far as to catch the little
-ass and yoke him, and put on the grand clothes I was decked out in when
-I met you last June with the motor. But somehow I hadn't the heart
-for the journey this time, and you coming home before you were due. I
-couldn't let them see me! I couldn't let them see me, so I couldn't!"</p>
-
-<p>"But it is not my fault, mother. I have not brought it about directly
-by any action of mine. It comes from the changed state of everything on
-account of the Great War. You may say it came naturally."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, sure I know that, dear, I know it well, and don't be troubling
-yourself. In the letter of the rector before the very last one didn't
-he mention the change of resigned application that had at last come to
-you, and that you had grown less susceptible&mdash;I think that is the grand
-word he used&mdash;aye, less susceptible to distractions and more quiet in
-your mind? And I knew as well as anything that it was coming to pass
-so beautifully, that all the long prayers I had said for you upon me
-two bare, bended knees were after being heard at last, and a great joy
-was just beginning to come surging into me heart when the terrible blow
-of the last letter fell down upon me. But sure I used to be having the
-queerest dreams, and I felt that nothing good was going to happen when
-Ulick Shannon came down here expelled from the University in Dublin.
-You used to be a great deal in his company last summer, and mebbe there
-was some curse put upon the both of you together. May God forgive me,
-but I hate that young fellow like poison. I don't know rightly why
-it is, but it vexes me to see him idling around the way he is after
-what's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[Pg 184]</a></span> happened to him. Bragging about being expelled he bees every
-day in McDermott's of Garradrimna. And his uncle Myles is every bit
-as bad, going to keep him at home until the end of next summer. 'To
-give him time to think of things,' he says. 'I'm going to find a use
-for him,' he says to any one that asks him, 'never you fear!' Well,
-begad, 'tis a grand thing not to know what to do with your money like
-the Shannons of Scarden Hill.... But sure I'm talking and talking. 'Tis
-what I came in to tell you now of the plan I have been making up all
-night. If we let them see that we're lying down under this misfortune
-we're bet surely. We must put a brave face upon it. You must make
-a big show-off that you're after getting special holidays for some
-great, successful examination you've passed ahead of any one else in
-the college. I'll let on I'm delighted, and be mad to tell it to every
-customer that comes into the sewing-room. But you must help me; you
-must go about saying hard things of Ulick Shannon that's after being
-expelled, for that's the very best way you can do it. He'll mebbe seek
-your company like last year, but you must let him see for certain that
-you consider yourself a deal above him. But you mustn't be so quiet
-and go moping so much about the lake as you used to. You must go about
-everywhere, talking of yourself and what you're going to be. Now you
-must do all this for my sake&mdash;won't you, John?"</p>
-
-<p>His tremulous "yes" was very unenthusiastic and seemed to hold no great
-promise of fulfilment. These were hard things his mother was asking him
-to do, and he would require some time to think them over.... But even
-now he wondered was it in him to do them<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[Pg 185]</a></span> at all. The attitude towards
-Ulick Shannon which she now proposed would be a curious thing, for they
-had been the best of friends.</p>
-
-<p>"And while you're doing this thing for me, John, I'll be going on with
-me plans for your future. It was me, and me only, that set up this
-beautiful plan of the priesthood as the future I wanted for you. I got
-no one to help me, I can tell you that. Only every one to raise their
-hands against me. And in spite of all that I carried me plan to what
-success the rector spoke of in his last letter. And even though this
-shadow has fallen across it, me son and meself between us are not going
-to let it be the end. For I want to see you a priest, John. I want to
-see you a priest before I die. God knows I want to see that before I
-die. Nan Byrne's son a priest before she dies!"</p>
-
-<p>Her speech mounted to such a pitch of excitement that towards the end
-it trailed away into a long, frenzied scream. It awoke Ned Brennan
-where he dozed fitfully in the next room, and he roared out:</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, what the hell are yous gosthering and croaking about in there at
-this hour of the morning, the two of yous? It'd be serving you a lot
-better to be down getting me breakfast, Nan Byrne!"</p>
-
-<p>She came away very quietly from the bedside of her son and left the
-room. John remained for some time thinking over the things she had been
-saying. Then he rose wearily and went downstairs. It was only now he
-noticed that his mother had dried his clothes. It must have taken her
-a good portion of the night to do this. His boots, which had been so
-wet and muddy after his walk from Kilaconnaghan, were now polished<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[Pg 186]</a></span>
-to resplendence and standing clean and dry beside the fire. The full
-realization of these small actions brought a fine feeling of tenderness
-into his mind.... He quickly prepared himself to leave the house. She
-observed him with concern as she went about cooking the breakfast for
-her man.</p>
-
-<p>"You're not going to Mass this morning, are ye, John?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, no!" he replied with a nervous quickness. "Our chat delayed me. It
-is now past nine."</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, dear, sure I never thought while I was talking. The last time I
-kept you it was the morning after the concert, and even then you were
-in time for 'half-past eight'.... But sure, anyhow, you're too tired
-this morning."</p>
-
-<p>"I'm going for a little walk before breakfast."</p>
-
-<p>The words broke in queerly upon the thought she had just expressed,
-but his reason was nothing more than to avoid his father, who would be
-presently snapping savagely at his breakfast in the kitchen.</p>
-
-<p>The wet road was cheerless and the bare trees and fields were cold and
-lonely. Everything was in contrast to the mood in which he had known it
-last summer. It seemed as if he would never know it in that mood again.
-Now that he had returned it was a poor thing and very small beside the
-pictures his dream had made.... He was wandering down The Road of the
-Dead and there was a girl coming towards him. He knew it was Rebecca
-Kerr, and this meeting did not appear in the least accidental.</p>
-
-<p>She was dressed, as he had not previously seen her, in a heavy brown
-coat, a thick scarf about her throat and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[Pg 187]</a></span> a pretty velvet cap which hid
-most of her hair. Her small feet were well shod in strong boots, and
-she came radiantly down the wet road. A look of surprise sprang into
-her eyes when she saw him, and she seemed uncertain of herself as they
-stopped to speak.</p>
-
-<p>"Back again?" she said, not without some inquisitive surprise in her
-tones.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, another holiday," he said quickly.</p>
-
-<p>"Nothing wrong?" she queried.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, well, no; but the college has closed down for the period of the
-war."</p>
-
-<p>"That is a pity."</p>
-
-<p>He laughed a queer, excited little laugh, in which there did not seem
-to be any mirth or meaning. Then he picked himself up quickly.</p>
-
-<p>"You won't tell anybody?"</p>
-
-<p>"What about?"</p>
-
-<p>"This that I have told you, about the college."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, dear no!" she replied very quickly, as if amazed and annoyed that
-he should have asked her to respect this little piece of information as
-a confidence. And she had not reckoned on meeting him at all. Besides
-she had not spoken so many words to him since the morning after the
-concert.</p>
-
-<p>She lifted her head high and went on walking between the muddy puddles
-on the way to the valley school.</p>
-
-<p>John felt somewhat crushed by her abruptness, especially after what
-he had told her. And where was the fine resolve with which his mother
-had hoped to infuse him of acting a brave part for her sake before the
-people of the valley?</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[Pg 188]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXIII</h2>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon and his nephew Ulick sat at breakfast in the dining-room
-of the big house among the trees. The <i>Irish Times</i> of the previous
-day's date was crackling in the elder man's hand.</p>
-
-<p>"Did you ever think of joining the Army, Ulick? It is most
-extraordinary, the number of ne'er-do-wells who manage to get
-commissions just now. Why I think there should be no bother at all
-if you tried. With your knowledge I fancy you could get into the
-R.A.M.C. It is evidently infernally easy. I suppose your conduct at the
-University would have nothing to do with your chances of acceptance or
-rejection?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, not at all."</p>
-
-<p>"I thought not."</p>
-
-<p>"But I fancied, uncle, that when I came down here from Dublin I had
-done with intending myself to kill people. That is, with joining any
-combination for purposes of slaughter."</p>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon lifted his eyes from the paper and smiled. Evidently he
-did not appreciate the full, grim point of the joke, but he rather
-fancied there was something subtle about it, and it was in that quiet
-and venerable tradition of humorous things his training had led him to
-enjoy. This was one of the reasons why, even though a Catholic and a
-moderate Nationalist, he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[Pg 189]</a></span> remained a devoted reader of the <i>Irish
-Times</i>. He was conservative even in his humor.</p>
-
-<p>"But in Army medical work, however, there is always the compensating
-chance of the gentleman with the license to kill getting killed
-himself," continued Ulick.</p>
-
-<p>His lips closed now, for he had at last come to the end of his joke.
-The conversation lapsed, and Mr. Shannon went on with his reading.
-Ulick had been to Garradrimna on the previous evening, and he was
-acutely conscious of many defects in his own condition and in the
-condition of the world about him this morning. His thoughts were now
-extending with all the power of which they were capable to his uncle,
-that silent, intent man, whose bald head stretched expansively before
-him.</p>
-
-<p>Myles Shannon was a singularly fine man, and in thinking of him as such
-his mind began to fill with imaginations of the man his father must
-have been. He had never known his father nor, for the matter of that,
-could he boast of any deep acquaintance with his uncle, yet what an
-excellent, restrained type of man he was to be sure! Another in the
-same position as his guardian would have flogged himself into a fury
-over the mess he had made of his studies. But it had not been so with
-his uncle. He had behaved with a calm forbearance. He had supplied him
-with time and money, and had gone even so far as to look kindly upon
-the affair with Rebecca Kerr. He had been here since the beginning of
-the year, and all his uncle had so far said to him by way of asserting
-his authority was spoken very quietly:</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[Pg 190]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Now, I'll give you a fair time to think over things. I'll give you
-till the end of the summer holidays, till after young Brennan comes and
-goes." These had been his uncle's exact words, and he had not attempted
-to question them or to qualify them at the time. But just now they were
-running through his brain with the most curious throbbing insistence.
-"Till after young Brennan comes and goes." He knew that his uncle had
-taken an unusual fancy to John Brennan and evidently wished that his
-summer holidays should be spent enjoyably. But it was a long time until
-summer, and he was not a person one might conscientiously commend to
-the friendship of a clerical student. He very often went to Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick had already formed some impressions of his fellow man. He
-held it as his opinion that at the root of an action, which may
-appear extraordinary because of its goodness, is always an amount of
-selfishness. Yet, somehow, as he carefully considered his uncle in the
-meditative spaces of the breakfast he could not fit him in with this
-idea.</p>
-
-<p>As he went on with his thought he felt that it was the very excess of
-his uncle's qualities which had had such a curious effect upon his
-relations with Rebecca Kerr. It was the very easiness of the path he
-had afforded to love-making which now made it so difficult. If they had
-been forbidden and if they had been persecuted, their early affection
-must have endured more strongly. The opposition of the valley and the
-village still continued, but Ulick considered their bearing upon him
-now as he had always considered it&mdash;with contempt.</p>
-
-<p>There had been a good deal of wild affection <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[Pg 191]</a></span>transported into their
-snatched meetings during the past summer in Donegal. After Christmas,
-too, he had gone there to see her, and then had happened the climax of
-their love-making in a quiet cottage within sound of the sea.... Both
-had moved away from that glowing moment forever changed. Neither could
-tell of the greatness of the shadow that had fallen between them.</p>
-
-<p>He remembered all her tears on the first evening he had met her after
-coming back to the valley. There had been nothing in her letters, only
-the faintest suggestion of some strained feeling. Then had come this
-unhappy meeting.... She had tortured herself into the belief that it
-was she who was responsible for his failure.</p>
-
-<p>"With all the time you have wasted coming to see me I have destroyed
-you. When you should have been at your studies I was taking you up to
-Donegal."</p>
-
-<p>As he listened to these words between her sobs, there rushed in upon
-him full realization of all her goodness and the contrast of two
-pictures her words had called to his mind.... There was he by her side,
-her head upon his shoulder in that lonely cottage in Donegal, their
-young lives lighting the cold, bare place around them.... And then
-the other picture of himself bent low over his dirty, thumb-greased
-books in that abominable street up and down which a cart was always
-lumbering. All the torture of this driving him to Doyle's pub at the
-corner, and afterwards along some squalid street of ill-fame with a few
-more drunken medical students.</p>
-
-<p>He was glad to be with her again. They met very often during his first
-month at his uncle's house, in dark spots along the valley road and The
-Road of the Dead. Then he began to notice a curious reserve springing
-up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[Pg 192]</a></span> between them. She was becoming mysterious while at the same time
-remaining acutely present in his life.</p>
-
-<p>One morning she had asked him if he intended to remain long in the
-valley, and he had not known how to reply to her. Another time she
-had asked him if he was going to retire altogether from the study of
-medicine, and with what did he intend to occupy himself now? And, upon
-a certain occasion, she had almost asked him was it the intention of
-his uncle to leave him the grand farm and the lovely house among the
-trees?</p>
-
-<p>These were vexatious questions and so different from any part of the
-talk they used to have here in the valley last summer or at the cottage
-in Donegal. Her feeling of surrender in his presence had been replaced
-by a sense of possession which seemed the death of all that kindling of
-her heart. Then it had happened that, despite the encouragement of his
-uncle, a shadow had fallen upon his love-affair with Rebecca Kerr....
-He was growing tired of his idle existence in the valley. Very slowly
-he was beginning to see life from a new angle. He was disgusted with
-himself and with the mess he had made of things in Dublin. He could not
-say whether it was her talk with him that had shamed him into thinking
-about it, but he felt again like making something of himself away from
-this mean place. Once or twice he wondered whether it was because he
-wanted to get away from her. Somehow his uncle and himself were the
-only people who seemed directly concerned in the matter. His uncle
-was a very decent man, and he felt that he could not presume on his
-hospitality any longer.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Shannon took off his spectacles and laid by the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[Pg 193]</a></span> <i>Irish Times</i>.
-There was an intimate bond between the man and his paper. He always
-considered it as hitting off his own opinions to a nicety upon any
-subject under the sun. This always after he had read the leaders which
-dealt with these subjects. It afforded a contribution to his thought
-and ideas out of which he spoke with a surer word.</p>
-
-<p>Old Susan Hennessy came into the room with some letters that Farrell
-McGuinness was after leaving. She hobbled in, a hunched, decrepit
-woman, now in the concluding stages of her long life as housekeeper to
-the Shannons, and put the letters into her master's hand.... Then she
-lingered, quite unnecessarily, about the breakfast-table. Her toothless
-gums were stripping as words began to struggle into her mouth.... Mr.
-Shannon took notice of her. This was her usual behavior when she had
-anything of uncommon interest to say.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, what is it now?" said Mr. Shannon, not without some weariness in
-his tones, for he expected only to hear some poor piece of local gossip.</p>
-
-<p>"It's how Farrell McGuinness is after telling me, sir, that John
-Brennan is home."</p>
-
-<p>"Is that a fact?"</p>
-
-<p>"And Farrell says that by the looks on the outside of a certain letter
-that came to Mrs. Brennan th'other day it is what he is after being
-expelled."</p>
-
-<p>"Expelled. Well, well!"</p>
-
-<p>There was a mixture of interest and anxiety in Mr. Shannon's tones.</p>
-
-<p>"A good many of those small English colleges are getting broken up
-and the students drifting into the Army, I suppose that's the reason;
-but of course they'll say he's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[Pg 194]</a></span> been expelled," Ulick ventured as old
-Susan slipped from the room and down to the loneliness of the kitchen,
-where she might brood to her heart's content over this glad piece of
-information, for she was one who well knew the story of John Brennan's
-mother and "poor Misther Henery Shannon."</p>
-
-<p>"Is that so?" The interest of Mr. Shannon was rapidly mounting towards
-excitement.</p>
-
-<p>"A case like that is rather hard," said Ulick.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, it will be rather hard on Mrs. Brennan, I fancy, she being so
-stuck-up with pride in him."</p>
-
-<p>He could just barely hide his feelings of exultation.</p>
-
-<p>"And John Brennan is not a bad fellow."</p>
-
-<p>"I daresay he's not."</p>
-
-<p>There was now a curious note of impatience in the elder man's tones as
-if he wished, for some reason or other, to have done speaking of the
-matter.</p>
-
-<p>"It will probably mean the end of his intention for the Church."</p>
-
-<p>"That is more than likely. These sudden changes have the effect of
-throwing a shadow over many a young fellow's vocation."</p>
-
-<p>His eyes twinkled, but he fingered his mustache nervously as he said
-this.</p>
-
-<p>"Funny to think of the two of us getting thrown down together, we being
-such friends!"</p>
-
-<p>The doubtful humor in the coincidence had appealed to the queer kink
-that was in the mind of Ulick, and it was because of it he now spoke.
-It was the merest wantonness that he should have said this thing, and
-yet it seemed instantly to have struck some hidden chord of deeper
-thought in his uncle's mind. When Myles <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[Pg 195]</a></span>Shannon spoke again it was
-abruptly, and his words seemed to spring out of a sudden impulse:</p>
-
-<p>"You'd better think over that matter of the Army I have just mentioned."</p>
-
-<p>It was the first time his uncle Myles had spoken to him in this way,
-and now that the rod of correction had fallen even thus lightly he did
-not like it at all. He felt that his face was already flushing.... And
-into his mind was burning again the thought of how he had made such a
-mess of things.... He moved towards the door, and there was his uncle's
-voice again raised as if in the reproof of authority:</p>
-
-<p>"And where might you be going to-day?"</p>
-
-<p>"Down the valley to see my friend John Brennan, who'll be surely lonely
-on the first day at home," he said, rather hurriedly, as he went out in
-the hallway to get his overcoat.</p>
-
-<p>When Myles Shannon was left alone he immediately drifted into deeper
-thought there in the empty room with his back to the fire. With one
-hand he clasped his long coat-tails, and with the other nervously
-twirled his long mustache. He was thinking rapidly, and his thoughts
-were so strong within him that he was speaking them aloud.</p>
-
-<p>"I might not have gone so far. Don't you see how I might have waited in
-patience and allowed the hand of Fate to adjust things? See how grandly
-they are coming around.... And now maybe I have gone too far. Maybe I
-have helped to spoil Ulick's life into the bargain. And then there's
-the third party, this girl, Rebecca Kerr?"</p>
-
-<p>He looked straight out before him now, and away over<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[Pg 196]</a></span> the remains of
-the breakfast.... He crossed to the window and gazed for a while over
-the wet fields. He moved into the cold, empty parlor and gazed from
-its window also over the fields.... Then he turned and for a space
-remained looking steadfastly at the bureau which held so much of
-<i>Her</i>. Quite suddenly he crossed over and unlocked it.... Yes, there,
-with the other dead things, were the photograph of Helena Cooper and
-the letters she had written, and the letter John Brennan's mother had
-written about him. He raised his eyes from the few, poor relics and
-they gathered into their depths the loneliness of the parlor.... Here
-was the picture of this girl, who was young and lovely, while around
-him, surging emptily forever, was the loneliness of his house. It was
-Nan Byrne who had driven him to this, and it was Nan Byrne who had
-ruined his brother Henry.... And yet he was weakly questioning his
-just feelings of revenge against this woman, but for whom he might now
-be a happy man. He might have laughter in this house and the sound
-of children at play. But now he had none of these things, and he was
-lonely.... He looked into the over-mantel, and there he was, an empty
-figure, full of a strong family pride that really stood for nothing,
-a polite survival from the mild romance of the early nineties of the
-last century, a useless thing amid his flocks and herds. A man who had
-none of the contentment which comes from the company of a woman or her
-children, a mean creature, who, during visits to the cattle-market,
-occasionally wasted his manhood in dingy adventure about low streets
-in Dublin. One who remained apart from the national thought of his own
-country reading<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[Pg 197]</a></span> queer articles in the <i>Irish Times</i> about "resolute"
-government of Ireland.</p>
-
-<p>His head lay low upon his chest because he was a man mightily oppressed
-by a great feeling of abasement.</p>
-
-<p>"In the desolation of her heart through the destruction of her son," he
-muttered to himself, not without a certain weariness, as he moved away
-from the mirror.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[Pg 198]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXIV</h2>
-
-<p>Whenever a person from the valley went abroad now to fair or market the
-question was always asked:</p>
-
-<p>"Is it a fact that Ulick Shannon was expelled from the University in
-Dublin and is at home? And is it a fact that John Brennan is at home
-from the college he was at too, the grand college in England whose
-story his mother spread far and wide?"</p>
-
-<p>"That's quite so, ma'am. It's a double fact!"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, well!"</p>
-
-<p>"And is it a fact that they do be always together, going by back ways
-into the seven publichouses of Garradrimna?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed, that's true, ma'am, and now you have the whole of it. Sure
-it was in the same seven publichouses that the pair of them laid the
-foundations of their ruination last summer. Sure, do ye know what I'm
-going to tell you? They couldn't be kept out of them, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"</p>
-
-<p>Now it was true that if Ulick had gone at all towards Garradrimna it
-was through very excess of spirits, and it was for the very same reason
-that he had enticed John Brennan to go with him.... That time they were
-full of hope and their minds were held by their thoughts of Rebecca.
-But now, somehow, she seemed to have slipped<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[Pg 199]</a></span> out of the lives of both
-of them. And because both had chosen. The feeling had entered into
-Ulick's heart. But in the case of John Brennan it was not so certain.
-What had brought him out upon the first morning of his homecoming to
-take a look at her? It would seem that, through the sudden quickening
-of his mind towards study just before the break-up of the college,
-he should have forgotten her.... His life now seemed to hang in the
-balance shudderingly; a breath might direct it anyway.</p>
-
-<p>He felt that he should have liked to make some suggestions of his own
-concerning his future, but there was always that tired look of love in
-his mother's eyes to frustrate his intention.... Often he would go into
-the sewing-room of a morning and she would say so sadly as she bent
-over her machine&mdash;"I'm contriving, John; I'm contriving!" He had come
-to the years of manhood and yet he must needs leave every initiative in
-her hands since she would have it so.... Thus was he driven from the
-house at many a time of the day.</p>
-
-<p>He went to morning Mass as usual, but the day was long and dreary after
-that, for the weather was wet and the coldness of winter still lay
-heavy over the fields. The evenings were the dreariest as he sat over
-his books in his room and listened to the hum of his mother's machine.
-Later this would give place to the tumultuous business of his father's
-home-coming from Garradrimna. Sometimes things were broken, and the
-noise would destroy his power of application. Thus it was that, for the
-most part, he avoided the house in the evenings. At the fall of dark he
-would go slipping along the wet road on his way to Garradrimna. Where
-the way from Scarden joined the way from Tullahanogue he generally met<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_200" id="Page_200">[Pg 200]</a></span>
-Ulick Shannon, comfortably top-coated, bound for the same place.</p>
-
-<p>It seemed as if the surrounding power of the talk their presence in the
-valley had created was driving them towards those scenes in which that
-talk had pictured them. Through the dusk people would smirk at them as
-they were seen going the road.... They would slip into McDermott's by
-the same back way that Ned Brennan had often gone to Brannagan's. Many
-a time did they pass the place in the woods where John had beheld the
-adventure of his father and the porter last summer.... In the bottling
-room of McDermott's they would fancy they were unseen, but Shamesy
-Golliher or Padna Padna or Thomas James would be always cropping up
-most unaccountably to tell the tale when they went out into the bar
-again after what would appear the most accidental glance into the
-bottling-room.... John would take port wine and Ulick whatever drink he
-preferred. But even the entertainment of themselves after this fashion
-did not evoke the subtle spell of last summer. There was no laughter,
-no stories, even of a questionable kind, when Josie Guinan came to
-answer their call. Every evening she would ask the question:</p>
-
-<p>"Well, how is Rebecca, Ulick?"</p>
-
-<p>This gross familiarity irritated him greatly, for his decent breeding
-made him desire that she should keep her distance. Besides he did not
-want any one to remind him of Rebecca just now. He never answered this
-question, nor the other by which it was always followed:</p>
-
-<p>"You don't see her very often now, do ye? But of course the woods bees
-wet these times."</p>
-
-<p>The mere mention of Rebecca's name in this filthy<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_201" id="Page_201">[Pg 201]</a></span> place annoyed John
-Brennan, who thought of her continuously as some one far beyond all
-aspects of Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>Yet they would be forever coming here to invite this persecution. Ulick
-would ever and again retreat into long silences that were painful for
-his companion. But John found some solace come to him through the
-port wine. So much was this the case that he began to have a certain
-hankering after spending the evening in this way. When the night
-had fallen thick and dark over Garradrimna they would come out of
-McDermott's and spend long hours walking up and down the valley road.
-Ulick would occasionally give vent to outbursts of talk upon impersonal
-subjects&mdash;the war and politics, the tragic trend of modern literature.
-John always listened with interest. He never wished to return early to
-the house, for he dreaded the afflicted drone of his mother reading the
-holy books to his father by the kitchen fire.</p>
-
-<p>During those brief spells, when the weather brightened for a day or
-two, he often took walks down by the school and towards the lake....
-Always he felt, through power of an oppressive realization, that
-the eyes of Master Donnellan were upon him as he slipped past the
-school.... So he began to go by a lane which did not take him before
-the disappointed eyes of the old man.</p>
-
-<p>Going this way one day he came upon a battered school-reader of an
-advanced standard, looking so pathetic in its final desertion by its
-owner, for there is nothing so lonely as the things a schoolboy leaves
-behind him.... He began to remember the days when he, too, had gone
-to the valley school and there instituted the great promise which, so
-far, had not come to fulfilment. He was <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_202" id="Page_202">[Pg 202]</a></span>turning over the leaves when
-he came on a selection from Carlyle's <i>French Revolution</i>&mdash;"Thy foot
-to light on softness, thy eye on splendor." He pondered it as he stood
-by the water's edge and until it connected itself with his thought of
-Rebecca. <i>Thy foot to light on softness, thy eye on splendor.</i></p>
-
-<p>It would be nearing three o'clock now, he thought, and Rebecca must
-soon be going from school. He might see her passing along between the
-muddy puddles on The Road of the Dead.</p>
-
-<p>He had fallen down before her again.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[Pg 203]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXV</h2>
-
-<p>In the high, gusty evening Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, was
-standing proudly at his own door surveying the street of Garradrimna.
-It was his custom to appear thus at the close of the day in
-contemplation of his great possessions. He owned four houses in the
-village, four proud buildings which advertised his worth before the
-beggars of the parish&mdash;out of whom he had made the price of them. But
-he was distrustful of his customers to an enormous degree, and his
-purpose in standing thus at his own door was not altogether one of
-aimless speculation upon his own spacious importance in Garradrimna.
-He was watching to see that some people going down the valley road
-upon ass-carts did not attempt to take away any of the miscellaneous
-merchandise exhibited outside the door. As he stood against the
-background of his shop, from which he might be said to have derived his
-personality, one could view the man in his true proportions beneath his
-hard, high hat. His short beard was beginning to show tinges of gray,
-and the deepening look of preoccupation behind his glasses gave him the
-appearance of becoming daily more and more like John Dillon.</p>
-
-<p>Father O'Keeffe came by and said: "Good-evening, Tommy!" This was a
-tribute to his respectability and worth. He was the great man of the
-village, the head and front of everything. Events revolved around him.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_204" id="Page_204">[Pg 204]</a></span>
-He would have you know that he was somebody, so he was. A politician
-after the fashion in the Ireland of his time, he organized and spoke
-at public meetings. He always wanted to be saying things in support
-of "The Cause." "The Cause" was to him a kind of poetic ideal. His
-patriotic imagination had intensified its glory. But it was not the
-future of Ireland he yearned to see made glorious. He looked forward
-only to the triumph of "The Cause."</p>
-
-<p>Upon the death of his father, also a patriot, the little mean huckstery
-at the tail end of the village street had descended to him; and
-although he had risen to the dignity and proprietorship of four houses,
-this establishment had never changed, for, among the many ancient
-superstitions which crowded his mind, the hoary one of the existence
-of luck where there is muck occupied a place of prominence. And like
-his father he was a rebel&mdash;in his mind. The more notable political
-mountebanks of his time were all men who had fought as upon a field
-of battle. Words served them as weapons, and words were the weapons
-that he loved; he might have died if he were not fighting, and to him
-talk meant battle. He used to collect all the supplemental pictures of
-those patriots from <i>The Weekly Freeman</i> and paste them in a scrapbook
-for edification of his eldest son, whom he desired to be some day a
-unit of their combination. An old-fashioned print of Dan O'Connell
-hung side by side with a dauby caricature of Robert Emmet in the old
-porter-smelling parlor off the bar. The names of the two men were
-linked inseparably with one of his famous phrases&mdash;"The undying spirit
-of Irish Nationality."</p>
-
-<p>Occasionally, when he had a drunken and enthusiastic<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_205" id="Page_205">[Pg 205]</a></span> crowd in that
-part of his many-sided establishment which was a public bar, he would
-read out in a fine loud voice how "The Cause" was progressing, and,
-having learned by heart a speech of John Dillon's, he would lash it
-out to them as a composition of his own. Whereupon the doubly excited
-audience would shake his hand as one man and shout: "More power there,
-mister; 'tis yourself is the true Irishman, me sweet fellow!" He could
-be very funny too when occasion demanded, and tell stories of Father
-Healy of Bray at pleasant little dinners which took place in the upper
-story of his house after every political meeting held in Garradrimna.
-He never missed the opportunity and the consequent honor of singing "On
-an old Irish Hill in the Morning" at every one of those dinners. He was
-always warmly applauded by Father O'Keeffe, who invariably occupied
-the chair. He was treasurer of the fund, out of which he was paid for
-supplying all this entertainment.</p>
-
-<p>His wife was the daughter of a farmer of the "red-hat" class. He had
-been compelled to marry her.... If this had happened to a poor man
-the talk would have followed him to the grave. But they were afraid
-to talk censoriously of the patriot who had enveloped all of them.
-He practically owned them.... The priest could not deliver an attack
-upon the one who headed his lists of Offerings and Easter Dues and
-the numerous collections which brought in the decent total of Father
-O'Keeffe's income.</p>
-
-<p>To Rebecca Kerr had been given the position of governess to the
-Williams household. She had not sought it, but, on the removal of the
-two boys, Michael Joseph and Paddy, from the care of Master Donnellan
-to this<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_206" id="Page_206">[Pg 206]</a></span> more genteel way of imparting knowledge and giving correction,
-which savored somewhat of the splendor of the Moores of Garradrimna
-and the Houlihans of Clonabroney, had merely accepted it as part of
-the system of the place. She had fully anticipated such possibilities
-upon the very evening of her arrival.... Besides old Master Donnellan
-had thanked her from his heart for the release she had been the means
-of affording him, and she liked the master for a quiet, kind old man
-who did not prate or meddle. So far she had made little improvement in
-either of the boys. But Mrs. Williams was evidently delighted for "our
-governess, Miss Kerr," was the one person she ever spoke a good word of
-to Father O'Keeffe.</p>
-
-<p>This evening Rebecca was in the parlor, seated just beneath the
-pictures of Dan O'Connell and Robert Emmet, wrestling hard with the
-boys. All at once her pupils commanded her to be silent. "Whist!" they
-said in unison. She was momentarily amazed into eavesdropping at their
-behest....</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, not at all, Mrs. Brennan, sure and I couldn't think of the like at
-all at all!"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, Mr. Williams, as a well-known benefactor of the college at
-Ballinamult and a good, religious man to boot, I thought that mebbe you
-could give John a recommendation. It would be grand to see him there
-and he working himself up to the summit of his ambition. There would be
-a great reward to your soul for doing the like of that, Mr. Williams,
-as sure as you're there."</p>
-
-<p>"And now, woman-a-dear, what about my own sons, Michael Joseph and
-Paddy?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them, Mr. Williams!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_207" id="Page_207">[Pg 207]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"But I could not think of jeopardizing them while I'd be doing for the
-families or the sons of the stranger."</p>
-
-<p>"But sure, sir, I'll pay you at any rate of interest you like if
-only you could see your way to give me this help. Enough to buy a
-bicycle that'll take him over to Ballinamult every day and your grand
-recommendation to the priests that'll be worth gold. I'll pay you every
-penny I can, and sure the poor boy will repay you everything when he
-comes into the position that's due to him."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I don't know. I don't think the missus&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>At this very moment Mrs. Williams came into the parlor where Rebecca
-sat with them, and beamed upon her sons.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, my poor boys, sure it is killed you are with the terrible strain
-of the study. Sure it is what you'd better go out into the fields now
-with the pony; but mind, be careful! You poor little fellows!"</p>
-
-<p>Michael Joseph and Paddy at once snatched up their caps and rushed
-for the door. So much for the extent of their training and Rebecca's
-control of them, for this was a daily happening. But another part of
-her hour of torture at the gombeen-man's house had yet to come. Of
-late Mrs. Williams had made of her a kind of <i>confidante</i> in the small
-concerns of her household. She was the sort of woman who must needs be
-always talking to some one of her affairs. Now she enlarged upon the
-immediate story of how Mrs. Brennan had been begging and craving of
-Tommy to do something for her son John, who had been sent home from
-the place he was in England. "The cheek of her, mind you, that Mrs.
-Brennan!" emphasized Mrs. Williams.</p>
-
-<p>If it had been any other schoolmistress or girl of any<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_208" id="Page_208">[Pg 208]</a></span> kind at all
-that Mrs. Williams had ever known, they would have acquiesced in this
-statement of denunciation and said: "That's a sure fact for you,
-ma'am!" or "Just so!" But this had never been Rebecca's way. She merely
-said: "John Brennan is a very nice young fellow!"</p>
-
-<p>Although Mrs. Williams was surprised, she merely said: "Is that so?
-Sure I know very little about him only to see him pass the door. They
-say he's taken the fashion of tippling a bit, and it's to McDermott's
-he does go, d'ye mind, with Ulick Shannon, and not to this house. But,
-of course, it's my bold Ulick that's spending. Easy for him, begad, and
-it not his own."</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca saw the dirty meanness that stirred in this speech.</p>
-
-<p>"That's what they say and it is surely a great pity to see him wasting
-his time about the roads of the valley. I think it would be a grand
-piece of charity on the part of any one who would be the means of
-taking him away from this place. If only he could be afforded some
-little help. 'Tis surely not his fault that the college in England
-broke down, and although his mother is, I believe, contriving the best
-for his future, sure it is hard for her. She is only a poor woman, and
-the people of the valley seem queerly set against her. I don't know
-why. They seem to hate the very sight of her."</p>
-
-<p>"You may say that indeed, and it is the good reasons they have&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Williams suddenly checked herself, for there flashed across her
-mind a chapter of her own story. She had been one of the lucky ones....
-Besides, by slow steps, Rebecca was coming to have some power over her.</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_209" id="Page_209">[Pg 209]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Of course it would be no loss to Tommy if he did give this help. He'd
-be bound to get the interest of his money, even if he were to sell her
-out of house and home. He knows his business, and he's not against it
-himself, I may tell you; for he sees a return in many a way. It was
-myself that was keeping him from it on account of the boy's mother.
-But, of course, if you think it would be a nice, good thing to do&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"It would be a good thing, and a very good thing, and one of the best
-actions you could put for luck before your own sons."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them! Is it Michael Joseph or Paddy?"</p>
-
-<p>"Of course not, indeed, nor did I mean anything of the kind. I only
-said it to soften you, Mrs. Williams."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I may tell you it's all right, Miss Kerr. Mrs. Brennan is out
-there in the shop, and she's craving from me man.... It'll be all
-right, Miss Kerr, and that's a fact.... I'll make it all right, never
-you fear!"</p>
-
-<p>In this way was John Brennan again led back into the paths of the
-Church. Curious that it should have been given Rebecca to effect the
-change in his condition&mdash;Rebecca, whose beauty, snatching at his
-spirit always, had drawn his mind into other ways of contemplation.
-In less than a week, through the powerful ecclesiastical influence of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, he was riding daily to the college at
-Ballinamult. By teaching outside the hours allotted for his own study
-he was earning part of his fees, and, as a further example of his worth
-to the community, Tommy Williams was paying the other portion, although
-as a purely financial speculation.... In a year it was expected he
-would win one<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_210" id="Page_210">[Pg 210]</a></span> of the Diocesan Scholarships and go up to Maynooth.
-Mrs. Brennan knew more joy than had ever before possessed her. Her son
-was to be ordained in Ireland after all, and maybe given a curacy in
-his own diocese. Who knew but he might yet follow in the footsteps of
-Father O'Keeffe and become Parish Priest of Garradrimna while she was
-still alive here in this little house in the valley!</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_211" id="Page_211">[Pg 211]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXVI</h2>
-
-<p>The meetings of Ulick and Rebecca had become less and less frequent.
-Sometimes she would not see him for days at a stretch, and such periods
-would appear as desert spaces. She would be driven by them into the
-life of the valley, where no echo of comfort ever came to her. Even
-the little children created an irritation with their bright faces
-continually reminding her of all the prayers they had said for her
-intentions.... It was curious that she never asked them to say a prayer
-for her intentions now. And their looks would seem to be beseeching
-her forever. And yet she could not&mdash;she could not ask them now....
-Each distinct phase of the day seemed to hold for her its own peculiar
-tortures. These seemed to have reached their climax and very moment of
-ecstasy on the days succeeding upon one another when Monica McKeon came
-in at the recreation hour to take her luncheon in company with Mrs.
-Wyse.</p>
-
-<p>Monica would be certain to say with the most unfailing regularity and,
-in fact, with exactly the same intonation upon all occasions: "I wonder
-when that Ulick Shannon is going away?" To which Mrs. Wyse would reply
-in a tone which would seem to have comprehended all knowledge: "Ah,
-sure, he'll never go far!" Presently Monica would begin to let fall
-from her slyly her usual string of phrases: "Wouldn't you be inclined
-to say, now, that Ulick Shannon is good-looking?" Talking of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_212" id="Page_212">[Pg 212]</a></span> some
-other one, she would describe him as being "Just like Ulick Shannon,
-don't you know!" And if they happened to be discussing the passage of
-some small event it would invariably circle around the breathless point
-of interest&mdash;"And who do you think was there only Ulick Shannon?" Then
-from where she sat supping her tea out of a saucerless cup Mrs. Wyse
-would give out her full opinion of Ulick Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>"He's the quare sort, just like his father. I don't think I've ever
-seen a son to take after his father so closely. And <i>he</i> was what you
-might call a quare character in his day. It was said that a girl as
-well as lost her good name if she was seen talking twice in succession
-to Henry Shannon, he was that bad. Like father, like son is surely the
-case between Henry and Ulick Shannon!"</p>
-
-<p>This seemed at all times the strangest talk for Rebecca to be
-hearing.... It often caused her to shiver even though spring was well
-on its way. And they would never let it out of their minds; they would
-never let it rest. They were always talking at her about Ulick Shannon,
-for they seemed to know.</p>
-
-<p>But no one knew save herself. It was a grand secret. Not even Ulick
-knew. She hugged the dear possession of her knowledge to herself. There
-was the strangest excitement upon her to escape from school in the
-evenings so that she might enjoy her secret in loneliness.</p>
-
-<p>Even this joy had been dissipated by her certainty of meeting
-John Brennan somewhere upon the road in the near vicinity of the
-school.... Now, as she thought of it upon an evening a few days after
-she had spoken to Mrs. Williams in his favor, she fancied that his
-lonely<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_213" id="Page_213">[Pg 213]</a></span> admiration for her must have been growing in strength since
-his return.... There had always been a sense of sudden relief in
-his presence after the torture of the two women, a feeling of high
-emancipation like the rushing in of some clean wind.... Only a few
-words had ever passed between them on those occasions, but now they
-were to her throbbing brain of blessed and sweet memory. And there had
-always been the same look upon his face, making her try to puzzle out
-in what possible way he could look upon her. Could it be in the way
-she had looked upon him, with a full kindliness working into the most
-marvelous ways of sympathy? Yet she missed him ever so much, now that
-he was to be no longer seen upon the road.</p>
-
-<p>It was strange enough, too, as she thought of it, that although the
-reason of Mrs. Williams in taking a fancy to her was no more than the
-selfish one of showing her dislike for Master Donnellan, it should
-have borne good fruit after this fashion. Yet a certain loneliness, a
-certain feeling of empty sadness was to be her reward because she had
-done a good thing.... No one at all now to take her mind away as she
-wandered from torture to torture in the afternoons.... On one of the
-first evenings of the changed condition of things Mrs. McGoldrick,
-noticing in her keen mind that Rebecca was a minute or so earlier than
-usual, said, after the manner of one proud of being able to say it:</p>
-
-<p>"Is it a fact, Miss Kerr, that John Brennan bees going as a kind of a
-charity teacher or something to the college at Ballinamult?"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, if it's a fact, it is a fact," said Rebecca in a tired, dull
-voice and without showing any interest <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_214" id="Page_214">[Pg 214]</a></span>whatsoever. But even this
-attitude did not baulk the sergeant's wife, for she hurried on:</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, God help his innocent wit, but sure he'll never be a priest, he'll
-never be a priest! 'Tis a pity of his mother, but sure she could hardly
-expect it to be so, for she wasn't a good woman, they tell me, and she
-ought to know, you know, that she could hardly expect it to be so!"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca saw at once that her landlady was in one of her fits of
-garrulousness, so she concluded in consequence that there would not be
-much pleasure in her dinner to-day. She passed it untasted and went
-upstairs wearily. There was a certain grim comfort in thinking that
-she had left Mrs. McGoldrick with her harangue unfinished and a great
-longing upon her to be talking.... She flung herself upon the bed in
-the still untidied room. She was weary with some great, immeasurable
-weariness this blessed evening.... Her corset hurt her, and she sat
-up again to take it off. She caught sight of herself reflected in
-the mirror opposite.... How worn she looked! Her brows, with their
-even curves, did not take from the desolation that had fallen upon
-her forehead, where it was grown harder as beneath the blows of some
-tyrannic thought. And it seemed as if the same thought had plowed all
-the lines which were beginning to appear there now.... It must be that
-she had long since entered into a mood of mourning for the things she
-had lost in the valley.</p>
-
-<p>She fell to remembering the first evening she had come to it, and of
-how she had begun to play with her beauty on that very first evening.
-It had appeared then as the only toy in her possession in this place
-of dreary<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_215" id="Page_215">[Pg 215]</a></span> immensity. And now it seemed to have run through many and
-sudden vicissitudes. She had allowed Ulick Shannon to play with it
-too.... But his language had been so sweet when he had praised her in
-the silent woods.... And in the lonely cottage in Donegal, where he
-had gone to see her after Christmas, there had been abiding joy, while
-outside the night swept wild and dark upon the cold, gray sea.... Here
-there came sudden qualms as to whether she had helped to ruin him by
-taking him away from preparation for his final exam. But there was such
-an urge of dear remembrance upon her that her mind sprang quickly back
-again to all the thoughts they had had between them then.... Back into
-her mind too were thronging the exact words he had used upon that night
-they had spent together in the cottage.</p>
-
-<p>And by the side of all this, was it not queer that he came so seldom to
-see her now although he lived distant from her by only a few fields?
-Even when he came their partings were so abrupt, after a little period
-of strained conversation, when he always went with a slight excuse in
-his mouth to Garradrimna. Yet all the time she longed for his presence
-by her side with an even greater longing than that she had experienced
-in Donegal.... It was also painfully notable how he gave shifty answers
-to her every question. And had she not a good right to be asking him
-questions now?... And surely he must guess by this time.</p>
-
-<p>She threw her head back upon the pillow once more, and once more she
-was weeping. She thought, through the mist of her tears, of how she
-had so bitterly wept upon the first evening of her coming to this
-room. But<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_216" id="Page_216">[Pg 216]</a></span> on that evening also she had prayed, and she could not pray
-now. Nor could she sleep. She remained there upon the bed, inert in
-every sense save for her empty stare up at the discolored ceiling. It
-was broken only by the queer smile she would take to herself ever and
-again.... At last she began to count upon her fingers. She was simply
-counting the number of times she had seen Ulick since his return to his
-uncle's house.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, dear, dear, and what have I done to him?" she muttered
-incessantly, biting her lips occasionally between her words as if in a
-very ecstasy of desire for the pain he was causing her.... There came
-moments, winged and clean like shining angels, to bring her comfort,
-when she wildly fancied it was the very loveliest thing to endure great
-pain for his sake.</p>
-
-<p>But the powers of her mind for any wild gladness were being gradually
-annihilated by dark thoughts coming down to defeat her thoughts of
-beauty. She turned from contemplation of the ceiling and began to
-glance around the room in search of some distraction. In one corner
-she saw an old novelette thrown aside in its gaudy covers. The reading
-of rubbish was Mrs. McGoldrick's recreation when she was not sewing or
-nursing the baby.</p>
-
-<p>She had called the girls after heroines of passionate love-stories,
-just as her husband, the sergeant, had seen that the boys were called
-after famous men in the world of the police. Thus the girls bore names
-like Euphemia McGoldrick and Clementina McGoldrick, while the boys bore
-names like John Ross McGoldrick and Neville Chamberlain McGoldrick.
-The girls, although they were ugly and ill-mannered, had already been
-invested with the golden lure of Romance, and the boys were already<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_217" id="Page_217">[Pg 217]</a></span>
-policemen although they were still far distant from the age when they
-could put on a belt or a baton.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca began to snatch at paragraphs here and there through the story,
-which was entitled <i>The Desecration of the Hearth</i>. There was one
-passage which seemed to hold an unaccountable fascination as her eyes
-lingered over it:</p>
-
-<blockquote><p>"<i>Then suddenly, and without a minute's warning, Lord Archibald
-Molyneux dashed the poor, ruined girl from him, and soon she was
-struggling for life in the swirling stream.</i></p>
-
-<p>"<i>'Ah-a-ha!' he said once more, hissing out his every word
-between his thin, cruel lips. 'That will may be put an end to
-your scandalous allegations against a scion of the noble house of
-Molyneux.'</i></p>
-
-<p>"<i>'Mercy! Pity! Oh, God! The Child!' she wailed piteously as she
-felt herself being caught in the maelstrom of the current.</i></p>
-
-<p>"<i>But Lord Archibald Molyneux merely twirled his dark, handsome
-mustache with his white hands, after the fashion that was peculiar
-to him, and waited until his unfortunate victim had disappeared
-completely beneath the surface of the water.</i>"</p></blockquote>
-
-<p>Rebecca's eyes had closed over the passage, and she was dozing now,
-but only fitfully.... To occupy small instants would come the most
-terrifying dreams in long waves of horror which would seem to take
-great spaces of time for their final passage from her mind. Then there
-would flow in a brief space of respite, but only as a prelude to the
-dread recurrence of her dreams again.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_218" id="Page_218">[Pg 218]</a></span> And all jumbled together, bits
-of wild reality which were and were not parts of her experience would
-cause her to start up ever and anon.</p>
-
-<p>There fell a knock upon the door, and a little girl came in with some
-tea-things on a tray. She called: "Miss Kerr, your tea!" and when
-Rebecca woke up with a terrible start it appeared as if she had not
-slumbered at all.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, is that yourself, Euphemia? I declare to goodness the dusk is
-falling outside. I must have been sleeping."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, miss!"</p>
-
-<p>"You are late in coming this evening?"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, wait till I tell you, miss. I went into the village for some
-things for my mother, and what d'ye think but when I was coming home I
-thought I saw a strange man just outside the ditch opposite the door,
-and I was afraid for to pass, so I was."</p>
-
-<p>"A strange man! Is that a fact?"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, sure then I thought, miss, it might be Ulick Shannon, but I may
-tell you I got the surprise of my life when I found it was only John
-Brennan, and he standing there alone by himself looking up at your
-window."</p>
-
-<p>Long before she had got through it, with many lisps and lapses, Rebecca
-was wearied by the triteness of the little one's statement, so well
-copied was it from the model of her mother's gossipy communication of
-the simplest fact.</p>
-
-<p>But what could John Brennan be doing there so near her again? This was
-the thought that held Rebecca as she went on with an attempt to take her tea.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_219" id="Page_219">[Pg 219]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXVII</h2>
-
-<p>John Brennan came down the valley. The trees by the roadside were
-being shaken heavily by soft winds. Yet, for all the kindness of May
-that lingered about it, there seemed to be some shadow hanging over
-the evening. No look of peace or pity had struggled into the squinting
-windows.... Would the valley ever again put on the smile it had worn
-last summer? That time it had been so dearly magnified. At leaving it
-there had been such a crush of feeling in his breast.</p>
-
-<p>He seemed to see it more clearly now. There was something that hurt him
-in the thought of how he was preparing for a genteel kind of life while
-his father remained a common sponger around the seven publichouses of
-Garradrimna, asking people to stand him drinks for the love of God like
-Anthony Shaughness. He could not forget that the valley had wrought
-this destruction upon Ned Brennan, and that Ned Brennan was his father.</p>
-
-<p>This thought arose out of a definite cause. At the college in
-Ballinamult he had made the acquaintance of Father George Considine,
-who had already begun to exercise an influence over him. This priest
-was a simple, holy man, who had devoted his life usefully, remaining
-far away from the ways of pride. Although gombeen-men like Tommy
-Williams had some influence with those who controlled the college, they
-had no influence over him. He was in curious contrast to the system<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_220" id="Page_220">[Pg 220]</a></span>
-which tied him to this place. It was impossible to think that his
-ordination had represented a triumph to any one at all, yet he had been
-far ahead of his contemporaries and while yet a young man had been made
-principal of this college in Ballinamult. His name had gone out into
-the world. The satisfaction that had been denied to Master Donnellan
-was his. He had had a hand in the education of men whose names were
-now notable in many a walk of life. And yet, to see him moving about
-the grounds of the college in his faded coat with the frayed sleeves
-and shiny collar, no man would think that his name, the name of "poor
-Father Considine," was spoken with respect in distant places.</p>
-
-<p>But Mrs. Brennan did not approve of him. On the evening of John's first
-day in Ballinamult, after she had made every other possible inquiry she
-said:</p>
-
-<p>"And did you meet Father Considine?"</p>
-
-<p>"I did indeed, mother; a nice man!"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, a quare ould oddity! Wouldn't you think now that he'd have a
-little pride in himself and dress a bit better, and he such a very
-learned man?"</p>
-
-<p>"Maybe that's just the reason why he's not proud. The saints were not
-proud, mother; then why should he be?"</p>
-
-<p>She always gave a deaf ear to any word of this kind from John, for
-her ideal was Father O'Keeffe, with his patent leather top-boots,
-silver-mounted whip and silk hat, riding to hounds with the Cromwellian
-descendants of the district.... Here was where Father Considine stood
-out in sharp contrast, for he was in spiritual descent from those
-priests who had died with the people in the Penal Days. It was men
-like him who had carried<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_221" id="Page_221">[Pg 221]</a></span> down the grandeur of Faith and Idealism from
-generation to generation. One felt that life was a small thing to him
-beyond the chance it gave to make it beautiful. He had written a little
-book of poems in honor of Mary, the Mother of God, and to feel that it
-had brought some comfort to many a troubled one and to know that he had
-been the means of shaping young men's lives towards useful ends was all
-that this world meant to him.</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan knew very well that if he became a priest it was in the
-steps of Father Considine he would follow rather than in those of
-Father O'Keeffe. This he felt must mean the frustration of half his
-mother's grand desire, but, inevitable, it must be so, for it was the
-way his meditative mind would lead him. Thus was he troubled again.</p>
-
-<p>Father Considine had spoken to him of Father O'Keeffe:</p>
-
-<p>"A touch of the farmer about that man don't you think? But maybe a
-worthy man for all that!"</p>
-
-<p>Then he had looked long into the young man's eyes and said:</p>
-
-<p>"Be humble, my son, be humble, so that great things may be done unto
-you!"</p>
-
-<p>John had pondered these words as he cycled home that evening past the
-rich fields. He began to think how his friend Ulick would have put all
-his thoughts so clearly. How he would have spoken of the rank green
-grass now rising high over County Meath as a growth that had sprung
-from the graves of men's rotted souls; of all the hate and pride that
-had come out of their hunger for the luscious land; of how Faith and
-Love and Beauty had gone forever from this golden vale to the wild
-places<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_222" id="Page_222">[Pg 222]</a></span> of his country, where there was a letting-in of wind and sun
-and sea.... It was easy to connect Father O'Keeffe's pride with the
-land. Remembrance of the man's appearance was sufficient. It was not so
-easy in the case of his mother. But, of course, John had no knowledge
-of how she had set her heart upon Henry Shannon's lovely farm in the
-days gone by.</p>
-
-<p>Hitherto his thoughts of his future condition had been bound up with
-consideration of his mother, but now there had come this realization
-of his father. It was not without its sadness to think that his father
-had been a stranger to him always and that he should now behold him
-stumbling down to old age amid the degradation of Garradrimna. He felt
-curiously desirous of doing something for him. But the heavy constraint
-between them still existed as always. He was unequal to the task of
-plucking up courage to speak to him. This evening, too, as he tried,
-after his accustomed fashion, in a vacant moment to catch a glimpse of
-his own future, he acutely felt the impossibility of seeing himself
-as a monument of pride.... Always there would arise before his mind a
-broken column in the middle of the valley.</p>
-
-<p>And he was lonely. He had not seen Ulick Shannon or Rebecca since he
-had begun to cycle daily to Ballinamult. Often, in some of the vacant
-stretches of thought which came to him as he hurried along, he pictured
-the two of them meeting during some of those long, sweet evenings and
-being kind to one another. Despite sudden flashes of a different regard
-that would come sweeping his thoughts of all kinds, he loved these
-two and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_223" id="Page_223">[Pg 223]</a></span> was glad that they were fond of one another. It now seemed
-surprising that he had ever thought so deeply of Rebecca Kerr, and
-wished to meet her upon the road and look longingly into her eyes. All
-this while going on to be a priest seemed far from him now that he had
-begun to be influenced by Father Considine.</p>
-
-<p>He had to pass the house of Sergeant McGoldrick by the way he was
-going, and it seemed an action altogether outside him that he had
-gone into an adjacent field and gazed for quite a long time up at
-her window.... He was all confusion when he noticed the child of the
-McGoldricks observing him.... He drifted away, his cheeks hot and a
-little sense of shame dimming his eyes.... He took to the road again
-and at once saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him. The old, insinuating
-smile which had so often been used upon his weak points, was spread
-over the face of his friend.</p>
-
-<p>"And at last you have succeeded in coming to see her thus far?"</p>
-
-<p>The words seemed to fall out of Ulick's oblique smile.</p>
-
-<p>"She?" he said in surprise.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, I thought it was that you had intentions of becoming my rival!"</p>
-
-<p>John laughed now, for this was the old Ulick come back again. He went
-on laughing as if at a good joke, and the two students went together
-down the road.</p>
-
-<p>"Don't let me delay you!" John said abruptly.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, you're not preventing me in any way at all."</p>
-
-<p>"But Rebecca?"</p>
-
-<p>"Even the austerities of Ballinamult have not made you forget Rebecca?"</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_224" id="Page_224">[Pg 224]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Hardly&mdash;I shouldn't like to think that I had been the cause of keeping
-you from her even for a short while."</p>
-
-<p>There came between them now one of those long spells of silence which
-seemed essential parts of their friendship.</p>
-
-<p>"You're in a queer mood this evening?" John said at last.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose I am, and that there's no use in trying to hide it....
-D'ye know what it is, Brennan? We two seem to have changed a great
-deal since last summer. <i>I</i> simply can't look at things in the same
-light-hearted way. I suppose I went too far, and that I must be paying
-for it now. But there are just a few things I have done for which I am
-sorry&mdash;I'm sorry about this affair with Rebecca Kerr."</p>
-
-<p>John was listening with quiet attention to the remarks which Ulick was
-letting fall from him disjointedly.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm sorry, sorry, sorry that I should ever have come here to meet her,
-for somehow it has brought me to this state of mind and not to any
-happiness at all. I'm doubtful, too, if it has brought any happiness to
-her."</p>
-
-<p>"That's strange," said John, "and I thought you two were very happy in
-your friendship."</p>
-
-<p>"Happiness!" jerked out the other in a full, strong sneer. "That's
-a funny word now, and a funny thing. Do you think that we deserve
-happiness any more than those we see working around us in the valley?
-Not at all! Rather less do we deserve. Just think of them giving their
-blood and sweat so crudely in mortal combat with the fields! And what
-does it avail them in the end? What do they get out of it but the
-satisfaction<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_225" id="Page_225">[Pg 225]</a></span> of a few unkind thoughts and a few low lies? In the mean
-living of their own lives they represent futile expeditions in quest
-of joy. Yet what brings the greatest joy it is possible for them to
-experience? Why, the fact that another's hope of happiness has been
-finally desolated. If any great disaster should suddenly come upon one
-or other of the three of us, upon you or me or Rebecca Kerr, they would
-see more glory in the fulfilment of their spite than in the harvest
-promise of their fields. And yet I here assert that these deserve to
-be happy. They labor in the hard way it was ordained that man should
-labor at Adam's fall, and they attend to their religion. They pray for
-happiness, and this is the happiness that comes to them. Some must be
-defeated and driven down from the hills of their dreams so that the
-other ones, the deserving and the pious, may be given material for
-their reward of joy. That, Brennan, is the only happiness that ever
-descends upon the people of the valley. It may be said that they get
-their reward in this life."</p>
-
-<p>Ulick was in one of those moods of eloquence which always came to him
-after a visit to Garradrimna, and when a very torrent of words might
-be expected to pour forth from him. John Brennan merely lifted his
-eyebrows in mild surprise and said nothing as the other went on:</p>
-
-<p>"Happiness indeed. What have I ever done to deserve happiness? I have
-not worked like a horse, I have not prayed?"</p>
-
-<p>"I was not thinking of any broad generalizations of happiness. I was
-only thinking of happiness in your relation to Rebecca Kerr."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_226" id="Page_226">[Pg 226]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Ulick now gave a sudden turn to the conversation:</p>
-
-<p>"Where were you wandering to the night?" he inquired of John Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, nowhere in particular&mdash;just down the road."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, it seems strange that you should have come this way, past the
-house of Sergeant McGoldrick."</p>
-
-<p>It appeared as if Ulick had glimpsed the tender spot upon which John
-Brennan's thoughts were working and struck it with the sharp point of
-his words. John did not reply, but it could be seen that his cheeks
-were blushing even in the gloom that had come towards them down the
-road.</p>
-
-<p>"I hope you will be very kind to her, John, when I am gone from here.
-She's very nice, and this is the drear, lonely place for her to be. I
-expect to be going away pretty soon."</p>
-
-<p>It seemed extraordinary that this thing should be happening now.... He
-began to remember how he had longed for Rebecca last summer, and how
-his poor yearning had been reduced to nothing by the favor with which
-she looked upon his friend. And later how he had turned away out of the
-full goodness of his own heart and returned again through power of a
-fateful accident to his early purpose. And now how the good influence
-of Father Considine had just come into his life to lead him finally
-into the way for which he had been intended by his mother from the
-beginning.</p>
-
-<p>He did not yet fully realize that this quiet and casual meeting which
-had been effected because Ulick Shannon had accidentally come around
-this way from Garradrimna represented the little moment which stood for
-the turning-point of his life. But it had certainly<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_227" id="Page_227">[Pg 227]</a></span> moved into being
-along definite lines of dramatic significance.</p>
-
-<p>Presently Ulick mounted a stile which gave upon a path leading up
-through the fields of his uncle Myles and to the lonely house among the
-trees. Then it was true that he was not seeing Rebecca to-night.... A
-great gladness seemed to have rushed in upon John Brennan because he
-had become aware of this thing. And further, Ulick Shannon was going
-away from the valley and Rebecca remaining here to be lonely. But he,
-who had once so dearly longed for her company, would be coming and
-going from the valley daily, and summer was upon them again.... Ulick
-must have bade him a "Good-night!" that he had not heard, for already
-he could see him disappearing into the sea of white mist which would
-seem to have rolled into the valley from the eternity of the silent
-places.... He was left here now upon this lonely, quiet shore while his
-mind had turned into a tumbling sea.</p>
-
-<p>When at last he roused himself and went into the kitchen he saw that
-his mother had already settled herself to the task of reading a
-religious paper to his father.... The elder man was sitting there so
-woebegone by the few wet sods that were the fire. He was not very drunk
-this evening, and the usual wild glint in his eyes was replaced by
-the look of one who is having thoughts of final dissolution.... John
-experienced a little shudder with the thought that he did not possess
-any desire to speak to his father now.</p>
-
-<p>But his mother had broken in with a question:</p>
-
-<p>"Was that Ulick Shannon was with you outside just now?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_228" id="Page_228">[Pg 228]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes, mother, it was."</p>
-
-<p>"He went home very early, didn't he?"</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose it is rather early for him to go home."</p>
-
-<p>"I think 'tis very seldom he bees with Rebecca Kerr now, whatever's the
-reason, <i>whatever's the reason</i>."</p>
-
-<p>It was her repetition and emphasis of the final words which brought
-about the outburst.</p>
-
-<p>Ned Brennan suddenly flamed up and snarled out:</p>
-
-<p>"Look ye here, Nan Byrne, that's no kind of talk to be giving out to
-your grand, fine, educated young fellow of a son, and he be going on to
-be a priest. That's the quare, suggestive kind of talk. But sure 'tis
-very like you, Nan Byrne. 'Tis very like you!"</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had just been on the point of beginning to read the
-religious paper, and, with the thought of all her reading surging in
-upon her in one crushing moment, she felt the cutting rebuff most
-keenly and showed her confusion. She made no reply as John went up to
-the room where his books were.... Long after, as he tried to recall
-forgotten, peaceful thoughts, he could hear his father speaking out of
-the heat of anger in the kitchen below.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_229" id="Page_229">[Pg 229]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXVIII</h2>
-
-<p>After she had failed to take her tea Rebecca walked the valley road
-many times, passing and repassing their usual meeting place. But no
-sign of Ulick did she find. She peered longingly into the sea of white
-fog, but he did not come.... What in the world was happening to him at
-all? Never before had he missed this night of the week.... She did not
-care to return so early, for she feared that Mrs. McGoldrick might come
-with that awful look of scrutiny she detested. Just to pass the time
-she wandered down The Road of the Dead towards the lake. To-night it
-seemed so lonely set there amid the sea of white.</p>
-
-<p>It was strange to think that this place could ever have had a fair look
-about it or given pleasure to any person at all. Yet it was here that
-John Brennan had loved to walk and dream. She wondered how it was with
-him now. She began to think of the liking he had shown for her. Maybe
-he fancied she did not know why he happened to meet her so often upon
-the road. But well did she know&mdash;well. And to think that he had come to
-look up at her window this evening.</p>
-
-<p>Yet even now she was fearful of acknowledging these things to herself.
-It appeared as a double sacrilege. It was an attack upon her love for
-Ulick and it questioned the noble intention of Mrs. Brennan in devoting
-her son to God. But all chance that it might ever come<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_230" id="Page_230">[Pg 230]</a></span> to anything
-was now over. The ending had been effected by herself in the parlor of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, and Mrs. Brennan might never be able
-to guess the hand she had had in it. It was a thing upon which she
-might well pride herself if there grew in her the roots of pride. But
-she was not of that sort. And now she was in no frame of delight at all
-for the thought of him had united her unto the thought of Ulick, and
-Ulick had not come to her this evening.... She felt herself growing
-cold in the enveloping mist. The fir trees were like tall ghosts in
-the surrounding gloom.... But immediately the lake had lost its aspect
-of terror when she remembered what she had done might have averted the
-possibility of having John Brennan ever again to wander lonely.... And
-yes, in spite of any comforting thought, the place would continue to
-fill her with a nameless dread. She was shivering and expectant.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly a big pike made a splash among the reeds and Rebecca gave a
-loud, wild cry. It rang all down the lonely aisle of the fir-trees and
-united its sound with that of a lone bird crying on the other side of
-the lake. Then it died upon the banks of mist up against the silent
-hills.</p>
-
-<p>For a few moments its source seemed to flutter and bubble within her
-breast, and then it ended in a long, sobbing question to herself&mdash;Why
-had she cried out at all? She might have known it was only a fish or
-some such harmless thing. And any one within reasonable distance could
-have heard the cry and thought it was the signal of some terrible thing
-that had happened here by the lakeside. It was not so far distant from
-two<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_231" id="Page_231">[Pg 231]</a></span> roads, and who knew but some one had heard? Yet she could hardly
-fancy herself behaving in this way if she had not possessed an idea
-that it was a lonely place and seldom that any one went by in the
-night-time.</p>
-
-<p>But she hurried away from the feeling of terror she had caused to
-fill the place and back towards the house of Sergeant McGoldrick. As
-quickly as possible she got to bed. Here seemed a little comfort. She
-remembered how this had been her place of refuge as a child, how she
-felt safe from all ghosts and goblins once her head was hidden beneath
-the clothes. And the instinct had survived into womanhood.</p>
-
-<p>Again a series of those fitful, half sleeping and waking conditions
-began to pass over her. Side by side with the most dreadful feelings of
-impending doom came thronging memories of glad phases of life through
-which she had passed.... And to think that this life of hers was now
-narrowing towards this end. Were the valley and its people to behold
-her final disaster? Was it to be that way with her?</p>
-
-<p>She had intended to tell Ulick if he had come to her this evening,
-but he had not come, and what was she to do now? In the slough of
-her torment she could not think of the right thing.... Maybe if she
-wrote an angry letter upbraiding him.... But how could she write an
-angry letter to him? Yet she must let him know, and immediately&mdash;when
-the dawn had broken into the room she would write. For there was no
-use in thinking of sleeping. She could not sleep. Yes, when the dawn
-had broken into the room she would write surely. But not an angry
-letter.... Very<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_232" id="Page_232">[Pg 232]</a></span> slowly she began to notice the corners of the room
-appearing in the new light before her wide open eyes. And to feel that
-this was the place she had so fiercely hated from the first moment
-of setting foot in it, and that it was now about to see her write
-the acknowledgment of her shame.... The dawn was a great while in
-breaking.... If he did not&mdash;well then, what could her future life hope
-to be? She began to grow strangely dizzy as she fell to thinking of it.
-Dizzy and fearful as she drew near in mind to that very great abyss.</p>
-
-<p>The leaping-up of the day did not fill her with any of its gradual
-delight.... She rose with a weariness numbing her limbs. The putting-on
-of her few clothes was an immense task.... She went to the table upon
-which she had written all those letters to her school-companions which
-described that "there was nothing like a girlfriend." She pulled
-towards her, with a small, trembling hand, the box of <i>Ancient Irish
-Vellum</i>, upon which her special letters were always written. Her mind
-had focussed itself to such small compass that this letter seemed more
-important than any that had ever before been written in this world.</p>
-
-<p>But for a long time she could not begin. She did not know by what term
-of endearment to address him now.... They had been so particularly
-intimate.... And then it was so hard to describe her condition to
-him in poor words of writing with pen and ink upon paper. If only
-he had come to her last night it might have been a task of far less
-difficulty. A few sobs, a gathering of her little troubled body unto
-him, and a beseeching look up into his face.... But it was so hard to
-put any single feeling into any separate sentence.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_233" id="Page_233">[Pg 233]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>After hours, during which the sun had been mounting high and bright,
-she had the letter finished at last and was reading it over. Some
-sentences like the following leaped out before her eyes here within
-this sickly-looking room&mdash;Whatever was the matter with him that he
-could not come to her? Surely he was not so blind, and he with his
-medical knowledge. He must know what was the matter with her, and that
-this was scarcely the time to be leaving her alone. His uncle, Myles
-Shannon, was a very rich man, and did he not remember how often he had
-told her how his uncle looked with favor upon her? Here she included
-the very words in which Ulick had many a time described his uncle's
-opinion of her&mdash;"I like that little schoolmistress, Rebecca Kerr!" "It
-was all so grand, Ulick, our love and meetings; but here comes the
-paying of the penalty, and surely you will not leave poor little me
-to pay it in full. You have enjoyed me, have you not, Ulick?" She was
-more immediately personal now, and this was exactly how the sentences
-continued: "You know very well what this will mean to me. I'll have
-to go away from here, and where, I ask you, can I go? Not back to my
-father's house surely, nor to my aunt's little cottage in Donegal....
-I have no money. The poor salary I earn here is barely able to buy me
-a little food and clothing and keep a roof over my head. Did I not
-often tell you that when you were away from me there were times when
-I could hardly afford the price of stamps? If it should happen that
-this thing become public while I am yet here I could never get another
-day's teaching, for Father O'Keeffe would warn every manager in Ireland
-against engaging me. But surely, darling, you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_234" id="Page_234">[Pg 234]</a></span> will not allow things to
-go so far.... You will please come down to see me at 5.30 this evening.
-You will find me at the old place upon The Road of the Dead. Don't you
-remember that it was there we had our first talk, Ulick?"</p>
-
-<p>Great as the torture of writing it had been, the torture of reading
-it was still greater. Some of the lines seemed to lash out and strike
-her and to fill her eyes with tears, and there were some that seemed
-so hard upon him that she struck them out, not wishing, as ever,
-to hurt her dearest Ulick at all. At one moment she felt a curious
-desire to tear it into pieces and let her fate come to her as it had
-been ordained from the beginning.... But there was little Euphemia
-McGoldrick knocking at the door to be allowed to enter with the
-breakfast. Who would ever imagine that it was so late?</p>
-
-<p>She had written a great deal. Why it filled pages and pages. She
-hurriedly thrust it into a large envelope that she had bought for the
-purpose of sending a card of greeting to John Brennan at Christmas,
-thinking better of it only at the last moment. It was useful now, for
-the many sheets were bulky.</p>
-
-<p>"The breakfast, miss!" announced Euphemia as she left the room.</p>
-
-<p>This was the third meal in twenty-four hours that Rebecca could make
-no attempt to take, but, to avert suspicion, she wrapped up the sliced
-and buttered bread in a few leaves from the novelette from which she
-had read those desperate passages on the previous evening. The tea she
-threw out into the garden. It fell in a shining shower down over the
-bright green vegetables.... She put on her dust-coat and, stuffing the
-letter to Ulick<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_235" id="Page_235">[Pg 235]</a></span> into one pocket and her uneaten breakfast by way of a
-luncheon she would not eat into the other, hurried out of doors and up
-the road, for this morning she had important business in the village
-before going on to the school.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. McGoldrick was set near the foot of the stairs holding Euphemia
-and Clementina by the hand, all three in action there to behold the
-exit of Rebecca. This was a morning custom and something in the nature
-of a rite. It was the last clout of torture always inflicted by Mrs.
-McGoldrick.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca went on into Garradrimna. The village street was deserted save
-by Thomas James, who held solitary occupation. He was posting the
-bills for a circus at the market square. She was excited as she went
-over to speak to him and did not notice the eyes of the bespectacled
-postmistress that were trained upon her from the office window with the
-relentlessness of howitzers. She asked Thomas James would he take a
-letter from her to Mr. Ulick Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh yes, miss; O Lord, yes!"</p>
-
-<p>She slipped the letter into his hand when she thought that no one was
-looking. She had adopted this mode of caution in preference to sending
-it through the Post Office. She was evidently anxious that it should be
-delivered quickly and unread by any other person.</p>
-
-<p>"O Lord, yes, miss; just as soon as I have an auction bill posted after
-this. You know, miss, that Mickeen Connellan, the auctioneer, is one of
-my best patrons. He doesn't pay as well as the circus people, but he
-pays oftener."</p>
-
-<p>That was in the nature of a very broad hint, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_236" id="Page_236">[Pg 236]</a></span> Rebecca had
-anticipated it and had the shilling already prepared and ready to slip
-into his other hand.</p>
-
-<p>"Thanks, miss!"</p>
-
-<p>With remarkable alacrity Thomas James had "downed tools" and
-disappeared into Brannagan's. Rebecca could hear the swish of his pint
-as she went by the door after having remained a few moments looking
-at the lurid circus-bills. Inside, Mrs. Brannagan, the publican and
-victualler's wife, took notice that he possessed the air of a man bent
-upon business.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, it's how I'm going to do a little message for the assistant
-schoolmistress," he said, taking his matutinal pinch of salt, for this
-was his first pint and one could never tell what might happen.</p>
-
-<p>"Is that so?"</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, indeed; a letter to young Shannon."</p>
-
-<p>"Well now? And why for wouldn't it do to send it by the post?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, mebbe that way wouldn't be grand enough for her. Mebbe it is what
-it would be too chape&mdash;a penny, you know, for the stamp, and this
-costs a shilling for the porter. Give us another volume of this, Mrs.
-Brannagan, if you please? Ha-ha-ha!" He laughed loudly, but without any
-mirth, at his own joke and the peculiar blend of subtlety by which he
-had marked it.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brannagan was all anxiety and excitement about the letter.</p>
-
-<p>"Well now, just imagine!" she said to herself about forty times as she
-filled the second pint for Thomas James. Then she rose up from her bent
-posture at the half barrel and, placing the drink before him on the
-bar, said:</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_237" id="Page_237">[Pg 237]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I wonder what would be in that letter. Let me see?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, 'tis only a letter in a big envelope. Aren't you the inquisitive
-woman now, Mrs. Brannagan?"</p>
-
-<p>"What'll you have, Thomas?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, another pint, Mrs. Brannagan, thanks!"</p>
-
-<p>His second drink had been despatched with his own celebrated speed.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brannagan was a notably hard woman, and he could not let the
-opportunity of having her stand him a drink go by. She was the hardest
-woman in Garradrimna. Her childlessness had made her so. She was
-beginning to grow stale and withered, and anything in the nature of
-love and marriage, with their possible results, was to her a constant
-source of affliction and annoyance.</p>
-
-<p>Her heart was now bounding within her breast in curiosity.</p>
-
-<p>"Drink that quick, Thomas, and have another before the boss comes
-down." But there was no need to command him. It had already
-disappeared.... The fourth pint had found its way to his lips. He was
-beginning to grow mellow now and to lose his cross-sickness of the
-morning.</p>
-
-<p>"Will ye let me see the letter?"</p>
-
-<p>"Certainly, Mrs. Brannagan. O Lord, yes!"</p>
-
-<p>He handed it across the counter.</p>
-
-<p>"Such a quare letter? Oh, I hear the boss coming in across the yard."
-... She had taken the empty glass from before Thomas James, and again
-was it filled.... Her husband stood before her. And this was the moment
-she had worked up to so well.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_238" id="Page_238">[Pg 238]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I'll hand it back to you when he goes out," she whispered.</p>
-
-<p>"All right, ma'am!"</p>
-
-<p>Thomas James and Mr. Brannagan fell into a chat while she went towards
-the kitchen. She took the letter from her flat bosom, where she had
-hastily thrust it and looked at it from every possible angle. It seemed
-to possess a compelling attraction. But she could not open it here.
-She would run across to her friend the postmistress, who had every
-appliance for an operation of the kind. Besides she was the person
-who had first right to open it.... Soon the bespectacled maid and the
-barren woman were deep in examination of Rebecca Kerr's letter to Ulick
-Shannon. Into their minds was beginning to leap a terrible joy as they
-read the lines it had cost Rebecca immense torture to write.</p>
-
-<p>"This is great, this is great!" said the ancient postmistress, clicking
-her tongue continually in satisfaction. "The cheek of her, mind you,
-not to send it by the public post like another. But I knew well there
-was something quare when I saw her calloguing with Thomas James at the
-market square."</p>
-
-<p>"Wasn't she the sly, hateful, little thing. Why you'd never have
-thought it of her?"</p>
-
-<p>"A grand person indeed to have in charge of little, innocent girls!"</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed I shouldn't like to have a child if I thought it was to a purty
-thing like that she'd be sent to school!"</p>
-
-<p>"Nor me," said the old lady, from whom the promise of motherhood had
-departed for many a long year.</p>
-
-<p>They shook in righteous anger and strong detestation of the sin of
-Rebecca Kerr, and together they held<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_239" id="Page_239">[Pg 239]</a></span> council as to what might be the
-best thing to do? They closed the letter, and Mrs. Brannagan again
-stuck it into her bosom.... What should they do? The children must
-be saved from contamination anyhow.... An approach to solution of
-the difficulty immediately presented itself, for there was Mrs. Wyse
-herself just passing down the street with her ass-load of children.
-Mrs. Brannagan rushed out of the office and called:</p>
-
-<p>"Mrs. Wyse, I want to see you in private for just a minute!"</p>
-
-<p>The schoolmistress bent over the back of the trap, and they whispered
-for several minutes. At last, out of her shocked condition, Mrs. Wyse
-was driven to exclaim:</p>
-
-<p>"Well now, isn't that the limit?"</p>
-
-<p>It seemed an affront to her authority that another should have first
-discovered it, so she was anxious to immediately recover her lost
-position of superiority.</p>
-
-<p>"Sure I was having my suspicions of her since ever she come back from
-the Christmas holidays, and even Monica McKeon too, although she's
-a single girl and not supposed to know. It's a terrible case, Mrs.
-Brannagan."</p>
-
-<p>"Terrible, Mrs. Wyse. One of the terriblest ever happened in the
-valley.... And before the children and all."</p>
-
-<p>"God bless and save us! But we must only leave it in Father O'Keeffe's
-hands. He'll know what is best to do, never fear. I'll send for him as
-soon as I get to the school."</p>
-
-<p>There was a note of mournful resignation in her tones as she moved away
-in the ass-trap with her children, like an old hen in the midst of her
-brood.... There was a peculiar smirk of satisfaction about the lips
-of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_240" id="Page_240">[Pg 240]</a></span> Mrs. Brannagan as she returned to the shop, bent upon sending the
-letter on its way once more.</p>
-
-<p>"Much good it'll do her now, the dirty little fool!" she said in the
-happiness of some dumb feeling of vengeance against one who was merely
-a woman like herself. But she was a woman who had never had a child.</p>
-
-<p>Thomas James was considerably drunk. He had spent the remainder of the
-shilling upon porter, and Mr. Brannagan had stood him another pint.</p>
-
-<p>"Be sure and deliver it safely now, <i>for maybe it's important</i>!" said
-Mrs. Brannagan, as she returned the letter.</p>
-
-<p>"It's a great letter anyhow. It's after getting me nine pints. That's
-long over half-a-crown's worth of drink," he said, laughing foolishly
-as he wandered out to do his errand.</p>
-
-<p>It was a hard journey across the rising meadows to the house of Myles
-Shannon, where dwelt his nephew Ulick. Thomas James fell many times and
-wallowed in the tall, green grass, and he fell as he went leaping high
-hedges, and cut his hands and tore his red face with briars until it
-was streaked with blood. He was, therefore, an altogether deplorable
-figure when he at last presented himself at the house of Myles Shannon.
-Mr. Shannon came to the door to meet him, and in his fuddled condition
-he laughed to himself as he fished the letter out of his pocket. It was
-covered red with blood where he had felt it with his torn hand from
-time to time to see whether or not he still retained possession of it.</p>
-
-<p>"From Mr. Brannagan, I suppose," said Mr. Shannon, thinking it had been
-written hurriedly by the victualler just fresh from the slaughterhouse
-and that it was a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_241" id="Page_241">[Pg 241]</a></span> request for prime beef or mutton from the rich
-fields of Scarden. He opened it, for his nephew's name on the envelope
-could not be seen through the blood-stains. He did not notice that it
-began "My dearest Ulick" until he read down to the sentences that gave
-him pause.... Thomas James was coughing insinuatingly beside him, so
-he took half-a-crown from his pocket and handed it to the bedraggled
-messenger. It was a tremendous reward, and the man of porter did not
-fully perceive it until he had slipped out into the sunlight.</p>
-
-<p>"Be the Holy Farmer!" he stuttered, "another half-crown's worth of
-drink, and I after drinking long more than that already. That was the
-best letter I ever got to carry in me life. A few more like it and
-I'd either get me death of drink or be a millionaire like John D.
-Rockefeller or Andrew Carnegie!"</p>
-
-<p>Inside the parlor Myles Shannon was reading Rebecca Kerr's letter with
-blanched face.... Here was a terrible thing; here had come to him this
-great trouble for the second time. Something the like of this had
-happened twenty-five or six years ago, when his brother had been in the
-same case with Nan Byrne. Curious how it should be repeating itself
-now! He pondered it for a few moments in its hereditary aspect. But
-there was more in it than that. There was the trace of his own hand
-determining it. He had encouraged his nephew with this girl. He had
-directed him into many reckless ways just that he might bring sorrow to
-the heart of Nan Byrne in the destruction of her son. It was a wicked
-thing for him to have done. His own nephew&mdash;just to satisfy his desire
-for revenge. And at the bottom of things he loved his nephew even as he
-had loved<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_242" id="Page_242">[Pg 242]</a></span> his brother Henry. But he would try to save him the results,
-the pains and penalties of his infatuation, even as he had tried
-to save his brother Henry the results of his. But the girl and her
-fate.... He would not be able to forget that until his dying day....
-For it was he who had done this thing entirely, done it in cold blood
-too because he had heard that John Brennan had soft eyes for Rebecca
-Kerr and that, to encourage his nephew and produce a certain rivalry,
-might be the very best means of ruining the fair promise of Nan Byrne's
-son.</p>
-
-<p>Only last night he had heard from Ulick that John Brennan had entered
-the college at Ballinamult and that his prospects never looked so good
-as at present.... To think of that now was to see how just it was that
-his scheme should have so resulted, for it had been constructed upon a
-very terrible plan. He had done it to avenge his defeated love for one
-girl, and lo! it had brought another to her ruin.</p>
-
-<p>"Your uncle is a wealthy man." This sentence from the letter burned
-before him, and he thought for a moment that here appeared the full
-solution of the difficulty. But no. Of what use was that when the
-dread thing was about to happen to her?... But for all that he would
-send her money to-day or to-morrow, in some quiet way, and tell her
-the truth and beseech her to go away before the final disgrace of
-discovery fell upon her. His nephew must not know. He was too young
-to marry now, least of all, a compulsory marriage after this fashion
-to a schoolmistress. It was an ascent in the social standing of the
-girl surely, for his brother Henry had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_243" id="Page_243">[Pg 243]</a></span> disgraced himself with a mere
-dressmaker. But any connection beyond the regrettable and painful
-mistake of the whole thing was out of the question because, for long
-years, the Shannons had been almost gentlemen in the valley.</p>
-
-<p>Ulick came into the room now.</p>
-
-<p>"Anything strange, uncle?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, nothing at all, only a letter from Mr. Brannagan about&mdash;about the
-sheep. I suppose you're not going anywhere to-day. Please don't, for
-I want you to give me a hand with the lambs after the shearing. And
-to-night I'll want you to help me with some letters and accounts that
-I've let slip for ever so long. I want you particularly."</p>
-
-<p>"All right, uncle!"</p>
-
-<p>How tractable and obliging his nephew had become ...! Last summer he
-would not do a thing like this for any amount of coaxing. He would have
-business in the valley at all times. But there was a far Power that
-adjusted matters beyond the plans of men. Ulick had drifted out of the
-room and Mr. Shannon again took the letter from his pocket. The sight
-of the blood upon it still further helped the color of his thoughts
-towards terror.... He crossed hurriedly to the bureau and slipped it
-beneath the elastic band which held his letters from Helena Cooper, and
-Mrs. Brennan's letter to her, and Mrs. Brennan's letter to his dead
-brother Henry.... It seemed to belong there by right of the sad quality
-which is the distinction of all shattered dreams.... And, just imagine,
-he had considered his a wonderful scheme of revenge! But now it seemed
-a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_244" id="Page_244">[Pg 244]</a></span> poor and a mean thing. He could hardly think of it as a part of the
-once proud, easy-going Myles Shannon, but rather the bitter and ugly
-result of some devilish prompting that had come to him here in the lone
-stretches of his life in this quiet house among the trees.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_245" id="Page_245">[Pg 245]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXIX</h2>
-
-<p>More than ever on this morning was Rebecca aware that the keen eye
-of Mrs. Wyse was upon her as she moved about the schoolroom. One of
-the bigger girls was despatched to the other school for Monica McKeon
-and Master Donnellan's assistant came in to Mrs. Wyse. She nodded the
-customary greeting to Rebecca as she passed in. This interview was
-unusual at such an early hour of the day. But it was never the custom
-of either of them to tell her of what they were talking. As she busied
-herself teaching the very smallest of the children she felt that the
-eyes of both women were upon her.</p>
-
-<p>After what appeared to be a very long time Monica passed out. On this
-second occasion she looked loftily across her glasses and gave no nod
-of acknowledgment to Rebecca. Rebecca blushed at this open affront. She
-felt that Mrs. Wyse must have something against her, something she had
-told Monica just now.... And now the principal was exceedingly busy
-with her pen as if writing a hurried note.... Rebecca heard the high,
-coarse voice raised in command:</p>
-
-<p>"Euphemia McGoldrick, I want you!"</p>
-
-<p>Then came the timid "Yes, ma'am!" of Euphemia.</p>
-
-<p>"Here are two letters, child. Take this one to Father O'Keeffe, your
-parish priest, and this to your mother, like a good child."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_246" id="Page_246">[Pg 246]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes'm!"</p>
-
-<p>Some fear of unknown things began to stir in the breast of Rebecca.
-This connection of Mrs. McGoldrick with Mrs. Wyse's occupation of the
-morning seemed to announce some dragging of her into the matter. But as
-yet, although her mind moved tremulously in its excitement, she had,
-curiously enough, no suspicion of what was about to happen. It could
-not be that Mrs. Wyse had suspected. Oh, not at all. There was still
-no danger. But it might be a near thing.... Already she had begun to
-wonder would Ulick come to-night. But of course he would come. He was
-not such a bad fellow. And he might be taken up with his own condition
-just now. He had missed his examination in Dublin: missed it, maybe,
-through his foolishness in coming to see her.... But already she had
-thoroughly blamed herself for this.... To ease the pain of her mind
-she went busily about her work. She knew that the eye of Mrs. Wyse was
-upon her and that the very best way of defeating it was by putting on
-this air of industry. The day, in its half-hour divisions, was passing
-rapidly towards noon.</p>
-
-<p>A little girl came quickly in to say that Father O'Keeffe was coming up
-the road. Rebecca glanced out of the window and, sure enough, there he
-was upon his big, fat, white horse coming into the yard. She heard his
-loud cries calling into the Boys' School "for a chap to come out and
-hold his horse." When the boy came to do his bidding he held forth at
-great length upon the best way of leading "King Billy" around the yard.</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_247" id="Page_247">[Pg 247]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Then the reverend manager of Tullahanogue Schools moved into the
-female portion of the establishment. At the door he twisted his round
-face into an aspect of severity which was still humorous in its alien
-incongruity. Here also he removed his hat from his head, which was
-white and bald like the apex of an egg above the red curve of his
-countenance. It was his custom to visit the schools of which he was
-manager, thus precociously to make up in some way for what he lacked in
-educational knowledge and enthusiasm. As his short, squat figure moved
-up the passage by the desks, the massive head bowed low upon the broad
-chest and the fat fingers of both hands coiled behind his back, he was
-not at all unlike an actor made up as Napoleon Bonaparte. His voice was
-disciplined in the accents of militarism and dictatorship.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca noticed on the instant that to-day he was as one intensified.
-He began to slap his legs continuously with his silver-mounted riding
-whip. He did not speak to her as he passed in. But, although it caused
-her heart to flutter for a moment, this appeared to her as no unusual
-occurrence. He never took notice of her unless when she called at the
-vestry after Mass upon occasion to deliver up a slice of her salary in
-Dues and Offerings. Then the Napoleonic powerfulness disappeared and
-he fell to talking, with laughter in his words, about the richness of
-Royal Meath in comparison with the wild barrenness of Donegal.</p>
-
-<p>He moved up to where Mrs. Wyse was at work. Rebecca could distinctly
-hear the loud "Well, what's your best news?" with which he
-always prefaced his conversations. In low whispers they began to
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_248" id="Page_248">[Pg 248]</a></span>communicate.... It was not till now that she began to have immense
-doubts as to the purpose of his visit, and already she was trembling in
-presence of the little children.</p>
-
-<p>"An example of her, Father!"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh yes, an example of her. Nothing less, Mrs. Wyse!"</p>
-
-<p>The words came down to Rebecca clearly through the deep silence that
-had fallen upon the school since the entrance of Father O'Keeffe. The
-bigger girls were listening, listening in a great hush of patience for
-all that had to be reported when they went home. Each one was preparing
-for her respective examination&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Was there any one in the school to-day?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, mother!"</p>
-
-<p>"Who, the inspector?"</p>
-
-<p>"No, the Priest!"</p>
-
-<p>"Father O'Keeffe?"</p>
-
-<p>"Well, anything else?"</p>
-
-<p>"He was talking to Mrs. Wyse."</p>
-
-<p>"And what was he saying?"</p>
-
-<p>"I couldn't hear, mother, so I couldn't."</p>
-
-<p>"And why didn't you listen? What am I slaving myself to send you to
-school for?"</p>
-
-<p>And so they were listening with such eagerness now. They were looking
-down at Rebecca as if she were the object of the whole discussion. Her
-thoughts were beginning to well into a swirling unconsciousness....
-Great sounds, like those of roaring cataracts and the drumming of
-mighty armies were rolling up to her ears.</p>
-
-<p>Father O'Keeffe and Mrs. Wyse now came down the schoolroom together.
-As they passed Rebecca, Father O'Keeffe beckoned to her with his
-riding-whip in the way<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_249" id="Page_249">[Pg 249]</a></span> one might call to a very inferior hireling.
-Shaken by unique and powerful impulses, she went out into the
-hall-way to meet her superiors.... Instantaneously she knew what had
-happened&mdash;they knew.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, isn't this a nice thing?" began Father O'Keeffe.</p>
-
-<p>"Ye might say it's a nice thing, Father!" echoed Mrs. Wyse.</p>
-
-<p>"An enormous thing!"</p>
-
-<p>"A terrible thing! Father!"</p>
-
-<p>"You're a nice lady!" he said, addressing Rebecca angrily. "To come
-into a parish where there is none save decent people to leave a black
-disgrace upon it and you going away!"</p>
-
-<p>"Was ever the like known, Father? And just imagine her keeping it so
-secret. Why we thought there was nothing in this affair with Ulick
-Shannon. There was such an amount of cuteness in the way they used to
-meet at times and in places we never knew of. In the woods, I suppose!"</p>
-
-<p>Father O'Keeffe was addressing her directly again.</p>
-
-<p>"Why, when I think of the disgrace to this school and all that, it
-drives me near mad."</p>
-
-<p>"And, mind you, the shocking insult it is to me and to the little
-children."</p>
-
-<p>"The shocking insult to you and to the little children. True for you,
-Mrs. Wyse."</p>
-
-<p>"And when I think of how you have contrived to besmirch the fair name
-of one of the fine, respectable families of the parish, gentlemen, as
-you might say, without one blot upon their escutcheon."</p>
-
-<p>"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_250" id="Page_250">[Pg 250]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney, Mrs. Wyse."</p>
-
-<p>His eye was upon Rebecca with a sudden gleam.</p>
-
-<p>"When I think of that, I consider it an enormous offense...." She did
-not flinch before them. She was thinking only of the way in which they
-had come to hear it.... She was concerned now that Ulick should not
-suffer, that his grand family name should not be dragged down with
-hers.... If he had not come to her she would have slipped away without
-a word.... And now to think that it had become public. The previous
-burning of her mind had been nothing to this.... But Father O'Keeffe
-was still speaking:</p>
-
-<p>"Listen to me, girl! You are to go from hence, but not, as you may
-imagine, to the place from whence you came. For this very evening I
-intend to warn your pastor of your lapse from virtue while in our
-midst, so that you may not return to your father's house and have no
-more hope of teaching in any National school within the four seas of
-Ireland."</p>
-
-<p>"That is only right and proper, Father!" put in Mrs. Wyse.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca was not listening or else she might have shuddered within the
-shadow of the torture his words held for her. In these moments she
-had soared far beyond them.... Through the high mood in which she
-was accepting her tragedy she was becoming exalted.... What glorious
-moments there would be, what divine compensation in whispering of the
-torture surrounding its beginning to the little child when it came?</p>
-
-<p>"So now, Rebecca Kerr, I command you to go forth<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_251" id="Page_251">[Pg 251]</a></span> from this school and
-from the little children that you corrupt towards your own abomination
-by further presence among them."</p>
-
-<p>As he moved angrily out of the school she moved quietly, and without
-speaking a word, to take her coat and hat down from the rack.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, wait!" commanded Mrs. Wyse, "you must not leave until three,
-until you have made an example of yourself here in a way that all the
-children may bring home the story. God knows it will be the hard thing
-for them to be telling their mothers when they go home. The poor little
-things!"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca stood there desolately alone in the hall-way through the
-remainder of the afternoon. In one aspect she appeared as a bold child
-being thus corrected by a harsh superior. On many more occasions than
-appeared absolutely necessary Monica McKeon passed and repassed her
-there as she stood so lonely. The assistant of the Boys' School was
-a model of disdain as, with her lip curled, she looked away out over
-her glasses. And ever and anon Mrs. Wyse passed in and out, muttering
-mournfully to herself:</p>
-
-<p>"The cheek of that now, before the children and all!"</p>
-
-<p>And the elder girls moved about her in a procession of sneering. They
-knew, and they were examining her for the purpose of giving full
-accounts when they went home.</p>
-
-<p>But, occasionally, some of the little ones would come and gaze up into
-her eyes with wild looks. Although they did not know why, they seemed
-to possess for her an immense, mute pity.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_252" id="Page_252">[Pg 252]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Poor Miss Kerr!" they would say, stroking her dress, but their big
-sisters would come and whisk them away.</p>
-
-<p>"Don't touch her. She's dirty&mdash;&mdash;" Then Monica would pass again. At
-last she heard the merciful stroke of three.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_253" id="Page_253">[Pg 253]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXX</h2>
-
-<p>When John Brennan went to his room after his father's outburst it was
-with the intention of doing some preparation for the morrow's work at
-the college; but although he opened several books in turn, he could
-feel no quickening of knowledge in his mind.... There she was again
-continually recurring to his thoughts. And now she was far grander.
-This was the fear that had always been hidden in his heart,&mdash;that
-somehow her friendship with Ulick was not a thing that should have
-happened. But he had considered it a reality he could not attempt to
-question. Yet he knew that but for Ulick she must be very near to him.
-And Ulick had admitted his unworthiness, and so the separation was at
-an end.</p>
-
-<p>It was surprising that this should have happened now. His mind sprang
-back to all that tenderness with which his thoughts of her had been
-surrounded through these long days of dreaming, when he had contrived
-to meet her, as if by accident, on her way from school.</p>
-
-<p>All through the next day his heart was upon her; the thought of her
-would give peace. Into every vacant moment she would come with the full
-light of her presence. He had suddenly relapsed into the mood that had
-imprisoned him after the summer holidays. He stood aloof from Father
-Considine and did not wish to see him through the whole of his long day
-in the college at Ballinamult.... All the way home he pictured her.
-She was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_254" id="Page_254">[Pg 254]</a></span> luring him now as she had always lured him&mdash;towards a fairer
-vision of the valley.</p>
-
-<p>He noticed how the summer was again flooding over the fields like a
-great river spilling wide. It was a glorious coincidence that she
-should be returning to him now, a creature of brightness at a time of
-beauty.</p>
-
-<p>The road seemed short this pleasant afternoon, and the customary
-feeling of dusty weariness was not upon him as he leapt lightly off
-the bicycle at his mother's door. Mrs. Brennan came out to meet him
-eagerly. This was no unusual occurrence now that he had again begun to
-ascend the ladder of the high condition she had planned for him. She
-was even a far prouder woman now, for, somehow, she had always half
-remembered the stain of charity hanging over his uprise in England.
-Besides this he was nearer to her, moving intimately through the
-valley, a living part of her justification.... Her fading eyes now
-looked out tenderly at her son. There seemed to be a great light in
-them this afternoon, a great light of love for him.... He was moved
-beneath their gaze. And still she continued to smile upon him in a
-weak way as within the grip of some strong excitement. He saw when he
-entered that his dinner was not set out as usual on the white table in
-the kitchen.... She brought him into the sewing-room. And still she
-had the same smile trembling upon her lips and the same light in her
-eyes.... All this was growing mysterious and oppressive. But his mood
-was proof against sad influences. It must be some tale of good fortune
-come to their house of which his mother had now to tell.</p>
-
-<p>"D'ye know what, John? The greatest thing ever is after happening!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_255" id="Page_255">[Pg 255]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Is that a fact, mother?"</p>
-
-<p>"Though mebbe 'tis not right for me to tell you and you all as one as a
-priest, I may say. But sure you're bound to hear it, and mebbe a little
-knowledge of the kind might not be amiss even to one in your exalted
-station. And then to make it better, it concerns two very near friends
-of yours, Mr. Ulick Shannon and Miss Rebecca Kerr, I thank you!"</p>
-
-<p>John Brennan's mind leaped immediately to interest. Were they gone back
-to one another, and after what he had thought to-day? This was the
-question his lips carried inwardly to himself.</p>
-
-<p>"I don't know how I can tell you. But Father O'Keeffe was at school
-to-day in a great whet. He made a show of her before the children, Mrs.
-Wyse and Miss McKeon, of course, giving him good help. He dismissed
-her, and told her to go about her business. He'll mebbe speak of her
-publicly from the altar on Sunday."</p>
-
-<p>"And what is it, mother, what&mdash;?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, she's going to have a misfortune, me son. She's going to be a
-mother, God bless us all! and not married or a ha'porth!"</p>
-
-<p>"O God!"</p>
-
-<p>"But sure she put in for nothing else, with her going up and all that
-to Dublin to have her dresses made, instead of getting them done nice
-and quiet and modest and respectable be me. I may tell you that I was
-more than delighted to hear it."</p>
-
-<p>"Well now, and the&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>John was biting his lips in passion, but she took another view of it as
-she interrupted him.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_256" id="Page_256">[Pg 256]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Ah, you may well ask who <i>he</i> is, who but that scoundrel Ulick
-Shannon, that I was never done asking you not to speak to. You were
-young and innocent, of course, and could not be expected to know what I
-know. But mebbe you'll avoid him now, although I think he won't be long
-here, for mebbe Father O'Keeffe'll run him out of the parish. Maybe
-not though, for his uncle has bags of money. Indeed I wouldn't put it
-apast him if <i>he</i> was the lad encouraged him to this, for the Shannons
-were always blackguards in their hearts.... But it'll be great to hear
-Father O'Keeffe on Sunday. I must be sure and go to his Mass. Oh, it'll
-be great to hear him!"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I suppose it will be great to hear him."</p>
-
-<p>John spoke out of the gathering bitterness of his heart.</p>
-
-<p>"I wonder what'll become of her now. I wonder where'll she go. Oh, to
-Dublin, I suppose. She was always fond of it."</p>
-
-<p>His mother was in a very ecstasy of conjecture as to the probable
-extent of Rebecca's fate. And this was the woman who had always
-expressed a melting tenderness in her actions towards him. This was his
-mother who had spoken now with all uncharitableness. There was such
-an absence of human pity in her words as most truly appalled him....
-Very quickly he saw too that it was upon his own slight connection with
-this tragic thing her mind was dwelling. This was to him now a token,
-not of love, but rather of enormous selfishness.... Her eyes were upon
-him still, watering in admiration with a weak gleam.... The four walls
-seemed to be moving in to crush him after the manner of some medieval
-torture chamber.... Within them, too, was beginning to rise a horrid
-stench as of dead human things.... This<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_257" id="Page_257">[Pg 257]</a></span> ghastliness that had sprung
-up between mother and son seemed to have momentarily blotted out the
-consciousness of both. They stared at one another now with glassy,
-unseeing eyes.</p>
-
-<p>After three Rebecca took her lonely way from the school. Neither Mrs.
-Wyse nor Monica McKeon had a word for her at parting. Neither this
-woman, who was many times a mother, nor this girl who might yet be a
-mother many times. They were grinning loudly and passing some sneer
-between them, as they moved away from one another alone.</p>
-
-<p>Down the valley road she went, the sunlight dazzling her tired eyes.
-A thought of something that had happened upon this day last year came
-with her remembrance of the date. It was the first anniversary of some
-slight, glad event that had brought her happiness, and yet what a day
-it was of dire happening? Just one short year ago she had not known the
-valley or Ulick or this fearful thing.... There were friends about her
-on this day last year and the sound of laughter, and she had not been
-so far distant from her father's house. And, O God! to think that now
-she was so much alone.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly she became aware that there was some one running by her side
-and calling "Miss Kerr! Miss Kerr!"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, Janet Comaskey!" she said, turning. "Is it you?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, Miss Kerr. I want to tell you that I was talking to God last
-night, and I was telling Him about you. He asked me did I like you, and
-I said I did. 'And so do I,' said He. 'I like Miss Kerr very much,' He
-said, 'for she's very nice, very, very nice.'"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_258" id="Page_258">[Pg 258]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Rebecca had never disliked this queer child, but she loved her now, and
-bending down, warmly kissed her wild face.</p>
-
-<p>"Thanks, miss. I only wanted to tell you about God," said Janet,
-dropping behind.</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca was again alone, but now she was within sight of the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick. It seemed to be dozing there in the sunlight. She
-began to question herself did those within already know ...? Now that
-the full publicity of her condition seemed imminent an extraordinary
-feeling of vanity was beginning to take possession of her. She took off
-her dust-coat and hung it upon her arm. Thus uncloaked she would face
-the eyes of Mrs. McGoldrick and her daughters, Euphemia and Clementina,
-and the eyes, very probably, of John Ross McGoldrick and Neville
-Chamberlain McGoldrick....</p>
-
-<p>But when she entered the house she experienced the painful stillness of
-a tomb-like place. There was no one to be seen. She went upstairs with
-a kind of faltering in her limbs, but her head was erect and her fine
-eyes were flashing.... Even still was she soaring beyond and beyond
-them. Her eye was caught by a note pinned upon her door. It seemed very
-funny and, despite her present condition of confusion and worry, she
-smiled, for this was surely a melodramatic trick that Mrs. McGoldrick
-had acquired from the character of her reading.... Still smiling, she
-tore it open. It read like a proclamation, and was couched in the very
-best handwriting of Sergeant McGoldrick.</p>
-
-<blockquote><p>"Miss Kerr,</p>
-
-<p>Rev. Louis O'Keeffe, P.P., Garradrimna, has given<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_259" id="Page_259">[Pg 259]</a></span> notice that,
-on account of certain deplorable circumstances, we are to refuse
-you permission to lodge with us any longer. This we hasten to
-do without any regret, considering that, to oblige you at the
-instigation of Father O'Keeffe, we broke the Regulation of the
-Force, which forbids the keeping of lodgers by any member of that
-body. We hereby give you notice to be out of this house by 6 p.m.
-on this evening, May &mdash;, 19&mdash;, having, it is understood, by that
-time packed up your belongings and discharged your liabilities to
-Mrs. McGoldrick. Father O'Keeffe has, very magnanimously, arranged
-that Mr. Charles Clarke is to call for you with his motor and take
-you with all possible speed to the station at Kilaconnaghan.</p>
-
-<p class="right">Sylvester McGoldrick (Sergeant, R.I.C.)."</p></blockquote>
-
-<p>The official look of the pronouncement seemed only to increase
-its gloomy finality, but the word "magnanimously," fresh from the
-dictionary at the Barrack, made her laugh outright. The offense she had
-committed was unnamed, too terrible for words. She was being sentenced
-like a doomed Easter rebel.... Yet, even still, she was not without
-some thought of the practical aspect of her case. She owed thirty
-shillings to Mrs. McGoldrick. This would leave her very little, out of
-the few pounds she had saved from her last instalment of salary, with
-which to face the world. This, of course, if Ulick did not come....
-And here was her dinner, set untidily in the stuffy room where the
-window had not been opened since the time she had left it this morning
-in confusion. And the whole house was quiet as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_260" id="Page_260">[Pg 260]</a></span> grave. She never
-remembered to have heard it so quiet at any other time. It seemed as
-if all this silence had been designed with a studied calculation of
-the pain it would cause. There was no kindness in this woman either,
-although she too was a mother and had young daughters. It appeared so
-greatly uncharitable that in these last terrible moments she could
-not cast from her the small and pitiful enmity she had begun upon the
-evening of Rebecca's arrival in the valley. She would not come even
-now and help her pack up her things, and she so weary?... But it was
-easily done. The few articles that had augmented her wardrobe since
-her coming to the valley would go into the basket she had used to
-carry those which were barely necessary for her comfort when she went
-to that lonely cottage in Donegal.... The mean room was still bare as
-when she had first come to it. She had not attempted to decorate it. In
-a pile in one corner stood the full series of <i>Irish School Weeklies</i>
-and <i>Weldon's Ladies' Journals</i> she had purchased since her coming
-here. She had little use for either of these publications now, little
-use for the one that related to education or the other that related to
-adornment.</p>
-
-<p>There came a feverish haste upon her to get done with her preparations
-for departure, and soon they were completed. She had her trunk corded
-and all ready. She had no doubt that Ulick would meet her upon The
-Road of the Dead at 5.30, the hour she had named in the letter of this
-morning. It was lucky she had so accurately guessed her possible time
-of departure, although somehow she had had no notion this morning of
-leaving so<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_261" id="Page_261">[Pg 261]</a></span> soon. But already it was more than 4.30 by her little
-wristlet watch. She put on her best dress, which had been left out on
-the bed, and redid her hair. It was still the certain salvage from the
-wreck she was becoming. Ulick or any other man, for all he had ruined
-her, must still love her for that hair of gold. It needed no crown at
-all, but a woman's vanity was still hers, and she put on a pretty hat
-which Ulick had fancied in Dublin. She had worn it for the first time
-last summer in Donegal, and it became her better than any hat she had
-ever worn.... What would they say if they saw her moving about in this
-guise, so brazenly as it seemed, when she might be spoken of from the
-altar on Sunday?</p>
-
-<p>Now fell upon her a melancholy desire to see the chapel. There was yet
-time to go there and pray just as she had thought of praying on her
-first evening on coming to Garradrimna. She took a final glance at the
-little, mean room. It had not been a room of mirth for her, and she
-was not sorry to leave it&mdash;there was the corded trunk to tell the tale
-of its inhospitality. She took the money for Mrs. McGoldrick from her
-purse and put it into an envelope.... Going downstairs she left it upon
-the kitchen table. There was no one to be seen, but she could hear the
-scurrying of small feet from her as if she were some monstrous and
-forbidden thing.</p>
-
-<p>As she went up the bright road there was a flickering consciousness
-in her breast that she was an offense against the sunlight, but this
-feeling fled away from her when she went into the chapel and knelt down
-to pray. Her mind was full of her purpose, and she did not experience
-the distraction of one single, selfish thought. But when she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_262" id="Page_262">[Pg 262]</a></span> put her
-hands up to her face in an attitude of piety she felt that her face was
-burning.</p>
-
-<p>It was a day for confessions, but there were few people in the chapel,
-and those not approaching the confessionals. The two young curates,
-Father Forde and Father Fagan, were moving about the quiet aisles,
-each deeply intent upon the reading of his office. They were nearer
-the altar than to her, but for all the air of piety in which they
-seemed to be enveloped, they detected her presence immediately and
-simultaneously. Soon they began to extend their back and forward pacing
-to include her within the range of their sidelong vision.... By the
-time she had got half way around her little mother-of-pearl rosary
-they were moving past her and towards one another at her back. She was
-saying her poor prayers as well as she could, but there they were with
-their heads working up and down as they looked alternately at her and
-at their holy books.... Just as she got to the end of the last decade
-she was conscious that they had come together and were whispering
-behind her.... It was not until then that she saw the chapel for what
-it stood in regard to her. It was the place where, on Sunday next, mean
-people would smirk in satisfaction as they sat listening in all their
-lack of charity and fulness of pride.... The realization brought the
-pulsing surge of anger to her blood and she rose to come away. But when
-she turned around abruptly there were the two curates with their eyes
-still fixed upon her.... She did not meet their looks full straight,
-for they turned away as if to avoid the contamination of her as she ran
-from the House of God.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_263" id="Page_263">[Pg 263]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>When John Brennan reached a point in his disgust where further
-endurance was impossible he broke away from the house and from his
-mother. He went out wildly through the green fields.</p>
-
-<p>But he would see her. He would go to her, for surely she had need of
-him now.... If Ulick did not come.... And there was much in his manner
-and conversation of the previous night to make it doubtful.... If he
-did not take her away from this place and make her his own to protect
-and cherish, there was only one course left open.... He knew little of
-these things, for he knew little of the ways of life, but instinctively
-he felt that Rebecca would now cling to Ulick and that Ulick would be a
-great scoundrel if he spurned her from him. And what, he asked himself,
-would he, John Brennan, do in that case?</p>
-
-<p>No answer would spring directly to his thoughts, but some ancient,
-primeval feeling was stirring in his heart&mdash;the answer that men have
-held to be the only answer from the beginning of the world. But that
-was a dreadful thing which, in its eddying circles of horror, might
-compass his own end also.</p>
-
-<p>But, maybe the whole story was untrue. He had heard his mother speak
-many a time after the same fashion, and there was never one case of the
-kind but had proved untrue. Yet it was terrible that no answer would
-come flashing out from his wild thoughts, and already he had reached
-The Road of the Dead.</p>
-
-<p>His wandering eyes had at last begun to rest upon a wide, green field.
-He saw the wind and sun conspiring to ripple the grass into the
-loveliest little waves. He had loved this always, and even the present
-state of his mind<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_264" id="Page_264">[Pg 264]</a></span> did not refuse the sensation of its beauty. He went
-and leaned across the field gate to gaze upon it.</p>
-
-<p>He turned suddenly, for there was a step approaching him along the
-road. Yes, surely it was she. It was Rebecca Kerr herself coming
-towards him down The Road of the Dead.... She was smiling, but from the
-dark, red shadows about her eyes it was easy to see that she had quite
-recently been crying.</p>
-
-<p>"Good evening, John Brennan!" she said.</p>
-
-<p>"Good evening, Miss Kerr!"</p>
-
-<p>There was a deep touch of concern, turning to anxiety, almost a rich
-tenderness in his words. She heard them for what they were, and there
-came to her clearly their accents of pity.... For the moment neither
-seemed capable of finding speech.... Her eyes were searching The Road
-of the Dead for the man she expected to meet her here. But he was not
-coming. In the silence that had fallen between them John Brennan had
-clearly glimpsed the dumb longing that was upon her.... He felt the
-final gloom that was moving in around her ... yet he could not find
-speech.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm going away from the valley," said Rebecca.</p>
-
-<p>He made some noise in his throat, but she could hear no distinct word.</p>
-
-<p>"It was not <i>you</i> I expected to meet here this evening. It is so
-strange how we have met like this."</p>
-
-<p>"I just came out for a walk," he stammered, at a loss for something
-better to say.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm glad we have met," she said, "for this is the last time."</p>
-
-<p>It was easy to see that her words held much meaning<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_265" id="Page_265">[Pg 265]</a></span> for herself and
-him.... He seemed to be nearer the brink as her eyes turned from him
-again to search the road.</p>
-
-<p>"He will not come," she said, and there was a kind of wretched
-recklessness in her tones. "I know he will not come, for that
-possibility has never been." She grew more resigned of a sudden. She
-saw that John Brennan too was searching the road with his eyes.... Then
-he knew the reason why she was going away.</p>
-
-<p>He was such a nice boy, and between his anxious watching now for her
-sake he was gazing with pity into her eyes.... He must know Ulick too
-as a man knows his friend, and that Ulick would not come to her in this
-her hour of trial.... The knowledge seemed the more terrible since it
-was through John Brennan it had come; and yet it was less terrible
-since he did not disdain her for what she had done. She saw through his
-excuse. He had come this way with the special purpose of seeing her,
-and if he had not met her thus accidentally he must inevitably have
-called at the house of Sergeant McGoldrick to extend his farewell. She
-was glad that she had saved him this indignity by coming out to her
-own disappointment.... She was sorry that he had again returned to his
-accustomed way of thinking of her, that he had again departed from the
-way into which she had attempted to direct him.</p>
-
-<p>And now there loomed up for her great terror in this thought. Yet she
-could read it very clearly in the way he was looking so friendly upon
-her.... Why had he always looked upon her in this way? Surely she had
-never desired it. She had never desired him. It was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_266" id="Page_266">[Pg 266]</a></span> Ulick she had
-longed for always. It was Ulick she had longed for this evening, and
-it was John Brennan who had come.... Yes, how well he had come? It was
-very simple and very beautiful, this action of his, but in its simple
-goodness there was a fair promise of its high desolation. It appeared
-that she stood for his ruin also, and, even now, in the mounting
-moments of her fear, this appeared as an ending far more appalling....
-She was coming to look at her own fate as a thing she might be able to
-bear, but there was something so vastly filled with torture in this
-thought.... Whenever she would look into the eyes of the child and make
-plans for its little future she would think of John Brennan and what
-had happened to him.</p>
-
-<p>She felt that they had been a long time standing here at this gate, by
-turns gazing anxiously up and down the road, by turns looking vacantly
-out over the sea of grass. Time was of more account than ever before,
-for was it not upon this very evening that she was being banished from
-the valley?</p>
-
-<p>"I must go now," she said; "<i>he</i> will never come."</p>
-
-<p>He did not answer, but moved as if to accompany her.... She grew
-annoyed as she observed his action.</p>
-
-<p>"No, no, you must not come with me now. You must not speak with me
-again. I have placed myself forever beyond your friendship or your
-thought!"</p>
-
-<p>As she extended her hand to him her heart was moved by a thousand
-impulses.</p>
-
-<p>"Good-by, John Brennan!" she said simply.</p>
-
-<p>"Good-by, Rebecca!" said he at last, finding speech by a tremendous
-effort.... And without another word they parted there on The Road of
-the Dead.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_267" id="Page_267">[Pg 267]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Outside the garden gate of Sergeant McGoldrick Charlie Clarke was
-waiting for her with his motor-car. Her trunk had been put in at the
-back. This was an unholy job for a saintly chauffeur, but it was Father
-O'Keeffe's command and his will must be done. When the news of it had
-been communicated to him he had said a memorable thing:</p>
-
-<p>"Well, now, the quare jobs a religious man has sometimes to do; but
-maybe these little punishments are by way of satisfaction for some
-forgotten and far-distant sin!"</p>
-
-<p>Rebecca understood his anxiety to have her off his hands as she saw him
-jump in behind the wheel at her approach. She got in beside her poor
-trunk, and presently the car would be ready to start. There was not
-a trace of any of the McGoldrick family to be seen.... But there was
-a sudden breaking through the green hedge upon the other side of the
-road, and Janet Comaskey stood beside the car. Rebecca was surprised by
-the sudden appearance of the little, mad girl at this moment.</p>
-
-<p>"Miss Kerr, Miss Kerr!" she called. "I got this from God. God told me
-to give you this!"</p>
-
-<p>The car started away, and Rebecca saw that the superscription on the
-letter she had been handed was in the pronounced Vere Foster style of
-Master Donnellan. Doubtless it was some long-winded message of farewell
-from the kind-hearted master, and she would not open it now. It would
-be something to read as she moved away towards Dublin.</p>
-
-<p>Just now her eyes were being filled by the receding pageant of the
-valley, that place of all earth's places which had so powerfully
-arrayed its villainy against her....<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_268" id="Page_268">[Pg 268]</a></span> And to think that he had not
-come.... It was the Valley of Hinnom.... Yes, to think that he had not
-come after all she had been to him, after all the love of her heart
-she had given him. No word could ever, ever pass between them again.
-They were upon the very brink of the eternity of separation. She knew
-now that for all the glory in which she had once beheld him, he must
-shrivel down to the bitter compass of a little, painful memory. Oh,
-God! to think he had not replied to her letter, and the writing of it
-had given her such pain.</p>
-
-<p>They were at the station of Kilaconnaghan. Charlie Clarke had not
-spoken all through the journey, but now he came up to her indignantly,
-as if very vexed for being compelled to speak to her at all, and said:
-"The fare is one pound!"</p>
-
-<p>The words smote her with a little sense of shock. She had been
-expecting something by way of climax. She was very certain in her
-consciousness that the valley would not let her slip thus quietly
-away.&mdash;A pound for the journey, although it was Father O'Keeffe who
-had engaged the car.&mdash;She must pay this religious robber a huge price
-for the drive. There rushed through her mind momentarily a mad flash
-of rebellion. The valley was carrying its tyranny a little too far....
-She would not pay.... But almost immediately she was searching for a
-note in her purse.... There were so very few of them now. Yet she could
-not leave the valley with any further little stain upon her. They would
-talk of a thing like this for years and years.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">With a deadly silence hanging over him and fearful thoughts coming into
-his mind Myles Shannon had kept<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_269" id="Page_269">[Pg 269]</a></span> himself and his nephew Ulick at work
-all through the day. After tea in the lonely dining-room he fetched
-in his inky account books, which had been neglected for many a month.
-His nephew would here have work to occupy him for the remainder of the
-evening and probably far into the night. Ulick was glad of the task,
-for his mind was very far from being at ease.</p>
-
-<p>Then Mr. Shannon took £100 from the old-fashioned bureau in the parlor,
-which held, with the other things, all his papers and accounts,
-and while the evening was yet high went down towards the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick to see Rebecca Kerr. Around a bend of the road he
-encountered Charlie Clarke on his way back from Kilaconnaghan, where he
-had been delayed upon bazaar business.</p>
-
-<p>The saintly chauffeur at once put on the brakes. This was Mr. Myles
-Shannon and some one worth speaking to. He bowed a groveling salute.</p>
-
-<p>"You're out pretty late?" said Mr. Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, yes!" And then he went on to describe his work of the evening.
-He felt inclined to offer his condolence to Mr. Shannon in a most
-respectful whisper, but thought better of it at the last moment.</p>
-
-<p>"And no one knows where she has gone?"</p>
-
-<p>"No one. She has disappeared from the valley."</p>
-
-<p>"She went away very suddenly."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, Father O'Keeffe saw that, in the public interest, she should
-disappear after this fashion. The motor was a help, you know."</p>
-
-<p>Charlie Clarke offered to drive Mr. Shannon to his home. No word passed
-between them as they drew up the avenue to the lonely house among the
-trees.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_270" id="Page_270">[Pg 270]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>In the train, moving on towards Dublin, Rebecca Kerr had just opened
-the letter from Master Donnellan. It contained a £5 note.... This was
-like a cry of mercy and pardon for the valley.... The rich fields of
-Meath were racing by.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_271" id="Page_271">[Pg 271]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXXI</h2>
-
-<p>There was a curious hush about the lake next evening, although the
-little cottage of Hughie Murtagh was swept by winds which stirred
-mournfully through all the bright abundance of early summer. Even the
-orange-blossoms of the furze seemed to put on an aspect of surrender.
-There was no challenge in their color now; they looked almost white
-against a somber sunset. John Brennan moped about among the fir-trees.
-He came to a stand-still by one that had begun to decay and which was
-even more mournful in its failure to contribute another plumed head to
-the general effect of mourning. But it seemed to shake enraged at this
-impotence in its poor foundation over the deserted warren, from which
-Shamesy Golliher had long since driven the little rabbits towards that
-dark Chicago of slaughter which was represented to them by Garradrimna.</p>
-
-<p>The same color of desolation was upon the reeds which separated
-him from the water. The water itself had, beneath its pretense of
-brightness upon the surface, the appearance of ooze, as if it had come
-washing over the slime of dead things.</p>
-
-<p>It was here that John Brennan had come to wait for Ulick Shannon, and,
-as he waited, his mood became that of his surroundings.... He fell to
-running over what had happened to him. Alternately, in the swirl of his
-consciousness, it appeared as the power of the valley and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_272" id="Page_272">[Pg 272]</a></span> as the Hand
-of God. Yet, whatever it might be in truth, this much was certain. It
-had reduced his life to ruins. It was a fearful thing, and he shuddered
-a little while he endeavored to produce a clear picture of it for the
-chastisement as well as the morbid excitement of his imagination.</p>
-
-<p>But there came instead a far different picture, which seemed to have
-the effect of lifting for a moment the surrounding gloom. He saw
-Rebecca Kerr again as upon many an afternoon they had met. For one
-brave moment he strove to recover the fine feeling that had filled
-him at those times. But it would not come. Something had happened,
-something terrible which soiled and spoiled her forever.</p>
-
-<p>For love of her he had dreamed even unto the desire of defeating his
-mother's love. And yet there was no triumph in his heart now, nothing
-save defeat and a great weariness. Neither his mother nor Rebecca Kerr
-were any longer definite hopes upon which his mind might dwell....
-His thoughts were running altogether upon Ulick Shannon. It was for
-Ulick he waited now in this lonely, wind-swept place, like any villain
-he had ever seen depicted upon the cover of a penny dreadful in
-Phillips's window when he was a boy. He now saw himself fixed in his
-own imagination after this fashion. Ulick Shannon would soon come.
-There was no doubt of this, for a definite appointment had been made
-during the day. He had remained at home from the college in Ballinamult
-to bring it about. Soon they would be endeavoring to enter what must
-be the final and tragic bye-way of their story. And it must be all so
-dreadfully interesting, this ending he had planned.... Now the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_273" id="Page_273">[Pg 273]</a></span> water
-came flowing towards him more rapidly as if to hurry the tragedy. It
-came more thickly and muddily and with long, billowy strides as if
-it yearned to gather some other body still holding life to its wild
-breast. Its waters kept flowing as if from some wide wound that ached
-and would not be satisfied; that bled and called aloud for blood
-forever.</p>
-
-<p>Now also the evening shadows were beginning to creep down the hills and
-with them a deeper hush was coming upon the wild longing of all things.
-Yet it was no hush of peace, but rather the concentration of some
-horrible purpose upon one place.</p>
-
-<p>"I am going away on Friday," Ulick had written in one of the two notes
-that had been exchanged between them by the messenger during the day,
-"and I would like to see you for what must, unfortunately, be the last
-time. I am slipping away unknown to my uncle or to any one, and it is
-hardly probable that I will be seen in these parts again."</p>
-
-<p>At length he beheld the approach of Ulick down the long Hill of
-Annus.... His spirit thrilled within him and flamed again into a white
-flame of love for the girl who was gone.... And coming hither was the
-man who had done this thing.... The thickest shadows of the evening
-would soon be gathered closely about the scene they were to witness....
-The very reeds were rustling now in dread.</p>
-
-<p>The lake was deep here at the edge of the water.... And in the
-rabbit-warren beneath his feet were the heavy pieces of lead piping
-he had transported in the night. He had taken them from his father's
-stock of plumber's materials, that moldy, unused stock which had so
-long<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_274" id="Page_274">[Pg 274]</a></span> lain in the back yard and which, in a distant way, possessed an
-intimate connection with this heaped-up story.... In a little instant
-of peculiar consciousness he wondered whether it would be pliable
-enough.... There were pieces for the legs and pieces for the arms which
-would enfold those members as in a weighty coffin.... And hidden nearer
-to his hand was the strangely-shaped, uncouth weapon his father had
-used many a time with such lack of improvement upon the school slates
-and with which one might kill a man.... The body would rest well down
-there beneath the muddy waters.... There would be no possibility of
-suspicion falling upon him, for the story of Rebecca Kerr's disgrace
-and Ulick Shannon's connection with it had already got about the
-valley.... He had been listening to his mother telling it to people all
-day.... Ulick's disappearance, in a way self-effacing and unnamed, was
-hourly expected. This opportunity appeared the one kind trick of Fate
-which had been so unkind to the passionate yearnings of John Brennan.</p>
-
-<p>But Ulick Shannon was by his side, and they were talking again
-as friends of different things in the light way of old.... Their
-talk moved not at all within the shadows of things about to happen
-presently.... But the shadows were closing in, and very soon they must
-fall and lie heavily upon all things here by the lake.</p>
-
-<p>"Isn't it rather wonderful, Brennan, that I should be going hence
-through the power of a woman? It is very strange how they always manage
-to have their revenge, how they beat us in the long run no matter how
-we may plume ourselves on a triumph that we merely fancy. Although
-we may degrade and rob them of their treasure,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_275" id="Page_275">[Pg 275]</a></span> ours is the final
-punishment. Do you remember how I told you on that day we were at the
-'North Leinster Arms,' in Ballinamult, there was no trusting any woman?
-Not even your own mother! Now this Rebecca Kerr, she&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>The sentence was never finished. John Brennan had not spoken, but his
-hand had moved twice&mdash;to lift the uncouth weapon from the foot of
-the tree and again to strike the blow.... The mold of unhappy clay
-from which the words of Ulick had just come was stilled forever. The
-great cry which struggled to break from the lips resulted only in a
-long-drawn sigh that was like a queer swoon. The mournful screech of a
-wild bird flying low over the lake drowned the little gust of sound....
-Then the last lone silence fell between the two young men who had once
-been most dear companions.</p>
-
-<p>No qualms of any kind came to the breast of John Brennan. He had
-hardened his heart between the leaping flames of Love and Hate, and
-there was upon him now the feeling of one who has done a fine thing.
-He was in the moment of his triumph, yet he was beginning to be amazed
-by his sudden power and the result of his decision.... That he, John
-Brennan, should have had it in him to murder his friend.... But no, it
-was his enemy he had murdered, the man who had desecrated the beauty of
-the world.... And there was a rare grandeur in what he had done. It was
-a thing of beauty snatched from the red hands of Death.</p>
-
-<p>Yet as he went about his preparations for submerging the body he felt
-something akin to disgust for this the mean business of the murder....
-Here was where the beauty that had been his deed snapped finally from
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_276" id="Page_276">[Pg 276]</a></span>existence in his consciousness and disappeared from him.</p>
-
-<p>Henceforth gray thought after gray thought came tumbling into his
-mind. Ulick had not been a bad fellow. He had tried to be kind to
-him&mdash;all the motor-drives and the walks and talks they had had. Even
-the bits of days and nights spent together in Garradrimna.... And how
-was Ulick to know of his affection for Rebecca Kerr? There had never
-been the faintest statement of the fact between them; his whole manner
-and conversation and the end for which he was intended forbade any
-suspicion of the kind. In fact to have had such a doubt would have
-been a sin in the eyes of many a Catholic.... The legs and arms were
-well weighted now.... This might not have happened if his mother had
-been attended in the right spirit of filial obedience.... But with
-the arrogance of youth, which he now realized for the first time, he
-had placed himself above her opinion and done what he had desired at
-the moment. And why had he done so?... She would seem to have had
-foreboding of all this in the way she had looked upon him so tenderly
-with her tired eyes many a time since his memorable home-coming last
-summer. She had always been so fearfully anxious.... Here must have
-been the melancholy end she had seen at the back of all dreaming.... He
-could feel that sad look clearly, all dimmed by dark presentiments.</p>
-
-<p>The body was a great weight. He strove to lift it in his arms in such a
-way that his clothes might not be soiled by the blood.... His face was
-very near the pale, dead face with the red blood now clotting amongst
-the hair.... He was almost overpowered by his burden as he dragged it
-to the water's edge.... It was a very fearful<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_277" id="Page_277">[Pg 277]</a></span> thing to look at just as
-the water closed over it with a low, gurgling sound, as if of mourning,
-like the cry of the bird in the moment the murder had been done.</p>
-
-<p>As he staggered back from the sighing reeds he noticed that the ground
-was blood-drenched beneath the tree.... But he was doing the thing most
-thoroughly. In a frenzy of precautionary industry he began to hack away
-the earth with the slating implement very much as Shamesy Golliher
-might hack it in search of a rabbit.</p>
-
-<p>Later he seemed to put on the very appearance of Shamesy himself as,
-with bent body, he slouched away across the ridge of the world. He too
-had just effected a piece of slaughter and Garradrimna seemed to call him.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_278" id="Page_278">[Pg 278]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>CHAPTER XXXII</h2>
-
-<p>When he came out upon the valley road he was no longer the admirable
-young man he had been less than a year since. He was a broken thing,
-and he was stained by another's blood. He was marked eternally by what
-he had done, and there was upon him a degradation unspeakable. He was
-an offense against existence and against the gathering, blessed gloom
-of the quiet evening.... He had murdered one who had been his friend,
-and it was a thing he might never be able to forget. The body, with
-all the lovely life so recently gone from it, he had weighted and sunk
-beneath the surface of the lake.... It was down there now, a poor, dead
-thing among the ooze of dead things from which the water had taken its
-color and quality. The wild spirit that had been Ulick Shannon, so
-contradictory in its many aspects, was now soaring lightly aloft upon
-the wings of clean winds and he, John Brennan, who had effected this
-grand release, felt the weights still heavy about his heart.</p>
-
-<p>He came on a group of children playing by the roadside. It seemed
-as if they had been driven across his path to thwart him with their
-innocence. He instantly remembered that other evening when he had been
-pained to hear them express the ugly, uncharitable notions of their
-parents regarding a child of another religion. Now they were playing
-merrily as God had intended<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_279" id="Page_279">[Pg 279]</a></span> them to play, and religion, with its
-tyranny of compulsion towards thoughts of death and sin, seemed distant
-from them, and distant was it from him too. His mind was empty of any
-thought. Would no kindly piece of imagination come down to cool his
-spirit with its grace or lift from his heart the oppression of the
-leaden weights he had bound about the body of Ulick Shannon?... At last
-he had remembrance of his mother. It had been borne in upon him during
-some of his lonely cycle-rides to and from Ballinamult that things
-should not be, somehow, as they were. He was moving along exalted ways
-while his mother labored in lonely silence at her machine.... Where
-was the money coming from? Such an unproductive state as his required
-money for its upkeep. His father was no toiler, but she was always
-working there alone in the lonely room. Her hands were grown gnarled
-and hard through her years of labor.... Just presently she was probably
-discussing a dismal matter of ways and means with some woman of the
-valley, saying as she had said through the long years:</p>
-
-<p>"Thank God and His Blessed Mother this night, I still have me
-hands. Aye, that's what I was just saying to Mrs. So and So this
-morning&mdash;Thank God I still have me hands!"</p>
-
-<p>Thus she was going on now, he imagined, as he had always heard her, a
-pathetic figure sitting there and looking painfully through the heavy,
-permanent mist that was falling down upon her eyes. And yet it was
-not thus she really was at this moment. For although it was a woman
-who held her company, there was no mood of peace between them. It was
-Marse Prendergast who was with her, and she was proceeding busily with
-her eternal<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_280" id="Page_280">[Pg 280]</a></span> whine. Mrs. Brennan was now disturbed in her mind and
-fearful of the great calamity that might happen. While she had bravely
-maintained the money in the little chest upstairs there had lingered,
-in spite of every affliction, a sense of quietness and independence.
-But now she was without help and as one distraught. Of late this
-gibbering old woman had obtained a certain power over her, and a
-considerable portion of the once proud Mrs. Brennan had fallen finally
-away. Although, at unaccountable moments, her strong pride would spring
-up to dazzle the people of the valley, she did not now possess that
-remarkable imperviousness which had so distinguished her attitude
-towards life. Now she was in a condition of disintegration, unable
-to maintain an antagonism or hide a purpose. The old ruined woman,
-the broken shuiler of the roads, was beginning to behold the ruins of
-another woman, the ruins of Mrs. Brennan, who had once been so "thick"
-and proud.</p>
-
-<p>"So you won't hearken to me request?"</p>
-
-<p>"I can't, Marse dear. I have no money to give you!"</p>
-
-<p>This was a true word, for the little store upstairs had gone this way
-and that. Tommy Williams had had to be given his interest, and although
-people might think that John was getting his education for charity, no
-one knew better than she the heavy fees of the college in Ballinamult.
-Besides, he must keep up a good appearance in the valley.</p>
-
-<p>But when Marse Prendergast made a demand she knew no reason and could
-make no allowance.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, Nan, me dear, I must do me duty. I must speak out when you can't
-bribe me to be silent. I must do a horrid piece of business this night.
-I must turn<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_281" id="Page_281">[Pg 281]</a></span> a son against his mother. Yes, that must be the way of it
-now, a son turned for good against his mother. For surely there could
-be no pardon in his grand, holy eyes for what you were once upon a
-time. But let me tell you this, that I'd have acquainted him anyhow,
-for I'd not have gone to me grave with that sin on me no matter what.
-They say it isn't right to offer a son to God where there's after being
-any big blemish in the family, and that if you do a woful misfortune or
-a black curse comes of it. And sure that was the quare, big blemish in
-your family, Nan Byrne, the quarest blemish ever was."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan began to cry. She seemed to have come at last to the end
-of all her long attempt to brazen things out.... Marse Prendergast was
-not slow to observe this acceptance of defeat, and saw that now surely
-was her time to be hard and bitter. She was growing so old, a withered
-stump upon the brink of years, and there was upon her an enormous
-craving for a little money. People were even driven, by her constant
-whine for this thing and that, to say how she had a little store of her
-own laid by which she gloated over with a wicked and senile delight.
-And for what, in God's name, was she hoarding and she an old, lone
-woman with the life just cross-wise in her?... And it was always Mrs.
-Brennan whom she had visited with her singular and special persecution.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose now you think you're the quare, clever one to be going on
-with your refusals from day to day. I suppose you think I don't know
-that you have a <i>chesht</i> full of money that you robbed from poor Henry
-Shannon, God be good to him, when he used to be coming running to see
-you, the foolish fellow!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_282" id="Page_282">[Pg 282]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"As God's me judge, Marse Prendergast, I haven't e'er a penny in the
-house. I'm in debt in Garradrimna this blessed minute, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"</p>
-
-<p>"Go on out of that with your talk of debts, and you to be sending your
-son John through his college courses before all our eyes like any fine
-lady in the land. And think of all the grand money you'll be getting
-bye and bye in rolls and cartloads!"</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, with the help of God!"</p>
-
-<p>Even in the moment of her torment Mrs. Brennan could not restrain her
-vanity of her son.</p>
-
-<p>"And to think of all that being before you now and still you keep up
-your mean refusals of the little thing I ask," said the old woman with
-the pertinacious unreasonableness of age.</p>
-
-<p>"I haven't got the money, Marse, God knows I haven't."</p>
-
-<p>"God knows nothing, Nan Byrne, only your shocking villainy. And 'tis
-the great sin for you surely. And if God knows this, it is for some one
-else to know your sin. It is for your son John to know the kind of a
-mother that he loves and honors."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan had heard this threat on many an occasion yet even now
-the repetition of it made her grow suddenly pale.... An expression
-of sickliness was upon her face seen even through the shadowed
-sewing-room. Always this thought had haunted her that some time John
-might come to know.</p>
-
-<p>"Long threatening comes at last!" was a phrase that had always held for
-her the darkest meaning. She could never listen to any woman make use
-of it without <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_283" id="Page_283">[Pg 283]</a></span>shuddering violently. Marse Prendergast had threatened
-so often and often.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, no, Nan Byrne, this is something I could never let pass. And all
-the long days I saw you contriving here at the machine, and you so
-anxious and attentive, sure I used to be grinning to myself at the
-thoughts of the bloody fine laugh I'd be having at you some day. I
-used, that's God's truth!"</p>
-
-<p>It seemed terrible to be told the story of this hate that had been
-so well hidden, now springing up before her in a withering blast of
-ingratitude and being borne to her understanding upon such quiet
-words.... She sighed ever so slightly, and her lips moved gently in the
-aspiration of a prayer.</p>
-
-<p>"O Jesus, Mary and Joseph!" was what she said.</p>
-
-<p>The pious ejaculation seemed to leap at once towards the accomplishment
-of a definite purpose, for immediately it had the effect of moving
-Marse Prendergast towards the door.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm going now!"</p>
-
-<p>The words were spoken with an even more chilling quietness. Mrs.
-Brennan made a noise as if to articulate something, but no words would
-come from her.</p>
-
-<p>"And let you not be thinking that 'tis only this little thing I'm going
-to tell him, for there's a whole lot more. I'm going to tell him <i>all</i>
-I know, <i>all that I didn't tell you</i> through the length of the years,
-though, God knows, it has been often burning me to tell.... You think,
-I suppose, as clever as you are, that the child was buried in the
-garden. Well, that's not a fact, nor the color of a fact, for all I've
-made you afraid of it so often.... Grace<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_284" id="Page_284">[Pg 284]</a></span> Gogarty had no child of her
-own for Henry Shannon. <i>Ulick Shannon is your own child that was sold
-be your ould mother for a few pound!</i>"</p>
-
-<p>"That's a lie for you, Marse Prendergast!"</p>
-
-<p>"'Tis no lie at all I'm telling you, but the naked truth. I suppose
-neither of them lads, Ulick nor John, ever guessed the reason why they
-were so fond of one another, but that was the reason; and 'tis I used
-to enjoy seeing them together and I knowing it well. Isn't it curious
-now to say that you're the mother of a blackguard and the mother of the
-makings of a priest?... Mebbe you'd give me the little bit of money
-now? Mebbe?"</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Brennan did not answer. Big tears were rolling down her cheeks
-one after the other.... Her heart had been rent by this sudden flash
-of information. Even the last remaining stronghold of her vanity had
-been swept away. That she, who had claim in her own estimation to be
-considered the wise woman of the valley, could not have long since
-guessed at the existence of a fact so intimate.... Her heart was
-wounded, not unto death, but immortally.... Her son! Ulick Shannon her
-son! O Mother of God!</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">John Brennan was still in his agony as he saw the long-tongued shuiler
-coming towards him down the road. She was making little journeys into
-the ditches as she came along. She was gathering material for a fire
-although every bush was green.... She was always shivering at the
-fall of night. The appearance of the children had filled him with
-speculations as to where he might look for some comfort.... Could it be
-derived from the precepts of religion translated into acts of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_285" id="Page_285">[Pg 285]</a></span> human
-kindness? Momentarily he was confused as he attempted to realize some
-act of goodness to be done here and now. He was unable to see.</p>
-
-<p>Old Marse Prendergast, coming towards him slowly, was the solitary
-link connecting his mind with any thought. To him she appeared the
-poor old woman in need of pity who was gathering green sticks from the
-hedge-rows to make her a fire which would not kindle. He remembered
-that morning, now some time distant, when he had helped her carry home
-a bundle of her sticks on his way from Mass. It had appeared to him
-then, as it did now, a Christ-like action, but his mother had rebuked
-him for it. Yet he had always wished his mother to take the place of
-Mary when he tried to snatch some comfort from the Gospel story. Soon
-he was by her side speaking as kindly as he could.... Great fear was
-already upon him.</p>
-
-<p>"God bless you, me little Johneen, me little son; sure 'tis yourself
-has the decent, kind heart to be taking pity upon the old. Arrah now!
-You're alone and lonely this evening, I notice, for your friend is gone
-from you. It bees lonely when one loses one's comrade. Ah, 'tis many a
-year and more since I lost me comrade through the valley of life. Since
-Marks Prendergast, the good husband of me heart and the father of me
-children, was lost on me. Sure he was murdered on me one St. Patrick's
-Day fair in Garradrimna. He was ripped open with a knife and left there
-upon the street in his blood for me to see.... That's the way, that's
-the way, me sweet gosoon; some die clean and quiet, and some go away in
-their blood like the way they came."</p>
-
-<p>Had she devoted much time and skill to it she could<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_286" id="Page_286">[Pg 286]</a></span> not have produced
-a more dire effect upon John than by this accidental turn of her
-talk.... The scene by the lakeside swam clearly into his eyes again.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose <i>your</i> good comrade is gone away?"</p>
-
-<p>"Whom, what?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ulick Shannon, to be sure. I suppose he's after slipping away be this
-time anyway."</p>
-
-<p>"Aye, he's gone away."</p>
-
-<p>"That was what you might call the nice lad. And it was no wonder at all
-that you were so much attached to one another. Never a bit of wonder at
-all.... Sure you were like brothers."</p>
-
-<p>John was so solicitous in maintaining his silence that he did not
-notice the old woman's terrible sententiousness.... He went on pulling
-green sticks from the hedge and placing them very carefully by the side
-of those she had already gathered.</p>
-
-<p>"Just like brothers. That's what ye were, just like brothers. He, he,
-he!"</p>
-
-<p>Although he did not detect the note of laughter in it that was hollow
-and a mockery, he was nevertheless appalled by what should appear as
-a commendation of him who was gone.... He felt himself shaking even
-as the leaves in the hedgerows were being shaken by the light wind of
-evening.</p>
-
-<p>"Like brothers, <i>avic machree</i>."</p>
-
-<p>Even still he did not reply.</p>
-
-<p>"Like brothers, I say, and that's the whole story. For ye were
-brothers. At least you were of the one blood, because ye had the same
-woman for the mother of ye both."</p>
-
-<p>Certainly she was raving, but her words were having<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_287" id="Page_287">[Pg 287]</a></span> an unusual effect
-upon him. He was keeping closer to the hedge as if trying to hide his
-face.</p>
-
-<p>"To-night, me fine gosoon, I'm going to do a terrible thing. I'm going
-to tell you who your mother is, and then you'll know a quare story.
-You'll know that Ulick Shannon, good luck to him wherever he's gone,
-was nothing less than your own brother.... It is she that is after
-forcing me on to it be her penurious and miserly ways. I didn't want to
-tell ye, John! I say, I didn't want to tell ye!"</p>
-
-<p>Her old, cracked voice trailed away into a high screech. John Brennan
-was like a man stunned by a blow as he waited for her to speak the rest
-of the story.</p>
-
-<p>"Ulick Shannon's father, Henry Shannon, was the one your mother loved.
-She never cared for your father, nor he for her. So you might say you
-are no love child. But there was a love child in it to be sure, and
-that child was Ulick Shannon. Your mother was his mother. He was born
-out of wedlock surely, but he happened handy, and was put in the place
-of Grace Gogarty's child that died and it a weeshy, young thing.... It
-was your grandmother that sold him, God forgive her, if you want to
-know, for I was watching the deed being done.... Your mother always
-thought the bastard was murdered in the house and buried in the garden.
-I used to be forever tormenting her by making her think that only it
-was me could tell. There was no one knew it for certain in the whole
-world, only me and them that were dead and gone. So your mother could
-not have found out from any one but me, and she might never have found
-out only for the way she used to be refusing me of me little dues....
-But I can tell you that she found<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_288" id="Page_288">[Pg 288]</a></span> out this evening how she was the
-mother of Ulick Shannon, and that you, the beloved son she cherished
-in her heart and put on in all her pride to be a priest of God, was a
-near blood relation of the boy she was never done but running down. The
-boy that she, above all others, with her prate and gab made a drunkard
-of in the first place, and then rushed on, be always talking of the
-like about him, to do great harm to this girl. But sure it was myself
-that could not blame him at all, for it was in him both ways, the poor,
-unfortunate gosoon!"</p>
-
-<p>There was no reason to doubt the old shuiler's story, with such
-passionate vehemence did it fall from her. And its coherence was very
-convincing. It struck him as a greater blow which almost obliterated
-his understanding. In the first moment he could stand apart from it
-and look even blindly it appeared as the swift descent of Divine
-vengeance upon him for what he had just done.... He moved away, his
-mind a bursting tumult, and without a sight in his eyes.... The mocking
-laughter of Marse Prendergast rang in his ears. Now why was she
-laughing at him when it was his mother who was her enemy?</p>
-
-<p>He was walking, but the action was almost unnoticed by him. He was
-moving aimlessly within the dark, encircling shadow of his doom.... Yet
-he saw that he was not far distant from Garradrimna.... The last time
-he had been there at the period of the day he had been in company with
-Ulick Shannon. It was what had sprung out of those comings together
-that was now responsible for this red ending.... He remembered also
-how the port wine had lifted him out of himself and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_289" id="Page_289">[Pg 289]</a></span> helped him to see
-Rebecca Kerr.... The windows were squinting through the gloom as he
-went the road.</p>
-
-<p>There was stronger drink in Garradrimna and pubs. of greater intensity
-than McDermott's. There was "The World's End," for instance, that
-tavern so fantastically named by the Hon. Reginald Moore in memory of
-an inn of the same name that had struck his fancy in England.... The
-title now seemed particularly appropriate.</p>
-
-<p>It was towards this place his feet were moving. In another spell
-of thought which surprised him by the precaution it exhibited, he
-remembered that his father would not be there; for, although it had
-been Ned Brennan's famous haunt aforetime, he had been long ago
-forbidden its doors. It was in this, one of the seven places of
-degradation in Garradrimna, he was now due to appear.</p>
-
-<p>He went very timidly up to the back-door, which opened upon a little,
-secluded passage. He ordered a glass of whiskey from the greasy barmaid
-who came to attend him.... He felt for the money so carefully wrapped
-in tissue-paper in his waistcoat pocket. It was a bright gold sovereign
-that his mother had given him on the first day of his course at
-Ballinamult College to keep against any time he might be called upon to
-show off the fact that he was a gentleman. As he unfolded it now, from
-the careful covering in which she had wrapped it, it seemed to put on a
-tragic significance.... He was fearfully anxious to be in the condition
-that had brought him his vision on the night he had slept by the lake.</p>
-
-<p>He drank the whiskey at one gulp, and it seemed a long time until
-the barmaid returned with the change. Sovereigns were marvels of
-rare appearance at "The<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_290" id="Page_290">[Pg 290]</a></span> World's End." He thanked her and called for
-another, paying her as she went. She was remarkably mannerly, for, in
-the narrow gloom of the place, she took him to be some rich stranger.
-She had seen the color of his money and liked it well.</p>
-
-<p>The whiskey seemed to possess magical powers. It rapidly restored him
-to a mood wherein the distress that was his might soon appear a small
-thing. Yet he grew restless with the urgency that was upon him and
-glanced around in search of a distraction for his galloping brain....
-He bent down and peered through the little aperture which opened upon
-the public bar of "The World's End." In there he saw a man in a heated
-atmosphere and enveloped by dense clouds of tobacco-smoke. They were
-those who had come in the roads to forget their sweat and labor in the
-black joy of porter. Theirs was a part of the tragedy of the fields,
-but it was a meaner tragedy. Yet were they suddenly akin to him....
-Through the lugubrious expression on their dark faces a sudden light
-was shining. It was the light as if of some ecstasy. A desire fell upon
-him to enter into their dream, whatever it might be.... In the wild
-whirl that the whiskey had whipped up in his brain there now came a
-sudden lull. It was a lull after a great crescendo, as in Beethoven's
-music.... He was hearing, with extraordinary clearness, what they were
-saying. They were speaking of the case of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca
-Kerr. These names were linked inseparably and were going hand in hand
-down all the byeways of their talk.... They were sure and certain that
-he had gone away. There was not a sign of him in Garradrimna this
-evening. That put the cap on his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_291" id="Page_291">[Pg 291]</a></span> guilt surely. Wasn't she the grand
-whipster, and she supposed to be showing a good example and teaching
-religion to the childer? A nice one to have in the parish indeed! It
-was easy knowing from the beginning what she was and the fellow she
-struck up with&mdash;Henry Shannon's son. Wasn't that enough for you? Henry
-Shannon, who was the best blackguard of his time!... Just inside, and
-very near to John, a knot of men were discussing the more striking
-aspects of the powerful scandal.... They were recounting, with minute
-detail, the story of Nan Byrne.... Wasn't it the strangest thing now
-how she had managed more or less to live it down? But people would
-remember it all again in the light of this thing. What Ulick Shannon
-had done now would make people think of what his father had done, and
-then they must needs remember her.... And to think that no one ever
-knew rightly what had become of the child. Some there were who would
-tell you that her sister, Bridget Mulvey, and her mother, Abigail
-Byrne, buried it in the garden, and there were those who would tell you
-that it was living somewhere at the present time.... Her son John was
-not a bad sort, but wasn't it the greatest crime for her to put him on
-to be a priest after what had happened to her, and surely no good could
-come of it?... And why wouldn't Ned Brennan know of it, and wasn't it
-that and nothing else that had made him the ruined wreck of a man he
-was? Sure he'd never done a day's good since the night Larry Cully
-had lashed out the whole story for his benefit. And wasn't it quite
-possible that some one would be bad enough to tell John himself some
-time, or the ecclesiastical authorities? What about the mee-aw that had
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_292" id="Page_292">[Pg 292]</a></span>happened to him in the grand college in England that so much had been
-heard of? And there was sure to be something else happening before he
-was through the college at Ballinamult. A priest, how are ye?</p>
-
-<p>The whiskey had gone to his head, but, as he listened, John Brennan
-felt himself grow more sober than he had ever before been.... So this
-was the supplement to the story he had heard a while ago. And now that
-he knew the whole story he began to tremble. Continually flashing
-across his mind were the words of the man who was dead and silent at
-the bottom of the lake&mdash;"You could never know a woman, you could never
-trust her; you could not even trust your own mother." This was a hard
-thing for any man at all to have said in his lifetime, and yet how
-full of grim, sad truth did it now appear?... The kind forgetfulness
-of his choking bitterness that he had so passionately longed for
-would not come to him.... The dregs of his heart were beginning to
-turn again towards thoughts of magnanimity as they had already done
-in the first, clear spell of thought after his deed. He had then gone
-to gather sticks for the old woman, a kind thing, as Jesus might have
-done in Nazareth.... The change of the sovereign was in his hand and
-his impulse was strong upon him. He could not resist. It seemed as if
-a strong magnet was pulling a light piece of steel.... He had walked
-into the public bar of "The World's End." Around him was a sea of
-faces, laughing, sneering, drinking, sweating, swearing, spitting. He
-was calling for a drink for himself and a round for the shop.... Now
-the sea of faces was becoming as one face. And there was a look upon it
-which seemed made up of incredulity and <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_293" id="Page_293">[Pg 293]</a></span>contempt.... This was replaced
-by a different look when the pints were in their hands.... They were
-saying: "Good health, Mr. Brennan!" with a sneer in their tones and a
-smile of flattery upon those lips which had just now been vomiting out
-the slime of their minds.</p>
-
-<p>There was another and yet another round. As long as he could remain on
-his feet he remained standing drinks to them. There was a longing upon
-him to be doing this thing. And beyond it was the guiding desire to be
-rid of every penny of the sovereign his mother had given him to help
-him appear as a gentleman if he met company.... Now it seemed to soil
-him, coming as it did from her. Curious that feeling after all she had
-done for him, and she his mother. But it would not leave him.</p>
-
-<p>The drink he had bought was fast trickling down the many throats that
-were burning to receive it. The rumor of his prodigality was spreading
-abroad through Garradrimna, and men had gone into the highways and the
-byeways to call their friends to the banquet. Two tramps on their way
-to the Workhouse had heard of it and were already deep in their pints.
-Upon John's right hand, arrived as if by magic, stood Shamesy Golliher,
-and upon his left the famous figure of Padna Padna, who was looking up
-into his face with admiration and brightness striving hard to replace
-the stare of vacancy in the dimming eyes. As he drank feverishly,
-fearful of losing any, Shamesy Golliher continuously ejaculated: "Me
-sweet fellow, John! Me sweet fellow!" And Padna Padna kept speaking to
-himself of the grand thing it was that there was one decent fellow left
-in the world, even if he was only Nan Byrne's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_294" id="Page_294">[Pg 294]</a></span> son. Around John Brennan
-was a hum of flattery essentially in the same vein.... And it seemed to
-him that, in his own mind, he had soared far beyond them.... Outwardly
-he was drunk, but inwardly he knew himself to be very near that rapture
-which would bring thoughts of Rebecca as he staggered home alone along
-the dark road.</p>
-
-<p>The companions of his Bacchic night had begun to drift away from
-him. Ten o'clock was on the point of striking, and he was in such a
-condition that he might be upon their hands at any moment. They did not
-want Walter Clinton, the proprietor of "The World's End," to be giving
-any of them the job of taking him home. The hour struck and the remnant
-went charging through the doorways like sheep through a gap. Shamesy
-Golliher limped out, leading Padna Padna by the hand, as if the ancient
-man had suddenly become metamorphosed into his second childishness....
-"The bloody-looking idiot!" they were all sniggering to one another.
-"Wasn't it a hell of a pity that Ned Brennan, his father, and he always
-bowseying for drink in McDermott's and Brannagan's, wasn't in 'The
-World's End' to-night?"</p>
-
-<p>John was alone amidst the dregs of the feast. Where the spilt drink
-was shining on the counter there was such a sight of glasses as he had
-never before seen. There were empty glasses and glasses still standing
-with half their drink in them, and glasses in which the porter had not
-been touched so drunk had everybody been.</p>
-
-<p>Walter Clinton came in indignantly and said that it was a shame for
-him to be in such a state, and to go home out of that at once before
-the peelers got a hold<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_295" id="Page_295">[Pg 295]</a></span> of him.... And he went out with difficulty and
-down the old road of the elms towards his mother's house in the valley.
-He could hear the hurrying, heavy feet of those he had entertained so
-lavishly far down before him on the road.... For the moment he was
-happy. Before his burning eyes was the form of Rebecca Kerr. Her face
-had a look of quiet loveliness. He thought it was like the faces of
-the Madonnas in Father O'Keeffe's parlor.... "Rebecca! Rebecca!" he
-called to her ever in the agony of his love. "Thy hands, dear Rebecca!"
-... She was not soiled now by any earthly sin, for he had purified her
-through the miracle of blood. And she was clean like the night wind.</p>
-
-<p>He was a pitiable sight as he went staggering on, crying out this
-ruined girl's name to the night silence of the lonely places.... At
-last he fell somewhere in the soft, dewy grass. For a long while he
-remained here&mdash;until he began to realize that his vision was passing
-with the decline within him of the flame by which it had been created.
-The winds upon his face and hair were cold, and it seemed that he was
-lying in a damp place. His eyes sprang open.... He was lying by the
-lakeside and at the place where he had murdered Ulick Shannon.</p>
-
-<p>He jumped up of a sudden, for his fear had come back to him. With his
-mouth wide open and a clammy sweat upon his brow, he started to run
-across what seemed a never-ending grassy space.... He broke madly
-through fences of thorn and barbed wire, which tore his clothes and his
-hands. He stumbled across fields of tillage.... At last, with every
-limb shivering, he came near his mother's door.... Presently he grew<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_296" id="Page_296">[Pg 296]</a></span>
-coldly conscious.... He could hear his father muttering drunkenly
-within. He came nearer, striving hard to steady himself and walk erect.
-He quickened his step to further maintain his pretense of sobriety. His
-foot tripped against something, and he lurched forward. He was caught
-in his mother's arms, for, at the sound of his approach, she had opened
-the door in resigned and mournful expectation.</p>
-
-<p>"O Jesus!" she said.</p>
-
-<p>There were two of them now.</p>
-
-<p class="center space-above">THE END</p>
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-THE VALLEY OF THE
-SQUINTING WINDOWS
-
-BY
-BRINSLEY MACNAMARA
-
-[Illustration: Logo]
-
-NEW YORK
-BRENTANO'S
-1920
-
-
-
-
-Copyright, 1919, by
-BRENTANO'S
-
-_All rights reserved_
-
-
-
-
-To
-ONE WHO WAITED
-FOR THIS STORY
-
-
-_And the Lord spake unto Moses saying_:
-
-_Speak unto Aaron saying whosoever he be of thy seed in their
-generations that hath any blemish let him not approach to offer the
-bread of his God._
-
-LEVITICUS xxi. 16-17.
-
-
-
-
-PREFATORY NOTE
-
-
-In the parlor, as they call it, or best room of every Irish farmhouse,
-one may come upon a certain number of books that are never read, laid
-there in lonely repose upon the big square table on the middle of the
-floor. A novel entitled "Knocknagow" is almost always certain to be
-amongst them, yet scarcely as the result of selection, although its
-constant occurrence cannot be considered purely accidental. There must
-lurk an explanation somewhere about these quiet Irish houses connecting
-the very atmosphere with "Knocknagow". A stranger, thinking of some of
-the great books of the world, would almost feel inclined to believe
-that this story of the quiet homesteads of Ireland must be one of them,
-a book full of inspiration and truth and beauty, a story sprung from
-the bleeding realities which were before the present comfort of these
-homes. Yet for all the expectations which might be raised up in one
-by this most popular, this typical Irish novel, it is most certainly
-the book with which the new Irish novelist would endeavor to contrast
-his own. For he would be writing of life, as the modern novelist's art
-is essentially a realistic one, and not of the queer, distant, half
-pleasing, half saddening thing which could make one Irish farmer's
-daughter say to another at any time within the past forty years:
-
-"And you'd often see things happening nearly in real life like in
-'Knocknagow.' Now wouldn't you?"
-
-Nearer by a long way than Charles Joseph Kickham to what the Irish
-novelist should have been was William Carleton in his great, gloomy,
-melodramatic stories of the land. He was prevented by the agrarian
-obsession of his time from having the clear vision and wide pity, in
-keeping with his vehemence, which might have made him the Irish Balzac.
-
-Even in Ireland Lever and Lover have become unpopular. They are read
-only by Englishmen who still try to perpetuate their comic convention
-when they write newspaper articles about Ireland.
-
-As with Kickham, largely in his treatment of the Irish peasant, Gerald
-Griffin in "The Collegians" did not succeed in giving his Irish middle
-or "strong farmer" class characters the spiritual energy so necessary
-to the literary subject.
-
-Here are five writers then, who included in their work such exact
-opposites as saints and sinners, heroes and _omadhanns_, earnest
-passionate men and _broths of bhoys_. And somehow between them, between
-those who wrote to degrade us and those who have idealized us, the real
-Irishman did not come to be set down. From its fiction, reality was
-absent, as from most other aspects of Irish life.
-
-To a certain extent the realistic method has been employed by the
-dramatists of the Irish Literary Movement, but necessarily limited by
-the scope and conventions of the stage and by the narrower appeal of
-the spoken word in the mouth of an actor. The stage, too, has a way of
-developing cults and conventions and of its very nature must display
-a certain amount of artificiality, even in the handling of realistic
-material. Thus comes a sudden stagnation, a sudden completion always
-of a literary movement developed mostly upon the dramatic side, as has
-come upon the work of the Abbey Theater.
-
-It appears rather accidental, but perhaps on the whole to its benefit,
-that the dramatic form should have been adopted by J. M. Synge and not
-the epical form of the novel. Synge fell with a lash of surprise upon
-the Ireland of his time, for the Irish play had been as fully degraded
-as the Irish novel. Furthermore the shock of his genius created an
-opportunity which made possible the realistic Irish novelist. At the
-Abbey Theater they performed plays dealing with subjects which no Irish
-novelist, thinking of a public, would have dreamt of handling. Somehow
-their plays have come to be known and accepted throughout Ireland. Thus
-a reading public for this realistic Irish novel has been slowly created
-and the urge to write like this has come to many storytellers.
-
-Of necessity, as part of the reaction from the work of the feeble
-masters we have known, the first examples of the new Irish novel
-were bound to be a little savage and pitiless. In former pictures of
-Irish life there was heavy labor always to give us the shade at the
-expense of the light, in fact at the expense of the truth which is
-life itself. In Ireland the protest of the realist is not so much
-against Romanticism as against an attempt made to place before us a
-pseudo-realism. According as the Irish people resign themselves to the
-fact that this is not a thing which should not be done, the work of
-the Irish realist will approximate more nearly to the quality of the
-Russian novelists, in which there are neither exaggerations of Light
-nor of Shade, but a picture of life all gray and quiet, and brightened
-only by the beauty of tragic reality.
-
-It leaves room for interesting speculation, that at a time of political
-chaos, at a time when in Ireland there is a great coming and going of
-politicians of all brands, dreamers, sages and mystics, the decline
-of the Irish Literary Movement on its dramatic side should have given
-the realistic Irish novelist his opportunity to appear. The urgent
-necessity of reality in Irish life at the moment fills one with the
-thought that a school of Irish realists might have brought finer things
-to the heart of Ireland than the Hy Brazil of the politicians.
-
-The function of the Irish novelist to evoke reality has been proved in
-the case of "The Valley of the Squinting Windows." Upon its appearance
-the people of that part of Ireland with whom I deal in my writings
-became highly incensed. They burned my book after the best medieval
-fashion and resorted to acts of healthy violence. The romantic period
-seemed to have been cut out of their lives and they were full of
-life again. The story of my story became widely exaggerated through
-gradually increasing venom and my book, which had been well received
-by the official Irish Press,--whose reviewers generally read the books
-they write about--was supposed by some of my own people to contain the
-most frightful things. To the peasant mind, fed so long upon unreal
-tales of itself, the thing I had done became identified after the most
-incongruous fashion and very curiously with an aspect of the very
-literary association from which I had sprung. Language out of Synge's
-"Playboy of the Western World" came to my ears from every side during
-the days in which I was made to suffer for having written "The Valley
-of the Squinting Windows."
-
-"And saving your presence, sir, are you the man that killed your
-father?"
-
-"I am, God help me!"
-
-"Well then, my thousand blessings to you!"
-
-The country as a whole did not dislike my picture of Irish life or say
-it was untrue. It was only the particular section of life which was
-pictured that still asserted its right to the consolation of romantic
-treatment, but in its very attempt to retain romance in theory it
-became realistic in practise. It did exactly what it should have done
-a great many years ago with the kind of books from which it drew a
-certain poisonous comfort towards its own intellectual and political
-enslavement. The rest of Ireland was amused by the performance of those
-who did not think, with Mr. Yeats, that romantic Ireland was dead and
-gone. The realist had begun to evoke reality and no longer did a great
-screech sound through the land that this kind of thing should not be
-done. A change had come, by miraculous coincidence, upon the soul
-of Ireland. It was not afraid of realism now,--for it had faced the
-tragic reality of the travail which comes before a healthy national
-consciousness can be born. No longer would the realist be described
-in his own country as merely a morbid scoundrel or an enemy of the
-Irish people. They would not need again the solace of the sentimental
-novelist for all the offenses of the caricaturists in Irish fiction,
-because, with the wider and clearer vision of their own souls fully
-realized, had they already begun to look out upon the world.
-
-BRINSLEY MACNAMARA.
-
-Dublin, March 1st, 1919.
-
-
-
-
-THE VALLEY OF THE SQUINTING WINDOWS
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I
-
-
-Mrs. Brennan took her seat again at the sewing-machine by the window.
-She sighed as she turned her tired eyes in search of some inducement
-to solace down the white road through the valley of Tullahanogue. The
-day was already bright above the fields and groups of children were
-beginning to pass through the morning on their way to school. Mrs.
-Brennan beheld their passage, yet now as always she seemed to miss the
-small beauty of the little pageant.
-
-"God help them, the poor little things!" she condoled to herself, "and
-may He enlighten the unfortunate parents who send them to that quare,
-ould, ignorant pair, Master Donnellan and Mrs. Wyse, the mistress.
-Musha, sure they're no teachers!"
-
-From this it might seem that Mrs. Brennan, the dressmaker of the valley
-and one well entitled to be giving out an opinion, did not think very
-highly of National Education. Yet it was not true that she failed
-to regard the lofty fact of education with all a peasant's stupid
-reverence, for was she not the mother of John Brennan, who was now
-preparing for the priesthood at a grand college in England? A priest,
-mind you! That was what you might call something for a woman to be!
-
-The pride of her motherhood struck a high and resounding note in the
-life of the valley. Furthermore, it gave her authority to assert
-herself as a woman of remarkable standing amongst the people. She
-devoted her prerogative to the advancement of the Catholic Church. She
-manifested herself as one intensely interested in its welfare. There
-was no cheap religious periodical, from _The Catholic Times_ to _The
-Messenger_, that she did not regularly purchase. All these she read to
-her husband, Ned Brennan, in the long quiet evenings after the manner
-of one discharging a religious duty.
-
-This was a curious side of her. She kept him in comfort and in ease,
-and yet when his body had been contented she must needs apply herself
-to the welfare of his soul. For, although he spent many a penny of
-her money in the village of Garradrimna, was he not the father of
-John Brennan, who was going to be a priest of God? She forgave him
-everything on this account, even the coarse and blasphemous expressions
-he continually let fly from his mouth the while she read for him the
-most holy stories by Jesuit Fathers.
-
-Just now she had given him two shillings with which to entertain
-himself. He had threatened to strike her in the event of her
-refusal.... That was why she had been sighing and why the tears were
-now creeping into her great tired eyes as she began to set her machine
-in motion for the tasks of the day. Dear, dear, wasn't he the cruel,
-hard man?... Yet beyond all this thought of him was her bright dream of
-the day when, with the few pounds she had saved so secretly from the
-wide grasp of his thirst, she must fit him out in a rich suit of black
-and go by his side proudly to attend the ordination of their son John.
-It was because she so dearly loved her dream that she bore him with
-immense patience.
-
-Also it was because she had been thinking of that grand day and of the
-descending splendor of her son that she now commented so strongly upon
-the passage of the children to school. She had spoken bitterly to her
-own heart, but in that heart of hers she was a bitter woman.
-
-This was such a sunny, lovely morning. It was the day of the June Races
-in the town of Mullaghowen, and most of the valley-dwellers had gone
-there. The winding, dusty road through Tullahanogue was a long lane of
-silence amid the sunlight. It appeared as an avenue to the Palace of
-Dreams. So it was not at all strange that Mrs. Brennan was dreaming
-forward into the future and filling her mind with fancies of the past.
-She was remembering herself as Nan Byrne, the prettiest girl in the
-valley. This was no illusion of idle vanity, for was there not an old
-daguerreotype in an album on the table behind her at this very moment
-to prove that beauty had been hers? And she had been ruined because
-of that proud beauty. It was curious to think how her sister and she
-had both gone the same way.... The period of a generation had passed
-since the calamity had fallen upon them almost simultaneously. It was
-the greatest scandal that had ever happened in these parts. The holy
-priest, whose bones were now moldering beneath the sanctuary of the
-chapel, had said hard words of her. From the altar of God he had spoken
-his pity of her father, and said that she was a bad woman.
-
-"May God strengthen him, for this is the bitter burden to bear. Philip
-Byrne is a decent man for all his daughter Nan is a woman of shame. I
-pray you avoid her every one who has the trace of God's purity in his
-heart. Let you go not into that house which she has made an abode of
-lust, nor allow the fair name of your own house to be blemished by the
-contamination of her presence within its walls."
-
-Yes, it was true that all this had been said of her by the holy father,
-and in the very spot beneath which his bones were now at rest. They
-were the hard words surely to have issued from the lips of God's
-anointed. Even in the fugitive remembrance of them now they seemed to
-have left red marks like whip-lash weals across her soul. The burning
-hurt of them drove her deeper into remembrance. She had already come to
-the full development of her charms when her ambition had also appeared.
-It was, in short, to effect the "catch" of one of the strong farmers of
-the valley. She entered into conspiracy with her sister and, together,
-they laid their plans. Henry Shannon was the one upon whom she had set
-her eye and Loughlin Mulvey the one her sister Bridget had begun to
-desire. They were both men of family and substance, and hard drinkers
-after the fashion of the fields. They often called at the house to
-see the sisters. Philip Byrne, whose occupation as head-groom at the
-stables of the Moores of Garradrimna often took him away from Ireland,
-would always be absent during those visitations. But their mother would
-be there, Mrs. Abigail Byrne, ambitious for her daughters, in great
-style. It was never known to happen that either of the strong farmers
-called to the house without a bottle of whiskey. Mrs. Byrne always
-looked favorably upon them for their high decency, and the whiskey was
-good whiskey.
-
-Here in this very room where she now sat remembering it all there
-had been such scenes! Her hair had been so thick and brown and there
-had been a rare bloom upon her skin as she had sat here alone with
-Henry Shannon, talking with him of queer things and kissing his dark,
-handsome face. And all through those far, bygone times she used to be
-thinking of his grand house and of his broad fields and the way she
-would one day assert herself in the joy of such possessions over her
-less fortunate sisters of the valley. Yet, ever mixed with her bright
-pieces of imagination, there had been such torturing doubts.... Her
-sister Bridget had always been so certain of her prey.
-
-There had been times when Henry Shannon spent the night in the house.
-In those nights had been laid the foundations of her shame.... Very,
-very clearly did she remember the sickening, dreadful morning she had
-come to her mother with the story that she was going to have a child.
-How angry the elder woman had been, so lit within her all the wild
-instincts of the female against the betrayer of her sex? Why had she
-gone so far? Why had she not played her cards like her sister? There
-was no fear of her yet although she had got a proper hold of Loughlin
-Mulvey.... What was she to do at all? She who had had great ambitions
-was to become lower than the lowest in the valley.
-
-Yet the three of them had conferred together, for all the others were
-so angry with her because of her disastrous condition into which she
-had allowed herself to slip without having first made certain of Henry
-Shannon. The only course left now was to "make a show" of him if he
-could not see his way to marry her.
-
-She could now remember every line of the angry, misspelled letter she
-had sent to her whilom lover, and how it had brought him to the house
-in a mood of drunken repentance. He presented her with material for a
-new dress on the very same night, and, as she laughed and cried over
-it in turn, she thought how very curious it was that he should wish to
-see her figure richly adorned when already it had begun to put on those
-signs of disfigurement which announce the coming of a child. But he was
-very, very kind, and all suspicion fell away from her. Before he went
-he whispered an invitation to spend a few days with him in Dublin....
-What did it matter now, and it was so kind of him to ask her? It showed
-what was in his mind, and therefore no talk of marriage passed between
-them. It did not seem necessary.
-
-Then had followed quickly those lovely days in Dublin, she stopping
-with him as "Mrs. Henry Shannon" at a grand hotel. He had given her a
-wedding-ring, but while it remained upon her finger it was ever the
-little accusing symbol, filling her with an intense conviction of her
-sin.
-
-This great adventure had marked the beginning of her acquaintance with
-the world beyond the valley, and, even now, through the gloom of her
-mood, she could remember it with a certain amount of gladness coming
-back to her mind. But it was queer that the brightest moment of her
-life should also have been the moment of darkest disaster.... She
-re-created the slight incidents of their quarrel. It was so strange
-of him after all the grand kindness he had just been showing her....
-She had returned to the valley alone and with her disgrace already
-beginning to be heavy upon her.... She never saw Henry Shannon or spoke
-with him again. When she wrote referring distantly to their approaching
-marriage and making mention of the wedding-ring, the reply came back
-from Mr. Robinson, the solicitor in Garradrimna, who was his cousin and
-sporting companion. She knew how they had already begun to talk of her
-in the valley for having gone off to Dublin with Henry Shannon, and
-now, when an ugly word to describe her appeared there black and plain
-in the solicitor's letter, she felt, in blind shame, that the visit
-to Dublin had been planned to ruin her. The air of the valley seemed
-full of whispers to tell her that she had done a monstrous thing. Maybe
-they could give her jail for having done a thing like that, and she
-knew well that Henry Shannon's people would stop at nothing to destroy
-her, for they were a dark, spiteful crew. They were rich and powerful,
-with lawyers in the family, and what chance would she have in law now
-that every one was turned against her. So that night she went out when
-it was very dark and threw away the wedding-ring. The small, sad act
-appeared as the renunciation of her great ambition.
-
-She remembered with a surpassing clearness the wide desolation of
-the time that followed. Loughlin Mulvey had been compelled to marry
-her sister Bridget because he had not been clever enough to effect a
-loophole of escape like Henry Shannon. Already three months after the
-marriage (bit by bit was she now living the past again) the child had
-been born to Bridget, and now she herself was waiting for the birth of
-her child.... Indeed Bridget need not have been so angry.
-
-She had been delirious and upon the brink of death, and when, at last,
-she had recovered sufficiently to realize the sharpness of her mother's
-tongue once more the child had disappeared. She had escaped to England
-with all that was left of her beauty. There she had met Ned Brennan,
-and there had her son John Brennan been born. For a short while she had
-known happiness. Ned was rough, but in his very strength there was a
-sense of security and protection which made him bearable. And there was
-little John. He was not a bit like her short, wild impression of the
-other little child. Her disgrace had been the means of bringing Philip
-Byrne to his grave; and, after six or seven years, her mother had died,
-and she had returned to the valley of Tullahanogue. It was queer that,
-with all her early knowledge of the people of the valley, she had never
-thought it possible that some of them would one day impart to him the
-terrible secret she had concealed so well while acting the ingenuous
-maiden before his eyes.
-
-Yet they were not settled a month at the cottage in the valley when Ned
-came from Garradrimna one night a changed man. Larry Cully, a loafer
-of the village, had attacked him with the whole story.... Was this the
-kind of people among whom she had brought him to live, and was this
-a fact about her? She confessed her share, but, illtreat her how he
-would, she could not tell him what had been done with the child.
-
-Henceforth he was so different, settling gradually into his present
-condition. He could not go about making inquiries as to the past of his
-wife, and the people of the valley, gloating over his condition, took
-no pains to ease his mind. It was more interesting to see him torture
-himself with suspicion. They hardly fancied she had told him all. It
-was grand to see him drinking in his endeavors to forget the things he
-must needs be thinking of.
-
-Thus had Mrs. Brennan lived with her husband for eighteen years, and no
-other child had been born to them. His original occupation of plumber's
-laborer found no opportunity for its exercise in the valley, but he
-sometimes lime-washed stables and mended roofs and gutters. For the
-most part, however, she kept him through her labor at the machine.
-
-Her story was not without its turn of pathos, for it was strange to
-think of her reading the holy books to him in the long, quiet evenings
-all the while he despised her for what she had been with a hatred that
-all the magnanimous examples of religion could not remove.
-
-She was thinking over it all now, and so keenly, for he had just
-threatened to strike her again. Eighteen years had not removed from
-his mind the full and bitter realization of her sin.... They were both
-beginning to grow gray, and her living atonement for what she had been,
-her son John who was going on for the Church, was in his twentieth
-year. Would her husband forgive her when he saw John in the garb of a
-priest? She wondered and wondered.
-
-So deep was she in this thought that she did not notice the entrance
-of old Marse Prendergast, who lived in a cabin just across the road.
-Marse was a superannuated shuiler and a terror in the valley. The tears
-had been summoned to her eyes by the still unchanging quality of Ned's
-tone. They were at once detected by the old woman.
-
-"Still crying, are ye, Nan Byrne, for Henry Shannon that's dead and
-gone?"
-
-This was a sore cut, but it was because of its severity that it had
-been given. Marse Prendergast's method was to attack the person from
-whom she desired an alms instead of making an approach in fear and
-trembling.
-
-"Well, what's the use in regretting now that he didn't marry ye after
-all?... Maybe you could give me a bit of Ned's tobacco for me little
-pipe, or a few coppers to buy some."
-
-"I will in troth," she said, searching her apron pocket, only to
-discover that Ned had taken all her spare coppers. She communicated her
-regrets to the old woman, but her words fell upon ears that doubted.
-
-"Ah-ha, the lie is on your lip yet, Nan Byrne, just as it was there
-for your poor husband the day he married you, God save us all from
-harm--you who were what you were before you went away to England.
-And now the cheek you have to go refuse me the few coppers. Ye think
-ye're a great one, don't you, with your son at college, and he going
-on to be a priest. Well, let me tell you that a priest he'll never be,
-your grand son, John. Ye have the quare nerve to imagine it indeed if
-you ever think of what happened to your other little son.... Maybe
-'tis what ye don't remember that, Nan Bryne.... The poor little thing
-screeching in the night-time, and some one carrying a box out into the
-garden in the moonlight, and them digging the hole.... Ah, 'tis well I
-know all that, Nan Byrne, although you may think yourself very clever
-and mysterious. And 'tis maybe I'll see you swing for it yet with
-your refusals and the great annoyance you put me to for the means of
-a smoke, and I a real ould woman and all. But listen here to me, Nan
-Byrne! 'Tis maybe to your grand son, John Brennan, I'll be telling the
-whole story some day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
-
-Her tongue still clacking in soliloquy, Marse Prendergast hobbled out
-of the house, and Mrs. Brennan went to the small back window of the
-sewing-room. She gazed wistfully down the long, sloping fields towards
-the little lake which nestled in the bosom of the valley. Within the
-periods of acute consciousness which came between her sobs she began
-to examine the curious edifice of life which housed her soul. An
-unaccountable, swift power to do this came to her as she saw the place
-around which she had played as a child, long ago, when she had a brow
-snow-white and smooth, with nice hair and laughing eyes. Her soul,
-too, at that time was clean--clean like the water. And she was wont to
-have glad thoughts of the coming years when she had sprung to girlhood
-and could wear pretty frocks and bind up her hair. Across her mind had
-never fallen the faintest shadow of the thing that was to happen to her.
-
-Yet now, as she ran over everything in her mind, she marveled not a
-little that, although she could not possibly have returned to the
-perfect innocence of her childhood state, she had triumphed over
-the blight of certain circumstances to an extraordinary extent. She
-was surprised to realize that there must have been some strength of
-character in her not possessed by the other women of the valley. It had
-been her mother's mark of distinction, but the dead woman had used it
-towards the achievement of different ends. Ends, too, which had left
-their mark upon the lives of both her daughters.
-
-It struck her now, with another lash of surprise, that it had been
-an amazingly cheeky thing to have returned to the valley; but, as
-the shining waters of the lake led her mind into the quiet ways of
-contemplation, she could not help thinking that she had triumphed well.
-
-To be living here at all with such a husband, and her son away in
-England preparing for the priesthood, seemed the very queerest,
-queerest thing. It was true that she held herself up well and had a
-fine conceit of herself, if you please. The mothers of the neighborhood
-had, for the most part, chosen to forget the contamination that might
-have arisen from sending their daughters to a woman like her for their
-dresses, and, in consequence, she had been enabled to build up this
-little business. She asserted herself in the ways of assertion which
-were open to the dwellers in the valley. She attended to her religious
-duties with admirable regularity. It was not alone that she fulfilled
-the obligation of hearing Mass on Sundays and Holydays, but also on
-many an ordinary morning when there was really no need to be so very
-pious. She went just to show them that she was passionately devoted to
-religion. Yet her neighbors never once regarded her in the light of
-a second Mary Magdalene. They entered into competition with her, it
-was true, for they could not let it be said that Nan Byrne was more
-religious than they, and so, between them, they succeeded in degrading
-the Mysteries. But it was the only way that was open to them of showing
-off their souls.
-
-On a Sunday morning the procession they formed was like a flock of
-human crows. And the noise they made was a continual caw of calumny.
-The one presently absent was set down as the sinner. They were
-eternally the Pharisees and she the Publican. Mrs. Brennan was great
-among these crows of calumny. It was her place of power. She could give
-out an opinion coming home from Mass upon any person at all that would
-almost take the hearing out of your ears. She effectively beat down
-the voice of criticism against herself by her sweeping denunciations
-of all others. It was an unusual method, and resembled that of
-Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, from whom it may probably have been
-copied. It led many to form curious estimates as to the exact type of
-mind possessed by the woman who made use of it. There were some who
-described it as "thickness," a rather remarkable designation given to
-a certain quality of temper by the people of the valley. But there was
-no denying that it had won for her a cumulative series of results which
-had built up about her something definite and original and placed her
-resolutely in the life of the valley.
-
-She would often say a thing like this, and it might be taken as a
-good example of her talk and as throwing a light as well upon the
-conversation of those with whom she walked home the road from the House
-of God. A young couple would have done the best thing by marrying at
-the right age, and these long-married women with the queer minds would
-be putting before them the very worst prospects. Mrs. Brennan would
-distinguish herself by saying a characteristic thing:
-
-"Well, if there's quarreling between them, and musha! the same is sure
-to be, the names they'll call one another won't be very nice for the
-_pedigree_ is not too _clean_ on either side of the house."
-
-No word of contradiction or comment would come from the others, for
-this was a morsel too choice to be disdained, seeing that it so
-perfectly expressed their own thoughts and the most intimate wishes
-of their hearts. It was when they got home, however, and, during the
-remaining portion of the Sunday, their happy carnival of destructive
-gossip, that they would think of asking themselves the question--"What
-right had Nan Byrne of all people to be thinking of little slips
-that had happened in the days gone by?" But the unreasonableness
-of her words never appeared in this light to her own mind. She was
-self-righteous to an enormous degree, and it was her particular fancy
-to consider all women as retaining strongly their primal degradation.
-And yet it was at such a time she remembered, not penitently however,
-or in terms of abasement, but with a heavy sadness numbing her every
-faculty. It was her connection with a great sin and her love for her
-son John which would not become reconciled.
-
-When she returned to the valley with her husband and her young child
-she had inaugurated her life's dream. Her son John was to be her
-final justification before the world and, in a most wondrous way, had
-her dream begun to come true. She had reared him well, and he was so
-different from Ned Brennan. He was of a kindly disposition and, in the
-opinion of Master Donnellan, who was well hated by his mother, gave
-promise of great things. He had passed through the National School in
-some way that was known only to Mrs. Brennan, to "a grand College in
-England." He appeared as an extraordinary exception to the breed of
-the valley, especially when one considered the characters of both his
-parents.
-
-Mrs. Brennan dearly loved her son, but even here, as in every phase of
-her life, the curious twist of her nature revealed itself. Hers was a
-selfish love, for it had mostly to do with the triumph he represented
-for her before the people of the valley. But this was her dream, and a
-dream may often become dearer than a child. It was her one sustaining
-joy, and she could not bear to think of any shadow falling down to
-darken its grandeur. The least suspicion of a calamity of this kind
-always had the effect of reducing to ruins the brazen front of the Mrs.
-Brennan who presented herself to the valley and of giving her a kind of
-fainting in her very heart.
-
-Her lovely son! She wiped her tear-stained cheeks now with the corner
-of her black apron, for Farrell McGuinness, the postman, was at the
-door. He said, "Good-morra, Mrs. Brennan!" and handed her a letter.
-It was from John, telling her that his summer holidays were almost at
-hand. It seemed strange that, just now, when she had been thinking of
-him, this letter should have come.... Well, well, how quickly the time
-passed, now that the snow had settled upon her hair.
-
-Farrell McGuinness was loitering by the door waiting to have a word
-with her when she had read her letter.
-
-"I hear Mary Cooney over in Cruckenerega is home from Belfast again.
-Aye, and that she's shut herself up in a room and not one can see a
-sight of her. Isn't that quare now? Isn't it, Mrs. Brennan?"
-
-"It's great, isn't it, Farrell? You may be sure there's something the
-matter with her."
-
-"God bless us now, but wouldn't that be the hard blow to her father and
-mother and to her little sisters?"
-
-"Arrah musha, between you and me and the wall, the divil a loss. What
-could she be, anyhow?"
-
-"That's true for you, Mrs. Brennan!"
-
-"Aye, and to think that it was in Belfast, of all places, that it
-happened. Now, d'ye know what I'm going to tell ye, Farrell? 'Tis the
-bad, Orange, immoral hole of a place is the same Belfast!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III
-
-
-Farrell McGuinness, grinning to himself, had moved away on his red
-bicycle, and a motor now came towards her in its envelope of dust down
-the long road of Tullahanogue. This was the first hire motor that
-had appeared in the village of Garradrimna and was the property of
-Charlie Clarke, an excellent, religious man, who had interested himself
-so successfully in bazaars and the charities that he had been thus
-enabled to purchase it. Its coming amongst them had been a sensational
-occurrence. If a neighbor wished to flout a neighbor it was done by
-hiring Clarke's car; and Mrs. Brennan immediately thought what a grand
-thing it would be to take it on the coming Thursday and make a brave
-show with her son John sitting up beside her and he dressed in black.
-The dignity of her son, now moving so near the priesthood, demanded
-such a demonstration. She hailed Charlie Clarke, and the car came
-suddenly to a standstill. The petrol fumes mingling with the rising
-dust of the summer road, floated to her nostrils like some incense of
-pride.
-
-"Good morning, Mrs. Brennan!"
-
-"Good morning, Mr. Clarke!"
-
-"You're not at the races of Mullaghowen?"
-
-"Not yet, Mrs. Brennan, but I'm going--and with the Houlihans of
-Clonabroney."
-
-"The Houlihans of Clonabroney, well, well; that's what you might call a
-_quality_ drive."
-
-"Oh, indeed, 'tis almost exclusively to the quality and to the priests
-my drives are confined, Mrs. Brennan. I'm not patronized by the beggars
-of the valley."
-
-"That's right, Mr. Clarke, that's right. Keep your car _clean_ at all
-costs.... It's what I just stopped you to see if you could drive me
-over to Kilaconnaghan to meet my son John on Thursday. He's coming
-home."
-
-"Is that so? Well you may say that's grand, Mrs. Brennan. Oh, indeed,
-John is the rare credit to you, so he is. You should be proud of him,
-for 'tis the fine beautiful thing to be going on for the Church. In
-fact, do ye know what it is, Mrs. Brennan? Only I'm married, I'd be
-thinking this very minute of giving up motor, shop, land and everything
-and going into a monastery. I would so."
-
-"Now aren't you the fine, noble-minded man to be thinking of the like?"
-
-"I am so.... Well, I'll drive you, Mrs. Brennan. On Thursday, you say,
-to Kilaconnaghan. The round trip will cost you fifteen shillings."
-
-"Fifteen shillings?"
-
-Charlie Clarke had already re-started the car which was again humming
-dustily down the road. Mrs. Brennan turned wearily into the sewing-room
-and seated herself once more by the machine. She was crushed a little
-by the thought of the fifteen shillings. She saw clearly before her the
-long procession of the hours of torture for her eyes that the amount
-represented. It appeared well that she had not given the few coppers to
-old Marse Prendergast, for, even as things stood, she must approach
-some of her customers towards the settlement of small accounts to
-enable her to spend fifteen shillings in the display of her pride....
-For eighteen years it had been thus with her, this continual scraping
-and worrying about money. She wondered and wondered now was she ever
-destined to find release from mean tortures. Maybe when her son had
-become a priest he would be good to his mother? She had known of
-priests and the relatives of priests, who had grown amazingly rich.
-
-She was recalled from her long reverie by the return of Ned Brennan
-from Garradrimna. The signs of drink were upon him.
-
-"Where's me dinner?" he said, in a flat, heavy voice.
-
-"Your dinner, is it? Oh dear, dear, 'tis how I never thought of putting
-it on yet. I had a letter from John, and sure it set me thinking. God
-knows I'll have it ready for you as soon as I can."
-
-"Aye, John. A letter from John.... Begad.... Begad.... And I wanting me
-dinner!"
-
-"So you'll have it, so you'll have it. Now aren't you the wild,
-impatient man? Can't you wait a minute?"
-
-"I never did see such a woman as you, and I in a complete hurry. Three
-slates slipped down off the school roof in the bit of wind the other
-night, and I'm after getting instructions from Father O'Keeffe to put
-them on."
-
-"Ah, sure, 'tis well I know how good and industrious you are, Ned.
-That's the sixth time this year you've put on the very same slates.
-You're a good man, indeed, and a fine tradesman."
-
-For the moment his anger was appeased by this ironical compliment,
-which she did not intend as irony; but at heart he was deeply vexed
-because he was going to do this little job. She knew he must be talking
-of it for months to come. When the few shillings it brought him were
-spent she must give him others and others as a continuous reward for
-his vast effort. This she must do as a part of her tragic existence,
-while beholding at the same time how he despised her in his heart.
-
-But, just now, the bitterness of this realization did not assail
-her with the full power of the outer darkness, for her mind was lit
-brilliantly to-day by the thought of John. And during the hours that
-passed after she had fitted out Ned for his adventurous expedition to
-the roof she could just barely summon up courage to turn the machine,
-so consumed was she by a great yearning for her son.
-
-The days, until Thursday, seemed to stretch themselves into an age.
-But at three o'clock, when Charlie Clarke's white motor drew up at the
-door, she was still preparing for the journey. In the room which had
-known another aspect of her life she had been adorning herself for long
-hours. The very best clothes and all the personal ornaments in her
-possession must needs be brought into use. For it had suddenly appeared
-to her that she was about to enter into an unique ceremony comparable
-only to the ordination of John.
-
-Searching in an unfrequented drawer of the dressing-table for
-hair-pins, she had come upon an old cameo-brooch, one of Henry
-Shannon's costly presents to her during the period of their
-strange "honeymoon." It was a pretty thing, so massive and so
-respectable-looking. It was of that heavy Victorian period to which
-her story also belonged. With trembling hands she fastened it upon her
-bosom. In a deeper recess of the drawer she came upon a powder puff in
-a small round box, which still held some of the aid to beauty remaining
-dry and useful through all the years. She had once used it to heighten
-her graces in the eyes of Henry Shannon. And now, for all the blanching
-trouble through which she had passed, she could not resist the impulses
-of the light woman in her and use it to assert her pride in her son. It
-must be a part of her decking-out as she passed through the valley in a
-motor for the first time, going forth to meet her son.
-
-She took her seat at last by the side of Charlie Clarke, and passed
-proudly down the valley road. Things might have gone as agreeably
-as she had planned but for the peculiar religious warp there was
-in Charlie. He might have talked about the mechanism of his car or
-remarked at length upon the beauty of the summer day, but he must
-inevitably twist the conversation in the direction of religion.
-
-"I suppose," said he, "that it's a fine thing to be the mother of a
-young fellow going on for the Church. It must make you very contented
-in yourself when you think of all the Masses he will say for you during
-your lifetime and all the Masses he will say for the repose of your
-soul when you are dead and gone."
-
-"Aye, indeed, that's a grand and a true saying for you, Mr. Clarke. But
-sure what else could one expect from you, and yourself the good man
-that goes to Mass every day?"
-
-"And, Mrs. Brennan, woman dear, to see him saying the Holy Mass, and
-he having his face shining with the Light of Heaven!"
-
-"A beautiful sight, Mr. Clarke, as sure as you're there."
-
-The car was speeding along merrily, and now it had just passed, with
-a slight bump, over the culvert of a stream, which here and there was
-playing musically about little stones, and here and there was like bits
-of molten silver spitting in the sun. It was a grand day.
-
-Whether or not the unusual sensation of the throbbing car was too much
-for Mrs. Brennan, she was speaking little although listening eagerly to
-the words of Charlie Clarke, asking him once or twice to repeat some
-sentences she had been kept from hearing by the noise of the engine.
-Now she was growing more and more silent, for they had not yet passed
-out of the barony of Tullahanogue. She saw many a head suddenly fill
-many a squinting window, and men and women they met on the road turn
-round with a sneer to gaze back at her sitting up there beside Charlie
-Clarke, the saintly chauffeur who went to Mass every day.
-
-Her ears were burning, and into her mind, in powerful battalions, were
-coming all the thoughts that had just been born in the minds of the
-others. The powder she had applied to her cheeks was now like a burning
-sweat upon her skin. The cameo-brooch felt like a great weight where
-it lay upon her bosom heavily. It caught her breath and so prevented
-her maintaining conversation with Charlie Clarke. It reminded her
-insistently of the dear baby head of John reposing, as in a bower of
-tenderness, upon the same place.
-
-"It must be the grand and blessed thing for a mother to go to
-confession to her son. Now wouldn't it be wonderful to think of
-telling him, as the minister of God's mercy, the little faults she had
-committed before he was born or before she married his father. Now
-isn't that the queer thought, Mrs. Brennan?"
-
-She did not reply, and it took all she could marshal of self-possession
-to protect her from tears as the motor hummed into the village of
-Kilaconnaghan, where the railway station was. They had arrived well in
-advance of the train's time. She passed through the little waiting-room
-and looked into the advertisement for Jameson's Whiskey, which was
-also a mirror. She remembered that it was in this very room she had
-waited before going away for that disastrous "honeymoon" with Henry
-Shannon.... This was a better mirror than the one at home, and she
-saw that the blaze upon her cheeks had already subdued the power of
-the powder, making it unnecessary and as the merest dirt upon her
-face.... The cameo-brooch looked so large and gaudy.... She momentarily
-considered herself not at all unlike some faded women of the pavement
-she had seen move, like malignant specters, beneath the lamplight in
-Dublin city.... She plucked away the brooch from her bosom and thrust
-it into her pocket. Then she wiped her face clean with her handkerchief.
-
-Far off, and as a glad sound coming tentatively to her ears, she could
-hear the train that was bearing her beloved son home to the valley and
-to her. It was nearly a year since she last saw him, and she fancied he
-must have changed so within that space of time. Who knew how he might
-change towards her some day? This was her constant dread. And now as
-the increasing noise of the train told that it was drawing nearer she
-felt immensely lonely.
-
-The few stray passengers who ever came to Kilaconnaghan by the
-afternoon train had got out, and John Brennan was amongst them. On the
-journey from Dublin he had occupied a carriage with Myles Shannon,
-who was the surviving brother of Henry Shannon and the magnate of the
-valley. The time had passed pleasantly enough, for Mr. Shannon was
-a well-read, interesting man. He had spoken in an illuminating way
-of the Great War. He viewed it in the light of a scourge and a just
-reckoning of calamity that the nations must pay for bad deeds they
-had done. "It is strange," said he, "that even a nation, just like an
-individual, must pay its just toll for its sins. It cannot escape, for
-the punishment is written down with the sin. There is not one of us who
-may not be made to feel the wide sweep of God's justice in this Great
-War, even you, my boy, who may think yourself far removed from such a
-possibility."
-
-These were memorable words, and John Brennan allowed himself to fall
-into a spell of silence that he might the better ponder them. Looking
-up suddenly, he caught the other gazing intently at him with a harsh
-smile upon his face.
-
-So now that they were to part they turned to shake hands.
-
-"Good-by, Mr. Brennan!" said Myles Shannon to the student. "I wish
-you an enjoyable holiday-time. Maybe you could call over some evening
-to see my nephew Ulick, my brother Henry's son. He's here on holidays
-this year for the first time, and he finds the valley uncommonly dull
-after the delights of Dublin. He's a gay young spark, I can tell you,
-but students of physic are generally more inclined to be lively than
-students of divinity."
-
-This he said with a flicker of his harsh smile as they shook hands, and
-John Brennan thanked him for his kind invitation. Catching sight of
-Mrs. Brennan, Mr. Shannon said, "Good-day!" coolly and moved out of the
-station.
-
-To Mrs. Brennan this short conversation on the platform had seemed
-protracted to a dreadful length. As she beheld it from a little
-distance a kind of desolation had leaped up to destroy the lovely day.
-It compelled her to feel a kind of hurt that her son should have chosen
-to expend the few first seconds of his home-coming in talking, of all
-people, to one of the Shannon family. But he was a young gentleman and
-must, of course, show off his courtesy and nice manners. And he did not
-know.... But Myles Shannon knew.... His cool "Good-day!" to her as he
-moved out of the station appeared to her delicate sensitiveness of the
-moment as an exhibition of his knowledge. Immediately she felt that she
-must warn John against the Shannons.
-
-He came towards her at last, a thin young man in black, wearing cheap
-spectacles. He looked tenderly upon the woman who had borne him. She
-embraced him and entered into a state of rapt admiration. Within the
-wonder of his presence she was as one translated, her sad thoughts
-began to fall from her one by one. On the platform of this dusty
-wayside station in Ireland she became a part of the glory of motherhood
-as she stood there looking with pride upon her son.
-
-The motor had surprised him. He would have been better pleased if
-this expense had been avoided, for he was not without knowledge
-and appreciation of the condition of his parents' affairs. Besides
-the little donkey and trap had always appeared so welcome in
-their simplicity, and it was by means of them that all his former
-home-comings had been effected. Those easy voyages had afforded
-opportunity for contemplation upon the splendor of the fields, but now
-the fields seemed to slip past as if annoyed by their faithlessness.
-Yet he knew that his mother had done this thing to please him, and how
-could he find it in his heart to be displeased with her?
-
-She was speaking kind words to him, which were being rudely destroyed,
-in their tender intonation, by the noise of the engine. She was setting
-forth the reasons why she had taken the car. It was the right thing now
-around Garradrimna.--The Houlihans of Clonabroney.--Again the changing
-of the gears cut short her explanation.
-
-"That man who was down with you in the train, Mr. Shannon, what was he
-saying to you?"
-
-"Indeed he was kindly inviting me over to see his nephew. I never knew
-he had a nephew, but it seems he has lived up in Dublin. He said that
-his brother, Henry Shannon, was the father of this young man."
-
-The feelings which her son's words brought rushing into her mind seemed
-to cloud out all the brightness which, for her, had again returned
-to the day. Yes, this young man, this Ulick Shannon, was the son of
-Henry Shannon and Henry Shannon was the one who had brought the great
-darkness into her life.... It would be queer, she thought, beyond
-all the queerness of the world, to see the son of that man and her
-son walking together through the valley. The things that must be said
-of them, the terrible sneer by which they would be surrounded--Henry
-Shannon's son and the son of Nan Byrne.... She grew so silent beneath
-the sorrow of her vision that, even in the less noisy spaces of the
-humming car, the amount of time during which she did not speak seemed a
-great while.
-
-"What is the matter, mother?" said John Brennan.
-
-"It was how I was thinking that maybe it would be better now if you had
-nothing to do with the Shannons."
-
-"But it was very kind of Mr. Shannon to invite me."
-
-"I know, I know; but I'd rather than the world it was any other family
-at all only the Shannons. They're a curious clan."
-
-In the painful silence that had come upon them she too was thinking
-of the reasons from which her words had sprung. Of how Henry Shannon
-had failed to marry her after he had ruined her; of how the disgrace
-had done no harm at all to him with his money and his fine farm. Then
-there was the burning thought of how he had married Grace Gogarty, the
-proudest and grandest girl in the whole parish, and of how this young
-man had been born prematurely and, by a curious chance, about the same
-time as her own little child. The one thing that she always dreaded
-more than any other, in the pain of its remembrance, was the fact that
-Henry Shannon had married Grace Gogarty directly after the "honeymoon"
-with her in Dublin. Yes, it was hardest of all to think of that, and of
-how Grace Gogarty had so held up her head all through the short period
-of her wedded life with Henry Shannon. And after his death she had gone
-about with such conceited sorrowfulness in her widow's weeds.
-
-These thoughts had passed through her mind with swift definition, each
-one cutting deeper the gap which separated her from the long-dreamt-of
-joy of John's home-coming. And her lovely son sitting up beside her had
-grown so silent.
-
-As the car stopped by the house and Ned Brennan came out to meet them,
-unshaven and walking doggedly, she felt very certain that a shadow
-had settled down upon this particular return of John. The remembrance
-of her sin, from which it seemed impossible to escape, made the great
-thing she had planned so little and desolate.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV
-
-
-There arose a continual coming and going of John Brennan to and from
-the house of his mother through the valley. He was an object of
-curiosity and conjecture. The windows would squint at him as he went
-past through power of the leering faces behind; men working in the
-fields would run to the hedges and gaze after him as he went far down
-the road.
-
-In the evenings black prophets would foregather and say: "Now isn't he
-the fine-looking young fellow indeed, with the grand black clothes upon
-him; but he'll never be a priest, and that's as sure as you're there,
-for his mother is Nan Byrne, and she was a bad woman, God help us all!
-'Tis a pity of him, when you come to think of it, for it isn't his
-fault, happening as it did before he was born."
-
-John Brennan was innocent of guile, and so he did not become aware of
-the attitude of those among whom he passed. He did not realize that in
-his own person he stood as an affront to them, that he was the Levite
-standing nearer God than they in their crude condition as clods of the
-earth. It was his mother who had created this position for him, for she
-had directed his studies towards divinity. If his natural abilities
-had won him the promise of any other elevation, it might not have
-annoyed them so deeply. But this was something they could not have
-been expected to bear, for not one amongst them had a son a priest,
-although they believed as implicitly as Mrs. Brennan in the virtue of
-religion, and there was always a feeling of intense righteousness upon
-them when they remembered her story.
-
-Yet, although this was the way they looked upon him, they were not
-without a certain cringing respect for the realization he represented.
-Thus it was that when they spoke to him there was a touch of deference
-in their voices although there was a sneer in their hearts. It could
-not be expected that he should see them as they really were. Yet
-there were odd, great moments when his larger vision enabled him to
-behold them moving infinitesimally, in affright, beneath the shadow
-of the Divine Hand. He possessed a certain gift of observation, but
-it was superficial and of little consequence to his character for it
-flourished side by side with the large charity of his heart.
-
-One morning he encountered old Marse Prendergast upon the road. She
-was gathering a few green sticks from the hedge-rows. She seemed to be
-always looking for the means of a fire, and, to John Brennan, there
-appeared something that touched him greatly in the spectacle of this
-whining old woman, from whom the spark of life was so quickly fading,
-having no comfort, even on a summer day, but just to be sitting over
-a few smoldering sticks, sucking at an old black pipe and breaking
-out into occasional converse with herself. She who had given birth
-to strong sons and lovely daughters sitting here in her little cabin
-alone. Her clutch was gone from her to America, to the streets, and to
-the grave.
-
-John Brennan felt the pity of her, although he did not notice that the
-curtsey she gave him from the ditch was an essential portion of her
-contempt for the son of Nan Byrne (the cheek of him going on for to be
-a priest!), or that when she addressed him as _Mr._ Brennan it was in
-derision.
-
-"And glory be to God, sure we'll soon have to be calling you _Father_
-Brennan!" she repeated, as if silently marveling at the impossibility
-of the combination of words.
-
-He saw her move to accompany him down the road, her old back bent
-cruelly beneath the load of the weighty, green branches. He was
-touched, for he was not blind to the symbolism for which she stood, and
-offered to carry the branches for her, and she, accepting his offer,
-called down upon his head the blessing of God.
-
-As they moved slowly along the road she recounted, in snatches between
-her questions regarding his life at college, all the intimate woes
-of her life. Her lamentations, as they drew near the cottage of Mrs.
-Brennan, attracted the attention of his mother, who saw a sight
-filling her eyes which cut her to the bone. She saw her son John, her
-hope and pride, conversing with Marse Prendergast, the long-tongued
-shuiler who tramped the country with her stories and in quest of more
-stories--Marse Prendergast who knew her secret as no other knew it, and
-who had so recently reminded her of that knowledge. And he was carrying
-her sticks along the public road in the full light of day.... So
-powerful was the hurt of her maternal feelings that she almost fainted
-sitting there by her machine.
-
-When John came into the room she looked so pale that he fancied she
-must be ill. He inquired as to the causes of her condition, but she
-only replied that she would try to tell him when he had taken his
-breakfast.
-
-As he was eating in silence she wondered what at all she could say to
-him or how she would attempt to place her view of things before him.
-This incident of the morning might be taken as a direct foreshadowing
-of what might happen if his foolish charity extended further down
-the valley. She did not dare to imagine what things he might be told
-or what stories might be suggested to his mind by the talk of the
-neighbors. But it was clearly her duty doubly to protect him from such
-a possibility. She saw that he had finished his breakfast.
-
-"That was the quare thing you were doing just now, John? It was the
-quarest thing at all, so it was."
-
-"Queer, mother; what was?"
-
-"Talking to old Marse Prendergast, son, and she only a woman of the
-roads with a bad tongue on her."
-
-"I only stopped talking with her, mother, so that I might carry her
-sticks. She was not able."
-
-"And she used the fine opportunity, I'll warrant, to drag information
-out of you and carry it all through the valley. That's what she was at!
-That's what she was at!"
-
-There was a kind of mournful wail in Mrs. Brennan's tones as if she
-saw in John's action of the morning some irretrievable distance placed
-between herself and him. The people of the valley loomed ever great as
-an army between her and the desire of her heart, and John had just now,
-as it were, afforded an opening to the enemy.
-
-He received a certain amount of hurt from her words, for although
-he knew her only as his mother and a good woman who was well nigh
-faultless in her practise of the Christian religion, why was it that
-this simple action of his, with its slight touch of charity, was
-resented by her? Yet he allowed her to proceed without question,
-listening always with that high and fine attention which must have been
-the attitude of Christ as He listened to His Mother in Galilee.
-
-She painted a picture of the valley for his consideration. She
-proceeded to do this with a great concern moving her, for she was quick
-to perceive the change in him since his last holidays. He was a man
-now, and it was to his manhood condition she appealed. She began to
-tell him, with such a rush of words, the life-histories of those around
-him. There was not a slight detail she did not go to great pains to
-enlarge, no skeleton she did not cause to jump from its cupboard and
-run alive once more through the valley. She painted a new portrait of
-every inhabitant in a way that amazed John, who had not known of such
-things.
-
-But over his first feelings of surprise came a great realization of
-sadness. For this was his mother who was speaking. Hitherto he had
-looked upon her as one untouched by the clayey villainies of earth, a
-patient and very noble woman, with tired eyes and busy hands rather
-fashioned to confer benedictions than waste themselves in labor. Now
-he was listening to one most subtly different, to a woman who had been
-suddenly metamorphosed into the likeness of something primeval and
-startling. And she was oh! so bitter.
-
-Mrs. Brennan had no notion of the change that had come upon her. To
-herself there still appeared no difference in herself. She was doing
-all this for love of her son John, as she had done much for love of him.
-
-There fell a thick silence between them when she had finished. The
-mother and the son were both exhausted, he from listening to her and
-she from reading the pedigrees of every one to whom her mind could
-possibly extend, including Marse Prendergast, the shuiler, and the
-Shannons, who were almost gentlemen like the Houlihans of Clonabroney.
-
-John Brennan sighed as he said out of the innocence of his heart:
-
-"It is good, mother, that we are not as the rest of these."
-
-Mrs. Brennan did not reply.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V
-
-
-In rural Ireland the "bona-fide," or rather _mala-fide_, traveler
-constitutes a certain blasphemous aspect in the celebration of
-the Sabbath. There are different types of "bona-fide," whose
-characteristics may be said to vary in direct proportion to their love
-and enthusiasm for porter. The worship of porter, when it has attained
-the proportions of a perfect passion, is best described as "the pursuit
-of porter in a can." It is the cause of many drunken skirmishes with
-the law, and it is interesting to observe such mistaken heroes in the
-execution of their plans.
-
-At a given signal a sudden descent is made upon a pub. A series of
-whistles from sentries in various parts of the village has announced
-the arrival of the propitious moment. A big tin'can is the only visible
-evidence of their dark intention. One almost forgets its betraying
-presence in the whirling moment of the brave deed. Then the deed is
-done. By some extraordinary process the can that was empty is found to
-be filled. It is the miracle of the porter.... When the sergeant and
-his colleagues come on the scene some hours later, an empty can with
-slight traces of froth upon the sides, "like beaded bubbles winking at
-the brim," constitutes the remaining flimsy evidence of the great thing
-that has happened.
-
-The mind of John Brennan was more or less foreign to this aspect of
-life amongst the fields. He would be the very last to realize that
-such were essential happenings in the life of his native village of
-Garradrimna. On his first Sunday at home he went walking, after second
-Mass, through the green woods which were the western boundary of the
-village. His thoughts were dwelling upon Father O'Keeffe's material
-interpretation of the Gospel story. At last they eddied into rest as he
-moved there along the bright path between the tall trees, so quiet as
-with adoration.
-
-When he came by that portion of the demesne wall, which lay at the back
-of Brannagan's public-house, he heard a scurrying of rabbits among the
-undergrowth. In the sudden hush which followed he heard a familiar
-voice raised in a tense whisper.
-
-"Hurry, quick! quick! There's some one in black coming up the path. It
-must be Sergeant McGoldrick. The can! the can!"
-
-His cheeks were suddenly flushed by a feeling of shame, for it was
-his father who had spoken. He stood behind a wide beech tree in mere
-confusion and not that he desired to see what was going forward.
-
-His father, Ned Brennan, bent down like an acrobat across the demesne
-wall and took the can from some one beneath. Then he ran down through
-the undergrowth, the brown froth of the porter dashing out upon his
-trousers, his quick eyes darting hither and thither like those of a
-frightened animal. But he did not catch sight of John, who saw him
-raise the can to his lips.
-
-It was a new experience for John Brennan to see his father thus
-spending the Sabbath in this dark place in the woods, while out in the
-young summer day spilled and surged all the wonder of the world.... A
-sort of pity claimed possession of him as he took a different way among
-the cathedral trees.... His father was the queer man, queer surely,
-and moving lonely in his life. He was not the intimate of his son nor
-of the woman who was his son's mother. He had never seemed greatly
-concerned to do things towards the respect and honor of that woman. And
-yet John Brennan could not forget that he was his father.
-
-Just now another incident came to divert his mood. He encountered an
-ancient dryad flitting through the woods. This was Padna Padna, a
-famous character in Garradrimna. For all his name was that of the great
-apostle of his country, his affinities were pagan. Although he was
-eighty, he got drunk every day and never went to Mass. In his early
-days he had been the proprietor of a little place and the owner of a
-hackney car. When the posting business fell into decline, he had had
-to sell the little place and the horse and car, and the purchase money
-had been left for his support with a distant relative in the village.
-He was a striking figure as he moved abroad in the disguise of a cleric
-not altogether devoted to the service of God. He always dressed in
-solemn black, and his coat was longer than that of a civilian. His
-great hat gave him a downcast look, as of one who has peered into the
-Mysteries. His face was wasted and small, and this, with his partially
-blinded eyes behind the sixpenny spectacles, gave him a certain
-asceticism of look. Yet it was the way he carried himself rather than
-his general aspect which created this impression of him. He was very
-small, and shrinking daily. His eyes were always dwelling upon his
-little boots in meditation. Were you unaware of his real, character,
-you might foolishly imagine that he was thinking of high, immortal
-things, but he was in reality thinking of drink.
-
-This was his daily program. He got up early and, on most mornings,
-crossed the street to Bartle Donohoe, the village barber, for a shave.
-Bartle would be waiting for him, his dark eye hanging critically as
-he tested the razor edge against the skin of his thumb. The little
-blade would be glinting in the sunlight.... Sometimes Bartle would
-become possessed of the thought that the morning might come when,
-after an unusually hard carouse on the previous night, he would not be
-responsible for all his razor might do, that it might suddenly leap out
-of his shivering hand and make a shocking end of Padna Padna and all
-his tyranny.... But his reputation as the drunkard with the steadiest
-hand in Garradrimna had to be maintained. If he did not shave Padna
-Padna the fact would be published in every house.
-
-"Bartle Donohoe was too shaky to shave me this morning; too shaky, I
-say. Ah, he's going wrong, going wrong! And will ye tell me this now?
-How is it that if ye buy a clock, a little ordinary clock for a couple
-of shillings, and give it an odd wind, it'll go right; but a man, a
-great, clever man'll go wrong no matter what way ye strive for to
-manage him?"
-
-If Bartle shaved him, Padna Padna would take his barber over to Tommy
-Williams's to give him a drink, which was the only payment he ever
-expected. After this, his first one, Padna Padna would say, "Not
-going to drink any more to-day," to which Bartle Donohoe would reply
-sententiously: "D'ye tell me so? Well, well! Is that a fact?"
-
-Then, directly, he would proceed to take a little walk before his
-breakfast, calling at every house of entertainment and referring
-distantly to the fact that Bartle Donohoe had a shake in his hand this
-morning. "A shame for him, and he an only son and all!"
-
-And thus did he spend the days of his latter end, pacing the sidewalks
-of Garradrimna, entering blindly into pubs and discussing the habits of
-every one save himself.
-
-He was great in the field of reminiscence.
-
-"Be the Holy Farmer!" he would say, "but there's no drinking nowadays
-tost what used to be longo. There's no decent fellows, and that's a
-fact. Ah, they were the decent fellows longo. You couldn't go driving
-them a place but they'd all come home mad. And sure I often didn't
-know where I'd be driving them, I'd be that bloody drunk. Aye, decent
-fellows! Sure they're all dead now through the power and the passion of
-drink."
-
-So this was the one whom John Brennan now encountered amid the green
-beauty of the woodland places. To him Padna Padna was one of the
-immortals. Succeeding holiday after succeeding holiday had he met the
-ancient man, fading surely but never wholly declining or disappearing.
-The impulse which had prompted him to speak to Marse Prendergast a few
-days previously now made him say: "How are you, old man?" to Padna
-Padna.
-
-The venerable drunkard, by way of immediate reply, tapped upon his
-lips with his fingers and then blew upon his fingers and whistled
-in cogitation. It was with his ears that he saw, and he possessed an
-amazing faculty for distinguishing between the different voices of
-different people.
-
-"John Brennan!" he at length exclaimed, in his high, thin voice. "Is
-that John Brennan?"
-
-"It is, the very one."
-
-"And how are ye, John?"
-
-"Very well, indeed, Padna. How are you?"
-
-"Poorly only. Ah, John, this is the hard day on me always, the Sunday.
-I declare to me God I detest Sunday. Here am I marching through the
-woods since seven and I having no drink whatever. That cursed Sergeant
-McGoldrick! May he have a tongue upon him some day the color of an ould
-brick and he in the seventh cavern of Hell! Did ye see Ned?"
-
-The sudden and tense question was not immediately intelligible to John
-Brennan. There were so many of the name about Garradrimna. Padna Padna
-pranced impatiently as he waited for an answer.
-
-"Ah, is it letting on you are that you don't know who I mean, and you
-with your grand ecclesiastical learning and all to that. 'Tis your own
-father, Ned Brennan, that I mean. I was in a 'join' with him to get a
-can out of Brannigan's. Mebbe you didn't see him anywhere down through
-the wood, for I have an idea that he's going to swindle me. Did ye see
-him, I'm asking you?"
-
-Even still John did not reply, for something seemed to have caught him
-by the throat and was robbing him of the power of speech. The valley,
-with its vast malevolence of which his mother had so recently warned
-him, was now driving him to say something which was not true.
-
-"No, Padna, I did not see him!" he at last managed to jerk out.
-
-"Mebbe he didn't manage to get me drink for me yet, and mebbe he did
-get it and is after drinking it somewhere in the shadows of the trees
-where he couldn't be seen. But what am I saying at all? Sure if he was
-drinking it there before me, where you're standing, I couldn't see him,
-me eyes is that bad. Isn't it the poor and the hard case to be blinded
-to such an extent?"
-
-John Brennan felt no pity, so horrible was the expression that now
-struggled into those dimming eyes. He thought of a puzzling fact of his
-parentage. Why was it that his mother had never been able to save his
-father from the ways of degradation into which he had fallen, the low
-companions, the destruction of the valley; from all of which to even
-the smallest extent she was now so anxious to save her son?
-
-Padna Padna was still blowing upon his fingers and regretting:
-
-"Now isn't it the poor and the hard case that there's no decent fellows
-left in the world at all. To think that I can meet never a one now, me
-that spent so much of me life driving decent fellows, driving, driving.
-John, do ye know what it is now? You're after putting me in mind of
-Henry Shannon. He was the decentest fellow! Many's the time I drove him
-down to your grandmother's place when he wouldn't have a foot under him
-to leave Garradrimna. That was when your mother was a young girl, John.
-Hee, hee, hee!"
-
-John could not divine the reasons for the old man's glee, nor did he
-perceive that the mind of Padna Padna, even in the darkening stages of
-its end, was being lit by a horrible sneer at him and the very fact of
-his existence. Instead he grew to feel rather a stir of compassion for
-this old man, with his shattered conception of happiness such as it
-was, burning his mind with memories while he rode down so queerly to
-the grave.
-
-As he moved away through the long, peaceful aisles of the trees, his
-soul was filled with gray questioning because of what he had just seen
-of his father and because of the distant connection of his mother with
-the incident. Why was it at all that his mother had never been able to
-save his father?
-
-As he emerged from the last circle of the woods there seemed to be a
-shadow falling low over the fields. He went with no eagerness towards
-the house of his mother. This was Sunday, and it was her custom to
-spend a large portion of the Sabbath in speaking of her neighbors. But
-she would never say anything about his father, even though Ned Brennan
-would not be in the house.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI
-
-
-Just now there happened something of such unusual importance in the
-valley that Mrs. Brennan became excited about it. The assistant teacher
-of Tullahanogue Girls' School, Miss Mary Jane O'Donovan, had left, and
-a new assistant was coming in her stead. Miss O'Donovan had always
-given the making of her things to Mrs. Brennan, so she spoke of her,
-now that she was gone, as having been "a _very_ nice girl." Just yet,
-of course, she was not in a position to say as much about the girl who
-was coming. But the entry of a new person into the life of the valley
-was a great event! Such new things could be said!
-
-On Monday morning Mrs. Brennan called her son into the sewing-room to
-describe the imminent nature of the event. The sense of depression that
-had come upon him during the previous day did not become averted as he
-listened.
-
-What an extraordinary mixture this woman who was his mother now
-appeared before his eyes! And yet he could not question her in any
-action or in any speech; she was his mother, and so everything
-that fell from her must be taken in a mood of noble and respectful
-acceptance. But she was without charity, and as he saw her in this
-guise he was compelled to think of his father and the incident of
-yesterday, and he could not help wondering. He suddenly realized that
-what was happening presently in this room was happening in every house
-down the valley. Even before her coming she was being condemned. It was
-beneath the shadow of this already created cloud she would have to live
-and move and earn her little living in the schoolhouse of Tullahanogue.
-John Brennan began to have some pity for the girl.
-
-Ned Brennan now appeared at the door leading to the kitchen and
-beckoned to his wife. She went at his calling, and John noticed that at
-her return some part of her had fallen away. His father went from the
-house whistling at a pitch that was touched with delight.
-
-"Where is my father bound for?"
-
-"He's gone to Garradrimna, John, to order lead for the roof of the
-school. The valley behind the chimney is leaking again and he has to
-cobble it. 'Tis the great bother he gets with that roof, whatever sort
-it is. Isn't it a wonder now that Father O'Keeffe wouldn't put a new
-one on it, and all the money he gets so handy ...?"
-
-"My father seems to be always at that roof. He used to be at it when I
-was going to school there."
-
-The words of her son came to Mrs. Brennan's ears with a sound of sad
-complaint. It caused her to glimpse momentarily all the villainy of Ned
-Brennan towards her through all the years, and of how she had borne
-it for the sake of John. And here was John before her now becoming
-reverently magnified in that part of her mind which was a melting
-tenderness. It was him she must now save from the valley which had
-ruined her man. Thus was she fearful again and the heart within her
-caused to become troubled and to rush to and fro in her breast like
-rushing water. Then, as if her whole will was sped by some fearful
-ecstasy, she went on to talk in her accustomed way of every one around
-her, including the stranger who had not yet come to the valley.
-
-It was on the evening of this day that Rebecca Kerr, the new assistant
-teacher, came through the village of Garradrimna to the valley of
-Tullahanogue. Paddy McCann drove McDermott's hackney car down past
-the old castle of the De Lacys. It carried her as passenger from
-Mullaghowen, with her battered trunk strapped over the well. The group
-of spitting idlers crowding around Brannagan's loudly asserted so much
-as Paddy McCann and his cargo loomed out of the shadows beneath the
-old castle and swung into the amazing realities of the village. It was
-just past ten o'clock and the mean place now lay amid the enclosing
-twilight. The conjunctive thirsts for drink and gossip which come at
-this hour had attacked the ejected topers, and their tongues began to
-water about the morsel now placed before them.
-
-A new schoolmistress, well, well! Didn't they change them shocking
-often in Tullahanogue? And quare-looking things they were too, every
-one of them. And here was another one, not much to look at either. They
-said this as she came past. And what was her name? "Kerr is her name!"
-said some one who had heard it from the very lips of Father O'Keeffe
-himself.
-
-"Rebecca Kerr is her name," affirmed Farrell McGuinness, who had just
-left a letter for her at the Presbytery.
-
-"Rebecca what? Kerr--Kerr--Kerr, is it?" sputtered Padna Padna; "what
-for wouldn't it be _Carr_ now, just common and simple? But of course
-_Kerr_ has a ring of the quality about it. _Kerr_, be God!"
-
-These were the oracles of Garradrimna who were now speaking of her
-thus. But she had no thought of them at all as she glanced hurriedly
-at the shops and puzzled her brains to guess where the best draper's
-shop might be. She had a vague, wondering notion as to where she might
-get all those little things so necessary for a girl. She had a fleeting
-glimpse of herself standing outside one of those worn counters she was
-very certain existed somewhere in the village, talking ever so much
-talk with the faded girl who dispensed the vanities of other days, or
-else exchanging mild confidences with the vulgar and ample mistress of
-the shop, who was sure to be always floating about the place immensely.
-Yes, just there was the very shop with its brave selection from the
-fashions of yester-year in the fly-blown windows.
-
-And there was the Post Office through which her letters to link her
-with the outer world would come and go. She quickly figured the old
-bespectacled postmistress, already blinded partially, and bent from
-constant, anxious scrutiny, poring exultantly over the first letters
-that might be sent to "Miss Rebecca Kerr," and examining the postmark.
-Then the quality and gender of the writing, and being finally troubled
-exceedingly as to the person it could have come from--sister, mother,
-brother, father, friend, or "boy." Even although the tall candles of
-Romance had long since guttered and gone out amid the ashes of her
-mind the assaulting suspicion that it was from "a boy" would drive
-her to turn the letter in her hand and take a look at the flap. Then
-the temptation that was a part of her life would prove too strong
-for her and a look of longing would come into the dull eyes as she
-went hobbling into the kitchen to place it over the boiling kettle and
-so embark it upon its steamy voyage to discovery. In a few minutes
-she would be reading it, her hands trembling as she chuckled in
-her obscene glee at all the noble sentiments it might contain. The
-subsequent return of the letter to the envelope after the addition of
-some gum from a penny bottle if the old sticking did not suffice. Her
-interludiary sigh of satisfaction when she remembered that one could
-re-stick so many opened envelopes with a penny bottle of gum by using
-it economically. The inevitable result of this examination, a superior
-look of wisdom upon the withered face when the new schoolmistress,
-Rebecca Kerr, came for the first time into the office to ask for a
-letter from her love.... But so far in her life she had formed no deep
-attachment.
-
-It was thus and thus that Rebecca Kerr ran through her mind a few
-immediate sketchy realizations of this village in Ireland. She had
-lived in others, and this one could not be so very different....
-There now was the butcher's stall, kept filthily, where she might
-buy her bit of beef or mutton occasionally. She caught a glimpse of
-the victualler standing with his dirty wife amid the strong-smelling
-meat. The name above the door was that of the publichouse immediately
-beside it. A little further on, upon the same side, was the newsagent's
-and stationer's, where they sold sweets and everything. It was here
-she might buy her notepaper to write to her own people in Donegal,
-or else to some of her college friends with whom she still kept up
-a correspondence. And here also she might treat herself, on rare
-occasions, to a box of cheap chocolates, or to some of the injurious,
-colored sweets which always gave her the toothache, presenting the most
-of them, perhaps, to some child to whom she had taken a fancy.
-
-By little bits like these, which formed a series of flashes, she saw
-some aspects of the life she might lead here. Each separate flash left
-something of an impression before it went out of her mind.
-
-The jingling car swung on past the various groups upon the street,
-each group twisting its head as one man to observe the spectacle of
-her passing. "That's the new schoolmistress!" "There she is, begad!"
-"I heard Paddy McCann saying she was coming this evening!" She was
-now in line with the famous house of Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man.
-She knew from the look of it that it was here she must buy her few
-groceries, for this was the principal house in Garradrimna and, even so
-far as she, the octopus of Gombeenism was sure to extend itself. To be
-sure, the gombeen-man would be the father of a family, for it is the
-clear duty of such pillars of the community to rear up a long string
-of patriots. If those children happened to be of school-going age, it
-was certain they would not be sent to even the most convenient school
-unless the teachers dealt in the shop. This is how gombeenism is made
-to exercise control over National Education. Anyhow Rebecca Kerr was
-very certain that she must enter the various-smelling shop to discuss
-the children with the gombeen-man's wife.
-
-It was indeed a dreary kind of life that she would be compelled to lead
-in this place, and, as she passed the pretty chapel, which seemed to
-stand up in the sight of Heaven as excuse for the affront that was
-Garradrimna, she had a strange notion how she must go there sometimes
-to find respite from the relentless crush of it all. On bitter
-evenings, when her mind should ring with the mean tumults of the life
-around her, it was there only she might go and, slipping in through the
-dim vestibule where there were many mortuary cards to remind her of
-all the dead, she would walk quickly to the last pew and, bending her
-throbbing head, pour out her soul in prayer with the aid of her little
-mother-of-pearl rosary.... They had gone a short distance past the
-chapel and along the white road towards the valley.
-
-"This is the place," said Paddy McCann.
-
-She got down from the car wearily, and McCann carried her battered
-trunk into the house of Sergeant McGoldrick which had been assigned as
-her lodging by Father O'Keeffe. He emerged with a leer of expectation
-upon his countenance, and she gave him a shilling from her little
-possessions. At the door she was compelled to introduce herself.
-
-"So you are the new teacher. Well, begad! The missus is up in the
-village. Come in. Begad!"
-
-He stood there, a big, ungainly man, at his own door as he gave the
-invitation, a squalling baby in his arms, and in went Rebecca Kerr,
-into the sitting-room where Mrs. McGoldrick made clothes for the
-children. The sergeant proceeded to do his best to be entertaining. She
-knew the tribe. He remained smoking his great black pipe and punctuated
-the squalls of the baby by spitting huge volumes of saliva which hit
-the fender with dull thuds.
-
-"It's a grand evening in the country," said Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-"Yes, a nice evening surely," said Rebecca Kerr.
-
-"Oh, it was a grand, lovely day in the country, the day. I was out in
-the country all through the day. I was collecting the census of the
-crops, so I was; a difficult and a critical job, I can tell you!"
-
-With an air of pride he took down the books of lists and showed her
-the columns of names and particulars.... It was stupidly simple. Yet
-here was this hulk of a man expanding his chest because of his childish
-achievement. He had even stopped smoking and spitting to give space
-to his own amazement, and the baby had ceased mewling to marvel in
-infantile wonder at the spacious cleverness of her da.
-
-After nearly half an hour of this performance Mrs. McGoldrick bustled
-into the room. She was a coarse-looking woman, whose manner had
-evidently been made even more harsh by the severe segregation to
-which the wives of policemen are subjected. Her voice was loud and
-unmusical, and it appeared to Rebecca from the very first that not even
-the appalling cleverness of her husband was a barrier to her strong
-government of her own house. The sergeant disappeared immediately,
-taking the baby with him, and left the women to their own company. Mrs.
-McGoldrick had seen the battered, many-corded trunk in the hall-way,
-and she now made a remark which was, perhaps, natural enough for a
-woman:
-
-"You haven't much luggage anyway!" was what she said.
-
-"No!" replied Rebecca dully.
-
-Then she allowed her head to droop for what seemed a long while, during
-all of which she was acutely conscious that the woman by her side was
-staring at her, forming impressions of her, summing her up.
-
-"I don't think you're as tall as Miss O'Donovan was, and you haven't as
-nice hair!"
-
-Rebecca made no comment of any kind upon this candor, but now that the
-way had been opened Mrs. McGoldrick poured out a flood of information
-regarding the late assistant of the valley school. She was reduced to
-little pieces and, as it were, cremated in the furnace of this woman's
-mind until tiny specks of the ashes of her floated about and danced and
-scintillated before the tired eyes of Rebecca Kerr.
-
-As the heavier dusk of the short, warm night began to creep into
-the little room her soul sank slowly lower. She was hungry now and
-lonely. In the mildest way she distantly suggested a cup of tea, but
-Mrs. McGoldrick at once resented this uncalled-for disturbance of her
-harangue by bringing out what was probably meant to be taken as the one
-admirable point in the other girl's character.
-
-"Miss O'Donovan used always get her own tea."
-
-But the desolating silence of Rebecca at length drove her towards the
-kitchen, and she returned, after what seemed an endless period, with
-some greasy-looking bread, a cup without a handle, and a teapot from
-which the tea dribbled in agony on to the tablecloth through a wound in
-its side.
-
-The sickening taste of the stuff that came out of the teapot only added
-to Rebecca's sinking feeling. Her thoughts crept ever downward.... At
-last there came a blessed desire for sleep-sleep and forgetfulness of
-this day and the morrow. Her head was already beginning to spin as she
-inquired for her room.
-
-"Your room?" exclaimed Mrs. McGoldrick in harsh surprise. "Why, 'tis
-upstairs. There's only two rooms there, myself and the sergeant's and
-the lodger's room--that's yours. I hadn't time this week back to make
-the bed since Miss O'Donovan left, but of course you'll do that for
-yourself. The sergeant is gone up to the barracks, so I'll have to help
-you carry up your box, as I suppose you'll be wanting to get out some
-of your things."
-
-It was a cruelly hard job getting the trunk up the steep staircase, but
-between them they managed it. Rebecca was not disappointed by the bare,
-ugly room. Mrs. McGoldrick closed the door behind them and stood in an
-attitude of expectation. Even in the present dull state of her mind
-Rebecca saw that her landlady was, with tense curiosity, awaiting the
-opening of the box which held her poor belongings.... Then something of
-the combative, selfish attitude of the woman to her kind stirred within
-her, and she bravely resolved to fight, for a short space, this prying
-woman who was trying to torment her soul.
-
-She looked at the untidied bed with the well-used sheets.... What
-matter? It was only the place whereon the body of another poor tortured
-creature like herself had lain. She would bear with this outrage
-against her natural delicacy.
-
-In perfect silence she took off her skirt and blouse and corset. She
-let fall her long, heavy hair and, before the broken looking-glass,
-began to dally wearily with its luxuriance. This hair was very fair
-and priceless, and it was hers who had not great possessions. Her
-shining neck and blossomy breasts showed as a pattern in ivory against
-the background that it made.... Some man, she thought, would like to
-see her now and love her maybe. Beyond this vision of herself she could
-see the ugly, anxious face of the woman behind her. She could feel
-the discord of that woman's thoughts with the wandering strands of
-withering hair.
-
-No word had passed between them since they came together into the room,
-and Mrs. McGoldrick, retreating from the situation which had been
-created, left with abruptness, closing the door loudly behind her.
-
-With as much haste as she could summon, Rebecca took off her shoes and
-got her night-gown out of the trunk. Then she threw herself into the
-bed. She put out the light and fumbled in her faded vanity bag for her
-little mother-of-pearl rosary. There was a strange excitement upon her,
-even in the final moments of her escape, and soon a portion of her
-pillow was wet with tears. Between loud sobs arose the sound of her
-prayers ascending:
-
-"Hail, Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou
-amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou.... Hail,
-Mary, full of grace...."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII
-
-
-At tea-time Mrs. Brennan was still talking to John of the girl who was
-coming to the valley. Outside the day was still full of the calm glory
-of summer. He went to the window and looked down upon the clean, blue
-stretch of the little lake.... He had grown weary of his mother's talk.
-What possible interest could he have in this unknown girl? He took
-a book from a parcel on the table. With this volume in his hand and
-reading it, as he might his breviary at some future time, he went out
-and down towards the lake. On his way, he met a few men moving to and
-from their tasks in the fields. He bade them the time of day and spoke
-about the beauty of the afternoon. As they replied, a curious kind of
-smile played around their lips, and there was not one who failed to
-notice his enviable condition of idleness.
-
-"Indeed 'tis you that has the fine times!" "Indeed you might say 'tis
-you that has the fine times!" "Now isn't the learning the grand thing,
-to say that when you have it in your head you need never do a turn with
-your hands?"
-
-Their petty comments had the effect of filling him with a distracting
-sense of irritation, and it was some time before he could pick up any
-continued interest in the book. It was the story of a young priest,
-such as he might expect to be in a few years. Suddenly it appeared
-remarkable that he should be reading this foreshadowing of his future.
-That he should be seeing himself with all his ideas translated into
-reality and his training changed into the work for which he had been
-trained. Strange that this thought should have come into his mind with
-smashing force here now and at this very time. Hitherto his future had
-appeared as a thing apart from him, but now it seemed intimately bound
-up with everything he could possibly do.
-
-He began to see very clearly for the first time the reason for his
-mother's anxiety to keep him apart from the life of the valley. Did it
-spring directly from her love for him, or was it merely selfish and
-contributory to her pride? The whole burden of her talk showed clearly
-that she was a proud woman. He could never come to have her way of
-looking at things, and so he now felt that if he became a priest it was
-she and not himself who would have triumphed.... He was still reading
-the book, but it was in a confused way and with little attention. The
-threads of the story had become entangled somehow with the threads
-of his own story.... Occasionally his own personality would cease to
-dominate it, and the lonely woman in the cottage, his mother sitting in
-silence at her machine, would become the principal character.... The
-hours went past him as he pondered.
-
-The evening shadows had begun to steal down from the hills. The western
-sky was like the color of a golden chalice. Men were coming home weary
-from the labor of the fields; cows were moving towards field gates with
-wise looks in their eyes to await the milking; the young calves were
-lowing for their evening meal. The quiet fir trees, which had slept
-all through the day, now seemed to think of some forgotten trust and
-were like vigilant sentries all down through the valley of Tullahanogue.
-
-Suddenly the eyes of John Brennan were held by a splendid picture. The
-sweep of the Hill of Annus lay outlined in all the wonder of its curve,
-and, on the ridge of it, moving with humped body, was Shamesy Golliher,
-the most famous drunkard of the valley. He passed like a figure of
-destruction above the valley against the sunset. John smiled, for he
-remembered him and his habits, as both were known far and wide. He was
-now going towards a certain wood where the rabbits were plentiful.
-His snares were set there. The thin, pitiful cry of the entrapped
-creature now split the stillness, and the man upon the sweep of the
-world began to move with a more determined stride.... John Brennan, his
-mind quickening towards remembrance of incidents of his boyhood, knew
-that the cunning of Shamesy Golliher had triumphed over the cunning
-of the rabbits. Their hot little eager bodies must soon be sold for
-eightpence apiece and the money spent on porter in Garradrimna. It was
-strange to think of this being the ultimate fate of the rabbits that
-had once frisked so innocently over the green spaces of the woods....
-He listened, with a slight turn of regret stirring him, until the last
-squeal had been absorbed by the stillness. Then he arose and prepared
-to move away from the lake. He was being filled by a deadly feeling of
-sadness. Hitherto the continuous adventure of adolescence had sustained
-him, but now he was a man and thinking of his future.
-
-On his way across the sweep of the hill he encountered Shamesy
-Golliher. The famous drunkard was laden with the rabbits he had just
-taken from the snares. The strength of his thirst had also begun to
-attack him, so that by reason of both defects his legs now bent under
-him weakly as he walked. Yet his attitude did not suggest defeat, for
-he had never failed to maintain his reputation in the valley. He was
-the local bard, the satiric poet of the neighborhood. He was the only
-inhabitant of the valley who continually did what he pleased, for he
-throve within the traditional Gaelic dread of satire. No matter how he
-debased himself no man or woman dared talk of it for fear they might be
-made the subject of a song to be ranted in the taprooms of Garradrimna.
-And he was not one to respect the feelings of those whom he put into
-his rimes, for all of them were conceived in a mood of ribald and
-malignant glee.
-
-"Me sound man John, how are ye?" he said, extending a white, nervous
-hand.
-
-"I'm very well, thanks; and how are you, Shamesy?"
-
-"Ah, just only middling. I don't look the very best. You'll excuse me
-not being shaved. But that's on account of the neuralgia. God blast it!
-it has me near killed. It has the nerves destroyed on me. Look at me
-hand." ... It was the idiosyncrasy of Shamesy Golliher to assert that
-drink was no part of his life.
-
-Immediately he dropped into his accustomed vein. He gazed down the Hill
-of Annus and found material for his tongue. There were the daughters of
-Hughie Murtagh. They had no brother, and were helping their father in
-the fields.
-
-"Them's the men, them's the men!" said Shamesy, "though glory be to
-God! 'twill be the hard case with them when they come to be married,
-for sure you wouldn't like to marry a man, now would you? And for
-pity's sake will you look at Oweneen Kiernan, the glutton! I hear he
-ate five loaves at the ball in Ballinamult; and as sure as you're there
-that powerful repast'll have to be made the material for a song."
-
-A loud laugh sprang from the lips of Shamesy Golliher and floated far
-across the lake, and John Brennan was immediately surprised to find
-himself laughing in the same way.
-
-The rimer was still pursuing Oweneen down the field of his mind.
-
-"Aye, and I thank ye, ye'll see him doing his best after the new
-schoolmistress that's coming to us this evening. There's a great
-look-out, I can tell you, to see what kind she'll be. Indeed the last
-one wasn't much. Grand-looking whipsters, moryah! to be teaching the
-young idea. Indeed I wouldn't be at all surprised to see one of them
-going away from here sometime and she in the family way, although may
-God pardon me for alluding to the like and I standing in the presence
-of the makings of a priest!"
-
-John Brennan felt himself blushing ever so slightly.
-
-"And who d'ye think was in Garradrimna this evening? Why Ulick Shannon,
-and he a big man. Down to stop with his uncle Myles he is for a
-holiday. He wasn't here since he was a weeshy gosoon; for, what d'ye
-think, didn't his mother and father send him away to Dublin to be
-nursed soon after he was born and never seemed to care much about him
-afterwards; but they were the quare pair, and it was no good end that
-happened to themselves, for Henry Shannon and the girl he married,
-Grace Gogarty, both died within the one year. He in the full pride of
-his red life, and she while she was gallivanting about the country
-wearing mourning for him and looking for another husband that she never
-got before she went into the clay. Well, to make a long story short,
-Myles Shannon looked after the orphan, paying for his rearing and his
-education, and having him live as a gentleman in Dublin--until now
-he's a great-looking fellow entirely, and going on, I suppose, for
-Doctoring, or the Law, or some other profitable devilment like that.
-The Shannons were always an unlucky family, but maybe Ulick'll break
-the black curse, although I don't know, for he's the very spit and
-image of his father and able to take his drink like a good one, I can
-tell ye. This evening he came into McDermott's. There was no one there
-but meself, it being the high evening, so says he to me:
-
-"'What'll ye have?'
-
-"'Begad, Mr. Shannon,' says I, 'I'll have a pint. And more power to
-ye, sir!' says I, although I was grinning to meself all the time, for
-I couldn't help thinking that he was only the son of Henry Shannon,
-one of the commonest blackguards that ever disgraced this part of the
-country. You didn't know him, but your mother could tell you about him.
-You might swear your mother could tell you about him!"
-
-John Brennan did not notice the light of merriment which overspread the
-face of Shamesy Golliher, for he was looking down towards the hush of
-the lake, and experiencing a certain feeling of annoyance that this
-young man should be becoming gradually introduced to him in this way.
-But Shamesy was still speaking:
-
-"He stood me four pints and two glasses, and nothing would do him when
-he was going away but he should buy me a whole glass of whiskey. He's
-what you might call a gay fellow, I can tell you. And God save us!
-isn't it grand to be that way, even though you never earned it, and
-not have to be getting your drink like me be nice contriving among the
-small game of the fields?"
-
-They parted in silence, Shamesy Golliher going eastward towards
-Garradrimna and John Brennan in the opposite direction and towards
-his mother's house. His mind had begun to slip into a condition of
-vacancy when an accident happened to turn it again in the direction of
-religion. As he came out upon the road he passed a group of children
-playing between two neighboring houses. The group was made up of the
-children of two families, the O'Briens and the Vaughans. It was said of
-Mrs. Vaughan that although she had been married by Father O'Keeffe, and
-went to Mass every second Sunday, she still clung to the religion into
-which she had been born. Now her eldest child, a pretty, fair-haired
-boy, was in the midst of the O'Briens' children. Their mother was what
-you might call a good woman, for, although she had the most slovenly
-house along the valley road, she went to Mass as often as Mrs. Brennan.
-They were making the innocent child repeat phrases out of their prayers
-and then laughing and mocking him because he could not properly
-pronounce the long words. They were trying to make him bless himself,
-but the hands of little Edward could not master the gestures of the
-formula, and they were jeering at him for his ill-success. When he
-seemed just upon the verge of tears they began to ask him questions in
-the answers to which he would seem to have been well trained aforetime,
-for he repeated them with glibness and enjoyment.
-
-"What religion are ye?"
-
-"I'm a little black Protestant."
-
-"And where will ye go when ye die?"
-
-"I'll go to hell."
-
-"What's hell?"
-
-"A big place bigger than the chapel or the church, with a terrible,
-grand fire in it."
-
-"And what is it full of?"
-
-"It's full of little fellows like me!"
-
-This was the melancholy piece of catechism John Brennan was constrained
-to hear as he went past.
-
-It added the last wave of sadness to the gray mood which had been
-descending upon him by degrees since the beginning of the day.... He
-stood upon the road and listened for anything in the nature of a sound
-which might connect his mind with a thought that had some brightness.
-Although only a few days had elapsed since his return his ears were
-already beginning to redevelop that delicate perception of slight
-sounds which comes to one in the quiet places. He now heard a car come
-through Garradrimna and move a short distance down the valley road.
-That, he thought, should be Paddy McCann driving the new mistress to
-her lodging in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-The small realization held occupation of his mind as he went into the
-house of his mother. He was surprised to find that it was past ten.
-Still lonely as he went to his room, he thought once more of the kind
-invitation of Mr. Myles Shannon.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII
-
-
-Myles Shannon had ever borne a passionate grudge against Mrs. Brennan.
-He had loved his brother Henry, and he felt that she, of all people,
-had had the most powerful hand in instituting the remorse which had
-hurried him to his doom. Mrs. Brennan, on the other hand, believed
-firmly that Henry Shannon would have married her, and made of her
-a decent woman, but for the intervention of his brother Myles.
-Furthermore, she believed darkly in her heart that the subtle plan
-of the disastrous "honeymoon" had originated in the brain of Myles,
-although in this she was wrong. She thought of Henry as being never of
-that sort. He was wild and mad, with nothing too hot or too heavy for
-him, but he was not one to concoct schemes. So, when Henry died, Mrs.
-Brennan had thought well to transmit her hatred of the Shannon family
-to his brother Myles.
-
-Myles Shannon lived a quiet life there in his big house among the trees
-upon the side of Scarden, one of the hills which overlooked the valley.
-In lonely, silent moments he often thought of his brother Henry and of
-the strange manner in which he had burned out his life. With the end
-of his brother before him always as a deterrent example, he did not
-interest himself in women. He interested himself in the business of
-his cattle and sheep all through each and every day of the year. He
-did not feel the years slipping past him as he went about his easy,
-contented life, watching, with great interest, his beef and mutton grow
-up in the fields.
-
-The cattle in particular stood for the absorbing interest and the one
-excitement of his life. He looked upon his goings and comings to and
-from the markets at Dublin and at Wakefield in England as holiday
-excursions of great enjoyment.
-
-It was during one of his trips to England that he had met Helena Cooper
-at some hotel in Manchester. He was one to whom the powers of Romance
-had remained strangers, yet now, when they at last came into his life,
-it was with a force that carried away all the protection of his mind.
-He wanted some one to fill the loneliness of the big house on Scarden
-Hill, and so he set his heart upon Helena Cooper.
-
-He returned to the valley a different man. Quite suddenly he began to
-have a greater interest in his appearance, and it was noticed that
-he grew sentimental and became easy in his dealings. It began to be
-whispered around that, even so late in life, almost at the close of
-the middle period which surely marks the end of a man's prime, Myles
-Shannon had fallen in love and was about to be married.
-
-It was a notable rumor, and although it was fifteen years since the
-death of Henry Shannon, Mrs. Brennan, as one having a good reason to be
-interested in the affairs of the Shannon family, became excited.
-
-"Indeed it was high time for him to think of it," she said to a
-neighbor one Sunday morning, "before he turned into a real ould
-blackguard of a bachelor--and who d'ye say the girl is?"
-
-"Why, then, they say she's an English lady, and that she's grand and
-young."
-
-Mrs. Brennan was a great one for "ferreting-out" things. Once she
-had set her mind upon knowing a thing, there was little possibility
-of preventing her. And now she was most anxious to know whom Myles
-Shannon was about to marry. So when she saw the old bent postmistress
-taking the air upon the valley road later on in the day she brought her
-into the sewing-room and, over a cup of tea, proceeded to satisfy her
-curiosity.
-
-"There must be letters?" she said after they had come round to a
-discussion of the rumored marriage.
-
-"Oh, yes, indeed. There's letters coming and going, coming and going,"
-the old lady wheezed. "A nice-looking ould codger, isn't he, to be
-writing letters to a young girl?"
-
-"And how d'ye know she's young?"
-
-"How do I know, is it, how do I know? Well, well, isn't that my
-business? To know and to mind."
-
-"You're a great woman."
-
-"I do my duty, that's all, Mrs. Brennan, as sure as you're there. And
-d'ye imagine for a moment I was going to let Myles Shannon pass, for
-all he's such a great swank of a farmer? She _is_ a young girl."
-
-"Well, well?"
-
-"There's no reason to misdoubt me in the least, for I saw her photo and
-it coming through the post."
-
-"A big, enlarged photo, I suppose?"
-
-"Aye, the photo of a young girl in her bloom."
-
-"I suppose she's very nice?"
-
-"She's lovely, and 'tis what I said to myself as I looked upon her
-face, that it would be the pity of the world to see her married to a
-middling ould fellow like Myles Shannon."
-
-"And I suppose, now, that she has a nice name?"
-
-"Aye. It is that. And what you might call a grand name."
-
-A long pause now fell between the two women, as if both were
-endeavoring to form in their minds some great resolve to which their
-hearts were prompting them. The old postmistress delivered her next
-speech in a whisper:
-
-"Her name is Helena Cooper, and her address is 15 Medway Avenue,
-Manchester!"
-
-The two women now nudged one another in simultaneous delight. Mrs.
-Brennan ran the direction over and over in her mind as if suddenly
-fearful that some dreadful stroke of forgetfulness might come to
-overthrow her chance of revenge upon her false, dead lover through the
-great injury she now contemplated doing to his brother.... She made
-an excuse of going to the kitchen to put more water upon the teapot
-and, when she went there, scribbled the name and address upon the wall
-beside the fireplace.
-
-When she returned to the sewing-room the old postmistress was using
-her handkerchief to hide the smile of satisfaction which was dancing
-around her mouth. She knew what was just presently running through
-Mrs. Brennan's mind, and she was glad and thankful that she herself
-was about to be saved the trouble of writing to Miss Cooper.... Her
-hand was beginning to be quavery and incapable of writing a hard,
-vindictive letter. Besides that Mr. Shannon was an influential man in
-the district, and the Post Office was not above suspicion. She was
-thankful to Mrs. Brennan now, and said the tea was nice, very nice.
-
-Yet, immediately that the information, for which she had hungered since
-the rumor of Myles Shannon's marriage began to go the rounds, was in
-her keeping, Mrs. Brennan ceased to display any unusual interest in
-the old, bespectacled maid. Nor did the postmistress continue to be
-excited by the friendly presence of Mrs. Brennan, for she, on her part,
-was immensely pleased and considered that the afternoon had attained
-to a remarkable degree of success.... From what she had read of her
-productions passing through the post, she knew that Mrs. Brennan was
-the woman who could write the strong, poisonous letter. Besides, who
-had a better right to be writing it--about one of the Shannon family?
-
-Soon she was going out the door and down the white road towards
-Garradrimna.... Now wasn't Mrs. Brennan the anxious and the prompt
-woman; she would be writing to Miss Cooper this very evening?... As
-she went she met young couples on bicycles passing to distant places
-through the fragrant evening. The glamor of Romance seemed to hang
-around them.
-
-"Now isn't that the quare way for them to be spending the Sabbath?" she
-said to herself as she hobbled along.
-
-The Angelus was just beginning to ring out across the waving fields
-with its sweet, clear sound as Mrs. Brennan regained the sewing-room
-after having seen her visitor to the door, but, good woman though she
-was, she did not stop to answer its holy summons. Her mind was driving
-her relentlessly towards the achievement of her intention. The pen
-was already in her hand, and she was beginning to scratch out "a full
-account," as she termed it, of Mr. Myles Shannon for the benefit of
-Miss Helena Cooper, whoever she might be. Through page after page she
-continued her attack while the fire of her hate was still burning
-brightly through her will.
-
-It had been her immemorial custom to send full accounts abroad whenever
-one of the valley dwellers made attempts at assertion, but not one of
-the Shannons had so far offered her such a golden opportunity. For the
-moment she was in her glory.
-
-She announced herself as a good friend of this girl, whose name she
-had only heard just now. She wrote that she would not like to see Miss
-Cooper deceived by a man she had no opportunity of knowing in his real
-character, such as Mr. Shannon.
-
-Now it was a fact that Myles, unlike his brother Henry, had not been
-a notable antagonist of the Commandments. It was true, of course,
-that he was not distinguished for the purity of his ways when he went
-adventuring about the bye-ways of Dublin after a day at the cattle
-market, and people from the valley, cropping up most unexpectedly, had
-witnessed some of his exploits and had sent magnified stories winging
-afar. But he had ruined no girl, and was even admirable in his habits
-when at home in his lonely house among the trees.
-
-This, however, was not the Mr. Shannon that Mrs. Brennan set down in
-her letter to Helena Cooper. It was rather the portrait of his brother
-Henry, the wild libertine, that she painted, for, in the high moments
-of her hate, she was as one blinded by the ecstasy that had come upon
-her. The name of Shannon held for her only one significance, and, for
-the moment, it was an abysmal vision which dazzled her eyes.
-
-Soon there came a communication from Miss Cooper to Mr. Shannon
-which had the effect of nipping his green romance while it was still
-young.... It asked him was this true and was that true?... The easy,
-sentimental way he had looked upon the matter was suddenly kindled
-into a deeper feeling, and he thought of having the girl now at all
-costs.... He wrote a fine reply in justification. It was a clear,
-straight piece of writing, and, although it pained him greatly, he was
-compelled to admit that the statements about which Miss Cooper wished
-to be satisfied were no more than the truth in relation to a certain
-member of the Shannon family. But they related to his dead brother
-Henry and not to him.... He prayed the forgiveness of forgetfulness
-for the dead.... He volunteered the production of convincing proof for
-every statement here made in regard to himself.
-
-But the old lady at the Post Office had something to say in the matter.
-She had read Miss Cooper's letter, and as she now read the letter of
-Mr. Shannon she knew that should it reach her this girl must be fully
-satisfied as to his character, for his was a fine piece of pleading....
-But she could not let Mrs. Brennan have all the secret satisfaction for
-the destruction of his love-affair. The bitter woman in the valley had
-done the ugly, obvious part of the work, but she was in a position to
-hurry it to secret, deadly completion.... So that evening the letter,
-which it had given Myles Shannon such torture to write, was burned at
-the fire in the kitchen behind the Post Office.... He wrote to Helena
-Cooper again and yet again, but the same thing happened.... His third
-letter had turned purely pathetic in its tone. The old lady said to
-herself that it made her laugh like anything.
-
-At last he fell to considering that her affection for him could not
-have been very deep seeing that she had allowed it to be so strongly
-influenced by some poisonous letter from an anonymous enemy.... Yet
-there were moments when he knew that he could never forget her nor
-escape, through all the years he might live, from the grand dream her
-first tenderness had raised up in his heart. In its immediate aspect
-he was a little angry that the rumor of a contemplated marriage on his
-part should have gone abroad. But he had almost triumphed over this
-slight feeling of annoyance when there came to him, some month later,
-the "account" that had been written about him to Miss Cooper without
-a word of comment enclosed.... The old lady at the office had seen to
-that, for the letter accompanying it as far as Garradrimna had gone the
-way of Mr. Shannon's letters.... This had made her laugh also with its
-note of wonder as to why he had made no attempt to explain.... If only
-he would say that the statements made against him were all mere lies.
-Of course she did not believe a word of them, but she wished him to say
-so in a letter to her.... The Post Office was saved from suspicion by
-this second bit of destruction, although it had done its work well.
-
-The bare, scurrilous note caused a blaze of indignation turning to
-hatred to take possession of his soul which had hitherto been largely
-distinguished by kindly influences. He had his suspicions at once that
-it was the work of Mrs. Brennan.
-
-There was a letter of hers locked in a bureau in the parlor with other
-things which had been the property of his dead brother Henry. They were
-all sad things which related intimately to the queer life he had led.
-This old faded letter from Nan Byrne was the one she had written asking
-him for Christ's sake to marry her, now that she felt her misfortune
-coming upon her.... A hard look came into his eyes as he began to
-compare the weak handwriting. Yes, it was hers surely, beyond a shadow
-of doubt.... He locked this thing which had so changed the course of
-his life with the things of his brother.
-
-It was queer, he thought, that she, of all people, who should be prone
-to silence, had thought fit, after the passage of so many years, to
-meddle with dead things in the hope of ending other dreams which,
-until now, had lived brightly. He continued to brood himself into
-bitter determinations. He resolved that, as no other girl had come
-greatly into his life before the coming of Helena Cooper, no other one
-must enter now that she was gone. She was gone, and must the final
-disaster of his affections narrow down to a mere piece of sentimental
-renunciation? Strange, contradictory attitudes built themselves up in
-his mind.
-
-Out of his brooding there grew before him the structure of a plan. This
-woman had besmirched his brother, helping him towards the destruction
-of his life, for it was in this light, as a brother, he had viewed the
-matter always; and now, in her attempt to besmirch himself, she had
-spoiled his dream. He had grown angry after the slow fashion which was
-the way of his thought, but his resolve was now sure and deliberate.
-
-There was her son! He had just gone to some kind of college in England
-to prepare for the priesthood, and the antecedents of a priest must be
-without blemish. It was not the youth's fault, but his mother was Nan
-Byrne, and some one must pay.... And why should she desire to bring
-punishment of any kind upon him for his brother's sin with her? He had
-loved his brother, and it was only natural to think that she loved her
-son. And through that love might come the desolation of her heart. To
-allow the blossom to brighten in her eye and then, suddenly, to wither
-it at a blast. To permit this John Brennan to approach the sacred
-portals of the priesthood and then to cause him to be cast adrift.
-
-The thought of how he might put a more delicate turn to the execution
-of his plan had come to him as he journeyed down from Dublin with John
-Brennan. He knew that his nephew, Ulick, had lived the rather reckless
-student life of Dublin. Just recently he had been drawing him out. But
-he was no weakling, and it was not possible that any of those ways
-might yet submerge him. However, his influence acting upon a weaker
-mind might have effect and produce again the degenerate that had not
-fully leaped to life in him. If he were brought into contact with John
-Brennan it might be the means of effecting, in a less direct way, the
-result which must be obtained.
-
-It was with this thought simmering in his brain that Myles Shannon had
-invited John Brennan to the friendship and company of his nephew. When
-he had spoken of the Great War it was the condition of his own mind
-that had prompted the thought, for it was filled with the impulse of
-destruction.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX
-
-
-It is on his passage through the village of Garradrimna that we may
-most truly observe John Brennan, in sharp contrast with his dingy
-environment, as he goes to hear morning Mass at the instigation of
-his mother, whose pathetic fancy fails to picture him in any other
-connection. It is a beautiful morning, and the sun is already high.
-There is a clean freshness upon all things. The tall trees which form
-a redeeming background for the uneven line of the ugly houses on the
-western side of the street are flinging their rich raiment wildly
-upon the light breeze where it floats like the decorative garments of
-a ballet dancer. The light winds are whipping the lightness of the
-morning.
-
-The men of drink are already stirring about in anticipation.
-Hubert Manning is striking upon the door of Flynn's, the grocery
-establishment, which, in the heavy blindness of his thirst, he takes to
-be one of the seven publichouses of Garradrimna. He is running about
-like some purged sinner, losing patience at last hard by the Gate of
-Heaven. In the course of her inclusive chronicles his mother had told
-John Brennan the life history of Hubert Manning. For sixty odd years
-he had bent his body in hard battle with the clay, until the doubtful
-benefit of a legacy had come to change the current of his life. The
-fortune, with its sudden diversion towards idleness and enjoyment, had
-caused all the latent villainy of the man, which the soil had subdued,
-to burst forth with violence. He was now a drunken old cur whom
-Sergeant McGoldrick caused to spend a fortune in fines.
-
-"Just imagine the people who do be left the money!" said Mrs. Brennan,
-as she told the story.
-
-John Brennan passes on. He meets the bill-poster, Thomas James. His
-dark, red face displays an immense anxiety. He is going for his first
-pint with a pinch of salt held most carefully in his hand. His present
-condition is a fact to be deplored, for he was famous in his time and
-held the record in Garradrimna for fast drinking of a pint. He could
-drink twenty pints in a day. Hence his decline and the pinch of salt
-now held so carefully in his hand. This is to keep down the first pint,
-and if the operation be safely effected it is quite possible that the
-other nineteen will give him no trouble.
-
-Coming in the valley road are Shamesy Golliher and Martin Connell.
-In the distance they appear as small, shrinking figures, moving in
-abasement beneath the Gothic arches of the elms. They represent the
-advance guard of those who leave the sunlit fields on a summer morning
-to come into the dark, cavernous pubs of Garradrimna.
-
-On the side of the street, distant from that upon which John Brennan
-is walking, moves the famous figure of Padna Padna, slipping along
-like some spirit of discontent and immortal longing, doomed forever to
-wander. He mistakes the student for one of the priests and salutes him
-by tipping his great hat lightly with his little fore-finger.
-
-And here comes yet another, this one with speed and determination in
-his stride, for it is Anthony Shaughness, who has spent three-fourths
-of his life running away from Death.
-
-"Will you save a life; will you save a life?" he whispers wildly,
-clutching John by the arm. "I have a penny, but sure a penny is no
-good, sir; and I want tuppence-ha'penny to add to it for the price of a
-pint; but sure you won't mind when it's to save my life! I know you'll
-give it to me for the love of God!"
-
-This is a very well-known request in the mouth of Anthony Shaughness,
-and John Brennan has attended it so very often during the past few
-years as to deserve a medal for life-saving. Yet he now takes the
-coppers from his small store of pocket-money and gives them to the
-dipsomaniac, who moves rapidly in the direction of "The World's End."
-
-There is presently an exciting interlude. They are just opening up at
-Brannagan's as he goes past. The sleepy-looking barmaid has come to the
-newly-opened door, and makes an ungraceful gesture in gathering up her
-ugly dishevelled hair. A lout of a lad with a dirty cigarette in his
-mouth appears suddenly. They begin to grin at one another in foolish
-rapture, for it is a lovers' meeting. Through the doorway at which they
-stand the smell of stale porter is already assaulting the freshness
-of the morning. They enter the bar surreptitiously and John Brennan
-can hear the swish of a pint in the glass in which it is being filled.
-The usual morning gift, he thinks, with which this maiden favors this
-gallant lover of a new Romance.... There comes to him suddenly the idea
-that his name has been mentioned in this dark place just now.... He
-goes on walking quickly towards the chapel.
-
-
-The plan which Myles Shannon had originated was not lacking in
-subtlety. He foresaw a certain clash of character, between his nephew
-and the son of Nan Byrne, which must become most interesting as he
-watched it out of his malevolence. He could never, never, forget what
-she had done.... And always, beyond the desolation which appeared from
-concentration of his revengeful intentions, he beheld the ruins of her
-son.
-
-He often thought it puzzling how she should never have imagined that
-some one like him might be tempted to do at some time what he was
-now about to do. It seemed remarkable beyond all else that her mind
-should possess such an opaque oneness of purpose, such an extraordinary
-"thickness," to use the term of the valley.
-
-Yet this was a quality peculiar to the gentle hush of the grassy
-places. It seemed to arise from the removal of an intelligent feeling
-of humanity from the conduct of life and the replacement of it by a
-spitefulness that killed and blinded. It was the explanation of many
-of the tragedies of the valley. Like a malignant wind, it warped the
-human growth within the valley's confines. It was what had happened to
-Mrs. Brennan and, because of the action he was taking in regard to her,
-what was now about to happen to Myles Shannon. He seemed to forget, as
-he went about his vengeance, that subtlety is akin to humor, and that
-humor, in its application to the satiric perception of things, is the
-quality which constantly heals the cut it has made. He might certainly
-leave the mark of his vengeance upon Mrs. Brennan, but there was the
-danger of the weapon recoiling upon himself and his kinsman. It was a
-horrible plan indeed, this, of setting one young man to ruin another.
-It was such a conflict, with such an anticipated ending, as had shaped
-itself inevitably out of the life of the valley. Where life was an
-endless battle of conflicting characters and antagonized dispositions
-it seemed particularly meet that a monumental conflict should at last
-have been instituted.
-
-
-Ulick Shannon was finding the valley very little to his mind. But for
-the intervention of his uncle he was several times upon the point of
-returning to Dublin. Although it was for a rest he had come the place
-was too damnably dull. Garradrimna was an infernal hole! Yet he went
-there often, and it was remarkable that his uncle said never a word
-when he arrived home from the village, several nights, in a condition
-that was not one of absolute sobriety. On the contrary, he seemed to
-take a certain joyful interest in such happenings. His uncle often
-spoke of the young man, John Brennan, whom he desired him to meet, and
-it was surprising that this young man had not made the visit he had
-promised to the house among the trees.
-
-Myles Shannon was beginning to be annoyed by the appearance of this
-slight obstruction in the path of his plan. Had Mrs. Brennan forbidden
-the friendship he had proposed? It was very like her indeed, and of
-course she had her reasons.... But it would never do to let her triumph
-over him now, and he having such a lovely plan. He would go so far as
-to send his nephew to call at her house to make the acquaintance of
-Nan Byrne's son. It would be queer surely to see him calling at that
-house and inquiring for John Brennan when his father had gone there
-aforetime to see John Brennan's mother. But how was Ulick to know and
-view from such an angle this aspect of his existence?
-
-Yet, after all, the meeting of John Brennan and Ulick Shannon happened
-quite accidentally and upon such a morning as we have seen John in
-Garradrimna.
-
-Ulick had gone for a walk around that way before his breakfast. He was
-not feeling particularly well as he paused at the end of the valley
-road to survey the mean street of Garradrimna, down which he had
-marched last night with many a wild thought rushing into his mind as
-the place and the people fell far beneath his high gaze.
-
-His quick eye caught sight of something now which seemed a curiously
-striking piece in the drab mosaic of his morning. It was a little party
-of four going towards the chapel. The pair in front could possibly be
-none other than the bridegroom and his bride. It was easy to see that
-marriage was their purpose from the look of open rapture upon their
-faces. The bridesmaid and the best man were laughing and chatting gaily
-as they walked behind them. They seemed to be having the best of it.
-
-Ulick thought it interesting to see this pair moving eagerly towards
-a mysterious purpose.... He was struck by the fact that it was a most
-merciful thing that all men do not lift the veil of life so early as he
-had done.... The harsh, slight laugh which came from him was like the
-remembered laughter of a dead man.
-
-Now that his eyes were falling, with an unfilled look, upon the street
-along which the four had gone he began to see people who had been
-looking out move away from the squinting windows and a few seconds
-later come hurriedly out of their houses and go towards the chapel.
-
-The poor, self-conscious clod, who had dearly desired to marry the girl
-of his fancy quietly and with no prying eyes, amid the fragrance of
-the fine June morning, had, after all, succeeded only in drawing about
-him the leering attention of all the village. There were ever so many
-people going towards the chapel this morning. The lot was large enough
-to remind one of a Sunday congregation at either Mass, this black drove
-now moving up the laneway. Ulick Shannon went forward to join it.
-
-Coming near the chapel he encountered a young man in black, who wore
-the look of a student. This must be John Brennan, he thought, of whom
-his uncle had so repeatedly spoken. He turned and said:
-
-"Good morning! I'm Ulick Shannon, and I fancy you're Brennan, the chap
-my uncle has talked of so often. He has been expecting you to call at
-Scarden House."
-
-They shook hands.
-
-"Yes, I'm John Brennan, and I'm delighted to meet you. I have not
-forgotten your uncle's kind invitation."
-
-Together they entered the House of God.... Father O'Keeffe was already
-engaged in uniting the couple. Distantly they could hear him mumbling
-the words of the ceremony.... All eyes were upon the priest and the
-four people at the altar.... Suddenly Ulick giggled openly, and John
-Brennan blushed in confusion, for this was irreverence such as he had
-never before experienced in the presence of sacred things.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X
-
-
-Next day Ulick Shannon made a call upon John Brennan and invited him
-for a drive. Outside upon the road Charlie Clarke's motor was snorting
-and humming. Ulick had learned to drive a car in Dublin, and had now
-hired Mr. Clarke's machine for the day.
-
-"You see," he said airily, "that I have dispensed with the
-sanctimonious Charlie and am driving myself. Meaning no respect to you,
-Brennan, one approach to a priest is as much as I can put up with at a
-time."
-
-Mrs. Brennan had come to the window, which looked out upon the little
-garden wicket by which they were standing.... Her eyes were dancing and
-wild thoughts were rushing into her mind.... Here, at last, was the
-achieved disaster and the sight her eyes had most dreaded to see--her
-son and the son of Henry Shannon talking together as brothers.
-
-An ache that was akin to hunger seemed to have suddenly attacked her.
-Her lips became parched and dry and her jaws went through the actions
-of swallowing although there was nothing in her mouth. Then she felt
-herself being altogether obliterated as she stood there by the window.
-She was like a wounded bird that had broken itself in an attempt to
-attain to the sunlight beyond.... And to think that it had fallen at
-last, this shadow of separation from her lovely son. John came to the
-door and called in:
-
-"I'm going for a drive in the motor with Mr. Shannon, mother."
-
-These were his very words, and they caused her to move away towards
-the sewing-room with the big tears gathering into her eyes. From her
-seat she saw her son take up his proud position by the side of Ulick
-Shannon. There was something for you, now! Her son driving in a motor
-car with a young man who was going on to be a doctor, in the high noon
-of a working day, all down through the valley of Tullahanogue. If only
-it happened to be with any other one in the whole world. What would
-all the people say but what they must say?... She saw the two students
-laughing just before the car started as if some joke had suddenly
-leaped into being between them.
-
-Ned Brennan came into the room. He had been making an effort to do
-something in the garden when the car had distracted him from his task.
-Well, that was what you might call a grand thing! While he was here
-digging in his drought, his son, I thank ye, going off to drive in a
-motor with a kind of a gentleman. His mind went swiftly moving towards
-a white heat of temper which must be eventually cooled in the black
-pools of Garradrimna. He came into the room, a great blast of a man in
-his anger, his boots heavy with the clay of the garden.
-
-"Well, be the Holy Farmer! that's the grand turn-out!... But sure
-they're a kind of connections, don't you know, and I suppose 'tis only
-natural?"
-
-Great God! He had returned again to this, and to the words she feared
-most of all to hear falling from his mouth.
-
-"A curious attraction, don't you know, that the breed of the Byrnes
-always had for the breed of the Shannons. Eh, Nan?"
-
-Mrs. Brennan said nothing. It had been the way with her that she felt
-a certain horror of Ned when he came to her in this state, but now she
-was being moved by a totally different feeling. She was not without a
-kind of pity for him as she suddenly realized once more how she had
-done him a terrible and enduring injury.... As he stood there glowering
-down upon her he was of immense bulk and significance. If he struck her
-now she would not mind in the least.
-
-"And they're like one another too, them two chaps, as like as brothers.
-And mebbe they are brothers. Eh, Nan, eh; what happened the child
-you had for Henry Shannon? It died, did it? Why 'tis only the other
-night that Larry Cully came at me again about it in Garradrimna. 'I
-see you have your sons home about you,' says he, 'and that must be
-the great comfort to a man, your son John,' says he, 'and your son
-Ulick. Maybe ye never heard tell,' says he, 'that Grace Gogarty's child
-died young and that Henry Shannon bought his other son from his other
-mother-in-law to prevent it being a rising disgrace to him. Bought it
-for a small sum,' says he, 'and put it in the place of his lawful son,
-and his wife never suspected anything until the day she died, poor
-woman; for she was to be pitied, having married such a blackguard.' Is
-that true, is it, Nan?"
-
-Oh, Blessed Mother! this was even more terrible than the suspicion
-Marse Prendergast had put upon her. It seemed less of a crime that
-the little innocent babe should have been murdered in this house
-and buried in the garden than that her old, dead mother should have
-sold it to Henry Shannon. And how was she to know? Twenty-five years
-had passed since that time when she had been at Death's door, nor
-realizing anything.... And her mother had never told her.... It would
-be strange if she had gone digging at any time for the tiny bones of
-the little infant that had never been baptized. People passing the
-road might suspect her purpose and say hard things.... But sure they
-said hard things of her still after all the years. It was dreadful to
-think how any one could concoct a lie like this, and that no one could
-forget. Old Marse Prendergast knew well. Deep in her wicked mind, for
-twenty-five years, the secret had been hidden. It was a torture to
-think of the way she would be hinting at it forever.... And just quite
-recently she had threatened to tell John.
-
-Bit by bit was being erected in her mind the terrible speculation as
-to what really was the truth and the full extent of her sin. Yet it
-was not a thing she could set about making inquiries after.... She
-wondered and wondered did Myles Shannon, the uncle of Ulick, know the
-full truth. Why did not her husband drop that grimy, powerful hand? Her
-breasts craved its blow now, even as they had yearned long ago for the
-fumbling of the little, blind mouth.
-
-But he was merely asking her for money to buy drink for himself in
-Garradrimna. Hitherto this request had always given her pain, but now,
-somehow, it came differently to her ears. There was no hesitation on
-her part, no making of excuses. She went upstairs to the box which held
-her most dear possession--the money she had saved so well through all
-the years for the fitting-out of Ned to go proudly with her to attend
-the ordination of their son John. She opened the box with the air of
-one doing a deliberate thing. The money, which amounted in all to about
-five pounds, was still in the form in which she had managed to scrape
-it together. In notes and gold and silver, and even copper. Before this
-it would have appeared as a sacrilege on her part to have touched a
-penny of it, but now she had no thought of this kind. Ned wanted the
-money to purchase the means of forgetfulness of the great injury she
-had done him.
-
-She counted thirty pennies, one by one, into the pocket of her apron.
-This seemed the least suspicious way of giving it to him, for he had
-still no idea that she could have any little store laid by. It was
-hardly possible when one considered how much he drank upon her in the
-village.
-
-She came down the stairs in silence, and spoke no word to him as she
-handed over the money. His lips seemed to split into a sort of sneer
-as he took it from her. Then he went out the door quickly and down the
-white road toward Garradrimna.
-
-
-For the admiration and surprise of John Brennan, Ulick Shannon had
-been displaying his skill with the wheel. Soon the white, tidy houses
-beyond the valley were whizzing past and they were running down the
-easy road which led into the village of Ballinamult. They had moved in
-a continuous cloud of dust from Tullahanogue.
-
-Ulick said he was choked with dust as he brought the car to a
-standstill outside the "North Leinster Arms." He marched deliberately
-into the public bar, and John Brennan followed after with less sure
-footsteps, for it was his first appearance in a place of this kind.
-There was a little, plump girl standing up on a chair rearranging the
-bottles of whiskey and dusting the shelves.
-
-Ulick would seem to have already visited this tavern, for he addressed
-the girl rather familiarly as "Mary Essie." She looked at the young
-man impudently as she wheeled around to exhibit herself to the best
-advantage. Ulick leaned his elbows upon the low counter and gazed
-towards her with his deep, dark eyes. Some quite unaccountable thing
-caused John Brennan to blush, but he noticed that the girl was not
-blushing. She was more brazenly forcing her body into exhibition.
-
-Ulick called for a drink, whatever his friend Brennan would have, and
-a bottle of Bass for himself. It appeared a little wrong to John that
-he should be about to partake of a drink in a pub., for the "North
-Leinster Arms" was nothing more than a sufficiently bad public-house.
-He had a sudden recollection of having once been given cakes and sweets
-in an evil-smelling tap-room one day he had gone with his mother
-long ago to Mullaghowen. He thought of the kind of wine he had been
-given that day and immediately the name was forced to his lips by the
-thought--"Port wine!"
-
-When the barmaid turned around to fill their drinks the young men had
-a view of the curves of her body. John Brennan was surprised to find
-himself dwelling upon them in the intense way of his friend.
-
-Before they left Ulick had many drinks of various kinds, and it was
-interesting to observe how he expanded with their influence. He began
-to tell "smutty" stories to Mary Essie. She listened with attention.
-No blush came into her face, and her glad neck looked brazen.... John
-Brennan felt himself swallowing great gulps of disgust.... His training
-had led him to associate the female form with the angelic form coming
-down from Heaven. Yet here was something utterly different.... A vulgar
-girl, with fat, round hands and big breasts, her lips red as a recent
-wound in soft flesh, and looking lonely.
-
-He was glad when they regained the sunlight, yet the day was of such
-a character as creates oppression by the very height of its splendor.
-Ulick was in such a mood for talk that they had almost forgotten the
-luncheon-basket at the back of the car.
-
-Beyond Ballinamult they stopped again where the ruins of a moldering
-Abbey lay quietly surrounded by a circle of furze-covered hills....
-Ulick expanded still further with the meal, yet his discourse still ran
-along the old trail. He was favoring his friend with a sketch of his
-life, and it seemed to be made up largely of the women he had known
-in Dublin. Quite suddenly he said what seemed to John a very terrible
-thing:
-
-"I have learned a lot from them, and let me tell you this--it has been
-my experience that you could not trust your own mother or the girl of
-your heart. They seem to lack control, even the control of religion.
-They do not realize religion at all. They are creatures of impulse."
-
-Here was a sentiment that questioned the very fact of existence....
-It seemed dreadful to connect the triumph of love and devotion that
-was his mother with this consequent suggestion of the failure of
-existence.... Together they went across the grassy distance towards
-the crumbling ruin wherein the good monks of old had lived and prayed.
-And surely, he thought, the great spirit of holiness which had led
-men hither to spend their lives in penance and good works could not
-have departed finally from this quiet place, nor from the green fields
-beyond the rim of furze-covered hills.
-
-Yet upon his ears were falling the even, convincing tones of Ulick
-Shannon, still speaking cynically.
-
-"Behold," he was saying, "that it is to this place the younger
-generation throng on the Sabbath. Around you, upon the ruined and bare
-walls, you will observe not pious words, but the coupled names of those
-who have come here to sin."
-
-"And look at this!" he exclaimed, picking from a niche in the wall
-a long shin bone of one of the ancient monks, which possessed the
-reputed power of cures and miracles. For a moment he examined it with a
-professional eye, then handed it to John Brennan. There were two names
-scribbled upon it in pencil, and beneath them a lewd expression. Ulick
-had only laid hands upon it by the merest accident, but it immediately
-gave body to all the airy ideas he had been putting forth. There was
-something so greatly irreverent in the appearance of this accidental
-piece of evidence that no argument could be put forward against it. It
-was terrible and conclusive.
-
-The evening was far advanced when John Brennan returned home. His
-mother and father were seated in the kitchen. His father was drunk,
-and she was reading him a holy story, with an immeasurable feeling of
-despondence in her tones. John became aware of this as he entered the
-house.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI
-
-
-Rebecca Kerr had been ill for a few days and did not attend school
-until the Monday following her arrival in the valley. There she made
-the acquaintance of Mrs. Wyse, the principal of Tullahanogue Girls'
-School, and Monica McKeon, the assistant of Tullahanogue Boys' School.
-Mrs. Wyse was a woman who divided her energies between the education of
-other women's children and the production of children of her own. Year
-by year, and with her growing family, had her life narrowed down to
-the painful confines of its present condition. She had the reputation
-of being a hard mistress to the children and a harsh superior to
-her assistants. From the very first she seemed anxious to show her
-authority over Rebecca Kerr.
-
-In the forenoon of this day she was standing by her blackboard at the
-east end of the school, imparting some history to her most advanced
-class. Rebecca was at the opposite end teaching elementary arithmetic
-to the younger children when something in the would-be impressive
-seriousness of her principal's tone caused her to smile openly.
-
-Mrs. Wyse saw the smile, and it lit her anger. She called loudly:
-
-"Miss Kerr, are you quite sure that that exercise in simple addition is
-correct?"
-
-"Yes, perfectly certain, Mrs. Wyse."
-
-The chalk had slipped upon the greasy blackboard, making a certain 5
-to appear as a 6 from the distance at which she stood, and it was into
-this accidental trap that Mrs. Wyse had fallen. Previous assistants
-had studied her ways and had given up the mistake of contradicting her
-even when she was obviously in the wrong. But this was such a straight
-issue, and Rebecca Kerr had had no opportunity of knowing her. She
-came down in a flaming temper from the rostrum. Rebecca awaited her
-near approach with a smiling and assured complacency which must have
-been maddening. But Mrs. Wyse was not one to admit a mistake. Quick as
-lightning she struck upon the complaint that the exercise was beyond
-the course of instruction scheduled for this particular standard....
-And here were the foundations of an enmity laid between these two
-women. They would not be friends in any fine way through the length of
-all the long days they might teach together.
-
-Thus for Rebecca the first day in the valley school dragged out its
-slow length and was dreary and dreadful until noon. Then Monica McKeon
-came in from the Boys' School and they took their luncheon together....
-They went on chattering away until the door of the schoolroom was
-suddenly darkened by the shadows of two men. The three women arose
-in confusion as Master Donnellan called them to the door. There was
-a young man standing outside who presented a strong contrast to
-the venerable figure of the master. The latter, in his roundabout,
-pedagogic way, went on to tell how the stranger had strayed into the
-school playground and made himself known. He wished to show him the
-whole of the building, and introduced him as "Mr. Ulick Shannon, Mr.
-Myles Shannon's nephew, you know."
-
-The three female teachers took an immediate mental note of the young
-man. They saw him as neat and well-dressed, with a half-thoughtful,
-half-reckless expression upon his fine face, with its deep-set,
-romantic eyes. The few words he spoke during the general introduction
-appeared to Rebecca to be in such a gentle voice. There were some
-moments of awkward silence. Then, between the five of them, they
-managed to say a few conventional things. All the while those great,
-deep eyes seemed to be set upon Rebecca, and she was experiencing the
-disquieting feeling that she had met him at some previous time in some
-other place in this wide world. The eyes of Monica McKeon were upon
-both of them in a way that seemed an attempt to search their minds for
-their thoughts of the moment.
-
-Immediately he was gone Mrs. Wyse and Miss McKeon fell to talking of
-him:
-
-"He's the hateful-looking thing; I'd hate him like poison," said Monica.
-
-"Indeed what could he be and the kind of a father he had? Sure I
-remember him well, a quare character," said Mrs. Wyse.
-
-"I wonder what could have brought him around here to-day of all days
-since he came to Scarden?"
-
-This with her eyes set firmly upon Rebecca.
-
-Mrs. Wyse was not slow to pick up the insinuation.
-
-"Oh, looking after fresh girls always, the same as his father."
-
-"He's not bad-looking."
-
-"No; but wouldn't you know well he has himself destroyed with the kind
-of life he lives up in Dublin? They say he's gone to the bad and that
-he'll never pass his exams."
-
-Every word of the conversation seemed to be spoken with the direct
-intention of attacking certain feelings which had already begun to rise
-in the breast of Rebecca Kerr.... Her mind was being held fast by the
-well-remembered spell of his eyes.
-
-The afternoon passed swiftly for Mrs. Wyse. She was so engrossed by
-thought of this small thing that had happened that she gave wrong dates
-in another history lesson, false notes in the music lesson, and more
-than one incorrect answer to simple sums in the arithmetic lesson.
-
-Rebecca was glad when three o'clock and her freedom at last came. Out
-in the sunlight she would be able to indulge in certain realizations
-which were impossible of enjoyment here in this crowded schoolroom. The
-day was still enthroned beneath the azure dome. This was the period
-of its languorous yawn when it seemed to dream for a space and gather
-strength before it came down from its high place and went into the
-long, winding ways of evening.
-
-There were men engaged in raising sand from a pit by the roadside as
-she passed along. A pause in the ringing of their shovels made her
-conscious that they had stopped in their labor to gaze after her as she
-went.... Her neck was warm and blushing beneath the shadow of her hair.
-
-Her confusion extended to every portion of her body when she came upon
-Ulick Shannon around a bend of the road, book in hand, sauntering along.
-
-He saluted as she overtook him, and spoke of the pleasant
-afternoon.... She hoped he was enjoying his holidays here in the
-valley. He seemed to be spending the time very quietly. Reading?
-Poetry? Just fancy! _The Daffodil Fields_, by John Masefield. What a
-pretty name! Was he devoted to poetry, and was this particular poem a
-good one?
-
-"It is a great tale of love and passion that happened in one of the
-quiet places of the world," he told her with a kind of enthusiasm
-coming into his words for the first time.
-
-"One of the quiet places?" she murmured, evidently at a loss for
-something else to say.
-
-"Yes, a quiet place which must have been like this place and yet, at
-the same time, most wonderfully different, for no poet at all could
-imagine any tale of love and passion springing from the life about us
-here. The people of the valley seem to have died before they were born.
-I will lend you this poem, if you'd care to have it."
-
-"Oh, thank you, Mr. Shannon!" she said.
-
-They had wandered down a lane which led from the high road towards the
-peaceful fields beyond the little lake. This lane, he told her, was
-called "The Road of the Dead," and would afford her a short cut to her
-lodging at Sergeant McGoldrick's.
-
-For lack of anything else to say, she remarked upon the strangeness of
-this name--The Road of the Dead. He said it seemed a title particularly
-suitable. He went on to elaborate the idea he had just expressed:
-
-"Around and about here they are all dead--dead. No passion of any kind
-comes to light their existence. Their life is a thing done meanly,
-shudderingly within the shadow of the grave. That is how I have been
-seeing it for the past few weeks. They hate the occurrence of new
-people in their midst. They hate me already, and now they will hate
-you. The sight of us walking together like this must surely cause them
-to hate us still more."
-
-She was wondering that his words should hold a sense of consideration
-for her, seeing that they had been acquainted only such a short while.
-
-"This way leads from a graveyard to a graveyard, and they have a
-silly superstition that dead couples are sometimes seen walking
-here. Particularly dismal also do I consider this picture of their
-imagination. The idea of any one thinking us a dead couple!"
-
-As he said this her blushing cheek showed certainly that life was
-strong in her.... Upon the wings of his words grand thoughts had gone
-flying through her mind. All day she had been looking forward with
-dread to the yellow, sickly, sunlit time after school. And now to think
-that the miracle of this romantic young man had happened.... Both grew
-silent. Rebecca's eyes were filling with visions and wandering over a
-field of young green corn. They were dancing upon the waves of sunlight
-which shimmered over all the clean, feathery surface of the field. The
-eyes of Ulick were straying from the landscape and dwelling upon her
-deeply, upon the curves of her throat and bosom, and upon the gentle
-billows of her hair. Over all his face was clouding that mysterious,
-murky expression which had come as he gazed upon the little barmaid of
-the "North Leinster Arms" a few days previously.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII
-
-
-Rebecca wanted some light blouses. Those she possessed had survived
-through one summer, and it was all that could be expected of them. So
-one day she ran down to Brennan's, during the half hour allowed for
-recreation, to leave the order. When she entered the sewing-room Mrs.
-Brennan was busy at her machine. Her ever-tired eyes struggled into a
-beaming look upon Rebecca.
-
-The young girl, with her rich body, seemed to bring a clean freshness
-into the room. For a moment the heavy smell of the miscellaneous
-materials about her died down in the nostrils of Mrs. Brennan. But this
-might have arisen from a lapse of other faculties occasioned by her
-agreeable surprise. So here was the new teacher who had so recently
-occupied her tongue to such an extent. She now beheld her hungrily.
-
-Rebecca laid her small parcel of muslin upon the table, and became
-seated at the request of Mrs. Brennan.
-
-"That's the grand day, ma'am," said she.
-
-"'Tis the grand day indeed, miss," said Mrs. Brennan.
-
-"Not nice, however, to be in a stuffy schoolroom."
-
-"Indeed you might swear that, especially in such a school as
-Tullahanogue, with a woman like Mrs. Wyse; she's the nice-looking
-article of a mistress!"
-
-Rebecca almost bounded in her chair. She had fancied Mrs. Brennan,
-from the nature of her occupation, as a gabster, but she had not
-reckoned upon such a sudden and emphatic confirmation of her notion.
-Immediately she tried to keep the conversation from taking this turn,
-which, in a way, might bring it to a personal issue. But Mrs. Brennan
-was not to be baulked of her opportunity.
-
-She began to favor her visitor with a biography of Mrs. Wyse. It was a
-comprehensive study, including all her aspects and phases. Her father
-and his exact character, and her mother and what she was. Her husband,
-and how the marriage had been arranged. How she had managed to gain her
-position. Everything was explained with a wealth of detail.
-
-Rebecca out of the haze into which the garrulous recital had led her,
-spoke suddenly and reminded Mrs. Brennan of the passage of the half
-hour. Mrs. Brennan quickly fancied that the cause of the girl's lack of
-enthusiasm in this outpouring of information might have arisen from the
-fact that Mrs. Wyse had forestalled her with a previous attack. Thus,
-by a piece of swift transition, she must turn the light upon herself
-and upon the far, bright period of her young girlhood.
-
-Now maybe Miss Kerr would like to look through the album of photos upon
-the table. This was a usual extension of feminine curiosity.... Rebecca
-opened the heavy, embossed album and began to turn over the pages....
-There was a photo of a young girl near the beginning. She was of
-considerable beauty, even so far as could be discerned from this faded
-photo, taken in the early eighties. As Rebecca lingered over it, the
-face of Mrs. Brennan was lit by a sad smile.
-
-"She was nice, and who might she have been?" said Rebecca.
-
-"That was me when I was little and innocent," said Mrs. Brennan.
-
-Rebecca looked from Mrs. Brennan to the photo, and again from the photo
-to Mrs. Brennan. She found it difficult to believe that this young
-girl, with the long, brown hair and the look of pure innocence in the
-fine eyes, could be the faded, anxious, gossipy woman sitting here at
-her labor in this room.... She thought of the years before herself and
-of all the tragedy of womanhood.... There was silence between them for
-a space. Mrs. Brennan appeared as if she had been overpowered by some
-sad thought, for not a word fell from her as she began to untie the
-parcel of blouse material her customer had brought. There was no sound
-in the wide noontide stillness save the light fall of the album leaves
-as they were being turned.... Rebecca had paused again, and this time
-was studying the photos of two young men set in opposite pages. Both
-were arrayed in the fashions of 1890, and each had the same correct,
-stiff pose by an impossible-looking pedestal, upon which a French-gray
-globe reposed. But there was a great difference to be immediately
-observed as existing between the two men. One was handsome and of such
-a hearing as instantly appeals to feminine eyes. It was curious that
-they should have been placed in such contiguous contradistinction, for
-the other man seemed just the very opposite in every way to the one who
-was so handsome. It could not have been altogether by accident, was
-Rebecca's thought, and, with the intuition of a woman at work in her,
-she proceeded to lay the foundations of a romance.... Mrs. Brennan was
-observing her closely, and it grew upon her that she had been destined
-to bare her soul to this girl in this moment.
-
-"That was the nice young man," said Rebecca, indicating the one who,
-despite his stiff pose by the pedestal, looked soldierly with his great
-mustache.
-
-"Indeed he was all that," said Mrs. Brennan. "I met him when I was away
-off in England. He was a rich, grand young man, and as fond of me as
-the day was long; but he was a Protestant and fearful of his people to
-change his religion, and to be sure I could not change mine. For the
-sake of me holy religion I gave up all thoughts of him and married Ned
-Brennan, whose likeness you see on the other page."
-
-Rebecca lifted her eyes from the album and looked full at Mrs. Brennan.
-She wondered how much truth could be in this story. The dressmaker
-was a coarse woman and not at all out of place in this mean room. She
-imagined the heavy husband of her choice as a suitable mate for her.
-
-This sudden adoption of the attitude of a kind of martyr did not seem
-to fit well upon her. Rebecca could not so quickly imagine her as
-having done a noble and heroic thing for which she had not received
-sufficient beatification.
-
-Rebecca was still turning the leaves. She had hurried through this
-little pageant of other generations, and was at the last pages. Now
-she was among people of the present, and her attention was no longer
-held by the peculiarities of the costumes.... Her mind was beginning to
-wander. Suddenly she was looking down upon a photo in the older style
-and the anachronism was startling. Had it been placed in any other
-portion of the album she might not have so particularly noticed it. It
-was the likeness of a dark, handsome man on horseback.
-
-"Who was he?" she said, almost unconsciously.
-
-A flush passed over the face of Mrs. Brennan, but she recovered herself
-by an effort. She smiled queerly through her confusion and said:
-
-"Indeed 'tis you who ought to know that."
-
-"How should I know?"--Rebecca was amazed.
-
-"Don't you know Ulick Shannon?"
-
-It was now Rebecca's turn to be confused.
-
-Fancy this woman knowing that she had been talking just once with Ulick
-Shannon.... Evidently the tongue of this place had already begun to
-curl around her.
-
-"But this is not Ulick Shannon!" She blushed as she found herself
-speaking his name.
-
-"No, but it is the photo of his dead father, Henry Shannon."
-
-Mrs. Brennan heaved a great sigh as she said this. She rose from her
-seat by the machine and moved towards the place where Rebecca was
-bending over the album. She gazed down at the picture of the dead man
-with moist eyes.... There was silence between them now for what seemed
-a long time. Rebecca became alarmed as she thought that she might have
-overstayed the half hour. At the school the priest or the inspector
-might have called and found her absent from her post.
-
-She broke in abruptly upon Mrs. Brennan's fit of introspection, and
-gave a few hurried orders about the blouses.
-
-"Will you be giving me the making of your next new costume?" said Mrs.
-Brennan.
-
-"Well, I'm sorry--I don't think so. You see I have it being made
-already in Dublin."
-
-"In Dublin itself? Well, well! that'll be the great style."
-
-She felt it as an affront to her reputation that any one who lived in
-the neighborhood should patronize other places for their needs. She
-took such doings as exhibitions of spite and malice against her. And,
-somehow, she could not get rid of the idea now, although this girl
-evidently knew nothing of her history.
-
-She was seeing Rebecca to the door when John Brennan came up the little
-path. She introduced him, and told how he was her son and, with vanity
-in her tones, that he was going to be a priest.
-
-"That'll give her something to think of, with her slighting me be
-telling how she was having her costume made be another. A woman that's
-going to have a son a priest ought to be good enough to make for her,
-and she a whipster that's after coming from God knows where."
-
-The mind of Mrs. Brennan was saying this to itself as she stood there
-at her own door gazing in pride upon her son. Rebecca Kerr was looking
-up into his face with a laugh in her eyes. He was such a nice young
-fellow, she was thinking. John Brennan was blushing in the presence of
-this girl and glancing shyly at her hair.
-
-Suddenly she broke away from them with a laughing word upon her lips,
-ran out to the road, and down towards the school.
-
-"She's a very nice girl, mother."
-
-"Oh! indeed she's not much, John; and I knew well I wouldn't like her
-from the very first I heard tell of her coming."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII
-
-
-Large posters everywhere announced the holding of a concert in
-Garradrimna. As in many other aspects of life in the village, it was
-not given to John Brennan to see their full meaning. He had not even
-seen in Thomas James, who posted the bills, a symbolic figure, but only
-one whom disaster had overtaken through the pursuit of his passion. For
-many a year had Thomas James gone about in this way, foretelling some
-small event in the life of Garradrimna. Now it was a race-meeting or a
-circus, again an auction or a fair. All the while he had been slipping
-into his present condition, and herein lay the curious pathos of him.
-For he would never post like this the passing of his own life; he would
-never set up a poster of Eternity.
-
-It was curious to think of that, no poster at all of the exact moment
-amid the mass of Time when the Great White Angel would blow his blast
-upon the Shining Trumpet to awaken all Earth by its clear, wide ringing
-across the Seven Seas.
-
-John Brennan spoke to his mother of the concert.
-
-"The cheek of them I do declare, with their concert. People don't find
-it hard enough to get their money without giving it to them. Bits of
-shop-boys and shop-girls! But I suppose they want new clothes and
-costumes for the summer. I'll go bail you'll see them girls with new
-hats after this venture."
-
-"The bills announce that it is for the Temperance Club funds."
-
-"And them's the quare funds, you might say, and the quare club. Young
-fellows and young girls meeting in the one room to get up plays. No
-good can come of it."
-
-"Of course we need not attend if we don't like."
-
-"Ah, we must go all the same. If we didn't, 'tis what they would say
-mebbe that we hadn't the means, and so we must let them know that we
-have. It wouldn't be nice to see you away from it."
-
-"I have no desire to go, mother, I assure you. A quiet evening more or
-less will not matter."
-
-"But sure it'll be a bit of diversion and amusement."
-
-"Yes, that is exactly what I was thinking, so I didn't see anything
-very wrong in going or in supporting those who organized it. But if you
-don't care to go, it does not matter."
-
-"Ah, but wouldn't it be the quare thing to see your mother ignorant and
-not having a word to say about what was after passing to any one that
-would come in, and they knowing the whole thing? Now what you'll do for
-me, John, is this. You'll go into Phillips's this evening and get two
-of the most expensive tickets, one for yourself and one for me."
-
-John Brennan had a momentary realization of the pitiful vanity behind
-this speech. He remained thinking while she went upstairs for the price
-of the tickets, for that must be her object, he fancied, in ascending
-into the upper story. He could hear her moving a trunk and opening it.
-The sounds came to him with perfect clearness in the still room and
-struck him with a sense of their little mournfulness, even though he
-was quite unaware that his mother had secretly begun the destruction
-of a bright portion of her life's dream.
-
-In the evening he went to the village for the tickets.
-
-"It'll be a grand turn-out," said Jimmy Phillips, as he took in the
-money and blinked in anticipation with his one eye.
-
-"I'm sure," said John, as he left the little shop where you might buy
-the daily newspaper and sweets and everything.
-
-He strolled up the street towards the old castle of the De Lacys. The
-local paper, published at Mullaghowen, was never tired of setting down
-its fame. The uncouth historians of the village had almost exhausted
-their adjectives in relating the exploits of this marauding baron of
-the Normans who had here built him a fortress, from which his companies
-of conquering freebooters had sallied forth so long ago. Yet, as an
-extraordinary mistake on the part of those who concerned themselves so
-intimately with the life around them, they had altogether missed the
-human side of the crumbling ruin. Of what romances of knighthood it
-had once been the scene? Of what visions of delight when fair women
-had met cuirassed gallants? Of all that pride which must have reared
-itself aloft in this place which was now the resort, by night, of the
-most humble creatures of the wild? Not one of them had ever been able
-to fancy the thoughts which must have filled the mind of Hugh De Lacy
-as he drew near this noble monument of his glory after some successful
-expedition against the chieftains of the Pale.
-
-Through the thin curtain of the twilight John Brennan saw two figures
-stealing from the labyrinthine ways which led beneath the castle into
-what were known as "The Cells." These were dark, narrow places in which
-two together would be in close proximity, and it was out from them that
-this man and this woman were now stealing. He could not be certain of
-their identity, but they looked like two whom he knew.... And he had
-heard that Rebecca Kerr was going to sing at the concert, and also
-that Ulick Shannon was coaching the Garradrimna Dramatic Class in the
-play they were to produce, which was one he had seen at the Abbey
-Theater.... A curious thrill ran through him which was like a spasm of
-pain. Could it be this girl and this young man who had spoken with such
-disgusting intimacy of the female sex in the bar of the "North Leinster
-Arms" in Ballinamult ...? They went by a back way into the Club, where
-the rehearsals were now going forward.
-
-
-John Brennan was sitting stiffly beside his mother in the front
-seats. Around and about him were people of renowned respectability,
-who had also paid two shillings each for their tickets. The seven
-publicans of Garradrimna were there, some with their wives, some with
-their wives and daughters, and some with their wives and daughters
-and sisters-in-law. The Clerk of the Union continually adjusting and
-re-adjusting his lemon-colored gloves. The old bespectacled maid from
-the Post Office sitting near the gray, bullet-headed postmaster,
-whose apoplectic jowl was shining. They were keeping up a continual
-chatter and buzz and giggle before the rise of the curtain. The jaws
-of the ancient postmistress never ceased to work, and those hot words
-of criticism and scorn which did not sizzle outwardly from her lips
-dropped inwardly to feed the fire of her mind, which was a volcano in
-perpetual eruption.
-
-Mrs. Brennan sat in silence by the side of her son, in the pride of his
-presence, glad that he and she were here. She was as fine as any of
-them, for she kept fine raiment for such occasions. In the first place
-as an advertisement for her craft of dressmaker, and, secondly, to
-afford a cloak for her past, even as those among whom she sat cloaked
-their pasts in heavy garments of pride. Her attention was concentrated
-not so much upon the performance she was about to witness as upon the
-audience assembled to witness it. To her the audience was the concert,
-and, although she was speaking no word, she was as nervously observant
-as the old postmistress. She was concerned by the task before her, for
-would she not be in honor bound to "go over" all that passed to any one
-who might happen into the sewing-room next day, and lay everything bare
-with a searching and deadly analysis for her son John? Thus was she not
-distracted by the chattering and giggling, but perfectly at ease while
-her mind worked nimbly within the limits of its purpose.
-
-The mind of John Brennan was not enjoying the same contentment. He was
-a little excited by the presence of Rebecca Kerr on a seat adjacent.
-She had a place on the program, and was awaiting her time to appear.
-His eye was dwelling upon her hair, which lifted gracefully from her
-white neck in a smooth wave of gold. It was the fairest thing in this
-clouded place of human fumes, and the dear softness from which it
-sprang such a recess of beauty.
-
-The concert had at last begun. Harry Holton, the comic, was holding the
-stage and the audience was in convulsions. Harry Holton was a distant
-disciple of Harry Lauder. Having heard the funny Scotchman upon the
-gramophone he rather fancied that it was he who should have been Harry
-Lauder. In course of time, he had grown to think that it was Lauder and
-not himself who was doing the impersonation. His effort to be broadly
-Scotch, while the marks of the son of Erin were so strong upon him, was
-where, all unseen, his power to move towards laughter really lay. Yet
-the audience rocked its sides in crude mirth at this crude exhibition,
-and each man asked his neighbor was it not the funniest damned thing?
-The seven sleek publicans of Garradrimna threatened to explode.... John
-Brennan saw big beads of perspiration rise upon the comedian's brow and
-gleam in the sickly glare of the lamplight. Beyond the excitement, from
-behind the scenes, came a new sound--the popping of a cork--and through
-a chink in the back cloth he saw Ulick Shannon take his drink from
-the bottle.... Had Rebecca Kerr seen that as well as he or----. But
-his speculation was cut short by the exit of the comedian after many
-encores, amidst tumultuous applause.
-
-Next came Agnes McKeon, a near relation of Monica's and the
-schoolmistress of Ballinamult. Her big spectacles gave her the look of
-her profession, and although she sang well in a pleasing contralto, she
-appeared stiff and unalluring in her white dress, which was starched to
-a too strong resplendence. John heard two old maids with scraggy necks
-remarking, not upon the power of Miss McKeon's voice, but upon the
-extraordinary whiteness of her dress, and saying it was grand surely,
-but they anxiously wondered were all her garments as clean for they
-were ready to credit her with extreme slovenliness of habit.
-
-The play was the notable event of the evening. Although the work of a
-famous Abbey playwright, it had been evidently re-written for Harry
-Holton, who was the principal character. It was purely a Harry Holton
-show. Dramatic point and sequence were sacrificed to give scope to
-his renowned abilities. The other players would seem to have merged
-themselves to give him prominence. But the ladies had not merged their
-natural vanity. One in particular, who was supposed to represent an old
-woman of Ireland, wore an attractive dress which was in the prevailing
-fashion. It was the illiterate pronunciation of even the simplest words
-which chiefly amused John Brennan. Herein might be detected the touch
-of Ulick Shannon, who, in coaching the production, had evidently added
-this means of diversion for his own amusement. John fancied that his
-friend must be enjoying it hugely in there behind the scenes.
-
-When the play had been concluded by Harry Holton giving a few steps
-of a dance, John Brennan saw Rebecca moving towards the stage. He
-observed the light grace with which she went to the ordeal. Here was no
-self-consciousness, but instead that easy quietness which is a part of
-dignity.... It was Ulick Shannon who held aside the curtain allowing
-her to pass in upon the stage.
-
-"Well now, isn't that one the brazen thing?"
-
-This was the expression of opinion which came clearly from out the
-whispering and giggling. It was an unpardonable offense to appear in
-public like this without a certain obvious fluttering and fear which
-it was one of Garradrimna's most notable powers to create. It was a
-great flout. Even his mother was moved to nudge him, so unusual was the
-method of this strange girl, appearing in public before the place into
-which she had come to earn a living.
-
-But she was singing. Rebecca Kerr was singing, and to John Brennan
-this was all he wished to know. He trembled as he listened and grew
-weary with delight. He became nervous, as before some unaccountable
-apprehension, and turned to his mother. She was looking quizzically
-at the girl on the stage. But the stage to him was now a sort of haze
-through which there moved ever little dancing specks.
-
-The concert was over and his mind had not yet returned to realization.
-Rebecca had not come from behind the scenes. He moved with his mother
-out into the night, and, as they went, glanced around the corner of the
-hall. He saw Rebecca Kerr and Ulick Shannon standing within the shadow
-of the surrounding wood. He spoke no word to his mother as they went
-down the road towards the house in the valley.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV
-
-
-As if from the excitement of the concert, John Brennan felt weary next
-morning. He had been awake since early hours listening to the singing
-of the birds in all the trees near the house. The jolly sounds came to
-him as a great comfort. Consequently it was with an acute sensation
-of annoyance that there crowded in upon his sense of hearing little
-distracting noises. Now it was the heavy rumble of a cart, again
-the screech of a bicycle ridden by Farrell McGuinness on his way to
-Garradrimna for the letters of his rounds; and, continually, the hard
-rasp of nailed boots upon the gravel of the road.
-
-His mother was moving about in the sewing-room beneath. He could hear
-the noise made by her scissors as, from time to time, she laid it down
-and picked it up again, while, mingled with these actions, occasionally
-came up to him the little, unmusical song of the machine. His father
-was still snoring.
-
-Last night Rebecca Kerr had shone in his eyes.... But how exactly had
-she appeared before the eyes of Garradrimna and the valley? After what
-manner would she survive the strong blast of talk? The outlook of his
-mother would be representative of the feeling which had been created.
-Yet he felt that it would be repugnant to him to speak with his mother
-of Rebecca Kerr. There would be that faded woman, looking at him with
-a kind of loving anxiety which seemed always to have the effect of
-crushing him back relentlessly towards the realities of the valley and
-his own reality. After his thoughts of last night and this morning he
-hated to face his mother.
-
-When at last he went down into the room where she sat sewing he had
-such an unusual look in his eyes as seemed to require the solace of an
-incident to fill it. If he had expected to find a corresponding look
-upon his mother's face he was disappointed. It seemed to wear still the
-quizzical expression of last night, and a slight curl at the corners
-of her mouth told that her mind was being sped by some humorous or
-satirical impulse.
-
-"Whatever was the matter with you last night, John?" she asked.
-
-She did not give him time to frame an answer, but went on:
-
-"And I dying down dead to talk to you about the concert, I could not
-get you to speak one word to me and we coming home."
-
-He noticed that she was in good heart, and, although it was customary
-with him to be pleased to see his mother in a mood of gladness, he
-could not enter into laughter and gossip with her now.
-
-But she could not be silent. This small expedition into the outer world
-of passing events was now causing her mind to leap, with surprising
-agility, from topic to topic.... Yet what was striking John more than
-her talk, and with a more arresting realization, was, that although
-the hour of his Mass-going was imminent, she was not reminding him or
-urging him to remembrance of the good custom.... At last he was driven
-by some scruple to remind her of the time, and it was her answer that
-finally amazed him:
-
-"Ah, sure you mightn't go to-day, John. You're tired and all to that, I
-know, and I want to tell you.... He! he! he! Now wasn't it the funniest
-thing to see the schoolmistress of Ballinamult and the schoolmistress
-of Tullahanogue and they up upon the one stage with Harry Holton's
-dramatics making sport for a lot of grinning idiots? Like a couple of
-circus girls they were, the brazen things! Indeed Miss Kerr is the
-bold-looking hussy, with not a bit of shame in her at all. But sure
-we may say she fell among her equals, for there wasn't much class
-connected with it anyhow."
-
-"I think Ulick Shannon was knocking about the stage."
-
-The words strayed, without much sense of meaning or direction, out of
-the current of his musing, but they produced a swift and certain effect
-upon Mrs. Brennan. Her eyes seemed to cloud suddenly behind her glasses.
-
-"Aye ... I wonder who was the girl he went off with through the wood as
-we came out. Never fear it was the new schoolmistress."
-
-She said this with a curious, dead quietness in her tones, and when she
-had spoken she seemed instantly sorry that the words had slipped from
-her lips.... It seemed a queer thing to say to her son and he going on
-to be a priest.
-
-John thought it very strange that she too should have observed this
-incident, which he had imagined must have been hidden from all eyes
-save his own. He now wondered how many more must have seen it as he
-tried to recall the sensations with which it had filled him.... But
-beyond this remarkable endeavor of his mind his mother was again
-speaking:
-
-"If you went now, you'd be in time for half-past eight Mass."
-
-He did not fail to notice the immediate change which had taken place in
-her, and wondered momentarily what could have been its sudden cause.
-He was beginning to notice of late that she had grown more and more
-subject to such unaccountable fits.
-
-In his desire to obey her he was still strong, but, this morning, as he
-walked along to Garradrimna he was possessed by a certain feeling of
-annoyance which seemed to strain the bond that stretched between them.
-
-In the chapel he knelt beside Charlie Clarke, like the voteens around
-them, with a lifeless acquiescence in the ceremony. He was here not
-because his heart was here, but merely because his mother had wished
-it. When his lips moved, in mechanical mimicry of the priest, he felt
-that the way of the hypocrite must be hard and lonely.
-
-When he came out, upon the road he was confused to find himself face
-to face with Rebecca Kerr. It seemed a trick of coincidence that he
-should meet her now, for it had never happened on any other morning.
-Then he suddenly remembered how his mother had kept him late from
-"eight o'clock" by her talk of the concert, and it was now Miss Kerr's
-school-going time.... She smiled and spoke to him.
-
-She looked handsome as she moved there along the road from the house
-of Sergeant McGoldrick to the Girls' School of Tullahanogue. She was
-in harmony with the beauty of the morning. There had been a dull pain
-upon his mind since he had last seen her, but already it was gone.
-
-Although the concert might appear as the immediate subject to which
-their minds would turn, this was not so. They began to talk of places
-and things away from Garradrimna.
-
-She spun for his amusement many little yarns of the nuns who conducted
-the college where she had been trained. He told her stories of the
-priests who taught in the English college where he was being educated
-for the priesthood. They enlarged upon the peculiarities of monastic
-establishments.
-
-"And you're going to be a priest?" she said, looking up into his face
-suddenly with dancing eyes.
-
-Such a question had never before been put to him in exactly this way.
-
-"I am.... At least, I think so.... Oh, yes!" he faltered.
-
-She laughed in a ringing, musical way that seemed to hold just the
-faintest trace of mockery in its tones, but it seemed, next instant,
-to be only by way of preface to another conventual tale which she
-proceeded to tell.
-
-Through the period of this story they did not notice that they were
-being stared at by those they were meeting upon the road.... As she
-chatted and laughed, his eyes would be straying, in spite of him, to
-that soft place upon her neck from which her hair sprang upward.
-
-It was with painful abruptness that she said: "Good morning, Mr.
-Brennan!" and went into the old, barrack-like school.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV
-
-
-When John regained the house he saw that his father's boots had
-disappeared from their accustomed place beside the fire. No doubt he
-had gone away in them to Garradrimna. He had not met him on the road,
-but there was a short way across the fields and through the woods, a
-backward approach to three of the seven publichouses along which Ned
-Brennan, some rusty plumber's tool in his hand and his head downcast,
-might be seen passing on any day.
-
-He did not go straight into the sewing-room, for the door was closed
-and he could hear the low murmur of talk within. It must be some
-customer come to his mother, he thought, or else some one who had
-called in off the road to talk about the concert. Immediately he
-realized that he was wrong in both surmises, for it was the voice
-of Marse Prendergast raised in one of its renowned outbursts of
-supplication.
-
-"Now I suppose it's what you think that you're the quare, clever woman,
-Nan Byrne, with your refusing me continually of me little needs; but
-you'd never know what I'd be telling on you some day, and mebbe to your
-grand son John."
-
-"Sssh--sssh--sure I'll get it for you when he goes from the kitchen."
-
-This last was in a low tone and spoken by his mother.
-
-"Mebbe it's what you're ashamed to let him see you giving to me.
-That's a grand thing now, and I knowing what I know!"
-
-"Can't you be easy now and maybe 'tis a whole shilling I'll be giving
-you in a few minutes."
-
-This was altogether too generous of his mother. It gave scope to Marse
-Prendergast to exercise her tyranny. Her threat was part of the begging
-convention she had framed for herself, and so it did not move him
-towards speculation or suspicion. His mind drifted on to the enjoyment
-of other thoughts, the girl he had just walked with down the valley,
-the remembered freshness of the morning road. He came out to the door.
-The little kitchen garden stretched away from his feet. An abandoned
-spade stood up lonely and erect in the middle of the cabbage-plot.
-Around it were a few square feet of freshly-turned earth. It was the
-solitary trace of his existence that his father had left behind.... As
-the mind of John Brennan came to dwell upon the lonely spectacle of the
-spade the need for physical exertion grew upon him.
-
-He went out into the little garden and lifted the rude implement of
-cultivation in his hand. He had not driven it many times into the soft
-clay of the cabbage-bed when a touch of peace seemed to fall upon him.
-The heavy burden that had occupied his mind was falling into the little
-trench that was being made by the spade.
-
-He had become so interested in his task that he had not heard his
-mother go upstairs nor seen Marse Prendergast emerge from the house
-some moments later.
-
-The old shuiler called out to him in her high, shrill voice:
-
-"That's right, John! That's right! 'Tis glad myself is to see you doing
-something useful at last. Digging the cabbage-plot, me sweet gosoon,
-and your father in Garradrimna be this time with his pint in his hand!"
-
-Mrs. Brennan had followed her to the door, and her cruelty was stirred
-to give the sore cut by reviving the old dread.
-
-"That's the lad! That's the lad! But mind you don't dig too far, for
-you could never tell what you'd find. And indeed it would be the quare
-find you might say!"
-
-He laughed as she said this, for he remembered that, as a child she
-had entertained him with the strangest stories of leprecauns and their
-crocks of gold, which were hidden in every field. The old woman passed
-out on the road, and his mother came over to him with a pitiful look of
-sadness in her eyes.
-
-"Now, John, I'm surprised at you to have a spade in your hand before
-Marse Prendergast and all. That's your father's work and not yours, and
-you with your grand education."
-
-The speech struck him as being rather painful to hear, and he felt as
-if he should like to say: "Well, what is good enough for my father
-ought to be good enough for me!" But this, to his mother, might have
-looked like a back-answer, a piece of impertinence, so he merely
-stammered in confusion: "Oh, sure I was only exercising and amusing
-myself. When this little bit is finished I'm going down to have a read
-by the lake."
-
-"That's right, John!" she said in a flat, sad voice, and turned back to
-her endless labor.
-
-He stopped, his hands folded on the handle-end of the spade, and fell
-into a condition of dulness which even the slightest labor of the body
-brings to those unaccustomed to it. All things grew so still of a
-sudden. There seemed to come a perfect lull in the throbbing, nervous
-realization of his brain from moment to moment.... He felt himself
-listening for the hum of his mother's machine, but it was another
-sound that came to him--the desolating sound of her lonely sobbing.
-She was crying to herself there now in the sewing-room and mourning
-forever as if for some lost thing.... There were her regular sobs,
-heavy with an eternal sadness as he listened to them. Into such acute
-self-consciousness had his mood now moved that he could not imagine
-her crying as being connected with anything beyond himself. He was
-the perpetual cause of all her pain.... If only she would allow him,
-for short spaces, to go out of her mind they might both come into the
-enjoyment of a certain freedom, but sometimes the most trivial incident
-seemed to put her out so. This morning she had been in such heart and
-humor, and last night so interested in the concert, and here now she
-was in tears. It could not have been the visit of Marse Prendergast
-or her talk, for there was nobody so foolish, he thought, as to take
-any notice of either. It must have been the digging and the fact that
-people passing the road might see him. Now was not that foolish of her,
-for did not Father O'Keeffe himself dig in his own garden with his own
-two blessed hands ...? But he must bend in obedience to her desire, and
-go walking like a leisured gentleman through the valley. He was looking
-forward to this with dread, for, inevitably, it must throw him back
-upon his own thoughts.
-
-As he came down past the school he could hear a dull drone from among
-the trees. The school had not yet settled down to the business of the
-day, and the scholars were busy with the preparation of their lessons.
-John stopped by the low wall, which separated its poor playground from
-the road, to gaze across at the hive of intellect. Curious that his
-mother should now possess a high contempt for this rude academy where
-he had been introduced to learning. But he had not yet parted company
-with his boyhood. He was remembering the companions of his schooldays
-and how this morning preparation had been such a torture. Still moving
-about the yard before his formal entrance to the school, was Master
-Donnellan. As John Brennan saw him now he appeared as one misunderstood
-by the people of the valley, and yet as one in whom the lamp of the
-intellect was set bright and high. But beyond this immediate thought
-of him he appeared as a man with overthrown ambitions and shattered
-dreams, whose occasional outbursts of temper for these reasons had
-often the effect of putting him at enmity with the parents of the
-children.
-
-Master Donnellan was a very slave of the ferrule. He had spent his
-brains in vain attempts to impart some knowledge to successive
-generations of dunces of the fields. It had been his ambition to be
-the means of producing some great man whose achievements in the world
-might be his monument of pride. But no pupil of his in the valley
-school had ever arisen as a great man. Many a time, in the long summer
-evenings, when the day would find it hard to disappear from Ireland,
-he would come quietly to the old school with a step of reverence,
-and going into the moldy closet, where all the old roll-books and
-register-books were kept, take them down one by one and go searching
-through the lists of names. His mind would be filled with the ringing
-achievements of men who had become notable in the world.... Not a
-trace of any of those famous names could he find here, however far he
-might search in all the musty books until the day had faded.... Then
-he would rely upon his memory in a further aspect of his search. He
-had not even produced a local great man. In his time no priests had
-come out of the valley. There was a strange thing now--no priests, and
-it was a thing that was always said by angry mothers and fathers when
-they called at the valley school to attack him for his conduct towards
-their children--"And you never to have made a priest or a ha'porth!"
-It was not the unreasonableness of their words that annoyed him, but
-rather the sense of impotence with which they filled him.... If only it
-would happen that he could say he had produced one famous man. A priest
-would be sufficiently fine to justify him in the eyes of the valley. It
-was so strange that, although he had seen many young men move towards
-high attainment, some fatality had always happened to avert his poor
-triumph. He thought of young Brennan as his present hope and pride.
-
-John went on towards the lake. When he came to the water's edge he
-was filled with a sense of peace. He sat down beneath one of the fir
-trees and, in the idleness of his mood, began to pick up some of the
-old dried fir-cones which were fallen beneath. They appeared to him
-as things peculiarly bereft of any sap or life. He gathered until he
-had a handful and then cast them from him one by one on the surface of
-the water. It seemed a surprising thing that the small eddies which
-the light splashes of them made rolled distantly to the shores of the
-little lake. He began to wonder would his life come to be like that--a
-small thing to be flung by the Hand of Fate and creating its little
-ripple to eddy to the far shores of Time.
-
-"Me sound man, John!"
-
-It was the voice of Shamesy Golliher coming from behind a screen of
-reeds where he had been fishing.
-
-"'Tis a warm day," he said, pushing back his faded straw hat from his
-brow, "Glory be to the Son of God!"
-
-This was a pious exclamation, but the manner of its intonation seemed
-to make it comical for John Brennan laughed and Shamesy Golliher
-laughed.
-
-"Now isn't them the clever, infernal little gets of fishes? The divil
-a one can I catch only the size of pinkeens, and I wanting to go to
-Garradrimna with a hell of a thirst!"
-
-"And is that all you have troubling you?" said John.
-
-"Is that all? Begad if it isn't enough after last night. If the priests
-knew all the drink that bees drunk at concerts in aid of Temperance
-Halls you wouldn't see a building of that kind in the country.
-
-"Now down with me last night to the concert with me two lovely
-half-pints of malt. Well, to make a long story short, I finished one
-of them before I went in. I wasn't long inside, and I think it was
-while Harry Holton was singing, when who should give me a nudge only
-Hubert Manning: 'Are ye coming out, Shamesy?' says he. He had two
-bottles of stout and a naggin, and we had them finished before Harry
-Holton had done his first song. I was striving for to crush back into
-me place when who should I knock against only Farrell McGuinness?
-He had a lot of bottles in his pocket. He seemed to have about four
-dozen of stout on his person, according to the noise he made: 'For the
-honor of Jases,' says he, 'will you not spill me porter?' But then
-when he saw it was me he had in it: 'Come to hell oura this,' says he,
-'into the night air.' I was so glad to see that he hadn't broken his
-bottles, I introduced th'other half pint. Sure he nearly swallowed
-it, bottle and all. Then we fell to at the porter, and such a bloody
-piece of drinking never was seen. And it wasn't that we had plenty of
-drink of our own, but strange people were coming running through the
-wood putting half-pints and naggins into our mouths just as if we were
-little sucking childer. I fell a corpse under a tree about eleven. I
-don't know how long I was insensible, but when I came to I had a quare
-feeling that I was in Hell or some place. I wasn't able to move an
-inch, I was that stiff and sick.... Somewhere near me I could hear two
-whispering and hugging in the darkness. They were as close as ever they
-could be. I couldn't stir to get a better look for fear they'd hear me.
-But there was quare goings on I can tell you, things I wouldn't like to
-mention or describe. Whisper, I'm near sure it was Ulick Shannon and
-the schoolmistress, Miss Kerr, or whatever the hell her name is----."
-
-Shamesy's sickening realism was brought to an abrupt end by the ducking
-of his cork, which had been floating upon the surface of the water.
-There was a short moment of joyous excitement and then a dying perch
-lay on the grass by the side of John Brennan.
-
-He viewed with sorrow that clean, shining thing wriggling there beneath
-the high heavens. Its end had come through the same pitiful certainty
-as that of the rabbits which had aforetime contributed to the thirst of
-Shamesy, who presently said with delight:
-
-"Now I have the correct number. I can sell them for sixpence in 'The
-World's End,' and you'd never know the amount of good drink that
-sixpence might bring."
-
-He prepared to take his departure, but ere he went across the hill he
-turned to John and said:
-
-"That was the fine walk you were doing with Ulick Shannon's girl this
-morning! She was in great form after last night."
-
-He said it with such a leer of suggestion as cast John, still blushing,
-back into his gloom.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI
-
-
-Last night and this morning, what Shamesy Golliher had told him of
-last night and said of the walk with Rebecca this morning--all this
-was now recurring clearly to his mind, although Shamesy had long since
-disappeared across the sweep of the hill on his way to Garradrimna.
-
-Mrs. Brennan had so recently reminded her son of his coming exaltation
-that the suggestion was now compelling him beyond the battle of his
-thought to picture himself as a priest ordained. Yet an immense gulf of
-difference still separated him from the condition of Father O'Keeffe,
-for instance. His thought had been further helped to move this way by
-the sudden appearance of Father O'Keeffe riding along The Road of the
-Dead.
-
-John did not see the man as he really was. Yet it was the full reality
-of him that was exercising a subconscious influence upon his mind and
-helping, with other things, to turn his heart away from the priesthood.
-
-
-Father O'Keeffe came directly from that class so important in
-Ireland--the division of the farmer class which has come to be known as
-"The Grabbers." The word "grabber" had not been invented to describe a
-new class, but rather to denote the remarkable character of a class
-already in existence. That was their innermost nature, these farmers,
-to be close-fisted and to guard with an almost savage tenacity those
-possessions to which they had already attained. It was notable also
-that they were not too careful or particular as to the means they
-employed to come into possession. This was the full answer to the
-question why so many of them put a son on for the Church. It was a
-double reason, to afford a means of acquiring still further and to be
-as an atonement in the sight of Heaven for the means they had used in
-acquiring thus far. This at once appeared amazingly true if one applied
-it to the case of Father O'Keeffe, who could on occasion put on such a
-look of remoteness from this world, that it was difficult to set about
-analyzing him by any earthly standard. Yet, among all the _pedigrees_
-she had read for him, as a notable example in Mrs. Brennan's crowd
-of examples, had continually appeared and re-appeared this family of
-O'Keeffe. His mother had always endeavored to fix firmly in his mind
-the wonder of their uprise. It was through the gates of the Church
-that the O'Keeffes had gone to their enjoyment. No doubt they had
-denied themselves to educate this Louis O'Keeffe who had become P.P. of
-Garradrimna, but their return had been more than satisfying. There was
-now no relation of his to the most distant degree of blood who did not
-possess great comfort and security in the land.
-
-At bottom Father O'Keeffe was still a man of the clay and loved the
-rich grass and the fine cattle it produced. He had cattle in every
-quarter of the parish. Men bought them and saw to their fattening
-and sold them for him, even going so far as adding the money to
-his account in the bank. He had most discreetly used a seeming
-unworldliness to screen his advance upon the ramparts of Mammon. Citing
-the examples of Scripture, he consorted with notable, though suddenly
-converted, sinners, and, when some critic from among the common people
-was moved to speak his mind as one of the converted sinners performed
-a particularly unscrupulous stroke of business, he was immediately
-silenced by the unassailable spectacle of his parish priest walking
-hand in hand with the man whose actions he was daring to question. The
-combination was of mutual benefit; the gombeen man, the auctioneer and
-the publican were enabled to proceed with their swindle of the poor by
-maintaining his boon companionship.
-
-Thus, while publicly preaching the admonishing text of the camel and
-the rich man and the needle's eye, Father O'Keeffe was privately
-engaged in putting himself in such a condition that the task of
-negotiating the needle's eye might be as difficult to him as the camel.
-He went daily for a walk, reading his office, and returned anxiously
-scanning stock exchange quotations and letters from cattle salesmen in
-Dublin. But in spite of this he was a sportsman, and thought nothing of
-risking a ten-pound note upon a horse or a night's card-play.
-
-When he first came to the parish his inclinations were quickly
-determined. In the whirl of other interests cards had fallen into
-disuse in Garradrimna. They had come to be considered old-fashioned,
-but now suddenly they became "all the rage." Old card-tables were
-rediscovered and renewed, and it was said that Tommy Williams was
-compelled to order several gross of playing cars--for, what the
-"elite" of the parish did, the "commonality" must needs follow and do.
-Thus was a public advantage of doubtful benefit created; for laboring
-men were known to lose their week's wages to the distress of their
-wives and children.... At the "gorgeous card-plays" never an eyelid was
-lifted when Father O'Keeffe "renayged."
-
-These took place in the houses of shopkeepers and strong farmers, and
-were cultivated to a point of excessive brilliance. Ancient antagonists
-of the tongue met upon this new field, and strategic attempts were made
-to snatch Father O'Keeffe as a prize of battle. Thus was an extravagant
-sense of his value at once created and, as in all such cases, the worst
-qualities of the man came to be developed. His natural snobbishness,
-for one thing, which led him to associate a great deal with the gilded
-youth of Garradrimna--officials of the Union and people of that kind
-who had got their positions through every effort of bribery and
-corruption. At athletic sports or coursing matches you would see him
-among a group of them, while they smoked stinking "Egyptian" cigarettes
-up into his face.
-
-Yet it must not be thought that Father O'Keeffe neglected the ladies.
-In evenings in the village he might be seen standing outside the worn
-drapery counters back-biting between grins and giggles with the women
-of the shops. This curious way of spending the time had once led an
-irreverent American to describe him as "the flirtatious shop-boy of
-Garradrimna."
-
-His interest in the female sex often led him upon expeditions beyond
-the village. Many a time he might be seen riding his old, fat, white
-horse, so strangely named, "King Billy," down some rutted boreen on
-the way to a farmer's house where there were big daughters with weighty
-fortunes. Those were match-making expeditions when he had come to tell
-them of his brother Robert O'Keeffe and his broad acres.... While "King
-Billy" was comforting himself with a plentiful feed of oats, he would
-be sitting in the musty parlor with the girl and her mother, taking
-wine and smoking cigars, which were kept in every house since it had
-come to be known that Father O'Keeffe was fond of them. He generally
-smoked a good few at a sitting, and those he did not consume he carried
-away in his pocket for future use in his den at the Presbytery.
-
-"Isn't Father O'Keeffe, God bless him, the walking terror for cigars?"
-was all the comment ever made upon this extraordinary habit.
-
-Robert O'Keeffe, in the intentions of his brother, was a much-married
-man, for there was not a house in the parish holding a marriageable
-girl into which Father O'Keeffe had not gone to get him a match. He had
-enlarged upon the excellence of his brother, upon his manners and ways
-and the breadth of his fields.
-
-"He's the grand, fine man, is Robert," he would say, by way of giving a
-final touch to the picture.
-
-Upon those whose social standing was not a thing of any great certitude
-this had always a marked effect towards their own advantage and that
-of Father O'Keeffe. It gave them a certain pride in their own worth to
-have a priest calling attentively at the house and offering his brother
-in marriage. It would be a gorgeous thing to be married to a priest's
-brother, and have your brother-in-law with power in his hands to help
-you out of many a difficulty. He never inquired after the cattle their
-fathers were grazing free of charge for him until he would be leaving
-the house.
-
-
-John Brennan followed the black figure upon the white horse down all
-The Road of the Dead until Father O'Keeffe had disappeared among the
-trees which surrounded the Schools of Tullahanogue, where he was making
-a call.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII
-
-
-John now saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him across the Hill of Annus.
-It was strange that he should be appearing now whose presence had just
-been created by the Rabelaisian recital of Shamesy Golliher. As he
-came along boldly his eyes roamed cheerfully over the blue expanse of
-water and seemed to catch something there which moved him to joyous
-whistling. John Brennan felt a certain amount of reserve spring up
-between them as they shook hands.... For a moment that seemed to
-lengthen out interminably the two young men were silent. The lake was
-without a ripple in the intense calm of the summer day.... Suddenly it
-reflected the movement of them walking away, arm in arm, towards the
-village.
-
-It was high noontide when they reached Garradrimna. The Angelus was
-ringing. Men had turned them from their various occupations to bend
-down for a space in prayer. The drunkards had put away the pints from
-their mouths in reverence. The seven sleek publicans were coming to
-their doors with their hats in their hands, beating their breasts in
-a frenzy of zeal and genuflecting. Yet, upon the appearance of the
-students, a different excitement leaped up to animate them. They began
-to hurry their prayers, the words becoming jumbled pell mell in their
-mouths as they cleared a way for their tongues to say to one another
-the thing they wanted to say of the two young men.
-
-By their God, there was John Brennan and Ulick Shannon coming into
-Garradrimna in the middle of the day. To drink, they at once supposed.
-Their tongues had been finding fine exercise upon Ulick Shannon for
-a considerable time, but it was certainly a comfort to have the same
-to say of John Brennan. A clerical student coming up the street with
-a Dublin scamp. That was a grand how-d'ye-do! But sure they supposed,
-by their God again, that it was only what she deserved (they were
-referring to Mrs. Brennan).
-
-Her mention at once brought recollection of her story, and it came to
-be discussed there in the heat of the day until the lonely woman, who
-was still crying probably as she sat working by her machine in the
-little house in the valley, became as a corpse while the vultures of
-Garradrimna circled round it flapping great wings in glee.
-
-The students strode on, reciting the Angelus beneath their breaths with
-a devotion that did not presently give place to any worldly anxiety.
-They were doing many things now, as if they formed a new personality
-in which the will and the inclination of each were merged. They turned
-into McDermott's, and it seemed their collective intention from the
-direction they took upon entering the shop to take refuge in the
-retirement of the particular portion known as Connellan's office. It
-was the place where Mick Connellan, the local auctioneer, transacted
-business on Fridays. On all other days it was considered the more
-select and secluded portion of this publichouse. But when they entered
-it was occupied. Padna Padna, the ancient drunkard, was sitting by the
-empty grate poking the few drawn corks in it as if they were coals. He
-was speaking to himself in mournful jeremiads, and after the fashion of
-one upon whom a great sorrow has fallen down.
-
-"Now what the hell does he want with his mission, and it too good we
-are? A mission, indeed, for to make us pay him money every night, and
-the cosht of everything, drink and everything. He, he, he! To pay the
-price of a drink every night to hear the missioners denounce drink. Now
-that's the quarest thing ever any one heard. To go pay the price of
-a drink for hearing a man that doesn't even know the taste of it say
-that drink is not good for the human soul. Begad Father O'Keeffe is the
-funny man!"
-
-After this fashion did Padna Padna run on in soliloquy. He had seen
-many a mission come to bring, in the words of the good missioners, "a
-superabundance of grace to the parish," and seen it go without bringing
-any appreciable addition of grace to him or any change in his way of
-life. It seemed a pity that his tradition had set Padna Padna down as
-a Christian, and would not allow him to live his life upon Pagan lines
-and in peace. The struggle which continually held occupation of his
-mind was one between Christian principles and Pagan inclinations. He
-now began whispering to himself--"The Book of God! The Book of God! A
-fellow's name bees written in the Book of God!" ... So absorbed was he
-in his immense meditation that he had hardly noticed the entry of the
-students. But as he became aware of their presence he stumbled to his
-feet and gripping John Brennan by the arm whispered tensely: "Isn't
-that a fact, young fellow, that one's name bees down there always, and
-what one does, and that it's never blotted out?"
-
-"It is thus we are told," said John, speaking dogmatically and as if he
-were repeating a line out of the Bible.
-
-Padna Padna, as he heard these words and recognized the voice of
-their speaker, put on what was really his most gruesome expression.
-He stripped his shrunken gums in a ghastly little smile, and a queer
-"Tee-Hee!" issued from his furrowed throat.... Momentarily his concern
-for Eternity was forgotten in a more immediate urgency of this world.
-He gripped John still more tightly and in a higher whisper said: "Are
-ye able to stand?"
-
-It was a strange anti-climax and at once betrayed his sudden descent
-in the character of his meditation, from thinking of what the Angel
-had written of him to his immortal longing for what had determined the
-character of that record regarding immortality.
-
-"Yes, I'll stand," said Ulick, breaking in upon John Brennan's reply to
-Padna Padna and pushing the bell.
-
-Mr. McDermott himself, half drunk and smelling of bad whiskey, came in
-and soon the drinks were before them. New life seemed to come pushing
-into the ancient man as he took his "half one." He looked up in blind
-thankfulness into their faces, his eyes running water and his mouth
-dribbling like that of a young child.... His inclinations were again
-becoming rapidly Pagan.... From smiling dumbly he began to screech with
-laughter, and moved from the room slowly tapping his way with his short
-stick.... He was going forth to fresh adventures. Spurred on by this
-slight addition of drink he would be encouraged to enter the other six
-publichouses of Garradrimna, and no man could tell upon what luck he
-might happen to fall. So fortunate might his half-dozen expeditions
-prove that he would probably return to the house of the good woman who
-was his guardian, led by Shamesy Golliher, or some other one he would
-strike up with in the last dark pub, as if he were a toddling infant
-babbling foolish nonsense about all the gay delights which had been his
-of old. The mad drives from distant villages upon his outside car, his
-passengers in the same condition as himself--a state of the wildest
-abandon, and dwelling exultingly in that moment wherein they might make
-fitting models for a picture by Jack B. Yeats.
-
-Ulick and John were now alone. The day outside was hot and still upon
-the dusty street, but this office of Connellan's was a cool place like
-some old cellar full of forgotten summers half asleep in wine.... They
-were entering still deeper into the mood of one another.... Ulick had
-closed the door when Padna Padna had passed through, tapping blindly
-as he moved towards the far places of the village. He would seem to
-have gone for no other purpose than to publish broadcast the presence
-of Ulick Shannon and John Brennan together in McDermott's, and they
-drinking. For now the door of Connellan's office was being opened and
-closed every few minutes. People were calling upon the pretense of
-looking for other people, and going away leaving the door open wide
-behind them so that some others might come also and see for themselves
-the wonderful thing that was happening.... Padna Padna was having such
-a time as compared favorably with the high times of old. A "half-one"
-of malt from every man he brought to see the sight was by no means
-a small reward. And so he was coming and going past the door like a
-sentry on guard of some great treasure which increased in value from
-moment to moment. He was blowing upon his fingers and tapping his lips
-and giggling and screeching with merriment down in his shivering frame.
-
-And most wonderful of all, the two young men who were creating all
-this excitement were quite unconscious of it.... They were talking a
-great deal, but each, as it were, from behind the barricade of his
-personality, for each was now beginning for the first time to notice
-a peculiar thing. They were discovering that their personalities were
-complementary. John lacked the gift, which was Ulick's, of stating
-things brilliantly out of life and experience and the views of those
-modern authors whom he admired. On the other hand, he seemed to possess
-a deeper sense of the relative realities of certain things, a faculty
-which sprang out of his ecclesiastical training and which held no
-meaning for Ulick, who spoke mockingly of such things. Ulick skimmed
-lightly over the surface of life in discussing it; John was inclined to
-plow deeply.
-
-Suddenly a desire fell upon John to hear Ulick discuss again those
-matters he had talked of at the "North Leinster Arms" in Ballinamult.
-It was very curious that this should be the nature of his thoughts
-now, this inclination towards things which from him should always
-have remained far distant and unknown.... But it may have been that
-some subtle impulse had stirred in him, and that he now wished to
-see whether the outlook of Ulick had changed in any way through his
-rumored friendship with Rebecca Kerr. Would it be a cleaner thing and
-purified through power of that girl? He fondly fancied that no thought
-at all could be soiled within the splendid precinct of her presence.
-
-Josie Guinan, the new barmaid of McDermott's, came in to attend them
-with other and other drinks. Her bosom was attractive and ample,
-although her hair was still down upon her back in rich brown plaits....
-She dallied languorously within the presence of the two young men....
-Ulick began to tell some of the stories he had told to Mary Essie, and
-she stood even as brazenly enjoying them with her back to the door
-closed behind her. Then the two came together and whispered something,
-and a vulgar giggle sprang up between them.
-
-And to think that this was the man to whom Rebecca Kerr might be giving
-the love of her heart.... If John had seen as much of life as the other
-he would have known that Ulick was the very kind of man who, at all
-times, has most strongly appealed to women. Yet it was in this moment
-and in this place that he fell in love with Rebecca.... He became
-possessed of an infinite willingness to serve and protect her, and it
-was upon the strength of his desire that he arose.
-
-Through all this secret, noble passage, Ulick remained laughing as at
-some great joke. He, too, was coming into possession of a new joy, for
-he was beginning to glimpse the conflagration of another's soul. Out
-of sheer devilment, and in conspiracy with Josie Guinan, he had caused
-John Brennan's drink, the small, mild measure of port wine, to be dosed
-with flaming whiskey. Even the wine in the frequency of its repetition
-had already been getting the better of him. They had been hours
-sitting here, and outside the day was fading.
-
-John began to stutter now in the impotence of degradation which was
-upon him. His thoughts were all burning into one blazing thought. The
-small room seemed suddenly to cramp and confine his spirit as if it
-were a prison cell.... And Ulick was still smiling that queer smile of
-his with his thick red lips and sunken eyes.
-
-He sprang towards the door and, turning the handle, rushed out into the
-air.... Soon he was fleeing as if from some Unknown Force, staggering
-between the rows of the elms which stretched all along the road into
-the valley. It had rained a shower and the strong, young leaves held
-each its burden of pearly drops. A light wind now stirred them and like
-an aspergillus they flung a blessing down upon him as he passed. And
-ever did he mutter her name to himself as he stumbled on:
-
-"Rebecca Kerr, Rebecca Kerr, I love you, Rebecca, I love you surely!
-Oh, my dear Rebecca!"
-
-She was moving before him, with her hair all shining through the
-twilight.
-
-"Oh, dear Rebecca! I love you! Oh, my dear!"
-
-He turned The Road of the Dead and down by the lake, where he lay
-in the quiet spot from which Ulick Shannon had taken him away to
-Garradrimna. There he remained until far on in the evening, when his
-mother, concerned for his welfare, came to look for him. She found him
-sleeping by the lake.
-
-She had no notion of how he had passed the evening. Her imagination
-was, after all, only a very small thing and worked rigorously within
-the romantic confines of the holy stories which were her continual
-reading. When she had awakened him she asked a characteristic question:
-
-"And I suppose, John, you're after seeing visions and things have
-appeared to you?"
-
-"Yes, mother, I have seen a vision, I think," he said, as he opened
-his eyes and blinked stupidly at the lake. He was still midway between
-two conditions, but he was not noticeable to her, who could not have
-imagined the like.
-
-These were the only words he spoke to her before he went to bed.
-
-Back in McDermott's a great crowd thronged the public bar. Every man
-seemed to be in high glee and a hum of jubilation hung low between
-them. A momentous thing had happened, and it was of this great event
-they were talking. _John Brennan had left the house and he was
-reeling._ Men from the valley foregathered in one group and, as each
-new-comer arrived, the news was re-broken. It was about the best thing
-that had ever happened. The sudden enrichment of any of their number
-could not have been half so welcome in its importance.
-
-Padna Padna and Shamesy Golliher were standing in one corner taking sup
-for sup.
-
-"Damn it, but it was one of the greatest days ever I seen in
-Garradrimna since the ould times. It was a pity you missed of it," said
-Padna Padna. "If you were to see him!"
-
-"Sure I'm after seeing him, don't I tell ye, lying a corpse be the
-lake."
-
-"A corpse be the lake. He, he, he! Boys-a-day! Boys-a-day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII
-
-
-Mrs. Brennan, although she pondered it deeply, had made no advance
-towards full realization of her son's condition by the lakeside. Yet
-John felt strangely diffident about appearing before her next morning.
-It seemed to him that another attack had been made upon the bond
-between them. But when at last he came into the sewing-room she was
-smiling, although there was a sinking feeling around his heart as he
-looked upon her. Yet this would pass, he hoped, when they began to talk.
-
-The children were going the road to school, and it was the nature
-of Mrs. Brennan that she must needs be making comment upon what was
-passing before her eyes.
-
-"God help the poor, little girls," she cried, "sure 'tis the grand
-example they're being set by that new one, Miss Kerr, with her quare
-dresses and her light ways. They say she was out half the night after
-the concert with Ulick Shannon, and that Mrs. McGoldrick and the
-Sergeant are in terror of their lives for fear of robbers or the likes,
-seeing that they have to leave the door on the latch for her to come in
-at any time she pleases from her night-walking. And the lad she bees
-with that's after knocking about Dublin and couldn't be good anyway.
-But sure, be the same token, there's a touch of Dublin about her too.
-How well she wouldn't give me the making of her new dress? But I
-suppose I'm old-fashioned in my cut. Old-fashioned, how are ye; and I
-buying _Weldon's Ladies' Journal_ every week? But of course she had to
-go to Dublin to be in the tip of the fashion and see what they wear in
-Grafton Street in the lamplight. She had to get an outfit of immodest
-fol-the-dols to be a disgrace in the chapel every Sunday, and give
-room to the missioners when they come to say things that may have an
-injurious effect upon poor dressmakers like myself who strive to earn a
-living as decently as we can."
-
-This harangue was almost unnoticed by John Brennan. It was a failing
-of his mother to be always speaking thus in terms of her trade. He
-knew that if Miss Kerr had come here with her new dress, fine words
-and encomiums would now be spoken of her in this room. But it was his
-mother who was speaking--and he was thinking of the girl who had filled
-his vision.
-
-And his mother was still talking:
-
-"That Ulick Shannon, I hate him. I wish you wouldn't let yourself be
-seen along with him. It is not good for you, _avic machree_. Of course
-I know the kind of talk you do be having, son. About books and classes
-and the tricks and pranks of you at college. Ah, dear, I know; but I'd
-rather to God it was any other one in the whole world. I'm fearing in
-me heart that there's a black, black side to him. It's well known that
-he bees always drinking in Garradrimna, and now see how he's after
-striking up with the schoolmistress one. Maybe 'tis what he'd try to
-change you sometime, for as sure as you're there I'm afraid and afraid.
-And to think after all I have prayed for you through all the years,
-upon me two bare knees in the lonely nights, if an affliction should
-come."
-
-"What affliction, mother? What is it?"
-
-He came nearer, and gazing deep into her face saw that there were tears
-in her eyes. Her eyes were shining like deep wells.
-
-"Ah, this, son. If it should ever come that you did not think well to
-do me wish, after all I have done--"
-
-She checked herself of a sudden, and it was some moments before John
-replied. He, too, was thinking of Ulick Shannon. There was a side to
-his friend that he did not like. Yesterday he had not liked him. There
-were moments when he had hated him. But that mood and the reason for
-it seemed to have passed from him during the night. It was a far thing
-now, and Ulick Shannon was as he had been to John, who could not think
-ill of him. Yet it was curious that his mother should be hinting at
-things which, if he allowed his mind to dwell upon them at all, must
-bring back his feelings of yesterday.... But he felt that he must speak
-well of his friend.
-
-"Ah, sure there is nothing, mother. You are only fancying queer things.
-At college I have to meet hundreds of fellows. He's not a bad chap, and
-I like speaking to him. It is lonely here without such intercourse. He
-realizes keenly how people are always talking of him, how the smallest
-action of his is construed and constructed in a hundred different ways,
-until he's driven to do wild things out of very defiance to show what
-he thinks of the mean people of the valley and their opinion of him--"
-
-"They're not much, I know--"
-
-"But at heart, I think, he's somehow like myself, and I can't help
-liking him."
-
-"All the same he shouldn't be going with a girl and, especially, a
-little chit of a schoolmistress like this one, for I can't stand her."
-
-Why did she continue to hammer so upon the pulse of his thought?...
-With bowed head he began to drift out of the room. Why had she driven
-him to think now of Rebecca Kerr?... He was already in the sunlight.
-
-To-day he would not go towards the lake, but up through the high green
-fields of Scarden. He was taking _The Imitation of Christ_ with him,
-and, under the shade of some noble tree, it was his intention to turn
-his thoughts to God and away from the things of life.
-
-It seemed grand to him, with a grandeur that had more than a touch of
-the color of Heaven, to be ascending cool slopes through the green,
-soft grass and to be looking down upon the valley at its daily labor.
-The potatoes and turnips still required attention. He saw men move
-patiently behind their horses over the broken fields of red earth
-beneath the fine, clear clay, and thought that here surely was the true
-vocation of him who would incline himself unto God.... But how untrue
-was this fancy when one came to consider the real personality of these
-tillers of the soil? There was not one of whom Mrs. Brennan could not
-tell an ugly story. Not one who did not consider it his duty to say
-uncharitable things of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca Kerr. Not one who
-would not have danced with gladness if a great misfortune had befallen
-John Brennan, and made a holiday in Garradrimna if anything terrible
-had happened to any one within the circle of their acquaintance.
-
-John Brennan's attention was now attracted by a man who moved with an
-air of proprietorship among a field of sheep. He was a tall man in
-black, moving darkly among the white crowd of the sheep, counting them
-leisurely and allowing his mind to dwell upon the pageant of their
-perfect whiteness. He seemed to be reckoning their value as the pure
-yield of his pastures. Here was another aspect of the fields.... The
-man in black was coming towards him with long strides.
-
-It took John some moments to realize that he had strayed into the
-farm of the Shannons and that this was Myles Shannon who was coming
-over to meet him.... He was a fine, clean man seen here amid the
-rich surroundings of his own fields. But he had advanced far into
-bachelorhood, and the russet was beginning to go out of his cheeks. It
-seemed a pity of the world that he had not married, for just there,
-hidden behind the billowy trees, was the fine house to which he might
-have brought home a wife and reared up a family to love and honor him
-in his days. But his romance had been shattered by a piece of villainy
-which had leaped out from the darkness of the valley. And now he was
-living here alone. But he was serenely independent, exhibiting a
-fine contempt, as well he might, for the mean strugglers around him.
-He took his pleasures here by himself in this quiet house among the
-trees. Had he been asked to name them, he could have told you in three
-words--books and drink. Not that they entered into his life to any
-great extent, for he was a wise man even in his indulgence.... But who
-was there to see him or know since he did not choose to publish himself
-in Garradrimna? And there was many a time when he worked himself into
-a great frenzy while brooding over the story of his dead brother Henry,
-and his own story, and Nan Byrne.... Even now he was thinking darkly of
-Nan Byrne as he came forward to meet her son across his own field.
-
-"Good-day, Mr. Brennan!" he said affably. He had no personal grudge
-against this young man, but his scheme of revenge inevitably included
-him, for it was through John Brennan, her son, that Nan Byrne now hoped
-to aspire, and it was him she hoped to embody as a monument of her
-triumph over destructive circumstances before the people of the valley.
-
-John went forward and shook the hand of Mr. Shannon with deference.
-
-A fine cut of a man, surely, this Myles Shannon, standing here where
-he might be clearly viewed. He appeared as a survival from the latter
-part of the Victorian era. He was still mutton-chopped and mustachioed
-after the fashion of those days. He wore a long-tailed black coat like
-a morning-coat. His waistcoat was of the same material. Across the
-expanse of it extended a wide gold chain, from which dangled a bunch
-of heavy seals. These shook and jingled with his every movement. His
-trousers were of a dark gray material, with stripes, which seemed
-to add to the height and erectness of his figure. His tall, stiff
-collar corrected the thoughtful droop of his head, and about it was
-tastefully fixed a wide black tie of shiny silk which reached down
-underneath his low-cut waistcoat. His person was surmounted by an
-uncomfortable-looking bowler hat with a very hard, curly brim.
-
-When he smiled, as just now, his teeth showed in even, fine rows and
-exhibited some of the cruelty of one who has allowed his mind to dwell
-darkly upon a passionate purpose. But the ring of his laugh was hearty
-enough and had the immediate effect of dispelling suspicions of any
-sinister purpose.
-
-He said he was glad to see how his casual suggestion, made upon the day
-they had journeyed down from Dublin together, had borne fruit, that Mr.
-Brennan and his nephew, Ulick, had so quickly become friends.
-
-John thanked him, and began to speak in terms of praise about Ulick
-Shannon.
-
-Mr. Shannon again bared his even, white teeth in a smile as he
-listened.... A strong friendship, with its consequent community of
-inclinations, had already been established. And he knew his nephew.
-
-"He's a clever chap, I'll admit, but he's so damned erratic. He seems
-bent upon crushing the experience of a lifetime into a few years. Why
-I'm a man, at the ripened, mellow period of life, and it's a fact that
-he could teach me things about Dublin and all that."
-
-John Brennan was uncertain in what way he should confirm this, but at
-last he managed to stammer out:
-
-"Ulick is very clever!"
-
-"He's very fond of Garradrimna, and I think he's very fond of the
-girls."
-
-"It's so dull around here compared with Dublin."
-
-John appeared a fool by the side of this man of the world, who was
-searching him with a look as he spoke again:
-
-"It's all right for a young fellow to gain his experience as early as
-he can, but he's a bit too fond of his pleasure. He's going a bit too
-far."
-
-John put on a strained look of advocacy, but he spoke no word.
-
-"He's not a doctor yet, and even then his living would not be assured;
-and do ye know what he had the cheek to come telling me the other
-night--
-
-"'I've got infernally fond of that little girl,' he says.
-
-"'What girl?' I asked in amazement.
-
-"'Why, that schoolmistress--Rebecca Kerr. I'm "gone" about her. I'm in
-love with her. She's not at all like any of the others.'"
-
-Myles Shannon, with his keen eyes, saw the sudden light of surprise
-that leaped into the eyes of John Brennan. The passion of his hatred
-and the joy of his cruelty were stirred, and he went on to develop the
-plot of the story he had invented.
-
-"And what for," said I to him, "are you thinking of any girl in that
-way. I, as your guardian, am able to tell you that you are not in a
-position to marry. Surely you're not going to ruin this girl, or allow
-her to ruin you. Besides she is only a strolling schoolmistress from
-some unknown part of Donegal, and you are one of the Shannon family.
-'But I'm "gone" about her,' was what Ulick said. How was I to argue
-against such a silly statement?"
-
-The color was mounting ever higher on John Brennan's cheeks.
-
-But the relentless man went on playing with him.
-
-"Of course I have not seen her, but, by all accounts, she's a pretty
-girl and possesses the usual share of allurements. Is not that so?"
-
-"She's very nice."
-
-"And, do you know what? It has come to me up here, although I may seem
-to be a hermit among the fields who takes no interest in the world,
-that you have been seen walking down the valley road together. D'ye
-remember yesterday morning, eh?"
-
-John was blushing still, and a kind of sickly smile made his fine face
-look queer. All kinds of expressions were trying to form themselves
-upon his tongue, yet not one of them could he manage to articulate.
-
-"Not that I blame a young fellow, even one intended for the Church, if
-he should have a few inclinations that way. But I can see that you are
-the good friend of my nephew, and indeed it would be a pity if anything
-came to spoil that friendship, least of all a bit of a girl.... And
-both of you being the promising young men you are.... It would be
-terrible if anything like that should come to pass."
-
-Even to this John could frame no reply. But the ear of Mr. Shannon did
-not desire it, for his eye had seen all that he wished to know. He
-beheld John Brennan shivering as within the cold and dismal shadows of
-fatality.... They spoke little more until they shook hands again, and
-parted amid the dappled grass.
-
-To Myles Shannon the interview had been an extraordinary success....
-Yet, quite suddenly, he found himself beginning to think of the
-position of Rebecca Kerr.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX
-
-
-Outside the poor round of diversions afforded by the valley and her
-meetings with Ulick Shannon, the days passed uneventfully for Rebecca
-Kerr. It was a dreary kind of life, wherein she was concerned to avoid
-as far as possible the fits of depression which sprang out of the
-quality of her lodgings at Sergeant McGoldrick's.
-
-She snatched a hasty breakfast early in the mornings, scarcely ever
-making anything like a meal. When she did it was always followed
-by a feeling of nausea as she went on The Road of the Dead towards
-the valley school. When she returned after her day's hard work her
-dinner would be half cold and unappetizing by the red ashy fire. Mrs.
-McGoldrick would be in the sitting-room, where she made clothes for the
-children, the sergeant himself probably digging in the garden before
-the door, his tunic open, his face sweating, and the dirty clay upon
-his big boots.... He was always certain to shout out some idiotic
-salutation as she passed in. Then Mrs. McGoldrick would be sure to
-follow her into the kitchen, a baby upon her left arm and a piece of
-soiled sewing in her right hand. She was always concerned greatly about
-the number at school on any particular day, and how Mrs. Wyse was and
-Miss McKeon, and how the average was keeping up, and if it did not keep
-up to a certain number would Mrs. Wyse's salary be reduced, and what
-was the average required for Miss McKeon to get her salary from the
-Board, and so on.
-
-Sometimes Rebecca would be so sick at heart of school affairs and of
-this mean, prying woman that no word would come from her, and Mrs.
-McGoldrick would drift huffily away, her face a perfect study in
-disappointment. And against those there were times when Rebecca, with
-a touch of good humor, would tell the most fantastical stories of
-inspectors and rules and averages and increments and pensions, Mrs.
-McGoldrick breathless between her "Well, wells!" of amazement.... Then
-Rebecca would have a rare laugh to herself as she pictured her landlady
-repeating everything to the sergeant, who would make mental comparisons
-the while of the curious correspondence existing between those pillars
-of law and learning, the Royal Irish Constabulary, and the National
-Teachers of Ireland.
-
-Next day, perhaps, Mrs. McGoldrick would enlarge upon the excellent and
-suitable match a policeman and a teacher make, and how it is such a
-general thing throughout the country. She always concluded a discourse
-of this nature by saying a thing she evidently wished Rebecca to
-remember:
-
-"Let me tell you this, now--a policeman is the very best match that any
-girl can make!"
-
-And big louts of young constables would be jumping off high bicycles
-and calling in the evenings.... This was at the instigation of Mrs.
-McGoldrick, but they made no impression whatsoever upon Rebecca, even
-when they arrived in mufti.
-
-In school the ugly, discolored walls which had been so badly
-distempered by Ned Brennan; the monotony of the maps and desks; the
-constant sameness of the children's faces. All this was infinitely
-wearying, but a more subtle and powerful torment arose beyond the hum
-of the children learning by heart. Rebecca always became aware of it
-through a burning feeling at the back of her neck. Glancing around
-she would see that, although presumably intent upon their lessons,
-many eyes were upon her, peering furtively from behind their books,
-observing her, forming opinions of her, and concocting stories to tell
-their parents when they went home. For this was considered an essential
-part of their training--the proper satisfaction of their elders'
-curiosity. It was one of the reasons why the bigger girls were sent to
-school. They escaped the drudgery of house and farm because they were
-able to return with fresh stories from the school every evening. Thus
-were their faculties for lying and invention brought into play. They
-feared Mrs. Wyse, and so these faculties came to be trained in full
-strength upon Rebecca. As she moved about the school-room, she was made
-the constant object of their scrutiny. They would stare at her with
-their mean, impudent eyes above the top edges of their books. Then they
-would withdraw them behind the opened pages and sneer and concoct. And
-it was thus the forenoon would pass until the half-hour allowed for
-recreation, when she would be thrown back upon the company of Mrs. Wyse
-and Monica McKeon. No great pleasure was in store for her here, for
-their conversation was always sure to turn upon the small affairs of
-the valley.
-
-There was something so ingenuous about the relations of Rebecca and
-Ulick Shannon that neither of the two women had the courage to comment
-upon the matter openly. But the method they substituted was a greater
-torture. In the course of half an hour they would suggest a thousand
-hateful things.
-
-"I heard Ulick Shannon was drunk last night, and having arguments with
-people in Garradrimna," Miss McKeon would say.
-
-Mrs. Wyse would snatch up the words hastily. "Is that so? Oh, he's
-going to the bad. He'll never pass his exams, never!"
-
-"Isn't it funny how his uncle does not keep better control of him. Why
-he lets him do what he likes?"
-
-"Control, is it? It doesn't look much like control indeed to see him
-encouraging his dead brother's son to keep the company he favors.
-Indeed and indeed it gives me a kind of a turn when I see him going
-about with Nan Byrne's son, young John Brennan, who's going on to be
-a priest. Well, I may tell you that it is 'going on' he is, for his
-mother as sure as you're there'll never see him saying his first Mass.
-Now I suppose the poor rector of the college in England where he is
-hasn't a notion of his antecedents. The cheek of it indeed! But what
-else could you expect from the likes of Nan Byrne? Indeed I have a good
-mind to let the ecclesiastical authorities know all, and if nothing
-turns up from the Hand of God to right the matter, sure I'll have to do
-it myself. Bedad then I will!"
-
-"Musha, the same John Brennan doesn't look up to much, and they say
-Ulick Shannon can wind him around his little finger. He'll maybe make a
-_lad_ of him before the end of the summer holidays."
-
-"I can't understand Myles Shannon letting them go about together so
-openly unless he's enjoying the whole thing as a sneer. But it would
-be more to his credit indeed to have found other material for his fun
-than a blood relation. I'm surprised at him indeed, and he knowing what
-he knows about Nan Byrne and his brother Henry."
-
-With slight variations of this theme falling on her ears endlessly
-Rebecca was compelled to endure the torture of this half hour every
-day. No matter what took place in the valley Monica would manage,
-somehow, to drag the name of Ulick into it. If it merely happened to
-be a copy of the _Irish Independent_ they were looking at, and if they
-came upon some extraordinary piece of news, Monica would say:
-
-"Just like a thing that Ulick Shannon would do, isn't it?"
-
-And if they came across a photo in the magazine section, Monica would
-say again:
-
-"Now wouldn't you imagine that gentleman has a look of Ulick Shannon?"
-
-Rebecca had become so accustomed to all this that, overleaping its
-purpose, it ceased to have any considerable effect upon her. She had
-begun to care too much for Ulick to show her affection in even the
-glimpse of an aspect to the two who were trying to discover her for the
-satisfaction of their spite. It was thus that she remained a puzzle to
-her colleagues, and Monica in particular was at her wit's end to know
-what to think. At the end of the half hour she was always in a deeper
-condition of defeat than before it began, and went out to the Boys'
-School with only one idea warming her mind, that, some day, she might
-have the great laugh at Rebecca Kerr. She knew that it is not possible
-for a woman to hide her feelings forever, even though she thought
-this one cute surely, cute beyond all the suggestion of her innocent
-exterior.
-
-Towards the end of each day Rebecca was thrown altogether with the
-little ones who, despite all the entreaties of their parents, had not
-yet come very far away from Heaven. She found great pleasure in their
-company and in their innocent stories. For example:
-
-"Miss Kerr, I was in the wood last night. With the big bear and the
-little bear in the wood. I went into the wood, and there was the big
-bear walking round and round the wood after the little bear, and the
-big bear was walking round and round the wood."
-
-"I was in America last night, and I saw all the motor cars ever were,
-and people riding on horses, and the highest, whitest buildings ever
-were, and people going to Mass--big crowds of people going to Mass."
-
-"My mammy brought me into the chapel last night, and I saw God. I was
-talking to God and He was asking me about you. I said: 'Miss Kerr is
-nice, so she is.' I said this to God, but God did not answer me. I
-asked God again did He know Miss Kerr who teaches in the valley school,
-and He said He did, and I said again: 'Miss Kerr is nice, so she is.'
-But He went away and did not answer me."
-
-Rebecca would enter into their innocence and so experience the happiest
-hours of the day.
-
-She would be recalled from her rapt condition by the harsh voice of
-Mrs. Wyse shouting an order to one of the little girls in her class,
-this being a hint that she herself was not attending to her business.
-
-But soon the last blessed period of the day would come, the half hour
-devoted to religious instruction. She found a pleasure in this task,
-for she loved to hear the little children at their prayers. Sometimes
-she would ask them to say for her the little prayer she had taught them:
-
-"O God, I offer up this prayer for the poor intentions of Thy servant
-Rebecca Kerr, that they may be fulfilled unto the glory of Thy Holy
-Will. And that being imperfect, she may approach to Thy Perfection
-through the Grace and Mercy of Jesus Christ, Our Lord."
-
-She would feel a certain happiness for a short space after this, at
-least while the boisterous business of taking leave of the school was
-going forward. But once upon the road she would be meeting people who
-always stared at her strangely, and passing houses with squinting
-windows.... Then would come a heavy sense of depression, which might be
-momentarily dispelled by the appearance of John Brennan either coming
-or going upon the road. For a while she had considered this happening
-coincidental, but of late it had been borne in upon her that it was
-very curious he should appear daily at the same time.... The silly
-boy, and he with his grand purpose before him.... She would smile upon
-him very pleasantly, and fall into chat sometimes, but only for a few
-minutes. She looked upon herself as being ever so much wiser. And she
-thought it queer that he should find an attraction for his eyes in her
-form as it moved before him down the road. She always fancied that she
-felt low and mean within herself while his eyes were upon her.... But
-he would be forever coming out of his mother's cottage to meet her
-thus upon the road.
-
-After dinner in the house of Sergeant McGoldrick she would betake
-herself to her little room. It would be untidy after the hurry in which
-she had left it, and now she would set about putting it to rights.
-This would occupy her half an hour or more. Then there would be a few
-letters to be written, to her people away in Donegal and to some of
-the companions of her training college days. She kept up a more or
-less regular correspondence with about half-a-dozen of these girls.
-Her letters were all after the frivolous style of their schooldays. To
-all of them she imparted the confidence that she had met "a very nice
-fellow" here in Garradrimna, but that the place was so lonely, and how
-there was "nothing like a girl friend."
-
-"Ah, Anna," she would write, or "Lily" or "Lena," "There's surely
-nothing after all like a girl friend."
-
-After tea she would put on one of her tidiest hats, and taking the
-letters with her go towards the Post Office of Garradrimna. This was a
-torture, for always the eyes of the old, bespectacled maid were upon
-her, looking into her mind, as she stood waiting for her stamps outside
-the ink-stained counter. And, further, she always felt that the doors
-and windows of the village were forever filled with eyes as she went
-by them. Her neck and face would burn until she took the road that led
-out past the old castle of the De Lacys. There was a footpath which
-took one to the west gate of the demesne of the Moores. The Honorable
-Reginald Moore was the modern lord of Garradrimna. It was this way she
-would go, meeting all kinds of stragglers from the other end of the
-parish. People she did not know and who did not know her, queer, dark
-men coming into Garradrimna through the high evening in quest of porter.
-
-"Fine evening, miss!" they would say.
-
-Once on the avenue her little walk became a golden journey for Ulick
-always met her when she came this way. It was their custom to meet here
-or on The Road of the Dead. But this was their favorite spot, where
-the avenue led far into the quiet woods. A scurrying-away of rabbits
-through the undergrowth would announce their approach to one another.
-
-Many were the happy talks they had here, of books and of decent life
-beyond the boorishness of Garradrimna. She had given him _The Poems of
-Tennyson_ in exchange for _The Daffodil Fields_. Tastefully illuminated
-in red ink on the fly-leaf he had found her "favorite lines" from
-Tennyson, whom she considered "exquisite":
-
-
- "Glitter like a storm of fire-flies tangled in a silver braid."
-
-
- "Cursed be the gold that gilds the straightened forehead of
- the fool."
-
-
- "Many an evening by the waters did we watch the stately ships,
- And our spirits rushed together at the touching of the lips."
-
-
-These had made him smile, and then he did not read any more of
-Tennyson.... He was fond of telling her about the younger Irish poets
-and of quoting passages from their poems. Now it would be a line or so
-from Colum or Stephens, again a verse from Seumas O'Sullivan or Joseph
-Campbell. Continually he spoke with enthusiasm of the man they called
-AE.... She found it difficult to believe that such men could be living
-in Ireland at the present time.
-
-"And would you see them about Dublin?"
-
-"Yes, you'd see them often."
-
-"_Real_ poets?"
-
-"Real poets surely. But of course they have earthly interests as well.
-One is a farmer--"
-
-"A farmer!!!"
-
-This she found it hardest of all to believe, for the word "farmer" made
-her see so clearly the sullen men with the dirty beards who came in the
-white roads every evening to drink in Garradrimna. There was no poetry
-in them.
-
-Often they would remain talking after this fashion until night had
-filled up all the open spaces of the woods. They would feel so far
-away from life amid the perfect stillness.... Their peace was rudely
-shattered one night by a sudden breaking away from them through the
-withered branches.... Instantly Ulick knew that this was some loafer
-sent to spy on them from Garradrimna, and Rebecca clung to him for
-protection.
-
-Occasionally through the summer a lonely wailing had been heard in the
-woods of Garradrimna at the fall of night. Men drinking in the pubs
-would turn to one another and say:
-
-"The Lord save us! Is that the _Banshee_ I hear crying for one of the
-Moores? She cries like that always when one of them dies, they being a
-noble family. Maybe the Honorable Reginald is after getting his death
-at last in some whore-house in London."
-
-"Arrah not at all, man, sure that's only Anthony Shaughness and he
-going crying through the woods for drink, the poor fellow!"
-
-But the sound had ceased to disturb them for Anthony Shaughness had
-found an occupation at last. This evening he came running down from
-the woods into McDermott's bar, the loose soles of his boots slapping
-against the cobbles of the yard. Josie Guinan went up to him excitedly
-when he entered.
-
-"Well?" This in a whisper as their heads came close together over the
-counter.
-
-"Gimme a drink? I'm choked with the running, so I am!"
-
-"Tell me did you see them first, or not a sup you'll get. Don't be so
-smart now, Anthony Shaughness!"
-
-"Oh, I saw them all right. Gimme the drink?"
-
-She filled the drink, making it overflow the glass in her hurry.
-
-"Well?"
-
-"Bedad I saw them all right. Heard every word they were saying, so I
-did, and everything! It was the devil's father to find them, so it was,
-they were that well hid in the woods.... Gimme another sup, Josie?"
-
-"Now, Anthony?"
-
-"Ah, but you don't know all I have to tell ye!"
-
-Again she overflowed the glass in her mounting excitement.
-
-"Well?"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX
-
-
-The summer was beginning to wane, August having sped to its end. The
-schools had given vacation, and Rebecca Kerr had gone away from the
-valley to Donegal. Ulick Shannon had returned to Dublin. This was
-the uneventful season in the valley. Mrs. Brennan, finding little to
-talk about, had grown quiet in herself. Ned had taken his departure
-to Ballinamult, where he was engaged in putting some lead upon the
-roof of the police-barracks. He was drinking to his heart's content,
-she knew, and would come home to her without a penny saved against
-his long spell of idleness or the coming rigors of the winter. But
-she was thankful for the present that he had removed himself from the
-presence of his son. It was not good for such a son to be compelled
-to look upon such a father. She had prayed for this blessing and lo!
-it had come. And it extended further. Ulick Shannon too was gone from
-the valley, and so she was no longer annoyed by seeing him in company
-with her son. Their friendship had progressed through the months of
-July and August, and she was aware that they had been seen together
-many times in Garradrimna. She did not know the full truth but, as on
-the first occasion, the lake could tell. Rebecca Kerr was gone, and
-so there was no need to speak of this strange girl for whom some wild
-feeling had enkindled a flame of hatred within her. Thus was she left
-in loneliness and peace to dwell upon the wonder of her son. He seemed
-more real to her during these quiet days, nearer perhaps, than he had
-ever been since she had first begun to dream her great dream.
-
-Of late he had taken to his room upstairs, where he did a little study
-daily. "So that it won't be altogether too strange when I go back again
-to college," he told her on more than one occasion when she besought
-him not to be blinding his eyes while there was yet leisure to rest
-them. There were times during the long quiet day in the house when
-her flood of love for him would so well up within her that she would
-call him down for no other reason than that she might have the great
-pleasure of allowing her eyes to rest upon him for a short space only.
-She would speak no word at all, so fearful would she be of disturbing
-the holy peace which fell between them. In the last week of his
-present stay in the valley this happened so often that it became a
-little wearying to John, who had begun to experience a certain feeling
-of independence in his own mind. It pained him greatly now that his
-mother should love him so.... And there were many times when he longed
-to be back in his English college, with his books and friends, near
-opportunities to escape from the influences which had conspired to
-change him.
-
-One morning, after his mother had gazed upon him in this way, he came
-out of the house and leaned over the little wicket gate to take a look
-at the day. It was approaching Farrell McGuinness's time to be along
-with the post, and John expected him to have a letter from the rector
-of the College giving some directions as to the date of return. Yet he
-was not altogether so anxious to return as he had been towards the
-ends of former vacations.... At last Farrell McGuinness appeared around
-the turn of the road. His blue uniform was dusty, and he carried his
-hard little cap in his hand. He dismounted from his red bicycle and
-took two letters out of his bag. He smirked obviously as he performed
-this action. John glanced in excitement at the letters. One was
-addressed in the handwriting of his friend Ulick Shannon and the other
-in the handwriting of a girl. It was this last one that had caused
-Farrell McGuinness to smirk so loudly.
-
-"'Tis you that has the times, begad!" he said to John as he mounted his
-red bicycle and went on up the road, fanning his hot brow with his hard
-cap.
-
-Mrs. Brennan came to the door to hear tidings of the letters from her
-son, but John was already hurrying down through the withering garden,
-tearing open both letters simultaneously.
-
-"Who are they from?" she called out.
-
-"From Ulick Shannon."
-
-"And th'other one?"
-
-"From a chap in the college," he shouted across his shoulder, lying
-boldly to her for the first time in his life. But if only she could see
-the confusion upon his face?
-
-She went back into the sewing-room, a feeling of annoyance showing in
-the deep lines about her eyes. It seemed strange that he had not rushed
-immediately into the house to tell her what was in the letters, strange
-beyond all how he had not seen his way to make that much of her.
-
-Down the garden John was reading Rebecca Kerr's letter first, for it
-was from her that the letter from "one of the chaps in the college" had
-come.
-
-It told of how she was spending her holidays at a seaside village in
-Donegal. "It is even far quieter than Garradrimna and the valley. I go
-down to the sea in the mornings, but it is only to think and dream. The
-sea is just like one big lake, more lonely by far than the lake in the
-valley. This is surely the loneliest place you could imagine, but there
-is a certain sense of peace about it that is quite lovely. It is some
-distance from my home, and it is nice to be amongst people who have no
-immense concern for your eternal welfare. I like this, and so I have
-avoided making acquaintances here. But next week I am expecting a very
-dear friend to join me, and so, I dare say, my holidays will have a
-happy ending after all. I suppose you will have gone from the valley
-when I go back in October. And it will be the dreary place then...."
-She signed herself, "Yours very sincerely, Rebecca Kerr."
-
-His eyes were dancing as he turned to read Ulick Shannon's letter....
-In the opening passages it treated only in a conventional way of
-college affairs, but suddenly he was upon certain lines which to his
-mind seemed so blackly emphasized:
-
-"Now I was just beginning to settle back into the routine of things
-when who should come along but Miss Kerr? She was looking fine. She
-stayed a few days here in Dublin, and I spent most of them with her.
-I gave her the time of her life, the poor little thing! Theaters
-every night, and all the rest of it. She was just lost for a bit of
-enjoyment. Grinding away, you know, in those cursed National Schools
-from year's end to year's end. Do you know what it is, John? I am
-getting fonder and fonder of that girl. She is the best little soul in
-all the world.
-
-"She is spending her holidays up in some God-forsaken village in
-Donegal. Away from her people and by herself, you know. She has a girl
-friend going to see her next week. You will not be able to believe it
-probably--_but I am the girl friend_."
-
-He read them and re-read them, these two letters which bore so
-intimately upon one another and which, through the coincidence of their
-arrival together, held convincing evidence of the dramatic moment that
-had arrived in the adventure of those two lives.
-
-He became filled by an aching feeling that made him shiver and grow
-weak as if with some unknown expectation.... Yet why was he so
-disturbed in his mind as to this happening; what had he to do with it?
-He was one whose life must be directed away from such things. But the
-vision of Rebecca Kerr would be filling his eyes forever. And why had
-she written to him? Why had she so graphically pictured her condition
-of loneliness wherein he might enter and speak to her? His acquaintance
-with her was very slight, and yet he desired to know her beyond all the
-knowledge and beauty of the world.... And to think that it was Ulick
-Shannon who was now going where he longed to go.
-
-A heavy constraint came between him and his mother during the remaining
-days. He spoke little and moved about in meditation like one fearful
-of things about to happen. But she fondly fancied as always that he
-was immersed in contemplation of the future she had planned for him.
-She never saw him setting forth into the autumn fields, a book in his
-hand, that she did not fancy the look of austere aloofness upon his
-face to be the expression of a priest reading his office. But thoughts
-of this kind were far from his mind in the fields or by the little
-wicket gate across which he often leaned, his eyes fixed upon the
-white, hard road which seemed to lead nowhere.
-
-The day of his release at last came. Now that Ned was away from her,
-working in Ballinamult, she had managed to scrape together the price of
-another motor drive to Kilaconnaghan, but it was in the misfortune of
-things that Charlie Clarke's car should have been engaged for the very
-day of John's departure by the Houlihans of Clonabroney. It worried her
-greatly that she could not have this piece of grandeur upon this second
-occasion. Her intense devotion to religious literature had made her
-superstitious to a distressing degree. It appeared to her as an omen
-across the path of John and her own magnification. But John did not
-seem to mind.
-
-It was notable that through his advance into contemplation he had
-triumphed over the power of the valley to a certain extent. So long
-as his mind had been altogether absorbed in thought of the priesthood
-he had moved about furtively, a fugitive, as it were, before the
-hateful looks of the people of the valley and the constant stare of the
-squinting windows. Now he had come into a little tranquillity and his
-heart was not without some happiness in the enjoyment of his larger
-vision.... And yet he was far from being completely at peace.
-
-As he sat driving with his mother in the ass-trap to Kilaconnaghan,
-on his way back to the grand college in England, his doubts were
-assailing him although he was so quiet, to all seeming, sitting there.
-Those who passed them upon the road never guessed that this pale-faced
-young man in black was at war with his soul.... Few words passed
-between him and his mother, for the constraint of the past week had not
-yet been lifted. She was beginning to feel so lonely, and she was vexed
-with herself that the period of his stay in the valley had not been all
-she had dreamt of making it. It had been disappointing to a depressing
-extent, and now especially in its concluding stage. This sad excursion
-in the little ass-trap, without any of the pomp and circumstance which
-John so highly deserved, was a poor, mean ending.
-
-He was running over in his mind the different causes which had given
-this vacation its unusual character. First there came remembrance of
-his journey down from Dublin with Mr. Myles Shannon, who had then
-suggested the friendship with his nephew Ulick. Springing out of this
-thought was a very vivid impression of Garradrimna, that ugly place
-which he had discovered in its true colors for the first time; its vile
-set of drunkards and the few secret lapses it had occasioned him. Then
-there was his father, that fallen and besotted man whom the valley had
-ruined past all hope. As a more intimate recollection his own doubts
-of the religious life by the lakeside arose clear before him. And the
-lake itself seemed very near, for it had been the silent witness of all
-his moods and conditions, the dead thing that had gathered to itself
-a full record of his sojourn in the valley. But, above all, there was
-Rebecca Kerr, whom he had contrived to meet so often as she went from
-school. It was she who now brought light to all the darkened places of
-his memory. Her letter to him the other day was the one real thing he
-had been given to take away from the valley. How he longed to read it
-again! But his mother's eyes were upon him.... At last he began to have
-a little thought of the part she had played.
-
-Already they had reached the railway station of Kilaconnaghan. They
-went together through the little waiting-room, which held sad memories
-for Mrs. Brennan, and out upon the platform, where a couple of porters
-leaned against their barrows chewing tobacco. Two or three passengers
-were sitting around beside their luggage waiting to take the train for
-Dublin. A few bank clerks from the town were standing in a little group
-which possessed an imaginary distinction, laughing in a genteel way
-at a puerile joke from some of the London weekly journals. They were
-wearing sporting clothes and had fresh fags in their mouths. It was
-an essential portion of their occupation, this perpetual delight in
-watching the outgoing afternoon train.
-
-"Aren't they the grand-looking young swells?" said Mrs. Brennan; "I
-suppose them have the great jobs now?"
-
-"Great!" replied John, quite unconscious of what he said.
-
-He spoke no other word till he took his place in the train. She kissed
-him through the open window and hung affectionately to his hand....
-Then there fluttered in upon them the moment of parting.... Smiling
-wistfully and waving her hand, she watched the train until it had
-rounded a curve. She lingered for a moment by the advertisement for
-Jameson's Whiskey in the waiting-room to wipe her eyes. She began to
-remember how she had behaved here in this very place on the day of
-John's home-coming, and of how he had left her standing while he talked
-to Myles Shannon.... He seemed to have slipped away from her now,
-and her present thought made her feel that the shadow of the Shannon
-family, stretching far across her life, had attended his going as it
-had attended his coming.
-
-She went out to the little waiting ass and, mounting into the trap,
-drove out of Kilaconnaghan into the dark forest of her fears.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI
-
-
-Through the earlier part of this term at college there was no peace
-in the mind of John Brennan, and his unsettled state arose, for the
-most part, from simple remembrance of things that had happened in
-the valley. Now it was because he could see again, some afternoon in
-the summer, Rebecca Kerr coming towards him down the road in a brown
-and white striped dress, that he thought was pretty, and swinging a
-sun-bonnet by its long cotton strings from her soft, small hand. Or
-again, some hour he had spent listening to Ulick Shannon as he talked
-about the things of life which are marked only by the beauty of passion
-and death. Always, too, with the aid of two letters he still treasured,
-his imagination would leap towards the creation of a picture--Rebecca
-and Ulick together in far-off Donegal.
-
-He did not go home at Christmas because it was so expensive to return
-to Ireland, and in the lonely stretches of the vacation, when all his
-college friends were away from him, he felt that they must surely be
-meeting again, meeting and kissing in some quiet, dusky place--Rebecca
-as he had seen her always and Ulick as he had known him.
-
-Even if he had wished to leave Ulick and Rebecca out of his mind, it
-would have been impossible, so persistently did his mother refer to
-both in her letters. There was never a letter which did not contain
-some allusion to "them two" or "that one" or "that fellow." In
-February, when the days began to stretch out again, he thought only of
-the valley coming nearer, with its long period of delight.... Within
-the fascination of his musing he grew forgetful of his lofty future.
-Yet there were odd moments when he remembered that he had moved into
-the valley a very different man at the beginning of last June. The
-valley had changed him, and might continue to change him when he went
-there again.
-
-Nothing came to stay the even rise of his yearning save his mother's
-letters, which were the same recitals at all times of stories about the
-same people. At no time did he expect to find anything new in them, and
-so it was all the stronger blow when from one letter leaped out the
-news that Ulick Shannon had failed to pass his final medical exam., and
-was now living at home in Scarden House with his uncle Myles. That he
-had been "expelled from the University and disgraced" was the way she
-put it. It did not please John to see that she was exulting over what
-had happened to Ulick while hinting at the same time that there was no
-fear of a like calamity happening to her son. To him it appeared as
-not at all such an event as one might exult about. It rather evoked
-pity and condolence in the thought that it might happen to any man. It
-might happen to himself. Here surely was a fearful thing--the sudden
-dread of his return to the valley, a disgrace for life, and his mother
-a ruined woman in the downfall of her son.... This last letter of hers
-had brought him to review all the brave thoughts that had come to him
-by the lakeside, wild thoughts of living his own life, not in the way
-appointed for him by any other person, but freely, after the bent of
-his own will. Yet when he came to think of it quietly there was not
-much he could do in the world with his present education. It seemed
-to have fitted him only for one kind of life. And his thoughts of the
-summer might have been only passing distractions which must disappear
-with the full development of his mind. To think of those ideas ever
-coming suddenly to reality would be a blow too powerful to his mother.
-It would kill her. For, with other knowledge, the summer holidays had
-brought him to see how much she looked forward to his becoming a priest.
-
-Quite unconsciously, without the least effort of his will, he found
-himself returning to his old, keen interest in his studies. He found
-himself coming back to his lost peace of mind. He felt somehow that
-his enjoyment of this grand contentment was the very best way he could
-flash back his mother's love. Besides it was the best earnest he had of
-the enjoyment of his coming holidays.
-
-Then the disaster came. The imminence of it had been troubling the
-rector for a long time. His college was in a state of disintegration,
-for the Great War had cast its shadow over the quiet walls.
-
-It was a charity college. This was a secret that had been well kept
-from the people of the valley by Mrs. Brennan. "A grand college in
-England" was the utmost information she would ever vouchsafe to any
-inquirer. She had formed a friendly alliance with the old, bespectacled
-postmistress and made all her things free of charge for keeping close
-the knowledge of John's exact whereabouts in England. Yet there was
-never a letter from mother to son or from son to mother that the old
-maid did not consider it her bounden duty to open and read.
-
-The college had been supported by good people who could find nothing
-else to do with their money. But, in war-time, charity was diverted
-into other channels, and its income had consequently dwindled almost to
-vanishing point. Coupled with this, many of the students had left aside
-their books and gone into the Army. One morning the rector appeared in
-the lecture-hall to announce to the remnant that the college was about
-to be closed for "some time." He meant indefinitely, but the poor man
-could not put it in that way.
-
-John heard the news with mingled feelings. In a dumb way he had longed
-for this after his return from the valley, but now he saw in it,
-not the arrival of a desired event, but a postponement of the great
-intention that had begun to absorb him again. He was achieving his
-desire in a way that made it a punishment.... To-morrow he would be
-going home.... But of course his mother knew everything by this time
-and was already preparing a welcome for him.
-
-The March evening was gray and cold when he came into the deserted
-station of Kilaconnaghan. It had been raining ceaselessly since
-Christmas, and around and away from him stretched the sodden country.
-He got a porter to take his trunk out to the van and stand it on end
-upon the platform. Then he went into the waiting-room to meet his
-mother. But she was not there. Nor was the little donkey and trap
-outside the station house. Perhaps she was coming to meet him with
-Charlie Clarke in the grand and holy motor car. If he went on he might
-meet them coming through Kilaconnaghan. He got the porter to take his
-box from its place on the platform and put it into the waiting-room.
-All down through the town there was no sign of them, and when he got
-out upon the road to Garradrimna and the valley there was no sign of
-them either. The night had fallen thick and heavy, and John, as he
-went on through the rain, looked forward to the comforting radiance of
-Charlie Clarke's headlights suddenly to flash around every corner. But
-the car did not come and he began to grow weary of tramping through the
-wet night. All along the way he was meeting people who shouldered up
-to him and strove to peer into his face as he slipped past. He did not
-come on to the valley road by way of Garradrimna, but instead by The
-Road of the Dead, down which he went slopping through great pools at
-every few yards.
-
-He was very weary when he came at last to the door of his mother's
-house. Before knocking he had listened for a while to the low hum of
-her reading to his father. Then he heard her moving to open the door,
-and immediately she was silhouetted in the lamp-light.
-
-"Is that you, John? We knew you were coming home. We got the rector's
-letter."
-
-He noticed a queer coldness in her tone.
-
-"I'd rather to God that anything in the world had happened than this.
-What'll they say now? They'll say you were expelled. As sure as God,
-they'll say you were expelled!"
-
-He threw himself into the first chair he saw.
-
-"Did any one meet you down the road? Did many meet you from this to
-Kilaconnaghan?"
-
-He did not answer. This was a curious welcome he was receiving. Yet he
-noticed that tears were beginning to creep into her eyes, which were
-also red as if from much recent weeping.
-
-"Oh, God knows, and God knows again, John, I'd rather have died than it
-should have come to this. And why was it that after all me contriving
-and after all me praying and good works this bitter cross should have
-fallen? I don't know. I can't think for what I am being punished and
-why misfortune should come to you. And what'll they say at all at all?
-Oh you may depend upon it that it's the worst thing they'll say. But
-you mustn't tell them that the college is finished. For I suppose it's
-finished now the way everything is going to be finished before the war.
-But you mustn't say that. You must say that it is on special holidays
-you are, after having passed a Special examination. And you must behave
-as if you were on holidays!"
-
-Such a dreadful anxiety was upon her that she appeared no longer as his
-mother, the infinitely tender woman he had known. She now seemed to
-possess none of the pure contentment her loving tenderness should have
-brought her. She was altogether concerned as to what the people would
-say and not as to the effect of the happening upon her son's career.
-He had begun to think of this for himself, but it was not of it that
-she was now thinking.... She was thinking of herself, of her pride, and
-that was why she had not come to meet him. And now his clothes were wet
-and he was tired, for he had walked from Kilaconnaghan in the rain.
-
-Ned Brennan, stirring out of his drunken doze, muttered thickly: "Ah,
-God blast yourselves and your college, can't you let a fellow have a
-sleep be the fire after his hard day!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII
-
-
-John went from the kitchen to a restless night. Soon after daybreak he
-got up and looked out of the window. The crows had been flying across
-it darkly since the beginning of the light. He gazed down now towards
-the stretch of trees about the lake. They were dark figures in the
-somber picture. He had not seen them since autumn, and even then some
-of the brightness of summer had lingered with them. Now they looked
-as if they had been weeping. He could see the lake between the clumps
-of fir-trees. The water was all dark like the scene in which it was
-framed. It now beat itself into a futile imitation of billows, into
-a kind of make-believe before the wild things around that it was an
-angry sea, holding deep in its caverns the relics of great dooms. But
-the trees seemed to rock in enjoyment and to join forces with the wild
-things in tormenting the lake.
-
-John looked at the clock. It was early hours, and there would be no
-need to go out for a long time. He went back to bed and remained there
-without sleep, gazing up at the ceiling.... He fell to thinking of what
-he would have to face in the valley now.... His mother had hinted at
-the wide scope of it last night when she said that she would rather
-anything in God's world had happened than this thing, this sudden
-home-coming.... She was thinking only of her own pride. It was an
-offense against her pride, he felt, and that was all. It stood to
-lessen the exalted position which the purpose of his existence gave
-her before the other women of the valley. But he had begun to feel the
-importance of his own person in the scheme of circumstance by which he
-was surrounded. It had begun to appear to him that he mattered somehow;
-that in some undreamt-of way he might leave his mark upon the valley
-before he died.
-
-He would go to Mass in Garradrimna this morning. He very well knew how
-this attendance at morning Mass was a comfort to his mother. He was
-about to do this thing to please her now. Yet, how was the matter going
-to affect himself? He would be stared at by the very walls and trees as
-he went the wet road into Garradrimna; and no matter what position he
-might take up in the chapel there would be very certain to be a few who
-would come kneeling together into a little group and, in hushed tones
-within the presence of their God upon the altar, say:
-
-"Now, isn't that John Brennan I see before me, or can I believe my
-eyes? Aye, it must be him. Expelled, I suppose. Begad that's great.
-Expelled! Begad!" If he happened to take the slightest side-glance
-around, he would catch glimpses of eyes sunk low beneath brows which
-published expressions midway between pity and contempt, between delight
-and curiosity.... In some wonderful way the first evidence of his long
-hoped for downfall would spread throughout the small congregation.
-Those in front would let their heads or prayerbooks fall beside or
-behind them, so that they might have an excuse for turning around to
-view the young man who, in his unfortunate presence here, stood for
-this glad piece of intelligence. The acolytes serving Father O'Keeffe,
-and having occasional glimpses of the congregation, would see the
-black-coated figure set there in contradistinction to Charlie Clarke
-and the accustomed voteens with the bobbing bonnets. In their wise
-looks up at him they would seem to communicate the news to the priest.
-
-And although only a very few seconds had elapsed, Father O'Keeffe
-would have thrown off his vestments and be going bounding towards the
-Presbytery for his breakfast as John emerged from the chapel. It would
-be an ostentatious meeting. Although he had neither act nor part in it,
-nor did he favor it in any way, Father O'Keeffe always desired people
-to think that it was he who was "doing for Mrs. Brennan's boy beyond
-in England." ... There would be the usual flow of questions, a deep
-pursing of the lips, and the sudden creation of a wise, concerned,
-ecclesiastical look at every answer. Then there was certain to come
-the final brutal question: "And what are you going to do with yourself
-meanwhile, is it any harm to ask?" As he continued to stare up vacantly
-at the ceiling, John could not frame a possible answer to that
-question. And yet he knew it would be the foremost of Father O'Keeffe's
-questions.
-
-There would be the hurried crowding into every doorway and into all
-the squinting windows as he went past. Outwardly there would be smiles
-of welcome for him, but in the seven publichouses of Garradrimna the
-exultation would be so great as to make men who had been ancient
-enemies stand drinks to one another in the moment of gladness which had
-come upon them with the return of John Brennan.
-
-"'Tis expelled he is like Ulick Shannon. That's as sure as you're
-there!"
-
-"To be sure he's expelled. And wouldn't any one know he was going to
-be expelled the same as the other fellow, the way they were conducting
-themselves last summer, running after gerrls and drinking like hell?"
-
-"And did ye ever hear such nonsense? The idea of him going on for to be
-a priest!" Then there would be a shaking of wise heads and a coming of
-wise looks into their faces.
-
-He could see what would happen when he met the fathers of Garradrimna,
-when he met Padna Padna or Shamesy Golliher. There would be the short,
-dry laugh from Padna Padna, and a pathetic scrambling of the dimming
-intelligence to recognize him.
-
-"And is that you, John? Back again! Well, boys-a-day! And isn't it
-grand that Ulick Shannon is at home these times too? Isn't it a pity
-about Ulick, for he's a decent fellow? Every bit as decent as his
-father, Henry Shannon, was, and he was a damned decent fellow. Ah, 'tis
-a great pity of him to be exshpelled. Aye, _'tis a great pity of any
-one that does be exshpelled_."
-
-The meeting with Shamesy Golliher formed as a clearer picture before
-his mind.
-
-"Arrah me sound man, John, sure I thought you'd be saying the Mass
-before this time. There's nothing strange in the valley at all. Only
-'tis harder than ever to get the rabbits, the weeshy devils! Only for
-Ulick Shannon I don't know what I'd do for a drink sometimes. But,
-damn it, he's the decentest fellow.... You're only a few minutes late,
-sure 'tis only this blessed minute that Miss Kerr's gone on to the
-school.... And you could have been chatting with her so grandly all the
-way!"
-
-That John Brennan should be thinking after this fashion, creating all
-those little scenes before the eye of his mind and imagining their
-accompanying conversations, was indicative of the way the valley and
-the village had forced their reality upon him last summer. But this
-pictured combination of incidents was intensified by a certain morbid
-way of dwelling upon things his long spells of meditation by the lake
-had brought him. Yet he knew that even all his clear vision of the
-mean ways of life around him would not act as an incentive to combat
-them but, most extraordinary to imagine, as a sort of lure towards the
-persecution of their scenes and incidents.
-
-"It must be coming near time to rise for Mass," he said aloud to
-himself, as he felt that he had been quite a long time giving himself
-up to speculations in which there was no joy.
-
-There was a tap upon the door. It was his mother calling him, as had
-been her custom during all the days of his holiday times. The door
-opened and she came into the room. Her manner seemed to have changed
-somewhat from the night before. The curious look of tenderness she had
-always displayed while gazing upon him seemed to have struggled back
-into her eyes. She came and sat by the bedside and, for a few moments,
-both were silent.
-
-"'Tis very cold this morning, mother," was the only thing John could
-think of saying.
-
-A slight confusion seemed to have come upon her since her entrance to
-the room. Without any warning by a word, she suddenly threw her arms
-about him as he lay there on the bed and covered his face with kisses.
-He was amazed, but her kisses seemed to hurt him.... It must have been
-years and years since she had kissed him like this, and now he was a
-man.... When she released him so that he could look up at her he saw
-that she was crying.
-
-"I'm sorry about last night, John," she said. "I'm sorry, darling;
-but surely I could not bring myself to do it. Even for a few hours I
-wanted to keep them from knowing. I even wanted to keep your father
-from knowing. So I did not tell him until I heard your poor, wet foot
-come sopping up to the door. He did not curse much then, for he seems
-to have begun to feel a little respect for you. But the curses of him
-all through the night were enough to lift the roof off the house. Oh,
-he's the terrible man, for all me praying and all me reading to him of
-good, holy books; and 'tis no wonder for all kinds of misfortune to
-fall, though God between us and all harm, what am I saying at all?...
-It was the hard, long walk down the wet, dark road from Kilaconnaghan
-last night, and it pained me every inch of the way. If it hurt your
-feet and your limbs, _avic_, remember that your suffering was nothing
-to the pain that plowed through your mother's heart all the while you
-were coming along to this house.... But God only knows I couldn't. I
-couldn't let them see me setting off into the twilight upon the little
-ass, and I going for me son. I even went so far as to catch the little
-ass and yoke him, and put on the grand clothes I was decked out in when
-I met you last June with the motor. But somehow I hadn't the heart
-for the journey this time, and you coming home before you were due. I
-couldn't let them see me! I couldn't let them see me, so I couldn't!"
-
-"But it is not my fault, mother. I have not brought it about directly
-by any action of mine. It comes from the changed state of everything on
-account of the Great War. You may say it came naturally."
-
-"Ah, sure I know that, dear, I know it well, and don't be troubling
-yourself. In the letter of the rector before the very last one didn't
-he mention the change of resigned application that had at last come to
-you, and that you had grown less susceptible--I think that is the grand
-word he used--aye, less susceptible to distractions and more quiet in
-your mind? And I knew as well as anything that it was coming to pass
-so beautifully, that all the long prayers I had said for you upon me
-two bare, bended knees were after being heard at last, and a great joy
-was just beginning to come surging into me heart when the terrible blow
-of the last letter fell down upon me. But sure I used to be having the
-queerest dreams, and I felt that nothing good was going to happen when
-Ulick Shannon came down here expelled from the University in Dublin.
-You used to be a great deal in his company last summer, and mebbe there
-was some curse put upon the both of you together. May God forgive me,
-but I hate that young fellow like poison. I don't know rightly why
-it is, but it vexes me to see him idling around the way he is after
-what's happened to him. Bragging about being expelled he bees every
-day in McDermott's of Garradrimna. And his uncle Myles is every bit
-as bad, going to keep him at home until the end of next summer. 'To
-give him time to think of things,' he says. 'I'm going to find a use
-for him,' he says to any one that asks him, 'never you fear!' Well,
-begad, 'tis a grand thing not to know what to do with your money like
-the Shannons of Scarden Hill.... But sure I'm talking and talking. 'Tis
-what I came in to tell you now of the plan I have been making up all
-night. If we let them see that we're lying down under this misfortune
-we're bet surely. We must put a brave face upon it. You must make
-a big show-off that you're after getting special holidays for some
-great, successful examination you've passed ahead of any one else in
-the college. I'll let on I'm delighted, and be mad to tell it to every
-customer that comes into the sewing-room. But you must help me; you
-must go about saying hard things of Ulick Shannon that's after being
-expelled, for that's the very best way you can do it. He'll mebbe seek
-your company like last year, but you must let him see for certain that
-you consider yourself a deal above him. But you mustn't be so quiet
-and go moping so much about the lake as you used to. You must go about
-everywhere, talking of yourself and what you're going to be. Now you
-must do all this for my sake--won't you, John?"
-
-His tremulous "yes" was very unenthusiastic and seemed to hold no great
-promise of fulfilment. These were hard things his mother was asking him
-to do, and he would require some time to think them over.... But even
-now he wondered was it in him to do them at all. The attitude towards
-Ulick Shannon which she now proposed would be a curious thing, for they
-had been the best of friends.
-
-"And while you're doing this thing for me, John, I'll be going on with
-me plans for your future. It was me, and me only, that set up this
-beautiful plan of the priesthood as the future I wanted for you. I got
-no one to help me, I can tell you that. Only every one to raise their
-hands against me. And in spite of all that I carried me plan to what
-success the rector spoke of in his last letter. And even though this
-shadow has fallen across it, me son and meself between us are not going
-to let it be the end. For I want to see you a priest, John. I want to
-see you a priest before I die. God knows I want to see that before I
-die. Nan Byrne's son a priest before she dies!"
-
-Her speech mounted to such a pitch of excitement that towards the end
-it trailed away into a long, frenzied scream. It awoke Ned Brennan
-where he dozed fitfully in the next room, and he roared out:
-
-"Ah, what the hell are yous gosthering and croaking about in there at
-this hour of the morning, the two of yous? It'd be serving you a lot
-better to be down getting me breakfast, Nan Byrne!"
-
-She came away very quietly from the bedside of her son and left the
-room. John remained for some time thinking over the things she had been
-saying. Then he rose wearily and went downstairs. It was only now he
-noticed that his mother had dried his clothes. It must have taken her
-a good portion of the night to do this. His boots, which had been so
-wet and muddy after his walk from Kilaconnaghan, were now polished
-to resplendence and standing clean and dry beside the fire. The full
-realization of these small actions brought a fine feeling of tenderness
-into his mind.... He quickly prepared himself to leave the house. She
-observed him with concern as she went about cooking the breakfast for
-her man.
-
-"You're not going to Mass this morning, are ye, John?"
-
-"Oh, no!" he replied with a nervous quickness. "Our chat delayed me. It
-is now past nine."
-
-"Ah, dear, sure I never thought while I was talking. The last time I
-kept you it was the morning after the concert, and even then you were
-in time for 'half-past eight'.... But sure, anyhow, you're too tired
-this morning."
-
-"I'm going for a little walk before breakfast."
-
-The words broke in queerly upon the thought she had just expressed,
-but his reason was nothing more than to avoid his father, who would be
-presently snapping savagely at his breakfast in the kitchen.
-
-The wet road was cheerless and the bare trees and fields were cold and
-lonely. Everything was in contrast to the mood in which he had known it
-last summer. It seemed as if he would never know it in that mood again.
-Now that he had returned it was a poor thing and very small beside the
-pictures his dream had made.... He was wandering down The Road of the
-Dead and there was a girl coming towards him. He knew it was Rebecca
-Kerr, and this meeting did not appear in the least accidental.
-
-She was dressed, as he had not previously seen her, in a heavy brown
-coat, a thick scarf about her throat and a pretty velvet cap which hid
-most of her hair. Her small feet were well shod in strong boots, and
-she came radiantly down the wet road. A look of surprise sprang into
-her eyes when she saw him, and she seemed uncertain of herself as they
-stopped to speak.
-
-"Back again?" she said, not without some inquisitive surprise in her
-tones.
-
-"Yes, another holiday," he said quickly.
-
-"Nothing wrong?" she queried.
-
-"Well, well, no; but the college has closed down for the period of the
-war."
-
-"That is a pity."
-
-He laughed a queer, excited little laugh, in which there did not seem
-to be any mirth or meaning. Then he picked himself up quickly.
-
-"You won't tell anybody?"
-
-"What about?"
-
-"This that I have told you, about the college."
-
-"Oh, dear no!" she replied very quickly, as if amazed and annoyed that
-he should have asked her to respect this little piece of information as
-a confidence. And she had not reckoned on meeting him at all. Besides
-she had not spoken so many words to him since the morning after the
-concert.
-
-She lifted her head high and went on walking between the muddy puddles
-on the way to the valley school.
-
-John felt somewhat crushed by her abruptness, especially after what
-he had told her. And where was the fine resolve with which his mother
-had hoped to infuse him of acting a brave part for her sake before the
-people of the valley?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII
-
-
-Myles Shannon and his nephew Ulick sat at breakfast in the dining-room
-of the big house among the trees. The _Irish Times_ of the previous
-day's date was crackling in the elder man's hand.
-
-"Did you ever think of joining the Army, Ulick? It is most
-extraordinary, the number of ne'er-do-wells who manage to get
-commissions just now. Why I think there should be no bother at all
-if you tried. With your knowledge I fancy you could get into the
-R.A.M.C. It is evidently infernally easy. I suppose your conduct at the
-University would have nothing to do with your chances of acceptance or
-rejection?"
-
-"Oh, not at all."
-
-"I thought not."
-
-"But I fancied, uncle, that when I came down here from Dublin I had
-done with intending myself to kill people. That is, with joining any
-combination for purposes of slaughter."
-
-Myles Shannon lifted his eyes from the paper and smiled. Evidently he
-did not appreciate the full, grim point of the joke, but he rather
-fancied there was something subtle about it, and it was in that quiet
-and venerable tradition of humorous things his training had led him to
-enjoy. This was one of the reasons why, even though a Catholic and a
-moderate Nationalist, he had remained a devoted reader of the _Irish
-Times_. He was conservative even in his humor.
-
-"But in Army medical work, however, there is always the compensating
-chance of the gentleman with the license to kill getting killed
-himself," continued Ulick.
-
-His lips closed now, for he had at last come to the end of his joke.
-The conversation lapsed, and Mr. Shannon went on with his reading.
-Ulick had been to Garradrimna on the previous evening, and he was
-acutely conscious of many defects in his own condition and in the
-condition of the world about him this morning. His thoughts were now
-extending with all the power of which they were capable to his uncle,
-that silent, intent man, whose bald head stretched expansively before
-him.
-
-Myles Shannon was a singularly fine man, and in thinking of him as such
-his mind began to fill with imaginations of the man his father must
-have been. He had never known his father nor, for the matter of that,
-could he boast of any deep acquaintance with his uncle, yet what an
-excellent, restrained type of man he was to be sure! Another in the
-same position as his guardian would have flogged himself into a fury
-over the mess he had made of his studies. But it had not been so with
-his uncle. He had behaved with a calm forbearance. He had supplied him
-with time and money, and had gone even so far as to look kindly upon
-the affair with Rebecca Kerr. He had been here since the beginning of
-the year, and all his uncle had so far said to him by way of asserting
-his authority was spoken very quietly:
-
-"Now, I'll give you a fair time to think over things. I'll give you
-till the end of the summer holidays, till after young Brennan comes and
-goes." These had been his uncle's exact words, and he had not attempted
-to question them or to qualify them at the time. But just now they were
-running through his brain with the most curious throbbing insistence.
-"Till after young Brennan comes and goes." He knew that his uncle had
-taken an unusual fancy to John Brennan and evidently wished that his
-summer holidays should be spent enjoyably. But it was a long time until
-summer, and he was not a person one might conscientiously commend to
-the friendship of a clerical student. He very often went to Garradrimna.
-
-Ulick had already formed some impressions of his fellow man. He
-held it as his opinion that at the root of an action, which may
-appear extraordinary because of its goodness, is always an amount of
-selfishness. Yet, somehow, as he carefully considered his uncle in the
-meditative spaces of the breakfast he could not fit him in with this
-idea.
-
-As he went on with his thought he felt that it was the very excess of
-his uncle's qualities which had had such a curious effect upon his
-relations with Rebecca Kerr. It was the very easiness of the path he
-had afforded to love-making which now made it so difficult. If they had
-been forbidden and if they had been persecuted, their early affection
-must have endured more strongly. The opposition of the valley and the
-village still continued, but Ulick considered their bearing upon him
-now as he had always considered it--with contempt.
-
-There had been a good deal of wild affection transported into their
-snatched meetings during the past summer in Donegal. After Christmas,
-too, he had gone there to see her, and then had happened the climax of
-their love-making in a quiet cottage within sound of the sea.... Both
-had moved away from that glowing moment forever changed. Neither could
-tell of the greatness of the shadow that had fallen between them.
-
-He remembered all her tears on the first evening he had met her after
-coming back to the valley. There had been nothing in her letters, only
-the faintest suggestion of some strained feeling. Then had come this
-unhappy meeting.... She had tortured herself into the belief that it
-was she who was responsible for his failure.
-
-"With all the time you have wasted coming to see me I have destroyed
-you. When you should have been at your studies I was taking you up to
-Donegal."
-
-As he listened to these words between her sobs, there rushed in upon
-him full realization of all her goodness and the contrast of two
-pictures her words had called to his mind.... There was he by her side,
-her head upon his shoulder in that lonely cottage in Donegal, their
-young lives lighting the cold, bare place around them.... And then
-the other picture of himself bent low over his dirty, thumb-greased
-books in that abominable street up and down which a cart was always
-lumbering. All the torture of this driving him to Doyle's pub at the
-corner, and afterwards along some squalid street of ill-fame with a few
-more drunken medical students.
-
-He was glad to be with her again. They met very often during his first
-month at his uncle's house, in dark spots along the valley road and The
-Road of the Dead. Then he began to notice a curious reserve springing
-up between them. She was becoming mysterious while at the same time
-remaining acutely present in his life.
-
-One morning she had asked him if he intended to remain long in the
-valley, and he had not known how to reply to her. Another time she
-had asked him if he was going to retire altogether from the study of
-medicine, and with what did he intend to occupy himself now? And, upon
-a certain occasion, she had almost asked him was it the intention of
-his uncle to leave him the grand farm and the lovely house among the
-trees?
-
-These were vexatious questions and so different from any part of the
-talk they used to have here in the valley last summer or at the cottage
-in Donegal. Her feeling of surrender in his presence had been replaced
-by a sense of possession which seemed the death of all that kindling of
-her heart. Then it had happened that, despite the encouragement of his
-uncle, a shadow had fallen upon his love-affair with Rebecca Kerr....
-He was growing tired of his idle existence in the valley. Very slowly
-he was beginning to see life from a new angle. He was disgusted with
-himself and with the mess he had made of things in Dublin. He could not
-say whether it was her talk with him that had shamed him into thinking
-about it, but he felt again like making something of himself away from
-this mean place. Once or twice he wondered whether it was because he
-wanted to get away from her. Somehow his uncle and himself were the
-only people who seemed directly concerned in the matter. His uncle
-was a very decent man, and he felt that he could not presume on his
-hospitality any longer.
-
-Mr. Shannon took off his spectacles and laid by the _Irish Times_.
-There was an intimate bond between the man and his paper. He always
-considered it as hitting off his own opinions to a nicety upon any
-subject under the sun. This always after he had read the leaders which
-dealt with these subjects. It afforded a contribution to his thought
-and ideas out of which he spoke with a surer word.
-
-Old Susan Hennessy came into the room with some letters that Farrell
-McGuinness was after leaving. She hobbled in, a hunched, decrepit
-woman, now in the concluding stages of her long life as housekeeper to
-the Shannons, and put the letters into her master's hand.... Then she
-lingered, quite unnecessarily, about the breakfast-table. Her toothless
-gums were stripping as words began to struggle into her mouth.... Mr.
-Shannon took notice of her. This was her usual behavior when she had
-anything of uncommon interest to say.
-
-"Well, what is it now?" said Mr. Shannon, not without some weariness in
-his tones, for he expected only to hear some poor piece of local gossip.
-
-"It's how Farrell McGuinness is after telling me, sir, that John
-Brennan is home."
-
-"Is that a fact?"
-
-"And Farrell says that by the looks on the outside of a certain letter
-that came to Mrs. Brennan th'other day it is what he is after being
-expelled."
-
-"Expelled. Well, well!"
-
-There was a mixture of interest and anxiety in Mr. Shannon's tones.
-
-"A good many of those small English colleges are getting broken up
-and the students drifting into the Army, I suppose that's the reason;
-but of course they'll say he's been expelled," Ulick ventured as old
-Susan slipped from the room and down to the loneliness of the kitchen,
-where she might brood to her heart's content over this glad piece of
-information, for she was one who well knew the story of John Brennan's
-mother and "poor Misther Henery Shannon."
-
-"Is that so?" The interest of Mr. Shannon was rapidly mounting towards
-excitement.
-
-"A case like that is rather hard," said Ulick.
-
-"Yes, it will be rather hard on Mrs. Brennan, I fancy, she being so
-stuck-up with pride in him."
-
-He could just barely hide his feelings of exultation.
-
-"And John Brennan is not a bad fellow."
-
-"I daresay he's not."
-
-There was now a curious note of impatience in the elder man's tones as
-if he wished, for some reason or other, to have done speaking of the
-matter.
-
-"It will probably mean the end of his intention for the Church."
-
-"That is more than likely. These sudden changes have the effect of
-throwing a shadow over many a young fellow's vocation."
-
-His eyes twinkled, but he fingered his mustache nervously as he said
-this.
-
-"Funny to think of the two of us getting thrown down together, we being
-such friends!"
-
-The doubtful humor in the coincidence had appealed to the queer kink
-that was in the mind of Ulick, and it was because of it he now spoke.
-It was the merest wantonness that he should have said this thing, and
-yet it seemed instantly to have struck some hidden chord of deeper
-thought in his uncle's mind. When Myles Shannon spoke again it was
-abruptly, and his words seemed to spring out of a sudden impulse:
-
-"You'd better think over that matter of the Army I have just mentioned."
-
-It was the first time his uncle Myles had spoken to him in this way,
-and now that the rod of correction had fallen even thus lightly he did
-not like it at all. He felt that his face was already flushing.... And
-into his mind was burning again the thought of how he had made such a
-mess of things.... He moved towards the door, and there was his uncle's
-voice again raised as if in the reproof of authority:
-
-"And where might you be going to-day?"
-
-"Down the valley to see my friend John Brennan, who'll be surely lonely
-on the first day at home," he said, rather hurriedly, as he went out in
-the hallway to get his overcoat.
-
-When Myles Shannon was left alone he immediately drifted into deeper
-thought there in the empty room with his back to the fire. With one
-hand he clasped his long coat-tails, and with the other nervously
-twirled his long mustache. He was thinking rapidly, and his thoughts
-were so strong within him that he was speaking them aloud.
-
-"I might not have gone so far. Don't you see how I might have waited in
-patience and allowed the hand of Fate to adjust things? See how grandly
-they are coming around.... And now maybe I have gone too far. Maybe I
-have helped to spoil Ulick's life into the bargain. And then there's
-the third party, this girl, Rebecca Kerr?"
-
-He looked straight out before him now, and away over the remains of
-the breakfast.... He crossed to the window and gazed for a while over
-the wet fields. He moved into the cold, empty parlor and gazed from
-its window also over the fields.... Then he turned and for a space
-remained looking steadfastly at the bureau which held so much of
-_Her_. Quite suddenly he crossed over and unlocked it.... Yes, there,
-with the other dead things, were the photograph of Helena Cooper and
-the letters she had written, and the letter John Brennan's mother had
-written about him. He raised his eyes from the few, poor relics and
-they gathered into their depths the loneliness of the parlor.... Here
-was the picture of this girl, who was young and lovely, while around
-him, surging emptily forever, was the loneliness of his house. It was
-Nan Byrne who had driven him to this, and it was Nan Byrne who had
-ruined his brother Henry.... And yet he was weakly questioning his
-just feelings of revenge against this woman, but for whom he might now
-be a happy man. He might have laughter in this house and the sound
-of children at play. But now he had none of these things, and he was
-lonely.... He looked into the over-mantel, and there he was, an empty
-figure, full of a strong family pride that really stood for nothing,
-a polite survival from the mild romance of the early nineties of the
-last century, a useless thing amid his flocks and herds. A man who had
-none of the contentment which comes from the company of a woman or her
-children, a mean creature, who, during visits to the cattle-market,
-occasionally wasted his manhood in dingy adventure about low streets
-in Dublin. One who remained apart from the national thought of his own
-country reading queer articles in the _Irish Times_ about "resolute"
-government of Ireland.
-
-His head lay low upon his chest because he was a man mightily oppressed
-by a great feeling of abasement.
-
-"In the desolation of her heart through the destruction of her son," he
-muttered to himself, not without a certain weariness, as he moved away
-from the mirror.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV
-
-
-Whenever a person from the valley went abroad now to fair or market the
-question was always asked:
-
-"Is it a fact that Ulick Shannon was expelled from the University in
-Dublin and is at home? And is it a fact that John Brennan is at home
-from the college he was at too, the grand college in England whose
-story his mother spread far and wide?"
-
-"That's quite so, ma'am. It's a double fact!"
-
-"Well, well!"
-
-"And is it a fact that they do be always together, going by back ways
-into the seven publichouses of Garradrimna?"
-
-"Oh, indeed, that's true, ma'am, and now you have the whole of it. Sure
-it was in the same seven publichouses that the pair of them laid the
-foundations of their ruination last summer. Sure, do ye know what I'm
-going to tell you? They couldn't be kept out of them, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"
-
-Now it was true that if Ulick had gone at all towards Garradrimna it
-was through very excess of spirits, and it was for the very same reason
-that he had enticed John Brennan to go with him.... That time they were
-full of hope and their minds were held by their thoughts of Rebecca.
-But now, somehow, she seemed to have slipped out of the lives of both
-of them. And because both had chosen. The feeling had entered into
-Ulick's heart. But in the case of John Brennan it was not so certain.
-What had brought him out upon the first morning of his homecoming to
-take a look at her? It would seem that, through the sudden quickening
-of his mind towards study just before the break-up of the college,
-he should have forgotten her.... His life now seemed to hang in the
-balance shudderingly; a breath might direct it anyway.
-
-He felt that he should have liked to make some suggestions of his own
-concerning his future, but there was always that tired look of love in
-his mother's eyes to frustrate his intention.... Often he would go into
-the sewing-room of a morning and she would say so sadly as she bent
-over her machine--"I'm contriving, John; I'm contriving!" He had come
-to the years of manhood and yet he must needs leave every initiative in
-her hands since she would have it so.... Thus was he driven from the
-house at many a time of the day.
-
-He went to morning Mass as usual, but the day was long and dreary after
-that, for the weather was wet and the coldness of winter still lay
-heavy over the fields. The evenings were the dreariest as he sat over
-his books in his room and listened to the hum of his mother's machine.
-Later this would give place to the tumultuous business of his father's
-home-coming from Garradrimna. Sometimes things were broken, and the
-noise would destroy his power of application. Thus it was that, for the
-most part, he avoided the house in the evenings. At the fall of dark he
-would go slipping along the wet road on his way to Garradrimna. Where
-the way from Scarden joined the way from Tullahanogue he generally met
-Ulick Shannon, comfortably top-coated, bound for the same place.
-
-It seemed as if the surrounding power of the talk their presence in the
-valley had created was driving them towards those scenes in which that
-talk had pictured them. Through the dusk people would smirk at them as
-they were seen going the road.... They would slip into McDermott's by
-the same back way that Ned Brennan had often gone to Brannagan's. Many
-a time did they pass the place in the woods where John had beheld the
-adventure of his father and the porter last summer.... In the bottling
-room of McDermott's they would fancy they were unseen, but Shamesy
-Golliher or Padna Padna or Thomas James would be always cropping up
-most unaccountably to tell the tale when they went out into the bar
-again after what would appear the most accidental glance into the
-bottling-room.... John would take port wine and Ulick whatever drink he
-preferred. But even the entertainment of themselves after this fashion
-did not evoke the subtle spell of last summer. There was no laughter,
-no stories, even of a questionable kind, when Josie Guinan came to
-answer their call. Every evening she would ask the question:
-
-"Well, how is Rebecca, Ulick?"
-
-This gross familiarity irritated him greatly, for his decent breeding
-made him desire that she should keep her distance. Besides he did not
-want any one to remind him of Rebecca just now. He never answered this
-question, nor the other by which it was always followed:
-
-"You don't see her very often now, do ye? But of course the woods bees
-wet these times."
-
-The mere mention of Rebecca's name in this filthy place annoyed John
-Brennan, who thought of her continuously as some one far beyond all
-aspects of Garradrimna.
-
-Yet they would be forever coming here to invite this persecution. Ulick
-would ever and again retreat into long silences that were painful for
-his companion. But John found some solace come to him through the
-port wine. So much was this the case that he began to have a certain
-hankering after spending the evening in this way. When the night
-had fallen thick and dark over Garradrimna they would come out of
-McDermott's and spend long hours walking up and down the valley road.
-Ulick would occasionally give vent to outbursts of talk upon impersonal
-subjects--the war and politics, the tragic trend of modern literature.
-John always listened with interest. He never wished to return early to
-the house, for he dreaded the afflicted drone of his mother reading the
-holy books to his father by the kitchen fire.
-
-During those brief spells, when the weather brightened for a day or
-two, he often took walks down by the school and towards the lake....
-Always he felt, through power of an oppressive realization, that
-the eyes of Master Donnellan were upon him as he slipped past the
-school.... So he began to go by a lane which did not take him before
-the disappointed eyes of the old man.
-
-Going this way one day he came upon a battered school-reader of an
-advanced standard, looking so pathetic in its final desertion by its
-owner, for there is nothing so lonely as the things a schoolboy leaves
-behind him.... He began to remember the days when he, too, had gone
-to the valley school and there instituted the great promise which, so
-far, had not come to fulfilment. He was turning over the leaves when
-he came on a selection from Carlyle's _French Revolution_--"Thy foot
-to light on softness, thy eye on splendor." He pondered it as he stood
-by the water's edge and until it connected itself with his thought of
-Rebecca. _Thy foot to light on softness, thy eye on splendor._
-
-It would be nearing three o'clock now, he thought, and Rebecca must
-soon be going from school. He might see her passing along between the
-muddy puddles on The Road of the Dead.
-
-He had fallen down before her again.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV
-
-
-In the high, gusty evening Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, was
-standing proudly at his own door surveying the street of Garradrimna.
-It was his custom to appear thus at the close of the day in
-contemplation of his great possessions. He owned four houses in the
-village, four proud buildings which advertised his worth before the
-beggars of the parish--out of whom he had made the price of them. But
-he was distrustful of his customers to an enormous degree, and his
-purpose in standing thus at his own door was not altogether one of
-aimless speculation upon his own spacious importance in Garradrimna.
-He was watching to see that some people going down the valley road
-upon ass-carts did not attempt to take away any of the miscellaneous
-merchandise exhibited outside the door. As he stood against the
-background of his shop, from which he might be said to have derived his
-personality, one could view the man in his true proportions beneath his
-hard, high hat. His short beard was beginning to show tinges of gray,
-and the deepening look of preoccupation behind his glasses gave him the
-appearance of becoming daily more and more like John Dillon.
-
-Father O'Keeffe came by and said: "Good-evening, Tommy!" This was a
-tribute to his respectability and worth. He was the great man of the
-village, the head and front of everything. Events revolved around him.
-He would have you know that he was somebody, so he was. A politician
-after the fashion in the Ireland of his time, he organized and spoke
-at public meetings. He always wanted to be saying things in support
-of "The Cause." "The Cause" was to him a kind of poetic ideal. His
-patriotic imagination had intensified its glory. But it was not the
-future of Ireland he yearned to see made glorious. He looked forward
-only to the triumph of "The Cause."
-
-Upon the death of his father, also a patriot, the little mean huckstery
-at the tail end of the village street had descended to him; and
-although he had risen to the dignity and proprietorship of four houses,
-this establishment had never changed, for, among the many ancient
-superstitions which crowded his mind, the hoary one of the existence
-of luck where there is muck occupied a place of prominence. And like
-his father he was a rebel--in his mind. The more notable political
-mountebanks of his time were all men who had fought as upon a field
-of battle. Words served them as weapons, and words were the weapons
-that he loved; he might have died if he were not fighting, and to him
-talk meant battle. He used to collect all the supplemental pictures of
-those patriots from _The Weekly Freeman_ and paste them in a scrapbook
-for edification of his eldest son, whom he desired to be some day a
-unit of their combination. An old-fashioned print of Dan O'Connell
-hung side by side with a dauby caricature of Robert Emmet in the old
-porter-smelling parlor off the bar. The names of the two men were
-linked inseparably with one of his famous phrases--"The undying spirit
-of Irish Nationality."
-
-Occasionally, when he had a drunken and enthusiastic crowd in that
-part of his many-sided establishment which was a public bar, he would
-read out in a fine loud voice how "The Cause" was progressing, and,
-having learned by heart a speech of John Dillon's, he would lash it
-out to them as a composition of his own. Whereupon the doubly excited
-audience would shake his hand as one man and shout: "More power there,
-mister; 'tis yourself is the true Irishman, me sweet fellow!" He could
-be very funny too when occasion demanded, and tell stories of Father
-Healy of Bray at pleasant little dinners which took place in the upper
-story of his house after every political meeting held in Garradrimna.
-He never missed the opportunity and the consequent honor of singing "On
-an old Irish Hill in the Morning" at every one of those dinners. He was
-always warmly applauded by Father O'Keeffe, who invariably occupied
-the chair. He was treasurer of the fund, out of which he was paid for
-supplying all this entertainment.
-
-His wife was the daughter of a farmer of the "red-hat" class. He had
-been compelled to marry her.... If this had happened to a poor man
-the talk would have followed him to the grave. But they were afraid
-to talk censoriously of the patriot who had enveloped all of them.
-He practically owned them.... The priest could not deliver an attack
-upon the one who headed his lists of Offerings and Easter Dues and
-the numerous collections which brought in the decent total of Father
-O'Keeffe's income.
-
-To Rebecca Kerr had been given the position of governess to the
-Williams household. She had not sought it, but, on the removal of the
-two boys, Michael Joseph and Paddy, from the care of Master Donnellan
-to this more genteel way of imparting knowledge and giving correction,
-which savored somewhat of the splendor of the Moores of Garradrimna
-and the Houlihans of Clonabroney, had merely accepted it as part of
-the system of the place. She had fully anticipated such possibilities
-upon the very evening of her arrival.... Besides old Master Donnellan
-had thanked her from his heart for the release she had been the means
-of affording him, and she liked the master for a quiet, kind old man
-who did not prate or meddle. So far she had made little improvement in
-either of the boys. But Mrs. Williams was evidently delighted for "our
-governess, Miss Kerr," was the one person she ever spoke a good word of
-to Father O'Keeffe.
-
-This evening Rebecca was in the parlor, seated just beneath the
-pictures of Dan O'Connell and Robert Emmet, wrestling hard with the
-boys. All at once her pupils commanded her to be silent. "Whist!" they
-said in unison. She was momentarily amazed into eavesdropping at their
-behest....
-
-"Oh, not at all, Mrs. Brennan, sure and I couldn't think of the like at
-all at all!"
-
-"Well, Mr. Williams, as a well-known benefactor of the college at
-Ballinamult and a good, religious man to boot, I thought that mebbe you
-could give John a recommendation. It would be grand to see him there
-and he working himself up to the summit of his ambition. There would be
-a great reward to your soul for doing the like of that, Mr. Williams,
-as sure as you're there."
-
-"And now, woman-a-dear, what about my own sons, Michael Joseph and
-Paddy?"
-
-"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them, Mr. Williams!"
-
-"But I could not think of jeopardizing them while I'd be doing for the
-families or the sons of the stranger."
-
-"But sure, sir, I'll pay you at any rate of interest you like if
-only you could see your way to give me this help. Enough to buy a
-bicycle that'll take him over to Ballinamult every day and your grand
-recommendation to the priests that'll be worth gold. I'll pay you every
-penny I can, and sure the poor boy will repay you everything when he
-comes into the position that's due to him."
-
-"Well, I don't know. I don't think the missus--"
-
-At this very moment Mrs. Williams came into the parlor where Rebecca
-sat with them, and beamed upon her sons.
-
-"Oh, my poor boys, sure it is killed you are with the terrible strain
-of the study. Sure it is what you'd better go out into the fields now
-with the pony; but mind, be careful! You poor little fellows!"
-
-Michael Joseph and Paddy at once snatched up their caps and rushed
-for the door. So much for the extent of their training and Rebecca's
-control of them, for this was a daily happening. But another part of
-her hour of torture at the gombeen-man's house had yet to come. Of
-late Mrs. Williams had made of her a kind of _confidante_ in the small
-concerns of her household. She was the sort of woman who must needs be
-always talking to some one of her affairs. Now she enlarged upon the
-immediate story of how Mrs. Brennan had been begging and craving of
-Tommy to do something for her son John, who had been sent home from
-the place he was in England. "The cheek of her, mind you, that Mrs.
-Brennan!" emphasized Mrs. Williams.
-
-If it had been any other schoolmistress or girl of any kind at all
-that Mrs. Williams had ever known, they would have acquiesced in this
-statement of denunciation and said: "That's a sure fact for you,
-ma'am!" or "Just so!" But this had never been Rebecca's way. She merely
-said: "John Brennan is a very nice young fellow!"
-
-Although Mrs. Williams was surprised, she merely said: "Is that so?
-Sure I know very little about him only to see him pass the door. They
-say he's taken the fashion of tippling a bit, and it's to McDermott's
-he does go, d'ye mind, with Ulick Shannon, and not to this house. But,
-of course, it's my bold Ulick that's spending. Easy for him, begad, and
-it not his own."
-
-Rebecca saw the dirty meanness that stirred in this speech.
-
-"That's what they say and it is surely a great pity to see him wasting
-his time about the roads of the valley. I think it would be a grand
-piece of charity on the part of any one who would be the means of
-taking him away from this place. If only he could be afforded some
-little help. 'Tis surely not his fault that the college in England
-broke down, and although his mother is, I believe, contriving the best
-for his future, sure it is hard for her. She is only a poor woman, and
-the people of the valley seem queerly set against her. I don't know
-why. They seem to hate the very sight of her."
-
-"You may say that indeed, and it is the good reasons they have--"
-
-Mrs. Williams suddenly checked herself, for there flashed across her
-mind a chapter of her own story. She had been one of the lucky ones....
-Besides, by slow steps, Rebecca was coming to have some power over her.
-
-
-"Of course it would be no loss to Tommy if he did give this help. He'd
-be bound to get the interest of his money, even if he were to sell her
-out of house and home. He knows his business, and he's not against it
-himself, I may tell you; for he sees a return in many a way. It was
-myself that was keeping him from it on account of the boy's mother.
-But, of course, if you think it would be a nice, good thing to do--"
-
-"It would be a good thing, and a very good thing, and one of the best
-actions you could put for luck before your own sons."
-
-"Oh, indeed, there's no fear of them! Is it Michael Joseph or Paddy?"
-
-"Of course not, indeed, nor did I mean anything of the kind. I only
-said it to soften you, Mrs. Williams."
-
-"Well, I may tell you it's all right, Miss Kerr. Mrs. Brennan is out
-there in the shop, and she's craving from me man.... It'll be all
-right, Miss Kerr, and that's a fact.... I'll make it all right, never
-you fear!"
-
-In this way was John Brennan again led back into the paths of the
-Church. Curious that it should have been given Rebecca to effect the
-change in his condition--Rebecca, whose beauty, snatching at his
-spirit always, had drawn his mind into other ways of contemplation.
-In less than a week, through the powerful ecclesiastical influence of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, he was riding daily to the college at
-Ballinamult. By teaching outside the hours allotted for his own study
-he was earning part of his fees, and, as a further example of his worth
-to the community, Tommy Williams was paying the other portion, although
-as a purely financial speculation.... In a year it was expected he
-would win one of the Diocesan Scholarships and go up to Maynooth.
-Mrs. Brennan knew more joy than had ever before possessed her. Her son
-was to be ordained in Ireland after all, and maybe given a curacy in
-his own diocese. Who knew but he might yet follow in the footsteps of
-Father O'Keeffe and become Parish Priest of Garradrimna while she was
-still alive here in this little house in the valley!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI
-
-
-The meetings of Ulick and Rebecca had become less and less frequent.
-Sometimes she would not see him for days at a stretch, and such periods
-would appear as desert spaces. She would be driven by them into the
-life of the valley, where no echo of comfort ever came to her. Even
-the little children created an irritation with their bright faces
-continually reminding her of all the prayers they had said for her
-intentions.... It was curious that she never asked them to say a prayer
-for her intentions now. And their looks would seem to be beseeching
-her forever. And yet she could not--she could not ask them now....
-Each distinct phase of the day seemed to hold for her its own peculiar
-tortures. These seemed to have reached their climax and very moment of
-ecstasy on the days succeeding upon one another when Monica McKeon came
-in at the recreation hour to take her luncheon in company with Mrs.
-Wyse.
-
-Monica would be certain to say with the most unfailing regularity and,
-in fact, with exactly the same intonation upon all occasions: "I wonder
-when that Ulick Shannon is going away?" To which Mrs. Wyse would reply
-in a tone which would seem to have comprehended all knowledge: "Ah,
-sure, he'll never go far!" Presently Monica would begin to let fall
-from her slyly her usual string of phrases: "Wouldn't you be inclined
-to say, now, that Ulick Shannon is good-looking?" Talking of some
-other one, she would describe him as being "Just like Ulick Shannon,
-don't you know!" And if they happened to be discussing the passage of
-some small event it would invariably circle around the breathless point
-of interest--"And who do you think was there only Ulick Shannon?" Then
-from where she sat supping her tea out of a saucerless cup Mrs. Wyse
-would give out her full opinion of Ulick Shannon.
-
-"He's the quare sort, just like his father. I don't think I've ever
-seen a son to take after his father so closely. And _he_ was what you
-might call a quare character in his day. It was said that a girl as
-well as lost her good name if she was seen talking twice in succession
-to Henry Shannon, he was that bad. Like father, like son is surely the
-case between Henry and Ulick Shannon!"
-
-This seemed at all times the strangest talk for Rebecca to be
-hearing.... It often caused her to shiver even though spring was well
-on its way. And they would never let it out of their minds; they would
-never let it rest. They were always talking at her about Ulick Shannon,
-for they seemed to know.
-
-But no one knew save herself. It was a grand secret. Not even Ulick
-knew. She hugged the dear possession of her knowledge to herself. There
-was the strangest excitement upon her to escape from school in the
-evenings so that she might enjoy her secret in loneliness.
-
-Even this joy had been dissipated by her certainty of meeting
-John Brennan somewhere upon the road in the near vicinity of the
-school.... Now, as she thought of it upon an evening a few days after
-she had spoken to Mrs. Williams in his favor, she fancied that his
-lonely admiration for her must have been growing in strength since
-his return.... There had always been a sense of sudden relief in
-his presence after the torture of the two women, a feeling of high
-emancipation like the rushing in of some clean wind.... Only a few
-words had ever passed between them on those occasions, but now they
-were to her throbbing brain of blessed and sweet memory. And there had
-always been the same look upon his face, making her try to puzzle out
-in what possible way he could look upon her. Could it be in the way
-she had looked upon him, with a full kindliness working into the most
-marvelous ways of sympathy? Yet she missed him ever so much, now that
-he was to be no longer seen upon the road.
-
-It was strange enough, too, as she thought of it, that although the
-reason of Mrs. Williams in taking a fancy to her was no more than the
-selfish one of showing her dislike for Master Donnellan, it should
-have borne good fruit after this fashion. Yet a certain loneliness, a
-certain feeling of empty sadness was to be her reward because she had
-done a good thing.... No one at all now to take her mind away as she
-wandered from torture to torture in the afternoons.... On one of the
-first evenings of the changed condition of things Mrs. McGoldrick,
-noticing in her keen mind that Rebecca was a minute or so earlier than
-usual, said, after the manner of one proud of being able to say it:
-
-"Is it a fact, Miss Kerr, that John Brennan bees going as a kind of a
-charity teacher or something to the college at Ballinamult?"
-
-"Well, if it's a fact, it is a fact," said Rebecca in a tired, dull
-voice and without showing any interest whatsoever. But even this
-attitude did not baulk the sergeant's wife, for she hurried on:
-
-"Ah, God help his innocent wit, but sure he'll never be a priest, he'll
-never be a priest! 'Tis a pity of his mother, but sure she could hardly
-expect it to be so, for she wasn't a good woman, they tell me, and she
-ought to know, you know, that she could hardly expect it to be so!"
-
-Rebecca saw at once that her landlady was in one of her fits of
-garrulousness, so she concluded in consequence that there would not be
-much pleasure in her dinner to-day. She passed it untasted and went
-upstairs wearily. There was a certain grim comfort in thinking that
-she had left Mrs. McGoldrick with her harangue unfinished and a great
-longing upon her to be talking.... She flung herself upon the bed in
-the still untidied room. She was weary with some great, immeasurable
-weariness this blessed evening.... Her corset hurt her, and she sat
-up again to take it off. She caught sight of herself reflected in
-the mirror opposite.... How worn she looked! Her brows, with their
-even curves, did not take from the desolation that had fallen upon
-her forehead, where it was grown harder as beneath the blows of some
-tyrannic thought. And it seemed as if the same thought had plowed all
-the lines which were beginning to appear there now.... It must be that
-she had long since entered into a mood of mourning for the things she
-had lost in the valley.
-
-She fell to remembering the first evening she had come to it, and of
-how she had begun to play with her beauty on that very first evening.
-It had appeared then as the only toy in her possession in this place
-of dreary immensity. And now it seemed to have run through many and
-sudden vicissitudes. She had allowed Ulick Shannon to play with it
-too.... But his language had been so sweet when he had praised her in
-the silent woods.... And in the lonely cottage in Donegal, where he
-had gone to see her after Christmas, there had been abiding joy, while
-outside the night swept wild and dark upon the cold, gray sea.... Here
-there came sudden qualms as to whether she had helped to ruin him by
-taking him away from preparation for his final exam. But there was such
-an urge of dear remembrance upon her that her mind sprang quickly back
-again to all the thoughts they had had between them then.... Back into
-her mind too were thronging the exact words he had used upon that night
-they had spent together in the cottage.
-
-And by the side of all this, was it not queer that he came so seldom to
-see her now although he lived distant from her by only a few fields?
-Even when he came their partings were so abrupt, after a little period
-of strained conversation, when he always went with a slight excuse in
-his mouth to Garradrimna. Yet all the time she longed for his presence
-by her side with an even greater longing than that she had experienced
-in Donegal.... It was also painfully notable how he gave shifty answers
-to her every question. And had she not a good right to be asking him
-questions now?... And surely he must guess by this time.
-
-She threw her head back upon the pillow once more, and once more she
-was weeping. She thought, through the mist of her tears, of how she
-had so bitterly wept upon the first evening of her coming to this
-room. But on that evening also she had prayed, and she could not pray
-now. Nor could she sleep. She remained there upon the bed, inert in
-every sense save for her empty stare up at the discolored ceiling. It
-was broken only by the queer smile she would take to herself ever and
-again.... At last she began to count upon her fingers. She was simply
-counting the number of times she had seen Ulick since his return to his
-uncle's house.
-
-"Oh, dear, dear, and what have I done to him?" she muttered
-incessantly, biting her lips occasionally between her words as if in a
-very ecstasy of desire for the pain he was causing her.... There came
-moments, winged and clean like shining angels, to bring her comfort,
-when she wildly fancied it was the very loveliest thing to endure great
-pain for his sake.
-
-But the powers of her mind for any wild gladness were being gradually
-annihilated by dark thoughts coming down to defeat her thoughts of
-beauty. She turned from contemplation of the ceiling and began to
-glance around the room in search of some distraction. In one corner
-she saw an old novelette thrown aside in its gaudy covers. The reading
-of rubbish was Mrs. McGoldrick's recreation when she was not sewing or
-nursing the baby.
-
-She had called the girls after heroines of passionate love-stories,
-just as her husband, the sergeant, had seen that the boys were called
-after famous men in the world of the police. Thus the girls bore names
-like Euphemia McGoldrick and Clementina McGoldrick, while the boys bore
-names like John Ross McGoldrick and Neville Chamberlain McGoldrick.
-The girls, although they were ugly and ill-mannered, had already been
-invested with the golden lure of Romance, and the boys were already
-policemen although they were still far distant from the age when they
-could put on a belt or a baton.
-
-Rebecca began to snatch at paragraphs here and there through the story,
-which was entitled _The Desecration of the Hearth_. There was one
-passage which seemed to hold an unaccountable fascination as her eyes
-lingered over it:
-
-
- "_Then suddenly, and without a minute's warning, Lord Archibald
- Molyneux dashed the poor, ruined girl from him, and soon she was
- struggling for life in the swirling stream._
-
- "_'Ah-a-ha!' he said once more, hissing out his every word
- between his thin, cruel lips. 'That will may be put an end to
- your scandalous allegations against a scion of the noble house of
- Molyneux.'_
-
- "_'Mercy! Pity! Oh, God! The Child!' she wailed piteously as she
- felt herself being caught in the maelstrom of the current._
-
- "_But Lord Archibald Molyneux merely twirled his dark, handsome
- mustache with his white hands, after the fashion that was peculiar
- to him, and waited until his unfortunate victim had disappeared
- completely beneath the surface of the water._"
-
-
-Rebecca's eyes had closed over the passage, and she was dozing now,
-but only fitfully.... To occupy small instants would come the most
-terrifying dreams in long waves of horror which would seem to take
-great spaces of time for their final passage from her mind. Then there
-would flow in a brief space of respite, but only as a prelude to the
-dread recurrence of her dreams again. And all jumbled together, bits
-of wild reality which were and were not parts of her experience would
-cause her to start up ever and anon.
-
-There fell a knock upon the door, and a little girl came in with some
-tea-things on a tray. She called: "Miss Kerr, your tea!" and when
-Rebecca woke up with a terrible start it appeared as if she had not
-slumbered at all.
-
-"Oh, is that yourself, Euphemia? I declare to goodness the dusk is
-falling outside. I must have been sleeping."
-
-"Yes, miss!"
-
-"You are late in coming this evening?"
-
-"Well, wait till I tell you, miss. I went into the village for some
-things for my mother, and what d'ye think but when I was coming home I
-thought I saw a strange man just outside the ditch opposite the door,
-and I was afraid for to pass, so I was."
-
-"A strange man! Is that a fact?"
-
-"Well, sure then I thought, miss, it might be Ulick Shannon, but I may
-tell you I got the surprise of my life when I found it was only John
-Brennan, and he standing there alone by himself looking up at your
-window."
-
-Long before she had got through it, with many lisps and lapses, Rebecca
-was wearied by the triteness of the little one's statement, so well
-copied was it from the model of her mother's gossipy communication of
-the simplest fact.
-
-But what could John Brennan be doing there so near her again? This was
-the thought that held Rebecca as she went on with an attempt to take
-her tea.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII
-
-
-John Brennan came down the valley. The trees by the roadside were
-being shaken heavily by soft winds. Yet, for all the kindness of May
-that lingered about it, there seemed to be some shadow hanging over
-the evening. No look of peace or pity had struggled into the squinting
-windows.... Would the valley ever again put on the smile it had worn
-last summer? That time it had been so dearly magnified. At leaving it
-there had been such a crush of feeling in his breast.
-
-He seemed to see it more clearly now. There was something that hurt him
-in the thought of how he was preparing for a genteel kind of life while
-his father remained a common sponger around the seven publichouses of
-Garradrimna, asking people to stand him drinks for the love of God like
-Anthony Shaughness. He could not forget that the valley had wrought
-this destruction upon Ned Brennan, and that Ned Brennan was his father.
-
-This thought arose out of a definite cause. At the college in
-Ballinamult he had made the acquaintance of Father George Considine,
-who had already begun to exercise an influence over him. This priest
-was a simple, holy man, who had devoted his life usefully, remaining
-far away from the ways of pride. Although gombeen-men like Tommy
-Williams had some influence with those who controlled the college, they
-had no influence over him. He was in curious contrast to the system
-which tied him to this place. It was impossible to think that his
-ordination had represented a triumph to any one at all, yet he had been
-far ahead of his contemporaries and while yet a young man had been made
-principal of this college in Ballinamult. His name had gone out into
-the world. The satisfaction that had been denied to Master Donnellan
-was his. He had had a hand in the education of men whose names were
-now notable in many a walk of life. And yet, to see him moving about
-the grounds of the college in his faded coat with the frayed sleeves
-and shiny collar, no man would think that his name, the name of "poor
-Father Considine," was spoken with respect in distant places.
-
-But Mrs. Brennan did not approve of him. On the evening of John's first
-day in Ballinamult, after she had made every other possible inquiry she
-said:
-
-"And did you meet Father Considine?"
-
-"I did indeed, mother; a nice man!"
-
-"Ah, a quare ould oddity! Wouldn't you think now that he'd have a
-little pride in himself and dress a bit better, and he such a very
-learned man?"
-
-"Maybe that's just the reason why he's not proud. The saints were not
-proud, mother; then why should he be?"
-
-She always gave a deaf ear to any word of this kind from John, for
-her ideal was Father O'Keeffe, with his patent leather top-boots,
-silver-mounted whip and silk hat, riding to hounds with the Cromwellian
-descendants of the district.... Here was where Father Considine stood
-out in sharp contrast, for he was in spiritual descent from those
-priests who had died with the people in the Penal Days. It was men
-like him who had carried down the grandeur of Faith and Idealism from
-generation to generation. One felt that life was a small thing to him
-beyond the chance it gave to make it beautiful. He had written a little
-book of poems in honor of Mary, the Mother of God, and to feel that it
-had brought some comfort to many a troubled one and to know that he had
-been the means of shaping young men's lives towards useful ends was all
-that this world meant to him.
-
-John Brennan knew very well that if he became a priest it was in the
-steps of Father Considine he would follow rather than in those of
-Father O'Keeffe. This he felt must mean the frustration of half his
-mother's grand desire, but, inevitable, it must be so, for it was the
-way his meditative mind would lead him. Thus was he troubled again.
-
-Father Considine had spoken to him of Father O'Keeffe:
-
-"A touch of the farmer about that man don't you think? But maybe a
-worthy man for all that!"
-
-Then he had looked long into the young man's eyes and said:
-
-"Be humble, my son, be humble, so that great things may be done unto
-you!"
-
-John had pondered these words as he cycled home that evening past the
-rich fields. He began to think how his friend Ulick would have put all
-his thoughts so clearly. How he would have spoken of the rank green
-grass now rising high over County Meath as a growth that had sprung
-from the graves of men's rotted souls; of all the hate and pride that
-had come out of their hunger for the luscious land; of how Faith and
-Love and Beauty had gone forever from this golden vale to the wild
-places of his country, where there was a letting-in of wind and sun
-and sea.... It was easy to connect Father O'Keeffe's pride with the
-land. Remembrance of the man's appearance was sufficient. It was not so
-easy in the case of his mother. But, of course, John had no knowledge
-of how she had set her heart upon Henry Shannon's lovely farm in the
-days gone by.
-
-Hitherto his thoughts of his future condition had been bound up with
-consideration of his mother, but now there had come this realization
-of his father. It was not without its sadness to think that his father
-had been a stranger to him always and that he should now behold him
-stumbling down to old age amid the degradation of Garradrimna. He felt
-curiously desirous of doing something for him. But the heavy constraint
-between them still existed as always. He was unequal to the task of
-plucking up courage to speak to him. This evening, too, as he tried,
-after his accustomed fashion, in a vacant moment to catch a glimpse of
-his own future, he acutely felt the impossibility of seeing himself
-as a monument of pride.... Always there would arise before his mind a
-broken column in the middle of the valley.
-
-And he was lonely. He had not seen Ulick Shannon or Rebecca since he
-had begun to cycle daily to Ballinamult. Often, in some of the vacant
-stretches of thought which came to him as he hurried along, he pictured
-the two of them meeting during some of those long, sweet evenings and
-being kind to one another. Despite sudden flashes of a different regard
-that would come sweeping his thoughts of all kinds, he loved these
-two and was glad that they were fond of one another. It now seemed
-surprising that he had ever thought so deeply of Rebecca Kerr, and
-wished to meet her upon the road and look longingly into her eyes. All
-this while going on to be a priest seemed far from him now that he had
-begun to be influenced by Father Considine.
-
-He had to pass the house of Sergeant McGoldrick by the way he was
-going, and it seemed an action altogether outside him that he had
-gone into an adjacent field and gazed for quite a long time up at
-her window.... He was all confusion when he noticed the child of the
-McGoldricks observing him.... He drifted away, his cheeks hot and a
-little sense of shame dimming his eyes.... He took to the road again
-and at once saw Ulick Shannon coming towards him. The old, insinuating
-smile which had so often been used upon his weak points, was spread
-over the face of his friend.
-
-"And at last you have succeeded in coming to see her thus far?"
-
-The words seemed to fall out of Ulick's oblique smile.
-
-"She?" he said in surprise.
-
-"Oh, I thought it was that you had intentions of becoming my rival!"
-
-John laughed now, for this was the old Ulick come back again. He went
-on laughing as if at a good joke, and the two students went together
-down the road.
-
-"Don't let me delay you!" John said abruptly.
-
-"Oh, you're not preventing me in any way at all."
-
-"But Rebecca?"
-
-"Even the austerities of Ballinamult have not made you forget Rebecca?"
-
-"Hardly--I shouldn't like to think that I had been the cause of keeping
-you from her even for a short while."
-
-There came between them now one of those long spells of silence which
-seemed essential parts of their friendship.
-
-"You're in a queer mood this evening?" John said at last.
-
-"I suppose I am, and that there's no use in trying to hide it....
-D'ye know what it is, Brennan? We two seem to have changed a great
-deal since last summer. _I_ simply can't look at things in the same
-light-hearted way. I suppose I went too far, and that I must be paying
-for it now. But there are just a few things I have done for which I am
-sorry--I'm sorry about this affair with Rebecca Kerr."
-
-John was listening with quiet attention to the remarks which Ulick was
-letting fall from him disjointedly.
-
-"I'm sorry, sorry, sorry that I should ever have come here to meet her,
-for somehow it has brought me to this state of mind and not to any
-happiness at all. I'm doubtful, too, if it has brought any happiness to
-her."
-
-"That's strange," said John, "and I thought you two were very happy in
-your friendship."
-
-"Happiness!" jerked out the other in a full, strong sneer. "That's
-a funny word now, and a funny thing. Do you think that we deserve
-happiness any more than those we see working around us in the valley?
-Not at all! Rather less do we deserve. Just think of them giving their
-blood and sweat so crudely in mortal combat with the fields! And what
-does it avail them in the end? What do they get out of it but the
-satisfaction of a few unkind thoughts and a few low lies? In the mean
-living of their own lives they represent futile expeditions in quest
-of joy. Yet what brings the greatest joy it is possible for them to
-experience? Why, the fact that another's hope of happiness has been
-finally desolated. If any great disaster should suddenly come upon one
-or other of the three of us, upon you or me or Rebecca Kerr, they would
-see more glory in the fulfilment of their spite than in the harvest
-promise of their fields. And yet I here assert that these deserve to
-be happy. They labor in the hard way it was ordained that man should
-labor at Adam's fall, and they attend to their religion. They pray for
-happiness, and this is the happiness that comes to them. Some must be
-defeated and driven down from the hills of their dreams so that the
-other ones, the deserving and the pious, may be given material for
-their reward of joy. That, Brennan, is the only happiness that ever
-descends upon the people of the valley. It may be said that they get
-their reward in this life."
-
-Ulick was in one of those moods of eloquence which always came to him
-after a visit to Garradrimna, and when a very torrent of words might
-be expected to pour forth from him. John Brennan merely lifted his
-eyebrows in mild surprise and said nothing as the other went on:
-
-"Happiness indeed. What have I ever done to deserve happiness? I have
-not worked like a horse, I have not prayed?"
-
-"I was not thinking of any broad generalizations of happiness. I was
-only thinking of happiness in your relation to Rebecca Kerr."
-
-Ulick now gave a sudden turn to the conversation:
-
-"Where were you wandering to the night?" he inquired of John Brennan.
-
-"Oh, nowhere in particular--just down the road."
-
-"Well, it seems strange that you should have come this way, past the
-house of Sergeant McGoldrick."
-
-It appeared as if Ulick had glimpsed the tender spot upon which John
-Brennan's thoughts were working and struck it with the sharp point of
-his words. John did not reply, but it could be seen that his cheeks
-were blushing even in the gloom that had come towards them down the
-road.
-
-"I hope you will be very kind to her, John, when I am gone from here.
-She's very nice, and this is the drear, lonely place for her to be. I
-expect to be going away pretty soon."
-
-It seemed extraordinary that this thing should be happening now.... He
-began to remember how he had longed for Rebecca last summer, and how
-his poor yearning had been reduced to nothing by the favor with which
-she looked upon his friend. And later how he had turned away out of the
-full goodness of his own heart and returned again through power of a
-fateful accident to his early purpose. And now how the good influence
-of Father Considine had just come into his life to lead him finally
-into the way for which he had been intended by his mother from the
-beginning.
-
-He did not yet fully realize that this quiet and casual meeting which
-had been effected because Ulick Shannon had accidentally come around
-this way from Garradrimna represented the little moment which stood for
-the turning-point of his life. But it had certainly moved into being
-along definite lines of dramatic significance.
-
-Presently Ulick mounted a stile which gave upon a path leading up
-through the fields of his uncle Myles and to the lonely house among the
-trees. Then it was true that he was not seeing Rebecca to-night.... A
-great gladness seemed to have rushed in upon John Brennan because he
-had become aware of this thing. And further, Ulick Shannon was going
-away from the valley and Rebecca remaining here to be lonely. But he,
-who had once so dearly longed for her company, would be coming and
-going from the valley daily, and summer was upon them again.... Ulick
-must have bade him a "Good-night!" that he had not heard, for already
-he could see him disappearing into the sea of white mist which would
-seem to have rolled into the valley from the eternity of the silent
-places.... He was left here now upon this lonely, quiet shore while his
-mind had turned into a tumbling sea.
-
-When at last he roused himself and went into the kitchen he saw that
-his mother had already settled herself to the task of reading a
-religious paper to his father.... The elder man was sitting there so
-woebegone by the few wet sods that were the fire. He was not very drunk
-this evening, and the usual wild glint in his eyes was replaced by
-the look of one who is having thoughts of final dissolution.... John
-experienced a little shudder with the thought that he did not possess
-any desire to speak to his father now.
-
-But his mother had broken in with a question:
-
-"Was that Ulick Shannon was with you outside just now?"
-
-"Yes, mother, it was."
-
-"He went home very early, didn't he?"
-
-"I suppose it is rather early for him to go home."
-
-"I think 'tis very seldom he bees with Rebecca Kerr now, whatever's the
-reason, _whatever's the reason_."
-
-It was her repetition and emphasis of the final words which brought
-about the outburst.
-
-Ned Brennan suddenly flamed up and snarled out:
-
-"Look ye here, Nan Byrne, that's no kind of talk to be giving out to
-your grand, fine, educated young fellow of a son, and he be going on to
-be a priest. That's the quare, suggestive kind of talk. But sure 'tis
-very like you, Nan Byrne. 'Tis very like you!"
-
-Mrs. Brennan had just been on the point of beginning to read the
-religious paper, and, with the thought of all her reading surging in
-upon her in one crushing moment, she felt the cutting rebuff most
-keenly and showed her confusion. She made no reply as John went up to
-the room where his books were.... Long after, as he tried to recall
-forgotten, peaceful thoughts, he could hear his father speaking out of
-the heat of anger in the kitchen below.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII
-
-
-After she had failed to take her tea Rebecca walked the valley road
-many times, passing and repassing their usual meeting place. But no
-sign of Ulick did she find. She peered longingly into the sea of white
-fog, but he did not come.... What in the world was happening to him at
-all? Never before had he missed this night of the week.... She did not
-care to return so early, for she feared that Mrs. McGoldrick might come
-with that awful look of scrutiny she detested. Just to pass the time
-she wandered down The Road of the Dead towards the lake. To-night it
-seemed so lonely set there amid the sea of white.
-
-It was strange to think that this place could ever have had a fair look
-about it or given pleasure to any person at all. Yet it was here that
-John Brennan had loved to walk and dream. She wondered how it was with
-him now. She began to think of the liking he had shown for her. Maybe
-he fancied she did not know why he happened to meet her so often upon
-the road. But well did she know--well. And to think that he had come to
-look up at her window this evening.
-
-Yet even now she was fearful of acknowledging these things to herself.
-It appeared as a double sacrilege. It was an attack upon her love for
-Ulick and it questioned the noble intention of Mrs. Brennan in devoting
-her son to God. But all chance that it might ever come to anything
-was now over. The ending had been effected by herself in the parlor of
-Tommy Williams, the gombeen-man, and Mrs. Brennan might never be able
-to guess the hand she had had in it. It was a thing upon which she
-might well pride herself if there grew in her the roots of pride. But
-she was not of that sort. And now she was in no frame of delight at all
-for the thought of him had united her unto the thought of Ulick, and
-Ulick had not come to her this evening.... She felt herself growing
-cold in the enveloping mist. The fir trees were like tall ghosts in
-the surrounding gloom.... But immediately the lake had lost its aspect
-of terror when she remembered what she had done might have averted the
-possibility of having John Brennan ever again to wander lonely.... And
-yes, in spite of any comforting thought, the place would continue to
-fill her with a nameless dread. She was shivering and expectant.
-
-Suddenly a big pike made a splash among the reeds and Rebecca gave a
-loud, wild cry. It rang all down the lonely aisle of the fir-trees and
-united its sound with that of a lone bird crying on the other side of
-the lake. Then it died upon the banks of mist up against the silent
-hills.
-
-For a few moments its source seemed to flutter and bubble within her
-breast, and then it ended in a long, sobbing question to herself--Why
-had she cried out at all? She might have known it was only a fish or
-some such harmless thing. And any one within reasonable distance could
-have heard the cry and thought it was the signal of some terrible thing
-that had happened here by the lakeside. It was not so far distant from
-two roads, and who knew but some one had heard? Yet she could hardly
-fancy herself behaving in this way if she had not possessed an idea
-that it was a lonely place and seldom that any one went by in the
-night-time.
-
-But she hurried away from the feeling of terror she had caused to
-fill the place and back towards the house of Sergeant McGoldrick. As
-quickly as possible she got to bed. Here seemed a little comfort. She
-remembered how this had been her place of refuge as a child, how she
-felt safe from all ghosts and goblins once her head was hidden beneath
-the clothes. And the instinct had survived into womanhood.
-
-Again a series of those fitful, half sleeping and waking conditions
-began to pass over her. Side by side with the most dreadful feelings of
-impending doom came thronging memories of glad phases of life through
-which she had passed.... And to think that this life of hers was now
-narrowing towards this end. Were the valley and its people to behold
-her final disaster? Was it to be that way with her?
-
-She had intended to tell Ulick if he had come to her this evening,
-but he had not come, and what was she to do now? In the slough of
-her torment she could not think of the right thing.... Maybe if she
-wrote an angry letter upbraiding him.... But how could she write an
-angry letter to him? Yet she must let him know, and immediately--when
-the dawn had broken into the room she would write. For there was no
-use in thinking of sleeping. She could not sleep. Yes, when the dawn
-had broken into the room she would write surely. But not an angry
-letter.... Very slowly she began to notice the corners of the room
-appearing in the new light before her wide open eyes. And to feel that
-this was the place she had so fiercely hated from the first moment
-of setting foot in it, and that it was now about to see her write
-the acknowledgment of her shame.... The dawn was a great while in
-breaking.... If he did not--well then, what could her future life hope
-to be? She began to grow strangely dizzy as she fell to thinking of it.
-Dizzy and fearful as she drew near in mind to that very great abyss.
-
-The leaping-up of the day did not fill her with any of its gradual
-delight.... She rose with a weariness numbing her limbs. The putting-on
-of her few clothes was an immense task.... She went to the table upon
-which she had written all those letters to her school-companions which
-described that "there was nothing like a girlfriend." She pulled
-towards her, with a small, trembling hand, the box of _Ancient Irish
-Vellum_, upon which her special letters were always written. Her mind
-had focussed itself to such small compass that this letter seemed more
-important than any that had ever before been written in this world.
-
-But for a long time she could not begin. She did not know by what term
-of endearment to address him now.... They had been so particularly
-intimate.... And then it was so hard to describe her condition to
-him in poor words of writing with pen and ink upon paper. If only
-he had come to her last night it might have been a task of far less
-difficulty. A few sobs, a gathering of her little troubled body unto
-him, and a beseeching look up into his face.... But it was so hard to
-put any single feeling into any separate sentence.
-
-After hours, during which the sun had been mounting high and bright,
-she had the letter finished at last and was reading it over. Some
-sentences like the following leaped out before her eyes here within
-this sickly-looking room--Whatever was the matter with him that he
-could not come to her? Surely he was not so blind, and he with his
-medical knowledge. He must know what was the matter with her, and that
-this was scarcely the time to be leaving her alone. His uncle, Myles
-Shannon, was a very rich man, and did he not remember how often he had
-told her how his uncle looked with favor upon her? Here she included
-the very words in which Ulick had many a time described his uncle's
-opinion of her--"I like that little schoolmistress, Rebecca Kerr!" "It
-was all so grand, Ulick, our love and meetings; but here comes the
-paying of the penalty, and surely you will not leave poor little me
-to pay it in full. You have enjoyed me, have you not, Ulick?" She was
-more immediately personal now, and this was exactly how the sentences
-continued: "You know very well what this will mean to me. I'll have
-to go away from here, and where, I ask you, can I go? Not back to my
-father's house surely, nor to my aunt's little cottage in Donegal....
-I have no money. The poor salary I earn here is barely able to buy me
-a little food and clothing and keep a roof over my head. Did I not
-often tell you that when you were away from me there were times when
-I could hardly afford the price of stamps? If it should happen that
-this thing become public while I am yet here I could never get another
-day's teaching, for Father O'Keeffe would warn every manager in Ireland
-against engaging me. But surely, darling, you will not allow things to
-go so far.... You will please come down to see me at 5.30 this evening.
-You will find me at the old place upon The Road of the Dead. Don't you
-remember that it was there we had our first talk, Ulick?"
-
-Great as the torture of writing it had been, the torture of reading
-it was still greater. Some of the lines seemed to lash out and strike
-her and to fill her eyes with tears, and there were some that seemed
-so hard upon him that she struck them out, not wishing, as ever,
-to hurt her dearest Ulick at all. At one moment she felt a curious
-desire to tear it into pieces and let her fate come to her as it had
-been ordained from the beginning.... But there was little Euphemia
-McGoldrick knocking at the door to be allowed to enter with the
-breakfast. Who would ever imagine that it was so late?
-
-She had written a great deal. Why it filled pages and pages. She
-hurriedly thrust it into a large envelope that she had bought for the
-purpose of sending a card of greeting to John Brennan at Christmas,
-thinking better of it only at the last moment. It was useful now, for
-the many sheets were bulky.
-
-"The breakfast, miss!" announced Euphemia as she left the room.
-
-This was the third meal in twenty-four hours that Rebecca could make
-no attempt to take, but, to avert suspicion, she wrapped up the sliced
-and buttered bread in a few leaves from the novelette from which she
-had read those desperate passages on the previous evening. The tea she
-threw out into the garden. It fell in a shining shower down over the
-bright green vegetables.... She put on her dust-coat and, stuffing the
-letter to Ulick into one pocket and her uneaten breakfast by way of a
-luncheon she would not eat into the other, hurried out of doors and up
-the road, for this morning she had important business in the village
-before going on to the school.
-
-Mrs. McGoldrick was set near the foot of the stairs holding Euphemia
-and Clementina by the hand, all three in action there to behold the
-exit of Rebecca. This was a morning custom and something in the nature
-of a rite. It was the last clout of torture always inflicted by Mrs.
-McGoldrick.
-
-Rebecca went on into Garradrimna. The village street was deserted save
-by Thomas James, who held solitary occupation. He was posting the
-bills for a circus at the market square. She was excited as she went
-over to speak to him and did not notice the eyes of the bespectacled
-postmistress that were trained upon her from the office window with the
-relentlessness of howitzers. She asked Thomas James would he take a
-letter from her to Mr. Ulick Shannon.
-
-"Oh yes, miss; O Lord, yes!"
-
-She slipped the letter into his hand when she thought that no one was
-looking. She had adopted this mode of caution in preference to sending
-it through the Post Office. She was evidently anxious that it should be
-delivered quickly and unread by any other person.
-
-"O Lord, yes, miss; just as soon as I have an auction bill posted after
-this. You know, miss, that Mickeen Connellan, the auctioneer, is one of
-my best patrons. He doesn't pay as well as the circus people, but he
-pays oftener."
-
-That was in the nature of a very broad hint, but Rebecca had
-anticipated it and had the shilling already prepared and ready to slip
-into his other hand.
-
-"Thanks, miss!"
-
-With remarkable alacrity Thomas James had "downed tools" and
-disappeared into Brannagan's. Rebecca could hear the swish of his pint
-as she went by the door after having remained a few moments looking
-at the lurid circus-bills. Inside, Mrs. Brannagan, the publican and
-victualler's wife, took notice that he possessed the air of a man bent
-upon business.
-
-"Ah, it's how I'm going to do a little message for the assistant
-schoolmistress," he said, taking his matutinal pinch of salt, for this
-was his first pint and one could never tell what might happen.
-
-"Is that so?"
-
-"Aye, indeed; a letter to young Shannon."
-
-"Well now? And why for wouldn't it do to send it by the post?"
-
-"Ah, mebbe that way wouldn't be grand enough for her. Mebbe it is what
-it would be too chape--a penny, you know, for the stamp, and this
-costs a shilling for the porter. Give us another volume of this, Mrs.
-Brannagan, if you please? Ha-ha-ha!" He laughed loudly, but without any
-mirth, at his own joke and the peculiar blend of subtlety by which he
-had marked it.
-
-Mrs. Brannagan was all anxiety and excitement about the letter.
-
-"Well now, just imagine!" she said to herself about forty times as she
-filled the second pint for Thomas James. Then she rose up from her bent
-posture at the half barrel and, placing the drink before him on the
-bar, said:
-
-"I wonder what would be in that letter. Let me see?"
-
-"Oh, 'tis only a letter in a big envelope. Aren't you the inquisitive
-woman now, Mrs. Brannagan?"
-
-"What'll you have, Thomas?"
-
-"Ah, another pint, Mrs. Brannagan, thanks!"
-
-His second drink had been despatched with his own celebrated speed.
-
-Mrs. Brannagan was a notably hard woman, and he could not let the
-opportunity of having her stand him a drink go by. She was the hardest
-woman in Garradrimna. Her childlessness had made her so. She was
-beginning to grow stale and withered, and anything in the nature of
-love and marriage, with their possible results, was to her a constant
-source of affliction and annoyance.
-
-Her heart was now bounding within her breast in curiosity.
-
-"Drink that quick, Thomas, and have another before the boss comes
-down." But there was no need to command him. It had already
-disappeared.... The fourth pint had found its way to his lips. He was
-beginning to grow mellow now and to lose his cross-sickness of the
-morning.
-
-"Will ye let me see the letter?"
-
-"Certainly, Mrs. Brannagan. O Lord, yes!"
-
-He handed it across the counter.
-
-"Such a quare letter? Oh, I hear the boss coming in across the yard."
-... She had taken the empty glass from before Thomas James, and again
-was it filled.... Her husband stood before her. And this was the moment
-she had worked up to so well.
-
-"I'll hand it back to you when he goes out," she whispered.
-
-"All right, ma'am!"
-
-Thomas James and Mr. Brannagan fell into a chat while she went towards
-the kitchen. She took the letter from her flat bosom, where she had
-hastily thrust it and looked at it from every possible angle. It seemed
-to possess a compelling attraction. But she could not open it here.
-She would run across to her friend the postmistress, who had every
-appliance for an operation of the kind. Besides she was the person
-who had first right to open it.... Soon the bespectacled maid and the
-barren woman were deep in examination of Rebecca Kerr's letter to Ulick
-Shannon. Into their minds was beginning to leap a terrible joy as they
-read the lines it had cost Rebecca immense torture to write.
-
-"This is great, this is great!" said the ancient postmistress, clicking
-her tongue continually in satisfaction. "The cheek of her, mind you,
-not to send it by the public post like another. But I knew well there
-was something quare when I saw her calloguing with Thomas James at the
-market square."
-
-"Wasn't she the sly, hateful, little thing. Why you'd never have
-thought it of her?"
-
-"A grand person indeed to have in charge of little, innocent girls!"
-
-"Indeed I shouldn't like to have a child if I thought it was to a purty
-thing like that she'd be sent to school!"
-
-"Nor me," said the old lady, from whom the promise of motherhood had
-departed for many a long year.
-
-They shook in righteous anger and strong detestation of the sin of
-Rebecca Kerr, and together they held council as to what might be the
-best thing to do? They closed the letter, and Mrs. Brannagan again
-stuck it into her bosom.... What should they do? The children must
-be saved from contamination anyhow.... An approach to solution of
-the difficulty immediately presented itself, for there was Mrs. Wyse
-herself just passing down the street with her ass-load of children.
-Mrs. Brannagan rushed out of the office and called:
-
-"Mrs. Wyse, I want to see you in private for just a minute!"
-
-The schoolmistress bent over the back of the trap, and they whispered
-for several minutes. At last, out of her shocked condition, Mrs. Wyse
-was driven to exclaim:
-
-"Well now, isn't that the limit?"
-
-It seemed an affront to her authority that another should have first
-discovered it, so she was anxious to immediately recover her lost
-position of superiority.
-
-"Sure I was having my suspicions of her since ever she come back from
-the Christmas holidays, and even Monica McKeon too, although she's
-a single girl and not supposed to know. It's a terrible case, Mrs.
-Brannagan."
-
-"Terrible, Mrs. Wyse. One of the terriblest ever happened in the
-valley.... And before the children and all."
-
-"God bless and save us! But we must only leave it in Father O'Keeffe's
-hands. He'll know what is best to do, never fear. I'll send for him as
-soon as I get to the school."
-
-There was a note of mournful resignation in her tones as she moved away
-in the ass-trap with her children, like an old hen in the midst of her
-brood.... There was a peculiar smirk of satisfaction about the lips
-of Mrs. Brannagan as she returned to the shop, bent upon sending the
-letter on its way once more.
-
-"Much good it'll do her now, the dirty little fool!" she said in the
-happiness of some dumb feeling of vengeance against one who was merely
-a woman like herself. But she was a woman who had never had a child.
-
-Thomas James was considerably drunk. He had spent the remainder of the
-shilling upon porter, and Mr. Brannagan had stood him another pint.
-
-"Be sure and deliver it safely now, _for maybe it's important_!" said
-Mrs. Brannagan, as she returned the letter.
-
-"It's a great letter anyhow. It's after getting me nine pints. That's
-long over half-a-crown's worth of drink," he said, laughing foolishly
-as he wandered out to do his errand.
-
-It was a hard journey across the rising meadows to the house of Myles
-Shannon, where dwelt his nephew Ulick. Thomas James fell many times and
-wallowed in the tall, green grass, and he fell as he went leaping high
-hedges, and cut his hands and tore his red face with briars until it
-was streaked with blood. He was, therefore, an altogether deplorable
-figure when he at last presented himself at the house of Myles Shannon.
-Mr. Shannon came to the door to meet him, and in his fuddled condition
-he laughed to himself as he fished the letter out of his pocket. It was
-covered red with blood where he had felt it with his torn hand from
-time to time to see whether or not he still retained possession of it.
-
-"From Mr. Brannagan, I suppose," said Mr. Shannon, thinking it had been
-written hurriedly by the victualler just fresh from the slaughterhouse
-and that it was a request for prime beef or mutton from the rich
-fields of Scarden. He opened it, for his nephew's name on the envelope
-could not be seen through the blood-stains. He did not notice that it
-began "My dearest Ulick" until he read down to the sentences that gave
-him pause.... Thomas James was coughing insinuatingly beside him, so
-he took half-a-crown from his pocket and handed it to the bedraggled
-messenger. It was a tremendous reward, and the man of porter did not
-fully perceive it until he had slipped out into the sunlight.
-
-"Be the Holy Farmer!" he stuttered, "another half-crown's worth of
-drink, and I after drinking long more than that already. That was the
-best letter I ever got to carry in me life. A few more like it and
-I'd either get me death of drink or be a millionaire like John D.
-Rockefeller or Andrew Carnegie!"
-
-Inside the parlor Myles Shannon was reading Rebecca Kerr's letter with
-blanched face.... Here was a terrible thing; here had come to him this
-great trouble for the second time. Something the like of this had
-happened twenty-five or six years ago, when his brother had been in the
-same case with Nan Byrne. Curious how it should be repeating itself
-now! He pondered it for a few moments in its hereditary aspect. But
-there was more in it than that. There was the trace of his own hand
-determining it. He had encouraged his nephew with this girl. He had
-directed him into many reckless ways just that he might bring sorrow to
-the heart of Nan Byrne in the destruction of her son. It was a wicked
-thing for him to have done. His own nephew--just to satisfy his desire
-for revenge. And at the bottom of things he loved his nephew even as he
-had loved his brother Henry. But he would try to save him the results,
-the pains and penalties of his infatuation, even as he had tried
-to save his brother Henry the results of his. But the girl and her
-fate.... He would not be able to forget that until his dying day....
-For it was he who had done this thing entirely, done it in cold blood
-too because he had heard that John Brennan had soft eyes for Rebecca
-Kerr and that, to encourage his nephew and produce a certain rivalry,
-might be the very best means of ruining the fair promise of Nan Byrne's
-son.
-
-Only last night he had heard from Ulick that John Brennan had entered
-the college at Ballinamult and that his prospects never looked so good
-as at present.... To think of that now was to see how just it was that
-his scheme should have so resulted, for it had been constructed upon a
-very terrible plan. He had done it to avenge his defeated love for one
-girl, and lo! it had brought another to her ruin.
-
-"Your uncle is a wealthy man." This sentence from the letter burned
-before him, and he thought for a moment that here appeared the full
-solution of the difficulty. But no. Of what use was that when the
-dread thing was about to happen to her?... But for all that he would
-send her money to-day or to-morrow, in some quiet way, and tell her
-the truth and beseech her to go away before the final disgrace of
-discovery fell upon her. His nephew must not know. He was too young
-to marry now, least of all, a compulsory marriage after this fashion
-to a schoolmistress. It was an ascent in the social standing of the
-girl surely, for his brother Henry had disgraced himself with a mere
-dressmaker. But any connection beyond the regrettable and painful
-mistake of the whole thing was out of the question because, for long
-years, the Shannons had been almost gentlemen in the valley.
-
-Ulick came into the room now.
-
-"Anything strange, uncle?"
-
-"Oh, nothing at all, only a letter from Mr. Brannagan about--about the
-sheep. I suppose you're not going anywhere to-day. Please don't, for
-I want you to give me a hand with the lambs after the shearing. And
-to-night I'll want you to help me with some letters and accounts that
-I've let slip for ever so long. I want you particularly."
-
-"All right, uncle!"
-
-How tractable and obliging his nephew had become ...! Last summer he
-would not do a thing like this for any amount of coaxing. He would have
-business in the valley at all times. But there was a far Power that
-adjusted matters beyond the plans of men. Ulick had drifted out of the
-room and Mr. Shannon again took the letter from his pocket. The sight
-of the blood upon it still further helped the color of his thoughts
-towards terror.... He crossed hurriedly to the bureau and slipped it
-beneath the elastic band which held his letters from Helena Cooper, and
-Mrs. Brennan's letter to her, and Mrs. Brennan's letter to his dead
-brother Henry.... It seemed to belong there by right of the sad quality
-which is the distinction of all shattered dreams.... And, just imagine,
-he had considered his a wonderful scheme of revenge! But now it seemed
-a poor and a mean thing. He could hardly think of it as a part of the
-once proud, easy-going Myles Shannon, but rather the bitter and ugly
-result of some devilish prompting that had come to him here in the lone
-stretches of his life in this quiet house among the trees.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX
-
-
-More than ever on this morning was Rebecca aware that the keen eye
-of Mrs. Wyse was upon her as she moved about the schoolroom. One of
-the bigger girls was despatched to the other school for Monica McKeon
-and Master Donnellan's assistant came in to Mrs. Wyse. She nodded the
-customary greeting to Rebecca as she passed in. This interview was
-unusual at such an early hour of the day. But it was never the custom
-of either of them to tell her of what they were talking. As she busied
-herself teaching the very smallest of the children she felt that the
-eyes of both women were upon her.
-
-After what appeared to be a very long time Monica passed out. On this
-second occasion she looked loftily across her glasses and gave no nod
-of acknowledgment to Rebecca. Rebecca blushed at this open affront. She
-felt that Mrs. Wyse must have something against her, something she had
-told Monica just now.... And now the principal was exceedingly busy
-with her pen as if writing a hurried note.... Rebecca heard the high,
-coarse voice raised in command:
-
-"Euphemia McGoldrick, I want you!"
-
-Then came the timid "Yes, ma'am!" of Euphemia.
-
-"Here are two letters, child. Take this one to Father O'Keeffe, your
-parish priest, and this to your mother, like a good child."
-
-"Yes'm!"
-
-Some fear of unknown things began to stir in the breast of Rebecca.
-This connection of Mrs. McGoldrick with Mrs. Wyse's occupation of the
-morning seemed to announce some dragging of her into the matter. But as
-yet, although her mind moved tremulously in its excitement, she had,
-curiously enough, no suspicion of what was about to happen. It could
-not be that Mrs. Wyse had suspected. Oh, not at all. There was still
-no danger. But it might be a near thing.... Already she had begun to
-wonder would Ulick come to-night. But of course he would come. He was
-not such a bad fellow. And he might be taken up with his own condition
-just now. He had missed his examination in Dublin: missed it, maybe,
-through his foolishness in coming to see her.... But already she had
-thoroughly blamed herself for this.... To ease the pain of her mind
-she went busily about her work. She knew that the eye of Mrs. Wyse was
-upon her and that the very best way of defeating it was by putting on
-this air of industry. The day, in its half-hour divisions, was passing
-rapidly towards noon.
-
-A little girl came quickly in to say that Father O'Keeffe was coming up
-the road. Rebecca glanced out of the window and, sure enough, there he
-was upon his big, fat, white horse coming into the yard. She heard his
-loud cries calling into the Boys' School "for a chap to come out and
-hold his horse." When the boy came to do his bidding he held forth at
-great length upon the best way of leading "King Billy" around the yard.
-
-Then the reverend manager of Tullahanogue Schools moved into the
-female portion of the establishment. At the door he twisted his round
-face into an aspect of severity which was still humorous in its alien
-incongruity. Here also he removed his hat from his head, which was
-white and bald like the apex of an egg above the red curve of his
-countenance. It was his custom to visit the schools of which he was
-manager, thus precociously to make up in some way for what he lacked in
-educational knowledge and enthusiasm. As his short, squat figure moved
-up the passage by the desks, the massive head bowed low upon the broad
-chest and the fat fingers of both hands coiled behind his back, he was
-not at all unlike an actor made up as Napoleon Bonaparte. His voice was
-disciplined in the accents of militarism and dictatorship.
-
-Rebecca noticed on the instant that to-day he was as one intensified.
-He began to slap his legs continuously with his silver-mounted riding
-whip. He did not speak to her as he passed in. But, although it caused
-her heart to flutter for a moment, this appeared to her as no unusual
-occurrence. He never took notice of her unless when she called at the
-vestry after Mass upon occasion to deliver up a slice of her salary in
-Dues and Offerings. Then the Napoleonic powerfulness disappeared and
-he fell to talking, with laughter in his words, about the richness of
-Royal Meath in comparison with the wild barrenness of Donegal.
-
-He moved up to where Mrs. Wyse was at work. Rebecca could distinctly
-hear the loud "Well, what's your best news?" with which he
-always prefaced his conversations. In low whispers they began to
-communicate.... It was not till now that she began to have immense
-doubts as to the purpose of his visit, and already she was trembling in
-presence of the little children.
-
-"An example of her, Father!"
-
-"Oh yes, an example of her. Nothing less, Mrs. Wyse!"
-
-The words came down to Rebecca clearly through the deep silence that
-had fallen upon the school since the entrance of Father O'Keeffe. The
-bigger girls were listening, listening in a great hush of patience for
-all that had to be reported when they went home. Each one was preparing
-for her respective examination--
-
-"Was there any one in the school to-day?"
-
-"Yes, mother!"
-
-"Who, the inspector?"
-
-"No, the Priest!"
-
-"Father O'Keeffe?"
-
-"Well, anything else?"
-
-"He was talking to Mrs. Wyse."
-
-"And what was he saying?"
-
-"I couldn't hear, mother, so I couldn't."
-
-"And why didn't you listen? What am I slaving myself to send you to
-school for?"
-
-And so they were listening with such eagerness now. They were looking
-down at Rebecca as if she were the object of the whole discussion. Her
-thoughts were beginning to well into a swirling unconsciousness....
-Great sounds, like those of roaring cataracts and the drumming of
-mighty armies were rolling up to her ears.
-
-Father O'Keeffe and Mrs. Wyse now came down the schoolroom together.
-As they passed Rebecca, Father O'Keeffe beckoned to her with his
-riding-whip in the way one might call to a very inferior hireling.
-Shaken by unique and powerful impulses, she went out into the
-hall-way to meet her superiors.... Instantaneously she knew what had
-happened--they knew.
-
-"Well, isn't this a nice thing?" began Father O'Keeffe.
-
-"Ye might say it's a nice thing, Father!" echoed Mrs. Wyse.
-
-"An enormous thing!"
-
-"A terrible thing! Father!"
-
-"You're a nice lady!" he said, addressing Rebecca angrily. "To come
-into a parish where there is none save decent people to leave a black
-disgrace upon it and you going away!"
-
-"Was ever the like known, Father? And just imagine her keeping it so
-secret. Why we thought there was nothing in this affair with Ulick
-Shannon. There was such an amount of cuteness in the way they used to
-meet at times and in places we never knew of. In the woods, I suppose!"
-
-Father O'Keeffe was addressing her directly again.
-
-"Why, when I think of the disgrace to this school and all that, it
-drives me near mad."
-
-"And, mind you, the shocking insult it is to me and to the little
-children."
-
-"The shocking insult to you and to the little children. True for you,
-Mrs. Wyse."
-
-"And when I think of how you have contrived to besmirch the fair name
-of one of the fine, respectable families of the parish, gentlemen, as
-you might say, without one blot upon their escutcheon."
-
-"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney."
-
-"People as high up as the Houlihans of Clonabroney, Mrs. Wyse."
-
-His eye was upon Rebecca with a sudden gleam.
-
-"When I think of that, I consider it an enormous offense...." She did
-not flinch before them. She was thinking only of the way in which they
-had come to hear it.... She was concerned now that Ulick should not
-suffer, that his grand family name should not be dragged down with
-hers.... If he had not come to her she would have slipped away without
-a word.... And now to think that it had become public. The previous
-burning of her mind had been nothing to this.... But Father O'Keeffe
-was still speaking:
-
-"Listen to me, girl! You are to go from hence, but not, as you may
-imagine, to the place from whence you came. For this very evening I
-intend to warn your pastor of your lapse from virtue while in our
-midst, so that you may not return to your father's house and have no
-more hope of teaching in any National school within the four seas of
-Ireland."
-
-"That is only right and proper, Father!" put in Mrs. Wyse.
-
-Rebecca was not listening or else she might have shuddered within the
-shadow of the torture his words held for her. In these moments she
-had soared far beyond them.... Through the high mood in which she
-was accepting her tragedy she was becoming exalted.... What glorious
-moments there would be, what divine compensation in whispering of the
-torture surrounding its beginning to the little child when it came?
-
-"So now, Rebecca Kerr, I command you to go forth from this school and
-from the little children that you corrupt towards your own abomination
-by further presence among them."
-
-As he moved angrily out of the school she moved quietly, and without
-speaking a word, to take her coat and hat down from the rack.
-
-"Oh, wait!" commanded Mrs. Wyse, "you must not leave until three,
-until you have made an example of yourself here in a way that all the
-children may bring home the story. God knows it will be the hard thing
-for them to be telling their mothers when they go home. The poor little
-things!"
-
-Rebecca stood there desolately alone in the hall-way through the
-remainder of the afternoon. In one aspect she appeared as a bold child
-being thus corrected by a harsh superior. On many more occasions than
-appeared absolutely necessary Monica McKeon passed and repassed her
-there as she stood so lonely. The assistant of the Boys' School was
-a model of disdain as, with her lip curled, she looked away out over
-her glasses. And ever and anon Mrs. Wyse passed in and out, muttering
-mournfully to herself:
-
-"The cheek of that now, before the children and all!"
-
-And the elder girls moved about her in a procession of sneering. They
-knew, and they were examining her for the purpose of giving full
-accounts when they went home.
-
-But, occasionally, some of the little ones would come and gaze up into
-her eyes with wild looks. Although they did not know why, they seemed
-to possess for her an immense, mute pity.
-
-"Poor Miss Kerr!" they would say, stroking her dress, but their big
-sisters would come and whisk them away.
-
-"Don't touch her. She's dirty----" Then Monica would pass again. At
-last she heard the merciful stroke of three.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX
-
-
-When John Brennan went to his room after his father's outburst it was
-with the intention of doing some preparation for the morrow's work at
-the college; but although he opened several books in turn, he could
-feel no quickening of knowledge in his mind.... There she was again
-continually recurring to his thoughts. And now she was far grander.
-This was the fear that had always been hidden in his heart,--that
-somehow her friendship with Ulick was not a thing that should have
-happened. But he had considered it a reality he could not attempt to
-question. Yet he knew that but for Ulick she must be very near to him.
-And Ulick had admitted his unworthiness, and so the separation was at
-an end.
-
-It was surprising that this should have happened now. His mind sprang
-back to all that tenderness with which his thoughts of her had been
-surrounded through these long days of dreaming, when he had contrived
-to meet her, as if by accident, on her way from school.
-
-All through the next day his heart was upon her; the thought of her
-would give peace. Into every vacant moment she would come with the full
-light of her presence. He had suddenly relapsed into the mood that had
-imprisoned him after the summer holidays. He stood aloof from Father
-Considine and did not wish to see him through the whole of his long day
-in the college at Ballinamult.... All the way home he pictured her.
-She was luring him now as she had always lured him--towards a fairer
-vision of the valley.
-
-He noticed how the summer was again flooding over the fields like a
-great river spilling wide. It was a glorious coincidence that she
-should be returning to him now, a creature of brightness at a time of
-beauty.
-
-The road seemed short this pleasant afternoon, and the customary
-feeling of dusty weariness was not upon him as he leapt lightly off
-the bicycle at his mother's door. Mrs. Brennan came out to meet him
-eagerly. This was no unusual occurrence now that he had again begun to
-ascend the ladder of the high condition she had planned for him. She
-was even a far prouder woman now, for, somehow, she had always half
-remembered the stain of charity hanging over his uprise in England.
-Besides this he was nearer to her, moving intimately through the
-valley, a living part of her justification.... Her fading eyes now
-looked out tenderly at her son. There seemed to be a great light in
-them this afternoon, a great light of love for him.... He was moved
-beneath their gaze. And still she continued to smile upon him in a
-weak way as within the grip of some strong excitement. He saw when he
-entered that his dinner was not set out as usual on the white table in
-the kitchen.... She brought him into the sewing-room. And still she
-had the same smile trembling upon her lips and the same light in her
-eyes.... All this was growing mysterious and oppressive. But his mood
-was proof against sad influences. It must be some tale of good fortune
-come to their house of which his mother had now to tell.
-
-"D'ye know what, John? The greatest thing ever is after happening!"
-
-"Is that a fact, mother?"
-
-"Though mebbe 'tis not right for me to tell you and you all as one as a
-priest, I may say. But sure you're bound to hear it, and mebbe a little
-knowledge of the kind might not be amiss even to one in your exalted
-station. And then to make it better, it concerns two very near friends
-of yours, Mr. Ulick Shannon and Miss Rebecca Kerr, I thank you!"
-
-John Brennan's mind leaped immediately to interest. Were they gone back
-to one another, and after what he had thought to-day? This was the
-question his lips carried inwardly to himself.
-
-"I don't know how I can tell you. But Father O'Keeffe was at school
-to-day in a great whet. He made a show of her before the children, Mrs.
-Wyse and Miss McKeon, of course, giving him good help. He dismissed
-her, and told her to go about her business. He'll mebbe speak of her
-publicly from the altar on Sunday."
-
-"And what is it, mother, what--?"
-
-"Oh, she's going to have a misfortune, me son. She's going to be a
-mother, God bless us all! and not married or a ha'porth!"
-
-"O God!"
-
-"But sure she put in for nothing else, with her going up and all that
-to Dublin to have her dresses made, instead of getting them done nice
-and quiet and modest and respectable be me. I may tell you that I was
-more than delighted to hear it."
-
-"Well now, and the--"
-
-John was biting his lips in passion, but she took another view of it as
-she interrupted him.
-
-"Ah, you may well ask who _he_ is, who but that scoundrel Ulick
-Shannon, that I was never done asking you not to speak to. You were
-young and innocent, of course, and could not be expected to know what I
-know. But mebbe you'll avoid him now, although I think he won't be long
-here, for mebbe Father O'Keeffe'll run him out of the parish. Maybe
-not though, for his uncle has bags of money. Indeed I wouldn't put it
-apast him if _he_ was the lad encouraged him to this, for the Shannons
-were always blackguards in their hearts.... But it'll be great to hear
-Father O'Keeffe on Sunday. I must be sure and go to his Mass. Oh, it'll
-be great to hear him!"
-
-"Yes, I suppose it will be great to hear him."
-
-John spoke out of the gathering bitterness of his heart.
-
-"I wonder what'll become of her now. I wonder where'll she go. Oh, to
-Dublin, I suppose. She was always fond of it."
-
-His mother was in a very ecstasy of conjecture as to the probable
-extent of Rebecca's fate. And this was the woman who had always
-expressed a melting tenderness in her actions towards him. This was his
-mother who had spoken now with all uncharitableness. There was such
-an absence of human pity in her words as most truly appalled him....
-Very quickly he saw too that it was upon his own slight connection with
-this tragic thing her mind was dwelling. This was to him now a token,
-not of love, but rather of enormous selfishness.... Her eyes were upon
-him still, watering in admiration with a weak gleam.... The four walls
-seemed to be moving in to crush him after the manner of some medieval
-torture chamber.... Within them, too, was beginning to rise a horrid
-stench as of dead human things.... This ghastliness that had sprung
-up between mother and son seemed to have momentarily blotted out the
-consciousness of both. They stared at one another now with glassy,
-unseeing eyes.
-
-After three Rebecca took her lonely way from the school. Neither Mrs.
-Wyse nor Monica McKeon had a word for her at parting. Neither this
-woman, who was many times a mother, nor this girl who might yet be a
-mother many times. They were grinning loudly and passing some sneer
-between them, as they moved away from one another alone.
-
-Down the valley road she went, the sunlight dazzling her tired eyes.
-A thought of something that had happened upon this day last year came
-with her remembrance of the date. It was the first anniversary of some
-slight, glad event that had brought her happiness, and yet what a day
-it was of dire happening? Just one short year ago she had not known the
-valley or Ulick or this fearful thing.... There were friends about her
-on this day last year and the sound of laughter, and she had not been
-so far distant from her father's house. And, O God! to think that now
-she was so much alone.
-
-Suddenly she became aware that there was some one running by her side
-and calling "Miss Kerr! Miss Kerr!"
-
-"Oh, Janet Comaskey!" she said, turning. "Is it you?"
-
-"Yes, Miss Kerr. I want to tell you that I was talking to God last
-night, and I was telling Him about you. He asked me did I like you, and
-I said I did. 'And so do I,' said He. 'I like Miss Kerr very much,' He
-said, 'for she's very nice, very, very nice.'"
-
-Rebecca had never disliked this queer child, but she loved her now, and
-bending down, warmly kissed her wild face.
-
-"Thanks, miss. I only wanted to tell you about God," said Janet,
-dropping behind.
-
-Rebecca was again alone, but now she was within sight of the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick. It seemed to be dozing there in the sunlight. She
-began to question herself did those within already know ...? Now that
-the full publicity of her condition seemed imminent an extraordinary
-feeling of vanity was beginning to take possession of her. She took off
-her dust-coat and hung it upon her arm. Thus uncloaked she would face
-the eyes of Mrs. McGoldrick and her daughters, Euphemia and Clementina,
-and the eyes, very probably, of John Ross McGoldrick and Neville
-Chamberlain McGoldrick....
-
-But when she entered the house she experienced the painful stillness of
-a tomb-like place. There was no one to be seen. She went upstairs with
-a kind of faltering in her limbs, but her head was erect and her fine
-eyes were flashing.... Even still was she soaring beyond and beyond
-them. Her eye was caught by a note pinned upon her door. It seemed very
-funny and, despite her present condition of confusion and worry, she
-smiled, for this was surely a melodramatic trick that Mrs. McGoldrick
-had acquired from the character of her reading.... Still smiling, she
-tore it open. It read like a proclamation, and was couched in the very
-best handwriting of Sergeant McGoldrick.
-
-
- "Miss Kerr,
-
- Rev. Louis O'Keeffe, P.P., Garradrimna, has given notice that,
- on account of certain deplorable circumstances, we are to refuse
- you permission to lodge with us any longer. This we hasten to
- do without any regret, considering that, to oblige you at the
- instigation of Father O'Keeffe, we broke the Regulation of the
- Force, which forbids the keeping of lodgers by any member of that
- body. We hereby give you notice to be out of this house by 6 p.m.
- on this evening, May --, 19--, having, it is understood, by that
- time packed up your belongings and discharged your liabilities to
- Mrs. McGoldrick. Father O'Keeffe has, very magnanimously, arranged
- that Mr. Charles Clarke is to call for you with his motor and take
- you with all possible speed to the station at Kilaconnaghan.
-
- Sylvester McGoldrick (Sergeant, R.I.C.)."
-
-
-The official look of the pronouncement seemed only to increase
-its gloomy finality, but the word "magnanimously," fresh from the
-dictionary at the Barrack, made her laugh outright. The offense she had
-committed was unnamed, too terrible for words. She was being sentenced
-like a doomed Easter rebel.... Yet, even still, she was not without
-some thought of the practical aspect of her case. She owed thirty
-shillings to Mrs. McGoldrick. This would leave her very little, out of
-the few pounds she had saved from her last instalment of salary, with
-which to face the world. This, of course, if Ulick did not come....
-And here was her dinner, set untidily in the stuffy room where the
-window had not been opened since the time she had left it this morning
-in confusion. And the whole house was quiet as the grave. She never
-remembered to have heard it so quiet at any other time. It seemed as
-if all this silence had been designed with a studied calculation of
-the pain it would cause. There was no kindness in this woman either,
-although she too was a mother and had young daughters. It appeared so
-greatly uncharitable that in these last terrible moments she could
-not cast from her the small and pitiful enmity she had begun upon the
-evening of Rebecca's arrival in the valley. She would not come even
-now and help her pack up her things, and she so weary?... But it was
-easily done. The few articles that had augmented her wardrobe since
-her coming to the valley would go into the basket she had used to
-carry those which were barely necessary for her comfort when she went
-to that lonely cottage in Donegal.... The mean room was still bare as
-when she had first come to it. She had not attempted to decorate it. In
-a pile in one corner stood the full series of _Irish School Weeklies_
-and _Weldon's Ladies' Journals_ she had purchased since her coming
-here. She had little use for either of these publications now, little
-use for the one that related to education or the other that related to
-adornment.
-
-There came a feverish haste upon her to get done with her preparations
-for departure, and soon they were completed. She had her trunk corded
-and all ready. She had no doubt that Ulick would meet her upon The
-Road of the Dead at 5.30, the hour she had named in the letter of this
-morning. It was lucky she had so accurately guessed her possible time
-of departure, although somehow she had had no notion this morning of
-leaving so soon. But already it was more than 4.30 by her little
-wristlet watch. She put on her best dress, which had been left out on
-the bed, and redid her hair. It was still the certain salvage from the
-wreck she was becoming. Ulick or any other man, for all he had ruined
-her, must still love her for that hair of gold. It needed no crown at
-all, but a woman's vanity was still hers, and she put on a pretty hat
-which Ulick had fancied in Dublin. She had worn it for the first time
-last summer in Donegal, and it became her better than any hat she had
-ever worn.... What would they say if they saw her moving about in this
-guise, so brazenly as it seemed, when she might be spoken of from the
-altar on Sunday?
-
-Now fell upon her a melancholy desire to see the chapel. There was yet
-time to go there and pray just as she had thought of praying on her
-first evening on coming to Garradrimna. She took a final glance at the
-little, mean room. It had not been a room of mirth for her, and she
-was not sorry to leave it--there was the corded trunk to tell the tale
-of its inhospitality. She took the money for Mrs. McGoldrick from her
-purse and put it into an envelope.... Going downstairs she left it upon
-the kitchen table. There was no one to be seen, but she could hear the
-scurrying of small feet from her as if she were some monstrous and
-forbidden thing.
-
-As she went up the bright road there was a flickering consciousness
-in her breast that she was an offense against the sunlight, but this
-feeling fled away from her when she went into the chapel and knelt down
-to pray. Her mind was full of her purpose, and she did not experience
-the distraction of one single, selfish thought. But when she put her
-hands up to her face in an attitude of piety she felt that her face was
-burning.
-
-It was a day for confessions, but there were few people in the chapel,
-and those not approaching the confessionals. The two young curates,
-Father Forde and Father Fagan, were moving about the quiet aisles,
-each deeply intent upon the reading of his office. They were nearer
-the altar than to her, but for all the air of piety in which they
-seemed to be enveloped, they detected her presence immediately and
-simultaneously. Soon they began to extend their back and forward pacing
-to include her within the range of their sidelong vision.... By the
-time she had got half way around her little mother-of-pearl rosary
-they were moving past her and towards one another at her back. She was
-saying her poor prayers as well as she could, but there they were with
-their heads working up and down as they looked alternately at her and
-at their holy books.... Just as she got to the end of the last decade
-she was conscious that they had come together and were whispering
-behind her.... It was not until then that she saw the chapel for what
-it stood in regard to her. It was the place where, on Sunday next, mean
-people would smirk in satisfaction as they sat listening in all their
-lack of charity and fulness of pride.... The realization brought the
-pulsing surge of anger to her blood and she rose to come away. But when
-she turned around abruptly there were the two curates with their eyes
-still fixed upon her.... She did not meet their looks full straight,
-for they turned away as if to avoid the contamination of her as she ran
-from the House of God.
-
-When John Brennan reached a point in his disgust where further
-endurance was impossible he broke away from the house and from his
-mother. He went out wildly through the green fields.
-
-But he would see her. He would go to her, for surely she had need of
-him now.... If Ulick did not come.... And there was much in his manner
-and conversation of the previous night to make it doubtful.... If he
-did not take her away from this place and make her his own to protect
-and cherish, there was only one course left open.... He knew little of
-these things, for he knew little of the ways of life, but instinctively
-he felt that Rebecca would now cling to Ulick and that Ulick would be a
-great scoundrel if he spurned her from him. And what, he asked himself,
-would he, John Brennan, do in that case?
-
-No answer would spring directly to his thoughts, but some ancient,
-primeval feeling was stirring in his heart--the answer that men have
-held to be the only answer from the beginning of the world. But that
-was a dreadful thing which, in its eddying circles of horror, might
-compass his own end also.
-
-But, maybe the whole story was untrue. He had heard his mother speak
-many a time after the same fashion, and there was never one case of the
-kind but had proved untrue. Yet it was terrible that no answer would
-come flashing out from his wild thoughts, and already he had reached
-The Road of the Dead.
-
-His wandering eyes had at last begun to rest upon a wide, green field.
-He saw the wind and sun conspiring to ripple the grass into the
-loveliest little waves. He had loved this always, and even the present
-state of his mind did not refuse the sensation of its beauty. He went
-and leaned across the field gate to gaze upon it.
-
-He turned suddenly, for there was a step approaching him along the
-road. Yes, surely it was she. It was Rebecca Kerr herself coming
-towards him down The Road of the Dead.... She was smiling, but from the
-dark, red shadows about her eyes it was easy to see that she had quite
-recently been crying.
-
-"Good evening, John Brennan!" she said.
-
-"Good evening, Miss Kerr!"
-
-There was a deep touch of concern, turning to anxiety, almost a rich
-tenderness in his words. She heard them for what they were, and there
-came to her clearly their accents of pity.... For the moment neither
-seemed capable of finding speech.... Her eyes were searching The Road
-of the Dead for the man she expected to meet her here. But he was not
-coming. In the silence that had fallen between them John Brennan had
-clearly glimpsed the dumb longing that was upon her.... He felt the
-final gloom that was moving in around her ... yet he could not find
-speech.
-
-"I'm going away from the valley," said Rebecca.
-
-He made some noise in his throat, but she could hear no distinct word.
-
-"It was not _you_ I expected to meet here this evening. It is so
-strange how we have met like this."
-
-"I just came out for a walk," he stammered, at a loss for something
-better to say.
-
-"I'm glad we have met," she said, "for this is the last time."
-
-It was easy to see that her words held much meaning for herself and
-him.... He seemed to be nearer the brink as her eyes turned from him
-again to search the road.
-
-"He will not come," she said, and there was a kind of wretched
-recklessness in her tones. "I know he will not come, for that
-possibility has never been." She grew more resigned of a sudden. She
-saw that John Brennan too was searching the road with his eyes.... Then
-he knew the reason why she was going away.
-
-He was such a nice boy, and between his anxious watching now for her
-sake he was gazing with pity into her eyes.... He must know Ulick too
-as a man knows his friend, and that Ulick would not come to her in this
-her hour of trial.... The knowledge seemed the more terrible since it
-was through John Brennan it had come; and yet it was less terrible
-since he did not disdain her for what she had done. She saw through his
-excuse. He had come this way with the special purpose of seeing her,
-and if he had not met her thus accidentally he must inevitably have
-called at the house of Sergeant McGoldrick to extend his farewell. She
-was glad that she had saved him this indignity by coming out to her
-own disappointment.... She was sorry that he had again returned to his
-accustomed way of thinking of her, that he had again departed from the
-way into which she had attempted to direct him.
-
-And now there loomed up for her great terror in this thought. Yet she
-could read it very clearly in the way he was looking so friendly upon
-her.... Why had he always looked upon her in this way? Surely she had
-never desired it. She had never desired him. It was Ulick she had
-longed for always. It was Ulick she had longed for this evening, and
-it was John Brennan who had come.... Yes, how well he had come? It was
-very simple and very beautiful, this action of his, but in its simple
-goodness there was a fair promise of its high desolation. It appeared
-that she stood for his ruin also, and, even now, in the mounting
-moments of her fear, this appeared as an ending far more appalling....
-She was coming to look at her own fate as a thing she might be able to
-bear, but there was something so vastly filled with torture in this
-thought.... Whenever she would look into the eyes of the child and make
-plans for its little future she would think of John Brennan and what
-had happened to him.
-
-She felt that they had been a long time standing here at this gate, by
-turns gazing anxiously up and down the road, by turns looking vacantly
-out over the sea of grass. Time was of more account than ever before,
-for was it not upon this very evening that she was being banished from
-the valley?
-
-"I must go now," she said; "_he_ will never come."
-
-He did not answer, but moved as if to accompany her.... She grew
-annoyed as she observed his action.
-
-"No, no, you must not come with me now. You must not speak with me
-again. I have placed myself forever beyond your friendship or your
-thought!"
-
-As she extended her hand to him her heart was moved by a thousand
-impulses.
-
-"Good-by, John Brennan!" she said simply.
-
-"Good-by, Rebecca!" said he at last, finding speech by a tremendous
-effort.... And without another word they parted there on The Road of
-the Dead.
-
-Outside the garden gate of Sergeant McGoldrick Charlie Clarke was
-waiting for her with his motor-car. Her trunk had been put in at the
-back. This was an unholy job for a saintly chauffeur, but it was Father
-O'Keeffe's command and his will must be done. When the news of it had
-been communicated to him he had said a memorable thing:
-
-"Well, now, the quare jobs a religious man has sometimes to do; but
-maybe these little punishments are by way of satisfaction for some
-forgotten and far-distant sin!"
-
-Rebecca understood his anxiety to have her off his hands as she saw him
-jump in behind the wheel at her approach. She got in beside her poor
-trunk, and presently the car would be ready to start. There was not
-a trace of any of the McGoldrick family to be seen.... But there was
-a sudden breaking through the green hedge upon the other side of the
-road, and Janet Comaskey stood beside the car. Rebecca was surprised by
-the sudden appearance of the little, mad girl at this moment.
-
-"Miss Kerr, Miss Kerr!" she called. "I got this from God. God told me
-to give you this!"
-
-The car started away, and Rebecca saw that the superscription on the
-letter she had been handed was in the pronounced Vere Foster style of
-Master Donnellan. Doubtless it was some long-winded message of farewell
-from the kind-hearted master, and she would not open it now. It would
-be something to read as she moved away towards Dublin.
-
-Just now her eyes were being filled by the receding pageant of the
-valley, that place of all earth's places which had so powerfully
-arrayed its villainy against her.... And to think that he had not
-come.... It was the Valley of Hinnom.... Yes, to think that he had not
-come after all she had been to him, after all the love of her heart
-she had given him. No word could ever, ever pass between them again.
-They were upon the very brink of the eternity of separation. She knew
-now that for all the glory in which she had once beheld him, he must
-shrivel down to the bitter compass of a little, painful memory. Oh,
-God! to think he had not replied to her letter, and the writing of it
-had given her such pain.
-
-They were at the station of Kilaconnaghan. Charlie Clarke had not
-spoken all through the journey, but now he came up to her indignantly,
-as if very vexed for being compelled to speak to her at all, and said:
-"The fare is one pound!"
-
-The words smote her with a little sense of shock. She had been
-expecting something by way of climax. She was very certain in her
-consciousness that the valley would not let her slip thus quietly
-away.--A pound for the journey, although it was Father O'Keeffe who
-had engaged the car.--She must pay this religious robber a huge price
-for the drive. There rushed through her mind momentarily a mad flash
-of rebellion. The valley was carrying its tyranny a little too far....
-She would not pay.... But almost immediately she was searching for a
-note in her purse.... There were so very few of them now. Yet she could
-not leave the valley with any further little stain upon her. They would
-talk of a thing like this for years and years.
-
-
-With a deadly silence hanging over him and fearful thoughts coming into
-his mind Myles Shannon had kept himself and his nephew Ulick at work
-all through the day. After tea in the lonely dining-room he fetched
-in his inky account books, which had been neglected for many a month.
-His nephew would here have work to occupy him for the remainder of the
-evening and probably far into the night. Ulick was glad of the task,
-for his mind was very far from being at ease.
-
-Then Mr. Shannon took L100 from the old-fashioned bureau in the parlor,
-which held, with the other things, all his papers and accounts,
-and while the evening was yet high went down towards the house of
-Sergeant McGoldrick to see Rebecca Kerr. Around a bend of the road he
-encountered Charlie Clarke on his way back from Kilaconnaghan, where he
-had been delayed upon bazaar business.
-
-The saintly chauffeur at once put on the brakes. This was Mr. Myles
-Shannon and some one worth speaking to. He bowed a groveling salute.
-
-"You're out pretty late?" said Mr. Shannon.
-
-"Oh, yes!" And then he went on to describe his work of the evening.
-He felt inclined to offer his condolence to Mr. Shannon in a most
-respectful whisper, but thought better of it at the last moment.
-
-"And no one knows where she has gone?"
-
-"No one. She has disappeared from the valley."
-
-"She went away very suddenly."
-
-"Yes, Father O'Keeffe saw that, in the public interest, she should
-disappear after this fashion. The motor was a help, you know."
-
-Charlie Clarke offered to drive Mr. Shannon to his home. No word passed
-between them as they drew up the avenue to the lonely house among the
-trees.
-
-In the train, moving on towards Dublin, Rebecca Kerr had just opened
-the letter from Master Donnellan. It contained a L5 note.... This was
-like a cry of mercy and pardon for the valley.... The rich fields of
-Meath were racing by.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI
-
-
-There was a curious hush about the lake next evening, although the
-little cottage of Hughie Murtagh was swept by winds which stirred
-mournfully through all the bright abundance of early summer. Even the
-orange-blossoms of the furze seemed to put on an aspect of surrender.
-There was no challenge in their color now; they looked almost white
-against a somber sunset. John Brennan moped about among the fir-trees.
-He came to a stand-still by one that had begun to decay and which was
-even more mournful in its failure to contribute another plumed head to
-the general effect of mourning. But it seemed to shake enraged at this
-impotence in its poor foundation over the deserted warren, from which
-Shamesy Golliher had long since driven the little rabbits towards that
-dark Chicago of slaughter which was represented to them by Garradrimna.
-
-The same color of desolation was upon the reeds which separated
-him from the water. The water itself had, beneath its pretense of
-brightness upon the surface, the appearance of ooze, as if it had come
-washing over the slime of dead things.
-
-It was here that John Brennan had come to wait for Ulick Shannon, and,
-as he waited, his mood became that of his surroundings.... He fell to
-running over what had happened to him. Alternately, in the swirl of his
-consciousness, it appeared as the power of the valley and as the Hand
-of God. Yet, whatever it might be in truth, this much was certain. It
-had reduced his life to ruins. It was a fearful thing, and he shuddered
-a little while he endeavored to produce a clear picture of it for the
-chastisement as well as the morbid excitement of his imagination.
-
-But there came instead a far different picture, which seemed to have
-the effect of lifting for a moment the surrounding gloom. He saw
-Rebecca Kerr again as upon many an afternoon they had met. For one
-brave moment he strove to recover the fine feeling that had filled
-him at those times. But it would not come. Something had happened,
-something terrible which soiled and spoiled her forever.
-
-For love of her he had dreamed even unto the desire of defeating his
-mother's love. And yet there was no triumph in his heart now, nothing
-save defeat and a great weariness. Neither his mother nor Rebecca Kerr
-were any longer definite hopes upon which his mind might dwell....
-His thoughts were running altogether upon Ulick Shannon. It was for
-Ulick he waited now in this lonely, wind-swept place, like any villain
-he had ever seen depicted upon the cover of a penny dreadful in
-Phillips's window when he was a boy. He now saw himself fixed in his
-own imagination after this fashion. Ulick Shannon would soon come.
-There was no doubt of this, for a definite appointment had been made
-during the day. He had remained at home from the college in Ballinamult
-to bring it about. Soon they would be endeavoring to enter what must
-be the final and tragic bye-way of their story. And it must be all so
-dreadfully interesting, this ending he had planned.... Now the water
-came flowing towards him more rapidly as if to hurry the tragedy. It
-came more thickly and muddily and with long, billowy strides as if
-it yearned to gather some other body still holding life to its wild
-breast. Its waters kept flowing as if from some wide wound that ached
-and would not be satisfied; that bled and called aloud for blood
-forever.
-
-Now also the evening shadows were beginning to creep down the hills and
-with them a deeper hush was coming upon the wild longing of all things.
-Yet it was no hush of peace, but rather the concentration of some
-horrible purpose upon one place.
-
-"I am going away on Friday," Ulick had written in one of the two notes
-that had been exchanged between them by the messenger during the day,
-"and I would like to see you for what must, unfortunately, be the last
-time. I am slipping away unknown to my uncle or to any one, and it is
-hardly probable that I will be seen in these parts again."
-
-At length he beheld the approach of Ulick down the long Hill of
-Annus.... His spirit thrilled within him and flamed again into a white
-flame of love for the girl who was gone.... And coming hither was the
-man who had done this thing.... The thickest shadows of the evening
-would soon be gathered closely about the scene they were to witness....
-The very reeds were rustling now in dread.
-
-The lake was deep here at the edge of the water.... And in the
-rabbit-warren beneath his feet were the heavy pieces of lead piping
-he had transported in the night. He had taken them from his father's
-stock of plumber's materials, that moldy, unused stock which had so
-long lain in the back yard and which, in a distant way, possessed an
-intimate connection with this heaped-up story.... In a little instant
-of peculiar consciousness he wondered whether it would be pliable
-enough.... There were pieces for the legs and pieces for the arms which
-would enfold those members as in a weighty coffin.... And hidden nearer
-to his hand was the strangely-shaped, uncouth weapon his father had
-used many a time with such lack of improvement upon the school slates
-and with which one might kill a man.... The body would rest well down
-there beneath the muddy waters.... There would be no possibility of
-suspicion falling upon him, for the story of Rebecca Kerr's disgrace
-and Ulick Shannon's connection with it had already got about the
-valley.... He had been listening to his mother telling it to people all
-day.... Ulick's disappearance, in a way self-effacing and unnamed, was
-hourly expected. This opportunity appeared the one kind trick of Fate
-which had been so unkind to the passionate yearnings of John Brennan.
-
-But Ulick Shannon was by his side, and they were talking again
-as friends of different things in the light way of old.... Their
-talk moved not at all within the shadows of things about to happen
-presently.... But the shadows were closing in, and very soon they must
-fall and lie heavily upon all things here by the lake.
-
-"Isn't it rather wonderful, Brennan, that I should be going hence
-through the power of a woman? It is very strange how they always manage
-to have their revenge, how they beat us in the long run no matter how
-we may plume ourselves on a triumph that we merely fancy. Although
-we may degrade and rob them of their treasure, ours is the final
-punishment. Do you remember how I told you on that day we were at the
-'North Leinster Arms,' in Ballinamult, there was no trusting any woman?
-Not even your own mother! Now this Rebecca Kerr, she--"
-
-The sentence was never finished. John Brennan had not spoken, but his
-hand had moved twice--to lift the uncouth weapon from the foot of
-the tree and again to strike the blow.... The mold of unhappy clay
-from which the words of Ulick had just come was stilled forever. The
-great cry which struggled to break from the lips resulted only in a
-long-drawn sigh that was like a queer swoon. The mournful screech of a
-wild bird flying low over the lake drowned the little gust of sound....
-Then the last lone silence fell between the two young men who had once
-been most dear companions.
-
-No qualms of any kind came to the breast of John Brennan. He had
-hardened his heart between the leaping flames of Love and Hate, and
-there was upon him now the feeling of one who has done a fine thing.
-He was in the moment of his triumph, yet he was beginning to be amazed
-by his sudden power and the result of his decision.... That he, John
-Brennan, should have had it in him to murder his friend.... But no, it
-was his enemy he had murdered, the man who had desecrated the beauty of
-the world.... And there was a rare grandeur in what he had done. It was
-a thing of beauty snatched from the red hands of Death.
-
-Yet as he went about his preparations for submerging the body he felt
-something akin to disgust for this the mean business of the murder....
-Here was where the beauty that had been his deed snapped finally from
-existence in his consciousness and disappeared from him.
-
-Henceforth gray thought after gray thought came tumbling into his
-mind. Ulick had not been a bad fellow. He had tried to be kind to
-him--all the motor-drives and the walks and talks they had had. Even
-the bits of days and nights spent together in Garradrimna.... And how
-was Ulick to know of his affection for Rebecca Kerr? There had never
-been the faintest statement of the fact between them; his whole manner
-and conversation and the end for which he was intended forbade any
-suspicion of the kind. In fact to have had such a doubt would have
-been a sin in the eyes of many a Catholic.... The legs and arms were
-well weighted now.... This might not have happened if his mother had
-been attended in the right spirit of filial obedience.... But with
-the arrogance of youth, which he now realized for the first time, he
-had placed himself above her opinion and done what he had desired at
-the moment. And why had he done so?... She would seem to have had
-foreboding of all this in the way she had looked upon him so tenderly
-with her tired eyes many a time since his memorable home-coming last
-summer. She had always been so fearfully anxious.... Here must have
-been the melancholy end she had seen at the back of all dreaming.... He
-could feel that sad look clearly, all dimmed by dark presentiments.
-
-The body was a great weight. He strove to lift it in his arms in such a
-way that his clothes might not be soiled by the blood.... His face was
-very near the pale, dead face with the red blood now clotting amongst
-the hair.... He was almost overpowered by his burden as he dragged it
-to the water's edge.... It was a very fearful thing to look at just as
-the water closed over it with a low, gurgling sound, as if of mourning,
-like the cry of the bird in the moment the murder had been done.
-
-As he staggered back from the sighing reeds he noticed that the ground
-was blood-drenched beneath the tree.... But he was doing the thing most
-thoroughly. In a frenzy of precautionary industry he began to hack away
-the earth with the slating implement very much as Shamesy Golliher
-might hack it in search of a rabbit.
-
-Later he seemed to put on the very appearance of Shamesy himself as,
-with bent body, he slouched away across the ridge of the world. He too
-had just effected a piece of slaughter and Garradrimna seemed to call
-him.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXII
-
-
-When he came out upon the valley road he was no longer the admirable
-young man he had been less than a year since. He was a broken thing,
-and he was stained by another's blood. He was marked eternally by what
-he had done, and there was upon him a degradation unspeakable. He was
-an offense against existence and against the gathering, blessed gloom
-of the quiet evening.... He had murdered one who had been his friend,
-and it was a thing he might never be able to forget. The body, with
-all the lovely life so recently gone from it, he had weighted and sunk
-beneath the surface of the lake.... It was down there now, a poor, dead
-thing among the ooze of dead things from which the water had taken its
-color and quality. The wild spirit that had been Ulick Shannon, so
-contradictory in its many aspects, was now soaring lightly aloft upon
-the wings of clean winds and he, John Brennan, who had effected this
-grand release, felt the weights still heavy about his heart.
-
-He came on a group of children playing by the roadside. It seemed
-as if they had been driven across his path to thwart him with their
-innocence. He instantly remembered that other evening when he had been
-pained to hear them express the ugly, uncharitable notions of their
-parents regarding a child of another religion. Now they were playing
-merrily as God had intended them to play, and religion, with its
-tyranny of compulsion towards thoughts of death and sin, seemed distant
-from them, and distant was it from him too. His mind was empty of any
-thought. Would no kindly piece of imagination come down to cool his
-spirit with its grace or lift from his heart the oppression of the
-leaden weights he had bound about the body of Ulick Shannon?... At last
-he had remembrance of his mother. It had been borne in upon him during
-some of his lonely cycle-rides to and from Ballinamult that things
-should not be, somehow, as they were. He was moving along exalted ways
-while his mother labored in lonely silence at her machine.... Where
-was the money coming from? Such an unproductive state as his required
-money for its upkeep. His father was no toiler, but she was always
-working there alone in the lonely room. Her hands were grown gnarled
-and hard through her years of labor.... Just presently she was probably
-discussing a dismal matter of ways and means with some woman of the
-valley, saying as she had said through the long years:
-
-"Thank God and His Blessed Mother this night, I still have me
-hands. Aye, that's what I was just saying to Mrs. So and So this
-morning--Thank God I still have me hands!"
-
-Thus she was going on now, he imagined, as he had always heard her, a
-pathetic figure sitting there and looking painfully through the heavy,
-permanent mist that was falling down upon her eyes. And yet it was
-not thus she really was at this moment. For although it was a woman
-who held her company, there was no mood of peace between them. It was
-Marse Prendergast who was with her, and she was proceeding busily with
-her eternal whine. Mrs. Brennan was now disturbed in her mind and
-fearful of the great calamity that might happen. While she had bravely
-maintained the money in the little chest upstairs there had lingered,
-in spite of every affliction, a sense of quietness and independence.
-But now she was without help and as one distraught. Of late this
-gibbering old woman had obtained a certain power over her, and a
-considerable portion of the once proud Mrs. Brennan had fallen finally
-away. Although, at unaccountable moments, her strong pride would spring
-up to dazzle the people of the valley, she did not now possess that
-remarkable imperviousness which had so distinguished her attitude
-towards life. Now she was in a condition of disintegration, unable
-to maintain an antagonism or hide a purpose. The old ruined woman,
-the broken shuiler of the roads, was beginning to behold the ruins of
-another woman, the ruins of Mrs. Brennan, who had once been so "thick"
-and proud.
-
-"So you won't hearken to me request?"
-
-"I can't, Marse dear. I have no money to give you!"
-
-This was a true word, for the little store upstairs had gone this way
-and that. Tommy Williams had had to be given his interest, and although
-people might think that John was getting his education for charity, no
-one knew better than she the heavy fees of the college in Ballinamult.
-Besides, he must keep up a good appearance in the valley.
-
-But when Marse Prendergast made a demand she knew no reason and could
-make no allowance.
-
-"Well, Nan, me dear, I must do me duty. I must speak out when you can't
-bribe me to be silent. I must do a horrid piece of business this night.
-I must turn a son against his mother. Yes, that must be the way of it
-now, a son turned for good against his mother. For surely there could
-be no pardon in his grand, holy eyes for what you were once upon a
-time. But let me tell you this, that I'd have acquainted him anyhow,
-for I'd not have gone to me grave with that sin on me no matter what.
-They say it isn't right to offer a son to God where there's after being
-any big blemish in the family, and that if you do a woful misfortune or
-a black curse comes of it. And sure that was the quare, big blemish in
-your family, Nan Byrne, the quarest blemish ever was."
-
-Mrs. Brennan began to cry. She seemed to have come at last to the end
-of all her long attempt to brazen things out.... Marse Prendergast was
-not slow to observe this acceptance of defeat, and saw that now surely
-was her time to be hard and bitter. She was growing so old, a withered
-stump upon the brink of years, and there was upon her an enormous
-craving for a little money. People were even driven, by her constant
-whine for this thing and that, to say how she had a little store of her
-own laid by which she gloated over with a wicked and senile delight.
-And for what, in God's name, was she hoarding and she an old, lone
-woman with the life just cross-wise in her?... And it was always Mrs.
-Brennan whom she had visited with her singular and special persecution.
-
-"I suppose now you think you're the quare, clever one to be going on
-with your refusals from day to day. I suppose you think I don't know
-that you have a _chesht_ full of money that you robbed from poor Henry
-Shannon, God be good to him, when he used to be coming running to see
-you, the foolish fellow!"
-
-"As God's me judge, Marse Prendergast, I haven't e'er a penny in the
-house. I'm in debt in Garradrimna this blessed minute, and that's as
-sure as you're there!"
-
-"Go on out of that with your talk of debts, and you to be sending your
-son John through his college courses before all our eyes like any fine
-lady in the land. And think of all the grand money you'll be getting
-bye and bye in rolls and cartloads!"
-
-"Aye, with the help of God!"
-
-Even in the moment of her torment Mrs. Brennan could not restrain her
-vanity of her son.
-
-"And to think of all that being before you now and still you keep up
-your mean refusals of the little thing I ask," said the old woman with
-the pertinacious unreasonableness of age.
-
-"I haven't got the money, Marse, God knows I haven't."
-
-"God knows nothing, Nan Byrne, only your shocking villainy. And 'tis
-the great sin for you surely. And if God knows this, it is for some one
-else to know your sin. It is for your son John to know the kind of a
-mother that he loves and honors."
-
-Mrs. Brennan had heard this threat on many an occasion yet even now
-the repetition of it made her grow suddenly pale.... An expression
-of sickliness was upon her face seen even through the shadowed
-sewing-room. Always this thought had haunted her that some time John
-might come to know.
-
-"Long threatening comes at last!" was a phrase that had always held for
-her the darkest meaning. She could never listen to any woman make use
-of it without shuddering violently. Marse Prendergast had threatened
-so often and often.
-
-"Ah, no, Nan Byrne, this is something I could never let pass. And all
-the long days I saw you contriving here at the machine, and you so
-anxious and attentive, sure I used to be grinning to myself at the
-thoughts of the bloody fine laugh I'd be having at you some day. I
-used, that's God's truth!"
-
-It seemed terrible to be told the story of this hate that had been
-so well hidden, now springing up before her in a withering blast of
-ingratitude and being borne to her understanding upon such quiet
-words.... She sighed ever so slightly, and her lips moved gently in the
-aspiration of a prayer.
-
-"O Jesus, Mary and Joseph!" was what she said.
-
-The pious ejaculation seemed to leap at once towards the accomplishment
-of a definite purpose, for immediately it had the effect of moving
-Marse Prendergast towards the door.
-
-"I'm going now!"
-
-The words were spoken with an even more chilling quietness. Mrs.
-Brennan made a noise as if to articulate something, but no words would
-come from her.
-
-"And let you not be thinking that 'tis only this little thing I'm going
-to tell him, for there's a whole lot more. I'm going to tell him _all_
-I know, _all that I didn't tell you_ through the length of the years,
-though, God knows, it has been often burning me to tell.... You think,
-I suppose, as clever as you are, that the child was buried in the
-garden. Well, that's not a fact, nor the color of a fact, for all I've
-made you afraid of it so often.... Grace Gogarty had no child of her
-own for Henry Shannon. _Ulick Shannon is your own child that was sold
-be your ould mother for a few pound!_"
-
-"That's a lie for you, Marse Prendergast!"
-
-"'Tis no lie at all I'm telling you, but the naked truth. I suppose
-neither of them lads, Ulick nor John, ever guessed the reason why they
-were so fond of one another, but that was the reason; and 'tis I used
-to enjoy seeing them together and I knowing it well. Isn't it curious
-now to say that you're the mother of a blackguard and the mother of the
-makings of a priest?... Mebbe you'd give me the little bit of money
-now? Mebbe?"
-
-Mrs. Brennan did not answer. Big tears were rolling down her cheeks
-one after the other.... Her heart had been rent by this sudden flash
-of information. Even the last remaining stronghold of her vanity had
-been swept away. That she, who had claim in her own estimation to be
-considered the wise woman of the valley, could not have long since
-guessed at the existence of a fact so intimate.... Her heart was
-wounded, not unto death, but immortally.... Her son! Ulick Shannon her
-son! O Mother of God!
-
-
-John Brennan was still in his agony as he saw the long-tongued shuiler
-coming towards him down the road. She was making little journeys into
-the ditches as she came along. She was gathering material for a fire
-although every bush was green.... She was always shivering at the
-fall of night. The appearance of the children had filled him with
-speculations as to where he might look for some comfort.... Could it be
-derived from the precepts of religion translated into acts of human
-kindness? Momentarily he was confused as he attempted to realize some
-act of goodness to be done here and now. He was unable to see.
-
-Old Marse Prendergast, coming towards him slowly, was the solitary
-link connecting his mind with any thought. To him she appeared the
-poor old woman in need of pity who was gathering green sticks from the
-hedge-rows to make her a fire which would not kindle. He remembered
-that morning, now some time distant, when he had helped her carry home
-a bundle of her sticks on his way from Mass. It had appeared to him
-then, as it did now, a Christ-like action, but his mother had rebuked
-him for it. Yet he had always wished his mother to take the place of
-Mary when he tried to snatch some comfort from the Gospel story. Soon
-he was by her side speaking as kindly as he could.... Great fear was
-already upon him.
-
-"God bless you, me little Johneen, me little son; sure 'tis yourself
-has the decent, kind heart to be taking pity upon the old. Arrah now!
-You're alone and lonely this evening, I notice, for your friend is gone
-from you. It bees lonely when one loses one's comrade. Ah, 'tis many a
-year and more since I lost me comrade through the valley of life. Since
-Marks Prendergast, the good husband of me heart and the father of me
-children, was lost on me. Sure he was murdered on me one St. Patrick's
-Day fair in Garradrimna. He was ripped open with a knife and left there
-upon the street in his blood for me to see.... That's the way, that's
-the way, me sweet gosoon; some die clean and quiet, and some go away in
-their blood like the way they came."
-
-Had she devoted much time and skill to it she could not have produced
-a more dire effect upon John than by this accidental turn of her
-talk.... The scene by the lakeside swam clearly into his eyes again.
-
-"I suppose _your_ good comrade is gone away?"
-
-"Whom, what?"
-
-"Ulick Shannon, to be sure. I suppose he's after slipping away be this
-time anyway."
-
-"Aye, he's gone away."
-
-"That was what you might call the nice lad. And it was no wonder at all
-that you were so much attached to one another. Never a bit of wonder at
-all.... Sure you were like brothers."
-
-John was so solicitous in maintaining his silence that he did not
-notice the old woman's terrible sententiousness.... He went on pulling
-green sticks from the hedge and placing them very carefully by the side
-of those she had already gathered.
-
-"Just like brothers. That's what ye were, just like brothers. He, he,
-he!"
-
-Although he did not detect the note of laughter in it that was hollow
-and a mockery, he was nevertheless appalled by what should appear as
-a commendation of him who was gone.... He felt himself shaking even
-as the leaves in the hedgerows were being shaken by the light wind of
-evening.
-
-"Like brothers, _avic machree_."
-
-Even still he did not reply.
-
-"Like brothers, I say, and that's the whole story. For ye were
-brothers. At least you were of the one blood, because ye had the same
-woman for the mother of ye both."
-
-Certainly she was raving, but her words were having an unusual effect
-upon him. He was keeping closer to the hedge as if trying to hide his
-face.
-
-"To-night, me fine gosoon, I'm going to do a terrible thing. I'm going
-to tell you who your mother is, and then you'll know a quare story.
-You'll know that Ulick Shannon, good luck to him wherever he's gone,
-was nothing less than your own brother.... It is she that is after
-forcing me on to it be her penurious and miserly ways. I didn't want to
-tell ye, John! I say, I didn't want to tell ye!"
-
-Her old, cracked voice trailed away into a high screech. John Brennan
-was like a man stunned by a blow as he waited for her to speak the rest
-of the story.
-
-"Ulick Shannon's father, Henry Shannon, was the one your mother loved.
-She never cared for your father, nor he for her. So you might say you
-are no love child. But there was a love child in it to be sure, and
-that child was Ulick Shannon. Your mother was his mother. He was born
-out of wedlock surely, but he happened handy, and was put in the place
-of Grace Gogarty's child that died and it a weeshy, young thing.... It
-was your grandmother that sold him, God forgive her, if you want to
-know, for I was watching the deed being done.... Your mother always
-thought the bastard was murdered in the house and buried in the garden.
-I used to be forever tormenting her by making her think that only it
-was me could tell. There was no one knew it for certain in the whole
-world, only me and them that were dead and gone. So your mother could
-not have found out from any one but me, and she might never have found
-out only for the way she used to be refusing me of me little dues....
-But I can tell you that she found out this evening how she was the
-mother of Ulick Shannon, and that you, the beloved son she cherished
-in her heart and put on in all her pride to be a priest of God, was a
-near blood relation of the boy she was never done but running down. The
-boy that she, above all others, with her prate and gab made a drunkard
-of in the first place, and then rushed on, be always talking of the
-like about him, to do great harm to this girl. But sure it was myself
-that could not blame him at all, for it was in him both ways, the poor,
-unfortunate gosoon!"
-
-There was no reason to doubt the old shuiler's story, with such
-passionate vehemence did it fall from her. And its coherence was very
-convincing. It struck him as a greater blow which almost obliterated
-his understanding. In the first moment he could stand apart from it
-and look even blindly it appeared as the swift descent of Divine
-vengeance upon him for what he had just done.... He moved away, his
-mind a bursting tumult, and without a sight in his eyes.... The mocking
-laughter of Marse Prendergast rang in his ears. Now why was she
-laughing at him when it was his mother who was her enemy?
-
-He was walking, but the action was almost unnoticed by him. He was
-moving aimlessly within the dark, encircling shadow of his doom.... Yet
-he saw that he was not far distant from Garradrimna.... The last time
-he had been there at the period of the day he had been in company with
-Ulick Shannon. It was what had sprung out of those comings together
-that was now responsible for this red ending.... He remembered also
-how the port wine had lifted him out of himself and helped him to see
-Rebecca Kerr.... The windows were squinting through the gloom as he
-went the road.
-
-There was stronger drink in Garradrimna and pubs. of greater intensity
-than McDermott's. There was "The World's End," for instance, that
-tavern so fantastically named by the Hon. Reginald Moore in memory of
-an inn of the same name that had struck his fancy in England.... The
-title now seemed particularly appropriate.
-
-It was towards this place his feet were moving. In another spell
-of thought which surprised him by the precaution it exhibited, he
-remembered that his father would not be there; for, although it had
-been Ned Brennan's famous haunt aforetime, he had been long ago
-forbidden its doors. It was in this, one of the seven places of
-degradation in Garradrimna, he was now due to appear.
-
-He went very timidly up to the back-door, which opened upon a little,
-secluded passage. He ordered a glass of whiskey from the greasy barmaid
-who came to attend him.... He felt for the money so carefully wrapped
-in tissue-paper in his waistcoat pocket. It was a bright gold sovereign
-that his mother had given him on the first day of his course at
-Ballinamult College to keep against any time he might be called upon to
-show off the fact that he was a gentleman. As he unfolded it now, from
-the careful covering in which she had wrapped it, it seemed to put on a
-tragic significance.... He was fearfully anxious to be in the condition
-that had brought him his vision on the night he had slept by the lake.
-
-He drank the whiskey at one gulp, and it seemed a long time until
-the barmaid returned with the change. Sovereigns were marvels of
-rare appearance at "The World's End." He thanked her and called for
-another, paying her as she went. She was remarkably mannerly, for, in
-the narrow gloom of the place, she took him to be some rich stranger.
-She had seen the color of his money and liked it well.
-
-The whiskey seemed to possess magical powers. It rapidly restored him
-to a mood wherein the distress that was his might soon appear a small
-thing. Yet he grew restless with the urgency that was upon him and
-glanced around in search of a distraction for his galloping brain....
-He bent down and peered through the little aperture which opened upon
-the public bar of "The World's End." In there he saw a man in a heated
-atmosphere and enveloped by dense clouds of tobacco-smoke. They were
-those who had come in the roads to forget their sweat and labor in the
-black joy of porter. Theirs was a part of the tragedy of the fields,
-but it was a meaner tragedy. Yet were they suddenly akin to him....
-Through the lugubrious expression on their dark faces a sudden light
-was shining. It was the light as if of some ecstasy. A desire fell upon
-him to enter into their dream, whatever it might be.... In the wild
-whirl that the whiskey had whipped up in his brain there now came a
-sudden lull. It was a lull after a great crescendo, as in Beethoven's
-music.... He was hearing, with extraordinary clearness, what they were
-saying. They were speaking of the case of Ulick Shannon and Rebecca
-Kerr. These names were linked inseparably and were going hand in hand
-down all the byeways of their talk.... They were sure and certain that
-he had gone away. There was not a sign of him in Garradrimna this
-evening. That put the cap on his guilt surely. Wasn't she the grand
-whipster, and she supposed to be showing a good example and teaching
-religion to the childer? A nice one to have in the parish indeed! It
-was easy knowing from the beginning what she was and the fellow she
-struck up with--Henry Shannon's son. Wasn't that enough for you? Henry
-Shannon, who was the best blackguard of his time!... Just inside, and
-very near to John, a knot of men were discussing the more striking
-aspects of the powerful scandal.... They were recounting, with minute
-detail, the story of Nan Byrne.... Wasn't it the strangest thing now
-how she had managed more or less to live it down? But people would
-remember it all again in the light of this thing. What Ulick Shannon
-had done now would make people think of what his father had done, and
-then they must needs remember her.... And to think that no one ever
-knew rightly what had become of the child. Some there were who would
-tell you that her sister, Bridget Mulvey, and her mother, Abigail
-Byrne, buried it in the garden, and there were those who would tell you
-that it was living somewhere at the present time.... Her son John was
-not a bad sort, but wasn't it the greatest crime for her to put him on
-to be a priest after what had happened to her, and surely no good could
-come of it?... And why wouldn't Ned Brennan know of it, and wasn't it
-that and nothing else that had made him the ruined wreck of a man he
-was? Sure he'd never done a day's good since the night Larry Cully
-had lashed out the whole story for his benefit. And wasn't it quite
-possible that some one would be bad enough to tell John himself some
-time, or the ecclesiastical authorities? What about the mee-aw that had
-happened to him in the grand college in England that so much had been
-heard of? And there was sure to be something else happening before he
-was through the college at Ballinamult. A priest, how are ye?
-
-The whiskey had gone to his head, but, as he listened, John Brennan
-felt himself grow more sober than he had ever before been.... So this
-was the supplement to the story he had heard a while ago. And now that
-he knew the whole story he began to tremble. Continually flashing
-across his mind were the words of the man who was dead and silent at
-the bottom of the lake--"You could never know a woman, you could never
-trust her; you could not even trust your own mother." This was a hard
-thing for any man at all to have said in his lifetime, and yet how
-full of grim, sad truth did it now appear?... The kind forgetfulness
-of his choking bitterness that he had so passionately longed for
-would not come to him.... The dregs of his heart were beginning to
-turn again towards thoughts of magnanimity as they had already done
-in the first, clear spell of thought after his deed. He had then gone
-to gather sticks for the old woman, a kind thing, as Jesus might have
-done in Nazareth.... The change of the sovereign was in his hand and
-his impulse was strong upon him. He could not resist. It seemed as if
-a strong magnet was pulling a light piece of steel.... He had walked
-into the public bar of "The World's End." Around him was a sea of
-faces, laughing, sneering, drinking, sweating, swearing, spitting. He
-was calling for a drink for himself and a round for the shop.... Now
-the sea of faces was becoming as one face. And there was a look upon it
-which seemed made up of incredulity and contempt.... This was replaced
-by a different look when the pints were in their hands.... They were
-saying: "Good health, Mr. Brennan!" with a sneer in their tones and a
-smile of flattery upon those lips which had just now been vomiting out
-the slime of their minds.
-
-There was another and yet another round. As long as he could remain on
-his feet he remained standing drinks to them. There was a longing upon
-him to be doing this thing. And beyond it was the guiding desire to be
-rid of every penny of the sovereign his mother had given him to help
-him appear as a gentleman if he met company.... Now it seemed to soil
-him, coming as it did from her. Curious that feeling after all she had
-done for him, and she his mother. But it would not leave him.
-
-The drink he had bought was fast trickling down the many throats that
-were burning to receive it. The rumor of his prodigality was spreading
-abroad through Garradrimna, and men had gone into the highways and the
-byeways to call their friends to the banquet. Two tramps on their way
-to the Workhouse had heard of it and were already deep in their pints.
-Upon John's right hand, arrived as if by magic, stood Shamesy Golliher,
-and upon his left the famous figure of Padna Padna, who was looking up
-into his face with admiration and brightness striving hard to replace
-the stare of vacancy in the dimming eyes. As he drank feverishly,
-fearful of losing any, Shamesy Golliher continuously ejaculated: "Me
-sweet fellow, John! Me sweet fellow!" And Padna Padna kept speaking to
-himself of the grand thing it was that there was one decent fellow left
-in the world, even if he was only Nan Byrne's son. Around John Brennan
-was a hum of flattery essentially in the same vein.... And it seemed to
-him that, in his own mind, he had soared far beyond them.... Outwardly
-he was drunk, but inwardly he knew himself to be very near that rapture
-which would bring thoughts of Rebecca as he staggered home alone along
-the dark road.
-
-The companions of his Bacchic night had begun to drift away from
-him. Ten o'clock was on the point of striking, and he was in such a
-condition that he might be upon their hands at any moment. They did not
-want Walter Clinton, the proprietor of "The World's End," to be giving
-any of them the job of taking him home. The hour struck and the remnant
-went charging through the doorways like sheep through a gap. Shamesy
-Golliher limped out, leading Padna Padna by the hand, as if the ancient
-man had suddenly become metamorphosed into his second childishness....
-"The bloody-looking idiot!" they were all sniggering to one another.
-"Wasn't it a hell of a pity that Ned Brennan, his father, and he always
-bowseying for drink in McDermott's and Brannagan's, wasn't in 'The
-World's End' to-night?"
-
-John was alone amidst the dregs of the feast. Where the spilt drink
-was shining on the counter there was such a sight of glasses as he had
-never before seen. There were empty glasses and glasses still standing
-with half their drink in them, and glasses in which the porter had not
-been touched so drunk had everybody been.
-
-Walter Clinton came in indignantly and said that it was a shame for
-him to be in such a state, and to go home out of that at once before
-the peelers got a hold of him.... And he went out with difficulty and
-down the old road of the elms towards his mother's house in the valley.
-He could hear the hurrying, heavy feet of those he had entertained so
-lavishly far down before him on the road.... For the moment he was
-happy. Before his burning eyes was the form of Rebecca Kerr. Her face
-had a look of quiet loveliness. He thought it was like the faces of
-the Madonnas in Father O'Keeffe's parlor.... "Rebecca! Rebecca!" he
-called to her ever in the agony of his love. "Thy hands, dear Rebecca!"
-... She was not soiled now by any earthly sin, for he had purified her
-through the miracle of blood. And she was clean like the night wind.
-
-He was a pitiable sight as he went staggering on, crying out this
-ruined girl's name to the night silence of the lonely places.... At
-last he fell somewhere in the soft, dewy grass. For a long while he
-remained here--until he began to realize that his vision was passing
-with the decline within him of the flame by which it had been created.
-The winds upon his face and hair were cold, and it seemed that he was
-lying in a damp place. His eyes sprang open.... He was lying by the
-lakeside and at the place where he had murdered Ulick Shannon.
-
-He jumped up of a sudden, for his fear had come back to him. With his
-mouth wide open and a clammy sweat upon his brow, he started to run
-across what seemed a never-ending grassy space.... He broke madly
-through fences of thorn and barbed wire, which tore his clothes and his
-hands. He stumbled across fields of tillage.... At last, with every
-limb shivering, he came near his mother's door.... Presently he grew
-coldly conscious.... He could hear his father muttering drunkenly
-within. He came nearer, striving hard to steady himself and walk erect.
-He quickened his step to further maintain his pretense of sobriety. His
-foot tripped against something, and he lurched forward. He was caught
-in his mother's arms, for, at the sound of his approach, she had opened
-the door in resigned and mournful expectation.
-
-"O Jesus!" she said.
-
-There were two of them now.
-
-
-THE END
-
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