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-<h1>DARK WINDOWS</h1>
-
-<h2>BY BRYCE WALTON</h2>
-
-<p class="ph1"><i>Sooner or later it would happen, and<br />
-after that he wouldn't ever have to<br />
-worry again. He'd be dead, or worse,<br />
-one of the silent living dead.</i></p>
-
-<p>[Transcriber's Note: This etext was produced from<br />
-Worlds of If Science Fiction, October 1957.<br />
-Extensive research did not uncover any evidence that<br />
-the U.S. copyright on this publication was renewed.]</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p>I was suddenly wide awake and listening. A gray light the color of
-wet charcoal lay over the chilled room. There it was again. Plain and
-sharp through the thin wall separating my room from that of old man
-Donnicker, the shoe-maker.</p>
-
-<p>Maybe he was sick. No, that wasn't it. Another muted cry of pain, then
-a choking sound, and the unmistakable thud of a falling body. An odd
-whirring sound clicked off. Then a voice said, "Grab the verminous legs
-of this subversive, Marty. Let's get him in the wagon."</p>
-
-<p>"You gave him too much bip. He looks deader than Einstein."</p>
-
-<p>"I said grab his legs."</p>
-
-<p>A door shut. I went to the window. I was shivering in the morning
-chill. A black car moved away down the broken pavement. It swerved to
-miss a large mudhole in the middle of the street and an old woman with
-burlap wrapped around her feet didn't move fast enough. She flew across
-the sidewalk like a ragged dummy and lay in a heap.</p>
-
-<p>Goodbye, Donnicker. I had seen the black car before. Donnicker was
-dead. But it didn't bother me. I never had anything to do with
-neighbors, anybody I didn't know had a top clearance. I was clear and
-intended to stay that way.</p>
-
-<p>You just never knew. Donnicker had seemed like a true patriot. My
-carefully distant and casual observations of him had led me to believe
-he was as happily stupid as I was. But he had been hiding something.</p>
-
-<p>I turned from the window and started the day's routine that had been
-the same for as long as I could remember. I warmed up some mush on
-the gas burner. At seven, as always, the Tevee warmed up, and Miss
-Info with the lacquered lips smiled at me. "... and so don't worry,
-citizens. The past is dead. The future is assured, and tomorrow will
-only be another today. And today we are safe and care-free."</p>
-
-<p>Amen. She said it every morning, but it was nice hearing it again.
-Then the news came on. There was a pile of junked tractors, trucks
-and harvesting machines, smashed and rusting. Then a line of farmers
-working with hoes and hand-guided ploughs drawn by horses.</p>
-
-<p>"Machines took away sacred routine work from citizens. Eggheads built
-the machines to disrupt and spread the disease of reason. We are now
-replacing machines at the rate of a million a week. Soon, all of us
-will again be united in the happy harmonious brotherhood of labor. And
-when you see a rusting machine, what you are seeing is another captured
-Egghead, frothing and fuming in its cage...."</p>
-
-<p>At a quarter to eight I walked ten blocks to work. There were the
-usual hectic early morning traffic jams. Wagon-loads of produce and
-half-starved horses blocking the streets. The same man was beating a
-nag with a board. A wagon piled with fruit and vegetables was stuck in
-a pot hole in the pavement. Two men were carrying a spinning wheel into
-the front of an apartment building. A peddler was selling oil lanterns,
-wicks and kerosene out of a barrel. The same women and boys in dirty
-sheepskin jackets were hauling rickshaws.</p>
-
-<p>I really didn't see anyone or speak to anyone. I didn't know anyone. I
-knew I was safe and had nothing to worry about. Once a week I used up
-my GI liquor chit at a bar with a Security seal on the window. Twice
-a week, I slept over at a GI brothel, where every girl had a Security
-clearance number tattoed on her thigh.</p>
-
-<p>I had nothing to worry about.</p>
-
-<p>I was passed through three gates by guards and went to my little cage
-inside Pentagon Circle, local headquarters of the Department of
-Internal Security.</p>
-
-<p>Until that Tuesday morning I couldn't remember ever having done
-anything but sort colored cards. My chief qualification for my job:
-I wasn't color blind. When a green card with figures on it meaning
-nothing to me came out of a slot in the wall, I pushed it into a green
-slot that led somewhere into a filing department. When a red card came
-out, I pushed it into a red slot, and so forth. There were cards of
-fifteen colors.</p>
-
-<p>Another qualification: my unconscious efficiency. I never had even a
-hint of an abstract thought. I never remembered yesterday, let alone
-the day before. And until that Tuesday morning I never made even a tiny
-mistake.</p>
-
-<p>I had no idea what I was doing. Nor was I at all curious. Curiosity was
-highly suspect. Curiosity was dangerous in the best of all possible
-worlds. It was ridiculous in a state where people had never had it so
-good.</p>
-
-<p>Cards sped from my hands always into correct slots. Care-free hours
-slipped painlessly by into the dead past. I was sure I was safe and not
-thinking at all. I was a blessed blank. And then all at once&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"<i>The eyes are the windows of the soul.</i>"</p>
-
-<p>The thought meant nothing to me, except it was wrong, it didn't belong
-in the routine. The routine flew to pieces. My efficiency blew up.
-I felt like a shiny bottle in a row of bottles with a sudden crack
-running down the middle. Red cards hit blue slots. Green cards hit
-yellow slots. Cards piled up, spilled over the floor. The more I tried
-to return to my efficiency, the worse everything was.</p>
-
-<p>My suit was wet with sweat. I thought of Mr. Donnicker. If a man's
-routine broke, it could only be because some inner guilt was disrupting
-his harmony. A happy person is an efficient person. Inefficiency is the
-symptom of a guilty conscience.</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. Fredricks," a voice whispered. "You're replaced here."</p>
-
-<p>A cold paralysis gripped me.</p>
-
-<p>"Get up, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>I jumped out of my chair. A thin, stooped little man in a cheap gray
-suit and dull eyes took my place. In no time at all he had straightened
-out my mess. Cards were blurs moving into the right slots.</p>
-
-<p>A wide, fattish man in a wrinkled dark suit was watching me out of
-curiously shining eyes. He carried a black briefcase. I had seen the
-black briefcases before. Special Police Agent.</p>
-
-<p>He opened the door of my cage and motioned for me to go out ahead of
-him. "Say goodbye to all this, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>I felt the smile on my wet face as I nodded and tried to feel grateful
-while at the same time trying to suppress the flood of fear coming up
-through me and turning to sickness in my throat.</p>
-
-<p>I simply couldn't be afraid. I had nothing to hide. And if I was hiding
-something inside me I didn't know about, I should feel glad to have it
-detected and get it all cleaned out.</p>
-
-<p>"My name is John Mesner," he said as we walked down the corridor. I
-couldn't say anything. I felt like a string someone was beginning to
-saw on with a rusty knife.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner's office somewhere upstairs was a dingy room with a dusty desk
-and a couple of chairs. The walls were made of cracked concrete lined
-with dusty filing cabinets. The window was so soiled I could barely see
-the shadows of bars through the panes.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner sat down, put his feet on the desk. He took an apple out of his
-desk drawer and started peeling it slowly with a small penknife.</p>
-
-<p>"You scared, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"Of course not."</p>
-
-<p>He smiled, held out a long ribbon of apple peel and dropped it on the
-floor. "You're scared, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>I put my Personology Card on his desk right in front of him. "I just
-had a quarterly brain-check a week ago. There it is."</p>
-
-<p>I stopped myself somehow from yelling out wildly as he stabbed the card
-with his penknife, then tore it in little pieces and dropped them on
-the floor.</p>
-
-<p>"You've got nothing to be afraid of, Fred. But it'll probably take you
-a while to realize it." He went on peeling the apple. He had thick
-hands, stubby fingers, and the nails were dirty. He had a round pale
-face, a receding chin, thinning hair, and an absurd little red cupid
-bow mouth.</p>
-
-<p>I tried not to hear the moaning sound that seemed to come from the
-other side of a door to Mesner's right. He got up, went to the door,
-opened it. "Shut that guy up," he said. He shut the door and sat down
-again. He sliced off a bite of apple and pushed it into his mouth.</p>
-
-<p>"To make it short, Fred. I've investigated you thoroughly. And I can
-use you here in SPA. You're being transferred."</p>
-
-<p>My throat was constricted. I leaned against the desk. "I don't
-understand, sir. I don't know anything about Police Work. I'm only a
-clerk, a card-sorter. I don't have any qualifications. And you can
-see&mdash;my card."</p>
-
-<p>"A couple of field-trips with me, Fred, and you'll be a veteran."</p>
-
-<p>"But why me?"</p>
-
-<p>"You're already in the Security Department for one thing. That makes it
-convenient. Also, your Intelligence Quotient."</p>
-
-<p>"It's a low eighty," I said. "That's the average. I'm well below
-normal, and this brain-check showed I was lower this time than the
-last. So how could my IQ make any difference?"</p>
-
-<p>"Curiosity killed the cat, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>I managed to sit down before I fell down. It was impossible that
-I should really become an agent in the SP, the most powerful and
-feared organization in the state. What then was Mesner really up to?
-One work error shouldn't have snagged me. I'd never been guilty of
-thinking above a rudimentary and socially acceptable level. My IQ
-was unquestionably low. I was little more than a moron. So why was I
-frightened. Why did I feel guilty? Why was Mesner interested?</p>
-
-<p>Mesner stood up and dropped the apple core on the floor.</p>
-
-<p>"We're going on a field-trip now, Fred. Your indoctrination as an SPA
-man is beginning."</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>Mesner piloted the heliocar. Mesner said the only heliocars left in
-operation belonged to SPA. He dropped it on a plot of dried grass
-on the side of a forested hill in the Tennessee Mountains. Until we
-got out of the heliocar, I didn't know Mesner had a gun. I couldn't
-remember having heard of a gun or seen one before, but Mesner told me
-all about guns. He slid the rifle out of a canvas case, checked it,
-called it his favorite little field piece. Then he handed me his black
-briefcase.</p>
-
-<p>He led the way down a narrow path. It was a quiet sunny day. Squirrels
-ran between the trees. Birds hopped and sang up in the leaves.</p>
-
-<p>In front of a gray, dilapidated shack was a rickety wagon. Two men were
-lifting a sack out of the rear of the wagon. They wore ragged overalls
-and no shirts and they were both barefoot.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner yelled. "You. Dirksons! This is a security check."</p>
-
-<p>The shorter one started to run. Mesner shot him in the back of the
-head. The tall man grabbed up a piece of iron with a hooked end and
-started yelling as he ran toward us.</p>
-
-<p>"Open the briefcase," Mesner said calmly.</p>
-
-<p>I opened it. Mesner leaned the rifle against a tree. He knelt down,
-brought a metal disc out of the briefcase attached to a wire. He turned
-a dial on a bank of controls inside the case. I heard a whirring hum.
-The tall hillbilly screamed. He stretched up on his toes, strained his
-arms and neck at the sky, then fell twitching on his face.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner walked toward the hillbilly and I stumbled after him. I was
-going to be sick, very sick. The sun worked like pins in my eyeballs.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner drew a round metal cap which he called a stroboscope from the
-case, fitted it on the hillbilly's head. The metal strip had a disc
-hanging down in front of the hillbilly's eyes and about two inches away.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner worked the dials and the flicker began blinking off and on,
-faster and faster, then slower, then faster again as the hillbilly's
-eyes stared into it unblinkingly. His muscles began to twitch. He beat
-the ground with his flat hands. Grasshoppers jumped across his face.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner pointed out to me that I was watching an on-the-spot
-brain-probe. The brain-prober, or bipper, as Mesner called it, was so
-effective he hardly ever had to use the other items in the case such
-as the psychopharmaceuticals, drugs, brain shock gadgets, extractors,
-nerve stretchers and the like.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner sat on his haunches, worked the flicker and lit a cigarette.
-"These brain-wave flickers correspond to any desired brain-wave rhythm.
-You play around and you'll get the one you want. They talk. What they
-don't say comes out later from the recorder. With this bipper you can
-get anything out of anyone, almost. If you don't get the info you want
-it's only because they don't have it. It burns them out considerably in
-the process, but that's all to the good. They're erased, and won't do
-any meddlesome thinking again."</p>
-
-<p>The hillbilly wasn't moving now as the flicker worked on his eyes and
-activated desired mental responses.</p>
-
-<p>"Dirkson," Mesner said. "What happened to your sister, Elsa?"</p>
-
-<p>"Don't know. She runned away."</p>
-
-<p>"She was blind wasn't she? Wasn't she born blind?"</p>
-
-<p>I felt an icy twist in my stomach.</p>
-
-<p>"That's right. Borned blind as a bat."</p>
-
-<p>"What happened to her?"</p>
-
-<p>"Runned away with some river rat."</p>
-
-<p>"You've hidden her somewhere, Dirkson. Where?"</p>
-
-<p>"I ain't hid her nowhere."</p>
-
-<p>Mesner turned a dial. The hillbilly screamed. His body bent upward.
-Blood ran out of his mouth. He was chewing his tongue. Mesner stood up
-and frowned. "Guess he didn't know. If he knew he'd have told us. He's
-no disguised Egghead. Just a damn collaborating, bottle-headed jerk."</p>
-
-<p>I went over behind some brush and was sick. The hillbilly would never
-answer any more questions, I knew that much. Now he was laughing and
-babbling and crawling around on his hands and knees.</p>
-
-<p>"It's rough at first, Fred. No matter how patriotic you are, and how
-much you hate Eggheads, it's always rough at first. But you should get
-used to it."</p>
-
-<p>"What&mdash;I mean why&mdash;?"</p>
-
-<p>"The Dirksons didn't show for their quarterly brain-check. You assume
-they're hiding something. It turns out they're not, then you haven't
-lost anything. Of course you have to burn them out a little to
-question them. But better to burn one innocent bottlehead than let one
-double-dome slip away." Mesner turned and looked at me. "Isn't that
-right, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"Of course it's right," I said quickly. Mesner smiled at me.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>On the way back to Washington, Mesner piloted the heliocar casually. He
-leaned back, smoking cigarettes, the ashes streaming down the front of
-his soiled lapels.</p>
-
-<p>"I think you'll work out fine in SPA, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>I was still sick. I had a throbbing ache in my head and sweat kept
-stinging in my eyes. I nodded numbed agreement with Mesner.</p>
-
-<p>"I appreciate your trying to make an SPA man out of me," I finally
-managed to say. "But could you have made some mistake? Gotten the wrong
-file or something?"</p>
-
-<p>"No. Your IQ is a nice low eighty, Fred. But you're just not aware that
-you have what is technically known as a quiescent IQ."</p>
-
-<p>"What's that?"</p>
-
-<p>"You're a true patriot, Fred. We both know that. So don't be scared.
-You know the sick and evil danger of a high IQ and so you've put an
-unconscious damper on your own intelligence. You're not really so dumb,
-Fred."</p>
-
-<p>"But I am," I said quickly.</p>
-
-<p>"No, Fred. You think you are, and you look and act normally stupid
-and believe me, Fred, I admire your patriotic suppression of your
-intelligence, even from yourself. But a fact is a fact, and you're not
-so dumb."</p>
-
-<p>"I'm not pretending. I'm not a a subversive&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Easy now," Mesner said. "You're not a subversive, that's right. A
-real subversive knows he's smart, is proud of it and consciously
-tries to hide it from others. But you loathe your own inherent mental
-ability, and you've been able to freeze its operation, conceal it even
-from yourself. Now realize this, Fred. The only place we can allow
-intelligence to operate is inside the Government. The Government must
-have a slightly superior thinking capacity in order to run things&mdash;for
-the present anyway."</p>
-
-<p>"But any IQ above eighty is subversive. It says in the&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"That's an ideal, a goal for the future, Fred. When the transition's
-been made, when the last Egghead is captured and put away, then all of
-us will be normal. We'll get ourselves bipped, and burn our excessive
-intelligence down to the eighty mark. But until that time, Fred,
-some of us&mdash;especially the SPA&mdash;have to keep our wits about us. An
-unfortunate necessity that we pray will soon be ended."</p>
-
-<p>I gazed numbly out through the plastic canopy at the white clouds
-streaming past. He was trying to get some admission out of me, I
-thought. That was the only explanation. Working some subtle game with
-me. But that was absurd on its face, because I was way below normal.</p>
-
-<p>"My IQ's no good for you then," I said. "I just don't see&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>Mesner interrupted with an impatient laugh. "You're a hell of a lot
-brighter than you let yourself admit that you are, Fred. That's all
-I'm saying. You know it's a terrible thing to be smart, so you keep it
-under wraps. But now you know there's nothing to be afraid of. You know
-it's legal for a while longer to be smart as long as you're in SPA. Now
-you can start opening up, releasing your mental capacity. Believe me,
-Fred, it's for the good of the state. I know it sounds like a paradox,
-but that's how it is."</p>
-
-<p>"How can it be good when it's such an evil thing?"</p>
-
-<p>"Because right now it's a necessary evil. SPA has problems, Fred. There
-are still a lot of Eggheads running loose, causing trouble. And the
-doubledomes still loose are the toughest ones to catch, and that's
-our job. We've got to track down the old maniac physicists, chemists,
-engineers, professors, psyche-boys and the like who are still working
-underground. Until they're all caught Fred, we've got to live with our
-own filthy brains. Because you see it takes brains to catch brains."</p>
-
-<p>"But I have hardly any brains at all," I insisted.</p>
-
-<p>"You'll see, Fred. You'll see."</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>Before I left his office that evening he gave me an SPA identity card.
-My name and face were on it. Suddenly it seemed impossibly official.
-All at once, I was one of the most feared and powerful men in the
-State. Only I knew that the only one I really feared was me.</p>
-
-<p>That card supposedly gave me a free hand. It could take me anywhere,
-even into top-secret departments in Security. With it, I was immune
-to curfew laws, to all social restrictions and regulations. But when
-I went for a walk that evening, I knew I was being followed. Wherever
-I went, eyes watched me constantly. Shadows moved in and out of gray
-doorways and dissolved around corners.</p>
-
-<p>After nine, after the curfew sirens howled down the emptied streets, I
-walked fast toward the ancient rooming house in which I thought I had
-always lived. Hundreds of silent gray women and children came out onto
-the streets and began cleaning them with brooms. One by one, the gas
-lights along the rubbled streets went out. I started to run through
-shadows, and footsteps moved behind me.</p>
-
-<p>A drunken man came out of an alley and staggered down the broken
-pavement where weeds grew. A black car whisked him away. But no black
-car stopped for me. I saw no one with a black briefcase either. I saw
-only shadows, and felt unseen eyes watching me.</p>
-
-<p>The old woman who had been run down by a black car still lay there
-on the sidewalk. No one dared approach that corpse to get it off the
-streets. No one knew who it was, or why it was dead. No one would take
-any chances. One was just as suspect from associating with a guilty
-corpse as a living neighbor named Donnicker.</p>
-
-<p>Upstairs, I saw a splotch of blood on the hall floor. This time I knew
-it was Donnicker's. It reminded me of the Dirksons now. And of who
-could say how many others?</p>
-
-<p>I lay down and took all three of tomorrow's tranquitabs. We were
-allotted a month's supply of tranquitabs at a time, and we were all
-compelled by law to take three a day. They knocked out worry and
-anxiety usually. But now they didn't seem to do me much good. I
-couldn't seem to go to sleep. This had never happened to me before.</p>
-
-<p>Maybe Mesner was right. Maybe I did have a high IQ but wasn't
-consciously aware of it. This being true, then I <i>had</i> to be in SPA.
-SPA was the only place a high IQ could be tolerated.</p>
-
-<p>What really bothered me the most, of course, was why I should be
-worried about anything. If my IQ was useful, I ought to be glad of
-it. A true patriot should be glad also to have unconscious subversive
-elements detected. A true patriot would be grateful for whatever
-treatment could cleanse him. What was the matter with me? Didn't I want
-to be purified, cleansed? Didn't I want to be bipped a little?</p>
-
-<p>I didn't trust Mesner. I didn't believe he really wanted me to help
-him track down Eggheads. But so what? If he was trying to find out
-something about me, I ought to be glad to cooperate.</p>
-
-<p>Only I wasn't.</p>
-
-<p>I had bad dreams. I dreamed of Dirkson babbling and crawling and
-smiling at me with his bloody mouth. He kept smiling and whispering to
-me: "I never did know nothing, and now I'm just all burned out."</p>
-
-<p>I dreamed of old man Donnicker being dragged down the stairs.</p>
-
-<p>Then I dreamed that Mesner came in and looked down at me sleeping. A
-light bulb came down from the ceiling. It turned bright, then dull,
-then bright, then dull.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner smiled as he lit a cigarette. "That really bothered you didn't
-it, Fred. Bipping the Dirkson boy."</p>
-
-<p>"It made me sick."</p>
-
-<p>I wanted to wake up. I tried my best to wake up because I felt that if
-I didn't wake up now, I never would. I would die in my sleep.</p>
-
-<p>"Let's talk about it, Fred. I'm uneasy about it myself sometimes. I've
-bipped so many of them, maybe my conscience bothers me. You think it
-might bother a man's conscience, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"What do you mean, conscience?"</p>
-
-<p>"Maybe you think there's something immoral about bipping a man."</p>
-
-<p>"If the State does it, it's right," I said. "If it helps bring about
-the Era of Normalcy and absolute and permanent stability, then any
-method is right."</p>
-
-<p>Was that the correct answer? I was beginning to feel confused.
-Thoughts, words all jumbling up. There was an orthodox thought and
-an orthodox answer for everything. I'd learned them all. But had I
-answered this one correctly?</p>
-
-<p>"That's right, Fred. But the old crackpot Egghead moralists used to say
-that the end doesn't necessarily justify the means. They would claim
-that bipping a man was wrong, and that no good results could ever come
-from it. They would say that a destructive means would always create a
-destructive end. Violence, they said, could only create more violence.
-What do you think of that, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"That's wrong," I said. "That's confusing, double-dome stuff."</p>
-
-<p>"I know. But we've got to identify with Egghead thinking if we can. No
-matter how repulsive it is, we've got to understand how they think if
-we're going to track them down and put them away. Now think hard, Fred.
-Have you ever heard a man say, 'Better that the whole world should die
-than that one man's brain should be invaded against his will.'"</p>
-
-<p>"No, no, that's subversive," I screamed.</p>
-
-<p>There was more dream, more questions, more and more confused answers. I
-woke up in a cold sweat. I found several electronic spy-eyes concealed
-about the room. Just outside my door I saw one of Mesner's cigarette
-butts. It was yellowed with spittle, twisted and pinched in the way his
-always were.</p>
-
-<p>I didn't know if all of that night, or only part of it had been a
-dream. I didn't know if Mesner had actually been questioning me in my
-sleep or not. The spy-eyes could do that. But I knew Mesner had been
-outside my door. Probably he had been questioning my dreams.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>That day was worse than the night. Mesner had said to wait until I
-heard from him, but there was no word from him that day. I tried more
-tranquitabs. The hell with tomorrow's supply. They didn't help me. A
-blinding headache hit me at regular intervals.</p>
-
-<p>What was Mesner using me for? What did he want from me? What was I
-supposed to know?</p>
-
-<p>The Educational Tevee came on also at regular intervals.</p>
-
-<p>"... so if you might think, Citizens, that a machine could do your
-simple work better, just remember what a terrible thing the machines
-did to us during the cataclysmic age of reason. As you know, the
-machines were invented to replace human labor by Eggheads who have
-always tried to destroy normal, comfortable and simple ways of life.
-The disease of free-thought was only possible after the machines
-replaced human beings, gave us the time to develop excessive and
-self-destructive thinking...."</p>
-
-<p>I watched the light outside my window turn a duller gray then black,
-and after that an edge of white moon slid partly across the pane.</p>
-
-<p>Why should I care what Mesner was trying to get out of me? If it was
-subversive then I should be glad to get rid of it. If I was clear and
-clean, then I had nothing to worry about. Why wasn't I simply bipped
-like Donnicker and Dirkson had been? Why should a true patriot care?</p>
-
-<p>I shivered and stared into the darkness. Something horrible had
-happened to me. For the first time I realized I was entertaining
-unpatriotic thoughts. I didn't want to be bipped. And I knew that when
-Mesner finished with me, I would be bipped. When he found out whatever
-I was supposed to know, I'd join Dirkson and the rest of them. It had
-been all right, going along with the routines, as long as I actually
-hadn't seen what happened to a man if he didn't.</p>
-
-<p>I didn't want to be erased. Whatever I was, I suddenly wanted to stay
-me, guilty or not. Maybe this attitude was all that Mesner wanted to
-be sure of. But I doubted it. Because a simple bipping would have
-determined that.</p>
-
-<p>I didn't think I could stomach any more of Mesner's field-trips. On the
-other hand I had to go along. It all seemed to boil down to whether I
-wanted to get bipped now or later.</p>
-
-<p>"Bipping isn't bad at all," Mesner had said yesterday. "After you're
-bipped, you can do routine work like everyone else, never worry again
-about worrying. That guy who replaced you, for example. He was bipped.
-He's never made a mistake for 20 years. He never will."</p>
-
-<p>I closed my eyes. I thought of all the happy bottleheads walking
-the streets, out on the farms, doing their routine work, happy and
-care-free as long as they didn't worry. Human vegetables, the erased
-ones, and the terrified ones who didn't know they were even scared.
-Cities full of dull-eyed ciphers, and now that I was outside it a
-little, I could see them with an awful clarity.</p>
-
-<p>And I thought&mdash;how many are as dumb as they appear to be? How many
-were just too frightened and numbed to think? How many would stay
-frightened and numb so long that they would never be able to think even
-if they sometime decided to try?</p>
-
-<p>It was easy enough to assume that too much intelligence was an evil,
-a virus to be burned out. Was it better to have too little and become
-like the hillbilly?</p>
-
-<p>Oh, Mesner had set my so-called quiescent IQ going all right. But how
-far would it go before it had gone far enough for his purpose?</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>That night I had another bad dream. Only it didn't really seem so bad
-as it should have been. A blind man was talking to me. Then I dreamed
-that a blind girl with a seeing-eye dog was looking at me. She was
-about fifteen, maybe younger, dressed in a plain flowered dress tied
-in back with a ribbon. She had a soft round face and her eyes were
-wide and opaque. The girl and dog seemed to come out of a mist and
-they whispered to me. It was frightening, but important, and I didn't
-remember what it was.</p>
-
-<p>I woke up shivering. I seemed to smell wet hair, and the window was
-open. I couldn't remember whether I had shut the window before I went
-to sleep or not.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner called me early the next morning.</p>
-
-<p>He looked the same in his wrinkled suit with the food stains on the
-lapels, and peeling an apple.</p>
-
-<p>"Fred, have you ever heard a phrase sounding like '... and the blind
-shall lead them?'"</p>
-
-<p>I appeared to be trying to think about it, then said I had never heard
-anything like that.</p>
-
-<p>"You're positive about that?"</p>
-
-<p>"I don't remember it."</p>
-
-<p>"You mean you might have, but you just can't remember it."</p>
-
-<p>"I didn't say that. I doubt if I ever heard such a phrase."</p>
-
-<p>"What about this one, '... and the blind shall see again.'"</p>
-
-<p>"No, I said.</p>
-
-<p>"You're sure?"</p>
-
-<p>I looked directly at him and he stopped peeling the apple. "If I'm
-supposed to have such a damn high quiescent IQ, why not let me in on a
-few things?"</p>
-
-<p>"What few things?"</p>
-
-<p>"These references to the blind. The Dirksons. Some blind girl named
-Elsa. What are you trying to find out?"</p>
-
-<p>"I thought maybe you remembered something, that's all. I'm pretty much
-in the dark myself. All I have are a few clues and theories."</p>
-
-<p>"Clues, theories, about what?"</p>
-
-<p>"Eggheads. Sabotage. What the crackpots could build, they can best
-destroy. They're blowing up factories, manufacturing and power plants,
-machines, production."</p>
-
-<p>"That's sabotage? I thought the whole idea in bringing about the Era of
-Normalcy was to do away with all mechanization. Do everything with the
-hands, like in the good old days."</p>
-
-<p>"That's an ultimate goal, Fred. Drudges don't think. They're happier.
-But the transition has to be more gradual. The Eggheads want to take
-away all mechanization at once, create chaos and anarchy. They figure
-that will cause the bottleheads to revolt against the Government. We
-can't catch the saboteurs. The saboteurs inside a blown-up factory, for
-example, we never know who they are. We bip every worker, not a sign of
-a saboteur. So whoever does the dirty work is a mindless tool of the
-Egghead underground, having no memory of having committed sabotage. Who
-are the couriers, the ones who make vital contact between the Egghead
-underground and the saboteurs? The dumb saboteur has to get his highly
-complex directives from the Eggheads. Who are the couriers?"</p>
-
-<p>"Why ask me?"</p>
-
-<p>"I know this much, Fred. Blind people are used as couriers."</p>
-
-<p>My knees felt weak. I couldn't say anything. All I could think about
-was my dreams.</p>
-
-<p>"I want to show you something, Fred." Mesner led me through the other
-door. A bleak concrete cubicle, no windows, a damp walled gray cell.
-Two naked men lay on slabs. Stroboscopes on their heads. Behind them,
-styluses recorded brain-wave patterns on moving white strips. One of
-the men, the one on the left, was blind. His eyes staring up into the
-flicker were opaque.</p>
-
-<p>"Look at those brain-wave recordings, Fred. They're getting the same
-stimulus. We can give a thousand bottleheads this stimulus with the
-flicker, and get identical responses. But not the blind boys. We can't
-successfully bip a blind boy. The brain-waves are radically different
-and we've never figured out a way of codifying them. A blind bastard's
-never <i>seen</i> anything. The seeing eyes are trackers, like radar. But a
-blind boy takes in reality and records it and keeps it in a different
-way. We can't get at the code easily. But I'm getting it. I've bipped
-plenty of blind boys and I'm getting it, Fred. The blind are used for
-couriers. I know that much. For the simple reason that we can't bip
-meaningful info out of their scrambled think-tanks."</p>
-
-<p>The naked men on the slabs moaned. One of them opened his mouth and a
-bloody foam spread over his chin.</p>
-
-<p>"What I'm looking for now is a known courier who is also blind. Then I
-can bip him, and check the info with the code I've worked out."</p>
-
-<p>He unbuttoned his coat and took a black hand-gun out of a holster
-strapped beneath his arm. "Meanwhile, Fred, these bottleheads have had
-it. They're burned out."</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<div class="figcenter">
- <img src="images/illus.jpg" width="650" height="247" alt=""/>
-</div>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p>I heard the two sharp echoing reports as Mesner shot them in the head.
-One of them beat his heels on the slab. Mesner pointed the smoking
-revolver. "Even dead, the blind brain records differently. See there?"</p>
-
-<p>I leaned against the wall. Through a crumbled hole down in the corner
-of damp concrete, I saw two red eyes and heard the rat squealing.</p>
-
-<p>"Let's go, Fred. We've got some important field-trips on today's
-schedule. And you still have a lot to learn."</p>
-
-<p>We went to Chicago. We set up some hidden electronic spy-eyes in a
-big apartment building. They were to be checked later for evidence of
-someone there who was hiding an IQ of over a hundred.</p>
-
-<p>And that afternoon we ran down a renegade bio-chemist hiding in a
-tenement. He had disguised himself for a number of years as a plumber.
-Mesner bipped him, and an official Security heliocar came down from
-Washington to take him away.</p>
-
-<p>When Mesner finished with the old man he was hopping around like a
-monkey, making grotesque faces, giggling and yelling. Tevee cameramen
-were on hand. A reporter was commenting on the capture of another, "...
-insane crackpot who has been living here under an assumed name while
-plotting and planning and building some diabolical machine with which
-to blow up the city. Our department of Internal Security excercising
-its eternal vigilance, captured him in time...."</p>
-
-<p>Mesner and I took the heliocar back up into a clear blue sky and headed
-for Sauk City.</p>
-
-<p>"Do you wonder, Fred, why we just don't kill them after they're bipped?"</p>
-
-<p>"What could it matter?"</p>
-
-<p>"It doesn't to them, but to us it matters. Public likes their
-scapegoats alive. More satisfying to hate live people. Public likes
-to see their dragons behind bars, humiliated, treated like crackpots.
-Makes a bottlehead feel good to see an Egghead dancing like a monkey.
-Also prevents martyrs. Living men are never martyrs."</p>
-
-<p>"So why are we going to Sauk City?" I asked. I wanted to change the
-subject.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner had information that an ex-professor from some long-extinct
-University had been concealing a high IQ after having supposedly purged
-himself of it years before. He was supposed to have been caught by a
-brain-probing spy-eye and was reported to have an IQ of over 160.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner talked of such an IQ as though it was a living time-bomb that
-might go off any minute and blow Sauk City and the entire State to
-hell. He shot the heliocar along at 500 miles an hour. He held the
-T-Bar in one hand and lit cigarettes with the other.</p>
-
-<p>"What upset you so much, Fred? I mean that morning when I interrupted
-you sorting cards?"</p>
-
-<p>I felt a warning click in my head. I remembered it. <i>The eyes are the
-windows of the soul.</i></p>
-
-<p>Mesner, I thought, couldn't look into the windows of a blind man. Could
-I?</p>
-
-<p>It hadn't been my own thought that had disrupted my idyllic, care-free
-life sorting cards. Mesner had said it to me.</p>
-
-<p>"Just the unexpected break in the routine," I said. You've already
-explained it. My quiescent IQ is just too high to be a successful
-card-sorter."</p>
-
-<p>"It wasn't <i>what</i> I said?"</p>
-
-<p>"What did you say? I've forgotten."</p>
-
-<p>"The eyes are the windows of the soul. But I was only quoting, Fred.
-Some crackpot said that long ago."</p>
-
-<p>"Why probe me about blind people? I never knew any."</p>
-
-<p>"Ninety percent of a human being's mental activity is underground,
-like most of an iceberg is under water. How much of your past can you
-remember, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"Very little. The past is dead. Why should I remember it?"</p>
-
-<p>"Because a good intelligence depends on the past. Memory is a part
-of it. Without a past, you don't have a brain. And we've got to
-release our brains, Fred, for awhile. Until we can catch saboteurs and
-Eggheads."</p>
-
-<p>"I guess I've just been a patriot too long," I said.</p>
-
-<p>"Remember attending Drake University ten years ago, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"Sure," I said, fast, as though it was unimportant. I was really
-beginning to sweat. "I can remember if you keep prodding me. Sure, I
-can. So what? I purged myself. I forgot it. Schools weren't illegal
-then."</p>
-
-<p>"But we've got to reawaken all those past memories, Fred. Make our
-brains work better, even if a lot of double-dome stuff comes up. You
-remember a psyche prof named O'Hara?"</p>
-
-<p>I felt suddenly dizzy, sick. A wavering wheel started turning in my
-head. I managed to stop it from turning so fast. "I don't remember that
-at all," I said.</p>
-
-<p>"Then of course you wouldn't remember that he was blind?"</p>
-
-<p>In the darkness behind closed lids I could see patterns of light begin
-to flicker and threatening whispers dug at a fogging curtain.</p>
-
-<p>"Don't push it, Fred. It'll come. I'm patient. If I weren't, then by
-this time I would be bipped myself and safely put away."</p>
-
-<p>He would get it all right, I knew. Sooner or later he would tap it.
-First I would tap it, then Mesner would tap it. And after that I never
-would worry again. I'd never worry about remembering or forgetting
-anything. I wouldn't even be me. A body with a bipped brain would walk
-around doing routine work, and looking like me. But I'd be dead. I
-didn't want to die that way. Genuine physical death would be all right.
-But not that, not that bipping treatment.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner turned quickly and caught me staring at the outline of the
-hand-gun under his coat. He smiled. "You want one of these, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>"Not yet," I said. "I don't remember enough yet. I'm not smart enough
-yet."</p>
-
-<p>"Tell me when you're ready."</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>By the time we closed in on the professor in an old deserted house
-on the outskirts of Sauk City, he had managed to hang himself to a
-waterpipe in the basement. He wore a pair of ragged pants. He was
-terribly thin and his hair was white, and his toothless mouth gaped
-open and his jaws sucked in. I had never seen anyone appear so pitiful
-and so harmless as that old man hanging there.</p>
-
-<p>We untied the rope and the body fell to the floor. Mesner took a small
-disc from his case and put it over the dead man's heart, then stood up.
-"He's too dead. We should have gotten here a few minutes earlier."</p>
-
-<p>He seemed tired as he sat down on a soggy box. His hands were dirty
-with coal dust and a smudge of it was on his face.</p>
-
-<p>This is it, I thought. Now was as good a time for it as any, because
-there wasn't any good time for it. He had all the advantage. And the
-longer it went on, the greater advantage he would have. It was only a
-question of time anyway, and I couldn't stand waiting.</p>
-
-<p>I lunged at him. I heard the faint whining sound, saw the flash and
-the glint of the disc coming out of his pocket. A sudden, painless
-paralysis hit me and I was helpless on my knees looking at Mesner. He
-just stared at me morosely, tired, irritated a little.</p>
-
-<p>"You should know better, Fred. You're smart."</p>
-
-<p>"Go to hell," I said.</p>
-
-<p>He shook his head. "Not now, Fred. Nor you either. It isn't me you want
-to get, Fred. You just don't want to get bipped. You ought to trust
-me. I don't want to bip you, now or ever. I mean it. We need brains to
-catch Eggheads and that's my job. You're valuable. Everybody getting
-bipped, it isn't easy to get smart people these days."</p>
-
-<p>"Bip me now then, you bastard. Get it over with."</p>
-
-<p>"You'd better trust me. I'm being honest. Some of these other orthodox
-jerks in Security, they wouldn't fool with you. They would bip you
-sooner than look at you."</p>
-
-<p>"Why don't you?"</p>
-
-<p>"I've told you, for God's sake. You're a bright guy, and I'm eager to
-learn. And I don't want to burn up any important info."</p>
-
-<p>Then I got it. Then I knew why he was keeping the bipper off me.</p>
-
-<p>I thought about it all the way back to Washington while Mesner fed
-himself apples. I was supposed to have valuable unconscious info.
-Mesner wanted it. But the old crackpots were right. The means not only
-created the ends, but could destroy the ends if the means were bad
-enough. You probe and pry into a man's brain deep and hard enough and
-you come up with nothing. Your methods have destroyed the end. You've
-burned out the truth you're trying to get.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner was trying to get info from me without burning it up.</p>
-
-<p>The bastard was trying to have his bloody cake and eat it. But the
-insight didn't make my position any easier. He was going to get it some
-way. His talking and hinting and probing was designed to awaken vital
-memory in me, get it up into total consciousness where he could get at
-it with his instruments without the danger of burning it up.</p>
-
-<p>Soon as he got what he wanted he would bip me. I couldn't keep him
-from getting it because I didn't know what it was. I couldn't keep on
-suppressing something if I didn't know what it was, and I knew that no
-one can consciously suppress knowledge in himself in any case.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>For two more days I didn't hear from Mesner. I indulged in feverish
-and ridiculous escape fantasies. There could be no escape for me. The
-educational voices from the Tevee drifted in and out.</p>
-
-<p>"... the greatest threat to man's happy survival is reason. Man was
-never intended to go above a certain mental level and become thereby a
-victim of his own imagination and complex fears. This disease of reason
-has been carried to its final suicidal limit by Eggheads...."</p>
-
-<p>No mention of sabotage. The care-free public must not hear of such
-disquieting things. All the public heard 24 hours a day was a voice
-telling them about the evils of reason. The destructiveness of
-overly-developed brains, and the vicious criminality of Eggheads.</p>
-
-<p>After listening to that long enough, and having all subversive level
-IQs purged, who could believe otherwise? How many believed otherwise
-now? Did I? What in hell did Mesner want to dig out of me? Who, what,
-why was I?</p>
-
-<p>I was still a bottle. But now there were countless cracks appearing in
-it.</p>
-
-<p>Then Mesner called, said we were going on another field-trip that next
-afternoon. All right, I said. Someway or other, I knew, I would make
-this my last trip with Mesner.</p>
-
-<p>He had located a blind man, he said, who he knew had been a courier,
-a blind man definitely linked up with a recent sabotaging of a motor
-parts plant somewhere in Illinois.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>Mesner looked down on the shanty town from a high bluff above the
-river. The river rats' shanties were built half in, half out of the
-water, some of them on stilts, some of them actually consisting of
-dilapidated houseboats.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner said river rats were worse rebs even than hillbillies. They
-drifted up and down the rivers. You staged a raid and they dissolved
-away into the river like rodents. Many of them skipped quarterly
-brain-checks, but no one knew how many. Birth and death records weren't
-kept by river rats.</p>
-
-<p>I walked ahead of Mesner down a winding gravel path into rotting reeds
-by the river, then we followed another muddy path toward the shanties.
-Frogs and insects hummed. A path of moonlight moved across the water.
-A ribby hound dog slunk away from me. A ragged kid looking wilder than
-the hound, ran across the path and slipped soundlessly into the muddy
-water.</p>
-
-<p>Mesner pointed out the blind man's shack. Then he looked at me and
-smiled with that absurd little cupid bow mouth. "This isn't the time
-either, Fred. If you think we're not covered, you're wrong. You
-couldn't run fifty feet before they burned you down."</p>
-
-<p>We walked nearer the loosely boarded and sagging shack.</p>
-
-<p>"You take the back, Fred. Just remember, better later than now. And be
-careful. When these river rats get stirred up, they can cause a hell of
-a row. The entire goon squad would have to move in and there would be a
-mass bipping spree."</p>
-
-<p>Mesner crept nearer, then whispered. "No light. You can't even tell if
-one of them's at home after dark. Why do they need a light? Go on,
-watch the back door, Fred. And don't let this one slip by."</p>
-
-<p>I heard the front door crash inward. A man wearing only tattered pants
-ran out. He was thin and ribby like the dog, and I could see the
-moonlight shining on the opaque whiteness of his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>He ran directly at me. And I knew I wasn't going to try to stop him.
-But I didn't know why. Then Mesner came out and fired a small gun,
-smaller than the one under his coat. It wasn't the same. This was a
-nerve-gun and it curled the synaptic connections between neurons.</p>
-
-<p>The blind man collapsed and lay like a corpse at my feet. I knelt down
-and felt of him. Mesner whispered for me to drag the old man inside. I
-hooked my hands under his shoulders and pulled him into the shack. It
-didn't matter to me now, nor to the blind man, I thought.</p>
-
-<p>He hardly weighed anything. His eyes were fixed in a white silence as
-Mesner shone a small flashlight into them. Then Mesner shut both doors
-and pulled a ragged cloth across the single window.</p>
-
-<p>He opened his case. He put the stroboscope on the blind man's head. The
-bluish light began to flicker over the staring opaque eyes. I saw the
-nerve-gun lying on the floor beside Mesner's hand.</p>
-
-<p>"You're too late," I said. "He's dead. I wouldn't have dragged him in
-here if I hadn't known he was dead."</p>
-
-<p>Mesner was breathing thickly. His fat round face was pale and shiny
-with sweat. "I know he's dead. He must have gulped a fast-action poison
-soon as I came in the door. Maybe even the blind boys are deciding
-things are getting too hot."</p>
-
-<p>Mesner worked the stroboscope.</p>
-
-<p>"But he's dead," I said.</p>
-
-<p>"Brain cells are the last to die," Mesner said. "Maybe I can pick up a
-little info yet."</p>
-
-<p>It burst out of me then as from an abscess. The bottle cracked into a
-thousand fragments. I lunged at Mesner. He seemed to roll away from me,
-and then he squatted there in the flickering light. He leveled the gun
-at me.</p>
-
-<p>"So you're beginning to wake up, Fred!"</p>
-
-<p>Probing a dead man. Questioning the dead. Even a corpse was sacred no
-longer. The vile and horrible bastards, all of them.</p>
-
-<p>"I don't care what happens to me," I said.</p>
-
-<p>"That's noble of you."</p>
-
-<p>"I'm going to kill you."</p>
-
-<p>"Why?"</p>
-
-<p>"You wouldn't understand."</p>
-
-<p>"Maybe I wouldn't agree, but I'll understand, Fred. I know what you're
-thinking. What I'm doing now is just too much. Right? The final
-indignity one human being could inflict on another, right? A human mind
-should be sacred, even if it's dumb. Even if it's dead. Especially if
-it's dead. Right, Fred?"</p>
-
-<p>I started around the rickety table toward him.</p>
-
-<p>"Now it's set off, Fred. You're fired up now. That's what I've been
-waiting for. You were planted to sabotage Security itself, Fred, and
-I always knew that. Now we're going to find out all the rest of it.
-Now it's squeezing out of your unconscious, and we can drain it, empty
-it all out. They put a lid on your mind, Fred, and I've taken it off.
-Put on the ethical pressure, put it heavy on your idealistic Egghead
-morality, steam it up hot, blow the lid off. It's working, Fred."</p>
-
-<p>"Is it?" I said. "I don't remember anything that would do you any
-good. I just know that it's wrong, the final horrible fraud. It isn't
-intelligence you guys want to wipe out, Mesner. Not your own, not the
-big wheels in power. It's only certain kinds of thinking, undesirable
-thoughts, attitudes you don't like. Those are what you have to purge."</p>
-
-<p>"Right, Fred. Only the wrong kind of Eggheads. Me, hell I'm an Egghead
-too. Remember the prize pupil in your psych class at Drake University,
-Fred?" Mesner laughed. "That was me."</p>
-
-<p>"You can kill people," I said. "You can't burn a sense of what's right
-or wrong out of people. That old dead blind man there has preserved
-something you can't touch."</p>
-
-<p>"Too bad you won't be around to see how wrong you are, Fred. We can
-make people whatever we damn well want them to be. Your old ethical
-pals worked out the methods. We're using it for a different end."</p>
-
-<p>The front door squeaked. I felt a moist draft on my face, and a whisper
-in my brain. A few words. I don't remember what they were. But they
-were a key that opened floodgates of self-understanding and awareness.
-I remembered a lot then, a lot of things and feelings that warmed me. I
-had a wonderful sense of wholeness and I was no longer afraid of being
-bipped, or afraid to die.</p>
-
-<p>There was an expression of complete triumph on Mesner's face, and
-he knew what had happened to me and he wanted it, all of it, sucked
-away into his briefcase. Just the same, the whisper from the doorway
-distracted his attention and I went for him.</p>
-
-<p>In that second of time, I saw the little blind girl who had whispered
-that triggering phrase for my release, and behind her, the seeing-eye
-dog. She was utterly unafraid and smiling at me. Courage she was
-saying. And I could share it with her.</p>
-
-<p>She had sealed her own death in order to make me whole again.</p>
-
-<p>I smashed the flashlight off the table into the wall and my weight
-drove Mesner onto the floor. I managed to grab his arm and we lay there
-in the dark straining for the nerve-gun. I began to hear the whir
-of heliocars. I twisted Mesner's arm up and around and released the
-nerve-gun's full charge directly into his face. A stammering scream
-came out of him. It was the scream of something not human. A full
-charge of that into the brain, it must have curled up the intricate
-connections and short circuited his brain into an irreparable hash.</p>
-
-<p>I took the blind girl's hand and we ran toward the river. The sky was
-crossed with search beams. And in the deep darkness by the river I
-was suddenly as blind as the girl who held my hand. We kept running
-and stumbling through the reeds. I felt her hand slip from mine. Then
-something hit me.</p>
-
-<p>It wasn't a localized impact, but something seemed to have hit me all
-over and moved through me as though my blood suddenly turned to lead.</p>
-
-<p>I tried to find the girl. I tried to crawl to the river, into the
-river. And near me I heard the girl say softly, "Goodbye now, Mr.
-Fredricks. Don't worry, because you'll be brave."</p>
-
-<p>"Thanks," I said. "Little girl, what's your name?"</p>
-
-<p>She didn't answer. I tried to call out to her again in the darkness,
-but I couldn't move my lips. Paralysis gripped me, and after that
-blackness, with the lights sometime later beginning to flicker against
-my tearing eyes, and then the horror.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>The inquisition ended sooner than I thought it would. After the awful
-intrusion, there isn't any farther awareness of time. After you are
-thoroughly invaded, after your private soul, every naked cell of your
-brain is peeled open, exposed to the raw glaring light, after that you
-no longer care. What is you has been obliterated the way a shadow is
-eaten by the burn of cold light.</p>
-
-<p>Your identity is gone. They take it. You are theirs, all of you belongs
-to them. You feel them pouring out your mind down to the pitiful dregs
-as though they are pouring cups of coffee.</p>
-
-<p>The pain is a shredding, ripping, raveling horror. After that there is
-no feeling at all, and this is worse.</p>
-
-<p>I told them everything I knew. What I couldn't tell, they tapped,
-tearing chunks out the way you would rip pages and chapters out of a
-book.</p>
-
-<p>The responsible humanists, scientists, intellectuals had known what
-was coming. They prepared for it, and set up the plan before the last
-days of the Egghead purge. They set up the future saboteurs by a long
-intricate process of psychodynamic conditioning. They did it in the
-Universities before the schools were purged. Promising students were
-selected, worked on.</p>
-
-<p>Fredricks, a psychology student, was subjected to repeated hypnotic
-experiments. A blind Professor named O'Hara did most of it. It was
-all there finally in Fredrick's head, but then it was all suppressed
-and finally Fredricks himself forgot that he knew. A delayed hypnotic
-response pattern, an analogue, is set up. Later it will be triggered
-off by a phrase, a word, a series of words repeated at conditioned
-response intervals.</p>
-
-<p>Ten years later he was working inside, inside Security itself. When
-circumstances were right, a blind courier was to have triggered off
-Fredrick's suppressed knowledge allowing him to sabotage the entire
-Department of Records and Scientific Method. So many scientists and
-intellectuals had already been purged that few remained among the
-available personnel of Security who could have repaired a simple
-gasoline motor without a step-by-step chart taken from the Department
-of Records.</p>
-
-<p>It would have been a master coup for the underground.</p>
-
-<p>But Mesner had traced Fredrick's identity back to Drake University,
-back to O'Hara. He had gotten suspicious, and removed Fredricks from
-Security.</p>
-
-<p>The blind girl had whispered the key phrase just the same, in order
-that Fredricks might face the ordeal of the inquisition with as much
-pride, strength, and courage as possible.</p>
-
-<p>"Only a free man, a man who fully respects himself as an individual and
-a human being," Fredricks told his inquisitors, "only a man who has
-learned why he is living, can die like a man."</p>
-
-<p>Then they killed me.</p>
-
-<p>They tried to get more out of me, but what they wanted to know, I knew
-nothing whatever about. I knew nothing about the underground, or the
-headquarters of the Eggheads.</p>
-
-<p>But by then I was dead, and what they did was of no importance. I was
-no longer me. There was no awareness of being me. I had joined Dirkson
-and the renegade bio-chemist and all the others.</p>
-
-<p>I was hopping up and down in a cage before the Tevee cameras, and a
-reporter was talking to millions of smiling, care-free citizens and
-telling them how another vicious crackpot had been captured just in
-time to avert some terrible disaster which would have disturbed the
-status quo.</p>
-
-<p>Then I was taken away.</p>
-
-<p>"Are you awake now, Mr. Fredricks?"</p>
-
-<p>I opened my eyes. I was in a clean white room lying near a barred
-window. An attractive nurse smiled at me. She was holding a clipboard
-and making notations on a report pad.</p>
-
-<p>"How do you feel now, Fred?" Painfully, I turned and saw several ghosts
-standing and sitting on the other side of the bed. I could see a door
-behind them, partly opened onto a softly lit corridor.</p>
-
-<p>There was Dr. Malden, a famous anthropologist whom I had last seen in
-a newspaper headline during the purge. And Dr. Marquand, Nobel Prize
-winner in electrobiology. And Dr. Martinson, one time head of the UN
-Research Foundation. Dr. Rothberg, social psychologist. All dead, all
-purged, bipped and confined years ago. All ghosts.</p>
-
-<p>Only they were there. And they were alive, and they seemed glad to see
-me. All I knew was that I was alive again. I was aware of being me. And
-somehow I knew that these forgotten names were also alive again.</p>
-
-<p>Rothberg handed me a cigarette and the nurse lit it for me. I
-remembered that once I had liked cigarettes.</p>
-
-<p>"So what's happened," I said. My voice was weak. My insides felt as
-though they were filled with grinding pieces of broken razor blades.</p>
-
-<p>"You're in Zany-Ward No. 104," Dr. Rothberg said.</p>
-
-<p>"I don't believe I quite understand," I said carefully.</p>
-
-<p>"You will," Dr. Rothberg said. "Let's just say for a starter that when
-a man is bipped and brought here, we try to put him back together
-again. It's a long painful process. Sometimes he's not quite the same,
-but we've done pretty good work. We rebuild burned-out circuits. We
-have to know exactly what you were before you were bipped, and we try
-to duplicate the pattern. Regeneration is slow and rough. You'll be all
-right."</p>
-
-<p>They shook hands with me and smiled down at me and went out. The pretty
-nurse gave me a pill and I lay back and thought about it. It was
-logical enough, and I started to laugh. During the months after that
-while the slow process of re-learning and regeneration continued, I
-learned more about the Zany-Wards. Serious as it was, and as much as
-there was yet to be done, it was always amusing.</p>
-
-<p>As Eggheads were apprehended and confined, they were rehabilitated, put
-back together again, in a way you could say fissioned. The Eggheads are
-the inmates. They run the Zany-Wards which are used also as bases of
-operation in a continuing attempt to disrupt the Era of Normalcy. Great
-scientific labs are concealed underground.</p>
-
-<p>When Security inspection committees appear on the scene, we all put on
-our acts. We dance, make faces, act like monkeys and giggle.</p>
-
-<p>Doctor Rothberg told me yesterday that if our sabotage work doesn't
-soon cause people to rebel against the Era of Normalcy, it won't be
-long before we'll be the only sane people left in the world.</p>
-
-
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- DARK WINDOWS
-
- BY BRYCE WALTON
-
- _Sooner or later it would happen, and
- after that he wouldn't ever have to
- worry again. He'd be dead, or worse,
- one of the silent living dead._
-
- [Transcriber's Note: This etext was produced from
- Worlds of If Science Fiction, October 1957.
- Extensive research did not uncover any evidence that
- the U.S. copyright on this publication was renewed.]
-
-
-I was suddenly wide awake and listening. A gray light the color of
-wet charcoal lay over the chilled room. There it was again. Plain and
-sharp through the thin wall separating my room from that of old man
-Donnicker, the shoe-maker.
-
-Maybe he was sick. No, that wasn't it. Another muted cry of pain, then
-a choking sound, and the unmistakable thud of a falling body. An odd
-whirring sound clicked off. Then a voice said, "Grab the verminous legs
-of this subversive, Marty. Let's get him in the wagon."
-
-"You gave him too much bip. He looks deader than Einstein."
-
-"I said grab his legs."
-
-A door shut. I went to the window. I was shivering in the morning
-chill. A black car moved away down the broken pavement. It swerved to
-miss a large mudhole in the middle of the street and an old woman with
-burlap wrapped around her feet didn't move fast enough. She flew across
-the sidewalk like a ragged dummy and lay in a heap.
-
-Goodbye, Donnicker. I had seen the black car before. Donnicker was
-dead. But it didn't bother me. I never had anything to do with
-neighbors, anybody I didn't know had a top clearance. I was clear and
-intended to stay that way.
-
-You just never knew. Donnicker had seemed like a true patriot. My
-carefully distant and casual observations of him had led me to believe
-he was as happily stupid as I was. But he had been hiding something.
-
-I turned from the window and started the day's routine that had been
-the same for as long as I could remember. I warmed up some mush on
-the gas burner. At seven, as always, the Tevee warmed up, and Miss
-Info with the lacquered lips smiled at me. "... and so don't worry,
-citizens. The past is dead. The future is assured, and tomorrow will
-only be another today. And today we are safe and care-free."
-
-Amen. She said it every morning, but it was nice hearing it again.
-Then the news came on. There was a pile of junked tractors, trucks
-and harvesting machines, smashed and rusting. Then a line of farmers
-working with hoes and hand-guided ploughs drawn by horses.
-
-"Machines took away sacred routine work from citizens. Eggheads built
-the machines to disrupt and spread the disease of reason. We are now
-replacing machines at the rate of a million a week. Soon, all of us
-will again be united in the happy harmonious brotherhood of labor. And
-when you see a rusting machine, what you are seeing is another captured
-Egghead, frothing and fuming in its cage...."
-
-At a quarter to eight I walked ten blocks to work. There were the
-usual hectic early morning traffic jams. Wagon-loads of produce and
-half-starved horses blocking the streets. The same man was beating a
-nag with a board. A wagon piled with fruit and vegetables was stuck in
-a pot hole in the pavement. Two men were carrying a spinning wheel into
-the front of an apartment building. A peddler was selling oil lanterns,
-wicks and kerosene out of a barrel. The same women and boys in dirty
-sheepskin jackets were hauling rickshaws.
-
-I really didn't see anyone or speak to anyone. I didn't know anyone. I
-knew I was safe and had nothing to worry about. Once a week I used up
-my GI liquor chit at a bar with a Security seal on the window. Twice
-a week, I slept over at a GI brothel, where every girl had a Security
-clearance number tattoed on her thigh.
-
-I had nothing to worry about.
-
-I was passed through three gates by guards and went to my little cage
-inside Pentagon Circle, local headquarters of the Department of
-Internal Security.
-
-Until that Tuesday morning I couldn't remember ever having done
-anything but sort colored cards. My chief qualification for my job:
-I wasn't color blind. When a green card with figures on it meaning
-nothing to me came out of a slot in the wall, I pushed it into a green
-slot that led somewhere into a filing department. When a red card came
-out, I pushed it into a red slot, and so forth. There were cards of
-fifteen colors.
-
-Another qualification: my unconscious efficiency. I never had even a
-hint of an abstract thought. I never remembered yesterday, let alone
-the day before. And until that Tuesday morning I never made even a tiny
-mistake.
-
-I had no idea what I was doing. Nor was I at all curious. Curiosity was
-highly suspect. Curiosity was dangerous in the best of all possible
-worlds. It was ridiculous in a state where people had never had it so
-good.
-
-Cards sped from my hands always into correct slots. Care-free hours
-slipped painlessly by into the dead past. I was sure I was safe and not
-thinking at all. I was a blessed blank. And then all at once--
-
-"_The eyes are the windows of the soul._"
-
-The thought meant nothing to me, except it was wrong, it didn't belong
-in the routine. The routine flew to pieces. My efficiency blew up.
-I felt like a shiny bottle in a row of bottles with a sudden crack
-running down the middle. Red cards hit blue slots. Green cards hit
-yellow slots. Cards piled up, spilled over the floor. The more I tried
-to return to my efficiency, the worse everything was.
-
-My suit was wet with sweat. I thought of Mr. Donnicker. If a man's
-routine broke, it could only be because some inner guilt was disrupting
-his harmony. A happy person is an efficient person. Inefficiency is the
-symptom of a guilty conscience.
-
-"Mr. Fredricks," a voice whispered. "You're replaced here."
-
-A cold paralysis gripped me.
-
-"Get up, Fred."
-
-I jumped out of my chair. A thin, stooped little man in a cheap gray
-suit and dull eyes took my place. In no time at all he had straightened
-out my mess. Cards were blurs moving into the right slots.
-
-A wide, fattish man in a wrinkled dark suit was watching me out of
-curiously shining eyes. He carried a black briefcase. I had seen the
-black briefcases before. Special Police Agent.
-
-He opened the door of my cage and motioned for me to go out ahead of
-him. "Say goodbye to all this, Fred."
-
-I felt the smile on my wet face as I nodded and tried to feel grateful
-while at the same time trying to suppress the flood of fear coming up
-through me and turning to sickness in my throat.
-
-I simply couldn't be afraid. I had nothing to hide. And if I was hiding
-something inside me I didn't know about, I should feel glad to have it
-detected and get it all cleaned out.
-
-"My name is John Mesner," he said as we walked down the corridor. I
-couldn't say anything. I felt like a string someone was beginning to
-saw on with a rusty knife.
-
-Mesner's office somewhere upstairs was a dingy room with a dusty desk
-and a couple of chairs. The walls were made of cracked concrete lined
-with dusty filing cabinets. The window was so soiled I could barely see
-the shadows of bars through the panes.
-
-Mesner sat down, put his feet on the desk. He took an apple out of his
-desk drawer and started peeling it slowly with a small penknife.
-
-"You scared, Fred?"
-
-"Of course not."
-
-He smiled, held out a long ribbon of apple peel and dropped it on the
-floor. "You're scared, Fred."
-
-I put my Personology Card on his desk right in front of him. "I just
-had a quarterly brain-check a week ago. There it is."
-
-I stopped myself somehow from yelling out wildly as he stabbed the card
-with his penknife, then tore it in little pieces and dropped them on
-the floor.
-
-"You've got nothing to be afraid of, Fred. But it'll probably take you
-a while to realize it." He went on peeling the apple. He had thick
-hands, stubby fingers, and the nails were dirty. He had a round pale
-face, a receding chin, thinning hair, and an absurd little red cupid
-bow mouth.
-
-I tried not to hear the moaning sound that seemed to come from the
-other side of a door to Mesner's right. He got up, went to the door,
-opened it. "Shut that guy up," he said. He shut the door and sat down
-again. He sliced off a bite of apple and pushed it into his mouth.
-
-"To make it short, Fred. I've investigated you thoroughly. And I can
-use you here in SPA. You're being transferred."
-
-My throat was constricted. I leaned against the desk. "I don't
-understand, sir. I don't know anything about Police Work. I'm only a
-clerk, a card-sorter. I don't have any qualifications. And you can
-see--my card."
-
-"A couple of field-trips with me, Fred, and you'll be a veteran."
-
-"But why me?"
-
-"You're already in the Security Department for one thing. That makes it
-convenient. Also, your Intelligence Quotient."
-
-"It's a low eighty," I said. "That's the average. I'm well below
-normal, and this brain-check showed I was lower this time than the
-last. So how could my IQ make any difference?"
-
-"Curiosity killed the cat, Fred."
-
-I managed to sit down before I fell down. It was impossible that
-I should really become an agent in the SP, the most powerful and
-feared organization in the state. What then was Mesner really up to?
-One work error shouldn't have snagged me. I'd never been guilty of
-thinking above a rudimentary and socially acceptable level. My IQ
-was unquestionably low. I was little more than a moron. So why was I
-frightened. Why did I feel guilty? Why was Mesner interested?
-
-Mesner stood up and dropped the apple core on the floor.
-
-"We're going on a field-trip now, Fred. Your indoctrination as an SPA
-man is beginning."
-
- * * * * *
-
-Mesner piloted the heliocar. Mesner said the only heliocars left in
-operation belonged to SPA. He dropped it on a plot of dried grass
-on the side of a forested hill in the Tennessee Mountains. Until we
-got out of the heliocar, I didn't know Mesner had a gun. I couldn't
-remember having heard of a gun or seen one before, but Mesner told me
-all about guns. He slid the rifle out of a canvas case, checked it,
-called it his favorite little field piece. Then he handed me his black
-briefcase.
-
-He led the way down a narrow path. It was a quiet sunny day. Squirrels
-ran between the trees. Birds hopped and sang up in the leaves.
-
-In front of a gray, dilapidated shack was a rickety wagon. Two men were
-lifting a sack out of the rear of the wagon. They wore ragged overalls
-and no shirts and they were both barefoot.
-
-Mesner yelled. "You. Dirksons! This is a security check."
-
-The shorter one started to run. Mesner shot him in the back of the
-head. The tall man grabbed up a piece of iron with a hooked end and
-started yelling as he ran toward us.
-
-"Open the briefcase," Mesner said calmly.
-
-I opened it. Mesner leaned the rifle against a tree. He knelt down,
-brought a metal disc out of the briefcase attached to a wire. He turned
-a dial on a bank of controls inside the case. I heard a whirring hum.
-The tall hillbilly screamed. He stretched up on his toes, strained his
-arms and neck at the sky, then fell twitching on his face.
-
-Mesner walked toward the hillbilly and I stumbled after him. I was
-going to be sick, very sick. The sun worked like pins in my eyeballs.
-
-Mesner drew a round metal cap which he called a stroboscope from the
-case, fitted it on the hillbilly's head. The metal strip had a disc
-hanging down in front of the hillbilly's eyes and about two inches away.
-
-Mesner worked the dials and the flicker began blinking off and on,
-faster and faster, then slower, then faster again as the hillbilly's
-eyes stared into it unblinkingly. His muscles began to twitch. He beat
-the ground with his flat hands. Grasshoppers jumped across his face.
-
-Mesner pointed out to me that I was watching an on-the-spot
-brain-probe. The brain-prober, or bipper, as Mesner called it, was so
-effective he hardly ever had to use the other items in the case such
-as the psychopharmaceuticals, drugs, brain shock gadgets, extractors,
-nerve stretchers and the like.
-
-Mesner sat on his haunches, worked the flicker and lit a cigarette.
-"These brain-wave flickers correspond to any desired brain-wave rhythm.
-You play around and you'll get the one you want. They talk. What they
-don't say comes out later from the recorder. With this bipper you can
-get anything out of anyone, almost. If you don't get the info you want
-it's only because they don't have it. It burns them out considerably in
-the process, but that's all to the good. They're erased, and won't do
-any meddlesome thinking again."
-
-The hillbilly wasn't moving now as the flicker worked on his eyes and
-activated desired mental responses.
-
-"Dirkson," Mesner said. "What happened to your sister, Elsa?"
-
-"Don't know. She runned away."
-
-"She was blind wasn't she? Wasn't she born blind?"
-
-I felt an icy twist in my stomach.
-
-"That's right. Borned blind as a bat."
-
-"What happened to her?"
-
-"Runned away with some river rat."
-
-"You've hidden her somewhere, Dirkson. Where?"
-
-"I ain't hid her nowhere."
-
-Mesner turned a dial. The hillbilly screamed. His body bent upward.
-Blood ran out of his mouth. He was chewing his tongue. Mesner stood up
-and frowned. "Guess he didn't know. If he knew he'd have told us. He's
-no disguised Egghead. Just a damn collaborating, bottle-headed jerk."
-
-I went over behind some brush and was sick. The hillbilly would never
-answer any more questions, I knew that much. Now he was laughing and
-babbling and crawling around on his hands and knees.
-
-"It's rough at first, Fred. No matter how patriotic you are, and how
-much you hate Eggheads, it's always rough at first. But you should get
-used to it."
-
-"What--I mean why--?"
-
-"The Dirksons didn't show for their quarterly brain-check. You assume
-they're hiding something. It turns out they're not, then you haven't
-lost anything. Of course you have to burn them out a little to
-question them. But better to burn one innocent bottlehead than let one
-double-dome slip away." Mesner turned and looked at me. "Isn't that
-right, Fred?"
-
-"Of course it's right," I said quickly. Mesner smiled at me.
-
- * * * * *
-
-On the way back to Washington, Mesner piloted the heliocar casually. He
-leaned back, smoking cigarettes, the ashes streaming down the front of
-his soiled lapels.
-
-"I think you'll work out fine in SPA, Fred."
-
-I was still sick. I had a throbbing ache in my head and sweat kept
-stinging in my eyes. I nodded numbed agreement with Mesner.
-
-"I appreciate your trying to make an SPA man out of me," I finally
-managed to say. "But could you have made some mistake? Gotten the wrong
-file or something?"
-
-"No. Your IQ is a nice low eighty, Fred. But you're just not aware that
-you have what is technically known as a quiescent IQ."
-
-"What's that?"
-
-"You're a true patriot, Fred. We both know that. So don't be scared.
-You know the sick and evil danger of a high IQ and so you've put an
-unconscious damper on your own intelligence. You're not really so dumb,
-Fred."
-
-"But I am," I said quickly.
-
-"No, Fred. You think you are, and you look and act normally stupid
-and believe me, Fred, I admire your patriotic suppression of your
-intelligence, even from yourself. But a fact is a fact, and you're not
-so dumb."
-
-"I'm not pretending. I'm not a a subversive--"
-
-"Easy now," Mesner said. "You're not a subversive, that's right. A
-real subversive knows he's smart, is proud of it and consciously
-tries to hide it from others. But you loathe your own inherent mental
-ability, and you've been able to freeze its operation, conceal it even
-from yourself. Now realize this, Fred. The only place we can allow
-intelligence to operate is inside the Government. The Government must
-have a slightly superior thinking capacity in order to run things--for
-the present anyway."
-
-"But any IQ above eighty is subversive. It says in the--"
-
-"That's an ideal, a goal for the future, Fred. When the transition's
-been made, when the last Egghead is captured and put away, then all of
-us will be normal. We'll get ourselves bipped, and burn our excessive
-intelligence down to the eighty mark. But until that time, Fred,
-some of us--especially the SPA--have to keep our wits about us. An
-unfortunate necessity that we pray will soon be ended."
-
-I gazed numbly out through the plastic canopy at the white clouds
-streaming past. He was trying to get some admission out of me, I
-thought. That was the only explanation. Working some subtle game with
-me. But that was absurd on its face, because I was way below normal.
-
-"My IQ's no good for you then," I said. "I just don't see--"
-
-Mesner interrupted with an impatient laugh. "You're a hell of a lot
-brighter than you let yourself admit that you are, Fred. That's all
-I'm saying. You know it's a terrible thing to be smart, so you keep it
-under wraps. But now you know there's nothing to be afraid of. You know
-it's legal for a while longer to be smart as long as you're in SPA. Now
-you can start opening up, releasing your mental capacity. Believe me,
-Fred, it's for the good of the state. I know it sounds like a paradox,
-but that's how it is."
-
-"How can it be good when it's such an evil thing?"
-
-"Because right now it's a necessary evil. SPA has problems, Fred. There
-are still a lot of Eggheads running loose, causing trouble. And the
-doubledomes still loose are the toughest ones to catch, and that's
-our job. We've got to track down the old maniac physicists, chemists,
-engineers, professors, psyche-boys and the like who are still working
-underground. Until they're all caught Fred, we've got to live with our
-own filthy brains. Because you see it takes brains to catch brains."
-
-"But I have hardly any brains at all," I insisted.
-
-"You'll see, Fred. You'll see."
-
- * * * * *
-
-Before I left his office that evening he gave me an SPA identity card.
-My name and face were on it. Suddenly it seemed impossibly official.
-All at once, I was one of the most feared and powerful men in the
-State. Only I knew that the only one I really feared was me.
-
-That card supposedly gave me a free hand. It could take me anywhere,
-even into top-secret departments in Security. With it, I was immune
-to curfew laws, to all social restrictions and regulations. But when
-I went for a walk that evening, I knew I was being followed. Wherever
-I went, eyes watched me constantly. Shadows moved in and out of gray
-doorways and dissolved around corners.
-
-After nine, after the curfew sirens howled down the emptied streets, I
-walked fast toward the ancient rooming house in which I thought I had
-always lived. Hundreds of silent gray women and children came out onto
-the streets and began cleaning them with brooms. One by one, the gas
-lights along the rubbled streets went out. I started to run through
-shadows, and footsteps moved behind me.
-
-A drunken man came out of an alley and staggered down the broken
-pavement where weeds grew. A black car whisked him away. But no black
-car stopped for me. I saw no one with a black briefcase either. I saw
-only shadows, and felt unseen eyes watching me.
-
-The old woman who had been run down by a black car still lay there
-on the sidewalk. No one dared approach that corpse to get it off the
-streets. No one knew who it was, or why it was dead. No one would take
-any chances. One was just as suspect from associating with a guilty
-corpse as a living neighbor named Donnicker.
-
-Upstairs, I saw a splotch of blood on the hall floor. This time I knew
-it was Donnicker's. It reminded me of the Dirksons now. And of who
-could say how many others?
-
-I lay down and took all three of tomorrow's tranquitabs. We were
-allotted a month's supply of tranquitabs at a time, and we were all
-compelled by law to take three a day. They knocked out worry and
-anxiety usually. But now they didn't seem to do me much good. I
-couldn't seem to go to sleep. This had never happened to me before.
-
-Maybe Mesner was right. Maybe I did have a high IQ but wasn't
-consciously aware of it. This being true, then I _had_ to be in SPA.
-SPA was the only place a high IQ could be tolerated.
-
-What really bothered me the most, of course, was why I should be
-worried about anything. If my IQ was useful, I ought to be glad of
-it. A true patriot should be glad also to have unconscious subversive
-elements detected. A true patriot would be grateful for whatever
-treatment could cleanse him. What was the matter with me? Didn't I want
-to be purified, cleansed? Didn't I want to be bipped a little?
-
-I didn't trust Mesner. I didn't believe he really wanted me to help
-him track down Eggheads. But so what? If he was trying to find out
-something about me, I ought to be glad to cooperate.
-
-Only I wasn't.
-
-I had bad dreams. I dreamed of Dirkson babbling and crawling and
-smiling at me with his bloody mouth. He kept smiling and whispering to
-me: "I never did know nothing, and now I'm just all burned out."
-
-I dreamed of old man Donnicker being dragged down the stairs.
-
-Then I dreamed that Mesner came in and looked down at me sleeping. A
-light bulb came down from the ceiling. It turned bright, then dull,
-then bright, then dull.
-
-Mesner smiled as he lit a cigarette. "That really bothered you didn't
-it, Fred. Bipping the Dirkson boy."
-
-"It made me sick."
-
-I wanted to wake up. I tried my best to wake up because I felt that if
-I didn't wake up now, I never would. I would die in my sleep.
-
-"Let's talk about it, Fred. I'm uneasy about it myself sometimes. I've
-bipped so many of them, maybe my conscience bothers me. You think it
-might bother a man's conscience, Fred?"
-
-"What do you mean, conscience?"
-
-"Maybe you think there's something immoral about bipping a man."
-
-"If the State does it, it's right," I said. "If it helps bring about
-the Era of Normalcy and absolute and permanent stability, then any
-method is right."
-
-Was that the correct answer? I was beginning to feel confused.
-Thoughts, words all jumbling up. There was an orthodox thought and
-an orthodox answer for everything. I'd learned them all. But had I
-answered this one correctly?
-
-"That's right, Fred. But the old crackpot Egghead moralists used to say
-that the end doesn't necessarily justify the means. They would claim
-that bipping a man was wrong, and that no good results could ever come
-from it. They would say that a destructive means would always create a
-destructive end. Violence, they said, could only create more violence.
-What do you think of that, Fred?"
-
-"That's wrong," I said. "That's confusing, double-dome stuff."
-
-"I know. But we've got to identify with Egghead thinking if we can. No
-matter how repulsive it is, we've got to understand how they think if
-we're going to track them down and put them away. Now think hard, Fred.
-Have you ever heard a man say, 'Better that the whole world should die
-than that one man's brain should be invaded against his will.'"
-
-"No, no, that's subversive," I screamed.
-
-There was more dream, more questions, more and more confused answers. I
-woke up in a cold sweat. I found several electronic spy-eyes concealed
-about the room. Just outside my door I saw one of Mesner's cigarette
-butts. It was yellowed with spittle, twisted and pinched in the way his
-always were.
-
-I didn't know if all of that night, or only part of it had been a
-dream. I didn't know if Mesner had actually been questioning me in my
-sleep or not. The spy-eyes could do that. But I knew Mesner had been
-outside my door. Probably he had been questioning my dreams.
-
- * * * * *
-
-That day was worse than the night. Mesner had said to wait until I
-heard from him, but there was no word from him that day. I tried more
-tranquitabs. The hell with tomorrow's supply. They didn't help me. A
-blinding headache hit me at regular intervals.
-
-What was Mesner using me for? What did he want from me? What was I
-supposed to know?
-
-The Educational Tevee came on also at regular intervals.
-
-"... so if you might think, Citizens, that a machine could do your
-simple work better, just remember what a terrible thing the machines
-did to us during the cataclysmic age of reason. As you know, the
-machines were invented to replace human labor by Eggheads who have
-always tried to destroy normal, comfortable and simple ways of life.
-The disease of free-thought was only possible after the machines
-replaced human beings, gave us the time to develop excessive and
-self-destructive thinking...."
-
-I watched the light outside my window turn a duller gray then black,
-and after that an edge of white moon slid partly across the pane.
-
-Why should I care what Mesner was trying to get out of me? If it was
-subversive then I should be glad to get rid of it. If I was clear and
-clean, then I had nothing to worry about. Why wasn't I simply bipped
-like Donnicker and Dirkson had been? Why should a true patriot care?
-
-I shivered and stared into the darkness. Something horrible had
-happened to me. For the first time I realized I was entertaining
-unpatriotic thoughts. I didn't want to be bipped. And I knew that when
-Mesner finished with me, I would be bipped. When he found out whatever
-I was supposed to know, I'd join Dirkson and the rest of them. It had
-been all right, going along with the routines, as long as I actually
-hadn't seen what happened to a man if he didn't.
-
-I didn't want to be erased. Whatever I was, I suddenly wanted to stay
-me, guilty or not. Maybe this attitude was all that Mesner wanted to
-be sure of. But I doubted it. Because a simple bipping would have
-determined that.
-
-I didn't think I could stomach any more of Mesner's field-trips. On the
-other hand I had to go along. It all seemed to boil down to whether I
-wanted to get bipped now or later.
-
-"Bipping isn't bad at all," Mesner had said yesterday. "After you're
-bipped, you can do routine work like everyone else, never worry again
-about worrying. That guy who replaced you, for example. He was bipped.
-He's never made a mistake for 20 years. He never will."
-
-I closed my eyes. I thought of all the happy bottleheads walking
-the streets, out on the farms, doing their routine work, happy and
-care-free as long as they didn't worry. Human vegetables, the erased
-ones, and the terrified ones who didn't know they were even scared.
-Cities full of dull-eyed ciphers, and now that I was outside it a
-little, I could see them with an awful clarity.
-
-And I thought--how many are as dumb as they appear to be? How many
-were just too frightened and numbed to think? How many would stay
-frightened and numb so long that they would never be able to think even
-if they sometime decided to try?
-
-It was easy enough to assume that too much intelligence was an evil,
-a virus to be burned out. Was it better to have too little and become
-like the hillbilly?
-
-Oh, Mesner had set my so-called quiescent IQ going all right. But how
-far would it go before it had gone far enough for his purpose?
-
- * * * * *
-
-That night I had another bad dream. Only it didn't really seem so bad
-as it should have been. A blind man was talking to me. Then I dreamed
-that a blind girl with a seeing-eye dog was looking at me. She was
-about fifteen, maybe younger, dressed in a plain flowered dress tied
-in back with a ribbon. She had a soft round face and her eyes were
-wide and opaque. The girl and dog seemed to come out of a mist and
-they whispered to me. It was frightening, but important, and I didn't
-remember what it was.
-
-I woke up shivering. I seemed to smell wet hair, and the window was
-open. I couldn't remember whether I had shut the window before I went
-to sleep or not.
-
-Mesner called me early the next morning.
-
-He looked the same in his wrinkled suit with the food stains on the
-lapels, and peeling an apple.
-
-"Fred, have you ever heard a phrase sounding like '... and the blind
-shall lead them?'"
-
-I appeared to be trying to think about it, then said I had never heard
-anything like that.
-
-"You're positive about that?"
-
-"I don't remember it."
-
-"You mean you might have, but you just can't remember it."
-
-"I didn't say that. I doubt if I ever heard such a phrase."
-
-"What about this one, '... and the blind shall see again.'"
-
-"No, I said.
-
-"You're sure?"
-
-I looked directly at him and he stopped peeling the apple. "If I'm
-supposed to have such a damn high quiescent IQ, why not let me in on a
-few things?"
-
-"What few things?"
-
-"These references to the blind. The Dirksons. Some blind girl named
-Elsa. What are you trying to find out?"
-
-"I thought maybe you remembered something, that's all. I'm pretty much
-in the dark myself. All I have are a few clues and theories."
-
-"Clues, theories, about what?"
-
-"Eggheads. Sabotage. What the crackpots could build, they can best
-destroy. They're blowing up factories, manufacturing and power plants,
-machines, production."
-
-"That's sabotage? I thought the whole idea in bringing about the Era of
-Normalcy was to do away with all mechanization. Do everything with the
-hands, like in the good old days."
-
-"That's an ultimate goal, Fred. Drudges don't think. They're happier.
-But the transition has to be more gradual. The Eggheads want to take
-away all mechanization at once, create chaos and anarchy. They figure
-that will cause the bottleheads to revolt against the Government. We
-can't catch the saboteurs. The saboteurs inside a blown-up factory, for
-example, we never know who they are. We bip every worker, not a sign of
-a saboteur. So whoever does the dirty work is a mindless tool of the
-Egghead underground, having no memory of having committed sabotage. Who
-are the couriers, the ones who make vital contact between the Egghead
-underground and the saboteurs? The dumb saboteur has to get his highly
-complex directives from the Eggheads. Who are the couriers?"
-
-"Why ask me?"
-
-"I know this much, Fred. Blind people are used as couriers."
-
-My knees felt weak. I couldn't say anything. All I could think about
-was my dreams.
-
-"I want to show you something, Fred." Mesner led me through the other
-door. A bleak concrete cubicle, no windows, a damp walled gray cell.
-Two naked men lay on slabs. Stroboscopes on their heads. Behind them,
-styluses recorded brain-wave patterns on moving white strips. One of
-the men, the one on the left, was blind. His eyes staring up into the
-flicker were opaque.
-
-"Look at those brain-wave recordings, Fred. They're getting the same
-stimulus. We can give a thousand bottleheads this stimulus with the
-flicker, and get identical responses. But not the blind boys. We can't
-successfully bip a blind boy. The brain-waves are radically different
-and we've never figured out a way of codifying them. A blind bastard's
-never _seen_ anything. The seeing eyes are trackers, like radar. But a
-blind boy takes in reality and records it and keeps it in a different
-way. We can't get at the code easily. But I'm getting it. I've bipped
-plenty of blind boys and I'm getting it, Fred. The blind are used for
-couriers. I know that much. For the simple reason that we can't bip
-meaningful info out of their scrambled think-tanks."
-
-The naked men on the slabs moaned. One of them opened his mouth and a
-bloody foam spread over his chin.
-
-"What I'm looking for now is a known courier who is also blind. Then I
-can bip him, and check the info with the code I've worked out."
-
-He unbuttoned his coat and took a black hand-gun out of a holster
-strapped beneath his arm. "Meanwhile, Fred, these bottleheads have had
-it. They're burned out."
-
-I heard the two sharp echoing reports as Mesner shot them in the head.
-One of them beat his heels on the slab. Mesner pointed the smoking
-revolver. "Even dead, the blind brain records differently. See there?"
-
-I leaned against the wall. Through a crumbled hole down in the corner
-of damp concrete, I saw two red eyes and heard the rat squealing.
-
-"Let's go, Fred. We've got some important field-trips on today's
-schedule. And you still have a lot to learn."
-
-We went to Chicago. We set up some hidden electronic spy-eyes in a
-big apartment building. They were to be checked later for evidence of
-someone there who was hiding an IQ of over a hundred.
-
-And that afternoon we ran down a renegade bio-chemist hiding in a
-tenement. He had disguised himself for a number of years as a plumber.
-Mesner bipped him, and an official Security heliocar came down from
-Washington to take him away.
-
-When Mesner finished with the old man he was hopping around like a
-monkey, making grotesque faces, giggling and yelling. Tevee cameramen
-were on hand. A reporter was commenting on the capture of another, "...
-insane crackpot who has been living here under an assumed name while
-plotting and planning and building some diabolical machine with which
-to blow up the city. Our department of Internal Security excercising
-its eternal vigilance, captured him in time...."
-
-Mesner and I took the heliocar back up into a clear blue sky and headed
-for Sauk City.
-
-"Do you wonder, Fred, why we just don't kill them after they're bipped?"
-
-"What could it matter?"
-
-"It doesn't to them, but to us it matters. Public likes their
-scapegoats alive. More satisfying to hate live people. Public likes
-to see their dragons behind bars, humiliated, treated like crackpots.
-Makes a bottlehead feel good to see an Egghead dancing like a monkey.
-Also prevents martyrs. Living men are never martyrs."
-
-"So why are we going to Sauk City?" I asked. I wanted to change the
-subject.
-
-Mesner had information that an ex-professor from some long-extinct
-University had been concealing a high IQ after having supposedly purged
-himself of it years before. He was supposed to have been caught by a
-brain-probing spy-eye and was reported to have an IQ of over 160.
-
-Mesner talked of such an IQ as though it was a living time-bomb that
-might go off any minute and blow Sauk City and the entire State to
-hell. He shot the heliocar along at 500 miles an hour. He held the
-T-Bar in one hand and lit cigarettes with the other.
-
-"What upset you so much, Fred? I mean that morning when I interrupted
-you sorting cards?"
-
-I felt a warning click in my head. I remembered it. _The eyes are the
-windows of the soul._
-
-Mesner, I thought, couldn't look into the windows of a blind man. Could
-I?
-
-It hadn't been my own thought that had disrupted my idyllic, care-free
-life sorting cards. Mesner had said it to me.
-
-"Just the unexpected break in the routine," I said. You've already
-explained it. My quiescent IQ is just too high to be a successful
-card-sorter."
-
-"It wasn't _what_ I said?"
-
-"What did you say? I've forgotten."
-
-"The eyes are the windows of the soul. But I was only quoting, Fred.
-Some crackpot said that long ago."
-
-"Why probe me about blind people? I never knew any."
-
-"Ninety percent of a human being's mental activity is underground,
-like most of an iceberg is under water. How much of your past can you
-remember, Fred?"
-
-"Very little. The past is dead. Why should I remember it?"
-
-"Because a good intelligence depends on the past. Memory is a part
-of it. Without a past, you don't have a brain. And we've got to
-release our brains, Fred, for awhile. Until we can catch saboteurs and
-Eggheads."
-
-"I guess I've just been a patriot too long," I said.
-
-"Remember attending Drake University ten years ago, Fred?"
-
-"Sure," I said, fast, as though it was unimportant. I was really
-beginning to sweat. "I can remember if you keep prodding me. Sure, I
-can. So what? I purged myself. I forgot it. Schools weren't illegal
-then."
-
-"But we've got to reawaken all those past memories, Fred. Make our
-brains work better, even if a lot of double-dome stuff comes up. You
-remember a psyche prof named O'Hara?"
-
-I felt suddenly dizzy, sick. A wavering wheel started turning in my
-head. I managed to stop it from turning so fast. "I don't remember that
-at all," I said.
-
-"Then of course you wouldn't remember that he was blind?"
-
-In the darkness behind closed lids I could see patterns of light begin
-to flicker and threatening whispers dug at a fogging curtain.
-
-"Don't push it, Fred. It'll come. I'm patient. If I weren't, then by
-this time I would be bipped myself and safely put away."
-
-He would get it all right, I knew. Sooner or later he would tap it.
-First I would tap it, then Mesner would tap it. And after that I never
-would worry again. I'd never worry about remembering or forgetting
-anything. I wouldn't even be me. A body with a bipped brain would walk
-around doing routine work, and looking like me. But I'd be dead. I
-didn't want to die that way. Genuine physical death would be all right.
-But not that, not that bipping treatment.
-
-Mesner turned quickly and caught me staring at the outline of the
-hand-gun under his coat. He smiled. "You want one of these, Fred?"
-
-"Not yet," I said. "I don't remember enough yet. I'm not smart enough
-yet."
-
-"Tell me when you're ready."
-
- * * * * *
-
-By the time we closed in on the professor in an old deserted house
-on the outskirts of Sauk City, he had managed to hang himself to a
-waterpipe in the basement. He wore a pair of ragged pants. He was
-terribly thin and his hair was white, and his toothless mouth gaped
-open and his jaws sucked in. I had never seen anyone appear so pitiful
-and so harmless as that old man hanging there.
-
-We untied the rope and the body fell to the floor. Mesner took a small
-disc from his case and put it over the dead man's heart, then stood up.
-"He's too dead. We should have gotten here a few minutes earlier."
-
-He seemed tired as he sat down on a soggy box. His hands were dirty
-with coal dust and a smudge of it was on his face.
-
-This is it, I thought. Now was as good a time for it as any, because
-there wasn't any good time for it. He had all the advantage. And the
-longer it went on, the greater advantage he would have. It was only a
-question of time anyway, and I couldn't stand waiting.
-
-I lunged at him. I heard the faint whining sound, saw the flash and
-the glint of the disc coming out of his pocket. A sudden, painless
-paralysis hit me and I was helpless on my knees looking at Mesner. He
-just stared at me morosely, tired, irritated a little.
-
-"You should know better, Fred. You're smart."
-
-"Go to hell," I said.
-
-He shook his head. "Not now, Fred. Nor you either. It isn't me you want
-to get, Fred. You just don't want to get bipped. You ought to trust
-me. I don't want to bip you, now or ever. I mean it. We need brains to
-catch Eggheads and that's my job. You're valuable. Everybody getting
-bipped, it isn't easy to get smart people these days."
-
-"Bip me now then, you bastard. Get it over with."
-
-"You'd better trust me. I'm being honest. Some of these other orthodox
-jerks in Security, they wouldn't fool with you. They would bip you
-sooner than look at you."
-
-"Why don't you?"
-
-"I've told you, for God's sake. You're a bright guy, and I'm eager to
-learn. And I don't want to burn up any important info."
-
-Then I got it. Then I knew why he was keeping the bipper off me.
-
-I thought about it all the way back to Washington while Mesner fed
-himself apples. I was supposed to have valuable unconscious info.
-Mesner wanted it. But the old crackpots were right. The means not only
-created the ends, but could destroy the ends if the means were bad
-enough. You probe and pry into a man's brain deep and hard enough and
-you come up with nothing. Your methods have destroyed the end. You've
-burned out the truth you're trying to get.
-
-Mesner was trying to get info from me without burning it up.
-
-The bastard was trying to have his bloody cake and eat it. But the
-insight didn't make my position any easier. He was going to get it some
-way. His talking and hinting and probing was designed to awaken vital
-memory in me, get it up into total consciousness where he could get at
-it with his instruments without the danger of burning it up.
-
-Soon as he got what he wanted he would bip me. I couldn't keep him
-from getting it because I didn't know what it was. I couldn't keep on
-suppressing something if I didn't know what it was, and I knew that no
-one can consciously suppress knowledge in himself in any case.
-
- * * * * *
-
-For two more days I didn't hear from Mesner. I indulged in feverish
-and ridiculous escape fantasies. There could be no escape for me. The
-educational voices from the Tevee drifted in and out.
-
-"... the greatest threat to man's happy survival is reason. Man was
-never intended to go above a certain mental level and become thereby a
-victim of his own imagination and complex fears. This disease of reason
-has been carried to its final suicidal limit by Eggheads...."
-
-No mention of sabotage. The care-free public must not hear of such
-disquieting things. All the public heard 24 hours a day was a voice
-telling them about the evils of reason. The destructiveness of
-overly-developed brains, and the vicious criminality of Eggheads.
-
-After listening to that long enough, and having all subversive level
-IQs purged, who could believe otherwise? How many believed otherwise
-now? Did I? What in hell did Mesner want to dig out of me? Who, what,
-why was I?
-
-I was still a bottle. But now there were countless cracks appearing in
-it.
-
-Then Mesner called, said we were going on another field-trip that next
-afternoon. All right, I said. Someway or other, I knew, I would make
-this my last trip with Mesner.
-
-He had located a blind man, he said, who he knew had been a courier,
-a blind man definitely linked up with a recent sabotaging of a motor
-parts plant somewhere in Illinois.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Mesner looked down on the shanty town from a high bluff above the
-river. The river rats' shanties were built half in, half out of the
-water, some of them on stilts, some of them actually consisting of
-dilapidated houseboats.
-
-Mesner said river rats were worse rebs even than hillbillies. They
-drifted up and down the rivers. You staged a raid and they dissolved
-away into the river like rodents. Many of them skipped quarterly
-brain-checks, but no one knew how many. Birth and death records weren't
-kept by river rats.
-
-I walked ahead of Mesner down a winding gravel path into rotting reeds
-by the river, then we followed another muddy path toward the shanties.
-Frogs and insects hummed. A path of moonlight moved across the water.
-A ribby hound dog slunk away from me. A ragged kid looking wilder than
-the hound, ran across the path and slipped soundlessly into the muddy
-water.
-
-Mesner pointed out the blind man's shack. Then he looked at me and
-smiled with that absurd little cupid bow mouth. "This isn't the time
-either, Fred. If you think we're not covered, you're wrong. You
-couldn't run fifty feet before they burned you down."
-
-We walked nearer the loosely boarded and sagging shack.
-
-"You take the back, Fred. Just remember, better later than now. And be
-careful. When these river rats get stirred up, they can cause a hell of
-a row. The entire goon squad would have to move in and there would be a
-mass bipping spree."
-
-Mesner crept nearer, then whispered. "No light. You can't even tell if
-one of them's at home after dark. Why do they need a light? Go on,
-watch the back door, Fred. And don't let this one slip by."
-
-I heard the front door crash inward. A man wearing only tattered pants
-ran out. He was thin and ribby like the dog, and I could see the
-moonlight shining on the opaque whiteness of his eyes.
-
-He ran directly at me. And I knew I wasn't going to try to stop him.
-But I didn't know why. Then Mesner came out and fired a small gun,
-smaller than the one under his coat. It wasn't the same. This was a
-nerve-gun and it curled the synaptic connections between neurons.
-
-The blind man collapsed and lay like a corpse at my feet. I knelt down
-and felt of him. Mesner whispered for me to drag the old man inside. I
-hooked my hands under his shoulders and pulled him into the shack. It
-didn't matter to me now, nor to the blind man, I thought.
-
-He hardly weighed anything. His eyes were fixed in a white silence as
-Mesner shone a small flashlight into them. Then Mesner shut both doors
-and pulled a ragged cloth across the single window.
-
-He opened his case. He put the stroboscope on the blind man's head. The
-bluish light began to flicker over the staring opaque eyes. I saw the
-nerve-gun lying on the floor beside Mesner's hand.
-
-"You're too late," I said. "He's dead. I wouldn't have dragged him in
-here if I hadn't known he was dead."
-
-Mesner was breathing thickly. His fat round face was pale and shiny
-with sweat. "I know he's dead. He must have gulped a fast-action poison
-soon as I came in the door. Maybe even the blind boys are deciding
-things are getting too hot."
-
-Mesner worked the stroboscope.
-
-"But he's dead," I said.
-
-"Brain cells are the last to die," Mesner said. "Maybe I can pick up a
-little info yet."
-
-It burst out of me then as from an abscess. The bottle cracked into a
-thousand fragments. I lunged at Mesner. He seemed to roll away from me,
-and then he squatted there in the flickering light. He leveled the gun
-at me.
-
-"So you're beginning to wake up, Fred!"
-
-Probing a dead man. Questioning the dead. Even a corpse was sacred no
-longer. The vile and horrible bastards, all of them.
-
-"I don't care what happens to me," I said.
-
-"That's noble of you."
-
-"I'm going to kill you."
-
-"Why?"
-
-"You wouldn't understand."
-
-"Maybe I wouldn't agree, but I'll understand, Fred. I know what you're
-thinking. What I'm doing now is just too much. Right? The final
-indignity one human being could inflict on another, right? A human mind
-should be sacred, even if it's dumb. Even if it's dead. Especially if
-it's dead. Right, Fred?"
-
-I started around the rickety table toward him.
-
-"Now it's set off, Fred. You're fired up now. That's what I've been
-waiting for. You were planted to sabotage Security itself, Fred, and
-I always knew that. Now we're going to find out all the rest of it.
-Now it's squeezing out of your unconscious, and we can drain it, empty
-it all out. They put a lid on your mind, Fred, and I've taken it off.
-Put on the ethical pressure, put it heavy on your idealistic Egghead
-morality, steam it up hot, blow the lid off. It's working, Fred."
-
-"Is it?" I said. "I don't remember anything that would do you any
-good. I just know that it's wrong, the final horrible fraud. It isn't
-intelligence you guys want to wipe out, Mesner. Not your own, not the
-big wheels in power. It's only certain kinds of thinking, undesirable
-thoughts, attitudes you don't like. Those are what you have to purge."
-
-"Right, Fred. Only the wrong kind of Eggheads. Me, hell I'm an Egghead
-too. Remember the prize pupil in your psych class at Drake University,
-Fred?" Mesner laughed. "That was me."
-
-"You can kill people," I said. "You can't burn a sense of what's right
-or wrong out of people. That old dead blind man there has preserved
-something you can't touch."
-
-"Too bad you won't be around to see how wrong you are, Fred. We can
-make people whatever we damn well want them to be. Your old ethical
-pals worked out the methods. We're using it for a different end."
-
-The front door squeaked. I felt a moist draft on my face, and a whisper
-in my brain. A few words. I don't remember what they were. But they
-were a key that opened floodgates of self-understanding and awareness.
-I remembered a lot then, a lot of things and feelings that warmed me. I
-had a wonderful sense of wholeness and I was no longer afraid of being
-bipped, or afraid to die.
-
-There was an expression of complete triumph on Mesner's face, and
-he knew what had happened to me and he wanted it, all of it, sucked
-away into his briefcase. Just the same, the whisper from the doorway
-distracted his attention and I went for him.
-
-In that second of time, I saw the little blind girl who had whispered
-that triggering phrase for my release, and behind her, the seeing-eye
-dog. She was utterly unafraid and smiling at me. Courage she was
-saying. And I could share it with her.
-
-She had sealed her own death in order to make me whole again.
-
-I smashed the flashlight off the table into the wall and my weight
-drove Mesner onto the floor. I managed to grab his arm and we lay there
-in the dark straining for the nerve-gun. I began to hear the whir
-of heliocars. I twisted Mesner's arm up and around and released the
-nerve-gun's full charge directly into his face. A stammering scream
-came out of him. It was the scream of something not human. A full
-charge of that into the brain, it must have curled up the intricate
-connections and short circuited his brain into an irreparable hash.
-
-I took the blind girl's hand and we ran toward the river. The sky was
-crossed with search beams. And in the deep darkness by the river I
-was suddenly as blind as the girl who held my hand. We kept running
-and stumbling through the reeds. I felt her hand slip from mine. Then
-something hit me.
-
-It wasn't a localized impact, but something seemed to have hit me all
-over and moved through me as though my blood suddenly turned to lead.
-
-I tried to find the girl. I tried to crawl to the river, into the
-river. And near me I heard the girl say softly, "Goodbye now, Mr.
-Fredricks. Don't worry, because you'll be brave."
-
-"Thanks," I said. "Little girl, what's your name?"
-
-She didn't answer. I tried to call out to her again in the darkness,
-but I couldn't move my lips. Paralysis gripped me, and after that
-blackness, with the lights sometime later beginning to flicker against
-my tearing eyes, and then the horror.
-
- * * * * *
-
-The inquisition ended sooner than I thought it would. After the awful
-intrusion, there isn't any farther awareness of time. After you are
-thoroughly invaded, after your private soul, every naked cell of your
-brain is peeled open, exposed to the raw glaring light, after that you
-no longer care. What is you has been obliterated the way a shadow is
-eaten by the burn of cold light.
-
-Your identity is gone. They take it. You are theirs, all of you belongs
-to them. You feel them pouring out your mind down to the pitiful dregs
-as though they are pouring cups of coffee.
-
-The pain is a shredding, ripping, raveling horror. After that there is
-no feeling at all, and this is worse.
-
-I told them everything I knew. What I couldn't tell, they tapped,
-tearing chunks out the way you would rip pages and chapters out of a
-book.
-
-The responsible humanists, scientists, intellectuals had known what
-was coming. They prepared for it, and set up the plan before the last
-days of the Egghead purge. They set up the future saboteurs by a long
-intricate process of psychodynamic conditioning. They did it in the
-Universities before the schools were purged. Promising students were
-selected, worked on.
-
-Fredricks, a psychology student, was subjected to repeated hypnotic
-experiments. A blind Professor named O'Hara did most of it. It was
-all there finally in Fredrick's head, but then it was all suppressed
-and finally Fredricks himself forgot that he knew. A delayed hypnotic
-response pattern, an analogue, is set up. Later it will be triggered
-off by a phrase, a word, a series of words repeated at conditioned
-response intervals.
-
-Ten years later he was working inside, inside Security itself. When
-circumstances were right, a blind courier was to have triggered off
-Fredrick's suppressed knowledge allowing him to sabotage the entire
-Department of Records and Scientific Method. So many scientists and
-intellectuals had already been purged that few remained among the
-available personnel of Security who could have repaired a simple
-gasoline motor without a step-by-step chart taken from the Department
-of Records.
-
-It would have been a master coup for the underground.
-
-But Mesner had traced Fredrick's identity back to Drake University,
-back to O'Hara. He had gotten suspicious, and removed Fredricks from
-Security.
-
-The blind girl had whispered the key phrase just the same, in order
-that Fredricks might face the ordeal of the inquisition with as much
-pride, strength, and courage as possible.
-
-"Only a free man, a man who fully respects himself as an individual and
-a human being," Fredricks told his inquisitors, "only a man who has
-learned why he is living, can die like a man."
-
-Then they killed me.
-
-They tried to get more out of me, but what they wanted to know, I knew
-nothing whatever about. I knew nothing about the underground, or the
-headquarters of the Eggheads.
-
-But by then I was dead, and what they did was of no importance. I was
-no longer me. There was no awareness of being me. I had joined Dirkson
-and the renegade bio-chemist and all the others.
-
-I was hopping up and down in a cage before the Tevee cameras, and a
-reporter was talking to millions of smiling, care-free citizens and
-telling them how another vicious crackpot had been captured just in
-time to avert some terrible disaster which would have disturbed the
-status quo.
-
-Then I was taken away.
-
-"Are you awake now, Mr. Fredricks?"
-
-I opened my eyes. I was in a clean white room lying near a barred
-window. An attractive nurse smiled at me. She was holding a clipboard
-and making notations on a report pad.
-
-"How do you feel now, Fred?" Painfully, I turned and saw several ghosts
-standing and sitting on the other side of the bed. I could see a door
-behind them, partly opened onto a softly lit corridor.
-
-There was Dr. Malden, a famous anthropologist whom I had last seen in
-a newspaper headline during the purge. And Dr. Marquand, Nobel Prize
-winner in electrobiology. And Dr. Martinson, one time head of the UN
-Research Foundation. Dr. Rothberg, social psychologist. All dead, all
-purged, bipped and confined years ago. All ghosts.
-
-Only they were there. And they were alive, and they seemed glad to see
-me. All I knew was that I was alive again. I was aware of being me. And
-somehow I knew that these forgotten names were also alive again.
-
-Rothberg handed me a cigarette and the nurse lit it for me. I
-remembered that once I had liked cigarettes.
-
-"So what's happened," I said. My voice was weak. My insides felt as
-though they were filled with grinding pieces of broken razor blades.
-
-"You're in Zany-Ward No. 104," Dr. Rothberg said.
-
-"I don't believe I quite understand," I said carefully.
-
-"You will," Dr. Rothberg said. "Let's just say for a starter that when
-a man is bipped and brought here, we try to put him back together
-again. It's a long painful process. Sometimes he's not quite the same,
-but we've done pretty good work. We rebuild burned-out circuits. We
-have to know exactly what you were before you were bipped, and we try
-to duplicate the pattern. Regeneration is slow and rough. You'll be all
-right."
-
-They shook hands with me and smiled down at me and went out. The pretty
-nurse gave me a pill and I lay back and thought about it. It was
-logical enough, and I started to laugh. During the months after that
-while the slow process of re-learning and regeneration continued, I
-learned more about the Zany-Wards. Serious as it was, and as much as
-there was yet to be done, it was always amusing.
-
-As Eggheads were apprehended and confined, they were rehabilitated, put
-back together again, in a way you could say fissioned. The Eggheads are
-the inmates. They run the Zany-Wards which are used also as bases of
-operation in a continuing attempt to disrupt the Era of Normalcy. Great
-scientific labs are concealed underground.
-
-When Security inspection committees appear on the scene, we all put on
-our acts. We dance, make faces, act like monkeys and giggle.
-
-Doctor Rothberg told me yesterday that if our sabotage work doesn't
-soon cause people to rebel against the Era of Normalcy, it won't be
-long before we'll be the only sane people left in the world.
-
-
-
-
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