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- THE WAYS OF LIFE
-
- TWO STORIES
-
- BY
-
- MRS. OLIPHANT
-
- “_We have wrought no new deliverance in the earth_”
-
- G. P. PUTNAM’S SONS
- NEW YORK & LONDON
- The Knickerbocker Press
- 1897
-
- COPYRIGHT, 1897
- BY
- G. P. PUTNAM’S SONS
-
-
- The Knickerbocker Press, New York
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS.
-
-
- PAGE
-
-A PREFACE: ON THE EBB TIDE 7
-
-MR. SANDFORD 21
-
-THE WONDERFUL HISTORY OF MR. ROBERT DALYELL 149
-
-
-
-
-
-THE WAYS OF LIFE.
-
-
-
-
-A PREFACE.
-
-ON THE EBB TIDE.
-
-
-I do not pretend to say that the two stories included in this volume are
-conscious or intentional studies of the phase of human experience which
-I can describe in no other way than by calling it the ebb, in
-contradistinction to that tide in the affairs of men which we all know
-is, to those who can identify and seize it, the great turning-point of
-life, and leads on to fortune. But they were at least produced under the
-influence of the strange discovery which a man makes when he finds
-himself carried away by the retiring waters, no longer coming in upon
-the top of the wave, but going out. This does not necessarily mean the
-decline of life, the approach of age, or any natural crisis, but
-something more poignant--the wonderful and overwhelming revelation
-which one time or other comes to most people, that their career,
-whatever it may have been, has come to a stop: that such successes as
-they may have achieved are over, and that henceforward they must
-accustom themselves to the thought of going out with the tide. It is a
-very startling discovery to one who has perhaps been going with a
-tolerably full sail, without any consciousness of weakened energies or
-failing power; and it usually is as sudden as it is strange, a thing
-unforeseen by the sufferer himself, though probably other people have
-already found it out, and traced the steps of its approach. Writers of
-fiction, and those whose work it is to realise and exhibit, as far as in
-them lies, the vicissitudes and alterations of life, are more usually
-employed in illustrating the advance of that tide--in showing how it is
-caught or lost, and with what an impetus, and what accompaniments it
-flings itself higher and higher up upon the beach, with the sunshine
-triumphant in the whirl of the big wave as it turns over and breaks into
-foam, and the flood claps its hands with a rejoicing noise. But yet the
-ebb has its poetry, too; the colours are more sombre, the sentiment is
-different. The flood which in its rise seemed almost individual,
-pervaded by something like conscious life of force and pleasure, becomes
-like an abstract relentless fate when it pours back into the deep gulf
-of a sea of forgetfulness, with a rush of whitened pebbles dragged from
-the beach, or a long expanse of uncovered sands left bare, studded with
-slippery fragments of rock and the bones of shipwrecked boats. These are
-no more than symbols of the rising and falling again of human feeling,
-which, in all its phases, is of the highest interest to those who
-recognise, even in its imaginary developments, a shadow of their own.
-
-The moment when we first perceive that our individual tide has turned is
-one which few persons will find it possible to forget. We look on with a
-piteous surprise to see our little triumphs, our not-little hopes, the
-future we had still believed in, the past in which we thought our name
-and fame would still be to the good, whatever happened, all floating out
-to sea to be lost there, out of sight of men. In the morning all might
-seem as sure to go on for ever--that is, for our time, which means the
-same thing--as the sky over us, or the earth beneath our feet; but
-before evening there was a different story, and the tide was in full
-retreat, carrying with it both convictions of the past and hope in the
-future, not only our little laurels, all tossed and withered, and our
-little projects, but also the very heart of exertion, our confidence in
-ourselves and providence. The discovery comes in many different ways--in
-the unresponsive silence which greets an orator who once was interrupted
-by perpetual cheers, in the publishing of a book which drops and is
-never heard of more, or, as in the present case, the unsold pictures:
-and in the changed accent with which the fickle public pronounces a once
-favoured name.
-
-There are some who salute this discovery with outcries of indignation
-and refusal to believe. They think, like the French, that they are
-betrayed, or, like many of us, that an enemy has done this: a malignant
-critic perhaps, an ill-disposed publisher or dealer: and save their own
-pride by putting forth explanations, and persuading themselves, if
-nobody else, that the thing is temporary and an accident, or else that
-it is due to cruel fate, and the machinations of evil-hearted men. But
-when, amid the gifts of the artist, be they small or great, he happens
-to retain the clearer reason, the common-sense of ordinary intelligence,
-it is more difficult to take refuge in such self-deceptions, merciful
-expedients of Nature as they may be to blind us to our own misfortunes.
-The reasonable man has the worst of it in such cases. It is less
-possible for him to believe in a mysterious fate or in malign
-influences. He is obliged to allow to himself that the going out of the
-tide is as natural as its coming in, and that he is no way exempted from
-the operation of those laws which affect human reputation and comfort as
-much as the rising and the falling affect the winds and the seas.
-
-These problems of the common life, though they are perhaps less
-cheerful, are surely as fit subjects for fiction as are the easier
-difficulties of youth. It is common to say that all the stories have
-been told and every complication exhausted, so that we can do nothing
-but repeat the old themes over again, with such variety of treatment as
-our halting genius can suggest. Romance itself, they say, is gone, which
-is an assertion strenuously contradicted by the most powerful of our
-young writers, Mr. Rudyard Kipling, who replies to it in very energetic
-tones, that, Here is a steam-engine, which is Romance incarnate, the
-great poetry of form and purpose, a creation, as distinct as Hamlet or
-Lear, a big, dutiful, but exigent giant which a touch can turn into a
-destroyer, but loving guidance into the most useful servant and friend
-of man. The tramp of its mighty feet across the wastes of the sea,
-bringing the man home to his wife, the son to his mother, is poetry, is
-joy to this eager spirit. I am disposed in moderation to accept the
-belief of the young author who has a most broad and manful perception of
-life as something more than love-making, and to acknowledge the
-mysterious monstrous thing which he makes heroic. To show in his
-masterful way how every consenting part of the big machine as it clanks
-on with large unwieldy steps, so many beats to a minute, sounds a note
-in the symphony of life and service, a voice in the great strain of song
-which rises from earth to heaven, is more worthy than all the unsavoury
-romances of all the decadents. Would not St. Francis, had he lived to
-see it, have called to Brother Iron and Brother Steel, strong henchmen
-of God, and Sister Steam, with her wreaths of snow, though her voice be
-not sweet, to join the song of the Creatures in honour of the Maker, as
-he called upon fire and water in his famous hymn? or that older minstrel
-in the ancient ages, to whom “snow and vapour, wind and storms
-fulfilling His word,” were already members of the great choir? It must
-be added, however, when all is said, that it is the grimy engineer
-behind watching every valve and guiding every stroke who makes the
-romance of the machine, as interesting in his way as Romeo, who, though
-he is the perennial hero, and attracts the greatest general interest, is
-not so much of a man.
-
-I have often felt while sick or sorry, and craving a little rational
-entertainment and distraction--which, in my opinion, it is one of the
-highest aims of the novelist to supply--that the everlasting treatment
-of the primary problem of youth, as if there was no other in the world,
-was at once fatiguing to the reader and injudicious on the part of the
-writer. When we want to be taken out of ourselves by the lively
-presentment of other people’s difficulties and troubles, it is tiresome
-to be always turned back to the disappointments or the successes of
-eighteen, or--in deference to the different standard of age held to be
-interesting by this generation--let us say five-and-twenty. I do not in
-the least deny the great advantages of that episode in life for
-treatment in fiction. It is almost the only episode which comes to a
-distinct, while it may be, at the same time, a cheerful, end; and its
-popularity is obvious: and it is a subject which women, who form the
-bulk of readers of fiction, are rarely tired of; all of which points are
-important. The elder writers made it the chief thread in the web of
-fancy, but surrounded the young people with plenty of fathers and
-mothers, neighbours and servants, doctors, clergymen, lawyers, etc., and
-all the paraphernalia of common life. But I weary of the two by
-themselves, or almost by themselves, as happens so often; and if the
-artifices, with which we are so familiar, by which they are brought
-together, are fatiguing, how much more so are those uglier artifices by
-which, being linked together, they are torn asunder again, and a fierce
-duel of what is called passion is set before us against the lurid skies
-as the chief object of interest in the world? Novelists make a great
-moan when they are hindered in the working out of such subjects, and cry
-loudly to heaven and earth against the limited intelligences which
-object to them, the British matron, the young person, and so forth. It
-seems to me that they would be more reasonable if they complained of the
-monotonous demand for a love-story which crushes out of court all the
-rest of life--so infinite in variety, so full of complication, so
-humorous, so mysterious, so natural and true.
-
-I have wondered often whether Macaulay and Darwin, and such great men,
-whom it is the pride of the novel writer to quote as finding their
-recreation in novels, were not of my opinion; though it is sadly
-disconcerting to find from his own account that all Mr. Darwin wanted
-was a story which ended happily--a judgment which is humbling to one’s
-pride in a reader of whom one was so much inclined to boast. So do I
-like a story which ends happily. And since the public is fond of such
-small revelations, I may here confess that I have often begun a story
-with the determination to be high-minded--to treat my young lovers
-without indulgence, and either kill them or part them in deference to
-the rules of Art. But my heart has generally failed me, and I have
-rarely found courage to do them any harm. They will have plenty of
-trouble in the world, one knows--why should one cross them in the
-beginning of their career?
-
-These, however, are questions of a lighter mood than the one with which
-I began, and a manifest digression from that theme. The two stories
-which follow treat not of the joy and pride of life, but of those so
-often unforeseen misfortunes and accidents which shape it towards its
-end. Life appears under a very different aspect to the man who has felt
-the turn of the tide. Probably the discovery has been quite sudden,
-startling, and, so far as he knows, private to himself. His friends all
-the time may go on hailing him as poet, creator--all manner of fine
-things. If he discloses his discovery to them, he is met by reproaches
-for his dejection, his distrust and gloomy views; the compliments which
-he knows so well and believes so little are heaped again upon him; he is
-out of health, out of spirits, overworked, they say, in want of rest; a
-few weeks leisure and repose, and he will be himself again--as if it
-were a mood or a freak of temper, and not a fact staring him in the
-face. But usually he is too much stunned to speak. He is not dying, or
-like to die, though his career has come or is coming to an end. It would
-be far more appropriate, far more dramatic if he were; but death is
-illogical, and will seldom come at the moment when it is wanted, when it
-would most appropriately solve the problem of what is to be done
-after?--which becomes the most pressing, the most necessary of
-questions. Why did not Napoleon die at Waterloo? He lived to add a
-pitiful postscript to his existence, to accumulate all kinds of squalid
-miseries about his end, instead of the dramatic and clear-cut conclusion
-which he might have attained by a merciful bullet or the thrust of a
-bayonet. And how well it would be to end thus when we have discovered
-that our day is over! But so far from that, the man has to go on, as if
-nothing had happened, “in a cheerful despair,” as I have read in a
-note-book--as if to-day were as yesterday, or perhaps more abundant.
-
- “We poets in our youth, begin in gladness,
- But after comes in the end despondency and madness,”
-
-says Wordsworth. “We have wrought no deliverance in the earth,” says
-with profounder meaning a much older poet. A man in such straits may
-sometimes save himself as Hamlet would have done, with a bare bodkin,
-had not the thought of that something after death which might be worse
-even than present calamity deterred him; but if he is of other mettle
-and cannot run away, or leave his post save at the lawful summons, the
-question, What he is to do? is overwhelming. No hope of being carried to
-any island valley of Avillion by stately queens in that boat which is
-going out with the tide. And no rebellion against fate will do him the
-slightest service. He has to hold his footing somehow--but how?
-
-I confess that I have not had the courage to follow this question, in
-either of the cases treated here, to such depths of human discomfiture
-as may have been, or may yet be. A greater artist might have done so,
-and led the defeated man through all the depths of humiliation and
-dismay; but my hand is not strong or firm enough to trace out to the
-bounds of the catastrophe the last possibilities of the broken career.
-What in the jargon of the age is called the psychological moment is
-that in which the first discovery is made, and the startled victim
-suddenly perceives what has happened to him, and feels in every plank of
-his boat the downward drag of the ebb tide, and looks about him wildly
-to see if there is anything he can lay hold of to arrest it, any
-deliverance or any escape. This is the case of Mr. Sandford, the hero of
-the first of the following tales: and of many others who are not
-favoured by so speedy and so complete an answer to this bewildering
-problem of life.
-
-The other story is different; for Robert Dalyell, the subject of that,
-has laid his plans arbitrarily to escape out of it, doing what seems to
-him the best he can for those who belonged to him. And here again there
-is much more to say than has been said; for the condition of the man who
-blots himself out of life without dying, and accepts a kind of moral
-annihilation while yet all the sources of life are warm within him,
-might well afford us one of the most tragic chapters of human history.
-But I have shrunk from those darker colours with a compunction for him
-whom I have made to suffer, which is quite fantastical and out of
-reason, but yet true. To have brought him into the world for the mere
-purpose of exhibiting his torments seems bad enough without searching
-into the depths of them, and betraying those secrets which he himself
-accepts with a robust commonplace of endurance as the natural
-consequences of the step he has taken.
-
-I may add here that the circumstances of this latter story, which a just
-but severe writer has upbraided me with taking from real life, are
-indeed, so far as the central incident goes, facts in a family history,
-but facts of which I know neither the date nor the personages involved,
-all of whom are purely imaginary, as are most of the consequences that
-follow, at least so far as is known to me.
-
-The reader, I hope, will forgive a writer very little given to
-explanations, or to any personal appearance, for these prefatory words.
-
-M. O. W. O.
-
-
-
-
-MR. SANDFORD.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-
-He was a man approaching sixty, but in perfect health, and with no
-painful physical reminders that he had already accomplished the greater
-part of life’s journey. He was a successful man, who had attained at a
-comparatively early age the heights of his profession, and gained a name
-for himself. No painter in England was better or more favourably known.
-He had never been emphatically the fashion, or made one of those great
-“hits” which are far from being invariably any test of genius; but his
-pictures had always been looked for with pleasure, and attracted a large
-and very even share of popular approbation. From year to year, for what
-was really a very long time, though in his good health and cheerful
-occupation the progress of time had never forced itself upon him unduly,
-he had gone on doing very well, getting both praise and pudding--good
-prices, constant commissions, and a great deal of agreeable applause. A
-course of gentle uninterrupted success of this description has a
-curiously tranquillising effect upon the mind. It did not seem to Mr.
-Sandford, or his wife, or any of his belongings, that it could ever
-fail. His income was more like an official income, coming in at slightly
-irregular intervals, and with variations of amount, but wonderfully
-equal at the year’s end, than the precarious revenues of an artist. And
-this fact lulled him into security in respect to his pecuniary means. He
-had a very pleasant, ample, agreeable life--a pretty and comfortable
-house, full of desirable things; a pleasant, gay, not very profitable,
-but pleasant family; and the agreeable atmosphere of applause and public
-interest which gave a touch of perfection to all the other good things.
-He had the consciousness of being pointed out in every assembly as
-somebody worth looking at: “That’s Sandford, you know, the painter.” He
-did not dislike it himself, and Mrs. Sandford liked it very much.
-Altogether it would have been difficult to find a more pleasant and
-delightful career.
-
-His wife had been the truest companion and helpmeet of all his early
-life. She had made their small means do in the beginning when money was
-not plentiful. She had managed to do him credit in all the many
-appearances in society which a rising painter finds to his advantage,
-while still spending very little on herself or her dress. She had kept
-all going, and saved him from a thousand anxieties and cares. She had
-sat to him when models proved expensive so often that it was a common
-joke to say that some reflection of Mrs. Sandford’s face was in all his
-pictures, from Joan of Arc to Queen Elizabeth. Now that the children
-were grown up, perhaps the parents were a little less together than of
-old. She had her daughters to look after, who were asked out a great
-deal, and very anxious to be fashionable and to keep up with their fine
-friends. The two grown-up girls were both pretty, animated, and pleasant
-creatures, full of the chatter of society, yet likewise full of better
-things. There were also two grown-up sons: one a young barrister,
-briefless, and fond of society too; the other one of those agreeable
-do-nothings who are more prevalent nowadays than ever before, a very
-clever fellow, who had just not succeeded as he ought at the University
-or elsewhere, but had plenty of brains for anything, and only wanted the
-opportunity to distinguish himself. They were all full of faculty, both
-boys and girls, but all took a good deal out of the family stores
-without bringing anything in. Ever since these children grew up the
-family life had been on a very easy, ample scale. There was never any
-appearance of want of money, nor was the question ever discussed with
-the young ones, who had really no way of knowing that there was anything
-precarious in that well-established family income which provided them
-with everything they could desire. Sometimes, indeed, Mrs. Sandford
-would shake her head and declare that she “could not afford” some
-particular luxury. “Oh, nonsense, mamma!” the girls would say, while
-Harry would add, “That’s mother’s _rôle_, we all know. If she did not
-say so she would not be acting up to her part.” They took it in this
-way, with the same, or perhaps even a greater composure than if Mr.
-Sandford’s revenues had been drawn from the three per cents.
-
-It was only after this position had been attained that any anxieties
-arose. At first it had seemed quite certain that Jack would speedily
-distinguish himself at the bar, and become Lord Chancellor in course of
-time; and that something would turn up for Harry--most likely a
-Government appointment, which so well known a man as his father had a
-right to expect. And Mrs. Sandford, with a sigh, had looked forward with
-certainty to the early marriage of her girls. But some years had now
-passed since Ada, who was the youngest, had been introduced, and as yet
-nothing of that kind had happened. Harry was pleasantly about the world,
-a great help in accompanying his sisters when Mrs. Sandford did not want
-to go out, but no appointment had fallen in his way; and the briefs
-which Jack had procured were very few and very trifling. Things went on
-quite pleasantly all the same. The young people enjoyed themselves very
-much--they were asked everywhere. Lizzie, who had a beautiful voice, was
-an acquisition wherever she went, and helped her sister and her
-brothers, who could all make themselves agreeable. The life of the
-household flowed on in the pleasantest way imaginable; everything was
-bright, delightful, easy. Mrs. Sandford was so good a manager that all
-domestic arrangements went as on velvet. She was never put out if two or
-three people appeared unexpectedly to lunch. An impromptu dinner party
-even, though it might disturb cook, never disturbed mamma. There was no
-extravagance, but everything delightfully liberal and full. The first
-vague uneasiness that crept into the atmosphere was about the boys. It
-was Mrs. Sandford herself who began this. “Did you speak to Lord Okeham
-about Harry?” she said to her husband one day, when she had been
-particularly elated by the appearance of that nobleman at her tea-table.
-He had come to look at a picture, and he was very willing afterwards, it
-appeared, to come into the drawing-room to tea.
-
-“How could I? I scarcely know him. It is difficult enough to ask a
-friend--but a man I have only seen twice----”
-
-“Your money or your life,” said Harry, with a laugh. He was himself
-quite tranquil about his appointment, never doubting that some day it
-would turn up.
-
-“It is easier to ask a stranger than a friend,” said Mrs. Sandford. “It
-is like trading on friendship with a man you know; but this man’s
-nothing but a patron, or an admirer. I should have asked him like--I
-mean at once.”
-
-“Mother was going to say like a shot--she is getting dreadfully slangy,
-worse than any of us. Let’s hope old Okeham will come back; there’s not
-much time lost,” said the cheerful youth.
-
-“When your father was your age he was making a good deal of money. We
-were beginning to see our way,” said Mrs. Sandford, shaking her head.
-
-“What an awfully imprudent pair you must have been to marry so early!”
-cried Jack.
-
-“I wonder what you would say to us if we suggested anything of the
-kind?” said Miss Ada, who had made herself very agreeable to Lord
-Okeham.
-
-“A poor painter!” said Lizzie, with a tone in her voice which her mother
-understood--for, indeed Mrs. Sandford did not at all encourage the
-attentions of poor painters, having still that early certainty of great
-matches in her mind.
-
-The young people were quite fond of their parents, very proud of their
-father, dutiful as far as was consistent with the traditions of their
-generation: but naturally they were of opinion that fathers and mothers
-were slightly antiquated, and did not possess the last lights.
-
-“The young ones are too many for you, Mary,” said Mr. Sandford; but he
-added, “It’s true what your mother says; you oughtn’t to be about so
-much as you are, doing nothing. You ought to grind as long as you’re
-young----”
-
-“At what, sir?” said Harry, with mock reverence. Mr. Sandford did not
-reply, for indeed he could not. Instead of giving an answer he went back
-to the studio, which indeed he had begun to find a pleasant refuge in
-the midst of all the flow of youthful talk and laughter, which was not
-of the kind he had been used to in his youth. Young artists, those poor
-painters whom Mrs. Sandford held at arms’ length, are not perhaps much
-more sensible than other young men, but they have at least a subject on
-which any amount of talk is possible, and which their elders can
-understand. Mr. Sandford was proud of his children, and loved them
-dearly. Their education, he believed, was much better than his own, and
-they knew a great deal more on general subjects than he did. But their
-jargon was not his jargon, and though it seemed very clever and knowing,
-and even amusing for a while, it soon palled upon him. He went back to
-his studio and to the picture he was painting, for the daylight was
-still good. It was the largest of his Academy pictures, and nearly
-finished. It occurred to him as he stood looking at it critically from a
-distance, with his head on one side and his hand shading now one part
-now another, that Lord Okeham, though very complimentary, had not said
-anything about a desire to possess in his small collection a specimen of
-such a well-known master as ----. He remembered, now, that it was with
-this desire that his lordship had been supposed to be coming. Daniells,
-the picture dealer, had said as much. “He wants to come and see what
-you’ve got on the stocks. Tell you w’at, old man, ’e’s as rich as
-Cressus. Lay it on thick, ’e won’t mind--give you two thou’ as easy as
-five ’undred.” This was what, with his usual elegant familiarity, Mr.
-Daniells had said. It occurred to Mr. Sandford, with a curious little
-pang of surprise, that Lord Okeham had not said a word on the subject.
-He had admired everything, he had lingered upon some of the smaller
-sketches, making little remarks in the way of criticism now and then
-which the painter recognised as very judicious, but he had not said a
-word about enriching his collection with a specimen, &c. The surprise
-with which Mr. Sandford noticed this had a sort of sting in it--a prick
-like the barb of a fish-hook, like the thorn upon a rose. He did not at
-the moment exactly perceive why he should have felt it so. After a
-little while, indeed, he began to smile at the idea that it was from
-Okeham that this sting came. What did one man’s favour, even though that
-man was a cabinet minister, matter to him? It was not that, it was the
-discussion that followed which had left him with a prick of disquiet, a
-tingling spot in his mind. He must, he felt, speak to some one about
-Harry--not Lord Okeham, whom he did not know, who had evidently changed
-his mind about that specimen of so well-known, &c. He would not dream of
-saying anything to him, a man not sympathetic, a stranger whom, though
-he might offer him a cup of tea, he did not really know; but it was very
-clear that Harry ought to have something to do.
-
-So ought Jack. Jack had a profession, but that did not seem to advance
-him much. Mr. Sandford had early determined that his sons should not be
-artists like himself--that they should have no precarious career,
-dependent on the favour of picture dealers and patrons, notwithstanding
-that he himself had done very well in that way. He had always resolved
-from the beginning to give them every advantage. Mr. Sandford recalled
-to mind that a few years ago he had been very strenuous on this point,
-talking of the duty of giving his children the very best education,
-which was the best thing any father could do for his children. He had
-been very confident indeed on that subject; now he paused and rubbed his
-chin meditatively with his mahl-stick. Was it possible that he was not
-quite so sure now? He shook himself free from this troublesome coil of
-thought, and made up his mind that he must make an effort about Harry.
-Then he put down his brushes and went out for his afternoon walk.
-
-In earlier days Mrs. Sandford would have come into the studio; she would
-have talked Lord Okeham over. She would have said, “Oh, he did not like
-that forest bit, didn’t he? Upon my word! I suppose my lord thinks he is
-a judge!”
-
-“What he said was reasonable enough. He does know something about it. I
-told you myself I was not satisfied with the balance of colour. The
-shadow’s too dark. The middle distance----”
-
-“Oh, Edward, don’t talk nonsense: that’s just like you--you’re so
-ridiculously modest. If the cook were to come in one morning and tell
-you she thought your composition bad, you would say she approached the
-picture without any bias, and probably what she said was quite true.
-Come out for a walk.”
-
-This, be it clearly understood, was an imaginary conversation. It did
-not take place for the excellent reason that Mrs. Sandford was in the
-drawing-room, smiling at the witticisms of her young ones, and saying at
-intervals, “Come, come, Lizzie!” and “Don’t be so satirical, Jack.” They
-were not nearly such good company as her husband, nor did they want her
-half so much, but she thought they did, and that it was her duty to be
-there. So Mr. Sandford, who did not think of it at all as a grievance,
-but only as a natural necessity, had nothing but an imaginary talk which
-did not relieve him much, and went out for his walk by himself.
-
-It would be foolish to date absolutely from that day a slight change
-that began to work in him--but it did come on about this time: and that
-was an anxiety that the boys should get on and begin their life’s work
-in earnest which had not affected him before. He had been too busy to
-think much except about his work so long as the young ones were well;
-and the period at which the young ones become men and women is not
-always easy for a father to discern so long as they are all under his
-roof as in their childish days. He, too, had let things flow along in
-the well-being of the time without pausing to inquire how long it was to
-last, or what was to come of it. A man of sixty who is in perfectly good
-health does not feel himself to be old, nor think it necessary to
-consider the approaching end of his career. Something, however, aroused
-him now about these boys. He got a little irritable when he saw Harry
-about, playing tennis with the girls, sometimes spending the whole day
-in flannels. “Why can’t he do something?” he said to his wife.
-
-“Dear Edward,” said Mrs. Sandford, “what can the poor boy do? He is only
-too anxious to do something. He is always talking to me about it. If
-only Lord Okeham or some one would get a post for him. Is there no one
-you can speak to about poor Harry?”
-
-This was turning the tables upon Harry’s father, who, to tell the truth,
-was very slow to ask favours, and did not like it all. He did speak,
-however--not to Lord Okeham, but to an inferior potentate, and was told
-that all the lists were full, although everybody would be delighted, of
-course, to serve him if possible; and nothing came of that. Then there
-was Jack. The young man came into dinner one day in the highest spirits.
-He had got a brief--a real brief--a curiosity which he regarded with a
-jocular admiration. “I shall be a rich man in no time,” he said.
-
-“How much is your fee?” asked one of the girls. “You must take us
-somewhere with it Jack.”
-
-“It is two guineas,” Jack said, and then there was a general burst of
-laughter--that laughter young and fresh which is sweet to the ears of
-fathers and mothers.
-
-“That’s majestic,” Harry said; “lend us something, old fellow, for
-luck,” and they all laughed again. They thought it a capital joke that
-Jack should earn two guineas in six months. It did not hurt him or any
-of them; he had everything he wanted as if he had been earning hundreds.
-But Mr. Sandford did not laugh. This time it vexed and disturbed him to
-hear all the cheerful banter and talk about Jack’s two guineas.
-
-“It is all very well to laugh,” he said to his wife afterwards, “but how
-is he ever to live upon that?”
-
-“Dear Edward, it’s not like you to take their fun in earnest,” said the
-mother. “The poor boy has such spirits--and then it’s always a
-beginning.”
-
-“I am afraid his spirits are too good. If he would only take life a
-little more seriously----”
-
-“Why should he?” said Mrs. Sandford, taking high ground; “it is his
-happiest time. If he wanted to marry and set up for himself it might be
-different. But they have no cares--as yet. We ought to be thankful they
-are all so happy at home. Few young men love their home like our boys.
-We ought to be very thankful,” she repeated with a devout look upon her
-upturned face. It took the words out of his mouth. He could not say any
-more.
-
-But he kept on thinking. The time was passing away with great
-rapidity--far more quickly than it had ever done. Sunday trod on the
-heels of Sunday, and the months jostled each other as they flew along.
-Presently it was Jack’s birthday, and there was a dance and a great deal
-of affectionate pleasure; but when Mr. Sandford remembered how old the
-boy was, it gave him a shock which none of the others felt. At that age
-he himself had been Jack’s father, he had laid the foundation of his
-reputation, and was a rising man. If they did not live at home and had
-not everything provided for them, what would become of these boys? It
-gave him a sort of panic to think of it. In the very midst of the dance,
-when he was himself standing in the midst of a little knot of
-respectable fathers watching the young ones enjoying themselves, this
-thought overtook him and made him shiver.
-
-“Getting on, I hear, very well at the bar,” one of the gentlemen said.
-
-“He is not making very much money as yet,” replied Mr. Sandford.
-
-“Oh, nobody does that--at first, at least; but so long as he has you to
-fall back upon,” this good-natured friend said, with a nod of his head.
-
-Mr. Sandford could not make any reply. He kept saying to himself, “Two
-guineas--two guineas--he could not live very long on that.” And Harry
-had not even two guineas. It fretted him to have this thought come back
-at all manner of unlikely times. He did not seem able to shake it off.
-And Mrs. Sandford was always on the defensive, seeing it in his eyes,
-and making responses to it, speaking at it, always returning to the
-subject. She dwelt upon the goodness of the boys, and their love of
-their home, and how good it was for the girls to have them, and how
-nobody made their mark all at once, “except people that have genius like
-you,” she said with that wifely admiration and faith which is so sweet
-to a man. What more could he say?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-
-About the same time, or a little later, another shadow rose up upon Mr.
-Sandford’s life. It was like the cloud no bigger than a man’s hand, like
-a mere film upon the blue sky at first. Perhaps the very first
-appearance of it--the faintest shadow of a shade upon the blue--arose on
-that day when Lord Okeham visited the studio and went away without
-giving any commission. Not that great personages had not come before
-with the same result; but that this time there had been supposed to be a
-distinct purpose in his visit beyond that of taking a cup of tea with
-the artist’s wife and daughters--and this purpose had not been carried
-out. It was not the cloud, but it was a sort of _avant-coureur_ of the
-cloud, like the chill little momentary breath which sometimes heralds a
-storm. No storm followed, but the shadow grew. The next thing that made
-it really shape itself as a little more than a film was the fact of his
-Academy picture, the principal one of the year, coming back--without
-any explanation at all; not purchased, nor even with any application
-from the print-sellers about an engraving; simply coming back as it had
-gone into the exhibition. No doubt in the course of a long career such a
-thing as this, too, had happened before. But there was generally
-something to account for it, and the picture thus returned seldom dwelt
-long in the painter’s hands. This time, however, it subsided quite
-quietly into its place, lighting up the studio with a great deal of
-colour and interest--“a pleasure to see,” Mrs. Sandford said, who had
-often declared that the worst thing of being a painter’s wife was that
-she never liked to see the pictures go away. This might be very true,
-and it is quite possible that it was a pleasure to behold, standing on
-its easel against a wall which generally was enlivened only with the
-earliest of sketches, and against which a lay figure grinned and
-sprawled.
-
-But the prospect was not quite agreeable to the painter. However
-cheerfully he went into his studio in the morning, he always grew grave
-when he came in front of that brilliant canvas. It was the “Black Prince
-at Limoges,” a picture full of life and action, with all the aid of
-mediæval costume and picturesque groups--such a picture as commanded
-everybody’s interest in Mr. Sandford’s younger days. He would go and
-stand before it for an hour at a time, trying to find some fault in the
-composition, or in the flesh tints, or the arrangements of the
-draperies. It took away his thoughts from the subject he was then
-engaged in working out. Sometimes he would put up his hand to separate
-one portion from another, sometimes divide it with a screen of paper,
-sometimes even alter an outline with chalk, or mellow a spot of colour
-with his brush. There was very little fault to be found with the
-picture. It carried out all the rules of composition to which the
-painter had been bred. The group of women which formed the central light
-was full of beauty; the sick warrior to whom they appealed was a marvel
-of strength and ferocity, made all the keener by the pallor of his
-illness. There was nothing to be said against the picture; except,
-perhaps, that, had not this been Mr. Sandford’s profession, there was no
-occasion for its existence at all.
-
-When the mind has once been filled with a new idea it is astounding how
-many events occur to heighten it. Other distinguished visitors came to
-the studio, like Lord Okeham, and went away again, having left a great
-deal of praise and a little criticism, but nothing else, behind them.
-These were not, perhaps, of importance enough to have produced much
-effect at an ordinary moment, but they added to the general
-discouragement. Mr. Sandford smiled within himself at the mistakes the
-amateurs made, and the small amount of real knowledge which they showed;
-but when they were gone the smile became something like that which is
-generally and vulgarly described as being on the wrong side of the
-mouth. It was all very well to smile at the amateurs--but it was in the
-long run their taste, and not that of the heaven-born artist, which
-carried the day; and when a man takes away in his pocket the sum which
-ought to supply your balance at your banker’s, the sight of his back as
-he goes out at the door is not pleasant. Mr. Sandford had not come to
-that pitch yet; but he laughed no longer, and felt a certain ruefulness
-in his own look when one after another departed without a word of a
-commission. There were other things, too, not really of the slightest
-importance, which deepened the impression--the chatter of Jack’s
-friends, for instance, some of whom were young journalists, and talked
-the familiar jargon of critics. He came into the drawing-room one day
-during one of his wife’s teas, and found two or three young men,
-sprawling about with legs stretched out over the limited space, who were
-pulling to pieces a recent exhibition of the works of a Royal
-Academician. “You would think you had got among half a dozen different
-sorts of people dressed for private theatricals,” said one of the
-youths. “Old models got up as Shakespearian kings, and that sort of
-thing. _You_ know, Mrs. Sandford; conventional groups trying to look as
-if they were historical.”
-
-“I remember Mr. White’s pictures very well,” said Mrs. Sandford. “I used
-to think them beautiful. We all rushed to see what he had in the
-exhibition, upon the private view day, when I did not know so much about
-it as I do now.”
-
-“Ah, yes; before you knew so much about it,” said the art authority.
-“You would think very differently to-day.”
-
-“The whole school is like that,” said another. “Historical painting is
-gone out like historical novel-writing. The public is tired of costume.
-Life is too short for that sort of thing. We want a far more profound
-knowledge of the human figure and beauty in the abstract----”
-
-“Stuff!” said Harry; “the British public doesn’t want your nudities,
-whatever you may think.”
-
-“The British public likes babies, and sick girls getting well, and
-beautiful young gentlemen saying eternal adieux to lovely young ladies,”
-said one of the girls.
-
-“To be sure, that sort of thing always goes on; but everybody must feel
-that in cultured circles there is a far greater sense of the beauty of
-colour for itself and art for art than in those ridiculous old days when
-the subject was everything----”
-
-“You confuse me with your new lights,” said Mrs. Sandford. “I always did
-think there was a great deal in a good subject.”
-
-“My dear Mrs. Sandford!” cried one of the young men, laughing; while
-another added, with the solemnity of his kind--
-
-“People really did think so at one time. It was a genuine belief so long
-as it lasted. I am not one of those who laugh at faith so _naïf_.
-Whatever is true even for a time has a right to be respected,” said
-this profound young man.
-
-Mr. Sandford came in at this point, having paused a little to enjoy the
-fun, as he said to himself. It was wonderful to hear how they
-chattered--these babes. “I am glad to hear that you are all so tolerant
-of the old fogeys,” he said, with a laugh as he showed himself. And one
-at least of the young men had the good taste to jump up as if he were
-ashamed of himself, and to take his legs out of the way.
-
-“I suppose that’s the new creed that those fellows were giving forth,”
-he said to Jack, when the other young men were gone.
-
-“Oh, I don’t know, sir,” said Jack, with an embarrassed laugh. “We all
-of us say our say.”
-
-“But that is the say of most of you, I suppose,” said his father.
-
-“Well, sir, I suppose every generation has its own standard. ‘The old
-order changeth,’ don’t you know--in art as well as in other things.”
-
-“I see; and you think we know precious little about it,” said Mr.
-Sandford, with a joyless smile which curled his lip without obeying any
-mirthful impulse. He felt angry and unreasonably annoyed at the silly
-boys who knew so little. “But they know how to put that rubbish into
-words, and they get it published, and it affects the general opinion,”
-he said to himself, with perhaps a feeling, not unnatural in the
-circumstances, that he would like to drown those kittens with their
-miauling about things they knew nothing about. Angry moods, however, did
-not last long in Mr. Sandford’s mind. He went back to his studio and
-looked at the “Black Prince” in the light of these criticisms. And he
-found that some of the old courtiers in attendance on the sick warrior
-did look unfeignedly like old models, which indeed they were, and that
-there was more composition than life in the attitudes of the women. “I
-always thought that arm should come like this,” he said to himself,
-taking up his chalk.
-
-One day about this time he had a visit from Daniells, the picture
-dealer, leading a millionaire--a newly-fledged one--who was making a
-gallery and buying right and left. Daniells, though he was very dubious
-about his h’s, was a good fellow, and always ready to stand by a friend.
-He was taking his millionaire a round of the studios, and especially to
-those in which there was something which had not “come off,” according
-to his phraseology. The millionaire was exceptionally ignorant and
-outspoken, expressing his own opinion freely. “What sort of a thing have
-we got here?” he said, walking up to the “Black Prince;” “uncommon nice
-lot of girls, certainly; but what are they all doing round the fellow
-out of the hospital? I say, is it something catching?” he cried, giving
-Mr. Sandford a dig with his elbow. Daniells laughed at this long and
-loudly, but it was the utmost the painter could do to conjure up a
-simple smile. He explained as well as he could that they were begging
-for life, and that the town was being sacked, a terrible event of which
-his visitor might have heard.
-
-“Sacked,” said the millionaire; “you mean that they’re factory hands and
-have got the sack, or that they have been just told they’ve got to work
-short time. I understand that; and it shows how human nature’s just the
-same in all ages. But I can tell you that in Lancashire it’s a nice
-rowing he’d have got instead of all these sweet looks. They would not
-have let him off like that, don’t you think it. Wherever you get your
-women from, ours ain’t of that kind.”
-
-Sandford tried to explain what kind of a sack it was, but he did not
-succeed, for the rich man was much pleased with his own view.
-
-“It’s a fine picture,” said Daniells; “Mr. Sandford, he’s one of the
-very best of our modern masters, sir. He has got a great name, and
-beautiful his pictures look in a gallery with the others to set ’em off.
-Hung on the line in the Academy, and collected crowds. I shouldn’t ’a
-been surprised if they’d ’ad to put a rail round it like they did to Mr.
-Frith’s.”
-
-He gave a wink at Mr. Sandford as he spoke, which made our poor painter
-sick.
-
-“I’ve got one of Frith’s,” said the millionaire.
-
-“You’ll ’ave got one of every modern artist worth counting when you’ve
-got Mr. Sandford’s,” said Daniells, with a pat upon the shoulder to his
-wealthy client. That gentleman turned round, putting his hands into his
-pockets.
-
-“I’ve seen some pictures as I liked better,” he said.
-
-“Yes, I know. You’ve seen that one o’ Millais’, a regular stunner; but,
-God bless you, that’s but one figger, and twice the money. Look at the
-work in that,” cried the dealer, turning his man round again, who gave
-the picture another condescending inspection from one corner to the
-other.
-
-“I don’t deny there’s a deal of work in it,” he said, “if it’s painted
-fair with everything from the life; and I don’t mind taking it to
-complete my collection; but I’ll expect to have that considered in the
-price,” he added, turning once more on the painter. “You see, Mr. ----
-(What’s the gentleman’s name, Daniells?) I am not death on the picture
-for itself. It’s a fine showy picture, and I don’t doubt ’t’ll look well
-when it’s hung; but big things like that, as don’t tell their story
-plain, they’re not exactly my taste. However, it’s all right since
-Daniells says so. The only man I know that goes in for that sort of
-thing thinks all the world of Daniells. ‘Go to Daniells,’ he says, ‘and
-you’ll be all right.’ So I’ll take the picture, but I’ll expect a
-hundred or two off for ready money. I suppose there’s discount in all
-trades.”
-
-“Say fifty off, and you’ll do very well, and get a fine thing cheap,”
-said Daniells.
-
-Mr. Sandford’s countenance had darkened. He was very amiable, very
-courteous, much indisposed to bargaining, but he felt as if his customer
-had jumped upon him, and it was all he could do to contain himself. “I
-never make----” he began, with a little haughtiness most unusual to him;
-but before he had said the final words he caught Daniells’ eye, who was
-making anxious signs to him. The picture dealer twisted his face into a
-great many contortions. He raised his eyebrows, he moved his lips, he
-made all kinds of gestures; at last, under a pretence of looking at a
-sketch, he darted between Mr. Sandford and the other, and in a hoarse
-whisper said “Take it,” imperatively, in the painter’s ear.
-
-Mr. Sandford came to an astonished pause. He looked at the uncouth
-patron of art, and at the dealer, and at the picture, in turn. It was on
-his lips to say that nothing would induce him to let the “Black Prince”
-go; but something stopped and chilled him--something, he could not tell
-what. He paused a moment, then retired suddenly to the back of the
-studio. “I’m not good at making bargains--I will leave myself,” he said,
-“in Mr. Daniells’ hands.”
-
-“Ah, a bad system--a bad system. Every man ought to make his own
-bargains,” said the rich man.
-
-Mr. Sandford did not listen. He began to turn over a portfolio of old
-sketches as if that were the most important thing in the world. He
-heard the voices murmur on, sometimes louder, sometimes lower, broken by
-more than one sharp exclamation, but restrained himself and did not
-interfere. Many thoughts went through his mind while he stooped over the
-big portfolio, and turned over, without seeing them, sketch after
-sketch. Why should he be bidden to “take it” in that imperative way?
-What did Daniells know which made him interfere with such a high hand?
-He was tempted again and again to turn round, to put a stop to the
-negotiation, to say, as he had the best right, “I’ll have none of this;”
-but he did not do it, though he could not even to himself explain why.
-
-He found eventually that Daniells had sold the picture for him at a
-reduction of fifty guineas from the original price, which was a thing of
-no importance. He hated the bargain, but the little sacrifice of the
-money moved him not at all. He recovered his temper or his composure
-when the arrangement was completed, and smiled with a reserved
-acceptance of the millionaire’s invitation to “come to my place and see
-it hung,” as he showed the pair away. They were a well-matched pair, and
-Daniells was no doubt far better adapted to deal with each a man than a
-sensitive, proud artist, who did not like to have his toes trodden upon.
-After a while, indeed, Mr. Sandford felt himself quite able to smile at
-the incident, and shook off all his annoyance. He went in to luncheon
-with the cheque in his hand.
-
-“I have sold the ‘Black Prince,’” he said, with a certain pleasure, even
-triumph, in his voice, remembering how Jack’s friends had scoffed, if
-not at the picture, at least at the school to which it belonged.
-
-“Ah!” cried Mrs. Sandford, half pleased, half regretful. “I knew we
-should not have to give it house-room long.” She gave a glance round her
-as if she had heard something derogatory to the picture too.
-
-“Who have you taken in and done for this time, father?” said Harry, who
-was given to banter.
-
-“Was it that horrid man who came with Mr. Daniells?” cried Lizzie. “Oh,
-papa, I should not have thought you would have sold a nice picture to
-such a man.”
-
-“Art-patrons are like gift-horses; we must not look them in the mouth,”
-said the painter. “There are quantities of h’s, no doubt, to be found
-about the studio; but if we stood upon that----”
-
-“So long as he doesn’t leave out anything, either h’s or 0’s, in his
-cheque.”
-
-Mr. Sandford felt slightly, unreasonably offended by any reference to
-the cheque. He gave it to his wife to send to the bank, with an annoyed
-apprehension that she would make some remark upon the fifty guineas
-which were left out. But Mrs. Sandford had not been his wife for thirty
-years without being able to read the annoyance in his face. And though
-she did not know what was its cause she respected it, and said not a
-word about the difference which her quick eye saw at once. Could it be
-that which had vexed Edward? she asked herself--he was not usually a man
-who counted his pounds in that way.
-
-The sending off of the “Black Prince,” its packing and directing, and
-all the details of its departure, occupied him for some time. It was
-August, the beginning of holiday time, when, though never without a
-protest at the loss of the light days, even a painter idles a little.
-And the youngest boy had come from school, and they were all going to
-the seaside. Mr. Sandford did not like the bustle of the moment. He
-proposed to stay in town for a few days after the family, and join them
-when they had settled down in their new quarters. Before they went,
-however, he had an interview with one of those friends of Jack’s who
-were always about the house, and whose opinions on art were so different
-from Mr. Sandford’s, which gave another touch of excitement to the
-household. The young fellow wanted to marry Lizzie, as had been a long
-time apparent to everybody but her father. There was nothing to be said
-against him except that he had not much money; but Mr. Sandford thought
-that young Moulton looked startled when he had to inform him that Lizzie
-would have no fortune. “Of course that was not of the least
-consequence,” he said, but he gave his future father-in-law a curious
-and startled look.
-
-“I think he was disappointed that there was no money,” the painter said
-afterwards to his wife.
-
-“Oh, Edward! there is nothing mercenary about him!” said Mrs. Sandford;
-but she sighed and added, “If there only had been a little for her--just
-enough for her clothes. It makes such a difference to a young married
-woman. It is hard to have to ask your husband for everything.”
-
-“Did you think so, Mary?” he asked, with a smile but a sense of pain.
-
-“I--but we were not like ordinary people, we were just two fools
-together,” said the wife, with a smile which brightened all her face;
-“but,” she added, shaking her head, “we don’t marry our daughters like
-that.”
-
-“If she is half as good to him as you have been to me----”
-
-“Oh, don’t speak,” she said, putting up her hand to stop his mouth.
-“Lance Moulton can never be the hundredth part so good as _my_ husband.”
-But she stopped after this little outburst, and laughed, and again
-shaking her head, repeated, “But we don’t marry our daughters like
-that.”
-
-He felt inclined to ask, but did not, why?
-
-When they all went away Mr. Sandford felt a little lonely, left by
-himself in the house, and perhaps it was that as much as anything else
-that set him thinking again. His wife had pressed the question of what
-Lizzie would want if she married young Moulton, who was only a
-journalist, on several occasions, until at last they had both decided
-that a small allowance might be made to her in place of a fortune.
-
-“Fifty pounds is the interest of a thousand, and that is what she will
-have when we die,” Mrs. Sandford said, who was not learned in per cents.
-“I think we might give her fifty pounds a year, Edward.”
-
-“Fifty pounds will not do much good,” he said.
-
-“Not in their housekeeping, perhaps; but to have even fifty pounds will
-be a great thing for _her_. It will make her so much more comfortable.”
-Thus they concluded the matter between them, though not without a
-certain hesitation on Mr. Sandford’s part. It was strange that he should
-hesitate. He had always been so liberal, ready to give. There was no
-reason why he should take fright now. There was the millionaire’s cheque
-for the “Black Prince,” which had just been paid into the bank, leaving
-a comfortable balance to their credit. There was no pressure of any kind
-for the moment. To those who had known what it was to await their next
-payment very anxiously in order to pay very pressing debts, and had seen
-the little stream of money flowing, flowing away, till it almost seemed
-to be on the point of disappearing altogether, the ease of having a
-considerable sum to their credit was indescribable; but Mrs. Sandford
-was more and more wrapped up in the children, and though never
-indifferent, yet a little detached in every-day thought and action from
-her husband. She did not ask him as usual about his commissions and his
-future work. She seemed altogether at ease in her mind about everything
-that was not the boys and the girls.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-
-The house was very quiet when they were all away. Merely to look into
-the drawing-room was enough to give any one a chill. The sense of
-emptiness where generally every corner was full, and silence where there
-were always so many voices, was very depressing. Mr. Sandford consoled
-himself by a very hard day’s work the first day of the absence of his
-family, getting on very well indeed, and making a great advance in the
-picture he was painting--a small picture intended for one of his oldest
-friends. In the evening, as he had nothing else to occupy him, he moved
-about the studio, not going into the other parts of the house at all,
-and amused himself by making a little study of the moonlight as it came
-in upon the plants in the conservatory. His house was in a quarter not
-fashionable, somewhere between St. John’s Wood and Regent’s Park, and
-consequently there was more room than is usual in London, a pretty
-garden and plenty of air. The effect of the moonlight and the black
-exaggerated shadows amused him. The thought passed through his mind that
-if perhaps he were one of the newfangled school which Jack’s friends
-believed in, he might turn that unreal scene which was so indubitable a
-fact into a picture and probably make a great success as an
-impressionist--an idea at which he smiled with a milder but not less
-genuine contempt than the young impressionist might have felt for Mr.
-Sandford’s school. He had half a mind to do it--to conceal his name and
-send it to one of the lesser exhibitions, so as afterwards to have a
-laugh at the young men, and prove to them how easy the trick was, and
-that any old fogey who took the trouble could beat them in their own
-way. Next morning, however, he threw the sketch into a portfolio, with a
-horror of the black and white extravagance which in the daylight
-offended his artist-eye, and which he had a suspicion was not so good
-after all, or so easy a proof of the facility of doing that sort of
-thing as he had supposed. And that day his work did not advance so
-quickly or so satisfactorily. He listened for the swing of the door at
-the other end of the passage which connected the studio with the house,
-though he knew well enough there was no one who could come to disturb
-him. There are days when it is so agreeable to be disturbed! And it was
-when he was painting in this languid way, and, as was natural, not at
-all pleasing himself with his work, that there suddenly and most
-distinctly came before him, as if some one had come in and said it, a
-thing--a fact--which strangely enough he had not even thought of before.
-When it first occurred to him his hand suddenly stopped work with an
-action of its own before the mind had time to influence it, and there
-was a sudden rush of heat to his head. He felt drops of moisture come
-out on his forehead; his heart for a second paused too. His whole being
-received a shock--a start. For the first moment he could scarcely make
-out what this extraordinary sudden commotion, for which his mind seemed
-only partially responsible, could be.
-
-This was what had in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, occurred to
-the painter. He had, of course, been aware of it before without giving
-any particular importance to the fact. The fact, indeed, in a
-precarious, uncertain profession like his, in which a piece of good
-fortune might occur at any moment, was really not of the first
-importance; but it flashed upon him now in a significance and with a
-force which no such thing had ever held before. It was this--that when
-he had completed the little picture upon which he was working he had no
-other commission of any kind on hand. It sounds very prosaic to be a
-thing capable of giving such a tragic shot--but it was not prosaic. One
-can even conceive circumstances in which despair and death might be in
-such words; and to no one in Mr. Sandford’s position could they be
-pleasant. Even if the fact represented no material loss, it would
-represent loss--which at his age could never be made up--loss of
-acceptance, loss of position, that kind of failure which is popularly
-represented as being “shelved,” put aside as a thing that is done with;
-always a keen and grievous pang. But to our painter the words meant more
-than that. They meant a cutting off of the ground from under his feet, a
-sudden arrest of everything, a full stop, which in his fully flowing
-liberal life was a tragic horror and impossibility, a something far more
-terrible than death. It had upon him something of the character of a
-paralytic stroke. His hand, as we have said, stopped work sharply,
-suddenly; it trembled, and the brush with which he was painting fell
-from it; his limbs tottered under him, his under lip dropped, his heart
-gave a leap and then a dead pause. He stumbled backwards for a few steps
-and sank into a chair.
-
-Well! it was only for a few moments that he remained under the influence
-of this shock. He picked himself up again, and then picked up his brush
-and dried the perspiration from his forehead, and his heart with a
-louder beat went on again as if also crying out “Well!” When he had
-recovered the power of thought--which was not for a moment or two--he
-smiled to himself and said, “What then?” Such a thing had happened
-before. In an artist’s life there are often hair-breadth ’scapes, and
-now and then the most prosperous comes, as it were, to a dead
-wall--which is always battered through by a little perseverance or else
-opens by itself, melting asunder at the touch of some heaven-sent patron
-or happy accident, and so all goes on more prosperously than before. Mr.
-Sandford had passed through many such crises at the beginning of his
-career, and even when fully established had never been entirely certain
-from whence his next year’s income was to come. But it had always come;
-there had never been any real break in it--no failure of the continuity.
-He had seemed to himself to be as thoroughly justified in reckoning upon
-this continuity as any man in an office with so much a year. It might be
-a little more or a little less, and there was always that not unpleasant
-character of vagueness about it. It might even by a lucky chance for one
-fortunate year be almost doubled, and this had happened on rare
-occasions; but very seldom had there been any marked diminution in the
-yearly incomings. He said, “Pooh, pooh,” to himself as he went up to his
-picture again smiling, with his brush in his hand; not for such a matter
-as that was he going to be discouraged. It was a thing that had happened
-before, and would no doubt happen again. He began to work at his
-picture, and went on with great spirit for perhaps a quarter of an hour,
-painting in (for he had no model that morning) a piece of drapery from a
-lay figure, and catching just the tone he wanted on the beautiful bit of
-brocade which figured in the picture as part of a Venetian lady’s
-majestic dress. He was unusually successful in his work, and also
-succeeded for ten perhaps of these fifteen minutes in amusing himself
-and distracting his thoughts from that discovery. A bit of success is
-very exhilarating; it made him more confident than anything else could
-have done. But when he had got his effect his smile began to fade away,
-and his face grew grave again, and his hand trembled once more. After a
-while he was obliged to give up and take a rest, putting down his
-palette and brush with a sort of impatience and relief in getting rid of
-them. Could he have gone straight to his wife and made her take a turn
-with him in the garden, or even talked it over with her in the studio,
-no doubt the impression would have died off; but she was absent, and he
-could not do that; most likely, indeed, if she had been at home she
-would have been absorbed in some calculation about Lizzie’s wedding, and
-would not have noticed his preoccupation at all.
-
-He sat down again in that chair, and said once more to himself, “What
-then?” and thought over the times in which this accident had happened
-before. But there now suddenly occurred to him another thought which was
-like the chill of an icy hand touching his heart. The same thing had
-happened before--but he had never been sixty before. He felt himself
-struck by this as if some one had given him a blow. It was quite true;
-he had called himself laughingly an old fogey, and when he and his old
-friends were together they talked a great deal about their age and about
-the young fellows pushing them from their seats. How much the old
-fellows mean when they say this, heaven knows. So long as they are
-strong and well they mean very little. It is an amusing kind of adoption
-of the folly of the young which seems to show what folly it is--a sort
-of brag in its way of their own superiority to all such decrepitudes,
-and easy power of laughing at what does not really touch them. But alone
-in their own private retirements, when a thought like this suddenly
-comes, a sharp and sudden realisation of age and what it means, no doubt
-the effect is different. For the moment Mr. Sandford was appalled by the
-discovery he had made, which had never entered his mind before. Ah! a
-pause in one’s means of making one’s living, a sudden stop in the wheels
-of one’s life, is a little alarming, a little exciting, perhaps a
-discouragement, perhaps a sharp and keen stimulant at other times: at
-forty, even at fifty, it may be the latter; but at sixty!--this gives
-at once a new character to the experience--a character never apprehended
-before. His heart, which had begun to spring up with an elasticity
-natural to him, stopped again--nay, did not stop, but fell into a sudden
-dulness of beating, a subdued silence as if ice-bound. Sensation was too
-much for thought; his mind could not go into it; he only felt it, with a
-dumb pang which was deeper than either words or thought.
-
-He could not do any more work that day. He tried again two or three
-times, but ended by putting down his palette with a sense of incapacity
-such as he thought he had never felt before. As a matter of fact, he
-might have felt it a hundred times and attached no importance to it; he
-would have gone into the house, leaving his studio, and talked or read,
-or gone out for a walk, or to his club, or to see a friend, saying he
-did not feel up to work to-day, and there would have been an end of it.
-But he was alone, and none of these distractions were possible to him.
-Luncheon came, however, which he could not eat, but sat over drearily,
-not able to get away from the impression of that thought. Afterwards it
-occurred to him that he would go and see Daniells and ask him--he was
-not quite clear what. He could not go to one of his friends and ask, “Am
-I falling off--do you see it? Has my hand lost its cunning--am I getting
-old and is my mind going?” He could not ask any one such questions as
-these. He smiled at it dolefully, feeling all the ridicule of the
-suggestion. He knew his mind was not going--but---- At last he made up
-his mind what he would do. It was a long walk to Bond Street, but it was
-now afternoon and getting cooler, and the walk did him good. He reached
-Daniells’ just before the picture dealer left off business for the day.
-He was showing some one out very obsequiously through the outer room all
-hung with pictures when he saw Sandford coming in. The stranger looked
-much interested and pleased when he heard Sandford’s name.
-
-“Introduce me, please,” he said, “if this is the great Mr. Sandford,
-Daniells.”
-
-“It is, Sir William,” said Daniells; and Sir William offered his hand
-with the greatest effusion. “This is a pleasure that I have long
-desired,” he said.
-
-Mr. Sandford was surprised--he was taken unawares, and the greeting
-touched his heart. “After all, perhaps it isn’t _that_,” he said to
-himself.
-
-“What a piece of luck that you should have come in just then! Why,
-that’s Sir William Bloomfield--just the very man for you to know.”
-
-“Why for me more than another? I know his name, of course,” said Mr.
-Sandford, “and he seems pleasant; but I’m too old for new friends.”
-
-“Too old; stuff and nonsense! You’re always a-harping on that string.
-He’s just the man for you, just the man,” said Daniells, rubbing his
-hands.
-
-Mr. Sandford was amused--perhaps a little pleased by this encounter; and
-the pressure of his heavy thoughts was stilled. He began to look at the
-new pictures which had come into the gallery, to admire some and
-criticise others. Daniells had the good sense always to listen to Mr.
-Sandford’s criticisms with attention. They had furnished him with a
-great many telling phrases, and given to his own rough and practical
-knowledge of art a little occasional polish which surprised and overawed
-many of his customers. He listened admiringly now as usual.
-
-“What a deal you do know, to be sure!” he said after a while. “I don’t
-know one of them that can make a thing clear like you, old man. It’s a
-shame----” and here he coughed and broke off, as if endeavouring to
-swallow his last words.
-
-“What is a shame?” The broken sentence changed Mr. Sandford’s mood
-again--the momentary cheer died away. “Daniells,” he said, “I want you
-to tell me what you meant the other day by forcing me to accept that
-man’s offer. Yes, you did. I should not have let him have the picture
-but for you.”
-
-“Forcing him! Oh, that’s a nice thing to say--the most obstinate fellow
-in all London!”
-
-“Never mind that; I can see you are fencing. Come, why did you do it?”
-
-Daniells paused for some time. He said a great many things to stave off
-his confusion, many half-things which involved others, and made his
-answer perhaps more clear than if he had put it directly into words.
-
-“I see,” Mr. Sandford said at last, “you thought it very unlikely that I
-should sell it at all to any one who knew better.”
-
-“It ain’t that. They don’t know half enough, hang ’em! or they wouldn’t
-run after a booby like Blank and neglect you.”
-
-Mr. Sandford smiled what he felt to be a very sickly smile. “We must let
-Blank have his day,” he said, “I don’t grudge it him; but I’d like to
-know why my chances are so bad. I have always sold my pictures.”
-
-Daniells gave him a sudden look, as if he would have spoken; then
-thought better of it, and said nothing.
-
-“I have had no reason to complain,” Mr. Sandford continued; “I have done
-very well on the whole. I have never had extravagant prices like Em or
-En.”
-
-“No,” said Daniells; “you see, you’ve never made an ’it. You’ve gone on
-doing good work, and you’ve always done good work. I’d say that if I
-were to die for it; but you’ve never made an ’it.”
-
-“I suppose that’s true; but you need not put it so very frankly,” said
-the painter, with a laugh.
-
-“Frankly! I’ve got occasion to put it frankly; and I say it’s a d----d
-shame--that’s what it is,” cried Daniells, raising his voice.
-
-“You’ve had occasion? Now that we’re on this subject, I should like to
-get to the bottom of it. You’ve had occasion?”
-
-“Well, of course,” said the picture dealer, “if you drive me into a
-corner. I’m in the middle of everything, and I hear what people say----”
-
-“What do they say? That I’ve lost my sense of colour like old Millrain,
-or fallen into my dotage like----”
-
-“Nonsense, Sandford! You know it’s nothing of the kind. Don’t talk such
-confounded nonsense. You are painting quite as well as ever, you know
-you are. They--people don’t care for that sort of thing. It’s too good
-for them, or you’re too good for them, or I don’t know what.”
-
-Mr. Sandford kept smiling--not for pleasure; he was conscious of that
-sort of fixed smile that might be thought a sneer, at those people for
-whom he was too good. “And you’ve had occasion,” he said, “to prove
-this?”
-
-“Don’t smile at me like that--don’t look like that. If you knew how I’ve
-argued and put it all before ’em---- I’ve said a hundred times if I’ve
-said once, ‘Sandford! why, Sandford’s one of the best. There isn’t a
-better educated painter not in England. You can’t pick a hole in his
-pictures, try as you like.’”
-
-“Am I indeed so much discussed?” said the victim. “I did not know I was
-of such importance. And on what ground have you held this discussion,
-Daniells? There must have been some occasion for it. I don’t see
-anything here of mine.”
-
-“Look here,” cried the picture dealer, roused, “if you won’t believe
-me.” He opened the door of an inner room, into which Mr. Sandford
-followed him. And there, with their faces turned to the wall, were three
-pictures in a row. The shape of them gave him a faint, uneasy feeling.
-By this time Daniells had been wound up to self-defence, and thought of
-the painter’s feelings no more.
-
-“Look ’ere,” he said, “I shouldn’t have said a word if you had let well
-alone--but look ’ere.” Before one of the pictures was visible Mr.
-Sandford knew what he was going to see. Three pictures of his own, of a
-kind for which he had been famous--cabinet pictures, for which there had
-always been the readiest market. He recognised them all with a faintness
-that made his brain swim and the light go from his eyes. They seemed so
-familiar, like children. At the first glance, without looking at them,
-he knew what they were and all about them, and had a sick longing that
-the earth would open and swallow them, and hide his shame, for so it
-seemed.
-
-“If that don’t show how I’ve trusted you, nothing can,” said the dealer.
-“I thought they were as safe as the bank. I bought them all on spec,
-thinking I’d get a customer as soon as they were in the shop--and, if
-you’ll believe me, nobody’ll have them. I can’t tell what people are
-thinking of, but that’s the truth.”
-
-Mr. Sandford stood with the light going out of his eyes, gazing straight
-before him. “In that case--in that case,” he began, “you should--I
-must----”
-
-“I say, don’t take it like that, old man. It’s the fortune of war. One
-up and another down. It can’t be helped, don’t you know. Sandford, I
-say, why, it’ll come all right again in half-a-dozen years or so. It’ll
-come all right after a time.”
-
-“What did you say?” said Mr. Sandford, dazed. Then he answered vaguely,
-“Oh yes; all right--all right.”
-
-“What’s the matter? I’ve been a wretched fool. Sandford, here, I say,
-have a glass of wine.”
-
-“There’s nothing the matter. It seems to me a little--cold. I know--I
-know it’s not a cold day; but there’s a chill wind about,
-penetrating--thanks, Daniells, you’ve cleared up my problem very well.
-Now, I think--I think I understand.”
-
-“Don’t go now, Sandford; don’t go like this.”
-
-“I want,” he said, smiling again, “to think it over. Much obliged to
-you, Daniells, for helping me to understand.”
-
-“Sandford, don’t go like this. You make me awfully anxious--I’m sure
-you’re ill. I can’t let you go out of my place, looking so dreadfully
-ill, without some one with you.”
-
-“Some one with me! I hope you don’t mean to insult me, Daniells. I am
-perfectly well--a little startled, but that’s all. I shall go and take a
-walk, and blow away the cobwebs, and--think it over. That’s the best
-thing. I’m much obliged to you, Daniells. Good-bye.”
-
-“Have a hansom, at least,” Daniells said.
-
-“No hansom,” Mr. Sandford answered, turning upon the dealer with a
-curious smile. He even laughed a little--low, but quite distinct. “No,
-I’ll have no hansom. Good-bye, Daniells, good-bye.”
-
-And in a minute he was gone. The picture dealer went out to the door
-after him, and followed him with his eyes until his figure was lost in
-the crowd. Daniells was alarmed. He blamed himself for his frankness. “I
-never thought he’d have taken it to heart like that,” he said to
-himself. “Yes, I did; or I might have done--he’s awful proud. But I’m
-’asty. I can’t help it; I’m always doing things I’m sorry for. Anyhow,
-he must have found it out some time, sooner or later,” the dealer said
-to himself; and this philosophy silenced his fears.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-
-Mr. Sandford knew nothing till he found himself in the Regent’s Park,
-not far from his house. He had passed through the crowds in the street
-with his life and thoughts suspended, feeling that to think was
-impossible, seeing only before him the line of the three pictures
-standing against the wall. They seemed to accompany him on his way,
-showing against the front of the houses wherever he turned his eyes.
-Three pictures, painted cheerfully, without a premonition, or any sense
-of failure, or a moment’s fear that they would ever stand with their
-faces against a dealer’s wall. One of them had been a great favourite
-with his wife. The youngest girl--little Mary--had sat for one of the
-figures, and Mrs. Sandford had not wished to let it go. “I wish we could
-afford to keep this,” she said; “it is like selling our own flesh and
-blood.” But most painters have to accustom themselves to that small
-trouble, and even she had laughed at herself. And now to think that it
-had never been sold at all--that it was unsaleable, oh, heaven! The
-sense of a dreadful humiliation, far more than was reasonable, filled
-the painter’s mind. The man whom he had always liked, but partly
-despised--Daniells, who was as ignorant as a pig, who knew a picture
-indeed when he saw it, but had not a notion why he liked it, nor could
-render a reason or tell how he knew one to be bad or another good--that
-he should be losing by his kindness, should be out of pocket, burdened
-by three “Sandfords” with their faces against the wall! Mr. Sandford’s
-gentle contempt came back upon him with a shock of humiliation and
-shame. To sneer at a man who had suffered by him, who had given money
-for his unsaleable work--a man who had thus shown himself a better man
-than he: for Daniells had never said a word, probably never would have
-said a word, listened to the painter’s calm assumptions and taken no
-notice, having it in his power all the time to shame him! Nay, he had
-done even more than this--he had brought his own customer out of his
-way, in pity and friendship, to buy that “Black Prince,” no doubt
-equally unsaleable, though--heaven help the poor painter!--he had not
-found it out. The pang of this humiliation, mingled with tingling shame
-and a painful gratitude and admiration, quivered through and through
-him, penetrating the dark dismay and pain of his suspended thoughts.
-
-He began to notice everything more clearly when he got into the park.
-The August afternoon was softening every moment into the deeper
-sweetness of the evening. He avoided instinctively the frequented parts,
-where the children were playing and people walking about, and made a
-long circuit round the outskirts of the park, where only a rare
-passenger was to be met with now and then. The air was sweet, though it
-was the air of town. The leaves were fluttering in a light breeze, the
-birds singing their evening songs, thrushes repeating a hundred
-questions, blackbirds unconditional, piping loud and clear, almost as
-good as nightingales. He was a man who was not hard to please, and even
-Regent’s Park delighted him on a summer evening. He felt it even now,
-notwithstanding the shadow that was over him. Never, up to this time,
-had care hung so heavy on Mr. Sandford but what he could escape from it
-by help of the artist-eye, ever ready to seize a passing effect, or by
-the gentle heart which was full of sympathy with every human emotion or
-even whim of passing fancy. His heart was unaccustomed to anything
-tragical. It tried even now to beguile him and escape; to withdraw his
-attention to the long, streaming, level rays of the sinking sun; to get
-him out of himself to the aid of the child who had broken its toy and
-was crying with such passion--far more than a man can show for losses
-the most terrible--by the side of the road. And these expedients
-answered for the moment. But what had befallen him now was not to be
-eluded as other troubles had been. He could not escape from it. The most
-ingenious imagination could not lessen it by turning it over and over.
-Behind the sunset rays a strange vision of the unsold pictures came out
-into the very sky. They shaped themselves behind the child, whom it was
-so easy to pacify with a shilling, against the park palings.
-Three--which was one of the complete numbers, as if to prove the fulness
-of the disaster--three pictures unsold in Daniells’ inner room, and not
-a commission in hand, nothing wanted from him, no one to buy. After thus
-trying every device to escape, his heart grew low and faint within him,
-giving up the conflict; he felt a dull buzzing in his ears, and a dull
-throbbing in his breast.
-
-But thinking was not so easy a matter as it seemed. Think it over? How
-was he to think it over? If it were possible to imagine the case of a
-man who, walking serenely over a wide and peaceful country, should
-suddenly, with the softest, scarcely audible, roll of the pebbles under
-his feet, see the earth yawn before him and find himself on the brink of
-a fearful precipice, that would have been like his case: but not so bad
-as his case, for the man would have it in his power to draw back, to
-retire to the peaceful fields behind: whereas, to Mr. Sandford, there
-were no peaceful fields, but a gulf all round that one spot of
-undermined earth on which he stood. Presently he found himself at his
-own door, very tired and a little dazed in mind, thinking of that
-precipice, of nothing more distinct. The house stood very solid, very
-tranquil, its red roof all illumined with the last level line of the
-sun, the garden stretching into shady corners under the trees, the
-flower-beds blazing in lavish colours, the little lawn all burnt bare by
-the ardent sun and worn with the feet of the tennis players: all so
-peaceful, certain, secure--an old-established home with deep
-foundations, and the assured, immovable look of household tranquillity
-and peace. If the walls had been tottering, the garden relapsing into
-weeds and wildness, he would not have been surprised--that would have
-been suitable to his circumstances. The thing unsuitable was to come
-back to that trim order and well-being, to that modest wealth and
-comfort and beauty, and to know that all this too, like himself, was on
-the edge of the precipice. Tired as he was, he went round the garden
-before he went in, and gazed wistfully at the pleasant dwelling with its
-open windows, wondering, when the next shock of the earthquake came,
-whether it would all fall to pieces like a house of cards, and everybody
-become aware that the earth was rent and a great chasm yawning before
-the peaceful door.
-
-He never seemed to have realised, before now, how full of modest luxury
-and exquisite comfort that house was. It was not yet covered up and
-dismantled, though the fingers of the maid-servants had been itching to
-get at that delightful task since ever “the family” left. All was empty
-and still, but all in good order; no false pretension or show,
-everything temperate and well chosen; rich, soft carpets in which the
-foot sank, curtains hanging in graceful folds, the cosiest chairs,
-Italian cabinets, Venice glass, pictures, not only of his own but of
-many contemporary artists--a delightful interior, without a bare corner
-or vacant spot anywhere. He went over it with a sort of despairing
-pleasure and admiration, his head aching and giddy, with a sense that at
-any moment the next shock might come, and everything collapse like the
-shadows of a dream. Presently he was served with his dinner, which he
-could not eat, in the cool dining-room, with a large window opening to
-the garden and the sweet air breathing about him as he sat down at the
-vacant table. What a mockery of all certitude and safety it was!--for
-nothing could seem more firmly established, more solid and secure. If he
-had been a prince of the blood he might have had a more splendid
-dwelling, but not more comfort, more pleasantness. All that a sober mind
-could desire was there--the utmost refinement of comfort, beautiful
-things all around, every colour subdued into perfection, no noise or
-anything to break the spell. He was glad that the others were
-absent--it was the only alleviation to the dismay within him. There
-would have been questions as to what was the matter--“Are you ill,
-Edward?” “What is wrong with papa?” and other such questions, which he
-could not have borne.
-
-Afterwards he went into the studio. The first thing that caught his eye
-was the glow of that piece of drapery which he had painted under the
-keen stimulant of the first warning. It had been a stimulant then, and
-he was startled by the splendour of the colour he had put into that
-piece of stuff--the roundness of it, the clear transparence of the
-shadows. It stood out upon the picture like something by another hand,
-painted in another age. Had he done that only a few hours ago--he with
-the same brushes which had produced the rest of the picture which looked
-so pale and insignificant beside it? How had he done it? it made all the
-rest of the picture fade. He recognised in a moment the jogtrot, the
-ordinary course of life, and against it the flush of the sudden
-inspiration, the stronger handling, the glory and glow of the colour. He
-had never done anything better in his life; he whose pictures were drugs
-in the market, who had not a commission to look forward to. He stood
-and looked at it for a long time, growing sadder and sadder. He was not
-a man who had failed, and who could rail against the world; he was a man
-who had succeeded; not a painter in England but would laugh out if any
-one said that Sandford had been a failure. Why, who had been successful
-if he had not? they would have said. He had not a word to say against
-fate. Nobody was to blame, not even himself, seeing that now, in the
-midst of all, he could still paint like that. He knew the value of that
-as well as any man could know it. He could not shut his eyes to it
-because he himself had done it. If he saw such a bit of painting in a
-young fellow’s picture he would say, “Well done;” he would say, “Paint
-like that, and you have your fortune in your own hand.” Ah, but he was
-himself no longer a young fellow. Success was not before him; he had
-grasped her, held her, and now it seemed his day was past.
-
-It is never cheerful to have to allow that your day is past. But there
-are circumstances which make it less difficult. Sometimes a man accepts
-gracefully enough that message of dismissal. Then he will retire with a
-certain dignity, enjoying the ease which he has purchased with his hard
-work, and looking on henceforward at the struggle of the others, not
-sorry, perhaps, or at least saying to the world that he is not sorry, to
-be out of that conflict. Mr. Sandford said to himself that in other
-circumstances he might have been capable of this; might have laid aside
-his pencil, occupied himself with guiding the younger, helping the less
-strong, standing umpire, perhaps, in the strife, giving place to those
-who represented the future, and whose day was but beginning. Such a
-retirement must always seem a fit and seemly thing: but not now; not in
-what he felt was but the fulness of his career; not, above all--and this
-gave the sting to all--not while he was still depending upon his
-profession for his daily bread. His daily bread, and what was worse than
-that, the daily bread of those he loved. How many things that simple
-phrase involved! Oh for the simplicity of those days when it meant but
-what it said! He asked himself with a curious, fantastic, half-amused,
-half-despairing curiosity whether it had ever meant mere bread? Bread
-and a little fruit, perhaps; a cake, and a draught from a spring in the
-primitive Eastern days when the phrase was invented. “Day by day our
-daily bread:” a loaf like that of Elijah which the angel brought him:
-the cakes of manna in the wilderness of which only enough was gathered
-to suffice for one day: and the tent at night to retire to, or a cave,
-perhaps--a shelter which cost nothing. How different now was daily
-bread; so many things involved in it, that careful product of many men’s
-work, the house which was his home: and all the costly nameless
-necessities, so much more than food and clothing; the dainty and
-pleasant things, the flowers and gardens, the amusements, the trifles
-that make life delightful and sweet. Give us our daily bread: had it
-ever been supposed to mean all that? All these many years these
-necessities had been supplied, and all had gone on as if it were part of
-the constitution of the world. But now the time had come when the
-machinery was stopped, when everything was brought to a conclusion. Mr.
-Sandford turned his eye from that bit of painting which stood out upon
-his picture as if the sun had touched it, to the sheaves of old studies
-and sketches in the portfolios, the half-finished bits about the walls,
-all those scraps and fragments, full of suggestion, full of beautiful
-thoughts, which make the studio of a great painter rich. He had thought
-a few days ago that all this meant wealth. Now his eyes were opened, and
-he saw that it meant nothing, that all about him was rubbish not worth
-the collection, and himself, who could work no longer, who was no more
-good for anything, only one piece of lumber the more, the most valueless
-of all.
-
-He paused, and tried to say to himself that this was morbid. But it was
-not morbid, it was true. With that curious hurrying of the thoughts
-which a great calamity brings about, he had already glimpsed everything,
-seeing the whole situation and all that was involved. There was a
-certain sum of money in the bank, no more anywhere, except after his own
-death. There were his insurances, a little for every one, enough, he had
-hoped, though in a much changed and subdued manner, to support his wife
-and the girls, enough for that daily bread of which he had been
-thinking; but it could not be had till he died; and that was all. There
-was nothing, nothing more; nothing to live upon, nothing to turn to. If
-you have losses, if your income is reduced, you can retrench and
-diminish your expenses. But when everything is cut off in a moment, when
-you have no income at all? such utter loss paralyses the unfortunate.
-He stood in his studio with a sort of vague smile upon his face, and
-something of the imbecility of utter helplessness taking possession of
-him. Everything cut off. Nothing to turn to. Vague visions passed
-through his mind of the expenses of that seaside house, for instance,
-which could not be got rid of now; of Lizzie’s fifty pounds a year which
-he had promised not without forebodings; of Jack’s fee of two guineas
-which the children had all made so merry about; of the easy course of
-their existence, their life, which was so blameless, so innocent, so
-kind: they were all ready to give, ready to be hospitable; none of the
-family could see another in want and not eagerly offer what they had.
-Good God! and to think they had nothing, nothing! It was not a question
-of enough, it was that there was nothing; that all the streams were
-closed, and all the doors shut, and the successful man, with his large
-income, had suddenly become like a navvy out of work, like a dock
-labourer, or whatever was most pitifully unprovided for in the world.
-
-It made Mr. Sandford’s brain whirl. So much in the bank, and after that
-nothing; and all the liberal life going on; the servants, who could not
-be sent off at a moment’s notice; the house, which could not be
-abandoned; the family, all so cheerful in their false security, who had
-no presentiment of evil. He asked himself what people did who were
-ruined? He had no great acquaintance with such things. What did they do?
-He was very helpless. He could not realise the possibility of breaking
-up the house, having no home; of dispersing all the pleasant things
-which had been part of his being so long; of stopping short---- He could
-not understand how such things were done. And those people who were
-ruined generally had something upon which they could fall back. A
-merchant could begin again. He might have friends who would help him to
-a new start, and there was always hope that he might do as well at last
-as at first. But an artist (at sixty) could have no new start. The
-public would have none of him. He had done his best; he could not begin
-anew. His career when once closed was over, and nothing more could be
-made of it. He remembered with a forlorn self-reproach of having himself
-said that So-and-so should retire; that it would be more dignified to
-give up work before work gave him up. Ah! so easy a thing to say, so
-cruel a thing to say; but he had not realised that it was cruel, or that
-such an end was cruel. He had never supposed it possible that such a
-thing could happen to himself.
-
-The insurances: yes, there were always the insurances: a thousand pounds
-for each child, that was the calculation they had made. They had said to
-each other in the old times, Mary and he, that they never could save
-money enough to make any appreciable provision for so many children, but
-that if they could but secure for each a thousand pounds, that would
-always be something. It would help to give the boys a start; it would be
-something for the girls. That the boys should all have professions in
-which they would be doing well, and the girls husbands to provide for
-them, had seemed too commonplace a certainty even to be dwelt upon: and
-a thousand pounds is never to be despised; it would help the young ones
-over any early struggle, it would make all the difference. “So long as
-we live,” Mrs. Sandford had said, “they will always have us to fall back
-upon: and afterwards--what a thing it would have been for us, Edward, to
-have a thousand pounds to the good to begin upon!” They had thought
-they made everything safe so, for the young ones. Mr. Sandford, indeed,
-still felt a faint lightening of his heart as he thought of the
-insurances. It had always done him good to think of them; that would be
-something at least to leave behind. But then it was necessary first that
-he should die.
-
-He had never thought urgently of that necessity. So long as there is
-nothing pressing about it, no appearance of its approach, it is easy
-enough to speak of that conclusion. Sometimes there is even a pensive
-pleasure in it. “When I am out of the way,” “When our day is over,” are
-things quite simple to say. For of course that must come one time or
-another, as everybody knows. It is more serious, but still not anything
-very bad, to speak now and then of what is to be done “if anything
-happens.” These things make but little impression upon the mind, even
-when old age is on its way. And Mr. Sandford at sixty had as yet felt
-very few premonitions of old age. He had called himself an old man with
-a laugh, for his eye was not dim, nor his natural force abated; and it
-was still pleasantly absurd to think that he could be supposed an old
-man. But now all this took a different aspect. He felt no older, indeed,
-but his position was altogether changed. In the shock of his new
-circumstances he stood helpless, not knowing how to meet this unfeared,
-unthought-of contingency. But his mind went off with a spring to further
-eventualities. The only comfort was this, they had a thousand pounds
-apiece laid up for them. But it would be necessary first that he should
-die.
-
-Thinking it all over, he thought, on the whole, that this was the best
-thing that could happen. The changes which he surveyed with such a sense
-of impossibility, not knowing how they could be brought about, would
-become quite natural if he died. There was always a change on the death
-of the father. It was the natural time for remodelling life, for
-altering everything. The family would not be able, of course, to remain
-in this house, to keep up their present superstructure of existence: but
-then in the change of circumstances that would seem quite natural and
-they would not feel it. They could put everything, then, upon a simpler
-footing. And they would have an income, not much of an income, perhaps,
-but yet something that would come in punctually to the day, and which
-would be independent of anything they did, which would have nothing to
-do with picture dealers or patrons of art, or the changes of taste that
-affected them. What a thing that was, when one came to think of it, to
-have an income--something which came in all the same whether you worked
-or not, whether you were ill or well, whether you were in a good vein
-and could get on with your picture, or whether it dragged and did not
-satisfy you! It gave him a sensation of pleasure to think of it: but
-then he reflected on the one preliminary which was not so easy to bring
-about, which no planning of his could accomplish just when it was
-wanted, just when it would be of most use.
-
-For before this state of things could ensue, it would be necessary that
-Mr. Sandford should be dead; and so far as he was aware there was no
-immediate prospect of anything of the kind. People do not die when it is
-most necessary, when it would be most expedient. It is a thing
-independent of your own will, horribly uncertain, happening just when it
-is not wanted. This difficulty, when he had begun to take a little
-comfort in the possible arrangement of everything, sent the painter back
-into all the confusion of miserable thoughts. Was it possible that he
-was in circumstances which made it impossible for him to do anything,
-even to die?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-
-Mr. Sandford went down next day to the seaside to join his family. They
-had got a very pleasant house, in full sight of the sea. “What was the
-use of going to the sea at all,” Mrs. Sandford said, “unless you got the
-full good of it? All the sunsets and effects, and its aspect at every
-hour of the day, which was so very different from having merely glimpses
-of it--that is what my husband likes,” she said. And of course this
-meant the most expensive place. He was met at the station by his wife
-and little Mary, the youngest, who was always considered papa’s
-favourite. The others had all gone along the coast with a large pic-nic
-party, some of them in a boat, some riding--for there were fine
-sands--and a delightful gallop along that crisp firm road, almost within
-the flash of the waves, was most invigorating. “They all look ever so
-much the better for it already,” said the fond mother.
-
-“There was not much the matter with them before that I could see.”
-
-“Oh, nothing the matter! But they do so enjoy the sea. And I find there
-are a great many people here whom we know--more than usual; and a great
-deal going on.”
-
-“There is generally a good deal going on.”
-
-“My dear Edward, staying behind has not been good for you; you are
-looking pale; and I never heard you grudge the children their little
-pleasures before.”
-
-“_I_ stayed at home, papa,” said little Mary, not willing to be
-unappreciated, “to be the first to see you.”
-
-“You are always a good little girl,” said the father gratefully.
-
-“I assure you they were all anxious to stay: but I did not think you
-would like them to give up a pleasure,” said Mrs. Sandford, never
-willing to have any of her children subjected to an unfavourable
-comparison.
-
-“No; oh no,” he said, with a sigh. It was almost impossible not to feel
-a grudge at the thought of that careless enjoyment, no one taking any
-thought; but he could not burst out with any disclosures of his trouble
-before little Mary, looking up wistfully in his face with a child’s
-sensitiveness to the perception of something wrong. Mary was more ready
-to perceive this than Mrs. Sandford, who only thought that her husband
-was perhaps a little out of temper, or annoyed by some trifling matter,
-or merely affected by the natural misanthropy of three days’ solitude.
-She clasped his arm caressingly with her hand as she led him along.
-
-“You have got some cobwebs into your mind,” she said, “but the sea
-breezes will soon blow them away.”
-
-The sea breezes were very fresh; the sea itself spread out under the
-sunshine a dazzling stretch of blue; the wide vault of heaven all belted
-with lines of summer cloud, “which landward stretched along the deep”
-like celestial countries far away. The air was filled with the soft
-plash of the water, the softened sound of voices. The whole population
-seemed out of doors, and all in full enjoyment of the heavenly afternoon
-and the sights and sounds of the sea. Walking along through these
-holiday groups, with his wife by his side and his little girl holding
-his hand, Mr. Sandford felt an unreasonable calm--a sense of soothing
-quiet--come over him. He could not dismiss the phantom which
-overshadowed him, but he felt for the moment that he could ignore it. It
-was necessary that he should ignore it. He could not communicate to his
-wife so tragical a discovery there and then, in her ease and cheerful
-holiday mood. He must prepare her for it. Not all in a moment could that
-revelation burst upon her. Poor Mary! so happy in her children, so full
-of their plans and pleasures, so secure in the certainty of prosperous
-life: even the child, strange to think it, understood him better, being
-nearer, he supposed, to those springs of life where there are no shades
-of intervening feeling, but all is either happiness or despair. A
-profound sorrow for these innocent creatures came into his mind; he
-could not overcloud them, either the mother or the child. They were so
-glad to have him again; so proud to walk on either side of him, pointing
-out everything: and all was so happy, were it not for one thing; nothing
-to trouble them, all well, all full of pleasure, confidence, health,
-lightheartedness; not a cloud--except that one.
-
-“You have been tiring yourself--doing too much while you have been
-alone; the servants have made you uncomfortable; they have been pulling
-everything, to pieces, though I left the most stringent orders----”
-
-“No, the servants were very good; they disturbed nothing, though they
-were longing to get at it.”
-
-“They always are; they take a positive pleasure in making the house look
-as desolate as possible--as if nobody was ever going to live in it any
-more.”
-
-“Nobody going to live in it more!” he repeated the words with a faint
-smile. “No--on the contrary, it looked the most liveable place I ever
-saw. I never felt its home-look so much.”
-
-“It is a nice little place,” she said, with a little pressure of his
-arm. “Whatever may happen to the children in after life, we can always
-feel that they have had a happy youth and a bright home.”
-
-“What should happen to them?” he said, alarmed with a sudden fear that
-she must know.
-
-“Oh, nothing, I hope, but what is good; but the first change in the
-family always makes one think. I hope you won’t mind, Edward: Lance
-Moulton is here.”
-
-“Oh, he is here!”
-
-“If it is really to be so, Edward, don’t you think it is better they
-should see as much of each other as possible?” his wife said, with
-another tender pressure of his arm. “And somehow, when there is a thing
-of that kind in the air, everything seems quickened; I am sure I can’t
-tell how it is. It gives a ‘go’ to all they are doing. There are no end
-of plans and schemes among them. Of course, Lance has a friend or two
-about, and the Dropmores are here, who are such friends of our girls.”
-
-“And all is fun and nonsense, I suppose?”
-
-“Well, if you call it so--all pleasure, and kindness, and real
-delightful holiday. Oh, Edward,” said Mrs. Sandford, with the ghost of a
-tear in her eye, “don’t let us check it! It is the brightest time of
-their lives.”
-
-The sunset was blazing in glory upon the sea, the belts of cloud all
-reddening and glowing, soft puffs of vapour like roses floating across
-the blue of the sky. And the air full of young voices softened and
-musical, children playing, lovers wandering about, happy mothers
-watching the sport, all tender gaiety, and security, and peace.
-Everything joyful--save one thing. “No; God forbid that I should check
-it,” he said hastily, with a sigh that might have been a groan.
-
-They all came back not long after, full of high spirits and endless
-talk; they were all glad to see their father, who had never been any
-restraint upon their pleasure, whose grave, gentle presence had never
-checked or stilled them. They were sure of his sympathy more or less. If
-he did not share their fun, he had at least never discouraged it. And
-soon in the plenitude of their own affairs they forgot him, as was so
-natural, and filled the room with laughing consultations over
-to-morrow’s pleasure, and plans for it. “What are we going to do?” they
-all cried, one after another, even Lizzie and Lance, coming in a little
-dazzled from the balcony, where they had been enjoying the last fading
-lights of the ending day, while the others had clamoured for lamps and
-candles inside; “What are we going to do?” Mrs. Sandford sat beaming
-upon them, hearing all the suggestions, offering a new idea now and
-then. “I must know to-night, that the hampers may be got ready,” she
-said; and then there was an echoing laugh all round. “Mother’s always so
-practical.” Mr. Sandford sat a little outside of that lively circle with
-a book in his hand. But he was not reading; he was watching them with a
-strange fascination; not willing to check them; oh no! feeling a
-helpless sort of wonder that they should play such pranks on the edge of
-the precipice, and that none of them should divine--that even his wife
-should not divine! The animated group, full in the light of the
-lamps--girls and young men in the frank familiarity of the family
-interrupting each other, contradicting each other, discussing and
-arguing--was as charming a study as a painter could have desired; the
-mother in the midst with her pencil in her hand and a sheet of white
-paper on the table before her, which threw back the light; and behind,
-the lovers stealing in out of the soft twilight shadows, the faint
-glimmer of distant sea and sky. He watched it with a strange dull ache
-under the pleasure of the father and the painter: the light touching
-those graceful outlines, shining in those young eyes, the glimmer of
-shining hair, the play of animated features, the soft, dreamlike,
-suggestive shadows of the two behind. And yet the precipice yawning,
-gaping at their feet, though nobody knew.
-
-“Papa,” said suddenly a small voice in his ear, “I am not going
-to-morrow. I want to stay with you.”
-
-“My little Mary! But I am a dull old fellow, not worth staying with.”
-
-“You are sorry about something, papa!”
-
-“Sorry? There are a great many things in the world to be sorry about,”
-he said, stroking her brown head. The child had clasped her hands about
-his arm, and was nestling close up to him whispering. They were
-altogether outside of the lively group at the table. This little
-consoler comforted Mr. Sandford more than words could say.
-
-It was thus that the holiday life went on. The young people were always
-consulting what to do, making up endless excursions and expeditions,
-Mrs. Sandford always explaining for them. What was the use of being at
-the seaside if they did not take full advantage of it? What was the use
-of coming to a new part of the country if they did not see everything?
-Sometimes she went with them, compelled by the addition of various
-strangers with whom the girls could not go without a chaperon; sometimes
-stayed at home with her husband, calculating where they would be by this
-time; whether they had found a pleasant spot for their luncheon; when
-they might be expected back. Meanwhile, Mr. Sandford took long solitary
-walks--very long, very solitary--along the endless line of the sands,
-within sight and sound of the sea. Little Mary and her next brother, the
-schoolboy, always started with him; but the fascination of the rocks and
-pools was too much for these little people, and the father, not
-ill-pleased, went on with a promise of picking them up again on his way
-back. He would walk on and on for the whole of the fresh shining
-morning, with the sea on one side and the green country on the other,
-and all the wonderful magical lights of the sky and water shining as if
-for him alone. They beguiled him out of himself with their miraculous
-play and shimmer and wealth of heavenly reflection; and sometimes he
-seemed to feel a higher sensation still--the feeling as of a silent
-great Companion who filled the heavenly space, yet moved with him, an
-all-embracing, all-responsive sympathy, till he thought of God coming
-down to the cool of the garden and walking with His creatures, and all
-his trouble seemed to breathe away in a heavenly hush, which every
-little wave repeated, softly lapping at his feet.
-
-But when he came back into the midst of his cheerful family other
-subjects got the upper hand. There was not the least harm in the gaiety
-that was about him--not the least harm; it was mere exuberance of
-youthful life and pleasure. If things had been running their usual
-course, and his usual year’s work had been in front of him, Mr. Sandford
-said to himself that he too would have come out to the door to see the
-children start on their expeditions, as his wife did, with pleasure in
-their good looks, and in the family union and happiness. He might have
-grumbled a little over Harry’s idleness, or even shaken his head over
-the expense; but he too would have liked it--he would have admired his
-young ones, and taken pleasure in seeing them happy. But to stand by and
-watch all that, and know that presently the revenue which kept it all up
-would stop, and the ground be cut from under their feet, sheer down,
-like a precipice! Already he had begun to familiarise himself with this
-idea. It had a sort of paralysing effect, as well as one of panic and
-horror. It is not a thing that happens often. People grow poorer, or
-even they get ruined at a blow, but there is generally something
-remaining upon which economy will tell; he went over these differences
-in his lonely hours, imagining a hundred cases. A merchant, for
-instance, who ruins himself by speculation, if he is an honourable man,
-has means at his disposal of trying again, or at least can get a
-situation in an office (at the worst), where he will still have an
-income--a steady income, though it may be small; his friends, and the
-people who had business relations with him, would be sure to exert
-themselves to secure him that; or if his losses were but partial, of
-course nothing could be easier than to retrench and live at a lower
-rate. So Mr. Sandford said to himself. But what can a few economies do
-when at a critical moment, at a period close at hand, all incoming must
-cease, and nothing remain? It did not now give him the violent shock of
-sensation which he had felt at first when this fact came uppermost. He
-had become accustomed to it. It was not _après moi_, but in three months
-or so, the deluge: an end to everything, no half measures, no
-retrenchment, but the end. He began to wonder when that time came what
-would be done. The house could be sold, and all that was in it, but
-where then would they go for shelter? They would have to pay for the
-poorest lodgings, and at least there was nothing to pay for the house.
-Mr. Sandford was not a man of business, he was a man of few resources;
-he did not know what to do, or where to turn when his natural occupation
-failed him.
-
-These thoughts went through his mind in a painful round. Three months or
-so, and then an end of everything. Three months, and then the precipice
-so near that the next step must be over it. Perhaps in other
-circumstances, or if he had not been known to be so near the head of his
-profession, he might have thought of artists’ work of some other kind
-which he could do. He might have tried to illustrate books, to take up
-one of the art manufactures; might have become a designer, a decorator,
-something that would bring in money. But in this respect he was so
-helpless, he knew no more what to do than the most ignorant; his heart
-failed him when he tried to penetrate into the darkness of that future.
-The only thing that came uppermost was the thought of the insurances,
-and of the thousand pounds for each which the children would have. It
-was not very much, but still it was something, a something real and
-tangible, not like a workman’s wages for work, which may fail in a
-moment as soon as he fails to please his employer, or loses his skill,
-or grows too old for it. It had never occurred to Mr. Sandford before
-how precarious these wages are, how little to be relied on. To think of
-a number of people depending for their whole living upon the skill of
-one man’s hand, upon the clearness of his sight, the truth of his
-instincts, even the fashion of the moment! It seems, when you look at it
-in the light of a discovery such as that which he had made, so mad, so
-fatal! A thing that may cease in a moment as if it had never been, yet
-with all the complicated machinery of life built upon it, based on the
-strange theory that it would go on for ever! On the other hand a
-thousand pounds is a solid thing; it would be a certainty for each of
-them. Harry might go to one of the colonies and get an excellent start
-with a thousand pounds in his pocket. Jack would no doubt be startled
-into energy by the sense of having something which it would be fatal to
-lose, yet which could not be lived upon. A thousand pounds would make
-all the difference to Lizzie on her marriage. When he thought of his
-wife a quiver of pain went over him, and yet he tried to calculate all
-the chances there would be for her. All friends would be stirred in
-sympathy for her; they would get her a pension, they would gather round
-her: it would be made easy for her to break up this expensive way of
-living, and begin on a smaller footing. There would be the house, which
-would bring her in a little secure income if it was let. Whatever she
-had would be secure--it would be based on something solid, certain--not
-on a man’s work, which might lose its excellence or go out of fashion.
-He felt himself smile with a kind of pleasure at the contemplation of
-this steady certainty--which he never had possessed, which he never
-could possess, but which poor Mary, with a pension and the rent of the
-house, would at last obtain. Poor Mary! his lip quivered when he thought
-of her. He wondered if the children would absorb her interest as much
-when he was no longer in the background, whether she would be able to
-find in them all that she wanted, and consolation for his absence. It
-was not with any sense of blame that this thought went through his mind.
-Blame her! oh no. To think of her children was surely a mother’s first
-duty. She was not aware that her husband wanted consolation and help
-more than they did. How could she know when he did not tell her? And he
-felt incapable of telling her. He had meant to do it. When he came he
-had intended as soon as possible to prepare her for it, to lead by
-degrees to that revelation which could not but be given. But to break in
-upon all their innocent gaieties, to stop her as she stood kissing her
-hand to the merry cavalcade as they set out, her eyes shining with a
-mother’s delight and pride; to call her away from among her pretty
-daughters (she, her husband thought the fairest of them all), and their
-pleasant babble about pleasures past and to come, and pour black despair
-into the cheerful heart, how could he do it, how could any one do it?
-Such happiness was sacred. He could not interrupt it, he could not
-destroy it; it was pathetic, tragic, beyond words: on the edge of the
-precipice! Oh no, no! not now, he could not tell her. Let the holidays
-be over, let common life resume again, and then--unless by the grace of
-God something else might happen before.
-
-They all noticed, however, that papa was dull--which was the way in
-which it struck the young people--that he had no sympathy with their
-gaiety, that he was “grumpy,” which was what it came to. Lizzie thought
-that this probably arose from dissatisfaction with her marriage, and
-was indignant. “If he doesn’t think Lance good enough, I wonder what
-would please him. Did he expect one of the princes to propose to me?”
-she cried.
-
-“Oh, Lizzie, my love, don’t speak so of your father!”
-
-“Well, mamma, he should not look at us so,” cried the girl.
-
-Mrs. Sandford herself was a little indignant too. Her sympathies were
-all with the children. She saw disapproval in his subdued looks, and was
-ready at any moment to spring to arms in defence of her children. And
-indeed sometimes, in his great trouble, which no one divined, Mr.
-Sandford would sometimes become impatient.
-
-“I wish,” he would say, “that Jack would do something--does he never do
-anything at all? It frets me to see a young man so idle.”
-
-“My dear Edward!” cried his wife, “it is the Long Vacation. What should
-he have to do?”
-
-“And Harry?” Mr. Sandford said.
-
-“Poor boy! You know he would give his little finger to have anything to
-do. He has nothing to do. How can he help that? When we go back to town
-you must really put your shoulder to the wheel. Among all your friends
-surely, surely, something could be got for Harry,” said his mother, thus
-turning the tables. “And in the meantime,” she added, “to get all the
-health he can, and the full good of the sea, is certainly the best thing
-the poor fellow could do.”
-
-What answer could be made to this? Mr. Sandford went out for his
-walk--that long silent walk, in which the great Consoler came down from
-amid all the silvery lights and shining skies, and walked with him in
-the freshness of the morning, all silent in tenderness and great
-solemnity and awe.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-
-“Unless, by the grace of God, something should happen”--that was what he
-kept saying to himself when he reflected on the disclosure which must be
-made when the seaside season was over. The great events of life rarely
-happen according to our will. A man cannot die when he wishes it, though
-there should be every argument in favour of such an event, and its
-advantages most palpable. The moment passes in which that conclusion
-would have all the force and satisfactory character of a great tragedy,
-and a dreary postscript of existence drivels on, destructive of all
-dignity and appropriateness. We live when we should do much better to
-die, and we die sometimes when every circumstance calls upon us to live.
-
-Most people will think that it was a very dreary hope that moved Mr.
-Sandford’s mind--perhaps even that it was not the expedient of a brave
-man to desire to leave his wife and children to endure the change and
-the struggle from which he shrank in his own person. But this was not
-how it appeared to him. He thought, and with some reason, that the
-change which becomes inevitable on the death of the head of a house is
-without humiliation, without the pang of downfall which would be
-involved in an entire reversal of life which had not that excuse; he
-thought that everybody who knew him would regret the change, and that
-every effort would be made to help those who were left behind. It would
-be no shame to them to accept that help; it would seem to them a tribute
-to his position rather than pity for them. His wife would believe that
-her husband, a great painter, one of the first of the day, had fully
-earned that recognition, and would be proud of the pension or the money
-raised for her as of a monument in his honour. And then the insurances.
-There could be no doubt, he said to himself, with a rueful smile, that
-so much substantial money would be much better to have than a man who
-could earn nothing, who had become incapable, whose work nobody wanted.
-He had no doubt whatever that it would be by far the best solution. It
-would rouse the boys by a sharp and unmistakable necessity; it might, he
-thought, be the making of the boys, who had no fault in particular
-except the disposition to take things easily, which was the weakness of
-this generation. And as for the others, they would be taken care of--no
-doubt they would be taken care of. Their condition would appeal to the
-kindness of every friend who had ever bought a “Sandford” or thought it
-an honour to know the painter. He would even himself be restored to
-honour and estimation by the act of dying, which often is a very
-ingratiating thing, and makes the public change its opinion. All these
-arguments were so strongly in favour of it that to think there was no
-means of securing it depressed Mr. Sandford’s mind more than all. By the
-grace of God. But it is certain that the Disposer of events does not
-always see matters as His creatures see them. No one can make sure,
-however warmly such a decree might be wished for, or even prayed for,
-that it will be given. If only that would happen! But it was still more
-impossible to secure its happening than to open a new market for the
-pictures, or cause commissions to pour in again.
-
-It may be asked whether Mr. Sandford’s conviction, which was so strong
-on this subject, ever moved him to do anything to bring about his
-desire. It was impossible, perhaps, that the idea should not have
-crossed his mind--
-
- “When we ourselves can our demission make
- With a bare bodkin.”
-
-And we can scarcely say that it was, like Hamlet, the fear of something
-after death that restrained him. It was a stronger sentiment still. It
-was the feeling that to give one’s self one’s dismissal is quite a
-different thing. It is a flight--it is a running away; all the arguments
-against the selfishness of desiring to leave his wife and children to a
-struggle from which he had escaped came into action against that. What
-would be well if accomplished by the grace of God would be miserable if
-done by the will of the man who might be mistaken in his estimate of the
-good it would do. And then another practical thought, more tragical than
-any in its extreme materialism and matter-of-fact character, it would
-vitiate the insurances! If the children were to gain nothing by his
-death, then it would certainly be better for them that he should live.
-On that score there could be no doubt. This made suicide as completely
-out of the question from a physical point of view as it was already
-from a spiritual. He could not discharge himself from God’s service on
-earth, though he should be very thankful if God would discharge him; and
-he could not do anything to endanger the precious provision he had made
-for his family. It can scarcely be said that Mr. Sandford considered
-this case at leisure or with comparison of the arguments for and
-against, for his decision was instinctive and immediate; nevertheless
-the idea floated uppermost sometimes in the surging and whirl up and
-down of many thoughts, but always to be dismissed in the same way.
-
-Two or three weeks had passed in this way when one evening Mr. Sandford
-received a letter from Daniells, the dealer, inviting him to join a
-party on the Yorkshire moors. Daniells was well enough off to be able to
-deny himself nothing. He was not a gentleman, yet the sports that
-gentlemen love were within reach of his wealth, and gentlemen not so
-well off as he showed much willingness to share in his good things. Some
-fine people whose names it was a pleasure to read were on his list, and
-some painters who were celebrated enough to eclipse the fine people.
-That all these should be gathered together by a man who was as ignorant
-as a pig, and not much better bred, was wonderful; but so it was.
-Perhaps the fact that Daniells was really at heart a good fellow had
-something to do with it: but even had this not been the case, it is
-probable that he could still have found guests to shoot on his moor, and
-eat the birds they had shot. Mr. Sandford was no sportsman, and at first
-he had little inclination to accept. It was his wife who urged him to do
-so.
-
-“You are not enjoying Broadbeach as you usually do,” she said; “you are
-bored by it. Oh, don’t tell me, Edward, I can see it in your eyes.”
-
-“If you think so, my dear, no denial of mine----”
-
-“No,” she said, shaking her head; “nothing you say will change my
-opinion. I am dreadfully sorry, for I am fond of the place; but I have
-made up my mind already never to come here again: for you are bored--it
-is as plain as possible: you want a change: you must go.”
-
-“It is not much of a change to visit Daniells,” said Mr. Sandford.
-
-“Oh, it isn’t Daniells; it’s the company, and the distance, and all you
-will find there. I have no objection to Mr. Daniells, Edward.”
-
-“Nor I; he is a good fellow in spite of his ’h’s.’”
-
-“I don’t care about his ’h’s.’ He’s very hospitable and very friendly,
-and all the nice people go to him. I saw in the papers that Lord Okeham
-was there. You might be able to speak a word for Harry.”
-
-Mr. Sandford smiled. “I am to go, then, as a business speculation,” he
-said; but his smile faded away very soon, for he reflected that Lord
-Okeham was the first to give him that sensation of being wanted no
-longer, of having nobody to employ him, which had risen to such a tragic
-height since then.
-
-“Don’t laugh,” said his wife. “I do think indeed it is your
-duty--anything that may help on the children; and you do like Mr.
-Daniells, Edward.”
-
-“Yes, I do like Daniells; he is a very good fellow.”
-
-“And the change will do you good. You must go.”
-
-It was arranged so almost without any voluntary action on his part. His
-wife’s anxiety that he should “speak a word for Harry” seemed to him
-half-pathetic, half-ridiculous in what he knew to be the position of
-affairs; but then she did not know. It can scarcely be said that it was
-other than a relief to him to leave his family to their own
-light-hearted devices, or that the young ones were not at least
-half-pleased when he went away. “Papa was not a bit like himself,” they
-said; probably it was because the heat was too much for him (he
-preferred cold weather), and the freshness of the moors would put him
-all right. Mrs. Sandford was by no means willing to confess to herself
-that she, too, was relieved by her husband’s departure. It was the first
-time she had ever been conscious of that feeling in thirty years of
-married life; but she, too, said that he would be the better of the
-freshness of the moors, and they all gave themselves up to “fun” with a
-new rush of pleasure when his grave countenance was away.
-
-“I am sure he did not mean it,” said Lizzie, “but I could not help
-feeling that it was poor Lance that was the cause.”
-
-“Nothing of the sort, my dear,” said Mrs. Sandford. “Your father would
-have told you if he had any objections. No; I know what it is; he is
-very anxious about the boys--and so am I.”
-
-No one, however, who had seen her among them could have believed that
-Mrs. Sandford was very anxious. She was so glad that they should enjoy
-themselves. Afterwards, when the holidays were over, when they were all
-back in town again, then something, no doubt, must be done about Harry.
-He was very thoughtless, to be sure; he took no trouble about what was
-going to happen to him. Mrs. Sandford threw off any shade of distress,
-however, by saying to herself that now his father was fully roused to
-the necessity of doing something, now that he was about to meet Lord
-Okeham and other influential people, something _must_ be found for
-Harry, and then all would go well. But the look in her husband’s eyes
-haunted her, nevertheless, for the rest of the day. She had gone to the
-railway with him to see him off, as she always did, and when the train
-was just moving, he looked at her, waving his hand to her. The look in
-his eyes was so strange and so sad, that Mrs. Sandford felt disposed to
-rush after her husband by the next train. Failing that, she drew her
-veil over her face as she turned away and shed tears, she could not tell
-why, as if he had been going away never to return. How ridiculous! how
-absurd! when he was only a little out of sorts and sure to be set right
-by the freshness of the moors. The impression very soon wore out, and
-the young people had already organised a little impromptu dance for the
-evening, which gave Mrs. Sandford plenty to do.
-
-“It looks a little like taking advantage of your father’s absence--as if
-you were glad he was gone.”
-
-“Not at all,” they all cried. “What a dreadful idea! The only thing is
-that it would have bored him horribly; otherwise,” added Harry, “we are
-always glad of my father’s company,” with an air of protection and
-patronage which made the others laugh. And Mrs. Sandford keenly enjoyed
-the dance, and felt it better that her husband’s face, never so grave
-before, should not be there to over-shadow the evening’s entertainment.
-He would be so much more in his element discussing light and shade with
-the other R.A.s, or talking a little moderate politics with Lord Okeham,
-or breathing in the freshness of the moors.
-
-And he did like the freshness of the moors, and the talk of his brother
-artists, and the discussions among the men. It was entirely a man’s
-party, and perhaps a very domestic man like Mr. Sandford, a little
-neglected amid the exuberances of a young family, his very wife drawn
-away from him by the exigencies of their amusements, is specially open
-to the occasional refreshment of a party of his fellows, when congenial
-pursuits and matured views, and something of a like experience--at all
-events something which is a real experience of life--draw individuals
-together. The “sport” of the painters was apt to be interrupted by
-realisations of the “effects” about them, and by discussions on various
-artistic-scientific points which only masters in the art could settle;
-and that semi-professional flavour of the party was extremely
-interesting to the other men, the public personages and society
-magnates, who found it very piquant to be thrown amid the painters, and
-who were inspired thereby to talk their best, and tell their most
-entertaining stories. No atmosphere of failure accompanied Mr. Sandford
-into this circle, which was kept hilarious by the host’s jovialities and
-social mistakes. If anybody knew that Daniells kept in his inner room
-three “Sandfords” which he could not sell, there was no hint of that
-knowledge in anything that was said, or in the manner of the other
-painters towards their fellow, to whom all appealed as to as great an
-authority as could be found on all questions of art. He was restored,
-thus, to the position which, indeed, nobody could take from him, though
-he should never sell a picture again. It soothed him to feel and see
-that, to all his brethren, he was as much as ever one of the first
-painters of his time, and to give his opinion and sustain it with the
-experience of his long professional life, and much experiment in art. A
-forlorn hope had been in his mind that Daniells might have some good
-news for him; that he might say some day, “That was all a false alarm,
-old man--I’ve sold the pictures;” but this unfortunately did not come to
-pass. Daniells never said it was a false alarm; he even said some things
-in his rough but not unkindly way which to Mr. Sandford’s ear, quickened
-by trouble, confirmed the disaster; but perhaps Daniells, who had no
-particular delicacy of perception, did not intend this.
-
-The change, however, did Mr. Sandford a great deal of good: though
-sometimes, when he found himself alone, the settled shadow of calamity
-which had closed upon his life, and which must soon be known to all,
-came over him with almost greater force than at first. It was but seldom
-that he was alone, when he was indoors: yet now and then he would find
-himself on the moors in the sun-setting, when the western sky was still
-one blaze of yellow or orange light, varied by bands of cloudy red, with
-the low hills and sweeps of moor standing black against that waning
-brightness which, magnificent as it was, sent out little light. Mr.
-Sandford did not compare his own going out of practical life and
-possibility, yet preservation of a glow of fame which neither warmed nor
-enlightened, with that show in the west. People seldom see allegories of
-their own disaster. But as he strayed along with the sense of dreariness
-in his heart which the dead and spectral aspect of hill and tree was so
-well calculated to give, his own circumstances came back to him in
-tragic glimpses. He thought of the gay group he had left behind, the
-heedless young creatures singing and dancing on the edge of the
-precipice, and of the peaceful home lying silent awaiting them, to which
-they had no doubt of returning, with all its security of comfort and
-peace, but on the edge of the precipice too. And he thought of Jack’s
-fee, his two guineas, which they had all taken as the best joke in the
-world, and of Lizzie, who was to have fifty pounds a year from her
-father, and of Harry, quite happy and content on his schoolboy
-allowance; and all this going on as if it were the course of nature,
-unchangeable as the stars or the pillars of the earth. These things
-glided before him as he looked over all the inequalities of the moor
-standing black against the western sky. They were the true facts about
-him, notwithstanding that in the shelter of this momentary pause he only
-felt them as at a distance, and less strongly than before realised the
-ease it would bring if by the grace of God something happened--before----
-
-It was the time of the year when there are various race meetings in the
-north, and Mr. Daniells had planned to carry his party to the most
-famous of them. He had his landau and a brake, royally charged with
-provisions, and filled with his guests. Mr. Sandford had done his best
-to get off this unnecessary festivity, for which he had little taste.
-But all his friends, who by this time had begun to perceive that his
-spirits were not in their usual equable state, resisted and protested.
-He must come, they said: to leave one behind would spoil the party; he
-was not to be left alone with all the moorland effects to steal a march
-upon the other painters. And he had not sufficient energy to stand
-against their remonstrances. It was easier to yield, and he yielded. The
-race was not unamusing. Even with all his preoccupation, he took a
-little pleasure in it, more or less, as most Englishmen do: though it
-glanced across his mind that somebody might say afterwards, “Sandford
-was there, amusing himself on the edge of the precipice.” These vague
-voices and glimpses of things were not enough to stand against the
-remonstrances and banter of his friends: and after all, what did it
-matter? The plunge over the precipice is not less terrible because you
-may have performed a dance of despair on the edge. It was about sunset
-on a lovely September evening when the party set out on their return
-home. They were merry; not that there had been any excess or indulgence
-unbecoming of English gentlemen. Daniells, it is true, who was not a
-gentleman, had, perhaps, a little more champagne under his belt than was
-good for him. But his guests were only merry, talking a little more
-loudly than usual about the events of the day and the exploits of the
-favourite, and settling some moderate bets which neither harmed nor
-elated any one. Mr. Sandford, who had not betted, was the most silent
-of party; the lively talk of the others left him free to retire to his
-own thoughts. He had got rather into a tangle of dim calculations about
-his insurances, and how the money would be divided, when somebody
-suddenly called out “Hallo! we’ve got off the road!”
-
-For some time Mr. Sandford was the only one who paid any attention to
-this statement. Looking out with a little start, he saw the same scene
-against which his musings had taken form on previous nights. A sky
-glowing with a stormy splendour, deep burning orange on the horizon
-rising through zones of yellow to the daffodil sky above, every object
-standing out black in the absence of light; not the hedgerows and white
-line of the road alone, but the blunt inequalities of the moor, here a
-lump of gorse or gnarled hawthorn bush, there a treacherous hollow with
-a gleam of water gathered as in a cup. The coachman and grooms had not
-been so prudent as their masters; their potations had been heavier than
-champagne. How they had left the road and got upon the moor could never
-be discovered. It was partly the perplexing glow above and blackness
-below, partly the fumes of a long day’s successive drinkings in their
-brains; partly, perhaps, as one of the passengers thought, something
-else. The horses had taken the unusual obstacles on their path with
-wonderful steadiness at first, but by the time the attention of the
-gentlemen was fully attracted to what was happening, the coachman had
-altogether lost control of the kicking and plunging animals. The man was
-not too far gone to have driven home by the road, but his brain was
-incapable of any effort to meet such an emergency. He began to flog the
-horses wildly, to swear at them, to pull savagely at the reins. The
-groom jumped down to rush to their heads, and in doing so, as they made
-a plunge at the moment, fell on the roadside, and in a moment more was
-left behind as the terrified horses dashed on. By this time everybody
-was roused, and the danger was evident. Mr. Sandford sat quite still; he
-was not learned about horses, while many of his companions were. One of
-them got on to the box beside the terrified coachman to try what could
-be done, the others gave startled and sometimes contradictory
-suggestions and directions. He was quite calm in the tumult of alarm and
-eager preparation for any event. He was sensible, profoundly sensible,
-of the wonderful effect of the scene: the orange glow which no pigments
-in the world could reproduce, the blackness of the indistinguishable
-objects which stood up against it like low dark billows of a motionless
-sea. The shocks of the jolting carriage affected him little, any more
-than the shouts of the alarmed and excited men. He did not even remark,
-then, that some sprang off and that others held themselves ready to
-follow. His sensations were those of perfect calm. He thought of the
-precipice no more, nor even of the insurances. Some one shook him by the
-shoulder, but it did not disturb him. The effect was wonderful; the
-orange growing intense, darker, the yellow light pervading the
-illuminated sky. And then a sudden wild whirl, a shock of sudden
-sensation, and he saw or felt no more.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-
-Presently the light came back to Mr. Sandford’s eyes. He was lying upon
-the dry heather on the side of the moor, the brown seed-pods nestling
-against his cheek, the yellow glow in the west, to which his eyes
-instinctively turned, having scarcely faded at all since he had looked
-at it from the carriage. A confused sound of noises, loud speaking, and
-moans of pain reached him where he lay, but scarcely moved him to
-curiosity. His first sensation was one of curious ease and security. He
-did not attempt to budge, but lay quite peacefully smiling at the
-sunset, like a child. His head was confused, but there was in it a vague
-sense of danger escaped, and of some kind of puzzled deliverance from he
-knew not what, which gave the strangest feeling of soothing and rest. He
-felt no temptation to jump up hastily, to go to the help of the people
-who were moaning, or to inquire into the accident, as in another case he
-would have done. He lay still, quite at his ease, hearing these voices
-as if he heard them not, and smiling with a confused pleasure at the
-glow of orange light in the sky.
-
-He did not know how long it was till some one knelt down and spoke to
-him anxiously. “Sandford, are you badly hurt? Sandford, my dear fellow,
-do you know me? Can you speak to me?”
-
-He burst into a laugh at this address.
-
-“Speak to you? Know you? What nonsense! I am not hurt at all. I am quite
-comfortable.”
-
-“Thank God!” said the other. “Duncan, I fear, has a broken leg, and the
-coachman is---- It was his fault, the unfortunate wretch. Give me your
-hand, and I’ll help you to get up.”
-
-To get up? That was quite a different matter. He did not feel the least
-desire to try. He felt, before trying and without any sense of alarm,
-that he could not get up; then said to himself that this was nonsense
-too, and that to lie there, however comfortably, when he might be
-helping the others, was not to be thought of. He gave his hand
-accordingly to his friend, and made an effort to rise. But it would have
-been as easy (he said to himself) for a log of wood to attempt to rise.
-He felt rather like that, as if his legs had turned to wood--not stone,
-for that would have been cold and uncomfortable. “I don’t know how it
-is,” he said, still smiling, “but I can’t budge. There’s nothing the
-matter with me, I’m quite easy and comfortable, but I can’t move a limb.
-I’ll be all right in a few minutes. Look after the others. Never mind
-me.” He thought the face of the man who was bending over him looked
-strangely scared, but nothing more was said. A rug was put over him and
-one of the cushions of the carriage under his head, and there he lay,
-vaguely hearing the groans of the man whose leg was broken as
-(apparently) they moved him, and all the exclamations and questions and
-directions given by one and another. What was more wonderful was the
-dying out of that wild orange light in the sky. It paled gradually, as
-if it had been glowing metal, and the cold night air breathing on it had
-paled and dwindled that ineffectual fire. A hundred lessening tints and
-tones of colour--yellows and faint greens, with shades of purple and
-creamy whiteness breaking the edges--melted and shimmered in the
-distance. It was like an exhibition got up for him alone, relieved by
-that black underground, now traversed by gigantic ebony figures of a
-horse and man, moving irregularly across the moor. A star came out with
-a keen blue sparkle, like some power of heaven triumphant over that
-illumination of earth. What a spectacle it was! And all for him alone!
-
-The next thing he was conscious of was two or three figures about
-him--one the doctor, whose professional touch he soon discovered on his
-pulse and his limbs. “We are going to lift you. Don’t take any trouble;
-it will give you no pain,” some one said. And before he could protest,
-which he was about to do good-humouredly, that there was no occasion, he
-found himself softly raised upon some flat and even surface, more
-comfortable, after all, than the lumps of the heather. Then there was a
-curious interval of motion along the road, no doubt, though all he saw
-was the sky with the stars coming gradually out; neither the road nor
-his bearers, except now and then a dark outline coming within the line
-of his vision; but always the deep blue of the mid sky shining above.
-The world seemed to have concentrated in that, and it was not this
-world, but another world.
-
-He remembered little more, except by snatches; an unknown
-face--probably the doctor’s--looking exceedingly grave, bending over
-him; then Daniells’ usually jovial countenance with all the lines
-drooping and the colour blanched out of it, and a sound of low voices
-talking something over, of which he could only make out the words
-“Telegraph at once;” then, “Too late! It must not be too late. She must
-come at once.” He wondered vaguely who this was, and why there should be
-such a hurry. And then, all at once, it seemed to him that it was
-daylight and his wife was standing by his bedside. He had just woke up
-from what seemed a very long, confused, and feverish night--how long he
-never knew. But when he woke everything was clear to him. Unless, by the
-grace of God, something were to happen---- Something was about to
-happen, by the grace of God.
-
-“Mary!” he cried, with a flush of joy. “You here!”
-
-“Of course, my dearest,” she said, with a cheerful look, “as soon as I
-heard there had been an accident.”
-
-He took her hand between his and drew her to him. “This was all I
-wanted,” he said. “God is very good; He gives me everything.”
-
-“Oh, Edward!” This pitiful protest, remonstrance, appeal to heaven and
-earth--for all these were in her cry--came from her unawares.
-
-“Yes,” he said, “my dear, everything has happened as I desired. I
-understand it all now. I thought I was not hurt; now I see. I am not
-hurt, I am killed, like the boy--don’t you remember?--in Browning’s
-ballad. Don’t be shocked, dear. Why shouldn’t I be cheerful? I am
-not--sorry.”
-
-“Oh, Edward!” she cried again, the passion of her trouble exasperated by
-his composure; “not to leave--us all?”
-
-He held her hand between his, smiling at her. “It was what I wanted,” he
-said--“not to leave you; but don’t you believe, my darling, there must
-be something about that leaving which is not so dreadful, which is made
-easy to the man who goes away? Certainly, I don’t want to leave you; but
-it’s so much for your good--for the children’s good----”
-
-“Oh, never, Edward, never!”
-
-“Yes; it’s new to you, but I’ve been thinking about it a long time--so
-much that I once thought it would almost have been worth the while, but
-for the insurances, to have----”
-
-“Edward!” She looked at him with an agonised cry.
-
-“No, dear--nothing of the kind. I never would, I never could have done
-it. It would have been contrary to nature. The accident--was without any
-will or action of mine. By the grace of God----”
-
-“Edward, Edward! Oh, don’t say that; by His hand, heavy, heavy upon us!”
-
-“It is you that should not say that, Mary. If you only knew, my dear. I
-want you to understand so long as I am here to tell you----”
-
-“He must not talk so much,” said the voice of the doctor behind; “his
-strength must be husbanded. Mrs. Sandford, you must not allow him to
-exhaust himself.”
-
-“Doctor,” said Mr. Sandford, “I take it for granted you’re a man of
-sense. What can you do for me? Spin out my life by a few more feeble
-hours. Which would you rather have yourself? That, or the power of
-saying everything to the person you love best in the world?”
-
-“Let him talk,” said the doctor, turning away; “I have no answer to
-make. Give him a little of this if he turns faint. And send for me if
-you want me, Mrs. Sandford.”
-
-“Thanks, doctor. That is a man of sense, Mary. I feel quite well, quite
-able to tell you everything.”
-
-“Oh, Edward, when that is the case, things cannot be so bad! If you will
-only take care, only try to save your strength, to keep up. Oh, my dear!
-The will to get well does so much! Try! try! Edward, for the love of
-God.”
-
-“My own Mary: always believing that everything’s to be done by an
-effort, as all women do. I am glad it is out of my power. If I were in
-any pain there might be some hope for you, but I’m in no pain. There’s
-nothing the matter with me but dying. And I have long felt that was the
-only way.”
-
-“Dying?--not when you were with us at the sea?”
-
-“Most of all then,” he said, with a smile.
-
-“Oh, Edward, Edward! and I full of amusements, of pleasure, leaving you
-alone.”
-
-“It was better so. I am glad of every hour’s respite you have had. And
-now you’ll be able easily to break up the house, which would have been a
-hard thing and a bitter downfall in my lifetime. It will be quite
-natural now. They will give you a pension, and there will be the
-insurance money.”
-
-“I cannot bear it,” she cried wildly. “I cannot have you speak like
-this.”
-
-“Not when it is the utmost ease to my mind--the utmost comfort----”
-
-She clasped her hands firmly together. “Say anything you wish, Edward.”
-
-“Yes, my poor dear.” He was very, very sorry for his wife. It burst upon
-her without preparation, without a word of warning. Oh, he was sorry for
-her! But for himself it was a supreme consolation to pour it all forth,
-to tell her everything. “If I were going to be left behind,” he said,
-soothingly, “my heart would be broken: but it is softened somehow to
-those that are going away. I can’t tell you how. It is, though; it is
-all so vague and soft. I know I’ll lose you, Mary, as you will lose me,
-but I don’t feel it. My dearest, I had not a commission, not one. And
-there are three pictures of mine unsold in Daniells’ inner shop. He’ll
-tell you if you ask him. The three last. That one of the little Queen
-and her little Maries, that our little Mary sat for, that you liked so
-much, you remember? It’s standing in Daniells’ room; three of them. I
-think I see them against the wall.”
-
-“Edward!”
-
-“Oh no, my head is not going. I only _think_ I see them. And it was the
-merest chance that the ‘Black Prince’ sold; and not a commission, not a
-commission. Think of that, Mary. It is true such a thing has happened
-before, but I never was sixty before. Do you forget I am an old man, and
-my day is over?”
-
-“No, no, no,” she cried with passion; “it is not so.”
-
-“Oh yes; facts are stubborn things--it is so. And what should we have
-done if our income had stopped in a moment, as it would have done? A
-precipice before our feet, and nothing, nothing beyond. Now for you, my
-darling, it will be far easier. You can sell the house and all that is
-in it. And they will give you a pension, and the children will have
-something to begin upon.”
-
-“Oh, the children!” she cried, taking his hand into hers, bowing down
-her face upon it. “Oh, Edward, what are the children between you and
-me?” She cast them away in that supreme moment; the young creatures all
-so well, so gay, so hopeful. In her despair and passion she flung their
-crowding images from her--those images which had forced her husband from
-her heart.
-
-He laughed a low, quiet laugh. “God bless them,” he said; “but I like to
-have you all to myself, you and me only, for the last moment, Mary. You
-have been always the best wife that ever was--nay, I won’t say have
-been--you are my dear, my wife. We don’t understand anything about
-widows, you and I. Death’s nothing, I think. It looks dreadful when
-you’re not going. But God manages all that so well. It is as if it were
-nothing to me. Mary, where are you?”
-
-“Here, Edward, holding your hand. Oh, my dear, don’t you see me?”
-
-“Yes, yes,” he said, with a faint laugh, as if ashamed at some mistake
-he had made, and put his other hand over hers with a slight groping
-movement. “It’s getting late,” he said; “it’s getting rather dark. What
-time is it? Seven o’clock? You’ll not go down to dinner, Mary? Stay with
-me. They can bring you something upstairs.”
-
-“Go down? Oh, no, no. Do you think I would leave you, Edward?” She had
-made a little pause of terror before she spoke, for, indeed, it was
-broad day, the full afternoon sunshine still bright outside, and nothing
-to suggest the twilight. He sighed again--a soft, pleasurable sigh.
-
-“If you don’t mind just sitting by me a little. I see your dear face in
-glimpses, sometimes as if you had wings and were hovering over me. My
-head’s swimming a little. Don’t light the candles. I like the
-half-light; you know I always did. So long as I can see you by it, Mary.
-Is that a comfortable chair? Then sit down, my love, and let me keep
-your hand, and I think I’ll get a little sleep.”
-
-“It will do you good,” said the poor wife.
-
-“Who knows?” he said, with another smile. “But don’t let them light the
-candles.”
-
-Light the candles! She could see, where she sat there, the red sunshine
-falling in a blaze upon a ruddy heathery hill, and beating upon the dark
-firs which stood out like ink against that background. There is perhaps
-nothing that so wrings the heart of the watcher as this pathetic mistake
-of day for night which betrays the eyes from which all light is
-failing. He lay within the shadow of the curtain, always holding her
-hand fast, and fell asleep--a sleep which, for a time, was soft and
-quiet enough, but afterwards got a little disturbed. She sat quite
-still, not moving, scarcely breathing, that she might not disturb him;
-not a tear in her eye, her whole being wound up into an external calm
-which was so strangely unlike the tumult within. And she had forsaken
-him--left him to meet calamity without her support, without sympathy or
-aid! She had been immersed in the pleasures of the children, their
-expeditions, their amusements. She remembered, with a shudder, that it
-had been a little relief to get him away, to have their dance
-undisturbed. Their dance! Her heart swelled as if it would burst. She
-had been his faithful wife since she was little more than a child. All
-her life was his--she had no thought, no wish, apart from him. And yet
-she had left him to bear this worst of evils alone!
-
-Mrs. Sandford dared not break the sacred calm by a sob or a sigh. She
-dared not even let the tears come to her eyes, lest he should wake and
-be troubled by the sight of them. What thoughts went through her mind as
-she sat there, not moving! Her past life all over, which, until that
-telegram came, had seemed the easy tenor of every day; and the future,
-so dark, so awful, so unknown--a world which she did not understand
-without him.
-
-After an interval he began to speak again, but so that she saw he was
-either asleep still or wandering in those vague regions between
-consciousness and nothingness. “All against the wall--with the faces
-turned,” he said. “Three--all the last ones: the one my wife liked so.
-In the inner room: Daniells is a good fellow. He spared me the sight of
-them outside. Three--that’s one of the perfect numbers--that’s--I could
-always see them: on the road and on the moor, and at the races: then--I
-wonder--all the way up--on the road to heaven? no, no. One of the
-angels--would come and turn them round--turn them round. Nothing like
-that in the presence of God. It would be disrespectful--disrespectful.
-Turn them round--with their faces----” He paused; his eyes were closed,
-an ineffable smile came over his mouth. “He--will see what’s best in
-them,” he said.
-
-After this for a time silence reigned, broken only now and then by a
-word sometimes unintelligible. Once his wife thought she caught
-something about the “four square walls in the new Jerusalem,” sometimes
-tender words about herself, but nothing clear. It was not till night
-that he woke, surprising them with an outcry as to the light, as he had
-previously spoken about the darkness.
-
-“You need not,” he said, “light such an illumination for me--_al giorno_
-as the Italians say; but I like it--I like it. Daniells--has the soul of
-a prince.” Then he put out his hands feebly, calling “Mary! Mary!” and
-drew her closer to him, and whispered a long, earnest communication; but
-what it was the poor lady never knew. She listened intently, but she
-could not make out a word. What was it? What was it? Whatever it was, to
-have said it was an infinite satisfaction to him. He dropped back upon
-his pillows with an air of content indescribable, and silent pleasure.
-He had done everything, he had said everything. And in this mood slept
-again, and woke no more.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Mr. Sandford’s previsions were all justified. The house was sold to
-advantage, at what the agent called a fancy price, because it had been
-his house--with its best furniture undisturbed. Everything was
-miserable enough indeed, but there was no humiliation in the breaking up
-of the establishment, which was evidently too costly for the widow. She
-got her pension at once, and a satisfactory one, and retired with her
-younger children to a small house, which was more suited to her
-circumstances. And Lord Okeham, touched by the fact that Sandford’s
-death had taken place under the same roof, in a room next to his own
-(though that, to be sure, in an age of competition and personal merit
-was nothing), found somehow, as a Cabinet Minister no doubt can if he
-will, a post for Harry, in which he got on just as well as other young
-men, and settled down into a very good servant of the State. And Jack,
-being thus suddenly sobered and called back to himself, and eager to get
-rid of the intolerable thought that he, too, had weighed upon his
-father’s mind, and made his latter days more sad, took to his profession
-with zeal, and got on, as no doubt any determined man does when he
-adopts one line and holds by it. The others settled down with their
-mother in a humbler way of living, yet did not lose their friends, as it
-is common to say people do. Perhaps they were not asked any longer to
-the occasional “smart” parties to which the pretty daughters and
-well-bred sons of Sandford the famous painter, who could dispense
-tickets for Academy soirées and private views, were invited, more or
-less on sufferance. These failed them, their names falling out of the
-invitation books; but what did that matter, seeing they had never been
-but outsiders, flattered by the cards of a countess, but never really
-penetrating beyond the threshold?
-
-Mrs. Sandford believed that she could not live when her husband was thus
-taken from her. The remembrance of that brief but dreadful time when she
-had abandoned him, when the children and their amusements had stolen her
-heart away, was heavy upon her, and though she steeled herself to carry
-out all his wishes, and to arrange everything as he would have had it
-done, yet she did all with a sense that the time was short, and that
-when her duty was thus accomplished she would follow him. This softened
-everything to her in the most wonderful way. She felt herself to be
-acting as his deputy through all these changes, glad that he should be
-saved the trouble, and that humiliation and confession of downfall which
-was not now involved in any alteration of life she could make, and
-fully confident that when all was completed she would receive her
-dismissal and join him where he was. But she was a very natural woman,
-with all the springs of life in her unimpaired. And by-and-by, with much
-surprise, with a pang of disappointment, and yet a rising of her heart
-to the new inevitable solitary life which was so different, which was
-not solitary at all, but full of the stir and hum of living, yet all
-silent in the most intimate and closest circle, Mrs. Sandford recognised
-that she was not to die. It was a strange thing, yet one which happens
-often: for we neither live nor die according to our own will and
-previsions--save sometimes in such a case as that of our painter, to
-whom, as to his beloved, God accorded sleep.
-
-And more--the coming true of everything that he had believed. After
-doing his best for his own, and for all who depended upon him in his
-life, he did better still, as he had foreseen, by dying. Daniells sold
-the three pictures at prices higher than he had dreamed of, for a
-Sandford was now a thing with a settled value, it being sure that no new
-flood of them would ever come into the market. And all went well.
-Perhaps with some of us, too, that dying which it is a terror to look
-forward to, seeing that it means the destruction of a home, may prove,
-like the painter’s, a better thing than living even for those who love
-us best. But it is not to every one that it is given to die at the right
-moment, as Mr. Sandford had the happiness to do.
-
-
-
-
-THE WONDERFUL HISTORY
-
-OF
-
-MR. ROBERT DALYELL.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-
-It was a September night, rather chilly and dreary, as the evening often
-becomes at that season, even when the day has been beautiful. There was
-a little cold wailing wind about, like the ghost of an autumn breeze,
-which came in puffs of air, only strong enough to dislodge a fluttering
-yellow leaf or two, and sometimes with a few drops of rain upon it,
-which it dashed in your face with an elfish moan--not a night to walk in
-the garden for pleasure. It was, however, a custom with Mr. Dalyell to
-smoke his cigar out-of-doors after dinner in all weathers, and Fred, who
-was his eldest son, was proud to be his father’s companion and share
-this indulgence--too proud to make any opposition to the chill of the
-night or the occasional dash of rain. All that was visible from the
-windows of the Yalton drawing-room, across which now and then a white
-figure would flutter, with a glance out were the red fire-tips of the
-two cigars, moving now quickly, now slowly, stopping altogether for a
-moment, going on with renewed rapidity--which was papa’s way.
-
-You could not see a prettier old house than Yalton in all the eastern
-shires. It had the mixture of French with native Scotch architecture
-which distinguishes a period in history. There were turrets, which the
-profane called pepper-boxes, at the corners, and lines of many windows
-in the commodious, comfortable _corps de logis_, now shining through the
-night with cheerful lights. Two terraces stood between the altitude of
-the house and the walk in which the father and son were, with lines of
-stone balustrades all overgrown by creeping plants and adorned with
-great vases in which the garish flowers of autumn were still fully
-blooming, though they were unseen in the darkness. On the lower level
-was the little temple of a fountain, which was reduced to a small and
-broken jet by age and negligence. The scent of the mignonette in the
-borders, the faint dripping of the water in the fountain, communicated
-to the atmosphere a little half-artificial speciality of character, like
-the terraces and great vases, not altogether natural to the locality,
-yet not uncongenial in its quaint double nationality. The two dark
-figures walking up and down, made visible by those red points, were yet
-undistinguishable, save by the fact that one was slim and slight, a
-boyish figure, and the other round and solid in the complete development
-of the man. The lad had been unfolding to his father the many novelties
-and wonders of his first year at the University, with that delightful
-force of conviction that such pleasant and wonderful experiences had
-never happened to anybody before which is the perennial belief of the
-young: while the father listened with that half-amused, half-pensive
-sympathy, made up of recollections fond and familiar, and the
-half-provoked, half-pleased sensation of amazement at finding those
-experiences re-embodied in the person of his son, which is habitual to
-the old. But, indeed, to say old is merely to express a comparative
-quality, for Mr. Dalyell of Yalton was a man under fifty, in the full
-force and vigour of life.
-
-“Ah, yes,” he said, “Fred, it’s fine times for you now, my boy. But you
-must remember that life is not made up of bumps and bump-suppers, and
-that there are worse things than a proctor waiting for you, perhaps,
-round the next corner. I don’t want you not to play--but you must learn
-to work a little, too.”
-
-“All right, father,” said Fred; “I’ll pull through. I sha’n’t disgrace
-the old house.”
-
-“No,” said Mr. Dalyell. “I don’t suppose you will: but you might perhaps
-go a little farther than that.”
-
-“I didn’t think,” said Fred, surprised, “that you intended me to do more
-than a good pass. I never supposed there was--any need for hard work.”
-
-“Need? I never said there was need: but it does a young fellow good to
-be thought to work: even if it does no more it does that. It’s well for
-you to be thought to work, Fred.”
-
-“If that’s all,” said the young man, “I don’t fancy I want to get a
-reputation in that way.”
-
-“Then you’re a silly boy,” said his father. “It’s a capital thing to
-have a good reputation. You don’t know what it might do for you.”
-
-“Well,” said the lad, with a laugh, “I don’t fancy that matters so much,
-so long as you do everything for me, father.”
-
-“That’s just the point, Fred. That’s what I wanted to show you. I
-sha’n’t always be here to do everything for you.”
-
-“Why,” said Fred, “you’re almost as young as I am!”
-
-“I’m not particularly old: but no man’s life is secure, however young he
-may be; it’s not to be lippened to, as old Janet says. You ought to
-contemplate what your position would be if I were taken away. Think what
-happens to many a young fellow, Fred, whose father dies--perhaps just
-when he is where you are: and he has to stop all his pleasant ways and
-turn to, perhaps to work for his mother and the rest, perhaps only to
-look after them and take care of them--but at all events to be the head
-of the family instead of a careless boy.” Mr. Dalyell had stopped in his
-walk to enforce what he said, which was a way he had. “I’ve known a boy
-of your age,” he said, “that had to give up everything, and go into an
-office, and work like a slave: instead of your bump-suppers, Fred.”
-
-“I’ve heard of such a thing myself,” said Fred; “though you don’t think
-much of my experience, father. It happened to Surtees of New, a fellow a
-little senior to me. It was awfully hard upon him. He would have been in
-the ‘eight’ if he had stayed another year. What he felt most was leaving
-the ‘Varsity without getting his blue. But,” added the lad, “if it
-matters about what people think, as you were saying, he was thought no
-end of for it. He went abroad, I think, to look after some business
-there.”
-
-“And dropped, I suppose, never to be heard of more--among his old chums
-at least?”
-
-“It was awfully hard upon him,” said Fred, regretfully.
-
-“Well,” said Mr. Dalyell, “that’s what may happen to any one of you
-whose fathers are in business. You ought to remember that such a
-contingency is always on the cards.”
-
-“Why, father----!” cried Fred. The boy was unwilling to make any
-application, to seem to think that there could be anything in their own
-circumstances to suggest this conversation: but he threw an involuntary
-glance at the house behind him with all its cheerful lights, and at the
-dark clouds of trees all round in the distance, which marked the great
-extent of the park and woods of Yalton. He did not add a word, and
-indeed the whole movement was involuntary--a sort of appeal from the
-lugubrious remarks on one side to all these unending signs of wealth on
-the other.
-
-“You mean to say there’s Yalton; and though I’m in business, I’m not all
-in business,” said Mr. Dalyell with a laugh. “I was not speaking of
-ourselves, my boy; but of the vicissitudes of life. I hope there will be
-Dalyells of Yalton as long as Edinburgh Castle stands upon a rock; and
-one can’t say more than that. Still, there are wonderful changes in
-life, and I’d like to think--if you force me to an application--that you
-were up to anything that might happen. You’d have to take the command,
-you know, Fred,” he added after a moment, knocking the ash off his cigar
-against the balustrade of the terrace, with another curious laugh. “Your
-dear mother has never been used to anything but to be taken care of. You
-had better not bother her by asking advice from her if you should ever
-be in that position.”
-
-“I wish you would not say such dreadful things,” said Fred petulantly.
-“Why should we talk of what I hope to heaven will never happen?--you
-make me quite uncomfortable, papa.”
-
-“Well, my dear boy,” said Mr. Dalyell, “that’s the penalty, don’t you
-know, of being grown up--like shaving, and other disadvantages. You
-rather like the shaving--which implies an imaginary beard: but you don’t
-like to hear of the much more important responsibilities.”
-
-“Shaving’s inevitable,” said Fred, giving a little furtive twirl to an
-almost imaginary moustache.
-
-“Oh, is it?” said his father, with a more cheerful laugh. “Not for years
-yet; don’t flatter yourself. When do you start for your ball to-morrow?
-It’s fine to be an eligible young man, and sought after for all the
-dances. That’s a pleasant consequence of being a ‘Varsity man, and heir
-of Yalton, eh?”
-
-“Well, father,” said Fred, “seeing I’ve known the Scrymgeours all my
-life, we needn’t put it on that ground. Whatever I was--if I was heir to
-nothing--it would be the same to them.”
-
-“Let’s hope so,” said Mr. Dalyell, and he breathed a sigh, which somehow
-got mingled with the little wail of the wind, and echoed into Fred’s
-heart with a poignant suggestion. There was no reason to fear anything,
-and he was angry with himself. It was childish and superstitious to
-shiver as he did, as if the cold had caught him. There was no occasion
-in the world for anything of the sort. He was not a fellow to catch
-cold, he said to himself indignantly, nor to have presentiments, both of
-which things were equally absurd. There was nothing but prosperity and
-peace known in Yalton, and his father had the constitution of an
-elephant. But the night was eerie, the horizon had a sort of weird
-clearness upon it in the far distance, like a light showing through the
-openings of the clouds. The trees stood up black in billows of
-half-distinguishable shade, and the hills beyond them marked out their
-outlines wistfully against the clearness in the west. It was cold, and
-the air breathed of coming winter. A leaf drifting on the wind caught
-him on the cheek like a soft blow. Altogether the night was eerie, wild,
-full of possibilities. There was no ghost at Yalton; but sometimes old
-Janet said there was a sound in the avenue that meant trouble, like a
-horseman riding up to the house who never arrived. Fred involuntarily
-listened, as if he might have heard that horseman, which was as good as
-inviting trouble, but he did not think of that. However, there was no
-sound, nor ghost of a sound, except what was purely natural--the wild
-bitter wind wailing, driving a few leaves about, and bending, with a
-soft swish of the dark unseen foliage, the light branches of the trees.
-
-“Come, let’s go in, Fred; I’ve finished my cigar,” said Mr. Dalyell; and
-then, as though a brain wave, as scientific people say, had passed from
-one to another--Fred’s unspoken thought of old Janet suggested her to
-his father’s mind. They were going up one of the sets of stone steps
-which led from one terrace to the other, when Mr. Dalyell suddenly put
-his hand on his son’s arm:
-
-“You’ll laugh,” he said, but not himself in a laughing tone, “at what
-I’m going to say. But if you should be in any difficulty what to do in
-case of my absence, or--or anything of that sort--do you know, Fred,
-whom I’d advise you to consult? The last person you would think of,
-probably, by yourself--old Janet! You know she’s been about Yalton all
-her life. There’s nothing she wouldn’t do for any of us--and she’s an
-extraordinarily sensible old woman, full of resource, and with a head on
-her shoulders----”
-
-“I’m not fond of old Janet,” said Fred sturdily.
-
-“No, none of you are. Your mother never could be got to like her. It’s a
-prejudice. She’s been invaluable to me.”
-
-“If it’s all the same to you, father,” said Fred stiffly, “I’d rather
-not turn to an old wife for advice, an old nurse. What can she know? Of
-course your good opinion goes a very long way----”
-
-“For or against? I’m afraid, so far as your mother is concerned, it is
-rather against. However, we need say no more about it. But, remember! as
-King Charles said.”
-
-They had paused on the landing between two flights of stairs. A great
-trail of yellow nasturtium, dropping from the vase at the corner, showed
-even in the dark a ghost of colour, and thrust its pungent odour into
-Fred’s nostril. The faint billows of the trees stretched out dark and
-darker over the landscape below, and the cold clear light in the sky
-seemed to look on like a spectator who knows far more than the actors
-what is and is going to be. Fred once more gave a little shiver, and
-elevated his shoulders to his ears.
-
-“You’d better go and take some camphor, boy. You’ve caught cold,” his
-father said.
-
-The drawing-room of Yalton was on the first floor, unlike the generality
-of country houses, which gave it a great advantage in respect to the
-landscape. On the ground floor a great deal of space was taken up with
-the hall, which opened into a large portico, and was scarcely light
-enough to be made much use of, in a climate where there is seldom too
-much sun. It happened, fortunately, that Mrs. Dalyell, who was a nervous
-and somewhat fantastic woman, was fond of a great deal of light, so that
-the large windows, which made the turreted Scotch house like a wing of
-the Louvre, were not displeasing to her. The curtains were but partially
-drawn over the central windows even now, so that it was possible to turn
-at any moment from the light and warmth of the interior to the wide
-landscape out-of-doors, with its wild breadth of sky and wailing winds.
-But within it was exceedingly bright with a number of lamps and candles
-and that pleasant blaze of a fire which it is an agreeable tradition in
-Scotch country houses to keep up in the evening, whether it is wanted or
-not. In September it is generally wanted; but it cannot be said there
-was any necessity for it on this particular night. The company in the
-drawing-room consisted of Mrs. Dalyell, her two daughters, and a
-gentleman of middle age and manners very ingratiating and friendly, if a
-little formal--Mr. Patrick Wedderburn, than whom no man was more
-respected in Edinburgh, a W.S. of the first eminence, learned in the
-law, and a favourite everywhere. He belonged, it need scarcely be said,
-to a good Scotch family, and was any man’s equal in Scotland, though he
-acted as a “man of business” to many of his friends. He was one of the
-dearest friends of Robert Dalyell of Yalton, and was a more constant
-visitor than any other of the many familiar associates who called the
-laird of Yalton “Bob,” and knew him and his affairs to the
-finger-points. Pat Wedderburn, as the visitor was commonly called, was
-an old bachelor, and therefore had no family to call him to a fireside
-centre of his own. He was as much in Yalton as he was in his own
-handsome but dull house in Ainslie Place, where, except when he had a
-dinner-party, the rooms were so silent, the solitude so serious. Neither
-the girls nor their mother made “company” of Mr. Wedderburn. He was
-seated in a deep chair, reading the papers while they talked, as if he
-were an uncle at the least, and he did not hesitate to interrupt their
-conversation now and then by reading out a bit of news or making a
-remark. He did not hesitate to correct Susie, who sometimes ventured
-upon a big word with which she was not familiar, and used it wrongly, or
-to tell Alice that she was a fidget, and could not keep still for five
-minutes; and as this was done from behind the newspaper, in the most
-accidental manner, it deepened still more the impression that nowhere
-could Mr. Wedderburn have been more perfectly at home. The papers, it
-may be added--that is to say, the London papers--arrived in Edinburgh in
-the evening. The conversation which was going on when Mr. Dalyell came
-into the drawing-room was, however, confined to the young people, and
-was chiefly on the subject of the Scrymgeour ball, to which Fred was
-going next day.
-
-“I think they might have asked me,” said Susie in an aggrieved tone. “I
-am just the same age as Lucy Scrymgeour. It isn’t my fault mother, that
-you’ve never taken me out yet. I am seventeen and _past_, as everybody
-knows.”
-
-“No, it’s not your fault. I am sure you have badgered me enough about
-it,” said Mrs. Dalyell; “but though you think you can do anything you
-like with me, I have my opinions about some things. And one of them is
-that a girl should not go out too soon. People are quite capable of
-saying, ten or twenty years hence, ‘Oh, Susie Dalyell, I can tell you
-her age to a day! She came out in such a year, and she must have been
-nineteen at the least.’ That is exactly how people talk.”
-
-“And if they did,” cries Susie, “what would it matter? Farmer thinks I
-look quite eighteen when I have my hair nicely dressed.”
-
-“That is all very well now, my dear; but wait till you are thirty or
-thirty-five. You would like to put on a year or two now, but you will
-like to take them off at the other end.”
-
-“Let’s hope,” said Mr. Wedderburn from behind his paper, “that she’ll
-not be Susie Dalyell then.”
-
-“What difference will that make?” said Susie scornfully. “If I were
-forty I should never make a mystery about it. What is the use of trying
-to hide it, if you do have one foot in the grave?”
-
-“Mother’s forty--or more,” said Alice, “and nobody would say she had one
-foot in the grave.”
-
-“Oh, what does it matter,” cried Susie again, “at that time of life,
-when you are medeval and antediluvious? It is now that one minds.”
-
-“Susie, don’t call mamma such dreadful names.”
-
-“Mediæval and antediluvian, Susie”--from behind the paper, in an
-undertone.
-
-“I suppose,” said Mrs. Dalyell tartly, “that Mr. Wedderburn thinks that
-quite appropriate. Gentlemen always think a girl’s impertinence is
-amusing when it’s directed against her mother; but you ought to know
-better, Susie, than to hold me up to ridicule. I am sure, whatever else
-I may be, I have been a careful mother to you.”
-
-“Oh, mamma! As if I meant anything like that,” cried Susie petulantly,
-flinging herself upon her mother. “I only mean you don’t care now. It’s
-nothing to you to think of Lucy dancing all night in billows of tulle,
-like the girls in the novels, and me going to bed at ten o’clock. They
-will only just have begun then. And to think they should have asked
-Fred! and me Lucy’s greatest friend and contemporaneous, and friends
-with Davie all my life--and that they never thought of asking me--never
-even tried! Perhaps if they had asked me--and it’s such an opportunity
-and such old friends--you would have let me go.”
-
-“I’ll tell you what, Susie,” said Fred, who had just come in; “I’ll ride
-over to-morrow morning first thing and ask them to ask you. I dare say
-they will for my sake.”
-
-Susie looked at him for a moment with a flush of hope, and then her face
-clouded. “For your sake!” she said, with a sister’s frank contempt. “If
-it’s only for your sake, I’ll stay at home. I am not a nobody like that.
-I’m Lucy Scrymgeour’s oldest friend. If she doesn’t of her own
-account--and Davie too,” cried the girl with an access of
-indignation--“it’s more than any one can bear!”
-
-“I would never speak to one of them again,” said Alice, “if it was me.”
-
-“And what good would that do?” cried Susie, with the tear still in her
-eye, turning upon her sister. “Lose the ball and a friend too! I suppose
-they had some reason. Perhaps there were too many girls already--else
-why should they ask Fred? Or, perhaps---- Yes, I’ll speak to Lucy again,
-the first time I see her; but I shall be very dignified, and pretend
-that I didn’t care a bit.”
-
-“But you couldn’t if you tried; dignified, my dear--that would be rather
-difficult.”
-
-“Is there anything in the paper, Pat?” said Mr. Dalyell.
-
-“Not much. But it’s ill talking between a full man and a fasting. I’ve
-seen what there is, and you’ve not. Here’s the _Times_. Munro’s in for
-that place in the North.”
-
-“Bless my soul! and you call that nothing? Another firebrand, and as
-good as two lost in our majority. That’s bad, Pat; that’s bad.”
-
-“I never think anything of a bye-election. They’re all in the nature of
-accidents. There’s a good speech of Gladstone’s at one of the Lancaster
-towns, and John Bright flaming on the side of peace like a house on
-fire.”
-
-“And he says there’s nothing in the paper!” said Mr. Dalyell, as he
-dropped into an easy-chair in his turn with the great broad-sheet of the
-_Times_ in his hand.
-
-“When gentlemen begin talking politics,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “I always
-think it is time for the ladies to retire. But you have begun early
-to-night. Are you going into town at your usual hour to-morrow, Robert?
-I hope you’ll be home early, for, with Fred away, there will be no man
-but only the servants in the house.”
-
-“And what the worse will you be for that, Amelia? There are plenty to
-protect you, I hope, if I were never to be seen again.”
-
-“Robert! that’s not a thing to joke about. I never feel safe, you know,
-in this big, rambling old house when you’re not here--if it was only the
-rats----”
-
-“What could the rats do to you, mother?”
-
-“Hold your peace, Fred!” said Mrs. Dalyell. “I sometimes think of Bishop
-Hatto in that poem you used all to be so fond of--and those in the Pied
-Piper. If you just heard some of old Janet Macalister’s stories, they
-would make your hair stand on end.”
-
-“You’ll be back in time, Bob, not to keep her uneasy,” said Mr.
-Wedderburn behind the _Standard_, which he had just taken up, to his
-friend behind the _Times_.
-
-Dalyell answered carelessly, “Yes, yes. Why shouldn’t I be back in
-time?” Then, with a laugh, to his wife, “You should never mind old
-Janet. I dare say you were interfering with some hiding-holes of hers
-that she did not want disturbed. She’s a kind of familiar spirit of the
-house, that old woman. She knows it better than any of us; and there’s
-all sorts of uncanny corners about this house. It would be to keep you
-out of the secret chamber that she told you daft stories about the
-rats.”
-
-“I don’t believe in any nonsense about secret chambers,” said Mrs.
-Dalyell. “That’s all very well in Glamis, and such places: but Yalton’s
-not good enough for that.”
-
-“Yalton’s good enough for anything, mamma,” cried Susie, indignant. “I
-heard the horseman in the avenue a week ago, as clear as----”
-
-“What’s that you’re saying, Susie?” said Mr. Dalyell sharply.
-
-“Oh!” said the girl tremulously, “I mean the rain pattering in that
-place, you know.”
-
-“Susie is always hearing some nonsense,” said her mother. “Gather up
-your work and things, children, for it is time you were going to your
-beds.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-
-Mr. Wedderburn went into Edinburgh by the early train, the train which
-conveyed all the gentlemen who were business men. But Mr. Dalyell, who
-was not exactly a man in business, went in later. He had a great deal to
-do with that busy world, but he was not actually in harness with an
-office which claimed his daily attention. He was a director of a railway
-company, and he had something to do with a great insurance office, and
-there were other more speculative concerns in which he was believed to
-have an interest: and there were few days in the week in which he did
-not go “in,” as everybody said, to Edinburgh; but still it was not a
-matter of necessity. He was up earlier than his wont that morning--for
-Yalton was not an early house in general--and “pottered about,” as his
-wife said fretfully, from his dressing-room to the library and from the
-library back to his dressing-room, disturbing her morning’s rest. He
-seemed to have a quantity of little things to do. Even after the
-breakfast bell had rung he ran twice into the library for something
-which he said he had forgotten. “You seem to have as many things to
-remember as if you were the Prime Minister,” said Mrs. Dalyell, who had
-already poured out his coffee, and who was more annoyed when he left his
-breakfast to get cold than by any other of his peccadilloes. “_Robert!_”
-she cried from the door in a tone of exasperation, “there will be
-nothing fit to eat!” “I am coming, I am coming!” he cried. The curious
-thing was that he did not mind if his bacon was cold: but his wife
-minded for him and fumed and fretted. “What is the use of trying to get
-anything comfortable for your father?” she would say complainingly,
-“Well, mother, I like my kidneys hot,” said Fred; “so they’re not thrown
-away at least.” Mrs. Dalyell looked at her son as if his tastes were a
-matter of much indifference, but softened when she met the lad’s
-good-humoured blue eyes. He was not remarkable in appearance, but like
-dozens of other Scotch lads all about--light-brown hair, curling so
-strongly that it was difficult sometimes to comb it out; nice eyes, with
-a smile in them; tolerable features, the nose turned up a little; not a
-giant by any means, but well developed, well set up--a natural,
-pleasant boy of twenty, not without his failings, and perhaps a little
-careless, a little superficial, having had no occasion as yet to fathom
-any of the depths of life. He nodded at her over the dish of kidneys
-with a smile which was contagious. Mrs. Dalyell was by no means a
-light-hearted person. She was easily put out. She did not like anybody
-to have a different way of thinking from her own on the points that
-interested her. To let your tea stand till it was cold was an offence to
-Mrs. Dalyell. As for more serious matters she did not much interfere
-with them. That was the gentlemen’s part of the business. To have
-breakfast in good condition and attend to the comfort of the house was
-hers, which perhaps is a view of the question which will commend itself
-to many. In return for this she expected to have a great deal of the
-trouble of life taken off her shoulders. She declared constantly that
-she knew nothing of business. She preferred to get her money just when
-she wanted it, instead of having a banking account of her own, as most
-ladies like to have nowadays, or a settled allowance. In short, Mrs.
-Dalyell was a woman whose very existence necessitated a husband behind
-her to do the rough work and see to the supplies. Within these limits
-there could not be a better mistress of a household. And she was
-exceedingly annoyed when her husband allowed his breakfast to get cold.
-It was a trick of his, of which it was her constant effort to mend him;
-but he was seldom so bad as this day.
-
-“Go and tell your father,” she said at last, “that it is almost time for
-the train. And to let him go without his breakfast is what I will not
-do. So just tell him, once for all, if he does not come at once he must
-just give up all thoughts of going in to Edinburgh to-day.”
-
-“Here I am--here I am, Amelia,” said Mr. Dalyell, running in and taking
-his seat at table. “What have you got there, Fred? Kidneys!--and this is
-bacon.”
-
-“All just as cold as chucky-stones,” said the lady of the house
-solemnly.
-
-“You know I don’t mind, my dear. I’ll have a little of that kidney--and
-a cup of coffee with plenty of milk. How often am I to tell you you
-should never mind me?”
-
-“Just as often as I tell you I will mind you, Robert. Who should be
-minded if it’s not the master of the house?”
-
-He cast upon her a look--which Fred, who had nearly but not quite
-forgotten the conversation of last night, caught and wondered at with a
-vague sense of pain, though his mother did not remark it. There was a
-great deal of affection and tenderness in the glance; but something else
-that puzzled him. There was trouble in it--but what trouble could there
-be in his father’s eyes looking at his mother? There was something in it
-which made him say quite inconsequently, looking up from his plateful of
-devilled kidney, “You’re not going away anywhere, are you, father?”
-
-Then his father’s eyes fixed on himself with a startled glance: “Away?”
-he said. “Where should I be going? and what’s put that into your head?”
-
-Fred replied with the familiar subterfuge of youth: “Oh, nothing!” But
-his mind was not satisfied; for that was no answer. And there passed
-through his thoughts a vague idea that if, later in the day, there came
-a telegram saying that Mr. Dalyell had been obliged to go to London on
-business, he would not be surprised.
-
-“Where indeed!” said Mrs. Dalyell. “It’s not the time for business,
-which is a comfort: for you can’t be running up to London at a moment’s
-notice, as you did in the spring. You would find nobody there.”
-
-“That is just it,” said Mr. Dalyell. And after he had made this
-unquestioned observation, he added, “I shall perhaps run down to
-Portobello and get a swim. Nothing puts a man right like the sea. I’ll
-just take a plunge and be back by the four o’clock train.”
-
-“I hope you’ll have somebody with you; and don’t you be too venturesome
-with your plunging and your swimming.”
-
-“Too venturesome on Portobello sands! I’ll get Pat Wedderburn to come
-and look after me,” said Mr. Dalyell with a laugh. He laughed with his
-lips, but his eyes were quite grave--which was all the more remarkable
-since he had laughing eyes, with humorous puckers all about them,
-exceedingly ready to light up at such a joke as that of being taken care
-of by Pat Wedderburn. He had still half-a-dozen things which kept him
-running out and in before he was ready to start, which his way, but
-always a source of exasperation to his orderly wife. Finally, when
-there was hardly time to catch the train, he dashed upstairs three steps
-at a time, explaining that he had forgotten something. Mrs. Dalyell
-stood wringing her hands at the open door.
-
-“I wish you had ordered the dog-cart, Fred. He’ll never catch the train.
-You should remember your father’s ways, and that this is always what
-happens: and then he’ll just fly and get out of breath and
-over-heated--the very worst things for him. Dear, dear me! I might have
-had more sense. I might have ordered the dog-cart myself, there’s only
-ten minutes----”
-
-“If he does lose the train I suppose it won’t matter so much,” said
-easy-minded Fred.
-
-“Not if he would think so,” replied the mother, “nothing at all--but
-when he sets his mind on a thing, possible or impossible, he will carry
-it out. ROBERT!” she cried, in capitals, going to the bottom of the
-stairs.
-
-“I’m coming, I’m coming!” he shouted. His voice came not from the
-direction of his room but from the west passage, where he had nothing to
-do, a fact which awoke a vague surprise in Mrs. Dalyell’s mind. He came
-downstairs “like a tempest,” she said afterwards, making as much noise,
-and caught her in his arms, to her great astonishment. “Good-bye, my
-dearest, good-bye!” he cried, giving her a loving kiss (“before the
-bairns, and that man Foggo looking on!”). “Keep well and don’t distress
-yourself about me.” He was gone almost before she could ask him why she
-should distress herself about him, flying down the road with Fred after
-him, which, indeed, was his usual way of catching a train. She stood at
-the door looking after him, and though he was in such a hurry and not a
-moment to lose, what did Robert do but turn round and take off his hat
-and wave his hand to her! Such nonsense! as if he were going away for
-years. She made a sign of impatience, hurrying him on. “Do you think
-they will do it this time, Foggo?” she said to the butler, who was also
-looking after them. Foggo had been standing ready to help his master on
-with his coat. But Mr. Dalyell had time only to snatch it and throw it
-over his shoulder, partly because of that unnecessary embrace which had
-so confused his wife under the servant’s eyes.
-
-“Oh, ay, ma’am,” said Foggo, “they’ll do it; the maister’s aye just on
-the edge--but he’s never missed her yet----”
-
-Mr. Dalyell, when he rushed upstairs, had not gone to his dressing-room
-as he proposed to do. He had darted down the west passage, a long vacant
-corridor with a few doors of unused bedrooms on one side. He went down
-to the end room of all, and opened the door. An old woman in a
-tremendous mutch and tartan shawl came forward to meet him. “I have come
-to say good-bye, Janet, my woman,” he said, grasping her hand. “And
-you’ll remember what you’ve promised.”
-
-“That I will, my bonnie man: if you’re sure you must do it. As long as I
-live--but then I, may be, have not very long to live.”
-
-“We’ll have to trust for that,” he said, holding both her hands.
-
-“Could you no trust for other things? I’ve preachit to ye till I’m
-weariet, maister Robert! Nobody trusted yet and was disappointed.”
-
-“We’ve gone over all that,” he said. “No, no, there’s no other way. We
-can’t ask the Lord for money, Janet.”
-
-“What for no? And now I can scarce say God’s blessing on ye--for how
-can I ask His blessing when it’s for a----?”
-
-“No more, Janet, no more. Good-bye!”
-
-“Oh, maister Robert, bide a moment. Do you mind the Psalm:
-
- ‘If in your heart ye sin regard
- The Lord you will not hear?’
-
-Think of that! How can I bid Him bless ye, when----?”
-
-“Good-bye, my dear old woman, good-bye!”
-
-And it was at this moment that Mrs. Dalyell’s voice calling “Robert!”
-came small in the distance up the echoing passage. And in another moment
-he was gone.
-
-Mrs. Dalyell went to her kitchen to give her orders to the cook as soon
-as her husband was out of sight. She was an excellent housekeeper, and
-enjoyed this part of her duties far too much to depute them to any
-other, although indeed in the tide of prosperity which Mr. Dalyell’s
-business had brought to Yalton she might have had a housekeeper had she
-pleased, and a much larger establishment. But she had thrifty instincts
-and that distrust of business which old-fashioned ladies used to have,
-with an inward conviction that it always collapsed at one time or
-another, and that the estate was the sheet-anchor: which had prevented
-her ever from launching out into expense. She dismissed the thoughts of
-Robert’s unusual embrace--for domestic endearments are sedulously kept
-in the background in Scotch houses of the old-fashioned type--and of any
-little peculiarity there might have been about him this morning more
-than other mornings--from her mind: which it required no effort to do,
-for she was not given to investigations below the surface, or reading
-between the lines, and a parting kiss (though absurd) was a parting kiss
-to Mrs. Dalyell, and it was nothing more. She took pains to order her
-husband a very good dinner, with due consideration of his special
-likings, which perhaps was as good a thing as she could have done. Then
-after luncheon there was Fred to send off in good time, so that he might
-not put out any of the Scrymgeours’ arrangements by arriving too late.
-He had a seven-miles drive, and never would have recollected to order
-the dog-cart in time if his mother had not taken that duty upon herself;
-and she likewise cast a glance at his other arrangements to make sure
-that his white ties were in good condition and his pumps as they ought
-to be--precautions quite unnecessary and rather distasteful to the young
-man in his new conviction, acquired at Oxford, that he knew better than
-any one what was essential to a perfect turn-out, either for horse or
-man. Susie, who was liberated from lessons after luncheon, spent her
-time in preparing messages for Lucy Scrymgeour which were intended to
-disturb and plant thorns in that young person’s mind. “You can tell her
-I never was so surprised in my life as when it came for you and not for
-me: for you never were such friends with them as me. But you’re only
-asked as a man. They must be badly off for men; though when one thinks
-of all the officers in the garrison--and Davie such friends with all of
-them! I don’t think you have got any amatory instincts, Fred--for you’ve
-no friends but Oxford men; and what good would they be to us if we had a
-ball? But you can tell Davie _from me_----”
-
-“Has Davie amatory instincts?” cried Fred. “The little beast--I’ll take
-him no messages from you.”
-
-“What on earth is the child talking of?” said Mrs. Dalyell. “Where did
-she hear such a word? Amatory!”
-
-“It means friendship,” cried Susie, with a burning blush. “I know--I
-know it does! I mean Davie has such lots of friends--and Fred has none;
-or at least none that would be of any use if we were to have a ball.”
-
-“But we are not going to have a ball,” said the mother; “it is a great
-deal too much trouble. Ask the Scrymgeours what they think a week hence.
-The whole house will be turned upside down, and the servants put out of
-the way, and everybody made wretched. No, Susie, there will be no ball.”
-
-“Then am I never to come out at all?” said Susie in a voice from which
-consternation had driven all the lighter tones. This was too solemn a
-thought to be expressed except with the gravity of fate.
-
-“You should present her, mother,” said Fred; “that’s the right thing for
-a girl.”
-
-“Oh, my dear,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “that’s a great trouble too! The gowns
-alone would cost about a hundred pounds; and your father, you know,
-never stays a day longer in London than he can help--and what would
-Susie and me do, two women by ourselves in that great big place?
-Besides, to make it worth the while we would need to know a number of
-people and get invitations. I’ve often heard of country people, very
-well thought of in their own place, that have just been humiliated to
-the very dust in London, with nobody to ask them out, or to call on them
-or anything. She’ll have to be content with something nearer home.”
-
-“That is all because things are so conventionary and nothing natural,”
-said Susie; “that is what they say in all the books. But if papa would
-go up with us in his Deputy Lieutenant’s uniform, and knowing such
-quantities and quantities of people--and perhaps if you were to tell
-Mrs. Wauchope she might speak to the Duchess, and the Duchess would say
-just a little word to one of the Princesses--and then perhaps the
-Queen----”
-
-“Are you out of your senses, Susie? What do you expect that the Queen
-would do?”
-
-“Well! they might say we belonged to D’yell of Yalton that saved the
-life of James the Fourth, who is the Queen’s great, great, great (I
-don’t know how many greats) grandfather. And if she was passing this
-way, you know, mamma, my father would have to come out and offer her a
-drink of milk upon his knees. And it is a real old rule for thousands of
-years, a feudacious tenor, or something of that kind----”
-
-“Where did you find all that, Susie? Is it true, mother? Do we hold
-Yalton like that?” cried Fred in great delight. “I never knew we were
-such distinguished people before.”
-
-“I don’t see any distinction about it,” said Mrs. Dalyell: “I never paid
-much attention to such old stories. Oh, if you believe all the Dalyell
-stories---- By the way, Susie, I wish you to pronounce the name as I
-do--as everybody is doing now. ’D’yell’ is so common--it is what the
-ploughmen say.”
-
-“It is the right old antiquous way,” said Susie with energy, “and I like
-it far the best. I heard about the horseman too--what it means,” she
-added in a low tone. “Papa will never let me speak, but I could tell you
-such things, Fred, if----” And here the little girl made various
-telegraphic signs, meaning that enlightenment might be afforded if they
-were alone together, with the mother well out of the way. These designs,
-however, were frustrated unconsciously by Mrs. Dalyell, who gave her
-daughter something to do in the way of replying to notes, which kept
-Susie busy until it was time for Fred to depart.
-
-But yet there was a little time for talk when the girls went with him
-round to the stables to remind the groom that he must not be late.
-
-“Where did you hear about that feudal business, Susie?” said Fred. “Did
-you get it out of a book?”
-
-“I got it out of something much funnier. I got it out of old Janet. You
-should just hear her; she knows more about us--oh! so much more--than we
-know about ourselves. She told me about----”
-
-“Old Janet!” said Fred. He had forgotten his father’s grave talk and all
-that had passed on the terrace, and it was not till he had thought it
-over for a minute or two that it slowly came back to him what
-association that was which was linked with the name of old Janet. Not
-that he had not perfect acquaintance with her, as a matter of fact. She
-had been Mr. Dalyell’s nurse, and had always possessed a room of
-her own at Yalton, where she lived in a curious isolation and
-independence--respected, and, perhaps, a little feared by the household
-in general. Fred endeavoured to remember what it was as Susie’s voice
-ran on, and then it suddenly burst upon him. It was to her his father
-had advised him to go if he wanted help, in the supposed contingency of
-his own removal--old Janet, of all people in the world! The recollection
-made Fred indignant, yet gave him a sort of shiver of alarmed
-presentiment as well. Could his father have meant anything more than a
-mere passing fancy? Yet surely he must have meant something. And under
-what possible circumstances could he, Fred, a University-man, and
-acquainted with the world, require to take counsel with old Janet? It
-gave him the strangest thrill to his very finger-points. It must mean
-something different from what it seemed to mean. His father would never
-have given him such a recommendation without a reason. Fred thought with
-a sensation of horror of the family secrets which such an old woman
-might possess. She might know something that would ruin them all--there
-might be something hanging over them, something which she had to break
-to him. Fred flung this fancy out of his mind as if it had been a stone
-that some one had thrown into it, and came back to what Susie was
-saying. Indifferent to the fact that he was not listening, Susie was
-recounting the story of the family warning.
-
-“‘And since that time there has always been a sound in the avenue as if
-some horseman was coming, heavy dunts on the road, and the tinkle of the
-bridle,’ she says. Always when there is trouble coming. I am sure it
-must be very fatiguing for a ghost, and monotonious--oh! just beyond
-description--to ride that little bit of road and never come near the
-house, and all just to frighten a person. I would dash into the hall and
-shake my bridle at them if it was me.”
-
-“If you were a ghost, Susie?” said Alice with a shiver. “Oh, how can you
-think of yourself as a ghost?”
-
-“I don’t: I’m not diaphanious,” said Susie; “but if you were to be a
-ghost at all it would be better to have something more to do than just
-dunting, dunting, over one bit of road.”
-
-“Janet must have been telling you a lot of lies and nonsense,” said Fred
-indignantly; “I’ll have to speak to her if she goes on like that.”
-
-“Or tell papa,” said Alice. “He never likes to hear about the horseman.”
-
-“Yes, or tell papa,” said Fred. He could not tell what it meant, but he
-had a strange feeling as if it were he himself that must do this and
-shield his sisters from things that might frighten them--as if his
-father somehow had not much to do with it. But he was greatly shocked
-with himself when he became conscious of this thought. He was so much
-absorbed, indeed, in the uncomfortable fancies called up by Janet’s
-name, that Susie’s story of the King’s hunting and danger of his life,
-and how the goodwife of Yalton brought him a bowl of milk, and how the
-lands, as much as they could ride round in a day, according to the most
-approved romantic fashion, were bestowed upon the D’yells for that
-service, had little effect upon her brother. And presently the dog-cart
-came round to the door, and the sight of Fred seated in it with his
-portmanteau diverted Susie’s thoughts also and brought back her
-grievance. She stood watching his departure by the side of her mother,
-who had come out as was her wont to see the boy off.
-
-“There he goes!” said Susie. “Oh, what fossilized hearts boys have! He
-never thinks of me that has to stay at home. Tell Lucy Scrymgeour if she
-thinks I will ask her to our ball she is in the greatest mistake, and it
-will be just as much splendider than theirs, as Yalton is better than
-Westwood. And tell her mamma is going to take me to London to be
-presented and make my three obeysances to the Queen, and when I have
-done that I can go to every place, and all the other queens are obliged
-to ask me. Well, if mamma doesn’t, it’s not my fault; but you can always
-tell her, Fred: and just say to that ichthyosaurious Davie that I’ll
-have all the grand guardsmen and equerries to talk to, and I wouldn’t
-look at him.”
-
-“But it’s not his fault, Susie,” said Alice; “and perhaps he’ll tell
-Fred he is very sorry.”
-
-“I don’t think he will, for boys have no hearts: they have vegetable
-things instead, when they are not fossilized. If he says he is sorry,
-Fred, you can say I don’t mind very much, only I’ll never speak to them
-again.”
-
-“I hope you’ll have a nice ball, Fred,” said Mrs. Dalyell. “Come back as
-early as you can to-morrow, for there are some people coming to tea.
-And you may bring over Lucy and David, and any other young ones that are
-staying at Westwood. We can give them their tea on the terrace, it’s not
-too cold for that; and I am sure Mrs. Scrymgeour will be thankful to any
-one that will take them out of her way.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-
-About the time when Fred was starting from Yalton Mr. Wedderburn, the
-friend of the family, might have been seen in his office in a condition
-very unlike his usual calm. That he was very much disturbed about
-something was evident. His table was covered with all those
-carefully-arranged letters and docketed papers which are essential to
-the pose of a man of business; and by intervals he wrote a letter--or,
-rather, part of a letter--to which he added a line whenever he could fix
-his thoughts to it; but these intervals were scattered through the
-reflections and calculations of several hours, to which Mr. Wedderburn
-returned, from minute to minute, laying down his pen and falling back
-into some more absorbing subject of thought. Sometimes he got up and
-walked about the room, going from one window to the other, and staring
-out at each as if the slight variation of the view could afford him some
-light upon the subject over which he puckered his brows. Now and then he
-said to himself audibly, “I must go out to-night.” He was not a man who
-indulged in the habit of speaking to himself, nor was there much in
-these words which could throw light upon the subject of his thoughts;
-but it was evidently a sort of relief to him to say this as he paced
-heavily about the room and looked out, staring blankly, neither seeing,
-nor expecting to see, anything that would clear up the trouble on his
-face. “I must go out to-night.” This phrase, however, meant a great deal
-to the sober and reserved Edinburgh lawyer.
-
-It meant that to the house which he visited so often, receiving
-hospitality, kindness, and a sense of almost family well-being, for
-which he gave back nothing but a steady, undemonstrative friendship, the
-moment had now come when he must go in another character--in the
-character, indeed, of an anxious brother and helper, but yet as
-announcing an approaching catastrophe and the breaking-up of a
-superstructure of long-established prosperity and peace. He had not been
-convinced of the necessity of this till to-day. Whispers, indeed, had
-come to his ears of doubtful speculations and a position which was
-beginning to be assailed by questions which never should arise as to
-the position of a man in business. But he had lent a deaf ear to all
-that was malicious, and brushed away all friendly fears. “Bob D’yell’s
-as sensible a fellow as ever stepped. It’ll take strong evidence to make
-me believe that he’s been playing ducks and drakes with his money.” This
-confident speech from a man of Pat Wedderburn’s authority (in Edinburgh,
-as in fashionable circles, the well-known members of the community are
-generally distinguished by their Christian names) had done much to
-support a credit which was not so robust as it had been. But this
-morning Mr. Wedderburn had heard very unpleasant things--things which
-had gone to his heart, and wounded both his affection and his pride. He
-had a pride in his friend’s credit as in his own. And when he thought of
-the cheerful household and all its innocent indulgences, Mr. Wedderburn
-struck the table with his fist in the trouble of his heart. To think
-that they might have to leave Yalton, to give up their little luxuries,
-their social rank, all the pleasures of their life, affected this old
-bachelor as probably it would not at all affect themselves. He could
-have shed angry tears over the “putting down” of Mrs. Dalyell’s carriage
-and the girls’ ponies, which, if it came to that, and they were aware
-that their position required such sacrifices, these ladies would give up
-without a murmur; and, perhaps, none of them would have much objection
-to come “in” to a house in Edinburgh instead of Yalton, which was a
-possibility which made Mr. Wedderburn swear. He was very unhappy about
-them, one and all, and about his life-long friend, Bob D’yell, who must
-no doubt have been in the wrong, and whom sometimes in his heart he
-blamed angrily and bitterly, thinking what the effect of his rashness
-would be to the others. Pat Wedderburn was grieved to the heart. He
-could as easily have believed in himself going wrong; “But, God bless
-us!” he said to himself, “it’s not going wrong. He has been taken in; he
-was always a sanguine fellow, and he’s been deceived.” His thoughts
-finally resolved themselves into the necessity, above and before all
-things, of having a long talk with Bob; and he repeated, as he once more
-stared mechanically out of the further window, “I must go out to-night.”
-
-He could not, however, go “out” before the usual time, and in the
-interval he could not rest. Finally, he took his hat and left his office
-with a better inspiration. If he could find his friend at one of the
-establishments in which he had an interest, the talk might be had at
-once, without any need, at least for to-night, of disturbing the
-peaceful echoes of Yalton. Mr. Wedderburn went out for this purpose with
-very tender thoughts of his friend mingled with his anger. “Why couldn’t
-the fellow tell me in time? But the Lord grant it may still be in time!
-There’s things I might have done. I’m not without funds nor resources,
-nor ideas, either, for that matter.” And as Mr. Wedderburn went along
-the orderly Edinburgh street, he burst out into a kind of laugh, such as
-is among many elderly Scotchmen the last evidence of emotion, and said
-within himself: “To the half of my kingdom!” The humour of the contrast
-between that romantic phrase and the very prosaic, rapid calculation he
-had gone through as to the money he--not a romantic person at all, an
-Edinburgh W.S., of fifty-five, and of the most humdrum appearance--could
-command: and the true feeling with which he had realised his friend’s
-misfortune, burst forth in that anomalous sound. A woman who was passing
-turned round and looked at him with puzzled alarm; and a boy, one of
-those rude commentators who spare nobody’s feelings, called out,
-“That’s a daft man; he’s laughing to himsel’.” “Laughing,” said Mr.
-Wedderburn with something like a groan: “there is little laughing in my
-head.” And so he went on to the Railway Office, and the Insurance
-Office, to ask for Mr. Dalyell.
-
-At the railway he had not been seen that day, at the other office he had
-appeared for about half an hour only.
-
-“He will have returned home, I suppose,” Wedderburn said indifferently.
-
-“Well, no, sir; not at once,” said the clerk who answered his questions.
-“I heard him saying he was feeling fagged, and that he was going out to
-Portobello for a dip in the sea and a good swim.”
-
-“It’s a little cold for that,” said Wedderburn.
-
-“Well, it may be a little cold,” admitted the clerk cautiously, “but Mr.
-D’yell is a great man for the sea.”
-
-“He will probably be going out by the usual train,” Mr. Wedderburn said
-to himself as he turned away. But there was no appearance of Dalyell in
-the train. The lawyer walked to Yalton through the cornfields, in which
-the harvest had begun, just as the sun was sinking. The ruddy autumnal
-light came into his eyes, half blinding him with its long, level rays.
-Everything was rosy with the brilliancy of the sunset; the blue sky
-flushed with ruddy clouds, the warm colour of the sheaves catching a
-still warmer tone from the sun. All was peaceful, wealthy, full of
-external comfort and riches, and the house of Yalton caught the sinking
-gleams from the west upon its high roof and pinnacles like a
-benediction. The trees were taking the autumn livery here and there,
-giving as yet only a little additional warmth to the landscape. To go
-from Yalton to Melville Street, or some other dread abode of stony
-gentility in Edinburgh, how could they ever bear it? Mr. Wedderburn had
-been going over all his resources as he made his little journey, and he
-had reckoned up what he could spare to set his friend on his legs again.
-Perhaps there might yet be time!
-
-When he went into the drawing-room where Mrs. Dalyell was sitting, she
-raised her head from her work, with a smile on her face. And then he
-observed a little alteration--oh, not so much as a cloud upon her face,
-not even a look that could be called disappointment, but only the
-slightest scarcely perceptible change of expression. “Mr. Wedderburn!”
-she said. “I’m very glad to see you: but I thought it was Robert,” and
-she held out her hand to him with all the easy confidence of habitual
-friendship. She was not disappointed; there was no doubt in her mind
-that Robert was coming, if not behind his friend, at least with the next
-train.
-
-“You will be surprised to see me so soon again,” he said, feeling a
-little embarrassed. “You will think you are never to be quit of that old
-fellow--but I wanted to have a long talk with Bob on some business; and
-as I could not find him at the office----”
-
-“No,” said Mrs. Dalyell; “he said as soon as he could get his business
-over he was going down to Portobello for a dip in the sea. I never knew
-such a man for the sea. No doubt that has made him lose his train--for
-he’s generally very punctual by this train.”
-
-“That is what I thought,” said Mr. Wedderburn. “I thought I would meet
-him and come out with him. But the next will bring him, no doubt.”
-
-“In about three-quarters of an hour,” said Mrs. Dalyell, calmly: and she
-added, “It’s a beautiful evening, and it’s a pity to keep you in the
-house. We should take the good of the fine weather as long as it lasts.
-Never mind me: you will find the girls upon the terrace somewhere. But
-take a cup of tea before you go out.”
-
-“I will take a cup of tea,” said the visitor, “thankfully. But why not
-come out upon the terrace yourself? It is the most lovely afternoon, and
-the wind, as much as there is, is from the west. It’s a sin to stay in
-the house when you have such a place to see the sunset from. Now if you
-were in Melville Street, for instance----”
-
-“Why Melville Street?” said Mrs. Dalyell with a laugh--but she did not
-wait for an answer. “If I had to live in Edinburgh I would never go
-there. I would prefer the south side--or old George’s Square where the
-houses are so good. I sometimes think we will have to come in for the
-winter now that Susie’s of an age for parties, for there is little
-gaiety for a young thing here.”
-
-“That’s true,” said Mr. Wedderburn, and he gave her a look in which
-there was an inquiry and a moment’s doubt. Did she perhaps know
-something? Had Bob D’yell confided some hint of approaching calamity or
-necessary retrenchment to the wife of his bosom? What so natural, what
-so wise? Mrs. Dalyell’s head was a little bent over the table where she
-stood pouring out a cup of tea for the visitor; but she raised it,
-meeting that inquiring look with the perfect frankness of her usual
-demeanour and the calm of a woman round whom there had never been any
-mysteries. She was struck, however, by his look. “Is there anything the
-matter?” she said. “You are looking very serious.” Then, for heaven
-knows what womanish reason, it occurred to her that Mr. Wedderburn was
-himself in trouble, and wanting something of her husband. “You know,”
-she said with a little emphasis, “that whatever might be the matter, if
-there’s anything that Robert could do, Mr. Wedderburn, you are as sure
-of him as of a brother.” “God bless her innocence!” the lawyer said to
-himself.
-
-“Not a bit,” he said. “There’s nothing the matter: but thank you all the
-same for saying that. Bob D’yell’s been to me as a brother, since we
-were boys together--and will be I hope till the end.”
-
-Mrs. Dalyell put out her soft hand to him over the tea-table with a
-smile. There was water in his eyes, though, fortunately, as he stood
-with his back to the light, it could not be seen--but there was none in
-hers. Her eyes were as serene as the evening skies; and her soft hand,
-which perhaps was a little too soft, with no bones in it to speak of,
-the hand of a woman never used to do much for herself, met his strong
-grasp, in which there was more than many an oath of fidelity, with a
-moderate and simple kindness which showed at once how natural and
-genuine was the friendship to which she thus pledged her husband, and
-how devoid of all tragical elements so far as her comprehension went.
-She was a little surprised by Mr. Wedderburn’s grip, which rather hurt
-that soft hand, but led the way to the terrace, after he had taken his
-tea, with all her usual serenity. She took a shawl from the stand in the
-hall and wrapped herself in it as she went out. In Scotland even in July
-it is wise to take a shawl when you go out to see the sunset; how much
-more in September! Indeed, after she had taken two or three turns upon
-the terrace, she went in again, saying that it was all very well for
-“you young things” (with a smile at Mr. Wedderburn), but that she knew
-what rheumatism was. Susie and Alice were very good company on the
-terrace, and they had a thousand things to say to their old friend, so
-that, though he had looked occasionally at his watch, he had not taken
-very decided note of the passage of time, until an hour after, when Mrs.
-Dalyell came back again, with a shawl this time over her head. The sun
-had quite gone down, the shadows were lengthening, and twilight stealing
-on. “Do you mean to say,” Mrs. Dalyell said as she came down the steps
-to the terrace, “that your father’s not here? I made sure he must be
-here with you: the train’s been in this half-hour, and there’s not
-another till nine--and no telegram. I don’t know what it can mean.”
-
-It could not be said, perhaps, that she was anxious, but she was uneasy,
-not knowing what to think. Mr. Wedderburn, for his part, started, as if
-the fault had somehow been his. “Bless me!” he said, “I had forgotten
-all about it. I might have gone down and met the train.”
-
-“That would have done little good,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “for if he had
-come by it he would have been here before now: the thing that astonishes
-me is there’s no telegram. Sometimes Robert, like other people, is
-detained. Every business man must be detained now and then: but he
-always sends a telegram. I never knew him to fail.”
-
-“That is the worst,” said Mr. Wedderburn, “of being too exact in your
-ways. If you ever depart from them by any accident everybody thinks
-something must have happened.”
-
-“I don’t think something must have happened,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “but I
-don’t understand it. It’s so unlike him. He would rather take any
-trouble than keep me anxious; and I told him particularly we should be
-alone to-night, with no man except servants in the house. It’s not like
-Robert. It must have been something quite unforeseen.”
-
-“Such things are always happening, my dear lady. He may have had to meet
-some man from London; he may even have had to go to London himself.”
-
-“Dear me!” said Mrs. Dalyell, “you don’t think that’s likely? Without so
-much as a clean shirt! Besides, he would have sent a telegram,” she
-repeated, going back to the one thing of which she was sure.
-
-“It’s the telegram you miss more than the man,” said Mr. Wedderburn
-with a laugh. It was very very little of a laugh. He was more miserable
-than she, for her anxiety was quite unmixed by any deeper sense of a
-possible reason for her husband’s absence. There was no reason for it,
-none whatever to her consciousness.
-
-“That is just it. I want the telegram to explain the man. Of course, he
-might be called away. Would I have him tied to my apron-string? But a
-word of warning, that’s what I look for. ‘Kept by business and will not
-be back till the late train,’ or ‘Dining at the Lord President’s,’
-or--it does not matter what it is. I am always glad that Robert should
-enjoy himself, so long as I have my telegram. But as it’s evident he’s
-not coming,” said Mrs. Dalyell, looking at her watch, “we must just take
-our dinner and hope he’s getting as good a one. He will be coming by the
-nine train.”
-
-Mr. Wedderburn went in with very painful fancies, which he could not
-shake off. The moment would have come, perhaps, when Bob D’yell had to
-tell his family that he was a ruined man, and he would be shrinking from
-that stern necessity. His friend pictured him wandering about the dark
-streets, or sitting in the rooms above the Insurance Office, where
-there was space to receive on occasion a belated director, and counting
-up all he had--alas! would it not rather be all the debts he
-had--reckoning them, and asking himself how long it would be before the
-storm burst, and how he was to tell _her_, and what the poor children
-would do? That was what the poor fellow would be thinking, wherever he
-was. Instead of coming back--the good lawyer exclaimed within himself in
-a little attempt at anger, to keep his sympathy from becoming too
-heart-rending--to one that might have helped him! But that would be just
-like Bob D’yell--ready enough to come to you if you were in trouble, to
-give all his mind to what was to be done: but not if the trouble was his
-own: more likely then to hide himself, to think shame of it, as if
-misfortune was a man’s own fault. Mr. Wedderburn did not know what to
-do, whether to hurry into Edinburgh to make inquiries, or to wait on,
-and see whether he would arrive by the late train. Somehow he had very
-little faith that his friend would come home. He might go away,
-thinking, perhaps, that the creditors would be more gentle with his
-family if he were gone. And that would be called absconding! Heaven
-only could tell what in his despair the poor fellow might do.
-
-Except suicide: there never occurred to his friend, in the endless
-thoughts he had on the subject, any fear of that, which to a Frenchman
-would be the first thing to be thought of--the natural refuge for a
-bankrupt. No, no!--come what might there was no need to think of that
-dark contingency. Besides, Mr. Wedderburn reflected, with a sense of the
-grim humour of the suggestion, that Dalyell, as the director of an
-insurance company, knew too well that such a step would take away the
-last resource his children might have. No, no!--not that. But he might
-go away. He might not be able to bear the sight of ruin as affecting
-them. That was what chiefly weighed upon himself--the woman and her
-children; the girls, who would not know what it meant; and poor Fred,
-who would know what it meant--who would have to abandon everything on
-which his heart was most set. Had Wedderburn been aware of the
-conversation which had taken place between Fred and his father his
-troubled thoughts would have been still more serious: as it was, all he
-could do was to keep his countenance, to look as like his ordinary as
-possible, not to frighten the poor things too soon.
-
-But the dinner went over well enough. Mrs. Dalyell kept looking at the
-door every time it opened, though she knew it was only to admit a new
-dish, expecting her telegram. But it did not come. And the nine o’clock
-train arrived, and there was still no appearance of the master of the
-house. The footman was sent down to meet the train, and Wedderburn put
-on his coat, and said shyly that he would just take a turn and meet the
-truant. And the girls ran out by the terrace, and one strayed down the
-avenue to bring papa home. And though it was cold, Mrs. Dalyell opened
-one of the drawing-room windows that she might hear him coming. She was
-not alarmed: but she was so much surprised that it made her a little
-uneasy, for in all her married life such a thing had never happened to
-her before.
-
-When it proved that he had not come by the nine o’clock train nobody
-knew what to think. By this time the telegraph-office was closed at the
-village, and there was no longer any hope of news that way: which,
-strangely enough, was a thing that rather calmed than otherwise Mrs.
-Dalyell’s mind.
-
-“He must be coming by the midnight express,” she said.
-
-“Would you like me to go in and see if there was anything the matter?”
-said Mr. Wedderburn.
-
-“What could be the matter?” she said.
-
-“Oh, he might be ill--or there might have been an accident!”
-
-“In that case,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “Robert never would have omitted to
-send a telegram--or the people at the office, or wherever he was, would
-have done it. No, no! You would go in to Edinburgh anxious, and we could
-not let you know that he had got the express to stop. Just stay where
-you are. And we’ll hear all about it when he comes. And it’s a comfort
-to have you in the house.”
-
-To this request Mr. Wedderburn at once yielded. If the poor fellow did
-come home, miserable and disheartened, it was better that he should see
-a friend’s face, and take counsel with a man who was ready to help and
-advise before he told _her_. Besides, it was better for her, poor thing,
-to have somebody to stand by her. And, oddly enough, now that there was
-no chance of that telegram she was not so anxious. She had no doubt of
-Robert coming by the express. She let Alice stay up beyond her bedtime
-to make up a rubber for Mr. Wedderburn, and took her share in the game
-quite cheerfully. She did not believe in either illness or accident. “He
-would have had no peace till I was by his bedside,” she said; “and
-anybody could have sent a telegram.” No, no, she had no fear of that:
-and expected now quite calmly the last train.
-
-But Mr. Dalyell did not come by the midnight express.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-
-There is something dreadful in the aspect of a room from which its
-habitual occupant is absent unexpectedly all night. Its good order, its
-cold whiteness, the unused articles in tidy array, undisturbed by any
-careless natural movements, strike a chill to the heart. In any case,
-even when the usual tenant is pleasantly absent, or gone on a visit,
-there is something ominous in the empty room. It seems to breathe of a
-time when the familiar person will be gone for ever. And how much more
-when the beloved occupant has gone mysteriously--absent, lost in the
-unknown--no one knowing where he has passed the night! Mrs. Dalyell was
-not a fanciful woman, she was not given to morbid imaginations, but when
-she glanced into her husband’s dressing-room next morning her heart sank
-for a moment with this chill, that would not be reasoned away. She did
-reason it away, however, and recovered her composure. For, after all,
-what was it?--nothing. A man in active life has a hundred calls upon
-him. He might be whipped off to London upon some railway business
-without any warning. The only thing that really troubled her was the
-absence of that telegram. It was still almost summer weather; nothing to
-interrupt the working of the telegraph anywhere. Already even she might
-have had one had he telegraphed from any station on the way up to
-London. This was the thing which she could not understand.
-
-“No, there is no word,” she said. “I have made up my mind he must have
-been called off at a moment’s notice to London; but why he didn’t
-telegraph, I can’t imagine--even from Berwick he might have done it, and
-I should have had it by this time. I never knew Robert so careless
-before.”
-
-“Here it is, mother,” cried Alice, rushing in with the famous yellow
-envelope, the hideous messenger of so much trouble. But when Mrs.
-Dalyell took it, she flung it back again almost with indignation, and
-turned upon the girl with a sort of fury.
-
-“Couldn’t you see,” she cried, “that it was for Mr. Wedderburn?” The
-poor lady had kept her nerves quiet and her imagination suppressed till
-now. But this felt to her like an injury. She got up from the
-breakfast-table, and paced about the room, wringing her hands. It had
-come, but it was not for her! This seemed to put terror into the
-anxiety, an increase of every involuntary tremor. In the sickness of the
-disappointment tears came rushing to her eyes. She took Alice by the
-shoulders and gave her a shake. “Couldn’t you see? you little careless
-monkey!” Poor Mrs. Dalyell was unjust in the heat of her disappointment.
-But after a while reason once more resumed its sway. “I am letting it
-get upon my nerves,” she said with a tremulous laugh, as she came back
-to the table. Then, with a glance at Mr. Wedderburn’s disturbed face,
-“It is not by any chance--about Robert?” she cried.
-
-“No--no--I’ve no reason to suppose it is. It’s from my managing clerk.
-He says: ‘Something requiring your instant attention. Fear bad----’
-No--no--no reason in the world to suppose that D’yell has anything to do
-with it. I must just hurry away. I’m called upon often, you know,” he
-added with a sickly explanatory smile, “on urgent--personal affairs.”
-
-“Oh yes,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “we know that well; and no better or kinder
-counsellor. But you have had no breakfast----”
-
-“I must not stop a moment longer--there is just time for the early
-train.”
-
-The girls caught their hats from the stand in the hall and ran down with
-him, Alice speeding on in front like a greyhound to bid the
-station-master keep back the train for a minute--a kindly arrangement
-which often was made for the convenience of Yalton. Mr. Wedderburn gave
-forth a few breathless instructions to Susie as he hurried along. “If I
-were you I would send over for Fred. He should be at home in the
-circumstances: and don’t let your mother be troubled.”
-
-“But, dear Mr. Wedderburn, what are the circumstances?” said Susie. “Is
-there anything wrong with papa?”
-
-“I hope not, my dear, I hope not. I’ve no reason to think that there is
-anything wrong: but just--I would have Fred at home as early as
-possible. And if I hear anything in town, I’ll send you word directly.
-And you may calculate on seeing me before dinner. Then we’ll know what
-to think.”
-
-“I hope papa will be home before then: and he’ll laugh at us
-cardiatically.”
-
-“Susie, my dear--there’s no such word.”
-
-“Oh yes, Mr. Wedderburn, for cardiac means from the heart; and that’s
-the only way it will go.”
-
-He turned round upon her, and smiled with the strangest mixture of
-fatherly kindness and pity and sorrow. Susie was silenced by this
-strange look. Her eyes were startled with a sudden anxious question, her
-soft lips dropped apart with fear and wonder. “Oh, why are you so sorry
-for me, Mr. Wedderburn?” she cried. But they were just arriving at the
-railway, and the train was waiting. Susie, with her young sister
-clinging to her arm, both a little breathless with their run, in their
-light morning dresses and careless garden hats, the rose of morning
-health and brightness in their soft, shaded faces, the morning sun
-shining upon them and round them, distinguishing them upon the rustic
-platform by the soft little shadow they threw, was a sight the good
-lawyer never forgot. “The innocent things!” he said to himself.
-
-When he was safe from their eyes, whirling along over the country, he
-took once more the telegram from his pocket: “Something requiring your
-immediate attention. Fear bad news. Sent for last night. Too late to
-communicate, please lose no time.” Well! after all, there was nothing in
-that to indicate Bob D’yell. It might be Mrs. Davidson’s business. It
-might be that scapegrace young Faulkner again. The devil fly away with
-all young spendthrifts! To give an honest man a fright like this for
-him! Mr. Wedderburn, with a momentary relief, noted, a gleam of fun
-coming into his eyes, two superfluous words in the telegram:
-“‘Please’--the blockhead! What man in his senses says ‘please’ when he
-has to pay a ha’penny for it?” he said with a little hoarse laugh to
-himself. For surely it must be young Faulkner--the born fool! There was
-absolutely nothing to connect it with Bob D’yell.
-
-When he entered his office, however, he was met with a very grave face
-by his managing clerk. “It was a man from Musselburgh, sir, last night.
-He came to the office, and finding it shut, as it naturally would be at
-that hour, came on to me at my house. You know, sir, I live out at
-Morningside----”
-
-“It would be strange if I did not know where you live--get on, man, get
-on!”
-
-“I say that to account for it being so late. Well, sir, he told me--if
-it was Musselburgh or if it was Portobello, I can’t quite say, but it’s
-written down, and I sent off young Gibson by skreigh of day to make
-inquiries. He told me, sir, that a heap of clothes had been found on the
-sands belonging to somebody, it would seem, that was bathing in the sea.
-They lay there all the afternoon and no one took any notice, but at last
-one of the fisherwomen getting bait came in and said it was a
-gentleman’s clothes, and his watch and all lying. And the things were
-examined, and in the pockets were a number of letters----”
-
-Mr. Wedderburn gave a gasp, inarticulate but impatient, with a vehement
-wave of his hand. The clerk handed him, with a look of deep
-commiseration and sympathy which filled the lawyer with sudden rage, a
-little packet on the table.
-
-Ah!--had he not known it all the time?
-
-He sank into a chair, speechless for the moment, but half with rage at
-Martin standing there gently shaking his head, with the look that a
-sympathetic acquaintance wears at a funeral--as if it were anything to
-him! “Robert Dalyell, Esq., Yalton,” the familiar commonplace address,
-that meant nothing except the merest everyday necessity--that meant a
-whole tragedy now.
-
-“Found lying on the sands. But was that all--was that all? For God’s
-sake, man, speak out, whatever you have to say.”
-
-Martin excused Mr. Wedderburn’s hastiness with a slight wave of his
-hand, and said all there was to say. It was very little: Mr. Dalyell, a
-man very well known, had been seen to arrive at the station, and had
-been met by various people on his way to the sea. He was not in the
-habit of using the bathing machines, as indeed few gentlemen were. There
-was no special danger about the spot, and it was a calm day, and he was
-a good swimmer. Of course the place was a little out of the way, and
-east of the sands, as was indispensable when gentlemen bathed without
-any machine; but nothing out of the ordinary--many men did the same, and
-Mr. Dalyell did it constantly. No cry of distress had been heard, nor
-any other signs of a catastrophe. This little mound of clothes, flung
-down with the conviction of perfect security, the watch in the pocket,
-a shilling or two dropped on the sands as the things were moved--this
-was all. “The body,” Martin said, dropping his already subdued voice,
-“had not been found.”
-
-The body! Surely it was premature still to talk of that.
-
-“He might have been carried along by the current further east and got to
-land there.”
-
-“A naked man, sir--without any clothes! There would soon have been word
-of such a wonder as that--and somebody sent on for the things. We took
-all that into consideration.”
-
-“I must go down myself at once,” said the lawyer.
-
-“I sent Gibson, sir, the first thing.”
-
-“What’s Gibson to me?” said Mr. Wedderburn, with a sort of roar of
-trouble, anger, and misery combined. “I must go myself.”
-
-“There are a number of letters,” said Martin, “that might want
-answering.”
-
-“Letters! when Bob Dalyell’s lying somewhere dead or dying.”
-
-“Oh, sir,” said Martin, “in the midst of life we are in death. If it’s
-poor Mr. D’yell--and there’s no reasonable doubt on the subject--he’s
-dead long, long before now.”
-
-Wedderburn made a dash through the air with his clenched fist, as if he
-had been knocking down a too sympathetic clerk, and took his hat, and
-darted away.
-
-“Old Pat’s in one of his grandest tempers,” a young clerk permitted
-himself to say in Mr. Martin’s hearing, as the door closed with a
-violent swing behind their employer.
-
-“Old Pat!--if it’s our respected superior, Mr. Wedderburn, that ye mean
-by that familiar no to say contemptuous epithet,” said Mr. Martin--“he
-has just heard of the loss of his dearest friend. You would do better to
-feel for him than to mock at a good man in trouble, my young friend.”
-
-Mr. Wedderburn rushed to Portobello as fast as the train would take him,
-following in the track of his young clerk, who had already exhausted
-every means of information, but who fortunately met the lawyer on the
-way and gave him the result of his inquiries. These inquiries seemed to
-leave no doubt as to the catastrophe, and Wedderburn found to his horror
-that it was already very generally known, and that there had been a
-paragraph on the subject in the _Scotsman_, fortunately not giving the
-name of the sufferer, but indicating the general fear that a well-known
-member of society had been the victim. “They never read the papers,” Mr.
-Wedderburn said to himself, “and she would never think it was--_him_”
-(already it seemed too familiar to say Bob). When some one came hurrying
-up to him, grasping his hand and asking, “Is this awful news true?--is
-it out of doubt that it’s poor D’yell?”--the broken-hearted man felt
-once more fiercely angry at the question, as if it was not a thing to be
-discussed in ordinary words. But this was morbid, he knew. The
-questioner was Mr. Scrymgeour, Fred’s host, the giver of the ball on the
-previous night, who explained that he had seen the paragraph in the
-papers, and had secured it at once and come in to Edinburgh to inquire,
-that the poor boy should hear nothing till he could ascertain if it were
-true. And even while he spoke, others came pressing upon them with grave
-faces: “Was it true? Could it be D’yell?” The sensation was
-extraordinary. “He was said to be a little shaky in business matters,”
-said one. “That was all rubbish,” said another. “A man with a good
-estate at his back and plenty of friends--no fear but he would have
-pulled through.” “And Chili stock is looking up again, which was
-supposed to be his danger.” Thus they stood and talked him over. “I
-suppose there is no doubt it was an accident?” said another cautiously.
-This remark caught the lawyer’s anxious ear, upon whose own heart a
-heavy cloud of dread was hanging. But there was a chorus (thank God!) of
-assurances. No, no!--Bob D’yell was the best fellow in the world. He was
-a man always confident in his own mind, a man that had every inducement
-to live--with a fine family, his son at Oxford, with a good estate
-behind him, and an excellent character and plenty of friends. Even if
-there might be a little temporary embarrassment--that would soon have
-blown over. There were men that would have stuck by him through thick
-and thin. “Me, for instance,” said Mr. Wedderburn, careless of grammar.
-“I went out especially last night to tell him, if there really was
-trouble, I would see him through it----” “Poor fellow! Poor Bob! Poor
-D’yell!” the bystanders said in their various tones. Nobody had the
-faintest hope that he could have escaped. Such a prodigy as a man
-without clothes would soon have been known along the coast. And of
-course he would have hurried back, if he had been saved, to ease the
-anxieties of his friends. It was only Mr. Wedderburn who insisted upon
-every means being taken to secure the poor remains, and that not for
-certainty of the fact, but for decent burial. There is no coroner’s
-inquest in Scotland; but an inquiry into all the circumstances was
-immediately set on foot, an inquiry at first in which there was no
-certain evidence but the piteous heap of clothes, the respectable
-garments in which every man of business goes to town. The papers left in
-the pocket, the few shillings on the sands, the notes in his
-pocket-book, were all so many unconscious witnesses to the accident, all
-proving how accidental, how unlooked-for, was this cutting short of his
-career. There was even a withered rose in his coat, a pale China rose
-from one corner of the terrace at Yalton, which Mr. Wedderburn
-recognised with a pang, as if it had been one of the children. The tears
-blinded the middle-aged lawyer’s eyes as he took this faded thing out of
-his friend’s coat, brushed off the sand from the withered leaves, and
-put it in his pocket-book reverently. All who were present looked on at
-this little incident as if it had been a religious rite.
-
-It may be added here that the naked remains of a drowned man were found
-a few weeks afterwards on the east sands of Portobello. Needless to say
-that they were quite unrecognisable; but the height and size, and the
-absence of clothing, made it as nearly certain as any such thing could
-be that this was all that remained of Robert Dalyell.
-
-Meanwhile that fatal day passed over at Yalton, the first part very
-quietly, as usual, in the ordinary occupations of the household. It was
-a beautiful morning, full of comfort and good hope, and Mrs. Dalyell was
-busy in her house. It was the day for the overseeing and paying of the
-weekly bills, and there were various repairs necessary before the winter
-set in which she had to look after, and a great deal of linen--napery as
-she called it--had come in from the laundry, which it was essential to
-examine to see what wanted renewing and what it would be possible to
-darn and keep in use. Old Janet Macalister was famous for her darning.
-Old as she was, it was still, Mrs. Dalyell said, “a pleasure to see” her
-work. It was an ornament to the tablecloths rather than a blemish. Old
-Janet was in great activity, almost agitation. She appeared in the
-house, as she very rarely did, and talked so much in an excited way,
-that the servants thought her “fey.” She went with Mrs. Dalyell to the
-housekeeper’s room, uninvited, to examine the linen. “Dinna put that
-away. I can darn that fine,” old Janet said to many articles over which
-her mistress shook her head. “Losh! what’s the good o’ me, eatin’ bread
-and burnin’ fire this mony mony a year, if I canna keep the napery in
-order!” she cried. Her head, which was slightly palsied, nodded more
-than usual, her large pale hands shook; but her voice was strong, and
-she ended every sentence with a harsh laugh.
-
-“I am afraid you are not very well to-day, Janet,” said Mrs. Dalyell.
-
-“Oh, ’deed am I, very well; but ye must give me work, mistress, ye must
-give me work. Without work there are o’er many thoughts in a person’s
-head for comfort. And that fine darning, it just takes everything out of
-ye: it takes up baith body and mind.”
-
-When her survey of the linen was over, Mrs. Dalyell came back to the
-drawing-room, having sent old Janet back to her room with an armful of
-sheets and tablecloths. And she was glad to escape from the old woman.
-There was a gleam in her eyes, often fixed upon her mistress with a
-penetrating look, as if she knew something, and her unusual flurry of
-speech and the harsh laugh of agitation which occurred so often, which
-Mrs. Dalyell did not understand, and which alarmed her--she could not
-tell why. Then came luncheon, to which she sat down with her girls, with
-a forlorn sense of the two empty seats which Foggo had placed as usual.
-“I thought, mem,” he said in his solemn way, “that Mr. Fred would have
-been home, if not the maister.”
-
-“Why should you think Mr. Fred would have been at home?” she asked
-almost angrily.
-
-“He is coming in the afternoon with some of the young people from
-Westwood for tea. We shall want tea on the terrace at half-past four,
-and there will probably be five or six people.”
-
-“Very well, mem,” said Foggo, more solemn than ever, and with a look
-which, like Janet’s, meant more than his words.
-
-Mrs. Dalyell had something like an _attaque des nerfs_, which was a
-malady unknown to her. She could not eat anything. In order that the
-servants might not suppose there was anything irregular in their
-master’s proceedings, she said nothing before Foggo about her anxiety.
-She said she was tired, looking over all that weary linen. “And old
-Janet, that was stranger than ever, and she always was a strange
-creature. I think I will lie down for a little after lunch. And I almost
-wish that I had not bidden Fred to bring over the Scrymgeours with him
-for the afternoon.” If this was said to throw dust in Foggo’s eyes, Mrs.
-Dalyell might have spared herself the trouble. For Foggo had read his
-_Scotsman_ that morning, and had heard a murmur of dismay which had come
-to Yalton by the backstairs, by the kitchen--nobody knew how. “God help
-the poor woman!” Foggo said, when he retired to his own domain, with
-more feeling than respect. “She’s full of trouble, but she will not let
-on, and though she’s in horror of something, it’s not half so bad as
-what has come to pass.”
-
-“If that story’s true,” said the cook, who was too much disturbed and
-too anxious to hear everything to take any trouble about her own work,
-which the kitchen-maid was accomplishing sadly while her principal
-talked and cried over the dreadful rumour which had swept hither on the
-wings of the wind. “Oh, it’s true enough,” said Foggo, whose disposition
-was dismal--“and there’s little dinner will be wanted here this night,
-for sooner or later they must hear. It was more than I could well bear
-to hear them talking of the big tea on the terrace and who was coming. I
-hope the Scrymgeour people will not be so mad as to let their young ones
-come: and nobody else will come, for it’s well known over the country by
-this time, though she doesn’t know.”
-
-“Oh, my poor bonnie lady,” said the cook weeping--“and the kind maister,
-that had a pleasant word for everybody.”
-
-“Not so pleasant a word for them that crossed him,” said Foggo. “Not
-that I would say a word against him, and him a drowned man.”
-
-Early in the afternoon Fred came home. It was a house that stood always
-with open doors and windows, so that there was no need to open to any
-familiar comer; but Foggo was in the hall, chiefly because he too was
-excited and eager to have the first of any news that might arrive, when
-the youth with his light step came in. His eager question, “Is my
-father at home?” made the grave butler more solemn than ever.
-
-“No, sir, the master has not been back since he left the house yesterday
-morning,” said Foggo.
-
-But though his looks were so significant, that the very dogs saw that
-something was the matter, Fred neither gave nor communicated any news.
-He rushed upstairs three steps at a time, and burst into the
-drawing-room, where his mother was sitting. She had tried to lie down,
-as she had said, but Mrs. Dalyell could not rest: her nerves would not
-be stilled, and her thoughts grew so many that they buzzed in her ears,
-and seemed to suffocate her in her throat. She was sitting at the window
-which commanded the gate, so that she might see who appeared, ever
-watching for that telegraph boy, who in a moment might set all right.
-
-“You have come back early, Fred,” she said. “And have you come alone?”
-
-“Mother, what’s this I hear, that my father has never come home?”
-
-“Who has told you such a thing? Your father has many affairs in his
-hands; he’s often been called away in a hurry.”
-
-“You knew then he was going somewhere? It’s all right, then, thank
-God!” said Fred; “and that dreadful thing in the papers has nothing to
-do with him.”
-
-“What dreadful thing in the papers?” cried Mrs. Dalyell. It was not till
-Fred had thus committed himself in his haste and anxiety that he felt
-how foolish it was to refer to a report which as yet was not
-authenticated. He went to look for the papers, cursing his own rashness.
-But Foggo had more sense than might have been supposed. He had conveyed
-that _Scotsman_ out of the way.
-
-Alas! as if it were of any use to try to stave off the knowledge of such
-a calamity! An hour later Mr. Wedderburn’s sober step sounded upon the
-gravel, coming up from the train. Mrs. Dalyell sat still in her chair,
-not running to meet him as the others did. “Oh, I shall hear it soon
-enough--I shall hear it soon enough!” she said to herself.
-
-His very step had tragedy in it; and she knew before she saw him that
-something dreadful had happened, that the failure of that telegram,
-which Robert had never before omitted to send her, was but too well
-explained. Something like a sweeping gust of fatal wind seemed to flow
-through the house--a chill consciousness of coming trouble, calling out
-everybody from above and below to hear the news. And then there was a
-terrible cry, and then a dread stillness fell over Yalton--like the
-stillness before a storm.
-
-There was one strange thing, however, which happened that fatal
-afternoon, and which Fred could never forget. As he went upstairs to his
-own room, which was in the upper storey, a pale and miserable ghost of
-the cheerful youth he had been yesterday, he saw old Janet standing at
-the end of the passage which led to her room. She put out her long arm,
-out of the folds of her tartan shawl. “How is she taking it, Mr. Fred?”
-she asked. Janet’s eyes were deep, and shone with a strange fire. Her
-face was full of excitement and agitation--but not of grief, although
-she had been devoted to the master, who was also her nursling. “How is
-your mother taking it?” There was a gleam of strange curiosity in her
-eyes.
-
-“Taking it?” cried Fred. “Have you no heart that you ask such a
-question? My mother is heartbroken--as we all are,” said the lad, his
-voice giving way to the half-arrested sob, which he was too young to be
-able to restrain.
-
-“But no me--that’s what you’re thinking: though the Lord knows he’s
-more to me than everything else in this world. Laddie, you’re
-young--young; and so is your mother. But me, I’m a very old woman. I’ve
-seen many a strange thing. You’ll mind that you’re to come and ask me if
-you’re ever very sore troubled in your mind.”
-
-“You!” cried Fred. There was something like scorn in his tone. The first
-distress of youth seems always final, insurmountable, so that it is half
-an insult to suggest that it will be lived through and other troubles
-come. But then a sudden chill of horror came over the lad. “You!” he
-said again, with a pang which he did not himself understand. He
-remembered what his father had said: “Go to old Janet.” Did she know
-what his father had said? Had she been aware that this great trouble,
-this more than trouble, this misery, calamity, was coming? Fred gave the
-old woman an awed and terrified look--and fled: from her and his own
-thoughts.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-
-There is no coroner’s inquest in Scotland, as has been said;
-nevertheless there was a careful examination into all the circumstances
-of Mr. Dalyell’s death. It was known that he was going to Portobello to
-bathe. This he had stated not only to his family, but to the clerks at
-the insurance office and other persons whom he had met. One gentleman
-appeared who had travelled that little journey with him by the train,
-whom he had almost persuaded to join him in his swim, and who parted
-with him only at the corner of the road leading down to the sands; the
-porter at the station had seen him arrive, had seen the two walk off
-together. There was no mystery or concealment about anything he had
-done. It was his usual place for bathing, there was nothing
-extraordinary about the matter, up to the moment when the clothes were
-found on the sands and the man was gone. Every step was traced of his
-ordinary career, nor could one suspicious circumstance be found. The
-mere fact of the heap of clothing, the money in the pockets, the watch,
-all the familiar careless evidences of a day which was to be as any
-other day, with no auguries of evil in it, was all there was to account
-for his disappearance. But that was pathetically distinct and
-unimpeachable. And when after so much delay the body was found--which,
-indeed, no one could tell to be Robert Dalyell’s body, but which by
-every law of probability might be considered so--the question dropped,
-and all the endless talk and speculation to which it had given rise. Of
-course there were doubts at first whether it might be suicide. But why,
-of all people in the world, should Robert Dalyell drown himself? No
-doubt there had been rumours of unfortunate speculations, and possible
-pecuniary disaster. But everybody knew now that Pat Wedderburn, a man of
-considerable wealth and unlimited credit, had put his means at his
-friend’s disposal. It is true that what Mr. Wedderburn had said was that
-he was about to do so; but these fine shades are too much to be
-preserved when a statement is sent about from mouth to mouth, and all
-Edinburgh was persuaded that Mr. Wedderburn’s means made Dalyell’s
-position secure--if, indeed, it ever was insecure, with a good estate
-behind him, and all his connections. But what a fatality! What a
-catastrophe! A man in the prime of life, with a nice wife and delightful
-children, a charming place, an excellent position, everything smiling
-upon him. That he should be carried away from all that in a moment by
-some confounded cramp, some momentary weakness. What a lesson it was! In
-the midst of life we are in death. This was what, with many regrets for
-Bob D’yell and sorrow for his family, and a great sensation among all
-who knew him, Edinburgh said. And then the event was displaced by
-another event, and his name was transferred from the papers and
-everybody’s mouth to a tablet in Yalton Church, and Robert Dalyell was
-as if he had never been.
-
-It proved that his life was very heavily insured--to a much larger sum
-than anybody had been aware of, and in several offices. Neither Mrs.
-Dalyell, nor any of his advisers knew the reason for these unusual
-liberalities of arrangement, if not that Mr. Dalyell, being himself
-concerned in an insurance office, thought it right to set an example to
-others by the number and value of his own. Enough was obtained in this
-sorrowful way to clear off everything that was wrong in his affairs, and
-to secure Fred, when he should come of age, in unencumbered possession
-of Yalton, as well as to leave the portions of the girls intact. So far
-as this went, and though it was a dreadful thing to think, much more to
-say, no doubt it passed through Mr. Wedderburn’s mind, who was the sole
-executor, with the exception of Mrs. Dalyell, that the moment of poor
-Bob’s death was singularly well chosen. Mrs. Dalyell left everything in
-his hands, so that the conclusion was in no way forced upon her, nor
-would she have entertained it if it had occurred to her. Nothing would
-have persuaded her that her Robert had drowned himself, and she knew no
-reason why. She was not a woman who demanded explanations, who searched
-into the motives of things. She accepted the event when it happened with
-sorrow or with thankfulness, according as it was good or bad, but she
-did not demand to have the secret told her of how it came about. And she
-grieved deeply for her good husband; the earth was altogether overcast
-to her for a time. She felt no warmth in the sun, no beauty in the
-world--a pall hung over everything. Robert was gone--what was the good
-of all those secondary things, the comforts and ease of life, which were
-not him, nor ever could bring him back? She would have accepted joyfully
-a life of poverty and privation with Robert instead of this dreadful
-comfortable blank without him. Her emotions were as sincere as they were
-sober and unexaggerated. But, as was natural, this gloom of early
-bereavement did not last. After a few months she was capable of taking a
-little pleasure in the spring weather, of watching the flowers come up.
-And though the first notice she took of these ameliorating circumstances
-was to say with tears, “How pleased your father always was to see the
-crocuses!” yet it was the beginning of a better time. Mrs. Dalyell was
-still in the forties; she was in excellent health, and she was of a
-mild, unimpassioned temperament. It was not possible that the clouds
-should hang for ever about such a tranquil sky.
-
-But there were two of the mourners who were not so simply constituted.
-Fred, who had been so light-hearted a boy when his father talked to him
-on the terrace and bade him think of the catastrophes which overturned
-so many young lives, was greatly changed. He could not get that
-conversation out of his mind, nor the strange recommendation his father
-had given him, nor the stranger repetition by old Janet of what Mr.
-Dalyell had said. How did she know? Had the father confided to her what
-was about to happen? Confided?--a thing which was an accident, an
-unforeseen calamity, or---- what else? Confided to Janet that next day
-he was going to die? Fred turned this over in his mind, over and over,
-till he was nearly mad. How did she know? How did she know? Was it
-second-sight, witchcraft of one kind or another? But Fred was a young
-man of his time--or rather he was not sufficiently a young man of his
-time to believe in witchcraft or any occult power. How was it?--how was
-it?--how was it? This question went on in his mind so constantly that it
-became a sort of mechanical rhyme running through everything. How did
-old Janet know? Had it been discovered by her somehow by mystic art? Had
-it been confided to her? He could not turn his mind away from this
-question or forget it. How did she know?--what did she know? Fred felt
-as if he should have informed the commissioners who had investigated the
-circumstances of his father’s death of that conversation on the
-terrace. It might be only a coincidence; but it was a very curious
-coincidence. He ought to have reported it, made it known, that everybody
-might draw his own conclusions. Here was a man who as a matter of fact
-died by some mysterious accident next day, and who had talked to his son
-of what he might have to do were he left with the family on his hands,
-and advised whom he should take counsel with in difficulties: and the
-proposed counsellor had apparently been communicated with too. What
-would the little court of inquiry, he wondered, have said to that? What
-would the insurance people have said? Was it his duty to have told the
-strange and terrible detail? Was it better to have remained silent? Poor
-Fred could not tell what he ought to have done--what he ought to do. He
-was but a boy after all, when all was said. He had not been accustomed
-to form such momentous decisions for himself, and he was overwhelmed
-with grief and misery, not able to think. He remained silent, not
-betraying even to Mr. Wedderburn, who was now the guide of the
-household, looking after everything, what he felt. But the lad was very
-unhappy. There was no reason why he should not return to Oxford; but he
-had no desire to return. He did not care to do anything. He wandered
-about the grounds asking himself what his father meant, if he had it all
-in his mind then as he walked along the terrace in the dark, listening
-to his boy’s chatter of college jokes and light-hearted nonsense. Was he
-thinking then of what was to be done next day? Had he planned it all?
-and left perhaps his last instructions with Janet, the unlikeliest
-repository of such secrets. Could it be this? or only coincidence, a
-series of coincidences, such as may occur and sometimes do occur,
-perplexing and confusing every calculation? All this made him very
-miserable, as he pondered, many a weary monotonous night and day. He
-stole out in the evenings after dinner and strolled along the terrace,
-as his father had been used to do, with a sort of vague hope of
-enlightenment, of some influence that might come to him, or even voice
-that he might hear. But he never heard anything more than the wind
-moaning in the trees, which drove him indoors with the melancholy of
-their unseen rustling, and the eerie sounds of the night, rising over
-all the invisible country, tinkle of water, and sweeping sound of the
-winds and the drop of the autumnal leaves falling, the hoot of an owl,
-the stirring of unseen things in the woods and fields. But when he was
-indoors again, still less could Fred bear the cheerful air of the
-drawing-room with its bright fire and lamps, and the voices of his
-sisters which began after a time of silence to whisper and chatter again
-in the irrepressible vitality of their youth. Had it all been planned
-before that night? Did his father already well know what was going to
-happen on the morrow--all the incidents of the tragedy? And did Janet
-know? Fred repeated these questions to himself till his brain felt as if
-it were giving way.
-
-All this time he kept himself carefully away from speech or look of
-Janet, who had been, strange as it was, less affected by the calamity
-than any one in the house, and had a look in her dry eyes which Fred
-could not understand. His heart revolted against her; a woman without
-feeling, who had no tears for the man who had surrounded her with
-comforts and ensured her well-being for her life--the man who was her
-child, whom she had nursed, but never mourned. A sort of hatred sprang
-up in the lad’s mind towards this old woman. He felt it a wrong and
-almost insult that he should have been bidden to take her advice--and
-avoided her as if she had been the plague. Janet, on the contrary,
-seemed to seek opportunities of encountering him, appearing suddenly
-about the house, as she had never hitherto done, in all kinds of
-unlikely places. Her unobtrusiveness had been one of her great qualities
-in former times. She had never been seen on the stairs or in the
-corridor, scarcely at all, except at the opening of the passage leading
-to her own room, or sitting in the sun by the laundry door, or about the
-servants’ part of the house. But now old Janet seemed to be everywhere.
-Fred met her in the hall, lingering about the library, in the gallery
-above which encircled the hall, everywhere save in his mother’s
-drawing-room. And whenever she met him, though she did nothing to stop
-him, she gave him a look full of significance. It seemed to say, “When
-are you coming to consult me? I want to be consulted,” till the young
-man became exasperated, and fled from her with an ever-growing sense of
-trouble or fear. Her apparition in her large white mutch, with a black
-ribbon round it, tied in a great bow on the top of her head, with her
-black and white shepherd’s plaid shawl, which she had adopted, instead
-of the old red and green tartan, in compliment to the family
-mourning--gave him a sensation of shivering, as if old Janet had
-included in her own person the properties of all the Fates. He was
-afraid of what she might have to say to him--afraid lest there should be
-something to tell which would be hateful to hear; afraid for his
-father’s good name and his own peace.
-
-Mr. Wedderburn had no such addition to the many cares which this
-catastrophe had introduced into his placid life. He knew nothing about
-Janet, or any secret she might have in her keeping, nor had he any idea
-of that last interview which lay so heavily upon Fred’s mind; but he was
-not at ease. The public mind had been entirely reassured on the subject
-of Dalyell’s embarrassed circumstances by the announcement that Pat
-Wedderburn had taken upon him all the responsibility and was indeed the
-principal in Dalyell’s speculations, using him only as an agent, which
-was what Wedderburn’s statement on the subject had now grown to. But
-Wedderburn knew very well that he had only intended to make this offer
-to his friend, and that Dalyell’s troubles about money were weighing
-very heavily upon him when he went down to Portobello for his swim. And
-he knew that the very opportune cramp or failure of heart which caused
-his death accomplished at the same time the complete deliverance from
-all those cares, of his children and his wife. Everything was
-appropriate, perfectly convenient to the moment and to the needs of the
-man who gave his life for his family as much as if he had defended them
-to the death on the ramparts of some besieged city--with this only
-exception, that the weapons with which he fought were equivocal, if not
-dishonest. For the insurance money would never have been paid to the
-representatives of a suicide. Poor Bob! poor Bob! it was unworthy, it
-was dreadful to associate that title with his honest name. And yet--if
-it had been a planned thing, it was not an honest thing, although he had
-paid for it by the sacrifice of his life. This thought rankled in Mr.
-Wedderburn’s mind. Dalyell had been, so to speak, absolved by public
-opinion from that guilt. The payment of the insurances was in itself a
-full acquittal, and no one ventured to say or even think that the
-catastrophe on the Portobello sands was anything but a fatal accident.
-But Wedderburn’s mind was haunted by this doubt. It was not for him to
-bring it forward, to hint a suspicion which could never be proved, which
-would be ruinous to the prospects of those whose interests were in his
-hands. No, never to any soul would he hint such a doubt. But yet--he
-said to himself that poor Bob would have been capable of it. A thing
-that you are willing to give your life to purchase--it is difficult to
-believe that what is bought at such a sacrifice could be wronging any
-one, or a sin against the commonwealth. The suicide would be a sin
-before God, but many a desperate creature is ready to encounter that,
-with a pathetic trust in the understanding and pity of the great Father.
-But to die dishonestly for the good of your family, that was a different
-thing. Bob Dalyell, perhaps, was not a man who would attach any idea of
-guilt to this way of cheating the insurance companies, even his own
-office; but Wedderburn, who might have been capable of the sacrifice,
-would have stood at that. His idea of honour and probity was perhaps
-more abstract than that of a man who was involved in sharp business
-transactions, in speculation and commercial adventure, and who was,
-besides, a man with a family, bent upon saving them from ruin. He shook
-his head and acknowledged to himself that poor Bob was capable of not
-having taken that divergence from strict integrity into account. Had he
-made up his mind to die for his family he would not have considered the
-ease of the insurance companies. The thought of wronging them would have
-sat lightly on his soul.
-
-Mr. Wedderburn took from this self-discussion a habit which remained
-with him for all the rest of his life, the habit of shaking his head,
-slowly, sadly to himself, as it were, as if in the course of some
-remark. It was while he questioned, and doubted, and laid things
-together, excusing his friend even while he judged him, that this habit
-was acquired. It was not a bad habit for a lawyer who was consulted by
-his clients on many delicate questions. It gave an air of regretful
-decision, of compassion and sympathy, when he had conclusions to
-announce that were not pleasant to his clients. And he never lost this
-gesture of reflection and compassion, which was as sacred to Bob
-Dalyell as his tombstone. It was thus, with many a vexing doubt and
-fear, that he mourned the friend of his youth.
-
-The female members of the party were happily exempted from all these
-discussions. It does not often happen that the women have the lightest
-part to bear in any such calamity. But in this case it was so. Mrs.
-Dalyell mourned her husband most sincerely and deeply, forgetting every
-little flaw in his character, and gradually elevating him into the
-position of a perfect man--the best husband, the kindest father! And the
-girls mourned him with torrents of youthful tears, with a conviction
-that they never could smile again, never get beyond the blackness of the
-first grief, the awful sensation of the catastrophe. But there was
-nothing but pure sorrow in their minds. They thought no more of the
-insurance companies than the birds in the garden think of the crumbs
-miraculously provided for them when snow is on the ground. Neither had
-the slightest doubt ever entered their minds as to what they were told
-of his death. They knew every detail, laying it up in their hearts. How
-he had parted smiling from his friend at the corner of the street, and
-gone off to the sands with his buoyant step, in such health and
-strength, in such good-will and good-humour with all the world. This was
-what the girls said to themselves, trying to picture his last look upon
-life. And they hoped it was some unsuspected failure of the heart, which
-the doctor said was most likely--a thing which would give no pain, which
-would be over in a moment, so that he would never know he was dying, or
-have any pang of anxiety for those he was leaving behind. This was how
-the girls realised their father’s death: and their mother’s picture of
-it was not dissimilar. She felt that there must have been a moment in
-which he thought of her and of “the bairns.” Mrs. Dalyell added that to
-the imaginary scene--a moment in which, as people said was the case in
-drowning, all his life would rush through his brain, and he would think
-of her as he died. They had the best of it. Their innocent thoughts
-conceived no ulterior scheme, no darkness of doubt. Had they realised
-that any such doubt existed, it is probable that they would have
-canonised poor Robert Dalyell on the spot as a hero and martyr, dying
-for those he loved, and still never have thought of the insurance
-companies; but, happily, no such imagination entered at all into their
-simple thoughts.
-
-The household had settled down completely into the habits of its new
-life, when Fred Dalyell came home from a long wandering tour he had made
-about Europe, not so much for love of travelling or desire to see
-beautiful things and places, as to distract his mind from the miserable
-thoughts that had gained so complete an empire over him. He had
-succeeded very well in that, for the most persistent trouble yields to
-such treatment at twenty; but the first return to Yalton, and all the
-recollections that were waiting for him under those familiar trees,
-brought back on the first coming much of the old trouble to the lad’s
-sensitive mind. It was now May, and Yalton was almost as cheerful as
-ever, though in a subdued way. The girls, “poor things,” as their mother
-said, had recovered their spirits. They were so young!--and Fred’s
-coming home had been a thing much looked for, like the beginning of a
-new era to the young creatures over whom the winter of gloom was
-naturally passing away. Susie and Alice were much disappointed by the
-cloud that came over Fred after the first joy of their greetings.
-Instead of sitting with them and telling them everything, he
-disappeared on the first evening, with a sort of impatient, almost
-angry, resistance of their blandishments.
-
-“Oh, let me alone; I have a thousand things to think of,” he said,
-pushing them away as the manner of big brothers is. Susie and Alice
-forgave Fred when they saw the little red tip of his cigar on the
-terrace, and realised that he had gone there “to think of father.” For a
-moment it was debated between them whether one of them should not go to
-him to share his solitude and thoughts; but they decided, with a better
-inspiration, to leave him alone, and even withdrew delicately from the
-drawing-room window, not to seem to spy upon his sacred thoughts.
-
-“Oh, do you mind how papa used to go up and down, up and down?” said
-Alice to Susie.
-
-“Do I mind?” said Susie, half indignant. “Could I ever forget?” And they
-shed a few tears together, then hurried off to the table in the full
-light of the lamps, where Fred’s curiosities which he had brought home,
-and all his little presents, were laid out for inspection, and began to
-laugh and twitter over them, and compare this with that, like two
-birds.
-
-Yes, this was just the place where father had stood when he had suddenly
-changed the conversation about the bump-suppers, and all the joys of
-Oxford, to that strange and sober talk about the vicissitudes of life,
-and what a difference a day might make in the position of a happy lad at
-college, thinking of nothing but fun and frolic. Fred remembered every
-word, every look--the wail of the autumnal wind, the clear break of sky
-among the clouds towards the west, the half shock, half amusement, with
-which he had felt that sudden change into what in those days of levity
-he had called the didactic in his father’s tone. It had seemed to him a
-sermon at the time; and then it had seemed to him--he knew not what--an
-awful advertisement of what was coming: a prophecy conscious or
-unconscious. He walked up and down, up and down under the trees, hearing
-the same sounds, the tinkle of the half-choked fountain, the rustling of
-the wind among the branches. The sentiment of the night was different,
-for that had been in September, and this was full of the soft and
-hopeful stir of May. The leaves were falling then; now they were but
-just opened, hanging in clusters of vivid young green, which almost
-forced colour upon the paleness of the wistful night. But nothing else
-was as it had been then. His father was gone, swept from the earth as
-though he had never been. Yet this great change had not brought the
-other changes which Mr. Dalyell anticipated. Fred had not been forced
-into the premature development of a young head of the family. He had not
-been plunged into care and trouble, into work and anxiety. If anything,
-he had been more free than before. He was still only a youth dallying
-upon the edge of life, not a man entering into serious duties. The
-contrast struck him strangely. This was not what his father had
-foreseen. It gave him a vague new trouble in his mind to perceive that
-this was so. He ought to be less free, perhaps more occupied, more
-responsible. He could not all at once decide what the difference was.
-
-Here he was suddenly disturbed by the sound of a step upon the
-gravel--and it is to be feared that Fred uttered within himself an
-impatient exclamation, as he threw away the end of his cigar. “Here is
-one of those bothering girls,” he said to himself, though we know with
-what high reason and feeling Susie and Alice had withdrawn, even from
-the window, not to seem to spy upon their brother. He got up to meet
-them, remembering that he had just come home and that it would be brutal
-to show any impatience of their affection. But Fred might have known
-that the heavy, slow step which approached him was not that of either of
-the girls. A tall figure shaped itself out of the darkness--the white
-mutch, the bow of black ribbon, the checked shawl, became dimly visible.
-
-“Eh, Mr. Fred,” said old Janet, “but I’m blythe to see you home!”
-
-“Oh,” he said, “it’s you!” in a tone which was not encouraging. He had
-forgotten old Janet, happily, and it was with anything but pleasure that
-he felt her image thus thrust upon him again.
-
-“Who should it be but me?” she said. “There is none that can take such
-an interest. And, Mr. Fred, it is time you should be taking your ain
-place. This house of Yalton should go into no other hands but them it
-belongs to. Oh, I canna speak more plain; but you must rouse yourself
-up, and you must take your ain place.”
-
-“I don’t know what you have to do with it,” cried Fred angrily, “nor why
-you should thrust your advice upon me. I am here in my own place. What
-do you mean? I ought to be at Oxford, that would be my own place.”
-
-“Na, na! that would be just more schooling,” said Janet, “and it’s no
-schooling you want, but to stand up like a man, and be maister of your
-father’s house, as is your right. Oh, laddie, I tell you I canna speak
-more plain; but take you my word, it’ll save more trouble, and worse
-trouble, if you will just grip the reins in your hands and take your ain
-place!”
-
-He laughed contemptuously in his impatience and anger. “You had better
-save your advice for things you understand,” he said. “Don’t you know
-the law considers me an infant, and that I can do nothing till I’m of
-age--if there was anything to do? But all is going as well as can
-be--almost too well--as if he were not missed,” the young man cried
-abruptly with a movement of feeling, which indeed was momentary and had
-not come into his mind before. Perhaps it was an influence from the
-brain of the old woman beside him which sent it there now.
-
-“That’s just what I wanted to say,” said old Janet--“as if _he_ were not
-missed. All settled for her, and smoothed down and made fair and easy,
-as if _himsel_’ were to the fore. There’s trouble in the air, Mr. Fred,
-and if you dinna bestir yourself, and take your ain place, and get a
-grip of the reins in your ain hand----”
-
-“Rubbish!” said Fred. “How can I get the reins, till I come of age? If
-there was any need, which there is not, my mother knows better than half
-a dozen of me.”
-
-“Your mother!” said old Janet, with the natural contempt of an old
-servant for the mistress; then she added in a different tone: “if it was
-only your mother”--shaking her old head.
-
-“Who else?” said Fred with indignation. But Janet made no reply. She
-turned her back upon him and went off along the terrace, always shaking
-her head, which was slightly palsied and had a faint nodding motion
-besides. Something in this confirmed movement which was comic, and the
-jealousy of his mother, which had always been a well-known feature in
-old Janet, tended to give a ludicrous character to her appeal. Instead
-of deepening the sadness of his thoughts, it lightened them with a
-curious sense of relief. It seemed to take away at once the gravity of
-the recollection of his father’s reference to her, and the painful
-suggestion in it which had caused Fred so much trouble, when old Janet
-thus displayed herself in an absurd rather than a tragical light.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-
-Mr. Wedderburn entered very naturally into the charge of his friend’s
-affairs. He had been Dalyell’s counsellor already on many occasions in
-his life, and knew much about his concerns, the resources of the estate,
-and all the original sources of income which Dalyell had increased, yet
-fatally risked, by his speculations. No one was better fitted than he to
-apply the welcome aid of the insurance moneys to the relief of Yalton
-from all the encumbrances which the dead man’s other affairs had
-imported into his life. A man so familiar with the household and all its
-affairs, nobody could know so well as he how to guide the revenues of
-the household so as to afford their usual comforts to Mrs. Dalyell and
-the girls without injuring Fred’s interests, or forgetting the very near
-approach of the time when he should take the control into his own hands.
-It was evident that changes were inevitable then; either that Mrs.
-Dalyell should retire to a house of her own, or that she should remain
-as Fred’s housekeeper, with her authority contingent upon his plans,
-and liable to be destroyed whenever the young man should think of
-marriage--a position in which the faithful friend of the house was
-unwilling to contemplate the mistress of Yalton. It was not a thing that
-would have affected Mrs. Dalyell. It would not have occurred to her to
-think that the house was less hers by being Fred’s. But Mr. Wedderburn
-was jealous of her dignity, and it wounded a certain imaginative sense
-of fitness for which no one would have given the dry old lawyer
-credit--the notion that the woman whom he had so long admired and liked
-should be dependent on her boy’s caprice and whether it should please
-him or not to marry. The event which would make another change, so
-great, in her position, troubled him more than he could say. Was it not
-enough, he asked himself, that she should have had this shock to bear,
-and her life rent in two, that she should now have to yield all
-authority to Fred, and be dependent upon him for her home and dignity?
-The thought did not disturb Mrs. Dalyell, who felt it as natural to
-continue as before at the head of a house, which was no less hers
-because her son was now its formal head, as to perform any other act of
-life. But it did disturb her champion and guardian, who made it more and
-more his office from day to day to watch over her comfort and spare her
-trouble.
-
-It was astonishing how Pat Wedderburn, who had not for many years,
-indeed for all his independent life, known more of the sweets of
-domesticity than those which he shared at second-hand in the houses of
-his friends, and especially at Yalton, fell into the ways of the head of
-a family. He did not, indeed, come out to Yalton every night as poor
-Dalyell had done, but he spent at least half of his evenings there, and
-gave his mind to the consideration of what was wanted in the house, and
-what would be agreeable to both mother and girls, with a curious
-familiar devotion which was at once amusing and touching. No father
-probably ever was so mindful of the tastes of his children as Mr.
-Wedderburn was of Susie and Alice. He remembered what they liked, and
-noted every expression of a wish with an affectionate vigilance and
-thoughtfulness which surprised even the girls, though they were well
-accustomed to have their little caprices considered. As for Mrs.
-Dalyell, no wife ever had her likings more sedulously consulted, her
-suggestions more carefully carried out, than were hers by her
-co-executor, her trustee, and fellow-guardian of the children. She had
-but to speak to Mr. Wedderburn about any trifling obstacle and it was
-immediately removed out of their way. He regarded her wants and wishes
-as things which were sacred; not as a husband does, whose natural
-impulse it is to contest, if not to deny. Life had never been made so
-easy for the ladies of Yalton. When he came out it was almost certain
-that some pleasant surprise accompanied him--a book, a present,
-something that either girls or mother had wished for. And they all took
-Mr. Wedderburn as completely for granted as if this devotion had been
-the most natural thing in the world.
-
-And it would be impossible to describe the sweetness that came into the
-life of old Pat Wedderburn (as Edinburgh profanely called him) from this
-amateur performance, so to speak, of the duties of husband and father.
-He had long been in the habit of considering Yalton as a sort of home.
-But yet his visits there, though he was always so welcome, were more or
-less at the pleasure of his hosts, and he had kept up the form, though
-it was not much more than a form, of being invited. Now no such
-restraint (though it had never been much of a restraint) existed. He put
-a certain limit upon himself, but save for that the house of his wards
-was to him as his own, always open, always ready. They were all his
-wards, the mother not less than the children. It is true she was joined
-with him in the trust, and that she was a woman, as he said to himself,
-of a great deal of sense, who could give him advice upon many subjects,
-and even took or appeared to take an intelligent interest in
-investments, and knew whether the claims of the farmers were just, and
-what was right in respect to repairs, &c., better than Mr. Wedderburn
-himself. But she had never been accustomed to do anything for herself,
-to act independently, to take any step without advice and active help.
-It is impossible to say how pleasant it was to the middle-aged bachelor
-to be thus referred to at every moment asked about everything, consulted
-in every domestic contingency. He would not have minded even had he been
-called upon to settle difficulties with the servants, or subdue a
-refractory cook, nor would it have bored him to have a housekeeper’s
-afflictions in this way poured into his ears.
-
-Happily, however, in the large easy-going household at Yalton there were
-few difficulties of that kind. Mrs. Dalyell was an excellent manager,
-but she was not exacting, and her servants were chiefly old servants,
-who ruled the less permanent kitchen-maids, footboys, &c., under them
-with rods of iron, but did not trouble the mistress with their
-imperfections. When a house has been long established on such a footing,
-and there is no overwhelming necessity for economy, or interfering
-dispositions on the part of its head, it is wonderful how smoothly it
-will roll on, notwithstanding all human weaknesses. And the shadow of
-grief glided away. There could not have been a more desirable house, or
-a more pleasant routine of life. The very neighbourhood breathed peace
-into Wedderburn’s being. Before he had reached the gates the atmosphere
-of content enveloped him. He had something in his pocket for the
-girls--he had something to consult their mother about, generally her own
-business, but sometimes even his, so great a confidence was he acquiring
-in her common-sense. To think that the loss of poor Bob Dalyell should
-have brought so great an acquisition of happiness into his life! He was
-ashamed when he came to think of it, and felt a compunction as if he had
-profited by his friend’s disaster. But it was no fault of his.
-
-And there was no doubt that Mr. Wedderburn enjoyed Yalton and the life
-there a great deal more than if he had been really the father whose
-office as far as possible he had taken upon himself. He was not
-responsible for the faults or aggrieved by the imperfections of the
-children, as a man is to whom they belong. The very distance between
-them increased the charm. Although it would have been death to him to
-have been thrust out of that paradise, it would perhaps have lessened
-its charm had he been absolutely swept into it, bound to it, by law and
-necessity. The freedom of the voluntary tie added sweetness to the bond.
-He was far more at the orders of his adopted family than any father
-would have been; but that shyness of old bachelorhood, which is as real
-as the reserve of old maidenhood and very similar, though it is little
-remarked, was in no way ruffled or wounded by the present arrangement.
-And thus good came out of all the evil, to one at least of the little
-circle who had been so deeply affected by it. Poor Bob D’yell!--to think
-that he should have lost all this, and that his most devoted friend
-should have acquired it by his loss! This gave Mr. Wedderburn a
-compunction which was of course entirely fictitious and visionary--for
-had he not taken that position it would have been much worse for the
-family as well as for himself.
-
-This state of affairs was scarcely interrupted by Fred’s majority, for
-Fred, no more than any other member of the household, considered that it
-made any difference. Of course, in the progress of time he would marry,
-and probably desire to be as his father had been. But, in the meantime,
-he felt himself no less a boy on the morning after his twenty-first
-birthday than he had done the morning before; and the idea of taking the
-reins out of his mother’s hands or desiring more freedom than he
-actually possessed, especially the freedom of turning her out of the
-house which was now legally his, or disturbing any of her arrangements,
-never occurred to Fred. Young people brought up under such an easy sway
-as that of Mrs. Dalyell do not feel the temptation of rushing wildly
-into freedom as soon as it is legally their own. Fred had always been
-free, and he could not be more so, because his name was now at the head
-of all the family affairs, and Frederick Dalyell, Esq., was now the
-official proprietor at Yalton. What difference did it make? The family
-generally said none. Of course, Fred, as the only son and the eldest,
-would have been paramount in the house under any circumstances; he could
-not be more than paramount now. But it was not to Fred that Mrs. Dalyell
-looked for help and advice, any more than it had been before; this
-birthday did not add experience or wisdom to the boy. And Mr. Wedderburn
-came and went just the same, looking after Fred’s interests, spoiling
-the girls, always ready to be referred to. It made no difference, nor
-did anybody wish that it should, except perhaps old Janet, whose opinion
-was not thought much of, whom Fred avoided carefully, and whose very
-existence was scarcely realised by the adviser of the house. As for Fred
-himself, his troubled thoughts had worn themselves out. Whatever trouble
-there may be in the mind respecting a man who has been in his grave for
-more than a year, it dies away under the progress of gentle time. To
-keep up the pressure of such misery there must be new events occurring
-or to be dreaded. What is altogether past affects the spirit in a
-different way. If there was a tragic secret unrevealed in the story of
-Robert Dalyell’s death, it was hidden for ever in the bitter waves that
-had swallowed him up: and the course of his young life had gradually
-swept from Fred’s mind the burden of his father’s tragedy. He had
-decided to go back to Oxford at the end of the first year, and he was
-still continuing his unlaborious studies there when the second had
-ended, and October, with its shortening days and windy skies, returned
-again. The vacation had been a lively one to Fred, and Mrs. Dalyell had
-been obliged to come out of the seclusion of her widowhood on account of
-Susie, whose introduction to the world could not be postponed any
-longer. Mrs. Dalyell herself was not unwilling that it should be so. She
-was entirely contented in her home-life, yet pleased to vary it when
-need was, and the more smiling and brilliant side of things no longer
-jarred upon her feelings. And Susie, in all the fervour of her first
-season (though it was only in Edinburgh), was as happy as the day.
-
-Thus it was, upon a household as cheerful as could be seen, that the
-shadows began to lengthen in that October, a little before the end of
-the vacation, when Fred, who had exhausted his own covers with the
-assistance of his friends, was flitting about the country in a series of
-“last days” before he went back to his college. Fred’s friends of the
-shooting parties had made the house very gay for the girls, and Mr.
-Wedderburn had thought it expedient to “put in an appearance,” as he
-said, even more frequently than usual, to support Mrs. Dalyell and help
-to preserve the balance of the house. He came “out” four or five nights
-in the week to the house which became daily more and more like his home,
-and found a continually increasing charm in the sight of the pleasure of
-the young ones and in the company of their mother. While they were
-carrying on their amusements, he considered it only his duty to sit by
-Mrs. Dalyell and keep her as far as possible from feeling the blank of
-the empty place. They could talk to each other, as only old friends
-can--of the people and places they had mutually known all their lives,
-of the different dispositions of the children, of Robert, how pleased he
-would have been to see them so happy, of the beasts in the little
-home-farm; and of the new leases, and the new Lord of Session, and the
-Queen’s visit to Edinburgh, and everything indeed that came within the
-range of their kindly world. It was very pleasant: Mrs. Dalyell found it
-so, who was thus able to relieve her mind of any remark that occurred to
-her, which the young ones were too hasty or too much occupied to listen
-to; and Mr. Wedderburn liked it still better, feeling that he himself,
-who had never ventured to risk any of the great undertakings of life,
-had thus come to have the cream and perfection of quiet social comfort,
-without paying for it, without cost to himself or wrong to any one in
-life.
-
-On one such evening Mrs. Dalyell had been called away on some domestic
-errand, and Mr. Wedderburn, feeling thus a little left to himself,
-strolled out upon the terrace to look at the rising moon and to enjoy
-the softness of the evening, one of the last perhaps before the winter
-came on. It was a still night, and the temperature was high for the time
-of year. The country had been blazing in the sunlight with all the
-colours of the autumn, and even the moon brought out the yellow
-lightness in the waving birches, if not the russet reds and browns of
-the deeper foliage. Nothing could be more still: the sky resplendent,
-with here and there a puff of ethereal whiteness, a cloud scarcely to be
-called a cloud, imperceptibly floating upon a breeze that was scarcely
-to be called a breeze--a soft sigh of night air. It was so warm that he
-did not hesitate to sit down, though at fifty-seven one is cautions
-about sitting down in the open-air in October, even in the day. But the
-night was very soft, and so were Mr. Wedderburn’s thoughts. It cannot be
-said they were sentimental, much less impassioned. He wanted no more
-than he possessed, the loving kindness of this house, the affection of
-the children, the friendship and trust of their mother. He was entirely
-satisfied to come and go, to feel that he was of use to them, to enjoy
-their society. A great sense of well-being filled his mind as he sat
-there and heard the sound of their young voices gay and sweet coming
-from the billiard-room, where Fred and a friend or two were amusing the
-girls. There was something like a suggestion that more might come of
-that partnership of jest and play which was springing up between pretty
-Susie and one of these young men--dear little Susie!--who had given up
-her big words, but whom her father’s friend still corrected and petted
-with fatherly tenderness. If it were possible to feel more fatherly than
-old Pat Wedderburn, the dry old Edinburgh lawyer, felt as he sat there
-and smiled in the dark at the sound of Susie’s voice, I do not know what
-that quintessence of paternity could be.
-
-He was thus sitting in quiet enjoyment of the solitude (which is so much
-sweeter a thing with the sense of the near vicinity of those we love
-than when we are really alone) and his own thoughts, when he saw, as
-Fred had done on a previous occasion, a tall figure rise as it were out
-of the soil and approach through the dark--a shadow, but with that
-independent movement of a living creature which is so instantly
-distinguishable from any combination of shadows. Mr. Wedderburn was not
-superstitious, but the figure as it came slowly towards him was one
-which he did not recognise, and he was astonished at its intrusion here.
-He rose up to intercept it--whether it was an unlawful visitor prowling
-round perhaps to see the handiest way of entry into an unsuspicious
-house, or some lover bound for a rendezvous, or some servant come out
-unconscious of observation to take the air. But the new-comer was not
-afraid of his observation, and he now made out that it was a large old
-woman in her checked shawl and white cap. Even then Mr. Wedderburn did
-not recognise the old woman, with whose appearance he was but slightly
-acquainted. She stopped when they met and made him a slow curtsey,
-leaning upon a stick. It was too dark for him to see her face.
-
-“Did you want anything with me, my woman?” said Mr. Wedderburn.
-
-“Ay, sir,” she said, “I just do that. You’ll maybe not know me. I’m
-Janet Macalister, that was nurse to Mr. Robert D’yell.”
-
-“I have often heard of you,” said Mr. Wedderburn, “and I am glad to see
-you, Janet; not that I do see you, for the night’s dark. And this is not
-an hour for you to be out at your years. If you have anything to say to
-me we would be better in the library or the hall.”
-
-“Sir,” said Janet, “what I have to say is not for any place where we can
-be seen. I came out here that naebody might suspect I took such a thing
-upon me; and yet I’m forced to it--though I canna tell you why.”
-
-“This sounds very mysterious,” said Mr. Wedderburn; “but I hope there’s
-nothing very wrong.”
-
-“Mr. Wedderburn,” said Janet, “you’re very often at our house.”
-
-“Eh!” cried Mr. Wedderburn, in amazement, “at your house? Oh, you mean
-at Yalton, I suppose. And have you any objections to that?”
-
-“Yes, sir,” said Janet firmly, “the greatest of objections. Do you not
-know, Mr. Wedderburn, that the mistress is still but a young woman (to
-have such a family), and that she is a widow with naebody to defend her
-good name--and here are you, a marriageable man, haunting her house
-every night of your life. Bide a moment, sir, and listen to me. Oh, it’s
-nothing to laugh at--it’s just very serious. You are here morning, noon,
-and night”--(here there was a murmur from the unfortunate man of “No,
-no! not so bad as that”)--“and I ask ye to take your ain sense and
-judgment to your help and tell me what folk will think that sees that?”
-
-“Think!” faltered Mr. Wedderburn. “Woman, you must have taken leave of
-your senses. What is it you mean?--and what should they think but that
-I’m the friend of the family and a very attached one, and that it’s my
-business to be here?”
-
-“Oh, sir, ye’ll not content your ain judgment with that, far less the
-rest of the world! It’s no business that brings ye here. Ye come because
-you’re fain and fond to come. I am the oldest person about the house,
-and it would ill become me to see my bairn’s wife put in a wrong
-position, and never say a word. Sir, the mistress is a bonnie and a
-pleasant woman.”
-
-“I have nothing to say against that.”
-
-“And no age to speak of. And you yoursel’ what are ye? Comparatively
-speaking, a young man.”
-
-“Comparatively in the furthest sense. I am much obliged to you, Janet.”
-
-“Don’t think, sir,” said Janet, solemnly, “that you can carry it off
-with a laugh. I will not see the mistress put in a wrong position, and
-never say a word. It may be want of thought; but you must see, if you
-consider, that she’s not like a young lass to be courted and married.
-And still less is she one to be made a talk of in all the country side.
-I will not have my mistress exposed to detractions, and none to the
-fore to put a stop to them!” said Janet with excitement, striking her
-staff on the gravel.
-
-Mr. Wedderburn stood, feeling the old woman tower over him with her
-palsied head and threatening air; he was half angry, half amused, wholly
-discomfited and startled. The situation was ludicrous, and yet it was
-embarrassing. To be startled out of the happiness of his thoughts by
-such an interruption, brought to book by an old servant, warned as it
-were off the premises by the nurse, was almost too whimsical and absurd
-a position to be treated as serious; and yet there was an uncomfortable
-reality at the bottom which he could not elude.
-
-“Janet,” he said, “my woman--do you not think you are going a little too
-far? I was just as often at this house when Robert D’yell himself was
-here.”
-
-“No, Mr. Wedderburn, not half so often.”
-
-“Nonsense, woman, much more often! and in any way I am not answerable to
-you. The last thing I could think of,” he added in a troubled tone,
-“would be to--would be---- You are daft, Janet! I’m their trustee and
-the nearest of their friends; how dare you say a word about my visits?
-I will say nothing to your mistress, but I must request you to refrain
-from such remarks, or else----”
-
-“Sir,” cried Janet, “you needna threaten me, for you’re not the master
-here!”
-
-“No, I am not the master here,” said Mr. Wedderburn; “but if you think
-anybody will have encouragement to set up ill stories about---- No,” he
-said, checking himself, “I will not blame you with that. You’ve made a
-mistake; but no doubt your meaning was good--only never let me hear it
-any more.”
-
-“Oh, sir,” cried Janet, “the human heart’s an awfu’ deceitful thing. I
-could find it in my heart to go down on my knees, and beg you--oh, for
-the Lord’s sake!--to go away before there’s any harm done from this
-misfortunate house.”
-
-“The woman’s daft!” cried Mr. Wedderburn.
-
-But it gave him a dazed and troubled look when he appeared in the
-drawing-room some time later. He was very silent all the rest of the
-evening, sometimes casting an almost furtive look round him from one
-face to another; sometimes red, sometimes pale. Once or twice he broke
-out into a curious laugh when there seemed little occasion for it. “I
-am afraid you have taken cold, Mr. Wedderburn; it was too late to be
-sitting out on an October night,” said Mrs. Dalyell.
-
-“I don’t think I’ve taken cold--but I think I’ll return to my room, with
-your kind permission, for I have some things to plan out,” said the
-lawyer. It was so unlike him that they all agreed something must be the
-matter. Had he got bad news? Had he been troubled about business?
-“Perhaps he had taken something that had disagreed with him,” Mrs.
-Dalyell suggested. Whatever it was, he was not like himself.
-
-No, he was very unlike himself. He gave a shame-faced look in the glass
-when he went to his room, and burst out into a low, long laugh. “I’m a
-pretty person!” he said to himself. And then he became suddenly
-grave--graver, almost, than he had ever been in all his serious life.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-
-It was not until Fred Dalyell’s return from Oxford in the spring that he
-became aware of the rumour which had already begun to spread through the
-neighbourhood and to be discussed in the Edinburgh drawing-rooms, that
-his mother was about to marry again. He had seen when he returned home
-that the girls were a little overcast and subdued, and that there was a
-little flush as of uneasiness and embarrassment on Mrs. Dalyell’s face.
-It is difficult at first for a long absent member of a family coming
-back, to find such a cloud in the air, to discover whether this is only
-the moment of a storm, whether it means some trifling disagreement--for
-trifles become great in the inclosure of the household walls--or whether
-something important and fundamental is intimated by these restrained
-phrases and averted looks. He thought that perhaps there had been a
-“breeze,” that Susie was getting into the wilful stage, and, distracted
-by hopes and prospects of her own, had been opposing or defying her
-mother; that the tenants had been troublesome, backward on rent-day, or
-bothering about those eternal repairs, which he wondered that old
-Wedderburn could allow to worry his mother. But this did not seem enough
-to account for the visible but unexplained trouble in the house. When he
-caught Susie by the arm and drew her aside to ask, “What’s the matter?”
-she shook off his hand with a cry of “Oh, don’t ask me, Fred,” and
-escaped from him, leaving him more bewildered than ever. What could it
-mean? It seemed to the young man that they all avoided him on this first
-evening of his return. His mother did not call him into her room to ask
-those minute and repeated questions with which mothers are so apt to
-tease their boys. “Oh, confound it! Now I am going to be put through my
-catechism!” he said usually, when he was called to one of these
-examinations; but its omission gave him a shock which was still more
-disagreeable. Could it be possible that his mother did not want to see
-him alone, and that the girls were afraid to be questioned by him? Fred
-felt very uncomfortable, without the faintest notion what could be the
-cause of it, when he perceived this constrained condition of the house.
-Then it suddenly occurred to him that old Pat Wedderburn, as he was
-generally and profanely called, had not come to meet him as had
-invariably been the case till now.
-
-“By the by,” he cried, “I felt that something was wanting, but I
-couldn’t make out what it was. What has become of old Pat?”
-
-“You should speak a little more respectfully, Fred, of our oldest
-friend,” said his mother reproachfully; but she did not look at him, and
-the flush grew deeper on her face, which was bent over her work. As for
-Susie, she pushed her chair away, and almost turned her back upon her
-mother. Fred immediately divined that old Pat had been objecting to some
-of Susie’s flirtations, which was odd, as Susie was known to be his
-favourite of all.
-
-“Oh, I’m respectful enough,” he said. “I don’t mean any harm. The house
-doesn’t seem natural without him. Why isn’t he here to-night?”
-
-“He has not been with us quite so much of late,” said Mrs. Dalyell,
-never lifting her eyes from her work; “but he is coming out to-morrow,
-and he will tell you himself, Fred.”
-
-“Has anything gone wrong?” he asked amazed; for the girls, whose voices
-generally ran chattering through everything, and who on an ordinary
-occasion would have thrown in half-a-dozen remarks, sat still as two
-stone images, Susie with her head averted, Alice buried in a book, which
-she held between her and the light.
-
-“I request,” said Mrs. Dalyell, in a voice somewhat high-pitched and
-imperative, as if she expected to encounter opposition, “that there be
-no more about it till to-morrow night.”
-
-“Oh, if it is me you mean, mamma, you may be sure there will be no more
-about it--till Doomsday--from me!”
-
-“Susie!” cried her brother in amazement. But Susie’s only reply was to
-burst from the room in a flush of rage and opposition, such as Fred had
-never seen in his quiet home before. Alice followed her quickly, and the
-young man thought that now at last there was some chance of having it
-out. “I suppose,” he said, “that old Pat has been at her for
-flirting--the little pussy that she has grown.”
-
-But before he had finished his little speech Mrs. Dalyell, too, had
-risen from her chair, and, standing with her back to him, was putting
-her work away.
-
-“You must excuse me,” she said, “my dear boy, if I don’t enter into it
-to-night. I’m--a little tired and put out. I must go and look after
-those girls; and though it’s your first night at home, it’s late, and I
-don’t think I shall come down again. After your journey, Fred, you
-should go early to bed.”
-
-“After my journey!” he cried with angry dismay. “What has my journey to
-do with it? But never mind, mother, if you’re tired. I’ll come to your
-room, and have a talk over the fire.”
-
-“Not to-night,” she said, and kissed him. She lingered a moment, patting
-him on the shoulder with her hand. “I know it must seem strange to you,
-Fred--but not to-night, not to-night.”
-
-As a matter of fact, the least imaginative of lookers-on will allow that
-the position of a middle-aged mother who has to tell her grown-up son
-that she is going to marry again must be an embarrassing one. Mrs.
-Dalyell was not like a girl expecting ecstatic happiness in the union
-with the man she loves. It was an arrangement which had come to seem
-natural, partly because she wanted someone to lean upon, and
-ill-natured gossips (as she heard) objected to that constant, easy,
-unembarrassing presence of the household friend, which she and her
-children had found so comfortable--without the existence of some closer
-bond. She would rather honestly have had Mr. Wedderburn on his old
-footing; but, if she could not have him on his old footing, it was
-better to marry him than to lose him. This had been the unimpassioned
-fashion of Mrs. Dalyell’s thoughts. And he wished it. A man, it
-appeared, even at fifty-seven, could not content himself with the
-friendship which was quite enough for a woman. Perhaps she was a little
-flattered to know that this was so, and that in her mature matronhood
-she still had charms. And she had thought, as he assured her, that it
-would draw the family bonds closer and make so little difference. The
-chief difference would be that he would come of right, instead of only
-for love, and that the interests of her family would be his own, not
-only much more than his own, as they were at present. It had seemed very
-plausible, as he set all the advantages forth, which indeed Pat
-Wedderburn had done, not only to calm her scruples, but also his own;
-for, had she but known it, he too was very well contented with the
-existing position of affairs. But if Mrs. Dalyell had known the trouble
-it would have given her--the wild vexation of the girls, and the
-horrible necessity of having to tell Fred! No, that last was what she
-could not do. She had intended to do it on his return, but her courage
-had failed her. Tell your grown-up son that you are going to marry! No,
-no, she could not do it. And when two years had not yet elapsed from his
-father’s death! “Oh,” she said to herself, “it was no wrong to Robert!
-Oh, no, no wrong to Robert! It was a different thing, not to be thought
-of in the same way.” But still, when it came to the point, she could not
-do it, it was beyond her power.
-
-Fred could not tell what to think: he was angry and vexed and cast down
-by the strange reception he had received. The first night at home, which
-was always so pleasant, the girls hanging about him with a hundred
-things to ask and to tell, his mother beaming with affection and
-pleasure on her united family. And here he was left alone, the lamps
-burning with a sort of calm intelligence as if they knew all about it,
-the clock chuckling at him on the mantel-piece. Foggo came in with the
-tea-tray, and looked round in astonishment for the ladies, then shook
-his head solemnly and went away, leaving the little silver kettle
-boiling over its spirit-lamp. Foggo knew too. The very kettle puffed out
-its steam in Fred’s face like a mockery. Everybody knew--except the
-forlorn young master of the house, who knew nothing, and could not even
-form a guess what the mystery could be.
-
-He was not however destined to spend that night in uncertainty. As he
-went upstairs, passing with a sense of injury the closed doors of his
-mother’s and his sisters’ rooms, Fred heard himself called in a whisper
-from the end of the corridor. Had he reflected for a moment he would
-have known who it must be. But with his mind full of his present trouble
-he did not reflect; he turned round quickly, hoping to see one of his
-sisters, and it was not till he found himself in the clutches of old
-Janet that he recognised the danger of her interference. “Has she told
-ye, Mr. Fred?” whispered the old woman, approaching her formidable head
-in the big mutch, and with its little palsied movement, to the young
-man’s face. “Told me what?” he cried with impatience. “Oh, my bonnie
-lad, dinna lose your temper--you’ll have need of all your patience.
-That she’s going to be married upon Pat Wedderburn!”
-
-Fred gave a hoarse cry, which ran along the whole corridor into his
-mother’s closed room, who heard it and trembled--and to Susie’s, who sat
-half desperate over her fire longing for her brother. Not for a moment
-did Fred doubt the news: it explained everything; but he fled from the
-creature of ill-omen, the woman who gave it, with a sense of hatred and
-rage, for which indeed there was no warrant so far as she was concerned.
-“This is your doing!” he cried with fantastic bitterness. Why should he
-hate Janet, and how could it be her doing? he asked himself afterwards.
-But at the moment it seemed to the distracted young man as if this old
-retainer was one of the Fates, the enemy, not the friend of the house.
-He would not wait to hear another word, but rushed upstairs and shut
-himself in his room, as if some evil thing had been at his heels.
-Married!--his mother, his father’s wife, the first authority of his
-life--the woman without reproach--mamma! With that last baby-cry the cup
-was filled. The young man flung himself upon his face on his bed. And
-what an unhappy house it was which the darkness held that night
-concealed in its outer mantle of peace! Unhappy without any cause, for
-there was no evil going to be done--no harm: so far as any of these
-troubled people knew.
-
-Mr. Wedderburn, who came “out” next day with an embarrassment not less
-than that of Mrs. Dalyell, was roused a little by the desperate
-self-repression with which Fred received the official announcement. “My
-boy,” he said, “it may vex you that there should be any change, but what
-we are doing is no wrong to you--nor to any man.”
-
-“I have not said it was,” said Fred sullenly.
-
-“No, you have not said it was--but you seem to think it’s an
-unpardonable step. It is nothing of the kind,” said Mr. Wedderburn,
-indignant. “The time will come when you will think fit to marry, and
-then your mother will be turned out of her house; and that will seem the
-most natural thing in the world. Why should she not have one by her side
-that will make her comfort his care? Your father would have wished it.
-She’s not a person to stand alone to fight with the world.”
-
-“She has her children.”
-
-“Her children! Susie, who will have a husband of her own as soon as the
-lad has enough to live on; and Alice, who will follow her sister’s
-example; and you--when are you here to keep your mother company? A month
-in the vacations when the house is full--and a marriage whenever it
-strikes your fancy, with her turned adrift. No, no, my young man! You
-may not like it, you may scorn both her and me for it. But that
-face!--as if you were wronged and shamed. Come, come, Fred, that’s not
-an air to put on with an old and faithful friend like me.”
-
-“I know you are a faithful friend,” cried the young man resentfully. “I
-never doubted you for a moment.”
-
-“But never dreamed that I would push my devotion so far? Well, I have
-done it, you see. And it’s your business, my young man, to make the best
-of it, and accept what all the powers on earth shall not prevent, I
-promise you,” cried the old lawyer with some heat. There were many
-people throughout Scotland who were aware that it was not a safe thing
-to go too far with old Pat Wedderburn.
-
-Mrs. Dalyell, however, insisted upon one thing--that the marriage should
-not take place until two years after her husband’s death, so that there
-were yet several months of discomfort to get through. However it might
-end, there could be little doubt that in the meantime an element of
-extreme discomfort was brought into the house. Mr. Wedderburn, whose
-happiness had been to spend half the evenings of his life at Yalton,
-came less frequently and was not happy when he came. Susie had turned
-into a little firebrand, all the more disdainful and offended by her
-mother’s intentions that she was on the eve of a similar change in her
-own person. Little Alice swayed from one party to the other, sometimes
-impertinent, sometimes mournful. The step which was to bring additional
-happiness in the end (or so it is the conventional necessity to suppose)
-in the meantime brought nothing but discord, division and doubt, and
-made the entire party unhappy. How much better, even the two principals
-secretly thought in their hearts, to have gone on in the old happy
-routine as things were!
-
-Fred came home again in June after various wanderings, visits here and
-there. He intended to go away before the marriage, and in the existing
-state of circumstances to make as short a stay as he could at Yalton,
-from which his mother meant to remove after this event, leaving the
-house to be taken possession of by her son. Naturally it was not a very
-joyful visit: the mother held her domestic place with a kind of
-unsmiling composure, doing everything as before, ignoring as much as
-possible the difference in her children’s faces; and a little polite
-conversation went on between those who had been so happily united, and
-twittered and chattered like the birds a few months before. Mrs. Dalyell
-would not allow herself to be moved, would not show the impatience which
-possessed her, kept firm with an immovable steadiness, letting the young
-ones go and come without remark. It was more difficult for them, who
-could not ignore her, and whose foolish young hearts were eagerly bent
-on sending little darts into her, saying things between themselves which
-she could scarcely resent, yet which went to her heart. And the girls
-would drag their brother to the other end of the long drawing-room,
-hanging one on each arm, talking low in his ear, while their mother sat
-at the table by the lamp, apparently taking no notice. They were very
-cruel to her, chiefly in ignorance, resenting the fact that she did not
-mind, and unable to feel any human charity for her, as she sat there
-isolated, conscious of their conspiracy against her. Mrs. Dalyell’s
-spirit was roused a little by this persecution. She had been doubtful
-enough of the expediency of what she was about to do from the first, but
-she became more and more determined to hold to her resolution as they
-thus united against her: and--what she never thought could have been the
-case--began to long for the day when she should be delivered from this
-domestic tyranny and once more breathe freely in an atmosphere where she
-would not be constrained. Thus it may be supposed there was little
-comfort one way or another in the troubled house; and it became the
-order of the day to make the evening as short as possible, to go to bed
-early, to finish upon any terms, at the earliest moment, the dreary,
-unattractive evening hours.
-
-Fred was following the little line of ladies with their candles up the
-stairs, when he was once more stopped, but this time openly, by old
-Janet. She came to the edge of the great staircase in her nodding mutch
-and checked shawl. “Will you give me two or three minutes, Mr. Fred,”
-she said.
-
-“For what do you want two or three minutes? I have no time at present,”
-he said quickly, for Susie, who was nearest to him in the procession,
-had stopped upon the stairs, holding up her candle and looking back upon
-him. She was like a picture, with her light held up and falling upon her
-white dress.
-
-“But you must come,” said Janet in a shrill whisper. “You must come.
-Remember what your father said--and this time it’s a matter of life and
-death.”
-
-“How do you know what my father said?”
-
-“Ay, that’s a question. Come with me, my bonnie man--oh, come with me
-and you shall know all.”
-
-Susie stood like a little light-bearer holding up the candle. “Who are
-you talking to there, Fred, in the dark?”
-
-“No one,” he said, with the prompt unconscious impulse of a child
-accused.
-
-“No one! Why, it’s Janet. Oh, is that all?” said Susie. She lowered her
-light at once and turned away with the profoundest indifference. The
-sight of Janet conveyed no sense of excitement or mystery to the girl
-who saw her every day.
-
-Fred obeyed the old woman sulkily and with the greatest reluctance. He
-would not have done so at all had not Susie seen her. But he could not
-show to Susie that he had any reluctance to speak to old Janet, whom the
-younger members of the family had always held by against all the
-objections of the younger servants. He went mechanically after her, with
-a strong return of that resentment which he had felt against his father
-for the recommendation to consult her. It was grievous to be made to
-think of that at such a moment, when his father had become more sacred
-to him than ever, in face of the desecrating change that was about to
-take place, the injury to that beloved memory. It was the only grievance
-Fred had against his father. He tried to force it from his mind, to have
-patience with the old woman as he followed her. She belonged to _him_.
-She had been faithful to him all his life. Perhaps she wanted to make
-sure that she should be provided for when his mother left the place,
-when Yalton was in his possession alone. Oh, certainly she should be
-provided for, till her last hour! The only one that was faithful to
-_him_. Neither friend nor wife had been faithful to him, but his old
-nurse was faithful. She was sacred to his son for his sake.
-
-Fred made his heart soft with these thoughts; he overcame his own
-opposition almost altogether, partly with the sentiment of the nurse’s
-faithfulness, partly with his resentment against the others; and he was
-ready when he found himself in Janet’s room, face to face with her in
-the light of her lamp, to offer her any assurance of his protection and
-certainty she might require as to her living and her home. Janet,
-however, put no question to him on any such score. She shut the door and
-came up close to him in the lamp-light. “Mr. Fred,” she said, “you maun
-take courage, my bonnie man. There are dreadful things to be said to you
-to-night. Just summon all your strength and read that.”
-
-Fred started at the sight of the paper she put before his eyes. “I see,”
-he said, “it is my father’s writing. But you need not show me any
-letter. He told me himself, the day before he died----”
-
-“Oh, laddie, laddie! take it and read it before I go out o’ my senses,”
-Janet cried.
-
-He took the paper into his hands. His father’s handwriting, there could
-be no doubt; but no suspicion of the truth was in Fred’s mind. He
-glanced over it, and thought to himself that he had gone out of his
-senses, as Janet said, or had lost himself in some incoherent dream. “My
-wife’s marriage must be stopped.” What did that mean? A man who died two
-years ago, how could he write about an event of to-day? Was he going
-mad? Was he in a dream? Was it some delusion which she had put by
-witchcraft before his eyes? “My wife’s marriage must be stopped.” “How
-could he know?” he asked with blanched lips. “How could he tell there
-would be a marriage?” He turned upon her a face blank of all expression,
-pale, in a horror of enlightenment about to come.
-
-“Oh, boy, boy! cannot ye see?” cried Janet. She put forth a long
-trembling finger and thrust it at the paper, pointing to the date. Fred
-looked and read. He read it a second time aloud, a strange terror
-growing upon him: “June 3, 18--.” “Why,” he said, “why----.” Then,
-stammering and stumbling over the words, broke down. “Why, why,” he
-began again with a laugh, “we cannot all be mad and going to Bedlam!
-It’s this year: June 3, 18--.”
-
-The old woman grasped him by both his hands. “It’s this year--and we’re
-no mad, though often, often I’ve felt on the edge of it. We’re no mad,”
-she repeated, “and it’s this year, and the man that wrote that is in the
-house this blessed night, Mr. Fred!”
-
-God help the lad! He had but turned his black and terrible countenance
-upon her, holding the letter helplessly in his hands, when there sounded
-through the house, cutting the silence like a knife, a sudden wild cry,
-a shriek, lasting only for a second, but piercing to the heart of the
-night, to the heart of the house, like some sudden horrible event. It
-was followed almost immediately after by a rush of muffled feet along
-the passage: the door was pushed open violently, yet silently, and
-someone came in like a shot from a pistol, as sudden and unexpected.
-Fred felt himself shrink towards the wall in his horror and amaze. It
-was a man who had come in--a man with a beard which covered half his
-face, yet showed a curious kind of smile coming out of the midst of it,
-though the eyes were full of an almost tragic seriousness. Fred had
-fallen back against the wall as this new-comer appeared. The room swam
-round and round in his eyes, a darkness came over him, he saw nothing
-for a moment: then slowly came to himself, and saw again, within reach
-of him, so near that he could have touched him, this man--whom he had
-never seen before. Oh, could he but have been sure that he had never
-seen him before! His heart stopped beating--and then with a flutter and
-a spring went on again, as if it would have leaped out of his breast.
-The shock of the supernatural, the horror of an awful discovery, came
-into the young man’s brain and almost paralysed it as they clashed
-together. Ah, had it been but the supernatural! But as that face emerged
-out of the mist, Fred saw that it was that of a living man--and that he
-heard it talking--_it_--as living men do.
-
-“You have told him, Janet?”
-
-“No a moment too soon--just as you were coming. Let the laddie be, let
-him come to himself. And what was it you were doing? Did she--or
-you----?”
-
-“I have given her a fright that will put a stop to that,” he said, with
-a strange laugh, hard and harsh: and then he flung himself into a chair,
-throwing off a dark cloak in which he had been wrapped from head to
-foot. He added after a moment with a groan, “The way of transgressors is
-hard!” and hid his face in his hands.
-
-Fred had not moved nor said a word, neither had this strange intruder,
-save for one glance, taken any notice of him. The young man stood up
-against the wall, supporting himself by it in a sort of conscious swoon
-and suspense of being. A moment is like an hour in such a horror of
-discovery; the idea that was too dreadful to entertain becomes possible,
-certain, familiar, before you have had time to draw a second breath. His
-father not dead--not a shameful suicide to cheat the insurance companies
-as his son had once feared--but a still more shameful survivor, having
-cheated them, having saved his family and cleared his name by the most
-dreadful, the most false of frauds, the most tremendous of lies. Fred’s
-whole being surged up like a stormy sea in fierce and violent reaction
-as soon as he got command again of his stunned faculties--he who had
-suffered so much misery from the thought that his father had taken his
-own life in his despair, but who had of late become so tender of his
-memory, so indignant with those who forgot or were faithless to him! And
-lo, all his pangs were unnecessary, all his love deceived, and here was
-the man, living!--a swindler, and a cheat, worse than a bankrupt--having
-saved his reputation and the comfort of his family by a cheat, the
-worst of frauds, the most disgraceful. Fred had been ready to defy the
-world for his father when he came upstairs that evening. He turned now
-with loathing from the name. Father! What did the word mean?--a cheat, a
-swindler, the most prodigious and incredible of liars. The youth was
-hard, as youth is, stern and inexorable. He took nothing into account,
-neither the motive nor the tremendous sacrifice involved, nor least of
-all the thought that he himself had profited by this dreadful act.
-Profited?--he?--Fred? His first act must be to denounce the fraud, to
-offer restitution. The man should escape first--that he would allow, but
-no more.
-
-Old Janet came up to him and laid her hand upon his shoulder. “Oh, Mr.
-Fred, are you not going to say a word to him?--not a word of kindness?
-Oh, Mr. Fred, your father! that has sacrificed just everything in the
-world.”
-
-“I have no father,” said Fred hoarsely. “My father is dead.”
-
-The unfortunate man raised his head from his hands, and the familiar
-eyes, the eyes that had smiled upon the boy’s childhood, but which
-smiled no more, tragic in the misery of a renunciation which was more
-bitter--but, alas! not honourable like death--turned towards the stern
-and angry boy with a strange look, not of appeal, but of surprise. The
-offender knew very well all that was involved to himself in what he had
-done. He knew that it cut him off as a living man from all knowledge of
-his family, from all possibility of reunion--that he was dead and worse,
-so far as old surroundings were concerned; but he was not prepared for
-his son’s stern condemnation. He had anticipated wonder,
-consternation--but, oh, surely some touch of pleasure in seeing him
-restored from the dead, some burst of welcome from Fred! He uncovered
-his face and looked with a ghastly astonishment at the son who thus cast
-him off without a word.
-
-“Maister Freddie, for God’s sake! think what you are saying. Speak a
-word to him!”
-
-“I have nothing to say,” said Fred. “I will make the truth known in a
-week from this time--if it is the truth. I will be no party to a fraud.
-I loved my father that died, and his memory, but I can be no party to a
-fraud. In a week’s time----”
-
-The stranger never said a word; he sat gazing with things unutterable
-in his eyes, wonder above all. His boy! it was cruel, barbarous,
-inhuman; but--this strange visitor did not condemn the youth. He looked
-at him with an inconceivable surprise--his boy--Fred! He did not make
-any protest, but sat up, strangely awakened--wondering: even the object
-of his visit fading in comparison with this shock for which he was not
-prepared.
-
-All this time there had been sounds of rushing footsteps and ringing of
-bells through the house, the commotion of some sudden event breaking
-into the quiet of the night. And then came a distant sound of Susie’s
-voice, calling: “Fred! Fred!” The young man’s heart was rent with
-passionate emotion, such as he had never known in his life before.
-
-“Nobody must come in here,” he said, “to find a stranger in the house.
-If my mother has been frightened, I will tell her. But not if I can help
-it. Now, the only thing remaining for me is to make the truth
-known--when----” He paused. He could not address that dreadful spectre
-directly; his heart was bitter within him at the man who had thus killed
-for ever his father’s memory, the ideal which he had cherished in his
-father’s name. “When----he has decided what to do.”
-
-There was a dreadful pause in Janet’s room when the young man went away.
-Then the stranger said in a musing tone: “So that’s what Fred has come
-to in a couple of years. You see, Janet, you have not been so successful
-as you thought.”
-
-“Oh, my man, oh, my bonnie man! the callant is just distracted with
-wonder and fear.”
-
-“There’s more in it than that--and he’s right, Janet. We were wrong, you
-and I. And I must just abide the consequences. I’ll lie down on your bed
-for an hour or two, if you’re sure it’s safe. And then I’ll take the
-gate. It will be for ever this time, you can tell that boy. I’ll neither
-make nor meddle more; and if he’s wise he’ll let sleeping dogs lie.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-
-Robert Dalyell stole forth from the house which was his own, yet could
-never more be his, in what would have been the dead of night had it been
-any other season but June and any place but a northern country. It was
-already daylight, with a pearl-like radiance as of spiritual day, and
-something more mystic and almost awful in the silence of night, combined
-with this diffusion of lovely light, than any darkness could have been.
-He seemed to see the great spreading landscape like a picture, with his
-own single and solitary figure in it, with a momentary terror of himself
-alone in that great surrounding silence. He was not afraid of being
-seen, as he was when he had stolen under cover of the brief darkness
-into the house; but it occurred to him that anybody who should look out
-of a curtained window or from the crevice of a closed shutter, and see
-him walking along at an hour when nobody was abroad, would be afraid of
-him as an unnatural wanderer in the wide brightness which was night. He
-was in point of fact a ghost, as he had been believed to be--a man with
-no place or meaning in the world, with his name upon a funeral tablet,
-and his place knowing him no more; and like a ghost he passed through
-the pale diffused light which cast no shadow. Never man was in a
-position more strange and cruel. He had made the sacrifice of his life,
-not as his son and his friend had feared, by suicide, but in a more
-dreadful way. He had put himself to death, and yet he lived. The man had
-been in this living death for nearly two years. He had lost
-everything--himself, his name, and his personal identity, as well as
-wife and children, and home and living. And yet he had never fully
-realised what it was till now. Something of the Bohemian, something of
-the adventurer in the man, which had been hidden under the most decorous
-exterior for nearly fifty years, had made that curious new start in
-existence almost amusing to him in its absolute novelty and relief from
-the long monotony of usual life.
-
-Even his sudden going home, with the object of frightening his wife out
-of a marriage which would have been no marriage, had something of the
-character of a jest in it. But there was no longer any jest in the
-matter. He had seen his wife, he had seen his son, and he was at last
-aware of what it was he had done--the darker aspect of it--the dishonour
-to others, the deadly extinction of himself, the end of everything which
-he had accomplished, almost with a light heart. A ghost indeed,
-offending the eyes and chilling the very soul of those who were most
-near and dear to him. “A swindler,” the boy had said. Was he a swindler?
-To be sure the insurance offices would never have paid that money had
-they known; but surely he had paid the price for it. He had died to all
-intents and purposes. He had given himself for his children--a living
-sacrifice--not less, but more than if he had really died and been thrown
-up by the sea, as everybody believed, on Portobello sands. It is hard to
-see guilt in a transaction, not for your own advantage, for which you
-have given your life. Robert Dalyell did not blame his son; he could
-perceive that there was much in what Fred said, though his heart swelled
-in his breast against that injustice. He was not angry with Fred, but
-much impressed, and moved (strangely enough) to something like
-satisfaction by his son’s demeanour. The boy was a good boy, wounded in
-his honour, and therefore inexorable, but only as a good man would wish
-his boy to be. He was glad Fred was an honourable fellow, feeling it
-like that. Poor Dalyell himself had all the instincts and habits of mind
-of an honourable man; he had not seen the dishonour in it; he had
-thought that, giving his life for it as he had done, there was nothing
-morally wrong in his act. Surely he had bought the money dear: it was
-not for him; it was for them, and for their good. There they were, all
-of them--the wife who was about to give him a successor within two
-years, and the boy who was himself his successor--safe in Yalton,
-honoured, respected, enjoying the position to which they were born:
-while he was an outcast, without anything but what he made for himself,
-and the boy called him a swindler! He was an honest boy for all that,
-and Dalyell’s mind had a certain forlorn satisfaction in it: though a
-more forlorn being than he, walking, walking like a ghost through that
-morning light which began in its pearly paleness to warm to the rising
-of the sun, could not be. It was wonderful at what leisure he was, in
-the utter forlornness of his being, to think of them all. He was not
-sorry that he had given himself to save them. The only thing he was
-sorry for was that, being dead, he had interfered at all. He ought to
-have gone upon his own way--married, too, as he might have done, and got
-himself new ties in his new life. He believed now that there would have
-been no harm in that. There would be no harm in it. He would get away as
-quickly as it was practicable, and get back to his new world, and this
-time he would feel himself really emancipated. He would think no more of
-the bonds of the past. She should be free to marry if she liked, and so
-would he. This old world and he had nothing to do with each other any
-more.
-
-The foolish thing was that he had come at all on this fool’s errand. It
-was all the old woman’s fault. It had been weak of him to let her into
-his secret, to keep himself up with news of home, to be moved by her
-horror at this marriage. Why should not she marry if she wished to do
-so? She had been a good wife to him, and he had made her a widow. He had
-known that she was not a woman who could act for herself, that she was
-one who must have a caretaker, a manager of external matters? Why should
-he interfere with her? It was all that confounded old woman’s scruples.
-But Dalyell decided that he would interfere no more, that he would go
-back whence he came and marry too, and thus justify his wife. The man’s
-heart was very heavy in his breast when he made this resolution; but yet
-he had a great courage, and was determined to stand up against fate and
-get a new life for himself, being thus horribly, hopelessly cut off from
-the old. The boy would not carry out his threat if he disappeared thus,
-and was heard of no more. And all would be well with them, all would go
-right, as he had meant it should when he gave up his life.
-
-By this time the sun had risen, the birds had begun to twitter and hold
-their morning conversations about all the business of life before it was
-time to tune up for the concert of the day. Where was he going? He had
-left such things as he had brought with him at a little lonely wayside
-public-house near the sea before he went to Yalton, but it was still too
-early to get admittance there. He found himself on the shore before he
-knew. Yalton was not above a few miles from the sea, or rather from the
-Firth in its upper part, not far from the spot where that monstrous
-prodigy of science, about which so many trumpets have been blown, the
-Forth Bridge, now strides hideous across the lovely inlet--those golden
-gates through which the westering sun was wont to stream unbroken from
-the upper reaches of the great estuary upon the stronger tides below.
-Dalyell came out upon it suddenly, forgetting in the intense
-preoccupation of his thoughts where he was. The sun had risen beyond the
-distant Grampians, touching the Fife villages all along the coast with
-gold. The air was damp, yet sweet with the saltness of the sea in it,
-and the breath of distance and the sensation of the vast unknown to
-which this great, splendid ocean pathway was one of the ways. When
-Dalyell came out thus upon the shore he was the one speck of animated
-being in the whole still world. He sat down to rest for a little upon a
-rock. At three o’clock in the morning there is nothing stirring, not
-even the cattle, though they were waking and thinking of an early
-breakfast in the fields. He sat there and noted, and thought over it all
-again. He was very forlorn, but not angry with anybody, scarcely vexed
-by the thought that he was so soon forgotten. He even laughed a little
-at the thought of Pat Wedderburn. How had he got himself the length of
-that idea of marrying? He divined old Pat’s thoughts, a little troubled
-by the necessity, going bravely through it. He had no sense of
-resentment towards any of them. As soon as there was any one stirring
-about the “Dun Cow” he would steal in and get his things and some
-breakfast, and take himself off at once and for ever--never, whatever
-happened, to interfere again.
-
-But in the meantime there was some time to wait, and the sun was growing
-warmer every moment, and the tide was in, and the little wavelets
-rippling along the shore. Baths were not luxuries known at the “Dun
-Cow,” and here was the bath he liked best, ready before him. It would be
-the last time he would ever bathe in his native waters. He slipped out
-of his clothes, laid them in a little heap, without even thinking how on
-one supreme occasion he had done that before, and plunging from the
-nearest rock launched himself into the sea and sunshine. It would brace
-him up for the journeys and troubles of the day.
-
-Dalyell swam about for some time, and dived and sported in the water
-like a boy, with a curious sudden lightness of heart. He could not make
-up his mind to come out of the water. And the northern seas are cold at
-three o’clock (getting on for four) in the morning, with the sun not yet
-very strong, and but newly risen. What it was that happened there was no
-one to tell. Perhaps it was the shock of the night’s proceedings, though
-he had reasoned it away, which struck to his heart--perhaps it was the
-cold of the water--it might be a cramp, which, had there been any one
-near to help, would have been of little consequence. None of these
-things would any one ever know. It was said afterwards that a cry was
-heard, piercing the sober stillness of the morning, so that somebody
-woke and got up at the “Dun Cow,” but finding no sign of harm, went to
-bed again for another hour. And it is certainly true that the minister
-woke in his manse, which is near the shore, and got up and opened his
-window, and remarked upon the beauty of the morning, and the wonderful
-delightful calm and brightness of the Firth. He thought after that it
-must have been the drowning man’s cry that woke him, though he was not
-conscious of the sound itself.
-
-Thus, with the strangest repetition, all the incidents of Dalyell’s
-fictitious drowning were reproduced; and it did not fail to be remarked
-in the papers that the accident up the Firth was singularly like the
-accident that had happened nearly two years before to Mr. Dalyell, of
-Yalton, on Portobello sands. It was a remarkable coincidence: but the
-sufferer in this case, it was added, was a stranger, who had arrived at
-the “Dun Cow” the night before, and was supposed to be a foreigner. The
-body was found among the rocks, as if he had made a despairing grip upon
-the seaweeds that covered them to save himself, from which it was judged
-that the misadventure was wholly accidental; but, naturally, all was
-conjecture, and this was a thing that never could be known.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-
-Fred went to his mother’s room, about which an agitated crowd had
-already gathered, the two girls and their maid, and an anxious domestic
-or two from downstairs, besides Mrs. Dalyell’s own maid, who was with
-her mistress. Foggo stood outside on the staircase, anxious to know if
-he should go for the doctor, and still more anxious to know what had
-happened, for there was already a conviction in the house that it was
-not mere illness which had produced that shriek which startled
-everybody. Mrs. Dalyell was not the kind of woman to shriek from
-physical pain, and there had been a whisper in the house that the
-horseman had been heard in the avenue, which, naturally, was a
-preparation for trouble. Fred, however, was not admitted till some time
-later, of which the poor young fellow was glad: for he was in no
-condition to meet his mother in the nervous and excited state in which
-she must be, while he himself was so shaken and miserable from the same
-cause. He went to his own room and endeavoured there to calm himself,
-and thrust away the appalling question that was now before him. How
-lately he had said to himself that his father’s previsions had all been
-mistaken, and instead of having to take upon himself the anxieties and
-cares of the head of the house, to break off his studies and turn his
-thoughts to the grave side of life, he had only been more free, more
-independent, than before, since he had succeeded his father as Dalyell
-of Yalton. Ah! but who could have thought of this, this further chapter
-of disaster, unimaginable, incurable, which would involve the name of
-Dalyell of Yalton in dishonour and shame--the name his ancestors had
-borne in credit and pride, the name that poverty and ruin could not have
-stained, but which must now perish amid records of deceit and fraud.
-Fred’s very heart seemed to shrink and wither up within him when he
-thought of what he had now to do. It would be his to put the stamp of
-shame upon that name--to expose the whole disgraceful story, the
-dishonest means by which downfall had been staved off, only to fall more
-dreadfully upon the unhappy and innocent now. No, he must not palter
-with right and wrong, he must not allow any sentiment of pity either
-for the criminal or for himself to steal in. The criminal! Now that Fred
-had time to think, that criminal--whose very name he could not endure to
-think of--whom he had denounced and disowned with such force and almost
-hatred--had looked at him, oh, with such fatherly eyes! He had scarcely
-said anything, not a word in his own defence. Fred felt that if he had
-stayed another minute his courage would have failed him, and the old
-dear familiar image would have regained its power. The criminal!--worse
-than a fraudulent bankrupt, almost worse than a suicide, and yet so
-like--oh, so like----! Oh, he must not think, he must not allow himself
-to fail in his duty. In a week’s time--that was what he had said--to
-give full time for that fugitive to escape, that he might not be taken
-or injured, or brought to justice. In a week’s time! There must be no
-paltering with duty. It was clear before him what he had to do.
-
-And then there began to pluck as it were at the skirts of Fred’s mind
-thoughts of what this thing was, of what it must have cost. Had not the
-man died, had he not more than died? It was not suicide, but it was
-worse. He had given his life while still a living man. Strange words
-crept into Fred’s mind, which did not come there of themselves, as if
-some one had thrown them into the surging sea of passion and pain which
-was within him. Greater love hath no man than this. Oh, silence,
-silence! these words were said of another, a greater--one Divine.
-Greater love hath no man than this: they came back and back: as if they
-could be applied to a man who was a sinner, who had committed a fraud,
-and deceived his fellow men! Had he deceived them? Had he not died? Died
-more terribly, more completely than the man in the family grave in
-Yalton churchyard, who was not Robert Dalyell. Which would one choose if
-one had to choose? Surely the home in the churchyard, the tablet on the
-wall--and not the life of an outcast, the death in life of a man who had
-no identity, who had neither name nor fame. Fred’s young soul was rent
-asunder by these thoughts. There had been no relenting in him, no pity.
-But now outraged nature avenged herself. Oh, how cruel he had been, how
-harsh!--not a word of kindness in him, not a softening touch. And he
-ought not to think of nature now, he ought not to be moved by kindness.
-He ought to subdue all relenting. In a week’s time! He must set his
-face like brass. He must think of nothing that could make him fail.
-
-It was late when Fred was called to his mother, and he went down as
-timid as a child called to an interview of which it knows nothing, but
-that it must involve terrific consequences. He had looked at himself
-anxiously in the glass before he obeyed the summons, wishing that he
-knew some way of making himself look less pale, his eyes less excited.
-The girls knew ways of doing this, Fred believed, but he did not know.
-He plunged his head into cold water to relieve the heaviness and heat he
-felt, as of something bursting from his forehead; and then he went
-downstairs, slowly labouring to collect his thoughts to think what he
-should say. Mrs. Dalyell was in bed, her head with the background of the
-red curtains looking at the first glance almost ghastly, her face very
-pale, her eyes excited like his own. She grasped him by both hands and
-made him sit down by her. The candles were still burning, but a faint
-glimmer of blue showed between the curtains. She kept holding his hand,
-but it was a minute or two before she spoke.
-
-“Fred, do you know if I said anything? What did I say? What did they
-tell you? Did they say that I----?” She gasped for breath, and could not
-finish the sentence, but did so with her eyes and with the pressure of
-her hand.
-
-“I heard nothing, mother, but that you fainted.”
-
-She pressed his hand tightly again and said, “I didn’t faint. I let them
-think so--to conceal--Though I was scarcely conscious of what I was
-doing, I felt it gleam through me that to let them think I was
-unconscious was best. But I never was unconscious for a moment,
-Fred--you understand what I am saying?--nor was I asleep, nor could I
-have been dreaming. You hear what I am saying, Fred?”
-
-“Yes, mother: but don’t, for heaven’s sake, excite yourself; it may make
-you ill again.”
-
-“What will make me ill? I want you to understand. I’ve not been ill,
-only--that they might have no suspicion. Fred, above all things I want
-you to understand that I am in my full senses, meaning every word I
-say.”
-
-“Yes, mother,” he said, pressing her hand.
-
-She renewed her grip upon it, as if she were holding fast to something
-lest she should be carried away. “Well!” she said, with a long-drawn
-breath. Then looking him fall in the eyes as if to defy
-misunderstanding: “Fred,” she said, “I have seen your father!”
-
-“Mother!” he cried.
-
-“Hush--this was what I was afraid of--that you would think me out of my
-senses. Look at me. I am not calm, perhaps, but I am as steady as you
-are.” (That was not saying much; but absorbed in her own extraordinary
-sensations, Mrs. Dalyell fortunately did not notice Fred.) “I was not
-thinking of him, nor even questioning as I sometimes do. I was more
-quiet than usual: when, just there, where the curtain is, I saw your
-father!”
-
-“You must have been over-excited, mother, though you did not know it. My
-coming home and the girls’ talk--and all of us making ourselves
-disagreeable--without knowing it your mind must have----”
-
-“My mind was quite calm. I made allowance for you children. I could have
-sympathised with you. But don’t go away with any such idea. I saw your
-father--as plain as I ever saw him in my life.”
-
-What could Fred say? He patted her hand to soothe her, and shook his
-head gently; he could not trust himself to speak.
-
-“It all passed in a moment,” she went on. “He said something. I feel
-sure he used the word marriage, but I was too much startled to make out,
-and I was so foolish as to give that cry. I can’t tell you what a
-dreadful feeling came upon me. I am not a woman to scream, but I could
-not help it. And he disappeared, and they all came rushing in.”
-
-“It must have been an optical illusion, mother--that’s what they call
-those sort of things. You were disturbed by all of us, and your
-imagination got excited.”
-
-“Don’t speak such nonsense to me. I saw your father as I see you. Fred,
-that’s not half I’ve got to tell you.” She closed her fingers more and
-more closely upon his hand, and drew him close to her. “He was changed,”
-she said almost in a whisper. “He was not as he used to be.” She put her
-face nearer to her son’s. “An apparition would have been nothing in
-comparison. It would have been not wonderful, considering everything.
-But this: Fred”--she drew him quite close and her fingers were upon his
-hand like iron--“Fred, your father had grown a beard!”
-
-“Mother!” he cried again.
-
-“You think I’m mad, and I don’t wonder: but there’s more in what I say
-than you think, Fred: a man who was dead could not do that. Fred, find
-me words. I don’t know what to say. There is more in this than we know.”
-
-They looked at each other, the eyes of the one shooting light and
-meaning into those of the other. How could the boy stand the keen
-scrutiny of his mother’s eyes? He faltered before her and tried to avert
-them, but failed. At last he faltered, “Mother! I think your guess is
-right!”
-
-She seized him by the shoulder with her other hand and shook him in the
-vehemence of her passion. “Have you known this all along? Have you known
-and never said a word?”
-
-“No,” he said; “how could you think it? Could I have been a party to a
-fraud? But I saw him too--to-night.”
-
-Mrs. Dalyell’s hands relaxed; she fell back upon her pillow, and,
-covering her face with her hands, began to cry and moan. “Oh, how shall
-I ever look him in the face! How shall I ever look him in the face!”
-
-Fred was prepared for many things on his mother’s part. He was prepared
-to see her burst into indignation like his own; he could have understood
-her stern and angry, or he could have understood her grieved and
-miserable. He could even have understood it--had she been unreasonably
-and foolishly glad. But ashamed, asking how she could look him in the
-face!--this was beyond the knowledge of her son. After a little she
-calmed down and said with the echo of a sob, “We will have something to
-forgive each other--on both sides.”
-
-“Mother,” cried Fred, “do you realise all the difference it will make?”
-
-She was silent for a moment, with a flush upon her face. “Oh, my dear,”
-she cried, with a look of awe, “how can we ever be sufficiently thankful
-that we knew in time!”
-
-This was all she could think of, it seemed; and poor young Fred had to
-return to his own troubled thoughts by himself without help from his
-mother. She entertained, it would seem, no doubt as to her duty towards
-her husband. The fraud did not weigh on her mind. He had come back--that
-was all.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-
-In the afternoon of the miserable day which had begun in this wise, Fred
-was sitting alone, trying to come to some conclusion in the crowd of his
-unhappy thoughts. His mother had been able to rest after her agitation,
-and sleep, but had sent for him again early to ask for his father--where
-he was in the meantime, and when he was coming home? It had better, she
-thought, be got over as quietly as possible, and all the friends
-informed. Mr. Wedderburn was always fond of Robert: he would take it
-very quietly; he would see that the less said the better for all
-parties. Her mind was full of these thoughts. She had arranged
-everything in her mind. There would be much to forgive--on both
-sides--which perhaps on the whole was better than had it been entirely
-on one. As for business matters, Mrs. Dalyell was aware there must be
-troubles; but fortunately this was not her share of the business. Robert
-and Mr. Wedderburn would settle these things. It all seemed so simple
-as she put it, that Fred withdrew again with a sort of artificial calm
-in his spirit, but had no sooner been alone for ten minutes than the
-hurlyburly began over again. What was he to do? Inform the insurance
-companies? But what could be done to raise the necessary money? Throw
-Yalton into the market--or what? Anyhow, it must be ruin, whether the
-father came home or disappeared again; anyhow, his own happy career was
-over, and nothing but trouble was to come.
-
-In the meantime he did not know where his father was, or what had become
-of him, and he had not yet the courage to question Janet, who no doubt
-knew. Janet was at the bottom of it all. For all he could tell, it might
-be she who had first suggested that dreadful expedient out of which all
-this misery came. Oh! had the family been but ruined honestly,
-naturally, two years ago! Fred felt, like a child, that it must be that
-wretched old woman’s fault all through, and he could not subdue his mind
-to the extent of asking her for information. It would come, he felt
-sure, in good time.
-
-And so it did: that afternoon Foggo entered the library where his young
-master was sitting, with a very mysterious air, and informed him that
-there was “one” who desired to speak with him. Fred’s heart leapt to his
-mouth, for his thoughts were bent solely on his father, and it seemed
-certain that it could be no other than he.
-
-“A gentleman,” he added faintly, “with a beard?” It was the only
-description he could venture upon.
-
-“No, Mr. Fred, not a gentleman at all--John Saunderson from the ‘Dun
-Cow.’”
-
-“John Saunderson from the ‘Dun Cow’?”
-
-“It was to speak about something that had happened. He said that if the
-young laird would have the kindness to step out at the gate--he’s no
-just in trim for a grand house, and he would like to speak to yourself
-in a private way.”
-
-“Bring him here, then, Foggo.”
-
-“No, Mr. Fred: he would take it far kinder if you would just step out to
-the gate.”
-
-And this was what Fred finally did. He found the landlord of the “Dun
-Cow” exceedingly embarrassed, not knowing how to begin his story. He
-took off his blue bonnet at the sight of Fred, and began to twirl it
-round and round in his hands.
-
-“It’s about an accident that’s happened,” said John.
-
-“Do you want me to do anything? I’m very much occupied; if it’s anything
-Foggo could do----”
-
-“Na, it’s not Foggo I want” (he said Foggy, after the fashion of his
-locality), “it’s just yoursel’. There was a gentleman came to lodge in
-my house last night. We whiles get a stranger--that’s not very
-particular.”
-
-“A gentleman?”
-
-“A gentleman with a beard.” The man eyed Fred very closely, who did not
-know what to reply.
-
-“Yes,” he said, with a little catch of his breath, “and what then?”
-
-“The gentleman must have gone down, so far as we can see, very early to
-take a bath in the sea. Nobody heard him go out. My own idea is he never
-was in after he got his supper. He first went to the door for a smoke,
-and my impression is----”
-
-“What happened?” said Fred. His mouth was so dry he could scarcely
-speak.
-
-“He must have gone into the sea to take a bath awfu’ early in the
-morning, before we were up. The wife she thought she heard a cry about
-four o’clock, and I got up, for she gave me no peace, and looked about
-and saw nothing. But later there was one came running and said a man’s
-clo’es were on the sands, close by some rocks--just for all the world as
-they were that time, ye mind, Mr. D’yell, when your father was lost. I
-just took to my heels and ran all the way to the sands. And there was
-his clo’es, sure enough.”
-
-“The man?” Fred gasped again.
-
-“They got him after a bittie, with his hands clasped full of the
-seaweed, and his knee raised up upon a rock. He must have made a fight,
-poor gentleman, for his life. Na, I see what you are thinking: it was
-nae suicide. He had got up his knee upon a bit of rock, and his hands
-were full of the weeds--nasty slimy unprofitable things.” There was a
-pause, and the man lowered his voice a little significantly before he
-said, “I would like much, Mr. Frederick, if you would come down and see
-him.”
-
-Fred was not able to speak. He shrank more than he could say from this
-dreadful sight. He shook his head in the impulse of his panic and
-horror.
-
-“Sir,” said the man, “I’ve known your father, Mr. Robert D’yell, Yalton,
-man and boy, for more than forty year. If I didna know he had been
-drowned two years ago I would say yon was him.”
-
-It was with difficulty Fred found his voice: “I think that I know who it
-was. It was a--near relation.”
-
-“Ah, I can well believe that,” said John Saunderson. He was something of
-a genealogist himself, as so many people of his class are in country
-life, and he threw a hasty backward glance over the scions of the house
-of Yalton, which he had known all his life, and settled within himself
-that there was no such near relation, no cousin that ever he had heard
-of. He did not say this, nor his own profound conviction as to the
-drowned man.
-
-“A man,” said Fred, “that we had thought to be dead--for years. He
-frightened my mother with the likeness you speak of, and I am afraid he
-did not get a good reception. Oh, Saunderson, you are sure it was not a
-suicide?”
-
-“So far as I could judge--no. I am not surprised,” said Saunderson,
-“that the mistress was terrified. It gave me a kind of a shock. ‘Lord
-bless me,’ I said, and then I just held my peace, for I would not be one
-to raise a scandal on the house of Yalton. But my ostler, confound him,
-has a long tongue.”
-
-“I’m much obliged to you,” said Fred. “I’ll come down.”
-
-And there he saw, on the poor bed in the “Dun Cow,” surrounded by the
-few rustic houses about, all excited and discussing the tragedy, his
-father, at last hushed and safe, seized by the death which he had
-cheated once, but could not cheat a second time. The dreadful drowning
-look had departed from his face; he lay tranquil and calm, like a man
-who had died in his bed, who had never wronged either man or woman. Whom
-had he wronged? Perhaps the insurance companies--no one else. And Fred
-at length came to the conclusion that there was now no occasion to
-disturb the insurance companies. It had come to pass at last--the event
-which had been supposed to be accomplished long ago. There was no reason
-now for the confession he had intended, no need to expose his father’s
-deception, to betray the secret of the house. Fred could scarcely
-reconcile himself to the fact that this was so. It cost him a great deal
-of trouble to make up his mind that his business now--now that all was
-over, and his father gone for ever--was to be silent for ever. Mr.
-Wedderburn had been summoned, and this was his advice, as well as the
-almost imperious command of Fred’s mother. To throw a stain upon her
-husband’s name was intolerable to Mrs. Dalyell--to attract attention to
-the house and explain its secret history. She said, with tears, yet with
-indignation, that it should not, it must not be. And old Pat Wedderburn,
-who was strangely moved by the story, and who said not a word in blame
-of his friend, supported her strongly. “They would have had to give the
-money now, if not then,” he said, “and it’s not your part to open the
-question. Let it alone. Let him rest in his grave at last--poor Bob! And
-I hope in my presence no one will ever say an ill word of Bob D’yell.”
-
-There was a tear in the old lawyer’s eye. Perhaps he understood it best
-of the three, though the other two were wife and son. Fred’s statement
-that the drowned man was a relation made it possible to lay him in the
-Yalton vault after all--his last and rightful home. Who the other was,
-who had received that sad hospitality in the name of Robert Dalyell of
-Yalton, they never knew, nor was it necessary to inquire.
-
-Somehow, however, there was no more question of Mrs. Dalyell’s marriage.
-Neither bride or bridegroom ever spoke of it again. And Mr. Wedderburn
-resumed something of the old easy relations after a while, and presided
-at Susie’s marriage, and was the best friend of the house, as he had
-always been. It was a conclusion which on the whole they all felt to be
-the best.
-
-
- THE END.
-
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-<p class="cb">TWO STORIES
-<br /><br /><br />
-BY<br />
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-MRS. OLIPHANT<br /><br />
-&mdash;&mdash;&mdash;<br />
-“<i>We have wrought no new deliverance in the earth</i>”<br />
-&mdash;&mdash;&mdash;<br />
-<br />
-<br />G.&nbsp; P. &nbsp; PUTNAM’S SONS<br />
-NEW YORK &amp; LONDON<br />
-<span class="eng">The Knickerbocker Press</span><br />
-1897<br /><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_002" id="page_002"></a>{2}</span><small>
-<br /><br />
-<span class="smcap">Copyright, 1897</span><br />
-BY<br />
-G. P. PUTNAM’S SONS<br /><br />
-<span class="eng">The Knickerbocker Press, New York</span></small></p>
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-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_003" id="page_003"></a>{3}</span></p>
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-<h2><a name="CONTENTS" id="CONTENTS"></a>CONTENTS.</h2>
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-<tr><td valign="top"><a href="#A_PREFACE">A PREFACE: ON THE EBB TIDE</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_007">7</a></td></tr>
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-<tr><td valign="top"><a href="#MR_SANDFORD">MR. SANDFORD</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_021">21</a></td></tr>
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-<tr><td valign="top"><a href="#THE_WONDERFUL_HISTORY">THE WONDERFUL HISTORY OF MR. ROBERT DALYELL</a></td><td class="rt" valign="bottom"><a href="#page_149">149</a></td></tr>
-</table>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_004" id="page_004"></a>{4}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_005" id="page_005"></a>{5}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_006" id="page_006"></a>{6}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_007" id="page_007"></a>{7}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<h1>THE WAYS OF LIFE.</h1>
-
-<h2><a name="A_PREFACE" id="A_PREFACE"></a>A PREFACE.<br /><br />
-ON THE EBB TIDE.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">I do</span> not pretend to say that the two stories included in this volume are
-conscious or intentional studies of the phase of human experience which
-I can describe in no other way than by calling it the ebb, in
-contradistinction to that tide in the affairs of men which we all know
-is, to those who can identify and seize it, the great turning-point of
-life, and leads on to fortune. But they were at least produced under the
-influence of the strange discovery which a man makes when he finds
-himself carried away by the retiring waters, no longer coming in upon
-the top of the wave, but going out. This does not necessarily mean the
-decline of life, the approach of age, or any natural crisis, but
-something more poignant&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_008" id="page_008"></a>{8}</span>the wonderful and overwhelming revelation
-which one time or other comes to most people, that their career,
-whatever it may have been, has come to a stop: that such successes as
-they may have achieved are over, and that henceforward they must
-accustom themselves to the thought of going out with the tide. It is a
-very startling discovery to one who has perhaps been going with a
-tolerably full sail, without any consciousness of weakened energies or
-failing power; and it usually is as sudden as it is strange, a thing
-unforeseen by the sufferer himself, though probably other people have
-already found it out, and traced the steps of its approach. Writers of
-fiction, and those whose work it is to realise and exhibit, as far as in
-them lies, the vicissitudes and alterations of life, are more usually
-employed in illustrating the advance of that tide&mdash;in showing how it is
-caught or lost, and with what an impetus, and what accompaniments it
-flings itself higher and higher up upon the beach, with the sunshine
-triumphant in the whirl of the big wave as it turns over and breaks into
-foam, and the flood claps its hands with a rejoicing noise. But yet the
-ebb has its poetry, too; the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_009" id="page_009"></a>{9}</span> colours are more sombre, the sentiment is
-different. The flood which in its rise seemed almost individual,
-pervaded by something like conscious life of force and pleasure, becomes
-like an abstract relentless fate when it pours back into the deep gulf
-of a sea of forgetfulness, with a rush of whitened pebbles dragged from
-the beach, or a long expanse of uncovered sands left bare, studded with
-slippery fragments of rock and the bones of shipwrecked boats. These are
-no more than symbols of the rising and falling again of human feeling,
-which, in all its phases, is of the highest interest to those who
-recognise, even in its imaginary developments, a shadow of their own.</p>
-
-<p>The moment when we first perceive that our individual tide has turned is
-one which few persons will find it possible to forget. We look on with a
-piteous surprise to see our little triumphs, our not-little hopes, the
-future we had still believed in, the past in which we thought our name
-and fame would still be to the good, whatever happened, all floating out
-to sea to be lost there, out of sight of men. In the morning all might
-seem as sure to go on for ever&mdash;that is, for our time, which means the
-same thing&mdash;as the sky over<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_010" id="page_010"></a>{10}</span> us, or the earth beneath our feet; but
-before evening there was a different story, and the tide was in full
-retreat, carrying with it both convictions of the past and hope in the
-future, not only our little laurels, all tossed and withered, and our
-little projects, but also the very heart of exertion, our confidence in
-ourselves and providence. The discovery comes in many different ways&mdash;in
-the unresponsive silence which greets an orator who once was interrupted
-by perpetual cheers, in the publishing of a book which drops and is
-never heard of more, or, as in the present case, the unsold pictures:
-and in the changed accent with which the fickle public pronounces a once
-favoured name.</p>
-
-<p>There are some who salute this discovery with outcries of indignation
-and refusal to believe. They think, like the French, that they are
-betrayed, or, like many of us, that an enemy has done this: a malignant
-critic perhaps, an ill-disposed publisher or dealer: and save their own
-pride by putting forth explanations, and persuading themselves, if
-nobody else, that the thing is temporary and an accident, or else that
-it is due to cruel fate, and the machinations of evil-hearted<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_011" id="page_011"></a>{11}</span> men. But
-when, amid the gifts of the artist, be they small or great, he happens
-to retain the clearer reason, the common-sense of ordinary intelligence,
-it is more difficult to take refuge in such self-deceptions, merciful
-expedients of Nature as they may be to blind us to our own misfortunes.
-The reasonable man has the worst of it in such cases. It is less
-possible for him to believe in a mysterious fate or in malign
-influences. He is obliged to allow to himself that the going out of the
-tide is as natural as its coming in, and that he is no way exempted from
-the operation of those laws which affect human reputation and comfort as
-much as the rising and the falling affect the winds and the seas.</p>
-
-<p>These problems of the common life, though they are perhaps less
-cheerful, are surely as fit subjects for fiction as are the easier
-difficulties of youth. It is common to say that all the stories have
-been told and every complication exhausted, so that we can do nothing
-but repeat the old themes over again, with such variety of treatment as
-our halting genius can suggest. Romance itself, they say, is gone, which
-is an assertion strenuously contradicted by the most powerful of our
-young<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_012" id="page_012"></a>{12}</span> writers, Mr. Rudyard Kipling, who replies to it in very energetic
-tones, that, Here is a steam-engine, which is Romance incarnate, the
-great poetry of form and purpose, a creation, as distinct as Hamlet or
-Lear, a big, dutiful, but exigent giant which a touch can turn into a
-destroyer, but loving guidance into the most useful servant and friend
-of man. The tramp of its mighty feet across the wastes of the sea,
-bringing the man home to his wife, the son to his mother, is poetry, is
-joy to this eager spirit. I am disposed in moderation to accept the
-belief of the young author who has a most broad and manful perception of
-life as something more than love-making, and to acknowledge the
-mysterious monstrous thing which he makes heroic. To show in his
-masterful way how every consenting part of the big machine as it clanks
-on with large unwieldy steps, so many beats to a minute, sounds a note
-in the symphony of life and service, a voice in the great strain of song
-which rises from earth to heaven, is more worthy than all the unsavoury
-romances of all the decadents. Would not St. Francis, had he lived to
-see it, have called to Brother Iron and Brother Steel,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_013" id="page_013"></a>{13}</span> strong henchmen
-of God, and Sister Steam, with her wreaths of snow, though her voice be
-not sweet, to join the song of the Creatures in honour of the Maker, as
-he called upon fire and water in his famous hymn? or that older minstrel
-in the ancient ages, to whom “snow and vapour, wind and storms
-fulfilling His word,” were already members of the great choir? It must
-be added, however, when all is said, that it is the grimy engineer
-behind watching every valve and guiding every stroke who makes the
-romance of the machine, as interesting in his way as Romeo, who, though
-he is the perennial hero, and attracts the greatest general interest, is
-not so much of a man.</p>
-
-<p>I have often felt while sick or sorry, and craving a little rational
-entertainment and distraction&mdash;which, in my opinion, it is one of the
-highest aims of the novelist to supply&mdash;that the everlasting treatment
-of the primary problem of youth, as if there was no other in the world,
-was at once fatiguing to the reader and injudicious on the part of the
-writer. When we want to be taken out of ourselves by the lively
-presentment of other people’s difficulties and troubles, it is tiresome
-to be always turned back to the disappointments<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_014" id="page_014"></a>{14}</span> or the successes of
-eighteen, or&mdash;in deference to the different standard of age held to be
-interesting by this generation&mdash;let us say five-and-twenty. I do not in
-the least deny the great advantages of that episode in life for
-treatment in fiction. It is almost the only episode which comes to a
-distinct, while it may be, at the same time, a cheerful, end; and its
-popularity is obvious: and it is a subject which women, who form the
-bulk of readers of fiction, are rarely tired of; all of which points are
-important. The elder writers made it the chief thread in the web of
-fancy, but surrounded the young people with plenty of fathers and
-mothers, neighbours and servants, doctors, clergymen, lawyers, etc., and
-all the paraphernalia of common life. But I weary of the two by
-themselves, or almost by themselves, as happens so often; and if the
-artifices, with which we are so familiar, by which they are brought
-together, are fatiguing, how much more so are those uglier artifices by
-which, being linked together, they are torn asunder again, and a fierce
-duel of what is called passion is set before us against the lurid skies
-as the chief object of interest in the world? Novelists make<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_015" id="page_015"></a>{15}</span> a great
-moan when they are hindered in the working out of such subjects, and cry
-loudly to heaven and earth against the limited intelligences which
-object to them, the British matron, the young person, and so forth. It
-seems to me that they would be more reasonable if they complained of the
-monotonous demand for a love-story which crushes out of court all the
-rest of life&mdash;so infinite in variety, so full of complication, so
-humorous, so mysterious, so natural and true.</p>
-
-<p>I have wondered often whether Macaulay and Darwin, and such great men,
-whom it is the pride of the novel writer to quote as finding their
-recreation in novels, were not of my opinion; though it is sadly
-disconcerting to find from his own account that all Mr. Darwin wanted
-was a story which ended happily&mdash;a judgment which is humbling to one’s
-pride in a reader of whom one was so much inclined to boast. So do I
-like a story which ends happily. And since the public is fond of such
-small revelations, I may here confess that I have often begun a story
-with the determination to be high-minded&mdash;to treat my young lovers
-without indulgence, and either kill them or part them in deference to
-the rules of Art.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_016" id="page_016"></a>{16}</span> But my heart has generally failed me, and I have
-rarely found courage to do them any harm. They will have plenty of
-trouble in the world, one knows&mdash;why should one cross them in the
-beginning of their career?</p>
-
-<p>These, however, are questions of a lighter mood than the one with which
-I began, and a manifest digression from that theme. The two stories
-which follow treat not of the joy and pride of life, but of those so
-often unforeseen misfortunes and accidents which shape it towards its
-end. Life appears under a very different aspect to the man who has felt
-the turn of the tide. Probably the discovery has been quite sudden,
-startling, and, so far as he knows, private to himself. His friends all
-the time may go on hailing him as poet, creator&mdash;all manner of fine
-things. If he discloses his discovery to them, he is met by reproaches
-for his dejection, his distrust and gloomy views; the compliments which
-he knows so well and believes so little are heaped again upon him; he is
-out of health, out of spirits, overworked, they say, in want of rest; a
-few weeks leisure and repose, and he will be himself again&mdash;as if it
-were a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_017" id="page_017"></a>{17}</span> mood or a freak of temper, and not a fact staring him in the
-face. But usually he is too much stunned to speak. He is not dying, or
-like to die, though his career has come or is coming to an end. It would
-be far more appropriate, far more dramatic if he were; but death is
-illogical, and will seldom come at the moment when it is wanted, when it
-would most appropriately solve the problem of what is to be done
-after?&mdash;which becomes the most pressing, the most necessary of
-questions. Why did not Napoleon die at Waterloo? He lived to add a
-pitiful postscript to his existence, to accumulate all kinds of squalid
-miseries about his end, instead of the dramatic and clear-cut conclusion
-which he might have attained by a merciful bullet or the thrust of a
-bayonet. And how well it would be to end thus when we have discovered
-that our day is over! But so far from that, the man has to go on, as if
-nothing had happened, “in a cheerful despair,” as I have read in a
-note-book&mdash;as if to-day were as yesterday, or perhaps more abundant.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“We poets in our youth, begin in gladness,<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">But after comes in the end despondency and madness,”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_018" id="page_018"></a>{18}</span></p>
-
-<p class="nind">says Wordsworth. “We have wrought no deliverance in the earth,” says
-with profounder meaning a much older poet. A man in such straits may
-sometimes save himself as Hamlet would have done, with a bare bodkin,
-had not the thought of that something after death which might be worse
-even than present calamity deterred him; but if he is of other mettle
-and cannot run away, or leave his post save at the lawful summons, the
-question, What he is to do? is overwhelming. No hope of being carried to
-any island valley of Avillion by stately queens in that boat which is
-going out with the tide. And no rebellion against fate will do him the
-slightest service. He has to hold his footing somehow&mdash;but how?</p>
-
-<p>I confess that I have not had the courage to follow this question, in
-either of the cases treated here, to such depths of human discomfiture
-as may have been, or may yet be. A greater artist might have done so,
-and led the defeated man through all the depths of humiliation and
-dismay; but my hand is not strong or firm enough to trace out to the
-bounds of the catastrophe the last possibilities of the broken career.
-What in the jargon of the age is called the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_019" id="page_019"></a>{19}</span> psychological moment is
-that in which the first discovery is made, and the startled victim
-suddenly perceives what has happened to him, and feels in every plank of
-his boat the downward drag of the ebb tide, and looks about him wildly
-to see if there is anything he can lay hold of to arrest it, any
-deliverance or any escape. This is the case of Mr. Sandford, the hero of
-the first of the following tales: and of many others who are not
-favoured by so speedy and so complete an answer to this bewildering
-problem of life.</p>
-
-<p>The other story is different; for Robert Dalyell, the subject of that,
-has laid his plans arbitrarily to escape out of it, doing what seems to
-him the best he can for those who belonged to him. And here again there
-is much more to say than has been said; for the condition of the man who
-blots himself out of life without dying, and accepts a kind of moral
-annihilation while yet all the sources of life are warm within him,
-might well afford us one of the most tragic chapters of human history.
-But I have shrunk from those darker colours with a compunction for him
-whom I have made to suffer, which is quite fantastical and out of
-reason, but yet true. To have brought<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_020" id="page_020"></a>{20}</span> him into the world for the mere
-purpose of exhibiting his torments seems bad enough without searching
-into the depths of them, and betraying those secrets which he himself
-accepts with a robust commonplace of endurance as the natural
-consequences of the step he has taken.</p>
-
-<p>I may add here that the circumstances of this latter story, which a just
-but severe writer has upbraided me with taking from real life, are
-indeed, so far as the central incident goes, facts in a family history,
-but facts of which I know neither the date nor the personages involved,
-all of whom are purely imaginary, as are most of the consequences that
-follow, at least so far as is known to me.</p>
-
-<p>The reader, I hope, will forgive a writer very little given to
-explanations, or to any personal appearance, for these prefatory words.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-M. O. W. O.<br />
-</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_021" id="page_021"></a>{21}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="MR_SANDFORD" id="MR_SANDFORD"></a>MR. SANDFORD.</h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_I-a" id="CHAPTER_I-a"></a>CHAPTER I.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">He</span> was a man approaching sixty, but in perfect health, and with no
-painful physical reminders that he had already accomplished the greater
-part of life’s journey. He was a successful man, who had attained at a
-comparatively early age the heights of his profession, and gained a name
-for himself. No painter in England was better or more favourably known.
-He had never been emphatically the fashion, or made one of those great
-“hits” which are far from being invariably any test of genius; but his
-pictures had always been looked for with pleasure, and attracted a large
-and very even share of popular approbation. From year to year, for what
-was really a very long time, though in his good health and cheerful
-occupation the progress of time had never forced itself upon him unduly,
-he had gone on doing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_022" id="page_022"></a>{22}</span> very well, getting both praise and pudding&mdash;good
-prices, constant commissions, and a great deal of agreeable applause. A
-course of gentle uninterrupted success of this description has a
-curiously tranquillising effect upon the mind. It did not seem to Mr.
-Sandford, or his wife, or any of his belongings, that it could ever
-fail. His income was more like an official income, coming in at slightly
-irregular intervals, and with variations of amount, but wonderfully
-equal at the year’s end, than the precarious revenues of an artist. And
-this fact lulled him into security in respect to his pecuniary means. He
-had a very pleasant, ample, agreeable life&mdash;a pretty and comfortable
-house, full of desirable things; a pleasant, gay, not very profitable,
-but pleasant family; and the agreeable atmosphere of applause and public
-interest which gave a touch of perfection to all the other good things.
-He had the consciousness of being pointed out in every assembly as
-somebody worth looking at: “That’s Sandford, you know, the painter.” He
-did not dislike it himself, and Mrs. Sandford liked it very much.
-Altogether it would have been difficult to find a more pleasant and
-delightful career.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_023" id="page_023"></a>{23}</span></p>
-
-<p>His wife had been the truest companion and helpmeet of all his early
-life. She had made their small means do in the beginning when money was
-not plentiful. She had managed to do him credit in all the many
-appearances in society which a rising painter finds to his advantage,
-while still spending very little on herself or her dress. She had kept
-all going, and saved him from a thousand anxieties and cares. She had
-sat to him when models proved expensive so often that it was a common
-joke to say that some reflection of Mrs. Sandford’s face was in all his
-pictures, from Joan of Arc to Queen Elizabeth. Now that the children
-were grown up, perhaps the parents were a little less together than of
-old. She had her daughters to look after, who were asked out a great
-deal, and very anxious to be fashionable and to keep up with their fine
-friends. The two grown-up girls were both pretty, animated, and pleasant
-creatures, full of the chatter of society, yet likewise full of better
-things. There were also two grown-up sons: one a young barrister,
-briefless, and fond of society too; the other one of those agreeable
-do-nothings who are more prevalent nowadays than ever before,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_024" id="page_024"></a>{24}</span> a very
-clever fellow, who had just not succeeded as he ought at the University
-or elsewhere, but had plenty of brains for anything, and only wanted the
-opportunity to distinguish himself. They were all full of faculty, both
-boys and girls, but all took a good deal out of the family stores
-without bringing anything in. Ever since these children grew up the
-family life had been on a very easy, ample scale. There was never any
-appearance of want of money, nor was the question ever discussed with
-the young ones, who had really no way of knowing that there was anything
-precarious in that well-established family income which provided them
-with everything they could desire. Sometimes, indeed, Mrs. Sandford
-would shake her head and declare that she “could not afford” some
-particular luxury. “Oh, nonsense, mamma!” the girls would say, while
-Harry would add, “That’s mother’s <i>rôle</i>, we all know. If she did not
-say so she would not be acting up to her part.” They took it in this
-way, with the same, or perhaps even a greater composure than if Mr.
-Sandford’s revenues had been drawn from the three per cents.</p>
-
-<p>It was only after this position had been attained<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_025" id="page_025"></a>{25}</span> that any anxieties
-arose. At first it had seemed quite certain that Jack would speedily
-distinguish himself at the bar, and become Lord Chancellor in course of
-time; and that something would turn up for Harry&mdash;most likely a
-Government appointment, which so well known a man as his father had a
-right to expect. And Mrs. Sandford, with a sigh, had looked forward with
-certainty to the early marriage of her girls. But some years had now
-passed since Ada, who was the youngest, had been introduced, and as yet
-nothing of that kind had happened. Harry was pleasantly about the world,
-a great help in accompanying his sisters when Mrs. Sandford did not want
-to go out, but no appointment had fallen in his way; and the briefs
-which Jack had procured were very few and very trifling. Things went on
-quite pleasantly all the same. The young people enjoyed themselves very
-much&mdash;they were asked everywhere. Lizzie, who had a beautiful voice, was
-an acquisition wherever she went, and helped her sister and her
-brothers, who could all make themselves agreeable. The life of the
-household flowed on in the pleasantest way imaginable; everything was
-bright, delightful, easy. Mrs. Sandford was so good a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_026" id="page_026"></a>{26}</span> manager that all
-domestic arrangements went as on velvet. She was never put out if two or
-three people appeared unexpectedly to lunch. An impromptu dinner party
-even, though it might disturb cook, never disturbed mamma. There was no
-extravagance, but everything delightfully liberal and full. The first
-vague uneasiness that crept into the atmosphere was about the boys. It
-was Mrs. Sandford herself who began this. “Did you speak to Lord Okeham
-about Harry?” she said to her husband one day, when she had been
-particularly elated by the appearance of that nobleman at her tea-table.
-He had come to look at a picture, and he was very willing afterwards, it
-appeared, to come into the drawing-room to tea.</p>
-
-<p>“How could I? I scarcely know him. It is difficult enough to ask a
-friend&mdash;but a man I have only seen twice&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Your money or your life,” said Harry, with a laugh. He was himself
-quite tranquil about his appointment, never doubting that some day it
-would turn up.</p>
-
-<p>“It is easier to ask a stranger than a friend,” said Mrs. Sandford. “It
-is like trading on friendship with a man you know; but this man’s
-nothing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_027" id="page_027"></a>{27}</span> but a patron, or an admirer. I should have asked him like&mdash;I
-mean at once.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mother was going to say like a shot&mdash;she is getting dreadfully slangy,
-worse than any of us. Let’s hope old Okeham will come back; there’s not
-much time lost,” said the cheerful youth.</p>
-
-<p>“When your father was your age he was making a good deal of money. We
-were beginning to see our way,” said Mrs. Sandford, shaking her head.</p>
-
-<p>“What an awfully imprudent pair you must have been to marry so early!”
-cried Jack.</p>
-
-<p>“I wonder what you would say to us if we suggested anything of the
-kind?” said Miss Ada, who had made herself very agreeable to Lord
-Okeham.</p>
-
-<p>“A poor painter!” said Lizzie, with a tone in her voice which her mother
-understood&mdash;for, indeed Mrs. Sandford did not at all encourage the
-attentions of poor painters, having still that early certainty of great
-matches in her mind.</p>
-
-<p>The young people were quite fond of their parents, very proud of their
-father, dutiful as far as was consistent with the traditions of their
-generation: but naturally they were of opinion that fathers and mothers
-were slightly antiquated, and did not possess the last lights.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_028" id="page_028"></a>{28}</span></p>
-
-<p>“The young ones are too many for you, Mary,” said Mr. Sandford; but he
-added, “It’s true what your mother says; you oughtn’t to be about so
-much as you are, doing nothing. You ought to grind as long as you’re
-young&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“At what, sir?” said Harry, with mock reverence. Mr. Sandford did not
-reply, for indeed he could not. Instead of giving an answer he went back
-to the studio, which indeed he had begun to find a pleasant refuge in
-the midst of all the flow of youthful talk and laughter, which was not
-of the kind he had been used to in his youth. Young artists, those poor
-painters whom Mrs. Sandford held at arms’ length, are not perhaps much
-more sensible than other young men, but they have at least a subject on
-which any amount of talk is possible, and which their elders can
-understand. Mr. Sandford was proud of his children, and loved them
-dearly. Their education, he believed, was much better than his own, and
-they knew a great deal more on general subjects than he did. But their
-jargon was not his jargon, and though it seemed very clever and knowing,
-and even amusing for a while, it soon palled upon him. He went back to
-his studio and to the picture he was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_029" id="page_029"></a>{29}</span> painting, for the daylight was
-still good. It was the largest of his Academy pictures, and nearly
-finished. It occurred to him as he stood looking at it critically from a
-distance, with his head on one side and his hand shading now one part
-now another, that Lord Okeham, though very complimentary, had not said
-anything about a desire to possess in his small collection a specimen of
-such a well-known master as &mdash;&mdash;. He remembered, now, that it was with
-this desire that his lordship had been supposed to be coming. Daniells,
-the picture dealer, had said as much. “He wants to come and see what
-you’ve got on the stocks. Tell you w’at, old man, ’e’s as rich as
-Cressus. Lay it on thick, ’e won’t mind&mdash;give you two thou’ as easy as
-five ’undred.” This was what, with his usual elegant familiarity, Mr.
-Daniells had said. It occurred to Mr. Sandford, with a curious little
-pang of surprise, that Lord Okeham had not said a word on the subject.
-He had admired everything, he had lingered upon some of the smaller
-sketches, making little remarks in the way of criticism now and then
-which the painter recognised as very judicious, but he had not said a
-word about enriching his collection with a specimen, &amp;c. The surprise
-with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_030" id="page_030"></a>{30}</span> which Mr. Sandford noticed this had a sort of sting in it&mdash;a prick
-like the barb of a fish-hook, like the thorn upon a rose. He did not at
-the moment exactly perceive why he should have felt it so. After a
-little while, indeed, he began to smile at the idea that it was from
-Okeham that this sting came. What did one man’s favour, even though that
-man was a cabinet minister, matter to him? It was not that, it was the
-discussion that followed which had left him with a prick of disquiet, a
-tingling spot in his mind. He must, he felt, speak to some one about
-Harry&mdash;not Lord Okeham, whom he did not know, who had evidently changed
-his mind about that specimen of so well-known, &amp;c. He would not dream of
-saying anything to him, a man not sympathetic, a stranger whom, though
-he might offer him a cup of tea, he did not really know; but it was very
-clear that Harry ought to have something to do.</p>
-
-<p>So ought Jack. Jack had a profession, but that did not seem to advance
-him much. Mr. Sandford had early determined that his sons should not be
-artists like himself&mdash;that they should have no precarious career,
-dependent on the favour of picture dealers and patrons, notwithstanding
-that he himself<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_031" id="page_031"></a>{31}</span> had done very well in that way. He had always resolved
-from the beginning to give them every advantage. Mr. Sandford recalled
-to mind that a few years ago he had been very strenuous on this point,
-talking of the duty of giving his children the very best education,
-which was the best thing any father could do for his children. He had
-been very confident indeed on that subject; now he paused and rubbed his
-chin meditatively with his mahl-stick. Was it possible that he was not
-quite so sure now? He shook himself free from this troublesome coil of
-thought, and made up his mind that he must make an effort about Harry.
-Then he put down his brushes and went out for his afternoon walk.</p>
-
-<p>In earlier days Mrs. Sandford would have come into the studio; she would
-have talked Lord Okeham over. She would have said, “Oh, he did not like
-that forest bit, didn’t he? Upon my word! I suppose my lord thinks he is
-a judge!”</p>
-
-<p>“What he said was reasonable enough. He does know something about it. I
-told you myself I was not satisfied with the balance of colour. The
-shadow’s too dark. The middle distance&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward, don’t talk nonsense: that’s just<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_032" id="page_032"></a>{32}</span> like you&mdash;you’re so
-ridiculously modest. If the cook were to come in one morning and tell
-you she thought your composition bad, you would say she approached the
-picture without any bias, and probably what she said was quite true.
-Come out for a walk.”</p>
-
-<p>This, be it clearly understood, was an imaginary conversation. It did
-not take place for the excellent reason that Mrs. Sandford was in the
-drawing-room, smiling at the witticisms of her young ones, and saying at
-intervals, “Come, come, Lizzie!” and “Don’t be so satirical, Jack.” They
-were not nearly such good company as her husband, nor did they want her
-half so much, but she thought they did, and that it was her duty to be
-there. So Mr. Sandford, who did not think of it at all as a grievance,
-but only as a natural necessity, had nothing but an imaginary talk which
-did not relieve him much, and went out for his walk by himself.</p>
-
-<p>It would be foolish to date absolutely from that day a slight change
-that began to work in him&mdash;but it did come on about this time: and that
-was an anxiety that the boys should get on and begin their life’s work
-in earnest which had not affected him before. He had been too busy to
-think much<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_033" id="page_033"></a>{33}</span> except about his work so long as the young ones were well;
-and the period at which the young ones become men and women is not
-always easy for a father to discern so long as they are all under his
-roof as in their childish days. He, too, had let things flow along in
-the well-being of the time without pausing to inquire how long it was to
-last, or what was to come of it. A man of sixty who is in perfectly good
-health does not feel himself to be old, nor think it necessary to
-consider the approaching end of his career. Something, however, aroused
-him now about these boys. He got a little irritable when he saw Harry
-about, playing tennis with the girls, sometimes spending the whole day
-in flannels. “Why can’t he do something?” he said to his wife.</p>
-
-<p>“Dear Edward,” said Mrs. Sandford, “what can the poor boy do? He is only
-too anxious to do something. He is always talking to me about it. If
-only Lord Okeham or some one would get a post for him. Is there no one
-you can speak to about poor Harry?”</p>
-
-<p>This was turning the tables upon Harry’s father, who, to tell the truth,
-was very slow to ask favours, and did not like it all. He did speak,
-however&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_034" id="page_034"></a>{34}</span>not to Lord Okeham, but to an inferior potentate, and was told
-that all the lists were full, although everybody would be delighted, of
-course, to serve him if possible; and nothing came of that. Then there
-was Jack. The young man came into dinner one day in the highest spirits.
-He had got a brief&mdash;a real brief&mdash;a curiosity which he regarded with a
-jocular admiration. “I shall be a rich man in no time,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“How much is your fee?” asked one of the girls. “You must take us
-somewhere with it Jack.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is two guineas,” Jack said, and then there was a general burst of
-laughter&mdash;that laughter young and fresh which is sweet to the ears of
-fathers and mothers.</p>
-
-<p>“That’s majestic,” Harry said; “lend us something, old fellow, for
-luck,” and they all laughed again. They thought it a capital joke that
-Jack should earn two guineas in six months. It did not hurt him or any
-of them; he had everything he wanted as if he had been earning hundreds.
-But Mr. Sandford did not laugh. This time it vexed and disturbed him to
-hear all the cheerful banter and talk about Jack’s two guineas.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_035" id="page_035"></a>{35}</span></p>
-
-<p>“It is all very well to laugh,” he said to his wife afterwards, “but how
-is he ever to live upon that?”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear Edward, it’s not like you to take their fun in earnest,” said the
-mother. “The poor boy has such spirits&mdash;and then it’s always a
-beginning.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid his spirits are too good. If he would only take life a
-little more seriously&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should he?” said Mrs. Sandford, taking high ground; “it is his
-happiest time. If he wanted to marry and set up for himself it might be
-different. But they have no cares&mdash;as yet. We ought to be thankful they
-are all so happy at home. Few young men love their home like our boys.
-We ought to be very thankful,” she repeated with a devout look upon her
-upturned face. It took the words out of his mouth. He could not say any
-more.</p>
-
-<p>But he kept on thinking. The time was passing away with great
-rapidity&mdash;far more quickly than it had ever done. Sunday trod on the
-heels of Sunday, and the months jostled each other as they flew along.
-Presently it was Jack’s birthday, and there was a dance and a great deal
-of affectionate pleasure; but when Mr. Sandford remembered<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_036" id="page_036"></a>{36}</span> how old the
-boy was, it gave him a shock which none of the others felt. At that age
-he himself had been Jack’s father, he had laid the foundation of his
-reputation, and was a rising man. If they did not live at home and had
-not everything provided for them, what would become of these boys? It
-gave him a sort of panic to think of it. In the very midst of the dance,
-when he was himself standing in the midst of a little knot of
-respectable fathers watching the young ones enjoying themselves, this
-thought overtook him and made him shiver.</p>
-
-<p>“Getting on, I hear, very well at the bar,” one of the gentlemen said.</p>
-
-<p>“He is not making very much money as yet,” replied Mr. Sandford.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nobody does that&mdash;at first, at least; but so long as he has you to
-fall back upon,” this good-natured friend said, with a nod of his head.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford could not make any reply. He kept saying to himself, “Two
-guineas&mdash;two guineas&mdash;he could not live very long on that.” And Harry
-had not even two guineas. It fretted him to have this thought come back
-at all manner of unlikely times. He did not seem able to shake it off.
-And<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_037" id="page_037"></a>{37}</span> Mrs. Sandford was always on the defensive, seeing it in his eyes,
-and making responses to it, speaking at it, always returning to the
-subject. She dwelt upon the goodness of the boys, and their love of
-their home, and how good it was for the girls to have them, and how
-nobody made their mark all at once, “except people that have genius like
-you,” she said with that wifely admiration and faith which is so sweet
-to a man. What more could he say?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_038" id="page_038"></a>{38}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_II-a" id="CHAPTER_II-a"></a>CHAPTER II.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">About</span> the same time, or a little later, another shadow rose up upon Mr.
-Sandford’s life. It was like the cloud no bigger than a man’s hand, like
-a mere film upon the blue sky at first. Perhaps the very first
-appearance of it&mdash;the faintest shadow of a shade upon the blue&mdash;arose on
-that day when Lord Okeham visited the studio and went away without
-giving any commission. Not that great personages had not come before
-with the same result; but that this time there had been supposed to be a
-distinct purpose in his visit beyond that of taking a cup of tea with
-the artist’s wife and daughters&mdash;and this purpose had not been carried
-out. It was not the cloud, but it was a sort of <i>avant-coureur</i> of the
-cloud, like the chill little momentary breath which sometimes heralds a
-storm. No storm followed, but the shadow grew. The next thing that made
-it really shape itself as a little more than a film was the fact of his
-Academy picture, the principal<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_039" id="page_039"></a>{39}</span> one of the year, coming back&mdash;without
-any explanation at all; not purchased, nor even with any application
-from the print-sellers about an engraving; simply coming back as it had
-gone into the exhibition. No doubt in the course of a long career such a
-thing as this, too, had happened before. But there was generally
-something to account for it, and the picture thus returned seldom dwelt
-long in the painter’s hands. This time, however, it subsided quite
-quietly into its place, lighting up the studio with a great deal of
-colour and interest&mdash;“a pleasure to see,” Mrs. Sandford said, who had
-often declared that the worst thing of being a painter’s wife was that
-she never liked to see the pictures go away. This might be very true,
-and it is quite possible that it was a pleasure to behold, standing on
-its easel against a wall which generally was enlivened only with the
-earliest of sketches, and against which a lay figure grinned and
-sprawled.</p>
-
-<p>But the prospect was not quite agreeable to the painter. However
-cheerfully he went into his studio in the morning, he always grew grave
-when he came in front of that brilliant canvas. It was the “Black Prince
-at Limoges,” a picture<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_040" id="page_040"></a>{40}</span> full of life and action, with all the aid of
-mediæval costume and picturesque groups&mdash;such a picture as commanded
-everybody’s interest in Mr. Sandford’s younger days. He would go and
-stand before it for an hour at a time, trying to find some fault in the
-composition, or in the flesh tints, or the arrangements of the
-draperies. It took away his thoughts from the subject he was then
-engaged in working out. Sometimes he would put up his hand to separate
-one portion from another, sometimes divide it with a screen of paper,
-sometimes even alter an outline with chalk, or mellow a spot of colour
-with his brush. There was very little fault to be found with the
-picture. It carried out all the rules of composition to which the
-painter had been bred. The group of women which formed the central light
-was full of beauty; the sick warrior to whom they appealed was a marvel
-of strength and ferocity, made all the keener by the pallor of his
-illness. There was nothing to be said against the picture; except,
-perhaps, that, had not this been Mr. Sandford’s profession, there was no
-occasion for its existence at all.</p>
-
-<p>When the mind has once been filled with a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_041" id="page_041"></a>{41}</span> new idea it is astounding how
-many events occur to heighten it. Other distinguished visitors came to
-the studio, like Lord Okeham, and went away again, having left a great
-deal of praise and a little criticism, but nothing else, behind them.
-These were not, perhaps, of importance enough to have produced much
-effect at an ordinary moment, but they added to the general
-discouragement. Mr. Sandford smiled within himself at the mistakes the
-amateurs made, and the small amount of real knowledge which they showed;
-but when they were gone the smile became something like that which is
-generally and vulgarly described as being on the wrong side of the
-mouth. It was all very well to smile at the amateurs&mdash;but it was in the
-long run their taste, and not that of the heaven-born artist, which
-carried the day; and when a man takes away in his pocket the sum which
-ought to supply your balance at your banker’s, the sight of his back as
-he goes out at the door is not pleasant. Mr. Sandford had not come to
-that pitch yet; but he laughed no longer, and felt a certain ruefulness
-in his own look when one after another departed without a word of a
-commission. There were other things,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_042" id="page_042"></a>{42}</span> too, not really of the slightest
-importance, which deepened the impression&mdash;the chatter of Jack’s
-friends, for instance, some of whom were young journalists, and talked
-the familiar jargon of critics. He came into the drawing-room one day
-during one of his wife’s teas, and found two or three young men,
-sprawling about with legs stretched out over the limited space, who were
-pulling to pieces a recent exhibition of the works of a Royal
-Academician. “You would think you had got among half a dozen different
-sorts of people dressed for private theatricals,” said one of the
-youths. “Old models got up as Shakespearian kings, and that sort of
-thing. <i>You</i> know, Mrs. Sandford; conventional groups trying to look as
-if they were historical.”</p>
-
-<p>“I remember Mr. White’s pictures very well,” said Mrs. Sandford. “I used
-to think them beautiful. We all rushed to see what he had in the
-exhibition, upon the private view day, when I did not know so much about
-it as I do now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, yes; before you knew so much about it,” said the art authority.
-“You would think very differently to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“The whole school is like that,” said another.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_043" id="page_043"></a>{43}</span> “Historical painting is
-gone out like historical novel-writing. The public is tired of costume.
-Life is too short for that sort of thing. We want a far more profound
-knowledge of the human figure and beauty in the abstract&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Stuff!” said Harry; “the British public doesn’t want your nudities,
-whatever you may think.”</p>
-
-<p>“The British public likes babies, and sick girls getting well, and
-beautiful young gentlemen saying eternal adieux to lovely young ladies,”
-said one of the girls.</p>
-
-<p>“To be sure, that sort of thing always goes on; but everybody must feel
-that in cultured circles there is a far greater sense of the beauty of
-colour for itself and art for art than in those ridiculous old days when
-the subject was everything&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You confuse me with your new lights,” said Mrs. Sandford. “I always did
-think there was a great deal in a good subject.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Mrs. Sandford!” cried one of the young men, laughing; while
-another added, with the solemnity of his kind&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“People really did think so at one time. It was a genuine belief so long
-as it lasted. I am not one of those who laugh at faith so <i>naïf</i>.
-Whatever is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_044" id="page_044"></a>{44}</span> true even for a time has a right to be respected,” said
-this profound young man.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford came in at this point, having paused a little to enjoy the
-fun, as he said to himself. It was wonderful to hear how they
-chattered&mdash;these babes. “I am glad to hear that you are all so tolerant
-of the old fogeys,” he said, with a laugh as he showed himself. And one
-at least of the young men had the good taste to jump up as if he were
-ashamed of himself, and to take his legs out of the way.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose that’s the new creed that those fellows were giving forth,”
-he said to Jack, when the other young men were gone.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I don’t know, sir,” said Jack, with an embarrassed laugh. “We all
-of us say our say.”</p>
-
-<p>“But that is the say of most of you, I suppose,” said his father.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, sir, I suppose every generation has its own standard. ‘The old
-order changeth,’ don’t you know&mdash;in art as well as in other things.”</p>
-
-<p>“I see; and you think we know precious little about it,” said Mr.
-Sandford, with a joyless smile which curled his lip without obeying any
-mirthful impulse. He felt angry and unreasonably annoyed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_045" id="page_045"></a>{45}</span> at the silly
-boys who knew so little. “But they know how to put that rubbish into
-words, and they get it published, and it affects the general opinion,”
-he said to himself, with perhaps a feeling, not unnatural in the
-circumstances, that he would like to drown those kittens with their
-miauling about things they knew nothing about. Angry moods, however, did
-not last long in Mr. Sandford’s mind. He went back to his studio and
-looked at the “Black Prince” in the light of these criticisms. And he
-found that some of the old courtiers in attendance on the sick warrior
-did look unfeignedly like old models, which indeed they were, and that
-there was more composition than life in the attitudes of the women. “I
-always thought that arm should come like this,” he said to himself,
-taking up his chalk.</p>
-
-<p>One day about this time he had a visit from Daniells, the picture
-dealer, leading a millionaire&mdash;a newly-fledged one&mdash;who was making a
-gallery and buying right and left. Daniells, though he was very dubious
-about his h’s, was a good fellow, and always ready to stand by a friend.
-He was taking his millionaire a round of the studios, and especially to
-those in which there was something<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_046" id="page_046"></a>{46}</span> which had not “come off,” according
-to his phraseology. The millionaire was exceptionally ignorant and
-outspoken, expressing his own opinion freely. “What sort of a thing have
-we got here?” he said, walking up to the “Black Prince;” “uncommon nice
-lot of girls, certainly; but what are they all doing round the fellow
-out of the hospital? I say, is it something catching?” he cried, giving
-Mr. Sandford a dig with his elbow. Daniells laughed at this long and
-loudly, but it was the utmost the painter could do to conjure up a
-simple smile. He explained as well as he could that they were begging
-for life, and that the town was being sacked, a terrible event of which
-his visitor might have heard.</p>
-
-<p>“Sacked,” said the millionaire; “you mean that they’re factory hands and
-have got the sack, or that they have been just told they’ve got to work
-short time. I understand that; and it shows how human nature’s just the
-same in all ages. But I can tell you that in Lancashire it’s a nice
-rowing he’d have got instead of all these sweet looks. They would not
-have let him off like that, don’t you think it. Wherever you get your
-women from, ours ain’t of that kind.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_047" id="page_047"></a>{47}</span></p>
-
-<p>Sandford tried to explain what kind of a sack it was, but he did not
-succeed, for the rich man was much pleased with his own view.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s a fine picture,” said Daniells; “Mr. Sandford, he’s one of the
-very best of our modern masters, sir. He has got a great name, and
-beautiful his pictures look in a gallery with the others to set ’em off.
-Hung on the line in the Academy, and collected crowds. I shouldn’t ’a
-been surprised if they’d ’ad to put a rail round it like they did to Mr.
-Frith’s.”</p>
-
-<p>He gave a wink at Mr. Sandford as he spoke, which made our poor painter
-sick.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve got one of Frith’s,” said the millionaire.</p>
-
-<p>“You’ll ’ave got one of every modern artist worth counting when you’ve
-got Mr. Sandford’s,” said Daniells, with a pat upon the shoulder to his
-wealthy client. That gentleman turned round, putting his hands into his
-pockets.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve seen some pictures as I liked better,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know. You’ve seen that one o’ Millais’, a regular stunner; but,
-God bless you, that’s but one figger, and twice the money. Look at the
-work in that,” cried the dealer, turning his man round<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_048" id="page_048"></a>{48}</span> again, who gave
-the picture another condescending inspection from one corner to the
-other.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t deny there’s a deal of work in it,” he said, “if it’s painted
-fair with everything from the life; and I don’t mind taking it to
-complete my collection; but I’ll expect to have that considered in the
-price,” he added, turning once more on the painter. “You see, Mr. &mdash;&mdash;
-(What’s the gentleman’s name, Daniells?) I am not death on the picture
-for itself. It’s a fine showy picture, and I don’t doubt ’t’ll look well
-when it’s hung; but big things like that, as don’t tell their story
-plain, they’re not exactly my taste. However, it’s all right since
-Daniells says so. The only man I know that goes in for that sort of
-thing thinks all the world of Daniells. ‘Go to Daniells,’ he says, ‘and
-you’ll be all right.’ So I’ll take the picture, but I’ll expect a
-hundred or two off for ready money. I suppose there’s discount in all
-trades.”</p>
-
-<p>“Say fifty off, and you’ll do very well, and get a fine thing cheap,”
-said Daniells.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford’s countenance had darkened. He was very amiable, very
-courteous, much indisposed to bargaining, but he felt as if his customer
-had jumped upon him, and it was all he could do to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_049" id="page_049"></a>{49}</span> contain himself. “I
-never make&mdash;&mdash;” he began, with a little haughtiness most unusual to him;
-but before he had said the final words he caught Daniells’ eye, who was
-making anxious signs to him. The picture dealer twisted his face into a
-great many contortions. He raised his eyebrows, he moved his lips, he
-made all kinds of gestures; at last, under a pretence of looking at a
-sketch, he darted between Mr. Sandford and the other, and in a hoarse
-whisper said “Take it,” imperatively, in the painter’s ear.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford came to an astonished pause. He looked at the uncouth
-patron of art, and at the dealer, and at the picture, in turn. It was on
-his lips to say that nothing would induce him to let the “Black Prince”
-go; but something stopped and chilled him&mdash;something, he could not tell
-what. He paused a moment, then retired suddenly to the back of the
-studio. “I’m not good at making bargains&mdash;I will leave myself,” he said,
-“in Mr. Daniells’ hands.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, a bad system&mdash;a bad system. Every man ought to make his own
-bargains,” said the rich man.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford did not listen. He began to turn over a portfolio of old
-sketches as if that were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_050" id="page_050"></a>{50}</span> the most important thing in the world. He
-heard the voices murmur on, sometimes louder, sometimes lower, broken by
-more than one sharp exclamation, but restrained himself and did not
-interfere. Many thoughts went through his mind while he stooped over the
-big portfolio, and turned over, without seeing them, sketch after
-sketch. Why should he be bidden to “take it” in that imperative way?
-What did Daniells know which made him interfere with such a high hand?
-He was tempted again and again to turn round, to put a stop to the
-negotiation, to say, as he had the best right, “I’ll have none of this;”
-but he did not do it, though he could not even to himself explain why.</p>
-
-<p>He found eventually that Daniells had sold the picture for him at a
-reduction of fifty guineas from the original price, which was a thing of
-no importance. He hated the bargain, but the little sacrifice of the
-money moved him not at all. He recovered his temper or his composure
-when the arrangement was completed, and smiled with a reserved
-acceptance of the millionaire’s invitation to “come to my place and see
-it hung,” as he showed the pair away. They were a well-matched pair, and
-Daniells was no doubt far better adapted<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_051" id="page_051"></a>{51}</span> to deal with each a man than a
-sensitive, proud artist, who did not like to have his toes trodden upon.
-After a while, indeed, Mr. Sandford felt himself quite able to smile at
-the incident, and shook off all his annoyance. He went in to luncheon
-with the cheque in his hand.</p>
-
-<p>“I have sold the ‘Black Prince,’<span class="lftspc">”</span> he said, with a certain pleasure, even
-triumph, in his voice, remembering how Jack’s friends had scoffed, if
-not at the picture, at least at the school to which it belonged.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” cried Mrs. Sandford, half pleased, half regretful. “I knew we
-should not have to give it house-room long.” She gave a glance round her
-as if she had heard something derogatory to the picture too.</p>
-
-<p>“Who have you taken in and done for this time, father?” said Harry, who
-was given to banter.</p>
-
-<p>“Was it that horrid man who came with Mr. Daniells?” cried Lizzie. “Oh,
-papa, I should not have thought you would have sold a nice picture to
-such a man.”</p>
-
-<p>“Art-patrons are like gift-horses; we must not look them in the mouth,”
-said the painter. “There are quantities of h’s, no doubt, to be found
-about the studio; but if we stood upon that&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_052" id="page_052"></a>{52}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“So long as he doesn’t leave out anything, either h’s or 0’s, in his
-cheque.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford felt slightly, unreasonably offended by any reference to
-the cheque. He gave it to his wife to send to the bank, with an annoyed
-apprehension that she would make some remark upon the fifty guineas
-which were left out. But Mrs. Sandford had not been his wife for thirty
-years without being able to read the annoyance in his face. And though
-she did not know what was its cause she respected it, and said not a
-word about the difference which her quick eye saw at once. Could it be
-that which had vexed Edward? she asked herself&mdash;he was not usually a man
-who counted his pounds in that way.</p>
-
-<p>The sending off of the “Black Prince,” its packing and directing, and
-all the details of its departure, occupied him for some time. It was
-August, the beginning of holiday time, when, though never without a
-protest at the loss of the light days, even a painter idles a little.
-And the youngest boy had come from school, and they were all going to
-the seaside. Mr. Sandford did not like the bustle of the moment. He
-proposed to stay in town for a few days after the family, and join them<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_053" id="page_053"></a>{53}</span>
-when they had settled down in their new quarters. Before they went,
-however, he had an interview with one of those friends of Jack’s who
-were always about the house, and whose opinions on art were so different
-from Mr. Sandford’s, which gave another touch of excitement to the
-household. The young fellow wanted to marry Lizzie, as had been a long
-time apparent to everybody but her father. There was nothing to be said
-against him except that he had not much money; but Mr. Sandford thought
-that young Moulton looked startled when he had to inform him that Lizzie
-would have no fortune. “Of course that was not of the least
-consequence,” he said, but he gave his future father-in-law a curious
-and startled look.</p>
-
-<p>“I think he was disappointed that there was no money,” the painter said
-afterwards to his wife.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward! there is nothing mercenary about him!” said Mrs. Sandford;
-but she sighed and added, “If there only had been a little for her&mdash;just
-enough for her clothes. It makes such a difference to a young married
-woman. It is hard to have to ask your husband for everything.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you think so, Mary?” he asked, with a smile but a sense of pain.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_054" id="page_054"></a>{54}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;but we were not like ordinary people, we were just two fools
-together,” said the wife, with a smile which brightened all her face;
-“but,” she added, shaking her head, “we don’t marry our daughters like
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>“If she is half as good to him as you have been to me&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, don’t speak,” she said, putting up her hand to stop his mouth.
-“Lance Moulton can never be the hundredth part so good as <i>my</i> husband.”
-But she stopped after this little outburst, and laughed, and again
-shaking her head, repeated, “But we don’t marry our daughters like
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>He felt inclined to ask, but did not, why?</p>
-
-<p>When they all went away Mr. Sandford felt a little lonely, left by
-himself in the house, and perhaps it was that as much as anything else
-that set him thinking again. His wife had pressed the question of what
-Lizzie would want if she married young Moulton, who was only a
-journalist, on several occasions, until at last they had both decided
-that a small allowance might be made to her in place of a fortune.</p>
-
-<p>“Fifty pounds is the interest of a thousand, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_055" id="page_055"></a>{55}</span> that is what she will
-have when we die,” Mrs. Sandford said, who was not learned in per cents.
-“I think we might give her fifty pounds a year, Edward.”</p>
-
-<p>“Fifty pounds will not do much good,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Not in their housekeeping, perhaps; but to have even fifty pounds will
-be a great thing for <i>her</i>. It will make her so much more comfortable.”
-Thus they concluded the matter between them, though not without a
-certain hesitation on Mr. Sandford’s part. It was strange that he should
-hesitate. He had always been so liberal, ready to give. There was no
-reason why he should take fright now. There was the millionaire’s cheque
-for the “Black Prince,” which had just been paid into the bank, leaving
-a comfortable balance to their credit. There was no pressure of any kind
-for the moment. To those who had known what it was to await their next
-payment very anxiously in order to pay very pressing debts, and had seen
-the little stream of money flowing, flowing away, till it almost seemed
-to be on the point of disappearing altogether, the ease of having a
-considerable sum to their credit was indescribable; but Mrs. Sandford
-was more and more wrapped up in the children,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_056" id="page_056"></a>{56}</span> and though never
-indifferent, yet a little detached in every-day thought and action from
-her husband. She did not ask him as usual about his commissions and his
-future work. She seemed altogether at ease in her mind about everything
-that was not the boys and the girls.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_057" id="page_057"></a>{57}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_III-a" id="CHAPTER_III-a"></a>CHAPTER III.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">The</span> house was very quiet when they were all away. Merely to look into
-the drawing-room was enough to give any one a chill. The sense of
-emptiness where generally every corner was full, and silence where there
-were always so many voices, was very depressing. Mr. Sandford consoled
-himself by a very hard day’s work the first day of the absence of his
-family, getting on very well indeed, and making a great advance in the
-picture he was painting&mdash;a small picture intended for one of his oldest
-friends. In the evening, as he had nothing else to occupy him, he moved
-about the studio, not going into the other parts of the house at all,
-and amused himself by making a little study of the moonlight as it came
-in upon the plants in the conservatory. His house was in a quarter not
-fashionable, somewhere between St. John’s Wood and Regent’s Park, and
-consequently there was more room than is usual in London, a pretty
-garden and plenty of air. The effect of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_058" id="page_058"></a>{58}</span> the moonlight and the black
-exaggerated shadows amused him. The thought passed through his mind that
-if perhaps he were one of the newfangled school which Jack’s friends
-believed in, he might turn that unreal scene which was so indubitable a
-fact into a picture and probably make a great success as an
-impressionist&mdash;an idea at which he smiled with a milder but not less
-genuine contempt than the young impressionist might have felt for Mr.
-Sandford’s school. He had half a mind to do it&mdash;to conceal his name and
-send it to one of the lesser exhibitions, so as afterwards to have a
-laugh at the young men, and prove to them how easy the trick was, and
-that any old fogey who took the trouble could beat them in their own
-way. Next morning, however, he threw the sketch into a portfolio, with a
-horror of the black and white extravagance which in the daylight
-offended his artist-eye, and which he had a suspicion was not so good
-after all, or so easy a proof of the facility of doing that sort of
-thing as he had supposed. And that day his work did not advance so
-quickly or so satisfactorily. He listened for the swing of the door at
-the other end of the passage which connected the studio with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_059" id="page_059"></a>{59}</span> house,
-though he knew well enough there was no one who could come to disturb
-him. There are days when it is so agreeable to be disturbed! And it was
-when he was painting in this languid way, and, as was natural, not at
-all pleasing himself with his work, that there suddenly and most
-distinctly came before him, as if some one had come in and said it, a
-thing&mdash;a fact&mdash;which strangely enough he had not even thought of before.
-When it first occurred to him his hand suddenly stopped work with an
-action of its own before the mind had time to influence it, and there
-was a sudden rush of heat to his head. He felt drops of moisture come
-out on his forehead; his heart for a second paused too. His whole being
-received a shock&mdash;a start. For the first moment he could scarcely make
-out what this extraordinary sudden commotion, for which his mind seemed
-only partially responsible, could be.</p>
-
-<p>This was what had in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, occurred to
-the painter. He had, of course, been aware of it before without giving
-any particular importance to the fact. The fact, indeed, in a
-precarious, uncertain profession like his, in which a piece of good
-fortune might occur<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_060" id="page_060"></a>{60}</span> at any moment, was really not of the first
-importance; but it flashed upon him now in a significance and with a
-force which no such thing had ever held before. It was this&mdash;that when
-he had completed the little picture upon which he was working he had no
-other commission of any kind on hand. It sounds very prosaic to be a
-thing capable of giving such a tragic shot&mdash;but it was not prosaic. One
-can even conceive circumstances in which despair and death might be in
-such words; and to no one in Mr. Sandford’s position could they be
-pleasant. Even if the fact represented no material loss, it would
-represent loss&mdash;which at his age could never be made up&mdash;loss of
-acceptance, loss of position, that kind of failure which is popularly
-represented as being “shelved,” put aside as a thing that is done with;
-always a keen and grievous pang. But to our painter the words meant more
-than that. They meant a cutting off of the ground from under his feet, a
-sudden arrest of everything, a full stop, which in his fully flowing
-liberal life was a tragic horror and impossibility, a something far more
-terrible than death. It had upon him something of the character of a
-paralytic stroke. His hand, as we have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_061" id="page_061"></a>{61}</span> said, stopped work sharply,
-suddenly; it trembled, and the brush with which he was painting fell
-from it; his limbs tottered under him, his under lip dropped, his heart
-gave a leap and then a dead pause. He stumbled backwards for a few steps
-and sank into a chair.</p>
-
-<p>Well! it was only for a few moments that he remained under the influence
-of this shock. He picked himself up again, and then picked up his brush
-and dried the perspiration from his forehead, and his heart with a
-louder beat went on again as if also crying out “Well!” When he had
-recovered the power of thought&mdash;which was not for a moment or two&mdash;he
-smiled to himself and said, “What then?” Such a thing had happened
-before. In an artist’s life there are often hair-breadth ’scapes, and
-now and then the most prosperous comes, as it were, to a dead
-wall&mdash;which is always battered through by a little perseverance or else
-opens by itself, melting asunder at the touch of some heaven-sent patron
-or happy accident, and so all goes on more prosperously than before. Mr.
-Sandford had passed through many such crises at the beginning of his
-career, and even when fully established had never been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_062" id="page_062"></a>{62}</span> entirely certain
-from whence his next year’s income was to come. But it had always come;
-there had never been any real break in it&mdash;no failure of the continuity.
-He had seemed to himself to be as thoroughly justified in reckoning upon
-this continuity as any man in an office with so much a year. It might be
-a little more or a little less, and there was always that not unpleasant
-character of vagueness about it. It might even by a lucky chance for one
-fortunate year be almost doubled, and this had happened on rare
-occasions; but very seldom had there been any marked diminution in the
-yearly incomings. He said, “Pooh, pooh,” to himself as he went up to his
-picture again smiling, with his brush in his hand; not for such a matter
-as that was he going to be discouraged. It was a thing that had happened
-before, and would no doubt happen again. He began to work at his
-picture, and went on with great spirit for perhaps a quarter of an hour,
-painting in (for he had no model that morning) a piece of drapery from a
-lay figure, and catching just the tone he wanted on the beautiful bit of
-brocade which figured in the picture as part of a Venetian lady’s
-majestic dress. He was unusually successful in his work, and also<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_063" id="page_063"></a>{63}</span>
-succeeded for ten perhaps of these fifteen minutes in amusing himself
-and distracting his thoughts from that discovery. A bit of success is
-very exhilarating; it made him more confident than anything else could
-have done. But when he had got his effect his smile began to fade away,
-and his face grew grave again, and his hand trembled once more. After a
-while he was obliged to give up and take a rest, putting down his
-palette and brush with a sort of impatience and relief in getting rid of
-them. Could he have gone straight to his wife and made her take a turn
-with him in the garden, or even talked it over with her in the studio,
-no doubt the impression would have died off; but she was absent, and he
-could not do that; most likely, indeed, if she had been at home she
-would have been absorbed in some calculation about Lizzie’s wedding, and
-would not have noticed his preoccupation at all.</p>
-
-<p>He sat down again in that chair, and said once more to himself, “What
-then?” and thought over the times in which this accident had happened
-before. But there now suddenly occurred to him another thought which was
-like the chill of an icy hand touching his heart. The same thing had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_064" id="page_064"></a>{64}</span>
-happened before&mdash;but he had never been sixty before. He felt himself
-struck by this as if some one had given him a blow. It was quite true;
-he had called himself laughingly an old fogey, and when he and his old
-friends were together they talked a great deal about their age and about
-the young fellows pushing them from their seats. How much the old
-fellows mean when they say this, heaven knows. So long as they are
-strong and well they mean very little. It is an amusing kind of adoption
-of the folly of the young which seems to show what folly it is&mdash;a sort
-of brag in its way of their own superiority to all such decrepitudes,
-and easy power of laughing at what does not really touch them. But alone
-in their own private retirements, when a thought like this suddenly
-comes, a sharp and sudden realisation of age and what it means, no doubt
-the effect is different. For the moment Mr. Sandford was appalled by the
-discovery he had made, which had never entered his mind before. Ah! a
-pause in one’s means of making one’s living, a sudden stop in the wheels
-of one’s life, is a little alarming, a little exciting, perhaps a
-discouragement, perhaps a sharp and keen stimulant at other times: at
-forty, even at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_065" id="page_065"></a>{65}</span> fifty, it may be the latter; but at sixty!&mdash;this gives
-at once a new character to the experience&mdash;a character never apprehended
-before. His heart, which had begun to spring up with an elasticity
-natural to him, stopped again&mdash;nay, did not stop, but fell into a sudden
-dulness of beating, a subdued silence as if ice-bound. Sensation was too
-much for thought; his mind could not go into it; he only felt it, with a
-dumb pang which was deeper than either words or thought.</p>
-
-<p>He could not do any more work that day. He tried again two or three
-times, but ended by putting down his palette with a sense of incapacity
-such as he thought he had never felt before. As a matter of fact, he
-might have felt it a hundred times and attached no importance to it; he
-would have gone into the house, leaving his studio, and talked or read,
-or gone out for a walk, or to his club, or to see a friend, saying he
-did not feel up to work to-day, and there would have been an end of it.
-But he was alone, and none of these distractions were possible to him.
-Luncheon came, however, which he could not eat, but sat over drearily,
-not able to get away from the impression of that thought. Afterwards it
-occurred<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_066" id="page_066"></a>{66}</span> to him that he would go and see Daniells and ask him&mdash;he was
-not quite clear what. He could not go to one of his friends and ask, “Am
-I falling off&mdash;do you see it? Has my hand lost its cunning&mdash;am I getting
-old and is my mind going?” He could not ask any one such questions as
-these. He smiled at it dolefully, feeling all the ridicule of the
-suggestion. He knew his mind was not going&mdash;but&mdash;&mdash; At last he made up
-his mind what he would do. It was a long walk to Bond Street, but it was
-now afternoon and getting cooler, and the walk did him good. He reached
-Daniells’ just before the picture dealer left off business for the day.
-He was showing some one out very obsequiously through the outer room all
-hung with pictures when he saw Sandford coming in. The stranger looked
-much interested and pleased when he heard Sandford’s name.</p>
-
-<p>“Introduce me, please,” he said, “if this is the great Mr. Sandford,
-Daniells.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is, Sir William,” said Daniells; and Sir William offered his hand
-with the greatest effusion. “This is a pleasure that I have long
-desired,” he said.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_067" id="page_067"></a>{67}</span>Mr. Sandford was surprised&mdash;he was taken unawares, and the greeting
-touched his heart. “After all, perhaps it isn’t <i>that</i>,” he said to
-himself.</p>
-
-<p>“What a piece of luck that you should have come in just then! Why,
-that’s Sir William Bloomfield&mdash;just the very man for you to know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why for me more than another? I know his name, of course,” said Mr.
-Sandford, “and he seems pleasant; but I’m too old for new friends.”</p>
-
-<p>“Too old; stuff and nonsense! You’re always a-harping on that string.
-He’s just the man for you, just the man,” said Daniells, rubbing his
-hands.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford was amused&mdash;perhaps a little pleased by this encounter; and
-the pressure of his heavy thoughts was stilled. He began to look at the
-new pictures which had come into the gallery, to admire some and
-criticise others. Daniells had the good sense always to listen to Mr.
-Sandford’s criticisms with attention. They had furnished him with a
-great many telling phrases, and given to his own rough and practical
-knowledge of art a little occasional polish which surprised and overawed
-many of his customers. He listened admiringly now as usual.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_068" id="page_068"></a>{68}</span></p>
-
-<p>“What a deal you do know, to be sure!” he said after a while. “I don’t
-know one of them that can make a thing clear like you, old man. It’s a
-shame&mdash;&mdash;” and here he coughed and broke off, as if endeavouring to
-swallow his last words.</p>
-
-<p>“What is a shame?” The broken sentence changed Mr. Sandford’s mood
-again&mdash;the momentary cheer died away. “Daniells,” he said, “I want you
-to tell me what you meant the other day by forcing me to accept that
-man’s offer. Yes, you did. I should not have let him have the picture
-but for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Forcing him! Oh, that’s a nice thing to say&mdash;the most obstinate fellow
-in all London!”</p>
-
-<p>“Never mind that; I can see you are fencing. Come, why did you do it?”</p>
-
-<p>Daniells paused for some time. He said a great many things to stave off
-his confusion, many half-things which involved others, and made his
-answer perhaps more clear than if he had put it directly into words.</p>
-
-<p>“I see,” Mr. Sandford said at last, “you thought it very unlikely that I
-should sell it at all to any one who knew better.”</p>
-
-<p>“It ain’t that. They don’t know half enough,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_069" id="page_069"></a>{69}</span> hang ’em! or they wouldn’t
-run after a booby like Blank and neglect you.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford smiled what he felt to be a very sickly smile. “We must let
-Blank have his day,” he said, “I don’t grudge it him; but I’d like to
-know why my chances are so bad. I have always sold my pictures.”</p>
-
-<p>Daniells gave him a sudden look, as if he would have spoken; then
-thought better of it, and said nothing.</p>
-
-<p>“I have had no reason to complain,” Mr. Sandford continued; “I have done
-very well on the whole. I have never had extravagant prices like Em or
-En.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Daniells; “you see, you’ve never made an ’it. You’ve gone on
-doing good work, and you’ve always done good work. I’d say that if I
-were to die for it; but you’ve never made an ’it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose that’s true; but you need not put it so very frankly,” said
-the painter, with a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Frankly! I’ve got occasion to put it frankly; and I say it’s a d&mdash;&mdash;d
-shame&mdash;that’s what it is,” cried Daniells, raising his voice.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_070" id="page_070"></a>{70}</span></p>
-
-<p>“You’ve had occasion? Now that we’re on this subject, I should like to
-get to the bottom of it. You’ve had occasion?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, of course,” said the picture dealer, “if you drive me into a
-corner. I’m in the middle of everything, and I hear what people say&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What do they say? That I’ve lost my sense of colour like old Millrain,
-or fallen into my dotage like&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Nonsense, Sandford! You know it’s nothing of the kind. Don’t talk such
-confounded nonsense. You are painting quite as well as ever, you know
-you are. They&mdash;people don’t care for that sort of thing. It’s too good
-for them, or you’re too good for them, or I don’t know what.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford kept smiling&mdash;not for pleasure; he was conscious of that
-sort of fixed smile that might be thought a sneer, at those people for
-whom he was too good. “And you’ve had occasion,” he said, “to prove
-this?”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t smile at me like that&mdash;don’t look like that. If you knew how I’ve
-argued and put it all before ’em&mdash;&mdash; I’ve said a hundred times if I’ve
-said once, ‘Sandford! why, Sandford’s one of the best. There isn’t a
-better educated painter not in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_071" id="page_071"></a>{71}</span> England. You can’t pick a hole in his
-pictures, try as you like.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>“Am I indeed so much discussed?” said the victim. “I did not know I was
-of such importance. And on what ground have you held this discussion,
-Daniells? There must have been some occasion for it. I don’t see
-anything here of mine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Look here,” cried the picture dealer, roused, “if you won’t believe
-me.” He opened the door of an inner room, into which Mr. Sandford
-followed him. And there, with their faces turned to the wall, were three
-pictures in a row. The shape of them gave him a faint, uneasy feeling.
-By this time Daniells had been wound up to self-defence, and thought of
-the painter’s feelings no more.</p>
-
-<p>“Look ’ere,” he said, “I shouldn’t have said a word if you had let well
-alone&mdash;but look ’ere.” Before one of the pictures was visible Mr.
-Sandford knew what he was going to see. Three pictures of his own, of a
-kind for which he had been famous&mdash;cabinet pictures, for which there had
-always been the readiest market. He recognised them all with a faintness
-that made his brain swim and the light go from his eyes. They seemed so
-familiar, like children. At the first glance, without looking at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_072" id="page_072"></a>{72}</span> them,
-he knew what they were and all about them, and had a sick longing that
-the earth would open and swallow them, and hide his shame, for so it
-seemed.</p>
-
-<p>“If that don’t show how I’ve trusted you, nothing can,” said the dealer.
-“I thought they were as safe as the bank. I bought them all on spec,
-thinking I’d get a customer as soon as they were in the shop&mdash;and, if
-you’ll believe me, nobody’ll have them. I can’t tell what people are
-thinking of, but that’s the truth.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford stood with the light going out of his eyes, gazing straight
-before him. “In that case&mdash;in that case,” he began, “you should&mdash;I
-must&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I say, don’t take it like that, old man. It’s the fortune of war. One
-up and another down. It can’t be helped, don’t you know. Sandford, I
-say, why, it’ll come all right again in half-a-dozen years or so. It’ll
-come all right after a time.”</p>
-
-<p>“What did you say?” said Mr. Sandford, dazed. Then he answered vaguely,
-“Oh yes; all right&mdash;all right.”</p>
-
-<p>“What’s the matter? I’ve been a wretched fool. Sandford, here, I say,
-have a glass of wine.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_073" id="page_073"></a>{73}</span></p>
-
-<p>“There’s nothing the matter. It seems to me a little&mdash;cold. I know&mdash;I
-know it’s not a cold day; but there’s a chill wind about,
-penetrating&mdash;thanks, Daniells, you’ve cleared up my problem very well.
-Now, I think&mdash;I think I understand.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t go now, Sandford; don’t go like this.”</p>
-
-<p>“I want,” he said, smiling again, “to think it over. Much obliged to
-you, Daniells, for helping me to understand.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sandford, don’t go like this. You make me awfully anxious&mdash;I’m sure
-you’re ill. I can’t let you go out of my place, looking so dreadfully
-ill, without some one with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Some one with me! I hope you don’t mean to insult me, Daniells. I am
-perfectly well&mdash;a little startled, but that’s all. I shall go and take a
-walk, and blow away the cobwebs, and&mdash;think it over. That’s the best
-thing. I’m much obliged to you, Daniells. Good-bye.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have a hansom, at least,” Daniells said.</p>
-
-<p>“No hansom,” Mr. Sandford answered, turning upon the dealer with a
-curious smile. He even laughed a little&mdash;low, but quite distinct. “No,
-I’ll have no hansom. Good-bye, Daniells, good-bye.”</p>
-
-<p>And in a minute he was gone. The picture<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_074" id="page_074"></a>{74}</span> dealer went out to the door
-after him, and followed him with his eyes until his figure was lost in
-the crowd. Daniells was alarmed. He blamed himself for his frankness. “I
-never thought he’d have taken it to heart like that,” he said to
-himself. “Yes, I did; or I might have done&mdash;he’s awful proud. But I’m
-’asty. I can’t help it; I’m always doing things I’m sorry for. Anyhow,
-he must have found it out some time, sooner or later,” the dealer said
-to himself; and this philosophy silenced his fears.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_075" id="page_075"></a>{75}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_IV-a" id="CHAPTER_IV-a"></a>CHAPTER IV.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Sandford</span> knew nothing till he found himself in the Regent’s Park,
-not far from his house. He had passed through the crowds in the street
-with his life and thoughts suspended, feeling that to think was
-impossible, seeing only before him the line of the three pictures
-standing against the wall. They seemed to accompany him on his way,
-showing against the front of the houses wherever he turned his eyes.
-Three pictures, painted cheerfully, without a premonition, or any sense
-of failure, or a moment’s fear that they would ever stand with their
-faces against a dealer’s wall. One of them had been a great favourite
-with his wife. The youngest girl&mdash;little Mary&mdash;had sat for one of the
-figures, and Mrs. Sandford had not wished to let it go. “I wish we could
-afford to keep this,” she said; “it is like selling our own flesh and
-blood.” But most painters have to accustom themselves to that small
-trouble, and even she had laughed at herself. And now to think that it
-had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_076" id="page_076"></a>{76}</span> never been sold at all&mdash;that it was unsaleable, oh, heaven! The
-sense of a dreadful humiliation, far more than was reasonable, filled
-the painter’s mind. The man whom he had always liked, but partly
-despised&mdash;Daniells, who was as ignorant as a pig, who knew a picture
-indeed when he saw it, but had not a notion why he liked it, nor could
-render a reason or tell how he knew one to be bad or another good&mdash;that
-he should be losing by his kindness, should be out of pocket, burdened
-by three “Sandfords” with their faces against the wall! Mr. Sandford’s
-gentle contempt came back upon him with a shock of humiliation and
-shame. To sneer at a man who had suffered by him, who had given money
-for his unsaleable work&mdash;a man who had thus shown himself a better man
-than he: for Daniells had never said a word, probably never would have
-said a word, listened to the painter’s calm assumptions and taken no
-notice, having it in his power all the time to shame him! Nay, he had
-done even more than this&mdash;he had brought his own customer out of his
-way, in pity and friendship, to buy that “Black Prince,” no doubt
-equally unsaleable, though&mdash;heaven help the poor painter!&mdash;he had not
-found it out. The pang<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_077" id="page_077"></a>{77}</span> of this humiliation, mingled with tingling shame
-and a painful gratitude and admiration, quivered through and through
-him, penetrating the dark dismay and pain of his suspended thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>He began to notice everything more clearly when he got into the park.
-The August afternoon was softening every moment into the deeper
-sweetness of the evening. He avoided instinctively the frequented parts,
-where the children were playing and people walking about, and made a
-long circuit round the outskirts of the park, where only a rare
-passenger was to be met with now and then. The air was sweet, though it
-was the air of town. The leaves were fluttering in a light breeze, the
-birds singing their evening songs, thrushes repeating a hundred
-questions, blackbirds unconditional, piping loud and clear, almost as
-good as nightingales. He was a man who was not hard to please, and even
-Regent’s Park delighted him on a summer evening. He felt it even now,
-notwithstanding the shadow that was over him. Never, up to this time,
-had care hung so heavy on Mr. Sandford but what he could escape from it
-by help of the artist-eye, ever ready to seize a passing effect, or by
-the gentle heart which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_078" id="page_078"></a>{78}</span> was full of sympathy with every human emotion or
-even whim of passing fancy. His heart was unaccustomed to anything
-tragical. It tried even now to beguile him and escape; to withdraw his
-attention to the long, streaming, level rays of the sinking sun; to get
-him out of himself to the aid of the child who had broken its toy and
-was crying with such passion&mdash;far more than a man can show for losses
-the most terrible&mdash;by the side of the road. And these expedients
-answered for the moment. But what had befallen him now was not to be
-eluded as other troubles had been. He could not escape from it. The most
-ingenious imagination could not lessen it by turning it over and over.
-Behind the sunset rays a strange vision of the unsold pictures came out
-into the very sky. They shaped themselves behind the child, whom it was
-so easy to pacify with a shilling, against the park palings.
-Three&mdash;which was one of the complete numbers, as if to prove the fulness
-of the disaster&mdash;three pictures unsold in Daniells’ inner room, and not
-a commission in hand, nothing wanted from him, no one to buy. After thus
-trying every device to escape, his heart grew low and faint within<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_079" id="page_079"></a>{79}</span> him,
-giving up the conflict; he felt a dull buzzing in his ears, and a dull
-throbbing in his breast.</p>
-
-<p>But thinking was not so easy a matter as it seemed. Think it over? How
-was he to think it over? If it were possible to imagine the case of a
-man who, walking serenely over a wide and peaceful country, should
-suddenly, with the softest, scarcely audible, roll of the pebbles under
-his feet, see the earth yawn before him and find himself on the brink of
-a fearful precipice, that would have been like his case: but not so bad
-as his case, for the man would have it in his power to draw back, to
-retire to the peaceful fields behind: whereas, to Mr. Sandford, there
-were no peaceful fields, but a gulf all round that one spot of
-undermined earth on which he stood. Presently he found himself at his
-own door, very tired and a little dazed in mind, thinking of that
-precipice, of nothing more distinct. The house stood very solid, very
-tranquil, its red roof all illumined with the last level line of the
-sun, the garden stretching into shady corners under the trees, the
-flower-beds blazing in lavish colours, the little lawn all burnt bare by
-the ardent sun and worn with the feet of the tennis players: all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_080" id="page_080"></a>{80}</span> so
-peaceful, certain, secure&mdash;an old-established home with deep
-foundations, and the assured, immovable look of household tranquillity
-and peace. If the walls had been tottering, the garden relapsing into
-weeds and wildness, he would not have been surprised&mdash;that would have
-been suitable to his circumstances. The thing unsuitable was to come
-back to that trim order and well-being, to that modest wealth and
-comfort and beauty, and to know that all this too, like himself, was on
-the edge of the precipice. Tired as he was, he went round the garden
-before he went in, and gazed wistfully at the pleasant dwelling with its
-open windows, wondering, when the next shock of the earthquake came,
-whether it would all fall to pieces like a house of cards, and everybody
-become aware that the earth was rent and a great chasm yawning before
-the peaceful door.</p>
-
-<p>He never seemed to have realised, before now, how full of modest luxury
-and exquisite comfort that house was. It was not yet covered up and
-dismantled, though the fingers of the maid-servants had been itching to
-get at that delightful task since ever “the family” left. All was empty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_081" id="page_081"></a>{81}</span>
-and still, but all in good order; no false pretension or show,
-everything temperate and well chosen; rich, soft carpets in which the
-foot sank, curtains hanging in graceful folds, the cosiest chairs,
-Italian cabinets, Venice glass, pictures, not only of his own but of
-many contemporary artists&mdash;a delightful interior, without a bare corner
-or vacant spot anywhere. He went over it with a sort of despairing
-pleasure and admiration, his head aching and giddy, with a sense that at
-any moment the next shock might come, and everything collapse like the
-shadows of a dream. Presently he was served with his dinner, which he
-could not eat, in the cool dining-room, with a large window opening to
-the garden and the sweet air breathing about him as he sat down at the
-vacant table. What a mockery of all certitude and safety it was!&mdash;for
-nothing could seem more firmly established, more solid and secure. If he
-had been a prince of the blood he might have had a more splendid
-dwelling, but not more comfort, more pleasantness. All that a sober mind
-could desire was there&mdash;the utmost refinement of comfort, beautiful
-things all around, every colour subdued into perfection, no noise or
-anything to break the spell. He was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_082" id="page_082"></a>{82}</span> glad that the others were
-absent&mdash;it was the only alleviation to the dismay within him. There
-would have been questions as to what was the matter&mdash;“Are you ill,
-Edward?” “What is wrong with papa?” and other such questions, which he
-could not have borne.</p>
-
-<p>Afterwards he went into the studio. The first thing that caught his eye
-was the glow of that piece of drapery which he had painted under the
-keen stimulant of the first warning. It had been a stimulant then, and
-he was startled by the splendour of the colour he had put into that
-piece of stuff&mdash;the roundness of it, the clear transparence of the
-shadows. It stood out upon the picture like something by another hand,
-painted in another age. Had he done that only a few hours ago&mdash;he with
-the same brushes which had produced the rest of the picture which looked
-so pale and insignificant beside it? How had he done it? it made all the
-rest of the picture fade. He recognised in a moment the jogtrot, the
-ordinary course of life, and against it the flush of the sudden
-inspiration, the stronger handling, the glory and glow of the colour. He
-had never done anything better in his life; he whose pictures were drugs
-in the market,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_083" id="page_083"></a>{83}</span> who had not a commission to look forward to. He stood
-and looked at it for a long time, growing sadder and sadder. He was not
-a man who had failed, and who could rail against the world; he was a man
-who had succeeded; not a painter in England but would laugh out if any
-one said that Sandford had been a failure. Why, who had been successful
-if he had not? they would have said. He had not a word to say against
-fate. Nobody was to blame, not even himself, seeing that now, in the
-midst of all, he could still paint like that. He knew the value of that
-as well as any man could know it. He could not shut his eyes to it
-because he himself had done it. If he saw such a bit of painting in a
-young fellow’s picture he would say, “Well done;” he would say, “Paint
-like that, and you have your fortune in your own hand.” Ah, but he was
-himself no longer a young fellow. Success was not before him; he had
-grasped her, held her, and now it seemed his day was past.</p>
-
-<p>It is never cheerful to have to allow that your day is past. But there
-are circumstances which make it less difficult. Sometimes a man accepts
-gracefully enough that message of dismissal. Then he will retire with a
-certain dignity, enjoying the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_084" id="page_084"></a>{84}</span> ease which he has purchased with his hard
-work, and looking on henceforward at the struggle of the others, not
-sorry, perhaps, or at least saying to the world that he is not sorry, to
-be out of that conflict. Mr. Sandford said to himself that in other
-circumstances he might have been capable of this; might have laid aside
-his pencil, occupied himself with guiding the younger, helping the less
-strong, standing umpire, perhaps, in the strife, giving place to those
-who represented the future, and whose day was but beginning. Such a
-retirement must always seem a fit and seemly thing: but not now; not in
-what he felt was but the fulness of his career; not, above all&mdash;and this
-gave the sting to all&mdash;not while he was still depending upon his
-profession for his daily bread. His daily bread, and what was worse than
-that, the daily bread of those he loved. How many things that simple
-phrase involved! Oh for the simplicity of those days when it meant but
-what it said! He asked himself with a curious, fantastic, half-amused,
-half-despairing curiosity whether it had ever meant mere bread? Bread
-and a little fruit, perhaps; a cake, and a draught from a spring in the
-primitive Eastern days when the phrase was invented. “Day<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_085" id="page_085"></a>{85}</span> by day our
-daily bread:” a loaf like that of Elijah which the angel brought him:
-the cakes of manna in the wilderness of which only enough was gathered
-to suffice for one day: and the tent at night to retire to, or a cave,
-perhaps&mdash;a shelter which cost nothing. How different now was daily
-bread; so many things involved in it, that careful product of many men’s
-work, the house which was his home: and all the costly nameless
-necessities, so much more than food and clothing; the dainty and
-pleasant things, the flowers and gardens, the amusements, the trifles
-that make life delightful and sweet. Give us our daily bread: had it
-ever been supposed to mean all that? All these many years these
-necessities had been supplied, and all had gone on as if it were part of
-the constitution of the world. But now the time had come when the
-machinery was stopped, when everything was brought to a conclusion. Mr.
-Sandford turned his eye from that bit of painting which stood out upon
-his picture as if the sun had touched it, to the sheaves of old studies
-and sketches in the portfolios, the half-finished bits about the walls,
-all those scraps and fragments, full of suggestion, full of beautiful
-thoughts, which make the studio of a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_086" id="page_086"></a>{86}</span> great painter rich. He had thought
-a few days ago that all this meant wealth. Now his eyes were opened, and
-he saw that it meant nothing, that all about him was rubbish not worth
-the collection, and himself, who could work no longer, who was no more
-good for anything, only one piece of lumber the more, the most valueless
-of all.</p>
-
-<p>He paused, and tried to say to himself that this was morbid. But it was
-not morbid, it was true. With that curious hurrying of the thoughts
-which a great calamity brings about, he had already glimpsed everything,
-seeing the whole situation and all that was involved. There was a
-certain sum of money in the bank, no more anywhere, except after his own
-death. There were his insurances, a little for every one, enough, he had
-hoped, though in a much changed and subdued manner, to support his wife
-and the girls, enough for that daily bread of which he had been
-thinking; but it could not be had till he died; and that was all. There
-was nothing, nothing more; nothing to live upon, nothing to turn to. If
-you have losses, if your income is reduced, you can retrench and
-diminish your expenses. But when everything is cut off in a moment, when
-you have no income at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_087" id="page_087"></a>{87}</span> all? such utter loss paralyses the unfortunate.
-He stood in his studio with a sort of vague smile upon his face, and
-something of the imbecility of utter helplessness taking possession of
-him. Everything cut off. Nothing to turn to. Vague visions passed
-through his mind of the expenses of that seaside house, for instance,
-which could not be got rid of now; of Lizzie’s fifty pounds a year which
-he had promised not without forebodings; of Jack’s fee of two guineas
-which the children had all made so merry about; of the easy course of
-their existence, their life, which was so blameless, so innocent, so
-kind: they were all ready to give, ready to be hospitable; none of the
-family could see another in want and not eagerly offer what they had.
-Good God! and to think they had nothing, nothing! It was not a question
-of enough, it was that there was nothing; that all the streams were
-closed, and all the doors shut, and the successful man, with his large
-income, had suddenly become like a navvy out of work, like a dock
-labourer, or whatever was most pitifully unprovided for in the world.</p>
-
-<p>It made Mr. Sandford’s brain whirl. So much in the bank, and after that
-nothing; and all the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_088" id="page_088"></a>{88}</span> liberal life going on; the servants, who could not
-be sent off at a moment’s notice; the house, which could not be
-abandoned; the family, all so cheerful in their false security, who had
-no presentiment of evil. He asked himself what people did who were
-ruined? He had no great acquaintance with such things. What did they do?
-He was very helpless. He could not realise the possibility of breaking
-up the house, having no home; of dispersing all the pleasant things
-which had been part of his being so long; of stopping short&mdash;&mdash; He could
-not understand how such things were done. And those people who were
-ruined generally had something upon which they could fall back. A
-merchant could begin again. He might have friends who would help him to
-a new start, and there was always hope that he might do as well at last
-as at first. But an artist (at sixty) could have no new start. The
-public would have none of him. He had done his best; he could not begin
-anew. His career when once closed was over, and nothing more could be
-made of it. He remembered with a forlorn self-reproach of having himself
-said that So-and-so should retire; that it would be more dignified to
-give up work before work gave him up.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_089" id="page_089"></a>{89}</span> Ah! so easy a thing to say, so
-cruel a thing to say; but he had not realised that it was cruel, or that
-such an end was cruel. He had never supposed it possible that such a
-thing could happen to himself.</p>
-
-<p>The insurances: yes, there were always the insurances: a thousand pounds
-for each child, that was the calculation they had made. They had said to
-each other in the old times, Mary and he, that they never could save
-money enough to make any appreciable provision for so many children, but
-that if they could but secure for each a thousand pounds, that would
-always be something. It would help to give the boys a start; it would be
-something for the girls. That the boys should all have professions in
-which they would be doing well, and the girls husbands to provide for
-them, had seemed too commonplace a certainty even to be dwelt upon: and
-a thousand pounds is never to be despised; it would help the young ones
-over any early struggle, it would make all the difference. “So long as
-we live,” Mrs. Sandford had said, “they will always have us to fall back
-upon: and afterwards&mdash;what a thing it would have been for us, Edward, to
-have a thousand pounds to the good<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_090" id="page_090"></a>{90}</span> to begin upon!” They had thought
-they made everything safe so, for the young ones. Mr. Sandford, indeed,
-still felt a faint lightening of his heart as he thought of the
-insurances. It had always done him good to think of them; that would be
-something at least to leave behind. But then it was necessary first that
-he should die.</p>
-
-<p>He had never thought urgently of that necessity. So long as there is
-nothing pressing about it, no appearance of its approach, it is easy
-enough to speak of that conclusion. Sometimes there is even a pensive
-pleasure in it. “When I am out of the way,” “When our day is over,” are
-things quite simple to say. For of course that must come one time or
-another, as everybody knows. It is more serious, but still not anything
-very bad, to speak now and then of what is to be done “if anything
-happens.” These things make but little impression upon the mind, even
-when old age is on its way. And Mr. Sandford at sixty had as yet felt
-very few premonitions of old age. He had called himself an old man with
-a laugh, for his eye was not dim, nor his natural force abated; and it
-was still pleasantly absurd to think that he could be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_091" id="page_091"></a>{91}</span> supposed an old
-man. But now all this took a different aspect. He felt no older, indeed,
-but his position was altogether changed. In the shock of his new
-circumstances he stood helpless, not knowing how to meet this unfeared,
-unthought-of contingency. But his mind went off with a spring to further
-eventualities. The only comfort was this, they had a thousand pounds
-apiece laid up for them. But it would be necessary first that he should
-die.</p>
-
-<p>Thinking it all over, he thought, on the whole, that this was the best
-thing that could happen. The changes which he surveyed with such a sense
-of impossibility, not knowing how they could be brought about, would
-become quite natural if he died. There was always a change on the death
-of the father. It was the natural time for remodelling life, for
-altering everything. The family would not be able, of course, to remain
-in this house, to keep up their present superstructure of existence: but
-then in the change of circumstances that would seem quite natural and
-they would not feel it. They could put everything, then, upon a simpler
-footing. And they would have an income, not much of an income, perhaps,
-but yet something<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_092" id="page_092"></a>{92}</span> that would come in punctually to the day, and which
-would be independent of anything they did, which would have nothing to
-do with picture dealers or patrons of art, or the changes of taste that
-affected them. What a thing that was, when one came to think of it, to
-have an income&mdash;something which came in all the same whether you worked
-or not, whether you were ill or well, whether you were in a good vein
-and could get on with your picture, or whether it dragged and did not
-satisfy you! It gave him a sensation of pleasure to think of it: but
-then he reflected on the one preliminary which was not so easy to bring
-about, which no planning of his could accomplish just when it was
-wanted, just when it would be of most use.</p>
-
-<p>For before this state of things could ensue, it would be necessary that
-Mr. Sandford should be dead; and so far as he was aware there was no
-immediate prospect of anything of the kind. People do not die when it is
-most necessary, when it would be most expedient. It is a thing
-independent of your own will, horribly uncertain, happening just when it
-is not wanted. This difficulty, when he had begun to take a little<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_093" id="page_093"></a>{93}</span>
-comfort in the possible arrangement of everything, sent the painter back
-into all the confusion of miserable thoughts. Was it possible that he
-was in circumstances which made it impossible for him to do anything,
-even to die?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_094" id="page_094"></a>{94}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_V-a" id="CHAPTER_V-a"></a>CHAPTER V.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Sandford</span> went down next day to the seaside to join his family. They
-had got a very pleasant house, in full sight of the sea. “What was the
-use of going to the sea at all,” Mrs. Sandford said, “unless you got the
-full good of it? All the sunsets and effects, and its aspect at every
-hour of the day, which was so very different from having merely glimpses
-of it&mdash;that is what my husband likes,” she said. And of course this
-meant the most expensive place. He was met at the station by his wife
-and little Mary, the youngest, who was always considered papa’s
-favourite. The others had all gone along the coast with a large pic-nic
-party, some of them in a boat, some riding&mdash;for there were fine
-sands&mdash;and a delightful gallop along that crisp firm road, almost within
-the flash of the waves, was most invigorating. “They all look ever so
-much the better for it already,” said the fond mother.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_095" id="page_095"></a>{95}</span></p>
-
-<p>“There was not much the matter with them before that I could see.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nothing the matter! But they do so enjoy the sea. And I find there
-are a great many people here whom we know&mdash;more than usual; and a great
-deal going on.”</p>
-
-<p>“There is generally a good deal going on.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Edward, staying behind has not been good for you; you are
-looking pale; and I never heard you grudge the children their little
-pleasures before.”</p>
-
-<p>“<i>I</i> stayed at home, papa,” said little Mary, not willing to be
-unappreciated, “to be the first to see you.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are always a good little girl,” said the father gratefully.</p>
-
-<p>“I assure you they were all anxious to stay: but I did not think you
-would like them to give up a pleasure,” said Mrs. Sandford, never
-willing to have any of her children subjected to an unfavourable
-comparison.</p>
-
-<p>“No; oh no,” he said, with a sigh. It was almost impossible not to feel
-a grudge at the thought of that careless enjoyment, no one taking any
-thought; but he could not burst out with any<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_096" id="page_096"></a>{96}</span> disclosures of his trouble
-before little Mary, looking up wistfully in his face with a child’s
-sensitiveness to the perception of something wrong. Mary was more ready
-to perceive this than Mrs. Sandford, who only thought that her husband
-was perhaps a little out of temper, or annoyed by some trifling matter,
-or merely affected by the natural misanthropy of three days’ solitude.
-She clasped his arm caressingly with her hand as she led him along.</p>
-
-<p>“You have got some cobwebs into your mind,” she said, “but the sea
-breezes will soon blow them away.”</p>
-
-<p>The sea breezes were very fresh; the sea itself spread out under the
-sunshine a dazzling stretch of blue; the wide vault of heaven all belted
-with lines of summer cloud, “which landward stretched along the deep”
-like celestial countries far away. The air was filled with the soft
-plash of the water, the softened sound of voices. The whole population
-seemed out of doors, and all in full enjoyment of the heavenly afternoon
-and the sights and sounds of the sea. Walking along through these
-holiday groups, with his wife by his side and his little girl holding
-his hand, Mr. Sandford felt an unreasonable<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_097" id="page_097"></a>{97}</span> calm&mdash;a sense of soothing
-quiet&mdash;come over him. He could not dismiss the phantom which
-overshadowed him, but he felt for the moment that he could ignore it. It
-was necessary that he should ignore it. He could not communicate to his
-wife so tragical a discovery there and then, in her ease and cheerful
-holiday mood. He must prepare her for it. Not all in a moment could that
-revelation burst upon her. Poor Mary! so happy in her children, so full
-of their plans and pleasures, so secure in the certainty of prosperous
-life: even the child, strange to think it, understood him better, being
-nearer, he supposed, to those springs of life where there are no shades
-of intervening feeling, but all is either happiness or despair. A
-profound sorrow for these innocent creatures came into his mind; he
-could not overcloud them, either the mother or the child. They were so
-glad to have him again; so proud to walk on either side of him, pointing
-out everything: and all was so happy, were it not for one thing; nothing
-to trouble them, all well, all full of pleasure, confidence, health,
-lightheartedness; not a cloud&mdash;except that one.</p>
-
-<p>“You have been tiring yourself&mdash;doing too much<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_098" id="page_098"></a>{98}</span> while you have been
-alone; the servants have made you uncomfortable; they have been pulling
-everything, to pieces, though I left the most stringent orders&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No, the servants were very good; they disturbed nothing, though they
-were longing to get at it.”</p>
-
-<p>“They always are; they take a positive pleasure in making the house look
-as desolate as possible&mdash;as if nobody was ever going to live in it any
-more.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nobody going to live in it more!” he repeated the words with a faint
-smile. “No&mdash;on the contrary, it looked the most liveable place I ever
-saw. I never felt its home-look so much.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a nice little place,” she said, with a little pressure of his
-arm. “Whatever may happen to the children in after life, we can always
-feel that they have had a happy youth and a bright home.”</p>
-
-<p>“What should happen to them?” he said, alarmed with a sudden fear that
-she must know.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nothing, I hope, but what is good; but the first change in the
-family always makes one think. I hope you won’t mind, Edward: Lance
-Moulton is here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, he is here!”</p>
-
-<p>“If it is really to be so, Edward, don’t you think<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_099" id="page_099"></a>{99}</span> it is better they
-should see as much of each other as possible?” his wife said, with
-another tender pressure of his arm. “And somehow, when there is a thing
-of that kind in the air, everything seems quickened; I am sure I can’t
-tell how it is. It gives a ‘go’ to all they are doing. There are no end
-of plans and schemes among them. Of course, Lance has a friend or two
-about, and the Dropmores are here, who are such friends of our girls.”</p>
-
-<p>“And all is fun and nonsense, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, if you call it so&mdash;all pleasure, and kindness, and real
-delightful holiday. Oh, Edward,” said Mrs. Sandford, with the ghost of a
-tear in her eye, “don’t let us check it! It is the brightest time of
-their lives.”</p>
-
-<p>The sunset was blazing in glory upon the sea, the belts of cloud all
-reddening and glowing, soft puffs of vapour like roses floating across
-the blue of the sky. And the air full of young voices softened and
-musical, children playing, lovers wandering about, happy mothers
-watching the sport, all tender gaiety, and security, and peace.
-Everything joyful&mdash;save one thing. “No; God forbid that I should check
-it,” he said hastily, with a sigh that might have been a groan.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_100" id="page_100"></a>{100}</span></p>
-
-<p>They all came back not long after, full of high spirits and endless
-talk; they were all glad to see their father, who had never been any
-restraint upon their pleasure, whose grave, gentle presence had never
-checked or stilled them. They were sure of his sympathy more or less. If
-he did not share their fun, he had at least never discouraged it. And
-soon in the plenitude of their own affairs they forgot him, as was so
-natural, and filled the room with laughing consultations over
-to-morrow’s pleasure, and plans for it. “What are we going to do?” they
-all cried, one after another, even Lizzie and Lance, coming in a little
-dazzled from the balcony, where they had been enjoying the last fading
-lights of the ending day, while the others had clamoured for lamps and
-candles inside; “What are we going to do?” Mrs. Sandford sat beaming
-upon them, hearing all the suggestions, offering a new idea now and
-then. “I must know to-night, that the hampers may be got ready,” she
-said; and then there was an echoing laugh all round. “Mother’s always so
-practical.” Mr. Sandford sat a little outside of that lively circle with
-a book in his hand. But he was not reading; he was watching them with a
-strange fascination;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_101" id="page_101"></a>{101}</span> not willing to check them; oh no! feeling a
-helpless sort of wonder that they should play such pranks on the edge of
-the precipice, and that none of them should divine&mdash;that even his wife
-should not divine! The animated group, full in the light of the
-lamps&mdash;girls and young men in the frank familiarity of the family
-interrupting each other, contradicting each other, discussing and
-arguing&mdash;was as charming a study as a painter could have desired; the
-mother in the midst with her pencil in her hand and a sheet of white
-paper on the table before her, which threw back the light; and behind,
-the lovers stealing in out of the soft twilight shadows, the faint
-glimmer of distant sea and sky. He watched it with a strange dull ache
-under the pleasure of the father and the painter: the light touching
-those graceful outlines, shining in those young eyes, the glimmer of
-shining hair, the play of animated features, the soft, dreamlike,
-suggestive shadows of the two behind. And yet the precipice yawning,
-gaping at their feet, though nobody knew.</p>
-
-<p>“Papa,” said suddenly a small voice in his ear, “I am not going
-to-morrow. I want to stay with you.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_102" id="page_102"></a>{102}</span></p>
-
-<p>“My little Mary! But I am a dull old fellow, not worth staying with.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are sorry about something, papa!”</p>
-
-<p>“Sorry? There are a great many things in the world to be sorry about,”
-he said, stroking her brown head. The child had clasped her hands about
-his arm, and was nestling close up to him whispering. They were
-altogether outside of the lively group at the table. This little
-consoler comforted Mr. Sandford more than words could say.</p>
-
-<p>It was thus that the holiday life went on. The young people were always
-consulting what to do, making up endless excursions and expeditions,
-Mrs. Sandford always explaining for them. What was the use of being at
-the seaside if they did not take full advantage of it? What was the use
-of coming to a new part of the country if they did not see everything?
-Sometimes she went with them, compelled by the addition of various
-strangers with whom the girls could not go without a chaperon; sometimes
-stayed at home with her husband, calculating where they would be by this
-time; whether they had found a pleasant spot for their luncheon; when
-they might be expected back. Meanwhile, Mr. Sandford took long solitary
-walks<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_103" id="page_103"></a>{103}</span>&mdash;very long, very solitary&mdash;along the endless line of the sands,
-within sight and sound of the sea. Little Mary and her next brother, the
-schoolboy, always started with him; but the fascination of the rocks and
-pools was too much for these little people, and the father, not
-ill-pleased, went on with a promise of picking them up again on his way
-back. He would walk on and on for the whole of the fresh shining
-morning, with the sea on one side and the green country on the other,
-and all the wonderful magical lights of the sky and water shining as if
-for him alone. They beguiled him out of himself with their miraculous
-play and shimmer and wealth of heavenly reflection; and sometimes he
-seemed to feel a higher sensation still&mdash;the feeling as of a silent
-great Companion who filled the heavenly space, yet moved with him, an
-all-embracing, all-responsive sympathy, till he thought of God coming
-down to the cool of the garden and walking with His creatures, and all
-his trouble seemed to breathe away in a heavenly hush, which every
-little wave repeated, softly lapping at his feet.</p>
-
-<p>But when he came back into the midst of his cheerful family other
-subjects got the upper hand.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_104" id="page_104"></a>{104}</span> There was not the least harm in the gaiety
-that was about him&mdash;not the least harm; it was mere exuberance of
-youthful life and pleasure. If things had been running their usual
-course, and his usual year’s work had been in front of him, Mr. Sandford
-said to himself that he too would have come out to the door to see the
-children start on their expeditions, as his wife did, with pleasure in
-their good looks, and in the family union and happiness. He might have
-grumbled a little over Harry’s idleness, or even shaken his head over
-the expense; but he too would have liked it&mdash;he would have admired his
-young ones, and taken pleasure in seeing them happy. But to stand by and
-watch all that, and know that presently the revenue which kept it all up
-would stop, and the ground be cut from under their feet, sheer down,
-like a precipice! Already he had begun to familiarise himself with this
-idea. It had a sort of paralysing effect, as well as one of panic and
-horror. It is not a thing that happens often. People grow poorer, or
-even they get ruined at a blow, but there is generally something
-remaining upon which economy will tell; he went over these differences
-in his lonely hours, imagining a hundred cases. A<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_105" id="page_105"></a>{105}</span> merchant, for
-instance, who ruins himself by speculation, if he is an honourable man,
-has means at his disposal of trying again, or at least can get a
-situation in an office (at the worst), where he will still have an
-income&mdash;a steady income, though it may be small; his friends, and the
-people who had business relations with him, would be sure to exert
-themselves to secure him that; or if his losses were but partial, of
-course nothing could be easier than to retrench and live at a lower
-rate. So Mr. Sandford said to himself. But what can a few economies do
-when at a critical moment, at a period close at hand, all incoming must
-cease, and nothing remain? It did not now give him the violent shock of
-sensation which he had felt at first when this fact came uppermost. He
-had become accustomed to it. It was not <i>après moi</i>, but in three months
-or so, the deluge: an end to everything, no half measures, no
-retrenchment, but the end. He began to wonder when that time came what
-would be done. The house could be sold, and all that was in it, but
-where then would they go for shelter? They would have to pay for the
-poorest lodgings, and at least there was nothing to pay for the house.
-Mr. Sandford was not a man of business, he was a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_106" id="page_106"></a>{106}</span> man of few resources;
-he did not know what to do, or where to turn when his natural occupation
-failed him.</p>
-
-<p>These thoughts went through his mind in a painful round. Three months or
-so, and then an end of everything. Three months, and then the precipice
-so near that the next step must be over it. Perhaps in other
-circumstances, or if he had not been known to be so near the head of his
-profession, he might have thought of artists’ work of some other kind
-which he could do. He might have tried to illustrate books, to take up
-one of the art manufactures; might have become a designer, a decorator,
-something that would bring in money. But in this respect he was so
-helpless, he knew no more what to do than the most ignorant; his heart
-failed him when he tried to penetrate into the darkness of that future.
-The only thing that came uppermost was the thought of the insurances,
-and of the thousand pounds for each which the children would have. It
-was not very much, but still it was something, a something real and
-tangible, not like a workman’s wages for work, which may fail in a
-moment as soon as he fails to please his employer, or loses his skill,
-or grows too old for it. It had never<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_107" id="page_107"></a>{107}</span> occurred to Mr. Sandford before
-how precarious these wages are, how little to be relied on. To think of
-a number of people depending for their whole living upon the skill of
-one man’s hand, upon the clearness of his sight, the truth of his
-instincts, even the fashion of the moment! It seems, when you look at it
-in the light of a discovery such as that which he had made, so mad, so
-fatal! A thing that may cease in a moment as if it had never been, yet
-with all the complicated machinery of life built upon it, based on the
-strange theory that it would go on for ever! On the other hand a
-thousand pounds is a solid thing; it would be a certainty for each of
-them. Harry might go to one of the colonies and get an excellent start
-with a thousand pounds in his pocket. Jack would no doubt be startled
-into energy by the sense of having something which it would be fatal to
-lose, yet which could not be lived upon. A thousand pounds would make
-all the difference to Lizzie on her marriage. When he thought of his
-wife a quiver of pain went over him, and yet he tried to calculate all
-the chances there would be for her. All friends would be stirred in
-sympathy for her; they would get her a pension, they would gather round
-her: it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_108" id="page_108"></a>{108}</span> would be made easy for her to break up this expensive way of
-living, and begin on a smaller footing. There would be the house, which
-would bring her in a little secure income if it was let. Whatever she
-had would be secure&mdash;it would be based on something solid, certain&mdash;not
-on a man’s work, which might lose its excellence or go out of fashion.
-He felt himself smile with a kind of pleasure at the contemplation of
-this steady certainty&mdash;which he never had possessed, which he never
-could possess, but which poor Mary, with a pension and the rent of the
-house, would at last obtain. Poor Mary! his lip quivered when he thought
-of her. He wondered if the children would absorb her interest as much
-when he was no longer in the background, whether she would be able to
-find in them all that she wanted, and consolation for his absence. It
-was not with any sense of blame that this thought went through his mind.
-Blame her! oh no. To think of her children was surely a mother’s first
-duty. She was not aware that her husband wanted consolation and help
-more than they did. How could she know when he did not tell her? And he
-felt incapable of telling her. He had meant to do it.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_109" id="page_109"></a>{109}</span> When he came he
-had intended as soon as possible to prepare her for it, to lead by
-degrees to that revelation which could not but be given. But to break in
-upon all their innocent gaieties, to stop her as she stood kissing her
-hand to the merry cavalcade as they set out, her eyes shining with a
-mother’s delight and pride; to call her away from among her pretty
-daughters (she, her husband thought the fairest of them all), and their
-pleasant babble about pleasures past and to come, and pour black despair
-into the cheerful heart, how could he do it, how could any one do it?
-Such happiness was sacred. He could not interrupt it, he could not
-destroy it; it was pathetic, tragic, beyond words: on the edge of the
-precipice! Oh no, no! not now, he could not tell her. Let the holidays
-be over, let common life resume again, and then&mdash;unless by the grace of
-God something else might happen before.</p>
-
-<p>They all noticed, however, that papa was dull&mdash;which was the way in
-which it struck the young people&mdash;that he had no sympathy with their
-gaiety, that he was “grumpy,” which was what it came to. Lizzie thought
-that this probably arose from dissatisfaction with her marriage, and
-was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_110" id="page_110"></a>{110}</span> indignant. “If he doesn’t think Lance good enough, I wonder what
-would please him. Did he expect one of the princes to propose to me?”
-she cried.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Lizzie, my love, don’t speak so of your father!”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, mamma, he should not look at us so,” cried the girl.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Sandford herself was a little indignant too. Her sympathies were
-all with the children. She saw disapproval in his subdued looks, and was
-ready at any moment to spring to arms in defence of her children. And
-indeed sometimes, in his great trouble, which no one divined, Mr.
-Sandford would sometimes become impatient.</p>
-
-<p>“I wish,” he would say, “that Jack would do something&mdash;does he never do
-anything at all? It frets me to see a young man so idle.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Edward!” cried his wife, “it is the Long Vacation. What should
-he have to do?”</p>
-
-<p>“And Harry?” Mr. Sandford said.</p>
-
-<p>“Poor boy! You know he would give his little finger to have anything to
-do. He has nothing to do. How can he help that? When we go back to town
-you must really put your shoulder to the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_111" id="page_111"></a>{111}</span> wheel. Among all your friends
-surely, surely, something could be got for Harry,” said his mother, thus
-turning the tables. “And in the meantime,” she added, “to get all the
-health he can, and the full good of the sea, is certainly the best thing
-the poor fellow could do.”</p>
-
-<p>What answer could be made to this? Mr. Sandford went out for his
-walk&mdash;that long silent walk, in which the great Consoler came down from
-amid all the silvery lights and shining skies, and walked with him in
-the freshness of the morning, all silent in tenderness and great
-solemnity and awe.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_112" id="page_112"></a>{112}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VI-a" id="CHAPTER_VI-a"></a>CHAPTER VI.</h3>
-
-<p>“Unless, by the grace of God, something should happen”&mdash;that was what he
-kept saying to himself when he reflected on the disclosure which must be
-made when the seaside season was over. The great events of life rarely
-happen according to our will. A man cannot die when he wishes it, though
-there should be every argument in favour of such an event, and its
-advantages most palpable. The moment passes in which that conclusion
-would have all the force and satisfactory character of a great tragedy,
-and a dreary postscript of existence drivels on, destructive of all
-dignity and appropriateness. We live when we should do much better to
-die, and we die sometimes when every circumstance calls upon us to live.</p>
-
-<p>Most people will think that it was a very dreary hope that moved Mr.
-Sandford’s mind&mdash;perhaps even that it was not the expedient of a brave
-man to desire to leave his wife and children to endure the change and
-the struggle from which he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_113" id="page_113"></a>{113}</span> shrank in his own person. But this was not
-how it appeared to him. He thought, and with some reason, that the
-change which becomes inevitable on the death of the head of a house is
-without humiliation, without the pang of downfall which would be
-involved in an entire reversal of life which had not that excuse; he
-thought that everybody who knew him would regret the change, and that
-every effort would be made to help those who were left behind. It would
-be no shame to them to accept that help; it would seem to them a tribute
-to his position rather than pity for them. His wife would believe that
-her husband, a great painter, one of the first of the day, had fully
-earned that recognition, and would be proud of the pension or the money
-raised for her as of a monument in his honour. And then the insurances.
-There could be no doubt, he said to himself, with a rueful smile, that
-so much substantial money would be much better to have than a man who
-could earn nothing, who had become incapable, whose work nobody wanted.
-He had no doubt whatever that it would be by far the best solution. It
-would rouse the boys by a sharp and unmistakable necessity; it might, he
-thought,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_114" id="page_114"></a>{114}</span> be the making of the boys, who had no fault in particular
-except the disposition to take things easily, which was the weakness of
-this generation. And as for the others, they would be taken care of&mdash;no
-doubt they would be taken care of. Their condition would appeal to the
-kindness of every friend who had ever bought a “Sandford” or thought it
-an honour to know the painter. He would even himself be restored to
-honour and estimation by the act of dying, which often is a very
-ingratiating thing, and makes the public change its opinion. All these
-arguments were so strongly in favour of it that to think there was no
-means of securing it depressed Mr. Sandford’s mind more than all. By the
-grace of God. But it is certain that the Disposer of events does not
-always see matters as His creatures see them. No one can make sure,
-however warmly such a decree might be wished for, or even prayed for,
-that it will be given. If only that would happen! But it was still more
-impossible to secure its happening than to open a new market for the
-pictures, or cause commissions to pour in again.</p>
-
-<p>It may be asked whether Mr. Sandford’s conviction, which was so strong
-on this subject, ever<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_115" id="page_115"></a>{115}</span> moved him to do anything to bring about his
-desire. It was impossible, perhaps, that the idea should not have
-crossed his mind&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“When we ourselves can our demission make<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">With a bare bodkin.”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p class="nind">And we can scarcely say that it was, like Hamlet, the fear of something
-after death that restrained him. It was a stronger sentiment still. It
-was the feeling that to give one’s self one’s dismissal is quite a
-different thing. It is a flight&mdash;it is a running away; all the arguments
-against the selfishness of desiring to leave his wife and children to a
-struggle from which he had escaped came into action against that. What
-would be well if accomplished by the grace of God would be miserable if
-done by the will of the man who might be mistaken in his estimate of the
-good it would do. And then another practical thought, more tragical than
-any in its extreme materialism and matter-of-fact character, it would
-vitiate the insurances! If the children were to gain nothing by his
-death, then it would certainly be better for them that he should live.
-On that score there could be no doubt. This made suicide as completely
-out of the question<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_116" id="page_116"></a>{116}</span> from a physical point of view as it was already
-from a spiritual. He could not discharge himself from God’s service on
-earth, though he should be very thankful if God would discharge him; and
-he could not do anything to endanger the precious provision he had made
-for his family. It can scarcely be said that Mr. Sandford considered
-this case at leisure or with comparison of the arguments for and
-against, for his decision was instinctive and immediate; nevertheless
-the idea floated uppermost sometimes in the surging and whirl up and
-down of many thoughts, but always to be dismissed in the same way.</p>
-
-<p>Two or three weeks had passed in this way when one evening Mr. Sandford
-received a letter from Daniells, the dealer, inviting him to join a
-party on the Yorkshire moors. Daniells was well enough off to be able to
-deny himself nothing. He was not a gentleman, yet the sports that
-gentlemen love were within reach of his wealth, and gentlemen not so
-well off as he showed much willingness to share in his good things. Some
-fine people whose names it was a pleasure to read were on his list, and
-some painters who were celebrated enough to eclipse the fine people.
-That all these should<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_117" id="page_117"></a>{117}</span> be gathered together by a man who was as ignorant
-as a pig, and not much better bred, was wonderful; but so it was.
-Perhaps the fact that Daniells was really at heart a good fellow had
-something to do with it: but even had this not been the case, it is
-probable that he could still have found guests to shoot on his moor, and
-eat the birds they had shot. Mr. Sandford was no sportsman, and at first
-he had little inclination to accept. It was his wife who urged him to do
-so.</p>
-
-<p>“You are not enjoying Broadbeach as you usually do,” she said; “you are
-bored by it. Oh, don’t tell me, Edward, I can see it in your eyes.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you think so, my dear, no denial of mine&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said, shaking her head; “nothing you say will change my
-opinion. I am dreadfully sorry, for I am fond of the place; but I have
-made up my mind already never to come here again: for you are bored&mdash;it
-is as plain as possible: you want a change: you must go.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not much of a change to visit Daniells,” said Mr. Sandford.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it isn’t Daniells; it’s the company, and the distance, and all you
-will find there. I have no objection to Mr. Daniells, Edward.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_118" id="page_118"></a>{118}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Nor I; he is a good fellow in spite of his ’h’s.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t care about his ’h’s.’ He’s very hospitable and very friendly,
-and all the nice people go to him. I saw in the papers that Lord Okeham
-was there. You might be able to speak a word for Harry.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford smiled. “I am to go, then, as a business speculation,” he
-said; but his smile faded away very soon, for he reflected that Lord
-Okeham was the first to give him that sensation of being wanted no
-longer, of having nobody to employ him, which had risen to such a tragic
-height since then.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t laugh,” said his wife. “I do think indeed it is your
-duty&mdash;anything that may help on the children; and you do like Mr.
-Daniells, Edward.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I do like Daniells; he is a very good fellow.”</p>
-
-<p>“And the change will do you good. You must go.”</p>
-
-<p>It was arranged so almost without any voluntary action on his part. His
-wife’s anxiety that he should “speak a word for Harry” seemed to him
-half-pathetic, half-ridiculous in what he knew to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_119" id="page_119"></a>{119}</span> the position of
-affairs; but then she did not know. It can scarcely be said that it was
-other than a relief to him to leave his family to their own
-light-hearted devices, or that the young ones were not at least
-half-pleased when he went away. “Papa was not a bit like himself,” they
-said; probably it was because the heat was too much for him (he
-preferred cold weather), and the freshness of the moors would put him
-all right. Mrs. Sandford was by no means willing to confess to herself
-that she, too, was relieved by her husband’s departure. It was the first
-time she had ever been conscious of that feeling in thirty years of
-married life; but she, too, said that he would be the better of the
-freshness of the moors, and they all gave themselves up to “fun” with a
-new rush of pleasure when his grave countenance was away.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure he did not mean it,” said Lizzie, “but I could not help
-feeling that it was poor Lance that was the cause.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing of the sort, my dear,” said Mrs. Sandford. “Your father would
-have told you if he had any objections. No; I know what it is; he is
-very anxious about the boys&mdash;and so am I.”</p>
-
-<p>No one, however, who had seen her among them<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_120" id="page_120"></a>{120}</span> could have believed that
-Mrs. Sandford was very anxious. She was so glad that they should enjoy
-themselves. Afterwards, when the holidays were over, when they were all
-back in town again, then something, no doubt, must be done about Harry.
-He was very thoughtless, to be sure; he took no trouble about what was
-going to happen to him. Mrs. Sandford threw off any shade of distress,
-however, by saying to herself that now his father was fully roused to
-the necessity of doing something, now that he was about to meet Lord
-Okeham and other influential people, something <i>must</i> be found for
-Harry, and then all would go well. But the look in her husband’s eyes
-haunted her, nevertheless, for the rest of the day. She had gone to the
-railway with him to see him off, as she always did, and when the train
-was just moving, he looked at her, waving his hand to her. The look in
-his eyes was so strange and so sad, that Mrs. Sandford felt disposed to
-rush after her husband by the next train. Failing that, she drew her
-veil over her face as she turned away and shed tears, she could not tell
-why, as if he had been going away never to return. How ridiculous! how
-absurd! when he was only a little out of sorts and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_121" id="page_121"></a>{121}</span> sure to be set right
-by the freshness of the moors. The impression very soon wore out, and
-the young people had already organised a little impromptu dance for the
-evening, which gave Mrs. Sandford plenty to do.</p>
-
-<p>“It looks a little like taking advantage of your father’s absence&mdash;as if
-you were glad he was gone.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not at all,” they all cried. “What a dreadful idea! The only thing is
-that it would have bored him horribly; otherwise,” added Harry, “we are
-always glad of my father’s company,” with an air of protection and
-patronage which made the others laugh. And Mrs. Sandford keenly enjoyed
-the dance, and felt it better that her husband’s face, never so grave
-before, should not be there to over-shadow the evening’s entertainment.
-He would be so much more in his element discussing light and shade with
-the other R.A.s, or talking a little moderate politics with Lord Okeham,
-or breathing in the freshness of the moors.</p>
-
-<p>And he did like the freshness of the moors, and the talk of his brother
-artists, and the discussions among the men. It was entirely a man’s
-party, and perhaps a very domestic man like Mr. Sandford, a little
-neglected amid the exuberances<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_122" id="page_122"></a>{122}</span> of a young family, his very wife drawn
-away from him by the exigencies of their amusements, is specially open
-to the occasional refreshment of a party of his fellows, when congenial
-pursuits and matured views, and something of a like experience&mdash;at all
-events something which is a real experience of life&mdash;draw individuals
-together. The “sport” of the painters was apt to be interrupted by
-realisations of the “effects” about them, and by discussions on various
-artistic-scientific points which only masters in the art could settle;
-and that semi-professional flavour of the party was extremely
-interesting to the other men, the public personages and society
-magnates, who found it very piquant to be thrown amid the painters, and
-who were inspired thereby to talk their best, and tell their most
-entertaining stories. No atmosphere of failure accompanied Mr. Sandford
-into this circle, which was kept hilarious by the host’s jovialities and
-social mistakes. If anybody knew that Daniells kept in his inner room
-three “Sandfords” which he could not sell, there was no hint of that
-knowledge in anything that was said, or in the manner of the other
-painters towards their fellow, to whom all appealed as to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_123" id="page_123"></a>{123}</span> as great an
-authority as could be found on all questions of art. He was restored,
-thus, to the position which, indeed, nobody could take from him, though
-he should never sell a picture again. It soothed him to feel and see
-that, to all his brethren, he was as much as ever one of the first
-painters of his time, and to give his opinion and sustain it with the
-experience of his long professional life, and much experiment in art. A
-forlorn hope had been in his mind that Daniells might have some good
-news for him; that he might say some day, “That was all a false alarm,
-old man&mdash;I’ve sold the pictures;” but this unfortunately did not come to
-pass. Daniells never said it was a false alarm; he even said some things
-in his rough but not unkindly way which to Mr. Sandford’s ear, quickened
-by trouble, confirmed the disaster; but perhaps Daniells, who had no
-particular delicacy of perception, did not intend this.</p>
-
-<p>The change, however, did Mr. Sandford a great deal of good: though
-sometimes, when he found himself alone, the settled shadow of calamity
-which had closed upon his life, and which must soon be known to all,
-came over him with almost greater force than at first. It was but seldom
-that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_124" id="page_124"></a>{124}</span> he was alone, when he was indoors: yet now and then he would find
-himself on the moors in the sun-setting, when the western sky was still
-one blaze of yellow or orange light, varied by bands of cloudy red, with
-the low hills and sweeps of moor standing black against that waning
-brightness which, magnificent as it was, sent out little light. Mr.
-Sandford did not compare his own going out of practical life and
-possibility, yet preservation of a glow of fame which neither warmed nor
-enlightened, with that show in the west. People seldom see allegories of
-their own disaster. But as he strayed along with the sense of dreariness
-in his heart which the dead and spectral aspect of hill and tree was so
-well calculated to give, his own circumstances came back to him in
-tragic glimpses. He thought of the gay group he had left behind, the
-heedless young creatures singing and dancing on the edge of the
-precipice, and of the peaceful home lying silent awaiting them, to which
-they had no doubt of returning, with all its security of comfort and
-peace, but on the edge of the precipice too. And he thought of Jack’s
-fee, his two guineas, which they had all taken as the best joke in the
-world, and of Lizzie, who was to have fifty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_125" id="page_125"></a>{125}</span> pounds a year from her
-father, and of Harry, quite happy and content on his schoolboy
-allowance; and all this going on as if it were the course of nature,
-unchangeable as the stars or the pillars of the earth. These things
-glided before him as he looked over all the inequalities of the moor
-standing black against the western sky. They were the true facts about
-him, notwithstanding that in the shelter of this momentary pause he only
-felt them as at a distance, and less strongly than before realised the
-ease it would bring if by the grace of God something
-happened&mdash;before&mdash;&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>It was the time of the year when there are various race meetings in the
-north, and Mr. Daniells had planned to carry his party to the most
-famous of them. He had his landau and a brake, royally charged with
-provisions, and filled with his guests. Mr. Sandford had done his best
-to get off this unnecessary festivity, for which he had little taste.
-But all his friends, who by this time had begun to perceive that his
-spirits were not in their usual equable state, resisted and protested.
-He must come, they said: to leave one behind would spoil the party; he
-was not to be left alone with all the moorland effects to steal<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_126" id="page_126"></a>{126}</span> a march
-upon the other painters. And he had not sufficient energy to stand
-against their remonstrances. It was easier to yield, and he yielded. The
-race was not unamusing. Even with all his preoccupation, he took a
-little pleasure in it, more or less, as most Englishmen do: though it
-glanced across his mind that somebody might say afterwards, “Sandford
-was there, amusing himself on the edge of the precipice.” These vague
-voices and glimpses of things were not enough to stand against the
-remonstrances and banter of his friends: and after all, what did it
-matter? The plunge over the precipice is not less terrible because you
-may have performed a dance of despair on the edge. It was about sunset
-on a lovely September evening when the party set out on their return
-home. They were merry; not that there had been any excess or indulgence
-unbecoming of English gentlemen. Daniells, it is true, who was not a
-gentleman, had, perhaps, a little more champagne under his belt than was
-good for him. But his guests were only merry, talking a little more
-loudly than usual about the events of the day and the exploits of the
-favourite, and settling some moderate bets which neither harmed nor
-elated any one. Mr. Sandford,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_127" id="page_127"></a>{127}</span> who had not betted, was the most silent
-of party; the lively talk of the others left him free to retire to his
-own thoughts. He had got rather into a tangle of dim calculations about
-his insurances, and how the money would be divided, when somebody
-suddenly called out “Hallo! we’ve got off the road!”</p>
-
-<p>For some time Mr. Sandford was the only one who paid any attention to
-this statement. Looking out with a little start, he saw the same scene
-against which his musings had taken form on previous nights. A sky
-glowing with a stormy splendour, deep burning orange on the horizon
-rising through zones of yellow to the daffodil sky above, every object
-standing out black in the absence of light; not the hedgerows and white
-line of the road alone, but the blunt inequalities of the moor, here a
-lump of gorse or gnarled hawthorn bush, there a treacherous hollow with
-a gleam of water gathered as in a cup. The coachman and grooms had not
-been so prudent as their masters; their potations had been heavier than
-champagne. How they had left the road and got upon the moor could never
-be discovered. It was partly the perplexing glow above and blackness
-below, partly<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_128" id="page_128"></a>{128}</span> the fumes of a long day’s successive drinkings in their
-brains; partly, perhaps, as one of the passengers thought, something
-else. The horses had taken the unusual obstacles on their path with
-wonderful steadiness at first, but by the time the attention of the
-gentlemen was fully attracted to what was happening, the coachman had
-altogether lost control of the kicking and plunging animals. The man was
-not too far gone to have driven home by the road, but his brain was
-incapable of any effort to meet such an emergency. He began to flog the
-horses wildly, to swear at them, to pull savagely at the reins. The
-groom jumped down to rush to their heads, and in doing so, as they made
-a plunge at the moment, fell on the roadside, and in a moment more was
-left behind as the terrified horses dashed on. By this time everybody
-was roused, and the danger was evident. Mr. Sandford sat quite still; he
-was not learned about horses, while many of his companions were. One of
-them got on to the box beside the terrified coachman to try what could
-be done, the others gave startled and sometimes contradictory
-suggestions and directions. He was quite calm in the tumult of alarm and
-eager preparation for any event. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_129" id="page_129"></a>{129}</span> was sensible, profoundly sensible,
-of the wonderful effect of the scene: the orange glow which no pigments
-in the world could reproduce, the blackness of the indistinguishable
-objects which stood up against it like low dark billows of a motionless
-sea. The shocks of the jolting carriage affected him little, any more
-than the shouts of the alarmed and excited men. He did not even remark,
-then, that some sprang off and that others held themselves ready to
-follow. His sensations were those of perfect calm. He thought of the
-precipice no more, nor even of the insurances. Some one shook him by the
-shoulder, but it did not disturb him. The effect was wonderful; the
-orange growing intense, darker, the yellow light pervading the
-illuminated sky. And then a sudden wild whirl, a shock of sudden
-sensation, and he saw or felt no more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_130" id="page_130"></a>{130}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VII-a" id="CHAPTER_VII-a"></a>CHAPTER VII.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Presently</span> the light came back to Mr. Sandford’s eyes. He was lying upon
-the dry heather on the side of the moor, the brown seed-pods nestling
-against his cheek, the yellow glow in the west, to which his eyes
-instinctively turned, having scarcely faded at all since he had looked
-at it from the carriage. A confused sound of noises, loud speaking, and
-moans of pain reached him where he lay, but scarcely moved him to
-curiosity. His first sensation was one of curious ease and security. He
-did not attempt to budge, but lay quite peacefully smiling at the
-sunset, like a child. His head was confused, but there was in it a vague
-sense of danger escaped, and of some kind of puzzled deliverance from he
-knew not what, which gave the strangest feeling of soothing and rest. He
-felt no temptation to jump up hastily, to go to the help of the people
-who were moaning, or to inquire into the accident, as in another case he
-would have done. He lay still, quite at his ease, hearing these<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_131" id="page_131"></a>{131}</span> voices
-as if he heard them not, and smiling with a confused pleasure at the
-glow of orange light in the sky.</p>
-
-<p>He did not know how long it was till some one knelt down and spoke to
-him anxiously. “Sandford, are you badly hurt? Sandford, my dear fellow,
-do you know me? Can you speak to me?”</p>
-
-<p>He burst into a laugh at this address.</p>
-
-<p>“Speak to you? Know you? What nonsense! I am not hurt at all. I am quite
-comfortable.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thank God!” said the other. “Duncan, I fear, has a broken leg, and the
-coachman is&mdash;&mdash; It was his fault, the unfortunate wretch. Give me your
-hand, and I’ll help you to get up.”</p>
-
-<p>To get up? That was quite a different matter. He did not feel the least
-desire to try. He felt, before trying and without any sense of alarm,
-that he could not get up; then said to himself that this was nonsense
-too, and that to lie there, however comfortably, when he might be
-helping the others, was not to be thought of. He gave his hand
-accordingly to his friend, and made an effort to rise. But it would have
-been as easy (he said to himself) for a log of wood to attempt to rise.
-He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_132" id="page_132"></a>{132}</span> felt rather like that, as if his legs had turned to wood&mdash;not stone,
-for that would have been cold and uncomfortable. “I don’t know how it
-is,” he said, still smiling, “but I can’t budge. There’s nothing the
-matter with me, I’m quite easy and comfortable, but I can’t move a limb.
-I’ll be all right in a few minutes. Look after the others. Never mind
-me.” He thought the face of the man who was bending over him looked
-strangely scared, but nothing more was said. A rug was put over him and
-one of the cushions of the carriage under his head, and there he lay,
-vaguely hearing the groans of the man whose leg was broken as
-(apparently) they moved him, and all the exclamations and questions and
-directions given by one and another. What was more wonderful was the
-dying out of that wild orange light in the sky. It paled gradually, as
-if it had been glowing metal, and the cold night air breathing on it had
-paled and dwindled that ineffectual fire. A hundred lessening tints and
-tones of colour&mdash;yellows and faint greens, with shades of purple and
-creamy whiteness breaking the edges&mdash;melted and shimmered in the
-distance. It was like an exhibition got up for him alone, relieved by
-that black underground,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_133" id="page_133"></a>{133}</span> now traversed by gigantic ebony figures of a
-horse and man, moving irregularly across the moor. A star came out with
-a keen blue sparkle, like some power of heaven triumphant over that
-illumination of earth. What a spectacle it was! And all for him alone!</p>
-
-<p>The next thing he was conscious of was two or three figures about
-him&mdash;one the doctor, whose professional touch he soon discovered on his
-pulse and his limbs. “We are going to lift you. Don’t take any trouble;
-it will give you no pain,” some one said. And before he could protest,
-which he was about to do good-humouredly, that there was no occasion, he
-found himself softly raised upon some flat and even surface, more
-comfortable, after all, than the lumps of the heather. Then there was a
-curious interval of motion along the road, no doubt, though all he saw
-was the sky with the stars coming gradually out; neither the road nor
-his bearers, except now and then a dark outline coming within the line
-of his vision; but always the deep blue of the mid sky shining above.
-The world seemed to have concentrated in that, and it was not this
-world, but another world.</p>
-
-<p>He remembered little more, except by snatches;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_134" id="page_134"></a>{134}</span> an unknown
-face&mdash;probably the doctor’s&mdash;looking exceedingly grave, bending over
-him; then Daniells’ usually jovial countenance with all the lines
-drooping and the colour blanched out of it, and a sound of low voices
-talking something over, of which he could only make out the words
-“Telegraph at once;” then, “Too late! It must not be too late. She must
-come at once.” He wondered vaguely who this was, and why there should be
-such a hurry. And then, all at once, it seemed to him that it was
-daylight and his wife was standing by his bedside. He had just woke up
-from what seemed a very long, confused, and feverish night&mdash;how long he
-never knew. But when he woke everything was clear to him. Unless, by the
-grace of God, something were to happen&mdash;&mdash; Something was about to
-happen, by the grace of God.</p>
-
-<p>“Mary!” he cried, with a flush of joy. “You here!”</p>
-
-<p>“Of course, my dearest,” she said, with a cheerful look, “as soon as I
-heard there had been an accident.”</p>
-
-<p>He took her hand between his and drew her to him. “This was all I
-wanted,” he said. “God is very good; He gives me everything.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_135" id="page_135"></a>{135}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward!” This pitiful protest, remonstrance, appeal to heaven and
-earth&mdash;for all these were in her cry&mdash;came from her unawares.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” he said, “my dear, everything has happened as I desired. I
-understand it all now. I thought I was not hurt; now I see. I am not
-hurt, I am killed, like the boy&mdash;don’t you remember?&mdash;in Browning’s
-ballad. Don’t be shocked, dear. Why shouldn’t I be cheerful? I am
-not&mdash;sorry.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward!” she cried again, the passion of her trouble exasperated by
-his composure; “not to leave&mdash;us all?”</p>
-
-<p>He held her hand between his, smiling at her. “It was what I wanted,” he
-said&mdash;“not to leave you; but don’t you believe, my darling, there must
-be something about that leaving which is not so dreadful, which is made
-easy to the man who goes away? Certainly, I don’t want to leave you; but
-it’s so much for your good&mdash;for the children’s good&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, never, Edward, never!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; it’s new to you, but I’ve been thinking about it a long time&mdash;so
-much that I once thought it would almost have been worth the while, but
-for the insurances, to have&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_136" id="page_136"></a>{136}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Edward!” She looked at him with an agonised cry.</p>
-
-<p>“No, dear&mdash;nothing of the kind. I never would, I never could have done
-it. It would have been contrary to nature. The accident&mdash;was without any
-will or action of mine. By the grace of God&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Edward, Edward! Oh, don’t say that; by His hand, heavy, heavy upon us!”</p>
-
-<p>“It is you that should not say that, Mary. If you only knew, my dear. I
-want you to understand so long as I am here to tell you&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“He must not talk so much,” said the voice of the doctor behind; “his
-strength must be husbanded. Mrs. Sandford, you must not allow him to
-exhaust himself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Doctor,” said Mr. Sandford, “I take it for granted you’re a man of
-sense. What can you do for me? Spin out my life by a few more feeble
-hours. Which would you rather have yourself? That, or the power of
-saying everything to the person you love best in the world?”</p>
-
-<p>“Let him talk,” said the doctor, turning away; “I have no answer to
-make. Give him a little of this if he turns faint. And send for me if
-you want me, Mrs. Sandford.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_137" id="page_137"></a>{137}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Thanks, doctor. That is a man of sense, Mary. I feel quite well, quite
-able to tell you everything.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward, when that is the case, things cannot be so bad! If you will
-only take care, only try to save your strength, to keep up. Oh, my dear!
-The will to get well does so much! Try! try! Edward, for the love of
-God.”</p>
-
-<p>“My own Mary: always believing that everything’s to be done by an
-effort, as all women do. I am glad it is out of my power. If I were in
-any pain there might be some hope for you, but I’m in no pain. There’s
-nothing the matter with me but dying. And I have long felt that was the
-only way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Dying?&mdash;not when you were with us at the sea?”</p>
-
-<p>“Most of all then,” he said, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Edward, Edward! and I full of amusements, of pleasure, leaving you
-alone.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was better so. I am glad of every hour’s respite you have had. And
-now you’ll be able easily to break up the house, which would have been a
-hard thing and a bitter downfall in my lifetime. It will be quite
-natural now. They will<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_138" id="page_138"></a>{138}</span> give you a pension, and there will be the
-insurance money.”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot bear it,” she cried wildly. “I cannot have you speak like
-this.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not when it is the utmost ease to my mind&mdash;the utmost comfort&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>She clasped her hands firmly together. “Say anything you wish, Edward.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, my poor dear.” He was very, very sorry for his wife. It burst upon
-her without preparation, without a word of warning. Oh, he was sorry for
-her! But for himself it was a supreme consolation to pour it all forth,
-to tell her everything. “If I were going to be left behind,” he said,
-soothingly, “my heart would be broken: but it is softened somehow to
-those that are going away. I can’t tell you how. It is, though; it is
-all so vague and soft. I know I’ll lose you, Mary, as you will lose me,
-but I don’t feel it. My dearest, I had not a commission, not one. And
-there are three pictures of mine unsold in Daniells’ inner shop. He’ll
-tell you if you ask him. The three last. That one of the little Queen
-and her little Maries, that our little Mary sat for, that you liked so
-much, you remember? It’s standing in Daniells’<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_139" id="page_139"></a>{139}</span> room; three of them. I
-think I see them against the wall.”</p>
-
-<p>“Edward!”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, my head is not going. I only <i>think</i> I see them. And it was the
-merest chance that the ‘Black Prince’ sold; and not a commission, not a
-commission. Think of that, Mary. It is true such a thing has happened
-before, but I never was sixty before. Do you forget I am an old man, and
-my day is over?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, no,” she cried with passion; “it is not so.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes; facts are stubborn things&mdash;it is so. And what should we have
-done if our income had stopped in a moment, as it would have done? A
-precipice before our feet, and nothing, nothing beyond. Now for you, my
-darling, it will be far easier. You can sell the house and all that is
-in it. And they will give you a pension, and the children will have
-something to begin upon.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, the children!” she cried, taking his hand into hers, bowing down
-her face upon it. “Oh, Edward, what are the children between you and
-me?” She cast them away in that supreme<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_140" id="page_140"></a>{140}</span> moment; the young creatures all
-so well, so gay, so hopeful. In her despair and passion she flung their
-crowding images from her&mdash;those images which had forced her husband from
-her heart.</p>
-
-<p>He laughed a low, quiet laugh. “God bless them,” he said; “but I like to
-have you all to myself, you and me only, for the last moment, Mary. You
-have been always the best wife that ever was&mdash;nay, I won’t say have
-been&mdash;you are my dear, my wife. We don’t understand anything about
-widows, you and I. Death’s nothing, I think. It looks dreadful when
-you’re not going. But God manages all that so well. It is as if it were
-nothing to me. Mary, where are you?”</p>
-
-<p>“Here, Edward, holding your hand. Oh, my dear, don’t you see me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes,” he said, with a faint laugh, as if ashamed at some mistake
-he had made, and put his other hand over hers with a slight groping
-movement. “It’s getting late,” he said; “it’s getting rather dark. What
-time is it? Seven o’clock? You’ll not go down to dinner, Mary? Stay with
-me. They can bring you something upstairs.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_141" id="page_141"></a>{141}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Go down? Oh, no, no. Do you think I would leave you, Edward?” She had
-made a little pause of terror before she spoke, for, indeed, it was
-broad day, the full afternoon sunshine still bright outside, and nothing
-to suggest the twilight. He sighed again&mdash;a soft, pleasurable sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“If you don’t mind just sitting by me a little. I see your dear face in
-glimpses, sometimes as if you had wings and were hovering over me. My
-head’s swimming a little. Don’t light the candles. I like the
-half-light; you know I always did. So long as I can see you by it, Mary.
-Is that a comfortable chair? Then sit down, my love, and let me keep
-your hand, and I think I’ll get a little sleep.”</p>
-
-<p>“It will do you good,” said the poor wife.</p>
-
-<p>“Who knows?” he said, with another smile. “But don’t let them light the
-candles.”</p>
-
-<p>Light the candles! She could see, where she sat there, the red sunshine
-falling in a blaze upon a ruddy heathery hill, and beating upon the dark
-firs which stood out like ink against that background. There is perhaps
-nothing that so wrings the heart of the watcher as this pathetic mistake
-of day for night which betrays the eyes from which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_142" id="page_142"></a>{142}</span> all light is
-failing. He lay within the shadow of the curtain, always holding her
-hand fast, and fell asleep&mdash;a sleep which, for a time, was soft and
-quiet enough, but afterwards got a little disturbed. She sat quite
-still, not moving, scarcely breathing, that she might not disturb him;
-not a tear in her eye, her whole being wound up into an external calm
-which was so strangely unlike the tumult within. And she had forsaken
-him&mdash;left him to meet calamity without her support, without sympathy or
-aid! She had been immersed in the pleasures of the children, their
-expeditions, their amusements. She remembered, with a shudder, that it
-had been a little relief to get him away, to have their dance
-undisturbed. Their dance! Her heart swelled as if it would burst. She
-had been his faithful wife since she was little more than a child. All
-her life was his&mdash;she had no thought, no wish, apart from him. And yet
-she had left him to bear this worst of evils alone!</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Sandford dared not break the sacred calm by a sob or a sigh. She
-dared not even let the tears come to her eyes, lest he should wake and
-be troubled by the sight of them. What thoughts went through her mind as
-she sat there, not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_143" id="page_143"></a>{143}</span> moving! Her past life all over, which, until that
-telegram came, had seemed the easy tenor of every day; and the future,
-so dark, so awful, so unknown&mdash;a world which she did not understand
-without him.</p>
-
-<p>After an interval he began to speak again, but so that she saw he was
-either asleep still or wandering in those vague regions between
-consciousness and nothingness. “All against the wall&mdash;with the faces
-turned,” he said. “Three&mdash;all the last ones: the one my wife liked so.
-In the inner room: Daniells is a good fellow. He spared me the sight of
-them outside. Three&mdash;that’s one of the perfect numbers&mdash;that’s&mdash;I could
-always see them: on the road and on the moor, and at the races: then&mdash;I
-wonder&mdash;all the way up&mdash;on the road to heaven? no, no. One of the
-angels&mdash;would come and turn them round&mdash;turn them round. Nothing like
-that in the presence of God. It would be disrespectful&mdash;disrespectful.
-Turn them round&mdash;with their faces&mdash;&mdash;” He paused; his eyes were closed,
-an ineffable smile came over his mouth. “He&mdash;will see what’s best in
-them,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>After this for a time silence reigned, broken only now and then by a
-word sometimes unintelligible.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_144" id="page_144"></a>{144}</span> Once his wife thought she caught
-something about the “four square walls in the new Jerusalem,” sometimes
-tender words about herself, but nothing clear. It was not till night
-that he woke, surprising them with an outcry as to the light, as he had
-previously spoken about the darkness.</p>
-
-<p>“You need not,” he said, “light such an illumination for me&mdash;<i>al giorno</i>
-as the Italians say; but I like it&mdash;I like it. Daniells&mdash;has the soul of
-a prince.” Then he put out his hands feebly, calling “Mary! Mary!” and
-drew her closer to him, and whispered a long, earnest communication; but
-what it was the poor lady never knew. She listened intently, but she
-could not make out a word. What was it? What was it? Whatever it was, to
-have said it was an infinite satisfaction to him. He dropped back upon
-his pillows with an air of content indescribable, and silent pleasure.
-He had done everything, he had said everything. And in this mood slept
-again, and woke no more.</p>
-
-<p>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p>Mr. Sandford’s previsions were all justified. The house was sold to
-advantage, at what the agent called a fancy price, because it had been
-his house&mdash;with its best furniture undisturbed. Everything<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_145" id="page_145"></a>{145}</span> was
-miserable enough indeed, but there was no humiliation in the breaking up
-of the establishment, which was evidently too costly for the widow. She
-got her pension at once, and a satisfactory one, and retired with her
-younger children to a small house, which was more suited to her
-circumstances. And Lord Okeham, touched by the fact that Sandford’s
-death had taken place under the same roof, in a room next to his own
-(though that, to be sure, in an age of competition and personal merit
-was nothing), found somehow, as a Cabinet Minister no doubt can if he
-will, a post for Harry, in which he got on just as well as other young
-men, and settled down into a very good servant of the State. And Jack,
-being thus suddenly sobered and called back to himself, and eager to get
-rid of the intolerable thought that he, too, had weighed upon his
-father’s mind, and made his latter days more sad, took to his profession
-with zeal, and got on, as no doubt any determined man does when he
-adopts one line and holds by it. The others settled down with their
-mother in a humbler way of living, yet did not lose their friends, as it
-is common to say people do. Perhaps they were not asked any longer to
-the occasional “smart” parties to which the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_146" id="page_146"></a>{146}</span> pretty daughters and
-well-bred sons of Sandford the famous painter, who could dispense
-tickets for Academy soirées and private views, were invited, more or
-less on sufferance. These failed them, their names falling out of the
-invitation books; but what did that matter, seeing they had never been
-but outsiders, flattered by the cards of a countess, but never really
-penetrating beyond the threshold?</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Sandford believed that she could not live when her husband was thus
-taken from her. The remembrance of that brief but dreadful time when she
-had abandoned him, when the children and their amusements had stolen her
-heart away, was heavy upon her, and though she steeled herself to carry
-out all his wishes, and to arrange everything as he would have had it
-done, yet she did all with a sense that the time was short, and that
-when her duty was thus accomplished she would follow him. This softened
-everything to her in the most wonderful way. She felt herself to be
-acting as his deputy through all these changes, glad that he should be
-saved the trouble, and that humiliation and confession of downfall which
-was not now involved in any alteration of life she could make,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_147" id="page_147"></a>{147}</span> and
-fully confident that when all was completed she would receive her
-dismissal and join him where he was. But she was a very natural woman,
-with all the springs of life in her unimpaired. And by-and-by, with much
-surprise, with a pang of disappointment, and yet a rising of her heart
-to the new inevitable solitary life which was so different, which was
-not solitary at all, but full of the stir and hum of living, yet all
-silent in the most intimate and closest circle, Mrs. Sandford recognised
-that she was not to die. It was a strange thing, yet one which happens
-often: for we neither live nor die according to our own will and
-previsions&mdash;save sometimes in such a case as that of our painter, to
-whom, as to his beloved, God accorded sleep.</p>
-
-<p>And more&mdash;the coming true of everything that he had believed. After
-doing his best for his own, and for all who depended upon him in his
-life, he did better still, as he had foreseen, by dying. Daniells sold
-the three pictures at prices higher than he had dreamed of, for a
-Sandford was now a thing with a settled value, it being sure that no new
-flood of them would ever come into the market. And all went well.
-Perhaps with some<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_148" id="page_148"></a>{148}</span> of us, too, that dying which it is a terror to look
-forward to, seeing that it means the destruction of a home, may prove,
-like the painter’s, a better thing than living even for those who love
-us best. But it is not to every one that it is given to die at the right
-moment, as Mr. Sandford had the happiness to do.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_149" id="page_149"></a>{149}</span> </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_150" id="page_150"></a>{150}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_151" id="page_151"></a>{151}</span>&nbsp; </p>
-
-<h2><a name="THE_WONDERFUL_HISTORY" id="THE_WONDERFUL_HISTORY"></a>THE WONDERFUL HISTORY<br /><br />
-OF<br /><br />
-<big>MR.&nbsp; ROBERT &nbsp; DALYELL.</big></h2>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_I-b" id="CHAPTER_I-b"></a>CHAPTER I.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">It</span> was a September night, rather chilly and dreary, as the evening often
-becomes at that season, even when the day has been beautiful. There was
-a little cold wailing wind about, like the ghost of an autumn breeze,
-which came in puffs of air, only strong enough to dislodge a fluttering
-yellow leaf or two, and sometimes with a few drops of rain upon it,
-which it dashed in your face with an elfish moan&mdash;not a night to walk in
-the garden for pleasure. It was, however, a custom with Mr. Dalyell to
-smoke his cigar out-of-doors after dinner in all weathers, and Fred, who
-was his eldest son, was proud to be his father’s companion and share
-this indulgence&mdash;too proud to make any opposition<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_152" id="page_152"></a>{152}</span> to the chill of the
-night or the occasional dash of rain. All that was visible from the
-windows of the Yalton drawing-room, across which now and then a white
-figure would flutter, with a glance out were the red fire-tips of the
-two cigars, moving now quickly, now slowly, stopping altogether for a
-moment, going on with renewed rapidity&mdash;which was papa’s way.</p>
-
-<p>You could not see a prettier old house than Yalton in all the eastern
-shires. It had the mixture of French with native Scotch architecture
-which distinguishes a period in history. There were turrets, which the
-profane called pepper-boxes, at the corners, and lines of many windows
-in the commodious, comfortable <i>corps de logis</i>, now shining through the
-night with cheerful lights. Two terraces stood between the altitude of
-the house and the walk in which the father and son were, with lines of
-stone balustrades all overgrown by creeping plants and adorned with
-great vases in which the garish flowers of autumn were still fully
-blooming, though they were unseen in the darkness. On the lower level
-was the little temple of a fountain, which was reduced to a small and
-broken jet by age and negligence. The scent of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_153" id="page_153"></a>{153}</span> mignonette in the
-borders, the faint dripping of the water in the fountain, communicated
-to the atmosphere a little half-artificial speciality of character, like
-the terraces and great vases, not altogether natural to the locality,
-yet not uncongenial in its quaint double nationality. The two dark
-figures walking up and down, made visible by those red points, were yet
-undistinguishable, save by the fact that one was slim and slight, a
-boyish figure, and the other round and solid in the complete development
-of the man. The lad had been unfolding to his father the many novelties
-and wonders of his first year at the University, with that delightful
-force of conviction that such pleasant and wonderful experiences had
-never happened to anybody before which is the perennial belief of the
-young: while the father listened with that half-amused, half-pensive
-sympathy, made up of recollections fond and familiar, and the
-half-provoked, half-pleased sensation of amazement at finding those
-experiences re-embodied in the person of his son, which is habitual to
-the old. But, indeed, to say old is merely to express a comparative
-quality, for Mr. Dalyell of Yalton was a man under fifty, in the full
-force and vigour of life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_154" id="page_154"></a>{154}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Ah, yes,” he said, “Fred, it’s fine times for you now, my boy. But you
-must remember that life is not made up of bumps and bump-suppers, and
-that there are worse things than a proctor waiting for you, perhaps,
-round the next corner. I don’t want you not to play&mdash;but you must learn
-to work a little, too.”</p>
-
-<p>“All right, father,” said Fred; “I’ll pull through. I sha’n’t disgrace
-the old house.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Mr. Dalyell. “I don’t suppose you will: but you might perhaps
-go a little farther than that.”</p>
-
-<p>“I didn’t think,” said Fred, surprised, “that you intended me to do more
-than a good pass. I never supposed there was&mdash;any need for hard work.”</p>
-
-<p>“Need? I never said there was need: but it does a young fellow good to
-be thought to work: even if it does no more it does that. It’s well for
-you to be thought to work, Fred.”</p>
-
-<p>“If that’s all,” said the young man, “I don’t fancy I want to get a
-reputation in that way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you’re a silly boy,” said his father. “It’s a capital thing to
-have a good reputation. You don’t know what it might do for you.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_155" id="page_155"></a>{155}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said the lad, with a laugh, “I don’t fancy that matters so much,
-so long as you do everything for me, father.”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s just the point, Fred. That’s what I wanted to show you. I
-sha’n’t always be here to do everything for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why,” said Fred, “you’re almost as young as I am!”</p>
-
-<p>“I’m not particularly old: but no man’s life is secure, however young he
-may be; it’s not to be lippened to, as old Janet says. You ought to
-contemplate what your position would be if I were taken away. Think what
-happens to many a young fellow, Fred, whose father dies&mdash;perhaps just
-when he is where you are: and he has to stop all his pleasant ways and
-turn to, perhaps to work for his mother and the rest, perhaps only to
-look after them and take care of them&mdash;but at all events to be the head
-of the family instead of a careless boy.” Mr. Dalyell had stopped in his
-walk to enforce what he said, which was a way he had. “I’ve known a boy
-of your age,” he said, “that had to give up everything, and go into an
-office, and work like a slave: instead of your bump-suppers, Fred.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_156" id="page_156"></a>{156}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I’ve heard of such a thing myself,” said Fred; “though you don’t think
-much of my experience, father. It happened to Surtees of New, a fellow a
-little senior to me. It was awfully hard upon him. He would have been in
-the ‘eight’ if he had stayed another year. What he felt most was leaving
-the ‘Varsity without getting his blue. But,” added the lad, “if it
-matters about what people think, as you were saying, he was thought no
-end of for it. He went abroad, I think, to look after some business
-there.”</p>
-
-<p>“And dropped, I suppose, never to be heard of more&mdash;among his old chums
-at least?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was awfully hard upon him,” said Fred, regretfully.</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said Mr. Dalyell, “that’s what may happen to any one of you
-whose fathers are in business. You ought to remember that such a
-contingency is always on the cards.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why, father&mdash;&mdash;!” cried Fred. The boy was unwilling to make any
-application, to seem to think that there could be anything in their own
-circumstances to suggest this conversation: but he threw an involuntary
-glance at the house behind him with all its cheerful lights, and at the
-dark<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_157" id="page_157"></a>{157}</span> clouds of trees all round in the distance, which marked the great
-extent of the park and woods of Yalton. He did not add a word, and
-indeed the whole movement was involuntary&mdash;a sort of appeal from the
-lugubrious remarks on one side to all these unending signs of wealth on
-the other.</p>
-
-<p>“You mean to say there’s Yalton; and though I’m in business, I’m not all
-in business,” said Mr. Dalyell with a laugh. “I was not speaking of
-ourselves, my boy; but of the vicissitudes of life. I hope there will be
-Dalyells of Yalton as long as Edinburgh Castle stands upon a rock; and
-one can’t say more than that. Still, there are wonderful changes in
-life, and I’d like to think&mdash;if you force me to an application&mdash;that you
-were up to anything that might happen. You’d have to take the command,
-you know, Fred,” he added after a moment, knocking the ash off his cigar
-against the balustrade of the terrace, with another curious laugh. “Your
-dear mother has never been used to anything but to be taken care of. You
-had better not bother her by asking advice from her if you should ever
-be in that position.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would not say such dreadful things,” said Fred petulantly.
-“Why should we<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_158" id="page_158"></a>{158}</span> talk of what I hope to heaven will never happen?&mdash;you
-make me quite uncomfortable, papa.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, my dear boy,” said Mr. Dalyell, “that’s the penalty, don’t you
-know, of being grown up&mdash;like shaving, and other disadvantages. You
-rather like the shaving&mdash;which implies an imaginary beard: but you don’t
-like to hear of the much more important responsibilities.”</p>
-
-<p>“Shaving’s inevitable,” said Fred, giving a little furtive twirl to an
-almost imaginary moustache.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, is it?” said his father, with a more cheerful laugh. “Not for years
-yet; don’t flatter yourself. When do you start for your ball to-morrow?
-It’s fine to be an eligible young man, and sought after for all the
-dances. That’s a pleasant consequence of being a ‘Varsity man, and heir
-of Yalton, eh?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, father,” said Fred, “seeing I’ve known the Scrymgeours all my
-life, we needn’t put it on that ground. Whatever I was&mdash;if I was heir to
-nothing&mdash;it would be the same to them.”</p>
-
-<p>“Let’s hope so,” said Mr. Dalyell, and he breathed a sigh, which somehow
-got mingled with the little wail of the wind, and echoed into Fred’s
-heart with a poignant suggestion. There was no<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_159" id="page_159"></a>{159}</span> reason to fear anything,
-and he was angry with himself. It was childish and superstitious to
-shiver as he did, as if the cold had caught him. There was no occasion
-in the world for anything of the sort. He was not a fellow to catch
-cold, he said to himself indignantly, nor to have presentiments, both of
-which things were equally absurd. There was nothing but prosperity and
-peace known in Yalton, and his father had the constitution of an
-elephant. But the night was eerie, the horizon had a sort of weird
-clearness upon it in the far distance, like a light showing through the
-openings of the clouds. The trees stood up black in billows of
-half-distinguishable shade, and the hills beyond them marked out their
-outlines wistfully against the clearness in the west. It was cold, and
-the air breathed of coming winter. A leaf drifting on the wind caught
-him on the cheek like a soft blow. Altogether the night was eerie, wild,
-full of possibilities. There was no ghost at Yalton; but sometimes old
-Janet said there was a sound in the avenue that meant trouble, like a
-horseman riding up to the house who never arrived. Fred involuntarily
-listened, as if he might have heard that horseman, which was as good as
-inviting trouble,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_160" id="page_160"></a>{160}</span> but he did not think of that. However, there was no
-sound, nor ghost of a sound, except what was purely natural&mdash;the wild
-bitter wind wailing, driving a few leaves about, and bending, with a
-soft swish of the dark unseen foliage, the light branches of the trees.</p>
-
-<p>“Come, let’s go in, Fred; I’ve finished my cigar,” said Mr. Dalyell; and
-then, as though a brain wave, as scientific people say, had passed from
-one to another&mdash;Fred’s unspoken thought of old Janet suggested her to
-his father’s mind. They were going up one of the sets of stone steps
-which led from one terrace to the other, when Mr. Dalyell suddenly put
-his hand on his son’s arm:</p>
-
-<p>“You’ll laugh,” he said, but not himself in a laughing tone, “at what
-I’m going to say. But if you should be in any difficulty what to do in
-case of my absence, or&mdash;or anything of that sort&mdash;do you know, Fred,
-whom I’d advise you to consult? The last person you would think of,
-probably, by yourself&mdash;old Janet! You know she’s been about Yalton all
-her life. There’s nothing she wouldn’t do for any of us&mdash;and she’s an
-extraordinarily sensible old woman, full of resource, and with a head on
-her shoulders&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_161" id="page_161"></a>{161}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I’m not fond of old Janet,” said Fred sturdily.</p>
-
-<p>“No, none of you are. Your mother never could be got to like her. It’s a
-prejudice. She’s been invaluable to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“If it’s all the same to you, father,” said Fred stiffly, “I’d rather
-not turn to an old wife for advice, an old nurse. What can she know? Of
-course your good opinion goes a very long way&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“For or against? I’m afraid, so far as your mother is concerned, it is
-rather against. However, we need say no more about it. But, remember! as
-King Charles said.”</p>
-
-<p>They had paused on the landing between two flights of stairs. A great
-trail of yellow nasturtium, dropping from the vase at the corner, showed
-even in the dark a ghost of colour, and thrust its pungent odour into
-Fred’s nostril. The faint billows of the trees stretched out dark and
-darker over the landscape below, and the cold clear light in the sky
-seemed to look on like a spectator who knows far more than the actors
-what is and is going to be. Fred once more gave a little shiver, and
-elevated his shoulders to his ears.</p>
-
-<p>“You’d better go and take some camphor, boy. You’ve caught cold,” his
-father said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_162" id="page_162"></a>{162}</span></p>
-
-<p>The drawing-room of Yalton was on the first floor, unlike the generality
-of country houses, which gave it a great advantage in respect to the
-landscape. On the ground floor a great deal of space was taken up with
-the hall, which opened into a large portico, and was scarcely light
-enough to be made much use of, in a climate where there is seldom too
-much sun. It happened, fortunately, that Mrs. Dalyell, who was a nervous
-and somewhat fantastic woman, was fond of a great deal of light, so that
-the large windows, which made the turreted Scotch house like a wing of
-the Louvre, were not displeasing to her. The curtains were but partially
-drawn over the central windows even now, so that it was possible to turn
-at any moment from the light and warmth of the interior to the wide
-landscape out-of-doors, with its wild breadth of sky and wailing winds.
-But within it was exceedingly bright with a number of lamps and candles
-and that pleasant blaze of a fire which it is an agreeable tradition in
-Scotch country houses to keep up in the evening, whether it is wanted or
-not. In September it is generally wanted; but it cannot be said there
-was any necessity for it on this particular night. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_163" id="page_163"></a>{163}</span> company in the
-drawing-room consisted of Mrs. Dalyell, her two daughters, and a
-gentleman of middle age and manners very ingratiating and friendly, if a
-little formal&mdash;Mr. Patrick Wedderburn, than whom no man was more
-respected in Edinburgh, a W.S. of the first eminence, learned in the
-law, and a favourite everywhere. He belonged, it need scarcely be said,
-to a good Scotch family, and was any man’s equal in Scotland, though he
-acted as a “man of business” to many of his friends. He was one of the
-dearest friends of Robert Dalyell of Yalton, and was a more constant
-visitor than any other of the many familiar associates who called the
-laird of Yalton “Bob,” and knew him and his affairs to the
-finger-points. Pat Wedderburn, as the visitor was commonly called, was
-an old bachelor, and therefore had no family to call him to a fireside
-centre of his own. He was as much in Yalton as he was in his own
-handsome but dull house in Ainslie Place, where, except when he had a
-dinner-party, the rooms were so silent, the solitude so serious. Neither
-the girls nor their mother made “company” of Mr. Wedderburn. He was
-seated in a deep chair, reading the papers while<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_164" id="page_164"></a>{164}</span> they talked, as if he
-were an uncle at the least, and he did not hesitate to interrupt their
-conversation now and then by reading out a bit of news or making a
-remark. He did not hesitate to correct Susie, who sometimes ventured
-upon a big word with which she was not familiar, and used it wrongly, or
-to tell Alice that she was a fidget, and could not keep still for five
-minutes; and as this was done from behind the newspaper, in the most
-accidental manner, it deepened still more the impression that nowhere
-could Mr. Wedderburn have been more perfectly at home. The papers, it
-may be added&mdash;that is to say, the London papers&mdash;arrived in Edinburgh in
-the evening. The conversation which was going on when Mr. Dalyell came
-into the drawing-room was, however, confined to the young people, and
-was chiefly on the subject of the Scrymgeour ball, to which Fred was
-going next day.</p>
-
-<p>“I think they might have asked me,” said Susie in an aggrieved tone. “I
-am just the same age as Lucy Scrymgeour. It isn’t my fault mother, that
-you’ve never taken me out yet. I am seventeen and <i>past</i>, as everybody
-knows.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_165" id="page_165"></a>{165}</span></p>
-
-<p>“No, it’s not your fault. I am sure you have badgered me enough about
-it,” said Mrs. Dalyell; “but though you think you can do anything you
-like with me, I have my opinions about some things. And one of them is
-that a girl should not go out too soon. People are quite capable of
-saying, ten or twenty years hence, ‘Oh, Susie Dalyell, I can tell you
-her age to a day! She came out in such a year, and she must have been
-nineteen at the least.’ That is exactly how people talk.”</p>
-
-<p>“And if they did,” cries Susie, “what would it matter? Farmer thinks I
-look quite eighteen when I have my hair nicely dressed.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is all very well now, my dear; but wait till you are thirty or
-thirty-five. You would like to put on a year or two now, but you will
-like to take them off at the other end.”</p>
-
-<p>“Let’s hope,” said Mr. Wedderburn from behind his paper, “that she’ll
-not be Susie Dalyell then.”</p>
-
-<p>“What difference will that make?” said Susie scornfully. “If I were
-forty I should never make a mystery about it. What is the use of trying
-to hide it, if you do have one foot in the grave?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_166" id="page_166"></a>{166}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Mother’s forty&mdash;or more,” said Alice, “and nobody would say she had one
-foot in the grave.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what does it matter,” cried Susie again, “at that time of life,
-when you are medeval and antediluvious? It is now that one minds.”</p>
-
-<p>“Susie, don’t call mamma such dreadful names.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mediæval and antediluvian, Susie”&mdash;from behind the paper, in an
-undertone.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose,” said Mrs. Dalyell tartly, “that Mr. Wedderburn thinks that
-quite appropriate. Gentlemen always think a girl’s impertinence is
-amusing when it’s directed against her mother; but you ought to know
-better, Susie, than to hold me up to ridicule. I am sure, whatever else
-I may be, I have been a careful mother to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, mamma! As if I meant anything like that,” cried Susie petulantly,
-flinging herself upon her mother. “I only mean you don’t care now. It’s
-nothing to you to think of Lucy dancing all night in billows of tulle,
-like the girls in the novels, and me going to bed at ten o’clock. They
-will only just have begun then. And to think they should have asked
-Fred! and me Lucy’s greatest friend and contemporaneous, and friends
-with Davie all my life&mdash;and that they never thought of asking<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_167" id="page_167"></a>{167}</span> me&mdash;never
-even tried! Perhaps if they had asked me&mdash;and it’s such an opportunity
-and such old friends&mdash;you would have let me go.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll tell you what, Susie,” said Fred, who had just come in; “I’ll ride
-over to-morrow morning first thing and ask them to ask you. I dare say
-they will for my sake.”</p>
-
-<p>Susie looked at him for a moment with a flush of hope, and then her face
-clouded. “For your sake!” she said, with a sister’s frank contempt. “If
-it’s only for your sake, I’ll stay at home. I am not a nobody like that.
-I’m Lucy Scrymgeour’s oldest friend. If she doesn’t of her own
-account&mdash;and Davie too,” cried the girl with an access of
-indignation&mdash;“it’s more than any one can bear!”</p>
-
-<p>“I would never speak to one of them again,” said Alice, “if it was me.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what good would that do?” cried Susie, with the tear still in her
-eye, turning upon her sister. “Lose the ball and a friend too! I suppose
-they had some reason. Perhaps there were too many girls already&mdash;else
-why should they ask Fred? Or, perhaps&mdash;&mdash; Yes, I’ll speak to Lucy again,
-the first time I see her; but I shall<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_168" id="page_168"></a>{168}</span> be very dignified, and pretend
-that I didn’t care a bit.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you couldn’t if you tried; dignified, my dear&mdash;that would be rather
-difficult.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is there anything in the paper, Pat?” said Mr. Dalyell.</p>
-
-<p>“Not much. But it’s ill talking between a full man and a fasting. I’ve
-seen what there is, and you’ve not. Here’s the <i>Times</i>. Munro’s in for
-that place in the North.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bless my soul! and you call that nothing? Another firebrand, and as
-good as two lost in our majority. That’s bad, Pat; that’s bad.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never think anything of a bye-election. They’re all in the nature of
-accidents. There’s a good speech of Gladstone’s at one of the Lancaster
-towns, and John Bright flaming on the side of peace like a house on
-fire.”</p>
-
-<p>“And he says there’s nothing in the paper!” said Mr. Dalyell, as he
-dropped into an easy-chair in his turn with the great broad-sheet of the
-<i>Times</i> in his hand.</p>
-
-<p>“When gentlemen begin talking politics,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “I always
-think it is time for the ladies to retire. But you have begun early
-to-night.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_169" id="page_169"></a>{169}</span> Are you going into town at your usual hour to-morrow, Robert?
-I hope you’ll be home early, for, with Fred away, there will be no man
-but only the servants in the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what the worse will you be for that, Amelia? There are plenty to
-protect you, I hope, if I were never to be seen again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Robert! that’s not a thing to joke about. I never feel safe, you know,
-in this big, rambling old house when you’re not here&mdash;if it was only the
-rats&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What could the rats do to you, mother?”</p>
-
-<p>“Hold your peace, Fred!” said Mrs. Dalyell. “I sometimes think of Bishop
-Hatto in that poem you used all to be so fond of&mdash;and those in the Pied
-Piper. If you just heard some of old Janet Macalister’s stories, they
-would make your hair stand on end.”</p>
-
-<p>“You’ll be back in time, Bob, not to keep her uneasy,” said Mr.
-Wedderburn behind the <i>Standard</i>, which he had just taken up, to his
-friend behind the <i>Times</i>.</p>
-
-<p>Dalyell answered carelessly, “Yes, yes. Why shouldn’t I be back in
-time?” Then, with a laugh, to his wife, “You should never mind old
-Janet. I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_170" id="page_170"></a>{170}</span> dare say you were interfering with some hiding-holes of hers
-that she did not want disturbed. She’s a kind of familiar spirit of the
-house, that old woman. She knows it better than any of us; and there’s
-all sorts of uncanny corners about this house. It would be to keep you
-out of the secret chamber that she told you daft stories about the
-rats.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t believe in any nonsense about secret chambers,” said Mrs.
-Dalyell. “That’s all very well in Glamis, and such places: but Yalton’s
-not good enough for that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yalton’s good enough for anything, mamma,” cried Susie, indignant. “I
-heard the horseman in the avenue a week ago, as clear as&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What’s that you’re saying, Susie?” said Mr. Dalyell sharply.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” said the girl tremulously, “I mean the rain pattering in that
-place, you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Susie is always hearing some nonsense,” said her mother. “Gather up
-your work and things, children, for it is time you were going to your
-beds.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_171" id="page_171"></a>{171}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_II-b" id="CHAPTER_II-b"></a>CHAPTER II.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Wedderburn</span> went into Edinburgh by the early train, the train which
-conveyed all the gentlemen who were business men. But Mr. Dalyell, who
-was not exactly a man in business, went in later. He had a great deal to
-do with that busy world, but he was not actually in harness with an
-office which claimed his daily attention. He was a director of a railway
-company, and he had something to do with a great insurance office, and
-there were other more speculative concerns in which he was believed to
-have an interest: and there were few days in the week in which he did
-not go “in,” as everybody said, to Edinburgh; but still it was not a
-matter of necessity. He was up earlier than his wont that morning&mdash;for
-Yalton was not an early house in general&mdash;and “pottered about,” as his
-wife said fretfully, from his dressing-room to the library and from the
-library back to his dressing-room, disturbing her morning’s rest. He
-seemed to have a quantity of little things to do. Even after the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_172" id="page_172"></a>{172}</span>
-breakfast bell had rung he ran twice into the library for something
-which he said he had forgotten. “You seem to have as many things to
-remember as if you were the Prime Minister,” said Mrs. Dalyell, who had
-already poured out his coffee, and who was more annoyed when he left his
-breakfast to get cold than by any other of his peccadilloes. “<i>Robert!</i>”
-she cried from the door in a tone of exasperation, “there will be
-nothing fit to eat!” “I am coming, I am coming!” he cried. The curious
-thing was that he did not mind if his bacon was cold: but his wife
-minded for him and fumed and fretted. “What is the use of trying to get
-anything comfortable for your father?” she would say complainingly,
-“Well, mother, I like my kidneys hot,” said Fred; “so they’re not thrown
-away at least.” Mrs. Dalyell looked at her son as if his tastes were a
-matter of much indifference, but softened when she met the lad’s
-good-humoured blue eyes. He was not remarkable in appearance, but like
-dozens of other Scotch lads all about&mdash;light-brown hair, curling so
-strongly that it was difficult sometimes to comb it out; nice eyes, with
-a smile in them; tolerable features, the nose turned up a little; not a
-giant<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_173" id="page_173"></a>{173}</span> by any means, but well developed, well set up&mdash;a natural,
-pleasant boy of twenty, not without his failings, and perhaps a little
-careless, a little superficial, having had no occasion as yet to fathom
-any of the depths of life. He nodded at her over the dish of kidneys
-with a smile which was contagious. Mrs. Dalyell was by no means a
-light-hearted person. She was easily put out. She did not like anybody
-to have a different way of thinking from her own on the points that
-interested her. To let your tea stand till it was cold was an offence to
-Mrs. Dalyell. As for more serious matters she did not much interfere
-with them. That was the gentlemen’s part of the business. To have
-breakfast in good condition and attend to the comfort of the house was
-hers, which perhaps is a view of the question which will commend itself
-to many. In return for this she expected to have a great deal of the
-trouble of life taken off her shoulders. She declared constantly that
-she knew nothing of business. She preferred to get her money just when
-she wanted it, instead of having a banking account of her own, as most
-ladies like to have nowadays, or a settled allowance. In short, Mrs.
-Dalyell was a woman whose very<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_174" id="page_174"></a>{174}</span> existence necessitated a husband behind
-her to do the rough work and see to the supplies. Within these limits
-there could not be a better mistress of a household. And she was
-exceedingly annoyed when her husband allowed his breakfast to get cold.
-It was a trick of his, of which it was her constant effort to mend him;
-but he was seldom so bad as this day.</p>
-
-<p>“Go and tell your father,” she said at last, “that it is almost time for
-the train. And to let him go without his breakfast is what I will not
-do. So just tell him, once for all, if he does not come at once he must
-just give up all thoughts of going in to Edinburgh to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Here I am&mdash;here I am, Amelia,” said Mr. Dalyell, running in and taking
-his seat at table. “What have you got there, Fred? Kidneys!&mdash;and this is
-bacon.”</p>
-
-<p>“All just as cold as chucky-stones,” said the lady of the house
-solemnly.</p>
-
-<p>“You know I don’t mind, my dear. I’ll have a little of that kidney&mdash;and
-a cup of coffee with plenty of milk. How often am I to tell you you
-should never mind me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Just as often as I tell you I will mind you,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_175" id="page_175"></a>{175}</span> Robert. Who should be
-minded if it’s not the master of the house?”</p>
-
-<p>He cast upon her a look&mdash;which Fred, who had nearly but not quite
-forgotten the conversation of last night, caught and wondered at with a
-vague sense of pain, though his mother did not remark it. There was a
-great deal of affection and tenderness in the glance; but something else
-that puzzled him. There was trouble in it&mdash;but what trouble could there
-be in his father’s eyes looking at his mother? There was something in it
-which made him say quite inconsequently, looking up from his plateful of
-devilled kidney, “You’re not going away anywhere, are you, father?”</p>
-
-<p>Then his father’s eyes fixed on himself with a startled glance: “Away?”
-he said. “Where should I be going? and what’s put that into your head?”</p>
-
-<p>Fred replied with the familiar subterfuge of youth: “Oh, nothing!” But
-his mind was not satisfied; for that was no answer. And there passed
-through his thoughts a vague idea that if, later in the day, there came
-a telegram saying that Mr. Dalyell had been obliged to go to London on
-business, he would not be surprised.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_176" id="page_176"></a>{176}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Where indeed!” said Mrs. Dalyell. “It’s not the time for business,
-which is a comfort: for you can’t be running up to London at a moment’s
-notice, as you did in the spring. You would find nobody there.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is just it,” said Mr. Dalyell. And after he had made this
-unquestioned observation, he added, “I shall perhaps run down to
-Portobello and get a swim. Nothing puts a man right like the sea. I’ll
-just take a plunge and be back by the four o’clock train.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you’ll have somebody with you; and don’t you be too venturesome
-with your plunging and your swimming.”</p>
-
-<p>“Too venturesome on Portobello sands! I’ll get Pat Wedderburn to come
-and look after me,” said Mr. Dalyell with a laugh. He laughed with his
-lips, but his eyes were quite grave&mdash;which was all the more remarkable
-since he had laughing eyes, with humorous puckers all about them,
-exceedingly ready to light up at such a joke as that of being taken care
-of by Pat Wedderburn. He had still half-a-dozen things which kept him
-running out and in before he was ready to start, which his way, but
-always a source of exasperation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_177" id="page_177"></a>{177}</span> to his orderly wife. Finally, when
-there was hardly time to catch the train, he dashed upstairs three steps
-at a time, explaining that he had forgotten something. Mrs. Dalyell
-stood wringing her hands at the open door.</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you had ordered the dog-cart, Fred. He’ll never catch the train.
-You should remember your father’s ways, and that this is always what
-happens: and then he’ll just fly and get out of breath and
-over-heated&mdash;the very worst things for him. Dear, dear me! I might have
-had more sense. I might have ordered the dog-cart myself, there’s only
-ten minutes&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“If he does lose the train I suppose it won’t matter so much,” said
-easy-minded Fred.</p>
-
-<p>“Not if he would think so,” replied the mother, “nothing at all&mdash;but
-when he sets his mind on a thing, possible or impossible, he will carry
-it out. <span class="smcap">Robert</span>!” she cried, in capitals, going to the bottom of the
-stairs.</p>
-
-<p>“I’m coming, I’m coming!” he shouted. His voice came not from the
-direction of his room but from the west passage, where he had nothing to
-do, a fact which awoke a vague surprise in Mrs. Dalyell’s mind. He came
-downstairs “like<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_178" id="page_178"></a>{178}</span> a tempest,” she said afterwards, making as much noise,
-and caught her in his arms, to her great astonishment. “Good-bye, my
-dearest, good-bye!” he cried, giving her a loving kiss (“before the
-bairns, and that man Foggo looking on!”). “Keep well and don’t distress
-yourself about me.” He was gone almost before she could ask him why she
-should distress herself about him, flying down the road with Fred after
-him, which, indeed, was his usual way of catching a train. She stood at
-the door looking after him, and though he was in such a hurry and not a
-moment to lose, what did Robert do but turn round and take off his hat
-and wave his hand to her! Such nonsense! as if he were going away for
-years. She made a sign of impatience, hurrying him on. “Do you think
-they will do it this time, Foggo?” she said to the butler, who was also
-looking after them. Foggo had been standing ready to help his master on
-with his coat. But Mr. Dalyell had time only to snatch it and throw it
-over his shoulder, partly because of that unnecessary embrace which had
-so confused his wife under the servant’s eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, ay, ma’am,” said Foggo, “they’ll do it;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_179" id="page_179"></a>{179}</span> the maister’s aye just on
-the edge&mdash;but he’s never missed her yet&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Dalyell, when he rushed upstairs, had not gone to his dressing-room
-as he proposed to do. He had darted down the west passage, a long vacant
-corridor with a few doors of unused bedrooms on one side. He went down
-to the end room of all, and opened the door. An old woman in a
-tremendous mutch and tartan shawl came forward to meet him. “I have come
-to say good-bye, Janet, my woman,” he said, grasping her hand. “And
-you’ll remember what you’ve promised.”</p>
-
-<p>“That I will, my bonnie man: if you’re sure you must do it. As long as I
-live&mdash;but then I, may be, have not very long to live.”</p>
-
-<p>“We’ll have to trust for that,” he said, holding both her hands.</p>
-
-<p>“Could you no trust for other things? I’ve preachit to ye till I’m
-weariet, maister Robert! Nobody trusted yet and was disappointed.”</p>
-
-<p>“We’ve gone over all that,” he said. “No, no, there’s no other way. We
-can’t ask the Lord for money, Janet.”</p>
-
-<p>“What for no? And now I can scarce say<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_180" id="page_180"></a>{180}</span> God’s blessing on ye&mdash;for how
-can I ask His blessing when it’s for a&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“No more, Janet, no more. Good-bye!”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, maister Robert, bide a moment. Do you mind the Psalm:</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">‘If in your heart ye sin regard<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">The Lord you will not hear?’<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p class="nind">Think of that! How can I bid Him bless ye, when&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“Good-bye, my dear old woman, good-bye!”</p>
-
-<p>And it was at this moment that Mrs. Dalyell’s voice calling “Robert!”
-came small in the distance up the echoing passage. And in another moment
-he was gone.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Dalyell went to her kitchen to give her orders to the cook as soon
-as her husband was out of sight. She was an excellent housekeeper, and
-enjoyed this part of her duties far too much to depute them to any
-other, although indeed in the tide of prosperity which Mr. Dalyell’s
-business had brought to Yalton she might have had a housekeeper had she
-pleased, and a much larger establishment. But she had thrifty instincts
-and that distrust of business which old-fashioned ladies<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_181" id="page_181"></a>{181}</span> used to have,
-with an inward conviction that it always collapsed at one time or
-another, and that the estate was the sheet-anchor: which had prevented
-her ever from launching out into expense. She dismissed the thoughts of
-Robert’s unusual embrace&mdash;for domestic endearments are sedulously kept
-in the background in Scotch houses of the old-fashioned type&mdash;and of any
-little peculiarity there might have been about him this morning more
-than other mornings&mdash;from her mind: which it required no effort to do,
-for she was not given to investigations below the surface, or reading
-between the lines, and a parting kiss (though absurd) was a parting kiss
-to Mrs. Dalyell, and it was nothing more. She took pains to order her
-husband a very good dinner, with due consideration of his special
-likings, which perhaps was as good a thing as she could have done. Then
-after luncheon there was Fred to send off in good time, so that he might
-not put out any of the Scrymgeours’ arrangements by arriving too late.
-He had a seven-miles drive, and never would have recollected to order
-the dog-cart in time if his mother had not taken that duty upon herself;
-and she likewise cast a glance at his other arrangements<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_182" id="page_182"></a>{182}</span> to make sure
-that his white ties were in good condition and his pumps as they ought
-to be&mdash;precautions quite unnecessary and rather distasteful to the young
-man in his new conviction, acquired at Oxford, that he knew better than
-any one what was essential to a perfect turn-out, either for horse or
-man. Susie, who was liberated from lessons after luncheon, spent her
-time in preparing messages for Lucy Scrymgeour which were intended to
-disturb and plant thorns in that young person’s mind. “You can tell her
-I never was so surprised in my life as when it came for you and not for
-me: for you never were such friends with them as me. But you’re only
-asked as a man. They must be badly off for men; though when one thinks
-of all the officers in the garrison&mdash;and Davie such friends with all of
-them! I don’t think you have got any amatory instincts, Fred&mdash;for you’ve
-no friends but Oxford men; and what good would they be to us if we had a
-ball? But you can tell Davie <i>from me</i>&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Has Davie amatory instincts?” cried Fred. “The little beast&mdash;I’ll take
-him no messages from you.”</p>
-
-<p>“What on earth is the child talking of?” said<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_183" id="page_183"></a>{183}</span> Mrs. Dalyell. “Where did
-she hear such a word? Amatory!”</p>
-
-<p>“It means friendship,” cried Susie, with a burning blush. “I know&mdash;I
-know it does! I mean Davie has such lots of friends&mdash;and Fred has none;
-or at least none that would be of any use if we were to have a ball.”</p>
-
-<p>“But we are not going to have a ball,” said the mother; “it is a great
-deal too much trouble. Ask the Scrymgeours what they think a week hence.
-The whole house will be turned upside down, and the servants put out of
-the way, and everybody made wretched. No, Susie, there will be no ball.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then am I never to come out at all?” said Susie in a voice from which
-consternation had driven all the lighter tones. This was too solemn a
-thought to be expressed except with the gravity of fate.</p>
-
-<p>“You should present her, mother,” said Fred; “that’s the right thing for
-a girl.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my dear,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “that’s a great trouble too! The gowns
-alone would cost about a hundred pounds; and your father, you know,
-never stays a day longer in London than he can help&mdash;and what would
-Susie and me do, two<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_184" id="page_184"></a>{184}</span> women by ourselves in that great big place?
-Besides, to make it worth the while we would need to know a number of
-people and get invitations. I’ve often heard of country people, very
-well thought of in their own place, that have just been humiliated to
-the very dust in London, with nobody to ask them out, or to call on them
-or anything. She’ll have to be content with something nearer home.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is all because things are so conventionary and nothing natural,”
-said Susie; “that is what they say in all the books. But if papa would
-go up with us in his Deputy Lieutenant’s uniform, and knowing such
-quantities and quantities of people&mdash;and perhaps if you were to tell
-Mrs. Wauchope she might speak to the Duchess, and the Duchess would say
-just a little word to one of the Princesses&mdash;and then perhaps the
-Queen&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Are you out of your senses, Susie? What do you expect that the Queen
-would do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well! they might say we belonged to D’yell of Yalton that saved the
-life of James the Fourth, who is the Queen’s great, great, great (I
-don’t know how many greats) grandfather. And if she was passing this
-way, you know, mamma, my father<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_185" id="page_185"></a>{185}</span> would have to come out and offer her a
-drink of milk upon his knees. And it is a real old rule for thousands of
-years, a feudacious tenor, or something of that kind&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Where did you find all that, Susie? Is it true, mother? Do we hold
-Yalton like that?” cried Fred in great delight. “I never knew we were
-such distinguished people before.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t see any distinction about it,” said Mrs. Dalyell: “I never paid
-much attention to such old stories. Oh, if you believe all the Dalyell
-stories&mdash;&mdash; By the way, Susie, I wish you to pronounce the name as I
-do&mdash;as everybody is doing now. ’D’yell’ is so common&mdash;it is what the
-ploughmen say.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is the right old antiquous way,” said Susie with energy, “and I like
-it far the best. I heard about the horseman too&mdash;what it means,” she
-added in a low tone. “Papa will never let me speak, but I could tell you
-such things, Fred, if&mdash;&mdash;” And here the little girl made various
-telegraphic signs, meaning that enlightenment might be afforded if they
-were alone together, with the mother well out of the way. These designs,
-however, were frustrated unconsciously<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_186" id="page_186"></a>{186}</span> by Mrs. Dalyell, who gave her
-daughter something to do in the way of replying to notes, which kept
-Susie busy until it was time for Fred to depart.</p>
-
-<p>But yet there was a little time for talk when the girls went with him
-round to the stables to remind the groom that he must not be late.</p>
-
-<p>“Where did you hear about that feudal business, Susie?” said Fred. “Did
-you get it out of a book?”</p>
-
-<p>“I got it out of something much funnier. I got it out of old Janet. You
-should just hear her; she knows more about us&mdash;oh! so much more&mdash;than we
-know about ourselves. She told me about&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Old Janet!” said Fred. He had forgotten his father’s grave talk and all
-that had passed on the terrace, and it was not till he had thought it
-over for a minute or two that it slowly came back to him what
-association that was which was linked with the name of old Janet. Not
-that he had not perfect acquaintance with her, as a matter of fact. She
-had been Mr. Dalyell’s nurse, and had always possessed a room of her own
-at Yalton, where she lived in a curious isolation and
-independence&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_187" id="page_187"></a>{187}</span>respected, and, perhaps, a little feared by the household
-in general. Fred endeavoured to remember what it was as Susie’s voice
-ran on, and then it suddenly burst upon him. It was to her his father
-had advised him to go if he wanted help, in the supposed contingency of
-his own removal&mdash;old Janet, of all people in the world! The recollection
-made Fred indignant, yet gave him a sort of shiver of alarmed
-presentiment as well. Could his father have meant anything more than a
-mere passing fancy? Yet surely he must have meant something. And under
-what possible circumstances could he, Fred, a University-man, and
-acquainted with the world, require to take counsel with old Janet? It
-gave him the strangest thrill to his very finger-points. It must mean
-something different from what it seemed to mean. His father would never
-have given him such a recommendation without a reason. Fred thought with
-a sensation of horror of the family secrets which such an old woman
-might possess. She might know something that would ruin them all&mdash;there
-might be something hanging over them, something which she had to break
-to him. Fred flung this fancy out of his mind as if it had been a stone
-that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_188" id="page_188"></a>{188}</span> some one had thrown into it, and came back to what Susie was
-saying. Indifferent to the fact that he was not listening, Susie was
-recounting the story of the family warning.</p>
-
-<p>“<span class="lftspc">‘</span>And since that time there has always been a sound in the avenue as if
-some horseman was coming, heavy dunts on the road, and the tinkle of the
-bridle,’ she says. Always when there is trouble coming. I am sure it
-must be very fatiguing for a ghost, and monotonious&mdash;oh! just beyond
-description&mdash;to ride that little bit of road and never come near the
-house, and all just to frighten a person. I would dash into the hall and
-shake my bridle at them if it was me.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you were a ghost, Susie?” said Alice with a shiver. “Oh, how can you
-think of yourself as a ghost?”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t: I’m not diaphanious,” said Susie; “but if you were to be a
-ghost at all it would be better to have something more to do than just
-dunting, dunting, over one bit of road.”</p>
-
-<p>“Janet must have been telling you a lot of lies and nonsense,” said Fred
-indignantly; “I’ll have to speak to her if she goes on like that.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_189" id="page_189"></a>{189}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Or tell papa,” said Alice. “He never likes to hear about the horseman.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, or tell papa,” said Fred. He could not tell what it meant, but he
-had a strange feeling as if it were he himself that must do this and
-shield his sisters from things that might frighten them&mdash;as if his
-father somehow had not much to do with it. But he was greatly shocked
-with himself when he became conscious of this thought. He was so much
-absorbed, indeed, in the uncomfortable fancies called up by Janet’s
-name, that Susie’s story of the King’s hunting and danger of his life,
-and how the goodwife of Yalton brought him a bowl of milk, and how the
-lands, as much as they could ride round in a day, according to the most
-approved romantic fashion, were bestowed upon the D’yells for that
-service, had little effect upon her brother. And presently the dog-cart
-came round to the door, and the sight of Fred seated in it with his
-portmanteau diverted Susie’s thoughts also and brought back her
-grievance. She stood watching his departure by the side of her mother,
-who had come out as was her wont to see the boy off.</p>
-
-<p>“There he goes!” said Susie. “Oh, what<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_190" id="page_190"></a>{190}</span> fossilized hearts boys have! He
-never thinks of me that has to stay at home. Tell Lucy Scrymgeour if she
-thinks I will ask her to our ball she is in the greatest mistake, and it
-will be just as much splendider than theirs, as Yalton is better than
-Westwood. And tell her mamma is going to take me to London to be
-presented and make my three obeysances to the Queen, and when I have
-done that I can go to every place, and all the other queens are obliged
-to ask me. Well, if mamma doesn’t, it’s not my fault; but you can always
-tell her, Fred: and just say to that ichthyosaurious Davie that I’ll
-have all the grand guardsmen and equerries to talk to, and I wouldn’t
-look at him.”</p>
-
-<p>“But it’s not his fault, Susie,” said Alice; “and perhaps he’ll tell
-Fred he is very sorry.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think he will, for boys have no hearts: they have vegetable
-things instead, when they are not fossilized. If he says he is sorry,
-Fred, you can say I don’t mind very much, only I’ll never speak to them
-again.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you’ll have a nice ball, Fred,” said Mrs. Dalyell. “Come back as
-early as you can to-morrow, for there are some people coming to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_191" id="page_191"></a>{191}</span> tea.
-And you may bring over Lucy and David, and any other young ones that are
-staying at Westwood. We can give them their tea on the terrace, it’s not
-too cold for that; and I am sure Mrs. Scrymgeour will be thankful to any
-one that will take them out of her way.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_192" id="page_192"></a>{192}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_III-b" id="CHAPTER_III-b"></a>CHAPTER III.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">About</span> the time when Fred was starting from Yalton Mr. Wedderburn, the
-friend of the family, might have been seen in his office in a condition
-very unlike his usual calm. That he was very much disturbed about
-something was evident. His table was covered with all those
-carefully-arranged letters and docketed papers which are essential to
-the pose of a man of business; and by intervals he wrote a letter&mdash;or,
-rather, part of a letter&mdash;to which he added a line whenever he could fix
-his thoughts to it; but these intervals were scattered through the
-reflections and calculations of several hours, to which Mr. Wedderburn
-returned, from minute to minute, laying down his pen and falling back
-into some more absorbing subject of thought. Sometimes he got up and
-walked about the room, going from one window to the other, and staring
-out at each as if the slight variation of the view could afford him some
-light upon the subject over which he puckered his brows. Now and then he
-said to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_193" id="page_193"></a>{193}</span> himself audibly, “I must go out to-night.” He was not a man who
-indulged in the habit of speaking to himself, nor was there much in
-these words which could throw light upon the subject of his thoughts;
-but it was evidently a sort of relief to him to say this as he paced
-heavily about the room and looked out, staring blankly, neither seeing,
-nor expecting to see, anything that would clear up the trouble on his
-face. “I must go out to-night.” This phrase, however, meant a great deal
-to the sober and reserved Edinburgh lawyer.</p>
-
-<p>It meant that to the house which he visited so often, receiving
-hospitality, kindness, and a sense of almost family well-being, for
-which he gave back nothing but a steady, undemonstrative friendship, the
-moment had now come when he must go in another character&mdash;in the
-character, indeed, of an anxious brother and helper, but yet as
-announcing an approaching catastrophe and the breaking-up of a
-superstructure of long-established prosperity and peace. He had not been
-convinced of the necessity of this till to-day. Whispers, indeed, had
-come to his ears of doubtful speculations and a position which was
-beginning to be assailed by questions which never should arise<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_194" id="page_194"></a>{194}</span> as to
-the position of a man in business. But he had lent a deaf ear to all
-that was malicious, and brushed away all friendly fears. “Bob D’yell’s
-as sensible a fellow as ever stepped. It’ll take strong evidence to make
-me believe that he’s been playing ducks and drakes with his money.” This
-confident speech from a man of Pat Wedderburn’s authority (in Edinburgh,
-as in fashionable circles, the well-known members of the community are
-generally distinguished by their Christian names) had done much to
-support a credit which was not so robust as it had been. But this
-morning Mr. Wedderburn had heard very unpleasant things&mdash;things which
-had gone to his heart, and wounded both his affection and his pride. He
-had a pride in his friend’s credit as in his own. And when he thought of
-the cheerful household and all its innocent indulgences, Mr. Wedderburn
-struck the table with his fist in the trouble of his heart. To think
-that they might have to leave Yalton, to give up their little luxuries,
-their social rank, all the pleasures of their life, affected this old
-bachelor as probably it would not at all affect themselves. He could
-have shed angry tears over the “putting down” of Mrs. Dalyell’s carriage
-and the girls’ ponies, which,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_195" id="page_195"></a>{195}</span> if it came to that, and they were aware
-that their position required such sacrifices, these ladies would give up
-without a murmur; and, perhaps, none of them would have much objection
-to come “in” to a house in Edinburgh instead of Yalton, which was a
-possibility which made Mr. Wedderburn swear. He was very unhappy about
-them, one and all, and about his life-long friend, Bob D’yell, who must
-no doubt have been in the wrong, and whom sometimes in his heart he
-blamed angrily and bitterly, thinking what the effect of his rashness
-would be to the others. Pat Wedderburn was grieved to the heart. He
-could as easily have believed in himself going wrong; “But, God bless
-us!” he said to himself, “it’s not going wrong. He has been taken in; he
-was always a sanguine fellow, and he’s been deceived.” His thoughts
-finally resolved themselves into the necessity, above and before all
-things, of having a long talk with Bob; and he repeated, as he once more
-stared mechanically out of the further window, “I must go out to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>He could not, however, go “out” before the usual time, and in the
-interval he could not rest. Finally, he took his hat and left his office
-with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_196" id="page_196"></a>{196}</span> a better inspiration. If he could find his friend at one of the
-establishments in which he had an interest, the talk might be had at
-once, without any need, at least for to-night, of disturbing the
-peaceful echoes of Yalton. Mr. Wedderburn went out for this purpose with
-very tender thoughts of his friend mingled with his anger. “Why couldn’t
-the fellow tell me in time? But the Lord grant it may still be in time!
-There’s things I might have done. I’m not without funds nor resources,
-nor ideas, either, for that matter.” And as Mr. Wedderburn went along
-the orderly Edinburgh street, he burst out into a kind of laugh, such as
-is among many elderly Scotchmen the last evidence of emotion, and said
-within himself: “To the half of my kingdom!” The humour of the contrast
-between that romantic phrase and the very prosaic, rapid calculation he
-had gone through as to the money he&mdash;not a romantic person at all, an
-Edinburgh W.S., of fifty-five, and of the most humdrum appearance&mdash;could
-command: and the true feeling with which he had realised his friend’s
-misfortune, burst forth in that anomalous sound. A woman who was passing
-turned round and looked at him with puzzled alarm; and a boy, one of
-those rude<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_197" id="page_197"></a>{197}</span> commentators who spare nobody’s feelings, called out,
-“That’s a daft man; he’s laughing to himsel’.” “Laughing,” said Mr.
-Wedderburn with something like a groan: “there is little laughing in my
-head.” And so he went on to the Railway Office, and the Insurance
-Office, to ask for Mr. Dalyell.</p>
-
-<p>At the railway he had not been seen that day, at the other office he had
-appeared for about half an hour only.</p>
-
-<p>“He will have returned home, I suppose,” Wedderburn said indifferently.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, no, sir; not at once,” said the clerk who answered his questions.
-“I heard him saying he was feeling fagged, and that he was going out to
-Portobello for a dip in the sea and a good swim.”</p>
-
-<p>“It’s a little cold for that,” said Wedderburn.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, it may be a little cold,” admitted the clerk cautiously, “but Mr.
-D’yell is a great man for the sea.”</p>
-
-<p>“He will probably be going out by the usual train,” Mr. Wedderburn said
-to himself as he turned away. But there was no appearance of Dalyell in
-the train. The lawyer walked to Yalton through the cornfields, in which
-the harvest had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_198" id="page_198"></a>{198}</span> begun, just as the sun was sinking. The ruddy autumnal
-light came into his eyes, half blinding him with its long, level rays.
-Everything was rosy with the brilliancy of the sunset; the blue sky
-flushed with ruddy clouds, the warm colour of the sheaves catching a
-still warmer tone from the sun. All was peaceful, wealthy, full of
-external comfort and riches, and the house of Yalton caught the sinking
-gleams from the west upon its high roof and pinnacles like a
-benediction. The trees were taking the autumn livery here and there,
-giving as yet only a little additional warmth to the landscape. To go
-from Yalton to Melville Street, or some other dread abode of stony
-gentility in Edinburgh, how could they ever bear it? Mr. Wedderburn had
-been going over all his resources as he made his little journey, and he
-had reckoned up what he could spare to set his friend on his legs again.
-Perhaps there might yet be time!</p>
-
-<p>When he went into the drawing-room where Mrs. Dalyell was sitting, she
-raised her head from her work, with a smile on her face. And then he
-observed a little alteration&mdash;oh, not so much as a cloud upon her face,
-not even a look that could be called disappointment, but only the
-slightest<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_199" id="page_199"></a>{199}</span> scarcely perceptible change of expression. “Mr. Wedderburn!”
-she said. “I’m very glad to see you: but I thought it was Robert,” and
-she held out her hand to him with all the easy confidence of habitual
-friendship. She was not disappointed; there was no doubt in her mind
-that Robert was coming, if not behind his friend, at least with the next
-train.</p>
-
-<p>“You will be surprised to see me so soon again,” he said, feeling a
-little embarrassed. “You will think you are never to be quit of that old
-fellow&mdash;but I wanted to have a long talk with Bob on some business; and
-as I could not find him at the office&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Mrs. Dalyell; “he said as soon as he could get his business
-over he was going down to Portobello for a dip in the sea. I never knew
-such a man for the sea. No doubt that has made him lose his train&mdash;for
-he’s generally very punctual by this train.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is what I thought,” said Mr. Wedderburn. “I thought I would meet
-him and come out with him. But the next will bring him, no doubt.”</p>
-
-<p>“In about three-quarters of an hour,” said Mrs. Dalyell, calmly: and she
-added, “It’s a beautiful<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_200" id="page_200"></a>{200}</span> evening, and it’s a pity to keep you in the
-house. We should take the good of the fine weather as long as it lasts.
-Never mind me: you will find the girls upon the terrace somewhere. But
-take a cup of tea before you go out.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will take a cup of tea,” said the visitor, “thankfully. But why not
-come out upon the terrace yourself? It is the most lovely afternoon, and
-the wind, as much as there is, is from the west. It’s a sin to stay in
-the house when you have such a place to see the sunset from. Now if you
-were in Melville Street, for instance&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Why Melville Street?” said Mrs. Dalyell with a laugh&mdash;but she did not
-wait for an answer. “If I had to live in Edinburgh I would never go
-there. I would prefer the south side&mdash;or old George’s Square where the
-houses are so good. I sometimes think we will have to come in for the
-winter now that Susie’s of an age for parties, for there is little
-gaiety for a young thing here.”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s true,” said Mr. Wedderburn, and he gave her a look in which
-there was an inquiry and a moment’s doubt. Did she perhaps know
-something? Had Bob D’yell confided some hint of approaching calamity or
-necessary retrenchment<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_201" id="page_201"></a>{201}</span> to the wife of his bosom? What so natural, what
-so wise? Mrs. Dalyell’s head was a little bent over the table where she
-stood pouring out a cup of tea for the visitor; but she raised it,
-meeting that inquiring look with the perfect frankness of her usual
-demeanour and the calm of a woman round whom there had never been any
-mysteries. She was struck, however, by his look. “Is there anything the
-matter?” she said. “You are looking very serious.” Then, for heaven
-knows what womanish reason, it occurred to her that Mr. Wedderburn was
-himself in trouble, and wanting something of her husband. “You know,”
-she said with a little emphasis, “that whatever might be the matter, if
-there’s anything that Robert could do, Mr. Wedderburn, you are as sure
-of him as of a brother.” “God bless her innocence!” the lawyer said to
-himself.</p>
-
-<p>“Not a bit,” he said. “There’s nothing the matter: but thank you all the
-same for saying that. Bob D’yell’s been to me as a brother, since we
-were boys together&mdash;and will be I hope till the end.”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Dalyell put out her soft hand to him over the tea-table with a
-smile. There was water in his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_202" id="page_202"></a>{202}</span> eyes, though, fortunately, as he stood
-with his back to the light, it could not be seen&mdash;but there was none in
-hers. Her eyes were as serene as the evening skies; and her soft hand,
-which perhaps was a little too soft, with no bones in it to speak of,
-the hand of a woman never used to do much for herself, met his strong
-grasp, in which there was more than many an oath of fidelity, with a
-moderate and simple kindness which showed at once how natural and
-genuine was the friendship to which she thus pledged her husband, and
-how devoid of all tragical elements so far as her comprehension went.
-She was a little surprised by Mr. Wedderburn’s grip, which rather hurt
-that soft hand, but led the way to the terrace, after he had taken his
-tea, with all her usual serenity. She took a shawl from the stand in the
-hall and wrapped herself in it as she went out. In Scotland even in July
-it is wise to take a shawl when you go out to see the sunset; how much
-more in September! Indeed, after she had taken two or three turns upon
-the terrace, she went in again, saying that it was all very well for
-“you young things” (with a smile at Mr. Wedderburn), but that she knew
-what rheumatism was. Susie and Alice were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_203" id="page_203"></a>{203}</span> very good company on the
-terrace, and they had a thousand things to say to their old friend, so
-that, though he had looked occasionally at his watch, he had not taken
-very decided note of the passage of time, until an hour after, when Mrs.
-Dalyell came back again, with a shawl this time over her head. The sun
-had quite gone down, the shadows were lengthening, and twilight stealing
-on. “Do you mean to say,” Mrs. Dalyell said as she came down the steps
-to the terrace, “that your father’s not here? I made sure he must be
-here with you: the train’s been in this half-hour, and there’s not
-another till nine&mdash;and no telegram. I don’t know what it can mean.”</p>
-
-<p>It could not be said, perhaps, that she was anxious, but she was uneasy,
-not knowing what to think. Mr. Wedderburn, for his part, started, as if
-the fault had somehow been his. “Bless me!” he said, “I had forgotten
-all about it. I might have gone down and met the train.”</p>
-
-<p>“That would have done little good,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “for if he had
-come by it he would have been here before now: the thing that astonishes
-me is there’s no telegram. Sometimes Robert, like other people, is
-detained. Every<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_204" id="page_204"></a>{204}</span> business man must be detained now and then: but he
-always sends a telegram. I never knew him to fail.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is the worst,” said Mr. Wedderburn, “of being too exact in your
-ways. If you ever depart from them by any accident everybody thinks
-something must have happened.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think something must have happened,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “but I
-don’t understand it. It’s so unlike him. He would rather take any
-trouble than keep me anxious; and I told him particularly we should be
-alone to-night, with no man except servants in the house. It’s not like
-Robert. It must have been something quite unforeseen.”</p>
-
-<p>“Such things are always happening, my dear lady. He may have had to meet
-some man from London; he may even have had to go to London himself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear me!” said Mrs. Dalyell, “you don’t think that’s likely? Without so
-much as a clean shirt! Besides, he would have sent a telegram,” she
-repeated, going back to the one thing of which she was sure.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s the telegram you miss more than the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_205" id="page_205"></a>{205}</span> man,” said Mr. Wedderburn
-with a laugh. It was very very little of a laugh. He was more miserable
-than she, for her anxiety was quite unmixed by any deeper sense of a
-possible reason for her husband’s absence. There was no reason for it,
-none whatever to her consciousness.</p>
-
-<p>“That is just it. I want the telegram to explain the man. Of course, he
-might be called away. Would I have him tied to my apron-string? But a
-word of warning, that’s what I look for. ‘Kept by business and will not
-be back till the late train,’ or ‘Dining at the Lord President’s,’
-or&mdash;it does not matter what it is. I am always glad that Robert should
-enjoy himself, so long as I have my telegram. But as it’s evident he’s
-not coming,” said Mrs. Dalyell, looking at her watch, “we must just take
-our dinner and hope he’s getting as good a one. He will be coming by the
-nine train.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn went in with very painful fancies, which he could not
-shake off. The moment would have come, perhaps, when Bob D’yell had to
-tell his family that he was a ruined man, and he would be shrinking from
-that stern necessity. His friend pictured him wandering about the dark
-streets, or sitting in the rooms<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_206" id="page_206"></a>{206}</span> above the Insurance Office, where
-there was space to receive on occasion a belated director, and counting
-up all he had&mdash;alas! would it not rather be all the debts he
-had&mdash;reckoning them, and asking himself how long it would be before the
-storm burst, and how he was to tell <i>her</i>, and what the poor children
-would do? That was what the poor fellow would be thinking, wherever he
-was. Instead of coming back&mdash;the good lawyer exclaimed within himself in
-a little attempt at anger, to keep his sympathy from becoming too
-heart-rending&mdash;to one that might have helped him! But that would be just
-like Bob D’yell&mdash;ready enough to come to you if you were in trouble, to
-give all his mind to what was to be done: but not if the trouble was his
-own: more likely then to hide himself, to think shame of it, as if
-misfortune was a man’s own fault. Mr. Wedderburn did not know what to
-do, whether to hurry into Edinburgh to make inquiries, or to wait on,
-and see whether he would arrive by the late train. Somehow he had very
-little faith that his friend would come home. He might go away,
-thinking, perhaps, that the creditors would be more gentle with his
-family if he were gone. And that would be called<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_207" id="page_207"></a>{207}</span> absconding! Heaven
-only could tell what in his despair the poor fellow might do.</p>
-
-<p>Except suicide: there never occurred to his friend, in the endless
-thoughts he had on the subject, any fear of that, which to a Frenchman
-would be the first thing to be thought of&mdash;the natural refuge for a
-bankrupt. No, no!&mdash;come what might there was no need to think of that
-dark contingency. Besides, Mr. Wedderburn reflected, with a sense of the
-grim humour of the suggestion, that Dalyell, as the director of an
-insurance company, knew too well that such a step would take away the
-last resource his children might have. No, no!&mdash;not that. But he might
-go away. He might not be able to bear the sight of ruin as affecting
-them. That was what chiefly weighed upon himself&mdash;the woman and her
-children; the girls, who would not know what it meant; and poor Fred,
-who would know what it meant&mdash;who would have to abandon everything on
-which his heart was most set. Had Wedderburn been aware of the
-conversation which had taken place between Fred and his father his
-troubled thoughts would have been still more serious: as it was, all he
-could do was to keep his countenance,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_208" id="page_208"></a>{208}</span> to look as like his ordinary as
-possible, not to frighten the poor things too soon.</p>
-
-<p>But the dinner went over well enough. Mrs. Dalyell kept looking at the
-door every time it opened, though she knew it was only to admit a new
-dish, expecting her telegram. But it did not come. And the nine o’clock
-train arrived, and there was still no appearance of the master of the
-house. The footman was sent down to meet the train, and Wedderburn put
-on his coat, and said shyly that he would just take a turn and meet the
-truant. And the girls ran out by the terrace, and one strayed down the
-avenue to bring papa home. And though it was cold, Mrs. Dalyell opened
-one of the drawing-room windows that she might hear him coming. She was
-not alarmed: but she was so much surprised that it made her a little
-uneasy, for in all her married life such a thing had never happened to
-her before.</p>
-
-<p>When it proved that he had not come by the nine o’clock train nobody
-knew what to think. By this time the telegraph-office was closed at the
-village, and there was no longer any hope of news that way: which,
-strangely enough, was a thing that rather calmed than otherwise Mrs.
-Dalyell’s mind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_209" id="page_209"></a>{209}</span></p>
-
-<p>“He must be coming by the midnight express,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Would you like me to go in and see if there was anything the matter?”
-said Mr. Wedderburn.</p>
-
-<p>“What could be the matter?” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, he might be ill&mdash;or there might have been an accident!”</p>
-
-<p>“In that case,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “Robert never would have omitted to
-send a telegram&mdash;or the people at the office, or wherever he was, would
-have done it. No, no! You would go in to Edinburgh anxious, and we could
-not let you know that he had got the express to stop. Just stay where
-you are. And we’ll hear all about it when he comes. And it’s a comfort
-to have you in the house.”</p>
-
-<p>To this request Mr. Wedderburn at once yielded. If the poor fellow did
-come home, miserable and disheartened, it was better that he should see
-a friend’s face, and take counsel with a man who was ready to help and
-advise before he told <i>her</i>. Besides, it was better for her, poor thing,
-to have somebody to stand by her. And, oddly enough, now that there was
-no chance of that telegram she was not so anxious. She had no doubt of
-Robert<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_210" id="page_210"></a>{210}</span> coming by the express. She let Alice stay up beyond her bedtime
-to make up a rubber for Mr. Wedderburn, and took her share in the game
-quite cheerfully. She did not believe in either illness or accident. “He
-would have had no peace till I was by his bedside,” she said; “and
-anybody could have sent a telegram.” No, no, she had no fear of that:
-and expected now quite calmly the last train.</p>
-
-<p>But Mr. Dalyell did not come by the midnight express.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_211" id="page_211"></a>{211}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_IV-b" id="CHAPTER_IV-b"></a>CHAPTER IV.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">There</span> is something dreadful in the aspect of a room from which its
-habitual occupant is absent unexpectedly all night. Its good order, its
-cold whiteness, the unused articles in tidy array, undisturbed by any
-careless natural movements, strike a chill to the heart. In any case,
-even when the usual tenant is pleasantly absent, or gone on a visit,
-there is something ominous in the empty room. It seems to breathe of a
-time when the familiar person will be gone for ever. And how much more
-when the beloved occupant has gone mysteriously&mdash;absent, lost in the
-unknown&mdash;no one knowing where he has passed the night! Mrs. Dalyell was
-not a fanciful woman, she was not given to morbid imaginations, but when
-she glanced into her husband’s dressing-room next morning her heart sank
-for a moment with this chill, that would not be reasoned away. She did
-reason it away, however, and recovered her composure. For, after all,
-what was it?&mdash;nothing.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_212" id="page_212"></a>{212}</span> A man in active life has a hundred calls upon
-him. He might be whipped off to London upon some railway business
-without any warning. The only thing that really troubled her was the
-absence of that telegram. It was still almost summer weather; nothing to
-interrupt the working of the telegraph anywhere. Already even she might
-have had one had he telegraphed from any station on the way up to
-London. This was the thing which she could not understand.</p>
-
-<p>“No, there is no word,” she said. “I have made up my mind he must have
-been called off at a moment’s notice to London; but why he didn’t
-telegraph, I can’t imagine&mdash;even from Berwick he might have done it, and
-I should have had it by this time. I never knew Robert so careless
-before.”</p>
-
-<p>“Here it is, mother,” cried Alice, rushing in with the famous yellow
-envelope, the hideous messenger of so much trouble. But when Mrs.
-Dalyell took it, she flung it back again almost with indignation, and
-turned upon the girl with a sort of fury.</p>
-
-<p>“Couldn’t you see,” she cried, “that it was for Mr. Wedderburn?” The
-poor lady had kept her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_213" id="page_213"></a>{213}</span> nerves quiet and her imagination suppressed till
-now. But this felt to her like an injury. She got up from the
-breakfast-table, and paced about the room, wringing her hands. It had
-come, but it was not for her! This seemed to put terror into the
-anxiety, an increase of every involuntary tremor. In the sickness of the
-disappointment tears came rushing to her eyes. She took Alice by the
-shoulders and gave her a shake. “Couldn’t you see? you little careless
-monkey!” Poor Mrs. Dalyell was unjust in the heat of her disappointment.
-But after a while reason once more resumed its sway. “I am letting it
-get upon my nerves,” she said with a tremulous laugh, as she came back
-to the table. Then, with a glance at Mr. Wedderburn’s disturbed face,
-“It is not by any chance&mdash;about Robert?” she cried.</p>
-
-<p>“No&mdash;no&mdash;I’ve no reason to suppose it is. It’s from my managing clerk.
-He says: ‘Something requiring your instant attention. Fear bad&mdash;&mdash;’
-No&mdash;no&mdash;no reason in the world to suppose that D’yell has anything to do
-with it. I must just hurry away. I’m called upon often, you know,” he
-added with a sickly explanatory smile, “on urgent&mdash;personal affairs.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_214" id="page_214"></a>{214}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes,” said Mrs. Dalyell, “we know that well; and no better or kinder
-counsellor. But you have had no breakfast&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I must not stop a moment longer&mdash;there is just time for the early
-train.”</p>
-
-<p>The girls caught their hats from the stand in the hall and ran down with
-him, Alice speeding on in front like a greyhound to bid the
-station-master keep back the train for a minute&mdash;a kindly arrangement
-which often was made for the convenience of Yalton. Mr. Wedderburn gave
-forth a few breathless instructions to Susie as he hurried along. “If I
-were you I would send over for Fred. He should be at home in the
-circumstances: and don’t let your mother be troubled.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, dear Mr. Wedderburn, what are the circumstances?” said Susie. “Is
-there anything wrong with papa?”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope not, my dear, I hope not. I’ve no reason to think that there is
-anything wrong: but just&mdash;I would have Fred at home as early as
-possible. And if I hear anything in town, I’ll send you word directly.
-And you may calculate on seeing me before dinner. Then we’ll know what
-to think.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_215" id="page_215"></a>{215}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I hope papa will be home before then: and he’ll laugh at us
-cardiatically.”</p>
-
-<p>“Susie, my dear&mdash;there’s no such word.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes, Mr. Wedderburn, for cardiac means from the heart; and that’s
-the only way it will go.”</p>
-
-<p>He turned round upon her, and smiled with the strangest mixture of
-fatherly kindness and pity and sorrow. Susie was silenced by this
-strange look. Her eyes were startled with a sudden anxious question, her
-soft lips dropped apart with fear and wonder. “Oh, why are you so sorry
-for me, Mr. Wedderburn?” she cried. But they were just arriving at the
-railway, and the train was waiting. Susie, with her young sister
-clinging to her arm, both a little breathless with their run, in their
-light morning dresses and careless garden hats, the rose of morning
-health and brightness in their soft, shaded faces, the morning sun
-shining upon them and round them, distinguishing them upon the rustic
-platform by the soft little shadow they threw, was a sight the good
-lawyer never forgot. “The innocent things!” he said to himself.</p>
-
-<p>When he was safe from their eyes, whirling<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_216" id="page_216"></a>{216}</span> along over the country, he
-took once more the telegram from his pocket: “Something requiring your
-immediate attention. Fear bad news. Sent for last night. Too late to
-communicate, please lose no time.” Well! after all, there was nothing in
-that to indicate Bob D’yell. It might be Mrs. Davidson’s business. It
-might be that scapegrace young Faulkner again. The devil fly away with
-all young spendthrifts! To give an honest man a fright like this for
-him! Mr. Wedderburn, with a momentary relief, noted, a gleam of fun
-coming into his eyes, two superfluous words in the telegram:
-“<span class="lftspc">‘</span>Please’&mdash;the blockhead! What man in his senses says ‘please’ when he
-has to pay a ha’penny for it?” he said with a little hoarse laugh to
-himself. For surely it must be young Faulkner&mdash;the born fool! There was
-absolutely nothing to connect it with Bob D’yell.</p>
-
-<p>When he entered his office, however, he was met with a very grave face
-by his managing clerk. “It was a man from Musselburgh, sir, last night.
-He came to the office, and finding it shut, as it naturally would be at
-that hour, came on to me at my house. You know, sir, I live out at
-Morningside&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_217" id="page_217"></a>{217}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be strange if I did not know where you live&mdash;get on, man, get
-on!”</p>
-
-<p>“I say that to account for it being so late. Well, sir, he told me&mdash;if
-it was Musselburgh or if it was Portobello, I can’t quite say, but it’s
-written down, and I sent off young Gibson by skreigh of day to make
-inquiries. He told me, sir, that a heap of clothes had been found on the
-sands belonging to somebody, it would seem, that was bathing in the sea.
-They lay there all the afternoon and no one took any notice, but at last
-one of the fisherwomen getting bait came in and said it was a
-gentleman’s clothes, and his watch and all lying. And the things were
-examined, and in the pockets were a number of letters&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn gave a gasp, inarticulate but impatient, with a vehement
-wave of his hand. The clerk handed him, with a look of deep
-commiseration and sympathy which filled the lawyer with sudden rage, a
-little packet on the table.</p>
-
-<p>Ah!&mdash;had he not known it all the time?</p>
-
-<p>He sank into a chair, speechless for the moment, but half with rage at
-Martin standing there gently shaking his head, with the look that a
-sympathetic<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_218" id="page_218"></a>{218}</span> acquaintance wears at a funeral&mdash;as if it were anything to
-him! “Robert Dalyell, Esq., Yalton,” the familiar commonplace address,
-that meant nothing except the merest everyday necessity&mdash;that meant a
-whole tragedy now.</p>
-
-<p>“Found lying on the sands. But was that all&mdash;was that all? For God’s
-sake, man, speak out, whatever you have to say.”</p>
-
-<p>Martin excused Mr. Wedderburn’s hastiness with a slight wave of his
-hand, and said all there was to say. It was very little: Mr. Dalyell, a
-man very well known, had been seen to arrive at the station, and had
-been met by various people on his way to the sea. He was not in the
-habit of using the bathing machines, as indeed few gentlemen were. There
-was no special danger about the spot, and it was a calm day, and he was
-a good swimmer. Of course the place was a little out of the way, and
-east of the sands, as was indispensable when gentlemen bathed without
-any machine; but nothing out of the ordinary&mdash;many men did the same, and
-Mr. Dalyell did it constantly. No cry of distress had been heard, nor
-any other signs of a catastrophe. This little mound of clothes, flung
-down with the conviction<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_219" id="page_219"></a>{219}</span> of perfect security, the watch in the pocket,
-a shilling or two dropped on the sands as the things were moved&mdash;this
-was all. “The body,” Martin said, dropping his already subdued voice,
-“had not been found.”</p>
-
-<p>The body! Surely it was premature still to talk of that.</p>
-
-<p>“He might have been carried along by the current further east and got to
-land there.”</p>
-
-<p>“A naked man, sir&mdash;without any clothes! There would soon have been word
-of such a wonder as that&mdash;and somebody sent on for the things. We took
-all that into consideration.”</p>
-
-<p>“I must go down myself at once,” said the lawyer.</p>
-
-<p>“I sent Gibson, sir, the first thing.”</p>
-
-<p>“What’s Gibson to me?” said Mr. Wedderburn, with a sort of roar of
-trouble, anger, and misery combined. “I must go myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“There are a number of letters,” said Martin, “that might want
-answering.”</p>
-
-<p>“Letters! when Bob Dalyell’s lying somewhere dead or dying.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir,” said Martin, “in the midst of life we are in death. If it’s
-poor Mr. D’yell&mdash;and there’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_220" id="page_220"></a>{220}</span> no reasonable doubt on the subject&mdash;he’s
-dead long, long before now.”</p>
-
-<p>Wedderburn made a dash through the air with his clenched fist, as if he
-had been knocking down a too sympathetic clerk, and took his hat, and
-darted away.</p>
-
-<p>“Old Pat’s in one of his grandest tempers,” a young clerk permitted
-himself to say in Mr. Martin’s hearing, as the door closed with a
-violent swing behind their employer.</p>
-
-<p>“Old Pat!&mdash;if it’s our respected superior, Mr. Wedderburn, that ye mean
-by that familiar no to say contemptuous epithet,” said Mr. Martin&mdash;“he
-has just heard of the loss of his dearest friend. You would do better to
-feel for him than to mock at a good man in trouble, my young friend.”</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn rushed to Portobello as fast as the train would take him,
-following in the track of his young clerk, who had already exhausted
-every means of information, but who fortunately met the lawyer on the
-way and gave him the result of his inquiries. These inquiries seemed to
-leave no doubt as to the catastrophe, and Wedderburn found to his horror
-that it was already very generally known, and that there had been a
-paragraph<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_221" id="page_221"></a>{221}</span> on the subject in the <i>Scotsman</i>, fortunately not giving the
-name of the sufferer, but indicating the general fear that a well-known
-member of society had been the victim. “They never read the papers,” Mr.
-Wedderburn said to himself, “and she would never think it was&mdash;<i>him</i>”
-(already it seemed too familiar to say Bob). When some one came hurrying
-up to him, grasping his hand and asking, “Is this awful news true?&mdash;is
-it out of doubt that it’s poor D’yell?”&mdash;the broken-hearted man felt
-once more fiercely angry at the question, as if it was not a thing to be
-discussed in ordinary words. But this was morbid, he knew. The
-questioner was Mr. Scrymgeour, Fred’s host, the giver of the ball on the
-previous night, who explained that he had seen the paragraph in the
-papers, and had secured it at once and come in to Edinburgh to inquire,
-that the poor boy should hear nothing till he could ascertain if it were
-true. And even while he spoke, others came pressing upon them with grave
-faces: “Was it true? Could it be D’yell?” The sensation was
-extraordinary. “He was said to be a little shaky in business matters,”
-said one. “That was all rubbish,” said another. “A man with a good
-estate<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_222" id="page_222"></a>{222}</span> at his back and plenty of friends&mdash;no fear but he would have
-pulled through.” “And Chili stock is looking up again, which was
-supposed to be his danger.” Thus they stood and talked him over. “I
-suppose there is no doubt it was an accident?” said another cautiously.
-This remark caught the lawyer’s anxious ear, upon whose own heart a
-heavy cloud of dread was hanging. But there was a chorus (thank God!) of
-assurances. No, no!&mdash;Bob D’yell was the best fellow in the world. He was
-a man always confident in his own mind, a man that had every inducement
-to live&mdash;with a fine family, his son at Oxford, with a good estate
-behind him, and an excellent character and plenty of friends. Even if
-there might be a little temporary embarrassment&mdash;that would soon have
-blown over. There were men that would have stuck by him through thick
-and thin. “Me, for instance,” said Mr. Wedderburn, careless of grammar.
-“I went out especially last night to tell him, if there really was
-trouble, I would see him through it&mdash;&mdash;” “Poor fellow! Poor Bob! Poor
-D’yell!” the bystanders said in their various tones. Nobody had the
-faintest hope that he could have escaped. Such a prodigy as a man<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_223" id="page_223"></a>{223}</span>
-without clothes would soon have been known along the coast. And of
-course he would have hurried back, if he had been saved, to ease the
-anxieties of his friends. It was only Mr. Wedderburn who insisted upon
-every means being taken to secure the poor remains, and that not for
-certainty of the fact, but for decent burial. There is no coroner’s
-inquest in Scotland; but an inquiry into all the circumstances was
-immediately set on foot, an inquiry at first in which there was no
-certain evidence but the piteous heap of clothes, the respectable
-garments in which every man of business goes to town. The papers left in
-the pocket, the few shillings on the sands, the notes in his
-pocket-book, were all so many unconscious witnesses to the accident, all
-proving how accidental, how unlooked-for, was this cutting short of his
-career. There was even a withered rose in his coat, a pale China rose
-from one corner of the terrace at Yalton, which Mr. Wedderburn
-recognised with a pang, as if it had been one of the children. The tears
-blinded the middle-aged lawyer’s eyes as he took this faded thing out of
-his friend’s coat, brushed off the sand from the withered leaves, and
-put it in his pocket-book<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_224" id="page_224"></a>{224}</span> reverently. All who were present looked on at
-this little incident as if it had been a religious rite.</p>
-
-<p>It may be added here that the naked remains of a drowned man were found
-a few weeks afterwards on the east sands of Portobello. Needless to say
-that they were quite unrecognisable; but the height and size, and the
-absence of clothing, made it as nearly certain as any such thing could
-be that this was all that remained of Robert Dalyell.</p>
-
-<p>Meanwhile that fatal day passed over at Yalton, the first part very
-quietly, as usual, in the ordinary occupations of the household. It was
-a beautiful morning, full of comfort and good hope, and Mrs. Dalyell was
-busy in her house. It was the day for the overseeing and paying of the
-weekly bills, and there were various repairs necessary before the winter
-set in which she had to look after, and a great deal of linen&mdash;napery as
-she called it&mdash;had come in from the laundry, which it was essential to
-examine to see what wanted renewing and what it would be possible to
-darn and keep in use. Old Janet Macalister was famous for her darning.
-Old as she was, it was still, Mrs. Dalyell said, “a pleasure to see” her
-work. It was an ornament<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_225" id="page_225"></a>{225}</span> to the tablecloths rather than a blemish. Old
-Janet was in great activity, almost agitation. She appeared in the
-house, as she very rarely did, and talked so much in an excited way,
-that the servants thought her “fey.” She went with Mrs. Dalyell to the
-housekeeper’s room, uninvited, to examine the linen. “Dinna put that
-away. I can darn that fine,” old Janet said to many articles over which
-her mistress shook her head. “Losh! what’s the good o’ me, eatin’ bread
-and burnin’ fire this mony mony a year, if I canna keep the napery in
-order!” she cried. Her head, which was slightly palsied, nodded more
-than usual, her large pale hands shook; but her voice was strong, and
-she ended every sentence with a harsh laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid you are not very well to-day, Janet,” said Mrs. Dalyell.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, ’deed am I, very well; but ye must give me work, mistress, ye must
-give me work. Without work there are o’er many thoughts in a person’s
-head for comfort. And that fine darning, it just takes everything out of
-ye: it takes up baith body and mind.”</p>
-
-<p>When her survey of the linen was over, Mrs. Dalyell came back to the
-drawing-room, having<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_226" id="page_226"></a>{226}</span> sent old Janet back to her room with an armful of
-sheets and tablecloths. And she was glad to escape from the old woman.
-There was a gleam in her eyes, often fixed upon her mistress with a
-penetrating look, as if she knew something, and her unusual flurry of
-speech and the harsh laugh of agitation which occurred so often, which
-Mrs. Dalyell did not understand, and which alarmed her&mdash;she could not
-tell why. Then came luncheon, to which she sat down with her girls, with
-a forlorn sense of the two empty seats which Foggo had placed as usual.
-“I thought, mem,” he said in his solemn way, “that Mr. Fred would have
-been home, if not the maister.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should you think Mr. Fred would have been at home?” she asked
-almost angrily.</p>
-
-<p>“He is coming in the afternoon with some of the young people from
-Westwood for tea. We shall want tea on the terrace at half-past four,
-and there will probably be five or six people.”</p>
-
-<p>“Very well, mem,” said Foggo, more solemn than ever, and with a look
-which, like Janet’s, meant more than his words.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Dalyell had something like an <i>attaque des nerfs</i>, which was a
-malady unknown to her. She<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_227" id="page_227"></a>{227}</span> could not eat anything. In order that the
-servants might not suppose there was anything irregular in their
-master’s proceedings, she said nothing before Foggo about her anxiety.
-She said she was tired, looking over all that weary linen. “And old
-Janet, that was stranger than ever, and she always was a strange
-creature. I think I will lie down for a little after lunch. And I almost
-wish that I had not bidden Fred to bring over the Scrymgeours with him
-for the afternoon.” If this was said to throw dust in Foggo’s eyes, Mrs.
-Dalyell might have spared herself the trouble. For Foggo had read his
-<i>Scotsman</i> that morning, and had heard a murmur of dismay which had come
-to Yalton by the backstairs, by the kitchen&mdash;nobody knew how. “God help
-the poor woman!” Foggo said, when he retired to his own domain, with
-more feeling than respect. “She’s full of trouble, but she will not let
-on, and though she’s in horror of something, it’s not half so bad as
-what has come to pass.”</p>
-
-<p>“If that story’s true,” said the cook, who was too much disturbed and
-too anxious to hear everything to take any trouble about her own work,
-which the kitchen-maid was accomplishing sadly while her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_228" id="page_228"></a>{228}</span> principal
-talked and cried over the dreadful rumour which had swept hither on the
-wings of the wind. “Oh, it’s true enough,” said Foggo, whose disposition
-was dismal&mdash;“and there’s little dinner will be wanted here this night,
-for sooner or later they must hear. It was more than I could well bear
-to hear them talking of the big tea on the terrace and who was coming. I
-hope the Scrymgeour people will not be so mad as to let their young ones
-come: and nobody else will come, for it’s well known over the country by
-this time, though she doesn’t know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my poor bonnie lady,” said the cook weeping&mdash;“and the kind maister,
-that had a pleasant word for everybody.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not so pleasant a word for them that crossed him,” said Foggo. “Not
-that I would say a word against him, and him a drowned man.”</p>
-
-<p>Early in the afternoon Fred came home. It was a house that stood always
-with open doors and windows, so that there was no need to open to any
-familiar comer; but Foggo was in the hall, chiefly because he too was
-excited and eager to have the first of any news that might arrive, when
-the youth with his light step came in. His eager<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_229" id="page_229"></a>{229}</span> question, “Is my
-father at home?” made the grave butler more solemn than ever.</p>
-
-<p>“No, sir, the master has not been back since he left the house yesterday
-morning,” said Foggo.</p>
-
-<p>But though his looks were so significant, that the very dogs saw that
-something was the matter, Fred neither gave nor communicated any news.
-He rushed upstairs three steps at a time, and burst into the
-drawing-room, where his mother was sitting. She had tried to lie down,
-as she had said, but Mrs. Dalyell could not rest: her nerves would not
-be stilled, and her thoughts grew so many that they buzzed in her ears,
-and seemed to suffocate her in her throat. She was sitting at the window
-which commanded the gate, so that she might see who appeared, ever
-watching for that telegraph boy, who in a moment might set all right.</p>
-
-<p>“You have come back early, Fred,” she said. “And have you come alone?”</p>
-
-<p>“Mother, what’s this I hear, that my father has never come home?”</p>
-
-<p>“Who has told you such a thing? Your father has many affairs in his
-hands; he’s often been called away in a hurry.”</p>
-
-<p>“You knew then he was going somewhere? It’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_230" id="page_230"></a>{230}</span> all right, then, thank
-God!” said Fred; “and that dreadful thing in the papers has nothing to
-do with him.”</p>
-
-<p>“What dreadful thing in the papers?” cried Mrs. Dalyell. It was not till
-Fred had thus committed himself in his haste and anxiety that he felt
-how foolish it was to refer to a report which as yet was not
-authenticated. He went to look for the papers, cursing his own rashness.
-But Foggo had more sense than might have been supposed. He had conveyed
-that <i>Scotsman</i> out of the way.</p>
-
-<p>Alas! as if it were of any use to try to stave off the knowledge of such
-a calamity! An hour later Mr. Wedderburn’s sober step sounded upon the
-gravel, coming up from the train. Mrs. Dalyell sat still in her chair,
-not running to meet him as the others did. “Oh, I shall hear it soon
-enough&mdash;I shall hear it soon enough!” she said to herself.</p>
-
-<p>His very step had tragedy in it; and she knew before she saw him that
-something dreadful had happened, that the failure of that telegram,
-which Robert had never before omitted to send her, was but too well
-explained. Something like a sweeping gust of fatal wind seemed to flow
-through the house&mdash;a chill consciousness of coming trouble, calling<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_231" id="page_231"></a>{231}</span> out
-everybody from above and below to hear the news. And then there was a
-terrible cry, and then a dread stillness fell over Yalton&mdash;like the
-stillness before a storm.</p>
-
-<p>There was one strange thing, however, which happened that fatal
-afternoon, and which Fred could never forget. As he went upstairs to his
-own room, which was in the upper storey, a pale and miserable ghost of
-the cheerful youth he had been yesterday, he saw old Janet standing at
-the end of the passage which led to her room. She put out her long arm,
-out of the folds of her tartan shawl. “How is she taking it, Mr. Fred?”
-she asked. Janet’s eyes were deep, and shone with a strange fire. Her
-face was full of excitement and agitation&mdash;but not of grief, although
-she had been devoted to the master, who was also her nursling. “How is
-your mother taking it?” There was a gleam of strange curiosity in her
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Taking it?” cried Fred. “Have you no heart that you ask such a
-question? My mother is heartbroken&mdash;as we all are,” said the lad, his
-voice giving way to the half-arrested sob, which he was too young to be
-able to restrain.</p>
-
-<p>“But no me&mdash;that’s what you’re thinking:<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_232" id="page_232"></a>{232}</span> though the Lord knows he’s
-more to me than everything else in this world. Laddie, you’re
-young&mdash;young; and so is your mother. But me, I’m a very old woman. I’ve
-seen many a strange thing. You’ll mind that you’re to come and ask me if
-you’re ever very sore troubled in your mind.”</p>
-
-<p>“You!” cried Fred. There was something like scorn in his tone. The first
-distress of youth seems always final, insurmountable, so that it is half
-an insult to suggest that it will be lived through and other troubles
-come. But then a sudden chill of horror came over the lad. “You!” he
-said again, with a pang which he did not himself understand. He
-remembered what his father had said: “Go to old Janet.” Did she know
-what his father had said? Had she been aware that this great trouble,
-this more than trouble, this misery, calamity, was coming? Fred gave the
-old woman an awed and terrified look&mdash;and fled: from her and his own
-thoughts.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_233" id="page_233"></a>{233}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_V-b" id="CHAPTER_V-b"></a>CHAPTER V.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">There</span> is no coroner’s inquest in Scotland, as has been said;
-nevertheless there was a careful examination into all the circumstances
-of Mr. Dalyell’s death. It was known that he was going to Portobello to
-bathe. This he had stated not only to his family, but to the clerks at
-the insurance office and other persons whom he had met. One gentleman
-appeared who had travelled that little journey with him by the train,
-whom he had almost persuaded to join him in his swim, and who parted
-with him only at the corner of the road leading down to the sands; the
-porter at the station had seen him arrive, had seen the two walk off
-together. There was no mystery or concealment about anything he had
-done. It was his usual place for bathing, there was nothing
-extraordinary about the matter, up to the moment when the clothes were
-found on the sands and the man was gone. Every step was traced of his
-ordinary career, nor could one suspicious circumstance be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_234" id="page_234"></a>{234}</span> found. The
-mere fact of the heap of clothing, the money in the pockets, the watch,
-all the familiar careless evidences of a day which was to be as any
-other day, with no auguries of evil in it, was all there was to account
-for his disappearance. But that was pathetically distinct and
-unimpeachable. And when after so much delay the body was found&mdash;which,
-indeed, no one could tell to be Robert Dalyell’s body, but which by
-every law of probability might be considered so&mdash;the question dropped,
-and all the endless talk and speculation to which it had given rise. Of
-course there were doubts at first whether it might be suicide. But why,
-of all people in the world, should Robert Dalyell drown himself? No
-doubt there had been rumours of unfortunate speculations, and possible
-pecuniary disaster. But everybody knew now that Pat Wedderburn, a man of
-considerable wealth and unlimited credit, had put his means at his
-friend’s disposal. It is true that what Mr. Wedderburn had said was that
-he was about to do so; but these fine shades are too much to be
-preserved when a statement is sent about from mouth to mouth, and all
-Edinburgh was persuaded that Mr. Wedderburn’s means made Dalyell’s
-position secure&mdash;if,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_235" id="page_235"></a>{235}</span> indeed, it ever was insecure, with a good estate
-behind him, and all his connections. But what a fatality! What a
-catastrophe! A man in the prime of life, with a nice wife and delightful
-children, a charming place, an excellent position, everything smiling
-upon him. That he should be carried away from all that in a moment by
-some confounded cramp, some momentary weakness. What a lesson it was! In
-the midst of life we are in death. This was what, with many regrets for
-Bob D’yell and sorrow for his family, and a great sensation among all
-who knew him, Edinburgh said. And then the event was displaced by
-another event, and his name was transferred from the papers and
-everybody’s mouth to a tablet in Yalton Church, and Robert Dalyell was
-as if he had never been.</p>
-
-<p>It proved that his life was very heavily insured&mdash;to a much larger sum
-than anybody had been aware of, and in several offices. Neither Mrs.
-Dalyell, nor any of his advisers knew the reason for these unusual
-liberalities of arrangement, if not that Mr. Dalyell, being himself
-concerned in an insurance office, thought it right to set an example to
-others by the number and value of his own.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_236" id="page_236"></a>{236}</span> Enough was obtained in this
-sorrowful way to clear off everything that was wrong in his affairs, and
-to secure Fred, when he should come of age, in unencumbered possession
-of Yalton, as well as to leave the portions of the girls intact. So far
-as this went, and though it was a dreadful thing to think, much more to
-say, no doubt it passed through Mr. Wedderburn’s mind, who was the sole
-executor, with the exception of Mrs. Dalyell, that the moment of poor
-Bob’s death was singularly well chosen. Mrs. Dalyell left everything in
-his hands, so that the conclusion was in no way forced upon her, nor
-would she have entertained it if it had occurred to her. Nothing would
-have persuaded her that her Robert had drowned himself, and she knew no
-reason why. She was not a woman who demanded explanations, who searched
-into the motives of things. She accepted the event when it happened with
-sorrow or with thankfulness, according as it was good or bad, but she
-did not demand to have the secret told her of how it came about. And she
-grieved deeply for her good husband; the earth was altogether overcast
-to her for a time. She felt no warmth in the sun, no beauty in the
-world&mdash;a pall hung over everything.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_237" id="page_237"></a>{237}</span> Robert was gone&mdash;what was the good
-of all those secondary things, the comforts and ease of life, which were
-not him, nor ever could bring him back? She would have accepted joyfully
-a life of poverty and privation with Robert instead of this dreadful
-comfortable blank without him. Her emotions were as sincere as they were
-sober and unexaggerated. But, as was natural, this gloom of early
-bereavement did not last. After a few months she was capable of taking a
-little pleasure in the spring weather, of watching the flowers come up.
-And though the first notice she took of these ameliorating circumstances
-was to say with tears, “How pleased your father always was to see the
-crocuses!” yet it was the beginning of a better time. Mrs. Dalyell was
-still in the forties; she was in excellent health, and she was of a
-mild, unimpassioned temperament. It was not possible that the clouds
-should hang for ever about such a tranquil sky.</p>
-
-<p>But there were two of the mourners who were not so simply constituted.
-Fred, who had been so light-hearted a boy when his father talked to him
-on the terrace and bade him think of the catastrophes which overturned
-so many young lives,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_238" id="page_238"></a>{238}</span> was greatly changed. He could not get that
-conversation out of his mind, nor the strange recommendation his father
-had given him, nor the stranger repetition by old Janet of what Mr.
-Dalyell had said. How did she know? Had the father confided to her what
-was about to happen? Confided?&mdash;a thing which was an accident, an
-unforeseen calamity, or&mdash;&mdash; what else? Confided to Janet that next day
-he was going to die? Fred turned this over in his mind, over and over,
-till he was nearly mad. How did she know? How did she know? Was it
-second-sight, witchcraft of one kind or another? But Fred was a young
-man of his time&mdash;or rather he was not sufficiently a young man of his
-time to believe in witchcraft or any occult power. How was it?&mdash;how was
-it?&mdash;how was it? This question went on in his mind so constantly that it
-became a sort of mechanical rhyme running through everything. How did
-old Janet know? Had it been discovered by her somehow by mystic art? Had
-it been confided to her? He could not turn his mind away from this
-question or forget it. How did she know?&mdash;what did she know? Fred felt
-as if he should have informed the commissioners who had investigated the
-circumstances<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_239" id="page_239"></a>{239}</span> of his father’s death of that conversation on the
-terrace. It might be only a coincidence; but it was a very curious
-coincidence. He ought to have reported it, made it known, that everybody
-might draw his own conclusions. Here was a man who as a matter of fact
-died by some mysterious accident next day, and who had talked to his son
-of what he might have to do were he left with the family on his hands,
-and advised whom he should take counsel with in difficulties: and the
-proposed counsellor had apparently been communicated with too. What
-would the little court of inquiry, he wondered, have said to that? What
-would the insurance people have said? Was it his duty to have told the
-strange and terrible detail? Was it better to have remained silent? Poor
-Fred could not tell what he ought to have done&mdash;what he ought to do. He
-was but a boy after all, when all was said. He had not been accustomed
-to form such momentous decisions for himself, and he was overwhelmed
-with grief and misery, not able to think. He remained silent, not
-betraying even to Mr. Wedderburn, who was now the guide of the
-household, looking after everything, what he felt. But the lad was very
-unhappy. There was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_240" id="page_240"></a>{240}</span> no reason why he should not return to Oxford; but he
-had no desire to return. He did not care to do anything. He wandered
-about the grounds asking himself what his father meant, if he had it all
-in his mind then as he walked along the terrace in the dark, listening
-to his boy’s chatter of college jokes and light-hearted nonsense. Was he
-thinking then of what was to be done next day? Had he planned it all?
-and left perhaps his last instructions with Janet, the unlikeliest
-repository of such secrets. Could it be this? or only coincidence, a
-series of coincidences, such as may occur and sometimes do occur,
-perplexing and confusing every calculation? All this made him very
-miserable, as he pondered, many a weary monotonous night and day. He
-stole out in the evenings after dinner and strolled along the terrace,
-as his father had been used to do, with a sort of vague hope of
-enlightenment, of some influence that might come to him, or even voice
-that he might hear. But he never heard anything more than the wind
-moaning in the trees, which drove him indoors with the melancholy of
-their unseen rustling, and the eerie sounds of the night, rising over
-all the invisible country, tinkle of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_241" id="page_241"></a>{241}</span> water, and sweeping sound of the
-winds and the drop of the autumnal leaves falling, the hoot of an owl,
-the stirring of unseen things in the woods and fields. But when he was
-indoors again, still less could Fred bear the cheerful air of the
-drawing-room with its bright fire and lamps, and the voices of his
-sisters which began after a time of silence to whisper and chatter again
-in the irrepressible vitality of their youth. Had it all been planned
-before that night? Did his father already well know what was going to
-happen on the morrow&mdash;all the incidents of the tragedy? And did Janet
-know? Fred repeated these questions to himself till his brain felt as if
-it were giving way.</p>
-
-<p>All this time he kept himself carefully away from speech or look of
-Janet, who had been, strange as it was, less affected by the calamity
-than any one in the house, and had a look in her dry eyes which Fred
-could not understand. His heart revolted against her; a woman without
-feeling, who had no tears for the man who had surrounded her with
-comforts and ensured her well-being for her life&mdash;the man who was her
-child, whom she had nursed, but never mourned.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_242" id="page_242"></a>{242}</span> A sort of hatred sprang
-up in the lad’s mind towards this old woman. He felt it a wrong and
-almost insult that he should have been bidden to take her advice&mdash;and
-avoided her as if she had been the plague. Janet, on the contrary,
-seemed to seek opportunities of encountering him, appearing suddenly
-about the house, as she had never hitherto done, in all kinds of
-unlikely places. Her unobtrusiveness had been one of her great qualities
-in former times. She had never been seen on the stairs or in the
-corridor, scarcely at all, except at the opening of the passage leading
-to her own room, or sitting in the sun by the laundry door, or about the
-servants’ part of the house. But now old Janet seemed to be everywhere.
-Fred met her in the hall, lingering about the library, in the gallery
-above which encircled the hall, everywhere save in his mother’s
-drawing-room. And whenever she met him, though she did nothing to stop
-him, she gave him a look full of significance. It seemed to say, “When
-are you coming to consult me? I want to be consulted,” till the young
-man became exasperated, and fled from her with an ever-growing sense of
-trouble or fear. Her apparition in her large<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_243" id="page_243"></a>{243}</span> white mutch, with a black
-ribbon round it, tied in a great bow on the top of her head, with her
-black and white shepherd’s plaid shawl, which she had adopted, instead
-of the old red and green tartan, in compliment to the family
-mourning&mdash;gave him a sensation of shivering, as if old Janet had
-included in her own person the properties of all the Fates. He was
-afraid of what she might have to say to him&mdash;afraid lest there should be
-something to tell which would be hateful to hear; afraid for his
-father’s good name and his own peace.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn had no such addition to the many cares which this
-catastrophe had introduced into his placid life. He knew nothing about
-Janet, or any secret she might have in her keeping, nor had he any idea
-of that last interview which lay so heavily upon Fred’s mind; but he was
-not at ease. The public mind had been entirely reassured on the subject
-of Dalyell’s embarrassed circumstances by the announcement that Pat
-Wedderburn had taken upon him all the responsibility and was indeed the
-principal in Dalyell’s speculations, using him only as an agent, which
-was what Wedderburn’s statement on the subject had now grown to. But
-Wedderburn knew very well that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_244" id="page_244"></a>{244}</span> he had only intended to make this offer
-to his friend, and that Dalyell’s troubles about money were weighing
-very heavily upon him when he went down to Portobello for his swim. And
-he knew that the very opportune cramp or failure of heart which caused
-his death accomplished at the same time the complete deliverance from
-all those cares, of his children and his wife. Everything was
-appropriate, perfectly convenient to the moment and to the needs of the
-man who gave his life for his family as much as if he had defended them
-to the death on the ramparts of some besieged city&mdash;with this only
-exception, that the weapons with which he fought were equivocal, if not
-dishonest. For the insurance money would never have been paid to the
-representatives of a suicide. Poor Bob! poor Bob! it was unworthy, it
-was dreadful to associate that title with his honest name. And yet&mdash;if
-it had been a planned thing, it was not an honest thing, although he had
-paid for it by the sacrifice of his life. This thought rankled in Mr.
-Wedderburn’s mind. Dalyell had been, so to speak, absolved by public
-opinion from that guilt. The payment of the insurances was in itself a
-full acquittal, and no<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_245" id="page_245"></a>{245}</span> one ventured to say or even think that the
-catastrophe on the Portobello sands was anything but a fatal accident.
-But Wedderburn’s mind was haunted by this doubt. It was not for him to
-bring it forward, to hint a suspicion which could never be proved, which
-would be ruinous to the prospects of those whose interests were in his
-hands. No, never to any soul would he hint such a doubt. But yet&mdash;he
-said to himself that poor Bob would have been capable of it. A thing
-that you are willing to give your life to purchase&mdash;it is difficult to
-believe that what is bought at such a sacrifice could be wronging any
-one, or a sin against the commonwealth. The suicide would be a sin
-before God, but many a desperate creature is ready to encounter that,
-with a pathetic trust in the understanding and pity of the great Father.
-But to die dishonestly for the good of your family, that was a different
-thing. Bob Dalyell, perhaps, was not a man who would attach any idea of
-guilt to this way of cheating the insurance companies, even his own
-office; but Wedderburn, who might have been capable of the sacrifice,
-would have stood at that. His idea of honour and probity was perhaps
-more abstract than that of a man<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_246" id="page_246"></a>{246}</span> who was involved in sharp business
-transactions, in speculation and commercial adventure, and who was,
-besides, a man with a family, bent upon saving them from ruin. He shook
-his head and acknowledged to himself that poor Bob was capable of not
-having taken that divergence from strict integrity into account. Had he
-made up his mind to die for his family he would not have considered the
-ease of the insurance companies. The thought of wronging them would have
-sat lightly on his soul.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn took from this self-discussion a habit which remained
-with him for all the rest of his life, the habit of shaking his head,
-slowly, sadly to himself, as it were, as if in the course of some
-remark. It was while he questioned, and doubted, and laid things
-together, excusing his friend even while he judged him, that this habit
-was acquired. It was not a bad habit for a lawyer who was consulted by
-his clients on many delicate questions. It gave an air of regretful
-decision, of compassion and sympathy, when he had conclusions to
-announce that were not pleasant to his clients. And he never lost this
-gesture of reflection and compassion, which was as sacred to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_247" id="page_247"></a>{247}</span> Bob
-Dalyell as his tombstone. It was thus, with many a vexing doubt and
-fear, that he mourned the friend of his youth.</p>
-
-<p>The female members of the party were happily exempted from all these
-discussions. It does not often happen that the women have the lightest
-part to bear in any such calamity. But in this case it was so. Mrs.
-Dalyell mourned her husband most sincerely and deeply, forgetting every
-little flaw in his character, and gradually elevating him into the
-position of a perfect man&mdash;the best husband, the kindest father! And the
-girls mourned him with torrents of youthful tears, with a conviction
-that they never could smile again, never get beyond the blackness of the
-first grief, the awful sensation of the catastrophe. But there was
-nothing but pure sorrow in their minds. They thought no more of the
-insurance companies than the birds in the garden think of the crumbs
-miraculously provided for them when snow is on the ground. Neither had
-the slightest doubt ever entered their minds as to what they were told
-of his death. They knew every detail, laying it up in their hearts. How
-he had parted smiling from his friend at the corner of the street, and
-gone off<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_248" id="page_248"></a>{248}</span> to the sands with his buoyant step, in such health and
-strength, in such good-will and good-humour with all the world. This was
-what the girls said to themselves, trying to picture his last look upon
-life. And they hoped it was some unsuspected failure of the heart, which
-the doctor said was most likely&mdash;a thing which would give no pain, which
-would be over in a moment, so that he would never know he was dying, or
-have any pang of anxiety for those he was leaving behind. This was how
-the girls realised their father’s death: and their mother’s picture of
-it was not dissimilar. She felt that there must have been a moment in
-which he thought of her and of “the bairns.” Mrs. Dalyell added that to
-the imaginary scene&mdash;a moment in which, as people said was the case in
-drowning, all his life would rush through his brain, and he would think
-of her as he died. They had the best of it. Their innocent thoughts
-conceived no ulterior scheme, no darkness of doubt. Had they realised
-that any such doubt existed, it is probable that they would have
-canonised poor Robert Dalyell on the spot as a hero and martyr, dying
-for those he loved, and still never have thought of the insurance
-companies; but, happily,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_249" id="page_249"></a>{249}</span> no such imagination entered at all into their
-simple thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>The household had settled down completely into the habits of its new
-life, when Fred Dalyell came home from a long wandering tour he had made
-about Europe, not so much for love of travelling or desire to see
-beautiful things and places, as to distract his mind from the miserable
-thoughts that had gained so complete an empire over him. He had
-succeeded very well in that, for the most persistent trouble yields to
-such treatment at twenty; but the first return to Yalton, and all the
-recollections that were waiting for him under those familiar trees,
-brought back on the first coming much of the old trouble to the lad’s
-sensitive mind. It was now May, and Yalton was almost as cheerful as
-ever, though in a subdued way. The girls, “poor things,” as their mother
-said, had recovered their spirits. They were so young!&mdash;and Fred’s
-coming home had been a thing much looked for, like the beginning of a
-new era to the young creatures over whom the winter of gloom was
-naturally passing away. Susie and Alice were much disappointed by the
-cloud that came over Fred after the first joy of their greetings.
-Instead<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_250" id="page_250"></a>{250}</span> of sitting with them and telling them everything, he
-disappeared on the first evening, with a sort of impatient, almost
-angry, resistance of their blandishments.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, let me alone; I have a thousand things to think of,” he said,
-pushing them away as the manner of big brothers is. Susie and Alice
-forgave Fred when they saw the little red tip of his cigar on the
-terrace, and realised that he had gone there “to think of father.” For a
-moment it was debated between them whether one of them should not go to
-him to share his solitude and thoughts; but they decided, with a better
-inspiration, to leave him alone, and even withdrew delicately from the
-drawing-room window, not to seem to spy upon his sacred thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, do you mind how papa used to go up and down, up and down?” said
-Alice to Susie.</p>
-
-<p>“Do I mind?” said Susie, half indignant. “Could I ever forget?” And they
-shed a few tears together, then hurried off to the table in the full
-light of the lamps, where Fred’s curiosities which he had brought home,
-and all his little presents, were laid out for inspection, and began to
-laugh<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_251" id="page_251"></a>{251}</span> and twitter over them, and compare this with that, like two
-birds.</p>
-
-<p>Yes, this was just the place where father had stood when he had suddenly
-changed the conversation about the bump-suppers, and all the joys of
-Oxford, to that strange and sober talk about the vicissitudes of life,
-and what a difference a day might make in the position of a happy lad at
-college, thinking of nothing but fun and frolic. Fred remembered every
-word, every look&mdash;the wail of the autumnal wind, the clear break of sky
-among the clouds towards the west, the half shock, half amusement, with
-which he had felt that sudden change into what in those days of levity
-he had called the didactic in his father’s tone. It had seemed to him a
-sermon at the time; and then it had seemed to him&mdash;he knew not what&mdash;an
-awful advertisement of what was coming: a prophecy conscious or
-unconscious. He walked up and down, up and down under the trees, hearing
-the same sounds, the tinkle of the half-choked fountain, the rustling of
-the wind among the branches. The sentiment of the night was different,
-for that had been in September, and this was full of the soft and
-hopeful stir of May. The leaves were falling<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_252" id="page_252"></a>{252}</span> then; now they were but
-just opened, hanging in clusters of vivid young green, which almost
-forced colour upon the paleness of the wistful night. But nothing else
-was as it had been then. His father was gone, swept from the earth as
-though he had never been. Yet this great change had not brought the
-other changes which Mr. Dalyell anticipated. Fred had not been forced
-into the premature development of a young head of the family. He had not
-been plunged into care and trouble, into work and anxiety. If anything,
-he had been more free than before. He was still only a youth dallying
-upon the edge of life, not a man entering into serious duties. The
-contrast struck him strangely. This was not what his father had
-foreseen. It gave him a vague new trouble in his mind to perceive that
-this was so. He ought to be less free, perhaps more occupied, more
-responsible. He could not all at once decide what the difference was.</p>
-
-<p>Here he was suddenly disturbed by the sound of a step upon the
-gravel&mdash;and it is to be feared that Fred uttered within himself an
-impatient exclamation, as he threw away the end of his cigar. “Here is
-one of those bothering girls,” he said<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_253" id="page_253"></a>{253}</span> to himself, though we know with
-what high reason and feeling Susie and Alice had withdrawn, even from
-the window, not to seem to spy upon their brother. He got up to meet
-them, remembering that he had just come home and that it would be brutal
-to show any impatience of their affection. But Fred might have known
-that the heavy, slow step which approached him was not that of either of
-the girls. A tall figure shaped itself out of the darkness&mdash;the white
-mutch, the bow of black ribbon, the checked shawl, became dimly visible.</p>
-
-<p>“Eh, Mr. Fred,” said old Janet, “but I’m blythe to see you home!”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” he said, “it’s you!” in a tone which was not encouraging. He had
-forgotten old Janet, happily, and it was with anything but pleasure that
-he felt her image thus thrust upon him again.</p>
-
-<p>“Who should it be but me?” she said. “There is none that can take such
-an interest. And, Mr. Fred, it is time you should be taking your ain
-place. This house of Yalton should go into no other hands but them it
-belongs to. Oh, I canna speak more plain; but you must rouse yourself
-up, and you must take your ain place.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_254" id="page_254"></a>{254}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know what you have to do with it,” cried Fred angrily, “nor why
-you should thrust your advice upon me. I am here in my own place. What
-do you mean? I ought to be at Oxford, that would be my own place.”</p>
-
-<p>“Na, na! that would be just more schooling,” said Janet, “and it’s no
-schooling you want, but to stand up like a man, and be maister of your
-father’s house, as is your right. Oh, laddie, I tell you I canna speak
-more plain; but take you my word, it’ll save more trouble, and worse
-trouble, if you will just grip the reins in your hands and take your ain
-place!”</p>
-
-<p>He laughed contemptuously in his impatience and anger. “You had better
-save your advice for things you understand,” he said. “Don’t you know
-the law considers me an infant, and that I can do nothing till I’m of
-age&mdash;if there was anything to do? But all is going as well as can
-be&mdash;almost too well&mdash;as if he were not missed,” the young man cried
-abruptly with a movement of feeling, which indeed was momentary and had
-not come into his mind before. Perhaps it was an influence from the
-brain of the old woman beside him which sent it there now.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_255" id="page_255"></a>{255}</span></p>
-
-<p>“That’s just what I wanted to say,” said old Janet&mdash;“as if <i>he</i> were not
-missed. All settled for her, and smoothed down and made fair and easy,
-as if <i>himsel</i>’ were to the fore. There’s trouble in the air, Mr. Fred,
-and if you dinna bestir yourself, and take your ain place, and get a
-grip of the reins in your ain hand&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Rubbish!” said Fred. “How can I get the reins, till I come of age? If
-there was any need, which there is not, my mother knows better than half
-a dozen of me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Your mother!” said old Janet, with the natural contempt of an old
-servant for the mistress; then she added in a different tone: “if it was
-only your mother”&mdash;shaking her old head.</p>
-
-<p>“Who else?” said Fred with indignation. But Janet made no reply. She
-turned her back upon him and went off along the terrace, always shaking
-her head, which was slightly palsied and had a faint nodding motion
-besides. Something in this confirmed movement which was comic, and the
-jealousy of his mother, which had always been a well-known feature in
-old Janet, tended to give a ludicrous character to her appeal. Instead
-of deepening the sadness of his thoughts, it lightened<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_256" id="page_256"></a>{256}</span> them with a
-curious sense of relief. It seemed to take away at once the gravity of
-the recollection of his father’s reference to her, and the painful
-suggestion in it which had caused Fred so much trouble, when old Janet
-thus displayed herself in an absurd rather than a tragical light.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_257" id="page_257"></a>{257}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VI-b" id="CHAPTER_VI-b"></a>CHAPTER VI.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Mr. Wedderburn</span> entered very naturally into the charge of his friend’s
-affairs. He had been Dalyell’s counsellor already on many occasions in
-his life, and knew much about his concerns, the resources of the estate,
-and all the original sources of income which Dalyell had increased, yet
-fatally risked, by his speculations. No one was better fitted than he to
-apply the welcome aid of the insurance moneys to the relief of Yalton
-from all the encumbrances which the dead man’s other affairs had
-imported into his life. A man so familiar with the household and all its
-affairs, nobody could know so well as he how to guide the revenues of
-the household so as to afford their usual comforts to Mrs. Dalyell and
-the girls without injuring Fred’s interests, or forgetting the very near
-approach of the time when he should take the control into his own hands.
-It was evident that changes were inevitable then; either that Mrs.
-Dalyell should retire to a house of her own, or that she should remain
-as Fred’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_258" id="page_258"></a>{258}</span> housekeeper, with her authority contingent upon his plans,
-and liable to be destroyed whenever the young man should think of
-marriage&mdash;a position in which the faithful friend of the house was
-unwilling to contemplate the mistress of Yalton. It was not a thing that
-would have affected Mrs. Dalyell. It would not have occurred to her to
-think that the house was less hers by being Fred’s. But Mr. Wedderburn
-was jealous of her dignity, and it wounded a certain imaginative sense
-of fitness for which no one would have given the dry old lawyer
-credit&mdash;the notion that the woman whom he had so long admired and liked
-should be dependent on her boy’s caprice and whether it should please
-him or not to marry. The event which would make another change, so
-great, in her position, troubled him more than he could say. Was it not
-enough, he asked himself, that she should have had this shock to bear,
-and her life rent in two, that she should now have to yield all
-authority to Fred, and be dependent upon him for her home and dignity?
-The thought did not disturb Mrs. Dalyell, who felt it as natural to
-continue as before at the head of a house, which was no less hers
-because her son was now its formal head, as to perform any other act<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_259" id="page_259"></a>{259}</span> of
-life. But it did disturb her champion and guardian, who made it more and
-more his office from day to day to watch over her comfort and spare her
-trouble.</p>
-
-<p>It was astonishing how Pat Wedderburn, who had not for many years,
-indeed for all his independent life, known more of the sweets of
-domesticity than those which he shared at second-hand in the houses of
-his friends, and especially at Yalton, fell into the ways of the head of
-a family. He did not, indeed, come out to Yalton every night as poor
-Dalyell had done, but he spent at least half of his evenings there, and
-gave his mind to the consideration of what was wanted in the house, and
-what would be agreeable to both mother and girls, with a curious
-familiar devotion which was at once amusing and touching. No father
-probably ever was so mindful of the tastes of his children as Mr.
-Wedderburn was of Susie and Alice. He remembered what they liked, and
-noted every expression of a wish with an affectionate vigilance and
-thoughtfulness which surprised even the girls, though they were well
-accustomed to have their little caprices considered. As for Mrs.
-Dalyell, no wife ever had her likings more sedulously consulted,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_260" id="page_260"></a>{260}</span> her
-suggestions more carefully carried out, than were hers by her
-co-executor, her trustee, and fellow-guardian of the children. She had
-but to speak to Mr. Wedderburn about any trifling obstacle and it was
-immediately removed out of their way. He regarded her wants and wishes
-as things which were sacred; not as a husband does, whose natural
-impulse it is to contest, if not to deny. Life had never been made so
-easy for the ladies of Yalton. When he came out it was almost certain
-that some pleasant surprise accompanied him&mdash;a book, a present,
-something that either girls or mother had wished for. And they all took
-Mr. Wedderburn as completely for granted as if this devotion had been
-the most natural thing in the world.</p>
-
-<p>And it would be impossible to describe the sweetness that came into the
-life of old Pat Wedderburn (as Edinburgh profanely called him) from this
-amateur performance, so to speak, of the duties of husband and father.
-He had long been in the habit of considering Yalton as a sort of home.
-But yet his visits there, though he was always so welcome, were more or
-less at the pleasure of his hosts, and he had kept up the form, though
-it was not much more than a form,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_261" id="page_261"></a>{261}</span> of being invited. Now no such
-restraint (though it had never been much of a restraint) existed. He put
-a certain limit upon himself, but save for that the house of his wards
-was to him as his own, always open, always ready. They were all his
-wards, the mother not less than the children. It is true she was joined
-with him in the trust, and that she was a woman, as he said to himself,
-of a great deal of sense, who could give him advice upon many subjects,
-and even took or appeared to take an intelligent interest in
-investments, and knew whether the claims of the farmers were just, and
-what was right in respect to repairs, &amp;c., better than Mr. Wedderburn
-himself. But she had never been accustomed to do anything for herself,
-to act independently, to take any step without advice and active help.
-It is impossible to say how pleasant it was to the middle-aged bachelor
-to be thus referred to at every moment asked about everything, consulted
-in every domestic contingency. He would not have minded even had he been
-called upon to settle difficulties with the servants, or subdue a
-refractory cook, nor would it have bored him to have a housekeeper’s
-afflictions in this way poured into his ears.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_262" id="page_262"></a>{262}</span></p>
-
-<p>Happily, however, in the large easy-going household at Yalton there were
-few difficulties of that kind. Mrs. Dalyell was an excellent manager,
-but she was not exacting, and her servants were chiefly old servants,
-who ruled the less permanent kitchen-maids, footboys, &amp;c., under them
-with rods of iron, but did not trouble the mistress with their
-imperfections. When a house has been long established on such a footing,
-and there is no overwhelming necessity for economy, or interfering
-dispositions on the part of its head, it is wonderful how smoothly it
-will roll on, notwithstanding all human weaknesses. And the shadow of
-grief glided away. There could not have been a more desirable house, or
-a more pleasant routine of life. The very neighbourhood breathed peace
-into Wedderburn’s being. Before he had reached the gates the atmosphere
-of content enveloped him. He had something in his pocket for the
-girls&mdash;he had something to consult their mother about, generally her own
-business, but sometimes even his, so great a confidence was he acquiring
-in her common-sense. To think that the loss of poor Bob Dalyell should
-have brought so great an acquisition of happiness into his life! He was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_263" id="page_263"></a>{263}</span>
-ashamed when he came to think of it, and felt a compunction as if he had
-profited by his friend’s disaster. But it was no fault of his.</p>
-
-<p>And there was no doubt that Mr. Wedderburn enjoyed Yalton and the life
-there a great deal more than if he had been really the father whose
-office as far as possible he had taken upon himself. He was not
-responsible for the faults or aggrieved by the imperfections of the
-children, as a man is to whom they belong. The very distance between
-them increased the charm. Although it would have been death to him to
-have been thrust out of that paradise, it would perhaps have lessened
-its charm had he been absolutely swept into it, bound to it, by law and
-necessity. The freedom of the voluntary tie added sweetness to the bond.
-He was far more at the orders of his adopted family than any father
-would have been; but that shyness of old bachelorhood, which is as real
-as the reserve of old maidenhood and very similar, though it is little
-remarked, was in no way ruffled or wounded by the present arrangement.
-And thus good came out of all the evil, to one at least of the little
-circle who had been so deeply affected by it. Poor Bob D’yell!&mdash;to think
-that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_264" id="page_264"></a>{264}</span> he should have lost all this, and that his most devoted friend
-should have acquired it by his loss! This gave Mr. Wedderburn a
-compunction which was of course entirely fictitious and visionary&mdash;for
-had he not taken that position it would have been much worse for the
-family as well as for himself.</p>
-
-<p>This state of affairs was scarcely interrupted by Fred’s majority, for
-Fred, no more than any other member of the household, considered that it
-made any difference. Of course, in the progress of time he would marry,
-and probably desire to be as his father had been. But, in the meantime,
-he felt himself no less a boy on the morning after his twenty-first
-birthday than he had done the morning before; and the idea of taking the
-reins out of his mother’s hands or desiring more freedom than he
-actually possessed, especially the freedom of turning her out of the
-house which was now legally his, or disturbing any of her arrangements,
-never occurred to Fred. Young people brought up under such an easy sway
-as that of Mrs. Dalyell do not feel the temptation of rushing wildly
-into freedom as soon as it is legally their own. Fred had always been
-free, and he could not be more so,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_265" id="page_265"></a>{265}</span> because his name was now at the head
-of all the family affairs, and Frederick Dalyell, Esq., was now the
-official proprietor at Yalton. What difference did it make? The family
-generally said none. Of course, Fred, as the only son and the eldest,
-would have been paramount in the house under any circumstances; he could
-not be more than paramount now. But it was not to Fred that Mrs. Dalyell
-looked for help and advice, any more than it had been before; this
-birthday did not add experience or wisdom to the boy. And Mr. Wedderburn
-came and went just the same, looking after Fred’s interests, spoiling
-the girls, always ready to be referred to. It made no difference, nor
-did anybody wish that it should, except perhaps old Janet, whose opinion
-was not thought much of, whom Fred avoided carefully, and whose very
-existence was scarcely realised by the adviser of the house. As for Fred
-himself, his troubled thoughts had worn themselves out. Whatever trouble
-there may be in the mind respecting a man who has been in his grave for
-more than a year, it dies away under the progress of gentle time. To
-keep up the pressure of such misery there must be new events occurring
-or to be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_266" id="page_266"></a>{266}</span> dreaded. What is altogether past affects the spirit in a
-different way. If there was a tragic secret unrevealed in the story of
-Robert Dalyell’s death, it was hidden for ever in the bitter waves that
-had swallowed him up: and the course of his young life had gradually
-swept from Fred’s mind the burden of his father’s tragedy. He had
-decided to go back to Oxford at the end of the first year, and he was
-still continuing his unlaborious studies there when the second had
-ended, and October, with its shortening days and windy skies, returned
-again. The vacation had been a lively one to Fred, and Mrs. Dalyell had
-been obliged to come out of the seclusion of her widowhood on account of
-Susie, whose introduction to the world could not be postponed any
-longer. Mrs. Dalyell herself was not unwilling that it should be so. She
-was entirely contented in her home-life, yet pleased to vary it when
-need was, and the more smiling and brilliant side of things no longer
-jarred upon her feelings. And Susie, in all the fervour of her first
-season (though it was only in Edinburgh), was as happy as the day.</p>
-
-<p>Thus it was, upon a household as cheerful as could be seen, that the
-shadows began to lengthen<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_267" id="page_267"></a>{267}</span> in that October, a little before the end of
-the vacation, when Fred, who had exhausted his own covers with the
-assistance of his friends, was flitting about the country in a series of
-“last days” before he went back to his college. Fred’s friends of the
-shooting parties had made the house very gay for the girls, and Mr.
-Wedderburn had thought it expedient to “put in an appearance,” as he
-said, even more frequently than usual, to support Mrs. Dalyell and help
-to preserve the balance of the house. He came “out” four or five nights
-in the week to the house which became daily more and more like his home,
-and found a continually increasing charm in the sight of the pleasure of
-the young ones and in the company of their mother. While they were
-carrying on their amusements, he considered it only his duty to sit by
-Mrs. Dalyell and keep her as far as possible from feeling the blank of
-the empty place. They could talk to each other, as only old friends
-can&mdash;of the people and places they had mutually known all their lives,
-of the different dispositions of the children, of Robert, how pleased he
-would have been to see them so happy, of the beasts in the little
-home-farm; and of the new leases, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_268" id="page_268"></a>{268}</span> the new Lord of Session, and the
-Queen’s visit to Edinburgh, and everything indeed that came within the
-range of their kindly world. It was very pleasant: Mrs. Dalyell found it
-so, who was thus able to relieve her mind of any remark that occurred to
-her, which the young ones were too hasty or too much occupied to listen
-to; and Mr. Wedderburn liked it still better, feeling that he himself,
-who had never ventured to risk any of the great undertakings of life,
-had thus come to have the cream and perfection of quiet social comfort,
-without paying for it, without cost to himself or wrong to any one in
-life.</p>
-
-<p>On one such evening Mrs. Dalyell had been called away on some domestic
-errand, and Mr. Wedderburn, feeling thus a little left to himself,
-strolled out upon the terrace to look at the rising moon and to enjoy
-the softness of the evening, one of the last perhaps before the winter
-came on. It was a still night, and the temperature was high for the time
-of year. The country had been blazing in the sunlight with all the
-colours of the autumn, and even the moon brought out the yellow
-lightness in the waving birches, if not the russet reds and browns of
-the deeper foliage.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_269" id="page_269"></a>{269}</span> Nothing could be more still: the sky resplendent,
-with here and there a puff of ethereal whiteness, a cloud scarcely to be
-called a cloud, imperceptibly floating upon a breeze that was scarcely
-to be called a breeze&mdash;a soft sigh of night air. It was so warm that he
-did not hesitate to sit down, though at fifty-seven one is cautions
-about sitting down in the open-air in October, even in the day. But the
-night was very soft, and so were Mr. Wedderburn’s thoughts. It cannot be
-said they were sentimental, much less impassioned. He wanted no more
-than he possessed, the loving kindness of this house, the affection of
-the children, the friendship and trust of their mother. He was entirely
-satisfied to come and go, to feel that he was of use to them, to enjoy
-their society. A great sense of well-being filled his mind as he sat
-there and heard the sound of their young voices gay and sweet coming
-from the billiard-room, where Fred and a friend or two were amusing the
-girls. There was something like a suggestion that more might come of
-that partnership of jest and play which was springing up between pretty
-Susie and one of these young men&mdash;dear little Susie!&mdash;who had given up
-her big words, but whom her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_270" id="page_270"></a>{270}</span> father’s friend still corrected and petted
-with fatherly tenderness. If it were possible to feel more fatherly than
-old Pat Wedderburn, the dry old Edinburgh lawyer, felt as he sat there
-and smiled in the dark at the sound of Susie’s voice, I do not know what
-that quintessence of paternity could be.</p>
-
-<p>He was thus sitting in quiet enjoyment of the solitude (which is so much
-sweeter a thing with the sense of the near vicinity of those we love
-than when we are really alone) and his own thoughts, when he saw, as
-Fred had done on a previous occasion, a tall figure rise as it were out
-of the soil and approach through the dark&mdash;a shadow, but with that
-independent movement of a living creature which is so instantly
-distinguishable from any combination of shadows. Mr. Wedderburn was not
-superstitious, but the figure as it came slowly towards him was one
-which he did not recognise, and he was astonished at its intrusion here.
-He rose up to intercept it&mdash;whether it was an unlawful visitor prowling
-round perhaps to see the handiest way of entry into an unsuspicious
-house, or some lover bound for a rendezvous, or some servant come out
-unconscious of observation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_271" id="page_271"></a>{271}</span> to take the air. But the new-comer was not
-afraid of his observation, and he now made out that it was a large old
-woman in her checked shawl and white cap. Even then Mr. Wedderburn did
-not recognise the old woman, with whose appearance he was but slightly
-acquainted. She stopped when they met and made him a slow curtsey,
-leaning upon a stick. It was too dark for him to see her face.</p>
-
-<p>“Did you want anything with me, my woman?” said Mr. Wedderburn.</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, sir,” she said, “I just do that. You’ll maybe not know me. I’m
-Janet Macalister, that was nurse to Mr. Robert D’yell.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have often heard of you,” said Mr. Wedderburn, “and I am glad to see
-you, Janet; not that I do see you, for the night’s dark. And this is not
-an hour for you to be out at your years. If you have anything to say to
-me we would be better in the library or the hall.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sir,” said Janet, “what I have to say is not for any place where we can
-be seen. I came out here that naebody might suspect I took such a thing
-upon me; and yet I’m forced to it&mdash;though I canna tell you why.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_272" id="page_272"></a>{272}</span></p>
-
-<p>“This sounds very mysterious,” said Mr. Wedderburn; “but I hope there’s
-nothing very wrong.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Wedderburn,” said Janet, “you’re very often at our house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Eh!” cried Mr. Wedderburn, in amazement, “at your house? Oh, you mean
-at Yalton, I suppose. And have you any objections to that?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, sir,” said Janet firmly, “the greatest of objections. Do you not
-know, Mr. Wedderburn, that the mistress is still but a young woman (to
-have such a family), and that she is a widow with naebody to defend her
-good name&mdash;and here are you, a marriageable man, haunting her house
-every night of your life. Bide a moment, sir, and listen to me. Oh, it’s
-nothing to laugh at&mdash;it’s just very serious. You are here morning, noon,
-and night”&mdash;(here there was a murmur from the unfortunate man of “No,
-no! not so bad as that”)&mdash;“and I ask ye to take your ain sense and
-judgment to your help and tell me what folk will think that sees that?”</p>
-
-<p>“Think!” faltered Mr. Wedderburn. “Woman, you must have taken leave of
-your senses. What is it you mean?&mdash;and what should they think<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_273" id="page_273"></a>{273}</span> but that
-I’m the friend of the family and a very attached one, and that it’s my
-business to be here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir, ye’ll not content your ain judgment with that, far less the
-rest of the world! It’s no business that brings ye here. Ye come because
-you’re fain and fond to come. I am the oldest person about the house,
-and it would ill become me to see my bairn’s wife put in a wrong
-position, and never say a word. Sir, the mistress is a bonnie and a
-pleasant woman.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have nothing to say against that.”</p>
-
-<p>“And no age to speak of. And you yoursel’ what are ye? Comparatively
-speaking, a young man.”</p>
-
-<p>“Comparatively in the furthest sense. I am much obliged to you, Janet.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t think, sir,” said Janet, solemnly, “that you can carry it off
-with a laugh. I will not see the mistress put in a wrong position, and
-never say a word. It may be want of thought; but you must see, if you
-consider, that she’s not like a young lass to be courted and married.
-And still less is she one to be made a talk of in all the country side.
-I will not have my mistress exposed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_274" id="page_274"></a>{274}</span> to detractions, and none to the
-fore to put a stop to them!” said Janet with excitement, striking her
-staff on the gravel.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn stood, feeling the old woman tower over him with her
-palsied head and threatening air; he was half angry, half amused, wholly
-discomfited and startled. The situation was ludicrous, and yet it was
-embarrassing. To be startled out of the happiness of his thoughts by
-such an interruption, brought to book by an old servant, warned as it
-were off the premises by the nurse, was almost too whimsical and absurd
-a position to be treated as serious; and yet there was an uncomfortable
-reality at the bottom which he could not elude.</p>
-
-<p>“Janet,” he said, “my woman&mdash;do you not think you are going a little too
-far? I was just as often at this house when Robert D’yell himself was
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, Mr. Wedderburn, not half so often.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nonsense, woman, much more often! and in any way I am not answerable to
-you. The last thing I could think of,” he added in a troubled tone,
-“would be to&mdash;would be&mdash;&mdash; You are daft, Janet! I’m their trustee and
-the nearest of their<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_275" id="page_275"></a>{275}</span> friends; how dare you say a word about my visits?
-I will say nothing to your mistress, but I must request you to refrain
-from such remarks, or else&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Sir,” cried Janet, “you needna threaten me, for you’re not the master
-here!”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I am not the master here,” said Mr. Wedderburn; “but if you think
-anybody will have encouragement to set up ill stories about&mdash;&mdash; No,” he
-said, checking himself, “I will not blame you with that. You’ve made a
-mistake; but no doubt your meaning was good&mdash;only never let me hear it
-any more.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sir,” cried Janet, “the human heart’s an awfu’ deceitful thing. I
-could find it in my heart to go down on my knees, and beg you&mdash;oh, for
-the Lord’s sake!&mdash;to go away before there’s any harm done from this
-misfortunate house.”</p>
-
-<p>“The woman’s daft!” cried Mr. Wedderburn.</p>
-
-<p>But it gave him a dazed and troubled look when he appeared in the
-drawing-room some time later. He was very silent all the rest of the
-evening, sometimes casting an almost furtive look round him from one
-face to another; sometimes red, sometimes pale. Once or twice he broke
-out into<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_276" id="page_276"></a>{276}</span> a curious laugh when there seemed little occasion for it. “I
-am afraid you have taken cold, Mr. Wedderburn; it was too late to be
-sitting out on an October night,” said Mrs. Dalyell.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think I’ve taken cold&mdash;but I think I’ll return to my room, with
-your kind permission, for I have some things to plan out,” said the
-lawyer. It was so unlike him that they all agreed something must be the
-matter. Had he got bad news? Had he been troubled about business?
-“Perhaps he had taken something that had disagreed with him,” Mrs.
-Dalyell suggested. Whatever it was, he was not like himself.</p>
-
-<p>No, he was very unlike himself. He gave a shame-faced look in the glass
-when he went to his room, and burst out into a low, long laugh. “I’m a
-pretty person!” he said to himself. And then he became suddenly
-grave&mdash;graver, almost, than he had ever been in all his serious life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_277" id="page_277"></a>{277}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VII-b" id="CHAPTER_VII-b"></a>CHAPTER VII.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">It</span> was not until Fred Dalyell’s return from Oxford in the spring that he
-became aware of the rumour which had already begun to spread through the
-neighbourhood and to be discussed in the Edinburgh drawing-rooms, that
-his mother was about to marry again. He had seen when he returned home
-that the girls were a little overcast and subdued, and that there was a
-little flush as of uneasiness and embarrassment on Mrs. Dalyell’s face.
-It is difficult at first for a long absent member of a family coming
-back, to find such a cloud in the air, to discover whether this is only
-the moment of a storm, whether it means some trifling disagreement&mdash;for
-trifles become great in the inclosure of the household walls&mdash;or whether
-something important and fundamental is intimated by these restrained
-phrases and averted looks. He thought that perhaps there had been a
-“breeze,” that Susie was getting into the wilful stage, and, distracted
-by hopes and prospects of her own,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_278" id="page_278"></a>{278}</span> had been opposing or defying her
-mother; that the tenants had been troublesome, backward on rent-day, or
-bothering about those eternal repairs, which he wondered that old
-Wedderburn could allow to worry his mother. But this did not seem enough
-to account for the visible but unexplained trouble in the house. When he
-caught Susie by the arm and drew her aside to ask, “What’s the matter?”
-she shook off his hand with a cry of “Oh, don’t ask me, Fred,” and
-escaped from him, leaving him more bewildered than ever. What could it
-mean? It seemed to the young man that they all avoided him on this first
-evening of his return. His mother did not call him into her room to ask
-those minute and repeated questions with which mothers are so apt to
-tease their boys. “Oh, confound it! Now I am going to be put through my
-catechism!” he said usually, when he was called to one of these
-examinations; but its omission gave him a shock which was still more
-disagreeable. Could it be possible that his mother did not want to see
-him alone, and that the girls were afraid to be questioned by him? Fred
-felt very uncomfortable, without the faintest notion what could be the
-cause of it, when he perceived<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_279" id="page_279"></a>{279}</span> this constrained condition of the house.
-Then it suddenly occurred to him that old Pat Wedderburn, as he was
-generally and profanely called, had not come to meet him as had
-invariably been the case till now.</p>
-
-<p>“By the by,” he cried, “I felt that something was wanting, but I
-couldn’t make out what it was. What has become of old Pat?”</p>
-
-<p>“You should speak a little more respectfully, Fred, of our oldest
-friend,” said his mother reproachfully; but she did not look at him, and
-the flush grew deeper on her face, which was bent over her work. As for
-Susie, she pushed her chair away, and almost turned her back upon her
-mother. Fred immediately divined that old Pat had been objecting to some
-of Susie’s flirtations, which was odd, as Susie was known to be his
-favourite of all.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I’m respectful enough,” he said. “I don’t mean any harm. The house
-doesn’t seem natural without him. Why isn’t he here to-night?”</p>
-
-<p>“He has not been with us quite so much of late,” said Mrs. Dalyell,
-never lifting her eyes from her work; “but he is coming out to-morrow,
-and he will tell you himself, Fred.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_280" id="page_280"></a>{280}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Has anything gone wrong?” he asked amazed; for the girls, whose voices
-generally ran chattering through everything, and who on an ordinary
-occasion would have thrown in half-a-dozen remarks, sat still as two
-stone images, Susie with her head averted, Alice buried in a book, which
-she held between her and the light.</p>
-
-<p>“I request,” said Mrs. Dalyell, in a voice somewhat high-pitched and
-imperative, as if she expected to encounter opposition, “that there be
-no more about it till to-morrow night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, if it is me you mean, mamma, you may be sure there will be no more
-about it&mdash;till Doomsday&mdash;from me!”</p>
-
-<p>“Susie!” cried her brother in amazement. But Susie’s only reply was to
-burst from the room in a flush of rage and opposition, such as Fred had
-never seen in his quiet home before. Alice followed her quickly, and the
-young man thought that now at last there was some chance of having it
-out. “I suppose,” he said, “that old Pat has been at her for
-flirting&mdash;the little pussy that she has grown.”</p>
-
-<p>But before he had finished his little speech Mrs. Dalyell, too, had
-risen from her chair, and,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_281" id="page_281"></a>{281}</span> standing with her back to him, was putting
-her work away.</p>
-
-<p>“You must excuse me,” she said, “my dear boy, if I don’t enter into it
-to-night. I’m&mdash;a little tired and put out. I must go and look after
-those girls; and though it’s your first night at home, it’s late, and I
-don’t think I shall come down again. After your journey, Fred, you
-should go early to bed.”</p>
-
-<p>“After my journey!” he cried with angry dismay. “What has my journey to
-do with it? But never mind, mother, if you’re tired. I’ll come to your
-room, and have a talk over the fire.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not to-night,” she said, and kissed him. She lingered a moment, patting
-him on the shoulder with her hand. “I know it must seem strange to you,
-Fred&mdash;but not to-night, not to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>As a matter of fact, the least imaginative of lookers-on will allow that
-the position of a middle-aged mother who has to tell her grown-up son
-that she is going to marry again must be an embarrassing one. Mrs.
-Dalyell was not like a girl expecting ecstatic happiness in the union
-with the man she loves. It was an arrangement which had come to seem
-natural, partly because she wanted someone<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_282" id="page_282"></a>{282}</span> to lean upon, and
-ill-natured gossips (as she heard) objected to that constant, easy,
-unembarrassing presence of the household friend, which she and her
-children had found so comfortable&mdash;without the existence of some closer
-bond. She would rather honestly have had Mr. Wedderburn on his old
-footing; but, if she could not have him on his old footing, it was
-better to marry him than to lose him. This had been the unimpassioned
-fashion of Mrs. Dalyell’s thoughts. And he wished it. A man, it
-appeared, even at fifty-seven, could not content himself with the
-friendship which was quite enough for a woman. Perhaps she was a little
-flattered to know that this was so, and that in her mature matronhood
-she still had charms. And she had thought, as he assured her, that it
-would draw the family bonds closer and make so little difference. The
-chief difference would be that he would come of right, instead of only
-for love, and that the interests of her family would be his own, not
-only much more than his own, as they were at present. It had seemed very
-plausible, as he set all the advantages forth, which indeed Pat
-Wedderburn had done, not only to calm her scruples, but also his own;
-for, had she but known<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_283" id="page_283"></a>{283}</span> it, he too was very well contented with the
-existing position of affairs. But if Mrs. Dalyell had known the trouble
-it would have given her&mdash;the wild vexation of the girls, and the
-horrible necessity of having to tell Fred! No, that last was what she
-could not do. She had intended to do it on his return, but her courage
-had failed her. Tell your grown-up son that you are going to marry! No,
-no, she could not do it. And when two years had not yet elapsed from his
-father’s death! “Oh,” she said to herself, “it was no wrong to Robert!
-Oh, no, no wrong to Robert! It was a different thing, not to be thought
-of in the same way.” But still, when it came to the point, she could not
-do it, it was beyond her power.</p>
-
-<p>Fred could not tell what to think: he was angry and vexed and cast down
-by the strange reception he had received. The first night at home, which
-was always so pleasant, the girls hanging about him with a hundred
-things to ask and to tell, his mother beaming with affection and
-pleasure on her united family. And here he was left alone, the lamps
-burning with a sort of calm intelligence as if they knew all about it,
-the clock chuckling at him on the mantel-piece. Foggo came in with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_284" id="page_284"></a>{284}</span>
-tea-tray, and looked round in astonishment for the ladies, then shook
-his head solemnly and went away, leaving the little silver kettle
-boiling over its spirit-lamp. Foggo knew too. The very kettle puffed out
-its steam in Fred’s face like a mockery. Everybody knew&mdash;except the
-forlorn young master of the house, who knew nothing, and could not even
-form a guess what the mystery could be.</p>
-
-<p>He was not however destined to spend that night in uncertainty. As he
-went upstairs, passing with a sense of injury the closed doors of his
-mother’s and his sisters’ rooms, Fred heard himself called in a whisper
-from the end of the corridor. Had he reflected for a moment he would
-have known who it must be. But with his mind full of his present trouble
-he did not reflect; he turned round quickly, hoping to see one of his
-sisters, and it was not till he found himself in the clutches of old
-Janet that he recognised the danger of her interference. “Has she told
-ye, Mr. Fred?” whispered the old woman, approaching her formidable head
-in the big mutch, and with its little palsied movement, to the young
-man’s face. “Told me what?” he cried with impatience. “Oh, my bonnie
-lad, dinna lose your temper&mdash;you’ll have need of all your<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_285" id="page_285"></a>{285}</span> patience.
-That she’s going to be married upon Pat Wedderburn!”</p>
-
-<p>Fred gave a hoarse cry, which ran along the whole corridor into his
-mother’s closed room, who heard it and trembled&mdash;and to Susie’s, who sat
-half desperate over her fire longing for her brother. Not for a moment
-did Fred doubt the news: it explained everything; but he fled from the
-creature of ill-omen, the woman who gave it, with a sense of hatred and
-rage, for which indeed there was no warrant so far as she was concerned.
-“This is your doing!” he cried with fantastic bitterness. Why should he
-hate Janet, and how could it be her doing? he asked himself afterwards.
-But at the moment it seemed to the distracted young man as if this old
-retainer was one of the Fates, the enemy, not the friend of the house.
-He would not wait to hear another word, but rushed upstairs and shut
-himself in his room, as if some evil thing had been at his heels.
-Married!&mdash;his mother, his father’s wife, the first authority of his
-life&mdash;the woman without reproach&mdash;mamma! With that last baby-cry the cup
-was filled. The young man flung himself upon his face on his bed. And
-what an unhappy house it was which the darkness held that night<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_286" id="page_286"></a>{286}</span>
-concealed in its outer mantle of peace! Unhappy without any cause, for
-there was no evil going to be done&mdash;no harm: so far as any of these
-troubled people knew.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wedderburn, who came “out” next day with an embarrassment not less
-than that of Mrs. Dalyell, was roused a little by the desperate
-self-repression with which Fred received the official announcement. “My
-boy,” he said, “it may vex you that there should be any change, but what
-we are doing is no wrong to you&mdash;nor to any man.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have not said it was,” said Fred sullenly.</p>
-
-<p>“No, you have not said it was&mdash;but you seem to think it’s an
-unpardonable step. It is nothing of the kind,” said Mr. Wedderburn,
-indignant. “The time will come when you will think fit to marry, and
-then your mother will be turned out of her house; and that will seem the
-most natural thing in the world. Why should she not have one by her side
-that will make her comfort his care? Your father would have wished it.
-She’s not a person to stand alone to fight with the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“She has her children.”</p>
-
-<p>“Her children! Susie, who will have a husband of her own as soon as the
-lad has enough to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_287" id="page_287"></a>{287}</span> live on; and Alice, who will follow her sister’s
-example; and you&mdash;when are you here to keep your mother company? A month
-in the vacations when the house is full&mdash;and a marriage whenever it
-strikes your fancy, with her turned adrift. No, no, my young man! You
-may not like it, you may scorn both her and me for it. But that
-face!&mdash;as if you were wronged and shamed. Come, come, Fred, that’s not
-an air to put on with an old and faithful friend like me.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know you are a faithful friend,” cried the young man resentfully. “I
-never doubted you for a moment.”</p>
-
-<p>“But never dreamed that I would push my devotion so far? Well, I have
-done it, you see. And it’s your business, my young man, to make the best
-of it, and accept what all the powers on earth shall not prevent, I
-promise you,” cried the old lawyer with some heat. There were many
-people throughout Scotland who were aware that it was not a safe thing
-to go too far with old Pat Wedderburn.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Dalyell, however, insisted upon one thing&mdash;that the marriage should
-not take place until two years after her husband’s death, so that there
-were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_288" id="page_288"></a>{288}</span> yet several months of discomfort to get through. However it might
-end, there could be little doubt that in the meantime an element of
-extreme discomfort was brought into the house. Mr. Wedderburn, whose
-happiness had been to spend half the evenings of his life at Yalton,
-came less frequently and was not happy when he came. Susie had turned
-into a little firebrand, all the more disdainful and offended by her
-mother’s intentions that she was on the eve of a similar change in her
-own person. Little Alice swayed from one party to the other, sometimes
-impertinent, sometimes mournful. The step which was to bring additional
-happiness in the end (or so it is the conventional necessity to suppose)
-in the meantime brought nothing but discord, division and doubt, and
-made the entire party unhappy. How much better, even the two principals
-secretly thought in their hearts, to have gone on in the old happy
-routine as things were!</p>
-
-<p>Fred came home again in June after various wanderings, visits here and
-there. He intended to go away before the marriage, and in the existing
-state of circumstances to make as short a stay as he could at Yalton,
-from which his mother meant<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_289" id="page_289"></a>{289}</span> to remove after this event, leaving the
-house to be taken possession of by her son. Naturally it was not a very
-joyful visit: the mother held her domestic place with a kind of
-unsmiling composure, doing everything as before, ignoring as much as
-possible the difference in her children’s faces; and a little polite
-conversation went on between those who had been so happily united, and
-twittered and chattered like the birds a few months before. Mrs. Dalyell
-would not allow herself to be moved, would not show the impatience which
-possessed her, kept firm with an immovable steadiness, letting the young
-ones go and come without remark. It was more difficult for them, who
-could not ignore her, and whose foolish young hearts were eagerly bent
-on sending little darts into her, saying things between themselves which
-she could scarcely resent, yet which went to her heart. And the girls
-would drag their brother to the other end of the long drawing-room,
-hanging one on each arm, talking low in his ear, while their mother sat
-at the table by the lamp, apparently taking no notice. They were very
-cruel to her, chiefly in ignorance, resenting the fact that she did not
-mind, and unable to feel any human charity for her, as she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_290" id="page_290"></a>{290}</span> sat there
-isolated, conscious of their conspiracy against her. Mrs. Dalyell’s
-spirit was roused a little by this persecution. She had been doubtful
-enough of the expediency of what she was about to do from the first, but
-she became more and more determined to hold to her resolution as they
-thus united against her: and&mdash;what she never thought could have been the
-case&mdash;began to long for the day when she should be delivered from this
-domestic tyranny and once more breathe freely in an atmosphere where she
-would not be constrained. Thus it may be supposed there was little
-comfort one way or another in the troubled house; and it became the
-order of the day to make the evening as short as possible, to go to bed
-early, to finish upon any terms, at the earliest moment, the dreary,
-unattractive evening hours.</p>
-
-<p>Fred was following the little line of ladies with their candles up the
-stairs, when he was once more stopped, but this time openly, by old
-Janet. She came to the edge of the great staircase in her nodding mutch
-and checked shawl. “Will you give me two or three minutes, Mr. Fred,”
-she said.</p>
-
-<p>“For what do you want two or three minutes? I have no time at present,”
-he said quickly, for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_291" id="page_291"></a>{291}</span> Susie, who was nearest to him in the procession,
-had stopped upon the stairs, holding up her candle and looking back upon
-him. She was like a picture, with her light held up and falling upon her
-white dress.</p>
-
-<p>“But you must come,” said Janet in a shrill whisper. “You must come.
-Remember what your father said&mdash;and this time it’s a matter of life and
-death.”</p>
-
-<p>“How do you know what my father said?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, that’s a question. Come with me, my bonnie man&mdash;oh, come with me
-and you shall know all.”</p>
-
-<p>Susie stood like a little light-bearer holding up the candle. “Who are
-you talking to there, Fred, in the dark?”</p>
-
-<p>“No one,” he said, with the prompt unconscious impulse of a child
-accused.</p>
-
-<p>“No one! Why, it’s Janet. Oh, is that all?” said Susie. She lowered her
-light at once and turned away with the profoundest indifference. The
-sight of Janet conveyed no sense of excitement or mystery to the girl
-who saw her every day.</p>
-
-<p>Fred obeyed the old woman sulkily and with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_292" id="page_292"></a>{292}</span> greatest reluctance. He
-would not have done so at all had not Susie seen her. But he could not
-show to Susie that he had any reluctance to speak to old Janet, whom the
-younger members of the family had always held by against all the
-objections of the younger servants. He went mechanically after her, with
-a strong return of that resentment which he had felt against his father
-for the recommendation to consult her. It was grievous to be made to
-think of that at such a moment, when his father had become more sacred
-to him than ever, in face of the desecrating change that was about to
-take place, the injury to that beloved memory. It was the only grievance
-Fred had against his father. He tried to force it from his mind, to have
-patience with the old woman as he followed her. She belonged to <i>him</i>.
-She had been faithful to him all his life. Perhaps she wanted to make
-sure that she should be provided for when his mother left the place,
-when Yalton was in his possession alone. Oh, certainly she should be
-provided for, till her last hour! The only one that was faithful to
-<i>him</i>. Neither friend nor wife had been faithful to him, but his old
-nurse was faithful. She was sacred to his son for his sake.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_293" id="page_293"></a>{293}</span></p>
-
-<p>Fred made his heart soft with these thoughts; he overcame his own
-opposition almost altogether, partly with the sentiment of the nurse’s
-faithfulness, partly with his resentment against the others; and he was
-ready when he found himself in Janet’s room, face to face with her in
-the light of her lamp, to offer her any assurance of his protection and
-certainty she might require as to her living and her home. Janet,
-however, put no question to him on any such score. She shut the door and
-came up close to him in the lamp-light. “Mr. Fred,” she said, “you maun
-take courage, my bonnie man. There are dreadful things to be said to you
-to-night. Just summon all your strength and read that.”</p>
-
-<p>Fred started at the sight of the paper she put before his eyes. “I see,”
-he said, “it is my father’s writing. But you need not show me any
-letter. He told me himself, the day before he died&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, laddie, laddie! take it and read it before I go out o’ my senses,”
-Janet cried.</p>
-
-<p>He took the paper into his hands. His father’s handwriting, there could
-be no doubt; but no suspicion of the truth was in Fred’s mind. He
-glanced over it, and thought to himself that he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_294" id="page_294"></a>{294}</span> gone out of his
-senses, as Janet said, or had lost himself in some incoherent dream. “My
-wife’s marriage must be stopped.” What did that mean? A man who died two
-years ago, how could he write about an event of to-day? Was he going
-mad? Was he in a dream? Was it some delusion which she had put by
-witchcraft before his eyes? “My wife’s marriage must be stopped.” “How
-could he know?” he asked with blanched lips. “How could he tell there
-would be a marriage?” He turned upon her a face blank of all expression,
-pale, in a horror of enlightenment about to come.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, boy, boy! cannot ye see?” cried Janet. She put forth a long
-trembling finger and thrust it at the paper, pointing to the date. Fred
-looked and read. He read it a second time aloud, a strange terror
-growing upon him: “June 3, 18&mdash;.” “Why,” he said, “why&mdash;&mdash;.” Then,
-stammering and stumbling over the words, broke down. “Why, why,” he
-began again with a laugh, “we cannot all be mad and going to Bedlam!
-It’s this year: June 3, 18&mdash;.”</p>
-
-<p>The old woman grasped him by both his hands. “It’s this year&mdash;and we’re
-no mad, though often, often I’ve felt on the edge of it. We’re no mad,”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_295" id="page_295"></a>{295}</span>
-she repeated, “and it’s this year, and the man that wrote that is in the
-house this blessed night, Mr. Fred!”</p>
-
-<p>God help the lad! He had but turned his black and terrible countenance
-upon her, holding the letter helplessly in his hands, when there sounded
-through the house, cutting the silence like a knife, a sudden wild cry,
-a shriek, lasting only for a second, but piercing to the heart of the
-night, to the heart of the house, like some sudden horrible event. It
-was followed almost immediately after by a rush of muffled feet along
-the passage: the door was pushed open violently, yet silently, and
-someone came in like a shot from a pistol, as sudden and unexpected.
-Fred felt himself shrink towards the wall in his horror and amaze. It
-was a man who had come in&mdash;a man with a beard which covered half his
-face, yet showed a curious kind of smile coming out of the midst of it,
-though the eyes were full of an almost tragic seriousness. Fred had
-fallen back against the wall as this new-comer appeared. The room swam
-round and round in his eyes, a darkness came over him, he saw nothing
-for a moment: then slowly came to himself, and saw<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_296" id="page_296"></a>{296}</span> again, within reach
-of him, so near that he could have touched him, this man&mdash;whom he had
-never seen before. Oh, could he but have been sure that he had never
-seen him before! His heart stopped beating&mdash;and then with a flutter and
-a spring went on again, as if it would have leaped out of his breast.
-The shock of the supernatural, the horror of an awful discovery, came
-into the young man’s brain and almost paralysed it as they clashed
-together. Ah, had it been but the supernatural! But as that face emerged
-out of the mist, Fred saw that it was that of a living man&mdash;and that he
-heard it talking&mdash;<i>it</i>&mdash;as living men do.</p>
-
-<p>“You have told him, Janet?”</p>
-
-<p>“No a moment too soon&mdash;just as you were coming. Let the laddie be, let
-him come to himself. And what was it you were doing? Did she&mdash;or
-you&mdash;&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>“I have given her a fright that will put a stop to that,” he said, with
-a strange laugh, hard and harsh: and then he flung himself into a chair,
-throwing off a dark cloak in which he had been wrapped from head to
-foot. He added after a moment with a groan, “The way of transgressors is
-hard!” and hid his face in his hands.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_297" id="page_297"></a>{297}</span></p>
-
-<p>Fred had not moved nor said a word, neither had this strange intruder,
-save for one glance, taken any notice of him. The young man stood up
-against the wall, supporting himself by it in a sort of conscious swoon
-and suspense of being. A moment is like an hour in such a horror of
-discovery; the idea that was too dreadful to entertain becomes possible,
-certain, familiar, before you have had time to draw a second breath. His
-father not dead&mdash;not a shameful suicide to cheat the insurance companies
-as his son had once feared&mdash;but a still more shameful survivor, having
-cheated them, having saved his family and cleared his name by the most
-dreadful, the most false of frauds, the most tremendous of lies. Fred’s
-whole being surged up like a stormy sea in fierce and violent reaction
-as soon as he got command again of his stunned faculties&mdash;he who had
-suffered so much misery from the thought that his father had taken his
-own life in his despair, but who had of late become so tender of his
-memory, so indignant with those who forgot or were faithless to him! And
-lo, all his pangs were unnecessary, all his love deceived, and here was
-the man, living!&mdash;a swindler, and a cheat, worse than a bankrupt&mdash;having
-saved his reputation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_298" id="page_298"></a>{298}</span> and the comfort of his family by a cheat, the
-worst of frauds, the most disgraceful. Fred had been ready to defy the
-world for his father when he came upstairs that evening. He turned now
-with loathing from the name. Father! What did the word mean?&mdash;a cheat, a
-swindler, the most prodigious and incredible of liars. The youth was
-hard, as youth is, stern and inexorable. He took nothing into account,
-neither the motive nor the tremendous sacrifice involved, nor least of
-all the thought that he himself had profited by this dreadful act.
-Profited?&mdash;he?&mdash;Fred? His first act must be to denounce the fraud, to
-offer restitution. The man should escape first&mdash;that he would allow, but
-no more.</p>
-
-<p>Old Janet came up to him and laid her hand upon his shoulder. “Oh, Mr.
-Fred, are you not going to say a word to him?&mdash;not a word of kindness?
-Oh, Mr. Fred, your father! that has sacrificed just everything in the
-world.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have no father,” said Fred hoarsely. “My father is dead.”</p>
-
-<p>The unfortunate man raised his head from his hands, and the familiar
-eyes, the eyes that had smiled upon the boy’s childhood, but which
-smiled<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_299" id="page_299"></a>{299}</span> no more, tragic in the misery of a renunciation which was more
-bitter&mdash;but, alas! not honourable like death&mdash;turned towards the stern
-and angry boy with a strange look, not of appeal, but of surprise. The
-offender knew very well all that was involved to himself in what he had
-done. He knew that it cut him off as a living man from all knowledge of
-his family, from all possibility of reunion&mdash;that he was dead and worse,
-so far as old surroundings were concerned; but he was not prepared for
-his son’s stern condemnation. He had anticipated wonder,
-consternation&mdash;but, oh, surely some touch of pleasure in seeing him
-restored from the dead, some burst of welcome from Fred! He uncovered
-his face and looked with a ghastly astonishment at the son who thus cast
-him off without a word.</p>
-
-<p>“Maister Freddie, for God’s sake! think what you are saying. Speak a
-word to him!”</p>
-
-<p>“I have nothing to say,” said Fred. “I will make the truth known in a
-week from this time&mdash;if it is the truth. I will be no party to a fraud.
-I loved my father that died, and his memory, but I can be no party to a
-fraud. In a week’s time&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>The stranger never said a word; he sat gazing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_300" id="page_300"></a>{300}</span> with things unutterable
-in his eyes, wonder above all. His boy! it was cruel, barbarous,
-inhuman; but&mdash;this strange visitor did not condemn the youth. He looked
-at him with an inconceivable surprise&mdash;his boy&mdash;Fred! He did not make
-any protest, but sat up, strangely awakened&mdash;wondering: even the object
-of his visit fading in comparison with this shock for which he was not
-prepared.</p>
-
-<p>All this time there had been sounds of rushing footsteps and ringing of
-bells through the house, the commotion of some sudden event breaking
-into the quiet of the night. And then came a distant sound of Susie’s
-voice, calling: “Fred! Fred!” The young man’s heart was rent with
-passionate emotion, such as he had never known in his life before.</p>
-
-<p>“Nobody must come in here,” he said, “to find a stranger in the house.
-If my mother has been frightened, I will tell her. But not if I can help
-it. Now, the only thing remaining for me is to make the truth
-known&mdash;when&mdash;&mdash;” He paused. He could not address that dreadful spectre
-directly; his heart was bitter within him at the man who had thus killed
-for ever his father’s memory, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_301" id="page_301"></a>{301}</span> ideal which he had cherished in his
-father’s name. “When&mdash;&mdash;he has decided what to do.”</p>
-
-<p>There was a dreadful pause in Janet’s room when the young man went away.
-Then the stranger said in a musing tone: “So that’s what Fred has come
-to in a couple of years. You see, Janet, you have not been so successful
-as you thought.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my man, oh, my bonnie man! the callant is just distracted with
-wonder and fear.”</p>
-
-<p>“There’s more in it than that&mdash;and he’s right, Janet. We were wrong, you
-and I. And I must just abide the consequences. I’ll lie down on your bed
-for an hour or two, if you’re sure it’s safe. And then I’ll take the
-gate. It will be for ever this time, you can tell that boy. I’ll neither
-make nor meddle more; and if he’s wise he’ll let sleeping dogs lie.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_302" id="page_302"></a>{302}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_VIII-b" id="CHAPTER_VIII-b"></a>CHAPTER VIII.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Robert Dalyell</span> stole forth from the house which was his own, yet could
-never more be his, in what would have been the dead of night had it been
-any other season but June and any place but a northern country. It was
-already daylight, with a pearl-like radiance as of spiritual day, and
-something more mystic and almost awful in the silence of night, combined
-with this diffusion of lovely light, than any darkness could have been.
-He seemed to see the great spreading landscape like a picture, with his
-own single and solitary figure in it, with a momentary terror of himself
-alone in that great surrounding silence. He was not afraid of being
-seen, as he was when he had stolen under cover of the brief darkness
-into the house; but it occurred to him that anybody who should look out
-of a curtained window or from the crevice of a closed shutter, and see
-him walking along at an hour when nobody was abroad, would be afraid of
-him as an unnatural wanderer in the wide brightness<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_303" id="page_303"></a>{303}</span> which was night. He
-was in point of fact a ghost, as he had been believed to be&mdash;a man with
-no place or meaning in the world, with his name upon a funeral tablet,
-and his place knowing him no more; and like a ghost he passed through
-the pale diffused light which cast no shadow. Never man was in a
-position more strange and cruel. He had made the sacrifice of his life,
-not as his son and his friend had feared, by suicide, but in a more
-dreadful way. He had put himself to death, and yet he lived. The man had
-been in this living death for nearly two years. He had lost
-everything&mdash;himself, his name, and his personal identity, as well as
-wife and children, and home and living. And yet he had never fully
-realised what it was till now. Something of the Bohemian, something of
-the adventurer in the man, which had been hidden under the most decorous
-exterior for nearly fifty years, had made that curious new start in
-existence almost amusing to him in its absolute novelty and relief from
-the long monotony of usual life.</p>
-
-<p>Even his sudden going home, with the object of frightening his wife out
-of a marriage which would have been no marriage, had something of the
-character of a jest in it. But there was no longer<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_304" id="page_304"></a>{304}</span> any jest in the
-matter. He had seen his wife, he had seen his son, and he was at last
-aware of what it was he had done&mdash;the darker aspect of it&mdash;the dishonour
-to others, the deadly extinction of himself, the end of everything which
-he had accomplished, almost with a light heart. A ghost indeed,
-offending the eyes and chilling the very soul of those who were most
-near and dear to him. “A swindler,” the boy had said. Was he a swindler?
-To be sure the insurance offices would never have paid that money had
-they known; but surely he had paid the price for it. He had died to all
-intents and purposes. He had given himself for his children&mdash;a living
-sacrifice&mdash;not less, but more than if he had really died and been thrown
-up by the sea, as everybody believed, on Portobello sands. It is hard to
-see guilt in a transaction, not for your own advantage, for which you
-have given your life. Robert Dalyell did not blame his son; he could
-perceive that there was much in what Fred said, though his heart swelled
-in his breast against that injustice. He was not angry with Fred, but
-much impressed, and moved (strangely enough) to something like
-satisfaction by his son’s demeanour. The boy was a good boy, wounded in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_305" id="page_305"></a>{305}</span>
-his honour, and therefore inexorable, but only as a good man would wish
-his boy to be. He was glad Fred was an honourable fellow, feeling it
-like that. Poor Dalyell himself had all the instincts and habits of mind
-of an honourable man; he had not seen the dishonour in it; he had
-thought that, giving his life for it as he had done, there was nothing
-morally wrong in his act. Surely he had bought the money dear: it was
-not for him; it was for them, and for their good. There they were, all
-of them&mdash;the wife who was about to give him a successor within two
-years, and the boy who was himself his successor&mdash;safe in Yalton,
-honoured, respected, enjoying the position to which they were born:
-while he was an outcast, without anything but what he made for himself,
-and the boy called him a swindler! He was an honest boy for all that,
-and Dalyell’s mind had a certain forlorn satisfaction in it: though a
-more forlorn being than he, walking, walking like a ghost through that
-morning light which began in its pearly paleness to warm to the rising
-of the sun, could not be. It was wonderful at what leisure he was, in
-the utter forlornness of his being, to think of them all. He was not
-sorry that he had given himself to save<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_306" id="page_306"></a>{306}</span> them. The only thing he was
-sorry for was that, being dead, he had interfered at all. He ought to
-have gone upon his own way&mdash;married, too, as he might have done, and got
-himself new ties in his new life. He believed now that there would have
-been no harm in that. There would be no harm in it. He would get away as
-quickly as it was practicable, and get back to his new world, and this
-time he would feel himself really emancipated. He would think no more of
-the bonds of the past. She should be free to marry if she liked, and so
-would he. This old world and he had nothing to do with each other any
-more.</p>
-
-<p>The foolish thing was that he had come at all on this fool’s errand. It
-was all the old woman’s fault. It had been weak of him to let her into
-his secret, to keep himself up with news of home, to be moved by her
-horror at this marriage. Why should not she marry if she wished to do
-so? She had been a good wife to him, and he had made her a widow. He had
-known that she was not a woman who could act for herself, that she was
-one who must have a caretaker, a manager of external matters? Why should
-he interfere with her? It was all that confounded old woman’s scruples.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_307" id="page_307"></a>{307}</span>
-But Dalyell decided that he would interfere no more, that he would go
-back whence he came and marry too, and thus justify his wife. The man’s
-heart was very heavy in his breast when he made this resolution; but yet
-he had a great courage, and was determined to stand up against fate and
-get a new life for himself, being thus horribly, hopelessly cut off from
-the old. The boy would not carry out his threat if he disappeared thus,
-and was heard of no more. And all would be well with them, all would go
-right, as he had meant it should when he gave up his life.</p>
-
-<p>By this time the sun had risen, the birds had begun to twitter and hold
-their morning conversations about all the business of life before it was
-time to tune up for the concert of the day. Where was he going? He had
-left such things as he had brought with him at a little lonely wayside
-public-house near the sea before he went to Yalton, but it was still too
-early to get admittance there. He found himself on the shore before he
-knew. Yalton was not above a few miles from the sea, or rather from the
-Firth in its upper part, not far from the spot where that monstrous
-prodigy of science, about which so many trumpets have been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_308" id="page_308"></a>{308}</span> blown, the
-Forth Bridge, now strides hideous across the lovely inlet&mdash;those golden
-gates through which the westering sun was wont to stream unbroken from
-the upper reaches of the great estuary upon the stronger tides below.
-Dalyell came out upon it suddenly, forgetting in the intense
-preoccupation of his thoughts where he was. The sun had risen beyond the
-distant Grampians, touching the Fife villages all along the coast with
-gold. The air was damp, yet sweet with the saltness of the sea in it,
-and the breath of distance and the sensation of the vast unknown to
-which this great, splendid ocean pathway was one of the ways. When
-Dalyell came out thus upon the shore he was the one speck of animated
-being in the whole still world. He sat down to rest for a little upon a
-rock. At three o’clock in the morning there is nothing stirring, not
-even the cattle, though they were waking and thinking of an early
-breakfast in the fields. He sat there and noted, and thought over it all
-again. He was very forlorn, but not angry with anybody, scarcely vexed
-by the thought that he was so soon forgotten. He even laughed a little
-at the thought of Pat Wedderburn. How had he got himself the length of
-that idea of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_309" id="page_309"></a>{309}</span> marrying? He divined old Pat’s thoughts, a little troubled
-by the necessity, going bravely through it. He had no sense of
-resentment towards any of them. As soon as there was any one stirring
-about the “Dun Cow” he would steal in and get his things and some
-breakfast, and take himself off at once and for ever&mdash;never, whatever
-happened, to interfere again.</p>
-
-<p>But in the meantime there was some time to wait, and the sun was growing
-warmer every moment, and the tide was in, and the little wavelets
-rippling along the shore. Baths were not luxuries known at the “Dun
-Cow,” and here was the bath he liked best, ready before him. It would be
-the last time he would ever bathe in his native waters. He slipped out
-of his clothes, laid them in a little heap, without even thinking how on
-one supreme occasion he had done that before, and plunging from the
-nearest rock launched himself into the sea and sunshine. It would brace
-him up for the journeys and troubles of the day.</p>
-
-<p>Dalyell swam about for some time, and dived and sported in the water
-like a boy, with a curious sudden lightness of heart. He could not make
-up his mind to come out of the water. And the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_310" id="page_310"></a>{310}</span> northern seas are cold at
-three o’clock (getting on for four) in the morning, with the sun not yet
-very strong, and but newly risen. What it was that happened there was no
-one to tell. Perhaps it was the shock of the night’s proceedings, though
-he had reasoned it away, which struck to his heart&mdash;perhaps it was the
-cold of the water&mdash;it might be a cramp, which, had there been any one
-near to help, would have been of little consequence. None of these
-things would any one ever know. It was said afterwards that a cry was
-heard, piercing the sober stillness of the morning, so that somebody
-woke and got up at the “Dun Cow,” but finding no sign of harm, went to
-bed again for another hour. And it is certainly true that the minister
-woke in his manse, which is near the shore, and got up and opened his
-window, and remarked upon the beauty of the morning, and the wonderful
-delightful calm and brightness of the Firth. He thought after that it
-must have been the drowning man’s cry that woke him, though he was not
-conscious of the sound itself.</p>
-
-<p>Thus, with the strangest repetition, all the incidents of Dalyell’s
-fictitious drowning were reproduced; and it did not fail to be remarked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_311" id="page_311"></a>{311}</span>
-in the papers that the accident up the Firth was singularly like the
-accident that had happened nearly two years before to Mr. Dalyell, of
-Yalton, on Portobello sands. It was a remarkable coincidence: but the
-sufferer in this case, it was added, was a stranger, who had arrived at
-the “Dun Cow” the night before, and was supposed to be a foreigner. The
-body was found among the rocks, as if he had made a despairing grip upon
-the seaweeds that covered them to save himself, from which it was judged
-that the misadventure was wholly accidental; but, naturally, all was
-conjecture, and this was a thing that never could be known.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_312" id="page_312"></a>{312}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_IX-b" id="CHAPTER_IX-b"></a>CHAPTER IX.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">Fred</span> went to his mother’s room, about which an agitated crowd had
-already gathered, the two girls and their maid, and an anxious domestic
-or two from downstairs, besides Mrs. Dalyell’s own maid, who was with
-her mistress. Foggo stood outside on the staircase, anxious to know if
-he should go for the doctor, and still more anxious to know what had
-happened, for there was already a conviction in the house that it was
-not mere illness which had produced that shriek which startled
-everybody. Mrs. Dalyell was not the kind of woman to shriek from
-physical pain, and there had been a whisper in the house that the
-horseman had been heard in the avenue, which, naturally, was a
-preparation for trouble. Fred, however, was not admitted till some time
-later, of which the poor young fellow was glad: for he was in no
-condition to meet his mother in the nervous and excited state in which
-she must be, while he himself was so shaken and miserable from the same
-cause. He went to his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_313" id="page_313"></a>{313}</span> own room and endeavoured there to calm himself,
-and thrust away the appalling question that was now before him. How
-lately he had said to himself that his father’s previsions had all been
-mistaken, and instead of having to take upon himself the anxieties and
-cares of the head of the house, to break off his studies and turn his
-thoughts to the grave side of life, he had only been more free, more
-independent, than before, since he had succeeded his father as Dalyell
-of Yalton. Ah! but who could have thought of this, this further chapter
-of disaster, unimaginable, incurable, which would involve the name of
-Dalyell of Yalton in dishonour and shame&mdash;the name his ancestors had
-borne in credit and pride, the name that poverty and ruin could not have
-stained, but which must now perish amid records of deceit and fraud.
-Fred’s very heart seemed to shrink and wither up within him when he
-thought of what he had now to do. It would be his to put the stamp of
-shame upon that name&mdash;to expose the whole disgraceful story, the
-dishonest means by which downfall had been staved off, only to fall more
-dreadfully upon the unhappy and innocent now. No, he must not palter
-with right and wrong, he must<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_314" id="page_314"></a>{314}</span> not allow any sentiment of pity either
-for the criminal or for himself to steal in. The criminal! Now that Fred
-had time to think, that criminal&mdash;whose very name he could not endure to
-think of&mdash;whom he had denounced and disowned with such force and almost
-hatred&mdash;had looked at him, oh, with such fatherly eyes! He had scarcely
-said anything, not a word in his own defence. Fred felt that if he had
-stayed another minute his courage would have failed him, and the old
-dear familiar image would have regained its power. The criminal!&mdash;worse
-than a fraudulent bankrupt, almost worse than a suicide, and yet so
-like&mdash;oh, so like&mdash;&mdash;! Oh, he must not think, he must not allow himself
-to fail in his duty. In a week’s time&mdash;that was what he had said&mdash;to
-give full time for that fugitive to escape, that he might not be taken
-or injured, or brought to justice. In a week’s time! There must be no
-paltering with duty. It was clear before him what he had to do.</p>
-
-<p>And then there began to pluck as it were at the skirts of Fred’s mind
-thoughts of what this thing was, of what it must have cost. Had not the
-man died, had he not more than died? It was not suicide, but it was
-worse. He had given his life<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_315" id="page_315"></a>{315}</span> while still a living man. Strange words
-crept into Fred’s mind, which did not come there of themselves, as if
-some one had thrown them into the surging sea of passion and pain which
-was within him. Greater love hath no man than this. Oh, silence,
-silence! these words were said of another, a greater&mdash;one Divine.
-Greater love hath no man than this: they came back and back: as if they
-could be applied to a man who was a sinner, who had committed a fraud,
-and deceived his fellow men! Had he deceived them? Had he not died? Died
-more terribly, more completely than the man in the family grave in
-Yalton churchyard, who was not Robert Dalyell. Which would one choose if
-one had to choose? Surely the home in the churchyard, the tablet on the
-wall&mdash;and not the life of an outcast, the death in life of a man who had
-no identity, who had neither name nor fame. Fred’s young soul was rent
-asunder by these thoughts. There had been no relenting in him, no pity.
-But now outraged nature avenged herself. Oh, how cruel he had been, how
-harsh!&mdash;not a word of kindness in him, not a softening touch. And he
-ought not to think of nature now, he ought not to be moved by kindness.
-He ought to subdue all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_316" id="page_316"></a>{316}</span> relenting. In a week’s time! He must set his
-face like brass. He must think of nothing that could make him fail.</p>
-
-<p>It was late when Fred was called to his mother, and he went down as
-timid as a child called to an interview of which it knows nothing, but
-that it must involve terrific consequences. He had looked at himself
-anxiously in the glass before he obeyed the summons, wishing that he
-knew some way of making himself look less pale, his eyes less excited.
-The girls knew ways of doing this, Fred believed, but he did not know.
-He plunged his head into cold water to relieve the heaviness and heat he
-felt, as of something bursting from his forehead; and then he went
-downstairs, slowly labouring to collect his thoughts to think what he
-should say. Mrs. Dalyell was in bed, her head with the background of the
-red curtains looking at the first glance almost ghastly, her face very
-pale, her eyes excited like his own. She grasped him by both hands and
-made him sit down by her. The candles were still burning, but a faint
-glimmer of blue showed between the curtains. She kept holding his hand,
-but it was a minute or two before she spoke.</p>
-
-<p>“Fred, do you know if I said anything? What<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_317" id="page_317"></a>{317}</span> did I say? What did they
-tell you? Did they say that I&mdash;&mdash;?” She gasped for breath, and could not
-finish the sentence, but did so with her eyes and with the pressure of
-her hand.</p>
-
-<p>“I heard nothing, mother, but that you fainted.”</p>
-
-<p>She pressed his hand tightly again and said, “I didn’t faint. I let them
-think so&mdash;to conceal&mdash;Though I was scarcely conscious of what I was
-doing, I felt it gleam through me that to let them think I was
-unconscious was best. But I never was unconscious for a moment,
-Fred&mdash;you understand what I am saying?&mdash;nor was I asleep, nor could I
-have been dreaming. You hear what I am saying, Fred?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, mother: but don’t, for heaven’s sake, excite yourself; it may make
-you ill again.”</p>
-
-<p>“What will make me ill? I want you to understand. I’ve not been ill,
-only&mdash;that they might have no suspicion. Fred, above all things I want
-you to understand that I am in my full senses, meaning every word I
-say.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, mother,” he said, pressing her hand.</p>
-
-<p>She renewed her grip upon it, as if she were holding fast to something
-lest she should be carried away. “Well!” she said, with a long-drawn<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_318" id="page_318"></a>{318}</span>
-breath. Then looking him fall in the eyes as if to defy
-misunderstanding: “Fred,” she said, “I have seen your father!”</p>
-
-<p>“Mother!” he cried.</p>
-
-<p>“Hush&mdash;this was what I was afraid of&mdash;that you would think me out of my
-senses. Look at me. I am not calm, perhaps, but I am as steady as you
-are.” (That was not saying much; but absorbed in her own extraordinary
-sensations, Mrs. Dalyell fortunately did not notice Fred.) “I was not
-thinking of him, nor even questioning as I sometimes do. I was more
-quiet than usual: when, just there, where the curtain is, I saw your
-father!”</p>
-
-<p>“You must have been over-excited, mother, though you did not know it. My
-coming home and the girls’ talk&mdash;and all of us making ourselves
-disagreeable&mdash;without knowing it your mind must have&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My mind was quite calm. I made allowance for you children. I could have
-sympathised with you. But don’t go away with any such idea. I saw your
-father&mdash;as plain as I ever saw him in my life.”</p>
-
-<p>What could Fred say? He patted her hand to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_319" id="page_319"></a>{319}</span> soothe her, and shook his
-head gently; he could not trust himself to speak.</p>
-
-<p>“It all passed in a moment,” she went on. “He said something. I feel
-sure he used the word marriage, but I was too much startled to make out,
-and I was so foolish as to give that cry. I can’t tell you what a
-dreadful feeling came upon me. I am not a woman to scream, but I could
-not help it. And he disappeared, and they all came rushing in.”</p>
-
-<p>“It must have been an optical illusion, mother&mdash;that’s what they call
-those sort of things. You were disturbed by all of us, and your
-imagination got excited.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t speak such nonsense to me. I saw your father as I see you. Fred,
-that’s not half I’ve got to tell you.” She closed her fingers more and
-more closely upon his hand, and drew him close to her. “He was changed,”
-she said almost in a whisper. “He was not as he used to be.” She put her
-face nearer to her son’s. “An apparition would have been nothing in
-comparison. It would have been not wonderful, considering everything.
-But this: Fred”&mdash;she drew him quite close and her fingers were upon his
-hand like iron&mdash;“Fred, your father had grown a beard!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_320" id="page_320"></a>{320}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Mother!” he cried again.</p>
-
-<p>“You think I’m mad, and I don’t wonder: but there’s more in what I say
-than you think, Fred: a man who was dead could not do that. Fred, find
-me words. I don’t know what to say. There is more in this than we know.”</p>
-
-<p>They looked at each other, the eyes of the one shooting light and
-meaning into those of the other. How could the boy stand the keen
-scrutiny of his mother’s eyes? He faltered before her and tried to avert
-them, but failed. At last he faltered, “Mother! I think your guess is
-right!”</p>
-
-<p>She seized him by the shoulder with her other hand and shook him in the
-vehemence of her passion. “Have you known this all along? Have you known
-and never said a word?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” he said; “how could you think it? Could I have been a party to a
-fraud? But I saw him too&mdash;to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Dalyell’s hands relaxed; she fell back upon her pillow, and,
-covering her face with her hands, began to cry and moan. “Oh, how shall
-I ever look him in the face! How shall I ever look him in the face!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_321" id="page_321"></a>{321}</span></p>
-
-<p>Fred was prepared for many things on his mother’s part. He was prepared
-to see her burst into indignation like his own; he could have understood
-her stern and angry, or he could have understood her grieved and
-miserable. He could even have understood it&mdash;had she been unreasonably
-and foolishly glad. But ashamed, asking how she could look him in the
-face!&mdash;this was beyond the knowledge of her son. After a little she
-calmed down and said with the echo of a sob, “We will have something to
-forgive each other&mdash;on both sides.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mother,” cried Fred, “do you realise all the difference it will make?”</p>
-
-<p>She was silent for a moment, with a flush upon her face. “Oh, my dear,”
-she cried, with a look of awe, “how can we ever be sufficiently thankful
-that we knew in time!”</p>
-
-<p>This was all she could think of, it seemed; and poor young Fred had to
-return to his own troubled thoughts by himself without help from his
-mother. She entertained, it would seem, no doubt as to her duty towards
-her husband. The fraud did not weigh on her mind. He had come back&mdash;that
-was all.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_322" id="page_322"></a>{322}</span></p>
-
-<h3><a name="CHAPTER_X-b" id="CHAPTER_X-b"></a>CHAPTER X.</h3>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="smcap">In</span> the afternoon of the miserable day which had begun in this wise, Fred
-was sitting alone, trying to come to some conclusion in the crowd of his
-unhappy thoughts. His mother had been able to rest after her agitation,
-and sleep, but had sent for him again early to ask for his father&mdash;where
-he was in the meantime, and when he was coming home? It had better, she
-thought, be got over as quietly as possible, and all the friends
-informed. Mr. Wedderburn was always fond of Robert: he would take it
-very quietly; he would see that the less said the better for all
-parties. Her mind was full of these thoughts. She had arranged
-everything in her mind. There would be much to forgive&mdash;on both
-sides&mdash;which perhaps on the whole was better than had it been entirely
-on one. As for business matters, Mrs. Dalyell was aware there must be
-troubles; but fortunately this was not her share of the business. Robert
-and Mr. Wedderburn would settle these things. It all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_323" id="page_323"></a>{323}</span> seemed so simple
-as she put it, that Fred withdrew again with a sort of artificial calm
-in his spirit, but had no sooner been alone for ten minutes than the
-hurlyburly began over again. What was he to do? Inform the insurance
-companies? But what could be done to raise the necessary money? Throw
-Yalton into the market&mdash;or what? Anyhow, it must be ruin, whether the
-father came home or disappeared again; anyhow, his own happy career was
-over, and nothing but trouble was to come.</p>
-
-<p>In the meantime he did not know where his father was, or what had become
-of him, and he had not yet the courage to question Janet, who no doubt
-knew. Janet was at the bottom of it all. For all he could tell, it might
-be she who had first suggested that dreadful expedient out of which all
-this misery came. Oh! had the family been but ruined honestly,
-naturally, two years ago! Fred felt, like a child, that it must be that
-wretched old woman’s fault all through, and he could not subdue his mind
-to the extent of asking her for information. It would come, he felt
-sure, in good time.</p>
-
-<p>And so it did: that afternoon Foggo entered the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_324" id="page_324"></a>{324}</span> library where his young
-master was sitting, with a very mysterious air, and informed him that
-there was “one” who desired to speak with him. Fred’s heart leapt to his
-mouth, for his thoughts were bent solely on his father, and it seemed
-certain that it could be no other than he.</p>
-
-<p>“A gentleman,” he added faintly, “with a beard?” It was the only
-description he could venture upon.</p>
-
-<p>“No, Mr. Fred, not a gentleman at all&mdash;John Saunderson from the ‘Dun
-Cow.’<span class="lftspc">”</span></p>
-
-<p>“John Saunderson from the ‘Dun Cow’?”</p>
-
-<p>“It was to speak about something that had happened. He said that if the
-young laird would have the kindness to step out at the gate&mdash;he’s no
-just in trim for a grand house, and he would like to speak to yourself
-in a private way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bring him here, then, Foggo.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, Mr. Fred: he would take it far kinder if you would just step out to
-the gate.”</p>
-
-<p>And this was what Fred finally did. He found the landlord of the “Dun
-Cow” exceedingly embarrassed, not knowing how to begin his story. He
-took off his blue bonnet at the sight of Fred, and began to twirl it
-round and round in his hands.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_325" id="page_325"></a>{325}</span></p>
-
-<p>“It’s about an accident that’s happened,” said John.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you want me to do anything? I’m very much occupied; if it’s anything
-Foggo could do&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Na, it’s not Foggo I want” (he said Foggy, after the fashion of his
-locality), “it’s just yoursel’. There was a gentleman came to lodge in
-my house last night. We whiles get a stranger&mdash;that’s not very
-particular.”</p>
-
-<p>“A gentleman?”</p>
-
-<p>“A gentleman with a beard.” The man eyed Fred very closely, who did not
-know what to reply.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” he said, with a little catch of his breath, “and what then?”</p>
-
-<p>“The gentleman must have gone down, so far as we can see, very early to
-take a bath in the sea. Nobody heard him go out. My own idea is he never
-was in after he got his supper. He first went to the door for a smoke,
-and my impression is&mdash;&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What happened?” said Fred. His mouth was so dry he could scarcely
-speak.</p>
-
-<p>“He must have gone into the sea to take a bath awfu’ early in the
-morning, before we were up.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_326" id="page_326"></a>{326}</span> The wife she thought she heard a cry about
-four o’clock, and I got up, for she gave me no peace, and looked about
-and saw nothing. But later there was one came running and said a man’s
-clo’es were on the sands, close by some rocks&mdash;just for all the world as
-they were that time, ye mind, Mr. D’yell, when your father was lost. I
-just took to my heels and ran all the way to the sands. And there was
-his clo’es, sure enough.”</p>
-
-<p>“The man?” Fred gasped again.</p>
-
-<p>“They got him after a bittie, with his hands clasped full of the
-seaweed, and his knee raised up upon a rock. He must have made a fight,
-poor gentleman, for his life. Na, I see what you are thinking: it was
-nae suicide. He had got up his knee upon a bit of rock, and his hands
-were full of the weeds&mdash;nasty slimy unprofitable things.” There was a
-pause, and the man lowered his voice a little significantly before he
-said, “I would like much, Mr. Frederick, if you would come down and see
-him.”</p>
-
-<p>Fred was not able to speak. He shrank more than he could say from this
-dreadful sight. He shook his head in the impulse of his panic and
-horror.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_327" id="page_327"></a>{327}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Sir,” said the man, “I’ve known your father, Mr. Robert D’yell, Yalton,
-man and boy, for more than forty year. If I didna know he had been
-drowned two years ago I would say yon was him.”</p>
-
-<p>It was with difficulty Fred found his voice: “I think that I know who it
-was. It was a&mdash;near relation.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, I can well believe that,” said John Saunderson. He was something of
-a genealogist himself, as so many people of his class are in country
-life, and he threw a hasty backward glance over the scions of the house
-of Yalton, which he had known all his life, and settled within himself
-that there was no such near relation, no cousin that ever he had heard
-of. He did not say this, nor his own profound conviction as to the
-drowned man.</p>
-
-<p>“A man,” said Fred, “that we had thought to be dead&mdash;for years. He
-frightened my mother with the likeness you speak of, and I am afraid he
-did not get a good reception. Oh, Saunderson, you are sure it was not a
-suicide?”</p>
-
-<p>“So far as I could judge&mdash;no. I am not surprised,” said Saunderson,
-“that the mistress was terrified. It gave me a kind of a shock.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_328" id="page_328"></a>{328}</span> ‘Lord
-bless me,’ I said, and then I just held my peace, for I would not be one
-to raise a scandal on the house of Yalton. But my ostler, confound him,
-has a long tongue.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’m much obliged to you,” said Fred. “I’ll come down.”</p>
-
-<p>And there he saw, on the poor bed in the “Dun Cow,” surrounded by the
-few rustic houses about, all excited and discussing the tragedy, his
-father, at last hushed and safe, seized by the death which he had
-cheated once, but could not cheat a second time. The dreadful drowning
-look had departed from his face; he lay tranquil and calm, like a man
-who had died in his bed, who had never wronged either man or woman. Whom
-had he wronged? Perhaps the insurance companies&mdash;no one else. And Fred
-at length came to the conclusion that there was now no occasion to
-disturb the insurance companies. It had come to pass at last&mdash;the event
-which had been supposed to be accomplished long ago. There was no reason
-now for the confession he had intended, no need to expose his father’s
-deception, to betray the secret of the house. Fred could scarcely
-reconcile himself to the fact that this was so. It cost him a great deal
-of trouble to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_329" id="page_329"></a>{329}</span> make up his mind that his business now&mdash;now that all was
-over, and his father gone for ever&mdash;was to be silent for ever. Mr.
-Wedderburn had been summoned, and this was his advice, as well as the
-almost imperious command of Fred’s mother. To throw a stain upon her
-husband’s name was intolerable to Mrs. Dalyell&mdash;to attract attention to
-the house and explain its secret history. She said, with tears, yet with
-indignation, that it should not, it must not be. And old Pat Wedderburn,
-who was strangely moved by the story, and who said not a word in blame
-of his friend, supported her strongly. “They would have had to give the
-money now, if not then,” he said, “and it’s not your part to open the
-question. Let it alone. Let him rest in his grave at last&mdash;poor Bob! And
-I hope in my presence no one will ever say an ill word of Bob D’yell.”</p>
-
-<p>There was a tear in the old lawyer’s eye. Perhaps he understood it best
-of the three, though the other two were wife and son. Fred’s statement
-that the drowned man was a relation made it possible to lay him in the
-Yalton vault after all&mdash;his last and rightful home. Who the other was,
-who had received that sad hospitality in the name<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_330" id="page_330"></a>{330}</span> of Robert Dalyell of
-Yalton, they never knew, nor was it necessary to inquire.</p>
-
-<p>Somehow, however, there was no more question of Mrs. Dalyell’s marriage.
-Neither bride or bridegroom ever spoke of it again. And Mr. Wedderburn
-resumed something of the old easy relations after a while, and presided
-at Susie’s marriage, and was the best friend of the house, as he had
-always been. It was a conclusion which on the whole they all felt to be
-the best.</p>
-
-<p class="c">THE END.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_331" id="page_331"></a>{331}</span></p>
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