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-A Tale.
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-_IN THREE VOLUMES._
-
-VOL. III.
-
-LONDON:
-THOMAS CAUTLEY NEWBY, PUBLISHER,
-30, WELBECK STREET, CAVENDISH SQUARE.
-1854.
-
-
-
-
-KATE VERNON.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-NEW SCENES.
-
-
-Kate stood a moment transfixed, as nurse's awful words met her ear, her
-eyes riveted on her grandfather, but the repose of his face, almost
-reassured her, and, stepping back from Mrs. O'Toole's encircling arms,
-she exclaimed, hurriedly, angrily, but in carefully subdued tones--
-
-"Be silent, nurse! do not terrify me with such strange words--see, he
-is asleep!"
-
-Nurse's only reply was a burst of tears, as she laid her hand upon that
-of the Colonel, the fingers of which gently grasped the arm of the
-chair. Kate now bent down to kiss his cheek--but shrunk back from the
-icy touch.
-
-"He has fainted," she exclaimed, looking wildly round at nurse. "Bring
-water, and wine--send for Doctor S----."
-
-"I will, I will, my own child, only don't look at me that away."
-
-Mrs. O'Toole's violent ringing, soon brought Mrs. Crooks, and the
-servant.
-
-"Go," said Miss Vernon, who, though pale as death, was calm and stern,
-"send for Doctor S----, instantly, Colonel Vernon is taken very ill,
-he has fainted! see! Nurse thought he was dead, but I forbid any one
-uttering that word--until--until--go," she exclaimed, again with the
-same suppressed vehemence, with which she had before spoken, "Why do
-you stand gazing at me? life or death depends on your speed."
-
-Both the frightened landlady and servant rushed from the room; and Kate
-never stirred from her rigid position beside her grandfather's chair,
-never moved a muscle of her face, until the Doctor, who was fortunately
-at home, entered, and found them apparently fixed in their several
-positions.
-
-A hasty glance, showed the experienced physician, that it was indeed
-but the lifeless clay, round which poor Kate strove to preserve the
-quiet, prescribed for a suffering spirit, and turning to Mrs. O'Toole,
-he whispered--
-
-"Try and get Miss Vernon out of the room."
-
-Her quick ear caught his words.
-
-"Why should I go? I can assist you to revive him."
-
-"But--but--" stammered the doctor, fairly terror struck, at the thought
-of all the wild grief implied by her incredulity, "If I do not succeed?"
-
-"Oh! hush, hush, it is not two hours since he blessed me, and said
-he was happy! Grandpapa, do not you hear? it is I--your own Kate! Why
-do you make no effort to recover him?" she exclaimed, turning almost
-fiercely to the doctor--"Where is your skill? Where is your science?"
-
-"If you will leave the room," he returned, recovering himself. "I will
-do my best, but the consciousness that you, in your extreme anxiety,
-are watching me, will paralyse my best efforts."
-
-"I will go then, and return in a few minutes," said Kate, retiring.
-
-But these few minutes were employed in stretching the lifeless form on
-its bed; and then nurse met her child, in an agony of tears, that told
-her better than words could, that she was alone in the world!
-
-Then, at last she was convinced, she did not faint or weep, but stood
-quite still, regardless of the well meant words of those around her,
-a sudden tremour passing at intervals through her frame; at last,
-turning to those, who pressed near her, she said, in strangely quiet
-tones, almost a whisper, but terribly earnest--
-
-"Leave me, I wish to be alone." Then seeing they hesitated to leave
-her, she repeated with a sudden sharpness of voice and gesture of
-dismissal, which long remained in the memories of those who witnessed
-it, so expressively did it seem to reject all human aid, or sympathy:
-"I wish to be alone!"
-
-They left her; and sinking on her knees, by the bed, on which lay the
-form of him she loved so well, she gave herself up to the first burst
-of real grief, that had ever rent her heart, with its wild energy;
-before, though there was fear, there was hope, though every nerve
-in her delicate frame trembled and shrunk from the expectation of
-trials, the nobler spirit dared to contemplate--there was an object
-for which to bear them all--an end to be attained. Now she was alone!
-with none to live for--none to whom, and for whom she was a world!
-He was gone--the kind, the gentle, loving friend; and there lay the
-lifeless image of him, whom she had lost, the stately prison-house,
-not unworthy its immortal captive, now free, and amid eternal bliss,
-perhaps near her, compassionating the sorrow which his already Heaven
-taught prescience showed was for her good! and should her life be
-henceforth alone? what was to become of her! No longer any reason to
-hush regret, lest it might cloud her brow, to catch gladly at hope, the
-most uncertain, that she might reflect something of its glad beam! "Yet
-I would not recall him, if I could, Oh, God!" was the only ejaculation
-that escaped her lips, as her soul lay prostrate beneath the heavy
-weight thus laid upon it. The past, the present, all mingled in one
-strange chaos, by the pressure of a mighty grief. And the moment that
-her grandfather blessed her (scarce four hours ago) was already fixed
-amid the great events of the heart, ages back; for sometimes, when
-thoroughly roused, and freed an instant from its fetters, the soul
-becomes in capacity a reflex of its great original, and in its sight,
-also, one day is as a thousand years.
-
-But with the exhaustion of spirit natural to excitement so strong, came
-the wish for human sympathy, without which none can exist; and groping
-her way to the door, through the darkness, perceived for the first
-time, she opened it, and was caught in the arms of Mrs. O'Toole, who,
-with a silent, watchful love, equalled only by Cormac's, waited, humbly
-ready, until that love was wanted.
-
-"You are all that is left me," sobbed the poor girl, as nurse held her
-in her arms; and they were the only words that escaped her lips, for
-the long hours through which she wept, in unutterable grief.
-
- * * * * *
-
-She obeyed all nurse's suggestions with the simplicity of a child,
-incapable of thinking for itself; and, at last, that faithful friend
-had the satisfaction of seeing her gradually sink into a sleep, still
-and heavy, but interrupted with deep sighs, which, at intervals,
-unclosed the lovely lips that seemed only formed for joyous smiles.
-
-Then came the terrible awaking, the first unconscious
-exclamation--"Dear nurse, I have had such dreadful dreams!" The sober
-sense of waking grief--the struggle to think calmly and resignedly of
-all--the partial success--the sudden fresh outburst of sorrow.
-
-So the day dragged on; and at the same hour at which Kate had last
-heard that voice, which had ever spoken fondly to her, a heavy
-travelling carriage, drawn by four posters, laden with numerous trunks
-and imperials, dashed in hot haste down the quiet little street. It
-stopped at the house of mourning; and the next moment, a tall lady,
-wrapped in a travelling cloak of velvet and costly furs, throwing back
-her veil, grasped Mrs. O'Toole's hand; and, after a piercing glance at
-the honest, troubled face before her, exclaimed--
-
-"I am too late!"
-
-"Not to comfort mee darlint, glory be to God! Yer come at last, me
-lady! He said you would be here this day."
-
-"Kate, Miss Vernon, where is she?" said Lady Desmond, in clear, firm
-tones, that sounded as if command was natural to them; and passing on
-to the stairs.
-
-"No, no! me sweet child is here."
-
-And Mrs. O'Toole opened the parlour door, Kate, at the moment, entering
-from the inner room. She stopped, for an instant, while Lady Desmond
-advanced rapidly, and clasped her to her heart, straining her closely
-in her arms.
-
-"Oh! Georgy," cried Kate, amid her sobs, "you will never hear his voice
-again--he is gone! gone before a gleam of hope or prosperity brightened
-the sad evening of his life; before I could see him as he was, before
-the bitter dregs of the cup of adversity had lost their bitterness by
-use. And I could do nothing for him, nothing! Oh, when we parted last,
-who, who could have thought, that it would have ended thus?"
-
-And she pointed expressively to the small, mean room, now dimly
-lighted, by the candles, which Mrs. O'Toole scrupulously kept burning
-after evening closed.
-
-Lady Desmond, grasping Kate's hand nervously, walked to the bed-side,
-and holding back the folds of her veil, bent reverently over the dead,
-for a moment, in silence, then drawing back, broke into an agony of
-hysterical tears, that startled Kate, by its vehemence, and brought
-nurse rapidly to her side.
-
-"I feel as if guilty of his death," she repeated. "Why, why, did I
-delay my return?"
-
-"Oh, hush, dearest Georgy, hush," whispered Kate, somewhat calmed, by
-witnessing the remorseful emotion of her cousin. "I was wrong to speak
-as I did; it was the sharpness of sorrow made me utter such words; God
-forgive them, for in my inmost heart I feel that He never punishes,
-He only sends messengers after us to keep us in the right path; the
-poverty was nothing; and even this! we shall yet understand it all!"
-
-They stood there in silence, nurse supporting Lady Desmond, who leant
-against her, her bonnet thrown aside, her luxuriant black hair drawn
-back from her lofty forehead, her large dark eyes dilated, as if her
-soul gazed through them far away. Kate, a smile struggling through
-the tears streaming from hers, and one hand slightly raised towards
-Heaven. The three figures symbolising well, homely humanity, with
-its quiet necessary fortitude. Intellect and refinement, with their
-larger capacity, for joy or for suffering, and faith, so often almost
-extinguished, amid sorrow and doubt, yet still preserving a ray of
-everlasting hope.
-
-But Lady Desmond was overpowered by the fatigue of a rapid and
-frequently obstructed journey, performed in a fever of anxiety; and
-Kate's attention was beneficially attracted from her all engrossing
-subject of thought to her cousin's evident exhaustion. She wished much
-to remove Kate at once from what she considered her wretched lodging,
-to her hotel, but this Kate resolutely refused to comply with.
-
-"It is the last sad duty I can pay him," she said, "not to quit his
-remains until they are carried to their last home!"
-
-Lady Desmond, therefore, determined to stay with her; and Mrs. Crook's
-establishment were put to their wits' end by the mingled excitement of
-a death, and a ladyship in a carriage-and-four.
-
-Recovered from her fatigue, by a night's rest, Lady Desmond devoted
-herself to the care of her young cousin, with all the eagerness of a
-passionate nature, remorseful for the past; but though she hushed
-Kate to sleep each night in her arms, she performed every task that
-could by possibility devolve on Miss Vernon, such as attending to the
-details of the funeral, &c., with a diligence and tact that spared
-Kate many a pang; it was the latter who, amid her own absorbing grief,
-found time and gentle wisdom, wherewith to calm the sudden bursts of
-sorrow which often welled up from the heart of that proud, but generous
-and impulsive woman, who ever rushing into extremes, found food for
-self-reproach in every little incident which either nurse or Kate
-betrayed, of their life, for the last year.
-
-"It was so obstinate, so unkindly obstinate of you not to join me at
-Florence; God only knows how much it might have spared; yet that was
-no excuse for my selfish negligence; though, Kate, I had powerful
-inducements not to return to England, I will--perhaps I may yet tell
-you them, and you will then understand me."
-
-The day after the funeral, that renewal of death and sorrow, Kate
-readily acceded to her cousin's wish to leave the spot, no longer
-sanctified by the inanimate presence of him they had lost. And it was
-with a dull feeling of weariness, as if even the capacity of suffering
-had been worn out, that she threw herself into the carriage that was to
-take her away from the scene of her late bereavement. All was now over,
-nothing more to be done; and all she longed for was silence, solitude,
-and sleep.
-
-"Come to the hotel as soon as you possibly can. Miss Vernon looks
-terribly cut up; she will want you to comfort her," was Lady Desmond's
-last injunction to Mrs. O'Toole, who remained behind to settle all the
-final affairs of packing and payment.
-
-"I will, me lady," returned Mrs. O'Toole, who had found some
-consolation in the handsome appointments of the hearse and mourning
-coaches, which the day before had carried the remains of her beloved
-master to the grave; and re-entering the house, she immediately applied
-herself to her task. "How'll I iver get the dog away?" she asked, when
-about to depart.
-
-"I'm sure I don't know," replied Mrs. Crook; "he's done nothing but
-wander about the house all day, and whine so piteous-like every time he
-went into the poor old gentleman's room!"
-
-"Faith, I thought he'd have ate up the undertaker's min whin they kem
-into the room. Ah, God help us, is it any wondher me sweet young lady's
-heart is broke, whin the dumb baste itself knows what we have lost;
-where is he now?"
-
-"I don't know, I'm sure; I've not seen him these two hours."
-
-Mrs. O'Toole went in search of him to what had been the Colonel's
-bed-room; and there, stretched by the bed he had so long watched, lay
-the old hound, his limbs quivering in the agonies of death.
-
-"Och! Cormac! you're not dyin'?"
-
-The noble dog strove to raise his head in answer to her voice, but it
-fell back, and he was dead.
-
-"Och, Cormac! me poor Cormac!" cried Mrs. O'Toole, her scarce dried
-tears flowing afresh; "but you wur the thrue hearted dog! Sure, there
-was somethin' inside iv ye far betther than many a man's heart. Och,
-how'll I iver tell Miss Kate that ye couldn't stop afther yer ould
-masther was gone?"
-
-But Lady Desmond wisely determined that Kate should not hear of
-Cormac's death until she made enquiries for him; and Kate lay in
-perfect quiet for several days, rarely speaking, and never alluding to
-the sad scenes she had so lately gone through, though often the large
-tears would pour unconsciously down her cheeks, and when, at last,
-the intelligence of poor Cormac's death was communicated to her, she
-received it with a burst of grief, seemingly disproportioned to the
-occasion. All her sorrow was revived by the death of this faithful
-follower, so closely associated in her mind, not only with her lamented
-grandfather, but with her own earliest and happiest days.
-
-One morning, as Lady Desmond and nurse were standing in silent concern,
-by her bed-side, noticing sadly the deep traces of grief on her young
-face, she suddenly roused herself from the species of lethargy into
-which she had fallen, and stretching out her hand to Lady Desmond,
-said--
-
-"Forgive me, Georgina, forgive me, nurse, I am very selfish and wrong
-to lie here so indolently; I will endeavour to do better, to be
-resigned. I will get up and go out in the carriage with you, Georgy, if
-you wish."
-
-From that day, Kate strove diligently to keep her self-imposed promise,
-and gradually time, the healer, accustomed her to think, with calm,
-though unutterably tender sadness, of the dear and venerated relative
-she had lost.
-
-But she almost loathed the state and luxury amid which she now lived,
-remembering the petty privations which had depressed and mortified the
-last weary hours of his life. Often the erring child of earth, groping
-in the dim twilight of imperfect faith, would raise her heart to Heaven
-in silent supplication for forgiveness, at these half involuntary
-murmurs; it is so hard to believe that the sorrows laid upon a beloved
-and revered object, are not "too heavy." We all know the deep-rooted
-sin and error of our _own_ hearts, which lie hidden from mortal eye,
-how much they require chastisement and guidance, but the life that to
-us seems blameless, the kindly nature, to our eyes, a model for us to
-follow! Oh, how inscrutable seem the trials we could comprehend if
-directed to our own discipline.
-
-It was with a stronger sensation of pleasure than she had known for
-many days, that Kate heard her cousin propose their removal from the
-mighty capital, now rapidly gathering together its beauty and its
-strength, its fashion and its political hosts.
-
-"Is there any place you would prefer, dear Kate," she asked, one
-evening as they sat together, after their quickly despatched dinner,
-(Lady Desmond had, after much solicitation, consented to accompany an
-old Neapolitan acquaintance to the opera, and was now waiting for her
-friend's carriage.)
-
-"No, none," replied Kate, indolently, "all I care for is to leave
-London; though, dearest Georgy, it is by no means insupportable to me,
-if you wish to stay."
-
-"It has no attraction for me," said Lady Desmond, "Ireland would be
-painful to you now, and though I long to take you abroad, you will
-enjoy a visit to France or Germany much more a few months hence;
-besides, I would rather not leave England at present.
-
-"Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell was sitting with me this morning," she
-resumed, after a pause, during which she played thoughtfully with
-the tassels of her Cashmere cloak. "You don't know her, she was
-related to poor Sir Thomas, and beside that, her husband was an old
-brother-in-arms of his. When General Macdonnell died, his widow was
-left almost penniless, and so they gave her apartments at Hampton Court
-Palace; she tells me it is a pleasant, quiet place for a month or two;
-pretty rides and drives near town if you want to see any one, or any
-thing--out of the way if you are misanthropically inclined. In short,
-she is very anxious to get me down there; she is in wretched health,
-and if it is practicable, I should like to gratify her; she was most
-kind to me, poor thing, in her palmy days, when I was an inexperienced
-bride. Would you like the locale, Kate?"
-
-"Who, I?" said Kate, absently, "yes, very much."
-
-"Well then, I will go down there to-morrow, and see the place, and
-Lady Elizabeth; to tell the truth, for I must not take credit for more
-philanthropy than I possess, though I do not wish to remain in London,
-I feel a reluctance to leave its neighbourhood--it is strange," and
-Lady Desmond relapsed into silence and thought, a look of impatience
-slightly contracting her brow, and changing the expression of her
-resolute mouth to one of dissatisfaction and unrest.
-
-Kate gazed at her in the indolent speculation of a mind too depressed
-for activity of thought, as to what cause of vexation could possibly
-ruffle the prosperous current of her cousin's life.
-
-"Mr. ----'s carriage," announced a spruce waiter.
-
-And kissing her fair god-child, and bidding her an affectionate
-good-night, Lady Desmond swept out of the room, leaving Kate to the
-care of Mrs. O'Toole.
-
-In less than a fortnight after this conversation, the cousins were
-settled in a large old fashioned house, adjoining the Palace of Hampton
-Court, Lady Desmond's well filled purse, and her major domo's tact
-and intelligence, supplying all the deficiencies of a ready-furnished
-mansion, with the celerity of modern magic. The above mentioned
-functionary, an old attendant of the late Sir Thomas, was, as Lady
-Desmond termed him, her steward, rather than her servant; he arranged
-her household, paid her bills, and tyrannised over her in a thousand
-ways, to which, in full consciousness of her weakness, she languidly
-submitted.
-
-April was well advanced when they took possession of their new abode,
-and most gladly did Kate exchange her daily lifeless airing in the
-Park, for walks amid the thousand blossoms which adorned the Palace
-Gardens, with all the freshness and perfume of early spring.
-
-The stately parterres, the mossy grass, and the first delicate
-exquisite green of the trees, the lovely avenue of horse chesnuts in
-the neighbouring park, all were new to her, all unlike any scene
-she was accustomed to, and unconnected in her mind with suffering;
-passionately enjoying the sights and sounds, and scent of a garden,
-at this, its loveliest season, she felt drawn out of herself by the
-contemplation of so much beauty; grief was softened to sadness, by this
-evidence of Almighty love! the past engrossed her less completely, it
-was so uncongenial with the smiles and tears of April, the anticipative
-joyousness of all nature, and no longer apprehensive of losing
-self-command by approaching the subject uppermost in her thoughts, she
-found a quiet pleasure in constant talk of her grandfather, of his
-opinions and sayings, and even of his death with a composure that might
-have misled a superficial observer as to her real feelings.
-
-She now gathered courage to write a long descriptive letter to Mr.
-and Mrs. Winter, in return for the truly affectionate missives they
-had written, on hearing, through Langley, of the Colonel's death.
-Some other writing, also, devolved upon her, replies to _relations_,
-cognisant of her existence, since she had become the inmate of the
-prosperous Lady Desmond. These were soon despatched, and she felt
-somewhat of a blank from the absence of all necessary employment.
-She still claimed immunity from the little ceremonious, scandalous
-re-unions of the palace; and Lady Desmond, far too impatient by nature
-to endure restraint, made her gentle cousin's mourning an excuse for
-rejecting the distasteful invitations. Indeed Kate could not help
-observing, that, for an invalid, Lady Elizabeth took a wonderful
-interest in mundane affairs; and, although she had recommended Hampton
-Court to Lady Desmond, as a quiet retired place, she was perpetually
-suggesting a little society, as a panacea for every ill, and she felt
-an instinctive dislike to her cousin's noble relative, who always
-addressed her with the same carressing condescension, she might have
-shown to a pet terrier, belonging to her respected _wealthy_ kinswoman.
-
-"A thousand apologies, dear Kate," cried Lady Desmond, as she made
-her appearance one lovely May evening, half an hour after their usual
-time for dinner, "I fear I have kept you waiting, but I could not
-tear myself from Mrs Fordyce and her lovely flowers; you must go with
-me on my next visit, her villa is so perfect, and Richmond looked
-so bright." Kate smiled, pleased to see her cousin so animated, and
-secretly wondering what could be the reason of the joy that sparkled
-in her large, dark eyes, and lent so much of soul and brilliancy to
-her generally proud, calm countenance. "And," continued Lady Desmond,
-"as the carriage turned out of the gate, it was stopped by almost the
-last person I expected to meet on the banks of the Thames, an Italian
-acquaintance, the Wentworths and myself used to see a great deal of,
-at Naples. You have heard of Lord Effingham?"
-
-Kate shook her head.
-
-"He was universally known in Italy, and here too; he seemed quite as
-much astonished to meet me, and promised, he would ride over some
-morning--he said, he had a villa on the Thames, I think, but I was in
-too great a hurry to attend."
-
-Lady Desmond was more than usually affectionate to Kate that evening,
-stroking her glossy hair, with the fondness of an elder sister,
-and exerting all her powers of persuasion to induce her to join a
-tea-party, at Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell's; and Kate, fearful of being a
-check upon her cousin's amusements, and conscious that she had no right
-to exclusive self-indulgence, consented; nor could she regret having
-done so, as Lady Desmond appeared to be much gratified.
-
-The day after this unwonted exertion she had taken a long walk with
-Lady Desmond, who, in her happiest mood, had entered into a charming
-description of her life in Italy, of Rome, and her impression of it--of
-the high opinion entertained by various Englishmen (whom she had
-met abroad), of rank and reputation, for Colonel Vernon; and Kate's
-heart and intellect alike gratified, submitted with reluctance to her
-cousin's decision, that she had walked enough, and must rest at home,
-while she paid a promised visit at the palace.
-
-Lady Desmond, after opening a box of new books and periodicals, just
-arrived, stepped through the window, to a balcony, communicating by
-a flight of steps with the garden, and passed through a side gate
-directly into the palace grounds.
-
-Kate took up Dickens's last number, and was soon wrapt in the perusal
-of it. Slightly fatigued by exercise, she leaned back in her fauteuil,
-one hand buried in the rich masses of her hair, on which the light
-threw a thousand golden gleams--the other holding the book, she
-read against the arm of the chair, on which her right elbow rested;
-one fairy foot stretched out upon a tiny ottoman; an air of profound
-repose, and perfect quiet pervading the slight figure and sweet face,
-always grave in silence, and now more so than ever; while the soft
-liquid eyes, with their thoughtful depth of expression, rivetted on the
-page before them, were brightened by the faint tinge of rose called up
-by her animating walk.
-
-Lady Desmond might have been gone about half an hour, when a gentleman,
-mounted on a dark brown horse, of great beauty, rode up to the hall
-door, and dismounting, wound the reins round some of the spiral
-ornaments of the old fashioned iron railing.
-
-"Is Lady Desmond at home?"
-
-"Yes, sir." And the stranger followed the servant up the broad stairs.
-"Who shall I say, sir?"
-
-"Lord Effingham."
-
-But the large, low drawing-room, was unoccupied, and placing a chair,
-the footman retired to announce the visitor. He stood a moment after
-he was thus left, then strolled to the window, which looked towards
-the green; but finding little to interest him in the prospect, after a
-careless glance at one or two pictures, and some exquisite miniatures,
-which lay on the tables, he walked through the open door, leading
-into a smaller room within, which opened on the park; and here he
-stood, as if rooted to the ground--his every faculty absorbed in the
-contemplation of the living picture before him--till Kate, with that
-instinct which whispers to us, when a fellow mortal is near, slowly
-raised her fringed lids, and looked at him a moment, bewildered;
-then rising, her natural, well-bred, self-possession, heightened by
-the calmness and indifference consequent on pre-occupation, and the
-stillness that follows deep emotion--
-
-"I fear I kept you too long waiting; my cousin, Lady Desmond has
-unfortunately just left me, to pay a visit at the Palace. I will send
-for her." And she laid her hand on the bell-pull.
-
-The stranger stood a moment, in silence, an unwonted look of
-irresolution, on his haughty countenance; then, bowing with profound
-respect, he begged pardon for his intrusion, in soft and refined tones,
-which, as also his face, grew strangely familiar to Kate's memory, as
-she looked and listened.
-
-"Pray do not give Lady Desmond the trouble of returning," he said, with
-a degree of hesitation, marvellously at variance with his air of _un
-grand seigneur_.
-
-Here a servant entered.
-
-"Her ladyship is not at home, my lord, I did not know she had gone out
-again."
-
-"I see her returning across the garden," said Miss Vernon, "she will be
-here immediately," and pointing to a chair, she bent her head gravely
-to the visitor, and left the room.
-
-He remained gazing after her, then muttering to himself, "most
-surpassingly novel-like, by Minerva," turned to greet Lady Desmond as
-she entered, with an easy grace and quiet firmness of manner, very
-different from the demeanour he had exhibited to her gentle, unassuming
-cousin.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
-LADY DESMOND.
-
-
-A sketch of the life and character of the lady, whose name stands at
-the head of this chapter, is necessary for the right understanding
-of what follows; so while she talks of Italian skies, and her
-reminiscences of Naples with her reserved visitor, whose well timed
-observations and profound attention drew forth her most brilliant
-conversational powers, we will draw upon the reader's imagination, and
-transport her or him, to the West of Ireland, twenty years back from
-the period of which we write. Dungar was then at its highest point of
-gaiety and apparent prosperity, when intelligence reached Colonel
-Vernon of the death, at sea, of a certain Lieutenant O'Brien, of whom
-he had an indistinct recollection, as having incurred the displeasure
-and disapprobation of a large circle of relatives, amongst whom the
-Colonel himself was numbered, by eloping, and consequent marriage, with
-a very beautiful but low-born and penniless girl.
-
-Of course the hundred cousins, never having done anything, "worthy
-of death or bonds," themselves, were unanimous as to their right of
-casting, not only the first, but the last stone at the imprudent
-couple, who were left to expiate in unpitied and unmitigated poverty
-the unpardonable error they had committed.
-
-Colonel Vernon's knowledge of O'Brien's circumstances was very
-limited; he knew he had lost his wife when their only child was still
-a mere baby, and he had, more than once, unsought, sent handsome
-presents to the improvident father; but the news of his decease was
-soon forgotten, in the terrible affliction which threw a shadow over
-Dungar, for many months. The Colonel's eldest son, the only survivor
-of three children, a wild, extravagant young scapegrace, of whom
-none, save his wife and his father, prophesied good, was drowned in
-some fishing expedition, a sudden squall having capsized his boat.
-Kate was born a few weeks after her unfortunate father was lost, and,
-although Mrs. Vernon for her child's sake, strove to drag on a saddened
-and debilitated existence, she died while Kate was yet too young to
-remember a mother's caresses.
-
-The Colonel was just beginning to rally from the severe trial which
-had robbed him of a son, who, though often a source of anxiety and
-mortification, was still very dear to him, when some gossiping guest
-mentioned having seen "that unfortunate O'Brien's little daughter"
-at the house of an aunt, whose close connection with the deceased
-Lieutenant, could not permit her to ignore the demand of a much
-enduring school-mistress, that Miss O'Brien should be removed, as she
-could not afford to encumber herself with a young lady who had no
-claims on her charity. "You may imagine the sort of life the unhappy
-little devil leads," concluded the Colonel's informant, "snubbed, by
-her aunt, cuffed by her cousins, a perfect _souffre douleur_ for the
-whole family."
-
-Colonel Vernon made no remark at the time, but the picture of the
-little orphan, thus carelessly drawn, sank deep into his kindly heart,
-already softened by his recent bereavement.
-
-A hospitable invitation was despatched for the friendless girl, and
-Georgina O'Brien was soon established in what proved to be her happy
-home. The Colonel's natural kindness, first attracted to her because
-she stood in need of it, was confirmed by the little girl's winning
-ways and dauntless spirit. She was about twelve years old when she
-first made her appearance at Dungar; tall, thin, sallow, her pale face
-looked all eyes, and strangers were almost startled at the wild, shy,
-proud, restlessness of those large, dark orbs that appeared constantly
-on the alert to resent insult or fly from injury. Gradually all this
-softened in the balmy atmosphere of gentleness and good breeding, which
-was soon imbibed by the young stranger, whose bearing, from the first,
-though hers had been a childhood of galling poverty, bespoke an innate
-grandeur and dignity, inexpressibly attractive to her patrician host.
-
-Soon it became a pleasing divertissement to the Colonel's sombre
-thoughts, to teach Georgy her lessons, and undo much that had been done
-at Fogarty's "select establishment," Mellefort View, Kingstown. He
-found an apt pupil, though scarcely so diligent as she proved to Pat
-Costello, the huntsman, who, in rapturous admiration of her firm seat,
-steady hand, and intuitive comprehension of his instructions, exclaimed
-to the whipper. "Faith, Miss Georgy's the raal ould stock; sure enough,
-it comes quite nathral to her to ride, there's nothin', good nor bad,
-would stop her; if any one would take Craig na Dhioul, be the powers
-she'd rise her horse at Croagh Pathrick!"
-
-To the Colonel, the huntsman, nurse, and little Kate, the whole stream
-of her affections flowed; but though, she would willingly send the
-greater part of all that she possessed as gifts to her cousins, who
-had tyrannized over and insulted her; the air of supreme indifference,
-of quiet civility with which she treated them, on those rare occasions
-when they met, was much more calculated to impress them with the idea,
-that they were far too insignificant for their misconduct to occupy her
-memory than that they were forgiven. Indeed Mrs. O'Toole used often to
-say that, "though she would lay down her life for a friend, the devil
-himself could not be more scornful to an inemy."
-
-After young Mrs. Vernon's death, the Colonel engaged a governess of
-higher acquirements than could have been necessary for his baby
-grand-child, in order that the Lieutenant's orphan might have the
-advantages of a good education; but amid the irregularity of a
-household, without a female head, Georgy's imperious ways, and resolute
-will, enabled her to gain a degree of authority, marvellous in one so
-young, and displeasing to many of the old retainers, who, nevertheless,
-bore this assumption of authority, on the part of a dependent, far
-more unmurmuringly than a similar class in England, would have done.
-The rigid maxim of working for oneself, however incontrovertible,
-and admirably suited to national independence, and advancement, is
-capable of some cruel and unjust applications; and if the sense of
-independence may be somewhat wanting, in Ireland, there is, at all
-events, more indulgence--more tolerance--more kindliness for those,
-with whom fortune has dealt hardly; and it was seldom--very seldom,
-even Miss O'Brien's keen glance, rendered by early experience morbidly
-quick at discovering an insult, could perceive even covert disrespect.
-And so she progressed into luxuriantly beautiful girlhood, unpruned,
-almost unchecked; already ambitious, she knew not for what--already
-pining to leave the happy valley, where she had found so tranquil a
-haven, from the rude storms that shook her infancy--the recollection
-of the sufferings, and mortifications of her early youth; had sunk
-deep into her proud heart, and longed to obtain some vantage ground,
-secured and self-acquired, from which she might look down upon the
-past--some social eminence, independent even of her kind, beloved,
-self-constituted guardian. Nor did she long revolve these wishes, in
-silent, wistful reverie, amongst the bold cliffs, or in the deep, shady
-glens, with which the country about Dungar abounded, and which might
-have taught her truer and purer aspirations.
-
-Kate was a mere plaything--confidante, she had none--she was too young
-to find in books, sufficient companionship; when just as the dearth
-of excitement, and occupation was most oppressive, Major General Sir
-Thomas Desmond, K.C.B., arrived on a visit to Colonel Vernon.
-
-There was a scarcity of ladies at Dungar, when Sir Thomas Desmond made
-his appearance; and the Colonel, banishing Georgina, as too young to
-take any part in society, to Kate's particular region, the nursery and
-school-room, collected a shooting party for the General's entertainment.
-
-It was therefore more than probable, that he would leave, without ever
-encountering the "concealed jewel," of the old mansion, but it was
-otherwise fated.
-
-Wearied of her unusual seclusion, Miss O'Brien, one fine autumn
-morning, having watched the departure of the whole party, to shoot
-or fish, summoned her faithful squire, Pat Costello, and mounting a
-favourite hunter of the Colonel's, started on a long ride over the
-wildest part of the wild country round. Occupied by her own thoughts,
-she forgot time and distance, nor was it till honest Pat ventured to
-hint, that "maybe, Miss Kate would be cryin' for her," that she thought
-of returning.
-
-"It must be getting late, Pat--see, the sun is behind Craughmore."
-
-"It is so, miss."
-
-"Let us cross the Priest's field, and get into the lawn that way, the
-mare will take any of those fences--eh, Pat?"
-
-"Is it the mare? God bless ye, she'd walk over them without knowing it,
-miss."
-
-Miss O'Brien turned her horse's head without reply, and gradually
-quickening her pace, from a trot to a canter, from a canter to a
-gallop, finding a wild pleasure, in the rapid and easy movement of the
-beautiful animal, on which she was mounted, cleared the last fence
-which separated the priest's domains, from her guardian's, just as Sir
-Thomas Desmond, and two or three other gentlemen, the latest of the
-party were hastening their return to dinner, after a capital day's
-sport.
-
-"Ha! Colonel," exclaimed Sir Thomas, who narrowly escaped being
-overturned. "The race of Amazons is not yet extinct in the west, I
-perceive."
-
-"Georgina!" cried the Colonel. "I had no idea you were out, and on
-Brown Bess too! She will pull your arms off, my dear girl. Pat, I'm
-surprised you would let Miss O'Brien ride so fiery an animal."
-
-"Do not blame Pat, dearest Colonel--of course he did as I liked;
-besides, I can ride every horse in your stable."
-
-"And Pat would be more than mortal if he could refuse your commands,"
-quoth the gallant General, with the gay manner, so often assumed by
-gentlemen of a certain age, to very young girls.
-
-"Sir Thomas Desmond, my dear Georgy, is returning thanks that his life
-was spared, in that desperate leap of yours."
-
-"I fear I nearly rode over you," said she, addressing the veteran, who
-stood gazing with admiration at her beautiful face, glowing with the
-rich color, imparted by her gallop--her luxuriant black hair falling
-in masses from under her hat, and her large dark eyes beaming with the
-excitement of her own thoughts, though little shown by the careless
-ease of her manner. "I fear I almost rode over you."
-
-"Pray do not mention it; what is an old general more or less, compared
-to the gratification of so charming a young lady's taste for crossing
-the country?"
-
-"You will forgive me?" said she smiling.
-
-"Georgy, you know Mr. ----, and Lord Arthur," said the Colonel, waving
-his hand towards the other gentlemen of the party, and Miss O'Brien
-acknowledged them with a careless grace, a certain, wild, natural
-dignity, that did not escape the observant Sir Thomas.
-
-From this time, the General constantly, and avowedly sought the
-society of his host's _protégée_; and she, pleased by his kindly
-admiration, and flattered by the notice of an individual in his
-distinguished position, found a new charm in the rides and walks she
-was beginning to tire of.
-
-But never, in her dreams of the future, had she an instant thought of
-using matrimony as a stepping stone to position; and the pleasant,
-polite _Chevalier Bayard_, but elderly General, whom she looked
-upon as a second Colonel Vernon, and of whom, in a short time she
-made a confidant, was the last person she would have dreamt of
-espousing--meantime Sir Thomas prolonged his visit, and when at length
-he departed, leaving Georgina, inconsolable for his loss--it was only
-for a short period.
-
-His return was heralded by the announcement in Saunders' Newspaper of
-the death of the Dowager Countess of C----, "who has, we understand
-bequeathed large estates, both here and in England, to her ladyship's
-nephew, Sir Thomas Desmond, K.C.B., who served with great distinction
-at----, &c., &c."
-
-Miss O'Brien, overjoyed as she was to see him again, could not help
-being struck by an indefinable change of manner in her faithful
-ally. He seemed more deferential and less gaily cordial; still she
-was unspeakably astonished, when, after a few words of, to her,
-unintelligible preamble, Colonel Vernon, in a private and solemn
-interview, informed her that Sir Thomas Desmond had made proposals to
-him for her hand, as her guardian and next friend.
-
-"I confess I was a good deal startled when he broached the subject,"
-continued the Colonel; "nevertheless, Georgy, I would have you
-weigh the proposition; there are few men who would show such
-disinterestedness as to fly back to lay his newly-acquired fortune at
-the feet of an obscure though very charming girl; and although the
-disparity--"
-
-"I have made up my mind," said Miss O'Brien, deliberately, as if of
-her own thoughts, and deaf to the Colonel--"I will accept him."
-
-"But," returned the Colonel, not quite satisfied with this hasty
-decision, "have you thought of the consequences of a marriage with a
-man old enough to be your father? can you give him your whole heart?
-Take a little time, dear Georgy. You have, I trust, a comfortable home
-here, where you will be always welcome; do not rush on anything that
-may hereafter prove repugnant; are your affections your own? is--"
-
-"Dear, kind, considerate guardian, yes. Who could I have lost them to?
-The young lordlings, the county squires, who assiduously avoid the
-penniless girl, too well protected to be trifled with? no, I never yet
-thought of loving Sir Thomas; but I will love him heartily; he has the
-soul of a man, and dares to consult his heart in his choice of a wife.
-I have something in common with such a soul; I will make him happy,
-ay, and proud too, though his lot may be cast amongst the nobles of the
-land."
-
-And drawing her splendid form to its full height, she glanced proudly
-at the opposite mirror.
-
-"Then I may tell Sir Thomas you accept him? With your proper
-appreciation of his worth you will be a happy woman; I congratulate
-you, my dear love."
-
-And they were married; and Kate was bridesmaid; the tenantry were
-feasted; bonfires blazed, &c., &c.
-
-But did the young and beautiful bride find her heart thus obedient
-to her will? Heaven alone knows. During the eight or nine years of
-their union, however, Sir Thomas and Lady Desmond led a halcyon life;
-and if she ever felt a void in her brilliant existence, she scarce
-had time, amid her varied pleasures or occupations, to note it. True
-and deep was the sorrow with which she mourned for the kind husband,
-the considerate friend, for whom alone she seemed to live; but these
-long years of unbroken prosperity had not softened the imperious will
-which distinguished her girlhood; while they somewhat tainted, with
-their hardening influence, the warmth of heart formerly so true and
-so unselfish. Meantime, the full leisure of an unoccupied spirit was
-devoted to the cultivation of intellect, more brilliant than profound,
-and accustomed to scorn, as interested, the motives of the other sex,
-her fancy was still unawakened, her strong, deep passions still slept,
-when the fated current of her life led her to Naples.
-
-At this time, Lord Effingham was the engrossing subject of scandal and
-gossip at Naples; his luxurious villa, rarely opened to any, save a
-few select companions, his unrivalled yacht, his strange and almost
-lawless doings, indicative of a character half cynic, half epicurean,
-but wholly English in its energy and profusion, each furnished an
-inexhaustible theme of wonder and exaggeration, to the opera boxes
-and conversaziones. Rarely he honoured the _beau-monde_ of Naples
-with his presence; but shortly after Lady Desmond's arrival, some
-national anniversary dinner, at the English Ambassador's, drew him
-from his seclusion; and whether he found society more agreeable,
-after this interval of retirement, or that the proud indifference
-of Lady Desmond's manner interested a fancy cloyed by adulation, is
-problematical; but from that period he was more frequently to be met in
-the brilliant circles adorned by the presence of the beautiful widow,
-but whether the slumber of her heart, had been broken by the eccentric
-Englishman, before whose commanding spirit her own involuntarily bent,
-none could tell, though Mrs. Wentworth surmised.
-
-"But even Italy one tires of," said Lord Effingham, rising to depart
-after a lengthened visit; "and I confess I am ready to try England, at
-least, while summer and the novelty of my late revered uncle's villa
-last; besides, had I been undecided, your presence would have fixed me."
-
-Lady Desmond smiled.
-
-"I fear I frightened away a very studious young lady, whom I found deep
-in the perusal of some trash--Dickens, I believe," taking up the number
-Kate had been reading.
-
-"My cousin, Miss Vernon--poor Kate is not in the mood for any profound
-literature; she has had great sorrows. But I trust you will sometimes
-look in on us, it will do us both good."
-
-"I shall certainly make my _début_ in the, to me, new character of
-consoler."
-
-And he bowed ironically.
-
-"My sweet god-daughter will teach you not to be satirical--she is so
-good."
-
-"Your god-daughter! why you could not have learned your own catechism
-when she was christened."
-
-"I was very young, and was only a proxy; but I have called her my
-god-child ever since."
-
-"Well, _addio_ Lady Desmond, I will bring you some flowers to-morrow; I
-see you have no conservatory."
-
-And he departed.
-
-Kate was rather startled by the expression, half fright, half
-exultation in Mrs. O'Toole's countenance, as she entered her room
-before dinner, to assist her in dressing.
-
-"Och thin, Miss Kate, agrah; who do you think has just rode off, on a
-horse fit for a prence?"
-
-"I am sure I cannot imagine. Oh, Lord Effingham, I suppose."
-
-"Didn't I tell ye, he was a lord? faith, I niver was mistaken in wan
-yet; and fur all I spoke up so bould, ses I to meself, he's a lord, no
-less."
-
-"But, nurse, what do you mean? who did you speak up bold to?"
-
-"To the earl there, him that has jist rode off."
-
-"Where?" demanded Kate, fearful of some strange outbreak on the part of
-Mrs. O'Toole.
-
-"There, in that banishmint we wor in, at that onlooky Bayswather, whin
-he wanted me to take the note to ye."
-
-"Why, dear nurse, you do not mean to--Oh, yes, now I recollect, I
-thought his face and voice were familiar to me. I was dull, very dull,
-not to notice it before; he is the same person who spoke to me in
-Kensington Gardens."
-
-"An' did he spake to ye to-day, jewil?"
-
-"Yes; and now I remember, he seemed embarrassed; it is curious; perhaps
-I ought to mention it to Georgina; yet, no, it would be useless; he
-amuses her now; and she is just the person who would resent such
-conduct, warmly. No, I am but a sorry companion as it is; but I will
-interfere with her amusement as little as I can."
-
-"Faith, ye'r in the right iv it, Miss Kate; for all Lady Desmond loves
-ye, she loves her own way betther nor all the world itself."
-
-"Hush, hush, you must not speak in that way of our kind, good friend,
-nurse."
-
-"Well, well, it's thruth I'm tellin' ye; an' see, jewil, ye'll think it
-quare to be spakin' cool an' asy to that thief iv the world, though he
-looks like a prence, an' rides like a king."
-
-"Queer! Oh, no, I feel as if that adventure happened years ago; that
-I have grown old and dispassionate since. Then he will never notice
-me, when Georgy is there; at least, not much; and, I confess, I feel
-pleased that he should meet me, in my natural position; but his
-presence, and the memories it calls up, will never be very welcome to
-me, now especially."
-
-"Well, we'll see, there's the divil's own timper in thim fiery eyes iv
-his. I'll go bail he's a dead shot with the pistils."
-
-"Very likely; but there is the dinner bell."
-
-Lady Desmond was thoughtful and _distrait_; that evening; she spoke
-little of Lord Effingham, and only conversed by an effort. After tea,
-she entreated Kate, who had already recommenced her practising, to sing
-some of the airs she had been arranging previous to her grandfather's
-death; and Kate, anxious to conquer the repugnance she had felt of late
-to her favourite occupation, complied, till the tears pouring down her
-cheeks interrupted her.
-
-"Dearest, forgive me," cried Lady Desmond, roused from her thoughts
-by the sudden cessation of the music, and flying to her side, "how
-selfish, how thoughtless I am," and winding her arm round Kate's waist,
-drew her to the window, through which the moonlight streamed, and the
-breeze wafted a thousand perfumes.
-
-They stood there a few moments in silence, till Kate, recovering her
-composure, pressed a kiss upon her cousin's cheek. Lady Desmond
-started, and a sudden tremor ran through her frame.
-
-"You are cold, dear Georgy? come from the window."
-
-"Oh, no, no! I wish I was cold and calm! Ah, Kate, I am not happy! I
-would fain change with you!"
-
-"With me! surely not with one so lonely and----."
-
-"Lonely! Who can be more lonely than I am? You have been so much loved;
-I would give any thing for even the memory of such affection, as the
-dear Colonel had, for you; some one to live for, some one to die for,
-who would understand your every glance!"
-
-"But, dearest Georgy, you had all this in your husband!"
-
-"Yes! Oh, heaven forgive my forgetfulness, but now I feel so wearied
-with this vain struggle! If I had been blessed with children I should
-have something to live for." She paused and pressed her hand against
-her eyes. "Come, I will give myself rest and freedom, I will live for
-you, and you only, my Kate, you shall be my daughter."
-
-And she held her with a wild firm pressure to her heart.
-
-And Kate, puzzled by this unaccountable outbreak, returned her embrace,
-silently praying to God to direct her beautiful but wayward kinswoman
-aright.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-OLD ACQUAINTANCE.
-
-
-Lord Effingham's visits were constant and apparently welcome, for Kate
-soon began to observe a restlessness in her cousin, when the hour at
-which he usually made his appearance passed without his arrival. At
-first, Kate had taken her work or book to her own room or to the Palace
-Garden, when his name was announced, but Lady Desmond had soon cut off
-her retreat by observing--
-
-"You must act chaperone for me, dear Kate, but if strangers are so
-repugnant to you, I will tell Lord Effingham, and he shall not come
-here any more."
-
-And Miss Vernon knew very well, whatever her inclination might be, what
-was expected. Yet there was much in their visitor's conversation that
-drew her out of herself, and interested her by force of contrast to her
-own views, although the indolence of depression rendered her averse to
-the exertion of argument. Besides, Lord Effingham was often apparently
-unconscious of her presence, and scarcely ever addressed himself to
-her, so much so, that Lady Desmond had thought herself called upon to
-make a sort of apology for him.
-
-Yet Kate more than once caught his eyes fixed upon herself, and
-felt that her few occasional observations were listened to with an
-attention all the deeper for its unobtrusiveness; in short, she felt
-certain he remembered her, and watched for some indication, either of
-consciousness or resentment on her part, while each day rendered her
-more at ease, as she observed his attentions to her cousin.
-
-The quiet routine of their lives was seldom interrupted.
-
-Lady Desmond sometimes went to town, and generally Lord Effingham's
-name figured in the same list of distinguished fashionables present
-at balls, dinners, &c., with her own. Kate began to think that their
-present intercourse had fallen into a natural channel of indifference,
-and that the bold stranger of Kensington Gardens, was totally merged in
-the high-bred reserved earl; but she was mistaken.
-
-One morning a feverish cold confined Lady Desmond to her bed, and the
-Hampton Court doctor threatened her with every ill "that flesh is heir
-to," if she did not, by care and submission to a few days seclusion,
-nip the growing disorder in the bud. Kate was anxious and uneasy about
-her, the very thought of a sick room made her heart ache.
-
-"Do not look so unhappy about me, love," said her cousin, "it is my
-will to remain here; I want solitude, I want freedom from external
-influences; you shall read to me good books."
-
-"Milord, his compliments, is very unhappy to hear your ladyship is ill,
-and begs to know particularly how you are."
-
-"Oh! Kate, run down to him, will you, dearest, say I am too unwell to
-see him, for a week to come, at least; you will--observe--there go,
-darling."
-
-Kate obeyed, neither with alacrity or reluctance, Lord Effingham had
-almost ceased to be connected in her mind with the audacious stranger
-who had addressed her, and although this was the first time she had met
-him alone, since that occurrence, it was with perfect composure she
-returned his salute, and met his eager scrutinising glance without a
-shade more of colour tinging her pale cheek.
-
-"I am inconsolable at hearing of Lady Desmond's indisposition," said
-Lord Effingham, before Kate could address a word to him. "How did she
-catch cold? Has she good advice!"
-
-"I do not think her very ill," replied Miss Vernon, "a little care and
-quiet is all she requires; but she desires me to say, she fears she
-will not be able to see you for some days; next week, if you should be
-in this neighbourhood, probably you will find her reinstated in our
-usual morning room."
-
-"Of course I shall make enquiries every day for the health of my
-charming friend."
-
-And as Kate could not avoid thinking there was something of a sneer in
-the smile and tone with which these words were spoken, they revived all
-her antipathy to the dark browed peer. Anxious to dismiss him, yet not
-wishing to show it, she stood a moment, undecided, when Lord Effingham,
-with a sudden change of voice and expression, from the measured tone
-and listless look, with which he usually spoke, to one of animation and
-earnestness, exclaimed--
-
-"No, Miss Vernon, I cannot go yet, though you indicate your desire that
-I should, by standing. I cannot let the opportunity, I have so long
-sought, pass, without ascertaining whether your memory is as imperfect
-as mine is vivid."
-
-"If you mean," returned Miss Vernon, raising her eyes to his with the
-calmness now so habitual to her, "if you mean that you met me before,
-and that I forget it, you are mistaken; I remember that very unpleasant
-circumstance perfectly."
-
-He was evidently annoyed by her candour and tranquillity.
-
-"I regret to find you still resent my conduct, you at least might
-excuse it."
-
-Kate smiled.
-
-"I do not resent it now; since that," she continued, "I have gone
-through much affliction, I have experienced real grief and sorrow,
-such as reduce all petty annoyances to their proper level; but why
-revert to what is past."
-
-"To ask you to--not exactly to forgive, but to acknowledge that my bold
-attempt to grasp the inexpressible pleasure of your acquaintance was
-not so heinous."
-
-"Really, Lord Effingham, I should be obliged to you not to continue
-this conversation any further; I do not suppose it possible for you to
-comprehend the effect produced on my mind by your audacity; pardon me,
-but it is the only word that sufficiently expresses my impression of
-your conduct on the occasion to which you allude. Let it be forgotten,
-I would not for worlds disturb my cousin with any revelation so
-likely----"
-
-"Yes," interrupted Lord Effingham, absently, "I perceived, at a glance,
-that the fair widow was ignorant of the affair, but be it as you
-choose, for the future, only, if you are to continue her inmate, take
-my advice, and withhold the disclosure altogether."
-
-And he smiled with an expression of insolent power, that made Kate's
-heart thrill with indignation.
-
-"My Lord, I do not require a stranger's advice, what to confide to, or
-what to withhold from my earliest and dearest friend; you must excuse
-me, I have left Lady Desmond alone."
-
-"One moment," cried Lord Effingham, springing to the door, "we meet
-again as friends? You must not refuse to give me bulletins of your
-cousin's health in person."
-
-"I have no wish to embroil the even tenor of my life, about what can
-concern me no more, I wish you a good morning, my Lord."
-
-He held the door open, and bowed low, as she passed out, then returning
-to the place where she had stood, remained a moment in silent thought,
-gnawing his under lip.
-
-"By----," he at length muttered, "I would hate her if I could; if she
-was less lovely; her supreme disdain of my admiration was so real,
-and her indifference! Yet her cousin is more beautiful, and would have
-_acted_ the part perfectly, but all the time I should have felt it was
-only the graceful acting of my slave; this is real, this girl is free
-as air, and I feel as if afloat in some new and unexplored ocean, where
-my compasses are at fault, and the stars no longer those I used to
-steer by."
-
-He looked absently through the window till the animated fiery glance
-faded into a cold, sneering smile, then slowly descending to the hall
-door, mounted his horse, and gallopped across the park at full speed.
-
-Kate's heart was beating faster when she returned to Lady Desmond's
-room than when she left it; there was something of insolence and
-conscious power in Lord Effingham's manner, that was totally strange
-and repugnant to her; this short interview with him had recalled all
-the sore feeling of resentful indignation and wounded pride, that had
-so galled her on their first meeting, and though she felt, rather than
-reasoned, that it would be most unwise to disclose the _rencontre_ to
-Lady Desmond, she was indescribably provoked to think there was any
-thing like a secret between her and the proud, bold Earl.
-
-"Well, dear Kate, how did Lord Effingham take his sentence of
-banishment?"
-
-"He did not take it at all; he said he would ride over every day, to
-make enquiries in person."
-
-"And did he tell you any news?"
-
-"No."
-
-"He never tells news! How unlike the present race of babblings into
-which our aristocracy has degenerated."
-
-"Why, what does he do?"
-
-"Ah, Kate, he is no favourite with you; I see his foreign indifference
-to unmarried women has prejudiced you."
-
-"No, indeed, I neither like nor dislike him, but there is something in
-his face, and voice, and manner, I could never trust."
-
-"Lord Effingham does not pretend to be a pattern man, and certainly he
-is, when he likes it, a most agreeable member of society," returned
-Lady Desmond, rather coldly. "But will you answer that note of Lady
-Elizabeth's, I cannot, of course, dine with her."
-
-And Kate perceived, by this sudden change, that her cousin did not like
-to pursue the subject.
-
-True to his word, Lord Effingham rode over every day to make his
-enquiries for Lady Desmond, in person, and Kate resolutely secluded
-herself during the few moments of his stay, in her cousin's or her own
-chamber.
-
-One morning the invalid was sufficiently well to receive two or three
-dear (fine lady) friends. Kate stole away from their gossip, to her an
-unknown tongue, and established herself on a shady seat, commanding a
-view of the park, her book lay idly in her hand, and lulled by the
-hum of the insects, and the gentle rush of the water from one pond to
-another, she gave herself up to the past.
-
-"How poor dear grandpapa would have delighted in this place; how Georgy
-would have cheered him, and now it is too late!"
-
-And the bitterness of sorrow softened for a while in new scenes, and
-the increased occupation of the last few days, came back all freshly to
-her mind; every look, every tone of her beloved parent, was recalled
-with a distinctness that made her heart ache, and the emptiness and
-aimlessness of her present life stood out vividly before her.
-
-"Ah, forgive me great Father, if I cannot yet, with perfect submission,
-say, 'Thy will be done, help me, strengthen me.' She involuntarily
-raised her eyes as she murmured these last words, half aloud; and they
-met those of Lord Effingham, which wore a grave and more earnest look
-than usual, as if Kate's slight form, with its mourning garb, and her
-pale calm face, its expression, spiritualised by the thoughts that
-occupied her mind, had struck his hard nature with some new sense of
-truth and beauty.
-
-"Forgive my intrusion," said he, advancing with his usual easy
-self-assured air, "they told me Miss Vernon was out, and as you have
-hitherto allowed me to languish, on such meagre reports of your
-cousin's health, as I could gain from Mademoiselle Louise, I ventured
-to seek a personal interview with you, _al fresco_."
-
-"Lady Desmond will probably see you on Monday, my Lord. Mrs. Cranbourne
-and her sister were admitted to-day," returned Kate, with quiet
-politeness.
-
-"Yes," said Lord Effingham, absently, "pray Miss Vernon, can you, and
-will you give me, _le mot de l'enigme_."
-
-"I do not understand you."
-
-"What was the cause of Lady Desmond's illness, or rather her sudden
-fancy for the retirement of her own chamber?"
-
-"My cousin, unfortunately, caught cold on Thursday; she sat near an
-open window, at one of the Ancient Concerts, and----."
-
-"My dear Miss Vernon, that is the official report, but I want to know
-why she chooses to submit to the martyrdom, which confinement and
-inaction is to her, rather than receive me?"
-
-"You imagine then, that her illness is pretended to avoid you? if
-your curiosity lasts over to-morrow, I will ask her, and give you her
-solution of the enigma."
-
-Lord Effingham laughed scornfully.
-
-"I do not jest," continued Kate, simply. "I shall repeat to her, both
-what you have said, and any thing you may add, in the same tone."
-
-"Then you are great friends," said Lord Effingham, seating himself on
-the bench beside her, "you are angry that I should doubt the illness
-of one of the fairest daughters of Erin, whose cheek was ever tinged by
-the roses of health; but, seriously, you will not make mischief between
-us? I would never forgive you; do you not see I am very fond of Lady
-Desmond?"
-
-He leant forward as he spoke these words, with much earnestness, to see
-what effect they produced on Kate, and at the same time two officers
-in undress cavalry uniform lounged past; both glanced quickly at Miss
-Vernon and her companion, but withdrew their eyes immediately, as if
-conscious of having intruded on an interesting _tete-à-tete_.
-
-Kate's heart almost stood still with a spasm of memory, as she
-recognised Colonel Dashwood; she could not refrain from exclaiming
-his name aloud, he turned immediately, and bowing, with a profound
-and grave respect, which showed Kate he had heard of the loss she had
-sustained, took her hand and made some general enquiries, with an air
-of kindly interest.
-
-"I am staying with Lady Desmond," she said, her eyes filling with
-tears, "and you----."
-
-"Oh, some of us are quartered here, the rest scattered in small
-detachments; I like the place, and am here as much as possible, if
-you will allow me, I shall do myself the pleasure of calling on you
-to-morrow."
-
-"I shall be very happy to see you," she replied; and with another low
-bow, Colonel Dashwood joined his companion and walked away.
-
-"So," exclaimed Lord Effingham, "you cultivate dragoons, do you, Miss
-Vernon? Well, has not the promise of that very "rear rank take open
-order," looking individual to call upon you, softened your intention of
-making mischief between me and _La Vedova ammalata_?"
-
-"Lord Effingham," said Miss Vernon, quietly, rising from her seat,
-"I do not know why you choose to adopt a sneering tone towards people
-in general, but this I do know, that to me, such confidences, as are
-implied by questions, about Lady Desmond, are peculiarly distasteful; I
-have no wish to say anything in the least uncivil, but I should prefer
-remaining on terms of the most distant acquaintance with you." She
-bowed slightly, and walked away, but he followed her in an instant,
-looking dark and haughty.
-
-"I thank you for so clear an exposition of your sentiments; perhaps it
-was scarcely required; but you have not yet answered my question; will
-you repeat my observations to Lady Desmond?"
-
-"I shall--may I beg you to leave me."
-
-"Ha," said Lord Effingham, "you have not your canine ally to compel me
-doing so."
-
-At this moment, all Kate's pride and decision melted before the
-memories thus called up; and, with a sudden gesture, indicative of her
-incapability to endure his presence another moment, she pressed her
-hands to her eyes, in the vain effort to stem the torrent of grief,
-that swelled her heart.
-
-Lord Effingham retired at this silent, but unmistakeable expression of
-her feelings, with a look of half startled, half sullen, yet not wholly
-uncompassionate; and Kate, stealing quickly through the open window of
-the morning-room, reached her own unnoticed.
-
-Lady Desmond was in remarkably good spirits at dinner, and Kate was
-struck by the air of joyous exultation, that seemed as it were to
-illuminate her grand style of beauty.
-
-"I am right glad to be well again, cousin mine," she exclaimed. "Glad
-to be in the world, though, alas! all the mental revolution I intended
-to make is unaccomplished."
-
-"I do not know what it was, dearest," returned Miss Vernon, "so I
-cannot tell whether I ought to mourn over another block being added to
-that pavement of which we have heard so often."
-
-"Well, perhaps it was needless, but now we are free from the servants,
-tell me all that news over again."
-
-"Lord Effingham," began Kate.
-
-"Nay, dear girl, your own friends first."
-
-"Well then, Colonel Dashwood said he would call here to-morrow."
-
-"I shall be very glad to know him. I had left Dungar long before he was
-there; and I have a grudge against him, Kate, for I fancy it was the
-remembrance connected with his appearance, that caused those tears, of
-which I can still detect the traces on your face."
-
-"No, Georgy, no, indeed" replied Miss Vernon, earnestly. "Now," she
-continued, "let me return to Lord Effingham, he heard, it seemed, that
-I was in the Palace-gardens, and came after me, to ask me what was the
-real cause of your indisposition, and to laugh at my _story_ of "a
-cold!""
-
-"Indeed!" said Lady Desmond, with a slight start. "What other reason
-could he imagine?"
-
-"I do not know, but--" she paused.
-
-"Pray go on," said Lady Desmond, impatiently, "I hate to have things
-cut short."
-
-"Really," returned Miss Vernon, "I only hesitate, because it seemed so
-impertinent, what I am about to tell you."
-
-"Never mind--go on--dispense with preface."
-
-"Lord Effingham said, or rather by what he said, seemed to think, it
-was to avoid him, you feigned illness!"
-
-"He does," exclaimed Lady Desmond, with interest; then an instant
-after, with haughty indifference, she continued--"He gives me credit
-for more ingenuity, than I possess! yet--" and she leant back, resting
-one cheek on her hand, the expression of disdain, she had called
-up, fading into a look of pensive thought, almost sad. "How strange
-he is--how impenetrable; but these things are so much altered by
-repetition."
-
-Lady Desmond thought long and gravely, at length her brow cleared--a
-smile parted her lips--
-
-"Perhaps I have disentangled this mystery," she said; "time will
-tell, at all events, _bella mia_, I know the world--Lord Effingham's
-world--better than you do. I shall not notice 'the impertinence,' as
-you deem it."
-
-"Indeed you do know best, Georgy dear, at least, in general, for you
-have experience, which I have not; but as to Lord Effingham, I have an
-instinct, worth whole a life-time of experience, that he is false and
-selfish--he admires you, indeed he said he was fond of you; but, oh, do
-not regard him with anything except the--"
-
-"Ah, Lord Effingham appears to have been making quite a confidante
-of you, Kate! a rare compliment let me tell you," interrupted Lady
-Desmond, laughingly, "of course he begged of you not to repeat his
-confidence?"
-
-"Yes, and I told I would."
-
-"Well, dearest, it is a strange intimacy that has sprung up between
-you, and this very Giaour-like peer," returned Lady Desmond, in her
-sweetest manner, and quite regardless of Kate's warning. "I know not
-where it--"
-
-"Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell," announced the footman; and the privy
-council was ended.
-
-Colonel Dashwood made his appearance, at the proper hour for visiting,
-the next morning, and very much rejoiced was Kate to welcome him; he
-reminded her of much that was sad, 'tis true, but of sadness untinged
-by any bitter; and then, she had, since the day before, been haunted
-by the image of Fred Egerton, as he lay, pale and helpless, on a blue
-chintz sofa, in Mr. Winter's drawing-room, which was the latest, and
-clearest memory connected with Colonel Dashwood.
-
-The conversation was, at first, rather constrained, the mind of
-both the visitor and visited being full of thoughts they feared to
-broach--Kate dreaded, yet longed to speak of her grandfather--she
-feared a rush of tears, that might embarrass her kind and pleasant
-acquaintance, but her candid, real nature, soon helped her out of the
-difficulty. Dashwood spoke in terms of cordial and judicious praise
-of the kind old man; Kate listened with delight, and told him of her
-happiness with her cousin, to whom she longed to present him, and felt
-more intimate with the gay, high-bred dragoon, than she had ever felt
-before.
-
-"You remember Egerton, at A----, Miss Vernon?"
-
-"Oh, yes, I wished to ask you about him."
-
-"He has just been Gazetted Lieutenant Colonel of the --th Lancers, you
-have heard, of course, he distinguished himself greatly, at ----."
-
-"Yes, he wrote to dear grandpapa; we got the letter scarcely a week
-before--" she turned aside to hide the tears that would roll down her
-cheek, in spite of all her efforts to restrain them. "If you should
-write to Captain--Colonel Egerton, I mean, pray tell him, stern was the
-summons that prevented a reply to his kind letter, he will be sorry to
-hear of my irreparable loss."
-
-"Colonel Vernon had not a warmer admirer in the world, than Fred
-Egerton," cried Dashwood. "Indeed Fred was just the sort of fellow to
-appreciate him. Well, good morning, Miss Vernon, I am most happy to
-have seen you, and hope you will allow me to call occasionally, while I
-am here."
-
-The Monday specified by Lady Desmond, as the day on which she would
-receive Lord Effingham, was anticipated by Kate with some anxiety,
-and no small degree of curiosity. She wished to see on what terms her
-cousin and her admirer would meet, if any quarrel had been at the
-bottom of Lady Desmond's indisposition; and if the Earl was really
-apprehensive of one arising out of her report of his conversation in
-the Palace-garden.
-
-Lady Desmond had certainly, not resented her information, for never had
-Kate seen her so gentle, so loving, and so considerate. They took long
-drives together, in the balmy summer evenings, sometimes enjoying the
-exquisite, dewy, perfumed air, and rich cultivated scenery in sympathic
-silence, sometimes recalling past summer evenings, to each other, and
-talking at intervals of the past.
-
-At this time a letter reached her from Winter. He had been a much
-better correspondent since the poor Colonel's death, and his letters
-were a source of inexpressible comfort to Kate; they cheered, while
-they sympathized in her deep sorrow--she wrote to him in the fullest
-confidence, and detailed all matters of personal interest, with a
-minuteness that showed how welcome was the task of correspondence to
-her.
-
-The present despatch, after some slight sketch of his plans, which
-included an excursion of some months into Spain, and a few rapturous
-exclamations at the scenery, continued thus--"You say, 'now I have
-room enough in my heart to think of it, I begin to feel, in spite
-of Georgy's excessive kindness and generosity, a strangely, painful
-sensation, at times, that not even the clothes I wear, are, properly
-speaking, my own--shelter, food, all are hers; and though she never,
-I am certain, gives this a thought, I feel that it mars the equality,
-which is the soul of friendship--I feel strongly, though indistinctly
-that this must not, and cannot last; but I am, as yet, incapable of
-forming any future plan.'
-
-"All this is very natural, and exactly what I advised you and our
-dear departed friend against, when your cousin invited you to join
-her at Florence, last year. Dependency is a thing repugnant to human
-nature; but for the present it is right for you to stay where you
-are; so be patient, it will be time enough to talk of plans when we
-return, which will be soon, certainly before Christmas. I want to have
-you quietly to ourselves, away from finery and fashion, then we will
-settle everything. Meantime, as I consider you my adopted daughter,
-if you will allow me, you must just put the enclosed cheque in your
-dressing-box, as a sort of reserve, in case of foul weather--this is a
-mere sop to my fidgetty conscience, as I am too selfish to return home
-at once, to take care of you, which I believe it is my duty to do, and
-I shall have but small comfort if you refuse; pooh! my dear, it is only
-to oblige your old _maestro_!
-
-"I see our former acquaintance, Fred Egerton has been performing
-prodigies of valour against those wretched Sikhs--what deplorable
-insanity war is! I have no patience with such courage. Well, good
-night, I wish you could have a peep at the moon-lit mountain range,
-opposite my window. Ah! dear child, you have known much sorrow, but who
-can look on the exquisite loveliness, which earth, though cursed for
-our sins, still possesses, and doubt that boundless beneficence and
-wisdom alike framed our dwelling place, and directs the current of our
-lives, God bless you, Kate; my wife greets you, write soon.
-
- "Your true friend,
-
- "J. WINTER."
-
- * * * * *
-
-It may be derogatory to a heroine's character; but the truth must
-be confessed, that the consciousness of having fifty pounds in her
-dressing-box, was a great source of repose and security to ours;
-her own slender means were nearly exhausted, and the alternative of
-being literally penniless, though surrounded with every luxury, or
-mentioning the exhausted state of her purse to her open handed cousin,
-were most insupportable to her--then she could not bear that nurse
-should feel a want of any kind, and she not able to supply it. It was
-therefore with no small thankfulness, she penned a reply to her kind
-friend. Mr. Winter was one of those calm, rational, unselfish people, a
-compound seldom to be met with, from whom a favour may be safely taken.
-
-"See what Mr. Winter has sent me; a sort of birthday present before
-hand," said Kate, holding up the cheque to nurse.
-
-"Ah, how much, alanah?"
-
-"Fifty pounds, nurse."
-
-"Och, good christhians! think iv that now, athen, is'nt Misther Winther
-mighty like that little scrap iv paper himself, a thrifle to look
-at--but worth a power!"
-
-"Worth so much, that I for one, can never look upon the outward and
-visible sign of so much goodness, without respect and affection."
-
-"Thrue for ye, Miss Kate, an' so lock it up jewil, there's no sayin'
-the minnit ye may want it, I've sometimes a ton weight here, so I have,
-that's mighty quare, an' us in the haigth of grandeur, may be; but
-where's the use iv makin' ye down-hearted, darlint, wid me dhreams be
-day or night."
-
-"No, dear nurse," sighed Kate, "I do not wish to hear them."
-
-Monday morning dawned bright, but before noon, dark clouds rolled up
-from the horizon, Lady Desmond was looking royally beautiful, as she
-reclined in her bergère, her luxuriant, glossy black hair, braided
-under a small cap of exquisite lace; she was paler than usual, but
-there was a delicacy in her complexion, that contrasted favourably with
-her large, dark eyes, which looked up, at intervals, through their
-long, black lashes, with languid calmness, reminding Kate of the
-unnatural lull that preceeds a thunder storm.
-
-Kate was utterly dissimilar to the fair widow; her golden brown hair
-had a light in its waves--her high, calm brow, beneath which her soft
-eyes beamed with a glance, so earnest, and so pure--her girlish figure
-so graceful, and pliant, in its drapery of black--the air of deep
-repose, of unconscious harmony that pervaded every attitude and tone,
-all framed a totally different picture from the queen-like woman, who,
-sometimes arranging a few flowers she held in her hand, sometimes
-dropping them in her lap, heard, without attending to it, her cousin's
-voice, as she read aloud.
-
-The day was sultry; heavy, brassy-looking clouds obscured the sun, and
-the birds chirped in that low, sleepy tone, which always indicates a
-lowering sky, or a coming storm; and now and then a sudden warm breeze
-swept back the muslin curtains, and filled the atmosphere of the room
-with the rich perfume of the garden.
-
-"How oppressive! I can hardly breathe," said Kate, laying down the book
-which she found could not engage her cousin's attention, and walking
-towards the window.
-
-"Yes," said Lady Desmond, languidly, "draw up the blinds, Kate, to the
-top; let us have all the light and air we can."
-
-"If Lord Effingham is not here very soon he will get a wetting; I am
-sure we are on the edge of a thunder storm," observed Miss Vernon,
-after a pause.
-
-"Then you fancy he will come."
-
-"I do not think about it; but I find I anticipate his arrival as
-something quite certain; I confess I feel anxious to see how he will
-meet you, for he knows I repeated his--"
-
-"I will tell you," interrupted Lady Desmond, with a tinge of bitterness
-in her tone, "as if it could not be the slightest consequence to him,
-what my opinion, or that of any one upon earth may be."
-
-"What a character! but this must be acting!"
-
-"No, I believe his manner to be a true index of his mind; I have
-now known Lord Effingham for nearly two years; and I pronounce him
-incomprehensible, impenetrable; and yet," continued Lady Desmond,
-passionately, "as mystery has always proved the strongest attraction
-to man's mind, so I feel irresistibly impelled to gaze into an abyss,
-I cannot fathom, where everything seems uncertain and obscure; I
-am undecided whether he is the coldest of egotists, or a man of
-the strongest, deepest, most passionate feeling. Do you believe in
-mesmerism, Kate? I begin to do so; how otherwise can I account for
-the influence that unaccountable man exercises over me; I do not know
-whether I love or hate him. I must speak out to you, my own, dear one;
-let me tell you all that I have suffered!"
-
-"Dearest Georgy, though I hear you with pain, yes, a thousand times;
-but not now; every moment may bring the earl here, and he must not see
-you thus agitated; do not let him see any emotion; you must not let
-him think he has so much power; I dread his influence over you. _He is
-not good._ I always think of Milton's Satan, when I hear him speak."
-
-"And what a grand creature Milton's Satan is," cried Lady Desmond;
-"but, Kate, let me speak now."
-
-"Hush, hush," said Miss Vernon, again, and more eagerly stopping her.
-"I hear some one coming; and the door into the next room is open."
-
-Lady Desmond looked towards it, her dark eyes flashing eagerly;
-but her countenance rapidly assuming its usual expression of proud
-reserve; it was thrown open to its fullest extent, and the footman
-announced--"Colonel Dashwood;" and Kate, as she went forward to receive
-him, could not restrain a smile at the unexpected finale to their
-anticipations.
-
-Lady Desmond received the gallant Colonel with more than her usual
-suavity and grace; and he, notwithstanding his good nature, seemed
-more at ease than when alone with Kate, whose pale cheeks and tearful
-eyes forbade the gay badinage, which, truth to tell, formed Colonel
-Dashwood's principal stock in conversational trade, when Melton Mowbray
-and the moors, were not congenial topics.
-
-Lady Desmond, after the first moment of disappointment, felt the
-Colonel's visit to be a relief from her own stormy thoughts; and she
-entered fully into his light and lively conversation; while Kate,
-though silent, felt soothed and pleased, to have an old acquaintance
-thus restored to her, a sort of link with by-gone days, ever present
-to her. She sat near the window copying some manuscript music, for her
-cousin, to which she had taken a fancy, but oftener resting her head on
-her hand, half listening, half thinking.
-
-They were laughing at Colonel Dashwood's description of some adventure
-of his in Dublin; and he was looking very much at home, when Lord
-Effingham entered, unannounced; and, at the same moment, a vivid flash
-of lightning illuminated the apartment, which was gloomy as night.
-
-"I found your doors most hospitably open, Lady Desmond," said the Earl,
-advancing with his cool self-possession, "and meeting no one to oppose
-my progress, entered, with a flash of lightning, like the devil in Der
-Freyschutz."
-
-"I am glad you escaped the shower which is sure to follow," returned
-Lady Desmond, endeavouring to recover the double agitation, occasioned
-by the lightning and Lord Effingham's _entré_.
-
-"And now," he resumed, quite regardless of the thunder, which almost
-drowned his voice, and holding her hand, perhaps a moment longer than
-was strictly _selon les regles_, "now that you have, at last, permitted
-me to enter your presence, I must say, I see but little sign of the
-indisposition that banished your friends. Miss Vernon has been in
-league with you against us--I told her as much the other day--and she
-bristled up most indignantly; you must tell her I was right, and you
-were only fanciful, or--"
-
-"You hear Lord Effingham, Kate?" said Lady Desmond, gently.
-
-He turned and bowed to her, as if he now observed her for the first
-time, since his entrance; but his keen eye had noted each individual in
-the room, from the moment he crossed its threshold.
-
-Kate returned his salutation; and as she observed the transformation
-of Lady Desmond, from an unembarrassed talker, to a silent listener,
-absorbed in self-watchfulness and intense attention to every syllable
-that dropped from Lord Effingham's lips, she longed for Sabrina's power
-to free her from his unholy influence.
-
-"Lord Effingham, Colonel Dashwood," said Lady Desmond.
-
-The gentlemen bowed, and subsided into their respective seats.
-
-"I feel completely exhausted by the heat," said Lord Effingham, sinking
-back in his chair, "the heat and the cold of England are equally
-unendurable. We have enjoyed a thunder-storm in the Appenines, Lady
-Desmond; and you did not start then, as you did just now, when I
-entered; it is this heavy atmosphere."
-
-"Yes; yet the storm you mention was awfully grand--and at night, too."
-
- "'Oh, night,
- And storm and darkness, ye are wondrous strong,
- Yet lovely in your strength, as is the light
- Of a dark eye, in woman!'"
-
-said Lord Effingham, as if to himself; but, with a glance at Lady
-Desmond, while Colonel Dashwood was playing with Kate's pen-wiper, and
-talking of the band of the --th.
-
-Lady Desmond sighed, and looked away towards Kate, Lord Effingham
-following the direction of her eyes with his, smiled.
-
-"Miss Kate, agrah," said Mrs. O'Toole's voice, from the verandah,
-at that moment, "don't be sitting wid the winda wide open, an' the
-lightnin' strikin' right an' lift--sure it'll be powerin' cats and dogs
-in a minit;" and nurse's good-humoured face, though not quite so bright
-as in former days, beamed in on them. "The Lord save us! I beg yer
-pardon, me lady; sure I thought Miss Kate was all alone be herself, an'
-I niver thought to find--"
-
-"No apology, nurse," said Lady Desmond, good-humouredly.
-
-"Mrs. O'Toole," cried Colonel Dashwood, "I hope I am not quite
-forgotten;" and he stepped forward to greet her.
-
-"Faith, ye'r not, sir; sure, a dog that I remimbered at Dungar, would
-be light to me eyes, let alone a grand lookin' gintleman like yer
-honor!"
-
-"It is raining heavily already, nurse," said Lady Desmond, with whom
-Mrs. O'Toole was a great favourite; "come in, at once, and you can
-speak to Colonel Dashwood."
-
-"Och, Kurnel, what's the Captin doin'? an' where is he?"
-
-"Which Captain?" he returned; "I know so many."
-
-"Och, mee own Captin--him that I nursed through the faver!"
-
-"Oh, Captain Egerton; he is in India, and is a Colonel now; he has been
-doing wonders. I will tell him you were asking for him; he will be
-delighted."
-
-"Me blessin' on him, wherever he goes. Och, it's a weary sore world;"
-and she glanced at Kate, and wiped a tear from her eyes with the corner
-of her apron; then curtseying profoundly, retired, saying--"I'll niver
-forget the Captin, an' him that's gone. How happy they wer togather!"
-
-"Pray," said Lord Effingham, as she passed, "is your memory always
-equally good for every one and everything?"
-
-"I always had a wondherful memory, mee lord," said Mrs. O'Toole, with
-another low curtsey; "for it can remimber an' disremimber, mee lord!
-just what's convanient betimes!"
-
-"Very convenient," replied his lordship, with a laugh; "good morning."
-
-The storm of rain and thunder growing every moment fiercer and more
-loud, Lady Desmond ordered the windows to be fastened; and the party
-drew naturally closer together, while the vivid flashes of lightning,
-at intervals, displayed their countenances to each other; and Kate, her
-nerves not yet braced back to their former strength, almost blushed
-for her own cowardice, as she, sometimes, covered her face with her
-hands, and scarce could refrain from seizing the arm nearest her; but
-that arm was Lord Effingham's. At last, one fearful crash, and blinding
-blaze of light, the climax of the storm, startled her out of every
-consideration, save the momentary terror; covering her eyes with one
-hand, she stretched out the other blindly, catching Lord Effingham's
-arm in the involuntary grasp of alarm and leaning towards him; it was
-but for a moment, and she drew back.
-
-"By Jove, a thunder-bolt must have fallen," cried Colonel Dashwood,
-springing to the window, as if to look for it.
-
-Lady Desmond followed him.
-
-"It was of no use," said Lord Effingham, rapidly, in a low voice, to
-Kate; "you see my position is not the least shaken! why interfere
-between your cousin and myself?"
-
-"Would it give you pain if I succeeded?" she asked, in the same tone.
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Do you answer me in all sincerity?"
-
-"In all sincerity, I do."
-
-"Then I am satisfied."
-
-"Then we are friends--at least, not foes."
-
-Kate bent her head, and said, frankly--
-
-"I wish to _know_ you."
-
-Lord Effingham could only reply by a look of surprise, when Colonel
-Dashwood approached to take his leave. The Earl bowed formally to him.
-
-"I suppose I must not ask you to stay for dinner," said Lady Desmond.
-"It would not be _comme il faut_ for recluses such as Kate and myself
-to have so gay a guest as Lord Effingham!"
-
-"That is as you think," he returned; "I would, however, certainly stay,
-even on that faint shadow of an invitation, were I not unfortunately
-engaged to dine with a grand-aunt of mine, just arrived at the Palace.
-By the way, would you like to know her? she has two daughters. Miss
-Vernon might find them acceptable; young ladies are, you know,
-gregarious."
-
-"We shall be most happy to make your aunt's acquaintance," returned
-Lady Desmond.
-
-The Earl bowed, and departed.
-
-"I am weary, Kate--my head aches--I cannot speak to you to-day--some
-other time--I will go and lie down."
-
-"As you like, dear Georgy."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-REVELATIONS.
-
-
-Not many days elapsed before the cards of the Honourable Mrs. J. E.
-Meredyth, and the Misses Meredyth were laid on Lady Desmond's table;
-but it was some time before Kate saw them; for, feeling totally unequal
-to the society of strangers, she declined accompanying her cousin to
-return their visit, or to an evening party, which quickly followed the
-first interchange of formalities.
-
-She regretted, while she was too just to blame, her cousin's rapid
-oblivion of the sad scene so deeply engraven on her own memory,
-though she steadily endeavoured to cultivate a cheerful resignation,
-and sometimes was grateful for any interruption that drew her from
-the oppressive sadness and sense of loneliness, that often weighed
-on her spirits. Grief is something so repugnant to the young, that
-they involuntarily endeavour to throw it off. The morning sun gilds
-all things with its life-giving, beautifying light, it is only the
-lengthening shadows of evening to which tender sadness and lingering
-regret seem natural.
-
-And Kate's true-hearted efforts to submit unmurmuringly to her bitter
-loss, were seconded by her happy age; and again peace, like a dove,
-still fluttering its wings before settling in its nest, was slowly and
-surely returning to her.
-
-Lord Effingham's visits were not quite so frequent as before Lady
-Desmond's illness; but they were more agreeable to Kate; his manner
-was more real; he noticed her more--with the air of an elder relative,
-'tis true--yet with a quiet, unremitting attention, obvious enough to
-herself, though scarcely noticeable, save to a very keen observer.
-
-The terms on which he had placed himself with Lady Desmond rather
-puzzled her; he devoted much of his time to her, was evidently an
-admirer of her beauty and agreeability; yet Kate could not help
-thinking there was more of the old friend, of the _habitué_ of the
-house, than the lover, in his tone and manner. Lady Desmond seemed, on
-the whole, happy enough, and met the warm advances of Mrs. Meredyth
-very cordially.
-
-"How do you like your new acquaintance?" asked Kate, the morning after
-Mrs. Meredyth's _soirée_.
-
-"Oh, well enough; they are abundantly civil; but not at all the sort of
-people you would fancy Lord Effingham's relatives to be. Madame Mere
-is fat and fair, and wonderfully preserved; she looks like his aunt,
-not grand-aunt; she is grave and quiet; the daughters are _very_ young
-ladies, of about thirty, I should think; they are scarcely good style;
-and I thought they would positively devour Colonel Dashwood and a Mr.
-Burton, and some other dragoons, who embellished the entertainment."
-
-"Burton!" repeated Kate; "I remember--"
-
-"And so does he," interrupted Lady Desmond; "Colonel Dashwood
-introduced him to me, and asked permission to bring him here to-day;
-he enquired for you very particularly, and said he had heard a great
-deal of you from a Captain or Colonel Egerton, a great ally of yours, I
-suspect."
-
-Kate sighed.
-
-"Was Lord Effingham there?"
-
-"Yes, rather to my astonishment; he seemed horridly bored, I could
-see that; for the species of worship offered to him, both by aunt and
-cousins, is exactly the sort of thing to disgust him."
-
-"If the Miss Meredyths are constantly engaged in devouring dragoons,
-and worshipping Lord Effingham, they must be busy indeed," said Kate.
-
-"From what I could gather, Lord Effingham's presence was rather an
-unusual favour; however, we are to be great friends; I must have
-them to dine here some day, or to a strawberry and cream supper, or
-something of that sort; only I am afraid you do not feel up to it, dear
-Kate; but if you do not mind--"
-
-"Oh, pray do not think of me, Georgy, I am always glad to see you
-amused; I can steal away if I find myself unequal to be agreeable--or--"
-
-"No, no," interrupted Lady Desmond, in her turn. "Dear love, you shall
-not be teased, only I think it would do you good."
-
-And Kate saw the point was decided against her.
-
-"I wish very much, Georgy, you would allow me to invite Mrs. Storey to
-spend a day here; I ought to go and see her; but I feel I cannot go
-there yet; if you have no engagement next week."
-
-"Oh, ask her, by all means; she was very civil, I remember; stay, I
-will write the note; you can enclose it; and, while we are about it,
-let us ask the husband; he is something terrific, is he not?"
-
-"Yes, indeed, he is."
-
-"Do not look so grave about it," said Lady Desmond, laughing; "let us
-go to the drawing-room--my desk is there."
-
-As Kate usually chose those hours, when the gardens were free from
-the band and mob to wander there, she did not meet Lady Desmond's new
-friends until the evening of her _soirée_, which was a very agreeable
-little impromptu meeting--the guests verbally invited in the morning
-of the same day, when the band had assembled the few inhabitants of
-Hampton Court in one focus. Yet Kate shrank from this unwonted gaiety
-as from a desecration.
-
-Nurse strove to cheer her up.
-
-"Sure, it'll do ye good, jewil, an' plaise mee lady, so come now,
-smile, for yer poor ould nurse."
-
-The Meredyths arrived rather late; and Miss Vernon was obliged to
-remain near Lady Desmond until introduced to them, before she retreated
-to the small drawing-room, away from the noise and excitement of the
-bagatelle board, round which Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell and some young
-ladies, who came under her chaperonage, were gathered, all eagerly
-exercising their skill against divers and sundry dragoons, contributed
-by Colonel Dashwood, at Lady Desmond's request, to assist her in
-entertaining her guests.
-
-Mrs. and the Miss Meredyths were rather over dressed for so small a
-party. Their noisy entry, and loud laughter, repelled Kate, though she
-endeavoured to second her cousin's evident wish that she should know
-them better; so suppressing her inclination to retreat, she listened
-patiently to the reiterated assurances of their desire to make her
-acquaintance.
-
-But Kate's calm, gentle manner, and polite replies, proved faint
-counter-attractions to the invitations from the bagatelle party; and
-the high-spirited Miss Meredyths were soon immersed in all the interest
-of that scientific game.
-
-Kate, at Lady Desmond's request, led Mrs. Meredyth into the inner
-drawing-room, to show her some beautiful water-color drawings, of
-scenes in the Appenines, which Lady Desmond had purchased at Florence.
-
-They had the room to themselves, and Kate soon perceived that it a was
-very interesting work to her companion, who never failed to ask some
-well put, leading query during the replacing of each drawing, as to
-the duration of her nephew's acquaintance with Lady Desmond, or her
-connections, estates, &c., at which Kate, unworldly as she was, could
-not avoid smiling.
-
-It was with evident relief that she heard Lady Desmond enter, saying--
-
-"If you will accept me as a partner, _faute de mieux_, my dear Mrs.
-Meredyth, Lady Elizabeth will manage to have her rubber; I expected Dr.
-----, the veteran physician before alluded to; but if you will bear
-with my errors till he comes--"
-
-"You are very good, Lady Desmond; only it is too bad to ask you to play
-whist at your age."
-
-And Mrs. Meredyth rose gladly. Kate stayed to look over some of the
-drawings that remained, and to replace them in their portfolio, wishing
-she could escape from a collection of strangers, all of whom were
-uninteresting to her.
-
-Burton had not yet made his appearance, and she hoped to have some
-conversation with him; for the morning he had called, she was out. So
-she stood gazing at a drawing, resting her arm on the top of a _prie
-dieu_ chair, and thinking of Fred Egerton, when Lord Effingham said,
-gently, and close to her--
-
-"I thought I should find you here."
-
-She started slightly, but turned to him with a smile, for, seeing how
-much her cousin's feelings were interested in his behalf, she was,
-as she had told him, anxious to know him better; and, her mind fully
-occupied with the impression of his admiration of Lady Desmond, the
-possibility of his ever bestowing a thought upon herself, save as a
-friend and relative of hers, never crossed it. She was, therefore,
-rather glad to have a little _tete-à-tete causerie_ with him.
-
-"I have been showing these drawings to Mrs. Meredyth, but she has gone
-to play whist with Georgy, who detests cards. We must endeavour to
-rescue her."
-
-"Not yet, if you please, Miss Vernon," returned Lord Effingham, looking
-fixedly at her, "I so seldom have an opportunity of saying a word
-to you, uninterrupted by some one or other, that you must forgive me
-if I rush abruptly into the apology I have been so anxious to make
-for the last fortnight. The day in the Palace Garden," he continued,
-rapidly--"when you scornfully informed me that you disdained any
-friendship with so forward and ill-bred a fellow as myself--I reminded
-you of that dog. It was in total ignorance of----. But I see I am only
-paining you. Lady Desmond told me, and I have been burning to assure
-you of my deep regret. I trust you will believe my assurance that no
-irritation would ever have tempted me, knowingly, to revive any memory
-distressing to you."
-
-He uttered these with an earnest softness that surprised Miss Vernon,
-so complete was the transformation it created in his look and manner.
-
-"I never accused you, even in thought, of such cruelty," she returned,
-anxious to relieve his evident anxiety, "so say no more about it, I
-entreat."
-
-"But the gesture of repugnance, with which you turned from me, I cannot
-forget it."
-
-"Did I," said Kate, blushing at the idea of having wounded the feelings
-of any one; "I was unaware, but, if you reflect for a moment, you will
-acknowledge it was natural, just then, you know I felt sick at heart."
-
-Lord Effingham's dark cheek flushed for an instant, he bit his lips.
-
-"Yet you say you forgive me."
-
-"And I do," she returned, "I could not resent an unintentional offence."
-
-He smiled, a very different smile from those that usually darkened
-rather than illuminated his countenance, and Kate, thought, "perhaps
-that might have been the expression of it in childhood."
-
-He held out his thin, nervous, resolute looking hand, with a look of
-entreaty and an expressive--
-
-"Then if----."
-
-Kate, who had not an atom of prudery, and was anxious to make up for
-the gesture of repugnance, he had so forcibly described, put her own
-frankly into it; he raised it for a moment, to his lips, and said,
-lightly, half in jest, half earnest--
-
-"And on this hand I renounce my evil ways."
-
-She withdrew her hand quickly, but before she could make any reply,
-Lord Effingham said--
-
-"Let us look at these exquisite views; Lady Desmond, the Wentworths,
-and myself, made many expeditions among the Appenines. Where were you
-then, Miss Vernon?"
-
-He asked this in a tone as if he remembered, with amazement, having
-enjoyed any thing where she was not; but Kate did not notice it, for,
-transported back to former scenes, by his question, she answered, with
-a sigh--
-
-"Ah, I was then very happy!"
-
-Lord Effingham looked up at her, and as her eyes were bent down,
-quite regardless of him, he permitted a slight smile to mingle in the
-admiring glance that rested on her.
-
-"Have you seen Lady Desmond?" she enquired, raising her eyes to his
-with a vague sort of notion that she ought not to remain there in
-that quiet room, with its books and pictures, _tête-à-tête_, with her
-cousin's lover.
-
-"No, I came here to ask you where she was, _remember_!"
-
-"Why, am I to remember? do you wish me to tell her?"
-
-"As you like," said Lord Effingham, carelessly, and turning to the
-drawings, began to speak of their merits, and of the artist who took
-the views, in a clear, simple, forcible manner which interested
-Miss Vernon greatly. She had always felt that her companion was
-possessed of talent, though his indolence seldom permitted him to
-display it in conversation; and she now listened with pleasure to his
-unwonted agreeability. Lady Desmond was frequently the subject of
-his comments, which were always flattering, but expressed with an air
-of calm, deliberate approbation, equally unlike his usually sneering
-indifference, or a lover's warmth; yet his memory appeared to be
-wonderfully distinct as to her doings; in one place, she had ordered
-her picture from a distressed artist, and retrieved his fortunes by her
-liberal payment and patronage.
-
-"It was in Italy, you know, where the necessaries of life are not
-worth double their weight in gold," added Lord Effingham. Or it was
-her courage and self-possession in a thunder-storm, or her taste in
-an _al-fresco_ entertainment; but though thus constantly referred to,
-there was an occasional glimpse shown of her pride, her imperiousness,
-or her impatience, never condemned, but hinted at more by a tone, a
-glance, a smile than by words.
-
-Kate listened intently, fancying she had got the clue to his strange
-indecision as regarded her cousin, and gradually determining that he
-only hesitated to declare the love, she was sure he felt, because he
-feared that the existence of such qualities were not calculated to make
-a home happy.
-
-"He does not know her noble nature or her value, and she always appears
-to greater disadvantage with him than with any one else. Perhaps I may
-be able to clear this up," she thought. "And, after all, he may be
-a better man than I imagined," so she listened, resting her clasped
-hands on the top of the chair by which she stood, her head inclined
-gently to one side, a slight pleased smile curving her lip, and
-showing the pearly teeth, while he, compelling himself to speak of the
-drawing he held, instead of indulging his natural indolence in silent
-contemplation of the sweet face before him, his back to the door, was
-first conscious that their solitude was broken in upon by her change of
-countenance and position. He turned just as Colonel Dashwood, entering
-said--
-
-"I have been looking for you, Miss Vernon, to present Mr. Burton,"
-waving his hand to that gentleman who accompanied him, inwardly
-consigning his Colonel to the inferno of busy bodies, for having so
-pertinaciously sought Miss Vernon, and interrupted a second interesting
-_tête-à-tête_.
-
-Miss Vernon's cordial and unembarrassed manner set him at ease,
-however, and Lord Effingham, in an unusually amiable mood, exerted
-himself to cultivate Dashwood, so the _partie quarré_ progressed into a
-sociable exchange of trivialities, when their number was encreased by
-the approach of Lady Desmond, who entered with a look of restlessness,
-Kate knew well how to interpret.
-
-"Some one said you had arrived, Lord Effingham," she said.
-
-"I could not see you in the next room, and came here to look for you,"
-he replied, smiling. "But the awful intelligence that you were playing
-whist with my aunt rendered me incapable of further exertion. Is that
-sacrifice accomplished?"
-
-"Yes, I have done my duty."
-
-"And I have been living over some very pleasant days again," he
-returned, glancing at the drawings, "and prosing to Miss Vernon on the
-same subject; but I must pay my respects to Mrs. Meredyth," and he
-offered his arm to Lady Desmond.
-
-Miss Vernon continued to converse a little longer with Colonel Dashwood
-and Mr. Burton; but neither mentioned Fred Egerton, till Kate,
-apprehending she might be asked to contribute towards the music, now
-superseding the bagatelle, complained of fatigue, and wished them "good
-night."
-
-"I am glad I shall be able to tell my friend Fred Egerton I met you,
-Miss Vernon," said Burton, "I kept my letter open for the purpose, as
-he always asks me for some intelligence of his old friends, though I
-do not think he seems inclined to return to them."
-
-"Quite right," said Colonel Dashwood, "he has made an excellent start
-in India; good night, Miss Vernon; I will tell Lady Desmond you have
-beat a retreat."
-
-"Good night," and soon after the party broke up.
-
-Lord Effingham drove home by moonlight; but his thoughts were too
-darkly chaotic for us to fathom.
-
-The Miss Meredyths, in council over their "_toilettes de nuit_,"
-decided that whether "Eff" married Lady Desmond or not, it was well
-worth their while to cultivate her acquaintance, and Burton, throwing
-off his uniform, and drawing his writing-table to an open window,
-proceeded to add a P.S. to his letter.
-
- "I have just returned from a tranquil little Arcadian evening party
- at Lady Desmond's, where I was introduced to your old acquaintance,
- Miss Vernon, and I am half inclined to forgive you all the nonsense
- you used to talk about her; though she looks pale and pensive, I think
- she is still more lovely than she was at that ball, where we saw her,
- two years ago. I fancy I can account for the present quietism and
- irreproachable life of the rather notorious Lord Effingham. He came
- in for old St. L's beautiful villa near Richmond, some time ago, and
- is nominally living there; but, in reality, is here every day, and
- all day, and the gossips are puzzled; because if Lady Desmond is the
- attraction, they could have married any time these two years; but,
- from what I have seen, I am certain it is your friend Miss Vernon who
- will be Countess of Effingham. In short, I am pretty sure they are
- engaged; I hope he may make a tolerable husband, for she deserves well
- I am certain. This is my latest intelligence--so, good night, old
- fellow, and do not keep me six months waiting for a reply to this."
-
-Kate was sitting, near the window, in her room, waiting until the
-household had sunk into silence before she laid down to sleep, when the
-door was softly opened by Lady Desmond, who entered, saying--
-
-"Are you awake? Oh! you have not gone to bed."
-
-"Dear Georgy!" exclaimed Miss Vernon, rising to meet her, "I hope you
-did not think me rude for running away so selfishly, but--"
-
-"Not a word more," interrupted her cousin, passing her arm caressingly
-round her, "you were right to do as you felt inclined--indeed I fear I
-was inconsiderate in asking you to join us, nor was there anything very
-attractive in our guests."
-
-There was a pause for some moments; and then, Lady Desmond, drawing
-Kate closer to the window, asked--
-
-"Are you sleepy, love?"
-
-"No, dear Georgy, not in the least."
-
-"Then I will resume my revelations. I have not felt in the mood to do
-so before, and you were wise and kind not to urge me."
-
-"Go on then, dearest," said Kate, "I long to hear your story."
-
-"When first I met Lord Effingham at Naples," began Lady Desmond,
-withdrawing her arm from Kate, and resting the other against the
-window-frame, "I had been rather bored by the perpetual gossip about
-him always floating in the society there, and, at the same time, I was
-intensely fatigued by the utter absence of anything like interest in
-the world at large. I had no particular object--I was so perfectly my
-own mistress--I had not even the excitement of imagining what I would
-do if I could, for I had the power of accomplishing every rational
-wish. I was wearied of the excessive attentions and admiration of a
-dozen needy adorers, and, in short, _ennuye'd_. In this happy and
-commendable frame of mind, I dragged myself listlessly to a birthday
-dinner at the English Ambassador's; and accident placed me next a
-gentleman, so quietly _distingué_, that nine out of ten observers,
-would not have noticed him; my attention was attracted by his being a
-stranger in a circle where each was known to each, and I was rather
-surprised when Lady W---- introduced him to me as Lord Effingham.
-He handed me down to dinner; but if I give you all these frivolous
-particulars, I shall not come to the end of my story until morning.
-There was an indescribable fascination for me in his manner. You must
-have observed the sense of power it conveys--the impression that there
-is something ever to be revealed, which you can never fathom, while
-he reads all your thoughts; the constant air of cool indifference you
-have seen; but the occasional softness, so exquisite in its flattering
-suggestions, you have not. Ah, Kate, I little thought as I drove
-home that night, feeling life had still something left to wish for,
-something still to excite, that the time would come when I as ardently
-desired to have that passage wiped away from my existence.
-
-"I met Lord Effingham in society frequently, and he was the only man,
-amongst those of our circle, who did not enter himself as an aspirant
-for my smiles--to use the wretched _jargon_ of those idlers--I will
-not say this piqued me. Pique is too weak, too French a term, to
-express the scorn of myself, with which his neglect filled me; he
-only considered me a fitting object of admiration for the vulgar
-mob. Yet there was a sympathy between us, that, though we seldom
-spoke, linked us strangely. Gradually--I cannot tell how it was--we
-became more intimate, and my very soul was absorbed in the intense
-longing to make him feel that I was not powerless. At length, I saw
-I was admired--I read it in his eyes a thousand times, and no longer
-unoccupied and listless, every faculty at its fullest stretch, both
-to feel and to conceal what I felt; for I dreaded either the world,
-or Lord Effingham, obtaining even the slightest clue to the state of
-my mind; then, Kate, then, for the first time, I tasted all the wild
-excitement--all the concentrated vitality of which life is capable."
-
-Lady Desmond's eyes dilated, and Kate felt her own veins thrill with
-the contagious passion that inspired her cousin's words.
-
-"Still," resumed Lady Desmond, "I was unconscious that, in my
-efforts to rivet chains on so untamable a captive, I had only twined
-them closely round myself. This did not last long; his excessive
-variability opened my eyes; though the tenderest accents had breathed
-the well-adapted line from my favorite poet in tones that rendered its
-application unmistakeable, though the interruption of our slightest
-conversation was avoided as unendurable in the evening, the next
-morning would find him so utterly cold, indifferent, almost forgetful,
-that I shrunk from the power so remorselessly displayed, and fled.
-
-"Whether the novelty of my seeming indifference--for so far, I acted
-bravely, Kate--was not yet '_fletri_,' or whether he was sick of
-Naples, I do not know, but he followed me to Florence, and told me,
-with the calm gravity of seeming truth, that Naples was insupportable
-without me. I believed him--nay, I think he spoke what he then felt.
-I was again lapped in Elysium; he was less variable--I did not care
-to think of the future, I was no longer strong enough to preserve the
-guard I had hitherto kept. His haughty iron-spirit mastered mine--he
-saw it, and left Florence for England.
-
-"I will not dwell on that miserable year--I cannot--for I only remember
-a dark chaos of black misery and despair--an eternal effort to seem
-what I was not. All this is incomprehensible to you, Kate--may it ever
-be so. I despise myself; at this moment I hate Lord Effingham; but yet
-I would give every hope here, almost every hope hereafter, to see him
-at my feet--to hear him say, 'I love you,'--this wild longing to touch
-his heart; the conviction that no effort of mine can do so; the glimpse
-of his love; the long cold night of his indifference; and, worse than
-all, the irritating sense of slavery to his will, is death to me. Yet
-I have striven against it; I vowed I would not return to England while
-it contained him, and you know how I kept my vow--aye, in despite of
-duty. And when I did come, I believed he was in Paris. And must I live
-through all this again? Why does he seek me to torture me? I scarcely
-gave him the civil encouragement to call on me, required by the usages
-of society. And yet, I fear, he sees too well how vainly I struggle
-against his influence.
-
-"His questions to you, when I endeavored to gain a few days' quiet
-reflection, uninterrupted by his disturbing presence, they were
-strange, yet they showed interest. Oh, Kate, Kate, can you read this
-riddle for me? my experience is all at fault; what say the instincts
-of your fresh heart?"
-
-"He loves you," cried Kate, much moved by her cousin's recital; and she
-spoke her true conviction, "he must love you, and we do not know what
-motives he may have. Yet, I fear he must be selfish, and cold-hearted,
-to think so little of your feelings. Oh, dear Georgy, try not to love
-him; how can you love where you do not trust? pray to God to help you,
-and make up your mind to endure a little present pain, in the hope of
-future peace; let us leave this place, and go away from him--he has no
-right to make you wretched--let us go."
-
-"No--impossible," said Lady Desmond, faintly, as if wearied by her own
-emotions. "Never was the spell so strong on me as now. I cannot--nay
-more, Kate, I _will_ not break it; do not look so sadly, so shocked.
-I will be reasonable; you said just now we could not know his
-motives--fate seems to have thrown us together again--for God knows I
-came down here to get out of London, lest he might suddenly re-appear,
-to make me writhe under the consciousness of my thraldom. Let us see
-what another month may disclose. I feel that, before long, all doubt
-will be at an end, though now, at times, I think he loves me."
-
-"Yes, he loves you--he must," cried Kate, gazing on Lady Desmond's
-beautiful face, as, glowing with the animation her reminiscences had
-called up, "but he loves himself better."
-
-"Then I am free," returned her cousin, "he is too grand a creature to
-be selfish--no there is none like him. Whatever his faults may be, they
-are not petty--he can love. We will remain here another month. What do
-you advise?"
-
-"Whatever I advise, dear Georgy, you will stay; and perhaps it is
-better to give Lord Effingham a fair trial, though he might follow us;
-at all events, you do not quite disapprove my counsel, I would fain
-have you go."
-
-"Do not ask me, I cannot; but is not that two o'clock--to bed--to bed,
-Kate, how could I have kept you up so late. Good night."
-
-"God bless you, and give you peace, dear Georgy--good night."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-AN ECLAIRCISSEMENT.
-
-
-The note of invitation, which Lady Desmond had despatched to Mrs.
-Storey, was quickly answered in the affirmative; that worthy woman
-having a strongly marked preference for fashion and the aristocracy,
-though if the truth must be told, it was an act of heroic accordance,
-with her principles to spend an entire day with Lady Desmond, who had
-impressed her with a sincere feeling of awe.
-
-"Mrs. Storey has much pleasure in accepting my polite invitation. _Cela
-va sans dire_; write, Kate dear, and say I will send the carriage to
-meet her at Kingston. Mr. Storey is engaged till six o'clock, but will
-come down for her, _tant mieux_."
-
-Kate felt her cousin's civility to her friend as the most delicate
-kindness, and thanked her with an eloquent glance.
-
-Lady Desmond seemed to cling more to Miss Vernon since she had made the
-confession detailed in the last chapter; she had seemed more cheerful,
-and hopeful too, as if relieved by her confidence in another--her
-manner with Lord Effingham, had more of frankness and courage, and he,
-ever keen and quick, was evidently aware of some change in the mind,
-or heart, he knew so well; and for the moment seemed roused from his
-habitual indifference to a deeper and more palpable interest. Kate
-watched all this anxiously. "Is he afraid of losing her," she thought.
-"Ah, if she would try to _be_, and not merely to _seem_, careless of
-him, she would bind him to her--there is something so irresistible in
-the evidence of truth. But how foolish--how worthless it all is--they
-are both too prosperous to love in earnest!"
-
- "In climes full of sunshine, though splendid their dyes,
- But faint are the odours, the flowers shed about,
- 'Tis the mist, and the clouds of our own weeping skies,
- That draw their full spirit of fragrancy out.
- So the wild glow of passion, may kindle from mirth;
- But 'tis only in grief, true affection appears--
- To the magic of smiles, it may first owe its birth,
- But the soul of its sweetness is drawn out by tears."
-
-Kate no longer avoided Lord Effingham, she readily accepted every
-opportunity of conversing with him, though each day showed her how
-vain were her attempts to penetrate his real sentiments; all things,
-however, wore a smiling aspect the morning she drove to Kingston, to
-meet Mrs. Storey.
-
-"I am sure, Miss Vernon, this is most polite and attentive, and I am
-truly rejoiced to see you looking so much better, but the hair at
-'Ampton Court is the best in world; and how is Lady Desmond, &c., &c."
-
-Kate was really glad to see the good-natured garrulous little woman,
-and the sincere, kindly tone of her enquiries for Mr. Storey, and the
-children touched her guest's heart.
-
-"Indeed, I always tell Mr. S. that you are not one of your forgetful
-people, that never remember a former friend, when you have got grand,
-new ones."
-
-"I should indeed be sorry to be so worthless as to forget all your
-kindness to me and mine," returned Kate, warmly. "I would have gone
-to see you before this, but I cannot yet bring myself to go to that
-neighbourhood; before we leave this part of the world, however I
-certainly will."
-
-"Oh dear, yes, Miss Vernon, remember I count on a week or fortnight, or
-as long as your cousin will spare you. I suppose you will never leave
-her now, until you go to a house of your own?"
-
-"That I cannot tell," returned Kate; "at present, at all events,
-probably until this terrible lawsuit of mine, which is still dragging
-on, is decided, I shall remain with her."
-
-"Well you must come to me for a few days soon, at all events, though I
-cannot offer you the same grandeur and elegance, you are accustomed to
-here."
-
-"My dear Mrs. Storey, you know what I was accustomed to when you
-first showed me kindness and attention; but tell me something of your
-brother."
-
-The meridian sun streamed fully on them, for the last part of their
-drive, and Mrs. Storey, who was an eager talker, and was excited by
-the meeting with Kate, looked painfully red and heated, by the time
-the carriage stopped at the old fashioned, iron gates, leading into
-the garden, before Lady Desmond's house; and as they were ushered into
-the cool, fragrant drawing-room, with its open windows, darkened by
-Venetian blinds, and breathing an atmosphere of simple refinement,
-Kate could hardly refrain from a smile, at the contrast between Lady
-Desmond's calm courteous manner, and fresh, undisturbed appearance, and
-the flushed, fussy guest--she rose to receive so graciously.
-
-Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell, and Colonel Dashwood came in, during
-luncheon, much to Mrs. Storey's edification, though she sat listening,
-rather silently, to their animated talk of people and things all
-unknown to her.
-
-"I am sorry," said Kate, turning to her, "this is not one of the days
-on which the band performs; it is a very good one, though I have only
-heard it from a distance."
-
-"If you like I will order them to play this afternoon," said Colonel
-Dashwood. "Say the word, and they shall be ready by the time you have
-expended your admiration on the Vandykes, &c., which you are going to
-see."
-
-"By all means, Colonel Dashwood," cried Lady Desmond, who dreaded the
-unoccupied afternoon, "Mrs. Storey would, I am sure, like it."
-
-"Really," replied that lady, rather confused at the idea of so much
-power being exerted for her amusement, "Colonel Dashwood, you are very
-good, if it is not too much trouble."
-
-"Trouble; oh, none whatever," he said, smiling and bowing to Mrs.
-Storey. "Lady Desmond, perhaps you will send one of your people with
-Colonel Dashwood's compliments, to Mr. Clark, the band master, and say
-he wishes the band should play on the terrace-walk, in about an hour
-and a half."
-
-When they had prepared for their proposed lounge (and Mrs. Storey
-felt almost ashamed of Lady Desmond's coarse straw bonnet, with its
-simple black ribbon), they found that Lord Effingham had added himself
-to their party, and stood talking to Colonel Dashwood in one of the
-windows. His quick eye rested for a moment on Mrs. Storey's finery,
-with an expression of calm curiosity, as one might notice some unusual
-specimen in the Zoological Gardens.
-
-Lady Desmond immediately presented him to her, with the same easy
-politeness she would have shown towards a duchess, and he, bowing
-profoundly, observed--
-
-"You are going picture gazing! allow me to join your party, I have not
-seen the paintings here since my raspberry jam, and peg-top days."
-
-Lady Desmond, and Mrs. Storey, escorted by Colonel Dashwood, walked
-first, Lady Elizabeth took Kate's arm, and Lord Effingham sauntered by
-her side.
-
-"This is too much for me," panted Lady Elizabeth, "I cannot pass my own
-door, and, I am only delaying you from your friend; tell Lady Desmond I
-broke down on the road--pray ring that bell for me, my lord; thank you,
-good-bye."
-
-"Pray," said Lord Effingham, as he and Kate continued to walk, side by
-side, "where did Lady Desmond pick up that curious specimen of the
-genus woman?"
-
-"She did not pick her up, I did--or rather she picked me up, and
-showed me kind and respectful attention, when less curious specimens
-of the human race had the taste and discernment to class me, with the
-children's maids, and nurses, frequenting Kensington Gardens."
-
-"Fairly hit, and deserved, I confess; yet I had hoped you were
-magnanimous enough to have buried that egregious mistake in oblivion."
-
-"So I do in general, and only remember it when your contempt for
-something I know to be good, though, perhaps unprepossessing in
-appearance, recalls to my mind the unfairness of judging the Lord
-Effingham to-day by the uncourteous stranger of last winter."
-
-He bit his lips in silence for a moment, and then, with a smile of
-unusual frankness, said--
-
-"A retort from Miss Vernon is like a hair trigger in the hands of an
-angel with shining wings and snowy drapery; leave such carnal weapons
-to your imperial cousin; truth, simple and earnest, is at once your
-shield and spear; better say at once what is now in your mind, without
-circumlocution. 'You despise a good and a useful woman, who is worth a
-whole nation of '_vaut riens_,' like yourself.' Eh, Miss Vernon?"
-
-"That is rather too strong," said Kate, laughing.
-
-"Nevertheless, I have read your thoughts--I often do--I can read your
-cousin's; what a different book! Yet she is a splendid creature--how
-desperately--"
-
-And Kate, listening with all her soul, was almost startled into a
-scream by a sudden hand laid on her arm, and a breathless voice
-exclaiming--
-
-"I have just seen Lady Elizabeth, Miss Vernon, and I ran after you to
-hear what all this arrangement about the band is. Ah, how do you do,
-Effingham?"
-
-And the two Miss Meredyths were incorporated in their party.
-
-The rest of the day passed over pleasantly enough; the pictures, the
-band, and the gardens kept them free from those "awful pauses" which so
-often desolate a day spent with country friends; while Lord Effingham's
-unwonted exertions to please and amuse Lady Desmond, _pro tem._ hushed
-every doubt, and enabled her to bear up heroically under the rampant
-agreeability of poor Mr. Storey at dinner.
-
-"Well, my dear," cried his wife, as she was putting on her bonnet,
-previous to her departure, "I am sure I have had the most delightful
-day, and, what is the best of all, is the prospect of such happiness
-and success before you--a more elegant man I never met, and so taken up
-with you--"
-
-"What are you talking about?" asked Kate.
-
-"Lord Effingham to be sure; and--"
-
-"How can you imagine such nonsense, dear Mrs. Storey," cried Kate, "it
-is too absurd, for--"
-
-But Lady Desmond's entrance cut short their conversation; a
-profusion of farewell speeches followed--promises from Kate to visit
-them--assurances from the visitors of their content--a large bouquet
-from Lady Desmond--and they were gone.
-
-Time rolled on with a pleasant sameness for the remainder of the month
-of trial agreed on by the cousins. Kate entered more into the little
-society which assembled two or three times a week at Lady Desmond's
-house, and the fair widow herself began a line of conduct to which, as
-she felt Kate would be much opposed, she always endeavoured to avoid
-any allusion when they were alone. Colonel Dashwood was unmistakeably
-"_epris_" with the beautiful widow; and she, though scarcely
-encouraging him, certainly showed a preference for his society,
-intended to pique Lord Effingham. Once only did Kate venture to hint at
-the imprudence of such a proceeding.
-
-"It can never be successful, for it is untrue; Lord Effingham does not
-appear to notice it, and it is a cruel injustice to a kind-hearted,
-honourable man, who loves you. I am afraid. Dear Georgy, this is
-miserable work, it will destroy your better nature--let us leave this
-place. Forgive me for asking, but how can you prefer the uncertain
-selfishness of the Earl, clever and polished as he is, to that frank,
-manly, high-bred, Colonel Dashwood? I wish you would love him instead."
-
-"Kate," cried Lady Desmond, almost angrily, "how can you accuse me of
-such deceitful conduct? Colonel Dashwood is a man of the world and
-can take care of himself. I beg you will not misunderstand me so much
-again. I shall leave this in a few weeks--till then, have patience
-before you condemn me."
-
-"I do not condemn you, dearest; I only wish to see you happy," said
-Kate, anxiously.
-
-"Indeed I believe you, _cara miâ_," said Lady Desmond, relaxing from
-the air of hauteur with which she had last spoken. "Let us, however,
-drop the disagreeable subject."
-
-And Kate felt she had been treading on forbidden ground.
-
-She retired to her own room after this conversation, and seating
-herself on the window-seat, thought long though vaguely of the species
-of unhappy cloud thus thrown over her cousin's life, by the tenacious
-grasp she had permitted an absorbing passion to take of her heart,
-hiding from her the beauties and the pleasures which might have colored
-her life.
-
-"How terrible to be thus dependent for happiness on the smiles or
-frowns of a cold-hearted man. Ah! if my own beloved grandpapa was
-alive, she would listen to him."
-
-And at that remembrance, her thoughts took a different direction, and
-dwelt long and sadly on the kind and venerated old man.
-
-Then again the restlessness which ever seized her when she reflected on
-her utter dependence, returned with startling force, and she felt as if
-she could, at that moment, set out to seek her fortune alone.
-
-"I will do so, ere long," she thought, "I cannot live always thus; but,
-for the present, I must wait. Until Mr. Winter's return--he is so wise,
-so practical--and I must consider poor nurse before myself. Oh, what
-an utter change since the day when I walked into the dear old priory
-drawing-room with my poor Cormac, and found Colonel Egerton there."
-
-And his face, and figure, and voice returned to her memory at her
-spirits' call, and she longed, with that intensity with which the
-prisoner in the body's cage strains itself against its bounds in
-unutterable pining to devour space--the wish to see him once more,
-to tell him all about her grandfather's death--her own deep sorrows,
-absorbed her fancy, and the hours rolled on while she listened in
-imagination to his rich, full, frank voice--
-
- "Memory may mock thee with the tones
- So well-known and so dear--
- 'Tis but an echo of the past,
- That cheats the longing ear;
- And thou must strive, and think, and hope,
- And hush each trembling sigh,
- And struggle onward in the way
- Thy destined course doth lie."
-
-"Och! are ye all alone be yerself, asthore?" asked nurse, entering,
-"an' the big salt tears rowlin' down yer face. What was it vexed
-ye--tell yer own nurse?"
-
-"Nothing, dear nurse. I was only thinking," returned Kate, drying her
-eyes, and endeavoring to smile; "is it time to dress?"
-
-"Nearly, asthore!"
-
-"I wonder Mr. Winter has not written; my last letter remains
-unanswered," observed Kate, after a silence of some minutes.
-
-"Ye'll have one to-morrow, acushla," said Mrs. O'Toole, who was always
-ready to promise herself, and those she loved every possible good, in
-prospect. "An faith ye hav'nt ten minutes left to dress, an' all thim
-grand officers an' ladies to be here to-night; sure I'm as plaised as
-if I was made Lady Liftinant, to see ye among yer own sort again; not
-goin to thim shopkeepin gintry, at Bayswather, me heavy hatred to it.
-Thim Miss Merrydeaths, are mighty agreeable young ladies, I see thim
-walkin the other day, laughin like grigs they wor; what a quare name
-they have, sure it's no wondher they're wishin to change it."
-
-"Are they?" asked Kate, smiling.
-
-"To be sure they are, it's not natral for thim to be sich playful
-kittins at their time in life, but may be if they wer quite, they'd be
-mistakin for full grown cats."
-
-"Really, nurse, you are so severe this evening, I must run away from
-you."
-
-"The blessin iv heaven go with ye, where-ever ye go; an jist let me
-fasten this top hook; there now, here's yer gloves, an' there's not the
-like iv ye in the Queen's Coort, let alone Hampton Coort," murmured
-Mrs. O'Toole, as Kate kissed her hand to her, and descended to the
-drawing-room.
-
-The weather had been rather broken for the last few days, and a dinner
-at Richmond had carried away the greater part of Lady Desmond's usual
-guests. Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell, Colonel Dashwood, Lord Effingham,
-the doctor, and one or two venerable specimens of whist-players, male
-and female, completed the party. The evening was cold for July, and a
-small bright wood fire was most acceptable.
-
-The whist players were soon absorbed in their rubber, while Kate,
-Lady Desmond, Lord Effingham and Colonel Dashwood, gathered round the
-fire. Kate was seated on a low ottoman, Lady Desmond opposite her in
-an arm chair. Lord Effingham leaning back amongst the cushions of a
-sofa close to her, with that air of profound quiet and repose, which
-formed, at times, so admirable a mask to his real sentiments and
-impressions. Colonel Dashwood stood on the hearth-rug, leaning against
-the mantel-piece, and occasionally indulging himself in a study of Lady
-Desmond's profile, when she turned to speak to the Earl. The group was
-interesting; it bespoke refinement, cultivation, and civilisation in
-their best form, yet was each member of that little party inflicting or
-about to inflict suffering on the rest.
-
-Little dreaming of such forebodings, Kate sat listening to a
-discussion between Colonel Dashwood and her cousin, on Kean's acting
-in Sheridan Knowles's play, of "Love," sometimes losing the thread
-of the argument in her own thoughts, when she was roused by Lady
-Desmond's pronouncing her name; she looked up suddenly, ashamed of her
-inattention, and met Lord Effingham's eyes, which wore an expression
-that puzzled her, as if they had been fixed on her for a long time.
-
-"I beg your pardon Georgy," she said, quickly, "I really did not hear
-what you said."
-
-"It was only to get you to side with me against Colonel Dashwood; but
-if you were dreaming instead of listening to me, I do not wish for such
-an ally," said Lady Desmond, laughing.
-
-"But," pursued Colonel Dashwood, in continuation of some previous
-remark, "Love," in real life, is so different from the strange
-masquerade it wears on the stage."
-
-"The most perfect description of love is that which Byron gives in
-his Corsair. 'None are all evil,' you know the passage," said Lord
-Effingham, rousing himself.
-
-"Oh, yes," cried Kate, eagerly, "it is indeed exquisite, but, 'John
-Anderson, my Joe John,' conveys the idea of true love a great deal more
-forcibly to my mind."
-
-"Burns," said Lord Effingham, "oh, his detestable jargon is too much
-for me, and I cannot see the poetry of a ballad, about some stupid
-old woman, who had been drinking 'usquebaugh,' till she was maudlin,
-and then proceeds to make love to her 'gude mon,' whose eyes she had
-probably been scratching out an hour before."
-
-"Oh, shame, shame, to sully the real beauty of the fancy by so base a
-construction!" returned Kate.
-
-"Kate worships Burns," said Lady Desmond, "she has a print of 'John
-Anderson,' opposite her bed, that her eyes may light upon it on their
-first opening in the morning."
-
-"It is a sweet ballad, I think, and has an honesty about it, I like;"
-observed Dashwood.
-
-"You are right, Colonel Dashwood," said Kate.
-
-"Ah," said Lady Desmond, "you have ruined yourself with Kate, Lord
-Effingham."
-
-"I hope not; but Miss Vernon must grant Byron's description to be
-perfect," he replied.
-
-"Yes, but his is the description of 'Woman's Love,' added Lady Desmond,
-"no man ever felt the tenderness--
-
- 'Unmoved by absence, firm in every clime,
- And still, oh, more than all, untired by time.'
-
-which he ascribes to the Corsair."
-
-"And very few women either, Lady Desmond," said the Colonel.
-
-"Certainly not a man so pre-occupied by himself, that personal injury
-or disappointment, could drive him into warfare with his kind, as
-Conrad is described to have been," cried Kate, "it is not such a
-character that could experience affection so exquisitely self-forgetful.
-
- 'Which, nor defeated hope, nor baffled wile,
- Could render sullen, were she near to smile,
- Nor anger fire, nor sickness fret to vent,
- On her, one murmur of his discontent,
- Which still with joy could meet, with calmness part,
- Lest that his look of grief, should reach her heart.'"
-
-Her listeners were silent for a few moments, after the tones of her
-sweet voice, which had breathed these lines with so true, so tender an
-emphasis, had ceased.
-
-Lord Effingham raised himself from his recumbent position, with a
-sudden gleam of light in his deep-set eyes.
-
-"Then what description of man do you think likely to feel such love?"
-asked Lady Desmond.
-
-"One whom we both knew and loved, might have felt thus, Georgy, and he,
-indeed, _was_ a good man."
-
-"The contradictions of human nature are incomprehensible, even to
-profounder philosophers than you are, Miss Vernon," said the Earl, "and
-it is not always the most irreproachable characters who have loved most
-devotedly. But do you not think Conrad justified by the injuries hinted
-at, in bidding defiance to a world to which he felt himself superior?"
-
-"Yes, I admire Conrad, I confess," replied Lady Desmond.
-
-"I do not think hatred is ever grand," said Kate, rather timidly.
-
-"But it is very natural, sometimes, Miss Vernon," observed Dashwood.
-
-"Miss Vernon would have us turn first one cheek and then the other to
-be smitten," said Lord Effingham.
-
-"Yes," said Miss Vernon, colouring, but composed, "I would in that
-sense in which we were recommended to do so. If Conrad could have
-loved, as Byron describes, his sense of wrong would have led him to
-feel a noble pity for his injurers; revenge would have been merged in
-an effort to teach them truth by forgiveness; and which is the grandest
-creature, the man who, freed from the petty dominion of self, can look
-down on his own passions from a real eminence, or he who is their
-willing slave; before whose frown
-
- 'Hope withering fled, and mercy sighed farewell!'"
-
-"Bravo, Miss Vernon, you have converted me," cried the Colonel.
-
-"Yes," said Lady Desmond, "I believe you are right, Kate."
-
-"You demand perfection," observed the Earl, gloomily.
-
-"I fear," said Miss Vernon, half ashamed of her enthusiasm, "I have
-talked a great deal too much."
-
-"But the modern school of poets, who draw their inspiration from a
-mushroom, or pig-sty, or an old man afflicted with the rheumatism, are,
-I confess, too transcendental for me; I cannot interest myself in such
-anti-poetical subjects," remarked Lord Effingham.
-
-"I rather like Longfellow; and Kate, I believe, considers him the first
-of poets," said Lady Desmond.
-
-"Not exactly," replied Miss Vernon.
-
-"Explain then, why it is that such a school has become so prevalent;
-and in painting too! The Royal Academy is filled with 'Dames' schools,'
-markets and kitchen scenery, and seems to endeavour in every way to
-make the modern and ancient style as unlike as the nature of the art
-will admit," rejoined the Earl.
-
-"It is the confoundedly democratic tone of society; none but mechanics
-have money to buy pictures now," said Colonel Dashwood.
-
-"It is the craving for novelty so prevalent in the present day," said
-Lady Desmond.
-
-"Mr. Winter," said Miss Vernon, "used to say, that it was the gradual
-development of truth, that people began to see; it was absurd to
-consider that Oriental life had greater elements of poetry than our
-own, because it was farther off; or that princes or dukes, kings and
-queens, were the only subjects fit for poetry and painting, but that we
-began to feel that life, high or low, wherever sentient beings existed,
-loved, hated, or struggled, was matter enough for poetry or pictures."
-
-"Mr. Winter is Miss Vernon's mentor, you must know," observed Lady
-Desmond.
-
-"A capital fellow, he was most kind to Fred Egerton, so hospitable and
-droll," said the Colonel.
-
-Further conversation was interrupted by the breaking up of the whist
-tables, and the subsequent departure of the guests.
-
-"Can you take me into town with you to-morrow?" asked Lady Elizabeth of
-Lady Desmond.
-
-"Do you know whether Mrs. Meredyth returns from ---- to-morrow?"
-
-"They do not come back till next week."
-
-"I am sorry for it; I wished to ask one of the girls to stay with Miss
-Vernon, she will be all alone."
-
-"How long do you remain in town?" asked Lord Effingham, carelessly.
-
-"Until Friday; I cannot get off a dinner at Mrs. ----'s; and when I am
-in town, I may as well stay and hear Sir Robert Peel speak on the ----
-Bill; they say it will come before the House on Thursday night. But I
-am uneasy about leaving Kate."
-
-"Well, Miss Vernon, if you are inconsolable for the want of my cousin's
-society, I will send an express to recall them."
-
-"Oh, I do not mind in the least," said Kate, hastily, "that is, of
-course--"
-
-"Do not finish, Miss Vernon; you have deeply wounded my feelings for
-those young ladies," returned Lord Effingham, smiling, then turning
-to Lady Desmond; "I shall probably see you at the House on Thursday
-evening; I should like to hear Sir Robert."
-
-And after a few more remarks the party separated.
-
-The next day was Wednesday; and Lady Desmond delayed her departure
-for the dinner party at Mrs. ----'s, as late as she prudently could,
-leaving Kate with evident reluctance, and even twice returning from
-the door to give her some parting injunction, and another last kiss.
-Kate felt in unusually good spirits; she was unspeakably grateful for
-her cousin's affection. And nurse had proved a true prophetess; for
-she had received a letter from Winter that morning, thanking her for
-accepting his gift, and giving her his address at a little frontier
-town, "where," he added, "if you write at once, I can receive a letter,
-but after that, you must wait till you hear from me." Mrs. Winter,
-he said, was beginning to get more reconciled to foreign ways. The
-little artist was evidently enjoying himself; and the kind, cordial,
-interested tone of her letter, short though it was, gave Kate a
-sensation of light-heartedness to which she had been long a stranger.
-She took a pleasant walk with nurse in Bushy Park, and made that worthy
-individual join her at tea.
-
-Her first act, the next day, was to write a long and cheerful letter
-in reply to Winter's. She dilated much upon the kindness she received
-from Lady Desmond, on her contentment under her roof; yet she also
-dwelt on her anxiety to embrace her tried and true friends once more;
-and closed her letter with an exhortation as to their return before
-the winter set in; this missive despatched, she determined to take
-advantage of her unusually good spirits, and turning to the piano,
-practised delightedly for nearly an hour. She fancied, as exercise
-gradually restored flexibility to her voice, that it had acquired
-more richness and power from its long rest; hitherto she had only
-contributed instrumental music as her quota to the entertainment of her
-cousin's guests, and she proceeded to try an air of Gilpin's, to which
-she had adapted some lines of his sister's, thinking she would surprise
-and please Lady Desmond on her return. The music, which was simple, but
-most expressive, and very _sostenuto_, suited both her taste and her
-powers; she lingered over it with a sense of keen enjoyment; and when,
-at length, the last notes died away, she heaved a light sigh, partly
-the effect of fatigue; it was echoed, and turning with a sudden start,
-she beheld Lord Effingham standing near the window.
-
-"Can you forgive my ill-bred intrusion?" he said, advancing towards
-her. "I have been calling on Colonel Dashwood; and walking round here,
-before mounting my horse, saw the garden-gate open, heard music,
-yielded to the temptation, and entered through the window."
-
-"But my cousin is not yet returned," said Kate, with a smile.
-
-"No, she does not return till to-morrow. I was aware of that; but I was
-not aware that you sang, and sang as you do. Why have I never heard you
-before?"
-
-"I have not felt inclined to hear my own voice."
-
-"And I," interrupted Lord Effingham, "would never desire to hear any
-other! speaking or singing, it is ever music to me!"
-
-Kate stepped back in amazement at this address, incapable of reply; and
-Lord Effingham, after a short pause, as if expecting her to speak, went
-on rapidly--
-
-"The words, 'I love you,' are too miserably weak to express what I
-feel. I have waited long to discover what your feelings are; you have
-not afforded me the slightest clue to them. I can endure your strange
-unconsciousness no longer, and am determined to lay mine bare before
-you in unmistakeable array. Kate! Miss Vernon, I know our natures are
-wide apart as heaven and earth, but still I can feel, in my inmost
-heart, that you have attained to a better and purer atmosphere than I
-have ever breathed. I know, that in your hands, I should be different
-from what I am. I tell you, that every shadow of good in me clings
-round you; and if you do not love me now, at least think before you--"
-
-"Lord Effingham," cried Kate, covering her face with one hand, and
-extending the other before her, "give me a moment's thought to
-distinguish if this be not some horrid dream!"
-
-"No, it is no dream, Miss Vernon," said Lord Effingham, recalled, by
-her evident alarm, from his passionate outburst.
-
-She uncovered her eyes, and looking steadily at him, exclaimed--
-
-"How could you act with such dissimulation? Why have you so deceived
-us?"
-
-"I have not deceived you; nor am I answerable for the self-deception of
-others; but this is no answer."
-
-"But my cousin, Lady Desmond," resumed Kate, still too bewildered to
-think of, or choose her words, "you love her. What, what is the meaning
-of this extraordinary address to me?"
-
-Lord Effingham's pale, dark cheek did not change its colour by a shade;
-his firm, resolute mouth assumed even a sterner expression than usual,
-as he replied--
-
-"Think over the past few months, and say honestly has there been a
-trace of the lover discoverable in my manner towards your cousin;
-except by eyes prompted to find out what did not exist."
-
-"But," said Kate, anxious to screen her cousin, and not to admit too
-much, though ill able to cope with the far-seeing accomplished man of
-the world, "people said you were engaged to her, you must have loved
-her."
-
-"Never," cried Lord Effingham. "Why talk of Lady Desmond? I never
-loved her--I may have admired her. I may have liked to feel my power
-over a proud spirit; but you, and you only, have I ever loved--loved
-with all the energy of my better nature; hear me, Kate!" and he threw
-himself at her feet; "do not turn from me with such repugnance--I
-will wait patiently till you think differently of me. I have
-overcome difficulties for far lesser objects; for you I will conquer
-myself--speak to me. I have borne suspense long, in silence--can you
-love me?"
-
-"No," said Kate, deliberately drawing the hand he had seized, quickly
-from his grasp, "I cannot love you, for I cannot trust you; you think
-you love _me_, because you see you have no influence over my heart;
-Lord Effingham, you do not know what love is, you must change your
-nature first."
-
-"Ha," said he, quickly, and sullenly, "but you do, you love another."
-
-"I entreat of you to leave me, and end this distressing scene, I feel
-too shocked, too agitated to speak more to you; go, Lord Effingham, and
-let us not meet again."
-
-"I _will_ see you again, however," replied Lord Effingham. "Think,
-Miss Vernon, think, before you utterly reject me; I love you, I did
-not know I was capable of the love with which you have inspired me; I
-am cold and indifferent to the world, the warmth and tenderness of my
-inmost heart shall be lavished on you; you like to help those who are
-in distress; think what ample means of good would be at the disposal of
-the Countess of Effingham! What is there in me so repellant to you?"
-
-"This is useless my Lord, I have never thought of you even as a friend;
-yet I do not wish to speak harshly. You do not know the injury this
-unfortunate disclosure will prove to me--I--."
-
-"There can be no necessity to inform your cousin of what has passed.
-Let me come here as before, and endeavour to----."
-
-"No!" cried Kate, indignantly, "I have been too long, unconsciously,
-aiding deception that I abhor, and my first act, when we meet, shall be
-to inform my cousin most fully. Now go! I beg you will leave me, Lord
-Effingham," she added, with an air of decision and _hauteur_.
-
-"I obey you, but I do not, and will not consider the subject ended
-here." He drew nearer, looked at her a moment, and exclaimed, "No, I
-will not easily relinquish the brightest hope my life ever held out."
-Then turning away quickly, stepped through the window, descended from
-the verandah, and was out of sight before Kate could draw the long
-breath of relief with which she hailed his departure.
-
-She little knew the trial yet awaiting her, though she looked forward
-with no small dread to the task of disclosing this strange interview to
-her cousin.
-
-Wrapt in mingling emotions of amazement and alarm, Kate had not heard
-a light step in the adjoining room; and Lord Effingham, too much
-engrossed by the passion of the moment, was equally regardless. Both
-had been standing near the window by which he had entered, while
-an unseen witness gazed with the fascination of dismay and bitter
-mortification, through the opposite door, which was partly open.
-
-Something had occurred to postpone the debate which Lady Desmond had
-wished to hear; and scarcely regretting the disappointment in her
-anxiety to return to Kate, had left town early, and on her arrival at
-home, having asked if Miss Vernon was at home, and being answered
-in the affirmative, walked at once to the morning-room they usually
-occupied; as she crossed the drawing-room communicating with it, she
-heard, to her astonishment, Lord Effingham's well-known voice, at the
-moment he raised it exclaiming--"Why talk of Lady Desmond? I never
-loved her, &c."--and reached the door in time to see him at Kate's
-feet, as she had longed to see him at her own. Every syllable of
-that torturing sentence seemed burning into her heart, as retaining
-sufficient self-command to retire, unseen, she rushed to her own
-chamber to hide from every eye, but that of the All-seeing, the awful
-agonies of a desolated spirit.
-
-With agonised distinctness, she reviewed the last three months, and in
-the new and sudden light thus forced upon her, was compelled to own,
-that, had not previous impressions blinded her judgment, she might have
-seen she was not Lord Effingham's sole attraction in his frequent
-visits. Then again came the recollection of a thousand allusions to
-former scenes and passages in their intercourse, capable of a double
-signification, on which she had put but one; a thousand looks and
-tones, slight in themselves, but now irrefragable proofs that she had
-been duped; and Kate, could she have been a party in the deception,
-she to whom all the weakness, so carefully hidden from others, had
-been fully displayed, she on whom Lady Desmond had ever looked as the
-very personation of truth. Impossible! yet why was Lord Effingham
-admitted secretly? Why did Kate seem so ready and willing to be left
-alone? Why did she so pertinaciously endeavour to turn her from her
-unfortunate attachment; and Lady Desmond groaned aloud as these, to
-her tempest-tossed mind, incontrovertible proofs of treachery rose
-up before it. "But his influence is irresistible, and how was she to
-be wiser than I was. Why am I called beautiful?" And she flew to
-the glass: it flung back the image of a countenance so darkened and
-disturbed by the storm within, that she shrank from it. "Ah, she has
-the lovely freshness of youth, and I, why have I outlived it?" Then
-she remembered the evident joy of Lord Effingham, the first day he met
-her at Richmond; she recalled the rapture with, which she had hailed
-that joy, "and but for her all might have been well; if she had been
-candid with me, how much I might have been spared; but such deliberate
-treachery." And again and again did her troubled thoughts work round
-the painful circle of unanticipated mortification which had so suddenly
-risen up around her; each time returning with redoubled rage and
-bitterness to Kate's supposed duplicity, for it never occurred to her
-to doubt that Lord Effingham's love was reciprocated.
-
-How long she had lain, her head buried in the cushions of the sofa,
-striving to find some loop-hole through which her wounded self-love
-might creep from the storm that beat it to the ground she could not
-tell. Ages seemed to have passed since she left the carriage, which had
-conveyed her to so much misery; but at last the door was opened, and
-Kate entered, she looked pale and agitated, and exclaimed--
-
-"I had no idea you had returned, dear Georgy."
-
-Lady Desmond raised her eyes with such a look of dark resentment, of
-concentrated indignation, that, innocent as she was, Kate recoiled
-before it with the confusion of guilt.
-
-"Ay, shrink back from my presence," said her cousin, in low, deep
-tones, as if she dared not lose control of her voice. "Traitress! long
-practice might have taught you more art than to quail at my first
-glance. Lord Effingham can place full faith in a wife, who, for months,
-deliberately deceived and duped her friend, leading her to pour forth
-the last secrets she would have confided to a rival. False, false
-heart, I loved you, I trusted you; I heaped benefits upon you; I cared
-for my wealth only because it might be of use to you; and, in return,
-you have crept into the very sanctuary of my soul to rob and desecrate
-it; is this the truth, the honor of D'Arcy Vernon's grand-child?"
-
-She had risen in her wrath, and stood--her long black hair thrown
-wildly back--nervously grasping the back of the sofa, on which she had
-lain, and gazing with pitiless eyes on the slight shrinking figure
-before her.
-
-"Georgy, hear me, I implore you," cried Kate, trembling in every limb,
-and feeling, in spite of her conscious rectitude, as though she was
-guilty, before her cousin's impassioned reproaches.
-
-"Hush," returned Lady Desmond, with a wild gesture of command and
-horror, "let me hear no well-arranged tissue of falsehoods. Your very
-voice is pregnant with dissimulation; go--relieve me of the sight of so
-much treachery."
-
-"Not till you have heard me," said Kate, with firmness, recalled, by
-Lady Desmond's unjust reproaches, from the excessive commiseration
-which at first had unnerved her. "Why do you suppose I am a
-participator in Lord Effingham's deception? Why do you imagine that
-an acquaintance of but three months' standing could so influence me,
-as to change my entire previous principles? You are excited. You are
-wretched. And God knows how deeply I feel for you; but, Georgy, do not
-be unjust."
-
-"Oh I have the boon of your pity," returned Lady Desmond, between her
-clenched teeth. "But I am not yet reduced to accept it. Lord Effingham
-shall know how his future wife was trusted, and how she betrayed. Go--I
-desire you to leave me; I can support your presence no longer."
-
-"I will leave you," said Kate, with mournful sweetness, "but I leave
-you this solemn assurance, that however you may misjudge me, I would
-rather die than wed a man I dread so much, and love so little, as Lord
-Effingham."
-
-"Ha," said Lady Desmond, drawing a long breath, her wild indignant rage
-stilled for a moment by the unmistakeable truth which spoke in Kate's
-voice and manner. "I must think. But go, guilty or innocent, we can
-never be the same to each other again."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-ARRANGEMENTS.
-
-
-With every pulse tumultuously throbbing, Kate closed her door, and
-sat down to attempt the disentanglement of the wild agitation and
-confusion into which all her thoughts and anticipations had been thrown
-by this dreadful outburst from her cousin. Never since the day that
-Winter had first intimated to her his opinion of the state of their
-affairs, had she experienced the same sudden sense of insecurity and
-desolation. Then she had had a full and sufficient object, round which
-to rally her energies and her courage; then she had had clear-headed
-and warm-hearted friends to advise and to uphold her. Now the one only
-friend, who was all that was left to her of the past, seemed suddenly
-rent from her by the most cruel and injurious suspicions, and a great
-gulf fixed between them. For Lady Desmond's last words--"Guilty or
-innocent, we can never be the same to each other again"--rung in her
-ears like an ill omened prophecy. Yet her own immediate suffering was
-almost lost sight of in her deep compassion for, and sympathy with, her
-cousin.
-
-She had anticipated a wild outbreak of indignant sorrow when Lady
-Desmond should first hear the terrible solution of his mysterious
-conduct, with which Lord Effingham had astonished the real object of
-his affections. But that she should be accused of deliberate treachery,
-of such complete and constant dissimulation, had never entered into her
-heart to conceive. A warm flush of indignant color rose to her brow as
-she thought of the injustice, and she murmured, almost aloud--
-
-"She should have known me better. She who knew my childhood; how dare
-she think me so inferior to herself? She must, when she is calmer,
-acknowledge her error."
-
-Then Kate recalled to her memory the whole scene, and wondered, in
-vain, how her cousin had been informed of Lord Effingham's presence,
-and the purpose of his strange visit. Continued thought suggested that
-she must have overheard what had taken place. Yet, if so, she must
-have heard Kate's utter rejection of him--this was a painful enigma.
-How--how was she to clear herself? She knew not from what source Lady
-Desmond's impression arose, and she was utterly ignorant in what way
-she should proceed to free her cousin's mind from the injurious doubts
-which had taken possession of it; for her indignation was soon merged
-in tender pity and compassion for her wretched relative.
-
-"Unhappy Georgy," she exclaimed, "not content with the real injury
-and mortification you have sustained, you torture yourself doubly by
-believing me--me, to whom you acted more than a sister's--a mother's
-part--so false, so worthless; but how am I to justify myself? to
-convince you?"
-
-Then rose up, in formidable array, the gossip of servants, and worse,
-_dear friends_, to be met and silenced, and the anxious desire to
-save her cousin's name from the flattering comments of the rather
-unmerciful, though well-bred _coterie_, amongst whom they were placed.
-Above all the predominant idea in poor Kate's mind was that her
-interval of repose was at an end--that the only home to which she had
-a shadow of claim was rent from her--that to remain the recipient of
-benefits from an estranged benefactress, was impossible--that she
-was indeed desolate. Mingling with all this, was the memory of her
-grandfather's implicit trust, his unwearied tenderness--that it had
-gone from her life _for ever_.
-
-Yes, she must go--she must seek some other home--she must earn one. And
-nurse--her curiosity must be baffled. And time was stealing fast away
-while she thought so painfully and ineffectually; something must be
-done; and at once, she rose with a fervent ejaculation--"God guide me
-for the best," and sat down to write to Lady Desmond.
-
-As she opened her desk, the recollection of the happy letter she had
-that morning despatched to Winter flashed across her mind.
-
-"And when shall I hear from him again?" she thought--a glance at her
-watch. "Ah, post-hour is long past; and what else could I write without
-betraying Georgy? and she must be my first consideration. Would to
-Heaven Mr. Winter was in England; but it is in vain to wish."
-
-And overpowered by her complete isolation, she threw herself on her
-knees beside her bed, and, hiding her face in the clothes, gave way to
-the thick coming sobs that shook her frame, and ceased only when they
-had exhausted the power to express such emotion.
-
-At length she arose, calmed by this outburst, and restored to more
-faith than she had hitherto felt by the unspoken prayer, in which she
-had silently laid the grief she was incapable of uttering before the
-All-seeing and Mighty Spirit, who alone witnessed her sorrow, pressing
-her hand against her forehead, as if to condense her thoughts, she
-wrote:
-
- "I must see and speak to you. Have you not thought, in the silence
- of the last few hours, of a thousand indications that I am not the
- base wretch you fancied me. Remember, we have shared the same home,
- where the very soul of honour presided. Look into your own heart, see
- how far that has impressed you, and judge me by yourself. I never
- overcame, although I tried, the secret repugnance with which Lord
- Effingham inspired me--an instinct which his conduct this day has
- justified; and until this day, I had not the remotest idea of his
- preference for me. Be just, Georgina, my own dear cousin. Oh, with
- what true, what unbroken affection I write these words. You cannot
- doubt me.
-
- "I must see you--there is much for us to arrange--and at once; we must
- guard ourselves from the animadversions of the people about us; let me
- see you; tell me why--tell me what suggested the terrible reproaches
- with which you overwhelmed me? I have ever loved you--ever linked you
- with all that is dearest and most sacred in my memory. Oh, judge me by
- your own heart, and say could a stranger, a man known but yesterday,
- of whose previous conduct, selfish, petty, unmanly, as it was, I was
- fully aware; could he make me so utterly forget my holiest memories,
- my deepest obligations, my loyalty to my sex, my faith to you! in much
- you are my superior; but I am as true to you as you are to yourself."
-
-She read this over, felt dissatisfied with it, yet despairing of
-writing anything that could please her more, hastily added--"I wait
-your reply," signed her name, and, unlocking her door, stole lightly
-to Lady Desmond's, she knocked, and, after a short delay, Lady Desmond
-asked, in a constrained voice--
-
-"Is that Louise? I have a dreadful headache, and am lying down--I
-cannot be disturbed."
-
-"It is not Louise--I have a note for you." Another pause, and the door
-was unlocked. Lady Desmond, still in her carriage dress, put out her
-hand, silently took the note, and closed the door.
-
-Kate again returned to her own room and to her troubled thoughts,
-thankful for nurse's absence, unusual at that hour, and feeling
-somewhat relieved by having put things _en train_ for an interview with
-her cousin; her natural fortitude, of which she possessed so much,
-began to rise out of the terrible wreck of pleasant things which had
-weighed it down, and to consider the future with greater clearness,
-when Louise entered about an hour after the delivery of the note to
-Lady Desmond, and close upon their usual dinner hour.
-
-"Miladi's love, and she is not at all well; she wish to see
-_Mademoiselle sur l'instant_."
-
-Kate would have faced the most deadly peril with far less tremor than
-her really much-loved cousin; she felt, however, that the message
-sounded friendly, little imagining that "Miladi's love" was an addition
-of Louise's, who never could conceive one to Miss Vernon unprefaced by
-some such sugary prefix. Kate found Lady Desmond lying on the sofa,
-looking deadly pale and exhausted; she held the note in her hand.
-
-"You are right," she exclaimed abruptly, as Kate shut the door and
-stood before her; "we have much to arrange, for inaction is torture."
-Her voice sounded deep and broken, different from its usual harmonious
-refinement. She rose and paced the room. "Your note has raised a
-thousand recollections which range themselves on your side, Kate. I
-must, I dare not doubt you; there would be no confidence left to me on
-earth if I did!--let us mention it no more. No!" motioning Kate back,
-as she sprang to throw her arms round her at these words--"I am in no
-mood for tenderness. Whether intentionally or not you have inflicted
-terrible sufferings upon me. I repeat, I cannot doubt you--it would
-be too revolting--I could not endure such a double trial. I may be
-very wrong, but I cannot look upon you as I did, not yet at least; and
-your question, how I acquired the accursed knowledge, I will never
-answer, and you must never ask again: he need not have enhanced his
-love for you by his triumph over me!" She muttered these words between
-her teeth, glancing darkly at Kate. "I sent for you," she resumed
-hurriedly, "for your note reminded me of what was due to myself. We
-must subdue ourselves, and act our part for the audience of Hampton
-Court. I have thought of a plausible tale; attend to me; learn your
-part, and remember you owe me the reparation of performing it well. I
-am not well. God knows that is true! I have received news that compels
-me to leave for Ireland as soon as I can. We will endure each other
-for a week, Kate. I little thought I could ever speak so to you. My
-own dear Kate, come--yet, no, no! I cannot embrace you. Oh! I am most
-miserable, to be debarred in this wretchedness from the only sympathy
-that could have soothed me."
-
-"But you have it," answered Kate, in accents of the softest, deepest
-tenderness.
-
-"I will not have your pity," resuming her troubled walk. "I will not
-have that Devil sneer at my credulity. I will wait and see before I
-take you to my arms again. Yes, we must part for a time. I could not
-bear the alternate affection for, and doubt of you, which sweep across
-my mind. I will see if he cannot yet prevail on you to overcome that
-repugnance which--pah! repugnance to _him_! Well, Kate, do not mind me;
-I cannot speak coherently; remember we have a part to play for a while
-together, then separately; and where--where can you go? I am selfish--I
-hate myself; but for a short time we will separate; and Kate, you will
-not disdain--you will not forget it is my duty to provide for you. I
-promised your grandfather!--and, oh! heavens, how am I fulfilling the
-guardianship I undertook! But you will command all that your lightest
-fancy may prompt. I am rich, and after a while we will be together."
-
-"Georgy," said Kate, with calmness inexpressibly sad, "I see you do not
-yet believe me, but in time you must; till then we need not embitter
-each other's lives. When you leave this for Ireland, I will go to
-Mrs. Storey; she has often invited me; from that I can write to you.
-The Winters will be home ere long, and when, in God's good time, you
-_know_ that I never deceived or betrayed you, we will meet again. I
-have enough for every present want, and you must not think me so much
-beneath yourself that I would accept the charity of her who thinks me
-unworthy. There is only one favour I must ask--it is to help me in
-keeping nurse--my poor dear nurse--(the only one who still loves and
-trusts Kate Vernon)--in the dark as regards this unhappy breach; it
-would break her heart if she knew of it--"
-
-"I will do as you desire; but, Kate, you must allow me----"
-
-"Hush!" said Kate, with a slight but inexpressibly dignified gesture of
-rejection, that compelled Lady Desmond to silence. "I am most anxious
-about nurse; I cannot take her with me, and I feel her to be a friend
-too dear, too closely associated with all I love, to part from as I
-would a common servant;" and the swelling of Kate's heart at the idea
-of breaking this last link choked her utterance.
-
-"She shall come with me--she shall stay with me," said Lady Desmond
-eagerly, "until you join me again; it is natural that you should accept
-Mrs. Storey's invitation, still more so that you should not crowd
-her establishment unnecessarily. Nurse will surely not object to a
-separation for a few weeks, she will not think it strange."
-
-"Leave nurse to me," said Kate, anxious to relieve her cousin's mind of
-the slight uneasiness which inflected her voice; "she will be difficult
-to manage, but you may trust me with _her_."
-
-"There is nothing to be managed," said Lady Desmond, with cold hauteur.
-"But we have agreed to endeavour to avoid any gossip that might arise
-from ----; though why should I fear any. You will write to Mrs.
-Storey, and see nurse, and to-morrow----." Lady Desmond paused, gazed
-stedfastly at vacancy, and then drawing a long breath, continued, in a
-tone of intense resolution, "To-morrow I shall receive those people as
-usual."
-
-"Oh, impossible," cried Kate, in genuine anxiety that her cousin should
-not overtask her strength.
-
-"Why impossible, Miss Vernon?" asked Lady Desmond, in a constrained
-voice. "Does your 'instinctive repugnance' to Lord Effingham permit
-so high an estimate of his fascinating powers, that you imagine
-self-esteem and self-respect rendered incapable of acting under his
-indifference; you little know me. I tell you, if he presents himself
-here to-morrow evening, neither of you shall see the slightest change
-in my manner--neither of you shall see a trace of the torture--"
-
-"Georgy, dear Georgy," cried Kate, whose candid mind revolted from
-the strange constraint forced on it by her cousin, "be just to me, be
-merciful to yourself, I know it is agony to doubt me."
-
-"God knows it is," she returned, "but at present I cannot trust you or
-any one, my soul is embittered; time only can show me the truth; and
-restore me to myself--to you. Kate, if you have deceived me; no! you
-could not! there is no falsehood in that face! Oh that I could read
-your heart; _if_ you have deceived me, God forgive you, if not, bear
-with me, pardon me."
-
-Her voice sank to the softest, tenderest accents, "Remember, I never
-had the holy love for father or mother to fill and soften my heart; to
-teach it true affection; to plant in it a pure unselfish principle,
-a sacrificing spirit whereby to test the seeming passion offered
-to me. _You_ have known this, you have this invaluable touchstone,
-this unerring balance wherewith to weigh the false jewels which
-hollow-hearted men of the world offer, in exchange for real gems, fresh
-truth and warm devotion. Yes you may have weighed his and found them
-wanting; but you could never love him, as I do, as I did; we are alike,
-as substance and shadow, there is not a change of his countenance, an
-inflection of his voice that I cannot read; shame shame to speak so!
-and I have known so little happiness, I have sought my whole life for
-some unknown treasure to catch the first glimpse of it as it was lost
-to me for ever."
-
-And at last the dark, burning eyes were suffused with the blessed
-refreshment of tears; but Lady Desmond's were always stormy tears; and
-Kate stole nearer to her in the tenderest most loving sympathy for that
-poor, proud, wounded heart--yet silently, for she feared the sound of
-her voice might recall her cousin's suspicions, and she would spurn her
-from her--kneeling at her feet and kissing the hand that hung down in
-inactivity bespeaking the language of despair.
-
-At last Lady Desmond pressed the hand that held hers so lovingly, and
-drawing Kate slightly to her, muttered in tones more like her own than
-Kate had yet heard, "leave me now, while I feel I have wronged you, ask
-me no more at present," and grateful even for these words Kate slowly
-retired.
-
-The next evening did indeed display the wonderful strength which pride
-can lend a mortified spirit, never had Lady Desmond played the part of
-a gracious graceful hostess to greater perfection; the only difference
-which Kate's watchful eye could detect, was a slight increase of
-animation in her manner, and of brilliancy in her conversation; just
-enough to lead careless observers to imagine that she enjoyed the
-prospect of her intended visit to Ireland, which with many politely
-expressed regrets she announced to her company.
-
-The evening glided on with more than usual agreeability, to the
-guests at least; the only grave faces present were Miss Vernon's and
-Colonel Dashwood's, he seemed quite upset by the intelligence of
-their approaching departure, and joined but little in the noisy and
-probably sincere regrets of the rest. Burton was there, he had not
-been a frequent guest, having been generally quartered with another
-detachment. "I regret to find that you are going to leave this place,
-Miss Vernon, just as I am about to take up my abode in it," said Burton
-during the loudest notes of a bravura sung by Miss Meredyth, "I have
-heard so much, yet I seem doomed to see so little of you."
-
-"I did not know I was so famous," replied Kate, absently.
-
-"Nor am I the only one, 'left lamenting,' by this sudden flight; look
-at Dashwood! then we all fear that Miss Vernon will not return from
-Ireland," said Burton.
-
-Kate, whose attention was fixed upon the opening door answered by a
-smile so palpably _distrait_, that Burton, fancying he guessed the
-secret of her watchfulness, smiled too as he thought of the sincere
-affection with which she had inspired his absent friend, and said
-to himself, "She would be a happier woman following Fred. on a
-baggage waggon, than riding over the world in that _roué_ Effingham's
-coronetted carriage. She does not think so at present however, _ainsi
-va le monde_."
-
-Here the song ended, and Miss Vernon was called on to play; she thought
-sadly of her yesterday's practice and its unhappy termination, and
-it required no small effort of self command to take her place at the
-piano; she played mechanically, and without her usual soul-touching
-expression.
-
-"Pray Lady Desmond," she heard Mrs. Meredyth ask, "can you give me any
-account of my nephew Effingham; will he be here this evening?"
-
-"I really do not know," replied Lady Desmond in wonderfully natural,
-unconstrained tones, "Miss Vernon, I fancy, saw him last; did Lord
-Effingham say he would come here this evening, Kate?"
-
-"He said nothing, that is, I do not remember," replied Kate, confused
-and astonished at the coolness of this appeal. Lady Desmond glanced
-at her one speaking look that roused her to instant self-possession,
-though it made her heart beat.
-
-"I am told, Lord Effingham started this morning for the Isle of Wight,"
-said Colonel Dashwood with a gravity unusual for him. "Hauton was
-over at Richmond and heard it there, something about his new yacht I
-believe, they said he will return next week."
-
-"_Figurez vous_," cried the second Miss Meredyth whose style was
-foreign and fantastic, "my cousin's dismay when he returns and finds
-Lady Desmond flown."
-
-"Perhaps it will be no great surprise to him," said Colonel Dashwood in
-a low voice to Kate.
-
-"Yes, I am sure it will," she replied.
-
-Lady Desmond invited the whole party, then assembled, to meet again,
-on the Wednesday evening following at her house; her last evening she
-said, as she intended starting on Thursday for London to Ireland.
-
-"Kate," she observed carelessly to one or two of her latest guests
-"is not half so true an Irishwoman as I am; she will not, I believe,
-accompany me at once, but lingers for a few weeks with some friends in
-town."
-
-Kate felt the tears rise to her eyes at hearing the separation so
-deplored, so dreaded by her, thus indifferently announced by her
-cousin, and she stood silent and dejected by the piano.
-
-After they were left alone, Lady Desmond threw herself into an arm
-chair and covering her face with her hands groaned aloud, then looking
-up, after a moment's silence, she showed a countenance so changed, so
-haggard, now that the strong curb of her will over her secret emotions
-was relaxed, that Miss Vernon absolutely started with surprise.
-
-"Have you written to Mrs. Storey?"
-
-"Yes."
-
-"Have you spoken to nurse?"
-
-"No; I thought it best to defer that until I got an answer."
-
-"As you choose."
-
-She rose slowly, and walked to the door, then turning, said--
-
-"I have accepted every invitation offered to me--we have not an evening
-disengaged; but if you feel bored by them, or wish, for any reason, to
-remain at home, do not think yourself obliged to accompany me." She
-bowed, then again pausing. "You look wearied, Kate, would you like
-nurse to sleep in your room?"
-
-"No."
-
-"Solitude is best for both, I believe."
-
-And she left the room gloomily, darkly.
-
-Kate felt relieved when she was gone, and retired quickly. To pray to
-God, to think long and painfully, to count the night-watches, and, at
-last, to sink into a sound, sweet sleep, and charming but indistinct
-dreams of her cousin clasping her to her heart, and entreating
-forgiveness for the wrong she had done her.
-
-"Is it very late, nurse?" she asked, on opening her eyes the following
-morning, and seeing her faithful friend standing by the bed-side.
-
-"No, agrah, not to say late; but me lady is aitin' her breakfast up in
-her own room, an' I wanted to rouse ye up to have a word wid ye, afore
-she was callin' fur ye. Will ye have a little taste iv toast an' a cup
-iv tay quite an' aisy up here?"
-
-"Yes, thank you, nurse, I should like it very much. I will ring
-presently."
-
-Mrs. O'Toole re-appeared with a most tempting round of buttered toast,
-a tiny tea-pot, and a capacious cup, and placed them before her
-nurseling.
-
-"There, ait a bit, jewil; an' tell me what's the manin' iv this
-scrimmige iv movin' all iv a suddin'?"
-
-"I thought you were aware that Lady Desmond intended going to Ireland
-when we left this?"
-
-"To be sure, I did--but sure, isn't it mighty suddint? an' are we to be
-off body an' bones on Thursday next?"
-
-"Yes, nurse, I believe so."
-
-"An' now, Miss Kate, agrah, will ye tell me, is it a weddin' we're
-goin' to have, or what, fur I feel that somethin' quare's goin' on!"
-
-"Oh, there is nothing the matter, nurse. I believe," she continued,
-after a short pause, during which she summoned all her resolution to
-speak easily and unconstrained, "that is, I think I must stay for a few
-weeks with Mrs. Storey."
-
-"What, not go wid us at wanst to Ireland!" ejaculated Mrs. O'Toole,
-holding the tea-pot, from which she was in the act of replenishing her
-nurseling's cup, still suspended, in sheer amazement. "What's that for?
-sure, yer not goin' to send me off wid me lady! if yer not comin' wid
-us now, sure. I'll have to come for ye; ye can't travel be yerself; an'
-I'd betther stay wid ye."
-
-"But Mrs. Storey has not room, I fear," said Kate, falteringly.
-
-"I don't want to be behoulden to her fur her room; sure, I could get a
-place convanient for meself; there's lashins iv poor places good enough
-for the likes iv me about Bayswather to stop in; what would ye do
-widout me?"
-
-"What indeed!" echoed Kate, throwing herself into nurse's arms; and
-worn out by the long constraint she had laboured under, she burst into
-an irrepressible flood of tears, while Mrs. O'Toole hushed and soothed
-her, as in her childish days.
-
-"There now, hush, darlint; tell me what it vexes ye?"
-
-"I am so afraid you will think me ungrateful and selfish, dear nurse,"
-began Kate, in broken accents, interrupted by sobs. "You see I am
-particularly anxious to stay in London for a while; and if--if I was
-richer, and could pay for your lodgings, and all that, do you think I
-could ever part with you, even for a short season, dearest, kindest
-friend; but I am not; and I will not let you waste the little you have
-on my account. No, you will go with Lady Desmond to Ireland, as she
-wishes, till I join her."
-
-Mrs. O'Toole seemed plunged in thought, and rolled her arms in her
-apron, a favourite attitude with her, indicative of deep reflection.
-
-"But will ye come back?" she asked, at last, with a keen glance, "an'
-whin? there's somethin's throublin' ye, jewil, though ye'll not spake
-out, an' me heart's oneasy; sure, ye wouldn't let me go from ye, if ye
-wern't manin' to come back to me; sure, ye wouldn't thrate me that a
-way, me own child?"
-
-"God knows," cried Kate, "it is hard enough to part with you, although
-I most firmly purpose to be with you ere long; but to say good bye in
-earnest would be death to me."
-
-"An' why need ye stay wid thim Storeys that arn't yer aiquils at all?
-Ah! where's the use of sthrivin' to decave me. Have you an' me lady
-fell out, asthore?"
-
-This question was put with a concentration of anxiety and curiosity
-which might have raised a smile to the lips of a casual observer, but
-which only served to fill up the measure of Kate's perplexities--her
-equally balanced cares--not to betray her cousin, and not to wound
-nurse, placing her in a double difficulty.
-
-"No, no! quarrel with my dear, kind Georgy! Never, I trust; but, in
-short, dearest nurse," she continued, with great earnestness, "it
-would be a source of the greatest comfort to me, to know that you were
-safe and free from every want, in an establishment such as hers. I am
-powerless to afford any aid or protection to my oldest, truest friend,"
-pursued Kate, large tears weighing down her eyelashes. "And after years
-of faithful, constant, self-devoted service, I must owe to another the
-shelter I cannot give you. Ah! it is a hard fate!"
-
-She hid her face on nurse's shoulder.
-
-"Och! don't be talking that away, jewil!" ejaculated Mrs. O'Toole.
-"Sure, haven't I a power iv money I got in yer sarvice that Misther
-Winter put into the bank fur me? I'll do what iver mee sweet child
-likes; but faith! I don't want shelther from any one. I'm not past mee
-work yet, And if ye will have me go from ye, I'll just stop wid me lady
-fur three weeks or a month; an' at the ind of that time, if yer not
-comin' to us, I'll come fur ye. Sure, yer in the right iv it not to let
-Lady Desmond get too accustomed to ye; faith, it's sick she'd be if an
-angel from Heaven afther a bit; it's well fur her the masther (the Lord
-rest his sowl,) wasn't that sort."
-
-"Dear nurse," said Kate, raising her tearful face, and speaking in
-broken accents, "why will you distress me by assuming a severe tone
-towards my kind cousin; she is all that the most exacting could wish.
-Oh! I have many difficulties before me. How! how! can I part with you?"
-
-"An' why do ye ask me to lave ye?"
-
-"It must be so," she returned, with more decision than she had yet
-shown. "And, I will not deceive you, my own, dear nurse--it may be some
-months before we meet again."
-
-"Och! where are ye goin' to stop bee yerself, Miss Kate? What
-mischief's brewin' at all? An' what would the masther say if he could
-look down on us to see me goin' off in pace and plinty, and you
-wandherin' through the world alone? Sure, I'd see his sperrit, it
-couldn't rest in Heaven itself, if you wasn't rightly attended to."
-
-"God forbid he should feel distress about me," sighed Kate. "He is at
-last free from sin and sorrow--that is my great consolation! But my
-plans are very simple. After being with Mrs. Storey for a while, I
-shall probably go to some other friends, and move about; so you see you
-could not exactly come with me. Then, when Mr. and Mrs. Winter return,
-which, I trust, they will do before October, they know and value you,
-and will gladly let me have you; or, probably, before I go to stay
-with them, I may join my cousin; in either event, we shall be together;
-and so far as a weak mortal can purpose, I resolve to separate from you
-no more. Can you consent to this?"
-
-Nurse, resting her elbows on her knees, and covering her face in her
-hands, rocked herself in silence for a few moments, then with a deep
-sigh, almost a groan, said--
-
-"I see it's no use talkin', I must go from you--and I'll nivir hear the
-thruth if what's goin' on! Och, I little thought I'd iver be parted
-from mee own child--the core iv mee heart ye wor--ye nivir slept a
-night from ondher the same roof wid me but wan, and that was the time
-ye met the Captin, and I'll nivir believe but that'll turn out luck
-yet! so I'll do yer biddin', agra! and sure the masther 'ill see it's
-only yez own word would part us; an' look here, avourneen, I'll always
-keep the price if mee journey by me, and the wind iv a word will bring
-me to ye any day--remimber that!"
-
-"I will remember, nurse. Ah! dearest, kindest, hold me to your
-heart--close--there is none other beats so truly for your Kate--none
-loves her so well, now grandpapa is gone."
-
-"Faith, there is'nt wan thruer to ye on airth, than mine, as sure
-as yer lyin' on it. There was wan more loved ye well, besides the
-masther and me--if iver man loved mortial, the Captin loved the sight
-iv ye--an' well he might, many's the time I watched his face brighten
-up when he heard yer voice, an' wancest I seen him take the glove ye
-dropped an' kiss it, as I would the cross! and mark my words--ye'll
-see him yet--och, sure there's some brightness fur us ondher all this
-sorra! an' don't sob that away, jewil--if you don't come to me, faith
-I'll come to you."
-
-This last week at Hampton Court was one of unmixed suffering to Kate.
-Lady Desmond was cruelly capricious in her tone and manner to her
-innocent cousin. At one moment Kate fancied she could perceive rapidly
-returning confidence and affection--the next, some stern look, or
-icy word, implied suspicion and dislike; nothing wounded Miss Vernon
-so much as the assumption of her old tenderness before any third
-party, and the instant return to coldness and estrangement, when that
-restraint was removed.
-
-Sometimes Kate's gentle but high spirit was roused to indignation,
-which lent her a momentary strength; but this was soon dissolved by the
-compassion with which she viewed the intense and unremitting struggle,
-which thus clouded Lady Desmond's better judgment.
-
-Miss Vernon was thoroughly convinced before the day of their departure
-arrived, that to live with Lady Desmond in her present mood, was indeed
-impossible; and that her only chance for preserving a hold on her
-cousin's heart, was absence. The approaching separation from nurse was
-ever present with her--from Lady Desmond, she felt, that for a while it
-would be a relief to part.
-
-Meantime, Mrs. Storey wrote in most cordial terms, to express the
-pleasure she felt in expecting Miss Vernon as a guest; and all things
-progressed smoothly for the cousins' plans.
-
-The last evening, Kate felt real alarm, at the strange brilliancy of
-her cousin's eyes, and the unwonted animation of her manner. She had
-passed the greater part of the day alone; and had once sent for Kate,
-who found her terribly agitated, and evidently endeavouring to make up
-her mind to something; after a few vague words, however, she begged
-Kate to leave her--that she would defer all further arrangements till
-they were in London; and as Miss Vernon was leaving the room, begged
-her to keep guard over herself, in case any unexpected arrival should
-startle her. "Do not betray me, Kate." Miss Vernon knew she alluded
-to Lord Effingham--but since the fatal day she had overheard his
-declaration, she had never breathed his name to her; but the evening
-wore on, and to Kate's infinite relief, he did not make his appearance.
-
-Kate never quitted any place with so little regret, as Hampton Court;
-though, at first, she had liked it much--difficulties soon gathered
-round her--difficulties, such as she had never before encountered; but
-she was wofully depressed--Lady Desmond had put a finishing stroke to
-her low spirits, by enquiring if she would like to drive directly to
-Mrs. Storey's, or go with her to Mivart's in the first place. This
-readiness to get rid of her on the part of her natural protectress,
-threw a sad feeling of gloom and loneliness over poor Kate's heart,
-and it was some moments before she could reply. Her first impulse was
-to accede at once to the proposition, which would have relieved her
-cousin of her irksome presence; but an instant's thought, showed her
-two potent reasons for a different line of conduct--first, she must
-cling as long as she possibly could to nurse--secondly, she knew Mrs.
-Storey did not expect her till the next day, so having glanced at these
-motives, and swallowed a rising inclination to sob, she answered, with
-a certain degree of reproachful sadness--
-
-"I do not think Mrs. Storey expects me till to-morrow; and if you can
-bear my presence a little longer, I should prefer waiting till then.
-Dear cousin, though you are weary of me, I think of our parting with
-grief, and regret."
-
-"Oh, Kate, Kate," cried Lady Desmond, pressing her handkerchief to
-her eyes "would to God, I could blot out the last few months--I feel
-I am utterly neglecting my bounden duty in thus leaving you--but
-it is better for both of us, at least for awhile! Do you forgive
-me? you would if you knew the wretched sea of doubt and difficulty
-and suspicion in which my weary spirit is tossed! I should make you
-miserable if you stayed with me."
-
-"I am most fully determined, even if you were not so inclined, to leave
-you; at present it is quite as much my choice, as yours--do not grieve
-about that--but--but, dear Georgy, do not seem so anxious to get rid of
-me!"
-
-"What a selfish, worthless wretch I have become," said Lady Desmond,
-with sudden remorse, "I am not the same for an hour--at this moment I
-would fain keep you with me to the last! but Saturday, the day after
-to-morrow, I leave for Ireland; till then, you shall stay with me--you
-would like to stay with nurse, at all events--how could I forget, ah!
-Kate forgive me! you may, you ought; God knows how much misery you have
-caused me," she ended bitterly.
-
-Kate sighed to see how implacable were the suspicions entertained
-by Lady Desmond; and the rest of the journey was performed in almost
-unbroken and melancholy silence.
-
-Miss Vernon wrote a line, to announce her arrival in town, to Mrs.
-Storey; and then, leaving her cousin to receive the thousand and one
-visitors, who flocked to remonstrate with, and exclaim at her strange
-whim of performing a personal, and purgatorial progress to her estates
-in Ireland, she sought the society of poor nurse, who was plunged into
-the deepest affliction--
-
-"I'll never forgive mee Lady Desmond, fur lettin' ye stay behind this
-away. There's no use in talkin' but I know there's been some ruction
-betune yez--any ways, I'll do yer biddin', an' stay out the four weeks
-wid her; but afther that, don't lay a vow upon me, avourneen! an' ye'll
-write me long letthers."
-
-"Write! Ah, yes, it will be my only comfort until we meet--for we
-must--we shall meet soon again."
-
-And Miss Vernon threw herself on nurse's bosom, overpowered by the
-feelings she had so long suppressed. Long and passionately did she
-weep--and nurse, nobly hushing her own grief, strove to cheer her
-child, whose unwonted emotion absolutely frightened the honest,
-warm-hearted woman. Gradually Kate listened to her words, rallied
-herself from the flood of bitterness which had swept over her spirit,
-and after some desultory and mournful conversation, obeyed nurse's
-kindly command.
-
-"There's no use talking any more darlin, you must go to yer bed."
-
-Kate, fatigued by the tears and sorrow of the day, was soon wrapped in
-sleep; and nurse bent over her long and tenderly as she lay, one long
-wavy tress escaping from the deep lace of her cap, her hands crossed
-upon her bosom, which heaved slightly with each regular softly drawn
-breath, the rosy lips apart, while
-
- "On her snowy lids, whose texture fine
- Scarce hides the dark blue orbs beneath,
- The baby sleep--lies pillowed."
-
-As nurse gazed at this picture of profound and innocent repose, lovely
-as sleeping youth must be, to every eye capable of acknowledging
-beauty, all her own grief at the separation of to-morrow pressed quick
-and stern upon her.
-
-"Ah, who'll watch over ye, pulse iv me heart? Who'll ye go spake to
-when yer in throuble? Where will ye turn when yer sperrit scorns the
-ways iv them that's about ye. Ah, where indeed! Oh, Mary, sweet queen
-of heaven, look on ye. Sure ye niver had a purer heart than hers.
-Blessed Jasus shield ye. Ah, Captin, agra, it's here ye ought to be,
-with the warm heart an' the strong arm to hold her up through this
-weary world."
-
-And sinking on her knees, nurse devoutly told her beads, often wiping
-away the fast-falling tears, yet, with the peculiarity of her race,
-fervently hoping through it all.
-
- "There is a prescience given to grief,
- Which joy may never know,
- A hope of future good, to cheer,
- The ruggedness of woe!
- It is the soul's deep whisper heard
- When earth's rude tumult sleeps,
- A moment hushed, when pain or grief,
- Across the spirit sweeps.
- Then through the gloom of doubt and dread,
- An angel voice we hear,
- Which speaks its inborn happiness,
- Undimmed by grief or fear."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-TERRA INCOGNITA.
-
-
-"There is one thing more I wish to say to you, dearest nurse," said
-Miss Vernon, as she was dressing to go to Mrs. Storey the morning after
-the conversation above recorded; all her trunks and packages were lying
-about the room in desolate disorder, and she was hurrying to join her
-cousin at luncheon.
-
-"What is it, agra?"
-
-"Why, that cheque Mr. Winter sent me--Roberts got me the money for it."
-
-"Misther Roberts is a knowledgeable man."
-
-"But, nurse, this portion of it is for you."
-
-"Oh, blessed Vargin! look at this. Now, Miss Kate, do you think I'd be
-afther robbin ye iv twenty pounds--and I wid a pile iv notes in the
-savin's bank, if I could only get at them."
-
-"That is it, exactly," interrupted Miss Vernon, hastily, "you must have
-money, and though you and I are on those terms, that we do not keep
-debtor and creditor accounts, you know very well, I consider it not
-only a pleasure, but a duty, to share with you whatever I possess, only
-in this case, I have kept the lion's share--no more, nurse--you must
-take it--I shall think you do not love me if you refuse."
-
-There was something so urgent in Miss Vernon's tones, that nurse felt
-herself compelled to obey, _malgré lui_.
-
-"Sure I'll keep them fur ye."
-
-"Do what you will, nurse; but, remember, though I can, and may have to
-bear much, I could not support the idea of your wanting any thing. One
-kiss before I go down. How I wish Georgy would let you come with me to
-Bayswater, and stay at home herself."
-
-"She hasn't so much sinse--though I'm sorry for her, she's in grate
-throuble entirely about you going away--faith I begin to make it out."
-
-Lady Desmond was, as Mrs. O'Toole said, in great trouble, restless,
-miserable, capricious; at one moment pressing Kate to change her plans,
-and accompany her to Ireland, at another, evidently ready to facilitate
-her departure, while she hurried her own preparations, yet showed a
-disposition to linger within the charmed precincts where echo sometimes
-conveyed a rumour of Lord Effingham's proceedings.
-
-He was still at Cowes, and the _Morning Post_ of that day gave an
-account of a dinner given by him on board his new yacht, "The Meteor,"
-to all the celebrities of the R. Y. C.
-
-"That does not look like disappointment," thought Lady Desmond, as she
-read, "time, and time only can satisfy me of the truth."
-
-She was silent during the repast, of which Kate strove to partake, and
-rose at once, on Miss Vernon suggesting that she had promised to be
-with Mrs. Storey at two.
-
-Nurse made her appearance as the cousins descended to the carriage.
-
-"Once more good-bye, kindest and best," said Kate, embracing her, and
-trying to speak steadily. "Georgy," she continued, laying her hand
-impressively on Lady Desmond's arm, "I know you love nurse for her own
-sake. But, remember, I feel every kindness shown to her as intended for
-myself."
-
-"You may trust nurse safely to me," replied her cousin; and they
-entered the carriage.
-
-Kate leaned from it as long as nurse remained in sight, and often,
-in after days, declared that the long earnest gaze, with which she
-followed the retreating form so dear to her, impressed itself for ever
-on her heart, and that nurse's figure, in her black dress and white
-cap, as she stood shading her eyes with her hand, formed one of those
-indelible pictures ever vivid, let unnumbered years roll by, with which
-memory is at rare intervals stamped.
-
-Lady Desmond preserved an almost unbroken silence until they neared
-their destination, and had reached the comparatively quiet region of
-the parks, then turning to Kate, said--
-
-"I suppose Mrs. Storey will not expect me to go in. I am in no humour
-for her gossip."
-
-"Of course you need not if you do not like it; but--"
-
-"Oh, then I see I ought--yes, it will be more gracious. I would do
-anything to serve or please you, my Kate," and she looked at her
-mournfully and tenderly.
-
-Miss Vernon's eyes filled with tears; yet they were not unhappy tears.
-She was thankful to bid her cousin adieu in this mood--for Kate set a
-great value on last impressions.
-
-The sound of the carriage-wheels brought a rosy-cheeked, smiling
-parlor-maid to the hall-door, while a row of small heads appeared
-above the parlor blinds. Then ensued the lively bustle of lifting down
-trunks, and carrying in carpet-bags; and the rosy parlor-maid ran
-backwards and forwards, her little airy cap blown about by the light
-breeze, quite in a twitter at being assisted, with much gallantry, by
-so distinguished an individual as Lady Desmond's footman.
-
-"I am sure this is so kind of you, Lady Desmond; I did not expect the
-pleasure of seeing of you. Miss Vernon, my dear, you are most heartily
-welcome; the children have been looking out for you all day--my little
-Willie has not forgotten you. You'll take some cake and wine--do?"
-
-"Thank you, no," said Lady Desmond. "We have lunched; and I only gave
-myself a few moments, in which to say, how do you do, and good-bye.
-I start to-morrow for Ireland, and have much to accomplish before
-dinner-time."
-
-"Well, but you will sit down, and let me thank you for leaving Miss
-Vernon with us awhile. My dear," to Kate, "you are not looking so
-well--paler and thinner than when I saw you last--I am sure the air at
-Hampton Court is beautiful and healthy. I never enjoyed anything so
-much as the day I spent with your ladyship. I see my Lord Effingham is
-in the Isle of Wight. I never met so nice a man as he is, and as simple
-as a common person. I thought," again turning to Kate, "you would not
-like to leave England somehow or other," and she laughed a significant
-laugh that raised the blood in quick nervous blushes to Kate's cheek;
-she glanced at Lady Desmond; but her brow was not more overcast than
-before, and the entrance of the children prevented any further remark.
-
-The eldest boy--a fair-haired, bright-eyed child, just old enough to
-be shy--stood awhile, his finger in his mouth, half hiding behind his
-nurse-maid's apron, till Kate stretched out her arms. When, after a
-moment's hesitation, he bounded into them, and they were as great
-friends as ever.
-
-"Now that I have installed Kate in the bosom of your family, Mrs.
-Storey, I must say good-bye," said Lady Desmond, rising.
-
-Kate put down little Willie, and stood up with a beating heart.
-
-"You will let me know immediately how you get over, and make nurse
-write--give her my fond love, Georgy."
-
-"I will," said her cousin, who had taken a very gracious leave of Mrs.
-Storey. She paused a moment, and, then folding her arms round Kate,
-kissed her with all her old accustomed warmth, whispering--"Trust me
-still!" and rapidly descending the stairs, was out of sight before
-Kate could realise that she was really going.
-
-Miss Vernon turned from the window with a choking sensation in her
-throat; the time was indeed come when she must struggle on alone.
-
-"So you are very glad to see Miss Vernon again, Willie?" asked the
-proud mama, stroking his curls.
-
-"Yes," lisped Willie, pressing his little round cheek against Kate's
-hand, and looking up in her face with such a bright loving glance, that
-she felt irresistibly cheered by it.
-
-"Not more glad than I am to see Willie."
-
-She sat down, and took him into her lap.
-
-"We do not dine till six to-day," said Mrs. Storey; "you are accustomed
-to late hours, and my brother said he would join us--you are such a
-favorite with him."
-
-"You must not change your hours for me," returned Kate, "I know you
-generally dine with the children, and I like dining early."
-
-"You are very good and obliging, I am sure. You see, Mr. Storey is so
-late generally--but to-day he said he would make it a point to be home
-early; he is so pleased you are to be with us."
-
-"I am very glad to hear it," said Kate, gratified at this cordiality.
-
-"And I expect to hear lots of news," resumed Mrs. Storey, significantly.
-
-"Indeed, I have none to tell," said Kate.
-
-"Well, well, we shall see. And how do you think the children looking?
-Willie has had a sore throat--we were afraid it might end in
-scarletina, &c., &c."
-
-And the good-natured gossip was merged in the anxious mother, who,
-encouraged by Kate's ready attention, poured forth a string of
-anecdotes, maternal and domestic, touching "baby's last tooth," and
-"Maria's shameful neglect of her plate and glass."
-
-And Miss Vernon felt a sense of relief in hearing these natural, simple
-details, which she usually voted extremely tiresome; but now, after
-the agitations she had passed through, and the stormy passions she had
-witnessed, anything indicative of home, with its calm atmosphere of
-repose, and quiet duty, was refreshing to her.
-
-So instinctively conscious of more than usual sympathy in her listener,
-Mrs. Storey chattered on uninterruptedly until it was almost time to
-dress for dinner.
-
-Miss Vernon missed her affectionate motherly attendant as she arranged
-her unpretending toilette for dinner. Not that she was incapable of
-waiting on herself; but her dressing-room had always been the scene
-of those confidential conversations in which Mrs. O'Toole's soul
-delighted. She pictured to herself her loving and beloved nurse sitting
-alone in some room of the busy, crowded hotel, her arms folded in her
-apron, rocking herself to and fro, with no one near to whom she could
-speak in the genuine accents of real sorrow.
-
-"My poor dear nurse, may God comfort you," murmured Kate; and then,
-feeling her fortitude melting away before the picture she had conjured
-up, she resolutely turned from it. "I have no right to damp the spirits
-of these friendly people with my melancholy looks."
-
-So she braided her bright hair, and smiled at her pale cheeks, which
-had lost the few roses they began to gather at Hampton Court: and
-hearing some one trying to turn the handle of the door, opened it, and
-admitted little Willie, with whom she descended to the drawing-room.
-
-"Well, indeed, my dear, you do not look so rosy or so bright as I would
-wish to see you," said Mrs. Storey, "not but that you look pretty
-always."
-
-"_Cela va sans dire_," interrupted Kate, smiling.
-
-"But," resumed Mrs. Storey, "what is the reason his lordship is gone to
-the Isle of Wight?"
-
-"Will you believe me," replied Kate, gravely and impressively, "when I
-assure you that I am equally ignorant of, and unaccountable for, Lord
-Effingham's movements."
-
-The gravity of her manner silenced her loquacious hostess, and
-immediately after Mr. Storey entered, accompanied by Langley. The
-former greeted Kate with boisterous cordiality, the latter with sincere
-though quiet pleasure. It was an additional trial to her, this meeting
-with Langley, whom she had not seen since her grandfather's death; and
-the contending memories which his presence recalled kept her silent,
-while he expressed, in his usual shy, embarrassed manner, his happiness
-in meeting her again. He was very taciturn at dinner, but this passed
-unnoticed, as the host and hostess were really a host in themselves, at
-least in the talking line.
-
-"I have to thank you for sending me Mr. Winter's letters so promptly,"
-said Kate, as they sat near each other at tea. "I am very anxious for
-another, but do not know where to write;--and, Mr. Langley, why did you
-never come to see me all the time I was at Hampton Court?"
-
-Langley coloured.
-
-"I do not know Lady Desmond," he said, "and you were all too fine and
-gay for an obscure artist."
-
-"Gay," repeated Kate, looking at him reproachfully.
-
-"Well, too fine; I should not have felt at home there."
-
-"I should have been much pleased had you taken the trouble to pay me a
-visit, and Hampton Court would have delighted you; but, of course, you
-know it already."
-
-"Yes, I----" began Langley, again reddening, then interrupting himself
-abruptly--"If I really thought you remembered, I was--that is, I did
-not think you would notice it."
-
-"Ah! Mr. Langley," said Kate, with a pensive smile, "you feel guilty,
-or you would not hesitate so much."
-
-"Had you there, Bill," cried Mr. Storey, with an agreeable wink; "the
-ladies are never merciful when they catch us tripping." But Langley
-deigned no reply.
-
-"I do not think Winter is inclined to come back," said he to Kate;
-"he wrote me a few lines enclosing his last letter to you, in which
-he says he should like to remain where he is until he had drawn the
-whole country, natural and architectural, but that Mrs. Winter's absurd
-prejudices against grease and fleas would, he feared, cut short his
-enjoyment."
-
-"My dear William," cried his sister, raising her hands and eyes to
-heaven, "what _will_ Miss Vernon think of you mentioning such dreadful
-low vulgar words. I am sure I am thankful Lady Desmond's not here--what
-would she say?"
-
-"I dare say her ladyship is aware that such an entomological variety
-exists," returned Langley, drily.
-
-"Have you been very busy this summer," asked Kate, changing the subject
-in compassion to her hostess.
-
-"Yes, no--that is, I have been busily idle."
-
-"Sketching, and not finishing," suggested Miss Vernon. "That was what
-Mr. Winter used to call busy idleness."
-
-"You and Miss Vernon must look at my studio some day," said Langley to
-his sister; "I have one or two pretty subjects in progress."
-
-"I shall be delighted," cried Kate. "I am always happy in a studio,
-more so than even in a perfect gallery; besides, a studio always
-reminds me of Mr. Winter," she added with such enthusiasm that her
-listeners smiled.
-
-"I suppose you used to visit the pictures at Hampton Court frequently?"
-
-"Yes, yet not as often as I intended--something always happened to
-interfere with our visits--and I am so fond of Vandyke: his men and
-women are so noble-looking, one can hardly associate them with the
-wretched period in which they lived; but I suppose his paintings
-picture his own mind rather than the individuals he meant to depict."
-
-"Well, I would rather pay for my own portrait than another person's,"
-said Mr. Storey; "and I think Smith has hit off both myself and Mrs. S.
-right well."
-
-"Your pictures are certainly very like," said Miss Vernon politely.
-
-"But the most unmitigated daubs," remarked Langley.
-
-"I never enjoyed any pictures so much as those at Hampton Court,"
-remarked Mrs. Storey. "But then Lord Effingham told me about them so
-nicely; he knew them all."
-
-"Lord Effingham--a distinguished cicerone, Charlotte," remarked her
-brother. "He was very well known in the London world some five or six
-years ago, though one never heard much good of him--has he not been
-abroad for a long time?"
-
-This question was addressed to Miss Vernon, in total disregard of Mrs.
-Storey's energetic hems and warning frowns when he spoke disparagingly
-of the earl.
-
-"He was for some time in Italy--my cousin knew him there," replied Kate.
-
-"I'm sure he seemed the quietest and most obliging man I ever met,"
-said Mrs. Storey eagerly; "and it is just envy because he is richer and
-grander than themselves, that makes people tell ill-natured stories of
-him."
-
-"I do not fancy Lord Effingham is an amiable man," said Kate, quietly;
-"I do not think I ever saw him do the agreeable so readily as the day
-you were with us."
-
-"Hum," said Langley, gravely. "Then it was you, Charlotte, that kept
-his lordship on his P's and Q's.
-
-"Now, Miss Vernon, may we ask you for a little music?"
-
-"Not this evening, dear Mrs. Storey," said Kate, deprecatingly, and
-shaking her head. "To-morrow as much as you like, but to-night I feel
-quite unmusical."
-
-"Well, I dare say you feel low at parting with Lady Desmond," said Mrs.
-Storey.
-
-"And nurse," added Kate.
-
-So the evening wore away, and at last Kate was free to retire to the
-grateful solitude of her own room, to gather comfort and support from
-"communing with her own heart," and finally to rest.
-
-The day at Mrs. Storey's was very tranquil and rather monotonous. The
-eight o'clock breakfast was quickly followed by the departure of Mr.
-Storey for the city, and the eldest girl to school. Kate volunteered
-the task of inspecting Masters Willie and Bobby at their studies,
-thereby affording another hour to their mamma for the dear delight of
-the kitchen and the store-room. Kate saw little of her hostess before
-the one o'clock dinner, until which time she pursued her practising or
-her reading, her work or her thoughts uninterruptedly.
-
-Mr. Storey never returned to tea until seven o'clock, when he was
-usually ravenous and inaudible until after the consumption of divers
-viands. He often brought home some dapper city friend, with an evident
-wish to make his house agreeable to Miss Vernon, and under the usual
-impression entertained by men of his stamp, that beaux are a necessary
-of life to young ladies. This was the only real drawback in Kate's
-estimation to her _séjour_ at "Raby Villas"--the euphonious appellation
-of Mr. Storey's abode.
-
-Mrs. Storey too meditated a party--for, with all her good nature, Kate
-was a much more important personage in her estimation, fresh from the
-society of earls and countesses--the _crême de la crême_--than when she
-walked almost daily over to Brompton, with no attendant save a great
-dog, and received three and sixpence a lesson for music.
-
-The letters for which Kate had looked so anxiously were as usual in
-cases of anticipation, disappointing and perplexing; they did not
-arrive till the day after that on which they might have reached; Lady
-Desmond's ran thus:--
-
- "DEAR KATE,
-
- "Though peculiarly averse to writing, I feel I must keep my promise
- to you. We had a tiresome journey and a rough passage, but except
- fatigue, I am well enough; nurse who has had red eyes ever since she
- bid you good bye, desires her love and duty, and says she will not
- write this time; she has just been sitting with me; I was consoling
- her, at least trying to do so. This place looks wretched and deserted,
- worse than when I was last here. They say every one is ruined; I
- wonder I am not; but I can write no more, my head and heart are both
- aching. You shall hear from me when I reach Castle Desmond,"
-
- "Yours miserably,
-
- "G. D."
-
-At the bottom were some words across which a few had been hastily drawn
-once or twice. Kate easily perceived they were the commencement of a
-sentence, "your readiness to," but some interruption mental or physical
-had cut short the fair scribe, and she had changed her intentions.
-
-To Kate's infinite surprise, for Mrs. O'Toole was in general a
-remarkably straightforward person, a second letter reached her by the
-midday mail, directed in a blotted irregular hand written apparently
-with a wooden skewer.
-
- "_To Miss Vernon at Mr. Storey's,
- Bayswater._
-
- "Mee own blessed child," it began, "do'nt let on a word of this to
- mortial man; you will be angry with me for decavin me lady, but I
- wanted to write unknown'st, and I'm quite and snug for the night
- now, so I thought I'd sthrive to pen ye a line without a word to any
- one; the morning we left London, Saturday, Miss Lewis hears tell how
- me Lord Effingham was coming to take the rooms we wor in next week,
- and she ups and tould me lady, and me lady sends for me. 'Nurse,'
- says she, lookin like a ghost and her two eyes blazin mad, 'Wor you
- aware' says she spakin low, 'that Lord Effingham was commin,' 'To be
- sure I was;' says I, 'I heerd it as well as Miss Lewis,' says I, and
- then she turned and bit her lips, and looked like tunther, 'I thought
- you might have heard it at Hampton Coort,' ses she. 'Divil a haporth
- good nor bad I heard tell of him at the Coort,' says I; with that she
- gave a sort of a groan, 'Very well,' says she, 'of course, what could
- you know about him! What's delayin us,' ses she mighty sharp, 'the
- carriage immediately Roberts,' ses she, and there was no mistake she
- was in airnest. Now she's been quere since then, mighty fond of me,
- an always talkin of you, me darlint, but some how there's no truth in
- her eyes, so jist mind how ye write, an sure me eyes an me hands is
- tired, an if ye can read it, do'nt be angry if I write too free; sure
- I'd brave even the cross word from yourself, if I could do ye good, me
- own darlin child, there's not an hour of the day your poor old nurse
- does'nt be prayin for you, so God shield ye, and send me the light of
- me eyes again safe and sound.
-
- "Your own loving and respectful nurse,
-
- "NELLY O'TOOLE."
-
-Miss Vernon sat for some time lost in perplexed thought, she was truly
-glad to get nurse's affectionate letter, yet wished she had not told
-her that Lord Effingham was in town.
-
-"I must not betray nurse, and yet I should very much like to write
-openly to Georgy, her suspicions are once more all alive," and the
-indignant colour rose to Kate's cheek at the idea of such pertinacious
-injustice. "I must write as if regardless of any change in her tone
-since we last met, I wish dear nurse had not mentioned Lord Effingham,
-I wish I never had heard his name."
-
-Rousing herself from these fruitless reflections she called Willie,
-and knowing of old what potent consolers fresh air and sunshine always
-proved, asked Mrs. Storey's leave to take him with her to Kensall-green
-Cemetery where her grandfather's remains had been interred. She had not
-yet visited his grave, and choose the child's companionship during that
-visit of tender duty, as more congenial than any other. Willie, dancing
-with joy at the delight in prospect of a walk with Miss Vernon, was
-soon equipped, and the two friends started lovingly hand in hand.
-
-Their way lay through pleasant fields with a pretty back-ground of
-wooded country towards Harrow, all glowing in the rich light of an
-Autumn sun. Kate was quite inattentive to the pretty talk of her
-little squire. She was traversing these fields again with a far
-different companion, she was living over again many autumns all
-distinctly marked in her faithful memory; it had always been the gayest
-time at Dungar, it had been the brightest period of her sojourn at
-A----, dear A, which she found usurping the place Dungar had formerly
-held in her heart. And last autumn though clouded, was not all gloom;
-she had then that beloved grandfather, the nucleus round which, all
-her deepest affections, her noblest energies, her most unfaltering
-fortitude had ever rallied, rich in their undying truth. She recalled
-with the distinctness of unchanging affection, the incidents, trifling
-though they were, which marked the last days of his life; the gradual
-progress of a dejection she could not cheer; the quiet resignation of
-earthly hopes; the silent, the gentleness, the child-like simplicity
-of the noble spirit with which she had intimately communed during her
-whole life. Oh how vividly it all came back to her; the placid smile
-so sad in its sweetness; the thoughtfulness for others so marked in
-his last illness; and it was all over; never more on earth should she
-behold him.
-
-Roused at length from her thoughts by the unwonted silence of poor
-little Willie who was discouraged by receiving no answer to his many
-questions, she pressed the hand she held kindly and asked--"does Willie
-know the way to my dear grandfather's grave?"
-
-"Oh yes" cried the child eagerly, proud to be her guide, "Maria used
-often to take us there in the summer evenings, and mama sometimes, we
-used to see that the flowers were taken care of, it is such a pleasant
-walk."
-
-"Do you remember grandpapa" oppressed with the silent anguish of her
-own heart.
-
-"I think I do" returned Willie, "He had such beautiful white hair, and
-sugar plums always in his pocket."
-
-Kate smiled, though her tears fell upon the little hand that lay in
-hers, as she recognised this picture.
-
-"Why do you cry, dear Kate?" asked Willie who was a loving creature,
-"you are never naughty."
-
-"I cry," returned Kate, "because I have not that dear grandpapa to walk
-with me or to love me any more." The child seemed baffled by misfortune
-so far beyond his comprehension, but soon renewed the conversation by
-one of those innocent questions of the state of the souls after death,
-which children propound almost as soon as they are capable of observing.
-
-"There it is--there it is"--he at length cried bounding forward to the
-head of a grave, separated from the turf around, by a couple of iron
-bars supported by small pillars of the same metal; some heartsease and
-laurels adorned the little enclosure; and at the head a block of marble
-carved to represent a gothic niche, and surmounted by the armorial
-bearings of the deceased, bore the following inscription:--
-
- SACRED
- TO THE MEMORY OF
- COLONEL D'ARCY VERNON,
- OF DUNGAR,
- JUST, GENEROUS, BRAVE, AND TRUE.
- THIS STONE IS ERECTED BY A MOURNING RELATIVE,
- ONE OF THE MANY WHO OWE HIM AN
- UNREQUITABLE DEBT OF GRATITUDE.
-
-This simple, noble epitaph touched and gratified Miss Vernon's
-inmost soul. Simply and fervently she raised her soul to Heaven in
-silent prayer; and, at last, soothed and calmed by the just tribute
-so gracefully paid to the departed, she called to Willie, who (soon
-wearied of her motionless attitude) had wandered away.
-
-"I can never feel a shadow of anger against Georgy again for anything,"
-she thought, as her eye took in all the advantages of the well-chosen
-site--it was in the highest part of the cemetery; far below, lay the
-mighty town, looming indistinct through the cloud and smoke that
-shrouded it, like life with its trials, mean and great all hidden, in
-their tendencies, by the mist of human vision--while around and beyond
-was the clear blue sky, the balmy air, and the song of the birds, like
-the region of pure joy, and undimmed faith, to which the wearied spirit
-had escaped.
-
- * * * * *
-
-"Please 'm, there's a gentleman waiting to see you in the
-drawing-room," said the spruce Maria, one evening about a week after,
-when Kate and Mrs. Storey returned from a round of visits, into which
-the former had been entrapped.
-
-"Indeed," said Kate, then suddenly recollecting herself, "I dare say it
-is Colonel Dashwood."
-
-"Well, my dear, I will go and take off my bonnet, and, by that time,
-you will have finished your secrets."
-
-"I am sure Colonel Dashwood never had a secret in his life," said Kate,
-laughing.
-
-She ran hastily up stairs, and found, as she had anticipated, that
-gallant officer engaged in contemplating sundry long ringletted ladies
-in a book of beauty, having reduced the geometrical arrangement of the
-round table albums and annuals to great confusion.
-
-"I was just about to give you up in despair," cried Colonel Dashwood,
-advancing to meet her with great cordiality. "Any commands for Dublin?
-I start to-morrow."
-
-"For Dublin!" said Kate. "You astonish me. How--what is it takes you
-away so suddenly?" And she looked earnestly at his countenance, which
-wore a bright, hopeful expression, far different from the last she had
-seen there.
-
-"Hampton Court has been insupportable since your departure," said the
-Colonel, gaily, "so I have got three weeks' leave; and, after some
-uncertainty how to dispose of myself, decided on visiting my old haunts
-in Ireland."
-
-"I am sorry you will just miss Georgina," observed Miss Vernon. "She
-has either left Dublin for Castle Desmond, or will to-morrow."
-
-"Indeed," cried Colonel Dashwood, evidently pulled up by this piece of
-information. "I was speaking to Effingham, who put me down here, and he
-seemed to think she would remain there some short time."
-
-"It was pure fancy on Lord Effingham's part," returned Kate, "he is
-quite ignorant of her movements."
-
-"So it appears; yet they said at Hampton Court that this sudden move
-was merely a preparatory step to changing Lady Desmond into the
-Countess of Effingham."
-
-"How absurd," cried Kate, coloring, "there never was the least
-probability of such a _finale_ to their acquaintance."
-
-"I discovered as much from Effingham's conversation this morning," said
-the Colonel, significantly, "though," he added, laughingly, "I confess,
-notwithstanding some experience on these points, my observation was
-quite at fault as to his object in--but," interrupting himself, "I am
-growing terribly indiscreet, Miss Vernon. Effingham was sorry some
-engagement, I do not know what, prevented him from calling upon you
-to-day--and I strongly advised him to defer that pleasure."
-
-"I do not wish to see Lord Effingham," said Kate, gravely.
-
-The Colonel raised his eye-brows, and smiled.
-
-"Tell me, if I miss Lady Desmond in Dublin, how shall I get on her
-track? Is there any shooting or fishing in the neighbourhood--is Castle
-Desmond beyond the reach of Bianconi's cars?--for, if I remember
-rightly, they are the most extended ramifications of civilisation in
-your splendid country."
-
-The entrance of Mrs. Storey cut short his enquiries.
-
-"Colonel Dashwood, Mrs. Storey," said Kate, "you remember Colonel
-Dashwood perhaps."
-
-"Oh, quite well," replied Mrs. Storey, with one or two little bobbing
-curtseys, as she took the chair handed her by that polite individual.
-"I am very sorry Mr. Storey is not at home, and we might, perhaps,
-induce the Colonel to stop dinner with us."
-
-"A thousand thanks, my dear madam; but I must dine with the Guards
-to-day, and only ran down here to ask Miss Vernon's commands for
-Ireland."
-
-"Oh, indeed! I did not know you were Irish."
-
-"Nor am I; but I like good fishing, and plenty of fun, and both are to
-be had in Paddy's land."
-
-"I fear you will not find much of the last now," said Kate.
-
-"What a pity the Colonel is running away before the 30th," said Mrs.
-Storey. "We have a few friends and a little music, and, perhaps, you
-would have joined us," continued the hospitable little woman who
-thought how much Colonel's Dashwood's fine figure and _air distingué_
-would astonish the Bayswater world.
-
-"You had better stay," suggested Kate.
-
-"Ah! unfortunately, it is not in my power."
-
-"Were you at the Countess of B----'s grand ball on Friday night,
-Colonel Dashwood?" asked Mrs. Storey, anxious to get up a little
-fashionable talk, and to show her knowledge of the great world.
-
-"Lady B----, no! did she give a ball? I remember her--she is an awful
-old woman. I never go to balls in London--they are such tame correct
-things--country quarters spoil one for your regular dazzling scenes."
-
-Kate could not refrain from a smile at the amazement depicted on Mrs.
-Storey's countenance at this sally.
-
-"Talking of balls," resumed Colonel Dashwood, "reminds me of an
-indefatigable dancer, at least, in former years: Fred Egerton; I
-had a letter the other day, from him; he does not seem to have got
-mine, when he wrote. The mail is extremely irregular, during all this
-skirmishing--he appears to be suffering from some neglected wound,
-and is fretting at his inactivity--he used to be the easiest going
-fellow on earth; but Sir John M---- was telling me the other day,
-that they hold him to be one of the smartest officers on our Indian
-establishment, at present--he is a capital fellow, at all events.
-By-the-bye, he asks where you and the--." Dashwood stopped short;
-"I mean my late friend, Colonel Vernon, are which shows he had not
-received any letters or papers for an immense time."
-
-Kate silently reclined her head, and after exchanging a few more
-remarks with Mrs. Storey, Colonel Dashwood took his leave, promising,
-with great earnestness, that should anything occur to delay his
-departure, he would, without fail, make his appearance among the
-"expected few friends," on the 30th.
-
-"Good-bye, Miss Vernon," said he, pressing her hand kindly; "thanks
-for your _carte du pays_; take care of yourself, for I cannot give a
-very flourishing account of you to Lady Desmond; there is more of the
-_beauté fragile_ in your appearance, than I like to see. When do you
-join your cousin?"
-
-"Oh do not talk of that, Colonel Dashwood," interrupted Mrs. Storey.
-"We cannot part with Miss Vernon for a long time to come."
-
-Kate only smiled.
-
-"I wish you all success in your fishing; only remember the grand
-characteristic of your craft is patience."
-
-The Colonel bowed, and was gone.
-
-"What a nice man he is to be sure," cried Mrs. Storey, as soon as
-they were _tête-à-tête_, "so full of life, but quite different from
-Lord Effingham. Those gentleman in the army have such a gay, off-hand
-manner."
-
-"Yes, Colonel Dashwood is very much to be liked--I am very fond of him."
-
-"Lord, my dear, that is a confession."
-
-"Is it," said Kate, laughing.
-
-"What would my lord say to that?" asked Mrs. Storey.
-
-"Nothing, I should think."
-
-"Two strings to one's bow, are sometimes as bad as none," remarked Mrs.
-Storey, oracularly.
-
-"Between two stools, etc., is that your meaning?" asked Kate,
-carelessly. "I must take off my bonnet and shawl and finish the
-discussion at tea."
-
-Miss Vernon was glad to have seen Colonel Dashwood, and heard from
-him, of Lord Effingham's presence in London; she could now, if
-necessary, mention it to Lady Desmond, without betraying nurse--but she
-trusted it would not be necessary, for his disinclination to accompany
-Colonel Dashwood in his visit, had led her to hope he had accepted
-her dismissal as final, and already begun to forget his _engouement_.
-She was glad too, that Colonel Dashwood was about to follow her
-cousin--such a mark of decided preference from a man, so deservedly
-esteemed as the Colonel, might, she thought, soothe her cousin's
-mortified spirit; and, perhaps, supply her with a real and substantial
-object of affection, as she woke from the vain dream, that had proved
-so bitterly deceitful. "I have heard dear grandpapa say, hearts were
-sometimes caught in the rebound."
-
-And Fred Egerton--she had of late thought it strange that he had taken
-no notice whatever of her sad bereavement--she thought he would have
-written, at least, to Winter, for some particulars of the event; but,
-resolutely turning from these thoughts, she fixed her mind on the
-probable reasons, why she had not received a second letter from Lady
-Desmond; and finding her imagination less inclined to traverse the
-narrow breadth of the Irish channel, than to devour the wide space of
-the Overland route to India--she quitted the "phantom-peopled" solitude
-of her chamber, and joined the children in a game of "blind-man's
-buff." Mrs. Storey was grievously disappointed when, day after day
-rolled by, and Miss Vernon, not only never poured any tender revelation
-into her sympathising bosom, but never hinted that there was one
-to make. Mrs. Storey was accustomed to give advice in a number of
-difficult engagements, and a young lady, who was not provided with a
-lover, or on the look out for one, was a phenomenon uninteresting to
-her. Kate was so unmistakeably true, that she could not accuse her of
-the "depth," to which discreet, and sympathising matrons peculiarly
-object--so she had nothing for it, but to conclude Miss Vernon was too
-Blue to fall in love. This compulsory forbearance was, however, amply
-rewarded.
-
-The day but one after Colonel Dashwood's visit, Kate received a letter
-from Lady Desmond--she wrote in rather better spirits, still dated from
-Dublin--she said she had postponed her departure another week, and that
-she feared very much the state of things about the Castle, was very
-deplorable, as the famine was most severe in that part of the world.
-The tone of the letter was more affectionate, yet there was something
-of constraint in it, that jarred upon Kate's feelings painfully; "But,"
-she thought, "I will be patient--poor Georgy! she has suffered so much."
-
-After their early dinner, Miss Vernon sat down to reply to her
-cousin's letter, and tell her of Colonel Dashwood's visit, intending
-to mention that Lord Effingham was in town Mrs. Storey was busy
-over a large work-basket filled with small garments, of various
-sizes; and both the children, Charlotte, and William, were playing
-about the room, often interrupting the progress of Kate's pen, while
-occasional communications from the scene of action up stairs, where
-the drawing-room was undergoing its weekly purification, disturbed the
-labours of Mrs. Storey's needle. They were all assembled in a small,
-plainly furnished parlour, used as a common sitting-room.
-
-"Go and look out of the window, like good children, and let Miss Vernon
-write in peace," said mama, at last, and Kate continued to write for
-some moments uninterrupted.
-
-"What a beautiful horse," cried Willie, after looking over the blinds
-for a while in silence.
-
-"How he holds up his head," said his sister; "and the boy in the pretty
-little boots is look-at all the houses."
-
-"They are coming here," shouted Willie, clapping his hands.
-
-Mrs. Storey rose to look, and reached the window, just as the
-diminutive tiger knocked at the door.
-
-"Law, my dear Miss Vernon, this is some friend of yours; what a
-stylish cab," exclaimed Mrs. Storey, now quite as much absorbed in
-contemplating the new arrival, as her children. "The boy has taken the
-reins, and--my gracious, if it is'nt Lord Effingham himself, and all
-the furniture out of the drawing-room; and my work basket! was there
-ever anything half so unlucky," and she rushed in helpless perplexity
-to hide, at least, the unsightly work-basket from view, when the door
-was thrown open, and the spruce maid, looking unusually dusty, hastily
-announced--
-
-"A gentleman for Miss Vernon."
-
-Kate, whose sense of the ridiculous, was too genuine to be
-extinguished, even by sincere vexation at so unwelcome a visit, rose to
-receive him with an irrepressible smile, at the contrast between Mrs.
-Storey's despairing fuss, and his calm, unconscious, high-bred _entré_.
-
-Lord Effingham evidently mistook the source of that smile, for he
-responded to it with a sudden clearing of his clouded brow, and
-brightening of the eye.
-
-"I began to fear I should never see you again, Miss Vernon," was his
-opening address. "I drove Dashwood down here a couple of days ago; but,
-in compassion to his evident wish to get rid of me, with praiseworthy
-self-denial, I left him to his own devices; and to-day I find he went
-to the wrong house; and I have been some time looking for the right
-one--all's well that end's well, however;" and he bowed, a bow of
-recognition to Mrs. Storey.
-
-Kate felt singularly puzzled how to treat him; it was impossible not
-to accept his easy polished manner, and matter-of-course address, in
-the same unembarrassed style; yet it provoked her to find him thus
-establishing himself on precisely his former footing, while she felt
-herself powerless to prevent it. She strove by monosyllabic answers,
-and the utmost coldness, to convey her distaste for his visits; but
-if repulsed by Miss Vernon, he was eminently successful in charming
-her hostess. He alluded once or twice to their pictorial expedition
-at Hampton Court, and asked if the famous painter, Langley, was not
-a relative of hers. Mrs. Storey eagerly explained the degree of
-consanguinity; and Kate heard, with no small astonishment, a visit to
-his studio, speedily arranged.
-
-"What an amount of annoyance Lord Effingham must be enduring," she
-thought; for poor Mrs. Storey exactly represented a class of persons,
-held in devout horror by the fastidious Earl; it only required a few
-caresses to the children to complete Miss Vernon's amazement; but he
-did not get quite so far.
-
-"You have not told me anything of Lady Desmond," said Lord Effingham,
-turning to her with consummate assurance. "She is in Dublin, is she
-not?"
-
-Kate bowed.
-
-"And Miss Vernon had a letter from her to-day," added Mrs. Storey,
-rather scandalised by Kate's coldness. "I believe she is quite well."
-
-"So nurse says," replied Miss Vernon.
-
-"That is one of the most remarkable women I have ever met," observed
-Lord Effingham, in precisely the same tone of dignified approbation he
-would have used towards a crowned head.
-
-Mrs. Storey laughed, and said, "she was quite a character."
-
-The conversation lagged after this; and the impatient Earl began
-to weary of the unwonted exercise of so much self-control; he was,
-however, determined to make Miss Vernon speak.
-
-"You cannot imagine my astonishment, on my return from Cowes, to find
-you had flown," he said; "Lady Desmond's movements are as sudden and as
-well masked as Napoleon's."
-
-"It can hardly be called a masked movement, considering it had been
-discussed a fortnight before _en cour pleniere_," returned Miss Vernon;
-"some intelligence, unexpectedly, received, induced my cousin to make
-the journey more suddenly than she had anticipated."
-
-"I expected as much," said Lord Effingham, with quiet significance,
-the insolence of which, perceptible to her only, called the indignant
-blood into Kate's cheek. "But," he continued, looking steadily at her,
-"some fairy, or angel whispered to me that you would not accompany her,
-although I am not in the habit of receiving angelic communications."
-
-"There are two descriptions of angels," said Kate, simply.
-
-The remark was irresistible; but it was hardly uttered before she
-regretted it; for Lord Effingham smiled, gaily, as if gratified that
-she had deigned to retort. He was now satisfied he had accomplished
-as much as one visit would permit, and rising to depart, thanked Mrs.
-Storey for her permission to accompany them to Langley's studio, and
-made his adieux with the same ease that marked his _entré_.
-
-"Well, my dear," cried Mrs. Storey, triumphantly, "you will believe me
-again! I think there is no mistake about that. And how you could treat
-such an elegant man with the greatest coldness, I cannot understand.
-Had you any quarrel with him? for you were friendly enough at Hampton
-Court."
-
-"I have no quarrel with Lord Effingham, Mrs. Storey," replied Kate,
-gravely; "but I dislike him extremely; and I must ask you, as a favour,
-that you will not encourage him to come here. It is very natural that
-you should think well of him. I know him better."
-
-"Law! my dear girl," said Mrs. Storey, eagerly. "Don't be foolish!
-Earls are not to be found on every bush. And what is it to you if he
-has been a little wild; young men will be young men; and when he is
-married, he will turn over a new leaf. See, how independent and grand
-you would be as Countess of Effingham, going down to dinner before Lady
-Desmond herself."
-
-"I know, my dear Mrs. Storey, how well-meant is your advice; and,
-believe me, I am grateful for the interest you take in my prospects;
-but do not refuse my request; help me to avoid Lord Effingham."
-
-"But what shall we do about to-morrow?" said poor Mrs. Storey,
-ruefully. She could not relinquish an Earl without a pang.
-
-"I am sure Mr. Langley will raise some obstacle. At all events, I will
-remain in my own room, and you can act as his _cicerone_. If this
-continues," added Kate, resolutely, "I will leave London. Indeed, I
-have wished to speak to you on this subject before."
-
-"I am sure I shall never forgive Lord Effingham if he frightens
-you away, my dear," said Mrs. Storey, kindly; and then added,
-reflectively--"goodness me! how strange high-life is!"
-
-This visit of Lord Effingham's was a great shock to Kate; how was
-she to clear herself in Lady Desmond's eyes from the suspicion that
-she had consented so readily to remain in London in order to see her
-accepted lover more frequently. Yes! the only remedy was to mature her
-crude plans for endeavouring to obtain employment of some kind out of
-London--to dependance she would never return.
-
-Kate's anticipations as to Langley's raising obstacles to that visit
-proved correct; he made his appearance, according to his usual custom,
-at tea time.
-
-"Lord Effingham was here this morning, William--he is very anxious to
-see your studio; and I promised to take him with me to-morrow."
-
-"He does me infinite honour," said Langley. "But it happens I am going
-to Windsor to-morrow, and cannot leave my studio unlocked even to
-gratify his lordship."
-
-Kate thought he said this with unusual acerbity.
-
-"Well, that _is_ unfortunate," cried Mrs. Storey.
-
-"What a _grandee_ you are growing all at once, Charlotte," said her
-husband, facetiously; "patronising Earls and Colonels--they will want
-you at Almacks next. Talking of finery," continued Mr. Storey, "I was
-introduced to Tom Jorrocks' wife to-day, and promised you would call
-upon her--they are in town, for a few weeks, at ----; here's his card,
-Cambridge Terrace."
-
-And Mr. and Mrs. Storey immediately plunged into the history of Tom
-Jorrocks and his wife, and of how rich his mother was, and what a large
-fortune he was making, &c., &c. While Langley and Kate conversed
-quietly apart.
-
-"Is Lord Effingham a great lover of painting?"
-
-"I believe so; he certainly understands it."
-
-"It is curious enough; I was walking this evening with Gailliard, (who,
-by the way, was making many enquiries for you,) when Lord Effingham
-drove past us in Regent Street. Gailliard seems to have known a good
-deal of him abroad; he gave a curious character of him." Langley
-thought for some moments, and then resumed--"You remember Gailliard?"
-
-"Oh, quite well--I should like to see him again."
-
-"He has just returned from France, with a perfect budget of anecdotes,
-touching the late Revolution; he is a strange fellow," concluded
-Langley, musingly.
-
-"I always wonder that M. Gailliard is not a man of greater eminence
-than he is."
-
-"Yes--he has all the ingredients to be a great writer, a good artist, a
-leading character, and yet he seems to have missed everything."
-
-"Perhaps," said Kate, smiling, "he requires the predominance of some
-one of these qualities to decide his character, as the slightly
-superior strength of the right hand prevents the awkwardness of not
-knowing which to use."
-
-"Very likely. Do you know, Miss Vernon, you think a good deal for a
-young lady!"
-
-"I cannot accept so insulting a compliment," said Kate, laughing; and
-rising, at Mrs. Storey's request, she went to the piano. "I want your
-opinion of this air--it came back to me in a dream some nights ago. A
-poor silly boy at Dungar used to sing it so sweetly, and I have never
-heard it since. I rather think it is a very old air that escaped Moore
-and Sir John Stevenson--the Irish words I never knew; but these I found
-among poor Mr. Gilpin's papers--they seem to have been written not
-long before his sister's death."
-
-And, after a few arpeggio chords, she sung as follows:--
-
- "Look afar thro' the gloom, weary heart,
- To yon dim and faint revealing,
- The glim'ring ray
- Of distant day
- O'er life's troubled ocean stealing.
-
- It comes with endless joy, sad heart,
- A glorious sunburst beaming,
- With peace and love
- From heaven above,
- O'er sin and sorrow streaming.
-
- Soon the dark waters past, sad heart,
- Thou'lt rest in thy spirit home,
- Where we part no more
- From those gone before
- Across life's billowy foam.
-
- There no falsehood shall oppress thee,
- Nor sorrow's dark'ning gloom,
- For free is the soul
- That has reached its goal,
- In the world beyond the tomb."
-
-"Well, Miss Vernon," remarked Mr. Storey, "that's quite too melancholy
-a song for me--the dismals never suit my book."
-
-"My dear! it is beautiful, and made me cry, I could not help it!"
-exclaimed his wife.
-
-"You say the words are original," observed Langley.
-
-"Yes, I am almost sure they were written by Mr. Gilpin's sister, who
-died of consumption shortly before we went to A----."
-
-"They suit the air remarkably--the song makes an impression I shall not
-easily forget nor your singing of it," added Langley, more to himself
-than to Kate.
-
-"Now, Miss Vernon, may I ask for that march we liked so much,
-yesterday?" said Mrs. Storey, and soon afterwards they separated for
-the night.
-
-The next morning was most perseveringly wet, and both Mrs. Storey
-and Kate agreed that the most determined picture-maniac would hardly
-venture out in such weather.
-
-"But you will see, he will come for all that," concluded Mrs. Storey.
-
-"Then _you_ must receive him," said Kate, "I will not appear."
-
-"Gracious goodness," cried her hostess. "What shall I say about you?"
-
-"Do not trouble yourself to think--send for me, and the message I shall
-return will relieve you of all responsibility."
-
-"But if he insists on seeing you?"
-
-"He dare not!" said Kate, with a sudden lighting of the eye, and proud
-drawing up of the head that seemed to her good easy friend like the
-revelation of some unknown world. "Well my dear, whatever you like,"
-she said, meekly.
-
-Mrs. Storey's conjectures proved true, for, notwithstanding the
-weather, Lord Effingham arrived punctually at the time specified.
-
-Kate felt her heart beat a little nervously, as she watched him walking
-across the garden, from the window of the nursery where she had
-ensconced herself.
-
-In due course of time, Mrs. Storey's message reached her.
-
-"Please'm, my missis says, would you be so good as to step down."
-
-"My compliments, I am particularly engaged," said Miss Vernon, quietly.
-
-And soon after, she heard the hall door open and shut, and the sound of
-retreating wheels informed her the enemy was in retreat. She found Mrs.
-Storey looking rather crest-fallen.
-
-"Well, my dear, he is gone--in a very bad humour, I can tell you--he
-came in so politely, and asked if we still intended to go. So I told
-him about my brother being from home, he did not seem to mind it much;
-but said he hoped another time we should be more successful; then he
-asked for you, and if you were at home, so I sent for you, and I assure
-my dear, I was beginning to feel quite nervous, for though he smiled
-and talked, he was looking very black, as if he was vexed at not seeing
-you. When Maria brought back your message, he turned and looked out of
-the window for a minute, then he said, with a very different kind of
-smile from what I saw before--'I should be sorry to interfere with Miss
-Vernon's particular engagements, and as I am very likely interrupting
-your avocations, I shall bid you good morning.' I told him I had
-nothing in the world to do at that hour of the day--but he did not seem
-to hear me speak, and with a sort of proud bow, he walked off; and, my
-dear girl, I am sure you have mortally offended him; but, for all that,
-I think he might have listened when I spoke to him."
-
-"Yes," said Kate, "he was very rude, and we must both be out if he
-comes again, though I do hope and believe that was a mere threat."
-
-All remembrance of his Lordship's impertinence was quickly obliterated
-from Mrs. Storey's mind, by the rapidly increasing toils of preparation
-for "the thirtieth;" it was to be a quiet musical party--in
-consideration of Miss Vernon's mourning--but very _recherché_. Mrs.
-Storey determined the supper should be what her husband termed a "chief
-endeavour," the facetious translation of "_chef d'oeuvre_."
-
-Kate waited till that all-absorbing event was over, and Mrs. Storey's
-attention free, before she took her into her confidence, as regarded
-her future plans. She was now most anxious to do so. Employment, either
-as a resident governess, or a companion, was absolutely necessary. She
-could not remain much longer with Mrs. Storey, and to accept money or
-protection from Lady Desmond, while her suspicions remained as keenly
-alive as they then were, was impossible. Her cousin's letters, though
-expressing a formal wish that she was happy and comfortable, had not,
-as yet, hinted at the future. And, however firmly Kate might trust to
-the mercy and guidance of an over-ruling Providence, the uncertainty
-of her prospects kept her in cruel suspense. If she could but only
-hear from Winter, and learn where to direct to him, all would be
-well. Then she would turn to Winter's last letter, and dwell upon the
-reality of its tone; for, strange though it be, there is something so
-unerring in the instinct of truth, that mere written expressions, in
-all the barrenness of ink and paper, convey the real, or the unreal
-unmistakeably. Kate was always comforted by the perusal of the good
-little artist's characteristic epistles; they placed him before her, in
-all the uncompromising sincerity she had tried, and never found wanting.
-
-The day but one after her party, Mrs. Storey disappointed Kate's
-intention of asking for a quiet confidential walk after dinner, by
-desiring the parlour maid at breakfast, to--
-
-"Tell cook to have dinner at one precisely, I must go into town on
-particular business to-day."
-
-Kate declined her invitation to accompany her, observing--
-
-"I want a long talk with you, dear Mrs. Storey, the first time you are
-at leisure."
-
-She received a ready assent to her proposition, from her curious
-hostess, who anticipated a clearing up of all the mysteries connected
-with Lord Effingham.
-
-Kate had not long enjoyed the unwonted stillness of the house, after
-Mrs. Storey had departed for town, and the children for their afternoon
-walk, when her attention was aroused by the sound of voices in the
-hall, and the next moment Lord Effingham walked into the room. Miss
-Vernon started, and with difficulty suppressed the exclamation of
-surprise which sprang to her lips. She rose from her seat, and stood
-silent, while her unwelcome visitor, advancing towards her, said, with
-the species of enforced quiet, which always indicated that emotion of
-some kind was struggling in his breast--
-
-"I do not apologise for this intrusion, Miss Vernon, for you will, I
-know, forgive it, when I tell you how unconquerable is my desire to
-speak with you, alone. I have watched your amiable and intelligent
-hostess set out for town, and so made sure of some uninterrupted
-conversation--you must not refuse to hear me."
-
-"No, Lord Effingham," said Miss Vernon, recovering her self-possession,
-"I, too, am almost glad, since you will not accept the tacit expression
-of my wishes, to have a decisive interview, we cannot continue on our
-present footing."
-
-"The extraordinary fact of your being domesticated with such people,"
-exclaimed Lord Effingham, abruptly, "is sufficiently eloquent of the
-terms on which you and your cousin parted--and I must know something
-more decisive from your own lips, before I resign all hopes of you.
-Speak! Have you and your cousin separated in consequence of her insane
-pride--her absurd fancy about myself?"
-
-"If I could convey the least idea to your mind," answered Kate, holding
-down her indignation, in order to speak with greater force, "of the
-repugnance with which I shrink from such expressions, you would not,
-I am sure, offend me by repeating them, Good Heavens," she continued,
-"what effect can you imagine must be produced upon one woman by such
-bold, such dishonorable assertions of another."
-
-"Dishonorable!" cried the Earl, his sallow cheek flushing for an
-instant. "You use strong terms, Miss Vernon."
-
-"Not more strong than just," returned Kate. "I call it dishonorable,
-if, rightly or not, you conceive you have won a place in a woman's
-heart, to glance at the secret, even to your most intimate associate,
-much more to make it the subject of scornful remark to that woman's--"
-
-She stopped, fearful of betraying herself or her cousin. Lord Effingham
-supplied the word--
-
-"Rival you would have said, and you are right. I can well imagine the
-scorn, the bitterness with which she reproached you for all the crimes
-of art and dissimulation, of which _you_ are so incapable. I can fancy
-the passionate, unappeaseable suspicions which drove you--here," he
-added, after a moment's pause to glance, with unutterable contempt,
-round the homely room in which they sat.
-
-Kate felt that she quailed before the true picture he had sketched.
-
-"Your eyes are less faithful to your cousin's cause than your
-lips--_they_ admit much," continued Lord Effingham.
-
-"Then what I look I will speak," returned Kate, with sudden boldness.
-"Georgina, if she does care for you, is not a woman to give away her
-heart unasked. I have known and loved her all my life--that she is
-not indifferent to you, is, in my eyes, incontrovertible proof that
-you endeavoured to win her affections. It is no disgrace to a woman,"
-continued Kate, with encreasing boldness, "to give the heart that seems
-so ardently sought. No; the truer the purer--the nobler it is--the
-more incapable it is of conceiving the gratuitous treason that betrays
-it. I do not see why I should attempt to conceal the fact that I fear
-my cousin once loved you--with you rests the reproach; but do you
-suppose that I am so unreal as to trust you--to believe that a passing
-admiration could so change your spirit, as to teach it sympathy with
-mine? that your treachery to one woman would be a guarantee of good
-faith to another? No, my Lord! I am made of different stuff. Do not,
-for a moment, imagine it is in your power to cause disunion between
-two such tried friends as my cousin and myself--we know each other's
-truth--we know it is worth too much to be lightly cast aside."
-
-She paused; and Lord Effingham, whose varied colour had settled into
-deadly paleness, rose, and paced the room in silence, before replying--
-
-"You are a stern judge, Miss Vernon," he said, at length, in the deep
-tone of concentrated anger. "I little thought the indulgence of a
-harmless whim would have been so severely visited upon me. Listen,
-fair and rigid exposer of my follies," he continued, sneeringly. "The
-secret of your just severity may be summed up thus--you do not love
-me; therefore, the conduct you so eloquently denounce, is unextenuated
-by the softening consideration that it was you--your own irresistible
-attractions--that made me a traitor. Your indifference, perhaps your
-pre-occupation, lends a magnifying power to your moral sense, and I
-am condemned; where--circumstances slightly changed--I might have been
-cherished. Enough; I am satisfied there is no chance of my winning your
-affections. I will not, therefore, degrade myself or weary you with
-vain efforts." He stopped opposite to her, silently for a minute, his
-arms folded, his eyes fixed on her face. "I wish to God I had known you
-long ago, Kate--that I had met you first. How is it, that with rank,
-and riches, and power here--" and he touched his forehead, "all rare
-gifts--I have so often missed the road to happiness."
-
-Kate, moved by the tone of despondency with which this was asked,
-replied hesitatingly--
-
-"Perhaps--because you never knew where to look for it."
-
-"And will you not direct me?" said the Earl, with intense earnestness.
-
-Kate shook her head in silent refusal.
-
-He gazed at her still for an instant, and then, taking her hand, said--
-
-"In all probability, we shall never meet again. You have acted in
-accordance with your character--I, with mine."
-
-And, turning away, he left the house.
-
-Kate remained lost in thought without moving from the position in
-which she had heard Lord Effingham's parting words; she could hardly
-believe that he was really gone--that he would return no more; but
-stranger still, was the impression of regret and compassion he had
-left upon her mind. Surely there were the scattered elements of much
-good in his character. What was it that had so fatally disunited them?
-The repellent power of selfishness. He had, as he said, goodly gifts,
-rank, and riches, and intellectual power; but the heart, wherein is
-the balance which harmonises the whole, was corrupt and false; but her
-sensation was that of relief. One difficulty was removed; her cousin
-could not long remain in ignorance of his final rejection--nay, in
-justice to herself, she determined to mention having seen the Earl for
-the last time.
-
-"My way is becoming clear," was the most distinct idea, as she
-endeavoured to refix her thoughts upon her book. It was in vain she
-read and re-read each page, the words might be traced by the eye; but
-the mind was far too full to admit the sense; and in the struggle
-between reverie and attention, Mrs. Storey returned.
-
-"I am sure I have a thousand apologies to make, my dear, leaving you
-all the afternoon by yourself."
-
-"Indeed, Mrs. Storey, you need not apologise; besides I have not been
-alone. Lord Effingham has been here."
-
-"Oh, indeed," cried Mrs. Storey, eagerly.
-
-"Yes; and I do not think we shall be troubled with him any more."
-
-"Well, my dear, you know best; but--" and Mrs. Storey shook her head.
-
-In truth, the kind-hearted little woman was much attached to Kate,
-especially since she had been domesticated with her. She would gladly
-have witnessed her "_entrée_" at court in the character of the Countess
-of Effingham, and still more gladly shone in the reflected lustre of
-so brilliant a friend; but if Miss Vernon did not like him it was very
-unfortunate.
-
-The next morning brought Kate a letter from Lady Desmond, and another
-from nurse. The former, after commenting on Colonel Dashwood's sudden
-appearance in Dublin, and expressing, more constrainedly and coldly
-than usual, her hopes that Kate was happy, &c., &c., went on to say,
-"I am annoyed by a strange whim of nurse's; she will no doubt tell you
-all about it; she is determined on leaving me 'to see her people;' and
-as the only solution for such an amount of family affection, I must
-conclude that she is unhappy or uncomfortable in my establishment--I
-wish she would condescend to mention in what particular; but this is
-too candid a line of conduct for persons of her class." Kate felt
-deeply the acerbity with which her cousin wrote, and turned anxiously
-to nurse's letter for an explanation of the affair.
-
-"My own blessed darlin'," it began, "I've a power to tell you; but,
-first of all, avourneen, there's yer letter that warmed yer own ould
-nurse's heart--my hearty thanks for it, jewil. You see, there's three
-weeks of the four I promised to stay with my lady gone, and I'm
-wearyin' to see my sisther's daughter and her childre that's doin' well
-in Killeesh; and an unfortunate vagabone of a boy, my cousin, they tell
-me is gone to the bad--so I'm sure, Miss Kate, jewil, ye'll give me
-lave to step over, and if I get a thrifle of work, sure I'll be better
-plaised nor to be here doin' nothin', but in everybody's way, an' my
-lady different to what she used to be--not but that she's good; but,
-asthore, I don't know how she and you parted, an' I never feel asy like
-with her, so just tell me you'll let me off stoppin' here any longer."
-
-Kate hardly felt surprise at this intelligence. She had instinctively
-expected that nurse would not remain long with Lady Desmond; yet
-this was an increase of anxiety. "I trust she will not give away all
-her money," thought Kate, as she sat down to reply to Lady Desmond's
-letter. She expressed her regret at nurse's determination, urging,
-however, in extenuation, that her desire to revisit the scenes of her
-youth, and the few relations she had left, was natural and pardonable.
-After touching on all the points in her cousin's letter, she found
-herself concluding her own before she had courage to mention Lord
-Effingham's name; she therefore added a short postscript--"I have seen
-Lord Effingham for the last time." She next wrote her assent to nurse's
-project, recommending her, however, merely to go on furlough, and not
-to break altogether with Lady Desmond. These letters despatched, she
-joined her hostess.
-
-"You remember, I told you yesterday, I wanted a good long talk with
-you, Mrs. Storey."
-
-"Yes, dear, and here I am ready for it."
-
-"You are very kind to me, Mrs. Storey."
-
-"La, my love, it's a pleasure to me."
-
-"You know I am very poor," said Kate, not exactly sure how to get into
-her subject. "I told you at Hampton Court that terrible lawsuit was not
-concluded, and now it seems it has died a natural death; so I must try
-and do something for myself."
-
-A thundering knock here startled and interrupted her.
-
-"Goodness, gracious me," cried Mrs. Storey, "who can that be? A very
-smart brougham, my dear, and--let me see--yes--no--it _is_ young Mrs.
-Tom Jorrocks. Well, she is very agreeable, but I wish she had not
-interrupted us. Delighted to see you, Mrs. Jorrocks--this is so kind
-and friendly," &c., &c.
-
-By Mrs. Tom Jorrocks greetings were exchanged, and much was said of
-the delightful evening she had passed at Raby Villa, of Miss Vernon's
-charming music, and the beauty of the children; then the excitement
-of town was discussed, and young Mrs. Tom Jorrocks admitted that,
-notwithstanding its pleasures, she should be glad to be once more
-quietly settled at Leeds. "And besides all my own engagements," she
-continued, "I am busily employed looking out for a young lady to be a
-sort of companion to my mother-in-law, who is growing rather blind.
-She wants some one who will be a cheerful associate, and read aloud
-nicely, and be like a daughter to her; she lives with her daughter,
-Mrs. Wilson, but _she_ is so much engaged with her house and servants
-and sons, Mrs. Jorrocks is often lonely."
-
-"I think I know a lady who might suit you," said Kate, suddenly
-captivated with the imaginary picture of a gentle, lonely old lady who
-wanted a daughter's companionship.
-
-"Indeed it would be a great comfort if I could acquit myself well in
-the search," said young Mrs. Jorrocks, with a laugh. "My mother-in-law
-is very wealthy, and would not object to a salary of thirty or forty
-pounds; she is rather particular, but very kind."
-
-"If you will allow me to call upon you to-morrow, I will let you know
-more particulars."
-
-"I cannot tell the obligation you would confer upon me should you
-enable me to get rid of the affair. Might I ask you to call upon me
-to-morrow at twelve? If not too early, I shall be enchanted to see you."
-
-"At twelve, then, I will be with you," said Kate, with a smile.
-
-"And now, Mrs. Storey, I must bid you good morning. My compliments to
-Mr. Storey. Good morning Miss Vernon."
-
-"You were surprised. I dare say, at my sudden interest in Mrs.
-Jorrocks' researches," said Kate to Mrs. Storey, when they were once
-more alone.
-
-"Yes--no--that is, do go on and tell me--surely it can't be yourself?"
-
-"It is indeed for myself I wish to secure the engagement," returned
-Miss Vernon. "I must resume the thread of my discourse, which Mrs.
-Jorrocks' _entré_ interrupted. I am sure you are too thoroughly
-English not to sympathise in my wish to _earn_ a livelihood, be it
-ever so humble, rather than live in dependence, even on a generous
-and affectionate relative like my cousin; I do not want a large
-salary, but a home is indispensable--at least," she added with a sigh,
-"a respectable protection--for a _home_ can never be found among
-strangers--and this appears to promise fairly enough."
-
-"Well, my dear, you really take away my breath! I thought you were
-never to leave Lady Desmond! She told me so herself. I really think you
-are very foolish. Who would be so fit a person for you to be companion
-to as your own cousin? What does she think? My goodness! Who would have
-thought it!"
-
-"Lady Desmond will, no doubt, be very averse to my plan, but at present
-I see no other open to me. I particularly wish not to join her while
-she is in Ireland--elsewhere I may. Indeed, I should at once have
-offered myself to Mrs. Jorrocks, but that I thought it right to consult
-you first--you might not like me to do so."
-
-"La, my dear, I only wish you to do what you think will be for the
-best; but, dear me, how astonished Mrs. Tom will be, to be sure! I
-always told her how fashionable and rich all your friends and relations
-were," said Mrs. Storey, in a slightly vexed tone.
-
-"If it annoys you in the least, pray tell me, and I will not say
-anything more about it--I should be grieved to vex you," said Kate,
-with so much sweetness of tone and manner, that Mrs. Storey gave her a
-hearty kiss, and wished her all success.
-
-"Indeed, dear, you have the right spirit; and, after all, I dare say
-you have your own reasons for leaving Lady Desmond!"
-
-"She is always kind and good," said Kate.
-
-Miss Vernon was truly glad to have this explanation so well over; and
-though anxious as to her future, most thankful for the opening which so
-unexpectedly offered.
-
-"I can stay there, at all events, till the Winters' return. Oh, when
-will they write!"
-
- * * * * *
-
-The next morning, she started early on her visit to Mrs. Tom Jorrocks,
-and pondered, as she went, on the difference of her feelings now from
-those with which she used to seek employment; formerly, she was full of
-anxious, palpitating hope and fear. Hoping to have good news wherewith
-to return to grandpapa and nurse--fearing that she might not succeed;
-but both sensations invigorated and spurred her on. Now it was for
-herself alone, she was interested; and she walked calmly, undisturbed
-by either hope or fear; she was almost surprised at the fearless,
-careless indifference with which she viewed the future.
-
-"Can it be that I am so much alone! Oh, if I could but live with nurse!
-I wonder will Mr. Winter renew his proposal to take her as housekeeper
-when he returns."
-
-These thoughts brought her to Mrs. Jorrocks's door. She was most
-cordially received. The bride was alone; and the first surprise and
-exclamations over, matters were speedily arranged.
-
-"I am really ashamed to offer you what my mother-in-law has limited me
-to," said young Mrs. Jorrocks, with some embarrassment.
-
-"You need not mind that," returned Kate; "I want more a--" she could
-not desecrate the word "home," and substituted, "a respectable
-residence."
-
-"Well then, I consider you engaged; and I am sure I shall win golden
-opinions for sending down such a companion as yourself," returned Mrs.
-Tom, who had become marvellously familiar and agreeable.
-
-"I had nearly forgotten to ask you where Mrs. Jorrocks lives--a very
-necessary question."
-
-"Oh, at Carrington--her son-in-law, Mr. Wilson, is a cotton broker
-there."
-
-"Carrington," repeated Kate, colouring with surprise and emotion.
-
-"Not a very nice place, I grant," said the bride. "But the Wilsons live
-in the New Park, quite away from the town. Have you ever been there?"
-
-"Yes, once. We used to live at A----, which is only an hour's drive
-from Carrington."
-
-"I know; we went over there to look at the Cathedral, when I was at
-Carrington. Then, Miss Vernon, you will be ready to go down next week?
-My mother-in-law is very anxious for some one who will read to her."
-
-"Yes," said Kate, confused by the flood of memories which welled up
-from the depths of her heart, at the sound of these familiar names.
-
-"Old Mrs. Jorrocks will write and say what day she expects you. I am
-sure, I am delighted to have concluded this business so satisfactorily."
-
-"Then I will wish you good morning."
-
-"Good morning, Miss Vernon, good morning!"
-
- * * * * *
-
-"Dear Mrs. Storey! it is all settled!" cried Kate, on finding that lady
-alone. "I am going to Carrington--where--where--"
-
-A burst of irrepressible tears choked her voice.
-
-"My dear girl! don't now--there's a love! here, smell to the salts,"
-exclaimed Mrs. Storey, in great perplexity; she did not understand the
-grateful sympathy of silence on such occasions.
-
-"I was so happy there--so unutterably light-hearted! the world was all
-joy to me--existence in itself a blessing! And to go back there now,
-when some strange spell seems to have doomed me to utter loneliness!
-Grandpapa gone, nurse gone, Georgy, Mr. Winter, his kind wife, all I
-was ever linked with in happy days, far away."
-
-"My love, don't go there; stay a bit longer with us; you know, if the
-house was only a little larger, I would not let you go away for ever so
-long; but--"
-
-"Dear friend," said Kate, recovering herself--"I was surprised into
-this outburst--do not mind it--I am quite resolved to go to Mrs.
-Jorrocks. Nay, when I have conquered my foolish weakness, I shall be
-pleased to be near my old haunts. I will go to my room and think--I am
-always better when I think by myself."
-
-"Very well, dear, whatever you like."
-
-Long and earnestly did Kate think, and her thoughts were prayers.
-She looked steadily at the past; and, from its trials and blessings,
-gathered strength for the future.
-
-And fancy, which is ever so strangely at variance with the exterior
-atmosphere of prosperity or depression, held up a bright picture of
-Egerton, standing between her and all future loneliness, of his manly
-tenderness, and simple truth, till she almost fancied she heard his
-well known voice speaking to her, those lovely words of Longfellow's--
-
- "Oh, let thy weary heart rest upon mine,
- And it shall faint no more, nor thirst, nor hunger,
- But be satisfied and filled with my affection,"
-
-"I am wrong, I am too bold, to let such thoughts glance across my mind.
-I will not let them come again, how weak, how vain they are! but I can
-never think of dear grandpapa, without seeing Colonel Egerton, as it
-were, beside him, they are so closely linked in my heart."
-
-And with sudden decision she rose, bathed her eyes, and joined Mrs.
-Storey on a journey to Bond Street.
-
-As young Mrs. Jorrocks had prophesied, Kate received a speedy summons
-from _La Belle Mère_. The letter was written in much the same style
-of caligraphy, in which a small "dress-maker" notes down her little
-account; the orthography was tolerably correct; but the composition was
-rather confused.
-
-"Poor thing," said Miss Vernon, mentally; "she is probably too blind to
-write with ease--perhaps her maid acted as amanuensis. I hope she is a
-loveable person. What wonderful changes I have seen;" and turning to
-her desk, she wrote to Mrs. Jorrocks, promising to be with her on the
-specified Thursday.
-
-"Dear nurse used to say Thursday was a lucky day," she said, as she
-closed the letter. After some consideration, she determined on
-informing nurse and her cousin that she was tired of London, and going
-to stay with some acquaintances she had made through Mrs. Storey.
-"There can be no use in unnecessarily fretting them," she thought. "I
-am determined not to go to Georgy till I can trace a very different
-tone in her letters; she cannot help her suspicions, I believe; but I
-need not make her more unhappy than she is. How I wish I could see some
-newspaper announcement of Lord Effingham's departure for the continent!"
-
-But her wish was in vain, Lord Effingham continued to revolve between
-London and Cowes; and Lady Desmond's reply was strangely commingled
-with petulance and affection.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-CARRINGTON.
-
-
-It was a cold, gloomy, blustering evening, in the beginning of
-September, when the increase of houses, and appearance of hissing and
-tranquil engines along the line of rail-road, announced to Kate that
-she was approaching the termination of her journey; she wondered she
-did not feel more of that sinking of heart, and thrilling of nerves,
-with which she used to regard any important crisis or event. She felt
-so terribly depressed, that anything like the hope, implied by fear or
-anxiety, was quite out of the question; yet there occasionally glanced
-across her mind the thought, "have I not come to the worst; perhaps the
-next change may be for the better."
-
-"Half-past six--nearly an hour behind time," said a fat, rosy old
-gentleman, who sat opposite to Miss Vernon, "and another quarter
-of an hour will be lost taking the tickets--very bad, very bad,"
-and he looked at Kate for sympathy; but to her it was a matter of
-indifference: the train was rather too fast for her wishes.
-
-"They will be fancying all sorts of accidents and concussions at
-home," resumed the old gentleman, with a smile of such security in the
-affection and sympathy to which he was hastening, that the tears sprang
-to Kate's eyes, even while she smiled upon him, and said--
-
-"Then I do wish they would go faster--suspense is such a terrible
-thing."
-
-The old gentleman seemed struck by the sudden warmth evinced by his
-hitherto taciturn companion.
-
-"I suppose you have friends to meet you?" he said; "but if I can be of
-any use in getting your luggage, &c., I shall be very happy."
-
-"I suppose they will send some one to meet me," said Kate, carelessly;
-"but," she added, a doubt on the point glancing across her mind for the
-first time, "if not, I will gladly avail myself of your kind offer."
-
-"What part of the town, may I ask, are you going to?"
-
-"Carleton Terrace, New Park."
-
-"Oh, indeed. I live near that myself."
-
-A little more desultory talk brought them to the platform; and stepping
-from the carriage, Miss Vernon looked round in hopes of discovering the
-promised person to meet her; but none appeared; therefore, accepting
-the old gentleman's proffered aid, she proceeded to disentangle her
-luggage from the miscellaneous and momentarily encreasing pile, which
-the porters were pitching, with their usual dexterity and disregard of
-consequences, out of the van.
-
-Kate had but few packages; some undefined feeling had induced her to
-leave much of her belongings under Mrs. Storey's care--she could not
-bear to think of Carrington as anything but a temporary abode.
-
-"Another small black box--the same name--Miss Vernon," she said to
-the porter who was collecting her luggage; her words attracted the
-notice of an awkward boy of about fifteen, who had been examining
-the second-class passengers, as if in search of some one; he was
-heavy-looking, without being large, his movements slow and uncouth, and
-his face of a leaden bilious complexion, wore an expression of stupid
-surprise.
-
-"Are you Miss Vernon?" he asked, in an abrupt, harsh voice, which was
-at its harshest epoch.
-
-"Yes," said Kate, looking at him doubtfully, uncertain what rank in
-society to assign him; his face would not have been misplaced under a
-basket of oranges, nor his clothes on the heir apparent of an earldom.
-
-"All right," said the interesting youth. "gran'ma sent me to meet you.
-I'm Pembridge Wilson; shall I call a cab? Busses don't go near the
-Park."
-
-"If you please, a cab," said Kate; and, turning to her friendly
-_companion de voyage_, thanked him for his kind attention.
-
-"Holloa, Pem., is that you?" he cried, as his eyes fell on Kate's new
-acquaintance. "I did not know I was travelling with a friend of yours.
-I shall have the pleasure of seeing you again," he said to Kate, "as
-you are going to the Wilsons'."
-
-"I shall be very happy," she returned, bowing, and walked towards the
-cab.
-
-"Stop," whispered Master Pembridge, "make a bargain with the man before
-they put up the luggage; you, go--I'll stay here."
-
-"No," said Kate, "I am afraid he would not mind me much. I dare say, he
-will not charge more than he ought."
-
-Master Pem's usual state of amazement seemed to receive a slight
-addition at these words, and as he followed Miss Vernon into the
-vehicle, a keen ear might have overheard a muttered "my eye!"
-
-The noise of the streets was a good excuse for silence. Kate gazed
-through the windows, recognising the various localities which she
-faintly remembered from her short visit there, partly from Egerton's
-anathematising descriptions, while Pem. gazed, with unremitting
-assiduity and still surprised, at her.
-
-"Well, here we are, and I expect I am ready for my tea. You were
-so late, I'm regularly cold waiting for you," and he blew his nose
-audibly--a perpetual cold in the head characterised this specimen of
-young Carrington.
-
-The door was opened by a melancholy-looking woman, who made no offer to
-assist the cabman in removing the trunks, &c., from the vehicle.
-
-"There--I told you," said Pem., in triumph, as Jehu demanded four and
-sixpence, and sixpence for the luggage; but Miss Vernon hastily paid
-him, and entered the house, anxious to see the kind, gentle old lady
-who wanted a daughter's companionship.
-
-"Come in, do, and shut that door," cried a hard, shrill voice from some
-inner sanctum. "The wind is going right through my head."
-
-"This way, mem," said the melancholy female, and Kate entered a small
-and very hot front parlor. A tall, large, slightly-bent old woman, with
-a face as hard as her voice, was standing, her hands crossed behind
-her back, on the hearth-rug. The broad expanse of her countenance was
-spanned by a pair of capacious spectacles, depressed towards the left
-eye, as if to give her spying propensities all the advantages of double
-and single vision.
-
-"Miss Vernon. How do you do? how late you be," said she, giving Kate a
-cold, stiff hand, guiltless of closing on the fair soft fingers which
-took it.
-
-"Yes; the train was very often delayed," replied Kate, letting go,
-with a sensation of repugnance, the unrelaxed collection of bone and
-sinews proffered to her, and gazing with surprise at the huge cap,
-which looked large enough for the mother of Anak's sons, though not at
-all disproportioned to the head it covered; the old lady was richly
-and substantially dressed, and had the unmistakeable air of well-lined
-pockets.
-
-"Go, Pembridge, and look for your mama; you must be nigh starved, and
-Miss Vernon too, I dare say; get the keys, will you, we are all ready
-for tea. Will you come near the fire?"
-
-With these mingled directions and remarks, Mrs. Jorrocks, sen.,
-subsided into an arm chair of considerable dimensions, and stared at
-Kate, who puzzled and confused by so terrible an awaking from her
-dream of an interesting old lady, sat for a few minutes in unbroken
-silence.
-
-"How did you leave Mrs. Tom," was at length asked by Miss Vernon's new
-acquaintance.
-
-"Quite well. I saw her the day before yesterday; she desired many kind
-messages to you."
-
-"They have been very gay up in London; time she settled at home."
-
-"Mrs. Jorrocks seems anxious to do so," replied Kate.
-
-"So she tells you; she be sharp enough; you were coming to me. Had you
-a quiet journey?"
-
-"Very, thank you. I met a most polite old gentleman--a neighbour of
-yours, at least, he knew your grandson."
-
-"Who can that be? what was he like?"
-
-Kate described him.
-
-"That will be Mr. Davis. I wonder what took him to London? we--"
-
-She was interrupted by the entrance of her daughter.
-
-Mrs. Wilson was a much more prepossessing person; she was rather an
-exaggerated edition of Mrs. Storey--fatter, louder, more gossipping,
-and less kind-hearted. She was older too; but still, rather pretty and
-very well dressed. She welcomed Kate cordially enough, and proposed
-shewing her her room before tea. It was a tiny chamber, but all her
-own, and Kate was glad of its solitude for a few moments before joining
-the party below.
-
-When she descended to the dining-room, she found an addition to the
-circle in the person of the eldest son--a lad about a year older than
-Pem., thin and fair; his countenance shewed a much higher degree of
-intelligence than his brother's. He was reading when Kate came in, and
-looked up to bow, (not to rise) for exactly the space of time necessary
-for that operation. Pem. was also reading--a newspaper was his
-study--he seemed to get on with difficulty, constantly snuffling, and
-elevating his eye-brows, as if vainly attempting to open his small eyes
-wider than nature intended.
-
-"Now then, Miss Vernon, I am sure you are ready for tea," said Mrs.
-Wilson. "I ordered you a couple of eggs; you will want something more
-substantial than a bit of toast after your journey."
-
-Kate silently agreed, longing for a glass of wine after her fatigue
-of body and mind. However, she took a cup of tea very readily, albeit
-washy enough.
-
-"Who do you think Miss Vernon travelled down with?"
-
-"Why how should I know, mother?"
-
-"Mr. Davis!"
-
-"Nev-er! I did not know he was up in town."
-
-"It's very strange," said Mrs. Jorrocks with a significant nod of
-the head, "That patent he have paid so much money on, is not going
-straight I dare say."
-
-"Mr. Davis, if he is the gentleman, did not get in till we reached
-Wolverton," said Kate.
-
-"Wolverton," repeated Mrs. Wilson, "Whatever was he doing at
-Wolverton?" Mrs. Jorrocks incapable of solving this problem shook her
-head with awful significance, as she munched her buttered toast. The
-young gentlemen read sociably all through the meal. "Here James," said
-Mrs. Wilson to her eldest son, "Put this sugar basin away do, I am so
-hot and tired pouring out tea; I dare say" (pronounced "dessay,") "Miss
-Vernon will make tea for us now."
-
-The evening appeared very interminable to Kate; the boys were set to
-their lessons immediately after tea, with an injunction from their
-mother not to leave any for the morning, it made them so late at their
-"breakfastses," and then mother and daughter in a species of duet
-expatiated on the wonderful talents and acquirements of the eldest
-son, until having exhausted their subject they commenced a severe cross
-examination of herself, when a loud ring disturbed the enquiry, and
-Mrs. Wilson started from her seat exclaiming "Law! how Wilson do ring."
-Mr. Wilson was a short, thick man of even a more dingy, leaden-yellow
-hue than his son; small piggish eyes, thick hearth-brush looking hair,
-and a voice of unredeemed harshness, such as one might expect from a
-slave driver, were his most striking characteristics. He was however
-civil enough, made due enquiries after his brother-in-law, asked if
-town was full, and the opera well attended, (oblivious in his anxiety
-to put these fashionable queries, that it was September), and finally
-betook himself to devour some chops, the bones of which he polished
-with surprising dexterity, first however sending the boys to bed with
-a sudden imperious sternness that absolutely startled Kate; she soon
-pleaded fatigue and bid them good night. "We have prayers at half-past
-eight, Miss Vernon," said Mrs. Wilson.
-
-"Indeed, well I shall be ready."
-
-The dreariness of those hours when Kate had extinguished her candle,
-and in the darkness of night gave herself up to grief, we will not
-attempt to describe--the exaggeration of distance between her and
-all she had ever known--the agonised longing for some escape,--the
-sense of utter estrangement from every familiar style of thought and
-feeling--the inexpressible loathing of all around her; are not these
-things written in the chronicles of many a memory? "Oh for a sound
-of nurse's voice! she is so true, so loving, and Georgy, why are you
-so far away. Will Mr. Winter never, never return! Is my life to pass
-away thus with these terrible people. Oh grandpapa! I am so alone."
-And ever with the thought of him Egerton's image rose before her; she
-was too miserable to curb her thoughts as she was wont, and from the
-silent depths of her heart, her spirit called to him agonisingly; with
-unutterable longing, thirsting for a sound of his voice, as though it
-were a spell to conjure away the gloom and the difficulties round her,
-striving, panting in a death struggle fer happiness. Who dare limit the
-power lent to the divine essence by the force of a mighty wish, when we
-feel the intense longings of the imprisoned spirit darting in electric
-streams towards the object so ardently desired. There are momentary
-glimpses granted to the imagination, when purified by the agony of
-suffering, of grandeur, power and liberty, so far beyond our mortal
-state, that the first return to a commoner and calmer frame of mind, is
-usually indicated by a shudder or a smile at our own "strange fancies."
-
-Yet what may not the spirit anticipate in its future? and what power
-may not be momentarily lent it? even here a foretaste of that future.
-The very depth of her emotion soothed Kate; she felt a gradual calm
-stealing over her--was it that her wild yearning had accomplished its
-end?
-
-About the same time, it might be the same night, far away, a deep blue,
-star-lit eastern sky was shining in still beauty over the cantonments
-of an English regiment, and Colonel Egerton was sleeping the restless
-disturbed sleep of a low fever. He wakes suddenly--fully roused--with
-a sense that he was wanted--that he was called. Yet he had not dreamt,
-at least, distinctly; nor was it till after some moments' thought, he
-connected that sudden impression with Miss Vernon--for Egerton was too
-full of rational energy to have his mind perpetually filled with one
-image. He had loved Kate, and still, at times, thought of her with
-deep tenderness; but a life of activity pleased and occupied him.
-Parting with her had swept away the light-hearted, buoyant gaiety of
-his early days; but left enough of cheerfulness to make life still very
-enjoyable. Time, absence, silence, above all, Burton's report, not long
-received, were gradually doing their work--ere long, his heart would
-have been free to cherish another, well and truly; yet never, oh,
-never, with the same exquisitely tender, pure unselfish love which she
-had breathed over the chaotic surface of his life; he still might taste
-the sweetness of the grape; but the unspeakable loveliness of its first
-fresh bloom was breathed upon--and vanished.
-
-Colonel Egerton was worse the next morning; the regimental surgeon
-shook his head, and, at length, obtained a hearing, when, for the
-fourth time, he suggested native air.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Life at Carrington, with its innumerable small trials, is too
-monotonous to be carefully recorded.
-
-Kate had much to suffer; yet it was not all suffering. She soon
-perceived the various _rôles_ enacted by the family. Mr. Wilson was a
-thorough domestic tyrant, intense selfishness pervaded the whole party,
-except, perhaps, Mrs. Wilson. The eldest son was a pedant, a dry, cold
-calculating machine, who seemed chiefly to value his own unblemished
-character, because it gave him a right to be implacable to the failings
-of others. It is strange to write thus of the character of a boy not
-seventeen; but none could connect him with the faintest outline of that
-lovely, erring thing called "youth."
-
-He was, however, an unceasing source of pride to his family; and even
-Pem., if he had an idea beyond his dinner, looked upon his brother as
-something quite extraordinary.
-
-The day began with a severe trial, at least to Kate, in the shape of
-morning prayers. She shrank from Mr. Wilson's harsh tones, doling forth
-the gracious words of the gospel; and her rebellious thoughts refused
-to follow the long discursive address they all knelt down to hear read
-aloud, in accents of self-satisfied conscientiousness. Mr. Wilson
-dwelt, with unction, on the petition for the health and safety of his
-sovereign lady the Queen, and at the proper place even mentioned the
-servants, who, with demure and downcast looks occupied three chairs at
-the furthest possible distance permissible by the limits of the room.
-Then followed breakfast, at which he generally took the worth of his
-prayers out of them, in short, savage fault finding.
-
-The morning meal over, Mrs. Jorrocks took her knitting, and Kate's duty
-was to read aloud, to her, till dinner time--one o'clock. But the books
-in which Mrs. Jorrock's soul delighted, were, unfortunately, of a class
-by no means suited to Miss Vernon. They were chiefly remarkable for the
-distinguished rank and general hard-heartedness of their characters,
-excepting only the heroine and her lover, whose sufferings, mental and
-physical, were rather supernatural; and usually drew tears from Kate's
-listener, who would have turned unmoved from the most affecting case
-of real distress; to be sure the novel only asked her tears, reality
-might have had some pretensions to touch her pocket.
-
-Kate, however, read on perseveringly, she had made some attempts to
-recommend the style of book more suited to her own taste, and the
-age of her new protectress; but they were not well received, and she
-was compelled to return to the "dungeon and subterranean passage,"
-revengeful, mysterious-stranger class of literature; still this was
-nothing to the task of reading aloud the newspapers. The police reports
-formed Mrs. Jorrocks' chief delight, and she expected Kate to read
-aloud, unhesitatingly the awful and revolting disclosures which the
-liberty of the press demands should disgrace its columns. This duty
-Kate gently and firmly refused, and she received unexpected support
-from Mrs. Wilson, who offered to read them herself. Nothing surprised
-Miss Vernon more than the untiring assiduity with which Mrs. Jorrocks
-devoted herself to the elucidation of her neighbours' affairs; none
-were too humble, none too exalted for her universal curiosity. The
-house-maid's lover, and the mayor's wife, the charwoman, and the
-duchess--she had scandalous stories of them all! Kate sometimes
-wondered if she thought well of her own children; she was never
-actively cross, nor could you ever discern that she was pleased,
-save on those rare occasions when a couple of aggravated failures
-amongst her acquaintances--a murder, a suicide, and the elopement
-of somebody's husband or wife, by their united excitement enabled
-her to pass a cheerful and satisfactory morning. Kate was almost
-surprised to perceive she was actually gaining favour in the eyes of
-this uncongenial old woman. She did not know the effect which her own
-grace and refinement produced upon the stiff, rugged, clayey nature
-she was thus brought in contact with. Each member of the family felt
-instinctively her superiority to themselves, while her unassuming
-gentleness prevented any of that soreness of feeling with which
-superiority is usually acknowledged; and although at first Kate was
-often disagreeably surprised to find that her presence was unnoticed
-when visitors came in, and no conversation was addressed to her who had
-been ever accustomed to find herself an object in society; yet all this
-wore off soon, and both Mrs. Jorrocks and her daughter learned to be
-proud of their elegant-looking inmate.
-
-The greatest relief Miss Vernon experienced during this _triste sejour_
-was from the kind attentions of Mr. Davis's family, who were their near
-neighbours, and presented Kate with what she considered a beau ideal of
-an English merchant's family--hospitable, intellectual, well educated;
-respecting their own middle-class position, without a trace of that
-envious malignity towards rank which so often distinguishes _les
-nouveaux riches_. They might, perhaps, lack that extreme outward grace
-of manner and bearing, which nothing but an infancy and childhood
-passed among the refining influences of aristocratic accessories can
-bestow; but in every essential point they were ladies and gentlemen. A
-few hours passed with them was an inexpressible refreshment to Kate's
-spirit, and warmly was she received: they delighted in her music, and
-she willingly sang, even her most sacred songs, for them. Another--the
-only other comfort in Kate's life, was that Mrs. Jorrocks always
-retired early, and then she used to lock her door, and, if she felt her
-heart strong enough, indulge herself in a long study of the sketches
-Egerton had given her of Dungar and of the Priory.
-
-Meantime Lady Desmond's letters were pretty constant, she repeatedly
-pressed Kate to return, sometimes with an earnestness that bespoke
-truth--sometimes with a certain coldness; but Miss Vernon's invariable
-reply was--that she would not join her, at all events, until after
-Christmas.
-
-Nurse's letters always filled Kate's heart with a curious mixture
-of pleasure and pain--she forced herself to write to that faithful
-friend, with unreal cheerfulness; and nurse, who was totally ignorant
-of Carrington, and its inhabitants, was happy in believing "Miss Kate
-was stoppin' in some grand place, away from thim shop-keeping Storeys."
-She had persisted in her intention of leaving Lady Desmond; and the
-following is the account she gave of herself, in a letter received by
-Kate, about a fortnight after she had reached Carrington:--
-
- "You'll be surprised to see where I write from, but afther mee goin'
- hot foot to Killeesh, there was'nt the sign of wan belongin' to me in
- the place, an' nothing but the hoigth of misery and starvation. The
- Priest's housekeeper, a dacent woman, took me in the chapel-house; an'
- the next day, I walked the whole eight miles over to Dungar. Oh, Miss
- Kate, agra! It was the sore sight to me! Like the corpse of wan ye
- loved, it was--there was the dear ould place, and the house that was
- iver open, an' the wood, an' the stones, an' the say--but the life an'
- the heart was gone out of it, an' glory be to God! the divils that
- tuck it never had luck nor grace, but has been tearin' each other, at
- law, iver since; an yez might have lived in pace for all they got out
- of it. I said mee prayers on the hall door steps, where the masther
- (the heaven's be his bed!) used to stan' an' hear all the poor people
- had to say. I thought the life would lave me when I rus meesilf to
- go back--I had no strength; but be the hoight of luck, who come upon
- a low back car, but ould Paddy Byrne--'twas he was glad to see me,
- an' quite moidhered to find me there without yerself--so he give me a
- cast to Killeesh; but I was so sick of the sorra, I could do nothin'
- for--that I come away afther mee sisther's daughther here--they'e
- doing very well, an' have a nice little shop, with soap an' candles;
- an' tay an' kid gloves; an' all to that in it. An' I'm tired of bein'
- idle, so take in a thrifle iv work, an' clear-starchin'--I get plinty
- from the officers' ladies, an' it amuses me till ye send for me, ah!
- whin 'ill that be, avourneen?
-
- Mee lady and me parted great frinds, an' she put five goulden guineas
- in mee hand, an' tauld me to come back whin iver I like, so I've not
- touched yer money agra! but I must stop, for I'm tired intirely with
- the writin'."
-
-This long letter was written from Fermoy, and passionately did Kate
-weep over the picture it drew of her deserted home.
-
- * * * * *
-
-Time rolled on rapidly, for little occurred to mark it, and Kate had
-almost ceased to battle with the dull despondency that was creeping
-over her. The perpetual reading aloud of insipid romances, which
-alone found favour in the eyes of Mrs. Jorrocks; the efforts to keep
-awake in the close atmosphere of the stifling parlour, the occasional
-outburst of tyrannic rage from Mr. Wilson, savage as they were in
-all the rude reality of a rugged nature, excited into forgetfulness
-of its efforts to be "genteel;" and, which though never addressed
-to Kate, seemed to insult her by their unrestrained violence; these
-various petty annoyances, daily, hourly, repeated, made up a terrible
-sum--occasionally the wild wish to escape to nurse, even if it were to
-join her in plain work, and clear-starching--would swell her heart to
-bursting, and then would come the reaction! Where in truth could she
-go? Her cousin's alternations of coldness and affection, she could not
-brave--no; it was due to herself to keep aloof, until some more cordial
-acknowledgment of her error and injustice was made by Lady Desmond.
-
-Mrs. Storey wrote seldom, and did not make any renewal of her
-invitation--of other friends or relatives, she had none, at least, in
-the true meaning of these words. So the passionate yearning with which
-her thoughts ever sprang to seek the means of escape, after treading
-the same circle over and over, returned like a bird, weary of beating
-the wires of its cage, to their last hope--a letter from Winter, on his
-return.
-
-But it is weary work to dwell upon the sameness of such suffering; none
-can fully appreciate it, save those enlightened by experience--though
-many might have found companionship to Mrs. Jorrocks a severer
-probation. The world must become older, and purer, and more
-christianised, before the exercise of power can be resisted, or the
-charm of torturing those who are weak, foregone.
-
-Sunday was a day of great eating at Carleton-terrace--in short, Mrs.
-Wilson, on that day, indulged the household in a dinner, the usual
-week-day meals not deserving the name. On these occasions Master Pem.
-eat till he could eat no more, and paused in silent regret, that
-nature had provided such insufficient stowage. The scholar, James, was
-less eager, but more select, and ever sent up his plate, accompanied
-with some especial direction, as to the particular dainties he desired.
-Mr. Wilson's efforts did not fall far short of those of his offspring;
-and if vexed by any errors in elegance, on the part of his wife,
-regaled the party over a bottle of port, with some choice anecdotes of
-various celebrities, fashionable and political, which smacked strongly
-of the commercial-room--frequent repetition might have robbed them of
-their first freshness, but his family were well trained, and always
-laughed at the right place.
-
-Sunday morning, at church, was perhaps the proudest moment of Mr.
-Wilson's life, when he stood erect and spruce in his pew; and,
-condescendingly, classed himself in audible tones with the other
-"miserable sinners" of the congregation. No part of the service did
-he neglect--he even joined in the singing, with a voice so utterly
-discordant, that Kate absolutely started, and turned to look from
-whence the horrid sounds proceeded, the first time she heard them.
-Church was the grand theatre of display to Mesdames Jorrocks and Wilson
-and the great proportion of their acquaintances; and a lively topic of
-conversation on their return home.
-
-"Did you see what a velvet mantle Mrs. B----, have on? asks the mother."
-
-"Yes; it cost ten guineas, if it cost a penny," returns the daughter.
-
-"And her husband be deep in the "great Midland;" maybe, next year
-she'll have to wear Linsey-woolsey."
-
-"You never see such lace as Miss F. had, trimming her bonnet--that
-depth," cried Mrs. Wilson, with eager rapidity, and holding out a
-finger, &c.
-
-Then came a few words on the sermon, which was quickly despatched;
-and thus was the interval between church and dinner whiled away;
-and though it may place Miss Vernon very far back on the list of any
-sanctified reader, it must be confessed she never looked forward with
-much pleasure to the day of rest. Mr. Wilson's anecdotical powers were
-rather too much to endure for an entire sabbath day.
-
-The third month of Kate's purgatorial sojourn, was opening gloomily
-enough, when one Sunday morning, as they were assembled at breakfast,
-in more than usually gorgeous array--as a popular preacher was expected
-to draw "a full house--" a loud ring announced the post.
-
-"I'll engage it's for Miss Vernon," said Mrs. Jorrocks, "I never see
-such a many letters as you do get."
-
-But Kate did not heed her, her eyes were fastened on the letter handed
-across the table by Master Pem. who detained it to read the direction,
-observing--"It's a gentleman's hand," and eliciting a stern--"Hold
-your tongue, sir," from his father. A mist swam before Kate's eyes,
-and a spasm of hope and fear shook her heart as she recognised
-Langley's hand, "it must be a letter from Mr. Winter," she murmured,
-"will you allow me?" and with trembling fingers broke the seal--but no,
-it was from Langley himself. Oh, Heavens! had any thing happened.
-
- "MY DEAR MISS VERNON,
-
- "I lose no time in informing you that I had a letter this morning from
- Winter, dated the 20th, nearly three weeks ago; he writes in good
- health and spirits, and talks of returning immediately; he is anxious
- to know where you are; uncertainty on this point, from some passage in
- your last letter, having kept him silent. I should not be surprised at
- his arrival any day.
-
- "Hoping this letter may find you well, and in haste to catch the post.
-
- "Your's faithfully,
-
- "WILLM. LANGLEY."
-
-The first movement of her mind was disappointment, that Winter had not
-written to herself.
-
-"I thought I told him to direct as usual, to Mr. Langley; there must
-have been some mistake; I forget what I wrote, but he may be back very
-soon, perhaps next week--and then--"
-
-What a bright indistinct feeling of hope and freedom expanded her
-heart--yet she felt strangely nervous and trembling, as if the shadow
-of some coming crisis had fallen upon her, and she hastily swallowed a
-glass of cold water to refresh her parched mouth, before performing the
-inevitable journey to church.
-
-Mr. Wilson's pew was irreproachable in point of size and position, it
-was not however faultless, for a large pillar, supporting the gallery,
-reduced one corner to an invisible nook, where the most splendid
-bonnet, and richest brocade might be for ever hidden from the eyes of
-an admiring congregation. Here Kate had established her position,
-and was permitted to retain it unmolested, and in most profound and
-grateful thanksgiving she knelt that morning.
-
-The church was crowded to excess--strangers stood in the aisle--under
-the pulpit--in the door-ways--pew-openers waxed curt and imperious
-in the exercise of unusual powers. Several well-dressed individuals
-had been accommodated with seats in Mr. Wilson's pew, when Kate's eye
-was involuntarily attracted by the distinguished air of a gentleman,
-who had been shown into a seat, two or three rows in front of her,
-during the second lesson; his back was towards her, of course, and she
-felt vexed with herself for the pertinacity with which her eyes and
-thoughts returned to him; his tall figure seemed familiar to her, as
-she contrasted its easy grace with the forms around; so did the wavy
-dark brown hair, the proud turn of the head, and as she gazed, her
-heart throbbed, and the colour mounted to her cheeks. Surely it was a
-waking dream, yet she could not be mistaken. No! it must be him--that
-bow, as he returned a book, she had dropped, to the lady next him, none
-but Egerton could have made it. Oh, that he would turn his face; but he
-still stood or sat in the same position, and Kate, every pulse beating,
-now pale, now flushing, striving vainly to think of the service--her
-thoughts, now darting away into the past, now crying from the depths of
-her soul to God for strength for the future, tried to still the wild
-glowing anticipations which swept in sudden rapture over her spirit, as
-the aurora borealis streams across the northern gloom. It was too bold,
-too far-fetched a thought that he still remembered her, why should she
-expect it.
-
-At last, Doctor M---- mounted the pulpit, the hymn was finished, and
-with a rustle of expectation the audience settled themselves in their
-seats then--then the individual who engrossed Kate's every thought,
-turned to face the preacher, and leaning his arm on the back of the
-pew, revealed his well-known profile, and ended her uncertainty.
-
-Doctor M---- preached well, and Egerton listened attentively, but the
-sound of his voice scarce reached Kate's ears. In her quiet nook,
-she gazed uninterruptedly on the face so often seen in her sleeping
-and waking visions, at last, after so much of trial and suffering,
-restored to her--the vague unacknowledged hope that had woven one
-golden thread through her dreams of the future, where they, in sober
-earnest, about to be accomplished? How she longed to hear his voice,
-as if at its first sound the past would return to her, as it was
-when they had parted. It was strange how he had twined himself round
-her heart--he from whom she had parted without much of pain; but now
-indissolubly linked with all that was brightest and best in her life,
-all that she had loved and lost. Sorrow had revealed his heart to
-hers, and the light of memory had shown her the true meaning of those
-silent indications of bitter regret with which he had left her. And
-now he looked older, darker, graver--calm thought had deepened the
-expression of his eyes, and imparted a certain dignity to his brow,
-and Kate felt he was no longer the gay, careless soldier she had
-dared to lecture. There was a repose that bespoke strength even in
-his attitude, and she longed to meet his eye, yet shrank from it with
-fevered anticipation. Still he listened with grave, quiet, attention
-to the eloquent reasoning of the preacher--and Kate grew restless,
-and fearful that he would not see her; she calculated the chances of
-their meeting, when the congregation was dispersing, and thought it
-could not possibly fail to occur; but the very doubt filled her with
-terror; if they did not meet now, months, years might pass over before
-their dissimilar roads in life would again cross! and even if he should
-remember, or enquire for her, who was there who could give him a clue
-to her whereabouts; but the congregation was bending to receive the
-benediction, and the decisive moment arrived. Colonel Egerton, with a
-bow of acknowledgment to the owner of the seat, in which he had been
-placed, rose, and gazing abstractedly over the crowd, above which his
-tall figure rose proudly--moved down the aisle; the pressure compelled
-him to stop a moment by the door of Mr. Wilson's pew, but the large
-pillar interposed itself between Kate and the recognising glance,
-for which she so yearned. Mrs. Jorrocks never was so slow in her
-movements--she never leant so heavily before on Kate's slight arm, all
-quivering with the wild beating of her heart; still they were but a few
-steps behind him--if he would only turn his head! but no; he dreamt not
-of the imprisoned spirit, so passionately yearning to catch one glance
-from eyes, through which he gazed so listlessly! They were in the
-door-way, and freed from the crowd, Colonel Egerton paused a moment,
-as if to decide on his movements--put on his hat, and turning to the
-right, walked away with a quick, firm, soldierly step--away--out of
-sight--gone!
-
-There was talk of Doctor M----'s wonderful sermon, as they wended
-their way home--of how he had finally and utterly annihilated
-the Pope; but Kate heard no sound, save a sad echo in her heart
-repeating--"gone--gone."
-
-Vain would it be to describe the anguish with which she threw herself
-on her bed, when free and alone, and gave herself up to an agony of
-hysteric sobs. Was it a dark fate hanging over her, ever to catch
-glimpses of happiness, and there to lose them? Why need she hope or
-struggle any more--all she longed for, was darkness and silence--never,
-never again might she be as she was; when such a trifle had debarred
-her from so bright a meeting, dare she hope the insuperable barrier of
-distance would ever be removed? She could not rouse herself from this
-paroxysm--the buoyancy of her spirit seemed, at last, worn out; and
-head and heart alike aching, she lay in the stillness of exhaustion,
-across her bed, when the servant came to summon her to dinner.
-
-"I think Mrs. Tom have sent me a bad bargain after all," was Mrs.
-Jorrocks's observation, on receiving an account of Miss Vernon's
-indisposition. "I see I'll have to pay my forty pounds a year for the
-nursetending of her--she looked like a ghost this week, and didn't mind
-a word she was reading of--but it's always the way--new brooms."
-
-"Well I'm sure, mother, it's only the heat at church--she will be
-better to-morrow."
-
-"She need'nt go to church, if she don't like to."
-
-Kate only asked for quiet, and her own room, unmolested, for a few
-days--this was permitted her; and there she lay, through the long,
-weary, dark hours, brooding over the past, sometimes struggling with
-nature's repugnance to depression; but for awhile careless and
-indifferent to all without; then she strove to rally her scattered
-forces, to remember that Winter was soon to return.
-
-"And until that hope too is gone, I will not despair--God is so good,
-and wise--He sees I have had so much sorrow--He will send me joy,
-sooner or later--yes; I will hope still."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-THE LAST.
-
-
-The Saturday after the event last recorded, Kate was bending sadly
-enough over her daily task, reading the _Court Circular_ to Mrs.
-Jorrocks--her thoughts wandering to some letters from Lady Desmond, and
-from nurse, which she had not had the heart to answer.
-
-"The Countess of P----, is entertaining a large party at P----
-Castle--the Prince di ----, and Count Alphonso di ----, are among the
-distinguished visitors.
-
-"The Earl of Effingham left Cowes, on Tuesday last, in his yacht,
-the 'Meteor,' for St. Petersburgh, where we understand it is his
-lordship's intention to winter."
-
-"He be a shocking man," observed Mrs. Jorrocks, _en parenthése_, "such
-stories as Mr. Wilson have heard of him up in London. Go on please--I
-think you be half asleep this morning."
-
-But Kate was now wide awake--so he was gone at last--Lady Desmond must
-hear it--all would be clear to her--she could no longer doubt! Miss
-Vernon took fresh courage, and began again:--
-
-"A matrimonial alliance between the Marquis of ----, and the beautiful
-----."
-
-A loud ring.
-
-"Whoever can ring so loud!--they'll bring down the bell! one would
-think they wished to--stay till I ask Eliza," exclaimed Mrs. Jorrocks.
-
-In another moment, Eliza put in her head--
-
-"Please, Miss Vernon, you're wanted."
-
-Kate rose, and left the room, carelessly, thinking Mrs. Wilson
-required her presence; but the instant she passed the door, her
-eyes fell upon a stout, dumpy figure, which, hat in hand, stood on
-the door-mat--an unmistakeable figure, for a sight of which she had
-so pined. What she said, or did, she could not tell; some vague
-remembrance of throwing her arms round his neck, and sobbing there--she
-did preserve; but Winter has often said--that the way in which she
-clung to him, as if she could never grasp so blessed a reality close
-enough--her eager caresses--her broken exclamations of joy, affected
-him deeply, and revealed her past sufferings, more eloquently, than the
-most elaborate description.
-
-"Well; but, _figlia mia_" said Winter, as she grew a little calmer,
-and they sat together in the fireless dining-room; "you look pale and
-thin," and he held her from him, and gazed at her till the moisture
-stood in his keen, black eyes. "My dear child, I am much to blame--I
-have neglected you; but I will atone for it--your last letter misled
-me completely; yet I ought to have returned home before."
-
-"Oh! no, no! you are always good. Thank God--thank God, you are come at
-last."
-
-"Yes! We arrived on Wednesday, and the next day I called on Langley;
-he gave me a sketch of your proceedings that thoroughly perplexed
-me. I had matters to arrange on Friday morning which could not be
-postponed, but my wife gave me no peace till I started by the mail
-train at nine o'clock last evening--so here I am!" Kate listened in
-rapt attention--was she really sitting once more beside the kind good
-artist? "My child, I fear you have suffered much, but we will try to
-cheer you up; if you prefer doing the thing independently, Mrs. Winter
-has grown a great lady, and requires a companion quite as much as Mrs.
-Rollocks, or Jollocks, or whatever her name is--and her husband too,"
-continued Winter, more thickly than ever. "In a few weeks I shall have
-my house in A---- back on my hands--what say you, Kate, to making the
-old couple happy till you go to a home of your own? We may not be gay;
-but--"
-
-"Oh! hush, hush! You do not know how overpoweringly delightful such a
-vision seems to me."
-
-"Vision!--_Corpo di Bacco_, it shall be reality; and Mrs. O'Toole! my
-adopted daughter must have her own maid--_che gloria_--I have been
-expecting to see her broad, honest face every minute. My Kate--it must
-have gone hard with you to part with her."
-
-But Kate could not speak--she could only clasp Winter's hand in both
-of hers, and murmur a broken thanksgiving, her eyes rivetted on her
-companion in speechless gratitude.
-
-"But this is all waste of time," resumed Winter, "and you will
-have enough to do to be ready to return with me by the two o'clock
-train--Mrs. Winter expects us to tea this evening."
-
-"This evening!--Oh! I can be ready in a moment," cried Kate
-rapturously. "But,"--her countenance fell--"I must not, I fear--I could
-not be rude to these people; they have been civil to me in their way."
-
-"_Poter del mondo! cospetta!_" cried Winter thickly and stoutly; "I
-will lose sight of you no more, and I have no time to stay in this
-confounded cotton-spinning metropolis. Let me see these dragons of
-yours. I am he that will bell the cat."
-
-So they went into the front parlour, Kate still clinging to his arm.
-
-"My friend, Mr. Winter, Mrs. Jorrocks," said Kate.
-
-"Please to sit down, sir," returned that lady.
-
-"I am come to take Miss Vernon away with me," began Winter, in abrupt
-and decided tones.
-
-"Oh! you be----But I think it is rather sudden. What am I to do--and
-where will you be if I say no?"
-
-"My dear madam, I shall still be in Carrington. It is quite natural you
-should not like to part with Miss Vernon; in short, she expressed to me
-her reluctance to leave you, abruptly, and all that sort of thing; but
-I want her, and my wife wants her, and I am sure you will not stand in
-her way."
-
-Here Mrs. Wilson entered in a new cap, and Winter was duly presented.
-
-"This gentleman is for taking Miss Vernon away to-day. I declare he has
-quite took away my breath," said Mrs. Jorrocks.
-
-"_Never_," returned her daughter. "Well, if that isn't the strangest
-thing."
-
-"Oh! as Miss Vernon is in such a hurry I'll not stop her, only since
-she has broken her engagement she must take the consequences."
-
-"That is not of the least importance," said Mr. Winter.
-
-"It would distress me to seem rude where I have received courtesy,"
-said Kate; "but surely you must sympathise in my anxiety to be once
-more domesticated with such kind and valued friends. Mr. Winter must
-return to town; I should much like to accompany him."
-
-And thereupon Mesdames Jorrocks and Wilson burst forth into a
-vociferous and vituperative duet--
-
-"There was gratitude for you! She had been treated more like a daughter
-than a dependent; and what was she but a companion after all. There
-was no end to the favours she had received, but it was the way with
-the Irish always. It would be a lesson to them how to treat the next
-companion they got! And now, when this gentleman, whom they had never
-heard of before, appears, as if from the clouds, Miss Vernon is ready
-to walk off with him. It was very odd his wife (if he _had_ a wife)
-could not wait a day or two--people who had to earn their bread should
-be very careful--and what would Mr. Wilson say," &c., &c.
-
-"Kate, my dear," said Winter, coolly, "go and put up your things--I see
-this is no place for you--I will wait here."
-
-She left the room, much annoyed to be obliged to part with Mrs.
-Jorrocks on such terms, yet to stay behind Winter was an impossibility;
-so, resolutely determining, she hastily packed up her worldly effects,
-remembering, thankfully, the different mood in which she had last
-stowed them away.
-
-Winter meantime exerted himself to converse with the amiable mother and
-daughter, and not without effect. He talked in his most eccentric and
-abrupt manner, and finally impressed them with the notion that he was
-a whimsical but wealthy millionaire, to whose fancies it was Kate's
-interest to accommodate herself. Matters, consequently, wore a less
-stormy aspect on Kate's return to the sitting-room; both ladies were
-cool, and Winter very lively.
-
-"So you are off, Miss Vernon," said Mrs. Wilson; "I did not think we
-should part so sudden."
-
-"I offer Miss Vernon the alternative to return with me, and be my
-daughter and heiress, or to remain here and be neither," broke in
-Winter conclusively.
-
-"Well, I suppose you had better go--you acknowledge I owe you nothing,"
-put in Mrs. Jorrocks.
-
-"I do indeed! Will you give this note, with my kindest regards, to Mrs.
-Davis?" returned Kate.
-
-"And," observed Winter, "permit your servant to call a cab."
-
-A few more awkward moments, and the cab drove up.
-
-"Well, good bye, Mrs. Jorrocks--you forgive my abrupt departure?"
-
-"I suppose I must--good bye;" and again the rigid hand was held out
-stiff and cold.
-
-"Good bye, Miss Vernon--I wish you 'appy," said Mrs. Wilson, and she
-was free!
-
-It was a gloomy, drizzling November day, yet she thought there was
-something cheery in the sensation of safety from wet conveyed by the
-substantial look of the carriages drawn up beside the platform, where
-Winter's impatience hurried them nearly an hour too soon. He had tried
-to persuade Kate to eat something during this interval, and though
-excitement left her little appetite, she swallowed a sandwich and a
-glass of wine to please him.
-
-At last, the arrival of luggage and passengers became more frequent
-and hurried--first and second bells were rung--places taken--doors
-banged--a jerk forward--another back--and they were off--not at full
-speed at once, but slowly through the tunnel--leaving Kate time to
-look at the spot where she felt so desolate, the day she arrived; and,
-contrasting her present feelings with that terrible period, she knew,
-for the first time, perhaps, how much she had suffered. It was better
-for her that the disappointment at Egerton's not recognising her had
-come before, not after Winter's return--it was something to keep the
-balance of her heart amid so much delight. The recollection of it had
-never left her mind for a single instant since the Sunday before, till
-Winter's presence had, for a moment, overpowered it with a flood of
-light. Already, however, it was beginning to return, yet less gloomily,
-less hopelessly, mingling with some more clearly acknowledged sense
-of duty to herself--that it was too bold, too unmaidenly to think
-so much of one who perhaps thought but little of her! Yes--she was
-strong enough to be proud again. Oh! the enjoyment of that journey!
-everything looked so pleasant--even the drenched country through
-which they flew--and the stiff, old-maidish-looking woman opposite,
-who read "vestiges of the Natural History of the Creation" the whole
-way--munching biscuits till the carriage was strewn with the vestiges
-of modern crumbs; and the two gentlemen, one from Hampshire, and the
-other from North of the Tweed, who discussed Free Trade so warmly with
-Mr. Winter--and dear Mr. Winter himself, his rosy, round, well-shaven
-face, with its twinkling eyes, sparkling over a dark brown Spanish
-cloak, of melo-dramatic dimensions, majestically folded round him,
-while his head was cosily tied up in a templar cap, with flaps over the
-ears! How radiant is each object viewed through the medium of a happy
-heart!
-
-Then as evening closed in, and after rushing by many a quiet little
-station with its red flag, and signal-man's outstretched arms, how
-joyous was Winter's look, as he drew out his watch.
-
-"Half-past four! we shall be at Euston Square not long after eight."
-
-A few minutes pause at Wolverton, while the porters trampling heavily
-overhead put in the lighted lamps--and jerk, clash--they were off
-again. The Hampshire gentleman drew up a window that had been slightly
-open, and renewed his argument.
-
-"And though the legislature leaves the farmer no protection, the
-legislators will not lower their rents a fraction. Why, down in my
-county, Lord Egerton, of Allerton, took off two and a half per cent
-last year; and to read the address, and hear the speeches he made about
-it, you would think he had made each tenant a present of his holding.
-Thanking Heaven for putting so christian an act into his heart, &c.,
-&c.; and now they say he will never recover; and his brother will be
-putting the screw on again, I suppose."
-
-"Is Lord Egerton ill then?" asked Winter, with some interest.
-
-"He had a paralytic seizure about four or five months ago, and has been
-in a very bad state ever since; his brother, Colonel Egerton, was sent
-for to India; he was down at Allerton a short time since, not very well
-himself, I believe."
-
-Kate's soul was in her ears during this communication; and while she
-chided herself for thinking of him, her thoughts dwelt on Egerton,
-till, at last, wearied by the excitement, she had gone through, her
-slight, graceful form lent more and more against the side of the
-carriage, and she slept. Winter carefully drew her cloak round her, and
-fastened it closer to her throat; and, as she opened her eyes, slightly
-roused by his movement, she silently thanked God that she was no more
-uncared for and alone.
-
-"Tickets if you please," were the next sounds that met her ear--"Great
-time! only just eight," from Winter, as she looked up bewildered after
-the disturbed sleep in which she had indulged.
-
-"Where are we?"
-
-"Near home," said Winter, while his bead-like eyes twinkled with more
-than usual vivacity.
-
-"Sure you have left no indispensable carpet-bag behind? got your
-parasol? all right--in with you--14, Orchard Street--drive fast."
-
-And away through dull, dark streets, now whisk round a corner into a
-blaze of light and flaring gas jets over butchers' stalls--now winding
-through omnibusses--anon dashing past the brilliantly lit up _entré_ to
-some concert room--again into darkness undiminished save by the street
-lamps and hall lights--then a rumble over the side stones.
-
-"Here we are," from Winter--as the door flew open before their
-charioteer could knock.
-
-Mrs. Winter, standing under the lamp, in a cap that looked as if it had
-been made at A----, herself neat, as though she never had encountered a
-Spanish flea.
-
-"Dearest Kate! I thought you would never come!"
-
-A sobbing, joyous embrace, and she was swept up-stairs, where even the
-London lodging looked homelike under Mrs. Winter's benign influence.
-Then came the plentiful tea--hot cakes, and broiled ham and eggs, with
-mulled port for the lady, and brandy-and-water for the gentleman--and
-the delicious confusion of cross questions, and most irrelevant
-answers--and the mingling of tears and smiles!
-
-"Now you must go to bed," said Winter; "see, it is long past one--and
-that poor child has been in constant agitation all day--she has not a
-vestige of color in her cheeks."
-
-"Indeed, my dear, you look ill--yes--you must go to bed," observed his
-wife, with her usual kindly precision, which nothing but the actual
-excitement of the moment of meeting could break through, and which Kate
-recognized joyfully as an old friend.
-
-"The sober certainty of waking bliss," may well be weighed against the
-agony of first waking after grief. And Kate lay for some time, the next
-morning, comparing this Sunday with the last; then her thoughts flew
-to nurse, and she sprang up to communicate to her the joyful news of
-her emancipation.
-
-"Ah! I have heart to write now."
-
-Winter and his wife soon asked for a fuller and more connected account
-than she had yet given them of her life since they had last met; and
-though it cost her many tears, the recital did her good. How clearly
-through it all could she trace the guiding of Almighty love, ever
-hovering near to interpose its aid when the bowed spirit failed beneath
-its burden. No, they were not bitter tears she shed that morning.
-And, sometimes, her eyes would sparkle brightly through them, as she
-recounted nurse's undeviating self-devotion and unfailing truth. She
-thought little of herself during the narration, nor dreamt it was the
-quiet, undaunted heroism her words involuntarily displayed--the heroism
-of exhaustless love, careless of its own wealth, that drew such quick
-sobs from Mrs. Winter, and made her good little husband wink his eyes,
-and blow his nose, so furtively, and so often.
-
-Both the artist and his wife perceived there was some mystery attached
-to Kate's separation from Lady Desmond, into which they must not pry;
-and so, with praiseworthy self-denial, accepted, unquestioned, the
-account she chose to give of her wish to be independent, &c., &c., &c.
-
-"I feel I neglected you, my dear Kate," said Winter, as she paused,
-wearied by her long recital, "but the perfect content of your last
-letter induced me, without any fixed plan, to ramble on and on,
-like some butterfly attracted from flower to flower, lost in a rich
-profusion of magnificent subjects. Madame bore it all wonderfully;
-I owe her much for her patience; and I intended every day, for the
-last six weeks, to write and tell you what time we had fixed on for
-our return, though I fancied, from what you last said, that you and
-Lady Desmond intended to leave England, and ramble God knows where;
-therefore, I always thought it better to wait; as you were in good
-hands, a few weeks, one way or the other, would make no difference--so
-I loitered on, scarcely hoping to find you in England on my return;
-at last we found ourselves at Gibralter, so late in the year, and so
-tired of knocking about, that we took the Peninsular and Oriental
-steamer, and, after a tedious passage, arrived here, as I told you,
-last Wednesday. In three weeks, I trust, the house in the Abbey-gardens
-will be free, and then, with God's blessing, we will keep Christmas
-thankfully in the old place--would you like this?"
-
-"If you had read my most inmost wish for the coming season, which I so
-dreaded, it would be to spend it where I was so happy, and grandpapa so
-respected."
-
-"But, my dear," said Mrs. Winter to her husband, "don't you think
-Kate ought to have advice? She changes color so, and her pulse is very
-irregular."
-
-"My kind friend, no," said Kate, leaning her head on Mrs. Winter's
-shoulder, "_you_ have brought me all I want--the sense of home. I will
-rest during the three weeks we are to be here--rest profoundly--and, at
-the end of that time, you shall have, please God, a rosy, cheerful--"
-she paused, and added, enquiringly, "daughter."
-
-Winter took her hand, and pressed it gravely and affectionately, as if
-accepting her; his wife kissed her cheek, and there was a silence of
-deep feeling.
-
-"Now I must write."
-
-"Who to?" asked Winter.
-
-"Georgy and nurse."
-
-"Very well; tell the latter (may she not, Sue?) that the moment we are
-settled at A----, We will summon her to wait on our daughter."
-
-"Yes--I shall be proud to have her about you, she is excellent,"
-returned his wife.
-
-And Kate wrote. Oh, how vain all language to depict the gratitude
-with which she wrote; yet she would fain have despatched an order
-for nurse's immediate return to her; but she was pleased, right well
-pleased, to have so near a prospect of re-union before her.
-
-And peacefully did the days glide over, and pleasant too, though London
-wore its November gloom--without might be fog and damp, cold winds and
-muddy streets--within were bright fires and calm, full hearts. Kate,
-in spite of herself, felt, at times, restless to know more of Egerton,
-though she could not bring herself to speak of him; but then she had
-so much to hear from Winter; so many exquisite sketches to examine;
-so much to discuss, relative to a picture he intended exhibiting next
-Spring; new books, reviews, and music, amongst which to revel, so that
-her mind was well filled.
-
-Langley and Mrs. Storey soon made their way to see her; the latter
-was, undoubtedly, of great use to Mrs. Winter, and an unimpeachable
-authority on all matters connected with shopping; they made endless
-excursions together, while Kate remained quietly at home, for a slight
-pain in the chest made Winter a little uneasy, and repose seemed now to
-her the greatest pleasure.
-
-She had enjoyed nearly a week of this welcome rest, when the following
-letter from Lady Desmond was put into her hand--
-
- "Perhaps the only intelligence which could have gladdened my heart,
- was that conveyed by your letter, dearest Kate. At last, my eyes
- are opened, fully opened, to the culpable folly and injustice of my
- conduct. Now, when it is too late to spare you the suffering I have
- inflicted. If you could see how I loathe myself, you would weep for
- me. God gave me health, and riches, an unspotted name, and a fair
- position; I paid back no tithe of gratitude or duty--and after a life
- of self-indulgence--He gave me the gracious task to guard and cherish
- my benefactor's child--see how I have performed the one incumbent but
- pleasant duty placed so clearly before me--discarded it--rejected it,
- for an unholy phantom. Oh, Kate, Kate! you are so patient, so good, so
- forgiving; and I, as I write each excellence, seem to myself so base,
- and implacable, and imperious, I am not worthy that you should come
- under my roof. But, thank God, your true, kind friends are restored
- to you--I see you are happy, and now I understand but too well why
- you remained so long at Carrington. Good Heavens! to what have I not
- driven you--persuading myself that your own guilty conscience would
- not permit you to accept the invitations I compelled myself to make.
- I do not ask you to forgive me--I know you do; but, oh, write to
- me--reconcile me to myself--I cannot rest. I wear myself out among
- these wretched people whom I half envy for their absorption in mere
- physical suffering, and still I do not sleep. I want to see you, to
- hear your voice. Oh, I am wretched.
-
- "Write to me again--say you are happy--it is all that can console me.
-
- "Yours, as in our old days,
-
- "G. DESMOND."
-
-Kate did not lose an hour in replying to this letter, she wrote with
-all the simple wisdom of a true, pure, loving heart. True, deep,
-unchanging sympathy, and judicious respect, breathed through every
-line, and at the conclusion she declared her readiness to join her
-cousin as soon as Christmas, (which she had faithfully promised to
-spend with the Winters) was over.
-
-"Or you might visit A----," she continued, "you would, I know, like
-my kind friends so much--you would enjoy Mr. Winter's artistic
-enthusiasm, and his wife's excellent quaintness. We shall have many
-pleasant days together yet, dearest Georgy, and leaving our faulty past
-in the hands of a merciful judge--help each other to live a better and
-a higher life for future."
-
-Miss Vernon was here interrupted by the servant of the house, who came
-to say Mr. Winter was in the drawing-room, with a gentleman, and wanted
-her.
-
-"Very well, I will be down in a moment," replied Miss Vernon, "I
-suppose it is Mr. Langley," she thought, as she hastily finished her
-letter, sealed and directed it, before descending to the drawing-room;
-the door was slightly open, and she heard a very clear quiet voice,
-which seemed familiar to her, say--
-
-"No, I should not have given it up," she stopped a moment, then,
-without giving herself time for further cowardice, entered the room,
-and met an earnest, enquiring glance from Egerton's dark brown eyes.
-Kate had a good deal of self-command, but it had been much tried of
-late; she felt her heart stand still for a second, and then throb
-violently; instinctively covering her eyes with one hand, she held out
-the other, silently, and it was quickly, warmly, yet gently, clasped in
-both of Egerton's.
-
-"I fear we have startled you," said he, calmly, with a certain tone
-of deep feeling in his voice, which acted on Kate's nerves like a
-restorative.
-
-"Yes," she replied, tremulously; but recovering herself, and
-withdrawing her hand--"I had no idea who the gentleman was, they told
-me had come in with Mr. Winter--I am very glad to see you." And she sat
-down feeling quite incapable of standing any longer. Egerton placed
-himself beside her, and Winter stood opposite, in a state of fume,
-against the stupidity of lodging-house servants.
-
-"I told the thick-headed girl, as plainly as possible, Colonel Egerton,
-on purpose to prepare you. I knew the memories--humph pooh," and
-Winter stopped abruptly, for Egerton, whose eyes were fixed on Kate's
-face, raised his hand significantly as he observed her changing colour.
-
-And this was their first meeting--not very demonstrative, yet Kate was
-satisfied. Winter rattled on, apparently well pleased, but Egerton and
-Kate were very silent, the latter particularly so.
-
-"I was hurrying down Pall Mall, in hopes of catching Mrs. Winter before
-she started on any shopping expedition, when suddenly, an iron grasp
-on my shoulder arrested my progress. I just looked round, previous to
-calling the police, and saw Egerton's face considerably browner than
-when last I beheld it--he was not very connected at first."
-
-"No," interrupted Egerton, "I was breathless--I had just issued from my
-club, when I caught a glimpse of your well-remembered figure--to give
-chase was my first impulse--better get into a scrape than miss the man
-I had been so long looking for, so here I am; and are you quite well,
-Miss Vernon? You look--"
-
-"You must not tell me I am looking ill," said Kate, with something of
-her old archness, a soft smile playing round her lips, and dimpling her
-cheek, as a sudden gleam of sunshine calls forth a thousand diamond
-sparkles from the bosom of a sleeping lake.
-
-"You do not look well," persisted Egerton, too earnest to be
-complimentary; and then, strange to say, there was an awkward
-pause--their hearts were too full to speak on any common-place topic,
-and they dared not touch upon anything deeper.
-
-Winter did good service, however, and at last Kate ventured to ask--
-
-"Have you been long in England, Captain--I mean Colonel Egerton."
-
-He smiled, his own bright smile--lip and eyes in unhesitating harmony.
-
-"Yes--call me Captain Egerton, it reminds me of old times and pleasant
-days. I arrived here nearly a month ago--I had been ordered home by
-the doctor, at the same time Mary, (my sister, Mrs. Wentworth), wrote
-requesting I would return, on account of Egerton's health; besides," he
-added, with another smile, "I was home-sick, and restless to learn more
-than letters could tell me. I was almost a fortnight at Allerton."
-
-"So we heard on the rail-road," interrupted Winter; "I mean, that you
-had been at Allerton. And so your brother is very ill?"
-
-Colonel Egerton shook his head.
-
-"Very painfully affected; and, I fear, will never be much better. They
-want me to stay in England; but I can really be of no use to him; and
-as soon as I have refreshed myself, I mean to return to India, unless
-something very unforeseen occurs."
-
-"Being his next heir," began Winter.
-
-"Is no reason why I should waste my life, waiting to step into
-my brother's shoes. As soon as I could get away from Allerton, I
-started for A----, hoping to find you and Mrs. Winter there. I knew,"
-turning to Kate, and insensibly softening his tones, "that the Priory
-existed no more--at least, for me--but I knew Winter would always be
-in communication with you. Imagine my dismay, to find a stranger in
-possession of the hospitable house where I had been so well cared
-for. Do you know I felt confoundedly cut up. I could learn nothing
-satisfactory there, so I came on to Carrington, and put up for a night
-with the ---- Hussars--old friends of mine. It was curious, Miss
-Vernon, how vividly the place reminded me of that ball. I felt a sort
-of certainty that you were near, and that I should meet you somehow. By
-the way, I went to hear the famous Doctor M---- preach before starting
-for town."
-
-"I know," said Kate, quietly--"you sat three rows before me."
-
-Egerton almost started from his seat in profound amazement.
-
-"How! what! do you mean to say you were in the church, and I did not
-see you?"
-
-"How extraordinary you did not mention this to me," exclaimed Winter.
-
-"I did not think--that is, I intended--and was always interrupted,"
-faltered Kate.
-
-"And why! why did you not speak to me?" cried Egerton, eagerly.
-
-"I could not, indeed! though I wished it much," said Kate, with a
-simple earnestness, at which Egerton's dark, embrowned cheek flushed
-with sudden pleasure. He did not pursue the subject then; but said,
-abruptly--
-
-"I have felt bewildered at finding myself so suddenly talking to my old
-friends, or I could not have been so long without enquiring for Mrs.
-O'Toole. May I not see my good nurse? You know she is mine, as well as
-yours, Miss Vernon."
-
-"She is quite well; but alas! not with me; she joins us, however, when
-we return to A----. Oh! how glad she would be to see you again! she was
-so fond of you."
-
-"Not with you!"
-
-Colonel Egerton was beginning in tones of no small surprise, when the
-door opened, and Mesdames Storey and Winter entered.
-
-The greeting between Mrs. Winter and Egerton was considerably more
-demonstrative than any that had yet occurred; the kind little woman
-was evidently touched by the genuine delight evinced by her quondam
-patient at seeing her; and Winter smiled to see Colonel Egerton's more
-deep happiness take this method of expression; Mrs. Storey simpered and
-curtsied and nodded to Kate, and was altogether, as she said, "quite
-taken with Colonel Egerton;" and sat on till her friends wished her
-far away. The conversation was, therefore, general; and Miss Vernon
-unusually silent.
-
-Egerton felt he could make no enquiries then, so rose to leave, having
-paid an unconscionably long visit.
-
-"I have a letter for nurse," said he to Kate, "which my ignorance of
-her whereabouts has prevented my forwarding; if you will allow me,
-I will bring it here to-morrow morning, and hear all about her, and
-everything. I have so many questions to ask; but I promised to see Sir
-J. M---- at the Horse Guards to-day, and must go. I presume you are
-visible early?"
-
-"Can't you join us at dinner, a lodging-house scramble? but, I suppose,
-an old campaigner as you are, can rough it," said Winter, with eager
-hospitality, that startled his precise wife.
-
-"With the greatest pleasure," cried Egerton, in his old, gay, frank
-manner. "I was just wishing you would ask me."
-
-Winter and Kate smiled; and Mrs. Storey opened her eyes, astonished at
-so cool an admission.
-
-"_Au revoir_, then," continued Colonel Egerton, taking his hat, and
-bowing. "I will bring you the letter, Miss Vernon."
-
-"Is five o'clock too early?" shouted Winter, after him, as he ran down
-stairs.
-
-"No, not the least."
-
-"Sharp, five then."
-
-"Humph, ha," said Winter, rubbing his hands together, as he returned
-to the room; "that's a fine fellow--no nonsense about him--though
-he nearly knocked me over this morning. I am glad his brother never
-married. Fred will make a first-rate member of the Upper House yet."
-
-"But, my dear John, how you could be so thoughtless as to ask such a
-fine gentleman--accustomed to the style he is--to a scrambling dinner
-with us, in a couple of hours. I'm sure I do not know where to turn."
-
-Mrs. Storey looked truly sympathising.
-
-"Pooh, pooh, my dear, give him a chop and a jam tart; anything--he will
-be satisfied, I'll engage; surely you must remember how easily pleased
-he was at A----."
-
-"Easily pleased, Mr. Winter! I am not so sure of that! a much more
-fastidious man might be pleased with the table we kept at A----."
-
-Winter pulled a long face, expressive of contrition for his fault; and
-Kate interposed her soothing influence.
-
-"Colonel Egerton was too glad to see you, and to come to you, to be
-_difficile_."
-
-"Well, Mr. Winter, I must go home before it is quite dark," said Mrs.
-Storey.
-
-"And I will escort you, my dear madam, to the omnibus--where can I
-catch Langley?" asked Winter.
-
-"Oh, at his house; he goes out very little."
-
-So Mrs. Storey and her cavalier departed, while Mrs. Winter disappeared
-to hold deep council with the landlady, and Kate was left alone to
-revel in her own thoughts; gaily they careered away over the far
-future, yet vaguely and indistinctly. Nurse and Georgy--the Winters
-and herself, and Egerton, were to be always happy together in some
-universal bond of fellowship; but she did not arrive at probabilities,
-they half startled her; she almost shrunk from the whisper of her
-heart--"He loves me, he always loved me." There was something too
-positive, too bold in such thoughts! And so a thousand, bright,
-kaleidoscope visions kept forming themselves round a delightful nucleus
-presented by the simple sentence--
-
-"Colonel Egerton is to dine here to-day!"
-
-Long, very long it was, since she had dared to indulge thus in reverie;
-and even while she raised her heart in unspoken gratitude to the Giver
-of good for her great deliverance, the thought rose to her lips--
-
-"If dear grandpapa had but lived, to see a return of so much happiness!
-Ah, why was he taken in the midst of such heavy times?"
-
-These reflections calmed the agitation which made each nerve
-tremulous, and she anticipated Egerton's return less anxiously.
-
-"I long to talk to him of grandpapa; but I am afraid of crying so very
-much, it would distress him."
-
-Here Mrs. Winter entered, quite restored to good humour, as Kate dimly
-perceived by the fire-light.
-
-"The woman of the house was so obliging; and it was so fortunate, the
-gentleman in the front parlour had gone out of town for a few days, and
-they could dine there; and an excellent pastry-cook at the corner of
-the street would supply all deficiencies. And, my dear, it is almost
-five o'clock, if you are going to smooth your hair, and wash your hands
-before dinner."
-
-If--of course she intended to do so.
-
-It was many a long day since she looked in the glass and brushed her
-glossy hair so carefully. She was not satisfied--no, she looked so
-pale, so unlike her old bright self. She little thought how amply the
-brightness was compensated by the pensive sweetness that deepened and
-softened the gentle gravity of her face, and the species of languor
-that lent such tender grace to her slight form. Never had Egerton
-admired her so much--he had left a bright, saucy girl, and found a
-lovely woman.
-
-Winter returned with Langley, whom he had caught, for dinner; and
-the little party had scarcely assembled, when Colonel Egerton was
-announced; they were sitting by the light of a bright fire, and Miss
-Vernon, leaning back quietly on the cushions of the sofa, was amused
-by the contrast between Egerton's fine figure and air noble, Winter's
-stumpy form, and Langley's awkward length; nor did Fred refrain from
-stealing glances at the graceful outline of Kate's black dress, which
-threw into strong relief the pure fairness of her throat and hands, a
-delicate colour tinged her cheek, and a certain holy look of happiness
-deepened the expression of her liquid eyes.
-
-Egerton handed Mrs. Winter down to dinner, and Kate followed with
-Winter. The repast was unimpeachable; but no one took any notice of
-its arrangements. Much was said by the gentlemen; but the ladies
-were rather silent. Egerton was all polished cordiality. A look of
-frank joy, which he cared little to disguise, lighted up his bronzed
-countenance and dark brown eyes; there was a degree of decision and
-authority in his manner and opinions, that they perhaps wanted before,
-as if he had read, and thought, and acted much since last he had
-dined with them; and Kate observed that Winter insensibly treated
-him with greater respect and less startling abruptness. Langley was
-never much impressed with any man; and the trio discussed Spain and
-India most agreeably, Colonel Egerton described simply and forcibly
-his visit to the cave Temples of Elora; and this led to the Hindoo
-Trinity, and the strange, rude, imperfect shadowing of the Christian
-doctrines contained in it; and then they rambled on to the universal
-ideas prevalent in all Pagan lands, and the German theories on this
-subject, and on languages; of the traces of the moors in Spain, and the
-Alhambra, &c. And on all these topics Egerton led instead of listening,
-as in former times.
-
-"If I could only persuade Mrs. Winter," said her husband, as she and
-Kate rose to leave the room, "to write and publish her experiences
-of Spain, the world would learn some startling facts. She used to
-endeavour to teach the girls to work, while I was sketching for my
-individual gratification. And as she picked up some colloquial Spanish,
-she heard strange revelations, beating Borrow's Bible in Spain all to
-nothing."
-
-"My dear, how can you talk so! it was only the Muleteer's sister, poor
-girl! and she knew a little English, near Gibraltar, you know."
-
-"With all the roughing she bore so well abroad," resumed Winter, "the
-moment she returned to England, heigh presto! the spell of nicety was
-on her. Man may be free the moment his foot touches British ground;
-but, Carambo! woman is trammelled forthwith by particularity and
-regularity, and no end of arities; she was afraid she should not be
-able to give you a sufficiently _recherché_ dinner, Colonel, on so
-short--"
-
-"My dear John, how can you--"
-
-"Mrs. Winter knew I could not forget all the dainties with which she
-used to tempt me, when I was such a troublesome invalid under her care,
-and wished to surprise me with them here," said Egerton, with a smile
-full of kindly recollection.
-
-"Never mind, Sue," cried Winter, as she retired; "Spain is a country
-too full of splendid colouring to be clean; nor is it necessary
-there--_Dormire coi cani per levarsi colle pulci_."
-
-"Well, my love, I think everything went on very smoothly," said Mrs.
-Winter, as she settled herself for her nap before the gentlemen made
-their appearance.
-
-"Very well indeed," returned Kate, vaguely, her eyes gazing far away
-into dreamland.
-
-The gentlemen soon followed them; and once more Kate handed a cup of
-tea to Egerton, their eyes met as he took it, and a tear started to
-Kate's, as the familiar action brought the memory of her grandfather
-vividly before her.
-
-"I have so much to say to you--so much to enquire of you," said
-Egerton, in a low tone, placing himself beside her; "but I must see
-you alone; I dare not agitate you with reminiscences so sad before a
-stranger, or indeed any third person."
-
-"Yes, I have much to tell you," returned Miss Vernon, tremulously.
-
-"It is a great mystery to me, the absence of nurse; I do not half like
-it," resumed Egerton. "I have brought you the letter from her son."
-
-"Thank you; I will forward it to-morrow. She will join me at A----. We
-return there in about a fortnight."
-
-"It was a most extraordinary occurrence," said Egerton, slowly stirring
-his cup round and round, "that I should have been in the same church
-with you at Carrington, and not know it. Why did you not speak to
-me--call to me--shy a prayer-book at my head! anything, rather than let
-me miss the good of which I was in search?"
-
-Kate smiled, and shook her head.
-
-"What a stupid numskull I was not to translate the instinctive feeling
-of your presence correctly, instead of pooh-poohing it away, after
-our friend Winter's fashion; however, all's well now. Give my kindest
-remembrance to Mrs. O'Toole when you write."
-
-"Certainly," said Kate, "I shall not fail."
-
-"Your cousin, Lady Desmond, is in Ireland, so Burton told me; he is a
-capital fellow; but Dashwood was away, God knows where; and he was the
-only person it appears who had any trace of you. Do you know where he
-is?"
-
-"No, he told me he was going to fish in Ireland when I saw him last."
-
-"So Lord Effingham is off to St. Petersburgh, Miss Vernon," said
-Langley, at this juncture.
-
-Kate felt that Fred's eye was on her, and coloured deeply, as she
-merely bowed in assent.
-
-"Curious place to winter in," he continued.
-
-Then Winter made some observations about the freezing of the Neva, and
-the Russian costume; and he and Langley talked on for a good while
-standing on the hearth-rug, and sipping their tea; but Egerton was
-silent, for some time; and Kate did not like to look at him; at last he
-asked--
-
-"Do you ever sing now?"
-
-"Oh yes," answered Mrs. Winter for her. "Sing that pretty new song you
-got yesterday, my love."
-
-"No, no," cried Egerton, eagerly, "an old one for me--dare I ask for
-'The Serenade,' if it would not distress you. I have so often longed to
-hear it again."
-
-"I will try," said Kate; "but--"
-
-She went to the piano, and struck the well-remembered arpeggio chords
-so long unheard; she strove to steady her voice, as it rose tremulous
-with its rich sweetness and deep expression; Egerton leant on the
-piano, wrapt in memory and contemplation. Kate proceeded very well to
-the end of the first verse; but there, at the sustained note to which
-her grandfather had so loved to listen, she faltered, paused, and
-covering her face with both her hands, for an instant, hastily left the
-room.
-
-She was thoroughly overcome; and, exhausted by the excitement of the
-day, returned no more that evening.
-
-Colonel Egerton came the next day, and the next, and the next. Mr. and
-Mrs. Winter, or Mrs. Storey, or some snuffy picture dealer was always
-there, and he was reduced, _malgré lui_, to talk of generalities, this
-constraint gave something of coolness and gravity to his manner; he was
-often _distrait_; and Kate felt less calm.
-
-Meanwhile Mrs. O'Toole's letters were filled with the rapturous
-expectation of a reunion with her _Darlint_, and could scarce be
-induced to wait until the time specified for her return by Winter.
-
-Kate was re-reading one of her characteristic epistles one morning
-after Mr. and Mrs. Winter had departed on some common errand. She had
-a slight cold, and was ordered by her kind authoritative _maestro_ to
-keep in doors; they had not been gone many minutes when Egerton came
-in, carrying a large bouquet of hot-house flowers.
-
-"I have just met Winter, and his _cara sposa_; they told me you were
-on the sick list. How is that?"
-
-"A cold--oh, nothing; but what beautiful flowers. I have suffered much
-from a dearth of flowers."
-
-"I wrote to my sister, who is at present at Allerton, to send me a
-basket full, they have tolerable conservatories there."
-
-"You are very kind; I will ring for a vase or bowl, or something to put
-them in. Mrs. Winter will be delighted with them."
-
-"Yes, but they are for you."
-
-The little bustle of arranging the graceful gift proceeded pleasantly.
-Egerton lounged on the sofa. Kate stood by the table, now consulting
-him as to their arrangement, and touching them with a tender, admiring
-care, that showed their appreciation of their rare beauty; gradually,
-as the task was accomplished, they glided into talk of former
-times; and Egerton spoke with such feeling of the sudden shock her
-grandfather's death had been to him, that Kate, unspeakably gratified
-by the reverent affection he expressed, was drawn on to give some
-account of his last moments, and how the old hound died when relieved
-from his watch. She spoke tremblingly, yet with wonderful composure;
-Egerton listened in motionless attention.
-
-"I shall never, never forget the night he died," she continued,
-unconsciously playing with a leaf, and still standing by the table.
-Egerton had risen, and was leaning against the mantel-piece. "He had
-seemed better, that day, and happier, and I sat watching him by the
-fire-light as he lay, asleep, as I thought, in his chair, long after
-he was gone from me." She shuddered slightly. "I had been dreaming of
-better times for him, perhaps a return to the Priory; but it was soon
-broken, my dream! and then Georgy was away, and the Winters, and I was,
-so alone! I had none, no, not one near me, that I loved, except poor
-nurse."
-
-She stopped to recover herself; Egerton, springing to her side, took
-her hand in both his,
-
-"Kate! long-loved, dearest, you have indeed been sad and weary; give me
-the right to be beside you, come sorrow or joy; I cannot bear to think
-of your being grieved and alone, while I, who so pined for a glimpse of
-you, was far away. Let me hold you to my heart, and shelter you from
-the roughness of life, or share its burdens with you. My beautiful one!
-be my wife, and come what may, we will bear it with the strength of two
-hearts."
-
-He drew her to him, close, close, and she leaned her hand upon his
-shoulder, murmuring,
-
-"I always wished you to be there, _he_ loved you so much."
-
-Where was sorrow, or fear, or doubt? "Where the evil that could touch
-her now that she had reached the haven where she would be?" vanished
-before the genial sunshine of Egerton's love.
-
-One long, fond, gentle kiss, before she extricated herself from his
-embrace, no longer her own, but pledged to be his while God granted
-them life, though she had scarce breathed an articulate syllable.
-
-The daylight was beginning to fade before Winter and his wife returned,
-and still they talked of the past, and planned for the future, and
-opened their inmost souls to each other; and Kate, the first strange,
-bewildering, emotion of finding every shadow of reserve swept from
-between herself and Egerton was gradually growing calmer; his voice
-stilling her heart to the deep tranquillity of perfect contempt.
-
-A glance on his entrance told Winter the state of affairs better,
-indeed, than Egerton's incoherent explanation.
-
-We have reached the climax of our story, not much remains to be
-told, already its simple annals have spread themselves out too far;
-patience, but little remains.
-
- _To Mrs. O'Toole, Fermoy, Ireland._
-
- "The day-dawn has indeed come at last, brightly and softly, dearest
- nurse, true friend! Soon, soon we shall meet, and you will have two
- nurselings. Oh, I am so strangely happy. The good God has sent us such
- joy; for you and I always were joyful or sad together. Ah, I can no
- longer speak of myself alone; I have another self, a better, nobler,
- stronger self. A true heart to lean upon. The wish you have never
- openly expressed will be accomplished, my own nurse. I have promised
- to be his wife. Colonel Egerton's, of whom grandpapa was so fond;
- he would be proud and glad if he knew it; and dare we say he does
- not? I yearn to hear your voice, and that you too should bask in the
- sunshine, after such a long sad winter; for he is so fond of you, and
- always calls you his nurse. But in a very few days you will be with
- me again. We go to A---- on the 30th; be there to meet us. Everything
- is as yet very unsettled; but I write to you first, before any one. I
- cannot tell you anything clearly now, only you are to be always with
- me, and I do not think we shall leave England.
-
- "Dear nurse, how wildly I have written, my hand is so unsteady, and my
- heart beats; but, nurse, you must bend your knees before God, and pray
- to Him to be with us now in this great trial of prosperity, even as He
- stayed us in our time of adversity.
-
- Ever your loving child,
-
- KATE."
-
-"Who are you writing to, Kate?" asked Egarton, jealously watching her
-endeavouring to hide a tear that fell upon the paper as he entered the
-room.
-
-"To nurse, but you must not see it."
-
-"_Cativa_--I have no such wild ambition, but keep it till to-morrow, I
-want to add a postscript."
-
-"Yes but no later, she will be so proud to hear from you."
-
-Egerton's talk over pounds shillings and pence with Winter gave that
-worthy great satisfaction. "I am not rich," said the young colonel,
-"but I have a moderate competence with the prize money that has fallen
-to my share, my military appointments and the certainty as to the
-future, although it springs, unfortunately, from my poor brother's
-state of health; besides, Kate is so differently situated now compared
-to what she was when I tore myself away from England. I can never
-forget your fatherly kindness to my bride elect."
-
-"I trust you will not think of taking her to India."
-
-"I should prefer staying at home now; I dread the climate for her; yes,
-in all probability I shall remain at home; it would be a hard trial to
-part from you and her cousin; by the way I cannot quite make out that
-Lady Desmond," and the two friends proceeded to discuss and elucidate
-very near the truth of Kate's well preserved secret.
-
-"Now then my Kate" said Egerton, looking up from his writing the
-next morning and holding out his hand. "Come here, I have a clearer
-conscience than you, you may read my postscript; to be sure as it is to
-a lady you have a right."
-
-She took the paper from his hand, and standing by him read as follows,
-while he leant his arm on the table and gazed in her face.
-
- "My dear nurse, Miss Kate will not let me see what she has written, so
- I must write for myself."
-
- "I have felt deeply your truth and fidelity to one very dear to me,
- and I can assure you, as long as I have a home to offer you, none
- after my wife will be more welcome there than yourself, but as ladies
- are changeable, (at least they tell me so), and you might possibly at
- some future day choose a house of your own, the enclosed is a rough
- draft of a deed now in preparation, securing to you an annuity, which
- will I trust, render you tolerably independent for the remainder of
- your days. I consider that in doing this I merely act as the executor
- of your late lamented master, think that you owe it to him and look
- upon me as still your debtor for unlimited care and kindness when I
- require it.
-
- Yours with sincere regard,
-
- FRED. B. EGERTON.
-
-We dare not tell how Kate expressed her entire approbation of this
-letter; severe ladies may be shocked, and we have a great respect for
-them. She was no prude, and Egerton had strong nerves, so no one need
-trouble themselves further on the subject.
-
-All arrangements and projects were however broken up, shortly before
-the Winters and their now blooming adopted daughter, left town for
-A----. A telegraphic despatch from Allerton announced the sudden return
-of Lord Egerton's paralytic seizure, and summoned his brother to
-what soon proved to be a death-bed scene. The peer showed symptoms of
-satisfaction when his discarded brother took his place by his bed side,
-but he was speechless, and after a week's suffering breathed his last.
-
-Meantime Kate and her kind friends reached their old home, the sense
-of happiness tempered the solemn tidings of Lord Egerton's death which
-reached them as they left London.
-
-Kate could not repress a shudder as the shout of "Carrington,
-Carrington, change here for Batten Wiggem, Manchester," met her
-ear; she looked at Winter and silently raised her eyes to Heaven.
-
-Mrs. O'Toole had been some days installed at Abbey Gardens previous to
-their return, and as Kate caught the first glimpse of her, the white
-apron, and the snowy cap, the black gown and the eager, straining look,
-the attitude all the same, exactly the same, as the sad day she had bid
-her good bye, her heart bounded within her at the contrast. How she
-clung to her and kissed her, and smothered her wrinkled cheeks with her
-fair soft hands, and would not let her out of her sight for a moment,
-and pleased herself by waiting on her.
-
-"Sure, I could'nt answer yer letther, the way I'd like, core iv my
-heart," said Mrs. O'Toole to Kate, when they were alone; "nor the
-Captin's, (me Lord's I mane) will ye write wan fur me asthore; he'll
-think I have'nt a screed iv gratitude in me afther him settlin a fortin
-on me."
-
-"I will, dear nurse, but he will be here soon, and then you can speak
-to him yourself; he must be at Allerton now on account of his poor
-brother's death, it was so sudden at last."
-
-"Well, the Lord, rest his soul! sure it's better for him to be in
-happiness in heaven than down here, standin' in the captin's way,"
-returned nurse, cheerfully.
-
-"For shame, nurse, you must not speak so."
-
-"Och, thin, core iv my heart, but ye look well; there's the light iv
-joy in your eyes, an' on yer lips again. See what a power if happiness
-the Blessed Saviour was storin' up for us, all the time we wor in
-sorra. An' many's the time I grumbled becaise things didn't go my way.
-Sure, if I'd the pick iv the world, I'd choose the captin (I mane me
-Lord) fur a husband fur ye; it's he that has the warm heart, an' the
-open hand!--an' what'll ye be, asthore?--a duchess or a countess!
-
-"Only a viscountess, and even then that seems very strange."
-
-"A vi-countess; that's something betune thim, anyways." Kate laughed.
-"An' whin will me Lord be here?"
-
-"Not till after his brother's funeral, of course."
-
-"They'll have a grand berrin," concluded Mrs. O'Toole, meditatively.
-
-The new peer, as may be anticipated, joined them as soon as it was
-possible, and a joyful sight it was to see his greeting with Mrs.
-O'Toole, who was the same with the viscount as she had been with
-the captain. He stopped to shake hands with her most cordially and
-energetically at the foot of the stairs, even though Kate was waiting
-for him at the top.
-
-"Och! many's the time me ould eyes wur wearyin' to see you when we wur
-in throuble; many's the time me sweet child wanted ye; but, glory be
-to God, you'll be beside her for ever from this out, captin, agra! Me
-lord, I mane."
-
-"I'll never forgive you if you change the title, nurse. I was not
-perfectly content till I saw your honest face; but now, indeed, I feel
-I am amongst my old friends again."
-
-"An' sure aint I a brute not to thank you fur the fortin; it's
-bewildhered I am entirely; yer a prence, so ye are."
-
-"Well nurse, never mind; I can't stop now, for you see there's Miss
-Kate waiting for me; we'll have a long talk to-morrow," cried Egerton,
-springing up the stairs.
-
-The news of Kate's approaching happiness did more to comfort Lady
-Desmond, and soothe her vexed spirit, than whole libraries of sound
-reasoning and good advice could have done; nor was it difficult to
-prevail on her to join them; and so the interval demanded by business
-and etiquette sped away, and long before winter had yielded to the
-coming spring, a quiet, happy wedding party assembled at the old
-church. Mr. Winter was there, for the first time in his life, perhaps,
-in white gloves; Lady Desmond; and the Wentworths, gay, polished,
-kind-hearted triflers, all charmed with their new sister; and Burton,
-gravely observant, looked on contentedly; and Mrs. Winter rather
-nervous at the thoughts of entertaining so goodly a company.
-
-And Mrs. O'Toole, though the wedding was peculiarly quiet, was
-satisfied, perfectly, as she removed the long, graceful veil from her
-child's head, and replaced it with a travelling bonnet, ejaculating,
-"If mee blessed masther could look down from heaven, it's he that would
-be proud an' happy. Sure he sees us this blessed minnit!"
-
-Our tale is ended, and Kate Vernon merged in "The Viscountess Egerton."
-
-We may not promise that her future will be all unclouded, but, at
-least, she has a true, strong heart--a bold, clear spirit to aid her
-through the rugged paths of life; to stand beside her in the storm, and
-finally, to glide with her into the calm, still evening of time.
-
-Lady Desmond is still a widow; she passes much of her time amongst her
-hitherto uncared-for tenantry, and her happiest hours are spent in the
-pleasant circle collected at Allerton.
-
-Colonel Dashwood is married to a fair, bright girl, younger by a good
-many years than himself, who looks up to him as a perfect Chevalier
-Bayard.
-
-Bruton remains a determined old bachelor.
-
-The Winters are well, happy, and prosperous, as they deserve to be.
-
-It was in the height of the high season of 1851, as we endeavoured to
-"move round," in obedience to the imperious mandate of the policeman on
-duty, at the case containing the celebrated Kooh-i-noor, in the Crystal
-Palace, that our attention was attracted by the consequential air of an
-elderly female, decidedly _embonpoint_, and well to do in the world,
-as evidenced by her substantial black silk dress and bonnet, and rich
-scarlet shawl.
-
-"An', so that's the Kooh-i-noor, is it?" remarked the old lady in
-audible accents, whether addressed to an individual companion or to the
-crowd generally, we do not pretend to decide.
-
-"Athen, it's mighty like a lump iv glass hangin' to a lusthre; faith
-the ould masther had a dimint he used to wear an his breast at Dungar,
-in the good ould times, that this wan, for all it's so big, couldn't
-hould a candle to; but it's not every one ud know the differ. It's
-kilt entirely I am with the haite; an' mee lady"--and we gradually lost
-the words, though we struggled after the retreating figure, till we
-saw her respectfully handed, by a tall footman in a handsome livery,
-into a coronetted chariot, from whence beamed a lovely, happy face we
-remembered well.
-
-The thread is spun, the web is woven--a parting quotation, and we have
-done:--
-
-_Saunders's News-Letter_ (we omit the precise date) lately contained
-the following paragraph:--
-
-"We understand the Dungar property, in the county of ----, so long
-the subject of litigation, has been purchased by Viscount Egerton, of
-Allerton, under the Incumbered Estates' Court. Lady Egerton is, we
-believe, the grand-daughter and heiress-at-law of the late owner, the
-well-known and universally respected Colonel D'Arcy Vernon."
-
-"Ay," said a thick little artist, who had withdrawn his thumb from
-his palette to open a newspaper directed to him in a delicate female
-hand, as he read this paragraph--"So the wheel goes round, but it is
-not every day it brings up, sparkling over the dull surface of life, so
-bright and pure a gem as Kate Vernon."
-
-
-THE END.
-
-
-T. C. Newby, Printer, 30, Welbeck Street, Cavendish Square.
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- <h1>KATE VERNON.</h1>
-
- <p class="ph2 oldeng mt2">A Tale.</p>
-
- <p class="ph3"><em>IN THREE VOLUMES.</em></p>
-
- <p class="ph2">VOL. III.</p>
-
- <p class="ph3 mt4">
- LONDON:<br />
- THOMAS CAUTLEY NEWBY, PUBLISHER,</p>
- <p class="ph4">30, WELBECK STREET, CAVENDISH SQUARE.</p>
- <p class="ph4">1854.</p>
-</div>
-
-
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_1" id="Page_1">[1]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<hr class="chap" />
-<p class="ph2">KATE VERNON.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<h2>CHAPTER I.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">NEW SCENES.</p>
-
-
-<p>Kate stood a moment transfixed, as nurse's
-awful words met her ear, her eyes riveted on
-her grandfather, but the repose of his face,
-almost reassured her, and, stepping back from
-Mrs. O'Toole's encircling arms, she exclaimed,
-hurriedly, angrily, but in carefully subdued
-tones&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Be silent, nurse! do not terrify me with
-such strange words&mdash;see, he is asleep!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_2" id="Page_2">[2]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Nurse's only reply was a burst of tears, as
-she laid her hand upon that of the Colonel, the
-fingers of which gently grasped the arm of the
-chair. Kate now bent down to kiss his cheek&mdash;but
-shrunk back from the icy touch.</p>
-
-<p>"He has fainted," she exclaimed, looking
-wildly round at nurse. "Bring water, and
-wine&mdash;send for Doctor S&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"I will, I will, my own child, only don't
-look at me that away."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. O'Toole's violent ringing, soon brought
-Mrs. Crooks, and the servant.</p>
-
-<p>"Go," said Miss Vernon, who, though pale
-as death, was calm and stern, "send for Doctor
-S&mdash;&mdash;, instantly, Colonel Vernon is
-taken very ill, he has fainted! see! Nurse
-thought he was dead, but I forbid any one
-uttering that word&mdash;until&mdash;until&mdash;go," she
-exclaimed, again with the same suppressed
-vehemence, with which she had before spoken,
-"Why do you stand gazing at me? life or
-death depends on your speed."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_3" id="Page_3">[3]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Both the frightened landlady and servant
-rushed from the room; and Kate never stirred
-from her rigid position beside her grandfather's
-chair, never moved a muscle of her face, until
-the Doctor, who was fortunately at home, entered,
-and found them apparently fixed in their
-several positions.</p>
-
-<p>A hasty glance, showed the experienced
-physician, that it was indeed but the lifeless
-clay, round which poor Kate strove to preserve
-the quiet, prescribed for a suffering spirit, and
-turning to Mrs. O'Toole, he whispered&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Try and get Miss Vernon out of the
-room."</p>
-
-<p>Her quick ear caught his words.</p>
-
-<p>"Why should I go? I can assist you to
-revive him."</p>
-
-<p>"But&mdash;but&mdash;" stammered the doctor, fairly
-terror struck, at the thought of all the wild
-grief implied by her incredulity, "If I do not
-succeed?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! hush, hush, it is not two hours since<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_4" id="Page_4">[4]</a></span>
-he blessed me, and said he was happy!
-Grandpapa, do not you hear? it is I&mdash;your own
-Kate! Why do you make no effort to recover
-him?" she exclaimed, turning almost fiercely
-to the doctor&mdash;"Where is your skill? Where
-is your science?"</p>
-
-<p>"If you will leave the room," he returned,
-recovering himself. "I will do my best, but
-the consciousness that you, in your extreme
-anxiety, are watching me, will paralyse my
-best efforts."</p>
-
-<p>"I will go then, and return in a few
-minutes," said Kate, retiring.</p>
-
-<p>But these few minutes were employed in
-stretching the lifeless form on its bed; and
-then nurse met her child, in an agony of tears,
-that told her better than words could, that she
-was alone in the world!</p>
-
-<p>Then, at last she was convinced, she did not
-faint or weep, but stood quite still, regardless
-of the well meant words of those around her, a
-sudden tremour passing at intervals through<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_5" id="Page_5">[5]</a></span>
-her frame; at last, turning to those, who pressed
-near her, she said, in strangely quiet tones,
-almost a whisper, but terribly earnest&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Leave me, I wish to be alone." Then
-seeing they hesitated to leave her, she repeated
-with a sudden sharpness of voice and gesture
-of dismissal, which long remained in the memories
-of those who witnessed it, so expressively
-did it seem to reject all human aid, or
-sympathy: "I wish to be alone!"</p>
-
-<p>They left her; and sinking on her knees, by
-the bed, on which lay the form of him she
-loved so well, she gave herself up to the first
-burst of real grief, that had ever rent her
-heart, with its wild energy; before, though
-there was fear, there was hope, though every
-nerve in her delicate frame trembled and
-shrunk from the expectation of trials, the
-nobler spirit dared to contemplate&mdash;there was
-an object for which to bear them all&mdash;an end
-to be attained. Now she was alone! with
-none to live for&mdash;none to whom, and for whom<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_6" id="Page_6">[6]</a></span>
-she was a world! He was gone&mdash;the kind,
-the gentle, loving friend; and there lay the
-lifeless image of him, whom she had lost, the
-stately prison-house, not unworthy its immortal
-captive, now free, and amid eternal bliss,
-perhaps near her, compassionating the sorrow
-which his already Heaven taught prescience
-showed was for her good! and should her life
-be henceforth alone? what was to become of
-her! No longer any reason to hush regret,
-lest it might cloud her brow, to catch gladly
-at hope, the most uncertain, that she might
-reflect something of its glad beam! "Yet I
-would not recall him, if I could, Oh, God!" was
-the only ejaculation that escaped her lips, as her
-soul lay prostrate beneath the heavy weight
-thus laid upon it. The past, the present, all
-mingled in one strange chaos, by the pressure
-of a mighty grief. And the moment that her
-grandfather blessed her (scarce four hours ago)
-was already fixed amid the great events of the
-heart, ages back; for sometimes, when tho<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[7]</a></span>roughly
-roused, and freed an instant from its
-fetters, the soul becomes in capacity a reflex of
-its great original, and in its sight, also, one
-day is as a thousand years.</p>
-
-<p>But with the exhaustion of spirit natural to
-excitement so strong, came the wish for human
-sympathy, without which none can exist; and
-groping her way to the door, through the
-darkness, perceived for the first time, she
-opened it, and was caught in the arms of Mrs.
-O'Toole, who, with a silent, watchful love,
-equalled only by Cormac's, waited, humbly
-ready, until that love was wanted.</p>
-
-<p>"You are all that is left me," sobbed the
-poor girl, as nurse held her in her arms; and
-they were the only words that escaped her lips,
-for the long hours through which she wept, in
-unutterable grief.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>She obeyed all nurse's suggestions with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_8" id="Page_8">[8]</a></span>
-simplicity of a child, incapable of thinking
-for itself; and, at last, that faithful friend had
-the satisfaction of seeing her gradually sink
-into a sleep, still and heavy, but interrupted
-with deep sighs, which, at intervals, unclosed
-the lovely lips that seemed only formed for joyous
-smiles.</p>
-
-<p>Then came the terrible awaking, the first
-unconscious exclamation&mdash;"Dear nurse, I have
-had such dreadful dreams!" The sober sense
-of waking grief&mdash;the struggle to think calmly
-and resignedly of all&mdash;the partial success&mdash;the
-sudden fresh outburst of sorrow.</p>
-
-<p>So the day dragged on; and at the same
-hour at which Kate had last heard that voice,
-which had ever spoken fondly to her, a heavy
-travelling carriage, drawn by four posters,
-laden with numerous trunks and imperials,
-dashed in hot haste down the quiet little street.
-It stopped at the house of mourning; and the
-next moment, a tall lady, wrapped in a travelling
-cloak of velvet and costly furs, throw<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[9]</a></span>ing
-back her veil, grasped Mrs. O'Toole's
-hand; and, after a piercing glance at the
-honest, troubled face before her, exclaimed&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I am too late!"</p>
-
-<p>"Not to comfort mee darlint, glory be to
-God! Yer come at last, me lady! He said
-you would be here this day."</p>
-
-<p>"Kate, Miss Vernon, where is she?" said
-Lady Desmond, in clear, firm tones, that
-sounded as if command was natural to them;
-and passing on to the stairs.</p>
-
-<p>"No, no! me sweet child is here."</p>
-
-<p>And Mrs. O'Toole opened the parlour door,
-Kate, at the moment, entering from the inner
-room. She stopped, for an instant, while Lady
-Desmond advanced rapidly, and clasped her to
-her heart, straining her closely in her arms.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! Georgy," cried Kate, amid her sobs,
-"you will never hear his voice again&mdash;he is
-gone! gone before a gleam of hope or prosperity
-brightened the sad evening of his life;
-before I could see him as he was, before the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_10" id="Page_10">[10]</a></span>
-bitter dregs of the cup of adversity had lost
-their bitterness by use. And I could do
-nothing for him, nothing! Oh, when we parted
-last, who, who could have thought, that it
-would have ended thus?"</p>
-
-<p>And she pointed expressively to the small,
-mean room, now dimly lighted, by the candles,
-which Mrs. O'Toole scrupulously kept burning
-after evening closed.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond, grasping Kate's hand nervously,
-walked to the bed-side, and holding
-back the folds of her veil, bent reverently over
-the dead, for a moment, in silence, then drawing
-back, broke into an agony of hysterical
-tears, that startled Kate, by its vehemence,
-and brought nurse rapidly to her side.</p>
-
-<p>"I feel as if guilty of his death," she repeated.
-"Why, why, did I delay my return?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, hush, dearest Georgy, hush," whispered
-Kate, somewhat calmed, by witnessing
-the remorseful emotion of her cousin. "I was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[11]</a></span>
-wrong to speak as I did; it was the sharpness
-of sorrow made me utter such words;
-God forgive them, for in my inmost heart I
-feel that He never punishes, He only sends
-messengers after us to keep us in the right
-path; the poverty was nothing; and even this!
-we shall yet understand it all!"</p>
-
-<p>They stood there in silence, nurse supporting
-Lady Desmond, who leant against her, her
-bonnet thrown aside, her luxuriant black hair
-drawn back from her lofty forehead, her large
-dark eyes dilated, as if her soul gazed through
-them far away. Kate, a smile struggling
-through the tears streaming from hers, and one
-hand slightly raised towards Heaven. The
-three figures symbolising well, homely humanity,
-with its quiet necessary fortitude.
-Intellect and refinement, with their larger
-capacity, for joy or for suffering, and faith, so
-often almost extinguished, amid sorrow and
-doubt, yet still preserving a ray of everlasting
-hope.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[12]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>But Lady Desmond was overpowered by the
-fatigue of a rapid and frequently obstructed
-journey, performed in a fever of anxiety; and
-Kate's attention was beneficially attracted from
-her all engrossing subject of thought to her
-cousin's evident exhaustion. She wished much
-to remove Kate at once from what she considered
-her wretched lodging, to her hotel,
-but this Kate resolutely refused to comply
-with.</p>
-
-<p>"It is the last sad duty I can pay him,"
-she said, "not to quit his remains until they
-are carried to their last home!"</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond, therefore, determined to stay
-with her; and Mrs. Crook's establishment were
-put to their wits' end by the mingled excitement
-of a death, and a ladyship in a carriage-and-four.</p>
-
-<p>Recovered from her fatigue, by a night's
-rest, Lady Desmond devoted herself to the
-care of her young cousin, with all the eagerness
-of a passionate nature, remorseful for the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[13]</a></span>
-past; but though she hushed Kate to sleep
-each night in her arms, she performed every
-task that could by possibility devolve on Miss
-Vernon, such as attending to the details of the
-funeral, &amp;c., with a diligence and tact that
-spared Kate many a pang; it was the latter
-who, amid her own absorbing grief, found
-time and gentle wisdom, wherewith to calm
-the sudden bursts of sorrow which often welled
-up from the heart of that proud, but generous
-and impulsive woman, who ever rushing into
-extremes, found food for self-reproach in every
-little incident which either nurse or Kate betrayed,
-of their life, for the last year.</p>
-
-<p>"It was so obstinate, so unkindly obstinate
-of you not to join me at Florence; God only
-knows how much it might have spared; yet
-that was no excuse for my selfish negligence;
-though, Kate, I had powerful inducements not
-to return to England, I will&mdash;perhaps I may
-yet tell you them, and you will then understand
-me."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_14" id="Page_14">[14]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The day after the funeral, that renewal of
-death and sorrow, Kate readily acceded to her
-cousin's wish to leave the spot, no longer
-sanctified by the inanimate presence of him
-they had lost. And it was with a dull feeling
-of weariness, as if even the capacity of suffering
-had been worn out, that she threw herself
-into the carriage that was to take her away
-from the scene of her late bereavement. All
-was now over, nothing more to be done; and
-all she longed for was silence, solitude, and
-sleep.</p>
-
-<p>"Come to the hotel as soon as you possibly
-can. Miss Vernon looks terribly cut up; she
-will want you to comfort her," was Lady Desmond's
-last injunction to Mrs. O'Toole, who
-remained behind to settle all the final affairs of
-packing and payment.</p>
-
-<p>"I will, me lady," returned Mrs. O'Toole,
-who had found some consolation in the handsome
-appointments of the hearse and mourning
-coaches, which the day before had carried the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_15" id="Page_15">[15]</a></span>
-remains of her beloved master to the grave;
-and re-entering the house, she immediately
-applied herself to her task. "How'll I iver
-get the dog away?" she asked, when about to
-depart.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm sure I don't know," replied Mrs.
-Crook; "he's done nothing but wander about
-the house all day, and whine so piteous-like
-every time he went into the poor old gentleman's
-room!"</p>
-
-<p>"Faith, I thought he'd have ate up the undertaker's
-min whin they kem into the room.
-Ah, God help us, is it any wondher me sweet
-young lady's heart is broke, whin the dumb
-baste itself knows what we have lost; where
-is he now?"</p>
-
-<p>"I don't know, I'm sure; I've not seen him
-these two hours."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. O'Toole went in search of him to what
-had been the Colonel's bed-room; and there,
-stretched by the bed he had so long watched,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[16]</a></span>
-lay the old hound, his limbs quivering in the
-agonies of death.</p>
-
-<p>"Och! Cormac! you're not dyin'?"</p>
-
-<p>The noble dog strove to raise his head in
-answer to her voice, but it fell back, and he
-was dead.</p>
-
-<p>"Och, Cormac! me poor Cormac!" cried
-Mrs. O'Toole, her scarce dried tears flowing
-afresh; "but you wur the thrue hearted dog!
-Sure, there was somethin' inside iv ye far
-betther than many a man's heart. Och, how'll
-I iver tell Miss Kate that ye couldn't stop
-afther yer ould masther was gone?"</p>
-
-<p>But Lady Desmond wisely determined that
-Kate should not hear of Cormac's death until
-she made enquiries for him; and Kate lay in
-perfect quiet for several days, rarely speaking,
-and never alluding to the sad scenes she had
-so lately gone through, though often the large
-tears would pour unconsciously down her
-cheeks, and when, at last, the intelligence of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[17]</a></span>
-poor Cormac's death was communicated to her,
-she received it with a burst of grief, seemingly
-disproportioned to the occasion. All her sorrow
-was revived by the death of this faithful
-follower, so closely associated in her mind, not
-only with her lamented grandfather, but with
-her own earliest and happiest days.</p>
-
-<p>One morning, as Lady Desmond and nurse
-were standing in silent concern, by her bed-side,
-noticing sadly the deep traces of grief on
-her young face, she suddenly roused herself
-from the species of lethargy into which she
-had fallen, and stretching out her hand to
-Lady Desmond, said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Forgive me, Georgina, forgive me, nurse,
-I am very selfish and wrong to lie here so indolently;
-I will endeavour to do better, to be
-resigned. I will get up and go out in the
-carriage with you, Georgy, if you wish."</p>
-
-<p>From that day, Kate strove diligently to
-keep her self-imposed promise, and gradually
-time, the healer, accustomed her to think, with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_18" id="Page_18">[18]</a></span>
-calm, though unutterably tender sadness, of
-the dear and venerated relative she had lost.</p>
-
-<p>But she almost loathed the state and luxury
-amid which she now lived, remembering the
-petty privations which had depressed and mortified
-the last weary hours of his life. Often
-the erring child of earth, groping in the dim
-twilight of imperfect faith, would raise her
-heart to Heaven in silent supplication for forgiveness,
-at these half involuntary murmurs;
-it is so hard to believe that the sorrows laid
-upon a beloved and revered object, are not
-"too heavy." We all know the deep-rooted
-sin and error of our <em>own</em> hearts, which lie hidden
-from mortal eye, how much they require
-chastisement and guidance, but the life that to
-us seems blameless, the kindly nature, to our
-eyes, a model for us to follow! Oh, how inscrutable
-seem the trials we could comprehend
-if directed to our own discipline.</p>
-
-<p>It was with a stronger sensation of pleasure
-than she had known for many days, that Kate<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_19" id="Page_19">[19]</a></span>
-heard her cousin propose their removal from
-the mighty capital, now rapidly gathering together
-its beauty and its strength, its fashion
-and its political hosts.</p>
-
-<p>"Is there any place you would prefer, dear
-Kate," she asked, one evening as they sat together,
-after their quickly despatched dinner,
-(Lady Desmond had, after much solicitation,
-consented to accompany an old Neapolitan
-acquaintance to the opera, and was now waiting
-for her friend's carriage.)</p>
-
-<p>"No, none," replied Kate, indolently, "all
-I care for is to leave London; though, dearest
-Georgy, it is by no means insupportable to me,
-if you wish to stay."</p>
-
-<p>"It has no attraction for me," said Lady
-Desmond, "Ireland would be painful to you
-now, and though I long to take you abroad,
-you will enjoy a visit to France or Germany
-much more a few months hence; besides, I
-would rather not leave England at present.</p>
-
-<p>"Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell was sitting<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_20" id="Page_20">[20]</a></span>
-with me this morning," she resumed, after a
-pause, during which she played thoughtfully
-with the tassels of her Cashmere cloak. "You
-don't know her, she was related to poor Sir
-Thomas, and beside that, her husband was an
-old brother-in-arms of his. When General
-Macdonnell died, his widow was left almost
-penniless, and so they gave her apartments at
-Hampton Court Palace; she tells me it is a
-pleasant, quiet place for a month or two;
-pretty rides and drives near town if you want
-to see any one, or any thing&mdash;out of the way
-if you are misanthropically inclined. In short,
-she is very anxious to get me down there; she
-is in wretched health, and if it is practicable, I
-should like to gratify her; she was most kind to
-me, poor thing, in her palmy days, when I
-was an inexperienced bride. Would you like
-the locale, Kate?"</p>
-
-<p>"Who, I?" said Kate, absently, "yes, very
-much."</p>
-
-<p>"Well then, I will go down there to-mor<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_21" id="Page_21">[21]</a></span>row,
-and see the place, and Lady Elizabeth; to
-tell the truth, for I must not take credit for
-more philanthropy than I possess, though I
-do not wish to remain in London, I feel a reluctance
-to leave its neighbourhood&mdash;it is
-strange," and Lady Desmond relapsed into
-silence and thought, a look of impatience
-slightly contracting her brow, and changing
-the expression of her resolute mouth to one of
-dissatisfaction and unrest.</p>
-
-<p>Kate gazed at her in the indolent speculation
-of a mind too depressed for activity of
-thought, as to what cause of vexation could
-possibly ruffle the prosperous current of her
-cousin's life.</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. &mdash;&mdash;'s carriage," announced a
-spruce waiter.</p>
-
-<p>And kissing her fair god-child, and bidding
-her an affectionate good-night, Lady Desmond
-swept out of the room, leaving Kate to the
-care of Mrs. O'Toole.</p>
-
-<p>In less than a fortnight after this conver<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_22" id="Page_22">[22]</a></span>sation,
-the cousins were settled in a large old
-fashioned house, adjoining the Palace of Hampton
-Court, Lady Desmond's well filled purse,
-and her major domo's tact and intelligence,
-supplying all the deficiencies of a ready-furnished
-mansion, with the celerity of modern magic.
-The above mentioned functionary, an old attendant
-of the late Sir Thomas, was, as Lady
-Desmond termed him, her steward, rather than
-her servant; he arranged her household, paid
-her bills, and tyrannised over her in a thousand
-ways, to which, in full consciousness of her
-weakness, she languidly submitted.</p>
-
-<p>April was well advanced when they took
-possession of their new abode, and most gladly
-did Kate exchange her daily lifeless airing in
-the Park, for walks amid the thousand blossoms
-which adorned the Palace Gardens, with all
-the freshness and perfume of early spring.</p>
-
-<p>The stately parterres, the mossy grass, and
-the first delicate exquisite green of the trees,
-the lovely avenue of horse chesnuts in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_23" id="Page_23">[23]</a></span>
-neighbouring park, all were new to her, all
-unlike any scene she was accustomed to, and
-unconnected in her mind with suffering; passionately
-enjoying the sights and sounds,
-and scent of a garden, at this, its loveliest
-season, she felt drawn out of herself by the
-contemplation of so much beauty; grief was
-softened to sadness, by this evidence of
-Almighty love! the past engrossed her less
-completely, it was so uncongenial with the
-smiles and tears of April, the anticipative
-joyousness of all nature, and no longer apprehensive
-of losing self-command by approaching
-the subject uppermost in her thoughts, she
-found a quiet pleasure in constant talk of her
-grandfather, of his opinions and sayings, and
-even of his death with a composure that might
-have misled a superficial observer as to her
-real feelings.</p>
-
-<p>She now gathered courage to write a long
-descriptive letter to Mr. and Mrs. Winter, in
-return for the truly affectionate missives they<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_24" id="Page_24">[24]</a></span>
-had written, on hearing, through Langley, of
-the Colonel's death. Some other writing, also,
-devolved upon her, replies to <em>relations</em>, cognisant
-of her existence, since she had become the inmate
-of the prosperous Lady Desmond. These
-were soon despatched, and she felt somewhat of
-a blank from the absence of all necessary employment.
-She still claimed immunity from
-the little ceremonious, scandalous re-unions of
-the palace; and Lady Desmond, far too impatient
-by nature to endure restraint, made
-her gentle cousin's mourning an excuse for
-rejecting the distasteful invitations. Indeed Kate
-could not help observing, that, for an invalid,
-Lady Elizabeth took a wonderful interest in
-mundane affairs; and, although she had recommended
-Hampton Court to Lady Desmond,
-as a quiet retired place, she was perpetually
-suggesting a little society, as a panacea for
-every ill, and she felt an instinctive dislike to
-her cousin's noble relative, who always addressed
-her with the same carressing condescen<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_25" id="Page_25">[25]</a></span>sion,
-she might have shown to a pet terrier,
-belonging to her respected <em>wealthy</em> kinswoman.</p>
-
-<p>"A thousand apologies, dear Kate," cried
-Lady Desmond, as she made her appearance
-one lovely May evening, half an hour after
-their usual time for dinner, "I fear I have
-kept you waiting, but I could not tear myself
-from Mrs Fordyce and her lovely flowers;
-you must go with me on my next visit, her
-villa is so perfect, and Richmond looked so
-bright." Kate smiled, pleased to see her
-cousin so animated, and secretly wondering
-what could be the reason of the joy that
-sparkled in her large, dark eyes, and lent so
-much of soul and brilliancy to her generally
-proud, calm countenance. "And," continued
-Lady Desmond, "as the carriage turned out of
-the gate, it was stopped by almost the last
-person I expected to meet on the banks of
-the Thames, an Italian acquaintance, the
-Wentworths and myself used to see a great<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_26" id="Page_26">[26]</a></span>
-deal of, at Naples. You have heard of Lord
-Effingham?"</p>
-
-<p>Kate shook her head.</p>
-
-<p>"He was universally known in Italy, and
-here too; he seemed quite as much astonished
-to meet me, and promised, he would ride over
-some morning&mdash;he said, he had a villa on the
-Thames, I think, but I was in too great a
-hurry to attend."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond was more than usually affectionate
-to Kate that evening, stroking her
-glossy hair, with the fondness of an elder
-sister, and exerting all her powers of persuasion
-to induce her to join a tea-party, at Lady
-Elizabeth Macdonnell's; and Kate, fearful of
-being a check upon her cousin's amusements,
-and conscious that she had no right to exclusive
-self-indulgence, consented; nor could she
-regret having done so, as Lady Desmond appeared
-to be much gratified.</p>
-
-<p>The day after this unwonted exertion she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_27" id="Page_27">[27]</a></span>
-had taken a long walk with Lady Desmond,
-who, in her happiest mood, had entered into a
-charming description of her life in Italy, of
-Rome, and her impression of it&mdash;of the high
-opinion entertained by various Englishmen
-(whom she had met abroad), of rank and reputation,
-for Colonel Vernon; and Kate's heart
-and intellect alike gratified, submitted with
-reluctance to her cousin's decision, that she
-had walked enough, and must rest at home,
-while she paid a promised visit at the palace.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond, after opening a box of new
-books and periodicals, just arrived, stepped
-through the window, to a balcony, communicating
-by a flight of steps with the garden, and
-passed through a side gate directly into the
-palace grounds.</p>
-
-<p>Kate took up Dickens's last number, and
-was soon wrapt in the perusal of it. Slightly
-fatigued by exercise, she leaned back in her
-fauteuil, one hand buried in the rich masses
-of her hair, on which the light threw a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_28" id="Page_28">[28]</a></span>
-thousand golden gleams&mdash;the other holding
-the book, she read against the arm of the
-chair, on which her right elbow rested; one
-fairy foot stretched out upon a tiny ottoman;
-an air of profound repose, and perfect quiet
-pervading the slight figure and sweet face,
-always grave in silence, and now more so than
-ever; while the soft liquid eyes, with their
-thoughtful depth of expression, rivetted on
-the page before them, were brightened by the
-faint tinge of rose called up by her animating
-walk.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond might have been gone about
-half an hour, when a gentleman, mounted on a
-dark brown horse, of great beauty, rode up to
-the hall door, and dismounting, wound the
-reins round some of the spiral ornaments of the
-old fashioned iron railing.</p>
-
-<p>"Is Lady Desmond at home?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, sir." And the stranger followed the
-servant up the broad stairs. "Who shall I
-say, sir?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_29" id="Page_29">[29]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham."</p>
-
-<p>But the large, low drawing-room, was unoccupied,
-and placing a chair, the footman
-retired to announce the visitor. He stood a
-moment after he was thus left, then strolled to
-the window, which looked towards the green;
-but finding little to interest him in the prospect,
-after a careless glance at one or two pictures,
-and some exquisite miniatures, which
-lay on the tables, he walked through the open
-door, leading into a smaller room within, which
-opened on the park; and here he stood, as if
-rooted to the ground&mdash;his every faculty absorbed
-in the contemplation of the living picture
-before him&mdash;till Kate, with that instinct
-which whispers to us, when a fellow mortal is
-near, slowly raised her fringed lids, and looked
-at him a moment, bewildered; then rising, her
-natural, well-bred, self-possession, heightened
-by the calmness and indifference consequent on
-pre-occupation, and the stillness that follows
-deep emotion&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_30" id="Page_30">[30]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I fear I kept you too long waiting; my
-cousin, Lady Desmond has unfortunately just
-left me, to pay a visit at the Palace. I will
-send for her." And she laid her hand on the
-bell-pull.</p>
-
-<p>The stranger stood a moment, in silence, an
-unwonted look of irresolution, on his haughty
-countenance; then, bowing with profound respect,
-he begged pardon for his intrusion, in
-soft and refined tones, which, as also his face,
-grew strangely familiar to Kate's memory, as
-she looked and listened.</p>
-
-<p>"Pray do not give Lady Desmond the
-trouble of returning," he said, with a degree
-of hesitation, marvellously at variance with his
-air of <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">un grand seigneur</i>.</p>
-
-<p>Here a servant entered.</p>
-
-<p>"Her ladyship is not at home, my lord, I
-did not know she had gone out again."</p>
-
-<p>"I see her returning across the garden,"
-said Miss Vernon, "she will be here immediately,"
-and pointing to a chair, she bent<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_31" id="Page_31">[31]</a></span>
-her head gravely to the visitor, and left the
-room.</p>
-
-<p>He remained gazing after her, then muttering
-to himself, "most surpassingly novel-like,
-by Minerva," turned to greet Lady Desmond
-as she entered, with an easy grace and quiet
-firmness of manner, very different from the
-demeanour he had exhibited to her gentle, unassuming
-cousin.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_32" id="Page_32">[32]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER II</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">LADY DESMOND.</p>
-
-
-<p>A sketch of the life and character of the lady,
-whose name stands at the head of this chapter,
-is necessary for the right understanding of
-what follows; so while she talks of Italian skies,
-and her reminiscences of Naples with her
-reserved visitor, whose well timed observations
-and profound attention drew forth her most
-brilliant conversational powers, we will draw
-upon the reader's imagination, and transport
-her or him, to the West of Ireland, twenty
-years back from the period of which we write.
-Dungar was then at its highest point of gaiety<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_33" id="Page_33">[33]</a></span>
-and apparent prosperity, when intelligence
-reached Colonel Vernon of the death, at sea,
-of a certain Lieutenant O'Brien, of whom he
-had an indistinct recollection, as having incurred
-the displeasure and disapprobation of
-a large circle of relatives, amongst whom the
-Colonel himself was numbered, by eloping,
-and consequent marriage, with a very beautiful
-but low-born and penniless girl.</p>
-
-<p>Of course the hundred cousins, never having
-done anything, "worthy of death or bonds,"
-themselves, were unanimous as to their right
-of casting, not only the first, but the last
-stone at the imprudent couple, who were left
-to expiate in unpitied and unmitigated poverty
-the unpardonable error they had committed.</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Vernon's knowledge of O'Brien's
-circumstances was very limited; he knew he
-had lost his wife when their only child was
-still a mere baby, and he had, more than once,
-unsought, sent handsome presents to the improvident
-father; but the news of his decease<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_34" id="Page_34">[34]</a></span>
-was soon forgotten, in the terrible affliction
-which threw a shadow over Dungar, for many
-months. The Colonel's eldest son, the only
-survivor of three children, a wild, extravagant
-young scapegrace, of whom none, save his
-wife and his father, prophesied good, was
-drowned in some fishing expedition, a sudden
-squall having capsized his boat. Kate was
-born a few weeks after her unfortunate father
-was lost, and, although Mrs. Vernon for her
-child's sake, strove to drag on a saddened and
-debilitated existence, she died while Kate was
-yet too young to remember a mother's caresses.</p>
-
-<p>The Colonel was just beginning to rally
-from the severe trial which had robbed him
-of a son, who, though often a source of anxiety
-and mortification, was still very dear to him,
-when some gossiping guest mentioned having
-seen "that unfortunate O'Brien's little daughter"
-at the house of an aunt, whose close connection
-with the deceased Lieutenant, could
-not permit her to ignore the demand of a much<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_35" id="Page_35">[35]</a></span>
-enduring school-mistress, that Miss O'Brien
-should be removed, as she could not afford to
-encumber herself with a young lady who had
-no claims on her charity. "You may imagine
-the sort of life the unhappy little devil leads,"
-concluded the Colonel's informant, "snubbed,
-by her aunt, cuffed by her cousins, a perfect
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">souffre douleur</i> for the whole family."</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Vernon made no remark at the time,
-but the picture of the little orphan, thus carelessly
-drawn, sank deep into his kindly heart,
-already softened by his recent bereavement.</p>
-
-<p>A hospitable invitation was despatched for
-the friendless girl, and Georgina O'Brien was
-soon established in what proved to be her
-happy home. The Colonel's natural kindness,
-first attracted to her because she stood in need
-of it, was confirmed by the little girl's winning
-ways and dauntless spirit. She was about
-twelve years old when she first made her appearance
-at Dungar; tall, thin, sallow, her pale
-face looked all eyes, and strangers were almost<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_36" id="Page_36">[36]</a></span>
-startled at the wild, shy, proud, restlessness of
-those large, dark orbs that appeared constantly
-on the alert to resent insult or fly from injury.
-Gradually all this softened in the balmy atmosphere
-of gentleness and good breeding, which
-was soon imbibed by the young stranger,
-whose bearing, from the first, though hers had
-been a childhood of galling poverty, bespoke
-an innate grandeur and dignity, inexpressibly
-attractive to her patrician host.</p>
-
-<p>Soon it became a pleasing divertissement to
-the Colonel's sombre thoughts, to teach Georgy
-her lessons, and undo much that had been done
-at Fogarty's "select establishment," Mellefort
-View, Kingstown. He found an apt pupil,
-though scarcely so diligent as she proved to
-Pat Costello, the huntsman, who, in rapturous
-admiration of her firm seat, steady hand, and
-intuitive comprehension of his instructions,
-exclaimed to the whipper. "Faith, Miss
-Georgy's the raal ould stock; sure enough, it
-comes quite nathral to her to ride, there's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_37" id="Page_37">[37]</a></span>
-nothin', good nor bad, would stop her; if any
-one would take Craig na Dhioul, be the powers
-she'd rise her horse at Croagh Pathrick!"</p>
-
-<p>To the Colonel, the huntsman, nurse, and
-little Kate, the whole stream of her affections
-flowed; but though, she would willingly send
-the greater part of all that she possessed as
-gifts to her cousins, who had tyrannized over
-and insulted her; the air of supreme indifference,
-of quiet civility with which she treated
-them, on those rare occasions when they met,
-was much more calculated to impress them
-with the idea, that they were far too insignificant
-for their misconduct to occupy her
-memory than that they were forgiven. Indeed
-Mrs. O'Toole used often to say that, "though
-she would lay down her life for a friend, the
-devil himself could not be more scornful to an
-inemy."</p>
-
-<p>After young Mrs. Vernon's death, the Colonel
-engaged a governess of higher acquirements
-than could have been necessary for his baby<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_38" id="Page_38">[38]</a></span>
-grand-child, in order that the Lieutenant's orphan
-might have the advantages of a good education;
-but amid the irregularity of a household,
-without a female head, Georgy's imperious
-ways, and resolute will, enabled her to gain a
-degree of authority, marvellous in one so
-young, and displeasing to many of the old
-retainers, who, nevertheless, bore this assumption
-of authority, on the part of a dependent,
-far more unmurmuringly than a similar class
-in England, would have done. The rigid
-maxim of working for oneself, however incontrovertible,
-and admirably suited to national
-independence, and advancement, is capable of
-some cruel and unjust applications; and if the
-sense of independence may be somewhat wanting,
-in Ireland, there is, at all events, more indulgence&mdash;more
-tolerance&mdash;more kindliness for
-those, with whom fortune has dealt hardly;
-and it was seldom&mdash;very seldom, even Miss
-O'Brien's keen glance, rendered by early experience
-morbidly quick at discovering an insult,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_39" id="Page_39">[39]</a></span>
-could perceive even covert disrespect. And so
-she progressed into luxuriantly beautiful girlhood,
-unpruned, almost unchecked; already
-ambitious, she knew not for what&mdash;already
-pining to leave the happy valley, where she
-had found so tranquil a haven, from the rude
-storms that shook her infancy&mdash;the recollection
-of the sufferings, and mortifications of her
-early youth; had sunk deep into her proud
-heart, and longed to obtain some vantage
-ground, secured and self-acquired, from which
-she might look down upon the past&mdash;some
-social eminence, independent even of her
-kind, beloved, self-constituted guardian. Nor
-did she long revolve these wishes, in silent,
-wistful reverie, amongst the bold cliffs, or in
-the deep, shady glens, with which the country
-about Dungar abounded, and which might
-have taught her truer and purer aspirations.</p>
-
-<p>Kate was a mere plaything&mdash;confidante, she
-had none&mdash;she was too young to find in books,
-sufficient companionship; when just as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_40" id="Page_40">[40]</a></span>
-dearth of excitement, and occupation was
-most oppressive, Major General Sir Thomas
-Desmond, K.C.B., arrived on a visit to Colonel
-Vernon.</p>
-
-<p>There was a scarcity of ladies at Dungar,
-when Sir Thomas Desmond made his appearance;
-and the Colonel, banishing Georgina, as
-too young to take any part in society, to Kate's
-particular region, the nursery and school-room,
-collected a shooting party for the General's entertainment.</p>
-
-<p>It was therefore more than probable, that
-he would leave, without ever encountering the
-"concealed jewel," of the old mansion, but it
-was otherwise fated.</p>
-
-<p>Wearied of her unusual seclusion, Miss
-O'Brien, one fine autumn morning, having
-watched the departure of the whole party, to
-shoot or fish, summoned her faithful squire,
-Pat Costello, and mounting a favourite hunter
-of the Colonel's, started on a long ride over the
-wildest part of the wild country round. Occu<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_41" id="Page_41">[41]</a></span>pied
-by her own thoughts, she forgot time and
-distance, nor was it till honest Pat ventured to
-hint, that "maybe, Miss Kate would be cryin'
-for her," that she thought of returning.</p>
-
-<p>"It must be getting late, Pat&mdash;see, the sun
-is behind Craughmore."</p>
-
-<p>"It is so, miss."</p>
-
-<p>"Let us cross the Priest's field, and get
-into the lawn that way, the mare will take any
-of those fences&mdash;eh, Pat?"</p>
-
-<p>"Is it the mare? God bless ye, she'd walk
-over them without knowing it, miss."</p>
-
-<p>Miss O'Brien turned her horse's head without
-reply, and gradually quickening her pace,
-from a trot to a canter, from a canter to a
-gallop, finding a wild pleasure, in the rapid
-and easy movement of the beautiful animal, on
-which she was mounted, cleared the last fence
-which separated the priest's domains, from her
-guardian's, just as Sir Thomas Desmond, and
-two or three other gentlemen, the latest of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_42" id="Page_42">[42]</a></span>
-party were hastening their return to dinner,
-after a capital day's sport.</p>
-
-<p>"Ha! Colonel," exclaimed Sir Thomas, who
-narrowly escaped being overturned. "The
-race of Amazons is not yet extinct in the west,
-I perceive."</p>
-
-<p>"Georgina!" cried the Colonel. "I had no
-idea you were out, and on Brown Bess too!
-She will pull your arms off, my dear girl. Pat,
-I'm surprised you would let Miss O'Brien ride
-so fiery an animal."</p>
-
-<p>"Do not blame Pat, dearest Colonel&mdash;of
-course he did as I liked; besides, I can ride
-every horse in your stable."</p>
-
-<p>"And Pat would be more than mortal if he
-could refuse your commands," quoth the
-gallant General, with the gay manner, so often
-assumed by gentlemen of a certain age, to very
-young girls.</p>
-
-<p>"Sir Thomas Desmond, my dear Georgy, is
-returning thanks that his life was spared, in
-that desperate leap of yours."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_43" id="Page_43">[43]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I fear I nearly rode over you," said she,
-addressing the veteran, who stood gazing with
-admiration at her beautiful face, glowing with
-the rich color, imparted by her gallop&mdash;her
-luxuriant black hair falling in masses from
-under her hat, and her large dark eyes
-beaming with the excitement of her own
-thoughts, though little shown by the careless
-ease of her manner. "I fear I almost rode
-over you."</p>
-
-<p>"Pray do not mention it; what is an old
-general more or less, compared to the gratification
-of so charming a young lady's taste for
-crossing the country?"</p>
-
-<p>"You will forgive me?" said she smiling.</p>
-
-<p>"Georgy, you know Mr. &mdash;&mdash;, and Lord
-Arthur," said the Colonel, waving his hand
-towards the other gentlemen of the party, and
-Miss O'Brien acknowledged them with a careless
-grace, a certain, wild, natural dignity, that
-did not escape the observant Sir Thomas.</p>
-
-<p>From this time, the General constantly, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_44" id="Page_44">[44]</a></span>
-avowedly sought the society of his host's <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">protégée</i>;
-and she, pleased by his kindly admiration,
-and flattered by the notice of an individual in
-his distinguished position, found a new charm
-in the rides and walks she was beginning to tire
-of.</p>
-
-<p>But never, in her dreams of the future, had
-she an instant thought of using matrimony as
-a stepping stone to position; and the pleasant,
-polite <em>Chevalier Bayard</em>, but elderly General,
-whom she looked upon as a second Colonel
-Vernon, and of whom, in a short time she made
-a confidant, was the last person she would have
-dreamt of espousing&mdash;meantime Sir Thomas
-prolonged his visit, and when at length he departed,
-leaving Georgina, inconsolable for his
-loss&mdash;it was only for a short period.</p>
-
-<p>His return was heralded by the announcement
-in Saunders' Newspaper of the death of
-the Dowager Countess of C&mdash;&mdash;, "who has, we
-understand bequeathed large estates, both here
-and in England, to her ladyship's nephew,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_45" id="Page_45">[45]</a></span>
-Sir Thomas Desmond, K.C.B., who served with
-great distinction at&mdash;&mdash;, &amp;c., &amp;c."</p>
-
-<p>Miss O'Brien, overjoyed as she was to see
-him again, could not help being struck by an
-indefinable change of manner in her faithful
-ally. He seemed more deferential and less
-gaily cordial; still she was unspeakably astonished,
-when, after a few words of, to her, unintelligible
-preamble, Colonel Vernon, in a
-private and solemn interview, informed her
-that Sir Thomas Desmond had made proposals
-to him for her hand, as her guardian and next
-friend.</p>
-
-<p>"I confess I was a good deal startled when
-he broached the subject," continued the Colonel;
-"nevertheless, Georgy, I would have you
-weigh the proposition; there are few men who
-would show such disinterestedness as to fly
-back to lay his newly-acquired fortune at the
-feet of an obscure though very charming girl;
-and although the disparity&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"I have made up my mind," said Miss<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[46]</a></span>
-O'Brien, deliberately, as if of her own
-thoughts, and deaf to the Colonel&mdash;"I will
-accept him."</p>
-
-<p>"But," returned the Colonel, not quite satisfied
-with this hasty decision, "have you
-thought of the consequences of a marriage
-with a man old enough to be your father? can
-you give him your whole heart? Take a little
-time, dear Georgy. You have, I trust, a comfortable
-home here, where you will be always
-welcome; do not rush on anything that may
-hereafter prove repugnant; are your affections
-your own? is&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Dear, kind, considerate guardian, yes.
-Who could I have lost them to? The young
-lordlings, the county squires, who assiduously
-avoid the penniless girl, too well protected to
-be trifled with? no, I never yet thought of
-loving Sir Thomas; but I will love him
-heartily; he has the soul of a man, and dares
-to consult his heart in his choice of a wife. I
-have something in common with such a soul;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[47]</a></span>
-I will make him happy, ay, and proud too,
-though his lot may be cast amongst the nobles
-of the land."</p>
-
-<p>And drawing her splendid form to its full
-height, she glanced proudly at the opposite
-mirror.</p>
-
-<p>"Then I may tell Sir Thomas you accept him?
-With your proper appreciation of his worth
-you will be a happy woman; I congratulate
-you, my dear love."</p>
-
-<p>And they were married; and Kate was
-bridesmaid; the tenantry were feasted; bonfires
-blazed, &amp;c., &amp;c.</p>
-
-<p>But did the young and beautiful bride find
-her heart thus obedient to her will? Heaven
-alone knows. During the eight or nine years
-of their union, however, Sir Thomas and Lady
-Desmond led a halcyon life; and if she ever
-felt a void in her brilliant existence, she scarce
-had time, amid her varied pleasures or occupations,
-to note it. True and deep was the
-sorrow with which she mourned for the kind<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[48]</a></span>
-husband, the considerate friend, for whom
-alone she seemed to live; but these long years
-of unbroken prosperity had not softened the
-imperious will which distinguished her girlhood;
-while they somewhat tainted, with their
-hardening influence, the warmth of heart
-formerly so true and so unselfish. Meantime,
-the full leisure of an unoccupied spirit was devoted
-to the cultivation of intellect, more brilliant
-than profound, and accustomed to scorn,
-as interested, the motives of the other sex, her
-fancy was still unawakened, her strong, deep
-passions still slept, when the fated current of
-her life led her to Naples.</p>
-
-<p>At this time, Lord Effingham was the engrossing
-subject of scandal and gossip at Naples;
-his luxurious villa, rarely opened to any, save
-a few select companions, his unrivalled yacht,
-his strange and almost lawless doings, indicative
-of a character half cynic, half epicurean,
-but wholly English in its energy and profusion,
-each furnished an inexhaustible theme of won<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[49]</a></span>der
-and exaggeration, to the opera boxes and
-conversaziones. Rarely he honoured the <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">beau-monde</i>
-of Naples with his presence; but
-shortly after Lady Desmond's arrival, some
-national anniversary dinner, at the English
-Ambassador's, drew him from his seclusion;
-and whether he found society more agreeable,
-after this interval of retirement, or that the
-proud indifference of Lady Desmond's manner
-interested a fancy cloyed by adulation, is problematical;
-but from that period he was more
-frequently to be met in the brilliant circles
-adorned by the presence of the beautiful widow,
-but whether the slumber of her heart, had
-been broken by the eccentric Englishman,
-before whose commanding spirit her own involuntarily
-bent, none could tell, though Mrs.
-Wentworth surmised.</p>
-
-<p>"But even Italy one tires of," said Lord
-Effingham, rising to depart after a lengthened
-visit; "and I confess I am ready to try England,
-at least, while summer and the novelty<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[50]</a></span>
-of my late revered uncle's villa last; besides,
-had I been undecided, your presence would
-have fixed me."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond smiled.</p>
-
-<p>"I fear I frightened away a very studious
-young lady, whom I found deep in the perusal
-of some trash&mdash;Dickens, I believe," taking up
-the number Kate had been reading.</p>
-
-<p>"My cousin, Miss Vernon&mdash;poor Kate is
-not in the mood for any profound literature;
-she has had great sorrows. But I trust you
-will sometimes look in on us, it will do us
-both good."</p>
-
-<p>"I shall certainly make my <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">début</i> in the, to
-me, new character of consoler."</p>
-
-<p>And he bowed ironically.</p>
-
-<p>"My sweet god-daughter will teach you
-not to be satirical&mdash;she is so good."</p>
-
-<p>"Your god-daughter! why you could not
-have learned your own catechism when she
-was christened."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[51]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I was very young, and was only a proxy;
-but I have called her my god-child ever since."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">addio</i> Lady Desmond, I will bring
-you some flowers to-morrow; I see you have
-no conservatory."</p>
-
-<p>And he departed.</p>
-
-<p>Kate was rather startled by the expression,
-half fright, half exultation in Mrs. O'Toole's
-countenance, as she entered her room before
-dinner, to assist her in dressing.</p>
-
-<p>"Och thin, Miss Kate, agrah; who do you
-think has just rode off, on a horse fit for a
-prence?"</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure I cannot imagine. Oh, Lord
-Effingham, I suppose."</p>
-
-<p>"Didn't I tell ye, he was a lord? faith, I
-niver was mistaken in wan yet; and fur all I
-spoke up so bould, ses I to meself, he's a lord,
-no less."</p>
-
-<p>"But, nurse, what do you mean? who did
-you speak up bold to?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[52]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"To the earl there, him that has jist rode
-off."</p>
-
-<p>"Where?" demanded Kate, fearful of some
-strange outbreak on the part of Mrs. O'Toole.</p>
-
-<p>"There, in that banishmint we wor in, at
-that onlooky Bayswather, whin he wanted me
-to take the note to ye."</p>
-
-<p>"Why, dear nurse, you do not mean to&mdash;Oh,
-yes, now I recollect, I thought his face
-and voice were familiar to me. I was dull,
-very dull, not to notice it before; he is the
-same person who spoke to me in Kensington
-Gardens."</p>
-
-<p>"An' did he spake to ye to-day, jewil?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes; and now I remember, he seemed
-embarrassed; it is curious; perhaps I ought to
-mention it to Georgina; yet, no, it would be
-useless; he amuses her now; and she is just
-the person who would resent such conduct,
-warmly. No, I am but a sorry companion as
-it is; but I will interfere with her amusement
-as little as I can."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[53]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Faith, ye'r in the right iv it, Miss Kate;
-for all Lady Desmond loves ye, she loves her
-own way betther nor all the world itself."</p>
-
-<p>"Hush, hush, you must not speak in that
-way of our kind, good friend, nurse."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, well, it's thruth I'm tellin' ye; an'
-see, jewil, ye'll think it quare to be spakin'
-cool an' asy to that thief iv the world, though
-he looks like a prence, an' rides like a king."</p>
-
-<p>"Queer! Oh, no, I feel as if that adventure
-happened years ago; that I have grown
-old and dispassionate since. Then he will
-never notice me, when Georgy is there; at
-least, not much; and, I confess, I feel pleased
-that he should meet me, in my natural position;
-but his presence, and the memories it
-calls up, will never be very welcome to me, now
-especially."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, we'll see, there's the divil's own
-timper in thim fiery eyes iv his. I'll go bail
-he's a dead shot with the pistils."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[54]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Very likely; but there is the dinner bell."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond was thoughtful and <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">distrait</i>;
-that evening; she spoke little of Lord Effingham,
-and only conversed by an effort. After
-tea, she entreated Kate, who had already recommenced
-her practising, to sing some of the
-airs she had been arranging previous to her
-grandfather's death; and Kate, anxious to conquer
-the repugnance she had felt of late to her
-favourite occupation, complied, till the tears
-pouring down her cheeks interrupted her.</p>
-
-<p>"Dearest, forgive me," cried Lady Desmond,
-roused from her thoughts by the sudden
-cessation of the music, and flying to her side,
-"how selfish, how thoughtless I am," and
-winding her arm round Kate's waist, drew her
-to the window, through which the moonlight
-streamed, and the breeze wafted a thousand
-perfumes.</p>
-
-<p>They stood there a few moments in silence,
-till Kate, recovering her composure, pressed a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[55]</a></span>
-kiss upon her cousin's cheek. Lady Desmond
-started, and a sudden tremor ran through her
-frame.</p>
-
-<p>"You are cold, dear Georgy? come from
-the window."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, no, no! I wish I was cold and calm!
-Ah, Kate, I am not happy! I would fain
-change with you!"</p>
-
-<p>"With me! surely not with one so lonely
-and&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"Lonely! Who can be more lonely than
-I am? You have been so much loved; I would
-give any thing for even the memory of such
-affection, as the dear Colonel had, for you;
-some one to live for, some one to die for, who
-would understand your every glance!"</p>
-
-<p>"But, dearest Georgy, you had all this in
-your husband!"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes! Oh, heaven forgive my forgetfulness,
-but now I feel so wearied with this vain
-struggle! If I had been blessed with children
-I should have something to live for." She<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[56]</a></span>
-paused and pressed her hand against her eyes.
-"Come, I will give myself rest and freedom, I
-will live for you, and you only, my Kate, you
-shall be my daughter."</p>
-
-<p>And she held her with a wild firm pressure
-to her heart.</p>
-
-<p>And Kate, puzzled by this unaccountable
-outbreak, returned her embrace, silently praying
-to God to direct her beautiful but wayward
-kinswoman aright.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[57]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER III.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">OLD ACQUAINTANCE.</p>
-
-
-<p>Lord Effingham's visits were constant and
-apparently welcome, for Kate soon began to
-observe a restlessness in her cousin, when the
-hour at which he usually made his appearance
-passed without his arrival. At first, Kate had
-taken her work or book to her own room or to
-the Palace Garden, when his name was announced,
-but Lady Desmond had soon cut off
-her retreat by observing&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"You must act chaperone for me, dear Kate,
-but if strangers are so repugnant to you, I will<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[58]</a></span>
-tell Lord Effingham, and he shall not come
-here any more."</p>
-
-<p>And Miss Vernon knew very well, whatever
-her inclination might be, what was expected.
-Yet there was much in their visitor's conversation
-that drew her out of herself, and interested
-her by force of contrast to her own views,
-although the indolence of depression rendered
-her averse to the exertion of argument. Besides,
-Lord Effingham was often apparently
-unconscious of her presence, and scarcely ever
-addressed himself to her, so much so, that Lady
-Desmond had thought herself called upon to
-make a sort of apology for him.</p>
-
-<p>Yet Kate more than once caught his eyes
-fixed upon herself, and felt that her few occasional
-observations were listened to with an
-attention all the deeper for its unobtrusiveness;
-in short, she felt certain he remembered her,
-and watched for some indication, either of
-consciousness or resentment on her part, while<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[59]</a></span>
-each day rendered her more at ease, as she observed
-his attentions to her cousin.</p>
-
-<p>The quiet routine of their lives was seldom
-interrupted.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond sometimes went to town,
-and generally Lord Effingham's name figured
-in the same list of distinguished fashionables
-present at balls, dinners, &amp;c., with her own.
-Kate began to think that their present intercourse
-had fallen into a natural channel of indifference,
-and that the bold stranger of
-Kensington Gardens, was totally merged in the
-high-bred reserved earl; but she was mistaken.</p>
-
-<p>One morning a feverish cold confined Lady
-Desmond to her bed, and the Hampton Court
-doctor threatened her with every ill "that
-flesh is heir to," if she did not, by care and
-submission to a few days seclusion, nip the
-growing disorder in the bud. Kate was
-anxious and uneasy about her, the very
-thought of a sick room made her heart ache.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[60]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Do not look so unhappy about me, love,"
-said her cousin, "it is my will to remain here; I
-want solitude, I want freedom from external
-influences; you shall read to me good books."</p>
-
-<p>"Milord, his compliments, is very unhappy
-to hear your ladyship is ill, and begs to know
-particularly how you are."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! Kate, run down to him, will you,
-dearest, say I am too unwell to see him, for a
-week to come, at least; you will&mdash;observe&mdash;there
-go, darling."</p>
-
-<p>Kate obeyed, neither with alacrity or reluctance,
-Lord Effingham had almost ceased to
-be connected in her mind with the audacious
-stranger who had addressed her, and although
-this was the first time she had met him alone,
-since that occurrence, it was with perfect composure
-she returned his salute, and met his
-eager scrutinising glance without a shade more
-of colour tinging her pale cheek.</p>
-
-<p>"I am inconsolable at hearing of Lady<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[61]</a></span>
-Desmond's indisposition," said Lord Effingham,
-before Kate could address a word to him.
-"How did she catch cold? Has she good
-advice!"</p>
-
-<p>"I do not think her very ill," replied Miss
-Vernon, "a little care and quiet is all she requires;
-but she desires me to say, she fears she
-will not be able to see you for some days; next
-week, if you should be in this neighbourhood,
-probably you will find her reinstated in our
-usual morning room."</p>
-
-<p>"Of course I shall make enquiries every
-day for the health of my charming friend."</p>
-
-<p>And as Kate could not avoid thinking there
-was something of a sneer in the smile and tone
-with which these words were spoken, they
-revived all her antipathy to the dark browed
-peer. Anxious to dismiss him, yet not wishing
-to show it, she stood a moment, undecided,
-when Lord Effingham, with a sudden change
-of voice and expression, from the measured<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[62]</a></span>
-tone and listless look, with which he usually
-spoke, to one of animation and earnestness,
-exclaimed&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"No, Miss Vernon, I cannot go yet, though
-you indicate your desire that I should, by
-standing. I cannot let the opportunity, I have
-so long sought, pass, without ascertaining
-whether your memory is as imperfect as mine
-is vivid."</p>
-
-<p>"If you mean," returned Miss Vernon,
-raising her eyes to his with the calmness now
-so habitual to her, "if you mean that you met
-me before, and that I forget it, you are mistaken;
-I remember that very unpleasant circumstance
-perfectly."</p>
-
-<p>He was evidently annoyed by her candour
-and tranquillity.</p>
-
-<p>"I regret to find you still resent my conduct,
-you at least might excuse it."</p>
-
-<p>Kate smiled.</p>
-
-<p>"I do not resent it now; since that," she
-continued, "I have gone through much af<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[63]</a></span>fliction,
-I have experienced real grief and sorrow,
-such as reduce all petty annoyances to
-their proper level; but why revert to what is
-past."</p>
-
-<p>"To ask you to&mdash;not exactly to forgive, but
-to acknowledge that my bold attempt to grasp
-the inexpressible pleasure of your acquaintance
-was not so heinous."</p>
-
-<p>"Really, Lord Effingham, I should be
-obliged to you not to continue this conversation
-any further; I do not suppose it possible
-for you to comprehend the effect produced on
-my mind by your audacity; pardon me, but it
-is the only word that sufficiently expresses my
-impression of your conduct on the occasion to
-which you allude. Let it be forgotten, I
-would not for worlds disturb my cousin with
-any revelation so likely&mdash;&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," interrupted Lord Effingham, absently,
-"I perceived, at a glance, that the fair widow
-was ignorant of the affair, but be it as you
-choose, for the future, only, if you are to con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[64]</a></span>tinue
-her inmate, take my advice, and withhold
-the disclosure altogether."</p>
-
-<p>And he smiled with an expression of insolent
-power, that made Kate's heart thrill with
-indignation.</p>
-
-<p>"My Lord, I do not require a stranger's advice,
-what to confide to, or what to withhold
-from my earliest and dearest friend; you must
-excuse me, I have left Lady Desmond alone."</p>
-
-<p>"One moment," cried Lord Effingham,
-springing to the door, "we meet again as
-friends? You must not refuse to give me
-bulletins of your cousin's health in person."</p>
-
-<p>"I have no wish to embroil the even tenor
-of my life, about what can concern me no more,
-I wish you a good morning, my Lord."</p>
-
-<p>He held the door open, and bowed low, as
-she passed out, then returning to the place
-where she had stood, remained a moment in
-silent thought, gnawing his under lip.</p>
-
-<p>"By&mdash;&mdash;," he at length muttered, "I
-would hate her if I could; if she was less<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[65]</a></span>
-lovely; her supreme disdain of my admiration
-was so real, and her indifference! Yet her
-cousin is more beautiful, and would have
-<em>acted</em> the part perfectly, but all the time I
-should have felt it was only the graceful acting
-of my slave; this is real, this girl is free as air,
-and I feel as if afloat in some new and unexplored
-ocean, where my compasses are at fault,
-and the stars no longer those I used to steer
-by."</p>
-
-<p>He looked absently through the window till
-the animated fiery glance faded into a cold,
-sneering smile, then slowly descending to the
-hall door, mounted his horse, and gallopped
-across the park at full speed.</p>
-
-<p>Kate's heart was beating faster when she
-returned to Lady Desmond's room than when
-she left it; there was something of insolence
-and conscious power in Lord Effingham's manner,
-that was totally strange and repugnant to
-her; this short interview with him had recalled
-all the sore feeling of resentful indignation<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[66]</a></span>
-and wounded pride, that had so galled her on
-their first meeting, and though she felt, rather
-than reasoned, that it would be most unwise to
-disclose the <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">rencontre</i> to Lady Desmond, she
-was indescribably provoked to think there was
-any thing like a secret between her and the
-proud, bold Earl.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, dear Kate, how did Lord Effingham
-take his sentence of banishment?"</p>
-
-<p>"He did not take it at all; he said he would
-ride over every day, to make enquiries in
-person."</p>
-
-<p>"And did he tell you any news?"</p>
-
-<p>"No."</p>
-
-<p>"He never tells news! How unlike the
-present race of babblings into which our
-aristocracy has degenerated."</p>
-
-<p>"Why, what does he do?"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, Kate, he is no favourite with you; I
-see his foreign indifference to unmarried women
-has prejudiced you."</p>
-
-<p>"No, indeed, I neither like nor dislike him,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[67]</a></span>
-but there is something in his face, and voice,
-and manner, I could never trust."</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham does not pretend to be a
-pattern man, and certainly he is, when he likes
-it, a most agreeable member of society," returned
-Lady Desmond, rather coldly. "But
-will you answer that note of Lady Elizabeth's,
-I cannot, of course, dine with her."</p>
-
-<p>And Kate perceived, by this sudden change,
-that her cousin did not like to pursue the subject.</p>
-
-<p>True to his word, Lord Effingham rode over
-every day to make his enquiries for Lady
-Desmond, in person, and Kate resolutely secluded
-herself during the few moments of his
-stay, in her cousin's or her own chamber.</p>
-
-<p>One morning the invalid was sufficiently
-well to receive two or three dear (fine lady)
-friends. Kate stole away from their gossip, to
-her an unknown tongue, and established herself
-on a shady seat, commanding a view of
-the park, her book lay idly in her hand, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[68]</a></span>
-lulled by the hum of the insects, and the gentle
-rush of the water from one pond to another,
-she gave herself up to the past.</p>
-
-<p>"How poor dear grandpapa would have delighted
-in this place; how Georgy would have
-cheered him, and now it is too late!"</p>
-
-<p>And the bitterness of sorrow softened for a
-while in new scenes, and the increased occupation
-of the last few days, came back all
-freshly to her mind; every look, every tone of
-her beloved parent, was recalled with a distinctness
-that made her heart ache, and the
-emptiness and aimlessness of her present life
-stood out vividly before her.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, forgive me great Father, if I cannot
-yet, with perfect submission, say, 'Thy will be
-done, help me, strengthen me.' She involuntarily
-raised her eyes as she murmured these
-last words, half aloud; and they met those of
-Lord Effingham, which wore a grave and more
-earnest look than usual, as if Kate's slight
-form, with its mourning garb, and her pale<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[69]</a></span>
-calm face, its expression, spiritualised by the
-thoughts that occupied her mind, had struck
-his hard nature with some new sense of truth
-and beauty.</p>
-
-<p>"Forgive my intrusion," said he, advancing
-with his usual easy self-assured air, "they told
-me Miss Vernon was out, and as you have
-hitherto allowed me to languish, on such
-meagre reports of your cousin's health, as I
-could gain from Mademoiselle Louise, I ventured
-to seek a personal interview with you,
-<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">al fresco</i>."</p>
-
-<p>"Lady Desmond will probably see you on
-Monday, my Lord. Mrs. Cranbourne and her
-sister were admitted to-day," returned Kate,
-with quiet politeness.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Lord Effingham, absently,
-"pray Miss Vernon, can you, and will you
-give me, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">le mot de l'enigme</i>."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not understand you."</p>
-
-<p>"What was the cause of Lady Desmond's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[70]</a></span>
-illness, or rather her sudden fancy for the retirement
-of her own chamber?"</p>
-
-<p>"My cousin, unfortunately, caught cold on
-Thursday; she sat near an open window, at
-one of the Ancient Concerts, and&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"My dear Miss Vernon, that is the official
-report, but I want to know why she chooses to
-submit to the martyrdom, which confinement
-and inaction is to her, rather than receive
-me?"</p>
-
-<p>"You imagine then, that her illness is pretended
-to avoid you? if your curiosity lasts
-over to-morrow, I will ask her, and give you
-her solution of the enigma."</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham laughed scornfully.</p>
-
-<p>"I do not jest," continued Kate, simply.
-"I shall repeat to her, both what you have
-said, and any thing you may add, in the same
-tone."</p>
-
-<p>"Then you are great friends," said Lord
-Effingham, seating himself on the bench beside<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_71" id="Page_71">[71]</a></span>
-her, "you are angry that I should doubt the
-illness of one of the fairest daughters of Erin,
-whose cheek was ever tinged by the roses of
-health; but, seriously, you will not make mischief
-between us? I would never forgive
-you; do you not see I am very fond of Lady
-Desmond?"</p>
-
-<p>He leant forward as he spoke these words,
-with much earnestness, to see what effect they
-produced on Kate, and at the same time two
-officers in undress cavalry uniform lounged
-past; both glanced quickly at Miss Vernon and
-her companion, but withdrew their eyes immediately,
-as if conscious of having intruded
-on an interesting <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tete-à-tete</i>.</p>
-
-<p>Kate's heart almost stood still with a spasm
-of memory, as she recognised Colonel Dashwood;
-she could not refrain from exclaiming
-his name aloud, he turned immediately, and
-bowing, with a profound and grave respect,
-which showed Kate he had heard of the loss
-she had sustained, took her hand and made<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_72" id="Page_72">[72]</a></span>
-some general enquiries, with an air of kindly
-interest.</p>
-
-<p>"I am staying with Lady Desmond," she
-said, her eyes filling with tears, "and
-you&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, some of us are quartered here, the rest
-scattered in small detachments; I like the
-place, and am here as much as possible, if you
-will allow me, I shall do myself the pleasure
-of calling on you to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p>"I shall be very happy to see you," she
-replied; and with another low bow, Colonel
-Dashwood joined his companion and walked
-away.</p>
-
-<p>"So," exclaimed Lord Effingham, "you
-cultivate dragoons, do you, Miss Vernon?
-Well, has not the promise of that very "rear
-rank take open order," looking individual to
-call upon you, softened your intention of
-making mischief between me and <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">La Vedova
-ammalata</i>?"</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham," said Miss Vernon,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_73" id="Page_73">[73]</a></span>
-quietly, rising from her seat, "I do not know
-why you choose to adopt a sneering tone towards
-people in general, but this I do know,
-that to me, such confidences, as are implied by
-questions, about Lady Desmond, are peculiarly
-distasteful; I have no wish to say anything in
-the least uncivil, but I should prefer remaining
-on terms of the most distant acquaintance
-with you." She bowed slightly, and walked
-away, but he followed her in an instant, looking dark
-and haughty.</p>
-
-<p>"I thank you for so clear an exposition of
-your sentiments; perhaps it was scarcely required;
-but you have not yet answered my
-question; will you repeat my observations to
-Lady Desmond?"</p>
-
-<p>"I shall&mdash;may I beg you to leave me."</p>
-
-<p>"Ha," said Lord Effingham, "you have not
-your canine ally to compel me doing so."</p>
-
-<p>At this moment, all Kate's pride and decision
-melted before the memories thus called up;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_74" id="Page_74">[74]</a></span>
-and, with a sudden gesture, indicative of her
-incapability to endure his presence another
-moment, she pressed her hands to her eyes,
-in the vain effort to stem the torrent of grief,
-that swelled her heart.</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham retired at this silent, but
-unmistakeable expression of her feelings, with
-a look of half startled, half sullen, yet not
-wholly uncompassionate; and Kate, stealing
-quickly through the open window of the
-morning-room, reached her own unnoticed.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond was in remarkably good
-spirits at dinner, and Kate was struck by the
-air of joyous exultation, that seemed as it were
-to illuminate her grand style of beauty.</p>
-
-<p>"I am right glad to be well again, cousin
-mine," she exclaimed. "Glad to be in the
-world, though, alas! all the mental revolution
-I intended to make is unaccomplished."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not know what it was, dearest," returned
-Miss Vernon, "so I cannot tell whe<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_75" id="Page_75">[75]</a></span>ther
-I ought to mourn over another block
-being added to that pavement of which we have
-heard so often."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, perhaps it was needless, but now
-we are free from the servants, tell me all that
-news over again."</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham," began Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Nay, dear girl, your own friends first."</p>
-
-<p>"Well then, Colonel Dashwood said he
-would call here to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p>"I shall be very glad to know him. I had
-left Dungar long before he was there; and I
-have a grudge against him, Kate, for I fancy
-it was the remembrance connected with his
-appearance, that caused those tears, of which I
-can still detect the traces on your face."</p>
-
-<p>"No, Georgy, no, indeed" replied Miss
-Vernon, earnestly. "Now," she continued,
-"let me return to Lord Effingham, he heard,
-it seemed, that I was in the Palace-gardens,
-and came after me, to ask me what was the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_76" id="Page_76">[76]</a></span>
-real cause of your indisposition, and to laugh
-at my <em>story</em> of "a cold!""</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed!" said Lady Desmond, with a
-slight start. "What other reason could he
-imagine?"</p>
-
-<p>"I do not know, but&mdash;" she paused.</p>
-
-<p>"Pray go on," said Lady Desmond, impatiently,
-"I hate to have things cut short."</p>
-
-<p>"Really," returned Miss Vernon, "I only
-hesitate, because it seemed so impertinent, what
-I am about to tell you."</p>
-
-<p>"Never mind&mdash;go on&mdash;dispense with preface."</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham said, or rather by what he
-said, seemed to think, it was to avoid him, you
-feigned illness!"</p>
-
-<p>"He does," exclaimed Lady Desmond, with
-interest; then an instant after, with haughty
-indifference, she continued&mdash;"He gives me
-credit for more ingenuity, than I possess!
-yet&mdash;" and she leant back, resting one cheek<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_77" id="Page_77">[77]</a></span>
-on her hand, the expression of disdain, she had
-called up, fading into a look of pensive
-thought, almost sad. "How strange he is&mdash;how
-impenetrable; but these things are so
-much altered by repetition."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond thought long and gravely, at
-length her brow cleared&mdash;a smile parted her
-lips&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Perhaps I have disentangled this mystery,"
-she said; "time will tell, at all events,
-<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">bella mia</i>, I know the world&mdash;Lord Effingham's
-world&mdash;better than you do. I shall not notice
-'the impertinence,' as you deem it."</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed you do know best, Georgy dear, at
-least, in general, for you have experience,
-which I have not; but as to Lord Effingham,
-I have an instinct, worth whole a life-time of
-experience, that he is false and selfish&mdash;he
-admires you, indeed he said he was fond of
-you; but, oh, do not regard him with anything
-except the&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, Lord Effingham appears to have been<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[78]</a></span>
-making quite a confidante of you, Kate! a rare
-compliment let me tell you," interrupted Lady
-Desmond, laughingly, "of course he begged of
-you not to repeat his confidence?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, and I told I would."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, dearest, it is a strange intimacy that has
-sprung up between you, and this very Giaour-like
-peer," returned Lady Desmond, in her
-sweetest manner, and quite regardless of Kate's
-warning. "I know not where it&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell," announced
-the footman; and the privy council was
-ended.</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Dashwood made his appearance, at
-the proper hour for visiting, the next morning,
-and very much rejoiced was Kate to welcome
-him; he reminded her of much that was sad, 'tis
-true, but of sadness untinged by any bitter;
-and then, she had, since the day before, been
-haunted by the image of Fred Egerton, as he
-lay, pale and helpless, on a blue chintz sofa, in
-Mr. Winter's drawing-room, which was the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[79]</a></span>
-latest, and clearest memory connected with
-Colonel Dashwood.</p>
-
-<p>The conversation was, at first, rather constrained,
-the mind of both the visitor and
-visited being full of thoughts they feared to
-broach&mdash;Kate dreaded, yet longed to speak of
-her grandfather&mdash;she feared a rush of tears,
-that might embarrass her kind and pleasant
-acquaintance, but her candid, real nature,
-soon helped her out of the difficulty. Dashwood
-spoke in terms of cordial and judicious
-praise of the kind old man; Kate listened with
-delight, and told him of her happiness with
-her cousin, to whom she longed to present
-him, and felt more intimate with the gay, high-bred
-dragoon, than she had ever felt before.</p>
-
-<p>"You remember Egerton, at A&mdash;&mdash;, Miss
-Vernon?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, yes, I wished to ask you about him."</p>
-
-<p>"He has just been Gazetted Lieutenant
-Colonel of the &mdash;th Lancers, you have heard,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[80]</a></span>
-of course, he distinguished himself greatly, at
-&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, he wrote to dear grandpapa; we got
-the letter scarcely a week before&mdash;" she turned
-aside to hide the tears that would roll down
-her cheek, in spite of all her efforts to restrain
-them. "If you should write to Captain&mdash;Colonel
-Egerton, I mean, pray tell him,
-stern was the summons that prevented a reply
-to his kind letter, he will be sorry to hear of
-my irreparable loss."</p>
-
-<p>"Colonel Vernon had not a warmer admirer
-in the world, than Fred Egerton," cried Dashwood.
-"Indeed Fred was just the sort of
-fellow to appreciate him. Well, good morning,
-Miss Vernon, I am most happy to have seen
-you, and hope you will allow me to call occasionally,
-while I am here."</p>
-
-<p>The Monday specified by Lady Desmond, as
-the day on which she would receive Lord
-Effingham, was anticipated by Kate with some<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[81]</a></span>
-anxiety, and no small degree of curiosity. She
-wished to see on what terms her cousin and
-her admirer would meet, if any quarrel had
-been at the bottom of Lady Desmond's indisposition;
-and if the Earl was really apprehensive
-of one arising out of her report of his conversation
-in the Palace-garden.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond had certainly, not resented
-her information, for never had Kate seen her
-so gentle, so loving, and so considerate. They
-took long drives together, in the balmy summer
-evenings, sometimes enjoying the exquisite,
-dewy, perfumed air, and rich cultivated
-scenery in sympathic silence, sometimes
-recalling past summer evenings, to each other,
-and talking at intervals of the past.</p>
-
-<p>At this time a letter reached her from Winter.
-He had been a much better correspondent
-since the poor Colonel's death, and his letters
-were a source of inexpressible comfort to Kate;
-they cheered, while they sympathized in her
-deep sorrow&mdash;she wrote to him in the fullest<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[82]</a></span>
-confidence, and detailed all matters of personal
-interest, with a minuteness that showed how
-welcome was the task of correspondence to
-her.</p>
-
-<p>The present despatch, after some slight
-sketch of his plans, which included an excursion
-of some months into Spain, and a few
-rapturous exclamations at the scenery, continued
-thus&mdash;"You say, 'now I have room
-enough in my heart to think of it, I begin to
-feel, in spite of Georgy's excessive kindness
-and generosity, a strangely, painful sensation,
-at times, that not even the clothes I wear, are,
-properly speaking, my own&mdash;shelter, food, all
-are hers; and though she never, I am certain,
-gives this a thought, I feel that it mars the
-equality, which is the soul of friendship&mdash;I
-feel strongly, though indistinctly that this
-must not, and cannot last; but I am, as yet,
-incapable of forming any future plan.'</p>
-
-<p>"All this is very natural, and exactly what
-I advised you and our dear departed friend<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[83]</a></span>
-against, when your cousin invited you to join
-her at Florence, last year. Dependency is a
-thing repugnant to human nature; but for the
-present it is right for you to stay where you
-are; so be patient, it will be time enough to
-talk of plans when we return, which will be
-soon, certainly before Christmas. I want to
-have you quietly to ourselves, away from finery
-and fashion, then we will settle everything.
-Meantime, as I consider you my adopted
-daughter, if you will allow me, you must
-just put the enclosed cheque in your dressing-box,
-as a sort of reserve, in case of foul weather&mdash;this
-is a mere sop to my fidgetty conscience,
-as I am too selfish to return home at
-once, to take care of you, which I believe it is
-my duty to do, and I shall have but small
-comfort if you refuse; pooh! my dear, it is
-only to oblige your old <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">maestro</i>!</p>
-
-<p>"I see our former acquaintance, Fred Egerton
-has been performing prodigies of valour
-against those wretched Sikhs&mdash;what deplorable<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[84]</a></span>
-insanity war is! I have no patience with such
-courage. Well, good night, I wish you could
-have a peep at the moon-lit mountain range,
-opposite my window. Ah! dear child, you
-have known much sorrow, but who can look on
-the exquisite loveliness, which earth, though
-cursed for our sins, still possesses, and doubt
-that boundless beneficence and wisdom alike
-framed our dwelling place, and directs the current
-of our lives, God bless you, Kate; my wife
-greets you, write soon.</p>
-
-<p class="right">
-"Your true friend,<br />
-<br />
-"<span class="smcap">J. Winter</span>."
-</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>It may be derogatory to a heroine's character;
-but the truth must be confessed, that the
-consciousness of having fifty pounds in her
-dressing-box, was a great source of repose and
-security to ours; her own slender means were
-nearly exhausted, and the alternative of being
-literally penniless, though surrounded with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[85]</a></span>
-every luxury, or mentioning the exhausted
-state of her purse to her open handed cousin,
-were most insupportable to her&mdash;then she
-could not bear that nurse should feel a want of
-any kind, and she not able to supply it. It
-was therefore with no small thankfulness, she
-penned a reply to her kind friend. Mr. Winter
-was one of those calm, rational, unselfish
-people, a compound seldom to be met with,
-from whom a favour may be safely taken.</p>
-
-<p>"See what Mr. Winter has sent me; a sort
-of birthday present before hand," said Kate,
-holding up the cheque to nurse.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, how much, alanah?"</p>
-
-<p>"Fifty pounds, nurse."</p>
-
-<p>"Och, good christhians! think iv that now,
-athen, is'nt Misther Winther mighty like that
-little scrap iv paper himself, a thrifle to look at&mdash;but
-worth a power!"</p>
-
-<p>"Worth so much, that I for one, can never
-look upon the outward and visible sign of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[86]</a></span>
-so much goodness, without respect and affection."</p>
-
-<p>"Thrue for ye, Miss Kate, an' so lock it up
-jewil, there's no sayin' the minnit ye may want
-it, I've sometimes a ton weight here, so I have,
-that's mighty quare, an' us in the haigth of
-grandeur, may be; but where's the use iv
-makin' ye down-hearted, darlint, wid me
-dhreams be day or night."</p>
-
-<p>"No, dear nurse," sighed Kate, "I do not
-wish to hear them."</p>
-
-<p>Monday morning dawned bright, but before
-noon, dark clouds rolled up from the horizon,
-Lady Desmond was looking royally beautiful,
-as she reclined in her bergère, her luxuriant,
-glossy black hair, braided under a small cap of
-exquisite lace; she was paler than usual, but
-there was a delicacy in her complexion, that
-contrasted favourably with her large, dark
-eyes, which looked up, at intervals, through
-their long, black lashes, with languid calm<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[87]</a></span>ness,
-reminding Kate of the unnatural lull that
-preceeds a thunder storm.</p>
-
-<p>Kate was utterly dissimilar to the fair
-widow; her golden brown hair had a light in
-its waves&mdash;her high, calm brow, beneath which
-her soft eyes beamed with a glance, so earnest,
-and so pure&mdash;her girlish figure so graceful,
-and pliant, in its drapery of black&mdash;the air of
-deep repose, of unconscious harmony that pervaded
-every attitude and tone, all framed a
-totally different picture from the queen-like
-woman, who, sometimes arranging a few
-flowers she held in her hand, sometimes dropping
-them in her lap, heard, without attending
-to it, her cousin's voice, as she read aloud.</p>
-
-<p>The day was sultry; heavy, brassy-looking
-clouds obscured the sun, and the birds chirped
-in that low, sleepy tone, which always indicates
-a lowering sky, or a coming storm; and
-now and then a sudden warm breeze swept
-back the muslin curtains, and filled the atmosphere
-of the room with the rich perfume of the
-garden.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[88]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"How oppressive! I can hardly breathe,"
-said Kate, laying down the book which she
-found could not engage her cousin's attention,
-and walking towards the window.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Lady Desmond, languidly,
-"draw up the blinds, Kate, to the top; let us
-have all the light and air we can."</p>
-
-<p>"If Lord Effingham is not here very soon
-he will get a wetting; I am sure we are on
-the edge of a thunder storm," observed Miss
-Vernon, after a pause.</p>
-
-<p>"Then you fancy he will come."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not think about it; but I find I anticipate
-his arrival as something quite certain;
-I confess I feel anxious to see how he will
-meet you, for he knows I repeated his&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"I will tell you," interrupted Lady Desmond,
-with a tinge of bitterness in her tone,
-"as if it could not be the slightest consequence
-to him, what my opinion, or that of
-any one upon earth may be."</p>
-
-<p>"What a character! but this must be acting!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_89" id="Page_89">[89]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"No, I believe his manner to be a true
-index of his mind; I have now known Lord
-Effingham for nearly two years; and I pronounce
-him incomprehensible, impenetrable;
-and yet," continued Lady Desmond, passionately,
-"as mystery has always proved the
-strongest attraction to man's mind, so I feel
-irresistibly impelled to gaze into an abyss, I
-cannot fathom, where everything seems uncertain
-and obscure; I am undecided whether
-he is the coldest of egotists, or a man of the
-strongest, deepest, most passionate feeling.
-Do you believe in mesmerism, Kate? I begin
-to do so; how otherwise can I account for the
-influence that unaccountable man exercises
-over me; I do not know whether I love or hate
-him. I must speak out to you, my own, dear
-one; let me tell you all that I have suffered!"</p>
-
-<p>"Dearest Georgy, though I hear you with
-pain, yes, a thousand times; but not now;
-every moment may bring the earl here, and he
-must not see you thus agitated; do not let him<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_90" id="Page_90">[90]</a></span>
-see any emotion; you must not let him think
-he has so much power; I dread his influence
-over you. <em>He is not good.</em> I always think of
-Milton's Satan, when I hear him speak."</p>
-
-<p>"And what a grand creature Milton's Satan
-is," cried Lady Desmond; "but, Kate, let me
-speak now."</p>
-
-<p>"Hush, hush," said Miss Vernon, again,
-and more eagerly stopping her. "I hear
-some one coming; and the door into the next
-room is open."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond looked towards it, her dark
-eyes flashing eagerly; but her countenance
-rapidly assuming its usual expression of proud
-reserve; it was thrown open to its fullest extent,
-and the footman announced&mdash;"Colonel
-Dashwood;" and Kate, as she went forward
-to receive him, could not restrain a smile
-at the unexpected finale to their anticipations.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond received the gallant Colonel
-with more than her usual suavity and grace;
-and he, notwithstanding his good nature,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_91" id="Page_91">[91]</a></span>
-seemed more at ease than when alone with
-Kate, whose pale cheeks and tearful eyes forbade
-the gay badinage, which, truth to tell,
-formed Colonel Dashwood's principal stock in
-conversational trade, when Melton Mowbray
-and the moors, were not congenial topics.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond, after the first moment of
-disappointment, felt the Colonel's visit to be a
-relief from her own stormy thoughts; and she
-entered fully into his light and lively conversation;
-while Kate, though silent, felt soothed
-and pleased, to have an old acquaintance thus
-restored to her, a sort of link with by-gone
-days, ever present to her. She sat near the
-window copying some manuscript music, for
-her cousin, to which she had taken a fancy,
-but oftener resting her head on her hand, half
-listening, half thinking.</p>
-
-<p>They were laughing at Colonel Dashwood's
-description of some adventure of his in Dublin;
-and he was looking very much at home, when
-Lord Effingham entered, unannounced; and,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_92" id="Page_92">[92]</a></span>
-at the same moment, a vivid flash of lightning
-illuminated the apartment, which was
-gloomy as night.</p>
-
-<p>"I found your doors most hospitably open,
-Lady Desmond," said the Earl, advancing with
-his cool self-possession, "and meeting no one
-to oppose my progress, entered, with a flash of
-lightning, like the devil in Der Freyschutz."</p>
-
-<p>"I am glad you escaped the shower which
-is sure to follow," returned Lady Desmond, endeavouring
-to recover the double agitation,
-occasioned by the lightning and Lord Effingham's
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entré</i>.</p>
-
-<p>"And now," he resumed, quite regardless
-of the thunder, which almost drowned his
-voice, and holding her hand, perhaps a moment
-longer than was strictly <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">selon les regles</i>,
-"now that you have, at last, permitted me to
-enter your presence, I must say, I see but
-little sign of the indisposition that banished
-your friends. Miss Vernon has been in league
-with you against us&mdash;I told her as much the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_93" id="Page_93">[93]</a></span>
-other day&mdash;and she bristled up most indignantly;
-you must tell her I was right, and
-you were only fanciful, or&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"You hear Lord Effingham, Kate?" said
-Lady Desmond, gently.</p>
-
-<p>He turned and bowed to her, as if he now
-observed her for the first time, since his entrance;
-but his keen eye had noted each individual
-in the room, from the moment he crossed
-its threshold.</p>
-
-<p>Kate returned his salutation; and as she observed
-the transformation of Lady Desmond,
-from an unembarrassed talker, to a silent listener,
-absorbed in self-watchfulness and intense
-attention to every syllable that dropped from
-Lord Effingham's lips, she longed for Sabrina's
-power to free her from his unholy influence.</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham, Colonel Dashwood," said
-Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>The gentlemen bowed, and subsided into
-their respective seats.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[94]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I feel completely exhausted by the heat,"
-said Lord Effingham, sinking back in his chair,
-"the heat and the cold of England are equally
-unendurable. We have enjoyed a thunder-storm
-in the Appenines, Lady Desmond; and
-you did not start then, as you did just now,
-when I entered; it is this heavy atmosphere."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes; yet the storm you mention was awfully
-grand&mdash;and at night, too."</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent12">"'Oh, night,</div>
- <div class="verse">And storm and darkness, ye are wondrous strong,</div>
- <div class="verse">Yet lovely in your strength, as is the light</div>
- <div class="verse">Of a dark eye, in woman!'"</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>said Lord Effingham, as if to himself; but,
-with a glance at Lady Desmond, while Colonel
-Dashwood was playing with Kate's pen-wiper,
-and talking of the band of the &mdash;th.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond sighed, and looked away towards
-Kate, Lord Effingham following the
-direction of her eyes with his, smiled.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[95]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Miss Kate, agrah," said Mrs. O'Toole's
-voice, from the verandah, at that moment,
-"don't be sitting wid the winda wide open,
-an' the lightnin' strikin' right an' lift&mdash;sure
-it'll be powerin' cats and dogs in a minit;" and
-nurse's good-humoured face, though not quite
-so bright as in former days, beamed in on
-them. "The Lord save us! I beg yer pardon,
-me lady; sure I thought Miss Kate was all
-alone be herself, an' I niver thought to find&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"No apology, nurse," said Lady Desmond,
-good-humouredly.</p>
-
-<p>"Mrs. O'Toole," cried Colonel Dashwood,
-"I hope I am not quite forgotten;" and he
-stepped forward to greet her.</p>
-
-<p>"Faith, ye'r not, sir; sure, a dog that I remimbered
-at Dungar, would be light to me eyes,
-let alone a grand lookin' gintleman like yer
-honor!"</p>
-
-<p>"It is raining heavily already, nurse," said
-Lady Desmond, with whom Mrs. O'Toole was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[96]</a></span>
-a great favourite; "come in, at once, and you
-can speak to Colonel Dashwood."</p>
-
-<p>"Och, Kurnel, what's the Captin doin'? an'
-where is he?"</p>
-
-<p>"Which Captain?" he returned; "I know
-so many."</p>
-
-<p>"Och, mee own Captin&mdash;him that I nursed
-through the faver!"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, Captain Egerton; he is in India, and
-is a Colonel now; he has been doing wonders.
-I will tell him you were asking for him; he
-will be delighted."</p>
-
-<p>"Me blessin' on him, wherever he goes.
-Och, it's a weary sore world;" and she glanced
-at Kate, and wiped a tear from her eyes with
-the corner of her apron; then curtseying profoundly,
-retired, saying&mdash;"I'll niver forget the
-Captin, an' him that's gone. How happy they
-wer togather!"</p>
-
-<p>"Pray," said Lord Effingham, as she passed,
-"is your memory always equally good for
-every one and everything?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[97]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I always had a wondherful memory, mee
-lord," said Mrs. O'Toole, with another low
-curtsey; "for it can remimber an' disremimber,
-mee lord! just what's convanient betimes!"</p>
-
-<p>"Very convenient," replied his lordship,
-with a laugh; "good morning."</p>
-
-<p>The storm of rain and thunder growing
-every moment fiercer and more loud, Lady
-Desmond ordered the windows to be fastened;
-and the party drew naturally closer together,
-while the vivid flashes of lightning, at intervals,
-displayed their countenances to each
-other; and Kate, her nerves not yet braced
-back to their former strength, almost blushed
-for her own cowardice, as she, sometimes,
-covered her face with her hands, and scarce
-could refrain from seizing the arm nearest her;
-but that arm was Lord Effingham's. At last,
-one fearful crash, and blinding blaze of light,
-the climax of the storm, startled her out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[98]</a></span>
-every consideration, save the momentary
-terror; covering her eyes with one hand, she
-stretched out the other blindly, catching Lord
-Effingham's arm in the involuntary grasp of
-alarm and leaning towards him; it was but for
-a moment, and she drew back.</p>
-
-<p>"By Jove, a thunder-bolt must have fallen,"
-cried Colonel Dashwood, springing to the
-window, as if to look for it.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond followed him.</p>
-
-<p>"It was of no use," said Lord Effingham,
-rapidly, in a low voice, to Kate; "you see my
-position is not the least shaken! why interfere
-between your cousin and myself?"</p>
-
-<p>"Would it give you pain if I succeeded?"
-she asked, in the same tone.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes."</p>
-
-<p>"Do you answer me in all sincerity?"</p>
-
-<p>"In all sincerity, I do."</p>
-
-<p>"Then I am satisfied."</p>
-
-<p>"Then we are friends&mdash;at least, not foes."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[99]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Kate bent her head, and said, frankly&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I wish to <em>know</em> you."</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham could only reply by a look
-of surprise, when Colonel Dashwood approached
-to take his leave. The Earl bowed formally
-to him.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose I must not ask you to stay for
-dinner," said Lady Desmond. "It would not
-be <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">comme il faut</i> for recluses such as Kate and
-myself to have so gay a guest as Lord Effingham!"</p>
-
-<p>"That is as you think," he returned; "I
-would, however, certainly stay, even on that
-faint shadow of an invitation, were I not unfortunately
-engaged to dine with a grand-aunt
-of mine, just arrived at the Palace. By the
-way, would you like to know her? she has two
-daughters. Miss Vernon might find them acceptable;
-young ladies are, you know, gregarious."</p>
-
-<p>"We shall be most happy to make your<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[100]</a></span>
-aunt's acquaintance," returned Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>The Earl bowed, and departed.</p>
-
-<p>"I am weary, Kate&mdash;my head aches&mdash;I
-cannot speak to you to-day&mdash;some other time&mdash;I
-will go and lie down."</p>
-
-<p>"As you like, dear Georgy."</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[101]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER IV.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">REVELATIONS.</p>
-
-
-<p>Not many days elapsed before the cards of the
-Honourable Mrs. J. E. Meredyth, and the
-Misses Meredyth were laid on Lady Desmond's
-table; but it was some time before Kate saw
-them; for, feeling totally unequal to the
-society of strangers, she declined accompanying
-her cousin to return their visit, or to an
-evening party, which quickly followed the
-first interchange of formalities.</p>
-
-<p>She regretted, while she was too just to
-blame, her cousin's rapid oblivion of the sad
-scene so deeply engraven on her own memory,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[102]</a></span>
-though she steadily endeavoured to cultivate
-a cheerful resignation, and sometimes was
-grateful for any interruption that drew her
-from the oppressive sadness and sense of loneliness,
-that often weighed on her spirits. Grief
-is something so repugnant to the young, that
-they involuntarily endeavour to throw it off.
-The morning sun gilds all things with its life-giving,
-beautifying light, it is only the lengthening
-shadows of evening to which tender
-sadness and lingering regret seem natural.</p>
-
-<p>And Kate's true-hearted efforts to submit
-unmurmuringly to her bitter loss, were
-seconded by her happy age; and again peace,
-like a dove, still fluttering its wings before
-settling in its nest, was slowly and surely returning
-to her.</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham's visits were not quite so
-frequent as before Lady Desmond's illness;
-but they were more agreeable to Kate; his
-manner was more real; he noticed her more&mdash;with
-the air of an elder relative, 'tis true&mdash;yet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[103]</a></span>
-with a quiet, unremitting attention, obvious
-enough to herself, though scarcely noticeable,
-save to a very keen observer.</p>
-
-<p>The terms on which he had placed himself
-with Lady Desmond rather puzzled her; he
-devoted much of his time to her, was evidently
-an admirer of her beauty and agreeability; yet
-Kate could not help thinking there was more
-of the old friend, of the <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">habitué</i> of the house,
-than the lover, in his tone and manner. Lady
-Desmond seemed, on the whole, happy enough,
-and met the warm advances of Mrs. Meredyth
-very cordially.</p>
-
-<p>"How do you like your new acquaintance?"
-asked Kate, the morning after Mrs. Meredyth's
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">soirée</i>.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, well enough; they are abundantly
-civil; but not at all the sort of people you
-would fancy Lord Effingham's relatives to be.
-Madame Mere is fat and fair, and wonderfully
-preserved; she looks like his aunt, not grand-aunt;
-she is grave and quiet; the daughters<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[104]</a></span>
-are <em>very</em> young ladies, of about thirty, I should
-think; they are scarcely good style; and I
-thought they would positively devour Colonel
-Dashwood and a Mr. Burton, and some other
-dragoons, who embellished the entertainment."</p>
-
-<p>"Burton!" repeated Kate; "I remember&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"And so does he," interrupted Lady Desmond;
-"Colonel Dashwood introduced him to
-me, and asked permission to bring him here
-to-day; he enquired for you very particularly,
-and said he had heard a great deal of you from
-a Captain or Colonel Egerton, a great ally of
-yours, I suspect."</p>
-
-<p>Kate sighed.</p>
-
-<p>"Was Lord Effingham there?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, rather to my astonishment; he seemed
-horridly bored, I could see that; for the species
-of worship offered to him, both by aunt and
-cousins, is exactly the sort of thing to disgust
-him."</p>
-
-<p>"If the Miss Meredyths are constantly en<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[105]</a></span>gaged
-in devouring dragoons, and worshipping
-Lord Effingham, they must be busy indeed,"
-said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"From what I could gather, Lord Effingham's
-presence was rather an unusual favour;
-however, we are to be great friends; I must
-have them to dine here some day, or to a
-strawberry and cream supper, or something of
-that sort; only I am afraid you do not feel up
-to it, dear Kate; but if you do not mind&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, pray do not think of me, Georgy, I
-am always glad to see you amused; I can steal
-away if I find myself unequal to be agreeable&mdash;or&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"No, no," interrupted Lady Desmond, in
-her turn. "Dear love, you shall not be teased,
-only I think it would do you good."</p>
-
-<p>And Kate saw the point was decided against
-her.</p>
-
-<p>"I wish very much, Georgy, you would
-allow me to invite Mrs. Storey to spend a day
-here; I ought to go and see her; but I feel I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[106]</a></span>
-cannot go there yet; if you have no engagement
-next week."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, ask her, by all means; she was very
-civil, I remember; stay, I will write the note;
-you can enclose it; and, while we are about
-it, let us ask the husband; he is something
-terrific, is he not?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, indeed, he is."</p>
-
-<p>"Do not look so grave about it," said Lady
-Desmond, laughing; "let us go to the drawing-room&mdash;my
-desk is there."</p>
-
-<p>As Kate usually chose those hours, when
-the gardens were free from the band and mob
-to wander there, she did not meet Lady Desmond's
-new friends until the evening of her
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">soirée</i>, which was a very agreeable little impromptu
-meeting&mdash;the guests verbally invited
-in the morning of the same day, when the
-band had assembled the few inhabitants of
-Hampton Court in one focus. Yet Kate shrank
-from this unwonted gaiety as from a desecration.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[107]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Nurse strove to cheer her up.</p>
-
-<p>"Sure, it'll do ye good, jewil, an' plaise mee
-lady, so come now, smile, for yer poor ould
-nurse."</p>
-
-<p>The Meredyths arrived rather late; and Miss
-Vernon was obliged to remain near Lady Desmond
-until introduced to them, before she retreated
-to the small drawing-room, away from
-the noise and excitement of the bagatelle
-board, round which Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell
-and some young ladies, who came under
-her chaperonage, were gathered, all eagerly
-exercising their skill against divers and sundry
-dragoons, contributed by Colonel Dashwood, at
-Lady Desmond's request, to assist her in entertaining
-her guests.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. and the Miss Meredyths were rather
-over dressed for so small a party. Their noisy
-entry, and loud laughter, repelled Kate, though
-she endeavoured to second her cousin's evident
-wish that she should know them better; so
-suppressing her inclination to retreat, she lis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[108]</a></span>tened
-patiently to the reiterated assurances
-of their desire to make her acquaintance.</p>
-
-<p>But Kate's calm, gentle manner, and polite
-replies, proved faint counter-attractions to the
-invitations from the bagatelle party; and the
-high-spirited Miss Meredyths were soon immersed
-in all the interest of that scientific
-game.</p>
-
-<p>Kate, at Lady Desmond's request, led Mrs.
-Meredyth into the inner drawing-room, to
-show her some beautiful water-color drawings,
-of scenes in the Appenines, which Lady Desmond
-had purchased at Florence.</p>
-
-<p>They had the room to themselves, and Kate
-soon perceived that it a was very interesting
-work to her companion, who never failed to
-ask some well put, leading query during the
-replacing of each drawing, as to the duration
-of her nephew's acquaintance with Lady Desmond,
-or her connections, estates, &amp;c., at
-which Kate, unworldly as she was, could not
-avoid smiling.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[109]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>It was with evident relief that she heard
-Lady Desmond enter, saying&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"If you will accept me as a partner, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">faute
-de mieux</i>, my dear Mrs. Meredyth, Lady Elizabeth
-will manage to have her rubber; I expected
-Dr. &mdash;&mdash;, the veteran physician before
-alluded to; but if you will bear with my errors
-till he comes&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"You are very good, Lady Desmond; only
-it is too bad to ask you to play whist at your
-age."</p>
-
-<p>And Mrs. Meredyth rose gladly. Kate
-stayed to look over some of the drawings that
-remained, and to replace them in their portfolio,
-wishing she could escape from a collection
-of strangers, all of whom were uninteresting
-to her.</p>
-
-<p>Burton had not yet made his appearance,
-and she hoped to have some conversation with
-him; for the morning he had called, she was
-out. So she stood gazing at a drawing, resting
-her arm on the top of a <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">prie dieu</i> chair, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[110]</a></span>
-thinking of Fred Egerton, when Lord Effingham
-said, gently, and close to her&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I thought I should find you here."</p>
-
-<p>She started slightly, but turned to him with
-a smile, for, seeing how much her cousin's
-feelings were interested in his behalf, she was,
-as she had told him, anxious to know him
-better; and, her mind fully occupied with the
-impression of his admiration of Lady Desmond,
-the possibility of his ever bestowing a thought
-upon herself, save as a friend and relative of
-hers, never crossed it. She was, therefore,
-rather glad to have a little <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tete-à-tete causerie</i>
-with him.</p>
-
-<p>"I have been showing these drawings to
-Mrs. Meredyth, but she has gone to play
-whist with Georgy, who detests cards. We
-must endeavour to rescue her."</p>
-
-<p>"Not yet, if you please, Miss Vernon," returned
-Lord Effingham, looking fixedly at her,
-"I so seldom have an opportunity of saying a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[111]</a></span>
-word to you, uninterrupted by some one or
-other, that you must forgive me if I rush abruptly
-into the apology I have been so anxious
-to make for the last fortnight. The day in
-the Palace Garden," he continued, rapidly&mdash;"when
-you scornfully informed me that you
-disdained any friendship with so forward and
-ill-bred a fellow as myself&mdash;I reminded you of
-that dog. It was in total ignorance of&mdash;&mdash;. But
-I see I am only paining you. Lady Desmond
-told me, and I have been burning to assure
-you of my deep regret. I trust you will
-believe my assurance that no irritation would
-ever have tempted me, knowingly, to revive
-any memory distressing to you."</p>
-
-<p>He uttered these with an earnest softness
-that surprised Miss Vernon, so complete was
-the transformation it created in his look and
-manner.</p>
-
-<p>"I never accused you, even in thought, of
-such cruelty," she returned, anxious to relieve<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[112]</a></span>
-his evident anxiety, "so say no more about it,
-I entreat."</p>
-
-<p>"But the gesture of repugnance, with which
-you turned from me, I cannot forget it."</p>
-
-<p>"Did I," said Kate, blushing at the idea of
-having wounded the feelings of any one; "I
-was unaware, but, if you reflect for a moment,
-you will acknowledge it was natural, just then,
-you know I felt sick at heart."</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham's dark cheek flushed for an
-instant, he bit his lips.</p>
-
-<p>"Yet you say you forgive me."</p>
-
-<p>"And I do," she returned, "I could not
-resent an unintentional offence."</p>
-
-<p>He smiled, a very different smile from those
-that usually darkened rather than illuminated
-his countenance, and Kate, thought, "perhaps
-that might have been the expression of it in
-childhood."</p>
-
-<p>He held out his thin, nervous, resolute looking
-hand, with a look of entreaty and an expressive&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[113]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Then if&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>Kate, who had not an atom of prudery, and
-was anxious to make up for the gesture of
-repugnance, he had so forcibly described, put
-her own frankly into it; he raised it for a moment,
-to his lips, and said, lightly, half in
-jest, half earnest&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"And on this hand I renounce my evil
-ways."</p>
-
-<p>She withdrew her hand quickly, but before
-she could make any reply, Lord Effingham
-said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Let us look at these exquisite views; Lady
-Desmond, the Wentworths, and myself, made
-many expeditions among the Appenines. Where
-were you then, Miss Vernon?"</p>
-
-<p>He asked this in a tone as if he remembered,
-with amazement, having enjoyed any thing
-where she was not; but Kate did not notice it,
-for, transported back to former scenes, by his
-question, she answered, with a sigh&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, I was then very happy!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[114]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham looked up at her, and as
-her eyes were bent down, quite regardless of
-him, he permitted a slight smile to mingle in
-the admiring glance that rested on her.</p>
-
-<p>"Have you seen Lady Desmond?" she enquired,
-raising her eyes to his with a vague
-sort of notion that she ought not to remain
-there in that quiet room, with its books and
-pictures, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tête-à-tête</i>, with her cousin's lover.</p>
-
-<p>"No, I came here to ask you where she was,
-<em>remember</em>!"</p>
-
-<p>"Why, am I to remember? do you wish me
-to tell her?"</p>
-
-<p>"As you like," said Lord Effingham, carelessly,
-and turning to the drawings, began to
-speak of their merits, and of the artist who took
-the views, in a clear, simple, forcible manner
-which interested Miss Vernon greatly. She
-had always felt that her companion was possessed
-of talent, though his indolence seldom
-permitted him to display it in conversation;
-and she now listened with pleasure to his un<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[115]</a></span>wonted
-agreeability. Lady Desmond was frequently
-the subject of his comments, which
-were always flattering, but expressed with an
-air of calm, deliberate approbation, equally unlike
-his usually sneering indifference, or a lover's
-warmth; yet his memory appeared to be
-wonderfully distinct as to her doings; in one
-place, she had ordered her picture from a distressed
-artist, and retrieved his fortunes by her
-liberal payment and patronage.</p>
-
-<p>"It was in Italy, you know, where the
-necessaries of life are not worth double their
-weight in gold," added Lord Effingham. Or
-it was her courage and self-possession in a
-thunder-storm, or her taste in an <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">al-fresco</i>
-entertainment; but though thus constantly referred
-to, there was an occasional glimpse
-shown of her pride, her imperiousness, or her
-impatience, never condemned, but hinted at
-more by a tone, a glance, a smile than by
-words.</p>
-
-<p>Kate listened intently, fancying she had got<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[116]</a></span>
-the clue to his strange indecision as regarded
-her cousin, and gradually determining that he
-only hesitated to declare the love, she was sure
-he felt, because he feared that the existence of
-such qualities were not calculated to make a
-home happy.</p>
-
-<p>"He does not know her noble nature or her
-value, and she always appears to greater disadvantage
-with him than with any one else.
-Perhaps I may be able to clear this up," she
-thought. "And, after all, he may be a better
-man than I imagined," so she listened, resting
-her clasped hands on the top of the chair by
-which she stood, her head inclined gently to
-one side, a slight pleased smile curving her lip,
-and showing the pearly teeth, while he, compelling
-himself to speak of the drawing he held,
-instead of indulging his natural indolence in
-silent contemplation of the sweet face before
-him, his back to the door, was first conscious
-that their solitude was broken in upon by her
-change of countenance and position. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[117]</a></span>
-turned just as Colonel Dashwood, entering
-said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I have been looking for you, Miss Vernon,
-to present Mr. Burton," waving his hand to that
-gentleman who accompanied him, inwardly
-consigning his Colonel to the inferno of busy
-bodies, for having so pertinaciously sought
-Miss Vernon, and interrupted a second interesting
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tête-à-tête</i>.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon's cordial and unembarrassed
-manner set him at ease, however, and Lord
-Effingham, in an unusually amiable mood, exerted
-himself to cultivate Dashwood, so the
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">partie quarré</i> progressed into a sociable exchange
-of trivialities, when their number was
-encreased by the approach of Lady Desmond,
-who entered with a look of restlessness, Kate
-knew well how to interpret.</p>
-
-<p>"Some one said you had arrived, Lord
-Effingham," she said.</p>
-
-<p>"I could not see you in the next room,
-and came here to look for you," he replied,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[118]</a></span>
-smiling. "But the awful intelligence that you
-were playing whist with my aunt rendered me
-incapable of further exertion. Is that sacrifice
-accomplished?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I have done my duty."</p>
-
-<p>"And I have been living over some very
-pleasant days again," he returned, glancing
-at the drawings, "and prosing to Miss Vernon
-on the same subject; but I must pay my
-respects to Mrs. Meredyth," and he offered his
-arm to Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon continued to converse a little
-longer with Colonel Dashwood and Mr. Burton;
-but neither mentioned Fred Egerton, till Kate,
-apprehending she might be asked to contribute
-towards the music, now superseding the bagatelle,
-complained of fatigue, and wished them
-"good night."</p>
-
-<p>"I am glad I shall be able to tell my friend
-Fred Egerton I met you, Miss Vernon," said
-Burton, "I kept my letter open for the purpose,
-as he always asks me for some intelligence of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[119]</a></span>
-his old friends, though I do not think he seems
-inclined to return to them."</p>
-
-<p>"Quite right," said Colonel Dashwood, "he
-has made an excellent start in India; good
-night, Miss Vernon; I will tell Lady Desmond
-you have beat a retreat."</p>
-
-<p>"Good night," and soon after the party
-broke up.</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham drove home by moonlight;
-but his thoughts were too darkly chaotic for us
-to fathom.</p>
-
-<p>The Miss Meredyths, in council over their
-"<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">toilettes de nuit</i>," decided that whether "Eff"
-married Lady Desmond or not, it was well
-worth their while to cultivate her acquaintance,
-and Burton, throwing off his uniform, and
-drawing his writing-table to an open window,
-proceeded to add a P.S. to his letter.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
-<p>"I have just returned from a tranquil little
-Arcadian evening party at Lady Desmond's,
-where I was introduced to your old acquaint<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[120]</a></span>ance,
-Miss Vernon, and I am half inclined to
-forgive you all the nonsense you used to talk
-about her; though she looks pale and pensive,
-I think she is still more lovely than she was at
-that ball, where we saw her, two years ago.
-I fancy I can account for the present quietism
-and irreproachable life of the rather notorious
-Lord Effingham. He came in for old St. L's
-beautiful villa near Richmond, some time ago,
-and is nominally living there; but, in reality,
-is here every day, and all day, and the gossips
-are puzzled; because if Lady Desmond is the
-attraction, they could have married any time
-these two years; but, from what I have seen,
-I am certain it is your friend Miss Vernon who
-will be Countess of Effingham. In short, I
-am pretty sure they are engaged; I hope he
-may make a tolerable husband, for she deserves
-well I am certain. This is my latest intelligence&mdash;so,
-good night, old fellow, and do
-not keep me six months waiting for a reply to
-this."</p></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[121]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Kate was sitting, near the window, in her
-room, waiting until the household had sunk
-into silence before she laid down to sleep, when
-the door was softly opened by Lady Desmond,
-who entered, saying&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Are you awake? Oh! you have not gone
-to bed."</p>
-
-<p>"Dear Georgy!" exclaimed Miss Vernon,
-rising to meet her, "I hope you did not think
-me rude for running away so selfishly, but&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Not a word more," interrupted her cousin,
-passing her arm caressingly round her, "you
-were right to do as you felt inclined&mdash;indeed I
-fear I was inconsiderate in asking you to join
-us, nor was there anything very attractive in
-our guests."</p>
-
-<p>There was a pause for some moments; and
-then, Lady Desmond, drawing Kate closer to
-the window, asked&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Are you sleepy, love?"</p>
-
-<p>"No, dear Georgy, not in the least."</p>
-
-<p>"Then I will resume my revelations. I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[122]</a></span>
-have not felt in the mood to do so before, and
-you were wise and kind not to urge me."</p>
-
-<p>"Go on then, dearest," said Kate, "I long
-to hear your story."</p>
-
-<p>"When first I met Lord Effingham at
-Naples," began Lady Desmond, withdrawing
-her arm from Kate, and resting the other
-against the window-frame, "I had been
-rather bored by the perpetual gossip about him
-always floating in the society there, and, at the
-same time, I was intensely fatigued by the
-utter absence of anything like interest in the
-world at large. I had no particular object&mdash;I
-was so perfectly my own mistress&mdash;I had not
-even the excitement of imagining what I would
-do if I could, for I had the power of accomplishing
-every rational wish. I was wearied of
-the excessive attentions and admiration of a
-dozen needy adorers, and, in short, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">ennuye'd</i>. In
-this happy and commendable frame of mind, I
-dragged myself listlessly to a birthday dinner
-at the English Ambassador's; and accident<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[123]</a></span>
-placed me next a gentleman, so quietly <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">distingué</i>,
-that nine out of ten observers, would not
-have noticed him; my attention was attracted
-by his being a stranger in a circle where each
-was known to each, and I was rather surprised
-when Lady W&mdash;&mdash; introduced him to me as
-Lord Effingham. He handed me down to
-dinner; but if I give you all these frivolous
-particulars, I shall not come to the end of my
-story until morning. There was an indescribable
-fascination for me in his manner. You
-must have observed the sense of power it
-conveys&mdash;the impression that there is something
-ever to be revealed, which you can never
-fathom, while he reads all your thoughts; the
-constant air of cool indifference you have seen;
-but the occasional softness, so exquisite in its
-flattering suggestions, you have not. Ah,
-Kate, I little thought as I drove home that
-night, feeling life had still something left to
-wish for, something still to excite, that the
-time would come when I as ardently desired to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[124]</a></span>
-have that passage wiped away from my existence.</p>
-
-<p>"I met Lord Effingham in society frequently,
-and he was the only man, amongst those of our
-circle, who did not enter himself as an aspirant
-for my smiles&mdash;to use the wretched <em>jargon</em> of
-those idlers&mdash;I will not say this piqued me.
-Pique is too weak, too French a term, to express
-the scorn of myself, with which his
-neglect filled me; he only considered me a
-fitting object of admiration for the vulgar
-mob. Yet there was a sympathy between us,
-that, though we seldom spoke, linked us
-strangely. Gradually&mdash;I cannot tell how it
-was&mdash;we became more intimate, and my very
-soul was absorbed in the intense longing to
-make him feel that I was not powerless. At
-length, I saw I was admired&mdash;I read it in his
-eyes a thousand times, and no longer unoccupied
-and listless, every faculty at its fullest
-stretch, both to feel and to conceal what I felt;
-for I dreaded either the world, or Lord Effing<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[125]</a></span>ham,
-obtaining even the slightest clue to the
-state of my mind; then, Kate, then, for the
-first time, I tasted all the wild excitement&mdash;all
-the concentrated vitality of which life is
-capable."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond's eyes dilated, and Kate felt
-her own veins thrill with the contagious passion
-that inspired her cousin's words.</p>
-
-<p>"Still," resumed Lady Desmond, "I was
-unconscious that, in my efforts to rivet chains
-on so untamable a captive, I had only twined
-them closely round myself. This did not last
-long; his excessive variability opened my
-eyes; though the tenderest accents had breathed
-the well-adapted line from my favorite poet in
-tones that rendered its application unmistakeable,
-though the interruption of our slightest
-conversation was avoided as unendurable in
-the evening, the next morning would find him
-so utterly cold, indifferent, almost forgetful,
-that I shrunk from the power so remorselessly
-displayed, and fled.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[126]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Whether the novelty of my seeming indifference&mdash;for
-so far, I acted bravely, Kate&mdash;was
-not yet '<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">fletri</i>,' or whether he was sick of
-Naples, I do not know, but he followed me to
-Florence, and told me, with the calm gravity
-of seeming truth, that Naples was insupportable
-without me. I believed him&mdash;nay, I think he
-spoke what he then felt. I was again lapped
-in Elysium; he was less variable&mdash;I did not
-care to think of the future, I was no longer
-strong enough to preserve the guard I had
-hitherto kept. His haughty iron-spirit mastered
-mine&mdash;he saw it, and left Florence for
-England.</p>
-
-<p>"I will not dwell on that miserable year&mdash;I
-cannot&mdash;for I only remember a dark chaos of
-black misery and despair&mdash;an eternal effort to
-seem what I was not. All this is incomprehensible
-to you, Kate&mdash;may it ever be so.
-I despise myself; at this moment I hate Lord
-Effingham; but yet I would give every hope
-here, almost every hope hereafter, to see him<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[127]</a></span>
-at my feet&mdash;to hear him say, 'I love you,'&mdash;this
-wild longing to touch his heart; the conviction
-that no effort of mine can do so; the
-glimpse of his love; the long cold night of his
-indifference; and, worse than all, the irritating
-sense of slavery to his will, is death to me.
-Yet I have striven against it; I vowed I would
-not return to England while it contained him,
-and you know how I kept my vow&mdash;aye, in
-despite of duty. And when I did come, I
-believed he was in Paris. And must I live
-through all this again? Why does he seek me
-to torture me? I scarcely gave him the civil
-encouragement to call on me, required by the
-usages of society. And yet, I fear, he sees too
-well how vainly I struggle against his influence.</p>
-
-<p>"His questions to you, when I endeavored
-to gain a few days' quiet reflection, uninterrupted
-by his disturbing presence, they were
-strange, yet they showed interest. Oh, Kate,
-Kate, can you read this riddle for me? my ex<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[128]</a></span>perience
-is all at fault; what say the instincts
-of your fresh heart?"</p>
-
-<p>"He loves you," cried Kate, much moved
-by her cousin's recital; and she spoke her true
-conviction, "he must love you, and we do not
-know what motives he may have. Yet, I fear
-he must be selfish, and cold-hearted, to think so
-little of your feelings. Oh, dear Georgy, try
-not to love him; how can you love where you
-do not trust? pray to God to help you, and
-make up your mind to endure a little present
-pain, in the hope of future peace; let us leave
-this place, and go away from him&mdash;he has no
-right to make you wretched&mdash;let us go."</p>
-
-<p>"No&mdash;impossible," said Lady Desmond,
-faintly, as if wearied by her own emotions.
-"Never was the spell so strong on me as now.
-I cannot&mdash;nay more, Kate, I <em>will</em> not break it;
-do not look so sadly, so shocked. I will be
-reasonable; you said just now we could not
-know his motives&mdash;fate seems to have thrown
-us together again&mdash;for God knows I came down<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[129]</a></span>
-here to get out of London, lest he might suddenly
-re-appear, to make me writhe under the
-consciousness of my thraldom. Let us see
-what another month may disclose. I feel that,
-before long, all doubt will be at an end, though
-now, at times, I think he loves me."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, he loves you&mdash;he must," cried Kate,
-gazing on Lady Desmond's beautiful face, as,
-glowing with the animation her reminiscences
-had called up, "but he loves himself better."</p>
-
-<p>"Then I am free," returned her cousin,
-"he is too grand a creature to be selfish&mdash;no
-there is none like him. Whatever his faults
-may be, they are not petty&mdash;he can love. We
-will remain here another month. What do you
-advise?"</p>
-
-<p>"Whatever I advise, dear Georgy, you will
-stay; and perhaps it is better to give Lord
-Effingham a fair trial, though he might follow
-us; at all events, you do not quite disapprove
-my counsel, I would fain have you go."</p>
-
-<p>"Do not ask me, I cannot; but is not that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[130]</a></span>
-two o'clock&mdash;to bed&mdash;to bed, Kate, how could
-I have kept you up so late. Good night."</p>
-
-<p>"God bless you, and give you peace, dear
-Georgy&mdash;good night."</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[131]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER V.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">AN ECLAIRCISSEMENT.</p>
-
-
-<p>The note of invitation, which Lady Desmond
-had despatched to Mrs. Storey, was quickly answered
-in the affirmative; that worthy woman
-having a strongly marked preference for
-fashion and the aristocracy, though if the
-truth must be told, it was an act of heroic accordance,
-with her principles to spend an entire
-day with Lady Desmond, who had impressed
-her with a sincere feeling of awe.</p>
-
-<p>"Mrs. Storey has much pleasure in accepting
-my polite invitation. <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Cela va sans dire</i>;
-write, Kate dear, and say I will send the car<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[132]</a></span>riage
-to meet her at Kingston. Mr. Storey is
-engaged till six o'clock, but will come down
-for her, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tant mieux</i>."</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt her cousin's civility to her friend
-as the most delicate kindness, and thanked her
-with an eloquent glance.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond seemed to cling more to Miss
-Vernon since she had made the confession
-detailed in the last chapter; she had seemed
-more cheerful, and hopeful too, as if relieved
-by her confidence in another&mdash;her manner with
-Lord Effingham, had more of frankness and
-courage, and he, ever keen and quick, was
-evidently aware of some change in the mind,
-or heart, he knew so well; and for the moment
-seemed roused from his habitual indifference
-to a deeper and more palpable interest. Kate
-watched all this anxiously. "Is he afraid of
-losing her," she thought. "Ah, if she would
-try to <em>be</em>, and not merely to <em>seem</em>, careless of
-him, she would bind him to her&mdash;there is
-something so irresistible in the evidence of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[133]</a></span>
-truth. But how foolish&mdash;how worthless it all
-is&mdash;they are both too prosperous to love in
-earnest!"</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"In climes full of sunshine, though splendid their dyes,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But faint are the odours, the flowers shed about,</div>
- <div class="verse">'Tis the mist, and the clouds of our own weeping skies,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">That draw their full spirit of fragrancy out.</div>
- <div class="verse">So the wild glow of passion, may kindle from mirth;</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But 'tis only in grief, true affection appears&mdash;</div>
- <div class="verse">To the magic of smiles, it may first owe its birth,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But the soul of its sweetness is drawn out by tears."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>Kate no longer avoided Lord Effingham, she
-readily accepted every opportunity of conversing
-with him, though each day showed her
-how vain were her attempts to penetrate his
-real sentiments; all things, however, wore a
-smiling aspect the morning she drove to Kingston,
-to meet Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure, Miss Vernon, this is most polite
-and attentive, and I am truly rejoiced to see
-you looking so much better, but the hair at<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[134]</a></span>
-'Ampton Court is the best in world; and how
-is Lady Desmond, &amp;c., &amp;c."</p>
-
-<p>Kate was really glad to see the good-natured
-garrulous little woman, and the sincere, kindly
-tone of her enquiries for Mr. Storey, and the
-children touched her guest's heart.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, I always tell Mr. S. that you are
-not one of your forgetful people, that never
-remember a former friend, when you have got
-grand, new ones."</p>
-
-<p>"I should indeed be sorry to be so worthless
-as to forget all your kindness to me and mine,"
-returned Kate, warmly. "I would have gone
-to see you before this, but I cannot yet bring
-myself to go to that neighbourhood; before we
-leave this part of the world, however I certainly
-will."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh dear, yes, Miss Vernon, remember I
-count on a week or fortnight, or as long as
-your cousin will spare you. I suppose you
-will never leave her now, until you go to a
-house of your own?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[135]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"That I cannot tell," returned Kate; "at
-present, at all events, probably until this terrible
-lawsuit of mine, which is still dragging on,
-is decided, I shall remain with her."</p>
-
-<p>"Well you must come to me for a few days
-soon, at all events, though I cannot offer you
-the same grandeur and elegance, you are accustomed
-to here."</p>
-
-<p>"My dear Mrs. Storey, you know what I
-was accustomed to when you first showed me
-kindness and attention; but tell me something
-of your brother."</p>
-
-<p>The meridian sun streamed fully on them,
-for the last part of their drive, and Mrs.
-Storey, who was an eager talker, and was
-excited by the meeting with Kate, looked
-painfully red and heated, by the time the carriage
-stopped at the old fashioned, iron gates,
-leading into the garden, before Lady Desmond's
-house; and as they were ushered into
-the cool, fragrant drawing-room, with its open
-windows, darkened by Venetian blinds, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[136]</a></span>
-breathing an atmosphere of simple refinement,
-Kate could hardly refrain from a smile, at the
-contrast between Lady Desmond's calm courteous
-manner, and fresh, undisturbed appearance,
-and the flushed, fussy guest&mdash;she rose to
-receive so graciously.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell, and Colonel
-Dashwood came in, during luncheon, much
-to Mrs. Storey's edification, though she sat
-listening, rather silently, to their animated
-talk of people and things all unknown to her.</p>
-
-<p>"I am sorry," said Kate, turning to her,
-"this is not one of the days on which the
-band performs; it is a very good one, though I
-have only heard it from a distance."</p>
-
-<p>"If you like I will order them to play this
-afternoon," said Colonel Dashwood. "Say the
-word, and they shall be ready by the time you
-have expended your admiration on the Vandykes,
-&amp;c., which you are going to see."</p>
-
-<p>"By all means, Colonel Dashwood," cried
-Lady Desmond, who dreaded the unoccupied<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[137]</a></span>
-afternoon, "Mrs. Storey would, I am sure, like
-it."</p>
-
-<p>"Really," replied that lady, rather confused
-at the idea of so much power being exerted for
-her amusement, "Colonel Dashwood, you are
-very good, if it is not too much trouble."</p>
-
-<p>"Trouble; oh, none whatever," he said,
-smiling and bowing to Mrs. Storey. "Lady
-Desmond, perhaps you will send one of your
-people with Colonel Dashwood's compliments,
-to Mr. Clark, the band master, and say he
-wishes the band should play on the terrace-walk,
-in about an hour and a half."</p>
-
-<p>When they had prepared for their proposed
-lounge (and Mrs. Storey felt almost ashamed of
-Lady Desmond's coarse straw bonnet, with its
-simple black ribbon), they found that Lord
-Effingham had added himself to their party, and
-stood talking to Colonel Dashwood in one of
-the windows. His quick eye rested for a
-moment on Mrs. Storey's finery, with an expression
-of calm curiosity, as one might notice<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[138]</a></span>
-some unusual specimen in the Zoological Gardens.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond immediately presented him
-to her, with the same easy politeness she would
-have shown towards a duchess, and he, bowing
-profoundly, observed&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"You are going picture gazing! allow me
-to join your party, I have not seen the
-paintings here since my raspberry jam, and
-peg-top days."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond, and Mrs. Storey, escorted
-by Colonel Dashwood, walked first, Lady Elizabeth
-took Kate's arm, and Lord Effingham
-sauntered by her side.</p>
-
-<p>"This is too much for me," panted Lady
-Elizabeth, "I cannot pass my own door, and,
-I am only delaying you from your friend; tell
-Lady Desmond I broke down on the road&mdash;pray
-ring that bell for me, my lord; thank
-you, good-bye."</p>
-
-<p>"Pray," said Lord Effingham, as he and
-Kate continued to walk, side by side, "where<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[139]</a></span>
-did Lady Desmond pick up that curious specimen
-of the genus woman?"</p>
-
-<p>"She did not pick her up, I did&mdash;or rather
-she picked me up, and showed me kind and
-respectful attention, when less curious specimens
-of the human race had the taste and
-discernment to class me, with the children's
-maids, and nurses, frequenting Kensington
-Gardens."</p>
-
-<p>"Fairly hit, and deserved, I confess; yet I
-had hoped you were magnanimous enough to
-have buried that egregious mistake in oblivion."</p>
-
-<p>"So I do in general, and only remember it
-when your contempt for something I know to
-be good, though, perhaps unprepossessing in
-appearance, recalls to my mind the unfairness
-of judging the Lord Effingham to-day by the
-uncourteous stranger of last winter."</p>
-
-<p>He bit his lips in silence for a moment, and
-then, with a smile of unusual frankness,
-said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[140]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"A retort from Miss Vernon is like a hair
-trigger in the hands of an angel with shining
-wings and snowy drapery; leave such carnal
-weapons to your imperial cousin; truth, simple
-and earnest, is at once your shield and spear;
-better say at once what is now in your mind,
-without circumlocution. 'You despise a good
-and a useful woman, who is worth a whole
-nation of '<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">vaut riens</i>,' like yourself.' Eh, Miss
-Vernon?"</p>
-
-<p>"That is rather too strong," said Kate,
-laughing.</p>
-
-<p>"Nevertheless, I have read your thoughts&mdash;I
-often do&mdash;I can read your cousin's; what a
-different book! Yet she is a splendid creature&mdash;how
-desperately&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>And Kate, listening with all her soul, was
-almost startled into a scream by a sudden
-hand laid on her arm, and a breathless voice
-exclaiming&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I have just seen Lady Elizabeth, Miss
-Vernon, and I ran after you to hear what all<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[141]</a></span>
-this arrangement about the band is. Ah, how
-do you do, Effingham?"</p>
-
-<p>And the two Miss Meredyths were incorporated
-in their party.</p>
-
-<p>The rest of the day passed over pleasantly
-enough; the pictures, the band, and the
-gardens kept them free from those "awful
-pauses" which so often desolate a day spent
-with country friends; while Lord Effingham's
-unwonted exertions to please and amuse Lady
-Desmond, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">pro tem.</i> hushed every doubt, and
-enabled her to bear up heroically under the
-rampant agreeability of poor Mr. Storey at
-dinner.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear," cried his wife, as she
-was putting on her bonnet, previous to her
-departure, "I am sure I have had the most
-delightful day, and, what is the best of all, is
-the prospect of such happiness and success
-before you&mdash;a more elegant man I never met,
-and so taken up with you&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[142]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"What are you talking about?" asked
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham to be sure; and&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"How can you imagine such nonsense, dear
-Mrs. Storey," cried Kate, "it is too absurd,
-for&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>But Lady Desmond's entrance cut short
-their conversation; a profusion of farewell
-speeches followed&mdash;promises from Kate to
-visit them&mdash;assurances from the visitors of
-their content&mdash;a large bouquet from Lady Desmond&mdash;and
-they were gone.</p>
-
-<p>Time rolled on with a pleasant sameness for
-the remainder of the month of trial agreed on
-by the cousins. Kate entered more into the
-little society which assembled two or three
-times a week at Lady Desmond's house, and
-the fair widow herself began a line of conduct
-to which, as she felt Kate would be much opposed,
-she always endeavoured to avoid any
-allusion when they were alone. Colonel Dash<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[143]</a></span>wood
-was unmistakeably "<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">epris</i>" with the
-beautiful widow; and she, though scarcely encouraging
-him, certainly showed a preference
-for his society, intended to pique Lord Effingham.
-Once only did Kate venture to hint at
-the imprudence of such a proceeding.</p>
-
-<p>"It can never be successful, for it is untrue;
-Lord Effingham does not appear to notice it,
-and it is a cruel injustice to a kind-hearted,
-honourable man, who loves you. I am afraid.
-Dear Georgy, this is miserable work, it will
-destroy your better nature&mdash;let us leave this
-place. Forgive me for asking, but how can you
-prefer the uncertain selfishness of the Earl,
-clever and polished as he is, to that frank,
-manly, high-bred, Colonel Dashwood? I wish
-you would love him instead."</p>
-
-<p>"Kate," cried Lady Desmond, almost
-angrily, "how can you accuse me of such
-deceitful conduct? Colonel Dashwood is a
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_144" id="Page_144">[144]</a></span>man of the world and can take care of himself.
-I beg you will not misunderstand me so much
-again. I shall leave this in a few weeks&mdash;till
-then, have patience before you condemn me."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not condemn you, dearest; I only
-wish to see you happy," said Kate, anxiously.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed I believe you, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">cara miâ</i>," said
-Lady Desmond, relaxing from the air of
-hauteur with which she had last spoken. "Let
-us, however, drop the disagreeable subject."</p>
-
-<p>And Kate felt she had been treading on forbidden
-ground.</p>
-
-<p>She retired to her own room after this conversation,
-and seating herself on the window-seat,
-thought long though vaguely of the
-species of unhappy cloud thus thrown over her
-cousin's life, by the tenacious grasp she had
-permitted an absorbing passion to take of her
-heart, hiding from her the beauties and the
-pleasures which might have colored her
-life.</p>
-
-<p>"How terrible to be thus dependent for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[145]</a></span>
-happiness on the smiles or frowns of a cold-hearted
-man. Ah! if my own beloved grandpapa
-was alive, she would listen to him."</p>
-
-<p>And at that remembrance, her thoughts took
-a different direction, and dwelt long and sadly
-on the kind and venerated old man.</p>
-
-<p>Then again the restlessness which ever
-seized her when she reflected on her utter
-dependence, returned with startling force, and
-she felt as if she could, at that moment, set out
-to seek her fortune alone.</p>
-
-<p>"I will do so, ere long," she thought, "I
-cannot live always thus; but, for the present, I
-must wait. Until Mr. Winter's return&mdash;he is so
-wise, so practical&mdash;and I must consider poor
-nurse before myself. Oh, what an utter change
-since the day when I walked into the dear old
-priory drawing-room with my poor Cormac,
-and found Colonel Egerton there."</p>
-
-<p>And his face, and figure, and voice returned
-to her memory at her spirits' call, and she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[146]</a></span>
-longed, with that intensity with which the
-prisoner in the body's cage strains itself
-against its bounds in unutterable pining to
-devour space&mdash;the wish to see him once more,
-to tell him all about her grandfather's death&mdash;her
-own deep sorrows, absorbed her fancy, and
-the hours rolled on while she listened in imagination
-to his rich, full, frank voice&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"Memory may mock thee with the tones</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">So well-known and so dear&mdash;</div>
- <div class="verse">'Tis but an echo of the past,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">That cheats the longing ear;</div>
- <div class="verse">And thou must strive, and think, and hope,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And hush each trembling sigh,</div>
- <div class="verse">And struggle onward in the way</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Thy destined course doth lie."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>"Och! are ye all alone be yerself, asthore?"
-asked nurse, entering, "an' the big salt tears
-rowlin' down yer face. What was it vexed
-ye&mdash;tell yer own nurse?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[147]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Nothing, dear nurse. I was only thinking,"
-returned Kate, drying her eyes, and
-endeavoring to smile; "is it time to dress?"</p>
-
-<p>"Nearly, asthore!"</p>
-
-<p>"I wonder Mr. Winter has not written; my
-last letter remains unanswered," observed Kate,
-after a silence of some minutes.</p>
-
-<p>"Ye'll have one to-morrow, acushla," said
-Mrs. O'Toole, who was always ready to promise
-herself, and those she loved every possible
-good, in prospect. "An faith ye hav'nt
-ten minutes left to dress, an' all thim grand
-officers an' ladies to be here to-night; sure
-I'm as plaised as if I was made Lady Liftinant,
-to see ye among yer own sort again; not goin
-to thim shopkeepin gintry, at Bayswather, me
-heavy hatred to it. Thim Miss Merrydeaths,
-are mighty agreeable young ladies, I see thim
-walkin the other day, laughin like grigs they
-wor; what a quare name they have, sure it's
-no wondher they're wishin to change it."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[148]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Are they?" asked Kate, smiling.</p>
-
-<p>"To be sure they are, it's not natral for
-thim to be sich playful kittins at their time in
-life, but may be if they wer quite, they'd be
-mistakin for full grown cats."</p>
-
-<p>"Really, nurse, you are so severe this
-evening, I must run away from you."</p>
-
-<p>"The blessin iv heaven go with ye, where-ever
-ye go; an jist let me fasten this top hook;
-there now, here's yer gloves, an' there's not the
-like iv ye in the Queen's Coort, let alone
-Hampton Coort," murmured Mrs. O'Toole, as
-Kate kissed her hand to her, and descended to
-the drawing-room.</p>
-
-<p>The weather had been rather broken for the
-last few days, and a dinner at Richmond had
-carried away the greater part of Lady Desmond's
-usual guests. Lady Elizabeth Macdonnell,
-Colonel Dashwood, Lord Effingham,
-the doctor, and one or two venerable specimens
-of whist-players, male and female, completed<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[149]</a></span>
-the party. The evening was cold for July,
-and a small bright wood fire was most acceptable.</p>
-
-<p>The whist players were soon absorbed in
-their rubber, while Kate, Lady Desmond, Lord
-Effingham and Colonel Dashwood, gathered
-round the fire. Kate was seated on a low
-ottoman, Lady Desmond opposite her in an arm
-chair. Lord Effingham leaning back amongst
-the cushions of a sofa close to her, with that
-air of profound quiet and repose, which formed,
-at times, so admirable a mask to his real sentiments
-and impressions. Colonel Dashwood
-stood on the hearth-rug, leaning against the
-mantel-piece, and occasionally indulging himself
-in a study of Lady Desmond's profile, when
-she turned to speak to the Earl. The group
-was interesting; it bespoke refinement, cultivation,
-and civilisation in their best form, yet
-was each member of that little party inflicting
-or about to inflict suffering on the rest.</p>
-
-<p>Little dreaming of such forebodings, Kate<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[150]</a></span>
-sat listening to a discussion between Colonel
-Dashwood and her cousin, on Kean's acting in
-Sheridan Knowles's play, of "Love," sometimes
-losing the thread of the argument in her own
-thoughts, when she was roused by Lady Desmond's
-pronouncing her name; she looked up
-suddenly, ashamed of her inattention, and met
-Lord Effingham's eyes, which wore an expression
-that puzzled her, as if they had been fixed
-on her for a long time.</p>
-
-<p>"I beg your pardon Georgy," she said,
-quickly, "I really did not hear what you
-said."</p>
-
-<p>"It was only to get you to side with me
-against Colonel Dashwood; but if you were
-dreaming instead of listening to me, I do not
-wish for such an ally," said Lady Desmond,
-laughing.</p>
-
-<p>"But," pursued Colonel Dashwood, in continuation
-of some previous remark, "Love," in
-real life, is so different from the strange
-masquerade it wears on the stage."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[151]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"The most perfect description of love is that
-which Byron gives in his Corsair. 'None are
-all evil,' you know the passage," said Lord
-Effingham, rousing himself.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, yes," cried Kate, eagerly, "it is indeed
-exquisite, but, 'John Anderson, my Joe
-John,' conveys the idea of true love a great
-deal more forcibly to my mind."</p>
-
-<p>"Burns," said Lord Effingham, "oh, his
-detestable jargon is too much for me, and I
-cannot see the poetry of a ballad, about some
-stupid old woman, who had been drinking
-'usquebaugh,' till she was maudlin, and then
-proceeds to make love to her 'gude mon,'
-whose eyes she had probably been scratching
-out an hour before."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, shame, shame, to sully the real beauty
-of the fancy by so base a construction!" returned
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Kate worships Burns," said Lady Desmond,
-"she has a print of 'John Anderson,' opposite<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[152]</a></span>
-her bed, that her eyes may light upon it on
-their first opening in the morning."</p>
-
-<p>"It is a sweet ballad, I think, and has an
-honesty about it, I like;" observed Dashwood.</p>
-
-<p>"You are right, Colonel Dashwood," said
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah," said Lady Desmond, "you have
-ruined yourself with Kate, Lord Effingham."</p>
-
-<p>"I hope not; but Miss Vernon must grant
-Byron's description to be perfect," he replied.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, but his is the description of 'Woman's
-Love,' added Lady Desmond, "no man ever
-felt the tenderness&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">'Unmoved by absence, firm in every clime,</div>
- <div class="verse">And still, oh, more than all, untired by time.'</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>which he ascribes to the Corsair."</p>
-
-<p>"And very few women either, Lady Desmond,"
-said the Colonel.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[153]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Certainly not a man so pre-occupied by
-himself, that personal injury or disappointment,
-could drive him into warfare with his
-kind, as Conrad is described to have been,"
-cried Kate, "it is not such a character that
-could experience affection so exquisitely self-forgetful.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">'Which, nor defeated hope, nor baffled wile,</div>
- <div class="verse">Could render sullen, were she near to smile,</div>
- <div class="verse">Nor anger fire, nor sickness fret to vent,</div>
- <div class="verse">On her, one murmur of his discontent,</div>
- <div class="verse">Which still with joy could meet, with calmness part,</div>
- <div class="verse">Lest that his look of grief, should reach her heart.'"</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>Her listeners were silent for a few moments,
-after the tones of her sweet voice, which had
-breathed these lines with so true, so tender an
-emphasis, had ceased.</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham raised himself from his recumbent
-position, with a sudden gleam of light
-in his deep-set eyes.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[154]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Then what description of man do you
-think likely to feel such love?" asked Lady
-Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"One whom we both knew and loved, might
-have felt thus, Georgy, and he, indeed, <em>was</em> a
-good man."</p>
-
-<p>"The contradictions of human nature are
-incomprehensible, even to profounder philosophers
-than you are, Miss Vernon," said the
-Earl, "and it is not always the most irreproachable
-characters who have loved most devotedly.
-But do you not think Conrad justified
-by the injuries hinted at, in bidding defiance
-to a world to which he felt himself
-superior?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I admire Conrad, I confess," replied
-Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"I do not think hatred is ever grand," said
-Kate, rather timidly.</p>
-
-<p>"But it is very natural, sometimes, Miss
-Vernon," observed Dashwood.</p>
-
-<p>"Miss Vernon would have us turn first one<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[155]</a></span>
-cheek and then the other to be smitten," said
-Lord Effingham.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Miss Vernon, colouring, but
-composed, "I would in that sense in which
-we were recommended to do so. If Conrad
-could have loved, as Byron describes, his
-sense of wrong would have led him to feel a
-noble pity for his injurers; revenge would have
-been merged in an effort to teach them truth
-by forgiveness; and which is the grandest
-creature, the man who, freed from the petty
-dominion of self, can look down on his own
-passions from a real eminence, or he who is
-their willing slave; before whose frown</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">'Hope withering fled, and mercy sighed farewell!'"</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>"Bravo, Miss Vernon, you have converted
-me," cried the Colonel.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Lady Desmond, "I believe you
-are right, Kate."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[156]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"You demand perfection," observed the
-Earl, gloomily.</p>
-
-<p>"I fear," said Miss Vernon, half ashamed
-of her enthusiasm, "I have talked a great
-deal too much."</p>
-
-<p>"But the modern school of poets, who draw
-their inspiration from a mushroom, or pig-sty,
-or an old man afflicted with the rheumatism,
-are, I confess, too transcendental for me; I
-cannot interest myself in such anti-poetical
-subjects," remarked Lord Effingham.</p>
-
-<p>"I rather like Longfellow; and Kate, I
-believe, considers him the first of poets," said
-Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"Not exactly," replied Miss Vernon.</p>
-
-<p>"Explain then, why it is that such a school
-has become so prevalent; and in painting too!
-The Royal Academy is filled with 'Dames'
-schools,' markets and kitchen scenery, and
-seems to endeavour in every way to make the
-modern and ancient style as unlike as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_157" id="Page_157">[157]</a></span>
-nature of the art will admit," rejoined the
-Earl.</p>
-
-<p>"It is the confoundedly democratic tone of
-society; none but mechanics have money to
-buy pictures now," said Colonel Dashwood.</p>
-
-<p>"It is the craving for novelty so prevalent
-in the present day," said Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. Winter," said Miss Vernon, "used
-to say, that it was the gradual development
-of truth, that people began to see; it was absurd
-to consider that Oriental life had greater
-elements of poetry than our own, because it
-was farther off; or that princes or dukes, kings
-and queens, were the only subjects fit for
-poetry and painting, but that we began to
-feel that life, high or low, wherever sentient
-beings existed, loved, hated, or struggled, was
-matter enough for poetry or pictures."</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. Winter is Miss Vernon's mentor, you
-must know," observed Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"A capital fellow, he was most kind to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_158" id="Page_158">[158]</a></span>
-Fred Egerton, so hospitable and droll," said the
-Colonel.</p>
-
-<p>Further conversation was interrupted by the
-breaking up of the whist tables, and the subsequent
-departure of the guests.</p>
-
-<p>"Can you take me into town with you to-morrow?"
-asked Lady Elizabeth of Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>"Do you know whether Mrs. Meredyth returns
-from &mdash;&mdash; to-morrow?"</p>
-
-<p>"They do not come back till next week."</p>
-
-<p>"I am sorry for it; I wished to ask one of
-the girls to stay with Miss Vernon, she will be
-all alone."</p>
-
-<p>"How long do you remain in town?" asked
-Lord Effingham, carelessly.</p>
-
-<p>"Until Friday; I cannot get off a dinner
-at Mrs. &mdash;&mdash;'s; and when I am in town, I
-may as well stay and hear Sir Robert Peel
-speak on the &mdash;&mdash; Bill; they say it will come
-before the House on Thursday night. But I
-am uneasy about leaving Kate."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_159" id="Page_159">[159]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Well, Miss Vernon, if you are inconsolable
-for the want of my cousin's society, I will
-send an express to recall them."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, I do not mind in the least," said Kate,
-hastily, "that is, of course&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Do not finish, Miss Vernon; you have
-deeply wounded my feelings for those young
-ladies," returned Lord Effingham, smiling,
-then turning to Lady Desmond; "I shall probably
-see you at the House on Thursday evening;
-I should like to hear Sir Robert."</p>
-
-<p>And after a few more remarks the party
-separated.</p>
-
-<p>The next day was Wednesday; and Lady
-Desmond delayed her departure for the dinner
-party at Mrs. &mdash;&mdash;'s, as late as she prudently
-could, leaving Kate with evident reluctance,
-and even twice returning from the door to give
-her some parting injunction, and another last
-kiss. Kate felt in unusually good spirits; she
-was unspeakably grateful for her cousin's affection.
-And nurse had proved a true prophet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_160" id="Page_160">[160]</a></span>ess;
-for she had received a letter from Winter
-that morning, thanking her for accepting his
-gift, and giving her his address at a little
-frontier town, "where," he added, "if you
-write at once, I can receive a letter, but after
-that, you must wait till you hear from me."
-Mrs. Winter, he said, was beginning to get
-more reconciled to foreign ways. The little
-artist was evidently enjoying himself; and the
-kind, cordial, interested tone of her letter,
-short though it was, gave Kate a sensation of
-light-heartedness to which she had been long a
-stranger. She took a pleasant walk with
-nurse in Bushy Park, and made that worthy
-individual join her at tea.</p>
-
-<p>Her first act, the next day, was to write a
-long and cheerful letter in reply to Winter's.
-She dilated much upon the kindness she received
-from Lady Desmond, on her contentment
-under her roof; yet she also dwelt on
-her anxiety to embrace her tried and true
-friends once more; and closed her letter with<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_161" id="Page_161">[161]</a></span>
-an exhortation as to their return before the
-winter set in; this missive despatched, she
-determined to take advantage of her unusually
-good spirits, and turning to the piano, practised
-delightedly for nearly an hour. She fancied,
-as exercise gradually restored flexibility
-to her voice, that it had acquired more richness
-and power from its long rest; hitherto she had
-only contributed instrumental music as her
-quota to the entertainment of her cousin's
-guests, and she proceeded to try an air of
-Gilpin's, to which she had adapted some lines
-of his sister's, thinking she would surprise
-and please Lady Desmond on her return. The
-music, which was simple, but most expressive,
-and very <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">sostenuto</i>, suited both her taste and
-her powers; she lingered over it with a sense
-of keen enjoyment; and when, at length, the
-last notes died away, she heaved a light sigh,
-partly the effect of fatigue; it was echoed, and
-turning with a sudden start, she beheld Lord
-Effingham standing near the window.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[162]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Can you forgive my ill-bred intrusion?"
-he said, advancing towards her. "I have been
-calling on Colonel Dashwood; and walking
-round here, before mounting my horse, saw
-the garden-gate open, heard music, yielded
-to the temptation, and entered through the
-window."</p>
-
-<p>"But my cousin is not yet returned," said
-Kate, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>"No, she does not return till to-morrow. I
-was aware of that; but I was not aware that
-you sang, and sang as you do. Why have I
-never heard you before?"</p>
-
-<p>"I have not felt inclined to hear my own
-voice."</p>
-
-<p>"And I," interrupted Lord Effingham,
-"would never desire to hear any other!
-speaking or singing, it is ever music to me!"</p>
-
-<p>Kate stepped back in amazement at this
-address, incapable of reply; and Lord Effingham,
-after a short pause, as if expecting her
-to speak, went on rapidly&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[163]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"The words, 'I love you,' are too miserably
-weak to express what I feel. I have waited
-long to discover what your feelings are; you
-have not afforded me the slightest clue to
-them. I can endure your strange unconsciousness
-no longer, and am determined to lay
-mine bare before you in unmistakeable array.
-Kate! Miss Vernon, I know our natures are
-wide apart as heaven and earth, but still I can
-feel, in my inmost heart, that you have attained
-to a better and purer atmosphere than I have
-ever breathed. I know, that in your hands, I
-should be different from what I am. I tell
-you, that every shadow of good in me clings
-round you; and if you do not love me now, at
-least think before you&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham," cried Kate, covering her
-face with one hand, and extending the other
-before her, "give me a moment's thought to
-distinguish if this be not some horrid dream!"</p>
-
-<p>"No, it is no dream, Miss Vernon," said<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[164]</a></span>
-Lord Effingham, recalled, by her evident alarm,
-from his passionate outburst.</p>
-
-<p>She uncovered her eyes, and looking steadily
-at him, exclaimed&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"How could you act with such dissimulation?
-Why have you so deceived us?"</p>
-
-<p>"I have not deceived you; nor am I answerable
-for the self-deception of others; but
-this is no answer."</p>
-
-<p>"But my cousin, Lady Desmond," resumed
-Kate, still too bewildered to think of, or choose
-her words, "you love her. What, what is
-the meaning of this extraordinary address to
-me?"</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham's pale, dark cheek did not
-change its colour by a shade; his firm, resolute
-mouth assumed even a sterner expression
-than usual, as he replied&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Think over the past few months, and say
-honestly has there been a trace of the lover
-discoverable in my manner towards your cousin;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[165]</a></span>
-except by eyes prompted to find out what did
-not exist."</p>
-
-<p>"But," said Kate, anxious to screen her
-cousin, and not to admit too much, though ill
-able to cope with the far-seeing accomplished
-man of the world, "people said you were engaged
-to her, you must have loved her."</p>
-
-<p>"Never," cried Lord Effingham. "Why
-talk of Lady Desmond? I never loved her&mdash;I
-may have admired her. I may have liked to
-feel my power over a proud spirit; but you,
-and you only, have I ever loved&mdash;loved with
-all the energy of my better nature; hear me,
-Kate!" and he threw himself at her feet; "do
-not turn from me with such repugnance&mdash;I
-will wait patiently till you think differently of
-me. I have overcome difficulties for far lesser
-objects; for you I will conquer myself&mdash;speak
-to me. I have borne suspense long, in silence&mdash;can
-you love me?"</p>
-
-<p>"No," said Kate, deliberately drawing the
-hand he had seized, quickly from his grasp,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[166]</a></span>
-"I cannot love you, for I cannot trust you;
-you think you love <em>me</em>, because you see you
-have no influence over my heart; Lord Effingham,
-you do not know what love is, you must
-change your nature first."</p>
-
-<p>"Ha," said he, quickly, and sullenly, "but
-you do, you love another."</p>
-
-<p>"I entreat of you to leave me, and end this
-distressing scene, I feel too shocked, too agitated
-to speak more to you; go, Lord Effingham,
-and let us not meet again."</p>
-
-<p>"I <em>will</em> see you again, however," replied
-Lord Effingham. "Think, Miss Vernon, think,
-before you utterly reject me; I love you, I did
-not know I was capable of the love with which
-you have inspired me; I am cold and indifferent
-to the world, the warmth and tenderness of
-my inmost heart shall be lavished on you; you
-like to help those who are in distress; think
-what ample means of good would be at the
-disposal of the Countess of Effingham! What
-is there in me so repellant to you?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[167]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"This is useless my Lord, I have never
-thought of you even as a friend; yet I do not
-wish to speak harshly. You do not know the
-injury this unfortunate disclosure will prove to
-me&mdash;I&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"There can be no necessity to inform your
-cousin of what has passed. Let me come here
-as before, and endeavour to&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"No!" cried Kate, indignantly, "I have
-been too long, unconsciously, aiding deception
-that I abhor, and my first act, when we meet,
-shall be to inform my cousin most fully. Now
-go! I beg you will leave me, Lord Effingham,"
-she added, with an air of decision and <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">hauteur</i>.</p>
-
-<p>"I obey you, but I do not, and will not consider
-the subject ended here." He drew
-nearer, looked at her a moment, and exclaimed,
-"No, I will not easily relinquish the brightest
-hope my life ever held out." Then turning
-away quickly, stepped through the window,
-descended from the verandah, and was out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[168]</a></span>
-sight before Kate could draw the long breath
-of relief with which she hailed his departure.</p>
-
-<p>She little knew the trial yet awaiting her,
-though she looked forward with no small
-dread to the task of disclosing this strange
-interview to her cousin.</p>
-
-<p>Wrapt in mingling emotions of amazement
-and alarm, Kate had not heard a light step in
-the adjoining room; and Lord Effingham, too
-much engrossed by the passion of the moment,
-was equally regardless. Both had been standing
-near the window by which he had entered,
-while an unseen witness gazed with the fascination
-of dismay and bitter mortification,
-through the opposite door, which was partly
-open.</p>
-
-<p>Something had occurred to postpone the
-debate which Lady Desmond had wished to
-hear; and scarcely regretting the disappointment
-in her anxiety to return to Kate, had left
-town early, and on her arrival at home, having<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[169]</a></span>
-asked if Miss Vernon was at home, and being
-answered in the affirmative, walked at once to
-the morning-room they usually occupied; as
-she crossed the drawing-room communicating
-with it, she heard, to her astonishment, Lord
-Effingham's well-known voice, at the moment
-he raised it exclaiming&mdash;"Why talk of
-Lady Desmond? I never loved her, &amp;c."&mdash;and
-reached the door in time to see him at
-Kate's feet, as she had longed to see him at
-her own. Every syllable of that torturing sentence
-seemed burning into her heart, as retaining
-sufficient self-command to retire, unseen,
-she rushed to her own chamber to hide from
-every eye, but that of the All-seeing, the
-awful agonies of a desolated spirit.</p>
-
-<p>With agonised distinctness, she reviewed
-the last three months, and in the new and sudden
-light thus forced upon her, was compelled
-to own, that, had not previous impressions
-blinded her judgment, she might have seen<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[170]</a></span>
-she was not Lord Effingham's sole attraction
-in his frequent visits. Then again came the
-recollection of a thousand allusions to former
-scenes and passages in their intercourse, capable
-of a double signification, on which she had
-put but one; a thousand looks and tones,
-slight in themselves, but now irrefragable
-proofs that she had been duped; and Kate,
-could she have been a party in the deception,
-she to whom all the weakness, so carefully
-hidden from others, had been fully displayed,
-she on whom Lady Desmond had ever looked
-as the very personation of truth. Impossible!
-yet why was Lord Effingham admitted secretly?
-Why did Kate seem so ready and willing to be
-left alone? Why did she so pertinaciously
-endeavour to turn her from her unfortunate
-attachment; and Lady Desmond groaned aloud
-as these, to her tempest-tossed mind, incontrovertible
-proofs of treachery rose up before it.
-"But his influence is irresistible, and how
-was she to be wiser than I was. Why am I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[171]</a></span>
-called beautiful?" And she flew to the glass:
-it flung back the image of a countenance so
-darkened and disturbed by the storm within,
-that she shrank from it. "Ah, she has the
-lovely freshness of youth, and I, why have I
-outlived it?" Then she remembered the evident
-joy of Lord Effingham, the first day he
-met her at Richmond; she recalled the rapture
-with, which she had hailed that joy, "and but
-for her all might have been well; if she had
-been candid with me, how much I might have
-been spared; but such deliberate treachery."
-And again and again did her troubled thoughts
-work round the painful circle of unanticipated
-mortification which had so suddenly risen up
-around her; each time returning with redoubled
-rage and bitterness to Kate's supposed duplicity,
-for it never occurred to her to doubt that Lord
-Effingham's love was reciprocated.</p>
-
-<p>How long she had lain, her head buried in
-the cushions of the sofa, striving to find some
-loop-hole through which her wounded self-love<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[172]</a></span>
-might creep from the storm that beat it to the
-ground she could not tell. Ages seemed to
-have passed since she left the carriage, which
-had conveyed her to so much misery; but at
-last the door was opened, and Kate entered,
-she looked pale and agitated, and exclaimed&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I had no idea you had returned, dear
-Georgy."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond raised her eyes with such a
-look of dark resentment, of concentrated indignation,
-that, innocent as she was, Kate recoiled
-before it with the confusion of guilt.</p>
-
-<p>"Ay, shrink back from my presence," said
-her cousin, in low, deep tones, as if she dared
-not lose control of her voice. "Traitress!
-long practice might have taught you more art
-than to quail at my first glance. Lord Effingham
-can place full faith in a wife, who, for
-months, deliberately deceived and duped her
-friend, leading her to pour forth the last secrets
-she would have confided to a rival. False,
-false heart, I loved you, I trusted you; I heaped<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[173]</a></span>
-benefits upon you; I cared for my wealth only
-because it might be of use to you; and, in return,
-you have crept into the very sanctuary
-of my soul to rob and desecrate it; is this the
-truth, the honor of D'Arcy Vernon's grand-child?"</p>
-
-<p>She had risen in her wrath, and stood&mdash;her
-long black hair thrown wildly back&mdash;nervously
-grasping the back of the sofa, on which she
-had lain, and gazing with pitiless eyes on the
-slight shrinking figure before her.</p>
-
-<p>"Georgy, hear me, I implore you," cried
-Kate, trembling in every limb, and feeling, in
-spite of her conscious rectitude, as though she
-was guilty, before her cousin's impassioned
-reproaches.</p>
-
-<p>"Hush," returned Lady Desmond, with a
-wild gesture of command and horror, "let me
-hear no well-arranged tissue of falsehoods.
-Your very voice is pregnant with dissimulation;
-go&mdash;relieve me of the sight of so much
-treachery."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[174]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Not till you have heard me," said Kate,
-with firmness, recalled, by Lady Desmond's
-unjust reproaches, from the excessive commiseration
-which at first had unnerved her.
-"Why do you suppose I am a participator in
-Lord Effingham's deception? Why do you
-imagine that an acquaintance of but three
-months' standing could so influence me, as to
-change my entire previous principles? You
-are excited. You are wretched. And God
-knows how deeply I feel for you; but, Georgy,
-do not be unjust."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh I have the boon of your pity," returned
-Lady Desmond, between her clenched
-teeth. "But I am not yet reduced to accept
-it. Lord Effingham shall know how his future
-wife was trusted, and how she betrayed. Go&mdash;I
-desire you to leave me; I can support
-your presence no longer."</p>
-
-<p>"I will leave you," said Kate, with mournful
-sweetness, "but I leave you this solemn assurance,
-that however you may misjudge me,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[175]</a></span>
-I would rather die than wed a man I dread so
-much, and love so little, as Lord Effingham."</p>
-
-<p>"Ha," said Lady Desmond, drawing a long
-breath, her wild indignant rage stilled for a
-moment by the unmistakeable truth which spoke
-in Kate's voice and manner. "I must think.
-But go, guilty or innocent, we can never be
-the same to each other again."</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[176]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER VI.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">ARRANGEMENTS.</p>
-
-
-<p>With every pulse tumultuously throbbing,
-Kate closed her door, and sat down to attempt
-the disentanglement of the wild agitation and
-confusion into which all her thoughts and
-anticipations had been thrown by this dreadful
-outburst from her cousin. Never since the day
-that Winter had first intimated to her his
-opinion of the state of their affairs, had she
-experienced the same sudden sense of insecurity
-and desolation. Then she had had a
-full and sufficient object, round which to rally
-her energies and her courage; then she had
-had clear-headed and warm-hearted friends to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[177]</a></span>
-advise and to uphold her. Now the one only
-friend, who was all that was left to her of the
-past, seemed suddenly rent from her by the
-most cruel and injurious suspicions, and a great
-gulf fixed between them. For Lady Desmond's
-last words&mdash;"Guilty or innocent, we can never
-be the same to each other again"&mdash;rung in her
-ears like an ill omened prophecy. Yet her
-own immediate suffering was almost lost sight
-of in her deep compassion for, and sympathy
-with, her cousin.</p>
-
-<p>She had anticipated a wild outbreak of indignant
-sorrow when Lady Desmond should
-first hear the terrible solution of his mysterious
-conduct, with which Lord Effingham had astonished
-the real object of his affections. But
-that she should be accused of deliberate treachery,
-of such complete and constant dissimulation,
-had never entered into her heart to
-conceive. A warm flush of indignant color rose
-to her brow as she thought of the injustice,
-and she murmured, almost aloud&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[178]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"She should have known me better. She
-who knew my childhood; how dare she think
-me so inferior to herself? She must, when she
-is calmer, acknowledge her error."</p>
-
-<p>Then Kate recalled to her memory the whole
-scene, and wondered, in vain, how her cousin
-had been informed of Lord Effingham's presence,
-and the purpose of his strange visit.
-Continued thought suggested that she must
-have overheard what had taken place. Yet, if
-so, she must have heard Kate's utter rejection
-of him&mdash;this was a painful enigma. How&mdash;how
-was she to clear herself? She knew not
-from what source Lady Desmond's impression
-arose, and she was utterly ignorant in what
-way she should proceed to free her cousin's
-mind from the injurious doubts which had
-taken possession of it; for her indignation was
-soon merged in tender pity and compassion for
-her wretched relative.</p>
-
-<p>"Unhappy Georgy," she exclaimed, "not
-content with the real injury and mortification<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[179]</a></span>
-you have sustained, you torture yourself doubly
-by believing me&mdash;me, to whom you acted more
-than a sister's&mdash;a mother's part&mdash;so false, so
-worthless; but how am I to justify myself?
-to convince you?"</p>
-
-<p>Then rose up, in formidable array, the
-gossip of servants, and worse, <em>dear friends</em>, to
-be met and silenced, and the anxious desire to
-save her cousin's name from the flattering
-comments of the rather unmerciful, though
-well-bred <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">coterie</i>, amongst whom they were
-placed. Above all the predominant idea in
-poor Kate's mind was that her interval of
-repose was at an end&mdash;that the only home to
-which she had a shadow of claim was rent
-from her&mdash;that to remain the recipient of
-benefits from an estranged benefactress, was
-impossible&mdash;that she was indeed desolate.
-Mingling with all this, was the memory of her
-grandfather's implicit trust, his unwearied
-tenderness&mdash;that it had gone from her life <em>for
-ever</em>.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[180]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Yes, she must go&mdash;she must seek some other
-home&mdash;she must earn one. And nurse&mdash;her
-curiosity must be baffled. And time was stealing
-fast away while she thought so painfully
-and ineffectually; something must be done;
-and at once, she rose with a fervent ejaculation&mdash;"God
-guide me for the best," and sat down
-to write to Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>As she opened her desk, the recollection of
-the happy letter she had that morning despatched
-to Winter flashed across her mind.</p>
-
-<p>"And when shall I hear from him again?"
-she thought&mdash;a glance at her watch. "Ah,
-post-hour is long past; and what else could I
-write without betraying Georgy? and she must
-be my first consideration. Would to Heaven
-Mr. Winter was in England; but it is in vain
-to wish."</p>
-
-<p>And overpowered by her complete isolation,
-she threw herself on her knees beside her bed,
-and, hiding her face in the clothes, gave way
-to the thick coming sobs that shook her frame,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[181]</a></span>
-and ceased only when they had exhausted the
-power to express such emotion.</p>
-
-<p>At length she arose, calmed by this outburst,
-and restored to more faith than she had hitherto
-felt by the unspoken prayer, in which she had
-silently laid the grief she was incapable of
-uttering before the All-seeing and Mighty
-Spirit, who alone witnessed her sorrow, pressing
-her hand against her forehead, as if to
-condense her thoughts, she wrote:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
-<p>"I must see and speak to you. Have you
-not thought, in the silence of the last few
-hours, of a thousand indications that I am not
-the base wretch you fancied me. Remember,
-we have shared the same home, where the very
-soul of honour presided. Look into your own
-heart, see how far that has impressed you, and
-judge me by yourself. I never overcame,
-although I tried, the secret repugnance with
-which Lord Effingham inspired me&mdash;an instinct
-which his conduct this day has justified; and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[182]</a></span>
-until this day, I had not the remotest idea of
-his preference for me. Be just, Georgina, my
-own dear cousin. Oh, with what true, what
-unbroken affection I write these words. You
-cannot doubt me.</p>
-
-<p>"I must see you&mdash;there is much for us to
-arrange&mdash;and at once; we must guard ourselves
-from the animadversions of the people
-about us; let me see you; tell me why&mdash;tell
-me what suggested the terrible reproaches with
-which you overwhelmed me? I have ever
-loved you&mdash;ever linked you with all that is
-dearest and most sacred in my memory. Oh,
-judge me by your own heart, and say could a
-stranger, a man known but yesterday, of whose
-previous conduct, selfish, petty, unmanly, as it
-was, I was fully aware; could he make me so
-utterly forget my holiest memories, my deepest
-obligations, my loyalty to my sex, my faith to
-you! in much you are my superior; but I am
-as true to you as you are to yourself."</p></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[183]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She read this over, felt dissatisfied with it,
-yet despairing of writing anything that could
-please her more, hastily added&mdash;"I wait your
-reply," signed her name, and, unlocking her
-door, stole lightly to Lady Desmond's, she
-knocked, and, after a short delay, Lady Desmond
-asked, in a constrained voice&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Is that Louise? I have a dreadful headache,
-and am lying down&mdash;I cannot be disturbed."</p>
-
-<p>"It is not Louise&mdash;I have a note for you."
-Another pause, and the door was unlocked.
-Lady Desmond, still in her carriage dress, put
-out her hand, silently took the note, and closed
-the door.</p>
-
-<p>Kate again returned to her own room and to
-her troubled thoughts, thankful for nurse's
-absence, unusual at that hour, and feeling
-somewhat relieved by having put things <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">en
-train</i> for an interview with her cousin; her
-natural fortitude, of which she possessed so
-much, began to rise out of the terrible wreck of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[184]</a></span>
-pleasant things which had weighed it down,
-and to consider the future with greater clearness,
-when Louise entered about an hour after
-the delivery of the note to Lady Desmond, and
-close upon their usual dinner hour.</p>
-
-<p>"Miladi's love, and she is not at all well;
-she wish to see <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Mademoiselle sur l'instant</i>."</p>
-
-<p>Kate would have faced the most deadly peril
-with far less tremor than her really much-loved
-cousin; she felt, however, that the message
-sounded friendly, little imagining that "Miladi's
-love" was an addition of Louise's, who
-never could conceive one to Miss Vernon unprefaced
-by some such sugary prefix. Kate
-found Lady Desmond lying on the sofa, looking
-deadly pale and exhausted; she held the note
-in her hand.</p>
-
-<p>"You are right," she exclaimed abruptly, as
-Kate shut the door and stood before her; "we
-have much to arrange, for inaction is torture."
-Her voice sounded deep and broken, different
-from its usual harmonious refinement. She<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[185]</a></span>
-rose and paced the room. "Your note has
-raised a thousand recollections which range
-themselves on your side, Kate. I must, I dare
-not doubt you; there would be no confidence
-left to me on earth if I did!&mdash;let us mention it
-no more. No!" motioning Kate back, as she
-sprang to throw her arms round her at these
-words&mdash;"I am in no mood for tenderness.
-Whether intentionally or not you have inflicted
-terrible sufferings upon me. I repeat, I cannot
-doubt you&mdash;it would be too revolting&mdash;I could
-not endure such a double trial. I may be very
-wrong, but I cannot look upon you as I did,
-not yet at least; and your question, how I
-acquired the accursed knowledge, I will never
-answer, and you must never ask again: he
-need not have enhanced his love for you by his
-triumph over me!" She muttered these words
-between her teeth, glancing darkly at Kate.
-"I sent for you," she resumed hurriedly, "for
-your note reminded me of what was due to
-myself. We must subdue ourselves, and act<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[186]</a></span>
-our part for the audience of Hampton Court.
-I have thought of a plausible tale; attend to
-me; learn your part, and remember you owe
-me the reparation of performing it well. I am
-not well. God knows that is true! I have
-received news that compels me to leave for
-Ireland as soon as I can. We will endure
-each other for a week, Kate. I little thought
-I could ever speak so to you. My own dear
-Kate, come&mdash;yet, no, no! I cannot embrace
-you. Oh! I am most miserable, to be debarred
-in this wretchedness from the only sympathy
-that could have soothed me."</p>
-
-<p>"But you have it," answered Kate, in accents
-of the softest, deepest tenderness.</p>
-
-<p>"I will not have your pity," resuming her
-troubled walk. "I will not have that Devil
-sneer at my credulity. I will wait and see
-before I take you to my arms again. Yes, we
-must part for a time. I could not bear the
-alternate affection for, and doubt of you, which
-sweep across my mind. I will see if he cannot<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[187]</a></span>
-yet prevail on you to overcome that repugnance
-which&mdash;pah! repugnance to <em>him</em>! Well, Kate,
-do not mind me; I cannot speak coherently;
-remember we have a part to play for a while
-together, then separately; and where&mdash;where
-can you go? I am selfish&mdash;I hate myself; but
-for a short time we will separate; and Kate,
-you will not disdain&mdash;you will not forget it is
-my duty to provide for you. I promised your
-grandfather!&mdash;and, oh! heavens, how am I
-fulfilling the guardianship I undertook! But
-you will command all that your lightest fancy
-may prompt. I am rich, and after a while we
-will be together."</p>
-
-<p>"Georgy," said Kate, with calmness inexpressibly
-sad, "I see you do not yet believe
-me, but in time you must; till then we need
-not embitter each other's lives. When you
-leave this for Ireland, I will go to Mrs. Storey;
-she has often invited me; from that I can
-write to you. The Winters will be home ere
-long, and when, in God's good time, you <em>know</em><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[188]</a></span>
-that I never deceived or betrayed you, we will
-meet again. I have enough for every present
-want, and you must not think me so much
-beneath yourself that I would accept the charity
-of her who thinks me unworthy. There is only
-one favour I must ask&mdash;it is to help me in
-keeping nurse&mdash;my poor dear nurse&mdash;(the only
-one who still loves and trusts Kate Vernon)&mdash;in
-the dark as regards this unhappy breach; it
-would break her heart if she knew of it&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"I will do as you desire; but, Kate, you
-must allow me&mdash;&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Hush!" said Kate, with a slight but
-inexpressibly dignified gesture of rejection,
-that compelled Lady Desmond to silence. "I
-am most anxious about nurse; I cannot take
-her with me, and I feel her to be a friend too
-dear, too closely associated with all I love, to
-part from as I would a common servant;" and
-the swelling of Kate's heart at the idea of
-breaking this last link choked her utterance.</p>
-
-<p>"She shall come with me&mdash;she shall stay<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[189]</a></span>
-with me," said Lady Desmond eagerly, "until
-you join me again; it is natural that you should
-accept Mrs. Storey's invitation, still more so
-that you should not crowd her establishment
-unnecessarily. Nurse will surely not object to
-a separation for a few weeks, she will not think
-it strange."</p>
-
-<p>"Leave nurse to me," said Kate, anxious to
-relieve her cousin's mind of the slight uneasiness
-which inflected her voice; "she will be
-difficult to manage, but you may trust me with
-<em>her</em>."</p>
-
-<p>"There is nothing to be managed," said
-Lady Desmond, with cold hauteur. "But we
-have agreed to endeavour to avoid any gossip
-that might arise from &mdash;&mdash;; though why
-should I fear any. You will write to Mrs.
-Storey, and see nurse, and to-morrow&mdash;&mdash;."
-Lady Desmond paused, gazed stedfastly at
-vacancy, and then drawing a long breath, continued,
-in a tone of intense resolution, "To-morrow
-I shall receive those people as usual."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[190]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Oh, impossible," cried Kate, in genuine
-anxiety that her cousin should not overtask her
-strength.</p>
-
-<p>"Why impossible, Miss Vernon?" asked
-Lady Desmond, in a constrained voice. "Does
-your 'instinctive repugnance' to Lord Effingham
-permit so high an estimate of his fascinating
-powers, that you imagine self-esteem
-and self-respect rendered incapable of acting
-under his indifference; you little know me. I
-tell you, if he presents himself here to-morrow
-evening, neither of you shall see the slightest
-change in my manner&mdash;neither of you shall see
-a trace of the torture&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Georgy, dear Georgy," cried Kate, whose
-candid mind revolted from the strange constraint
-forced on it by her cousin, "be just to
-me, be merciful to yourself, I know it is agony
-to doubt me."</p>
-
-<p>"God knows it is," she returned, "but at
-present I cannot trust you or any one, my soul
-is embittered; time only can show me the truth;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[191]</a></span>
-and restore me to myself&mdash;to you. Kate, if you
-have deceived me; no! you could not! there is
-no falsehood in that face! Oh that I could read
-your heart; <em>if</em> you have deceived me, God forgive
-you, if not, bear with me, pardon me."</p>
-
-<p>Her voice sank to the softest, tenderest accents,
-"Remember, I never had the holy love
-for father or mother to fill and soften my heart;
-to teach it true affection; to plant in it a pure
-unselfish principle, a sacrificing spirit whereby
-to test the seeming passion offered to me. <em>You</em>
-have known this, you have this invaluable
-touchstone, this unerring balance wherewith to
-weigh the false jewels which hollow-hearted
-men of the world offer, in exchange for real
-gems, fresh truth and warm devotion. Yes
-you may have weighed his and found them
-wanting; but you could never love him, as I do,
-as I did; we are alike, as substance and shadow,
-there is not a change of his countenance, an
-inflection of his voice that I cannot read; shame
-shame to speak so! and I have known so little<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[192]</a></span>
-happiness, I have sought my whole life for some
-unknown treasure to catch the first glimpse of
-it as it was lost to me for ever."</p>
-
-<p>And at last the dark, burning eyes were suffused
-with the blessed refreshment of tears; but
-Lady Desmond's were always stormy tears; and
-Kate stole nearer to her in the tenderest most
-loving sympathy for that poor, proud, wounded
-heart&mdash;yet silently, for she feared the sound of
-her voice might recall her cousin's suspicions,
-and she would spurn her from her&mdash;kneeling at
-her feet and kissing the hand that hung down
-in inactivity bespeaking the language of despair.</p>
-
-<p>At last Lady Desmond pressed the hand that
-held hers so lovingly, and drawing Kate slightly
-to her, muttered in tones more like her own than
-Kate had yet heard, "leave me now, while I feel
-I have wronged you, ask me no more at present,"
-and grateful even for these words Kate
-slowly retired.</p>
-
-<p>The next evening did indeed display the
-wonderful strength which pride can lend a mor<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[193]</a></span>tified
-spirit, never had Lady Desmond played
-the part of a gracious graceful hostess to
-greater perfection; the only difference which
-Kate's watchful eye could detect, was a slight
-increase of animation in her manner, and of
-brilliancy in her conversation; just enough to
-lead careless observers to imagine that she enjoyed
-the prospect of her intended visit to Ireland,
-which with many politely expressed regrets
-she announced to her company.</p>
-
-<p>The evening glided on with more than usual
-agreeability, to the guests at least; the only grave
-faces present were Miss Vernon's and Colonel
-Dashwood's, he seemed quite upset by the intelligence
-of their approaching departure, and
-joined but little in the noisy and probably sincere
-regrets of the rest. Burton was there, he
-had not been a frequent guest, having been
-generally quartered with another detachment.
-"I regret to find that you are going to leave
-this place, Miss Vernon, just as I am about to
-take up my abode in it," said Burton during<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[194]</a></span>
-the loudest notes of a bravura sung by Miss
-Meredyth, "I have heard so much, yet I seem
-doomed to see so little of you."</p>
-
-<p>"I did not know I was so famous," replied
-Kate, absently.</p>
-
-<p>"Nor am I the only one, 'left lamenting,' by
-this sudden flight; look at Dashwood! then we
-all fear that Miss Vernon will not return from
-Ireland," said Burton.</p>
-
-<p>Kate, whose attention was fixed upon the
-opening door answered by a smile so palpably
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">distrait</i>, that Burton, fancying he guessed
-the secret of her watchfulness, smiled too as
-he thought of the sincere affection with which
-she had inspired his absent friend, and said to
-himself, "She would be a happier woman following
-Fred. on a baggage waggon, than riding
-over the world in that <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">roué</i> Effingham's coronetted
-carriage. She does not think so at present
-however, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">ainsi va le monde</i>."</p>
-
-<p>Here the song ended, and Miss Vernon was
-called on to play; she thought sadly of her
-yesterday's practice and its unhappy termina<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[195]</a></span>tion,
-and it required no small effort of self
-command to take her place at the piano; she
-played mechanically, and without her usual
-soul-touching expression.</p>
-
-<p>"Pray Lady Desmond," she heard Mrs.
-Meredyth ask, "can you give me any account
-of my nephew Effingham; will he be here this
-evening?"</p>
-
-<p>"I really do not know," replied Lady Desmond
-in wonderfully natural, unconstrained
-tones, "Miss Vernon, I fancy, saw him last; did
-Lord Effingham say he would come here this
-evening, Kate?"</p>
-
-<p>"He said nothing, that is, I do not remember,"
-replied Kate, confused and astonished at the
-coolness of this appeal. Lady Desmond glanced
-at her one speaking look that roused her to
-instant self-possession, though it made her heart
-beat.</p>
-
-<p>"I am told, Lord Effingham started this
-morning for the Isle of Wight," said Colonel
-Dashwood with a gravity unusual for him.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[196]</a></span>
-"Hauton was over at Richmond and heard it
-there, something about his new yacht I believe,
-they said he will return next week."</p>
-
-<p>"<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Figurez vous</i>," cried the second Miss Meredyth
-whose style was foreign and fantastic,
-"my cousin's dismay when he returns and finds
-Lady Desmond flown."</p>
-
-<p>"Perhaps it will be no great surprise to him,"
-said Colonel Dashwood in a low voice to Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I am sure it will," she replied.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond invited the whole party, then
-assembled, to meet again, on the Wednesday
-evening following at her house; her last evening
-she said, as she intended starting on Thursday
-for London to Ireland.</p>
-
-<p>"Kate," she observed carelessly to one or
-two of her latest guests "is not half so true an
-Irishwoman as I am; she will not, I believe,
-accompany me at once, but lingers for a few
-weeks with some friends in town."</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt the tears rise to her eyes at hearing
-the separation so deplored, so dreaded by her,
-thus indifferently announced by her cousin, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[197]</a></span>
-she stood silent and dejected by the piano.</p>
-
-<p>After they were left alone, Lady Desmond
-threw herself into an arm chair and covering
-her face with her hands groaned aloud, then
-looking up, after a moment's silence, she showed
-a countenance so changed, so haggard, now that
-the strong curb of her will over her secret
-emotions was relaxed, that Miss Vernon absolutely
-started with surprise.</p>
-
-<p>"Have you written to Mrs. Storey?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes."</p>
-
-<p>"Have you spoken to nurse?"</p>
-
-<p>"No; I thought it best to defer that until
-I got an answer."</p>
-
-<p>"As you choose."</p>
-
-<p>She rose slowly, and walked to the door,
-then turning, said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I have accepted every invitation offered to
-me&mdash;we have not an evening disengaged; but
-if you feel bored by them, or wish, for any
-reason, to remain at home, do not think yourself
-obliged to accompany me." She bowed,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[198]</a></span>
-then again pausing. "You look wearied,
-Kate, would you like nurse to sleep in your
-room?"</p>
-
-<p>"No."</p>
-
-<p>"Solitude is best for both, I believe."</p>
-
-<p>And she left the room gloomily, darkly.</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt relieved when she was gone, and
-retired quickly. To pray to God, to think
-long and painfully, to count the night-watches,
-and, at last, to sink into a sound, sweet sleep,
-and charming but indistinct dreams of her
-cousin clasping her to her heart, and entreating
-forgiveness for the wrong she had done
-her.</p>
-
-<p>"Is it very late, nurse?" she asked, on
-opening her eyes the following morning, and
-seeing her faithful friend standing by the bed-side.</p>
-
-<p>"No, agrah, not to say late; but me lady is
-aitin' her breakfast up in her own room, an' I
-wanted to rouse ye up to have a word wid ye,
-afore she was callin' fur ye. Will ye have a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[199]</a></span>
-little taste iv toast an' a cup iv tay quite an'
-aisy up here?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, thank you, nurse, I should like it
-very much. I will ring presently."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. O'Toole re-appeared with a most
-tempting round of buttered toast, a tiny tea-pot,
-and a capacious cup, and placed them
-before her nurseling.</p>
-
-<p>"There, ait a bit, jewil; an' tell me what's
-the manin' iv this scrimmige iv movin' all iv a
-suddin'?"</p>
-
-<p>"I thought you were aware that Lady Desmond
-intended going to Ireland when we left
-this?"</p>
-
-<p>"To be sure, I did&mdash;but sure, isn't it mighty
-suddint? an' are we to be off body an' bones
-on Thursday next?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, nurse, I believe so."</p>
-
-<p>"An' now, Miss Kate, agrah, will ye tell
-me, is it a weddin' we're goin' to have, or
-what, fur I feel that somethin' quare's goin'
-on!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_200" id="Page_200">[200]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Oh, there is nothing the matter, nurse. I
-believe," she continued, after a short pause,
-during which she summoned all her resolution
-to speak easily and unconstrained, "that is, I
-think I must stay for a few weeks with Mrs.
-Storey."</p>
-
-<p>"What, not go wid us at wanst to Ireland!"
-ejaculated Mrs. O'Toole, holding the tea-pot,
-from which she was in the act of replenishing
-her nurseling's cup, still suspended, in sheer
-amazement. "What's that for? sure, yer not
-goin' to send me off wid me lady! if yer not
-comin' wid us now, sure. I'll have to come
-for ye; ye can't travel be yerself; an' I'd
-betther stay wid ye."</p>
-
-<p>"But Mrs. Storey has not room, I fear,"
-said Kate, falteringly.</p>
-
-<p>"I don't want to be behoulden to her fur
-her room; sure, I could get a place convanient
-for meself; there's lashins iv poor places
-good enough for the likes iv me about Bays<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_201" id="Page_201">[201]</a></span>wather
-to stop in; what would ye do widout
-me?"</p>
-
-<p>"What indeed!" echoed Kate, throwing
-herself into nurse's arms; and worn out by
-the long constraint she had laboured under,
-she burst into an irrepressible flood of tears,
-while Mrs. O'Toole hushed and soothed her,
-as in her childish days.</p>
-
-<p>"There now, hush, darlint; tell me what
-it vexes ye?"</p>
-
-<p>"I am so afraid you will think me ungrateful
-and selfish, dear nurse," began Kate, in
-broken accents, interrupted by sobs. "You
-see I am particularly anxious to stay in London
-for a while; and if&mdash;if I was richer, and
-could pay for your lodgings, and all that, do
-you think I could ever part with you, even
-for a short season, dearest, kindest friend; but
-I am not; and I will not let you waste the
-little you have on my account. No, you will
-go with Lady Desmond to Ireland, as she
-wishes, till I join her."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_202" id="Page_202">[202]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mrs. O'Toole seemed plunged in thought,
-and rolled her arms in her apron, a favourite
-attitude with her, indicative of deep reflection.</p>
-
-<p>"But will ye come back?" she asked, at
-last, with a keen glance, "an' whin? there's
-somethin's throublin' ye, jewil, though ye'll
-not spake out, an' me heart's oneasy; sure, ye
-wouldn't let me go from ye, if ye wern't
-manin' to come back to me; sure, ye wouldn't
-thrate me that a way, me own child?"</p>
-
-<p>"God knows," cried Kate, "it is hard
-enough to part with you, although I most
-firmly purpose to be with you ere long; but
-to say good bye in earnest would be death to
-me."</p>
-
-<p>"An' why need ye stay wid thim Storeys
-that arn't yer aiquils at all? Ah! where's the
-use of sthrivin' to decave me. Have you an'
-me lady fell out, asthore?"</p>
-
-<p>This question was put with a concentration
-of anxiety and curiosity which might have
-raised a smile to the lips of a casual observer,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[203]</a></span>
-but which only served to fill up the measure of
-Kate's perplexities&mdash;her equally balanced cares&mdash;not
-to betray her cousin, and not to wound
-nurse, placing her in a double difficulty.</p>
-
-<p>"No, no! quarrel with my dear, kind
-Georgy! Never, I trust; but, in short, dearest
-nurse," she continued, with great earnestness,
-"it would be a source of the greatest
-comfort to me, to know that you were safe and
-free from every want, in an establishment such
-as hers. I am powerless to afford any aid or
-protection to my oldest, truest friend," pursued
-Kate, large tears weighing down her eyelashes.
-"And after years of faithful, constant,
-self-devoted service, I must owe to another
-the shelter I cannot give you. Ah! it is a
-hard fate!"</p>
-
-<p>She hid her face on nurse's shoulder.</p>
-
-<p>"Och! don't be talking that away, jewil!"
-ejaculated Mrs. O'Toole. "Sure, haven't I a
-power iv money I got in yer sarvice that Mis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_204" id="Page_204">[204]</a></span>ther
-Winter put into the bank fur me? I'll
-do what iver mee sweet child likes; but faith!
-I don't want shelther from any one. I'm not
-past mee work yet, And if ye will have me
-go from ye, I'll just stop wid me lady fur three
-weeks or a month; an' at the ind of that time,
-if yer not comin' to us, I'll come fur ye.
-Sure, yer in the right iv it not to let Lady
-Desmond get too accustomed to ye; faith, it's
-sick she'd be if an angel from Heaven afther
-a bit; it's well fur her the masther (the Lord
-rest his sowl,) wasn't that sort."</p>
-
-<p>"Dear nurse," said Kate, raising her tearful
-face, and speaking in broken accents, "why
-will you distress me by assuming a severe
-tone towards my kind cousin; she is all that
-the most exacting could wish. Oh! I have
-many difficulties before me. How! how! can
-I part with you?"</p>
-
-<p>"An' why do ye ask me to lave ye?"</p>
-
-<p>"It must be so," she returned, with more<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_205" id="Page_205">[205]</a></span>
-decision than she had yet shown. "And, I
-will not deceive you, my own, dear nurse&mdash;it
-may be some months before we meet again."</p>
-
-<p>"Och! where are ye goin' to stop bee yerself,
-Miss Kate? What mischief's brewin' at
-all? An' what would the masther say if he
-could look down on us to see me goin' off in
-pace and plinty, and you wandherin' through
-the world alone? Sure, I'd see his sperrit, it
-couldn't rest in Heaven itself, if you wasn't
-rightly attended to."</p>
-
-<p>"God forbid he should feel distress about
-me," sighed Kate. "He is at last free from
-sin and sorrow&mdash;that is my great consolation!
-But my plans are very simple. After being
-with Mrs. Storey for a while, I shall probably
-go to some other friends, and move about; so
-you see you could not exactly come with me.
-Then, when Mr. and Mrs. Winter return,
-which, I trust, they will do before October,
-they know and value you, and will gladly let<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_206" id="Page_206">[206]</a></span>
-me have you; or, probably, before I go to
-stay with them, I may join my cousin; in
-either event, we shall be together; and so far
-as a weak mortal can purpose, I resolve to
-separate from you no more. Can you consent
-to this?"</p>
-
-<p>Nurse, resting her elbows on her knees, and
-covering her face in her hands, rocked herself
-in silence for a few moments, then with a deep
-sigh, almost a groan, said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I see it's no use talkin', I must go from
-you&mdash;and I'll nivir hear the thruth if what's
-goin' on! Och, I little thought I'd iver be
-parted from mee own child&mdash;the core iv mee
-heart ye wor&mdash;ye nivir slept a night from ondher
-the same roof wid me but wan, and
-that was the time ye met the Captin, and I'll
-nivir believe but that'll turn out luck yet!
-so I'll do yer biddin', agra! and sure the
-masther 'ill see it's only yez own word would
-part us; an' look here, avourneen, I'll always<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_207" id="Page_207">[207]</a></span>
-keep the price if mee journey by me, and the
-wind iv a word will bring me to ye any day&mdash;remimber
-that!"</p>
-
-<p>"I will remember, nurse. Ah! dearest,
-kindest, hold me to your heart&mdash;close&mdash;there is
-none other beats so truly for your Kate&mdash;none
-loves her so well, now grandpapa is gone."</p>
-
-<p>"Faith, there is'nt wan thruer to ye on
-airth, than mine, as sure as yer lyin' on it.
-There was wan more loved ye well, besides the
-masther and me&mdash;if iver man loved mortial,
-the Captin loved the sight iv ye&mdash;an' well he
-might, many's the time I watched his face
-brighten up when he heard yer voice, an'
-wancest I seen him take the glove ye dropped
-an' kiss it, as I would the cross! and mark my
-words&mdash;ye'll see him yet&mdash;och, sure there's
-some brightness fur us ondher all this sorra!
-an' don't sob that away, jewil&mdash;if you don't
-come to me, faith I'll come to you."</p>
-
-<p>This last week at Hampton Court was one
-of unmixed suffering to Kate. Lady Des<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_208" id="Page_208">[208]</a></span>mond
-was cruelly capricious in her tone and
-manner to her innocent cousin. At one moment
-Kate fancied she could perceive rapidly
-returning confidence and affection&mdash;the next,
-some stern look, or icy word, implied suspicion
-and dislike; nothing wounded Miss Vernon so
-much as the assumption of her old tenderness
-before any third party, and the instant return
-to coldness and estrangement, when that restraint
-was removed.</p>
-
-<p>Sometimes Kate's gentle but high spirit
-was roused to indignation, which lent her a
-momentary strength; but this was soon dissolved
-by the compassion with which she
-viewed the intense and unremitting struggle,
-which thus clouded Lady Desmond's better
-judgment.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon was thoroughly convinced before
-the day of their departure arrived, that to
-live with Lady Desmond in her present mood,
-was indeed impossible; and that her only
-chance for preserving a hold on her cousin's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_209" id="Page_209">[209]</a></span>
-heart, was absence. The approaching separation
-from nurse was ever present with her&mdash;from
-Lady Desmond, she felt, that for a while
-it would be a relief to part.</p>
-
-<p>Meantime, Mrs. Storey wrote in most
-cordial terms, to express the pleasure she felt
-in expecting Miss Vernon as a guest; and all
-things progressed smoothly for the cousins'
-plans.</p>
-
-<p>The last evening, Kate felt real alarm, at
-the strange brilliancy of her cousin's eyes, and
-the unwonted animation of her manner. She
-had passed the greater part of the day alone;
-and had once sent for Kate, who found her
-terribly agitated, and evidently endeavouring
-to make up her mind to something; after a
-few vague words, however, she begged Kate
-to leave her&mdash;that she would defer all further
-arrangements till they were in London; and
-as Miss Vernon was leaving the room, begged
-her to keep guard over herself, in case any
-unexpected arrival should startle her. "Do<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_210" id="Page_210">[210]</a></span>
-not betray me, Kate." Miss Vernon knew
-she alluded to Lord Effingham&mdash;but since the
-fatal day she had overheard his declaration,
-she had never breathed his name to her; but
-the evening wore on, and to Kate's infinite relief,
-he did not make his appearance.</p>
-
-<p>Kate never quitted any place with so little
-regret, as Hampton Court; though, at first,
-she had liked it much&mdash;difficulties soon
-gathered round her&mdash;difficulties, such as she
-had never before encountered; but she was
-wofully depressed&mdash;Lady Desmond had put
-a finishing stroke to her low spirits, by enquiring
-if she would like to drive directly to Mrs.
-Storey's, or go with her to Mivart's in the first
-place. This readiness to get rid of her on the
-part of her natural protectress, threw a sad
-feeling of gloom and loneliness over poor
-Kate's heart, and it was some moments before
-she could reply. Her first impulse was to accede
-at once to the proposition, which would
-have relieved her cousin of her irksome pre<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_211" id="Page_211">[211]</a></span>sence;
-but an instant's thought, showed her
-two potent reasons for a different line of conduct&mdash;first,
-she must cling as long as she
-possibly could to nurse&mdash;secondly, she knew
-Mrs. Storey did not expect her till the next
-day, so having glanced at these motives, and
-swallowed a rising inclination to sob, she
-answered, with a certain degree of reproachful
-sadness&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I do not think Mrs. Storey expects me
-till to-morrow; and if you can bear my presence
-a little longer, I should prefer waiting
-till then. Dear cousin, though you are weary
-of me, I think of our parting with grief, and
-regret."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, Kate, Kate," cried Lady Desmond,
-pressing her handkerchief to her eyes "would
-to God, I could blot out the last few months&mdash;I
-feel I am utterly neglecting my bounden
-duty in thus leaving you&mdash;but it is better for
-both of us, at least for awhile! Do you for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_212" id="Page_212">[212]</a></span>give
-me? you would if you knew the wretched
-sea of doubt and difficulty and suspicion in
-which my weary spirit is tossed! I should make
-you miserable if you stayed with me."</p>
-
-<p>"I am most fully determined, even if you
-were not so inclined, to leave you; at present
-it is quite as much my choice, as yours&mdash;do
-not grieve about that&mdash;but&mdash;but, dear Georgy,
-do not seem so anxious to get rid of me!"</p>
-
-<p>"What a selfish, worthless wretch I have
-become," said Lady Desmond, with sudden
-remorse, "I am not the same for an hour&mdash;at
-this moment I would fain keep you with me
-to the last! but Saturday, the day after to-morrow,
-I leave for Ireland; till then, you
-shall stay with me&mdash;you would like to stay
-with nurse, at all events&mdash;how could I forget,
-ah! Kate forgive me! you may, you ought;
-God knows how much misery you have caused
-me," she ended bitterly.</p>
-
-<p>Kate sighed to see how implacable were<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_213" id="Page_213">[213]</a></span>
-the suspicions entertained by Lady Desmond;
-and the rest of the journey was performed in
-almost unbroken and melancholy silence.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon wrote a line, to announce her
-arrival in town, to Mrs. Storey; and then,
-leaving her cousin to receive the thousand and
-one visitors, who flocked to remonstrate with,
-and exclaim at her strange whim of performing
-a personal, and purgatorial progress to her estates
-in Ireland, she sought the society of
-poor nurse, who was plunged into the deepest
-affliction&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I'll never forgive mee Lady Desmond, fur
-lettin' ye stay behind this away. There's no
-use in talkin' but I know there's been some
-ruction betune yez&mdash;any ways, I'll do yer biddin',
-an' stay out the four weeks wid her; but
-afther that, don't lay a vow upon me, avourneen!
-an' ye'll write me long letthers."</p>
-
-<p>"Write! Ah, yes, it will be my only com<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_214" id="Page_214">[214]</a></span>fort
-until we meet&mdash;for we must&mdash;we shall meet
-soon again."</p>
-
-<p>And Miss Vernon threw herself on nurse's
-bosom, overpowered by the feelings she had so
-long suppressed. Long and passionately did
-she weep&mdash;and nurse, nobly hushing her own
-grief, strove to cheer her child, whose unwonted
-emotion absolutely frightened the honest, warm-hearted
-woman. Gradually Kate listened to
-her words, rallied herself from the flood of bitterness
-which had swept over her spirit, and
-after some desultory and mournful conversation,
-obeyed nurse's kindly command.</p>
-
-<p>"There's no use talking any more darlin,
-you must go to yer bed."</p>
-
-<p>Kate, fatigued by the tears and sorrow of
-the day, was soon wrapped in sleep; and nurse
-bent over her long and tenderly as she lay,
-one long wavy tress escaping from the deep lace
-of her cap, her hands crossed upon her bosom,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_215" id="Page_215">[215]</a></span>
-which heaved slightly with each regular softly
-drawn breath, the rosy lips apart, while</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"On her snowy lids, whose texture fine</div>
- <div class="verse">Scarce hides the dark blue orbs beneath,</div>
- <div class="verse">The baby sleep&mdash;lies pillowed."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>As nurse gazed at this picture of profound
-and innocent repose, lovely as sleeping youth
-must be, to every eye capable of acknowledging
-beauty, all her own grief at the separation
-of to-morrow pressed quick and stern upon
-her.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah, who'll watch over ye, pulse iv me
-heart? Who'll ye go spake to when yer in
-throuble? Where will ye turn when yer sperrit
-scorns the ways iv them that's about ye.
-Ah, where indeed! Oh, Mary, sweet queen
-of heaven, look on ye. Sure ye niver had a
-purer heart than hers. Blessed Jasus shield
-ye. Ah, Captin, agra, it's here ye ought to be,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_216" id="Page_216">[216]</a></span>
-with the warm heart an' the strong arm to
-hold her up through this weary world."</p>
-
-<p>And sinking on her knees, nurse devoutly
-told her beads, often wiping away the fast-falling
-tears, yet, with the peculiarity of her
-race, fervently hoping through it all.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"There is a prescience given to grief,</div>
- <div class="verse">Which joy may never know,</div>
- <div class="verse">A hope of future good, to cheer,</div>
- <div class="verse">The ruggedness of woe!</div>
- <div class="verse">It is the soul's deep whisper heard</div>
- <div class="verse">When earth's rude tumult sleeps,</div>
- <div class="verse">A moment hushed, when pain or grief,</div>
- <div class="verse">Across the spirit sweeps.</div>
- <div class="verse">Then through the gloom of doubt and dread,</div>
- <div class="verse">An angel voice we hear,</div>
- <div class="verse">Which speaks its inborn happiness,</div>
- <div class="verse">Undimmed by grief or fear."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_217" id="Page_217">[217]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER VII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">TERRA INCOGNITA.</p>
-
-
-<p>"There is one thing more I wish to say to
-you, dearest nurse," said Miss Vernon, as she
-was dressing to go to Mrs. Storey the morning
-after the conversation above recorded; all her
-trunks and packages were lying about the
-room in desolate disorder, and she was hurrying
-to join her cousin at luncheon.</p>
-
-<p>"What is it, agra?"</p>
-
-<p>"Why, that cheque Mr. Winter sent me&mdash;Roberts
-got me the money for it."</p>
-
-<p>"Misther Roberts is a knowledgeable man."</p>
-
-<p>"But, nurse, this portion of it is for you."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_218" id="Page_218">[218]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Oh, blessed Vargin! look at this. Now,
-Miss Kate, do you think I'd be afther robbin
-ye iv twenty pounds&mdash;and I wid a pile iv
-notes in the savin's bank, if I could only get
-at them."</p>
-
-<p>"That is it, exactly," interrupted Miss Vernon,
-hastily, "you must have money, and
-though you and I are on those terms, that we
-do not keep debtor and creditor accounts, you
-know very well, I consider it not only a pleasure,
-but a duty, to share with you whatever
-I possess, only in this case, I have kept the
-lion's share&mdash;no more, nurse&mdash;you must take
-it&mdash;I shall think you do not love me if you
-refuse."</p>
-
-<p>There was something so urgent in Miss
-Vernon's tones, that nurse felt herself compelled
-to obey, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">malgré lui</i>.</p>
-
-<p>"Sure I'll keep them fur ye."</p>
-
-<p>"Do what you will, nurse; but, remember,
-though I can, and may have to bear much, I
-could not support the idea of your wanting any<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_219" id="Page_219">[219]</a></span>
-thing. One kiss before I go down. How I
-wish Georgy would let you come with me to
-Bayswater, and stay at home herself."</p>
-
-<p>"She hasn't so much sinse&mdash;though I'm
-sorry for her, she's in grate throuble entirely
-about you going away&mdash;faith I begin to make
-it out."</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond was, as Mrs. O'Toole said, in
-great trouble, restless, miserable, capricious;
-at one moment pressing Kate to change her
-plans, and accompany her to Ireland, at
-another, evidently ready to facilitate her departure,
-while she hurried her own preparations,
-yet showed a disposition to linger within the
-charmed precincts where echo sometimes conveyed
-a rumour of Lord Effingham's proceedings.</p>
-
-<p>He was still at Cowes, and the <cite>Morning Post</cite>
-of that day gave an account of a dinner given
-by him on board his new yacht, "The Meteor,"
-to all the celebrities of the R. Y. C.</p>
-
-<p>"That does not look like disappointment,"<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_220" id="Page_220">[220]</a></span>
-thought Lady Desmond, as she read, "time,
-and time only can satisfy me of the truth."</p>
-
-<p>She was silent during the repast, of which
-Kate strove to partake, and rose at once, on
-Miss Vernon suggesting that she had promised
-to be with Mrs. Storey at two.</p>
-
-<p>Nurse made her appearance as the cousins
-descended to the carriage.</p>
-
-<p>"Once more good-bye, kindest and best,"
-said Kate, embracing her, and trying to speak
-steadily. "Georgy," she continued, laying her
-hand impressively on Lady Desmond's arm,
-"I know you love nurse for her own sake.
-But, remember, I feel every kindness shown to
-her as intended for myself."</p>
-
-<p>"You may trust nurse safely to me," replied
-her cousin; and they entered the carriage.</p>
-
-<p>Kate leaned from it as long as nurse remained
-in sight, and often, in after days, declared
-that the long earnest gaze, with which
-she followed the retreating form so dear to her,
-impressed itself for ever on her heart, and that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_221" id="Page_221">[221]</a></span>
-nurse's figure, in her black dress and white
-cap, as she stood shading her eyes with her
-hand, formed one of those indelible pictures
-ever vivid, let unnumbered years roll by,
-with which memory is at rare intervals
-stamped.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond preserved an almost unbroken
-silence until they neared their destination,
-and had reached the comparatively quiet
-region of the parks, then turning to Kate,
-said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose Mrs. Storey will not expect me
-to go in. I am in no humour for her gossip."</p>
-
-<p>"Of course you need not if you do not like
-it; but&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, then I see I ought&mdash;yes, it will be
-more gracious. I would do anything to serve
-or please you, my Kate," and she looked at
-her mournfully and tenderly.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon's eyes filled with tears; yet
-they were not unhappy tears. She was thank<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_222" id="Page_222">[222]</a></span>ful
-to bid her cousin adieu in this mood&mdash;for
-Kate set a great value on last impressions.</p>
-
-<p>The sound of the carriage-wheels brought
-a rosy-cheeked, smiling parlor-maid to the
-hall-door, while a row of small heads appeared
-above the parlor blinds. Then ensued the
-lively bustle of lifting down trunks, and carrying
-in carpet-bags; and the rosy parlor-maid
-ran backwards and forwards, her little airy cap
-blown about by the light breeze, quite in a
-twitter at being assisted, with much gallantry,
-by so distinguished an individual as Lady Desmond's
-footman.</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure this is so kind of you, Lady
-Desmond; I did not expect the pleasure of
-seeing of you. Miss Vernon, my dear, you are
-most heartily welcome; the children have been
-looking out for you all day&mdash;my little Willie
-has not forgotten you. You'll take some cake
-and wine&mdash;do?"</p>
-
-<p>"Thank you, no," said Lady Desmond.
-"We have lunched; and I only gave myself<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_223" id="Page_223">[223]</a></span>
-a few moments, in which to say, how do you
-do, and good-bye. I start to-morrow for
-Ireland, and have much to accomplish before
-dinner-time."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, but you will sit down, and let me
-thank you for leaving Miss Vernon with us
-awhile. My dear," to Kate, "you are not
-looking so well&mdash;paler and thinner than when
-I saw you last&mdash;I am sure the air at Hampton
-Court is beautiful and healthy. I never enjoyed
-anything so much as the day I spent
-with your ladyship. I see my Lord Effingham
-is in the Isle of Wight. I never met so nice
-a man as he is, and as simple as a common
-person. I thought," again turning to Kate,
-"you would not like to leave England somehow
-or other," and she laughed a significant
-laugh that raised the blood in quick nervous
-blushes to Kate's cheek; she glanced at Lady
-Desmond; but her brow was not more overcast
-than before, and the entrance of the
-children prevented any further remark.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_224" id="Page_224">[224]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The eldest boy&mdash;a fair-haired, bright-eyed
-child, just old enough to be shy&mdash;stood awhile,
-his finger in his mouth, half hiding behind his
-nurse-maid's apron, till Kate stretched out her
-arms. When, after a moment's hesitation, he
-bounded into them, and they were as great
-friends as ever.</p>
-
-<p>"Now that I have installed Kate in the
-bosom of your family, Mrs. Storey, I must say
-good-bye," said Lady Desmond, rising.</p>
-
-<p>Kate put down little Willie, and stood up
-with a beating heart.</p>
-
-<p>"You will let me know immediately how
-you get over, and make nurse write&mdash;give her
-my fond love, Georgy."</p>
-
-<p>"I will," said her cousin, who had taken a
-very gracious leave of Mrs. Storey. She paused
-a moment, and, then folding her arms round
-Kate, kissed her with all her old accustomed
-warmth, whispering&mdash;"Trust me still!" and
-rapidly descending the stairs, was out of sight<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_225" id="Page_225">[225]</a></span>
-before Kate could realise that she was really
-going.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon turned from the window with
-a choking sensation in her throat; the time
-was indeed come when she must struggle on
-alone.</p>
-
-<p>"So you are very glad to see Miss Vernon
-again, Willie?" asked the proud mama,
-stroking his curls.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," lisped Willie, pressing his little
-round cheek against Kate's hand, and looking
-up in her face with such a bright loving glance,
-that she felt irresistibly cheered by it.</p>
-
-<p>"Not more glad than I am to see Willie."</p>
-
-<p>She sat down, and took him into her lap.</p>
-
-<p>"We do not dine till six to-day," said Mrs.
-Storey; "you are accustomed to late hours,
-and my brother said he would join us&mdash;you are
-such a favorite with him."</p>
-
-<p>"You must not change your hours for me,"
-returned Kate, "I know you generally dine
-with the children, and I like dining early."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_226" id="Page_226">[226]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"You are very good and obliging, I am
-sure. You see, Mr. Storey is so late generally&mdash;but
-to-day he said he would make it a point
-to be home early; he is so pleased you are to
-be with us."</p>
-
-<p>"I am very glad to hear it," said Kate,
-gratified at this cordiality.</p>
-
-<p>"And I expect to hear lots of news," resumed
-Mrs. Storey, significantly.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, I have none to tell," said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, well, we shall see. And how do
-you think the children looking? Willie has
-had a sore throat&mdash;we were afraid it might
-end in scarletina, &amp;c., &amp;c."</p>
-
-<p>And the good-natured gossip was merged in
-the anxious mother, who, encouraged by Kate's
-ready attention, poured forth a string of
-anecdotes, maternal and domestic, touching
-"baby's last tooth," and "Maria's shameful
-neglect of her plate and glass."</p>
-
-<p>And Miss Vernon felt a sense of relief in
-hearing these natural, simple details, which she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_227" id="Page_227">[227]</a></span>
-usually voted extremely tiresome; but now,
-after the agitations she had passed through,
-and the stormy passions she had witnessed,
-anything indicative of home, with its calm
-atmosphere of repose, and quiet duty, was refreshing
-to her.</p>
-
-<p>So instinctively conscious of more than
-usual sympathy in her listener, Mrs. Storey
-chattered on uninterruptedly until it was almost
-time to dress for dinner.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon missed her affectionate motherly
-attendant as she arranged her unpretending
-toilette for dinner. Not that she was incapable
-of waiting on herself; but her dressing-room
-had always been the scene of those confidential
-conversations in which Mrs. O'Toole's soul
-delighted. She pictured to herself her loving
-and beloved nurse sitting alone in some room
-of the busy, crowded hotel, her arms folded in
-her apron, rocking herself to and fro, with no
-one near to whom she could speak in the
-genuine accents of real sorrow.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_228" id="Page_228">[228]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"My poor dear nurse, may God comfort
-you," murmured Kate; and then, feeling her
-fortitude melting away before the picture she
-had conjured up, she resolutely turned from it.
-"I have no right to damp the spirits of these
-friendly people with my melancholy looks."</p>
-
-<p>So she braided her bright hair, and smiled
-at her pale cheeks, which had lost the few
-roses they began to gather at Hampton Court:
-and hearing some one trying to turn the handle
-of the door, opened it, and admitted little
-Willie, with whom she descended to the drawing-room.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, indeed, my dear, you do not look so
-rosy or so bright as I would wish to see you,"
-said Mrs. Storey, "not but that you look pretty
-always."</p>
-
-<p>"<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Cela va sans dire</i>," interrupted Kate,
-smiling.</p>
-
-<p>"But," resumed Mrs. Storey, "what is the
-reason his lordship is gone to the Isle of
-Wight?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_229" id="Page_229">[229]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Will you believe me," replied Kate, gravely
-and impressively, "when I assure you that I
-am equally ignorant of, and unaccountable for,
-Lord Effingham's movements."</p>
-
-<p>The gravity of her manner silenced her
-loquacious hostess, and immediately after Mr.
-Storey entered, accompanied by Langley. The
-former greeted Kate with boisterous cordiality,
-the latter with sincere though quiet pleasure. It
-was an additional trial to her, this meeting
-with Langley, whom she had not seen since
-her grandfather's death; and the contending
-memories which his presence recalled kept her
-silent, while he expressed, in his usual shy,
-embarrassed manner, his happiness in meeting
-her again. He was very taciturn at dinner, but
-this passed unnoticed, as the host and hostess
-were really a host in themselves, at least in the
-talking line.</p>
-
-<p>"I have to thank you for sending me Mr.
-Winter's letters so promptly," said Kate, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_230" id="Page_230">[230]</a></span>
-they sat near each other at tea. "I am very
-anxious for another, but do not know where to
-write;&mdash;and, Mr. Langley, why did you never
-come to see me all the time I was at Hampton
-Court?"</p>
-
-<p>Langley coloured.</p>
-
-<p>"I do not know Lady Desmond," he said,
-"and you were all too fine and gay for an
-obscure artist."</p>
-
-<p>"Gay," repeated Kate, looking at him reproachfully.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, too fine; I should not have felt at
-home there."</p>
-
-<p>"I should have been much pleased had you
-taken the trouble to pay me a visit, and Hampton
-Court would have delighted you; but, of
-course, you know it already."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I&mdash;&mdash;" began Langley, again reddening,
-then interrupting himself abruptly&mdash;"If
-I really thought you remembered, I was&mdash;that
-is, I did not think you would notice it."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_231" id="Page_231">[231]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Ah! Mr. Langley," said Kate, with a
-pensive smile, "you feel guilty, or you would
-not hesitate so much."</p>
-
-<p>"Had you there, Bill," cried Mr. Storey,
-with an agreeable wink; "the ladies are never
-merciful when they catch us tripping." But
-Langley deigned no reply.</p>
-
-<p>"I do not think Winter is inclined to come
-back," said he to Kate; "he wrote me a few
-lines enclosing his last letter to you, in which
-he says he should like to remain where he is
-until he had drawn the whole country, natural
-and architectural, but that Mrs. Winter's absurd
-prejudices against grease and fleas would, he
-feared, cut short his enjoyment."</p>
-
-<p>"My dear William," cried his sister, raising
-her hands and eyes to heaven, "what <em>will</em> Miss
-Vernon think of you mentioning such dreadful
-low vulgar words. I am sure I am thankful Lady
-Desmond's not here&mdash;what would she say?"</p>
-
-<p>"I dare say her ladyship is aware that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_232" id="Page_232">[232]</a></span>
-such an entomological variety exists," returned
-Langley, drily.</p>
-
-<p>"Have you been very busy this summer,"
-asked Kate, changing the subject in compassion
-to her hostess.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, no&mdash;that is, I have been busily idle."</p>
-
-<p>"Sketching, and not finishing," suggested
-Miss Vernon. "That was what Mr. Winter
-used to call busy idleness."</p>
-
-<p>"You and Miss Vernon must look at my
-studio some day," said Langley to his sister;
-"I have one or two pretty subjects in progress."</p>
-
-<p>"I shall be delighted," cried Kate. "I am
-always happy in a studio, more so than even
-in a perfect gallery; besides, a studio always
-reminds me of Mr. Winter," she added with
-such enthusiasm that her listeners smiled.</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose you used to visit the pictures at
-Hampton Court frequently?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, yet not as often as I intended&mdash;something
-always happened to interfere with our<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_233" id="Page_233">[233]</a></span>
-visits&mdash;and I am so fond of Vandyke: his men
-and women are so noble-looking, one can hardly
-associate them with the wretched period in
-which they lived; but I suppose his paintings
-picture his own mind rather than the individuals
-he meant to depict."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I would rather pay for my own
-portrait than another person's," said Mr. Storey;
-"and I think Smith has hit off both myself
-and Mrs. S. right well."</p>
-
-<p>"Your pictures are certainly very like," said
-Miss Vernon politely.</p>
-
-<p>"But the most unmitigated daubs," remarked
-Langley.</p>
-
-<p>"I never enjoyed any pictures so much as
-those at Hampton Court," remarked Mrs.
-Storey. "But then Lord Effingham told me
-about them so nicely; he knew them all."</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham&mdash;a distinguished cicerone,
-Charlotte," remarked her brother. "He was
-very well known in the London world some
-five or six years ago, though one never heard<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_234" id="Page_234">[234]</a></span>
-much good of him&mdash;has he not been abroad for
-a long time?"</p>
-
-<p>This question was addressed to Miss Vernon,
-in total disregard of Mrs. Storey's energetic
-hems and warning frowns when he spoke disparagingly
-of the earl.</p>
-
-<p>"He was for some time in Italy&mdash;my cousin
-knew him there," replied Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"I'm sure he seemed the quietest and most
-obliging man I ever met," said Mrs. Storey
-eagerly; "and it is just envy because he is
-richer and grander than themselves, that makes
-people tell ill-natured stories of him."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not fancy Lord Effingham is an
-amiable man," said Kate, quietly; "I do not
-think I ever saw him do the agreeable so
-readily as the day you were with us."</p>
-
-<p>"Hum," said Langley, gravely. "Then
-it was you, Charlotte, that kept his lordship on
-his P's and Q's.</p>
-
-<p>"Now, Miss Vernon, may we ask you for a
-little music?"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_235" id="Page_235">[235]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Not this evening, dear Mrs. Storey," said
-Kate, deprecatingly, and shaking her head.
-"To-morrow as much as you like, but to-night
-I feel quite unmusical."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I dare say you feel low at parting
-with Lady Desmond," said Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"And nurse," added Kate.</p>
-
-<p>So the evening wore away, and at last Kate
-was free to retire to the grateful solitude of her
-own room, to gather comfort and support from
-"communing with her own heart," and finally
-to rest.</p>
-
-<p>The day at Mrs. Storey's was very tranquil
-and rather monotonous. The eight o'clock
-breakfast was quickly followed by the departure
-of Mr. Storey for the city, and the eldest
-girl to school. Kate volunteered the task of
-inspecting Masters Willie and Bobby at their
-studies, thereby affording another hour to
-their mamma for the dear delight of the kitchen
-and the store-room. Kate saw little of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_236" id="Page_236">[236]</a></span>
-her hostess before the one o'clock dinner, until
-which time she pursued her practising or her
-reading, her work or her thoughts uninterruptedly.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Storey never returned to tea until seven
-o'clock, when he was usually ravenous and
-inaudible until after the consumption of divers
-viands. He often brought home some dapper
-city friend, with an evident wish to make his
-house agreeable to Miss Vernon, and under
-the usual impression entertained by men of his
-stamp, that beaux are a necessary of life to
-young ladies. This was the only real drawback
-in Kate's estimation to her <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">séjour</i> at "Raby
-Villas"&mdash;the euphonious appellation of Mr.
-Storey's abode.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey too meditated a party&mdash;for, with
-all her good nature, Kate was a much more
-important personage in her estimation, fresh
-from the society of earls and countesses&mdash;the
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">crême de la crême</i>&mdash;than when she walked
-almost daily over to Brompton, with no<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_237" id="Page_237">[237]</a></span>
-attendant save a great dog, and received three
-and sixpence a lesson for music.</p>
-
-<p>The letters for which Kate had looked so
-anxiously were as usual in cases of anticipation,
-disappointing and perplexing; they did not
-arrive till the day after that on which they
-might have reached; Lady Desmond's ran
-thus:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
- <p>"<span class="smcap">Dear Kate</span>,</p>
-
- <p>"Though peculiarly averse to writing, I
- feel I must keep my promise to you. We had
- a tiresome journey and a rough passage, but
- except fatigue, I am well enough; nurse who has
- had red eyes ever since she bid you good bye,
- desires her love and duty, and says she will not
- write this time; she has just been sitting with
- me; I was consoling her, at least trying to do
- so. This place looks wretched and deserted,
- worse than when I was last here. They say
- every one is ruined; I wonder I am not; but I
- can write no more, my head and heart are both<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_238" id="Page_238">[238]</a></span>
- aching. You shall hear from me when I reach
- Castle Desmond,"</p>
-
- <p class="right">
- "Yours miserably,<br />
- <br />
- "G. D."
- </p>
-</div>
-
-<p>At the bottom were some words across which
-a few had been hastily drawn once or twice.
-Kate easily perceived they were the commencement
-of a sentence, "your readiness to," but
-some interruption mental or physical had cut
-short the fair scribe, and she had changed her
-intentions.</p>
-
-<p>To Kate's infinite surprise, for Mrs. O'Toole
-was in general a remarkably straightforward
-person, a second letter reached her by the midday
-mail, directed in a blotted irregular hand
-written apparently with a wooden skewer.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
- <p>
- "<i>To Miss Vernon at Mr. Storey's,<br />
- Bayswater.</i>
- </p>
-
- <p>"Mee own blessed child," it began, "do'nt
- let on a word of this to mortial man; you will be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_239" id="Page_239">[239]</a></span>
- angry with me for decavin me lady, but I wanted
- to write unknown'st, and I'm quite and snug for
- the night now, so I thought I'd sthrive to pen
- ye a line without a word to any one; the morning
- we left London, Saturday, Miss Lewis hears
- tell how me Lord Effingham was coming to take
- the rooms we wor in next week, and she ups
- and tould me lady, and me lady sends for me.
- 'Nurse,' says she, lookin like a ghost and her
- two eyes blazin mad, 'Wor you aware' says
- she spakin low, 'that Lord Effingham was
- commin,' 'To be sure I was;' says I, 'I heerd it
- as well as Miss Lewis,' says I, and then she
- turned and bit her lips, and looked like tunther,
- 'I thought you might have heard it at Hampton
- Coort,' ses she. 'Divil a haporth good nor
- bad I heard tell of him at the Coort,' says I;
- with that she gave a sort of a groan, 'Very
- well,' says she, 'of course, what could you
- know about him! What's delayin us,' ses she
- mighty sharp, 'the carriage immediately Roberts,'
- ses she, and there was no mistake she was in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_240" id="Page_240">[240]</a></span>
- airnest. Now she's been quere since then,
- mighty fond of me, an always talkin of you, me
- darlint, but some how there's no truth in her eyes,
- so jist mind how ye write, an sure me eyes an
- me hands is tired, an if ye can read it, do'nt be
- angry if I write too free; sure I'd brave even
- the cross word from yourself, if I could do ye
- good, me own darlin child, there's not an hour
- of the day your poor old nurse does'nt be prayin
- for you, so God shield ye, and send me the
- light of me eyes again safe and sound.</p>
-
- <p class="right">
- "Your own loving and respectful nurse,<br />
- <br />
- "<span class="smcap">Nelly O'Toole</span>."
- </p>
-</div>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon sat for some time lost in perplexed
-thought, she was truly glad to get
-nurse's affectionate letter, yet wished she had
-not told her that Lord Effingham was in town.</p>
-
-<p>"I must not betray nurse, and yet I should
-very much like to write openly to Georgy, her
-suspicions are once more all alive," and the indignant
-colour rose to Kate's cheek at the idea<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_241" id="Page_241">[241]</a></span>
-of such pertinacious injustice. "I must write
-as if regardless of any change in her tone since
-we last met, I wish dear nurse had not mentioned
-Lord Effingham, I wish I never had heard
-his name."</p>
-
-<p>Rousing herself from these fruitless reflections
-she called Willie, and knowing of old
-what potent consolers fresh air and sunshine
-always proved, asked Mrs. Storey's leave to
-take him with her to Kensall-green Cemetery
-where her grandfather's remains had been interred.
-She had not yet visited his grave, and
-choose the child's companionship during that
-visit of tender duty, as more congenial than any
-other. Willie, dancing with joy at the delight
-in prospect of a walk with Miss Vernon, was soon
-equipped, and the two friends started lovingly
-hand in hand.</p>
-
-<p>Their way lay through pleasant fields with a
-pretty back-ground of wooded country towards
-Harrow, all glowing in the rich light of an
-Autumn sun. Kate was quite inattentive to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_242" id="Page_242">[242]</a></span>
-the pretty talk of her little squire. She was
-traversing these fields again with a far different
-companion, she was living over again
-many autumns all distinctly marked in her
-faithful memory; it had always been the gayest
-time at Dungar, it had been the brightest period
-of her sojourn at A&mdash;&mdash;, dear A, which she
-found usurping the place Dungar had formerly
-held in her heart. And last autumn though
-clouded, was not all gloom; she had then that
-beloved grandfather, the nucleus round which,
-all her deepest affections, her noblest energies,
-her most unfaltering fortitude had ever rallied,
-rich in their undying truth. She recalled with
-the distinctness of unchanging affection, the incidents,
-trifling though they were, which marked
-the last days of his life; the gradual progress of
-a dejection she could not cheer; the quiet resignation
-of earthly hopes; the silent, the gentleness,
-the child-like simplicity of the noble spirit
-with which she had intimately communed
-during her whole life. Oh how vividly it all<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_243" id="Page_243">[243]</a></span>
-came back to her; the placid smile so sad in its
-sweetness; the thoughtfulness for others so
-marked in his last illness; and it was all over;
-never more on earth should she behold him.</p>
-
-<p>Roused at length from her thoughts by the
-unwonted silence of poor little Willie who was
-discouraged by receiving no answer to his many
-questions, she pressed the hand she held kindly
-and asked&mdash;"does Willie know the way to my
-dear grandfather's grave?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh yes" cried the child eagerly, proud to
-be her guide, "Maria used often to take us
-there in the summer evenings, and mama sometimes,
-we used to see that the flowers were
-taken care of, it is such a pleasant walk."</p>
-
-<p>"Do you remember grandpapa" oppressed
-with the silent anguish of her own heart.</p>
-
-<p>"I think I do" returned Willie, "He had
-such beautiful white hair, and sugar plums
-always in his pocket."</p>
-
-<p>Kate smiled, though her tears fell upon the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_244" id="Page_244">[244]</a></span>
-little hand that lay in hers, as she recognised
-this picture.</p>
-
-<p>"Why do you cry, dear Kate?" asked Willie
-who was a loving creature, "you are never
-naughty."</p>
-
-<p>"I cry," returned Kate, "because I have
-not that dear grandpapa to walk with me or to
-love me any more." The child seemed baffled
-by misfortune so far beyond his comprehension,
-but soon renewed the conversation by one
-of those innocent questions of the state of the
-souls after death, which children propound
-almost as soon as they are capable of observing.</p>
-
-<p>"There it is&mdash;there it is"&mdash;he at length
-cried bounding forward to the head of a grave,
-separated from the turf around, by a couple of
-iron bars supported by small pillars of the same
-metal; some heartsease and laurels adorned the
-little enclosure; and at the head a block of
-marble carved to represent a gothic niche, and
-surmounted by the armorial bearings of the
-deceased, bore the following inscription:&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_245" id="Page_245">[245]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="center">
-SACRED<br />
-TO THE MEMORY OF<br />
-COLONEL D'ARCY VERNON,<br />
-OF DUNGAR,<br />
-JUST, GENEROUS, BRAVE, AND TRUE.<br />
-THIS STONE IS ERECTED BY A MOURNING RELATIVE,<br />
-ONE OF THE MANY WHO OWE HIM AN<br />
-UNREQUITABLE DEBT OF GRATITUDE.
-</p>
-
-<p>This simple, noble epitaph touched and
-gratified Miss Vernon's inmost soul. Simply
-and fervently she raised her soul to Heaven
-in silent prayer; and, at last, soothed and
-calmed by the just tribute so gracefully paid to
-the departed, she called to Willie, who (soon
-wearied of her motionless attitude) had wandered
-away.</p>
-
-<p>"I can never feel a shadow of anger against
-Georgy again for anything," she thought, as
-her eye took in all the advantages of the well<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_246" id="Page_246">[246]</a></span>-chosen
-site&mdash;it was in the highest part of the
-cemetery; far below, lay the mighty town,
-looming indistinct through the cloud and
-smoke that shrouded it, like life with its trials,
-mean and great all hidden, in their tendencies,
-by the mist of human vision&mdash;while around
-and beyond was the clear blue sky, the balmy
-air, and the song of the birds, like the region
-of pure joy, and undimmed faith, to which the
-wearied spirit had escaped.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>"Please 'm, there's a gentleman waiting to
-see you in the drawing-room," said the spruce
-Maria, one evening about a week after, when
-Kate and Mrs. Storey returned from a round of
-visits, into which the former had been entrapped.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed," said Kate, then suddenly recollecting
-herself, "I dare say it is Colonel Dashwood."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_247" id="Page_247">[247]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear, I will go and take off my
-bonnet, and, by that time, you will have
-finished your secrets."</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure Colonel Dashwood never had a
-secret in his life," said Kate, laughing.</p>
-
-<p>She ran hastily up stairs, and found, as she
-had anticipated, that gallant officer engaged in
-contemplating sundry long ringletted ladies
-in a book of beauty, having reduced the geometrical
-arrangement of the round table
-albums and annuals to great confusion.</p>
-
-<p>"I was just about to give you up in despair,"
-cried Colonel Dashwood, advancing to
-meet her with great cordiality. "Any commands
-for Dublin? I start to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p>"For Dublin!" said Kate. "You astonish
-me. How&mdash;what is it takes you away so suddenly?"
-And she looked earnestly at his
-countenance, which wore a bright, hopeful expression,
-far different from the last she had
-seen there.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_248" id="Page_248">[248]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Hampton Court has been insupportable
-since your departure," said the Colonel, gaily,
-"so I have got three weeks' leave; and, after
-some uncertainty how to dispose of myself,
-decided on visiting my old haunts in Ireland."</p>
-
-<p>"I am sorry you will just miss Georgina,"
-observed Miss Vernon. "She has either left
-Dublin for Castle Desmond, or will to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed," cried Colonel Dashwood, evidently
-pulled up by this piece of information.
-"I was speaking to Effingham, who put me
-down here, and he seemed to think she would
-remain there some short time."</p>
-
-<p>"It was pure fancy on Lord Effingham's
-part," returned Kate, "he is quite ignorant of
-her movements."</p>
-
-<p>"So it appears; yet they said at Hampton
-Court that this sudden move was merely a preparatory
-step to changing Lady Desmond into
-the Countess of Effingham."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_249" id="Page_249">[249]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"How absurd," cried Kate, coloring, "there
-never was the least probability of such a <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">finale</i>
-to their acquaintance."</p>
-
-<p>"I discovered as much from Effingham's
-conversation this morning," said the Colonel,
-significantly, "though," he added, laughingly,
-"I confess, notwithstanding some experience
-on these points, my observation was quite at
-fault as to his object in&mdash;but," interrupting
-himself, "I am growing terribly indiscreet,
-Miss Vernon. Effingham was sorry some engagement,
-I do not know what, prevented
-him from calling upon you to-day&mdash;and I
-strongly advised him to defer that pleasure."</p>
-
-<p>"I do not wish to see Lord Effingham," said
-Kate, gravely.</p>
-
-<p>The Colonel raised his eye-brows, and smiled.</p>
-
-<p>"Tell me, if I miss Lady Desmond in Dublin,
-how shall I get on her track? Is there any
-shooting or fishing in the neighbourhood&mdash;is
-Castle Desmond beyond the reach of Bianconi's
-cars?&mdash;for, if I remember rightly, they are<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_250" id="Page_250">[250]</a></span>
-the most extended ramifications of civilisation
-in your splendid country."</p>
-
-<p>The entrance of Mrs. Storey cut short his
-enquiries.</p>
-
-<p>"Colonel Dashwood, Mrs. Storey," said Kate,
-"you remember Colonel Dashwood perhaps."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, quite well," replied Mrs. Storey, with
-one or two little bobbing curtseys, as she took
-the chair handed her by that polite individual.
-"I am very sorry Mr. Storey is not at home,
-and we might, perhaps, induce the Colonel to
-stop dinner with us."</p>
-
-<p>"A thousand thanks, my dear madam; but
-I must dine with the Guards to-day, and only
-ran down here to ask Miss Vernon's commands
-for Ireland."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed! I did not know you were
-Irish."</p>
-
-<p>"Nor am I; but I like good fishing, and
-plenty of fun, and both are to be had in Paddy's
-land."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_251" id="Page_251">[251]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I fear you will not find much of the last
-now," said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"What a pity the Colonel is running away
-before the 30th," said Mrs. Storey. "We
-have a few friends and a little music, and,
-perhaps, you would have joined us," continued
-the hospitable little woman who thought how
-much Colonel's Dashwood's fine figure and <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">air
-distingué</i> would astonish the Bayswater world.</p>
-
-<p>"You had better stay," suggested Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah! unfortunately, it is not in my
-power."</p>
-
-<p>"Were you at the Countess of B&mdash;&mdash;'s
-grand ball on Friday night, Colonel Dashwood?"
-asked Mrs. Storey, anxious to get up
-a little fashionable talk, and to show her knowledge
-of the great world.</p>
-
-<p>"Lady B&mdash;&mdash;, no! did she give a ball?
-I remember her&mdash;she is an awful old woman.
-I never go to balls in London&mdash;they are such
-tame correct things&mdash;country quarters spoil one
-for your regular dazzling scenes."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_252" id="Page_252">[252]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Kate could not refrain from a smile at the
-amazement depicted on Mrs. Storey's countenance
-at this sally.</p>
-
-<p>"Talking of balls," resumed Colonel Dashwood,
-"reminds me of an indefatigable dancer,
-at least, in former years: Fred Egerton; I had
-a letter the other day, from him; he does not
-seem to have got mine, when he wrote. The
-mail is extremely irregular, during all this
-skirmishing&mdash;he appears to be suffering from
-some neglected wound, and is fretting at his
-inactivity&mdash;he used to be the easiest going
-fellow on earth; but Sir John M&mdash;&mdash; was
-telling me the other day, that they hold him
-to be one of the smartest officers on our Indian
-establishment, at present&mdash;he is a capital fellow,
-at all events. By-the-bye, he asks where
-you and the&mdash;." Dashwood stopped short;
-"I mean my late friend, Colonel Vernon, are
-which shows he had not received any letters or
-papers for an immense time."</p>
-
-<p>Kate silently reclined her head, and after<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_253" id="Page_253">[253]</a></span>
-exchanging a few more remarks with Mrs.
-Storey, Colonel Dashwood took his leave, promising,
-with great earnestness, that should
-anything occur to delay his departure, he
-would, without fail, make his appearance
-among the "expected few friends," on the
-30th.</p>
-
-<p>"Good-bye, Miss Vernon," said he, pressing
-her hand kindly; "thanks for your <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">carte du
-pays</i>; take care of yourself, for I cannot give
-a very flourishing account of you to Lady Desmond;
-there is more of the <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">beauté fragile</i> in
-your appearance, than I like to see. When do
-you join your cousin?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh do not talk of that, Colonel Dashwood,"
-interrupted Mrs. Storey. "We cannot
-part with Miss Vernon for a long time to
-come."</p>
-
-<p>Kate only smiled.</p>
-
-<p>"I wish you all success in your fishing;
-only remember the grand characteristic of your
-craft is patience."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_254" id="Page_254">[254]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The Colonel bowed, and was gone.</p>
-
-<p>"What a nice man he is to be sure," cried
-Mrs. Storey, as soon as they were <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">tête-à-tête</i>,
-"so full of life, but quite different from Lord
-Effingham. Those gentleman in the army
-have such a gay, off-hand manner."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, Colonel Dashwood is very much to be
-liked&mdash;I am very fond of him."</p>
-
-<p>"Lord, my dear, that is a confession."</p>
-
-<p>"Is it," said Kate, laughing.</p>
-
-<p>"What would my lord say to that?" asked
-Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"Nothing, I should think."</p>
-
-<p>"Two strings to one's bow, are sometimes
-as bad as none," remarked Mrs. Storey, oracularly.</p>
-
-<p>"Between two stools, etc., is that your
-meaning?" asked Kate, carelessly. "I must
-take off my bonnet and shawl and finish the
-discussion at tea."</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon was glad to have seen Colonel
-Dashwood, and heard from him, of Lord<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_255" id="Page_255">[255]</a></span>
-Effingham's presence in London; she could
-now, if necessary, mention it to Lady Desmond,
-without betraying nurse&mdash;but she
-trusted it would not be necessary, for his
-disinclination to accompany Colonel Dashwood
-in his visit, had led her to hope he had accepted
-her dismissal as final, and already
-begun to forget his <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">engouement</i>. She was glad
-too, that Colonel Dashwood was about to follow
-her cousin&mdash;such a mark of decided preference
-from a man, so deservedly esteemed
-as the Colonel, might, she thought, soothe her
-cousin's mortified spirit; and, perhaps, supply
-her with a real and substantial object of affection,
-as she woke from the vain dream, that
-had proved so bitterly deceitful. "I have heard
-dear grandpapa say, hearts were sometimes
-caught in the rebound."</p>
-
-<p>And Fred Egerton&mdash;she had of late thought
-it strange that he had taken no notice whatever
-of her sad bereavement&mdash;she thought he
-would have written, at least, to Winter, for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_256" id="Page_256">[256]</a></span>
-some particulars of the event; but, resolutely
-turning from these thoughts, she fixed her
-mind on the probable reasons, why she had
-not received a second letter from Lady Desmond;
-and finding her imagination less inclined
-to traverse the narrow breadth of the
-Irish channel, than to devour the wide space
-of the Overland route to India&mdash;she quitted
-the "phantom-peopled" solitude of her chamber,
-and joined the children in a game of
-"blind-man's buff." Mrs. Storey was grievously
-disappointed when, day after day rolled
-by, and Miss Vernon, not only never poured
-any tender revelation into her sympathising
-bosom, but never hinted that there was one to
-make. Mrs. Storey was accustomed to give
-advice in a number of difficult engagements,
-and a young lady, who was not provided with
-a lover, or on the look out for one, was a
-phenomenon uninteresting to her. Kate was
-so unmistakeably true, that she could not accuse
-her of the "depth," to which discreet,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_257" id="Page_257">[257]</a></span>
-and sympathising matrons peculiarly object&mdash;so
-she had nothing for it, but to conclude Miss
-Vernon was too Blue to fall in love. This
-compulsory forbearance was, however, amply
-rewarded.</p>
-
-<p>The day but one after Colonel Dashwood's
-visit, Kate received a letter from Lady Desmond&mdash;she
-wrote in rather better spirits, still
-dated from Dublin&mdash;she said she had postponed
-her departure another week, and that she
-feared very much the state of things about the
-Castle, was very deplorable, as the famine was
-most severe in that part of the world. The
-tone of the letter was more affectionate, yet
-there was something of constraint in it, that
-jarred upon Kate's feelings painfully; "But,"
-she thought, "I will be patient&mdash;poor Georgy!
-she has suffered so much."</p>
-
-<p>After their early dinner, Miss Vernon sat
-down to reply to her cousin's letter, and tell
-her of Colonel Dashwood's visit, intending to
-mention that Lord Effingham was in town<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_258" id="Page_258">[258]</a></span>
-Mrs. Storey was busy over a large work-basket
-filled with small garments, of various sizes;
-and both the children, Charlotte, and William,
-were playing about the room, often interrupting
-the progress of Kate's pen, while occasional
-communications from the scene of action
-up stairs, where the drawing-room was undergoing
-its weekly purification, disturbed the
-labours of Mrs. Storey's needle. They were
-all assembled in a small, plainly furnished
-parlour, used as a common sitting-room.</p>
-
-<p>"Go and look out of the window, like good
-children, and let Miss Vernon write in peace,"
-said mama, at last, and Kate continued to
-write for some moments uninterrupted.</p>
-
-<p>"What a beautiful horse," cried Willie,
-after looking over the blinds for a while in
-silence.</p>
-
-<p>"How he holds up his head," said his sister;
-"and the boy in the pretty little boots is look-at
-all the houses."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_259" id="Page_259">[259]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"They are coming here," shouted Willie,
-clapping his hands.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey rose to look, and reached the
-window, just as the diminutive tiger knocked
-at the door.</p>
-
-<p>"Law, my dear Miss Vernon, this is some
-friend of yours; what a stylish cab," exclaimed
-Mrs. Storey, now quite as much absorbed in
-contemplating the new arrival, as her children.
-"The boy has taken the reins, and&mdash;my gracious,
-if it is'nt Lord Effingham himself, and
-all the furniture out of the drawing-room; and
-my work basket! was there ever anything half
-so unlucky," and she rushed in helpless perplexity
-to hide, at least, the unsightly work-basket
-from view, when the door was thrown
-open, and the spruce maid, looking unusually
-dusty, hastily announced&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"A gentleman for Miss Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>Kate, whose sense of the ridiculous, was too
-genuine to be extinguished, even by sincere
-vexation at so unwelcome a visit, rose to re<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_260" id="Page_260">[260]</a></span>ceive
-him with an irrepressible smile, at the
-contrast between Mrs. Storey's despairing fuss,
-and his calm, unconscious, high-bred <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entré</i>.</p>
-
-<p>Lord Effingham evidently mistook the source
-of that smile, for he responded to it with a
-sudden clearing of his clouded brow, and
-brightening of the eye.</p>
-
-<p>"I began to fear I should never see you
-again, Miss Vernon," was his opening address.
-"I drove Dashwood down here a
-couple of days ago; but, in compassion to his
-evident wish to get rid of me, with praiseworthy
-self-denial, I left him to his own devices;
-and to-day I find he went to the wrong
-house; and I have been some time looking for
-the right one&mdash;all's well that end's well, however;"
-and he bowed, a bow of recognition to
-Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt singularly puzzled how to treat
-him; it was impossible not to accept his easy
-polished manner, and matter-of-course address,
-in the same unembarrassed style; yet it pro<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_261" id="Page_261">[261]</a></span>voked
-her to find him thus establishing himself
-on precisely his former footing, while she
-felt herself powerless to prevent it. She strove
-by monosyllabic answers, and the utmost coldness,
-to convey her distaste for his visits; but
-if repulsed by Miss Vernon, he was eminently
-successful in charming her hostess. He alluded
-once or twice to their pictorial expedition
-at Hampton Court, and asked if the
-famous painter, Langley, was not a relative of
-hers. Mrs. Storey eagerly explained the degree
-of consanguinity; and Kate heard, with
-no small astonishment, a visit to his studio,
-speedily arranged.</p>
-
-<p>"What an amount of annoyance Lord
-Effingham must be enduring," she thought;
-for poor Mrs. Storey exactly represented a class
-of persons, held in devout horror by the fastidious
-Earl; it only required a few caresses to
-the children to complete Miss Vernon's amazement;
-but he did not get quite so far.</p>
-
-<p>"You have not told me anything of Lady<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_262" id="Page_262">[262]</a></span>
-Desmond," said Lord Effingham, turning to
-her with consummate assurance. "She is in
-Dublin, is she not?"</p>
-
-<p>Kate bowed.</p>
-
-<p>"And Miss Vernon had a letter from her
-to-day," added Mrs. Storey, rather scandalised
-by Kate's coldness. "I believe she is quite
-well."</p>
-
-<p>"So nurse says," replied Miss Vernon.</p>
-
-<p>"That is one of the most remarkable women
-I have ever met," observed Lord Effingham, in
-precisely the same tone of dignified approbation
-he would have used towards a crowned
-head.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey laughed, and said, "she was
-quite a character."</p>
-
-<p>The conversation lagged after this; and the
-impatient Earl began to weary of the unwonted
-exercise of so much self-control; he
-was, however, determined to make Miss Vernon
-speak.</p>
-
-<p>"You cannot imagine my astonishment, on<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_263" id="Page_263">[263]</a></span>
-my return from Cowes, to find you had flown,"
-he said; "Lady Desmond's movements are as
-sudden and as well masked as Napoleon's."</p>
-
-<p>"It can hardly be called a masked movement,
-considering it had been discussed a fortnight
-before <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">en cour pleniere</i>," returned Miss
-Vernon; "some intelligence, unexpectedly,
-received, induced my cousin to make the
-journey more suddenly than she had anticipated."</p>
-
-<p>"I expected as much," said Lord Effingham,
-with quiet significance, the insolence of which,
-perceptible to her only, called the indignant
-blood into Kate's cheek. "But," he continued,
-looking steadily at her, "some fairy, or angel
-whispered to me that you would not accompany
-her, although I am not in the habit of
-receiving angelic communications."</p>
-
-<p>"There are two descriptions of angels,"
-said Kate, simply.</p>
-
-<p>The remark was irresistible; but it was
-hardly uttered before she regretted it; for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_264" id="Page_264">[264]</a></span>
-Lord Effingham smiled, gaily, as if gratified
-that she had deigned to retort. He was now
-satisfied he had accomplished as much as one
-visit would permit, and rising to depart,
-thanked Mrs. Storey for her permission to accompany
-them to Langley's studio, and made
-his adieux with the same ease that marked
-his <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entré</i>.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear," cried Mrs. Storey, triumphantly,
-"you will believe me again! I
-think there is no mistake about that. And
-how you could treat such an elegant man with
-the greatest coldness, I cannot understand.
-Had you any quarrel with him? for you were
-friendly enough at Hampton Court."</p>
-
-<p>"I have no quarrel with Lord Effingham,
-Mrs. Storey," replied Kate, gravely; "but I
-dislike him extremely; and I must ask you,
-as a favour, that you will not encourage him
-to come here. It is very natural that you
-should think well of him. I know him better."</p>
-
-<p>"Law! my dear girl," said Mrs. Storey,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_265" id="Page_265">[265]</a></span>
-eagerly. "Don't be foolish! Earls are not to
-be found on every bush. And what is it to
-you if he has been a little wild; young men
-will be young men; and when he is married,
-he will turn over a new leaf. See, how independent
-and grand you would be as Countess
-of Effingham, going down to dinner before
-Lady Desmond herself."</p>
-
-<p>"I know, my dear Mrs. Storey, how well-meant
-is your advice; and, believe me, I am
-grateful for the interest you take in my prospects;
-but do not refuse my request; help me
-to avoid Lord Effingham."</p>
-
-<p>"But what shall we do about to-morrow?"
-said poor Mrs. Storey, ruefully. She could not
-relinquish an Earl without a pang.</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure Mr. Langley will raise some obstacle.
-At all events, I will remain in my own
-room, and you can act as his <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">cicerone</i>. If this
-continues," added Kate, resolutely, "I will
-leave London. Indeed, I have wished to speak
-to you on this subject before."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_266" id="Page_266">[266]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I am sure I shall never forgive Lord
-Effingham if he frightens you away, my dear,"
-said Mrs. Storey, kindly; and then added, reflectively&mdash;"goodness
-me! how strange high-life
-is!"</p>
-
-<p>This visit of Lord Effingham's was a great
-shock to Kate; how was she to clear herself
-in Lady Desmond's eyes from the suspicion
-that she had consented so readily to remain in
-London in order to see her accepted lover more
-frequently. Yes! the only remedy was to
-mature her crude plans for endeavouring to
-obtain employment of some kind out of London&mdash;to
-dependance she would never return.</p>
-
-<p>Kate's anticipations as to Langley's raising
-obstacles to that visit proved correct; he made
-his appearance, according to his usual custom,
-at tea time.</p>
-
-<p>"Lord Effingham was here this morning,
-William&mdash;he is very anxious to see your
-studio; and I promised to take him with me
-to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_267" id="Page_267">[267]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"He does me infinite honour," said Langley.
-"But it happens I am going to Windsor
-to-morrow, and cannot leave my studio unlocked
-even to gratify his lordship."</p>
-
-<p>Kate thought he said this with unusual
-acerbity.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, that <em>is</em> unfortunate," cried Mrs.
-Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"What a <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">grandee</i> you are growing all at once,
-Charlotte," said her husband, facetiously;
-"patronising Earls and Colonels&mdash;they will
-want you at Almacks next. Talking of finery,"
-continued Mr. Storey, "I was introduced to
-Tom Jorrocks' wife to-day, and promised
-you would call upon her&mdash;they are in town,
-for a few weeks, at &mdash;&mdash;; here's his card,
-Cambridge Terrace."</p>
-
-<p>And Mr. and Mrs. Storey immediately
-plunged into the history of Tom Jorrocks and
-his wife, and of how rich his mother was, and
-what a large fortune he was making, &amp;c., &amp;c.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_268" id="Page_268">[268]</a></span>
-While Langley and Kate conversed quietly
-apart.</p>
-
-<p>"Is Lord Effingham a great lover of painting?"</p>
-
-<p>"I believe so; he certainly understands it."</p>
-
-<p>"It is curious enough; I was walking this
-evening with Gailliard, (who, by the way, was
-making many enquiries for you,) when Lord
-Effingham drove past us in Regent Street.
-Gailliard seems to have known a good deal of
-him abroad; he gave a curious character of
-him." Langley thought for some moments,
-and then resumed&mdash;"You remember Gailliard?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, quite well&mdash;I should like to see him
-again."</p>
-
-<p>"He has just returned from France, with a
-perfect budget of anecdotes, touching the late
-Revolution; he is a strange fellow," concluded
-Langley, musingly.</p>
-
-<p>"I always wonder that M. Gailliard is not
-a man of greater eminence than he is."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_269" id="Page_269">[269]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes&mdash;he has all the ingredients to be a
-great writer, a good artist, a leading character,
-and yet he seems to have missed everything."</p>
-
-<p>"Perhaps," said Kate, smiling, "he requires
-the predominance of some one of these
-qualities to decide his character, as the slightly
-superior strength of the right hand prevents
-the awkwardness of not knowing which to
-use."</p>
-
-<p>"Very likely. Do you know, Miss Vernon,
-you think a good deal for a young lady!"</p>
-
-<p>"I cannot accept so insulting a compliment,"
-said Kate, laughing; and rising, at
-Mrs. Storey's request, she went to the piano.
-"I want your opinion of this air&mdash;it came
-back to me in a dream some nights ago. A
-poor silly boy at Dungar used to sing it so
-sweetly, and I have never heard it since. I rather
-think it is a very old air that escaped Moore
-and Sir John Stevenson&mdash;the Irish words I
-never knew; but these I found among poor<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_270" id="Page_270">[270]</a></span>
-Mr. Gilpin's papers&mdash;they seem to have been
-written not long before his sister's death."</p>
-
-<p>And, after a few arpeggio chords, she sung
-as follows:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"Look afar thro' the gloom, weary heart,</div>
- <div class="verse">To yon dim and faint revealing,</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">The glim'ring ray</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">Of distant day</div>
- <div class="verse">O'er life's troubled ocean stealing.</div>
-</div><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">It comes with endless joy, sad heart,</div>
- <div class="verse">A glorious sunburst beaming,</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">With peace and love</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">From heaven above,</div>
- <div class="verse">O'er sin and sorrow streaming.</div>
-</div><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">Soon the dark waters past, sad heart,</div>
- <div class="verse">Thou'lt rest in thy spirit home,</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">Where we part no more</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">From those gone before</div>
- <div class="verse">Across life's billowy foam.</div><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_271" id="Page_271">[271]</a></span>
-</div><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">There no falsehood shall oppress thee,</div>
- <div class="verse">Nor sorrow's dark'ning gloom,</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">For free is the soul</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">That has reached its goal,</div>
- <div class="verse">In the world beyond the tomb."</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>"Well, Miss Vernon," remarked Mr. Storey,
-"that's quite too melancholy a song for me&mdash;the
-dismals never suit my book."</p>
-
-<p>"My dear! it is beautiful, and made me
-cry, I could not help it!" exclaimed his wife.</p>
-
-<p>"You say the words are original," observed
-Langley.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I am almost sure they were written
-by Mr. Gilpin's sister, who died of consumption
-shortly before we went to A&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"They suit the air remarkably&mdash;the song
-makes an impression I shall not easily forget
-nor your singing of it," added Langley, more
-to himself than to Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Now, Miss Vernon, may I ask for that
-march we liked so much, yesterday?" said<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_272" id="Page_272">[272]</a></span>
-Mrs. Storey, and soon afterwards they separated
-for the night.</p>
-
-<p>The next morning was most perseveringly
-wet, and both Mrs. Storey and Kate agreed that
-the most determined picture-maniac would
-hardly venture out in such weather.</p>
-
-<p>"But you will see, he will come for all that,"
-concluded Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"Then <em>you</em> must receive him," said Kate,
-"I will not appear."</p>
-
-<p>"Gracious goodness," cried her hostess.
-"What shall I say about you?"</p>
-
-<p>"Do not trouble yourself to think&mdash;send for
-me, and the message I shall return will relieve
-you of all responsibility."</p>
-
-<p>"But if he insists on seeing you?"</p>
-
-<p>"He dare not!" said Kate, with a sudden
-lighting of the eye, and proud drawing up of
-the head that seemed to her good easy friend
-like the revelation of some unknown world.
-"Well my dear, whatever you like," she said,
-meekly.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_273" id="Page_273">[273]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey's conjectures proved true, for,
-notwithstanding the weather, Lord Effingham
-arrived punctually at the time specified.</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt her heart beat a little nervously,
-as she watched him walking across the garden,
-from the window of the nursery where she had
-ensconced herself.</p>
-
-<p>In due course of time, Mrs. Storey's message
-reached her.</p>
-
-<p>"Please'm, my missis says, would you be so
-good as to step down."</p>
-
-<p>"My compliments, I am particularly engaged,"
-said Miss Vernon, quietly.</p>
-
-<p>And soon after, she heard the hall door
-open and shut, and the sound of retreating
-wheels informed her the enemy was in retreat.
-She found Mrs. Storey looking rather
-crest-fallen.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear, he is gone&mdash;in a very bad
-humour, I can tell you&mdash;he came in so politely,
-and asked if we still intended to go. So I told
-him about my brother being from home, he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_274" id="Page_274">[274]</a></span>
-did not seem to mind it much; but said he
-hoped another time we should be more successful;
-then he asked for you, and if you
-were at home, so I sent for you, and I assure
-my dear, I was beginning to feel quite nervous,
-for though he smiled and talked, he was looking
-very black, as if he was vexed at not
-seeing you. When Maria brought back your
-message, he turned and looked out of the window
-for a minute, then he said, with a very
-different kind of smile from what I saw before&mdash;'I
-should be sorry to interfere with Miss
-Vernon's particular engagements, and as I am
-very likely interrupting your avocations, I
-shall bid you good morning.' I told him I
-had nothing in the world to do at that hour of
-the day&mdash;but he did not seem to hear me
-speak, and with a sort of proud bow, he walked
-off; and, my dear girl, I am sure you have
-mortally offended him; but, for all that, I
-think he might have listened when I spoke to
-him."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_275" id="Page_275">[275]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Kate, "he was very rude, and
-we must both be out if he comes again, though
-I do hope and believe that was a mere threat."</p>
-
-<p>All remembrance of his Lordship's impertinence
-was quickly obliterated from Mrs.
-Storey's mind, by the rapidly increasing toils
-of preparation for "the thirtieth;" it was to be
-a quiet musical party&mdash;in consideration of Miss
-Vernon's mourning&mdash;but very <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">recherché</i>. Mrs.
-Storey determined the supper should be what
-her husband termed a "chief endeavour," the
-facetious translation of "<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">chef d'&oelig;uvre</i>."</p>
-
-<p>Kate waited till that all-absorbing event
-was over, and Mrs. Storey's attention free, before
-she took her into her confidence, as regarded
-her future plans. She was now most
-anxious to do so. Employment, either as a
-resident governess, or a companion, was absolutely
-necessary. She could not remain much
-longer with Mrs. Storey, and to accept money
-or protection from Lady Desmond, while her
-suspicions remained as keenly alive as they<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_276" id="Page_276">[276]</a></span>
-then were, was impossible. Her cousin's
-letters, though expressing a formal wish that
-she was happy and comfortable, had not, as
-yet, hinted at the future. And, however
-firmly Kate might trust to the mercy and
-guidance of an over-ruling Providence, the uncertainty
-of her prospects kept her in cruel
-suspense. If she could but only hear from
-Winter, and learn where to direct to him, all
-would be well. Then she would turn to
-Winter's last letter, and dwell upon the
-reality of its tone; for, strange though it be,
-there is something so unerring in the instinct
-of truth, that mere written expressions, in all
-the barrenness of ink and paper, convey the
-real, or the unreal unmistakeably. Kate was
-always comforted by the perusal of the good
-little artist's characteristic epistles; they
-placed him before her, in all the uncompromising
-sincerity she had tried, and never found wanting.</p>
-
-<p>The day but one after her party, Mrs. Storey<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_277" id="Page_277">[277]</a></span>
-disappointed Kate's intention of asking for a
-quiet confidential walk after dinner, by desiring
-the parlour maid at breakfast, to&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Tell cook to have dinner at one precisely,
-I must go into town on particular business to-day."</p>
-
-<p>Kate declined her invitation to accompany
-her, observing&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I want a long talk with you, dear Mrs.
-Storey, the first time you are at leisure."</p>
-
-<p>She received a ready assent to her proposition,
-from her curious hostess, who anticipated a
-clearing up of all the mysteries connected with
-Lord Effingham.</p>
-
-<p>Kate had not long enjoyed the unwonted
-stillness of the house, after Mrs. Storey had
-departed for town, and the children for their
-afternoon walk, when her attention was
-aroused by the sound of voices in the hall, and
-the next moment Lord Effingham walked into
-the room. Miss Vernon started, and with
-difficulty suppressed the exclamation of sur<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_278" id="Page_278">[278]</a></span>prise
-which sprang to her lips. She rose from
-her seat, and stood silent, while her unwelcome
-visitor, advancing towards her, said, with the
-species of enforced quiet, which always indicated
-that emotion of some kind was struggling
-in his breast&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I do not apologise for this intrusion, Miss
-Vernon, for you will, I know, forgive it, when
-I tell you how unconquerable is my desire to
-speak with you, alone. I have watched your
-amiable and intelligent hostess set out for town,
-and so made sure of some uninterrupted conversation&mdash;you
-must not refuse to hear me."</p>
-
-<p>"No, Lord Effingham," said Miss Vernon,
-recovering her self-possession, "I, too, am
-almost glad, since you will not accept the tacit
-expression of my wishes, to have a decisive
-interview, we cannot continue on our present
-footing."</p>
-
-<p>"The extraordinary fact of your being
-domesticated with such people," exclaimed
-Lord Effingham, abruptly, "is sufficiently elo<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_279" id="Page_279">[279]</a></span>quent
-of the terms on which you and your
-cousin parted&mdash;and I must know something
-more decisive from your own lips, before I
-resign all hopes of you. Speak! Have you
-and your cousin separated in consequence of her
-insane pride&mdash;her absurd fancy about myself?"</p>
-
-<p>"If I could convey the least idea to your
-mind," answered Kate, holding down her indignation,
-in order to speak with greater
-force, "of the repugnance with which I
-shrink from such expressions, you would not, I
-am sure, offend me by repeating them, Good
-Heavens," she continued, "what effect can
-you imagine must be produced upon one
-woman by such bold, such dishonorable assertions
-of another."</p>
-
-<p>"Dishonorable!" cried the Earl, his sallow
-cheek flushing for an instant. "You use strong
-terms, Miss Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>"Not more strong than just," returned
-Kate. "I call it dishonorable, if, rightly or<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_280" id="Page_280">[280]</a></span>
-not, you conceive you have won a place in a
-woman's heart, to glance at the secret, even to
-your most intimate associate, much more to
-make it the subject of scornful remark to that
-woman's&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>She stopped, fearful of betraying herself or
-her cousin. Lord Effingham supplied the
-word&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Rival you would have said, and you are
-right. I can well imagine the scorn, the bitterness
-with which she reproached you for all
-the crimes of art and dissimulation, of which
-<em>you</em> are so incapable. I can fancy the passionate,
-unappeaseable suspicions which drove
-you&mdash;here," he added, after a moment's pause
-to glance, with unutterable contempt, round
-the homely room in which they sat.</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt that she quailed before the true
-picture he had sketched.</p>
-
-<p>"Your eyes are less faithful to your cousin's
-cause than your lips&mdash;<em>they</em> admit much," continued
-Lord Effingham.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_281" id="Page_281">[281]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Then what I look I will speak," returned
-Kate, with sudden boldness. "Georgina, if she
-does care for you, is not a woman to give away
-her heart unasked. I have known and loved
-her all my life&mdash;that she is not indifferent to
-you, is, in my eyes, incontrovertible proof that
-you endeavoured to win her affections. It is
-no disgrace to a woman," continued Kate,
-with encreasing boldness, "to give the heart
-that seems so ardently sought. No; the truer
-the purer&mdash;the nobler it is&mdash;the more incapable
-it is of conceiving the gratuitous treason that
-betrays it. I do not see why I should attempt
-to conceal the fact that I fear my cousin once
-loved you&mdash;with you rests the reproach; but
-do you suppose that I am so unreal as to trust
-you&mdash;to believe that a passing admiration could
-so change your spirit, as to teach it sympathy
-with mine? that your treachery to one woman
-would be a guarantee of good faith to another?
-No, my Lord! I am made of different stuff.
-Do not, for a moment, imagine it is in your<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_282" id="Page_282">[282]</a></span>
-power to cause disunion between two such
-tried friends as my cousin and myself&mdash;we
-know each other's truth&mdash;we know it is worth
-too much to be lightly cast aside."</p>
-
-<p>She paused; and Lord Effingham, whose
-varied colour had settled into deadly paleness,
-rose, and paced the room in silence, before replying&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"You are a stern judge, Miss Vernon," he
-said, at length, in the deep tone of concentrated
-anger. "I little thought the indulgence of a
-harmless whim would have been so severely
-visited upon me. Listen, fair and rigid exposer
-of my follies," he continued, sneeringly.
-"The secret of your just severity may be
-summed up thus&mdash;you do not love me; therefore,
-the conduct you so eloquently denounce,
-is unextenuated by the softening consideration
-that it was you&mdash;your own irresistible attractions&mdash;that
-made me a traitor. Your indifference,
-perhaps your pre-occupation, lends a
-magnifying power to your moral sense, and I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_283" id="Page_283">[283]</a></span>
-am condemned; where&mdash;circumstances slightly
-changed&mdash;I might have been cherished. Enough;
-I am satisfied there is no chance of my winning
-your affections. I will not, therefore, degrade
-myself or weary you with vain efforts." He
-stopped opposite to her, silently for a minute, his
-arms folded, his eyes fixed on her face. "I wish
-to God I had known you long ago, Kate&mdash;that I
-had met you first. How is it, that with rank,
-and riches, and power here&mdash;" and he touched
-his forehead, "all rare gifts&mdash;I have so often
-missed the road to happiness."</p>
-
-<p>Kate, moved by the tone of despondency
-with which this was asked, replied hesitatingly&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Perhaps&mdash;because you never knew where
-to look for it."</p>
-
-<p>"And will you not direct me?" said the
-Earl, with intense earnestness.</p>
-
-<p>Kate shook her head in silent refusal.</p>
-
-<p>He gazed at her still for an instant, and
-then, taking her hand, said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_284" id="Page_284">[284]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"In all probability, we shall never meet
-again. You have acted in accordance with
-your character&mdash;I, with mine."</p>
-
-<p>And, turning away, he left the house.</p>
-
-<p>Kate remained lost in thought without
-moving from the position in which she had
-heard Lord Effingham's parting words; she
-could hardly believe that he was really gone&mdash;that
-he would return no more; but stranger
-still, was the impression of regret and compassion
-he had left upon her mind. Surely
-there were the scattered elements of much
-good in his character. What was it that had
-so fatally disunited them? The repellent power
-of selfishness. He had, as he said, goodly
-gifts, rank, and riches, and intellectual power;
-but the heart, wherein is the balance which harmonises
-the whole, was corrupt and false; but
-her sensation was that of relief. One difficulty
-was removed; her cousin could not long remain
-in ignorance of his final rejection&mdash;nay,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_285" id="Page_285">[285]</a></span>
-in justice to herself, she determined to mention
-having seen the Earl for the last time.</p>
-
-<p>"My way is becoming clear," was the
-most distinct idea, as she endeavoured to refix
-her thoughts upon her book. It was in vain
-she read and re-read each page, the words
-might be traced by the eye; but the mind was
-far too full to admit the sense; and in the
-struggle between reverie and attention, Mrs.
-Storey returned.</p>
-
-<p>"I am sure I have a thousand apologies to
-make, my dear, leaving you all the afternoon
-by yourself."</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, Mrs. Storey, you need not apologise;
-besides I have not been alone. Lord
-Effingham has been here."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed," cried Mrs. Storey, eagerly.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes; and I do not think we shall be
-troubled with him any more."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear, you know best; but&mdash;"
-and Mrs. Storey shook her head.</p>
-
-<p>In truth, the kind-hearted little woman was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_286" id="Page_286">[286]</a></span>
-much attached to Kate, especially since she
-had been domesticated with her. She would
-gladly have witnessed her "<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entrée</i>" at court in
-the character of the Countess of Effingham, and
-still more gladly shone in the reflected lustre
-of so brilliant a friend; but if Miss Vernon did
-not like him it was very unfortunate.</p>
-
-<p>The next morning brought Kate a letter from
-Lady Desmond, and another from nurse. The
-former, after commenting on Colonel Dashwood's
-sudden appearance in Dublin, and expressing,
-more constrainedly and coldly than
-usual, her hopes that Kate was happy, &amp;c., &amp;c.,
-went on to say, "I am annoyed by a strange
-whim of nurse's; she will no doubt tell you all
-about it; she is determined on leaving me 'to
-see her people;' and as the only solution for
-such an amount of family affection, I must
-conclude that she is unhappy or uncomfortable
-in my establishment&mdash;I wish she would condescend
-to mention in what particular; but this
-is too candid a line of conduct for persons of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_287" id="Page_287">[287]</a></span>
-her class." Kate felt deeply the acerbity with
-which her cousin wrote, and turned anxiously
-to nurse's letter for an explanation of the
-affair.</p>
-
-<p>"My own blessed darlin'," it began, "I've a
-power to tell you; but, first of all, avourneen,
-there's yer letter that warmed yer own ould
-nurse's heart&mdash;my hearty thanks for it, jewil.
-You see, there's three weeks of the four I
-promised to stay with my lady gone, and I'm
-wearyin' to see my sisther's daughter and her
-childre that's doin' well in Killeesh; and an
-unfortunate vagabone of a boy, my cousin, they
-tell me is gone to the bad&mdash;so I'm sure, Miss
-Kate, jewil, ye'll give me lave to step over, and
-if I get a thrifle of work, sure I'll be better
-plaised nor to be here doin' nothin', but in
-everybody's way, an' my lady different to what
-she used to be&mdash;not but that she's good; but,
-asthore, I don't know how she and you
-parted, an' I never feel asy like with her, so<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_288" id="Page_288">[288]</a></span>
-just tell me you'll let me off stoppin' here any
-longer."</p>
-
-<p>Kate hardly felt surprise at this intelligence.
-She had instinctively expected that nurse would
-not remain long with Lady Desmond; yet this
-was an increase of anxiety. "I trust she will
-not give away all her money," thought Kate,
-as she sat down to reply to Lady Desmond's
-letter. She expressed her regret at nurse's
-determination, urging, however, in extenuation,
-that her desire to revisit the scenes of her youth,
-and the few relations she had left, was natural
-and pardonable. After touching on all the
-points in her cousin's letter, she found herself
-concluding her own before she had courage to
-mention Lord Effingham's name; she therefore
-added a short postscript&mdash;"I have seen Lord
-Effingham for the last time." She next wrote
-her assent to nurse's project, recommending
-her, however, merely to go on furlough, and
-not to break altogether with Lady Desmond.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_289" id="Page_289">[289]</a></span>
-These letters despatched, she joined her
-hostess.</p>
-
-<p>"You remember, I told you yesterday, I
-wanted a good long talk with you, Mrs. Storey."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, dear, and here I am ready for it."</p>
-
-<p>"You are very kind to me, Mrs. Storey."</p>
-
-<p>"La, my love, it's a pleasure to me."</p>
-
-<p>"You know I am very poor," said Kate, not
-exactly sure how to get into her subject. "I
-told you at Hampton Court that terrible lawsuit
-was not concluded, and now it seems it has died
-a natural death; so I must try and do something
-for myself."</p>
-
-<p>A thundering knock here startled and interrupted
-her.</p>
-
-<p>"Goodness, gracious me," cried Mrs. Storey,
-"who can that be? A very smart brougham,
-my dear, and&mdash;let me see&mdash;yes&mdash;no&mdash;it <em>is</em>
-young Mrs. Tom Jorrocks. Well, she is very
-agreeable, but I wish she had not interrupted
-us. Delighted to see you, Mrs. Jorrocks&mdash;this
-is so kind and friendly," &amp;c., &amp;c.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_290" id="Page_290">[290]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>By Mrs. Tom Jorrocks greetings were exchanged,
-and much was said of the delightful
-evening she had passed at Raby Villa, of Miss
-Vernon's charming music, and the beauty of the
-children; then the excitement of town was discussed,
-and young Mrs. Tom Jorrocks admitted
-that, notwithstanding its pleasures, she should
-be glad to be once more quietly settled at Leeds.
-"And besides all my own engagements," she
-continued, "I am busily employed looking out
-for a young lady to be a sort of companion to
-my mother-in-law, who is growing rather blind.
-She wants some one who will be a cheerful
-associate, and read aloud nicely, and be like
-a daughter to her; she lives with her daughter,
-Mrs. Wilson, but <em>she</em> is so much engaged with
-her house and servants and sons, Mrs. Jorrocks
-is often lonely."</p>
-
-<p>"I think I know a lady who might suit you,"
-said Kate, suddenly captivated with the imaginary
-picture of a gentle, lonely old lady who
-wanted a daughter's companionship.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_291" id="Page_291">[291]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Indeed it would be a great comfort if I
-could acquit myself well in the search," said
-young Mrs. Jorrocks, with a laugh. "My
-mother-in-law is very wealthy, and would not
-object to a salary of thirty or forty pounds; she
-is rather particular, but very kind."</p>
-
-<p>"If you will allow me to call upon you to-morrow,
-I will let you know more particulars."</p>
-
-<p>"I cannot tell the obligation you would
-confer upon me should you enable me to get
-rid of the affair. Might I ask you to call upon
-me to-morrow at twelve? If not too early, I
-shall be enchanted to see you."</p>
-
-<p>"At twelve, then, I will be with you," said
-Kate, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>"And now, Mrs. Storey, I must bid you good
-morning. My compliments to Mr. Storey.
-Good morning Miss Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>"You were surprised. I dare say, at my
-sudden interest in Mrs. Jorrocks' researches,"
-said Kate to Mrs. Storey, when they were once
-more alone.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_292" id="Page_292">[292]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes&mdash;no&mdash;that is, do go on and tell me&mdash;surely
-it can't be yourself?"</p>
-
-<p>"It is indeed for myself I wish to secure
-the engagement," returned Miss Vernon. "I
-must resume the thread of my discourse, which
-Mrs. Jorrocks' <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entré</i> interrupted. I am sure
-you are too thoroughly English not to sympathise
-in my wish to <em>earn</em> a livelihood, be it ever
-so humble, rather than live in dependence, even
-on a generous and affectionate relative like my
-cousin; I do not want a large salary, but a home is
-indispensable&mdash;at least," she added with a sigh,
-"a respectable protection&mdash;for a <em>home</em> can never
-be found among strangers&mdash;and this appears to
-promise fairly enough."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my dear, you really take away my
-breath! I thought you were never to leave
-Lady Desmond! She told me so herself. I
-really think you are very foolish. Who would
-be so fit a person for you to be companion to as
-your own cousin? What does she think? My
-goodness! Who would have thought it!"</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_293" id="Page_293">[293]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Lady Desmond will, no doubt, be very
-averse to my plan, but at present I see no
-other open to me. I particularly wish not to
-join her while she is in Ireland&mdash;elsewhere I
-may. Indeed, I should at once have offered
-myself to Mrs. Jorrocks, but that I thought it
-right to consult you first&mdash;you might not like
-me to do so."</p>
-
-<p>"La, my dear, I only wish you to do what
-you think will be for the best; but, dear me,
-how astonished Mrs. Tom will be, to be sure!
-I always told her how fashionable and rich all
-your friends and relations were," said Mrs.
-Storey, in a slightly vexed tone.</p>
-
-<p>"If it annoys you in the least, pray tell me,
-and I will not say anything more about it&mdash;I
-should be grieved to vex you," said Kate, with
-so much sweetness of tone and manner, that
-Mrs. Storey gave her a hearty kiss, and wished
-her all success.</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, dear, you have the right spirit;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_294" id="Page_294">[294]</a></span>
-and, after all, I dare say you have your own
-reasons for leaving Lady Desmond!"</p>
-
-<p>"She is always kind and good," said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon was truly glad to have this
-explanation so well over; and though anxious
-as to her future, most thankful for the opening
-which so unexpectedly offered.</p>
-
-<p>"I can stay there, at all events, till the
-Winters' return. Oh, when will they write!"</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>The next morning, she started early on her
-visit to Mrs. Tom Jorrocks, and pondered, as
-she went, on the difference of her feelings now
-from those with which she used to seek employment;
-formerly, she was full of anxious,
-palpitating hope and fear. Hoping to have
-good news wherewith to return to grandpapa
-and nurse&mdash;fearing that she might not succeed;
-but both sensations invigorated and spurred<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_295" id="Page_295">[295]</a></span>
-her on. Now it was for herself alone, she was
-interested; and she walked calmly, undisturbed
-by either hope or fear; she was almost
-surprised at the fearless, careless indifference
-with which she viewed the future.</p>
-
-<p>"Can it be that I am so much alone! Oh,
-if I could but live with nurse! I wonder will
-Mr. Winter renew his proposal to take her as
-housekeeper when he returns."</p>
-
-<p>These thoughts brought her to Mrs. Jorrocks's
-door. She was most cordially received.
-The bride was alone; and the first surprise and
-exclamations over, matters were speedily arranged.</p>
-
-<p>"I am really ashamed to offer you what my
-mother-in-law has limited me to," said young
-Mrs. Jorrocks, with some embarrassment.</p>
-
-<p>"You need not mind that," returned Kate;
-"I want more a&mdash;" she could not desecrate the
-word "home," and substituted, "a respectable
-residence."</p>
-
-<p>"Well then, I consider you engaged; and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_296" id="Page_296">[296]</a></span>
-I am sure I shall win golden opinions for sending
-down such a companion as yourself," returned
-Mrs. Tom, who had become marvellously
-familiar and agreeable.</p>
-
-<p>"I had nearly forgotten to ask you where
-Mrs. Jorrocks lives&mdash;a very necessary question."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, at Carrington&mdash;her son-in-law, Mr.
-Wilson, is a cotton broker there."</p>
-
-<p>"Carrington," repeated Kate, colouring
-with surprise and emotion.</p>
-
-<p>"Not a very nice place, I grant," said the
-bride. "But the Wilsons live in the New
-Park, quite away from the town. Have you
-ever been there?"</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, once. We used to live at A&mdash;&mdash;,
-which is only an hour's drive from Carrington."</p>
-
-<p>"I know; we went over there to look at
-the Cathedral, when I was at Carrington. Then,
-Miss Vernon, you will be ready to go down
-next week? My mother-in-law is very anxious
-for some one who will read to her."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Kate, confused by the flood of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_297" id="Page_297">[297]</a></span>
-memories which welled up from the depths of
-her heart, at the sound of these familiar
-names.</p>
-
-<p>"Old Mrs. Jorrocks will write and say what
-day she expects you. I am sure, I am delighted
-to have concluded this business so satisfactorily."</p>
-
-<p>"Then I will wish you good morning."</p>
-
-<p>"Good morning, Miss Vernon, good morning!"</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>"Dear Mrs. Storey! it is all settled!" cried
-Kate, on finding that lady alone. "I am
-going to Carrington&mdash;where&mdash;where&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>A burst of irrepressible tears choked her
-voice.</p>
-
-<p>"My dear girl! don't now&mdash;there's a love!
-here, smell to the salts," exclaimed Mrs.
-Storey, in great perplexity; she did not un<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_298" id="Page_298">[298]</a></span>derstand
-the grateful sympathy of silence on
-such occasions.</p>
-
-<p>"I was so happy there&mdash;so unutterably
-light-hearted! the world was all joy to me&mdash;existence
-in itself a blessing! And to go
-back there now, when some strange spell seems
-to have doomed me to utter loneliness!
-Grandpapa gone, nurse gone, Georgy, Mr.
-Winter, his kind wife, all I was ever linked
-with in happy days, far away."</p>
-
-<p>"My love, don't go there; stay a bit longer
-with us; you know, if the house was only a
-little larger, I would not let you go away for
-ever so long; but&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Dear friend," said Kate, recovering herself&mdash;"I
-was surprised into this outburst&mdash;do
-not mind it&mdash;I am quite resolved to go to Mrs.
-Jorrocks. Nay, when I have conquered my
-foolish weakness, I shall be pleased to be near
-my old haunts. I will go to my room and
-think&mdash;I am always better when I think by
-myself."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_299" id="Page_299">[299]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Very well, dear, whatever you like."</p>
-
-<p>Long and earnestly did Kate think, and
-her thoughts were prayers. She looked steadily
-at the past; and, from its trials and blessings,
-gathered strength for the future.</p>
-
-<p>And fancy, which is ever so strangely at
-variance with the exterior atmosphere of prosperity
-or depression, held up a bright picture
-of Egerton, standing between her and all
-future loneliness, of his manly tenderness, and
-simple truth, till she almost fancied she heard
-his well known voice speaking to her, those
-lovely words of Longfellow's&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container"><div class="poetry"><div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse">"Oh, let thy weary heart rest upon mine,</div>
- <div class="verse">And it shall faint no more, nor thirst, nor hunger,</div>
- <div class="verse">But be satisfied and filled with my affection,"</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>"I am wrong, I am too bold, to let such
-thoughts glance across my mind. I will not
-let them come again, how weak, how vain they
-are! but I can never think of dear grandpapa,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_300" id="Page_300">[300]</a></span>
-without seeing Colonel Egerton, as it were, beside
-him, they are so closely linked in my
-heart."</p>
-
-<p>And with sudden decision she rose, bathed
-her eyes, and joined Mrs. Storey on a journey
-to Bond Street.</p>
-
-<p>As young Mrs. Jorrocks had prophesied,
-Kate received a speedy summons from <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">La Belle
-Mère</i>. The letter was written in much the
-same style of caligraphy, in which a small
-"dress-maker" notes down her little account;
-the orthography was tolerably correct; but the
-composition was rather confused.</p>
-
-<p>"Poor thing," said Miss Vernon, mentally;
-"she is probably too blind to write with ease&mdash;perhaps
-her maid acted as amanuensis. I
-hope she is a loveable person. What wonderful
-changes I have seen;" and turning to her
-desk, she wrote to Mrs. Jorrocks, promising
-to be with her on the specified Thursday.</p>
-
-<p>"Dear nurse used to say Thursday was a
-lucky day," she said, as she closed the letter.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_301" id="Page_301">[301]</a></span>
-After some consideration, she determined on
-informing nurse and her cousin that she was
-tired of London, and going to stay with some
-acquaintances she had made through Mrs.
-Storey. "There can be no use in unnecessarily
-fretting them," she thought. "I am
-determined not to go to Georgy till I can trace
-a very different tone in her letters; she cannot
-help her suspicions, I believe; but I need not
-make her more unhappy than she is. How I
-wish I could see some newspaper announcement
-of Lord Effingham's departure for the
-continent!"</p>
-
-<p>But her wish was in vain, Lord Effingham
-continued to revolve between London and
-Cowes; and Lady Desmond's reply was
-strangely commingled with petulance and affection.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_302" id="Page_302">[302]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER VIII.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">CARRINGTON.</p>
-
-
-<p>It was a cold, gloomy, blustering evening, in
-the beginning of September, when the increase
-of houses, and appearance of hissing and
-tranquil engines along the line of rail-road,
-announced to Kate that she was approaching
-the termination of her journey; she wondered
-she did not feel more of that sinking of heart,
-and thrilling of nerves, with which she used
-to regard any important crisis or event. She
-felt so terribly depressed, that anything like
-the hope, implied by fear or anxiety, was quite
-out of the question; yet there occasionally<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_303" id="Page_303">[303]</a></span>
-glanced across her mind the thought, "have
-I not come to the worst; perhaps the next
-change may be for the better."</p>
-
-<p>"Half-past six&mdash;nearly an hour behind
-time," said a fat, rosy old gentleman, who sat
-opposite to Miss Vernon, "and another quarter
-of an hour will be lost taking the tickets&mdash;very
-bad, very bad," and he looked at Kate for
-sympathy; but to her it was a matter of indifference:
-the train was rather too fast for
-her wishes.</p>
-
-<p>"They will be fancying all sorts of accidents
-and concussions at home," resumed the
-old gentleman, with a smile of such security in
-the affection and sympathy to which he was
-hastening, that the tears sprang to Kate's eyes,
-even while she smiled upon him, and said&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Then I do wish they would go faster&mdash;suspense
-is such a terrible thing."</p>
-
-<p>The old gentleman seemed struck by the
-sudden warmth evinced by his hitherto taciturn
-companion.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_304" id="Page_304">[304]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"I suppose you have friends to meet you?"
-he said; "but if I can be of any use in getting
-your luggage, &amp;c., I shall be very happy."</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose they will send some one to meet
-me," said Kate, carelessly; "but," she added,
-a doubt on the point glancing across her mind
-for the first time, "if not, I will gladly avail
-myself of your kind offer."</p>
-
-<p>"What part of the town, may I ask, are you
-going to?"</p>
-
-<p>"Carleton Terrace, New Park."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, indeed. I live near that myself."</p>
-
-<p>A little more desultory talk brought them
-to the platform; and stepping from the carriage,
-Miss Vernon looked round in hopes of
-discovering the promised person to meet her;
-but none appeared; therefore, accepting the
-old gentleman's proffered aid, she proceeded to
-disentangle her luggage from the miscellaneous
-and momentarily encreasing pile, which the
-porters were pitching, with their usual dex<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_305" id="Page_305">[305]</a></span>terity
-and disregard of consequences, out of the
-van.</p>
-
-<p>Kate had but few packages; some undefined
-feeling had induced her to leave much of her
-belongings under Mrs. Storey's care&mdash;she could
-not bear to think of Carrington as anything
-but a temporary abode.</p>
-
-<p>"Another small black box&mdash;the same name&mdash;Miss
-Vernon," she said to the porter who
-was collecting her luggage; her words attracted
-the notice of an awkward boy of about fifteen,
-who had been examining the second-class
-passengers, as if in search of some one; he
-was heavy-looking, without being large, his
-movements slow and uncouth, and his face of
-a leaden bilious complexion, wore an expression
-of stupid surprise.</p>
-
-<p>"Are you Miss Vernon?" he asked, in an
-abrupt, harsh voice, which was at its harshest
-epoch.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," said Kate, looking at him doubtfully,
-uncertain what rank in society to assign him;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_306" id="Page_306">[306]</a></span>
-his face would not have been misplaced under
-a basket of oranges, nor his clothes on the heir
-apparent of an earldom.</p>
-
-<p>"All right," said the interesting youth.
-"gran'ma sent me to meet you. I'm Pembridge
-Wilson; shall I call a cab? Busses
-don't go near the Park."</p>
-
-<p>"If you please, a cab," said Kate; and,
-turning to her friendly <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">companion de voyage</i>,
-thanked him for his kind attention.</p>
-
-<p>"Holloa, Pem., is that you?" he cried, as
-his eyes fell on Kate's new acquaintance.
-"I did not know I was travelling with a friend
-of yours. I shall have the pleasure of seeing
-you again," he said to Kate, "as you are
-going to the Wilsons'."</p>
-
-<p>"I shall be very happy," she returned,
-bowing, and walked towards the cab.</p>
-
-<p>"Stop," whispered Master Pembridge, "make
-a bargain with the man before they put up the
-luggage; you, go&mdash;I'll stay here."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_307" id="Page_307">[307]</a></span>"No," said Kate, "I am afraid he would
-not mind me much. I dare say, he will not
-charge more than he ought."</p>
-
-<p>Master Pem's usual state of amazement
-seemed to receive a slight addition at these
-words, and as he followed Miss Vernon into the
-vehicle, a keen ear might have overheard a
-muttered "my eye!"</p>
-
-<p>The noise of the streets was a good excuse
-for silence. Kate gazed through the windows,
-recognising the various localities which she
-faintly remembered from her short visit there,
-partly from Egerton's anathematising descriptions,
-while Pem. gazed, with unremitting
-assiduity and still surprised, at her.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, here we are, and I expect I am
-ready for my tea. You were so late, I'm regularly
-cold waiting for you," and he blew his
-nose audibly&mdash;a perpetual cold in the head
-characterised this specimen of young Carrington.</p>
-
-<p>The door was opened by a melancholy-looking
-woman, who made no offer to assist the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_308" id="Page_308">[308]</a></span>
-cabman in removing the trunks, &amp;c., from the
-vehicle.</p>
-
-<p>"There&mdash;I told you," said Pem., in triumph,
-as Jehu demanded four and sixpence, and sixpence
-for the luggage; but Miss Vernon
-hastily paid him, and entered the house, anxious
-to see the kind, gentle old lady who wanted
-a daughter's companionship.</p>
-
-<p>"Come in, do, and shut that door," cried a
-hard, shrill voice from some inner sanctum.
-"The wind is going right through my head."</p>
-
-<p>"This way, mem," said the melancholy
-female, and Kate entered a small and very hot
-front parlor. A tall, large, slightly-bent old
-woman, with a face as hard as her voice, was
-standing, her hands crossed behind her back,
-on the hearth-rug. The broad expanse of her
-countenance was spanned by a pair of capacious
-spectacles, depressed towards the left eye, as if
-to give her spying propensities all the advantages
-of double and single vision.</p>
-
-<p>"Miss Vernon. How do you do? how late<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_309" id="Page_309">[309]</a></span>
-you be," said she, giving Kate a cold, stiff
-hand, guiltless of closing on the fair soft
-fingers which took it.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes; the train was very often delayed,"
-replied Kate, letting go, with a sensation of
-repugnance, the unrelaxed collection of bone
-and sinews proffered to her, and gazing with
-surprise at the huge cap, which looked large
-enough for the mother of Anak's sons, though
-not at all disproportioned to the head it covered;
-the old lady was richly and substantially
-dressed, and had the unmistakeable air of well-lined
-pockets.</p>
-
-<p>"Go, Pembridge, and look for your mama;
-you must be nigh starved, and Miss Vernon
-too, I dare say; get the keys, will you, we are
-all ready for tea. Will you come near the
-fire?"</p>
-
-<p>With these mingled directions and remarks,
-Mrs. Jorrocks, sen., subsided into an arm
-chair of considerable dimensions, and stared at
-Kate, who puzzled and confused by so terrible<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_310" id="Page_310">[310]</a></span>
-an awaking from her dream of an interesting
-old lady, sat for a few minutes in unbroken
-silence.</p>
-
-<p>"How did you leave Mrs. Tom," was at
-length asked by Miss Vernon's new acquaintance.</p>
-
-<p>"Quite well. I saw her the day before
-yesterday; she desired many kind messages to
-you."</p>
-
-<p>"They have been very gay up in London;
-time she settled at home."</p>
-
-<p>"Mrs. Jorrocks seems anxious to do so," replied
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"So she tells you; she be sharp enough;
-you were coming to me. Had you a quiet
-journey?"</p>
-
-<p>"Very, thank you. I met a most polite old
-gentleman&mdash;a neighbour of yours, at least, he
-knew your grandson."</p>
-
-<p>"Who can that be? what was he like?"</p>
-
-<p>Kate described him.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_311" id="Page_311">[311]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"That will be Mr. Davis. I wonder what
-took him to London? we&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>She was interrupted by the entrance of her
-daughter.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Wilson was a much more prepossessing
-person; she was rather an exaggerated edition
-of Mrs. Storey&mdash;fatter, louder, more gossipping,
-and less kind-hearted. She was older too;
-but still, rather pretty and very well dressed.
-She welcomed Kate cordially enough, and proposed
-shewing her her room before tea. It
-was a tiny chamber, but all her own, and
-Kate was glad of its solitude for a few moments
-before joining the party below.</p>
-
-<p>When she descended to the dining-room, she
-found an addition to the circle in the person of
-the eldest son&mdash;a lad about a year older than
-Pem., thin and fair; his countenance shewed a
-much higher degree of intelligence than his
-brother's. He was reading when Kate came in,
-and looked up to bow, (not to rise) for exactly
-the space of time necessary for that operation.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_312" id="Page_312">[312]</a></span>
-Pem. was also reading&mdash;a newspaper was his
-study&mdash;he seemed to get on with difficulty,
-constantly snuffling, and elevating his eye-brows,
-as if vainly attempting to open his small
-eyes wider than nature intended.</p>
-
-<p>"Now then, Miss Vernon, I am sure you
-are ready for tea," said Mrs. Wilson. "I
-ordered you a couple of eggs; you will want
-something more substantial than a bit of toast
-after your journey."</p>
-
-<p>Kate silently agreed, longing for a glass of
-wine after her fatigue of body and mind. However,
-she took a cup of tea very readily, albeit
-washy enough.</p>
-
-<p>"Who do you think Miss Vernon travelled
-down with?"</p>
-
-<p>"Why how should I know, mother?"</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. Davis!"</p>
-
-<p>"Nev-er! I did not know he was up in
-town."</p>
-
-<p>"It's very strange," said Mrs. Jorrocks with
-a significant nod of the head, "That patent he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_313" id="Page_313">[313]</a></span>
-have paid so much money on, is not going
-straight I dare say."</p>
-
-<p>"Mr. Davis, if he is the gentleman, did not
-get in till we reached Wolverton," said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Wolverton," repeated Mrs. Wilson, "Whatever
-was he doing at Wolverton?" Mrs. Jorrocks
-incapable of solving this problem shook her head
-with awful significance, as she munched her
-buttered toast. The young gentlemen read
-sociably all through the meal. "Here James,"
-said Mrs. Wilson to her eldest son, "Put this
-sugar basin away do, I am so hot and tired
-pouring out tea; I dare say" (pronounced
-"dessay,") "Miss Vernon will make tea for us
-now."</p>
-
-<p>The evening appeared very interminable to
-Kate; the boys were set to their lessons immediately
-after tea, with an injunction from their
-mother not to leave any for the morning, it
-made them so late at their "breakfastses," and
-then mother and daughter in a species of duet
-expatiated on the wonderful talents and acquire<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_314" id="Page_314">[314]</a></span>ments
-of the eldest son, until having exhausted
-their subject they commenced a severe cross
-examination of herself, when a loud ring disturbed
-the enquiry, and Mrs. Wilson started
-from her seat exclaiming "Law! how Wilson
-do ring." Mr. Wilson was a short, thick man
-of even a more dingy, leaden-yellow hue than
-his son; small piggish eyes, thick hearth-brush
-looking hair, and a voice of unredeemed harshness,
-such as one might expect from a slave
-driver, were his most striking characteristics.
-He was however civil enough, made due enquiries
-after his brother-in-law, asked if town
-was full, and the opera well attended, (oblivious
-in his anxiety to put these fashionable queries,
-that it was September), and finally betook himself
-to devour some chops, the bones of which
-he polished with surprising dexterity, first
-however sending the boys to bed with a sudden
-imperious sternness that absolutely startled
-Kate; she soon pleaded fatigue and bid them
-good night. "We have prayers at half-past
-eight, Miss Vernon," said Mrs. Wilson.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_315" id="Page_315">[315]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, well I shall be ready."</p>
-
-<p>The dreariness of those hours when Kate had
-extinguished her candle, and in the darkness of
-night gave herself up to grief, we will not attempt
-to describe&mdash;the exaggeration of distance
-between her and all she had ever known&mdash;the
-agonised longing for some escape,&mdash;the sense of
-utter estrangement from every familiar style of
-thought and feeling&mdash;the inexpressible loathing
-of all around her; are not these things written
-in the chronicles of many a memory? "Oh for a
-sound of nurse's voice! she is so true, so loving,
-and Georgy, why are you so far away. Will
-Mr. Winter never, never return! Is my life to
-pass away thus with these terrible people. Oh
-grandpapa! I am so alone." And ever with
-the thought of him Egerton's image rose before
-her; she was too miserable to curb her thoughts
-as she was wont, and from the silent depths of
-her heart, her spirit called to him agonisingly;
-with unutterable longing, thirsting for a sound<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_316" id="Page_316">[316]</a></span>
-of his voice, as though it were a spell to conjure
-away the gloom and the difficulties round her,
-striving, panting in a death struggle fer happiness.
-Who dare limit the power lent to the
-divine essence by the force of a mighty wish,
-when we feel the intense longings of the imprisoned
-spirit darting in electric streams towards
-the object so ardently desired. There are momentary
-glimpses granted to the imagination,
-when purified by the agony of suffering, of
-grandeur, power and liberty, so far beyond our
-mortal state, that the first return to a commoner
-and calmer frame of mind, is usually
-indicated by a shudder or a smile at our
-own "strange fancies."</p>
-
-<p>Yet what may not the spirit anticipate in its
-future? and what power may not be momentarily
-lent it? even here a foretaste of that
-future. The very depth of her emotion
-soothed Kate; she felt a gradual calm stealing
-over her&mdash;was it that her wild yearning had
-accomplished its end?</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_317" id="Page_317">[317]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>About the same time, it might be the same
-night, far away, a deep blue, star-lit eastern
-sky was shining in still beauty over the cantonments
-of an English regiment, and Colonel
-Egerton was sleeping the restless disturbed
-sleep of a low fever. He wakes suddenly&mdash;fully
-roused&mdash;with a sense that he was wanted&mdash;that
-he was called. Yet he had not dreamt,
-at least, distinctly; nor was it till after some
-moments' thought, he connected that sudden
-impression with Miss Vernon&mdash;for Egerton was
-too full of rational energy to have his mind
-perpetually filled with one image. He had
-loved Kate, and still, at times, thought of her
-with deep tenderness; but a life of activity
-pleased and occupied him. Parting with her
-had swept away the light-hearted, buoyant
-gaiety of his early days; but left enough of
-cheerfulness to make life still very enjoyable.
-Time, absence, silence, above all, Burton's report,
-not long received, were gradually doing
-their work&mdash;ere long, his heart would have<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_318" id="Page_318">[318]</a></span>
-been free to cherish another, well and truly;
-yet never, oh, never, with the same exquisitely
-tender, pure unselfish love which she had
-breathed over the chaotic surface of his life;
-he still might taste the sweetness of the grape;
-but the unspeakable loveliness of its first fresh
-bloom was breathed upon&mdash;and vanished.</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Egerton was worse the next morning;
-the regimental surgeon shook his head,
-and, at length, obtained a hearing, when, for
-the fourth time, he suggested native air.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>Life at Carrington, with its innumerable
-small trials, is too monotonous to be carefully
-recorded.</p>
-
-<p>Kate had much to suffer; yet it was not all
-suffering. She soon perceived the various <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">rôles</i>
-enacted by the family. Mr. Wilson was a
-thorough domestic tyrant, intense selfishness
-pervaded the whole party, except, perhaps,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_319" id="Page_319">[319]</a></span>
-Mrs. Wilson. The eldest son was a pedant, a
-dry, cold calculating machine, who seemed
-chiefly to value his own unblemished character,
-because it gave him a right to be implacable to
-the failings of others. It is strange to write
-thus of the character of a boy not seventeen;
-but none could connect him with the faintest
-outline of that lovely, erring thing called
-"youth."</p>
-
-<p>He was, however, an unceasing source of
-pride to his family; and even Pem., if he had
-an idea beyond his dinner, looked upon his
-brother as something quite extraordinary.</p>
-
-<p>The day began with a severe trial, at least
-to Kate, in the shape of morning prayers. She
-shrank from Mr. Wilson's harsh tones, doling
-forth the gracious words of the gospel; and
-her rebellious thoughts refused to follow the
-long discursive address they all knelt down
-to hear read aloud, in accents of self-satisfied conscientiousness.
-Mr. Wilson dwelt, with unction,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_320" id="Page_320">[320]</a></span>
-on the petition for the health and safety of his
-sovereign lady the Queen, and at the proper
-place even mentioned the servants, who, with
-demure and downcast looks occupied three
-chairs at the furthest possible distance permissible
-by the limits of the room. Then followed
-breakfast, at which he generally took the worth
-of his prayers out of them, in short, savage
-fault finding.</p>
-
-<p>The morning meal over, Mrs. Jorrocks took
-her knitting, and Kate's duty was to read
-aloud, to her, till dinner time&mdash;one o'clock.
-But the books in which Mrs. Jorrock's soul delighted,
-were, unfortunately, of a class by no
-means suited to Miss Vernon. They were
-chiefly remarkable for the distinguished rank
-and general hard-heartedness of their characters,
-excepting only the heroine and her lover,
-whose sufferings, mental and physical, were
-rather supernatural; and usually drew tears
-from Kate's listener, who would have turned<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_321" id="Page_321">[321]</a></span>
-unmoved from the most affecting case of real
-distress; to be sure the novel only asked her
-tears, reality might have had some pretensions
-to touch her pocket.</p>
-
-<p>Kate, however, read on perseveringly, she
-had made some attempts to recommend the
-style of book more suited to her own taste,
-and the age of her new protectress; but they
-were not well received, and she was compelled
-to return to the "dungeon and subterranean
-passage," revengeful, mysterious-stranger class
-of literature; still this was nothing to the task
-of reading aloud the newspapers. The police
-reports formed Mrs. Jorrocks' chief delight,
-and she expected Kate to read aloud, unhesitatingly
-the awful and revolting disclosures
-which the liberty of the press demands should
-disgrace its columns. This duty Kate gently
-and firmly refused, and she received unexpected
-support from Mrs. Wilson, who offered to read
-them herself. Nothing surprised Miss Vernon
-more than the untiring assiduity with which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_322" id="Page_322">[322]</a></span>
-Mrs. Jorrocks devoted herself to the elucidation
-of her neighbours' affairs; none were
-too humble, none too exalted for her universal
-curiosity. The house-maid's lover, and
-the mayor's wife, the charwoman, and the
-duchess&mdash;she had scandalous stories of them
-all! Kate sometimes wondered if she thought
-well of her own children; she was never actively
-cross, nor could you ever discern that she was
-pleased, save on those rare occasions when a
-couple of aggravated failures amongst her
-acquaintances&mdash;a murder, a suicide, and the
-elopement of somebody's husband or wife, by
-their united excitement enabled her to pass a
-cheerful and satisfactory morning. Kate was
-almost surprised to perceive she was actually
-gaining favour in the eyes of this uncongenial
-old woman. She did not know the effect which
-her own grace and refinement produced upon
-the stiff, rugged, clayey nature she was thus
-brought in contact with. Each member of the
-family felt instinctively her superiority to them<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_323" id="Page_323">[323]</a></span>selves,
-while her unassuming gentleness prevented
-any of that soreness of feeling with
-which superiority is usually acknowledged;
-and although at first Kate was often disagreeably
-surprised to find that her presence was
-unnoticed when visitors came in, and no conversation
-was addressed to her who had been
-ever accustomed to find herself an object in
-society; yet all this wore off soon, and both
-Mrs. Jorrocks and her daughter learned to be
-proud of their elegant-looking inmate.</p>
-
-<p>The greatest relief Miss Vernon experienced
-during this <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">triste sejour</i> was from the kind
-attentions of Mr. Davis's family, who were
-their near neighbours, and presented Kate with
-what she considered a beau ideal of an English
-merchant's family&mdash;hospitable, intellectual, well
-educated; respecting their own middle-class
-position, without a trace of that envious malignity
-towards rank which so often distinguishes
-<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">les nouveaux riches</i>. They might, perhaps,
-lack that extreme outward grace of manner<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_324" id="Page_324">[324]</a></span>
-and bearing, which nothing but an infancy and
-childhood passed among the refining influences
-of aristocratic accessories can bestow; but in
-every essential point they were ladies and gentlemen.
-A few hours passed with them was
-an inexpressible refreshment to Kate's spirit,
-and warmly was she received: they delighted
-in her music, and she willingly sang, even her
-most sacred songs, for them. Another&mdash;the
-only other comfort in Kate's life, was that Mrs.
-Jorrocks always retired early, and then she
-used to lock her door, and, if she felt her heart
-strong enough, indulge herself in a long study
-of the sketches Egerton had given her of Dungar
-and of the Priory.</p>
-
-<p>Meantime Lady Desmond's letters were
-pretty constant, she repeatedly pressed Kate
-to return, sometimes with an earnestness that
-bespoke truth&mdash;sometimes with a certain coldness;
-but Miss Vernon's invariable reply was&mdash;that
-she would not join her, at all events,
-until after Christmas.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_325" id="Page_325">[325]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Nurse's letters always filled Kate's heart
-with a curious mixture of pleasure and pain&mdash;she
-forced herself to write to that faithful
-friend, with unreal cheerfulness; and nurse,
-who was totally ignorant of Carrington, and
-its inhabitants, was happy in believing "Miss
-Kate was stoppin' in some grand place, away
-from thim shop-keeping Storeys." She had
-persisted in her intention of leaving Lady
-Desmond; and the following is the account
-she gave of herself, in a letter received by
-Kate, about a fortnight after she had reached
-Carrington:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
-<p>"You'll be surprised to see where I write
-from, but afther mee goin' hot foot to Killeesh,
-there was'nt the sign of wan belongin' to me
-in the place, an' nothing but the hoigth of
-misery and starvation. The Priest's housekeeper,
-a dacent woman, took me in the chapel-house;
-an' the next day, I walked the whole
-eight miles over to Dungar. Oh, Miss Kate,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_326" id="Page_326">[326]</a></span>
-agra! It was the sore sight to me! Like the
-corpse of wan ye loved, it was&mdash;there was the
-dear ould place, and the house that was iver
-open, an' the wood, an' the stones, an' the say&mdash;but
-the life an' the heart was gone out of it,
-an' glory be to God! the divils that tuck it
-never had luck nor grace, but has been tearin'
-each other, at law, iver since; an yez
-might have lived in pace for all they got out
-of it. I said mee prayers on the hall door
-steps, where the masther (the heaven's be his
-bed!) used to stan' an' hear all the poor people
-had to say. I thought the life would lave me
-when I rus meesilf to go back&mdash;I had no
-strength; but be the hoight of luck, who come
-upon a low back car, but ould Paddy Byrne&mdash;'twas
-he was glad to see me, an' quite moidhered
-to find me there without yerself&mdash;so he
-give me a cast to Killeesh; but I was so sick
-of the sorra, I could do nothin' for&mdash;that I
-come away afther mee sisther's daughther here&mdash;they'e
-doing very well, an' have a nice<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_327" id="Page_327">[327]</a></span>
-little shop, with soap an' candles; an' tay an'
-kid gloves; an' all to that in it. An' I'm
-tired of bein' idle, so take in a thrifle iv work,
-an' clear-starchin'&mdash;I get plinty from the
-officers' ladies, an' it amuses me till ye send
-for me, ah! whin 'ill that be, avourneen?</p>
-
-<p>Mee lady and me parted great frinds, an' she
-put five goulden guineas in mee hand, an' tauld
-me to come back whin iver I like, so I've not
-touched yer money agra! but I must stop, for
-I'm tired intirely with the writin'."</p></div>
-
-<p>This long letter was written from Fermoy,
-and passionately did Kate weep over the picture
-it drew of her deserted home.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>Time rolled on rapidly, for little occurred to
-mark it, and Kate had almost ceased to battle
-with the dull despondency that was creeping
-over her. The perpetual reading aloud of in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_328" id="Page_328">[328]</a></span>sipid
-romances, which alone found favour in
-the eyes of Mrs. Jorrocks; the efforts to keep
-awake in the close atmosphere of the stifling
-parlour, the occasional outburst of tyrannic
-rage from Mr. Wilson, savage as they were
-in all the rude reality of a rugged nature, excited
-into forgetfulness of its efforts to be
-"genteel;" and, which though never addressed
-to Kate, seemed to insult her by their unrestrained
-violence; these various petty annoyances,
-daily, hourly, repeated, made up a
-terrible sum&mdash;occasionally the wild wish to
-escape to nurse, even if it were to join her
-in plain work, and clear-starching&mdash;would
-swell her heart to bursting, and then would
-come the reaction! Where in truth could she
-go? Her cousin's alternations of coldness and
-affection, she could not brave&mdash;no; it was due
-to herself to keep aloof, until some more cordial
-acknowledgment of her error and injustice
-was made by Lady Desmond.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey wrote seldom, and did not make
-any renewal of her invitation&mdash;of other friends<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_329" id="Page_329">[329]</a></span>
-or relatives, she had none, at least, in the true
-meaning of these words. So the passionate
-yearning with which her thoughts ever sprang
-to seek the means of escape, after treading the
-same circle over and over, returned like a bird,
-weary of beating the wires of its cage, to
-their last hope&mdash;a letter from Winter, on his
-return.</p>
-
-<p>But it is weary work to dwell upon the
-sameness of such suffering; none can fully appreciate
-it, save those enlightened by experience&mdash;though
-many might have found companionship
-to Mrs. Jorrocks a severer probation.
-The world must become older, and purer, and
-more christianised, before the exercise of power
-can be resisted, or the charm of torturing those
-who are weak, foregone.</p>
-
-<p>Sunday was a day of great eating at Carleton-terrace&mdash;in
-short, Mrs. Wilson, on that
-day, indulged the household in a dinner, the
-usual week-day meals not deserving the name.
-On these occasions Master Pem. eat till he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_330" id="Page_330">[330]</a></span>
-could eat no more, and paused in silent regret,
-that nature had provided such insufficient
-stowage. The scholar, James, was less eager,
-but more select, and ever sent up his plate,
-accompanied with some especial direction, as to
-the particular dainties he desired. Mr. Wilson's
-efforts did not fall far short of those of
-his offspring; and if vexed by any errors in
-elegance, on the part of his wife, regaled the
-party over a bottle of port, with some choice
-anecdotes of various celebrities, fashionable
-and political, which smacked strongly of the
-commercial-room&mdash;frequent repetition might
-have robbed them of their first freshness, but
-his family were well trained, and always
-laughed at the right place.</p>
-
-<p>Sunday morning, at church, was perhaps
-the proudest moment of Mr. Wilson's life,
-when he stood erect and spruce in his pew;
-and, condescendingly, classed himself in audible
-tones with the other "miserable sinners"
-of the congregation. No part of the service<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_331" id="Page_331">[331]</a></span>
-did he neglect&mdash;he even joined in the singing,
-with a voice so utterly discordant, that Kate
-absolutely started, and turned to look from
-whence the horrid sounds proceeded, the first
-time she heard them. Church was the grand
-theatre of display to Mesdames Jorrocks and
-Wilson and the great proportion of their acquaintances;
-and a lively topic of conversation
-on their return home.</p>
-
-<p>"Did you see what a velvet mantle Mrs.
-B&mdash;&mdash;, have on? asks the mother."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes; it cost ten guineas, if it cost a
-penny," returns the daughter.</p>
-
-<p>"And her husband be deep in the "great
-Midland;" maybe, next year she'll have to
-wear Linsey-woolsey."</p>
-
-<p>"You never see such lace as Miss F. had,
-trimming her bonnet&mdash;that depth," cried Mrs.
-Wilson, with eager rapidity, and holding out
-a finger, &amp;c.</p>
-
-<p>Then came a few words on the sermon,
-which was quickly despatched; and thus was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_332" id="Page_332">[332]</a></span>
-the interval between church and dinner whiled
-away; and though it may place Miss Vernon
-very far back on the list of any sanctified
-reader, it must be confessed she never looked
-forward with much pleasure to the day of rest.
-Mr. Wilson's anecdotical powers were rather
-too much to endure for an entire sabbath day.</p>
-
-<p>The third month of Kate's purgatorial sojourn,
-was opening gloomily enough, when one
-Sunday morning, as they were assembled at
-breakfast, in more than usually gorgeous array&mdash;as
-a popular preacher was expected to draw
-"a full house&mdash;" a loud ring announced the post.</p>
-
-<p>"I'll engage it's for Miss Vernon," said
-Mrs. Jorrocks, "I never see such a many
-letters as you do get."</p>
-
-<p>But Kate did not heed her, her eyes were
-fastened on the letter handed across the
-table by Master Pem. who detained it to read
-the direction, observing&mdash;"It's a gentleman's
-hand," and eliciting a stern&mdash;"Hold your<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_333" id="Page_333">[333]</a></span>
-tongue, sir," from his father. A mist swam
-before Kate's eyes, and a spasm of hope and
-fear shook her heart as she recognised Langley's
-hand, "it must be a letter from Mr. Winter,"
-she murmured, "will you allow me?" and
-with trembling fingers broke the seal&mdash;but no,
-it was from Langley himself. Oh, Heavens!
-had any thing happened.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-<p class="center">
-"<span class="smcap">My Dear Miss Vernon</span>,
-</p>
-
-<p>"I lose no time in informing
-you that I had a letter this morning from
-Winter, dated the 20th, nearly three weeks
-ago; he writes in good health and spirits, and
-talks of returning immediately; he is anxious
-to know where you are; uncertainty on this
-point, from some passage in your last letter,
-having kept him silent. I should not be surprised
-at his arrival any day.</p>
-
-<p>"Hoping this letter may find you well, and
-in haste to catch the post.</p>
-
-<p class="right">
-"Your's faithfully,<br />
-<br />
-"<span class="smcap">Willm. Langley</span>."
-</p></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_334" id="Page_334">[334]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The first movement of her mind was disappointment,
-that Winter had not written to herself.</p>
-
-<p>"I thought I told him to direct as usual, to
-Mr. Langley; there must have been some mistake;
-I forget what I wrote, but he may be
-back very soon, perhaps next week&mdash;and
-then&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>What a bright indistinct feeling of hope and
-freedom expanded her heart&mdash;yet she felt
-strangely nervous and trembling, as if the
-shadow of some coming crisis had fallen upon
-her, and she hastily swallowed a glass of cold
-water to refresh her parched mouth, before performing
-the inevitable journey to church.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Wilson's pew was irreproachable in
-point of size and position, it was not however
-faultless, for a large pillar, supporting the
-gallery, reduced one corner to an invisible
-nook, where the most splendid bonnet, and
-richest brocade might be for ever hidden from
-the eyes of an admiring congregation. Here<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_335" id="Page_335">[335]</a></span>
-Kate had established her position, and was permitted
-to retain it unmolested, and in most
-profound and grateful thanksgiving she knelt
-that morning.</p>
-
-<p>The church was crowded to excess&mdash;strangers
-stood in the aisle&mdash;under the pulpit&mdash;in
-the door-ways&mdash;pew-openers waxed curt and
-imperious in the exercise of unusual powers.
-Several well-dressed individuals had been accommodated
-with seats in Mr. Wilson's pew,
-when Kate's eye was involuntarily attracted
-by the distinguished air of a gentleman, who
-had been shown into a seat, two or three rows
-in front of her, during the second lesson; his
-back was towards her, of course, and she felt
-vexed with herself for the pertinacity with
-which her eyes and thoughts returned to him;
-his tall figure seemed familiar to her, as she contrasted
-its easy grace with the forms around;
-so did the wavy dark brown hair, the proud
-turn of the head, and as she gazed, her heart
-throbbed, and the colour mounted to her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_336" id="Page_336">[336]</a></span>
-cheeks. Surely it was a waking dream, yet
-she could not be mistaken. No! it must be
-him&mdash;that bow, as he returned a book, she
-had dropped, to the lady next him, none but
-Egerton could have made it. Oh, that he
-would turn his face; but he still stood or sat
-in the same position, and Kate, every pulse
-beating, now pale, now flushing, striving vainly
-to think of the service&mdash;her thoughts, now
-darting away into the past, now crying from
-the depths of her soul to God for strength for
-the future, tried to still the wild glowing anticipations
-which swept in sudden rapture over
-her spirit, as the aurora borealis streams
-across the northern gloom. It was too bold,
-too far-fetched a thought that he still remembered
-her, why should she expect it.</p>
-
-<p>At last, Doctor M&mdash;&mdash; mounted the pulpit,
-the hymn was finished, and with a rustle of
-expectation the audience settled themselves in
-their seats then&mdash;then the individual who engrossed
-Kate's every thought, turned to face<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_337" id="Page_337">[337]</a></span>
-the preacher, and leaning his arm on the back
-of the pew, revealed his well-known profile,
-and ended her uncertainty.</p>
-
-<p>Doctor M&mdash;&mdash; preached well, and Egerton
-listened attentively, but the sound of his voice
-scarce reached Kate's ears. In her quiet nook,
-she gazed uninterruptedly on the face so often
-seen in her sleeping and waking visions, at
-last, after so much of trial and suffering, restored
-to her&mdash;the vague unacknowledged hope
-that had woven one golden thread through her
-dreams of the future, where they, in sober
-earnest, about to be accomplished? How she
-longed to hear his voice, as if at its first sound
-the past would return to her, as it was when
-they had parted. It was strange how he had
-twined himself round her heart&mdash;he from whom
-she had parted without much of pain; but
-now indissolubly linked with all that was
-brightest and best in her life, all that she had
-loved and lost. Sorrow had revealed his heart
-to hers, and the light of memory had shown<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_338" id="Page_338">[338]</a></span>
-her the true meaning of those silent indications
-of bitter regret with which he had left her.
-And now he looked older, darker, graver&mdash;calm
-thought had deepened the expression
-of his eyes, and imparted a certain dignity to
-his brow, and Kate felt he was no longer the
-gay, careless soldier she had dared to lecture.
-There was a repose that bespoke strength even
-in his attitude, and she longed to meet his
-eye, yet shrank from it with fevered anticipation.
-Still he listened with grave, quiet, attention
-to the eloquent reasoning of the
-preacher&mdash;and Kate grew restless, and fearful
-that he would not see her; she calculated the
-chances of their meeting, when the congregation
-was dispersing, and thought it could not
-possibly fail to occur; but the very doubt filled
-her with terror; if they did not meet now,
-months, years might pass over before their
-dissimilar roads in life would again cross!
-and even if he should remember, or enquire
-for her, who was there who could give him a clue<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_339" id="Page_339">[339]</a></span>
-to her whereabouts; but the congregation was
-bending to receive the benediction, and the
-decisive moment arrived. Colonel Egerton,
-with a bow of acknowledgment to the owner of
-the seat, in which he had been placed, rose,
-and gazing abstractedly over the crowd, above
-which his tall figure rose proudly&mdash;moved
-down the aisle; the pressure compelled him to
-stop a moment by the door of Mr. Wilson's
-pew, but the large pillar interposed itself between
-Kate and the recognising glance, for
-which she so yearned. Mrs. Jorrocks never
-was so slow in her movements&mdash;she never
-leant so heavily before on Kate's slight arm,
-all quivering with the wild beating of her
-heart; still they were but a few steps behind
-him&mdash;if he would only turn his head! but no;
-he dreamt not of the imprisoned spirit, so
-passionately yearning to catch one glance from
-eyes, through which he gazed so listlessly!
-They were in the door-way, and freed from the
-crowd, Colonel Egerton paused a moment, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_340" id="Page_340">[340]</a></span>
-if to decide on his movements&mdash;put on his hat,
-and turning to the right, walked away with a
-quick, firm, soldierly step&mdash;away&mdash;out of sight&mdash;gone!</p>
-
-<p>There was talk of Doctor M&mdash;&mdash;'s wonderful
-sermon, as they wended their way home&mdash;of
-how he had finally and utterly annihilated
-the Pope; but Kate heard no sound, save
-a sad echo in her heart repeating&mdash;"gone&mdash;gone."</p>
-
-<p>Vain would it be to describe the anguish
-with which she threw herself on her bed, when
-free and alone, and gave herself up to an agony
-of hysteric sobs. Was it a dark fate hanging over
-her, ever to catch glimpses of happiness, and there
-to lose them? Why need she hope or struggle
-any more&mdash;all she longed for, was darkness and
-silence&mdash;never, never again might she be as she
-was; when such a trifle had debarred her from
-so bright a meeting, dare she hope the insuperable
-barrier of distance would ever be
-removed? She could not rouse herself from<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_341" id="Page_341">[341]</a></span>
-this paroxysm&mdash;the buoyancy of her spirit
-seemed, at last, worn out; and head and heart
-alike aching, she lay in the stillness of exhaustion,
-across her bed, when the servant
-came to summon her to dinner.</p>
-
-<p>"I think Mrs. Tom have sent me a bad
-bargain after all," was Mrs. Jorrocks's observation,
-on receiving an account of Miss Vernon's
-indisposition. "I see I'll have to pay my
-forty pounds a year for the nursetending of her&mdash;she
-looked like a ghost this week, and didn't
-mind a word she was reading of&mdash;but it's always
-the way&mdash;new brooms."</p>
-
-<p>"Well I'm sure, mother, it's only the heat
-at church&mdash;she will be better to-morrow."</p>
-
-<p>"She need'nt go to church, if she don't like
-to."</p>
-
-<p>Kate only asked for quiet, and her own
-room, unmolested, for a few days&mdash;this was
-permitted her; and there she lay, through the
-long, weary, dark hours, brooding over the
-past, sometimes struggling with nature's re<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_342" id="Page_342">[342]</a></span>pugnance
-to depression; but for awhile careless
-and indifferent to all without; then she
-strove to rally her scattered forces, to remember
-that Winter was soon to return.</p>
-
-<p>"And until that hope too is gone, I will not
-despair&mdash;God is so good, and wise&mdash;He sees I
-have had so much sorrow&mdash;He will send me
-joy, sooner or later&mdash;yes; I will hope still."</p>
-
-<hr class="chap" />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_343" id="Page_343">[343]</a></span></p>
-
-
-
-
-<div class="chapter">
-<h2>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
-</div>
-
-<p class="ph3">THE LAST.</p>
-
-
-<p>The Saturday after the event last recorded,
-Kate was bending sadly enough over her daily
-task, reading the <cite>Court Circular</cite> to Mrs. Jorrocks&mdash;her
-thoughts wandering to some letters
-from Lady Desmond, and from nurse, which
-she had not had the heart to answer.</p>
-
-<p>"The Countess of P&mdash;&mdash;, is entertaining
-a large party at P&mdash;&mdash; Castle&mdash;the Prince
-di &mdash;&mdash;, and Count Alphonso di &mdash;&mdash;, are
-among the distinguished visitors.</p>
-
-<p>"The Earl of Effingham left Cowes, on
-Tuesday last, in his yacht, the 'Meteor,' for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_344" id="Page_344">[344]</a></span>
-St. Petersburgh, where we understand it is his
-lordship's intention to winter."</p>
-
-<p>"He be a shocking man," observed Mrs.
-Jorrocks, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">en parenthése</i>, "such stories as Mr.
-Wilson have heard of him up in London. Go
-on please&mdash;I think you be half asleep this
-morning."</p>
-
-<p>But Kate was now wide awake&mdash;so he was
-gone at last&mdash;Lady Desmond must hear it&mdash;all
-would be clear to her&mdash;she could no longer
-doubt! Miss Vernon took fresh courage, and
-began again:&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"A matrimonial alliance between the Marquis
-of &mdash;&mdash;, and the beautiful &mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>A loud ring.</p>
-
-<p>"Whoever can ring so loud!&mdash;they'll bring
-down the bell! one would think they wished to&mdash;stay
-till I ask Eliza," exclaimed Mrs. Jorrocks.</p>
-
-<p>In another moment, Eliza put in her head&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Please, Miss Vernon, you're wanted."</p>
-
-<p>Kate rose, and left the room, carelessly,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_345" id="Page_345">[345]</a></span>
-thinking Mrs. Wilson required her presence;
-but the instant she passed the door, her eyes
-fell upon a stout, dumpy figure, which, hat in
-hand, stood on the door-mat&mdash;an unmistakeable
-figure, for a sight of which she had so
-pined. What she said, or did, she could not
-tell; some vague remembrance of throwing
-her arms round his neck, and sobbing there&mdash;she
-did preserve; but Winter has often said&mdash;that
-the way in which she clung to him, as if
-she could never grasp so blessed a reality close
-enough&mdash;her eager caresses&mdash;her broken exclamations
-of joy, affected him deeply, and
-revealed her past sufferings, more eloquently,
-than the most elaborate description.</p>
-
-<p>"Well; but, <i>figlia mia</i>" said Winter, as
-she grew a little calmer, and they sat together
-in the fireless dining-room; "you look pale
-and thin," and he held her from him, and
-gazed at her till the moisture stood in his
-keen, black eyes. "My dear child, I am
-much to blame&mdash;I have neglected you; but I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_346" id="Page_346">[346]</a></span>
-will atone for it&mdash;your last letter misled me
-completely; yet I ought to have returned
-home before."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! no, no! you are always good. Thank
-God&mdash;thank God, you are come at last."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes! We arrived on Wednesday, and the
-next day I called on Langley; he gave me a
-sketch of your proceedings that thoroughly
-perplexed me. I had matters to arrange on
-Friday morning which could not be postponed,
-but my wife gave me no peace till I started by
-the mail train at nine o'clock last evening&mdash;so
-here I am!" Kate listened in rapt attention&mdash;was
-she really sitting once more beside the
-kind good artist? "My child, I fear you have
-suffered much, but we will try to cheer you up;
-if you prefer doing the thing independently,
-Mrs. Winter has grown a great lady, and
-requires a companion quite as much as Mrs.
-Rollocks, or Jollocks, or whatever her name is&mdash;and
-her husband too," continued Winter,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_347" id="Page_347">[347]</a></span>
-more thickly than ever. "In a few weeks I
-shall have my house in A&mdash;&mdash; back on my
-hands&mdash;what say you, Kate, to making the old
-couple happy till you go to a home of your
-own? We may not be gay; but&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! hush, hush! You do not know how
-overpoweringly delightful such a vision seems
-to me."</p>
-
-<p>"Vision!&mdash;<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">Corpo di Bacco</i>, it shall be reality;
-and Mrs. O'Toole! my adopted daughter must
-have her own maid&mdash;<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">che gloria</i>&mdash;I have been
-expecting to see her broad, honest face every
-minute. My Kate&mdash;it must have gone hard
-with you to part with her."</p>
-
-<p>But Kate could not speak&mdash;she could only
-clasp Winter's hand in both of hers, and murmur
-a broken thanksgiving, her eyes rivetted
-on her companion in speechless gratitude.</p>
-
-<p>"But this is all waste of time," resumed
-Winter, "and you will have enough to do to be
-ready to return with me by the two o'clock train&mdash;Mrs.
-Winter expects us to tea this evening."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_348" id="Page_348">[348]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"This evening!&mdash;Oh! I can be ready in a
-moment," cried Kate rapturously. "But,"&mdash;her
-countenance fell&mdash;"I must not, I fear&mdash;I
-could not be rude to these people; they have
-been civil to me in their way."</p>
-
-<p>"<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">Poter del mondo! cospetta!</i>" cried Winter
-thickly and stoutly; "I will lose sight of you
-no more, and I have no time to stay in this
-confounded cotton-spinning metropolis. Let
-me see these dragons of yours. I am he that
-will bell the cat."</p>
-
-<p>So they went into the front parlour, Kate
-still clinging to his arm.</p>
-
-<p>"My friend, Mr. Winter, Mrs. Jorrocks,"
-said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"Please to sit down, sir," returned that
-lady.</p>
-
-<p>"I am come to take Miss Vernon away with
-me," began Winter, in abrupt and decided
-tones.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! you be&mdash;&mdash;But I think it is rather<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_349" id="Page_349">[349]</a></span>
-sudden. What am I to do&mdash;and where will
-you be if I say no?"</p>
-
-<p>"My dear madam, I shall still be in Carrington.
-It is quite natural you should not like to
-part with Miss Vernon; in short, she expressed
-to me her reluctance to leave you,
-abruptly, and all that sort of thing; but I
-want her, and my wife wants her, and I am
-sure you will not stand in her way."</p>
-
-<p>Here Mrs. Wilson entered in a new cap, and
-Winter was duly presented.</p>
-
-<p>"This gentleman is for taking Miss Vernon
-away to-day. I declare he has quite took away
-my breath," said Mrs. Jorrocks.</p>
-
-<p>"<em>Never</em>," returned her daughter. "Well, if
-that isn't the strangest thing."</p>
-
-<p>"Oh! as Miss Vernon is in such a hurry
-I'll not stop her, only since she has broken her
-engagement she must take the consequences."</p>
-
-<p>"That is not of the least importance," said
-Mr. Winter.</p>
-
-<p>"It would distress me to seem rude where<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_350" id="Page_350">[350]</a></span>
-I have received courtesy," said Kate; "but
-surely you must sympathise in my anxiety to
-be once more domesticated with such kind and
-valued friends. Mr. Winter must return to
-town; I should much like to accompany him."</p>
-
-<p>And thereupon Mesdames Jorrocks and Wilson
-burst forth into a vociferous and vituperative
-duet&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"There was gratitude for you! She had
-been treated more like a daughter than a
-dependent; and what was she but a companion
-after all. There was no end to the favours she
-had received, but it was the way with the Irish
-always. It would be a lesson to them how to
-treat the next companion they got! And now,
-when this gentleman, whom they had never
-heard of before, appears, as if from the clouds,
-Miss Vernon is ready to walk off with him. It
-was very odd his wife (if he <em>had</em> a wife) could
-not wait a day or two&mdash;people who had to earn
-their bread should be very careful&mdash;and what
-would Mr. Wilson say," &amp;c., &amp;c.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_351" id="Page_351">[351]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Kate, my dear," said Winter, coolly, "go
-and put up your things&mdash;I see this is no place
-for you&mdash;I will wait here."</p>
-
-<p>She left the room, much annoyed to be
-obliged to part with Mrs. Jorrocks on such
-terms, yet to stay behind Winter was an impossibility;
-so, resolutely determining, she
-hastily packed up her worldly effects, remembering,
-thankfully, the different mood in which
-she had last stowed them away.</p>
-
-<p>Winter meantime exerted himself to converse
-with the amiable mother and daughter,
-and not without effect. He talked in his
-most eccentric and abrupt manner, and finally
-impressed them with the notion that he was a
-whimsical but wealthy millionaire, to whose
-fancies it was Kate's interest to accommodate
-herself. Matters, consequently, wore a less
-stormy aspect on Kate's return to the sitting-room;
-both ladies were cool, and Winter very
-lively.</p>
-
-<p>"So you are off, Miss Vernon," said Mrs.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_352" id="Page_352">[352]</a></span>
-Wilson; "I did not think we should part so
-sudden."</p>
-
-<p>"I offer Miss Vernon the alternative to return
-with me, and be my daughter and heiress, or to
-remain here and be neither," broke in Winter
-conclusively.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, I suppose you had better go&mdash;you
-acknowledge I owe you nothing," put in Mrs.
-Jorrocks.</p>
-
-<p>"I do indeed! Will you give this note,
-with my kindest regards, to Mrs. Davis?" returned
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"And," observed Winter, "permit your
-servant to call a cab."</p>
-
-<p>A few more awkward moments, and the cab
-drove up.</p>
-
-<p>"Well, good bye, Mrs. Jorrocks&mdash;you forgive
-my abrupt departure?"</p>
-
-<p>"I suppose I must&mdash;good bye;" and again
-the rigid hand was held out stiff and cold.</p>
-
-<p>"Good bye, Miss Vernon&mdash;I wish you 'appy,"
-said Mrs. Wilson, and she was free!</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_353" id="Page_353">[353]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>It was a gloomy, drizzling November day,
-yet she thought there was something cheery in
-the sensation of safety from wet conveyed by
-the substantial look of the carriages drawn up
-beside the platform, where Winter's impatience
-hurried them nearly an hour too soon. He had
-tried to persuade Kate to eat something during
-this interval, and though excitement left her
-little appetite, she swallowed a sandwich and a
-glass of wine to please him.</p>
-
-<p>At last, the arrival of luggage and passengers
-became more frequent and hurried&mdash;first
-and second bells were rung&mdash;places taken&mdash;doors
-banged&mdash;a jerk forward&mdash;another back&mdash;and
-they were off&mdash;not at full speed at once,
-but slowly through the tunnel&mdash;leaving Kate
-time to look at the spot where she felt so desolate,
-the day she arrived; and, contrasting her
-present feelings with that terrible period, she
-knew, for the first time, perhaps, how much
-she had suffered. It was better for her that
-the disappointment at Egerton's not recognis<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_354" id="Page_354">[354]</a></span>ing
-her had come before, not after Winter's
-return&mdash;it was something to keep the balance
-of her heart amid so much delight. The recollection
-of it had never left her mind for a
-single instant since the Sunday before, till
-Winter's presence had, for a moment, overpowered
-it with a flood of light. Already,
-however, it was beginning to return, yet less
-gloomily, less hopelessly, mingling with some
-more clearly acknowledged sense of duty to
-herself&mdash;that it was too bold, too unmaidenly
-to think so much of one who perhaps thought
-but little of her! Yes&mdash;she was strong
-enough to be proud again. Oh! the enjoyment
-of that journey! everything looked so
-pleasant&mdash;even the drenched country through
-which they flew&mdash;and the stiff, old-maidish-looking
-woman opposite, who read "vestiges of
-the Natural History of the Creation" the whole
-way&mdash;munching biscuits till the carriage was
-strewn with the vestiges of modern crumbs;
-and the two gentlemen, one from Hampshire,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_355" id="Page_355">[355]</a></span>
-and the other from North of the Tweed, who
-discussed Free Trade so warmly with Mr.
-Winter&mdash;and dear Mr. Winter himself, his
-rosy, round, well-shaven face, with its twinkling
-eyes, sparkling over a dark brown Spanish
-cloak, of melo-dramatic dimensions, majestically
-folded round him, while his head was
-cosily tied up in a templar cap, with flaps over
-the ears! How radiant is each object viewed
-through the medium of a happy heart!</p>
-
-<p>Then as evening closed in, and after rushing
-by many a quiet little station with its red
-flag, and signal-man's outstretched arms, how
-joyous was Winter's look, as he drew out his
-watch.</p>
-
-<p>"Half-past four! we shall be at Euston
-Square not long after eight."</p>
-
-<p>A few minutes pause at Wolverton, while
-the porters trampling heavily overhead put in
-the lighted lamps&mdash;and jerk, clash&mdash;they were
-off again. The Hampshire gentleman drew<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_356" id="Page_356">[356]</a></span>
-up a window that had been slightly open, and
-renewed his argument.</p>
-
-<p>"And though the legislature leaves the
-farmer no protection, the legislators will not
-lower their rents a fraction. Why, down in my
-county, Lord Egerton, of Allerton, took off
-two and a half per cent last year; and to read
-the address, and hear the speeches he made
-about it, you would think he had made each
-tenant a present of his holding. Thanking
-Heaven for putting so christian an act into his
-heart, &amp;c., &amp;c.; and now they say he will
-never recover; and his brother will be putting
-the screw on again, I suppose."</p>
-
-<p>"Is Lord Egerton ill then?" asked Winter,
-with some interest.</p>
-
-<p>"He had a paralytic seizure about four or
-five months ago, and has been in a very bad
-state ever since; his brother, Colonel Egerton,
-was sent for to India; he was down at Allerton
-a short time since, not very well himself, I
-believe."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_357" id="Page_357">[357]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Kate's soul was in her ears during this communication;
-and while she chided herself for
-thinking of him, her thoughts dwelt on Egerton,
-till, at last, wearied by the excitement,
-she had gone through, her slight, graceful form
-lent more and more against the side of the carriage,
-and she slept. Winter carefully drew
-her cloak round her, and fastened it closer to
-her throat; and, as she opened her eyes,
-slightly roused by his movement, she silently
-thanked God that she was no more uncared for
-and alone.</p>
-
-<p>"Tickets if you please," were the next
-sounds that met her ear&mdash;"Great time! only
-just eight," from Winter, as she looked up bewildered
-after the disturbed sleep in which she
-had indulged.</p>
-
-<p>"Where are we?"</p>
-
-<p>"Near home," said Winter, while his bead-like
-eyes twinkled with more than usual vivacity.</p>
-
-<p>"Sure you have left no indispensable carpet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_358" id="Page_358">[358]</a></span>-bag
-behind? got your parasol? all right&mdash;in
-with you&mdash;14, Orchard Street&mdash;drive fast."</p>
-
-<p>And away through dull, dark streets, now
-whisk round a corner into a blaze of light
-and flaring gas jets over butchers' stalls&mdash;now
-winding through omnibusses&mdash;anon dashing
-past the brilliantly lit up <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">entré</i> to some concert
-room&mdash;again into darkness undiminished save
-by the street lamps and hall lights&mdash;then a
-rumble over the side stones.</p>
-
-<p>"Here we are," from Winter&mdash;as the door
-flew open before their charioteer could knock.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Winter, standing under the lamp, in a
-cap that looked as if it had been made at
-A&mdash;&mdash;, herself neat, as though she never had
-encountered a Spanish flea.</p>
-
-<p>"Dearest Kate! I thought you would never
-come!"</p>
-
-<p>A sobbing, joyous embrace, and she was
-swept up-stairs, where even the London lodging
-looked homelike under Mrs. Winter's be<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_359" id="Page_359">[359]</a></span>nign
-influence. Then came the plentiful tea&mdash;hot
-cakes, and broiled ham and eggs, with
-mulled port for the lady, and brandy-and-water
-for the gentleman&mdash;and the delicious
-confusion of cross questions, and most irrelevant
-answers&mdash;and the mingling of tears and
-smiles!</p>
-
-<p>"Now you must go to bed," said Winter;
-"see, it is long past one&mdash;and that poor child
-has been in constant agitation all day&mdash;she has
-not a vestige of color in her cheeks."</p>
-
-<p>"Indeed, my dear, you look ill&mdash;yes&mdash;you
-must go to bed," observed his wife, with her
-usual kindly precision, which nothing but the
-actual excitement of the moment of meeting
-could break through, and which Kate recognized
-joyfully as an old friend.</p>
-
-<p>"The sober certainty of waking bliss,"
-may well be weighed against the agony of first
-waking after grief. And Kate lay for some
-time, the next morning, comparing this Sun<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_360" id="Page_360">[360]</a></span>day
-with the last; then her thoughts flew to
-nurse, and she sprang up to communicate to
-her the joyful news of her emancipation.</p>
-
-<p>"Ah! I have heart to write now."</p>
-
-<p>Winter and his wife soon asked for a fuller
-and more connected account than she had yet
-given them of her life since they had last met;
-and though it cost her many tears, the recital
-did her good. How clearly through it all
-could she trace the guiding of Almighty love,
-ever hovering near to interpose its aid when
-the bowed spirit failed beneath its burden. No,
-they were not bitter tears she shed that morning.
-And, sometimes, her eyes would sparkle
-brightly through them, as she recounted
-nurse's undeviating self-devotion and unfailing
-truth. She thought little of herself during the
-narration, nor dreamt it was the quiet, undaunted
-heroism her words involuntarily displayed&mdash;the
-heroism of exhaustless love, careless
-of its own wealth, that drew such quick<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_361" id="Page_361">[361]</a></span>
-sobs from Mrs. Winter, and made her good
-little husband wink his eyes, and blow his
-nose, so furtively, and so often.</p>
-
-<p>Both the artist and his wife perceived there
-was some mystery attached to Kate's separation
-from Lady Desmond, into which they must
-not pry; and so, with praiseworthy self-denial,
-accepted, unquestioned, the account she chose
-to give of her wish to be independent, &amp;c., &amp;c.,
-&amp;c.</p>
-
-<p>"I feel I neglected you, my dear Kate,"
-said Winter, as she paused, wearied by her
-long recital, "but the perfect content of your
-last letter induced me, without any fixed plan,
-to ramble on and on, like some butterfly attracted
-from flower to flower, lost in a rich
-profusion of magnificent subjects. Madame
-bore it all wonderfully; I owe her much for
-her patience; and I intended every day, for the
-last six weeks, to write and tell you what time
-we had fixed on for our return, though I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_362" id="Page_362">[362]</a></span>
-fancied, from what you last said, that you and
-Lady Desmond intended to leave England, and
-ramble God knows where; therefore, I always
-thought it better to wait; as you were in good
-hands, a few weeks, one way or the other,
-would make no difference&mdash;so I loitered on,
-scarcely hoping to find you in England on my
-return; at last we found ourselves at Gibralter,
-so late in the year, and so tired of knocking
-about, that we took the Peninsular and Oriental
-steamer, and, after a tedious passage, arrived
-here, as I told you, last Wednesday. In three
-weeks, I trust, the house in the Abbey-gardens
-will be free, and then, with God's blessing,
-we will keep Christmas thankfully in the old
-place&mdash;would you like this?"</p>
-
-<p>"If you had read my most inmost wish for the
-coming season, which I so dreaded, it would be
-to spend it where I was so happy, and grandpapa
-so respected."</p>
-
-<p>"But, my dear," said Mrs. Winter to her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_363" id="Page_363">[363]</a></span>
-husband, "don't you think Kate ought to have
-advice? She changes color so, and her pulse
-is very irregular."</p>
-
-<p>"My kind friend, no," said Kate, leaning
-her head on Mrs. Winter's shoulder, "<em>you</em>
-have brought me all I want&mdash;the sense of
-home. I will rest during the three weeks we
-are to be here&mdash;rest profoundly&mdash;and, at the
-end of that time, you shall have, please God,
-a rosy, cheerful&mdash;" she paused, and added, enquiringly,
-"daughter."</p>
-
-<p>Winter took her hand, and pressed it gravely
-and affectionately, as if accepting her; his wife
-kissed her cheek, and there was a silence of
-deep feeling.</p>
-
-<p>"Now I must write."</p>
-
-<p>"Who to?" asked Winter.</p>
-
-<p>"Georgy and nurse."</p>
-
-<p>"Very well; tell the latter (may she not,
-Sue?) that the moment we are settled at A&mdash;&mdash;,
-We will summon her to wait on our daughter."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_364" id="Page_364">[364]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes&mdash;I shall be proud to have her about
-you, she is excellent," returned his wife.</p>
-
-<p>And Kate wrote. Oh, how vain all language
-to depict the gratitude with which she wrote;
-yet she would fain have despatched an order
-for nurse's immediate return to her; but she
-was pleased, right well pleased, to have so
-near a prospect of re-union before her.</p>
-
-<p>And peacefully did the days glide over,
-and pleasant too, though London wore its
-November gloom&mdash;without might be fog and
-damp, cold winds and muddy streets&mdash;within
-were bright fires and calm, full hearts. Kate,
-in spite of herself, felt, at times, restless to
-know more of Egerton, though she could not
-bring herself to speak of him; but then she
-had so much to hear from Winter; so many
-exquisite sketches to examine; so much to discuss,
-relative to a picture he intended exhibiting
-next Spring; new books, reviews, and
-music, amongst which to revel, so that her mind
-was well filled.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_365" id="Page_365">[365]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Langley and Mrs. Storey soon made their
-way to see her; the latter was, undoubtedly, of
-great use to Mrs. Winter, and an unimpeachable
-authority on all matters connected with
-shopping; they made endless excursions together,
-while Kate remained quietly
-at home, for a slight pain in the chest made
-Winter a little uneasy, and repose seemed now
-to her the greatest pleasure.</p>
-
-<p>She had enjoyed nearly a week of this welcome
-rest, when the following letter from Lady
-Desmond was put into her hand&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
-<p>"Perhaps the only intelligence which could
-have gladdened my heart, was that conveyed
-by your letter, dearest Kate. At last, my eyes
-are opened, fully opened, to the culpable folly
-and injustice of my conduct. Now, when it
-is too late to spare you the suffering I have inflicted.
-If you could see how I loathe myself,
-you would weep for me. God gave me health,
-and riches, an unspotted name, and a fair<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_366" id="Page_366">[366]</a></span>
-position; I paid back no tithe of gratitude or
-duty&mdash;and after a life of self-indulgence&mdash;He
-gave me the gracious task to guard and cherish
-my benefactor's child&mdash;see how I have performed
-the one incumbent but pleasant duty
-placed so clearly before me&mdash;discarded it&mdash;rejected
-it, for an unholy phantom. Oh, Kate,
-Kate! you are so patient, so good, so forgiving;
-and I, as I write each excellence,
-seem to myself so base, and implacable, and
-imperious, I am not worthy that you should
-come under my roof. But, thank God, your
-true, kind friends are restored to you&mdash;I see
-you are happy, and now I understand but too
-well why you remained so long at Carrington.
-Good Heavens! to what have I not driven you&mdash;persuading
-myself that your own guilty conscience
-would not permit you to accept the
-invitations I compelled myself to make. I do
-not ask you to forgive me&mdash;I know you do;
-but, oh, write to me&mdash;reconcile me to myself&mdash;I
-cannot rest. I wear myself out among these<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_367" id="Page_367">[367]</a></span>
-wretched people whom I half envy for their
-absorption in mere physical suffering, and still
-I do not sleep. I want to see you, to hear
-your voice. Oh, I am wretched.</p>
-
-<p>"Write to me again&mdash;say you are happy&mdash;it
-is all that can console me.</p>
-
-<p>
-"Yours, as in our old days,<br />
-<br />
-"<span class="smcap">G. Desmond</span>."
-</p></div>
-
-<p>Kate did not lose an hour in replying to
-this letter, she wrote with all the simple wisdom
-of a true, pure, loving heart. True, deep,
-unchanging sympathy, and judicious respect,
-breathed through every line, and at the conclusion
-she declared her readiness to join her cousin
-as soon as Christmas, (which she had faithfully
-promised to spend with the Winters) was
-over.</p>
-
-<p>"Or you might visit A&mdash;&mdash;," she continued,
-"you would, I know, like my kind friends so
-much&mdash;you would enjoy Mr. Winter's artistic<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_368" id="Page_368">[368]</a></span>
-enthusiasm, and his wife's excellent quaintness.
-We shall have many pleasant days together
-yet, dearest Georgy, and leaving our faulty
-past in the hands of a merciful judge&mdash;help
-each other to live a better and a higher life for
-future."</p>
-
-<p>Miss Vernon was here interrupted by the
-servant of the house, who came to say Mr.
-Winter was in the drawing-room, with a gentleman,
-and wanted her.</p>
-
-<p>"Very well, I will be down in a moment,"
-replied Miss Vernon, "I suppose it is Mr.
-Langley," she thought, as she hastily finished
-her letter, sealed and directed it, before descending
-to the drawing-room; the door was
-slightly open, and she heard a very clear quiet
-voice, which seemed familiar to her, say&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"No, I should not have given it up," she
-stopped a moment, then, without giving herself
-time for further cowardice, entered the
-room, and met an earnest, enquiring glance
-from Egerton's dark brown eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_369" id="Page_369">[369]</a></span>
-Kate had a good deal of self-command, but it
-had been much tried of late; she felt her heart
-stand still for a second, and then throb violently;
-instinctively covering her eyes with one hand,
-she held out the other, silently, and it was
-quickly, warmly, yet gently, clasped in both of
-Egerton's.</p>
-
-<p>"I fear we have startled you," said he,
-calmly, with a certain tone of deep feeling in
-his voice, which acted on Kate's nerves like a
-restorative.</p>
-
-<p>"Yes," she replied, tremulously; but recovering
-herself, and withdrawing her hand&mdash;"I
-had no idea who the gentleman was, they told
-me had come in with Mr. Winter&mdash;I am very
-glad to see you." And she sat down feeling
-quite incapable of standing any longer. Egerton
-placed himself beside her, and Winter
-stood opposite, in a state of fume, against the
-stupidity of lodging-house servants.</p>
-
-<p>"I told the thick-headed girl, as plainly as
-possible, Colonel Egerton, on purpose to pre<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_370" id="Page_370">[370]</a></span>pare
-you. I knew the memories&mdash;humph
-pooh," and Winter stopped abruptly, for Egerton,
-whose eyes were fixed on Kate's face,
-raised his hand significantly as he observed her
-changing colour.</p>
-
-<p>And this was their first meeting&mdash;not very
-demonstrative, yet Kate was satisfied. Winter
-rattled on, apparently well pleased, but Egerton
-and Kate were very silent, the latter particularly
-so.</p>
-
-<p>"I was hurrying down Pall Mall, in hopes
-of catching Mrs. Winter before she started on
-any shopping expedition, when suddenly, an
-iron grasp on my shoulder arrested my progress.
-I just looked round, previous to calling the
-police, and saw Egerton's face considerably
-browner than when last I beheld it&mdash;he was
-not very connected at first."</p>
-
-<p>"No," interrupted Egerton, "I was breathless&mdash;I
-had just issued from my club, when I
-caught a glimpse of your well-remembered
-figure&mdash;to give chase was my first impulse&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_371" id="Page_371">[371]</a></span>better
-get into a scrape than miss the man I
-had been so long looking for, so here I am;
-and are you quite well, Miss Vernon? You
-look&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"You must not tell me I am looking ill,"
-said Kate, with something of her old archness,
-a soft smile playing round her lips, and dimpling
-her cheek, as a sudden gleam of sunshine
-calls forth a thousand diamond sparkles from
-the bosom of a sleeping lake.</p>
-
-<p>"You do not look well," persisted Egerton,
-too earnest to be complimentary; and then,
-strange to say, there was an awkward pause&mdash;their
-hearts were too full to speak on any
-common-place topic, and they dared not touch
-upon anything deeper.</p>
-
-<p>Winter did good service, however, and at
-last Kate ventured to ask&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Have you been long in England, Captain&mdash;I
-mean Colonel Egerton."</p>
-
-<p>He smiled, his own bright smile&mdash;lip and
-eyes in unhesitating harmony.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_372" id="Page_372">[372]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Yes&mdash;call me Captain Egerton, it reminds
-me of old times and pleasant days. I arrived
-here nearly a month ago&mdash;I had been ordered
-home by the doctor, at the same time Mary, (my
-sister, Mrs. Wentworth), wrote requesting I
-would return, on account of Egerton's health;
-besides," he added, with another smile, "I
-was home-sick, and restless to learn more than
-letters could tell me. I was almost a fortnight
-at Allerton."</p>
-
-<p>"So we heard on the rail-road," interrupted
-Winter; "I mean, that you had been at Allerton.
-And so your brother is very ill?"</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Egerton shook his head.</p>
-
-<p>"Very painfully affected; and, I fear, will
-never be much better. They want me to stay
-in England; but I can really be of no use to
-him; and as soon as I have refreshed myself,
-I mean to return to India, unless something
-very unforeseen occurs."</p>
-
-<p>"Being his next heir," began Winter.</p>
-
-<p>"Is no reason why I should waste my life,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_373" id="Page_373">[373]</a></span>
-waiting to step into my brother's shoes. As
-soon as I could get away from Allerton, I
-started for A&mdash;&mdash;, hoping to find you and Mrs.
-Winter there. I knew," turning to Kate, and
-insensibly softening his tones, "that the Priory
-existed no more&mdash;at least, for me&mdash;but I knew
-Winter would always be in communication
-with you. Imagine my dismay, to find a
-stranger in possession of the hospitable house
-where I had been so well cared for. Do you
-know I felt confoundedly cut up. I could
-learn nothing satisfactory there, so I came on
-to Carrington, and put up for a night with
-the &mdash;&mdash; Hussars&mdash;old friends of mine. It
-was curious, Miss Vernon, how vividly the
-place reminded me of that ball. I felt a sort
-of certainty that you were near, and that I
-should meet you somehow. By the way, I
-went to hear the famous Doctor M&mdash;&mdash; preach
-before starting for town."</p>
-
-<p>"I know," said Kate, quietly&mdash;"you sat
-three rows before me."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_374" id="Page_374">[374]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Egerton almost started from his seat in profound
-amazement.</p>
-
-<p>"How! what! do you mean to say you
-were in the church, and I did not see you?"</p>
-
-<p>"How extraordinary you did not mention
-this to me," exclaimed Winter.</p>
-
-<p>"I did not think&mdash;that is, I intended&mdash;and
-was always interrupted," faltered Kate.</p>
-
-<p>"And why! why did you not speak to
-me?" cried Egerton, eagerly.</p>
-
-<p>"I could not, indeed! though I wished it
-much," said Kate, with a simple earnestness,
-at which Egerton's dark, embrowned cheek
-flushed with sudden pleasure. He did not
-pursue the subject then; but said, abruptly&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"I have felt bewildered at finding myself
-so suddenly talking to my old friends, or I
-could not have been so long without enquiring
-for Mrs. O'Toole. May I not see my good
-nurse? You know she is mine, as well as
-yours, Miss Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>"She is quite well; but alas! not with me;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_375" id="Page_375">[375]</a></span>
-she joins us, however, when we return to
-A&mdash;&mdash;. Oh! how glad she would be to see
-you again! she was so fond of you."</p>
-
-<p>"Not with you!"</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Egerton was beginning in tones of
-no small surprise, when the door opened, and
-Mesdames Storey and Winter entered.</p>
-
-<p>The greeting between Mrs. Winter and
-Egerton was considerably more demonstrative
-than any that had yet occurred; the kind
-little woman was evidently touched by the
-genuine delight evinced by her quondam
-patient at seeing her; and Winter smiled to
-see Colonel Egerton's more deep happiness take
-this method of expression; Mrs. Storey simpered
-and curtsied and nodded to Kate, and
-was altogether, as she said, "quite taken with
-Colonel Egerton;" and sat on till her friends
-wished her far away. The conversation was,
-therefore, general; and Miss Vernon unusually
-silent.</p>
-
-<p>Egerton felt he could make no enquiries<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_376" id="Page_376">[376]</a></span>
-then, so rose to leave, having paid an unconscionably
-long visit.</p>
-
-<p>"I have a letter for nurse," said he to
-Kate, "which my ignorance of her whereabouts
-has prevented my forwarding; if you
-will allow me, I will bring it here to-morrow
-morning, and hear all about her, and everything.
-I have so many questions to ask; but
-I promised to see Sir J. M&mdash;&mdash; at the Horse
-Guards to-day, and must go. I presume you
-are visible early?"</p>
-
-<p>"Can't you join us at dinner, a lodging-house
-scramble? but, I suppose, an old campaigner
-as you are, can rough it," said Winter,
-with eager hospitality, that startled his precise
-wife.</p>
-
-<p>"With the greatest pleasure," cried Egerton,
-in his old, gay, frank manner. "I was
-just wishing you would ask me."</p>
-
-<p>Winter and Kate smiled; and Mrs. Storey
-opened her eyes, astonished at so cool an admission.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_377" id="Page_377">[377]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"<i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">Au revoir</i>, then," continued Colonel Egerton,
-taking his hat, and bowing. "I will
-bring you the letter, Miss Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>"Is five o'clock too early?" shouted Winter,
-after him, as he ran down stairs.</p>
-
-<p>"No, not the least."</p>
-
-<p>"Sharp, five then."</p>
-
-<p>"Humph, ha," said Winter, rubbing his
-hands together, as he returned to the room;
-"that's a fine fellow&mdash;no nonsense about him&mdash;though
-he nearly knocked me over this
-morning. I am glad his brother never married.
-Fred will make a first-rate member of
-the Upper House yet."</p>
-
-<p>"But, my dear John, how you could be so
-thoughtless as to ask such a fine gentleman&mdash;accustomed
-to the style he is&mdash;to a scrambling
-dinner with us, in a couple of hours. I'm
-sure I do not know where to turn."</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Storey looked truly sympathising.</p>
-
-<p>"Pooh, pooh, my dear, give him a chop and
-a jam tart; anything&mdash;he will be satisfied, I'll<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_378" id="Page_378">[378]</a></span>
-engage; surely you must remember how easily
-pleased he was at A&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>"Easily pleased, Mr. Winter! I am not so
-sure of that! a much more fastidious man
-might be pleased with the table we kept at
-A&mdash;&mdash;."</p>
-
-<p>Winter pulled a long face, expressive of
-contrition for his fault; and Kate interposed
-her soothing influence.</p>
-
-<p>"Colonel Egerton was too glad to see you,
-and to come to you, to be <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">difficile</i>."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, Mr. Winter, I must go home before
-it is quite dark," said Mrs. Storey.</p>
-
-<p>"And I will escort you, my dear madam,
-to the omnibus&mdash;where can I catch Langley?"
-asked Winter.</p>
-
-<p>"Oh, at his house; he goes out very little."</p>
-
-<p>So Mrs. Storey and her cavalier departed,
-while Mrs. Winter disappeared to hold deep
-council with the landlady, and Kate was left
-alone to revel in her own thoughts; gaily they
-careered away over the far future, yet vaguely<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_379" id="Page_379">[379]</a></span>
-and indistinctly. Nurse and Georgy&mdash;the
-Winters and herself, and Egerton, were to be
-always happy together in some universal bond
-of fellowship; but she did not arrive at probabilities,
-they half startled her; she almost
-shrunk from the whisper of her heart&mdash;"He
-loves me, he always loved me." There was
-something too positive, too bold in such
-thoughts! And so a thousand, bright, kaleidoscope
-visions kept forming themselves round a
-delightful nucleus presented by the simple
-sentence&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Colonel Egerton is to dine here to-day!"</p>
-
-<p>Long, very long it was, since she had dared
-to indulge thus in reverie; and even while
-she raised her heart in unspoken gratitude to
-the Giver of good for her great deliverance, the
-thought rose to her lips&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"If dear grandpapa had but lived, to see a
-return of so much happiness! Ah, why was
-he taken in the midst of such heavy times?"</p>
-
-<p>These reflections calmed the agitation which<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_380" id="Page_380">[380]</a></span>
-made each nerve tremulous, and she anticipated
-Egerton's return less anxiously.</p>
-
-<p>"I long to talk to him of grandpapa; but I
-am afraid of crying so very much, it would
-distress him."</p>
-
-<p>Here Mrs. Winter entered, quite restored
-to good humour, as Kate dimly perceived by
-the fire-light.</p>
-
-<p>"The woman of the house was so obliging;
-and it was so fortunate, the gentleman in the
-front parlour had gone out of town for a few
-days, and they could dine there; and an excellent
-pastry-cook at the corner of the street
-would supply all deficiencies. And, my dear,
-it is almost five o'clock, if you are going to
-smooth your hair, and wash your hands before
-dinner."</p>
-
-<p>If&mdash;of course she intended to do so.</p>
-
-<p>It was many a long day since she looked in
-the glass and brushed her glossy hair so carefully.
-She was not satisfied&mdash;no, she looked
-so pale, so unlike her old bright self. She<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_381" id="Page_381">[381]</a></span>
-little thought how amply the brightness was
-compensated by the pensive sweetness that
-deepened and softened the gentle gravity of
-her face, and the species of languor that lent
-such tender grace to her slight form. Never
-had Egerton admired her so much&mdash;he had
-left a bright, saucy girl, and found a lovely
-woman.</p>
-
-<p>Winter returned with Langley, whom he
-had caught, for dinner; and the little party
-had scarcely assembled, when Colonel Egerton
-was announced; they were sitting by the light
-of a bright fire, and Miss Vernon, leaning back
-quietly on the cushions of the sofa, was
-amused by the contrast between Egerton's fine
-figure and air noble, Winter's stumpy form, and
-Langley's awkward length; nor did Fred refrain
-from stealing glances at the graceful outline of
-Kate's black dress, which threw into strong
-relief the pure fairness of her throat and hands,
-a delicate colour tinged her cheek, and a certain
-holy look of happiness deepened the expression
-of her liquid eyes.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_382" id="Page_382">[382]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Egerton handed Mrs. Winter down to dinner,
-and Kate followed with Winter. The repast
-was unimpeachable; but no one took any
-notice of its arrangements. Much was said
-by the gentlemen; but the ladies were rather
-silent. Egerton was all polished cordiality.
-A look of frank joy, which he cared little to
-disguise, lighted up his bronzed countenance
-and dark brown eyes; there was a degree of
-decision and authority in his manner and
-opinions, that they perhaps wanted before, as
-if he had read, and thought, and acted much
-since last he had dined with them; and Kate
-observed that Winter insensibly treated him
-with greater respect and less startling abruptness.
-Langley was never much impressed
-with any man; and the trio discussed Spain
-and India most agreeably, Colonel Egerton
-described simply and forcibly his visit to the
-cave Temples of Elora; and this led to the
-Hindoo Trinity, and the strange, rude, imperfect
-shadowing of the Christian doctrines con<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_383" id="Page_383">[383]</a></span>tained
-in it; and then they rambled on to the
-universal ideas prevalent in all Pagan lands,
-and the German theories on this subject, and
-on languages; of the traces of the moors in
-Spain, and the Alhambra, &amp;c. And on all
-these topics Egerton led instead of listening,
-as in former times.</p>
-
-<p>"If I could only persuade Mrs. Winter,"
-said her husband, as she and Kate rose to
-leave the room, "to write and publish her experiences
-of Spain, the world would learn some
-startling facts. She used to endeavour to
-teach the girls to work, while I was sketching
-for my individual gratification. And as she
-picked up some colloquial Spanish, she heard
-strange revelations, beating Borrow's Bible in
-Spain all to nothing."</p>
-
-<p>"My dear, how can you talk so! it was
-only the Muleteer's sister, poor girl! and she
-knew a little English, near Gibraltar, you
-know."</p>
-
-<p>"With all the roughing she bore so well<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_384" id="Page_384">[384]</a></span>
-abroad," resumed Winter, "the moment she
-returned to England, heigh presto! the spell of
-nicety was on her. Man may be free the moment
-his foot touches British ground; but,
-Carambo! woman is trammelled forthwith by
-particularity and regularity, and no end of
-arities; she was afraid she should not be able
-to give you a sufficiently <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">recherché</i> dinner,
-Colonel, on so short&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"My dear John, how can you&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>"Mrs. Winter knew I could not forget all
-the dainties with which she used to tempt me,
-when I was such a troublesome invalid under
-her care, and wished to surprise me with them
-here," said Egerton, with a smile full of kindly
-recollection.</p>
-
-<p>"Never mind, Sue," cried Winter, as she
-retired; "Spain is a country too full of splendid
-colouring to be clean; nor is it necessary
-there&mdash;<i lang="it" xml:lang="it">Dormire coi cani per levarsi colle pulci</i>."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, my love, I think everything went
-on very smoothly," said Mrs. Winter, as she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_385" id="Page_385">[385]</a></span>
-settled herself for her nap before the gentlemen
-made their appearance.</p>
-
-<p>"Very well indeed," returned Kate, vaguely,
-her eyes gazing far away into dreamland.</p>
-
-<p>The gentlemen soon followed them; and
-once more Kate handed a cup of tea to Egerton,
-their eyes met as he took it, and a tear
-started to Kate's, as the familiar action brought
-the memory of her grandfather vividly before
-her.</p>
-
-<p>"I have so much to say to you&mdash;so much to
-enquire of you," said Egerton, in a low tone,
-placing himself beside her; "but I must see
-you alone; I dare not agitate you with reminiscences
-so sad before a stranger, or indeed
-any third person."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, I have much to tell you," returned
-Miss Vernon, tremulously.</p>
-
-<p>"It is a great mystery to me, the absence of
-nurse; I do not half like it," resumed Egerton.
-"I have brought you the letter from her
-son."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_386" id="Page_386">[386]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Thank you; I will forward it to-morrow.
-She will join me at A&mdash;&mdash;. We return there
-in about a fortnight."</p>
-
-<p>"It was a most extraordinary occurrence,"
-said Egerton, slowly stirring his cup round
-and round, "that I should have been in the
-same church with you at Carrington, and not
-know it. Why did you not speak to me&mdash;call
-to me&mdash;shy a prayer-book at my head! anything,
-rather than let me miss the good of
-which I was in search?"</p>
-
-<p>Kate smiled, and shook her head.</p>
-
-<p>"What a stupid numskull I was not to
-translate the instinctive feeling of your presence
-correctly, instead of pooh-poohing it
-away, after our friend Winter's fashion; however,
-all's well now. Give my kindest remembrance
-to Mrs. O'Toole when you write."</p>
-
-<p>"Certainly," said Kate, "I shall not fail."</p>
-
-<p>"Your cousin, Lady Desmond, is in Ireland,
-so Burton told me; he is a capital fellow; but
-Dashwood was away, God knows where; and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_387" id="Page_387">[387]</a></span>
-he was the only person it appears who had
-any trace of you. Do you know where he
-is?"</p>
-
-<p>"No, he told me he was going to fish in
-Ireland when I saw him last."</p>
-
-<p>"So Lord Effingham is off to St. Petersburgh,
-Miss Vernon," said Langley, at this
-juncture.</p>
-
-<p>Kate felt that Fred's eye was on her, and
-coloured deeply, as she merely bowed in assent.</p>
-
-<p>"Curious place to winter in," he continued.</p>
-
-<p>Then Winter made some observations about
-the freezing of the Neva, and the Russian
-costume; and he and Langley talked on for a
-good while standing on the hearth-rug, and
-sipping their tea; but Egerton was silent, for
-some time; and Kate did not like to look at
-him; at last he asked&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"Do you ever sing now?"</p>
-
-<p>"Oh yes," answered Mrs. Winter for her.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_388" id="Page_388">[388]</a></span>
-"Sing that pretty new song you got yesterday,
-my love."</p>
-
-<p>"No, no," cried Egerton, eagerly, "an old
-one for me&mdash;dare I ask for 'The Serenade,'
-if it would not distress you. I have so often
-longed to hear it again."</p>
-
-<p>"I will try," said Kate; "but&mdash;"</p>
-
-<p>She went to the piano, and struck the well-remembered
-arpeggio chords so long unheard;
-she strove to steady her voice, as it
-rose tremulous with its rich sweetness and
-deep expression; Egerton leant on the piano,
-wrapt in memory and contemplation. Kate
-proceeded very well to the end of the first
-verse; but there, at the sustained note to
-which her grandfather had so loved to listen,
-she faltered, paused, and covering her face
-with both her hands, for an instant, hastily
-left the room.</p>
-
-<p>She was thoroughly overcome; and, exhausted
-by the excitement of the day, returned
-no more that evening.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_389" id="Page_389">[389]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Colonel Egerton came the next day, and the
-next, and the next. Mr. and Mrs. Winter, or
-Mrs. Storey, or some snuffy picture dealer was
-always there, and he was reduced, <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">malgré lui</i>,
-to talk of generalities, this constraint gave something
-of coolness and gravity to his manner; he
-was often <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">distrait</i>; and Kate felt less calm.</p>
-
-<p>Meanwhile Mrs. O'Toole's letters were filled
-with the rapturous expectation of a reunion with
-her <em>Darlint</em>, and could scarce be induced to
-wait until the time specified for her return by
-Winter.</p>
-
-<p>Kate was re-reading one of her characteristic
-epistles one morning after Mr. and Mrs. Winter
-had departed on some common errand. She
-had a slight cold, and was ordered by her kind
-authoritative <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">maestro</i> to keep in doors; they
-had not been gone many minutes when Egerton
-came in, carrying a large bouquet of hot-house
-flowers.</p>
-
-<p>"I have just met Winter, and his <i lang="it" xml:lang="it">cara sposa</i>;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_390" id="Page_390">[390]</a></span>
-they told me you were on the sick list. How
-is that?"</p>
-
-<p>"A cold&mdash;oh, nothing; but what beautiful
-flowers. I have suffered much from a dearth
-of flowers."</p>
-
-<p>"I wrote to my sister, who is at present
-at Allerton, to send me a basket full, they have
-tolerable conservatories there."</p>
-
-<p>"You are very kind; I will ring for a vase
-or bowl, or something to put them in. Mrs.
-Winter will be delighted with them."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes, but they are for you."</p>
-
-<p>The little bustle of arranging the graceful
-gift proceeded pleasantly. Egerton lounged on
-the sofa. Kate stood by the table, now consulting
-him as to their arrangement, and touching
-them with a tender, admiring care, that
-showed their appreciation of their rare beauty;
-gradually, as the task was accomplished, they
-glided into talk of former times; and Egerton
-spoke with such feeling of the sudden shock<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_391" id="Page_391">[391]</a></span>
-her grandfather's death had been to him, that
-Kate, unspeakably gratified by the reverent
-affection he expressed, was drawn on to give
-some account of his last moments, and how the
-old hound died when relieved from his watch.
-She spoke tremblingly, yet with wonderful
-composure; Egerton listened in motionless attention.</p>
-
-<p>"I shall never, never forget the night he
-died," she continued, unconsciously playing
-with a leaf, and still standing by the table.
-Egerton had risen, and was leaning against the
-mantel-piece. "He had seemed better, that day,
-and happier, and I sat watching him by the
-fire-light as he lay, asleep, as I thought, in his
-chair, long after he was gone from me." She
-shuddered slightly. "I had been dreaming of
-better times for him, perhaps a return
-to the Priory; but it was soon broken, my
-dream! and then Georgy was away, and the
-Winters, and I was, so alone! I had none,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_392" id="Page_392">[392]</a></span>
-no, not one near me, that I loved, except poor
-nurse."</p>
-
-<p>She stopped to recover herself; Egerton,
-springing to her side, took her hand in both his,</p>
-
-<p>"Kate! long-loved, dearest, you have indeed
-been sad and weary; give me the right to be
-beside you, come sorrow or joy; I cannot bear
-to think of your being grieved and alone, while
-I, who so pined for a glimpse of you, was far
-away. Let me hold you to my heart, and
-shelter you from the roughness of life, or share
-its burdens with you. My beautiful one! be
-my wife, and come what may, we will bear it
-with the strength of two hearts."</p>
-
-<p>He drew her to him, close, close, and she
-leaned her hand upon his shoulder, murmuring,</p>
-
-<p>"I always wished you to be there, <em>he</em> loved
-you so much."</p>
-
-<p>Where was sorrow, or fear, or doubt?
-"Where the evil that could touch her now
-that she had reached the haven where she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_393" id="Page_393">[393]</a></span>
-would be?" vanished before the genial sunshine
-of Egerton's love.</p>
-
-<p>One long, fond, gentle kiss, before she extricated
-herself from his embrace, no longer her
-own, but pledged to be his while God granted
-them life, though she had scarce breathed an
-articulate syllable.</p>
-
-<p>The daylight was beginning to fade before
-Winter and his wife returned, and still they
-talked of the past, and planned for the future,
-and opened their inmost souls to each other; and
-Kate, the first strange, bewildering, emotion of
-finding every shadow of reserve swept from
-between herself and Egerton was gradually
-growing calmer; his voice stilling her heart to
-the deep tranquillity of perfect contempt.</p>
-
-<p>A glance on his entrance told Winter the
-state of affairs better, indeed, than Egerton's
-incoherent explanation.</p>
-
-<p>We have reached the climax of our story,
-not much remains to be told, already its simple<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_394" id="Page_394">[394]</a></span>
-annals have spread themselves out too far;
-patience, but little remains.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-<p>
-<i>To Mrs. O'Toole, Fermoy, Ireland.</i>
-</p>
-
-<p>"The day-dawn has indeed come at
-last, brightly and softly, dearest nurse, true
-friend! Soon, soon we shall meet, and you
-will have two nurselings. Oh, I am so strangely
-happy. The good God has sent us such joy;
-for you and I always were joyful or sad together.
-Ah, I can no longer speak of myself
-alone; I have another self, a better, nobler,
-stronger self. A true heart to lean upon. The
-wish you have never openly expressed will be
-accomplished, my own nurse. I have promised
-to be his wife. Colonel Egerton's, of whom
-grandpapa was so fond; he would be proud and
-glad if he knew it; and dare we say he does
-not? I yearn to hear your voice, and that you
-too should bask in the sunshine, after such a
-long sad winter; for he is so fond of you, and
-always calls you his nurse. But in a very few<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_395" id="Page_395">[395]</a></span>
-days you will be with me again. We go to
-A&mdash;&mdash; on the 30th; be there to meet us.
-Everything is as yet very unsettled; but I
-write to you first, before any one. I cannot
-tell you anything clearly now, only you are to
-be always with me, and I do not think we shall
-leave England.</p>
-
-<p>"Dear nurse, how wildly I have written, my
-hand is so unsteady, and my heart beats; but,
-nurse, you must bend your knees before God,
-and pray to Him to be with us now in this
-great trial of prosperity, even as He stayed us
-in our time of adversity.</p>
-
-<p>
-Ever your loving child,<br />
-<br />
-<span class="smcap">Kate</span>."
-</p></div>
-
-<p>"Who are you writing to, Kate?" asked
-Egarton, jealously watching her endeavouring
-to hide a tear that fell upon the paper as he
-entered the room.</p>
-
-<p>"To nurse, but you must not see it."</p>
-
-<p>"<em>Cativa</em>&mdash;I have no such wild ambition, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_396" id="Page_396">[396]</a></span>
-keep it till to-morrow, I want to add a postscript."</p>
-
-<p>"Yes but no later, she will be so proud to hear
-from you."</p>
-
-<p>Egerton's talk over pounds shillings and pence
-with Winter gave that worthy great satisfaction.
-"I am not rich," said the young colonel, "but
-I have a moderate competence with the prize
-money that has fallen to my share, my military
-appointments and the certainty as to the future,
-although it springs, unfortunately, from my poor
-brother's state of health; besides, Kate is so
-differently situated now compared to what she
-was when I tore myself away from England.
-I can never forget your fatherly kindness to my
-bride elect."</p>
-
-<p>"I trust you will not think of taking her to
-India."</p>
-
-<p>"I should prefer staying at home now; I
-dread the climate for her; yes, in all probability
-I shall remain at home; it would be a hard trial
-to part from you and her cousin; by the way I<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_397" id="Page_397">[397]</a></span>
-cannot quite make out that Lady Desmond,"
-and the two friends proceeded to discuss and
-elucidate very near the truth of Kate's well
-preserved secret.</p>
-
-<p>"Now then my Kate" said Egerton, looking
-up from his writing the next morning and holding
-out his hand. "Come here, I have a clearer
-conscience than you, you may read my postscript;
-to be sure as it is to a lady you have a
-right."</p>
-
-<p>She took the paper from his hand, and standing
-by him read as follows, while he leant his
-arm on the table and gazed in her face.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot">
-
-<p>"My dear nurse, Miss Kate will not let me
-see what she has written, so I must write for
-myself."</p>
-
-<p>"I have felt deeply your truth and fidelity
-to one very dear to me, and I can assure you, as
-long as I have a home to offer you, none after
-my wife will be more welcome there than yourself,
-but as ladies are changeable, (at least they
-tell me so), and you might possibly at some<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_398" id="Page_398">[398]</a></span>
-future day choose a house of your own, the
-enclosed is a rough draft of a deed now in preparation,
-securing to you an annuity, which will
-I trust, render you tolerably independent for
-the remainder of your days. I consider that in
-doing this I merely act as the executor of your
-late lamented master, think that you owe it
-to him and look upon me as still your debtor for
-unlimited care and kindness when I require it.</p>
-
-<p>
-Yours with sincere regard,<br />
-<br />
-<span class="smcap">Fred. B. Egerton</span>.
-</p></div>
-
-<p>We dare not tell how Kate expressed her
-entire approbation of this letter; severe ladies
-may be shocked, and we have a great respect for
-them. She was no prude, and Egerton had
-strong nerves, so no one need trouble themselves
-further on the subject.</p>
-
-<p>All arrangements and projects were however
-broken up, shortly before the Winters and their
-now blooming adopted daughter, left town for
-A&mdash;&mdash;. A telegraphic despatch from Allerton
-announced the sudden return of Lord Egerton's<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_399" id="Page_399">[399]</a></span>
-paralytic seizure, and summoned his brother to
-what soon proved to be a death-bed scene. The
-peer showed symptoms of satisfaction when his
-discarded brother took his place by his bed side,
-but he was speechless, and after a week's suffering
-breathed his last.</p>
-
-<p>Meantime Kate and her kind friends reached
-their old home, the sense of happiness tempered
-the solemn tidings of Lord Egerton's death
-which reached them as they left London.</p>
-
-<p>Kate could not repress a shudder as the shout
-of "Carrington, Carrington, change here for
-Batten Wiggem, Manchester," met her ear;
-she looked at Winter and silently raised her
-eyes to Heaven.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. O'Toole had been some days installed at
-Abbey Gardens previous to their return, and as
-Kate caught the first glimpse of her, the white
-apron, and the snowy cap, the black gown and
-the eager, straining look, the attitude all the
-same, exactly the same, as the sad day she had
-bid her good bye, her heart bounded within her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_400" id="Page_400">[400]</a></span>
-at the contrast. How she clung to her and kissed
-her, and smothered her wrinkled cheeks with
-her fair soft hands, and would not let her out
-of her sight for a moment, and pleased herself
-by waiting on her.</p>
-
-<p>"Sure, I could'nt answer yer letther, the
-way I'd like, core iv my heart," said Mrs.
-O'Toole to Kate, when they were alone; "nor
-the Captin's, (me Lord's I mane) will ye write
-wan fur me asthore; he'll think I have'nt a
-screed iv gratitude in me afther him settlin a
-fortin on me."</p>
-
-<p>"I will, dear nurse, but he will be here soon,
-and then you can speak to him yourself; he
-must be at Allerton now on account of his poor
-brother's death, it was so sudden at last."</p>
-
-<p>"Well, the Lord, rest his soul! sure it's
-better for him to be in happiness in heaven
-than down here, standin' in the captin's way,"
-returned nurse, cheerfully.</p>
-
-<p>"For shame, nurse, you must not speak
-so."</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_401" id="Page_401">[401]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>"Och, thin, core iv my heart, but ye look
-well; there's the light iv joy in your eyes, an'
-on yer lips again. See what a power if happiness
-the Blessed Saviour was storin' up for us,
-all the time we wor in sorra. An' many's the
-time I grumbled becaise things didn't go my
-way. Sure, if I'd the pick iv the world, I'd
-choose the captin (I mane me Lord) fur a
-husband fur ye; it's he that has the warm
-heart, an' the open hand!&mdash;an' what'll ye be,
-asthore?&mdash;a duchess or a countess!</p>
-
-<p>"Only a viscountess, and even then that
-seems very strange."</p>
-
-<p>"A vi-countess; that's something betune
-thim, anyways." Kate laughed. "An' whin
-will me Lord be here?"</p>
-
-<p>"Not till after his brother's funeral, of
-course."</p>
-
-<p>"They'll have a grand berrin," concluded
-Mrs. O'Toole, meditatively.</p>
-
-<p>The new peer, as may be anticipated, joined<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_402" id="Page_402">[402]</a></span>
-them as soon as it was possible, and a joyful
-sight it was to see his greeting with Mrs.
-O'Toole, who was the same with the viscount
-as she had been with the captain. He stopped
-to shake hands with her most cordially and
-energetically at the foot of the stairs, even
-though Kate was waiting for him at the top.</p>
-
-<p>"Och! many's the time me ould eyes wur
-wearyin' to see you when we wur in throuble;
-many's the time me sweet child wanted ye; but,
-glory be to God, you'll be beside her for ever
-from this out, captin, agra! Me lord, I
-mane."</p>
-
-<p>"I'll never forgive you if you change the
-title, nurse. I was not perfectly content till I
-saw your honest face; but now, indeed, I feel
-I am amongst my old friends again."</p>
-
-<p>"An' sure aint I a brute not to thank you
-fur the fortin; it's bewildhered I am entirely;
-yer a prence, so ye are."</p>
-
-<p>"Well nurse, never mind; I can't stop now,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_403" id="Page_403">[403]</a></span>
-for you see there's Miss Kate waiting for me;
-we'll have a long talk to-morrow," cried Egerton,
-springing up the stairs.</p>
-
-<p>The news of Kate's approaching happiness
-did more to comfort Lady Desmond, and soothe
-her vexed spirit, than whole libraries of sound
-reasoning and good advice could have done; nor
-was it difficult to prevail on her to join them;
-and so the interval demanded by business and
-etiquette sped away, and long before winter
-had yielded to the coming spring, a quiet,
-happy wedding party assembled at the old
-church. Mr. Winter was there, for the first
-time in his life, perhaps, in white gloves; Lady
-Desmond; and the Wentworths, gay, polished,
-kind-hearted triflers, all charmed with their
-new sister; and Burton, gravely observant,
-looked on contentedly; and Mrs. Winter rather
-nervous at the thoughts of entertaining so
-goodly a company.</p>
-
-<p>And Mrs. O'Toole, though the wedding was
-peculiarly quiet, was satisfied, perfectly, as she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_404" id="Page_404">[404]</a></span>
-removed the long, graceful veil from her child's
-head, and replaced it with a travelling bonnet,
-ejaculating, "If mee blessed masther could look
-down from heaven, it's he that would be proud
-an' happy. Sure he sees us this blessed
-minnit!"</p>
-
-<p>Our tale is ended, and Kate Vernon merged
-in "The Viscountess Egerton."</p>
-
-<p>We may not promise that her future will be
-all unclouded, but, at least, she has a true,
-strong heart&mdash;a bold, clear spirit to aid her
-through the rugged paths of life; to stand beside
-her in the storm, and finally, to glide with her
-into the calm, still evening of time.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Desmond is still a widow; she passes
-much of her time amongst her hitherto uncared-for
-tenantry, and her happiest hours are spent
-in the pleasant circle collected at Allerton.</p>
-
-<p>Colonel Dashwood is married to a fair, bright
-girl, younger by a good many years than himself,
-who looks up to him as a perfect Chevalier
-Bayard.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_405" id="Page_405">[405]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Bruton remains a determined old bachelor.</p>
-
-<p>The Winters are well, happy, and prosperous,
-as they deserve to be.</p>
-
-<p>It was in the height of the high season of
-1851, as we endeavoured to "move round,"
-in obedience to the imperious mandate of the
-policeman on duty, at the case containing the
-celebrated Kooh-i-noor, in the Crystal Palace,
-that our attention was attracted by the consequential
-air of an elderly female, decidedly <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">embonpoint</i>,
-and well to do in the world, as
-evidenced by her substantial black silk dress
-and bonnet, and rich scarlet shawl.</p>
-
-<p>"An', so that's the Kooh-i-noor, is it?" remarked
-the old lady in audible accents, whether
-addressed to an individual companion or to the
-crowd generally, we do not pretend to decide.</p>
-
-<p>"Athen, it's mighty like a lump iv glass
-hangin' to a lusthre; faith the ould masther
-had a dimint he used to wear an his breast at
-Dungar, in the good ould times, that this wan,
-for all it's so big, couldn't hould a candle to;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_406" id="Page_406">[406]</a></span>
-but it's not every one ud know the differ. It's
-kilt entirely I am with the haite; an' mee
-lady"&mdash;and we gradually lost the words, though
-we struggled after the retreating figure, till
-we saw her respectfully handed, by a tall footman
-in a handsome livery, into a coronetted
-chariot, from whence beamed a lovely, happy
-face we remembered well.</p>
-
-<p>The thread is spun, the web is woven&mdash;a
-parting quotation, and we have done:&mdash;</p>
-
-<p><cite>Saunders's News-Letter</cite> (we omit the precise
-date) lately contained the following paragraph:&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>"We understand the Dungar property, in
-the county of &mdash;&mdash;, so long the subject of
-litigation, has been purchased by Viscount
-Egerton, of Allerton, under the Incumbered
-Estates' Court. Lady Egerton is, we believe,
-the grand-daughter and heiress-at-law of the
-late owner, the well-known and universally
-respected Colonel D'Arcy Vernon."</p>
-
-<p>"Ay," said a thick little artist, who had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_407" id="Page_407">[407]</a></span>
-withdrawn his thumb from his palette to open
-a newspaper directed to him in a delicate
-female hand, as he read this paragraph&mdash;"So
-the wheel goes round, but it is not every day
-it brings up, sparkling over the dull surface
-of life, so bright and pure a gem as Kate
-Vernon."</p>
-
-
-<p class="ph3">THE END.</p>
-
-
-<p class="ph4">T. C. Newby, Printer, 30, Welbeck Street, Cavendish Square.</p>
-
-<div class='transnote'><h3>Transcriber's Notes:</h3>
- <p>Minor punctuation and printer errors repaired.</p>
-
-
- <p>Every effort has been made to replicate this text as faithfully
- as possible, including obsolete and variant spellings and other
- inconsistencies.</p>
-</div>
-
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