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- _LEISURE HOUR SERIES_
-
- WHITELADIES
-
- _A NOVEL_
-
- BY
- MRS. OLIPHANT
-
- AUTHOR OF “MARGARET MAITLAND,” “THE LAST OF THE MORTIMERS,” ETC.
-
- [Illustration]
-
- NEW YORK
- HENRY HOLT AND COMPANY
- 1875
-
- JOHN F. TROW & SON, PRINTERS,
- 205-213 EAST 12TH ST., NEW YORK.
-
-
-
-
-WHITELADIES.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-
-It was an old manor-house, not a deserted convent, as you might suppose
-by the name. The conventual buildings from which no doubt the place had
-taken its name, had dropped away, bit by bit, leaving nothing but one
-wall of the chapel, now closely veiled and mantled with ivy, behind the
-orchard, about a quarter of a mile from the house. The lands were Church
-lands, but the house was a lay house, of an older date than the family
-who had inhabited it from Henry VIII.’s time, when the priory was
-destroyed, and its possessions transferred to the manor. No one could
-tell very clearly how this transfer was made, or how the family of
-Austins came into being. Before that period no trace of them was to be
-found. They sprang up all at once, not rising gradually into power, but
-appearing full-blown as proprietors of the manor, and possessors of all
-the confiscated lands. There was a tradition in the family of some wild,
-tragical union of an emancipated nun with a secularized friar--a kind of
-repetition of Luther and his Catherine, but with results less
-comfortable than those which followed the marriage of those German
-souls. With the English convertites the issue was not happy, as the
-story goes. Their broken vows haunted them; their possessions, which
-were not theirs, but the Church’s, lay heavy on their consciences; and
-they died early, leaving descendants with whose history a thread of
-perpetual misfortune was woven. The family history ran in a succession
-of long minorities, the line of inheritance gliding from one branch to
-the other, the direct thread breaking constantly. To die young, and
-leave orphan children behind; or to die younger still, letting the line
-drop and fall back upon cadets of the house, was the usual fate of the
-Austins of Whiteladies--unfortunate people who bore the traces of their
-original sin in their very name.
-
-Miss Susan Austin was, at the moment when this story begins, seated in
-the porch of the manor, on a blazing day of July, when every scrap of
-shade was grateful and pleasant, and when the deep coolness of the
-old-fashioned porch was a kind of paradise. It was a very fine old
-house, half brick, half timber; the eaves of the high gables carved into
-oaken lace-work; the lattice casements shining out of velvet clothing of
-ivy; and the great projecting window of the old hall, stepping out upon
-the velvet lawn, all glass from roof to ground, with only one
-richly-carved strip of panelling to frame it into the peaked roof. The
-door stood wide open, showing a long passage floored with red bricks,
-one wall of which was all casement, the other broken by carved and
-comely oaken doors, three or four centuries old. The porch was a little
-wider than the passage, and had a mullioned window in it, by the side of
-the great front opening, all clustered over with climbing roses. Looking
-out from the red-floored passage, the eye went past Miss Susan in the
-porch, to the sweet, luxuriant greenness of the lime-trees on the
-farther side of the lawn, which ended the prospect. The lawn was velvet
-green; the trees were silken soft, and laden with blossoms; the roses
-fluttered in at the open porch window, and crept about the door. Every
-beam in the long passage, every door, the continuous line of casement,
-the many turns by which this corridor led, meandering, with wealth of
-cool and airy space, toward the house, were all centuries old, bearing
-the stamp of distant generations upon the carved wood and endless
-windings; but without, everything was young and sunny,--grass and
-daisies and lime-blossoms, bees humming, birds twittering, the roses
-waving up and down in the soft wind. I wish the figure of Miss Susan had
-belonged to this part of the landscape; but, alas! historical accuracy
-forbids romancing. She was the virtual mistress of the house, in absence
-of a better; but she was not young, nor had she been so for many a long
-day.
-
-Miss Susan was about sixty, a comely woman of her age, with the fair
-hair and blue eyes of the Austins. Her hair was so light that it did not
-turn gray; and her eyes, though there were wrinkles round them, still
-preserved a certain innocence and candor of aspect which, ill-natured
-people said, had helped Miss Susan to make many a hard bargain, so
-guileless was their aspect. She was dressed in a gray gown of woollen
-stuff (alpaca, I think, for it is best to be particular); her hair was
-still abundant, and she had no cap on it, nor any covering. In her day
-the adoption of a cap had meant the acceptation of old age, and Miss
-Susan had no intention of accepting that necessity a moment before she
-was obliged to do so. The sun, which had begun to turn westward, had
-been blazing into the drawing-room, which looked that way, and Miss
-Susan had been driven out of her own chair and her own corner by it--an
-unwarrantable piece of presumption. She had been obliged to fly before
-it, and she had taken refuge in the porch, which faced to the north, and
-where shelter was to be found. She had her knitting in her hands; but if
-her countenance gave any clue to her mind’s occupation, something more
-important than knitting occupied her thoughts. She sat on the bench
-which stood on the deepest side between the inner and the outer
-entrance, knitting silently, the air breathing soft about her, the roses
-rustling. For a long time she did not once raise her head. The gardener
-was plodding about his work outside, now and then crossing the lawn with
-heavy, leisurely foot, muffled by the velvet of the old immemorial turf.
-Within there would now and then come an indistinct sound of voice or
-movement through the long passage; but nothing was visible, except the
-still gray figure in the shade of the deep porch.
-
-By-and-by, however, this silence was broken. First came a maid, carrying
-a basket, who was young and rosy, and lighted up the old passage with a
-gleam of lightness and youthful color.
-
-“Where are you going, Jane?” said Miss Susan.
-
-“To the almshouse, please,” said Jane, passing out with a curtsey.
-
-After her came another woman, at ten minutes’ interval, older and
-staider, in trim bonnet and shawl, with a large carpet-bag.
-
-“Where are you going, Martha?” said the lady again.
-
-“Please, ma’am, to the almshouse,” said Martha.
-
-Miss Susan shrugged her shoulders slightly, but said no more.
-
-A few minutes of silence passed, and then a heavy foot, slow and solemn,
-which seemed to come in procession from a vast distance, echoing over
-miles of passage, advanced gradually, with a protestation in every
-footfall. It was the butler, Stevens, a portly personage, with a
-countenance somewhat flushed with care and discontent.
-
-“Where are you going, Stevens?” said Miss Susan.
-
-“I’m going where I don’t want to go, mum,” said Stevens, “and where I
-don’t hold with; and if I might make so bold as to say so, where you
-ought to put a stop to, if so be as you don’t want to be ruinated and
-done for--you and Miss Augustine, and all the house.”
-
-“‘Ruinated’ is a capital word,” said Miss Susan, blandly, “very forcible
-and expressive; but, Stevens, I don’t think we’ll come to that yet
-awhile.”
-
-“Going on like this is as good a way as any,” grumbled the man,
-“encouraging an idle set of good-for-nothings to eat up ladies as takes
-that turn. I’ve seen it afore, Miss Austin. You gets imposed upon, right
-hand and left hand; and as for doing good!--No, no, this ain’t the way.”
-
-Stevens, too had a basket to carry, and the afternoon was hot and the
-sun blazing. Between the manor and the almshouses there lay a long
-stretch of hot road, without any shade to speak of. He had reason,
-perhaps, to grumble over his unwilling share in these liberal charities.
-Miss Susan shrugged her shoulders again, this time with a low laugh at
-the butler’s perturbation, and went on with her knitting. In a few
-minutes another step became audible, coming along the passage--a soft
-step with a little hesitation in it--every fifth or sixth footfall
-having a slight pause or shuffle which came in a kind of rhythm. Then a
-tall figure came round the corner, relieved against the old carved
-doorway at the end and the bright redness of the brick floor; a tall,
-very slight woman, peculiarly dressed in a long, limp gown, of still
-lighter gray than the one Miss Susan wore, which hung closely about her,
-with long hanging sleeves hanging half way down the skirt of her dress,
-and something like a large hood depending from her shoulders. As the day
-was so warm, she had not drawn this hood over her head, but wore a light
-black gauze scarf, covering her light hair. She was not much younger
-than her sister, but her hair was still lighter, having some half
-visible mixture of gray, which whitened its tone. Her eyes were blue,
-but pale, with none of the warmth in them of Miss Susan’s. She carried
-her head a little on one side, and, in short, she was like nothing in
-the world so much as a mediæval saint out of a painted window, of the
-period when painted glass was pale in color, and did not blaze in blues
-and rubies. She had a basket too, carried in both her hands, which came
-out of the long falling lines of her sleeves with a curious effect. Miss
-Augustine’s basket, however, was full of flowers--roses, and some long
-white stalks of lilies, not quite over, though it was July, and long
-branches of jasmine covered with white stars.
-
-“So you are going to the almshouses too?” said her sister. “I think we
-shall soon have to go and live there ourselves, as Stevens says, if this
-is how you are going on.”
-
-“Ah, Susan, that would indeed be the right thing to do, if you could
-make up your mind to it,” said her sister, in a low, soft, plaintive
-voice, “and let the Church have her own again. Then perhaps our
-sacrifice, dear, might take away the curse.”
-
-“Fiddlesticks!” said Miss Susan. “I don’t believe in curses. But,
-Austine, my dear, everybody tells me you are doing a great deal too
-much.”
-
-“Can one do too much for God’s poor?”
-
-“If we were sure of that now,” said Miss Susan, shaking her head; “but
-some of them, I am afraid, belong to--the other person. However, I won’t
-have you crossed; but, Austine, you might show a little moderation. You
-have carried off Jane and Martha and Stevens: if any one comes, who is
-to open the door?”
-
-“The doors are all open, and you are here,” said Miss Augustine calmly.
-“You would not have the poor suffer for such a trifle? But I hope you
-will have no visitors to disturb your thoughts. I have been meditating
-much this morning upon that passage, ‘Behold, our days are as a weaver’s
-shuttle.’ Think of it, dear. We have got much, much to do, Susan, to
-make up for the sins of our family.”
-
-“Fiddlesticks,” said Miss Susan again; but she said it half playfully,
-with tones more gentle than her decided expression of face would have
-prophesied. “Go away to your charities,” she added. “If you do harm,
-you do it in a good way, and mean well, poor soul, God knows; so I hope
-no mischief will come of it. But send me Stevens home as soon as may be,
-Austine, for the sake of my possible meditations, if for nothing else;
-for there’s nobody left in the house but old Martin and the boy, and the
-women in the kitchen.”
-
-“What should we want with so many servants?” said Miss Augustine with a
-sigh; and she walked slowly out of the porch, under the rose-wreaths,
-and across the lawn, the sun blazing upon her light dress and turning it
-into white, and beating fiercely on her uncovered head.
-
-“Take a parasol, for heaven’s sake,” said Miss Susan; but the white
-figure glided on, taking no notice. The elder sister paused for a moment
-in her knitting, and looked after the other with that look, half tender,
-half provoked, with which we all contemplate the vagaries of those whom
-we love, but do not sympathize with, and whose pursuits are folly to us.
-Miss Susan possessed what is called “strong sense,” but she was not
-intolerant, as people of strong sense so often are; at least she was not
-intolerant to her sister, who was the creature most unlike her, and whom
-she loved best in the world.
-
-The manor-house did not belong to the Misses Austin, but they had lived
-in it all their lives. Their family history was not a bright one, as I
-have said; and their own immediate portion of the family had not fared
-better than the previous generations. They had one brother who had gone
-into the diplomatic service, and had married abroad and died young,
-before the death of their father, leaving two children, a boy and a
-girl, who had been partially brought up with the aunts. Their mother was
-a Frenchwoman, and had married a second time. The two children, Herbert
-and Reine, had passed half of their time with her, half with their
-father’s sisters; for Miss Susan had been appointed their guardian by
-their father, who had a high opinion of her powers. I do not know that
-this mode of education was very good for the young people; but Herbert
-was one of those gentle boys predestined to a short life, who take
-little harm by spoiling. He was dying now at one-and-twenty, among the
-Swiss hills, whither he had been taken, when the weather grew hot, from
-one of the invalid refuges on the Mediterranean shore. He was perishing
-slowly, and all false hope was over, and everybody knew it--a hard fate
-enough for his family; but there were other things involved which made
-it harder still. The estate of Whiteladies was strictly entailed. Miss
-Susan and Miss Augustine Austin had been well provided for by a rich
-mother, but their French sister-in-law had no money and another family,
-and Reine had no right to the lands, or to anything but a very humble
-portion left to her by her father; and the old ladies had the prospect
-before them of being turned out of the house they loved, the house they
-had been born in, as soon as their nephew’s feeble existence should
-terminate. The supposed heir-at-law was a gentleman in the neighborhood,
-distantly related, and deeply obnoxious to them. I say the supposed
-heir--for there was a break in the Austin pedigree, upon which, at the
-present time, the Misses Austin and all their friends dwelt with
-exceeding insistance. Two or three generations before, the second son of
-the family had quarrelled with his father and disappeared entirely from
-England. If he had any descendants, they, and not Mr. Farrel-Austin,
-were the direct heirs. Miss Susan had sent envoys over all the known
-world seeking for these problematic descendants of her granduncle
-Everard. Another young Austin, of a still more distant stock, called
-Everard too, and holding a place in the succession after Mr.
-Farrel-Austin, had gone to America even, on the track of some vague
-Austins there, who were not the people he sought; and though Miss Susan
-would not give up the pursuit, yet her hopes were getting feeble; and
-there seemed no likely escape from the dire necessity of giving up the
-manor, and the importance (which she did not dislike) of the position it
-gave her as virtual mistress of a historical house, to a man she
-disliked and despised, the moment poor Herbert’s breath should be out of
-his body. Peacefully, therefore, as the scene had looked before the
-interruptions above recorded, Miss Susan was not happy, nor were her
-thoughts of a cheerful character. She loved her nephew, and the
-approaching end to which all his relations had long looked forward hung
-over her like a cloud, with that dull sense of pain, soon to become more
-acute, which impending misfortune, utterly beyond our power to avert, so
-often brings; and mingled with this were the sharper anxieties and
-annoyances of the quest she had undertaken, and its ill success up to
-this moment; and the increasing probability that the man she disliked,
-and no other, must be her successor, her supplanter in her home. Her
-mind was full of such thoughts; but she was a woman used to restrain her
-personal sentiments, and keep them to herself, having been during her
-long life much alone, and without any companion in whom she was
-accustomed to confide. The two sisters had never been separated in their
-lives; but Augustine, not Susan, was the one who disclosed her feelings
-and sought for sympathy. In most relations of life there is one passive
-and one active, one who seeks and one who gives. Miss Augustine was the
-weaker of the two, but in this respect she was the more prominent. She
-was always the first to claim attention, to seek the interest of the
-other; and for years long her elder sister had been glad to give what
-she asked, and to keep silent about her own sentiments, which the other
-might not have entered into. “What was the use?” Miss Susan said to
-herself; and shrugged her shoulders and kept her troubles, which were
-very different from Augustine’s in her own breast.
-
-How pleasant it was out there in the porch! the branches of the
-lime-trees blown about softly by the wind; a daisy here and there
-lifting its roguish saucy head, which somehow had escaped the scythe,
-from the close-mown lawn; the long garlands of roses playing about the
-stone mullions of the window, curling round the carved lintel of the
-door; the cool passage on the other side leading into the house, with
-its red floor and carved doors, and long range of casement. Miss Susan
-scarcely lifted her eyes from her knitting, but every detail of the
-peaceful scene was visible before her. No wonder--she had learned them
-all by heart in the long progress of the years. She knew every twig on
-the limes, every bud on the roses. She sat still, scarcely moving,
-knitting in with her thread many an anxious thought, many a wandering
-fancy, but with a face serene enough, and all about her still. It had
-never been her habit to betray what was in her to an unappreciative
-world.
-
-She brightened up a little, however, and raised her head, when she heard
-the distant sound of a whistle coming far off through the melodious
-Summer air. It caught her attention, and she raised her head for a
-second, and a smile came over her face. “It must be Everard,” she said
-to herself, and listened, and made certain, as the air, a pretty gay
-French air, became more distinct. No one else would whistle that tune.
-It was one of Reine’s French songs--one of those graceful little
-melodies which are so easy to catch and so effective. Miss Susan was
-pleased that he should whistle one of Reine’s tunes. She had her plans
-and theories on this point, as may be hereafter shown; and Everard
-besides was a favorite of her own, independent of Reine. Her countenance
-relaxed, her knitting felt lighter in her hand, as the whistle came
-nearer, and then the sound of a firm, light step. Miss Susan let the
-smile dwell upon her face, not dismissing it, and knitted on, expecting
-calmly till he should make his appearance. He had come to make his
-report to her of another journey, from which he had just returned, in
-search of the lost Austins. It had not been at all to his own interest
-to pursue this search, for, failing Mr. Farrel-Austin, he himself would
-be the heir-at-law; but Everard, as Miss Susan had often said to
-herself, was not the sort of person to think of his own advantage. He
-was, if anything, too easy on that head--too careless of what happened
-to himself individually. He was an orphan with a small income--that
-“just enough” which is so fatal an inheritance for a young
-man--nominally at “the Bar,” actually nowhere in the race of life, but
-very ready to do anything for anybody, and specially for his old
-cousins, who had been good to him in his youth. He had a small house of
-his own on the river not far off, which the foolish young man lived in
-only a few weeks now and then, but which he refused to let, for no
-reason but because it had been his mother’s, and her memory (he thought)
-inhabited the place. Miss Susan was so provoked with this and other
-follies that she could have beaten Everard often, and then hugged him--a
-mingling of feelings not unusual. But as Everard is just about to appear
-in his own person, I need not describe him further. His whistle came
-along, advancing through the air, the pleasantest prelude to his
-appearance. Something gay and free and sweet was in the sound, the
-unconscious self-accompaniment of a light heart. He whistled as he went
-for want of thought--nay, not for want of thought, but because all the
-movements of his young soul were as yet harmonious, lightsome, full of
-hope and sweetness; his gay personality required expression; he was too
-light-hearted, too much at home in the world, and friendly, to come
-silent along the sunshiny way. So, as he could not talk to the trees and
-the air, like a poetical hero in a tragedy, Everard made known his
-good-will to everything, and delicious, passive happiness, by his
-whistle; and he whistled like a lark, clear and sweet; it was one of
-his accomplishments. He whistled Miss Susan’s old airs when she played
-them on her old piano, in charming time and harmony; and he did not save
-his breath for drawing-room performances, but sent before him these
-pleasant intimations of his coming, as far as a mile off. To which Miss
-Susan sat and listened, waiting for his arrival, with a smile on her
-face.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-
-“I have been waiting for you these fifteen minutes,” she said.
-
-“What--you knew I was coming?”
-
-“I heard you, boy. If you choose to whistle ‘_Ce que je desire_’ through
-St. Austin’s parish, you may make up your mind to be recognized. Ah! you
-make me think of my poor children, the one dying, the other nursing
-him--”
-
-“Don’t!” said the young man, holding up his hand, “it is heart-breaking;
-I dare not think of them, for my part. Aunt Susan, the missing Austins
-are not to be found in Cornwall. I went to Bude, as you told me, and
-found a respectable grocer, who came from Berks, to be sure, and knew
-very little about his grandfather, but is not our man. I traced him back
-to Flitton, where he comes from, and found out his pedigree. I have
-broken down entirely. Did you know that the Farrel-Austins were at it
-too?”
-
-“At what?”
-
-“This search after our missing kinsfolk. They have just come back, and
-they look very important; I don’t know if they have found out anything.”
-
-“Then you have been visiting them?” said Miss Susan, bending her head
-over her knitting, with a scarcely audible sigh; it would have been
-inaudible to a stranger, but Everard knew what it meant.
-
-“I called--to ask if they had got back, that was all,” he said, with a
-slight movement of impatience; “and they have come back. They had come
-down the Rhine and by the old Belgian towns, and were full of pictures,
-and cathedrals, and so forth. But I thought I caught a gleam in old
-Farrel’s eye.”
-
-“I wonder--but if he had found them out I don’t think there would be
-much of a gleam in his eye,” said Miss Susan. “Everard, my dear, if we
-have to give up the house to them, what shall I do? and my poor Austine
-will feel it still more.”
-
-“If it has to be done, it must be done, I suppose,” said Everard, with a
-shrug of his shoulders, “but we need not think of it until we are
-obliged; and besides, Aunt Susan, forgive me, if you had to give it up
-to--poor Herbert himself, you would feel it; and if he should get
-better, poor fellow, and live, and marry--”
-
-“Ah, my poor boy,” said Miss Susan, “life and marriage are not for him!”
-She paused a moment and dried her eyes, and gulped down a sob in her
-throat. “But you may be right,” she said in a low tone, “perhaps,
-whoever our successors were, we should feel it--even you, Everard.”
-
-“You should never go out of Whiteladies for me,” said the young man,
-“_that_ you may be sure of; but I shall not have the chance.
-Farrel-Austin, for the sake of spiting the family generally, will make a
-point of outliving us all. There is this good in it, however,” he added,
-with a slight movement of his head, which looked like throwing off a
-disagreeable impression, and a laugh, “if poor Herbert, or I, supposing
-such a thing possible, had taken possession, it might have troubled your
-affection for us, Aunt Susan. Nay, don’t shake your head. In spite of
-yourself it would have affected you. You would have felt it bitter,
-unnatural, that the boys you had brought up and fostered should take
-your house from you. You would have struggled against the feeling, but
-you could not have helped it, I know.”
-
-“Yes; a great deal you know about an old woman’s feelings,” said Miss
-Susan with a smile.
-
-“And as for these unknown people, who never heard of Whiteladies,
-perhaps, and might pull down the old house, or play tricks with it--for
-instance, your grocer at Bude, the best of men, with a charming
-respectable family, a pretty daughter, who is a dress-maker, and a son
-who has charge of the cheese and butter. After all, Aunt Susan, you
-could not in your heart prefer them even to old Farrel-Austin, who is a
-gentleman at least, and knows the value of the old house.”
-
-“I am not so sure of that,” said Miss Susan, though she had shivered at
-the description. “Farrel-Austin is our enemy; he has different ways of
-thinking, different politics, a different side in everything; and
-besides--don’t laugh in your light way, Everard; everybody does not take
-things lightly as you do--there is something between him and us, an old
-grievance that I don’t care to speak of now.”
-
-“So you have told me,” said the young man. “Well, we cannot help it,
-anyhow; if he must succeed, he must succeed, though I wish it was myself
-rather for your sake.”
-
-“Not for your own?” said Miss Susan, with restrained sharpness, looking
-up at him. “The Farrel-Austins are your friends, Everard. Oh, yes, I
-know! nowadays young people do not take up the prejudices of their
-elders. It is better and wiser, perhaps, to judge for yourself, to take
-up no foregone conclusion; but for my part, I am old-fashioned, and full
-of old traditions. I like my friends, somehow, reasonably or
-unreasonably, to be on my side.”
-
-“You have never even told me why it was your side,” said Everard, with
-rising color; “am I to dislike my relations without even knowing why?
-That is surely going too far in partisanship. I am not fond of
-Farrel-Austin himself; but the rest of the family--”
-
-“The--girls; that is what you would say.”
-
-“Well, Aunt Susan! the girls if you please; they are very nice girls.
-Why should I hate them because you hate their father? It is against
-common-sense, not to speak of anything else.”
-
-There was a little pause after this. Miss Susan had been momentarily
-happy in the midst of her cares, when Everard’s whistle coming to her
-over the Summer fields and flowers, had brought to her mind a soft
-thought of her pretty Reine, and of the happiness that might be awaiting
-her after her trial was over. But now, by a quick and sudden revulsion
-this feeling of relief was succeeded by a sudden realization of where
-Reine might be now, and how occupied, such as comes to us all sometimes,
-when we have dear friends in distress--in one poignant flash, with a
-pain which concentrates in itself as much suffering as might make days
-sad. The tears came to her eyes in a gush. She could not have analyzed
-the sensations of disappointment, annoyance, displeasure, which
-conspired to throw back her mind upon the great grief which was in the
-background of her landscape, always ready to recall itself; but the
-reader will understand how it came about. A few big drops of moisture
-fell upon her knitting. “Oh, my poor children!” she said, “how can I
-think of anything else, when at this very moment, perhaps, for all one
-knows--”
-
-I believe Everard felt what was the connecting link of thought, or
-rather feeling, and for the first moment was half angry, feeling himself
-more or less blamed; but he was too gentle a soul not to be overwhelmed
-by the other picture suggested, after the first moment. “Is he so very
-bad, then?” he asked, after an interval, in a low and reverential tone.
-
-“Not worse than he has been for weeks,” said Miss Susan, “but that is as
-bad as possible; and any day--any day may bring--God help us! in this
-lovely weather, Everard, with everything blooming, everything gay--him
-dying, her watching him. Oh! how could I forget them for a moment--how
-could I think of anything else?”
-
-He made no answer at first, then he said faltering, “We can do them no
-good by thinking, and it is too cruel, too terrible. Is she alone?”
-
-“No; God forgive me,” said Miss Susan. “I ought to think of the mother
-who is with her. They say a mother feels most. I don’t know. She has
-other ties and other children, though I have nothing to say against her.
-But Reine has no one.”
-
-Was it a kind of unconscious appeal to his sympathy? Miss Susan felt in
-a moment as if she had compromised the absent girl for whom she herself
-had formed visions with which Reine had nothing to do.
-
-“Not that Reine is worse off than hundreds of others,” she said,
-hastily, “and she will never want friends; but the tie between them is
-very strong. I do wrong to dwell upon it--and to you!”
-
-“Why to me?” said Everard. He had been annoyed to have Reine’s sorrow
-thrust upon his notice, as if he had been neglecting her; but he was
-angry now to be thus thrust away from it, as if he had nothing to do
-with her; the two irritations were antagonistic, yet the same. “You
-don’t like painful subjects,” said Miss Susan, with a consciousness of
-punishing him, and vindictive pleasure, good soul as she was, in his
-punishment. “Let us talk of something else. Austine is at her
-almshouses, as usual, and she has left me with scarcely a servant in the
-house. Should any one call, or should tea be wanted, I don’t know what
-I should do.”
-
-“I don’t suppose I could make the tea,” said Everard. He felt that he
-was punished, and yet he was glad of the change of subject. He was
-light-hearted, and did not know anything personally of suffering, and he
-could not bear to think of grief or misfortune which, as he was fond of
-saying, he could do no good by thinking of. He felt quite sure of
-himself that he would have been able to overcome his repugnance to
-things painful had it been “any good,” but as it was, why make himself
-unhappy? He dismissed the pain as much as he could, as long as he could,
-and felt that he could welcome visitors gladly, even at the risk of
-making the tea, to turn the conversation from the gloomy aspect it had
-taken. The thought of Herbert and Reine seemed to cloud over the
-sunshine, and take the sweetness out of the air. It gave his heart a
-pang as if it had been suddenly compressed; and this pain, this
-darkening of the world, could do them no good. Therefore, though he was
-fond of them both, and would have gone to the end of the world to
-restore health to his sick cousin, or even to do him a temporary
-pleasure, yet, being helpless toward them, he was glad to get the
-thoughts of them out of his mind. It spoilt his comfort, and did them no
-manner of good. Why should he break his own heart by indulging in such
-unprofitable thoughts?
-
-Miss Susan knew Everard well; but though she had herself abruptly
-changed the subject in deference to his wishes, she was vexed with him
-for accepting the change, and felt her heart fill full of bitterness on
-Reine’s account and poor Herbert’s, whom this light-hearted boy
-endeavored to forget. She could not speak to him immediately, her heart
-being sore and angry. He felt this, and had an inkling of the cause, and
-was half compunctious and half disposed to take the offensive, and ask,
-“What have I done?” and defend himself, but could not, being guilty in
-heart. So he stood leaning against the open doorway, with a great
-rosebranch, which had got loose from its fastenings, blowing in his
-face, and giving him a careless prick with its thorns, as the wind blew
-it about. Somehow the long waving bough, with its many roses, which
-struck him lightly, playfully, across the face as he stood there, with
-dainty mirth and mischief, made him think of Reine more than Miss
-Susan’s reminder had done. The prick of the branch woke in his heart
-that same, sudden, vivid, poignant realization of the gay girl in
-contrast with her present circumstances, which just a few minutes before
-had taken Miss Susan, too, by surprise; and thus the two remained,
-together, yet apart, silent, in a half quarrel, but both thinking of the
-same subject, and almost with the same thoughts. Just then the rolling
-of carriage wheels and prance of horses became audible turning the
-corner of the green shady road into which the gate, at this side of the
-town, opened--for the manor-house was not secluded in a park, but opened
-directly from a shady, sylvan road, which had once served as avenue to
-the old priory. The greater part of the trees that formed the avenue had
-perished long ago, but some great stumps and roots, and an interrupted
-line of chance-sown trees, showed where it had been. The two people in
-the porch were roused by this sound, Miss Susan to a troubled
-recollection of her servant-less condition, and Everard to mingled
-annoyance and pleasure as he guessed who the visitors were. He would
-have been thankful to any one who had come in with a new interest to
-relieve him from the gloomy thoughts that had taken possession of him
-against his will, and the new comers, he felt sure, were people whom he
-liked to meet.
-
-“Here is some one coming to call,” cried Miss Susan in dismay, “and
-there is no one to open the door!”
-
-“The door is open, and you can receive them here, or take them in, which
-you please; you don’t require any servant,” said Everard; and then he
-added, in a low tone, “Aunt Susan, it is the Farrel-Austins; I know
-their carriage.”
-
-“Ah!” cried Miss Susan, drawing herself up. She did not say any more to
-him--for was not he a friend and supporter of that objectionable
-family?--but awaited the unwelcome visitors with dignified rigidity.
-Their visits to her were very rare, but she had always made a point of
-enduring and returning these visits with that intense politeness of
-hostility which transcends every other kind of politeness. She would not
-consent to look up, nor to watch the alighting of the brightly-clad
-figures on the other side of the lawn. The old front of the house, the
-old doorway and porch in which Miss Susan sat, was not now the formal
-entrance, and consequently there was no carriage road to it; so that the
-visitors came across the lawn with light Summer dresses and gay
-ribbons, flowery creatures against the background of green. They were
-two handsome girls, prettily dressed and smiling, with their father, a
-dark, insignificant, small man, coming along like a shadow in their
-train.
-
-“Oh, how cool and sweet it is here!” said Kate, the eldest. “We are so
-glad to find you at home, Miss Austin. I think we met your sister about
-an hour ago going through the village. Is it safe for her to walk in the
-sun without her bonnet? I should think she would get a sunstroke on such
-a day.”
-
-“She is the best judge,” said Miss Susan, growing suddenly red; then
-subduing herself as suddenly, “for my part,” she said, “I prefer the
-porch. It is too warm to go out.”
-
-“Oh, we have been so much about; we have been abroad,” said Sophy, the
-youngest. “We think nothing of the heat here. English skies and English
-climate are dreadful after the climate abroad.”
-
-“Ah, are they? I don’t know much of any other,” said Miss Susan. “Good
-morning, Mr. Farrel. May I show you the way to the drawing-room, as I
-happen to be here?”
-
-“Oh, mayn’t we go to the hall, please, instead? We are all so fond of
-the hall,” said Sophy. She was the silly one, the one who said things
-which the others did not like to say. “_Please_ let us go there; isn’t
-this the turn to take? Oh, what a dear old house it is, with such funny
-passages and turnings and windings! If it were ours, I should never sit
-anywhere but in the hall.”
-
-“Sophy!” said the father, in a warning tone.
-
-“Well, papa! I am not saying anything that is wrong. I do love the old
-hall. Some people say it is such a tumble-down, ramshackle old house;
-but that is because they have no taste. If it were mine, I should always
-sit in the hall.”
-
-Miss Susan led the way to it without a word. Many people thought that
-Sophy Farrel-Austin had reason in her madness, and said, with a show of
-silliness, things that were too disagreeable for the others; but that
-was a mere guess on the part of the public. The hall was one of the most
-perfectly preserved rooms of its period. The high, open roof had been
-ceiled, which was almost the only change made since the fifteenth
-century, and that had been done in Queen Anne’s time; and the huge, open
-chimney was partially built up, small sacrifices made to comfort by a
-family too tenacious of their old dwelling-place to do anything to spoil
-it, even at the risk of asthma or rheumatism. To tell the truth,
-however, there was a smaller room, of which the family now made their
-dining-room on ordinary occasions. Miss Susan, scorning to take any
-notice of words which she laid up and pondered privately to increase the
-bitterness of her own private sentiments toward her probable
-supplanters, led the way into this beautiful old hall. It was wainscoted
-with dark panelled wood, which shone and glistened, up to within a few
-feet of the roof, and the interval was filled with a long line of
-casement, throwing down a light which a painter would have loved upon
-the high, dark wall. At the upper end of the room was a deep recess,
-raised a step from the floor, and filled with a great window all the way
-up to the roof. At the lower end the musicians’ gallery of ancient days,
-with carved front and half-effaced coats-of-arms, was still intact. The
-rich old Turkey carpet on the floor, the heavy crimson curtains that
-hung on either side of the recess with its great window, were the most
-modern things in the room; and yet they were older than Miss Susan’s
-recollection could carry. The rest of the furniture dated much further
-back. The fire-place, in which great logs of wood blazed every Winter,
-was filled with branches of flowering shrubs, and the larger
-old-fashioned garden flowers, arranged in some huge blue and white China
-jars, which would have struck any collector with envy. Miss Susan placed
-her young visitors on an old, straight-backed settle, covered with
-stamped leather, which was extremely quaint, and very uncomfortable. She
-took herself one of the heavy-fringed, velvet-covered chairs, and began
-with deadly civility to talk. Everard placed himself against the carved
-mantel-piece and the bank of flowers that filled the chimney. The old
-room was so much the brighter to him for the presence of the girls; he
-did not care much that Sophy was silly. Their pretty faces and bright
-looks attracted the young man; perhaps he was not very wise himself. It
-happens so often enough.
-
-And thus they all sat down and talked--about the beautiful weather,
-about the superiority, even to this beautiful weather, of the weather
-“abroad;” of where they had been and what they had seen; of Mrs.
-Farrel-Austin’s health, who was something of an invalid, and rarely came
-out; and other similar matters, such as are generally discussed in
-morning calls. Everard helped Miss Susan greatly to keep the
-conversation up, and carry off the visit with the ease and lightness
-that were desirable, but yet I am not sure that she was grateful to him.
-All through her mind, while she smiled and talked, there kept rising a
-perpetual contrast. Why were these two so bright and well, while the two
-children of the old house were in such sad estate?--while they chattered
-and laughed what might be happening elsewhere? and Everard, who had been
-like a brother to Herbert and Reine, laughed too, and chattered, and
-made himself pleasant to these two girls, and never thought--never
-thought! This was the sombre under-current which went through Miss
-Susan’s mind while she entertained her callers, not without sundry
-subdued passages of arms. But Miss Susan’s heart beat high, in spite of
-herself, when Mr. Farrel-Austin lingered behind his daughters, bidding
-Everard see them to the carriage.
-
-“Cousin Susan, I should like a word with you,” he said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-
-The girls went out into the old corridor, leaving the great carved door
-of the dining-hall open behind them. The flutter of their pretty dresses
-filled the picturesque passage with animation, and the sound of their
-receding voices kept up this sentiment of life and movement even after
-they had disappeared. Their father looked after them well pleased, with
-that complacence on his countenance, and pleasant sense of personal
-well-being which is so natural, but so cruel and oppressive to people
-less well off. Miss Susan, for her part, felt it an absolute insult. It
-seemed to her that he had come expressly to flaunt before her his own
-happiness and the health and good looks of his children. She turned her
-back to the great window, that she might not see them going across the
-lawn, with Everard in close attendance upon them. A sense of desertion,
-by him, by happiness, by all that is bright and pleasant in the world,
-came into her heart, and made her defiant. When such a feeling as this
-gets into the soul, all softness, all indulgence to others, all
-favorable construction of other people’s words or ways departs. They
-seemed to her to have come to glory over her and over Herbert dying, and
-Reine mourning, and the failure of the old line. What was grief and
-misery to her was triumph to them. It was natural perhaps, but very
-bitter; curses even, if she had not been too good a woman to let them
-come to utterance, were in poor Miss Susan’s heart. If he had said
-anything to her about his girls, as she expected, if he had talked of
-them at all, I think the flood must have found vent somehow; but
-fortunately he did not do this. He waited till they were out of the
-house, and then rose and closed the door, and reseated himself facing
-her, with something more serious in his face.
-
-“Excuse me for waiting till they had gone,” he said. “I don’t want the
-girls to be mixed up in any family troubles; though, indeed, there is no
-trouble involved in what I have to tell you--or, at least, so I hope.”
-
-The girls were crossing the lawn as he spoke, laughing and talking,
-saying something about the better training of the roses, and how the
-place might be improved. Miss Susan caught some words of this with ears
-quickened by her excited feelings. She drew her chair further from the
-window, and turned her back to it more determinedly than ever. Everard,
-too! he had gone over to the prosperous side.
-
-“My dear cousin,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, “I wish you would not treat me
-like an enemy. Whenever there is anything I can do for you, I am always
-glad to do it. I heard that you were making inquiries after our
-great-uncle Everard and his descendants, if he left any.”
-
-“You could not miss hearing it. I made no secret of it,” said Miss
-Susan. “We have put advertisements in the newspapers, and done
-everything we possibly could to call everybody’s attention.”
-
-“Yes; I know, I know; but you never consulted me. You never said,
-‘Cousin, it is for the advantage of all of us to find these people.’”
-
-“I do not think it is for your advantage,” said Miss Susan, looking
-quickly at him.
-
-“You will see, however, that it is, when you know what I have to tell
-you,” he said, rubbing his hands. “I suppose I may take it for granted
-that you did not mean it for my advantage. Cousin Susan, I have found
-the people you have been looking for in vain.”
-
-The news gave her a shock, and so did his triumphant expression; but she
-put force upon herself. “I am glad to hear it,” she said. “Such a search
-as mine is never in vain. When you have advantages to offer, you seldom
-fail to find the people who have a right to those advantages. I am glad
-you have been successful.”
-
-“And I am happy to hear you say so,” said the other. “In short, we are
-in a state of agreement and concord for once in our lives, which is
-delightful. I hope you will not be disappointed, however, with the
-result. I found them in Bruges, in a humble position enough. Indeed, it
-was the name of Austin over a shop door which attracted my notice
-first.”
-
-He spoke leisurely, and regarded her with a smile which almost drove her
-furious, especially as, by every possible argument, she was bound to
-restrain her feelings. She was strong enough, however, to do this, and
-present a perfectly calm front to her adversary.
-
-“You found the name--over a shop door?”
-
-“Yes, a drapery shop; and inside there was an old man with the Austin
-nose as clear as I ever saw it. It belongs, you know, more distinctly to
-the elder branch than to any other portion of the family.”
-
-“The original stock is naturally stronger,” said Miss Susan. “When you
-get down to collaterals, the family type dies out. Your family, for
-instance, all resemble your mother, who was a Miss Robinson, I think I
-have heard?”
-
-This thrust gave her a little consolation in her pain, and it disturbed
-her antagonist in his triumph. She had, as it were, drawn the first
-blood.
-
-“Yes, yes; you are quite right,” he said; “of a very good family in
-Essex. Robinsons of Swillwell--well-known people.”
-
-“In the city,” said Miss Susan, “so I have always heard; and an
-excellent thing, too. Blood may not always make its way, but money does;
-and to have an alderman for your grandfather is a great deal more
-comfortable than to have a crusader. But about our cousin at Bruges,”
-she added, recovering her temper. How pleasant to every well-regulated
-mind is the consciousness of having administered a good, honest,
-knock-down blow!
-
-Mr. Farrel-Austin glanced at her out of the light gray eyes, which were
-indisputable Robinsons’, and as remote in color as possible from the
-deep blue orbs, clear as a Winter sky, which were one of the great
-points of the Austins; but he dared not take any further notice. It was
-his turn now to restrain himself.
-
-“About our cousin in Bruges,” he repeated with an effort. “He turns out
-to be an old man, and not so happy in his family as might be wished. His
-only son was dying--”
-
-“For God’s sake!” said Miss Susan, moved beyond her power of control,
-and indeed ceasing to control herself with this good reason for giving
-way--“have you no heart that you can say such words with a smile on
-your face? You that have children yourself, whom God may smite as well
-as another’s! How dare you? how dare you? for your own sake!”
-
-“I don’t know that I am saying anything unbecoming,” said Mr. Farrel. “I
-did not mean it. No one can be more grateful for the blessings of
-Providence than I am. I thank Heaven that all my children are well; but
-that does not hinder the poor man at Bruges from losing his. Pray let me
-continue: his wife and he are old people, and his only son, as I say,
-was dying or dead--dead by this time, certainly, according to what they
-said of his condition.”
-
-Miss Susan clasped her hands tightly together. It seemed to her that he
-enjoyed the poignant pang his words gave her--“dead by this time,
-certainly!” Might that be said of the other who was dearer to her? Two
-dying, that this man might get the inheritance! Two lives extinguished,
-that Farrel-Austin and his girls might have this honor and glory! He had
-no boys, however. His glory could be but short-lived. There was a kind
-of fierce satisfaction in that thought.
-
-“I had a long conversation with the old man; indeed, we stayed in Bruges
-for some days on purpose. I saw all his papers, and there can be no
-doubt he is the grandson of our great-uncle Everard. I explained the
-whole matter to him, of course, and brought your advertisements under
-his notice, and explained your motives.”
-
-“What are my motives?--according to your explanation.”
-
-“Well, my dear cousin--not exactly love and charity to me, are they? I
-explained the position fully to him.”
-
-“Then there is no such thing as justice or right in the world, I
-suppose,” she cried indignantly, “but everything hinges on love to you,
-or the reverse. You know what reason I have to love you--well do you
-know it, and lose no opportunity to keep it before me; but if my boy
-himself--my dying boy, God help me!--had been in your place,
-Farrel-Austin, should I have let him take possession of what was not his
-by right? You judge men, and women too, by yourself. Let that pass, so
-far as you are concerned. You have no other ground, I suppose, to form a
-judgment on; but you have no right to poison the minds of others.
-Nothing will make me submit to that.”
-
-“Well, well,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, shrugging his shoulders with
-contemptuous calm, “you can set yourself right when you please with the
-Bruges shopkeeper. I will give you his address. But in the meantime you
-may as well hear what his decision is. At his age he does not care to
-change his country and his position, and come to England in order to
-become the master of a tumble-down old house. He prefers his shop, and
-the place he has lived in all his life. And the short and the long of it
-is, that he has transferred his rights to me, and resigned all claim
-upon the property. I agreed to it,” he added, raising his head, “to save
-trouble, more than for any other reason. He is an old man, nearly
-seventy; his son dead or dying, as I said. So far as I am concerned, it
-could only have been a few years’ delay at the most.”
-
-Miss Susan sat bolt upright in her chair, gazing at him with eyes full
-of amazement--so much astonished that she scarcely comprehended what he
-said. It was evidently a relief to the other to have made his
-announcement. He breathed more freely after he had got it all out. He
-rose from his chair and went to the window, and nodded to his girls
-across the lawn. “They are impatient, I see, and I must be going,” he
-went on. Then looking at Miss Susan for the first time, he added, in a
-tone that had a sound of mockery in it, “You seem surprised.”
-
-“Surprised!” She had been leaning toward the chair from which he had
-arisen without realizing that he had left it in her great consternation.
-Now she turned quickly to him. “Surprised! I am a great deal more than
-surprised.”
-
-He laughed; he had the upper hand at last. “Why more?” he said lightly.
-“I think the man was a very reasonable old man, and saw what his best
-policy was.”
-
-“And you--accepted his sacrifice?” said Miss Susan, amazement taking
-from her all power of expression;--“you permitted him to give up his
-birthright? you--took advantage of his ignorance?”
-
-“My dear cousin, you are rude,” he said, laughing; “without intending
-it, I am sure. So well-bred a woman could never make such imputations
-willingly. Took advantage! I hope I did not do that. But I certainly
-recommended the arrangement to him, as the most reasonable thing he
-could do. Think! At his age, he could come here only to die; and with no
-son to succeed him, of course I should have stepped in immediately. Few
-men like to die among strangers. I was willing, of course, to make him a
-recompense for the convenience--for it was no more than a convenience,
-make the most you can of it--of succeeding at once.”
-
-Miss Susan looked at him speechless with pain and passion. I do not know
-what she did not feel disposed to say. For a moment her blue eyes shot
-forth fire, her lips quivered from the flux of too many words which
-flooded upon her. She began even, faltering, stammering--then came to a
-stop in the mere physical inability to arrange her words, to say all she
-wanted, to launch her thunderbolt at his head with the precision she
-wished. At last she came to a dead stop, looking at him only, incapable
-of speech; and with that pause came reflection. No; she would say
-nothing; she would not commit herself; she would think first, and
-perhaps do, instead of saying. She gave a gasp of self-restraint.
-
-“The young ladies seem impatient for you,” she said. “Don’t let me
-detain you. I don’t know that I have anything to say on the subject of
-your news, which is surprising, to be sure, and takes away my breath.”
-
-“Yes, I thought you would be surprised,” he said, and shook hands with
-her. Miss Susan’s fingers tingled--how she would have liked, in an
-outburst of impatience which I fear was very undignified, to apply them
-to his ear, rather than to suffer his hand to touch hers in hypocritical
-amity! He was a little disappointed, however, to have had so little
-response to his communication. Her silence baffled him. He had expected
-her to commit herself, to storm, perhaps; to dash herself in fury
-against this skilful obstacle which he had placed in her way. He did not
-expect her to have so much command of herself; and, in consequence, he
-went away with a secret uneasiness, feeling less successful and less
-confident in what he had done, and asking himself, Could he have made
-some mistake after all--could she know something that made his
-enterprise unavailing? He was more than usually silent on the drive
-home, making no answer to the comments of his girls, or to their talk
-about what they would do when they got possession of the manor.
-
-“I hope the furniture goes with the house,” said Kate. “Papa, you must
-do all you can to secure those old chairs, and especially the settee
-with the stamped leather, which is charming, and would fetch its weight
-in gold in Wardour street.”
-
-“And, papa, those big blue and white jars,” said Sophy, “real old
-Nankin, I am sure. They must have quantities of things hidden away in
-those old cupboards. It shall be as good as a museum when we get
-possession of the house!”
-
-“You had better get possession of the house before you make any plans
-about it,” said her father. “I never like making too sure.”
-
-“Why, papa, what has come over you?” cried the eldest. “You were the
-first to say what you would do, when we started. Miss Susan has been
-throwing some spell over you.”
-
-“If it is her spell, it will not be hard to break it,” said Sophy; and
-thus they glided along, between the green abundant hedges, breathing the
-honey breath of the limes, but not quite so happy and triumphant as when
-they came. As for the girls, they had heard no details of the bargain
-their father had made, and gave no great importance to it; for they knew
-he was the next heir, and that the manor-house would soon cease to be
-poor Herbert’s, with whom they had played as children, but whom, they
-said constantly, they scarcely knew. They did not understand what cloud
-had come over their father. “Miss Susan is an old witch,” they said,
-“and she has put him under some spell.”
-
-Meanwhile Miss Susan sat half-stupefied where he had left her, in a
-draught, which was a thing she took precautions against on ordinary
-occasions--the great window open behind her, the door open in front of
-her, and the current blowing about even the sedate and heavy folds of
-the great crimson curtains, and waking, though she did not feel it, the
-demon Neuralgia to twist her nerves, and set her frame on an edge. She
-did not seem able to move or even think, so great was the amazement in
-her mind. Could he be right--could he have found the Austin she had
-sought for over all the world; and was it possible that the unrighteous
-bargain he had told her of had really been completed? Unrighteous! for
-was it not cheating her in the way she felt the most, deceiving her in
-her expectations? An actual misfortune could scarcely have given Miss
-Susan so great a shock. She sat quite motionless, her very thoughts
-arrested in their course, not knowing what to think, what to do--how to
-take this curious new event. Must she accept it as a thing beyond her
-power of altering, or ought she to ignore it as something incredible,
-impossible? One thing or other she must decide upon at once; but in the
-meantime, so great was the effect this intimation had upon her mind, she
-felt herself past all power of thinking. Everard coming back found her
-still seated there in the draught in the old hall. He shut the door
-softly behind him and went in, looking at her with questioning eyes. But
-she did not notice his look; she was too much and too deeply occupied in
-her own mind. Besides, his friendship with her visitors made Everard a
-kind of suspected person, not to be fully trusted. Miss Susan was too
-deeply absorbed to think this, but she felt it. He sat down opposite,
-where Mr. Farrel-Austin had been sitting, and looked at her; but this
-mute questioning produced no response.
-
-“What has old Farrel been saying to you, Aunt Susan?” he asked at last.
-
-“Why do you call him old Farrel, Everard? he is not nearly so old as I
-am,” said Miss Susan with a sigh, waking up from her thoughts. “Growing
-old has its advantages, no doubt, when one can realize the idea of
-getting rid of all one’s worries, and having the jangled bells put in
-tune again; but otherwise--to think of others who will set everything
-wrong coming after us, who have tried hard to keep them right! Perhaps,
-when it comes to the very end, one does not mind; I hope so; I feel sore
-now to think that this man should be younger than I am, and likely to
-live ever so much longer, and enjoy my father’s house.”
-
-Everard sat still, saying nothing. He was unprepared for this sort of
-reply. He was slightly shocked too, as young people so often are, by the
-expression of any sentiments, except the orthodox ones, on the subject
-of dying. It seemed to him, at twenty-five, that to Miss Susan at sixty,
-it must be a matter of comparatively little consequence how much longer
-she lived. He would have felt the sentiments of the _Nunc Dimittis_ to
-be much more appropriate and correct in the circumstances; he could not
-understand the peculiar mortification of having less time to live than
-Farrel-Austin. He looked grave with the fine disapproval and lofty
-superiority of youth. But he was a very gentle-souled and tender-hearted
-young man, and he did not like to express the disapproval that was in
-his face.
-
-“We had better not talk of them,” said Miss Susan, after a pause; “we
-don’t agree about them, and it is not likely we should; and I don’t
-want to quarrel with you, Everard, on their account. Farrel thinks he is
-quite sure of the estate now. He has found out some one whom he calls
-our missing cousin, and has got him to give up in his own favor.”
-
-“Got him to give up in his own favor!” repeated Everard amazed. “Why,
-this is wonderful news. Who is it, and where is he, and how has it come
-about? You take away one’s breath.”
-
-“I cannot go into the story,” said Miss Susan. “Ask himself. I am sick
-of the subject. He thinks he has settled it, and that it is all right;
-and waits for nothing but my poor boy’s end to take possession. They had
-not even the grace to ask for him!” she cried, rising hastily. “Don’t
-ask me anything about it; it is more than I can bear.”
-
-“But, Aunt Susan--”
-
-“I tell you we shall quarrel, Everard, if we talk more on this subject,”
-she cried. “You are their friend, and I am their--no; it is they who are
-my enemies,” she added, stopping herself. “I don’t dictate to you how
-you are to feel, or what friends you are to make. I have no right; but I
-have a right to talk of what I please, and to be silent when I please. I
-shall say no more about it. As for you,” she said, after another pause,
-with a forced smile, “the young ladies will consult with you what
-changes they are to make in the house. I heard them commenting on the
-roses, and how everything could be improved. You will be of the greatest
-use to them in their new arrangements, when all obstacles are removed.”
-
-“I don’t think it is kind to speak to me so,” said Everard, in his
-surprise. “It is not generous, Aunt Susan. It is like kicking a fellow
-when he is down; for you know I can’t defend myself.”
-
-“Yes, I suppose it is unjust,” said Miss Susan, drying her eyes, which
-were full of hot tears, with no gratefulness of relief in them. “The
-worst of this world is that one is driven to be unjust, and can’t help
-it, even to those one loves.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-
-Everard Austin remained at Whiteladies for the rest of the afternoon--he
-was like one of the children of the house. The old servants took him
-aside and asked him to mention things to Miss Susan with which they did
-not like to worry her in her trouble, though indeed most of these
-delicacies were very much after date, and concerned matters on which
-Miss Susan had already been sufficiently worried. The gardener came and
-told him of trees that wanted cutting, and the bailiff on the farm
-consulted him about the laborers for the approaching harvest. “Miss
-Susan don’t like tramps, and I don’t want to go against her, just when
-things is at its worst. I shouldn’t wonder, sir,” said the man, looking
-curiously in Everard’s face, “if things was in other hands this time
-next year?” Everard answered him with something of the bitterness which
-he himself had condemned so much a little while before. That
-Farrel-Austin should succeed was natural; but thus to look forward to
-the changing of masters gave him, too, a pang. He went indoors somewhat
-disturbed, and fell into the hands of Martha and Jane fresh from the
-almshouse. Martha, who was Miss Susan’s maid and half-housekeeper, had
-taken charge of him often enough in his boyish days, and called him
-Master Everard still, so that she was entitled to speak; while the
-younger maid looked on, and concurred--“It will break _my_ lady’s
-heart,” said Martha, “leaving this old house; not but what we might be a
-deal more comfortable in a nice handy place, in good repair like yours
-is, Master Everard; where the floors is straight and the roofs likewise,
-and you don’t catch a rheumatism round every corner; but _my_ lady ain’t
-of my way of thinking. I tell her as it would have been just as bad if
-Mr. Herbert had got well, poor dear young gentleman, and got married;
-but she won’t listen to me. Miss Augustine, she don’t take on about the
-house; but she’s got plenty to bother her, poor soul; and the way she do
-carry on about them almshouses! It’s like born natural, that’s what it
-is, and nothing else. Oh me! I know as I didn’t ought to say it; but
-what can you do, I ask you, Master Everard, when you have got the like
-of that under your very nose? She’ll soon have nothing but paupers in
-the parish if she has her way.”
-
-“She’s very feeling-hearted,” said Jane, who stood behind her elder
-companion and put in a word now and then over Martha’s shoulder. She had
-been enjoying the delights of patronage, the happiness of recommending
-her friends in the village to Miss Augustine’s consideration; and this
-was too pleasant a privilege to be consistent with criticism. The
-profusion of her mistress’s alms made Jane feel herself to be
-“feeling-hearted” too.
-
-“And great thanks she gets for it all,” said Martha. “They call her the
-crazy one down in the village. Miss Susan, she’s the hard one; and Miss
-Augustine’s the crazy one. That’s gratitude! trailing about in her gray
-gown for all the world like a Papist nun. But, poor soul, I didn’t ought
-to grudge her gray, Master Everard. We’ll soon be black and black enough
-in our mourning, from all that I hear.”
-
-Again Everard was conscious of a shiver. He made a hasty answer and
-withdrew from the women who had come up to him in one of the airy
-corridors upstairs, half glass, like the passages below, and full of
-corners. Everard was on his way from a pilgrimage to the room, in which,
-when Herbert and he were children, they had been allowed to accumulate
-their playthings and possessions. It had a bit of corridor, like a
-glazed gallery, leading to it--and a door opened from it to the
-musicians’ gallery of the hall. The impulse which led him to this place
-was not like his usual care to avoid unpleasant sensations, for the very
-sight of the long bare room, with its windows half choked with ivy, the
-traces of old delights on the walls--bows hung on one side, whips on the
-other--a heap of cricket-bats and pads in a corner; and old books,
-pictures, and rubbish heaped upon the old creaky piano on which Reine
-used to play to them, had gone to his heart. How often the old walls had
-rung with their voices, the old floor creaked under them! He had given
-one look into the haunted solitude, and then had fled, feeling himself
-unable to bear it. “As if I could do them any good thinking!” Everard
-had said to himself, with a rush of tears to his eyes--and it was in the
-gallery leading to this room--the west gallery as everybody called
-it--that the women stopped him. The rooms at Whiteladies had almost
-every one a gallery, or an ante-room, or a little separate staircase to
-itself. The dinner-bell pealed out as he emerged from thence and hurried
-to the room which had been always called his, to prepare for dinner. How
-full of memories the old place was! The dinner-bell was very solemn,
-like the bell of a cathedral, and had never been known to be silent,
-except when the family were absent, for more years than any one could
-reckon. How well he recollected the stir it made among them all as
-children, and how they would steal into the musicians’ gallery and watch
-in the centre of the great room below, in the speck of light which shone
-amid its dimness, the two ladies sitting at table, like people in a book
-or in a dream, the servants moving softly about, and no one aware of the
-unseen spectators, till the irrepressible whispering and rustling of the
-children betrayed them! how sometimes they were sent away ignominiously,
-and sometimes Aunt Susan, in a cheery mood, would throw up oranges to
-them, which Reine, with her tiny hands, could never catch! How she used
-to cry when the oranges fell round her and were snapped up by the
-boys--not for the fruit, for Reine never had anything without sharing it
-or giving it away, but for the failure which made them laugh at her!
-Everard laughed unawares as the scene came up before him, and then felt
-that sudden compression, constriction of his heart--_serrement du
-cœur_, which forces out the bitterest tears. And then he hurried down
-to dinner and took his seat with the ladies, in the cool of the Summer
-evening, in the same historical spot, having now become one of them, and
-no longer a spectator. But he looked up at the gallery with a wistful
-sense of the little scuffle that used to be there, the scrambling of
-small feet, and whispering of voices. In Summer, when coolness was an
-advantage, the ladies still dined in the great hall.
-
-“Austine, you have not seen Everard since he returned from America,”
-said Miss Susan. “How strong and well he looks!”--here she gave a sigh;
-not that she grudged Everard his good looks, but the very words brought
-the other before her, at thought of whom every other young man’s
-strength and health seemed cruel.
-
-“He has escaped the fate of the family,” said Miss Augustine. “All I can
-pray for, Everard, is that you may never be the Austin of Whiteladies.
-No wealth can make up for that.”
-
-“Hush, hush!” said Miss Susan with a smile, “these are your fancies. We
-are not much worse off than many other families who have no such curse
-as you think of, my dear? Are all the old women comfortable--and
-grumbling? What were you about to-day?”
-
-“I met them in chapel,” said the younger sister, “and talked to them. I
-told them, as I always do, what need we have of their prayers; and that
-they should maintain a Christian life. Ah, Susan, you smile; and
-Everard, because he is young and foolish, would laugh if he could; but
-when you think that this is all I can do, or any one can do, to make up
-for the sins of the past, to avert the doom of the family--”
-
-“If we have anything to make up more than others, I think we should do
-it ourselves,” said Miss Susan. “But never mind, dear, if it pleases
-you. You are spoiling the people; but there are not many villages
-spoiled with kindness. I comfort myself with that.”
-
-“It is not to please myself that I toil night and day, that I rise up
-early and lie down late,” said Miss Augustine, with a faint gleam of
-indignation in her eyes. Then she looked at Everard and sighed. She did
-not want to brag of her mortifications. In the curious balance-sheet
-which she kept with heaven, poor soul, so many prayers and vigils and
-charities, against so many sinful failings in duty, she was aware that
-anything like a boast on her part diminished the value of the
-compensation she was rendering. Her unexpressed rule was that the, so to
-speak, commercial worth of a good deed disappeared, when advantage was
-taken of it for this world; she wanted to keep it at its full value for
-the next, and therefore she stopped short and said no more. “Some of
-them put us to shame,” she said; “they lead such holy lives. Old Mary
-Matthews spends nearly her whole time in chapel. She only lives for God
-and us. To hear her speak would reward you for many sacrifices,
-Susan--if you ever make any. She gives up all--her time, her comfort,
-her whole thoughts--for us.”
-
-“Why for us?” said Everard. “Do you keep people on purpose to pray for
-the family, Aunt Augustine? I beg your pardon, but it sounded something
-like it. You can’t mean it, of course?”
-
-“Why should not I mean it? We do not pray so much as we ought for
-ourselves,” said Miss Augustine; “and if I can persuade holy persons to
-pray for us continually--”
-
-“At so much a week, a cottage, and coals and candles,” said Miss Susan.
-“Augustine, my dear, you shall have your way as long as I can get it for
-you. I am glad the old souls are comfortable; and if they are good, so
-much the better; and I am glad you like it, my dear; but whatever you
-think, you should not talk in this way. Eh, Stevens, what do you say?”
-
-“If I might make so bold, ma’am,” said the butler, “not to go against
-Miss Augustine; but that hold Missis Matthews, mum, she’s a hold--”
-
-“Silence, sir!” said Miss Susan promptly, “I don’t want to hear any
-gossip; my sister knows best. Tell Everard about your schools, my dear;
-the parish must be the better with the schools. Whatever the immediate
-motive is, so long as the thing is good,” said this casuist, “and
-whatever the occasional result may be, so long as the meaning is
-charitable--There, there, Everard, I won’t have her crossed.”
-
-This was said hastily in an undertone to Everard, who was shaking his
-head, with a suppressed laugh on his face.
-
-“I am not objecting to anything that is done, but to your reasoning,
-which is defective,” he said.
-
-“Oh, my reasoning! is that all? I don’t stand upon my reasoning,” said
-Miss Susan. And then there was a pause in the conversation, for Miss
-Susan’s mind was perturbed, and she talked but in fits and starts,
-having sudden intervals of silence, from which she would as suddenly
-emerge into animated discussion, then be still again all in a moment.
-Miss Augustine, in her long limp gray dress, with pale hands coming out
-of the wide hanging sleeves, talked only on one subject, and did not eat
-at all, so that her company was not very cheerful. And Everard could not
-but glance up now and then to the gallery, which lay in deep shade, and
-feel as if he were in a dream, seated down below in the light. How
-vividly the childish past had come upon him; and how much more cheerful
-it had been in those old days, when the three atoms in the dusty corner
-of the gallery looked down with laughing eyes upon the solemn people at
-table, and whispered and rustled in their restlessness till they were
-found out!
-
-At last--and this was something so wonderful that even the servants who
-waited at table were appalled--Miss Augustine recommenced the
-conversation. “You have had some one here to-day,” she said.
-“Farrel-Austin--I met him.”
-
-“Yes!” said Miss Susan, breathless and alarmed.
-
-“It seemed to me that the shadow had fallen upon them already. He is
-gray and changed. I have not seen him for a long time; his wife is ill,
-and his children are delicate.”
-
-“Nonsense, Austine, the girls are as strong and well as a couple of
-young hoydens need be.” Miss Susan spoke almost sharply, and in a
-half-frightened tone.
-
-“You think so, Susan; for my part I saw the shadow plainly. It is that
-their time is drawing near to inherit. Perhaps as they are girls,
-nothing will happen to them; nothing ever happened to us; that is to
-say, they will not marry probably; they will be as we have been. I wish
-to know them, Susan. Probably one of them would take up my work, and
-endeavor to keep further trouble from the house.”
-
-“Farrel’s daughter? you are very good, Austine, very good; you put me to
-shame,” said Miss Susan, bending her head.
-
-“Yes; why not Farrel’s daughter? She is a woman like the rest of us and
-an Austin, like the rest of us. I wish the property could pass to women,
-then there might be an end of it once for all.”
-
-“In that case it would go to Reine, and there would not in the least be
-the end of it; quite the reverse.”
-
-“I could persuade Reine,” said Miss Augustine. “Ah, yes; I could
-persuade _her_. She knows my life. She knows about the family, how we
-have all suffered. Reine would be led by me; she would give it up, as I
-should have done had I the power. But men will not do such a thing. I am
-not blaming them, I am saying what is the fact. Reine would have given
-it up.”
-
-“You speak like a visionary,” said Miss Susan sighing. “Yes, I daresay
-Reine would be capable of a piece of folly, or you, or even myself. We
-do things that seem right to us at the moment without taking other
-things into consideration, when we are quite free to do what we like.
-But don’t you see, my dear, a man with an entailed estate is not free?
-His son or his heir must come after him, as his father went before him;
-he is only a kind of a tenant. Farrel, since you have spoken of
-Farrel--I would not have begun it--dare not alienate property from
-Everard; and Everard, when it comes to him, must keep it for his son, if
-he ever has one.”
-
-“The thing would be,” said Miss Augustine, “to make up your mind never
-to have one, Everard.” She looked at him calmly and gravely, crossing
-her hands within her long sleeves.
-
-“But, my dear Aunt Augustine,” said Everard, laughing, “what good would
-that do me? I should have to hand it on to the next in the entail all
-the same. I could not do away with the estate without the consent of my
-heir at least.”
-
-“Then I will tell you what to do,” said Miss Augustine. “Marry; it is
-different from what I said just now, but it has the same meaning. Marry
-at once; and when you have a boy let him be sent to me. I will train
-him, I will show him his duty; and then with his consent, which he will
-be sure to give when he grows up, you can break the entail and restore
-Whiteladies to its right owner. Do this, my dear boy, it is quite
-simple; and so at last I shall have the satisfaction of feeling that the
-curse will be ended one day. Yes; the thing to be done is this.”
-
-Miss Susan had exclaimed in various tones of impatience. She had laughed
-reluctantly when Everard laughed; but what her sister said was more
-serious to her than it was to the young man. “Do you mean to live
-forever,” she said at last, “that you calculate so calmly on bringing up
-Everard’s son?”
-
-“I am fifty-five,” said Miss Augustine, “and Everard might have a son in
-a year. Probably I shall live to seventy-five, at least,--most of the
-women of our family do. He would then be twenty, approaching his
-majority. There is nothing extravagant in it; and on the whole, it seems
-to me the most hopeful thing to do. You must marry, Everard, without
-delay; and if you want money I will help you. I will do anything for an
-object so near my heart.”
-
-“You had better settle whom I am to marry, Aunt Augustine.”
-
-Everard’s laughter made the old walls gay. He entered into the joke
-without any _arrière pensée_; the suggestion amused him beyond measure;
-all the more that it was made with so much gravity and solemnity. Miss
-Susan had laughed too; but now she became slightly alarmed, and watched
-her sister with troubled eyes.
-
-“Whom you are to marry? That wants consideration,” said Miss Augustine.
-“The sacrifice would be more complete and satisfying if two branches of
-the family concurred in making it. The proper person for you to marry
-in the circumstances would be either--”
-
-“Austine!”
-
-“Yes! I am giving the subject my best attention. You cannot understand,
-no one can understand, how all-important it is to me. Everard, either
-one of Farrel’s girls, to whom I bear no malice, or perhaps Reine.”
-
-“Austine, you are out of your senses on this point,” said Miss Susan,
-almost springing from her seat, and disturbing suddenly the calm of the
-talk. “Come, come, we must retire; we have dined. Everard, if you choose
-to sit a little, Stevens is giving you some very good claret. It was my
-father’s; I can answer for it, much better than I can answer for my own,
-for I am no judge. You will find us in the west room when you are ready,
-or in the garden. It is almost too sweet to be indoors to-night.”
-
-She drew her sister’s arm within hers and led her away, with peremptory
-authority which permitted no argument, and to which Augustine
-instinctively yielded; and Everard remained alone, his cheek tingling,
-his heart beating. It had all been pure amusement up to this point; but
-even his sense of the ludicrous could not carry him further. He might
-have known, he said to himself, that this was what she must say. He
-blushed, and felt it ungenerous in himself to have allowed her to go so
-far, to propose these names to him. He seemed to be making the girls
-endure a humiliation against his will, and without their knowledge. What
-had they done that he should permit any one even to suggest that he
-could choose among them? This was the more elevated side of his
-feelings; but there was another side, I am obliged to allow, a
-fluttered, flattered consciousness that the suggestion might be true;
-that he might have it in his power, like a sultan, to choose among them,
-and throw his princely handkerchief at the one he preferred. A mixture,
-therefore, of some curious sense of elation and suppressed pleasure,
-mingled with the more generous feeling within him, quenching at once the
-ridicule of Miss Augustine’s proposal, and the sense of wrong done to
-those three girls. Yes, no doubt it is a man’s privilege to choose; he,
-and not the woman, has it in his power to weigh the qualities of one and
-another, and to decide which would be most fit for the glorious position
-of his wife. They could not choose him, but he could choose one of them,
-and on his choice probably their future fate would depend. It was
-impossible not to feel a little pleasant flutter of consciousness. He
-was not vain, but he felt the sweetness of the superiority involved, the
-greatness of the position.
-
-When the ladies were gone Everard laughed, all alone by himself, he
-could not help it; and the echoes took up the laughter, and rang into
-that special corner of the gallery which he knew so well, centring
-there. Why there, of all places in the world? Was it some ghost of
-little Reine in her childhood that laughed? Reine in her childhood had
-been the one who exercised choice. It was she who might have thrown the
-handkerchief, not Everard. And then a hush came over him, and a
-compunction, as he thought where Reine was at this moment, and how she
-might be occupied. Bending over her brother’s death-bed, hearing his
-last words, her heart contracted with the bitter pang of parting, while
-her old playfellow laughed, and wondered whether he should choose her
-out of the three to share his grandeur. Everard grew quite silent all at
-once, and poured himself out a glass of the old claret in deep
-humiliation and stillness, feeling ashamed of himself. He held the wine
-up to the light with the solemnest countenance, trying to take himself
-in, and persuade himself that he had no lighter thoughts in his mind,
-and then having swallowed it with equal solemnity, he got up and
-strolled out into the garden. He had so grave a face when Miss Susan met
-him, that she thought for the first moment that some letter had come
-and that all was over, and gasped and called to him, what was it? what
-was it? “Nothing!” said Everard more solemnly than ever. He was
-impervious to any attempt at laughter for the rest of the evening,
-ashamed of himself and his light thoughts, in sudden contrast with the
-thoughts that must be occupying his cousins, his old playmates. And yet,
-as he went home in the moonlight, the shock of that contrast lessened,
-and his young lightness of mind began to reassert itself. Before he got
-out of hearing of the manor he began to whistle again unawares; but this
-time it was not one of Reine’s songs. It was a light opera air which, no
-doubt, one of the other girls had taught him, or so, at least, Miss
-Susan thought.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-
-In all relationships, as I have already said--and it is not an original
-saying--there is one who is active and one who is passive,--“_L’unqui
-baise et l’autre qui tend la joue_,” as the French say, with their
-wonderful half-pathetic, half-cynic wisdom. Between the two sisters of
-Whiteladies it was Augustine who gave the cheek and Susan the kiss, it
-was Augustine who claimed and Susan who offered sympathy; it was
-Augustine’s affairs, such as they were, which were discussed. The
-younger sister had only her own fancies and imaginations, her charities,
-and the fantastic compensations which she thought she was making for the
-evil deeds of her family, to discuss and enlarge upon; whereas the elder
-had her mind full of those mundane matters from which our cares
-spring--the management of material interests--the conflict which is
-always more or less involved in the government of other souls. She
-managed her nephew’s estate in trust for him till he came of age,--if he
-should live to come of age, poor boy; she managed her own money and her
-sister’s, which was not inconsiderable; and the house and the servants,
-and in some degree the parish, of which Miss Susan was the virtual
-Squire. But of all this weight of affairs it did not occur to her to
-throw any upon Augustine. Augustine had always been spared from her
-youth up--spared all annoyance, all trouble, everybody uniting to shield
-her. She had been “delicate” in her childhood, and she had sustained a
-“disappointment” in youth--which means in grosser words that she had
-been jilted, openly and disgracefully, by Farrel-Austin, her cousin,
-which was the ground of Susan Austin’s enmity to him. I doubt much
-whether Augustine herself, whose blood was always tepid and her head
-involved in dreams, felt this half so much as her family felt it for
-her--her sister especially, to whom she had been a pet and a plaything
-all her life, and who had that half-adoring admiration for her which an
-elder sister is sometimes seen to entertain for a younger one whom she
-believes to be gifted with that beauty which she knows has not fallen to
-her share. Susan felt the blow with an acute sense of shame and wounded
-pride, which Augustine herself was entirely incapable of--and from that
-moment forward had constituted herself, not only the protector of her
-sister’s weakness, but the representative of something better which had
-failed her, of that admiration and chivalrous service which a beautiful
-woman is supposed to receive from the world.
-
-It may seem a strange thing to many to call the devotion of one woman to
-another chivalrous. Yet Susan’s devotion to her sister merited the
-title. She vowed to herself that, so far as she could prevent it, her
-sister should never feel the failure of those attentions which her lover
-ought to have given her--that she should never know what it was to fall
-into that neglect which is often the portion of middle-aged women--that
-she should be petted and cared for, as if she were still the favorite
-child or the adored wife which she had been or might have been. In doing
-this Susan not only testified the depth of her love for Augustine, and
-indignant compassion for her wrongs, but also a woman’s high ideal of
-how an ideal woman should be treated in this world. Augustine was
-neither a beautiful woman nor an ideal one, though her sister thought
-so, and Susan had been checked many a time in her idolatry by her idol’s
-total want of comprehension of it; but she had never given up her plan
-for consoling the sufferer. She had admired Augustine as well as loved
-her; she had always found what she did excellent; she had made
-Augustine’s plans important by believing in them, and her opinions
-weighty, even while, within herself, she saw the plans to be
-impracticable and the opinions futile. The elder sister would pause in
-the midst of a hundred real and pressing occupations, a hundred weighty
-cares, to condole with, or to assist, or support, the younger, pulling
-her through some parish imbroglio, some almshouse squabble, as if these
-trifling annoyances had been affairs of state. But of the serious
-matters which occupied her own mind, she said nothing to Augustine,
-knowing that she would find no comprehension, and willing to avoid the
-certainty that her sister would take no interest in her proceedings.
-Indeed, it was quite possible that Augustine might have gone further
-than mere failure of sympathy; Susan knew very well that she would be
-disapproved of, perhaps censured, for being engrossed by the affairs of
-this world. The village people, and everybody on the estate, were, I
-think, of the same opinion. They thought Miss Susan “the hard
-one”--doing her ineffable injustice, one of those unconsidered wrongs
-that cut into the heart. At first, I suppose, this had not been the
-state of affairs--between the sisters, at least; but it would be
-difficult to tell how many disappointments the strong and hard Susan had
-gone through before she made up her mind never to ask for the sympathy
-which never came her way. This was her best philosophy, and saved her
-much mortification; but it cost her many trials before she could make up
-her mind to it, and had not its origin in philosophy at all, but in much
-wounding and lacerating of a generous and sensitive heart.
-
-Therefore she did not breathe a word to her sister about the present
-annoyance and anxiety in her mind. When it was their hour to go
-upstairs--and everything was done like clock-work at Whiteladies--she
-went with Augustine to her room, as she always did, and heard over again
-for the third or fourth time the complaint of the rudeness of the
-butler, Stevens, who did not countenance Augustine’s “ways.”
-
-“Indeed, he is a very honest fellow,” said Miss Susan, thinking bitterly
-of Farrel-Austin and of the last successful stroke he had made.
-
-“He is a savage, he is a barbarian--he cannot be a Christian,” Miss
-Augustine had replied.
-
-“Yes, yes, my dear; we must take care not to judge other people. I will
-scold him well, and he will never venture to say anything disagreeable
-to you again.”
-
-“You think I am speaking for myself,” said Augustine. “No, what I feel
-is, how out of place such a man is in a household like ours. You are
-deceived about him now, and think his honesty, as you call it, covers
-all his faults. But, Susan, listen to me. Without the Christian life,
-what is honesty? Do you think _it_ would bear the strain if
-temptation--to any great crime, for instance--”
-
-“My dear, you are speaking nonsense,” said Miss Susan.
-
-“That is what I am afraid of,” said her sister solemnly. “A man like
-this ought not to be in a house like ours; for you are a Christian,
-Susan.”
-
-“I hope so at least,” said the other with a momentary laugh.
-
-“But why should you laugh? Oh, Susan! think how you throw back my
-work--even, you hinder my atonement. Is not this how all the family have
-been--treating everything lightly--our family sin and doom, like the
-rest? and you, who ought to know better, who ought to strengthen my
-hands! perhaps, who knows, if you could but have given your mind to it,
-we two together might have averted the doom!”
-
-Augustine sat down in a large hard wooden chair which she used by way of
-mortification, and covered her face with her hands. Susan, who was
-standing by holding her candle, looked at her strangely with a half
-smile, and a curious acute sense of the contrast between them. She stood
-silent for a moment, perhaps with a passing wonder which of the two it
-was who had done the most for the old house; but if she entertained this
-thought, it was but for the moment. She laid her hand upon her sister’s
-shoulder.
-
-“My dear Austine,” she said, “I am Martha and you are Mary. So long as
-Martha did not find fault with her sister, our good Lord made no
-objection to her housewifely ways. So, if I am earthly while you are
-heavenly, you must put up with me, dear; for, after all, there are a
-great many earthly things to be looked after. And as for Stevens, I
-shall scold him well,” she added with sudden energy, with a little
-outburst of natural indignation at the cause (though innocent) of this
-slight ruffling of the domestic calm.
-
-The thoughts in her mind were of a curious and mixed description as she
-went along the corridor after Augustine had melted, and bestowed, with a
-certain lofty and melancholy regret, for her sister’s imperfections, her
-good-night kiss. Miss Susan’s room was on the other side of the house,
-over the drawing-room. To reach it she had to go along the corridor,
-which skirted the staircase with its dark oaken balustrades, and thence
-into another casemented passage, which led by three or four oaken steps
-to the ante-room in which her maid slept, and from which her own room
-opened. One of her windows looked out upon the north side, the same
-aspect as the dining-hall, and was, indeed, the large casement which
-occupied one of the richly-carved gables on that side of the house. The
-other looked out upon the west side, over the garden, and facing the
-sunset. It was a large panelled room, with few curtains, for Miss Susan
-loved air. A shaded night-lamp burned faintly upon a set of carved oaken
-drawers at the north end, and the moonlight slanting through the western
-window threw two lights, broken by the black bar of the casement, on the
-broad oak boards--for only the centre of the room was carpeted. Martha
-came in with her mistress, somewhat sleepy, and slightly injured in her
-feelings, for what with Everard’s visits and other agitations of the
-day, Miss Susan was half an hour late. It is not to be supposed that
-she, who could not confide in her sister, would confide in Martha; but
-yet Martha knew, by various indications, what Augustine would never have
-discovered, that Miss Susan had “something on her mind.” Perhaps it was
-because she did not talk as much as usual, and listened to Martha’s own
-remarks with the indifference of abstractedness; perhaps because of the
-little tap of her foot on the floor, and sound of her voice as she asked
-her faithful attendant if she had done yet, while Martha, aggrieved but
-conscientious, fumbled with the doors of the wardrobe, in which she had
-just hung up her mistress’s gown; perhaps it was the tired way in which
-Miss Susan leaned back in her easy chair, and the half sigh which
-breathed into her good-night. But from all these signs together Martha
-knew, what nothing could have taught Augustine. But what could the maid
-do to show sympathy? At first, I am sorry to say, she did not feel much,
-but was rather glad that the mistress, who had kept her half an hour
-longer than usual out of bed, should herself have some part of the
-penalty to pay; but compunctions grew upon Martha before she left the
-room, and I think that her lingering, which annoyed Miss Susan, was
-partly meant to show that she felt for her mistress. If so, it met the
-usual recompense of unappreciated kindness, and at last earned a
-peremptory dismissal for the lingerer. When Miss Susan was alone, she
-raised herself a little from her chair and screwed up the flame of the
-small silver lamp on her little table, and put the double eyeglass which
-she used, being slightly short-sighted, on her nose. She was going to
-think; and she had an idea, not uncommon to short-sighted people, that
-to see distinctly helped her faculties in everything.
-
-She felt instinctively for her eyeglass when any noise woke her in the
-middle of the night; she could hear better as well as think better with
-that aid. The two white streaks of moonlight, with the broad bar of
-shadow between, and all the markings of the diamond panes, indicated on
-the gray oaken board and fringe of Turkey carpet, moved slowly along the
-floor, coming further into the room as the moon moved westward to its
-setting. In the distant corner the night-light burned dim but steady.
-Miss Susan sat by the side of her bed, which was hung at the head with
-blue-gray curtains of beautiful old damask. On her little table was a
-Bible and Prayer Book, a long-stalked glass with a rose in it, another
-book less sacred, which she had been reading in the morning, her
-handkerchief, her eau-de-cologne, her large old watch in an old stand,
-and those other trifles which every lady’s-maid who respects herself
-keeps ready and in order by her mistress’s bedside. Martha, too sleepy
-to be long about her own preparations, was in bed and asleep almost as
-soon as Miss Susan put on her glasses. All was perfectly still, the
-world out-of-doors held under the spell of the moonlight, the world
-inside rapt in sleep and rest. Miss Susan wrapped her dressing-gown
-about her, and sat up in her chair to think. It was a very cosey, very
-comfortable chair, not hard and angular like Austine’s, and everything
-in the room was pleasant and soft, not ascetical and self-denying. Susan
-Austin was not young, but she had kept something of that curious
-freshness of soul which some unmarried women carry down to old age. She
-was not aware in her innermost heart that she was old. In everything
-external she owned her years fully, and felt them; but in her heart she,
-who had never passed out of the first stage of life, retained so many of
-its early illusions as to confuse herself and bewilder her
-consciousness. When she sat like this thinking by herself, with nothing
-to remind her of the actual aspect of circumstances, she never could be
-quite sure whether she was young or old. There was always a momentary
-glimmer and doubtfulness about her before she settled down to the
-consideration of her problem, whatever it was--as to which problem it
-was, those which had come before her in her youth, which she had
-settled, or left to float in abeyance for the settling of
-circumstances--or the actual and practical matter-of-fact of to-day. For
-a moment she caught her own mind lingering upon that old story between
-Augustine and their cousin Farrel, as if it were one of the phases of
-that which demanded her attention; and then she roused herself sharply
-to her immediate difficulty, and to consider what she was to do.
-
-It is forlorn in such an emergency to be compelled to deliberate alone,
-without any sharer of one’s anxieties or confidante of one’s thoughts.
-But Miss Susan was used to this, and was willing to recognize the
-advantage it gave her in the way of independence and prompt conclusion.
-She was free from the temptation of talking too much, of attacking her
-opponents with those winged words which live often after the feeling
-that dictated them has passed. She could not be drawn into any
-self-committal, for nobody thought or cared what was in her mind.
-Perhaps, however, it is more easy to exercise that casuistry which
-self-interest produces even in the most candid mind, when it is not
-necessary to put one’s thoughts into words. I cannot tell on what ground
-it was that this amiable, and, on the whole, good woman concluded her
-opposition to Farrel-Austin, and his undoubted right of inheritance, to
-be righteous, and even holy. She resisted his claim--because it was
-absolutely intolerable to her to think of giving up her home to him,
-because she hated and despised him--motives very comprehensible, but not
-especially generous, or elevated in the abstract. She felt, however, and
-believed--when she sat down in her chair and put on her glasses to
-reflect how she could baffle and overthrow him--that it was something
-for the good of the family and the world that she was planning, not
-anything selfish for her own benefit. If Augustine in one room planned
-alms and charities for the expiation of the guilt of the family, which
-had made itself rich by church lands, with the deepest sense that her
-undertaking was of the most pious character--Susan in another, set
-herself to ponder how to retain possession of these lands, with a
-corresponding sense that her undertaking, her determination, were, if
-not absolutely pious, at least of a noble and elevated character. She
-did not say to herself that she was intent upon resisting the enemy by
-every means in her power. She said to herself that she was determined to
-have justice, and to resist to the last the doing of wrong, and the
-victory of the unworthy. This was her way of putting it to herself--and
-herself did not contradict her, as perhaps another listener might have
-done. A certain enthusiasm even grew in her as she pondered. She felt no
-doubt whatever that Farrel-Austin had gained his point by false
-representations, and had played upon the ignorance of the unknown
-Austin who had transferred his rights to him, as he said. And how could
-she tell if this was the true heir? Even documents were not to be
-trusted to in such a case, nor the sharpest of lawyers--and old Mr.
-Lincoln, the family solicitor, was anything but sharp. Besides, if this
-man in Bruges were the right man, he had probably no idea of what he was
-relinquishing. How could a Flemish tradesman know what were the beauties
-and attractions of “a place” in the home counties, amid all the wealth
-and fulness of English lands, and with all the historical associations
-of Whiteladies? He could not possibly know, or he would not give them
-up. And if he had a wife, she could not know, or she would never permit
-such a sacrifice.
-
-Miss Susan sat and thought till the moonlight disappeared from the
-window, and the Summer night felt the momentary chill which precedes
-dawn. She thought of it till her heart burned. No, she could not submit
-to this. In her own person she must ascertain if the story was true, and
-if the strangers really knew what they were doing. It took some time to
-move her to this resolution; but at last it took possession of her. To
-go and undo what Farrel-Austin had done, to wake in the mind of the
-heir, if this was the heir, that desire to possess which is dominant in
-most minds, and ever ready to answer to any appeal; she rose almost with
-a spring of youthful animation from her seat when her thoughts settled
-upon this conclusion. She put out her lamp and went to the window, where
-a faint blueness was growing--that dim beginning of illumination which
-is not night but day, and which a very early bird in the green covert
-underneath was beginning to greet with the first faint twitter of
-returning existence. Miss Susan felt herself inspired; it was not to
-defeat Farrel-Austin, but to prevent wrong, to do justice, a noble
-impulse which fires the heart and lights the eye.
-
-Thus she made up her mind to an undertaking which afterward had more
-effect upon her personal fate than anything else that had happened in
-her long life. She did it, not only intending no evil, but with a sense
-of what she believed to be generous feeling expanding her soul. Her own
-personal motives were so thrust out of sight that she herself did not
-perceive them--and indeed, had it been suggested to her that she had
-personal motives, she would have denied it strenuously. What interest
-could she have in substituting one heir for another? But yet Miss
-Susan’s blue eyes shot forth a gleam which was not heavenly as she lay
-down and tried to sleep. She could not sleep, her mind being excited and
-full of a thousand thoughts--the last distinct sensation in it before
-the uneasy doze which came over her senses in the morning being a thrill
-of pleasure that Farrel-Austin might yet be foiled. But what of that?
-Was it not her business to protect the old stock of the family, and keep
-the line of succession intact? The more she thought of it, the more did
-this appear a sacred duty, worthy of any labor and any sacrifice.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-
-The breakfast-table was spread in the smaller dining-room, a room
-furnished with quaint old furniture like the hall, which looked out upon
-nothing but the grass and trees of the garden, bounded by an old mossy
-wall, as old as the house. The windows were all open, the last ray of
-the morning sun slanting off the shining panes, the scent of the flowers
-coming in, and all the morning freshness. Miss Susan came downstairs
-full of unusual energy, notwithstanding her sleepless night. She had
-decided upon something to do, which is always satisfactory to an active
-mind; and though she was beyond the age at which people generally plan
-long journeys with pleasure, the prick of something new inspired her and
-made a stir in her veins. “People live more when they stir about,” she
-said to herself, when, with a little wonder and partial amusement at
-herself, she became conscious of this sensation, and took her seat at
-the breakfast-table with a sense of stimulated energy which was very
-pleasant.
-
-Miss Augustine came in after her sister, with her hands folded in her
-long sleeves, looking more than ever like a saint out of a painted
-window. She crossed herself as she sat down. Her blue eyes seemed veiled
-so far as external life went. She was the ideal nun of romance and
-poetry, not the ruddy-faced, active personage who is generally to be
-found under that guise in actual life. This was one of her
-fast-days--and indeed most days were fast-days with her. She was her own
-rule, which is always a harsher kind of restraint than any rule adapted
-to common use. Her breakfast consisted of a cup of milk and a small cake
-of bread. She gave her sister an abstracted kiss, but took no notice of
-her lively looks. When she withdrew her hands from her sleeves a roll of
-paper became visible in one of them, which she slowly opened out.
-
-“These are the plans for the chantry, finished at last,” she said.
-“Everything is ready now. You must take them to the vicar, I suppose,
-Susan. I cannot argue with a worldly-minded man. I will go to the
-almshouses while you are talking to him, and pray.”
-
-“The vicar has no power in the matter,” said Miss Susan. “So long as we
-are the lay rectors we can build as we please; at the chancel end at
-least.”
-
-Augustine put up her thin hands, just appearing out of the wide sleeves,
-to her ears. “Susan, Susan! do not use those words, which have all our
-guilt in them! Lay rectors! Lay robbers! Oh! will you ever learn that
-this thought is the misery of my life?”
-
-“My dear, we must be reasonable,” said Miss Susan. “If you like to throw
-away--no, I mean to employ your money in building a chantry, I don’t
-object; but we have our rights.”
-
-“Our rights are nothing but wrongs,” said the other, shaking her head,
-“unless my poor work may be accepted as an expiation. Ours is not the
-guilt, and therefore, being innocent, we may make the amends.”
-
-“I wonder where you got your doctrines from?” said Miss Susan. “They are
-not Popish either, so far as I can make out; and in some things,
-Austine, you are not even High Church.”
-
-Augustine made no reply. Her attention had failed. She held the drawings
-before her, which at last, after many difficulties, she had managed to
-bring into existence--on paper at least. I do not think she had very
-clear notions in point of doctrine. She had taken up with a visionary
-mediævalism which she did not very well understand, and which she
-combined unawares with many of the ordinary principles of a moderate
-English Church-woman. She liked to cross herself, without meaning very
-much by it, and the idea of an Austin Chantry, where service should be
-said every day, “to the intention of” the Austin family, had been for
-years her cherished fancy, though she would have been shocked had any
-advanced Ritualists or others suggested to her that what she meant was a
-daily mass for the dead. She did not mean this at all, nor did she know
-very clearly what she meant, except to build a chantry, in which daily
-service should be maintained forever, always with a reference to the
-Austins, and making some sort of expiation, she could not have told
-what, for the fundamentals in the family. Perhaps it was merely
-inability of reasoning, or perhaps a disinclination to entangle herself
-in doctrine at all, that made her prefer to remain in this vagueness and
-confusion. She knew very well what she wanted to do, but not exactly
-why.
-
-While her sister looked at her drawings Miss Susan thought it a good
-moment to reveal her own plans, with, I suppose, that yearning for some
-sort of sympathy which survives even in the minds of those who have had
-full experience of the difficulty or even impossibility of obtaining it.
-She knew Augustine would not, probably could not, enter into her
-thoughts, and I am not sure that she desired it--but yet she longed to
-awaken some little interest.
-
-“I am thinking,” she said, “of going away--for a few days.”
-
-Augustine took no notice. She examined first the front elevation, then
-the interior of the chantry. “They say it is against the law,” she
-remarked after awhile, “to have a second altar; but every old chantry
-has it, and without an altar the service would be imperfect. Remember
-this Susan; for the vicar, they tell me, will object.”
-
-“You don’t hear what I say, then? I am thinking of--leaving home.”
-
-“Yes, I heard--so long as you settle this for me before you go, that it
-may be begun at once. Think, Susan! it is the work of my life.”
-
-“I will see to it,” said Miss Susan with a sigh. “You shall not be
-crossed, dear, if I can manage it. But you don’t ask where I am going or
-why I am going.”
-
-“No,” said Augustine calmly; “it is no doubt about business, and
-business has no share in my thoughts.”
-
-“If it had not a share in my thoughts things would go badly with us,”
-said Miss Susan, coloring with momentary impatience and self-assertion.
-Then she fell back into her former tone. “I am going abroad, Austine;
-does not that rouse you? I have not been abroad since we were quite
-young, how many years ago?--when we went to Italy with my father--when
-we were all happy together. Ah me! what a difference! Austine, you
-recollect that?”
-
-“Happy, were we?” said Augustine looking up, with a faint tinge of
-color on her paleness; “no, I was never happy till I saw once for all
-how wicked we were, how we deserved our troubles, and how something
-might be done to make up for them. I have never really cared for
-anything else.”
-
-This she said with a slight raising of her head and an air of reality
-which seldom appeared in her visionary face. It was true, though it was
-so strange. Miss Susan was a much more reasonable, much more weighty
-personage, but she perceived this change with a little suspicion, and
-did not understand the fanciful, foolish sister whom she had loved and
-petted all her life.
-
-“My dear, we had no troubles then,” she said, with a wondering look.
-
-“Always, always,” said Augustine, “and I never knew the reason, till I
-found it out.” Then this gleam of something more than intelligence faded
-all at once from her face. “I hope you will settle everything before you
-go,” she said, almost querulously; “to be put off now and have to wait
-would surely break my heart.”
-
-“I’ll do it, I’ll do it, Austine. I am going--on family business.”
-
-“If you see poor Herbert,” said Augustine, calmly, “tell him we pray for
-him in the almshouses night and day. That may do him good. If I had got
-my work done sooner he might have lived. Indeed, the devil sometimes
-tempts me to think it is hard that just when my chantry is beginning and
-continual prayer going on Herbert should die. It seems to take away the
-meaning! But what am I, one poor creature, to make up, against so many
-that have done wrong?”
-
-“I am not going to Herbert, I am going to Flanders--to Bruges,” said
-Miss Susan, carried away by a sense of the importance of her mission,
-and always awaiting, as her right, some spark of curiosity, at least.
-
-Augustine returned to her drawings; the waning light died out of her
-face; she became again the conventional visionary, the recluse of
-romance, abstracted and indifferent. “The vicar is always against me,”
-she said; “you must talk to him, Susan. He wants the Browns to come into
-the vacant cottage. He says they have been honest and all that; but they
-are not praying people. I cannot take them in; it is praying people I
-want.”
-
-“In short, you want something for your money,” said her sister; “a
-percentage, such as it is. You are more a woman of business, my dear,
-than you think.”
-
-Augustine looked at her, vaguely, startled. “I try to do for the best,”
-she said. “I do not understand why people should always wish to thwart
-me; what I want is their good.”
-
-“They like their own way better than their good, or rather than what you
-think is for their good,” said Miss Susan. “We all like our own way.”
-
-“Not me, not me!” said the other, with a sigh; and she rose and crossed
-herself once more. “Will you come to prayers at the almshouse, Susan?
-The bell will ring presently, and it would do you good.”
-
-“My dear, I have no time,” said the elder sister, “I have a hundred
-things to do.”
-
-Augustine turned away with a soft shake of the head. She folded her arms
-into her sleeves, and glided away like a ghost. Presently her sister saw
-her crossing the lawn, her gray hood thrown lightly over her head, her
-long robes falling in straight, soft lines, her slim figure moving along
-noiselessly. Miss Susan was the practical member of the family, and but
-for her probably the Austins of Whiteladies would have died out ere now,
-by sheer carelessness of their substance, and indifference to what was
-going on around them; but as she watched her sister crossing the lawn, a
-sense of inferiority crossed her mind. She felt herself worldly, a
-pitiful creature of the earth, and wished she was as good as Augustine.
-“But the house, and the farm, and the world must be kept going,” she
-said, by way of relieving herself, with a mingling of humor and
-compunction. It was not much her small affairs could do to make or mar
-the going on of the world, but yet in small ways and great the world has
-to be kept going. She went off at once to the bailiff, who was waiting
-for her, feeling a pleasure in proving to herself that she was busy and
-had no time, which is perhaps a more usual process of thought with the
-Marthas of this world than the other plan of finding fault with the
-Marys, for in their hearts most women have a feeling that the prayer is
-the best.
-
-The intimation of Miss Susan’s intended absence excited the rest of the
-household much more than it had excited her sister. “Wherever are you
-going to, miss?” said cook, who was as old as her mistress, and had
-never changed her style of addressing her since the days when she was
-young Miss Susan and played at house-keeping.
-
-“I am going abroad,” she answered, with a little innocent pride; for to
-people who live all their lives at home there is a certain grandeur in
-going abroad. “You will take great care of my sister, and see that she
-does not fast too much.”
-
-It was a patriarchal household, with such a tinge of familiarity in its
-dealings with its mistress, as--with servants who have passed their
-lives in a house--it is seldom possible, even if desirable, to avoid.
-Stevens the butler stopped open-mouthed, with a towel in his hand, to
-listen, and Martha approached from the other end of the kitchen, where
-she had been busy tying up and labelling cook’s newly-made preserves.
-
-“Going abroad!” they all echoed in different keys.
-
-“I expect you all to be doubly careful and attentive,” said Miss Susan,
-“though indeed I am not going very far, and probably won’t be more than
-a few days gone. But in the meantime Miss Augustine will require your
-utmost care. Stevens, I am very much displeased with the way you took it
-upon you to speak at dinner yesterday. It annoyed my sister extremely,
-and you had no right to use so much freedom. Never let it happen again.”
-
-Stevens was taken entirely by surprise, and stood gazing at her with the
-bewildered air of a man who, seeking innocent amusement in the hearing
-of news, is suddenly transfixed by an unexpected thunderbolt. “Me, mum!”
-said Stevens bewildered, “I--I don’t know what you’re talking about.” It
-was an unfair advantage to take.
-
-“Precisely, you,” said Miss Susan; “what have you to do with the people
-at the almshouses? Nobody expects you to be answerable for what they do
-or don’t do. Never let me hear anything of the kind again.”
-
-“Oh,” said Stevens, with a snort of suppressed offence, “it’s them! Miss
-Austin, I can’t promise at no price! if I hears that old ’ag a praised
-up to the skies--”
-
-“You will simply hold your tongue,” said Miss Susan peremptorily. “What
-is it to you? My sister knows her own people best.”
-
-Upon this the two women in attendance shook their heads, and Stevens,
-encouraged by this tacit support, took courage.
-
-“She don’t, mum, she don’t,” he said; “if you heard the things they’ll
-say behind her back! It makes me sick, it does, being a faithful
-servant. If I don’t dare to speak up, who can? She’s imposed upon to
-that degree, and made game of as your blood would run cold to see it;
-and if I ain’t to say a word when I haves a chance, who can? The women
-sees it even--and it’s nat’ral as I should see further than the women.”
-
-“Then you’ll please set the women a good example by holding your
-tongue,” said Miss Susan. “Once for all, recollect, all of you, Miss
-Augustine shall never be crossed while I am mistress of the house. When
-it goes into other hands you can do as you please.”
-
-“Oh, laws!” said the cook, “when it comes to that, mum, none of us has
-nothing to do here.”
-
-“That is as you please, and as Mr.--as the heir pleases,” Miss Susan
-said, making a pause before the last words. Her cheek colored, her blue
-eyes grew warm with the new life and energy in her. She went out of the
-kitchen with a certain swell of anticipated triumph in her whole person.
-Mr. Farrel-Austin should soon discover that he was not to have
-everything his own way. Probably she would find he had deceived the old
-man at Bruges, that these poor people knew nothing about the true value
-of what they were relinquishing. Curiously enough, it never occurred to
-her, to lessen her exhilaration, that to leave the house of her fathers
-to an old linen-draper from the Low-Countries would be little more
-agreeable than to leave it to Farrel-Austin--nay, even as Everard had
-suggested to her, that Farrel-Austin, as being an English gentleman, was
-much more likely to do honor to the old house than a foreigner of
-inferior position, and ideas altogether different from her own. She
-thought nothing of this; she ignored herself, indeed, in the matter,
-which was a thing she was pleased to think of afterward, and which gave
-her a little consolation--that is, she thought of herself only through
-Farrel-Austin, as the person most interested in, and most likely to be
-gratified by, his downfall.
-
-As the day wore on and the sun got round and blazed on the south front
-of the house, she withdrew to the porch, as on the former day, and sat
-there enjoying the coolness, the movement of the leaves, the soft,
-almost imperceptible breeze. She was more light-hearted than on the
-previous day when poor Herbert was in her mind, and when nothing but the
-success of her adversary seemed possible. Now it seemed to her that a
-new leaf was turned, a new chapter commenced.
-
-Thus the day went on. In the afternoon she had one visitor, and only
-one, the vicar, Mr. Gerard, who came by the north gate, as her visitors
-yesterday had done, and crossed the lawn to the porch with much less
-satisfaction of mind than Miss Susan had to see him coming.
-
-“Of course you know what has brought me,” he said at once, seating
-himself in a garden-chair which had been standing outside on the lawn,
-and which he brought in after his first greeting. “This chantry of your
-sister’s is a thing I don’t understand, and I don’t know how I can
-consent to it. It is alien to all the customs of the time. It is a thing
-that ought to have been built three hundred years ago, if at all. It
-will be a bit of bran new Gothic, a thing I detest; and in short I don’t
-understand it, nor what possible meaning a chantry can have in these
-days.”
-
-“Neither do I,” said Miss Susan smiling, “not the least in the world.”
-
-“If it is meant for masses for the dead,” said Mr. Gerard--“some people
-I know have gone as far as that--but I could not consent to it, Miss
-Austin. It should have been built three hundred years ago, if at all.”
-
-“Augustine could not have built it three hundred years ago,” said Miss
-Susan, “for the best of reasons. My own opinion is, between ourselves,
-that had she been born three hundred years ago she would have been a
-happier woman; but neither she nor I can change that.”
-
-“That is not the question,” said the vicar. He was a man with a fine
-faculty for being annoyed. There was a longitudinal line in his forehead
-between his eyes, which was continually moving, marking the passing
-irritations which went and came, and his voice had a querulous tone. He
-was in the way of thinking that everything that happened out of the
-natural course was done to annoy him specially, and he felt it a
-personal grievance that the Austin chantry had not been built in the
-sixteenth century. “There might have been some sense in it then,” he
-added, “and though art was low about that time, still it would have got
-toned down, and been probably an ornament to the church; but a white,
-staring, new thing with spick and span pinnacles! I do not see how I can
-consent.”
-
-“At all events,” said Miss Susan, showing the faintest edge of claw
-under the velvet of her touch, “no one can blame you at least, which I
-think is always a consolation. I have just been going over the accounts
-for the restoration of the chancel, and I think you may congratulate
-yourself that you have not got to pay them. Austine would kill me if she
-heard me, but that is one good of a lay rector. I hope you won’t oppose
-her, seriously, Mr. Gerard. It is not masses for the dead she is
-thinking of. You know her crotchets. My sister has a very fine mind when
-she is roused to exert it,” Miss Susan said with a little dignity, “but
-it is nonsense to deny that she has crotchets, and I hope you are too
-wise and kind to oppose her. The endowment will be good, and the chantry
-pretty. Why, it is by Sir Gilbert Scott.”
-
-“No, no, not Sir Gilbert himself; at least, I fear not,” said Mr.
-Gerard, melting.
-
-“One of his favorite pupils, and he has looked at it and approved. We
-shall have people coming to see it from all parts of the country; and it
-is Augustine’s favorite crotchet. I am sure, Mr. Gerard, you will not
-seriously oppose.”
-
-Thus it was that the vicar was taken over. He reflected afterward that
-there was consolation in the view of the subject which she introduced so
-cunningly, and that he could no more be found fault with for the new
-chantry which the lay rector had a right to connect with his part of the
-church if he chose--than he could be made to pay the bills for the
-restoration of the chancel. And Miss Susan had put it to him so
-delicately about her sister’s crotchets that what could a gentleman do
-but yield? The longitudinal line on his forehead smoothed out
-accordingly, and his tone ceased to be querulous. Yes, there was no
-doubt she had crotchets, poor soul; indeed, she was half crazy, perhaps,
-as the village people thought, but a good religious creature, fond of
-prayers and church services, and not clever enough to go far astray in
-point of doctrine. As Mr. Gerard went home, indeed, having committed
-himself, he discovered a number of admirable reasons for tolerating
-Augustine and her crotchets. If she sank money enough to secure an
-endowment of sixty pounds a year, in order to have prayers said daily in
-her chantry, as she called it, it was clear that thirty or forty from
-Mr. Gerard instead of the eighty he now paid, would be quite enough for
-his curate’s salary. For what could a curate want with more than, or
-even so much as, a hundred pounds a year? And then the almshouses
-disposed of the old people of the parish in the most comfortable way,
-and on the whole, Augustine did more good than harm. Poor thing! It
-would be a pity, he thought, to cross this innocent and pious creature,
-who was “deficient,” but too gentle and good to be interfered with in
-her crotchets. Poor Augustine, whom they all disposed of so calmly!
-Perhaps it was foolish enough of her to stay alone in the little
-almshouse chapel all the time that this interview was going on, praying
-that God would touch the heart of His servant and render it favorable
-toward her, while Miss Susan managed it all so deftly by mere sleight of
-hand; but on the whole, Augustine’s idea of the world as a place where
-God did move hearts for small matters as well as great, was a more
-elevated one than the others. She felt quite sure when she glided
-through the Summer fields, still and gray in her strange dress, that
-God’s servants’ hearts had been moved to favor her, and that she might
-begin her work at once.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-
-Susan Austin said no more about her intended expedition, except to
-Martha, who had orders to prepare for the journey, and who was thrown
-into an excitement somewhat unbecoming her years by the fact that her
-mistress preferred to take Jane as her attendant, which was a slight
-very trying to the elder woman. “I cannot indulge myself by taking you,”
-said Miss Susan, “because I want you to take care of my sister; she
-requires more attendance than I do, Martha, and you will watch over
-her.” I am afraid that Miss Susan had a double motive in this decision,
-as most people have, and preferred Jane, who was young and strong, to
-the other, who required her little comforts, and did not like to be
-hurried, or put out; but she veiled the personal preference under a good
-substantial reason which is a very good thing to do in all cases, where
-it is desirable that the wheels of life should go easily. Martha had “a
-good cry,” but then consoled herself with the importance of her charge.
-“Not as it wants much cleverness to dress Miss Augustine, as never puts
-on nothing worth looking at--that gray thing for ever and ever!” she
-said, with natural contempt. Augustine herself was wholly occupied with
-the chantry, and took no interest in her sister’s movements; and there
-was no one else to inquire into them or ask a reason. She went off
-accordingly quite quietly and unobserved, with one box, and Jane in
-delighted attendance. Miss Susan took her best black silk with her,
-which she wore seldom, having fallen into the custom of the gray gown to
-please Augustine, a motive which in small matters was her chief rule of
-action;--on this occasion, however, she intended to be as magnificent as
-the best contents of her wardrobe could make her, taking, also, her
-Indian shawl and newest bonnet. These signs of superiority would not,
-she felt sure, be thrown away on a linen-draper. She took with her also,
-by way of appealing to another order of feelings, a very imposing
-picture of the house of Whiteladies, in which a gorgeous procession,
-escorting Queen Elizabeth, who was reported to have visited the place,
-was represented as issuing from the old porch. It seemed to Miss Susan
-that nobody who saw this picture could be willing to relinquish the
-house, for, indeed, her knowledge of it was limited. She set out one
-evening, resolved, with heroic courage, to commit herself to the Antwerp
-boat, which in Miss Susan’s early days had been the chief and natural
-mode of conveyance. Impossible to tell how tranquil the country was as
-she left it--the laborers going home, the balmy kine wandering devious
-and leisurely with melodious lowings through the quiet roads. Life would
-go on with all its quiet routine unbroken, while Miss Susan dared the
-dangers of the deep, and prayer bell and dinner bell ring just as usual,
-and Augustine and her almshouse people go through all their pious
-habitudes. She was away from home so seldom, that this universal sway of
-common life and custom struck her strangely, with a humiliating sense of
-her own unimportance--she who was so important, the centre of
-everything. Jane, her young maid, felt the same sentiment in a totally
-different way, being full of pride and exultation in her own
-unusualness, and delicious contempt for those unfortunates to whom this
-day was just the same as any other.
-
-Jane did not fear the dangers of the deep, which she did not know--while
-Miss Susan did, who was aware what she was about to undergo; but she
-trusted in Providence to take care of her, and smooth the angry waves,
-and said a little prayer of thanksgiving when she felt the evening air
-come soft upon her face, though the tree-tops would move about against
-the sky more than was desirable. I do not quite know by what rule of
-thought it was that Miss Susan felt herself to have a special claim to
-the succor of Providence as going upon a most righteous errand. She did
-manage to represent her mission to herself in this light, however. She
-was going to vindicate the right--to restore to their natural position
-people who had been wronged. If these said people were quite indifferent
-both to their wrongs and to their rights, that was their own fault, and
-in no respect Miss Susan’s, who had her duty to do, whatever came of it.
-This she maintained very stoutly to herself, ignoring Farrel-Austin
-altogether, who might have thought of her enterprize in a different
-light. All through the night which she passed upon the gloomy ocean in a
-close little berth, with Jane helpless and wretched, requiring the
-attention of the stewardess, Miss Susan felt her spirit supported by the
-consciousness of virtue which was almost heroic: How much more
-comfortable she would have been at home in the west room, which she
-remembered so tenderly; how terrible was the rushing sound of waves in
-her ears, waves separated from her by so fragile a bulwark, “only a
-plank between her and eternity!” But all this she was undergoing for the
-sake of justice and right.
-
-She felt herself, however, like a creature in a dream, when she walked
-out the morning of her arrival, alone, into the streets of Bruges,
-confused by the strangeness of the place, which so recalled her youth to
-her, that she could scarcely believe she had not left her father and
-brother at the hotel. Once in these early days, she had come out alone
-in the morning, she remembered, just as she was doing now, to buy
-presents for her companions; and that curious, delightful sense of half
-fright, half freedom, which the girl had felt thrilling her through
-while on this escapade, came back to the mind of the woman who was
-growing old, with a pathetic pleasure. She remembered how she had paused
-at the corner of the street, afraid to stop, afraid to go on, almost too
-shy to go into the shops where she had seen the things she wanted to
-buy. Miss Susan was too old to be shy now. She walked along sedately,
-not afraid that anybody would stare at her or be rude to her, or
-troubled by any doubts whether it was “proper;” but yet the past
-confused her mind. How strange it all was! Could it be that the
-carillon, which chimed sweetly, keenly in her ears, like a voice out of
-her youth, startling her by reiterated calls and reminders, had been
-chiming out all the ordinary hours--nay, quarters of hours--marking
-everybody’s mealtimes and ordinary every-day vicissitudes, for these
-forty years past? It was some time before her ear got used to it, before
-she ceased to start and feel as if the sweet chimes from the belfry were
-something personal, addressed to her alone. She had been very young when
-she was in Bruges before, and everything was deeply impressed upon her
-mind. She had travelled very little since, and all the quaint gables,
-the squares, the lace-makers seated at their doors, the shop-windows
-full of peasant jewellery, had the strangest air of familiarity.
-
-It was some time even in the curious bewildering tumult of her feelings
-before she could recollect her real errand. She had not asked any
-further information from Farrel-Austin. If he had found their unknown
-relation out by seeing the name of Austin over a shop-door, she surely
-could do as much. She had, however, wandered into the outskirts of the
-town before she fully recollected that her mission in Bruges was, first
-of all, to walk about the streets and find out the strange Austins who
-were foreigners and tradespeople. She came back, accordingly, as best
-she could, straying through the devious streets, meeting English
-travellers with the infallible Murray under their arms, and wondering to
-herself how people could have leisure to come to such a place as this
-for mere sight-seeing. That day, however, perhaps because of the strong
-hold upon her of the past and its recollections, perhaps because of the
-bewildering sense of mingled familiarity and strangeness in the place,
-she did not find the object of her search--though, indeed, the streets
-of Bruges are not so many, or the shops so extensive as to defy the
-scrutiny of a passer-by. She got tired, and half ashamed of herself to
-be thus walking about alone, and was glad to take refuge in a dim corner
-of the Cathedral, where she dropped on one knee in the obscurity, half
-afraid to be seen by any English visitor in this attitude of devotion in
-a Roman Catholic church, and then sat down to collect herself, and think
-over all she had to do. What was it she had to do? To prevent wrong from
-being done; to help to secure her unknown cousins in their rights. This
-was but a vague way of stating it, but it was more difficult to put the
-case to herself if she entered into detail. To persuade them that they
-had been over-persuaded, that they had too lightly given up advantages
-which, had they known their real value, they would not have given up; to
-prove to them how pleasant a thing it was to be Austins of Whiteladies.
-This was what she had to do.
-
-Next morning Miss Susan set out with a clear head and a more distinct
-notion of what she was about. She had got used to the reiterations of
-the carillon, to the familiar distant look of the quaint streets. And,
-indeed, she had not gone very far when her heart jumped up in her breast
-to see written over a large shop the name of Austin, as Farrel had told
-her. She stopped and looked at it. It was situated at a bend in the
-road, where a narrow street debouched into a wider one, and had that air
-of self-restrained plainness, of being above the paltry art of
-window-dressing, which is peculiar to old and long-established shops
-whose character is known, where rich materials are sold at high prices,
-and everything cheap is contemned. Piles of linen and blankets, and
-other unattractive articles, were in a broad but dingy window, and in
-the doorway stood an old man with a black skullcap on his head, and blue
-eyes, full of vivacity and activity, notwithstanding his years. He was
-standing at his door looking up and down, with the air of a man who
-looked for news, or expected some incident other than the tranquil
-events around. When Miss Susan crossed the narrow part of the street,
-which she did with her heart in her mouth, he looked up at her, noting
-her appearance; and she felt sure that some internal warning of the
-nature of her errand came into his mind. From this look Miss Susan,
-quick as a flash of lightning, divined that he was not satisfied with
-his bargain, that his attention and curiosity were aroused, and that
-Farrel-Austin’s visit had made him curious of other visits, and in a
-state of expectation. I believe she was right in the idea she thus
-formed, but she saw it more clearly than M. Austin did, who knew little
-more than that he was restless, and in an unsettled frame of mind.
-
-“Est-ce vous qui êtes le propriétaire?” said Miss Susan, speaking
-bluntly, in her bad French, without any polite prefaces, such as befit
-the language; she was too much excited, even had she been sufficiently
-conversant with the strange tongue, to know that they were necessary.
-The shopkeeper took his cap off his bald head, which was venerable, with
-an encircling ring of white locks, and made her a bow. He was a handsome
-old man, with blue eyes, such as had always been peculiar to the
-Austins, and a general resemblance--or so, at least, Miss Susan
-thought--to the old family pictures at Whiteladies. Under her best black
-silk gown, and the Indian shawl which she had put on to impress her
-unknown relation with a sense of her importance, she felt her heart
-beating. But, indeed, black silk and India shawls are inconvenient wear
-in the middle of Summer in the Pays Bas; and perhaps this fact had
-something to do with the flush and tremor of which she was suddenly
-conscious.
-
-M. Austin, the shopkeeper, took off his cap to her, and answered “Oui,
-madame,” blandly; then, with that instant perception of her nationality,
-for which the English abroad are not always grateful, he added, “Madame
-is Inglese? we too. I am Inglese. In what can I be serviceable to
-madame?”
-
-“Oh, you understand English? Thank heaven!” said Miss Susan, whose
-French was far from fluent. “I am very glad to hear it, for that will
-make my business so much the easier. It is long since I have been
-abroad, and I have almost forgotten the language. Could I speak to you
-somewhere? I don’t want to buy anything,” she said abruptly, as he stood
-aside to let her come in.
-
-“That shall be at the pleasure of madame,” said the old man with the
-sweetest of smiles, “though miladi will not find better damask in many
-places. Enter, madame. I will take you to my counting-house, or into my
-private house, if that will more please you. In what can I be
-serviceable to madame?”
-
-“Come in here--anywhere where we can be quiet. What I have to say is
-important,” said Miss Susan. The shop was not like an English shop.
-There was less light, less decoration, the windows were half blocked up,
-and behind, in the depths of the shop, there was a large, half-curtained
-window, opening into another room at the back. “I am not a customer, but
-it may be worth your while,” said Miss Susan, her breath coming quick on
-her parted lips.
-
-The shopkeeper made her a bow, which she set down to French politeness,
-for all people who spoke another language were French to Miss Susan. He
-said, “Madame shall be satisfied,” and led her into the deeper depths,
-where he placed a chair for her, and remained standing in a deferential
-attitude. Miss Susan was confused by the new circumstances in which she
-found herself, and by the rapidity with which event had followed event.
-
-“My name is Austin too,” she said, faltering slightly. “I thought when I
-saw your name, that perhaps you were a relation of mine--who has been
-long lost to his family.”
-
-“It is too great an honor,” said the old shopkeeper, with another bow;
-“but yes--but yes, it is indeed so. I have seen already another
-gentleman, a person in the same interests. Yes, it is me. I am Guillaume
-Austin.”
-
-“Guillaume?”
-
-“Yes. William you it call. I have told my name to the other monsieur. He
-is, he say, the successive--what you call it? The one who comes--”
-
-“The heir--”
-
-“That is the word. I show him my papers--he is satisfied; as I will also
-to madame with pleasure. Madame is also cousin of Monsieur Farrel?
-Yes?--and of me? It is too great honor. She shall see for herself. My
-grandfather was Ingleseman--trés Inglese. I recall to myself his figure
-as if I saw it at this moment. Blue eyes, very clear, pointed nose--ma
-foi! like the nose of madame.”
-
-“I should like to see your papers,” said Miss Susan. “Shall I come back
-in the evening when you have more time? I should like to see your
-wife--for you have one, surely? and your children.”
-
-“Yes, yes; but one is gone,” said the shopkeeper. “Figure to yourself,
-madame, that I had but one son, and he is gone! There is no longer any
-one to take my place--to come after me. Ah! life is changed when it is
-so. One lives on--but what is life? a thing we must endure till it comes
-to an end.”
-
-“I know it well,” said Miss Susan, in a low tone.
-
-“Madame, too, has had the misfortune to lose her son, like me?”
-
-“Ah, don’t speak of it! But I have no son. I am what you call a vile
-fee,” said Miss Susan; “an old maid--nothing more. And he is still
-living, poor boy; but doomed, alas! doomed. Mr. Austin, I have a great
-many things to speak to you about.”
-
-“I attend--with all my heart,” said the shopkeeper, somewhat puzzled,
-for Miss Susan’s speech was mysterious, there could be little doubt.
-
-“If I return, then, in the evening, you will show me your papers, and
-introduce me to your family,” said Miss Susan, getting up. “I must not
-take up your time now.”
-
-“But I am delighted to wait upon madame now,” said the old man, “and
-since madame has the bounty to wish to see my family--by here, madame,
-I beg--enter, and be welcome--very welcome.”
-
-Saying this he opened the great window-door in the end of the shop, and
-Miss Susan, walking forward somewhat agitated, found herself all at once
-in a scene very unexpected by her, and of a kind for which she was
-unprepared. She was ushered in at once to the family room and family
-life, without even the interposition of a passage. The room into which
-this glass door opened was not very large, and quite disproportionately
-lofty. Opposite to the entrance from the shop was another large window,
-reaching almost to the roof, which opened upon a narrow court, and kept
-a curious dim day-light, half from without, half from within, in the
-space, which seemed more narrow than it need have done by reason of the
-height of the roof. Against this window, in a large easy chair, sat an
-old woman in a black gown, without a cap, and with one little tail of
-gray hair twisted at the back of her head, and curl-papers embellishing
-her forehead in front. Her gown was rusty, and not without stains, and
-she wore a large handkerchief, with spots, tied about her neck. She was
-chopping vegetables in a dish, and not in the least abashed to be found
-so engaged. In a corner sat a younger woman, also in black, and looking
-like a gloomy shadow, lingering apart from the light. Another young
-woman went and came toward an inner room, in which it was evident the
-dinner was going to be cooked.
-
-A pile of boxes, red and blue, and all the colors of the rainbow, was on
-a table. There was no carpet on the floor, which evidently had not been
-frotté for some time past, nor curtains at the window, except a
-melancholy spotted muslin, which hung closely over it, making the scanty
-daylight dimmer still. Miss Susan drew her breath hard with a kind of
-gasp. The Austins were people extremely well to do--rich in their way,
-and thinking themselves very comfortable; but to the prejudiced English
-eye of their new relation, the scene was one of absolute squalor. Even
-in an English cottage, Miss Susan thought, there would have been an
-attempt at some prettiness or other, some air of nicety or ornament; but
-the comfortable people here (though Miss Susan supposed all foreigners
-to be naturally addicted to show and glitter), thought of nothing but
-the necessities of living. They were not in the least ashamed, as an
-English family would have been, of being “caught” in the midst of their
-morning’s occupations. The old lady put aside the basin with the
-vegetables, and wiped her hands with a napkin, and greeted her visitor
-with perfect calm; the others took scarcely any notice. Were these the
-people whose right it was to succeed generations of English squires--the
-dignified race of Whiteladies? Miss Susan shivered as she sat down, and
-then she began her work of temptation. She drew forth her picture, which
-was handed round for everybody to see. She described the estate and all
-its attractions. Would they let this pass away from them? At least they
-should not do it without knowing what they had sacrificed. To do this,
-partly in English, which the shopkeeper translated imperfectly, and
-partly in very bad French, was no small labor to Miss Susan; but her
-zeal was equal to the tax upon it, and the more she talked, and the more
-trouble she had to overcome her own repugnance to these new people, the
-more vehement she became in her efforts to break their alliance with
-Farrel, and induce them to recover their rights. The young woman who was
-moving about the room, and whose appearance had at once struck Miss
-Susan, came and looked over the old mother’s shoulder at the picture,
-and expressed her admiration in the liveliest terms. The jolie maison it
-was, and the dommage to lose it, she cried: and these words were very
-strong pleas in favor of all Miss Susan said.
-
-“Ah, what an abominable law,” said the old lady at length, “that
-excludes the daughters!--sans ça, ma fille!” and she began to cry a
-little. “Oh, my son, my son! if the good God had not taken him, what joy
-to have restored him to the country of his grandfather, to an
-establishment so charming!”
-
-Miss Susan drew close to the old woman in the rusty black gown, and
-approached her mouth to her ear.
-
-“Cette jeune femme-là est veuve de voter fils?”
-
-“No. There she is--there in the corner; she who neither smiles nor
-speaks,” said the mother, putting up the napkin with which she had dried
-her hands, to her eyes.
-
-The whole situation had in it a dreary tragi-comedy, half pitiful, half
-laughable; a great deal of intense feeling veiled by external
-circumstances of the homeliest order, such as is often to be found in
-comfortable, unlovely _bourgeois_ households. How it was, in such a
-matter-of-fact interior, that the great temptation of her life should
-have flashed across Miss Susan’s mind, I cannot tell. She glanced from
-the young wife, very soon to be a mother, who leant over the old lady’s
-chair, to the dark shadow in the corner, who had never stirred from her
-seat. It was all done in a moment--thought, plan, execution. A sudden
-excitement took hold upon her. She drew her chair close to the old
-woman, and bent forward till her lips almost touched her ear.
-
-“L’autre est--la même--que elle?”
-
-“Que voulez-vous dire, madame?”
-
-The old lady looked up at her bewildered, but, caught by the glitter of
-excitement in Miss Susan’s eye, and the panting breath, which bore
-evidence to some sudden fever in her, stopped short. Her wondering look
-turned into something more keen and impassioned--a kind of electric
-spark flashed between the two women. It was done in a moment; so
-rapidly, that at least (as Miss Susan thought after, a hundred times,
-and a hundred to that) it was without premeditation; so sudden, that it
-was scarcely their fault. Miss Susan’s eyes gleaming, said something to
-those of the old Flamande, whom she had never seen before, Guillaume
-Austin’s wife. A curious thrill ran through both--the sting, the
-attraction, the sharp movement, half pain, half pleasure, of temptation
-and guilty intention; for there was a sharp and stinging sensation of
-pleasure in it, and something which made them giddy. They stood on the
-edge of a precipice, and looked at each other a second time before they
-took the plunge. Then Miss Susan laid her hand upon the other’s arm,
-gripping it in her passion.
-
-“Venez quelque part pour parler,” she said, in her bad French.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-
-I cannot tell the reader what was the conversation that ensued between
-Miss Susan and Madame Austin of Bruges, because the two naturally shut
-themselves up by themselves, and desired no witnesses. They went
-upstairs, threading their way through a warehouse full of goods, to
-Madame Austin’s bedroom, which was her reception-room, and, to Miss
-Susan’s surprise, a great deal prettier and lighter than the family
-apartment below, in which all the ordinary concerns of life were carried
-on. There were two white beds in it, a recess with crimson curtains
-drawn almost completely across--and various pretty articles of
-furniture, some marqueterie cabinets and tables, which would have made
-the mouth of any amateur of old furniture water, and two sofas with
-little rugs laid down in front of them. The boards were carefully waxed
-and clean, the white curtains drawn over the window, and everything
-arranged with some care and daintiness. Madame Austin placed her visitor
-on the principal sofa, which was covered with tapestry, but rather hard
-and straight, and then shut the door. She did not mean to be overheard.
-
-Madame Austin was the ruling spirit in the house. It was she that
-regulated the expenses, that married the daughters, and that had made
-the match between her son and the poor creature downstairs, who had
-taken no part in the conversation. Her husband made believe to supervise
-and criticise everything, in which harmless gratification she encouraged
-him; but in fact his real business was to acquiesce, which he did with
-great success. Miss Susan divined well when she said to herself that his
-wife would never permit him to relinquish advantages so great when she
-knew something of what they really implied; but she too had been broken
-down by grief, and ready to feel that nothing was of any consequence in
-life, when Farrel-Austin had found them out. I do not know what cunning
-devil communicated to Miss Susan the right spell by which to wake up in
-Madame Austin the energies of a vivacious temperament partially
-repressed by grief and age; but certainly the attempt was crowned with
-success.
-
-They talked eagerly, with flushed faces and voices which would have been
-loud had they not feared to be overheard; both of them carried out of
-themselves by the strangely exciting suggestion which had passed from
-one to the other almost without words; and they parted with close
-pressure of hands and with meaning looks, notwithstanding Miss Susan’s
-terribly bad French, which was involved to a degree which I hardly dare
-venture to present to the reader; and many readers are aware, by unhappy
-experience, what an elderly Englishwoman’s French can be. “Je reviendrai
-encore demain,” said Miss Susan. “J’ai beaucoup choses à parler, et vous
-dira encore à votre mari. Si vous voulez me parler avant cela, allez à
-l’hôtel; je serai toujours dans mon appartement. Il est pas ung plaisir
-pour moi de marcher autour la ville, comme quand j’étais jeune. J’aime
-rester tranquil; et je reviendrai demain, dans la matin, á votre maison
-ici. J’ai beaucoup choses de parler autour.”
-
-Madame Austin did not know what “parler autour” could mean, but she
-accepted the puzzle and comprehended the general thread of the meaning.
-She returned to her sitting-room downstairs with her head full of a
-hundred busy thoughts, and Miss Susan went off to her hotel, with a
-headache, caused by a corresponding overflow in her mind. She was in a
-great excitement, which indeed could not be quieted by going to the
-hotel, but which prompted her to “marcher autour la ville,” trying to
-neutralize the undue activity of her brain by movement of body. It is
-one of nature’s instinctive ways of wearing out emotion. To do wrong is
-a very strange sensation, and it was one which, in any great degree, was
-unknown to Miss Susan. She had done wrong, I suppose, often enough
-before, but she had long outgrown that sensitive stage of mind and body
-which can seriously regard as mortal sins the little peccadilloes of
-common life--the momentary failures of temper or rashness of words,
-which the tender youthful soul confesses and repents of as great sins.
-Temptation had not come near her virtuous and equable life; and, to tell
-the truth, she had often felt with a compunction that the confession
-she sometimes made in church, of a burden of guilt which was intolerable
-to her, and of sins too many to be remembered, was an innocent hypocrisy
-on her part. She had taken herself to task often enough for her
-inability to feel this deep penitence as she ought; and now a real and
-great temptation had come in her way, and Miss Susan did not feel at all
-in that state of mind which she would have thought probable. Her first
-sensation was that of extreme excitement--a sharp and stinging yet
-almost pleasurable sense of energy and force and strong will which could
-accomplish miracles: so I suppose the rebel angels must have felt in the
-first moment of their sin--intoxicated with the mere sense of it, and of
-their own amazing force and boldness who dared to do it, and defy the
-Lord of heaven and earth. She walked about and looked in at the
-shop-windows, at that wonderful filagree work of steel and silver which
-the poorest women wear in those Low Countries, and at the films of lace
-which in other circumstances Miss Susan was woman enough to have been
-interested in for their own sake. Why could not she think of them?--why
-could not she care for them now?--A deeper sensation possessed her, and
-its first effect was so strange that it filled her with fright; for, to
-tell the truth, it was an exhilarating rather than a depressing
-sensation. She was breathless with excitement, panting, her heart
-beating.
-
-Now and then she looked behind her as if some one were pursuing her. She
-looked at the people whom she met with a conscious defiance, bidding
-them with her eyes find out, if they dared, the secret which possessed
-her completely. This thought was not as other thoughts which come and go
-in the mind, which give way to passing impressions, yet prove themselves
-to have the lead by returning to fill up all crevices. It never departed
-from her for a moment. When she went into the shops to buy, as she did
-after awhile by way of calming herself down, she was half afraid of
-saying something about it in the midst of her request to look at laces,
-or her questions as to the price; and, like other mental intoxications,
-this unaccomplished intention of evil seemed to carry her out of herself
-altogether; it annihilated all bodily sensations. She walked about as
-lightly as a ghost, unconscious of her physical powers altogether,
-feeling neither hunger nor weariness. She went through the churches,
-the picture galleries, looking vaguely at everything, conscious clearly
-of nothing, now and then horribly attracted by one of those terrible
-pictures of blood and suffering, the martyrdoms which abound in all
-Flemish collections. She went into the shops, as I have said, and bought
-lace, for what reason she did not know, nor for whom; and it was only in
-the afternoon late that she went back to her hotel, where Jane,
-frightened, was looking out for her, and thinking her mistress must have
-been lost or murdered among “them foreigners.” “I have been with
-friends,” Miss Susan said, sitting down, bolt upright, on the vacant
-chair, and looking Jane straight in the face, to make sure that the
-simple creature suspected nothing. How could she have supposed Jane to
-know anything, or suspect? But it is one feature of this curious
-exaltation of mind, in which Miss Susan was, that reason and all its
-limitations is for the moment abandoned, and things impossible become
-likely and natural. After this, however, the body suddenly asserted
-itself, and she became aware that she had been on foot the whole day,
-and was no longer capable of any physical exertion. She lay down on the
-sofa dead tired, and after a little interval had something to eat, which
-she took with appetite, and looked on her purchases with a certain
-pleasure, and slept soundly all night--the sleep of the just. No remorse
-visited her, or penitence, only a certain breathless excitement stirring
-up her whole being, a sense of life and strength and power.
-
-Next morning Miss Susan repeated her visit to her new relations at an
-early hour. This time she found them all prepared for her, and was
-received not in the general room, but in Madame Austin’s chamber, where
-M. Austin and his wife awaited her coming. The shopkeeper himself had
-altogether changed in appearance: his countenance beamed; he bowed over
-the hand which Miss Susan held out to him, like an old courtier, and
-looked gratefully at her.
-
-“Madame has come to our house like a good angel,” he said. “Ah! it is
-madame’s intelligence which has found out the good news, which _cette
-pauvre chérie_ had not the courage to tell us. I did never think to
-laugh of good heart again,” said the poor man, with tears in his eyes,
-“but this has made me young; and it almost seems as if we owed it to
-madame.”
-
-“How can that be?” said Miss Susan. “It must have been found out sooner
-or later. It will make up to you, if anything can, for the loss of your
-boy.”
-
-“If he had but lived to see it!” said the old man with a sob.
-
-The mother stood behind, tearless, with a glitter in her eyes which was
-almost fierce. Miss Susan did not venture to do more than give her one
-hurried glance, to which she replied with a gleam of fury, clasping her
-hands together. Was it fury? Miss Susan thought so, and shrank for a
-moment, not quite able to understand the feelings of the other woman who
-had not clearly understood her, yet who now seemed to address to her a
-look of wild reproach.
-
-“And my poor wife,” went on the old shopkeeper, “for her it will be an
-even still more happy--Tu es contente, bien contente, n’est-ce pas?”
-
-“Oui, mon ami,” said the woman, turning her back to him, with once more
-a glance from which Miss Susan shrank.
-
-“Ah, madame, excuse her; she cannot speak; it is a joy too much,” he
-cried, drying his old eyes.
-
-Miss Susan felt herself constrained and drawn on by the excitement of
-the moment, and urged by the silence of the other woman, who was as much
-involved as she.
-
-“My poor boy will have a sadder lot even than yours,” she said; “he is
-dying too young even to hope for any of the joys of life. There is
-neither wife nor child possible for Herbert.” The tears rushed to her
-eyes as she spoke. Heaven help her! she had availed herself, as it were,
-of nature and affection to help her to commit her sin with more ease and
-apparent security. She had taken advantage of poor Herbert in order to
-wake those tears which gave her credit in the eyes of the unsuspecting
-stranger. In the midst of her excitement and feverish sense of life, a
-sudden chill struck at her heart. Had she come to this debasement so
-soon? Was it possible that in such an emergency she had made capital and
-stock-in-trade of her dying boy? This reflection was not put into words,
-but flashed through her with one of those poignant instantaneous cuts
-and thrusts which men and women are subject to, invisibly to all the
-world. M. Austin, forgetting his respect in sympathy, held out his hand
-to her to press hers with a profound and tender feeling which went to
-Miss Susan’s heart; but she had the courage to return the pressure
-before she dropped his bond hastily (he thought in English pride and
-reserve), and, making a visible effort to suppress her emotion,
-continued, “After this discovery, I suppose your bargain with Mr.
-Farrel-Austin, who took such an advantage of you, is at an end at once?”
-
-“Speak French,” said Madame Austin, with gloom on her countenance; “I do
-not understand your English.”
-
-“Mon amie, you are a little abrupt. Forgive her, madame; it is the
-excitation--the joy. In women the nerves are so much allied with the
-sentiments,” said the old shopkeeper, feeling himself, like all men,
-qualified to generalize on this subject. Then he added with dignity, “I
-promised only for myself. My old companion and me--we felt no desire to
-be more rich, to enter upon another life; but at present it is
-different. If there comes an inheritor,” he added, with a gleam of light
-over his face, “who shall be born to this wealth, who can be educated
-for it, who will be happy in it, and great and prosperous--ah, madame,
-permit that I thank you again! Yes, it is you who have revealed the
-goodness of God to me. I should not have been so happy to-day but for
-you.”
-
-Miss Susan interrupted him almost abruptly. The sombre shadow on Madame
-Austin’s countenance began to affect her in spite of herself. “Will you
-write to him,” she said, “or would you wish me to explain for you? I
-shall see him on my return.”
-
-“Still English,” said Madame Austin, “when I say that I do not
-understand it! I wish to understand what is said.”
-
-The two women looked each other in the face: one wondering, uncertain,
-half afraid; the other angry, defiant, jealous, feeling her power, and
-glad, I suppose, to find some possible and apparent cause of irritation
-by which to let loose the storm in her breast of confused irritation and
-pain. Miss Susan looked at her and felt frightened; she had even begun
-to share in the sentiment which made her accomplice so bitter and
-fierce; she answered, with something like humility, in her atrocious
-French:
-
-“Je parle d’un monsieur que vous avez vu, qui est allez ici, qui a parlé
-à vous de l’Angleterre. M. Austin et vous allez changer votre idées,--et
-je veux dire à cet monsieur que quelque chose de différent est venu,
-que vous n’est pas de même esprit que avant. Voici!” said Miss Susan,
-rather pleased with herself for having got on so far in a breath. “Je
-signifie cela--c’est-à-dire, je offrir mon service pour assister votre
-mari changer la chose qu’il a faites.”
-
-“Oui, mon amie,” said M. Austin, “pour casser l’affaire--le contrat que
-nous avons fait, vous et moi, et que d’ailleurs n’a jamais été exécuté;
-c’est sa; I shall write, and madame will explique, and all will be made
-as at first. The gentleman was kind. I should never have known my
-rights, nor anything about the beautiful house that belongs to us--”
-
-“That may belong to you, on my poor boy’s death,” said Miss Susan,
-correcting him.
-
-“Assuredly; after the death of M. le propriétaire actuel. Yes, yes, that
-is understood. Madame will explain to ce monsieur how the situation has
-changed, and how the contract is at least suspended in the meantime.”
-
-“Until the event,” said Miss Susan.
-
-“Until the event, assuredly,” said M. Austin, rubbing his hands.
-
-“Until the event,” said Madame Austin, recovering herself under this
-discussion of details. “But it will be wise to treat ce monsieur with
-much gentleness,” she added; “he must be ménagé; for figure to yourself
-that it might be a girl, and he might no longer wish to pay the money
-proposed, mon ami. He must be managed with great care. Perhaps if I were
-myself to go to England to see this monsieur--”
-
-“Mon ange! it would fatigue you to death.”
-
-“It is true; and then a country so strange--a cuisine abominable. But I
-should not hesitate to sacrifice myself, as you well know, Guillaume,
-were it necessary. Write then, and we will see by his reply if he is
-angry, and I can go afterward if it is needful.”
-
-“And madame, who is so kind, who has so much bounty for us,” said the
-old man, “madame will explain.”
-
-Once more the two women looked at each other. They had been so cordial
-yesterday, why were not they cordial to-day?
-
-“How is it that madame has so much bounty for us?” said the old Flemish
-woman, half aside. “She has no doubt her own reasons?”
-
-“The house has been mine all my life,” said Miss Susan, boldly. “I think
-perhaps, if you get it, you will let me live there till I die. And
-Farrel-Austin is a bad man,” she added with vehemence; “he has done us
-bitter wrong. I would do anything in the world rather than let him have
-Whiteladies. I thought I had told you this yesterday. Do you understand
-me now?”
-
-“I begin to comprehend,” said Madame Austin, under her breath.
-
-Finally this was the compact that was made between them. The Austins
-themselves were to write, repudiating their bargain with Farrel, or at
-least suspending it, to await an event, of the likelihood of which they
-were not aware at the time they had consented to his terms; and Miss
-Susan was to see him, and smooth all down and make him understand.
-Nothing could be decided till the event. It might be a mere
-postponement--it might turn out in no way harmful to Farrel, only an
-inconvenience. Miss Susan was no longer excited, nor so comfortable in
-her mind as yesterday. The full cup had evaporated, so to speak, and
-shrunk; it was no longer running over. One or two indications of a more
-miserable consciousness had come to her. She had read the shame of guilt
-and its irritation in her confederate’s eyes; she had felt the pain of
-deceiving an unsuspecting person. These were new sensations, and they
-were not pleasant; nor was her brief parting interview with Madame
-Austin pleasant. She had not felt, in the first fervor of temptation,
-any dislike to the close contact which was necessary with that homely
-person, or the perfect equality which was necessary between her and her
-fellow-conspirator; but to-day Miss Susan did feel this, and shrank. She
-grew impatient of the old woman’s brusque manner, and her look of
-reproach. “As if she were any better than me,” said poor Miss Susan to
-herself. Alas! into what moral depths the proud Englishwoman must have
-fallen who could compare herself with Madame Austin! And when she took
-leave of her, and Madame Austin, recovering her spirits, breathed some
-confidential details--half jocular, and altogether familiar, with a
-breath smelling of garlic--into Miss Susan’s ear, she fell back, with a
-mixture of disdain and disgust which it was almost impossible to
-conceal. She walked back to the hotel this time without any inclination
-to linger, and gave orders to Jane to prepare at once for the home
-journey. The only thing that did her any good, in the painful tumult of
-feeling which had succeeded her excitement, was a glimpse which she
-caught in passing into the same lofty common room in which she had first
-seen the Austin family. The son’s widow still sat a gloomy shadow in her
-chair in the corner; but in the full light of the window, in the big
-easy chair which Madame Austin had filled yesterday, sat the daughter of
-the house with her child on her lap, leaning back and holding up the
-plump baby with pretty outstretched arms. Whatever share she might have
-in the plot was involuntary. She was a fair-haired, round-faced Flemish
-girl, innocent and merry. She held up her child in her pretty round
-sturdy arms, and chirruped and talked nonsense to it in a language of
-which Miss Austin knew not a word. She stopped and looked a moment at
-this pretty picture, then turned quickly, and went away. After all, the
-plot was all in embryo as yet. Though evil was meant, Providence was
-still the arbiter, and good and evil alike must turn upon the event.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-
-“Don’t you think he is better, mamma--a little better to-day?”
-
-“Ah, mon Dieu, what can I say, Reine? To be a little better in his state
-is often to be worst of all. You have not seen so much as I have. Often,
-very often, there is a gleam of the dying flame in the socket; there is
-an air of being well--almost well. What can I say? I have seen it like
-that. And they have all told us that he cannot live. Alas, alas, my poor
-boy!”
-
-Madame de Mirfleur buried her face in her handkerchief as she spoke. She
-was seated in the little sitting-room of a little house in an Alpine
-valley, where they had brought the invalid when the Summer grew too hot
-for him on the shores of the Mediterranean. He himself had chosen the
-Kanderthal as his Summer quarters, and with the obstinacy of a sick man
-had clung to the notion. The valley was shut in by a circle of snowy
-peaks toward the east; white, dazzling mountain-tops, which yet looked
-small and homely and familiar in the shadow of the bigger Alps around. A
-little mountain stream ran through the valley, across which, at one
-point, clustered a knot of houses, with a homely inn in the midst. There
-were trout in the river, and the necessaries of life were to be had in
-the village, through which a constant stream of travellers passed during
-the Summer and Autumn, parties crossing the steep pass of the Gemmi, and
-individual tourists of more enterprising character fighting their way
-from this favorable centre into various unknown recesses of the hills.
-Behind the chalet a waterfall kept up a continual murmur, giving
-utterance, as it seemed, to the very silence cf the mountains. The scent
-of pine-woods was in the air; to the west the glory of the sunset shone
-over a long broken stretch of valley, uneven moorland interspersed with
-clumps of wood. To be so little out of the way--nay, indeed, to be in
-the way--of the Summer traveller, it was singularly wild and quaint and
-fresh. Indeed, for one thing, no tourist ever stayed there except for
-food and rest, for there was nothing to attract any one in the plain,
-little secluded village, with only its circle of snowy peaks above its
-trout-stream, and its sunsets, to catch any fanciful eye. Sometimes,
-however, a fanciful eye was caught by these charms, as in the case of
-poor Herbert Austin, who had been brought here to die. He lay in the
-little room which communicated with this sitting-room, in a small wooden
-chamber opening upon a balcony, from which you could watch the sun
-setting over the Kanderthal, and the moon rising over the snow-white
-glory of the Dolden-horn, almost at the same moment. The chalet belonged
-to the inn, and was connected with it by a covered passage. The Summer
-was at its height, and still poor Herbert lingered, though M. de
-Mirfleur, in pleasant Normandy, grew a little weary of the long time his
-wife’s son took in dying; and Madame de Mirfleur herself, as jealous
-Reine would think sometimes, in spite of herself grew weary too,
-thinking of her second family at home, and the husband whom Reine had
-always felt to be an offence. The mother and sister who were thus
-watching over Herbert’s last moments were not so united in their grief
-and pious duties as might have been supposed. Generally it is the mother
-whose whole heart is absorbed in such watching, and the young sister who
-is to be pardoned if sometimes, in the sadness of the shadow that
-precedes death, her young mind should wander back to life and its warmer
-interests with a longing which makes her feel guilty. But in this case
-these positions were reversed. It was the mother who longed
-involuntarily for the life she had left behind her, and whose heart
-reverted wistfully to something brighter and more hopeful, to other
-interests and loves as strong, if not stronger, than that she felt in
-and for her eldest son. When it is the other way the sad mother pardons
-her child for a wandering imagination; but the sad child, jealous and
-miserable, does not forgive the mother, who has so much to fall back
-upon. Reine had never been able to forgive her mother’s marriage. She
-never named her by her new name without a thrill of irritation. Her
-stepfather seemed a standing shame to her, and every new brother and
-sister who came into the world was a new offence against Reine’s
-delicacy. She had been glad, very glad, of Madame de Mirfleur’s aid in
-transporting Herbert hither, and at first her mother’s society, apart
-from the new family, had been very sweet to the girl, who loved her,
-notwithstanding the fantastic sense of shame which possessed her, and
-her jealousy of all her new connections. But when Reine, quick-sighted
-with the sharpened vision of jealousy and wounded love, saw, or thought
-she saw, that her mother began to weary of the long vigil, that she
-began to wonder what her little ones were doing, and to talk of all the
-troubles of a long absence, her heart rose impatient in an agony of
-anger and shame and deep mortification. Weary of waiting for her son’s
-death--her eldest son, who ought to have been her only son--weary of
-those lingering moments which were now all that remained to Herbert!
-Reine, in the anguish of her own deep grief and pity and longing hold
-upon him, felt herself sometimes almost wild against her mother. She did
-so now, when Madame de Mirfleur, with a certain calm, though she was
-crying, shook her head and lamented that such gleams of betterness were
-often the precursors of the end. Reine did not weep when her mother
-buried her face in her delicate perfumed handkerchief. She said to
-herself fiercely, “Mamma likes to think so; she wants to get rid of us,
-and get back to those others,” and looked at her with eyes which shone
-hot and dry, with a flushed cheek and clenched hands. It was all she
-could do to restrain herself, to keep from saying something which good
-sense and good taste, and a lingering natural affection, alike made her
-feel that she must not say. Reine was one of those curious creatures in
-whom two races mingle. She had the Austin blue eyes, but with a light in
-them such as no Austin had before; but she had the dark-brown hair,
-smooth and silky, of her French mother, and something of the piquancy of
-feature, the little petulant nose, the mobile countenance of the more
-vivacious blood. Her figure was like a fairy’s, little and slight; her
-movements, both of mind and body, rapid as the stirrings of a bird; she
-went from one mood to another instantaneously, which was not the habit
-of her father’s deliberate race. Miss Susan thought her all
-French--Madame de Mirfleur all English; and indeed both with some
-reason--for when in England this perverse girl was full of enthusiasm
-for everything that belonged to her mother’s country, and when in
-France was the most prejudiced and narrow-minded of English women. Youth
-is always perverse, more or less, and there was a double share of its
-fanciful self-will and changeableness in Reine, whose circumstances were
-so peculiar and her temptations so many. She was so rent asunder by love
-and grief, by a kind of adoration for her dying brother, the only being
-in the world who belonged exclusively to herself, and jealous suspicion
-that he did not get his due from others, that her petulance was very
-comprehensible. She waited till Madame de Mirfleur came out of her
-handkerchief, still with hot and dry and glittering eyes.
-
-“You think it would be well if it were over,” said Reine; “that is what
-I have heard people say. It would be well--yes, in order to release his
-nurses and attendants, it would be well if it should come to an end. Ah,
-mamma, you think so too--you, his mother! You would not harm him nor
-shorten his life, but yet you think, as it is hopeless, it might be
-well: you want to go to your husband and your children!”
-
-“If I do, that is simple enough,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Ciel! how
-unjust you are, Reine! because I tell you the result of a little rally
-like Herbert’s is often not happy. I want to go to my husband, and to
-your brothers and sisters, yes--I should be unnatural if I did not--but
-that my duty, which I will never neglect, calls upon me here.”
-
-“Oh, do not stay!” cried Reine vehemently--“do not stay! I can do all
-the duty. If it is only duty that keeps you, go, mamma, go! I would not
-have you, for that reason, stay another day.”
-
-“Child! how foolish you are!” said the mother. “Reine, you should not
-show at least your repugnance to everything I am fond of. It is
-wicked--and more, it is foolish. What can any one think of you? I will
-stay while I am necessary to my poor boy; you may be sure of that.”
-
-“Not necessary,” said Reine--“oh, not necessary! _I_ can do all for him
-that is necessary. He is all I have in the world. There are neither
-husband nor children that can come between Herbert and me. Go,
-mamma,--for Heaven’s sake, go! When your heart is gone already, why
-should you remain? I can do all he requires. Oh, please, go!”
-
-“You are very wicked, Reine,” said her mother, “and unkind! You do not
-reflect that I stay for you. What are you to do when you are left all
-alone?--you, who are so unjust to your mother? I stay for that. What
-would you do?”
-
-“Me!” said Reine. She grew pale suddenly to her very lips, struck by
-this sudden suggestion in the sharpest way. She gave a sob of tearless
-passion. She knew very well that her brother was dying; but thus to be
-compelled to admit and realize it, was more than she could bear. “I will
-do the best I can,” she said, closing her eyes in the giddy faintness
-that came over her. “What does it matter about me?”
-
-“The very thought makes you ill,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Reine, you
-know what is coming, but you will never allow yourself to think of it.
-Pause now, and reflect; when my poor Herbert is gone, what will become
-of you, unless I am here to look after you? You will have to do
-everything yourself. Why should we refuse to consider things which we
-know must happen? There will be the funeral--all the arrangements--”
-
-“Mamma! mamma! have you a heart of stone?” cried Reine. She was shocked
-and wounded, and stung to the very soul. To speak of his funeral, almost
-in his presence, seemed nothing less than brutal to the excited girl;
-and all these matter-of-fact indications of what was coming jarred
-bitterly upon the heart, in which, I suppose, hope will still live while
-life lasts. Reine felt her whole being thrill with the shock of this
-terrible, practical touch, which to her mother seemed merely a simple
-putting into words of the most evident and unavoidable thought.
-
-“I hope I have a heart like all the rest of the world,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur. “And you are excited and beside yourself, or I could not pass
-over your unkindness as I do. Yes, Reine, it is my duty to stay for poor
-Herbert, but still more for you. What would you do?”
-
-“What would it matter?” cried Reine, bitterly--“not drop into his grave
-with him--ah, no; one is not permitted that happiness. One has to stay
-behind and live on, when there is nothing to live for more!”
-
-“You are impious, my child,” said her mother. “And, again, you are
-foolish; you do not reflect how young you are, and that life has many
-interests yet in store for you--new connections, new duties--”
-
-“Husbands and children!” cried Reine with scornful bitterness, turning
-her blue eyes, agleam with that feverish fire which tells at once of the
-necessity and impossibility of tears, upon her mother. Then her
-countenance changed all in a moment. A little bell tinkled faintly from
-the next room. “I am coming,” she cried, in a tone as soft as the Summer
-air that caressed the flowers in the balcony. The expression of her face
-was changed and softened; she became another creature in a moment.
-Without a word or a look more, she opened the door of the inner room and
-disappeared.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur looked after her, not without irritation; but she was
-not so fiery as Reine, and she made allowances for the girl’s folly, and
-calmed down her own displeasure. She listened for a moment to make out
-whether the invalid’s wants were anything more than usual, whether her
-help was required; and then drawing toward her a blotting-book which lay
-on the table, she resumed her letter to her husband. She was not so much
-excited as Reine by this interview, and, indeed, she felt she had only
-done her duty in indicating to the girl very plainly that life must go
-on and be provided for, even after Herbert had gone out of it. “My poor
-boy!” she said to herself, drying some tears; but she could not think of
-dying with him, or feel any despair from that one loss; she had many to
-live for, many to think of, even though she might have him no longer.
-“Reine is excited and unreasonable, as usual,” she wrote to her husband;
-“always jealous of you, mon ami, and of our children. This arises
-chiefly from her English ideas, I am disposed to believe. Perhaps when
-the sad event which we are awaiting is over, she will see more clearly
-that I have done the best for her as well as for myself. We must pardon
-her in the meantime, poor child. It is in her blood. The English are
-always more or less fantastic. We others, French, have true reason.
-Reassure yourself, mon cher ami, that I will not remain a day longer
-than I can help away from you and our children. My poor Herbert sinks
-daily. Think of our misery!--you cannot imagine how sad it is. Probably
-in a week, at the furthest, all will be over. Ah, mon Dieu! what it is
-to have a mother’s heart! and how many martyrdoms we have to bear!”
-Madame de Mirfleur wrote this sentence with a very deep sigh, and once
-more wiped from her eyes a fresh gush of tears. She was perfectly
-correct in every way as a mother. She felt as she ought to feel, and
-expressed her sorrow as it was becoming to express it, only she was not
-absorbed by it--a thing which is against all true rules of piety and
-submission. She could not rave like Reine, as if there was nothing else
-worth caring for, except her poor Herbert, her dear boy. She had a great
-many other things to care for; and she recognized all that must happen,
-and accepted it as necessary. Soon it would be over; and all recovery
-being hopeless, and the patient having nothing to look forward to but
-suffering, could it be doubted that it was best for him to have his
-suffering over? though Reine, in her rebellion against God and man,
-could not see this, and clung to every lingering moment which could
-lengthen out her brother’s life.
-
-Reine herself cleared like a Summer sky as she passed across the
-threshold into her brother’s room. The change was instantaneous. Her
-blue eyes, which had a doubtful light in them, and looked sometimes
-fierce and sometimes impassioned, were now as soft as the sky. The lines
-of irritation were all smoothed from her brow and from under her eyes.
-Limpid eyes, soft looks, an unruffled, gentle face, with nothing in it
-but love and tenderness, was what she showed always to her sick brother.
-Herbert knew her only under this aspect, though, with the
-clear-sightedness of an invalid, he had divined that Reine was not
-always so sweet to others as to himself.
-
-“You called me,” she said, coming up to his bed-side with something
-caressing, soothing, in the very sound of her step and voice; “you want
-me, Herbert?”
-
-“Yes; but I don’t want you to do anything. Sit down by me, Reine; I am
-tired of my own company, that is all.”
-
-“And so am I--of everybody’s company but yours,” she said, sitting down
-by the bed-side and stooping her pretty, shining head to kiss his thin
-hand.
-
-“Thanks, dear, for saying such pretty things to me. But, Reine, I heard
-voices; you were talking--was it with mamma?--not so softly as you do to
-me.”
-
-“Oh, it was nothing,” said Reine, with a flush. “Did you hear us, poor
-boy? Oh, that was wicked! Yes, you know there are things that make me--I
-do not mean angry--I suppose I have no right to be angry with mamma--”
-
-“Why should you be angry with any one?” he said, softly. “If you had to
-lie here, like me, you would think nothing was worth being angry about.
-My poor Reine! you do not even know what I mean.”
-
-“Oh, no; there is so much that is wrong,” said Reine; “so many things
-that people do--so many that they think--their very ways of doing even
-what is right enough. No, no; it is worth while to be angry about many,
-many things. I do not want to learn to be indifferent; besides, that
-would be impossible to me--it is not my nature.”
-
-The invalid smiled and shook his head softly at her. “Your excuse goes
-against yourself,” he said. “If you are ruled by your nature, must not
-others be moved by theirs? You active-minded people, Reine, you would
-like every one to think like you; but if you could accomplish it, what a
-monotonous world you would make! I should not like the Kanderthal if all
-the mountain-tops were shaped the same; and I should not perhaps love
-you so much if you were less yourself. Why not let other people, my
-Reine, be themselves, too?”
-
-The brother and sister spoke French, which, more than English, had been
-the language of their childhood.
-
-“Herbert, don’t say such things!” cried the girl. “You do not love me
-for this or for that, as strangers might, but because I am I, Reine, and
-you are you, Herbert. That is all we want. Ah, yes, perhaps if I were
-very good I should like to be loved for being good. I don’t know; I
-don’t think it even then. When they used to promise to love me if I was
-good at Whiteladies, I was always naughty--on purpose?--yes, I am
-afraid. Herbert, should not you like to be at Whiteladies, lying on the
-warm, warm grass in the orchard, underneath the great apple-tree, with
-the bees humming all about, and the dear white English clouds floating
-and floating, and the sky so deep, deep, that you could not fathom it?
-Ah!” cried Reine, drawing a deep breath, “I have not thought of it for a
-long time; but I wish we were there.”
-
-The sick youth did not say anything for a moment; his eyes followed her
-look, which she turned instinctively to the open window. Then he sighed;
-then raising himself a little, said, with a gleam of energy, “I am
-certainly better, Reine. I should like to get up and set out across the
-Gemmi, down the side of the lake that must be shining so in the sun.
-That’s the brightest way home.” Then he laughed, with a laugh which,
-though feeble, had not lost the pleasant ring of youthfulness. “What
-wild ideas you put into my head!” he said. “No, I am not up to that yet;
-but, Reine, I am certainly better. I have such a desire to get up: and I
-thought I should never get up again.”
-
-“I will call François!” cried the girl, eagerly. He had been made to get
-up for days together without any will of his own, and now that he should
-wish it seemed to her a step toward that recovery which Reine could
-never believe impossible. She rushed out to call his servant, and
-waited, with her heart beating, till he should be dressed, her thoughts
-already dancing forward to brighter and brighter possibilities.
-
-“He has never had the good of the mountain air,” said Reine to herself,
-“and the scent of the pine-woods. He shall sit on the balcony to-day,
-and to-morrow go out in the chair, and next week, perhaps--who
-knows?--he may be able to walk up to the waterfall, and--O God! O Dieu
-tout-puissant! O doux Jesu!” cried the girl, putting her hands together,
-“I will be good! I will be good! I will endure anything; if only he may
-live!--if only he may live!”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-
-This little scene took place in the village of Kandersteg, at the foot
-of the hills, exactly on the day when Miss Susan executed her errand in
-the room behind the shop, in low-lying Bruges, among the flat canals and
-fat Flemish fields. The tumult in poor Reine’s heart would have been
-almost as strange to Miss Susan as it was to Reine’s mother; for it was
-long now since Herbert had been given up by everybody, and since the
-doctors had all said, that “nothing short of a miracle” could save him.
-Neither Miss Susan nor Madame de Mirfleur believed in miracles. But
-Reine, who was young, had no such limitation of mind, and never could or
-would acknowledge that anything was impossible. “What does impossible
-mean?” Reine cried in her vehemence, on this very evening, after Herbert
-had accomplished her hopes, had stayed for an hour or more on the
-balcony and felt himself better for it, and ordered François to prepare
-his wheeled chair for to-morrow. Reine had much ado not to throw her
-arms around François’s neck, when he pronounced solemnly that “Monsieur
-est mieux, décidément mieux.” “Même,” added François, “il a un petit air
-de je ne sais quoi--quelque chose--un rien--un regard--”
-
-“N’est ce pas, mon ami!” cried Reine transported. Yes, there was a
-something, a nothing, a changed look which thrilled her with the wildest
-hopes,--and it was after this talk that she confronted Madame de
-Mirfleur with the question, “What does impossible mean? It means only, I
-suppose, that God does not interfere--that He lets nature go on in the
-common way. Then nothing is impossible; because at any moment, God _may_
-interfere if He pleases. Ah! He has His reasons, I suppose. If He were
-never to interfere at all, but leave nature to do her will, it is not
-for us to blame Him,” cried Reine, with tears, “but yet always He may:
-so there is always hope, and nothing is impossible in this world.”
-
-“Reine, you speak like a child,” said her mother. “Have I not prayed and
-hoped too for my boy’s life? But when all say it is impossible--”
-
-“Mamma,” said Reine, “when my piano jars, it is impossible for me to set
-it right--if I let it alone, it goes worse and worse; if I meddle with
-it in my ignorance, it goes worse and worse. If you, even, who know more
-than I do, touch it, you cannot mend it. But the man comes who knows, et
-voilà! c’est tout simple,” cried Reine. “He touches something we never
-observed, he makes something rise or fall, and all is harmonious again.
-That is like God. He does not do it always, I know. Ah! how can I tell
-why? If it was me,” cried the girl, with tears streaming from her eyes,
-“I would save every one--but He is not like me.”
-
-“Reine, you are impious--you are wicked; how dare you speak so?”
-
-“Oh, no, no! I am not impious,” she cried, dropping upon her knees--all
-the English part in her, all her reason and self-restraint broken down
-by extreme emotion. “The bon Dieu knows I am not! I know, I know He
-does, and sees me, the good Father, and is sorry, and considers with
-Himself in His great heart if He will do it even yet. Oh, I know, I
-know!” cried the weeping girl, “some must die, and He considers long;
-but tell me He does not see me, does not hear me, is not sorry for
-me--how is He then my Father? No!” she said softly, rising from her
-knees and drying the tears from her face, “what I feel is that He is
-thinking it over again.”
-
-Madame de Mirfleur was half afraid of her daughter, thinking she was
-going out of her mind. She laid her hand on Reine’s shoulder with a
-soothing touch. “Chérie!” she said, “don’t you know it was all decided
-and settled before you were born, from the beginning of the world?”
-
-“Hush!” said Reine, in her excitement. “I can feel it even in the air.
-If our eyes were clear enough, we should see the angels waiting to know.
-I dare not pray any more, only to wait like the angels. He is
-considering. Oh! pray, pray!” the poor child cried, feverish and
-impassioned. She went out into the balcony and knelt down there, leaning
-her forehead against the wooden railing. The sky shone above with a
-thousand stars, the moon, which was late that night, had begun to throw
-upward from behind the pinnacles of snow, a rising whiteness, which made
-them gleam; the waterfall murmured softly in the silence; the pines
-joined in their continual cadence, and sent their aromatic odors like a
-breath of healing, in soft waves toward the sick man’s chamber. There
-was a stillness all about, as if, as poor Reine said, God himself was
-considering, weighing the balance of death or life. She did not look at
-the wonderful landscape around, or see or even feel its beauty. Her mind
-was too much absorbed--not praying, as she said, but fixed in one
-wonderful voiceless aspiration. This fervor and height of feeling died
-away after a time, and poor little Reine came back to common life,
-trembling with a thrill in all her nerves, and chilled with
-over-emotion, but yet calm, having got some strange gleam of
-encouragement, as she thought, from the soft air and the starry skies.
-
-“He is fast asleep,” she said to her mother when they parted for the
-night, with such a smile on her face as only comes after many tears, and
-the excitement of great suffering, “quite fast asleep, breathing like a
-child. He has not slept so before, almost for years.”
-
-“Poor child,” said Madame de Mirfleur, kissing her. She was not moved by
-Reine’s visionary hopes. She believed much more in the doctors, who had
-described to her often enough--for she was curious on such subjects--how
-Herbert’s disease had worked, and of the “perforations” that had taken
-place, and the “tissue that was destroyed.” She preferred to know the
-worst, she had always said, and she had a strange inquisitive relish for
-these details. She shook her head and cried a little, and said her
-prayers too with much more fervor than usual, after she parted from
-Reine. Poor Herbert, if he could live after all, how pleasant it would
-be! how sweet to take M. de Mirfleur and the children to her son’s
-château in England, and to get the good of his wealth. Ah! what would
-not she give for his life, her poor boy, her eldest, poor Austin’s
-child, whom indeed she had half forgotten, but who had always been so
-good to her! Madame de Mirfleur cried over the thought, and said her
-prayers fervently, with a warmer petition for Herbert than usual; but
-even as she prayed she shook her head; she had no faith in her own
-prayers. She was a French Protestant, and knew a great deal about
-theology, and perhaps had been shaken by the many controversies which
-she had heard. And accordingly she shook her head; to be sure, she said
-to herself, there was no doubt that God could do everything--but, as a
-matter of fact, it was evident that this was not an age of miracles; and
-how could we suppose that all the economy of heaven and earth could be
-stopped and turned aside, because one insignificant creature wished it!
-She shook her head; and I think whatever theory of prayer we may adopt,
-the warmest believer in its efficacy would scarcely expect any very
-distinct answer to such prayers as those of Madame de Mirfleur.
-
-Herbert and Reine Austin had been brought up almost entirely together
-from their earliest years. Partly from his delicate health and partly
-from their semi-French training, the boy and girl had not been separated
-as boys and girls generally are by the processes of education. Herbert
-had never been strong, and consequently had never been sent to school or
-college. He had had tutors from time to time, but as nobody near him was
-much concerned about his mental progress, and his life was always
-precarious, the boy was allowed to grow up, as girls sometimes are, with
-no formal education at all, but a great deal of reading; his only
-superiority in this point was, he knew after a fashion Latin and Greek,
-which Madame de Mirfleur and even Miss Susan Austin would have thought
-it improper to teach a girl; while she knew certain arts of the needle
-which it was beneath man’s dignity to teach a boy. Otherwise they had
-gone through the selfsame studies, read the same books, and mutually
-communicated to each other all they found therein. The affection between
-them, and their union, was thus of a quite special and peculiar
-character. Each was the other’s family concentrated in one. Their
-frequent separations from their mother and isolation by themselves at
-Whiteladies, where at first the two little brown French mice, as Miss
-Susan had called them, were but little appreciated, had thrown Reine and
-Herbert more and more upon each other for sympathy and companionship. To
-be sure, as they grew older they became by natural process of events the
-cherished darlings of Whiteladies, to which at first they were a trouble
-and oppression; but the aunts were old and they were young, and except
-Everard Austin, had no companions but each other. Then their mother’s
-marriage, which occurred when Herbert was about fourteen and his sister
-two years younger, gave an additional closeness, as of orphans
-altogether forsaken, to their union. Herbert was the one who took this
-marriage most easily. “If mamma likes it, it is no one else’s business,”
-he said with unusual animation when Miss Susan began to discuss the
-subject; it was not his fault, and Herbert had no intention of being
-brought to account for it. He took it very quietly, and had always been
-quite friendly to his stepfather, and heard of the birth of the children
-with equanimity. His feelings were not so intense as those of Reine; he
-was calm by nature, and illness had hushed and stilled him. Reine, on
-the other hand, was more shocked and indignant at this step on her
-mother’s part, than words can say. It forced her into precocious
-womanhood, so much did it go to her heart. To say that she hated the new
-husband and the new name which her mother had chosen, was little. She
-felt herself insulted by them, young as she was. The blood came hot to
-her face at the thought of the marriage, as if it had been something
-wrong--and her girlish fantastic delicacy never recovered the shock. It
-turned her heart from her mother who was no longer hers, and fixed it
-more and more upon Herbert, the only being in the world who was hers,
-and in whom she could trust fully. “But if I were to marry, too!” he
-said to her once, in some moment of gayer spirits. “It is natural that
-you should marry, not unnatural,” cried Reine; “it would be right, not
-wretched. I might not like it; probably I should not like it--but it
-would not change my ideal.” This serious result had happened in respect
-to her mother, who could no longer be Reine’s ideal, whatever might
-happen. The girl was so confused in consequence, and broken away from
-all landmarks, that she, and those who had charge of her, had anything
-but easy work in the days before Herbert’s malady declared itself. This
-had been the saving of Reine; she had devoted herself to her sick
-brother heart and soul, and the jar in her mind had ceased to
-communicate false notes to everything around.
-
-It was now two years since the malady which had hung over him all his
-life, had taken a distinct form; though even now, the doctors allowed,
-there were special points which made Herbert unlike other consumptive
-patients, and sometimes inclined a physician who saw him for the first
-time, to entertain doubts as to what the real cause of his sufferings
-was, and to begin hopefully some new treatment, which ended like all the
-rest in disappointment. He had been sent about from one place to
-another, to sea air, to mountain air, to soft Italian villas, to rough
-homes among the hills, and wherever he went Reine had gone with him. One
-Winter they had passed in the south of France, another on the shores of
-the Mediterranean just across the Italian border. Sometimes the two went
-together where English ladies were seldom seen, and where the girl half
-afraid, clinging to Herbert’s arm as long as he was able to keep up a
-pretence of protecting her, and protecting him when that pretence was
-over, had to live the homeliest life, with almost hardship in it, in
-order to secure good air or tending for him.
-
-This life had drawn them yet closer and closer together. They had read
-and talked together, and exchanged with each other all the eager,
-irrestrainable opinions of youth. Sometimes they would differ on a point
-and discuss it with that lively fulness of youthful talk which so often
-looks like eloquence; but more often the current of their thoughts ran
-in the same channel, as was natural with two so nearly allied. During
-all this time Reine had been subject to a sudden vertigo, by times, when
-looking at him suddenly, or recalled to it by something that was said or
-done, there would come to her, all at once, the terrible recollection
-that Herbert was doomed. But except for this and the miserable moments
-when a sudden conviction would seize her that he was growing worse, the
-time of Herbert’s illness was the most happy in Reine’s life. She had no
-one to find fault with her, no one to cross her in her ideas of right
-and wrong. She had no one to think of but Herbert, and to think of him
-and be with him had been her delight all her life. Except in the
-melancholy moments I have indicated, when she suddenly realized that he
-was going from her, Reine was happy; it is so easy to believe that the
-harm which is expected will not come, when it comes softly _au petit
-pas_--and so easy to feel that good is more probable than evil. She had
-even enjoyed their wandering, practising upon herself an easy deception;
-until the time came when Herbert’s strength had failed altogether, and
-Madame de Mirfleur had been sent for, and every melancholy preparation
-was made which noted that it was expected of him that now he should die.
-Poor Reine woke up suddenly out of the thoughtless happiness she had
-permitted herself to fall into; might she perhaps have done better for
-him had she always been dwelling upon his approaching end, and instead
-of snatching so many flowers of innocent pleasure on the road, had
-thought of nothing but the conclusion which now seemed to approach so
-rapidly? She asked herself this question sometimes, sitting in her
-little chamber behind her brother’s, and gazing at the snow-peaks where
-they stood out against the sky--but she did not know how to answer it.
-And in the meantime Herbert had grown more and more to be all in all to
-her, and she did not know how to give him up. Even now, at what
-everybody thought was his last stage, Reine was still ready to be
-assailed by those floods of hope which are terrible when they fail, as
-rapidly as they rose. Was this to be so? Was she to lose him, who was
-all in all to her? She said to herself, that to nurse him all her life
-long would be nothing--to give up all personal prospects and
-anticipations such as most girls indulge in would be nothing--nor that
-he should be ill always, spending his life in the dreary vicissitudes of
-sickness. Nothing, nothing! so long as he lived. She could bear all, be
-patient with everything, never grumble, never repine; indeed, these
-words seemed as idle words to the girl, who could think of nothing
-better or brighter than to nurse Herbert forever and be his perpetual
-companion.
-
-Without him her life shrank into a miserable confusion and nothingness.
-With him, however ill he might be, however weak, she had her certain and
-visible place in the world, her duties which were dear to her, and was
-to herself a recognizable existence; but without Herbert, Reine could
-not realize herself. To think, as her mother had suggested, of what
-would happen to her when he died, of the funeral, and the dismal
-desolation after, was impossible to her. Her soul sickened and refused
-to look at such depths of misery; but yet when, more vaguely, the idea
-of being left alone had presented itself to her, Reine had felt with a
-gasp of breathless anguish, that nothing of her except the very husk and
-rind of herself could survive Herbert. How could she live without him?
-To be the least thought of in her mother’s house, the last in it, yet
-not of it, disposed of by a man who was not her father, and whose very
-existence was an insult to her, and pushed aside by the children whom
-she never called brothers and sisters; it would not be she who should
-bear this, but some poor shell of her, some ghost who might bear her
-name.
-
-On the special night which we have just described, when the possibility
-of recovery for her brother again burst upon her, she sat up late with
-her window open, looking out upon the moonlight as it lighted up the
-snow-peaks. They stood round in a close circle, peak upon peak,
-noiseless as ghosts and as pale, abstracted, yet somehow looking to her
-excited imagination as if they put their great heads together in the
-silence, and murmured to each other something about Herbert. It seemed
-to Reine that the pines too were saying something, but that was sadder,
-and chilled her. Earth and heaven were full of Herbert, everything was
-occupied about him; which indeed suited well enough with that other
-fantastic frenzy of hers, that God was thinking it over again, and that
-there was a pause in all the elements of waiting, to know how it was to
-be. François, Herbert’s faithful servant, always sat up with him at
-night or slept in his room when the vigil was unnecessary, so that Reine
-was never called upon thus to exhaust her strength. She stole into her
-brother’s room again in the middle of the night before she went to bed.
-He was still asleep, sleeping calmly without any hardness of breathing,
-without any feverish flush on his cheek or exhausting moisture on his
-forehead. He was still and in perfect rest, so happy and comfortable
-that François had coiled himself upon his truckle-bed and slept as
-soundly as the invalid he was watching. Reine laid her hand upon
-Herbert’s forehead lightly, to feel how cool it was; he stirred a
-little, but no more than a child would, and by the light of the faint
-night-lamp, she saw that a smile came over his face like a ray of
-sunshine. After this she stole away back to her own room like a ghost,
-and dropped by the side of her little bed, unable to pray any longer,
-being exhausted--able to do nothing but weep, which she did in utter
-exhaustion of joy. God had considered, and He had found it could be
-done, and had pity upon her. So she concluded, poor child! and dropped
-asleep in her turn a little while after, helpless and feeble with
-happiness. Poor child! on so small a foundation can hope found itself
-and comfort come.
-
-On the same night Miss Susan went back again from Antwerp to London. She
-had a calm passage, which was well for her, for Miss Susan was not so
-sure that night of God’s protection as Reine was, nor could she appeal
-to Him for shelter against the wind and waves with the same confidence
-of being heard and taken care of as when she went from London to
-Antwerp. But happily the night was still, and the moon shining as bright
-and clear upon that great wayward strait, the Channel, as she did upon
-the noiseless whiteness of the Dolden-horn; and about the same hour when
-Reine fell asleep, her relation did also, lying somewhat nervous in her
-berth, and thinking that there was but a plank between her and eternity.
-She did not know of the happy change which Reine believed had taken
-place in the Alpine valley, any more than Reine knew in what darker
-transactions Miss Susan had become involved; and thus they met the
-future, one happy in wild hopes in what God had done for her, the other
-with a sombre confidence in what (she thought) she had managed for
-herself.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-
-“Reine, is it long since you heard from Aunt Susan? Look here, I don’t
-want her tender little notes to the invalid. I am tired of always
-recollecting that I am an invalid. When one is dying one has enough of
-it, without always being reminded in one’s correspondence. Is there no
-news? I want news. What does she say?”
-
-“She speaks only of the Farrel-Austins,--who had gone to see her,” said
-Reine, almost under her breath.
-
-“Ah!” Herbert too showed a little change of sentiment at this name. Then
-he laughed faintly. “I don’t know why I should mind,” he said; “every
-man has a next-of-kin, I suppose, an heir-at-law, though every man does
-not die before his time, like me. That’s what makes it unpleasant, I
-suppose. Well, what about Farrel-Austin, Reine? There is no harm in him
-that I know.”
-
-“There is great harm in him,” said Reine, indignantly; “why did he go
-there to insult them, to make them think? And I know there was something
-long ago that makes Aunt Susan hate him. She says Everard was there
-too--I think, with Kate and Sophy--”
-
-“And you do not like that either?” said Herbert, putting his hand upon
-hers and looking at her with a smile.
-
-“I do not mind,” said Reine sedately. “Why should I mind? I do not think
-they are very good companions for Everard,” she added, with that
-impressive look of mature wisdom which the most youthful countenance is
-fond of putting on by times; “but that is my only reason. He is not very
-settled in his mind.”
-
-“Are you settled in your mind, Reine?”
-
-“I? I have nothing to unsettle me,” she said with genuine surprise. “I
-am a girl; it is different. I can stop myself whenever I feel that I am
-going too far. You boys cannot stop yourselves,” Reine added, with the
-least little shake of her pretty head; “that makes frivolous companions
-so bad for Everard. He will go on and on without thinking.”
-
-“He is a next-of-kin, too,” said Herbert with a smile. “How strange a
-light it throws upon them all when one is dying! I wonder what they
-think about me, Reine? I wonder if they are always waiting, expecting
-every day to bring them the news? I daresay Farrel-Austin has settled
-exactly what he is to do, and the changes he will make in the old house.
-He will be sure to make changes, if only to show that he is the master.
-The first great change of all will be when the White ladies themselves
-have to go away. Can you believe in the house without Aunt Susan, Reine?
-I think, for my part, it will drop to pieces, and Augustine praying
-against the window like a saint in painted glass. Do you know where they
-mean to go?”
-
-“Herbert! you kill me when you ask me such questions.”
-
-“Because they all imply my own dying?” said Herbert. “Yes, my queen, I
-know. But just for the fun of the thing, tell me what do you think
-Farrel means to do? Will he meddle with the old almshouses, and show
-them all that _he_ is Lord of the Manor and nobody else? or will he
-grudge the money and let Augustine keep possession of the family
-charities? That is what I think; he is fond of his money, and of making
-a good show with it, not feeding useless poor people. But then if he
-leaves the almshouses to her undisturbed, where will Augustine go? By
-Jove!” said Herbert, striking his feeble hand against his couch with the
-energy of a new idea, “I should not be in the least surprised if she
-went and lived at the almshouses herself, like one of her own poor
-people; she would think, poor soul, that that would please God. I am
-more sorry for Aunt Susan,” he added after a pause, “for she is not so
-simple; and she has been the Squire so long, how will she ever bear to
-abdicate? It will be hard upon her, Reine.”
-
-Reine had turned away her head to conceal the bitter tears of
-disappointment that had rushed to her eyes. She had been so sure that he
-was better--and to be thus thrown back all at once upon this talk about
-his death was more than she could bear.
-
-“Don’t cry, dear,” he said, “I am only discussing it for the fun of the
-thing; and to tell you the truth, Reine, I am keeping the chief point of
-the joke to myself all this time. I don’t know what you will think when
-I tell you--”
-
-“What, Bertie, what?”
-
-“Don’t be so anxious; I daresay it is utter nonsense. Lean down your ear
-that I may whisper; I am half-ashamed to say it aloud. Reine, hush!
-listen! Somehow I have got a strange feeling, just for a day or two,
-that I am not going to die at all, but to live.”
-
-“I am sure of it,” cried the girl, falling on her knees and throwing her
-arms round him. “I know it! It was last night. God did not make up His
-mind till last night. I felt it in the air. I felt it everywhere. Some
-angel put it into my head. For all this time I have been making up my
-mind, and giving you up, Bertie, till yesterday; something put it into
-my head--the thought was not mine, or I would not have any faith in it.
-Something said to me, God is thinking it all over again. Oh, I know! He
-would not let them tell you and me both unless it was true.”
-
-“Do you think so, Reine? do you really think so?” said the sick boy--for
-he was but a boy--with a sudden dew in his large liquid exhausted eyes.
-“I thought you would laugh at me--no, of course, I don’t mean laugh--but
-think it a piece of folly. I thought it must be nonsense myself; but do
-you really, really think so too?”
-
-The only answer she could make was to kiss him, dashing off her tears
-that they might not come upon his face; and the two kept silent for a
-moment, two young faces, close together, pale, one with emotion, the
-other with weakness, half-angelic in their pathetic youthfulness and the
-inspiration of this sudden hope, smiles upon their lips, tears in their
-eyes, and the trembling of a confidence too ethereal for common
-mortality in the two hearts that beat so close together. There was
-something even in the utter unreasonableness of their hope which made it
-more touching, more pathetic still. The boy was less moved than the girl
-in his weakness, and in the patience which that long apprenticeship to
-dying had taught him. It was not so much to him who was going as to her
-who must remain.
-
-“If it should be so,” he said after awhile, almost in a whisper, “oh,
-how good we ought to be, Reine! If I failed of my duty, if I did not do
-what God meant me to do in everything, if I took to thinking of
-myself--then it would be better that things had gone on--as they are
-going.”
-
-“As they were going, Bertie!”
-
-“You think so, really; you think so? Don’t just say it for my feelings,
-for I don’t mind. I was quite willing, you know, Reine.”
-
-Poor boy! already he had put his willingness in the past, unawares.
-
-“Bertie,” she said solemnly, “I don’t know if you believe in the angels
-like me. Then tell me how this is; sometimes I have a thought in the
-morning which was not there at night; sometimes when I have been
-puzzling and wondering what to do--about you, perhaps, about mamma,
-about one of the many, many things,” said Reine, with a celestial face
-of grave simplicity, “which perplex us in life,--and all at once I have
-had a thought which made everything clear. One moment quite in the dark,
-not seeing what to do; and the next, with a thought that made everything
-clear. Now, how did that come, Bertie? tell me. Not from me--it was put
-into my head, just as you pull my dress, or touch my arm, and whisper
-something to me in the dark. I always believe in things that are like
-this, _put into my head_.”
-
-Was it wonderful that the boy was easy to convince by this fanciful
-argument, and took Reine’s theory very seriously? He was in a state of
-weakened life and impassioned hope, when the mind is very open to such
-theories. When the mother came in to hear that Herbert was much better,
-and that he meant to go out in his wheeled-chair in the afternoon, even
-she could scarcely guard herself against a gleam of hope. He was
-certainly better. “For the moment, chérie,” she said to Reine, who
-followed her out anxiously to have her opinion; “for the moment, yes, he
-is better; but we cannot look for anything permanent. Do not deceive
-yourself, ma Reine. It is not to be so.”
-
-“Why is it not to be so? when I am sure it is to be so; it shall be so!”
-cried Reine.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur shook her head. “These rallyings are often very
-deceitful,” she said. “Often, as I told you, they mean only that the end
-is very near. Almost all those who die of lingering chronic illness,
-like our poor dear, have a last blaze-up in the socket, as it were,
-before the end. Do not trust to it; do not build any hopes upon it,
-Reine.”
-
-“But I do; but I will!” the girl said under her breath, with a shudder.
-When her mother went into those medical details, which she was fond of,
-Reine shrank always, as if from a blow.
-
-“Yet it is possible that it might be more than a momentary rally,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur. “I am disposed almost to hope so. The perforation
-may be arrested for the time by this beautiful air and the scent of the
-pines. God grant it! The doctors have always said it was possible. We
-must take the greatest care, especially of his nourishment, Reine; and
-if I leave you for a little while alone with him--” “Are you going away,
-mamma?” said Reine, with a guilty thrill of pleasure which she rebuked
-and heartily tried to cast out from her mind; for had she not pledged
-herself to be good, to bear everything, never to suffer a thought that
-was unkind to enter her mind, if only Herbert might recover? She dared
-not risk that healing by permitting within her any movement of feeling
-that was less than tender and kind. She stopped accordingly and changed
-her tone, and repeated with eagerness, “Mamma, do you think of going
-away?” Madame de Mirfleur felt that there was a difference in the tone
-with which these two identical sentences were spoken; but she was not
-nearly enough in sympathy with her daughter to divine what that
-difference meant.
-
-“If Herbert continues to get better--and if the doctor thinks well of
-him when he comes to-morrow, I think I will venture to return home for a
-little while, to see how everything is going on.” Madame de Mirfleur was
-half apologetic in her tone. “I am not like you, Reine,” she said,
-kissing her daughter’s cheek, “I have so many things to think of; I am
-torn in so many pieces; dear Herbert here; the little ones lá-bas; and
-my husband. What a benediction of God is this relief in the midst of our
-anxiety, if it will but last! Chérie, if the doctor thinks as we do, I
-will leave you with François to take care of my darling boy, while I go
-and see that all is going well in Normandy. See! I was afraid to hope;
-and now your hope, ma Reine, has overcome me and stolen into my heart.”
-
-Yesterday this speech would have roused one of the devils who tempted
-her in Reine’s thoughts--and even now the evil impulse swelled upward
-and struggled for the mastery, whispering that Madame de Mirfleur was
-thinking more of the home “lá-bas,” than of poor Herbert; that she was
-glad to seize the opportunity to get away, and a hundred other evil
-things. Reine grew crimson, her mother could not tell why. It was with
-her a struggle, poor child, to overcome this wicked thought and to cast
-from her mind all interpretations of her mother’s conduct except the
-kindest one. The girl grew red with the effort she made to hold fast by
-her pledge and resist all temptation. It was better to let her mind be a
-blank without thought at all, than to allow evil thoughts to come in
-after she had promised to God to abandon them.
-
-I do not think Reine had any idea that she was paying a price for
-Herbert’s amendment by “being good,” as she had vowed in her simplicity
-to be. It was gratitude, profound and trembling, that the innocent soul
-within her longed to express by this means; but still I think all
-unawares she had a feeling--which made her determination to be good
-still more pathetically strong--that perhaps if God saw her gratitude
-and her purpose fail, He might be less disposed to continue His great
-blessings to one so forgetful of them. Thus, as constantly happens in
-human affairs, the generous sense of gratitude longing to express
-itself, mingled with that secret fear of being found wanting, which lies
-at the bottom of every heart. Reine could not disentangle them any more
-than I can, or any son of Adam; but fortunately, she was less aware of
-the mixture than we are who look on.
-
-“Yes mamma,” she answered at length, with a meekness quite unusual to
-her, “I am sure you must want to see the little ones; it is only
-natural.” This was all that Reine could manage to stammer forth.
-
-“N’est ce pas?” said the mother pleased, though she could not read her
-daughter’s thoughts, with this acknowledgment of the rights and claims
-of her other children. Madame de Mirfleur loved to _ménager_, and was
-fond of feeling herself to be a woman disturbed with many diverse cares,
-and generally sacrificing herself to some one of them; but she had a
-great deal of natural affection, and was glad to have something like a
-willing assent on the part of her troublesome girl to the “other ties,”
-which she was herself too much disposed to bring in on all occasions.
-She kissed Reine very affectionately; and went off again to write to her
-husband a description of the change.
-
-“He is better, unquestionably better,” she said. “At first I feared it
-was the last gleam before the end; but I almost hope now it may be
-something more lasting. Ah, if my poor Herbert be but spared, what a
-benediction for all of us, and his little brothers and sisters! I know
-you will not be jealous, mon cher ami, of my love for my boy. If the
-doctor thinks well I shall leave this frightful village to-morrow, and
-be with thee as quickly as I can travel. What happiness, bon Dieu, to
-see our own house again!” She added in a P.S., “Reine is very amiable to
-me; hope and happiness, mon ami, are better for some natures than
-sorrow. She is so much softer and humbler since her brother was better.”
-Poor Reine! Thus it will be perceived that Madame de Mirfleur, like most
-of her nation, was something of a philosopher too.
-
-When Reine was left alone she did not even then make any remark to
-herself upon mamma’s eagerness to get away to her children, whose very
-names on ordinary occasions the girl disliked to hear. To punish and to
-school herself now she recalled them deliberately; Jeannot and Camille
-and little Babette, all French to their finger-tips, spoilt children,
-whose ears the English sister, herself trained in nursery proprieties
-under Miss Susan’s rule, had longed to box many times. She resolved now
-to buy some of the carved wood which haunts the traveller at every
-corner in Switzerland, for them, and be very good to them when she saw
-them again. Oh, how good Reine meant to be! Tender visions of an ideal
-purity arose in her mind. Herbert and she--the one raised from the brink
-of the grave, the other still more blessed in receiving him from that
-shadow of death--how could they ever be good enough, gentle enough, kind
-enough, to show their gratitude? Reine’s young soul seemed to float in a
-very heaven of gentler meanings, of peace with all men, of charity and
-tenderness. Never, she vowed to herself, should poor man cross her path
-without being the better for it; never a tear fall that she could dry.
-Herbert, when she went to him, was much of the same mind. He had begun
-to believe in himself and in life, with all those unknown blessings
-which the boy had sweetly relinquished, scarcely knowing them, but which
-now seemed to come back fluttering about his head on sunny wings, like
-the swallows returning with the Summer.
-
-Herbert was younger even than his years, in heart, at least--in
-consequence of his long ill health and seclusion, and the entire
-retirement from a boy’s ordinary pursuits which that had made necessary;
-and I do not think that he had ever ventured to realize warmly, as in
-his feebleness he was now doing, through that visionary tender light
-which is the prerogative of youth, all the beauty and brightness and
-splendor of life. Heretofore he had turned his eyes from it, knowing
-that his doom had gone forth, and with a gentle philosophy avoided the
-sight of that which he could never enjoy. But lo! now, an accidental
-improvement, or what might prove an accidental improvement, acting upon
-a fantastic notion of Reine’s, had placed him all at once, to his own
-consciousness, in the position of a rescued man. He was not much like a
-man rescued, but rather one trembling already at the gates of death, as
-he crept downstairs on François’s arm to his chair. The other travellers
-in the place stood by respectfully to let him pass, and lingered after
-he had passed, looking after him with pity and low comments to each
-other. “Not long for this world,” said one and another, shaking their
-heads; while Herbert, poor fellow, feeling his wheel-chair to be
-something like a victor’s car, held his sister’s hand as they went
-slowly along the road toward the waterfall, and talked to her of what
-they should do when they got home. It might have been heaven they were
-going to instead of Whiteladies, so bright were their beautiful young
-resolutions, their innocent plans. They meant, you may be sure, to make
-a heaven on earth of their Berkshire parish, to turn Whiteladies into a
-celestial palace and House Beautiful, and to be good as two children, as
-good as angels. How beautiful to them was the village road, the mountain
-stream running strong under the bridge, the waves washing on the pebbly
-edge, the heather and herbage that encroached upon the smoothness of the
-way! “We must not go to the waterfall; it is too far and the road is
-rough; but we will rest here a little, where the air comes through the
-pines. It is as pretty here as anywhere,” said Reine. “Pretty! you mean
-it is beautiful; everything is beautiful,” said Herbert, who had not
-been out of doors before since his arrival, lying back in his chair and
-looking at the sky, across which some flimsy cloudlets were floating. It
-chilled Reine somehow in the midst of her joy, to see how naturally his
-eyes turned to the sky.
-
-“Never mind the clouds, Bertie dear,” she said hastily, “look down the
-valley, how beautiful it is; or let François turn the chair round, and
-then you can see the mountains.”
-
-“Must I give up the sky then as if I had nothing more to do with it?”
-said Herbert with a boyish, pleasant laugh. Even this speech made Reine
-tremble; for might not God perhaps think that they were taking Him too
-quickly at His word and making too sure?
-
-“The great thing,” she said, eluding the question, “is to be near the
-pines; everybody says the pines are so good. Let them breathe upon you,
-Bertie, and make you strong.”
-
-“At their pleasure,” said Herbert, smiling and turning his pale head
-toward the strong trees, murmuring with odorous breath overhead. The
-sunshine glowed and burned upon their great red trunks, and the dark
-foliage which stood close and gave forth no reflection. The bees filled
-the air with a continuous hum, which seemed the very voice of the warm
-afternoon, of the sunshine which brought forth every flimsy insect and
-grateful flower among the grass. Herbert sat listening in silence for
-some time, in that beatitude of gentle emotion which after danger is
-over is so sweet to the sufferer. “Sing me something, Reine,” he said at
-last, in the caprice of that delightful mood.
-
-Reine was seated on a stone by the side of the road, with a broad hat
-shading her eyes, and a white parasol over her head. She did not wait to
-be asked a second time. What would not she have done at Herbert’s wish?
-She looked at him tenderly where he sat in his chair under the shadow of
-a kindly pine which seemed to have stepped out of the wood on
-purpose--and without more ado began to sing. Many a time had she sang to
-him when her heart was sick to death, and it took all her strength to
-form the notes; but to-day Reine’s soul was easy and at home, and she
-could put all her heart into it. She sang the little air that Everard
-Austin had whistled as he came through the green lanes toward
-Whiteladies, making Miss Susan’s heart glad:
-
- “Ce que je désire, et que j’aime,
- C’est toujours toi,
- De mon âme le bien suprême
- C’est encore toi, c’est encore toi.”
-
-Some village children came and made a little group around them
-listening, and the tourists in the village, much surprised, gathered
-about the bridge to listen too, wondering. Reine did not mind; she was
-singing to Herbert, no one else; and what did it matter who might be
-near?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-
-Herbert continued much better next day. It had done him good to be out,
-and already François, with that confidence in all simple natural
-remedies which the French, and indeed all continental nations, have so
-much more strongly than we, asserted boldly that it was the pines which
-had already done so much for his young master. I do not think that Reine
-and Herbert, being half English, had much faith in the pines. They
-referred the improvement at once, and directly, to a higher hand, and
-were glad, poor children, to think that no means had been necessary, but
-that God had done it simply by willing it, in that miraculous simple way
-which seems so natural to the primitive soul. The doctor, when he came
-next day upon his weekly visit from Thun or Interlaken, was entirely
-taken by surprise. I believe that from week to week he had scarcely
-expected to see his patient living; and now he was up, and out, coming
-back to something like appetite and ease, and as full of hope as youth
-could be. The doctor shook his head, but was soon infected, like the
-others, by this atmosphere of hopefulness. He allowed that a wonderful
-progress had been made; that there always were special circumstances in
-this case which made it unlike other cases, and left a margin for
-unexpected results. And when Madame de Mirfleur took him aside to ask
-about the state of the tissue, and whether the perforations were
-arrested, he still said, though with hesitation and shakings of the
-head, that he could not say that it might not be the beginning of a
-permanent favorable turn in the disease, or that healing processes might
-not have set in. “Such cases are very unlikely,” he said. “They are of
-the nature of miracles, and we are very reluctant to believe in them;
-but still at M. Austin’s age, it is impossible to deny that results
-utterly unexpected happen sometimes. Sometimes, at rare intervals; and
-no one can calculate upon them. It might be that it was really the
-commencement of a permanent improvement; and nothing can be better for
-him than the hopeful state of mind in which he is.”
-
-“Then, M. le docteur,” said Madame de Mirfleur, anxiously, “you think I
-may leave him? You think I may go and visit my husband and my little
-ones, for a little time--a very little time--without fear?”
-
-“Nothing is impossible,” said the doctor, “nor can I guarantee anything
-till we see how M. Austin goes on. If the improvement continues for a
-week or two--”
-
-“But I shall be back in a week or two,” said the woman, whose heart was
-torn asunder, in a tone of dismay; and at length she managed to extort
-from the doctor something which she took for a permission. It was not
-that she loved Herbert less--but perhaps it was natural that she should
-love the babies, and the husband whose name she bore, and who had
-separated her from the life to which the other family belonged--more.
-Madame de Mirfleur did not enter into any analysis of her feelings, as
-she hurried in a flutter of pleasant excitement to pack her necessaries
-for the home journey. Reine, always dominated by that tremulous
-determination to do good at any cost, carefully refrained also, but with
-more difficulty, from any questioning with herself about her mother’s
-sentiments. She made the best of it to Herbert, who was somewhat
-surprised that his mother should leave him, having acquired that
-confidence of the sick in the fact of their own importance, to which
-everything must give way. He was not wounded, being too certain, poor
-boy, of being the first object in his little circle, but he was
-surprised.
-
-“Reflect, Herbert, mamma has other people to think of. There are the
-little ones; little children are constantly having measles, and colds,
-and indigestions; and then, M. de Mirfleur--”
-
-“I thought you disliked to think of M. de Mirfleur, Reine?”
-
-“Ah! so I do; but, Bertie, I have been very unkind, I have hated him,
-and been angry with mamma, without reason. It seems to be natural to
-some people to marry,” said the girl, after a pause, “and we ought not
-to judge them; it is not wrong to wish that one’s mother belonged to
-one, that she did not belong to other people, is it? But that is all.
-Mamma thought otherwise. Bertie, we were little, and we were so much
-away in England. Six months in the year, fancy, and then she must have
-been lonely. We do not take these things into account when we are
-children,” said Reine; “but after, when we can think, many things become
-clear.”
-
-It was thus with a certain grandeur of indulgence and benevolence that
-the two young people saw their mother go away. That she should have a
-husband and children at all was a terrible infringement of the ideal,
-and brought her down unquestionably to a lower level in their primitive
-world; but granting the husband and the children, as it was necessary to
-do, no doubt she had, upon that secondary level, a certain duty to them.
-They bade her good-bye tenderly, their innate disapproval changing, with
-their altered moral view, from irritation and disappointment into a
-condescending sweetness. “Poor mamma! I do not see that it was possible
-for her to avoid going,” Reine said; and perhaps, after all, it was this
-disapproved of, and by no means ideal mother, who felt the separation
-most keenly when the moment came. When a woman takes a second life upon
-her, no doubt she must resign herself to give up something of the
-sweetness of the first; and it would be demanding too much of human
-nature to expect that the girl and boy, who were fanciful and even
-fantastic in their poetical and visionary youth, could be as reverent of
-mother as if she had altogether belonged to them. Men and women, I fear,
-will never be equal in this world, were all conventional and outside
-bonds removed to-morrow. The widower-father does not descend from any
-pedestal when he forms what Madame de Mirfleur called “new ties,” as
-does the widow-mother; and it will be a strange world, when, if ever, we
-come to expect no more from women than we do from men; it being granted,
-sure enough, that in other ways more is to be expected from men than
-from women. Herbert sat in his chair on the balcony to see her go away,
-smiling and waving his thin hand to his mother; and Reine, at the
-carriage-door, kissed her blandly, and watched her drive off with a
-tender, patronizing sense that was quite natural. But the mother, poor
-woman, though she was eager to get away, and had “other ties” awaiting
-her, looked at them through eyes half blinded with tears, and felt a
-pang of inferiority of which she had never before been sensible. She was
-not an ideal personage, but she felt, without knowing how, the loss of
-her position, and that descent from the highest, by which she had
-purchased her happiness.
-
-These momentary sensations would be a great deal more hard upon us if we
-could define them to ourselves, as you and I, dear reader, can define
-them when we see them thus going on before us; but fortunately few
-people have the gift to do this in their own case. So that Madame de
-Mirfleur only knew that her heart was wrung with pain to leave her boy,
-who might be dying still, notwithstanding his apparent improvement. And,
-by-and-by, as her home became nearer, and Herbert farther off, the
-balance turned involuntarily, and she felt only how deep must be her own
-maternal tenderness when the pang of leaving Herbert could thus
-overshadow her pleasure in the thought of meeting all the rest.
-
-Reine came closer to her brother when she went back to him, with a sense
-that if she had not been trying with all her might to be good, she would
-have felt injured and angry at her mother’s desertion. “I don’t know so
-much as mamma, but I know how to take care of you, Bertie,” she said,
-smoothing back the hair from his forehead with that low caressing coo of
-tenderness which mothers use to their children.
-
-“You have always been my nurse, Reine,” he said gratefully,--then after
-a pause--“and by-and-by I mean to require no nursing, but to take care
-of you.”
-
-And thus they went out again, feeling half happy, half forsaken, but
-gradually grew happier and happier, as once more the air from the pines
-blew about Herbert’s head; and he got out of his chair on François’s arm
-and walked into the wood, trembling a little in his feebleness, but glad
-beyond words, and full of infinite hope. It was the first walk he had
-taken, and Reine magnified it, till it came to look, as Bertie said, as
-if he had crossed the pass without a guide, and was the greatest
-pedestrian in all the Kanderthal. He sat up to dinner, after a rest; and
-how they laughed over it, and talked, projecting expeditions of every
-possible and impossible kind, to which the Gemmi was nothing, and
-feeling their freedom from all comment, and happy privilege of being as
-foolish as they pleased! Grave François even smiled at them as he served
-their simple meal; “Enfants!” he said, as they burst into soft peals of
-laughter--unusual and delicious laughter, which had sounded so sick and
-faint in the chamber to which death seemed always approaching. They had
-the heart to laugh now, these two young creatures, alone in the world.
-But François did not object to their laughter, or think it indecorous,
-by reason of the strong faith he had in the pines, which seemed to him,
-after so many things that had been tried in vain, at last the real cure.
-
-Thus they went on for a week or more, after Madame de Mirfleur left
-them, as happy as two babies, doing (with close regard to Herbert’s
-weakness and necessities) what seemed good in their own eyes--going out
-daily, sitting in the balcony, watching the parties of pilgrims who came
-and went, amusing themselves (now that the French mother was absent,
-before whom neither boy nor girl would betray that their English
-country-folks were less than perfect) over the British tourists with
-their alpenstocks. Such of these same tourists as lingered in the valley
-grew very tender of the invalid and his sister, happily unaware that
-Reine laughed at them. They said to each other, “He is looking much
-better,” and, “What a change in a few days!” and, “Please God, the poor
-young fellow will come round after all.” The ladies would have liked to
-go and kiss Reine, and God bless her for a good girl devoted to her sick
-brother; and the men would have been fain to pat Herbert on the
-shoulder, and bid him keep a good heart, and get well, to reward his
-pretty sister, if for nothing else; while all the time the boy and girl,
-Heaven help them, made fun of the British tourists from their balcony,
-and felt themselves as happy as the day was long, fear and the shadow of
-death having melted quite away.
-
-I am loath to break upon this gentle time, or show how their hopes came
-to nothing; or at least sank for the time in deeper darkness than ever.
-One sultry afternoon the pair sallied forth with the intention of
-staying in the pine-wood a little longer than usual, as Herbert daily
-grew stronger. It was very hot, not a leaf astir, and insupportable in
-the little rooms, where all the walls were baked, and the sun blazing
-upon the closed shutters. Once under the pines, there would be nature
-and air, and there they could stay till the sun was setting; for no harm
-could come to the tenderest invalid on such a day. But as the afternoon
-drew on, ominous clouds appeared over the snow of the hills, and before
-preparations could be made to meet it, one of the sudden storms of
-mountainous countries broke upon the Kanderthal. Deluges of rain swept
-down from the sky, an hour ago so blue, rain, and hail in great solid
-drops like stones beating against the wayfarer. When it was discovered
-that the brother and sister were out of doors, the little inn was in an
-immediate commotion. One sturdy British tourist, most laughable of all,
-who had just returned with a red face, peeled and smarting, from a long
-walk in the sun, rushed at the only mule that was to be had, and
-harnessed it himself, wildly swearing (may it be forgiven him!)
-unintelligible oaths, into the only covered vehicle in the place, and
-lashed the brute into a reluctant gallop, jolting on the shaft or
-running by the side in such a state of redness and moisture as is
-possible only to an Englishman of sixteen-stone weight. They huddled
-Herbert, faintly smiling his thanks, and Reine, trembling and drenched,
-and deadly pale, into the rude carriage, and jolted them back over the
-stony road, the British tourist rushing on in advance to order brandy
-and water enough to have drowned Herbert. But, alas! the harm was done.
-It is a long way to Thun from the Kanderthal, but the doctor was sent
-for, and the poor lad had every attention that in such a place it was
-possible to give him. Reine went back to her seat by the bedside with a
-change as from life to death in her face. She would not believe it when
-the doctor spoke to her, gravely shaking his head once more, and advised
-that her mother should be sent for. “You must not be alone,” he said,
-looking at her pitifully, and in his heart wondering what kind of stuff
-the mother was made of who could leave such a pair of children in such
-circumstances. He had taken Reine out of the room to say this to her,
-and to add that he would himself telegraph, as soon as he got back to
-Thun, for Madame de Mirfleur. “One cannot tell what may happen within
-the next twenty-four hours,” said the doctor, “and you must not be
-alone.” Then poor Reine’s pent-up soul burst forth. What was the use of
-being good, of trying so hard, so hard! as she had done, to make the
-best of everything, to blame no one, to be tender, and kind, and
-charitable? She had tried, O Heaven, with all her heart and might; and
-this was what it had come back to again!
-
-“Oh, don’t! don’t!” she cried, in sharp anguish. “No; let me have him
-all to myself. I love him. No one else does. Oh, let her alone! She has
-her husband and her children. She was glad when my Bertie was better,
-that she might go to them. Why should she come back now? What is he to
-her? the last, the farthest off, less dear than the baby, not half so
-much to her as her house and her husband, and all the new things she
-cares for. But he is everything to me, all I have, and all I want. Oh,
-let us alone! let us alone!”
-
-“Dear young lady,” said the compassionate doctor, “your grief is too
-much for you; you don’t know what you say.”
-
-“Oh, I know! I know!” cried Reine. “She was glad he was better, that she
-might go; that was all she thought of. Don’t send for her; I could not
-bear to see her. She will say she knew it all the time, and blame you
-for letting her go--though you know she longed to go. Oh, let me have
-him to myself! I care for nothing else--nothing--now--nothing in the
-world!”
-
-“You must not say so; you will kill yourself,” said the doctor.
-
-“Oh, I wish, I wish I could; that would be the best. If _you_ would only
-kill me with Bertie! but you have not the courage--you dare not. Then,
-doctor, leave us together--leave us alone, brother and sister. I have no
-one but him, and he has no one but me. Mamma is married; she has others
-to think of; leave my Bertie to me. I know how to nurse him, doctor,”
-said Reine, clasping her hands. “I have always done it, since I was _so_
-high; he is used to me, and he likes me best. Oh, let me have him all to
-myself!”
-
-These words went to the hearts of those who heard them; and, indeed,
-there were on the landing several persons waiting who heard them--some
-English ladies, who had stopped in their journey out of pity to “be of
-use to the poor young creature,” they said; and the landlady of the inn,
-who was waiting outside to hear how Herbert was. The doctor, who was a
-compassionate man, as doctors usually are, gave them what satisfaction
-he could; but that was very small. He said he would send for the mother,
-of course; but, in the meantime, recommended that no one should
-interfere with Reine unless “something should happen.” “Do you think it
-likely anything should happen before you come back?” asked one of the
-awe-stricken women. But the doctor only shook his head, and said he
-could answer for nothing; but that in case anything happened, one of
-them should take charge of Reine. More than one kind-hearted stranger in
-the little inn kept awake that night, thinking of the poor forlorn girl
-and dying boy, whose touching union had been noted by all the village.
-The big Englishman who had brought them home out of the storm, cried
-like a baby in the coffee-room as he told to some new-comers how Reine
-had sat singing songs to her brother, and how the poor boy had mended,
-and began to look like life again. “If it had not been for this accursed
-storm!” cried the good man, upon which one of the new arrivals rebuked
-him. There was little thought of in the village that night but the two
-young Englanders, without their mother, or a friend near them. But when
-the morning came, Herbert still lived; he lived through that dreary day
-upon the little strength he had acquired during his temporary
-improvement. During this terrible time Reine would not leave him except
-by moments now and then, when she would go out on the balcony and look
-up blank and tearless to the skies, which were so bright again. Ah! why
-were they bright, after all the harm was done? Had they covered
-themselves with clouds, it would have been more befitting, after all
-they had brought about. I cannot describe the misery in Reine’s heart.
-It was something more, something harder and more bitter than grief. She
-had a bewildered sense that God Himself had wronged her, making her
-believe something which He did not mean to come true. How could she
-pray? She had prayed once, and had been answered, she thought, and then
-cast aside, and all her happiness turned into woe. If He had said No at
-first it would have been hard enough, but she could have borne it; but
-He had seemed to grant, and then had withdrawn the blessing; He had
-mocked her with a delusive reply. Poor Reine felt giddy in the world,
-having lost the centre of it, the soul of it, the God to whom she could
-appeal. She had cast herself rashly upon this ordeal by fire, staked her
-faith of every day, her child’s confidence, upon a miracle, and, holding
-out her hand for it, had found it turn to nothing. She stood dimly
-looking out from the balcony on the third night after Herbert’s relapse.
-The stars were coming out in the dark sky, and to anybody but Reine, who
-observed nothing external, the wind was cold. She stood in a kind of
-trance, saying nothing, feeling the wind blow upon her with the scent of
-the pines, which made her sick; and the stars looked coldly at her,
-friends no longer, but alien inquisitive lights peering out of an
-unfriendly heaven. Herbert lay in an uneasy sleep, weary and restless
-as are the dying, asking in his dreams to be raised up, to have the
-window opened, to get more air. Restless, too, with the excitement upon
-her of what was coming, she had wandered out, blank to all external
-sounds and sights, not for the sake of the air, but only to relieve the
-misery which nothing relieved. She did not even notice the carriage
-coming along the darkening road, which the people at the inn were
-watching eagerly, hoping that it brought the mother. Reine was too much
-exhausted by this time to think even of her mother. She was still
-standing in the same attitude, neither hearing nor noticing, when the
-carriage drew up at the door. The excitement of the inn people had
-subsided, for it had been apparent for some time that the inmate of the
-carriage was a man. He jumped lightly down at the door, a young man
-light of step and of heart, but paused, and looked up at the figure in
-the balcony, which stood so motionless, seeming to watch him. “Ah,
-Reine! is it you? I came off at once to congratulate you,” he said, in
-his cheery English voice. It was Everard Austin, who had heard of
-Herbert’s wonderful amendment, and had come on at once, impulsive and
-sanguine, to take part in their joy. That was more in his way than
-consoling suffering, though he had a kind heart.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-
-Miss Susan’s absence from home had been a very short one--she left and
-returned within the week; and during this time matters went on very
-quietly at Whiteladies. The servants had their own way in most
-things--they gave Miss Augustine her spare meals when they pleased,
-though Martha, left in charge, stood over her to see that she ate
-something. But Stevens stood upon no ceremony--he took off his coat and
-went into the garden, which was his weakness, and there enjoyed a
-carnival of digging and dibbling, until the gardener grumbled, who was
-not disposed to have his plants meddled with.
-
-“He has been a touching of my geraniums,” said this functionary; “what
-do he know about a garden? Do you ever see me a poking of myself into
-the pantry a cleaning of his spoons?”
-
-“No, bless you,” said the cook; “nobody don’t see you a putting of your
-hand to work as you ain’t forced to. You know better, Mr. Smithers.”
-
-“That ain’t it, that ain’t it,” said Smithers, somewhat discomfited; and
-he went out forthwith, and made an end of the amateur. “Either it’s my
-garden, or it ain’t,” said the man of the spade; “if it is, you’ll get
-out o’ that in ten minutes’ time. I can’t be bothered with fellers here
-as don’t know the difference between a petuniar and a nasty choking
-rubbish of a bindweed.”
-
-“You might speak a little more civil to them as helps you,” said
-Stevens, humbled by an unfortunate mistake he had made; but still not
-without some attempt at self-assertion.
-
-“Help! you wait till I asks you for your help,” said the gardener. And
-thus Stevens was driven back to his coat, his pantry, and the
-proprieties of life, before Miss Susan’s return.
-
-As for Augustine, she gathered her poor people round her in the
-almshouse chapel every morning, and said her prayers among the
-pensioners, whom she took so much pains to guide in their devotion, for
-the benefit of her family and the expiation of their sins. The poor
-people in the almshouses were not perhaps more pious than any other
-equal number of people in the village; but they all hobbled to their
-seats in the chapel, and said their Amens, led by Josiah Tolladay--who
-had been parish clerk in his day, and pleased himself in this shadow of
-his ancient office--with a certain fervor. Some of them grumbled, as who
-does not grumble at a set duty, whatever it may be? but I think the
-routine of the daily service was rather a blessing to most of them,
-giving them a motive for exerting themselves, for putting on clean caps,
-and brushing their old coats. The almshouses lay near the entrance of
-the village of St. Austin’s, a square of old red-brick houses, built two
-hundred years ago, with high dormer windows, and red walls, mellowed
-into softness by age. They had been suffered to fall into decay by
-several generations of Austins, but had been restored to thorough repair
-and to their original use by Miss Augustine, who had added a great many
-conveniences and advantages, unthought of in former days, to the little
-cottages, and had done everything that could be done to make the lives
-of her beadsmen and beadswomen agreeable. She was great herself on the
-duty of self-denial, fasted much, and liked to punish her delicate and
-fragile outer woman, which, poor soul, had little strength to spare; but
-she petted her pensioners, and made a great deal of their little
-ailments, and kept the cook at Whiteladies constantly occupied for them,
-making dainty dishes to tempt the appetites of old humbugs of both
-sexes, who could eat their own plain food very heartily when this kind
-and foolish lady was out of the way. She was so ready to indulge them,
-that old Mrs. Tolladay was quite right in calling the gentle foundress,
-the abstract, self-absorbed, devotional creature, whose life was
-dedicated to prayer for her family, a great temptation to her neighbors.
-Miss Augustine was so anxious to make up for all her grandfathers and
-grandmothers had done, and to earn a pardon for their misdeeds, that she
-could deny nothing to her poor.
-
-The almshouses formed a square of tiny cottages, with a large garden in
-the midst, which absorbed more plants, the gardener said, than all the
-gardens at Whiteladies. The entrance from the road was through a
-gateway, over which was a clock-tower; and in this part of the building
-were situated the pretty, quaint little rooms occupied by the chaplain.
-Right opposite, at the other end of the garden, was the chapel; and all
-the houses opened upon the garden which was pretty and bright with
-flowers, with a large grassplot in the midst, and a fine old mulberry
-tree, under which the old people would sit and bask in the sunshine.
-There were about thirty of them, seven or eight houses on each side of
-the square--a large number to be maintained by one family; but I suppose
-that the first Austins had entertained a due sense of their own
-wickedness, and felt that no small price was required to buy them off.
-Half of these people at least, however, were now at Miss Augustine’s
-charges. The endowment, being in land, and in a situation where land
-rises comparatively little in value, had ceased to be sufficient for so
-large a number of pensioners--and at least half of the houses had been
-left vacant, and falling into decay in the time of the late Squire and
-his father. It had been the enterprise of Miss Augustine’s life to set
-this family charity fully forth again, according to the ordinance of the
-first founder--and almost all her fortune was dedicated to that and to
-the new freak of the chantry. She had chosen her poor people herself
-from the village and neighborhood, and perhaps on the whole they were
-not badly chosen. She had selected the chaplain herself, a quaint, prim
-little old man, with a wife not unlike himself, who fitted into the
-rooms in the tower, and whose object in life for their first two years
-had been to smooth down Miss Augustine, and keep her within the limits
-of good sense. Happily they had given that over before the time at which
-this story commences, and now contented themselves with their particular
-mission to the old almspeople themselves. These were enough to give them
-full occupation. They were partly old couples, husband and wife, and
-partly widows and single people; and they were as various in their
-characteristics as every group of human persons are, “a sad handful,” as
-old Mrs. Tolladay said. Dr. Richard and his wife had enough to do, to
-keep them in order, what with Miss Augustine’s vagaries, and what with
-the peculiarities of the Austin pensioners themselves.
-
-The two principal sides of the square, facing each other--the gate side
-and the chapel side--had each a faction of its own. The chapel side was
-led by old Mrs. Matthews, who was the most prayerful woman in the
-community, or at least had the credit among her own set of being so--the
-gate side, by Sarah Storton, once the laundress at Whiteladies, who was,
-I fear, a very mundane personage, and did not hesitate to speak her mind
-to Miss Augustine herself. Old Mrs. Tolladay lived on the south side,
-and was the critic and historian, or bard, of both the factions. She was
-the wife of the old clerk, who rang the chapel bell, and led with
-infinite self-importance the irregular fire of Amens, which was so
-trying to Dr. Richard; but many of the old folks were deaf, and not a
-few stupid, and how could they be expected to keep time in the
-responses? Old Mrs. Matthews, who had been a Methodist once upon a time,
-and still was suspected of proclivities toward chapel, would groan now
-and then, without any warning, in the middle of the service, making Dr.
-Richard, whose nerves were sensitive, jump; and on Summer days, when the
-weather was hot, and the chapel close and drowsy, one of the old men
-would indulge in an occasional snore, quickly strangled by his
-helpmate--which had a still stronger effect on the Doctor’s nerves. John
-Simmons, who had no wife to wake him, was the worst offender on such
-occasions. He lived on the north side, in the darkest and coldest of all
-the cottages, and would drop his head upon his old breast, and doze
-contentedly, filling the little chapel with audible indications of his
-beatific repose. Once Miss Augustine herself had risen from her place,
-and walking solemnly down the chapel, in the midst of the awe-stricken
-people, had awakened John, taking her slim white hand out of her long
-sleeves, and making him start with a cold touch upon his shoulder. “It
-will be best to stay away out of God’s house if you cannot join in our
-prayers,” Miss Augustine had said, words which in his fright and
-compunction the old man did not understand. He thought he was to be
-turned out of his poor little cold cottage, which was a palace to him,
-and awaited the next Monday, on which he received his weekly pittance
-from the chaplain, with terrified expectation. “Be I to go, sir?” said
-old John, trembling in all his old limbs; for he had but “the House”
-before him as an alternative, and the reader knows what a horror that
-alternative is to most poor folks.
-
-“Miss Augustine has said nothing about it,” said Dr. Richard; “but
-John, you must not snore in church; if you will sleep, which is very
-reprehensible, why should you snore, John?”
-
-“It’s my misfortune, sir,” said the old man. “I was always a snoring
-sleeper, God forgive me; there’s many a one, as you say, sir, as can
-take his nap quiet, and no one know nothing about it; but, Doctor, I
-don’t mean no harm, and it ain’t my fault.”
-
-“You must take care not to sleep, John,” said Dr. Richard, shaking his
-head, “that is the great thing. You’ll not snore if you don’t sleep.”
-
-“I donnow that,” said John doubtfully, taking up his shillings. The old
-soul was hazy, and did not quite know what he was blamed for. Of all the
-few enjoyments he had, that Summer doze in the warm atmosphere was
-perhaps the sweetest. Sleep that knits up the ravelled sleeve of
-care--John felt it to be one of the best things in this world, though he
-did not know what any idle book had said.
-
-At nine o’clock every morning James Tolladay sallied out of his cottage,
-with the key of the chapel, opened the door, and began to tug at the
-rope, which dangled so temptingly just out of the reach of the children,
-when they came to see their grandfathers and grandmothers at the
-almshouses. The chapel was not a very good specimen of architecture,
-having been built in the seventeenth century; and the bell which James
-Tolladay rung was not much of a bell; but still it marked nine o’clock
-to the village, the clergyman of the parish being a quiet and somewhat
-indolent person, who had, up to this time, resisted the movement in
-favor of daily services. Tolladay kept on ringing while the old people
-stumbled past him into their benches, and the Doctor, in his surplice,
-and little Mrs. Richard in her little trim bonnet--till Miss Augustine
-came along the path from the gate like a figure in a procession, with
-her veil on her head in Summer, and her hood in Winter, and with her
-hands folded into her long, hanging sleeves. Miss Augustine always came
-alone, a solitary figure in the sunshine, and walked abstracted and
-solemn across the garden, and up the length of the chapel to the seat
-which was left for her on one side of the altar rails. Mrs. Richard had
-a place on the other side, but Miss Augustine occupied a sort of stall,
-slightly raised, and very visible to all the congregation. The Austin
-arms were on this stall, a sign of proprietorship not perhaps quite in
-keeping with the humble meaning of the chapel; and Miss Augustine had
-blazoned it with a legend in very ecclesiastical red and blue--“Pray for
-us,” translated with laudable intentions, out of the Latin, in order to
-be understood by the congregation, but sent back into obscurity by the
-church decorator, whose letters were far too good art to be
-comprehensible. The old women, blinking under their old dingy bonnets,
-which some of them still insisted upon wearing “in the fashion,” with
-here and there a tumbled red and yellow rose, notwithstanding all that
-Mrs. Richard could say; and the old men with their heads sunk into the
-shabby collars of their old coats, sitting tremulous upon the benches,
-over which Miss Augustine could look from her high seat, immediately
-finding out any defaulter--were a pitiful assemblage enough, in that
-unloveliness of age and weakness which the very poor have so little
-means of making beautiful; but they were not without interest, nor their
-own quaint humor had any one there been of the mind to discover it. Of
-this view of the assemblage I need not say Miss Augustine was quite
-unconscious; her ear caught Mrs. Matthews’s groan of unction with a
-sense of happiness, and she was pleased by the fervor of the dropping
-Amen, which made poor Dr. Richard so nervous. She did not mind the
-painful fact that at least a minute elapsed between John Tolladay’s
-clerkly solemnity of response and the fitful gust with which John
-Simmons in the background added his assisting voice.
-
-Miss Augustine was too much absorbed in her own special interests to be
-a Ritualist or not a Ritualist, or to think at all of Church politics.
-She was confused in her theology, and determined to have her family
-prayed for, and their sins expiated, without asking herself whether it
-was release from purgatory which she anticipated as the answer to her
-prayers, or simply a turning aside of the curse for the future. I think
-the idea in her mind was quite confused, and she neither knew nor was at
-any trouble to ascertain exactly what she meant. Accordingly, though
-many people, and the rector himself among them, thought Miss Augustine
-to be of the highest sect of the High Church, verging upon Popery
-itself, Miss Augustine in reality found more comfort in the Dissenting
-fervor of the old woman who was a “Methody,” than in the most correct
-Church worship. What she wanted, poor soul, was that semi-commercial,
-semi-visionary traffic, in which not herself but her family were to be
-the gainers. She was a merchant organizing this bargain with heaven, the
-nature of which she left vague even to herself; and those who aided her
-with most apparent warmth of supplications, were the people whom she
-most appreciated, with but little regard to the fashion of their
-exertions. John Simmons, when he snored, was like a workman shirking
-work to Miss Augustine. But even Dr. Richard and his wife had not
-fathomed this downright straightforward business temper which existed
-without her own knowledge, or any one else’s, in the strange visionary
-being with whom they had to do. She, indeed, put her meaning simply into
-so many words, but it was impossible for those good people to take her
-at her own word, and to believe that she expressed all she meant, and
-nothing less or more.
-
-There was a little prayer used in the almshouse chapel for the family of
-the founder, which Dr. Richard had consented, with some difficulty, to
-add after the collects at Morning and Evening Service, and which he had
-a strong impression was uncanonical, and against the rubrics, employing
-it, so to speak, under protest, and explaining to every chance stranger
-that it was “a tradition of the place from time immemorial.”
-
-“I suppose we are not at liberty to change lightly any ancient use,”
-said the chaplain, “at least such was the advice of my excellent friend
-the Bishop of the Leeward Islands, in whose judgment I have great
-confidence. I have not yet had an opportunity of laying the matter
-before the Bishop of my own diocese, but I have little doubt his
-lordship will be of the same opinion.”
-
-With this protestation of faith, which I think was much stronger than
-Dr. Richard felt, the chaplain used the prayer; but he maintained a
-constant struggle against Miss Augustine, who would have had him add
-sentences to it from time to time, as various family exigencies arose.
-On one of the days of Miss Susan’s absence a thought of this kind came
-into her sister’s head. Augustine felt that Miss Susan being absent, and
-travelling, and occupied with her business, whatever it was, might,
-perhaps, omit to read the Lessons for the day, as was usual, or would be
-less particular in her personal devotions. She thought this over all
-evening, and dreamed of it at night; and in the morning she sent a
-letter to the chaplain as soon as she woke, begging him to add to his
-prayer for the founder’s family the words, “and for such among them as
-may be specially exposed to temptation this day.” Dr. Richard took a
-very strong step on this occasion--he refused to do it. It was a great
-thing for a man to do, the comfort of whose remnant of life hung upon
-the pleasure of his patroness; but he knew it was an illegal liberty to
-take with his service, and he would not do it.
-
-Miss Augustine was very self-absorbed, and very much accustomed (though
-she thought otherwise) to have everything her own way, and when she
-perceived that this new petition of hers was not added to the prayer for
-her family, she disregarded James Tolladay’s clerkly leading of the
-responses even more than John Simmons did. She made a little pause, and
-repeated it herself, in an audible voice, and then said her Amen,
-keeping everybody waiting for her, and Dr. Richard standing mute and red
-on the chancel steps, with the words, as it might be, taken out of his
-very lips. When they all came out of chapel, Mrs. Matthews had a private
-interview with Miss Augustine, which detained her, and it was not till
-after the old people had dispersed to their cottages that she made her
-way over to the clock-tower in which the chaplain’s rooms were situated.
-“You did not pray for my people, as I asked you,” said Augustine,
-looking at him with her pale blue eyes. She was not angry or irritable,
-but asked the question softly. Dr. Richard had been waiting for her in
-his dining-room, which was a quaint room over the archway, with one
-window looking to the road, another to the garden. He was seated by the
-table, his wife beside him, who had not yet taken off her bonnet, and
-who held her smelling-salts in her hand.
-
-“Miss Augustine,” said the chaplain, with a little flush on his innocent
-aged face. He was a plump, neat little old man, with the red and white
-of a girl in his gentle countenance. He had risen up when she entered,
-but being somewhat nervous sat down again, though she never sat down.
-“Miss Augustine,” he said, solemnly, “I have told you before, I cannot
-do anything, even to oblige you, which is against Church law and every
-sound principle. Whatever happens to me, I must be guided by law.”
-
-“Does law forbid you to pray for your fellow-creatures who are in
-temptation?” said Miss Augustine, without any change of her serious
-abstracted countenance.
-
-“Miss Augustine, this is a question in which I cannot be dictated to,”
-said the old gentleman, growing redder. “I will ask the prayers of the
-congregation for any special person who may be in trouble, sorrow, or
-distress, before the Litany, or the collect for all conditions of men,
-making a pause at the appropriate petition, as is my duty; but I cannot
-go beyond the rubrics, whatever it may cost me,” said Dr. Richard, with
-a look of determined resolution, as though he looked for nothing better
-than to be led immediately to the stake. And his wife fixed her eyes
-upon him admiringly, backing him up; and put, with a little pressure of
-his fingers, her smelling-salts into his hand.
-
-“In that case,” said Miss Augustine, in her abstract way, “in that
-case--I will not ask you; but it is a pity the rubrics should say it is
-your duty not to pray for any one in temptation; it was Susan,” she
-added, softly, with a sigh.
-
-“Miss Susan!” said the chaplain, growing hotter than ever at the thought
-that he had nearly been betrayed into the impertinence of praying for a
-person whom he so much respected. He was horrified at the risk he had
-run. “Miss Augustine,” he said, severely, “if my conscience had
-permitted me to do this, which I am glad it did not, what would your
-sister have said? I could never have looked her in the face again, after
-taking such a liberty with her.”
-
-“We could never have looked her in the face again,” echoed Mrs. Richard;
-“but, thank God, my dear, you stood fast!”
-
-“Yes. I hope true Church principles and a strong resolution will always
-save me,” said the Doctor, with gentle humility, “and that I may always
-have the resolution to stand fast.”
-
-Miss Augustine made no reply to this for the moment. Then she said,
-without any change of tone, “Say, to-morrow, please, that prayers are
-requested for Susan Austin, on a voyage, and in temptation abroad.”
-
-“My dear Miss Augustine!” said the unhappy clergyman, taking a sniff at
-the salts, which now were truly needed.
-
-“Yes, that will come to the same thing,” said Miss Augustine quietly to
-herself.
-
-She stood opposite to the agitated pair, with her hands folded into her
-great sleeves, her hood hanging back on her shoulders, her black veil
-falling softly about her pale head. There was no emotion in her
-countenance. Her mind was not alarmed about her sister. The prayer was
-a precautionary measure, to keep Susan out of temptation--not anything
-strenuously called for by necessity. She sighed softly as she made the
-reflection, that to name her sister before the Litany was said would
-answer her purpose equally well; and thus with a faint smile, and slight
-wave of her hand toward the chaplain and his wife, she turned and went
-away. The ordinary politenesses were lost upon Miss Augustine, and the
-door stood open behind her, so that there was no need for Dr. Richard to
-get up and open it; and, indeed, they were so used to her ways, her
-comings and her goings, that he did not think of it. So the old
-gentleman sat with his wife by his side, backing him up, gazing with
-consternation, and without a word, at the gray retreating figure. Mrs.
-Richard, who saw her husband’s perturbed condition, comforted him as
-best she could, patting his arm with her soft little hand, and
-whispering words of consolation. When Miss Augustine was fairly out of
-the house, the distressed clergyman at last permitted his feelings to
-burst forth.
-
-“Pray for Susan Austin publicly by name!” he said, rising and walking
-about the room. “My dear, it will ruin us! This comes of women having
-power in the Church! I don’t mean to say anything, my dear, injurious to
-your sex, which you know I respect deeply--in its own place; but a
-woman’s interference in the Church is enough to send the wisest man out
-of his wits.”
-
-“Dear Henery,” said Mrs. Richard, for it was thus she pronounced her
-husband’s name, “why should you be so much disturbed about it, when you
-know she is mad?”
-
-“It is only her enemies who say she is mad,” said Dr. Richard; “and even
-if she is mad, what does that matter? There is nothing against the
-rubrics in what she asks of me now. I shall be forced to do it; and what
-will Miss Susan say? And consider that all our comfort, everything
-depends upon it. Ellen, you are very sensible; but you don’t grasp the
-full bearing of the subject as I do.”
-
-“No, my dear, I do not pretend to have your mind,” said the good wife;
-“but things never turn out so bad as we fear,” she said a moment after,
-with homely philosophy--“nor so good, either,” she added, with a sigh.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-
-Miss Susan came home on the Saturday night. She was very tired, and saw
-no one that evening; but Martha, her old maid, who returned into
-attendance upon her natural mistress at once, thought and reported to
-the others that “something had come over Miss Susan.” Whether it was
-tiredness or crossness, or bad news, or that her business had not turned
-out so well as she expected, no one could tell; but “something had come,
-over her.” Next morning she did not go to church--a thing which had not
-happened in the Austin family for ages.
-
-“I had an intuition that you were yielding to temptation,” Miss
-Augustine said, with some solemnity, as she went out to prayers at the
-almshouses; after which she meant to go to Morning Service in the
-church, as always.
-
-“I am only tired, my dear,” said Miss Susan, with a little shiver.
-
-The remarks in the kitchen were more stringent than Miss Augustine’s.
-
-“Foreign parts apparently is bad for the soul,” said Martha, when it was
-ascertained that Jane, too, following her mistress’s example, did not
-mean to go to Church.
-
-“They’re demoralizin’, that’s what they are,” said Stevens, who liked a
-long word.
-
-“I’ve always said as I’d never set foot out o’ my own country, not for
-any money,” said Cook, with the liberal mind natural to her craft.
-
-Poor Jane, who had been very ill on the crossing, though the sea was
-calm, sat silent at the chimney corner with a bad headache, and very
-devout intentions to the same effect.
-
-“If you knew what it was to go a sea-voyage, like I do,” she protested
-with forlorn pride, “you’d have a deal more charity in you.” But even
-Jane’s little presents, brought from “abroad,” did not quite conciliate
-the others, to whom this chit of a girl had been preferred. Jane, on the
-whole, however, was better off, even amid the criticisms of the kitchen,
-than Miss Susan was, seated by herself in the drawing-room, to which the
-sun did not come round till the afternoon, with the same picture hanging
-before her eyes which she had used to tempt the Austins at Bruges, with
-a shawl about her shoulders, and a sombre consciousness in her heart
-that had never before been known there. It was one of those dull days
-which so often interpose their unwelcome presence into an English
-Summer. The sky and the world were gray with east wind, the sun hidden,
-the color all gone out. The trees stood about and shivered, striking the
-clouds with their hapless heads; the flowers looked pitiful and
-appealing, as if they would have liked to be brought indoors and kept in
-shelter; and the dreariness of the fire-place, done up in white paper
-ornaments, as is the orthodox Summer fashion of England, was
-unspeakable. Miss Susan, drawing her shawl round her, sat in her
-easy-chair near the fire by habit; and a more dismal centre of the room
-could not have been than that chilly whiteness. How she would have liked
-a fire! but in the beginning of July, what Englishwoman, with the proper
-fear of her housemaid before her eyes, would dare to ask for that
-indulgence? So Miss Susan sat and shivered, and watched the cold trees
-looking in at the window, and the gray sky above, and drew her shawl
-closer with a shiver that went through her very heart. The vibration of
-the Church bells was in the still, rural air, and not a sound in the
-house.
-
-Miss Susan felt as if she were isolated by some stern power; set apart
-from the world because of “what had happened;” which was the way she
-described her own very active agency during the past week to herself.
-But this did not make her repent, or change her mind in any respect; the
-excitement of her evil inspiration was still strong upon her; and then
-there was yet no wrong done, only intended, and of course, at any
-moment, the wrong which was only in intention might be departed from,
-and all be well. She had that morning received a letter from Reine, full
-of joyous thanksgiving over Herbert’s improvement. Augustine, who
-believed in miracles, had gone off to church in great excitement, to put
-up Herbert’s name as giving thanks, and to tell the poor people that
-their prayers had been so far heard; but Miss Susan, who was more of
-this world, and did not believe in miracles, and to whom the fact that
-any human event was very desirable made it at once less likely, put very
-little faith in Reine’s letter. “Poor child! poor boy!” she said to
-herself, shaking her head and drying her eyes; then put it aside, and
-thought little more of it. Her own wickedness that she planned was more
-exciting to her. She sat and brooded over that, while all the parish
-said their prayers in church, where she, too, ought to have been. For
-she was not, after all, so very tired; her mind was as full and lively
-as if there had been no such a thing as fatigue in the world; and I do
-not think she had anything like an adequate excuse for staying at home.
-
-On the Sunday afternoon Miss Susan received a visit which roused her a
-little from the self-absorption which this new era in her existence had
-brought about, though it was only Dr. and Mrs. Richard, who walked
-across the field to see her after her journey, and to take a cup of tea.
-They were a pleasant little couple to see, jogging across the fields arm
-in arm--he the prettiest fresh-colored little old gentleman, in glossy
-black and ivory white, a model of a neat, little elderly clergyman; she
-not quite so pretty, but very trim and neat too, in a nice black silk
-gown, and a bonnet with a rose in it. Mrs. Richard was rather hard upon
-the old women at the almshouses for their battered flowers, and thought
-a little plain uniform bonnet of the cottage shape, with a simple brown
-ribbon, would have been desirable; but for her own part she clung to the
-rose, which nodded on the summit of her head. Both of them, however, had
-a conscious look upon their innocent old faces. They had come to
-“discharge a duty,” and the solemnity of this duty, which was, as they
-said to each other, a very painful one, overwhelmed and slightly excited
-them. “What if she should be there herself?” said Mrs. Richard, clasping
-a little closer her husband’s arm, to give emphasis to her question. “It
-does not matter who is there; I must do my duty,” said the Doctor, in
-heroic tones; “besides,” he added, dropping his voice, “she never
-notices anything that is not said to her, poor soul!”
-
-But happily Miss Augustine was not present when they were shown into the
-drawing-room where Miss Susan sat writing letters. A good deal was
-said, of course, which was altogether foreign to the object of the
-visit: How she enjoyed her journey, whether it was not very fatiguing,
-whether it had not been very delightful, and a charming change, etc.
-Miss Susan answered all their questions benignly enough, though she was
-very anxious to get back to the letter she was writing to Farrel-Austin,
-and rang the bell for tea and poured it out, and was very gracious,
-secretly asking herself, what in the name of wonder had brought them
-here to-day to torment her? But it was not till he had been strengthened
-by these potations that Dr. Richard spoke.
-
-“My dear Miss Susan,” he said at length, “my coming to-day was not
-purely accidental, or merely to ask for you after your journey. I wanted
-to--if you will permit me--put you on your guard.”
-
-“In what respect?” said Miss Susan, quickly, feeling her heart begin to
-beat. Dr. Richard was the last person in the world whom she could
-suppose likely to know about the object of her rapid journey, or what
-she had done; but guilt is very suspicious, and she felt herself
-immediately put upon her defence.
-
-“I trust that you will not take it amiss that I should speak to you on
-such a subject,” said the old clergyman, clearing his throat; his
-pretty, old pink cheek growing quite red with agitation. “I take the
-very greatest interest in both you and your sister, Miss Susan. You are
-both of you considerably younger than I am, and I have been here now
-more than a dozen years, and one cannot help taking an interest in
-anything connected with the family--”
-
-“No, indeed; one cannot help it; it would be quite unnatural if one did
-not take an interest,” said Mrs. Richard, backing him up.
-
-“But nobody objects to your taking an interest,” said Miss Susan. “I
-think it, as you say, the most natural thing in the world.”
-
-“Thanks, thanks, for saying so!” said Dr. Richard with enthusiasm; and
-then he looked at his wife, and his wife at him, and there was an awful
-pause.
-
-“My dear, good, excellent people,” said Miss Susan, hurriedly, “for
-Heaven’s sake, if there is any bad news coming, out with it at once!”
-
-“No, no; no bad news!” said Dr. Richard; and then he cleared his throat.
-“The fact is, I came to speak to you--about Miss Augustine. I am afraid
-her eccentricity is increasing. It is painful, very painful to me to say
-so, for but for her kindness my wife and I should not have been half so
-comfortable these dozen years past; but I think it a friend’s duty, not
-to say a clergyman’s. Miss Susan, you are aware that people say that she
-is--not quite right in her mind!”
-
-“I am aware that people talk a great deal of nonsense,” said Miss Susan,
-half-relieved, half-aggravated. “I should not wonder if they said I was
-mad myself.”
-
-“If they knew!” she added mentally, with a curious thrill of
-self-arraignment, judging her own cause, and in the twinkling of an eye
-running over the past and the future, and wondering, if she should ever
-be found out, whether people would say she was mad too.
-
-“No, no,” said the Doctor; “you are well known for one of the most
-sensible women in the county.”
-
-“Quite one of the most influential and well-known people in the county,”
-said Mrs. Richard, with an echo in which there was always an individual
-tone.
-
-“Well, well; let that be as it may,” said Miss Susan, not dissatisfied
-with this appreciation; “and what has my sister done--while I have been
-absent, I suppose?”
-
-“It is a matter of great gravity, and closely concerning myself,” said
-Dr. Richard, with some dignity. “You are aware, Miss Susan, that my
-office as Warden of the Almshouses is in some respects an anomalous one,
-making me, in some degree, subordinate, or apparently so, in my
-ecclesiastical position to--in fact, to a lady. It is quite a strange,
-almost unprecedented, combination of circumstances.”
-
-“Very strange indeed,” said Mrs. Richard. “My husband, in his
-ecclesiastical position, as it were subordinate--to a lady.”
-
-“Pardon me,” said Miss Susan; “I never interfere with Augustine. You
-knew how it would be when you came.”
-
-“But there are some things one was not prepared for,” said the Doctor,
-with irrestrainable pathos. “It might set me wrong with the persons I
-respect most, Miss Susan. Your sister not only attempted to add a
-petition to the prayers of the Church, which nobody is at liberty to do
-except the Archbishops themselves, acting under the authority of
-Government; but finding me inexorable in that--for I hope nothing will
-ever lead me astray from the laws of the Church--she directed me to
-request the prayers of the congregation for you, the most respectable
-person in the neighborhood--for you, as exposed to temptation!”
-
-A strange change passed over Miss Susan’s face. She had been ready to
-laugh, impatient of the long explanation, and scarcely able to conceal
-her desire to get rid of her visitors. She sat poising the pen in her
-hand with which she had been writing, turning over her papers, with a
-smile on her lip; but when Dr. Richard came to those last words, her
-face changed all at once. She dropped the pen out of her hand, her face
-grew gray, the smile disappeared in a moment, and Miss Susan sat looking
-at them, with a curious consciousness about her, which the excellent
-couple could not understand.
-
-“What day was that?” she said quickly, almost under her breath.
-
-“It was on Thursday.”
-
-“Thursday morning,” added Mrs. Richard. “If you remember, Henery, you
-got a note about it quite early; and after chapel she spoke--”
-
-“Yes, it was quite early; probably the note,” said the chaplain, “was
-written on Wednesday night.”
-
-Miss Susan was ashy gray; all the blood seemed to have gone out of her.
-She made them no answer at first, but sat brooding, like a woman struck
-into stone. Then she rose to her feet suddenly as the door opened, and
-Augustine, gray and silent, came in, gliding like a mediæval saint.
-
-“My sister is always right,” said Miss Susan, almost passionately, going
-suddenly up to her and kissing her pale cheek with a fervor no one
-understood, and Augustine least of all. “I always approve what she
-does;” and having made this little demonstration, she returned to her
-seat, and took up her pen again with more show of preoccupation than
-before.
-
-What could the old couple do after this but make their bow and their
-courtesy, and go off again bewildered? “I think Miss Susan is the
-maddest of the two,” said Mrs. Richard, when they had two long fields
-between them and Whiteladies; and I am not surprised, I confess, that
-they should have thought so, on that occasion, at least.
-
-Miss Susan was deeply struck with this curious little incident. She had
-always entertained a half visionary respect for her sister, something of
-the reverential feeling with which some nations regard those who are
-imperfectly developed in intelligence; and this curious revelation
-deepened the sentiment into something half-adoring, half-afraid. Nobody
-knew what she had done, but Augustine knew somehow that she had been in
-temptation. I cannot describe the impression this made upon her mind and
-her heart, which was guilty, but quite unaccustomed to guilt. It
-thrilled her through and through; but it did not make her give up her
-purpose, which was perhaps the strangest thing of all.
-
-“My dear,” she said, assuming with some difficulty an ordinary smile,
-“what made you think I was going wrong when I was away?”
-
-“What made me think it? nothing; something that came into my mind. You
-do not understand how I am moved and led,” said Augustine, looking at
-her sister seriously.
-
-“No, dear, no--I don’t understand; that is true. God bless you, my
-dear!” said the woman who was guilty, turning away with a tremor which
-Augustine understood as little--her whole being tremulous and softened
-with love and reverence, and almost awe, of the spotless creature by
-her; but I suspect, though Miss Susan felt so deeply the wonderful fact
-that her sister had divined her moral danger, she was not in the least
-moved thereby to turn away from that moral danger, or give up her wicked
-plan; which is as curious a problem as I remember to have met with.
-Having all the habits of truth and virtue, she was touched to the heart
-to think that Augustine should have had a mysterious consciousness of
-the moment when she was brought to abandon the right path, and felt the
-whole situation sentimentally, as if she had read of it in a story; but
-it had not the slightest effect otherwise. With this tremor of feeling
-upon her, she went back to her writing-table, and finished her letter to
-Farrel-Austin, which was as follows:
-
- “DEAR COUSIN: Having had some business which called me abroad last
- week, my interest in the facts you told me, the last time I had the
- pleasure of seeing you, led me to pass by Bruges, where I saw our
- common relations, the Austins. They seem very nice, homely people,
- and I enjoyed making their acquaintance, though it was curious to
- realize relations of ours occupying such a position. I heard from
- them, however, that a discovery had been made in the meantime which
- seriously interferes with the bargain which they made with you;
- indeed, is likely to invalidate it altogether. I took in hand to
- inform you of the facts, though they are rather delicate to be
- discussed between a lady and a gentleman; but it would have been
- absurd of a woman of my age to make any difficulty on such a
- matter. If you will call on me, or appoint a time at which I can
- see you at your own house, I will let you know exactly what are the
- facts of the case; though I have no doubt you will at once divine
- them, if you were informed at the time you saw the Bruges Austins,
- that their son who died had left a young widow.
-
- With compliments to Mrs. Farrel-Austin and your girls,
-
- Believe me, truly yours,
-
- SUSAN AUSTIN.”
-
-
-
-I do not know that Miss Susan had ever written to Farrel-Austin in so
-friendly a spirit before. She felt almost cordial toward him as she put
-her letter into the envelope. If this improvement in friendly feeling
-was the first product of an intention to do the man wrong, then
-wrong-doing, she felt, must be rather an amiable influence than
-otherwise; and she went to rest that night with a sense of satisfaction
-in her mind. In the late Professor Aytoun’s quaint poem of “Firmilian,”
-it is recorded that the hero of that drama committed many murders and
-other crimes in a vain attempt to study the sensation usually called
-remorse, but was entirely unsuccessful, even when his crimes were on the
-grandest scale, and attended by many aggravating circumstances. Miss
-Susan knew nothing about Firmilian, but I think her mind was in a very
-similar state. She was not at all affected in sentiment by her
-conspiracy. She felt the same as usual, nay, almost better than usual,
-more kindly toward her enemy whom she was going to injure, and more
-reverential and admiring to her saintly sister, who had divined
-something of her evil intentions--or at least had divined her danger,
-though without the slightest notion what the kind of evil was to which
-she was tempted. Miss Susan was indeed half frightened at herself when
-she found how very little impression her own wickedness had made upon
-her. The first night she had been a little alarmed when she said her
-prayers, but this had all worn off, and she went to bed without a
-tremor, and slept the sleep of innocence--the sleep of the just. She was
-so entirely herself that she was able to reflect how strange it was, and
-how little the people who write sermons know the state of the real mind.
-She was astonished herself at the perfect calm with which she regarded
-her own contemplated crime, for crime it was.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-
-Mr. Farrel-Austin lived in a house which was called the Hatch, though I
-cannot tell what is the meaning of the name. It was a modern house, like
-hundreds of others, solid and ugly, and comfortable enough, with a small
-park round it, and--which it could scarcely help having in
-Berkshire--some fine trees about it. Farrel-Austin had a good deal of
-property; his house stood upon his own land, though his estate was not
-very extensive, and he had a considerable amount of money in good
-investments, and some house-property in London, in the City, which was
-very valuable. Altogether, therefore, he was very well off, and lived in
-a comfortable way with everything handsome about him. All his family at
-present consisted of the two daughters who came with him to visit
-Whiteladies, as we have seen; but he had married a second time, and had
-an ailing wife who was continually, as people say, having
-“expectations,” which, however, never came to anything. He had been
-married for about ten years, and during this long period Mrs.
-Farrel-Austin’s expectations had been a joke among her neighbors; but
-they were no joke to her husband, nor to the two young ladies, her
-step-daughters, who, as they could not succeed to the Austin lands
-themselves, were naturally very desirous to have a brother who could do
-so. They were not very considerate of Mrs. Austin generally, but in
-respect to her health they were solicitous beyond measure. They took
-such care of her that the poor woman’s life became a burden to her, and
-especially at the moment when there were expectations did this care and
-anxiety overflow. The poor soul had broken down, body and mind, under
-this surveillance. She had been a pretty girl enough when she was
-married, and entered with a light heart upon her functions, not afraid
-of what might happen to her; but Mr. Farrel-Austin’s unsatisfied longing
-for an heir, and the supervision of the two sharp girls who grew up so
-very soon to be young ladies, and evidently considered, as their father
-did, that the sole use and meaning of their mild young stepmother was to
-produce that necessary article, soon made an end of all her
-light-heartedness. Her courage totally failed. She had no very strong
-emotions any way, but a little affection and kindness were necessary to
-keep her going, and this she did not get, in the kind that was
-important, at least. Her husband, I suppose, was fond of her, as (of
-course) all husbands are of all wives, but she could not pet or make
-friends with the girls, who, short of her possible use as the mother of
-an heir, found her very much in their way, and had no inclination to
-establish affectionate relations with her. Therefore she took to her
-sofa, poor soul, and to tonics, and the state of an invalid--a condition
-which, when one has nothing in particular to do in the world, and
-nothing to amuse or occupy a flat existence, is not a bad expedient in
-its way for the feeble soul, giving it the support of an innocent, if
-not very agreeable routine--rules to observe and physic to take. This
-was how poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin endeavored to dédommager herself for the
-failure of her life. She preserved a pale sort of faded prettiness even
-on her sofa; and among the society which the girls collected round them,
-there was now and then one who would seek refuge with the mild invalid,
-when the fun of the younger party grew too fast and furious. Even, I
-believe, the stepmother might have set up a flirtation or two of her own
-had she cared for that amusement; but fortunately she had her tonics to
-take, which was a more innocent gratification, and suited all parties
-better; for a man must be a very robust flirt indeed, whose attentions
-can support the frequent interpositions of a maid with a medicine-bottle
-and a spoon.
-
-The society of the Farrel-Austins was of a kind which might be
-considered very fine, or the reverse, according to the taste of the
-critic, though that, indeed, may be said of almost all society. They
-knew, of course, and visited, all the surrounding gentry, among whom
-there were a great many worthy people, though nothing so remarkable as
-to stand out from the general level; but what was more important to the
-young ladies, at least, they had the officers of the regiment which was
-posted near, and in which there were a great many very noble young
-personages, ornaments to any society, who accepted Mr. Farrel-Austin’s
-invitations freely, and derived a great deal of amusement from his
-household, without perhaps paying that natural tribute of respect and
-civility to their entertainers behind their backs, which is becoming in
-the circumstances. Indeed, the Farrel-Austins were not quite on the same
-social level as the Marquis of Dropmore, or Lord Ffarington, who were
-constantly at the Hatch when their regiment was stationed near, nor even
-of Lord Alf Groombridge, though he was as poor as a church-mouse; and
-the same thing might be said of a great many other honorable and
-distinguished young gentlemen who kept a continual riot at the house,
-and made great havoc with the cellar, and on Sundays, especially, would
-keep this establishment, which ought to have been almost pious in its
-good order, in a state of hurry and flurry, and noise and laughter, as
-if it had been a hotel. The Austins, it is true, boasted themselves of
-good family, though nothing definite was known of them before Henry
-VIII.--and they were rich enough to entertain their distinguished
-visitors at very considerable cost; but they had neither that rank which
-introduces the possessor into all circles, nor that amount of money
-which makes up every deficiency. Had one of the Miss Farrel-Austins
-married the Marquis or the Earl, or even Lord Alf in his impecuniosity,
-she would have been said to have “succeeded in catching” poor Dropmore,
-or poor Ffarington, and would have been stormed or wept over by the
-gentleman’s relations as if she had been a ragged girl off the
-streets--King Cophetua’s beggar-maid herself; notwithstanding that these
-poor innocents, Ffarington and Dropmore, had taken advantage of the
-father’s hospitalities for months or years before. I am bound to add
-that the Farrel-Austins were not only fully aware of this, but would
-have used exactly the same phraseology themselves in respect to any
-other young lady of their own standing whose fascinations had been
-equally exercised upon the well-fortified bosoms of Dropmore and
-Company. Nevertheless they adapted themselves to the amusements which
-suited their visitors, and in Summer lived in a lively succession of
-outdoor parties, spending half of their time in drags, in boats, on race
-courses, at cricket-matches, and other energetic diversions. Sometimes
-their father was their chaperon, sometimes a young married lady
-belonging to the same society, and with the same tastes.
-
-The very highest and the very lowest classes of society have a great
-affinity to each other. There was always something planned for Sunday in
-this lively “set”--they were as eager to put the day to use as if they
-had been working hard all the week and had this day only to amuse
-themselves in. I suppose they, or perhaps their father, began to do this
-because there was in it the delightful piquancy of sensation which the
-blasé appetite feels when it is able to shock somebody else by its
-gratifications; and though they have long ago ceased to shock anybody,
-the flavor of the sensation lasted. All the servants at the Hatch,
-indeed, were shocked vastly, which preserved a little of this delightful
-sense of naughtiness. The quieter neighbors round, especially those
-houses in which there were no young people, disapproved, also, in a
-general way, and called the Miss Austins fast; and Miss Susan
-disapproved most strenuously, I need not say, and expressed her contempt
-in terms which she took no trouble to modify. But I cannot deny that
-there was a general hankering among the younger members of society for a
-share in these bruyant amusements; and Everard Austin could not see what
-harm it did that the girls should enjoy themselves, and had no objection
-to join them, and liked Kate and Sophy so much that sometimes he was
-moved to think that he liked one of them more. His house, indeed, which
-was on the river, was a favorite centre for their expeditions, and I
-think even that though he was not rich, neither of his cousins would
-have rejected Everard off-hand without deliberation--for, to be sure, he
-was the heir, at present, after their father, and every year made it
-less likely that Mrs. Austin would produce the much-wished-for
-successor. Neither of them would have quite liked to risk accepting him
-yet, in face of all the possibilities which existed in the way of
-Dropmore, Ffarington, and Company; but yet they would not have refused
-him off-hand.
-
-Now I may as well tell the reader at once that Kate and Sophy
-Farrel-Austin were not what either I or he (she) would call _nice_
-girls. I am fond of girls, for my own part. I don’t like to speak ill of
-them, or give an unfavorable impression, and as it is very probable that
-my prejudice in favor of the species may betray me into some relentings
-in respect to these particular examples, some softening of their after
-proceedings, or explanation of their devices, I think it best to say at
-once that they were not nice girls. They had not very sweet natures to
-begin with; for the fact is--and it is a very terrible one--that a great
-many people do come into the world with natures which are not sweet, and
-enter upon the race of life handicapped (if I may be permitted an
-irregular but useful expression) in the most frightful way. I do not
-pretend to explain this mystery, which, among all the mysteries of
-earth, is one of the most cruel, but I am forced to believe it. Kate and
-Sophy had never been very _nice_. Their father before them was not
-_nice_, but an extremely selfish and self-regarding person, often cross,
-and with no generosity or elevation of mind to set them a better
-example. They had no mother, and no restraint, except that of school,
-which is very seldom more than external and temporary. The young
-stepmother had begun by petting them, but neither could nor wished to
-attempt to rule the girls, who soon acquired a contempt for her; and as
-her invalidism grew, they took the control of the house, as well as
-themselves, altogether out of her hands. From sixteen they had been in
-that state of rampant independence and determination to have their own
-way, which has now, I fear, become as common among girls as it used to
-be among boys, when education was more neglected than it is nowadays.
-Boys who are at school--and even when they are young men at the
-university--must be in some degree of subordination; but girls who do
-not respect their parents are absolutely beyond this useful power, and
-can be described as nothing but rampant--the unloveliest as well as the
-unwholesomest of all mental and moral attitudes. Kate had come out at
-sixteen, and since that time had been constantly in this rampant state;
-by sheer force and power of will she had kept Sophy back until she also
-attained that mature age, but her power ended at that point, and Sophy
-had then become rampant too. They turned everything upside down in the
-house, planned their life according to their pleasure, over-rode the
-stepmother, coaxed the father, who was fond and proud of them--the best
-part of his character--and set out thus in the Dropmore and Ffarington
-kind of business. At sixteen girls do not plan to be married--they plan
-to enjoy themselves; and these noble young gentlemen seemed best adapted
-to second their intentions. But it is inconceivable how old a young
-woman is at twenty-one who has begun life at sixteen in this tremendous
-way. Kate, who had been for five long years thus about the world--at all
-the balls, at all the pleasure-parties, at all the races, regattas,
-cricket-matches, flower-shows, every kind of country entertainment--and
-at everything she could attain to in town in the short season which her
-father could afford to give them--felt herself about a hundred when she
-attained her majority. She had done absolutely everything that can be
-done in the way of amusement--at least in England--and the last Winter
-and Spring had been devoted to doing the same sort of thing “abroad.”
-There was nothing new under the sun to this unfortunate young
-woman--unless, perhaps, it might be getting married, which had for some
-time begun to appear a worthy object in her eyes. To make a good match
-and gain a legitimate footing in the society to which Dropmore, etc.,
-belonged; to be able to give “a good setting down” to the unapproachable
-women who ignored her from its heights--and to snatch the delights of a
-title by sheer strength and skill from among her hurly-burly of
-Guardsmen, this had begun to seem to Kate the thing most worth thinking
-of in the world. It was “full time” she should take some such step, for
-she was old, blasée, beginning to fear that she must be passée too,--at
-one and twenty! Nineteen at the outside is the age at which the rampant
-girl ought to marry in order to carry out her career without a
-cloud--the marriage, of course, bien entendu, being of an appropriate
-kind.
-
-The Sunday which I have just described, on which Miss Susan did not go
-to church, had been spent by the young ladies in their usual way. There
-had been a river party, preceded by a luncheon at Everard’s house,
-which, having been planned when the weather was hot, had of course to be
-carried out, though the day was cold with that chill of July which is
-more penetrating than December. The girls in their white dresses had
-paid for their pleasure, and the somewhat riotous late dinner which
-awaited the party at the Hatch had scarcely sufficed to warm their feet
-and restore their comfort. It was only next morning, pretty late, over
-the breakfast which they shared in Kate’s room, the largest of the two
-inhabited by the sisters, that they could talk over their previous day’s
-pleasure. And even then their attention was disturbed by a curious piece
-of news which had been brought to them along with their tray, and which
-was to the effect that Herbert Austin had suddenly and miraculously
-recovered his health, thanks having been given for him in the parish
-church at St. Austin’s on the previous morning. The gardener had gone to
-church there, with the intention of negotiating with the gardener at
-Whiteladies about certain seedlings, and he had brought back the
-information. His wife had told it to the housekeeper, and the
-housekeeper to the butler, and the butler to the young ladies’ maid, so
-that the report had grown in magnitude as it rolled onward. Sarah
-reported with a courtesy that Mr. Herbert was quite well, and was
-expected home directly--indeed, she was not quite sure whether he was
-not at home already, and in church when the clergyman read out his name
-as returning thanks--that would be the most natural way; and as she
-thought it over, Sarah concluded, and said, that this must have been
-what she heard.
-
-“Herbert better! what a bore!” said Sophy, not heeding the presence of
-the maid. “What right has he to get better, I should like to know, and
-cut papa out?”
-
-“Everybody has a right to do the best for themselves, when they can,”
-said Kate, whose rôle it was to be sensible; “but I don’t believe it can
-be true.”
-
-“I assure you, miss,” said Sarah, who was a pert maid, such as should
-naturally belong to such young ladies, “as gardener heard it with his
-own ears, and there could be no doubt on the subject. I said, ‘My young
-ladies won’t never believe it;’ and Mr. Beaver, he said, ‘They’ll find
-as it’s too true!’”
-
-“It was very impudent of Beaver to say anything of the sort,” said Kate,
-“and you may tell him so. Now go; you don’t require to wait any longer.
-I’ll ring when I’m ready to have my hair done. Hold your tongue, Soph,
-for two minutes, till that girl’s gone. They tell everything, and they
-remember everything.”
-
-“What do I care?” said Sophy; “if twenty people were here I’d just say
-the same. What an awful bore, when papa had quite made up his mind to
-have Whiteladies! I should like to do something to that Herbert, if it’s
-true; and it’s sure to be true.”
-
-“I don’t believe it,” said Kate reflectively. “One often hears of these
-cases rallying just for a week or two--but there’s no cure for
-consumption. It would be too teasing if--but you may be sure it isn’t
-and can’t be--”
-
-“Everything that is unpleasant comes true,” said Sophy. This was one of
-the sayings with which she amused her monde, and made Dropmore and the
-rest declare that “By Jove! that girl was not so soft as she looked.” “I
-think it is an awful bore for poor papa.”
-
-After they had exhausted this gloomy view of the subject, they began to
-look at its brighter side, if it had one.
-
-“After all,” said Sophy, “having Whiteladies won’t do very much for
-papa. It is clear he is not going to have an heir, and he can’t leave it
-to us; and what good would it do him, poor old thing, for the time he
-has to live?”
-
-“Papa is not so very old,” said Kate, “nor so very fond of us, either,
-Sophy. He wants it for himself; and so should I, if I were in his
-place.”
-
-“He wants it for the coming man,” said Sophy, “who won’t come. I wonder,
-for my part, that poor mamma don’t steal a child; I should in her place.
-Where would be the harm? and then everybody would be pleased.”
-
-“Except Everard, and whoever marries Everard.”
-
-“So long as that is neither you nor me,” said Sophy, laughing, “I don’t
-mind; I should rather like to spite Everard’s wife, if she’s somebody
-else. Why should men ever marry? I am sure they are a great deal better
-as they are.”
-
-“Speaking of marrying,” said Kate seriously, “far the best thing for you
-to do, if it is true about Herbert, is to marry _him_, Sophy. You are
-the one that is the most suitable in age. He is just a simple innocent,
-and knows nothing of the world, so you could easily have him, if you
-liked to take the trouble; and then Whiteladies would be secured, one
-way or another, and papa pleased.”
-
-“But me having it would not be like him having it,” said Sophy. “Would
-he be pleased? You said not just now.”
-
-“It would be the best that could be done,” said Kate; and then she began
-to recount to her sister certain things that Dropmore had said, and to
-ask whether Sophy thought they meant anything? which Sophy, wise in her
-sister’s concerns, however foolish in her own, did not think they did,
-though she herself had certain words laid up from “Alf,” in which she
-had more faith, but which Kate scouted. “They are only amusing
-themselves,” said the elder sister. “If Herbert does get better, marry
-him, Sophy, with my blessing, and be content.”
-
-“And you could have Everard, and we should neither of us change our
-names, but make one charming family party--”
-
-“Oh, bosh! I hate your family parties; besides, Everard would have
-nothing in that case,” said Kate, ringing the bell for the maid, before
-whom they did not exactly continue their discussion, but launched forth
-about Dropmore and Alf.
-
-“There’s been some one over here from the barracks this morning,” said
-Sarah, “with a note for master. I think it was the Markis’s own man,
-miss.”
-
-“Whatever could it be?” cried both the sisters together, for they were
-very slipshod in their language, as the reader will perceive.
-
-“And Miss Kate did go all of a tremble, and her cheeks like
-strawberries,” Sarah reported in the servants’ hall, where, indeed, the
-Markis’s man had already learned that nothing but a wedding could excuse
-such goings on.
-
-“We ain’t such fools as we look,” that functionary had answered with a
-wink, witty as his master himself.
-
-I do not think that Kate, who knew the world, had any idea, after the
-first momentary thrill of curiosity, that Dropmore’s note to her father
-could contain anything of supreme importance, but it might be, and
-probably was, a proposal for some new expedition, at any one of which
-matters might come to a crisis; and she sallied forth from her room
-accordingly, in her fresh morning dress, looking a great deal fresher
-than she felt, and with a little subdued excitement in her mind. She
-went to the library, where her father generally spent his mornings, and
-gave him her cheek to kiss, and asked affectionately after his health.
-
-“I do hope you have no rheumatism, papa, after last night. Oh, how cold
-it was! I don’t think I shall ever let myself be persuaded to go on the
-water in an east wind again.”
-
-“Not till the next time Dropmore asks,” said her father, in his surliest
-voice.
-
-“Dropmore, oh!” Kate shrugged her shoulders. “A great deal I care for
-what he asks. By-the-bye, I believe this is his cipher. Have you been
-hearing from Dropmore this morning, papa? and what does his most noble
-lordship please to want?”
-
-“Bah! what does it matter what he wants?” said Mr. Farrel-Austin,
-savagely. “Do you suppose I have nothing to do but act as secretary for
-your amusements? Not when I have news of my own like what I have this
-morning,” and his eye reverted to a large letter which lay before him
-with “Whiteladies” in a flowery heading above the date.
-
-“Is it true, then, that Herbert is better?” said Kate.
-
-“Herbert better! rubbish! Herbert will never be better; but that old
-witch has undermined me!” cried the disappointed heir, with flashing
-eyes.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-
-“Papa has just heard that Herbert Austin, who has Whiteladies, you
-know--our place that is to be--is much better; and he is low about it,”
-said Sophy. “Of course, if Herbert were to get better it would be a
-great disappointment for us.”
-
-This speech elicited a shout of laughter from Dropmore and the rest,
-with running exclamations of “Frank, by Jove,” and “I like people who
-speak their minds.”
-
-“Well,” said Sophy, “if I were to say we were all delighted, who would
-believe me? It is the most enchanting old house in the world, and a good
-property, and we have always been led to believe that he was in a
-consumption. I declare I don’t know what is bad enough for him, if he is
-going to swindle us out of it, and live.”
-
-“Sophy, you should not talk so wildly,” said mild Mrs. Austin from her
-sofa. “People will think you mean what you say.”
-
-“And I do,” said the girl. “I hate a cheat. Papa is quite low about it,
-and so is cousin Everard. They are down upon their luck.”
-
-“Am I?” said Everard, who was a little out of temper, it must be
-allowed, but chiefly because in the presence of the Guardsmen he was
-very much thrown into the shade. “I don’t know about being down on my
-luck; but it’s not a sweet expression for a young lady to use.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t mind about expressions that young ladies ought to use!”
-said Sophy. A tinge of color came on her face at the reproof, but she
-tossed her pretty head, and went on all the more: “Why shouldn’t girls
-use the same words as other people do? You men want to keep the best of
-everything to yourselves--nice strong expressions and all the rest.”
-
-“By Jove!” said Lord Alf; “mind you, I don’t like a girl to swear--it
-ain’t the thing somehow; but for a phrase like ‘down on his luck,’ or
-‘awful fun,’ or anything like that--”
-
-“And pray why shouldn’t you like a girl to swear?” said Kate. “‘By
-Jove,’ for instance? I like it. It gives a great deal of point to your
-conversation, Lord Alf.”
-
-“Oh, bless you, that ain’t swearing. But it don’t do. I am not very
-great at reasons; but, by Jove, you must draw the line somewhere. I
-don’t think now that a girl ought to swear.”
-
-“Except ‘her pretty oath of yea and nay,’” said Everard, who had a
-little, a very little, literature.
-
-The company in general stared at him, not having an idea what he meant;
-and as it is more humbling somehow to fail in a shot of this
-description, which goes over the head of your audience, than it is to
-show actual inferiority, Everard felt himself grow very red and hot, and
-feel very angry.
-
-The scene was the drawing-room at the Hatch, where a party of callers
-were spending the afternoon, eating bread-and-butter and drinking tea,
-and planning new delights. After this breakdown, for so he felt it,
-Everard withdrew hastily to Mrs. Austin’s sofa, and began to talk to
-her, though he did not quite know what it was about. Mild Mrs. Austin,
-though she did not understand the attempts which one or two of the
-visitors of the house had made to flirt with her, was pleased to be
-talked to, and approved of Everard, who was never noisy, though often
-“led away,” like all the others, by the foolishness of the girls.
-
-“I am glad you said that about this slang they talk,” said Mrs. Austin.
-“Perhaps coming from you it may have some weight with them. They do not
-mind what I say. And have you heard any more about poor Herbert? You
-must not think Mr. Austin is low about it, as they said. They only say
-such things to make people laugh.”
-
-This charitable interpretation arose from the poor lady’s desire to do
-the best for her step children, whom it was one of the regrets of her
-faded life, now and then breathed into the ear of a confidential friend,
-that she did not love as she ought.
-
-“I have only heard he is better,” said Everard; “and it is no particular
-virtue on my part to be heartily glad of it. I am not poor Herbert’s
-heir.”
-
-He spoke louder than he had any need to speak; for Mrs. Austin, though
-an invalid, was not at all deaf. But I fear that he had a hankering to
-be heard and replied to, and called back into the chattering circle
-which had formed round the girls. Neither Kate nor Sophy, however, had
-any time at the moment to attend to Everard, whom they felt sure they
-could wheedle back at any time. He gave a glance toward them with the
-corner of his eye, and saw Kate seriously inclining her pretty pink ear
-to some barrack joke which the most noble Marquis of Dropmore was
-recounting with many interruptions of laughter; while Sophy carried on
-with Lord Alf and an applauding auditory that discussion where the line
-should be drawn, and what girls might and might not do. “I hunt whenever
-I can,” Sophy was saying; “and wish there was a ladies’ club at
-Hurlingham or somewhere; I should go in for all the prizes. And I’m sure
-I could drive your team every bit as well as you do. Oh, what I would
-give just to have the ribbons in my hand! You should see then how a drag
-could go.”
-
-Everard listened, deeply disgusted. He had not been in the least
-disgusted when the same sort of thing had been said to himself, but had
-laughed and applauded with the rest, feeling something quite
-irresistible in the notion of pretty Sophy’s manly longings. Her little
-delicate hands, her slim person, no weightier than a bird, the toss of
-her charming head, with its wavy, fair locks, like a flower, all soft
-color and movement, had put ineffable humor into the suggestion of those
-exploits in which she longed to emulate the heroes of the household
-brigade. But now, when Everard was outside the circle, he felt a totally
-different sentiment move him. Clouds and darkness came over his face,
-and I do not know what further severity might have come from his lips
-had not Mr. Farrel-Austin, looking still blacker than himself, come into
-the room, in a way which added very little to the harmony, though
-something to the amusement, of the party. He nodded to the visitors,
-snarled at the girls, and said something disagreeable to his wife, all
-in two minutes by the clock.
-
-“How can you expect to be well, if you go on drinking tea for ever and
-ever?” he said to the only harmless member of the party. “Afternoon tea
-must have been invented by the devil himself to destroy women’s nerves
-and their constitutions.” He said this as loudly and with the same
-intention as had moved Everard; and he had more success, for Dropmore,
-Alf, and the rest turned round with their teacups in their hands, and
-showed their excellent teeth under their moustachios in a roar of
-laughter. “I had not the least idea I was so amusing,” said Mr. Farrel,
-sourer than ever. “Here, Everard, let me have a word with you.”
-
-“By Jove! he _is_ down on his luck,” said Lord Alf to Sophy in an
-audible aside.
-
-“Didn’t I tell you so?” said the elegant young lady; “and when he’s low
-he’s always as cross as two sticks.”
-
-“Everard,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, “I am going over to Whiteladies on
-business. That old witch, Susan Austin, has outwitted us both. As it is
-your interest as well as mine, you had better drive over with me--unless
-you prefer the idiocy here to all the interests of life, as some of
-these fools seem to do.”
-
-“Not I,” said Everard with much stateliness, “as you may perceive, for I
-am taking no part in it. I am quite at your service. But if it’s about
-poor Herbert, I don’t see what Miss Susan can have to do with it,” he
-added, casting a longing look behind.
-
-“Bah! Herbert is neither here nor there,” said the heir-presumptive.
-“You don’t suppose I put any faith in that. She has spread the rumor,
-perhaps, to confuse us and put us off the scent. These old women,” said
-Mr. Farrel with deliberate virulence, “are the very devil when they put
-their minds to it. And you are as much interested as I am, Everard, as I
-have no son--and what with the absurdity and perverseness of women,” he
-added, setting his teeth with deliberate virulence, “don’t seem likely
-to have.”
-
-I don’t know whether the company in the drawing-room heard this speech.
-Indeed, I do not think they could have heard it, being fully occupied by
-their own witty and graceful conversation. But there came in at this
-moment a burst of laughter which drove the two gentlemen furious in
-quite different ways, as they strode with all the dignity of ill-temper
-down stairs. Farrel-Austin did not care for the Guardsmen’s laughter in
-itself, nor was he critical of the manners of his daughters, but he was
-in a state of irritation which any trifle would have made to boil over.
-And Everard was in that condition of black disapproval which every word
-and tone increases, and to which the gayety of a laugh is the direst of
-offences. He would have laughed as gayly as any of them had he been
-seated where Lord Alf was; but being “out of it,” to use their own
-elegant language, he could see nothing but what was objectionable,
-insolent, nay, disgusting, in the sound.
-
-What influenced Farrel-Austin to take the young man with him, however, I
-am unable to say. Probably it was the mere suggestion of the moment, the
-congenial sight of a countenance as cloudy as his own, and perhaps a
-feeling that as (owing to the perverseness of women) their interests
-were the same, Everard might help him to unravel Miss Susan’s meaning,
-and to ascertain what foundation in reality there was for her letter
-which had disturbed him so greatly; and then Everard was the friend and
-pet of the ladies, and Farrel felt that to convey him over as his own
-second and backer up, would inflict a pang upon his antagonist; which,
-failing victory for yourself, is always a good thing to do. As for
-Everard, he went in pure despite, a most comprehensible reason, hoping
-to punish by his dignified withdrawal the little company whose offence
-was that it did not appreciate his presence. Foolish yet natural
-motive--which will continue to influence boys and girls, and even men
-and women, as long as there are two sets of us in the world; and that
-will be as long as the world lasts, I suppose.
-
-The two gentlemen got into the dog-cart which stood at the door, and
-dashed away across the Summer country in the lazy, drowsy afternoon, to
-Whiteladies. The wind had changed and was breathing softly from the
-west, and Summer had reconquered its power. Nothing was moving that
-could help it through all the warm and leafy country. The kine lay
-drowsy in the pastures, not caring even to graze, or stood about, the
-white ones dazzling in the sunshine, contemplating the world around in a
-meditative calm. The heat had stilled every sound, except that of the
-insects whose existence it is; and the warm grass basked, and the big
-white daisies on the roadside trembled with a still pleasure, drinking
-in the golden light into their golden hearts.
-
-But the roads were dusty, which was the chief thing the two men thought
-of except their business. Everard heard for the first time of the
-bargain Farrel had made with the Austins of Bruges, and did not quite
-know what to think of it, or which side to take in the matter. A
-sensation of annoyance that his companion had succeeded in finding
-people for whom he had himself made so many vain searches, was the
-first feeling that moved him. But whether he liked or did not like
-Farrel’s bargain, he could not tell. He did not like it, because he had
-no desire to see Farrel-Austin reigning at Whiteladies; and he did not
-dislike it because, on the whole, Farrel would probably make a better
-Squire than an old shopkeeper from the Netherlands; and thus his mind
-was so divided that he could not tell what he thought. But he was very
-curious about Miss Susan’s prompt action in the matter, and looked
-forward with some amusement and interest to hear what she had done, and
-how she had outwitted the expectant heir.
-
-This idea even beguiled his mind out of the dispositions of general
-misanthropy with which he had started. He grew eager to know all about
-it, and anticipated with positive enjoyment the encounter between the
-old lady who was the actual Squire, and his companion who was the
-prospective one. As they neared Whiteladies, too, another change took
-place in Everard. He had almost been Farrel’s partisan when they
-started, feeling in the mutual gloom, which his companion shared so
-completely, a bond of union which was very close for the moment. But
-Everard’s gloom dispersed in the excitement of this new object; in
-short, I believe the rapid movement and change of the air would of
-themselves have been enough to dispel it--whereas the gloom of the other
-deepened. And as they flew along the familiar roads, Everard felt the
-force of all the old ties which attached him to the old house and its
-inmates, and began to feel reluctant to appear before Miss Susan by the
-side of her enemy. “If you will go in first I’ll see to putting up the
-horse,” he said when they reached the house.
-
-“There is no occasion for putting up the horse,” said Farrel, and though
-Everard invented various other excuses for lingering behind, they were
-all ineffectual. Farrel, I suppose, had the stronger will of the two,
-and he would not relinquish the pleasure of giving a sting to Miss Susan
-by exhibiting her favorite as his backer. So the young man was forced to
-follow him whether he would or not; but it was with a total revolution
-of sentiment. “I only hope she will outwit the fellow; and make an end
-of him clean,” Everard said to himself.
-
-They were shown into the hall, where Miss Susan chose, for some reason
-of her own, to give them audience. She appeared in a minute or two in
-her gray gown, and with a certain air of importance, and shook hands
-with them.
-
-“What, you here, Everard?” she said with a smile and a cordial greeting.
-“I did not look for this pleasure. But of course the business is yours
-as well as Mr. Farrel’s.” It was very seldom that Miss Susan
-condescended to add Austin to that less distinguished name.
-
-“I happened--to be--at the Hatch,” said Everard, faltering.
-
-“Yes, he was with my daughters; and as he was there I made him come with
-me, because of course he may have the greatest interest,” said Mr.
-Farrel, “as much interest almost as myself--”
-
-“Just the same,” said Miss Susan briskly; “more indeed, because he is
-young and you are old, cousin Farrel. Sit down there, Everard, and
-listen; though having a second gentleman to hear what I have to say is
-alarming, and will make it all the harder upon me.”
-
-Saying this, she indicated a seat to Farrel and one to Everard (he did
-not know if it was with intention that she placed him opposite to the
-gallery with which he had so many tender associations) and seated
-herself in the most imposing chair in the room, as in a seat of
-judgment. There was a considerable tremor about her as she thus, for the
-first time, personally announced what she had done; but this did not
-appear to the men who watched her, one with affectionate interest and a
-mixture of eagerness and amusement, the other with resolute opposition,
-dislike, and fear. They thought her as stately and strong as a rock,
-informing her adversary thus, almost with a proud indifference, of the
-way in which her will had vanquished his, and were not the least aware
-of the flutter of consciousness which sometimes seemed almost to take
-away her breath.
-
-“I was much surprised, I need not say, by your letter,” said Farrel,
-“surprised to hear you had been at Bruges, as I know you are not given
-to travelling; and I do not know how to understand the intimation you
-send me that my arrangement with our old relative is not to stand.
-Pardon me, cousin Susan, but I cannot imagine why you should have
-interfered in the matter, or why you should prefer him to me.”
-
-“What has my interference to do with it?” she said, speaking slowly to
-preserve her composure; though this very expedient of her agitation made
-her appear more composed. “I had business abroad,” she went on with
-elaborate calm, “and I have always taken a great interest in these
-Austins. They are excellent people--in their way; but it can scarcely be
-supposed that I should prefer people in their way to any other. They are
-not the kind of persons to step into my father’s house.”
-
-“Ah, you feel that!” said Farrel, with an expression of relief.
-
-“Of course I must feel that,” said Miss Susan, with that fervor of truth
-which is the most able and successful means of giving credence to a lie;
-“but what has my preference to do with it? I don’t know if they told
-you, poor old people, that the son they were mourning had left a young
-widow?--a very important fact.”
-
-“Yes, I know it. But what of that?”
-
-“What of that? You ask me so, you a married man with children of your
-own! It is very unpleasant for a lady to speak of such matters,
-especially before a young man like Everard; but of course I cannot
-shrink from performing my promise. This young widow, who is quite
-overwhelmed by her loss, is--in short, there is a baby expected. There
-now, you know the whole.”
-
-It was honestly unpleasant to Miss Susan, though she was a very mature,
-and indeed, old woman, to speak to the men of this, so much had the
-bloom of maidenhood, that indefinable fragrance of youthfulness which
-some unwedded people carry to the utmost extremity of old age, lingered
-in her. Her cheek colored, her eyes fell; nature came in again to lend
-an appearance of perfect verity to all she said, and, so complicated are
-our human emotions, that, at the moment, it was in reality this shy
-hesitation, so natural yet so absurd at her years, and not any
-consciousness of her guilt, which was uppermost in her mind. She cast
-down her eyes for the moment, and a sudden color came to her face; then
-she looked up again, facing Farrel, who in the trouble of his mind,
-repeating the words after her, had risen from his seat.
-
-“Yes,” she said, “of course you will perceive that in these
-circumstances they cannot compromise themselves, but must wait the
-event. It may be a girl, of course,” Miss Susan added, steadily, “as
-likely as not; and in that case I suppose your bargain stands. We must
-all”--and here her feelings got the better of her, and she drew along
-shivering breath of excitement--“await the event.”
-
-With this she turned to Everard, making a hasty movement of her hands
-and head as if glad to throw off an unpleasing subject. “It is some time
-since I have seen you,” she said. “I am surprised that you should have
-taken so much interest in this news as to come expressly to hear it:
-when you had no other motive--”
-
-How glad she was to get rid of a little of her pent-up feelings by this
-assault.
-
-“I had another motive,” said the young man, taken by surprise, and
-somewhat aggrieved as well; “I heard Herbert was better--getting well. I
-heartily hope it is true.”
-
-“You heartily hope it is true? Yes, yes, I believe you do, Everard, I
-believe you do!” said Miss Susan, melting all of a sudden. She put up
-her handkerchief to her eyes to dry the tears which belonged to her
-excitement as much as the irritation. “As for getting well, there are no
-miracles nowadays, and I don’t hope it, though Augustine does, and my
-poor little Reine does, God help her. No, no, I cannot hope for that;
-but better he certainly is--for the moment. They have been able to get
-him out again, and the doctor says--Stop, I have Reine’s letter in my
-pocket; I will read you what the doctor says.”
-
-All this time Farrel-Austin, now bolt upright on the chair which he had
-resumed after receiving the thunderbolt, sat glooming with his eyes
-fixed on air, and his mind transfixed with this tremendous arrow. He
-gnawed his under lip, out of which the blood had gone, and clenched his
-hands furtively, with a secret wish to attack some one, but a
-consciousness that he could do nothing, which was terrible to him. He
-never for a moment doubted the truth of the intimation he had just
-received, but took it as gospel, doubting Miss Susan no more than he
-doubted the law, or any other absolutely certain thing. A righteous
-person has thus an immense advantage over all false and frivolous people
-in doing wrong as well as in other things. The man never doubted her. He
-did not care much for a lie himself, and would perhaps have shrunk from
-few deceits to secure Whiteladies for himself; but he no more suspected
-her than he suspected Heaven itself. He sat like one stunned, and gnawed
-his lip and devoured his heart in sharp disappointment, mortification,
-and pain. He did not know what to say or do in this sudden downfall
-from the security in which he had boasted himself, but sat hearing dully
-what the other two said, without caring to make out what it was. As for
-Miss Susan, she watched him narrowly, holding her breath, though she did
-nothing to betray her scrutiny. She had expected doubt, questioning,
-cross-examination; and he said nothing. In her guilty consciousness she
-could not realize that this man whom she despised and disliked could
-have faith in her, and watched him stealthily, wondering when he would
-break out into accusations and blasphemies. She was almost as wretched
-as he was, sitting there so calmly opposite to him, making conversation
-for Everard, and wondering, Was it possible he could believe her? Would
-he go off at once to find out? Would her accomplices stand fast? Her
-heart beat wildly in her sober bosom, when, feeling herself for the
-first time in the power of another, she sat and asked herself what was
-going to happen, and what Farrel-Austin could mean?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-
-After affairs had come to the point described in our last chapter, when
-Miss Susan had committed herself openly to her scheme for the
-discomfiture of Farrel-Austin, and that personage had accepted, with a
-bitterness I cannot describe, the curious _contretemps_ (as he thought)
-which thus thrust him aside from the heirship, of which he had been so
-certain, and made everything more indefinite than ever--there occurred a
-lull in the family story. All that could be done was to await the event
-which should determine whether a new boy was to spring of the old Austin
-stock, or the conspiracy to come to nothing in the person of a girl. All
-depended upon Providence, as Miss Susan said, with the strange mixture
-of truth and falsehood which distinguished this extraordinary episode in
-her life. She said this without a change of countenance, and it was
-absolutely true. If Providence chose to defeat her fraud, and bring all
-her wicked plans to nothing, it was still within the power of Heaven to
-do so in the most natural and simple way. In short, it thus depended
-upon Providence--she said to herself, in the extraordinary train of
-casuistical reasoning which went through her mind on this point--whether
-she really should be guilty of this wrong or not. It was a kind of
-Sortes into which she had thrown herself--much as a man might do who put
-it upon the hazard of a “toss-up” whether he should kill another man or
-not. The problematical murderer might thus hold that some power outside
-of himself had to do with his decision between crime and innocence; and
-so did Miss Susan. It was, she said to herself, within the arbitration
-of Providence--Providence alone could decide; and the guilty flutter
-with which her heart sometimes woke in her, in the uncertainty of the
-chances before her, was thus calmed down by an almost pious sense (as
-she felt it) of dependence upon “a higher hand.” I do not attempt to
-explain this curious mixture of the habits of an innocent and honorable
-and even religious mind, with the one novel and extraordinary impulse to
-a great wrong which had seized upon Miss Susan once in her life,
-without, so to speak, impairing her character, or indeed having any
-immediate effect upon its general strain. She would catch herself even
-saying a little prayer for the success of her crime sometimes, and would
-stop short with a hard-drawn breath, and such a quickening of all her
-pulses as nothing in her life had ever brought before; but generally her
-mind was calmed by the thought that as yet nothing was certain, but all
-in the hands of Providence; and that her final guilt, if she was doomed
-to be guilty, would be in some way sanctioned and justified by the
-deliberate decision of Heaven.
-
-This uncertainty it was, no doubt, which kept up an excitement in her,
-not painful except by moments, a strange quickening of life, which made
-the period of her temptation feel like a new era in her existence. She
-was not unhappy, neither did she feel guilty, but only excited,
-possessed by a secret spring of eagerness and intentness which made all
-life more energetic and vital. This, as I have said, was almost more
-pleasurable than painful, but in one way she paid the penalty. The new
-thing became her master-thought; she could not get rid of it for a
-moment. Whatever she was doing, whatever thinking of, this came
-constantly uppermost. It looked her in the face, so to speak, the first
-thing in the morning, and never left her but reluctantly when she went
-to sleep at the close of the day, mingling broken visions of itself even
-with her dreams, and often waking her up with a start in the dead of
-night. It haunted her like a ghost; and though it was not accompanied by
-any sense of remorse, her constant consciousness of its presence
-gradually had an effect upon her life. Her face grew anxious; she moved
-less steadily than of old; she almost gave up her knitting and such
-meditative occupations, and took to reading desperately when she was not
-immersed in business--all to escape from the thing by her side, though
-it was not in itself painful. Thus gradually, insidiously, subtly, the
-evil took possession of her life.
-
-As for Farrel-Austin, his temper and general sensibility were impaired
-by Miss Susan’s intimation to an incalculable degree. There was no
-living with him, all his family said. He too awaited the decision of
-Providence, yet in anything but a pious way; and poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin
-had much to bear which no one heard of.
-
-“Feel poorly. What is the good of your feeling poorly,” he would say to
-her with whimsical brutality. “Any other woman but you would have seen
-what was required of her. Why, even that creature at Bruges--that widow!
-It is what women were made for; and there isn’t a laborer’s wife in the
-parish but is up to as much as that.”
-
-“Oh, Farrel, how can you be so unkind?” the poor woman would say. “But
-if I had a little girl you would be quite as angry, and that could not
-be my fault.”
-
-“Have a girl if you dare!” said the furious heir-presumptive. And thus
-he awaited the decision of Providence--more innocently, but in a much
-less becoming way, than Miss Susan did. It was not a thing that was
-publicly spoken of, neither was the world in general aware what was the
-new question which had arisen between the two houses, but its effects
-were infinitely less felt in Whiteladies than in the internal comfort of
-the Hatch.
-
-In the midst of this _sourd_ and suppressed excitement, however, the new
-possibility about Herbert, which poor Augustine had given solemn thanks
-for, but which all the experienced people had treated as folly, began to
-grow and acquire something like reality. A dying life may rally and
-flicker in the socket for a day or two, but when the improvement lasts
-for a whole month, and goes on increasing, even the greatest sceptic
-must pause and consider. It was not till Reine’s letter arrived, telling
-the doctor’s last opinion that there had always been something peculiar
-in the case, and that he could no longer say that recovery was
-impossible, that Miss Susan’s mind first really opened to the idea. She
-was by herself when this letter came, and read it, shaking her head and
-saying, “Poor child!” as usual; but when she had got to the end, Miss
-Susan made a pause and drew a long breath, and began at the beginning
-again, with a curiously awakened look in her face. In the middle of this
-second reading, she suddenly sprang up from her seat, said out loud
-(being all alone), “_There will be no need for it then!_” and burst into
-a sudden flood of tears. It was as if some fountain had opened in her
-breast; she could not stop crying, or saying things to herself, in the
-strange rapture that came upon her. “No need, no need; it will not
-matter!” she said again and again, not knowing that she was speaking.
-
-“What will not matter?” said Augustine, who had come in softly and stood
-by, looking on with grave surprise.
-
-Augustine knew nothing about Bruges--not even of the existence of the
-Austins there, and less (I need not say) of the decision of Providence
-for which her sister waited. Miss Susan started to her feet and ran to
-her, and put the letter into her hand.
-
-“I do begin to believe the boy will get well,” she cried, her eyes once
-more overflowing.
-
-Her sister could not understand her excitement; she herself had made up
-her simple mind to Herbert’s certain recovery long before, when the
-first letter came.
-
-“Yes, he will recover,” she said; “I do not go by the doctor, but by my
-feelings. For some time I have been quite sure that an answer was
-coming, and Mary Matthews has said the same thing to me. We did not
-know, of course, when it would come. Yes, he will get better. Though it
-was so very discouraging, we have never ceased, never for a day--”
-
-“Oh, my dear!” said Miss Susan, her heart penetrated and melting, “you
-have a right to put confidence in your prayers, for you are as good as a
-child. Pray for us all, that our sins may be forgiven us. You don’t
-know, you could not think, what evil things come into some people’s
-minds.”
-
-“I knew you were in temptation,” said Augustine gently; and she went
-away, asking no questions, for it was the time for her almshouses’
-service, which nothing ever was permitted to disturb.
-
-And the whole parish, which had shaken its head and doubted, yet was
-very ready to believe news that had a half-miraculous air, now accepted
-Herbert’s recovery as certain. “See what it is to be rich,” some of the
-people said; “if it had been one o’ our poor lads, he’d been dead years
-ago.” The people at the almshouses regarded it in a different way. Even
-the profane ones among them, like old John, who was conscious of doing
-very little to swell the prayers of the community, felt a certain pride
-in the news, as if they had something to do with the event. “We’ve
-prayed him back to life,” said old Mrs. Matthews, who was very anxious
-that some one should send an account of it to the _Methodist Magazine_,
-and had the courage to propose this step to Dr. Richard, who nearly
-fainted at the proposition. Almost all the old people felt a curious
-thrill of innocent vanity at having thus been instrumental in so
-important an event; but the village generally resented this view, and
-said it was like their impudence to believe that God Almighty would take
-so much notice of folks in an alms-house. Dr. Richard himself did not
-quite know what to say on the subject. He was not sure that it was “in
-good taste” to speak of it so, and he did not think the Church approved
-of any such practical identification of the benefit of her prayers. In a
-more general way, yes; but to say that Herbert’s recovery and the
-prayers of the almshouses were cause and effect was rather startling to
-him. He said to his wife that it was “Dissenterish”--a decision in which
-she fully agreed. “Very dissenterish, my dear, and not at all in good
-taste,” Mrs. Richard said.
-
-But while the public in general, and the older persons involved, were
-thus affected by the news, it had its effect too, in conjunction with
-other circumstances, upon the young people, who were less immediately
-under its influence. Everard Austin, who was not the heir-presumptive,
-and indeed now knew himself to be another degree off from that desirable
-position, felt nothing but joy at his cousin’s amendment; and the girls
-at the Hatch were little affected by the failure of their father’s
-immediate hopes. But other things came in to give it a certain power
-over their future lives. Kate took it so seriously upon herself to
-advise Sophy as to her future conduct in respect to the recovered
-invalid, that Sophy was inspired to double efforts for the enjoyment of
-the present moment, which might, if she accepted her sister’s
-suggestion, be all that was left to her of the pleasure she enjoyed
-most.
-
-“Do it myself? No; I could not do it myself,” said Kate, when they
-discussed the subject, “for he is younger than I am; you are just the
-right age for him. You will have to spend the Winters abroad,” she
-added, being of a prudent and forecasting mind, “so you need not say you
-will get no fun out of your life. Rome and those sorts of places, where
-he would be sure to be sent to, are great fun, when you get into a good
-set. You had far better make up your mind to it; for, as for Alf, he is
-no good, my dear; he is only amusing himself; you may take my word for
-that.”
-
-“And so am I amusing myself,” Sophy said, her cheeks blazing with
-indignation at this uncalled-for stroke; “and, what’s more, I mean to,
-like you and Dropmore are doing. I can see as far into a milestone as
-any of you,” cried the young lady, who cared as little for grammar as
-for any other colloquial delicacies.
-
-And thus it was that the fun grew faster and more furious than ever; and
-these two fair sisters flew about both town and country, wherever gayety
-was going, and were seen on the top of more drags, and had more dancing,
-more flirting, and more pleasuring than two girls of unblemished
-character are often permitted to indulge in. Poor Everard was dreadfully
-“out of it” in that bruyant Summer. He had no drag, nor any particular
-way of being useful, except by boats; and, as Kate truly said, a couple
-of girls cannot drag about a man with them, even though he is their
-cousin. I do not think he would have found much fault with their gayety
-had he shared in it; and though he did find fault with their slang,
-there is a piquancy in acting as mentor to two girls so pretty which
-seems to carry its own reward with it. But Everard disapproved very much
-when he found himself left out, and easily convinced himself that they
-were going a great deal too far, and that he was grieved, annoyed, and
-even disgusted by their total departure from womanly tranquillity. He
-did not know what to do with himself in his desolate and délaissé
-condition, hankering after them and their society, and yet disapproving
-of it, and despising their friends and their pleasures, as he said to
-himself he did. He felt dreadfully, dolefully superior, after a few
-days, in his water-side cottage, and as if he could never again
-condescend to the vulgar amusements which were popular at the Hatch; and
-an impulse moved him, half from a generous and friendly motive, half on
-his own behalf, to go to Switzerland, where there was always variety to
-be had, and to join his young cousins there, and help to nurse Herbert
-back into strength and health.
-
-It was a very sensible reaction, though I do not think he was sensible
-of it, which made his mind turn with a sudden rebound to Reine, after
-Kate and Sophy had been unkind to him. Reine was hasty and
-high-spirited, and had made him feel now and then that she did not quite
-approve of him; but she never would have left him in the lurch, as the
-other girls had done; and he was very fond of Herbert, and very glad of
-his recovery; and he wanted change: so that all these causes together
-worked him to a sudden resolution, and this was how it happened that he
-appeared all at once, without preface or announcement, in the
-Kanderthal, before the little inn, like an angel sent to help her in her
-extremity, at Reine’s moment of greatest need.
-
-And whether it was the general helpfulness, hopefulness, and freshness
-of the stranger, like a wholesome air from home, or whether it was a
-turning-point in the malady, I cannot tell, but Herbert began to mend
-from that very night. Everard infused a certain courage into them all.
-He relieved Reine, whose terrible disappointment had stupefied her, and
-who for the first time had utterly broken down under the strain which
-overtasked her young faculties. He roused up François, who though he
-went on steadily with his duty, was out of heart too, and had resigned
-himself to his young master’s death. “He has been as bad before, and got
-better,” Everard said, though he did not believe what he was saying; but
-he made both Reine and François believe it, and, what was still better,
-Herbert himself, who rallied and made a last desperate effort to get
-hold again of the thread of life, which was so fast slipping out of his
-languid fingers. “It is a relapse,” said Everard, “an accidental
-relapse, from the wetting; he has not really lost ground.” And to his
-own wonder he gradually saw this pious falsehood grow into a truth.
-
-To the great wonder of the valley too, which took so much interest in
-the poor young Englishman, and which had already settled where to bury
-him, and held itself ready at any moment to weep over the news which
-everybody expected, the next bulletin was that Herbert was better; and
-from that moment he gradually, slowly mended again, toiling back by
-languid degrees to the hopeful though invalid state from which he had
-fallen. Madame de Mirfleur arrived two days after, when the improvement
-had thoroughly set in, and she never quite realized how near death her
-son had been. He was still ill enough, however, to justify her in
-blaming herself much for having left him, and in driving poor Reine
-frantic with the inference that only in his mother’s absence could he
-have been exposed to such a danger. She did not mean to blame Reine,
-whose devotion to her brother and admirable care for him she always
-boasted of, but I think she sincerely believed that under her own
-guardianship, in this point at least, her son would have been more safe.
-But the sweet bells of Reine’s nature had all been jangled out of tune
-by these events. The ordinary fate of those who look for miracles had
-befallen her: her miracle, in which she believed so firmly, had failed,
-and all heaven and earth had swung out of balance. Her head swam, and
-the world with it, swaying under her feet at every step she took.
-Everything was out of joint to Reine. She had tried to be angelically
-good, subduing every rising of temper and unkind feeling, quenching not
-only every word on her lips, but every thought in her heart, which was
-not kind and forbearing.
-
-But what did it matter? God had not accepted the offering of her
-goodness nor the entreaties of her prayers; He had changed His mind
-again; He had stopped short and interrupted His own work. Reine allowed
-all the old bitterness which she had tried so hard to subdue to pour
-back into her heart. When Madame de Mirfleur, going into her son’s room,
-made that speech at the door about her deep regret at having left her
-boy, the girl could not restrain herself. She burst out to Everard, who
-was standing by, the moment her mother was out of the room.
-
-“Oh, it is cruel, cruel!” she cried. “Is it likely that I would risk
-Herbert’s life--I that have only Herbert in all the world? We are
-nothing to her--nothing! in comparison with that--that gentleman she has
-married, and those babies she has,” cried poor Reine.
-
-It seemed somewhat absurd to Everard that she should speak with such
-bitterness of her mother’s husband; but he was kind, and consoled her.
-
-“Dear Reine, she did not blame you,” he said; “she only meant that she
-was sorry to have been away from you; and of course it is natural that
-she should care--a little, for her husband and her other children.”
-
-“Oh! you don’t, you cannot understand!” said Reine. “What did she want
-with a husband?--and other children? That is the whole matter. Your
-mother belongs to you, doesn’t she? or else she is not your mother.”
-
-When she had given forth this piece of triumphant logic with all the
-fervor and satisfaction of her French blood, Reine suddenly felt the
-shame of having betrayed herself and blamed her mother. Her flushed
-face grew pale, her voice faltered. “Everard, don’t mind what I say. I
-am angry and unhappy and cross, and I don’t know what is the matter with
-me,” cried the poor child.
-
-“You are worn out; that is what is the matter with you,” said Everard,
-strong in English common-sense. “There is nothing that affects the
-nerves and the temper like an overstrain of your strength. You must be
-quite quiet, and let yourself be taken care of, now Herbert is better,
-and you will get all right again. Don’t cry; you are worn out, my poor
-little queen.”
-
-“Don’t call me that,” said the girl, weeping; “it makes me think of the
-happy times before he was ill, and of Aunt Susan and home.”
-
-“And what could you think of better?” said Everard. “By-and-by--don’t
-cry, Queeny!--the happy days will come back, and you and I will take
-Herbert home.”
-
-And he took her hand and held it fast, and as she went on crying, kissed
-it and said many a soft word of consolation. He was her cousin, and had
-been brought up with her; so it was natural. But I do not know what
-Everard meant, neither did he know himself: “You and I will take Herbert
-home.” The words had a curious effect upon both the young people--upon
-her who listened and he who spoke. They seemed to imply a great deal
-more than they really meant.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur did not see this little scene, which probably would
-have startled and alarmed her; but quite independently there rose up in
-her mind an idea which pleased her, and originated a new interest in her
-thoughts. It came to her as she sat watching Herbert, who was sleeping
-softly after the first airing of his renewed convalescence. He was so
-quiet and doing so well that her mind was at ease about him, and free to
-proceed to other matters; and from these thoughts of hers arose a little
-comedy in the midst of the almost tragedy which kept the little party so
-long prisoners in the soft seclusion of the Kanderthal.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-
-Madame de Mirfleur had more anxieties connected with her first family
-than merely the illness of her son; she had also the fate of her
-daughter to think of, and I am not sure that the latter disquietude did
-not give her the most concern. Herbert, poor boy, could but die, which
-would be a great grief, but an end of all anxiety, whereas Reine was
-likely to live, and cause much anxiety, unless her future was properly
-cared for. Reine’s establishment in life had been a very serious thought
-to Madame de Mirfleur since the girl was about ten years old, and though
-she was only eighteen as yet, her mother knew how negligent English
-relatives are in this particular, leaving a girl’s marriage to chance,
-or what they are pleased to call Providence, or more likely her own
-silly fancy, without taking any trouble to establish her suitably in
-life. She had thought much, very much of this, and of the great
-unlikelihood, on the other hand, of Reine, with her English ways,
-submitting to her mother’s guidance in so important a matter, or
-accepting the husband whom she might choose; and if the girl was
-obstinate and threw herself back, as was most probable, on the absurd
-laisser-aller of the English, the chances were that she would never find
-a proper settlement at all. These thoughts, temporarily suspended when
-Herbert was at his worst, had come up again with double force as she
-ceased to be completely occupied by him; and when she found Everard with
-his cousins, a new impulse was given to her imagination. Madame de
-Mirfleur had known Everard more or less since his boyhood; she liked
-him, for his manners were always pleasant to women. He was of suitable
-age, birth, and disposition; and though she did not quite know the
-amount of his means, which was the most important preliminary of all, he
-could not be poor, as he was of no profession, and free to wander about
-the world as only rich young men can do. Madame de Mirfleur felt that it
-would be simply criminal on her part to let such an occasion slip. In
-the intervals of their nursing, accordingly, she sought Everard’s
-company, and had long talks with him when no one else was by. She was a
-pretty woman still, though she was Reine’s mother, and had all the
-graces of her nation, and that conversational skill which is so
-thoroughly French; and Everard, who liked the society of women, had not
-the least objection on his side to her companionship. In this way she
-managed to find out from him what his position was, and to form a very
-good guess at his income, and to ascertain many details of his life,
-with infinite skill, tact, and patience, and without in the least
-alarming the object of her study. She found out that he had a house of
-his own, and money enough to sound very well, indeed, if put into
-francs, which she immediately did by means of mental calculations, which
-cost her some time and a considerable effort. This, with so much more
-added to it, in the shape of Reine’s dot, would make altogether, she
-thought, a very pretty fortune; and evidently the two were made for each
-other. They had similar tastes and habits in many points; one was
-twenty-five, the other eighteen; one dark, the other fair; one impulsive
-and high-spirited, with quick French blood in her veins, the other
-tranquil, with all the English ballast necessary. Altogether, it was
-such a marriage as might have been made in heaven; and if heaven had not
-seen fit to do it, Madame de Mirfleur felt herself strong enough to
-remedy this inadvertence. It seemed to her that she would be neglecting
-her chief duty as Reine’s mother if she allowed this opportunity to slip
-through her hands. To be sure, it would have been more according to _les
-convenances_, had there been a third party at hand, a mutual friend to
-undertake the negotiation; but, failing any one else, Madame de Mirfleur
-felt that, rather than lose such an “occasion,” she must, for once,
-neglect the _convenances_, and put herself into the breach.
-
-“I do not understand how it is that your friends do not marry you,” she
-said one day when they were walking together. “Ah, you laugh, Monsieur
-Everard. I know that is not your English way; but believe me, it is the
-duty of the friends of every young person. It is a dangerous thing to
-choose for yourself; for how should you know what is in a young girl?
-You can judge by nothing but looks and outside manners, which are very
-deceitful, while a mother or a judicious friend would sound her
-character. You condemn our French system, you others, but that is
-because you don’t know. For example, when I married my present husband,
-M. de Mirfleur, it was an affair of great deliberation. I did not think
-at first that his property was so good as I had a right to expect, and
-there was some scandal about his grandparents, which did not quite
-please me. But all that was smoothed away in process of time, and a
-personal interview convinced me that I should find in him everything
-that a reasonable woman desires. And so I do; we are as happy as the
-day. With poor Herbert’s father the affair was very different. There was
-no deliberation--no time for thought. With my present experience, had I
-known that daughters do not inherit in England, I should have drawn
-back, even at the last moment. But I was young, and my friends were not
-so prudent as they ought to have been, and we did what you call fall in
-love. Ah! it is a mistake! a mistake! In France things are a great deal
-better managed. I wish I could convert you to my views.”
-
-“It would be very easy for Madame de Mirfleur to convert me to
-anything,” said Everard, with a skill which he must have caught from
-her, and which, to tell the truth, occasioned himself some surprise.
-
-“Ah, you flatter!” said the lady; “but seriously, if you will think of
-it, there are a thousand advantages on our side. For example, now, if I
-were to propose to you a charming young person whom I know--not one whom
-I have seen on the surface, but whom I know _au fond_, you
-understand--with a _dot_ that would be suitable, good health, and good
-temper, and everything that is desirable in a wife? I should be sure of
-my facts, you could know nothing but the surface. Would it not then be
-much better for you to put yourself into my hands, and take my advice?”
-
-“I have no doubt of it,” said Everard, once more gallantly; “if I wished
-to marry, I could not do better than put myself in such skilful hands.”
-
-“If you wished to marry--ah, bah! if you come to that, perhaps there are
-not many who wish to marry, for that sole reason,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur.
-
-“Pardon me; but why then should they do it?” said Everard.
-
-“Ah, fie, fie! you are not so innocent as you appear,” she said.
-
-“Need I tell to you the many reasons? Besides, it is your duty. No man
-can be really a trustworthy member of society till he has married and
-ranged himself. It is clearly your duty to range yourself at a certain
-time of life, and accept the responsibilities that nature imposes.
-Besides, what would become of us if young men did not marry? There would
-be a mob of _mauvais sujets_, and no society at all. No, mon ami, it is
-your duty; and when I tell you I have a very charming young person in my
-eye--”
-
-“I should like to see her very much. I have no doubt your taste is
-excellent, and that we should agree in most points,” said Everard, with
-a laugh.
-
-“Perhaps,” said Madame de Mirfleur, humoring him, “a very charming young
-person,” she added, seriously, “with, let us say, a hundred and fifty
-thousand francs. What would you say to that for the dot?”
-
-“Exactly the right sum, I have no doubt--if I had the least notion how
-much it was,” said Everard, entering into the joke, as he thought; “but,
-pardon my impatience, the young person herself--”
-
-“Extremely comme il faut,” said the lady, very gravely. “You may be sure
-I should not think of proposing any one who was not of good family;
-noble, of course; that is what you call gentlefolks--you English.
-Young--at the most charming age indeed--not too young to be a companion,
-nor too old to adapt herself to your wishes. A delightful disposition,
-lively--a little impetuous, perhaps.”
-
-“Why this is a paragon!” said Everard, beginning to feel a slight
-uneasiness. He had not yet a notion whom she meant; but a suspicion that
-this was no joke, but earnest, began to steal over his mind: he was
-infinitely amused; but notwithstanding his curiosity and relish of the
-fun, was too honorable and delicate not to be a little afraid of letting
-it go too far. “She must be ugly to make up for so many virtues;
-otherwise how could I hope that such a bundle of excellence would even
-look at me?”
-
-“On the contrary, there are many people who think her pretty,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur; “perhaps I am not quite qualified to judge. She has
-charming bright eyes, good hair, good teeth, a good figure, and, I think
-I may say, a very favorable disposition, Monsieur Everard, toward you.”
-
-“Good heavens!” cried the young man; and he blushed hotly, and made an
-endeavor to change the subject. “I wonder if this Kanderthal is quite
-the place for Herbert,” he said hastily; “don’t you think there is a
-want of air? My own opinion is that he would be better on higher
-ground.”
-
-“Yes, probably,” said Madame de Mirfleur, smiling. “Ah, Monsieur
-Everard, you are afraid; but do not shrink so, I will not harm you. You
-are very droll, you English--what you call _prude_. I will not frighten
-you any more; but I have a regard for you, and I should like to marry
-you all the same.”
-
-“You do me too much honor,” said Everard, taking off his hat and making
-his best bow. Thus he tried to carry off his embarrassment; and Madame
-de Mirfleur did not want any further indication that she had gone far
-enough, but stopped instantly, and began to talk to him with all the
-ease of her nation about a hundred other subjects, so that he half
-forgot this assault upon him, or thought he had mistaken, and that it
-was merely her French way. She was so lively and amusing, indeed, that
-she completely reassured him, and brought him back to the inn in the
-best of humors with her and with himself. Reine was standing on the
-balcony as they came up, and her face brightened as he looked up and
-waved his hand to her. “It works,” Madame de Mirfleur said to herself;
-but even she felt that for a beginning she had said quite enough.
-
-In a few days after, to her great delight, a compatriot--a gentleman
-whom she knew, and who was acquainted with her family and
-antecedents--appeared in the Kanderthal, on his way, by the Gemmi pass,
-to the French side of Switzerland. She hailed his arrival with the
-sincerest pleasure, for, indeed, it was much more proper that a third
-party should manage the matter. M. de Bonneville was a gray-haired,
-middle-aged Frenchman, very straight and very grave, with a grizzled
-moustache and a military air. He understood her at a word, as was
-natural, and when she took him aside and explained to him all her fears
-and difficulties about Reine, and the fearful neglect of English
-relations, in this, the most important point in a girl’s life, his heart
-was touched with admiration of the true motherly solicitude thus
-confided to him.
-
-“It is not, perhaps, the moment I would have chosen,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur, putting her handkerchief to her eyes, “while my Herbert is
-still so ill; but what would you, cher Baron? My other child is equally
-dear to me; and when she gets among her English relations, I shall never
-be able to do anything for my Reine.”
-
-“I understand, I understand,” said M. de Bonneville; “believe me, dear
-lady, I am not unworthy of so touching a confidence. I will take
-occasion to make myself acquainted with this charming young man, and I
-will seize the first opportunity of presenting the subject to him in
-such a light as you would wish.”
-
-“I must make you aware of all the details,” said the lady, and she
-disclosed to him the amount of Reine’s dot, which pleased M. de
-Bonneville much, and made him think, if this negotiation came to
-nothing, of a son of his own, who would find it a very agreeable
-addition to his biens. “Decidedly, Mademoiselle Reine is not a partie to
-be neglected,” he said, and made a note of all the chief points. He even
-put off his journey for three or four days, in order to be of use to his
-friend, and to see how the affair would end.
-
-From this time Everard found his company sought by the new-comer with a
-persistency which was very flattering. M. de Bonneville praised his
-French, and though he was conscious he did not deserve the praise, he
-was immensely flattered by it; and his new friend sought information
-upon English subjects with a serious desire to know, which pleased
-Everard still more. “I hope you are coming to England, as you want to
-know so much about it,” he said, in an Englishman’s cordial yet
-unmannerly way.
-
-“I propose to myself to go some time,” said the cautious Baron, thinking
-that probably if he arranged this marriage, the grateful young people
-might give him an invitation to their château in England; but he was
-very cautious, and did not begin his attack till he had known Everard
-for three days at least, which, in Switzerland, is as good as a
-friendship of years.
-
-“Do you stay with your cousins?” he said one day when they were walking
-up the hillside on the skirts of the Gemmi. M. de Bonneville was a
-little short of breath, and would pause frequently, not caring to
-confess this weakness, to admire the view. The valley lay stretched out
-before them like a map, the snowy hills retiring at their right hand,
-the long line of heathery broken land disappearing into the distance on
-the other, and the village, with its little bridge and wooden houses
-straggling across its river. Herbert’s wheeled chair was visible on the
-road like a child’s toy, Reine walking by her brother’s side. “It is
-beautiful, the devotion of that charming young person to her brother,”
-M. de Bonneville said, with a sudden burst of sentiment; “pardon me, it
-is too much for my feelings! Do you mean to remain with this so touching
-group, Monsieur Austin, or do you proceed to Italy, like myself?”
-
-“I have not made up my mind,” said Everard. “So long as I can be of any
-use to Herbert, I will stay.”
-
-“Poor young man! it is to be hoped he will get better, though I fear it
-is not very probable. How sad it is, not only for himself, but for his
-charming sister! One can understand Madame de Mirfleur’s anxiety to see
-her daughter established in life.”
-
-“Is she anxious on that subject?” said Everard, half laughing. “I think
-she may spare herself the trouble. Reine is very young, and there is
-time enough.”
-
-“That is one of the points, I believe, on which our two peoples take
-different views,” said M. de Bonneville, good-humoredly. “In France it
-is considered a duty with parents to marry their children well and
-suitably--which is reasonable, you will allow, at least.”
-
-“I do not see, I confess,” said Everard, with a little British
-indignation, “how, in such a matter, any one man can choose for another.
-It is the thing of all others in which people must please themselves.”
-
-“You think so? Well,” said M. de Bonneville, shrugging his shoulders,
-“the one does not hinder the other. You may still please yourself, if
-your parents are judicious and place before you a proper choice.”
-
-Everard said nothing. He cut down the thistles on the side of the road
-with his cane to give vent to his feelings, and mentally shrugged his
-shoulders too. What was the use of discussing such a subject with a
-Frenchman? As if they could be fit to judge, with their views!
-
-“In no other important matter of life,” said M. de Bonneville,
-insinuatingly, “do we allow young persons at an early age to decide for
-themselves; and this, pardon me for saying so, is the most impossible of
-all. How can a young girl of eighteen come to any wise conclusion in a
-matter so important? What can her grounds be for forming a judgment? She
-knows neither men nor life; it is not to be desired that she should. How
-then is she to judge what is best for her? Pardon me, the English are a
-very sensible people, but this is a bêtise: I can use no other word.”
-
-“Well, sir,” said Everard, hotly, with a youthful blush, “among us we
-still believe in such a thing as love.”
-
-“Mon jeune ami,” said his companion, “I also believe in it; but tell me,
-what is a girl to love who knows nothing? Black eyes or blue, light hair
-or dark, him who valses best, or him who sings? What does she know more?
-what do we wish the white creature to know more? But when her parents
-say to her--‘Chérie, here is some one whom with great care we have
-chosen, whom we know to be worthy of your innocence, whose sentiments
-and principles are such as do him honor, and whose birth and means are
-suitable. Love him if you can; he is worthy’--once more pardon me,” said
-M. de Bonneville, “it seems to me that this is more accordant with
-reason than to let a child decide her fate upon the experience of a
-soirée du bal. We think so in France.”
-
-Everard could not say much in reply to this. There rose up before him a
-recollection of Kate and Sophy mounted high on Dropmore’s drag, and
-careering over the country with that hero and his companions under the
-nominal guardianship of a young matron as rampant as themselves. They
-were perfectly able to form a judgment upon the relative merits of the
-Guardsmen; perfectly able to set himself aside coolly as nobody; which
-was, I fear, the head and front of their offending. Perhaps there were
-cases in which the Frenchman might be right.
-
-“The case is almost, but I do not say quite, as strong with a young
-man,” said M. de Bonneville. “Again, it is the experience of the soirée
-du bal which you would trust to in place of the anxious selection of
-friends and parents. A young girl is not a statue to be measured at a
-glance. Her excellences are modest,” said the mutual friend, growing
-enthusiastic. “She is something cachée, sacred; it is but her features,
-her least profound attractions, which can be learned in a valse or a
-party of pleasure. Mademoiselle Reine is a very charming young person,”
-he continued in a more business-like tone. “Her mother has confided to
-me her anxieties about her. I have a strong inclination to propose to
-Madame de Mirfleur my second son, Oscar, who, though I say it who should
-not, is as fine a young fellow as it is possible to see.”
-
-Everard stopped short in his walk, and looked at him menacingly,
-clenching his fist unawares. It was all he could do to subdue his fury
-and keep himself from pitching the old match-maker headlong down the
-hill. So that was what the specious old humbug was thinking of? His son,
-indeed; some miserable, puny Frenchman--for Reine! Everard’s blood
-boiled in his veins, and he could not help looking fiercely in his
-companion’s face; he was speechless with consternation and wrath. Reine!
-that they should discuss her like a bale of goods, and marry her
-perhaps, poor little darling!--if there was no one to interfere.
-
-“Yes,” said M. de Bonneville, meditatively. “The dot is small, smaller
-than Oscar has a right to expect; but in other ways the partie is very
-suitable. It would seal an old friendship, and it would secure the
-happiness of two families. Unfortunately the post has gone to-day, but
-to-morrow I will write to Oscar and suggest it to him. I do not wish for
-a more sweet daughter-in-law than Mademoiselle Reine.”
-
-“But can you really for a moment suppose that Reine--!” thundered forth
-the Englishman. “Good heavens! what an extraordinary way you have of
-ordering affairs! Reine, poor girl, with her brother ill, her heart
-bursting, all her mind absorbed, to be roused up in order to have some
-fine young gentleman presented to her! It is incredible--it is
-absurd--it is cruel!” said the young man, flushed with anger and
-indignation. His companion while he stormed did nothing but smile.
-
-“Cher Monsieur Everard,” he said, “I think I comprehend your feelings.
-Believe me, Oscar shall stand in no one’s way. If you desire to secure
-this pearl for yourself, trust to me; I will propose it to Madame de
-Mirfleur. You are about my son’s age; probably rich, as all you English
-are rich. To be sure, there is a degree of relationship between you; but
-then you are Protestants both, and it does not matter. If you will favor
-me with your confidence about preliminaries, I understand all your
-delicacy of feeling. As an old friend of the family I will venture to
-propose it to Madame de Mirfleur.”
-
-“You will do nothing of the kind,” said Everard furious. “I--address
-myself to any girl by a go-between! I--insult poor Reine at such a
-moment! You may understand French delicacy of feeling, M. de Bonneville,
-but when we use such words we English mean something different. If any
-man should venture to interfere so in my private affairs--or in my
-cousin’s either for that matter--”
-
-“Monsieur Everard, I think you forgot yourself,” said the Frenchman with
-dignity.
-
-“Yes; perhaps I forget myself. I don’t mean to say anything disagreeable
-to you, for I suppose you mean no harm; but if a countryman of my own
-had presumed--had ventured--. Of course I don’t mean to use these words
-to you,” said Everard, conscious that a quarrel on such a subject with a
-man of double his age would be little desirable; “it is our different
-ways of thinking. But pray be good enough, M. de Bonneville, to say
-nothing to Madame de Mirfleur about me.”
-
-“Certainly not,” said the Frenchman with a smile, “if you do not wish
-it. Here is the excellence of our system, which by means of leaving the
-matter in the hands of a third party, avoids all offence or
-misunderstanding. Since you do not wish it, I will write to Oscar
-to-night.”
-
-Everard gave him a look, which if looks were explosive might have blown
-him across the Gemmi. “You mistake me,” he said, not knowing what he
-said; “I will not have my cousin interfered with, any more than
-myself--”
-
-“Ah, forgive me! that is going too far,” said the Frenchman; “that is
-what you call dog in the manger. You will not eat yourself, and you
-would prevent others from eating. I have her mother’s sanction, which is
-all that is important, and my son will be here in three days. Ah! the
-sun is beginning to sink behind the hills. How beautiful is that
-rose-flush on the snow! With your permission I will turn back and make
-the descent again. The hour of sunset is never wholesome. Pardon, we
-shall meet at the table d’hôte.”
-
-Everard made him the very slightest possible salutation, and pursued his
-walk in a state of excitement and rage which I cannot describe. He went
-miles up the hill in his fervor of feeling, not knowing where he went.
-What! traffic in Reine--sell Reine to the best bidder; expose her to a
-cold-blooded little beast of a Frenchman, who would come and look at the
-girl to judge whether he liked her as an appendage to her dot! Everard’s
-rage and dismay carried him almost to the top of the pass before he
-discovered where he was.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-
-Everard was too late, as might have been expected, for the table d’hôte.
-When he reached the village, very tired after his long walk, he met the
-diners there, strolling about in the soft evening--the men with their
-cigars, the ladies in little groups in their evening toilettes, which
-were of an unexciting character. On the road, at a short distance from
-the hotel, he encountered Madame de Mirfleur and M. de Bonneville, no
-doubt planning the advent of M. Oscar, he thought to himself, with
-renewed fury; but, indeed, they were only talking over the failure of
-their project in respect to himself. Reine was seated in the balcony
-above, alone, looking out upon the soft night and the distant mountains,
-and soothed, I think, by the hum of voices close at hand, which mingled
-with the sound of the waterfall, and gave a sense of fellowship and
-society. Everard looked up at her and waved his hand, and begged her to
-wait till he should come. There was a new moon making her way upward in
-the pale sky, not yet quite visible behind the hills. Reine’s face was
-turned toward it with a certain wistful stillness which went to
-Everard’s heart. She was in this little world, but not of it. She had no
-part in the whisperings and laughter of those groups below. Her young
-life had been plucked out of the midst of life, as it were, and wrapped
-in the shadows of a sick-chamber, when others like her were in the full
-tide of youthful enjoyment. As Everard dived into the dining-room of the
-inn to snatch a hasty meal, the perpetual contrast which he felt himself
-to make in spite of himself, came back to his mind. I think he continued
-to have an unconscious feeling, of which he would have been ashamed had
-it been forced upon his notice or put into words, that he had himself a
-choice to make between his cousins--though how he could have chosen
-both Kate and Sophy, I am at a loss to know, and he never separated the
-two in his thoughts. When he looked, as it were, from Reine to them, he
-felt himself to descend ever so far in the scale. Those pretty gay
-creatures “enjoyed themselves” a great deal more than poor Reine had
-ever had it in her power to do. But it was no choice of Reine’s which
-thus separated her from the enjoyments of her kind--was it the mere
-force of circumstances? Everard could remember Reine as gay as a bird,
-as bright as a flower; though he could not connect any idea of her with
-drags or race-courses. He had himself rowed her on the river many a day,
-and heard her pretty French songs rising like a fresh spontaneous breeze
-of melody over the water. Now she looked to him like something above the
-common course of life--with so much in her eyes that he could not
-fathom, and such an air of thought and of emotion about her as half
-attracted, half repelled him. The emotions of Sophy and Kate were all on
-the surface--thrown off into the air in careless floods of words and
-laughter. Their sentiments were all boldly expressed; all the more
-boldly when they were sentiments of an equivocal character. He seemed to
-hear them, loud, noisy, laughing, moving about in their bright dresses,
-lawless, scorning all restraint; and then his mind recurred to the light
-figure seated overhead in the evening darkness, shadowy, dusky, silent,
-with only a soft whiteness where her face was, and not a sound to betray
-her presence. Perhaps she was weeping silently in her solitude; perhaps
-thinking unutterable thoughts; perhaps anxiously planning what she could
-do for her invalid to make him better or happier, perhaps praying for
-him. These ideas brought a moisture to Everard’s eyes. It was all a
-peradventure, but there was no peradventure, no mystery about Kate and
-Sophy; no need to wonder what they were thinking of. Their souls moved
-in so limited an orbit, and the life which they flattered themselves
-they knew so thoroughly ran in such a narrow channel, that no one who
-knew them could go far astray in calculation of what they were about;
-but Reine was unfathomable in her silence, a little world of individual
-thought and feeling, into which Everard did not know if he was worthy to
-enter, and could not divine.
-
-While the young man thus mused--and dined, very uncomfortably--Madame de
-Mirfleur listened to the report of her agent. She had a lace shawl
-thrown over her head, over the hair which was still as brown and
-plentiful as ever, and needed no matronly covering. They walked along
-among the other groups, straying a little further than the rest, who
-stopped her from moment to moment as she went on, to ask for her son.
-
-“Better, much better; a thousand thanks,” she kept saying. “Really
-better; on the way to get well, I hope;” and then she would turn an
-anxious ear to M. de Bonneville. “On such matters sense is not to be
-expected from the English,” she said, with a cloud on her face; “they
-understand nothing. I could not for a moment doubt your discretion, cher
-Monsieur Bonneville; but perhaps you were a little too open with him,
-explained yourself too clearly; not that I should think for a moment of
-blaming you. They are all the same, all the same!--insensate, unable to
-comprehend.”
-
-“I do not think my discretion was at fault,” said the Frenchman. “It is,
-as you say, an inherent inability to understand. If he had not seen the
-folly of irritating himself, I have no doubt that your young friend
-would have resorted to the brutal weapons of the English in return for
-the interest I showed him; in which case,” said M. de Bonneville,
-calmly, “I should have been under a painful necessity in respect to him.
-For your sake, Madame, I am glad that he was able to apologize and
-restrain himself.”
-
-“Juste ciel! that I should have brought this upon you!” cried Madame de
-Mirfleur; and it was after the little sensation caused in her mind by
-this that he ventured to suggest that other suitor for Reine.
-
-“My son is already sous-préfet,” he said. “He has a great career before
-him. It is a position that would suit Mademoiselle your charming
-daughter. In his official position, I need not say, a wife of
-Mademoiselle Reine’s distinction would be everything for him; and though
-we might look for more money, yet I shall willingly waive that question
-in consideration of the desirable connections my son would thus acquire;
-a mother-in-law like Madame de Mirfleur is not to be secured every day,”
-said the negotiant, bowing to his knees.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur, on her part, made such a curtsey as the Kanderthal,
-overrun by English tourists, had never seen before; and she smiled upon
-the idea of M. Oscar and his career, and felt that could she but see
-Reine the wife of a sous-préfet, the girl would be well and safely
-disposed of. But after her first exultation, a cold shiver came over
-Reine’s mother. She drew her shawl more closely round her.
-
-“Alas!” she said, “so far as I am concerned everything would be easy;
-but, pity me, cher Baron, pity me! Though I trust I know my duty, I
-cannot undertake for Reine. What suffering it is to have a child with
-other rules of action than those one approves of! It should be an
-example to every one not to marry out of their own country. My child is
-English to the nail-tips. I cannot help it; it is my desolation. If it
-is her fancy to find M. Oscar pleasing, all will go well; but if it is
-not, then our project will be ended; and with such uncertainty can I
-venture to bring Monsieur your son here, to this little village at the
-end of the world?”
-
-Thus the elder spirits communed not without serious anxiety; for Reine
-herself, and her dot and her relationships, seemed so desirable that M.
-de Bonneville did not readily give up the idea.
-
-“She will surely accept your recommendation,” he said, discouraged and
-surprised.
-
-“Alas! my dear friend, you do not understand the English,” said the
-mother. “The recommendation would be the thing which would spoil all.”
-
-“But then the parti you had yourself chosen--Monsieur Everard?” said the
-Frenchman, puzzled.
-
-“Ah, cher Baron, he would have managed it all in the English way,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur, almost weeping. “I should have had no need to
-recommend. You do not know, as I do, the English way.”
-
-And they turned back and walked on together under the stars to the hotel
-door, where all the other groups were clustering, talking of expeditions
-past and to come. The warm evening air softened the voices and gave to
-the flitting figures, the half-visible colors, the shadowy groups, a
-refinement unknown to them in broad daylight. Reine on her balcony saw
-her mother coming back, and felt in her heart a wondering bitterness.
-Reine did not care for the tourist society in which, as in every other,
-Madame de Mirfleur made herself acquaintances and got a little
-amusement; yet she could not help feeling (as what girl could in the
-circumstances?) a secret sense that it was she who had a right to the
-amusement, and that her own deep and grave anxiety, the wild trembling
-of her own heart, the sadness of the future, and the burden which she
-was bearing and had to bear every day, would have been more appropriate
-to her mother, at her mother’s age, than to herself. This thought--it
-was Reine’s weakness to feel this painful antagonism toward her
-mother--had just come into a mind which had been full of better
-thoughts, when Everard came upstairs and joined her in the balcony. He
-too had met Madame de Mirfleur as he came from the hotel, and he thought
-he had heard the name “Oscar” as he passed her; so that his mind had
-received a fresh impulse, and was full of belligerent and indignant
-thoughts. He came quite softly, however, to the edge of the balcony
-where Reine was seated, and stood over her, leaning against the window,
-a dark figure, scarcely distinguishable. Reine’s heart stirred softly at
-his coming; she did not know why; she did not ask herself why; but took
-it for granted that she liked him to come, because of his kindness and
-his kinship, and because they had been brought up together, and because
-of his brotherly goodness to Herbert, and through Herbert to herself.
-
-“I have got an idea, Reine,” Everard said, in the quick, sharp tones of
-suppressed emotion. “I think the Kanderthal is too close; there is not
-air enough for Herbert. Let us take him up higher--that is, of course,
-if the doctor approves.”
-
-“I thought you liked the Kanderthal,” said Reine, raising her eyes to
-him, and touched with a visionary disappointment. It hurt her a little
-to think that he was not pleased with the place in which he had lingered
-so long for their sakes.
-
-“I like it well enough,” said Everard; “but it suddenly occurred to me
-to-day that, buried down here in a hole, beneath the hills, there is too
-little air for Bertie. He wants air. It seems to me that is the chief
-thing he wants. What did the doctor say?”
-
-“He said--what you have always said, Everard--that Bertie had regained
-his lost ground, and that this last illness was an accident, like the
-thunderstorm. It might have killed him; but as it has not killed him, it
-does him no particular harm. That sounds nonsense,” said Reine, “but it
-is what he told me. He is doing well, the doctor says--doing well; and I
-can’t be half glad--not as I ought.”
-
-“Why not, Reine?”
-
-“I can’t tell, my heart is so heavy,” she cried, putting her hand to her
-wet eyes. “Before this--accident, as you call it--I felt, oh, so
-different! There was one night that I seemed to see and hear God
-deciding for us. I felt quite sure; there was something in the air,
-something coming down from the sky. You may laugh, Everard; but to feel
-that you are quite, quite sure that God is on your side, listening to
-you, and considering and doing what you ask--oh, you can’t tell what a
-thing it is.”
-
-“I don’t laugh, Reine; very, very far from it, dear.”
-
-“And then to be disappointed!” she cried; “to feel a blank come over
-everything, as if there was no one to care, as if God had forgotten or
-was thinking of something else! I am not quite so bad as that now,” she
-added, with a weary gesture; “but I feel as if it was not God, but only
-nature or chance or something, that does it. An accident, you all
-say--going out when we had better have stayed in; a chance cloud blowing
-this way, when it might have blown some other way. Oh!” cried Reine, “if
-that is all, what is the good of living? All accident, chance; Nature
-turning this way or the other; no one to sustain you if you are
-stumbling; no one to say what is to be--and it is! I do not care to
-live, I do not want to live, if this is all there is to be in the
-world.”
-
-She put her head down in her lap, hidden by her hands. Everard stood
-over her, deeply touched and wondering, but without a word to say. What
-could he say? It had never in his life occurred to him to think on such
-subjects. No great trouble or joy, nothing which stirs the soul to its
-depths, had ever happened to the young man in his easy existence. He had
-sailed over the sunny surface of things, and had been content. He could
-not answer anything to Reine in her first great conflict with the
-undiscovered universe--the first painful, terrible shadow that had ever
-come across her childish faith. He did not even understand the pain it
-gave her, nor how so entirely speculative a matter could give pain. But
-though he was thus prevented from feeling the higher sympathy, he was
-very sorry for his little cousin, and reverent of her in this strange
-affliction. He put his hand softly, tenderly upon her hidden head, and
-stroked it in his ignorance, as he might have consoled a child.
-
-“Reine, I am not good enough to say anything to you, even if I knew,”
-he said, “and I don’t know. I suppose God must always be at the bottom
-of it, whatever happens. We cannot tell or judge, can we? for, you know,
-we cannot see any more than one side. That’s all I know,” he added,
-humbly stroking once more with a tender touch the bowed head which he
-could scarcely see. How different this was from the life he had come
-from--from Madame de Mirfleur conspiring about Oscar and how to settle
-her daughter in life! Reine, he felt, was as far away from it all as
-heaven is from earth; and somehow he changed as he stood there, and felt
-a different man; though, indeed, he was not, I fear, at all different,
-and would have fallen away again in ten minutes, had the call of the
-gayer voices to which he was accustomed come upon his ear. His piety was
-of the good, honest, unthinking kind--a sort of placid, stubborn
-dependence upon unseen power and goodness, which is not to be shaken by
-any argument, and which outlasts all philosophy--thank heaven for it!--a
-good sound magnet in its way, keeping the compass right, though it may
-not possess the higher attributes of spiritual insight or faith.
-
-Reine was silent for a time, in the stillness that always follows an
-outburst of feeling; but in spite of herself she was consoled--consoled
-by the voice and touch which were so soft and kind, and by the steady,
-unelevated, but in its way certain, reality of his assurance. God must
-be at the bottom of it all--Everard, without thinking much on the
-subject, or feeling very much, had always a sort of dull, practical
-conviction of that; and this, like some firm strong wooden prop to lean
-against, comforted the visionary soul of Reine. She felt the solid
-strength of it a kind of support to her, though there might be, indeed,
-more faith in her aching, miserable doubt than there was in half-a-dozen
-such souls as Everard’s; yet the commonplace was a support to the
-visionary in this as in so many other things.
-
-“You want a change, too,” said Everard. “You are worn out. Let us go to
-some of the simple places high up among the hills. I have a selfish
-reason. I have just heard of some one coming who would--bore you very
-much. At least, he would bore me very much,” said the young man, with
-forced candor. “Let us get away before he comes.”
-
-“Is it some one from England?” said Reine.
-
-“I don’t know where he is from--last. You don’t know him. Never mind the
-fellow; of course that’s nothing to the purpose. But I do wish Herbert
-would try a less confined air.”
-
-“It is strange that the doctor and you should agree so well,” said
-Reine, with a smile. “You are sure you did not put it into his head. He
-wants us to go up to Appenzell, or some such place; and Herbert is to
-take the cure des sapins and the cure de petit lait. It is a quiet
-place, where no tourists go. But, Everard, I don’t think you must come
-with us; it will be so dull for you.”
-
-“So what? It is evident you want me to pay you compliments. I am
-determined to go. If I must not accompany you, I will hire a private
-mule of my own with a side-saddle. Why should not I do the cure de petit
-lait too?”
-
-“Ah, because you don’t want it.”
-
-“Is that a reason to be given seriously to a British tourist? It is the
-very thing to make me go.”
-
-“Everard, you laugh; I wish I could laugh too,” said Reine. “Probably
-Herbert would get better the sooner. I feel so heavy--so serious--not
-like other girls.”
-
-“You were neither heavy nor serious in the old times,” said Everard,
-looking down upon her with a stirring of fondness which was not love, in
-his heart, “when you used to be scolded for being so French. Did you
-ever dine solemnly in the old hall since you grew up, Reine? It is very
-odd. I could not help looking up to the gallery, and hearing the old
-scuffle in the corner, and wondering what you thought to see me sitting
-splendid with the aunts at table. It was very bewildering. I felt like
-two people, one sitting grown-up down below, the other whispering up in
-the corner with Reine and Bertie, looking on and thinking it something
-grand and awful. I shall go there and look at you when we are all at
-home again. You have never been at Whiteladies since you were grown up,
-Reine?”
-
-“No,” she said, turning her face to him with a soft ghost of a laugh. It
-was nothing to call a laugh; yet Everard felt proud of himself for
-having so far succeeded in turning her mood. The moon was up now, and
-shining upon her, making a whiteness all about her, and throwing shadows
-of the rails of the balcony, so that Reine’s head rose as out of a cage;
-but the look she turned to him was wistful, half-beseeching, though
-Reine was not aware of it. She half put out her hand to him. He was
-helping her out of that prison of grief and anxiety and wasted youth.
-“How wonderful,” she said, “to think we were all children once, not
-afraid of anything! I can’t make it out.”
-
-“Speak for yourself, my queen,” said Everard. “I was always mortally
-afraid of the ghost in the great staircase. I don’t like to go up or
-down now by myself. Reine, I looked into the old playroom the last time
-I was there. It was when poor Bertie was so ill. There were all our tops
-and our bats and your music, and I don’t know what rubbish besides. It
-went to my heart. I had to rush off and do something, or I should have
-broken down and made a baby of myself.”
-
-A soft sob came from Reine’s throat and relieved her; a rush of tears
-came to her eyes. She looked up at him, the moon shining so whitely on
-her face, and glistening in those drops of moisture, and took his hand
-in her impulsive way and kissed it, not able to speak. The touch of
-those velvet lips on his brown hand made Everard jump. Women the least
-experienced take such a salutation sedately, like Maud in the poem; it
-comes natural. But to a man the effect is different. He grew suddenly
-red and hot, and tingling to his very hair. He took her hand in both his
-with a kind of tender rage, and knelt down and kissed it over and over,
-as if to make up by forced exaggeration for that desecration of her
-maiden lips.
-
-“You must not do that,” he said, quick and sharply, in tones that
-sounded almost angry; “you must never do that, Reine;” and could not get
-over it, but repeated the words, half-scolding her, half-weeping over
-her hand, till poor Reine, confused and bewildered, felt that something
-new had come to pass between them, and blushed overwhelmingly too, so
-that the moon had hard ado to keep the upper hand. She had to rise from
-her seat on the balcony before she could get her hand from him, and
-felt, as it were, another, happier, more trivial life come rushing back
-upon her in a strange maze of pleasure and apprehension, and wonder and
-shamefacedness.
-
-“I think I hear Bertie calling,” she said, out of the flutter and
-confusion of her heart, and went away like a ghost out of the moonlight,
-leaving Everard, come to himself, leaning against the window, and
-looking out blankly upon the night.
-
-Had he made a dreadful fool of himself? he asked, when he was thus left
-alone; then held up his hand, which she had kissed, and looked at it in
-his strange new thrill of emotion with a half-imbecile smile. He felt
-himself wondering that the place did not show in the moonlight, and at
-last put it up to his face, half-ashamed, though nobody saw him. What
-had happened to Everard? He himself could not tell.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-
-I do not know that English doctors have the gift of recommending those
-pleasant simple fictions of treatment which bring their patient face to
-face with nature, and give that greatest nurse full opportunity to try
-her powers, as Continental doctors do, in cases where medicine has
-already tried its powers and failed--the grape cure, the whey cure, the
-fir-tree cure--turning their patient as it were into the fresh air,
-among the trees, on the hillsides, and leaving the rest to the mother of
-us all. François was already strong in the opinion that his master’s
-improvement arose from the sapins that perfumed the air in the
-Kanderthal, and made a solemn music in the wind; and the cure de petit
-lait in the primitive valleys of Appenzell commended itself to the young
-fanciful party, and to Herbert himself, whose mind was extremely taken
-up by the idea. He had no sooner heard of it than he began to find the
-Kanderthal close and airless, as Everard suggested to him, and in his
-progressing convalescence the idea of a little change and novelty was
-delightful to the lad thus creeping back across the threshold of life.
-Already he felt himself no invalid, but a young man, with all a young
-man’s hopes before him. When he returned from his daily expedition in
-his chair he would get out and saunter about for ten minutes, assuming
-an easy and, as far as he could, a robust air, in front of the hotel,
-and would answer to the inquiries of the visitors that he was getting
-strong fast, and hoped soon to be all right. That interruption, however,
-to his first half-miraculous recovery had affected Herbert something in
-the same way as it affected Reine. He too had fallen out of the profound
-sense of an actual interposition of Providence in his favor, out of the
-saintliness of that resolution to be henceforward “good” beyond measure,
-by way of proving their gratitude, which had affected them both in so
-childlike a way. The whole matter had slid back to the lower level of
-ordinary agencies, nature, accident, what the doctor did and the careful
-nurses, what the patient swallowed, the equality of the temperature kept
-up in his room, and so forth.
-
-This shed a strange blank over it all to Herbert as well as to his
-sister. He did not seem to have the same tender and awestruck longing to
-be good. His recovery was not the same thing as it had been. He got
-better in a common way, as other men get better. He had come down from
-the soft eminence on which he had felt himself, and the change had a
-vulgarizing effect, lowering the level somehow of all his thoughts. But
-Herbert’s mind was not sufficiently visionary to feel this as a definite
-pain, as Reine did. He accepted it, sufficiently content, and perhaps
-easier on the lower level, and then to feel the springs of health
-stirring and bubbling after the long languor of deadly sickness is
-delight enough to dismiss all secondary emotions from the heart. Herbert
-was anxious to make another move, to appear before a new population, who
-would not be so sympathetic, so conscious that he had just escaped the
-jaws of death.
-
-“They are all a little disappointed that I did not die,” he said. “The
-village people don’t like it--they have been cheated out of their
-sensation. I should like to come back in a year or so, when I am quite
-strong, and show myself; but in the meantime let’s move on. If Everard
-stays, we shall be quite jolly enough by ourselves, we three. We shan’t
-want any other society. I am ready whenever you please.”
-
-As for Madame de Mirfleur, however, she was quite indisposed for this
-move. She protested on Herbert’s behalf, but was silenced by the
-physician; she protested on her own account that it was quite impossible
-she could go further off into those wilds further and further from her
-home, but was stopped by Reine, who begged her mamma not to think of
-that, since François and she had so often had the charge of Herbert.
-
-“I am sure you will be glad to get back to M. de Mirfleur and the
-children,” Reine said with an ironical cordiality which she might have
-spared, as her mother never divined what she meant.
-
-“Yes,” Madame de Mirfleur answered quite seriously, “that is true,
-chérie. Of course I shall be glad to get home where they all want me so
-much; though M. de Mirfleur, to whom I am sorry to see you never do
-justice, has been very good and has not complained. Still the children
-are very young, and it is natural I should be anxious to get home. But
-see what happened last time when I went away,” said the mother, not
-displeased perhaps, much as she lamented its consequences, to have this
-proof of her own importance handy. “I should never forgive myself if it
-occurred again.”
-
-Reine grew pale and then red, moved beyond bearing, but she dared not
-say anything, and could only clench her little hands and go out to the
-balcony to keep herself from replying. Was it her fault that the
-thunder-storm came down so suddenly out of a clear sky? She was not the
-only one who had been deceived. Were there not ever so many parties on
-the mountains who came home drenched and frightened, though they had
-experienced guides with them who ought to have known the changes of the
-sky better than little Reine? Still she could not say that this might
-not have been averted had the mother been there, and thus she was driven
-frantic and escaped into the balcony and shut her lips close that she
-might not reply.
-
-“But I shall go with them and see them safe, for the journey, at least;
-you may confide in my discretion,” said Everard.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur gave him a look, and then looked at Reine upon the
-balcony. It was a significant glance, and filled Everard with very
-disagreeable emotions. What did the woman mean? He fell back upon the
-consciousness that she was French, which of course explained a great
-deal. French observers always have nonsensical and disagreeable thoughts
-in their mind. They never can be satisfied with what is, but must always
-carry out every line of action to its logical end--an intolerable mode
-of proceeding. Why should she look from him to Reine? Everard did not
-consider that Madame de Mirfleur had a dilemma of her own in respect to
-the two which ought to regulate her movements, and which in the meantime
-embarrassed her exceedingly. She took Reine aside, not knowing what else
-to say.
-
-“Chérie,” she said, for she was always kind and indulgent, and less
-moved than an English mother might have been by her child’s petulance,
-“I am not happy about this new fancy my poor Herbert and you have in the
-head--the cousin, this Everard; he is very comme il faut, what you call
-_nice_, and sufficiently good-looking and young. What will any one say
-to me if I let my Reine go away wandering in lonely places with this
-young man?”
-
-“It is with Herbert I am going,” said Reine, hastily. “Mamma, do not
-press me too far; there are some things I could not bear. Everard is
-nothing to me,” she added, feeling her cheeks flush and a great desire
-to cry come over her. She could not laugh and take this suggestion
-lightly, easily, as she wished to do, but grew serious, and flushed, and
-angry in spite of herself.
-
-“My dearest, I did not suppose so,” said the mother, always kind, but
-studying the girl’s face closely with her suspicions aroused. “I must
-think of what is right for you, chérie,” she said. “It is not merely
-what one feels; Herbert is still ill; he will require to retire himself
-early, to take many precautions, to avoid the chill of evening and of
-morning, to rest at midday; and what will my Reine do then? You will be
-left with the cousin. I have every confidence in the cousin, my child;
-he is good and honorable, and will take no advantage.”
-
-“Mamma, do you think what you are saying?” said Reine, almost with
-violence; “have not you confidence in me? What have I ever done that you
-should speak like this?”
-
-“You have done nothing, chérie, nothing,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Of
-course in you I have every confidence--that goes without saying; but it
-is the man who has to be thought of in such circumstances, not the young
-girl who is ignorant of the world, and who is never to blame. And then
-we must consider what people will say. You will have to pass hours alone
-with the cousin. People will say, ‘What is Madame de Mirfleur thinking
-of to leave her daughter thus unprotected?’ It will be terrible; I shall
-not know how to excuse myself.”
-
-“Then it is of yourself, not of me, you are thinking,” said Reine with
-fierce calm.
-
-“You are unkind, my child,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “I do indeed think
-what will be said of me--that I have neglected my duty. The world will
-not blame you; they will say, ‘What could the mother be thinking of?’
-But it is on you, chérie, that the penalty would fall.”
-
-“You could tell the world that your daughter was English, used to
-protect herself, or rather, not needing any protection,” said Reine;
-“and that you had your husband and children to think of, and could not
-give your attention to me,” she added bitterly.
-
-“That is true, that is true,” said Madame de Mirfleur. The irony was
-lost upon her. Of course the husband and children were the strongest of
-all arguments in favor of leaving Reine to her own guidance; but as she
-was a conscientious woman, anxious to do justice to all her belongings,
-it may be believed that she did not make up her mind easily. Poor soul!
-not to speak of M. de Mirfleur, the babble of Jeanot and Babette, who
-never contradicted nor crossed her, in whose little lives there were no
-problems, who, so long as they were kept from having too much fruit and
-allowed to have everything else they wanted, were always pleased and
-satisfactory, naturally had a charm to their mother which these English
-children of hers, who were only half hers, and who set up so many
-independent opinions and caused her so much anxiety, were destitute of.
-Poor Madame de Mirfleur felt very deeply how different it was to have
-grown-up young people to look after, and how much easier as well as
-sweeter to have babies to pet and spoil. She sighed a very heavy sigh.
-“I must take time to think it over again,” she said. “Do not press me
-for an answer, chérie; I must think it over; though how I can go away so
-much further, or how I can let you go alone, I know not. I will take
-to-day to think of it; do not say any more to-day.”
-
-Now I will not say that after the scene on the balcony which I have
-recorded, there had not been a little thrill and tremor in Reine’s
-bosom, half pleasure, half fright, at the notion of going to the
-mountains in Everard’s close company; and that the idea her mother had
-suggested, that Herbert’s invalid habits must infallibly throw the other
-two much together, had not already passed through Reine’s mind with very
-considerable doubts as to the expediency of the proceeding; but as she
-was eighteen, and not a paragon of patience or any other perfection, the
-moment that Madame de Mirfleur took up this view of the question, Reine
-grew angry and felt insulted, and anxious to prove that she could walk
-through all the world by Everard’s side, or that of any other, without
-once stooping from her high maidenly indifference to all men, or
-committing herself to any foolish sentiment.
-
-Everard, too, had his private cogitations on the same subject. He was
-old enough to know a little, though only a very little, about himself,
-and he did ask himself in a vague, indolent sort of way, whether he was
-ready to accept the possible consequences of being shut in a mountain
-solitude like that of Appenzell, not even with Reine, dear reader, for
-he knew his own weakness, but with any pretty and pleasant girl. Half
-whimsically, he admitted to himself, carefully and with natural delicacy
-endeavoring to put away Reine personally from the question, that it was
-more than likely that he would put himself at the feet, in much less
-than six weeks, of any girl in these exceptional circumstances. And he
-tried conscientiously to ask himself whether he was prepared to accept
-the consequences, to settle down with a wife in his waterside cottage,
-on his very moderate income, or to put himself into unwelcome and
-unaccustomed harness of work in order to make that income more. Everard
-quaked and trembled, and acknowledged within himself that it would be
-much better policy to go away, and even to run the risk of being
-slighted by Kate and Sophy, who would lead him into no such danger. He
-felt that this was the thing to do; and almost made up his mind to do
-it. But in the course of the afternoon, he went out to walk by Herbert’s
-wheeled chair to the fir-trees, and instantly, without more ado or any
-hesitation, plunged into all sorts of plans for what they were to do at
-Appenzell.
-
-“My dear fellow,” said Herbert, laughing, “you don’t think I shall be up
-to all those climbings and raids upon the mountains? You and Reine must
-do them, while I lie under the fir-trees and drink whey. I shall watch
-you with a telescope,” said the invalid.
-
-“To be sure,” said Everard, cheerily; “Reine and I will have to do the
-climbing,” and this was his way of settling the question and escaping
-out of temptation. He looked at Reine, who did not venture to look at
-him, and felt his heart thrill with the prospect. How could he leave
-Herbert, who wanted him so much? he asked himself. Cheerful company was
-half the battle, and variety, and some one to laugh him out of his
-invalid fancies; and how was it to be expected that Reine could laugh
-and be cheery all by herself? It would be injurious to both brother and
-sister, he felt sure, if he left them, for Reine was already exhausted
-with the long, unassisted strain; and what would kind Aunt Susan, the
-kindest friend of his youth, say to him if he deserted the young head of
-the house?
-
-Thus the question was decided with a considerable divergence, as will
-be perceived, between the two different lines of argument, and between
-the practical and the logical result.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur, though she was more exact in her reasonings, by
-right of her nation, than these two unphilosophical young persons,
-followed in some respect their fashion of argument, being swayed aside,
-as they were, by personal feelings. She did not at all require to think
-on the disadvantages of the projected expedition, which were as clear as
-noonday. Reine ought not, she knew, to be left alone, as she would
-constantly be, by her brother’s sickness, with Everard, whom she herself
-had selected as a most desirable parti for her daughter. To throw the
-young people thus together was against all les convenances; it was
-actually tempting them to commit some folly or other, putting the means
-into their hands, encouraging them to forget themselves. But then, on
-the other hand, Madame de Mirfleur said to herself, if the worst came to
-the worst, and they did fall absurdly in love with each other, and make
-an exhibition of themselves, there would be no great harm done, and she
-would have the ready answer to all objectors, that she had already
-chosen the young man for her daughter, and considered him as Reine’s
-fiancé. This she knew would stop all mouths. “Comme nous devons nous
-marier!” says the charming ingenue in Alfred de Musset’s pretty play,
-when her lover, half awed, half emboldened by her simplicity, wonders
-she should see no harm in the secret interview he asks. Madame de
-Mirfleur felt that if anything came of it she could silence all
-cavillers by “C’est son fiancé,” just as at present she could make an
-end of all critics by “C’est son cousin.” As for Oscar de Bonneville,
-all hopes of him were over if the party made this sudden move, and she
-must resign herself to that misfortune.
-
-Thus Madame de Mirfleur succeeded like the others in persuading herself
-that what she wanted to do, _i. e._, return to her husband and children,
-and leave the young people to their own devices, was in reality the best
-and kindest thing she could do for them, and that she was securing their
-best interests at a sacrifice of her own feelings.
-
-It was Herbert whose office it was to extort this consent from her; but
-to him in his weakness she skimmed lightly over the difficulties of the
-situation. He could talk of nothing else, having got the excitement of
-change, like wine, into his head.
-
-“Mamma, you are not going to set yourself against it. Reine says you do
-not like it; but when you think what the doctor said--”
-
-He was lying down for his rest after his airing, and very bright-eyed he
-looked in his excitement, and fragile, like a creature whom the wind
-might blow away.
-
-“I will set myself against nothing you wish, my dearest,” said his
-mother; “but you know, mon ’Erbert, how I am torn in pieces. I cannot go
-further from home. M. de Mirfleur is very good; but now that he knows
-you are better, how can I expect him to consent that I should go still
-further away?”
-
-“Reine will take very good care of me, petite mère,” said Herbert
-coaxingly, “and that kind fellow, Everard--”
-
-“Yes, yes, chéri, I know they will take care of you; though your mother
-does not like to trust you altogether even to your sister,” she said
-with a sigh; “but I must think of my Reine too,” she added. “Your kind
-Everard is a young man and Reine a young girl, a fille à marier, and if
-I leave them together with only you for a chaperon, what will everybody
-say?”
-
-Upon which Herbert burst into an unsteady boyish laugh. “Why, old
-Everard!” he cried; “he is Reine’s brother as much as I am. We were all
-brought up together; we were like one family.”
-
-“I have already told mamma so,” said Reine rising, and going to the
-window with a severe air of youthful offence, though with her heart
-beating and plunging in her breast. She had not told her mother so, and
-this Madame de Mirfleur knew, though perhaps the girl herself was not
-aware of it; but the mother was far too wise to take any advantage of
-this slip.
-
-“Yes, my darlings,” she said, “I know it is so; I have always heard him
-spoken of so, and he is very kind to you, my Herbert, so kind that he
-makes me love him,” she said with natural tears coming to her eyes. “I
-have been thinking about it till my head aches. Even if you were to stay
-here, I could not remain much longer now you are better, and as we could
-not send him away, it would come to the same thing here. I will tell you
-what I have thought of doing. I will leave my maid, my good Julie, who
-is fond of you both, to take care of Reine.”
-
-Reine turned round abruptly, with a burning blush on her face, and a
-wild impulse of resistance in her heart. Was Julie to be left as a
-policeman to watch and pry, as if she, Reine, could not take care of
-herself? But the girl met her mother’s eye, which was quite serene and
-always kind, and her heart smote her for the unnecessary rebellion. She
-could not yield or restrain herself all at once, but she turned round
-again and stared out of the window, which was uncivil, but better, the
-reader will allow, than flying out in unfilial wrath.
-
-“Well,” said Herbert, approvingly, on whom the intimation had a very
-soothing effect, “that will be a good thing, mamma, for Reine certainly
-does not take care of herself. She would wear herself to death, if I and
-Everard and François would let her. Par example!” cried the young man,
-laughing, “who is to be Julie’s chaperon? If you are afraid of Reine
-flirting with Everard, which is not her way, who is to prevent Julie
-flirting with François? And I assure you he is not all rangé, he, but a
-terrible fellow. Must I be her chaperon too?”
-
-“Ah, mon bien-aimé, how it does me good to hear you laugh!” cried Madame
-de Mirfleur, with tears in her eyes; and this joke united the little
-family more than tons of wisdom could have done; for Reine, too,
-mollified in a moment, came in from the window half-crying,
-half-laughing, to kiss her brother out of sheer gratitude to him for
-having recovered that blessed faculty. And the invalid was pleased with
-himself for the effect he had produced, and relished his own wit and
-repeated it to Everard, when he made his appearance, with fresh peals of
-laughter, which made them all the best of friends.
-
-The removal was accomplished two days after, Everard in the meantime
-making an expedition to that metropolitan place, Thun, which they all
-felt to be a greater emporium of luxury than London or Paris, and from
-which he brought a carriage full of comforts of every description to
-make up what might be wanting to Herbert’s ease, and to their table
-among the higher and more primitive hills. I cannot tell you how they
-travelled, dear reader, because I do not quite know which is the
-way--but they started from the Kanderthal in the big carriage Everard
-had brought from Thun, with all the people in the hotel out on the steps
-to watch them, and wave kindly farewells, and call out to them friendly
-hopes for the invalid. Madame de Mirfleur cried and sobbed and smiled,
-and waved her handkerchief from her own carriage, which accompanied
-theirs a little bit of the way, when the moment of parting came. Her
-mind was satisfied when she saw Julie safe on the banquette by
-François’s side. Julie was a kind Frenchwoman of five-and-thirty, very
-indulgent to the young people, who were still children to her, and whom
-she had spoilt in her day. She had wept to think she was not going back
-to Babette, but had dried her eyes on contemplating Reine. And the young
-party themselves were not alarmed by Julie. They made great capital of
-Herbert’s joke, which was not perhaps quite so witty as they all
-thought; and thus went off with more youthful tumult, smiles, and
-excitement than the brother and sister had known for years, to the
-valleys of the High Alps and all the unknown things--life or death,
-happiness or misery--that might be awaiting them in those unknown
-regions. It would perhaps be wrong to say that they went without fear of
-one kind or another; but the fear had a thrill in it which was almost as
-good as joy.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-
-The news of Herbert’s second rally, and the hopeful state in which he
-was, did not create so great a sensation among his relations as the
-first had done. The people who were not so deeply interested as Reine,
-and to whom his life or death was of secondary importance, nevertheless
-shared something of her feeling. He was no longer a creature brought up
-from the edge of the grave, miraculously or semi-miraculously restored
-to life and hope, but a sick man fallen back again into the common
-conditions of nature, varying as others vary, now better, now worse, and
-probably as all had made up their mind to the worst, merely showing,
-with perhaps more force than usual, the well-known uncertainty of
-consumptive patients, blazing up in the socket with an effort which,
-though repeated, was still a last effort, and had no real hopefulness in
-it. This they all thought, from Miss Susan, who wished for his recovery,
-to Mr. Farrel-Austin, whose wishes were exactly the reverse. They
-wished, and they did not wish that he might get better; but they no
-longer believed it as possible. Even Augustine paused in her absolute
-faith, and allowed a faint wonder to cross her mind as to what was meant
-by this strange dispensation. She asked to have some sign given her
-whether or not to go on praying for Herbert’s restoration.
-
-“It might be that this was a token to ask no more,” she said to Dr.
-Richard, who was somewhat scandalized by the suggestion. “If it is not
-intended to save him, this may be a sign that his name should be
-mentioned no longer.” Dr. Richard, though he was not half so truly
-confident as Augustine was in the acceptability of her bedesmen’s and
-bedeswomen’s prayers, was yet deeply shocked by this idea. “So long as I
-am chaplain at the alms-houses, so long shall the poor boy be commended
-to God in every litany I say!” he declared with energy, firm as ever in
-his duty and the Church’s laws. It was dreadful to him, Dr. Richard
-said, to be thus, as it were, subordinate to a lady, liable to her
-suggestions, which were contrary to every rubric, though, indeed, he
-never took them. “I suffer much from having these suggestions made to
-me, though I thank God I have never given in--never! and never will!”
-said the old chaplain, with tremulous heroism. He bemoaned himself to
-his wife, who believed in him heartily, and comforted him, and to Miss
-Susan, who gave him a short answer, and to the rector, who chuckled and
-was delighted. “I always said it was an odd position,” he said, “but of
-course you knew when you entered upon it how you would be.” This was all
-the consolation he got, except from his wife, who always entered into
-his feelings, and stood by him on every occasion with her
-smelling-salts. And the more Miss Augustine thought that it was
-unnecessary to pray further for her nephew, the more clearly Dr. Richard
-enunciated his name every time that the Litany was said. The almshouses
-sided with the doctor, I am bound to add, in this, if not in the
-majority of subjects; and old Mrs. Matthews was one of the chief of his
-partisans, “for while there is life there is hope,” she justly said.
-
-But while they were thus thrown back from their first hopes about
-Herbert, Miss Susan was surprised one night by another piece of
-information, to her as exciting as anything about him could be. She had
-gone to her room one August night rather earlier than usual, though the
-hours kept by the household at Whiteladies were always early. Martha had
-gone to bed in the anteroom, where she slept within call of her
-mistress, and all the house, except Miss Susan herself, was stilled in
-slumber. Miss Susan sat wrapped in her dressing-gown, reading before she
-went to bed, as it had always been her habit to do. She had a choice of
-excellent books for this purpose on a little shelf at the side of her
-bed, each with markers in it to keep the place. They were not all
-religious literature, but good “sound reading” books, of the kind of
-which a little goes a long way. She was seated with one of these
-excellent volumes on her knee, perhaps because she was thinking over
-what she had just read, perhaps because her attention had flagged. Her
-attention, it must be allowed, had lately flagged a good deal, since she
-had an absorbing subject of thought, and she had taken to novels and
-other light reading, to her considerable disgust, finding that these
-trifling productions had more power of distracting her from her own
-contemplations than works more worth studying. She was seated thus, as I
-have said, in the big easy chair, with her feet on a foot-stool, her
-dressing-gown wrapping her in its large and loose folds, and her lamp
-burning clearly on the little table--with her book on her lap, not
-reading, but thinking--when all at once her ear was caught by the sound
-of a horse galloping heavily along the somewhat heavy road. It was not
-later than half-past ten when this happened, but half-past ten was a
-very late hour in the parish of St. Augustine. Miss Susan knew at once,
-by intuition, the moment she heard the sound, that this laborious
-messenger, floundering along upon his heavy steed, was coming to her.
-Her heart began to beat. Whiteladies was at some distance from a
-telegraph station, and she had before now received news in this way. She
-opened her window softly and looked out. It was a dark night, raining
-hard, cold and comfortless. She listened to the hoofs coming steadily,
-noisily along, and waited till the messenger appeared, as she felt sure
-he would, at the door. Then she went downstairs quickly, and undid the
-bolts and bars, and received the telegram. “Thank you; good night,” she
-said to him, mechanically, not knowing what she was about, and stumbling
-again up the dark, oaken staircase, which creaked under her foot, and
-where a ghost was said to “walk.” Miss Susan herself, though she was not
-superstitious, did not like to turn her head toward the door of the
-glazed passage, which led to the old playroom and the musicians’
-gallery. Her heart felt sick and faint within her: she believed that she
-held the news of Herbert’s death in her hand, though she had no light to
-read it, and if Herbert himself had appeared to her, standing wan and
-terrible at that door, she would not have felt surprised. Her own room
-was in a disorder which she could not account for when she reached it
-again and shut the door, for it did not at first occur to her that she
-had left the window wide open, letting in the wind, which had scattered
-her little paraphernalia about, and the rain which had made a great wet
-stain upon the old oak floor. She tore the envelope open, feeling more
-and more sick and faint, the chill of the night going through and
-through her, and a deeper chill in her heart. So deeply had one thought
-taken possession of her, that when she read the words in this startling
-missive, she could not at first make out what they meant. For it was not
-an intimation of death, but of birth. Miss Susan stared at it first, and
-then sat down in a chair and tried to understand what it meant. And this
-was what she read:
-
-“Dieu soit loué, un garçon. Né à deux heures et demi de l’après-midi ce
-16 Août. Loué soit le bon Dieu.”
-
-Miss Susan could not move; her whole being seemed seized with cruel
-pain. “Praised be God. God be praised!” She gave a low cry, and fell on
-her knees by her bedside. Was it to echo that ascription of praise? The
-night wind blew in and blew about the flame of the lamp and of the dim
-night-light in the other corner of the room, and the rain rained in,
-making a larger and larger circle, like a pool of blood upon the floor.
-A huge shadow of Miss Susan flickered upon the opposite wall, cast by
-the waving lamp which was behind her. She lay motionless, now and then
-uttering a low, painful cry, with her face hid against the bed.
-
-But this could not last. She got up after awhile, and shut the window,
-and drew the curtains as before, and picked up the handkerchief, the
-letters, the little Prayer Book, which the wind had tossed about, and
-put back her book on its shelf. She had no one to speak to, and she did
-not, you may suppose, speak to herself, though a strong impulse moved
-her to go and wake Martha; not that she could have confided in Martha,
-but only to have the comfort of a human face to look at, and a voice to
-say something to her, different from that “Dieu soit loué--loué soit le
-bon Dieu,” which seemed to ring in her ears. But Miss Susan knew that
-Martha would be cross if she were roused, and that no one in the
-peaceful house would do more than stare at this information she had
-received; no one would take the least interest in it for itself, and no
-one, no one! could tell what it was to her. She was very cold, but she
-could not go to bed; the hoofs of the horse receding into the distance
-seemed to keep echoing into her ears long after they must have got out
-of hearing; every creak of the oaken boards, as she walked up and down,
-seemed to be some voice calling to her. And how the old boards creaked!
-like so many spectators, ancestors, old honorable people of the house,
-crowding round to look at the one who had brought dishonor into it. Miss
-Susan had met with no punishment for her wicked plan up to this time.
-It had given her excitement, nothing more, but now the deferred penalty
-had come. She walked about on the creaking boards afraid of them, and
-terrified at the sound, in such a restless anguish as I cannot describe.
-Up to this time kind chance, or gracious Providence, might have made her
-conspiracy null; but neither God nor accident (how does a woman who has
-done wrong know which word to use?) had stepped in to help her. And now
-it was irremediable, past her power or any one’s to annul the evil. And
-the worst of all was those words which the old man in Bruges, who was
-her dupe and not her accomplice, had repeated in his innocence, that the
-name of the new-born might have God’s name on either side to protect it.
-“Dieu soit loué!” she repeated to herself, shuddering. She seemed to
-hear it repeated to all round, not piously, but mockingly, shouted at
-her by eldrich voices. “Praised be God! God be praised!” for what? for
-the accomplishment of a lie, a cheat, a conspiracy! Miss Susan’s limbs
-trembled under her. She could not tell how it was that the vengeance of
-heaven did not fall and crush the old house which had never before
-sheltered such a crime. But Augustine was asleep, praying in her sleep
-like an angel, under the same old roof, offering up continual
-adorations, innocent worship for the expiation of some visionary sins
-which nobody knew anything of; would they answer for the wiping away of
-her sister’s sin which was so real? Miss Susan walked up and down all
-the long night. She lay down on her bed toward morning, chiefly that no
-one might see how deeply agitated she had been, and when Martha got up
-at the usual hour asked for a cup of tea to restore her a little. “I
-have not been feeling quite well,” said Miss Susan, to anticipate any
-remarks as to her wan looks.
-
-“So I was afraid, miss,” said Martha, “but I thought as you’d call me if
-you wanted anything.” This lukewarm devotion made Miss Susan smile.
-
-Notwithstanding all her sufferings, however, she wrote a letter to Mr.
-Farrel-Austin that morning, and sent it by a private messenger,
-enclosing her telegram, so undeniably genuine, with a few accompanying
-words. “I am afraid you will not be exhilarated by this intelligence,”
-she wrote, “though I confess for my part it gives me pleasure, as
-continuing the family in the old stock. But anyhow, I feel it is my duty
-to forward it to you. It is curious to think,” she added, “that but for
-your kind researches, I might never have found out these Austins of
-Bruges.” This letter Miss Susan sealed with her big Whiteladies seal,
-and enclosed the telegram in a large envelope. And she went about all
-her ordinary occupations that day, and looked and even felt very much as
-usual. “I had rather a disturbed night, and could not sleep,” she said
-by way of explanation of the look of exhaustion she was conscious of.
-And she wrote to old Guillaume Austin of Bruges a very kind and friendly
-letter, congratulating him, and hoping that, if she had the misfortune
-to lose her nephew (who, however, she was very happy to tell him, was
-much better), his little grandson might long and worthily fill the place
-of master of Whiteladies. It was a letter which old Guillaume translated
-with infinite care and some use of the dictionary, not only to his
-family, but also to his principal customers, astonishing them by the
-news of his good fortune. To be sure his poor Gertrude, his daughter,
-was mourning the loss of her baby, born on the same day as his
-daughter-in-law’s fine boy, but which had not survived its birth. She
-was very sad about it, poor child; but still that was a sorrow which
-would glide imperceptibly away, while this great joy and pride and honor
-would remain.
-
-I need not tell how Mr. Farrel-Austin tore his hair. He received his
-cousin Susan’s intimation of the fact that it was he who had discovered
-the Austins of Bruges for her with an indescribable dismay and rage, and
-showed the telegram to his wife, grinding his teeth at her. “Every poor
-wretch in the world--except you!” he cried, till poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin
-shrank and wept. There was nothing he would not have done to show his
-rage and despite, but he could do nothing except bully his wife and his
-servants. His daughters were quite matches for him, and would not be
-bullied. They were scarcely interested in the news of a new heir.
-“Herbert being better, what does it matter?” said Kate and Sophy. “I
-could understand your being in a state of mind about him. It _is_ hard,
-after calculating upon the property, to have him get better in spite of
-you,” said one of these young ladies, with the frankness natural to her
-kind; “but what does it matter now if there were a whole regiment of
-babies in the way? Isn’t a miss as good as a mile?” This philosophy did
-not affect the wrathful and dissatisfied man, who had no faith in
-Herbert’s recovery--but it satisfied the girls, who thought papa was
-getting really too bad; yet, as they managed to get most things they
-wanted, were not particularly impressed even by the loss of Whiteladies.
-“What with Herbert getting better and this new baby, whoever it is, I
-suppose old Susan will be in great fig,” the one sister said. “I wish
-them joy of their old tumbledown hole of a place,” said the other; and
-so their lament was made for their vanished hope.
-
-Thus life passed on with all the personages involved in this history.
-The only other incident that happened just then was one which concerned
-the little party in Switzerland. Everard was summoned home in haste,
-when he had scarcely done more than escort his cousins to their new
-quarters, and so that little romance, if it had ever been likely to come
-to a romance, was nipped in the bud. He had to come back about business,
-which, with the unoccupied and moderately rich, means almost invariably
-bad fortune. His money, not too much to start with, had been invested in
-doubtful hands; and when he reached England he found that he had lost
-half of it by the delinquency of a manager who had run away with his
-money, and that of a great many people besides. Everard, deprived at a
-blow of half his income, was fain to take the first employment that
-offered, which was a mission to the West Indies, to look after property
-there, partly his own, partly belonging to his fellow-sufferers, which
-had been allowed to drop into that specially hopeless Slough of Despond
-which seems natural to West Indian affairs. He went away, poor fellow,
-feeling that life had changed totally for him, and leaving behind both
-the dreams and the reality of existence. His careless days were all
-over. What he had to think of now was how to save the little that
-remained to him, and do his duty by the others who, on no good grounds,
-only because he had been energetic and ready, had intrusted their
-interests to him. Why they should have trusted him, who knew nothing of
-business, and whose only qualification was that gentlemanly vagabondage
-which is always ready to go off to the end of the world at a moment’s
-notice, Everard could not tell; but he meant to do his best, if only to
-secure some other occupation for himself when this job was done.
-
-This was rather a sad interruption, in many ways, to the young man’s
-careless life; and they all felt it as a shock. He left Herbert under
-the pine-trees, weak but hopeful, looking as if any breeze might make
-an end of him, so fragile was he, the soul shining through him almost
-visibly, yet an air of recovery about him which gave all lookers-on a
-tremulous confidence; and Reine, with moisture in her eyes which she did
-not try to conceal, and an ache in her heart which she did conceal, but
-poorly. Everard had taken his cousin’s privilege, and kissed her on the
-forehead when he went away, trying not to think of the deep blush which
-surged up to the roots of her hair. But poor Reine saw him go with a
-pang which she could disclose to nobody, and which at first seemed to
-fill her heart too full of pain to be kept down. She had not realized,
-till he was gone, how great a place he had taken in her little world;
-and the surprise was as great as the pain. How dreary the valley looked,
-how lonely her life when his carriage drove away down the hill to the
-world! How the Alpine heights seemed to close in, and the very sky to
-contract! Only a few days before, when they arrived, everything had
-looked so different. Now even the friendly tourists of the Kanderthal
-would have been some relief to the dead blank of solitude which closed
-over Reine. She had her brother, as always, to nurse and care for, and
-watch daily and hourly on his passage back to life, and many were the
-forlorn moments when she asked herself what did she want more? what had
-she ever desired more? Many and many a day had Reine prayed, and pledged
-herself in her prayers, to be contented with anything, if Herbert was
-but spared to her; and now Herbert was spared and getting better--yet
-lo! she was miserable. The poor girl had a tough battle to fight with
-herself in that lonely Swiss valley, but she stood to her arms, even
-when capable of little more, and kept up her courage so heroically, that
-when, for the first time, Herbert wrote a little note to Everard as he
-had promised, he assured the traveller that he had scarcely missed him,
-Reine had been so bright and so kind. When Reine read this little
-letter, she felt a pang of mingled pain and pleasure. She had not
-betrayed herself. “But it is a little unkind to Everard to say I have
-been so bright since his going,” she said, feeling her voice thick with
-tears. “Oh, he will not mind,” said Herbert, lightly, “and you know it
-is true. After all, though he was a delightful companion, there is
-nothing so sweet as being by ourselves,” the sick boy added, with
-undoubting confidence. “Oh, what a trickster I am!” poor Reine said to
-herself; and she kissed him, and told him that she hoped he would think
-so always, always! which Herbert promised in sheer lightness of heart.
-
-And thus we leave this helpless pair, like the rest, to themselves for a
-year; Herbert to get better as he could, Reine to fight her battle out,
-and win it so far, and recover the calm of use and wont. Eventually the
-sky widened to her, and the hills drew farther off, and the oppression
-loosened from her heart. She took Herbert to Italy in October, still
-mending; and wrote long and frequent letters about him to Whiteladies,
-boasting of his walks and increasing strength, and promising that next
-Summer he should go home. I don’t want the reader to think that Reine
-had altogether lost her heart during this brief episode. It came back to
-her after awhile, having been only vagrant, errant, as young hearts will
-be by times. She had but learned to know, for the first time in her
-life, what a difference happens in this world according to the presence
-or absence of one being; how such a one can fill up the space and
-pervade the atmosphere; and how, suddenly going, he seems to carry
-everything away with him. Her battle and struggle and pain were half
-owing to the shame and distress with which she found out that a man
-could do this, and had done it, though only for a few days, to herself;
-leaving her in a kind of blank despair when he was gone. But she got rid
-of this feeling (or thought she did), and the world settled back into
-its right proportions, and she said to herself that she was again her
-own mistress. Yet there were moments when the stars were shining, when
-the twilight was falling, when the moon was up--or sometimes in the very
-heat of the day, when a sensible young woman has no right to give way to
-folly--when Reine all at once would feel not her own mistress, and the
-world again would all melt away to make room for one shadow. As the
-Winter passed, however, she got the better of this sensation daily, she
-was glad to think. To be sure there was no reason why she should not
-think of Everard if she liked; but her main duty was to take care of
-Herbert, and to feel, once more, if she could, as she had once felt, and
-as she still professed to feel, poor child, in her prayers, that if
-Herbert only lived she would ask for nothing more.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-
-About two years after the events I have just described, in the Autumn,
-when life was low and dreary at Whiteladies, a new and unexpected
-visitor arrived at the old house. Herbert and his sister had not come
-home that Summer, as they had hoped--nor even the next. He was better,
-almost out of the doctor’s hands, having taken, it was evident, a new
-lease of life. But he was not strong, nor could ever be; his life,
-though renewed, and though it might now last for years, could never be
-anything but that of an invalid. So much all his advisers had granted.
-He might last as long as any of the vigorous persons round him, by dint
-of care and constant watchfulness; but it was not likely that he could
-ever be a strong man like others, or that he could live without taking
-care of himself, or being taken care of. This, which they would all have
-hailed with gratitude while he was very ill, seemed but a pale kind of
-blessedness now when it was assured, and when it became certain his
-existence must be spent in thinking about his health, in moving from one
-place to another as the season went on, according as this place or the
-other “agreed with him,” seeking the cool in Summer and the warmth in
-Winter, with no likelihood of ever being delivered from this bondage. He
-had scarcely found this out himself, poor fellow, but still entertained
-hopes of getting strong, at some future moment always indefinitely
-postponed. He had not been quite strong enough to venture upon England
-during the Summer, much as he had looked forward to it; and though in
-the meantime he had come of age, and nominally assumed the control of
-his own affairs, the celebration of this coming of age had been a dreary
-business enough. Farrel-Austin, looking black as night, and feeling
-himself a man swindled and cheated out of his rights, had been present
-at the dinner of the tenantry, in spite of himself, and with sentiments
-toward Herbert which may be divined; and with only such dismal pretence
-at delight as could be shown by the family solicitor, whose head was
-full of other things, the rejoicings had passed over. There had been a
-great field-day, indeed, at the almshouse chapel, where the old people,
-with their cracked voices, tried to chant Psalms xx. and xxi., and were
-much bewildered in their old souls as to whom “the king” might be whose
-desire of his heart they thus prayed God to grant. Mrs. Matthews alone,
-who was more learned, theologically, than her neighbors, having been
-brought up a Methody, professed to some understanding of it; but even
-she was wonderfully confused between King David and a greater than he,
-and poor young Herbert, whose birthday it was. “He may be the squire, if
-you please, and if so be as he lives,” said old Sarah, who was Mrs.
-Matthews’s rival, “many’s the time I’ve nursed him, and carried him
-about in my arms, and who should know if I don’t? But there ain’t no
-power in this world as can make young Mr. Herbert king o’ England, so
-long as the Prince o’ Wales is to the fore, and the rest o’ them. If
-Miss Augustine was to swear to it, I knows better; and you can tell her
-that from me.”
-
-“He can’t be King o’ England,” said Mrs. Matthews, “neither me nor Miss
-Augustine thinks of anything of the kind. It’s awful to see such
-ignorance o’ spiritual meanings. What’s the Bible but spiritual
-meanings? You don’t take the blessed Word right off according to what it
-says.”
-
-“That’s the difference between you and me,” said old Sarah, boldly. “I
-does; and I hope I practise my Bible, instead of turning of it off into
-any kind of meanings. I’ve always heard as that was one of the
-differences atween Methodies and good steady Church folks.”
-
-“Husht, husht, here’s the doctor a-coming,” said old Mrs. Tolladay, who
-kept the peace between the parties, but liked to tell the story of their
-conflicts afterward to any understanding ear. “I dunno much about how
-Mr. Herbert, poor lad, could be the King myself,” she said to the vicar,
-who was one of her frequent auditors, and who dearly liked a joke about
-the almshouses, which were a kind of _imperium in imperio_, a separate
-principality within his natural dominions; “but Miss Augustine warn’t
-meaning that. If she’s queer, she ain’t a rebel nor nothing o’ that
-sort, but says her prayers for the Queen regular, like the rest of us.
-As for meanings, Tolladay says to me, we’ve no call to go searching for
-meanings like them two, but just to do what we’re told, as is the whole
-duty of man, me and Tolladay says. As for them two, they’re as good as a
-play. ‘King David was ’im as had all his desires granted ’im, and long
-life and help out o’ Zion,’ said Mrs. Matthews. ‘And a nice person he
-was to have all his wants,’ says old Sarah. I’d ha’ shut my door pretty
-fast in the man’s face, if he’d come here asking help, I can tell you.
-Call him a king if you please, but I calls him no better nor the rest--a
-peepin’ and a spyin’--’”
-
-“What did she mean by that?” asked the vicar, amused, but wondering.
-
-“’Cause of the woman as was a-washing of herself, sir,” said Mrs.
-Tolladay, modestly looking down. “Sarah can’t abide him for that; but I
-says as maybe it was a strange sight so long agone. Folks wasn’t so
-thoughtful of washings and so forth in old times. When I was in service
-myself, which is a good bit since, there wasn’t near the fuss about
-baths as there is nowadays, not even among the gentlefolks. Says Mrs.
-Matthews, ‘He was a man after God’s own heart, he was.’ ‘I ain’t a-goin’
-to find fault with my Maker, it ain’t my place,’ says Sarah; ‘but I
-don’t approve o’ his taste.’ And that’s as true as I stand here. She’s a
-bold woman, is old Sarah. There’s many as might think it, but few as
-would say it. Anyhow, I can’t get it out o’ my mind as it was somehow
-Mr. Herbert as we was a chanting of, and never King David. Poor man,
-he’s dead this years and years,” said Mrs. Tolladay, “and you know, as
-well as me, sir, that there are no devices nor labors found, nor wisdom,
-as the hymn says, underneath the ground.”
-
-“Well, Mrs. Tolladay,” said the vicar, who had laughed his laugh out,
-and bethought himself of what was due to his profession, “let us hope
-that young Mr. Austin’s desires will all be good ones, and that so we
-may pray God to give them to him, without anything amiss coming of it.”
-
-“That’s just what I say, sir,” said Mrs. Tolladay, “it’s for all the
-world like the toasts as used to be the fashion in my young days, when
-folks drank not to your health, as they do now, but to your wishes, if
-so be as they were vartuous. Many a time that’s been done to me, when I
-was a young girl; and I am sure,” she added with a curtsey, taking the
-glass of wine with which the vicar usually rewarded the amusement her
-gossip gave him, “as I may say that to you and not be afraid; I drink to
-your wishes, sir.”
-
-“As long as they are virtuous,” said the vicar, laughing; and for a long
-time after he was very fond of retailing old Sarah’s difference of
-opinion with her Maker, which perhaps the gentle reader may have heard
-attributed to a much more important person.
-
-Miss Susan gave the almshouse people a gorgeous supper in the evening,
-at which I am grieved to say old John Simmons had more beer than was
-good for him, and volunteered a song, to the great horror of the
-chaplain and the chaplain’s wife, and many spectators from the village
-who had come to see the poor old souls enjoying this unusual festivity.
-“Let him sing if he likes,” old Sarah cried, who was herself a little
-jovial. “It’s something for you to tell, you as comes a-finding fault
-and a-prying at poor old folks enjoying themselves once in a way.” “Let
-them stare,” said Mrs. Matthews, for once backing up her rival; “it’ll
-do ’em good to see that we ain’t wild beasts a-feeding, but poor folks
-as well off as rich folks, which ain’t common.” “No it ain’t, misses;
-you’re right there,” said the table by general consent; and after this
-the spectators slunk away. But I am obliged to admit that John Simmons
-was irrepressible, and groaned out a verse of song which ran into a
-deplorable chorus, in which several of the old men joined in the elation
-of their hearts--but by means of their wives and other authorities
-suffered for it next day.
-
-Thus Herbert’s birthday passed without Herbert, who was up among the
-pines again, breathing in their odors and getting strong, as they all
-said, though not strong enough to come home. Herbert enjoyed this lazy
-and languid existence well enough, poor fellow; but Reine since that
-prick of fuller and warmer life came momentarily to her, had not enjoyed
-it. She had lost her pretty color, except at moments when she was
-excited, and her eyes had grown bigger, and had that wistful look in
-them which comes when a girl has begun to look out into the world from
-her little circle of individuality, and to wonder what real life is
-like, with longing to try its dangers. In a boy, this longing is the
-best thing that can be, inspiriting him to exertion; but in a girl, what
-shape can it take but a longing for some one who will open the door of
-living to her, and lead her out into the big world, of which girls too,
-like boys, form such exaggerated hopes? Reine was not thinking of any
-one in particular, she said to herself often; but her life had grown
-just a little weary to her, and felt small and limited and poor, and as
-if it must go on in the same monotony forever and ever. There came a
-nameless, restless sense upon her of looking for something that might
-happen at any moment, which is the greatest mental trouble young woman
-have to encounter, who are obliged to be passive, not active, in
-settling their own fate. I remember hearing a high-spirited and fanciful
-girl, who had been dreadfully sobered by her plunge into marriage,
-declare the chief advantage of that condition to be--that you had no
-longer any restlessness of expectation, but had come down to reality,
-and knew all that was ever to come of you, and at length could fathom at
-once the necessity and the philosophy of content. This is, perhaps,
-rather a dreary view to take of the subject; but, however, Reine was in
-the troublous state of expectation, which this young woman declared to
-be thus put an end to. She was as a young man often is, whose friends
-keep him back from active occupation, wondering whether this flat round
-was to go on forever, or whether next moment, round the next corner,
-there might not be something waiting which would change her whole life.
-
-As for Miss Susan and her sister, they went on living at Whiteladies as
-of old. The management of the estate had been, to some extent, taken out
-of Miss Susan’s hands at Herbert’s majority, but as she had done
-everything for it for years, and knew more about it than anybody else,
-she was still so much consulted and referred to that the difference was
-scarcely more than in name. Herbert had written “a beautiful letter” to
-his aunts when he came of age, begging them not so much as to think of
-any change, and declaring that even were he able to come home,
-Whiteladies would not be itself to him unless the dear White ladies of
-his childhood were in it as of old. “That is all very well,” said Miss
-Susan, “but if he gets well enough to marry, poor boy, which pray God he
-may, he will want his house to himself.” Augustine took no notice at all
-of the matter. To her it was of no importance where she lived; a room
-in the Almshouses would have pleased her as well as the most sumptuous
-chamber, so long as she was kept free from all domestic business, and
-could go and come, and muse and pray as she would. She gave the letter
-back to her sister without a word on its chief subject. “His wife should
-be warned of the curse that is on the house,” she said with a soft sigh;
-and that was all.
-
-“The curse, Austine?” said Miss Susan with a little shiver. “You have
-turned it away, dear, if it ever existed. How can you speak of a curse
-when this poor boy is spared, and is going to live?”
-
-“It is not turned away, it is only suspended,” said Augustine. “I feel
-it still hanging like a sword over us. If we relax in our prayers, in
-our efforts to make up, as much as we can, for the evil done, any day it
-may fall.”
-
-Miss Susan shivered once more; a tremulous chill ran over her. She was
-much stronger, much more sensible of the two; but what has that to do
-with such a question? especially with the consciousness she had in her
-heart. This consciousness, however, had been getting lighter and
-lighter, as Herbert grew stronger and stronger. She had sinned, but God
-was so good to her that He was making her sin of no effect, following
-her wickedness, to her great joy, not by shame or exposure, as He might
-so well have done, but by His blessing which neutralized it altogether.
-Thinking over it for all these many days, now that it seemed likely to
-do no practical harm to any one, perhaps it was not, after all, so great
-a sin. Three people only were involved in the guilt of it; and the
-guilt, after all, was but a deception. Deceptions are practised
-everywhere, often even by good people, Miss Susan argued with herself,
-and this was one which, at present, could scarcely be said to harm
-anybody, and which, even in the worst of circumstances, was not an
-actual turning away of justice, but rather a lawless righting, by means
-of a falsehood, of a legal wrong which was false to nature. Casuistry is
-a science which it is easy to learn. The most simple minds become adepts
-in it; the most virtuous persons find a refuge there when necessity
-moves them. Talk of Jesuitry! as if this art was not far more universal
-than that maligned body, spreading where they were never heard of, and
-lying close to every one of us! As time went on Miss Susan might have
-taken a degree in it--mistress of the art--though there was nobody who
-knew her in all the country round, who would not have sworn by her
-straightforwardness and downright truth and honor. And what with this
-useful philosophy, and what with Herbert’s recovery, the burden had gone
-off her soul gradually; and by this time she had so put her visit to
-Bruges, and the telegrams and subsequent letters she had received on the
-same subject out of her mind, that it seemed to her, when she thought of
-it, like an uneasy dream, which she was glad to forget, but which had no
-more weight than a dream upon her living and the course of events. She
-had been able to deal Farrel-Austin a good downright blow by means of
-it: and though Miss Susan was a good woman, she was not sorry for that.
-And all the rest had come to nothing--it had done no harm to any one, at
-least, no harm to speak of--nothing that had not been got over long ago.
-Old Austin’s daughter, Gertrude, the fair young matron whom Miss Susan
-had seen at Bruges, had already had another baby, and no doubt had
-forgotten the little one she lost; and the little boy, who was Herbert’s
-heir presumptive, was the delight and pride of his grandfather and of
-all the house. So what harm was done? The burden grew lighter and
-lighter, as she asked herself this question, at Miss Susan’s heart.
-
-One day in this Autumn there came, however, as I have said, a change and
-interruption to these thoughts. It was October, and though there is no
-finer month sometimes in our changeable English climate, October can be
-chill enough when it pleases, as all the world knows. It was not a time
-of the year favorable, at least when the season was wet, to the country
-about Whiteladies. To be sure, the wealth of trees took on lovely tints
-of Autumn colors when you could see them; but when it rained day after
-day, as it did that season, every wood and byway was choked up with
-fallen leaves; the gardens were all strewn with them; the heaviness of
-decaying vegetation was in the air; and everything looked dismal,
-ragged, and worn out. The very world seemed going to pieces, rending off
-its garments piecemeal, and letting them rot at its melancholy feet. The
-rain poured down out of the heavy skies as if it would never end. The
-night fell soon on the ashamed and pallid day. The gardener at
-Whiteladies swept his lawn all day long, but never got clear of those
-rags and scraps of foliage which every wind loosened. Berks was like a
-dissipated old-young man, worn out before his time. On one of those
-dismal evenings, Augustine was coming from the Evening Service at the
-almshouses in the dark, just before nightfall. With her gray hood over
-her head, and her hands folded into her great gray sleeves, she looked
-like a ghost gliding through the perturbed and ragged world; but she was
-a comfortable ghost, her peculiar dress suiting the season. As she came
-along the road, for the byway through the fields was impassable, she saw
-before her another shrouded figure, not gray as she was, but black,
-wrapped in a great hooded cloak, and stumbling forward against the rain
-and wind. I will not undertake to say that Augustine’s visionary eyes
-noticed her closely; but any unfamiliar figure makes itself remarked on
-a country road, where generally every figure is most familiar. This
-woman was unusually tall, and she was evidently a stranger. She carried
-a child in her arms, and stopped at every house and at every turning to
-look eagerly about her, as if looking for something or some one, in a
-strange place. She went along more and more slowly, till Augustine,
-walking on in her uninterrupted, steady way, turning neither to the
-right nor to the left hand, came up to her. The stranger had seen her
-coming, and, I suppose, Augustine’s dress had awakened hopes of succor
-in her mind, bearing some resemblance to the religious garb which was
-well known to her. At length, when the leafy road which led to the side
-door of Whiteladies struck off from the highway, bewildering her
-utterly, she stood still at the corner and waited for the approach of
-the other wayfarer, the only one visible in all this silent, rural
-place. “Ma sœur!” she said softly, to attract her attention. Then
-touching Augustine’s long gray sleeve, stammered in English, “I lost my
-way. Ma sœur, aidez-moi pour l’amour de Dieu!”
-
-“You are a stranger,” said Augustine; “you want to find some one? I will
-help you if I can. Where is it you want to go?”
-
-The woman looked at her searchingly, which was but a trick of her
-imperfect English, to make out by study of her face and lips, as well as
-by hearing, what she said. Her child began to cry, and she hushed it
-impatiently, speaking roughly to the curiously-dressed creature, which
-had a little cap of black stuff closely tied down under its chin. Then
-she said once more, employing the name evidently as a talisman to secure
-attention, “Ma sœur! I want Viteladies; can you tell me where it
-is?”
-
-“Whiteladies!”
-
-“That is the name. I am very fatigued, and a stranger, ma sœur.”
-
-“If you are very fatigued and a stranger, you shall come to Whiteladies,
-whatever you want there,” said Augustine. “I am going to the house now;
-come with me--by this way.”
-
-She turned into Priory Lane, the old avenue, where they were soon
-ankle-deep in fallen leaves. The child wailed on the woman’s shoulder,
-and she shook it, lightly indeed, but harshly. “Tais-toi donc, petit
-sot!” she said sharply; then turning with the ingratiating tone she had
-used before. “We are very fatigued, ma sœur. We have come over the
-sea. I know little English. What I have learn, I learn all by myself,
-that no one know. I come to London, and then to Viteladies. It is a long
-way.”
-
-“And why do you want to come to Whiteladies?” said Augustine. “It was a
-strange place to think of--though I will never send a stranger and a
-tired person away without food and rest, at least. But what has brought
-you here?”
-
-“Ah! I must not tell it, my story; it is a strange story. I come to see
-one old lady, who other times did come to see me. She will not know me,
-perhaps; but she will know my name. My name is like her own. It is
-Austin, ma sœur.”
-
-“Osteng?” said Augustine, struck with surprise; “that is not my name.
-Ah, you are French, to be sure. You mean Austin? You have the same name
-as we have; who are you, then? I have never seen you before.”
-
-“You, ma sœur! but it was not you. It was a lady more stout, more
-large, not religious. Ah, no, not you; but another. There are, perhaps,
-many lady in the house?”
-
-“It may be my sister you mean,” said Augustine; and she opened the gate
-and led up to the porch, where on this wet and chilly day there was no
-token of the warm inhabited look it bore in Summer. There was scarcely
-any curiosity roused in her mind, but a certain pity for the tired
-creature whom she took in, opening the door, as Christabel took in the
-mysterious lady. “There is a step, take care,” said Augustine holding
-out her hand to the stranger, who grasped at it to keep herself from
-stumbling. It was almost dark, and the glimmer from the casement of the
-long, many-cornered passage, with its red floor, scarcely gave light
-enough to make the way visible. “Ah, merci, ma sœur!” said the
-stranger, “I shall not forget that you have brought me in, when I was
-fatigued and nearly dead.”
-
-“Do not thank me,” said Augustine; “if you know my sister you have a
-right to come in; but I always help the weary; do not thank me. I do it
-to take away the curse from the house.”
-
-The stranger did not know what she meant, but stood by her in the dark,
-drawing a long, hard breath, and staring at her with dark, mysterious,
-almost menacing, eyes.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-
-“Here is some one, Susan, who knows you,” said Augustine, introducing
-the newcomer into the drawing-room where her sister sat. It was a
-wainscoted room, very handsome and warm in its brown panelling, in which
-the firelight shone reflected. There was a bright fire, and the room
-doubled itself by means of a large mirror over the mantelpiece, antique
-like the house, shining out of black wood and burnished brass. Miss
-Susan sat by the fire with her knitting, framing one of those elaborate
-meshes of casuistry which I have already referred to. The table close by
-her was heaped with books, drawings for the chantry, and for the
-improvement of an old house in the neighborhood which she had bought in
-order to be independent, whatever accidents might happen. She was more
-tranquil than usual in the quiet of her thoughts, having made an effort
-to dismiss the more painful subject altogether, and to think only of the
-immediate future as it appeared now in the light of Herbert’s recovery.
-She was thinking how to improve the house she had bought, which at
-present bore the unmeaning title of St. Augustine’s Grange, and which
-she mirthfully announced her intention of calling Gray-womans, as a
-variation upon Whiteladies. Miss Susan was sixty, and pretended to no
-lingering of youthfulness; but she was so strong and full of life that
-nobody thought of her as an old woman, and though she professed, as
-persons of her age do, to have but a small amount of life left, she had
-no real feeling to this effect (as few have), and was thinking of her
-future house and planning conveniences for it as carefully as if she
-expected to live in it for a hundred years. If she had been doing this
-with the immediate prospect of leaving Whiteladies before her, probably
-she might have felt a certain pain; but as she had no idea of leaving
-Whiteladies, there was nothing to disturb the pleasure with which almost
-every mind plans and plots the arrangement of a house. It is one of the
-things which everybody likes to attempt, each of us having a confidence
-that we shall succeed in it. By the fire which felt so warmly pleasant
-in contrast with the grayness without, having just decided with
-satisfaction that it was late enough to have the lamp lighted, the
-curtains drawn, and the grayness shut out altogether; and with the moral
-consolation about her of having got rid of her spectre, and of having
-been happily saved from all consequences of her wickedness, Miss Susan
-sat pondering her new house, and knitting her shawl, mind and hands
-alike occupied, and as near being happy as most women of sixty ever
-succeed in being. She turned round with a smile as Augustine spoke.
-
-I cannot describe the curious shock and sense as of a stunning blow that
-came all at once upon her. She did not recognize the woman, whom she had
-scarcely seen, nor did she realize at all what was to follow. The
-stranger stood in the full light, throwing back the hood of her cloak
-which had been drawn over her bonnet. She was very tall, slight, and
-dark. Who was she? It was easier to tell what she was. No one so
-remarkable in appearance had entered the old house for years. She was
-not pretty or handsome only, but beautiful, with fine features and great
-dark, flashing, mysterious eyes; not a creature to be overlooked or
-passed with slighting notice. Unconsciously as she looked at her, Miss
-Susan rose to her feet in instinctive homage to her beauty, which was
-like that of a princess. Who was she? The startled woman could not tell,
-yet felt somehow, not only that she knew her, but that she had known of
-her arrival all her life, and was prepared for it, although she could
-not tell what it meant. She stood up and faced her faltering, and said,
-“This lady--knows me? but, pardon me, I don’t know you.”
-
-“Yes; it is this one,” said the stranger. “You not know me, Madame? You
-see me at my beau-père’s house at Bruges. Ah! you remember now. And this
-is your child,” she said suddenly, with a significant smile, putting
-down the baby by Miss Susan’s feet. “I have brought him to you.”
-
-“Ah!” Miss Susan said with a suppressed cry. She looked helplessly from
-one to the other for a moment, holding up her hands as if in appeal to
-all the world against this sudden and extraordinary visitor. “You
-are--Madame Austin,” she said still faltering, “their son’s wife? Yes.
-Forgive me for not knowing you,” she said, “I hope--you are better now?”
-
-“Yes, I am well,” said the young woman, sitting down abruptly. The
-child, which was about two years old, gave a crow of delight at sight of
-the fire, and crept toward it instantly on his hands and knees. Both the
-baby and the mother seemed to take possession at once of the place. She
-began to undo and throw back on Miss Susan’s pretty velvet-covered
-chairs her wet cloak, and taking off her bonnet laid it on the table, on
-the plans of the new house. The boy, for his part, dragged himself over
-the great soft rug to the fender, where he sat down triumphant, holding
-his baby hands to the fire. His cap, which was made like a little
-night-cap of black stuff, with a border of coarse white lace very full
-round his face, such as French and Flemish children wear, was a
-headdress worn in-doors, and out-of-doors and not to be taken off--but
-he kicked himself free of the shawl in which he had been enveloped on
-his way to the fender. Augustine stood in her abstract way behind, not
-noticing much and waiting only to see if anything was wanted of her;
-while Miss Susan, deeply agitated, and not knowing what to say or do,
-stood also, dispossessed, looking from the child to the woman, and from
-the woman to the child.
-
-“You have come from Bruges?” she said, rousing herself to talk a little,
-yet in such a confusion of mind that she did not know what she said.
-“You have had bad weather, unfortunately. You speak English? My French
-is so bad that I am glad of that.”
-
-“I know ver’ little,” said the stranger. “I have learn all alone, that
-nobody might know. I have planned it for long time to get a little
-change. Enfant, tais-toi; he is bad; he is disagreeable; but it is to
-you he owes his existence, and I have brought him to you.”
-
-“You do not mean to give him a bad character, poor little thing,” Miss
-Susan said with a forced smile. “Take care, take care, baby!”
-
-“He will not take care. He likes to play with fire, and he does not
-understand you,” said the woman, with almost a look of pleasure. Miss
-Susan seized the child and, drawing him away from the fender, placed
-him on the rug; and then the house echoed with a lusty cry, that
-startling cry of childhood which is so appalling to the solitary. Miss
-Susan, desperate and dismayed, tried what she could to amend her
-mistake. She took the handsomest book on the table in her agitation and
-thrust its pictures at him; she essayed to take him on her lap; she
-rushed to a cabinet and got out some curiosities to amuse him. “Dear,
-dear! cannot you pacify him?” she said at last. Augustine had turned
-away and gone out of the room, which was a relief.
-
-“He does not care for me,” said the woman with a smile, leaning back in
-her chair and stretching out her feet to the fire. “Sometimes he will
-scream only when he catches sight of me. I brought him to you;--his
-aunt,” she added meaningly, “Madame knows--Gertrude, who lost her
-baby--can manage him, but not me. He is your child, Madame of the
-Viteladies. I bring him to you.”
-
-“Oh, heaven help me! heaven help me!” cried Miss Susan wringing her
-hands.
-
-However, after awhile the baby fell into a state of quiet, pondering
-something, and at last, overcome by the warmth, fell fast asleep, a
-deliverance for which Miss Susan was more thankful than I can say. “But
-he will catch cold in his wet clothes,” she said bending over him, not
-able to shut out from her heart a thrill of natural kindness as she
-looked at the little flushed face surrounded by its closely-tied cap,
-and the little sturdy fat legs thrust out from under his petticoats.
-
-“Oh, nothing will harm him,” said the mother, and with again a laugh
-that rang harshly. She pushed the child a little aside with her foot,
-not for his convenience, but her own. “It is warm here,” she added, “he
-likes it, and so do I.”
-
-Then there was a pause. The stranger eyed Miss Susan with a
-half-mocking, defiant look, and Miss Susan, disturbed and unhappy,
-looked at her, wondering what had brought her, what her object was, and
-oh! when it would be possible to get her away!
-
-“You have come to England--to see it?” she asked, “for pleasure? to
-visit your friends? or perhaps on business? I am surprised that you
-should have found an out-of-the-way place like this.”
-
-“I sought it,” said the new-comer. “I found the name on a letter and
-then in a book, and so got here. I have come to see _you_.”
-
-“It is very kind of you, I am sure,” said Miss Susan, more and more
-troubled. “Do you know many people in England? We shall, of course, be
-very glad to have you for a little while, but Whiteladies is
-not--amusing--at this time of the year.”
-
-“I know nobody--but you,” said the stranger again. She sat with her
-great eyes fixed upon Miss Susan, who faltered and trembled under their
-steady gaze, leaning back in her chair, stretching out her feet to the
-fire with the air of one entirely at home, and determined to be
-comfortable. She never took her eyes from Miss Susan’s face, and there
-was a slight smile on her lip.
-
-“Listen,” she said. “It was not possible any longer there. They always
-hated me. Whatever I said or did, it was wrong. They could not put me
-out, for others would have cried shame. They quarreled with me and
-scolded me, sometimes ten times in a day. Ah, yes. I was not a log of
-wood. I scolded, too; and we all hated each other. But they love the
-child. So I thought to come away, and bring the child to you. It is you
-that have done it, and you should have it; and it is I, madame knows,
-that have the only right to dispose of it. It is I--you acknowledge
-that?”
-
-Heaven and earth! was it possible that the woman meant anything like
-what she said? “You have had a quarrel with them,” said Miss Susan,
-pretending to take it lightly, falling at every word into a tremor she
-could not restrain. “Ah! that happens sometimes, but fortunately it does
-not last. If I can be of any use to make it up, I will do anything I
-can.”
-
-As she spoke she tried to return, and to overcome, if possible, the
-steady gaze of the other; but this was not an effort of which Miss Susan
-was capable. The strange, beautiful creature, who looked like some being
-of a new species treading this unaccustomed soil, looked calmly at her
-and smiled again.
-
-“No,” she said, “you will keep me here; that will be change, what I
-lofe. I will know your friends. I will be as your daughter. You will not
-send me back to that place where they hate me. I like this better. I
-will stay here, and be a daughter to you.”
-
-Miss Susan grew pale to her very lips; her sin had found her out. “You
-say so because you are angry,” she said, trembling; “but they are your
-friends; they have been kind to you. This is not really my house, but
-my nephew’s, and I cannot pretend to have--any right to you; though what
-you say is very kind,” she added, with a shiver. “I will write to M.
-Austin, and you will pay us a short visit, for we are dull here--and
-then you will go back to your home. I know you would not like the life
-here.”
-
-“I shall try,” said the stranger composedly. “I like a room like this,
-and a warm, beautiful house; and you have many servants and are rich.
-Ah, madame must not be too modest. She _has_ a right to me--and the
-child. She will be my second mother, I know it. I shall be very happy
-here.”
-
-Miss Susan trembled more and more. “Indeed you are deceiving yourself,”
-she said. “Indeed, I could not set myself against Mousheer Austin, your
-father-in-law. Indeed, indeed--”
-
-“And indeed, indeed!” said her visitor. “Yes; you have best right to the
-child. The child is yours--and I cannot be separated from him. Am not I
-his mother?” she said, with a mocking light on her face, and laughed--a
-laugh which was in reality very musical and pleasant, but which sounded
-to Miss Susan like the laugh of a fiend.
-
-And then there came a pause; for Miss Susan, at her wits’ end, did not
-know what to say. The child lay with one little foot kicked out at full
-length, the other dimpled knee bent, his little face flushed in the
-firelight, fast asleep at their feet; the wet shawl in which he had been
-wrapped steaming and smoking in the heat; and the tall, fine figure of
-the young woman, slim and graceful, thrown back in the easy-chair in
-absolute repose and comfort. Though Miss Susan stood on her own hearth,
-and these two were intruders, aliens, it was she who hesitated and
-trembled, and the other who was calm and full of easy good-humor. She
-lay back in her chair as if she had lived there all her life; she
-stretched herself out before the welcome fire; she smiled upon the
-mistress of the house with benign indifference. “You would not separate
-the mother and the child,” she repeated. “That would be worse than to
-separate husband and wife.”
-
-Miss Susan wrung her hands in despair. “For a little while I shall
-be--glad to have you,” she said, putting force on herself; “for a--week
-or two--a fortnight. But for a longer time I cannot promise. I am going
-to leave this house.”
-
-“One house is like another to me,” said the stranger. “I will go with
-you where you go. You will be good to me and the child.”
-
-Poor Miss Susan! This second Ruth looked at her dismay unmoved, nay,
-with a certain air of half humorous amusement. She was not afraid of
-her, nor of being turned away. She held possession with the bold
-security of one who, she knows, cannot be rejected. “I shall not be dull
-or fatigued of you, for you will be kind; and where you go I will go,”
-she repeated, in Ruth’s very words; while Miss Susan’s heart sank, sank
-into the very depths of despair. What could she do or say? Should she
-give up her resistance for the moment, and wait to see what time would
-bring forth? or should she, however difficult it was, stand out now at
-the beginning, and turn away the unwelcome visitor? At that moment,
-however, while she tried to make up her mind to the severest measures, a
-blast of rain came against the window, and moaned and groaned in the
-chimneys of the old house. To turn a woman and a child out into such a
-night was impossible; they must stay at least till morning, whatever
-they did more.
-
-“And I should like something to eat,” said the stranger, stretching her
-arms above her head with natural but not elegant freedom, and distorting
-her beautiful face with a great yawn. “I am very fatigued; and then I
-should like to wash myself and rest.”
-
-“Perhaps it is too late to do anything else to-night,” said Miss Susan,
-with a troubled countenance; “to-morrow we must talk further; and I
-think you will see that it will be better to go back where you are
-known--among your friends--”
-
-“No, no; never go back!” she cried. “I will go where you go; that is, I
-will not change any more. I will stay with you--and the child.”
-
-Miss Susan rang the bell with an agitated hand, which conveyed strange
-tremors even to the sound of the bell, and let the kitchen, if not into
-her secret, at least into the knowledge that there was a secret, and
-something mysterious going on. Martha ran to answer the summons, pushing
-old Stevens out of the way. “If it’s anything particular, it’s me as my
-lady wants,” Martha said, moved to double zeal by curiosity; and a more
-curious scene had never been seen by wondering eyes of domestic at
-Whiteladies than that which Martha saw. The stranger lying back in her
-chair, yawning and stretching her arms; Miss Susan standing opposite,
-with black care upon her brow; and at their feet between them, roasting,
-as Martha said, in front of the fire, the rosy baby with its odd dress,
-thrown down like a bundle on the rug. Martha gave a scream at sight of
-the child. “Lord! it’s a baby! and summun will tread on’t!” she cried,
-with her eyes starting out of her head.
-
-“Hold your tongue, you foolish woman,” cried Miss Susan; “do you think I
-will tread on the child? It is sleeping, poor little thing. Go at once,
-and make ready the East room; light a fire, and make everything
-comfortable. This--lady--is going to stay all night.”
-
-“Yes--every night,” interposed the visitor, with a smile.
-
-“You hear what I say to you, Martha,” said Miss Susan, seeing that her
-maid turned gaping to the other speaker. “The East room, directly; and
-there is a child’s bed, isn’t there, somewhere in the house?”
-
-“Yes, sure, Miss Susan; Master Herbert’s, as he had when he come first,
-and Miss Reine’s, but that’s bigger, as it’s the one she slept in at ten
-years old, afore you give her the little dressing-room; and then there’s
-an old cradle--”
-
-“I don’t want a list of all the old furniture in the house,” cried Miss
-Susan, cutting Martha short, “and get a bath ready and some food for the
-child. Everything is to be done to make--this lady--comfortable--for the
-night.”
-
-“Ah! I knew Madame would be a mother to me,” cried the stranger,
-suddenly rising up, and folding her unwilling hostess in an unexpected
-and unwelcome embrace. Miss Susan, half-resisting, felt her cheek touch
-the new-comer’s damp and somewhat rough black woollen gown with
-sensations which I cannot describe. Utter dismay took possession of her
-soul. The punishment of her sin had taken form and shape; it was no
-longer to be escaped from. What should she do, what could she do? She
-withdrew herself almost roughly from the hold of her captor, which was
-powerful enough to require an effort to get free, and shook her collar
-straight, and her hair, which had been deranged by this unexpected sign
-of affection. “Let everything be got ready at once,” she said, turning
-with peremptory tones to Martha, who had witnessed, with much dismay and
-surprise, her mistress’s discomfiture. The wind sighed and groaned in
-the great chimney, as if it sympathized with her trouble, and blew
-noisy blasts of rain against the windows. Miss Susan suppressed the
-thrill of hot impatience and longing to turn this new-comer to the door
-which moved her. It could not be done to-night. Nothing could warrant
-her in turning out her worst enemy to the mercy of the elements
-to-night.
-
-That was the strangest night that had been passed in Whiteladies for
-years. The stranger dined with the ladies in the old hall, which
-astonished her, but which she thought ugly and cold. “It is a church; it
-is not a room,” she said, with a shiver. “I do not like to eat in a
-church.” Afterward, however, when she saw Augustine sit down, whom she
-watched wonderingly, she sat down also. “If ma sœur does it, I may do
-it,” she said. But she did a great many things at table which disgusted
-Miss Susan, who could think of nothing else but this strange intruder.
-She ate up her gravy with a piece of bread, pursuing the savory liquid
-round her plate. She declined to allow her knife and fork to be changed,
-to the great horror of Stevens. She addressed that correct and
-high-class servant familiarly as “my friend”--translating faithfully
-from her natural tongue--and drawing him into the conversation; a
-liberty which Stevens on his own account was not indisposed to take, but
-which he scorned to be led into by a stranger. Miss Susan breathed at
-last when her visitor was taken upstairs to bed. She went with her
-solemnly, and ushered her into the bright, luxurious English room, with
-its blazing fire, and warm curtains and soft carpet. The young woman’s
-eyes opened wide with wonder. “I lofe this,” she said, basking before
-the fire, and kissed Miss Susan again, notwithstanding her resistance.
-There was no one in the house so tall, not even Stevens, and to resist
-her effectually was not in anybody’s power at Whiteladies. The child had
-been carried upstairs, and lay, still dressed, fast asleep upon the bed.
-
-“Shall I stay, ma’am, and help the--lady--with the chyild?” said Martha,
-in a whisper.
-
-“No, no; she will know how to manage it herself,” said Miss Susan, not
-caring that any of the household should see too much of the stranger.
-
-A curious, foreign-looking box, with many iron clamps and bands, had
-been brought from the railway in the interval. The candles were lighted,
-the fire burning, the kettle boiling on the hob, and a plentiful supply
-of bread and milk for the baby when it woke. What more could be
-required? Miss Susan left her undesired guests with a sense of relief,
-which, alas, was very short-lived. She had escaped, indeed, for the
-moment; but the prospect before her was so terrible, that her very heart
-sickened at it. What was she to do? She was in this woman’s power; in
-the power of a reckless creature, who could by a word hold her up to
-shame and bitter disgrace; who could take away from her all the honor
-she had earned in her long, honorable life, and leave a stigma upon her
-very grave. What could she do to get rid of her, to send her back again
-to her relations, to get her out of the desecrated house? Miss Susan’s
-state of mind, on this dreadful night, was one chaos of fear, doubt,
-misery, remorse, and pain. Her sin had found her out. Was she to be
-condemned to live hereafter all her life in presence of this constant
-reminder of it? If she had suffered but little before, she suffered
-enough to make up for it now.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIV.
-
-
-The night was terrible for this peaceful household in a more extended
-sense than that deep misery which the arrival of the stranger cost Miss
-Susan. Those quiet people, mistresses and servants, had but just gone to
-bed when the yells of the child rang through the silence, waking and
-disturbing every one, from Jane, who slept with the intense sleep of
-youth, unawakable by all ordinary commotions, to Augustine, who spent
-the early night in prayer, and Miss Susan, who neither prayed nor slept,
-and felt as if she should be, henceforth, incapable of either. These
-yells continued for about an hour, during which time the household,
-driven distracted, made repeated visits in all manner of costumes to the
-door of the East room, which was locked, and from which the stranger
-shrilly repelled them.
-
-“Je dois le dompter!” she cried through the thick oaken door, and in the
-midst of those screams, which, to the unaccustomed ear, seem so much
-more terrible than they really are.
-
-“It’ll bust itself, that’s what it’ll do,” said the old cook:
-“particular as it’s a boy. Boys should never be let scream like that;
-it’s far more dangerous for them than it is for a gell.”
-
-Cook was a widow, and therefore an authority on all such subjects. After
-an hour or so the child was heard to sink into subdued sobbings, and
-Whiteladies, relieved, went to bed, thanking its stars that this
-terrible experience was over. But long before daylight the conflict
-recommenced, and once more the inmates, in their night-dresses, and Miss
-Susan in her dressing-gown, assembled round the door of the East room.
-
-“For heaven’s sake, let some one come in and help you,” said Miss Susan
-through the door.
-
-“Je dois le dompter,” answered the other fiercely. “Go away, away! Je
-dois le dompter!”
-
-“What’s she a-going to do, ma’am?” said Cook. “Dump ’um? Good Lord, she
-don’t mean to beat the child, I ’ope--particular as it’s a boy.”
-
-Three times in the night the dreadful experience was repeated, and I
-leave the reader to imagine with what feelings the family regarded its
-new inmate. They were all downstairs very early, with that exhausted and
-dissipated feeling which the want of sleep gives. The maids found some
-comfort in the tea, which Cook made instantly to restore their nerves,
-but even this brought little comfort to Miss Susan, who lay awake and
-miserable in her bed, fearing every moment a repetition of the cries,
-and feeling herself helpless and enslaved in the hands of some
-diabolical creature, who, having no mercy on the child, would, she felt
-sure, have none on her, and whom she had no means of subduing or getting
-rid of. All the strength had gone out of her, mind and body. She shrank
-even from the sight of the stranger, from getting up to meet her again,
-from coming into personal contact and conflict with her. She became a
-weak old woman, and cried hopelessly on her pillow, not knowing where to
-turn, after the exhaustion of that terrible night. This, however, was
-but a passing mood like another, and she got up at her usual time, and
-faced the world and her evil fortune, as she must have done had an
-earthquake swept all she cared for out of the world--as we must all do,
-whatever may have happened to us, even the loss of all that makes life
-sweet. She got up and dressed herself as usual, with the same care as
-always, and went downstairs and called the family together for prayers,
-and did everything as she was used to do it--watching the door every
-moment, however, and trembling lest that tall black figure should come
-through it. It was a great relief, however, when, by way of accounting
-for Cook’s absence at morning prayers, Martha pointed out that buxom
-personage in the garden, walking about with the child in her arms.
-
-“The--lady’s--a-having her breakfast in bed,” said Martha. “What did the
-child do, ma’am, but stretches out its little arms when me and Cook went
-in first thing, after she unlocked the door.”
-
-“Why did two of you go?” said Miss Susan. “Did she ring the bell?”
-
-“Well, ma’am,” said Martha, “you’ll say it’s one o’ my silly nervish
-ways. But I was frightened--I don’t deny. What with Cook saying as the
-child would bust itself, and what with them cries--but, Lord bless you,
-it’s all right,” said Martha; “and a-laughing and crowing to Cook, and
-all of us, as soon as it got down to the kitchen, and taking its sop as
-natural! I can’t think what could come over the child to be that wicked
-with its ma.”
-
-“Some people never get on with children,” said Miss Susan, feeling some
-apology necessary; “and no doubt it misses the nurse it was used to. And
-it was tired with the journey--”
-
-“That’s exactly what Cook says,” said Martha. “Some folks has no way
-with children--even when it’s the ma--and Cook says--”
-
-“I hope you have taken the lady’s breakfast up to her comfortably,” said
-Miss Susan; “tell her, with my compliments, that I hope she will not
-hurry to get up; as she must have had a very bad night.”
-
-“Who is she?” said Augustine, quietly.
-
-Miss Susan knew that this question awaited her; and it was very
-comforting to her mind to know that Augustine would accept the facts of
-the story calmly without thinking of any meaning that might lie below
-them, or asking any explanations. She told her these facts quite simply.
-
-“She is the daughter-in-law of the Austins of Bruges--their son’s
-widow--her child is Herbert’s next of kin and heir presumptive. Since
-dear Bertie has got better, his chances, of course, have become very
-much smaller; and, as I trust,” said Miss Susan fervently, with tears of
-pain coming to her eyes, “that my dear boy will live to have heirs of
-his own, this baby, poor thing, has no chance at all to speak of; but,
-you see, as they do not know that, and heard that Herbert was never
-likely to recover, and are people quite different from ourselves, and
-don’t understand things, they still look upon him as the heir.”
-
-“Yes,” said Augustine, “I understand; and they think he has a right to
-live here.”
-
-“It is not that, dear. The young woman has quarrelled with her husband’s
-parents, or she did not feel happy with them. Such things happen often,
-you know; perhaps there were faults on both sides. So she took it into
-her head to come here. She is an orphan, with no friends, and a young
-widow, poor thing, but I am most anxious to get her sent away.”
-
-“Why should she be sent away?” said Augustine. “It is our duty to keep
-her, if she wishes to stay. An orphan--a widow! Susan, you do not see
-our duties as I wish you could. We who are eating the bread which ought
-to be the property of the widow and the orphan--how dare we cast one of
-them from our doors! No, if she wishes it, she must stay.”
-
-“Augustine!” cried her sister, with tears, “I will do anything you tell
-me, dear; but don’t ask me to do this! I do not like her--I am afraid of
-her. Think how she must have used the child last night! I cannot let her
-stay.”
-
-Augustine put down the cup of milk which was her habitual breakfast, and
-looked across the table at her sister. “It is not by what we like we
-should be ruled,” she said. “Alas, most people are; but we have a duty.
-If she is not good, she has the more need of help; but I would not leave
-the child with her,” she added, for she, too, had felt what it was to be
-disturbed. “I would give the child to some one else who can manage it.
-Otherwise you cannot refuse her, an orphan and widow, if she wishes to
-stay.”
-
-“Austine, you mistake, you mistake!” cried Miss Susan, driven to her
-wits’ end.
-
-“No, I do not mistake; from our door no widow and no orphan should ever
-be driven away. When it is Herbert’s house, he must do as he thinks
-fit,” said Augustine; “at least I know he will not be guided by me. But
-for us, who live to expatiate--No, she must not be sent away. But I
-would give the charge of the child to some one else,” she added with
-less solemnity of tone; “certainly I would have some one else for the
-child.”
-
-With this Augustine rose and went away, her hands in her sleeves, her
-pace as measured as ever. She gave forth her solemn decision on general
-principles, knowing no other, with an abstract superiority which
-offended no one, because of its very abstraction, and curious
-imperfection in all practical human knowledge. Miss Susan was too wise
-to be led by her sister in ordinary affairs; but she listened to this
-judgment, her heart wrung by pangs which she could not avow to any one.
-It was not the motive which weighed so largely with Augustine, and was,
-indeed, the only one she took account of, which affected her sister. It
-was neither Christian pity for the helpless, nor a wish to expatiate the
-sins of the past, that moved Miss Susan. The emotion which was battling
-in her heart was fear. How could she bear it to be known what she had
-done? How could she endure to let Augustine know, or Herbert, or
-Reine?--or even Farrel-Austin, who would rejoice over her, and take
-delight in her shame! She dared not turn her visitor out of the house,
-for this reason. She sat by herself when Augustine had gone, with her
-hands clasped tight, and a bitter, helpless beating and fluttering of
-her heart. Never before had she felt herself in the position of a
-coward, afraid to face the exigency before her. She had always dared to
-meet all things, looking danger and trouble in the face; but then she
-had never done anything in her life to be ashamed of before. She shrank
-now from meeting the unknown woman who had taken possession of her
-house. If she had remained there in her room shut up, Miss Susan felt as
-if she would gladly have compounded to let her remain, supplying her
-with as many luxuries as she cared for. But to face her, to talk to her,
-to have to put up with her, and her companionship, this was more than
-she could bear.
-
-She had not been able to look at her letters in her preoccupied and
-excited state; but when she turned them over now, in the pause that
-ensued after Augustine’s departure, she found a letter from old
-Guillaume Austin, full of trouble, narrating to her how his
-daughter-in-law had fled from the house in consequence of some quarrel,
-carrying the child with her, who was the joy of their hearts. So far as
-she was concerned, the old man said, they were indifferent to the loss,
-for since Giovanna’s child was born she had changed her character
-entirely, and was no longer the heart-broken widow who had obtained all
-their sympathies. “She had always a peculiar temper,” the father wrote.
-“My poor son did not live happy with her, though we were ready to forget
-everything in our grief. She is not one of our people, but by origin an
-Italian, fond of pleasure, and very hot-tempered, like all of that race.
-But recently she has been almost beyond our patience. Madame will
-remember how good my old wife was to her--though she cannot bear the
-idle--letting her do nothing, as is her nature. Since the baby was born,
-however, she has been most ungrateful to my poor wife, looking her in
-the face as if to frighten her, and with insolent smiles; and I have
-heard her even threaten to betray the wife of my bosom to me for
-something unknown--some dress, I suppose, or other trifle my Marie has
-given her without telling me. This is insufferable; but we have borne it
-all for the child, who is the darling of our old age. Madame will feel
-for me, for it is your loss, too, as well as ours. The child, the heir,
-is gone! who charmed us and made us feel young again. My wife thinks she
-may have gone to you, and therefore I write; but I have no hopes of this
-myself, and only fear that she may have married some one, and taken our
-darling from us forever--for who would separate a mother from her
-child?--though the boy does not love her, not at all, not so much as he
-loves us and his aunt Gertrude, who thinks she sees in him the boy whom
-she lost. Write to me in pity, dear and honored madame, and if by any
-chance the unhappy Giovanna has gone to you, I will come and fetch her
-away.”
-
-The letter was balm to Miss Susan’s wounds. She wrote an answer to M.
-Austin at once, then bethought herself of a still quicker mode of
-conveying information, and wrote a telegram, which she at once
-dispatched by the gardener, mounted on the best horse in the stable, to
-the railway. “She is here with the child, quite well. I shall be glad to
-see you,” Miss Susan wrote; then sat down again, tremulous, but resolute
-to think of what was before her. But for the prospect of old Guillaume’s
-visit, what a prospect it was that lay before her! She could understand
-how that beautiful face would look, with its mocking defiance at the
-helpless old woman who was in her power, and could not escape from her.
-Poor old Madame Austin! _Her_ sin was the greatest of all, Miss Susan
-felt, with a sense of relief, for was it not her good husband whom she
-was deceiving, and had not all the execution of the complot been left in
-her hands? Miss Susan knew she herself had lied; but how much oftener
-Madame Austin must have lied, practically, and by word and speech!
-Everything she had done for weeks and months must have been a lie, and
-thus she had put herself in this woman’s power, who cruelly had taken
-advantage of it. Miss Susan realized, with a shudder, how the poor old
-Flemish woman, who was her confederate, must have been put to the agony!
-how she must have been held over the precipice, pushed almost to the
-verge, obliged perhaps to lie and lie again, in order to save herself.
-She trembled at the terrible picture; and now all that had been done to
-Madame Austin was about to be done to herself--for was not she, too, in
-this pitiless woman’s power?
-
-A tap at the door. She thought it was the invader of her peace, and said
-“Come in” faintly. Then the door was pushed open, and a tottering little
-figure, so low down that Miss Susan, unprepared for this pygmy, did not
-see it at first, came in with a feeble rush, as babies do, too much
-afraid of its capabilities of progress to have any confidence of holding
-out. “Did you ever see such a darling, ma’am?” said Cook. “We couldn’t
-keep him not to ourselves a moment longer. I whips him up, and I says,
-‘Miss Susan must see him.’ Now, did you ever set your two eyes on a
-sweeter boy?”
-
-Miss Susan, relieved, did as she was told; she fixed her eyes upon the
-boy, who, after his rush, subsided on to the floor, and gazed at her in
-silence. He was as fair as any English child, a flaxen-headed, blue-eyed
-Flemish baby, with innocent, wide-open eyes.
-
-“He ain’t a bit like his ma, bless him, and he takes to strangers quite
-natural. Look at him a-cooing and a-laughing at you, ma’am, as he never
-set eyes on before! But human nature is unaccountable,” said Cook, with
-awe-stricken gravity, “for he can’t abide his ma.”
-
-“Did you ever know such a case before?” said Miss Susan, who, upon the
-ground that Cook was a widow, looked up to her judgment on such matters
-as all the rest of the household did. Cook was in very high feather at
-this moment, having at last proved beyond doubt the superiority of her
-knowledge and experience as having once had a child of her own.
-
-“Well, ma’am,” said Cook, “that depends. There’s some folk as never have
-no way with children, married or single, it don’t matter. Now that
-child, if you let him set at your feet, and give him a reel out of your
-work-box to play with, will be as good as gold; for you’ve got a way
-with children, you have; but he can’t abide his ma.”
-
-“Leave him there, if you think he will be good,” said Miss Susan. She
-did more than give the baby a reel out of her work-box, for she took out
-the scissors, pins, needles, all sharp and pointed things, and put down
-the work-box itself on the carpet. And then she sat watching the child
-with the most curious, exquisite mixture of anguish and a kind of
-pleasure in her heart. Poor old Guillaume Austin’s grandchild, a true
-scion of the old stock! but not as was supposed. She watched the little
-tremulous dabs the baby made at the various articles that pleased him.
-How he grasped them in the round fat fingers that were just long enough
-to close on a reel; how he threw them away to snatch at others; the
-pitiful look of mingled suffering, injured feeling, and indignation
-which came over his face in a moment when the lid of the box dropped on
-his fingers; his unconscious little song to himself, cooing and gurgling
-in a baby monologue. What was the child thinking? No clue had he to the
-disadvantages under which he was entering life, or the advantages which
-had been planned for him before he was born, and which, by the will of
-Providence, were falling into nothing. Poor little unconscious baby! The
-work-box and its reels were at this moment quite world enough for him.
-
-It was an hour or two later before the stranger came downstairs. She had
-put on a black silk dress, and done up her hair carefully, and made her
-appearance as imposing as possible; and, indeed, so far as this went,
-she required few external helps. The child took no notice of her,
-sheltered as he was under Miss Susan’s wing, until she took him up
-roughly, disturbing his toys and play. Then he pushed her away with a
-repetition of last night’s screams, beating with his little angry hands
-against her face, and shrieking, “No, no!” his only intelligible word,
-at the top of his lungs. The young woman grew exasperated, too, and
-repaid the blows he gave with one or two hearty slaps and a shake, by
-means of which the cries became tremulous and wavering, though they were
-as loud as ever. By the time the conflict had come to this point,
-however, Cook and Martha, flushed with indignation, were both at the
-door.
-
-“Il ne faut pas frapper l’enfang!” Miss Susan called out loudly in her
-peculiar French. “Vous ne restez pas un moment ici vous no donnez pas
-cet enfang au cook; vous écoutez? Donnez, donnez, touto de suite!” Her
-voice was so imperative that the woman was cowed. She turned and tossed
-the child to Cook, who, red as her own fire, stood holding out her arms
-to receive the screaming and struggling boy.
-
-“What do I care?” said the stranger. “Petit sot! cochon! va! I slept not
-all night,” she added. “You heard? Figure to yourself whether I wish to
-keep him now. Ah, petit fripon, petit vaurient! Va!”
-
-“Madame Austin,” said Miss Susan solemnly, as the women went away,
-carrying the child, who clung to Cook’s broad bosom and sobbed on her
-shoulder, “you do not stay here another hour, unless you promise to give
-up the child to those who can take care of him. _You_ cannot, that is
-clear.”
-
-“And yet he is my child,” said the young woman, with a malicious smile.
-“Madame knows he is my child! He is always sage with his aunt Gertrude,
-and likes her red and white face. Madame remembers Gertrude, who lost
-her baby? But mine belongs to _me_.”
-
-“He may belong to you,” said Miss Susan, with almost a savage tone, “but
-he is not to remain with you another hour, unless you wish to take him
-away; in which case,” said Miss Susan, going to the door and throwing it
-open, “you are perfectly at liberty to depart, him and you.”
-
-The stranger sat for a moment looking at her, then went and looked out
-into the red-floored passage, with a kind of insolent scrutiny. Then she
-made Miss Susan a mock curtsey, and sat down.
-
-“They are welcome to have him,” she said, calmly. “What should I want
-him for? Even a child, a baby, should know better than to hate one; I do
-not like it; it is a nasty little thing--very like Gertrude, and with
-her ways exactly. It is hard to see your child resemble another woman;
-should not madame think so, if she had been like me, and had a child?”
-
-“Look here,” Miss Susan said, going up to her, and shaking her by the
-shoulders, with a whiteness and force of passion about her which cowered
-Giovanna in spite of herself--“look here! This is how you treated your
-poor mother-in-law, no doubt, and drove her wild. I will not put up with
-it--do you hear me? I will drive you out of the house this very day, and
-let you do what you will and say what you will, rather than bear this.
-You hear me? and I mean what I say.”
-
-Giovanna stared, blank with surprise, at the resolute old woman, who,
-driven beyond all patience, made this speech to her. She was astounded.
-She answered quite humbly, sinking her voice, “I will do what you tell
-me. Madame is not a fool, like my belle mère.”
-
-“She is not a fool, either!” cried Miss Susan. “Ah, I wish now she had
-been! I wish I had seen your face that day! Oh, yes, you are
-pretty--pretty enough! but I never should have put anything in your
-power if I had seen your face that day.”
-
-Giovanna gazed at her for a moment, still bewildered. Then she rose and
-looked at herself in the old glass, which distorted that beautiful face
-a little. “I am glad you find me pretty,” she said. “My face! it is not
-a white and red moon, like Gertrude’s, who is always praised and
-spoiled; but I hope it may do more for me than hers has done yet. That
-is what I intend. My poor pretty face--that it may win fortune yet! my
-face or my boy.”
-
-Miss Susan, her passion dying out, stood and looked at this unknown
-creature with dismay. Her face or her boy!--what did she mean? or was
-there any meaning at all in these wild words--words that might be mere
-folly and vanity, and indeed resembled that more than anything else.
-Perhaps, after all, she was but a fool who required a little firmness of
-treatment--nothing more.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXV.
-
-
-Miss Susan Austin was not altogether devoid in ordinary circumstances of
-one very common feminine weakness to which independent women are
-especially liable. She had the old-fashioned prejudice that it was a
-good thing to “consult a man” upon points of difficulty which occurred
-in her life. The process of consulting, indeed, was apt to be a peculiar
-one. If he distinctly disagreed with herself, Miss Susan set the man
-whom she consulted down as a fool, or next to a fool, and took her own
-way, and said nothing about the consultation. But when by chance he
-happened to agree with her, then she made great capital of his opinion,
-and announced it everywhere as the cause of her own action, whatever
-that might be. Everard, before his departure, had been the depositary of
-her confidence on most occasions, and as he was very amenable to her
-influence, and readily saw things in the light which she wished him to
-see them in, he had been very useful to her, or so at least she said;
-and the idea of sending for Everard, who had just returned from the West
-Indies, occurred to her almost in spite of herself, when this new crisis
-happened at Whiteladies. The idea came into her mind, but next moment
-she shivered at the thought, and turned from it mentally as though it
-had stung her. What could she say to Everard to account for the effect
-Giovanna produced upon her--the half terror, half hatred, which filled
-her mind toward the new-comer, and the curious mixture of fright and
-repugnance with which even the child seemed to regard its mother? How
-could she explain all this to him? She had so long given him credit for
-understanding everything, that she had come to believe in this
-marvellous power and discrimination with which she had herself endowed
-him; and now she shrank from permitting Everard even to see the
-infliction to which she had exposed herself, and the terrible burden she
-had brought upon the house. He could not understand--and yet who could
-tell that he might not understand? see through her trouble, and perceive
-that some reason must exist for such a thraldom? If he, or any one else,
-ever suspected the real reason, Miss Susan felt that she must die. Her
-character, her position in the family, the place she held in the world,
-would be gone. Had things been as they were when she had gone upon her
-mission to the Austins at Bruges, I have no doubt the real necessities
-of the case, and the important issues depending upon the step she had
-taken, would have supported Miss Susan in the hard part she had now to
-play; but to continue to have this part to play after the necessity was
-over, and when it was no longer, to all appearance, of any immediate
-importance at all who Herbert’s heir should be, gave a bitterness to
-this unhappy rôle which it is impossible to describe. The strange woman
-who had taken possession of the house without any real claim to its
-shelter, had it in her power to ruin and destroy Miss Susan, though
-nothing she could do could now affect Whiteladies; and for this poor
-personal reason Miss Susan felt, with a pang, she must bear all
-Giovanna’s impertinences, and the trouble of her presence, and all the
-remarks upon her--her manners, her appearance, her want of breeding, and
-her behavior in the house, which no doubt everybody would notice.
-Everard, should he appear, would be infinitely annoyed to find such an
-inmate in the house. Herbert, should he come home, would with equal
-certainty wish to get rid of so singular a visitor.
-
-Miss Susan saw a hundred difficulties and complications in her way. She
-hoped a little from the intervention of Monsieur Guillaume Austin, to
-whom she had written, after sending off her telegram, in full detail,
-begging him to come to Whiteladies, to recover his grandchild, if that
-was possible; but Giovanna’s looks were not very favorable to this hope.
-Thus the punishment of her sin, for which she had felt so little remorse
-when she did it, found her out at last. I wonder if successful sin ever
-does fill the sinner with remorse, or whether human nature, always so
-ready in self-defence, does not set to work, in every case, to invent
-reasons which seem to justify, or almost more than justify, the
-wickedness which serves its purpose? This is too profound an inquiry for
-these pages; but certainly Miss Susan, for one, felt the biting of
-remorse in her heart when sin proved useless, and when it became nothing
-but a menace and a terror to her, as she had never felt it before. Oh,
-how could she have charged her conscience and sullied her life (she said
-to herself) for a thing so useless, so foolish, so little likely to
-benefit any one? Why had she done it? To disappoint Farrel-Austin! that
-had been her miserable motive--nothing more; and this was how it had all
-ended. Had she left the action of Providence alone, and refrained from
-interfering, Farrel-Austin would have been discomfited all the same, but
-her conscience would have been clear. I do not think that Miss Susan had
-as yet any feeling in her mind that the discomfiture of Farrel-Austin
-was not a most righteous object, and one which justified entirely the
-interference of heaven.
-
-But, in the meantime, what a difference was made in her peaceable
-domestic life! No doubt she ought to have been suffering as much for a
-long time past, for the offence was not new, though the punishment was;
-but if it came late, it came bitterly. Her pain was like fire in her
-heart. This seemed to herself as she thought of it--and she did little
-but think of it--to be the best comparison. Like fire--burning and
-consuming her, yet never completing its horrible work--gnawing
-continually with a red-hot glow, and quivering as of lambent flame. She
-seemed to herself now and then to have the power, as it were, of taking
-her heart out of these glowing ashes, and looking at it, but always to
-let it drop back piteously into the torment. Oh, how she wished and
-longed, with an eager hopelessness which seemed to give fresh force to
-her suffering, that the sin could be undone, that these two last years
-could be wiped out of time, that she could go back to the moment before
-she set out for Bruges! She longed for this with an intensity which was
-equalled only by its impossibility. If only she had not done it! Once it
-occurred to her with a thrill of fright, that the sensations of her mind
-were exactly those which are described in many a sermon and sensational
-religious book. Was it hell that she had within her? She shuddered, and
-burst forth into a low moaning when the question shaped itself in her
-mind. But notwithstanding all these horrors, she had to conduct herself
-as became a person in good society--to manage all her affairs, and talk
-to the servants, and smile upon chance visitors, as if everything were
-well--which added a refinement of pain to these tortures. And thus the
-days passed on till Monsieur Guillaume Austin arrived from Bruges--the
-one event which still inspired her with something like hope.
-
-Giovanna, meanwhile, settled down in Whiteladies with every appearance
-of intending to make it her settled habitation. After the first
-excitement of the arrival was over, she fell back into a state of
-indolent comfort, which, for the time, until she became tired of it,
-seemed more congenial to her than the artificial activity of her
-commencement, and which was more agreeable, or at least much less
-disagreeable to the other members of the household. She gave up the
-child to Cook, who managed it sufficiently well to keep it quiet and
-happy, to the great envy of the rest of the family. Every one envied
-Cook her experience and success, except the mother of the child, who
-shrugged her shoulders, and, with evident satisfaction in getting free
-from the trouble, fell back upon a stock of books she had found, which
-made the weary days pass more pleasantly to her than they would
-otherwise have done. These were French novels, which once had belonged,
-before her second marriage, to Madame de Mirfleur, and which she, too,
-had found a great resource. Let not the reader be alarmed for the
-morality of the house. They were French novels which had passed under
-Miss Susan’s censorship, and been allowed by her, therefore they were
-harmless of their kind--too harmless, I fear, for Giovanna’s taste, who
-would have liked something more exciting; but in her transplantation to
-so very foreign a soil as Whiteladies, and the absolute blank which
-existence appeared to her there, she was more glad than can be described
-of the poor little unbound books, green and yellow, over which the
-mother of Herbert and Reine had yawned through many a long and weary
-day. It was Miss Susan herself who had produced them out of pity for her
-visitor, unwelcome as that visitor was--and, indeed, for her own relief.
-For, however objectionable a woman may be who sits opposite to you all
-day poring over a novel, whether green or yellow, she is less
-objectionable than the same woman when doing nothing, and following you
-about, whenever you move, with a pair of great black eyes. Not being
-able to get rid of the stranger more completely, Miss Susan was very
-thankful to be so far rid of her as this, and her heart stirred with a
-faint hope that perhaps the good linen-draper who was coming might be
-able to exercise some authority over his daughter-in-law, and carry her
-away with him. She tried to persuade herself that she did not hope for
-this, but the hope grew involuntarily stronger and stronger as the
-moment approached, and she sat waiting in the warm and tranquil quiet of
-the afternoon for the old man’s arrival. She had sent the carriage to
-the station for him, and sat expecting him with her heart beating, as
-much excited, almost, as if she had been a girl looking for a very
-different kind of visitor. Miss Susan, however, did not tell Giovanna,
-who sat opposite to her, with her feet on the fender, holding her book
-between her face and the fire, who it was whom she expected. She would
-not diminish the effect of the arrival by giving any time for
-preparation, but hoped as much from the suddenness of the old man’s
-appearance as from his authority. Giovanna was chilly, like most
-indolent people, and fond of the fire. She had drawn her chair as close
-to it as possible, and though she shielded her face with all the care
-she could, yet there was still a hot color on the cheeks, which were
-exposed now and then for a moment to the blaze. Miss Susan sat behind,
-in the background, with her knitting, waiting for the return of the
-carriage which had been sent to the station for Monsieur Guillaume, and
-now and then casting a glance over her knitting-needles at the disturber
-of her domestic peace. What a strange figure to have established itself
-in this tranquil English house! There came up before Miss Susan’s
-imagination a picture of the room behind the shop at Bruges, so bare of
-every grace and prettiness, with the cooking going on, and the young
-woman seated in the corner, to whom no one paid any attention. There,
-too, probably, she had been self-indulgent and self-absorbed, but what a
-difference there was in her surroundings! The English lady, I have no
-doubt, exaggerated the advantages of her own comfortable,
-softly-cushioned drawing-room, and probably the back-room at Bruges, if
-less pretty and less luxurious, was also much less dull to Giovanna than
-this curtained, carpeted place, with no society but that of a quiet
-Englishwoman, who disapproved of her. At Bruges there had been
-opportunities to talk with various people, more entertaining than even
-the novels; and though Giovanna had been disapproved of there, as now,
-she had been able to give as well as take--at least since power had been
-put into her hands. At present she yawned sadly as she turned the
-leaves. It was horribly dull, and horribly long, this vacant, uneventful
-afternoon. If some one would come, if something would happen, what a
-relief it would be! She yawned as she turned the page.
-
-At last there came a sound of carriage-wheels on the gravel. Miss Susan
-did not suppose that her visitor took any notice, but I need not say
-that Giovanna, to whom something new would have been so great a piece of
-good fortune, gave instant attention, though she still kept the book
-before her, a shield not only from the fire, but from her companion’s
-observation. Giovanna saw that Miss Susan was secretly excited and
-anxious, and I think the younger woman anticipated some amusement at the
-expense of her companion--expecting an elderly lover, perhaps, or
-something of a kind which might have stirred herself. But when the
-figure of her father-in-law appeared at the door, very ingratiating and
-slightly timid, in two greatcoats which increased his bulk without
-increasing his dignity, and with a great cache-nez about his neck,
-Giovanna perceived at once the conspiracy against her, and in a moment
-collected her forces to meet it. M. Guillaume represented to her a
-laborious life, frugal fare, plain dress, and domestic authority, such
-as that was--the things from which she had fled. Here (though it was
-dull) she had ease, luxury, the consciousness of power, and a future in
-which she could better herself--in which, indeed, she might look forward
-to being mistress of the luxurious house, and ordering it so that it
-should cease to be dull. To allow herself to be taken back to Bruges, to
-the back-shop, was as far as anything could be from her intentions. How
-could they be so foolish as to think of it? She let her book drop on her
-lap, and looked at the plotters with a glow of laughter at their
-simplicity, lifting up the great eyes.
-
-As for Monsieur Guillaume, he was in a state of considerable excitement,
-pleasure, and pain. He was pleased to come to the wealthy house in which
-he felt a sense of proprietorship, much quickened by the comfort of the
-luxurious English carriage in which he had driven from the station. This
-was a sign of grandeur and good-fortune comprehensible to everybody; and
-the old shopkeeper felt at once the difference involved. On the other
-hand, he was anxious about his little grandchild, whom he adored, and a
-little afraid of the task of subduing its mother, which had been put
-into his hands; and he was anxious to make a good appearance, and to
-impress favorably his new relations, on whose good will, somehow or
-other, depended his future inheritance. He made a very elaborate bow
-when he came in, and touched respectfully the tips of the fingers which
-Miss Susan extended to him. She was a great lady, and he was a
-shopkeeper; she was an Englishwoman, reserved and stately, and he a
-homely old Fleming. Neither of them knew very well how to treat the
-other, and Miss Susan, who felt that all the comfort of her future life
-depended on how she managed this old man, and upon the success of his
-mission, was still more anxious and elaborate than he was. She drew
-forward the easiest chair for him, and asked for his family with a
-flutter of effusive politeness, quite unlike her usual demeanor.
-
-“And Madame Jean is quite safe with me,” she said, when their first
-salutations were over.
-
-Here was the tug of war. The old man turned to his daughter-in-law
-eagerly, yet somewhat tremulous. She had pushed away her chair from the
-fire, and with her book still in her hand, sat looking at him with
-shining eyes.
-
-“Ah, Giovanna,” he said, shaking his head, “how thou hast made all our
-hearts sore! how could you do it? We should not have crossed you, if you
-had told us you were weary of home. The house is miserable without you;
-how could you go away?”
-
-“Mon beau-père,” said Giovanna, taking the kiss he bestowed on her
-forehead with indifference, “say you have missed the child, if you
-please, that may be true enough; but as for me, no one pretended to care
-for me.”
-
-“Mon enfant--”
-
-“Assez, assez! Let us speak the truth. Madame knows well enough,” said
-Giovanna, “it is the baby you love. If you could have him without me, I
-do not doubt it would make you very happy. Only that it is impossible to
-separate the child from the mother--every one knows as much as that.”
-
-She said this with a malicious look toward Miss Susan, who shrank
-involuntarily. But Monsieur Guillaume, who accepted the statement as a
-simple fact, did not shrink, but assented, shaking his head.
-
-“Assuredly, assuredly,” he said, “nor did anyone wish it. The child is
-our delight; but you, too, Giovanna, you too--”
-
-She laughed.
-
-“I do not think the others would say so--my mother-in-law, for example,
-or Gertrude; nor, indeed, you either, mon beau-père, if you had not a
-motive. I was always the lazy one--the useless one. It was I who had the
-bad temper. You never cared for me, or made me comfortable. Now ces
-dames are kind, and this will be the boy’s home.”
-
-“If he succeeds,” said Miss Susan, interposing from the background,
-where she stood watchful, growing more and more anxious. “You are aware
-that now this is much less certain. My nephew is better; he is getting
-well and strong.”
-
-They both turned to look at her; Giovanna with startled, wide-open eyes,
-and the old man with an evident thrill of surprise. Then he seemed to
-divine a secret motive in this speech, and gave Miss Susan a glance of
-intelligence, and smiled and nodded his head.
-
-“To be sure, to be sure,” he said. “Monsieur, the present propriétaire,
-may live. It is to be hoped that he will continue to live--at least,
-until the child is older. Yes, yes, Giovanna, what you say is true. I
-appreciate your maternal care, ma fille. It is right that the boy should
-visit his future home; that he should learn the manners of the people,
-and all that is needful to a proprietor. But he is very young--a few
-years hence will be soon enough. And why should you have left us so
-hastily, so secretly? We have all been unhappy,” he added, with a sigh.
-
-I cannot describe how Miss Susan listened to all this, with an
-impatience which reached the verge of the intolerable. To hear them
-taking it all calmly for granted--calculating on Herbert’s death as an
-essential preliminary of which they were quite sure. But she kept
-silence with a painful effort, and kept in the background, trembling
-with the struggle to restrain herself. It was best that she should take
-no part, say nothing, but leave the issue as far as she could to
-Providence. To Providence! the familiar word came to her unawares; but
-what right had she to appeal to Providence--to trust in Providence in
-such a matter. She quaked, and withdrew a little further still, leaving
-the ground clear. Surely old Austin would exercise his authority--and
-could overcome this young rebel without her aid!
-
-The old man waited for an answer, but got none. He was a good man in his
-way, but he had been accustomed all his life to have his utterances
-respected, and he did not understand the profane audacity which declined
-even to reply to him. After a moment’s interval he resumed, eager, but
-yet damped in his confidence:
-
-“Le petit! where is he? I may see him, may not I?”
-
-Miss Susan rose at once to ring the bell for the child, but to her
-amazement she was stopped by Giovanna.
-
-“Wait a little,” she said, “I am the mother. I have the best right. That
-is acknowledged? No one has any right over him but me.”
-
-Miss Susan quailed before the glance of those eyes, which were so full
-of meaning. There was something more in the words than mere
-self-assertion. There was once more a gleam of malicious enjoyment,
-almost revengeful. What wrong had Giovanna to revenge upon Miss Susan,
-who had given her the means of asserting herself--who had changed her
-position in the world altogether, and given her a standing-ground which
-she never before possessed? The mistress of Whiteladies, so long
-foremost and regnant, sat down again behind their backs with a sense of
-humiliation not to be described. She left the two strangers to fight out
-their quarrel without any interference on her part. As for Giovanna, she
-had no revengeful meaning whatever; but she loved to feel and show her
-power.
-
-“Assuredly, ma fille,” said the old man, who was in her power too, and
-felt it with not much less dismay than Miss Susan.
-
-“Then understand,” said the young woman, rising from her chair with
-sudden energy, and throwing down the book which she had up to this
-moment kept in her hands, “I will have no one interfere. The child is to
-me--he is mine, and I will have no one interfere. It shall not be said
-that he is more gentil, more sage, with another than with his mother. He
-shall not be taught any more to love others more than me. To others he
-is nothing; but he is mine, mine, and mine only!” she said, putting her
-hands together with a sudden clap, the color mounting to her cheeks, and
-the light flashing in her eyes.
-
-Miss Susan, who in other circumstances would have been roused by this
-self-assertion, was quite cowed by it now, and sat with a pang in her
-heart which I cannot describe, listening and--submitting. What could she
-say or do?
-
-“Assurement, ma fille; assurement, ma fille,” murmured poor old M.
-Guillaume, looking at this rampant symbol of natural power with
-something like terror. He was quite unprepared for it. Giovanna had been
-to him but the feeblest creature in the house, the dependent, generally
-disapproved of, and always powerless. To be sure, since her child was
-born, he had heard more complaints of her, and had even perceived that
-she was not as submissive as formerly; but then it is always so easy for
-the head of the house to believe that it is his womankind who are to
-blame, and that when matters are in his own hands all will go well. He
-was totally discomfited, dismayed, and taken by surprise. He could not
-understand that this was the creature who had sat in the corner, and
-been made of no account. He did not know what to do in the emergency. He
-longed for his wife, to ask counsel of, to direct him; and then he
-remembered that his wife, too, had seemed a little afraid of Giovanna, a
-sentiment at which he had loftily smiled, saying to himself, good man,
-that the girl, poor thing, was a good girl enough, and as soon as he
-lifted up a finger, would no doubt submit as became her. In this curious
-reversal of positions and change of circumstances, he could but look at
-her bewildered, and had not an idea what to say or do.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVI.
-
-
-The evening which followed was most uncomfortable. Good M.
-Guillaume--divided between curiosity and the sense of novelty with which
-he found himself in a place so unlike his ideas; a desire to please the
-ladies of the house, and an equally strong desire to settle the question
-which had brought him to Whiteladies--was altogether shaken out of his
-use and wont. He had been allowed a little interview with the child,
-which clung to him, and could only be separated from him at the cost of
-much squalling and commotion, in which even the blandishments of Cook
-were but partially availing. The old man, who had been accustomed to
-carry the baby about with him, to keep it on his knee at meals, and give
-it all those illegitimate indulgences which are common where nurseries
-and nursery laws do not exist, did not understand, and was much
-afflicted by the compulsory separation.
-
-“It is time for the baby to go to bed, and we are going in to dinner,”
-Miss Susan said; as if this was any reason (thought poor M. Guillaume)
-why the baby should not come to dinner too, or why inexorably it should
-go to bed! How often had he kept it on his knee, and fed it with
-indigestible morsels till its countenance shone with gravy and
-happiness! He had to submit, however, Giovanna looking at him while he
-did so (he thought) with a curious, malicious satisfaction. M. Guillaume
-had never been in England before, and the dinner was as odd to him as
-the first foreign dinner is to an Englishman. He did not understand the
-succession of dishes, the heavy substantial soup, the solid roast
-mutton; neither did he understand the old hall, which looked to him like
-a chapel, or the noiseless Stevens behind his chair, or the low-toned
-conversation, of which indeed there was very little. Augustine, in her
-gray robes, was to him simply a nun, whom he also addressed, as
-Giovanna had done, as “Ma sœur.” Why she should be thus in a private
-house at an ordinary table, he could not tell, but supposed it to be
-merely one of those wonderful ways of the English which he had so often
-heard of. Giovanna, who sat opposite to him, and who was by this time
-familiarized with the routine of Whiteladies, scarcely talked at all;
-and though Miss Susan, by way of setting him “at his ease,” asked a
-civil question from time to time about his journey, what kind of
-crossing he had experienced, and other such commonplace matters; yet the
-old linendraper was abashed by the quiet, the dimness of the great room
-around him, the strangeness of the mansion and of the meal. The back
-room behind the shop at Bruges, where the family dined, and for the most
-part lived, seemed to him infinitely more comfortable and pleasant than
-this solemn place, which, on the other hand, was not in the least like a
-room in one of the great châteaux of his own rich country, which was the
-only thing to which he could have compared it. He was glad to accept the
-suggestion that he was tired, and retire to his room, which, in its
-multiplicity of comforts, its baths, its carpets, and its curtains, was
-almost equally bewildering. When, however, rising by skreigh of day, he
-went out in the soft, mellow brightness of the Autumn morning, M.
-Guillaume’s reverential feelings sensibly decreased. The house of
-Whiteladies did not please him at all; its oldness disgusted him; and
-those lovely antique carved gables, which were the pride of all the
-Austins, filled him with contempt. Had they been in stone, indeed, he
-might have understood that they were unobjectionable; but brick and wood
-were so far below the dignity of a château that he felt a sensible
-downfall. After all, what was a place like this to tempt a man from the
-comforts of Bruges, from his own country, and everything he loved.
-
-He had formed a very different idea of Whiteladies. Windsor Castle might
-have come up better to his sublime conception; but this poor little
-place, with its homely latticed windows, and irregular outlines,
-appeared to the good old shopkeeper a mere magnified cottage, nothing
-more. He was disturbed, poor man, in a great many ways. It had appeared
-to him, before he came, that he had nothing to do but to exert his
-authority, and bring his daughter-in-law home, and the child, who was of
-much more importance than she, and without whom he scarcely ventured to
-face his wife and Gertrude. Giovanna had never counted for much in the
-house, and to suppose that he should have difficulty in overcoming her
-will had never occurred to him. But there was something in her look
-which made him very much more doubtful of his own power than up to this
-time he had ever been; and this was a humbling and discouraging
-sensation. Visions, too, of another little business which this visit
-gave him a most desirable opportunity to conclude, were in his mind; and
-he had anticipated a few days overflowing with occupation, in which,
-having only women to encounter, he could not fail to be triumphantly
-successful. He had entertained these agreeable thoughts of triumph up to
-the very moment of arriving at Whiteladies; but somehow the aspect of
-things was not propitious. Neither Giovanna nor Miss Susan looked as if
-she were ready to give in to his masculine authority, or to yield to his
-persuasive influence. The one was defiant, the other roused and on her
-guard. M. Guillaume had been well managed throughout his life. He had
-been allowed to suppose that he had everything his own way; his solemn
-utterances had been listened to with awe, his jokes had been laughed at,
-his verdict acknowledged as final. A man who was thus treated at home is
-apt to be easily mortified abroad, where nobody cares to ménager his
-feelings, or to receive his sayings, whether wise or witty, with
-sentiments properly apportioned to the requirements of the moment.
-Nothing takes the spirit so completely out of such a man as the first
-suspicion that he is among people to whom he is not authority, and who
-really care no more for his opinion than for that of any other man. M.
-Guillaume was in this uncomfortable position now. Here were two women,
-neither of them in the least impressed by his superiority, whom, by
-sheer force of reason, it was necessary for him to get the better of.
-“And women, as is well known, are inaccessible to reason,” he said to
-himself scornfully. This was somewhat consolatory to his pride, but I am
-far from sure whether a lingering doubt of his own powers of reasoning,
-when unassisted by prestige and natural authority, had not a great deal
-to do with it; and the good man felt somewhat small and much
-discouraged, which it is painful for the father of a family to do.
-
-After breakfast, Miss Susan brought him out to see the place. He had
-done his very best to be civil, to drink tea which he did not like, and
-eat the bacon and eggs, and do justice to the cold partridge on the
-sideboard, and now he professed himself delighted to make an inspection
-of Whiteladies. The leaves had been torn by the recent storm from the
-trees, so that the foliage was much thinned, and though it was a
-beautiful Autumn morning, with a brilliant blue sky, and the sunshine
-full of that regretful brightness which Autumn sunshine so often seems
-to show, yellow leaves still came floating, moment by moment, through
-the soft atmosphere, dropping noiselessly on the grass, detached by the
-light air, which could not even be called a breeze. The gables of
-Whiteladies stood out against the blue, with a serene superiority to the
-waning season, yet a certain sympathetic consciousness in their gray
-age, of the generations that had fallen about the old place like the
-leaves. Miss Susan, whose heart was full, looked at the house of her
-fathers with eyes touched to poetry by emotion.
-
-“The old house has seen many a change,” she said, “and not a few sad
-ones. I am not superstitious about it, like my sister, but you must
-know, M. Guillaume, that our property was originally Church lands, and
-that is supposed to bring with it--well, the reverse of a blessing.”
-
-“Ah!” said M. Guillaume, “that is then the chapel, as I supposed, in
-which you dine?”
-
-“The chapel!” cried Miss Susan in dismay. “Oh, dear, no--the house is
-not monastic, as is evident. It is, I believe, the best example, or
-almost the best example, extant of an English manor-house.”
-
-M. Guillaume saw that he had committed himself, and said no more. He
-listened with respectful attention while the chief architectural
-features of the house were pointed out to him. No doubt it was fine,
-since his informer said so--he would not hurt her feelings by uttering
-any doubts on the subject--only, if it ever came into his hands--he
-murmured to himself.
-
-“And now about your business,” cried Miss Susan, who had done her best
-to throw off her prevailing anxiety. “Giovanna? you mean to take her
-back with you--and the child? Your poor good wife must miss the child.”
-
-M. Guillaume took off his hat in his perplexity, and rubbed his bald
-head. “Ah!” he said, “here is my great trouble. Giovanna is more changed
-than I can say. I have been told of her wilfulness, but Madame knows
-that women are apt to exaggerate--not but that I have the greatest
-respect for the sex--.” He paused, and made her a reverence, which so
-exasperated Miss Susan that she could with pleasure have boxed his ears
-as he bowed. But this was one of the many impulses which it is best for
-“the sex,” as well as other human creatures, to restrain.
-
-“But I find it is true,” said M. Guillaume. “She does not show any
-readiness to obey. I do not understand it. I have always been accustomed
-to be obeyed, and I do not understand it,” he added, with plaintive
-iteration. “Since she has the child she has power, I suppose that is the
-explanation. Ladies--with every respect--are rarely able to support the
-temptation of having power. Madame will pardon me for saying so, I am
-sure.”
-
-“But you have power also,” said Miss Susan. “She is dependent upon you,
-is she not? and I don’t see how she can resist what you say. She has
-nothing of her own, I suppose?” she continued, pausing upon this point
-in her inquiries. “She told me so. If she is dependent upon you, she
-must do as you say.”
-
-“That is very true,” said the old shopkeeper, with a certain
-embarrassment; “but I must speak frankly to Madame, who is sensible, and
-will not be offended with what I say. Perhaps it is for this she has
-come here. It has occurred to my good wife, who has a very good head,
-that le petit has already rights which should not be forgotten. I do not
-hesitate to say that women are very quick; these things come into their
-heads sooner than with us, sometimes. My wife thought that there should
-be a demand for an allowance, a something, for the heir. My wife, Madame
-knows, is very careful of her children. She loves to lay up for them, to
-make a little money for them. Le petit had never been thought of, and
-there was no provision made. She has said for a long time that a little
-_rente_, a--what you call allowance, should be claimed for the child.
-Giovanna has heard it, and that has put another idea into her foolish
-head; but Madame will easily perceive that the claim is very just, of a
-something--a little revenue--for the heir.”
-
-“From whom is this little revenue to come?” said Miss Susan, looking at
-him with a calm which she did not feel.
-
-M. Guillaume was embarrassed for the moment; but a man who is accustomed
-to look at his fellow-creatures from the other side of a counter, and
-to take money from them, however delicate his feelings may be, has
-seldom much hesitation in making pecuniary claims. From whom? He had not
-carefully considered the question. Whiteladies in general had been
-represented to him by that metaphorical pronoun which is used for so
-many vague things. _They_ ought to give the heir this income; but who
-_they_ were, he was unable on the spur of the moment to say.
-
-“Madame asks from whom?” he said. “I am a stranger. I know little more
-than the name. From Vite-ladies--from Madame herself--from the estates
-of which le petit is the heir.”
-
-“I have nothing to do with the estates,” said Miss Susan. She was so
-thankful to be able to speak to him without any one by to make her
-afraid, that she explained herself with double precision and clearness,
-and took pains to put a final end to his hopes.
-
-“My sister and I are happily independent; and you are aware that the
-proprietor of Whiteladies is a young man of twenty-one, not at all
-anxious about an heir, and indeed likely to marry and have children of
-his own.”
-
-“To marry?--to have children?” said M. Guillaume in unaffected dismay.
-“But, pardon me, M. Herbert is dying. It is an affair of a few weeks,
-perhaps a few days. This is what you said.”
-
-“I said so eighteen months ago, M. Guillaume. Since then there has been
-a most happy change. Herbert is better. He will soon, I hope, be well
-and strong.”
-
-“But he is poitrinaire,” said the old man, eagerly. “He is beyond hope.
-There are rallyings and temporary recoveries, but these maladies are
-never cured--never cured. Is it not so? You said this yesterday, to help
-me with Giovanna, and I thanked you. But it cannot be, it is not
-possible. I will not believe it!--such maladies are never cured. And if
-so, why then--why then!--no, Madame deceives herself. If this were the
-case, it would be all in vain, all that has been done; and le petit--”
-
-“I am not to blame, I hope, for le petit,” said Miss Susan, trying to
-smile, but with a horrible constriction at her heart.
-
-“But why then?” said M. Guillaume, bewildered and indignant, “why then?
-I had settled all with M. Farrel-Austin. Madame has misled me
-altogether; Madame has turned my house upside down. We were quiet, we
-had no agitations; our daughter-in-law, if she was not much use to us,
-was yet submissive, and gave no trouble. But Madame comes, and in a
-moment all is changed. Giovanna, whom no one thought of, has a baby, and
-it is put into our heads that he is the heir to a great château in
-England. Bah! this is your château--this maison de campagne, this
-construction partly of wood--and now you tell me that le petit is not
-the heir!”
-
-Miss Susan stood still and looked at the audacious speaker. She was
-stupefied. To insult herself was nothing, but Whiteladies! It appeared
-to her that the earth must certainly open and swallow him up.
-
-“Not that I regret your château!” said the linendraper, wild with wrath.
-“If it were mine, I would pull it down, and build something which should
-be comme il faut, which would last, which should not be of brick and
-wood. The glass would do for the fruit-houses, early fruits for the
-market; and with the wood I should make a temple in the garden, where
-ces dames could drink of the tea! It is all it is good for--a maison de
-campagne, a house of farmers, a nothing--and so old! the floors swell
-upward, and the roofs bow downward. It is eaten of worms; it is good for
-rats, not for human beings to live in. And le petit is not the heir! and
-it is Guillaume Austin of Bruges that you go to make a laughing-stock
-of, Madame Suzanne! But it shall not be--it shall not be!”
-
-I do not know what Miss Susan would have replied to this outburst, had
-not Giovanna suddenly met them coming round the corner of the house.
-Giovanna had many wrongs to avenge, or thought she had many wrongs to
-avenge, upon the family of her husband generally, and she had either a
-favorable inclination toward the ladies who had taken her in and used
-her kindly, or at least as much hope for the future as tempted her to
-take their part.
-
-“What is it, mon beau-père, that shall not be?” she cried. “Ah, I know!
-that which the mother wishes so much does not please here? You want
-money, money, though you are so rich. You say you love le petit, but you
-want money for him. But he is my child, not yours, and I do not ask for
-any money. I am not so fond of it as you are. I know what the belle-mère
-says night and day, night and day. ‘They should give us money, these
-rich English, they should give us money; we have them in our power.’
-That is what she is always saying. Ces dames are very good to me, and I
-will not have them robbed. I speak plain, but it is true. Ah! you may
-look as you please, mon beau-père; we are not in Bruges, and I am not
-frightened. You cannot do anything to me here.”
-
-M. Guillaume stood between the two women, not knowing what to do or say.
-He was wild with rage and disappointment, but he had that chilling sense
-of discomfiture which, even while it gives the desire to speak and
-storm, takes away the power. He turned from Giovanna, who defied him, to
-Miss Susan, who had not got over her horror. Between the old gentlewoman
-who was his social superior, and the young creature made superior to him
-by the advantages of youth and by the stronger passions that moved her,
-the old linendraper stood transfixed, incapable of any individual
-action. He took off his hat once more, and took out his handkerchief,
-and rubbed his bald head with baffled wrath and perplexity. “Sotte!” he
-said under his breath to his daughter-in-law; and at Miss Susan he cast
-a look, which was half of curiosity, to see what impression Giovanna’s
-revelations had made upon her, and the other half made up of fear and
-rage, in equal portions. Miss Susan took the ascendant, as natural to
-her superior birth and breeding.
-
-“If you will come down this way, through the orchard, I will show you
-the ruins of the priory,” she said blandly, making a half-curtsey by way
-of closing the discussion, and turning to lead the way. Her politeness,
-in which there was just that admixture of contempt which keeps an
-inferior in his proper place, altogether cowed the old shopkeeper. He
-turned too, and followed her with increased respect, though suppressed
-resentment. But he cast another look at Giovanna before he followed, and
-muttered still stronger expressions, “Imbecile! idiote!” between his
-teeth, as he followed his guide along the leafy way. Giovanna took this
-abuse with great composure. She laughed as she went back across the
-lawn, leaving them to survey the ruins with what interest they might.
-She even snapped her fingers with a significant gesture. “_That_ for
-thee and thy evil words!” she said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVII.
-
-
-Miss Susan felt that it was beyond doubt the work of Providence to
-increase her punishment that Everard should arrive as he did quite
-unexpectedly on the evening of this day. M. Guillaume had calmed down
-out of the first passion of his disappointment, and as he was really
-fond of the child, and stood in awe of his wife and daughter, who were
-still more devoted to it, he was now using all his powers to induce
-Giovanna to go back with him. Everard met them in the green lane, on the
-north side of the house, when he arrived. Their appearance struck him
-with some surprise. The old man carried in his arms the child, which was
-still dressed in its Flemish costume, with the little close cap
-concealing its round face. The baby had its arms clasped closely round
-the old man’s neck, and M. Guillaume, in that conjunction, looked more
-venerable and more amiable than when he was arguing with Miss Susan.
-Giovanna walked beside him, and a very animated conversation was going
-on between them. It would be difficult to describe the amazement with
-which Everard perceived this singularly un-English group so near
-Whiteladies. They seemed to have come from the little gate which opened
-on the lane, and they were in eager, almost violent controversy about
-something. Who were they? and what could they have to do with
-Whiteladies? he asked himself, wondering. Everard walked in,
-unannounced, through the long passages, and opened softly the door of
-the drawing-room. Miss Susan was seated at a small desk near one of the
-windows. She had her face buried in her hands, most pathetic, and most
-suggestive of all the attitudes of distress. Her gray hair was pushed
-back a little by the painful grasp of her fingers. She was giving vent
-to a low moaning, almost more the breathing of pain than an articulate
-cry of suffering.
-
-“Aunt Susan! What is the matter?”
-
-She raised herself instantly, with a smile on her face--a smile so
-completely and unmistakably artificial, and put on for purposes of
-concealment, that it scared Everard almost more than her trouble did.
-“What, Everard!” she said, “is it you? This is a pleasure I was not
-looking for--” and she rose up and held out her hands to him. There was
-some trace of redness about her eyes; but it looked more like want of
-rest than tears; and as her manner was manifestly put on, a certain
-jauntiness, quite unlike Miss Susan, had got into it. The smile which
-she forced by dint of the strong effort required to produce it, got
-exaggerated, and ran almost into a laugh; her head had a little nervous
-toss. A stranger would have said her manner was full of affectation.
-This was the strange aspect which her emotion took.
-
-“What is the matter?” Everard repeated, taking her hands into his, and
-looking at her earnestly. “Is there bad news?”
-
-“No, no; nothing of the kind. I had a little attack of--that old pain I
-used to suffer from--neuralgia, I suppose. As one gets older one
-dislikes owning to rheumatism. No, no, no bad news; a little physical
-annoyance--nothing more.”
-
-Everard tried hard to recollect what the “old pain” was, but could not
-succeed in identifying anything of the kind with the always vigorous
-Miss Susan. She interrupted his reflections by saying with a very jaunty
-air, which contrasted strangely with her usual manner, “Did you meet our
-aristocratic visitors?”
-
-“An old Frenchman, with a funny little child clasped round his neck,”
-said Everard, to whose simple English understanding all foreigners were
-Frenchmen, “and a very handsome young woman. Do they belong here? I did
-meet them, and could not make them out. The old man looked a genial old
-soul. I liked to see him with the child. Your visitors! Where did you
-pick them up?”
-
-“These are very important people to the house and to the race,” said
-Miss Susan, with once more, so to speak, a flutter of her wings. “They
-are--but come, guess; does nothing whisper to you who they are?”
-
-“How should it?” said Everard, in his dissatisfaction with Miss Susan’s
-strange demeanor growing somewhat angry. “What have such people to do
-with you? The old fellow is nice-looking enough, and the woman really
-handsome; but they don’t seem the kind of people one would expect to see
-here.”
-
-Miss Susan made a pause, smiling again in that same sickly forced way.
-“They say it is always good for a race when it comes back to the people,
-to the wholesome common stock, after a great many generations of useless
-gentlefolk. These are the Austins of Bruges, Everard, whom you hunted
-all over the world. They are simple Belgian tradespeople, but at the
-same time Austins, pur sang.”
-
-“The Austins of Bruges?”
-
-“Yes; come over on a visit. It was very kind of them, though we are
-beginning to tire of each other. The old man, M. Guillaume, he whom
-Farrel thought he had done away with, and his daughter-in-law, a young
-widow, and the little child, who is--the heir.”
-
-“The heir?--of the shop, you mean, I suppose.”
-
-“I do nothing of the kind, Everard, and it is unkind of you not to
-understand. The next heir to Whiteladies.”
-
-“Bah!” said Everard. “Make your mind easy, Aunt Susan. Herbert will
-marry before he has been six months at home. I know Herbert. He has been
-helpless and dependent so long, that the moment he has a chance of
-proving himself a man by the glorious superiority of having a wife, he
-will do it. Poor fellow! after you have been led about and domineered
-over all your life, of course you want, in your turn, to domineer over
-some one. See if my words don’t come true.”
-
-“So that is your idea of marriage--to domineer over some one? Poor
-creatures!” said Miss Susan, compassionately; “you will soon find out
-the difference. I hope he may, Everard--I hope he may. He shall have my
-blessing, I promise you, and willing consent. To be quit of that child
-and its heirship, and know there was some one who had a real right to
-the place--Good heavens, what would I not give!”
-
-“It appears, then, you don’t admire those good people from Bruges?”
-
-“Oh, I have nothing to say against them,” said Miss Susan,
-faltering--“nothing! The old man is highly respectable, and Madame
-Austin le jeune, is--very nice-looking. They are quite a nice sort of
-people--for their station in life.”
-
-“But you are tired of them,” said Everard, with a laugh.
-
-“Well, perhaps to say tired is too strong an expression,” said Miss
-Susan, with a panting at the throat which belied her calm speech. “But
-we have little in common, as you may suppose. We don’t know what to say
-to each other; that is the great drawback at all times between the
-different classes. Their ideas are different from ours. Besides, they
-are foreign, which makes more difference still.”
-
-“I have come to stay till Monday, if you will have me,” said Everard;
-“so I shall be able to judge for myself. I thought the young woman was
-very pretty. Is there a Monsieur Austin le jeune? A widow! Oh, then you
-may expect her, if she stays, to turn a good many heads.”
-
-Miss Susan gave him a searching, wondering look. “You are mistaken,” she
-said. “She is not anything so wonderful good-looking, even handsome--but
-not a beauty to turn men’s heads.”
-
-“We shall see,” said Everard lightly. “And now tell me what news you
-have of the travellers. They don’t write to me now.”
-
-“Why?” said Miss Susan, eager to change the subject, and, besides, very
-ready to take an interest in anything that concerned the intercourse
-between Everard and Reine.
-
-“Oh, I don’t know,” he said, shrugging his shoulders. “Somehow we are
-not so intimate as we were. Reine told me, indeed, the last time she
-wrote that it was unnecessary to write so often, now that Herbert was
-well--as if that was all I cared for!” These last words were said low,
-after a pause, and there was a tone of indignation and complaint in
-them, subdued yet perceptible, which, even in the midst of her trouble,
-was balmy to Miss Susan’s ear.
-
-“Reine is a capricious child,” she said, with a passing gleam of
-enjoyment. “You saw a great deal of them before you went to Jamaica. But
-that is nearly two years since,” she added, maliciously; “many changes
-have taken place since then.”
-
-“That is true,” said Everard. And it was still more true, though he did
-not say so, that the change had not all been on Reine’s part. He, too,
-had been capricious, and two or three broken and fugitive flirtations
-had occurred in his life since that day when, deeply émotionné and not
-knowing how to keep his feelings to himself, he had left Reine in the
-little Alpine valley. That Alpine valley already looked very far off to
-him; but he should have preferred, on the whole, to find its memory and
-influence more fresh with Reine. He framed his lips unconsciously to a
-whistle as he submitted to Miss Susan’s examination, which meant to
-express that he didn’t care, that if Reine chose to be indifferent and
-forgetful, why, he could be indifferent too. Instantly, however, he
-remembered, before any sound became audible, that to whistle was
-indecorous, and forbore.
-
-“And how are your own affairs going on?” said Miss Susan; “we have not
-had any conversation on the subject since you came back. Well? I am glad
-to hear it. You have not really been a loser, then, by your fright and
-your hard work?”
-
-“Rather a gainer on the whole,” said Everard; “besides the amusement.
-Work is not such a bad thing when you are fond of it. If ever I am in
-great need, or take a panic again, I shall enjoy it. It takes up your
-thoughts.”
-
-“Then why don’t you go on, having made a beginning?” said Miss Susan.
-“You are very well off for a young man, Everard; but suppose you were to
-marry? And now that you have made a beginning, and got over the worst, I
-wish you could go on.”
-
-“I don’t think I shall ever marry,” said Everard, with a vague smile
-creeping about the corners of his lips.
-
-“Very likely! You should have gone on, Everard. A little more money
-never comes amiss; and as you really like work--”
-
-“When I am forced to it,” he said, laughing. “I am not forced now; that
-makes all the difference. You don’t expect a young man of the nineteenth
-century, brought up as I have been, to go to work in cold blood without
-a motive. No, no, that is too much.”
-
-“If you please, ma’am,” said Martha, coming in, “Stevens wishes to know
-if the foreign lady and gentleman is staying over Sunday. And Cook
-wishes to say, please--”
-
-A shadow came over Miss Susan’s face. She forgot the appearances which
-she had been keeping up with Everard. The color went out of her cheeks;
-her eyes grew dull and dead, as if the life had died out of them. She
-put up her hands to stop this further demand upon her.
-
-“They cannot go on Sunday, of course,” she said, “and it is too late to
-go to-day. Stevens knows that as well as I do, and so do you all. Of
-course they mean to stay.”
-
-“And if you please, ma’am, Cook says the baby--”
-
-“No more, please, no more!” cried Miss Susan, faintly. “I shall come
-presently and talk to Cook.”
-
-“You want to get rid of these people,” said Everard, sympathetically,
-startled by her look. “You don’t like them, Aunt Susan, whatever you may
-say.”
-
-“I hate them!” she said, low under her breath, with a tone of feeling so
-intense that he was alarmed by it. Then she recovered herself suddenly,
-chased the cloud from her face, and fell back into the jaunty manner
-which had so much surprised and almost shocked him before. “Of course I
-don’t mean that,” she said, with a laugh. “Even I have caught your
-fashion of exaggeration; but I don’t love them, indeed, and I think a
-Sunday with them in the house is a very dismal affair to look forward
-to. Go and dress, Everard; there is the bell. I must go and speak to
-Cook.”
-
-While this conversation had been going on in-doors, the two foreigners
-thus discussed were walking up and down Priory Lane, in close
-conversation still. They did not hear the dressing-bell, or did not care
-for it. As for Giovanna, she had never yet troubled herself to ask what
-the preliminary bell meant. She had no dresses to change, and having no
-acquaintance with the habit which prescribed this alteration of costume
-in the evening, made no attempt to comply with it. The child clung about
-M. Guillaume’s neck, and gave power to his arguments, though it nearly
-strangled him with its close clasp. “My good Giovanna,” he said, “why
-put yourself in opposition to all your friends? We are your friends,
-though you will not think so. This darling, the light of our eyes, you
-will not steal him from us. Yes, my own! it is of thee I speak. The
-blessed infant knows; look how he holds me! You would not deprive me of
-him, my daughter--my dear child?”
-
-“I should not steal him, anyhow,” said the young woman, with an
-exultation which he thought cruel. “He is mine.”
-
-“Yes, I know. I have always respected zight, chérie; you know I have.
-When thy mother-in-law would have had me take authority over him, I have
-said ‘No; she is his mother; the right is with her’--always, ma fille! I
-ask thee as a favor--I do not command thee, though some, you know, might
-think--. Listen, my child. The little one will be nothing but a burden
-to you in the world. If you should wish to go away, to see new faces, to
-be independent, though it is so strange for a woman, yet think, my
-child, the little one would be a burden. You have not the habits of our
-Gertrude, who understands children. Leave thy little one with us! You
-will then be free to go where you will.”
-
-“And you will be rid of me!” cried the young woman, with passionate
-scorn. “Ah, I know you! I know what you mean. To get the child without
-me would be victory. Ma belle-mère would be glad, and Gertrude, who
-understands children. Understand me, then, mon beau-père. The child is
-my power. I will never leave hold of him; he is my power. By him I can
-revenge myself; without him I am nobody, and you do not fear me. Give my
-baby to me!”
-
-She seized the child, who struggled to keep his hold, and dragged him
-out of his grandfather’s arms. The little fellow had his mouth open to
-cry, when she deftly filled it with her handkerchief, and, setting him
-down forcibly on his little legs, shook him into frightened silence.
-“Cry, and I will beat thee!” she said. Then turning to the grandfather,
-who was remonstrating and entreating, “He shall walk; he is big enough;
-he shall not be carried nor spoiled, as you would spoil him. Listen, bon
-papa. I have not anything else to keep my own part with; but _he_ is
-mine.”
-
-“Giovanna! Giovanna! think less of thyself and more of thy child!”
-
-“When I find you set me a good example,” she said. “Is it not your
-comfort you seek, caring nothing for mine? Get rid of me, and keep the
-child! Ah, I perceive my belle-mère in that! But it is his interest to
-be here. Ces dames, though they don’t love us, are kind enough. And
-listen to me; they will never give you the rente you demand for the
-boy--never; but if he stays here and I stay here, they will not turn us
-out. Ah, no, Madame Suzanne dares not turn me out! See, then, the reason
-of what I am doing. You love the child, but you do not wish a burden;
-and if you take him away, it will be as a burden; they will never give
-you a sous for him. But leave us here, and they will be forced to
-nourish us and lodge us. Ah, you perceive! I am not without reason; I
-know what I do.”
-
-M. Guillaume was staggered. Angry as he was to have the child dragged
-from his arms, and dismayed as he was by Giovanna’s indifference to its
-fright and tears, there was still something in this argument which
-compelled his attention. It was true that the subject of an allowance
-for the baby’s maintenance and education had been of late very much
-talked of at Bruges, and the family had unanimously concluded that it
-was a right and necessary thing, and the letter making the claim had
-begun to be concocted, when Giovanna, stung by some quarrel, had
-suddenly taken the matter into her own hands. To take back the child
-would be sweet; but to take it back pensionless and almost hopeless,
-with its heirship rendered uncertain, and its immediate claims denied,
-would not be sweet. M. Guillaume was torn in twain by conflicting
-sentiments, his paternal feelings struggling against a very strong
-desire to make what could be honestly made out of Whiteladies, and to
-have the baby provided for. His wife was eager to have the child, but
-would she be as eager if she knew that it was totally penniless, and had
-only visionary expectations. Would not she complain more and more of
-Giovanna, who did nothing, and even of the child itself, another mouth
-to be fed? This view of the subject silenced and confounded him. “If I
-could hope that thou wouldst be kind!” he said, falteringly, eying the
-poor baby, over whom his heart yearned. His heart yearned over the
-child; and yet he felt it would be something of a triumph could he
-exploit Miss Susan, and transfer an undesirable burden from his own
-shoulders to hers. Surely this was worth doing, after her English
-coldness and her aristocratic contempt. M. Guillaume did not like to be
-looked down upon. He had been wounded in his pride and hurt in his
-tender feelings; and now he would be revenged on her! He put his hand on
-Giovanna’s shoulder, and drew closer to her, and they held a
-consultation with their heads together, which was only interrupted by
-the appearance of Stevens, very dark and solemn, who begged to ask if
-they were aware that the dinner-bell had rung full five minutes before?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXVIII.
-
-
-The dinner-table in the old hall was surrounded by a very odd party that
-night. Miss Susan, at the head of the table, in the handsome matronly
-evening dress which she took to always at the beginning of Winter, did
-her best to look as usual, though she could not quite keep the panting
-of her breast from being visible under her black silk and lace. She was
-breathless, as if she had been running hard; this was the form her
-agitation took. Miss Augustine, at the other end of the table, sat
-motionless, absorbed in her own thoughts, and quite unmoved by what was
-going on around her. Everard had one side to himself, from which he
-watched with great curiosity the pair opposite him, who came in
-abruptly--Giovanna, with her black hair slightly ruffled by the wind,
-and M. Guillaume, rubbing his bald head. This was all the toilet they
-had made. The meal began almost in silence, with a few remarks only
-between Miss Susan and Everard. M. Guillaume was pre-occupied. Giovanna
-was at no time disposed for much conversation. Miss Susan, however,
-after a little interval, began to talk significantly, so as to attract
-the strangers.
-
-“You said you had not heard lately from Herbert,” she said, addressing
-her young cousin. “You don’t know, then, I suppose, that they have made
-all their plans for coming home?”
-
-“Not before the Winter, I hope.”
-
-“Oh, no, not before the Winter--in May, when we hope it will be quite
-safe. They are coming home, not for a visit, but to settle. And we must
-think of looking for a house,” said Miss Susan, with a smile and a sigh.
-
-“Do you mean that you--you who have been mistress of Whiteladies for so
-long--that you will leave Whiteladies? They will never allow that,” said
-Everard.
-
-Miss Susan looked him meaningly in the face, with a gleam of her eye
-toward the strangers on the other side of the table. How could he tell
-what meaning she wished to convey to him? Men are not clever at
-interpreting such communications in the best of circumstances, and,
-perfectly ignorant as he was of the circumstances, how could Everard
-make out what she wanted? But the look silenced and left him gaping with
-his mouth open, feeling that something was expected of him, and not
-knowing what to say.
-
-“Yes, that is my intention,” said Miss Susan, with that jaunty air which
-had so perplexed and annoyed him before. “When Herbert comes home, he
-has his sister with him to keep his house. I should be superseded. I
-should be merely a lodger, a visitor in Whiteladies, and that I could
-not put up with. I shall go, of course.”
-
-“But, Aunt Susan, Reine would never think--Herbert would never permit--”
-
-Another glance, still more full of meaning, but of meaning beyond
-Everard’s grasp, stopped him again. What could she want him to do or
-say? he asked himself. What could she be thinking of?
-
-“The thing is settled,” said Miss Susan; “of course we must go. The
-house and everything in it belongs to Herbert. He will marry, of course.
-Did not you say to me this very afternoon that he was sure to marry?”
-
-“Yes,” Everard answered faintly; “but--”
-
-“There is no but,” she replied, with almost a triumphant air. “It is a
-matter of course. I shall feel leaving the old house, but I have no
-right to it, it is not mine, and I do not mean to make any fuss. In six
-months from this time, if all is well, we shall be out of Whiteladies.”
-
-She said this with again a little toss of her head, as if in
-satisfaction. Giovanna and M. Guillaume exchanged alarmed glances. The
-words were taking effect.
-
-“Is it settled?” said Augustine, calmly. “I did not know things had gone
-so far. The question now is, Who will Herbert marry? We once talked of
-this in respect to you, Everard, and I told you my views--I should say
-my wishes. Herbert has been restored as by a miracle. He ought to be
-very thankful--he ought to show his gratitude. But it depends much upon
-the kind of woman he marries. I thought once in respect to you--”
-
-“Augustine, we need not enter into these questions before strangers,”
-said Miss Susan.
-
-“It does not matter who is present,” said Augustine. “Every one knows
-what my life is, and what is the curse of our house.”
-
-“Pardon, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume. “I am of the house, but I do
-not know.”
-
-“Ah!” said Augustine, looking at him. “After Herbert, you represent the
-elder branch, it is true; but you have not a daughter who is young,
-under twenty, have you? that is what I want to know.”
-
-“I have three daughters, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume, delighted to
-find a subject on which he could expatiate; “all very good--gentille,
-kind to every one. There is Madeleine, who is the wife of M. Meeren, the
-jeweller--François Meeren, the eldest son, very well off; and Marie, who
-is settled at Courtray, whose husband has a great manufactory; and
-Gertrude, my youngest, who has married my partner--they will succeed her
-mother and me when our day is over. Ma sœur knows that my son died.
-Yes; these are misfortunes that all have to bear. This is my family.
-They are very good women, though I say it--pious and good mothers and
-wives, and obedient to their husbands and kind to the poor.”
-
-Augustine had continued to look at him, but the animation had faded out
-of her eyes. “Men’s wives are of little interest to me,” she said. “What
-I want is one who is young, and who would understand and do what I say.”
-
-Here Giovanna got up from her chair, pushing it back with a force which
-almost made Stevens drop the dish he was carrying. “Me!” she cried, with
-a gleam of malice in her eyes, “me, ma sœur! I am younger than
-Gertrude and the rest. I am no one’s wife. Let it be me.”
-
-Augustine looked at her with curious scrutiny, measuring her from head
-to foot, as it were; while Miss Susan, horror-stricken at once by the
-discussion and the indecorum, looked on breathless. Then Augustine
-turned away.
-
-“_You_ could not be Herbert’s wife,” she said, with her usual abstract
-quiet; and added softly, “I must ask for enlightenment. I shall speak
-to my people at the almshouses to-morrow. We have done so much. His life
-has been given to us; why not the family salvation too?”
-
-“These are questions which had better not be discussed at the
-dinner-table,” said Miss Susan; “a place where in England we don’t think
-it right to indulge in expressions of feeling. Madame Jean, I am afraid
-you are surprised by my sister’s ways. In the family we all know what
-she means exactly; but outside the family--”
-
-“I am one of the family,” said Giovanna, leaning back in her chair, on
-which she had reseated herself. She put up her hands, and clasped them
-behind her head in an attitude which was of the easiest and freest
-description. “I eat no more, thank you, take it away; though the cuisine
-is better than my belle mère’s, bon papa; but I cannot eat forever, like
-you English. Oh, I am one of the family. I understand also, and I
-think--there are many things that come into my head.”
-
-Miss Susan gave her a look which was full of fright and dislike, but not
-of understanding. Everard only thought he caught for a moment the gleam
-of sudden malicious meaning in her eyes. She laughed a low laugh, and
-looked at him across the table, yawning and stretching her arms, which
-were hidden by her black sleeves, but which Everard divined to be
-beautiful ones, somewhat large, but fine and shapely. His eyes sought
-hers half unwillingly, attracted in spite of himself. How full of life
-and youth and warmth and force she looked among all these old people!
-Even her careless gestures, her want of breeding, over which Stevens was
-groaning, seemed to make it more evident; and he thought to himself,
-with a shudder, that he understood what was in her eye.
-
-But none of the old people thought the rude young woman worth notice.
-Her father-in-law pulled her skirt sharply under the table, to recall
-her to “her manners,” and she laughed, but did not alter her position.
-Miss Susan was horrified and angry, but her indignation went no further.
-She turned to the old linendraper with elaborate politeness.
-
-“I am afraid you will find our English Sunday dull,” she said. “You know
-we have different ideas from those you have abroad; and if you want to
-go to-morrow, travelling is difficult on Sunday--though to be sure we
-might make an effort.”
-
-“Pardon, I have no intention of going to-morrow,” said M. Guillaume. “I
-have been thinking much--and after dinner I will disclose to Madame what
-my thoughts have been.”
-
-Miss Susan’s bosom swelled with suspense and pain. “That will do,
-Stevens, that will do,” she said.
-
-He had been wandering round and round the table for about an hour, she
-thought, with sweet dishes of which there was an unusual and unnecessary
-abundance, and which no one tasted. She felt sure, as people always do,
-when they are aware of something to conceal, that he lingered so long on
-purpose to spy out what he could of the mystery; and now her heart beat
-with feverish desire to know what was the nature of M. Guillaume’s
-thoughts. Why did not he say plainly, “We are going on Monday?” That
-would have been a hundred times better than any thoughts.
-
-“It will be well if you will come to the Almshouses to-morrow,” said
-Miss Augustine, once more taking the conduct of the conversation into
-her hands. “It will be well for yourself to show at least that you
-understand what the burden of the family is. Perhaps good thoughts will
-be put into your heart; perhaps, as you are the next in succession of
-our family--ah! I must think of that. You are an old man; you cannot be
-ambitious,” she said slowly and calmly; “nor love the world as others
-do.”
-
-“You flatter me, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume. “I should be proud to
-deserve your commendation; but I am ambitious. Not for myself--for me it
-is nothing; but if this child were the master here, I should die happy.
-It is what I wish for most.”
-
-“That is,” said Miss Susan, with rising color (and oh, how thankful she
-was for some feasible pretext by which to throw off a little of the
-rising tide of feeling within her!)--“that is--what M. Guillaume Austin
-wishes for most is, that Herbert, our boy, whom God has spared, should
-get worse again, and die.”
-
-The old man looked up at her, startled, having, like so many others,
-thought innocently enough of what was most important to himself, without
-considering how it told upon the others. Giovanna, however, put herself
-suddenly in the breach.
-
-“I,” she cried, with another quick change of movement--“I am the child’s
-mother, Madame Suzanne, you know; yet I do not wish this. Listen. I
-drink to the health of M. Herbert!” she cried, lifting up the nearest
-glass of wine, which happened to be her father-in-law’s; “that he comes
-home well and strong, that he takes a wife, that he lives long! I carry
-this to his health. Vive M. Herbert!” she cried, and drank the wine,
-which brought a sudden flush to her cheeks, and lighted up her eyes.
-
-They all gazed at her--I cannot say with what disapproval and secret
-horror in their elderly calm; except Everard, who, always ready to
-admire a pretty woman, felt a sudden enthusiasm taking possession of
-him. He, oddly enough, was the only one to understand her meaning; but
-how handsome she was! how splendid the glow in her eyes! He looked
-across the table, and bowed and pledged her. He was the only one who did
-not look at her with disapproval. Her beauty conciliated the young man,
-in spite of himself.
-
-“Drinking to him is a vain ceremony,” said Augustine; “but if you were
-to practise self-denial, and get up early, and come to the Almshouses
-every morning with me--”
-
-“I will,” said Giovanna, quickly, “I will! every morning, if ma sœur
-will permit me--”
-
-“I do not suppose that every morning can mean much in Madame Jean’s
-case,” said Miss Susan stiffly, “as no doubt she will be returning home
-before long.”
-
-“Do not check the young woman, Susan, when she shows good dispositions,”
-said Augustine. “It is always good to pray. You are worldly-minded
-yourself, and do not think as I do; but when I can find one to feel with
-me, that makes me happy. She may stay longer than you think.”
-
-Miss Susan could not restrain a low exclamation of dismay. Everard,
-looking at her, saw that her face began to wear that terrible look of
-conscious impotence--helpless and driven into a corner, which is so
-unendurable to the strong. She was of more personal importance
-individually than all the tormentors who surrounded her, but she was
-powerless, and could do nothing against them. Her cheeks flushed hot
-under her eyes, which seemed scorched, and dazzled too, by this burning
-of shame. He said something to her in a low tone, to call off her
-attention, and perceived that the strong woman, generally mistress of
-the circumstances, was unable to answer him out of sheer emotion.
-Fortunately, by this time the dessert was on the table, and she rose
-abruptly. Augustine, slower, rose too. Giovanna, however, sat still
-composedly by her father-in-law’s side.
-
-“The bon papa has not finished his wine,” she said, pointing to him.
-
-“Madame Jean,” said Miss Susan, “in England you must do as English
-ladies do. I cannot permit anything else in my house.”
-
-It was not this that made her excited, but it was a mode of throwing
-forth a little of that excitement which, moment by moment, was getting
-to be more than she could bear. Giovanna, after another look, got up and
-obeyed her without a word.
-
-“So this is the mode Anglaise!” said the old man when they were gone;
-“it is not polite; it is to show, I suppose, that we are not welcome;
-but Madame Suzanne need not give herself the trouble. If she will do her
-duty to her relations, I do not mean to stay.”
-
-“I do not know what it is about,” said Everard; “but she always does her
-duty by everybody, and you need not be afraid.”
-
-On this hint M. Guillaume began, and told Everard the whole matter,
-filling him with perplexity. The story of Miss Susan’s visit sounded
-strangely enough, though the simple narrator knew nothing of its worst
-consequences; but he told his interested auditor how she had tempted him
-to throw up his bargain with Farrel-Austin, and raised hopes which now
-she seemed so little inclined to realize; and the story was not
-agreeable to Everard’s ear. Farrel-Austin, no doubt, had begun this
-curious oblique dealing; but Farrel-Austin was a man from whom little
-was expected, and Everard had been used to expect much from Miss Susan.
-But he did not know, all the time, that he was driving her almost mad,
-keeping back the old man, who had promised that evening to let her know
-the issue of his thoughts. She was sitting in a corner, speechless and
-rigid with agitation, when the two came in from the dining-room to “join
-the ladies;” and even then Everard, in his ignorance, would have seated
-himself beside her, to postpone the explanation still longer. “Go away!
-go away!” she said to him in a wild whisper. What could she mean? for
-certainly there could be nothing tragical connected with this old man,
-or so at least Everard thought.
-
-“Madame will excuse me, I hope,” said Guillaume blandly; “as it is the
-mode Anglaise, I endeavored to follow it, though it seems little
-polite. But it is not for one country to condemn the ways of the other.
-If Madame wishes it, I will now say the result of my thoughts.”
-
-Miss Susan, who was past speaking, nodded her head, and did her best to
-form her lips into a smile.
-
-“Madame informs me,” said M. Guillaume, “that Monsieur Herbert is
-better, that the chances of le petit are small, and that there is no one
-to give to the child the rente, the allowance, that is his due?”
-
-“That is true, quite true.”
-
-“On the other hand,” said M. Guillaume, “Giovanna has told me her
-ideas--she will not come away with me. What she says is that her boy has
-a right to be here; and she will not leave Viteladies. What can I say?
-Madame perceives that it is not easy to change the ideas of Giovanna
-when she has made up her mind.”
-
-“But what has her mind to do with it,” cried Miss Susan in despair,
-“when it is you who have the power?”
-
-“Madame is right, of course,” said the old shopkeeper; “it is I who have
-the power. I am the father, the head of the house. Still, a good father
-is not a tyrant, Madame Suzanne; a good father hears reason. Giovanna
-says to me, ‘It is well; if le petit has no right, it is for M. le
-Proprietaire to say so.’ She is not without acuteness, Madame will
-perceive. What she says is, ‘If Madame Suzanne cannot provide for le
-petit--will not make him any allowance--and tells us that she has
-nothing to do with Viteladies--then it is best to wait until they come
-who have to do with it. M. Herbert returns in May. Eh, bien! she will
-remain till then, that M. Herbert, who must know best, may decide.”
-
-Miss Susan was thunderstruck. She was driven into silence, paralyzed by
-this intimation. She looked at the old shopkeeper with a dumb strain of
-terror and appeal in her face, which moved him, though he did not
-understand.
-
-“Mon Dieu! Madame,” he cried; “can I help it? it is not I; I am without
-power!”
-
-“But she shall not stay--I cannot have her; I will not have her!” cried
-Miss Susan, in her dismay.
-
-M. Guillaume said nothing, but he beckoned his step-daughter from the
-other end of the room.
-
-“Speak for thyself,” he said. “Thou art not wanted here, nor thy child
-either. It would be better to return with me.”
-
-Giovanna looked Miss Susan fall in the eyes, with an audacious smile.
-
-“Madame Suzanne will not send me away,” she said; “I am sure she will
-not send me away.”
-
-Miss Susan felt herself caught in the toils. She looked from one to
-another with despairing eyes. She might appeal to the old man, but she
-knew it was hopeless to appeal to the young woman, who stood over her
-with determination in every line of her face, and conscious power
-glancing from her eyes. She subdued herself by an incalculable effort.
-
-“I thought,” she said, faltering, “that it would be happier for you to
-go back to your home--that to be near your friends would please you. It
-may be comfortable enough here, but you would miss the--society of your
-friends--”
-
-“My mother-in-law?” said Giovanna, with a laugh. “Madame is too good to
-think of me. Yes, it is dull, I know; but for the child I overlook that.
-I will stay till M. Herbert comes. The bon papa is fond of the child,
-but he loves his rente, and will leave us when we are penniless. I will
-stay till M. Herbert returns, who must govern everything. Madame Suzanne
-will not contradict me, otherwise I shall have no choice. I shall be
-forced to go to M. Herbert to tell him all.”
-
-Miss Susan sat still and listened. She had to keep silence, though her
-heart beat so that it seemed to be escaping out of her sober breast, and
-the blood filled her veins to bursting.
-
-Heaven help her! here was her punishment. Fiery passion blazed in her,
-but she durst not betray it; and to keep it down--to keep it silent--was
-all she was able to do. She answered, faltering,--
-
-“You are mistaken; you are mistaken. Herbert will do nothing. Besides,
-some one could write and tell you what he says.”
-
-“Pardon! but I move not; I leave not,” said Giovanna. She enjoyed the
-triumph. “I am a mother,” she said; “Madame Suzanne knows; and mothers
-sacrifice everything for the good of their children--everything. I am
-able for the sacrifice,” she said, looking down upon Miss Susan with a
-gleam almost of laughter--of fun, humor, and malicious amusement in her
-eyes.
-
-To reason with this creature was like dashing one’s self against a stone
-wall. She was impregnable in her resolution. Miss Susan, feeling the
-blow go to her heart, pushed her chair back into the corner, and hid
-herself, as it were. It was a dark corner, where her face was in
-comparative darkness.
-
-“I cannot struggle with you,” she said, in a piteous whisper, feeling
-her lips too parched and dry for another word.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIX.
-
-
-“Going to stay till Herbert comes back! but, my dear Aunt Susan, since
-you don’t want her--and of course you don’t want her--why don’t you say
-so?” cried Everard. “An unwelcome guest may be endured for a day or two,
-or a week or two, but for five or six months--”
-
-“My dear,” said Miss Susan, who was pale, and in whose vigorous frame a
-tremble of weakness seemed so out of place, “how can I say so? It would
-be so--discourteous--so uncivil--”
-
-The young man looked at her with dismay. He would have laughed had she
-not been so deadly serious. Her face was white and drawn, her lips
-quivered slightly as she spoke. She looked all at once a weak old woman,
-tremulous, broken down, and uncertain of herself.
-
-“You must be ill,” he said. “I can’t believe it is you I am speaking to.
-You ought to see the doctor, Aunt Susan--you cannot be well.”
-
-“Perhaps,” she said with a pitiful attempt at a smile, “perhaps. Indeed
-you must be right, Everard, for I don’t feel like myself. I am getting
-old, you know.”
-
-“Nonsense!” he said lightly, “you were as young as any of us last time I
-was here.”
-
-“Ah!” said Miss Susan, with her quivering lips. “I have kept that up too
-long. I have gone on being young--and now all at once I am old; that is
-how it is.”
-
-“But that does not make any difference in my argument,” said Everard;
-“if you are old--which I don’t believe--the less reason is there for
-having you vexed. You don’t like this guest who is going to inflict
-herself upon you. I shouldn’t mind her,” he added, with a laugh; “she’s
-very handsome, Aunt Susan; but I don’t suppose that affects you in the
-same way; and she will be quite out of place when Herbert comes, or at
-least when Reine comes. I advise you to tell her plainly, before the old
-fellow goes, that it won’t do.”
-
-“I can’t, my dear--I can’t!” said Miss Susan; how her lips
-quivered!--“she is in my house, she is my guest, and I can’t say ‘Go
-away.’”
-
-“Why not? She is not a person of very fine feelings, to be hurt by it.
-She is not even a lady; and till May, till the end of May! you will
-never be able to endure her.”
-
-“Oh, yes I shall,” said Miss Susan. “I see you think that I am very
-weak; but I never was uncivil to any one, Everard, not to any one in my
-own house. It is Herbert’s house, of course,” she added quickly, “but
-yet it has been mine, though I never had any real right to it for so
-many years.”
-
-“And you really mean to leave now?”
-
-“I suppose so,” said Miss Susan faltering, “I think, probably--nothing
-is settled. Don’t be too hard upon me, Everard! I said so--for them, to
-show them that I had no power.”
-
-“Then why, for heaven’s sake, if you have so strong a feeling--why, for
-the sake of politeness!--Politeness is absurd, Aunt Susan,” said
-Everard. “Do you mean to say that if any saucy fellow, any cad I may
-have met, chose to come into my house and take possession, I should not
-kick him out because it would be uncivil? This is not like your good
-sense. You must have some other reason. No! do you mean No by that shake
-of the head? Then if it is so very disagreeable to you, let me speak to
-her. Let me suggest--”
-
-“Not for the world,” cried Miss Susan. “No, for pity’s sake, no. You
-will make me frantic if you speak of such a thing.”
-
-“Or to the old fellow,” said Everard; “he ought to see the absurdity of
-it, and the tyranny.”
-
-She caught at this evidently with a little hope. “You may speak to
-Monsieur Guillaume if you feel disposed,” she said; “yes, you may speak
-to him. I blame him very much; he ought not to have listened to her; he
-ought to have taken her away at once.”
-
-“How could he if she wouldn’t go? Men no doubt are powerful beings,”
-said Everard laughing, “but suppose the other side refused to be moved?
-Even a horse at the water, if it declines to drink--you know the
-proverb.”
-
-“Oh, don’t worry me with proverbs--as if I had not enough without that!”
-she said with an impatience which would have been comic had it not been
-so tragical. “Yes, Everard, yes, if you like you may speak to him--but
-not to her; not a word to her for the world. My dear boy, my dear boy!
-You won’t go against me in this?”
-
-“Of course I shall do only what you wish me to do,” he said more
-gravely; the sight of her agitation troubled the young man exceedingly.
-To think of any concealed feeling, any mystery in connection with Susan
-Austin, seemed not only a blasphemy, but an absurdity. Yet what could
-she mean, what could her strange terror, her changed looks, her agitated
-aspect, mean? Everard was more disturbed than he could say.
-
-This was on Sunday afternoon, that hour of all others when clouds hang
-heaviest, and troubles, where they exist, come most into the foreground.
-The occupations of ordinary life push them aside, but Sunday, which is
-devoted to rest, and in which so many people honestly endeavor to put
-the trifling little cares of every day out of their minds, always lays
-hold of those bigger disturbers of existence which it is the aim of our
-lives to forget. Miss Susan would have made a brave fight against the
-evil which she could not avoid on another day, but this day, with all
-its many associations of quiet, its outside tranquillity, its peaceful
-recollections and habits, was too much for her. Everard had found her
-walking in the Priory Lane by herself, a bitter dew of pain in her eyes,
-and a tremble in her lips which frightened him. She had come out to
-collect her thoughts a little, and to escape from her visitors, who
-sometimes seemed for the moment more than she could bear.
-
-Miss Augustine came up on her way from the afternoon service at the
-Almshouses, while Everard spoke. She was accompanied by Giovanna, and it
-was a curious sight to see the tall, slight figure of the Gray sister,
-type of everything abstract and mystic, with that other by her side,
-full of strange vitality, watching the absorbed and dreamy creature with
-those looks of investigation, puzzled to know what her meaning was, but
-determined somehow to be at the bottom of it. Giovanna’s eyes darted a
-keen telegraphic communication to Everard’s as they came up. This glance
-seemed to convey at once an opinion and an inquiry. “How droll she is!
-Is she mad? I am finding her out,” the eyes said. Everard carefully
-refrained from making any reply; though, indeed, this was self-denial on
-his part, for Giovanna certainly made Whiteladies more amusing than it
-had been when he was last there.
-
-“You have been to church?” said Miss Susan, with her forced and
-reluctant smile.
-
-“She went with me,” said Miss Augustine. “I hope we have a great
-acquisition in her. Few have understood me so quickly. If anything
-should happen to Herbert--”
-
-“Nothing will happen to Herbert,” cried Miss Susan. “God bless him! It
-sounds as if you were putting a spell upon our boy.”
-
-“I put no spell; I don’t even understand such profane words. My heart is
-set on one thing, and it is of less importance how it is carried out. If
-anything should happen to Herbert, I believe I have found one who sees
-the necessity as I do, and who will sacrifice herself for the salvation
-of the race.”
-
-“One who will sacrifice herself!” Miss Susan gasped wildly under her
-breath.
-
-Giovanna looked at her with defiance, challenging her, as it were, to a
-mortal struggle; yet there was a glimmer of laughter in her eyes. She
-looked at Miss Susan from behind the back of the other, and made a slow,
-solemn courtesy as Augustine spoke. Her eyes were dancing with humorous
-enjoyment of the situation, with mischief and playfulness, yet with
-conscious power.
-
-“This--lady?” said Miss Susan, “I think you are mad; Austine, I think
-you are going mad!”
-
-Miss Augustine shook her head. “Susan, how often do I tell you that you
-are giving your heart to Mammon and to the world! This is worse than
-madness. It makes you incapable of seeing spiritual things. Yes! she is
-capable of it. Heaven has sent her in answer to many prayers.”
-
-Saying this, Augustine glided past toward the house with her arms folded
-in her sleeves, and her abstract eyes fixed on the vacant air. A little
-flush of displeasure at the opposition had come upon her face as she
-spoke, but it faded as quickly as it came. As for Giovanna, before she
-followed her, she stopped, and threw up her hands with an appealing
-gesture: “Is it then my fault?” she said, as she passed.
-
-Miss Susan stood and looked after them, her eyes dilating; a kind of
-panic was in her face. “Is it, then, God that has sent her, to support
-the innocent, to punish the guilty?” she said, under her breath.
-
-“Aunt Susan, take my arm; you are certainly ill.”
-
-“Yes, yes,” she said, faintly. “Take me in, take me out of sight, and
-never tell any one, Everard, never tell any one. I think I shall go out
-of my mind. It must be giving my thoughts to Mammon and the world, as
-she said.”
-
-“Never mind what she says,” said Everard, “no one pays any attention to
-what she says. Your nerves are overwrought somehow or other, and you are
-ill. But I’ll have it out with the old duffer!” cried the young man.
-They met Monsieur Guillaume immediately after, and I think he must have
-heard them; but he was happily quite unaware of the nature of a
-“duffer,” or what the word meant, and to tell the truth, so am I.
-
-Miss Susan was not able to come down to dinner, a marvellous and almost
-unheard of event, so that the party was still less lively than usual.
-Everard was so concerned about his old friend, and the strange condition
-in which she was, that he began his attack upon the old shopkeeper
-almost as soon as they were left alone. “Don’t you think, sir,” the
-young man began, in a straightforward, unartificial way, “that it would
-be better to take your daughter-in-law with you? She will only be
-uncomfortable among people so different from those you have been
-accustomed to; I doubt if they will get on.”
-
-“Get on?” said Monsieur Guillaume, pleasantly. “Get on what? She does
-not wish to get on anywhere. She wishes to stay here.”
-
-“I mean, they are not likely to be comfortable together, to agree, to be
-friends.”
-
-M. Guillaume shrugged his shoulders. “Mon Dieu,” he said, “it will not
-be my fault. If Madame Suzanne will not grant the little rente, the
-allowance I demanded for le petit, is it fit that he should be at my
-charge? He was not thought of till Madame Suzanne came to visit us.
-There is nothing for him. He was born to be the heir here.”
-
-“But Miss Austin could have nothing to do with his being born,” cried
-Everard, laughing. Poor Miss Susan, it seemed the drollest thing to lay
-to her charge. But M. Guillaume did not see the joke, he went on
-seriously.
-
-“And I had made my little arrangement with M. Farrel. We were in accord;
-all was settled; so much to come to me on the spot, and this heritage,
-this old château--château, mon Dieu, a thing of wood and brick!--to him,
-eventually. But when Madame Suzanne arrived to tell us of the beauties
-of this place, and when the women among them made discovery of le petit,
-that he was about to be born, the contract was broken with M. Farrel. I
-lost the money--and now I lose the heritage; and it is I who must
-provide for le petit! Monsieur, such a thing was never heard of. It is
-incredible; and Madame Suzanne thinks, I am to carry off the child
-without a word, and take this disappointment tranquilly! But no! I am
-not a fool, and it cannot be.”
-
-“But I thought you were very fond of the child, and were in despair of
-losing him,” said Everard.
-
-“Yes, yes,” cried the old shopkeeper, “despair is one thing, and good
-sense is another. This is contrary to good sense. Giovanna is an
-obstinate, but she has good sense. They will not give le petit anything,
-eh bien, let them bear the expense of him! That is what she says.”
-
-“Then the allowance is all you want?” said Everard, with British
-brevity. This seemed to him the easiest of arrangements. With his mind
-quite relieved, and a few jokes laid up for the amusement of the future,
-touching Miss Susan’s powers and disabilities, he strolled into the
-drawing-room, M. Guillaume preferring to take himself to bed. The
-drawing-room of Whiteladies had never looked so thoroughly unlike
-itself. There seemed to Everard at first to be no one there, but after a
-minute he perceived a figure stretched out upon a sofa. The lamps were
-very dim, throwing a sort of twilight glimmer through the room; and the
-fire was very red, adding a rosy hue, but no more, to this faint
-illumination. It was the sort of light favorable to talk, or to
-meditation, or to slumber, but by aid of which neither reading, nor
-work, nor any active occupation could be pursued. This was of itself
-sufficient to mark the absence of Miss Susan, for whom a cheerful light
-full of animation and activity seemed always necessary. The figure on
-the sofa lay at full length, with an _abandon_ of indolence and comfort
-which suited the warm atmosphere and subdued light. Everard felt a
-certain appropriateness in the scene altogether, but it was not
-Whiteladies. An Italian palace or an Eastern harem would have been more
-in accordance with the presiding figure. She raised her head, however,
-as he approached, supporting herself on her elbow, with a vivacity
-unlike the Eastern calm, and looked at him by the dim light with a look
-half provoking half inviting, which attracted the foolish young man more
-perhaps than a more correct demeanor would have done. Why should not he
-try what he could do, Everard thought, to move the rebel? for he had an
-internal conviction that even the allowance which would satisfy M.
-Guillaume would not content Giovanna. He drew a chair to the other side
-of the table upon which the tall dim lamp was standing, and which was
-drawn close to the sofa on which the young woman lay.
-
-“Do you really mean to remain at Whiteladies?” he said. “I don’t think
-you can have any idea how dull it is here.”
-
-She shrugged her shoulders slightly, and raised her eyebrows. She had
-let her head drop back upon the sofa cushions, and the faint light threw
-a kind of dreamy radiance upon her fine features, and great glowing dark
-eyes.
-
-“Dull! it is almost more than dull,” he continued; though even as he
-spoke he felt that to have this beautiful creature in Whiteladies would
-be a sensible alleviation of the dulness, and that his effort on Miss
-Susan’s behalf was of the most disinterested kind. “It would kill you, I
-fear; you can’t imagine what it is in Winter, when the days are short;
-the lamps are lit at half-past four, and nothing happens all the
-evening, no one comes. You sit before dinner round the fire, and Miss
-Austin knits, and after dinner you sit round the fire again, and there
-is not a sound in all the place, unless you have yourself the courage to
-make an observation; and it seems about a year before it is time to go
-to bed. You don’t know what it is.”
-
-What Miss Susan would have said had she heard this account of those
-Winter evenings, many of which the hypocrite had spent very coseyly at
-Whiteladies, I prefer not to think. The idea occurred to himself with a
-comic panic. What would she say? He could scarcely keep from laughing as
-he asked himself the question.
-
-“I have imagination,” said Giovanna, stretching her arms. “I can see it
-all; but I should not endure it, me. I should get up and snap my fingers
-at them and dance, or sing.”
-
-“Ah!” said Everard, entering into the humor of his rôle, “so you think
-at present; but it would soon take the spirit out of you. I am very
-sorry for you, Madame Jean. If I were like you, with the power of
-enjoying myself, and having the world at my feet--”
-
-“Ah! bah!” cried Giovanna, “how can one have the world at one’s feet,
-when one is never seen? And you should see the shop at Bruges, mon Dieu!
-People do not come and throw themselves at one’s feet there. I am not
-sure even if it is altogether the fault of Gertrude and the belle-mère;
-but here--”
-
-“You will have no one to see to,” said Everard, tickled by the part he
-was playing, and throwing himself into the spirit of it. “That is
-worse--for what is the good of being visible when there is no one to
-see?”
-
-This consideration evidently was not without its effect. Giovanna raised
-herself lazily on her elbow and looked at him across the table. “You
-come,” said she, “and this ’Erbert.”
-
-“Herbert!” said Everard, shading his head, “he is a sickly boy; and as
-for me--I have to pay my vows at other shrines,” he added with a laugh.
-But he found this conversation immensely entertaining, and went on
-representing the disadvantages of Whiteladies with more enjoyment than
-perhaps he had ever experienced in that place on a Sunday evening
-before. He went on till Giovanna pettishly bade him go. “At the least,
-it is comfortable,” she said. “Ah, go! It is very tranquil, there is no
-one to call to you with sharp voice like a knife, ‘Gi’vanna! tu dors!’
-Go, I am going to sleep.”
-
-I don’t suppose she meant him to take her at her word, for Giovanna was
-amused too, and found the young man’s company and his compliments, and
-that half-mocking, half-real mixture of homage and criticism, to be a
-pleasant variety. But Everard, partly because he had exhausted all he
-had got to say, partly lest he should be drawn on to say more, jumped up
-in a state of amusement and satisfaction with himself and his own
-cleverness which was very pleasant. “Since you send me away, I must
-obey,” he said; “Dormez, belle enchanteresse!” and with this, which he
-felt to be a very pretty speech indeed, he left the room more pleased
-with himself than ever. He had spent a most satisfactory evening, he
-had ascertained that the old man was to be bought off with money, and
-he had done his best to disgust the young woman with a dull English
-country-house; in short, he had done Miss Susan yeoman’s service, and
-amused himself at the same time. Everard was agreeably excited, and
-felt, after a few moments’ reflection over a cigar on the lawn, that he
-would like to do more. It was still early, for the Sunday dinner at
-Whiteladies, as in so many other respectable English houses, was an hour
-earlier than usual; and as he wandered round the house, he saw the light
-still shining in Miss Susan’s window. This decided him; he threw away
-the end of his cigar, and hastening up the great staircase three steps
-at once, hurried to Miss Susan’s door. “Come in,” she said faintly.
-Everard was as much a child of the house as Herbert and Reine, and had
-received many an admonition in that well-known chamber. He opened the
-door without hesitation. But there was something in the very atmosphere
-which he felt to daunt him as he went in.
-
-Miss Susan was seated in her easy chair by the bedside fully dressed.
-She was leaning her head back upon the high shoulder of the
-old-fashioned chair with her eyes shut. She thought it was Martha who
-had come in, and she was not careful to keep up appearances with Martha,
-who had found out days before that something was the matter. She was
-almost ghastly in her paleness, and there was an utter languor of
-despair about her attitude and her look, which alarmed Everard in the
-highest degree. But he could not stop the first words that rose upon his
-lips, or subdue altogether the cheery tone which came naturally from his
-satisfied feelings. “Aunt Susan,” he cried, “come along, come down
-stairs, now’s your time. I have been telling stories of Whiteladies to
-disgust her, and I believe now you could buy them off with a small
-annuity. Aunt Susan! forgive my noise, you are ill.”
-
-“No, no,” she said with a gasp and a forlorn smile. “No, only tired.
-What did you say, Everard? whom am I to buy off?” This was a last effort
-at keeping up appearances. Then it seemed to strike her all at once that
-this was an ungrateful way of treating one who had been taking so much
-trouble on her account. “Forgive me, Everard,” she said; “I have been
-dozing, and my head is muddled. Buy them off? To be sure, I should have
-thought of that; for an annuity, after all, though I have no right to
-give it, is better than having them settled in the house.”
-
-“Far better, since you dislike them so much,” said Everard; “I don’t,
-for my part. She is not so bad. She is very handsome, and there’s some
-fun in her.”
-
-“Fun!” Miss Susan rose up very tremulous and uncertain, and looking ten
-years older, with her face ashy pale, and a tottering in her steps, all
-brought about by this unwelcome visitor; and to hear of fun in
-connection with Giovanna, made her sharply, unreasonably angry for the
-time. “You should choose your words better at such a moment,” she said.
-
-“Never mind my words, come and speak to her,” cried Everard. He was very
-curious and full of wonder, seeing there was something below the surface
-more than met his eyes, and that the mystery was far more mysterious
-than his idea of it. Miss Susan hesitated more than ever, and seemed as
-if she would have gone back before they reached the stairs; but he kept
-up her courage. “When it’s only a little money, and you can afford it,”
-he said. “You don’t care so much for a little money.”
-
-“No, I don’t care much for a little money,” she repeated after him
-mechanically, as she went downstairs.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXX.
-
-
-Miss Susan entered the drawing-room in the same dim light in which
-Everard had left it. She was irritable and impatient in her misery. She
-would have liked to turn up all the lamps, and throw a flood of light
-upon the stranger whose attitude was indolent and indecorous. Why was
-she there at all? what right had she to extend herself at full length,
-to make herself so comfortable? That Giovanna should be comfortable did
-not do Miss Susan any further harm; but she felt as if it did, and a
-fountain of hot wrath surged up in her heart. This, however, she felt
-was not the way in which she could do any good, so she made an effort to
-restrain herself. She sat down in Everard’s seat which he had left. She
-was not quite sure whether he himself were not lingering in the shadows
-at the door of the room, and this made her difficulty the greater in
-what she had to say.
-
-“Do you like this darkness?” she asked. “It is oppressive; we cannot see
-to do anything.”
-
-“Me, I don’t want to do anything,” said Giovanna. “I sleep and I dream.
-This is most pleasant to me. Madame Suzanne likes occupation. Me, I do
-not.”
-
-“Yes,” said Miss Susan with suppressed impatience, “that is one of the
-differences between us. But I have something to say to you; you wanted
-me to make an allowance for the child, and I refused. Indeed, it is not
-my business, for Whiteladies is not mine. But now that I have thought of
-it, I will consent. It would be so much better for you to travel with
-your father-in-law than alone.”
-
-Giovanna turned her face toward her companion with again that laughing
-devil in her eye. “Madame Suzanne mistakes. The bon papa spoke of his
-rente that he loves, not me. If ces dames will give me money to dress
-myself, to be more like them, that will be well; but it was the
-bon-papa, not me.”
-
-“Never mind who it was,” said Miss Susan, on the verge of losing her
-temper. “One or the other, I suppose it is all the same. I will give you
-your allowance.”
-
-“To dress myself? thanks, that will be well. Then I can follow the mode
-Anglaise, and have something to wear in the evening, like Madame Suzanne
-herself.”
-
-“For the child!” cried the suffering woman, in a voice which to Everard,
-behind backs, sounded like low and muffled thunder. “To support him and
-you, to keep you independent, to make you comfortable at home among your
-own people--”
-
-“Merci!” cried Giovanna, shrugging her shoulders. “That is the
-bon-papa’s idea, as I tell madame, not mine. Comfortable! with my
-belle-mère! Listen, Madame Suzanne--I too, I have been thinking. If you
-will accept me with bounty, you shall not be sorry. I can make myself
-good; I can be useful, though it is not what I like best. I stay--I make
-myself your child--”
-
-“I do not want you,” cried Miss Susan, stung beyond her strength of
-self-control, “I do not want you. I will pay you anything to get you
-away.”
-
-Giovanna’s eyes gave forth a gleam. “Très bien,” she said, calmly. “Then
-I shall stay, if madame pleases or not. It is what I have intended from
-the beginning; and I do not change my mind, me.”
-
-“But if I say you shall not stay!” said Miss Susan, wrought to fury, and
-pushing back her chair from the table.
-
-Giovanna raised herself on her elbow, and leaned across the table,
-fixing the other with her great eyes.
-
-“Once more, très bien,” she said, in a significant tone, too low for
-Everard to hear, but not a whisper. “Très bien! Madame then wishes me to
-tell not only M. Herbert, but the bonne sœur, madame’s sister, and ce
-petit monsieur-là?”
-
-Miss Susan sat and listened like a figure of stone. Her color changed
-out of the flush of anger which had lighted it up, and grew again ashy
-pale. From her laboring breast there came a great gasp, half groan, half
-sob. She looked at the remorseless creature opposite with a piteous
-prayer coming into her eyes. First rage, which was useless; then
-entreaty, more useless still. “Have pity on me! have pity on me,” she
-said.
-
-“But certainly!” said Giovanna, sinking back upon her cushions with a
-soft laugh. “Certainly! I am not cruel, me; but I am comfortable, and I
-stay.”
-
-“She will not hear of it,” said Miss Susan, meeting Everard’s anxious
-looks as she passed him, hurrying upstairs. “Never mind me. Everard,
-never mind! we shall do well enough. Do not say any more about it. Never
-mind! never mind! It is time we were all in bed.”
-
-“But, Aunt Susan, tell me--”
-
-“No, no, there is nothing to tell,” she said, hurrying from him. “Do not
-let us say any more about it. It is time we were all in bed.”
-
-The next day M. Guillaume left Whiteladies, after a very melancholy
-parting with his little grandchild. The old man sobbed, and the child
-sobbed for sympathy. “Thou wilt be good to him, Giovanna!” he said,
-weeping. Giovanna stood, and looked on with a smile on her face. “Bon
-papa, it is easy to cry,” she said; “but you do not want him without a
-rente; weep then for the rente, not for the child.” “Heartless!” cried
-the old shopkeeper, turning from her; and her laugh, though it was quite
-low, did sound heartless to the bystanders; yet there was some truth in
-what she said. M. Guillaume went away in the morning, and Everard in the
-afternoon. The young man was deeply perplexed and disturbed. He had been
-a witness of the conclusive interview on the previous night without
-hearing all that was said; yet he had heard enough to show him that
-something lay behind of which he was not cognizant--something which made
-Miss Susan unwillingly submit to an encumbrance which she hated, and
-which made her more deeply, tragically unhappy than a woman of her
-spotless life and tranquil age had any right to be. To throw such a
-woman into passionate distress, and make her, so strong in her good
-sense, so reasonable and thoroughly acquainted with the world, bow her
-head under an irritating and unnecessary yoke, there must be some cause
-more potent than anything Everard could divine. He made an attempt to
-gain her confidence before he went away; but it was still more fruitless
-than before. The only thing she would say was, that she could speak no
-more on the subject. “There is nothing to say. She is here now for good
-or for evil, and we must make the best of it. Probably we shall get on
-better than we think,” said Miss Susan; and that was all he could
-extract from her. He went away more disturbed than he could tell; his
-curiosity was excited as well as his sympathy, and though, after awhile,
-his natural reluctance to dwell on painful subjects made him attempt to
-turn his mind from this, yet the evident mystery to be found out made
-that attempt much harder than usual. Everard was altogether in a
-somewhat uncertain and wavering state of mind at the time. He had
-returned from his compulsory episode of active life rather better in
-fortune, and with a perception of his own unoccupied state, which had
-never disturbed him before. He had not got to love work, which is a
-thing which requires either genius or training. He honestly believed,
-indeed, that he hated work, as was natural to a young man of his
-education; but having been driven to it, and discovered in himself, to
-his great surprise, some faculty for it, his return to what he thought
-his natural state had a somewhat strange effect upon him. To do nothing
-was, no doubt, his natural state. It was freedom; it was happiness
-(passive); it was the most desirable condition of existence. All this he
-felt to be true. He was his own master, free to go where he would, do
-what he would, amuse himself as he liked; and yet the conclusion of the
-time when he had not been his own master--when he had been obliged to do
-this and that, to move here and there not by his own will, but as
-necessity demanded--had left a sense of vacancy in this life. He was
-dissatisfied with his leisure and his freedom; they were not so good,
-not so pleasant, as they had once been. He had known storm and tempest,
-and all the expedients by which men triumph over these commotions, and
-the calm of his inland existence wearied him, though he had not yet gone
-so far as to confess it to himself.
-
-This made him think more of the mystery of Whiteladies than perhaps he
-would have done otherwise, and moved him so far as to indite a letter to
-Reine, in which perhaps more motives than that of interest in Miss
-Susan’s troubles were involved. He had left them when the sudden storm
-which he had now surmounted had appeared on the horizon, at a very
-critical moment of his intercourse with Reine; and then they had been
-cast altogether apart, driven into totally different channels for two
-years. Two years is a long time or a short time, according to the
-constitution of the mind, and the nature of circumstances. It had been
-about a century to Everard, and he had developed into a different being.
-And now this different being, brought back to the old life, did not well
-know what to do with himself. Should he go and join his cousins again,
-amuse himself, see the world, and perhaps renew some things that were
-past, and reunite a link half broken, half unmade? Anyhow, he wrote to
-Reine, setting forth that Aunt Susan was ill and very queer--that there
-was a visitor at Whiteladies of a very novel and unusual character--that
-the dear old house threatened to be turned upside down--fourthly, and
-accidentally, that he had a great mind to spend the next six months on
-the Continent. Where were they going for the Winter? Only ladies, they
-say, put their chief subject in a postscript. Everard put his under care
-of a “By-the-bye” in the last two lines of his letter. The difference
-between the two modes is not very great.
-
-And thus, while the young man meditated change, which is natural to his
-age, in which renovation and revolution are always possible, the older
-people at Whiteladies settled down to make the best of it, which is the
-philosophy of their age. To say the older people is incorrect, for it
-was Miss Susan only who had anything novel or heavy to endure. Miss
-Augustine liked the new guest, who for some time went regularly to the
-Almshouse services with her, and knelt devoutly, and chanted forth the
-hymns with a full rich voice, which indeed silenced the quavering tones
-of the old folks, but filled the chapel with such a flood of melody as
-had never been heard there before. Giovanna enjoyed singing. She had a
-fine natural voice, but little instruction, and no opportunity at the
-moment of getting at anything better in the way of music; so that she
-was glad of the hymns which gave her pleasure at once in the exercise of
-her voice, and in the agreeable knowledge that she was making a
-sensation. As much of a crowd as was possible in St. Austin’s began to
-gather in the Almshouse garden when she was known to be there; and
-though Mrs. Richard instinctively disapproved of her, the Doctor was
-somewhat proud of this addition to his service. Giovanna went regularly
-with her patroness, and gained Augustine’s heart, as much as that
-abstracted heart could be gained, and made herself not unpopular with
-the poor people, to whom she would speak in her imperfect English with
-more familiarity than the ladies ever indulged in, and from whom, in
-lieu of better, she was quite ready to receive compliments about her
-singing and her beauty. Once, indeed, she sang songs to them in their
-garden, to the great entertainment of the old Almshouse folks. She was
-caught in the act by Mrs. Richard, who rushed to the rescue of her
-gentility with feelings which I will not attempt to describe. The old
-lady ran out breathless at the termination of a song, with a flush upon
-her pretty old cheeks, and caught the innovator by the arm.
-
-“The doctor is at home, and I am just going to give him a cup of tea,”
-she said; “won’t you come and have some with us?”
-
-Mrs. Richard’s tidy little bosom heaved under her black silk gown with
-consternation and dismay.
-
-Giovanna was not at all willing to give up her al fresco entertainment.
-“But I will return, I will return,” she said.
-
-“Do, madame, do,” cried the old people, who were vaguely pleased by her
-music, and more keenly delighted by having a new event to talk about,
-and the power of wondering what Miss Augustine (poor thing!) would
-think; and Mrs. Richard led Giovanna in, with her hand upon her arm,
-fearful lest her prisoner should escape.
-
-“It is very good of you to sing to them; but it is not a thing that is
-done in England,” said the little old lady.
-
-“I love to sing,” said Giovanna, “and I shall come often. They have not
-any one to amuse them; and neither have I,” she added with a sigh.
-
-“My dear, you must speak to the Doctor about it,” said Mrs. Richard.
-
-Giovanna was glad of any change, even of little Dr. Richard and the cup
-of tea, so she was submissive enough for the moment; and to see her
-between these two excellent and orderly little people was an edifying
-sight.
-
-“No, it is not usual,” said Dr. Richard, “my wife is right; but it is
-very kind-hearted of madame, my dear, to wish to amuse the poor people.
-There is nothing to be said against that.”
-
-“Very kind-hearted,” said Mrs. Richard, though with less enthusiasm. “It
-is all from those foreigners’ love of display,” she said in her heart.
-
-“But perhaps it would be wise to consult Miss Augustine, or--any other
-friend you may have confidence in,” said the Doctor. “People are so very
-censorious, and we must not give any occasion for evil-speaking.”
-
-“I think exactly with Dr. Richard, my dear,” said the old lady. “I am
-sure that would be the best.”
-
-“But I have nothing done to consult about,” cried the culprit surprised.
-She sipped her tea, and ate a large piece of the good people’s cake,
-however, and let them talk. When she was not crossed, Giovanna was
-perfectly good-humored. “I will sing for you, if you please,” she said
-when she had finished.
-
-The Doctor and his wife looked at each other, and professed their
-delight in the proposal. “But we have no piano,” they said in chorus
-with embarrassed looks.
-
-“What does that do to me, when I can sing without it,” said Giovanna.
-And she lifted up her powerful voice, “almost too much for a
-drawing-room,” Mrs. Richard said afterward, and sang them one of those
-gay peasant songs that abound in Italy, where every village has its own
-_canzone_. She sang seated where she had been taking her tea, and
-without seeming to miss an accompaniment, they remarked to each other,
-as if she had been a ballad-singer. It was pretty enough, but so very
-unusual! “Of course foreigners cannot be expected to know what is
-according to the rules of society in England,” Mrs. Richard said with
-conscious indulgence; but she put on her bonnet and walked with “Madame”
-part of the way to Whiteladies, that she might not continue her
-performance in the garden. “Miss Augustine might think, or Miss Susan
-might think, that we countenanced it; and in the Doctor’s position that
-would never do,” said the old lady, breathing her troubles into the ear
-of a confidential friend whom she met on her way home. And Dr. Richard
-himself felt the danger not less strongly than she.
-
-Other changes, however, happened to Giovanna, as she settled down at
-Whiteladies. She was without any fixed principles of morality, and had
-no code of any kind which interfered with her free action. To give up
-doing anything she wanted to do because it involved lying, or any kind
-of spiritual dishonesty, would never have occurred to her, nor was she
-capable of perceiving that there was anything wrong in securing her own
-advantage as she had done. But she was by no means all bad, any more
-than truthful and honorable persons are all good. Her own advantage, or
-what she thought her own advantage, and her own way, were paramount
-considerations with her; but having obtained these, Giovanna had no wish
-to hurt anybody, or to be unkind. She was indolent and loved ease, but
-still she was capable of taking trouble now and then to do some one else
-a service. She had had no moral training, and all her faculties were
-obtuse; and she had seen no prevailing rule but that of selfishness.
-Selfishness takes different aspects, according to the manner in which
-you look at it. When you have to maintain hardly, by a constant
-struggle, your own self against the encroachments and still more rampant
-selfishness of others, the struggle confers a certain beauty upon the
-object of it. Giovanna had wanted to have her own way, like the others
-of the family, but had been usually thrust into a corner, and prevented
-from having it. What wonder, then, that when she had a chance, she
-seized it, and emancipated herself, and secured her own comfort with the
-same total disregard to others which she had been used to see? But now,
-having got this--having for the moment all she wanted--an entire
-exemption from work, an existence full of external comfort, and
-circumstances around her which flattered her with a sense of an elevated
-position--she began to think a little. Nothing was exacted of her. If
-Miss Susan was not kind to her, she was not at least unkind, only
-withdrawing from her as much as possible, a thing which Giovanna felt to
-be quite natural, and in the quiet and silence the young woman’s mind
-began to work. I do not say her conscience, for that was not in the
-least awakened, nor was she conscious of any penitential regret in
-thinking of the past, or religious resolution for the future; it was her
-mind only that was concerned. She thought it might be as well to make
-certain changes in her habits. In her new existence, certain
-modifications of the old use and wont seemed reasonable. And then there
-gradually developed in her--an invaluable possession which sometimes
-does more for the character than high principle or good intention--a
-sense of the ludicrous. This was what Everard meant when he said there
-was fun in her. She had a sense of humor, a sense of the incongruities
-which affect some minds so much more powerfully by the fact of being
-absurd, than by the fact of being wrong. Giovanna, without any actual
-good motive, thus felt the necessity of amending herself, and making
-various changes in her life.
-
-This, it may be supposed, took some time to develop; and in the meantime
-the household in which she had become so very distinct a part, had to
-make up its mind to her, and resume as best it could its natural habits
-and use and wont, with the addition of this stranger in the midst. As
-for the servants, their instinctive repugnance to a foreigner and a new
-inmate was lessened from the very first by the introduction of the
-child, who conciliated the maids, and thus made them forgive his mother
-the extra rooms they had to arrange, and the extra work necessary. The
-child was fortunately an engaging and merry child, and as he got used to
-the strange faces round him, became the delight and pride and amusement
-of the house. Cook was still head nurse, and derived an increased
-importance and satisfaction from her supremacy. I doubt if she had ever
-before felt the dignity and happiness of her position as a married woman
-half so much as now, when that fact alone (as the others felt) gave her
-a mysterious capacity for the management of the child. The maids
-overlooked the fact that the child’s mother, though equally a married
-woman, was absolutely destitute of this power; but accuracy of reasoning
-is not necessary in such an argument, and the entire household bowed to
-the superior endowments of Cook. The child’s pattering, sturdy little
-feet, and crowings of baby laughter became the music of Whiteladies, the
-pleasant accompaniment to which the lives at least of the little
-community in the kitchen were set. Miss Susan, being miserable, resisted
-the fascination, and Augustine was too abstracted to be sensible of it;
-but the servants yielded as one woman, and even Stevens succumbed after
-the feeblest show of resistance. Now and then even, a bell would ring
-ineffectually in that well-ordered house, and the whole group of
-attendants be found clustered together worshipping before the baby, who
-had produced some new word, or made some manifestation of supernatural
-cleverness; and the sound of the child pervaded all that part of the
-house in which the servants were supreme. They forgave his mother for
-being there because she had brought him, and if at the same time they
-hated her for her neglect of him, the hatred was kept passive by a
-perception that, but for this insensibility on her part, the child could
-not have been allowed thus fully and pleasantly to minister to them.
-
-As for Miss Susan, who had felt as though nothing could make her endure
-the presence of Giovanna, she too was affected unwittingly by the soft
-effects of time. It was true that no sentiment, no principle in
-existence was strong enough to make her accept cheerfully this unwelcome
-guest. Had she been bidden to do it in order to make atonement for her
-own guilt, or as penance for that guilt, earning its forgiveness, or out
-of pity or Christian feeling, she would have pronounced the effort
-impossible; and impossible she had still thought it when she watched
-with despair the old shopkeeper’s departure, and reflected with a sense
-of suffering intolerable and not to be borne that he had left behind him
-this terrible witness against her, this instrument of her punishment.
-Miss Susan had paced about her room in restless anguish, saying to
-herself under her breath that her punishment was greater than she could
-bear. She had felt with a sickening sense of helplessness and
-hopelessness that she could never go downstairs again, never take her
-place at that table, never eat or drink in the company of this new
-inmate whom she could not free herself from. And for a few days, indeed,
-Miss Susan kept on inventing little ailments which kept her in her own
-room. But this could not last. She had a hundred things to look after
-which made it necessary for her to be about, to be visible; and
-gradually there grew upon her a stirring of curiosity to see how things
-went on, with _that_ woman always there. And then she resumed her
-ordinary habits, came downstairs, sat down at the familiar table, and by
-degrees found herself getting accustomed to the new-comer. Strangest
-effect of those calm, monotonous days! Nothing would have made her do it
-knowingly; but soft pressure of time made her do it. Things quieted
-down; the alien was there, and there was no possibility of casting her
-out; and, most wonderful of all, Miss Susan got used to her, in spite of
-herself.
-
-And Giovanna, for her part, began to think.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXI.
-
-
-Giovanna possessed that quality which is commonly called common-sense,
-though I doubt if she was herself aware of it. She had never before been
-in a position in which this good sense could tell much, or in which even
-it was called forth to any purpose. Her lot had always been determined
-for her by others. She had never, until the coming of the child, been in
-a position in which it mattered much one way or another what she
-thought; and since that eventful moment her thinkings had not been of an
-edifying description. They had been chiefly bent on the consideration
-how to circumvent the others who were using her for their own purposes,
-and to work advantage to herself out of the circumstances which, for the
-first time in her life, gave her the mastery. Now, she had done this;
-she had triumphantly overcome all difficulties, and, riding over
-everybody’s objections, had established herself here in comfort.
-Giovanna had expected a constant conflict with Miss Susan, who was her
-enemy, and over whom she had got the victory. She had looked for nothing
-better than a daily fight--rather enlivening, all things
-considered--with the mistress of the house, to whom, she knew, she was
-so unwelcome a guest. She had anticipated a long-continued struggle, in
-which she should have to hold her own, and defend herself, hour by hour.
-When she found that this was not going to be the case--that poor Miss
-Susan, in her misery and downfall, gave up and disappeared, and, even
-when she returned again to her ordinary habits, treated herself,
-Giovanna, with no harshness, and was only silent and cold, not insulting
-and disagreeable, a great deal of surprise arose in her mind. There were
-no little vengeances taken upon her, no jibes directed against her, no
-tasks attempted to be imposed. Miss Augustine, the bonne sœur, who
-no doubt (and this Giovanna could understand) acted from religious
-motives, was as kind to her as it was in her abstract nature to be,
-talking to her on subjects which the young woman did not understand, but
-to which she assented easily, to please the other, about the salvation
-of the race, and how, if anything happened to Herbert, there might be a
-great work possible to his successor; but even Miss Susan, who was her
-adversary, was not unkind to her, only cold, and this, Giovanna,
-accustomed to much rough usage, was not refined enough to take much note
-of. This gave a strong additional force to her conviction that it would
-be worth while to put herself more in accord with her position; and I
-believe that Giovanna, too, felt instinctively the influence of the
-higher breeding of her present companions.
-
-The first result of her cogitations became evident one Winter day, when
-all was dreary out of doors, and Miss Susan, after having avoided as
-long as she could the place in which Giovanna was, felt herself at last
-compelled to take refuge in the drawing-room. There she found, to her
-great amazement, the young woman seated on a rug before the fire,
-playing with the child, who, seated on her lap, seemed as perfectly at
-home there as on the ample lap of its beloved Cook. Miss Susan started
-visibly at this unaccustomed sight, but said nothing. It was not her
-custom, now, to say anything she could help saying. She drew her chair
-aside to be out of their way, and took up her book. This was another
-notable change in her habits. She had been used to work, knitting the
-silent hours away, and read only at set times, set apart for this
-purpose by the habit of years--and then always what she called “standard
-books.” Now, Miss Susan, though her knitting was always at hand, knitted
-scarcely at all, but read continually novels, and all the light
-literature of the circulating library. She was scarcely herself aware of
-this change. It is a sign of the state of mind in which we have too much
-to think of, as well as of that in which we have nothing to think of at
-all.
-
-And I think if any stranger had seen that pretty group, the beautiful
-young mother cooing over the child, playing with it and caressing it,
-the child responding by all manner of baby tricks and laughter, and soft
-clingings and claspings, while the elder woman sat silent and gray,
-taking no notice of them, he would have set the elder woman down as the
-severest and sternest of grandmothers--the father’s mother, no doubt,
-emblem of the genus mother-in-law, which so many clever persons have
-held up to odium. To tell the truth, Miss Susan had some difficulty in
-going on with her reading, with the sound of those baby babblings in her
-ear. She was thunderstruck at first by the scene, and then felt
-unreasonably angry. Was nature nothing then? She had thought the child’s
-dislike of Giovanna--though it was painful to see--was appropriate to
-the circumstances, and had in it a species of poetic justice. Had it
-been but a pretence, or what did this sudden fondness mean? She kept
-silent as long as she could, but after a time the continual babble grew
-too much for her.
-
-“You have grown very suddenly fond of the child, Madame Jean,” she said,
-abruptly.
-
-“Fond!” said Giovanna, “that is a strange word, that English word of
-yours; I can make him love me--here.”
-
-“You did not love him elsewhere, so far as I have heard,” said Miss
-Susan, “and that is the best way to gain love.”
-
-“Madame Suzanne, I wish to speak to you,” said Giovanna. “At Bruges I
-was never of any account; they said the child was more gentil, more sage
-with Gertrude. Well; it might be he was; they said I knew nothing about
-children, that I could not learn--that it was not in my nature; things
-which were pleasant, which were reassuring, don’t you think? That was
-one of the reasons why I came away.”
-
-“You did not show much power of managing him, it must be confessed, when
-you came here.”
-
-“No,” said Giovanna, “it was harder than I thought. These babies, they
-have no reason. When you say, ‘Be still, I am thy mother, be still!’ it
-does not touch them. What they like is kisses and cakes, and that you
-should make what in England is called ‘a fuss;’ that is the hardest,
-making a fuss; but when it is done, all is done. Voilà! Now, he loves
-me. If Gertrude approached, he would run to me and cry. Ah, that would
-make me happy!”
-
-“Then it is to spite Gertrude”--Miss Susan began, in her severest voice.
-
-“No, no; I only contemplate that as a pleasure, a pleasure to come. No;
-I am not very fond of to read, like you, Madame Suzanne; besides, there
-is not anything more to read; and so I reflect. I reflect with myself,
-that not to have love with one’s child, or at least amitié, is very
-strange. It is droll; it gives to think; and people will stare and say,
-‘Is that her child?’ This is what I reflect within myself. To try before
-would have been without use, for always there was Gertrude, or my
-belle-mère, or some one. They cried out, ‘G’vanna touch it not, thou
-wilt injure the baby!’ ‘G’vanna, give it to me, thou knowest nothing of
-children!’ And when I came away it was more hard than I thought. Babies
-have not sense to know when it is their mother. I said to myself, ‘Here
-is a perverse one, who hates me like the rest;’ and I was angry. I beat
-him--you would have beat him also, Madame Suzanne, if he had screamed
-when you touched him. And then--petit drôle!--he screamed more.”
-
-“Very natural,” said Miss Susan. “If you had any heart, you would not
-beat a baby like that.”
-
-Giovanna’s eyes flashed. She lifted her hand quickly, as if to give a
-blow of recollection now; but, changing her mind, she caught the child
-up in her arms, and laid his little flushed cheek to hers. “A présent,
-tu m’aimes!” she said. “When I saw how the others did, I knew I could do
-it too. Also, Madame Suzanne, I recollected that a mother should have de
-l’amitié for her child.”
-
-Miss Susan gave a short contemptuous laugh. “It is a fine thing to have
-found that out at last,” she said.
-
-“And I have reflected further,” said Giovanna--“Yes, darling, thou shalt
-have these jolies choses;” and with this, she took calmly from the table
-one of a very finely-carved set of chessmen, Indian work, which
-ornamented it. Miss Susan started, and put out her hand to save the
-ivory knight, but the little fellow had already grasped it, and a sudden
-scream arose.
-
-“For shame! Madame Suzanne,” cried Giovanna, with fun sparkling in her
-eyes. “You, too, then, have no heart!”
-
-“This is totally different from kindness, this is spoiling the child,”
-cried Miss Susan. “My ivory chessmen, which were my mother’s! Take it
-away from him at once.”
-
-Giovanna wavered a moment between fun and prudence, then coaxing the
-child, adroitly with something else less valuable, got the knight from
-him, and replaced it on the table. Then she resumed where she had broken
-off. “I have reflected further that it is bad to fight in a house. You
-take me for your enemy, Madame Suzanne?--eh bien, I am not your enemy. I
-do nothing against you. I seek what is good for me, as all do.”
-
-“All don’t do it at the cost of other people’s comfort--at the cost of
-everything that is worth caring for in another’s life.”
-
-This Miss Susan said low, with her eyes bent on the fire, to herself
-rather than to Giovanna; from whom, indeed, she expected no response.
-
-“Mon Dieu! it is not like that,” cried the young woman; “what is it that
-I do to you? Nothing! I do not trouble, nor tease, nor ask for anything.
-I am contented with what you give me. I have come here, and I find it
-well; but you, what is it that I do to you? I do not interfere. It is
-but to see me one time in a day, two times, perhaps. Listen, it cannot
-be so bad for you to see me even two times in a day as it would be for
-me to go back to my belle-mère.”
-
-“But you have no right to be here,” said Miss Susan, shaking her gray
-dress free from the baby’s grasp, who had rolled softly off the young
-woman’s knee, and now sat on the carpet between them. His little babble
-went on all through their talk. The plaything Giovanna had given him--a
-paper-knife of carved ivory--was a delightful weapon to the child; he
-struck the floor with it, which under no possibility could be supposed
-capable of motion, and then the legs of the chair, on which Miss Susan
-sat, which afforded a more likely steed. Miss Susan had hard ado to pull
-her skirts from the soft round baby fingers, as the child looked up at
-her with great eyes, which laughed in her angry face. It was all she
-could do to keep her heart from melting to him; but then, _that_ woman!
-who looked at her with eyes which were not angry, nor disagreeable,
-wooing her to smile--which not for the world, and all it contained,
-would she do.
-
-“Always I have seen that one does what one can for one’s self,” said
-Giovanna; “shall I think of you first, instead of myself? But no! is
-there any in the world who does that? But, no! it is contrary to reason.
-I do my best for _me_; and then I reflect, now that I am well off, I
-will hurt no one. I will be friends if Madame Suzanne will. I wish not
-to trouble her. I will show de l’amitié for her as well as for le petit.
-Thus it should be when we live in one house.”
-
-Giovanna spoke with a certain earnestness as of honest conviction. She
-had no sense of irony in her mind; but Miss Susan had a deep sense of
-irony, and felt herself insulted when she was thus addressed by the
-intruder who had found her way into her house, and made havoc of her
-life. She got up hastily to her feet, overturning the child, who had now
-seated himself on her dress, and for whom this hasty movement had all
-the effect of an earthquake. She did not even notice this, however, and
-paid no attention to his cries, but fell to walking about the room in a
-state of impatience and excitement which would not be kept under.
-
-“You do well to teach me what people should do who live in one house!”
-cried Miss Susan. “It comes gracefully from you who have forced yourself
-into my house against my will--who are a burden, and insupportable to
-me--you and your child. Take him away, or you will drive me mad! I
-cannot hear myself speak.”
-
-“Hush, mon ange,” said Giovanna; “hush, here is something else that is
-pretty for thee--hush! and do not make the bonne maman angry. Ah,
-pardon, Madame Suzanne, you are not the bonne maman--but you look almost
-like her when you look like that!”
-
-“You are very impertinent,” said Miss Susan, blushing high; for to
-compare her to Madame Austin of Bruges was more than she could bear.
-
-“That is still more like her!” said Giovanna; “the belle-mère often
-tells me I am impertinent. Can I help it then? if I say what I think,
-that cannot be wrong. But you are not really like the bonne maman,
-Madame Suzanne,” she added, subduing the malice in her eyes. “You hate
-me, but you do not try to make me unhappy. You give me everything I
-want. You do not grudge; you do not make me work. Ah, what a life she
-would have made to one who came like me!”
-
-This silenced Miss Susan, in spite of herself; for she herself felt and
-knew that she was not at all kind to Giovanna, and she was quite unaware
-that Giovanna was inaccessible to those unkindnesses which more refined
-natures feel, and having the substantial advantages of her reception at
-Whiteladies undisturbed by any practical hardship, had no further
-requirements in a sentimental sort. Miss Susan felt that she was not
-kind, but Giovanna did not feel it; and as the elder woman could not
-understand the bluntness of feeling in the younger, which produced this
-toleration, she was obliged, against her will, to see in it some
-indication of a higher nature. She thought reluctantly, and for the
-moment, that the woman whom she loathed was better than herself. She
-came back to the chair as this thought forced itself upon her, and sat
-down there and fixed her eyes upon the intruder, who still held her
-place on the carpet at her feet.
-
-“Why do you not go away?” she said, tempted once more to make a last
-effort for her own relief. “If you think it good of me to receive you as
-I do, why will you not listen to my entreaties, and go away? I will give
-you enough to live on; I will not grudge money; but I cannot bear the
-sight of you, you know that. It brings my sin, my great sin, to my mind.
-I repent it; but I cannot undo it,” cried Miss Susan. “Oh, God forgive
-me! But you, Giovanna, listen! You have done wrong, too, as well as
-I--but it has been for your benefit, not for your punishment. You should
-not have done it any more than me.”
-
-“Madame Suzanne,” said Giovanna, “one must think of one’s self first;
-what you call sin does not trouble me. I did not begin it. I did what I
-was told. If it is wrong, it is for the belle-mère and you; I am safe;
-and I must think of myself. It pleases me to be here, and I have my
-plans. But I should like to show de l’amitié for you, Madame
-Suzanne--when I have thought first of myself.”
-
-“But it will be no better for yourself, staying here,” cried Miss Susan,
-subduing herself forcibly. “I will give you money--you shall live where
-you please--”
-
-“Pardon,” said Giovanna, with a smile; “it is to me to know. I have mes
-idées à moi. You all think of yourselves first. I will be good friends
-if you will; but, first of all, there is _me_.”
-
-“And the child?” said Miss Susan, with strange forgetfulness, and a
-bizarre recollection, in her despair, of the conventional self-devotion
-to be expected from a mother.
-
-“The child, bah! probably what will be for my advantage will be also for
-his; but you do not think, Madame Suzanne,” said Giovanna with a laugh,
-regarding her closely with a look which, but for its perfect good
-humor, would have been sarcastic, “that I will sacrifice myself, me, for
-the child?”
-
-“Then why should you make a pretence of loving him? loving him! if you
-are capable of love!” cried Miss Susan, in dismay.
-
-Giovanna laughed. She took the little fellow up in her arms, and put his
-little rosy cheek against the fair oval of her own. “Tu m’aimes à
-présent,” she said; “that is as it ought to be. One cannot have a baby
-and not have de l’amitié for him; but, naturally, first of all I will
-think of myself.”
-
-“It is all pretence, then, your love,” cried Miss Susan, once more
-starting up wildly, with a sense that the talk, and the sight of her,
-and the situation altogether, were intolerable. “Oh, it is like you
-foreigners! You pretend to love the child because it is comme il faut.
-You want to be friendly with me because it is comme il faut. And you
-expect me, an honest Englishwoman, to accept this? Oh!” she cried,
-hiding her face in her hands, with a pang of recollection, “I was that
-at least before I knew you!”
-
-Curious perversity of nature! For the moment Miss Susan felt bitterly
-that the loss of her honesty and her innocence was Giovanna’s fault. The
-young woman laughed, in spite of herself, and it was not wonderful that
-she did so. She got up for the first time from the carpet, raising the
-child to her shoulder. But she wanted to conciliate, not to offend; and
-suppressed the inappropriate laughter. She went up to where Miss Susan
-had placed herself--thrown back in a great chair, with her face covered
-by her hands--and touched her arm softly, not without a certain respect
-for her trouble.
-
-“I do not pretend,” she said; “because it is comme il faut? but, yes,
-that is all natural. Yet I do not pretend. I wish to show de l’amitié
-for Madame Suzanne. I will not give up my ideas, nor do what you will,
-instead of that which I will; but to be good friends, this is what I
-desire. Bébé is satisfied--he asks no more--he demands not the
-sacrifice. Why not Madame Suzanne too?”
-
-“Go away, go away, please,” cried Miss Susan, faintly. She was not
-capable of anything more.
-
-Giovanna shrugged her handsome shoulders, and gave an appealing look
-round her, as if to some unseen audience. She felt that nothing but
-native English stupidity could fail to see her good sense and honest
-meaning. Then, perceiving further argument to be hopeless, she turned
-away, with the child still on her shoulder, and ere she had reached the
-end of the passage, began to sing to him with her sweet, rich, untutored
-voice. The voice receded, carolling through all the echoes of the old
-house like a bird, floating up the great oaken staircase, and away to
-the extremity of the long corridor, where her room was. She was
-perfectly light-hearted and easy-minded in the resolution to do the best
-for herself; and she was perfectly aware that the further scheme she had
-concocted for her own benefit would be still more displeasing to the
-present mistress of the house. She did not care for that the least in
-the world; but, honestly, she was well-disposed toward Miss Susan, and
-not only willing, but almost anxious, so far as anxiety was possible to
-her, to establish a state of affairs in which they might be good
-friends.
-
-But to Miss Susan it was absolutely impossible to conceive that things
-so incompatible could yet exist together. Perhaps she was dimly aware of
-the incongruities in her own mind, the sense of guilt and the sense of
-innocence which existed there, in opposition, yet, somehow, in that
-strange concord which welds the contradictions of the human soul into
-one, despite of all incongruity; but to realize or believe in the
-strange mixture in Giovanna’s mind was quite impossible to her. She sat
-still with her face covered until she was quite sure the young woman and
-her child had gone, listening, indeed, to the voice which went so
-lightly and sweetly through the passages. How could she sing--that
-woman! whom if she had never seen, Susan Austin would still have been an
-honest woman, able to look everybody in the face! Miss Susan knew--no
-one better--how utterly foolish and false it was to say this; she knew
-that Giovanna was but the instrument, not the originator, of her own
-guilt; but, notwithstanding the idea having once occurred to her, that
-had she never seen Giovanna, she would never have been guilty, she
-hugged it to her bosom with an insane satisfaction, feeling as if, for
-the moment, it was a relief. Oh, that she had never seen her! How
-blameless she had been before that unhappy meeting! how free of all
-weight upon her conscience! and now, how burdened, how miserable, how
-despotic that conscience was! and her good name dependent upon the
-discretion of this creature, without discretion, without feeling, this
-false, bold foreigner, this intruder, who had thrust her way into a
-quiet house, to destroy its peace! When she was quite sure that Giovanna
-was out of the way, Miss Susan went to her own room, and looked
-piteously at her own worn face in the glass. Did that face tell the same
-secrets to others as it did to herself? she wondered. She had never been
-a vain woman, even in her youth, though she had been comely enough, if
-not pretty; but now, a stranger, who did not know Miss Susan, might have
-thought her vain. She looked at herself so often in the glass, pitifully
-studying her looks, to see what could be read in them. It had come to be
-one of the habits of her life.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXII.
-
-
-The Winter passed slowly, as Winters do, especially in the silence of
-the country, where little happens to mark their course. The Autumnal
-fall of leaves lasted long, but at length cleared off with the fogs and
-damps of November, leaving the lawn and Priory Lane outside free from
-the faded garments of the limes and beeches. Slowly, slowly the earth
-turned to the deepest dark of Winter, and turned back again
-imperceptibly toward the sun. The rich brown fields turned up their
-furrows to the darkening damp and whitening frost, and lay still,
-resting from their labors, waiting for the germs to come. The trees
-stood out bare against the sky, betraying every knob and twist upon
-their branches; big lumps of gray mistletoe hung in the apple-trees that
-bordered Priory Lane; and here and there a branch of Lombardy poplar,
-still clothed with a few leaves, turning their white lining outward,
-threw itself up against the blue sky like a flower. The Austin Chantry
-was getting nearly finished, all the external work having been done some
-time ago. It was hoped that the ornamentation within would be completed
-in time for Christmas, when the chaplain, who was likewise to be the
-curate, and save (though Mr. Gerard mentioned this to no one) sixty
-pounds a year to the vicar, was to begin the daily service. This
-chaplain was a nephew of Dr. Richard’s, a good young man of very High
-Church views, who was very ready to pray for the souls of the Austin
-family without once thinking of the rubrics. Mr. Gerard did not care for
-a man of such pronounced opinions; and good little Dr. Richard, even
-after family feeling had led him to recommend his nephew, was seized
-with many pangs as to the young Ritualist’s effect upon the parish.
-
-“He will do what Miss Augustine wants, which is what I never would have
-done,” said the warden of the Almshouses. “He thinks he is a better
-Churchman than I am, poor fellow! but he is very careless of the
-Church’s directions, my dear; and if you don’t attend to the rubrics,
-where are you to find rest in this world? But he thinks he is a better
-Churchman than I.”
-
-“Yes, my dear, the rubrics have always been your great standard,” said
-the good wife; but as the Rev. Mr. Wrook was related to them by her
-side, she was reluctant to say anything more.
-
-Thus, however, it was with a careful and somewhat anxious brow that Dr.
-Richard awaited the young man’s arrival. He saved Mr. Gerard the best
-part of a curate’s salary, as I have said. Miss Augustine endowed the
-Chantry with an income of sixty pounds a year; and with twenty or thirty
-pounds added to that, who could object to such a salary for a curacy in
-a country place? The vicar’s purse was the better for it, if not
-himself; and he thought it likely that by careful processes of
-disapproval any young man in course of time might be put down. The
-Chantry was to be opened at Christmas; and I think (if it had ever
-occurred to her) that Miss Augustine might then have been content to
-sing her _Nunc Dimittis_; but it never did occur to her, her life being
-very full, and all her hours occupied. She looked forward, however, to
-the time when two sets of prayers should be said every day for the
-Austins with unbounded expectation.
-
-Up to the middle of November, I think, she almost hoped (in an abstract
-way, meaning no harm to her nephew) that something might still happen to
-Herbert; for Giovanna, who went with her to the Almshouse service every
-morning to please her, seemed endowed with heavenly dispositions, and
-ready to train up her boy--who was a ready-made child, so to speak, and
-not uncertain, as any baby must be who has to be born to parents not yet
-so much as acquainted with each other--to make the necessary sacrifice,
-and restore Whiteladies to the Church. This hope failed a little after
-November, because then, without rhyme or reason, Giovanna tired of her
-devotions, and went to the early service no longer; though even then
-Miss Augustine felt that little Jean (now called Johnny) was within her
-own power, and could be trained in the way in which he should go; but
-anyhow, howsoever it was to be accomplished, no doubt the double prayers
-for the race would accomplish much, and something at the sweetness of
-an end attained stole into Augustine’s heart.
-
-The parish and the neighborhood also took a great interest in the
-Chantry. Such of the neighbors as thought Miss Augustine mad, awaited,
-with a mixture of amusement and anxiety, the opening of this new chapel,
-which was said to be unlike anything seen before--a miracle of
-ecclesiastical eccentricity; while those who thought her papistical
-looked forward with equal interest to a chance of polemics and
-excitement, deploring the introduction of Ritualism into a quiet corner
-of the country, hitherto free of that pest, but enjoying unawares the
-agreeable stimulant of local schism and ecclesiastical strife. The taste
-for this is so universal that I suppose it must be an instinct of human
-nature, as strong among the non-fighting portion of the creation as
-actual combat is to the warlike. I need not say that the foundress of
-the Chantry had no such thoughts; her object was simple enough; but it
-was too simple--too onefold (if I may borrow an expressive word from my
-native tongue: ae-fauld we write it in Scotch) for the apprehension of
-ordinary persons, who never believe in unity of motive. Most people
-thought she was artfully bent on introducing the confessional, and all
-the other bugbears of Protestantism; but she meant nothing of the kind:
-she only wanted to open another agency in heaven on behalf of the
-Austins, and nothing else affected her mind so long as this was secured.
-
-The Chantry, however, afforded a very reasonable excuse to Kate and
-Sophy Farrel-Austin for paying a visit to Whiteladies, concerning which
-they had heard some curious rumors. Their interest in the place no doubt
-had considerably died out of late, since Herbert’s amendment in health
-had been proved beyond doubt. Their father had borne that blow without
-much sympathy from his children, though they had not hesitated, as the
-reader is aware, to express their own sense that it was “a swindle” and
-“a sell,” and that Herbert had no right to get better. The downfall to
-Farrel-Austin himself had been a terrible one, and the foolish levity of
-his children about it had provoked him often, almost past bearing; but
-time had driven him into silence, and into an appearance at least of
-forgetting his disappointment. On the whole he had no very deadly reason
-for disappointment: he was very well off without Whiteladies, and had he
-got Whiteladies, he had no son to succeed him, and less and less
-likelihood of ever having one. But I believe it is the man who has much
-who always feels most deeply when he is hindered from having more.
-
-The charm of adding field to field is, I suppose, a more keen and
-practical hunger than that of acquiring a little is to him who has
-nothing. Poverty does not know the sweetness that eludes it altogether,
-but property is fully aware of the keen delight of possession. The
-disappointment sank deep into Farrel-Austin’s heart. It even made him
-feel like the victim of retributive justice, as if, had he but kept his
-word to Augustine, Herbert might have been killed for him, and all been
-well; whereas now Providence preserved Herbert to spite him, and keep
-the inheritance from him! It seemed an unwarrantable bolstering up, on
-the part of Heaven and the doctors, of a miserable life which could be
-of very little good either to its owner or any other; and Farrel-Austin
-grew morose and disagreeable at home, by way of avenging himself on some
-one. Kate and Sophy did not very much care; they were too independent to
-be under his power, as daughters at home so often are under the power of
-a morose father. They had emancipated themselves beforehand, and now
-were strong in the fortresses of habit and established custom, and those
-natural defences with which they were powerfully provided. Rumors had
-reached them of a new inmate at Whiteladies, a young woman with a child,
-said to be the heir, who very much attracted their curiosity; and they
-had every intention of being kind to Herbert and Reine when they came
-home, and of making fast friends with their cousins. “For why should
-families be divided?” Kate said, not without sentiment. “However
-disappointed we may be, we can’t quarrel with Herbert for getting well,
-can we, and keeping his own property?” The heroes who assembled at
-afternoon tea grinned under their moustachios, and said “No.” These were
-not the heroes of two years ago; Dropmore was married among his own
-“set,” and Ffarington had sold out and gone down to his estates in
-Wales, and Lord Alf had been ruined by a succession of misfortunes on
-the turf, so that there was quite a new party at the Hatch, though the
-life was very much the same as before. Drags and dinners, and boatings
-and races and cricket-matches, varied, when Winter came on, and
-according to the seasons, by hunting, skating, dancing, and every other
-amusement procurable, went on like clock-work, like treadmill work, or
-anything else that is useless and monotonous. Kate Farrel-Austin, who
-was now twenty-three in years, felt a hundred and three in life. She had
-grown wise, usual (and horrible) conclusion of girls of her sort. She
-wanted to marry, and change the air and scene of her existence, which
-began to grow tired of her as she of it. Sophy, on her way to the same
-state of superannuation, rather wished it too. “One of us ought
-certainly to do something,” she said, assenting to Kate’s homilies on
-the subject. They were not fools, though they were rather objectionable
-young women; and they felt that such life as theirs comes to be
-untenable after awhile. To be sure, the young men of their kind, the
-successors of Dropmore, etc. (I cannot really take the trouble to put
-down these young gentlemen’s names), did carry on for a very long time
-the same kind of existence; but they went and came, were at London
-sometimes, and sometimes in the country, and had a certain something
-which they called duty to give lines, as it were, to their life; while
-to be always there, awaiting the return of each succeeding set of men,
-was the fate of the girls. The male creatures here, as in most things,
-had the advantage of the others; except that perhaps in their
-consciousness of the tedium of their noisy, monotonous lot, the girls,
-had they been capable of it, had a better chance of getting weary and
-turning to better things.
-
-The Austin Chantry furnished the Farrel-Austins with the excuse they
-wanted to investigate Whiteladies and its mysterious guest. They drove
-over on a December day, when it was nearly finished, and by right of
-their relationship obtained entrance and full opportunity of inspection;
-and not only so, but met Miss Augustine there, with whom they returned
-to Whiteladies. There was not very much intercourse possible between the
-recluse and these two lively young ladies, but they accompanied her
-notwithstanding, plying her with mock questions, and “drawing her out;”
-for the Farrel-Austins were of those who held the opinion that Miss
-Augustine was mad, and a fair subject of ridicule. They got her to tell
-them about her pious purposes, and laid them up, with many a mischievous
-glance at each other, for the entertainment of their friends. When
-Stevens showed them in, announcing them with a peculiar loudness of tone
-intended to show his warm sense of the family hostility, there was no
-one in the drawing-room but Giovanna, who sat reclining in one of the
-great chairs, lazily watching the little boy who trotted about her, and
-who had now assumed the natural demeanor of a child to its mother. She
-was not a caressing mother even now, and in his heart I do not doubt
-Johnny still preferred Cook; but they made a pretty group, the rosy
-little fellow in his velvet frock and snow-white pinafore, and Giovanna
-in a black dress of the same material, which gave a most appropriate
-setting to her beauty. Dear reader, let me not deceive you, or give you
-false ideas of Miss Susan’s liberality, or Giovanna’s extravagance. The
-velvet was velveteen, of which we all make our Winter gowns, not the
-more costly material which lasts you (or lasted your mother, shall we
-say?) twenty years as a dinner dress, and costs you twice as many pounds
-as years. The Farrel-Austins were pretty girls both, but they were not
-of the higher order of beauty, like Giovanna; and they were much
-impressed by her looks and the indolent grace of her attitude, and the
-easy at-home air with which she held possession of Miss Susan’s
-drawing-room. She scarcely stirred when they came in, for her breeding,
-as may be supposed, was still very imperfect, and probably her silence
-prolonged their respect for her more than conversation would have done;
-but the child, whom the visitors knew how to make use of as a medium of
-communication, soon produced a certain acquaintance. “Je suis Johnny,”
-the baby said in answer to their question. In his little language one
-tongue and another was much the same; but in the drawing-room the mode
-of communication differed from that in the kitchen, and the child
-acknowledged the equality of the two languages by mixing them. “But
-mamma say Yan,” he added as an afterthought.
-
-The two girls looked at each other. Here was the mysterious guest
-evidently before them: to find her out, her ways, her meaning, and how
-she contemplated her position, could not be difficult. Kate was as usual
-a reasonable creature, talking as other people talk; while Sophy was the
-madcap, saying things she ought not to say, whose luck it was not
-unfrequently to surprise other people into similar indiscretions.
-
-“Then this charming little fellow is yours?” said Kate. “How nice for
-the old ladies to have a child in the house! Gentlemen don’t always care
-for the trouble, but where there are only ladies it is so cheerful; and
-how clever he is to speak both English and French.”
-
-Giovanna laughed softly. The idea that it was cheerful to have a child
-in the house amused her, but she kept her own counsel. “They teach
-him--a few words,” she said, making the w more of a v; and rolling the r
-a great deal more than she did usually, so that this sounded like
-vorrds, and proved to the girls, who had come to make an examination of
-her, that she knew very little English, and spoke it very badly, as they
-afterward said.
-
-“Then you are come from abroad? Pray don’t think us impertinent. We are
-cousins; Farrel-Austins; you may have heard of us.”
-
-“Yes, yes, I have heard of you,” said Giovanna with a smile. She had
-never changed her indolent position, and it gave her a certain pleasure
-to feel herself so far superior to her visitors, though in her heart she
-was afraid of them, and afraid of being exposed alone to their scrutiny.
-
-Kate looked at her sister, feeling that the stranger had the advantage,
-but Sophy broke in with an answering laugh.
-
-“It has not been anything very pleasant you have heard; we can see that;
-but we ain’t so bad as the old ladies think us,” said Sophy. “We are
-nice enough; Kate is sensible, though I am silly: we are not so bad as
-they think us here.”
-
-“I heard of you from my beau-père at Bruges,” said Giovanna. “Jeanot!
-’faut pas gêner la belle dame.”
-
-“Oh, I like him,” said Kate. “Then you _are_ from abroad? You are one of
-the Austins of Bruges? we are your cousins too. I hope you like England,
-and Whiteladies. Is it not a charming old house?”
-
-Giovanna made no reply. She smiled, which might have been assent or
-contempt; it was difficult to say which. She had no intention of
-betraying herself. Whatever these young women might be, nothing could
-put them on her side of the question; this she perceived by instinct,
-and heroically refrained from all self-committal. The child by this time
-had gone to Sophy, and stood by her knee, allowing himself to be petted
-and caressed.
-
-“Oh, what a dear little thing! what a nasty little thing!” said Sophy.
-“If papa saw him he would like to murder him, and so should I. I suppose
-he is the heir?”
-
-“But M. Herbert lives, and goes to get well,” said Giovanna.
-
-“Yes, what a shame it is! Quel dommage, as you say in French. What right
-has he to get well, after putting it into everybody’s head that he was
-going to die? I declare, I have no patience with such hypocrisy! People
-should do one thing or another,” said Sophy, “not pretend for years that
-they are dying, and then live.”
-
-“Sophy, don’t say such things. She is the silliest rattle, and says
-whatever comes into her head. To be kept in suspense used to be very
-trying for poor papa,” said Kate. “He does not believe still that
-Herbert can live; and now that it has gone out of papa’s hands, it must
-be rather trying for you.”
-
-“I am not angry with M. Herbert because he gets well,” said Giovanna
-with a smile. She was amused indeed by the idea, and her amusement had
-done more to dissipate her resentment than reason; for to be sure it was
-somewhat ludicrous that Herbert should be found fault with for getting
-well. “When I am sick,” she went on, “I try to get better too.”
-
-“Well, I think it is a shame,” said Sophy. “He ought to think of other
-people waiting and waiting, and never knowing what is going to happen.
-Oh! Miss Susan, how do you do? We came to ask for you, and when Herbert
-and Reine were expected home.”
-
-Miss Susan came in prepared for the examination she had to go through.
-Her aspect was cloudy, as it always was nowadays. She had not the
-assured air of dignified supremacy and proprietorship which she once had
-possessed; but the Farrel-Austins were not penetrating enough to
-perceive more than that she looked dull, which was what they scarcely
-expected. She gave a glance at Giovanna, still reclining indolently in
-her easy chair; and curiously enough, quite against her expectation,
-without warning or reason, Miss Susan felt herself moved by something
-like a thrill of pleasure! What did it mean? It meant that Farrel’s
-girls, whom she disliked, who were her natural enemies, were not fit to
-be named in comparison with this young woman who was her torment, her
-punishment, her bad angel; but at all events hers, on her side pitted
-with her against them. It was not an elevated sort of satisfaction, but
-such as it was it surprised her with a strange gleam of pleasure. She
-sat down near Giovanna, unconsciously ranging herself on that side
-against the other; and then she relapsed into common life, and gave her
-visitors a very circumstantial account of Herbert and Reine--how they
-had wished to come home at Christmas, but the doctors thought it more
-prudent to wait till May. Kate and Sophy listened eagerly, consulting
-each other, and comparing notes in frequent looks.
-
-“Yes, poor fellow! of course May will be better,” said Kate, “though I
-should have said June myself. It is sometimes very cold in May. Of
-course he will always be _very_ delicate; his constitution must be so
-shattered--”
-
-“His constitution is not shattered at all,” said Miss Susan, irritated,
-as the friends of a convalescent so often are, by doubts of his
-strength. “Shattered constitutions come from quite different causes,
-Miss Kate--from what you call ‘fast’ living and wickedness. Herbert has
-the constitution of a child; he has no enemy but cold, and I hope we can
-take care of him here.”
-
-“Oh, Kate meant no harm,” said Sophy; “we know he could never have been
-‘fast.’ It is easy to keep straight when you haven’t health for anything
-else,” said this well-informed young woman.
-
-“Hush!” said her sister in an audible whisper, catching hold of the baby
-to make a diversion. Then Kate aimed her little broadside too.
-
-“We have been so pleased to make acquaintance with madame,” she said,
-using that title without any name, as badly instructed people are so apt
-to do. “It must be nice for you to feel yourself provided for, whatever
-happens. This, I hear, is the little heir?”
-
-“Madame Suzanne,” interrupted Giovanna, “I have told ces dames that I am
-glad M. Herbert goes to get well. I hope he will live long and be happy.
-Jean, chéri! dis fort ‘Vive M. Herbert!’ as I taught you, that ces dames
-may hear.”
-
-Johnny was armed with his usual weapon, the paper-knife, which on
-ordinary occasions Miss Susan could not endure to see in his hand; for I
-need not say it was her own pet weapon, which Giovanna in her ignorance
-had appropriated. He made a great flourish in the air with this
-falchion. “Vive M’sieu ’Erbert!” cried the child, his little round face
-flushed and shining with natural delight in his achievement. Giovanna
-snatched him up on her lap to kiss and applaud him, and Miss Susan, with
-a start of wonder, felt tears of pleasure come to her eyes. It was
-scarcely credible even to herself.
-
-“Yes, he is the heir,” she said quickly, looking her assailants in the
-face, “that is, if Herbert has no children of his own. I am fortunate,
-as you say--more fortunate than your papa, Miss Kate.”
-
-“Who has only girls,” said Sophy, coming to the rescue. “Poor papa!
-Though if we are not as good as the men, we must be poor creatures,” she
-added with a laugh; and this was a proposition which nobody attempted to
-deny.
-
-As for Kate, she addressed her sister very seriously when they left
-Whiteladies. Things were come to a pass in which active measures were
-necessary, and a thorough comprehension of the situation.
-
-“If you don’t make up your mind at once to marry Herbert, that woman
-will,” she said to Sophy. “We shall see before six months are out. You
-don’t mind my advice as you ought, but you had better this time. I’d
-rather marry him myself than let him drop into the hands of an
-adventuress like that.”
-
-“Do! I shan’t interfere,” said Sophy lightly; but in her heart she
-allowed that Kate was right. If one of them was to have Whiteladies, it
-would be necessary to be alert and vigorous. Giovanna was not an
-antagonist to be despised. They did not under-value her beauty; women
-seldom do, whatever fancy-painters on the other side may say.
-
-Miss Susan, for her part, left the drawing-room along with them, with so
-curious a sensation going through her that she had to retire to her room
-to get the better of it. She felt a certain thrill of gratefulness,
-satisfaction, kindness in the midst of her hatred; and yet the hatred
-was not diminished. This put all her nerves on edge like a jarring
-chord.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIII.
-
-
-Herbert and Reine had settled at Cannes for the Winter, at the same time
-when Giovanna settled herself at Whiteladies. They knew very little of
-this strange inmate in their old home, and thought still less. The young
-man had been promoted from one point to another of the invalid resorts,
-and now remained at Cannes, which was so much brighter and less
-valetudinary than Mentone, simply, as the doctors said, “as a
-precautionary measure.” Does the reader know that bright sea-margin,
-where the sun shines so serene and sweet, and where the color of the sea
-and the sky and the hills and the trees are all brightened and glorified
-by the fact that the grays and chills of northern Winter are still close
-at hand? When one has little to do, when one is fancy free, when one is
-young, and happiness comes natural, there is nothing more delicious than
-the Riviera. You are able, in such circumstances, to ignore the touching
-groups which encircle here and there, some of the early doomed. You are
-able to hope that the invalids must get better. You say to yourself, “In
-this air, under this sky, no one can long insist upon being ill;” and if
-your own invalid, in whom you are most interested, has really mended,
-hope for every other becomes conviction. And then there are always
-idlers about who are not ill, to whom life is a holiday, or seems so,
-and who, being impelled to amuse themselves by force of circumstances,
-add a pleasant movement to the beautiful scene. Without even these
-attractions, is not the place in which you receive back your sick as
-from the dead always beautiful, if it were the dirtiest seaport or
-deserted village? Mud and gray sky, or sands of gold and heavenly vaults
-of blue, what matters? That was the first time since the inspired and
-glorious moment at Kandersteg that Reine had felt _sure_ of Herbert’s
-recovery;--there was no doubting the fact now. He was even no longer an
-invalid, a change which at first was not nearly so delightful to his
-sister as she had expected. They had been all in all to each other for
-so long; and Reine had given up to Herbert not only willingly, but
-joyfully, all the delights of youth--its amusements, its companionships,
-everything. She had never been at a ball (grown up) in her life, though
-she was now over twenty. She had passed the last four years, the very
-quintessence of her youth, in a sick-room, or in the subdued goings out
-and gentle amusements suited to an invalid; and indeed, her heart and
-mind being fully occupied, she had desired no better. Herbert, and his
-comfort and his entertainment, had been the sum of all living to Reine.
-And now had come the time when she was emancipated, and when the young
-man, recovering his strength, began to think of other amusements than
-those which a girl could share. It was quite natural. Herbert made
-friends of his own, and went out with them, and made parties of
-pleasure, and manly expeditions in which Reine had no part. It was very
-foolish of her to feel it, and no critic could have been more indignant
-with her than she was with herself. The girl’s first sensation was
-surprise when she found herself left out. She was bewildered by it. It
-had never occurred to her as likely, natural, nay, necessary--which, as
-soon as she recovered her breath, she assured herself it was. Poor Reine
-even tried to laugh at herself for her womanish folly. Was it to be
-expected that Herbert should continue in the same round when he got
-better, that he should not go out into the world like other men? On the
-contrary, Reine was proud and delighted to see him go; to feel that he
-was able to do it; to listen to his step, which was as active as any of
-the others, she thought, and his voice, which rang as clear and gay. It
-was only after he was gone that the sudden surprise I have spoken of
-assailed her. And if you will think of it, it was hard upon Reine.
-Because of her devotion to him she had made no friends for herself. She
-had been out of the way of wanting friends. Madame de Mirfleur’s
-eagerness to introduce her, to find companions for her, when she paid
-the pair her passing visits, had always been one of the things which
-most offended Reine. What did she want with other companions than
-Herbert? She was necessary to him, and did any one suppose that she
-would leave him for pleasure? For pleasure! could mamma suppose it
-would be any pleasure to her to be separate from her brother? Thus the
-girl thought in her absolute way, carrying matters with a high hand as
-long as it was in her power to do so. But now that Herbert was well,
-everything was changed. He was fond of his sister, who had been so good
-a nurse to him; but it seemed perfectly natural that she should have
-been his nurse, and had she not always said she preferred it to anything
-else in the world? It was just the sort of thing that suited Reine--it
-was her way, and the way of most good girls. But it did not occur to
-Herbert to think that there was anything astonishing, any hardship in
-the matter; nor, when he went out with his new friends, did it come into
-his head that Reine, all alone, might be dull and miss him. Yes, miss
-him, that of course she must; but then it was inevitable. A young fellow
-enjoying his natural liberty could not by any possibility drag a girl
-about everywhere after him--that was out of the question, of course. At
-first now and then it would sometimes come into his head that his sister
-was alone at home, but that impression very soon wore off. She liked it.
-She said so; and why should she say so if it was not the case? Besides,
-she could of course have friends if she chose. So shy Reine, who had not
-been used to any friends but him, who had alienated herself from all her
-friends for him, stayed at home within the four rather bare walls of
-their sitting-room, while the sun shone outside, and even the invalids
-strolled about, and the soft sound of the sea upon the beach filled the
-air with a subdued, delicious murmur. Good François, Herbert’s faithful
-attendant, used to entreat her to go out.
-
-“The weather is delightful,” he said. “Why will mademoiselle insist upon
-shutting herself up in-doors?”
-
-“I will go out presently, François,” Reine said, her pretty lips
-quivering a little.
-
-But she had no one to go out with, poor child! She did not like even to
-go and throw herself upon the charity of one or two ladies whom she
-knew. She knew no one well, and how could she go and thrust herself upon
-them now, after having received their advances coldly while she had
-Herbert? So the poor child sat down and read, or tried to read, seated
-at the window from which she could see the sea and the people who were
-walking about. How lucky she was to have such a cheerful window! But
-when she saw the sick English girl who lived close by going out for her
-midday walk leaning upon her brother’s arm, with her mother close by
-watching her, poor Reine’s heart grew sick. Why was it not she who was
-ill? if she died, nobody would miss her much (so neglected youth always
-feels, with poignant self pity), whereas it was evident that the heart
-of that poor lady would break if her child was taken from her. The poor
-lady whom Reine thus noted looked up at her where she sat at the window,
-with a corresponding pang in her heart. Oh, why was it that other girls
-should be so fresh and blooming while her child was dying? But it is
-very hard at twenty to sit at a bright window alone, and try to read,
-while all the world is moving about before your eyes, and the sunshine
-sheds a soft intoxication of happiness into the air. The book would fall
-from her hands, and the young blood would tingle in her veins. No doubt,
-if one of the ladies whom Reine knew had called just then, the girl
-would have received her visitor with the utmost dignity, nor betrayed by
-a word, by a look, how lonely she was; for she was proud, and rather
-perverse and shy--shy to her very finger-tips; but in her heart I think
-if any one had been so boldly kind as to force her out, and take her in
-charge, she would have been ready to kiss that deliverer’s feet, but
-never to own what a deliverance it was.
-
-No one came, however, in this enterprising way. They had been in Cannes
-several times, the brother and sister, and Reine had been always bound
-to Herbert’s side, finding it impossible to leave him. How could these
-mere acquaintances know that things were changed now? So she sat at the
-window most of the day, sometimes trying to make little sketches,
-sometimes working, but generally reading or pretending to read--not
-improving books, dear reader. These young people did not carry much
-solid literature about with them. They had poetry books--not a good
-selection--and a supply of the pretty Tauchnitz volumes, only limited by
-the extent of that enterprising firm’s reprints, besides such books as
-were to be got at the library. Everard had shown more discrimination
-than was usual to him when he said that Herbert, after his long
-helplessness and dependence, would rush very eagerly into the enjoyments
-and freedom of life. It was very natural that he should do so; chained
-to a sick-room as he had been for so long--then indulged with invalid
-pleasures, invalid privileges, and gradually feeling the tide rise and
-the warm blood of his youth swell in his veins--the poor young fellow
-was greedy of freedom, of boyish company, from which he had always been
-shut out--of adventures innocent enough, yet to his recluse mind having
-all the zest of desperate risk and daring. He had no intention of doing
-anything wrong, or even anything unkind. But this was the very first
-time that he had fallen among a party of young men like himself, and the
-contrast being so novel, was delightful to him. And his new friends
-“took to him” with a flattering vehemence of liking. They came to fetch
-him in the morning, they involved him in a hundred little engagements.
-They were fond of him, he thought, and he had never known friendship
-before. In short, they turned Herbert’s head, a thing which quite
-commonly happens both to girls and boys when for the first time either
-boy or girl falls into a merry group of his or her contemporaries, with
-many amusements and engagements on hand. Had one of these young fellows
-happened to fall in love with Reine, all would have gone well--for then,
-no doubt, the young lover would have devised ways and means for having
-her of the party. But she was not encouraging to their advances. Girls
-who have little outward contact with society are apt to form an
-uncomfortably high ideal, and Reine thought her brother’s friends a pack
-of noisy boys quite inferior to Herbert, with no intellect, and not very
-much breeding. She was very dignified and reserved when they ran in and
-out, calling for him to come here and go there, and treated them as
-somehow beneath the notice of such a very mature person as herself; and
-the young fellows were offended, and revenged themselves by adding ten
-years to her age, and giving her credit for various disagreeable
-qualities.
-
-“Oh, yes, he has a sister,” they would say, “much older than Austin--who
-looks as if she would like to turn us all out, and keep her darling at
-her apron-string.”
-
-“You must remember she has had the nursing of him all his life,” a more
-charitable neighbor would suggest by way of excusing the middle-aged
-sister.
-
-“But women ought to know that a man is not to be always lounging about
-pleasing them, and not himself. Hang it all, what would they have? I
-wonder Austin don’t send her home. It is the best place for her.”
-
-This was how the friends commented upon Reine. And Reine did not know
-that even to be called Austin was refreshing to the invalid lad, showing
-him that he was at least on equal terms with somebody; and that the
-sense of independence intoxicated him, so that he did not know how to
-enjoy it enough--to take draughts full enough and deep enough of the
-delightful pleasure of being his own master, of meeting the night air
-without a muffler, and going home late in sheer bravado, to show that he
-was an invalid no more.
-
-After this first change, which chilled her and made her life so lonely,
-another change came upon Reine. She had been used to be anxious about
-Herbert all her life, and now another kind of anxiety seized her, which
-a great many women know very well, and which with many becomes a great
-and terrible passion, ravaging secretly their very lives. Fear for his
-health slid imperceptibly in her loneliness into fear for him. Does the
-reader know the difference? She was a very ignorant, foolish girl: she
-did not know anything about the amusements and pleasures of young men.
-When her brother came in slightly flushed and flighty, with some
-excitement in his looks, parting loudly with his friends at the door,
-smelling of cigars and wine, a little rough, a little noisy, poor Reine
-thought he was plunging into some terrible whirlpool of dissipation,
-such as she had read of in books; and, as she was of the kind of woman
-who is subject to its assaults, the vulture came down upon her, there
-and then, and began to gnaw at her heart. In those long evenings when
-she sat alone waiting for him, the legendary Spartan with the fox under
-his cloak was nothing to Reine. She kept quite still over her book, and
-read page after page, without knowing a word she was reading, but heard
-the pitiful little clock on the mantel-piece chime the hours, and every
-step and voice outside, and every sound within, with painful acuteness,
-as if she were all ear; and felt her heart beat all over her--in her
-throat, in her ears, stifling her and stopping her breath. She did not
-form any idea to herself of how Herbert might be passing his time; she
-would not let her thoughts accuse him of anything, for, indeed, she was
-too innocent to imagine those horrors which women often do imagine. She
-sat in an agony of listening, waiting for him, wondering how he would
-look when he returned--wondering if this was he, with a renewed crisis
-of excitement, this step that was coming--falling dull and dead when the
-step was past, rousing up again to the next, feeling herself helpless,
-miserable, a slave to the anguish which dominated her, and against which
-reason itself could make no stand. Every morning she woke saying to
-herself that she would not allow herself to be so miserable again, and
-every night fell back into the clutches of this passion, which gripped
-at her and consumed her. When Herbert came in early and “like
-himself”--that is to say, with no traces of excitement or levity--the
-torture would stop in a moment, and a delicious repose would come over
-her soul; but next night it came back again the same as ever, and poor
-Reine’s struggles to keep mastery of herself were all in vain. There are
-hundreds of women who well know exactly how she felt, and what an
-absorbing fever it was which had seized upon her. She had more reason
-than she really knew for her fears, for Herbert was playing with his
-newly-acquired health in the rashest way, and though he was doing no
-great harm, had yet departed totally from that ideal which had been his,
-as well as his sister’s, but a short time before. He had lost altogether
-the tender gratitude of that moment when he thought he was being cured
-in a half miraculous, heavenly way, and when his first simple boyish
-thought was how good it became him to be, to prove the thankfulness of
-which his heart was full. He had forgotten now about being thankful. He
-was glad, delighted to be well, and half believed that he had some
-personal credit in it. He had “cheated the doctors”--it was not they who
-had cured him, but presumably something great and vigorous in himself
-which had triumphed over all difficulties; and now he had a right to
-enjoy himself in proportion to--what he began to think--the self-denial
-of past years. Both the brother and sister had very much fallen off from
-that state of elevation above the world which had been temporarily
-theirs in that wonderful moment at Kandersteg; and they had begun to
-feel the effect of those drawbacks which every great change brings with
-it, even when the change is altogether blessed, and has been looked
-forward to with hope for years.
-
-This was the position of affairs between the brother and sister when
-Madame de Mirfleur arrived to pay them a visit, and satisfy herself as
-to her son’s health. She came to them in her most genial mood, happy in
-Herbert’s recovery, and meaning to afford herself a little holiday,
-which was scarcely the aspect under which her former visits to her elder
-children had shown themselves. They had received her proposal with very
-dutiful readiness, but oddly enough, as one of the features of the
-change, it was Reine who wished for her arrival; not Herbert, though he,
-in former tunes, had always been the more charitable to his mother. Now
-his brow clouded at the prospect. His new-born independence seemed in
-danger. He felt as if mufflers and respirators, and all the old marks of
-bondage, were coming back to him in Madame de Mirfleur’s trunks.
-
-“If mamma comes with the intention of coddling me up again, and goes on
-about taking care,” he said, “by Jove! I tell you I’ll not stand it,
-Reine.”
-
-“Mamma will do what she thinks best,” said Reine, perhaps a little
-coldly; “but you know I think you are wrong, Bertie, though you will not
-pay any attention to me.”
-
-“You are just like a girl,” said Herbert, “never satisfied, never able
-to see the difference. What a change it is, by Jove, when a fellow gets
-into the world, and learns the right way of looking at things! If you go
-and set her on me, I’ll never forgive you; as if I could not be trusted
-to my own guidance--as if it were not I, myself, who was most
-concerned!”
-
-These speeches of her brother’s cost Reine, I am afraid, some tears when
-he was gone, and her pride yielded to the effects of loneliness and
-discouragement. He was forsaking her, she thought, who had the most
-right to be good to her--he of whom she had boasted that he was the only
-being who belonged to her in the world; her very own, whom nobody could
-take from her. Poor Reine! it had not required very much to detach him
-from her. When Madame de Mirfleur arrived, however, she did not
-interfere with Herbert’s newly-formed habits, nor attempt to put any
-order in his mannish ways. She scolded Reine for moping, for sitting
-alone and neglecting society, and instantly set about to remedy this
-fault; but she found Herbert’s little dissipations tout simple, said not
-a word about a respirator, and rather encouraged him than otherwise,
-Reine thought. She made him give them an account of everything, where he
-had been, and all about his expeditions, when he came back at night, and
-never showed even a shadow of disapproval, laughing at the poor little
-jokes which Herbert reported, and making the best of his pleasure. She
-made him ask his friends, of whom Reine disapproved, to dinner, and was
-kind to them, and charmed these young men; for Madame de Mirfleur had
-been a beauty in her day, and kept up those arts of pleasing which her
-daughter disdained, and made Herbert’s boyish companions half in love
-with her. This had the effect of restraining Herbert often, without any
-suspicions of restraint entering his head; and the girl, who half
-despised, half envied her mother’s power, was not slow to perceive this,
-though she felt in her heart that nothing could ever qualify her to
-follow the example. Poor Reine looked on, disapproving her mother as
-usual, yet feeling less satisfied with herself than usual, and asking
-herself vainly if she loved Herbert as she thought she did, would not
-she make any sacrifice to make him happy? If this made him happy, why
-could not she do it? It was because his companions were his inferiors,
-she said to herself--companions not worthy of Herbert. How could she
-stoop to them? Madame de Mirfleur had not such a high standard of
-excellence. She exerted herself for the amusement of the young men as if
-they had been heroes and sages. And even Reine, though she disapproved,
-was happier, against her will.
-
-“But, mon Dieu!” cried Madame de Mirfleur, “the fools that these boys
-are! Have you ever heard, my Reine, such bêtises as my poor Herbert
-takes for pleasantries? They give me mal au cœur. How they are bêtes,
-these boys!”
-
-“I thought you liked them,” said Reine, “you are so kind to them. You
-flatter them, even. Oh, does it not wound you, are you not ashamed, to
-see Bertie, my Bertie, prefer the noise--those scufflings? It is this
-that gives me mal au cœur.”
-
-“Bah! you are high-flown,” said the mother. “If one took to heart all
-the things that men do, one would have no consolation in this world.
-They are all less or more, bêtes, the men. What we have to do is to
-ménager--to make of it the best we can. You do not expect them to
-understand--to be like _us?_ Tenez, Reine; that which your brother wants
-is a friend. No, not thee, my child, nor me. Do not cry, chérie. It is
-the lot of the woman. Thou hast not known whether thou wert girl or boy,
-or what difference there was, in the strange life you have led; but
-listen, my most dear, for now you find it out. Herbert is but like
-others; he is no worse than the rest. He accepts from thee everything,
-so long as he wants thee; but now he is independent, he wants thee no
-more. This is a truth which every woman learns. To struggle is
-inutile--it does no good, and a woman who is wise accepts what must be,
-and does not struggle. What he wants is a friend. Where is the cousin,
-the Monsieur Everard, whom I left with you, who went away suddenly? You
-have never told me why he went away.”
-
-Reine’s color rose. She grew red to the roots of her hair. It was a
-subject which had never been touched upon between them, and possibly it
-was the girl’s consciousness of something which she could not put into
-words which made the blood flush to her face. Madame de Mirfleur had
-been very discreet on this subject, as she always was. She had never
-done anything to awaken her child’s susceptibilities. And she was not
-ignorant of Everard’s story, which Julie had entered upon in much
-greater detail than would have been possible to Reine. Honestly, she
-thought no more of Everard so far as Reine was concerned; but, for
-Herbert, he would be invaluable; therefore, it was with no match-making
-meaning that she awaited her daughter’s reply.
-
-“I told you when it happened,” said Reine, in very measured tones, and
-with unnecessary dignity; “you have forgotten, mamma. His affairs got
-into disorder; he thought he had lost all his money; and he was obliged
-to go at a moment’s notice to save himself from being ruined.”
-
-“Ah!” said Madame de Mirfleur, “I begin to recollect. Après? He was not
-ruined, but he did not come back?”
-
-“He did not come back because he had to go to Jamaica--to the West
-Indies,” said Reine, somewhat indignant, “to work hard. It is not long
-since he has been back in England. I had a letter--to say he thought--of
-coming--” Here she stopped short, and looked at her mother with a
-certain defiance. She had not meant to say anything of this letter, but
-in Everard’s defence had betrayed its existence before she knew.
-
-“Ah!” said Madame de Mirfleur, wisely showing little eagerness, “such an
-one as Everard would be a good companion for thy brother. He is a man,
-voyez-vous, not a boy. He thought--of coming?”
-
-“Somewhere--for the Winter,” said Reine, with a certain oracular
-vagueness, and a tremor in her voice.
-
-“Some-vere,” said Madame de Mirfleur, laughing, “that is large; and you
-replied, ma Reine?”
-
-“I did not reply--I have not time,” said Reine with dignity, “to answer
-all the idle letters that come to me. People in England seem to think
-one has nothing to do but to write.”
-
-“It is very true,” said the mother, “they are foolish, the English, on
-that point. Give me thy letter, chérie, and I will answer it for thee. I
-can think of no one who would be so good for Herbert. Probably he will
-never want a good friend so much as now.”
-
-“Mamma!” cried Reine, changing from red to white, and from white to red
-in her dismay, “you are not going to invite Everard here?”
-
-“Why not, my most dear? It is tout simple; unless thou hast something
-secret in thy heart against it, which I don’t know.”
-
-“I have nothing secret in my heart,” cried Reine, her heart beating
-loudly, her eyes filling with tears; “but don’t do it--don’t do it; I
-don’t want him here.”
-
-“Très-bien, my child,” said the mother calmly, “it was not for thee, but
-for thy brother. Is there anything against him?”
-
-“No, no, no! There is nothing against him--nothing!”
-
-“Then you are unreasonable, Reine,” said her mother; “but I will not go
-against you, my child. You are excited--the tears come to you in the
-eyes; you are not well--you have been too much alone, ma petite Reine.”
-
-“No, no; I am quite well--I am not excited!” cried the girl.
-
-Madame de Mirfleur kissed her, and smoothed her hair, and bid her put on
-her hat and come out.
-
-“Come and listen a little to the sea,” she said. “It is soft, like the
-wind in our trees. I love to take advantage of the air when I am by the
-sea.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIV.
-
-
-The effect of this conversation, however, did not end as the talk itself
-did. Reine thought of little else all the rest of the day. When they got
-to the beach, Madame de Mirfleur, as was natural, met with some of her
-friends, and Reine, dropping behind, had leisure enough for her own
-thoughts. It was one of those lovely, soft, bright days which follow
-each other for weeks together, even though grim December, on that
-charmed and peaceful coast. The sea, as blue as a forget-me-not or a
-child’s eyes--less deep in tone than the Austin eyes through which Reine
-gazed at it, but not less limpid and liquid-bright--played with its
-pebbles on the beach like a child, rolling them over playfully, and
-sending the softest hus-sh of delicious sound through air which was full
-of light and sunshine. It was not too still, but had the refreshment of
-a tiny breeze, just enough to ruffle the sea-surface where it was
-shallow, and make edges of undulating shadow upon the shining sand and
-stones underneath, which the sun changed to gold. The blue sky to
-westward was turning into a great blaze of rose, through which its
-native hue shone in bars and breaks, here turning to purple and crimson,
-here cooling down to the wistfullest shadowy green. As close to the sea
-as it could keep its footing, a noble stone pile stood on a little
-height, rising like a great stately brown pillar, to spread its shade
-between the young spectator and the setting sun. Behind, not a stone’s
-throw from where she stood, rose the line of villas among their trees,
-and all the soft lively movement of the little town. How different from
-the scenes which Everard’s name conjured up before Reine--the soft
-English landscape of Whiteladies, the snowy peaks and the wild, sweet
-pastures of the Alpine valleys where they had been last together!
-
-Madame de Mirfleur felt that it would not harm her daughter to leave her
-time for thought. She was too far-seeing to worry her with interference,
-or to stop the germination of the seeds she had herself sown; and having
-soothed Reine by the influences of the open air and the sea, had no
-objection to leave her alone, and permit the something which was
-evidently in her mind, whatever it was, to work. Madame de Mirfleur was
-not only concerned about her daughter’s happiness from a French point of
-view, feeling that the time was come when it would be right to marry
-her; but she was also solicitous about her condition in other ways. It
-might not be for Reine’s happiness to continue much longer with Herbert,
-who was emancipating himself very quickly from his old bonds, and
-probably would soon find the sister who, a year ago, had been
-indispensable to him, to be a burden and drag upon his freedom, in the
-career of manhood he was entering upon so eagerly. And where was Reine
-to go? Madame de Mirfleur could not risk taking her to Normandy, where,
-delightful as that home was, her English child would not be happy; and
-she had a mother’s natural reluctance to abandon her altogether to the
-old aunts at Whiteladies, who, as rival guardians to her children in
-their youth, had naturally taken the aspect of rivals and enemies to
-their mother. No; it would have been impossible in France that an
-_affaire du cœur_ should have dragged on so long as that between
-Everard and Reine must have done, if indeed there was anything in it.
-But there was never any understanding those English, and if Reine’s
-looks meant anything, surely this was what they meant. At all events, it
-was well that Reine should have an opportunity of thinking it well over;
-and if there was nothing in it, at least it would be good for Herbert to
-have the support and help of his cousin. Therefore, in whatever light
-you chose to view the subject, it was important that Everard should be
-here. So she left her daughter undisturbed to think, in peace, what it
-was best to do.
-
-And indeed it was a sufficiently difficult question to come to any
-decision upon. There was no quarrel between Reine and Everard, nor any
-reason why they should regard each other in any but a kind and cousinly
-way. Such a rapprochement, and such a curious break as had occurred
-between them, are not at all uncommon. They had been very much thrown
-together, and brought insensibly to the very verge of an alliance more
-close and tender; but before a word had been said, before any decisive
-step had been taken, Fate came in suddenly and severed them, “at a
-moment’s notice,” as Reine said, leaving no time, no possibility for any
-explanation or any pledge. I do not know what was in Everard’s heart at
-the moment of parting, whether he had ever fully made up his mind to
-make the sacrifices which would be necessary should he marry, or whether
-his feelings had gone beyond all such prudential considerations; but
-anyhow, the summons which surprised him so suddenly was of a nature
-which made it impossible for him in honor to do anything or say anything
-which should compromise Reine. For it was loss of fortune, perhaps
-total--the first news being exaggerated, as so often happens--with which
-he was threatened; and in the face of such news, honor sealed his lips,
-and he dared not trust himself to say a word beyond the tenderness of
-good-bye which his relationship permitted. He went away from her with
-suppressed anguish in his heart, feeling like a man who had suddenly
-fallen out of Paradise down, down to the commonest earth, but silenced
-himself, and subdued himself by hard pressure of necessity till time and
-the natural influences of distance and close occupation dulled the
-poignant feeling with which he had said that good-bye. The woman has the
-worst of it in such circumstances. She is left, which always seems the
-inferior part, and always is the hardest to bear, in the same scene,
-with everything to recall to her what has been, and nothing to justify
-her in dwelling upon the tender recollection. I do not know why it
-should appear to women, universally, something to be ashamed of when
-they give love unasked--or even when they give it in return for every
-kind of asking except the straightforward and final words. It is no
-shame to a man to do so; but these differences of sentiment are
-inexplicable, and will not bear accounting for. Reine felt that she had
-“almost” given her heart and deepest affections, without being asked for
-them. She had not, it is true, committed herself in words, any more than
-he had done; but she believed with sore shame that _he_ knew--just as he
-felt sure (but without shame) that _she_ knew; though in truth neither
-of them knew even their own feelings, which on both sides had changed
-somewhat, without undergoing any fundamental alteration.
-
-Such meetings and partings are not uncommon. Sometimes the two thus
-rent asunder at the critical moment, never meet again at all, and the
-incipient romance dies in the bud, leaving (very often) a touch of
-bitterness in the woman’s heart, a sense of incompleteness in the man’s.
-Sometimes the two meet when age has developed or altered them, and when
-they ask themselves with horror what they could possibly have seen in
-that man or that woman? And sometimes they meet again voluntarily or
-involuntarily, and--that happens which pleases heaven; for it is
-impossible to predict the termination of such an interrupted tale.
-
-Reine had not found it very easy to piece that broken bit of her life
-into the web again. She had never said a word to any one, never allowed
-herself to speak to herself of what she felt; but it had not been easy
-to bear. Honor, too, like everything else, takes a different aspect as
-it is regarded by man or woman. Everard had thought that honor
-absolutely sealed his lips from the moment that he knew, or rather
-believed, that his fortune was gone; but Reine would have been
-infinitely more ready to give him her fullest trust, and would have felt
-an absolute gratitude to him had he spoken out of his poverty, and given
-her the pleasure of sympathizing, of consoling, of adding her courage
-and constancy to his. She was too proud to have allowed herself to think
-that there was any want of honor in the way he left her, for Reine would
-have died rather than have had the pitiful tribute of a declaration made
-for honor’s sake; but yet, had it not been her case, but a hypothetical
-one, she would have pronounced it to be most honorable to speak, while
-the man would have felt a single word inconsistent with his honor! So we
-must apparently go on misunderstanding each other till the end of time.
-It was a case in which there was a great deal to be said on both sides,
-the reader will perceive. But all this was over; and the two whom a word
-might have made one were quite free, quite independent, and might each
-have married some one else had they so chosen, without the other having
-a word to say; and yet they could not meet without a certain
-embarrassment, without a sense of what might have been. They were not
-lovers, and they were not indifferent to each other, and on both sides
-there was just a little wholesome bitterness. Reine, though far too
-proud to own it, had felt herself forsaken. Everard, since his return
-from the active work which had left him little time to think, had felt
-himself slighted. She had said that, now Herbert was better, it was not
-worth while writing so often! and when he had got over that unkind
-speech, and had written, as good as offering himself to join them, she
-had not replied. He had written in October, and now it was nearly
-Christmas, and she had never replied. So there was, the reader will
-perceive, a most hopeful and promising grievance on both sides. Reine
-turned over her part of it deeply and much in her mind that night, after
-the conversation with her mother which I have recorded. She asked
-herself, had she any right to deprive Herbert of a friend who would be
-of use to him for any foolish pride of hers? She could keep herself
-apart very easily, Reine thought, in her pride. She was no longer very
-necessary to Herbert. He did not want her as he used to do. She could
-keep apart, and trouble no one; and why should she, for any ridiculous
-self-consciousness, ghost of sentiment dead and gone, deprive her
-brother of such a friend? She said “No!” to herself vehemently, as she
-lay and pondered the question in the dark, when she ought to have been
-asleep. Everard was nothing, and could be nothing to her, but her
-cousin; it would be necessary to see him as such, but not to see much of
-him; and whatever he might be else, he was a gentleman, and would never
-have the bad taste to intrude upon her if he saw she did not want him.
-Besides, there was no likelihood that he would wish it; therefore Reine
-made up her mind that no exaggerated sentimentality on her part, no weak
-personal feeling, should interfere with Herbert’s good. She would keep
-herself out of the way.
-
-But the reader will scarcely require to be told that the letter written
-under this inspiration was not exactly the kind of letter which it
-flatters a young man to receive from a girl to whom he has once been so
-closely drawn as Everard had been to Reine, and to whom he still feels a
-visionary link, holding him fast in spite of himself. He received the
-cold epistle, in which Reine informed him simply where they were, adding
-a message from her brother: “If you are coming to the Continent, Herbert
-wishes me to say he would be glad to see you here,” in a scene and on a
-day which was as unlike as it is possible to imagine to the soft Italian
-weather, and genial Southern beach, on which Reine had concocted it. As
-it happened, the moment was one of the most lively and successful in
-Everard’s somewhat calm country life. He, who often felt himself
-insignificant, and sometimes slighted, was for that morning at least in
-the ascendant. Very cold weather had set in suddenly, and in cold
-weather Everard became a person of great importance in his neighborhood.
-I will tell you why. His little house, which was on the river, as I have
-already said, and in Summer a very fine starting-point for
-water-parties, possessed unusually picturesque and well-planted grounds;
-and in the heart of a pretty bit of plantation which belonged to him was
-an ornamental piece of water, very prettily surrounded by trees and
-sloping lawns, which froze quickly, as the water was shallow, and was
-the pleasantest skating ground for miles round. Need I say more to show
-how a frost made Everard instantly a man of consequence? On the day on
-which Reine’s epistle arrived at Water Beeches, which was the name of
-his place, it was a beautiful English frost, such as we see but rarely
-nowadays. I do not know whether there is really any change in the
-climate, or whether it is only the change of one’s own season from
-Spring to Autumn which gives an air of change even to the weather; but I
-do not think there are so many bright, crisp, clear frosts as there used
-to be. Nor, perhaps, is it much to be regretted that the intense
-cold--which may be as champagne to the healthy and comfortable, but is
-death to the sick, and misery to the poor--should be less common than
-formerly. It was, however, a brilliant frosty day at the Water Beeches,
-and a large party had come over to enjoy the pond. The sun was shining
-red through the leafless trees, and such of them as had not encountered
-his direct influence were still encased in fairy garments of rime,
-feathery and white to the furthest twig. The wet grass was brilliantly
-green, and lighted up in the sun’s way sparkling water-diamonds, though
-in the shade it was too crisp and white with frost, and crackled under
-your feet. On the broad path at one end of the pond two or three older
-people, who did not skate, were walking briskly up and down, stamping
-their feet to keep them warm, and hurrying now and then in pairs to the
-house, which was just visible through the trees, to get warmed by the
-fire. But on the ice no one was cold. The girls, with their red
-petticoats and red feathers, and pretty faces flushed with the exercise,
-were, some of them, gliding about independently with their hands in
-their muffs, some of them being conducted about by their attendants,
-some dashing along in chairs wheeled by a chivalrous skater. They had
-just come out again, after a merry luncheon, stimulated by the best
-fare Everard’s housekeeper could furnish, and by Everard’s best
-champagne; and as the afternoon was now so short, and the sun sinking
-low, the gay little crowd was doing all it could to get an hour’s
-pleasure out of half-an-hour’s time, and the scene was one of perpetual
-movement, constant varying and intermingling of the bright-colored
-groups, and a pleasant sound of talk and laughter which rang through the
-clear air and the leafless trees.
-
-The few chaperons who waited upon the pleasure of these young ladies
-were getting tired and chilled, and perhaps cross, as was (I think)
-extremely natural, and thinking of their carriages; but the girls were
-happy and not cross, and all of them very agreeable to Everard, who was
-the cause of so much pleasure. Sophy and Kate naturally took upon them
-to do the honors of their cousin’s place. Everybody knows what a movable
-relationship cousinry is, and how it recedes and advances according to
-the inclination of the moment. To-day the Farrel-Austins felt themselves
-first cousins to Everard, his next-of-kin, so to speak, and comparative
-owners. They showed their friends the house and the grounds, and all the
-pretty openings and peeps of the river. “It is small, but it is a
-perfect little place,” they said with all the pride of proprietorship.
-“What fun we have had here! It is delightful for boating. We have the
-jolliest parties!”
-
-“In short, I don’t know such a place for fun all the year round,” cried
-Sophy.
-
-“And of course, being so closely related, it is just like our own,” said
-Kate. “We can bring whom we like here.”
-
-It was with the sound of all these pretty things in his ears, and all
-the pleasant duties of hospitality absorbing his attention, with
-pleasant looks, and smiles, and compliments about his house and his
-table coming to him on all sides, and a sense of importance thrust upon
-him in the most delightful way, that Everard had Reine’s letter put into
-his hand. It was impossible that he could read about it then; he put it
-into his pocket with a momentary flutter and tremor of his heart, and
-went on with the entertainment of his guests. All the afternoon he was
-in motion, flying about upon the ice, where, for he was a very good
-skater, he was in great demand, and where his performances were received
-with great applause; then superintending the muster of the carriages,
-putting his pretty guests into them, and receiving thanks and plaudits,
-and gay good-byes “for the present.” There was to be a dance at the
-Hatch that night, where most of the party were to reassemble, and
-Everard felt himself sure of the prettiest partners, and the fullest
-consideration of all his claims to notice and kindness. He had never
-been more pleased with himself, nor in a more agreeable state of mind
-toward the world in general, than when he shut the door of his cousins’
-carriage, which was the last to leave.
-
-“Mind you come early. I want to settle with you about next time,” said
-Kate.
-
-“And Ev,” cried Sophy, leaning out of the carriage, “bring me those
-barberries you promised me for my hair.”
-
-Everard stood smiling, waving his hand to them as they drove away.
-“Madcaps!” he said to himself, “always with something on hand!” as he
-went slowly home, watching the last red gleam of the sun disappear
-behind the trees. It was getting colder and colder every moment, the
-chilliest of December nights; but the young man, in his glow of exercise
-and pleasure, did not take any notice of this. He went into his cosey
-little library, where a bright fire was burning, and where, even there
-in his own particular sanctum, the disturbing presence of those gay
-visitors was apparent. They had taken down some of his books from his
-shelves, and they had scattered the cushions of his sofa round the fire,
-where a circle of them had evidently been seated. There is a certain
-amused curiosity in a young man’s thoughts as to the doings and the
-sayings, when by themselves, of those mysterious creatures called girls.
-What were they talking about while they chatted round that fire, _his_
-fire, where, somehow, some subtle difference in the atmosphere betokened
-their recent presence? He sat down with a smile on his face, and that
-flattered sense of general importance and acceptability in his mind, and
-took Reine’s letter out of his pocket. It was perhaps not the most
-suitable state of mind in which to read the chilly communication of
-Reine.
-
-Its effect upon him, however, was not at all chilly. It made him hot
-with anger. He threw it down on the table when he had read it, feeling
-such a letter to be an insult. Go to Cannes to be of use, forsooth, to
-Herbert! a kind of sick-nurse, he supposed, or perhaps keeper, now that
-he could go out, to the inexperienced young fellow. Everard bounced up
-from his comfortable chair, and began to walk up and down the room in
-his indignation. Other people nearer home had better taste than Reine.
-If she thought that he was to be whistled to, like a dog when he was
-wanted, she was mistaken. Not even when he was wanted;--it was clear
-enough that she did not want him, cold, uncourteous, unfriendly as she
-was! Everard’s mind rose like an angry sea, and swelled into such a
-ferment that he could not subdue himself. A mere acquaintance would have
-written more civilly, more kindly, would have thought it necessary at
-least to appear to join in the abrupt, cold, semi-invitation, which
-Reine transmitted as if she had nothing to do with it. Even her mother
-(a wise woman, with some real knowledge of the world, and who knew when
-a man was worth being civil to!) had perceived the coldness of the
-letter, and added a conciliatory postscript. Everard was wounded and
-humiliated in his moment of success and flattered vanity, when he was
-most accessible to such a wound. And he was quite incapable of
-divining--as probably he would have done in any one else’s case, but as
-no man seems capable of doing in his own--that Reine’s coldness was the
-best of all proof that she was not indifferent, and that something must
-lie below the studied chill of such a composition. He dressed for the
-party at the Hatch in a state of mind which I will not attempt to
-describe, but of which his servant gave a graphic account to the
-housekeeper.
-
-“Summat’s gone agin master,” that functionary said. “He have torn those
-gardenias all to bits as was got for his button-hole; and the lots of
-ties as he’ve spiled is enough to bring tears to your eyes. Some o’ them
-there young ladies has been a misconducting theirselves; or else it’s
-the money market. But I don’t think it’s money,” said John; “when it’s
-money gentlemen is low, not furious, like to knock you down.”
-
-“Get along with you, do,” said the housekeeper. “We don’t want no ladies
-here!”
-
-“That may be, or it mayn’t be,” said John; “but something’s gone agin
-master. Listen! there he be, a rampaging because the dog-cart ain’t come
-round, which I hear the wheels, and William--it’s his turn, and I’ll
-just keep out o’ the way.”
-
-William was of John’s opinion when they compared notes afterward. Master
-drove to the Hatch like mad, the groom said. He had never been seen to
-look so black in all his life before, for Everard was a peaceable soul
-in general, and rather under the dominion of his servants. He was,
-however, extremely gay at the Hatch, and danced more than any one, far
-outstripping the languid Guardsmen in his exertions, and taking all the
-pains in the world to convince himself that, though some people might
-show a want of perception of his excellences, there were others who had
-a great deal more discrimination. Indeed, his energy was so vehement,
-that two or three young ladies, including Sophy, found it necessary to
-pause and question themselves on the subject, wondering what sudden
-charm on their part had warmed him into such sudden exhibitions of
-feeling.
-
-“It will not answer at all,” Sophy said to her sister; “for I don’t mean
-to marry Everard, for all the skating and all the boating in the
-world--not now, at least. Ten years hence, perhaps, one might feel
-different--but now!--and I don’t want to quarrel with him either, in
-case--” said this far-seeing young woman.
-
-This will show how Reine’s communication excited and stimulated her
-cousin, though perhaps in a curious way.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXV.
-
-
-Everard’s excited mood, however, did not last; perhaps he danced out
-some of his bitterness; violent exercise is good for all violent
-feeling, and calms it down. He came to himself with a strange shock,
-when--one of the latest to leave, as he had been one of the earliest to
-go--he came suddenly out from the lighted rooms, and noisy music, and
-chattering voices, to the clear cold wintry moonlight, deep in the
-frosty night, or rather early on the frosty morning of the next day.
-There are some people who take to themselves, in our minds at least, a
-special phase of nature, and plant their own image in the midst of it
-with a certain arrogance, so that we cannot dissociate the sunset from
-one of those usurpers, or the twilight from another. In this way Reine
-had taken possession of the moonlight for Everard. It was no doing of
-hers, nor was she aware of it; but still it was the case. He never saw
-the moon shining without remembering the little balcony at Kandersteg,
-and the whiteness with which her head rose out of the dark shadow of the
-rustic wooden framework. How could he help but think of her now, when
-worn out by a gayety which had not been quite real, he suddenly fell, as
-it were, into the silence, the clear white light, the frost-bound,
-chill, cold blue skies above him, full of frosty, yet burning stars, and
-the broad level shining of that ice-cold moon? Everard, like other
-people at his time of life, and in his somewhat unsettled condition of
-mind, had a way of feeling somewhat “low” after being very gay. It is
-generally the imaginative who do this, and is a sign, I think, of a
-higher nature; but Everard had the disadvantage of it without the good,
-for he was not of a poetical mind--though I suppose there must have been
-enough poetry in him to produce this reaction. When it came on, as it
-always did after the noisy gayety of the Hatch, he had, in general, one
-certain refuge to which he always betook himself. He thought of
-Reine--Reine, who was gay enough, had nature permitted her to have her
-way, but whom love had separated from everything of the kind, and
-transplanted into solitude and quiet, and the moonlight, which, in his
-mind, was dedicated to her image; this was his resource when he was
-“low;” and he turned to it as naturally as the flowers turn to the sun.
-Reine was his imagination, his land of fancy, his unseen world, to
-Everard; but lo! on the very threshold of this secret region of dreams,
-the young man felt himself pulled up and stopped short. Reine’s letter
-rolled up before him like a black curtain shutting out his visionary
-refuge. Had he lost her? he asked himself, with a sudden thrill of
-visionary panic. Her image had embodied all poetry, all romance, to him,
-and had it fled from his firmament? The girls whom he had left had no
-images at all, so to speak; they were flesh and blood realities,
-pleasant enough, so long as you were with them, and often very amusing
-to Everard, who, after he had lingered in their society till the last
-moment, had that other to fall back upon--the other, whose superiority
-he felt as soon as he got outside the noisy circle, and whose soft
-influence, oddly enough, seemed to confer a superiority upon him, who
-had her in that private sphere to turn to, when he was tired of the
-rest.
-
-Nothing could be sweeter than the sense of repose and moral elevation
-with which, for instance, after a gay and amusing and successful day
-like this, he went back into the other world, which he had the privilege
-of possessing, and felt once more the mountain air breathe over him,
-fresh with the odor of the pines, and saw the moon rising behind the
-snowy peaks, which were as white as her own light, and that soft,
-upturned face lifted to the sky, full of tender thoughts and mysteries!
-If Reine forsook him, what mystery would be left in the world for
-Everard? what shadowy world, unrealized, and sweeter for being
-unrealized than any fact could ever be? The poor young fellow was seized
-with a chill of fright, which penetrated to the marrow of his bones, and
-froze him doubly this cold night. What it would be to lose one’s
-imagination! to have no dreams left, no place which they could inhabit!
-Poor Everard felt himself turned out of his refuge, turned out into the
-cold, the heavenly doors closed upon him all in a moment; and he could
-not bear it. William, who thought his master had gone out of his mind,
-or fallen asleep--for what but unconsciousness or insanity could justify
-the snail’s pace into which they had dropped?--felt frozen on his seat
-behind; but he was not half so frozen as poor Everard, in his Ulster,
-whose heart was colder than his hands, and through whose very soul the
-shiverings ran.
-
-Next morning, as was natural, Everard endeavored to make a stand against
-the dismay which had taken possession of him, and succeeded for a short
-time, as long as he was fully occupied and amused, during which time he
-felt himself angry, and determined that he was a very badly-used man.
-This struggle he kept up for about a week, and did not answer Reine’s
-letter. But at last the conflict was too much for him. One day he rode
-over suddenly to Whiteladies, and informed them that he was going abroad
-for the rest of the Winter. He had nothing to do at Water Beeches, and
-country life was dull; he thought it possible that he might pass through
-Cannes on his way to Italy, as that was, on the whole, in Winter, the
-pleasantest way, and, of course, would see Herbert. But he did not
-mention Reine at all, nor her letter, and gave no reason for his going,
-except caprice, and the dulness of the country. “I have not an estate to
-manage like you,” he said to Miss Susan; and to Augustine, expressed his
-grief that he could not be present at the consecration of the Austin
-Chantry, which he had seen on his way white and bristling with Gothic
-pinnacles, like a patch upon the grayness of the old church. Augustine,
-whom he met on the road, with her gray hood over her head, and her hands
-folded in her sleeves, was roused out of her abstracted calm to a half
-displeasure. “Mr. Farrel-Austin will be the only representative of the
-family except ourselves,” she said; “not that I dislike them, as Susan
-does. I hope I do not dislike any one,” said the Gray Sister. “You can
-tell Herbert, if you see him, that I would have put off the consecration
-till his return--but why should I rob the family of four months’
-prayers? That would be sinful waste, Everard; the time is too short--too
-short--to lose a day.”
-
-This was the only message he had to carry. As for Miss Susan, her chief
-anxiety was that he should say nothing about Giovanna. “A hundred things
-may happen before May,” the elder sister said, with such an anxious,
-worried look as went to Everard’s heart. “I don’t conceal from you that
-I don’t want her to stay.”
-
-“Then send her away,” he said lightly. Miss Susan shook her head; she
-went out to the gate with him, crossing the lawn, though it was damp, to
-whisper once again, “Nothing about her--say nothing about her--a hundred
-things may happen before May.”
-
-Everard left home about ten days after the arrival of Reine’s letter,
-which he did not answer. He could make it evident that he was offended,
-at least in that way; and he lingered on the road to show, if possible,
-that he had no eagerness in obeying the summons. His silence puzzled the
-household at Cannes. Madame de Mirfleur, with a twist of the
-circumstances, which is extremely natural, and constantly occurring
-among ladies, set it down as her daughter’s fault. She forgave Everard,
-but she blamed Reine. And with much skilful questioning, which was
-almost entirely ineffectual, she endeavored to elicit from Herbert what
-the state of affairs between these two had been. Herbert, for his part,
-had not an idea on the subject. He could not understand how it was
-possible that Everard could quarrel with Reine. “She is aggravating
-sometimes,” he allowed, “when she looks at you like this--I don’t know
-how to describe it--as if she meant to find you out. Why should she try
-to find a fellow out? a man (as she ought to know) is not like a pack of
-girls.”
-
-“Precisely,” said Madame de Mirfleur, “but perhaps that is difficult for
-our poor Reine--till lately thou wert a boy, and sick, mon ’Erbert; you
-forget. Women are dull, my son; and this is perhaps one of the things
-that it is most hard for them to learn.”
-
-“You may say so, indeed,” said Herbert, “unintelligible beings!--till
-they come to your age, mamma, when you seem to begin to understand. It
-is all very well for girls to give an account of themselves. What I am
-surprised at is, that they do not perceive at once the fundamental
-difference. Reine is a clever girl, and it just shows the strange
-limitation, even of the cleverest; now I don’t call myself a clever
-man--I have had a great many disadvantages--but I can perceive at a
-glance--”
-
-Madame de Mirfleur was infinitely disposed to laugh, or to box her son’s
-ears; but she was one of those women--of whom there are many in the
-world--who think it better not to attempt the use of reason, but to
-ménager the male creatures whom they study so curiously. Both the sexes,
-indeed, I think, have about the same opinion of each other, though the
-male portion of the community have found the means of uttering theirs
-sooner than the other, and got it stereotyped, so to speak. We both
-think each other “inaccessible to reason,” and ring the changes upon
-humoring and coaxing the natural adversary. Madame de Mirfleur thought
-she knew men au fond, and it was not her practice to argue with them.
-She did not tell Herbert that his mental superiority was not so great as
-he thought it. She only smiled, and said gently, “It is much more facile
-to perceive the state of affairs when it is to our own advantage, mon
-fils. It is that which gives your eyes so much that is clear. Reine, who
-is a girl, who has not the same position, it is natural she should not
-like so much to acknowledge herself to see it. But she could not demand
-from Everard that he should account for himself. And she will not of you
-when she has better learned to know--”
-
-“From Everard? Everard is of little importance. I was thinking of
-myself,” cried Herbert.
-
-“How fortunate it is for me that you have come here! I should not have
-believed that Reine could be sulky. I am fond of her, of course; but I
-cannot drag a girl everywhere about with me. Is it reasonable? Women
-should understand their place. I am sure you do, mamma. It is home that
-is a woman’s sphere. She cannot move about the world, or see all kinds
-of life, or penetrate everywhere, like a man; and it would not suit her
-if she could,” said Herbert, twisting the soft down of his moustache. He
-was of opinion that it was best for a man to take his place, and show at
-once that he did not intend to submit to any inquisition; and this,
-indeed, was what his friends advised, who warned him against petticoat
-government. “If you don’t mind they’ll make a slave of you,” the young
-men said. And Herbert was determined to give all who had plans of this
-description fair notice. He would not allow himself to be made a slave.
-
-“You express yourself with your usual good sense, my son,” said Madame
-de Mirfleur. “Yes, the home is the woman’s sphere; always I have tried
-to make this known to my Reine. Is it that she loves the world? I make
-her enter there with difficulty. No, it is you she loves, and
-understands not to be separated. She has given up the pleasures that are
-natural to young girls to be with you when you were ill; and she
-understands not to be separated now.”
-
-“Bah!” said Herbert, “that is the usual thing which I understand all
-women say to faire valoir their little services. What has she given up?
-They would not have been pleasures to her while I was ill; and she ought
-to understand. It comes back to what I said, mamma. Reine is a clever
-girl, as girls go--and I am not clever, that I know; but the thing which
-she cannot grasp is quite clear to me. It is best to say no more about
-it--_you_ can understand reason, and explain to her what I mean.”
-
-“Yes, chéri,” said Madame de Mirfleur, submissively; then she added,
-“Monsieur Everard left you at Appenzell? Was he weary of the quiet? or
-had he cause to go?”
-
-“Why, he had lost his money, and had to look after it--or he thought he
-had lost his money. Probably, too, he found it slow. There was nobody
-there, and I was not good for much in those days. He had to be content
-with Reine. Perhaps he thought she was not much company for him,” said
-the young man, with a sentiment not unusual in young men toward their
-sisters. His mother watched him with a curious expression. Madame de
-Mirfleur was in her way a student of human nature, and though it was her
-son who made these revelations, she was amused by them all the same, and
-rather encouraged him than otherwise to speak his mind. But if she said
-nothing about Reine, this did not mean that she was deceived in respect
-to her daughter, or with Herbert’s view of the matter. But she wanted to
-hear all he had to say, and for the moment she looked upon him more as a
-typical representative of man, than as himself a creature in whose
-credit she, his mother, was concerned.
-
-“It has appeared to you that this might be the reason why he went away?”
-
-“I never thought much about it,” said Herbert. “I had enough to do
-thinking of myself. So I have now. I don’t care to go into Everard’s
-affairs. If he likes to come, he’ll come, I suppose; and if he don’t
-like, he won’t--that’s all about it--that’s how I would act if it were
-me. Hallo! why, while we’re talking, here he is! Look here--in that
-carriage at the door!”
-
-“Ah, make my excuses, Herbert. I go to speak to François about a room
-for him,” said Madame de Mirfleur. What she did, in fact, was to dart
-into her own room, where Reine was sitting at work on some article of
-dress. Julie had much to do, looking after and catering for the little
-party, so that Reine had to make herself useful, and do things
-occasionally for herself.
-
-“Chérie,” said her mother, stooping over her, “thy cousin is come--he is
-at the door. I thought it best to tell you before you met him. For my
-part, I never like to be taken at the unforeseen--I prefer to be
-prepared.”
-
-Reine had stopped her sewing for the moment; now she resumed it--so
-quietly that her mother could scarcely make out whether this news was
-pleasant to her or not. “I have no preparation to make,” she said,
-coldly; but her blood was not so much under mastery as her tongue, and
-rushed in a flood to her face; her fingers, too, stumbled, her needle
-pricked her, and Madame de Mirfleur, watching, learned something at
-last--which was that Reine was not so indifferent as she said.
-
-“Me, I am not like you, my child,” she said. “My little preparations are
-always necessary--for example, I cannot see the cousin in my robe de
-chambre. Julie! quick!--but you, as you are ready, can go and salute
-him. It is to-day, is it not, that we go to see milady Northcote, who
-will be kind to you when I am gone away? I will put on my black silk;
-but you, my child, you who are English, who have always your toilette
-made from the morning, go, if you will, and see the cousin. There is
-only Herbert there.”
-
-“Mamma,” said Reine, “I heard Herbert say something when I passed the
-door a little while ago. It was something about me. What has happened to
-him that he speaks so?--that he thinks so? Has he changed altogether
-from our Herbert who loved us? Is that common? Oh, must it be? must it
-be?”
-
-“Mon Dieu!” cried the mother, “can I answer for all that a foolish boy
-will say? Men are fools, ma Reine. They pretend to be wise, and they are
-fools. But we must not say this--no one says it, though we all know it
-in our hearts. Tranquillize thyself; when he is older he will know
-better. It is not worth thy while to remember what he says. Go to the
-cousin, ma Reine.”
-
-“I do not care for the cousin. I wish he were not here. I wish there was
-no one--no one but ourselves; ourselves! that does not mean anything,
-now,” cried Reine, indignant and broken-hearted. The tears welled up
-into her eyes. She did not take what she had heard so calmly as her
-mother had done. She was sore and mortified, and wounded and cut to the
-heart.
-
-“Juste ciel!” cried Madame de Mirfleur, “thy eyes! you will have red
-eyes if you cry. Julie, fly toward my child--think not more of me. Here
-is the eau de rose to bathe them; and, quick, some drops of the eau de
-fleur de orange. I never travel without it, as you know.”
-
-“I do not want any fleur de orange, nor eau de rose. I want to be as
-once we were, when we were fond of each other, when we were happy, when,
-if I watched him, Bertie knew it was for love, and nobody came between
-us,” cried the girl. Impossible to tell how sore her heart was, when it
-thus burst forth--sore because of what she had heard, sore with neglect,
-and excitement, and expectation, and mortification, which, all together,
-were more than Reine could bear.
-
-“You mean when your brother was sick?” said Madame de Mirfleur. “You
-would not like him to be ill again, chérie. They are like that, ma
-Reine--unkind, cruel, except when they want _us_, and then we must not
-be absent for a moment. But, Reine, I hope thou art not so foolish as to
-expect sense from a boy; they are not like us; they have no
-understanding; and if thou wouldst be a woman, not always a child, thou
-must learn to support it, and say nothing. Come, my most dear, my
-toilette is made, and thy eyes are not so red, after all--eyes of blue
-do not show like the others. Come, and we will say bon jour to the
-cousin, who will think it strange to see neither you nor me.”
-
-“Stop--stop but one moment, mamma,” cried Reine. She caught her mother’s
-dress, and her hand, and held her fast. The girl was profoundly excited,
-her eyes were not red, but blazing, and her tears dried. She had been
-tried beyond her powers of bearing. “Mamma,” she cried, “I want to go
-home with you--take me with you! If I have been impatient, forgive me. I
-will try to do better, indeed I will. You love me a little--oh, I know
-only a little, not as I want you to love me! But I should be good; I
-should try to please you and--every one, ma mère! Take me home with
-you!”
-
-“Reine, chérie! Yes, my most dear, if you wish it. We will talk of it
-after. You excite yourself; you make yourself unhappy, my child.”
-
-“No, no, no,” she cried; “it is not I. I never should have dreamed of
-it, that Herbert could think me a burden, think me intrusive,
-interfering, disagreeable! I cannot bear it! Ah, perhaps it is my fault
-that people are so unkind! Perhaps I am what he says. But, mamma, I will
-be different with you. Take me with you. I will be your maid, your
-bonne, anything! only don’t leave me here!”
-
-“My Reine,” said Madame de Mirfleur, touched, but somewhat embarrassed,
-“you shall go with me, do not doubt it--if it pleases you to go. You are
-my child as much as Babette, and I love you just the same. A mother has
-not one measure of love for one and another for another. Do not think
-it, chérie. You shall go with me if you wish it, but you must not be so
-angry with Herbert. What are men? I have told you often they are not
-like us; they seek what they like, and their own way, and their own
-pleasures; in short, they are fools, as the selfish always are. Herbert
-is ungrateful to thee for giving up thy youth to him, and thy brightest
-years; but he is not so unkind as he seems--that which he said is not
-what he thinks. You must forgive him, ma Reine; he is ungrateful--”
-
-“Do I wish him to be grateful?” said the girl. “If one gives me a
-flower, I am grateful, or a glass of water; but gratitude--from
-Herbert--to me! Do not let us talk of it, for I cannot bear it. But
-since he does not want me, and finds me a trouble--mother, mother, take
-me home with you!”
-
-“Yes, chérie, yes; it shall be as you will,” said Madame de Mirfleur,
-drawing Reine’s throbbing head on to her bosom, and soothing her as if
-she had been still a child. She consoled her with soft words, with
-caresses, and tender tones. Probably she thought it was a mere passing
-fancy, which would come to nothing; but she had never crossed any of her
-children, and she soothed and petted Reine instinctively, assenting to
-all she asked, though without attaching to what she asked any very
-serious meaning. She took her favorite essence of orange flowers from
-her dressing-case, and made the agitated girl swallow some of it, and
-bathed her eyes with rose-water, and kissed and comforted her. “You
-shall do what pleases to you, ma bien aimée,” she said. “Dry thy dear
-eyes, my child, and let us go to salute the cousin. He will think
-something is wrong. He will suppose he is not welcome; and we are not
-like men, who are a law to themselves; we are women, and must do what is
-expected--what is reasonable. Come, chérie, or he will think we avoid
-him, and that something must have gone wrong.”
-
-Thus adjured, Reine followed her mother to the sitting-room, where
-Everard had exhausted everything he had to say to Herbert, and
-everything that Herbert had to say to him; and where the two young men
-were waiting very impatiently, and with a growing sense of injury, for
-the appearance of the ladies. Herbert exclaimed fretfully that they had
-kept him waiting half the morning, as they came in. “And here is
-Everard, who is still more badly used,” he cried; “after a long journey
-too. You need not have made toilettes, surely, before you came to see
-Everard; but ladies are all the same everywhere, I suppose!”
-
-Reine’s eyes gave forth a gleam of fire. “Everywhere!” she cried,
-“always troublesome, and in the way. It is better to be rid of them. I
-think so as well as you.”
-
-Everard, who was receiving the salutations and apologies of Madame de
-Mirfleur, did not hear this little speech; but he saw the fire in
-Reine’s eyes, which lighted up her proud sensitive face. This was not
-his Reine of the moonlight, whom he had comforted. And he took her look
-as addressed to himself, though it was not meant for him. She gave him
-her hand with proud reluctance. He had lost her then? it was as he
-thought.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVI.
-
-
-Reine did not go back from her resolution; she did not change her mind,
-as her mother expected, and forgive Herbert’s étourderie. Reine could
-not look upon it as étourderie, and she was too deeply wounded to
-recover the shock easily; but I think she had the satisfaction of giving
-an almost equal shock to her brother, who, though he talked so about the
-limitation of a girl’s understanding, and the superiority of his own,
-was as much wounded as Reine was, when he found that his sister really
-meant to desert him. He did not say a word to her, but he denounced to
-his mother the insensibility of women, who only cared for a fellow so
-long as he did exactly what they wished, and could not endure him to
-have the least little bit of his own way. “I should never have heard
-anything of this if I had taken her about with me everywhere, and gone
-to bed at ten o’clock, as she wished,” he cried, with bitterness.
-
-“You have reason, mon ’Erbert,” said Madame de Mirfleur; “had you cared
-for her society, she would never have left you; but it is not amusing to
-sit at home while les autres are amusing themselves. One would require
-to be an angel for this.”
-
-“I never thought Reine cared for amusement,” said Herbert; “she never
-said so; she was always pleased to be at home; it must all have come on,
-her love for gayety, to spite me.”
-
-Madame de Mirfleur did not reply; she thought it wisest to say nothing
-in such a controversy, having, I fear, a deep-rooted contempt for the
-masculine understanding in such matters at least. En revanche, she
-professed the most unbounded reverence for it in other matters, and
-liked, as Miss Susan did, to consult “a man” in all difficult questions,
-though I fear, like Miss Susan, it was only the advice of one who
-agreed with her that she took. But with Herbert she was silent. What was
-the use? she said to herself. If he could not see that Reine’s
-indifference to amusement arose from her affection for himself, what
-could she say to persuade him of it? and it was against her principles
-to denounce him for selfishness, as probably an English mother would
-have done. “Que voulez-vous? it is their nature,” Madame de Mirfleur
-would have said, shrugging her shoulders. I am not sure, however, that
-this silence was much more satisfactory to Herbert than an explanation
-would have been. He was not really selfish, perhaps, only deceived by
-the perpetual homage that had been paid to him during his illness, and
-by the intoxicating sense of sudden emancipation now.
-
-As for Everard, he was totally dismayed by the announcement; all the
-attempts at self-assertion which he had intended to make failed him. As
-was natural, he took this, not in the least as affecting Herbert, but
-only as a pointed slight addressed to himself. He had left home to
-please her at Christmas, of all times in the year, when everybody who
-has a home goes back to it, when no one is absent who can help it. And
-though her invitation was no invitation, and was not accompanied by one
-conciliating word, he had obeyed the summons, almost, he said to
-himself, at a moment’s notice; and she for whom he came, though she had
-not asked him, she had withdrawn herself from the party! Everard said to
-himself that he would not stay, that he would push on at once to Italy,
-and prove to her that it was not her or her society that had tempted
-him. He made up his mind to this at once, but he did not do it. He
-lingered next day, and next day again. He thought it would be best not
-to commit himself to anything till he had talked to Reine; if he had but
-half an hour’s conversation with her he would be able to see whether it
-was her mother’s doing. A young man in such circumstances has an
-instinctive distrust of a mother. Probably it was one of Madame de
-Mirfleur’s absurd French notions. Probably she thought it not entirely
-comme il faut that Reine, now under her brother’s guardianship, should
-be attended by Everard. Ridiculous! but on the whole it was consolatory
-to think that this might be the mother’s doing, and that Reine was being
-made a victim of like himself. But (whether this also was her mother’s
-doing he could not tell) to get an interview with Reine was beyond his
-power. He had no chance of saying a word to her till he had been at
-least ten days in Cannes, and the time of her departure with Madame de
-Mirfleur was drawing near. One evening, however, he happened to come
-into the room when Reine had stepped out upon the balcony, and followed
-her there hastily, determined to seize the occasion. It was a mild
-evening, not moonlight, as (he felt) it ought to have been, but full of
-the soft lightness of stars, and the luminous reflection of the sea.
-Beyond her, as she stood outside the window, he saw the sweep of dim
-blue, with edges of white, the great Mediterranean, which forms the
-usual background on this coast. There was too little light for much
-color, only a vague blueness or grayness, against which the slim,
-straight figure rose. He stepped out softly not to frighten her; but
-even then she started, and looked about for some means of escape, when
-she found herself captured and in his power. Everard did not take any
-sudden or violent advantage of his luck. He began quite gently, with an
-Englishman’s precaution, to talk of the weather and the beautiful night.
-
-“It only wants a moon to be perfect,” he said. “Do you remember, Reine,
-the balcony at Kandersteg? I always associate you with balconies and
-moons. And do you remember, at Appenzell--”
-
-It was on her lips to say, “Don’t talk of Appenzell!” almost angrily,
-but she restrained herself. “I remember most things that have happened
-lately,” she said; “I have done nothing to make me forget.”
-
-“Have I?” said Everard, glad of the chance; for to get an opening for
-reproach or self-defence was exactly what he desired.
-
-“I did not say so. I suppose we both remember all that there is to
-remember,” said Reine, and she added hastily, “I don’t mean anything
-more than I say.”
-
-“It almost sounds as if you did--and to see your letter,” said Everard,
-“no one would have thought you remembered anything, or that we had ever
-known each other. Reine, Reine, why are you going away?”
-
-“Why am I going away? I am not going what you call, away. I am going
-rather, as we should say, home--with mamma. Is it not the most natural
-thing to do?”
-
-“Did you ever call Madame do Mirfleur’s house home before?” said
-Everard; “do you mean it? Are not you coming to Whiteladies, to your own
-country, to the place you belong to? Reine, you frighten me. I don’t
-understand what you mean.”
-
-“Do I belong to Whiteladies? Is England my country?” said Reine. “I am
-not so sure as you are. I am a Frenchwoman’s daughter, and perhaps, most
-likely, it will turn out that mamma’s house is the only one I have any
-right to.”
-
-Here she paused, faltering, to keep the tears out of her voice. Everard
-did not see that her lip was quivering, but he discovered it in the
-tremulous sound.
-
-“What injustice you are doing to everybody!” he cried indignantly. “How
-can you treat us so?”
-
-“Treat you? I was not thinking of you,” said Reine. “Herbert will go to
-Whiteladies in May. It is home to him; but what is there that belongs to
-a girl? Supposing Herbert marries, would Whiteladies be my home? I have
-no right, no place anywhere. The only thing, I suppose, a girl has a
-right to is, perhaps, her mother. I have not even that--but mamma would
-give me a home. I should be sure of a home at least--”
-
-“I do not understand you, Reine.”
-
-“It is tout simple, as mamma says; everything is tout simple,” she said;
-“that Herbert should stand by himself, not wanting me; and that I should
-have nothing and nobody in the world. Tout simple. I am not complaining;
-I am only saying the truth. It is best that I should go to Normandy and
-try to please mamma. She does not belong to me, but I belong to her, in
-a way--and she would never be unkind to me. Well, there is nothing so
-very wonderful in what I say. Girls are like that; they have nothing
-belonging to them; they are not meant to have, mamma would say. It is
-tout simple; they are meant to ménager, and to cajole, and to submit;
-and I can do the last. That is why I say that, most likely, Normandy
-will be my home after all.”
-
-“You cannot mean this,” said Everard, troubled. “You never could be
-happy there; why should you change now? Herbert and you have been
-together all your lives; and if he marries--” Here Everard drew a long
-breath and made a pause. “You could not be happy with Monsieur, your
-stepfather, and all the little Mirfleurs,” he said.
-
-“One can live, one can get on, without being happy,” cried Reine. Then
-she laughed. “What is the use of talking? One has to do what one must.
-Let me go in, please. Balconies and moonlights are not good. To think
-too much, to talk folly, may be very well for you who can do what you
-please, but they are not good for girls. I am going in now.”
-
-“Wait one moment, Reine. Cannot you do what you please?--not only for
-yourself, but for others. Everything will be changed if you go; as for
-me, you don’t care about me, what I feel--but Herbert. He has always
-been your charge; you have thought of him before everything--”
-
-“And so I do now,” cried the girl. Two big tears dropped out of her
-eyes. “So I do now! Bertie shall not think me a burden, shall not
-complain of me if I should die. Let me pass, please. Everard, may I not
-even have so much of my own will as to go out or in if I like? I do not
-ask much more.”
-
-Everard stood aside, but he caught the edge of her loose sleeve as she
-passed him, and detained her still a moment. “What are you thinking of?
-what have you in your mind?” he said humbly. “Have you changed, or have
-I changed, or what has gone wrong? I don’t understand you, Reine.”
-
-She stood for a moment hesitating, as if she might have changed her
-tone; but what was there to say? “I am not changed that I know of; I
-cannot tell whether you are changed or not,” she said. “Nothing is
-wrong; it is tout simple, as mamma says.”
-
-What was tout simple? Everard had not a notion what was in her mind, or
-how it was that the delicate poise had been disturbed, and Reine taught
-to feel the disadvantage of her womanhood. She had not been in the habit
-of thinking or feeling anything of the kind. She had not been aware even
-for years and years, as her mother had said, whether she was girl or
-boy. The discovery had come all at once. Everard pondered dimly and with
-perplexity how much he had to do with it, or what it was. But indeed he
-had nothing to do with it; the question between Reine and himself was a
-totally different question from the other which was for the moment
-supreme in her mind. Had she been free to think of it, I do not suppose
-Reine would have felt in much doubt as to her power over Everard. But it
-was the other phase of her life which was uppermost for the moment.
-
-He followed her into the lighted room, where Madame de Mirfleur sat at
-her tapisserie in the light of the lamp. But when Reine went to the
-piano and began to sing “Ma Normandie,” with her sweet young fresh
-voice, he retreated again to the balcony, irritated by the song more
-than by anything she had said. Madame de Mirfleur, who was a musician
-too, added a mellow second to the refrain of her child’s song. The
-voices suited each other, and a prettier harmony could not have been,
-nor a more pleasant suggestion to any one whose mind was in tune.
-Indeed, it made the mother feel happy for the moment, though she was
-herself doubtful how far Reine’s visit to the Norman château would be a
-success. “Je vais revoir ma Normandie,” the girl sang, very sweetly; the
-mother joined in; mother and daughter were going together to that simple
-rural home, while the young men went out into the world and enjoyed
-themselves. What more suitable, more pleasant for all parties? But
-Everard felt himself grow hot and angry. His temper flamed up with
-unreasonable, ferocious impatience. What a farce it was, he cried
-bitterly to himself. What did that woman want with Reine? she had
-another family whom she cared for much more. She would make the poor
-child wretched when she got her to that detestable Normandie they were
-singing about with so much false sentiment. Of course it was all some
-ridiculous nonsense of hers about propriety, something that never could
-have come into Reine’s poor dear little innocent head if it had not been
-put there. When a young man is angry with the girl he is fond of, what a
-blessing it is when she has a mother upon whom he can pour out his
-wrath! The reader knows how very little poor Madame de Mirfleur had to
-do with it. But though she was somewhat afraid of her daughter’s visit,
-and anxious about its success, Reine’s song was very pleasant to her,
-and she liked to put in that pretty second, and to feel that her child’s
-sweet voice was in some sense an echo of her own.
-
-“Thanks, chérie,” she said when Reine closed the piano. “I love thy
-song, and I love thee for singing it. Tiens, my voice goes with your
-fresh voice well enough still.”
-
-She was pleased, poor soul; but Everard, glaring at her from the
-balcony, would have liked to do something to Madame de Mirfleur had the
-rules of society permitted. He “felt like hurling things at her,” like
-Maria in the play.
-
-Yet--I do not know how it came to pass, but so it was--even then Everard
-did not carry out his intention of making a start on his own account,
-and going off and leaving the little party which was just about to break
-up, each going his or her own way. He lingered and lingered still till
-the moment came when the ladies had arranged to leave. Herbert by this
-time had made up his mind to go on to Italy too, and Everard, in spite
-of himself, found that he was tacitly pledged to be his young cousin’s
-companion, though Bertie without Reine was not particularly to his mind.
-Though he had been partially weaned from his noisy young friends by
-Everard’s presence, Herbert had still made his boyish desire to
-emancipate himself sufficiently apparent to annoy and bore the elder
-man, who having long known the delights of freedom, was not so eager to
-claim them, nor so jealous of their infringement. Everard had no
-admiration for the billiard-rooms or smoking-rooms, or noisy, boyish
-parties which Herbert preferred so much to the society of his mother and
-sister. “Please yourself,” he said, shrugging his shoulders, as he left
-the lad at the door of these brilliant centres of society; and this
-shrug had more effect upon Herbert’s mind than dozens of moral lectures.
-His first doubt, indeed, as to whether the “life” which he was seeing,
-was not really of the most advanced and brilliant kind, was suggested to
-him by that contemptuous movement of his cousin’s shoulders. “He is a
-rustic, he is a Puritan,” Herbert said to himself, but quite
-unconsciously Everard’s shrug was as a cloud over his gayety. Everard,
-however, shrugged his shoulders much more emphatically when he found
-that he was expected to act the part of guide, philosopher, and friend
-to the young fellow, who was no longer an invalid, and who was so
-anxious to see the world. Once upon a time he had been very ready to
-undertake the office, to give the sick lad his arm, to wheel him about
-in his chair, to carry him up or down stairs when that was needful.
-
-“But you don’t expect me to be Herbert’s nurse all by myself,” he said
-ruefully, just after Madame de Mirfleur had made a pretty little speech
-to him about the benefit which his example and his society would be to
-her boy. Reine was in the room too, working demurely at her mother’s
-tapisserie, and making no sign.
-
-“He wants no nurse,” said Madame de Mirfleur, “thank God; but your
-society, cher Monsieur Everard, will be everything for him. It will set
-our minds at ease. Reine, speak for thyself, then. Do not let Monsieur
-Everard go away without thy word too.”
-
-Reine raised her eyes from her work, and gave a quick, sudden glance at
-him. Then Everard saw that her eyes were full of tears. Were they for
-him? were they for Herbert? were they, for herself? He could not tell.
-Her voice was husky and strained very different from the clear carol
-with which this night even, over again, she had given forth the
-quavering notes of “Ma Normandie.” How he hated the song which she had
-taken to singing over and over again when nobody wanted it! But her
-voice just then had lost all its music, and he was glad.
-
-“Everard knows--what I would say,” said Reine. “He always was--very good
-to Bertie;” and here her tears fell. They were so big that they made a
-storm of themselves, and echoed as they fell, these two tears.
-
-“But speak, then,” said her mother, “we go to-morrow; there is no more
-time to say anything after to-night.”
-
-Reine’s eyes had filled again. She was exercising great control over
-herself, and would not weep nor break down, but she could not keep the
-tears out of her eyes. “He is not very strong,” she said, faltering, “he
-never was--without some one to take care of him--before. Oh! how can I
-speak? Perhaps I am forsaking him for my own poor pride, after all. If
-he got ill what should I do?”
-
-“Chérie, if he gets ill, it will be the will of God; thou canst do no
-more. Tell what you wish to your cousin. Monsieur Everard is very good
-and kind; he will watch over him; he will take care of him--”
-
-“I know, I know!” said Reine, under her breath, making a desperate
-effort to swallow down the rising sob in her throat.
-
-Through all this Everard sat very still, with a rueful sort of smile on
-his face. He did not like it, but what could he say? He had no desire to
-watch over Herbert, to take care of him, as Madame de Mirfleur said; but
-he was soft-hearted, and his very soul was melted by Reine’s tears,
-though at the same time they wounded him; for, alas! there was very
-little appearance of any thought for him, Everard, in all she looked and
-said.
-
-And then there followed a silence in which, if he had been a brave man,
-he would have struck a stroke for liberty, and endeavored to get out of
-this thankless office; and he fully meant to do it; but sat still
-looking at the lamp, and said nothing, though the opportunity was
-afforded him. A man who has so little courage or presence of mind surely
-deserves all his sufferings.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVII.
-
-
-Everard and Herbert made their tour through Italy without very much
-heart for the performance; but partly out of pride, partly because, when
-once started on a _giro_ of any kind, it is easier to go on than to turn
-back, they accomplished it. On Herbert’s part, indeed, there was
-occasion for a very strong backbone of pride to keep him up, for the
-poor young fellow, whose health was not so strong as he thought, had one
-or two warnings of this fact, and when shut up for a week or two in Rome
-or in Naples, longed unspeakably for the sister who had always been his
-nurse and companion. Everard was very kind, and gave up a great deal of
-his time to the invalid; but it was not to be expected that he should
-absolutely devote himself, as Reine did, thinking of nothing in the
-world but Herbert. He had, indeed, many other things to think of, and
-when the state of convalescence was reached, he left the patient to get
-better as he could, though he was very good to him when he was
-absolutely ill. What more could any one ask? But poor Herbert wanted
-more. He wanted Reine, and thus learned how foolish it was to throw his
-prop away. Reine in the meanwhile wanted him, and spent many wretched
-hours in the heart of that still Normandy, longing to be with the
-travellers, to know what they were about, and how her brother arranged
-his life without her. The young men arrived at the Château Mirfleur at
-the earliest moment permissible, getting there in the end of April, to
-pick up Reine; and as they had all been longing for this meeting, any
-clouds that had risen on the firmament dispersed at once before the
-sunshine.
-
-They were so glad to be together again, that they did not ask why or how
-they had separated. And instead of singing “Ma Normandie,” as she had
-done at Cannes, Reine sang “Home, sweet home,” bringing tears into the
-eyes of the wanderers with that tender ditty. Herbert and she were
-indeed much excited about their home-going, as was natural. They had not
-been at Whiteladies for six years, a large slice out of their young
-lives. They had been boy and girl when they left it, and now they were
-man and woman. And all the responsibilities of life awaited Herbert, now
-three-and-twenty, in full possession of his rights. In the first
-tenderness of the reunion Reine and he had again many talks over this
-life which was now beginning--a different kind of life from that which
-he thought, poor boy, he was making acquaintance with in billiard-rooms,
-etc. I think he had ceased to confide in the billiard-room version of
-existence, but probably not so much from good sense or any virtue of
-his, as from the convincing effect of those two “attacks” which he had
-been assailed by at Rome and Naples, and which proved to him that he was
-not yet strong enough to dare vulgar excitements, and turn night into
-day.
-
-As for Everard, it seemed to him that it was his fate to be left in the
-lurch. He had been told off to attend upon Herbert and take care of him
-when he had no such intention, and now, instead of rewarding him for his
-complaisance, Reine was intent upon cementing her own reconciliation
-with her brother, and making up for what she now represented to herself
-as her desertion of him. Poor Everard could not get a word or a look
-from her, but was left in a whimsical solitude to make acquaintance with
-Jeanot and Babette, and to be amiable to M. de Mirfleur, whom his wife’s
-children were not fond of. Everard found him very agreeable, being
-driven to take refuge with the honest, homely Frenchman, who had more
-charity for Herbert and Reine than they had for him. M. de Mirfleur,
-like his wife, found many things to be tout simple which distressed and
-worried the others. He was not even angry with the young people for
-their natural reluctance to acknowledge himself, which indeed showed
-very advanced perceptions in a step-father, and much forbearance. He set
-down all their farouche characteristics to their nationality. Indeed,
-there was in the good man’s mind, an evident feeling that the fact of
-being English explained everything. Everard was left to the society of
-M. de Mirfleur and the children, who grew very fond of him, and indeed
-it was he who derived the most advantage from his week in Normandy, if
-he had only been able to see it in that light. But I am not sure that
-he did not think the renewed devotion of friendship between the brother
-and sister excessive; for it was not until they were ploughing the
-stormy seas on the voyage from Havre, which was their nearest seaport,
-to England, that he had so much as a chance of a conversation with
-Reine. Herbert, bound to be well on his triumphal return home, had been
-persuaded to go below and escape the night air. But Reine, who was in a
-restless condition, full of suppressed excitement, and a tolerable
-sailor besides, could not keep still. She came up to the deck when the
-night was gathering, the dark waves running swiftly by the ship’s side,
-the night-air blowing strong (for there was no wind, the sailors said)
-through the bare cordage, and carrying before it the huge black pennon
-of smoke from the funnel.
-
-The sea was not rough. There was something congenial to the commotion
-and excitement of Reine’s spirit in the throb and bound of the steamer,
-and in the dark waves, with their ceaseless movement, through which,
-stormy and black and full of mysterious life as they looked, the blacker
-solid hull pushed its resistless way. She liked the strong current of
-the air, and the sense of progress, and even the half-terror of that
-dark world in which this little floating world held its own between sky
-and sea. Everard tossed his cigar over the ship’s side when he saw her,
-and came eagerly forward and drew her hand through his arm. It was the
-first time he had been able to say a word to her since they met. But
-even then Reine’s first question was not encouraging.
-
-“How do you think Bertie is looking?” she said.
-
-Every man, however, be his temper ever so touchy, can be patient when
-the inducement is strong enough. Everard, though deeply tempted to make
-a churlish answer, controlled himself in a second, and replied--
-
-“Very well, I think; not robust, perhaps, Reine; you must not expect him
-all at once to look robust.”
-
-“I suppose not,” she said, with a sigh.
-
-“But quite _well_, which is much more important. It is not the degree,
-but the kind, that is to be looked at,” said Everard, with a great show
-of wisdom. “Strength is one thing, health is another; and it is not the
-most robustious men,” he went on with a smile, “who live longest,
-Reine.”
-
-“I suppose not,” she repeated. Then after a pause, “Do you think, from
-what you have seen of him, that he will be active and take up a country
-life? There is not much going on at Whiteladies; you say you found your
-life dull?”
-
-“To excuse myself for coming when you called upon me, Reine.”
-
-“Ah! but I did not call you. I never should have ventured. Everard, you
-are doing me injustice. How could I have taken so much upon myself?”
-
-“I wish you would take a great deal more upon yourself. You did, Reine.
-You said, ‘Stand in my place.’”
-
-“Yes, I know; my heart was breaking. Forgive me, Everard. Whom could I
-ask but you?”
-
-“I will forgive you anything you like, if you say that. And I did take
-your place, Reine. I did not want to, mind you--I wanted to be with
-_you_, not Bertie--but I did.”
-
-“Everard, you are kind, and so cruel. Thanks! thanks a thousand times!”
-
-“I do not want to be thanked,” he said, standing over her; for she had
-drawn her hand from his arm, and was standing by the steep stairs which
-led below, ready for escape. “I don’t care for thanks. I want to be
-rewarded. I am not one of the generous kind. I did not do it for
-nothing. Pay me, Reine!”
-
-Reine looked him in the face very sedately. I do not think that his
-rudeness alarmed, or even annoyed her, to speak of. A gleam of malice
-came into her eyes; then a gleam of something else, which was, though it
-was hard to see it, a tear. Then she suddenly took his hand, kissed it
-before Everard had time to stop her, and fled below. And when she
-reached the safe refuge of the ladies’ cabin, where no profane foot
-could follow her, Reine took off her hat, and shook down her hair, which
-was all blown about by the wind, and laughed to herself. When she turned
-her eyes to the dismal little swinging lamp overhead, that dolorous
-light reflected itself in such glimmers of sunshine as it had never seen
-before.
-
-How gay the girl felt! and mischievous, like a kitten. Pay him! Reine
-sat down on the darksome hair-cloth sofa in the corner, with wicked
-smiles curling the corners of her mouth; and then she put her hands over
-her face, and cried. The other ladies, poor souls! were asleep or
-poorly, and paid no attention to all this pantomime. It was the happiest
-moment she had had for years, and this is how she ran away from it; but
-I don’t think that the running away made her enjoy it the less.
-
-As for Everard, he was left on deck feeling somewhat discomfited. It was
-the second time this had happened to him. She had kissed his hand
-before, and he had been angry and ashamed, as it was natural a man
-should be, of such an inappropriate homage. He had thought, to tell the
-truth, that his demand for payment was rather an original way of making
-a proposal; and he felt himself laughed at, which is, of all things in
-the world, the thing most trying to a lover’s feelings. But after
-awhile, when he had lighted and smoked a cigar, and fiercely
-perambulated the deck for ten minutes, he calmed down, and began to
-enter into the spirit of the situation. Such a response, if it was
-intensely provoking, was not, after all, very discouraging. He went
-downstairs after awhile (having, as the reader will perceive, his attack
-of the love-sickness rather badly), and looked at Herbert, who was
-extended on another dismal sofa, similar to the one on which Reine
-indulged her malice, and spread a warm rug over him, and told him the
-hour, and that “we’re getting on famously, old fellow!” with the utmost
-sweetness. But he could not himself rest in the dreary cabin, under the
-swinging lamp, and went back on deck, where there was something more
-congenial in the fresh air, the waves running high, the clouds breaking
-into dawn.
-
-They arrived in the afternoon by a train which had been selected for
-them by instructions from Whiteladies; and no sooner had they reached
-the station than the evidence of a great reception made itself apparent.
-The very station was decorated as if for royalty. Just outside was an
-arch made of green branches, and sweet with white boughs of the
-blossomed May. Quite a crowd of people were waiting to welcome the
-travellers--the tenants before mentioned, not a very large band, the
-village people in a mass, the clergy, and several of the neighbors in
-their carriages, including the Farrel-Austins. Everybody who had any
-right to such a privilege pressed forward to shake hands with Herbert.
-“Welcome home!” they cried, cheering the young man, who was so much
-surprised and affected that he could scarcely speak to them. As for
-Reine, between crying and smiling, she was incapable of anything, and
-had to be almost lifted into the carriage. Kate and Sophy Farrel-Austin
-waved their handkerchiefs and their parasols, and called out, “Welcome,
-Bertie!” over the heads of the other people. They were all invited to a
-great dinner at Whiteladies on the next day, at which half the county
-was to be assembled; and Herbert and Reine were especially touched by
-the kind looks of their cousins. “I used not to like them,” Reine said,
-when the first moment of emotion was over, and they were driving along
-the sunny high-road toward Whiteladies; “it shows how foolish one’s
-judgments are;” while Herbert declared “they were always jolly girls,
-and, by Jove! as pretty as any he had seen for ages.” Everard did not
-say anything; but then they had taken no notice of him. He was on the
-back seat, not much noticed by any one; but Herbert and Reine were the
-observed of all observers. There were two or three other arches along
-the rural road, and round each a little group of the country folks,
-pleased with the little show, and full of kindly welcomes. In front of
-the Almshouses all the old people were drawn up, and a large text, done
-in flowers, stretched along the front of the old red-brick building. “I
-cried unto the Lord, and He heard me,” was the inscription; and trim old
-Dr. Richard, in his trim canonicals, stood at the gate in the centre of
-his flock when the carriage stopped.
-
-Herbert jumped down amongst them with his heart full, and spoke to the
-old people; while Reine sat in the carriage, and cried, and held out her
-hands to her friends. Miss Augustine had wished to be there too, among
-the others who, she thought, had brought Herbert back to life by their
-prayers; but her sister had interposed strenuously, and this had been
-given up. When the Almshouses were passed there was another arch, the
-finest of all. It was built up into high columns of green on each side,
-and across the arch was the inscription, “As welcome as the flowers in
-May,” curiously worked in hawthorn blossoms, with dropping ornaments of
-the wild blue hyacinth from each initial letter. It was so pretty that
-they stopped the carriage to look at it, amid the cheers of some village
-people who clustered round, for it was close to the village. Among them
-stood a tall, beautiful young woman, in a black dress, with a rosy,
-fair-haired boy, whose hat was decorated with the same wreath of May and
-hyacinth. Even in that moment of excitement, both brother and sister
-remarked her. “Who was that lady?--you bowed to her,” said Reine, as
-soon as they had passed. “By Jove! how handsome she was!” said Herbert.
-Everard only smiled, and pointed out to them the servants about the gate
-of Whiteladies, and Miss Susan and Miss Augustine standing out in the
-sunshine in their gray gowns. The young people threw the carriage doors
-open at either side, and had alighted almost before it stopped. And then
-came that moment of inarticulate delight, when friends meet after a long
-parting, when questions are asked in a shower and no one answers, and
-the eyes that have not seen each other for so long look through and
-through the familiar faces, leaping to quick conclusions. Everard (whom
-no one took any notice of) kept still in the carriage, which had drawn
-up at the gate, and surveyed this scene from his elevation with a sense
-of disadvantage, yet superiority. He was out of all the excitement and
-commotion. Nobody could look at him, bronzed and strong, as if he had
-just come back from the edge of the grave; but from his position of
-vantage he saw everything. He saw Miss Susan’s anxious survey of
-Herbert, and the solemn, simple complaisance on poor Augustine’s face,
-who felt it was her doing--hers and that of her old feeble chorus in the
-Almshouses; and he saw Reine pause, with her arms round Miss Susan’s
-neck, to look her closely in the eyes, asking, “What is it? what is it?”
-not in words, but with an alarmed look. Everard knew, as if he had seen
-into her heart, that Reine had found out something strange in Miss
-Susan’s eyes, and thinking of only one thing that could disturb her,
-leaped with a pang to the conclusion that Herbert was not looking so
-well or so strong as she had supposed. And I think that Everard, in the
-curious intuition of that moment when he was nothing but an onlooker,
-discovered also, that though Miss Susan looked so anxiously at Herbert,
-she scarcely saw him, and formed no opinion about his health, having
-something else much more keen and close in her mind.
-
-“And here is Everard too,” Miss Susan said; “he is not such a stranger
-as you others. Come, Everard, and help us to welcome them; and come in,
-Bertie, to your own house. Oh, how glad we all are to see you here!”
-
-“Aunt Susan,” said Reine, whispering in her ear, “I see by your eyes
-that you think he is not strong still.”
-
-“By my eyes?” said Miss Susan, too much confused by many emotions to
-understand; but she made no disclaimer, only put her hand over her
-eyebrows, and led Herbert to the old porch, everybody following almost
-solemnly. Such a home-coming could scarcely fail to be somewhat solemn
-as well as glad. “My dear,” she said, pausing on the threshold, “God
-bless you! God has brought you safe back when we never expected it. We
-should all say thank God, Bertie, when we bring you in at your own
-door.”
-
-And she stood with her hand on his shoulder, and stretched up to him
-(for he had grown tall in his illness) and kissed him, with one or two
-tears dropping on her cheeks. Herbert’s eyes were wet too. He was very
-accessible to emotion; he turned round to the little group who were all
-so dear and familiar, with his lip quivering. “I have most reason of all
-to say, ‘Thank God;’” the young man said, with his heart full, standing
-there on his own threshold, which, a little while before, no one had
-hoped to see him cross again.
-
-Just then the little gate which opened into Priory Lane, and was
-opposite the old porch, was pushed open, and two people came in. The jar
-of the gate as it opened caught everybody’s ear; and Herbert in
-particular, being somewhat excited, turned hastily to see what the
-interruption was. It was the lady to whom Everard had bowed, who had
-been standing under the triumphal arch as they passed. She approached
-them, crossing the lawn with a familiar, assured step, leading her
-child. Miss Susan, who had been standing close by him, her hand still
-fondly resting on Herbert’s shoulder, started at sight of the new-comer,
-and withdrew quickly, impatiently from his side; but the young man,
-naturally enough, had no eyes for what his old aunt was doing, but stood
-quite still, unconscious, in his surprise, that he was staring at the
-beautiful stranger. Reine, standing just behind him, stared too, equally
-surprised, but searching in her more active brain what it meant.
-Giovanna came straight up to the group in the porch. “Madame Suzanne?”
-she said, with a self-possession which seemed to have deserted the
-others. Miss Susan obeyed the summons with tremulous haste. She came
-forward growing visibly pale in her excitement. “Herbert,” she said,
-“and Reine,” making a pause after the words, “this is a--lady who is
-staying here. This is Madame Jean Austin from Bruges, of whom you have
-heard--”
-
-“And her child,” said Giovanna, putting him forward.
-
-“Madame Jean? who is Madame Jean?” said Herbert, whispering to his aunt,
-after he had bowed to the stranger. Giovanna was anxious about this
-meeting, and her ears were very sharp, and she heard the question. Her
-great black eyes shone, and she smiled upon the young man, who was more
-deeply impressed by her sudden appearance than words could say.
-
-“Monsieur,” she said with a curtsey, smiling, “it is the little child
-who is the person to look at, not me. Me, I am simple Giovanna, the
-widow of Jean; nobody; but the little boy is most to you: he is the
-heir.”
-
-“The heir?” said Herbert, turning a little pale. He looked round upon
-the others with bewilderment, asking explanations; then suddenly
-recollecting, said, “Ah, I understand; the next of kin that was lost. I
-had forgotten. Then, Aunt Susan, this is _my_ heir?”
-
-“Yes,” she said, with blanched lips. She could not have uttered another
-word, had it been to deliver herself and the race from this burden
-forever.
-
-Giovanna had taken the child into her arms. At this moment she swung him
-down lightly as a feather on to the raised floor of the porch, where
-they were all standing. “Jean,” she cried, “ton devoir!” The baby turned
-his blue eyes upon her, half frightened; then looked round the strange
-faces about him, struggling with an inclination to cry; then, mustering
-his faculties, took his little cap off with the gravity of a judge, and
-flinging it feebly in the air, shouted out, “Vive M. ’Erbert!” “Encore,”
-cried Giovanna. “Vive Monsieur ’Erbert!” said the little fellow loudly,
-with a wave of his small hand.
-
-This little performance had a very curious effect upon the assembled
-party. Surprise and pleasure shone in Herbert’s eyes; he was quite
-captivated by this last scene of his reception; and even Everard, though
-he knew better, was charmed by the beautiful face and beautiful attitude
-of the young woman, who stood animated and blooming, like the leader of
-an orchestra, on the lawn outside. But Reine’s suspicions darted up like
-an army in ambush all in a moment, though she could not tell what she
-was suspicious of. As for Miss Susan, she stood with her arms dropped by
-her side, her face fallen blank. All expression seemed to have gone out
-from it, everything but a kind of weary pain.
-
-“Who is she, Reine? Everard, who is she?” Herbert whispered anxiously,
-when, some time later, the three went off together to visit their
-childish haunts; the old playroom, the musicians’ gallery, the ancient
-corridors in which they had once frolicked. Miss Susan had come upstairs
-with them, but had left them for the moment. “Tell me, quick, before
-Aunt Susan comes back.”
-
-“Ah!” cried Reine, with a laugh, though I don’t think she was really
-merry, “this is the old time back again, indeed, when we must whisper
-and have secrets as soon as Aunt Susan is away.”
-
-“But who is she?” said Herbert. They had come into the gallery
-overlooking the hall, where the table was already spread for dinner.
-Giovanna was walking round it, with her child perched on her shoulder.
-At the sound of the steps and voices above she turned round, and waved
-her hand to them. “Vive Monsieur ’Erbert!” she sang, in a melodious
-voice which filled all the echoes. She was so strong that it was nothing
-to her to hold the baby poised on her shoulder, while she pointed up to
-the figures in the gallery and waved her hand to them. The child, bolder
-this time, took up his little shout with a crow of pleasure. The three
-ghosts in the gallery stood and looked down upon this pretty group with
-very mingled feelings. But Herbert, for his part, being very sensitive
-to all homage, felt a glow of pleasure steal over him. “When a man has a
-welcome like this,” he said to himself, “it is very pleasant to come
-home!”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXVIII.
-
-
-“Me! I am nobody,” said Giovanna. “Ces dames have been very kind to me.
-I was the son’s widow, the left-out one at home. Does mademoiselle
-understand? But then you can never have been the left-out one--the one
-who was always wrong.”
-
-“No,” said Reine. She was not, however, so much touched by this
-confidence as Herbert, who, though he was not addressed, was within
-hearing, and gave very distracted answers to Miss Susan, who was talking
-to him, by reason of listening to what Giovanna said.
-
-“But I knew that the petit was not nobody, like me; and I brought him
-here. He is the next, till M. Herbert will marry, and have his own
-heirs. This is what I desire, mademoiselle, believe me--for now I love
-Viteladies, not for profit, but for love. It was for money I came at
-first,” she said with a laugh, “to live; but now I have de l’amitié for
-every one, even this old Stefen, who do not love me nor my child.”
-
-She said this laughing, while Stevens stood before her with the tray in
-his hands, serving her with tea; and I leave the reader to divine the
-feelings of that functionary, who had to receive this direct shaft
-levelled at him, and make no reply. Herbert, whose attention by this
-time had been quite drawn away from Miss Susan, laughed too. He turned
-his chair round to take part in this talk, which was much more
-interesting than anything his aunt had to say.
-
-“That was scarcely fair,” he said; “the man hearing you; for he dared
-not say anything in return, you know.”
-
-“Oh, he do dare say many things!” said Giovanna. “I like to have my
-little revenge, me. The domestics did not like me at first, M. Herbert;
-I know not why. It is the nature of you other English not to love the
-foreigner. You are proud. You think yourselves more good than we.”
-
-“Not so, indeed!” cried Herbert, eagerly; “just the reverse, I think.
-Besides, we are half foreign ourselves, Reine and I.”
-
-“Whatever you may be, Herbert, I count myself pure English,” said Reine,
-with dignity. She was suspicious and disturbed, though she could not
-tell why.
-
-“Mademoiselle has reason,” said Giovanna. “It is very fine to be
-English. One can feel so that one is more good than all the world! As
-soon as I can speak well enough, I shall say so too. I am of no nation
-at present, me--Italian born, Belge by living--and the Belges are not a
-people. They are a little French, a little Flemish, not one thing or
-another. I prefer to be English, too. I am Austin, like all you others,
-and Viteladies is my ’ome.”
-
-This little speech made the others look at each other, and Herbert
-laughed with a curious consciousness. Whiteladies was his. He had
-scarcely ever realized it before. He did not even feel quite sure now
-that he was not here on a visit, his Aunt Susan’s guest. Was it the
-others who were his guests, all of them, from Miss Susan herself, who
-had always been the ‘Squire, down to this piquant stranger? Herbert
-laughed with a sense of pleasure and strangeness, and shy, boyish wonder
-whether he should say something about being glad to see her there, or be
-silent. Happily, he decided that silence was the right thing, and nobody
-spoke for the moment. Giovanna, however, who seemed to have taken upon
-her to amuse the company, soon resumed:
-
-“In England it is not amusing, the Winter, M. Herbert. Ah, mon Dieu!
-what a consolation to make the garlands to build up the arch! Figure to
-yourself that I was up at four o’clock this morning, and all the rooms
-full of those pretty aubépines, which you call May. My fingers smell of
-it now; and look, how they are pricked!” she said, holding them out. She
-had a pretty hand, large like her person, but white and shapely, and
-strong. There was a force about it, and about the solid round white arm
-with which she had tossed about the heavy child, which had impressed
-Herbert greatly at the time; and its beauty struck him all the more
-now, from the sense of strength connected with it--strength and
-vitality, which in his weakness seemed to him the grandest things in the
-world.
-
-“Did you prick your fingers for me?” he said, quite touched by this
-devotion to his service; and but for his shyness, and the presence of so
-many people, I think he would have ventured to kiss the wounded hand.
-But as it was, he only looked at it, which Reine did also with a
-half-disdainful civility, while Everard peeped over her shoulder, half
-laughing. Miss Susan had pushed her chair away.
-
-“Not for you altogether,” said Giovanna, frankly, “for I did not know
-you, M. Herbert; but for pleasure, and to amuse myself; and perhaps a
-little that you and mademoiselle might have de l’amitié for me when you
-knew. What is de l’amitié in English? Friendship--ah, that is grand,
-serious, not what I mean. And we must not say love--that is too much,
-that is autre chose.”
-
-Herbert, charmed, looking at the beautiful speaker, thought she blushed;
-and this moved him mightily, for Giovanna was not like a little girl at
-a dance, an ingénue, who blushed for nothing. She was a woman, older
-than himself, and not pretty, but grand and great and beautiful; nor
-ignorant, but a woman who knew more of that wonderful “life” which
-dazzled the boy--a great deal more than he himself did, or any one here.
-That she should blush while she spoke to him was in some way an
-intoxicating compliment to Herbert’s own influence and manly power.
-
-“You mean _like_,” said Reine, who persistently acted the part of a wet
-blanket. “That is what we say in English, when it means something not so
-serious as friendship and not so close as love--a feeling on the
-surface; when you would say ‘Il me plait’ in French, in English you say
-‘I like him.’ It means just that, and no more.”
-
-Giovanna shrugged her shoulders with a little shiver. “Comme c’est
-froid, ça!” she said, snatching up Miss Susan’s shawl, which lay on a
-chair, and winding it round her. Miss Susan half turned round, with a
-consciousness that something of hers was being touched, but she said
-nothing, and her eye was dull and veiled. Reine, who knew that her aunt
-did not like her properties interfered with, was more surprised than
-ever, and half alarmed, though she did not know why.
-
-“Ah, yes, it is cold, very cold, you English,” said Giovanna, unwinding
-the shawl again, and stretching it out behind her at the full extent of
-her white arms. How the red drapery threw out her fine head, with the
-close braids of black hair, wavy and abundant, twined round and round
-it, in defiance of fashion! Her hair was not at all the hair of the
-period, either in color or texture. It was black and glossy and shining,
-as dark hair ought to be; and she was pale, with scarcely any color
-about her except her lips. “Ah, how it is cold! Mademoiselle Reine, I
-will not say _like_--I will say de l’amitié! It is more sweet. And then,
-if it should come to be love after, it will be more natural,” she said
-with a smile.
-
-I do not know if it was her beauty, to which women are, I think, almost
-more susceptible than men, vulgar prejudice notwithstanding--or perhaps
-it was something ingratiating and sweet in her smile; but Reine’s
-suspicions and her coldness quite unreasonably gave way, as they had
-quite unreasonably sprung up, and she drew nearer to the stranger and
-opened her heart unawares, while the young men struck in, and the
-conversation became general. Four young people chattering all together,
-talking a great deal of nonsense, running into wise speculations, into
-discussions about the meaning of words, like and love, and de
-l’amitié!--one knows what a pleasant jumble it is, and how the talkers
-enjoy it; all the more as they are continually skimming the surface of
-subjects which make the nerves tingle and the heart beat. The old room
-grew gay with the sound of their voices, soft laughter, and exclamations
-which gave variety to the talk. Curious! Miss Susan drew her chair a
-little more apart. It was she who was the one left out. In her own
-house, which was not her own house any longer--in the centre of the
-kingdom where she had been mistress so long, but was no more mistress.
-She said to herself, with a little natural bitterness, that perhaps it
-was judicious and really kind, after all, on the part of Herbert and
-Reine, to do it at once, to leave no doubt on the subject, to supplant
-her then and there, keeping up no fiction of being her guests still, or
-considering her the head of the house. Much better, and on the whole
-more kind! for of course everything else would be a fiction. Her reign
-had been long, but it was over. The change must be made some time, and
-when so well, so appropriately as now? After awhile she went softly
-round behind the group, and secured her shawl. She did not like her
-personal properties interfered with. No one had ever done it except this
-daring creature, and it was a thing Miss Susan was not prepared to put
-up with. She could bear the great downfall which was inevitable, but
-these small annoyances she could not bear. She secured her shawl, and
-brought it with her, hanging it over the back of her chair. But when she
-got up and when she reseated herself, no one took any notice. She was
-already supplanted and set aside, the very first night! It was sudden,
-she said to herself with a catching of the breath, but on the whole it
-was best.
-
-I need not say that Reine and Herbert were totally innocent of any such
-intention, and that it was the inadvertence of their youth that was to
-blame, and nothing else. By-and-by the door opened softly, and Miss
-Augustine came in. She had been attending a special evening service at
-the Almshouses--a thanksgiving for Herbert’s return. She had, a curious
-decoration for her, a bit of flowering May in the waistband of her
-dress, and she brought in the sweet freshness of the night with her, and
-the scent of the hawthorn, special and modest gem of the May from which
-it takes its name. She broke up without any hesitation the lively group,
-which Miss Susan, sore and sad, had withdrawn from. Augustine was a
-woman of one idea, and had no room in her mind for anything else. Like
-Monsieur and Madame de Mirfleur, though in a very different way, many
-things were tout simple to her, against which many less single-minded
-persons broke their heads, if not their hearts.
-
-“You should have come with me, Herbert,” she said, half disapproving.
-“You may be tired, but there could be nothing more refreshing than to
-give thanks. Though perhaps,” she added, folding her hands, “it was
-better that the thanksgiving should be like the prayers, disinterested,
-no personal feeling mixing in. Yes, perhaps that was best. Giovanna, you
-should have been there.”
-
-“Ah, pardon!” said Giovanna, with a slight imperceptible yawn, “it was
-to welcome mademoiselle and monsieur that I stayed. Ah! the musique!
-Tenez! ma sœur, I will make the music with a very good heart, now.”
-
-“That is a different thing,” said Miss Augustine. “They trusted to
-you--though to me the hymns they sing themselves are more sweet than
-yours. One voice may be pleasant to hear, but it is but one. When all
-sing, it is like heaven, where that will be our occupation night and
-day.”
-
-“Ah, ma sœur,” said Giovanna, “but there they will sing in tune,
-n’est ce pas, all the old ones? Tenez! I will make the music now.”
-
-And with this she went straight to the piano, uninvited, unbidden, and
-began a _Te Deum_ out of one of Mozart’s masses, the glorious rolling
-strains of which filled not only the room, but the house. Giovanna
-scarcely knew how to play; her science was all of the ear. She gave the
-sentiment of the music, rather than its notes--a reminiscence of what
-she had heard--and then she sang that most magnificent of hymns, pouring
-it forth, I suppose, from some undeveloped instinct of art in her, with
-a fervency and power which the bystanders were fain to think only the
-highest feeling could inspire. She was not bad, though she did many
-wrong things with the greatest equanimity; yet we know that she was not
-good either, and could not by any chance have really had the feeling
-which seemed to swell and tremble in her song. I don’t pretend to say
-how this was; but it is certain that stupid people, carnal and fleshly
-persons, sing thus often as if their whole heart, and that the heart of
-a seraph, was in the strain. Giovanna sang so that she brought the tears
-to their eyes. Reine stole away out from among the others, and put
-herself humbly behind the singer, and joined her soft voice, broken with
-tears, to hers. Together they appealed to prophets, and martyrs, and
-apostles, to praise the God who had wrought this deliverance, like so
-many others. Herbert, for whom it all was, hid his face in his clasped
-hands, and felt that thrill of awed humility, yet of melting, tender
-pride, with which the single soul recognizes itself as the hero, the
-object of such an offering. He could not face the light, with his eyes
-and his heart so full. Who was he, that so much had been done for him?
-And yet, poor boy, there was a soft pleased consciousness in his heart
-that there must be something in him, more than most, to warrant that
-which had been done. Augustine stood upright by the mantelpiece, with
-her arms folded in her sleeves, and her poor visionary soul still as
-usual. To her this was something like a legal acknowledgment--a receipt,
-so to speak, for value received. It was due to God, who, for certain
-inducements of prayer, had consented to do what was asked of Him. She
-had already thanked Him, and with all her heart; and she was glad that
-every one should thank Him, that there should be no stint of praise.
-Miss Susan was the only one who sat unmoved, and even went on with her
-knitting. To some people of absolute minds one little rift within the
-lute makes mute all the music. For my part, I think Giovanna, though her
-code of truth and honor was very loose, or indeed one might say
-non-existent--and though she had schemes in her mind which no very
-high-souled person could have entertained--was quite capable of being
-sincere in her thanksgiving, and not at all incapable of some kinds of
-religious feeling; and though she could commit a marked and unmistakable
-act of dishonesty without feeling any particular trouble in her
-conscience, was yet an honest soul in her way. This is one of the
-paradoxes of humanity, which I don’t pretend to understand and cannot
-explain, yet believe in. But Miss Susan did not believe in it. She
-thought it desecration to hear those sacred words coming forth from this
-woman’s mouth. In her heart she longed to get up in righteous wrath, and
-turn the deceiver out of the house. But, alas! what could she do? She
-too was a deceiver, more than Giovanna, and dared not interfere with
-Giovanna, lest she should be herself betrayed; and last of all, and, for
-the moment, almost bitterest of all, it was no longer her house, and she
-had no right to turn any one out, or take any one in, any more forever!
-
-“Who is she? Where did they pick her up? How do they manage to keep her
-here, a creature like that?” said Herbert to Everard, as they lounged
-together for half an hour in the old playroom, which had been made into
-a smoking-room for the young men. Herbert was of opinion that to smoke a
-cigar before going to bed was a thing that every man was called upon to
-do. Those who did not follow this custom were boys or invalids; and
-though he was not fond of it, he went through the ceremony nightly. He
-could talk of nothing but Giovanna, and it was with difficulty that
-Everard prevailed upon him to go to his room after all the emotions of
-the day.
-
-“I want to know how they have got her to stay,” he said, trying to
-detain his cousin that he might go on talking on this attractive
-subject.
-
-“You should ask Aunt Susan,” said Everard, not shrugging his shoulders.
-He himself was impressed in this sort of way by Giovanna. He thought her
-very handsome, and very clever, giving her credit for a greater amount
-of wisdom than she really possessed, and setting down all she had done
-and all she had said to an elaborate scheme, which was scarcely true;
-for the dangerous point in Giovanna’s wiles was that they were half
-nature, something spontaneous and unconscious being mixed up in every
-one of them. Everard resolved to warn Miss Susan, and put her on her
-guard, and he groaned to himself over the office of guardian and
-protector to this boy which had been thrust upon him. The wisest man in
-the world could not keep a boy of three-and-twenty out of mischief. He
-had done his best for him, but it was not possible to do any more.
-
-While he was thinking thus, and Herbert was walking about his room in a
-pleasant ferment of excitement and pleasure, thinking over all that had
-happened, and the flattering attention that had been shown to him on all
-sides, two other scenes were going on in different rooms, which bore
-testimony to a kindred excitement. In the first the chief actor was
-Giovanna, who had gone to her chamber in a state of high delight,
-feeling the ball at her feet, and everything in her power. She did not
-object to Herbert himself; he was young and handsome, and would never
-have the power to coerce and control her; and she had no intention of
-being anything but good to him. She woke the child, to whom she had
-carried some sweetmeats from the dessert, and played with him and petted
-him--a most immoral proceeding, as any mother will allow; for by the
-time she was sleepy, and ready to go to bed, little Jean was broad
-awake, and had to be frightened and threatened with black closets and
-black men before he could be hushed into quiet; and the untimely
-bon-bons made him ill. Giovanna had not thought of all that. She wanted
-some one to help her to get rid of her excitement, and disturbed the
-baby’s childish sleep, and deranged his stomach, without meaning him any
-harm. I am afraid, however, it made little difference to Jean that she
-was quite innocent of any evil intention, and indeed believed herself to
-be acting the part of a most kind and indulgent mother.
-
-But while Giovanna was playing with the child, Reine stole into Miss
-Susan’s room to disburden her soul, and seek that private delight of
-talking a thing over which women love. She stole in with the lightest
-tap, scarcely audible, noiseless, in her white dressing-gown, and light
-foot; and in point of fact Miss Susan did not hear that soft appeal for
-admission. Therefore she was taken by surprise when Reine appeared. She
-was seated in a curious blank and stupor, “anywhere,” not on her
-habitual chair by the side of the bed, where her table stood with her
-books on it, and where her lamp was burning, but near the door, on the
-first chair she had come to, with that helpless forlorn air which
-extreme feebleness or extreme preoccupation gives. She aroused herself
-with a look of almost terror when she saw Reine, and started from her
-seat.
-
-“How you frightened me!” she said fretfully. “I thought you had been in
-bed. After your journey and your fatigue, you ought to be in bed.”
-
-“I wanted to talk with you,” said Reine. “Oh, Aunt Susan, it is so
-long--so long since we were here; and I wanted to ask you, do you think
-he looks well? Do you think he looks strong? You have something strange
-in your eyes, Aunt Susan. Oh, tell me if you are disappointed--if he
-does not look so well as you thought.”
-
-Miss Susan made a pause; and then she answered as if with difficulty,
-“Your brother? Oh, yes, I think he is looking very well--better even
-than I thought.”
-
-Reine came closer to her, and putting one soft arm into hers, looked at
-her, examining her face with wistful eyes--“Then what is it, Aunt
-Susan?” she said.
-
-“What is--what? I do not understand you,” cried Miss Susan, shifting her
-arm, and turning away her face. “You are tired, and you are fantastic,
-as you always were. Reine, go to bed.”
-
-“Dear Aunt Susan,” cried Reine, “don’t put me away. You are not vexed
-with us for coming back?--you are not sorry we have come? Oh, don’t turn
-your face from me! You never used to turn from me, except when I had
-done wrong. Have we done wrong, Herbert or I?”
-
-“No, child, no--no, I tell you! Oh, Reine, don’t worry me now. I have
-enough without that--I cannot bear any more.”
-
-Miss Susan shook off the clinging hold. She roused herself and walked
-across the room, and put off her shawl, which she had drawn round her
-shoulders to come upstairs. She had not begun to undress, though Martha
-by this time was fast asleep. In the trouble of her mind she had sent
-Martha also away. She took off her few ornaments with trembling hands,
-and put them down on the table.
-
-“Go to bed, Reine; I am tired too--forgive me, dear,” she said with a
-sigh, “I cannot talk to you to-night.”
-
-“What is it, Aunt Susan?” said Reine softly, looking at her with anxious
-eyes.
-
-“It is nothing--nothing! only I cannot talk to you. I am not angry; but
-leave me, dear child, leave me for to-night.”
-
-“Aunt Susan,” said the girl, going up to her again, and once more
-putting an arm round her, “it is something about--_that_ woman. If it is
-not us, it is her. Why does she trouble you?--why is she here? Don’t
-send me away, but tell me about her! Dear Aunt Susan, you are ill, you
-are looking so strange, not like yourself. Tell me--I belong to you. I
-can understand you better than any one else.”
-
-“Oh, hush, hush, Reine; you don’t know what you are saying. It is
-nothing, child, nothing! _You_ understand me?”
-
-“Better than any one,” cried the girl, “for I belong to you. I can read
-what is in your face. None of the others know, but I saw it. Aunt Susan,
-tell me--whisper--I will keep it sacred, whatever it is, and it will do
-you good.”
-
-Miss Susan leaned her head upon the fragile young creature who clung to
-her. Reine, so slight and young, supported the stronger, older woman,
-with a force which was all of the heart and soul; but no words came from
-the sufferer’s lips. She stood clasping the girl close to her, and for a
-moment gave way to a great sob, which shook her like a convulsion. The
-touch, the presence, the innocent bosom laid against her own in all that
-ignorant instinctive sympathy which is the great mystery of kindred, did
-her good. Then she kissed the girl tenderly, and sent her away.
-
-“God bless you, darling! though I am not worthy to say it--not worthy!”
-said the woman, trembling, who had always seemed to Reine the very
-emblem of strength, authority, and steadfast power.
-
-She stole away, quite hushed and silenced, to her room. What could this
-be? Not worthy! Was it some religious panic that had seized upon Miss
-Susan--some horror of doubt and darkness, like that which Reine herself
-had passed through? This was the only thing the girl could think of.
-Pity kept her from sleeping, and breathed a hundred prayers through her
-mind, as she lay and listened to the old clock, telling the hours with
-its familiar voice. Very familiar, and yet novel and strange--more
-strange than if she had never heard it before--though for many nights,
-year after year, it had chimed through her dreams, and woke her to many
-another soft May morning, more tranquil and more sweet even than this.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXXIX.
-
-
-Next day was the day of the great dinner to which Miss Susan had invited
-half the county, to welcome the young master of the house, and mark the
-moment of her own withdrawal from her long supremacy in Whiteladies.
-Though she had felt with some bitterness on the previous night the
-supposed intention of Herbert and Reine to supplant her at once, Miss
-Susan was far too sensible a woman to make voluntary vexation for
-herself, out of an event so well known and long anticipated. That she
-must feel it was of course inevitable, but as she felt no real wrong in
-it, and had for a long time expected it, there was not, apart from the
-painful burden on her mind which threw a dark shadow over everything,
-any bitterness in the necessary and natural event. She had made all her
-arrangements without undue fuss or publicity, and had prepared for
-herself, as I have said, a house, which had providentially fallen
-vacant, on the other side of the village, where Augustine would still be
-within reach of the Almshouses. I am not sure that, so far as she was
-herself concerned, the sovereign of Whiteladies, now on the point of
-abdication, would not have preferred to be a little further off, out of
-daily sight of her forsaken throne; but this would have deprived
-Augustine of all that made life to her, and Miss Susan was too strong,
-too proud, and too heroic, to hesitate for a moment, or to think her own
-sentiment worth indulging. Perhaps, indeed, even without that powerful
-argument of Augustine, she would have scorned to indulge a feeling which
-she could not have failed to recognize as a mean and petty one. She had
-her faults, like most people, and she had committed a great wrong, which
-clouded her life, but there was nothing petty or mean about Miss Susan.
-After Reine had left her on the previous night, she had made a great
-effort, and recovered her self-command. I don’t know why she had allowed
-herself to be so beaten down. One kind of excitement, no doubt,
-predisposes toward another; and after the triumph and joy of Herbert’s
-return, her sense of the horrible cloud which hung over her personally,
-the revelation which Giovanna at any moment had it in her power to make,
-the evident intention she had of ingratiating herself with the
-new-comers, and the success so far of the attempt, produced a reaction
-which almost drove Miss Susan wild! If you will think of it, she had
-cause enough. She, heretofore an honorable and spotless woman, who had
-never feared the face of man, to lie now under the horrible risk of
-being found out--to be at the mercy of a passionate, impulsive creature,
-who could at any moment cover her with shame, and pull her down from her
-pedestal. I think that at such moments to have the worst happen, to be
-pulled down finally, to have her shame published to the world, would
-have been the best thing that could have happened to Miss Susan. She
-would then have raised up her humbled head again, and accepted her
-punishment, and raced the daylight, free from fear of anything that
-could befall her. The worst of it all now was this intolerable sense
-that there was something to be found out, that everything was not honest
-and open in her life, as it had always been. And by times this
-consciousness overpowered and broke her down, as it had done on the
-previous night. But when a vigorous soul is thus overpowered and breaks
-down, the moment of its utter overthrow marks a new beginning of power
-and endurance. The old fable of Antæus, who derived fresh strength
-whenever he was thrown, from contact with his mother earth, is
-profoundly true. Miss Susan had been thrown too, had fallen, and had
-rebounded with fresh force. Even Reine could scarcely see in her
-countenance next morning any trace of the emotion of last night. She
-took her place at the breakfast-table with a smile, with composure which
-was not feigned, putting bravely her burden behind her, and resolute to
-make steady head as long as she could against any storm that could
-threaten. Even when Herbert eluded that “business consultation,” and
-begged to be left free to roam about the old house, and renew his
-acquaintance with every familiar corner, she was able to accept the
-postponement without pain. She watched the young people go out even
-with almost pleasure--the brother and sister together, and Everard--and
-Giovanna at the head of the troop, with little Jean perched on her
-shoulder. Giovanna was fond of wandering about without any covering on
-her head, having a complexion which I suppose would not spoil, and
-loving the sun. And it suited her somehow to have the child on her
-shoulder, to toss him about, to the terror of all the household, in her
-strong, beautiful arms. I rather think it was because the household
-generally was frightened by this rough play, that Giovanna had taken to
-it; for she liked to shock them, not from malice, but from a sort of
-school-boy mischief. Little Jean, who had got over all his dislike to
-her, enjoyed his perch upon her shoulder; and it is impossible to tell
-how Herbert admired her, her strength, her quick, swift, easy movements,
-the lightness and grace with which she carried the boy, and all her
-gambols with him, in which a certain risk always mingled. He could not
-keep his eyes from her, and followed wherever she led, penetrating into
-rooms where, in his delicate boyhood, he had never been allowed to go.
-
-“I know myself in every part,” cried Giovanna gayly. “I have all
-visited, all seen, even where it is not safe. It is safe here, M.
-Herbert. Come then and look at the carvings, all close; they are
-beautiful when you are near.”
-
-They followed her about within and without, as if she had been the
-cicerone, though they had all known Whiteladies long before she had; and
-even Reine’s nascent suspicions were not able to stand before her frank
-energy and cordial ignorant talk. For she was quite ignorant, and made
-no attempt to conceal it.
-
-“Me, I love not at all what is so old,” she said with a laugh. “I prefer
-the smooth wall and the big window, and a floor well frotté, that
-shines. Wood that is all cut like the lace, what good does that do? and
-brick, that is nothing, that is common. I love stone châteaux, with much
-of window, and little tourelles at the top. But if you love the wood,
-and the brick, très bien! I know myself in all the little corners,” said
-Giovanna. And outside and in, it was she who led the way.
-
-Once again--and it was a thing which had repeatedly happened before
-this, notwithstanding the terror and oppression of her presence--Miss
-Susan was even grateful to Giovanna, who left her free to make all her
-arrangements, and amused and interested the new-comers, who were
-strangers in a sense, though to them belonged the house and everything
-in it; and I doubt if it had yet entered into her head that Giovanna’s
-society or her beauty involved any danger to Herbert. She was older than
-Herbert; she was “not a lady;” she was an intruder and alien, and
-nothing to the young people, though she might amuse them for the moment.
-The only danger Miss Susan saw in her was one tragic and terrible danger
-to herself, which she had determined for the moment not to think of. For
-everybody else she was harmless. So at least Miss Susan, with an
-inadvertence natural to her preoccupied mind, thought.
-
-And there were a great many arrangements to make for the great dinner,
-and many things besides that required looking after. However distinctly
-one has foreseen the necessities of a great crisis, yet it is only when
-it arrives that they acquire their due urgency. Miss Susan now, for
-almost the first time, felt the house she had secured at the other end
-of the village to be a reality. She felt at last that her preparations
-were real, that the existence in which for the last six months there had
-been much that was like a painful dream, had come out suddenly into the
-actual and certain, and that she had had a change to undergo not much
-unlike the change of death. Things that had been planned only, had to be
-done now--a difference which is wonderful--and the stir and commotion
-which had come into the house with the arrival of Herbert was the
-preface of a commotion still more serious. And as Miss Susan went about
-giving her orders, she tried to comfort herself with the thought that
-now at last Giovanna must go. There was no longer any pretence for her
-stay. Herbert had come home. She had and could have no claim upon Susan
-and Augustine Austin at the Grange, whatever claim she might have on the
-inmates of Whiteladies; nor could she transfer herself to the young
-people, and live with Herbert and Reine. Even she, though she was not
-reasonable, must see that now there was no further excuse for her
-presence--that she must go. Miss Susan settled in her mind the allowance
-she would offer her. It would be a kind of blackmail, blood money, the
-price of her secret; but better that than exposure. And then, Giovanna
-had not been disagreeable of late. Rather the reverse; she had tried, as
-she said, to show de l’amitiè. She had been friendly, cheerful, rather
-pleasant, in her strange way. Miss Susan, with a curious feeling for
-which she could not quite account, concluded with herself that she
-would not wish this creature, who had for so long belonged to her, as it
-were--who had been one of her family, though she was at the same time
-her enemy, her greatest trouble--to fall back unaided upon the shop at
-Bruges, where the people had not been kind to her. No; she would, she
-said to herself, be very thankful to get rid of Giovanna, but not to see
-her fall into misery and helplessness. She should have an income enough
-to keep her comfortable.
-
-This was a luxury which Miss Susan felt she could venture to give
-herself. She would provide for her persecutor, and get rid of her, and
-be free of the panic which now was before her night and day. This
-thought cheered her as she went about, superintending the hanging of the
-tapestry in the hall, which was only put there on grand occasions, and
-the building up of the old silver on the great oak buffet. Everything
-that Whiteladies could do in the way of splendor was to be exhibited
-to-night. There had been no feast when Herbert came of age, for indeed
-it had been like enough that his birthday might be his death day also.
-But now all these clouds had rolled away, and his future was clear. She
-paid a solemn visit to the cellar with Stevens to get out the best
-wines, her father’s old claret and Madeira, of which she had been so
-careful, saving it for Herbert; or if not for Herbert, for Everard, whom
-she had looked upon as her personal heir. Not a bottle of it should ever
-have gone to Farrel-Austin, the reader may be sure, though she was
-willing to feast him to-night, and give him of her best, to celebrate
-her triumph over him--a triumph which, thank heaven! was all innocent,
-not brought about by plotting or planning--God’s doing, and not hers.
-
-I will not attempt to describe all the company, the best people in that
-corner of Berkshire, who came from all points, through the roads which
-were white and sweet with May, to do honor to Herbert’s home-coming. It
-is too late in this history, and there is too much of more importance to
-tell you, to leave me room for those excellent people. Lord Kingsborough
-was there, and proposed Herbert’s health; and Sir Reginald Parke, and
-Sir Francis Rivers, and the Hon. Mr. Skindle, who married Lord
-Markinhead’s daughter, Lady Cordelia; and all the first company in the
-county, down to (or up to) the great China merchant who had bought St.
-Dunstan’s, once the property of a Howard. It is rare to see a
-dinner-party so large or so important, and still more rare to see such
-a room so filled. The old musicians’ gallery was put to its proper use
-for the first time for years; and now and then, not too often, a soft
-fluting and piping and fiddling came from the partial gloom, floating
-over the heads of the well-dressed crowd who sat at the long, splendid
-table, in a blaze of light and reflection, and silver, and crystal, and
-flowers.
-
-“I wish we could be in the gallery to see ourselves sitting here, in
-this great show,” Everard whispered to Reine as he passed her to his
-inferior place; for it was not permitted to Everard on this great
-occasion to hand in the young mistress of the house, in whose favor Miss
-Susan intended, after this night, to abdicate. Reine looked up with soft
-eyes to the dim corner in which the three used to scramble and rustle,
-and catch the oranges, and I fear thought more of this reminiscence than
-of what her companion said to her, who was ignorant of the old times.
-But, indeed, the show was worth seeing from the gallery, where old
-Martha, and young Jane, and the good French Julie, who had come with
-Reine, clustered in the children’s very corner, keeping out of sight
-behind the tapestry, and pointing out to each other the ladies and their
-fine dresses. The maids cared nothing about the gentlemen, but shook
-their heads over Sophy and Kate’s bare shoulders, and made notes of how
-the dresses were made. Julie communicated her views on the subject with
-an authority which her auditors received without question, for was not
-she French?--a large word, which takes in the wilds of Normandy as well
-as Paris, that centre of the civilized world.
-
-Herbert sat with his back to these eager watchers, at the foot of the
-table, taking his natural place for the first time, and half hidden by
-the voluminous robes of Lady Kingsborough and Lady Rivers. The pink
-_gros grain_ of one of those ladies and the gorgeous white _moire_ of
-the other dazzled the women in the gallery; but apart from such
-professional considerations, the scene was a charming one to look at,
-with the twinkle of the many lights, the brightness of the flowers and
-the dresses--the illuminated spot in the midst of the partial darkness
-of the old walls, all gorgeous with color, and movement, and the hum of
-sound. Miss Susan at the head of the table, in her old point lace,
-looked like a queen, Martha thought. It was her apotheosis, her climax,
-the concluding triumph--a sort of phœnix blaze with which she meant
-to end her life.
-
-The dinner was a gorgeous dinner, worthy the hall and the company; the
-wine, as I have said, old and rare; and everything went off to
-perfection. The Farrel-Austins, who were only relations, and not of
-first importance as county people, sat about the centre of the table,
-which was the least important place, and opposite to them was Giovanna,
-who had been put under the charge of old Dr. Richard, to keep her in
-order, a duty to which he devoted all his faculties. Everything went on
-perfectly well. The dinner proceeded solemnly, grandly, to its
-conclusion. Grace--that curious, ill-timed, after-dinner grace which
-comes just at the daintiest moment of the feast--was duly said; the
-fruits were being served, forced fruits of every procurable kind, one of
-the most costly parts of the entertainment at that season; and a general
-bustle of expectation prepared the way for those congratulatory and
-friendly speeches, welcomes of his great neighbors to the young Squire,
-which were the real objects of the assembly. Lord Kingsborough even had
-cleared his throat for the first time--a signal which his wife heard at
-the other end, and understood as an intimation that quietness was to be
-enforced, to which she replied by stopping, to set a good example, in
-the midst of a sentence. He cleared his throat again, the great man, and
-was almost on his legs. He was by Miss Susan’s side in the place of
-honor. He was a stout man, requiring some pulling up after dinner when
-his chair was comfortable--and he had actually put forth one foot, and
-made his first effort to rise, for the third time clearing his throat.
-
-When--an interruption occurred never to be forgotten in the annals of
-Whiteladies. Suddenly there was heard a patter of small feet, startling
-the company; and suddenly a something, a pygmy, a tiny figure, made
-itself visible in the centre of the table. It stood up beside a great
-pyramid of flowers, a living decoration, with a little flushed rose-face
-and flaxen curls showing above the mass of greenery. The great people at
-the head and the foot of the table stood breathless during the commotion
-and half-scuffle in the centre of the room which attended this sudden
-apparition. “What is it?” everybody asked. After that first moment of
-excited curiosity, it became apparent that it was a child who had been
-suddenly lifted by some one into that prominent place. The little
-creature stood still a moment, frightened; then, audibly prompted, woke
-to its duty. It plucked from its small head a small velvet cap with a
-white feather, and gave forth its tiny shout, which rang into the
-echoes.
-
-“Vive M. ’Erbert! vive M. ’Erbert!” cried little Jean, turning round and
-round, and waving his cap on either side of him. Vague excitement and
-delight, and sense of importance, and hopes of sugar-plums, inspired the
-child. He gave forth his little shout with his whole heart, his blue
-eyes dancing, his little cheeks flushed; and I leave the reader to
-imagine what a sensation little Jean’s unexpected appearance, and still
-more unexpected shout, produced in the decorous splendor of the great
-hall.
-
-“Who is it?” “What is it?” “What does it mean?” “Who is the child?”
-“What does he say?” cried everybody. There got up such a commotion and
-flutter as dispersed in a moment the respectful silence which had been
-preparing for Lord Kingsborough. Every guest appealed to his or her
-neighbor for information, and--except the very few too well-informed,
-like Dr. Richard, who guilty and self-reproachful, asking himself how he
-could have prevented it, and what he should say to Miss Susan, sat
-silent, incapable of speech--every one sent back the question. Giovanna,
-calm and radiant, alone replied, “It is the next who will succeed,” she
-cried, sending little rills of knowledge on either side of her. “It is
-Jean Austin, the little heir.”
-
-Lord Kingsborough was taken aback, as was natural; but he was a
-good-natured man, and fond of children. “God bless us!” he said. “Miss
-Austin, you don’t mean to tell me the boy’s married, and that’s his
-heir?”
-
-“It is the next of kin,” said Miss Susan, with white lips; “no more
-_his_ heir than I am, but _the_ heir, if Herbert had not lived. Lord
-Kingsborough, you will forgive the interruption; you will not disappoint
-us. He is no more Herbert’s heir than I am!” again she cried, with a
-shiver of agitation.
-
-It was the Hon. Mr. Skindle who supported her on the other side; and
-having heard that there was madness in the Austin family, that gentleman
-was afraid. “‘Gad, she looked as if she would murder somebody,” he
-confided afterward to the friend who drove him home.
-
-“Not _his_ heir, but _the_ heir,” said Lord Kingsborough,
-good-humoredly, “a fine distinction!” and as he was a kind soul, he made
-another prodigious effort, and got himself out of his seat. He made a
-very friendly, nice little speech, saying that the very young gentleman
-who preceded him had indeed taken the wind out of his sails, and
-forestalled what he had to say; but that, nevertheless, as an old
-neighbor and family friend, he desired to echo in honest English, and
-with every cordial sentiment, their little friend’s effective speech,
-and to wish to Herbert Austin, now happily restored to his home in
-perfect health and vigor, everything, etc.
-
-He went on to tell the assembly what they knew very well; that he had
-known Herbert’s father and grandfather, and had the happiness of a long
-acquaintance with the admirable ladies who had so long represented the
-name of Austin among them; and to each he gave an appropriate
-compliment. In short, his speech composed the disturbed assembly, and
-brought everything back to the judicious level of a great dinner; and
-Herbert made his reply with modest self-possession, and the course of
-affairs, momentarily interrupted, flowed on again according to the
-programme. But in the centre of the table, where the less important
-people sat, Giovanna and the child were the centre of attraction. She
-caught every one’s eye, now that attention had been called to her. After
-he had made the necessary sensation, she took little Jean down from the
-table, and set him on the carpet, where he ran from one to another,
-collecting the offerings which every one was ready to give him. Sophy
-and Kate got hold of him in succession, and crammed him with bonbons,
-while their father glared at the child across the table. He made his way
-even so far as Lord Kingsborough, who took him on his knee and patted
-his curly head. “But the little chap should be in bed,” said the kind
-potentate, who had a great many of his own. Jean escaped a moment after,
-and ran behind the chairs in high excitement to the next who called him.
-It was only when the ladies left the room that Giovanna caught him, and
-swinging him up to her white shoulder, which was not half so much
-uncovered as Kate’s and Sophy’s, carried him away triumphant, shouting
-once more “Vive M. ’Erbert!” from that eminence, as he finally
-disappeared at the great door.
-
-This was Giovanna’s first appearance in public, but it was a memorable
-one. Poor old Dr. Richard, half weeping, secured Everard as soon as the
-ladies were gone, and poured his pitiful story into his ears.
-
-“What could I do, Mr. Austin?” cried the poor little, pretty old
-gentleman. “She took him up before I could think what she was going to
-do; and you cannot use violence to a lady, sir, you cannot use violence,
-especially on a festive occasion like this. I should have been obliged
-to restrain her forcibly, if at all, and what could I do?”
-
-“I am sure you did everything that was necessary,” said Everard, with a
-smile. She was capable of setting Dr. Richard himself on the table, if
-it had served her purpose, instead of being restrained by him, was what
-he thought.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XL.
-
-
-The evening came to an end at last. The great people went first, as
-became them, filling the rural roads with the ponderous rumble of their
-great carriages and gleam of their lamps. The whole neighborhood was
-astir. A little crowd of village people had collected round the gates to
-see the ladies in their fine dresses, and to catch the distant echo of
-the festivities. There was quite an excitement among them, as carriage
-after carriage rolled away. The night was soft and warm and light, the
-moon invisible, but yet shedding from behind the clouds a subdued
-lightness into the atmosphere. As the company dwindled, and ceremony
-diminished, a group gradually collected in the great porch, and at last
-this group dwindled to the family party and the Farrel-Austins, who were
-the last to go away. This was by no means the desire of their father,
-who had derived little pleasure from the entertainment. None of those
-ulterior views which Kate and Sophy had discussed so freely between
-themselves had been communicated to their father, and he saw nothing but
-the celebration of his own downfall, and the funeral of his hopes, in
-this feast, which was all to the honor of Herbert. Consequently, he had
-been eager to get away at the earliest moment possible, and would even
-have preceded Lord Kingsborough, could he have moved his daughters, who
-did not share his feelings. On the contrary, the display which they had
-just witnessed had produced a very sensible effect upon Kate and Sophy.
-They were very well off, but they did not possess half the riches of
-Whiteladies; and the grandeur of the stately old hall, and the
-importance of the party, impressed these young women of the world.
-Sophy, who was the younger, was naturally the less affected; but Kate,
-now five-and-twenty, and beginning to perceive very distinctly that all
-is vanity, was more moved than I can say. In the intervals of livelier
-intercourse, and especially during that moment in the drawing-room when
-the gentlemen were absent--a moment pleasing in its calm to the milder
-portion of womankind, but which fast young ladies seldom endure with
-patience--Kate made pointed appeals to her sister’s proper feelings.
-
-“If you let all this slip through your fingers, I shall despise you,”
-she said with vehemence.
-
-“Go in for it yourself, then,” whispered the bold Sophy; “I shan’t
-object.”
-
-But even Sophy was impressed. Her first interest, Lord Alf, had
-disappeared long ago, and had been succeeded by others, all very willing
-to amuse themselves and her, as much as she pleased, but all
-disappearing in their turn to the regions above, or the regions below,
-equally out of Sophy’s reach, whom circumstances shut out from the
-haunts of blacklegs and sporting men, as well as from the upper world,
-to which the Lord Alfs of creation belong by nature. Still it was not in
-Sophy’s nature to be so wise as Kate. She was not tired of amusing
-herself, and had not begun yet to pursue her gayeties with a definite
-end. Sophy told her friends quite frankly that her sister was “on the
-look-out.” “She has had her fun, and she wants to settle down,” the
-younger said with admirable candor, to the delight and much amusement of
-her audiences from the Barracks. For this these gentlemen well knew,
-though both reasonable and virtuous in a man, is not so easily managed
-in the case of a lady. “By Jove! I shouldn’t wonder if she did,” was
-their generous comment. “She has had her fun, by Jove! and who does she
-suppose would have _her_?” Yet the best of girls, and the freshest and
-sweetest, do have these heroes, after a great deal more “fun” than ever
-could have been within the reach of Kate; for there are disabilities of
-women which cannot be touched by legislation, and to which the most
-strong-minded must submit.
-
-However, Sophy and Kate, as I have said, were both moved to exertion by
-this display of all the grandeur of Whiteladies. They kept their father
-fuming and fretting outside, while they lingered in the porch with Reine
-and Herbert. The whole youthful party was there, including Everard and
-Giovanna, who had at last permitted poor little Jean to be put to bed,
-but who was still excited by her demonstration, and the splendid
-company of which she had formed a part.
-
-“How they are dull, these great ladies!” she cried; “but not more dull
-than ces messieurs, who thought I was mad. Mon Dieu! because I was happy
-about M. ’Erbert, and that he had come home.”
-
-“It was very grand of you to be glad,” cried Sophy. “Bertie, you have
-gone and put everybody out. Why did you get well, sir? Papa pretends to
-be pleased, too, but he would like to give you strychnine or something.
-Oh, it wouldn’t do us any good, we are only girls; and I think you have
-a better right than papa.”
-
-“Thanks for taking my part,” said Herbert, who was a little uncertain
-how to take this very frank address. A man seldom thinks his own
-problematical death an amusing incident; but still he felt that to laugh
-was the right thing to do.
-
-“Oh, of course we take your part,” cried Sophy. “We expect no end of fun
-from you, now you’ve come back. I am so sick of all those Barrack
-parties; but you will always have something going on, won’t you? And
-Reine, you must ask us. How delicious a dance would be in the hall!
-Bertie, remember you are to go to Ascot with _us_; you are _our_ cousin,
-not any one else’s. When one is related to the hero of the moment, one
-is not going to let one’s glory drop. Promise, Bertie! you go with us?”
-
-“I am quite willing, if you want me,” said Herbert.
-
-“Oh, if we want you!--of course we want you--we want you always,” cried
-Sophy. “Why, you are the lion; we are proud of you. We shall want to let
-everybody see that you don’t despise your poor relations, that you
-remember we are your cousins, and used to play with you. Don’t you
-recollect, Bertie? Kate and Reine used to be the friends always, because
-they were the steadiest; and you and me--we were the ones who got into
-scrapes,” cried Sophy. This, to tell the truth, was a very rash
-statement; for Herbert, always delicate, had not been in the habit of
-getting into scrapes. But all the more for this, he was pleased with the
-idea.
-
-“Yes,” he said half doubtfully, “I recollect;” but his recollections
-were not clear enough to enter into details.
-
-“Come, let us get into a scrape again,” cried Sophy; “it is such a
-lovely night. Let us send the carriage on in front, and walk. Come with
-us, won’t you? After a party, it is so pleasant to have a walk; and we
-have been such swells to-night. Come, Bertie, let’s run on, and bring
-ourselves down.”
-
-“Sophy, you madcap! I daresay the night air is not good for him,” said
-Kate.
-
-Upon which Sophy broke forth into the merriest laughter. “As if Bertie
-cared for the night air! Why, he looks twice as strong as any of us.
-Will you come?”
-
-“With all my heart,” said Herbert; “it is the very thing after such a
-tremendous business as Aunt Susan’s dinner. This is not the kind of
-entertainment I mean to give. We shall leave the swells, as you say, to
-take care of themselves.”
-
-“And ask me!” said bold Sophy, running out into the moonlight, which
-just then got free of the clouds. She was in high spirits, and pleased
-with the decided beginning she had made. In her white dress, with her
-white shoes twinkling over the dark cool greenness of the grass, she
-looked like a fairy broken forth from the woods. “Who will run a race
-with me to the end of the lane?” she cried, pirouetting round and round
-the lawn. How pretty she was, how gay, how light-hearted--a madcap, as
-her sister said, who stood in the shadow of the porch laughing, and bade
-Sophy recollect that she would ruin her shoes.
-
-“And you can’t run in high heels,” said Kate.
-
-“Can’t I?” cried Sophy. “Come, Bertie, come.” They nearly knocked down
-Mr. Farrel-Austin, who stood outside smoking his cigar, and swearing
-within himself, as they rushed out through the little gate. The carriage
-was proceeding abreast, its lamps making two bright lines of light along
-the wood, the coachman swearing internally as much as his master. The
-others followed more quietly--Kate, Reine, and Everard. Giovanna,
-yawning, had withdrawn some time before.
-
-“Sophy, really, is too great a romp,” said Kate; “she is always after
-some nonsense; and now we shall never be able to overtake them, to talk
-to Bertie about coming to the Hatch. Reine, you must settle it. We do so
-want you to come; consider how long it is since we have seen you, and of
-course everybody wants to see you; so unless we settle at once, we shall
-miss our chance--Everard too. We have been so long separated; and
-perhaps,” said Kate, dropping her voice, “papa may have been
-disagreeable; but that don’t make any difference to us. Say when you
-will come; we are all cousins together, and we ought to be friends. What
-a blessing when there are no horrible questions of property between
-people!” said Kate, who had so much sense. “_Now_ it don’t matter to any
-one, except for friendship, who is next of kin.”
-
-“Bertie has won,” said Sophy, calling out to them. “Fancy! I thought I
-was sure, such a short distance; men can stay better than we can,” said
-the well-informed young woman; “but for a little bit like this, the girl
-ought to win.”
-
-“Since you have come back, let us settle about when they are to come,”
-said Kate; and then there ensued a lively discussion. They clustered all
-together at the end of the lane, in the clear space where there were no
-shadowing trees--the two young men acting as shadows, the girls all
-distinct in their pretty light dresses, which the moon whitened and
-brightened. The consultation was very animated, and diversified by much
-mirth and laughter, Sophy being wild, as she said, with excitement, with
-the stimulation of the race, and of the night air and the freedom.
-“After a grand party of swells, where one has to behave one’s self,” she
-said, “one always goes wild.” And she fell to waltzing about the party.
-Everard was the only one of them who had any doubt as to the reality of
-Sophy’s madcap mood; the others accepted it with the naive confidence of
-innocence. They said to each other, what a merry girl she was! when at
-last, moved by Mr. Farrel-Austin’s sulks and the determination of the
-coachman, the girls permitted themselves to be placed in the carriage.
-“Recollect Friday!” they both cried, kissing Reine, and giving the most
-cordial pressure of the hand to Herbert. The three who were left stood
-and looked after the carriage as it set off along the moonlit road.
-Reine had taken her brother’s arm. She gave Everard no opportunity to
-resume that interrupted conversation on board the steamboat. And Kate
-and Sophy had not been at all attentive to their cousin, who was quite
-as nearly related to them as Bertie, so that if he was slightly
-misanthropical and inclined to find fault, it can scarcely be said that
-he had no justification. They all strolled along together slowly,
-enjoying the soft evening and the suppressed moonlight, which was now
-dim again, struggling faintly through a mysterious labyrinth of cloud.
-
-“I had forgotten what nice girls they were,” said Herbert; “Sophy
-especially; so kind and so genial and unaffected. How foolish one is
-when one is young! I don’t think I liked them, even, when we were last
-here.”
-
-“They are sometimes too kind,” said Everard, shrugging his shoulders;
-but neither of the others took any notice of what he said.
-
-“One is so much occupied with one’s self when one is young,” said
-middle-aged Reine, already over twenty, and feeling all the advantages
-which age bestows.
-
-“Do you think it is that?” said Herbert. He was much affected by the
-cordiality of his cousins, and moved by many concurring causes to a
-certain sentimentality of mind; and he was not indisposed for a little
-of that semi-philosophical talk which sounds so elevating and so
-improving at his age.
-
-“Yes,” said Reine, with confidence; “one is so little sure of one’s
-self, one is always afraid of having done amiss; things you say sound so
-silly when you think them over. I blush sometimes now when I am quite
-alone to think how silly I must have seemed; and that prevents you doing
-justice to others; but I like Kate best.”
-
-“And I like Sophy best. She has no nonsense about her; she is so frank
-and so simple. Which is Everard for? On the whole, there is no doubt
-about it, English girls have a something, a je ne sais quoi--”
-
-“I can’t give any opinion,” said Everard laughing. “After your visit to
-the Hatch you will be able to decide. And have you thought what Aunt
-Susan will say, within the first week, almost before you have been seen
-at home?”
-
-“By Jove! I forgot Aunt Susan!” cried Herbert with a sudden pause; then
-he laughed, trying to feel the exquisite fun of asking Aunt Susan’s
-permission, while they were so independent of her; but this scarcely
-answered just at first. “Of course,” he added, with an attempt at
-self-assertion, “one cannot go on consulting Aunt Susan’s opinion
-forever.”
-
-“But the first week!” Everard had all the delight of mischief in making
-them feel the subordination in which they still stood in spite of
-themselves. He went on laughing. “I would not say anything about it
-to-night. She is not half pleased with Madame Jean, as they call her. I
-hope Madame Jean has been getting it hot. Everything went off perfectly
-well by a miracle, but that woman as nearly spoiled it by her nonsense
-and her boy--”
-
-“Whom do you call that woman?” said Herbert coldly. “I think Madame Jean
-did just what a warm-hearted person would do. She did not wait for mere
-ceremony or congratulations prearranged. For my part,” said Herbert
-stiffly, “I never admired any one so much. She is the most beautiful,
-glorious creature!”
-
-“There was no one there so pretty,” said innocent Reine.
-
-“Pretty! she is not pretty: she is splendid! she is beautiful! By Jove!
-to see her with her arm raised, and that child on her shoulder--it’s
-like a picture! If you will laugh,” said Herbert pettishly, “don’t laugh
-in that offensive way! What have they done to you, and why are you so
-disagreeable to-night?”
-
-“Am I disagreeable?” said Everard laughing again. It was all he could do
-to keep from being angry, and he felt this was the safest way. “Perhaps
-it is that I am more enlightened than you youngsters. However beautiful
-a woman may be (and I don’t deny she’s very handsome), I can see when
-she’s playing a part.”
-
-“What part is she playing?” cried Herbert hotly. Reine was half
-frightened by his vehemence, and provoked as he was by Everard’s
-disdainful tone; but she pressed her brother’s arm to restrain him,
-fearful of a quarrel, as girls are so apt to be.
-
-“I suppose you will say we are all playing our parts; and so we are,”
-said Reine. “Bertie, you have been the hero to-night, and we are all
-your satellites for the moment. Come in quick, it feels chilly. I don’t
-suppose even Everard would say Sophy was playing a part, except her
-natural one,” she added with a laugh.
-
-Everard was taken by surprise. He echoed her laugh with all the
-imbecility of astonishment. “You believe in them too,” he said to her in
-an aside, then added, “No, only her natural part,” with a tone which
-Herbert found as offensive as the other. Herbert himself was in a state
-of flattered self-consciousness which made him look upon every word said
-against his worshippers as an assault upon himself. Perhaps the lad
-being younger than his years, was still at the age when a boy is more in
-love with himself than any one else, and loves others according to their
-appreciation of that self which bulks so largely in his own eyes.
-Giovanna’s homage to him, and Sophy’s enthusiasm of cousinship, and the
-flattering look in all these fine eyes, had intoxicated Herbert. He
-could not but feel that they were above all criticism, these young, fair
-women, who did such justice to his own excellences. As for any
-suggestion that their regard for him was not genuine, it was as great an
-insult to him as to them, and brought him down, in the most humbling
-way, from the pedestal on which they had elevated him. Reine’s hand
-patting softly on his arm kept him silent, but he felt that he could
-knock down Everard with pleasure, and fumes of anger and self-exaltation
-mounted into his head.
-
-“Don’t quarrel, Bertie,” Reine whispered in his ear.
-
-“Quarrel! he is not worth quarrelling with. He is jealous, I suppose,
-because I am more important than he is,” Herbert said, stalking through
-the long passages which were still all bright with lights and flowers.
-Everard, hanging back out of hearing, followed the two young figures
-with his eyes through the windings of the passage. Herbert held his head
-high, indignant. Reine, with both her hands on his arm, soothed and
-calmed him. They were both resentful of his sour tone and what he had
-said.
-
-“I dare say they think I am jealous,” Everard said to himself with a
-laugh that was not merry, and went away to his own room, and beginning
-to arrange his things for departure, meaning to leave next day. He had
-no need to stay there to swell Herbert’s triumph, he who had so long
-acted as nurse to him without fee or reward. Not quite without reward
-either, he thought, after all, rebuking himself, and held up his hand
-and looked at it intently, with a smile stealing over his face. Why
-should he interfere to save Herbert from his own vanity and folly? Why
-should he subject himself to the usual fate of Mentors, pointing out
-Scylla on the one side and Charybdis on the other? If the frail vessel
-was determined to be wrecked, what had he, Everard, to do with it? Let
-the boy accomplish his destiny, who cared? and then what could Reine do
-but take refuge with her natural champion, he whom she herself had
-appointed to stand in her place, and who had his own score against her
-still unacquitted? It was evidently to his interest to keep out of the
-way, to let things go as they would. “And I’ll back Giovanna against
-Sophy,” he said to himself, half jealous, half laughing, as he went to
-sleep.
-
-As for Herbert, he lounged into the great hall, where some lights were
-still burning, with his sister, and found Miss Susan there, pale with
-fatigue and the excitement past but triumphant. “I hope you have not
-tired yourself out,” she said. “It was like those girls to lead you out
-into the night air, to give you a chance of taking cold. Their father
-would like nothing better than to see you laid up again: but I don’t
-give them credit for any scheme. They are too feather-brained for
-anything but folly.”
-
-“Do you mean our cousins Sophy and Kate?” said Herbert with some
-solemnity, and an unconscious attempt to overawe Miss Susan, who was not
-used to anything of this kind, and was unable to understand what he
-meant.
-
-“I mean the Farrel-Austin girls,” she said. “Riot and noise and nonsense
-are their atmosphere. I hope you do not like this kind of goings on,
-Reine?”
-
-The brother and sister looked at each other. “You have always disliked
-the Farrel-Austins,” said Herbert, bravely putting himself in the
-breach. “I don’t know why, Aunt Susan. But we have no quarrel with the
-girls. They are very nice and friendly. Indeed, Reine and I have
-promised to go to them on Friday, for two or three days.”
-
-He was three and twenty, he was acknowledged master of the house; but
-Herbert felt a certain tremor steal over him, and stood up before her
-with a strong sense of valor and daring as he said these words.
-
-“Going to them on Friday--to the Farrel-Austins’ for three or four days!
-then you do not mean even to go to your own parish church on your first
-Sunday? Herbert,” said Miss Susan, indignantly, “you will break
-Augustine’s heart.”
-
-“No, no, we did not say three or four days. I thought of that,” said
-Reine. “We shall return on Saturday. Don’t be angry, Aunt Susan. They
-were very kind, and we thought it was no harm.”
-
-Herbert gave her an indignant glance. It was on his lips to say, “It
-does not matter whether Aunt Susan is angry or not,” but looking at her,
-he thought better of it. “Yes,” he said after a pause, “we shall return
-on Saturday. They were very kind, as Reine says, and how visiting our
-cousins could possibly involve any harm--”
-
-“That is your own affair,” said Miss Susan; “I know what you mean,
-Herbert, and of course you are right, you are not children any longer,
-and must choose your own friends; well! Before you go, however, I should
-like to settle everything. To-night is my last night. Yes, it is too
-late to discuss that now. I don’t mean to say more at present. It went
-off very well, very pleasantly, but for that ridiculous interruption of
-Giovanna’s--”
-
-“I did not think it was ridiculous,” said Herbert. “It was very pretty.
-Does Giovanna displease you too?”
-
-Once more Reine pressed his arm. He was not always going to be coerced
-like this. If Miss Susan wants to be unjust and ungenerous, he was man
-enough, he felt, to meet her to the face.
-
-“It was very ridiculous, I thought,” she said with a sigh, “and I told
-her so. I don’t suppose she meant any harm. She is very ignorant, and
-knows nothing about the customs of society. Thank heaven, she can’t stay
-very long now.”
-
-“Why can’t she stay?” cried Herbert, alarmed. “Aunt Susan, I don’t know
-what has come over you. You used to be so kind to everybody, but now it
-is the people I particularly like you are so furious against. Why? those
-girls, who are as pretty and as pleasant as possible, and just the kind
-of companions Reine wants, and Madame Jean, who is the most charming
-person I ever saw in this house. Ignorant! I think she is very
-accomplished. How she sang last night, and what an eye she has for the
-picturesque! I never admired Whiteladies so much as this morning, when
-she took us over it. Aunt Susan, don’t be so cross. Are you disappointed
-in Reine, or in me, that you are so hard upon the people we like most?”
-
-“The people you like most?” cried Miss Susan aghast.
-
-“Yes, Aunt Susan, I like them too,” said Reine, bravely putting herself
-by her brother’s side. I believe they both thought it was a most
-chivalrous and high-spirited thing they were doing, rejecting experience
-and taking rashly what seemed to them the weaker side. The side of the
-accused against the judge, the side of the young against the old. It
-seemed so natural to do that. The two stood together in their
-foolishness in the old hall, all decorated in their honor, and
-confronted the dethroned queen of it with a smile. She stood baffled and
-thunderstruck, gazing at them, and scarcely knew what to say.
-
-“Well, children, well,” she managed to get out at last. “You are no
-longer under me, you must choose your own friends; but God help you,
-what is to become of you if these are the kind of people you like best!”
-
-They both laughed softly; though Reine had compunctions, they were not
-afraid. “You must confess at least that we have good taste,” said
-Herbert; “two very pretty people, and one beautiful. I should have been
-much happier with Sophy at one hand and Madame Jean on the other,
-instead of those two swells, as Sophy calls them.”
-
-“Sophy, as you call her, would give her head for their notice,” cried
-Miss Susan indignant, “two of the best women in the county, and the most
-important families.”
-
-Herbert shrugged his shoulders. “They did not amuse me,” he said, “but
-perhaps I am stupid. I prefer the foolish Sophy and the undaunted Madame
-Jean.”
-
-Miss Susan left them with a cold good-night to see all the lights put
-out, which was important in the old house. She was so angry that it
-almost eased her of her personal burden; but Reine, I confess, felt a
-thrill of panic as she went up the oak stairs. Scylla and Charybdis! She
-did not identify Herbert’s danger, but in her heart there worked a vague
-premonition of danger, and without knowing why, she was afraid.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLI.
-
-
-“Going away?” said Giovanna. “M. ’Erbert, you go away already? is it
-that Viteladies is what you call dull? You have been here so short of
-time, you do not yet know.”
-
-“We are going only for a day; at least not quite two days,” said Reine.
-
-“For a day! but a day, two days is long. Why go at all?” said Giovanna.
-“We are very well here. I will sing, if that pleases, to you. M.
-’Erbert, when you are so long absent, you should not go away to-morrow,
-the next day. Madame Suzanne will think, ‘They lofe me not.’”
-
-“That would be nonsense,” said Herbert; “besides, you know I cannot be
-kept in one place at my age, whatever old ladies may think.”
-
-“Ah! nor young ladies neither,” said Giovanna. “You are homme, you have
-the freedom to do what you will, I know it. Me, I am but a woman, I can
-never have this freedom; but I comprehend and I admire. Yes, M. ’Erbert,
-that goes without saying. One does not put the eagle into a cage.”
-
-And Giovanna gave a soft little sigh. She was seated in one of her
-favorite easy chairs, thrown back in it in an attitude of delicious easy
-repose. She had no mind for the work with which Reine employed herself,
-and which all the women Herbert ever knew had indulged in, to his
-annoyance, and often envy; for an invalid’s weary hours would have been
-the better often of such feminine solace, and the young man hated it all
-the more that he had often been tempted to take to it, had his pride
-permitted. But Giovanna had no mind for this pretty cheat, that looked
-like occupation. In her own room she worked hard at her own dresses and
-those of the child, but downstairs she sat with her large, shapely white
-hands in her lap, in all the luxury of doing nothing; and this
-peculiarity delighted Herbert. He was pleased, too, with what she said;
-he liked to imagine that he was an eagle who could not be shut into a
-cage, and to feel his immense superiority, as man, over the women who
-were never free to do as they liked, and for whom (he thought) such an
-indulgence would not be good. He drew himself up unconsciously, and felt
-older, taller. “No,” he said, “of course it would be too foolish of Aunt
-Susan or any one to expect me to be guided by what she thinks right.”
-
-“Me, I do not speak for you,” said Giovanna; “I speak for myself. I am
-disappointed, me. It will be dull when you are gone. Yes, yes, Monsieur
-’Erbert, we are selfish, we other women. When you go we are dull; we
-think not of you, but of ourselves, n’est ce pas, Mademoiselle Reine? I
-am frank. I confess it. You will be very happy; you will have much
-pleasure; but me, I shall be dull. Voilà tout!”
-
-I need not say that this frankness captivated Herbert. It is always more
-pleasant to have our absence regretted by others, selfishly, for the
-loss it is to them, than unselfishly on our account only; so that this
-profession of indifference to the pleasure of your departing friend, in
-consideration of the loss to yourself, is the very highest compliment
-you can pay him. Herbert felt this to the bottom of his heart. He was
-infinitely flattered and touched by the thought of a superiority so
-delightful, and he had not been used to it. He had been accustomed,
-indeed, to be in his own person the centre of a great deal of care and
-anxiety, everybody thinking of him for his sake; but to have it
-recognized that his presence or absence made a place dull or the
-reverse, and affected his surroundings, not for his sake but theirs, was
-an immense rise in the world to Herbert. He felt it necessary to be very
-friendly and attentive to Giovanna, by way of consoling her. “After all,
-it will not be very long,” he said; “from Friday morning to Saturday
-night. I like to humor the old ladies, and they make a point of our
-being at home for Sunday; though I don’t know how Sophy and Kate will
-like it, Reine.”
-
-“They will not like it at all,” said Giovanna. “They want you to be to
-them, to amuse them, to make them happy; so do I, the same. When they
-come here, those young ladies, we shall not be friends; we shall fight,”
-she said with a laugh. “Ah, they are more clever than me, they will win;
-though if we could fight with the hands like men, I should win. I am
-more strong.”
-
-“It need not come so far as that,” said Herbert, complaisant and
-delighted. “You are all very kind, I am sure, and think more of me than
-I deserve.”
-
-“I am kind--to me, not to you, M. ’Erbert,” said Giovanna; “when I tell
-you it is dull, dull à mourir the moment you go away.”
-
-“Yet you have spent a good many months here without Herbert, Madame
-Jean,” said Reine; “if it had been so dull, you might have gone away.”
-
-“Ah, mademoiselle! where could I have gone to? I am not rich like you; I
-have not parents that love me. If I go home now,” cried Giovanna, with a
-laugh, “it will be to the room behind the shop where my belle-mère sits
-all the day, where they cook the dinner, where I am the one that is in
-the way, always. I have no money, no people to care for me. Even little
-Jean they take from me. They say, ‘Tenez Gi’vanna; she has not the ways
-of children.’ Have not I the ways of children, M. ’Erbert? That is what
-they would say to me, if I went to what you call ’ome.”
-
-“Reine,” said Herbert, in an undertone, “how can you be so cruel,
-reminding the poor thing how badly off she is? I hope you will not think
-of going away,” he added, turning to Giovanna. “Reine and I will be too
-glad that you should stay; and as for your flattering appreciation of
-our society, I for one am very grateful,” said the young fellow. “I am
-very happy to be able to do anything to make Whiteladies pleasant to
-you.”
-
-Miss Susan came in as he said this with Everard, who was going away; but
-she was too much preoccupied by her own cares to attend to what her
-nephew was saying. Everard appreciated the position more clearly. He saw
-the grateful look with which Giovanna turned her beautiful eyes to the
-young master of the house, and he saw the pleased vanity and
-complaisance in Herbert’s face. “What an ass he is!” Everard thought to
-himself; and then he quoted privately with rueful comment,--
-
- “‘On him each courtier’s eye was bent,
- To him each lady’s look was lent:’
-
-all because the young idiot has Whiteladies, and is the head of the
-house. Bravo! Herbert, old boy,” he said aloud, though there was nothing
-particularly appropriate in the speech, “you are having your innings. I
-hope you will make the most of them. But now that I am no longer wanted,
-I am going off. I suppose when it is warm enough for water parties, I
-shall come into fashion again; Sophy and Kate will manage that.”
-
-“Well, Everard, if I were you I should have more pride,” said Miss
-Susan. “I would not allow myself to be taken up and thrown aside as
-those girls please. What you can see in them baffles me. They are not
-very pretty. They are very loud, and fast and noisy--”
-
-“I think so too!” cried Giovanna, clapping her hands. “They are my
-enemies: they take you away, M. ’Erbert and Mademoiselle Reine. They
-make it dull here.”
-
-“Only for a day,” said Herbert, bending over her, his eyes melting and
-glowing with that delightful suffusion of satisfied vanity which with so
-many men represents love. “I could not stay long away if I would,” said
-the young man in a lower tone. He was quite captivated by her frank
-demonstrations of personal loss, and believed them to the bottom of his
-heart.
-
-Miss Susan threw a curious, half-startled look at them, and Reine raised
-her head from her embroidery; but both of these ladies had something of
-their own on their minds which occupied them, and closed their eyes to
-other matters. Reine was secretly uneasy that Everard should go away;
-that there should have been no explanation between them; and that his
-tone had in it a certain suppressed bitterness. What had she done to
-him? Nothing. She had been occupied with her brother, as was natural;
-any one else would have been the same. Everard’s turn could come at any
-time, she said to herself, with an unconscious arrogance not unusual
-with girls, when they are sure of having the upper hand. But she was
-uneasy that he should go away.
-
-“I don’t want to interfere with your pleasures, Herbert,” said Miss
-Susan, “but I must settle what I am to do. Our cottage is ready for us,
-everything is arranged; and I want to give up my charge to you, and go
-away.”
-
-“To go away!” the brother and sister repeated together with dismay.
-
-“Of course; that is what it must come to. When you were under age it was
-different. I was your guardian, Herbert, and you were my children.”
-
-“Aunt Susan,” cried Reine, coming up to her with eager tenderness, “we
-are your children still.”
-
-“And I--am not at all sure whether it will suit me to take up all you
-have been doing,” said Herbert. “It suits you, why should we change; and
-how could Reine manage the house? Aunt Susan, it is unkind to come down
-upon us like this. Leave us a little time to get used to it. What do you
-want with a cottage? Of course you must like Whiteladies best.”
-
-“Oh, Aunt Susan! what he says is not so selfish as it sounds,” said
-Reine. “Why--why should you go?”
-
-“We are all selfish,” said Herbert, “as Madame Jean says. She wishes us
-to stay because it is dull without us (‘Bien, très dull,’ said
-Giovanna), and we want you to stay because we are not up to the work and
-don’t understand it. Never mind the cottage; there is plenty of room in
-Whiteladies for all of us. Aunt Susan, why should you be disagreeable?
-Don’t go away.”
-
-“I wish it; I wish it,” she said in a low tone; “let me go!”
-
-“But we don’t wish it,” cried Reine, kissing her in triumph, “and
-neither does Augustine. Oh, Aunt Austine, listen to her, speak for us!
-You don’t wish to go away from Whiteladies, away from your home?”
-
-“No,” said Augustine, who had come in in her noiseless way. “I do not
-intend to leave Whiteladies,” she went on, with serious composure; “but
-Herbert, I have something to say to you. It is more important than
-anything else. You must marry; you must marry at once; I don’t wish any
-time to be lost. I wish you to have an heir, whom I shall bring up. I
-will devote myself to him. I am fifty-seven; there is no time to be
-lost; but with care I might live twenty years. The women of our house
-are long-lived. Susan is sixty, but she is as active as any one of you;
-and for an object like this, one would spare no pains to lengthen one’s
-days. You must marry, Herbert. This has now become the chief object of
-my life.”
-
-The young members of the party, unable to restrain themselves, laughed
-at this solemn address. Miss Susan turned away impatient, and sitting
-down, pulled out the knitting of which lately she had done so little.
-But as for Augustine, her countenance preserved a perfect gravity. She
-saw nothing laughable in it. “I excuse you,” she said very seriously,
-“for you cannot see into my heart and read what is there. Nor does Susan
-understand me. She is taken up with the cares of this world and the
-foolishness of riches. She thinks a foolish display like that of last
-night is more important. But, Herbert, listen to me; you and your true
-welfare have been my first thought and my first prayer for years, and
-this is my recommendation, my command to you. You must marry--and
-without any unnecessary delay.”
-
-“But the lady?” said Herbert, laughing and blushing; even this very odd
-address had a pleasurable element in it. It implied the importance of
-everything he did; and it pleased the young man, even after such an odd
-fashion, to lay this flattering unction to his soul.
-
-“The lady!” said Miss Augustine gravely; and then she made a pause. “I
-have thought a great deal about that, and there is more than one whom I
-could suggest to you; but I have never married myself, and I might not
-perhaps be a good judge. It seems the general opinion that in such
-matters people should choose for themselves.”
-
-All this she said with so profound a gravity that the bystanders,
-divided between amusement and a kind of awe, held their breath and
-looked at each other. Miss Augustine had not sat down. She rarely did
-sit down in the common sitting-room; her hands were too full of
-occupation. Her Church services, now that the Chantry was opened, her
-Almshouses prayers, her charities, her universal oversight of her
-pensioners filled up all her time, and bound her to hours as strictly as
-if she had been a cotton-spinner in a mill. No cotton-spinner worked
-harder than did this Gray Sister; from morning to night her time was
-portioned out.
-
-I do not venture to say how many miles she walked daily, rain or shine;
-from Whiteladies to the Almshouses, to the church, to the Almshouses
-again; or how many hours she spent absorbed in that strange
-matter-of-fact devotion which was her way of working for her family. She
-repeated, in her soft tones, “I do not interfere with your choice,
-Herbert; but what I say is very important. Marry! I wish it above
-everything else in life.” And having said this, she went away.
-
-“This is very solemn,” said Herbert, with a laugh, but his laugh was not
-like the merriment into which, by-and-by, the others burst forth, and
-which half offended the young man. Reine, for her part, ran to the piano
-when Miss Augustine disappeared, and burst forth into a quaint little
-French ditty, sweet and simple, of old Norman rusticity.
-
- “A chaque rose que je effeuille
- Marie-toi, car il est temps,”
-
-the girl sang. But Miss Susan did not laugh, and Herbert did not care to
-see anything ridiculed in which he had such an important share. After
-all it was natural enough, he said to himself, that such advice should
-be given with great gravity to one on whose acts so much depended. He
-did not see what there was to laugh about. Reine was absurd with her
-songs. There was always one of them which came in pat to the moment.
-Herbert almost thought that this light-minded repetition of Augustine’s
-advice was impertinent both to her and himself. And thus a little gloom
-had come over his brow.
-
-“Messieurs et mesdames,” said Giovanna, suddenly, “you laugh, but, if
-you reflect, ma sœur has reason. She thinks, Here is Monsieur
-’Erbert, young and strong, but yet there are things which happen to the
-strongest; and here, on the other part, is a little boy, a little,
-little boy, who is not English, whose mother is nothing but a foreigner,
-who is the heir. This gives her the panique. And for me, too, M.
-’Erbert, I say with Mademoiselle Reine, ‘Marie-toi, car il est temps.’
-Yes, truly! although little Jean is my boy, I say mariez-vous with my
-heart.”
-
-“How good you are! how generous you are! Strange that you should be the
-only one to see it,” said Herbert, for the moment despising all the
-people belonging to him, who were so opaque, who did not perceive the
-necessities of the position. He himself saw those necessities well
-enough, and that he should marry was the first and most important. To
-tell the truth, he could not see even that Augustine’s anxiety was of an
-exaggerated description. It was not a thing to make laughter, and
-ridiculous jokes and songs about.
-
-Giovanna did not desert her post during that day. She did not always
-lead the conversation, nor make herself so important in it as she had
-done at first, but she was always there, putting in a word when
-necessary, ready to come to Herbert’s assistance, to amuse him when
-there was occasion, to flatter him with bold, frank speeches, in which
-there was always a subtle compliment involved. Everard took his leave
-shortly after, with farewells in which there was a certain consciousness
-that he had not been treated quite as he ought to have been. “Till I
-come into fashion again,” he said, with the laugh which began to sound
-harsh to Reine’s ears, “I am better at home in my own den, where I can
-be as sulky as I please. When I am wanted, you know where to find me.”
-Reine thought he looked at her when he said this with reproach in his
-eyes.
-
-“I think you are wanted now,” said Miss Susan; “there are many things I
-wished to consult you about. I wish you would not go away.”
-
-But he was obstinate. “No, no; there is nothing for me to do,” he said;
-“no journeys to make, no troubles to encounter. You are all settled at
-home in safety; and when I am wanted you know where to find me,” he
-added, this time holding out his hand to Reine, and looking at her very
-distinctly. Poor Reine felt herself on the edge of a very sea of
-troubles: everybody around her seemed to have something in their
-thoughts beyond her divining. Miss Susan meant more than she could
-fathom, and there lurked a purpose in Giovanna’s beautiful eyes, which
-Reine began to be dimly conscious of, but could not explain to herself.
-How could he leave her to steer her course among these undeveloped
-perils? and how could she call him back when he was “wanted,” as he said
-bitterly? She gave him her hand, turning away her head to hide a
-something, almost a tear, that would come into her eyes, and with a
-forlorn sense of desertion in her heart; but she was too proud either by
-look or word to bid Everard stay.
-
-This was on Thursday, and the next day they were to go to the Hatch, so
-that the interval was not long. Giovanna sang for them in the evening
-all kinds of popular songs, which was what she knew best, old Flemish
-ballads, and French and Italian canzoni; those songs of which every
-hamlet possesses one special to itself. “For I am not educated,” she
-said; “Mademoiselle must see that. I do all this by the ear. It is not
-music; it is nothing but ignorance. These are the chants du peuple, and
-I am nothing but one of the peuple, me. I am très-peuple. I never
-pretend otherwise. I do not wish to deceive you, M. ’Erbert, nor
-Mademoiselle.”
-
-“Deceive us!” cried Herbert. “If we could imagine such a thing, we
-should be dolts indeed.”
-
-Giovanna raised her head and looked at him, then turned to Miss Susan,
-whose knitting had dropped on her knee, and who, without thought, I
-think, had turned her eyes upon the group. “You are right, Monsieur
-’Erbert,” she said, with a strange malicious laugh, “here at least you
-are quite safe, though there are much of persons who are traitres in the
-world. No one will deceive you here.”
-
-She laughed as she spoke, and Miss Susan clutched at her knitting and
-buried herself in it, so to speak, not raising her head again for a full
-hour after, during which time Herbert and Giovanna talked a great deal
-to each other. And Reine sat by, with an incipient wonder in her mind
-which she could not quite make out, feeling as if her aunt and herself
-were one faction, Giovanna and Herbert another; as if there were all
-sorts of secret threads which she could not unravel, and intentions of
-which she knew nothing. The sense of strangeness grew on her so, that
-she could scarcely believe she was in Whiteladies, the home for which
-she had sighed so long. This kind of disenchantment happens often when
-the hoped-for becomes actual, but not always so strongly or with so
-bewildering a sense of something unrevealed, as that which pressed upon
-the very soul of Reine.
-
-Next morning Giovanna, with her child on her shoulder, came out to the
-gate to see them drive away. “You will not stay more long than
-to-morrow,” she said. “How we are going to be dull till you come back!
-Monsieur Herbert, Mademoiselle Reine, you promise--not more long than
-to-morrow! It is two great long days!” She kissed her hand to them, and
-little Jean waved his cap, and shouted “Vive M. ’Erbert!” as the
-carriage drove away.
-
-“What a grace she has about her!” said Herbert. “I never saw a woman so
-graceful. After all, it is a bore to go. It is astonishing how happy one
-feels, after a long absence, in the mere sense of being at home. I am
-sorry we promised; of course we must keep our promise now.”
-
-“I like it, rather,” said Reine, feeling half ashamed of herself. “Home
-is not what it used to be; there is something strange, something new; I
-can’t tell what it is. After all, though, Madame Jean is very handsome,
-it is strange she should be there.”
-
-“Oh, you object to Madame Jean, do you?” said Herbert. “You women are
-all alike; Aunt Susan does not like her either, I suppose you cannot
-help it; the moment a woman is more attractive than others, the moment a
-man shows that he has got eyes in his head--But you cannot help it, I
-suppose. What a walk she has, and carrying the child like a feather! It
-is a great bore, this visit to the Hatch, and so soon.”
-
-“You were pleased with the idea; you were delighted to accept the
-invitation,” said Reine, injudiciously, I must say.
-
-“Bah! one’s ideas change; but Sophy and Kate would have been
-disappointed,” said Herbert, with that ineffable look of complaisance in
-his eyes. And thus from Scylla which he had left, he drove calmly on to
-Charybdis, not knowing where he went.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLII.
-
-
-There had been great preparations made for Herbert’s reception at the
-Hatch. I say Herbert’s--for Reine, though she had been perforce included
-in the invitation, was not even considered any more. After the banquet
-at Whiteladies the sisters had many consultations on this subject, and
-there was indeed very little time to do anything. Sophy had been of
-opinion at first that the more gay his short visit could be made the
-better Herbert would be pleased, and had contemplated an impromptu
-dance, and I don’t know how many other diversions; but Kate was wiser.
-It was one good trait in their characters, if there was not very much
-else, that they acted for each other with much disinterestedness, seldom
-or never entering into personal rivalry. “Not too much the first time,”
-said Kate; “let him make acquaintance with us, that is the chief thing.”
-“But he mightn’t care for us,” objected Sophy. “Some people have such
-bad taste.” This was immediately after the Whiteladies dinner, after the
-moonlight walk and the long drive, when they were safe in the sanctuary
-of their own rooms. The girls were in their white dressing-gowns, with
-their hair about their shoulders, and were taking a light refection of
-cakes and chocolate before going to bed.
-
-“If you choose to study him a little, and take a little pains, of course
-he will like you,” said Kate. “Any man will fall in love with any woman,
-if she takes trouble enough.”
-
-“It is very odd to me,” said Sophy, “that with those opinions you should
-not be married, at your age.”
-
-“My dear,” said Kate seriously, “plenty of men have fallen in love with
-me, only they have not been the right kind of men. I have been too fond
-of fun; and nobody that quite suited has come in my way since I gave up
-amusing myself. The Barracks so near is very much in one’s way,” said
-Kate, with a sigh. “One gets used to such a lot of them about; and you
-can always have your fun, whatever happens; and till you are driven to
-it, it seems odd to make a fuss about one. But what _you_ have got to do
-is easy enough. He is as innocent as a baby, and as foolish. No woman
-ever took the trouble, I should say, to look at him. You have it all in
-your own hands. As for Reine, I will look after Reine. She is a
-suspicious little thing, but I’ll keep her out of your way.”
-
-“What a bore it is!” said Sophy, with a yawn. “Why should we be obliged
-to marry more than the men are. It isn’t fair. Nobody finds fault with
-them, though they have dozens of affairs; but we’re drawn over the coals
-for nothing, a bit of fun. I’m sure I don’t want to marry Bertie, or any
-one. I’d a great deal rather not. So long as one has one’s amusement,
-it’s jolly enough.”
-
-“If you could always be as young as you are now,” said Kate oracularly;
-“but even you are beginning to be passée, Sophy. It’s the pace, you
-know, as the men say--you need not make faces. The moment you are
-married you will be a girl again. As for me, I feel a grandmother.”
-
-“You _are_ old,” said Sophy compassionately; “and indeed you ought to go
-first.”
-
-“I am just eighteen months older than you are,” said Kate, rousing
-herself in self-defence, “and with your light hair, you’ll go off
-sooner. Don’t be afraid; as soon as I have got you off my hands I shall
-take care of myself. But look here! What you’ve got to do is to study
-Herbert a little. Don’t take him up as if he were Jack or Tom. Study
-him. There is one thing you never can go wrong in with any of them,”
-said this experienced young woman. “Look as if you thought him the
-cleverest fellow that ever was; make yourself as great a fool as you can
-in comparison. That flatters them above everything. Ask his advice you
-know, and that sort of thing. The greatest fool I ever knew,” said Kate,
-reflectively, “was Fenwick, the adjutant. I made him wild about me by
-that.”
-
-“He would need to be a fool to think you meant it,” said Sophy,
-scornfully; “you that have such an opinion of yourself.”
-
-“I had too good an opinion of myself to have anything to say to _him_,
-at least; but it’s fun putting them in a state,” said Kate, pleased with
-the recollection. This was a sentiment which her sister fully shared,
-and they amused themselves with reminiscences of several such dupes ere
-they separated. Perhaps even the dupes were scarcely such dupes as these
-young ladies thought; but anyhow, they had never been, as Kate said,
-“the right sort of men.” Dropmore, etc., were always to the full as
-knowing as their pretty adversaries, and were not to be beguiled by any
-such specious pretences. And to tell the truth, I am doubtful how far
-Kate’s science was genuine. I doubt whether she was unscrupulous enough
-and good-tempered enough to carry out her own programme; and Sophy
-certainly was too careless, too feather brained, for any such scheme.
-She meant to marry Herbert because his recommendations were great, and
-because he lay in her way, as it were, and it would be almost a sin not
-to put forth a hand to appropriate the gifts of Providence; but if it
-had been necessary to “study” him, as her sister enjoined, or to give
-great pains to his subjugation, I feel sure that Sophy’s patience and
-resolution would have given way. The charm in the enterprise was that it
-seemed so easy; Whiteladies was a most desirable object; and Sophy,
-longing for fresh woods and pastures new, was rather attracted than
-repelled by the likelihood of having to spend the Winters abroad.
-
-Mr. Farrel-Austin, for his part, received the young head of his family
-with anything but delight. He had been unable, in ordinary civility, to
-contradict the invitation his daughters had given, but took care to
-express his sentiments on the subject next day very distinctly--had they
-cared at all for those sentiments, which I don’t think they did. Their
-schemes, of course, were quite out of his range, and were not
-communicated to him; nor was he such a self-denying parent as to have
-been much consoled for his own loss of the family property by the
-possibility of one of his daughters stepping into possession of it. He
-thought it an ill-timed exhibition of their usual love of strangers, and
-love of company, and growled at them all day long until the time of the
-arrival, when he absented himself, to their great satisfaction, though
-it was intended as the crowning evidence of his displeasure. “Papa has
-been obliged to go out; he is so sorry, but hopes you will excuse him
-till dinner,” Kate said, when the girls came to receive their cousins at
-the door. “Oh, they won’t mind, I am sure,” said Sophy. “We shall have
-them all to ourselves, which will be much jollier.” Herbert’s brow
-clouded temporarily, for, though he did not love Mr. Farrel-Austin, he
-felt that his absence showed a want of that “proper respect” which was
-due to the head of the house. But under the gay influence of the girls
-the cloud speedily floated away.
-
-They had gone early, by special prayer, as their stay was to be so
-short; and Kate had made the judicious addition of two men from the
-barracks to their little luncheon-party. “One for me, and one for
-Reine,” she had said to Sophy, “which will leave you a fair field.” The
-one whom Kate had chosen for herself was a middle-aged major, with a
-small property--a man who had hitherto afforded much “fun” to the party
-generally as a butt, but whose serious attentions Miss Farrel-Austin, at
-five-and-twenty, did not absolutely discourage. If nothing better came
-in the way, he might do, she felt. He had a comfortable income and a
-mild temper, and would not object to “fun.” Reine’s share was a foolish
-youth, who had not long joined the regiment; but as she was quite
-unconscious that he had been selected for her, Reine was happily free
-from all sense of being badly treated. He laughed at the jokes which
-Kate and Sophy made; and held his tongue otherwise--thus fulfilling all
-the duty for which he was told off. After this morning meal, which was
-so much gayer and more lively than anything at Whiteladies, the
-new-comers were carried off to see the house and the grounds, upon which
-many improvements had been made. Sophy was Herbert’s guide, and ran
-before him through all the new rooms, showing the new library, the
-morning-room, and the other additions. “This is one good of an ugly
-modern place,” she said. “You can never alter dear old Whiteladies,
-Bertie. If you did we should get up a crusade of all the Austins and all
-the antiquarians, and do something to you--kill you, I think; unless
-some weak-minded person like myself were to interfere.”
-
-“I shall never put myself in danger,” he said, “though perhaps I am not
-such a fanatic about Whiteladies as you others.”
-
-“Don’t!” said Sophy, raising her hand as if to stop his mouth. “If you
-say a word more I shall hate you. It is small, to be sure; and if you
-should have a very large family when you marry”--she went on, with a
-laugh--“but the Austins never have large families; that is one part of
-the curse, I suppose your Aunt Augustine would say! but for my part, I
-hate large families, and I think it is very grand to have a curse
-belonging to us. It is as good as a family ghost. What a pity that the
-monk and the nun don’t walk! But there _is_ something in the great
-staircase. Did you ever see it? I never lived in Whiteladies, or I
-should have tried to see what it was.”
-
-“Did you never live at Whiteladies? I thought when we were children--”
-
-“Never for more than a day. The old ladies hate us. Ask us now, Bertie,
-there’s a darling. Well! he will be a darling if he asks us. It is the
-most delightful old house in the world, and I want to go.”
-
-“Then I ask you on the spot,” said Herbert. “Am I a darling now? You
-know,” he added in a lower tone, as they went on, and separated from the
-others, “it was as near as possible being yours. Two years ago no one
-supposed I should get better. You must have felt it was your own!”
-
-“Not once,” said Sophy. “Papa’s, perhaps--but what would that have done
-for us? Daughters marry and go away--it never would have been ours; and
-Mrs. Farrel-Austin won’t have a son. Isn’t it provoking? Oh, she is only
-our step-mother, you know--it does not matter what we say. Papa could
-beat her; but I am so glad, so glad,” cried Sophy, with aglow of smiles,
-“that instead of papa, or that nasty little French boy, Bertie, it is
-you, our cousin, whom we are fond of!--I can’t tell you how glad I am.”
-
-“Thanks,” said Herbert, clasping the hand she held out to him, and
-holding it. It seemed so natural to him that she should be glad.
-
-“Because,” said Sophy, looking at him with her pretty blue eyes, “we
-have been sadly neglected, Kate and I. We have never had any one to
-advise us, or tell us what we ought to do. We both came out too young,
-and were thrown on the world to do what we pleased. If you see anything
-in us you don’t like, Bertie, remember this is the reason. We never had
-a brother. Now, you will be as near a brother to us as any one could be.
-We shall be able to go and consult you, and you will help us out of our
-scrapes. I did so hope, before you came, that we should be friends; and
-now I _think_ we shall,” she said, giving a little pressure to the hand
-which still held hers.
-
-Herbert was so much affected by this appeal that it brought the tears to
-his eyes.
-
-“I think we shall, indeed,” he said, warmly,--“nay, we are. It would be
-a strange fellow indeed who would not be glad to be brother, or anything
-else, to a girl like you.”
-
-“Brother, _not_ anything else,” said Sophy, audibly but softly. “Ah,
-Bertie! you can’t think how glad I am. As soon as we saw you, Kate and I
-could not help feeling what an advantage Reine had over us. To have you
-to refer to always--to have you to talk to--instead of the nonsense that
-we girls are always chattering to each other.”
-
-“Well,” said Herbert, more and more pleased, “I suppose it is an
-advantage; not that I feel myself particularly wise, I am sure. There is
-always something occurring which shows one how little one knows.”
-
-“If _you_ feel that, imagine how _we_ must feel,” said Sophy, “who have
-never had any education. Oh yes, we have had just the same as other
-girls! but not like men--not like you, Bertie. Oh, you need not be
-modest. I know you haven’t been at the University to waste your time and
-get into debt, like so many we know. But you have done a great deal
-better. You have read and you have thought, and Reine has had all the
-advantage. I almost hate Reine for being so much better off than we
-are.”
-
-“But, really,” cried Herbert, laughing half with pleasure, half with a
-sense of the incongruity of the praise, “you give me a great deal more
-credit than I deserve. I have never been very much of a student. I don’t
-know that I have done much for Reine--except what one can do in the way
-of conversation, you know,” he added, after a pause, feeling that after
-all it must have been this improving conversation which had made his
-sister what she was. It had not occurred to him before, but the moment
-it was suggested--yes, of course, that was what it must be.
-
-“Just what I said,” cried Sophy; “and we never had that advantage. So if
-you find us frivolous, Bertie--”
-
-“How could I find you frivolous? You are nothing of the sort. I shall
-almost think you want me to pay you compliments--to say what I think of
-you.”
-
-“I hate compliments,” cried Sophy. “Here we are on the lawn, Bertie, and
-here are the others. What do you think of it? We have had such trouble
-with the grass--now, I think, it is rather nice. It has been rolled and
-watered and mown, and rolled and watered and mown again, almost every
-day.”
-
-“It is the best croquet-ground in the county,” said the Major; “and why
-shouldn’t we have a game? It is pleasant to be out of doors such a
-lovely day.”
-
-This was assented to, and the others went in-doors for their hats; but
-Sophy stayed. “I have got rid of any complexion I ever had,” she said.
-“I am always out of doors. The sun must have got tired of burning me, I
-am so brown already,” and she put up two white, pink-fingered hands to
-her white-and-pink cheeks. She was one of those blondes of satin-skin
-who are not easily affected by the elements. Herbert laughed, and with
-the privilege of cousinship took hold of one of the pink tips of the
-fingers, and looked at the hand.
-
-“Is that what you call brown?” he said. “We have just come from the land
-of brown beauties, and I ought to know. It is the color of milk with
-roses in it,” and the young man, who was not used to paying compliments,
-blushed as he made his essay; which was more than Sophy, experienced in
-the commodity, felt any occasion to do.
-
-“Milk of roses,” she said, laughing; “that is a thing for the
-complexion. I don’t use it, Bertie; I don’t use anything of the kind.
-Men are always so dreadfully knowing about young girls’ dodges--” The
-word slipped out against her will, for Sophy felt that slang was not
-expedient, and she blushed at this slip, though she had not blushed at
-the compliment. Herbert did not, however, discriminate. He took the
-pretty suffusion to his own account, and laughed at the inadvertent
-word. He thought she put it in inverted commas, as a lady should; and
-when this is done, a word of slang is piquant now and then as a
-quotation. Besides, he was far from being a purist in language. Kate,
-however, the unselfish, thoughtful elder sister, sweetly considerate of
-the young beauty, brought out Sophy’s hat with her own, and they began
-to play. Herbert and Reine were novices, unacquainted (strange as the
-confession must sound) with this universally popular game; and Sophy
-boldly stepped into the breech, and took them both on her side. “I am
-the best player of the lot,” said Sophy calmly. “You know I am. So
-Bertie and Reine shall come with me; and beat us if you can!” said the
-young champion; and if the reader will believe me, Sophy’s boast came
-true. Kate, indeed, made a brave stand; but the Major was middle-aged,
-and the young fellow was feeble, and Herbert showed an unsuspected
-genius for the game. He was quite pleased himself by his success;
-everything, indeed, seemed to conspire to make Herbert feel how clever
-he was, how superior he was, what an acquisition was his society; and
-during the former part of his life it had not been so. Like one of the
-great philosophers of modern times, Herbert felt that those who
-appreciated him so deeply must in themselves approach the sublime.
-Indeed, I fear it is a little mean on my part to take the example of
-that great philosopher, as if he were a rare instance; for is not the
-most foolish of us of the same opinion? “Call me wise, and I will allow
-you to be a judge,” says an old Scotch proverb. Herbert was ready to
-think all these kind people very good judges who so magnified and
-glorified himself.
-
-In the evening there was a very small dinner-party; again two men to
-balance Kate and Reine, but not the same men--persons of greater weight
-and standing, with Farrel-Austin himself at the foot of his own table.
-Mrs. Farrel-Austin was not well enough to come to dinner, but appeared
-in the drawing-room afterward; and when the gentlemen came upstairs,
-appropriated Reine. Sophy, who had a pretty little voice, had gone to
-the piano, and was singing to Herbert, pausing at the end of every verse
-to ask him, “Was it very bad? Tell me what you dislike most, my high
-notes or my low notes, or my execution, or what?” while Herbert,
-laughing and protesting, gave vehement praise to all. “I don’t dislike
-anything. I am delighted with every word; but you must not trust to me,
-for indeed I am no judge of music.”
-
-“No judge of music, and yet fresh from Italy!” cried Sophy, with
-flattering contempt.
-
-While this was going on Mrs. Farrel-Austin drew Reine close to her sofa.
-“I am very glad to see you, my dear,” she said, “and so far as I am
-concerned I hope you will come often. You are so quiet and nice; and all
-I have seen of your Aunt Susan I like, though I know she does not like
-us. But I hope, my dear, you won’t get into the racketing set our girls
-are so fond of. I should be very sorry for that; it would be bad for
-your brother. I don’t mean to say anything against Kate and Sophy. They
-are very lively and very strong, and it suits them, though in some
-things I think it is bad for them too. But your brother could never
-stand it, my dear; I know what bad health is, and I can see that he is
-not strong still.”
-
-“Oh, yes,” said Reine eagerly. “He has been going out in the world a
-great deal lately. I was frightened at first; but I assure you he is
-quite strong.”
-
-Mrs. Farrel-Austin shook her head. “I know what poor health is,” she
-said, “and however strong you may get, you never can stand a racket. I
-don’t suppose for a moment that they mean any harm, but still I should
-not like anything to happen in this house. People might say--and your
-Aunt Susan would be sure to think--It is very nice, I suppose, for young
-people; and of course at your age you are capable of a great deal of
-racketing; but I must warn you, my dear, it’s ruin for the health.”
-
-“Indeed, I don’t think we have any intention of racketing.”
-
-“Ah, it is not the intention that matters,” said the invalid. “I only
-want to warn you, my dear. It is a very racketing set. You should not
-let yourself be drawn into it, and quietly, you know, when you have an
-opportunity, you might say a word to your brother. I dare say he feels
-the paramount value of health. Oh, what should I give now if I had only
-been warned when I was young! You cannot play with your health, my dear,
-with impunity. Even the girls, though they are so strong, have headaches
-and things which they oughtn’t to have at their age. But I hope you will
-come here often, you are so nice and quiet--not like the most of those
-that come here.”
-
-“What is Mrs. Austin saying to you, Reine?” asked Kate.
-
-“She told me I was nice and quiet,” said Reine, thinking that in honor
-she was bound not to divulge the rest; and they both laughed at the
-moderate compliment.
-
-“So you are,” said Kate, giving her a little hug. “It is refreshing to
-be with any one so tranquil--and I am sure you will do us both good.”
-
-Reine was not impressed by this as Herbert was by Sophy’s pretty
-speeches. Perhaps the praise that was given to her was not equally well
-chosen. The passionate little semi-French girl (who had been so
-ultra-English in Normandy) was scarcely flattered by being called
-tranquil, and did not feel that to do Sophy and Kate good by being “nice
-and quiet” was a lofty mission. What did a racketing set mean? she
-wondered. An involuntary prejudice against the house rose in her mind,
-and this opened her eyes to something of Sophy’s tactics. It was rather
-hard to sit and look on and see Herbert thus fooled to the top of his
-bent. When she went to the piano beside them, Sophy grew more rational;
-but still she kept referring to Herbert, consulting him. “Is it like
-this they do it in Italy?” she sang, executing “a shake” with more
-natural sweetness than science.
-
-“Indeed, I don’t know, but it is beautiful,” said Herbert. “Ask Reine.”
-
-“Oh, Reine is only a girl like myself. She will say what she thinks will
-please me. I have far more confidence in a gentleman,” cried Sophy; “and
-above all in you, Bertie, who have promised to be a brother to me,” she
-said, in a lower tone.
-
-“Did I promise to be a brother?” said poor, foolish Herbert, his heart
-beating with vanity and pleasure.
-
-And the evening passed amid these delights.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLIII.
-
-
-I need not follow day by day the course of Herbert’s life. Though the
-brother and sister went out a good deal together at first, being asked
-to all the great houses in the neighborhood, as became their position in
-the county and their recent arrival, yet there gradually arose a
-separation between Herbert and Reine. It was inevitable, and she had
-learned to acknowledge this, and did not rebel as at first; but a great
-many people shook their heads when it became apparent that,
-notwithstanding Mrs. Farrel-Austin’s warning, Herbert had been drawn
-into the “racketing set” whose headquarters were at the Hatch. The young
-man was fond of pleasure, as well as of flattery, and it was Summer,
-when all the ills that flesh is heir to relax their hold a little, and
-dissipation is comparatively harmless. He went to Ascot with the party
-from the Hatch, and he went to a great many other places with them; and
-though the friends he made under their auspices led Herbert into places
-much worse both for his health and mind than any the girls could lead
-him to, he remained faithful, so far, to Kate and Sophy, and continued
-to attend them wherever they went. As for Reine, she was happy enough in
-the comparative quiet into which she dropped when the first outbreak of
-gayety was over. Miss Susan, against her will, still remained at
-Whiteladies; against her will--yet it may well be supposed it was no
-pleasure to her to separate herself from the old house in which she had
-been born, and from which she had never been absent for so much as six
-months all her life. Miss Augustine, for her part, took little or no
-notice of the change in the household. She went her way as usual,
-morning and evening, to the Almshouses. When Miss Susan spoke to her, as
-she did sometimes, about the cottage which stood all this time furnished
-and ready for instant occupation, she only shook her head. “I do not
-mean to leave Whiteladies,” she said, calmly. Neither did Giovanna, so
-far as could be perceived. “You cannot remain here when we go,” said
-Miss Susan to her.
-
-“There is much room in the house,” said Giovanna; “and when you go,
-Madame Suzanne, there will be still more. The little chamber for me and
-the child, what will that do to any one?”
-
-“But you cannot, you must not; it will be improper--don’t you
-understand?” cried Miss Susan.
-
-Giovanna shook her head.
-
-“I will speak to M. Herbert,” she said, smiling in Miss Susan’s face.
-
-This then was the position of affairs. Herbert put off continually the
-settlement between them, begging that he might have a little holiday,
-that she would retain the management of the estate and of his affairs,
-and this with a certain generosity mingling with his inclination to
-avoid trouble; for in reality he loved the woman who had been in her way
-a mother to him, and hesitated about taking from her the occupation of
-her life. It was well meant; and Miss Susan felt within herself that
-moral cowardice which so often affects those who live in expectation of
-an inevitable change or catastrophe. It must come, she knew; and when
-the moment of departure came, she could not tell, she dared not
-anticipate what horrors might come with it; but she was almost glad to
-defer it, to consent that it should be postponed from day to day. The
-king in the story, however, could scarcely manage, I suppose, to be
-happy with that sword hanging over his head. No doubt he got used to it,
-poor wretch, and could eat and drink, and snatch a fearful joy from the
-feasting which went on around him; he might even make merry, perhaps,
-but he could scarcely be very happy under the shadow. So Miss Susan
-felt. She went on steadily, fulfilled all her duties, dispensed
-hospitalities, and even now and then permitted herself to be amused; but
-she was not happy.
-
-Sometimes, when she said her prayers--for she did still say her prayers,
-notwithstanding the burden on her soul--she would breathe a sigh which
-was scarcely a prayer, that it might soon be over one way or another,
-that her sufferings might be cut short; but then she would rouse herself
-up, and recall that despairing sigh. Giovanna would not budge. Miss
-Susan made a great many appeals to her, when Reine was straying about
-the garden, or after she had gone to her innocent rest. She offered sums
-which made that young woman tremble in presence of a temptation which
-she could scarcely resist; but she set her white teeth firm, and
-conquered. It was better to have all than only a part, Giovanna thought,
-and she comforted herself that at the last moment, if her scheme failed,
-she could fall back upon and accept Miss Susan’s offer. This made her
-very secure, through all the events that followed. When Herbert
-abandoned Whiteladies and was constantly at the Hatch, when he seemed to
-have altogether given himself over to his cousins, and a report got up
-through the county that “an alliance was contemplated,” as the
-Kingsborough paper put it, grandly having a habit of royalty, so to
-speak--between two distinguished county families, Giovanna bore the
-contretemps quite calmly, feeling that Miss Susan’s magnificent offer
-was always behind her to fall back upon, if her great personal
-enterprise should come to nothing. Her serenity gave her a great
-advantage over Herbert’s feebler spirit. When he came home to
-Whiteladies, she regained her sway over him, and as she never indulged
-in a single look of reproach, such as Sophy employed freely when he left
-the Hatch, or was too long of returning, she gradually established for
-herself a superior place in the young man’s mind.
-
-As for Herbert himself, the three long months of that Summer were more
-to him than all the former years of his life put together. His first
-outburst of freedom on the Riviera, and his subsequent ramble in Italy,
-had been overcast by adverse circumstances. He had got his own way, but
-at a cost which was painful to him, and a great many annoyances and
-difficulties had been mingled with his pleasure. But now there was
-nothing to interfere with it. Reine was quiescent, presenting a smiling
-countenance when he saw her, not gloomy or frightened, as she had been
-at Cannes. She was happy enough; she was at home, with her aunts to fall
-back upon, and plenty of friends. And everybody and everything smiled
-upon Herbert. He was acting generously, he felt, to his former guardian,
-in leaving to her all the trouble of his affairs. He was surrounded by
-gay friends and unbounded amusements, amusements bounded only by the
-time that was occupied by them, and those human limitations which make
-it impossible to do two things at once. Could he have been in two
-places at once, enjoying two different kinds of pleasure at the same
-time, his engagements were sufficient to have secured for him a double
-enjoyment. From the highest magnates of the county, to the young
-soldiers of Kingsborough, his own contemporaries, everybody was willing
-to do him honor. The entire month of June he spent in town, where he had
-everything that town could give him--though their life moved rather more
-quickly than suited his still unconfirmed strength. Both in London and
-in the country he was invited into higher circles than those which the
-Farrel-Austins were permitted to enter; but still he remained faithful
-to his cousins, who gave him a homage which he could not expect
-elsewhere, and who had always “something going on,” both in town and
-country, and no pause in their fast and furious gayety. They were always
-prepared to go with him or take him somewhere, to give him the carte du
-pays, to tell him all the antecedents and history of this one and that
-one, and to make the ignorant youth feel himself an experienced man.
-Then, when it pleased him to go home, he was the master, welcomed by
-all, and found another beautiful slave waiting serene to burn incense to
-him.
-
-No wonder Herbert enjoyed himself. He had come out of his chrysalis
-condition altogether, and was enjoying the butterfly existence to an
-extent which he had never conceived of, fluttering about everywhere,
-sunning his fine new wings, his new energies, his manhood, and his
-health, and his wealth, and all the glories that were his. To do him
-justice, he would have brought his household up to town, in order that
-Reine too might have had her glimpse of the season, could he have
-persuaded them; but Reine, just then at a critical point of her life,
-declined the indulgence. Kate and Sophy, however, were fond of saying
-that they had never enjoyed a season so much. Opera-boxes rained upon
-them; they never wanted bouquets; and their parties to Richmond, to
-Greenwich, wherever persons of her class go, were endless. Herbert was
-ready for anything, and their father did decline the advantages, though
-he disliked the giver of them; and even when he was disagreeable,
-matrons were always procurable to chaperone the party, and preside over
-their pleasures. Everybody believed, as Sophy did, that there could be
-but one conclusion to so close an intimacy.
-
-“At all events, we have had a very jolly season,” said Kate, who was not
-so sure.
-
-And Herbert fully echoed the words when he heard them. Yes, it had been
-a very jolly season. He had “spent his money free,” which in the highest
-class, as well as in the lowest, is the most appropriate way in which a
-young man can make himself agreeable. He had enjoyed himself, and he had
-given to others a great many opportunities of enjoying themselves. Now
-and then he carried down a great party to Whiteladies, and introduced
-the _beau monde_ to his beautiful old house, and made one of those fêtes
-champêtres for his friends which break so agreeably upon the toils of
-London pleasuring, and which supply to the highest class, always like
-the lowest in their peculiar rites, an elegant substitute for Cremorne
-and Rosherville. Miss Susan bestirred herself, and made a magnificent
-response to his appeals when he asked her to receive such parties, and
-consoled herself for the gay mob that disturbed the dignity of the old
-house, by the noble names of some of them, which she was too English not
-to be impressed by. And thus in a series of delights the Summer passed
-from May to August. Herbert did not go to Scotland, though he had many
-invitations and solicitations to do so when the season was over. He came
-home instead, and settled there when fashion melted away out of town;
-and Sophy, considering the subject, as she thought, impartially, and
-without any personal prejudice (she said), concluded that it must be for
-her sake he stayed.
-
-“I know the Duke of Ptarmigan asked him, and Tom Heath, and Billy
-Trotter,” she said to her sister. “Billy, they say, has the finest moors
-going. Why shouldn’t he have gone, unless he had some motive? He can’t
-have any shooting here till September. If it isn’t _that_, what do you
-suppose it can be!”
-
-“Well, at all events we have had a very jolly season,” said Kate, not
-disposed to commit herself; “and what we have to do is to keep things
-going, and show him the country, and not be dull even now.” Which
-admirable suggestion they carried out with all their hearts.
-
-Herbert’s thoughts, however, were not, I fear, so far advanced as Sophy
-supposed. It was not that he did not think of that necessity of marrying
-which Miss Augustine enforced upon him in precisely the same words,
-every time she saw him. “You are wasting time--you are wasting my time,
-Herbert,” she said to him when he came back to Whiteladies, in July.
-Frankly she thought this the most important point of view. So far as he
-was concerned, he was young, and there was time enough; but if she, a
-woman of seven-and-fifty, was to bring up his heir and initiate him into
-her ideas, surely there was not a moment to be lost in taking the
-preliminary steps.
-
-Herbert was very much amused with this view of the subject. It tickled
-his imagination so, that he had not been able to refrain from
-communicating it to several of his friends. But various of these
-gentlemen, after they had laughed, pronounced it to be their opinion
-that, by Jove, the old girl was not so far out.
-
-“I wouldn’t stand having that little brat of a child set up as the heir
-under my very nose; and, by Jove, Austin, I’d settle that old curmudgeon
-Farrel’s hopes fast enough, if I were in your place,” said his advisers.
-
-Herbert was not displeased with the notion. He played with it, with a
-certain enjoyment. He felt that he was a prize worth anybody’s pursuit,
-and liked to hear that such and such ladies were “after him.” The Duke
-of Ptarmigan had a daughter or two, and Sir Billy Trotter’s sister might
-do worse, her friends thought. Herbert smoothed an incipient moustache,
-late in growing, and consequently very precious, and felt a delightful
-complaisance steal over him. And he knew that Sophy, his cousin, did not
-despise him; I am not sure even that the young coxcomb was not aware
-that he might have the pick of either of the girls, if he chose; which
-also, though Kate had never thought on the subject, was true enough. She
-had faithfully given him over to her younger sister, and never
-interfered; but if Herbert had thrown his handkerchief to her, she would
-have thought it sinful to refuse. When he thought on the subject, which
-was often enough, he had a kind of lazy sense that this was what would
-befall him at last. He would throw his handkerchief some time when he
-was at the Hatch, and wheresoever the chance wind might flutter it,
-there would be his fate. He did not really care much whether it might
-happen to be Sophy or Kate.
-
-When he came home, however, these thoughts would float away out of his
-mind. He did not think of marrying, though Miss Augustine spoke to him
-on the subject every day. He thought of something else, which yet was
-not so far different; he thought that nowhere, in society or out of it,
-had he seen any one like Giovanna.
-
-“Did you ever see such a picture?” he would say to Reine. “Look at her!
-Now she’s sculpture, with that child on her shoulder. If the boy was
-only like herself, what a group they’d make! I’d like to have
-Marochetti, or some of those swells, down, to make them in marble. And
-she’d paint just as well. By Jove, she’s all the arts put together. How
-she does sing! Patti and the rest are nothing to her. But I don’t
-understand how she could be the mother of that boy.”
-
-Giovanna came back across the lawn, having swung the child from her
-shoulder on to the fragrant grass, in time to hear this, and smiled and
-said, “He does not resemble me, does he? Madame Suzanne, M. Herbert
-remarks that the boy is not dark as me. He is another type--yes, another
-type, n’est ce pas!”
-
-“Not a bit like you,” said Herbert. “I don’t say anything against Jean,
-who is a dear little fellow; but he is not like you.”
-
-“Ah! but he is the heir of M. Herbert, which is better,” cried Giovanna,
-with a laugh, “until M. Herbert will marry. Why will not you marry and
-range yourself? Then the little Jean and the great Giovanna will melt
-away like the fogs. Ah, marry, M. Herbert! it is what you ought to do.”
-
-“Are you so anxious, then, to melt away like the fog?--like the
-sunshine, you mean,” said the young man in a low voice. They were all in
-the porch, but he had gone out to meet her, on pretence of playing with
-little Jean.
-
-“But no,” said Giovanna, smiling, “not at all. I am very well here; but
-when M. Herbert will marry, then I must go away. Little Jean will be no
-more the heir.”
-
-“Then I shall never marry,” said the young man, though still in tones so
-low as not to reach the ears of the others. Giovanna turned her face
-toward him with a mocking laugh.
-
-“Bah! already I know Madame Herbert’s name, her little name!” she cried,
-and picked up the boy with one vigorous, easy sweep of her beautiful
-arms, and carried him off, singing to him--like a goddess, Herbert
-thought, like the nurse of a young Apollo. He was dreadfully
-disconcerted with this sudden withdrawal, and when Miss Augustine,
-coming in, addressed him in her usual way, he turned from her
-pettishly, with an impatient exclamation:
-
-“I wish you would give over,” he said; “you are making a joke of a
-serious matter. You are putting all sorts of follies into people’s
-heads.”
-
-It was only at Whiteladies, however, that he entertained this feeling.
-When he was away from home he would now and then consider the question
-of throwing the handkerchief, and made up his mind that there would be a
-kind of justice in it if the petit nom of the future Mrs. Herbert turned
-out to be either Sophy or Kate.
-
-Things went on in this way until, one day in August, it was ordained
-that the party, with its usual military attendants, should vary its
-enjoyments by a day on the river. They started from Water Beeches,
-Everard’s house, in the morning, with the intention of rowing up the
-river as far as Marlow, and returning in the evening to a late dinner.
-The party consisted of Kate and Sophy, with their father, Reine and
-Herbert, Everard himself, and a quantity of young soldiers, with the
-wife of one of them, four ladies, to wit, and an indefinite number of
-men. They started on a lovely morning, warm yet fresh, with a soft
-little breeze blowing, stirring the long flags and rushes, and floating
-the water-lilies that lurked among their great leaves in every corner.
-Reine and Everard had not seen much of each other for some time. From
-the day that he went off in an injured state of mind, reminding them
-half indignantly that they knew where to find him when he was wanted,
-they had met only two or three times, and never had spoken to each other
-alone. Everard had been in town for the greater part of the time,
-purposely taking himself away, sore and wounded, to have, as he thought,
-no notice taken of him; while Reine, on her part, was too proud to make
-any advances to so easily affronted a lover. This had been in her mind,
-restraining her from many enjoyments when both Herbert and Miss Susan
-thought her “quite happy”. She was “quite happy,” she always said; did
-not wish to go to town, preferred to stay at Whiteladies, had no desire
-to go to Court and to make her début in society, as Miss Susan felt she
-should. Reine resisted, being rather proud and fanciful and capricious,
-as the best of girls may be permitted to be under such circumstances;
-and she had determinedly made herself “happy” in her country life, with
-such gayeties and amusements as came to her naturally. I think, however,
-that she had looked forward to this day on the river, not without a
-little hope, born of weariness, that something might happen to break the
-ice between Everard and herself. By some freak of fortune, however, or
-unkind arrangement, it so happened that Reine and Everard were not even
-in the same boat when they started. She thought (naturally) that it was
-his fault, and he thought (equally naturally) that it was her fault; and
-each believed that the accident was a premeditated and elaborately
-schemed device to hold the other off. I leave the reader to guess
-whether this added to the pleasure of the party, in which these two, out
-of their different boats, watched each other when they could, and
-alternated between wild gayety put on when each was within sight of the
-other, to show how little either minded--and fits of abstraction.
-
-The morning was beautiful; the fair river glided past them, here shining
-like a silver shield, there falling into heavenly coolness under the
-shadows, with deep liquid tones of green and brown, with glorified
-reflections of every branch and twig, with forests of delicious growth
-(called weeds) underneath its clear rippling, throwing up long blossomed
-boughs of starry flowers, and in the shallows masses of great cool flags
-and beds of water-lilies. This was not a scene for the chills and heats
-of a love-quarrel, or for the perversity of a voluntary separation. And
-I think Everard felt this, and grew impatient of the foolish caprice
-which he thought was Reine’s, and which Reine thought was his, as so
-often happens. When they started in the cooler afternoon, to come down
-the river, he put her almost roughly into his boat.
-
-“You are coming with me this time,” he said in a half-savage tone,
-gripping her elbow fiercely as he caught her on her way to the other,
-and almost lifted her into his boat.
-
-Reine half-resisted for the moment, her face flaming with respondent
-wrath, but melted somehow by his face so near her, and his imperative
-grasp, she allowed herself to be thrust into the little nutshell which
-she knew so well, and which (or its predecessors) had been called
-“Queen” for years, thereby acquiring for Everard a character for loyalty
-which Reine knew he did not deserve, though he had never told her so.
-The moment she had taken her place there, however, Reine justified all
-Everard’s sulks by immediately resuming toward him the old tone. If she
-had not thus recovered him as her vizier and right-hand man, she would,
-I presume, have kept her anxiety in her own breast. As it was, he had
-scarcely placed her on the cushions, when suddenly, without a pause,
-without one special word to him, asking pardon (as she ought) for her
-naughtiness, Reine said suddenly, “Everard! oh, will you take care,
-please, that Bertie does not row?”
-
-He looked at her wholly aggravated, but half laughing. “Is this all I am
-ever to be good for?” he said; “not a word for me, no interest in me. Am
-I to be Bertie’s dry-nurse all my life? And is this all--?”
-
-She put her hand softly on his arm, and drew him to her to whisper to
-him. In that moment all Reine’s coldness, all her doubts of him had
-floated away, with a suddenness which I don’t pretend to account for,
-but which belonged to her impulsive character (and in her heart I do not
-believe she had ever had the least real doubt of him, though it was a
-kind of dismal amusement to think she had). She put up her face to him,
-with her hand on his arm. “Speak low,” she said. “Is there any one I
-could ask but you? Everard, he has done too much already to-day; don’t
-let him row.”
-
-Everard laughed. He jumped out of his boat and spoke to the other men
-about, confidentially, in undertones. “Don’t let him see you mean it,”
-he said; and when he had settled this piece of diplomacy, he came back
-and pushed off his own boat into mid-stream. “The others had all got
-settled,” he said. “I don’t see why I should run upon your messages, and
-do everything you tell me, and never get anything by it. Mrs. Sellinger
-has gone with Kate and Sophy, who have much more need of a chaperone
-than you have: and for the first time I have you to myself, Reine.”
-
-Reine had the strings of the rudder in her hands, and could have driven
-him back, I think, had she liked, but she did not. She let herself and
-the boat float down the pleasanter way. “I don’t mind,” she said softly;
-“for a long time I have had no talk with you--since we came home.”
-
-“And whose fault is that, I should like to know?” cried Everard, with a
-few long swift strokes, carrying the boat almost out of sight of the
-larger one, which had not yet started. “How cruel you are, Reine! You
-say that as if I was to blame; when you know all the time if you had but
-held up a little finger--”
-
-“Why should I hold up a little finger?” said Reine, softly, leaning back
-in her seat. But there was a smile on her face. It was true, she
-acknowledged to herself. She had known it all the time. A little finger,
-a look, a word would have done it, though she had made believe to be
-lonely and dreary and half-forsaken and angry even. At which, as the
-boat glided down the river in the soft shadows after sunset, in the cool
-grayness of the twilight, she smiled again.
-
-But before they reached the Water Beeches, these cool soft shades had
-given way to a sudden cold mist, what country people call a “blight.” It
-was only then, I think, that these two recollected themselves. They had
-sped down the shining stream, with a little triumph in outstripping the
-other and larger boat, though it had four rowers, and Everard was but
-one. They had gone through the locks by themselves, leaving saucy
-messages for their companions, and it was only when they got safely
-within sight of Everard’s house, and felt the coldness of the “blight”
-stealing through them, that they recollected to wonder what had kept the
-others so long. Then Reine grew frightened, unreasonably, as she felt;
-fantastically, for was not Herbert quite well? but yet beyond her own
-power of control.
-
-“Turn back, and let us meet them,” she begged; and Everard, though
-unwilling, could not refuse to do it. They went back through the growing
-darkness, looking out eagerly for the party.
-
-“That cannot be them,” said Everard, as the long sweep of oars became
-audible. “It must be a racing boat, for I hear no voices.”
-
-They lay close by the bank and watched, Reine in an agony of anxiety,
-for which she could give no reason. But sure enough it was the rest of
-the party, rowing quickly down, very still and frightened. Herbert had
-insisted upon rowing, in spite of all remonstrances, and just a few
-minutes before had been found half fainting over his oar, shivering and
-breathless.
-
-“It is nothing--it is nothing,” he gasped, when he saw Reine, “and we
-are close at home.” But his heart panted so, that this was all he could
-say.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLIV.
-
-
-What a dismal conclusion it was of so merry a day! Herbert walked into
-the house, leaning upon Everard’s arm, and when some wine had been
-administered to him, declared himself better, and endeavored to prove
-that he was quite able to join them at supper, and that it was nothing.
-But his pale face and panting breast belied his words, and after awhile
-he acknowledged that perhaps it would be best to remain on the sofa in
-the drawing-room, while the others had their meal. Reine took her place
-by him at once, though indeed Sophy, who was kind enough, was ready and
-even anxious to do it. But in such a case the bond of kin is always
-paramount. The doctor was sent for at once, and Everard went and came
-from his guests at the dinner-table, to his much-more-thought-of guests
-in the cool, silent drawing-room, where Reine sat on a low chair by the
-sofa, holding her brother’s hand, and fanning him to give him air.
-
-“All right, old fellow,” poor Bertie said, whenever Everard’s anxious
-face appeared; but when Reine and he were left alone, he panted forth
-abuse of himself and complaints of Providence. “Just as I thought I was
-all right--whenever I felt a little freedom, took a little liberty--”
-
-“Oh, Bertie,” said Reine, “you know you should not have done it. Dear,
-don’t talk now, to make it worse. Lie still, and you’ll be better. Oh,
-Bertie! have patience, have patience, dear!”
-
-“To look like a fool!” he gasped; “never good for anything.
-No--more--strength than a baby! and all those follows looking on.”
-
-“Bertie, they are all very kind, they are all very sorry. Oh, how can
-you talk of looking like a fool?”
-
-“I do,” he said; “and the girls, too!--weaker, weaker than any of them.
-Sorry! I don’t want them to be sorry; and old Farrel gloating over it.
-Oh, God! I can’t bear it--I can’t bear it, Reine.”
-
-“Bertie, be still--do you hear me? This is weak, if you please; this is
-unlike a man. You have done too much, and overtired yourself. Is this a
-reason to give up heart, to abuse everybody, to blaspheme--”
-
-“It is more--than being overtired,” he moaned; “feel my heart, how it
-goes!”
-
-“Yes, it is a spasm,” said Reine, taking upon her a composure and
-confidence she did not feel. “You have had the same before. If you want
-to be better, don’t talk, oh, don’t talk, Bertie! Be still, be quite
-still!”
-
-And thus she sat, with his hand in hers, softly fanning him; and half in
-exhaustion, half soothed by her words, he kept silent. Reine had harder
-work when the dinner was over, and Sophy and Kate fluttered into the
-room, to stand by the sofa, and worry him with questions.
-
-“How are you now? Is your breathing easier? Are you better, Bertie? oh,
-say you are a little better! We can never, never forgive ourselves for
-keeping you out so late, and for letting you tire yourself so.”
-
-“Please don’t make him talk,” cried Reine. “He is a little better. Oh,
-Bertie, Bertie, dear, be still. If he is quite quiet, it will pass off
-all the sooner. I am not the least frightened,” she said, though her
-heart beat loud in her throat, belying her words; but Reine had seen
-Farrel-Austin’s face, hungry and eager, over his daughters’ shoulders.
-“He is not really so bad; he has had it before. Only he must, _he must_
-be still. Oh, Sophy, for the love of heaven, do not make him speak!”
-
-“Nonsense--I am all right,” he said.
-
-“Of course he can speak,” cried Sophy, triumphantly; “you are making a
-great deal too much fuss, Reine. Make him eat something, that will do
-him good. There’s some grouse. Everard, fetch him some grouse--one can
-eat that when one can eat nothing else--and I’ll run and get him a glass
-of champagne.”
-
-“Oh, go away--oh, keep her away!” cried Reine, joining her hands in
-eager supplication.
-
-Everard, to whom she looked, shrugged his shoulders, for it was not so
-easy a thing to do. But by dint of patience the room was cleared at
-last; and though Sophy would fain have returned by the open window,
-“just to say good-bye,” as she said, “and to cheer Bertie up, for they
-were all making too great a fuss about him,” the whole party were
-finally got into their carriages, and sent away. Sophy’s last words,
-however, though they disgusted the watchers, were balm to Herbert.
-
-“She is a jolly girl,” he said; “you _are_ making--too--much fuss.
-It’s--going off. I’ll be--all right--directly.”
-
-And then in the grateful quiet that followed, which no one disturbed,
-with his two familiar nurses, who had watched him so often, by his side,
-the excitement really began to lessen, the palpitation to subside. Reine
-and Everard sat side by side, in the silence, saying nothing to each
-other, almost forgetting, if that were possible, what they had been
-saying to each other as they glided, in absolute seclusion from all
-other creatures, down the soft twilight river. All the recent past
-seemed to melt into the clouds for them, and they were again at
-Appenzell, at Kandersteg, returned to their familiar occupation nursing
-their sick together, as they had so often nursed him before.
-
-Everard had despatched a messenger to Whiteladies, when he sent for the
-doctor; and Miss Susan, careful of Reine as well as of Herbert, obeyed
-the summons along with the anxious François, who understood the case in
-a moment. The doctor, on his arrival, gave also a certain consolation to
-the watchers. With quiet all might be well again; there was nothing
-immediately alarming in the attack; but he must not exert himself, and
-must be content for the moment at least to retire to the seclusion of an
-invalid. They all remained in Water Beeches for the night, but next
-morning were able to remove the patient to Whiteladies. In the morning,
-before they left, poor Everard, once more thrown into a secondary place,
-took possession of Reine, and led her all over his small premises. It
-was a misty morning, touched with the first sensation of Autumn, though
-Summer was all ablaze in the gardens and fields. A perfect tranquillity
-of repose was everywhere, and as the sun got power, and the soft white
-mists broke up, a soft clearness of subdued light, as dazzling almost as
-full sunshine, suffused the warm still atmosphere. The river glided
-languid under the heat, gleaming white and dark, without the magical
-colors of the previous day. The lazy shadows drooped over it from the
-leafy banks, so still that it was hard to say which was substance and
-which shadow.
-
-“We are going to finish our last-night’s talk,” said Everard.
-
-“Finish!” said Reine half-smiling, half-weeping, for how much had
-happened since that enchanted twilight! “what more is there to say?” And
-I don’t think there was much more to say--though he kept her under the
-trees on the river side, and in the shady little wood by the pond where
-the skating had been when he received her letter--saying it; so long,
-that Miss Susan herself came out to look for them, wondering. As she
-called “Reine! Reine!” through the still air, wondering more and more,
-she suddenly came in sight of them turning the corner of a great clump
-of roses, gay in their second season of bloom. They came toward her
-arm-in-arm with a light on their faces which it needed no sorcerer to
-interpret. Miss Susan had never gone through these experiences herself,
-but she understood at once what this meant, and her heart gave one leap
-of great and deep delight. It was so long since she had felt what it was
-to be happy, that the sensation overpowered her. It was what she had
-hoped for and prayed for, so long as her hopes were worth much, or her
-prayers. She had lost sight of this secret longing in the dull chaos of
-preoccupation which had swallowed her up for so long; and now this thing
-for which she had never dared to scheme, and which lately she had not
-had the courage even to wish for, was accomplished before her eyes.
-
-“Oh,” said Miss Susan, out of the depths of an experience unknown to
-them, “how much better God is to us than we are to ourselves! A just
-desire comes to pass without any scheming.” And she kissed them both
-with lips that trembled, and joy incredible, incomprehensible in her
-heart. She had ceased to hope for anything that was personally desirable
-to her; and, lo! here was her chief wish accomplished.
-
-This was all Hebrew and Sanskrit to the young people, who smiled to each
-other in their ignorance, but were touched by her emotion, and
-surrounded her with their happiness and their love, a very atmosphere of
-tenderness and jubilation. And the sun burst forth just then, and woke
-up all the dormant glow of color, as if to celebrate the news now first
-breathed to other ears than their own; and the birds, they thought,
-fell a-singing all at once, in full chorus. Herbert, who lay on the
-sofa, languid and pale, waiting for them to start on his drive home, did
-not observe these phenomena, poor boy, though the windows were open. He
-thought they were long of coming (as indeed they were), and was fretful,
-feeling himself neglected, and eager to get home.
-
-Whiteladies immediately turned itself into an enchanted palace, a castle
-of silence and quiet. The young master of the house was as if he had
-been transported suddenly into the Arabian nights. Everything was
-arranged for his comfort, for his amusement, to make him forget the
-noisier pleasures into which he had plunged with so much delight. When
-he had got over his sombre and painful disappointment, I don’t think
-poor Herbert, accustomed to an invalid existence, disliked the Sybarite
-seclusion in which he found himself. He had the most careful and tender
-nurse, watching every look; and he had (which I suspect was the best of
-it) a Slave--an Odalisque, a creature devoted to his pleasure--his
-flatterer, the chief source of his amusement, his dancing-girl, his
-singing-woman, a whole band of entertainers in one. This I need not say
-was Giovanna. At last her turn had come, and she was ready to take
-advantage of it. She did not interfere with the nursing, having perhaps
-few faculties that way, or perhaps (which is more likely) feeling it
-wiser not to invade the province of the old servants and the anxious
-relatives. But she took upon her to amuse Herbert, with a success which
-none of the others could rival. She was never anxious; she did not look
-at him with those longing, eager eyes, which, even in the depths of
-their love, convey alarm to the mind of the sick. She was gay and
-bright, and took the best view of everything, feeling quite confident
-that all would be well; for, indeed, though she liked him well enough,
-there was no love in her to make her afraid. She was perfectly patient,
-sitting by him for hours, always ready to take any one’s place, ready to
-sing to him, to read to him in her indifferent English, making him gay
-with her mistakes, and joining in the laugh against herself with
-unbroken good-humor. She taught little Jean tricks to amuse the invalid,
-and made up a whole series of gymnastic evolutions with the boy, tossing
-him about in her beautiful arms, a picture of elastic strength and
-grace. She was, in short--there was no other word for it--not Herbert’s
-nurse or companion, but his slave; and there could be little doubt that
-it was the presence and ministrations of this beautiful creature which
-made him so patient of his confinement. And he was quite patient, as
-contented as in the days when he had no thought beyond his sick-room,
-notwithstanding that now he spoke continually of what he meant to do
-when he was well. Giovanna cured him of anxiety, made everything look
-bright to him. It was some time before Miss Susan or Reine suspected the
-cause of this contented state, which was so good for him, and promoted
-his recovery so much. A man’s nearest friends are slow to recognize or
-believe that a stranger has more power over him than themselves; but
-after awhile they did perceive it with varying and not agreeable
-sentiments. I cannot venture to describe the thrill of horror and pain
-with which Miss Susan found it out.
-
-It was while she was walking alone from the village, at the corner of
-Priory Lane, that the thought struck her suddenly; and she never forgot
-the aspect of the place, the little heaps of fallen leaves at her feet,
-as she stood still in her dismay, and, like a revelation, saw what was
-coming. Miss Susan uttered a groan so bitter, that it seemed to echo
-through the air, and shake the leaves from the trees, which came down
-about her in a shower, for it was now September. “He will marry her!”
-she said to herself; and the consequences of her own sin, instead of
-coming to an end, would be prolonged forever, and affect unborn
-generations. Reine naturally had no such horror in her mind; but the
-idea of Giovanna’s ascendancy over Herbert was far from agreeable to
-her, as may be supposed. She struggled hard to dismiss the idea, and she
-tried what she could to keep her place by her brother, and so resist the
-growing influence. But it was too late for such an effort; and indeed, I
-am afraid, involved a sacrifice not only of herself, but of her pride,
-and of Herbert’s affection, that was too much for Reine. To see his
-looks cloud over, to see him turn his back on her, to hear his querulous
-questions, “Why did not she go out? Was not Everard waiting? Could not
-she leave him a little freedom, a little time to himself?”--all this
-overcame his sister.
-
-“He will marry Giovanna,” she said, pouring her woes into the ear of her
-betrothed. “She must want to marry him, or she would not be there
-always, she would not behave as she is doing.”
-
-“He will marry whom he likes, darling, and we can’t stop him,” said
-Everard, which was poor consolation. And thus the crisis slowly drew
-near.
-
-In the meantime another event utterly unexpected had followed that
-unlucky day on the river, and had contributed to leave the little
-romance of Herbert and Giovanna undisturbed. Mr. Farrel-Austin caught
-cold in the “blight” that fell upon the river, or in the drive home
-afterward; nobody could exactly tell how it was. He caught cold, which
-brought on congestion of the lungs, and in ten days, taking the county
-and all his friends utterly by surprise, and himself no less, to whom
-such a thing seemed incredible, was dead. Dead; not ill, nor in danger,
-but actually dead--a thing which the whole district gasped to hear, not
-finding it possible to connect the idea of Farrel-Austin with anything
-so solemn. The girls drove over twice to ask for Herbert, and had been
-admitted to the morning room, the cheerfullest room in the house, where
-he lay on his sofa, to see him, and had told him lightly (which was a
-consolation to Herbert, as showing him that he was not alone in
-misfortune) that papa was ill too, in bed and very bad. But Sophy and
-Kate were, like all the rest of the world, totally unprepared for the
-catastrophe which followed; and they did not come back, being suddenly
-plunged into all the solemn horror of an event so deeply affecting their
-own fortunes, as well as such affections as they possessed. Thus, there
-was not even the diversion of a rival to interrupt Giovanna’s
-opportunity. Farrel-Austin’s death affected Miss Susan in the most
-extraordinary way, so that all her friends were thunderstruck. She was
-overwhelmed; was it by grief for her enemy? When she received the news,
-she gave utterance to a wild and terrible cry, and rushed up to her own
-room, whence she scarcely appeared all the rest of the day. Next morning
-she presented to her astonished family a countenance haggard and pale,
-as if by years of suffering. What was the cause? Was it Susan that had
-loved him, and not Augustine (who took the information very calmly), or
-what was the secret of this impassioned emotion? No one could say. Miss
-Susan was like a woman distraught for some days. She would break out
-into moanings and weeping when she was alone, in which indulgence she
-was more than once surprised by the bewildered Reine. This was too
-extraordinary to be accounted for. Was it possible, the others asked
-themselves, that her enmity to Farrel-Austin had been but a perverse
-cloak for another sentiment?
-
-I give these wild guesses, because they were at their wits’ end, and had
-not the least clue to the mystery. So bewildered were they, that they
-could show her little sympathy, and do nothing to comfort her; for it
-was monstrous to see her thus afflicted. Giovanna was the only one who
-seemed to have any insight at this moment into the mind of Miss Susan. I
-think even she had but a dim realization of how it was. But she was
-kind, and did her best to show her kindness; a sympathy which Miss Susan
-revolted the rest by utter rejection of, a rejection almost fierce in
-its rudeness.
-
-“Keep me free from that woman--keep her away from me!” she cried wildly.
-
-“Aunt Susan,” said Reine, not without reproach in her tone, “Giovanna
-wants to be kind.”
-
-“Oh, kind! What has come to us that I must put up with _her_ kindness?”
-she cried, with her blue eyes aflame.
-
-Neither Reine nor any of the others knew what to say to this strange new
-phase in Miss Susan’s mysterious conduct. For it was apparent to all of
-them that some mystery had come into her life, into her character, since
-the innocent old days when her eyes were as clear and her brow, though
-so old, as unruffled as their own. Day by day Miss Susan’s burden was
-getting heavier to bear. Farrel’s death, which removed all barriers
-except the one she had herself put there, between Everard and the
-inheritance of Whiteladies; and this growing fascination of Herbert for
-Giovanna, which she seemed incapable of doing anything to stop, and
-which, she cried out to herself in the silence of the night, she never,
-never would permit herself to consent to, and could not bear--these two
-things together filled up the measure of her miseries. Day by day the
-skies grew blacker over her, her footsteps were hemmed in more terribly;
-until at last she seemed scarcely to know what she was doing. The
-bailiff addressed himself to Everard in a kind of despair.
-
-“I can’t get no orders,” he said. “I can’t get nothing reasonable out of
-Miss Austin; whether it’s anxiousness, or what, none of us can tell.”
-And he gave Everard an inquisitive look, as if testing him how far he
-might go. It was the opinion of the common people that Augustine had
-been mad for years; and now they thought Miss Susan was showing signs of
-the same malady.
-
-“That’s how things goes when it’s in a family,” the village said.
-
-Thus the utmost miserable endurance, and the most foolish imbecile
-happiness lived together under the same roof, vaguely conscious of each
-other, yet neither fathoming the other’s depths. Herbert, like Reine and
-Everard, perceived that something was wrong with Miss Susan; but being
-deeply occupied with his own affairs, and feeling the absolute
-unimportance of anything that could happen to his old aunt in
-comparison--was not much tempted to dwell upon the idea, or to make any
-great effort to penetrate the mystery; while she, still more deeply
-preoccupied with her wretchedness, fearing the future, yet fearing still
-more to betray herself, did not realize how quickly affairs were
-progressing, nor how far they had gone. It was not till late in
-September that she at last awoke to the fact. Herbert was better, almost
-well again, the doctor pronounced, but sadly shaken and weak. It was a
-damp, rainy day, with chills in it of the waning season, dreary showers
-of yellow leaves falling with every gust, and all the signs that an
-early ungenial Autumn, without those gorgeous gildings of decay which
-beguile us of our natural regrets, was closing in, yellow and humid,
-with wet mists and dreary rain. Everything dismal that can happen is
-more dismal on such a day, and any diversion which can be had indoors to
-cheat the lingering hours is a double blessing. Herbert was as usual in
-the morning-room, which had been given up to him as the most cheerful.
-Reine had been called away to see Everard, who, now that the invalid was
-better, insisted upon a share of her attention; and she had left the
-room all the more reluctantly that there was a gleam of pleasure in her
-brother’s eye as she was summoned. “Giovanna will stay with me,” he
-said, the color rising in his pale cheeks; and Reine fled to Everard,
-red with mortification and sorrow and anger, to ask him for the
-hundredth time, “Could nothing be done to stop it--could nothing be
-done?”
-
-Miss Susan was going about the house from room to room, feverishly
-active in some things by way of making up, perhaps from the
-half-conscious failing of her powers in others. She was restless, and
-could not keep still to look out upon the flying leaves, the dreary
-blasts, the gray dismal sky; and the rain prevented her from keeping her
-miserable soul still by exercise out of doors, as she often did now,
-contrary to all use and wont. She had no intention in her mind when her
-restless feet turned the way of Herbert’s room. She did not know that
-Giovanna was there, and Reine absent. She was not suspicious more than
-usual, neither had she the hope or fear of finding out anything. She
-went mechanically that way, as she might have gone mechanically through
-the long turnings of the passage to the porch, where Reine and Everard
-were looking out upon the dismal Autumn day.
-
-When she opened the door, however, listlessly, she saw a sight which
-woke her up like a trumpet. Giovanna was sitting upon a stool close by
-Herbert’s sofa. One of her hands he was holding tenderly in his; with
-the other she was smoothing back his hair from his forehead, caressing
-him with soft touches and soft words, while he gazed at her with that
-melting glow of sentimentality--vanity or love, or both together, in his
-eyes--which no spectator can ever mistake. As Miss Susan went into the
-room, Giovanna, who sat with her back to the door, bent over him and
-kissed him on the forehead, murmuring as she did so into his bewitched
-and delighted ear.
-
-The looker-on was petrified for the first moment; then she threw up her
-hands, and startled the lovers with a wild shrill cry. I think it was
-heard all over the house. Giovanna jumped up from her stool, and Herbert
-started upright on his sofa; and Reine and Everard, alarmed, came
-rushing from the porch. They all gazed at Miss Susan, who stood there as
-pale as marble, gasping with an attempt to speak. Herbert for the moment
-was cowed and frightened by the sight of her; but Giovanna had perfect
-possession of her faculties. She faced the new-comers with a blush,
-which only improved her beauty, and laughed.
-
-“Eh bien!” she cried, “you have then found out, Madame Suzanne? I am
-content, me. I am not fond of to deceive. Speak to her, mon ’Erbert, the
-word is to thee.”
-
-“Yes, Aunt Susan,” he said, trying to laugh too, but blushing, a hot
-uneasy blush, not like Giovanna’s. “I beg your pardon. Of course I ought
-to have spoken to you before; and equally of course now you see what has
-happened without requiring any explanation. Giovanna, whom you have
-been so kind to, is going to be my wife.”
-
-Miss Susan once more cried out wildly in her misery, “It cannot be--it
-shall not be! I will not have it!” she said.
-
-Once more Giovanna laughed, not offensively, but with a good-natured
-sense of fun. “Mon Dieu!” she said, “what can you do? Why should not we
-be bons amis? You cannot do anything, Madame Suzanne. It is all fixed
-and settled, and if you will think, it is for the best, it will arrange
-all.” Giovanna had a real desire to make peace, to secure de l’amitié,
-as she said. She went across the room toward Miss Susan, holding out her
-hand.
-
-And then for a moment a mortal struggle went on in Susan Austin’s soul.
-She repulsed wildly, but mechanically, the offered hand, and stood there
-motionless, her breast panting, all the powers of nature startled into
-intensity, and such a conflict and passion going on within her as made
-her blind and deaf to the world outside. Then suddenly she put her hand
-upon the nearest chair, and drawing it to her, sat down, opposite to
-Herbert, with a nervous shiver running over her frame. She put up her
-hand to her throat, as if to tear away something which restrained or
-suffocated her; and then she said, in a terrible, stifled voice,
-“Herbert! first you must hear what I have got to say.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLV.
-
-
-Giovanna looked at Miss Susan with surprise, then with a little
-apprehension. It was her turn to be uneasy. “Que voulez-vous? que
-voulez-vous dire?” she said under her breath, endeavoring to catch Miss
-Susan’s eye. Miss Susan was a great deal too impassioned and absorbed
-even to notice the disturbed condition of her adversary. She knew
-herself to be surrounded by an eager audience, but yet in her soul she
-was alone, insensible to everything, moved only by a passionate impulse
-to relieve herself, to throw off the burden which was driving her mad.
-She did not even see Giovanna, who after walking round behind Herbert,
-trying to communicate by the eyes with the woman whom all this time she
-had herself subdued by covert threats, sat down at last at the head of
-the sofa, putting her hand, which Herbert took into his, upon it.
-Probably this sign of kindness stimulated Miss Susan, though I doubt
-whether she was conscious of it, something having laid hold upon her
-which was beyond her power to resist.
-
-“I have a story to tell you, children,” she said, pulling instinctively
-with her hand at the throat of her dress, which seemed to choke her,
-“and a confession to make. I have been good, good enough in my way,
-trying to do my duty most of my life; but now at the end of it I have
-done wrong, great wrong, and sinned against you all. God forgive me! and
-I hope you’ll forgive me. I’ve been trying to save myself from
-the--exposure--from the shame, God help me! I have thought of myself,
-when I ought to have thought of you all. Oh, I’ve been punished! I’ve
-been punished! But perhaps it is not yet too late. Oh, Herbert, Herbert!
-my dear boy, listen to me!”
-
-“If you are going to say anything against Giovanna, you will lose your
-time, Aunt Susan,” said Herbert; and Giovanna leaned on the arm of the
-sofa, and kissed his forehead again in thanks and triumph.
-
-“What I am going to say first is against myself,” said Miss Susan. “It
-is three years ago--a little more than three years; Farrel-Austin, who
-is dead, came and told me that he had found the missing people, the
-Austins whom you have heard of, whom I had sought for so long, and that
-he had made some bargain with them, that they should withdraw in his
-favor. You were very ill then, Herbert, thought to be dying; and
-Farrel-Austin--poor man, he is dead!--was our enemy. It was dreadful,
-dreadful to think of him coming here, being the master of the place.
-That was my sin to begin with. I thought I could bear anything sooner
-than that.”
-
-Augustine came into the room at this moment. She came and went so
-noiselessly that no one even heard her; and Miss Susan was too much
-absorbed to note anything. The new-comer stood still near the door
-behind her sister, at first because it was her habit, and then, I
-suppose, in sympathy with the motionless attention of the others, and
-the continuance without a pause of Miss Susan’s voice.
-
-“I meant no harm; I don’t know what I meant. I went to break their
-bargain, to show them the picture of the house, to make them keep their
-rights against that man. It was wicked enough. Farrel-Austin’s gone, and
-God knows what was between him and us; but to think of him here made me
-mad, and I went to try and break the bargain. I own that was what I
-meant. It was not, perhaps, Christian-like; not what your Aunt
-Augustine, who is as good as an angel, would have approved of; but it
-was not wicked, not wicked, if I had done no more than that!
-
-“When I got there,” said Miss Susan, drawing a long breath, “I found
-them willing enough; but the man was old, and his son was dead, and
-there was nothing but daughters left. In the room with them was a
-daughter, a young married woman, a young widow--”
-
-“Yes, there was me,” said Giovanna. “To what good is all this narrative,
-Madame Suzanne? Me, I know it before, and Monsieur ’Erbert is not
-amused; look, he yawns. We have assez, assez, for to-day.”
-
-“There was _she_; sitting in the room, a poor, melancholy, neglected
-creature; and there was the other young woman, Gertrude, pretty and
-fair, like an English girl. She was--going to have a baby,” said Miss
-Susan, even at that moment hesitating in her old maidenliness before she
-said it, her old face coloring softly. “The devil put it into my head
-all at once. It was not premeditated; I did not make it up in my mind.
-All at once, all at once the devil put it into my head! I said suddenly
-to the old woman, to old Madame Austin, ‘Your daughter-in-law is in the
-same condition?’ She was sitting down crouched in a corner. She was said
-to be sick. What was more natural,” cried poor Miss Susan looking round,
-“than to think that was the cause?”
-
-Perhaps it was the first time she had thought of this excuse. She caught
-at the idea with heat and eagerness, appealing to them all. “What more
-natural than that I should think so? She never rose up; I could not see
-her. Oh, children,” cried Miss Susan, wringing her hands, “I cannot tell
-how much or how little wickedness there was in my first thought; but
-answer me, wasn’t it natural? The old woman took me up in a moment, took
-up more--yes, I am sure--more than I meant. She drew me away to her
-room, and there we talked of it. She did not say to me distinctly that
-the widow was not in that way. We settled,” she said after a pause, with
-a shiver and gasp before the words, “that anyhow--if a boy came--it was
-to be Giovanna’s boy and the heir.”
-
-Herbert made an effort at this moment to relinquish Giovanna’s hand,
-which he had been holding all the time; not, I believe, because of this
-information, which he scarcely understood as yet, but because his arm
-was cramped remaining so long in the same position; but she, as was
-natural, understood the movement otherwise. She held him for a second,
-then tossed his hand away and sprang up from her chair. “Après?” she
-cried, with an insolent laugh. “Madame Suzanne, you radotez, you are too
-old. This goes without saying that the boy is Giovanna’s boy.”
-
-“Yes, we know all this,” said Herbert, pettishly. “Aunt Susan, I cannot
-imagine what you are making all this fuss and looking so excited about.
-What do you mean? What is all this about old women and babies? I wish
-you would speak out if you have anything to say. Giovanna, come here.”
-
-“Yes,” she said, throwing herself on the sofa beside him; “yes, mon
-Herbert, mon bien-aimé. You will not abandon me, whatever any one may
-say?”
-
-“Herbert,” cried Miss Susan, “let her alone, let her alone, for God’s
-sake! She is guilty, guiltier than I am. She made a pretence as her
-mother-in-law told her, pretended to be ill, pretended to have a child,
-kept up the deceit--how can I tell how long?--till now. Gertrude is
-innocent, whose baby was taken; she thought it died, poor thing, poor
-thing! but Giovanna is not innocent. All she has done, all she has said,
-has been lies, lies! The child is not her child; it is not the heir. She
-has thrust herself into this house, and done all this mischief, by a
-lie. She knows it; look at her. She has kept her place by threatening
-me, by holding my disgrace before my eyes; and now, Herbert, my poor
-boy, my poor boy, she will ruin you. Oh, put her away, put her away!”
-
-Herbert rose up, trembling in his weakness. “Is this true, Giovanna?” he
-said, turning to her piteously. “Have you anything to say against it? Is
-it true?”
-
-Reine, who had been standing behind, listening with an amazement beyond
-the reach of words, came to her brother’s side, to support him at this
-terrible moment; but he put her away. Even Miss Susan, who was the chief
-sufferer, fell into the background. Giovanna kept her place on the sofa,
-defiant, while he stood before her, turning his back upon the elder
-offender, who felt this mark of her own unimportance, even in the fever
-of her excitement and passion.
-
-“Have you nothing to say against it?” cried Herbert, with anguish in his
-voice. “Giovanna! Giovanna! is it true?”
-
-Giovanna shrugged her shoulders impatiently. “Mon Dieu,” she said, “I
-did what I was told. They said to me, ‘Do this,’ and I did it; was it my
-fault? It was the old woman who did all, as Madame Suzanne says--”
-
-“We are all involved together, God forgive us!” cried Miss Susan, bowing
-her head into her hands.
-
-Then there was a terrible pause. They were all silent, all waiting to
-hear what Herbert had to say, who, by reason of being most deeply
-involved, seemed suddenly elevated into the judge. He went away from the
-sofa where Giovanna was, and in front of which Miss Susan was sitting,
-as far away as he could get, and began to walk up and down the room in
-his excitement. He took no further notice of Giovanna, but after a
-moment, pausing in his angry march, said suddenly, “It was all on
-Farrel-Austin’s account you plunged into crime like this? Silence,
-Reine! it is crime, and it is she who is to blame. What in the name of
-heaven had Farrel-Austin done to you that you should avenge yourself
-upon us all like this?”
-
-“Forgive me, Herbert!” said Miss Susan, faintly; “he was to have married
-Augustine, and he forsook her, jilted her, shamed her, my only sister.
-How could I see him in this house?”
-
-And then again there was a pause. Even Reine made no advance to the
-culprit, though her heart began to beat loudly, and her indignation was
-mingled with pity. Giovanna sat gloomy; drumming with her foot upon the
-carpet. Herbert had resumed his rapid pacing up and down. Miss Susan sat
-in the midst of them, hopeless, motionless, her bowed head hidden in her
-hands, every help and friendly prop dropped away from her, enduring to
-the depths the bitterness of her punishment, yet, perhaps, with a
-natural reaction, asking herself, was there none, none of all she had
-been kind to, capable of a word, a look, a touch of pity in this moment
-of her downfall and uttermost need? Both Everard and Reine felt upon
-them that strange spell which often seems to freeze all outward action
-in a great emergency, though their hearts were swelling. They had both
-made a forward step; when suddenly, the matter was taken out of their
-hands. Augustine, perhaps, was more slow than any of them, out of her
-abstraction and musing, to be roused to what was being said. But the
-last words had supplied a sharp sting of reality which woke her fully,
-and helped her to understand. As soon as she had mastered it, she went
-up swiftly and silently to her sister, put her arms round her, and drew
-away the hands in which she had buried her face.
-
-“Susan,” she said, in a voice more real and more living than had been
-heard from her lips for years, “I have heard everything. You have
-confessed your sin, and God will forgive you. Come with me.”
-
-“Austine! Austine!” cried poor Miss Susan, shrinking, dropping to the
-floor at the feet of the immaculate creature who was to her as a saint.
-
-“Yes, it is I,” said Augustine. “Poor Susan! and I never knew! God will
-forgive you. Come with me.”
-
-“Yes,” said the other, the elder and stronger, with the humility of a
-child; and she got up from where she had thrown herself, and casting a
-pitiful look upon them all, turned round and gave her hand to her
-sister. She was weak with her excitement, and exhausted as if she had
-risen from a long illness. Augustine drew her sister’s hand through her
-arm, and without another word, led her away. Reine rushed after them,
-weeping and anxious, the bonds loosed that seemed to have congealed her.
-Augustine put her back, not unkindly, but with decision. “Another time,
-Reine. She is going with me.”
-
-They were all so overawed by this sudden action that even Herbert
-stopped short in his angry march, and Everard, who opened the door for
-their exit, could only look at them, and could not say a word. Miss
-Susan hung on Augustine’s arm, broken, shattered, feeble; an old woman,
-worn out and fainting. The recluse supporting her, with a certain air of
-strength and pride, strangely unlike her nature, walked on steadily and
-firmly, looking, as was her wont, neither to the right hand nor the
-left. All her life Susan had been her protector, her supporter, her
-stay. Now their positions had changed all in a moment. Erect and almost
-proud she walked out of the room, holding up the bowed-down, feeble
-figure upon her arm. And the young people, all so strangely, all so
-differently affected by this extraordinary revelation, stood blankly
-together and looked at each other, not knowing what to say, when the
-door closed. None of the three Austins spoke to or looked at Giovanna,
-who sat on the sofa, still drumming with her foot upon the carpet. When
-the first blank pause was over, Reine went up to Herbert and put her arm
-through his.
-
-“Oh, forgive her, forgive her!” she cried.
-
-“I will never forgive her,” he said wildly; “she has been the cause of
-it all. Why did she let this go on, my God! and why did she tell me
-now?”
-
-Giovanna sat still, beating her foot on the carpet, and neither moved
-nor spoke.
-
-As for Susan and Augustine, no one attempted to follow them. No one
-thought of anything further than a withdrawal to their rooms of the two
-sisters, united in a tenderness of far older date than the memories of
-the young people could reach; and I don’t even know whether the impulse
-that made them both turn through the long passage toward the porch was
-the same. I don’t suppose it was. Augustine thought of leading her
-penitent sister to the Almshouse chapel, as she would have wished should
-be done to herself in any great and sudden trouble; whereas an idea of
-another kind entered at once into the mind of Susan, which, beaten down
-and shaken as it was, began already to recover a little after having
-thrown off the burden. She paused a moment in the hall, and took down a
-gray hood which was hanging there, like Augustine’s, a covering which
-she had adopted to please her sister on her walks about the roads near
-home. It was the nearest thing at hand, and she caught at it, and put it
-on, as both together with one simultaneous impulse they bent their steps
-to the door. I have said that the day was damp and dismal and hopeless,
-one of those days which make a despairing waste of a leafy country. Now
-and then there would come a miserable gust of wind, carrying floods of
-sickly yellow leaves from all the trees, and in the intervals a small
-mizzling rain, not enough to wet anything, coming like spray in the
-wayfarers’ faces, filled up the dreary moments. No one was out of doors
-who could be in; it was worse than a storm, bringing chill to the marrow
-of your bones, weighing heavy upon your soul. The two old sisters,
-without a word to each other, went out through the long passage, through
-the porch in which Miss Susan had sat and done her knitting so many
-Summers through. She took no farewell look at the familiar place, made
-no moan as she left it. They went out clinging to each other, Augustine
-erect and almost proud, Susan bowed and feeble, across the sodden wet
-lawn, and out at the little gate in Priory Lane. They had done it a
-hundred and a thousand times before; they meant, or at least Miss Susan
-meant, to do it never again; but her mind was capable of no regret for
-Whiteladies. She went out mechanically, leaning on her sister, yet
-almost mechanically directing that sister the way Susan intended to go,
-not Augustine. And thus they set forth into the Autumn weather, into the
-mists, into the solitary world. Had the departure been made publicly
-with solemn farewells and leave-takings, they would have felt it far
-more deeply. As it was, they scarcely felt it at all, having their minds
-full of other things. They went along Priory Lane, wading through the
-yellow leaves, and along the road to the village, where Augustine would
-have turned to the left, the way to the Almshouses. They had not spoken
-a word to each other, and Miss Susan leaned almost helplessly in her
-exhaustion upon her sister; but nevertheless she swayed Augustine in the
-opposite direction across the village street. One or two women came out
-to the cottage doors to look after them. It was a curious sight, instead
-of Miss Augustine, gray and tall and noiseless, whom they were all used
-to watch in the other direction, to see the two gray figures going on
-silently, one so bowed and aged as to be unrecognizable, exactly the
-opposite way. “She have got another with her, an old ’un,” the women
-said to each other, and rubbed their eyes, and were not half sure that
-the sight was real. They watched the two figures slowly disappearing
-round the corner. It came on to rain, but the wayfarers did not quicken
-their pace. They proceeded slowly on, neither saying a word to the
-other, indifferent to the rain and to the yellow leaves that tumbled on
-their path. So, I suppose, with their heads bowed, and no glance behind,
-the first pair may have gone desolate out of Paradise. But they were
-young, and life was before them; whereas Susan and Augustine, setting
-out forlorn upon their new existence, were old, and had no heart for
-another home and another life.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLVI.
-
-
-When a number of people have suddenly been brought together accidentally
-by such an extraordinary incident as that I have attempted to describe,
-it is almost as difficult for them to separate, as it is to know what to
-do, or what to say to each other. Herbert kept walking up and down the
-room, dispelling, or thinking he was dispelling, his wrath and
-excitement in this way. Giovanna sat on the sofa motionless, except her
-foot, with which she kept on beating the carpet. Reine, after trying to
-join herself to her brother, as I have said, and console him, went back
-to Everard, who had gone to the window, the safest refuge for the
-embarrassed and disturbed. Reine went to her betrothed, finding in him
-that refuge which is so great a safeguard to the mind in all
-circumstances. She was very anxious and unhappy, but it was about
-others, not about herself; and though there was a cloud of disquietude
-and pain upon her, as she stood by Everard’s side, her face turned
-toward the others, watching for any new event, yet Reine’s mind had in
-itself such a consciousness of safe anchorage, and of a refuge beyond
-any one’s power to interfere with, that the very trouble which had
-overtaken them, seemed to add a fresh security to her internal
-well-being. Nothing that any one could say, nothing that any one could
-do, could interfere between her and Everard; and Everard for his part,
-with that unconscious selfishness _à deux_, which is like no other kind
-of selfishness, was not thinking of Herbert, or Miss Susan, but only of
-his poor Reine, exposed to this agitation and trouble.
-
-“Oh, if I could only carry you away from it all, my poor darling!” he
-said in her ear.
-
-Reine said, “Oh, hush, Everard, do not think of me,” feeling, indeed,
-that she was not the chief sufferer, nor deserving, in the present case,
-of the first place in any one’s sympathy; yet she was comforted. “Why
-does not she go away?--oh, if she would but go away!” cried Reine, and
-stood thus watching, consoled by her lover, anxious and vigilant, but
-yet not the person most deserving of pity, as she herself felt.
-
-While they thus remained as Miss Susan had left them, not knowing how to
-get themselves dispersed, there came a sudden sound of carriage wheels,
-and loud knocking at the great door on the other side of the house, the
-door by which all strangers approached.
-
-“Oh, as if we were not bad enough already, here are visitors!” cried
-Reine. And even Herbert seemed to listen, irritated by the unexpected
-commotion. Then followed the sound of loud voices, and a confused
-colloquy. “I must go and receive them, whoever it is,” said Reine, with
-a moan over her fate. After awhile steps were heard approaching, and the
-door was thrown open suddenly. “Not here, not here,” cried Reine,
-running forward. “The drawing-room, Stevens.”
-
-“Beg pardon, ma’am,” said Stevens, flushed and angry. “It ain’t my
-fault. I can’t help it. They won’t be kep’ back, Miss Reine,” he cried,
-bending his head down over her. “Don’t be frightened. It’s the hold
-foreign gent--”
-
-“Not here,” cried Reine again. “Oh, whom did you say? Stevens, I tell
-you not here.”
-
-“But he is here; the hold foreign gent,” said Stevens, who seemed to be
-suddenly pulled back from behind by somebody following him. If there had
-been any laughter in her, I think Reine would have laughed; but though
-the impulse gleamed across her distracted mind, the power was wanting.
-And there suddenly appeared, facing her, in the place of Stevens, two
-people, who took from poor Reine all inclination to laugh. One of them
-was an old man, spruce and dapper, in the elaborate travelling wraps of
-a foreigner, of the bourgeois class, with a comforter tied round his
-neck, and a large great coat with a hood to it. The other was a young
-woman, fair and full, with cheeks momentarily paled by weariness and
-agitation, but now and then dyed deep with rosy color. These two came to
-a momentary stop in their eager career, to gaze at Reine, but finally
-pushing past her, to her great amazement, got before her into the room
-which she had been defending from them.
-
-“I seek Madame Suzanne! I seek the lady!” said the old man.
-
-At the sound of his voice Giovanna sprang to her feet; and as soon as
-they got sight of her, the two strangers made a startled pause. Then the
-young woman rushed forward and laid hold of her by the arm.
-
-“Mon bébé! mon enfant! donne-moi mon bébé!” she said.
-
-“Eh bien, Gertrude! c’est toi!” cried Giovanna. She was roused in a
-moment from the quiescent state, sullen or stupefied, in which she had
-been. She seemed to rise full of sudden energy and new life. “And the
-bon papa, too! Tiens, this is something of extraordinary; but,
-unhappily, Madame Suzanne has just left us, she is not here. Suffer me
-to present to you my beau-père, M. Herbert; my belle-sœur Gertrude,
-of whom you have just heard. Give yourself the trouble to sit down, my
-parents. This is a pleasure very unattended. Had Madame Suzanne
-known--she talked of you toute à l’heure--no doubt she would have
-stayed--”
-
-“Giovanna,” cried the old man, trembling, “you know, you must know, why
-we are here. Content this poor child, and restore to her her baby. Ah,
-traître! her baby, not thine. How could I be so blind--how could I be so
-foolish, and you so criminal, Giovanna? Your poor belle-mère has been
-ill, has been at the point of death, and she has told us all.”
-
-“Mon enfant!” cried the young woman, clasping her hands. “My bébé,
-Giovanna; give me my bébé, and I pardon thee all.”
-
-“Ah! the belle-mère has made her confession, then!” said Giovanna.
-“C’est ça? Poor belle-mère! and poor Madame Suzanne! who has come to do
-the same here. But none say ‘Poor Giovanna.’ Me, I am criminal, va! I am
-the one whom all denounce; but the others, they are then my victims, not
-I theirs!”
-
-“Giovanna, Giovanna, I debate not with thee,” cried the old man. “We say
-nothing to thee, nothing; we blame not, nor punish. We say, give back
-the child,--ah, give back the child! Look at her, how her color changes,
-how she weeps! Give her her bébé. We will not blame, nor say a word to
-thee, never!”
-
-“No! you will but leave me to die of hunger,” said Giovanna, “to die by
-the roads, in the fields, qu’importe? I am out of the law, me. Yet I
-have done less ill than the others. They were old, they had all they
-desired; and I was young, and miserable, and made mad--ah, ma Gertrude!
-by thee, too, gentle as thou look’st, even by thee!”
-
-“Giovanna, Giovanna!” cried Gertrude, throwing herself at her feet. Her
-pretty upturned face looked round and innocent, like a child’s, and the
-big tears ran down her cheeks. “Give me my bébé, and I will ask your
-pardon on my knees.”
-
-Giovanna made a pause, standing upright, with this stranger clinging to
-her dress, and looked round upon them all with a strange mixture of
-scorn and defiance and emotion. “Messieurs,” she said, “and
-mademoiselle! you see what proof the bon Dieu has sent of all Madame
-Suzanne said. Was it my doing? No! I was obedient, I did what I was
-told: but, voyons! it will be I who shall suffer. Madame Suzanne is
-safe. You can do nothing to her; in a little while you will lofe her
-again, as before. The belle-mère, who is wicked, wickedest of all, gets
-better, and one calls her poor bonne-maman, pauvre petite mère! But me!
-I am the one who shall be cast away, I am the one to be punished; here,
-there, everywhere, I shall be kicked like a dog--yes, like a dog! All
-the pardon, the miséricorde will be for them--for me the punishment.
-Because I am the most weak! because I am the slave of all--because I am
-the one who has excuse the most!”
-
-She was so noble in her attitude, so grand in her voice and expression,
-that Herbert stood and gazed at her like one spellbound. But I do not
-think she remarked this, being for the moment transported out of herself
-by a passionate outburst of feeling--sense of being wronged--pity for
-herself, defiance of her enemies; and a courage and resolution mingling
-with all which, if not very elevated in their origin, were intense
-enough to give elevation to her looks. What an actress she would have
-made! Everard thought regretfully. He was already very pitiful of the
-forsaken creature at whom every one threw a stone.
-
-“Giovanna, Giovanna!” cried the weeping Gertrude, clinging to her dress,
-“hear me! I will forgive you, I will love you. But give me my bébé,
-Giovanna, give me my child!”
-
-Giovanna paused again, looking down upon the baby face, all blurred with
-crying. Her own face changed from its almost tragic form to a softer
-aspect. A kind of pity stole over it, then another and stronger
-sentiment. A gleam of humor came into her eyes. “Tenez,” she said, “I go
-to have my revenge!” and drawing her dress suddenly from Gertrude’s
-clasp, she went up to the bell, rang it sharply, and waiting, facing
-them all with a smile, “Monsieur Stevens,” she said, with the most
-enchanting courtesy, when the butler appeared, “will you have the
-goodness to bring to me, or to send to me, my boy, the little mas-ter
-Jean?”
-
-After she had given this order, she stood still waiting, all the
-profounder feeling of her face disappearing into an illumination of
-gayety and fun, which none of the spectators understood. A few minutes
-elapsed while this pause lasted. Martha, who thought Master Jean was
-being sent for to see company, hastily invested him in his best frock
-and ribbons. “And be sure you make your bow pretty, and say how do do,”
-said innocent Martha, knowing nothing of the character of the visit, nor
-of the tragical change which had suddenly come upon the family life. The
-child came in with all the boldness of the household pet into the room
-in which so many excited people were waiting for him. His pretty fair
-hair was dressed according to the tradition of the British nursery, in a
-great flat curl on the top of his little head. He had his velvet frock
-on, with scarlet ribbons, and looked, as Martha proudly thought, “a
-little gentleman,” every inch of him. He looked round him with childish
-complaisance as he came in, and made his little salute, as Giovanna had
-taught him. But when Gertrude rushed toward him, as she did at once, and
-throwing herself on her knees beside him, caught him in her arms and
-covered him with kisses, little Jean was taken violently by surprise. A
-year’s interval is eternity to such a baby. He knew nothing about
-Gertrude. He cried, struggled, fought to be free, and finally struck at
-her with his sturdy little fists.
-
-“Mamma, mamma!” cried little Jean, holding out appealing arms to
-Giovanna, who stood at a little distance, her fine nostrils expanded, a
-smile upon her lip, a gleam of mischief in her eyes.
-
-“He will know _me_,” said the old man, going to his daughter’s aid. “A
-moment, give him a moment, Gertrude. A moi, Jeannot, à moi! Let him go,
-ma fille. Give him a moment to recollect himself; he has forgotten,
-perhaps, his language, Jeannot, my child, come to me!”
-
-Jean paid no attention to these blandishments. When Gertrude, weeping,
-released, by her father’s orders, her tight hold of the child, he rushed
-at once to Giovanna’s side, and clung to her dress, and hid his face in
-its folds. “Mamma, mamma, take Johnny!” he said.
-
-Giovanna stooped, lifted him like a feather, and tossed him up to her
-shoulder with a look of triumph. “There, thou art safe, no one can touch
-thee,” she said; and turning upon her discomfited relations, looked down
-upon them both with a smile. It was her revenge, and she enjoyed it with
-all her heart. The child clung to her, clasping both of his arms round
-hers, which she had raised to hold him fast. She laughed aloud--a laugh
-which startled every one, and woke the echoes all about.
-
-“Tiens!” she said, in her gay voice, “whose child is he now? Take him if
-you will, Gertrude, you who were always the first, who knew yourself in
-babies, who were more beloved than the stupid Giovanna. Take him, then,
-since he is to thee!”
-
-What a picture she would have made, standing there with the child, her
-great eyes flashing, her bosom expanded, looking down upon the plebeian
-pair before her with a triumphant smile! So Everard thought, who had
-entirely ranged himself on Giovanna’s side; and so thought poor Herbert,
-looking at her with his heart beating, his whole being in a ferment, his
-temper and his nerves worn to their utmost. He went away trembling from
-the sight, and beckoned Reine to him, and threw himself into a chair at
-the other end of the room.
-
-“What is all this rabble to us?” he cried querulously, when his sister
-answered his summons. “For heaven’s sake clear the house of
-strangers--get them away.”
-
-“All, Herbert?” said Reine, frightened.
-
-He made no further reply, but dismissed her with an impatient wave of
-his hand, and taking up a book, which she saw he held upside down, and
-which trembled in his hand, turned his back upon the new-comers who had
-so strangely invaded the house.
-
-As for these good people, they had nothing to say to this triumph of
-Giovanna. I suppose they had expected, as many innocent persons do, that
-by mere force of nature the child would turn to those who alone had a
-right to him. Gertrude, encumbered by her heavy travelling wraps,
-wearied, discouraged, and disappointed, sat down and cried, her round
-face getting every moment more blurred and unrecognizable. M. Guillaume,
-however, though tired too, and feeling this reception very different
-from the distinguished one which he had received on his former visit,
-felt it necessary to maintain the family dignity.
-
-“I would speak with Madame Suzanne,” he said, turning to Reine, who
-approached. “Mademoiselle does not perhaps know that I am a relation, a
-next-of-kin. It is I, not the poor bébé, who am the next to succeed. I
-am Guillaume Austin, of Bruges. I would speak with Madame Suzanne. She
-will know how to deal with this insensée, this woman who keeps from my
-daughter her child.”
-
-“My aunt is--ill,” said Reine. “I don’t think she is able to see you.
-Will you come into another room and rest? and I will speak to Giovanna.
-You must want to rest--a little--and--something to eat--”
-
-So far Reine’s hospitable instincts carried her; but when Stevens
-entered with a request from the driver of the cab which had brought the
-strangers hither, to know what he was to do, she could not make any
-reply to the look that M. Guillaume gave her. That look plainly implied
-a right to remain in the house, which made Reine tremble, and she
-pretended not to see that she was referred to. Then the old shopkeeper
-took it upon himself to send away the man. “Madame Suzanne would be
-uncontent, certainly uncontent, if I went away without to see her,” he
-said; “dismiss him then, mon ami. I will give you to pay--” and he
-pulled out a purse from his pocket. What could Reine do or say? She
-stood trembling, wondering how it was all to be arranged, what she could
-do; for though she was quite unaware of the withdrawal of Miss Susan,
-she felt that in this case it was her duty to act for her brother and
-herself. She went up to Giovanna softly, and touched her on the arm.
-
-“What are you going to do?” she said in a whisper. “Oh, Giovanna, have
-some pity upon us! Get them to go away. My Aunt Susan has been kind to
-you, and how could she see these people? Oh, get them to go away!”
-
-Giovanna looked down upon Reine, too, with the same triumphant smile.
-“You come also,” she said, “Mademoiselle Reine, you, too! to poor
-Giovanna, who was not good for anything. Bien! It cannot be for
-to-night, but perhaps for to-morrow, for they are fatigued--that sees
-itself. Gertrude, to cry will do nothing; it will frighten the child
-more, who is, as you perceive, to me, not to thee. Smile, then--that
-will be more well--and come with me, petite sotte. Though thou wert not
-good to Giovanna, Giovanna will be more noble, and take care of thee.”
-
-She took hold of her sister-in-law as she spoke, half dragged her off
-her chair, and leading her with her disengaged hand, walked out of the
-room with the child on her shoulder. Reine heard the sound of an
-impatient sigh, and hurried to her brother’s side. But Herbert had his
-eyes firmly fixed upon the book, and when she came up to him waved her
-off.
-
-“Let me alone,” he said in his querulous tones, “cannot you let me
-alone!” Even the touch of tenderness was more than he could bear.
-
-Then it was Everard’s turn to exert himself, who had met M. Guillaume
-before, and with a little trouble got him to follow the others as far as
-the small dining-room, in which Reine had given orders for a hasty meal.
-M. Guillaume was not unwilling to enter into explanations. His poor
-wife, he said, had been ill for weeks past.
-
-“It was some mysterious attack of the nerves; no one could tell what it
-was,” the old man said. “I called doctor after doctor, if you will
-believe me, monsieur. I spared no expense. At last it was said to me,
-‘It is a priest that is wanted, not a doctor.’ I am Protestant,
-monsieur,” said the old shopkeeper seriously. “I replied with disdain,
-‘According to my faith, it is the husband, it is the father who is
-priest.’ I go to Madame Austin’s chamber. I say to her, ‘My wife,
-speak!’ Brief, monsieur, she spoke, that suffering angel, that martyr!
-She told us of the wickedness which Madame Suzanne and cette méchante
-planned, and how she was drawn to be one with them, pauvre chérie. Ah,
-monsieur, how women are weak! or when not weak, wicked. She told us all,
-monsieur, how she has been unhappy! and as soon as we could leave her,
-we came, Gertrude and I--for my part, I was not pressé--I said, ‘Thou
-hast many children, my Gertrude; leave then this one to be at the
-expense of those who have acted so vilely.’ And my poor angel said also
-from her sick-bed; but the young they are obstinate, they have no
-reason, and--behold us! We had a bad, very bad traversée; and it
-appears that la jeune-là, whom I know not, would willingly send us back
-without the repose of an hour.”
-
-“You must pardon her,” said Everard. “We have been in great trouble, and
-she did not know even who you were.”
-
-“It seems to me,” said the old man, opening his coat with a flourish of
-offended dignity, “that in this house, which may soon be mine, all
-should know me. When I say I am Guillaume Austin of Bruges, what more
-rests to say?”
-
-“But, Monsieur Guillaume,” said Everard, upon whom these words, “this
-house, which may soon be mine,” made, in spite of himself, a highly
-disagreeable impression, “I have always heard that for yourself you
-cared nothing for it--would not have it indeed.”
-
-“I would not give that for it,” said the old man with a snap of his
-fingers; “a miserable grange, a maison du campagne, a thing of wood and
-stone! But one has one’s dignity and one’s rights.”
-
-And he elevated his old head, with a snort from the Austin nose, which
-he possessed in its most pronounced form. Everard did not know whether
-to take him by the shoulders and to turn him out of the house, or to
-laugh; but the latter was the easiest. The old shopkeeper was like an
-old cock strutting about the house which he despised. “I hate your
-England,” he said, “your rain, your Autumn, your old baraques which you
-call châteaux. For châteaux come to my country, come to the Pays Bas,
-monsieur. No, I would not change, I care not for your dirty England.
-But,” he added, “one has one’s dignity and one’s rights, all the same.”
-
-He was mollified, however, when Stevens came to help him off with his
-coats, and when Cook sent up the best she could supply on such short
-notice.
-
-“I thought perhaps, M. Austin, you would like to rest before--dinner,”
-said Reine, trembling as she said the last word. She hoped still that he
-would interrupt her, and add, “before we go.”
-
-But no such thought entered into M. Guillaume’s mind. He calculated on
-staying a few days now that he was here, as he had done before, and
-being made much of, as then. He inclined his head politely in answer to
-Reine’s remark, and said, Yes, he would be pleased to rest before
-dinner; the journey was long and very fatiguing. He thought even that
-after dinner he would retire at once, that he might be remis for
-to-morrow. “And I hope, mademoiselle, that your villanous weather will
-se remettre,” he added. “Bon Dieu, what it must be to live in this
-country! When the house comes to me, I will sell it, monsieur. The money
-will be more sweet elsewhere than in this vieux maison delabré, though
-it is so much to you.”
-
-“But you cannot sell it,” said Reine, flushing crimson, “if it ever
-should come to you.”
-
-“Who will prevent me?” said M. Guillaume. “Ah, your maudit law of
-heritage! Tiens! then I will pull it down, mademoiselle,” he said
-calmly, sipping the old claret, and making her a little bow.
-
-The reader may judge how agreeable M. Guillaume made himself with this
-kind of conversation. He was a great deal more at his ease than he had
-ever been with Miss Susan, of whom he stood in awe.
-
-“After this misfortune, this surprise,” he went on, “which has made so
-much to suffer my poor wife, it goes of my honor to take myself the
-place of heir. I cannot more make any arrangement, any bargain, monsieur
-perceives, that one should be able to say Guillaume Austin of Bruges
-deceived the world to put in his little son, against the law, to be the
-heir! Oh, these women, these women, how they are weak and wicked! When I
-heard of it I wept. I, a man, an old! my poor angel has so much
-suffered; I forgave her when I heard her tale; but that méchante, that
-Giovanna, who was the cause of all, how could I forgive--and Madame
-Suzanne? Apropos, where is Madame Suzanne? She comes not, I see her not.
-She is afraid, then, to present herself before me.”
-
-This was more than Reine’s self-denial could bear. “I do not know who
-you are,” she cried indignantly. “I never heard there were any Austins
-who were not gentlemen. Do not stop me, Everard. This house is my
-brother’s house, and I am his representative. We have nothing to do with
-you, heir or not heir, and know nothing about your children, or your
-wife, or any one belonging to you. For poor Giovanna’s sake, though no
-doubt you have driven her to do wrong through your cruelty, you shall
-have what you want for to-night. Miss Susan Austin afraid of _you_!
-Everard, I cannot stay any longer to hear my family and my home
-insulted. See that they have what they want!” said the girl, ablaze with
-rage and indignation.
-
-M. Guillaume, perhaps, had been taking too much of the old claret in his
-fatigue, and he did not understand English very well when delivered with
-such force and rapidity. He looked after her with more surprise than
-anger when Reine, a little too audibly in her wrath, shut behind her the
-heavy oak door.
-
-“Eh bien?” he said. “Mademoiselle is irritable, n’est ce pas? And what
-did she mean, then, for Giovanna’s sake?”
-
-Everard held it to be needless to explain Reine’s innocent flourish of
-trumpets in favor of the culprit. He said, “Ah, that is the question.
-What do you mean to do about Giovanna, M. Guillaume?”
-
-“Do!” cried the old man, and he made a coarse but forcible gesture, as
-of putting something disagreeable out of his mouth, “she may die of
-hunger, as she said--by the road, by the fields--for anything she will
-get from me.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLVII.
-
-
-I need not say that the condition of Whiteladies that evening was about
-as uncomfortable as could be conceived. Before dinner--a ceremonial at
-which Everard alone officiated, with the new-comers and Giovanna, all of
-whom ate a very good dinner--it had been discovered that Miss Susan had
-not gone to her own room, but to her new house, from which a messenger
-arrived for Martha in the darkening of the Winterly afternoon. The
-message was from Miss Augustine, written in her pointed, old-fashioned
-hand; and requesting that Martha would bring everything her mistress
-required for the night; Augustine forgot that she herself wanted
-anything. It was old John Simmons, from the Almshouses, who brought the
-note, and who told the household that Miss Augustine had been there as
-usual for the evening service. The intimation of this sudden removal
-fell like a thunderbolt upon the house. Martha, crying, packed her
-little box, and went off in the early darkness, not knowing, as she
-said, whether she was “on her head or her heels,” and thinking every
-tree a ghost as she went along the unfamiliar road, through the misty,
-dreary night. Herbert had retired to his room, where he would not admit
-even his sister, and Reine, sad and miserable, with a headache as well
-as a heartache, not knowing what was the next misfortune that might
-happen, wandered up and down all the evening through, fretting at
-Everard’s long absence, though she had begged him to undertake the
-duties of host, and longing to see Giovanna and talk to her, with a
-desire that was half liking and half hatred. Oh, how dared she, how
-dared she live among them with such a secret on her mind? Yet what was
-to become of her? Reine felt with a mixture of contempt and satisfaction
-that, so far as Herbert was concerned, Giovanna’s chances were all over
-forever. She flitted about the house, listening with wonder and horror
-to the sound of voices from the dining-room, which were cheerful enough
-in the midst of the ruin and misery that these people had made. Reine
-was no more just, no more impartial, than the rest. She said to herself,
-“which _these people_ had made,” and pitied poor Miss Susan whose heart
-was broken by it, just as M. Guillaume pitied his suffering angel, his
-poor wife. Reine on her side threw all the guilt upon that suffering
-angel. Poor Giovanna had done what she was told, but it was the wretched
-old woman, the vulgar schemer, the wicked old Fleming who had planned
-the lie in all its details, and had the courage to carry it out. All
-Reine’s heart flowed over with pity for the sinner who was her own. Poor
-Aunt Susan! what could she be thinking? how could she be feeling in the
-solitude of the strange new house! No doubt believing that the children
-to whom she had been so kind had abandoned her. It was all Reine could
-do to keep herself from going with Martha, to whom she gave a hundred
-messages of love. “Tell her I wanted to come with you, but could not
-because of the visitors. Tell her the old gentleman from Bruges--Bruges,
-Martha, you will not forget the name--came directly she had gone; and
-that I hope they are going away to-morrow, and that I will come to her
-at once. Give her my dear love, Martha,” cried the girl, following
-Martha out to the porch, and standing there in the darkness watching
-her, while Miss Susan’s maid walked out unwillingly into the night,
-followed by the under-gardener with her baggage. This was while the
-others were at dinner, and it was then that Reine saw the cheerful light
-through the great oriel window, and heard the voices sounding cheerful
-too, she thought, notwithstanding the strange scenes they had just gone
-through. She was so restless and so curious that she stole upstairs into
-the musicians’ gallery, to see what they were doing. Giovanna was the
-mistress of the situation still; but she seemed to be using her power in
-a merciful way. The serious part of the dinner was concluded, and little
-Jean was there, whom Giovanna--throwing sweetmeats across the table to
-Gertrude, who sat with her eyes fixed upon her as upon a goddess--was
-beguiling into recollection of and friendship with the new-comers.
-“C’est Maman Gertrude; c’est ton autre maman,” she was saying to the
-child. “Tiens, all the bonbons are with her. I have given all to her.
-Say ‘Maman Gertrude,’ and she will give thee some.” There was a
-strained air of gayety and patronage about Giovanna, or so at least
-Reine thought, and she went away guiltily from this peep at them,
-feeling herself an eavesdropper, and thinking she saw Everard look up to
-the corner he too knew so well; and thus the evening passed, full of
-agitation and pain. When the strangers were got to their rooms at last,
-Everard found a little eager ghost, with great anxious eyes, upon the
-stairs waiting for him; and they had a long eager talk in whispers, as
-if anybody could hear them. “Giovanna is behaving like a brick,” said
-Everard. “She is doing all she can to content the child with the new
-people. Poor little beggar! I don’t wonder he kicks at it. She had her
-little triumph, poor girl, but she’s acting like a hero now. What do you
-think, Reine? Will Herbert go on with it in spite of all?”
-
-“If I were Herbert--” cried the girl, then stopped in her impulsive
-rapid outcry. “He is changed,” she said, tears coming to her eyes. “He
-is no longer my Bertie, Everard. No, we need not vex ourselves about
-that; we shall never hear of it any more.”
-
-“So much the better,” said Everard; “it never would have answered;
-though one does feel sorry for Giovanna. Reine, my darling, what a
-blessing that old Susan, God help her! had the courage to make a clean
-breast of it before these others came!”
-
-“I never thought of that,” said the girl, awestricken. “So it was, so it
-was! It must have been Providence that put it into her head.”
-
-“It was Herbert’s madness that put it into her head. How could he be
-such a fool! but it is curious, you know, what set both of them on it at
-the same time, that horrible old woman at Bruges, and _her_ here. It
-looks like what they call a brain-wave,” said Everard, “though that
-throws a deal of light on the matter; don’t it? Queenie, you are as
-white as the China rose on the porch. I hope Julie is there to look
-after you. My poor little queen! I wonder why all this trouble should
-fall upon you.”
-
-“Oh, what is it to me in comparison?” said the girl, almost indignant;
-but he was so sorry for her, and his tender pity was in itself so sweet,
-that I think before they separated--her head still aching, though her
-heart was less sore--Reine, out of sympathy for him, had begun also to
-entertain a little pity for herself.
-
-The morning rose strangely on the disturbed household--rose impudently,
-without the least compassion for them, in a blaze of futile, too early
-sunshine, which faded after the first half of the day. The light seemed
-to look in mocking at the empty rooms in which Susan and Augustine had
-lived all their lives. Reine was early astir, unable to rest; and she
-had not been downstairs ten minutes when all sorts of references were
-made to her.
-
-“I should like to know, miss, if you please, who is to give the orders,
-if so be as Miss Susan have gone for good,” said Stevens; and Cook came
-up immediately after with her arms wrapped in her apron. “I won’t keep
-you not five minutes, miss; but if Miss Susan’s gone for good, I don’t
-know as I can find it convenient to stay. Where there’s gentlemen and a
-deal of company isn’t like a lady’s place, where there’s a quiet life,”
-said Cook. “Oh,” said Reine, driven to her wits’ end, “please, please,
-like good people, wait a little! How can I tell what we must do?” The
-old servants granted Reine the “little time” she begged, but they did it
-ungraciously and with a sure sense of supremacy over her. Happily she
-found a variety of trays with coffee going up to the strangers’ rooms,
-and found, to her great relief, that she would escape the misery of a
-breakfast with them; and François brought a message from Herbert to the
-effect that he was quite well, but meant to stay in his room till ces
-gens-là were out of the house. “May I not go to him?” cried Reine.
-“Monsieur is quite well,” François replied; “Mademoiselle may trust me.
-But it will be well to leave him till ce monsieur and ces dames have
-gone away.” And François too, though he was very kind to Mademoiselle
-Reine, gave her to understand that she should take precautions, and that
-Monsieur should not be exposed to scenes so trying; so that the
-household, with very good intentions, was hard upon Reine. And it was
-nearly noon before she saw anything of the other party, about whose
-departure she was so anxious. At last about twelve o’clock, perilously
-near the time of the train, she met Giovanna on the stairs. The young
-woman was pale, with the gayety and the triumph gone out of her. “I go
-to ask that the carriage may be ready,” said Giovanna. “They will go at
-midi, if Mademoiselle will send the carriage.”
-
-“Yes, yes,” said Reine, eagerly; “but you are ill, Giovanna; you are
-pale.” She added half timidly, after a moment, “What are you going to
-do?”
-
-Giovanna smiled with something of the bravado of the previous day. “I
-will derange no one,” she said; “Mademoiselle need not fear. I will not
-seek again those who have deserted me. C’est petit, ça!” she cried with
-a momentary outburst, waving her hand toward the door of Herbert’s room.
-Then controlling herself, “That they should go is best, n’est ce pas? I
-work for that. If Mademoiselle will give the orders for the carriage--”
-
-“Yes, yes,” said Reine, and then in her pity she laid her hand on
-Giovanna’s arm. “Giovanna, I am very sorry for you. I do not think you
-are the most to blame,” she said.
-
-“Blame!” said Giovanna, with a shrug of her shoulders, “I did as I was
-told.” Then two big tears came into her eyes. She put her white, large,
-shapely hands on Reine’s shoulders, and kissed her suddenly on both her
-cheeks. “You, you are good, you have a heart!” she said; “but to abandon
-the friends when they are in trouble, c’est petit, ça!” and with that
-she turned hastily and went back to her room. Reine, breathless, ran
-downstairs to order the carriage. She went to the door with her heart
-beating, and stood waiting to see what would happen, not knowing whether
-Giovanna’s kiss was to be taken as a farewell. Presently voices were
-heard approaching, and the whole party came downstairs; the old man in
-his big coat, with his cache-nez about his neck, Gertrude pale but
-happy, and last of all Giovanna, in her usual household dress, with the
-boy on her shoulder. Gertrude carried in her hand a large packet of
-bon-bons, and got hastily into the carriage, while her father stood
-bowing and making his little farewell speeches to Reine and Everard.
-Giovanna coming after them with her strong light step, her head erect,
-and the child, in his little velvet coat with his cap and feather,
-seated on her shoulder, his hand twisted in her hair, interested them
-more than all M. Guillaume’s speeches. Giovanna went past them to the
-carriage door; she had a flush upon her cheek which had been so pale.
-She put the child down upon Gertrude’s lap, and kissed him. “Mamma will
-come to Jean presently, in a moment,” she said. “Regarde donc! how much
-of bon-bons are in Mama Gertrude’s lap. Thou wilt eat them all, petit
-gourmand, and save none for me.”
-
-Then with a laugh and mocking menace she stepped back into a corner,
-where she was invisible to the child, and stood there motionless till
-the old man got in beside his daughter, and the carriage drove away. A
-little cry, wondering and wistful, “Mamma! mamma!” was the last sound
-audible as the wheels crashed over the gravel. Reine turned round,
-holding out her hands to the forlorn creature behind her, her heart full
-of pity. The tears were raining down in a storm from Giovanna’s eyes,
-but she laughed and shook them away. “Mon Dieu!” she cried, “I do not
-know why is this. Why should I love him? I am not his mother. But it is
-an attack of the nerfs--I cannot bear any more,” and drawing her hands
-out of Reine’s she fled with a strange shame and passion, through the
-dim passages. They heard her go upstairs, and, listening in some
-anxiety, after a few minutes’ interval, heard her moving about her room
-with brisk, active steps.
-
-“That is all right,” said Everard, with a sigh of relief. “Poor
-Giovanna! some one must be kind to her; but come in here and rest, my
-queen. All this is too much for you.”
-
-“Oh, what is it to me in comparison?” cried Reine; but she suffered
-herself to be led into the drawing-room to be consoled and comforted,
-and to rest before anything more was done. She thought she kept an ear
-alert to listen for Giovanna’s movements, but I suppose Everard was
-talking too close to that ear to make it so lively as it ought to have
-been. At least before anything was heard by either of them, Giovanna in
-her turn had gone away.
-
-She came downstairs carefully, listening to make sure that no one was
-about. She had put up all her little possessions ready to be carried
-away. Pausing in the corridor above to make sure that all was quiet, she
-went down with her swift, light step, a step too firm and full of
-character to be noiseless, but too rapid at the present moment to risk
-awaking any spies. She went along the winding passages, and out through
-the great porch, and across the damp grass. The afternoon had begun to
-set in by this time, and the fading sunshine of the morning was over.
-When she had reached the outer gate she turned back to look at the
-house. Giovanna was not a person of taste; she thought not much more of
-Whiteladies than her father-in-law did. “Adieu, vieil baraque,” she
-said, kissing the tips of her fingers; but the half-contempt of her
-words was scarcely carried out by her face. She was pale again, and her
-eyes were red. Though she had declared frankly that she saw no reason
-for loving little Jean, I suppose the child--whom she had determined to
-make fond of her, as it was not comme il faut that a mother and child
-should detest each other--had crept into her heart, though she professed
-not to know it. She had been crying, though she would not have admitted
-it, over his little empty bed, and those red rims to her eyes were the
-consequence. When she had made that farewell to the old walls she turned
-and went on, swiftly and lightly as a bird, skimming along the ground,
-her erect figure full of health and beautiful strength, vigor, and
-unconscious grace. She looked strong enough for anything, her firm foot
-ringing in perfect measure on the path, like a Roman woman in a
-procession, straight and noble, more vigorous, more practical, more
-alive than the Greek; fit to be made a statue of or a picture; to carry
-water-jars or grape-baskets, or children; almost to till the ground or
-sit upon a throne. The air cleared away the redness from her eyes, and
-brought color back to her cheeks. The _grand air_, the plein jour, words
-in which, for once in a way, the French excel us in the fine abundance
-and greatness of the ideas suggested, suited Giovanna; though she loved
-comfort too, and could be as indolent as heart could desire. But to-day
-she wanted the movement, the sense of rapid progress. She wore her usual
-morning-dress of heavy blue serge, so dark as to be almost black, with a
-kind of cloak of the same material, the end of which was thrown over the
-shoulder in a fashion of her own. The dress was perfectly simple,
-without flounce or twist of any kind in its long lines. Such a woman, so
-strong, so swift, so dauntless, carrying her head with such a light and
-noble grace, might have been a queen’s messenger, bound on affairs of
-life and death, carrying pardon and largesse or laws and noble
-ordinances of state from some throned Ida, some visionary princess.
-Though she did not know her way, she went straight on, finding it by
-instinct, seeing the high roof and old red walls of the Grange ever so
-far off, as only her penetrating eyes and noble height could have
-managed to see. She recovered her spirits as she walked on, and nodded
-and smiled with careless good-humor to the women in the village, who
-came to their doors to look after her, moved by that vague consciousness
-which somehow gets into the very atmosphere, of something going on at
-Whiteladies. “Something’s up,” they all said; though how they knew I
-cannot tell, nor could they themselves have told.
-
-The gate of the Grange, which was surrounded by shrubberies, stood open,
-and so did the door of the house, as generally happens when there has
-been a removal; for servants and workpeople have a fine sense of
-appropriateness, and prefer to be and to look as uncomfortable as
-possible at such a crisis. Giovanna went in without a moment’s
-hesitation. The door opened into a square hall, which gave entrance to
-several rooms, the sitting-rooms of the house. One of these doors only
-was shut, and this Giovanna divined must be the one occupied. She
-neither paused nor knocked nor asked admittance, but went straight to
-it, and opening the door, walked, without a word, into the room in
-which, as she supposed, Miss Susan was. She was not noiseless, as I have
-said; there was nothing of the cat about her; her foot sounded light and
-regular with a frankness beyond all thought of stealth. The sound of it
-had already roused the lonely occupant of the room. Miss Susan was lying
-on a sofa, worn out with the storm of yesterday, and looking old and
-feeble. She raised herself on her elbow, wondering who it was; and it
-startled her, no doubt, to see this young woman enter, who was, I
-suppose, the last person in the world she expected to see.
-
-“Giovanna, you!” she cried, and a strange shock ran through her, half of
-pain--for Reine _might_ have come by this time, she could not but
-think--yet strangely mixed, she could not tell how, with a tinge of
-pleasure too.
-
-“Madame Suzanne, yes,” said Giovanna, “it is me. I know not what you
-will think. I come back to you, though you have cast me away. All the
-world also has cast me away,” she added with a smile; “I have no one to
-whom I can go; but I am strong, I am young; I am not a lady, as you say.
-I know to do many things that ladies cannot do. I can frotter and brush
-when it is necessary. I can make the garden; I can conduct your
-carriage; many things more that I need not name. Even I can make the
-kitchen, or the robes when it is necessary. I come to say, Take me then
-for your butlaire, like old Stefan. I am more strong than he; I do many
-more things. Ecoutez, Madame Suzanne! I am alone, very alone; I know not
-what may come to me, but one perishes not when one can work. It is not
-for that I come. It is that I have de l’amitié for you.”
-
-Miss Susan made an incredulous exclamation, and shook her head; though I
-think there was a sentiment of a very different, and, considering all
-the circumstances, very strange character, rising in her heart.
-
-“You believe me not? Bien!” said Giovanna, “nevertheless, it is true.
-You have not loved me--which, perhaps, it is not possible that one
-should love me; you have looked at me as your enemy. Yes, it was tout
-naturel. Notwithstanding, you were kind. You spared nothing,” said the
-practical Giovanna. “I had to eat and to drink like you; you did not
-refuse the robes when I needed them. You were good, all good for me;
-though you did not love me. Eh bien, Madame Suzanne,” she said,
-suddenly, the tears coming to her eyes, “I love you! You may not believe
-it, but it is true.”
-
-“Giovanna! I don’t know what to say to you,” faltered Miss Susan,
-feeling some moisture start into the corners of her own eyes.
-
-“Ecoutez,” she said again; “is it that you know what has happened since
-you went away? Madame Suzanne, it is true that I wished to be Madame
-Herbert, that I tried to make him love me. Was it not tout naturel? He
-was rich, and I had not a sou, and it is pleasant to be grande dame,
-great ladye, to have all that one can desire. Mon Dieu, how that is
-agreeable! I made great effort, I deny it not. D’ailieurs, it was very
-necessary that the petit should be put out of the way. Look you, that is
-all over. He abandons me. He regards me not, even; says not one word of
-pity when I had the most great need. Allez,” cried Giovanna,
-indignantly, her eyes flashing, “c’est petit, ça!” She made a pause,
-with a great expansion and heave of her breast, then resumed. “But,
-Madame Suzanne, although it happened all like that, I am glad, glad--I
-thank the bon Dieu on my knees--that you did speak it then, not now,
-that day, not this; that you have not lose the moment, the just moment.
-For that I thank the bon Dieu.”
-
-“Giovanna, I hope the bon Dieu will forgive us,” Miss Susan said, very
-humbly, putting her hands across her eyes.
-
-“I hope so also,” said Giovanna cheerfully, as if that matter were not
-one which disturbed her very much; “but it was good, good that you
-spoke the first. The belle-mère had also remorse; she had bien de quoi!
-She sent them to say all, to take back--the child. Madame Suzanne,”
-cried Giovanna, “listen; I have given him back to Gertrude; I have
-taught him to be sage with her; I have made to smile her and the
-beau-père, and showed bounty to them. All that they would I have done,
-and asked nothing; for what? that they might go away, that they might
-not vex personne, that there might not be so much of talk. Tenez, Madame
-Suzanne! And they go when I am weary with to speak, with to smile, with
-to make excuse--they go, enfin! and I return to my chamber, and the
-little bed is empty, and the petit is gone away!”
-
-There was no chair near her on which she could sit down, and at this
-point she dropped upon the floor and cried, the tears falling in a
-sudden storm over her cheeks. They had long been gathering, making her
-eyes hot and heavy. Poor Giovanna! She cried like a child with keen
-emotion, which found relief in that violent utterance. “N’importe!” she
-said, struggling against the momentary passion, forcing a tremulous
-smile upon the mouth which quivered, “n’importe! I shall get over it;
-but figure to yourself the place empty, empty! and so still! Why should
-I care? I am not his mother,” said Giovanna; and wept as if her heart
-would break.
-
-Miss Susan rose from her sofa. She was weak and tottered as she got up.
-She went to Giovanna’s side, laid her hand on her head, and stooping
-over her, kissed her on the forehead. “Poor thing! poor thing!” she
-said, in a trembling voice, “this is my doing, too.”
-
-“It is nothing, nothing!” cried Giovanna, springing up and shaking back
-a loose lock of her black hair. “Now, I will go and see what is to do.
-Put thyself on the sofa, Madame Suzanne. Ah, pardon! I said it without
-thought.”
-
-Miss Susan did not understand what it was for which Giovanna begged
-pardon. It did not occur to her that the use of the second person could,
-in any case, be sin; but Giovanna, utterly shocked and appalled at her
-own temerity, blushed crimson, and almost forgot little Jean. She led
-Miss Susan back to the sofa, and placed her there with the utmost
-tenderness. “Madame Suzanne must not think that it was more than an
-inadvertence, a fault of excitement, that I could take it upon me to say
-_thee_ to my superior. Oh, pardon! a thousand times. Now, I go to bring
-you of the thé, to shut the door close, to make quiet the people, that
-all shall be as Viteladies. I am Madame Suzanne’s servant from this
-hour.”
-
-“Giovanna,” said Miss Susan, who, just at this moment, was very easily
-agitated, and did not so easily recover herself, “I do not say no. We
-have done wrong together; we will try to be good together. I have made
-you suffer, too; but, Giovanna, remember, there must be nothing more of
-_that_. You must promise me that all shall be over between you and
-Herbert.”
-
-“Bah!” said Giovanna, with a gesture of disgust. “Me, I suffered, as
-Madame Suzanne says; and he saw, and never said a word; not so much as,
-‘Poor Giovanna!’ Allez! c’est petit, ça!” cried the young woman, tossing
-her fine head aloft with a pride of nature that sat well on her. Then
-she turned, smiling to Miss Susan on the sofa. “Rest, my mistress,” she
-said, softly, with quaint distinctness of pronunciation. “Mademoiselle
-will soon be here to talk, and make everything plain to you. I go to
-bring of the thé, me.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XLVIII.
-
-
-Herbert came into the drawing-room almost immediately after Giovanna
-left. Francis had watched the carriage go off, and I suppose he thought
-that Giovanna was in it with the others, and his master, feeling free
-and safe, went down stairs. Herbert had not been the least sufferer in
-that eventful day and night. He had been sadly weakened by a course of
-flattery, and had got to consider himself, in a sense, the centre of the
-world. Invalidism, by itself, is nearly enough to produce this feeling;
-and when, upon a long invalid life, was built the superstructure of
-sudden consequence and freedom, the dazzling influence of unhoped for
-prosperity and well-being, the worship to which every young man of
-wealth and position is more or less subjected, the wooing of his
-cousins, the downright flattery of Giovanna, the reader will easily
-perceive how the young man’s head, was turned, not being a strong head
-by nature. I think (though I express the opinion with diffidence, not
-having studied the subject) that it is your vain man, your man whose
-sense of self-importance is very elevated, who feels a deception most
-bitterly. The more healthy soul regrets and suffers, but does not feel
-the same sting in the wound, that he does to whom a sin against himself
-is the one thing unpardonable. Herbert took the story of Giovanna’s
-deception thus, as an offence against himself. That she should have
-deceived others, was little in comparison; but him! that he should be,
-as it were, the centre of this plot, surrounded by people who had
-planned and conspired in such pitiful ways! His pride was too deeply
-hurt, his self-importance too rudely shaken, to leave him free to any
-access of pity or consideration for the culprits. He was not sorry even
-for Miss Susan; and toward Giovanna and her strange relatives, and the
-hideous interruption to his comfort and calm which they produced, he
-had no pity. Nor was he able to discriminate between her ordinary
-character and this one evil which she had done. Being once lowered in
-his imagination, she fell altogether, his chief attraction to her,
-indeed, being her beauty, which heretofore had dazzled and kept him from
-any inquiry into her other qualities. Now he gave Giovanna no credit for
-any qualities at all. His wrath was hot and fierce against her. She had
-taken him in, defrauded him of those, tender words and caresses which he
-never, had he known it, would have wasted on such a woman. She had
-humbled him in his own opinion, had made him feel thus that he was not
-the great person he had supposed; for her interested motives, which were
-now evident, were so many detractions from his glory, which he had
-supposed had drawn her toward him, as flowers are drawn to the sun. He
-had so low an opinion of her after this discovery, that he was afraid to
-venture out of his room, lest he should be exposed to some encounter
-with her, and to the tears and prayers his embittered vanity supposed
-she must be waiting to address to him. This was the chief reason of his
-retirement, and he was so angry that Reine and Everard should still keep
-all their wits about them, notwithstanding that he had been thus
-insulted and wounded, and could show feeling for others, and put up with
-those detestable visitors, that he almost felt that they too must be
-included in the conspiracy. It was necessary, indeed, that the visitors
-should be looked after, and even (his reason allowed) conciliated to a
-certain extent, to get them away; but still, that his sister should be
-able to do it, irritated Herbert. He came down, accordingly, in anything
-but a gracious state of mind. Poor fellow! I suppose his sudden downfall
-from the (supposed) highest level of human importance, respected and
-feared and loved by everybody, to the chastened grandeur of one who was
-first with nobody, though master of all; and who was not of paramount
-personal importance to any one, had stung him almost beyond bearing.
-Miss Susan whom he felt he had treated generously, had deceived, then
-left him without a word. Reine, to whom, perhaps, he had not been kind,
-had stolen away, out of his power to affect her in any primary degree,
-had found a new refuge for herself; and Giovanna, to whom he had given
-that inestimable treasure of his love? Poor Herbert’s heart was sore and
-sick, and full of mortified feeling. No wonder he was querulous and
-irritable. He came into the room where the lovers were, offended even by
-the sight of them together. When they dropped apart at his entrance, he
-was more angry still. Indeed, he felt angry at anything, ready to fight
-with a fly.
-
-“Don’t let me disturb you,” he said; “though, indeed, if you don’t mind,
-and can put up with it for a few minutes, I should be glad to speak to
-you together. I have been thinking that it is impossible for me to go on
-in this way, you know. Evidently, England will not do for me. It is not
-October yet, and see what weather! I cannot bear it. It is a necessity
-of my nature, putting health out of the question, to have sunshine and
-brightness. I see nothing for it but to go abroad.”
-
-Reine’s heart gave a painful leap. She looked at Everard with a wistful
-question in her eyes. “Dear Bertie, if you think so,” she said
-faltering, “of course I will not object to what you like best. But might
-we not first consult the doctors? You were so well before that night.
-Oh, Bertie, you know I would never set myself against what was best for
-you--but I _should_ like to stay at home, just for a little; and the
-weather will get better. October is generally fine, is it not, Everard?
-You ought to know--”
-
-“You don’t understand me,” said Herbert again. “You may stay at home as
-much as you like. You don’t suppose I want _you_ to go. Look here, I
-suppose I may speak plainly to two people engaged to each other, as you
-are. Why shouldn’t you marry directly, and be done with it? Then you
-could live on at Whiteladies, and Everard could manage the property: he
-wants something to do--which would leave me free to follow my
-inclinations, and live abroad.”
-
-“Bertie!” cried Reine, crimson with surprise and pain.
-
-“Well! is there anything to make a fuss about? You mean to be married, I
-suppose. Why wait? It might be got over, surely, in a month or so. And
-then, Reine being disposed of,” he went on with the most curious
-unconsciousness, “would not need to be any burden on me; she would want
-no brother to look after her. I could move about as I please, which a
-man never can do when he has to drag a lady after him. I think my plan
-is a very good plan, and why you should find any fault with it,
-Reine--you for whose benefit it is--”
-
-Reine said nothing. Tears of mortification different from her brother’s
-came into her eyes. Perhaps the mortification was unreasonable; for,
-indeed, a sister who allows herself to be betrothed does in a way take
-the first step in abandoning her brother! But to be cast off in this
-cool and sudden way went to her heart, notwithstanding the strong moral
-support she had of Everard behind her. She had served, and (though he
-was not aware of it) protected, and guided for so long the helpless lad,
-whose entire comfort had depended on her. And even Everard could not
-console her for this sudden, almost contemptuous, almost insolent
-dismissal. With her face crimson and her heart beating, she turned away
-from her ungrateful brother.
-
-“You ought not to speak to me so,” cried the girl with bitter tears in
-her eyes. “You should not throw me off like an old glove; it is not your
-part, Bertie.” And with her heart very heavy and sore, and her quick
-temper aflame, she hurried away out of the room, leaving them; and, like
-the others who had gone before, set off by the same oft-trodden road,
-through the village, to the Grange. Already Miss Susan’s new home had
-become the general family refuge from all evil.
-
-When Reine was gone, Bertie’s irritation subdued itself; for one man’s
-excited temper cannot but subdue itself speedily, when it has to beat
-against the blank wall of another man’s indifference. Everard did not
-care so very much if he was angry or not. He could afford to let Herbert
-and all the rest of the world cool down, and take their own way. He was
-sorry for the poor boy, but his temper did not affect deeply the elder
-man; his elder in years, and twice his elder in experience. Herbert soon
-calmed down under this process, and then they had a long and serious
-conversation. Nor did Everard think the proposal at all unreasonable.
-From disgust, or temper, or disappointment, or for health’s sake--what
-did it matter which?--the master of Whiteladies had determined to go
-abroad. And what so natural as that Reine’s marriage should take place
-early, there being no reason whatever why they should wait; or that
-Everard, as her husband, and himself the heir presumptive, should manage
-the property, and live with his wife in the old house? The proposal had
-not been delicately made, but it was kind enough. Everard forgave the
-roughness more readily than Reine could do, and accepted the good-will
-heartily, taking it for granted that brotherly kindness was its chief
-motive. He undertook to convince Reine that nothing could be more
-reasonable, nothing more kind.
-
-“It removes the only obstacle that was in our way,” said Everard,
-grasping his cousin’s hand warmly. “God bless you, Bertie. I hope you’ll
-some time be as happy--more happy you can’t be.”
-
-Poor Bertie took this salutation but grimly, wincing from every such
-touch, but refused at once Everard’s proposal that they should follow
-Reine to see Miss Susan.
-
-“You may go if you like,” he said; “people feel things in different
-ways, some deeper, some more lightly. I don’t blame you, but I can’t do
-it. I couldn’t speak to her if she were here.”
-
-“Send her a message, at least,” said Everard; “one word;--that you
-forgive her.”
-
-“I don’t forgive her!” cried the young man, hurrying back to the shelter
-of his room, where he shut himself up with François. “To-morrow we shall
-leave this cursed place,” he said in his anger to that faithful servant.
-“I cannot bear it another day.”
-
-Everard followed Reine to the Grange, and the first sight he saw made
-him thank heaven that Herbert was not of the party. Giovanna opened the
-door, to him, smiling and at her ease. She ushered him into Miss Susan’s
-sitting-room, then disappeared, and came back, bringing more tea,
-serving every one. She was thoroughly in her element, moving briskly
-about the old new house, arranging the furniture, which as yet was mere
-dead furniture without any associations, making a new Whiteladies out of
-the unfamiliar place.
-
-“It is like a conte des fées, but it is true,” she said. “I have always
-had de l’amitié for Madame Suzanne, now I shall hold the ménage, me. I
-shall do all things that she wishes. Tiens! it is what I was made for,
-Monsieur Everard. I am not born ladye, as you say. I am peuple, très
-peuple. I can work. Mon Dieu, who else has been kind to me? Not one. As
-for persons who abandon a friend when they have great need, _that_ for
-them!” said Giovanna, snapping her fingers, her eyes flashing, her face
-reddening. “C’est petit, ça!”
-
-And there she remains, and has done for years. I am afraid she is not
-half so penitent as she ought to be for the almost crime which, in
-conjunction with the others, she carried out so successfully for a time.
-She shrugs her shoulders when by chance, in the seclusion of the family,
-any one refers to it; but the sin never lay very heavy on her
-conscience. Nor does it affect her tranquillity now. Neither is she
-ashamed of her pursuit of Herbert, which, so long as it lasted, seemed
-tout simple to the young woman. And I do not think she is at all
-conscious that it was he who threw her over, but rather has the
-satisfaction of feeling that her own disgust at his petitesse ended the
-matter. But while she has no such feeling as she ought to have for these
-enormities, she does feel deeply, and mentions sometimes with a burning
-blush of self-reproach, that once in an unguarded moment she addressed
-Miss Susan as “Thou!” This sin Giovanna will not easily forgive herself,
-and never, I think, will forget. So it cannot be said that she is
-without conscience, after all.
-
-And a more active, notable, delightful housewife could not be. She sings
-about the house till the old Grange rings with her magnificent voice.
-She sings when there is what she calls high mass in the Chantry, so that
-the country people from ever so many miles off come to hear her; and
-just as sweetly, and with still more energy, she sings in the Almshouse
-chapel, delighting the poor folks. She likes the hymns which are
-slightly “Methody,” the same ones that old Mrs. Matthews prefers, and
-rings the bell with her strong arm for old Tolladay when he has his
-rheumatism, and carries huge baskets of good things for the sick folk,
-and likes it. They say she is the handsomest woman in St. Austin’s
-parish, or in the county, some people think; and it is whispered in the
-Almshouses that she has had very fine “offers” indeed, had she liked to
-take them. I myself know for a fact that the rector, a man of the finest
-taste, of good family, and elegant manners, and fastidious mind, laid
-himself and all his attributes at the feet of this Diana, but in vain.
-And at the first sight of her the young priest of the Chantry, Dr.
-Richard’s nephew, gave up, without a struggle, that favorite doctrine of
-clerical celibacy, at which his uncle had aimed every weapon of reason
-and ridicule for years in vain. Giovanna slew this fashionable heresy in
-the curate’s breast with one laughing look out of her great eyes. But
-she would not have him, all the same, any more than the rector, but
-laughed and cried out, “Toi! I will be thy mother, mon fils.”
-Fortunately the curate knew little French, and never quite made out what
-she had said.
-
-As for Miss Susan, though her health continued good, she never quite
-recovered her activity and vigor. She did recover her peace of mind
-completely, and is only entering the period of conscious old age now,
-after an interval of years, very contented and happy. Whiteladies, she
-declares, only failed her when her strength failed to manage it; and the
-old Grange has become the cheerfullest and brightest of homes. I am not
-sure even that sometimes, when her mind is a little confused, as all
-minds will be now and then, Miss Susan has not a moment’s doubt whether
-the great wickedness of her life has not been one of those things which
-“work together for good,” as Augustine says. But she feels that this is
-a terrible doctrine, and “will not do,” opening the door to all kinds of
-speculations, and affording a frightful precedent. Still, but for this
-great sin of hers, she never would have had Giovanna’s strong kind arm
-to lean upon, nor her cheery presence to make the house lively and
-sweet. Even Augustine feels a certain comfort in that cheery presence,
-notwithstanding that her wants are so few, and her habits so imperative,
-putting her life beyond the power of change or misfortune; for no change
-can ever deprive her of the Almshouses. Even on that exciting day when
-the sisters went forth from Whiteladies, like the first pair from
-Paradise, though affection and awakened interest brought Augustine for a
-moment to the head of affairs, and made her the support and stay of her
-stronger companion, she went to her Almshouse service all the same,
-after she had placed Susan on the sofa and kissed her, and written the
-note to Martha about her night-things. She did her duty bravely, and
-without shrinking;--then went to the Almshouses--and so continued all
-the rest of her life.
-
-Herbert, notwithstanding his threat to leave the place next day, stayed
-against his will till Reine was married, which she consented to be after
-awhile, without unnecessary delay. He saw Miss Susan only on the wedding
-day, when he touched her hand coldly, and talked of la pluie et le beau
-temps, as if she had been a stranger. Nothing could induce him to resume
-the old cordial relations with one who had so deceived him; and no doubt
-there will be people who will think Herbert in the right. Indeed, if I
-did not think that Miss Susan had been very fully punished during the
-time when she was unsuspected, and carried her Inferno about with her in
-her own bosom, without any one knowing, I should be disposed to think
-she got off much too easily after her confession was made; for as soon
-as the story was told, and the wrong set right, she became comparatively
-happy--really happy, indeed--in the great and blessed sense of relief;
-and no one (except Herbert) was hard upon her. The tale scarcely crept
-out at all in the neighborhood. There was something curious, people
-said, but even the best-informed believed it to be only one of those
-quarrels which, alas! occur now and then even in the best-regulated
-families. Herbert went about the county, paying his farewell visits; and
-there was a fair assemblage of wealth and fashion at Reine’s marriage,
-which was performed in the Austin Chantry, in presence of all their
-connections. Then Herbert went abroad, partly for his health, partly
-because he preferred the freer and gayer life of the Continent, to which
-he had been so long accustomed, people said. He does not often return,
-and he is rather fretful, perhaps, in his temper, and dilettante in his
-tastes, with the look, some ladies say, of “a confirmed bachelor.” I
-don’t know, for my part, what that look is, nor how much it is to be
-trusted to; but, meanwhile, it suits Everard and Reine very well to live
-at Whiteladies and manage the property. And Miss Augustine is already
-seriously preparing for the task she has so long contemplated, the
-education of an heir. Unfortunately, Reine has only a girl yet, which is
-a disappointment; but better days may come.
-
-As for the Farrel-Austins, they sold the Hatch after their father’s
-death, and broke up the lively society there. Kate married her
-middle-aged Major as soon after as decency would permit, and Sophy
-accompanied them to the Continent, where they met Herbert at various gay
-and much-frequented places. Nothing, however, came of this; but, after
-all, at the end of years, Lord Alf, once in the ascendant in Sophy’s
-firmament, turned up very much out at elbows, at a German
-watering-place, and Sophy, who had a comfortable income, was content to
-buy his poor little title with it. The marriage was not very happy, but
-she said, and I hope thought, that he was her first love, and that this
-was the romance of her life. Mrs. Farrel-Austin, strange to tell, got
-better--quite better, as we say in Scotland--though she retained an
-inclination toward tonics as long as she lived.
-
-Old M. Guillaume Austin of Bruges was gathered to his fathers last year,
-so that all danger from his heirship is happily over. His daughter
-Gertrude has so many children, that a covert proposal has been made, I
-understand, to Miss Susan and Giovanna to have little Jean restored to
-them if they wish it. But he is associated with too many painful
-recollections to be pleasing to Miss Susan, and Giovanna’s robust
-organization has long ago surmounted that momentary wound of parting.
-Besides, is not Whiteladies close by, with little Queenie in the nursery
-already, and who knows what superior hopes?
-
-THE END.
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-<p class="c"><i>LEISURE HOUR SERIES</i></p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<h1>WHITELADIES</h1>
-
-<p class="cb"><i>A NOVEL</i><br /><br />
-BY<br />
-MRS. OLIPHANT<br />
-<small>AUTHOR OF “MARGARET MAITLAND,” “THE LAST OF THE MORTIMERS,” ETC.</small><br />
-<br />
-<img src="images/colophon.png" width="75" height="91" alt="" title="" />
-<br />
-<br />
-NEW YORK<br />
-HENRY HOLT AND COMPANY<br />
-1875<br /><br />
-<small><span class="smcap">John F. Trow &amp; Son, Printers,<br />
-205-213 East 12th St., New York.</span></small></p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_005" id="page_005"></a>{5}</span></p>
-
-<table border="1" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" summary="">
-<tr><td><a name="CONTENTS" id="CONTENTS"></a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_I"><span class="smcap">Chapter</span> I., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_II"> II., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_III"> III., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_IV"> IV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_V"> V., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VI"> VI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VII"> VII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VIII"> VIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_IX"> IX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_X"> X., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XI"> XI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XII"> XII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XIII"> XIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XIV"> XIV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XV"> XV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XVI"> XVI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XVII"> XVII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XVIII"> XVIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XIX"> XIX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XX"> XX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXI"> XXI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXII"> XXII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXIII"> XXIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXIV"> XXIV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXV"> XXV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXVI"> XXVI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXVII"> XXVII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXVIII"> XXVIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXIX"> XXIX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXX"> XXX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXI"> XXXI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXII"> XXXII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIII"> XXXIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIV"> XXXIV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXV"> XXXV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVI"> XXXVI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVII"> XXXVII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXVIII"> XXXVIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XXXIX"> XXXIX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XL"> XL., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLI"> XLI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLII"> XLII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLIII"> XLIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLIV"> XLIV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLV"> XLV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLVI"> XLVI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLVII"> XLVII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XLVIII"> XLVIII.</a></td></tr>
-</table>
-
-<h1>WHITELADIES.</h1>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_I" id="CHAPTER_I"></a>CHAPTER I.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span><span class="smcap">t</span> was an old manor-house, not a deserted convent, as you might suppose
-by the name. The conventual buildings from which no doubt the place had
-taken its name, had dropped away, bit by bit, leaving nothing but one
-wall of the chapel, now closely veiled and mantled with ivy, behind the
-orchard, about a quarter of a mile from the house. The lands were Church
-lands, but the house was a lay house, of an older date than the family
-who had inhabited it from Henry VIII.’s time, when the priory was
-destroyed, and its possessions transferred to the manor. No one could
-tell very clearly how this transfer was made, or how the family of
-Austins came into being. Before that period no trace of them was to be
-found. They sprang up all at once, not rising gradually into power, but
-appearing full-blown as proprietors of the manor, and possessors of all
-the confiscated lands. There was a tradition in the family of some wild,
-tragical union of an emancipated nun with a secularized friar&mdash;a kind of
-repetition of Luther and his Catherine, but with results less
-comfortable than those which followed the marriage of those German
-souls. With the English convertites the issue was not happy, as the
-story goes. Their broken vows haunted them; their possessions, which
-were not theirs, but the Church’s, lay heavy on their consciences; and
-they died early, leaving descendants with whose history a thread of
-perpetual misfortune was woven. The family history ran in a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_006" id="page_006"></a>{6}</span> succession
-of long minorities, the line of inheritance gliding from one branch to
-the other, the direct thread breaking constantly. To die young, and
-leave orphan children behind; or to die younger still, letting the line
-drop and fall back upon cadets of the house, was the usual fate of the
-Austins of Whiteladies&mdash;unfortunate people who bore the traces of their
-original sin in their very name.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan Austin was, at the moment when this story begins, seated in
-the porch of the manor, on a blazing day of July, when every scrap of
-shade was grateful and pleasant, and when the deep coolness of the
-old-fashioned porch was a kind of paradise. It was a very fine old
-house, half brick, half timber; the eaves of the high gables carved into
-oaken lace-work; the lattice casements shining out of velvet clothing of
-ivy; and the great projecting window of the old hall, stepping out upon
-the velvet lawn, all glass from roof to ground, with only one
-richly-carved strip of panelling to frame it into the peaked roof. The
-door stood wide open, showing a long passage floored with red bricks,
-one wall of which was all casement, the other broken by carved and
-comely oaken doors, three or four centuries old. The porch was a little
-wider than the passage, and had a mullioned window in it, by the side of
-the great front opening, all clustered over with climbing roses. Looking
-out from the red-floored passage, the eye went past Miss Susan in the
-porch, to the sweet, luxuriant greenness of the lime-trees on the
-farther side of the lawn, which ended the prospect. The lawn was velvet
-green; the trees were silken soft, and laden with blossoms; the roses
-fluttered in at the open porch window, and crept about the door. Every
-beam in the long passage, every door, the continuous line of casement,
-the many turns by which this corridor led, meandering, with wealth of
-cool and airy space, toward the house, were all centuries old, bearing
-the stamp of distant generations upon the carved wood and endless
-windings; but without, everything was young and sunny,&mdash;grass and
-daisies and lime-blossoms, bees humming, birds twittering, the roses
-waving up and down in the soft wind. I wish the figure of Miss Susan had
-belonged to this part of the landscape; but, alas! historical accuracy
-forbids romancing. She was the virtual mistress of the house, in absence
-of a better; but she was not young, nor had she been so for many a long
-day.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_007" id="page_007"></a>{7}</span></p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was about sixty, a comely woman of her age, with the fair
-hair and blue eyes of the Austins. Her hair was so light that it did not
-turn gray; and her eyes, though there were wrinkles round them, still
-preserved a certain innocence and candor of aspect which, ill-natured
-people said, had helped Miss Susan to make many a hard bargain, so
-guileless was their aspect. She was dressed in a gray gown of woollen
-stuff (alpaca, I think, for it is best to be particular); her hair was
-still abundant, and she had no cap on it, nor any covering. In her day
-the adoption of a cap had meant the acceptation of old age, and Miss
-Susan had no intention of accepting that necessity a moment before she
-was obliged to do so. The sun, which had begun to turn westward, had
-been blazing into the drawing-room, which looked that way, and Miss
-Susan had been driven out of her own chair and her own corner by it&mdash;an
-unwarrantable piece of presumption. She had been obliged to fly before
-it, and she had taken refuge in the porch, which faced to the north, and
-where shelter was to be found. She had her knitting in her hands; but if
-her countenance gave any clue to her mind’s occupation, something more
-important than knitting occupied her thoughts. She sat on the bench
-which stood on the deepest side between the inner and the outer
-entrance, knitting silently, the air breathing soft about her, the roses
-rustling. For a long time she did not once raise her head. The gardener
-was plodding about his work outside, now and then crossing the lawn with
-heavy, leisurely foot, muffled by the velvet of the old immemorial turf.
-Within there would now and then come an indistinct sound of voice or
-movement through the long passage; but nothing was visible, except the
-still gray figure in the shade of the deep porch.</p>
-
-<p>By-and-by, however, this silence was broken. First came a maid, carrying
-a basket, who was young and rosy, and lighted up the old passage with a
-gleam of lightness and youthful color.</p>
-
-<p>“Where are you going, Jane?” said Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“To the almshouse, please,” said Jane, passing out with a curtsey.</p>
-
-<p>After her came another woman, at ten minutes’ interval, older and
-staider, in trim bonnet and shawl, with a large carpet-bag.</p>
-
-<p>“Where are you going, Martha?” said the lady again.</p>
-
-<p>“Please, ma’am, to the almshouse,” said Martha.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_008" id="page_008"></a>{8}</span></p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan shrugged her shoulders slightly, but said no more.</p>
-
-<p>A few minutes of silence passed, and then a heavy foot, slow and solemn,
-which seemed to come in procession from a vast distance, echoing over
-miles of passage, advanced gradually, with a protestation in every
-footfall. It was the butler, Stevens, a portly personage, with a
-countenance somewhat flushed with care and discontent.</p>
-
-<p>“Where are you going, Stevens?” said Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“I’m going where I don’t want to go, mum,” said Stevens, “and where I
-don’t hold with; and if I might make so bold as to say so, where you
-ought to put a stop to, if so be as you don’t want to be ruinated and
-done for&mdash;you and Miss Augustine, and all the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“&nbsp;‘Ruinated’ is a capital word,” said Miss Susan, blandly, “very forcible
-and expressive; but, Stevens, I don’t think we’ll come to that yet
-awhile.”</p>
-
-<p>“Going on like this is as good a way as any,” grumbled the man,
-“encouraging an idle set of good-for-nothings to eat up ladies as takes
-that turn. I’ve seen it afore, Miss Austin. You gets imposed upon, right
-hand and left hand; and as for doing good!&mdash;No, no, this ain’t the way.”</p>
-
-<p>Stevens, too had a basket to carry, and the afternoon was hot and the
-sun blazing. Between the manor and the almshouses there lay a long
-stretch of hot road, without any shade to speak of. He had reason,
-perhaps, to grumble over his unwilling share in these liberal charities.
-Miss Susan shrugged her shoulders again, this time with a low laugh at
-the butler’s perturbation, and went on with her knitting. In a few
-minutes another step became audible, coming along the passage&mdash;a soft
-step with a little hesitation in it&mdash;every fifth or sixth footfall
-having a slight pause or shuffle which came in a kind of rhythm. Then a
-tall figure came round the corner, relieved against the old carved
-doorway at the end and the bright redness of the brick floor; a tall,
-very slight woman, peculiarly dressed in a long, limp gown, of still
-lighter gray than the one Miss Susan wore, which hung closely about her,
-with long hanging sleeves hanging half way down the skirt of her dress,
-and something like a large hood depending from her shoulders. As the day
-was so warm, she had not drawn this hood over her head, but wore a light
-black gauze scarf, covering her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_009" id="page_009"></a>{9}</span> light hair. She was not much younger
-than her sister, but her hair was still lighter, having some half
-visible mixture of gray, which whitened its tone. Her eyes were blue,
-but pale, with none of the warmth in them of Miss Susan’s. She carried
-her head a little on one side, and, in short, she was like nothing in
-the world so much as a mediæval saint out of a painted window, of the
-period when painted glass was pale in color, and did not blaze in blues
-and rubies. She had a basket too, carried in both her hands, which came
-out of the long falling lines of her sleeves with a curious effect. Miss
-Augustine’s basket, however, was full of flowers&mdash;roses, and some long
-white stalks of lilies, not quite over, though it was July, and long
-branches of jasmine covered with white stars.</p>
-
-<p>“So you are going to the almshouses too?” said her sister. “I think we
-shall soon have to go and live there ourselves, as Stevens says, if this
-is how you are going on.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, Susan, that would indeed be the right thing to do, if you could
-make up your mind to it,” said her sister, in a low, soft, plaintive
-voice, “and let the Church have her own again. Then perhaps our
-sacrifice, dear, might take away the curse.”</p>
-
-<p>“Fiddlesticks!” said Miss Susan. “I don’t believe in curses. But,
-Austine, my dear, everybody tells me you are doing a great deal too
-much.”</p>
-
-<p>“Can one do too much for God’s poor?”</p>
-
-<p>“If we were sure of that now,” said Miss Susan, shaking her head; “but
-some of them, I am afraid, belong to&mdash;the other person. However, I won’t
-have you crossed; but, Austine, you might show a little moderation. You
-have carried off Jane and Martha and Stevens: if any one comes, who is
-to open the door?”</p>
-
-<p>“The doors are all open, and you are here,” said Miss Augustine calmly.
-“You would not have the poor suffer for such a trifle? But I hope you
-will have no visitors to disturb your thoughts. I have been meditating
-much this morning upon that passage, ‘Behold, our days are as a weaver’s
-shuttle.’ Think of it, dear. We have got much, much to do, Susan, to
-make up for the sins of our family.”</p>
-
-<p>“Fiddlesticks,” said Miss Susan again; but she said it half playfully,
-with tones more gentle than her decided expression of face would have
-prophesied. “Go away to your charities,” she added.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_010" id="page_010"></a>{10}</span> “If you do harm,
-you do it in a good way, and mean well, poor soul, God knows; so I hope
-no mischief will come of it. But send me Stevens home as soon as may be,
-Austine, for the sake of my possible meditations, if for nothing else;
-for there’s nobody left in the house but old Martin and the boy, and the
-women in the kitchen.”</p>
-
-<p>“What should we want with so many servants?” said Miss Augustine with a
-sigh; and she walked slowly out of the porch, under the rose-wreaths,
-and across the lawn, the sun blazing upon her light dress and turning it
-into white, and beating fiercely on her uncovered head.</p>
-
-<p>“Take a parasol, for heaven’s sake,” said Miss Susan; but the white
-figure glided on, taking no notice. The elder sister paused for a moment
-in her knitting, and looked after the other with that look, half tender,
-half provoked, with which we all contemplate the vagaries of those whom
-we love, but do not sympathize with, and whose pursuits are folly to us.
-Miss Susan possessed what is called “strong sense,” but she was not
-intolerant, as people of strong sense so often are; at least she was not
-intolerant to her sister, who was the creature most unlike her, and whom
-she loved best in the world.</p>
-
-<p>The manor-house did not belong to the Misses Austin, but they had lived
-in it all their lives. Their family history was not a bright one, as I
-have said; and their own immediate portion of the family had not fared
-better than the previous generations. They had one brother who had gone
-into the diplomatic service, and had married abroad and died young,
-before the death of their father, leaving two children, a boy and a
-girl, who had been partially brought up with the aunts. Their mother was
-a Frenchwoman, and had married a second time. The two children, Herbert
-and Reine, had passed half of their time with her, half with their
-father’s sisters; for Miss Susan had been appointed their guardian by
-their father, who had a high opinion of her powers. I do not know that
-this mode of education was very good for the young people; but Herbert
-was one of those gentle boys predestined to a short life, who take
-little harm by spoiling. He was dying now at one-and-twenty, among the
-Swiss hills, whither he had been taken, when the weather grew hot, from
-one of the invalid refuges on the Mediterranean shore. He was perishing
-slowly,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_011" id="page_011"></a>{11}</span> and all false hope was over, and everybody knew it&mdash;a hard fate
-enough for his family; but there were other things involved which made
-it harder still. The estate of Whiteladies was strictly entailed. Miss
-Susan and Miss Augustine Austin had been well provided for by a rich
-mother, but their French sister-in-law had no money and another family,
-and Reine had no right to the lands, or to anything but a very humble
-portion left to her by her father; and the old ladies had the prospect
-before them of being turned out of the house they loved, the house they
-had been born in, as soon as their nephew’s feeble existence should
-terminate. The supposed heir-at-law was a gentleman in the neighborhood,
-distantly related, and deeply obnoxious to them. I say the supposed
-heir&mdash;for there was a break in the Austin pedigree, upon which, at the
-present time, the Misses Austin and all their friends dwelt with
-exceeding insistance. Two or three generations before, the second son of
-the family had quarrelled with his father and disappeared entirely from
-England. If he had any descendants, they, and not Mr. Farrel-Austin,
-were the direct heirs. Miss Susan had sent envoys over all the known
-world seeking for these problematic descendants of her granduncle
-Everard. Another young Austin, of a still more distant stock, called
-Everard too, and holding a place in the succession after Mr.
-Farrel-Austin, had gone to America even, on the track of some vague
-Austins there, who were not the people he sought; and though Miss Susan
-would not give up the pursuit, yet her hopes were getting feeble; and
-there seemed no likely escape from the dire necessity of giving up the
-manor, and the importance (which she did not dislike) of the position it
-gave her as virtual mistress of a historical house, to a man she
-disliked and despised, the moment poor Herbert’s breath should be out of
-his body. Peacefully, therefore, as the scene had looked before the
-interruptions above recorded, Miss Susan was not happy, nor were her
-thoughts of a cheerful character. She loved her nephew, and the
-approaching end to which all his relations had long looked forward hung
-over her like a cloud, with that dull sense of pain, soon to become more
-acute, which impending misfortune, utterly beyond our power to avert, so
-often brings; and mingled with this were the sharper anxieties and
-annoyances of the quest she had undertaken, and its ill success up to
-this moment; and the increasing probability that the man she disliked,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_012" id="page_012"></a>{12}</span>
-and no other, must be her successor, her supplanter in her home. Her
-mind was full of such thoughts; but she was a woman used to restrain her
-personal sentiments, and keep them to herself, having been during her
-long life much alone, and without any companion in whom she was
-accustomed to confide. The two sisters had never been separated in their
-lives; but Augustine, not Susan, was the one who disclosed her feelings
-and sought for sympathy. In most relations of life there is one passive
-and one active, one who seeks and one who gives. Miss Augustine was the
-weaker of the two, but in this respect she was the more prominent. She
-was always the first to claim attention, to seek the interest of the
-other; and for years long her elder sister had been glad to give what
-she asked, and to keep silent about her own sentiments, which the other
-might not have entered into. “What was the use?” Miss Susan said to
-herself; and shrugged her shoulders and kept her troubles, which were
-very different from Augustine’s in her own breast.</p>
-
-<p>How pleasant it was out there in the porch! the branches of the
-lime-trees blown about softly by the wind; a daisy here and there
-lifting its roguish saucy head, which somehow had escaped the scythe,
-from the close-mown lawn; the long garlands of roses playing about the
-stone mullions of the window, curling round the carved lintel of the
-door; the cool passage on the other side leading into the house, with
-its red floor and carved doors, and long range of casement. Miss Susan
-scarcely lifted her eyes from her knitting, but every detail of the
-peaceful scene was visible before her. No wonder&mdash;she had learned them
-all by heart in the long progress of the years. She knew every twig on
-the limes, every bud on the roses. She sat still, scarcely moving,
-knitting in with her thread many an anxious thought, many a wandering
-fancy, but with a face serene enough, and all about her still. It had
-never been her habit to betray what was in her to an unappreciative
-world.</p>
-
-<p>She brightened up a little, however, and raised her head, when she heard
-the distant sound of a whistle coming far off through the melodious
-Summer air. It caught her attention, and she raised her head for a
-second, and a smile came over her face. “It must be Everard,” she said
-to herself, and listened, and made certain, as the air, a pretty gay
-French air, became more distinct. No one else would whistle that tune.
-It was one of Reine’s French songs&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_013" id="page_013"></a>{13}</span>one of those graceful little
-melodies which are so easy to catch and so effective. Miss Susan was
-pleased that he should whistle one of Reine’s tunes. She had her plans
-and theories on this point, as may be hereafter shown; and Everard
-besides was a favorite of her own, independent of Reine. Her countenance
-relaxed, her knitting felt lighter in her hand, as the whistle came
-nearer, and then the sound of a firm, light step. Miss Susan let the
-smile dwell upon her face, not dismissing it, and knitted on, expecting
-calmly till he should make his appearance. He had come to make his
-report to her of another journey, from which he had just returned, in
-search of the lost Austins. It had not been at all to his own interest
-to pursue this search, for, failing Mr. Farrel-Austin, he himself would
-be the heir-at-law; but Everard, as Miss Susan had often said to
-herself, was not the sort of person to think of his own advantage. He
-was, if anything, too easy on that head&mdash;too careless of what happened
-to himself individually. He was an orphan with a small income&mdash;that
-“just enough” which is so fatal an inheritance for a young
-man&mdash;nominally at “the Bar,” actually nowhere in the race of life, but
-very ready to do anything for anybody, and specially for his old
-cousins, who had been good to him in his youth. He had a small house of
-his own on the river not far off, which the foolish young man lived in
-only a few weeks now and then, but which he refused to let, for no
-reason but because it had been his mother’s, and her memory (he thought)
-inhabited the place. Miss Susan was so provoked with this and other
-follies that she could have beaten Everard often, and then hugged him&mdash;a
-mingling of feelings not unusual. But as Everard is just about to appear
-in his own person, I need not describe him further. His whistle came
-along, advancing through the air, the pleasantest prelude to his
-appearance. Something gay and free and sweet was in the sound, the
-unconscious self-accompaniment of a light heart. He whistled as he went
-for want of thought&mdash;nay, not for want of thought, but because all the
-movements of his young soul were as yet harmonious, lightsome, full of
-hope and sweetness; his gay personality required expression; he was too
-light-hearted, too much at home in the world, and friendly, to come
-silent along the sunshiny way. So, as he could not talk to the trees and
-the air, like a poetical hero in a tragedy, Everard made known his
-good-will to everything, and delicious, passive happiness, by his
-whistle; and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_014" id="page_014"></a>{14}</span> he whistled like a lark, clear and sweet; it was one of
-his accomplishments. He whistled Miss Susan’s old airs when she played
-them on her old piano, in charming time and harmony; and he did not save
-his breath for drawing-room performances, but sent before him these
-pleasant intimations of his coming, as far as a mile off. To which Miss
-Susan sat and listened, waiting for his arrival, with a smile on her
-face.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_015" id="page_015"></a>{15}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_II" id="CHAPTER_II"></a>CHAPTER II.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“I</span> <small>HAVE</small> been waiting for you these fifteen minutes,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“What&mdash;you knew I was coming?”</p>
-
-<p>“I heard you, boy. If you choose to whistle ‘<i>Ce que je desire</i>’ through
-St. Austin’s parish, you may make up your mind to be recognized. Ah! you
-make me think of my poor children, the one dying, the other nursing
-him&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t!” said the young man, holding up his hand, “it is heart-breaking;
-I dare not think of them, for my part. Aunt Susan, the missing Austins
-are not to be found in Cornwall. I went to Bude, as you told me, and
-found a respectable grocer, who came from Berks, to be sure, and knew
-very little about his grandfather, but is not our man. I traced him back
-to Flitton, where he comes from, and found out his pedigree. I have
-broken down entirely. Did you know that the Farrel-Austins were at it
-too?”</p>
-
-<p>“At what?”</p>
-
-<p>“This search after our missing kinsfolk. They have just come back, and
-they look very important; I don’t know if they have found out anything.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you have been visiting them?” said Miss Susan, bending her head
-over her knitting, with a scarcely audible sigh; it would have been
-inaudible to a stranger, but Everard knew what it meant.</p>
-
-<p>“I called&mdash;to ask if they had got back, that was all,” he said, with a
-slight movement of impatience; “and they have come back. They had come
-down the Rhine and by the old Belgian towns, and were full of pictures,
-and cathedrals, and so forth. But I thought I caught a gleam in old
-Farrel’s eye.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_016" id="page_016"></a>{16}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I wonder&mdash;but if he had found them out I don’t think there would be
-much of a gleam in his eye,” said Miss Susan. “Everard, my dear, if we
-have to give up the house to them, what shall I do? and my poor Austine
-will feel it still more.”</p>
-
-<p>“If it has to be done, it must be done, I suppose,” said Everard, with a
-shrug of his shoulders, “but we need not think of it until we are
-obliged; and besides, Aunt Susan, forgive me, if you had to give it up
-to&mdash;poor Herbert himself, you would feel it; and if he should get
-better, poor fellow, and live, and marry&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, my poor boy,” said Miss Susan, “life and marriage are not for him!”
-She paused a moment and dried her eyes, and gulped down a sob in her
-throat. “But you may be right,” she said in a low tone, “perhaps,
-whoever our successors were, we should feel it&mdash;even you, Everard.”</p>
-
-<p>“You should never go out of Whiteladies for me,” said the young man,
-“<i>that</i> you may be sure of; but I shall not have the chance.
-Farrel-Austin, for the sake of spiting the family generally, will make a
-point of outliving us all. There is this good in it, however,” he added,
-with a slight movement of his head, which looked like throwing off a
-disagreeable impression, and a laugh, “if poor Herbert, or I, supposing
-such a thing possible, had taken possession, it might have troubled your
-affection for us, Aunt Susan. Nay, don’t shake your head. In spite of
-yourself it would have affected you. You would have felt it bitter,
-unnatural, that the boys you had brought up and fostered should take
-your house from you. You would have struggled against the feeling, but
-you could not have helped it, I know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; a great deal you know about an old woman’s feelings,” said Miss
-Susan with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“And as for these unknown people, who never heard of Whiteladies,
-perhaps, and might pull down the old house, or play tricks with it&mdash;for
-instance, your grocer at Bude, the best of men, with a charming
-respectable family, a pretty daughter, who is a dress-maker, and a son
-who has charge of the cheese and butter. After all, Aunt Susan, you
-could not in your heart prefer them even to old Farrel-Austin, who is a
-gentleman at least, and knows the value of the old house.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not so sure of that,” said Miss Susan, though she had shivered at
-the description. “Farrel-Austin is our enemy; he has<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_017" id="page_017"></a>{17}</span> different ways of
-thinking, different politics, a different side in everything; and
-besides&mdash;don’t laugh in your light way, Everard; everybody does not take
-things lightly as you do&mdash;there is something between him and us, an old
-grievance that I don’t care to speak of now.”</p>
-
-<p>“So you have told me,” said the young man. “Well, we cannot help it,
-anyhow; if he must succeed, he must succeed, though I wish it was myself
-rather for your sake.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not for your own?” said Miss Susan, with restrained sharpness, looking
-up at him. “The Farrel-Austins are your friends, Everard. Oh, yes, I
-know! nowadays young people do not take up the prejudices of their
-elders. It is better and wiser, perhaps, to judge for yourself, to take
-up no foregone conclusion; but for my part, I am old-fashioned, and full
-of old traditions. I like my friends, somehow, reasonably or
-unreasonably, to be on my side.”</p>
-
-<p>“You have never even told me why it was your side,” said Everard, with
-rising color; “am I to dislike my relations without even knowing why?
-That is surely going too far in partisanship. I am not fond of
-Farrel-Austin himself; but the rest of the family&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“The&mdash;girls; that is what you would say.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, Aunt Susan! the girls if you please; they are very nice girls.
-Why should I hate them because you hate their father? It is against
-common-sense, not to speak of anything else.”</p>
-
-<p>There was a little pause after this. Miss Susan had been momentarily
-happy in the midst of her cares, when Everard’s whistle coming to her
-over the Summer fields and flowers, had brought to her mind a soft
-thought of her pretty Reine, and of the happiness that might be awaiting
-her after her trial was over. But now, by a quick and sudden revulsion
-this feeling of relief was succeeded by a sudden realization of where
-Reine might be now, and how occupied, such as comes to us all sometimes,
-when we have dear friends in distress&mdash;in one poignant flash, with a
-pain which concentrates in itself as much suffering as might make days
-sad. The tears came to her eyes in a gush. She could not have analyzed
-the sensations of disappointment, annoyance, displeasure, which
-conspired to throw back her mind upon the great grief which was in the
-background of her landscape, always ready to recall itself; but the
-reader will understand how it came about.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_018" id="page_018"></a>{18}</span> A few big drops of moisture
-fell upon her knitting. “Oh, my poor children!” she said, “how can I
-think of anything else, when at this very moment, perhaps, for all one
-knows&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>I believe Everard felt what was the connecting link of thought, or
-rather feeling, and for the first moment was half angry, feeling himself
-more or less blamed; but he was too gentle a soul not to be overwhelmed
-by the other picture suggested, after the first moment. “Is he so very
-bad, then?” he asked, after an interval, in a low and reverential tone.</p>
-
-<p>“Not worse than he has been for weeks,” said Miss Susan, “but that is as
-bad as possible; and any day&mdash;any day may bring&mdash;God help us! in this
-lovely weather, Everard, with everything blooming, everything gay&mdash;him
-dying, her watching him. Oh! how could I forget them for a moment&mdash;how
-could I think of anything else?”</p>
-
-<p>He made no answer at first, then he said faltering, “We can do them no
-good by thinking, and it is too cruel, too terrible. Is she alone?”</p>
-
-<p>“No; God forgive me,” said Miss Susan. “I ought to think of the mother
-who is with her. They say a mother feels most. I don’t know. She has
-other ties and other children, though I have nothing to say against her.
-But Reine has no one.”</p>
-
-<p>Was it a kind of unconscious appeal to his sympathy? Miss Susan felt in
-a moment as if she had compromised the absent girl for whom she herself
-had formed visions with which Reine had nothing to do.</p>
-
-<p>“Not that Reine is worse off than hundreds of others,” she said,
-hastily, “and she will never want friends; but the tie between them is
-very strong. I do wrong to dwell upon it&mdash;and to you!”</p>
-
-<p>“Why to me?” said Everard. He had been annoyed to have Reine’s sorrow
-thrust upon his notice, as if he had been neglecting her; but he was
-angry now to be thus thrust away from it, as if he had nothing to do
-with her; the two irritations were antagonistic, yet the same. “You
-don’t like painful subjects,” said Miss Susan, with a consciousness of
-punishing him, and vindictive pleasure, good soul as she was, in his
-punishment. “Let us talk of something else. Austine is at her
-almshouses, as usual, and she has left me with scarcely a servant in the
-house. Should<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_019" id="page_019"></a>{19}</span> any one call, or should tea be wanted, I don’t know what
-I should do.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t suppose I could make the tea,” said Everard. He felt that he
-was punished, and yet he was glad of the change of subject. He was
-light-hearted, and did not know anything personally of suffering, and he
-could not bear to think of grief or misfortune which, as he was fond of
-saying, he could do no good by thinking of. He felt quite sure of
-himself that he would have been able to overcome his repugnance to
-things painful had it been “any good,” but as it was, why make himself
-unhappy? He dismissed the pain as much as he could, as long as he could,
-and felt that he could welcome visitors gladly, even at the risk of
-making the tea, to turn the conversation from the gloomy aspect it had
-taken. The thought of Herbert and Reine seemed to cloud over the
-sunshine, and take the sweetness out of the air. It gave his heart a
-pang as if it had been suddenly compressed; and this pain, this
-darkening of the world, could do them no good. Therefore, though he was
-fond of them both, and would have gone to the end of the world to
-restore health to his sick cousin, or even to do him a temporary
-pleasure, yet, being helpless toward them, he was glad to get the
-thoughts of them out of his mind. It spoilt his comfort, and did them no
-manner of good. Why should he break his own heart by indulging in such
-unprofitable thoughts?</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan knew Everard well; but though she had herself abruptly
-changed the subject in deference to his wishes, she was vexed with him
-for accepting the change, and felt her heart fill full of bitterness on
-Reine’s account and poor Herbert’s, whom this light-hearted boy
-endeavored to forget. She could not speak to him immediately, her heart
-being sore and angry. He felt this, and had an inkling of the cause, and
-was half compunctious and half disposed to take the offensive, and ask,
-“What have I done?” and defend himself, but could not, being guilty in
-heart. So he stood leaning against the open doorway, with a great
-rosebranch, which had got loose from its fastenings, blowing in his
-face, and giving him a careless prick with its thorns, as the wind blew
-it about. Somehow the long waving bough, with its many roses, which
-struck him lightly, playfully, across the face as he stood there, with
-dainty mirth and mischief, made him think of Reine more than Miss
-Susan’s reminder had done. The prick of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_020" id="page_020"></a>{20}</span> branch woke in his heart
-that same, sudden, vivid, poignant realization of the gay girl in
-contrast with her present circumstances, which just a few minutes before
-had taken Miss Susan, too, by surprise; and thus the two remained,
-together, yet apart, silent, in a half quarrel, but both thinking of the
-same subject, and almost with the same thoughts. Just then the rolling
-of carriage wheels and prance of horses became audible turning the
-corner of the green shady road into which the gate, at this side of the
-town, opened&mdash;for the manor-house was not secluded in a park, but opened
-directly from a shady, sylvan road, which had once served as avenue to
-the old priory. The greater part of the trees that formed the avenue had
-perished long ago, but some great stumps and roots, and an interrupted
-line of chance-sown trees, showed where it had been. The two people in
-the porch were roused by this sound, Miss Susan to a troubled
-recollection of her servant-less condition, and Everard to mingled
-annoyance and pleasure as he guessed who the visitors were. He would
-have been thankful to any one who had come in with a new interest to
-relieve him from the gloomy thoughts that had taken possession of him
-against his will, and the new comers, he felt sure, were people whom he
-liked to meet.</p>
-
-<p>“Here is some one coming to call,” cried Miss Susan in dismay, “and
-there is no one to open the door!”</p>
-
-<p>“The door is open, and you can receive them here, or take them in, which
-you please; you don’t require any servant,” said Everard; and then he
-added, in a low tone, “Aunt Susan, it is the Farrel-Austins; I know
-their carriage.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” cried Miss Susan, drawing herself up. She did not say any more to
-him&mdash;for was not he a friend and supporter of that objectionable
-family?&mdash;but awaited the unwelcome visitors with dignified rigidity.
-Their visits to her were very rare, but she had always made a point of
-enduring and returning these visits with that intense politeness of
-hostility which transcends every other kind of politeness. She would not
-consent to look up, nor to watch the alighting of the brightly-clad
-figures on the other side of the lawn. The old front of the house, the
-old doorway and porch in which Miss Susan sat, was not now the formal
-entrance, and consequently there was no carriage road to it; so that the
-visitors came across the lawn with light Summer dresses and gay<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_021" id="page_021"></a>{21}</span>
-ribbons, flowery creatures against the background of green. They were
-two handsome girls, prettily dressed and smiling, with their father, a
-dark, insignificant, small man, coming along like a shadow in their
-train.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, how cool and sweet it is here!” said Kate, the eldest. “We are so
-glad to find you at home, Miss Austin. I think we met your sister about
-an hour ago going through the village. Is it safe for her to walk in the
-sun without her bonnet? I should think she would get a sunstroke on such
-a day.”</p>
-
-<p>“She is the best judge,” said Miss Susan, growing suddenly red; then
-subduing herself as suddenly, “for my part,” she said, “I prefer the
-porch. It is too warm to go out.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, we have been so much about; we have been abroad,” said Sophy, the
-youngest. “We think nothing of the heat here. English skies and English
-climate are dreadful after the climate abroad.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, are they? I don’t know much of any other,” said Miss Susan. “Good
-morning, Mr. Farrel. May I show you the way to the drawing-room, as I
-happen to be here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, mayn’t we go to the hall, please, instead? We are all so fond of
-the hall,” said Sophy. She was the silly one, the one who said things
-which the others did not like to say. “<i>Please</i> let us go there; isn’t
-this the turn to take? Oh, what a dear old house it is, with such funny
-passages and turnings and windings! If it were ours, I should never sit
-anywhere but in the hall.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy!” said the father, in a warning tone.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, papa! I am not saying anything that is wrong. I do love the old
-hall. Some people say it is such a tumble-down, ramshackle old house;
-but that is because they have no taste. If it were mine, I should always
-sit in the hall.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan led the way to it without a word. Many people thought that
-Sophy Farrel-Austin had reason in her madness, and said, with a show of
-silliness, things that were too disagreeable for the others; but that
-was a mere guess on the part of the public. The hall was one of the most
-perfectly preserved rooms of its period. The high, open roof had been
-ceiled, which was almost the only change made since the fifteenth
-century, and that had been done in Queen Anne’s time; and the huge, open
-chimney was partially<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_022" id="page_022"></a>{22}</span> built up, small sacrifices made to comfort by a
-family too tenacious of their old dwelling-place to do anything to spoil
-it, even at the risk of asthma or rheumatism. To tell the truth,
-however, there was a smaller room, of which the family now made their
-dining-room on ordinary occasions. Miss Susan, scorning to take any
-notice of words which she laid up and pondered privately to increase the
-bitterness of her own private sentiments toward her probable
-supplanters, led the way into this beautiful old hall. It was wainscoted
-with dark panelled wood, which shone and glistened, up to within a few
-feet of the roof, and the interval was filled with a long line of
-casement, throwing down a light which a painter would have loved upon
-the high, dark wall. At the upper end of the room was a deep recess,
-raised a step from the floor, and filled with a great window all the way
-up to the roof. At the lower end the musicians’ gallery of ancient days,
-with carved front and half-effaced coats-of-arms, was still intact. The
-rich old Turkey carpet on the floor, the heavy crimson curtains that
-hung on either side of the recess with its great window, were the most
-modern things in the room; and yet they were older than Miss Susan’s
-recollection could carry. The rest of the furniture dated much further
-back. The fire-place, in which great logs of wood blazed every Winter,
-was filled with branches of flowering shrubs, and the larger
-old-fashioned garden flowers, arranged in some huge blue and white China
-jars, which would have struck any collector with envy. Miss Susan placed
-her young visitors on an old, straight-backed settle, covered with
-stamped leather, which was extremely quaint, and very uncomfortable. She
-took herself one of the heavy-fringed, velvet-covered chairs, and began
-with deadly civility to talk. Everard placed himself against the carved
-mantel-piece and the bank of flowers that filled the chimney. The old
-room was so much the brighter to him for the presence of the girls; he
-did not care much that Sophy was silly. Their pretty faces and bright
-looks attracted the young man; perhaps he was not very wise himself. It
-happens so often enough.</p>
-
-<p>And thus they all sat down and talked&mdash;about the beautiful weather,
-about the superiority, even to this beautiful weather, of the weather
-“abroad;” of where they had been and what they had seen; of Mrs.
-Farrel-Austin’s health, who was something of an invalid, and rarely came
-out; and other similar matters, such<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_023" id="page_023"></a>{23}</span> as are generally discussed in
-morning calls. Everard helped Miss Susan greatly to keep the
-conversation up, and carry off the visit with the ease and lightness
-that were desirable, but yet I am not sure that she was grateful to him.
-All through her mind, while she smiled and talked, there kept rising a
-perpetual contrast. Why were these two so bright and well, while the two
-children of the old house were in such sad estate?&mdash;while they chattered
-and laughed what might be happening elsewhere? and Everard, who had been
-like a brother to Herbert and Reine, laughed too, and chattered, and
-made himself pleasant to these two girls, and never thought&mdash;never
-thought! This was the sombre under-current which went through Miss
-Susan’s mind while she entertained her callers, not without sundry
-subdued passages of arms. But Miss Susan’s heart beat high, in spite of
-herself, when Mr. Farrel-Austin lingered behind his daughters, bidding
-Everard see them to the carriage.</p>
-
-<p>“Cousin Susan, I should like a word with you,” he said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_024" id="page_024"></a>{24}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_III" id="CHAPTER_III"></a>CHAPTER III.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> girls went out into the old corridor, leaving the great carved door
-of the dining-hall open behind them. The flutter of their pretty dresses
-filled the picturesque passage with animation, and the sound of their
-receding voices kept up this sentiment of life and movement even after
-they had disappeared. Their father looked after them well pleased, with
-that complacence on his countenance, and pleasant sense of personal
-well-being which is so natural, but so cruel and oppressive to people
-less well off. Miss Susan, for her part, felt it an absolute insult. It
-seemed to her that he had come expressly to flaunt before her his own
-happiness and the health and good looks of his children. She turned her
-back to the great window, that she might not see them going across the
-lawn, with Everard in close attendance upon them. A sense of desertion,
-by him, by happiness, by all that is bright and pleasant in the world,
-came into her heart, and made her defiant. When such a feeling as this
-gets into the soul, all softness, all indulgence to others, all
-favorable construction of other people’s words or ways departs. They
-seemed to her to have come to glory over her and over Herbert dying, and
-Reine mourning, and the failure of the old line. What was grief and
-misery to her was triumph to them. It was natural perhaps, but very
-bitter; curses even, if she had not been too good a woman to let them
-come to utterance, were in poor Miss Susan’s heart. If he had said
-anything to her about his girls, as she expected, if he had talked of
-them at all, I think the flood must have found vent somehow; but
-fortunately he did not do this. He waited till they were out of the
-house, and then rose and closed the door, and reseated himself facing
-her, with something more serious in his face.</p>
-
-<p>“Excuse me for waiting till they had gone,” he said. “I don’t<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_025" id="page_025"></a>{25}</span> want the
-girls to be mixed up in any family troubles; though, indeed, there is no
-trouble involved in what I have to tell you&mdash;or, at least, so I hope.”</p>
-
-<p>The girls were crossing the lawn as he spoke, laughing and talking,
-saying something about the better training of the roses, and how the
-place might be improved. Miss Susan caught some words of this with ears
-quickened by her excited feelings. She drew her chair further from the
-window, and turned her back to it more determinedly than ever. Everard,
-too! he had gone over to the prosperous side.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear cousin,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, “I wish you would not treat me
-like an enemy. Whenever there is anything I can do for you, I am always
-glad to do it. I heard that you were making inquiries after our
-great-uncle Everard and his descendants, if he left any.”</p>
-
-<p>“You could not miss hearing it. I made no secret of it,” said Miss
-Susan. “We have put advertisements in the newspapers, and done
-everything we possibly could to call everybody’s attention.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; I know, I know; but you never consulted me. You never said,
-‘Cousin, it is for the advantage of all of us to find these people.’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not think it is for your advantage,” said Miss Susan, looking
-quickly at him.</p>
-
-<p>“You will see, however, that it is, when you know what I have to tell
-you,” he said, rubbing his hands. “I suppose I may take it for granted
-that you did not mean it for my advantage. Cousin Susan, I have found
-the people you have been looking for in vain.”</p>
-
-<p>The news gave her a shock, and so did his triumphant expression; but she
-put force upon herself. “I am glad to hear it,” she said. “Such a search
-as mine is never in vain. When you have advantages to offer, you seldom
-fail to find the people who have a right to those advantages. I am glad
-you have been successful.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I am happy to hear you say so,” said the other. “In short, we are
-in a state of agreement and concord for once in our lives, which is
-delightful. I hope you will not be disappointed, however, with the
-result. I found them in Bruges, in a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_026" id="page_026"></a>{26}</span> humble position enough. Indeed, it
-was the name of Austin over a shop door which attracted my notice
-first.”</p>
-
-<p>He spoke leisurely, and regarded her with a smile which almost drove her
-furious, especially as, by every possible argument, she was bound to
-restrain her feelings. She was strong enough, however, to do this, and
-present a perfectly calm front to her adversary.</p>
-
-<p>“You found the name&mdash;over a shop door?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, a drapery shop; and inside there was an old man with the Austin
-nose as clear as I ever saw it. It belongs, you know, more distinctly to
-the elder branch than to any other portion of the family.”</p>
-
-<p>“The original stock is naturally stronger,” said Miss Susan. “When you
-get down to collaterals, the family type dies out. Your family, for
-instance, all resemble your mother, who was a Miss Robinson, I think I
-have heard?”</p>
-
-<p>This thrust gave her a little consolation in her pain, and it disturbed
-her antagonist in his triumph. She had, as it were, drawn the first
-blood.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes; you are quite right,” he said; “of a very good family in
-Essex. Robinsons of Swillwell&mdash;well-known people.”</p>
-
-<p>“In the city,” said Miss Susan, “so I have always heard; and an
-excellent thing, too. Blood may not always make its way, but money does;
-and to have an alderman for your grandfather is a great deal more
-comfortable than to have a crusader. But about our cousin at Bruges,”
-she added, recovering her temper. How pleasant to every well-regulated
-mind is the consciousness of having administered a good, honest,
-knock-down blow!</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Farrel-Austin glanced at her out of the light gray eyes, which were
-indisputable Robinsons’, and as remote in color as possible from the
-deep blue orbs, clear as a Winter sky, which were one of the great
-points of the Austins; but he dared not take any further notice. It was
-his turn now to restrain himself.</p>
-
-<p>“About our cousin in Bruges,” he repeated with an effort. “He turns out
-to be an old man, and not so happy in his family as might be wished. His
-only son was dying&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“For God’s sake!” said Miss Susan, moved beyond her power of control,
-and indeed ceasing to control herself with this good reason for giving
-way&mdash;“have you no heart that you can say such<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_027" id="page_027"></a>{27}</span> words with a smile on
-your face? You that have children yourself, whom God may smite as well
-as another’s! How dare you? how dare you? for your own sake!”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know that I am saying anything unbecoming,” said Mr. Farrel. “I
-did not mean it. No one can be more grateful for the blessings of
-Providence than I am. I thank Heaven that all my children are well; but
-that does not hinder the poor man at Bruges from losing his. Pray let me
-continue: his wife and he are old people, and his only son, as I say,
-was dying or dead&mdash;dead by this time, certainly, according to what they
-said of his condition.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan clasped her hands tightly together. It seemed to her that he
-enjoyed the poignant pang his words gave her&mdash;“dead by this time,
-certainly!” Might that be said of the other who was dearer to her? Two
-dying, that this man might get the inheritance! Two lives extinguished,
-that Farrel-Austin and his girls might have this honor and glory! He had
-no boys, however. His glory could be but short-lived. There was a kind
-of fierce satisfaction in that thought.</p>
-
-<p>“I had a long conversation with the old man; indeed, we stayed in Bruges
-for some days on purpose. I saw all his papers, and there can be no
-doubt he is the grandson of our great-uncle Everard. I explained the
-whole matter to him, of course, and brought your advertisements under
-his notice, and explained your motives.”</p>
-
-<p>“What are my motives?&mdash;according to your explanation.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, my dear cousin&mdash;not exactly love and charity to me, are they? I
-explained the position fully to him.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then there is no such thing as justice or right in the world, I
-suppose,” she cried indignantly, “but everything hinges on love to you,
-or the reverse. You know what reason I have to love you&mdash;well do you
-know it, and lose no opportunity to keep it before me; but if my boy
-himself&mdash;my dying boy, God help me!&mdash;had been in your place,
-Farrel-Austin, should I have let him take possession of what was not his
-by right? You judge men, and women too, by yourself. Let that pass, so
-far as you are concerned. You have no other ground, I suppose, to form a
-judgment on; but you have no right to poison the minds of others.
-Nothing will make me submit to that.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_028" id="page_028"></a>{28}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Well, well,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, shrugging his shoulders with
-contemptuous calm, “you can set yourself right when you please with the
-Bruges shopkeeper. I will give you his address. But in the meantime you
-may as well hear what his decision is. At his age he does not care to
-change his country and his position, and come to England in order to
-become the master of a tumble-down old house. He prefers his shop, and
-the place he has lived in all his life. And the short and the long of it
-is, that he has transferred his rights to me, and resigned all claim
-upon the property. I agreed to it,” he added, raising his head, “to save
-trouble, more than for any other reason. He is an old man, nearly
-seventy; his son dead or dying, as I said. So far as I am concerned, it
-could only have been a few years’ delay at the most.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan sat bolt upright in her chair, gazing at him with eyes full
-of amazement&mdash;so much astonished that she scarcely comprehended what he
-said. It was evidently a relief to the other to have made his
-announcement. He breathed more freely after he had got it all out. He
-rose from his chair and went to the window, and nodded to his girls
-across the lawn. “They are impatient, I see, and I must be going,” he
-went on. Then looking at Miss Susan for the first time, he added, in a
-tone that had a sound of mockery in it, “You seem surprised.”</p>
-
-<p>“Surprised!” She had been leaning toward the chair from which he had
-arisen without realizing that he had left it in her great consternation.
-Now she turned quickly to him. “Surprised! I am a great deal more than
-surprised.”</p>
-
-<p>He laughed; he had the upper hand at last. “Why more?” he said lightly.
-“I think the man was a very reasonable old man, and saw what his best
-policy was.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you&mdash;accepted his sacrifice?” said Miss Susan, amazement taking
-from her all power of expression;&mdash;“you permitted him to give up his
-birthright? you&mdash;took advantage of his ignorance?”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear cousin, you are rude,” he said, laughing; “without intending
-it, I am sure. So well-bred a woman could never make such imputations
-willingly. Took advantage! I hope I did not do that. But I certainly
-recommended the arrangement to him, as the most reasonable thing he
-could do. Think! At his age, he could come here only to die; and with no
-son to succeed him, of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_029" id="page_029"></a>{29}</span> course I should have stepped in immediately. Few
-men like to die among strangers. I was willing, of course, to make him a
-recompense for the convenience&mdash;for it was no more than a convenience,
-make the most you can of it&mdash;of succeeding at once.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan looked at him speechless with pain and passion. I do not know
-what she did not feel disposed to say. For a moment her blue eyes shot
-forth fire, her lips quivered from the flux of too many words which
-flooded upon her. She began even, faltering, stammering&mdash;then came to a
-stop in the mere physical inability to arrange her words, to say all she
-wanted, to launch her thunderbolt at his head with the precision she
-wished. At last she came to a dead stop, looking at him only, incapable
-of speech; and with that pause came reflection. No; she would say
-nothing; she would not commit herself; she would think first, and
-perhaps do, instead of saying. She gave a gasp of self-restraint.</p>
-
-<p>“The young ladies seem impatient for you,” she said. “Don’t let me
-detain you. I don’t know that I have anything to say on the subject of
-your news, which is surprising, to be sure, and takes away my breath.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I thought you would be surprised,” he said, and shook hands with
-her. Miss Susan’s fingers tingled&mdash;how she would have liked, in an
-outburst of impatience which I fear was very undignified, to apply them
-to his ear, rather than to suffer his hand to touch hers in hypocritical
-amity! He was a little disappointed, however, to have had so little
-response to his communication. Her silence baffled him. He had expected
-her to commit herself, to storm, perhaps; to dash herself in fury
-against this skilful obstacle which he had placed in her way. He did not
-expect her to have so much command of herself; and, in consequence, he
-went away with a secret uneasiness, feeling less successful and less
-confident in what he had done, and asking himself, Could he have made
-some mistake after all&mdash;could she know something that made his
-enterprise unavailing? He was more than usually silent on the drive
-home, making no answer to the comments of his girls, or to their talk
-about what they would do when they got possession of the manor.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope the furniture goes with the house,” said Kate. “Papa, you must
-do all you can to secure those old chairs, and especially<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_030" id="page_030"></a>{30}</span> the settee
-with the stamped leather, which is charming, and would fetch its weight
-in gold in Wardour street.”</p>
-
-<p>“And, papa, those big blue and white jars,” said Sophy, “real old
-Nankin, I am sure. They must have quantities of things hidden away in
-those old cupboards. It shall be as good as a museum when we get
-possession of the house!”</p>
-
-<p>“You had better get possession of the house before you make any plans
-about it,” said her father. “I never like making too sure.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why, papa, what has come over you?” cried the eldest. “You were the
-first to say what you would do, when we started. Miss Susan has been
-throwing some spell over you.”</p>
-
-<p>“If it is her spell, it will not be hard to break it,” said Sophy; and
-thus they glided along, between the green abundant hedges, breathing the
-honey breath of the limes, but not quite so happy and triumphant as when
-they came. As for the girls, they had heard no details of the bargain
-their father had made, and gave no great importance to it; for they knew
-he was the next heir, and that the manor-house would soon cease to be
-poor Herbert’s, with whom they had played as children, but whom, they
-said constantly, they scarcely knew. They did not understand what cloud
-had come over their father. “Miss Susan is an old witch,” they said,
-“and she has put him under some spell.”</p>
-
-<p>Meanwhile Miss Susan sat half-stupefied where he had left her, in a
-draught, which was a thing she took precautions against on ordinary
-occasions&mdash;the great window open behind her, the door open in front of
-her, and the current blowing about even the sedate and heavy folds of
-the great crimson curtains, and waking, though she did not feel it, the
-demon Neuralgia to twist her nerves, and set her frame on an edge. She
-did not seem able to move or even think, so great was the amazement in
-her mind. Could he be right&mdash;could he have found the Austin she had
-sought for over all the world; and was it possible that the unrighteous
-bargain he had told her of had really been completed? Unrighteous! for
-was it not cheating her in the way she felt the most, deceiving her in
-her expectations? An actual misfortune could scarcely have given Miss
-Susan so great a shock. She sat quite motionless, her very thoughts
-arrested in their course, not knowing what to think, what to do&mdash;how to
-take this curious new event. Must she accept it as a thing beyond her
-power of altering, or ought she to ignore it as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_031" id="page_031"></a>{31}</span> something incredible,
-impossible? One thing or other she must decide upon at once; but in the
-meantime, so great was the effect this intimation had upon her mind, she
-felt herself past all power of thinking. Everard coming back found her
-still seated there in the draught in the old hall. He shut the door
-softly behind him and went in, looking at her with questioning eyes. But
-she did not notice his look; she was too much and too deeply occupied in
-her own mind. Besides, his friendship with her visitors made Everard a
-kind of suspected person, not to be fully trusted. Miss Susan was too
-deeply absorbed to think this, but she felt it. He sat down opposite,
-where Mr. Farrel-Austin had been sitting, and looked at her; but this
-mute questioning produced no response.</p>
-
-<p>“What has old Farrel been saying to you, Aunt Susan?” he asked at last.</p>
-
-<p>“Why do you call him old Farrel, Everard? he is not nearly so old as I
-am,” said Miss Susan with a sigh, waking up from her thoughts. “Growing
-old has its advantages, no doubt, when one can realize the idea of
-getting rid of all one’s worries, and having the jangled bells put in
-tune again; but otherwise&mdash;to think of others who will set everything
-wrong coming after us, who have tried hard to keep them right! Perhaps,
-when it comes to the very end, one does not mind; I hope so; I feel sore
-now to think that this man should be younger than I am, and likely to
-live ever so much longer, and enjoy my father’s house.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard sat still, saying nothing. He was unprepared for this sort of
-reply. He was slightly shocked too, as young people so often are, by the
-expression of any sentiments, except the orthodox ones, on the subject
-of dying. It seemed to him, at twenty-five, that to Miss Susan at sixty,
-it must be a matter of comparatively little consequence how much longer
-she lived. He would have felt the sentiments of the <i>Nunc Dimittis</i> to
-be much more appropriate and correct in the circumstances; he could not
-understand the peculiar mortification of having less time to live than
-Farrel-Austin. He looked grave with the fine disapproval and lofty
-superiority of youth. But he was a very gentle-souled and tender-hearted
-young man, and he did not like to express the disapproval that was in
-his face.</p>
-
-<p>“We had better not talk of them,” said Miss Susan, after a pause; “we
-don’t agree about them, and it is not likely we should;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_032" id="page_032"></a>{32}</span> and I don’t
-want to quarrel with you, Everard, on their account. Farrel thinks he is
-quite sure of the estate now. He has found out some one whom he calls
-our missing cousin, and has got him to give up in his own favor.”</p>
-
-<p>“Got him to give up in his own favor!” repeated Everard amazed. “Why,
-this is wonderful news. Who is it, and where is he, and how has it come
-about? You take away one’s breath.”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot go into the story,” said Miss Susan. “Ask himself. I am sick
-of the subject. He thinks he has settled it, and that it is all right;
-and waits for nothing but my poor boy’s end to take possession. They had
-not even the grace to ask for him!” she cried, rising hastily. “Don’t
-ask me anything about it; it is more than I can bear.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Aunt Susan&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I tell you we shall quarrel, Everard, if we talk more on this subject,”
-she cried. “You are their friend, and I am their&mdash;no; it is they who are
-my enemies,” she added, stopping herself. “I don’t dictate to you how
-you are to feel, or what friends you are to make. I have no right; but I
-have a right to talk of what I please, and to be silent when I please. I
-shall say no more about it. As for you,” she said, after another pause,
-with a forced smile, “the young ladies will consult with you what
-changes they are to make in the house. I heard them commenting on the
-roses, and how everything could be improved. You will be of the greatest
-use to them in their new arrangements, when all obstacles are removed.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think it is kind to speak to me so,” said Everard, in his
-surprise. “It is not generous, Aunt Susan. It is like kicking a fellow
-when he is down; for you know I can’t defend myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I suppose it is unjust,” said Miss Susan, drying her eyes, which
-were full of hot tears, with no gratefulness of relief in them. “The
-worst of this world is that one is driven to be unjust, and can’t help
-it, even to those one loves.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_033" id="page_033"></a>{33}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IV" id="CHAPTER_IV"></a>CHAPTER IV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">E</span><small>VERARD AUSTIN</small> remained at Whiteladies for the rest of the afternoon&mdash;he
-was like one of the children of the house. The old servants took him
-aside and asked him to mention things to Miss Susan with which they did
-not like to worry her in her trouble, though indeed most of these
-delicacies were very much after date, and concerned matters on which
-Miss Susan had already been sufficiently worried. The gardener came and
-told him of trees that wanted cutting, and the bailiff on the farm
-consulted him about the laborers for the approaching harvest. “Miss
-Susan don’t like tramps, and I don’t want to go against her, just when
-things is at its worst. I shouldn’t wonder, sir,” said the man, looking
-curiously in Everard’s face, “if things was in other hands this time
-next year?” Everard answered him with something of the bitterness which
-he himself had condemned so much a little while before. That
-Farrel-Austin should succeed was natural; but thus to look forward to
-the changing of masters gave him, too, a pang. He went indoors somewhat
-disturbed, and fell into the hands of Martha and Jane fresh from the
-almshouse. Martha, who was Miss Susan’s maid and half-housekeeper, had
-taken charge of him often enough in his boyish days, and called him
-Master Everard still, so that she was entitled to speak; while the
-younger maid looked on, and concurred&mdash;“It will break <i>my</i> lady’s
-heart,” said Martha, “leaving this old house; not but what we might be a
-deal more comfortable in a nice handy place, in good repair like yours
-is, Master Everard; where the floors is straight and the roofs likewise,
-and you don’t catch a rheumatism round every corner; but <i>my</i> lady ain’t
-of my way of thinking. I tell her as it would have been just as bad if
-Mr. Herbert had got well, poor dear young gentleman, and got married;
-but she won’t listen to me. Miss Augustine, she don’t take<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_034" id="page_034"></a>{34}</span> on about the
-house; but she’s got plenty to bother her, poor soul; and the way she do
-carry on about them almshouses! It’s like born natural, that’s what it
-is, and nothing else. Oh me! I know as I didn’t ought to say it; but
-what can you do, I ask you, Master Everard, when you have got the like
-of that under your very nose? She’ll soon have nothing but paupers in
-the parish if she has her way.”</p>
-
-<p>“She’s very feeling-hearted,” said Jane, who stood behind her elder
-companion and put in a word now and then over Martha’s shoulder. She had
-been enjoying the delights of patronage, the happiness of recommending
-her friends in the village to Miss Augustine’s consideration; and this
-was too pleasant a privilege to be consistent with criticism. The
-profusion of her mistress’s alms made Jane feel herself to be
-“feeling-hearted” too.</p>
-
-<p>“And great thanks she gets for it all,” said Martha. “They call her the
-crazy one down in the village. Miss Susan, she’s the hard one; and Miss
-Augustine’s the crazy one. That’s gratitude! trailing about in her gray
-gown for all the world like a Papist nun. But, poor soul, I didn’t ought
-to grudge her gray, Master Everard. We’ll soon be black and black enough
-in our mourning, from all that I hear.”</p>
-
-<p>Again Everard was conscious of a shiver. He made a hasty answer and
-withdrew from the women who had come up to him in one of the airy
-corridors upstairs, half glass, like the passages below, and full of
-corners. Everard was on his way from a pilgrimage to the room, in which,
-when Herbert and he were children, they had been allowed to accumulate
-their playthings and possessions. It had a bit of corridor, like a
-glazed gallery, leading to it&mdash;and a door opened from it to the
-musicians’ gallery of the hall. The impulse which led him to this place
-was not like his usual care to avoid unpleasant sensations, for the very
-sight of the long bare room, with its windows half choked with ivy, the
-traces of old delights on the walls&mdash;bows hung on one side, whips on the
-other&mdash;a heap of cricket-bats and pads in a corner; and old books,
-pictures, and rubbish heaped upon the old creaky piano on which Reine
-used to play to them, had gone to his heart. How often the old walls had
-rung with their voices, the old floor creaked under them! He had given
-one look into the haunted solitude, and then had fled, feeling himself
-unable to bear it. “As if<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_035" id="page_035"></a>{35}</span> I could do them any good thinking!” Everard
-had said to himself, with a rush of tears to his eyes&mdash;and it was in the
-gallery leading to this room&mdash;the west gallery as everybody called
-it&mdash;that the women stopped him. The rooms at Whiteladies had almost
-every one a gallery, or an ante-room, or a little separate staircase to
-itself. The dinner-bell pealed out as he emerged from thence and hurried
-to the room which had been always called his, to prepare for dinner. How
-full of memories the old place was! The dinner-bell was very solemn,
-like the bell of a cathedral, and had never been known to be silent,
-except when the family were absent, for more years than any one could
-reckon. How well he recollected the stir it made among them all as
-children, and how they would steal into the musicians’ gallery and watch
-in the centre of the great room below, in the speck of light which shone
-amid its dimness, the two ladies sitting at table, like people in a book
-or in a dream, the servants moving softly about, and no one aware of the
-unseen spectators, till the irrepressible whispering and rustling of the
-children betrayed them! how sometimes they were sent away ignominiously,
-and sometimes Aunt Susan, in a cheery mood, would throw up oranges to
-them, which Reine, with her tiny hands, could never catch! How she used
-to cry when the oranges fell round her and were snapped up by the
-boys&mdash;not for the fruit, for Reine never had anything without sharing it
-or giving it away, but for the failure which made them laugh at her!
-Everard laughed unawares as the scene came up before him, and then felt
-that sudden compression, constriction of his heart&mdash;<i>serrement du
-cœur</i>, which forces out the bitterest tears. And then he hurried down
-to dinner and took his seat with the ladies, in the cool of the Summer
-evening, in the same historical spot, having now become one of them, and
-no longer a spectator. But he looked up at the gallery with a wistful
-sense of the little scuffle that used to be there, the scrambling of
-small feet, and whispering of voices. In Summer, when coolness was an
-advantage, the ladies still dined in the great hall.</p>
-
-<p>“Austine, you have not seen Everard since he returned from America,”
-said Miss Susan. “How strong and well he looks!”&mdash;here she gave a sigh;
-not that she grudged Everard his good looks, but the very words brought
-the other before her, at thought of whom every other young man’s
-strength and health seemed cruel.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_036" id="page_036"></a>{36}</span></p>
-
-<p>“He has escaped the fate of the family,” said Miss Augustine. “All I can
-pray for, Everard, is that you may never be the Austin of Whiteladies.
-No wealth can make up for that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush, hush!” said Miss Susan with a smile, “these are your fancies. We
-are not much worse off than many other families who have no such curse
-as you think of, my dear? Are all the old women comfortable&mdash;and
-grumbling? What were you about to-day?”</p>
-
-<p>“I met them in chapel,” said the younger sister, “and talked to them. I
-told them, as I always do, what need we have of their prayers; and that
-they should maintain a Christian life. Ah, Susan, you smile; and
-Everard, because he is young and foolish, would laugh if he could; but
-when you think that this is all I can do, or any one can do, to make up
-for the sins of the past, to avert the doom of the family&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“If we have anything to make up more than others, I think we should do
-it ourselves,” said Miss Susan. “But never mind, dear, if it pleases
-you. You are spoiling the people; but there are not many villages
-spoiled with kindness. I comfort myself with that.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not to please myself that I toil night and day, that I rise up
-early and lie down late,” said Miss Augustine, with a faint gleam of
-indignation in her eyes. Then she looked at Everard and sighed. She did
-not want to brag of her mortifications. In the curious balance-sheet
-which she kept with heaven, poor soul, so many prayers and vigils and
-charities, against so many sinful failings in duty, she was aware that
-anything like a boast on her part diminished the value of the
-compensation she was rendering. Her unexpressed rule was that the, so to
-speak, commercial worth of a good deed disappeared, when advantage was
-taken of it for this world; she wanted to keep it at its full value for
-the next, and therefore she stopped short and said no more. “Some of
-them put us to shame,” she said; “they lead such holy lives. Old Mary
-Matthews spends nearly her whole time in chapel. She only lives for God
-and us. To hear her speak would reward you for many sacrifices,
-Susan&mdash;if you ever make any. She gives up all&mdash;her time, her comfort,
-her whole thoughts&mdash;for us.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why for us?” said Everard. “Do you keep people on purpose to pray for
-the family, Aunt Augustine? I beg your pardon, but it sounded something
-like it. You can’t mean it, of course?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_037" id="page_037"></a>{37}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Why should not I mean it? We do not pray so much as we ought for
-ourselves,” said Miss Augustine; “and if I can persuade holy persons to
-pray for us continually&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“At so much a week, a cottage, and coals and candles,” said Miss Susan.
-“Augustine, my dear, you shall have your way as long as I can get it for
-you. I am glad the old souls are comfortable; and if they are good, so
-much the better; and I am glad you like it, my dear; but whatever you
-think, you should not talk in this way. Eh, Stevens, what do you say?”</p>
-
-<p>“If I might make so bold, ma’am,” said the butler, “not to go against
-Miss Augustine; but that hold Missis Matthews, mum, she’s a hold&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Silence, sir!” said Miss Susan promptly, “I don’t want to hear any
-gossip; my sister knows best. Tell Everard about your schools, my dear;
-the parish must be the better with the schools. Whatever the immediate
-motive is, so long as the thing is good,” said this casuist, “and
-whatever the occasional result may be, so long as the meaning is
-charitable&mdash;There, there, Everard, I won’t have her crossed.”</p>
-
-<p>This was said hastily in an undertone to Everard, who was shaking his
-head, with a suppressed laugh on his face.</p>
-
-<p>“I am not objecting to anything that is done, but to your reasoning,
-which is defective,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my reasoning! is that all? I don’t stand upon my reasoning,” said
-Miss Susan. And then there was a pause in the conversation, for Miss
-Susan’s mind was perturbed, and she talked but in fits and starts,
-having sudden intervals of silence, from which she would as suddenly
-emerge into animated discussion, then be still again all in a moment.
-Miss Augustine, in her long limp gray dress, with pale hands coming out
-of the wide hanging sleeves, talked only on one subject, and did not eat
-at all, so that her company was not very cheerful. And Everard could not
-but glance up now and then to the gallery, which lay in deep shade, and
-feel as if he were in a dream, seated down below in the light. How
-vividly the childish past had come upon him; and how much more cheerful
-it had been in those old days, when the three atoms in the dusty corner
-of the gallery looked down with laughing eyes upon the solemn people at
-table, and whispered and rustled in their restlessness till they were
-found out!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_038" id="page_038"></a>{38}</span></p>
-
-<p>At last&mdash;and this was something so wonderful that even the servants who
-waited at table were appalled&mdash;Miss Augustine recommenced the
-conversation. “You have had some one here to-day,” she said.
-“Farrel-Austin&mdash;I met him.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes!” said Miss Susan, breathless and alarmed.</p>
-
-<p>“It seemed to me that the shadow had fallen upon them already. He is
-gray and changed. I have not seen him for a long time; his wife is ill,
-and his children are delicate.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nonsense, Austine, the girls are as strong and well as a couple of
-young hoydens need be.” Miss Susan spoke almost sharply, and in a
-half-frightened tone.</p>
-
-<p>“You think so, Susan; for my part I saw the shadow plainly. It is that
-their time is drawing near to inherit. Perhaps as they are girls,
-nothing will happen to them; nothing ever happened to us; that is to
-say, they will not marry probably; they will be as we have been. I wish
-to know them, Susan. Probably one of them would take up my work, and
-endeavor to keep further trouble from the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Farrel’s daughter? you are very good, Austine, very good; you put me to
-shame,” said Miss Susan, bending her head.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; why not Farrel’s daughter? She is a woman like the rest of us and
-an Austin, like the rest of us. I wish the property could pass to women,
-then there might be an end of it once for all.”</p>
-
-<p>“In that case it would go to Reine, and there would not in the least be
-the end of it; quite the reverse.”</p>
-
-<p>“I could persuade Reine,” said Miss Augustine. “Ah, yes; I could
-persuade <i>her</i>. She knows my life. She knows about the family, how we
-have all suffered. Reine would be led by me; she would give it up, as I
-should have done had I the power. But men will not do such a thing. I am
-not blaming them, I am saying what is the fact. Reine would have given
-it up.”</p>
-
-<p>“You speak like a visionary,” said Miss Susan sighing. “Yes, I daresay
-Reine would be capable of a piece of folly, or you, or even myself. We
-do things that seem right to us at the moment without taking other
-things into consideration, when we are quite free to do what we like.
-But don’t you see, my dear, a man with an entailed estate is not free?
-His son or his heir must come after him, as his father went before him;
-he is only a kind of a tenant. Farrel, since you have spoken of
-Farrel&mdash;I would not have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_039" id="page_039"></a>{39}</span> begun it&mdash;dare not alienate property from
-Everard; and Everard, when it comes to him, must keep it for his son, if
-he ever has one.”</p>
-
-<p>“The thing would be,” said Miss Augustine, “to make up your mind never
-to have one, Everard.” She looked at him calmly and gravely, crossing
-her hands within her long sleeves.</p>
-
-<p>“But, my dear Aunt Augustine,” said Everard, laughing, “what good would
-that do me? I should have to hand it on to the next in the entail all
-the same. I could not do away with the estate without the consent of my
-heir at least.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then I will tell you what to do,” said Miss Augustine. “Marry; it is
-different from what I said just now, but it has the same meaning. Marry
-at once; and when you have a boy let him be sent to me. I will train
-him, I will show him his duty; and then with his consent, which he will
-be sure to give when he grows up, you can break the entail and restore
-Whiteladies to its right owner. Do this, my dear boy, it is quite
-simple; and so at last I shall have the satisfaction of feeling that the
-curse will be ended one day. Yes; the thing to be done is this.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan had exclaimed in various tones of impatience. She had laughed
-reluctantly when Everard laughed; but what her sister said was more
-serious to her than it was to the young man. “Do you mean to live
-forever,” she said at last, “that you calculate so calmly on bringing up
-Everard’s son?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am fifty-five,” said Miss Augustine, “and Everard might have a son in
-a year. Probably I shall live to seventy-five, at least,&mdash;most of the
-women of our family do. He would then be twenty, approaching his
-majority. There is nothing extravagant in it; and on the whole, it seems
-to me the most hopeful thing to do. You must marry, Everard, without
-delay; and if you want money I will help you. I will do anything for an
-object so near my heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“You had better settle whom I am to marry, Aunt Augustine.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard’s laughter made the old walls gay. He entered into the joke
-without any <i>arrière pensée</i>; the suggestion amused him beyond measure;
-all the more that it was made with so much gravity and solemnity. Miss
-Susan had laughed too; but now she became slightly alarmed, and watched
-her sister with troubled eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Whom you are to marry? That wants consideration,” said Miss Augustine.
-“The sacrifice would be more complete and satisfying if two branches of
-the family concurred in making it. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_040" id="page_040"></a>{40}</span> proper person for you to marry
-in the circumstances would be either&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Austine!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes! I am giving the subject my best attention. You cannot understand,
-no one can understand, how all-important it is to me. Everard, either
-one of Farrel’s girls, to whom I bear no malice, or perhaps Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Austine, you are out of your senses on this point,” said Miss Susan,
-almost springing from her seat, and disturbing suddenly the calm of the
-talk. “Come, come, we must retire; we have dined. Everard, if you choose
-to sit a little, Stevens is giving you some very good claret. It was my
-father’s; I can answer for it, much better than I can answer for my own,
-for I am no judge. You will find us in the west room when you are ready,
-or in the garden. It is almost too sweet to be indoors to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>She drew her sister’s arm within hers and led her away, with peremptory
-authority which permitted no argument, and to which Augustine
-instinctively yielded; and Everard remained alone, his cheek tingling,
-his heart beating. It had all been pure amusement up to this point; but
-even his sense of the ludicrous could not carry him further. He might
-have known, he said to himself, that this was what she must say. He
-blushed, and felt it ungenerous in himself to have allowed her to go so
-far, to propose these names to him. He seemed to be making the girls
-endure a humiliation against his will, and without their knowledge. What
-had they done that he should permit any one even to suggest that he
-could choose among them? This was the more elevated side of his
-feelings; but there was another side, I am obliged to allow, a
-fluttered, flattered consciousness that the suggestion might be true;
-that he might have it in his power, like a sultan, to choose among them,
-and throw his princely handkerchief at the one he preferred. A mixture,
-therefore, of some curious sense of elation and suppressed pleasure,
-mingled with the more generous feeling within him, quenching at once the
-ridicule of Miss Augustine’s proposal, and the sense of wrong done to
-those three girls. Yes, no doubt it is a man’s privilege to choose; he,
-and not the woman, has it in his power to weigh the qualities of one and
-another, and to decide which would be most fit for the glorious position
-of his wife. They could not choose him, but he could choose one of them,
-and on his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_041" id="page_041"></a>{41}</span> choice probably their future fate would depend. It was
-impossible not to feel a little pleasant flutter of consciousness. He
-was not vain, but he felt the sweetness of the superiority involved, the
-greatness of the position.</p>
-
-<p>When the ladies were gone Everard laughed, all alone by himself, he
-could not help it; and the echoes took up the laughter, and rang into
-that special corner of the gallery which he knew so well, centring
-there. Why there, of all places in the world? Was it some ghost of
-little Reine in her childhood that laughed? Reine in her childhood had
-been the one who exercised choice. It was she who might have thrown the
-handkerchief, not Everard. And then a hush came over him, and a
-compunction, as he thought where Reine was at this moment, and how she
-might be occupied. Bending over her brother’s death-bed, hearing his
-last words, her heart contracted with the bitter pang of parting, while
-her old playfellow laughed, and wondered whether he should choose her
-out of the three to share his grandeur. Everard grew quite silent all at
-once, and poured himself out a glass of the old claret in deep
-humiliation and stillness, feeling ashamed of himself. He held the wine
-up to the light with the solemnest countenance, trying to take himself
-in, and persuade himself that he had no lighter thoughts in his mind,
-and then having swallowed it with equal solemnity, he got up and
-strolled out into the garden. He had so grave a face when Miss Susan met
-him, that she thought for the first moment that some letter had come,
-and that all was over, and gasped and called to him, what was it? what
-was it? “Nothing!” said Everard more solemnly than ever. He was
-impervious to any attempt at laughter for the rest of the evening,
-ashamed of himself and his light thoughts, in sudden contrast with the
-thoughts that must be occupying his cousins, his old playmates. And yet,
-as he went home in the moonlight, the shock of that contrast lessened,
-and his young lightness of mind began to reassert itself. Before he got
-out of hearing of the manor he began to whistle again unawares; but this
-time it was not one of Reine’s songs. It was a light opera air which, no
-doubt, one of the other girls had taught him, or so, at least, Miss
-Susan thought.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_042" id="page_042"></a>{42}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_V" id="CHAPTER_V"></a>CHAPTER V.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span><span class="smcap">n</span> all relationships, as I have already said&mdash;and it is not an original
-saying&mdash;there is one who is active and one who is passive,&mdash;“<i>L’unqui
-baise et l’autre qui tend la joue</i>,” as the French say, with their
-wonderful half-pathetic, half-cynic wisdom. Between the two sisters of
-Whiteladies it was Augustine who gave the cheek and Susan the kiss, it
-was Augustine who claimed and Susan who offered sympathy; it was
-Augustine’s affairs, such as they were, which were discussed. The
-younger sister had only her own fancies and imaginations, her charities,
-and the fantastic compensations which she thought she was making for the
-evil deeds of her family, to discuss and enlarge upon; whereas the elder
-had her mind full of those mundane matters from which our cares
-spring&mdash;the management of material interests&mdash;the conflict which is
-always more or less involved in the government of other souls. She
-managed her nephew’s estate in trust for him till he came of age,&mdash;if he
-should live to come of age, poor boy; she managed her own money and her
-sister’s, which was not inconsiderable; and the house and the servants,
-and in some degree the parish, of which Miss Susan was the virtual
-Squire. But of all this weight of affairs it did not occur to her to
-throw any upon Augustine. Augustine had always been spared from her
-youth up&mdash;spared all annoyance, all trouble, everybody uniting to shield
-her. She had been “delicate” in her childhood, and she had sustained a
-“disappointment” in youth&mdash;which means in grosser words that she had
-been jilted, openly and disgracefully, by Farrel-Austin, her cousin,
-which was the ground of Susan Austin’s enmity to him. I doubt much
-whether Augustine herself, whose blood was always tepid and her head
-involved in dreams, felt this half so much as her family felt it for
-her&mdash;her sister especially, to whom she had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_043" id="page_043"></a>{43}</span> been a pet and a plaything
-all her life, and who had that half-adoring admiration for her which an
-elder sister is sometimes seen to entertain for a younger one whom she
-believes to be gifted with that beauty which she knows has not fallen to
-her share. Susan felt the blow with an acute sense of shame and wounded
-pride, which Augustine herself was entirely incapable of&mdash;and from that
-moment forward had constituted herself, not only the protector of her
-sister’s weakness, but the representative of something better which had
-failed her, of that admiration and chivalrous service which a beautiful
-woman is supposed to receive from the world.</p>
-
-<p>It may seem a strange thing to many to call the devotion of one woman to
-another chivalrous. Yet Susan’s devotion to her sister merited the
-title. She vowed to herself that, so far as she could prevent it, her
-sister should never feel the failure of those attentions which her lover
-ought to have given her&mdash;that she should never know what it was to fall
-into that neglect which is often the portion of middle-aged women&mdash;that
-she should be petted and cared for, as if she were still the favorite
-child or the adored wife which she had been or might have been. In doing
-this Susan not only testified the depth of her love for Augustine, and
-indignant compassion for her wrongs, but also a woman’s high ideal of
-how an ideal woman should be treated in this world. Augustine was
-neither a beautiful woman nor an ideal one, though her sister thought
-so, and Susan had been checked many a time in her idolatry by her idol’s
-total want of comprehension of it; but she had never given up her plan
-for consoling the sufferer. She had admired Augustine as well as loved
-her; she had always found what she did excellent; she had made
-Augustine’s plans important by believing in them, and her opinions
-weighty, even while, within herself, she saw the plans to be
-impracticable and the opinions futile. The elder sister would pause in
-the midst of a hundred real and pressing occupations, a hundred weighty
-cares, to condole with, or to assist, or support, the younger, pulling
-her through some parish imbroglio, some almshouse squabble, as if these
-trifling annoyances had been affairs of state. But of the serious
-matters which occupied her own mind, she said nothing to Augustine,
-knowing that she would find no comprehension, and willing to avoid the
-certainty that her sister would take no interest in her proceedings.
-Indeed, it was quite possible that Augustine might<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_044" id="page_044"></a>{44}</span> have gone further
-than mere failure of sympathy; Susan knew very well that she would be
-disapproved of, perhaps censured, for being engrossed by the affairs of
-this world. The village people, and everybody on the estate, were, I
-think, of the same opinion. They thought Miss Susan “the hard
-one”&mdash;doing her ineffable injustice, one of those unconsidered wrongs
-that cut into the heart. At first, I suppose, this had not been the
-state of affairs&mdash;between the sisters, at least; but it would be
-difficult to tell how many disappointments the strong and hard Susan had
-gone through before she made up her mind never to ask for the sympathy
-which never came her way. This was her best philosophy, and saved her
-much mortification; but it cost her many trials before she could make up
-her mind to it, and had not its origin in philosophy at all, but in much
-wounding and lacerating of a generous and sensitive heart.</p>
-
-<p>Therefore she did not breathe a word to her sister about the present
-annoyance and anxiety in her mind. When it was their hour to go
-upstairs&mdash;and everything was done like clock-work at Whiteladies&mdash;she
-went with Augustine to her room, as she always did, and heard over again
-for the third or fourth time the complaint of the rudeness of the
-butler, Stevens, who did not countenance Augustine’s “ways.”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, he is a very honest fellow,” said Miss Susan, thinking bitterly
-of Farrel-Austin and of the last successful stroke he had made.</p>
-
-<p>“He is a savage, he is a barbarian&mdash;he cannot be a Christian,” Miss
-Augustine had replied.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes, my dear; we must take care not to judge other people. I will
-scold him well, and he will never venture to say anything disagreeable
-to you again.”</p>
-
-<p>“You think I am speaking for myself,” said Augustine. “No, what I feel
-is, how out of place such a man is in a household like ours. You are
-deceived about him now, and think his honesty, as you call it, covers
-all his faults. But, Susan, listen to me. Without the Christian life,
-what is honesty? Do you think <i>it</i> would bear the strain if
-temptation&mdash;to any great crime, for instance&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, you are speaking nonsense,” said Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“That is what I am afraid of,” said her sister solemnly. “A<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_045" id="page_045"></a>{45}</span> man like
-this ought not to be in a house like ours; for you are a Christian,
-Susan.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope so at least,” said the other with a momentary laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“But why should you laugh? Oh, Susan! think how you throw back my
-work&mdash;even, you hinder my atonement. Is not this how all the family have
-been&mdash;treating everything lightly&mdash;our family sin and doom, like the
-rest? and you, who ought to know better, who ought to strengthen my
-hands! perhaps, who knows, if you could but have given your mind to it,
-we two together might have averted the doom!”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine sat down in a large hard wooden chair which she used by way of
-mortification, and covered her face with her hands. Susan, who was
-standing by holding her candle, looked at her strangely with a half
-smile, and a curious acute sense of the contrast between them. She stood
-silent for a moment, perhaps with a passing wonder which of the two it
-was who had done the most for the old house; but if she entertained this
-thought, it was but for the moment. She laid her hand upon her sister’s
-shoulder.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Austine,” she said, “I am Martha and you are Mary. So long as
-Martha did not find fault with her sister, our good Lord made no
-objection to her housewifely ways. So, if I am earthly while you are
-heavenly, you must put up with me, dear; for, after all, there are a
-great many earthly things to be looked after. And as for Stevens, I
-shall scold him well,” she added with sudden energy, with a little
-outburst of natural indignation at the cause (though innocent) of this
-slight ruffling of the domestic calm.</p>
-
-<p>The thoughts in her mind were of a curious and mixed description as she
-went along the corridor after Augustine had melted, and bestowed, with a
-certain lofty and melancholy regret, for her sister’s imperfections, her
-good-night kiss. Miss Susan’s room was on the other side of the house,
-over the drawing-room. To reach it she had to go along the corridor,
-which skirted the staircase with its dark oaken balustrades, and thence
-into another casemented passage, which led by three or four oaken steps
-to the ante-room in which her maid slept, and from which her own room
-opened. One of her windows looked out upon the north side, the same
-aspect as the dining-hall, and was, indeed, the large casement which
-occupied one of the richly-carved gables on that side of the house. The
-other looked out upon the west side, over the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_046" id="page_046"></a>{46}</span> garden, and facing the
-sunset. It was a large panelled room, with few curtains, for Miss Susan
-loved air. A shaded night-lamp burned faintly upon a set of carved oaken
-drawers at the north end, and the moonlight slanting through the western
-window threw two lights, broken by the black bar of the casement, on the
-broad oak boards&mdash;for only the centre of the room was carpeted. Martha
-came in with her mistress, somewhat sleepy, and slightly injured in her
-feelings, for what with Everard’s visits and other agitations of the
-day, Miss Susan was half an hour late. It is not to be supposed that
-she, who could not confide in her sister, would confide in Martha; but
-yet Martha knew, by various indications, what Augustine would never have
-discovered, that Miss Susan had “something on her mind.” Perhaps it was
-because she did not talk as much as usual, and listened to Martha’s own
-remarks with the indifference of abstractedness; perhaps because of the
-little tap of her foot on the floor, and sound of her voice as she asked
-her faithful attendant if she had done yet, while Martha, aggrieved but
-conscientious, fumbled with the doors of the wardrobe, in which she had
-just hung up her mistress’s gown; perhaps it was the tired way in which
-Miss Susan leaned back in her easy chair, and the half sigh which
-breathed into her good-night. But from all these signs together Martha
-knew, what nothing could have taught Augustine. But what could the maid
-do to show sympathy? At first, I am sorry to say, she did not feel much,
-but was rather glad that the mistress, who had kept her half an hour
-longer than usual out of bed, should herself have some part of the
-penalty to pay; but compunctions grew upon Martha before she left the
-room, and I think that her lingering, which annoyed Miss Susan, was
-partly meant to show that she felt for her mistress. If so, it met the
-usual recompense of unappreciated kindness, and at last earned a
-peremptory dismissal for the lingerer. When Miss Susan was alone, she
-raised herself a little from her chair and screwed up the flame of the
-small silver lamp on her little table, and put the double eyeglass which
-she used, being slightly short-sighted, on her nose. She was going to
-think; and she had an idea, not uncommon to short-sighted people, that
-to see distinctly helped her faculties in everything.</p>
-
-<p>She felt instinctively for her eyeglass when any noise woke her in the
-middle of the night; she could hear better as well as think<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_047" id="page_047"></a>{47}</span> better with
-that aid. The two white streaks of moonlight, with the broad bar of
-shadow between, and all the markings of the diamond panes, indicated on
-the gray oaken board and fringe of Turkey carpet, moved slowly along the
-floor, coming further into the room as the moon moved westward to its
-setting. In the distant corner the night-light burned dim but steady.
-Miss Susan sat by the side of her bed, which was hung at the head with
-blue-gray curtains of beautiful old damask. On her little table was a
-Bible and Prayer Book, a long-stalked glass with a rose in it, another
-book less sacred, which she had been reading in the morning, her
-handkerchief, her eau-de-cologne, her large old watch in an old stand,
-and those other trifles which every lady’s-maid who respects herself
-keeps ready and in order by her mistress’s bedside. Martha, too sleepy
-to be long about her own preparations, was in bed and asleep almost as
-soon as Miss Susan put on her glasses. All was perfectly still, the
-world out-of-doors held under the spell of the moonlight, the world
-inside rapt in sleep and rest. Miss Susan wrapped her dressing-gown
-about her, and sat up in her chair to think. It was a very cosey, very
-comfortable chair, not hard and angular like Austine’s, and everything
-in the room was pleasant and soft, not ascetical and self-denying. Susan
-Austin was not young, but she had kept something of that curious
-freshness of soul which some unmarried women carry down to old age. She
-was not aware in her innermost heart that she was old. In everything
-external she owned her years fully, and felt them; but in her heart she,
-who had never passed out of the first stage of life, retained so many of
-its early illusions as to confuse herself and bewilder her
-consciousness. When she sat like this thinking by herself, with nothing
-to remind her of the actual aspect of circumstances, she never could be
-quite sure whether she was young or old. There was always a momentary
-glimmer and doubtfulness about her before she settled down to the
-consideration of her problem, whatever it was&mdash;as to which problem it
-was, those which had come before her in her youth, which she had
-settled, or left to float in abeyance for the settling of
-circumstances&mdash;or the actual and practical matter-of-fact of to-day. For
-a moment she caught her own mind lingering upon that old story between
-Augustine and their cousin Farrel, as if it were one of the phases of
-that which demanded her attention; and then she roused herself<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_048" id="page_048"></a>{48}</span> sharply
-to her immediate difficulty, and to consider what she was to do.</p>
-
-<p>It is forlorn in such an emergency to be compelled to deliberate alone,
-without any sharer of one’s anxieties or confidante of one’s thoughts.
-But Miss Susan was used to this, and was willing to recognize the
-advantage it gave her in the way of independence and prompt conclusion.
-She was free from the temptation of talking too much, of attacking her
-opponents with those winged words which live often after the feeling
-that dictated them has passed. She could not be drawn into any
-self-committal, for nobody thought or cared what was in her mind.
-Perhaps, however, it is more easy to exercise that casuistry which
-self-interest produces even in the most candid mind, when it is not
-necessary to put one’s thoughts into words. I cannot tell on what ground
-it was that this amiable, and, on the whole, good woman concluded her
-opposition to Farrel-Austin, and his undoubted right of inheritance, to
-be righteous, and even holy. She resisted his claim&mdash;because it was
-absolutely intolerable to her to think of giving up her home to him,
-because she hated and despised him&mdash;motives very comprehensible, but not
-especially generous, or elevated in the abstract. She felt, however, and
-believed&mdash;when she sat down in her chair and put on her glasses to
-reflect how she could baffle and overthrow him&mdash;that it was something
-for the good of the family and the world that she was planning, not
-anything selfish for her own benefit. If Augustine in one room planned
-alms and charities for the expiation of the guilt of the family, which
-had made itself rich by church lands, with the deepest sense that her
-undertaking was of the most pious character&mdash;Susan in another, set
-herself to ponder how to retain possession of these lands, with a
-corresponding sense that her undertaking, her determination, were, if
-not absolutely pious, at least of a noble and elevated character. She
-did not say to herself that she was intent upon resisting the enemy by
-every means in her power. She said to herself that she was determined to
-have justice, and to resist to the last the doing of wrong, and the
-victory of the unworthy. This was her way of putting it to herself&mdash;and
-herself did not contradict her, as perhaps another listener might have
-done. A certain enthusiasm even grew in her as she pondered. She felt no
-doubt whatever that Farrel-Austin had gained his point by false
-representations,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_049" id="page_049"></a>{49}</span> and had played upon the ignorance of the unknown
-Austin who had transferred his rights to him, as he said. And how could
-she tell if this was the true heir? Even documents were not to be
-trusted to in such a case, nor the sharpest of lawyers&mdash;and old Mr.
-Lincoln, the family solicitor, was anything but sharp. Besides, if this
-man in Bruges were the right man, he had probably no idea of what he was
-relinquishing. How could a Flemish tradesman know what were the beauties
-and attractions of “a place” in the home counties, amid all the wealth
-and fulness of English lands, and with all the historical associations
-of Whiteladies? He could not possibly know, or he would not give them
-up. And if he had a wife, she could not know, or she would never permit
-such a sacrifice.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan sat and thought till the moonlight disappeared from the
-window, and the Summer night felt the momentary chill which precedes
-dawn. She thought of it till her heart burned. No, she could not submit
-to this. In her own person she must ascertain if the story was true, and
-if the strangers really knew what they were doing. It took some time to
-move her to this resolution; but at last it took possession of her. To
-go and undo what Farrel-Austin had done, to wake in the mind of the
-heir, if this was the heir, that desire to possess which is dominant in
-most minds, and ever ready to answer to any appeal; she rose almost with
-a spring of youthful animation from her seat when her thoughts settled
-upon this conclusion. She put out her lamp and went to the window, where
-a faint blueness was growing&mdash;that dim beginning of illumination which
-is not night but day, and which a very early bird in the green covert
-underneath was beginning to greet with the first faint twitter of
-returning existence. Miss Susan felt herself inspired; it was not to
-defeat Farrel-Austin, but to prevent wrong, to do justice, a noble
-impulse which fires the heart and lights the eye.</p>
-
-<p>Thus she made up her mind to an undertaking which afterward had more
-effect upon her personal fate than anything else that had happened in
-her long life. She did it, not only intending no evil, but with a sense
-of what she believed to be generous feeling expanding her soul. Her own
-personal motives were so thrust out of sight that she herself did not
-perceive them&mdash;and indeed, had it been suggested to her that she had
-personal motives,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_050" id="page_050"></a>{50}</span> she would have denied it strenuously. What interest
-could she have in substituting one heir for another? But yet Miss
-Susan’s blue eyes shot forth a gleam which was not heavenly as she lay
-down and tried to sleep. She could not sleep, her mind being excited and
-full of a thousand thoughts&mdash;the last distinct sensation in it before
-the uneasy doze which came over her senses in the morning being a thrill
-of pleasure that Farrel-Austin might yet be foiled. But what of that?
-Was it not her business to protect the old stock of the family, and keep
-the line of succession intact? The more she thought of it, the more did
-this appear a sacred duty, worthy of any labor and any sacrifice.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_051" id="page_051"></a>{51}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VI" id="CHAPTER_VI"></a>CHAPTER VI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> breakfast-table was spread in the smaller dining-room, a room
-furnished with quaint old furniture like the hall, which looked out upon
-nothing but the grass and trees of the garden, bounded by an old mossy
-wall, as old as the house. The windows were all open, the last ray of
-the morning sun slanting off the shining panes, the scent of the flowers
-coming in, and all the morning freshness. Miss Susan came downstairs
-full of unusual energy, notwithstanding her sleepless night. She had
-decided upon something to do, which is always satisfactory to an active
-mind; and though she was beyond the age at which people generally plan
-long journeys with pleasure, the prick of something new inspired her and
-made a stir in her veins. “People live more when they stir about,” she
-said to herself, when, with a little wonder and partial amusement at
-herself, she became conscious of this sensation, and took her seat at
-the breakfast-table with a sense of stimulated energy which was very
-pleasant.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine came in after her sister, with her hands folded in her
-long sleeves, looking more than ever like a saint out of a painted
-window. She crossed herself as she sat down. Her blue eyes seemed veiled
-so far as external life went. She was the ideal nun of romance and
-poetry, not the ruddy-faced, active personage who is generally to be
-found under that guise in actual life. This was one of her
-fast-days&mdash;and indeed most days were fast-days with her. She was her own
-rule, which is always a harsher kind of restraint than any rule adapted
-to common use. Her breakfast consisted of a cup of milk and a small cake
-of bread. She gave her sister an abstracted kiss, but took no notice of
-her lively looks. When she withdrew her hands from her sleeves a roll of
-paper became visible in one of them, which she slowly opened out.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_052" id="page_052"></a>{52}</span></p>
-
-<p>“These are the plans for the chantry, finished at last,” she said.
-“Everything is ready now. You must take them to the vicar, I suppose,
-Susan. I cannot argue with a worldly-minded man. I will go to the
-almshouses while you are talking to him, and pray.”</p>
-
-<p>“The vicar has no power in the matter,” said Miss Susan. “So long as we
-are the lay rectors we can build as we please; at the chancel end at
-least.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine put up her thin hands, just appearing out of the wide sleeves,
-to her ears. “Susan, Susan! do not use those words, which have all our
-guilt in them! Lay rectors! Lay robbers! Oh! will you ever learn that
-this thought is the misery of my life?”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, we must be reasonable,” said Miss Susan. “If you like to throw
-away&mdash;no, I mean to employ your money in building a chantry, I don’t
-object; but we have our rights.”</p>
-
-<p>“Our rights are nothing but wrongs,” said the other, shaking her head,
-“unless my poor work may be accepted as an expiation. Ours is not the
-guilt, and therefore, being innocent, we may make the amends.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wonder where you got your doctrines from?” said Miss Susan. “They are
-not Popish either, so far as I can make out; and in some things,
-Austine, you are not even High Church.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine made no reply. Her attention had failed. She held the drawings
-before her, which at last, after many difficulties, she had managed to
-bring into existence&mdash;on paper at least. I do not think she had very
-clear notions in point of doctrine. She had taken up with a visionary
-mediævalism which she did not very well understand, and which she
-combined unawares with many of the ordinary principles of a moderate
-English Church-woman. She liked to cross herself, without meaning very
-much by it, and the idea of an Austin Chantry, where service should be
-said every day, “to the intention of” the Austin family, had been for
-years her cherished fancy, though she would have been shocked had any
-advanced Ritualists or others suggested to her that what she meant was a
-daily mass for the dead. She did not mean this at all, nor did she know
-very clearly what she meant, except to build a chantry, in which daily
-service should be maintained forever, always with a reference to the
-Austins, and making some sort of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_053" id="page_053"></a>{53}</span> expiation, she could not have told
-what, for the fundamentals in the family. Perhaps it was merely
-inability of reasoning, or perhaps a disinclination to entangle herself
-in doctrine at all, that made her prefer to remain in this vagueness and
-confusion. She knew very well what she wanted to do, but not exactly
-why.</p>
-
-<p>While her sister looked at her drawings Miss Susan thought it a good
-moment to reveal her own plans, with, I suppose, that yearning for some
-sort of sympathy which survives even in the minds of those who have had
-full experience of the difficulty or even impossibility of obtaining it.
-She knew Augustine would not, probably could not, enter into her
-thoughts, and I am not sure that she desired it&mdash;but yet she longed to
-awaken some little interest.</p>
-
-<p>“I am thinking,” she said, “of going away&mdash;for a few days.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine took no notice. She examined first the front elevation, then
-the interior of the chantry. “They say it is against the law,” she
-remarked after awhile, “to have a second altar; but every old chantry
-has it, and without an altar the service would be imperfect. Remember
-this Susan; for the vicar, they tell me, will object.”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t hear what I say, then? I am thinking of&mdash;leaving home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I heard&mdash;so long as you settle this for me before you go, that it
-may be begun at once. Think, Susan! it is the work of my life.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will see to it,” said Miss Susan with a sigh. “You shall not be
-crossed, dear, if I can manage it. But you don’t ask where I am going or
-why I am going.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Augustine calmly; “it is no doubt about business, and
-business has no share in my thoughts.”</p>
-
-<p>“If it had not a share in my thoughts things would go badly with us,”
-said Miss Susan, coloring with momentary impatience and self-assertion.
-Then she fell back into her former tone. “I am going abroad, Austine;
-does not that rouse you? I have not been abroad since we were quite
-young, how many years ago?&mdash;when we went to Italy with my father&mdash;when
-we were all happy together. Ah me! what a difference! Austine, you
-recollect that?”</p>
-
-<p>“Happy, were we?” said Augustine looking up, with a faint<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_054" id="page_054"></a>{54}</span> tinge of
-color on her paleness; “no, I was never happy till I saw once for all
-how wicked we were, how we deserved our troubles, and how something
-might be done to make up for them. I have never really cared for
-anything else.”</p>
-
-<p>This she said with a slight raising of her head and an air of reality
-which seldom appeared in her visionary face. It was true, though it was
-so strange. Miss Susan was a much more reasonable, much more weighty
-personage, but she perceived this change with a little suspicion, and
-did not understand the fanciful, foolish sister whom she had loved and
-petted all her life.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, we had no troubles then,” she said, with a wondering look.</p>
-
-<p>“Always, always,” said Augustine, “and I never knew the reason, till I
-found it out.” Then this gleam of something more than intelligence faded
-all at once from her face. “I hope you will settle everything before you
-go,” she said, almost querulously; “to be put off now and have to wait
-would surely break my heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“I’ll do it, I’ll do it, Austine. I am going&mdash;on family business.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you see poor Herbert,” said Augustine, calmly, “tell him we pray for
-him in the almshouses night and day. That may do him good. If I had got
-my work done sooner he might have lived. Indeed, the devil sometimes
-tempts me to think it is hard that just when my chantry is beginning and
-continual prayer going on Herbert should die. It seems to take away the
-meaning! But what am I, one poor creature, to make up, against so many
-that have done wrong?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not going to Herbert, I am going to Flanders&mdash;to Bruges,” said
-Miss Susan, carried away by a sense of the importance of her mission,
-and always awaiting, as her right, some spark of curiosity, at least.</p>
-
-<p>Augustine returned to her drawings; the waning light died out of her
-face; she became again the conventional visionary, the recluse of
-romance, abstracted and indifferent. “The vicar is always against me,”
-she said; “you must talk to him, Susan. He wants the Browns to come into
-the vacant cottage. He says they have been honest and all that; but they
-are not praying people. I cannot take them in; it is praying people I
-want.”</p>
-
-<p>“In short, you want something for your money,” said her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_055" id="page_055"></a>{55}</span> sister; “a
-percentage, such as it is. You are more a woman of business, my dear,
-than you think.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine looked at her, vaguely, startled. “I try to do for the best,”
-she said. “I do not understand why people should always wish to thwart
-me; what I want is their good.”</p>
-
-<p>“They like their own way better than their good, or rather than what you
-think is for their good,” said Miss Susan. “We all like our own way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not me, not me!” said the other, with a sigh; and she rose and crossed
-herself once more. “Will you come to prayers at the almshouse, Susan?
-The bell will ring presently, and it would do you good.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, I have no time,” said the elder sister, “I have a hundred
-things to do.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine turned away with a soft shake of the head. She folded her arms
-into her sleeves, and glided away like a ghost. Presently her sister saw
-her crossing the lawn, her gray hood thrown lightly over her head, her
-long robes falling in straight, soft lines, her slim figure moving along
-noiselessly. Miss Susan was the practical member of the family, and but
-for her probably the Austins of Whiteladies would have died out ere now,
-by sheer carelessness of their substance, and indifference to what was
-going on around them; but as she watched her sister crossing the lawn, a
-sense of inferiority crossed her mind. She felt herself worldly, a
-pitiful creature of the earth, and wished she was as good as Augustine.
-“But the house, and the farm, and the world must be kept going,” she
-said, by way of relieving herself, with a mingling of humor and
-compunction. It was not much her small affairs could do to make or mar
-the going on of the world, but yet in small ways and great the world has
-to be kept going. She went off at once to the bailiff, who was waiting
-for her, feeling a pleasure in proving to herself that she was busy and
-had no time, which is perhaps a more usual process of thought with the
-Marthas of this world than the other plan of finding fault with the
-Marys, for in their hearts most women have a feeling that the prayer is
-the best.</p>
-
-<p>The intimation of Miss Susan’s intended absence excited the rest of the
-household much more than it had excited her sister. “Wherever are you
-going to, miss?” said cook, who was as old<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_056" id="page_056"></a>{56}</span> as her mistress, and had
-never changed her style of addressing her since the days when she was
-young Miss Susan and played at house-keeping.</p>
-
-<p>“I am going abroad,” she answered, with a little innocent pride; for to
-people who live all their lives at home there is a certain grandeur in
-going abroad. “You will take great care of my sister, and see that she
-does not fast too much.”</p>
-
-<p>It was a patriarchal household, with such a tinge of familiarity in its
-dealings with its mistress, as&mdash;with servants who have passed their
-lives in a house&mdash;it is seldom possible, even if desirable, to avoid.
-Stevens the butler stopped open-mouthed, with a towel in his hand, to
-listen, and Martha approached from the other end of the kitchen, where
-she had been busy tying up and labelling cook’s newly-made preserves.</p>
-
-<p>“Going abroad!” they all echoed in different keys.</p>
-
-<p>“I expect you all to be doubly careful and attentive,” said Miss Susan,
-“though indeed I am not going very far, and probably won’t be more than
-a few days gone. But in the meantime Miss Augustine will require your
-utmost care. Stevens, I am very much displeased with the way you took it
-upon you to speak at dinner yesterday. It annoyed my sister extremely,
-and you had no right to use so much freedom. Never let it happen again.”</p>
-
-<p>Stevens was taken entirely by surprise, and stood gazing at her with the
-bewildered air of a man who, seeking innocent amusement in the hearing
-of news, is suddenly transfixed by an unexpected thunderbolt. “Me, mum!”
-said Stevens bewildered, “I&mdash;I don’t know what you’re talking about.” It
-was an unfair advantage to take.</p>
-
-<p>“Precisely, you,” said Miss Susan; “what have you to do with the people
-at the almshouses? Nobody expects you to be answerable for what they do
-or don’t do. Never let me hear anything of the kind again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” said Stevens, with a snort of suppressed offence, “it’s them! Miss
-Austin, I can’t promise at no price! if I hears that old ’ag a praised
-up to the skies&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You will simply hold your tongue,” said Miss Susan peremptorily. “What
-is it to you? My sister knows her own people best.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_057" id="page_057"></a>{57}</span></p>
-
-<p>Upon this the two women in attendance shook their heads, and Stevens,
-encouraged by this tacit support, took courage.</p>
-
-<p>“She don’t, mum, she don’t,” he said; “if you heard the things they’ll
-say behind her back! It makes me sick, it does, being a faithful
-servant. If I don’t dare to speak up, who can? She’s imposed upon to
-that degree, and made game of as your blood would run cold to see it;
-and if I ain’t to say a word when I haves a chance, who can? The women
-sees it even&mdash;and it’s nat’ral as I should see further than the women.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you’ll please set the women a good example by holding your
-tongue,” said Miss Susan. “Once for all, recollect, all of you, Miss
-Augustine shall never be crossed while I am mistress of the house. When
-it goes into other hands you can do as you please.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, laws!” said the cook, “when it comes to that, mum, none of us has
-nothing to do here.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is as you please, and as Mr.&mdash;as the heir pleases,” Miss Susan
-said, making a pause before the last words. Her cheek colored, her blue
-eyes grew warm with the new life and energy in her. She went out of the
-kitchen with a certain swell of anticipated triumph in her whole person.
-Mr. Farrel-Austin should soon discover that he was not to have
-everything his own way. Probably she would find he had deceived the old
-man at Bruges, that these poor people knew nothing about the true value
-of what they were relinquishing. Curiously enough, it never occurred to
-her, to lessen her exhilaration, that to leave the house of her fathers
-to an old linen-draper from the Low-Countries would be little more
-agreeable than to leave it to Farrel-Austin&mdash;nay, even as Everard had
-suggested to her, that Farrel-Austin, as being an English gentleman, was
-much more likely to do honor to the old house than a foreigner of
-inferior position, and ideas altogether different from her own. She
-thought nothing of this; she ignored herself, indeed, in the matter,
-which was a thing she was pleased to think of afterward, and which gave
-her a little consolation&mdash;that is, she thought of herself only through
-Farrel-Austin, as the person most interested in, and most likely to be
-gratified by, his downfall.</p>
-
-<p>As the day wore on and the sun got round and blazed on the south front
-of the house, she withdrew to the porch, as on the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_058" id="page_058"></a>{58}</span> former day, and sat
-there enjoying the coolness, the movement of the leaves, the soft,
-almost imperceptible breeze. She was more light-hearted than on the
-previous day when poor Herbert was in her mind, and when nothing but the
-success of her adversary seemed possible. Now it seemed to her that a
-new leaf was turned, a new chapter commenced.</p>
-
-<p>Thus the day went on. In the afternoon she had one visitor, and only
-one, the vicar, Mr. Gerard, who came by the north gate, as her visitors
-yesterday had done, and crossed the lawn to the porch with much less
-satisfaction of mind than Miss Susan had to see him coming.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course you know what has brought me,” he said at once, seating
-himself in a garden-chair which had been standing outside on the lawn,
-and which he brought in after his first greeting. “This chantry of your
-sister’s is a thing I don’t understand, and I don’t know how I can
-consent to it. It is alien to all the customs of the time. It is a thing
-that ought to have been built three hundred years ago, if at all. It
-will be a bit of bran new Gothic, a thing I detest; and in short I don’t
-understand it, nor what possible meaning a chantry can have in these
-days.”</p>
-
-<p>“Neither do I,” said Miss Susan smiling, “not the least in the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“If it is meant for masses for the dead,” said Mr. Gerard&mdash;“some people
-I know have gone as far as that&mdash;but I could not consent to it, Miss
-Austin. It should have been built three hundred years ago, if at all.”</p>
-
-<p>“Augustine could not have built it three hundred years ago,” said Miss
-Susan, “for the best of reasons. My own opinion is, between ourselves,
-that had she been born three hundred years ago she would have been a
-happier woman; but neither she nor I can change that.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is not the question,” said the vicar. He was a man with a fine
-faculty for being annoyed. There was a longitudinal line in his forehead
-between his eyes, which was continually moving, marking the passing
-irritations which went and came, and his voice had a querulous tone. He
-was in the way of thinking that everything that happened out of the
-natural course was done to annoy him specially, and he felt it a
-personal grievance that the Austin chantry had not been built in the
-sixteenth century.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_059" id="page_059"></a>{59}</span> “There might have been some sense in it then,” he
-added, “and though art was low about that time, still it would have got
-toned down, and been probably an ornament to the church; but a white,
-staring, new thing with spick and span pinnacles! I do not see how I can
-consent.”</p>
-
-<p>“At all events,” said Miss Susan, showing the faintest edge of claw
-under the velvet of her touch, “no one can blame you at least, which I
-think is always a consolation. I have just been going over the accounts
-for the restoration of the chancel, and I think you may congratulate
-yourself that you have not got to pay them. Austine would kill me if she
-heard me, but that is one good of a lay rector. I hope you won’t oppose
-her, seriously, Mr. Gerard. It is not masses for the dead she is
-thinking of. You know her crotchets. My sister has a very fine mind when
-she is roused to exert it,” Miss Susan said with a little dignity, “but
-it is nonsense to deny that she has crotchets, and I hope you are too
-wise and kind to oppose her. The endowment will be good, and the chantry
-pretty. Why, it is by Sir Gilbert Scott.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, not Sir Gilbert himself; at least, I fear not,” said Mr.
-Gerard, melting.</p>
-
-<p>“One of his favorite pupils, and he has looked at it and approved. We
-shall have people coming to see it from all parts of the country; and it
-is Augustine’s favorite crotchet. I am sure, Mr. Gerard, you will not
-seriously oppose.”</p>
-
-<p>Thus it was that the vicar was taken over. He reflected afterward that
-there was consolation in the view of the subject which she introduced so
-cunningly, and that he could no more be found fault with for the new
-chantry which the lay rector had a right to connect with his part of the
-church if he chose&mdash;than he could be made to pay the bills for the
-restoration of the chancel. And Miss Susan had put it to him so
-delicately about her sister’s crotchets that what could a gentleman do
-but yield? The longitudinal line on his forehead smoothed out
-accordingly, and his tone ceased to be querulous. Yes, there was no
-doubt she had crotchets, poor soul; indeed, she was half crazy, perhaps,
-as the village people thought, but a good religious creature, fond of
-prayers and church services, and not clever enough to go far astray in
-point of doctrine. As Mr. Gerard went home, indeed, having committed
-himself, he discovered a number of admirable reasons<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_060" id="page_060"></a>{60}</span> for tolerating
-Augustine and her crotchets. If she sank money enough to secure an
-endowment of sixty pounds a year, in order to have prayers said daily in
-her chantry, as she called it, it was clear that thirty or forty from
-Mr. Gerard instead of the eighty he now paid, would be quite enough for
-his curate’s salary. For what could a curate want with more than, or
-even so much as, a hundred pounds a year? And then the almshouses
-disposed of the old people of the parish in the most comfortable way,
-and on the whole, Augustine did more good than harm. Poor thing! It
-would be a pity, he thought, to cross this innocent and pious creature,
-who was “deficient,” but too gentle and good to be interfered with in
-her crotchets. Poor Augustine, whom they all disposed of so calmly!
-Perhaps it was foolish enough of her to stay alone in the little
-almshouse chapel all the time that this interview was going on, praying
-that God would touch the heart of His servant and render it favorable
-toward her, while Miss Susan managed it all so deftly by mere sleight of
-hand; but on the whole, Augustine’s idea of the world as a place where
-God did move hearts for small matters as well as great, was a more
-elevated one than the others. She felt quite sure when she glided
-through the Summer fields, still and gray in her strange dress, that
-God’s servants’ hearts had been moved to favor her, and that she might
-begin her work at once.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_061" id="page_061"></a>{61}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VII" id="CHAPTER_VII"></a>CHAPTER VII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">S</span><small>USAN AUSTIN</small> said no more about her intended expedition, except to
-Martha, who had orders to prepare for the journey, and who was thrown
-into an excitement somewhat unbecoming her years by the fact that her
-mistress preferred to take Jane as her attendant, which was a slight
-very trying to the elder woman. “I cannot indulge myself by taking you,”
-said Miss Susan, “because I want you to take care of my sister; she
-requires more attendance than I do, Martha, and you will watch over
-her.” I am afraid that Miss Susan had a double motive in this decision,
-as most people have, and preferred Jane, who was young and strong, to
-the other, who required her little comforts, and did not like to be
-hurried, or put out; but she veiled the personal preference under a good
-substantial reason which is a very good thing to do in all cases, where
-it is desirable that the wheels of life should go easily. Martha had “a
-good cry,” but then consoled herself with the importance of her charge.
-“Not as it wants much cleverness to dress Miss Augustine, as never puts
-on nothing worth looking at&mdash;that gray thing for ever and ever!” she
-said, with natural contempt. Augustine herself was wholly occupied with
-the chantry, and took no interest in her sister’s movements; and there
-was no one else to inquire into them or ask a reason. She went off
-accordingly quite quietly and unobserved, with one box, and Jane in
-delighted attendance. Miss Susan took her best black silk with her,
-which she wore seldom, having fallen into the custom of the gray gown to
-please Augustine, a motive which in small matters was her chief rule of
-action;&mdash;on this occasion, however, she intended to be as magnificent as
-the best contents of her wardrobe could make her, taking, also, her
-Indian shawl and newest bonnet. These signs of superiority would not,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_062" id="page_062"></a>{62}</span>
-she felt sure, be thrown away on a linen-draper. She took with her also,
-by way of appealing to another order of feelings, a very imposing
-picture of the house of Whiteladies, in which a gorgeous procession,
-escorting Queen Elizabeth, who was reported to have visited the place,
-was represented as issuing from the old porch. It seemed to Miss Susan
-that nobody who saw this picture could be willing to relinquish the
-house, for, indeed, her knowledge of it was limited. She set out one
-evening, resolved, with heroic courage, to commit herself to the Antwerp
-boat, which in Miss Susan’s early days had been the chief and natural
-mode of conveyance. Impossible to tell how tranquil the country was as
-she left it&mdash;the laborers going home, the balmy kine wandering devious
-and leisurely with melodious lowings through the quiet roads. Life would
-go on with all its quiet routine unbroken, while Miss Susan dared the
-dangers of the deep, and prayer bell and dinner bell ring just as usual,
-and Augustine and her almshouse people go through all their pious
-habitudes. She was away from home so seldom, that this universal sway of
-common life and custom struck her strangely, with a humiliating sense of
-her own unimportance&mdash;she who was so important, the centre of
-everything. Jane, her young maid, felt the same sentiment in a totally
-different way, being full of pride and exultation in her own
-unusualness, and delicious contempt for those unfortunates to whom this
-day was just the same as any other.</p>
-
-<p>Jane did not fear the dangers of the deep, which she did not know&mdash;while
-Miss Susan did, who was aware what she was about to undergo; but she
-trusted in Providence to take care of her, and smooth the angry waves,
-and said a little prayer of thanksgiving when she felt the evening air
-come soft upon her face, though the tree-tops would move about against
-the sky more than was desirable. I do not quite know by what rule of
-thought it was that Miss Susan felt herself to have a special claim to
-the succor of Providence as going upon a most righteous errand. She did
-manage to represent her mission to herself in this light, however. She
-was going to vindicate the right&mdash;to restore to their natural position
-people who had been wronged. If these said people were quite indifferent
-both to their wrongs and to their rights, that was their own fault, and
-in no respect Miss Susan’s, who had her duty to do, whatever came of it.
-This she maintained<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_063" id="page_063"></a>{63}</span> very stoutly to herself, ignoring Farrel-Austin
-altogether, who might have thought of her enterprize in a different
-light. All through the night which she passed upon the gloomy ocean in a
-close little berth, with Jane helpless and wretched, requiring the
-attention of the stewardess, Miss Susan felt her spirit supported by the
-consciousness of virtue which was almost heroic: How much more
-comfortable she would have been at home in the west room, which she
-remembered so tenderly; how terrible was the rushing sound of waves in
-her ears, waves separated from her by so fragile a bulwark, “only a
-plank between her and eternity!” But all this she was undergoing for the
-sake of justice and right.</p>
-
-<p>She felt herself, however, like a creature in a dream, when she walked
-out the morning of her arrival, alone, into the streets of Bruges,
-confused by the strangeness of the place, which so recalled her youth to
-her, that she could scarcely believe she had not left her father and
-brother at the hotel. Once in these early days, she had come out alone
-in the morning, she remembered, just as she was doing now, to buy
-presents for her companions; and that curious, delightful sense of half
-fright, half freedom, which the girl had felt thrilling her through
-while on this escapade, came back to the mind of the woman who was
-growing old, with a pathetic pleasure. She remembered how she had paused
-at the corner of the street, afraid to stop, afraid to go on, almost too
-shy to go into the shops where she had seen the things she wanted to
-buy. Miss Susan was too old to be shy now. She walked along sedately,
-not afraid that anybody would stare at her or be rude to her, or
-troubled by any doubts whether it was “proper;” but yet the past
-confused her mind. How strange it all was! Could it be that the
-carillon, which chimed sweetly, keenly in her ears, like a voice out of
-her youth, startling her by reiterated calls and reminders, had been
-chiming out all the ordinary hours&mdash;nay, quarters of hours&mdash;marking
-everybody’s mealtimes and ordinary every-day vicissitudes, for these
-forty years past? It was some time before her ear got used to it, before
-she ceased to start and feel as if the sweet chimes from the belfry were
-something personal, addressed to her alone. She had been very young when
-she was in Bruges before, and everything was deeply impressed upon her
-mind. She had travelled very little since, and all the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_064" id="page_064"></a>{64}</span> quaint gables,
-the squares, the lace-makers seated at their doors, the shop-windows
-full of peasant jewellery, had the strangest air of familiarity.</p>
-
-<p>It was some time even in the curious bewildering tumult of her feelings
-before she could recollect her real errand. She had not asked any
-further information from Farrel-Austin. If he had found their unknown
-relation out by seeing the name of Austin over a shop-door, she surely
-could do as much. She had, however, wandered into the outskirts of the
-town before she fully recollected that her mission in Bruges was, first
-of all, to walk about the streets and find out the strange Austins who
-were foreigners and tradespeople. She came back, accordingly, as best
-she could, straying through the devious streets, meeting English
-travellers with the infallible Murray under their arms, and wondering to
-herself how people could have leisure to come to such a place as this
-for mere sight-seeing. That day, however, perhaps because of the strong
-hold upon her of the past and its recollections, perhaps because of the
-bewildering sense of mingled familiarity and strangeness in the place,
-she did not find the object of her search&mdash;though, indeed, the streets
-of Bruges are not so many, or the shops so extensive as to defy the
-scrutiny of a passer-by. She got tired, and half ashamed of herself to
-be thus walking about alone, and was glad to take refuge in a dim corner
-of the Cathedral, where she dropped on one knee in the obscurity, half
-afraid to be seen by any English visitor in this attitude of devotion in
-a Roman Catholic church, and then sat down to collect herself, and think
-over all she had to do. What was it she had to do? To prevent wrong from
-being done; to help to secure her unknown cousins in their rights. This
-was but a vague way of stating it, but it was more difficult to put the
-case to herself if she entered into detail. To persuade them that they
-had been over-persuaded, that they had too lightly given up advantages
-which, had they known their real value, they would not have given up; to
-prove to them how pleasant a thing it was to be Austins of Whiteladies.
-This was what she had to do.</p>
-
-<p>Next morning Miss Susan set out with a clear head and a more distinct
-notion of what she was about. She had got used to the reiterations of
-the carillon, to the familiar distant look of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_065" id="page_065"></a>{65}</span> the quaint streets. And,
-indeed, she had not gone very far when her heart jumped up in her breast
-to see written over a large shop the name of Austin, as Farrel had told
-her. She stopped and looked at it. It was situated at a bend in the
-road, where a narrow street debouched into a wider one, and had that air
-of self-restrained plainness, of being above the paltry art of
-window-dressing, which is peculiar to old and long-established shops
-whose character is known, where rich materials are sold at high prices,
-and everything cheap is contemned. Piles of linen and blankets, and
-other unattractive articles, were in a broad but dingy window, and in
-the doorway stood an old man with a black skullcap on his head, and blue
-eyes, full of vivacity and activity, notwithstanding his years. He was
-standing at his door looking up and down, with the air of a man who
-looked for news, or expected some incident other than the tranquil
-events around. When Miss Susan crossed the narrow part of the street,
-which she did with her heart in her mouth, he looked up at her, noting
-her appearance; and she felt sure that some internal warning of the
-nature of her errand came into his mind. From this look Miss Susan,
-quick as a flash of lightning, divined that he was not satisfied with
-his bargain, that his attention and curiosity were aroused, and that
-Farrel-Austin’s visit had made him curious of other visits, and in a
-state of expectation. I believe she was right in the idea she thus
-formed, but she saw it more clearly than M. Austin did, who knew little
-more than that he was restless, and in an unsettled frame of mind.</p>
-
-<p>“Est-ce vous qui êtes le propriétaire?” said Miss Susan, speaking
-bluntly, in her bad French, without any polite prefaces, such as befit
-the language; she was too much excited, even had she been sufficiently
-conversant with the strange tongue, to know that they were necessary.
-The shopkeeper took his cap off his bald head, which was venerable, with
-an encircling ring of white locks, and made her a bow. He was a handsome
-old man, with blue eyes, such as had always been peculiar to the
-Austins, and a general resemblance&mdash;or so, at least, Miss Susan
-thought&mdash;to the old family pictures at Whiteladies. Under her best black
-silk gown, and the Indian shawl which she had put on to impress her
-unknown relation with a sense of her importance, she felt her heart
-beating. But, indeed, black silk and India shawls are inconvenient<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_066" id="page_066"></a>{66}</span> wear
-in the middle of Summer in the Pays Bas; and perhaps this fact had
-something to do with the flush and tremor of which she was suddenly
-conscious.</p>
-
-<p>M. Austin, the shopkeeper, took off his cap to her, and answered “Oui,
-madame,” blandly; then, with that instant perception of her nationality,
-for which the English abroad are not always grateful, he added, “Madame
-is Inglese? we too. I am Inglese. In what can I be serviceable to
-madame?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, you understand English? Thank heaven!” said Miss Susan, whose
-French was far from fluent. “I am very glad to hear it, for that will
-make my business so much the easier. It is long since I have been
-abroad, and I have almost forgotten the language. Could I speak to you
-somewhere? I don’t want to buy anything,” she said abruptly, as he stood
-aside to let her come in.</p>
-
-<p>“That shall be at the pleasure of madame,” said the old man with the
-sweetest of smiles, “though miladi will not find better damask in many
-places. Enter, madame. I will take you to my counting-house, or into my
-private house, if that will more please you. In what can I be
-serviceable to madame?”</p>
-
-<p>“Come in here&mdash;anywhere where we can be quiet. What I have to say is
-important,” said Miss Susan. The shop was not like an English shop.
-There was less light, less decoration, the windows were half blocked up,
-and behind, in the depths of the shop, there was a large, half-curtained
-window, opening into another room at the back. “I am not a customer, but
-it may be worth your while,” said Miss Susan, her breath coming quick on
-her parted lips.</p>
-
-<p>The shopkeeper made her a bow, which she set down to French politeness,
-for all people who spoke another language were French to Miss Susan. He
-said, “Madame shall be satisfied,” and led her into the deeper depths,
-where he placed a chair for her, and remained standing in a deferential
-attitude. Miss Susan was confused by the new circumstances in which she
-found herself, and by the rapidity with which event had followed event.</p>
-
-<p>“My name is Austin too,” she said, faltering slightly. “I thought when I
-saw your name, that perhaps you were a relation of mine&mdash;who has been
-long lost to his family.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is too great an honor,” said the old shopkeeper, with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_067" id="page_067"></a>{67}</span> another bow;
-“but yes&mdash;but yes, it is indeed so. I have seen already another
-gentleman, a person in the same interests. Yes, it is me. I am Guillaume
-Austin.”</p>
-
-<p>“Guillaume?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes. William you it call. I have told my name to the other monsieur. He
-is, he say, the successive&mdash;what you call it? The one who comes&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“The heir&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That is the word. I show him my papers&mdash;he is satisfied; as I will also
-to madame with pleasure. Madame is also cousin of Monsieur Farrel?
-Yes?&mdash;and of me? It is too great honor. She shall see for herself. My
-grandfather was Ingleseman&mdash;trés Inglese. I recall to myself his figure
-as if I saw it at this moment. Blue eyes, very clear, pointed nose&mdash;ma
-foi! like the nose of madame.”</p>
-
-<p>“I should like to see your papers,” said Miss Susan. “Shall I come back
-in the evening when you have more time? I should like to see your
-wife&mdash;for you have one, surely? and your children.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes; but one is gone,” said the shopkeeper. “Figure to yourself,
-madame, that I had but one son, and he is gone! There is no longer any
-one to take my place&mdash;to come after me. Ah! life is changed when it is
-so. One lives on&mdash;but what is life? a thing we must endure till it comes
-to an end.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know it well,” said Miss Susan, in a low tone.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame, too, has had the misfortune to lose her son, like me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, don’t speak of it! But I have no son. I am what you call a vile
-fee,” said Miss Susan; “an old maid&mdash;nothing more. And he is still
-living, poor boy; but doomed, alas! doomed. Mr. Austin, I have a great
-many things to speak to you about.”</p>
-
-<p>“I attend&mdash;with all my heart,” said the shopkeeper, somewhat puzzled,
-for Miss Susan’s speech was mysterious, there could be little doubt.</p>
-
-<p>“If I return, then, in the evening, you will show me your papers, and
-introduce me to your family,” said Miss Susan, getting up. “I must not
-take up your time now.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I am delighted to wait upon madame now,” said the old man, “and
-since madame has the bounty to wish to see my<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_068" id="page_068"></a>{68}</span> family&mdash;by here, madame,
-I beg&mdash;enter, and be welcome&mdash;very welcome.”</p>
-
-<p>Saying this he opened the great window-door in the end of the shop, and
-Miss Susan, walking forward somewhat agitated, found herself all at once
-in a scene very unexpected by her, and of a kind for which she was
-unprepared. She was ushered in at once to the family room and family
-life, without even the interposition of a passage. The room into which
-this glass door opened was not very large, and quite disproportionately
-lofty. Opposite to the entrance from the shop was another large window,
-reaching almost to the roof, which opened upon a narrow court, and kept
-a curious dim day-light, half from without, half from within, in the
-space, which seemed more narrow than it need have done by reason of the
-height of the roof. Against this window, in a large easy chair, sat an
-old woman in a black gown, without a cap, and with one little tail of
-gray hair twisted at the back of her head, and curl-papers embellishing
-her forehead in front. Her gown was rusty, and not without stains, and
-she wore a large handkerchief, with spots, tied about her neck. She was
-chopping vegetables in a dish, and not in the least abashed to be found
-so engaged. In a corner sat a younger woman, also in black, and looking
-like a gloomy shadow, lingering apart from the light. Another young
-woman went and came toward an inner room, in which it was evident the
-dinner was going to be cooked.</p>
-
-<p>A pile of boxes, red and blue, and all the colors of the rainbow, was on
-a table. There was no carpet on the floor, which evidently had not been
-frotté for some time past, nor curtains at the window, except a
-melancholy spotted muslin, which hung closely over it, making the scanty
-daylight dimmer still. Miss Susan drew her breath hard with a kind of
-gasp. The Austins were people extremely well to do&mdash;rich in their way,
-and thinking themselves very comfortable; but to the prejudiced English
-eye of their new relation, the scene was one of absolute squalor. Even
-in an English cottage, Miss Susan thought, there would have been an
-attempt at some prettiness or other, some air of nicety or ornament; but
-the comfortable people here (though Miss Susan supposed all foreigners
-to be naturally addicted to show and glitter), thought of nothing but
-the necessities of living. They were not in the least ashamed, as an
-English family would have been, of being<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_069" id="page_069"></a>{69}</span> “caught” in the midst of their
-morning’s occupations. The old lady put aside the basin with the
-vegetables, and wiped her hands with a napkin, and greeted her visitor
-with perfect calm; the others took scarcely any notice. Were these the
-people whose right it was to succeed generations of English squires&mdash;the
-dignified race of Whiteladies? Miss Susan shivered as she sat down, and
-then she began her work of temptation. She drew forth her picture, which
-was handed round for everybody to see. She described the estate and all
-its attractions. Would they let this pass away from them? At least they
-should not do it without knowing what they had sacrificed. To do this,
-partly in English, which the shopkeeper translated imperfectly, and
-partly in very bad French, was no small labor to Miss Susan; but her
-zeal was equal to the tax upon it, and the more she talked, and the more
-trouble she had to overcome her own repugnance to these new people, the
-more vehement she became in her efforts to break their alliance with
-Farrel, and induce them to recover their rights. The young woman who was
-moving about the room, and whose appearance had at once struck Miss
-Susan, came and looked over the old mother’s shoulder at the picture,
-and expressed her admiration in the liveliest terms. The jolie maison it
-was, and the dommage to lose it, she cried: and these words were very
-strong pleas in favor of all Miss Susan said.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, what an abominable law,” said the old lady at length, “that
-excludes the daughters!&mdash;sans ça, ma fille!” and she began to cry a
-little. “Oh, my son, my son! if the good God had not taken him, what joy
-to have restored him to the country of his grandfather, to an
-establishment so charming!”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan drew close to the old woman in the rusty black gown, and
-approached her mouth to her ear.</p>
-
-<p>“Cette jeune femme-là est veuve de voter fils?”</p>
-
-<p>“No. There she is&mdash;there in the corner; she who neither smiles nor
-speaks,” said the mother, putting up the napkin with which she had dried
-her hands, to her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>The whole situation had in it a dreary tragi-comedy, half pitiful, half
-laughable; a great deal of intense feeling veiled by external
-circumstances of the homeliest order, such as is often to be found in
-comfortable, unlovely <i>bourgeois</i> households. How it was, in such a
-matter-of-fact interior, that the great temptation of her life<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_070" id="page_070"></a>{70}</span> should
-have flashed across Miss Susan’s mind, I cannot tell. She glanced from
-the young wife, very soon to be a mother, who leant over the old lady’s
-chair, to the dark shadow in the corner, who had never stirred from her
-seat. It was all done in a moment&mdash;thought, plan, execution. A sudden
-excitement took hold upon her. She drew her chair close to the old
-woman, and bent forward till her lips almost touched her ear.</p>
-
-<p>“L’autre est&mdash;la même&mdash;que elle?”</p>
-
-<p>“Que voulez-vous dire, madame?”</p>
-
-<p>The old lady looked up at her bewildered, but, caught by the glitter of
-excitement in Miss Susan’s eye, and the panting breath, which bore
-evidence to some sudden fever in her, stopped short. Her wondering look
-turned into something more keen and impassioned&mdash;a kind of electric
-spark flashed between the two women. It was done in a moment; so
-rapidly, that at least (as Miss Susan thought after, a hundred times,
-and a hundred to that) it was without premeditation; so sudden, that it
-was scarcely their fault. Miss Susan’s eyes gleaming, said something to
-those of the old Flamande, whom she had never seen before, Guillaume
-Austin’s wife. A curious thrill ran through both&mdash;the sting, the
-attraction, the sharp movement, half pain, half pleasure, of temptation
-and guilty intention; for there was a sharp and stinging sensation of
-pleasure in it, and something which made them giddy. They stood on the
-edge of a precipice, and looked at each other a second time before they
-took the plunge. Then Miss Susan laid her hand upon the other’s arm,
-gripping it in her passion.</p>
-
-<p>“Venez quelque part pour parler,” she said, in her bad French.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_071" id="page_071"></a>{71}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VIII" id="CHAPTER_VIII"></a>CHAPTER VIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span> <small>CANNOT</small> tell the reader what was the conversation that ensued between
-Miss Susan and Madame Austin of Bruges, because the two naturally shut
-themselves up by themselves, and desired no witnesses. They went
-upstairs, threading their way through a warehouse full of goods, to
-Madame Austin’s bedroom, which was her reception-room, and, to Miss
-Susan’s surprise, a great deal prettier and lighter than the family
-apartment below, in which all the ordinary concerns of life were carried
-on. There were two white beds in it, a recess with crimson curtains
-drawn almost completely across&mdash;and various pretty articles of
-furniture, some marqueterie cabinets and tables, which would have made
-the mouth of any amateur of old furniture water, and two sofas with
-little rugs laid down in front of them. The boards were carefully waxed
-and clean, the white curtains drawn over the window, and everything
-arranged with some care and daintiness. Madame Austin placed her visitor
-on the principal sofa, which was covered with tapestry, but rather hard
-and straight, and then shut the door. She did not mean to be overheard.</p>
-
-<p>Madame Austin was the ruling spirit in the house. It was she that
-regulated the expenses, that married the daughters, and that had made
-the match between her son and the poor creature downstairs, who had
-taken no part in the conversation. Her husband made believe to supervise
-and criticise everything, in which harmless gratification she encouraged
-him; but in fact his real business was to acquiesce, which he did with
-great success. Miss Susan divined well when she said to herself that his
-wife would never permit him to relinquish advantages so great when she
-knew something of what they really implied; but she too had been broken
-down by grief, and ready to feel that nothing was of any consequence<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_072" id="page_072"></a>{72}</span> in
-life, when Farrel-Austin had found them out. I do not know what cunning
-devil communicated to Miss Susan the right spell by which to wake up in
-Madame Austin the energies of a vivacious temperament partially
-repressed by grief and age; but certainly the attempt was crowned with
-success.</p>
-
-<p>They talked eagerly, with flushed faces and voices which would have been
-loud had they not feared to be overheard; both of them carried out of
-themselves by the strangely exciting suggestion which had passed from
-one to the other almost without words; and they parted with close
-pressure of hands and with meaning looks, notwithstanding Miss Susan’s
-terribly bad French, which was involved to a degree which I hardly dare
-venture to present to the reader; and many readers are aware, by unhappy
-experience, what an elderly Englishwoman’s French can be. “Je reviendrai
-encore demain,” said Miss Susan. “J’ai beaucoup choses à parler, et vous
-dira encore à votre mari. Si vous voulez me parler avant cela, allez à
-l’hôtel; je serai toujours dans mon appartement. Il est pas ung plaisir
-pour moi de marcher autour la ville, comme quand j’étais jeune. J’aime
-rester tranquil; et je reviendrai demain, dans la matin, á votre maison
-ici. J’ai beaucoup choses de parler autour.”</p>
-
-<p>Madame Austin did not know what “parler autour” could mean, but she
-accepted the puzzle and comprehended the general thread of the meaning.
-She returned to her sitting-room downstairs with her head full of a
-hundred busy thoughts, and Miss Susan went off to her hotel, with a
-headache, caused by a corresponding overflow in her mind. She was in a
-great excitement, which indeed could not be quieted by going to the
-hotel, but which prompted her to “marcher autour la ville,” trying to
-neutralize the undue activity of her brain by movement of body. It is
-one of nature’s instinctive ways of wearing out emotion. To do wrong is
-a very strange sensation, and it was one which, in any great degree, was
-unknown to Miss Susan. She had done wrong, I suppose, often enough
-before, but she had long outgrown that sensitive stage of mind and body
-which can seriously regard as mortal sins the little peccadilloes of
-common life&mdash;the momentary failures of temper or rashness of words,
-which the tender youthful soul confesses and repents of as great sins.
-Temptation had not come near her virtuous and equable life; and, to tell
-the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_073" id="page_073"></a>{73}</span> truth, she had often felt with a compunction that the confession
-she sometimes made in church, of a burden of guilt which was intolerable
-to her, and of sins too many to be remembered, was an innocent hypocrisy
-on her part. She had taken herself to task often enough for her
-inability to feel this deep penitence as she ought; and now a real and
-great temptation had come in her way, and Miss Susan did not feel at all
-in that state of mind which she would have thought probable. Her first
-sensation was that of extreme excitement&mdash;a sharp and stinging yet
-almost pleasurable sense of energy and force and strong will which could
-accomplish miracles: so I suppose the rebel angels must have felt in the
-first moment of their sin&mdash;intoxicated with the mere sense of it, and of
-their own amazing force and boldness who dared to do it, and defy the
-Lord of heaven and earth. She walked about and looked in at the
-shop-windows, at that wonderful filagree work of steel and silver which
-the poorest women wear in those Low Countries, and at the films of lace
-which in other circumstances Miss Susan was woman enough to have been
-interested in for their own sake. Why could not she think of them?&mdash;why
-could not she care for them now?&mdash;A deeper sensation possessed her, and
-its first effect was so strange that it filled her with fright; for, to
-tell the truth, it was an exhilarating rather than a depressing
-sensation. She was breathless with excitement, panting, her heart
-beating.</p>
-
-<p>Now and then she looked behind her as if some one were pursuing her. She
-looked at the people whom she met with a conscious defiance, bidding
-them with her eyes find out, if they dared, the secret which possessed
-her completely. This thought was not as other thoughts which come and go
-in the mind, which give way to passing impressions, yet prove themselves
-to have the lead by returning to fill up all crevices. It never departed
-from her for a moment. When she went into the shops to buy, as she did
-after awhile by way of calming herself down, she was half afraid of
-saying something about it in the midst of her request to look at laces,
-or her questions as to the price; and, like other mental intoxications,
-this unaccomplished intention of evil seemed to carry her out of herself
-altogether; it annihilated all bodily sensations. She walked about as
-lightly as a ghost, unconscious of her physical powers altogether,
-feeling<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_074" id="page_074"></a>{74}</span> neither hunger nor weariness. She went through the churches,
-the picture galleries, looking vaguely at everything, conscious clearly
-of nothing, now and then horribly attracted by one of those terrible
-pictures of blood and suffering, the martyrdoms which abound in all
-Flemish collections. She went into the shops, as I have said, and bought
-lace, for what reason she did not know, nor for whom; and it was only in
-the afternoon late that she went back to her hotel, where Jane,
-frightened, was looking out for her, and thinking her mistress must have
-been lost or murdered among “them foreigners.” “I have been with
-friends,” Miss Susan said, sitting down, bolt upright, on the vacant
-chair, and looking Jane straight in the face, to make sure that the
-simple creature suspected nothing. How could she have supposed Jane to
-know anything, or suspect? But it is one feature of this curious
-exaltation of mind, in which Miss Susan was, that reason and all its
-limitations is for the moment abandoned, and things impossible become
-likely and natural. After this, however, the body suddenly asserted
-itself, and she became aware that she had been on foot the whole day,
-and was no longer capable of any physical exertion. She lay down on the
-sofa dead tired, and after a little interval had something to eat, which
-she took with appetite, and looked on her purchases with a certain
-pleasure, and slept soundly all night&mdash;the sleep of the just. No remorse
-visited her, or penitence, only a certain breathless excitement stirring
-up her whole being, a sense of life and strength and power.</p>
-
-<p>Next morning Miss Susan repeated her visit to her new relations at an
-early hour. This time she found them all prepared for her, and was
-received not in the general room, but in Madame Austin’s chamber, where
-M. Austin and his wife awaited her coming. The shopkeeper himself had
-altogether changed in appearance: his countenance beamed; he bowed over
-the hand which Miss Susan held out to him, like an old courtier, and
-looked gratefully at her.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame has come to our house like a good angel,” he said. “Ah! it is
-madame’s intelligence which has found out the good news, which <i>cette
-pauvre chérie</i> had not the courage to tell us. I did never think to
-laugh of good heart again,” said the poor man, with tears in his eyes,
-“but this has made me young; and it almost seems as if we owed it to
-madame.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_075" id="page_075"></a>{75}</span></p>
-
-<p>“How can that be?” said Miss Susan. “It must have been found out sooner
-or later. It will make up to you, if anything can, for the loss of your
-boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“If he had but lived to see it!” said the old man with a sob.</p>
-
-<p>The mother stood behind, tearless, with a glitter in her eyes which was
-almost fierce. Miss Susan did not venture to do more than give her one
-hurried glance, to which she replied with a gleam of fury, clasping her
-hands together. Was it fury? Miss Susan thought so, and shrank for a
-moment, not quite able to understand the feelings of the other woman who
-had not clearly understood her, yet who now seemed to address to her a
-look of wild reproach.</p>
-
-<p>“And my poor wife,” went on the old shopkeeper, “for her it will be an
-even still more happy&mdash;Tu es contente, bien contente, n’est-ce pas?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oui, mon ami,” said the woman, turning her back to him, with once more
-a glance from which Miss Susan shrank.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, madame, excuse her; she cannot speak; it is a joy too much,” he
-cried, drying his old eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan felt herself constrained and drawn on by the excitement of
-the moment, and urged by the silence of the other woman, who was as much
-involved as she.</p>
-
-<p>“My poor boy will have a sadder lot even than yours,” she said; “he is
-dying too young even to hope for any of the joys of life. There is
-neither wife nor child possible for Herbert.” The tears rushed to her
-eyes as she spoke. Heaven help her! she had availed herself, as it were,
-of nature and affection to help her to commit her sin with more ease and
-apparent security. She had taken advantage of poor Herbert in order to
-wake those tears which gave her credit in the eyes of the unsuspecting
-stranger. In the midst of her excitement and feverish sense of life, a
-sudden chill struck at her heart. Had she come to this debasement so
-soon? Was it possible that in such an emergency she had made capital and
-stock-in-trade of her dying boy? This reflection was not put into words,
-but flashed through her with one of those poignant instantaneous cuts
-and thrusts which men and women are subject to, invisibly to all the
-world. M. Austin, forgetting his respect in sympathy, held out his hand
-to her to press hers with a profound and tender feeling which went<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_076" id="page_076"></a>{76}</span> to
-Miss Susan’s heart; but she had the courage to return the pressure
-before she dropped his bond hastily (he thought in English pride and
-reserve), and, making a visible effort to suppress her emotion,
-continued, “After this discovery, I suppose your bargain with Mr.
-Farrel-Austin, who took such an advantage of you, is at an end at once?”</p>
-
-<p>“Speak French,” said Madame Austin, with gloom on her countenance; “I do
-not understand your English.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon amie, you are a little abrupt. Forgive her, madame; it is the
-excitation&mdash;the joy. In women the nerves are so much allied with the
-sentiments,” said the old shopkeeper, feeling himself, like all men,
-qualified to generalize on this subject. Then he added with dignity, “I
-promised only for myself. My old companion and me&mdash;we felt no desire to
-be more rich, to enter upon another life; but at present it is
-different. If there comes an inheritor,” he added, with a gleam of light
-over his face, “who shall be born to this wealth, who can be educated
-for it, who will be happy in it, and great and prosperous&mdash;ah, madame,
-permit that I thank you again! Yes, it is you who have revealed the
-goodness of God to me. I should not have been so happy to-day but for
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan interrupted him almost abruptly. The sombre shadow on Madame
-Austin’s countenance began to affect her in spite of herself. “Will you
-write to him,” she said, “or would you wish me to explain for you? I
-shall see him on my return.”</p>
-
-<p>“Still English,” said Madame Austin, “when I say that I do not
-understand it! I wish to understand what is said.”</p>
-
-<p>The two women looked each other in the face: one wondering, uncertain,
-half afraid; the other angry, defiant, jealous, feeling her power, and
-glad, I suppose, to find some possible and apparent cause of irritation
-by which to let loose the storm in her breast of confused irritation and
-pain. Miss Susan looked at her and felt frightened; she had even begun
-to share in the sentiment which made her accomplice so bitter and
-fierce; she answered, with something like humility, in her atrocious
-French:</p>
-
-<p>“Je parle d’un monsieur que vous avez vu, qui est allez ici, qui a parlé
-à vous de l’Angleterre. M. Austin et vous allez changer votre idées,&mdash;et
-je veux dire à cet monsieur que quelque<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_077" id="page_077"></a>{77}</span> chose de différent est venu,
-que vous n’est pas de même esprit que avant. Voici!” said Miss Susan,
-rather pleased with herself for having got on so far in a breath. “Je
-signifie cela&mdash;c’est-à-dire, je offrir mon service pour assister votre
-mari changer la chose qu’il a faites.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oui, mon amie,” said M. Austin, “pour casser l’affaire&mdash;le contrat que
-nous avons fait, vous et moi, et que d’ailleurs n’a jamais été exécuté;
-c’est sa; I shall write, and madame will explique, and all will be made
-as at first. The gentleman was kind. I should never have known my
-rights, nor anything about the beautiful house that belongs to us&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That may belong to you, on my poor boy’s death,” said Miss Susan,
-correcting him.</p>
-
-<p>“Assuredly; after the death of M. le propriétaire actuel. Yes, yes, that
-is understood. Madame will explain to ce monsieur how the situation has
-changed, and how the contract is at least suspended in the meantime.”</p>
-
-<p>“Until the event,” said Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“Until the event, assuredly,” said M. Austin, rubbing his hands.</p>
-
-<p>“Until the event,” said Madame Austin, recovering herself under this
-discussion of details. “But it will be wise to treat ce monsieur with
-much gentleness,” she added; “he must be ménagé; for figure to yourself
-that it might be a girl, and he might no longer wish to pay the money
-proposed, mon ami. He must be managed with great care. Perhaps if I were
-myself to go to England to see this monsieur&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon ange! it would fatigue you to death.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is true; and then a country so strange&mdash;a cuisine abominable. But I
-should not hesitate to sacrifice myself, as you well know, Guillaume,
-were it necessary. Write then, and we will see by his reply if he is
-angry, and I can go afterward if it is needful.”</p>
-
-<p>“And madame, who is so kind, who has so much bounty for us,” said the
-old man, “madame will explain.”</p>
-
-<p>Once more the two women looked at each other. They had been so cordial
-yesterday, why were not they cordial to-day?</p>
-
-<p>“How is it that madame has so much bounty for us?” said the old Flemish
-woman, half aside. “She has no doubt her own reasons?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_078" id="page_078"></a>{78}</span></p>
-
-<p>“The house has been mine all my life,” said Miss Susan, boldly. “I think
-perhaps, if you get it, you will let me live there till I die. And
-Farrel-Austin is a bad man,” she added with vehemence; “he has done us
-bitter wrong. I would do anything in the world rather than let him have
-Whiteladies. I thought I had told you this yesterday. Do you understand
-me now?”</p>
-
-<p>“I begin to comprehend,” said Madame Austin, under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>Finally this was the compact that was made between them. The Austins
-themselves were to write, repudiating their bargain with Farrel, or at
-least suspending it, to await an event, of the likelihood of which they
-were not aware at the time they had consented to his terms; and Miss
-Susan was to see him, and smooth all down and make him understand.
-Nothing could be decided till the event. It might be a mere
-postponement&mdash;it might turn out in no way harmful to Farrel, only an
-inconvenience. Miss Susan was no longer excited, nor so comfortable in
-her mind as yesterday. The full cup had evaporated, so to speak, and
-shrunk; it was no longer running over. One or two indications of a more
-miserable consciousness had come to her. She had read the shame of guilt
-and its irritation in her confederate’s eyes; she had felt the pain of
-deceiving an unsuspecting person. These were new sensations, and they
-were not pleasant; nor was her brief parting interview with Madame
-Austin pleasant. She had not felt, in the first fervor of temptation,
-any dislike to the close contact which was necessary with that homely
-person, or the perfect equality which was necessary between her and her
-fellow-conspirator; but to-day Miss Susan did feel this, and shrank. She
-grew impatient of the old woman’s brusque manner, and her look of
-reproach. “As if she were any better than me,” said poor Miss Susan to
-herself. Alas! into what moral depths the proud Englishwoman must have
-fallen who could compare herself with Madame Austin! And when she took
-leave of her, and Madame Austin, recovering her spirits, breathed some
-confidential details&mdash;half jocular, and altogether familiar, with a
-breath smelling of garlic&mdash;into Miss Susan’s ear, she fell back, with a
-mixture of disdain and disgust which it was almost impossible to
-conceal. She walked back to the hotel this time without any inclination<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_079" id="page_079"></a>{79}</span>
-to linger, and gave orders to Jane to prepare at once for the home
-journey. The only thing that did her any good, in the painful tumult of
-feeling which had succeeded her excitement, was a glimpse which she
-caught in passing into the same lofty common room in which she had first
-seen the Austin family. The son’s widow still sat a gloomy shadow in her
-chair in the corner; but in the full light of the window, in the big
-easy chair which Madame Austin had filled yesterday, sat the daughter of
-the house with her child on her lap, leaning back and holding up the
-plump baby with pretty outstretched arms. Whatever share she might have
-in the plot was involuntary. She was a fair-haired, round-faced Flemish
-girl, innocent and merry. She held up her child in her pretty round
-sturdy arms, and chirruped and talked nonsense to it in a language of
-which Miss Austin knew not a word. She stopped and looked a moment at
-this pretty picture, then turned quickly, and went away. After all, the
-plot was all in embryo as yet. Though evil was meant, Providence was
-still the arbiter, and good and evil alike must turn upon the event.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_080" id="page_080"></a>{80}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IX" id="CHAPTER_IX"></a>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“D</span>ON’T you think he is better, mamma&mdash;a little better to-day?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, mon Dieu, what can I say, Reine? To be a little better in his state
-is often to be worst of all. You have not seen so much as I have. Often,
-very often, there is a gleam of the dying flame in the socket; there is
-an air of being well&mdash;almost well. What can I say? I have seen it like
-that. And they have all told us that he cannot live. Alas, alas, my poor
-boy!”</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur buried her face in her handkerchief as she spoke. She
-was seated in the little sitting-room of a little house in an Alpine
-valley, where they had brought the invalid when the Summer grew too hot
-for him on the shores of the Mediterranean. He himself had chosen the
-Kanderthal as his Summer quarters, and with the obstinacy of a sick man
-had clung to the notion. The valley was shut in by a circle of snowy
-peaks toward the east; white, dazzling mountain-tops, which yet looked
-small and homely and familiar in the shadow of the bigger Alps around. A
-little mountain stream ran through the valley, across which, at one
-point, clustered a knot of houses, with a homely inn in the midst. There
-were trout in the river, and the necessaries of life were to be had in
-the village, through which a constant stream of travellers passed during
-the Summer and Autumn, parties crossing the steep pass of the Gemmi, and
-individual tourists of more enterprising character fighting their way
-from this favorable centre into various unknown recesses of the hills.
-Behind the chalet a waterfall kept up a continual murmur, giving
-utterance, as it seemed, to the very silence cf the mountains. The scent
-of pine-woods was in the air; to the west the glory of the sunset shone
-over a long broken stretch of valley,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_081" id="page_081"></a>{81}</span> uneven moorland interspersed with
-clumps of wood. To be so little out of the way&mdash;nay, indeed, to be in
-the way&mdash;of the Summer traveller, it was singularly wild and quaint and
-fresh. Indeed, for one thing, no tourist ever stayed there except for
-food and rest, for there was nothing to attract any one in the plain,
-little secluded village, with only its circle of snowy peaks above its
-trout-stream, and its sunsets, to catch any fanciful eye. Sometimes,
-however, a fanciful eye was caught by these charms, as in the case of
-poor Herbert Austin, who had been brought here to die. He lay in the
-little room which communicated with this sitting-room, in a small wooden
-chamber opening upon a balcony, from which you could watch the sun
-setting over the Kanderthal, and the moon rising over the snow-white
-glory of the Dolden-horn, almost at the same moment. The chalet belonged
-to the inn, and was connected with it by a covered passage. The Summer
-was at its height, and still poor Herbert lingered, though M. de
-Mirfleur, in pleasant Normandy, grew a little weary of the long time his
-wife’s son took in dying; and Madame de Mirfleur herself, as jealous
-Reine would think sometimes, in spite of herself grew weary too,
-thinking of her second family at home, and the husband whom Reine had
-always felt to be an offence. The mother and sister who were thus
-watching over Herbert’s last moments were not so united in their grief
-and pious duties as might have been supposed. Generally it is the mother
-whose whole heart is absorbed in such watching, and the young sister who
-is to be pardoned if sometimes, in the sadness of the shadow that
-precedes death, her young mind should wander back to life and its warmer
-interests with a longing which makes her feel guilty. But in this case
-these positions were reversed. It was the mother who longed
-involuntarily for the life she had left behind her, and whose heart
-reverted wistfully to something brighter and more hopeful, to other
-interests and loves as strong, if not stronger, than that she felt in
-and for her eldest son. When it is the other way the sad mother pardons
-her child for a wandering imagination; but the sad child, jealous and
-miserable, does not forgive the mother, who has so much to fall back
-upon. Reine had never been able to forgive her mother’s marriage. She
-never named her by her new name without a thrill of irritation. Her
-stepfather seemed a standing shame to her, and every new brother and
-sister<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_082" id="page_082"></a>{82}</span> who came into the world was a new offence against Reine’s
-delicacy. She had been glad, very glad, of Madame de Mirfleur’s aid in
-transporting Herbert hither, and at first her mother’s society, apart
-from the new family, had been very sweet to the girl, who loved her,
-notwithstanding the fantastic sense of shame which possessed her, and
-her jealousy of all her new connections. But when Reine, quick-sighted
-with the sharpened vision of jealousy and wounded love, saw, or thought
-she saw, that her mother began to weary of the long vigil, that she
-began to wonder what her little ones were doing, and to talk of all the
-troubles of a long absence, her heart rose impatient in an agony of
-anger and shame and deep mortification. Weary of waiting for her son’s
-death&mdash;her eldest son, who ought to have been her only son&mdash;weary of
-those lingering moments which were now all that remained to Herbert!
-Reine, in the anguish of her own deep grief and pity and longing hold
-upon him, felt herself sometimes almost wild against her mother. She did
-so now, when Madame de Mirfleur, with a certain calm, though she was
-crying, shook her head and lamented that such gleams of betterness were
-often the precursors of the end. Reine did not weep when her mother
-buried her face in her delicate perfumed handkerchief. She said to
-herself fiercely, “Mamma likes to think so; she wants to get rid of us,
-and get back to those others,” and looked at her with eyes which shone
-hot and dry, with a flushed cheek and clenched hands. It was all she
-could do to restrain herself, to keep from saying something which good
-sense and good taste, and a lingering natural affection, alike made her
-feel that she must not say. Reine was one of those curious creatures in
-whom two races mingle. She had the Austin blue eyes, but with a light in
-them such as no Austin had before; but she had the dark-brown hair,
-smooth and silky, of her French mother, and something of the piquancy of
-feature, the little petulant nose, the mobile countenance of the more
-vivacious blood. Her figure was like a fairy’s, little and slight; her
-movements, both of mind and body, rapid as the stirrings of a bird; she
-went from one mood to another instantaneously, which was not the habit
-of her father’s deliberate race. Miss Susan thought her all
-French&mdash;Madame de Mirfleur all English; and indeed both with some
-reason&mdash;for when in England this perverse girl was full of enthusiasm
-for everything that belonged to her mother’s country, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_083" id="page_083"></a>{83}</span> when in
-France was the most prejudiced and narrow-minded of English women. Youth
-is always perverse, more or less, and there was a double share of its
-fanciful self-will and changeableness in Reine, whose circumstances were
-so peculiar and her temptations so many. She was so rent asunder by love
-and grief, by a kind of adoration for her dying brother, the only being
-in the world who belonged exclusively to herself, and jealous suspicion
-that he did not get his due from others, that her petulance was very
-comprehensible. She waited till Madame de Mirfleur came out of her
-handkerchief, still with hot and dry and glittering eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“You think it would be well if it were over,” said Reine; “that is what
-I have heard people say. It would be well&mdash;yes, in order to release his
-nurses and attendants, it would be well if it should come to an end. Ah,
-mamma, you think so too&mdash;you, his mother! You would not harm him nor
-shorten his life, but yet you think, as it is hopeless, it might be
-well: you want to go to your husband and your children!”</p>
-
-<p>“If I do, that is simple enough,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Ciel! how
-unjust you are, Reine! because I tell you the result of a little rally
-like Herbert’s is often not happy. I want to go to my husband, and to
-your brothers and sisters, yes&mdash;I should be unnatural if I did not&mdash;but
-that my duty, which I will never neglect, calls upon me here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, do not stay!” cried Reine vehemently&mdash;“do not stay! I can do all
-the duty. If it is only duty that keeps you, go, mamma, go! I would not
-have you, for that reason, stay another day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Child! how foolish you are!” said the mother. “Reine, you should not
-show at least your repugnance to everything I am fond of. It is
-wicked&mdash;and more, it is foolish. What can any one think of you? I will
-stay while I am necessary to my poor boy; you may be sure of that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not necessary,” said Reine&mdash;“oh, not necessary! <i>I</i> can do all for him
-that is necessary. He is all I have in the world. There are neither
-husband nor children that can come between Herbert and me. Go,
-mamma,&mdash;for Heaven’s sake, go! When your heart is gone already, why
-should you remain? I can do all he requires. Oh, please, go!”</p>
-
-<p>“You are very wicked, Reine,” said her mother, “and unkind!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_084" id="page_084"></a>{84}</span> You do not
-reflect that I stay for you. What are you to do when you are left all
-alone?&mdash;you, who are so unjust to your mother? I stay for that. What
-would you do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Me!” said Reine. She grew pale suddenly to her very lips, struck by
-this sudden suggestion in the sharpest way. She gave a sob of tearless
-passion. She knew very well that her brother was dying; but thus to be
-compelled to admit and realize it, was more than she could bear. “I will
-do the best I can,” she said, closing her eyes in the giddy faintness
-that came over her. “What does it matter about me?”</p>
-
-<p>“The very thought makes you ill,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Reine, you
-know what is coming, but you will never allow yourself to think of it.
-Pause now, and reflect; when my poor Herbert is gone, what will become
-of you, unless I am here to look after you? You will have to do
-everything yourself. Why should we refuse to consider things which we
-know must happen? There will be the funeral&mdash;all the arrangements&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma! mamma! have you a heart of stone?” cried Reine. She was shocked
-and wounded, and stung to the very soul. To speak of his funeral, almost
-in his presence, seemed nothing less than brutal to the excited girl;
-and all these matter-of-fact indications of what was coming jarred
-bitterly upon the heart, in which, I suppose, hope will still live while
-life lasts. Reine felt her whole being thrill with the shock of this
-terrible, practical touch, which to her mother seemed merely a simple
-putting into words of the most evident and unavoidable thought.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope I have a heart like all the rest of the world,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur. “And you are excited and beside yourself, or I could not pass
-over your unkindness as I do. Yes, Reine, it is my duty to stay for poor
-Herbert, but still more for you. What would you do?”</p>
-
-<p>“What would it matter?” cried Reine, bitterly&mdash;“not drop into his grave
-with him&mdash;ah, no; one is not permitted that happiness. One has to stay
-behind and live on, when there is nothing to live for more!”</p>
-
-<p>“You are impious, my child,” said her mother. “And, again, you are
-foolish; you do not reflect how young you are, and that life has many
-interests yet in store for you&mdash;new connections, new duties<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_085" id="page_085"></a>{85}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Husbands and children!” cried Reine with scornful bitterness, turning
-her blue eyes, agleam with that feverish fire which tells at once of the
-necessity and impossibility of tears, upon her mother. Then her
-countenance changed all in a moment. A little bell tinkled faintly from
-the next room. “I am coming,” she cried, in a tone as soft as the Summer
-air that caressed the flowers in the balcony. The expression of her face
-was changed and softened; she became another creature in a moment.
-Without a word or a look more, she opened the door of the inner room and
-disappeared.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur looked after her, not without irritation; but she was
-not so fiery as Reine, and she made allowances for the girl’s folly, and
-calmed down her own displeasure. She listened for a moment to make out
-whether the invalid’s wants were anything more than usual, whether her
-help was required; and then drawing toward her a blotting-book which lay
-on the table, she resumed her letter to her husband. She was not so much
-excited as Reine by this interview, and, indeed, she felt she had only
-done her duty in indicating to the girl very plainly that life must go
-on and be provided for, even after Herbert had gone out of it. “My poor
-boy!” she said to herself, drying some tears; but she could not think of
-dying with him, or feel any despair from that one loss; she had many to
-live for, many to think of, even though she might have him no longer.
-“Reine is excited and unreasonable, as usual,” she wrote to her husband;
-“always jealous of you, mon ami, and of our children. This arises
-chiefly from her English ideas, I am disposed to believe. Perhaps when
-the sad event which we are awaiting is over, she will see more clearly
-that I have done the best for her as well as for myself. We must pardon
-her in the meantime, poor child. It is in her blood. The English are
-always more or less fantastic. We others, French, have true reason.
-Reassure yourself, mon cher ami, that I will not remain a day longer
-than I can help away from you and our children. My poor Herbert sinks
-daily. Think of our misery!&mdash;you cannot imagine how sad it is. Probably
-in a week, at the furthest, all will be over. Ah, mon Dieu! what it is
-to have a mother’s heart! and how many martyrdoms we have to bear!”
-Madame de Mirfleur wrote this sentence with a very deep sigh, and once
-more wiped from her eyes a fresh gush of tears.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_086" id="page_086"></a>{86}</span> She was perfectly
-correct in every way as a mother. She felt as she ought to feel, and
-expressed her sorrow as it was becoming to express it, only she was not
-absorbed by it&mdash;a thing which is against all true rules of piety and
-submission. She could not rave like Reine, as if there was nothing else
-worth caring for, except her poor Herbert, her dear boy. She had a great
-many other things to care for; and she recognized all that must happen,
-and accepted it as necessary. Soon it would be over; and all recovery
-being hopeless, and the patient having nothing to look forward to but
-suffering, could it be doubted that it was best for him to have his
-suffering over? though Reine, in her rebellion against God and man,
-could not see this, and clung to every lingering moment which could
-lengthen out her brother’s life.</p>
-
-<p>Reine herself cleared like a Summer sky as she passed across the
-threshold into her brother’s room. The change was instantaneous. Her
-blue eyes, which had a doubtful light in them, and looked sometimes
-fierce and sometimes impassioned, were now as soft as the sky. The lines
-of irritation were all smoothed from her brow and from under her eyes.
-Limpid eyes, soft looks, an unruffled, gentle face, with nothing in it
-but love and tenderness, was what she showed always to her sick brother.
-Herbert knew her only under this aspect, though, with the
-clear-sightedness of an invalid, he had divined that Reine was not
-always so sweet to others as to himself.</p>
-
-<p>“You called me,” she said, coming up to his bed-side with something
-caressing, soothing, in the very sound of her step and voice; “you want
-me, Herbert?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; but I don’t want you to do anything. Sit down by me, Reine; I am
-tired of my own company, that is all.”</p>
-
-<p>“And so am I&mdash;of everybody’s company but yours,” she said, sitting down
-by the bed-side and stooping her pretty, shining head to kiss his thin
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks, dear, for saying such pretty things to me. But, Reine, I heard
-voices; you were talking&mdash;was it with mamma?&mdash;not so softly as you do to
-me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it was nothing,” said Reine, with a flush. “Did you hear us, poor
-boy? Oh, that was wicked! Yes, you know there are things that make me&mdash;I
-do not mean angry&mdash;I suppose I have no right to be angry with mamma<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_087" id="page_087"></a>{87}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should you be angry with any one?” he said, softly. “If you had to
-lie here, like me, you would think nothing was worth being angry about.
-My poor Reine! you do not even know what I mean.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, no; there is so much that is wrong,” said Reine; “so many things
-that people do&mdash;so many that they think&mdash;their very ways of doing even
-what is right enough. No, no; it is worth while to be angry about many,
-many things. I do not want to learn to be indifferent; besides, that
-would be impossible to me&mdash;it is not my nature.”</p>
-
-<p>The invalid smiled and shook his head softly at her. “Your excuse goes
-against yourself,” he said. “If you are ruled by your nature, must not
-others be moved by theirs? You active-minded people, Reine, you would
-like every one to think like you; but if you could accomplish it, what a
-monotonous world you would make! I should not like the Kanderthal if all
-the mountain-tops were shaped the same; and I should not perhaps love
-you so much if you were less yourself. Why not let other people, my
-Reine, be themselves, too?”</p>
-
-<p>The brother and sister spoke French, which, more than English, had been
-the language of their childhood.</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert, don’t say such things!” cried the girl. “You do not love me
-for this or for that, as strangers might, but because I am I, Reine, and
-you are you, Herbert. That is all we want. Ah, yes, perhaps if I were
-very good I should like to be loved for being good. I don’t know; I
-don’t think it even then. When they used to promise to love me if I was
-good at Whiteladies, I was always naughty&mdash;on purpose?&mdash;yes, I am
-afraid. Herbert, should not you like to be at Whiteladies, lying on the
-warm, warm grass in the orchard, underneath the great apple-tree, with
-the bees humming all about, and the dear white English clouds floating
-and floating, and the sky so deep, deep, that you could not fathom it?
-Ah!” cried Reine, drawing a deep breath, “I have not thought of it for a
-long time; but I wish we were there.”</p>
-
-<p>The sick youth did not say anything for a moment; his eyes followed her
-look, which she turned instinctively to the open window. Then he sighed;
-then raising himself a little, said, with a gleam of energy, “I am
-certainly better, Reine. I should like to get up<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_088" id="page_088"></a>{88}</span> and set out across the
-Gemmi, down the side of the lake that must be shining so in the sun.
-That’s the brightest way home.” Then he laughed, with a laugh which,
-though feeble, had not lost the pleasant ring of youthfulness. “What
-wild ideas you put into my head!” he said. “No, I am not up to that yet;
-but, Reine, I am certainly better. I have such a desire to get up: and I
-thought I should never get up again.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will call François!” cried the girl, eagerly. He had been made to get
-up for days together without any will of his own, and now that he should
-wish it seemed to her a step toward that recovery which Reine could
-never believe impossible. She rushed out to call his servant, and
-waited, with her heart beating, till he should be dressed, her thoughts
-already dancing forward to brighter and brighter possibilities.</p>
-
-<p>“He has never had the good of the mountain air,” said Reine to herself,
-“and the scent of the pine-woods. He shall sit on the balcony to-day,
-and to-morrow go out in the chair, and next week, perhaps&mdash;who
-knows?&mdash;he may be able to walk up to the waterfall, and&mdash;O God! O Dieu
-tout-puissant! O doux Jesu!” cried the girl, putting her hands together,
-“I will be good! I will be good! I will endure anything; if only he may
-live!&mdash;if only he may live!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_089" id="page_089"></a>{89}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_X" id="CHAPTER_X"></a>CHAPTER X.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">his</span> little scene took place in the village of Kandersteg, at the foot
-of the hills, exactly on the day when Miss Susan executed her errand in
-the room behind the shop, in low-lying Bruges, among the flat canals and
-fat Flemish fields. The tumult in poor Reine’s heart would have been
-almost as strange to Miss Susan as it was to Reine’s mother; for it was
-long now since Herbert had been given up by everybody, and since the
-doctors had all said, that “nothing short of a miracle” could save him.
-Neither Miss Susan nor Madame de Mirfleur believed in miracles. But
-Reine, who was young, had no such limitation of mind, and never could or
-would acknowledge that anything was impossible. “What does impossible
-mean?” Reine cried in her vehemence, on this very evening, after Herbert
-had accomplished her hopes, had stayed for an hour or more on the
-balcony and felt himself better for it, and ordered François to prepare
-his wheeled chair for to-morrow. Reine had much ado not to throw her
-arms around François’s neck, when he pronounced solemnly that “Monsieur
-est mieux, décidément mieux.” “Même,” added François, “il a un petit air
-de je ne sais quoi&mdash;quelque chose&mdash;un rien&mdash;un regard&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“N’est ce pas, mon ami!” cried Reine transported. Yes, there was a
-something, a nothing, a changed look which thrilled her with the wildest
-hopes,&mdash;and it was after this talk that she confronted Madame de
-Mirfleur with the question, “What does impossible mean? It means only, I
-suppose, that God does not interfere&mdash;that He lets nature go on in the
-common way. Then nothing is impossible; because at any moment, God <i>may</i>
-interfere if He pleases. Ah! He has His reasons, I suppose. If He were
-never to interfere at all, but leave nature to do her will, it is not
-for us<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_090" id="page_090"></a>{90}</span> to blame Him,” cried Reine, with tears, “but yet always He may:
-so there is always hope, and nothing is impossible in this world.”</p>
-
-<p>“Reine, you speak like a child,” said her mother. “Have I not prayed and
-hoped too for my boy’s life? But when all say it is impossible&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma,” said Reine, “when my piano jars, it is impossible for me to set
-it right&mdash;if I let it alone, it goes worse and worse; if I meddle with
-it in my ignorance, it goes worse and worse. If you, even, who know more
-than I do, touch it, you cannot mend it. But the man comes who knows, et
-voilà! c’est tout simple,” cried Reine. “He touches something we never
-observed, he makes something rise or fall, and all is harmonious again.
-That is like God. He does not do it always, I know. Ah! how can I tell
-why? If it was me,” cried the girl, with tears streaming from her eyes,
-“I would save every one&mdash;but He is not like me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Reine, you are impious&mdash;you are wicked; how dare you speak so?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, no, no! I am not impious,” she cried, dropping upon her knees&mdash;all
-the English part in her, all her reason and self-restraint broken down
-by extreme emotion. “The bon Dieu knows I am not! I know, I know He
-does, and sees me, the good Father, and is sorry, and considers with
-Himself in His great heart if He will do it even yet. Oh, I know, I
-know!” cried the weeping girl, “some must die, and He considers long;
-but tell me He does not see me, does not hear me, is not sorry for
-me&mdash;how is He then my Father? No!” she said softly, rising from her
-knees and drying the tears from her face, “what I feel is that He is
-thinking it over again.”</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur was half afraid of her daughter, thinking she was
-going out of her mind. She laid her hand on Reine’s shoulder with a
-soothing touch. “Chérie!” she said, “don’t you know it was all decided
-and settled before you were born, from the beginning of the world?”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush!” said Reine, in her excitement. “I can feel it even in the air.
-If our eyes were clear enough, we should see the angels waiting to know.
-I dare not pray any more, only to wait like the angels. He is
-considering. Oh! pray, pray!” the poor child cried, feverish and
-impassioned. She went out into the balcony and knelt down there, leaning
-her forehead against the wooden railing.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_091" id="page_091"></a>{91}</span> The sky shone above with a
-thousand stars, the moon, which was late that night, had begun to throw
-upward from behind the pinnacles of snow, a rising whiteness, which made
-them gleam; the waterfall murmured softly in the silence; the pines
-joined in their continual cadence, and sent their aromatic odors like a
-breath of healing, in soft waves toward the sick man’s chamber. There
-was a stillness all about, as if, as poor Reine said, God himself was
-considering, weighing the balance of death or life. She did not look at
-the wonderful landscape around, or see or even feel its beauty. Her mind
-was too much absorbed&mdash;not praying, as she said, but fixed in one
-wonderful voiceless aspiration. This fervor and height of feeling died
-away after a time, and poor little Reine came back to common life,
-trembling with a thrill in all her nerves, and chilled with
-over-emotion, but yet calm, having got some strange gleam of
-encouragement, as she thought, from the soft air and the starry skies.</p>
-
-<p>“He is fast asleep,” she said to her mother when they parted for the
-night, with such a smile on her face as only comes after many tears, and
-the excitement of great suffering, “quite fast asleep, breathing like a
-child. He has not slept so before, almost for years.”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor child,” said Madame de Mirfleur, kissing her. She was not moved by
-Reine’s visionary hopes. She believed much more in the doctors, who had
-described to her often enough&mdash;for she was curious on such subjects&mdash;how
-Herbert’s disease had worked, and of the “perforations” that had taken
-place, and the “tissue that was destroyed.” She preferred to know the
-worst, she had always said, and she had a strange inquisitive relish for
-these details. She shook her head and cried a little, and said her
-prayers too with much more fervor than usual, after she parted from
-Reine. Poor Herbert, if he could live after all, how pleasant it would
-be! how sweet to take M. de Mirfleur and the children to her son’s
-château in England, and to get the good of his wealth. Ah! what would
-not she give for his life, her poor boy, her eldest, poor Austin’s
-child, whom indeed she had half forgotten, but who had always been so
-good to her! Madame de Mirfleur cried over the thought, and said her
-prayers fervently, with a warmer petition for Herbert than usual; but
-even as she prayed she shook her head; she had no faith in her own
-prayers. She was a French<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_092" id="page_092"></a>{92}</span> Protestant, and knew a great deal about
-theology, and perhaps had been shaken by the many controversies which
-she had heard. And accordingly she shook her head; to be sure, she said
-to herself, there was no doubt that God could do everything&mdash;but, as a
-matter of fact, it was evident that this was not an age of miracles; and
-how could we suppose that all the economy of heaven and earth could be
-stopped and turned aside, because one insignificant creature wished it!
-She shook her head; and I think whatever theory of prayer we may adopt,
-the warmest believer in its efficacy would scarcely expect any very
-distinct answer to such prayers as those of Madame de Mirfleur.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert and Reine Austin had been brought up almost entirely together
-from their earliest years. Partly from his delicate health and partly
-from their semi-French training, the boy and girl had not been separated
-as boys and girls generally are by the processes of education. Herbert
-had never been strong, and consequently had never been sent to school or
-college. He had had tutors from time to time, but as nobody near him was
-much concerned about his mental progress, and his life was always
-precarious, the boy was allowed to grow up, as girls sometimes are, with
-no formal education at all, but a great deal of reading; his only
-superiority in this point was, he knew after a fashion Latin and Greek,
-which Madame de Mirfleur and even Miss Susan Austin would have thought
-it improper to teach a girl; while she knew certain arts of the needle
-which it was beneath man’s dignity to teach a boy. Otherwise they had
-gone through the selfsame studies, read the same books, and mutually
-communicated to each other all they found therein. The affection between
-them, and their union, was thus of a quite special and peculiar
-character. Each was the other’s family concentrated in one. Their
-frequent separations from their mother and isolation by themselves at
-Whiteladies, where at first the two little brown French mice, as Miss
-Susan had called them, were but little appreciated, had thrown Reine and
-Herbert more and more upon each other for sympathy and companionship. To
-be sure, as they grew older they became by natural process of events the
-cherished darlings of Whiteladies, to which at first they were a trouble
-and oppression; but the aunts were old and they were young, and except
-Everard Austin, had no companions but each other. Then their mother’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_093" id="page_093"></a>{93}</span>
-marriage, which occurred when Herbert was about fourteen and his sister
-two years younger, gave an additional closeness, as of orphans
-altogether forsaken, to their union. Herbert was the one who took this
-marriage most easily. “If mamma likes it, it is no one else’s business,”
-he said with unusual animation when Miss Susan began to discuss the
-subject; it was not his fault, and Herbert had no intention of being
-brought to account for it. He took it very quietly, and had always been
-quite friendly to his stepfather, and heard of the birth of the children
-with equanimity. His feelings were not so intense as those of Reine; he
-was calm by nature, and illness had hushed and stilled him. Reine, on
-the other hand, was more shocked and indignant at this step on her
-mother’s part, than words can say. It forced her into precocious
-womanhood, so much did it go to her heart. To say that she hated the new
-husband and the new name which her mother had chosen, was little. She
-felt herself insulted by them, young as she was. The blood came hot to
-her face at the thought of the marriage, as if it had been something
-wrong&mdash;and her girlish fantastic delicacy never recovered the shock. It
-turned her heart from her mother who was no longer hers, and fixed it
-more and more upon Herbert, the only being in the world who was hers,
-and in whom she could trust fully. “But if I were to marry, too!” he
-said to her once, in some moment of gayer spirits. “It is natural that
-you should marry, not unnatural,” cried Reine; “it would be right, not
-wretched. I might not like it; probably I should not like it&mdash;but it
-would not change my ideal.” This serious result had happened in respect
-to her mother, who could no longer be Reine’s ideal, whatever might
-happen. The girl was so confused in consequence, and broken away from
-all landmarks, that she, and those who had charge of her, had anything
-but easy work in the days before Herbert’s malady declared itself. This
-had been the saving of Reine; she had devoted herself to her sick
-brother heart and soul, and the jar in her mind had ceased to
-communicate false notes to everything around.</p>
-
-<p>It was now two years since the malady which had hung over him all his
-life, had taken a distinct form; though even now, the doctors allowed,
-there were special points which made Herbert unlike other consumptive
-patients, and sometimes inclined a physician who saw him for the first
-time, to entertain doubts as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_094" id="page_094"></a>{94}</span> to what the real cause of his sufferings
-was, and to begin hopefully some new treatment, which ended like all the
-rest in disappointment. He had been sent about from one place to
-another, to sea air, to mountain air, to soft Italian villas, to rough
-homes among the hills, and wherever he went Reine had gone with him. One
-Winter they had passed in the south of France, another on the shores of
-the Mediterranean just across the Italian border. Sometimes the two went
-together where English ladies were seldom seen, and where the girl half
-afraid, clinging to Herbert’s arm as long as he was able to keep up a
-pretence of protecting her, and protecting him when that pretence was
-over, had to live the homeliest life, with almost hardship in it, in
-order to secure good air or tending for him.</p>
-
-<p>This life had drawn them yet closer and closer together. They had read
-and talked together, and exchanged with each other all the eager,
-irrestrainable opinions of youth. Sometimes they would differ on a point
-and discuss it with that lively fulness of youthful talk which so often
-looks like eloquence; but more often the current of their thoughts ran
-in the same channel, as was natural with two so nearly allied. During
-all this time Reine had been subject to a sudden vertigo, by times, when
-looking at him suddenly, or recalled to it by something that was said or
-done, there would come to her, all at once, the terrible recollection
-that Herbert was doomed. But except for this and the miserable moments
-when a sudden conviction would seize her that he was growing worse, the
-time of Herbert’s illness was the most happy in Reine’s life. She had no
-one to find fault with her, no one to cross her in her ideas of right
-and wrong. She had no one to think of but Herbert, and to think of him
-and be with him had been her delight all her life. Except in the
-melancholy moments I have indicated, when she suddenly realized that he
-was going from her, Reine was happy; it is so easy to believe that the
-harm which is expected will not come, when it comes softly <i>au petit
-pas</i>&mdash;and so easy to feel that good is more probable than evil. She had
-even enjoyed their wandering, practising upon herself an easy deception;
-until the time came when Herbert’s strength had failed altogether, and
-Madame de Mirfleur had been sent for, and every melancholy preparation
-was made which noted that it was expected of him that now he should die.
-Poor Reine woke up suddenly out<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_095" id="page_095"></a>{95}</span> of the thoughtless happiness she had
-permitted herself to fall into; might she perhaps have done better for
-him had she always been dwelling upon his approaching end, and instead
-of snatching so many flowers of innocent pleasure on the road, had
-thought of nothing but the conclusion which now seemed to approach so
-rapidly? She asked herself this question sometimes, sitting in her
-little chamber behind her brother’s, and gazing at the snow-peaks where
-they stood out against the sky&mdash;but she did not know how to answer it.
-And in the meantime Herbert had grown more and more to be all in all to
-her, and she did not know how to give him up. Even now, at what
-everybody thought was his last stage, Reine was still ready to be
-assailed by those floods of hope which are terrible when they fail, as
-rapidly as they rose. Was this to be so? Was she to lose him, who was
-all in all to her? She said to herself, that to nurse him all her life
-long would be nothing&mdash;to give up all personal prospects and
-anticipations such as most girls indulge in would be nothing&mdash;nor that
-he should be ill always, spending his life in the dreary vicissitudes of
-sickness. Nothing, nothing! so long as he lived. She could bear all, be
-patient with everything, never grumble, never repine; indeed, these
-words seemed as idle words to the girl, who could think of nothing
-better or brighter than to nurse Herbert forever and be his perpetual
-companion.</p>
-
-<p>Without him her life shrank into a miserable confusion and nothingness.
-With him, however ill he might be, however weak, she had her certain and
-visible place in the world, her duties which were dear to her, and was
-to herself a recognizable existence; but without Herbert, Reine could
-not realize herself. To think, as her mother had suggested, of what
-would happen to her when he died, of the funeral, and the dismal
-desolation after, was impossible to her. Her soul sickened and refused
-to look at such depths of misery; but yet when, more vaguely, the idea
-of being left alone had presented itself to her, Reine had felt with a
-gasp of breathless anguish, that nothing of her except the very husk and
-rind of herself could survive Herbert. How could she live without him?
-To be the least thought of in her mother’s house, the last in it, yet
-not of it, disposed of by a man who was not her father, and whose very
-existence was an insult to her, and pushed aside by the children whom
-she never called brothers and sisters; it would not be she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_096" id="page_096"></a>{96}</span> who should
-bear this, but some poor shell of her, some ghost who might bear her
-name.</p>
-
-<p>On the special night which we have just described, when the possibility
-of recovery for her brother again burst upon her, she sat up late with
-her window open, looking out upon the moonlight as it lighted up the
-snow-peaks. They stood round in a close circle, peak upon peak,
-noiseless as ghosts and as pale, abstracted, yet somehow looking to her
-excited imagination as if they put their great heads together in the
-silence, and murmured to each other something about Herbert. It seemed
-to Reine that the pines too were saying something, but that was sadder,
-and chilled her. Earth and heaven were full of Herbert, everything was
-occupied about him; which indeed suited well enough with that other
-fantastic frenzy of hers, that God was thinking it over again, and that
-there was a pause in all the elements of waiting, to know how it was to
-be. François, Herbert’s faithful servant, always sat up with him at
-night or slept in his room when the vigil was unnecessary, so that Reine
-was never called upon thus to exhaust her strength. She stole into her
-brother’s room again in the middle of the night before she went to bed.
-He was still asleep, sleeping calmly without any hardness of breathing,
-without any feverish flush on his cheek or exhausting moisture on his
-forehead. He was still and in perfect rest, so happy and comfortable
-that François had coiled himself upon his truckle-bed and slept as
-soundly as the invalid he was watching. Reine laid her hand upon
-Herbert’s forehead lightly, to feel how cool it was; he stirred a
-little, but no more than a child would, and by the light of the faint
-night-lamp, she saw that a smile came over his face like a ray of
-sunshine. After this she stole away back to her own room like a ghost,
-and dropped by the side of her little bed, unable to pray any longer,
-being exhausted&mdash;able to do nothing but weep, which she did in utter
-exhaustion of joy. God had considered, and He had found it could be
-done, and had pity upon her. So she concluded, poor child! and dropped
-asleep in her turn a little while after, helpless and feeble with
-happiness. Poor child! on so small a foundation can hope found itself
-and comfort come.</p>
-
-<p>On the same night Miss Susan went back again from Antwerp to London. She
-had a calm passage, which was well for her, for Miss Susan was not so
-sure that night of God’s protection as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_097" id="page_097"></a>{97}</span> Reine was, nor could she appeal
-to Him for shelter against the wind and waves with the same confidence
-of being heard and taken care of as when she went from London to
-Antwerp. But happily the night was still, and the moon shining as bright
-and clear upon that great wayward strait, the Channel, as she did upon
-the noiseless whiteness of the Dolden-horn; and about the same hour when
-Reine fell asleep, her relation did also, lying somewhat nervous in her
-berth, and thinking that there was but a plank between her and eternity.
-She did not know of the happy change which Reine believed had taken
-place in the Alpine valley, any more than Reine knew in what darker
-transactions Miss Susan had become involved; and thus they met the
-future, one happy in wild hopes in what God had done for her, the other
-with a sombre confidence in what (she thought) she had managed for
-herself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_098" id="page_098"></a>{98}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XI" id="CHAPTER_XI"></a>CHAPTER XI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“R</span><span class="smcap">eine</span>, is it long since you heard from Aunt Susan? Look here, I don’t
-want her tender little notes to the invalid. I am tired of always
-recollecting that I am an invalid. When one is dying one has enough of
-it, without always being reminded in one’s correspondence. Is there no
-news? I want news. What does she say?”</p>
-
-<p>“She speaks only of the Farrel-Austins,&mdash;who had gone to see her,” said
-Reine, almost under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” Herbert too showed a little change of sentiment at this name. Then
-he laughed faintly. “I don’t know why I should mind,” he said; “every
-man has a next-of-kin, I suppose, an heir-at-law, though every man does
-not die before his time, like me. That’s what makes it unpleasant, I
-suppose. Well, what about Farrel-Austin, Reine? There is no harm in him
-that I know.”</p>
-
-<p>“There is great harm in him,” said Reine, indignantly; “why did he go
-there to insult them, to make them think? And I know there was something
-long ago that makes Aunt Susan hate him. She says Everard was there
-too&mdash;I think, with Kate and Sophy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“And you do not like that either?” said Herbert, putting his hand upon
-hers and looking at her with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not mind,” said Reine sedately. “Why should I mind? I do not think
-they are very good companions for Everard,” she added, with that
-impressive look of mature wisdom which the most youthful countenance is
-fond of putting on by times; “but that is my only reason. He is not very
-settled in his mind.”</p>
-
-<p>“Are you settled in your mind, Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>“I? I have nothing to unsettle me,” she said with genuine<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_099" id="page_099"></a>{99}</span> surprise. “I
-am a girl; it is different. I can stop myself whenever I feel that I am
-going too far. You boys cannot stop yourselves,” Reine added, with the
-least little shake of her pretty head; “that makes frivolous companions
-so bad for Everard. He will go on and on without thinking.”</p>
-
-<p>“He is a next-of-kin, too,” said Herbert with a smile. “How strange a
-light it throws upon them all when one is dying! I wonder what they
-think about me, Reine? I wonder if they are always waiting, expecting
-every day to bring them the news? I daresay Farrel-Austin has settled
-exactly what he is to do, and the changes he will make in the old house.
-He will be sure to make changes, if only to show that he is the master.
-The first great change of all will be when the White ladies themselves
-have to go away. Can you believe in the house without Aunt Susan, Reine?
-I think, for my part, it will drop to pieces, and Augustine praying
-against the window like a saint in painted glass. Do you know where they
-mean to go?”</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert! you kill me when you ask me such questions.”</p>
-
-<p>“Because they all imply my own dying?” said Herbert. “Yes, my queen, I
-know. But just for the fun of the thing, tell me what do you think
-Farrel means to do? Will he meddle with the old almshouses, and show
-them all that <i>he</i> is Lord of the Manor and nobody else? or will he
-grudge the money and let Augustine keep possession of the family
-charities? That is what I think; he is fond of his money, and of making
-a good show with it, not feeding useless poor people. But then if he
-leaves the almshouses to her undisturbed, where will Augustine go? By
-Jove!” said Herbert, striking his feeble hand against his couch with the
-energy of a new idea, “I should not be in the least surprised if she
-went and lived at the almshouses herself, like one of her own poor
-people; she would think, poor soul, that that would please God. I am
-more sorry for Aunt Susan,” he added after a pause, “for she is not so
-simple; and she has been the Squire so long, how will she ever bear to
-abdicate? It will be hard upon her, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine had turned away her head to conceal the bitter tears of
-disappointment that had rushed to her eyes. She had been so sure that he
-was better&mdash;and to be thus thrown back all at once upon this talk about
-his death was more than she could bear.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t cry, dear,” he said, “I am only discussing it for the fun<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_100" id="page_100"></a>{100}</span> of the
-thing; and to tell you the truth, Reine, I am keeping the chief point of
-the joke to myself all this time. I don’t know what you will think when
-I tell you&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What, Bertie, what?”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t be so anxious; I daresay it is utter nonsense. Lean down your ear
-that I may whisper; I am half-ashamed to say it aloud. Reine, hush!
-listen! Somehow I have got a strange feeling, just for a day or two,
-that I am not going to die at all, but to live.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure of it,” cried the girl, falling on her knees and throwing her
-arms round him. “I know it! It was last night. God did not make up His
-mind till last night. I felt it in the air. I felt it everywhere. Some
-angel put it into my head. For all this time I have been making up my
-mind, and giving you up, Bertie, till yesterday; something put it into
-my head&mdash;the thought was not mine, or I would not have any faith in it.
-Something said to me, God is thinking it all over again. Oh, I know! He
-would not let them tell you and me both unless it was true.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think so, Reine? do you really think so?” said the sick boy&mdash;for
-he was but a boy&mdash;with a sudden dew in his large liquid exhausted eyes.
-“I thought you would laugh at me&mdash;no, of course, I don’t mean laugh&mdash;but
-think it a piece of folly. I thought it must be nonsense myself; but do
-you really, really think so too?”</p>
-
-<p>The only answer she could make was to kiss him, dashing off her tears
-that they might not come upon his face; and the two kept silent for a
-moment, two young faces, close together, pale, one with emotion, the
-other with weakness, half-angelic in their pathetic youthfulness and the
-inspiration of this sudden hope, smiles upon their lips, tears in their
-eyes, and the trembling of a confidence too ethereal for common
-mortality in the two hearts that beat so close together. There was
-something even in the utter unreasonableness of their hope which made it
-more touching, more pathetic still. The boy was less moved than the girl
-in his weakness, and in the patience which that long apprenticeship to
-dying had taught him. It was not so much to him who was going as to her
-who must remain.</p>
-
-<p>“If it should be so,” he said after awhile, almost in a whisper, “oh,
-how good we ought to be, Reine! If I failed of my duty, if I did not do
-what God meant me to do in everything, if I took to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_101" id="page_101"></a>{101}</span> thinking of
-myself&mdash;then it would be better that things had gone on&mdash;as they are
-going.”</p>
-
-<p>“As they were going, Bertie!”</p>
-
-<p>“You think so, really; you think so? Don’t just say it for my feelings,
-for I don’t mind. I was quite willing, you know, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor boy! already he had put his willingness in the past, unawares.</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie,” she said solemnly, “I don’t know if you believe in the angels
-like me. Then tell me how this is; sometimes I have a thought in the
-morning which was not there at night; sometimes when I have been
-puzzling and wondering what to do&mdash;about you, perhaps, about mamma,
-about one of the many, many things,” said Reine, with a celestial face
-of grave simplicity, “which perplex us in life,&mdash;and all at once I have
-had a thought which made everything clear. One moment quite in the dark,
-not seeing what to do; and the next, with a thought that made everything
-clear. Now, how did that come, Bertie? tell me. Not from me&mdash;it was put
-into my head, just as you pull my dress, or touch my arm, and whisper
-something to me in the dark. I always believe in things that are like
-this, <i>put into my head</i>.”</p>
-
-<p>Was it wonderful that the boy was easy to convince by this fanciful
-argument, and took Reine’s theory very seriously? He was in a state of
-weakened life and impassioned hope, when the mind is very open to such
-theories. When the mother came in to hear that Herbert was much better,
-and that he meant to go out in his wheeled-chair in the afternoon, even
-she could scarcely guard herself against a gleam of hope. He was
-certainly better. “For the moment, chérie,” she said to Reine, who
-followed her out anxiously to have her opinion; “for the moment, yes, he
-is better; but we cannot look for anything permanent. Do not deceive
-yourself, ma Reine. It is not to be so.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why is it not to be so? when I am sure it is to be so; it shall be so!”
-cried Reine.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur shook her head. “These rallyings are often very
-deceitful,” she said. “Often, as I told you, they mean only that the end
-is very near. Almost all those who die of lingering chronic illness,
-like our poor dear, have a last blaze-up in the socket, as it were,
-before the end. Do not trust to it; do not build any hopes upon it,
-Reine.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_102" id="page_102"></a>{102}</span></p>
-
-<p>“But I do; but I will!” the girl said under her breath, with a shudder.
-When her mother went into those medical details, which she was fond of,
-Reine shrank always, as if from a blow.</p>
-
-<p>“Yet it is possible that it might be more than a momentary rally,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur. “I am disposed almost to hope so. The perforation
-may be arrested for the time by this beautiful air and the scent of the
-pines. God grant it! The doctors have always said it was possible. We
-must take the greatest care, especially of his nourishment, Reine; and
-if I leave you for a little while alone with him&mdash;” “Are you going away,
-mamma?” said Reine, with a guilty thrill of pleasure which she rebuked
-and heartily tried to cast out from her mind; for had she not pledged
-herself to be good, to bear everything, never to suffer a thought that
-was unkind to enter her mind, if only Herbert might recover? She dared
-not risk that healing by permitting within her any movement of feeling
-that was less than tender and kind. She stopped accordingly and changed
-her tone, and repeated with eagerness, “Mamma, do you think of going
-away?” Madame de Mirfleur felt that there was a difference in the tone
-with which these two identical sentences were spoken; but she was not
-nearly enough in sympathy with her daughter to divine what that
-difference meant.</p>
-
-<p>“If Herbert continues to get better&mdash;and if the doctor thinks well of
-him when he comes to-morrow, I think I will venture to return home for a
-little while, to see how everything is going on.” Madame de Mirfleur was
-half apologetic in her tone. “I am not like you, Reine,” she said,
-kissing her daughter’s cheek, “I have so many things to think of; I am
-torn in so many pieces; dear Herbert here; the little ones lá-bas; and
-my husband. What a benediction of God is this relief in the midst of our
-anxiety, if it will but last! Chérie, if the doctor thinks as we do, I
-will leave you with François to take care of my darling boy, while I go
-and see that all is going well in Normandy. See! I was afraid to hope;
-and now your hope, ma Reine, has overcome me and stolen into my heart.”</p>
-
-<p>Yesterday this speech would have roused one of the devils who tempted
-her in Reine’s thoughts&mdash;and even now the evil impulse swelled upward
-and struggled for the mastery, whispering that Madame de Mirfleur was
-thinking more of the home “lá-bas,”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_103" id="page_103"></a>{103}</span> than of poor Herbert; that she was
-glad to seize the opportunity to get away, and a hundred other evil
-things. Reine grew crimson, her mother could not tell why. It was with
-her a struggle, poor child, to overcome this wicked thought and to cast
-from her mind all interpretations of her mother’s conduct except the
-kindest one. The girl grew red with the effort she made to hold fast by
-her pledge and resist all temptation. It was better to let her mind be a
-blank without thought at all, than to allow evil thoughts to come in
-after she had promised to God to abandon them.</p>
-
-<p>I do not think Reine had any idea that she was paying a price for
-Herbert’s amendment by “being good,” as she had vowed in her simplicity
-to be. It was gratitude, profound and trembling, that the innocent soul
-within her longed to express by this means; but still I think all
-unawares she had a feeling&mdash;which made her determination to be good
-still more pathetically strong&mdash;that perhaps if God saw her gratitude
-and her purpose fail, He might be less disposed to continue His great
-blessings to one so forgetful of them. Thus, as constantly happens in
-human affairs, the generous sense of gratitude longing to express
-itself, mingled with that secret fear of being found wanting, which lies
-at the bottom of every heart. Reine could not disentangle them any more
-than I can, or any son of Adam; but fortunately, she was less aware of
-the mixture than we are who look on.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes mamma,” she answered at length, with a meekness quite unusual to
-her, “I am sure you must want to see the little ones; it is only
-natural.” This was all that Reine could manage to stammer forth.</p>
-
-<p>“N’est ce pas?” said the mother pleased, though she could not read her
-daughter’s thoughts, with this acknowledgment of the rights and claims
-of her other children. Madame de Mirfleur loved to <i>ménager</i>, and was
-fond of feeling herself to be a woman disturbed with many diverse cares,
-and generally sacrificing herself to some one of them; but she had a
-great deal of natural affection, and was glad to have something like a
-willing assent on the part of her troublesome girl to the “other ties,”
-which she was herself too much disposed to bring in on all occasions.
-She kissed Reine very affectionately; and went off again to write to her
-husband a description of the change.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_104" id="page_104"></a>{104}</span></p>
-
-<p>“He is better, unquestionably better,” she said. “At first I feared it
-was the last gleam before the end; but I almost hope now it may be
-something more lasting. Ah, if my poor Herbert be but spared, what a
-benediction for all of us, and his little brothers and sisters! I know
-you will not be jealous, mon cher ami, of my love for my boy. If the
-doctor thinks well I shall leave this frightful village to-morrow, and
-be with thee as quickly as I can travel. What happiness, bon Dieu, to
-see our own house again!” She added in a P.S., “Reine is very amiable to
-me; hope and happiness, mon ami, are better for some natures than
-sorrow. She is so much softer and humbler since her brother was better.”
-Poor Reine! Thus it will be perceived that Madame de Mirfleur, like most
-of her nation, was something of a philosopher too.</p>
-
-<p>When Reine was left alone she did not even then make any remark to
-herself upon mamma’s eagerness to get away to her children, whose very
-names on ordinary occasions the girl disliked to hear. To punish and to
-school herself now she recalled them deliberately; Jeannot and Camille
-and little Babette, all French to their finger-tips, spoilt children,
-whose ears the English sister, herself trained in nursery proprieties
-under Miss Susan’s rule, had longed to box many times. She resolved now
-to buy some of the carved wood which haunts the traveller at every
-corner in Switzerland, for them, and be very good to them when she saw
-them again. Oh, how good Reine meant to be! Tender visions of an ideal
-purity arose in her mind. Herbert and she&mdash;the one raised from the brink
-of the grave, the other still more blessed in receiving him from that
-shadow of death&mdash;how could they ever be good enough, gentle enough, kind
-enough, to show their gratitude? Reine’s young soul seemed to float in a
-very heaven of gentler meanings, of peace with all men, of charity and
-tenderness. Never, she vowed to herself, should poor man cross her path
-without being the better for it; never a tear fall that she could dry.
-Herbert, when she went to him, was much of the same mind. He had begun
-to believe in himself and in life, with all those unknown blessings
-which the boy had sweetly relinquished, scarcely knowing them, but which
-now seemed to come back fluttering about his head on sunny wings, like
-the swallows returning with the Summer.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert was younger even than his years, in heart, at least&mdash;in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_105" id="page_105"></a>{105}</span>
-consequence of his long ill health and seclusion, and the entire
-retirement from a boy’s ordinary pursuits which that had made necessary;
-and I do not think that he had ever ventured to realize warmly, as in
-his feebleness he was now doing, through that visionary tender light
-which is the prerogative of youth, all the beauty and brightness and
-splendor of life. Heretofore he had turned his eyes from it, knowing
-that his doom had gone forth, and with a gentle philosophy avoided the
-sight of that which he could never enjoy. But lo! now, an accidental
-improvement, or what might prove an accidental improvement, acting upon
-a fantastic notion of Reine’s, had placed him all at once, to his own
-consciousness, in the position of a rescued man. He was not much like a
-man rescued, but rather one trembling already at the gates of death, as
-he crept downstairs on François’s arm to his chair. The other travellers
-in the place stood by respectfully to let him pass, and lingered after
-he had passed, looking after him with pity and low comments to each
-other. “Not long for this world,” said one and another, shaking their
-heads; while Herbert, poor fellow, feeling his wheel-chair to be
-something like a victor’s car, held his sister’s hand as they went
-slowly along the road toward the waterfall, and talked to her of what
-they should do when they got home. It might have been heaven they were
-going to instead of Whiteladies, so bright were their beautiful young
-resolutions, their innocent plans. They meant, you may be sure, to make
-a heaven on earth of their Berkshire parish, to turn Whiteladies into a
-celestial palace and House Beautiful, and to be good as two children, as
-good as angels. How beautiful to them was the village road, the mountain
-stream running strong under the bridge, the waves washing on the pebbly
-edge, the heather and herbage that encroached upon the smoothness of the
-way! “We must not go to the waterfall; it is too far and the road is
-rough; but we will rest here a little, where the air comes through the
-pines. It is as pretty here as anywhere,” said Reine. “Pretty! you mean
-it is beautiful; everything is beautiful,” said Herbert, who had not
-been out of doors before since his arrival, lying back in his chair and
-looking at the sky, across which some flimsy cloudlets were floating. It
-chilled Reine somehow in the midst of her joy, to see how naturally his
-eyes turned to the sky.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_106" id="page_106"></a>{106}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Never mind the clouds, Bertie dear,” she said hastily, “look down the
-valley, how beautiful it is; or let François turn the chair round, and
-then you can see the mountains.”</p>
-
-<p>“Must I give up the sky then as if I had nothing more to do with it?”
-said Herbert with a boyish, pleasant laugh. Even this speech made Reine
-tremble; for might not God perhaps think that they were taking Him too
-quickly at His word and making too sure?</p>
-
-<p>“The great thing,” she said, eluding the question, “is to be near the
-pines; everybody says the pines are so good. Let them breathe upon you,
-Bertie, and make you strong.”</p>
-
-<p>“At their pleasure,” said Herbert, smiling and turning his pale head
-toward the strong trees, murmuring with odorous breath overhead. The
-sunshine glowed and burned upon their great red trunks, and the dark
-foliage which stood close and gave forth no reflection. The bees filled
-the air with a continuous hum, which seemed the very voice of the warm
-afternoon, of the sunshine which brought forth every flimsy insect and
-grateful flower among the grass. Herbert sat listening in silence for
-some time, in that beatitude of gentle emotion which after danger is
-over is so sweet to the sufferer. “Sing me something, Reine,” he said at
-last, in the caprice of that delightful mood.</p>
-
-<p>Reine was seated on a stone by the side of the road, with a broad hat
-shading her eyes, and a white parasol over her head. She did not wait to
-be asked a second time. What would not she have done at Herbert’s wish?
-She looked at him tenderly where he sat in his chair under the shadow of
-a kindly pine which seemed to have stepped out of the wood on
-purpose&mdash;and without more ado began to sing. Many a time had she sang to
-him when her heart was sick to death, and it took all her strength to
-form the notes; but to-day Reine’s soul was easy and at home, and she
-could put all her heart into it. She sang the little air that Everard
-Austin had whistled as he came through the green lanes toward
-Whiteladies, making Miss Susan’s heart glad:</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“Ce que je désire, et que j’aime,<br /></span>
-<span class="i2">C’est toujours toi,<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">De mon âme le bien suprême<br /></span>
-<span class="i2">C’est encore toi, c’est encore toi.”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_107" id="page_107"></a>{107}</span></p>
-
-<p>Some village children came and made a little group around them
-listening, and the tourists in the village, much surprised, gathered
-about the bridge to listen too, wondering. Reine did not mind; she was
-singing to Herbert, no one else; and what did it matter who might be
-near?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_108" id="page_108"></a>{108}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XII" id="CHAPTER_XII"></a>CHAPTER XII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">H</span><span class="smcap">erbert</span> continued much better next day. It had done him good to be out,
-and already François, with that confidence in all simple natural
-remedies which the French, and indeed all continental nations, have so
-much more strongly than we, asserted boldly that it was the pines which
-had already done so much for his young master. I do not think that Reine
-and Herbert, being half English, had much faith in the pines. They
-referred the improvement at once, and directly, to a higher hand, and
-were glad, poor children, to think that no means had been necessary, but
-that God had done it simply by willing it, in that miraculous simple way
-which seems so natural to the primitive soul. The doctor, when he came
-next day upon his weekly visit from Thun or Interlaken, was entirely
-taken by surprise. I believe that from week to week he had scarcely
-expected to see his patient living; and now he was up, and out, coming
-back to something like appetite and ease, and as full of hope as youth
-could be. The doctor shook his head, but was soon infected, like the
-others, by this atmosphere of hopefulness. He allowed that a wonderful
-progress had been made; that there always were special circumstances in
-this case which made it unlike other cases, and left a margin for
-unexpected results. And when Madame de Mirfleur took him aside to ask
-about the state of the tissue, and whether the perforations were
-arrested, he still said, though with hesitation and shakings of the
-head, that he could not say that it might not be the beginning of a
-permanent favorable turn in the disease, or that healing processes might
-not have set in. “Such cases are very unlikely,” he said. “They are of
-the nature of miracles, and we are very reluctant to believe in them;
-but still at M. Austin’s age, it is impossible to deny that results
-utterly unexpected happen sometimes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_109" id="page_109"></a>{109}</span> Sometimes, at rare intervals; and
-no one can calculate upon them. It might be that it was really the
-commencement of a permanent improvement; and nothing can be better for
-him than the hopeful state of mind in which he is.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then, M. le docteur,” said Madame de Mirfleur, anxiously, “you think I
-may leave him? You think I may go and visit my husband and my little
-ones, for a little time&mdash;a very little time&mdash;without fear?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing is impossible,” said the doctor, “nor can I guarantee anything
-till we see how M. Austin goes on. If the improvement continues for a
-week or two&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“But I shall be back in a week or two,” said the woman, whose heart was
-torn asunder, in a tone of dismay; and at length she managed to extort
-from the doctor something which she took for a permission. It was not
-that she loved Herbert less&mdash;but perhaps it was natural that she should
-love the babies, and the husband whose name she bore, and who had
-separated her from the life to which the other family belonged&mdash;more.
-Madame de Mirfleur did not enter into any analysis of her feelings, as
-she hurried in a flutter of pleasant excitement to pack her necessaries
-for the home journey. Reine, always dominated by that tremulous
-determination to do good at any cost, carefully refrained also, but with
-more difficulty, from any questioning with herself about her mother’s
-sentiments. She made the best of it to Herbert, who was somewhat
-surprised that his mother should leave him, having acquired that
-confidence of the sick in the fact of their own importance, to which
-everything must give way. He was not wounded, being too certain, poor
-boy, of being the first object in his little circle, but he was
-surprised.</p>
-
-<p>“Reflect, Herbert, mamma has other people to think of. There are the
-little ones; little children are constantly having measles, and colds,
-and indigestions; and then, M. de Mirfleur&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I thought you disliked to think of M. de Mirfleur, Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! so I do; but, Bertie, I have been very unkind, I have hated him,
-and been angry with mamma, without reason. It seems to be natural to
-some people to marry,” said the girl, after a pause, “and we ought not
-to judge them; it is not wrong to wish that one’s mother belonged to
-one, that she did not belong to other people,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_110" id="page_110"></a>{110}</span> is it? But that is all.
-Mamma thought otherwise. Bertie, we were little, and we were so much
-away in England. Six months in the year, fancy, and then she must have
-been lonely. We do not take these things into account when we are
-children,” said Reine; “but after, when we can think, many things become
-clear.”</p>
-
-<p>It was thus with a certain grandeur of indulgence and benevolence that
-the two young people saw their mother go away. That she should have a
-husband and children at all was a terrible infringement of the ideal,
-and brought her down unquestionably to a lower level in their primitive
-world; but granting the husband and the children, as it was necessary to
-do, no doubt she had, upon that secondary level, a certain duty to them.
-They bade her good-bye tenderly, their innate disapproval changing, with
-their altered moral view, from irritation and disappointment into a
-condescending sweetness. “Poor mamma! I do not see that it was possible
-for her to avoid going,” Reine said; and perhaps, after all, it was this
-disapproved of, and by no means ideal mother, who felt the separation
-most keenly when the moment came. When a woman takes a second life upon
-her, no doubt she must resign herself to give up something of the
-sweetness of the first; and it would be demanding too much of human
-nature to expect that the girl and boy, who were fanciful and even
-fantastic in their poetical and visionary youth, could be as reverent of
-mother as if she had altogether belonged to them. Men and women, I fear,
-will never be equal in this world, were all conventional and outside
-bonds removed to-morrow. The widower-father does not descend from any
-pedestal when he forms what Madame de Mirfleur called “new ties,” as
-does the widow-mother; and it will be a strange world, when, if ever, we
-come to expect no more from women than we do from men; it being granted,
-sure enough, that in other ways more is to be expected from men than
-from women. Herbert sat in his chair on the balcony to see her go away,
-smiling and waving his thin hand to his mother; and Reine, at the
-carriage-door, kissed her blandly, and watched her drive off with a
-tender, patronizing sense that was quite natural. But the mother, poor
-woman, though she was eager to get away, and had “other ties” awaiting
-her, looked at them through eyes half blinded with tears, and felt a
-pang of inferiority of which she had never before been sensible. She was
-not an ideal personage, but she felt, without knowing how,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_111" id="page_111"></a>{111}</span> the loss of
-her position, and that descent from the highest, by which she had
-purchased her happiness.</p>
-
-<p>These momentary sensations would be a great deal more hard upon us if we
-could define them to ourselves, as you and I, dear reader, can define
-them when we see them thus going on before us; but fortunately few
-people have the gift to do this in their own case. So that Madame de
-Mirfleur only knew that her heart was wrung with pain to leave her boy,
-who might be dying still, notwithstanding his apparent improvement. And,
-by-and-by, as her home became nearer, and Herbert farther off, the
-balance turned involuntarily, and she felt only how deep must be her own
-maternal tenderness when the pang of leaving Herbert could thus
-overshadow her pleasure in the thought of meeting all the rest.</p>
-
-<p>Reine came closer to her brother when she went back to him, with a sense
-that if she had not been trying with all her might to be good, she would
-have felt injured and angry at her mother’s desertion. “I don’t know so
-much as mamma, but I know how to take care of you, Bertie,” she said,
-smoothing back the hair from his forehead with that low caressing coo of
-tenderness which mothers use to their children.</p>
-
-<p>“You have always been my nurse, Reine,” he said gratefully,&mdash;then after
-a pause&mdash;“and by-and-by I mean to require no nursing, but to take care
-of you.”</p>
-
-<p>And thus they went out again, feeling half happy, half forsaken, but
-gradually grew happier and happier, as once more the air from the pines
-blew about Herbert’s head; and he got out of his chair on François’s arm
-and walked into the wood, trembling a little in his feebleness, but glad
-beyond words, and full of infinite hope. It was the first walk he had
-taken, and Reine magnified it, till it came to look, as Bertie said, as
-if he had crossed the pass without a guide, and was the greatest
-pedestrian in all the Kanderthal. He sat up to dinner, after a rest; and
-how they laughed over it, and talked, projecting expeditions of every
-possible and impossible kind, to which the Gemmi was nothing, and
-feeling their freedom from all comment, and happy privilege of being as
-foolish as they pleased! Grave François even smiled at them as he served
-their simple meal; “Enfants!” he said, as they burst into soft peals of
-laughter&mdash;unusual and delicious laughter, which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_112" id="page_112"></a>{112}</span> had sounded so sick and
-faint in the chamber to which death seemed always approaching. They had
-the heart to laugh now, these two young creatures, alone in the world.
-But François did not object to their laughter, or think it indecorous,
-by reason of the strong faith he had in the pines, which seemed to him,
-after so many things that had been tried in vain, at last the real cure.</p>
-
-<p>Thus they went on for a week or more, after Madame de Mirfleur left
-them, as happy as two babies, doing (with close regard to Herbert’s
-weakness and necessities) what seemed good in their own eyes&mdash;going out
-daily, sitting in the balcony, watching the parties of pilgrims who came
-and went, amusing themselves (now that the French mother was absent,
-before whom neither boy nor girl would betray that their English
-country-folks were less than perfect) over the British tourists with
-their alpenstocks. Such of these same tourists as lingered in the valley
-grew very tender of the invalid and his sister, happily unaware that
-Reine laughed at them. They said to each other, “He is looking much
-better,” and, “What a change in a few days!” and, “Please God, the poor
-young fellow will come round after all.” The ladies would have liked to
-go and kiss Reine, and God bless her for a good girl devoted to her sick
-brother; and the men would have been fain to pat Herbert on the
-shoulder, and bid him keep a good heart, and get well, to reward his
-pretty sister, if for nothing else; while all the time the boy and girl,
-Heaven help them, made fun of the British tourists from their balcony,
-and felt themselves as happy as the day was long, fear and the shadow of
-death having melted quite away.</p>
-
-<p>I am loath to break upon this gentle time, or show how their hopes came
-to nothing; or at least sank for the time in deeper darkness than ever.
-One sultry afternoon the pair sallied forth with the intention of
-staying in the pine-wood a little longer than usual, as Herbert daily
-grew stronger. It was very hot, not a leaf astir, and insupportable in
-the little rooms, where all the walls were baked, and the sun blazing
-upon the closed shutters. Once under the pines, there would be nature
-and air, and there they could stay till the sun was setting; for no harm
-could come to the tenderest invalid on such a day. But as the afternoon
-drew on, ominous clouds appeared over the snow of the hills, and before
-preparations could be made to meet it, one of the sudden storms<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_113" id="page_113"></a>{113}</span> of
-mountainous countries broke upon the Kanderthal. Deluges of rain swept
-down from the sky, an hour ago so blue, rain, and hail in great solid
-drops like stones beating against the wayfarer. When it was discovered
-that the brother and sister were out of doors, the little inn was in an
-immediate commotion. One sturdy British tourist, most laughable of all,
-who had just returned with a red face, peeled and smarting, from a long
-walk in the sun, rushed at the only mule that was to be had, and
-harnessed it himself, wildly swearing (may it be forgiven him!)
-unintelligible oaths, into the only covered vehicle in the place, and
-lashed the brute into a reluctant gallop, jolting on the shaft or
-running by the side in such a state of redness and moisture as is
-possible only to an Englishman of sixteen-stone weight. They huddled
-Herbert, faintly smiling his thanks, and Reine, trembling and drenched,
-and deadly pale, into the rude carriage, and jolted them back over the
-stony road, the British tourist rushing on in advance to order brandy
-and water enough to have drowned Herbert. But, alas! the harm was done.
-It is a long way to Thun from the Kanderthal, but the doctor was sent
-for, and the poor lad had every attention that in such a place it was
-possible to give him. Reine went back to her seat by the bedside with a
-change as from life to death in her face. She would not believe it when
-the doctor spoke to her, gravely shaking his head once more, and advised
-that her mother should be sent for. “You must not be alone,” he said,
-looking at her pitifully, and in his heart wondering what kind of stuff
-the mother was made of who could leave such a pair of children in such
-circumstances. He had taken Reine out of the room to say this to her,
-and to add that he would himself telegraph, as soon as he got back to
-Thun, for Madame de Mirfleur. “One cannot tell what may happen within
-the next twenty-four hours,” said the doctor, “and you must not be
-alone.” Then poor Reine’s pent-up soul burst forth. What was the use of
-being good, of trying so hard, so hard! as she had done, to make the
-best of everything, to blame no one, to be tender, and kind, and
-charitable? She had tried, O Heaven, with all her heart and might; and
-this was what it had come back to again!</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, don’t! don’t!” she cried, in sharp anguish. “No; let me have him
-all to myself. I love him. No one else does. Oh, let her alone! She has
-her husband and her children. She was glad<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_114" id="page_114"></a>{114}</span> when my Bertie was better,
-that she might go to them. Why should she come back now? What is he to
-her? the last, the farthest off, less dear than the baby, not half so
-much to her as her house and her husband, and all the new things she
-cares for. But he is everything to me, all I have, and all I want. Oh,
-let us alone! let us alone!”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear young lady,” said the compassionate doctor, “your grief is too
-much for you; you don’t know what you say.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I know! I know!” cried Reine. “She was glad he was better, that she
-might go; that was all she thought of. Don’t send for her; I could not
-bear to see her. She will say she knew it all the time, and blame you
-for letting her go&mdash;though you know she longed to go. Oh, let me have
-him to myself! I care for nothing else&mdash;nothing&mdash;now&mdash;nothing in the
-world!”</p>
-
-<p>“You must not say so; you will kill yourself,” said the doctor.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I wish, I wish I could; that would be the best. If <i>you</i> would only
-kill me with Bertie! but you have not the courage&mdash;you dare not. Then,
-doctor, leave us together&mdash;leave us alone, brother and sister. I have no
-one but him, and he has no one but me. Mamma is married; she has others
-to think of; leave my Bertie to me. I know how to nurse him, doctor,”
-said Reine, clasping her hands. “I have always done it, since I was <i>so</i>
-high; he is used to me, and he likes me best. Oh, let me have him all to
-myself!”</p>
-
-<p>These words went to the hearts of those who heard them; and, indeed,
-there were on the landing several persons waiting who heard them&mdash;some
-English ladies, who had stopped in their journey out of pity to “be of
-use to the poor young creature,” they said; and the landlady of the inn,
-who was waiting outside to hear how Herbert was. The doctor, who was a
-compassionate man, as doctors usually are, gave them what satisfaction
-he could; but that was very small. He said he would send for the mother,
-of course; but, in the meantime, recommended that no one should
-interfere with Reine unless “something should happen.” “Do you think it
-likely anything should happen before you come back?” asked one of the
-awe-stricken women. But the doctor only shook his head, and said he
-could answer for nothing; but that in case anything happened, one of
-them should take charge of Reine. More than one kind-hearted stranger in
-the little inn kept awake that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_115" id="page_115"></a>{115}</span> night, thinking of the poor forlorn girl
-and dying boy, whose touching union had been noted by all the village.
-The big Englishman who had brought them home out of the storm, cried
-like a baby in the coffee-room as he told to some new-comers how Reine
-had sat singing songs to her brother, and how the poor boy had mended,
-and began to look like life again. “If it had not been for this accursed
-storm!” cried the good man, upon which one of the new arrivals rebuked
-him. There was little thought of in the village that night but the two
-young Englanders, without their mother, or a friend near them. But when
-the morning came, Herbert still lived; he lived through that dreary day
-upon the little strength he had acquired during his temporary
-improvement. During this terrible time Reine would not leave him except
-by moments now and then, when she would go out on the balcony and look
-up blank and tearless to the skies, which were so bright again. Ah! why
-were they bright, after all the harm was done? Had they covered
-themselves with clouds, it would have been more befitting, after all
-they had brought about. I cannot describe the misery in Reine’s heart.
-It was something more, something harder and more bitter than grief. She
-had a bewildered sense that God Himself had wronged her, making her
-believe something which He did not mean to come true. How could she
-pray? She had prayed once, and had been answered, she thought, and then
-cast aside, and all her happiness turned into woe. If He had said No at
-first it would have been hard enough, but she could have borne it; but
-He had seemed to grant, and then had withdrawn the blessing; He had
-mocked her with a delusive reply. Poor Reine felt giddy in the world,
-having lost the centre of it, the soul of it, the God to whom she could
-appeal. She had cast herself rashly upon this ordeal by fire, staked her
-faith of every day, her child’s confidence, upon a miracle, and, holding
-out her hand for it, had found it turn to nothing. She stood dimly
-looking out from the balcony on the third night after Herbert’s relapse.
-The stars were coming out in the dark sky, and to anybody but Reine, who
-observed nothing external, the wind was cold. She stood in a kind of
-trance, saying nothing, feeling the wind blow upon her with the scent of
-the pines, which made her sick; and the stars looked coldly at her,
-friends no longer, but alien inquisitive lights peering out of an
-unfriendly heaven.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_116" id="page_116"></a>{116}</span> Herbert lay in an uneasy sleep, weary and restless
-as are the dying, asking in his dreams to be raised up, to have the
-window opened, to get more air. Restless, too, with the excitement upon
-her of what was coming, she had wandered out, blank to all external
-sounds and sights, not for the sake of the air, but only to relieve the
-misery which nothing relieved. She did not even notice the carriage
-coming along the darkening road, which the people at the inn were
-watching eagerly, hoping that it brought the mother. Reine was too much
-exhausted by this time to think even of her mother. She was still
-standing in the same attitude, neither hearing nor noticing, when the
-carriage drew up at the door. The excitement of the inn people had
-subsided, for it had been apparent for some time that the inmate of the
-carriage was a man. He jumped lightly down at the door, a young man
-light of step and of heart, but paused, and looked up at the figure in
-the balcony, which stood so motionless, seeming to watch him. “Ah,
-Reine! is it you? I came off at once to congratulate you,” he said, in
-his cheery English voice. It was Everard Austin, who had heard of
-Herbert’s wonderful amendment, and had come on at once, impulsive and
-sanguine, to take part in their joy. That was more in his way than
-consoling suffering, though he had a kind heart.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_117" id="page_117"></a>{117}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIII" id="CHAPTER_XIII"></a>CHAPTER XIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ISS SUSAN’S</small> absence from home had been a very short one&mdash;she left and
-returned within the week; and during this time matters went on very
-quietly at Whiteladies. The servants had their own way in most
-things&mdash;they gave Miss Augustine her spare meals when they pleased,
-though Martha, left in charge, stood over her to see that she ate
-something. But Stevens stood upon no ceremony&mdash;he took off his coat and
-went into the garden, which was his weakness, and there enjoyed a
-carnival of digging and dibbling, until the gardener grumbled, who was
-not disposed to have his plants meddled with.</p>
-
-<p>“He has been a touching of my geraniums,” said this functionary; “what
-do he know about a garden? Do you ever see me a poking of myself into
-the pantry a cleaning of his spoons?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, bless you,” said the cook; “nobody don’t see you a putting of your
-hand to work as you ain’t forced to. You know better, Mr. Smithers.”</p>
-
-<p>“That ain’t it, that ain’t it,” said Smithers, somewhat discomfited; and
-he went out forthwith, and made an end of the amateur. “Either it’s my
-garden, or it ain’t,” said the man of the spade; “if it is, you’ll get
-out o’ that in ten minutes’ time. I can’t be bothered with fellers here
-as don’t know the difference between a petuniar and a nasty choking
-rubbish of a bindweed.”</p>
-
-<p>“You might speak a little more civil to them as helps you,” said
-Stevens, humbled by an unfortunate mistake he had made; but still not
-without some attempt at self-assertion.</p>
-
-<p>“Help! you wait till I asks you for your help,” said the gardener. And
-thus Stevens was driven back to his coat, his pantry, and the
-proprieties of life, before Miss Susan’s return.</p>
-
-<p>As for Augustine, she gathered her poor people round her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_118" id="page_118"></a>{118}</span> in the
-almshouse chapel every morning, and said her prayers among the
-pensioners, whom she took so much pains to guide in their devotion, for
-the benefit of her family and the expiation of their sins. The poor
-people in the almshouses were not perhaps more pious than any other
-equal number of people in the village; but they all hobbled to their
-seats in the chapel, and said their Amens, led by Josiah Tolladay&mdash;who
-had been parish clerk in his day, and pleased himself in this shadow of
-his ancient office&mdash;with a certain fervor. Some of them grumbled, as who
-does not grumble at a set duty, whatever it may be? but I think the
-routine of the daily service was rather a blessing to most of them,
-giving them a motive for exerting themselves, for putting on clean caps,
-and brushing their old coats. The almshouses lay near the entrance of
-the village of St. Austin’s, a square of old red-brick houses, built two
-hundred years ago, with high dormer windows, and red walls, mellowed
-into softness by age. They had been suffered to fall into decay by
-several generations of Austins, but had been restored to thorough repair
-and to their original use by Miss Augustine, who had added a great many
-conveniences and advantages, unthought of in former days, to the little
-cottages, and had done everything that could be done to make the lives
-of her beadsmen and beadswomen agreeable. She was great herself on the
-duty of self-denial, fasted much, and liked to punish her delicate and
-fragile outer woman, which, poor soul, had little strength to spare; but
-she petted her pensioners, and made a great deal of their little
-ailments, and kept the cook at Whiteladies constantly occupied for them,
-making dainty dishes to tempt the appetites of old humbugs of both
-sexes, who could eat their own plain food very heartily when this kind
-and foolish lady was out of the way. She was so ready to indulge them,
-that old Mrs. Tolladay was quite right in calling the gentle foundress,
-the abstract, self-absorbed, devotional creature, whose life was
-dedicated to prayer for her family, a great temptation to her neighbors.
-Miss Augustine was so anxious to make up for all her grandfathers and
-grandmothers had done, and to earn a pardon for their misdeeds, that she
-could deny nothing to her poor.</p>
-
-<p>The almshouses formed a square of tiny cottages, with a large garden in
-the midst, which absorbed more plants, the gardener<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_119" id="page_119"></a>{119}</span> said, than all the
-gardens at Whiteladies. The entrance from the road was through a
-gateway, over which was a clock-tower; and in this part of the building
-were situated the pretty, quaint little rooms occupied by the chaplain.
-Right opposite, at the other end of the garden, was the chapel; and all
-the houses opened upon the garden which was pretty and bright with
-flowers, with a large grassplot in the midst, and a fine old mulberry
-tree, under which the old people would sit and bask in the sunshine.
-There were about thirty of them, seven or eight houses on each side of
-the square&mdash;a large number to be maintained by one family; but I suppose
-that the first Austins had entertained a due sense of their own
-wickedness, and felt that no small price was required to buy them off.
-Half of these people at least, however, were now at Miss Augustine’s
-charges. The endowment, being in land, and in a situation where land
-rises comparatively little in value, had ceased to be sufficient for so
-large a number of pensioners&mdash;and at least half of the houses had been
-left vacant, and falling into decay in the time of the late Squire and
-his father. It had been the enterprise of Miss Augustine’s life to set
-this family charity fully forth again, according to the ordinance of the
-first founder&mdash;and almost all her fortune was dedicated to that and to
-the new freak of the chantry. She had chosen her poor people herself
-from the village and neighborhood, and perhaps on the whole they were
-not badly chosen. She had selected the chaplain herself, a quaint, prim
-little old man, with a wife not unlike himself, who fitted into the
-rooms in the tower, and whose object in life for their first two years
-had been to smooth down Miss Augustine, and keep her within the limits
-of good sense. Happily they had given that over before the time at which
-this story commences, and now contented themselves with their particular
-mission to the old almspeople themselves. These were enough to give them
-full occupation. They were partly old couples, husband and wife, and
-partly widows and single people; and they were as various in their
-characteristics as every group of human persons are, “a sad handful,” as
-old Mrs. Tolladay said. Dr. Richard and his wife had enough to do, to
-keep them in order, what with Miss Augustine’s vagaries, and what with
-the peculiarities of the Austin pensioners themselves.</p>
-
-<p>The two principal sides of the square, facing each other&mdash;the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_120" id="page_120"></a>{120}</span> gate side
-and the chapel side&mdash;had each a faction of its own. The chapel side was
-led by old Mrs. Matthews, who was the most prayerful woman in the
-community, or at least had the credit among her own set of being so&mdash;the
-gate side, by Sarah Storton, once the laundress at Whiteladies, who was,
-I fear, a very mundane personage, and did not hesitate to speak her mind
-to Miss Augustine herself. Old Mrs. Tolladay lived on the south side,
-and was the critic and historian, or bard, of both the factions. She was
-the wife of the old clerk, who rang the chapel bell, and led with
-infinite self-importance the irregular fire of Amens, which was so
-trying to Dr. Richard; but many of the old folks were deaf, and not a
-few stupid, and how could they be expected to keep time in the
-responses? Old Mrs. Matthews, who had been a Methodist once upon a time,
-and still was suspected of proclivities toward chapel, would groan now
-and then, without any warning, in the middle of the service, making Dr.
-Richard, whose nerves were sensitive, jump; and on Summer days, when the
-weather was hot, and the chapel close and drowsy, one of the old men
-would indulge in an occasional snore, quickly strangled by his
-helpmate&mdash;which had a still stronger effect on the Doctor’s nerves. John
-Simmons, who had no wife to wake him, was the worst offender on such
-occasions. He lived on the north side, in the darkest and coldest of all
-the cottages, and would drop his head upon his old breast, and doze
-contentedly, filling the little chapel with audible indications of his
-beatific repose. Once Miss Augustine herself had risen from her place,
-and walking solemnly down the chapel, in the midst of the awe-stricken
-people, had awakened John, taking her slim white hand out of her long
-sleeves, and making him start with a cold touch upon his shoulder. “It
-will be best to stay away out of God’s house if you cannot join in our
-prayers,” Miss Augustine had said, words which in his fright and
-compunction the old man did not understand. He thought he was to be
-turned out of his poor little cold cottage, which was a palace to him,
-and awaited the next Monday, on which he received his weekly pittance
-from the chaplain, with terrified expectation. “Be I to go, sir?” said
-old John, trembling in all his old limbs; for he had but “the House”
-before him as an alternative, and the reader knows what a horror that
-alternative is to most poor folks.</p>
-
-<p>“Miss Augustine has said nothing about it,” said Dr. Richard;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_121" id="page_121"></a>{121}</span> “but
-John, you must not snore in church; if you will sleep, which is very
-reprehensible, why should you snore, John?”</p>
-
-<p>“It’s my misfortune, sir,” said the old man. “I was always a snoring
-sleeper, God forgive me; there’s many a one, as you say, sir, as can
-take his nap quiet, and no one know nothing about it; but, Doctor, I
-don’t mean no harm, and it ain’t my fault.”</p>
-
-<p>“You must take care not to sleep, John,” said Dr. Richard, shaking his
-head, “that is the great thing. You’ll not snore if you don’t sleep.”</p>
-
-<p>“I donnow that,” said John doubtfully, taking up his shillings. The old
-soul was hazy, and did not quite know what he was blamed for. Of all the
-few enjoyments he had, that Summer doze in the warm atmosphere was
-perhaps the sweetest. Sleep that knits up the ravelled sleeve of
-care&mdash;John felt it to be one of the best things in this world, though he
-did not know what any idle book had said.</p>
-
-<p>At nine o’clock every morning James Tolladay sallied out of his cottage,
-with the key of the chapel, opened the door, and began to tug at the
-rope, which dangled so temptingly just out of the reach of the children,
-when they came to see their grandfathers and grandmothers at the
-almshouses. The chapel was not a very good specimen of architecture,
-having been built in the seventeenth century; and the bell which James
-Tolladay rung was not much of a bell; but still it marked nine o’clock
-to the village, the clergyman of the parish being a quiet and somewhat
-indolent person, who had, up to this time, resisted the movement in
-favor of daily services. Tolladay kept on ringing while the old people
-stumbled past him into their benches, and the Doctor, in his surplice,
-and little Mrs. Richard in her little trim bonnet&mdash;till Miss Augustine
-came along the path from the gate like a figure in a procession, with
-her veil on her head in Summer, and her hood in Winter, and with her
-hands folded into her long, hanging sleeves. Miss Augustine always came
-alone, a solitary figure in the sunshine, and walked abstracted and
-solemn across the garden, and up the length of the chapel to the seat
-which was left for her on one side of the altar rails. Mrs. Richard had
-a place on the other side, but Miss Augustine occupied a sort of stall,
-slightly raised, and very visible to all the congregation. The Austin
-arms were on this stall, a sign of proprietorship not perhaps quite in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_122" id="page_122"></a>{122}</span>
-keeping with the humble meaning of the chapel; and Miss Augustine had
-blazoned it with a legend in very ecclesiastical red and blue&mdash;“Pray for
-us,” translated with laudable intentions, out of the Latin, in order to
-be understood by the congregation, but sent back into obscurity by the
-church decorator, whose letters were far too good art to be
-comprehensible. The old women, blinking under their old dingy bonnets,
-which some of them still insisted upon wearing “in the fashion,” with
-here and there a tumbled red and yellow rose, notwithstanding all that
-Mrs. Richard could say; and the old men with their heads sunk into the
-shabby collars of their old coats, sitting tremulous upon the benches,
-over which Miss Augustine could look from her high seat, immediately
-finding out any defaulter&mdash;were a pitiful assemblage enough, in that
-unloveliness of age and weakness which the very poor have so little
-means of making beautiful; but they were not without interest, nor their
-own quaint humor had any one there been of the mind to discover it. Of
-this view of the assemblage I need not say Miss Augustine was quite
-unconscious; her ear caught Mrs. Matthews’s groan of unction with a
-sense of happiness, and she was pleased by the fervor of the dropping
-Amen, which made poor Dr. Richard so nervous. She did not mind the
-painful fact that at least a minute elapsed between John Tolladay’s
-clerkly solemnity of response and the fitful gust with which John
-Simmons in the background added his assisting voice.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine was too much absorbed in her own special interests to be
-a Ritualist or not a Ritualist, or to think at all of Church politics.
-She was confused in her theology, and determined to have her family
-prayed for, and their sins expiated, without asking herself whether it
-was release from purgatory which she anticipated as the answer to her
-prayers, or simply a turning aside of the curse for the future. I think
-the idea in her mind was quite confused, and she neither knew nor was at
-any trouble to ascertain exactly what she meant. Accordingly, though
-many people, and the rector himself among them, thought Miss Augustine
-to be of the highest sect of the High Church, verging upon Popery
-itself, Miss Augustine in reality found more comfort in the Dissenting
-fervor of the old woman who was a “Methody,” than in the most correct
-Church worship. What she wanted, poor soul, was that semi-commercial,
-semi-visionary traffic, in which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_123" id="page_123"></a>{123}</span> not herself but her family were to be
-the gainers. She was a merchant organizing this bargain with heaven, the
-nature of which she left vague even to herself; and those who aided her
-with most apparent warmth of supplications, were the people whom she
-most appreciated, with but little regard to the fashion of their
-exertions. John Simmons, when he snored, was like a workman shirking
-work to Miss Augustine. But even Dr. Richard and his wife had not
-fathomed this downright straightforward business temper which existed
-without her own knowledge, or any one else’s, in the strange visionary
-being with whom they had to do. She, indeed, put her meaning simply into
-so many words, but it was impossible for those good people to take her
-at her own word, and to believe that she expressed all she meant, and
-nothing less or more.</p>
-
-<p>There was a little prayer used in the almshouse chapel for the family of
-the founder, which Dr. Richard had consented, with some difficulty, to
-add after the collects at Morning and Evening Service, and which he had
-a strong impression was uncanonical, and against the rubrics, employing
-it, so to speak, under protest, and explaining to every chance stranger
-that it was “a tradition of the place from time immemorial.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose we are not at liberty to change lightly any ancient use,”
-said the chaplain, “at least such was the advice of my excellent friend
-the Bishop of the Leeward Islands, in whose judgment I have great
-confidence. I have not yet had an opportunity of laying the matter
-before the Bishop of my own diocese, but I have little doubt his
-lordship will be of the same opinion.”</p>
-
-<p>With this protestation of faith, which I think was much stronger than
-Dr. Richard felt, the chaplain used the prayer; but he maintained a
-constant struggle against Miss Augustine, who would have had him add
-sentences to it from time to time, as various family exigencies arose.
-On one of the days of Miss Susan’s absence a thought of this kind came
-into her sister’s head. Augustine felt that Miss Susan being absent, and
-travelling, and occupied with her business, whatever it was, might,
-perhaps, omit to read the Lessons for the day, as was usual, or would be
-less particular in her personal devotions. She thought this over all
-evening, and dreamed of it at night; and in the morning she sent a
-letter to the chaplain as soon as she woke, begging him to add to his
-prayer for the founder’s family the words, “and for such among<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_124" id="page_124"></a>{124}</span> them as
-may be specially exposed to temptation this day.” Dr. Richard took a
-very strong step on this occasion&mdash;he refused to do it. It was a great
-thing for a man to do, the comfort of whose remnant of life hung upon
-the pleasure of his patroness; but he knew it was an illegal liberty to
-take with his service, and he would not do it.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine was very self-absorbed, and very much accustomed (though
-she thought otherwise) to have everything her own way, and when she
-perceived that this new petition of hers was not added to the prayer for
-her family, she disregarded James Tolladay’s clerkly leading of the
-responses even more than John Simmons did. She made a little pause, and
-repeated it herself, in an audible voice, and then said her Amen,
-keeping everybody waiting for her, and Dr. Richard standing mute and red
-on the chancel steps, with the words, as it might be, taken out of his
-very lips. When they all came out of chapel, Mrs. Matthews had a private
-interview with Miss Augustine, which detained her, and it was not till
-after the old people had dispersed to their cottages that she made her
-way over to the clock-tower in which the chaplain’s rooms were situated.
-“You did not pray for my people, as I asked you,” said Augustine,
-looking at him with her pale blue eyes. She was not angry or irritable,
-but asked the question softly. Dr. Richard had been waiting for her in
-his dining-room, which was a quaint room over the archway, with one
-window looking to the road, another to the garden. He was seated by the
-table, his wife beside him, who had not yet taken off her bonnet, and
-who held her smelling-salts in her hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Miss Augustine,” said the chaplain, with a little flush on his innocent
-aged face. He was a plump, neat little old man, with the red and white
-of a girl in his gentle countenance. He had risen up when she entered,
-but being somewhat nervous sat down again, though she never sat down.
-“Miss Augustine,” he said, solemnly, “I have told you before, I cannot
-do anything, even to oblige you, which is against Church law and every
-sound principle. Whatever happens to me, I must be guided by law.”</p>
-
-<p>“Does law forbid you to pray for your fellow-creatures who are in
-temptation?” said Miss Augustine, without any change of her serious
-abstracted countenance.</p>
-
-<p>“Miss Augustine, this is a question in which I cannot be dictated<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_125" id="page_125"></a>{125}</span> to,”
-said the old gentleman, growing redder. “I will ask the prayers of the
-congregation for any special person who may be in trouble, sorrow, or
-distress, before the Litany, or the collect for all conditions of men,
-making a pause at the appropriate petition, as is my duty; but I cannot
-go beyond the rubrics, whatever it may cost me,” said Dr. Richard, with
-a look of determined resolution, as though he looked for nothing better
-than to be led immediately to the stake. And his wife fixed her eyes
-upon him admiringly, backing him up; and put, with a little pressure of
-his fingers, her smelling-salts into his hand.</p>
-
-<p>“In that case,” said Miss Augustine, in her abstract way, “in that
-case&mdash;I will not ask you; but it is a pity the rubrics should say it is
-your duty not to pray for any one in temptation; it was Susan,” she
-added, softly, with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“Miss Susan!” said the chaplain, growing hotter than ever at the thought
-that he had nearly been betrayed into the impertinence of praying for a
-person whom he so much respected. He was horrified at the risk he had
-run. “Miss Augustine,” he said, severely, “if my conscience had
-permitted me to do this, which I am glad it did not, what would your
-sister have said? I could never have looked her in the face again, after
-taking such a liberty with her.”</p>
-
-<p>“We could never have looked her in the face again,” echoed Mrs. Richard;
-“but, thank God, my dear, you stood fast!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes. I hope true Church principles and a strong resolution will always
-save me,” said the Doctor, with gentle humility, “and that I may always
-have the resolution to stand fast.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine made no reply to this for the moment. Then she said,
-without any change of tone, “Say, to-morrow, please, that prayers are
-requested for Susan Austin, on a voyage, and in temptation abroad.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Miss Augustine!” said the unhappy clergyman, taking a sniff at
-the salts, which now were truly needed.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that will come to the same thing,” said Miss Augustine quietly to
-herself.</p>
-
-<p>She stood opposite to the agitated pair, with her hands folded into her
-great sleeves, her hood hanging back on her shoulders, her black veil
-falling softly about her pale head. There was no emotion in her
-countenance. Her mind was not alarmed about her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_126" id="page_126"></a>{126}</span> sister. The prayer was
-a precautionary measure, to keep Susan out of temptation&mdash;not anything
-strenuously called for by necessity. She sighed softly as she made the
-reflection, that to name her sister before the Litany was said would
-answer her purpose equally well; and thus with a faint smile, and slight
-wave of her hand toward the chaplain and his wife, she turned and went
-away. The ordinary politenesses were lost upon Miss Augustine, and the
-door stood open behind her, so that there was no need for Dr. Richard to
-get up and open it; and, indeed, they were so used to her ways, her
-comings and her goings, that he did not think of it. So the old
-gentleman sat with his wife by his side, backing him up, gazing with
-consternation, and without a word, at the gray retreating figure. Mrs.
-Richard, who saw her husband’s perturbed condition, comforted him as
-best she could, patting his arm with her soft little hand, and
-whispering words of consolation. When Miss Augustine was fairly out of
-the house, the distressed clergyman at last permitted his feelings to
-burst forth.</p>
-
-<p>“Pray for Susan Austin publicly by name!” he said, rising and walking
-about the room. “My dear, it will ruin us! This comes of women having
-power in the Church! I don’t mean to say anything, my dear, injurious to
-your sex, which you know I respect deeply&mdash;in its own place; but a
-woman’s interference in the Church is enough to send the wisest man out
-of his wits.”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear Henery,” said Mrs. Richard, for it was thus she pronounced her
-husband’s name, “why should you be so much disturbed about it, when you
-know she is mad?”</p>
-
-<p>“It is only her enemies who say she is mad,” said Dr. Richard; “and even
-if she is mad, what does that matter? There is nothing against the
-rubrics in what she asks of me now. I shall be forced to do it; and what
-will Miss Susan say? And consider that all our comfort, everything
-depends upon it. Ellen, you are very sensible; but you don’t grasp the
-full bearing of the subject as I do.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, my dear, I do not pretend to have your mind,” said the good wife;
-“but things never turn out so bad as we fear,” she said a moment after,
-with homely philosophy&mdash;“nor so good, either,” she added, with a sigh.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_127" id="page_127"></a>{127}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIV" id="CHAPTER_XIV"></a>CHAPTER XIV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ISS SUSAN</small> came home on the Saturday night. She was very tired, and saw
-no one that evening; but Martha, her old maid, who returned into
-attendance upon her natural mistress at once, thought and reported to
-the others that “something had come over Miss Susan.” Whether it was
-tiredness or crossness, or bad news, or that her business had not turned
-out so well as she expected, no one could tell; but “something had come
-over her.” Next morning she did not go to church&mdash;a thing which had not
-happened in the Austin family for ages.</p>
-
-<p>“I had an intuition that you were yielding to temptation,” Miss
-Augustine said, with some solemnity, as she went out to prayers at the
-almshouses; after which she meant to go to Morning Service in the
-church, as always.</p>
-
-<p>“I am only tired, my dear,” said Miss Susan, with a little shiver.</p>
-
-<p>The remarks in the kitchen were more stringent than Miss Augustine’s.</p>
-
-<p>“Foreign parts apparently is bad for the soul,” said Martha, when it was
-ascertained that Jane, too, following her mistress’s example, did not
-mean to go to Church.</p>
-
-<p>“They’re demoralizin’, that’s what they are,” said Stevens, who liked a
-long word.</p>
-
-<p>“I’ve always said as I’d never set foot out o’ my own country, not for
-any money,” said Cook, with the liberal mind natural to her craft.</p>
-
-<p>Poor Jane, who had been very ill on the crossing, though the sea was
-calm, sat silent at the chimney corner with a bad headache, and very
-devout intentions to the same effect.</p>
-
-<p>“If you knew what it was to go a sea-voyage, like I do,” she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_128" id="page_128"></a>{128}</span> protested
-with forlorn pride, “you’d have a deal more charity in you.” But even
-Jane’s little presents, brought from “abroad,” did not quite conciliate
-the others, to whom this chit of a girl had been preferred. Jane, on the
-whole, however, was better off, even amid the criticisms of the kitchen,
-than Miss Susan was, seated by herself in the drawing-room, to which the
-sun did not come round till the afternoon, with the same picture hanging
-before her eyes which she had used to tempt the Austins at Bruges, with
-a shawl about her shoulders, and a sombre consciousness in her heart
-that had never before been known there. It was one of those dull days
-which so often interpose their unwelcome presence into an English
-Summer. The sky and the world were gray with east wind, the sun hidden,
-the color all gone out. The trees stood about and shivered, striking the
-clouds with their hapless heads; the flowers looked pitiful and
-appealing, as if they would have liked to be brought indoors and kept in
-shelter; and the dreariness of the fire-place, done up in white paper
-ornaments, as is the orthodox Summer fashion of England, was
-unspeakable. Miss Susan, drawing her shawl round her, sat in her
-easy-chair near the fire by habit; and a more dismal centre of the room
-could not have been than that chilly whiteness. How she would have liked
-a fire! but in the beginning of July, what Englishwoman, with the proper
-fear of her housemaid before her eyes, would dare to ask for that
-indulgence? So Miss Susan sat and shivered, and watched the cold trees
-looking in at the window, and the gray sky above, and drew her shawl
-closer with a shiver that went through her very heart. The vibration of
-the Church bells was in the still, rural air, and not a sound in the
-house.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan felt as if she were isolated by some stern power; set apart
-from the world because of “what had happened;” which was the way she
-described her own very active agency during the past week to herself.
-But this did not make her repent, or change her mind in any respect; the
-excitement of her evil inspiration was still strong upon her; and then
-there was yet no wrong done, only intended, and of course, at any
-moment, the wrong which was only in intention might be departed from,
-and all be well. She had that morning received a letter from Reine, full
-of joyous thanksgiving over Herbert’s improvement. Augustine, who
-believed in miracles, had gone off to church in great excitement, to put
-up<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_129" id="page_129"></a>{129}</span> Herbert’s name as giving thanks, and to tell the poor people that
-their prayers had been so far heard; but Miss Susan, who was more of
-this world, and did not believe in miracles, and to whom the fact that
-any human event was very desirable made it at once less likely, put very
-little faith in Reine’s letter. “Poor child! poor boy!” she said to
-herself, shaking her head and drying her eyes; then put it aside, and
-thought little more of it. Her own wickedness that she planned was more
-exciting to her. She sat and brooded over that, while all the parish
-said their prayers in church, where she, too, ought to have been. For
-she was not, after all, so very tired; her mind was as full and lively
-as if there had been no such a thing as fatigue in the world; and I do
-not think she had anything like an adequate excuse for staying at home.</p>
-
-<p>On the Sunday afternoon Miss Susan received a visit which roused her a
-little from the self-absorption which this new era in her existence had
-brought about, though it was only Dr. and Mrs. Richard, who walked
-across the field to see her after her journey, and to take a cup of tea.
-They were a pleasant little couple to see, jogging across the fields arm
-in arm&mdash;he the prettiest fresh-colored little old gentleman, in glossy
-black and ivory white, a model of a neat, little elderly clergyman; she
-not quite so pretty, but very trim and neat too, in a nice black silk
-gown, and a bonnet with a rose in it. Mrs. Richard was rather hard upon
-the old women at the almshouses for their battered flowers, and thought
-a little plain uniform bonnet of the cottage shape, with a simple brown
-ribbon, would have been desirable; but for her own part she clung to the
-rose, which nodded on the summit of her head. Both of them, however, had
-a conscious look upon their innocent old faces. They had come to
-“discharge a duty,” and the solemnity of this duty, which was, as they
-said to each other, a very painful one, overwhelmed and slightly excited
-them. “What if she should be there herself?” said Mrs. Richard, clasping
-a little closer her husband’s arm, to give emphasis to her question. “It
-does not matter who is there; I must do my duty,” said the Doctor, in
-heroic tones; “besides,” he added, dropping his voice, “she never
-notices anything that is not said to her, poor soul!”</p>
-
-<p>But happily Miss Augustine was not present when they were shown into the
-drawing-room where Miss Susan sat writing letters.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_130" id="page_130"></a>{130}</span> A good deal was
-said, of course, which was altogether foreign to the object of the
-visit: How she enjoyed her journey, whether it was not very fatiguing,
-whether it had not been very delightful, and a charming change, etc.
-Miss Susan answered all their questions benignly enough, though she was
-very anxious to get back to the letter she was writing to Farrel-Austin,
-and rang the bell for tea and poured it out, and was very gracious,
-secretly asking herself, what in the name of wonder had brought them
-here to-day to torment her? But it was not till he had been strengthened
-by these potations that Dr. Richard spoke.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Miss Susan,” he said at length, “my coming to-day was not
-purely accidental, or merely to ask for you after your journey. I wanted
-to&mdash;if you will permit me&mdash;put you on your guard.”</p>
-
-<p>“In what respect?” said Miss Susan, quickly, feeling her heart begin to
-beat. Dr. Richard was the last person in the world whom she could
-suppose likely to know about the object of her rapid journey, or what
-she had done; but guilt is very suspicious, and she felt herself
-immediately put upon her defence.</p>
-
-<p>“I trust that you will not take it amiss that I should speak to you on
-such a subject,” said the old clergyman, clearing his throat; his
-pretty, old pink cheek growing quite red with agitation. “I take the
-very greatest interest in both you and your sister, Miss Susan. You are
-both of you considerably younger than I am, and I have been here now
-more than a dozen years, and one cannot help taking an interest in
-anything connected with the family&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed; one cannot help it; it would be quite unnatural if one did
-not take an interest,” said Mrs. Richard, backing him up.</p>
-
-<p>“But nobody objects to your taking an interest,” said Miss Susan. “I
-think it, as you say, the most natural thing in the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks, thanks, for saying so!” said Dr. Richard with enthusiasm; and
-then he looked at his wife, and his wife at him, and there was an awful
-pause.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, good, excellent people,” said Miss Susan, hurriedly, “for
-Heaven’s sake, if there is any bad news coming, out with it at once!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_131" id="page_131"></a>{131}</span></p>
-
-<p>“No, no; no bad news!” said Dr. Richard; and then he cleared his throat.
-“The fact is, I came to speak to you&mdash;about Miss Augustine. I am afraid
-her eccentricity is increasing. It is painful, very painful to me to say
-so, for but for her kindness my wife and I should not have been half so
-comfortable these dozen years past; but I think it a friend’s duty, not
-to say a clergyman’s. Miss Susan, you are aware that people say that she
-is&mdash;not quite right in her mind!”</p>
-
-<p>“I am aware that people talk a great deal of nonsense,” said Miss Susan,
-half-relieved, half-aggravated. “I should not wonder if they said I was
-mad myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“If they knew!” she added mentally, with a curious thrill of
-self-arraignment, judging her own cause, and in the twinkling of an eye
-running over the past and the future, and wondering, if she should ever
-be found out, whether people would say she was mad too.</p>
-
-<p>“No, no,” said the Doctor; “you are well known for one of the most
-sensible women in the county.”</p>
-
-<p>“Quite one of the most influential and well-known people in the county,”
-said Mrs. Richard, with an echo in which there was always an individual
-tone.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, well; let that be as it may,” said Miss Susan, not dissatisfied
-with this appreciation; “and what has my sister done&mdash;while I have been
-absent, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a matter of great gravity, and closely concerning myself,” said
-Dr. Richard, with some dignity. “You are aware, Miss Susan, that my
-office as Warden of the Almshouses is in some respects an anomalous one,
-making me, in some degree, subordinate, or apparently so, in my
-ecclesiastical position to&mdash;in fact, to a lady. It is quite a strange,
-almost unprecedented, combination of circumstances.”</p>
-
-<p>“Very strange indeed,” said Mrs. Richard. “My husband, in his
-ecclesiastical position, as it were subordinate&mdash;to a lady.”</p>
-
-<p>“Pardon me,” said Miss Susan; “I never interfere with Augustine. You
-knew how it would be when you came.”</p>
-
-<p>“But there are some things one was not prepared for,” said the Doctor,
-with irrestrainable pathos. “It might set me wrong with the persons I
-respect most, Miss Susan. Your sister not only attempted to add a
-petition to the prayers of the Church,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_132" id="page_132"></a>{132}</span> which nobody is at liberty to do
-except the Archbishops themselves, acting under the authority of
-Government; but finding me inexorable in that&mdash;for I hope nothing will
-ever lead me astray from the laws of the Church&mdash;she directed me to
-request the prayers of the congregation for you, the most respectable
-person in the neighborhood&mdash;for you, as exposed to temptation!”</p>
-
-<p>A strange change passed over Miss Susan’s face. She had been ready to
-laugh, impatient of the long explanation, and scarcely able to conceal
-her desire to get rid of her visitors. She sat poising the pen in her
-hand with which she had been writing, turning over her papers, with a
-smile on her lip; but when Dr. Richard came to those last words, her
-face changed all at once. She dropped the pen out of her hand, her face
-grew gray, the smile disappeared in a moment, and Miss Susan sat looking
-at them, with a curious consciousness about her, which the excellent
-couple could not understand.</p>
-
-<p>“What day was that?” she said quickly, almost under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“It was on Thursday.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thursday morning,” added Mrs. Richard. “If you remember, Henery, you
-got a note about it quite early; and after chapel she spoke&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, it was quite early; probably the note,” said the chaplain, “was
-written on Wednesday night.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was ashy gray; all the blood seemed to have gone out of her.
-She made them no answer at first, but sat brooding, like a woman struck
-into stone. Then she rose to her feet suddenly as the door opened, and
-Augustine, gray and silent, came in, gliding like a mediæval saint.</p>
-
-<p>“My sister is always right,” said Miss Susan, almost passionately, going
-suddenly up to her and kissing her pale cheek with a fervor no one
-understood, and Augustine least of all. “I always approve what she
-does;” and having made this little demonstration, she returned to her
-seat, and took up her pen again with more show of preoccupation than
-before.</p>
-
-<p>What could the old couple do after this but make their bow and their
-courtesy, and go off again bewildered? “I think Miss Susan is the
-maddest of the two,” said Mrs. Richard, when they had two long fields
-between them and Whiteladies; and I am<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_133" id="page_133"></a>{133}</span> not surprised, I confess, that
-they should have thought so, on that occasion, at least.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was deeply struck with this curious little incident. She had
-always entertained a half visionary respect for her sister, something of
-the reverential feeling with which some nations regard those who are
-imperfectly developed in intelligence; and this curious revelation
-deepened the sentiment into something half-adoring, half-afraid. Nobody
-knew what she had done, but Augustine knew somehow that she had been in
-temptation. I cannot describe the impression this made upon her mind and
-her heart, which was guilty, but quite unaccustomed to guilt. It
-thrilled her through and through; but it did not make her give up her
-purpose, which was perhaps the strangest thing of all.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear,” she said, assuming with some difficulty an ordinary smile,
-“what made you think I was going wrong when I was away?”</p>
-
-<p>“What made me think it? nothing; something that came into my mind. You
-do not understand how I am moved and led,” said Augustine, looking at
-her sister seriously.</p>
-
-<p>“No, dear, no&mdash;I don’t understand; that is true. God bless you, my
-dear!” said the woman who was guilty, turning away with a tremor which
-Augustine understood as little&mdash;her whole being tremulous and softened
-with love and reverence, and almost awe, of the spotless creature by
-her; but I suspect, though Miss Susan felt so deeply the wonderful fact
-that her sister had divined her moral danger, she was not in the least
-moved thereby to turn away from that moral danger, or give up her wicked
-plan; which is as curious a problem as I remember to have met with.
-Having all the habits of truth and virtue, she was touched to the heart
-to think that Augustine should have had a mysterious consciousness of
-the moment when she was brought to abandon the right path, and felt the
-whole situation sentimentally, as if she had read of it in a story; but
-it had not the slightest effect otherwise. With this tremor of feeling
-upon her, she went back to her writing-table, and finished her letter to
-Farrel-Austin, which was as follows:<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_134" id="page_134"></a>{134}</span></p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>“<span class="smcap">Dear Cousin</span>: Having had some business which called me abroad last
-week, my interest in the facts you told me, the last time I had the
-pleasure of seeing you, led me to pass by Bruges, where I saw our
-common relations, the Austins. They seem very nice, homely people,
-and I enjoyed making their acquaintance, though it was curious to
-realize relations of ours occupying such a position. I heard from
-them, however, that a discovery had been made in the meantime which
-seriously interferes with the bargain which they made with you;
-indeed, is likely to invalidate it altogether. I took in hand to
-inform you of the facts, though they are rather delicate to be
-discussed between a lady and a gentleman; but it would have been
-absurd of a woman of my age to make any difficulty on such a
-matter. If you will call on me, or appoint a time at which I can
-see you at your own house, I will let you know exactly what are the
-facts of the case; though I have no doubt you will at once divine
-them, if you were informed at the time you saw the Bruges Austins,
-that their son who died had left a young widow.</p>
-
-<p>With compliments to Mrs. Farrel-Austin and your girls,</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-<span style="margin-right: 8em;">Believe me, truly yours,</span><br />
-
-<span class="smcap">Susan Austin</span>.”<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>I do not know that Miss Susan had ever written to Farrel-Austin in so
-friendly a spirit before. She felt almost cordial toward him as she put
-her letter into the envelope. If this improvement in friendly feeling
-was the first product of an intention to do the man wrong, then
-wrong-doing, she felt, must be rather an amiable influence than
-otherwise; and she went to rest that night with a sense of satisfaction
-in her mind. In the late Professor Aytoun’s quaint poem of “Firmilian,”
-it is recorded that the hero of that drama committed many murders and
-other crimes in a vain attempt to study the sensation usually called
-remorse, but was entirely unsuccessful, even when his crimes were on the
-grandest scale, and attended by many aggravating circumstances. Miss
-Susan knew nothing about Firmilian, but I think her mind was in a very
-similar state. She was not at all affected in sentiment by her
-conspiracy. She felt the same as usual, nay, almost better than usual,
-more kindly toward her enemy whom she was going to injure, and more
-reverential and admiring to her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_135" id="page_135"></a>{135}</span> saintly sister, who had divined
-something of her evil intentions&mdash;or at least had divined her danger,
-though without the slightest notion what the kind of evil was to which
-she was tempted. Miss Susan was indeed half frightened at herself when
-she found how very little impression her own wickedness had made upon
-her. The first night she had been a little alarmed when she said her
-prayers, but this had all worn off, and she went to bed without a
-tremor, and slept the sleep of innocence&mdash;the sleep of the just. She was
-so entirely herself that she was able to reflect how strange it was, and
-how little the people who write sermons know the state of the real mind.
-She was astonished herself at the perfect calm with which she regarded
-her own contemplated crime, for crime it was.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_136" id="page_136"></a>{136}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XV" id="CHAPTER_XV"></a>CHAPTER XV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>R. FARREL-AUSTIN</small> lived in a house which was called the Hatch, though I
-cannot tell what is the meaning of the name. It was a modern house, like
-hundreds of others, solid and ugly, and comfortable enough, with a small
-park round it, and&mdash;which it could scarcely help having in
-Berkshire&mdash;some fine trees about it. Farrel-Austin had a good deal of
-property; his house stood upon his own land, though his estate was not
-very extensive, and he had a considerable amount of money in good
-investments, and some house-property in London, in the City, which was
-very valuable. Altogether, therefore, he was very well off, and lived in
-a comfortable way with everything handsome about him. All his family at
-present consisted of the two daughters who came with him to visit
-Whiteladies, as we have seen; but he had married a second time, and had
-an ailing wife who was continually, as people say, having
-“expectations,” which, however, never came to anything. He had been
-married for about ten years, and during this long period Mrs.
-Farrel-Austin’s expectations had been a joke among her neighbors; but
-they were no joke to her husband, nor to the two young ladies, her
-step-daughters, who, as they could not succeed to the Austin lands
-themselves, were naturally very desirous to have a brother who could do
-so. They were not very considerate of Mrs. Austin generally, but in
-respect to her health they were solicitous beyond measure. They took
-such care of her that the poor woman’s life became a burden to her, and
-especially at the moment when there were expectations did this care and
-anxiety overflow. The poor soul had broken down, body and mind, under
-this surveillance. She had been a pretty girl enough when she was
-married, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_137" id="page_137"></a>{137}</span> entered with a light heart upon her functions, not afraid
-of what might happen to her; but Mr. Farrel-Austin’s unsatisfied longing
-for an heir, and the supervision of the two sharp girls who grew up so
-very soon to be young ladies, and evidently considered, as their father
-did, that the sole use and meaning of their mild young stepmother was to
-produce that necessary article, soon made an end of all her
-light-heartedness. Her courage totally failed. She had no very strong
-emotions any way, but a little affection and kindness were necessary to
-keep her going, and this she did not get, in the kind that was
-important, at least. Her husband, I suppose, was fond of her, as (of
-course) all husbands are of all wives, but she could not pet or make
-friends with the girls, who, short of her possible use as the mother of
-an heir, found her very much in their way, and had no inclination to
-establish affectionate relations with her. Therefore she took to her
-sofa, poor soul, and to tonics, and the state of an invalid&mdash;a condition
-which, when one has nothing in particular to do in the world, and
-nothing to amuse or occupy a flat existence, is not a bad expedient in
-its way for the feeble soul, giving it the support of an innocent, if
-not very agreeable routine&mdash;rules to observe and physic to take. This
-was how poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin endeavored to dédommager herself for the
-failure of her life. She preserved a pale sort of faded prettiness even
-on her sofa; and among the society which the girls collected round them,
-there was now and then one who would seek refuge with the mild invalid,
-when the fun of the younger party grew too fast and furious. Even, I
-believe, the stepmother might have set up a flirtation or two of her own
-had she cared for that amusement; but fortunately she had her tonics to
-take, which was a more innocent gratification, and suited all parties
-better; for a man must be a very robust flirt indeed, whose attentions
-can support the frequent interpositions of a maid with a medicine-bottle
-and a spoon.</p>
-
-<p>The society of the Farrel-Austins was of a kind which might be
-considered very fine, or the reverse, according to the taste of the
-critic, though that, indeed, may be said of almost all society. They
-knew, of course, and visited, all the surrounding gentry, among whom
-there were a great many worthy people, though nothing so remarkable as
-to stand out from the general level; but what was more important to the
-young ladies, at least, they had the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_138" id="page_138"></a>{138}</span> officers of the regiment which was
-posted near, and in which there were a great many very noble young
-personages, ornaments to any society, who accepted Mr. Farrel-Austin’s
-invitations freely, and derived a great deal of amusement from his
-household, without perhaps paying that natural tribute of respect and
-civility to their entertainers behind their backs, which is becoming in
-the circumstances. Indeed, the Farrel-Austins were not quite on the same
-social level as the Marquis of Dropmore, or Lord Ffarington, who were
-constantly at the Hatch when their regiment was stationed near, nor even
-of Lord Alf Groombridge, though he was as poor as a church-mouse; and
-the same thing might be said of a great many other honorable and
-distinguished young gentlemen who kept a continual riot at the house,
-and made great havoc with the cellar, and on Sundays, especially, would
-keep this establishment, which ought to have been almost pious in its
-good order, in a state of hurry and flurry, and noise and laughter, as
-if it had been a hotel. The Austins, it is true, boasted themselves of
-good family, though nothing definite was known of them before Henry
-VIII.&mdash;and they were rich enough to entertain their distinguished
-visitors at very considerable cost; but they had neither that rank which
-introduces the possessor into all circles, nor that amount of money
-which makes up every deficiency. Had one of the Miss Farrel-Austins
-married the Marquis or the Earl, or even Lord Alf in his impecuniosity,
-she would have been said to have “succeeded in catching” poor Dropmore,
-or poor Ffarington, and would have been stormed or wept over by the
-gentleman’s relations as if she had been a ragged girl off the
-streets&mdash;King Cophetua’s beggar-maid herself; notwithstanding that these
-poor innocents, Ffarington and Dropmore, had taken advantage of the
-father’s hospitalities for months or years before. I am bound to add
-that the Farrel-Austins were not only fully aware of this, but would
-have used exactly the same phraseology themselves in respect to any
-other young lady of their own standing whose fascinations had been
-equally exercised upon the well-fortified bosoms of Dropmore and
-Company. Nevertheless they adapted themselves to the amusements which
-suited their visitors, and in Summer lived in a lively succession of
-outdoor parties, spending half of their time in drags, in boats, on race
-courses, at <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_139" id="page_139"></a>{139}</span>cricket-matches, and other energetic diversions. Sometimes
-their father was their chaperon, sometimes a young married lady
-belonging to the same society, and with the same tastes.</p>
-
-<p>The very highest and the very lowest classes of society have a great
-affinity to each other. There was always something planned for Sunday in
-this lively “set”&mdash;they were as eager to put the day to use as if they
-had been working hard all the week and had this day only to amuse
-themselves in. I suppose they, or perhaps their father, began to do this
-because there was in it the delightful piquancy of sensation which the
-blasé appetite feels when it is able to shock somebody else by its
-gratifications; and though they have long ago ceased to shock anybody,
-the flavor of the sensation lasted. All the servants at the Hatch,
-indeed, were shocked vastly, which preserved a little of this delightful
-sense of naughtiness. The quieter neighbors round, especially those
-houses in which there were no young people, disapproved, also, in a
-general way, and called the Miss Austins fast; and Miss Susan
-disapproved most strenuously, I need not say, and expressed her contempt
-in terms which she took no trouble to modify. But I cannot deny that
-there was a general hankering among the younger members of society for a
-share in these bruyant amusements; and Everard Austin could not see what
-harm it did that the girls should enjoy themselves, and had no objection
-to join them, and liked Kate and Sophy so much that sometimes he was
-moved to think that he liked one of them more. His house, indeed, which
-was on the river, was a favorite centre for their expeditions, and I
-think even that though he was not rich, neither of his cousins would
-have rejected Everard off-hand without deliberation&mdash;for, to be sure, he
-was the heir, at present, after their father, and every year made it
-less likely that Mrs. Austin would produce the much-wished-for
-successor. Neither of them would have quite liked to risk accepting him
-yet, in face of all the possibilities which existed in the way of
-Dropmore, Ffarington, and Company; but yet they would not have refused
-him off-hand.</p>
-
-<p>Now I may as well tell the reader at once that Kate and Sophy
-Farrel-Austin were not what either I or he (she) would call <i>nice</i>
-girls. I am fond of girls, for my own part. I don’t like to speak ill of
-them, or give an unfavorable impression, and as it is very probable that
-my prejudice in favor of the species may betray me into some relentings
-in respect to these particular examples, some<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_140" id="page_140"></a>{140}</span> softening of their after
-proceedings, or explanation of their devices, I think it best to say at
-once that they were not nice girls. They had not very sweet natures to
-begin with; for the fact is&mdash;and it is a very terrible one&mdash;that a great
-many people do come into the world with natures which are not sweet, and
-enter upon the race of life handicapped (if I may be permitted an
-irregular but useful expression) in the most frightful way. I do not
-pretend to explain this mystery, which, among all the mysteries of
-earth, is one of the most cruel, but I am forced to believe it. Kate and
-Sophy had never been very <i>nice</i>. Their father before them was not
-<i>nice</i>, but an extremely selfish and self-regarding person, often cross,
-and with no generosity or elevation of mind to set them a better
-example. They had no mother, and no restraint, except that of school,
-which is very seldom more than external and temporary. The young
-stepmother had begun by petting them, but neither could nor wished to
-attempt to rule the girls, who soon acquired a contempt for her; and as
-her invalidism grew, they took the control of the house, as well as
-themselves, altogether out of her hands. From sixteen they had been in
-that state of rampant independence and determination to have their own
-way, which has now, I fear, become as common among girls as it used to
-be among boys, when education was more neglected than it is nowadays.
-Boys who are at school&mdash;and even when they are young men at the
-university&mdash;must be in some degree of subordination; but girls who do
-not respect their parents are absolutely beyond this useful power, and
-can be described as nothing but rampant&mdash;the unloveliest as well as the
-unwholesomest of all mental and moral attitudes. Kate had come out at
-sixteen, and since that time had been constantly in this rampant state;
-by sheer force and power of will she had kept Sophy back until she also
-attained that mature age, but her power ended at that point, and Sophy
-had then become rampant too. They turned everything upside down in the
-house, planned their life according to their pleasure, over-rode the
-stepmother, coaxed the father, who was fond and proud of them&mdash;the best
-part of his character&mdash;and set out thus in the Dropmore and Ffarington
-kind of business. At sixteen girls do not plan to be married&mdash;they plan
-to enjoy themselves; and these noble young gentlemen seemed best adapted
-to second their intentions. But it is inconceivable how old a young
-woman is at<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_141" id="page_141"></a>{141}</span> twenty-one who has begun life at sixteen in this tremendous
-way. Kate, who had been for five long years thus about the world&mdash;at all
-the balls, at all the pleasure-parties, at all the races, regattas,
-cricket-matches, flower-shows, every kind of country entertainment&mdash;and
-at everything she could attain to in town in the short season which her
-father could afford to give them&mdash;felt herself about a hundred when she
-attained her majority. She had done absolutely everything that can be
-done in the way of amusement&mdash;at least in England&mdash;and the last Winter
-and Spring had been devoted to doing the same sort of thing “abroad.”
-There was nothing new under the sun to this unfortunate young
-woman&mdash;unless, perhaps, it might be getting married, which had for some
-time begun to appear a worthy object in her eyes. To make a good match
-and gain a legitimate footing in the society to which Dropmore, etc.,
-belonged; to be able to give “a good setting down” to the unapproachable
-women who ignored her from its heights&mdash;and to snatch the delights of a
-title by sheer strength and skill from among her hurly-burly of
-Guardsmen, this had begun to seem to Kate the thing most worth thinking
-of in the world. It was “full time” she should take some such step, for
-she was old, blasée, beginning to fear that she must be passée too,&mdash;at
-one and twenty! Nineteen at the outside is the age at which the rampant
-girl ought to marry in order to carry out her career without a
-cloud&mdash;the marriage, of course, bien entendu, being of an appropriate
-kind.</p>
-
-<p>The Sunday which I have just described, on which Miss Susan did not go
-to church, had been spent by the young ladies in their usual way. There
-had been a river party, preceded by a luncheon at Everard’s house,
-which, having been planned when the weather was hot, had of course to be
-carried out, though the day was cold with that chill of July which is
-more penetrating than December. The girls in their white dresses had
-paid for their pleasure, and the somewhat riotous late dinner which
-awaited the party at the Hatch had scarcely sufficed to warm their feet
-and restore their comfort. It was only next morning, pretty late, over
-the breakfast which they shared in Kate’s room, the largest of the two
-inhabited by the sisters, that they could talk over their previous day’s
-pleasure. And even then their attention was disturbed by a curious piece
-of news which had been brought to them along<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_142" id="page_142"></a>{142}</span> with their tray, and which
-was to the effect that Herbert Austin had suddenly and miraculously
-recovered his health, thanks having been given for him in the parish
-church at St. Austin’s on the previous morning. The gardener had gone to
-church there, with the intention of negotiating with the gardener at
-Whiteladies about certain seedlings, and he had brought back the
-information. His wife had told it to the housekeeper, and the
-housekeeper to the butler, and the butler to the young ladies’ maid, so
-that the report had grown in magnitude as it rolled onward. Sarah
-reported with a courtesy that Mr. Herbert was quite well, and was
-expected home directly&mdash;indeed, she was not quite sure whether he was
-not at home already, and in church when the clergyman read out his name
-as returning thanks&mdash;that would be the most natural way; and as she
-thought it over, Sarah concluded, and said, that this must have been
-what she heard.</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert better! what a bore!” said Sophy, not heeding the presence of
-the maid. “What right has he to get better, I should like to know, and
-cut papa out?”</p>
-
-<p>“Everybody has a right to do the best for themselves, when they can,”
-said Kate, whose rôle it was to be sensible; “but I don’t believe it can
-be true.”</p>
-
-<p>“I assure you, miss,” said Sarah, who was a pert maid, such as should
-naturally belong to such young ladies, “as gardener heard it with his
-own ears, and there could be no doubt on the subject. I said, ‘My young
-ladies won’t never believe it;’ and Mr. Beaver, he said, ‘They’ll find
-as it’s too true!’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“It was very impudent of Beaver to say anything of the sort,” said Kate,
-“and you may tell him so. Now go; you don’t require to wait any longer.
-I’ll ring when I’m ready to have my hair done. Hold your tongue, Soph,
-for two minutes, till that girl’s gone. They tell everything, and they
-remember everything.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do I care?” said Sophy; “if twenty people were here I’d just say
-the same. What an awful bore, when papa had quite made up his mind to
-have Whiteladies! I should like to do something to that Herbert, if it’s
-true; and it’s sure to be true.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t believe it,” said Kate reflectively. “One often hears of these
-cases rallying just for a week or two&mdash;but there’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_143" id="page_143"></a>{143}</span> no cure for
-consumption. It would be too teasing if&mdash;but you may be sure it isn’t
-and can’t be&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Everything that is unpleasant comes true,” said Sophy. This was one of
-the sayings with which she amused her monde, and made Dropmore and the
-rest declare that “By Jove! that girl was not so soft as she looked.” “I
-think it is an awful bore for poor papa.”</p>
-
-<p>After they had exhausted this gloomy view of the subject, they began to
-look at its brighter side, if it had one.</p>
-
-<p>“After all,” said Sophy, “having Whiteladies won’t do very much for
-papa. It is clear he is not going to have an heir, and he can’t leave it
-to us; and what good would it do him, poor old thing, for the time he
-has to live?”</p>
-
-<p>“Papa is not so very old,” said Kate, “nor so very fond of us, either,
-Sophy. He wants it for himself; and so should I, if I were in his
-place.”</p>
-
-<p>“He wants it for the coming man,” said Sophy, “who won’t come. I wonder,
-for my part, that poor mamma don’t steal a child; I should in her place.
-Where would be the harm? and then everybody would be pleased.”</p>
-
-<p>“Except Everard, and whoever marries Everard.”</p>
-
-<p>“So long as that is neither you nor me,” said Sophy, laughing, “I don’t
-mind; I should rather like to spite Everard’s wife, if she’s somebody
-else. Why should men ever marry? I am sure they are a great deal better
-as they are.”</p>
-
-<p>“Speaking of marrying,” said Kate seriously, “far the best thing for you
-to do, if it is true about Herbert, is to marry <i>him</i>, Sophy. You are
-the one that is the most suitable in age. He is just a simple innocent,
-and knows nothing of the world, so you could easily have him, if you
-liked to take the trouble; and then Whiteladies would be secured, one
-way or another, and papa pleased.”</p>
-
-<p>“But me having it would not be like him having it,” said Sophy. “Would
-he be pleased? You said not just now.”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be the best that could be done,” said Kate; and then she began
-to recount to her sister certain things that Dropmore had said, and to
-ask whether Sophy thought they meant anything? which Sophy, wise in her
-sister’s concerns, however foolish in her own, did not think they did,
-though she herself had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_144" id="page_144"></a>{144}</span> certain words laid up from “Alf,” in which she
-had more faith, but which Kate scouted. “They are only amusing
-themselves,” said the elder sister. “If Herbert does get better, marry
-him, Sophy, with my blessing, and be content.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you could have Everard, and we should neither of us change our
-names, but make one charming family party&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, bosh! I hate your family parties; besides, Everard would have
-nothing in that case,” said Kate, ringing the bell for the maid, before
-whom they did not exactly continue their discussion, but launched forth
-about Dropmore and Alf.</p>
-
-<p>“There’s been some one over here from the barracks this morning,” said
-Sarah, “with a note for master. I think it was the Markis’s own man,
-miss.”</p>
-
-<p>“Whatever could it be?” cried both the sisters together, for they were
-very slipshod in their language, as the reader will perceive.</p>
-
-<p>“And Miss Kate did go all of a tremble, and her cheeks like
-strawberries,” Sarah reported in the servants’ hall, where, indeed, the
-Markis’s man had already learned that nothing but a wedding could excuse
-such goings on.</p>
-
-<p>“We ain’t such fools as we look,” that functionary had answered with a
-wink, witty as his master himself.</p>
-
-<p>I do not think that Kate, who knew the world, had any idea, after the
-first momentary thrill of curiosity, that Dropmore’s note to her father
-could contain anything of supreme importance, but it might be, and
-probably was, a proposal for some new expedition, at any one of which
-matters might come to a crisis; and she sallied forth from her room
-accordingly, in her fresh morning dress, looking a great deal fresher
-than she felt, and with a little subdued excitement in her mind. She
-went to the library, where her father generally spent his mornings, and
-gave him her cheek to kiss, and asked affectionately after his health.</p>
-
-<p>“I do hope you have no rheumatism, papa, after last night. Oh, how cold
-it was! I don’t think I shall ever let myself be persuaded to go on the
-water in an east wind again.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not till the next time Dropmore asks,” said her father, in his surliest
-voice.</p>
-
-<p>“Dropmore, oh!” Kate shrugged her shoulders. “A great deal I care for
-what he asks. By-the-bye, I believe this is his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_145" id="page_145"></a>{145}</span> cipher. Have you been
-hearing from Dropmore this morning, papa? and what does his most noble
-lordship please to want?”</p>
-
-<p>“Bah! what does it matter what he wants?” said Mr. Farrel-Austin,
-savagely. “Do you suppose I have nothing to do but act as secretary for
-your amusements? Not when I have news of my own like what I have this
-morning,” and his eye reverted to a large letter which lay before him
-with “Whiteladies” in a flowery heading above the date.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it true, then, that Herbert is better?” said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert better! rubbish! Herbert will never be better; but that old
-witch has undermined me!” cried the disappointed heir, with flashing
-eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_146" id="page_146"></a>{146}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVI" id="CHAPTER_XVI"></a>CHAPTER XVI.</h2>
-
-<p>“Papa has just heard that Herbert Austin, who has Whiteladies, you
-know&mdash;our place that is to be&mdash;is much better; and he is low about it,”
-said Sophy. “Of course, if Herbert were to get better it would be a
-great disappointment for us.”</p>
-
-<p>This speech elicited a shout of laughter from Dropmore and the rest,
-with running exclamations of “Frank, by Jove,” and “I like people who
-speak their minds.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said Sophy, “if I were to say we were all delighted, who would
-believe me? It is the most enchanting old house in the world, and a good
-property, and we have always been led to believe that he was in a
-consumption. I declare I don’t know what is bad enough for him, if he is
-going to swindle us out of it, and live.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy, you should not talk so wildly,” said mild Mrs. Austin from her
-sofa. “People will think you mean what you say.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I do,” said the girl. “I hate a cheat. Papa is quite low about it,
-and so is cousin Everard. They are down upon their luck.”</p>
-
-<p>“Am I?” said Everard, who was a little out of temper, it must be
-allowed, but chiefly because in the presence of the Guardsmen he was
-very much thrown into the shade. “I don’t know about being down on my
-luck; but it’s not a sweet expression for a young lady to use.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I don’t mind about expressions that young ladies ought to use!”
-said Sophy. A tinge of color came on her face at the reproof, but she
-tossed her pretty head, and went on all the more: “Why shouldn’t girls
-use the same words as other people do? You men want to keep the best of
-everything to yourselves&mdash;nice strong expressions and all the rest.”</p>
-
-<p>“By Jove!” said Lord Alf; “mind you, I don’t like a girl to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_147" id="page_147"></a>{147}</span> swear&mdash;it
-ain’t the thing somehow; but for a phrase like ‘down on his luck,’ or
-‘awful fun,’ or anything like that&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“And pray why shouldn’t you like a girl to swear?” said Kate. “&nbsp;‘By
-Jove,’ for instance? I like it. It gives a great deal of point to your
-conversation, Lord Alf.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, bless you, that ain’t swearing. But it don’t do. I am not very
-great at reasons; but, by Jove, you must draw the line somewhere. I
-don’t think now that a girl ought to swear.”</p>
-
-<p>“Except ‘her pretty oath of yea and nay,’&nbsp;” said Everard, who had a
-little, a very little, literature.</p>
-
-<p>The company in general stared at him, not having an idea what he meant;
-and as it is more humbling somehow to fail in a shot of this
-description, which goes over the head of your audience, than it is to
-show actual inferiority, Everard felt himself grow very red and hot, and
-feel very angry.</p>
-
-<p>The scene was the drawing-room at the Hatch, where a party of callers
-were spending the afternoon, eating bread-and-butter and drinking tea,
-and planning new delights. After this breakdown, for so he felt it,
-Everard withdrew hastily to Mrs. Austin’s sofa, and began to talk to
-her, though he did not quite know what it was about. Mild Mrs. Austin,
-though she did not understand the attempts which one or two of the
-visitors of the house had made to flirt with her, was pleased to be
-talked to, and approved of Everard, who was never noisy, though often
-“led away,” like all the others, by the foolishness of the girls.</p>
-
-<p>“I am glad you said that about this slang they talk,” said Mrs. Austin.
-“Perhaps coming from you it may have some weight with them. They do not
-mind what I say. And have you heard any more about poor Herbert? You
-must not think Mr. Austin is low about it, as they said. They only say
-such things to make people laugh.”</p>
-
-<p>This charitable interpretation arose from the poor lady’s desire to do
-the best for her step children, whom it was one of the regrets of her
-faded life, now and then breathed into the ear of a confidential friend,
-that she did not love as she ought.</p>
-
-<p>“I have only heard he is better,” said Everard; “and it is no particular
-virtue on my part to be heartily glad of it. I am not poor Herbert’s
-heir.”</p>
-
-<p>He spoke louder than he had any need to speak; for Mrs. Austin,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_148" id="page_148"></a>{148}</span> though
-an invalid, was not at all deaf. But I fear that he had a hankering to
-be heard and replied to, and called back into the chattering circle
-which had formed round the girls. Neither Kate nor Sophy, however, had
-any time at the moment to attend to Everard, whom they felt sure they
-could wheedle back at any time. He gave a glance toward them with the
-corner of his eye, and saw Kate seriously inclining her pretty pink ear
-to some barrack joke which the most noble Marquis of Dropmore was
-recounting with many interruptions of laughter; while Sophy carried on
-with Lord Alf and an applauding auditory that discussion where the line
-should be drawn, and what girls might and might not do. “I hunt whenever
-I can,” Sophy was saying; “and wish there was a ladies’ club at
-Hurlingham or somewhere; I should go in for all the prizes. And I’m sure
-I could drive your team every bit as well as you do. Oh, what I would
-give just to have the ribbons in my hand! You should see then how a drag
-could go.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard listened, deeply disgusted. He had not been in the least
-disgusted when the same sort of thing had been said to himself, but had
-laughed and applauded with the rest, feeling something quite
-irresistible in the notion of pretty Sophy’s manly longings. Her little
-delicate hands, her slim person, no weightier than a bird, the toss of
-her charming head, with its wavy, fair locks, like a flower, all soft
-color and movement, had put ineffable humor into the suggestion of those
-exploits in which she longed to emulate the heroes of the household
-brigade. But now, when Everard was outside the circle, he felt a totally
-different sentiment move him. Clouds and darkness came over his face,
-and I do not know what further severity might have come from his lips
-had not Mr. Farrel-Austin, looking still blacker than himself, come into
-the room, in a way which added very little to the harmony, though
-something to the amusement, of the party. He nodded to the visitors,
-snarled at the girls, and said something disagreeable to his wife, all
-in two minutes by the clock.</p>
-
-<p>“How can you expect to be well, if you go on drinking tea for ever and
-ever?” he said to the only harmless member of the party. “Afternoon tea
-must have been invented by the devil himself to destroy women’s nerves
-and their constitutions.” He said this as loudly and with the same
-intention as had moved Everard;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_149" id="page_149"></a>{149}</span> and he had more success, for Dropmore,
-Alf, and the rest turned round with their teacups in their hands, and
-showed their excellent teeth under their moustachios in a roar of
-laughter. “I had not the least idea I was so amusing,” said Mr. Farrel,
-sourer than ever. “Here, Everard, let me have a word with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“By Jove! he <i>is</i> down on his luck,” said Lord Alf to Sophy in an
-audible aside.</p>
-
-<p>“Didn’t I tell you so?” said the elegant young lady; “and when he’s low
-he’s always as cross as two sticks.”</p>
-
-<p>“Everard,” said Mr. Farrel-Austin, “I am going over to Whiteladies on
-business. That old witch, Susan Austin, has outwitted us both. As it is
-your interest as well as mine, you had better drive over with me&mdash;unless
-you prefer the idiocy here to all the interests of life, as some of
-these fools seem to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not I,” said Everard with much stateliness, “as you may perceive, for I
-am taking no part in it. I am quite at your service. But if it’s about
-poor Herbert, I don’t see what Miss Susan can have to do with it,” he
-added, casting a longing look behind.</p>
-
-<p>“Bah! Herbert is neither here nor there,” said the heir-presumptive.
-“You don’t suppose I put any faith in that. She has spread the rumor,
-perhaps, to confuse us and put us off the scent. These old women,” said
-Mr. Farrel with deliberate virulence, “are the very devil when they put
-their minds to it. And you are as much interested as I am, Everard, as I
-have no son&mdash;and what with the absurdity and perverseness of women,” he
-added, setting his teeth with deliberate virulence, “don’t seem likely
-to have.”</p>
-
-<p>I don’t know whether the company in the drawing-room heard this speech.
-Indeed, I do not think they could have heard it, being fully occupied by
-their own witty and graceful conversation. But there came in at this
-moment a burst of laughter which drove the two gentlemen furious in
-quite different ways, as they strode with all the dignity of ill-temper
-down stairs. Farrel-Austin did not care for the Guardsmen’s laughter in
-itself, nor was he critical of the manners of his daughters, but he was
-in a state of irritation which any trifle would have made to boil over.
-And Everard was in that condition of black disapproval which every word
-and tone increases, and to which the gayety of a laugh is the direst of
-offences. He would have laughed as gayly as any<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_150" id="page_150"></a>{150}</span> of them had he been
-seated where Lord Alf was; but being “out of it,” to use their own
-elegant language, he could see nothing but what was objectionable,
-insolent, nay, disgusting, in the sound.</p>
-
-<p>What influenced Farrel-Austin to take the young man with him, however, I
-am unable to say. Probably it was the mere suggestion of the moment, the
-congenial sight of a countenance as cloudy as his own, and perhaps a
-feeling that as (owing to the perverseness of women) their interests
-were the same, Everard might help him to unravel Miss Susan’s meaning,
-and to ascertain what foundation in reality there was for her letter
-which had disturbed him so greatly; and then Everard was the friend and
-pet of the ladies, and Farrel felt that to convey him over as his own
-second and backer up, would inflict a pang upon his antagonist; which,
-failing victory for yourself, is always a good thing to do. As for
-Everard, he went in pure despite, a most comprehensible reason, hoping
-to punish by his dignified withdrawal the little company whose offence
-was that it did not appreciate his presence. Foolish yet natural
-motive&mdash;which will continue to influence boys and girls, and even men
-and women, as long as there are two sets of us in the world; and that
-will be as long as the world lasts, I suppose.</p>
-
-<p>The two gentlemen got into the dog-cart which stood at the door, and
-dashed away across the Summer country in the lazy, drowsy afternoon, to
-Whiteladies. The wind had changed and was breathing softly from the
-west, and Summer had reconquered its power. Nothing was moving that
-could help it through all the warm and leafy country. The kine lay
-drowsy in the pastures, not caring even to graze, or stood about, the
-white ones dazzling in the sunshine, contemplating the world around in a
-meditative calm. The heat had stilled every sound, except that of the
-insects whose existence it is; and the warm grass basked, and the big
-white daisies on the roadside trembled with a still pleasure, drinking
-in the golden light into their golden hearts.</p>
-
-<p>But the roads were dusty, which was the chief thing the two men thought
-of except their business. Everard heard for the first time of the
-bargain Farrel had made with the Austins of Bruges, and did not quite
-know what to think of it, or which side to take in the matter. A
-sensation of annoyance that his companion had succeeded in finding
-people for whom he had himself<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_151" id="page_151"></a>{151}</span> made so many vain searches, was the
-first feeling that moved him. But whether he liked or did not like
-Farrel’s bargain, he could not tell. He did not like it, because he had
-no desire to see Farrel-Austin reigning at Whiteladies; and he did not
-dislike it because, on the whole, Farrel would probably make a better
-Squire than an old shopkeeper from the Netherlands; and thus his mind
-was so divided that he could not tell what he thought. But he was very
-curious about Miss Susan’s prompt action in the matter, and looked
-forward with some amusement and interest to hear what she had done, and
-how she had outwitted the expectant heir.</p>
-
-<p>This idea even beguiled his mind out of the dispositions of general
-misanthropy with which he had started. He grew eager to know all about
-it, and anticipated with positive enjoyment the encounter between the
-old lady who was the actual Squire, and his companion who was the
-prospective one. As they neared Whiteladies, too, another change took
-place in Everard. He had almost been Farrel’s partisan when they
-started, feeling in the mutual gloom, which his companion shared so
-completely, a bond of union which was very close for the moment. But
-Everard’s gloom dispersed in the excitement of this new object; in
-short, I believe the rapid movement and change of the air would of
-themselves have been enough to dispel it&mdash;whereas the gloom of the other
-deepened. And as they flew along the familiar roads, Everard felt the
-force of all the old ties which attached him to the old house and its
-inmates, and began to feel reluctant to appear before Miss Susan by the
-side of her enemy. “If you will go in first I’ll see to putting up the
-horse,” he said when they reached the house.</p>
-
-<p>“There is no occasion for putting up the horse,” said Farrel, and though
-Everard invented various other excuses for lingering behind, they were
-all ineffectual. Farrel, I suppose, had the stronger will of the two,
-and he would not relinquish the pleasure of giving a sting to Miss Susan
-by exhibiting her favorite as his backer. So the young man was forced to
-follow him whether he would or not; but it was with a total revolution
-of sentiment. “I only hope she will outwit the fellow; and make an end
-of him clean,” Everard said to himself.</p>
-
-<p>They were shown into the hall, where Miss Susan chose, for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_152" id="page_152"></a>{152}</span> some reason
-of her own, to give them audience. She appeared in a minute or two in
-her gray gown, and with a certain air of importance, and shook hands
-with them.</p>
-
-<p>“What, you here, Everard?” she said with a smile and a cordial greeting.
-“I did not look for this pleasure. But of course the business is yours
-as well as Mr. Farrel’s.” It was very seldom that Miss Susan
-condescended to add Austin to that less distinguished name.</p>
-
-<p>“I happened&mdash;to be&mdash;at the Hatch,” said Everard, faltering.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he was with my daughters; and as he was there I made him come with
-me, because of course he may have the greatest interest,” said Mr.
-Farrel, “as much interest almost as myself&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Just the same,” said Miss Susan briskly; “more indeed, because he is
-young and you are old, cousin Farrel. Sit down there, Everard, and
-listen; though having a second gentleman to hear what I have to say is
-alarming, and will make it all the harder upon me.”</p>
-
-<p>Saying this, she indicated a seat to Farrel and one to Everard (he did
-not know if it was with intention that she placed him opposite to the
-gallery with which he had so many tender associations) and seated
-herself in the most imposing chair in the room, as in a seat of
-judgment. There was a considerable tremor about her as she thus, for the
-first time, personally announced what she had done; but this did not
-appear to the men who watched her, one with affectionate interest and a
-mixture of eagerness and amusement, the other with resolute opposition,
-dislike, and fear. They thought her as stately and strong as a rock,
-informing her adversary thus, almost with a proud indifference, of the
-way in which her will had vanquished his, and were not the least aware
-of the flutter of consciousness which sometimes seemed almost to take
-away her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“I was much surprised, I need not say, by your letter,” said Farrel,
-“surprised to hear you had been at Bruges, as I know you are not given
-to travelling; and I do not know how to understand the intimation you
-send me that my arrangement with our old relative is not to stand.
-Pardon me, cousin Susan, but I cannot imagine why you should have
-interfered in the matter, or why you should prefer him to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“What has my interference to do with it?” she said, speaking<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_153" id="page_153"></a>{153}</span> slowly to
-preserve her composure; though this very expedient of her agitation made
-her appear more composed. “I had business abroad,” she went on with
-elaborate calm, “and I have always taken a great interest in these
-Austins. They are excellent people&mdash;in their way; but it can scarcely be
-supposed that I should prefer people in their way to any other. They are
-not the kind of persons to step into my father’s house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, you feel that!” said Farrel, with an expression of relief.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course I must feel that,” said Miss Susan, with that fervor of truth
-which is the most able and successful means of giving credence to a lie;
-“but what has my preference to do with it? I don’t know if they told
-you, poor old people, that the son they were mourning had left a young
-widow?&mdash;a very important fact.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know it. But what of that?”</p>
-
-<p>“What of that? You ask me so, you a married man with children of your
-own! It is very unpleasant for a lady to speak of such matters,
-especially before a young man like Everard; but of course I cannot
-shrink from performing my promise. This young widow, who is quite
-overwhelmed by her loss, is&mdash;in short, there is a baby expected. There
-now, you know the whole.”</p>
-
-<p>It was honestly unpleasant to Miss Susan, though she was a very mature,
-and indeed, old woman, to speak to the men of this, so much had the
-bloom of maidenhood, that indefinable fragrance of youthfulness which
-some unwedded people carry to the utmost extremity of old age, lingered
-in her. Her cheek colored, her eyes fell; nature came in again to lend
-an appearance of perfect verity to all she said, and, so complicated are
-our human emotions, that, at the moment, it was in reality this shy
-hesitation, so natural yet so absurd at her years, and not any
-consciousness of her guilt, which was uppermost in her mind. She cast
-down her eyes for the moment, and a sudden color came to her face; then
-she looked up again, facing Farrel, who in the trouble of his mind,
-repeating the words after her, had risen from his seat.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, “of course you will perceive that in these
-circumstances they cannot compromise themselves, but must wait the
-event. It may be a girl, of course,” Miss Susan added, steadily, “as
-likely as not; and in that case I suppose your bargain stands. We must
-all”&mdash;and here her feelings got the better of her,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_154" id="page_154"></a>{154}</span> and she drew along
-shivering breath of excitement&mdash;“await the event.”</p>
-
-<p>With this she turned to Everard, making a hasty movement of her hands
-and head as if glad to throw off an unpleasing subject. “It is some time
-since I have seen you,” she said. “I am surprised that you should have
-taken so much interest in this news as to come expressly to hear it:
-when you had no other motive&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>How glad she was to get rid of a little of her pent-up feelings by this
-assault.</p>
-
-<p>“I had another motive,” said the young man, taken by surprise, and
-somewhat aggrieved as well; “I heard Herbert was better&mdash;getting well. I
-heartily hope it is true.”</p>
-
-<p>“You heartily hope it is true? Yes, yes, I believe you do, Everard, I
-believe you do!” said Miss Susan, melting all of a sudden. She put up
-her handkerchief to her eyes to dry the tears which belonged to her
-excitement as much as the irritation. “As for getting well, there are no
-miracles nowadays, and I don’t hope it, though Augustine does, and my
-poor little Reine does, God help her. No, no, I cannot hope for that;
-but better he certainly is&mdash;for the moment. They have been able to get
-him out again, and the doctor says&mdash;Stop, I have Reine’s letter in my
-pocket; I will read you what the doctor says.”</p>
-
-<p>All this time Farrel-Austin, now bolt upright on the chair which he had
-resumed after receiving the thunderbolt, sat glooming with his eyes
-fixed on air, and his mind transfixed with this tremendous arrow. He
-gnawed his under lip, out of which the blood had gone, and clenched his
-hands furtively, with a secret wish to attack some one, but a
-consciousness that he could do nothing, which was terrible to him. He
-never for a moment doubted the truth of the intimation he had just
-received, but took it as gospel, doubting Miss Susan no more than he
-doubted the law, or any other absolutely certain thing. A righteous
-person has thus an immense advantage over all false and frivolous people
-in doing wrong as well as in other things. The man never doubted her. He
-did not care much for a lie himself, and would perhaps have shrunk from
-few deceits to secure Whiteladies for himself; but he no more suspected
-her than he suspected Heaven itself. He sat like one stunned, and gnawed
-his lip and devoured his heart in sharp disappointment, mortification,
-and pain. He did not know what<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_155" id="page_155"></a>{155}</span> to say or do in this sudden downfall
-from the security in which he had boasted himself, but sat hearing dully
-what the other two said, without caring to make out what it was. As for
-Miss Susan, she watched him narrowly, holding her breath, though she did
-nothing to betray her scrutiny. She had expected doubt, questioning,
-cross-examination; and he said nothing. In her guilty consciousness she
-could not realize that this man whom she despised and disliked could
-have faith in her, and watched him stealthily, wondering when he would
-break out into accusations and blasphemies. She was almost as wretched
-as he was, sitting there so calmly opposite to him, making conversation
-for Everard, and wondering, Was it possible he could believe her? Would
-he go off at once to find out? Would her accomplices stand fast? Her
-heart beat wildly in her sober bosom, when, feeling herself for the
-first time in the power of another, she sat and asked herself what was
-going to happen, and what Farrel-Austin could mean?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_156" id="page_156"></a>{156}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVII" id="CHAPTER_XVII"></a>CHAPTER XVII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span><span class="smcap">fter</span> affairs had come to the point described in our last chapter, when
-Miss Susan had committed herself openly to her scheme for the
-discomfiture of Farrel-Austin, and that personage had accepted, with a
-bitterness I cannot describe, the curious <i>contretemps</i> (as he thought)
-which thus thrust him aside from the heirship, of which he had been so
-certain, and made everything more indefinite than ever&mdash;there occurred a
-lull in the family story. All that could be done was to await the event
-which should determine whether a new boy was to spring of the old Austin
-stock, or the conspiracy to come to nothing in the person of a girl. All
-depended upon Providence, as Miss Susan said, with the strange mixture
-of truth and falsehood which distinguished this extraordinary episode in
-her life. She said this without a change of countenance, and it was
-absolutely true. If Providence chose to defeat her fraud, and bring all
-her wicked plans to nothing, it was still within the power of Heaven to
-do so in the most natural and simple way. In short, it thus depended
-upon Providence&mdash;she said to herself, in the extraordinary train of
-casuistical reasoning which went through her mind on this point&mdash;whether
-she really should be guilty of this wrong or not. It was a kind of
-Sortes into which she had thrown herself&mdash;much as a man might do who put
-it upon the hazard of a “toss-up” whether he should kill another man or
-not. The problematical murderer might thus hold that some power outside
-of himself had to do with his decision between crime and innocence; and
-so did Miss Susan. It was, she said to herself, within the arbitration
-of Providence&mdash;Providence alone could decide; and the guilty flutter
-with which her heart sometimes woke in her, in the uncertainty of the
-chances before her, was thus calmed down by an almost pious<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_157" id="page_157"></a>{157}</span> sense (as
-she felt it) of dependence upon “a higher hand.” I do not attempt to
-explain this curious mixture of the habits of an innocent and honorable
-and even religious mind, with the one novel and extraordinary impulse to
-a great wrong which had seized upon Miss Susan once in her life,
-without, so to speak, impairing her character, or indeed having any
-immediate effect upon its general strain. She would catch herself even
-saying a little prayer for the success of her crime sometimes, and would
-stop short with a hard-drawn breath, and such a quickening of all her
-pulses as nothing in her life had ever brought before; but generally her
-mind was calmed by the thought that as yet nothing was certain, but all
-in the hands of Providence; and that her final guilt, if she was doomed
-to be guilty, would be in some way sanctioned and justified by the
-deliberate decision of Heaven.</p>
-
-<p>This uncertainty it was, no doubt, which kept up an excitement in her,
-not painful except by moments, a strange quickening of life, which made
-the period of her temptation feel like a new era in her existence. She
-was not unhappy, neither did she feel guilty, but only excited,
-possessed by a secret spring of eagerness and intentness which made all
-life more energetic and vital. This, as I have said, was almost more
-pleasurable than painful, but in one way she paid the penalty. The new
-thing became her master-thought; she could not get rid of it for a
-moment. Whatever she was doing, whatever thinking of, this came
-constantly uppermost. It looked her in the face, so to speak, the first
-thing in the morning, and never left her but reluctantly when she went
-to sleep at the close of the day, mingling broken visions of itself even
-with her dreams, and often waking her up with a start in the dead of
-night. It haunted her like a ghost; and though it was not accompanied by
-any sense of remorse, her constant consciousness of its presence
-gradually had an effect upon her life. Her face grew anxious; she moved
-less steadily than of old; she almost gave up her knitting and such
-meditative occupations, and took to reading desperately when she was not
-immersed in business&mdash;all to escape from the thing by her side, though
-it was not in itself painful. Thus gradually, insidiously, subtly, the
-evil took possession of her life.</p>
-
-<p>As for Farrel-Austin, his temper and general sensibility were impaired
-by Miss Susan’s intimation to an incalculable degree. There was no
-living with him, all his family said. He too awaited<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_158" id="page_158"></a>{158}</span> the decision of
-Providence, yet in anything but a pious way; and poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin
-had much to bear which no one heard of.</p>
-
-<p>“Feel poorly. What is the good of your feeling poorly,” he would say to
-her with whimsical brutality. “Any other woman but you would have seen
-what was required of her. Why, even that creature at Bruges&mdash;that widow!
-It is what women were made for; and there isn’t a laborer’s wife in the
-parish but is up to as much as that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Farrel, how can you be so unkind?” the poor woman would say. “But
-if I had a little girl you would be quite as angry, and that could not
-be my fault.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have a girl if you dare!” said the furious heir-presumptive. And thus
-he awaited the decision of Providence&mdash;more innocently, but in a much
-less becoming way, than Miss Susan did. It was not a thing that was
-publicly spoken of, neither was the world in general aware what was the
-new question which had arisen between the two houses, but its effects
-were infinitely less felt in Whiteladies than in the internal comfort of
-the Hatch.</p>
-
-<p>In the midst of this <i>sourd</i> and suppressed excitement, however, the new
-possibility about Herbert, which poor Augustine had given solemn thanks
-for, but which all the experienced people had treated as folly, began to
-grow and acquire something like reality. A dying life may rally and
-flicker in the socket for a day or two, but when the improvement lasts
-for a whole month, and goes on increasing, even the greatest sceptic
-must pause and consider. It was not till Reine’s letter arrived, telling
-the doctor’s last opinion that there had always been something peculiar
-in the case, and that he could no longer say that recovery was
-impossible, that Miss Susan’s mind first really opened to the idea. She
-was by herself when this letter came, and read it, shaking her head and
-saying, “Poor child!” as usual; but when she had got to the end, Miss
-Susan made a pause and drew a long breath, and began at the beginning
-again, with a curiously awakened look in her face. In the middle of this
-second reading, she suddenly sprang up from her seat, said out loud
-(being all alone), “<i>There will be no need for it then!</i>” and burst into
-a sudden flood of tears. It was as if some fountain had opened in her
-breast; she could not stop crying, or saying things to herself, in the
-strange rapture that came upon her. “No need, no need; it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_159" id="page_159"></a>{159}</span> will not
-matter!” she said again and again, not knowing that she was speaking.</p>
-
-<p>“What will not matter?” said Augustine, who had come in softly and stood
-by, looking on with grave surprise.</p>
-
-<p>Augustine knew nothing about Bruges&mdash;not even of the existence of the
-Austins there, and less (I need not say) of the decision of Providence
-for which her sister waited. Miss Susan started to her feet and ran to
-her, and put the letter into her hand.</p>
-
-<p>“I do begin to believe the boy will get well,” she cried, her eyes once
-more overflowing.</p>
-
-<p>Her sister could not understand her excitement; she herself had made up
-her simple mind to Herbert’s certain recovery long before, when the
-first letter came.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he will recover,” she said; “I do not go by the doctor, but by my
-feelings. For some time I have been quite sure that an answer was
-coming, and Mary Matthews has said the same thing to me. We did not
-know, of course, when it would come. Yes, he will get better. Though it
-was so very discouraging, we have never ceased, never for a day&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my dear!” said Miss Susan, her heart penetrated and melting, “you
-have a right to put confidence in your prayers, for you are as good as a
-child. Pray for us all, that our sins may be forgiven us. You don’t
-know, you could not think, what evil things come into some people’s
-minds.”</p>
-
-<p>“I knew you were in temptation,” said Augustine gently; and she went
-away, asking no questions, for it was the time for her almshouses’
-service, which nothing ever was permitted to disturb.</p>
-
-<p>And the whole parish, which had shaken its head and doubted, yet was
-very ready to believe news that had a half-miraculous air, now accepted
-Herbert’s recovery as certain. “See what it is to be rich,” some of the
-people said; “if it had been one o’ our poor lads, he’d been dead years
-ago.” The people at the almshouses regarded it in a different way. Even
-the profane ones among them, like old John, who was conscious of doing
-very little to swell the prayers of the community, felt a certain pride
-in the news, as if they had something to do with the event. “We’ve
-prayed him back to life,” said old Mrs. Matthews, who was very anxious
-that some one should send an account of it to the <i>Methodist Magazine</i>,
-and had the courage to propose this step to Dr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_160" id="page_160"></a>{160}</span> Richard, who nearly
-fainted at the proposition. Almost all the old people felt a curious
-thrill of innocent vanity at having thus been instrumental in so
-important an event; but the village generally resented this view, and
-said it was like their impudence to believe that God Almighty would take
-so much notice of folks in an alms-house. Dr. Richard himself did not
-quite know what to say on the subject. He was not sure that it was “in
-good taste” to speak of it so, and he did not think the Church approved
-of any such practical identification of the benefit of her prayers. In a
-more general way, yes; but to say that Herbert’s recovery and the
-prayers of the almshouses were cause and effect was rather startling to
-him. He said to his wife that it was “Dissenterish”&mdash;a decision in which
-she fully agreed. “Very dissenterish, my dear, and not at all in good
-taste,” Mrs. Richard said.</p>
-
-<p>But while the public in general, and the older persons involved, were
-thus affected by the news, it had its effect too, in conjunction with
-other circumstances, upon the young people, who were less immediately
-under its influence. Everard Austin, who was not the heir-presumptive,
-and indeed now knew himself to be another degree off from that desirable
-position, felt nothing but joy at his cousin’s amendment; and the girls
-at the Hatch were little affected by the failure of their father’s
-immediate hopes. But other things came in to give it a certain power
-over their future lives. Kate took it so seriously upon herself to
-advise Sophy as to her future conduct in respect to the recovered
-invalid, that Sophy was inspired to double efforts for the enjoyment of
-the present moment, which might, if she accepted her sister’s
-suggestion, be all that was left to her of the pleasure she enjoyed
-most.</p>
-
-<p>“Do it myself? No; I could not do it myself,” said Kate, when they
-discussed the subject, “for he is younger than I am; you are just the
-right age for him. You will have to spend the Winters abroad,” she
-added, being of a prudent and forecasting mind, “so you need not say you
-will get no fun out of your life. Rome and those sorts of places, where
-he would be sure to be sent to, are great fun, when you get into a good
-set. You had far better make up your mind to it; for, as for Alf, he is
-no good, my dear; he is only amusing himself; you may take my word for
-that.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_161" id="page_161"></a>{161}</span></p>
-
-<p>“And so am I amusing myself,” Sophy said, her cheeks blazing with
-indignation at this uncalled-for stroke; “and, what’s more, I mean to,
-like you and Dropmore are doing. I can see as far into a milestone as
-any of you,” cried the young lady, who cared as little for grammar as
-for any other colloquial delicacies.</p>
-
-<p>And thus it was that the fun grew faster and more furious than ever; and
-these two fair sisters flew about both town and country, wherever gayety
-was going, and were seen on the top of more drags, and had more dancing,
-more flirting, and more pleasuring than two girls of unblemished
-character are often permitted to indulge in. Poor Everard was dreadfully
-“out of it” in that bruyant Summer. He had no drag, nor any particular
-way of being useful, except by boats; and, as Kate truly said, a couple
-of girls cannot drag about a man with them, even though he is their
-cousin. I do not think he would have found much fault with their gayety
-had he shared in it; and though he did find fault with their slang,
-there is a piquancy in acting as mentor to two girls so pretty which
-seems to carry its own reward with it. But Everard disapproved very much
-when he found himself left out, and easily convinced himself that they
-were going a great deal too far, and that he was grieved, annoyed, and
-even disgusted by their total departure from womanly tranquillity. He
-did not know what to do with himself in his desolate and délaissé
-condition, hankering after them and their society, and yet disapproving
-of it, and despising their friends and their pleasures, as he said to
-himself he did. He felt dreadfully, dolefully superior, after a few
-days, in his water-side cottage, and as if he could never again
-condescend to the vulgar amusements which were popular at the Hatch; and
-an impulse moved him, half from a generous and friendly motive, half on
-his own behalf, to go to Switzerland, where there was always variety to
-be had, and to join his young cousins there, and help to nurse Herbert
-back into strength and health.</p>
-
-<p>It was a very sensible reaction, though I do not think he was sensible
-of it, which made his mind turn with a sudden rebound to Reine, after
-Kate and Sophy had been unkind to him. Reine was hasty and
-high-spirited, and had made him feel now and then that she did not quite
-approve of him; but she never would have left him in the lurch, as the
-other girls had done; and he was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_162" id="page_162"></a>{162}</span> very fond of Herbert, and very glad of
-his recovery; and he wanted change: so that all these causes together
-worked him to a sudden resolution, and this was how it happened that he
-appeared all at once, without preface or announcement, in the
-Kanderthal, before the little inn, like an angel sent to help her in her
-extremity, at Reine’s moment of greatest need.</p>
-
-<p>And whether it was the general helpfulness, hopefulness, and freshness
-of the stranger, like a wholesome air from home, or whether it was a
-turning-point in the malady, I cannot tell, but Herbert began to mend
-from that very night. Everard infused a certain courage into them all.
-He relieved Reine, whose terrible disappointment had stupefied her, and
-who for the first time had utterly broken down under the strain which
-overtasked her young faculties. He roused up François, who though he
-went on steadily with his duty, was out of heart too, and had resigned
-himself to his young master’s death. “He has been as bad before, and got
-better,” Everard said, though he did not believe what he was saying; but
-he made both Reine and François believe it, and, what was still better,
-Herbert himself, who rallied and made a last desperate effort to get
-hold again of the thread of life, which was so fast slipping out of his
-languid fingers. “It is a relapse,” said Everard, “an accidental
-relapse, from the wetting; he has not really lost ground.” And to his
-own wonder he gradually saw this pious falsehood grow into a truth.</p>
-
-<p>To the great wonder of the valley too, which took so much interest in
-the poor young Englishman, and which had already settled where to bury
-him, and held itself ready at any moment to weep over the news which
-everybody expected, the next bulletin was that Herbert was better; and
-from that moment he gradually, slowly mended again, toiling back by
-languid degrees to the hopeful though invalid state from which he had
-fallen. Madame de Mirfleur arrived two days after, when the improvement
-had thoroughly set in, and she never quite realized how near death her
-son had been. He was still ill enough, however, to justify her in
-blaming herself much for having left him, and in driving poor Reine
-frantic with the inference that only in his mother’s absence could he
-have been exposed to such a danger. She did not mean to blame Reine,
-whose devotion to her brother and admirable care for him she always
-boasted of, but I think she sincerely believed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_163" id="page_163"></a>{163}</span> that under her own
-guardianship, in this point at least, her son would have been more safe.
-But the sweet bells of Reine’s nature had all been jangled out of tune
-by these events. The ordinary fate of those who look for miracles had
-befallen her: her miracle, in which she believed so firmly, had failed,
-and all heaven and earth had swung out of balance. Her head swam, and
-the world with it, swaying under her feet at every step she took.
-Everything was out of joint to Reine. She had tried to be angelically
-good, subduing every rising of temper and unkind feeling, quenching not
-only every word on her lips, but every thought in her heart, which was
-not kind and forbearing.</p>
-
-<p>But what did it matter? God had not accepted the offering of her
-goodness nor the entreaties of her prayers; He had changed His mind
-again; He had stopped short and interrupted His own work. Reine allowed
-all the old bitterness which she had tried so hard to subdue to pour
-back into her heart. When Madame de Mirfleur, going into her son’s room,
-made that speech at the door about her deep regret at having left her
-boy, the girl could not restrain herself. She burst out to Everard, who
-was standing by, the moment her mother was out of the room.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it is cruel, cruel!” she cried. “Is it likely that I would risk
-Herbert’s life&mdash;I that have only Herbert in all the world? We are
-nothing to her&mdash;nothing! in comparison with that&mdash;that gentleman she has
-married, and those babies she has,” cried poor Reine.</p>
-
-<p>It seemed somewhat absurd to Everard that she should speak with such
-bitterness of her mother’s husband; but he was kind, and consoled her.</p>
-
-<p>“Dear Reine, she did not blame you,” he said; “she only meant that she
-was sorry to have been away from you; and of course it is natural that
-she should care&mdash;a little, for her husband and her other children.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! you don’t, you cannot understand!” said Reine. “What did she want
-with a husband?&mdash;and other children? That is the whole matter. Your
-mother belongs to you, doesn’t she? or else she is not your mother.”</p>
-
-<p>When she had given forth this piece of triumphant logic with all the
-fervor and satisfaction of her French blood, Reine suddenly felt the
-shame of having betrayed herself and blamed her mother.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_164" id="page_164"></a>{164}</span> Her flushed
-face grew pale, her voice faltered. “Everard, don’t mind what I say. I
-am angry and unhappy and cross, and I don’t know what is the matter with
-me,” cried the poor child.</p>
-
-<p>“You are worn out; that is what is the matter with you,” said Everard,
-strong in English common-sense. “There is nothing that affects the
-nerves and the temper like an overstrain of your strength. You must be
-quite quiet, and let yourself be taken care of, now Herbert is better,
-and you will get all right again. Don’t cry; you are worn out, my poor
-little queen.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t call me that,” said the girl, weeping; “it makes me think of the
-happy times before he was ill, and of Aunt Susan and home.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what could you think of better?” said Everard. “By-and-by&mdash;don’t
-cry, Queeny!&mdash;the happy days will come back, and you and I will take
-Herbert home.”</p>
-
-<p>And he took her hand and held it fast, and as she went on crying, kissed
-it and said many a soft word of consolation. He was her cousin, and had
-been brought up with her; so it was natural. But I do not know what
-Everard meant, neither did he know himself: “You and I will take Herbert
-home.” The words had a curious effect upon both the young people&mdash;upon
-her who listened and he who spoke. They seemed to imply a great deal
-more than they really meant.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur did not see this little scene, which probably would
-have startled and alarmed her; but quite independently there rose up in
-her mind an idea which pleased her, and originated a new interest in her
-thoughts. It came to her as she sat watching Herbert, who was sleeping
-softly after the first airing of his renewed convalescence. He was so
-quiet and doing so well that her mind was at ease about him, and free to
-proceed to other matters; and from these thoughts of hers arose a little
-comedy in the midst of the almost tragedy which kept the little party so
-long prisoners in the soft seclusion of the Kanderthal.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_165" id="page_165"></a>{165}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVIII" id="CHAPTER_XVIII"></a>CHAPTER XVIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ADAME DE MIRFLEUR</small> had more anxieties connected with her first family
-than merely the illness of her son; she had also the fate of her
-daughter to think of, and I am not sure that the latter disquietude did
-not give her the most concern. Herbert, poor boy, could but die, which
-would be a great grief, but an end of all anxiety, whereas Reine was
-likely to live, and cause much anxiety, unless her future was properly
-cared for. Reine’s establishment in life had been a very serious thought
-to Madame de Mirfleur since the girl was about ten years old, and though
-she was only eighteen as yet, her mother knew how negligent English
-relatives are in this particular, leaving a girl’s marriage to chance,
-or what they are pleased to call Providence, or more likely her own
-silly fancy, without taking any trouble to establish her suitably in
-life. She had thought much, very much of this, and of the great
-unlikelihood, on the other hand, of Reine, with her English ways,
-submitting to her mother’s guidance in so important a matter, or
-accepting the husband whom she might choose; and if the girl was
-obstinate and threw herself back, as was most probable, on the absurd
-laisser-aller of the English, the chances were that she would never find
-a proper settlement at all. These thoughts, temporarily suspended when
-Herbert was at his worst, had come up again with double force as she
-ceased to be completely occupied by him; and when she found Everard with
-his cousins, a new impulse was given to her imagination. Madame de
-Mirfleur had known Everard more or less since his boyhood; she liked
-him, for his manners were always pleasant to women. He was of suitable
-age, birth, and disposition; and though she did not quite know the
-amount of his means, which was the most important preliminary of all, he
-could not be poor, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_166" id="page_166"></a>{166}</span> he was of no profession, and free to wander about
-the world as only rich young men can do. Madame de Mirfleur felt that it
-would be simply criminal on her part to let such an occasion slip. In
-the intervals of their nursing, accordingly, she sought Everard’s
-company, and had long talks with him when no one else was by. She was a
-pretty woman still, though she was Reine’s mother, and had all the
-graces of her nation, and that conversational skill which is so
-thoroughly French; and Everard, who liked the society of women, had not
-the least objection on his side to her companionship. In this way she
-managed to find out from him what his position was, and to form a very
-good guess at his income, and to ascertain many details of his life,
-with infinite skill, tact, and patience, and without in the least
-alarming the object of her study. She found out that he had a house of
-his own, and money enough to sound very well, indeed, if put into
-francs, which she immediately did by means of mental calculations, which
-cost her some time and a considerable effort. This, with so much more
-added to it, in the shape of Reine’s dot, would make altogether, she
-thought, a very pretty fortune; and evidently the two were made for each
-other. They had similar tastes and habits in many points; one was
-twenty-five, the other eighteen; one dark, the other fair; one impulsive
-and high-spirited, with quick French blood in her veins, the other
-tranquil, with all the English ballast necessary. Altogether, it was
-such a marriage as might have been made in heaven; and if heaven had not
-seen fit to do it, Madame de Mirfleur felt herself strong enough to
-remedy this inadvertence. It seemed to her that she would be neglecting
-her chief duty as Reine’s mother if she allowed this opportunity to slip
-through her hands. To be sure, it would have been more according to <i>les
-convenances</i>, had there been a third party at hand, a mutual friend to
-undertake the negotiation; but, failing any one else, Madame de Mirfleur
-felt that, rather than lose such an “occasion,” she must, for once,
-neglect the <i>convenances</i>, and put herself into the breach.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not understand how it is that your friends do not marry you,” she
-said one day when they were walking together. “Ah, you laugh, Monsieur
-Everard. I know that is not your English way; but believe me, it is the
-duty of the friends of every young person. It is a dangerous thing to
-choose for yourself; for how should you know what is in a young girl?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_167" id="page_167"></a>{167}</span>
-You can judge by nothing but looks and outside manners, which are very
-deceitful, while a mother or a judicious friend would sound her
-character. You condemn our French system, you others, but that is
-because you don’t know. For example, when I married my present husband,
-M. de Mirfleur, it was an affair of great deliberation. I did not think
-at first that his property was so good as I had a right to expect, and
-there was some scandal about his grandparents, which did not quite
-please me. But all that was smoothed away in process of time, and a
-personal interview convinced me that I should find in him everything
-that a reasonable woman desires. And so I do; we are as happy as the
-day. With poor Herbert’s father the affair was very different. There was
-no deliberation&mdash;no time for thought. With my present experience, had I
-known that daughters do not inherit in England, I should have drawn
-back, even at the last moment. But I was young, and my friends were not
-so prudent as they ought to have been, and we did what you call fall in
-love. Ah! it is a mistake! a mistake! In France things are a great deal
-better managed. I wish I could convert you to my views.”</p>
-
-<p>“It would be very easy for Madame de Mirfleur to convert me to
-anything,” said Everard, with a skill which he must have caught from
-her, and which, to tell the truth, occasioned himself some surprise.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, you flatter!” said the lady; “but seriously, if you will think of
-it, there are a thousand advantages on our side. For example, now, if I
-were to propose to you a charming young person whom I know&mdash;not one whom
-I have seen on the surface, but whom I know <i>au fond</i>, you
-understand&mdash;with a <i>dot</i> that would be suitable, good health, and good
-temper, and everything that is desirable in a wife? I should be sure of
-my facts, you could know nothing but the surface. Would it not then be
-much better for you to put yourself into my hands, and take my advice?”</p>
-
-<p>“I have no doubt of it,” said Everard, once more gallantly; “if I wished
-to marry, I could not do better than put myself in such skilful hands.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you wished to marry&mdash;ah, bah! if you come to that, perhaps there are
-not many who wish to marry, for that sole reason,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_168" id="page_168"></a>{168}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Pardon me; but why then should they do it?” said Everard.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, fie, fie! you are not so innocent as you appear,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Need I tell to you the many reasons? Besides, it is your duty. No man
-can be really a trustworthy member of society till he has married and
-ranged himself. It is clearly your duty to range yourself at a certain
-time of life, and accept the responsibilities that nature imposes.
-Besides, what would become of us if young men did not marry? There would
-be a mob of <i>mauvais sujets</i>, and no society at all. No, mon ami, it is
-your duty; and when I tell you I have a very charming young person in my
-eye&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I should like to see her very much. I have no doubt your taste is
-excellent, and that we should agree in most points,” said Everard, with
-a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps,” said Madame de Mirfleur, humoring him, “a very charming young
-person,” she added, seriously, “with, let us say, a hundred and fifty
-thousand francs. What would you say to that for the dot?”</p>
-
-<p>“Exactly the right sum, I have no doubt&mdash;if I had the least notion how
-much it was,” said Everard, entering into the joke, as he thought; “but,
-pardon my impatience, the young person herself&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Extremely comme il faut,” said the lady, very gravely. “You may be sure
-I should not think of proposing any one who was not of good family;
-noble, of course; that is what you call gentlefolks&mdash;you English.
-Young&mdash;at the most charming age indeed&mdash;not too young to be a companion,
-nor too old to adapt herself to your wishes. A delightful disposition,
-lively&mdash;a little impetuous, perhaps.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why this is a paragon!” said Everard, beginning to feel a slight
-uneasiness. He had not yet a notion whom she meant; but a suspicion that
-this was no joke, but earnest, began to steal over his mind: he was
-infinitely amused; but notwithstanding his curiosity and relish of the
-fun, was too honorable and delicate not to be a little afraid of letting
-it go too far. “She must be ugly to make up for so many virtues;
-otherwise how could I hope that such a bundle of excellence would even
-look at me?”</p>
-
-<p>“On the contrary, there are many people who think her pretty,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur; “perhaps I am not quite qualified<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_169" id="page_169"></a>{169}</span> to judge. She has
-charming bright eyes, good hair, good teeth, a good figure, and, I think
-I may say, a very favorable disposition, Monsieur Everard, toward you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Good heavens!” cried the young man; and he blushed hotly, and made an
-endeavor to change the subject. “I wonder if this Kanderthal is quite
-the place for Herbert,” he said hastily; “don’t you think there is a
-want of air? My own opinion is that he would be better on higher
-ground.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, probably,” said Madame de Mirfleur, smiling. “Ah, Monsieur
-Everard, you are afraid; but do not shrink so, I will not harm you. You
-are very droll, you English&mdash;what you call <i>prude</i>. I will not frighten
-you any more; but I have a regard for you, and I should like to marry
-you all the same.”</p>
-
-<p>“You do me too much honor,” said Everard, taking off his hat and making
-his best bow. Thus he tried to carry off his embarrassment; and Madame
-de Mirfleur did not want any further indication that she had gone far
-enough, but stopped instantly, and began to talk to him with all the
-ease of her nation about a hundred other subjects, so that he half
-forgot this assault upon him, or thought he had mistaken, and that it
-was merely her French way. She was so lively and amusing, indeed, that
-she completely reassured him, and brought him back to the inn in the
-best of humors with her and with himself. Reine was standing on the
-balcony as they came up, and her face brightened as he looked up and
-waved his hand to her. “It works,” Madame de Mirfleur said to herself;
-but even she felt that for a beginning she had said quite enough.</p>
-
-<p>In a few days after, to her great delight, a compatriot&mdash;a gentleman
-whom she knew, and who was acquainted with her family and
-antecedents&mdash;appeared in the Kanderthal, on his way, by the Gemmi pass,
-to the French side of Switzerland. She hailed his arrival with the
-sincerest pleasure, for, indeed, it was much more proper that a third
-party should manage the matter. M. de Bonneville was a gray-haired,
-middle-aged Frenchman, very straight and very grave, with a grizzled
-moustache and a military air. He understood her at a word, as was
-natural, and when she took him aside and explained to him all her fears
-and difficulties about Reine, and the fearful neglect of English
-relations, in this, the most important point in a girl’s life, his heart
-was touched with admiration of the true motherly solicitude thus
-confided to him.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_170" id="page_170"></a>{170}</span></p>
-
-<p>“It is not, perhaps, the moment I would have chosen,” said Madame de
-Mirfleur, putting her handkerchief to her eyes, “while my Herbert is
-still so ill; but what would you, cher Baron? My other child is equally
-dear to me; and when she gets among her English relations, I shall never
-be able to do anything for my Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“I understand, I understand,” said M. de Bonneville; “believe me, dear
-lady, I am not unworthy of so touching a confidence. I will take
-occasion to make myself acquainted with this charming young man, and I
-will seize the first opportunity of presenting the subject to him in
-such a light as you would wish.”</p>
-
-<p>“I must make you aware of all the details,” said the lady, and she
-disclosed to him the amount of Reine’s dot, which pleased M. de
-Bonneville much, and made him think, if this negotiation came to
-nothing, of a son of his own, who would find it a very agreeable
-addition to his biens. “Decidedly, Mademoiselle Reine is not a partie to
-be neglected,” he said, and made a note of all the chief points. He even
-put off his journey for three or four days, in order to be of use to his
-friend, and to see how the affair would end.</p>
-
-<p>From this time Everard found his company sought by the new-comer with a
-persistency which was very flattering. M. de Bonneville praised his
-French, and though he was conscious he did not deserve the praise, he
-was immensely flattered by it; and his new friend sought information
-upon English subjects with a serious desire to know, which pleased
-Everard still more. “I hope you are coming to England, as you want to
-know so much about it,” he said, in an Englishman’s cordial yet
-unmannerly way.</p>
-
-<p>“I propose to myself to go some time,” said the cautious Baron, thinking
-that probably if he arranged this marriage, the grateful young people
-might give him an invitation to their château in England; but he was
-very cautious, and did not begin his attack till he had known Everard
-for three days at least, which, in Switzerland, is as good as a
-friendship of years.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you stay with your cousins?” he said one day when they were walking
-up the hillside on the skirts of the Gemmi. M. de Bonneville was a
-little short of breath, and would pause frequently, not caring to
-confess this weakness, to admire the view. The valley lay stretched out
-before them like a map, the snowy hills retiring<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_171" id="page_171"></a>{171}</span> at their right hand,
-the long line of heathery broken land disappearing into the distance on
-the other, and the village, with its little bridge and wooden houses
-straggling across its river. Herbert’s wheeled chair was visible on the
-road like a child’s toy, Reine walking by her brother’s side. “It is
-beautiful, the devotion of that charming young person to her brother,”
-M. de Bonneville said, with a sudden burst of sentiment; “pardon me, it
-is too much for my feelings! Do you mean to remain with this so touching
-group, Monsieur Austin, or do you proceed to Italy, like myself?”</p>
-
-<p>“I have not made up my mind,” said Everard. “So long as I can be of any
-use to Herbert, I will stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor young man! it is to be hoped he will get better, though I fear it
-is not very probable. How sad it is, not only for himself, but for his
-charming sister! One can understand Madame de Mirfleur’s anxiety to see
-her daughter established in life.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is she anxious on that subject?” said Everard, half laughing. “I think
-she may spare herself the trouble. Reine is very young, and there is
-time enough.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is one of the points, I believe, on which our two peoples take
-different views,” said M. de Bonneville, good-humoredly. “In France it
-is considered a duty with parents to marry their children well and
-suitably&mdash;which is reasonable, you will allow, at least.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not see, I confess,” said Everard, with a little British
-indignation, “how, in such a matter, any one man can choose for another.
-It is the thing of all others in which people must please themselves.”</p>
-
-<p>“You think so? Well,” said M. de Bonneville, shrugging his shoulders,
-“the one does not hinder the other. You may still please yourself, if
-your parents are judicious and place before you a proper choice.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard said nothing. He cut down the thistles on the side of the road
-with his cane to give vent to his feelings, and mentally shrugged his
-shoulders too. What was the use of discussing such a subject with a
-Frenchman? As if they could be fit to judge, with their views!</p>
-
-<p>“In no other important matter of life,” said M. de Bonneville,
-insinuatingly, “do we allow young persons at an early age to decide<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_172" id="page_172"></a>{172}</span> for
-themselves; and this, pardon me for saying so, is the most impossible of
-all. How can a young girl of eighteen come to any wise conclusion in a
-matter so important? What can her grounds be for forming a judgment? She
-knows neither men nor life; it is not to be desired that she should. How
-then is she to judge what is best for her? Pardon me, the English are a
-very sensible people, but this is a bêtise: I can use no other word.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, sir,” said Everard, hotly, with a youthful blush, “among us we
-still believe in such a thing as love.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon jeune ami,” said his companion, “I also believe in it; but tell me,
-what is a girl to love who knows nothing? Black eyes or blue, light hair
-or dark, him who valses best, or him who sings? What does she know more?
-what do we wish the white creature to know more? But when her parents
-say to her&mdash;‘Chérie, here is some one whom with great care we have
-chosen, whom we know to be worthy of your innocence, whose sentiments
-and principles are such as do him honor, and whose birth and means are
-suitable. Love him if you can; he is worthy’&mdash;once more pardon me,” said
-M. de Bonneville, “it seems to me that this is more accordant with
-reason than to let a child decide her fate upon the experience of a
-soirée du bal. We think so in France.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard could not say much in reply to this. There rose up before him a
-recollection of Kate and Sophy mounted high on Dropmore’s drag, and
-careering over the country with that hero and his companions under the
-nominal guardianship of a young matron as rampant as themselves. They
-were perfectly able to form a judgment upon the relative merits of the
-Guardsmen; perfectly able to set himself aside coolly as nobody; which
-was, I fear, the head and front of their offending. Perhaps there were
-cases in which the Frenchman might be right.</p>
-
-<p>“The case is almost, but I do not say quite, as strong with a young
-man,” said M. de Bonneville. “Again, it is the experience of the soirée
-du bal which you would trust to in place of the anxious selection of
-friends and parents. A young girl is not a statue to be measured at a
-glance. Her excellences are modest,” said the mutual friend, growing
-enthusiastic. “She is something cachée, sacred; it is but her features,
-her least profound attractions, which can be learned in a valse or a
-party of pleasure. Mademoiselle Reine is a very charming young person,”
-he continued in a more<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_173" id="page_173"></a>{173}</span> business-like tone. “Her mother has confided to
-me her anxieties about her. I have a strong inclination to propose to
-Madame de Mirfleur my second son, Oscar, who, though I say it who should
-not, is as fine a young fellow as it is possible to see.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard stopped short in his walk, and looked at him menacingly,
-clenching his fist unawares. It was all he could do to subdue his fury
-and keep himself from pitching the old match-maker headlong down the
-hill. So that was what the specious old humbug was thinking of? His son,
-indeed; some miserable, puny Frenchman&mdash;for Reine! Everard’s blood
-boiled in his veins, and he could not help looking fiercely in his
-companion’s face; he was speechless with consternation and wrath. Reine!
-that they should discuss her like a bale of goods, and marry her
-perhaps, poor little darling!&mdash;if there was no one to interfere.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said M. de Bonneville, meditatively. “The dot is small, smaller
-than Oscar has a right to expect; but in other ways the partie is very
-suitable. It would seal an old friendship, and it would secure the
-happiness of two families. Unfortunately the post has gone to-day, but
-to-morrow I will write to Oscar and suggest it to him. I do not wish for
-a more sweet daughter-in-law than Mademoiselle Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“But can you really for a moment suppose that Reine&mdash;!” thundered forth
-the Englishman. “Good heavens! what an extraordinary way you have of
-ordering affairs! Reine, poor girl, with her brother ill, her heart
-bursting, all her mind absorbed, to be roused up in order to have some
-fine young gentleman presented to her! It is incredible&mdash;it is
-absurd&mdash;it is cruel!” said the young man, flushed with anger and
-indignation. His companion while he stormed did nothing but smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Cher Monsieur Everard,” he said, “I think I comprehend your feelings.
-Believe me, Oscar shall stand in no one’s way. If you desire to secure
-this pearl for yourself, trust to me; I will propose it to Madame de
-Mirfleur. You are about my son’s age; probably rich, as all you English
-are rich. To be sure, there is a degree of relationship between you; but
-then you are Protestants both, and it does not matter. If you will favor
-me with your confidence about preliminaries, I understand all your
-delicacy of feeling. As an old friend of the family I will venture to
-propose it to Madame de Mirfleur.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_174" id="page_174"></a>{174}</span></p>
-
-<p>“You will do nothing of the kind,” said Everard furious. “I&mdash;address
-myself to any girl by a go-between! I&mdash;insult poor Reine at such a
-moment! You may understand French delicacy of feeling, M. de Bonneville,
-but when we use such words we English mean something different. If any
-man should venture to interfere so in my private affairs&mdash;or in my
-cousin’s either for that matter&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Monsieur Everard, I think you forgot yourself,” said the Frenchman with
-dignity.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; perhaps I forget myself. I don’t mean to say anything disagreeable
-to you, for I suppose you mean no harm; but if a countryman of my own
-had presumed&mdash;had ventured&mdash;. Of course I don’t mean to use these words
-to you,” said Everard, conscious that a quarrel on such a subject with a
-man of double his age would be little desirable; “it is our different
-ways of thinking. But pray be good enough, M. de Bonneville, to say
-nothing to Madame de Mirfleur about me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Certainly not,” said the Frenchman with a smile, “if you do not wish
-it. Here is the excellence of our system, which by means of leaving the
-matter in the hands of a third party, avoids all offence or
-misunderstanding. Since you do not wish it, I will write to Oscar
-to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard gave him a look, which if looks were explosive might have blown
-him across the Gemmi. “You mistake me,” he said, not knowing what he
-said; “I will not have my cousin interfered with, any more than
-myself&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, forgive me! that is going too far,” said the Frenchman; “that is
-what you call dog in the manger. You will not eat yourself, and you
-would prevent others from eating. I have her mother’s sanction, which is
-all that is important, and my son will be here in three days. Ah! the
-sun is beginning to sink behind the hills. How beautiful is that
-rose-flush on the snow! With your permission I will turn back and make
-the descent again. The hour of sunset is never wholesome. Pardon, we
-shall meet at the table d’hôte.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard made him the very slightest possible salutation, and pursued his
-walk in a state of excitement and rage which I cannot describe. He went
-miles up the hill in his fervor of feeling, not knowing where he went.
-What! traffic in Reine&mdash;sell Reine<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_175" id="page_175"></a>{175}</span> to the best bidder; expose her to a
-cold-blooded little beast of a Frenchman, who would come and look at the
-girl to judge whether he liked her as an appendage to her dot! Everard’s
-rage and dismay carried him almost to the top of the pass before he
-discovered where he was.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_176" id="page_176"></a>{176}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIX" id="CHAPTER_XIX"></a>CHAPTER XIX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">E</span><span class="smcap">verard</span> was too late, as might have been expected, for the table d’hôte.
-When he reached the village, very tired after his long walk, he met the
-diners there, strolling about in the soft evening&mdash;the men with their
-cigars, the ladies in little groups in their evening toilettes, which
-were of an unexciting character. On the road, at a short distance from
-the hotel, he encountered Madame de Mirfleur and M. de Bonneville, no
-doubt planning the advent of M. Oscar, he thought to himself, with
-renewed fury; but, indeed, they were only talking over the failure of
-their project in respect to himself. Reine was seated in the balcony
-above, alone, looking out upon the soft night and the distant mountains,
-and soothed, I think, by the hum of voices close at hand, which mingled
-with the sound of the waterfall, and gave a sense of fellowship and
-society. Everard looked up at her and waved his hand, and begged her to
-wait till he should come. There was a new moon making her way upward in
-the pale sky, not yet quite visible behind the hills. Reine’s face was
-turned toward it with a certain wistful stillness which went to
-Everard’s heart. She was in this little world, but not of it. She had no
-part in the whisperings and laughter of those groups below. Her young
-life had been plucked out of the midst of life, as it were, and wrapped
-in the shadows of a sick-chamber, when others like her were in the full
-tide of youthful enjoyment. As Everard dived into the dining-room of the
-inn to snatch a hasty meal, the perpetual contrast which he felt himself
-to make in spite of himself, came back to his mind. I think he continued
-to have an unconscious feeling, of which he would have been ashamed had
-it been forced upon his notice or put into words, that he had himself a
-choice to make between his cousins&mdash;though how he could have chosen<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_177" id="page_177"></a>{177}</span>
-both Kate and Sophy, I am at a loss to know, and he never separated the
-two in his thoughts. When he looked, as it were, from Reine to them, he
-felt himself to descend ever so far in the scale. Those pretty gay
-creatures “enjoyed themselves” a great deal more than poor Reine had
-ever had it in her power to do. But it was no choice of Reine’s which
-thus separated her from the enjoyments of her kind&mdash;was it the mere
-force of circumstances? Everard could remember Reine as gay as a bird,
-as bright as a flower; though he could not connect any idea of her with
-drags or race-courses. He had himself rowed her on the river many a day,
-and heard her pretty French songs rising like a fresh spontaneous breeze
-of melody over the water. Now she looked to him like something above the
-common course of life&mdash;with so much in her eyes that he could not
-fathom, and such an air of thought and of emotion about her as half
-attracted, half repelled him. The emotions of Sophy and Kate were all on
-the surface&mdash;thrown off into the air in careless floods of words and
-laughter. Their sentiments were all boldly expressed; all the more
-boldly when they were sentiments of an equivocal character. He seemed to
-hear them, loud, noisy, laughing, moving about in their bright dresses,
-lawless, scorning all restraint; and then his mind recurred to the light
-figure seated overhead in the evening darkness, shadowy, dusky, silent,
-with only a soft whiteness where her face was, and not a sound to betray
-her presence. Perhaps she was weeping silently in her solitude; perhaps
-thinking unutterable thoughts; perhaps anxiously planning what she could
-do for her invalid to make him better or happier, perhaps praying for
-him. These ideas brought a moisture to Everard’s eyes. It was all a
-peradventure, but there was no peradventure, no mystery about Kate and
-Sophy; no need to wonder what they were thinking of. Their souls moved
-in so limited an orbit, and the life which they flattered themselves
-they knew so thoroughly ran in such a narrow channel, that no one who
-knew them could go far astray in calculation of what they were about;
-but Reine was unfathomable in her silence, a little world of individual
-thought and feeling, into which Everard did not know if he was worthy to
-enter, and could not divine.</p>
-
-<p>While the young man thus mused&mdash;and dined, very uncomfortably&mdash;Madame de
-Mirfleur listened to the report of her agent.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_178" id="page_178"></a>{178}</span> She had a lace shawl
-thrown over her head, over the hair which was still as brown and
-plentiful as ever, and needed no matronly covering. They walked along
-among the other groups, straying a little further than the rest, who
-stopped her from moment to moment as she went on, to ask for her son.</p>
-
-<p>“Better, much better; a thousand thanks,” she kept saying. “Really
-better; on the way to get well, I hope;” and then she would turn an
-anxious ear to M. de Bonneville. “On such matters sense is not to be
-expected from the English,” she said, with a cloud on her face; “they
-understand nothing. I could not for a moment doubt your discretion, cher
-Monsieur Bonneville; but perhaps you were a little too open with him,
-explained yourself too clearly; not that I should think for a moment of
-blaming you. They are all the same, all the same!&mdash;insensate, unable to
-comprehend.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not think my discretion was at fault,” said the Frenchman. “It is,
-as you say, an inherent inability to understand. If he had not seen the
-folly of irritating himself, I have no doubt that your young friend
-would have resorted to the brutal weapons of the English in return for
-the interest I showed him; in which case,” said M. de Bonneville,
-calmly, “I should have been under a painful necessity in respect to him.
-For your sake, Madame, I am glad that he was able to apologize and
-restrain himself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Juste ciel! that I should have brought this upon you!” cried Madame de
-Mirfleur; and it was after the little sensation caused in her mind by
-this that he ventured to suggest that other suitor for Reine.</p>
-
-<p>“My son is already sous-préfet,” he said. “He has a great career before
-him. It is a position that would suit Mademoiselle your charming
-daughter. In his official position, I need not say, a wife of
-Mademoiselle Reine’s distinction would be everything for him; and though
-we might look for more money, yet I shall willingly waive that question
-in consideration of the desirable connections my son would thus acquire;
-a mother-in-law like Madame de Mirfleur is not to be secured every day,”
-said the negotiant, bowing to his knees.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur, on her part, made such a curtsey as the Kanderthal,
-overrun by English tourists, had never seen before; and she smiled upon
-the idea of M. Oscar and his career, and felt<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_179" id="page_179"></a>{179}</span> that could she but see
-Reine the wife of a sous-préfet, the girl would be well and safely
-disposed of. But after her first exultation, a cold shiver came over
-Reine’s mother. She drew her shawl more closely round her.</p>
-
-<p>“Alas!” she said, “so far as I am concerned everything would be easy;
-but, pity me, cher Baron, pity me! Though I trust I know my duty, I
-cannot undertake for Reine. What suffering it is to have a child with
-other rules of action than those one approves of! It should be an
-example to every one not to marry out of their own country. My child is
-English to the nail-tips. I cannot help it; it is my desolation. If it
-is her fancy to find M. Oscar pleasing, all will go well; but if it is
-not, then our project will be ended; and with such uncertainty can I
-venture to bring Monsieur your son here, to this little village at the
-end of the world?”</p>
-
-<p>Thus the elder spirits communed not without serious anxiety; for Reine
-herself, and her dot and her relationships, seemed so desirable that M.
-de Bonneville did not readily give up the idea.</p>
-
-<p>“She will surely accept your recommendation,” he said, discouraged and
-surprised.</p>
-
-<p>“Alas! my dear friend, you do not understand the English,” said the
-mother. “The recommendation would be the thing which would spoil all.”</p>
-
-<p>“But then the parti you had yourself chosen&mdash;Monsieur Everard?” said the
-Frenchman, puzzled.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, cher Baron, he would have managed it all in the English way,” said
-Madame de Mirfleur, almost weeping. “I should have had no need to
-recommend. You do not know, as I do, the English way.”</p>
-
-<p>And they turned back and walked on together under the stars to the hotel
-door, where all the other groups were clustering, talking of expeditions
-past and to come. The warm evening air softened the voices and gave to
-the flitting figures, the half-visible colors, the shadowy groups, a
-refinement unknown to them in broad daylight. Reine on her balcony saw
-her mother coming back, and felt in her heart a wondering bitterness.
-Reine did not care for the tourist society in which, as in every other,
-Madame de Mirfleur made herself acquaintances and got a little
-amusement; yet she could not help feeling (as what girl could in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_180" id="page_180"></a>{180}</span>
-circumstances?) a secret sense that it was she who had a right to the
-amusement, and that her own deep and grave anxiety, the wild trembling
-of her own heart, the sadness of the future, and the burden which she
-was bearing and had to bear every day, would have been more appropriate
-to her mother, at her mother’s age, than to herself. This thought&mdash;it
-was Reine’s weakness to feel this painful antagonism toward her
-mother&mdash;had just come into a mind which had been full of better
-thoughts, when Everard came upstairs and joined her in the balcony. He
-too had met Madame de Mirfleur as he came from the hotel, and he thought
-he had heard the name “Oscar” as he passed her; so that his mind had
-received a fresh impulse, and was full of belligerent and indignant
-thoughts. He came quite softly, however, to the edge of the balcony
-where Reine was seated, and stood over her, leaning against the window,
-a dark figure, scarcely distinguishable. Reine’s heart stirred softly at
-his coming; she did not know why; she did not ask herself why; but took
-it for granted that she liked him to come, because of his kindness and
-his kinship, and because they had been brought up together, and because
-of his brotherly goodness to Herbert, and through Herbert to herself.</p>
-
-<p>“I have got an idea, Reine,” Everard said, in the quick, sharp tones of
-suppressed emotion. “I think the Kanderthal is too close; there is not
-air enough for Herbert. Let us take him up higher&mdash;that is, of course,
-if the doctor approves.”</p>
-
-<p>“I thought you liked the Kanderthal,” said Reine, raising her eyes to
-him, and touched with a visionary disappointment. It hurt her a little
-to think that he was not pleased with the place in which he had lingered
-so long for their sakes.</p>
-
-<p>“I like it well enough,” said Everard; “but it suddenly occurred to me
-to-day that, buried down here in a hole, beneath the hills, there is too
-little air for Bertie. He wants air. It seems to me that is the chief
-thing he wants. What did the doctor say?”</p>
-
-<p>“He said&mdash;what you have always said, Everard&mdash;that Bertie had regained
-his lost ground, and that this last illness was an accident, like the
-thunderstorm. It might have killed him; but as it has not killed him, it
-does him no particular harm. That sounds nonsense,” said Reine, “but it
-is what he told me. He is doing well, the doctor says&mdash;doing well; and I
-can’t be half glad&mdash;not as I ought.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_181" id="page_181"></a>{181}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Why not, Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>“I can’t tell, my heart is so heavy,” she cried, putting her hand to her
-wet eyes. “Before this&mdash;accident, as you call it&mdash;I felt, oh, so
-different! There was one night that I seemed to see and hear God
-deciding for us. I felt quite sure; there was something in the air,
-something coming down from the sky. You may laugh, Everard; but to feel
-that you are quite, quite sure that God is on your side, listening to
-you, and considering and doing what you ask&mdash;oh, you can’t tell what a
-thing it is.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t laugh, Reine; very, very far from it, dear.”</p>
-
-<p>“And then to be disappointed!” she cried; “to feel a blank come over
-everything, as if there was no one to care, as if God had forgotten or
-was thinking of something else! I am not quite so bad as that now,” she
-added, with a weary gesture; “but I feel as if it was not God, but only
-nature or chance or something, that does it. An accident, you all
-say&mdash;going out when we had better have stayed in; a chance cloud blowing
-this way, when it might have blown some other way. Oh!” cried Reine, “if
-that is all, what is the good of living? All accident, chance; Nature
-turning this way or the other; no one to sustain you if you are
-stumbling; no one to say what is to be&mdash;and it is! I do not care to
-live, I do not want to live, if this is all there is to be in the
-world.”</p>
-
-<p>She put her head down in her lap, hidden by her hands. Everard stood
-over her, deeply touched and wondering, but without a word to say. What
-could he say? It had never in his life occurred to him to think on such
-subjects. No great trouble or joy, nothing which stirs the soul to its
-depths, had ever happened to the young man in his easy existence. He had
-sailed over the sunny surface of things, and had been content. He could
-not answer anything to Reine in her first great conflict with the
-undiscovered universe&mdash;the first painful, terrible shadow that had ever
-come across her childish faith. He did not even understand the pain it
-gave her, nor how so entirely speculative a matter could give pain. But
-though he was thus prevented from feeling the higher sympathy, he was
-very sorry for his little cousin, and reverent of her in this strange
-affliction. He put his hand softly, tenderly upon her hidden head, and
-stroked it in his ignorance, as he might have consoled a child.</p>
-
-<p>“Reine, I am not good enough to say anything to you, even if<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_182" id="page_182"></a>{182}</span> I knew,”
-he said, “and I don’t know. I suppose God must always be at the bottom
-of it, whatever happens. We cannot tell or judge, can we? for, you know,
-we cannot see any more than one side. That’s all I know,” he added,
-humbly stroking once more with a tender touch the bowed head which he
-could scarcely see. How different this was from the life he had come
-from&mdash;from Madame de Mirfleur conspiring about Oscar and how to settle
-her daughter in life! Reine, he felt, was as far away from it all as
-heaven is from earth; and somehow he changed as he stood there, and felt
-a different man; though, indeed, he was not, I fear, at all different,
-and would have fallen away again in ten minutes, had the call of the
-gayer voices to which he was accustomed come upon his ear. His piety was
-of the good, honest, unthinking kind&mdash;a sort of placid, stubborn
-dependence upon unseen power and goodness, which is not to be shaken by
-any argument, and which outlasts all philosophy&mdash;thank heaven for it!&mdash;a
-good sound magnet in its way, keeping the compass right, though it may
-not possess the higher attributes of spiritual insight or faith.</p>
-
-<p>Reine was silent for a time, in the stillness that always follows an
-outburst of feeling; but in spite of herself she was consoled&mdash;consoled
-by the voice and touch which were so soft and kind, and by the steady,
-unelevated, but in its way certain, reality of his assurance. God must
-be at the bottom of it all&mdash;Everard, without thinking much on the
-subject, or feeling very much, had always a sort of dull, practical
-conviction of that; and this, like some firm strong wooden prop to lean
-against, comforted the visionary soul of Reine. She felt the solid
-strength of it a kind of support to her, though there might be, indeed,
-more faith in her aching, miserable doubt than there was in half-a-dozen
-such souls as Everard’s; yet the commonplace was a support to the
-visionary in this as in so many other things.</p>
-
-<p>“You want a change, too,” said Everard. “You are worn out. Let us go to
-some of the simple places high up among the hills. I have a selfish
-reason. I have just heard of some one coming who would&mdash;bore you very
-much. At least, he would bore me very much,” said the young man, with
-forced candor. “Let us get away before he comes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is it some one from England?” said Reine.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_183" id="page_183"></a>{183}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know where he is from&mdash;last. You don’t know him. Never mind the
-fellow; of course that’s nothing to the purpose. But I do wish Herbert
-would try a less confined air.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is strange that the doctor and you should agree so well,” said
-Reine, with a smile. “You are sure you did not put it into his head. He
-wants us to go up to Appenzell, or some such place; and Herbert is to
-take the cure des sapins and the cure de petit lait. It is a quiet
-place, where no tourists go. But, Everard, I don’t think you must come
-with us; it will be so dull for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“So what? It is evident you want me to pay you compliments. I am
-determined to go. If I must not accompany you, I will hire a private
-mule of my own with a side-saddle. Why should not I do the cure de petit
-lait too?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, because you don’t want it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Is that a reason to be given seriously to a British tourist? It is the
-very thing to make me go.”</p>
-
-<p>“Everard, you laugh; I wish I could laugh too,” said Reine. “Probably
-Herbert would get better the sooner. I feel so heavy&mdash;so serious&mdash;not
-like other girls.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were neither heavy nor serious in the old times,” said Everard,
-looking down upon her with a stirring of fondness which was not love, in
-his heart, “when you used to be scolded for being so French. Did you
-ever dine solemnly in the old hall since you grew up, Reine? It is very
-odd. I could not help looking up to the gallery, and hearing the old
-scuffle in the corner, and wondering what you thought to see me sitting
-splendid with the aunts at table. It was very bewildering. I felt like
-two people, one sitting grown-up down below, the other whispering up in
-the corner with Reine and Bertie, looking on and thinking it something
-grand and awful. I shall go there and look at you when we are all at
-home again. You have never been at Whiteladies since you were grown up,
-Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said, turning her face to him with a soft ghost of a laugh. It
-was nothing to call a laugh; yet Everard felt proud of himself for
-having so far succeeded in turning her mood. The moon was up now, and
-shining upon her, making a whiteness all about her, and throwing shadows
-of the rails of the balcony, so that Reine’s head rose as out of a cage;
-but the look she turned to him was wistful, half-beseeching, though
-Reine was not aware<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_184" id="page_184"></a>{184}</span> of it. She half put out her hand to him. He was
-helping her out of that prison of grief and anxiety and wasted youth.
-“How wonderful,” she said, “to think we were all children once, not
-afraid of anything! I can’t make it out.”</p>
-
-<p>“Speak for yourself, my queen,” said Everard. “I was always mortally
-afraid of the ghost in the great staircase. I don’t like to go up or
-down now by myself. Reine, I looked into the old playroom the last time
-I was there. It was when poor Bertie was so ill. There were all our tops
-and our bats and your music, and I don’t know what rubbish besides. It
-went to my heart. I had to rush off and do something, or I should have
-broken down and made a baby of myself.”</p>
-
-<p>A soft sob came from Reine’s throat and relieved her; a rush of tears
-came to her eyes. She looked up at him, the moon shining so whitely on
-her face, and glistening in those drops of moisture, and took his hand
-in her impulsive way and kissed it, not able to speak. The touch of
-those velvet lips on his brown hand made Everard jump. Women the least
-experienced take such a salutation sedately, like Maud in the poem; it
-comes natural. But to a man the effect is different. He grew suddenly
-red and hot, and tingling to his very hair. He took her hand in both his
-with a kind of tender rage, and knelt down and kissed it over and over,
-as if to make up by forced exaggeration for that desecration of her
-maiden lips.</p>
-
-<p>“You must not do that,” he said, quick and sharply, in tones that
-sounded almost angry; “you must never do that, Reine;” and could not get
-over it, but repeated the words, half-scolding her, half-weeping over
-her hand, till poor Reine, confused and bewildered, felt that something
-new had come to pass between them, and blushed overwhelmingly too, so
-that the moon had hard ado to keep the upper hand. She had to rise from
-her seat on the balcony before she could get her hand from him, and
-felt, as it were, another, happier, more trivial life come rushing back
-upon her in a strange maze of pleasure and apprehension, and wonder and
-shamefacedness.</p>
-
-<p>“I think I hear Bertie calling,” she said, out of the flutter and
-confusion of her heart, and went away like a ghost out of the moonlight,
-leaving Everard, come to himself, leaning against the window, and
-looking out blankly upon the night.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_185" id="page_185"></a>{185}</span></p>
-
-<p>Had he made a dreadful fool of himself? he asked, when he was thus left
-alone; then held up his hand, which she had kissed, and looked at it in
-his strange new thrill of emotion with a half-imbecile smile. He felt
-himself wondering that the place did not show in the moonlight, and at
-last put it up to his face, half-ashamed, though nobody saw him. What
-had happened to Everard? He himself could not tell.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_186" id="page_186"></a>{186}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XX" id="CHAPTER_XX"></a>CHAPTER XX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span> <small>DO</small> not know that English doctors have the gift of recommending those
-pleasant simple fictions of treatment which bring their patient face to
-face with nature, and give that greatest nurse full opportunity to try
-her powers, as Continental doctors do, in cases where medicine has
-already tried its powers and failed&mdash;the grape cure, the whey cure, the
-fir-tree cure&mdash;turning their patient as it were into the fresh air,
-among the trees, on the hillsides, and leaving the rest to the mother of
-us all. François was already strong in the opinion that his master’s
-improvement arose from the sapins that perfumed the air in the
-Kanderthal, and made a solemn music in the wind; and the cure de petit
-lait in the primitive valleys of Appenzell commended itself to the young
-fanciful party, and to Herbert himself, whose mind was extremely taken
-up by the idea. He had no sooner heard of it than he began to find the
-Kanderthal close and airless, as Everard suggested to him, and in his
-progressing convalescence the idea of a little change and novelty was
-delightful to the lad thus creeping back across the threshold of life.
-Already he felt himself no invalid, but a young man, with all a young
-man’s hopes before him. When he returned from his daily expedition in
-his chair he would get out and saunter about for ten minutes, assuming
-an easy and, as far as he could, a robust air, in front of the hotel,
-and would answer to the inquiries of the visitors that he was getting
-strong fast, and hoped soon to be all right. That interruption, however,
-to his first half-miraculous recovery had affected Herbert something in
-the same way as it affected Reine. He too had fallen out of the profound
-sense of an actual interposition of Providence in his favor, out of the
-saintliness of that resolution to be henceforward “good” beyond measure,
-by way of proving<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_187" id="page_187"></a>{187}</span> their gratitude, which had affected them both in so
-childlike a way. The whole matter had slid back to the lower level of
-ordinary agencies, nature, accident, what the doctor did and the careful
-nurses, what the patient swallowed, the equality of the temperature kept
-up in his room, and so forth.</p>
-
-<p>This shed a strange blank over it all to Herbert as well as to his
-sister. He did not seem to have the same tender and awestruck longing to
-be good. His recovery was not the same thing as it had been. He got
-better in a common way, as other men get better. He had come down from
-the soft eminence on which he had felt himself, and the change had a
-vulgarizing effect, lowering the level somehow of all his thoughts. But
-Herbert’s mind was not sufficiently visionary to feel this as a definite
-pain, as Reine did. He accepted it, sufficiently content, and perhaps
-easier on the lower level, and then to feel the springs of health
-stirring and bubbling after the long languor of deadly sickness is
-delight enough to dismiss all secondary emotions from the heart. Herbert
-was anxious to make another move, to appear before a new population, who
-would not be so sympathetic, so conscious that he had just escaped the
-jaws of death.</p>
-
-<p>“They are all a little disappointed that I did not die,” he said. “The
-village people don’t like it&mdash;they have been cheated out of their
-sensation. I should like to come back in a year or so, when I am quite
-strong, and show myself; but in the meantime let’s move on. If Everard
-stays, we shall be quite jolly enough by ourselves, we three. We shan’t
-want any other society. I am ready whenever you please.”</p>
-
-<p>As for Madame de Mirfleur, however, she was quite indisposed for this
-move. She protested on Herbert’s behalf, but was silenced by the
-physician; she protested on her own account that it was quite impossible
-she could go further off into those wilds further and further from her
-home, but was stopped by Reine, who begged her mamma not to think of
-that, since François and she had so often had the charge of Herbert.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure you will be glad to get back to M. de Mirfleur and the
-children,” Reine said with an ironical cordiality which she might have
-spared, as her mother never divined what she meant.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” Madame de Mirfleur answered quite seriously, “that is true,
-chérie. Of course I shall be glad to get home where they<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_188" id="page_188"></a>{188}</span> all want me so
-much; though M. de Mirfleur, to whom I am sorry to see you never do
-justice, has been very good and has not complained. Still the children
-are very young, and it is natural I should be anxious to get home. But
-see what happened last time when I went away,” said the mother, not
-displeased perhaps, much as she lamented its consequences, to have this
-proof of her own importance handy. “I should never forgive myself if it
-occurred again.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine grew pale and then red, moved beyond bearing, but she dared not
-say anything, and could only clench her little hands and go out to the
-balcony to keep herself from replying. Was it her fault that the
-thunder-storm came down so suddenly out of a clear sky? She was not the
-only one who had been deceived. Were there not ever so many parties on
-the mountains who came home drenched and frightened, though they had
-experienced guides with them who ought to have known the changes of the
-sky better than little Reine? Still she could not say that this might
-not have been averted had the mother been there, and thus she was driven
-frantic and escaped into the balcony and shut her lips close that she
-might not reply.</p>
-
-<p>“But I shall go with them and see them safe, for the journey, at least;
-you may confide in my discretion,” said Everard.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur gave him a look, and then looked at Reine upon the
-balcony. It was a significant glance, and filled Everard with very
-disagreeable emotions. What did the woman mean? He fell back upon the
-consciousness that she was French, which of course explained a great
-deal. French observers always have nonsensical and disagreeable thoughts
-in their mind. They never can be satisfied with what is, but must always
-carry out every line of action to its logical end&mdash;an intolerable mode
-of proceeding. Why should she look from him to Reine? Everard did not
-consider that Madame de Mirfleur had a dilemma of her own in respect to
-the two which ought to regulate her movements, and which in the meantime
-embarrassed her exceedingly. She took Reine aside, not knowing what else
-to say.</p>
-
-<p>“Chérie,” she said, for she was always kind and indulgent, and less
-moved than an English mother might have been by her child’s petulance,
-“I am not happy about this new fancy my poor Herbert and you have in the
-head&mdash;the cousin, this Everard; he is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_189" id="page_189"></a>{189}</span> very comme il faut, what you call
-<i>nice</i>, and sufficiently good-looking and young. What will any one say
-to me if I let my Reine go away wandering in lonely places with this
-young man?”</p>
-
-<p>“It is with Herbert I am going,” said Reine, hastily. “Mamma, do not
-press me too far; there are some things I could not bear. Everard is
-nothing to me,” she added, feeling her cheeks flush and a great desire
-to cry come over her. She could not laugh and take this suggestion
-lightly, easily, as she wished to do, but grew serious, and flushed, and
-angry in spite of herself.</p>
-
-<p>“My dearest, I did not suppose so,” said the mother, always kind, but
-studying the girl’s face closely with her suspicions aroused. “I must
-think of what is right for you, chérie,” she said. “It is not merely
-what one feels; Herbert is still ill; he will require to retire himself
-early, to take many precautions, to avoid the chill of evening and of
-morning, to rest at midday; and what will my Reine do then? You will be
-left with the cousin. I have every confidence in the cousin, my child;
-he is good and honorable, and will take no advantage.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma, do you think what you are saying?” said Reine, almost with
-violence; “have not you confidence in me? What have I ever done that you
-should speak like this?”</p>
-
-<p>“You have done nothing, chérie, nothing,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “Of
-course in you I have every confidence&mdash;that goes without saying; but it
-is the man who has to be thought of in such circumstances, not the young
-girl who is ignorant of the world, and who is never to blame. And then
-we must consider what people will say. You will have to pass hours alone
-with the cousin. People will say, ‘What is Madame de Mirfleur thinking
-of to leave her daughter thus unprotected?’ It will be terrible; I shall
-not know how to excuse myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it is of yourself, not of me, you are thinking,” said Reine with
-fierce calm.</p>
-
-<p>“You are unkind, my child,” said Madame de Mirfleur. “I do indeed think
-what will be said of me&mdash;that I have neglected my duty. The world will
-not blame you; they will say, ‘What could the mother be thinking of?’
-But it is on you, chérie, that the penalty would fall.”</p>
-
-<p>“You could tell the world that your daughter was English, used to
-protect herself, or rather, not needing any protection,” said<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_190" id="page_190"></a>{190}</span> Reine;
-“and that you had your husband and children to think of, and could not
-give your attention to me,” she added bitterly.</p>
-
-<p>“That is true, that is true,” said Madame de Mirfleur. The irony was
-lost upon her. Of course the husband and children were the strongest of
-all arguments in favor of leaving Reine to her own guidance; but as she
-was a conscientious woman, anxious to do justice to all her belongings,
-it may be believed that she did not make up her mind easily. Poor soul!
-not to speak of M. de Mirfleur, the babble of Jeanot and Babette, who
-never contradicted nor crossed her, in whose little lives there were no
-problems, who, so long as they were kept from having too much fruit and
-allowed to have everything else they wanted, were always pleased and
-satisfactory, naturally had a charm to their mother which these English
-children of hers, who were only half hers, and who set up so many
-independent opinions and caused her so much anxiety, were destitute of.
-Poor Madame de Mirfleur felt very deeply how different it was to have
-grown-up young people to look after, and how much easier as well as
-sweeter to have babies to pet and spoil. She sighed a very heavy sigh.
-“I must take time to think it over again,” she said. “Do not press me
-for an answer, chérie; I must think it over; though how I can go away so
-much further, or how I can let you go alone, I know not. I will take
-to-day to think of it; do not say any more to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>Now I will not say that after the scene on the balcony which I have
-recorded, there had not been a little thrill and tremor in Reine’s
-bosom, half pleasure, half fright, at the notion of going to the
-mountains in Everard’s close company; and that the idea her mother had
-suggested, that Herbert’s invalid habits must infallibly throw the other
-two much together, had not already passed through Reine’s mind with very
-considerable doubts as to the expediency of the proceeding; but as she
-was eighteen, and not a paragon of patience or any other perfection, the
-moment that Madame de Mirfleur took up this view of the question, Reine
-grew angry and felt insulted, and anxious to prove that she could walk
-through all the world by Everard’s side, or that of any other, without
-once stooping from her high maidenly indifference to all men, or
-committing herself to any foolish sentiment.</p>
-
-<p>Everard, too, had his private cogitations on the same subject. He was
-old enough to know a little, though only a very little, about<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_191" id="page_191"></a>{191}</span> himself,
-and he did ask himself in a vague, indolent sort of way, whether he was
-ready to accept the possible consequences of being shut in a mountain
-solitude like that of Appenzell, not even with Reine, dear reader, for
-he knew his own weakness, but with any pretty and pleasant girl. Half
-whimsically, he admitted to himself, carefully and with natural delicacy
-endeavoring to put away Reine personally from the question, that it was
-more than likely that he would put himself at the feet, in much less
-than six weeks, of any girl in these exceptional circumstances. And he
-tried conscientiously to ask himself whether he was prepared to accept
-the consequences, to settle down with a wife in his waterside cottage,
-on his very moderate income, or to put himself into unwelcome and
-unaccustomed harness of work in order to make that income more. Everard
-quaked and trembled, and acknowledged within himself that it would be
-much better policy to go away, and even to run the risk of being
-slighted by Kate and Sophy, who would lead him into no such danger. He
-felt that this was the thing to do; and almost made up his mind to do
-it. But in the course of the afternoon, he went out to walk by Herbert’s
-wheeled chair to the fir-trees, and instantly, without more ado or any
-hesitation, plunged into all sorts of plans for what they were to do at
-Appenzell.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear fellow,” said Herbert, laughing, “you don’t think I shall be up
-to all those climbings and raids upon the mountains? You and Reine must
-do them, while I lie under the fir-trees and drink whey. I shall watch
-you with a telescope,” said the invalid.</p>
-
-<p>“To be sure,” said Everard, cheerily; “Reine and I will have to do the
-climbing,” and this was his way of settling the question and escaping
-out of temptation. He looked at Reine, who did not venture to look at
-him, and felt his heart thrill with the prospect. How could he leave
-Herbert, who wanted him so much? he asked himself. Cheerful company was
-half the battle, and variety, and some one to laugh him out of his
-invalid fancies; and how was it to be expected that Reine could laugh
-and be cheery all by herself? It would be injurious to both brother and
-sister, he felt sure, if he left them, for Reine was already exhausted
-with the long, unassisted strain; and what would kind Aunt Susan, the
-kindest friend of his youth, say to him if he deserted the young head of
-the house?</p>
-
-<p>Thus the question was decided with a considerable divergence,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_192" id="page_192"></a>{192}</span> as will
-be perceived, between the two different lines of argument, and between
-the practical and the logical result.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur, though she was more exact in her reasonings, by
-right of her nation, than these two unphilosophical young persons,
-followed in some respect their fashion of argument, being swayed aside,
-as they were, by personal feelings. She did not at all require to think
-on the disadvantages of the projected expedition, which were as clear as
-noonday. Reine ought not, she knew, to be left alone, as she would
-constantly be, by her brother’s sickness, with Everard, whom she herself
-had selected as a most desirable parti for her daughter. To throw the
-young people thus together was against all les convenances; it was
-actually tempting them to commit some folly or other, putting the means
-into their hands, encouraging them to forget themselves. But then, on
-the other hand, Madame de Mirfleur said to herself, if the worst came to
-the worst, and they did fall absurdly in love with each other, and make
-an exhibition of themselves, there would be no great harm done, and she
-would have the ready answer to all objectors, that she had already
-chosen the young man for her daughter, and considered him as Reine’s
-fiancé. This she knew would stop all mouths. “Comme nous devons nous
-marier!” says the charming ingenue in Alfred de Musset’s pretty play,
-when her lover, half awed, half emboldened by her simplicity, wonders
-she should see no harm in the secret interview he asks. Madame de
-Mirfleur felt that if anything came of it she could silence all
-cavillers by “C’est son fiancé,” just as at present she could make an
-end of all critics by “C’est son cousin.” As for Oscar de Bonneville,
-all hopes of him were over if the party made this sudden move, and she
-must resign herself to that misfortune.</p>
-
-<p>Thus Madame de Mirfleur succeeded like the others in persuading herself
-that what she wanted to do, <i>i. e.</i>, return to her husband and children,
-and leave the young people to their own devices, was in reality the best
-and kindest thing she could do for them, and that she was securing their
-best interests at a sacrifice of her own feelings.</p>
-
-<p>It was Herbert whose office it was to extort this consent from her; but
-to him in his weakness she skimmed lightly over the difficulties of the
-situation. He could talk of nothing else, having got the excitement of
-change, like wine, into his head.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_193" id="page_193"></a>{193}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Mamma, you are not going to set yourself against it. Reine says you do
-not like it; but when you think what the doctor said&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>He was lying down for his rest after his airing, and very bright-eyed he
-looked in his excitement, and fragile, like a creature whom the wind
-might blow away.</p>
-
-<p>“I will set myself against nothing you wish, my dearest,” said his
-mother; “but you know, mon ’Erbert, how I am torn in pieces. I cannot go
-further from home. M. de Mirfleur is very good; but now that he knows
-you are better, how can I expect him to consent that I should go still
-further away?”</p>
-
-<p>“Reine will take very good care of me, petite mère,” said Herbert
-coaxingly, “and that kind fellow, Everard&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes, chéri, I know they will take care of you; though your mother
-does not like to trust you altogether even to your sister,” she said
-with a sigh; “but I must think of my Reine too,” she added. “Your kind
-Everard is a young man and Reine a young girl, a fille à marier, and if
-I leave them together with only you for a chaperon, what will everybody
-say?”</p>
-
-<p>Upon which Herbert burst into an unsteady boyish laugh. “Why, old
-Everard!” he cried; “he is Reine’s brother as much as I am. We were all
-brought up together; we were like one family.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have already told mamma so,” said Reine rising, and going to the
-window with a severe air of youthful offence, though with her heart
-beating and plunging in her breast. She had not told her mother so, and
-this Madame de Mirfleur knew, though perhaps the girl herself was not
-aware of it; but the mother was far too wise to take any advantage of
-this slip.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, my darlings,” she said, “I know it is so; I have always heard him
-spoken of so, and he is very kind to you, my Herbert, so kind that he
-makes me love him,” she said with natural tears coming to her eyes. “I
-have been thinking about it till my head aches. Even if you were to stay
-here, I could not remain much longer now you are better, and as we could
-not send him away, it would come to the same thing here. I will tell you
-what I have thought of doing. I will leave my maid, my good Julie, who
-is fond of you both, to take care of Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine turned round abruptly, with a burning blush on her face,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_194" id="page_194"></a>{194}</span> and a
-wild impulse of resistance in her heart. Was Julie to be left as a
-policeman to watch and pry, as if she, Reine, could not take care of
-herself? But the girl met her mother’s eye, which was quite serene and
-always kind, and her heart smote her for the unnecessary rebellion. She
-could not yield or restrain herself all at once, but she turned round
-again and stared out of the window, which was uncivil, but better, the
-reader will allow, than flying out in unfilial wrath.</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said Herbert, approvingly, on whom the intimation had a very
-soothing effect, “that will be a good thing, mamma, for Reine certainly
-does not take care of herself. She would wear herself to death, if I and
-Everard and François would let her. Par example!” cried the young man,
-laughing, “who is to be Julie’s chaperon? If you are afraid of Reine
-flirting with Everard, which is not her way, who is to prevent Julie
-flirting with François? And I assure you he is not all rangé, he, but a
-terrible fellow. Must I be her chaperon too?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, mon bien-aimé, how it does me good to hear you laugh!” cried Madame
-de Mirfleur, with tears in her eyes; and this joke united the little
-family more than tons of wisdom could have done; for Reine, too,
-mollified in a moment, came in from the window half-crying,
-half-laughing, to kiss her brother out of sheer gratitude to him for
-having recovered that blessed faculty. And the invalid was pleased with
-himself for the effect he had produced, and relished his own wit and
-repeated it to Everard, when he made his appearance, with fresh peals of
-laughter, which made them all the best of friends.</p>
-
-<p>The removal was accomplished two days after, Everard in the meantime
-making an expedition to that metropolitan place, Thun, which they all
-felt to be a greater emporium of luxury than London or Paris, and from
-which he brought a carriage full of comforts of every description to
-make up what might be wanting to Herbert’s ease, and to their table
-among the higher and more primitive hills. I cannot tell you how they
-travelled, dear reader, because I do not quite know which is the
-way&mdash;but they started from the Kanderthal in the big carriage Everard
-had brought from Thun, with all the people in the hotel out on the steps
-to watch them, and wave kindly farewells, and call out to them friendly
-hopes for the invalid. Madame de Mirfleur cried and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_195" id="page_195"></a>{195}</span> sobbed and smiled,
-and waved her handkerchief from her own carriage, which accompanied
-theirs a little bit of the way, when the moment of parting came. Her
-mind was satisfied when she saw Julie safe on the banquette by
-François’s side. Julie was a kind Frenchwoman of five-and-thirty, very
-indulgent to the young people, who were still children to her, and whom
-she had spoilt in her day. She had wept to think she was not going back
-to Babette, but had dried her eyes on contemplating Reine. And the young
-party themselves were not alarmed by Julie. They made great capital of
-Herbert’s joke, which was not perhaps quite so witty as they all
-thought; and thus went off with more youthful tumult, smiles, and
-excitement than the brother and sister had known for years, to the
-valleys of the High Alps and all the unknown things&mdash;life or death,
-happiness or misery&mdash;that might be awaiting them in those unknown
-regions. It would perhaps be wrong to say that they went without fear of
-one kind or another; but the fear had a thrill in it which was almost as
-good as joy.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_196" id="page_196"></a>{196}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXI" id="CHAPTER_XXI"></a>CHAPTER XXI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> news of Herbert’s second rally, and the hopeful state in which he
-was, did not create so great a sensation among his relations as the
-first had done. The people who were not so deeply interested as Reine,
-and to whom his life or death was of secondary importance, nevertheless
-shared something of her feeling. He was no longer a creature brought up
-from the edge of the grave, miraculously or semi-miraculously restored
-to life and hope, but a sick man fallen back again into the common
-conditions of nature, varying as others vary, now better, now worse, and
-probably as all had made up their mind to the worst, merely showing,
-with perhaps more force than usual, the well-known uncertainty of
-consumptive patients, blazing up in the socket with an effort which,
-though repeated, was still a last effort, and had no real hopefulness in
-it. This they all thought, from Miss Susan, who wished for his recovery,
-to Mr. Farrel-Austin, whose wishes were exactly the reverse. They
-wished, and they did not wish that he might get better; but they no
-longer believed it as possible. Even Augustine paused in her absolute
-faith, and allowed a faint wonder to cross her mind as to what was meant
-by this strange dispensation. She asked to have some sign given her
-whether or not to go on praying for Herbert’s restoration.</p>
-
-<p>“It might be that this was a token to ask no more,” she said to Dr.
-Richard, who was somewhat scandalized by the suggestion. “If it is not
-intended to save him, this may be a sign that his name should be
-mentioned no longer.” Dr. Richard, though he was not half so truly
-confident as Augustine was in the acceptability of her bedesmen’s and
-bedeswomen’s prayers, was yet deeply shocked by this idea. “So long as I
-am chaplain at the alms-houses, so long shall the poor boy be commended
-to God in every<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_197" id="page_197"></a>{197}</span> litany I say!” he declared with energy, firm as ever in
-his duty and the Church’s laws. It was dreadful to him, Dr. Richard
-said, to be thus, as it were, subordinate to a lady, liable to her
-suggestions, which were contrary to every rubric, though, indeed, he
-never took them. “I suffer much from having these suggestions made to
-me, though I thank God I have never given in&mdash;never! and never will!”
-said the old chaplain, with tremulous heroism. He bemoaned himself to
-his wife, who believed in him heartily, and comforted him, and to Miss
-Susan, who gave him a short answer, and to the rector, who chuckled and
-was delighted. “I always said it was an odd position,” he said, “but of
-course you knew when you entered upon it how you would be.” This was all
-the consolation he got, except from his wife, who always entered into
-his feelings, and stood by him on every occasion with her
-smelling-salts. And the more Miss Augustine thought that it was
-unnecessary to pray further for her nephew, the more clearly Dr. Richard
-enunciated his name every time that the Litany was said. The almshouses
-sided with the doctor, I am bound to add, in this, if not in the
-majority of subjects; and old Mrs. Matthews was one of the chief of his
-partisans, “for while there is life there is hope,” she justly said.</p>
-
-<p>But while they were thus thrown back from their first hopes about
-Herbert, Miss Susan was surprised one night by another piece of
-information, to her as exciting as anything about him could be. She had
-gone to her room one August night rather earlier than usual, though the
-hours kept by the household at Whiteladies were always early. Martha had
-gone to bed in the anteroom, where she slept within call of her
-mistress, and all the house, except Miss Susan herself, was stilled in
-slumber. Miss Susan sat wrapped in her dressing-gown, reading before she
-went to bed, as it had always been her habit to do. She had a choice of
-excellent books for this purpose on a little shelf at the side of her
-bed, each with markers in it to keep the place. They were not all
-religious literature, but good “sound reading” books, of the kind of
-which a little goes a long way. She was seated with one of these
-excellent volumes on her knee, perhaps because she was thinking over
-what she had just read, perhaps because her attention had flagged. Her
-attention, it must be allowed, had lately flagged a good deal, since she
-had an absorbing subject of thought, and she had taken<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_198" id="page_198"></a>{198}</span> to novels and
-other light reading, to her considerable disgust, finding that these
-trifling productions had more power of distracting her from her own
-contemplations than works more worth studying. She was seated thus, as I
-have said, in the big easy chair, with her feet on a foot-stool, her
-dressing-gown wrapping her in its large and loose folds, and her lamp
-burning clearly on the little table&mdash;with her book on her lap, not
-reading, but thinking&mdash;when all at once her ear was caught by the sound
-of a horse galloping heavily along the somewhat heavy road. It was not
-later than half-past ten when this happened, but half-past ten was a
-very late hour in the parish of St. Augustine. Miss Susan knew at once,
-by intuition, the moment she heard the sound, that this laborious
-messenger, floundering along upon his heavy steed, was coming to her.
-Her heart began to beat. Whiteladies was at some distance from a
-telegraph station, and she had before now received news in this way. She
-opened her window softly and looked out. It was a dark night, raining
-hard, cold and comfortless. She listened to the hoofs coming steadily,
-noisily along, and waited till the messenger appeared, as she felt sure
-he would, at the door. Then she went downstairs quickly, and undid the
-bolts and bars, and received the telegram. “Thank you; good night,” she
-said to him, mechanically, not knowing what she was about, and stumbling
-again up the dark, oaken staircase, which creaked under her foot, and
-where a ghost was said to “walk.” Miss Susan herself, though she was not
-superstitious, did not like to turn her head toward the door of the
-glazed passage, which led to the old playroom and the musicians’
-gallery. Her heart felt sick and faint within her: she believed that she
-held the news of Herbert’s death in her hand, though she had no light to
-read it, and if Herbert himself had appeared to her, standing wan and
-terrible at that door, she would not have felt surprised. Her own room
-was in a disorder which she could not account for when she reached it
-again and shut the door, for it did not at first occur to her that she
-had left the window wide open, letting in the wind, which had scattered
-her little paraphernalia about, and the rain which had made a great wet
-stain upon the old oak floor. She tore the envelope open, feeling more
-and more sick and faint, the chill of the night going through and
-through her, and a deeper chill in her heart. So deeply had one thought
-taken possession of her, that when she read<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_199" id="page_199"></a>{199}</span> the words in this startling
-missive, she could not at first make out what they meant. For it was not
-an intimation of death, but of birth. Miss Susan stared at it first, and
-then sat down in a chair and tried to understand what it meant. And this
-was what she read:</p>
-
-<p>“Dieu soit loué, un garçon. Né à deux heures et demi de l’après-midi ce
-16 Août. Loué soit le bon Dieu.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan could not move; her whole being seemed seized with cruel
-pain. “Praised be God. God be praised!” She gave a low cry, and fell on
-her knees by her bedside. Was it to echo that ascription of praise? The
-night wind blew in and blew about the flame of the lamp and of the dim
-night-light in the other corner of the room, and the rain rained in,
-making a larger and larger circle, like a pool of blood upon the floor.
-A huge shadow of Miss Susan flickered upon the opposite wall, cast by
-the waving lamp which was behind her. She lay motionless, now and then
-uttering a low, painful cry, with her face hid against the bed.</p>
-
-<p>But this could not last. She got up after awhile, and shut the window,
-and drew the curtains as before, and picked up the handkerchief, the
-letters, the little Prayer Book, which the wind had tossed about, and
-put back her book on its shelf. She had no one to speak to, and she did
-not, you may suppose, speak to herself, though a strong impulse moved
-her to go and wake Martha; not that she could have confided in Martha,
-but only to have the comfort of a human face to look at, and a voice to
-say something to her, different from that “Dieu soit loué&mdash;loué soit le
-bon Dieu,” which seemed to ring in her ears. But Miss Susan knew that
-Martha would be cross if she were roused, and that no one in the
-peaceful house would do more than stare at this information she had
-received; no one would take the least interest in it for itself, and no
-one, no one! could tell what it was to her. She was very cold, but she
-could not go to bed; the hoofs of the horse receding into the distance
-seemed to keep echoing into her ears long after they must have got out
-of hearing; every creak of the oaken boards, as she walked up and down,
-seemed to be some voice calling to her. And how the old boards creaked!
-like so many spectators, ancestors, old honorable people of the house,
-crowding round to look at the one who had brought dishonor into it. Miss
-Susan had met with no punishment for her wicked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_200" id="page_200"></a>{200}</span> plan up to this time.
-It had given her excitement, nothing more, but now the deferred penalty
-had come. She walked about on the creaking boards afraid of them, and
-terrified at the sound, in such a restless anguish as I cannot describe.
-Up to this time kind chance, or gracious Providence, might have made her
-conspiracy null; but neither God nor accident (how does a woman who has
-done wrong know which word to use?) had stepped in to help her. And now
-it was irremediable, past her power or any one’s to annul the evil. And
-the worst of all was those words which the old man in Bruges, who was
-her dupe and not her accomplice, had repeated in his innocence, that the
-name of the new-born might have God’s name on either side to protect it.
-“Dieu soit loué!” she repeated to herself, shuddering. She seemed to
-hear it repeated to all round, not piously, but mockingly, shouted at
-her by eldrich voices. “Praised be God! God be praised!” for what? for
-the accomplishment of a lie, a cheat, a conspiracy! Miss Susan’s limbs
-trembled under her. She could not tell how it was that the vengeance of
-heaven did not fall and crush the old house which had never before
-sheltered such a crime. But Augustine was asleep, praying in her sleep
-like an angel, under the same old roof, offering up continual
-adorations, innocent worship for the expiation of some visionary sins
-which nobody knew anything of; would they answer for the wiping away of
-her sister’s sin which was so real? Miss Susan walked up and down all
-the long night. She lay down on her bed toward morning, chiefly that no
-one might see how deeply agitated she had been, and when Martha got up
-at the usual hour asked for a cup of tea to restore her a little. “I
-have not been feeling quite well,” said Miss Susan, to anticipate any
-remarks as to her wan looks.</p>
-
-<p>“So I was afraid, miss,” said Martha, “but I thought as you’d call me if
-you wanted anything.” This lukewarm devotion made Miss Susan smile.</p>
-
-<p>Notwithstanding all her sufferings, however, she wrote a letter to Mr.
-Farrel-Austin that morning, and sent it by a private messenger,
-enclosing her telegram, so undeniably genuine, with a few accompanying
-words. “I am afraid you will not be exhilarated by this intelligence,”
-she wrote, “though I confess for my part it gives me pleasure, as
-continuing the family in the old stock. But anyhow, I feel it is my duty
-to forward it to you. It is curious to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_201" id="page_201"></a>{201}</span> think,” she added, “that but for
-your kind researches, I might never have found out these Austins of
-Bruges.” This letter Miss Susan sealed with her big Whiteladies seal,
-and enclosed the telegram in a large envelope. And she went about all
-her ordinary occupations that day, and looked and even felt very much as
-usual. “I had rather a disturbed night, and could not sleep,” she said
-by way of explanation of the look of exhaustion she was conscious of.
-And she wrote to old Guillaume Austin of Bruges a very kind and friendly
-letter, congratulating him, and hoping that, if she had the misfortune
-to lose her nephew (who, however, she was very happy to tell him, was
-much better), his little grandson might long and worthily fill the place
-of master of Whiteladies. It was a letter which old Guillaume translated
-with infinite care and some use of the dictionary, not only to his
-family, but also to his principal customers, astonishing them by the
-news of his good fortune. To be sure his poor Gertrude, his daughter,
-was mourning the loss of her baby, born on the same day as his
-daughter-in-law’s fine boy, but which had not survived its birth. She
-was very sad about it, poor child; but still that was a sorrow which
-would glide imperceptibly away, while this great joy and pride and honor
-would remain.</p>
-
-<p>I need not tell how Mr. Farrel-Austin tore his hair. He received his
-cousin Susan’s intimation of the fact that it was he who had discovered
-the Austins of Bruges for her with an indescribable dismay and rage, and
-showed the telegram to his wife, grinding his teeth at her. “Every poor
-wretch in the world&mdash;except you!” he cried, till poor Mrs. Farrel-Austin
-shrank and wept. There was nothing he would not have done to show his
-rage and despite, but he could do nothing except bully his wife and his
-servants. His daughters were quite matches for him, and would not be
-bullied. They were scarcely interested in the news of a new heir.
-“Herbert being better, what does it matter?” said Kate and Sophy. “I
-could understand your being in a state of mind about him. It <i>is</i> hard,
-after calculating upon the property, to have him get better in spite of
-you,” said one of these young ladies, with the frankness natural to her
-kind; “but what does it matter now if there were a whole regiment of
-babies in the way? Isn’t a miss as good as a mile?” This philosophy did
-not affect the wrathful and dissatisfied man, who had no faith in
-Herbert’s recovery&mdash;but it satisfied<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_202" id="page_202"></a>{202}</span> the girls, who thought papa was
-getting really too bad; yet, as they managed to get most things they
-wanted, were not particularly impressed even by the loss of Whiteladies.
-“What with Herbert getting better and this new baby, whoever it is, I
-suppose old Susan will be in great fig,” the one sister said. “I wish
-them joy of their old tumbledown hole of a place,” said the other; and
-so their lament was made for their vanished hope.</p>
-
-<p>Thus life passed on with all the personages involved in this history.
-The only other incident that happened just then was one which concerned
-the little party in Switzerland. Everard was summoned home in haste,
-when he had scarcely done more than escort his cousins to their new
-quarters, and so that little romance, if it had ever been likely to come
-to a romance, was nipped in the bud. He had to come back about business,
-which, with the unoccupied and moderately rich, means almost invariably
-bad fortune. His money, not too much to start with, had been invested in
-doubtful hands; and when he reached England he found that he had lost
-half of it by the delinquency of a manager who had run away with his
-money, and that of a great many people besides. Everard, deprived at a
-blow of half his income, was fain to take the first employment that
-offered, which was a mission to the West Indies, to look after property
-there, partly his own, partly belonging to his fellow-sufferers, which
-had been allowed to drop into that specially hopeless Slough of Despond
-which seems natural to West Indian affairs. He went away, poor fellow,
-feeling that life had changed totally for him, and leaving behind both
-the dreams and the reality of existence. His careless days were all
-over. What he had to think of now was how to save the little that
-remained to him, and do his duty by the others who, on no good grounds,
-only because he had been energetic and ready, had intrusted their
-interests to him. Why they should have trusted him, who knew nothing of
-business, and whose only qualification was that gentlemanly vagabondage
-which is always ready to go off to the end of the world at a moment’s
-notice, Everard could not tell; but he meant to do his best, if only to
-secure some other occupation for himself when this job was done.</p>
-
-<p>This was rather a sad interruption, in many ways, to the young man’s
-careless life; and they all felt it as a shock. He left Herbert under
-the pine-trees, weak but hopeful, looking as if any<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_203" id="page_203"></a>{203}</span> breeze might make
-an end of him, so fragile was he, the soul shining through him almost
-visibly, yet an air of recovery about him which gave all lookers-on a
-tremulous confidence; and Reine, with moisture in her eyes which she did
-not try to conceal, and an ache in her heart which she did conceal, but
-poorly. Everard had taken his cousin’s privilege, and kissed her on the
-forehead when he went away, trying not to think of the deep blush which
-surged up to the roots of her hair. But poor Reine saw him go with a
-pang which she could disclose to nobody, and which at first seemed to
-fill her heart too full of pain to be kept down. She had not realized,
-till he was gone, how great a place he had taken in her little world;
-and the surprise was as great as the pain. How dreary the valley looked,
-how lonely her life when his carriage drove away down the hill to the
-world! How the Alpine heights seemed to close in, and the very sky to
-contract! Only a few days before, when they arrived, everything had
-looked so different. Now even the friendly tourists of the Kanderthal
-would have been some relief to the dead blank of solitude which closed
-over Reine. She had her brother, as always, to nurse and care for, and
-watch daily and hourly on his passage back to life, and many were the
-forlorn moments when she asked herself what did she want more? what had
-she ever desired more? Many and many a day had Reine prayed, and pledged
-herself in her prayers, to be contented with anything, if Herbert was
-but spared to her; and now Herbert was spared and getting better&mdash;yet
-lo! she was miserable. The poor girl had a tough battle to fight with
-herself in that lonely Swiss valley, but she stood to her arms, even
-when capable of little more, and kept up her courage so heroically, that
-when, for the first time, Herbert wrote a little note to Everard as he
-had promised, he assured the traveller that he had scarcely missed him,
-Reine had been so bright and so kind. When Reine read this little
-letter, she felt a pang of mingled pain and pleasure. She had not
-betrayed herself. “But it is a little unkind to Everard to say I have
-been so bright since his going,” she said, feeling her voice thick with
-tears. “Oh, he will not mind,” said Herbert, lightly, “and you know it
-is true. After all, though he was a delightful companion, there is
-nothing so sweet as being by ourselves,” the sick boy added, with
-undoubting confidence. “Oh, what a trickster I am!” poor Reine said to
-herself; and she kissed him, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_204" id="page_204"></a>{204}</span> told him that she hoped he would think
-so always, always! which Herbert promised in sheer lightness of heart.</p>
-
-<p>And thus we leave this helpless pair, like the rest, to themselves for a
-year; Herbert to get better as he could, Reine to fight her battle out,
-and win it so far, and recover the calm of use and wont. Eventually the
-sky widened to her, and the hills drew farther off, and the oppression
-loosened from her heart. She took Herbert to Italy in October, still
-mending; and wrote long and frequent letters about him to Whiteladies,
-boasting of his walks and increasing strength, and promising that next
-Summer he should go home. I don’t want the reader to think that Reine
-had altogether lost her heart during this brief episode. It came back to
-her after awhile, having been only vagrant, errant, as young hearts will
-be by times. She had but learned to know, for the first time in her
-life, what a difference happens in this world according to the presence
-or absence of one being; how such a one can fill up the space and
-pervade the atmosphere; and how, suddenly going, he seems to carry
-everything away with him. Her battle and struggle and pain were half
-owing to the shame and distress with which she found out that a man
-could do this, and had done it, though only for a few days, to herself;
-leaving her in a kind of blank despair when he was gone. But she got rid
-of this feeling (or thought she did), and the world settled back into
-its right proportions, and she said to herself that she was again her
-own mistress. Yet there were moments when the stars were shining, when
-the twilight was falling, when the moon was up&mdash;or sometimes in the very
-heat of the day, when a sensible young woman has no right to give way to
-folly&mdash;when Reine all at once would feel not her own mistress, and the
-world again would all melt away to make room for one shadow. As the
-Winter passed, however, she got the better of this sensation daily, she
-was glad to think. To be sure there was no reason why she should not
-think of Everard if she liked; but her main duty was to take care of
-Herbert, and to feel, once more, if she could, as she had once felt, and
-as she still professed to feel, poor child, in her prayers, that if
-Herbert only lived she would ask for nothing more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_205" id="page_205"></a>{205}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXII" id="CHAPTER_XXII"></a>CHAPTER XXII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span><span class="smcap">bout</span> two years after the events I have just described, in the Autumn,
-when life was low and dreary at Whiteladies, a new and unexpected
-visitor arrived at the old house. Herbert and his sister had not come
-home that Summer, as they had hoped&mdash;nor even the next. He was better,
-almost out of the doctor’s hands, having taken, it was evident, a new
-lease of life. But he was not strong, nor could ever be; his life,
-though renewed, and though it might now last for years, could never be
-anything but that of an invalid. So much all his advisers had granted.
-He might last as long as any of the vigorous persons round him, by dint
-of care and constant watchfulness; but it was not likely that he could
-ever be a strong man like others, or that he could live without taking
-care of himself, or being taken care of. This, which they would all have
-hailed with gratitude while he was very ill, seemed but a pale kind of
-blessedness now when it was assured, and when it became certain his
-existence must be spent in thinking about his health, in moving from one
-place to another as the season went on, according as this place or the
-other “agreed with him,” seeking the cool in Summer and the warmth in
-Winter, with no likelihood of ever being delivered from this bondage. He
-had scarcely found this out himself, poor fellow, but still entertained
-hopes of getting strong, at some future moment always indefinitely
-postponed. He had not been quite strong enough to venture upon England
-during the Summer, much as he had looked forward to it; and though in
-the meantime he had come of age, and nominally assumed the control of
-his own affairs, the celebration of this coming of age had been a dreary
-business enough. Farrel-Austin, looking black as night, and feeling
-himself a man swindled and cheated out of his rights, had been present
-at the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_206" id="page_206"></a>{206}</span> dinner of the tenantry, in spite of himself, and with sentiments
-toward Herbert which may be divined; and with only such dismal pretence
-at delight as could be shown by the family solicitor, whose head was
-full of other things, the rejoicings had passed over. There had been a
-great field-day, indeed, at the almshouse chapel, where the old people,
-with their cracked voices, tried to chant Psalms xx. and xxi., and were
-much bewildered in their old souls as to whom “the king” might be whose
-desire of his heart they thus prayed God to grant. Mrs. Matthews alone,
-who was more learned, theologically, than her neighbors, having been
-brought up a Methody, professed to some understanding of it; but even
-she was wonderfully confused between King David and a greater than he,
-and poor young Herbert, whose birthday it was. “He may be the squire, if
-you please, and if so be as he lives,” said old Sarah, who was Mrs.
-Matthews’s rival, “many’s the time I’ve nursed him, and carried him
-about in my arms, and who should know if I don’t? But there ain’t no
-power in this world as can make young Mr. Herbert king o’ England, so
-long as the Prince o’ Wales is to the fore, and the rest o’ them. If
-Miss Augustine was to swear to it, I knows better; and you can tell her
-that from me.”</p>
-
-<p>“He can’t be King o’ England,” said Mrs. Matthews, “neither me nor Miss
-Augustine thinks of anything of the kind. It’s awful to see such
-ignorance o’ spiritual meanings. What’s the Bible but spiritual
-meanings? You don’t take the blessed Word right off according to what it
-says.”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s the difference between you and me,” said old Sarah, boldly. “I
-does; and I hope I practise my Bible, instead of turning of it off into
-any kind of meanings. I’ve always heard as that was one of the
-differences atween Methodies and good steady Church folks.”</p>
-
-<p>“Husht, husht, here’s the doctor a-coming,” said old Mrs. Tolladay, who
-kept the peace between the parties, but liked to tell the story of their
-conflicts afterward to any understanding ear. “I dunno much about how
-Mr. Herbert, poor lad, could be the King myself,” she said to the vicar,
-who was one of her frequent auditors, and who dearly liked a joke about
-the almshouses, which were a kind of <i>imperium in imperio</i>, a separate
-principality within his natural dominions; “but Miss Augustine<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_207" id="page_207"></a>{207}</span> warn’t
-meaning that. If she’s queer, she ain’t a rebel nor nothing o’ that
-sort, but says her prayers for the Queen regular, like the rest of us.
-As for meanings, Tolladay says to me, we’ve no call to go searching for
-meanings like them two, but just to do what we’re told, as is the whole
-duty of man, me and Tolladay says. As for them two, they’re as good as a
-play. ‘King David was ’im as had all his desires granted ’im, and long
-life and help out o’ Zion,’ said Mrs. Matthews. ‘And a nice person he
-was to have all his wants,’ says old Sarah. I’d ha’ shut my door pretty
-fast in the man’s face, if he’d come here asking help, I can tell you.
-Call him a king if you please, but I calls him no better nor the rest&mdash;a
-peepin’ and a spyin’&mdash;’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“What did she mean by that?” asked the vicar, amused, but wondering.</p>
-
-<p>“&nbsp;’Cause of the woman as was a-washing of herself, sir,” said Mrs.
-Tolladay, modestly looking down. “Sarah can’t abide him for that; but I
-says as maybe it was a strange sight so long agone. Folks wasn’t so
-thoughtful of washings and so forth in old times. When I was in service
-myself, which is a good bit since, there wasn’t near the fuss about
-baths as there is nowadays, not even among the gentlefolks. Says Mrs.
-Matthews, ‘He was a man after God’s own heart, he was.’ ‘I ain’t a-goin’
-to find fault with my Maker, it ain’t my place,’ says Sarah; ‘but I
-don’t approve o’ his taste.’ And that’s as true as I stand here. She’s a
-bold woman, is old Sarah. There’s many as might think it, but few as
-would say it. Anyhow, I can’t get it out o’ my mind as it was somehow
-Mr. Herbert as we was a chanting of, and never King David. Poor man,
-he’s dead this years and years,” said Mrs. Tolladay, “and you know, as
-well as me, sir, that there are no devices nor labors found, nor wisdom,
-as the hymn says, underneath the ground.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, Mrs. Tolladay,” said the vicar, who had laughed his laugh out,
-and bethought himself of what was due to his profession, “let us hope
-that young Mr. Austin’s desires will all be good ones, and that so we
-may pray God to give them to him, without anything amiss coming of it.”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s just what I say, sir,” said Mrs. Tolladay, “it’s for all the
-world like the toasts as used to be the fashion in my young days, when
-folks drank not to your health, as they do now, but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_208" id="page_208"></a>{208}</span> to your wishes, if
-so be as they were vartuous. Many a time that’s been done to me, when I
-was a young girl; and I am sure,” she added with a curtsey, taking the
-glass of wine with which the vicar usually rewarded the amusement her
-gossip gave him, “as I may say that to you and not be afraid; I drink to
-your wishes, sir.”</p>
-
-<p>“As long as they are virtuous,” said the vicar, laughing; and for a long
-time after he was very fond of retailing old Sarah’s difference of
-opinion with her Maker, which perhaps the gentle reader may have heard
-attributed to a much more important person.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan gave the almshouse people a gorgeous supper in the evening,
-at which I am grieved to say old John Simmons had more beer than was
-good for him, and volunteered a song, to the great horror of the
-chaplain and the chaplain’s wife, and many spectators from the village
-who had come to see the poor old souls enjoying this unusual festivity.
-“Let him sing if he likes,” old Sarah cried, who was herself a little
-jovial. “It’s something for you to tell, you as comes a-finding fault
-and a-prying at poor old folks enjoying themselves once in a way.” “Let
-them stare,” said Mrs. Matthews, for once backing up her rival; “it’ll
-do ’em good to see that we ain’t wild beasts a-feeding, but poor folks
-as well off as rich folks, which ain’t common.” “No it ain’t, misses;
-you’re right there,” said the table by general consent; and after this
-the spectators slunk away. But I am obliged to admit that John Simmons
-was irrepressible, and groaned out a verse of song which ran into a
-deplorable chorus, in which several of the old men joined in the elation
-of their hearts&mdash;but by means of their wives and other authorities
-suffered for it next day.</p>
-
-<p>Thus Herbert’s birthday passed without Herbert, who was up among the
-pines again, breathing in their odors and getting strong, as they all
-said, though not strong enough to come home. Herbert enjoyed this lazy
-and languid existence well enough, poor fellow; but Reine since that
-prick of fuller and warmer life came momentarily to her, had not enjoyed
-it. She had lost her pretty color, except at moments when she was
-excited, and her eyes had grown bigger, and had that wistful look in
-them which comes when a girl has begun to look out into the world from
-her little circle of individuality, and to wonder what real life is
-like, with longing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_209" id="page_209"></a>{209}</span> to try its dangers. In a boy, this longing is the
-best thing that can be, inspiriting him to exertion; but in a girl, what
-shape can it take but a longing for some one who will open the door of
-living to her, and lead her out into the big world, of which girls too,
-like boys, form such exaggerated hopes? Reine was not thinking of any
-one in particular, she said to herself often; but her life had grown
-just a little weary to her, and felt small and limited and poor, and as
-if it must go on in the same monotony forever and ever. There came a
-nameless, restless sense upon her of looking for something that might
-happen at any moment, which is the greatest mental trouble young woman
-have to encounter, who are obliged to be passive, not active, in
-settling their own fate. I remember hearing a high-spirited and fanciful
-girl, who had been dreadfully sobered by her plunge into marriage,
-declare the chief advantage of that condition to be&mdash;that you had no
-longer any restlessness of expectation, but had come down to reality,
-and knew all that was ever to come of you, and at length could fathom at
-once the necessity and the philosophy of content. This is, perhaps,
-rather a dreary view to take of the subject; but, however, Reine was in
-the troublous state of expectation, which this young woman declared to
-be thus put an end to. She was as a young man often is, whose friends
-keep him back from active occupation, wondering whether this flat round
-was to go on forever, or whether next moment, round the next corner,
-there might not be something waiting which would change her whole life.</p>
-
-<p>As for Miss Susan and her sister, they went on living at Whiteladies as
-of old. The management of the estate had been, to some extent, taken out
-of Miss Susan’s hands at Herbert’s majority, but as she had done
-everything for it for years, and knew more about it than anybody else,
-she was still so much consulted and referred to that the difference was
-scarcely more than in name. Herbert had written “a beautiful letter” to
-his aunts when he came of age, begging them not so much as to think of
-any change, and declaring that even were he able to come home,
-Whiteladies would not be itself to him unless the dear White ladies of
-his childhood were in it as of old. “That is all very well,” said Miss
-Susan, “but if he gets well enough to marry, poor boy, which pray God he
-may, he will want his house to himself.” Augustine took no notice at all
-of the matter. To her it was of no importance where she lived; a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_210" id="page_210"></a>{210}</span> room
-in the Almshouses would have pleased her as well as the most sumptuous
-chamber, so long as she was kept free from all domestic business, and
-could go and come, and muse and pray as she would. She gave the letter
-back to her sister without a word on its chief subject. “His wife should
-be warned of the curse that is on the house,” she said with a soft sigh;
-and that was all.</p>
-
-<p>“The curse, Austine?” said Miss Susan with a little shiver. “You have
-turned it away, dear, if it ever existed. How can you speak of a curse
-when this poor boy is spared, and is going to live?”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not turned away, it is only suspended,” said Augustine. “I feel
-it still hanging like a sword over us. If we relax in our prayers, in
-our efforts to make up, as much as we can, for the evil done, any day it
-may fall.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan shivered once more; a tremulous chill ran over her. She was
-much stronger, much more sensible of the two; but what has that to do
-with such a question? especially with the consciousness she had in her
-heart. This consciousness, however, had been getting lighter and
-lighter, as Herbert grew stronger and stronger. She had sinned, but God
-was so good to her that He was making her sin of no effect, following
-her wickedness, to her great joy, not by shame or exposure, as He might
-so well have done, but by His blessing which neutralized it altogether.
-Thinking over it for all these many days, now that it seemed likely to
-do no practical harm to any one, perhaps it was not, after all, so great
-a sin. Three people only were involved in the guilt of it; and the
-guilt, after all, was but a deception. Deceptions are practised
-everywhere, often even by good people, Miss Susan argued with herself,
-and this was one which, at present, could scarcely be said to harm
-anybody, and which, even in the worst of circumstances, was not an
-actual turning away of justice, but rather a lawless righting, by means
-of a falsehood, of a legal wrong which was false to nature. Casuistry is
-a science which it is easy to learn. The most simple minds become adepts
-in it; the most virtuous persons find a refuge there when necessity
-moves them. Talk of Jesuitry! as if this art was not far more universal
-than that maligned body, spreading where they were never heard of, and
-lying close to every one of us! As time went on Miss Susan might have
-taken a degree in it&mdash;mistress of the art&mdash;though there<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_211" id="page_211"></a>{211}</span> was nobody who
-knew her in all the country round, who would not have sworn by her
-straightforwardness and downright truth and honor. And what with this
-useful philosophy, and what with Herbert’s recovery, the burden had gone
-off her soul gradually; and by this time she had so put her visit to
-Bruges, and the telegrams and subsequent letters she had received on the
-same subject out of her mind, that it seemed to her, when she thought of
-it, like an uneasy dream, which she was glad to forget, but which had no
-more weight than a dream upon her living and the course of events. She
-had been able to deal Farrel-Austin a good downright blow by means of
-it: and though Miss Susan was a good woman, she was not sorry for that.
-And all the rest had come to nothing&mdash;it had done no harm to any one, at
-least, no harm to speak of&mdash;nothing that had not been got over long ago.
-Old Austin’s daughter, Gertrude, the fair young matron whom Miss Susan
-had seen at Bruges, had already had another baby, and no doubt had
-forgotten the little one she lost; and the little boy, who was Herbert’s
-heir presumptive, was the delight and pride of his grandfather and of
-all the house. So what harm was done? The burden grew lighter and
-lighter, as she asked herself this question, at Miss Susan’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>One day in this Autumn there came, however, as I have said, a change and
-interruption to these thoughts. It was October, and though there is no
-finer month sometimes in our changeable English climate, October can be
-chill enough when it pleases, as all the world knows. It was not a time
-of the year favorable, at least when the season was wet, to the country
-about Whiteladies. To be sure, the wealth of trees took on lovely tints
-of Autumn colors when you could see them; but when it rained day after
-day, as it did that season, every wood and byway was choked up with
-fallen leaves; the gardens were all strewn with them; the heaviness of
-decaying vegetation was in the air; and everything looked dismal,
-ragged, and worn out. The very world seemed going to pieces, rending off
-its garments piecemeal, and letting them rot at its melancholy feet. The
-rain poured down out of the heavy skies as if it would never end. The
-night fell soon on the ashamed and pallid day. The gardener at
-Whiteladies swept his lawn all day long, but never got clear of those
-rags and scraps of foliage which every wind loosened. Berks was like a
-dissipated old-young<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_212" id="page_212"></a>{212}</span> man, worn out before his time. On one of those
-dismal evenings, Augustine was coming from the Evening Service at the
-almshouses in the dark, just before nightfall. With her gray hood over
-her head, and her hands folded into her great gray sleeves, she looked
-like a ghost gliding through the perturbed and ragged world; but she was
-a comfortable ghost, her peculiar dress suiting the season. As she came
-along the road, for the byway through the fields was impassable, she saw
-before her another shrouded figure, not gray as she was, but black,
-wrapped in a great hooded cloak, and stumbling forward against the rain
-and wind. I will not undertake to say that Augustine’s visionary eyes
-noticed her closely; but any unfamiliar figure makes itself remarked on
-a country road, where generally every figure is most familiar. This
-woman was unusually tall, and she was evidently a stranger. She carried
-a child in her arms, and stopped at every house and at every turning to
-look eagerly about her, as if looking for something or some one, in a
-strange place. She went along more and more slowly, till Augustine,
-walking on in her uninterrupted, steady way, turning neither to the
-right nor to the left hand, came up to her. The stranger had seen her
-coming, and, I suppose, Augustine’s dress had awakened hopes of succor
-in her mind, bearing some resemblance to the religious garb which was
-well known to her. At length, when the leafy road which led to the side
-door of Whiteladies struck off from the highway, bewildering her
-utterly, she stood still at the corner and waited for the approach of
-the other wayfarer, the only one visible in all this silent, rural
-place. “Ma sœur!” she said softly, to attract her attention. Then
-touching Augustine’s long gray sleeve, stammered in English, “I lost my
-way. Ma sœur, aidez-moi pour l’amour de Dieu!”</p>
-
-<p>“You are a stranger,” said Augustine; “you want to find some one? I will
-help you if I can. Where is it you want to go?”</p>
-
-<p>The woman looked at her searchingly, which was but a trick of her
-imperfect English, to make out by study of her face and lips, as well as
-by hearing, what she said. Her child began to cry, and she hushed it
-impatiently, speaking roughly to the curiously-dressed creature, which
-had a little cap of black stuff closely tied down under its chin. Then
-she said once more, employing the name evidently as a talisman to secure
-attention, “Ma sœur! I want Viteladies; can you tell me where it
-is?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_213" id="page_213"></a>{213}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Whiteladies!”</p>
-
-<p>“That is the name. I am very fatigued, and a stranger, ma sœur.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you are very fatigued and a stranger, you shall come to Whiteladies,
-whatever you want there,” said Augustine. “I am going to the house now;
-come with me&mdash;by this way.”</p>
-
-<p>She turned into Priory Lane, the old avenue, where they were soon
-ankle-deep in fallen leaves. The child wailed on the woman’s shoulder,
-and she shook it, lightly indeed, but harshly. “Tais-toi donc, petit
-sot!” she said sharply; then turning with the ingratiating tone she had
-used before. “We are very fatigued, ma sœur. We have come over the
-sea. I know little English. What I have learn, I learn all by myself,
-that no one know. I come to London, and then to Viteladies. It is a long
-way.”</p>
-
-<p>“And why do you want to come to Whiteladies?” said Augustine. “It was a
-strange place to think of&mdash;though I will never send a stranger and a
-tired person away without food and rest, at least. But what has brought
-you here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! I must not tell it, my story; it is a strange story. I come to see
-one old lady, who other times did come to see me. She will not know me,
-perhaps; but she will know my name. My name is like her own. It is
-Austin, ma sœur.”</p>
-
-<p>“Osteng?” said Augustine, struck with surprise; “that is not my name.
-Ah, you are French, to be sure. You mean Austin? You have the same name
-as we have; who are you, then? I have never seen you before.”</p>
-
-<p>“You, ma sœur! but it was not you. It was a lady more stout, more
-large, not religious. Ah, no, not you; but another. There are, perhaps,
-many lady in the house?”</p>
-
-<p>“It may be my sister you mean,” said Augustine; and she opened the gate
-and led up to the porch, where on this wet and chilly day there was no
-token of the warm inhabited look it bore in Summer. There was scarcely
-any curiosity roused in her mind, but a certain pity for the tired
-creature whom she took in, opening the door, as Christabel took in the
-mysterious lady. “There is a step, take care,” said Augustine holding
-out her hand to the stranger, who grasped at it to keep herself from
-stumbling. It was almost dark, and the glimmer from the casement of the
-long, many-cornered passage, with its red floor, scarcely gave light<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_214" id="page_214"></a>{214}</span>
-enough to make the way visible. “Ah, merci, ma sœur!” said the
-stranger, “I shall not forget that you have brought me in, when I was
-fatigued and nearly dead.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do not thank me,” said Augustine; “if you know my sister you have a
-right to come in; but I always help the weary; do not thank me. I do it
-to take away the curse from the house.”</p>
-
-<p>The stranger did not know what she meant, but stood by her in the dark,
-drawing a long, hard breath, and staring at her with dark, mysterious,
-almost menacing, eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_215" id="page_215"></a>{215}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXIII.</h2>
-
-<p>“Here is some one, Susan, who knows you,” said Augustine, introducing
-the newcomer into the drawing-room where her sister sat. It was a
-wainscoted room, very handsome and warm in its brown panelling, in which
-the firelight shone reflected. There was a bright fire, and the room
-doubled itself by means of a large mirror over the mantelpiece, antique
-like the house, shining out of black wood and burnished brass. Miss
-Susan sat by the fire with her knitting, framing one of those elaborate
-meshes of casuistry which I have already referred to. The table close by
-her was heaped with books, drawings for the chantry, and for the
-improvement of an old house in the neighborhood which she had bought in
-order to be independent, whatever accidents might happen. She was more
-tranquil than usual in the quiet of her thoughts, having made an effort
-to dismiss the more painful subject altogether, and to think only of the
-immediate future as it appeared now in the light of Herbert’s recovery.
-She was thinking how to improve the house she had bought, which at
-present bore the unmeaning title of St. Augustine’s Grange, and which
-she mirthfully announced her intention of calling Gray-womans, as a
-variation upon Whiteladies. Miss Susan was sixty, and pretended to no
-lingering of youthfulness; but she was so strong and full of life that
-nobody thought of her as an old woman, and though she professed, as
-persons of her age do, to have but a small amount of life left, she had
-no real feeling to this effect (as few have), and was thinking of her
-future house and planning conveniences for it as carefully as if she
-expected to live in it for a hundred years. If she had been doing this
-with the immediate prospect of leaving Whiteladies before her, probably
-she might have felt a certain pain; but as she had no idea<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_216" id="page_216"></a>{216}</span> of leaving
-Whiteladies, there was nothing to disturb the pleasure with which almost
-every mind plans and plots the arrangement of a house. It is one of the
-things which everybody likes to attempt, each of us having a confidence
-that we shall succeed in it. By the fire which felt so warmly pleasant
-in contrast with the grayness without, having just decided with
-satisfaction that it was late enough to have the lamp lighted, the
-curtains drawn, and the grayness shut out altogether; and with the moral
-consolation about her of having got rid of her spectre, and of having
-been happily saved from all consequences of her wickedness, Miss Susan
-sat pondering her new house, and knitting her shawl, mind and hands
-alike occupied, and as near being happy as most women of sixty ever
-succeed in being. She turned round with a smile as Augustine spoke.</p>
-
-<p>I cannot describe the curious shock and sense as of a stunning blow that
-came all at once upon her. She did not recognize the woman, whom she had
-scarcely seen, nor did she realize at all what was to follow. The
-stranger stood in the full light, throwing back the hood of her cloak
-which had been drawn over her bonnet. She was very tall, slight, and
-dark. Who was she? It was easier to tell what she was. No one so
-remarkable in appearance had entered the old house for years. She was
-not pretty or handsome only, but beautiful, with fine features and great
-dark, flashing, mysterious eyes; not a creature to be overlooked or
-passed with slighting notice. Unconsciously as she looked at her, Miss
-Susan rose to her feet in instinctive homage to her beauty, which was
-like that of a princess. Who was she? The startled woman could not tell,
-yet felt somehow, not only that she knew her, but that she had known of
-her arrival all her life, and was prepared for it, although she could
-not tell what it meant. She stood up and faced her faltering, and said,
-“This lady&mdash;knows me? but, pardon me, I don’t know you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; it is this one,” said the stranger. “You not know me, Madame? You
-see me at my beau-père’s house at Bruges. Ah! you remember now. And this
-is your child,” she said suddenly, with a significant smile, putting
-down the baby by Miss Susan’s feet. “I have brought him to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” Miss Susan said with a suppressed cry. She looked helplessly from
-one to the other for a moment, holding up her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_217" id="page_217"></a>{217}</span> hands as if in appeal to
-all the world against this sudden and extraordinary visitor. “You
-are&mdash;Madame Austin,” she said still faltering, “their son’s wife? Yes.
-Forgive me for not knowing you,” she said, “I hope&mdash;you are better now?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I am well,” said the young woman, sitting down abruptly. The
-child, which was about two years old, gave a crow of delight at sight of
-the fire, and crept toward it instantly on his hands and knees. Both the
-baby and the mother seemed to take possession at once of the place. She
-began to undo and throw back on Miss Susan’s pretty velvet-covered
-chairs her wet cloak, and taking off her bonnet laid it on the table, on
-the plans of the new house. The boy, for his part, dragged himself over
-the great soft rug to the fender, where he sat down triumphant, holding
-his baby hands to the fire. His cap, which was made like a little
-night-cap of black stuff, with a border of coarse white lace very full
-round his face, such as French and Flemish children wear, was a
-headdress worn in-doors, and out-of-doors and not to be taken off&mdash;but
-he kicked himself free of the shawl in which he had been enveloped on
-his way to the fender. Augustine stood in her abstract way behind, not
-noticing much and waiting only to see if anything was wanted of her;
-while Miss Susan, deeply agitated, and not knowing what to say or do,
-stood also, dispossessed, looking from the child to the woman, and from
-the woman to the child.</p>
-
-<p>“You have come from Bruges?” she said, rousing herself to talk a little,
-yet in such a confusion of mind that she did not know what she said.
-“You have had bad weather, unfortunately. You speak English? My French
-is so bad that I am glad of that.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know ver’ little,” said the stranger. “I have learn all alone, that
-nobody might know. I have planned it for long time to get a little
-change. Enfant, tais-toi; he is bad; he is disagreeable; but it is to
-you he owes his existence, and I have brought him to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“You do not mean to give him a bad character, poor little thing,” Miss
-Susan said with a forced smile. “Take care, take care, baby!”</p>
-
-<p>“He will not take care. He likes to play with fire, and he does not
-understand you,” said the woman, with almost a look of pleasure. Miss
-Susan seized the child and, drawing him away<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_218" id="page_218"></a>{218}</span> from the fender, placed
-him on the rug; and then the house echoed with a lusty cry, that
-startling cry of childhood which is so appalling to the solitary. Miss
-Susan, desperate and dismayed, tried what she could to amend her
-mistake. She took the handsomest book on the table in her agitation and
-thrust its pictures at him; she essayed to take him on her lap; she
-rushed to a cabinet and got out some curiosities to amuse him. “Dear,
-dear! cannot you pacify him?” she said at last. Augustine had turned
-away and gone out of the room, which was a relief.</p>
-
-<p>“He does not care for me,” said the woman with a smile, leaning back in
-her chair and stretching out her feet to the fire. “Sometimes he will
-scream only when he catches sight of me. I brought him to you;&mdash;his
-aunt,” she added meaningly, “Madame knows&mdash;Gertrude, who lost her
-baby&mdash;can manage him, but not me. He is your child, Madame of the
-Viteladies. I bring him to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, heaven help me! heaven help me!” cried Miss Susan wringing her
-hands.</p>
-
-<p>However, after awhile the baby fell into a state of quiet, pondering
-something, and at last, overcome by the warmth, fell fast asleep, a
-deliverance for which Miss Susan was more thankful than I can say. “But
-he will catch cold in his wet clothes,” she said bending over him, not
-able to shut out from her heart a thrill of natural kindness as she
-looked at the little flushed face surrounded by its closely-tied cap,
-and the little sturdy fat legs thrust out from under his petticoats.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nothing will harm him,” said the mother, and with again a laugh
-that rang harshly. She pushed the child a little aside with her foot,
-not for his convenience, but her own. “It is warm here,” she added, “he
-likes it, and so do I.”</p>
-
-<p>Then there was a pause. The stranger eyed Miss Susan with a
-half-mocking, defiant look, and Miss Susan, disturbed and unhappy,
-looked at her, wondering what had brought her, what her object was, and
-oh! when it would be possible to get her away!</p>
-
-<p>“You have come to England&mdash;to see it?” she asked, “for pleasure? to
-visit your friends? or perhaps on business? I am surprised that you
-should have found an out-of-the-way place like this.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_219" id="page_219"></a>{219}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I sought it,” said the new-comer. “I found the name on a letter and
-then in a book, and so got here. I have come to see <i>you</i>.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is very kind of you, I am sure,” said Miss Susan, more and more
-troubled. “Do you know many people in England? We shall, of course, be
-very glad to have you for a little while, but Whiteladies is
-not&mdash;amusing&mdash;at this time of the year.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know nobody&mdash;but you,” said the stranger again. She sat with her
-great eyes fixed upon Miss Susan, who faltered and trembled under their
-steady gaze, leaning back in her chair, stretching out her feet to the
-fire with the air of one entirely at home, and determined to be
-comfortable. She never took her eyes from Miss Susan’s face, and there
-was a slight smile on her lip.</p>
-
-<p>“Listen,” she said. “It was not possible any longer there. They always
-hated me. Whatever I said or did, it was wrong. They could not put me
-out, for others would have cried shame. They quarreled with me and
-scolded me, sometimes ten times in a day. Ah, yes. I was not a log of
-wood. I scolded, too; and we all hated each other. But they love the
-child. So I thought to come away, and bring the child to you. It is you
-that have done it, and you should have it; and it is I, madame knows,
-that have the only right to dispose of it. It is I&mdash;you acknowledge
-that?”</p>
-
-<p>Heaven and earth! was it possible that the woman meant anything like
-what she said? “You have had a quarrel with them,” said Miss Susan,
-pretending to take it lightly, falling at every word into a tremor she
-could not restrain. “Ah! that happens sometimes, but fortunately it does
-not last. If I can be of any use to make it up, I will do anything I
-can.”</p>
-
-<p>As she spoke she tried to return, and to overcome, if possible, the
-steady gaze of the other; but this was not an effort of which Miss Susan
-was capable. The strange, beautiful creature, who looked like some being
-of a new species treading this unaccustomed soil, looked calmly at her
-and smiled again.</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said, “you will keep me here; that will be change, what I
-lofe. I will know your friends. I will be as your daughter. You will not
-send me back to that place where they hate me. I like this better. I
-will stay here, and be a daughter to you.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan grew pale to her very lips; her sin had found her out. “You
-say so because you are angry,” she said, trembling; “but they are your
-friends; they have been kind to you. This is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_220" id="page_220"></a>{220}</span> not really my house, but
-my nephew’s, and I cannot pretend to have&mdash;any right to you; though what
-you say is very kind,” she added, with a shiver. “I will write to M.
-Austin, and you will pay us a short visit, for we are dull here&mdash;and
-then you will go back to your home. I know you would not like the life
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall try,” said the stranger composedly. “I like a room like this,
-and a warm, beautiful house; and you have many servants and are rich.
-Ah, madame must not be too modest. She <i>has</i> a right to me&mdash;and the
-child. She will be my second mother, I know it. I shall be very happy
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan trembled more and more. “Indeed you are deceiving yourself,”
-she said. “Indeed, I could not set myself against Mousheer Austin, your
-father-in-law. Indeed, indeed&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“And indeed, indeed!” said her visitor. “Yes; you have best right to the
-child. The child is yours&mdash;and I cannot be separated from him. Am not I
-his mother?” she said, with a mocking light on her face, and laughed&mdash;a
-laugh which was in reality very musical and pleasant, but which sounded
-to Miss Susan like the laugh of a fiend.</p>
-
-<p>And then there came a pause; for Miss Susan, at her wits’ end, did not
-know what to say. The child lay with one little foot kicked out at full
-length, the other dimpled knee bent, his little face flushed in the
-firelight, fast asleep at their feet; the wet shawl in which he had been
-wrapped steaming and smoking in the heat; and the tall, fine figure of
-the young woman, slim and graceful, thrown back in the easy-chair in
-absolute repose and comfort. Though Miss Susan stood on her own hearth,
-and these two were intruders, aliens, it was she who hesitated and
-trembled, and the other who was calm and full of easy good-humor. She
-lay back in her chair as if she had lived there all her life; she
-stretched herself out before the welcome fire; she smiled upon the
-mistress of the house with benign indifference. “You would not separate
-the mother and the child,” she repeated. “That would be worse than to
-separate husband and wife.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan wrung her hands in despair. “For a little while I shall
-be&mdash;glad to have you,” she said, putting force on herself; “for a&mdash;week
-or two&mdash;a fortnight. But for a longer time I cannot promise. I am going
-to leave this house.”</p>
-
-<p>“One house is like another to me,” said the stranger. “I will<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_221" id="page_221"></a>{221}</span> go with
-you where you go. You will be good to me and the child.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Miss Susan! This second Ruth looked at her dismay unmoved, nay,
-with a certain air of half humorous amusement. She was not afraid of
-her, nor of being turned away. She held possession with the bold
-security of one who, she knows, cannot be rejected. “I shall not be dull
-or fatigued of you, for you will be kind; and where you go I will go,”
-she repeated, in Ruth’s very words; while Miss Susan’s heart sank, sank
-into the very depths of despair. What could she do or say? Should she
-give up her resistance for the moment, and wait to see what time would
-bring forth? or should she, however difficult it was, stand out now at
-the beginning, and turn away the unwelcome visitor? At that moment,
-however, while she tried to make up her mind to the severest measures, a
-blast of rain came against the window, and moaned and groaned in the
-chimneys of the old house. To turn a woman and a child out into such a
-night was impossible; they must stay at least till morning, whatever
-they did more.</p>
-
-<p>“And I should like something to eat,” said the stranger, stretching her
-arms above her head with natural but not elegant freedom, and distorting
-her beautiful face with a great yawn. “I am very fatigued; and then I
-should like to wash myself and rest.”</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps it is too late to do anything else to-night,” said Miss Susan,
-with a troubled countenance; “to-morrow we must talk further; and I
-think you will see that it will be better to go back where you are
-known&mdash;among your friends&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; never go back!” she cried. “I will go where you go; that is, I
-will not change any more. I will stay with you&mdash;and the child.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan rang the bell with an agitated hand, which conveyed strange
-tremors even to the sound of the bell, and let the kitchen, if not into
-her secret, at least into the knowledge that there was a secret, and
-something mysterious going on. Martha ran to answer the summons, pushing
-old Stevens out of the way. “If it’s anything particular, it’s me as my
-lady wants,” Martha said, moved to double zeal by curiosity; and a more
-curious scene had never been seen by wondering eyes of domestic at
-Whiteladies than that which Martha saw. The stranger lying back in her
-chair, yawning and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_222" id="page_222"></a>{222}</span> stretching her arms; Miss Susan standing opposite,
-with black care upon her brow; and at their feet between them, roasting,
-as Martha said, in front of the fire, the rosy baby with its odd dress,
-thrown down like a bundle on the rug. Martha gave a scream at sight of
-the child. “Lord! it’s a baby! and summun will tread on’t!” she cried,
-with her eyes starting out of her head.</p>
-
-<p>“Hold your tongue, you foolish woman,” cried Miss Susan; “do you think I
-will tread on the child? It is sleeping, poor little thing. Go at once,
-and make ready the East room; light a fire, and make everything
-comfortable. This&mdash;lady&mdash;is going to stay all night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes&mdash;every night,” interposed the visitor, with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“You hear what I say to you, Martha,” said Miss Susan, seeing that her
-maid turned gaping to the other speaker. “The East room, directly; and
-there is a child’s bed, isn’t there, somewhere in the house?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, sure, Miss Susan; Master Herbert’s, as he had when he come first,
-and Miss Reine’s, but that’s bigger, as it’s the one she slept in at ten
-years old, afore you give her the little dressing-room; and then there’s
-an old cradle&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want a list of all the old furniture in the house,” cried Miss
-Susan, cutting Martha short, “and get a bath ready and some food for the
-child. Everything is to be done to make&mdash;this lady&mdash;comfortable&mdash;for the
-night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! I knew Madame would be a mother to me,” cried the stranger,
-suddenly rising up, and folding her unwilling hostess in an unexpected
-and unwelcome embrace. Miss Susan, half-resisting, felt her cheek touch
-the new-comer’s damp and somewhat rough black woollen gown with
-sensations which I cannot describe. Utter dismay took possession of her
-soul. The punishment of her sin had taken form and shape; it was no
-longer to be escaped from. What should she do, what could she do? She
-withdrew herself almost roughly from the hold of her captor, which was
-powerful enough to require an effort to get free, and shook her collar
-straight, and her hair, which had been deranged by this unexpected sign
-of affection. “Let everything be got ready at once,” she said, turning
-with peremptory tones to Martha, who had witnessed, with much dismay and
-surprise, her mistress’s discomfiture. The wind sighed and groaned in
-the great chimney, as if it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_223" id="page_223"></a>{223}</span> sympathized with her trouble, and blew
-noisy blasts of rain against the windows. Miss Susan suppressed the
-thrill of hot impatience and longing to turn this new-comer to the door
-which moved her. It could not be done to-night. Nothing could warrant
-her in turning out her worst enemy to the mercy of the elements
-to-night.</p>
-
-<p>That was the strangest night that had been passed in Whiteladies for
-years. The stranger dined with the ladies in the old hall, which
-astonished her, but which she thought ugly and cold. “It is a church; it
-is not a room,” she said, with a shiver. “I do not like to eat in a
-church.” Afterward, however, when she saw Augustine sit down, whom she
-watched wonderingly, she sat down also. “If ma sœur does it, I may do
-it,” she said. But she did a great many things at table which disgusted
-Miss Susan, who could think of nothing else but this strange intruder.
-She ate up her gravy with a piece of bread, pursuing the savory liquid
-round her plate. She declined to allow her knife and fork to be changed,
-to the great horror of Stevens. She addressed that correct and
-high-class servant familiarly as “my friend”&mdash;translating faithfully
-from her natural tongue&mdash;and drawing him into the conversation; a
-liberty which Stevens on his own account was not indisposed to take, but
-which he scorned to be led into by a stranger. Miss Susan breathed at
-last when her visitor was taken upstairs to bed. She went with her
-solemnly, and ushered her into the bright, luxurious English room, with
-its blazing fire, and warm curtains and soft carpet. The young woman’s
-eyes opened wide with wonder. “I lofe this,” she said, basking before
-the fire, and kissed Miss Susan again, notwithstanding her resistance.
-There was no one in the house so tall, not even Stevens, and to resist
-her effectually was not in anybody’s power at Whiteladies. The child had
-been carried upstairs, and lay, still dressed, fast asleep upon the bed.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall I stay, ma’am, and help the&mdash;lady&mdash;with the chyild?” said Martha,
-in a whisper.</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; she will know how to manage it herself,” said Miss Susan, not
-caring that any of the household should see too much of the stranger.</p>
-
-<p>A curious, foreign-looking box, with many iron clamps and bands, had
-been brought from the railway in the interval. The candles were lighted,
-the fire burning, the kettle boiling on the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_224" id="page_224"></a>{224}</span> hob, and a plentiful supply
-of bread and milk for the baby when it woke. What more could be
-required? Miss Susan left her undesired guests with a sense of relief,
-which, alas, was very short-lived. She had escaped, indeed, for the
-moment; but the prospect before her was so terrible, that her very heart
-sickened at it. What was she to do? She was in this woman’s power; in
-the power of a reckless creature, who could by a word hold her up to
-shame and bitter disgrace; who could take away from her all the honor
-she had earned in her long, honorable life, and leave a stigma upon her
-very grave. What could she do to get rid of her, to send her back again
-to her relations, to get her out of the desecrated house? Miss Susan’s
-state of mind, on this dreadful night, was one chaos of fear, doubt,
-misery, remorse, and pain. Her sin had found her out. Was she to be
-condemned to live hereafter all her life in presence of this constant
-reminder of it? If she had suffered but little before, she suffered
-enough to make up for it now.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_225" id="page_225"></a>{225}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXIV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> night was terrible for this peaceful household in a more extended
-sense than that deep misery which the arrival of the stranger cost Miss
-Susan. Those quiet people, mistresses and servants, had but just gone to
-bed when the yells of the child rang through the silence, waking and
-disturbing every one, from Jane, who slept with the intense sleep of
-youth, unawakable by all ordinary commotions, to Augustine, who spent
-the early night in prayer, and Miss Susan, who neither prayed nor slept,
-and felt as if she should be, henceforth, incapable of either. These
-yells continued for about an hour, during which time the household,
-driven distracted, made repeated visits in all manner of costumes to the
-door of the East room, which was locked, and from which the stranger
-shrilly repelled them.</p>
-
-<p>“Je dois le dompter!” she cried through the thick oaken door, and in the
-midst of those screams, which, to the unaccustomed ear, seem so much
-more terrible than they really are.</p>
-
-<p>“It’ll bust itself, that’s what it’ll do,” said the old cook:
-“particular as it’s a boy. Boys should never be let scream like that;
-it’s far more dangerous for them than it is for a gell.”</p>
-
-<p>Cook was a widow, and therefore an authority on all such subjects. After
-an hour or so the child was heard to sink into subdued sobbings, and
-Whiteladies, relieved, went to bed, thanking its stars that this
-terrible experience was over. But long before daylight the conflict
-recommenced, and once more the inmates, in their night-dresses, and Miss
-Susan in her dressing-gown, assembled round the door of the East room.</p>
-
-<p>“For heaven’s sake, let some one come in and help you,” said Miss Susan
-through the door.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_226" id="page_226"></a>{226}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Je dois le dompter,” answered the other fiercely. “Go away, away! Je
-dois le dompter!”</p>
-
-<p>“What’s she a-going to do, ma’am?” said Cook. “Dump ’um? Good Lord, she
-don’t mean to beat the child, I ’ope&mdash;particular as it’s a boy.”</p>
-
-<p>Three times in the night the dreadful experience was repeated, and I
-leave the reader to imagine with what feelings the family regarded its
-new inmate. They were all downstairs very early, with that exhausted and
-dissipated feeling which the want of sleep gives. The maids found some
-comfort in the tea, which Cook made instantly to restore their nerves,
-but even this brought little comfort to Miss Susan, who lay awake and
-miserable in her bed, fearing every moment a repetition of the cries,
-and feeling herself helpless and enslaved in the hands of some
-diabolical creature, who, having no mercy on the child, would, she felt
-sure, have none on her, and whom she had no means of subduing or getting
-rid of. All the strength had gone out of her, mind and body. She shrank
-even from the sight of the stranger, from getting up to meet her again,
-from coming into personal contact and conflict with her. She became a
-weak old woman, and cried hopelessly on her pillow, not knowing where to
-turn, after the exhaustion of that terrible night. This, however, was
-but a passing mood like another, and she got up at her usual time, and
-faced the world and her evil fortune, as she must have done had an
-earthquake swept all she cared for out of the world&mdash;as we must all do,
-whatever may have happened to us, even the loss of all that makes life
-sweet. She got up and dressed herself as usual, with the same care as
-always, and went downstairs and called the family together for prayers,
-and did everything as she was used to do it&mdash;watching the door every
-moment, however, and trembling lest that tall black figure should come
-through it. It was a great relief, however, when, by way of accounting
-for Cook’s absence at morning prayers, Martha pointed out that buxom
-personage in the garden, walking about with the child in her arms.</p>
-
-<p>“The&mdash;lady’s&mdash;a-having her breakfast in bed,” said Martha. “What did the
-child do, ma’am, but stretches out its little arms when me and Cook went
-in first thing, after she unlocked the door.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why did two of you go?” said Miss Susan. “Did she ring the bell?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_227" id="page_227"></a>{227}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Well, ma’am,” said Martha, “you’ll say it’s one o’ my silly nervish
-ways. But I was frightened&mdash;I don’t deny. What with Cook saying as the
-child would bust itself, and what with them cries&mdash;but, Lord bless you,
-it’s all right,” said Martha; “and a-laughing and crowing to Cook, and
-all of us, as soon as it got down to the kitchen, and taking its sop as
-natural! I can’t think what could come over the child to be that wicked
-with its ma.”</p>
-
-<p>“Some people never get on with children,” said Miss Susan, feeling some
-apology necessary; “and no doubt it misses the nurse it was used to. And
-it was tired with the journey&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That’s exactly what Cook says,” said Martha. “Some folks has no way
-with children&mdash;even when it’s the ma&mdash;and Cook says&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you have taken the lady’s breakfast up to her comfortably,” said
-Miss Susan; “tell her, with my compliments, that I hope she will not
-hurry to get up; as she must have had a very bad night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who is she?” said Augustine, quietly.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan knew that this question awaited her; and it was very
-comforting to her mind to know that Augustine would accept the facts of
-the story calmly without thinking of any meaning that might lie below
-them, or asking any explanations. She told her these facts quite simply.</p>
-
-<p>“She is the daughter-in-law of the Austins of Bruges&mdash;their son’s
-widow&mdash;her child is Herbert’s next of kin and heir presumptive. Since
-dear Bertie has got better, his chances, of course, have become very
-much smaller; and, as I trust,” said Miss Susan fervently, with tears of
-pain coming to her eyes, “that my dear boy will live to have heirs of
-his own, this baby, poor thing, has no chance at all to speak of; but,
-you see, as they do not know that, and heard that Herbert was never
-likely to recover, and are people quite different from ourselves, and
-don’t understand things, they still look upon him as the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Augustine, “I understand; and they think he has a right to
-live here.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is not that, dear. The young woman has quarrelled with her husband’s
-parents, or she did not feel happy with them. Such things happen often,
-you know; perhaps there were faults on both sides. So she took it into
-her head to come here. She is an<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_228" id="page_228"></a>{228}</span> orphan, with no friends, and a young
-widow, poor thing, but I am most anxious to get her sent away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should she be sent away?” said Augustine. “It is our duty to keep
-her, if she wishes to stay. An orphan&mdash;a widow! Susan, you do not see
-our duties as I wish you could. We who are eating the bread which ought
-to be the property of the widow and the orphan&mdash;how dare we cast one of
-them from our doors! No, if she wishes it, she must stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“Augustine!” cried her sister, with tears, “I will do anything you tell
-me, dear; but don’t ask me to do this! I do not like her&mdash;I am afraid of
-her. Think how she must have used the child last night! I cannot let her
-stay.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine put down the cup of milk which was her habitual breakfast, and
-looked across the table at her sister. “It is not by what we like we
-should be ruled,” she said. “Alas, most people are; but we have a duty.
-If she is not good, she has the more need of help; but I would not leave
-the child with her,” she added, for she, too, had felt what it was to be
-disturbed. “I would give the child to some one else who can manage it.
-Otherwise you cannot refuse her, an orphan and widow, if she wishes to
-stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“Austine, you mistake, you mistake!” cried Miss Susan, driven to her
-wits’ end.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I do not mistake; from our door no widow and no orphan should ever
-be driven away. When it is Herbert’s house, he must do as he thinks
-fit,” said Augustine; “at least I know he will not be guided by me. But
-for us, who live to expatiate&mdash;No, she must not be sent away. But I
-would give the charge of the child to some one else,” she added with
-less solemnity of tone; “certainly I would have some one else for the
-child.”</p>
-
-<p>With this Augustine rose and went away, her hands in her sleeves, her
-pace as measured as ever. She gave forth her solemn decision on general
-principles, knowing no other, with an abstract superiority which
-offended no one, because of its very abstraction, and curious
-imperfection in all practical human knowledge. Miss Susan was too wise
-to be led by her sister in ordinary affairs; but she listened to this
-judgment, her heart wrung by pangs which she could not avow to any one.
-It was not the motive which weighed so largely with Augustine, and was,
-indeed, the only one she took<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_229" id="page_229"></a>{229}</span> account of, which affected her sister. It
-was neither Christian pity for the helpless, nor a wish to expatiate the
-sins of the past, that moved Miss Susan. The emotion which was battling
-in her heart was fear. How could she bear it to be known what she had
-done? How could she endure to let Augustine know, or Herbert, or
-Reine?&mdash;or even Farrel-Austin, who would rejoice over her, and take
-delight in her shame! She dared not turn her visitor out of the house,
-for this reason. She sat by herself when Augustine had gone, with her
-hands clasped tight, and a bitter, helpless beating and fluttering of
-her heart. Never before had she felt herself in the position of a
-coward, afraid to face the exigency before her. She had always dared to
-meet all things, looking danger and trouble in the face; but then she
-had never done anything in her life to be ashamed of before. She shrank
-now from meeting the unknown woman who had taken possession of her
-house. If she had remained there in her room shut up, Miss Susan felt as
-if she would gladly have compounded to let her remain, supplying her
-with as many luxuries as she cared for. But to face her, to talk to her,
-to have to put up with her, and her companionship, this was more than
-she could bear.</p>
-
-<p>She had not been able to look at her letters in her preoccupied and
-excited state; but when she turned them over now, in the pause that
-ensued after Augustine’s departure, she found a letter from old
-Guillaume Austin, full of trouble, narrating to her how his
-daughter-in-law had fled from the house in consequence of some quarrel,
-carrying the child with her, who was the joy of their hearts. So far as
-she was concerned, the old man said, they were indifferent to the loss,
-for since Giovanna’s child was born she had changed her character
-entirely, and was no longer the heart-broken widow who had obtained all
-their sympathies. “She had always a peculiar temper,” the father wrote.
-“My poor son did not live happy with her, though we were ready to forget
-everything in our grief. She is not one of our people, but by origin an
-Italian, fond of pleasure, and very hot-tempered, like all of that race.
-But recently she has been almost beyond our patience. Madame will
-remember how good my old wife was to her&mdash;though she cannot bear the
-idle&mdash;letting her do nothing, as is her nature. Since the baby was born,
-however, she has been most ungrateful to my poor wife, looking her in
-the face as if to frighten her, and with insolent<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_230" id="page_230"></a>{230}</span> smiles; and I have
-heard her even threaten to betray the wife of my bosom to me for
-something unknown&mdash;some dress, I suppose, or other trifle my Marie has
-given her without telling me. This is insufferable; but we have borne it
-all for the child, who is the darling of our old age. Madame will feel
-for me, for it is your loss, too, as well as ours. The child, the heir,
-is gone! who charmed us and made us feel young again. My wife thinks she
-may have gone to you, and therefore I write; but I have no hopes of this
-myself, and only fear that she may have married some one, and taken our
-darling from us forever&mdash;for who would separate a mother from her
-child?&mdash;though the boy does not love her, not at all, not so much as he
-loves us and his aunt Gertrude, who thinks she sees in him the boy whom
-she lost. Write to me in pity, dear and honored madame, and if by any
-chance the unhappy Giovanna has gone to you, I will come and fetch her
-away.”</p>
-
-<p>The letter was balm to Miss Susan’s wounds. She wrote an answer to M.
-Austin at once, then bethought herself of a still quicker mode of
-conveying information, and wrote a telegram, which she at once
-dispatched by the gardener, mounted on the best horse in the stable, to
-the railway. “She is here with the child, quite well. I shall be glad to
-see you,” Miss Susan wrote; then sat down again, tremulous, but resolute
-to think of what was before her. But for the prospect of old Guillaume’s
-visit, what a prospect it was that lay before her! She could understand
-how that beautiful face would look, with its mocking defiance at the
-helpless old woman who was in her power, and could not escape from her.
-Poor old Madame Austin! <i>Her</i> sin was the greatest of all, Miss Susan
-felt, with a sense of relief, for was it not her good husband whom she
-was deceiving, and had not all the execution of the complot been left in
-her hands? Miss Susan knew she herself had lied; but how much oftener
-Madame Austin must have lied, practically, and by word and speech!
-Everything she had done for weeks and months must have been a lie, and
-thus she had put herself in this woman’s power, who cruelly had taken
-advantage of it. Miss Susan realized, with a shudder, how the poor old
-Flemish woman, who was her confederate, must have been put to the agony!
-how she must have been held over the precipice, pushed almost to the
-verge, obliged perhaps to lie and lie again, in order to save herself.
-She trembled at the terrible picture; and now all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_231" id="page_231"></a>{231}</span> that had been done to
-Madame Austin was about to be done to herself&mdash;for was not she, too, in
-this pitiless woman’s power?</p>
-
-<p>A tap at the door. She thought it was the invader of her peace, and said
-“Come in” faintly. Then the door was pushed open, and a tottering little
-figure, so low down that Miss Susan, unprepared for this pygmy, did not
-see it at first, came in with a feeble rush, as babies do, too much
-afraid of its capabilities of progress to have any confidence of holding
-out. “Did you ever see such a darling, ma’am?” said Cook. “We couldn’t
-keep him not to ourselves a moment longer. I whips him up, and I says,
-‘Miss Susan must see him.’ Now, did you ever set your two eyes on a
-sweeter boy?”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan, relieved, did as she was told; she fixed her eyes upon the
-boy, who, after his rush, subsided on to the floor, and gazed at her in
-silence. He was as fair as any English child, a flaxen-headed, blue-eyed
-Flemish baby, with innocent, wide-open eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“He ain’t a bit like his ma, bless him, and he takes to strangers quite
-natural. Look at him a-cooing and a-laughing at you, ma’am, as he never
-set eyes on before! But human nature is unaccountable,” said Cook, with
-awe-stricken gravity, “for he can’t abide his ma.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you ever know such a case before?” said Miss Susan, who, upon the
-ground that Cook was a widow, looked up to her judgment on such matters
-as all the rest of the household did. Cook was in very high feather at
-this moment, having at last proved beyond doubt the superiority of her
-knowledge and experience as having once had a child of her own.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, ma’am,” said Cook, “that depends. There’s some folk as never have
-no way with children, married or single, it don’t matter. Now that
-child, if you let him set at your feet, and give him a reel out of your
-work-box to play with, will be as good as gold; for you’ve got a way
-with children, you have; but he can’t abide his ma.”</p>
-
-<p>“Leave him there, if you think he will be good,” said Miss Susan. She
-did more than give the baby a reel out of her work-box, for she took out
-the scissors, pins, needles, all sharp and pointed things, and put down
-the work-box itself on the carpet. And then she sat watching the child
-with the most curious, exquisite<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_232" id="page_232"></a>{232}</span> mixture of anguish and a kind of
-pleasure in her heart. Poor old Guillaume Austin’s grandchild, a true
-scion of the old stock! but not as was supposed. She watched the little
-tremulous dabs the baby made at the various articles that pleased him.
-How he grasped them in the round fat fingers that were just long enough
-to close on a reel; how he threw them away to snatch at others; the
-pitiful look of mingled suffering, injured feeling, and indignation
-which came over his face in a moment when the lid of the box dropped on
-his fingers; his unconscious little song to himself, cooing and gurgling
-in a baby monologue. What was the child thinking? No clue had he to the
-disadvantages under which he was entering life, or the advantages which
-had been planned for him before he was born, and which, by the will of
-Providence, were falling into nothing. Poor little unconscious baby! The
-work-box and its reels were at this moment quite world enough for him.</p>
-
-<p>It was an hour or two later before the stranger came downstairs. She had
-put on a black silk dress, and done up her hair carefully, and made her
-appearance as imposing as possible; and, indeed, so far as this went,
-she required few external helps. The child took no notice of her,
-sheltered as he was under Miss Susan’s wing, until she took him up
-roughly, disturbing his toys and play. Then he pushed her away with a
-repetition of last night’s screams, beating with his little angry hands
-against her face, and shrieking, “No, no!” his only intelligible word,
-at the top of his lungs. The young woman grew exasperated, too, and
-repaid the blows he gave with one or two hearty slaps and a shake, by
-means of which the cries became tremulous and wavering, though they were
-as loud as ever. By the time the conflict had come to this point,
-however, Cook and Martha, flushed with indignation, were both at the
-door.</p>
-
-<p>“Il ne faut pas frapper l’enfang!” Miss Susan called out loudly in her
-peculiar French. “Vous ne restez pas un moment ici vous no donnez pas
-cet enfang au cook; vous écoutez? Donnez, donnez, touto de suite!” Her
-voice was so imperative that the woman was cowed. She turned and tossed
-the child to Cook, who, red as her own fire, stood holding out her arms
-to receive the screaming and struggling boy.</p>
-
-<p>“What do I care?” said the stranger. “Petit sot! cochon! va! I slept not
-all night,” she added. “You heard? Figure to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_233" id="page_233"></a>{233}</span> yourself whether I wish to
-keep him now. Ah, petit fripon, petit vaurient! Va!”</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Austin,” said Miss Susan solemnly, as the women went away,
-carrying the child, who clung to Cook’s broad bosom and sobbed on her
-shoulder, “you do not stay here another hour, unless you promise to give
-up the child to those who can take care of him. <i>You</i> cannot, that is
-clear.”</p>
-
-<p>“And yet he is my child,” said the young woman, with a malicious smile.
-“Madame knows he is my child! He is always sage with his aunt Gertrude,
-and likes her red and white face. Madame remembers Gertrude, who lost
-her baby? But mine belongs to <i>me</i>.”</p>
-
-<p>“He may belong to you,” said Miss Susan, with almost a savage tone, “but
-he is not to remain with you another hour, unless you wish to take him
-away; in which case,” said Miss Susan, going to the door and throwing it
-open, “you are perfectly at liberty to depart, him and you.”</p>
-
-<p>The stranger sat for a moment looking at her, then went and looked out
-into the red-floored passage, with a kind of insolent scrutiny. Then she
-made Miss Susan a mock curtsey, and sat down.</p>
-
-<p>“They are welcome to have him,” she said, calmly. “What should I want
-him for? Even a child, a baby, should know better than to hate one; I do
-not like it; it is a nasty little thing&mdash;very like Gertrude, and with
-her ways exactly. It is hard to see your child resemble another woman;
-should not madame think so, if she had been like me, and had a child?”</p>
-
-<p>“Look here,” Miss Susan said, going up to her, and shaking her by the
-shoulders, with a whiteness and force of passion about her which cowered
-Giovanna in spite of herself&mdash;“look here! This is how you treated your
-poor mother-in-law, no doubt, and drove her wild. I will not put up with
-it&mdash;do you hear me? I will drive you out of the house this very day, and
-let you do what you will and say what you will, rather than bear this.
-You hear me? and I mean what I say.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna stared, blank with surprise, at the resolute old woman, who,
-driven beyond all patience, made this speech to her. She was astounded.
-She answered quite humbly, sinking her voice, “I will do what you tell
-me. Madame is not a fool, like my belle mère.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_234" id="page_234"></a>{234}</span></p>
-
-<p>“She is not a fool, either!” cried Miss Susan. “Ah, I wish now she had
-been! I wish I had seen your face that day! Oh, yes, you are
-pretty&mdash;pretty enough! but I never should have put anything in your
-power if I had seen your face that day.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna gazed at her for a moment, still bewildered. Then she rose and
-looked at herself in the old glass, which distorted that beautiful face
-a little. “I am glad you find me pretty,” she said. “My face! it is not
-a white and red moon, like Gertrude’s, who is always praised and
-spoiled; but I hope it may do more for me than hers has done yet. That
-is what I intend. My poor pretty face&mdash;that it may win fortune yet! my
-face or my boy.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan, her passion dying out, stood and looked at this unknown
-creature with dismay. Her face or her boy!&mdash;what did she mean? or was
-there any meaning at all in these wild words&mdash;words that might be mere
-folly and vanity, and indeed resembled that more than anything else.
-Perhaps, after all, she was but a fool who required a little firmness of
-treatment&mdash;nothing more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_235" id="page_235"></a>{235}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXV" id="CHAPTER_XXV"></a>CHAPTER XXV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ISS SUSAN AUSTIN</small> was not altogether devoid in ordinary circumstances of
-one very common feminine weakness to which independent women are
-especially liable. She had the old-fashioned prejudice that it was a
-good thing to “consult a man” upon points of difficulty which occurred
-in her life. The process of consulting, indeed, was apt to be a peculiar
-one. If he distinctly disagreed with herself, Miss Susan set the man
-whom she consulted down as a fool, or next to a fool, and took her own
-way, and said nothing about the consultation. But when by chance he
-happened to agree with her, then she made great capital of his opinion,
-and announced it everywhere as the cause of her own action, whatever
-that might be. Everard, before his departure, had been the depositary of
-her confidence on most occasions, and as he was very amenable to her
-influence, and readily saw things in the light which she wished him to
-see them in, he had been very useful to her, or so at least she said;
-and the idea of sending for Everard, who had just returned from the West
-Indies, occurred to her almost in spite of herself, when this new crisis
-happened at Whiteladies. The idea came into her mind, but next moment
-she shivered at the thought, and turned from it mentally as though it
-had stung her. What could she say to Everard to account for the effect
-Giovanna produced upon her&mdash;the half terror, half hatred, which filled
-her mind toward the new-comer, and the curious mixture of fright and
-repugnance with which even the child seemed to regard its mother? How
-could she explain all this to him? She had so long given him credit for
-understanding everything, that she had come to believe in this
-marvellous power and discrimination with which she had herself endowed
-him; and now she shrank<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_236" id="page_236"></a>{236}</span> from permitting Everard even to see the
-infliction to which she had exposed herself, and the terrible burden she
-had brought upon the house. He could not understand&mdash;and yet who could
-tell that he might not understand? see through her trouble, and perceive
-that some reason must exist for such a thraldom? If he, or any one else,
-ever suspected the real reason, Miss Susan felt that she must die. Her
-character, her position in the family, the place she held in the world,
-would be gone. Had things been as they were when she had gone upon her
-mission to the Austins at Bruges, I have no doubt the real necessities
-of the case, and the important issues depending upon the step she had
-taken, would have supported Miss Susan in the hard part she had now to
-play; but to continue to have this part to play after the necessity was
-over, and when it was no longer, to all appearance, of any immediate
-importance at all who Herbert’s heir should be, gave a bitterness to
-this unhappy rôle which it is impossible to describe. The strange woman
-who had taken possession of the house without any real claim to its
-shelter, had it in her power to ruin and destroy Miss Susan, though
-nothing she could do could now affect Whiteladies; and for this poor
-personal reason Miss Susan felt, with a pang, she must bear all
-Giovanna’s impertinences, and the trouble of her presence, and all the
-remarks upon her&mdash;her manners, her appearance, her want of breeding, and
-her behavior in the house, which no doubt everybody would notice.
-Everard, should he appear, would be infinitely annoyed to find such an
-inmate in the house. Herbert, should he come home, would with equal
-certainty wish to get rid of so singular a visitor.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan saw a hundred difficulties and complications in her way. She
-hoped a little from the intervention of Monsieur Guillaume Austin, to
-whom she had written, after sending off her telegram, in full detail,
-begging him to come to Whiteladies, to recover his grandchild, if that
-was possible; but Giovanna’s looks were not very favorable to this hope.
-Thus the punishment of her sin, for which she had felt so little remorse
-when she did it, found her out at last. I wonder if successful sin ever
-does fill the sinner with remorse, or whether human nature, always so
-ready in self-defence, does not set to work, in every case, to invent
-reasons which seem to justify, or almost more than justify, the
-wickedness which serves its purpose? This is too profound an inquiry for
-these pages; but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_237" id="page_237"></a>{237}</span> certainly Miss Susan, for one, felt the biting of
-remorse in her heart when sin proved useless, and when it became nothing
-but a menace and a terror to her, as she had never felt it before. Oh,
-how could she have charged her conscience and sullied her life (she said
-to herself) for a thing so useless, so foolish, so little likely to
-benefit any one? Why had she done it? To disappoint Farrel-Austin! that
-had been her miserable motive&mdash;nothing more; and this was how it had all
-ended. Had she left the action of Providence alone, and refrained from
-interfering, Farrel-Austin would have been discomfited all the same, but
-her conscience would have been clear. I do not think that Miss Susan had
-as yet any feeling in her mind that the discomfiture of Farrel-Austin
-was not a most righteous object, and one which justified entirely the
-interference of heaven.</p>
-
-<p>But, in the meantime, what a difference was made in her peaceable
-domestic life! No doubt she ought to have been suffering as much for a
-long time past, for the offence was not new, though the punishment was;
-but if it came late, it came bitterly. Her pain was like fire in her
-heart. This seemed to herself as she thought of it&mdash;and she did little
-but think of it&mdash;to be the best comparison. Like fire&mdash;burning and
-consuming her, yet never completing its horrible work&mdash;gnawing
-continually with a red-hot glow, and quivering as of lambent flame. She
-seemed to herself now and then to have the power, as it were, of taking
-her heart out of these glowing ashes, and looking at it, but always to
-let it drop back piteously into the torment. Oh, how she wished and
-longed, with an eager hopelessness which seemed to give fresh force to
-her suffering, that the sin could be undone, that these two last years
-could be wiped out of time, that she could go back to the moment before
-she set out for Bruges! She longed for this with an intensity which was
-equalled only by its impossibility. If only she had not done it! Once it
-occurred to her with a thrill of fright, that the sensations of her mind
-were exactly those which are described in many a sermon and sensational
-religious book. Was it hell that she had within her? She shuddered, and
-burst forth into a low moaning when the question shaped itself in her
-mind. But notwithstanding all these horrors, she had to conduct herself
-as became a person in good society&mdash;to manage all her affairs, and talk
-to the servants, and smile upon chance visitors, as if everything were
-well&mdash;which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_238" id="page_238"></a>{238}</span> added a refinement of pain to these tortures. And thus the
-days passed on till Monsieur Guillaume Austin arrived from Bruges&mdash;the
-one event which still inspired her with something like hope.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna, meanwhile, settled down in Whiteladies with every appearance
-of intending to make it her settled habitation. After the first
-excitement of the arrival was over, she fell back into a state of
-indolent comfort, which, for the time, until she became tired of it,
-seemed more congenial to her than the artificial activity of her
-commencement, and which was more agreeable, or at least much less
-disagreeable to the other members of the household. She gave up the
-child to Cook, who managed it sufficiently well to keep it quiet and
-happy, to the great envy of the rest of the family. Every one envied
-Cook her experience and success, except the mother of the child, who
-shrugged her shoulders, and, with evident satisfaction in getting free
-from the trouble, fell back upon a stock of books she had found, which
-made the weary days pass more pleasantly to her than they would
-otherwise have done. These were French novels, which once had belonged,
-before her second marriage, to Madame de Mirfleur, and which she, too,
-had found a great resource. Let not the reader be alarmed for the
-morality of the house. They were French novels which had passed under
-Miss Susan’s censorship, and been allowed by her, therefore they were
-harmless of their kind&mdash;too harmless, I fear, for Giovanna’s taste, who
-would have liked something more exciting; but in her transplantation to
-so very foreign a soil as Whiteladies, and the absolute blank which
-existence appeared to her there, she was more glad than can be described
-of the poor little unbound books, green and yellow, over which the
-mother of Herbert and Reine had yawned through many a long and weary
-day. It was Miss Susan herself who had produced them out of pity for her
-visitor, unwelcome as that visitor was&mdash;and, indeed, for her own relief.
-For, however objectionable a woman may be who sits opposite to you all
-day poring over a novel, whether green or yellow, she is less
-objectionable than the same woman when doing nothing, and following you
-about, whenever you move, with a pair of great black eyes. Not being
-able to get rid of the stranger more completely, Miss Susan was very
-thankful to be so far rid of her as this, and her heart stirred with a
-faint hope that perhaps the good linen-draper who was coming might be
-able to exercise some authority over his daughter-in-law,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_239" id="page_239"></a>{239}</span> and carry her
-away with him. She tried to persuade herself that she did not hope for
-this, but the hope grew involuntarily stronger and stronger as the
-moment approached, and she sat waiting in the warm and tranquil quiet of
-the afternoon for the old man’s arrival. She had sent the carriage to
-the station for him, and sat expecting him with her heart beating, as
-much excited, almost, as if she had been a girl looking for a very
-different kind of visitor. Miss Susan, however, did not tell Giovanna,
-who sat opposite to her, with her feet on the fender, holding her book
-between her face and the fire, who it was whom she expected. She would
-not diminish the effect of the arrival by giving any time for
-preparation, but hoped as much from the suddenness of the old man’s
-appearance as from his authority. Giovanna was chilly, like most
-indolent people, and fond of the fire. She had drawn her chair as close
-to it as possible, and though she shielded her face with all the care
-she could, yet there was still a hot color on the cheeks, which were
-exposed now and then for a moment to the blaze. Miss Susan sat behind,
-in the background, with her knitting, waiting for the return of the
-carriage which had been sent to the station for Monsieur Guillaume, and
-now and then casting a glance over her knitting-needles at the disturber
-of her domestic peace. What a strange figure to have established itself
-in this tranquil English house! There came up before Miss Susan’s
-imagination a picture of the room behind the shop at Bruges, so bare of
-every grace and prettiness, with the cooking going on, and the young
-woman seated in the corner, to whom no one paid any attention. There,
-too, probably, she had been self-indulgent and self-absorbed, but what a
-difference there was in her surroundings! The English lady, I have no
-doubt, exaggerated the advantages of her own comfortable,
-softly-cushioned drawing-room, and probably the back-room at Bruges, if
-less pretty and less luxurious, was also much less dull to Giovanna than
-this curtained, carpeted place, with no society but that of a quiet
-Englishwoman, who disapproved of her. At Bruges there had been
-opportunities to talk with various people, more entertaining than even
-the novels; and though Giovanna had been disapproved of there, as now,
-she had been able to give as well as take&mdash;at least since power had been
-put into her hands. At present she yawned sadly as she turned the
-leaves. It was horribly dull, and horribly long, this vacant, uneventful
-afternoon. If some one would come,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_240" id="page_240"></a>{240}</span> if something would happen, what a
-relief it would be! She yawned as she turned the page.</p>
-
-<p>At last there came a sound of carriage-wheels on the gravel. Miss Susan
-did not suppose that her visitor took any notice, but I need not say
-that Giovanna, to whom something new would have been so great a piece of
-good fortune, gave instant attention, though she still kept the book
-before her, a shield not only from the fire, but from her companion’s
-observation. Giovanna saw that Miss Susan was secretly excited and
-anxious, and I think the younger woman anticipated some amusement at the
-expense of her companion&mdash;expecting an elderly lover, perhaps, or
-something of a kind which might have stirred herself. But when the
-figure of her father-in-law appeared at the door, very ingratiating and
-slightly timid, in two greatcoats which increased his bulk without
-increasing his dignity, and with a great cache-nez about his neck,
-Giovanna perceived at once the conspiracy against her, and in a moment
-collected her forces to meet it. M. Guillaume represented to her a
-laborious life, frugal fare, plain dress, and domestic authority, such
-as that was&mdash;the things from which she had fled. Here (though it was
-dull) she had ease, luxury, the consciousness of power, and a future in
-which she could better herself&mdash;in which, indeed, she might look forward
-to being mistress of the luxurious house, and ordering it so that it
-should cease to be dull. To allow herself to be taken back to Bruges, to
-the back-shop, was as far as anything could be from her intentions. How
-could they be so foolish as to think of it? She let her book drop on her
-lap, and looked at the plotters with a glow of laughter at their
-simplicity, lifting up the great eyes.</p>
-
-<p>As for Monsieur Guillaume, he was in a state of considerable excitement,
-pleasure, and pain. He was pleased to come to the wealthy house in which
-he felt a sense of proprietorship, much quickened by the comfort of the
-luxurious English carriage in which he had driven from the station. This
-was a sign of grandeur and good-fortune comprehensible to everybody; and
-the old shopkeeper felt at once the difference involved. On the other
-hand, he was anxious about his little grandchild, whom he adored, and a
-little afraid of the task of subduing its mother, which had been put
-into his hands; and he was anxious to make a good appearance, and to
-impress favorably his new relations, on whose<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_241" id="page_241"></a>{241}</span> good will, somehow or
-other, depended his future inheritance. He made a very elaborate bow
-when he came in, and touched respectfully the tips of the fingers which
-Miss Susan extended to him. She was a great lady, and he was a
-shopkeeper; she was an Englishwoman, reserved and stately, and he a
-homely old Fleming. Neither of them knew very well how to treat the
-other, and Miss Susan, who felt that all the comfort of her future life
-depended on how she managed this old man, and upon the success of his
-mission, was still more anxious and elaborate than he was. She drew
-forward the easiest chair for him, and asked for his family with a
-flutter of effusive politeness, quite unlike her usual demeanor.</p>
-
-<p>“And Madame Jean is quite safe with me,” she said, when their first
-salutations were over.</p>
-
-<p>Here was the tug of war. The old man turned to his daughter-in-law
-eagerly, yet somewhat tremulous. She had pushed away her chair from the
-fire, and with her book still in her hand, sat looking at him with
-shining eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, Giovanna,” he said, shaking his head, “how thou hast made all our
-hearts sore! how could you do it? We should not have crossed you, if you
-had told us you were weary of home. The house is miserable without you;
-how could you go away?”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon beau-père,” said Giovanna, taking the kiss he bestowed on her
-forehead with indifference, “say you have missed the child, if you
-please, that may be true enough; but as for me, no one pretended to care
-for me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon enfant&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Assez, assez! Let us speak the truth. Madame knows well enough,” said
-Giovanna, “it is the baby you love. If you could have him without me, I
-do not doubt it would make you very happy. Only that it is impossible to
-separate the child from the mother&mdash;every one knows as much as that.”</p>
-
-<p>She said this with a malicious look toward Miss Susan, who shrank
-involuntarily. But Monsieur Guillaume, who accepted the statement as a
-simple fact, did not shrink, but assented, shaking his head.</p>
-
-<p>“Assuredly, assuredly,” he said, “nor did anyone wish it. The child is
-our delight; but you, too, Giovanna, you too&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>She laughed.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_242" id="page_242"></a>{242}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I do not think the others would say so&mdash;my mother-in-law, for example,
-or Gertrude; nor, indeed, you either, mon beau-père, if you had not a
-motive. I was always the lazy one&mdash;the useless one. It was I who had the
-bad temper. You never cared for me, or made me comfortable. Now ces
-dames are kind, and this will be the boy’s home.”</p>
-
-<p>“If he succeeds,” said Miss Susan, interposing from the background,
-where she stood watchful, growing more and more anxious. “You are aware
-that now this is much less certain. My nephew is better; he is getting
-well and strong.”</p>
-
-<p>They both turned to look at her; Giovanna with startled, wide-open eyes,
-and the old man with an evident thrill of surprise. Then he seemed to
-divine a secret motive in this speech, and gave Miss Susan a glance of
-intelligence, and smiled and nodded his head.</p>
-
-<p>“To be sure, to be sure,” he said. “Monsieur, the present propriétaire,
-may live. It is to be hoped that he will continue to live&mdash;at least,
-until the child is older. Yes, yes, Giovanna, what you say is true. I
-appreciate your maternal care, ma fille. It is right that the boy should
-visit his future home; that he should learn the manners of the people,
-and all that is needful to a proprietor. But he is very young&mdash;a few
-years hence will be soon enough. And why should you have left us so
-hastily, so secretly? We have all been unhappy,” he added, with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>I cannot describe how Miss Susan listened to all this, with an
-impatience which reached the verge of the intolerable. To hear them
-taking it all calmly for granted&mdash;calculating on Herbert’s death as an
-essential preliminary of which they were quite sure. But she kept
-silence with a painful effort, and kept in the background, trembling
-with the struggle to restrain herself. It was best that she should take
-no part, say nothing, but leave the issue as far as she could to
-Providence. To Providence! the familiar word came to her unawares; but
-what right had she to appeal to Providence&mdash;to trust in Providence in
-such a matter. She quaked, and withdrew a little further still, leaving
-the ground clear. Surely old Austin would exercise his authority&mdash;and
-could overcome this young rebel without her aid!</p>
-
-<p>The old man waited for an answer, but got none. He was a good man in his
-way, but he had been accustomed all his life to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_243" id="page_243"></a>{243}</span> have his utterances
-respected, and he did not understand the profane audacity which declined
-even to reply to him. After a moment’s interval he resumed, eager, but
-yet damped in his confidence:</p>
-
-<p>“Le petit! where is he? I may see him, may not I?”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan rose at once to ring the bell for the child, but to her
-amazement she was stopped by Giovanna.</p>
-
-<p>“Wait a little,” she said, “I am the mother. I have the best right. That
-is acknowledged? No one has any right over him but me.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan quailed before the glance of those eyes, which were so full
-of meaning. There was something more in the words than mere
-self-assertion. There was once more a gleam of malicious enjoyment,
-almost revengeful. What wrong had Giovanna to revenge upon Miss Susan,
-who had given her the means of asserting herself&mdash;who had changed her
-position in the world altogether, and given her a standing-ground which
-she never before possessed? The mistress of Whiteladies, so long
-foremost and regnant, sat down again behind their backs with a sense of
-humiliation not to be described. She left the two strangers to fight out
-their quarrel without any interference on her part. As for Giovanna, she
-had no revengeful meaning whatever; but she loved to feel and show her
-power.</p>
-
-<p>“Assuredly, ma fille,” said the old man, who was in her power too, and
-felt it with not much less dismay than Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“Then understand,” said the young woman, rising from her chair with
-sudden energy, and throwing down the book which she had up to this
-moment kept in her hands, “I will have no one interfere. The child is to
-me&mdash;he is mine, and I will have no one interfere. It shall not be said
-that he is more gentil, more sage, with another than with his mother. He
-shall not be taught any more to love others more than me. To others he
-is nothing; but he is mine, mine, and mine only!” she said, putting her
-hands together with a sudden clap, the color mounting to her cheeks, and
-the light flashing in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan, who in other circumstances would have been roused by this
-self-assertion, was quite cowed by it now, and sat with a pang in her
-heart which I cannot describe, listening and&mdash;submitting. What could she
-say or do?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_244" id="page_244"></a>{244}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Assurement, ma fille; assurement, ma fille,” murmured poor old M.
-Guillaume, looking at this rampant symbol of natural power with
-something like terror. He was quite unprepared for it. Giovanna had been
-to him but the feeblest creature in the house, the dependent, generally
-disapproved of, and always powerless. To be sure, since her child was
-born, he had heard more complaints of her, and had even perceived that
-she was not as submissive as formerly; but then it is always so easy for
-the head of the house to believe that it is his womankind who are to
-blame, and that when matters are in his own hands all will go well. He
-was totally discomfited, dismayed, and taken by surprise. He could not
-understand that this was the creature who had sat in the corner, and
-been made of no account. He did not know what to do in the emergency. He
-longed for his wife, to ask counsel of, to direct him; and then he
-remembered that his wife, too, had seemed a little afraid of Giovanna, a
-sentiment at which he had loftily smiled, saying to himself, good man,
-that the girl, poor thing, was a good girl enough, and as soon as he
-lifted up a finger, would no doubt submit as became her. In this curious
-reversal of positions and change of circumstances, he could but look at
-her bewildered, and had not an idea what to say or do.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_245" id="page_245"></a>{245}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXVI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> evening which followed was most uncomfortable. Good M.
-Guillaume&mdash;divided between curiosity and the sense of novelty with which
-he found himself in a place so unlike his ideas; a desire to please the
-ladies of the house, and an equally strong desire to settle the question
-which had brought him to Whiteladies&mdash;was altogether shaken out of his
-use and wont. He had been allowed a little interview with the child,
-which clung to him, and could only be separated from him at the cost of
-much squalling and commotion, in which even the blandishments of Cook
-were but partially availing. The old man, who had been accustomed to
-carry the baby about with him, to keep it on his knee at meals, and give
-it all those illegitimate indulgences which are common where nurseries
-and nursery laws do not exist, did not understand, and was much
-afflicted by the compulsory separation.</p>
-
-<p>“It is time for the baby to go to bed, and we are going in to dinner,”
-Miss Susan said; as if this was any reason (thought poor M. Guillaume)
-why the baby should not come to dinner too, or why inexorably it should
-go to bed! How often had he kept it on his knee, and fed it with
-indigestible morsels till its countenance shone with gravy and
-happiness! He had to submit, however, Giovanna looking at him while he
-did so (he thought) with a curious, malicious satisfaction. M. Guillaume
-had never been in England before, and the dinner was as odd to him as
-the first foreign dinner is to an Englishman. He did not understand the
-succession of dishes, the heavy substantial soup, the solid roast
-mutton; neither did he understand the old hall, which looked to him like
-a chapel, or the noiseless Stevens behind his chair, or the low-toned
-conversation, of which indeed there was very little. Augustine, in her
-gray robes, was to him simply a nun, whom he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_246" id="page_246"></a>{246}</span> also addressed, as
-Giovanna had done, as “Ma sœur.” Why she should be thus in a private
-house at an ordinary table, he could not tell, but supposed it to be
-merely one of those wonderful ways of the English which he had so often
-heard of. Giovanna, who sat opposite to him, and who was by this time
-familiarized with the routine of Whiteladies, scarcely talked at all;
-and though Miss Susan, by way of setting him “at his ease,” asked a
-civil question from time to time about his journey, what kind of
-crossing he had experienced, and other such commonplace matters; yet the
-old linendraper was abashed by the quiet, the dimness of the great room
-around him, the strangeness of the mansion and of the meal. The back
-room behind the shop at Bruges, where the family dined, and for the most
-part lived, seemed to him infinitely more comfortable and pleasant than
-this solemn place, which, on the other hand, was not in the least like a
-room in one of the great châteaux of his own rich country, which was the
-only thing to which he could have compared it. He was glad to accept the
-suggestion that he was tired, and retire to his room, which, in its
-multiplicity of comforts, its baths, its carpets, and its curtains, was
-almost equally bewildering. When, however, rising by skreigh of day, he
-went out in the soft, mellow brightness of the Autumn morning, M.
-Guillaume’s reverential feelings sensibly decreased. The house of
-Whiteladies did not please him at all; its oldness disgusted him; and
-those lovely antique carved gables, which were the pride of all the
-Austins, filled him with contempt. Had they been in stone, indeed, he
-might have understood that they were unobjectionable; but brick and wood
-were so far below the dignity of a château that he felt a sensible
-downfall. After all, what was a place like this to tempt a man from the
-comforts of Bruges, from his own country, and everything he loved.</p>
-
-<p>He had formed a very different idea of Whiteladies. Windsor Castle might
-have come up better to his sublime conception; but this poor little
-place, with its homely latticed windows, and irregular outlines,
-appeared to the good old shopkeeper a mere magnified cottage, nothing
-more. He was disturbed, poor man, in a great many ways. It had appeared
-to him, before he came, that he had nothing to do but to exert his
-authority, and bring his daughter-in-law home, and the child, who was of
-much more importance than she, and without whom he scarcely ventured to
-face<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_247" id="page_247"></a>{247}</span> his wife and Gertrude. Giovanna had never counted for much in the
-house, and to suppose that he should have difficulty in overcoming her
-will had never occurred to him. But there was something in her look
-which made him very much more doubtful of his own power than up to this
-time he had ever been; and this was a humbling and discouraging
-sensation. Visions, too, of another little business which this visit
-gave him a most desirable opportunity to conclude, were in his mind; and
-he had anticipated a few days overflowing with occupation, in which,
-having only women to encounter, he could not fail to be triumphantly
-successful. He had entertained these agreeable thoughts of triumph up to
-the very moment of arriving at Whiteladies; but somehow the aspect of
-things was not propitious. Neither Giovanna nor Miss Susan looked as if
-she were ready to give in to his masculine authority, or to yield to his
-persuasive influence. The one was defiant, the other roused and on her
-guard. M. Guillaume had been well managed throughout his life. He had
-been allowed to suppose that he had everything his own way; his solemn
-utterances had been listened to with awe, his jokes had been laughed at,
-his verdict acknowledged as final. A man who was thus treated at home is
-apt to be easily mortified abroad, where nobody cares to ménager his
-feelings, or to receive his sayings, whether wise or witty, with
-sentiments properly apportioned to the requirements of the moment.
-Nothing takes the spirit so completely out of such a man as the first
-suspicion that he is among people to whom he is not authority, and who
-really care no more for his opinion than for that of any other man. M.
-Guillaume was in this uncomfortable position now. Here were two women,
-neither of them in the least impressed by his superiority, whom, by
-sheer force of reason, it was necessary for him to get the better of.
-“And women, as is well known, are inaccessible to reason,” he said to
-himself scornfully. This was somewhat consolatory to his pride, but I am
-far from sure whether a lingering doubt of his own powers of reasoning,
-when unassisted by prestige and natural authority, had not a great deal
-to do with it; and the good man felt somewhat small and much
-discouraged, which it is painful for the father of a family to do.</p>
-
-<p>After breakfast, Miss Susan brought him out to see the place. He had
-done his very best to be civil, to drink tea which he did<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_248" id="page_248"></a>{248}</span> not like, and
-eat the bacon and eggs, and do justice to the cold partridge on the
-sideboard, and now he professed himself delighted to make an inspection
-of Whiteladies. The leaves had been torn by the recent storm from the
-trees, so that the foliage was much thinned, and though it was a
-beautiful Autumn morning, with a brilliant blue sky, and the sunshine
-full of that regretful brightness which Autumn sunshine so often seems
-to show, yellow leaves still came floating, moment by moment, through
-the soft atmosphere, dropping noiselessly on the grass, detached by the
-light air, which could not even be called a breeze. The gables of
-Whiteladies stood out against the blue, with a serene superiority to the
-waning season, yet a certain sympathetic consciousness in their gray
-age, of the generations that had fallen about the old place like the
-leaves. Miss Susan, whose heart was full, looked at the house of her
-fathers with eyes touched to poetry by emotion.</p>
-
-<p>“The old house has seen many a change,” she said, “and not a few sad
-ones. I am not superstitious about it, like my sister, but you must
-know, M. Guillaume, that our property was originally Church lands, and
-that is supposed to bring with it&mdash;well, the reverse of a blessing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said M. Guillaume, “that is then the chapel, as I supposed, in
-which you dine?”</p>
-
-<p>“The chapel!” cried Miss Susan in dismay. “Oh, dear, no&mdash;the house is
-not monastic, as is evident. It is, I believe, the best example, or
-almost the best example, extant of an English manor-house.”</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume saw that he had committed himself, and said no more. He
-listened with respectful attention while the chief architectural
-features of the house were pointed out to him. No doubt it was fine,
-since his informer said so&mdash;he would not hurt her feelings by uttering
-any doubts on the subject&mdash;only, if it ever came into his hands&mdash;he
-murmured to himself.</p>
-
-<p>“And now about your business,” cried Miss Susan, who had done her best
-to throw off her prevailing anxiety. “Giovanna? you mean to take her
-back with you&mdash;and the child? Your poor good wife must miss the child.”</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume took off his hat in his perplexity, and rubbed his bald
-head. “Ah!” he said, “here is my great trouble. Giovanna is more changed
-than I can say. I have been told of her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_249" id="page_249"></a>{249}</span> wilfulness, but Madame knows
-that women are apt to exaggerate&mdash;not but that I have the greatest
-respect for the sex&mdash;.” He paused, and made her a reverence, which so
-exasperated Miss Susan that she could with pleasure have boxed his ears
-as he bowed. But this was one of the many impulses which it is best for
-“the sex,” as well as other human creatures, to restrain.</p>
-
-<p>“But I find it is true,” said M. Guillaume. “She does not show any
-readiness to obey. I do not understand it. I have always been accustomed
-to be obeyed, and I do not understand it,” he added, with plaintive
-iteration. “Since she has the child she has power, I suppose that is the
-explanation. Ladies&mdash;with every respect&mdash;are rarely able to support the
-temptation of having power. Madame will pardon me for saying so, I am
-sure.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you have power also,” said Miss Susan. “She is dependent upon you,
-is she not? and I don’t see how she can resist what you say. She has
-nothing of her own, I suppose?” she continued, pausing upon this point
-in her inquiries. “She told me so. If she is dependent upon you, she
-must do as you say.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is very true,” said the old shopkeeper, with a certain
-embarrassment; “but I must speak frankly to Madame, who is sensible, and
-will not be offended with what I say. Perhaps it is for this she has
-come here. It has occurred to my good wife, who has a very good head,
-that le petit has already rights which should not be forgotten. I do not
-hesitate to say that women are very quick; these things come into their
-heads sooner than with us, sometimes. My wife thought that there should
-be a demand for an allowance, a something, for the heir. My wife, Madame
-knows, is very careful of her children. She loves to lay up for them, to
-make a little money for them. Le petit had never been thought of, and
-there was no provision made. She has said for a long time that a little
-<i>rente</i>, a&mdash;what you call allowance, should be claimed for the child.
-Giovanna has heard it, and that has put another idea into her foolish
-head; but Madame will easily perceive that the claim is very just, of a
-something&mdash;a little revenue&mdash;for the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“From whom is this little revenue to come?” said Miss Susan, looking at
-him with a calm which she did not feel.</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume was embarrassed for the moment; but a man who is accustomed
-to look at his fellow-creatures from the other side of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_250" id="page_250"></a>{250}</span> a counter, and
-to take money from them, however delicate his feelings may be, has
-seldom much hesitation in making pecuniary claims. From whom? He had not
-carefully considered the question. Whiteladies in general had been
-represented to him by that metaphorical pronoun which is used for so
-many vague things. <i>They</i> ought to give the heir this income; but who
-<i>they</i> were, he was unable on the spur of the moment to say.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame asks from whom?” he said. “I am a stranger. I know little more
-than the name. From Vite-ladies&mdash;from Madame herself&mdash;from the estates
-of which le petit is the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have nothing to do with the estates,” said Miss Susan. She was so
-thankful to be able to speak to him without any one by to make her
-afraid, that she explained herself with double precision and clearness,
-and took pains to put a final end to his hopes.</p>
-
-<p>“My sister and I are happily independent; and you are aware that the
-proprietor of Whiteladies is a young man of twenty-one, not at all
-anxious about an heir, and indeed likely to marry and have children of
-his own.”</p>
-
-<p>“To marry?&mdash;to have children?” said M. Guillaume in unaffected dismay.
-“But, pardon me, M. Herbert is dying. It is an affair of a few weeks,
-perhaps a few days. This is what you said.”</p>
-
-<p>“I said so eighteen months ago, M. Guillaume. Since then there has been
-a most happy change. Herbert is better. He will soon, I hope, be well
-and strong.”</p>
-
-<p>“But he is poitrinaire,” said the old man, eagerly. “He is beyond hope.
-There are rallyings and temporary recoveries, but these maladies are
-never cured&mdash;never cured. Is it not so? You said this yesterday, to help
-me with Giovanna, and I thanked you. But it cannot be, it is not
-possible. I will not believe it!&mdash;such maladies are never cured. And if
-so, why then&mdash;why then!&mdash;no, Madame deceives herself. If this were the
-case, it would be all in vain, all that has been done; and le petit&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not to blame, I hope, for le petit,” said Miss Susan, trying to
-smile, but with a horrible constriction at her heart.</p>
-
-<p>“But why then?” said M. Guillaume, bewildered and indignant, “why then?
-I had settled all with M. Farrel-Austin. Madame has misled me
-altogether; Madame has turned my house upside down. We were quiet, we
-had no agitations; our<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_251" id="page_251"></a>{251}</span> daughter-in-law, if she was not much use to us,
-was yet submissive, and gave no trouble. But Madame comes, and in a
-moment all is changed. Giovanna, whom no one thought of, has a baby, and
-it is put into our heads that he is the heir to a great château in
-England. Bah! this is your château&mdash;this maison de campagne, this
-construction partly of wood&mdash;and now you tell me that le petit is not
-the heir!”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan stood still and looked at the audacious speaker. She was
-stupefied. To insult herself was nothing, but Whiteladies! It appeared
-to her that the earth must certainly open and swallow him up.</p>
-
-<p>“Not that I regret your château!” said the linendraper, wild with wrath.
-“If it were mine, I would pull it down, and build something which should
-be comme il faut, which would last, which should not be of brick and
-wood. The glass would do for the fruit-houses, early fruits for the
-market; and with the wood I should make a temple in the garden, where
-ces dames could drink of the tea! It is all it is good for&mdash;a maison de
-campagne, a house of farmers, a nothing&mdash;and so old! the floors swell
-upward, and the roofs bow downward. It is eaten of worms; it is good for
-rats, not for human beings to live in. And le petit is not the heir! and
-it is Guillaume Austin of Bruges that you go to make a laughing-stock
-of, Madame Suzanne! But it shall not be&mdash;it shall not be!”</p>
-
-<p>I do not know what Miss Susan would have replied to this outburst, had
-not Giovanna suddenly met them coming round the corner of the house.
-Giovanna had many wrongs to avenge, or thought she had many wrongs to
-avenge, upon the family of her husband generally, and she had either a
-favorable inclination toward the ladies who had taken her in and used
-her kindly, or at least as much hope for the future as tempted her to
-take their part.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it, mon beau-père, that shall not be?” she cried. “Ah, I know!
-that which the mother wishes so much does not please here? You want
-money, money, though you are so rich. You say you love le petit, but you
-want money for him. But he is my child, not yours, and I do not ask for
-any money. I am not so fond of it as you are. I know what the belle-mère
-says night and day, night and day. ‘They should give us money, these
-rich<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_252" id="page_252"></a>{252}</span> English, they should give us money; we have them in our power.’
-That is what she is always saying. Ces dames are very good to me, and I
-will not have them robbed. I speak plain, but it is true. Ah! you may
-look as you please, mon beau-père; we are not in Bruges, and I am not
-frightened. You cannot do anything to me here.”</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume stood between the two women, not knowing what to do or say.
-He was wild with rage and disappointment, but he had that chilling sense
-of discomfiture which, even while it gives the desire to speak and
-storm, takes away the power. He turned from Giovanna, who defied him, to
-Miss Susan, who had not got over her horror. Between the old gentlewoman
-who was his social superior, and the young creature made superior to him
-by the advantages of youth and by the stronger passions that moved her,
-the old linendraper stood transfixed, incapable of any individual
-action. He took off his hat once more, and took out his handkerchief,
-and rubbed his bald head with baffled wrath and perplexity. “Sotte!” he
-said under his breath to his daughter-in-law; and at Miss Susan he cast
-a look, which was half of curiosity, to see what impression Giovanna’s
-revelations had made upon her, and the other half made up of fear and
-rage, in equal portions. Miss Susan took the ascendant, as natural to
-her superior birth and breeding.</p>
-
-<p>“If you will come down this way, through the orchard, I will show you
-the ruins of the priory,” she said blandly, making a half-curtsey by way
-of closing the discussion, and turning to lead the way. Her politeness,
-in which there was just that admixture of contempt which keeps an
-inferior in his proper place, altogether cowed the old shopkeeper. He
-turned too, and followed her with increased respect, though suppressed
-resentment. But he cast another look at Giovanna before he followed, and
-muttered still stronger expressions, “Imbecile! idiote!” between his
-teeth, as he followed his guide along the leafy way. Giovanna took this
-abuse with great composure. She laughed as she went back across the
-lawn, leaving them to survey the ruins with what interest they might.
-She even snapped her fingers with a significant gesture. “<i>That</i> for
-thee and thy evil words!” she said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_253" id="page_253"></a>{253}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXVII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ISS SUSAN</small> felt that it was beyond doubt the work of Providence to
-increase her punishment that Everard should arrive as he did quite
-unexpectedly on the evening of this day. M. Guillaume had calmed down
-out of the first passion of his disappointment, and as he was really
-fond of the child, and stood in awe of his wife and daughter, who were
-still more devoted to it, he was now using all his powers to induce
-Giovanna to go back with him. Everard met them in the green lane, on the
-north side of the house, when he arrived. Their appearance struck him
-with some surprise. The old man carried in his arms the child, which was
-still dressed in its Flemish costume, with the little close cap
-concealing its round face. The baby had its arms clasped closely round
-the old man’s neck, and M. Guillaume, in that conjunction, looked more
-venerable and more amiable than when he was arguing with Miss Susan.
-Giovanna walked beside him, and a very animated conversation was going
-on between them. It would be difficult to describe the amazement with
-which Everard perceived this singularly un-English group so near
-Whiteladies. They seemed to have come from the little gate which opened
-on the lane, and they were in eager, almost violent controversy about
-something. Who were they? and what could they have to do with
-Whiteladies? he asked himself, wondering. Everard walked in,
-unannounced, through the long passages, and opened softly the door of
-the drawing-room. Miss Susan was seated at a small desk near one of the
-windows. She had her face buried in her hands, most pathetic, and most
-suggestive of all the attitudes of distress. Her gray hair was pushed
-back a little by the painful grasp of her fingers. She was giving vent
-to a low moaning,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_254" id="page_254"></a>{254}</span> almost more the breathing of pain than an articulate
-cry of suffering.</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan! What is the matter?”</p>
-
-<p>She raised herself instantly, with a smile on her face&mdash;a smile so
-completely and unmistakably artificial, and put on for purposes of
-concealment, that it scared Everard almost more than her trouble did.
-“What, Everard!” she said, “is it you? This is a pleasure I was not
-looking for&mdash;” and she rose up and held out her hands to him. There was
-some trace of redness about her eyes; but it looked more like want of
-rest than tears; and as her manner was manifestly put on, a certain
-jauntiness, quite unlike Miss Susan, had got into it. The smile which
-she forced by dint of the strong effort required to produce it, got
-exaggerated, and ran almost into a laugh; her head had a little nervous
-toss. A stranger would have said her manner was full of affectation.
-This was the strange aspect which her emotion took.</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter?” Everard repeated, taking her hands into his, and
-looking at her earnestly. “Is there bad news?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; nothing of the kind. I had a little attack of&mdash;that old pain I
-used to suffer from&mdash;neuralgia, I suppose. As one gets older one
-dislikes owning to rheumatism. No, no, no bad news; a little physical
-annoyance&mdash;nothing more.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard tried hard to recollect what the “old pain” was, but could not
-succeed in identifying anything of the kind with the always vigorous
-Miss Susan. She interrupted his reflections by saying with a very jaunty
-air, which contrasted strangely with her usual manner, “Did you meet our
-aristocratic visitors?”</p>
-
-<p>“An old Frenchman, with a funny little child clasped round his neck,”
-said Everard, to whose simple English understanding all foreigners were
-Frenchmen, “and a very handsome young woman. Do they belong here? I did
-meet them, and could not make them out. The old man looked a genial old
-soul. I liked to see him with the child. Your visitors! Where did you
-pick them up?”</p>
-
-<p>“These are very important people to the house and to the race,” said
-Miss Susan, with once more, so to speak, a flutter of her wings. “They
-are&mdash;but come, guess; does nothing whisper to you who they are?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_255" id="page_255"></a>{255}</span></p>
-
-<p>“How should it?” said Everard, in his dissatisfaction with Miss Susan’s
-strange demeanor growing somewhat angry. “What have such people to do
-with you? The old fellow is nice-looking enough, and the woman really
-handsome; but they don’t seem the kind of people one would expect to see
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan made a pause, smiling again in that same sickly forced way.
-“They say it is always good for a race when it comes back to the people,
-to the wholesome common stock, after a great many generations of useless
-gentlefolk. These are the Austins of Bruges, Everard, whom you hunted
-all over the world. They are simple Belgian tradespeople, but at the
-same time Austins, pur sang.”</p>
-
-<p>“The Austins of Bruges?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; come over on a visit. It was very kind of them, though we are
-beginning to tire of each other. The old man, M. Guillaume, he whom
-Farrel thought he had done away with, and his daughter-in-law, a young
-widow, and the little child, who is&mdash;the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“The heir?&mdash;of the shop, you mean, I suppose.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do nothing of the kind, Everard, and it is unkind of you not to
-understand. The next heir to Whiteladies.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bah!” said Everard. “Make your mind easy, Aunt Susan. Herbert will
-marry before he has been six months at home. I know Herbert. He has been
-helpless and dependent so long, that the moment he has a chance of
-proving himself a man by the glorious superiority of having a wife, he
-will do it. Poor fellow! after you have been led about and domineered
-over all your life, of course you want, in your turn, to domineer over
-some one. See if my words don’t come true.”</p>
-
-<p>“So that is your idea of marriage&mdash;to domineer over some one? Poor
-creatures!” said Miss Susan, compassionately; “you will soon find out
-the difference. I hope he may, Everard&mdash;I hope he may. He shall have my
-blessing, I promise you, and willing consent. To be quit of that child
-and its heirship, and know there was some one who had a real right to
-the place&mdash;Good heavens, what would I not give!”</p>
-
-<p>“It appears, then, you don’t admire those good people from Bruges?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I have nothing to say against them,” said Miss Susan,
-faltering&mdash;“nothing! The old man is highly respectable, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_256" id="page_256"></a>{256}</span> Madame
-Austin le jeune, is&mdash;very nice-looking. They are quite a nice sort of
-people&mdash;for their station in life.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you are tired of them,” said Everard, with a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, perhaps to say tired is too strong an expression,” said Miss
-Susan, with a panting at the throat which belied her calm speech. “But
-we have little in common, as you may suppose. We don’t know what to say
-to each other; that is the great drawback at all times between the
-different classes. Their ideas are different from ours. Besides, they
-are foreign, which makes more difference still.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have come to stay till Monday, if you will have me,” said Everard;
-“so I shall be able to judge for myself. I thought the young woman was
-very pretty. Is there a Monsieur Austin le jeune? A widow! Oh, then you
-may expect her, if she stays, to turn a good many heads.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan gave him a searching, wondering look. “You are mistaken,” she
-said. “She is not anything so wonderful good-looking, even handsome&mdash;but
-not a beauty to turn men’s heads.”</p>
-
-<p>“We shall see,” said Everard lightly. “And now tell me what news you
-have of the travellers. They don’t write to me now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why?” said Miss Susan, eager to change the subject, and, besides, very
-ready to take an interest in anything that concerned the intercourse
-between Everard and Reine.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I don’t know,” he said, shrugging his shoulders. “Somehow we are
-not so intimate as we were. Reine told me, indeed, the last time she
-wrote that it was unnecessary to write so often, now that Herbert was
-well&mdash;as if that was all I cared for!” These last words were said low,
-after a pause, and there was a tone of indignation and complaint in
-them, subdued yet perceptible, which, even in the midst of her trouble,
-was balmy to Miss Susan’s ear.</p>
-
-<p>“Reine is a capricious child,” she said, with a passing gleam of
-enjoyment. “You saw a great deal of them before you went to Jamaica. But
-that is nearly two years since,” she added, maliciously; “many changes
-have taken place since then.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is true,” said Everard. And it was still more true, though he did
-not say so, that the change had not all been on Reine’s part. He, too,
-had been capricious, and two or three<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_257" id="page_257"></a>{257}</span> broken and fugitive flirtations
-had occurred in his life since that day when, deeply émotionné and not
-knowing how to keep his feelings to himself, he had left Reine in the
-little Alpine valley. That Alpine valley already looked very far off to
-him; but he should have preferred, on the whole, to find its memory and
-influence more fresh with Reine. He framed his lips unconsciously to a
-whistle as he submitted to Miss Susan’s examination, which meant to
-express that he didn’t care, that if Reine chose to be indifferent and
-forgetful, why, he could be indifferent too. Instantly, however, he
-remembered, before any sound became audible, that to whistle was
-indecorous, and forbore.</p>
-
-<p>“And how are your own affairs going on?” said Miss Susan; “we have not
-had any conversation on the subject since you came back. Well? I am glad
-to hear it. You have not really been a loser, then, by your fright and
-your hard work?”</p>
-
-<p>“Rather a gainer on the whole,” said Everard; “besides the amusement.
-Work is not such a bad thing when you are fond of it. If ever I am in
-great need, or take a panic again, I shall enjoy it. It takes up your
-thoughts.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why don’t you go on, having made a beginning?” said Miss Susan.
-“You are very well off for a young man, Everard; but suppose you were to
-marry? And now that you have made a beginning, and got over the worst, I
-wish you could go on.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think I shall ever marry,” said Everard, with a vague smile
-creeping about the corners of his lips.</p>
-
-<p>“Very likely! You should have gone on, Everard. A little more money
-never comes amiss; and as you really like work&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“When I am forced to it,” he said, laughing. “I am not forced now; that
-makes all the difference. You don’t expect a young man of the nineteenth
-century, brought up as I have been, to go to work in cold blood without
-a motive. No, no, that is too much.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you please, ma’am,” said Martha, coming in, “Stevens wishes to know
-if the foreign lady and gentleman is staying over Sunday. And Cook
-wishes to say, please&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>A shadow came over Miss Susan’s face. She forgot the appearances which
-she had been keeping up with Everard. The color went out of her cheeks;
-her eyes grew dull and dead, as if the life<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_258" id="page_258"></a>{258}</span> had died out of them. She
-put up her hands to stop this further demand upon her.</p>
-
-<p>“They cannot go on Sunday, of course,” she said, “and it is too late to
-go to-day. Stevens knows that as well as I do, and so do you all. Of
-course they mean to stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“And if you please, ma’am, Cook says the baby&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No more, please, no more!” cried Miss Susan, faintly. “I shall come
-presently and talk to Cook.”</p>
-
-<p>“You want to get rid of these people,” said Everard, sympathetically,
-startled by her look. “You don’t like them, Aunt Susan, whatever you may
-say.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hate them!” she said, low under her breath, with a tone of feeling so
-intense that he was alarmed by it. Then she recovered herself suddenly,
-chased the cloud from her face, and fell back into the jaunty manner
-which had so much surprised and almost shocked him before. “Of course I
-don’t mean that,” she said, with a laugh. “Even I have caught your
-fashion of exaggeration; but I don’t love them, indeed, and I think a
-Sunday with them in the house is a very dismal affair to look forward
-to. Go and dress, Everard; there is the bell. I must go and speak to
-Cook.”</p>
-
-<p>While this conversation had been going on in-doors, the two foreigners
-thus discussed were walking up and down Priory Lane, in close
-conversation still. They did not hear the dressing-bell, or did not care
-for it. As for Giovanna, she had never yet troubled herself to ask what
-the preliminary bell meant. She had no dresses to change, and having no
-acquaintance with the habit which prescribed this alteration of costume
-in the evening, made no attempt to comply with it. The child clung about
-M. Guillaume’s neck, and gave power to his arguments, though it nearly
-strangled him with its close clasp. “My good Giovanna,” he said, “why
-put yourself in opposition to all your friends? We are your friends,
-though you will not think so. This darling, the light of our eyes, you
-will not steal him from us. Yes, my own! it is of thee I speak. The
-blessed infant knows; look how he holds me! You would not deprive me of
-him, my daughter&mdash;my dear child?”</p>
-
-<p>“I should not steal him, anyhow,” said the young woman, with an
-exultation which he thought cruel. “He is mine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know. I have always respected zight, chérie; you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_259" id="page_259"></a>{259}</span> know I have.
-When thy mother-in-law would have had me take authority over him, I have
-said ‘No; she is his mother; the right is with her’&mdash;always, ma fille! I
-ask thee as a favor&mdash;I do not command thee, though some, you know, might
-think&mdash;. Listen, my child. The little one will be nothing but a burden
-to you in the world. If you should wish to go away, to see new faces, to
-be independent, though it is so strange for a woman, yet think, my
-child, the little one would be a burden. You have not the habits of our
-Gertrude, who understands children. Leave thy little one with us! You
-will then be free to go where you will.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you will be rid of me!” cried the young woman, with passionate
-scorn. “Ah, I know you! I know what you mean. To get the child without
-me would be victory. Ma belle-mère would be glad, and Gertrude, who
-understands children. Understand me, then, mon beau-père. The child is
-my power. I will never leave hold of him; he is my power. By him I can
-revenge myself; without him I am nobody, and you do not fear me. Give my
-baby to me!”</p>
-
-<p>She seized the child, who struggled to keep his hold, and dragged him
-out of his grandfather’s arms. The little fellow had his mouth open to
-cry, when she deftly filled it with her handkerchief, and, setting him
-down forcibly on his little legs, shook him into frightened silence.
-“Cry, and I will beat thee!” she said. Then turning to the grandfather,
-who was remonstrating and entreating, “He shall walk; he is big enough;
-he shall not be carried nor spoiled, as you would spoil him. Listen, bon
-papa. I have not anything else to keep my own part with; but <i>he</i> is
-mine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna! Giovanna! think less of thyself and more of thy child!”</p>
-
-<p>“When I find you set me a good example,” she said. “Is it not your
-comfort you seek, caring nothing for mine? Get rid of me, and keep the
-child! Ah, I perceive my belle-mère in that! But it is his interest to
-be here. Ces dames, though they don’t love us, are kind enough. And
-listen to me; they will never give you the rente you demand for the
-boy&mdash;never; but if he stays here and I stay here, they will not turn us
-out. Ah, no, Madame Suzanne dares not turn me out! See, then, the reason
-of what I am doing. You love the child, but you do not wish<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_260" id="page_260"></a>{260}</span> a burden;
-and if you take him away, it will be as a burden; they will never give
-you a sous for him. But leave us here, and they will be forced to
-nourish us and lodge us. Ah, you perceive! I am not without reason; I
-know what I do.”</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume was staggered. Angry as he was to have the child dragged
-from his arms, and dismayed as he was by Giovanna’s indifference to its
-fright and tears, there was still something in this argument which
-compelled his attention. It was true that the subject of an allowance
-for the baby’s maintenance and education had been of late very much
-talked of at Bruges, and the family had unanimously concluded that it
-was a right and necessary thing, and the letter making the claim had
-begun to be concocted, when Giovanna, stung by some quarrel, had
-suddenly taken the matter into her own hands. To take back the child
-would be sweet; but to take it back pensionless and almost hopeless,
-with its heirship rendered uncertain, and its immediate claims denied,
-would not be sweet. M. Guillaume was torn in twain by conflicting
-sentiments, his paternal feelings struggling against a very strong
-desire to make what could be honestly made out of Whiteladies, and to
-have the baby provided for. His wife was eager to have the child, but
-would she be as eager if she knew that it was totally penniless, and had
-only visionary expectations. Would not she complain more and more of
-Giovanna, who did nothing, and even of the child itself, another mouth
-to be fed? This view of the subject silenced and confounded him. “If I
-could hope that thou wouldst be kind!” he said, falteringly, eying the
-poor baby, over whom his heart yearned. His heart yearned over the
-child; and yet he felt it would be something of a triumph could he
-exploit Miss Susan, and transfer an undesirable burden from his own
-shoulders to hers. Surely this was worth doing, after her English
-coldness and her aristocratic contempt. M. Guillaume did not like to be
-looked down upon. He had been wounded in his pride and hurt in his
-tender feelings; and now he would be revenged on her! He put his hand on
-Giovanna’s shoulder, and drew closer to her, and they held a
-consultation with their heads together, which was only interrupted by
-the appearance of Stevens, very dark and solemn, who begged to ask if
-they were aware that the dinner-bell had rung full five minutes before?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_261" id="page_261"></a>{261}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXVIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> dinner-table in the old hall was surrounded by a very odd party that
-night. Miss Susan, at the head of the table, in the handsome matronly
-evening dress which she took to always at the beginning of Winter, did
-her best to look as usual, though she could not quite keep the panting
-of her breast from being visible under her black silk and lace. She was
-breathless, as if she had been running hard; this was the form her
-agitation took. Miss Augustine, at the other end of the table, sat
-motionless, absorbed in her own thoughts, and quite unmoved by what was
-going on around her. Everard had one side to himself, from which he
-watched with great curiosity the pair opposite him, who came in
-abruptly&mdash;Giovanna, with her black hair slightly ruffled by the wind,
-and M. Guillaume, rubbing his bald head. This was all the toilet they
-had made. The meal began almost in silence, with a few remarks only
-between Miss Susan and Everard. M. Guillaume was pre-occupied. Giovanna
-was at no time disposed for much conversation. Miss Susan, however,
-after a little interval, began to talk significantly, so as to attract
-the strangers.</p>
-
-<p>“You said you had not heard lately from Herbert,” she said, addressing
-her young cousin. “You don’t know, then, I suppose, that they have made
-all their plans for coming home?”</p>
-
-<p>“Not before the Winter, I hope.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, no, not before the Winter&mdash;in May, when we hope it will be quite
-safe. They are coming home, not for a visit, but to settle. And we must
-think of looking for a house,” said Miss Susan, with a smile and a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean that you&mdash;you who have been mistress of Whiteladies for so
-long&mdash;that you will leave Whiteladies? They will never allow that,” said
-Everard.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_262" id="page_262"></a>{262}</span></p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan looked him meaningly in the face, with a gleam of her eye
-toward the strangers on the other side of the table. How could he tell
-what meaning she wished to convey to him? Men are not clever at
-interpreting such communications in the best of circumstances, and,
-perfectly ignorant as he was of the circumstances, how could Everard
-make out what she wanted? But the look silenced and left him gaping with
-his mouth open, feeling that something was expected of him, and not
-knowing what to say.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that is my intention,” said Miss Susan, with that jaunty air which
-had so perplexed and annoyed him before. “When Herbert comes home, he
-has his sister with him to keep his house. I should be superseded. I
-should be merely a lodger, a visitor in Whiteladies, and that I could
-not put up with. I shall go, of course.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Aunt Susan, Reine would never think&mdash;Herbert would never permit&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Another glance, still more full of meaning, but of meaning beyond
-Everard’s grasp, stopped him again. What could she want him to do or
-say? he asked himself. What could she be thinking of?</p>
-
-<p>“The thing is settled,” said Miss Susan; “of course we must go. The
-house and everything in it belongs to Herbert. He will marry, of course.
-Did not you say to me this very afternoon that he was sure to marry?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” Everard answered faintly; “but&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“There is no but,” she replied, with almost a triumphant air. “It is a
-matter of course. I shall feel leaving the old house, but I have no
-right to it, it is not mine, and I do not mean to make any fuss. In six
-months from this time, if all is well, we shall be out of Whiteladies.”</p>
-
-<p>She said this with again a little toss of her head, as if in
-satisfaction. Giovanna and M. Guillaume exchanged alarmed glances. The
-words were taking effect.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it settled?” said Augustine, calmly. “I did not know things had gone
-so far. The question now is, Who will Herbert marry? We once talked of
-this in respect to you, Everard, and I told you my views&mdash;I should say
-my wishes. Herbert has been restored as by a miracle. He ought to be
-very thankful&mdash;he ought<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_263" id="page_263"></a>{263}</span> to show his gratitude. But it depends much upon
-the kind of woman he marries. I thought once in respect to you&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Augustine, we need not enter into these questions before strangers,”
-said Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“It does not matter who is present,” said Augustine. “Every one knows
-what my life is, and what is the curse of our house.”</p>
-
-<p>“Pardon, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume. “I am of the house, but I do
-not know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Augustine, looking at him. “After Herbert, you represent the
-elder branch, it is true; but you have not a daughter who is young,
-under twenty, have you? that is what I want to know.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have three daughters, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume, delighted to
-find a subject on which he could expatiate; “all very good&mdash;gentille,
-kind to every one. There is Madeleine, who is the wife of M. Meeren, the
-jeweller&mdash;François Meeren, the eldest son, very well off; and Marie, who
-is settled at Courtray, whose husband has a great manufactory; and
-Gertrude, my youngest, who has married my partner&mdash;they will succeed her
-mother and me when our day is over. Ma sœur knows that my son died.
-Yes; these are misfortunes that all have to bear. This is my family.
-They are very good women, though I say it&mdash;pious and good mothers and
-wives, and obedient to their husbands and kind to the poor.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine had continued to look at him, but the animation had faded out
-of her eyes. “Men’s wives are of little interest to me,” she said. “What
-I want is one who is young, and who would understand and do what I say.”</p>
-
-<p>Here Giovanna got up from her chair, pushing it back with a force which
-almost made Stevens drop the dish he was carrying. “Me!” she cried, with
-a gleam of malice in her eyes, “me, ma sœur! I am younger than
-Gertrude and the rest. I am no one’s wife. Let it be me.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine looked at her with curious scrutiny, measuring her from head
-to foot, as it were; while Miss Susan, horror-stricken at once by the
-discussion and the indecorum, looked on breathless. Then Augustine
-turned away.</p>
-
-<p>“<i>You</i> could not be Herbert’s wife,” she said, with her usual abstract
-quiet; and added softly, “I must ask for enlightenment.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_264" id="page_264"></a>{264}</span> I shall speak
-to my people at the almshouses to-morrow. We have done so much. His life
-has been given to us; why not the family salvation too?”</p>
-
-<p>“These are questions which had better not be discussed at the
-dinner-table,” said Miss Susan; “a place where in England we don’t think
-it right to indulge in expressions of feeling. Madame Jean, I am afraid
-you are surprised by my sister’s ways. In the family we all know what
-she means exactly; but outside the family&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I am one of the family,” said Giovanna, leaning back in her chair, on
-which she had reseated herself. She put up her hands, and clasped them
-behind her head in an attitude which was of the easiest and freest
-description. “I eat no more, thank you, take it away; though the cuisine
-is better than my belle mère’s, bon papa; but I cannot eat forever, like
-you English. Oh, I am one of the family. I understand also, and I
-think&mdash;there are many things that come into my head.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan gave her a look which was full of fright and dislike, but not
-of understanding. Everard only thought he caught for a moment the gleam
-of sudden malicious meaning in her eyes. She laughed a low laugh, and
-looked at him across the table, yawning and stretching her arms, which
-were hidden by her black sleeves, but which Everard divined to be
-beautiful ones, somewhat large, but fine and shapely. His eyes sought
-hers half unwillingly, attracted in spite of himself. How full of life
-and youth and warmth and force she looked among all these old people!
-Even her careless gestures, her want of breeding, over which Stevens was
-groaning, seemed to make it more evident; and he thought to himself,
-with a shudder, that he understood what was in her eye.</p>
-
-<p>But none of the old people thought the rude young woman worth notice.
-Her father-in-law pulled her skirt sharply under the table, to recall
-her to “her manners,” and she laughed, but did not alter her position.
-Miss Susan was horrified and angry, but her indignation went no further.
-She turned to the old linendraper with elaborate politeness.</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid you will find our English Sunday dull,” she said. “You know
-we have different ideas from those you have abroad; and if you want to
-go to-morrow, travelling is difficult on Sunday&mdash;though to be sure we
-might make an effort.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_265" id="page_265"></a>{265}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Pardon, I have no intention of going to-morrow,” said M. Guillaume. “I
-have been thinking much&mdash;and after dinner I will disclose to Madame what
-my thoughts have been.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan’s bosom swelled with suspense and pain. “That will do,
-Stevens, that will do,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>He had been wandering round and round the table for about an hour, she
-thought, with sweet dishes of which there was an unusual and unnecessary
-abundance, and which no one tasted. She felt sure, as people always do,
-when they are aware of something to conceal, that he lingered so long on
-purpose to spy out what he could of the mystery; and now her heart beat
-with feverish desire to know what was the nature of M. Guillaume’s
-thoughts. Why did not he say plainly, “We are going on Monday?” That
-would have been a hundred times better than any thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>“It will be well if you will come to the Almshouses to-morrow,” said
-Miss Augustine, once more taking the conduct of the conversation into
-her hands. “It will be well for yourself to show at least that you
-understand what the burden of the family is. Perhaps good thoughts will
-be put into your heart; perhaps, as you are the next in succession of
-our family&mdash;ah! I must think of that. You are an old man; you cannot be
-ambitious,” she said slowly and calmly; “nor love the world as others
-do.”</p>
-
-<p>“You flatter me, ma sœur,” said M. Guillaume. “I should be proud to
-deserve your commendation; but I am ambitious. Not for myself&mdash;for me it
-is nothing; but if this child were the master here, I should die happy.
-It is what I wish for most.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is,” said Miss Susan, with rising color (and oh, how thankful she
-was for some feasible pretext by which to throw off a little of the
-rising tide of feeling within her!)&mdash;“that is&mdash;what M. Guillaume Austin
-wishes for most is, that Herbert, our boy, whom God has spared, should
-get worse again, and die.”</p>
-
-<p>The old man looked up at her, startled, having, like so many others,
-thought innocently enough of what was most important to himself, without
-considering how it told upon the others. Giovanna, however, put herself
-suddenly in the breach.</p>
-
-<p>“I,” she cried, with another quick change of movement&mdash;“I am the child’s
-mother, Madame Suzanne, you know; yet I do not wish this. Listen. I
-drink to the health of M. Herbert!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_266" id="page_266"></a>{266}</span> she cried, lifting up the nearest
-glass of wine, which happened to be her father-in-law’s; “that he comes
-home well and strong, that he takes a wife, that he lives long! I carry
-this to his health. Vive M. Herbert!” she cried, and drank the wine,
-which brought a sudden flush to her cheeks, and lighted up her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>They all gazed at her&mdash;I cannot say with what disapproval and secret
-horror in their elderly calm; except Everard, who, always ready to
-admire a pretty woman, felt a sudden enthusiasm taking possession of
-him. He, oddly enough, was the only one to understand her meaning; but
-how handsome she was! how splendid the glow in her eyes! He looked
-across the table, and bowed and pledged her. He was the only one who did
-not look at her with disapproval. Her beauty conciliated the young man,
-in spite of himself.</p>
-
-<p>“Drinking to him is a vain ceremony,” said Augustine; “but if you were
-to practise self-denial, and get up early, and come to the Almshouses
-every morning with me&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I will,” said Giovanna, quickly, “I will! every morning, if ma sœur
-will permit me&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not suppose that every morning can mean much in Madame Jean’s
-case,” said Miss Susan stiffly, “as no doubt she will be returning home
-before long.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do not check the young woman, Susan, when she shows good dispositions,”
-said Augustine. “It is always good to pray. You are worldly-minded
-yourself, and do not think as I do; but when I can find one to feel with
-me, that makes me happy. She may stay longer than you think.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan could not restrain a low exclamation of dismay. Everard,
-looking at her, saw that her face began to wear that terrible look of
-conscious impotence&mdash;helpless and driven into a corner, which is so
-unendurable to the strong. She was of more personal importance
-individually than all the tormentors who surrounded her, but she was
-powerless, and could do nothing against them. Her cheeks flushed hot
-under her eyes, which seemed scorched, and dazzled too, by this burning
-of shame. He said something to her in a low tone, to call off her
-attention, and perceived that the strong woman, generally mistress of
-the circumstances, was unable to answer him out of sheer emotion.
-Fortunately, by this time the dessert was on the table, and she rose<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_267" id="page_267"></a>{267}</span>
-abruptly. Augustine, slower, rose too. Giovanna, however, sat still
-composedly by her father-in-law’s side.</p>
-
-<p>“The bon papa has not finished his wine,” she said, pointing to him.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Jean,” said Miss Susan, “in England you must do as English
-ladies do. I cannot permit anything else in my house.”</p>
-
-<p>It was not this that made her excited, but it was a mode of throwing
-forth a little of that excitement which, moment by moment, was getting
-to be more than she could bear. Giovanna, after another look, got up and
-obeyed her without a word.</p>
-
-<p>“So this is the mode Anglaise!” said the old man when they were gone;
-“it is not polite; it is to show, I suppose, that we are not welcome;
-but Madame Suzanne need not give herself the trouble. If she will do her
-duty to her relations, I do not mean to stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not know what it is about,” said Everard; “but she always does her
-duty by everybody, and you need not be afraid.”</p>
-
-<p>On this hint M. Guillaume began, and told Everard the whole matter,
-filling him with perplexity. The story of Miss Susan’s visit sounded
-strangely enough, though the simple narrator knew nothing of its worst
-consequences; but he told his interested auditor how she had tempted him
-to throw up his bargain with Farrel-Austin, and raised hopes which now
-she seemed so little inclined to realize; and the story was not
-agreeable to Everard’s ear. Farrel-Austin, no doubt, had begun this
-curious oblique dealing; but Farrel-Austin was a man from whom little
-was expected, and Everard had been used to expect much from Miss Susan.
-But he did not know, all the time, that he was driving her almost mad,
-keeping back the old man, who had promised that evening to let her know
-the issue of his thoughts. She was sitting in a corner, speechless and
-rigid with agitation, when the two came in from the dining-room to “join
-the ladies;” and even then Everard, in his ignorance, would have seated
-himself beside her, to postpone the explanation still longer. “Go away!
-go away!” she said to him in a wild whisper. What could she mean? for
-certainly there could be nothing tragical connected with this old man,
-or so at least Everard thought.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame will excuse me, I hope,” said Guillaume blandly; “as it is the
-mode Anglaise, I endeavored to follow it, though<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_268" id="page_268"></a>{268}</span> it seems little
-polite. But it is not for one country to condemn the ways of the other.
-If Madame wishes it, I will now say the result of my thoughts.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan, who was past speaking, nodded her head, and did her best to
-form her lips into a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame informs me,” said M. Guillaume, “that Monsieur Herbert is
-better, that the chances of le petit are small, and that there is no one
-to give to the child the rente, the allowance, that is his due?”</p>
-
-<p>“That is true, quite true.”</p>
-
-<p>“On the other hand,” said M. Guillaume, “Giovanna has told me her
-ideas&mdash;she will not come away with me. What she says is that her boy has
-a right to be here; and she will not leave Viteladies. What can I say?
-Madame perceives that it is not easy to change the ideas of Giovanna
-when she has made up her mind.”</p>
-
-<p>“But what has her mind to do with it,” cried Miss Susan in despair,
-“when it is you who have the power?”</p>
-
-<p>“Madame is right, of course,” said the old shopkeeper; “it is I who have
-the power. I am the father, the head of the house. Still, a good father
-is not a tyrant, Madame Suzanne; a good father hears reason. Giovanna
-says to me, ‘It is well; if le petit has no right, it is for M. le
-Proprietaire to say so.’ She is not without acuteness, Madame will
-perceive. What she says is, ‘If Madame Suzanne cannot provide for le
-petit&mdash;will not make him any allowance&mdash;and tells us that she has
-nothing to do with Viteladies&mdash;then it is best to wait until they come
-who have to do with it. M. Herbert returns in May. Eh, bien! she will
-remain till then, that M. Herbert, who must know best, may decide.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was thunderstruck. She was driven into silence, paralyzed by
-this intimation. She looked at the old shopkeeper with a dumb strain of
-terror and appeal in her face, which moved him, though he did not
-understand.</p>
-
-<p>“Mon Dieu! Madame,” he cried; “can I help it? it is not I; I am without
-power!”</p>
-
-<p>“But she shall not stay&mdash;I cannot have her; I will not have her!” cried
-Miss Susan, in her dismay.</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume said nothing, but he beckoned his step-daughter from the
-other end of the room.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_269" id="page_269"></a>{269}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Speak for thyself,” he said. “Thou art not wanted here, nor thy child
-either. It would be better to return with me.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna looked Miss Susan fall in the eyes, with an audacious smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Suzanne will not send me away,” she said; “I am sure she will
-not send me away.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan felt herself caught in the toils. She looked from one to
-another with despairing eyes. She might appeal to the old man, but she
-knew it was hopeless to appeal to the young woman, who stood over her
-with determination in every line of her face, and conscious power
-glancing from her eyes. She subdued herself by an incalculable effort.</p>
-
-<p>“I thought,” she said, faltering, “that it would be happier for you to
-go back to your home&mdash;that to be near your friends would please you. It
-may be comfortable enough here, but you would miss the&mdash;society of your
-friends&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My mother-in-law?” said Giovanna, with a laugh. “Madame is too good to
-think of me. Yes, it is dull, I know; but for the child I overlook that.
-I will stay till M. Herbert comes. The bon papa is fond of the child,
-but he loves his rente, and will leave us when we are penniless. I will
-stay till M. Herbert returns, who must govern everything. Madame Suzanne
-will not contradict me, otherwise I shall have no choice. I shall be
-forced to go to M. Herbert to tell him all.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan sat still and listened. She had to keep silence, though her
-heart beat so that it seemed to be escaping out of her sober breast, and
-the blood filled her veins to bursting.</p>
-
-<p>Heaven help her! here was her punishment. Fiery passion blazed in her,
-but she durst not betray it; and to keep it down&mdash;to keep it silent&mdash;was
-all she was able to do. She answered, faltering,&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“You are mistaken; you are mistaken. Herbert will do nothing. Besides,
-some one could write and tell you what he says.”</p>
-
-<p>“Pardon! but I move not; I leave not,” said Giovanna. She enjoyed the
-triumph. “I am a mother,” she said; “Madame Suzanne knows; and mothers
-sacrifice everything for the good of their children&mdash;everything. I am
-able for the sacrifice,” she said, looking down upon Miss Susan with a
-gleam almost of laughter&mdash;of fun, humor, and malicious amusement in her
-eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_270" id="page_270"></a>{270}</span></p>
-
-<p>To reason with this creature was like dashing one’s self against a stone
-wall. She was impregnable in her resolution. Miss Susan, feeling the
-blow go to her heart, pushed her chair back into the corner, and hid
-herself, as it were. It was a dark corner, where her face was in
-comparative darkness.</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot struggle with you,” she said, in a piteous whisper, feeling
-her lips too parched and dry for another word.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_271" id="page_271"></a>{271}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXIX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“G</span><span class="smcap">oing</span> to stay till Herbert comes back! but, my dear Aunt Susan, since
-you don’t want her&mdash;and of course you don’t want her&mdash;why don’t you say
-so?” cried Everard. “An unwelcome guest may be endured for a day or two,
-or a week or two, but for five or six months&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear,” said Miss Susan, who was pale, and in whose vigorous frame a
-tremble of weakness seemed so out of place, “how can I say so? It would
-be so&mdash;discourteous&mdash;so uncivil&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>The young man looked at her with dismay. He would have laughed had she
-not been so deadly serious. Her face was white and drawn, her lips
-quivered slightly as she spoke. She looked all at once a weak old woman,
-tremulous, broken down, and uncertain of herself.</p>
-
-<p>“You must be ill,” he said. “I can’t believe it is you I am speaking to.
-You ought to see the doctor, Aunt Susan&mdash;you cannot be well.”</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps,” she said with a pitiful attempt at a smile, “perhaps. Indeed
-you must be right, Everard, for I don’t feel like myself. I am getting
-old, you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nonsense!” he said lightly, “you were as young as any of us last time I
-was here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Miss Susan, with her quivering lips. “I have kept that up too
-long. I have gone on being young&mdash;and now all at once I am old; that is
-how it is.”</p>
-
-<p>“But that does not make any difference in my argument,” said Everard;
-“if you are old&mdash;which I don’t believe&mdash;the less reason is there for
-having you vexed. You don’t like this guest who is going to inflict
-herself upon you. I shouldn’t mind her,” he added, with a laugh; “she’s
-very handsome, Aunt Susan; but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_272" id="page_272"></a>{272}</span> I don’t suppose that affects you in the
-same way; and she will be quite out of place when Herbert comes, or at
-least when Reine comes. I advise you to tell her plainly, before the old
-fellow goes, that it won’t do.”</p>
-
-<p>“I can’t, my dear&mdash;I can’t!” said Miss Susan; how her lips
-quivered!&mdash;“she is in my house, she is my guest, and I can’t say ‘Go
-away.’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“Why not? She is not a person of very fine feelings, to be hurt by it.
-She is not even a lady; and till May, till the end of May! you will
-never be able to endure her.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes I shall,” said Miss Susan. “I see you think that I am very
-weak; but I never was uncivil to any one, Everard, not to any one in my
-own house. It is Herbert’s house, of course,” she added quickly, “but
-yet it has been mine, though I never had any real right to it for so
-many years.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you really mean to leave now?”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose so,” said Miss Susan faltering, “I think, probably&mdash;nothing
-is settled. Don’t be too hard upon me, Everard! I said so&mdash;for them, to
-show them that I had no power.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why, for heaven’s sake, if you have so strong a feeling&mdash;why, for
-the sake of politeness!&mdash;Politeness is absurd, Aunt Susan,” said
-Everard. “Do you mean to say that if any saucy fellow, any cad I may
-have met, chose to come into my house and take possession, I should not
-kick him out because it would be uncivil? This is not like your good
-sense. You must have some other reason. No! do you mean No by that shake
-of the head? Then if it is so very disagreeable to you, let me speak to
-her. Let me suggest&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Not for the world,” cried Miss Susan. “No, for pity’s sake, no. You
-will make me frantic if you speak of such a thing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Or to the old fellow,” said Everard; “he ought to see the absurdity of
-it, and the tyranny.”</p>
-
-<p>She caught at this evidently with a little hope. “You may speak to
-Monsieur Guillaume if you feel disposed,” she said; “yes, you may speak
-to him. I blame him very much; he ought not to have listened to her; he
-ought to have taken her away at once.”</p>
-
-<p>“How could he if she wouldn’t go? Men no doubt are powerful beings,”
-said Everard laughing, “but suppose the other<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_273" id="page_273"></a>{273}</span> side refused to be moved?
-Even a horse at the water, if it declines to drink&mdash;you know the
-proverb.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, don’t worry me with proverbs&mdash;as if I had not enough without that!”
-she said with an impatience which would have been comic had it not been
-so tragical. “Yes, Everard, yes, if you like you may speak to him&mdash;but
-not to her; not a word to her for the world. My dear boy, my dear boy!
-You won’t go against me in this?”</p>
-
-<p>“Of course I shall do only what you wish me to do,” he said more
-gravely; the sight of her agitation troubled the young man exceedingly.
-To think of any concealed feeling, any mystery in connection with Susan
-Austin, seemed not only a blasphemy, but an absurdity. Yet what could
-she mean, what could her strange terror, her changed looks, her agitated
-aspect, mean? Everard was more disturbed than he could say.</p>
-
-<p>This was on Sunday afternoon, that hour of all others when clouds hang
-heaviest, and troubles, where they exist, come most into the foreground.
-The occupations of ordinary life push them aside, but Sunday, which is
-devoted to rest, and in which so many people honestly endeavor to put
-the trifling little cares of every day out of their minds, always lays
-hold of those bigger disturbers of existence which it is the aim of our
-lives to forget. Miss Susan would have made a brave fight against the
-evil which she could not avoid on another day, but this day, with all
-its many associations of quiet, its outside tranquillity, its peaceful
-recollections and habits, was too much for her. Everard had found her
-walking in the Priory Lane by herself, a bitter dew of pain in her eyes,
-and a tremble in her lips which frightened him. She had come out to
-collect her thoughts a little, and to escape from her visitors, who
-sometimes seemed for the moment more than she could bear.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine came up on her way from the afternoon service at the
-Almshouses, while Everard spoke. She was accompanied by Giovanna, and it
-was a curious sight to see the tall, slight figure of the Gray sister,
-type of everything abstract and mystic, with that other by her side,
-full of strange vitality, watching the absorbed and dreamy creature with
-those looks of investigation, puzzled to know what her meaning was, but
-determined somehow to be at the bottom of it. Giovanna’s eyes darted a
-keen telegraphic communication to Everard’s as they came up. This glance
-seemed to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_274" id="page_274"></a>{274}</span> convey at once an opinion and an inquiry. “How droll she is!
-Is she mad? I am finding her out,” the eyes said. Everard carefully
-refrained from making any reply; though, indeed, this was self-denial on
-his part, for Giovanna certainly made Whiteladies more amusing than it
-had been when he was last there.</p>
-
-<p>“You have been to church?” said Miss Susan, with her forced and
-reluctant smile.</p>
-
-<p>“She went with me,” said Miss Augustine. “I hope we have a great
-acquisition in her. Few have understood me so quickly. If anything
-should happen to Herbert&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing will happen to Herbert,” cried Miss Susan. “God bless him! It
-sounds as if you were putting a spell upon our boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“I put no spell; I don’t even understand such profane words. My heart is
-set on one thing, and it is of less importance how it is carried out. If
-anything should happen to Herbert, I believe I have found one who sees
-the necessity as I do, and who will sacrifice herself for the salvation
-of the race.”</p>
-
-<p>“One who will sacrifice herself!” Miss Susan gasped wildly under her
-breath.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna looked at her with defiance, challenging her, as it were, to a
-mortal struggle; yet there was a glimmer of laughter in her eyes. She
-looked at Miss Susan from behind the back of the other, and made a slow,
-solemn courtesy as Augustine spoke. Her eyes were dancing with humorous
-enjoyment of the situation, with mischief and playfulness, yet with
-conscious power.</p>
-
-<p>“This&mdash;lady?” said Miss Susan, “I think you are mad; Austine, I think
-you are going mad!”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Augustine shook her head. “Susan, how often do I tell you that you
-are giving your heart to Mammon and to the world! This is worse than
-madness. It makes you incapable of seeing spiritual things. Yes! she is
-capable of it. Heaven has sent her in answer to many prayers.”</p>
-
-<p>Saying this, Augustine glided past toward the house with her arms folded
-in her sleeves, and her abstract eyes fixed on the vacant air. A little
-flush of displeasure at the opposition had come upon her face as she
-spoke, but it faded as quickly as it came. As for Giovanna, before she
-followed her, she stopped, and threw up her hands with an appealing
-gesture: “Is it then my fault?” she said, as she passed.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_275" id="page_275"></a>{275}</span></p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan stood and looked after them, her eyes dilating; a kind of
-panic was in her face. “Is it, then, God that has sent her, to support
-the innocent, to punish the guilty?” she said, under her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan, take my arm; you are certainly ill.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes,” she said, faintly. “Take me in, take me out of sight, and
-never tell any one, Everard, never tell any one. I think I shall go out
-of my mind. It must be giving my thoughts to Mammon and the world, as
-she said.”</p>
-
-<p>“Never mind what she says,” said Everard, “no one pays any attention to
-what she says. Your nerves are overwrought somehow or other, and you are
-ill. But I’ll have it out with the old duffer!” cried the young man.
-They met Monsieur Guillaume immediately after, and I think he must have
-heard them; but he was happily quite unaware of the nature of a
-“duffer,” or what the word meant, and to tell the truth, so am I.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was not able to come down to dinner, a marvellous and almost
-unheard of event, so that the party was still less lively than usual.
-Everard was so concerned about his old friend, and the strange condition
-in which she was, that he began his attack upon the old shopkeeper
-almost as soon as they were left alone. “Don’t you think, sir,” the
-young man began, in a straightforward, unartificial way, “that it would
-be better to take your daughter-in-law with you? She will only be
-uncomfortable among people so different from those you have been
-accustomed to; I doubt if they will get on.”</p>
-
-<p>“Get on?” said Monsieur Guillaume, pleasantly. “Get on what? She does
-not wish to get on anywhere. She wishes to stay here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I mean, they are not likely to be comfortable together, to agree, to be
-friends.”</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume shrugged his shoulders. “Mon Dieu,” he said, “it will not
-be my fault. If Madame Suzanne will not grant the little rente, the
-allowance I demanded for le petit, is it fit that he should be at my
-charge? He was not thought of till Madame Suzanne came to visit us.
-There is nothing for him. He was born to be the heir here.”</p>
-
-<p>“But Miss Austin could have nothing to do with his being born,” cried
-Everard, laughing. Poor Miss Susan, it seemed the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_276" id="page_276"></a>{276}</span> drollest thing to lay
-to her charge. But M. Guillaume did not see the joke, he went on
-seriously.</p>
-
-<p>“And I had made my little arrangement with M. Farrel. We were in accord;
-all was settled; so much to come to me on the spot, and this heritage,
-this old château&mdash;château, mon Dieu, a thing of wood and brick!&mdash;to him,
-eventually. But when Madame Suzanne arrived to tell us of the beauties
-of this place, and when the women among them made discovery of le petit,
-that he was about to be born, the contract was broken with M. Farrel. I
-lost the money&mdash;and now I lose the heritage; and it is I who must
-provide for le petit! Monsieur, such a thing was never heard of. It is
-incredible; and Madame Suzanne thinks, I am to carry off the child
-without a word, and take this disappointment tranquilly! But no! I am
-not a fool, and it cannot be.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I thought you were very fond of the child, and were in despair of
-losing him,” said Everard.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes,” cried the old shopkeeper, “despair is one thing, and good
-sense is another. This is contrary to good sense. Giovanna is an
-obstinate, but she has good sense. They will not give le petit anything,
-eh bien, let them bear the expense of him! That is what she says.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then the allowance is all you want?” said Everard, with British
-brevity. This seemed to him the easiest of arrangements. With his mind
-quite relieved, and a few jokes laid up for the amusement of the future,
-touching Miss Susan’s powers and disabilities, he strolled into the
-drawing-room, M. Guillaume preferring to take himself to bed. The
-drawing-room of Whiteladies had never looked so thoroughly unlike
-itself. There seemed to Everard at first to be no one there, but after a
-minute he perceived a figure stretched out upon a sofa. The lamps were
-very dim, throwing a sort of twilight glimmer through the room; and the
-fire was very red, adding a rosy hue, but no more, to this faint
-illumination. It was the sort of light favorable to talk, or to
-meditation, or to slumber, but by aid of which neither reading, nor
-work, nor any active occupation could be pursued. This was of itself
-sufficient to mark the absence of Miss Susan, for whom a cheerful light
-full of animation and activity seemed always necessary. The figure on
-the sofa lay at full length, with an <i>abandon</i> of indolence and comfort
-which suited the warm atmosphere and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_277" id="page_277"></a>{277}</span> subdued light. Everard felt a
-certain appropriateness in the scene altogether, but it was not
-Whiteladies. An Italian palace or an Eastern harem would have been more
-in accordance with the presiding figure. She raised her head, however,
-as he approached, supporting herself on her elbow, with a vivacity
-unlike the Eastern calm, and looked at him by the dim light with a look
-half provoking half inviting, which attracted the foolish young man more
-perhaps than a more correct demeanor would have done. Why should not he
-try what he could do, Everard thought, to move the rebel? for he had an
-internal conviction that even the allowance which would satisfy M.
-Guillaume would not content Giovanna. He drew a chair to the other side
-of the table upon which the tall dim lamp was standing, and which was
-drawn close to the sofa on which the young woman lay.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you really mean to remain at Whiteladies?” he said. “I don’t think
-you can have any idea how dull it is here.”</p>
-
-<p>She shrugged her shoulders slightly, and raised her eyebrows. She had
-let her head drop back upon the sofa cushions, and the faint light threw
-a kind of dreamy radiance upon her fine features, and great glowing dark
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Dull! it is almost more than dull,” he continued; though even as he
-spoke he felt that to have this beautiful creature in Whiteladies would
-be a sensible alleviation of the dulness, and that his effort on Miss
-Susan’s behalf was of the most disinterested kind. “It would kill you, I
-fear; you can’t imagine what it is in Winter, when the days are short;
-the lamps are lit at half-past four, and nothing happens all the
-evening, no one comes. You sit before dinner round the fire, and Miss
-Austin knits, and after dinner you sit round the fire again, and there
-is not a sound in all the place, unless you have yourself the courage to
-make an observation; and it seems about a year before it is time to go
-to bed. You don’t know what it is.”</p>
-
-<p>What Miss Susan would have said had she heard this account of those
-Winter evenings, many of which the hypocrite had spent very coseyly at
-Whiteladies, I prefer not to think. The idea occurred to himself with a
-comic panic. What would she say? He could scarcely keep from laughing as
-he asked himself the question.</p>
-
-<p>“I have imagination,” said Giovanna, stretching her arms.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_278" id="page_278"></a>{278}</span> “I can see it
-all; but I should not endure it, me. I should get up and snap my fingers
-at them and dance, or sing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Everard, entering into the humor of his rôle, “so you think
-at present; but it would soon take the spirit out of you. I am very
-sorry for you, Madame Jean. If I were like you, with the power of
-enjoying myself, and having the world at my feet&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! bah!” cried Giovanna, “how can one have the world at one’s feet,
-when one is never seen? And you should see the shop at Bruges, mon Dieu!
-People do not come and throw themselves at one’s feet there. I am not
-sure even if it is altogether the fault of Gertrude and the belle-mère;
-but here&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You will have no one to see to,” said Everard, tickled by the part he
-was playing, and throwing himself into the spirit of it. “That is
-worse&mdash;for what is the good of being visible when there is no one to
-see?”</p>
-
-<p>This consideration evidently was not without its effect. Giovanna raised
-herself lazily on her elbow and looked at him across the table. “You
-come,” said she, “and this ’Erbert.”</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert!” said Everard, shading his head, “he is a sickly boy; and as
-for me&mdash;I have to pay my vows at other shrines,” he added with a laugh.
-But he found this conversation immensely entertaining, and went on
-representing the disadvantages of Whiteladies with more enjoyment than
-perhaps he had ever experienced in that place on a Sunday evening
-before. He went on till Giovanna pettishly bade him go. “At the least,
-it is comfortable,” she said. “Ah, go! It is very tranquil, there is no
-one to call to you with sharp voice like a knife, ‘Gi’vanna! tu dors!’
-Go, I am going to sleep.”</p>
-
-<p>I don’t suppose she meant him to take her at her word, for Giovanna was
-amused too, and found the young man’s company and his compliments, and
-that half-mocking, half-real mixture of homage and criticism, to be a
-pleasant variety. But Everard, partly because he had exhausted all he
-had got to say, partly lest he should be drawn on to say more, jumped up
-in a state of amusement and satisfaction with himself and his own
-cleverness which was very pleasant. “Since you send me away, I must
-obey,” he said; “Dormez, belle enchanteresse!” and with this, which he
-felt to be a very pretty speech indeed, he left the room more pleased
-with himself than ever. He had spent a most satisfactory evening, he
-had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_279" id="page_279"></a>{279}</span> ascertained that the old man was to be bought off with money, and
-he had done his best to disgust the young woman with a dull English
-country-house; in short, he had done Miss Susan yeoman’s service, and
-amused himself at the same time. Everard was agreeably excited, and
-felt, after a few moments’ reflection over a cigar on the lawn, that he
-would like to do more. It was still early, for the Sunday dinner at
-Whiteladies, as in so many other respectable English houses, was an hour
-earlier than usual; and as he wandered round the house, he saw the light
-still shining in Miss Susan’s window. This decided him; he threw away
-the end of his cigar, and hastening up the great staircase three steps
-at once, hurried to Miss Susan’s door. “Come in,” she said faintly.
-Everard was as much a child of the house as Herbert and Reine, and had
-received many an admonition in that well-known chamber. He opened the
-door without hesitation. But there was something in the very atmosphere
-which he felt to daunt him as he went in.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was seated in her easy chair by the bedside fully dressed.
-She was leaning her head back upon the high shoulder of the
-old-fashioned chair with her eyes shut. She thought it was Martha who
-had come in, and she was not careful to keep up appearances with Martha,
-who had found out days before that something was the matter. She was
-almost ghastly in her paleness, and there was an utter languor of
-despair about her attitude and her look, which alarmed Everard in the
-highest degree. But he could not stop the first words that rose upon his
-lips, or subdue altogether the cheery tone which came naturally from his
-satisfied feelings. “Aunt Susan,” he cried, “come along, come down
-stairs, now’s your time. I have been telling stories of Whiteladies to
-disgust her, and I believe now you could buy them off with a small
-annuity. Aunt Susan! forgive my noise, you are ill.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no,” she said with a gasp and a forlorn smile. “No, only tired.
-What did you say, Everard? whom am I to buy off?” This was a last effort
-at keeping up appearances. Then it seemed to strike her all at once that
-this was an ungrateful way of treating one who had been taking so much
-trouble on her account. “Forgive me, Everard,” she said; “I have been
-dozing, and my head is muddled. Buy them off? To be sure, I should have
-thought of that; for an annuity, after all, though I have no right to
-give it, is better than having them settled in the house.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_280" id="page_280"></a>{280}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Far better, since you dislike them so much,” said Everard; “I don’t,
-for my part. She is not so bad. She is very handsome, and there’s some
-fun in her.”</p>
-
-<p>“Fun!” Miss Susan rose up very tremulous and uncertain, and looking ten
-years older, with her face ashy pale, and a tottering in her steps, all
-brought about by this unwelcome visitor; and to hear of fun in
-connection with Giovanna, made her sharply, unreasonably angry for the
-time. “You should choose your words better at such a moment,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Never mind my words, come and speak to her,” cried Everard. He was very
-curious and full of wonder, seeing there was something below the surface
-more than met his eyes, and that the mystery was far more mysterious
-than his idea of it. Miss Susan hesitated more than ever, and seemed as
-if she would have gone back before they reached the stairs; but he kept
-up her courage. “When it’s only a little money, and you can afford it,”
-he said. “You don’t care so much for a little money.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I don’t care much for a little money,” she repeated after him
-mechanically, as she went downstairs.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_281" id="page_281"></a>{281}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXX" id="CHAPTER_XXX"></a>CHAPTER XXX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span><small>ISS SUSAN</small> entered the drawing-room in the same dim light in which
-Everard had left it. She was irritable and impatient in her misery. She
-would have liked to turn up all the lamps, and throw a flood of light
-upon the stranger whose attitude was indolent and indecorous. Why was
-she there at all? what right had she to extend herself at full length,
-to make herself so comfortable? That Giovanna should be comfortable did
-not do Miss Susan any further harm; but she felt as if it did, and a
-fountain of hot wrath surged up in her heart. This, however, she felt
-was not the way in which she could do any good, so she made an effort to
-restrain herself. She sat down in Everard’s seat which he had left. She
-was not quite sure whether he himself were not lingering in the shadows
-at the door of the room, and this made her difficulty the greater in
-what she had to say.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you like this darkness?” she asked. “It is oppressive; we cannot see
-to do anything.”</p>
-
-<p>“Me, I don’t want to do anything,” said Giovanna. “I sleep and I dream.
-This is most pleasant to me. Madame Suzanne likes occupation. Me, I do
-not.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Miss Susan with suppressed impatience, “that is one of the
-differences between us. But I have something to say to you; you wanted
-me to make an allowance for the child, and I refused. Indeed, it is not
-my business, for Whiteladies is not mine. But now that I have thought of
-it, I will consent. It would be so much better for you to travel with
-your father-in-law than alone.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna turned her face toward her companion with again that laughing
-devil in her eye. “Madame Suzanne mistakes. The bon<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_282" id="page_282"></a>{282}</span> papa spoke of his
-rente that he loves, not me. If ces dames will give me money to dress
-myself, to be more like them, that will be well; but it was the
-bon-papa, not me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Never mind who it was,” said Miss Susan, on the verge of losing her
-temper. “One or the other, I suppose it is all the same. I will give you
-your allowance.”</p>
-
-<p>“To dress myself? thanks, that will be well. Then I can follow the mode
-Anglaise, and have something to wear in the evening, like Madame Suzanne
-herself.”</p>
-
-<p>“For the child!” cried the suffering woman, in a voice which to Everard,
-behind backs, sounded like low and muffled thunder. “To support him and
-you, to keep you independent, to make you comfortable at home among your
-own people&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Merci!” cried Giovanna, shrugging her shoulders. “That is the
-bon-papa’s idea, as I tell madame, not mine. Comfortable! with my
-belle-mère! Listen, Madame Suzanne&mdash;I too, I have been thinking. If you
-will accept me with bounty, you shall not be sorry. I can make myself
-good; I can be useful, though it is not what I like best. I stay&mdash;I make
-myself your child&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not want you,” cried Miss Susan, stung beyond her strength of
-self-control, “I do not want you. I will pay you anything to get you
-away.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna’s eyes gave forth a gleam. “Très bien,” she said, calmly. “Then
-I shall stay, if madame pleases or not. It is what I have intended from
-the beginning; and I do not change my mind, me.”</p>
-
-<p>“But if I say you shall not stay!” said Miss Susan, wrought to fury, and
-pushing back her chair from the table.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna raised herself on her elbow, and leaned across the table,
-fixing the other with her great eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Once more, très bien,” she said, in a significant tone, too low for
-Everard to hear, but not a whisper. “Très bien! Madame then wishes me to
-tell not only M. Herbert, but the bonne sœur, madame’s sister, and ce
-petit monsieur-là?”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan sat and listened like a figure of stone. Her color changed
-out of the flush of anger which had lighted it up, and grew again ashy
-pale. From her laboring breast there came a great gasp, half groan, half
-sob. She looked at the remorseless creature opposite with a piteous
-prayer coming into her eyes.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_283" id="page_283"></a>{283}</span> First rage, which was useless; then
-entreaty, more useless still. “Have pity on me! have pity on me,” she
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“But certainly!” said Giovanna, sinking back upon her cushions with a
-soft laugh. “Certainly! I am not cruel, me; but I am comfortable, and I
-stay.”</p>
-
-<p>“She will not hear of it,” said Miss Susan, meeting Everard’s anxious
-looks as she passed him, hurrying upstairs. “Never mind me. Everard,
-never mind! we shall do well enough. Do not say any more about it. Never
-mind! never mind! It is time we were all in bed.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Aunt Susan, tell me&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, there is nothing to tell,” she said, hurrying from him. “Do not
-let us say any more about it. It is time we were all in bed.”</p>
-
-<p>The next day M. Guillaume left Whiteladies, after a very melancholy
-parting with his little grandchild. The old man sobbed, and the child
-sobbed for sympathy. “Thou wilt be good to him, Giovanna!” he said,
-weeping. Giovanna stood, and looked on with a smile on her face. “Bon
-papa, it is easy to cry,” she said; “but you do not want him without a
-rente; weep then for the rente, not for the child.” “Heartless!” cried
-the old shopkeeper, turning from her; and her laugh, though it was quite
-low, did sound heartless to the bystanders; yet there was some truth in
-what she said. M. Guillaume went away in the morning, and Everard in the
-afternoon. The young man was deeply perplexed and disturbed. He had been
-a witness of the conclusive interview on the previous night without
-hearing all that was said; yet he had heard enough to show him that
-something lay behind of which he was not cognizant&mdash;something which made
-Miss Susan unwillingly submit to an encumbrance which she hated, and
-which made her more deeply, tragically unhappy than a woman of her
-spotless life and tranquil age had any right to be. To throw such a
-woman into passionate distress, and make her, so strong in her good
-sense, so reasonable and thoroughly acquainted with the world, bow her
-head under an irritating and unnecessary yoke, there must be some cause
-more potent than anything Everard could divine. He made an attempt to
-gain her confidence before he went away; but it was still more fruitless
-than before. The only thing she would say was, that she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_284" id="page_284"></a>{284}</span> could speak no
-more on the subject. “There is nothing to say. She is here now for good
-or for evil, and we must make the best of it. Probably we shall get on
-better than we think,” said Miss Susan; and that was all he could
-extract from her. He went away more disturbed than he could tell; his
-curiosity was excited as well as his sympathy, and though, after awhile,
-his natural reluctance to dwell on painful subjects made him attempt to
-turn his mind from this, yet the evident mystery to be found out made
-that attempt much harder than usual. Everard was altogether in a
-somewhat uncertain and wavering state of mind at the time. He had
-returned from his compulsory episode of active life rather better in
-fortune, and with a perception of his own unoccupied state, which had
-never disturbed him before. He had not got to love work, which is a
-thing which requires either genius or training. He honestly believed,
-indeed, that he hated work, as was natural to a young man of his
-education; but having been driven to it, and discovered in himself, to
-his great surprise, some faculty for it, his return to what he thought
-his natural state had a somewhat strange effect upon him. To do nothing
-was, no doubt, his natural state. It was freedom; it was happiness
-(passive); it was the most desirable condition of existence. All this he
-felt to be true. He was his own master, free to go where he would, do
-what he would, amuse himself as he liked; and yet the conclusion of the
-time when he had not been his own master&mdash;when he had been obliged to do
-this and that, to move here and there not by his own will, but as
-necessity demanded&mdash;had left a sense of vacancy in this life. He was
-dissatisfied with his leisure and his freedom; they were not so good,
-not so pleasant, as they had once been. He had known storm and tempest,
-and all the expedients by which men triumph over these commotions, and
-the calm of his inland existence wearied him, though he had not yet gone
-so far as to confess it to himself.</p>
-
-<p>This made him think more of the mystery of Whiteladies than perhaps he
-would have done otherwise, and moved him so far as to indite a letter to
-Reine, in which perhaps more motives than that of interest in Miss
-Susan’s troubles were involved. He had left them when the sudden storm
-which he had now surmounted had appeared on the horizon, at a very
-critical moment of his intercourse with Reine; and then they had been
-cast altogether<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_285" id="page_285"></a>{285}</span> apart, driven into totally different channels for two
-years. Two years is a long time or a short time, according to the
-constitution of the mind, and the nature of circumstances. It had been
-about a century to Everard, and he had developed into a different being.
-And now this different being, brought back to the old life, did not well
-know what to do with himself. Should he go and join his cousins again,
-amuse himself, see the world, and perhaps renew some things that were
-past, and reunite a link half broken, half unmade? Anyhow, he wrote to
-Reine, setting forth that Aunt Susan was ill and very queer&mdash;that there
-was a visitor at Whiteladies of a very novel and unusual character&mdash;that
-the dear old house threatened to be turned upside down&mdash;fourthly, and
-accidentally, that he had a great mind to spend the next six months on
-the Continent. Where were they going for the Winter? Only ladies, they
-say, put their chief subject in a postscript. Everard put his under care
-of a “By-the-bye” in the last two lines of his letter. The difference
-between the two modes is not very great.</p>
-
-<p>And thus, while the young man meditated change, which is natural to his
-age, in which renovation and revolution are always possible, the older
-people at Whiteladies settled down to make the best of it, which is the
-philosophy of their age. To say the older people is incorrect, for it
-was Miss Susan only who had anything novel or heavy to endure. Miss
-Augustine liked the new guest, who for some time went regularly to the
-Almshouse services with her, and knelt devoutly, and chanted forth the
-hymns with a full rich voice, which indeed silenced the quavering tones
-of the old folks, but filled the chapel with such a flood of melody as
-had never been heard there before. Giovanna enjoyed singing. She had a
-fine natural voice, but little instruction, and no opportunity at the
-moment of getting at anything better in the way of music; so that she
-was glad of the hymns which gave her pleasure at once in the exercise of
-her voice, and in the agreeable knowledge that she was making a
-sensation. As much of a crowd as was possible in St. Austin’s began to
-gather in the Almshouse garden when she was known to be there; and
-though Mrs. Richard instinctively disapproved of her, the Doctor was
-somewhat proud of this addition to his service. Giovanna went regularly
-with her patroness, and gained<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_286" id="page_286"></a>{286}</span> Augustine’s heart, as much as that
-abstracted heart could be gained, and made herself not unpopular with
-the poor people, to whom she would speak in her imperfect English with
-more familiarity than the ladies ever indulged in, and from whom, in
-lieu of better, she was quite ready to receive compliments about her
-singing and her beauty. Once, indeed, she sang songs to them in their
-garden, to the great entertainment of the old Almshouse folks. She was
-caught in the act by Mrs. Richard, who rushed to the rescue of her
-gentility with feelings which I will not attempt to describe. The old
-lady ran out breathless at the termination of a song, with a flush upon
-her pretty old cheeks, and caught the innovator by the arm.</p>
-
-<p>“The doctor is at home, and I am just going to give him a cup of tea,”
-she said; “won’t you come and have some with us?”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Richard’s tidy little bosom heaved under her black silk gown with
-consternation and dismay.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna was not at all willing to give up her al fresco entertainment.
-“But I will return, I will return,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Do, madame, do,” cried the old people, who were vaguely pleased by her
-music, and more keenly delighted by having a new event to talk about,
-and the power of wondering what Miss Augustine (poor thing!) would
-think; and Mrs. Richard led Giovanna in, with her hand upon her arm,
-fearful lest her prisoner should escape.</p>
-
-<p>“It is very good of you to sing to them; but it is not a thing that is
-done in England,” said the little old lady.</p>
-
-<p>“I love to sing,” said Giovanna, “and I shall come often. They have not
-any one to amuse them; and neither have I,” she added with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear, you must speak to the Doctor about it,” said Mrs. Richard.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna was glad of any change, even of little Dr. Richard and the cup
-of tea, so she was submissive enough for the moment; and to see her
-between these two excellent and orderly little people was an edifying
-sight.</p>
-
-<p>“No, it is not usual,” said Dr. Richard, “my wife is right; but it is
-very kind-hearted of madame, my dear, to wish to amuse the poor people.
-There is nothing to be said against that.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_287" id="page_287"></a>{287}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Very kind-hearted,” said Mrs. Richard, though with less enthusiasm. “It
-is all from those foreigners’ love of display,” she said in her heart.</p>
-
-<p>“But perhaps it would be wise to consult Miss Augustine, or&mdash;any other
-friend you may have confidence in,” said the Doctor. “People are so very
-censorious, and we must not give any occasion for evil-speaking.”</p>
-
-<p>“I think exactly with Dr. Richard, my dear,” said the old lady. “I am
-sure that would be the best.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I have nothing done to consult about,” cried the culprit surprised.
-She sipped her tea, and ate a large piece of the good people’s cake,
-however, and let them talk. When she was not crossed, Giovanna was
-perfectly good-humored. “I will sing for you, if you please,” she said
-when she had finished.</p>
-
-<p>The Doctor and his wife looked at each other, and professed their
-delight in the proposal. “But we have no piano,” they said in chorus
-with embarrassed looks.</p>
-
-<p>“What does that do to me, when I can sing without it,” said Giovanna.
-And she lifted up her powerful voice, “almost too much for a
-drawing-room,” Mrs. Richard said afterward, and sang them one of those
-gay peasant songs that abound in Italy, where every village has its own
-<i>canzone</i>. She sang seated where she had been taking her tea, and
-without seeming to miss an accompaniment, they remarked to each other,
-as if she had been a ballad-singer. It was pretty enough, but so very
-unusual! “Of course foreigners cannot be expected to know what is
-according to the rules of society in England,” Mrs. Richard said with
-conscious indulgence; but she put on her bonnet and walked with “Madame”
-part of the way to Whiteladies, that she might not continue her
-performance in the garden. “Miss Augustine might think, or Miss Susan
-might think, that we countenanced it; and in the Doctor’s position that
-would never do,” said the old lady, breathing her troubles into the ear
-of a confidential friend whom she met on her way home. And Dr. Richard
-himself felt the danger not less strongly than she.</p>
-
-<p>Other changes, however, happened to Giovanna, as she settled down at
-Whiteladies. She was without any fixed principles of morality, and had
-no code of any kind which interfered with her free action. To give up
-doing anything she wanted to do because<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_288" id="page_288"></a>{288}</span> it involved lying, or any kind
-of spiritual dishonesty, would never have occurred to her, nor was she
-capable of perceiving that there was anything wrong in securing her own
-advantage as she had done. But she was by no means all bad, any more
-than truthful and honorable persons are all good. Her own advantage, or
-what she thought her own advantage, and her own way, were paramount
-considerations with her; but having obtained these, Giovanna had no wish
-to hurt anybody, or to be unkind. She was indolent and loved ease, but
-still she was capable of taking trouble now and then to do some one else
-a service. She had had no moral training, and all her faculties were
-obtuse; and she had seen no prevailing rule but that of selfishness.
-Selfishness takes different aspects, according to the manner in which
-you look at it. When you have to maintain hardly, by a constant
-struggle, your own self against the encroachments and still more rampant
-selfishness of others, the struggle confers a certain beauty upon the
-object of it. Giovanna had wanted to have her own way, like the others
-of the family, but had been usually thrust into a corner, and prevented
-from having it. What wonder, then, that when she had a chance, she
-seized it, and emancipated herself, and secured her own comfort with the
-same total disregard to others which she had been used to see? But now,
-having got this&mdash;having for the moment all she wanted&mdash;an entire
-exemption from work, an existence full of external comfort, and
-circumstances around her which flattered her with a sense of an elevated
-position&mdash;she began to think a little. Nothing was exacted of her. If
-Miss Susan was not kind to her, she was not at least unkind, only
-withdrawing from her as much as possible, a thing which Giovanna felt to
-be quite natural, and in the quiet and silence the young woman’s mind
-began to work. I do not say her conscience, for that was not in the
-least awakened, nor was she conscious of any penitential regret in
-thinking of the past, or religious resolution for the future; it was her
-mind only that was concerned. She thought it might be as well to make
-certain changes in her habits. In her new existence, certain
-modifications of the old use and wont seemed reasonable. And then there
-gradually developed in her&mdash;an invaluable possession which sometimes
-does more for the character than high principle or good intention&mdash;a
-sense of the ludicrous. This was what Everard meant when he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_289" id="page_289"></a>{289}</span> said there
-was fun in her. She had a sense of humor, a sense of the incongruities
-which affect some minds so much more powerfully by the fact of being
-absurd, than by the fact of being wrong. Giovanna, without any actual
-good motive, thus felt the necessity of amending herself, and making
-various changes in her life.</p>
-
-<p>This, it may be supposed, took some time to develop; and in the meantime
-the household in which she had become so very distinct a part, had to
-make up its mind to her, and resume as best it could its natural habits
-and use and wont, with the addition of this stranger in the midst. As
-for the servants, their instinctive repugnance to a foreigner and a new
-inmate was lessened from the very first by the introduction of the
-child, who conciliated the maids, and thus made them forgive his mother
-the extra rooms they had to arrange, and the extra work necessary. The
-child was fortunately an engaging and merry child, and as he got used to
-the strange faces round him, became the delight and pride and amusement
-of the house. Cook was still head nurse, and derived an increased
-importance and satisfaction from her supremacy. I doubt if she had ever
-before felt the dignity and happiness of her position as a married woman
-half so much as now, when that fact alone (as the others felt) gave her
-a mysterious capacity for the management of the child. The maids
-overlooked the fact that the child’s mother, though equally a married
-woman, was absolutely destitute of this power; but accuracy of reasoning
-is not necessary in such an argument, and the entire household bowed to
-the superior endowments of Cook. The child’s pattering, sturdy little
-feet, and crowings of baby laughter became the music of Whiteladies, the
-pleasant accompaniment to which the lives at least of the little
-community in the kitchen were set. Miss Susan, being miserable, resisted
-the fascination, and Augustine was too abstracted to be sensible of it;
-but the servants yielded as one woman, and even Stevens succumbed after
-the feeblest show of resistance. Now and then even, a bell would ring
-ineffectually in that well-ordered house, and the whole group of
-attendants be found clustered together worshipping before the baby, who
-had produced some new word, or made some manifestation of supernatural
-cleverness; and the sound of the child pervaded all that part of the
-house in which the servants were supreme. They forgave his mother for
-being there because she had brought him, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_290" id="page_290"></a>{290}</span> if at the same time they
-hated her for her neglect of him, the hatred was kept passive by a
-perception that, but for this insensibility on her part, the child could
-not have been allowed thus fully and pleasantly to minister to them.</p>
-
-<p>As for Miss Susan, who had felt as though nothing could make her endure
-the presence of Giovanna, she too was affected unwittingly by the soft
-effects of time. It was true that no sentiment, no principle in
-existence was strong enough to make her accept cheerfully this unwelcome
-guest. Had she been bidden to do it in order to make atonement for her
-own guilt, or as penance for that guilt, earning its forgiveness, or out
-of pity or Christian feeling, she would have pronounced the effort
-impossible; and impossible she had still thought it when she watched
-with despair the old shopkeeper’s departure, and reflected with a sense
-of suffering intolerable and not to be borne that he had left behind him
-this terrible witness against her, this instrument of her punishment.
-Miss Susan had paced about her room in restless anguish, saying to
-herself under her breath that her punishment was greater than she could
-bear. She had felt with a sickening sense of helplessness and
-hopelessness that she could never go downstairs again, never take her
-place at that table, never eat or drink in the company of this new
-inmate whom she could not free herself from. And for a few days, indeed,
-Miss Susan kept on inventing little ailments which kept her in her own
-room. But this could not last. She had a hundred things to look after
-which made it necessary for her to be about, to be visible; and
-gradually there grew upon her a stirring of curiosity to see how things
-went on, with <i>that</i> woman always there. And then she resumed her
-ordinary habits, came downstairs, sat down at the familiar table, and by
-degrees found herself getting accustomed to the new-comer. Strangest
-effect of those calm, monotonous days! Nothing would have made her do it
-knowingly; but soft pressure of time made her do it. Things quieted
-down; the alien was there, and there was no possibility of casting her
-out; and, most wonderful of all, Miss Susan got used to her, in spite of
-herself.</p>
-
-<p>And Giovanna, for her part, began to think.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_291" id="page_291"></a>{291}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXI" id="CHAPTER_XXXI"></a>CHAPTER XXXI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">G</span><span class="smcap">iovanna</span> possessed that quality which is commonly called common-sense,
-though I doubt if she was herself aware of it. She had never before been
-in a position in which this good sense could tell much, or in which even
-it was called forth to any purpose. Her lot had always been determined
-for her by others. She had never, until the coming of the child, been in
-a position in which it mattered much one way or another what she
-thought; and since that eventful moment her thinkings had not been of an
-edifying description. They had been chiefly bent on the consideration
-how to circumvent the others who were using her for their own purposes,
-and to work advantage to herself out of the circumstances which, for the
-first time in her life, gave her the mastery. Now, she had done this;
-she had triumphantly overcome all difficulties, and, riding over
-everybody’s objections, had established herself here in comfort.
-Giovanna had expected a constant conflict with Miss Susan, who was her
-enemy, and over whom she had got the victory. She had looked for nothing
-better than a daily fight&mdash;rather enlivening, all things
-considered&mdash;with the mistress of the house, to whom, she knew, she was
-so unwelcome a guest. She had anticipated a long-continued struggle, in
-which she should have to hold her own, and defend herself, hour by hour.
-When she found that this was not going to be the case&mdash;that poor Miss
-Susan, in her misery and downfall, gave up and disappeared, and, even
-when she returned again to her ordinary habits, treated herself,
-Giovanna, with no harshness, and was only silent and cold, not insulting
-and disagreeable, a great deal of surprise arose in her mind. There were
-no little vengeances taken upon her, no jibes directed against her, no
-tasks attempted to be imposed. Miss Augustine, the bonne sœur, who<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_292" id="page_292"></a>{292}</span>
-no doubt (and this Giovanna could understand) acted from religious
-motives, was as kind to her as it was in her abstract nature to be,
-talking to her on subjects which the young woman did not understand, but
-to which she assented easily, to please the other, about the salvation
-of the race, and how, if anything happened to Herbert, there might be a
-great work possible to his successor; but even Miss Susan, who was her
-adversary, was not unkind to her, only cold, and this, Giovanna,
-accustomed to much rough usage, was not refined enough to take much note
-of. This gave a strong additional force to her conviction that it would
-be worth while to put herself more in accord with her position; and I
-believe that Giovanna, too, felt instinctively the influence of the
-higher breeding of her present companions.</p>
-
-<p>The first result of her cogitations became evident one Winter day, when
-all was dreary out of doors, and Miss Susan, after having avoided as
-long as she could the place in which Giovanna was, felt herself at last
-compelled to take refuge in the drawing-room. There she found, to her
-great amazement, the young woman seated on a rug before the fire,
-playing with the child, who, seated on her lap, seemed as perfectly at
-home there as on the ample lap of its beloved Cook. Miss Susan started
-visibly at this unaccustomed sight, but said nothing. It was not her
-custom, now, to say anything she could help saying. She drew her chair
-aside to be out of their way, and took up her book. This was another
-notable change in her habits. She had been used to work, knitting the
-silent hours away, and read only at set times, set apart for this
-purpose by the habit of years&mdash;and then always what she called “standard
-books.” Now, Miss Susan, though her knitting was always at hand, knitted
-scarcely at all, but read continually novels, and all the light
-literature of the circulating library. She was scarcely herself aware of
-this change. It is a sign of the state of mind in which we have too much
-to think of, as well as of that in which we have nothing to think of at
-all.</p>
-
-<p>And I think if any stranger had seen that pretty group, the beautiful
-young mother cooing over the child, playing with it and caressing it,
-the child responding by all manner of baby tricks and laughter, and soft
-clingings and claspings, while the elder woman sat silent and gray,
-taking no notice of them, he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_293" id="page_293"></a>{293}</span> would have set the elder woman down as the
-severest and sternest of grandmothers&mdash;the father’s mother, no doubt,
-emblem of the genus mother-in-law, which so many clever persons have
-held up to odium. To tell the truth, Miss Susan had some difficulty in
-going on with her reading, with the sound of those baby babblings in her
-ear. She was thunderstruck at first by the scene, and then felt
-unreasonably angry. Was nature nothing then? She had thought the child’s
-dislike of Giovanna&mdash;though it was painful to see&mdash;was appropriate to
-the circumstances, and had in it a species of poetic justice. Had it
-been but a pretence, or what did this sudden fondness mean? She kept
-silent as long as she could, but after a time the continual babble grew
-too much for her.</p>
-
-<p>“You have grown very suddenly fond of the child, Madame Jean,” she said,
-abruptly.</p>
-
-<p>“Fond!” said Giovanna, “that is a strange word, that English word of
-yours; I can make him love me&mdash;here.”</p>
-
-<p>“You did not love him elsewhere, so far as I have heard,” said Miss
-Susan, “and that is the best way to gain love.”</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Suzanne, I wish to speak to you,” said Giovanna. “At Bruges I
-was never of any account; they said the child was more gentil, more sage
-with Gertrude. Well; it might be he was; they said I knew nothing about
-children, that I could not learn&mdash;that it was not in my nature; things
-which were pleasant, which were reassuring, don’t you think? That was
-one of the reasons why I came away.”</p>
-
-<p>“You did not show much power of managing him, it must be confessed, when
-you came here.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Giovanna, “it was harder than I thought. These babies, they
-have no reason. When you say, ‘Be still, I am thy mother, be still!’ it
-does not touch them. What they like is kisses and cakes, and that you
-should make what in England is called ‘a fuss;’ that is the hardest,
-making a fuss; but when it is done, all is done. Voilà! Now, he loves
-me. If Gertrude approached, he would run to me and cry. Ah, that would
-make me happy!”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it is to spite Gertrude”&mdash;Miss Susan began, in her severest voice.</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; I only contemplate that as a pleasure, a pleasure to come. No;
-I am not very fond of to read, like you, Madame<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_294" id="page_294"></a>{294}</span> Suzanne; besides, there
-is not anything more to read; and so I reflect. I reflect with myself,
-that not to have love with one’s child, or at least amitié, is very
-strange. It is droll; it gives to think; and people will stare and say,
-‘Is that her child?’ This is what I reflect within myself. To try before
-would have been without use, for always there was Gertrude, or my
-belle-mère, or some one. They cried out, ‘G’vanna touch it not, thou
-wilt injure the baby!’ ‘G’vanna, give it to me, thou knowest nothing of
-children!’ And when I came away it was more hard than I thought. Babies
-have not sense to know when it is their mother. I said to myself, ‘Here
-is a perverse one, who hates me like the rest;’ and I was angry. I beat
-him&mdash;you would have beat him also, Madame Suzanne, if he had screamed
-when you touched him. And then&mdash;petit drôle!&mdash;he screamed more.”</p>
-
-<p>“Very natural,” said Miss Susan. “If you had any heart, you would not
-beat a baby like that.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna’s eyes flashed. She lifted her hand quickly, as if to give a
-blow of recollection now; but, changing her mind, she caught the child
-up in her arms, and laid his little flushed cheek to hers. “A présent,
-tu m’aimes!” she said. “When I saw how the others did, I knew I could do
-it too. Also, Madame Suzanne, I recollected that a mother should have de
-l’amitié for her child.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan gave a short contemptuous laugh. “It is a fine thing to have
-found that out at last,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“And I have reflected further,” said Giovanna&mdash;“Yes, darling, thou shalt
-have these jolies choses;” and with this, she took calmly from the table
-one of a very finely-carved set of chessmen, Indian work, which
-ornamented it. Miss Susan started, and put out her hand to save the
-ivory knight, but the little fellow had already grasped it, and a sudden
-scream arose.</p>
-
-<p>“For shame! Madame Suzanne,” cried Giovanna, with fun sparkling in her
-eyes. “You, too, then, have no heart!”</p>
-
-<p>“This is totally different from kindness, this is spoiling the child,”
-cried Miss Susan. “My ivory chessmen, which were my mother’s! Take it
-away from him at once.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna wavered a moment between fun and prudence, then coaxing the
-child, adroitly with something else less valuable, got the knight from
-him, and replaced it on the table. Then she resumed where she had broken
-off. “I have reflected further<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_295" id="page_295"></a>{295}</span> that it is bad to fight in a house. You
-take me for your enemy, Madame Suzanne?&mdash;eh bien, I am not your enemy. I
-do nothing against you. I seek what is good for me, as all do.”</p>
-
-<p>“All don’t do it at the cost of other people’s comfort&mdash;at the cost of
-everything that is worth caring for in another’s life.”</p>
-
-<p>This Miss Susan said low, with her eyes bent on the fire, to herself
-rather than to Giovanna; from whom, indeed, she expected no response.</p>
-
-<p>“Mon Dieu! it is not like that,” cried the young woman; “what is it that
-I do to you? Nothing! I do not trouble, nor tease, nor ask for anything.
-I am contented with what you give me. I have come here, and I find it
-well; but you, what is it that I do to you? I do not interfere. It is
-but to see me one time in a day, two times, perhaps. Listen, it cannot
-be so bad for you to see me even two times in a day as it would be for
-me to go back to my belle-mère.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you have no right to be here,” said Miss Susan, shaking her gray
-dress free from the baby’s grasp, who had rolled softly off the young
-woman’s knee, and now sat on the carpet between them. His little babble
-went on all through their talk. The plaything Giovanna had given him&mdash;a
-paper-knife of carved ivory&mdash;was a delightful weapon to the child; he
-struck the floor with it, which under no possibility could be supposed
-capable of motion, and then the legs of the chair, on which Miss Susan
-sat, which afforded a more likely steed. Miss Susan had hard ado to pull
-her skirts from the soft round baby fingers, as the child looked up at
-her with great eyes, which laughed in her angry face. It was all she
-could do to keep her heart from melting to him; but then, <i>that</i> woman!
-who looked at her with eyes which were not angry, nor disagreeable,
-wooing her to smile&mdash;which not for the world, and all it contained,
-would she do.</p>
-
-<p>“Always I have seen that one does what one can for one’s self,” said
-Giovanna; “shall I think of you first, instead of myself? But no! is
-there any in the world who does that? But, no! it is contrary to reason.
-I do my best for <i>me</i>; and then I reflect, now that I am well off, I
-will hurt no one. I will be friends if Madame Suzanne will. I wish not
-to trouble her. I will show de l’amitié for her as well as for le petit.
-Thus it should be when we live in one house.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_296" id="page_296"></a>{296}</span></p>
-
-<p>Giovanna spoke with a certain earnestness as of honest conviction. She
-had no sense of irony in her mind; but Miss Susan had a deep sense of
-irony, and felt herself insulted when she was thus addressed by the
-intruder who had found her way into her house, and made havoc of her
-life. She got up hastily to her feet, overturning the child, who had now
-seated himself on her dress, and for whom this hasty movement had all
-the effect of an earthquake. She did not even notice this, however, and
-paid no attention to his cries, but fell to walking about the room in a
-state of impatience and excitement which would not be kept under.</p>
-
-<p>“You do well to teach me what people should do who live in one house!”
-cried Miss Susan. “It comes gracefully from you who have forced yourself
-into my house against my will&mdash;who are a burden, and insupportable to
-me&mdash;you and your child. Take him away, or you will drive me mad! I
-cannot hear myself speak.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hush, mon ange,” said Giovanna; “hush, here is something else that is
-pretty for thee&mdash;hush! and do not make the bonne maman angry. Ah,
-pardon, Madame Suzanne, you are not the bonne maman&mdash;but you look almost
-like her when you look like that!”</p>
-
-<p>“You are very impertinent,” said Miss Susan, blushing high; for to
-compare her to Madame Austin of Bruges was more than she could bear.</p>
-
-<p>“That is still more like her!” said Giovanna; “the belle-mère often
-tells me I am impertinent. Can I help it then? if I say what I think,
-that cannot be wrong. But you are not really like the bonne maman,
-Madame Suzanne,” she added, subduing the malice in her eyes. “You hate
-me, but you do not try to make me unhappy. You give me everything I
-want. You do not grudge; you do not make me work. Ah, what a life she
-would have made to one who came like me!”</p>
-
-<p>This silenced Miss Susan, in spite of herself; for she herself felt and
-knew that she was not at all kind to Giovanna, and she was quite unaware
-that Giovanna was inaccessible to those unkindnesses which more refined
-natures feel, and having the substantial advantages of her reception at
-Whiteladies undisturbed by any practical hardship, had no further
-requirements in a sentimental<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_297" id="page_297"></a>{297}</span> sort. Miss Susan felt that she was not
-kind, but Giovanna did not feel it; and as the elder woman could not
-understand the bluntness of feeling in the younger, which produced this
-toleration, she was obliged, against her will, to see in it some
-indication of a higher nature. She thought reluctantly, and for the
-moment, that the woman whom she loathed was better than herself. She
-came back to the chair as this thought forced itself upon her, and sat
-down there and fixed her eyes upon the intruder, who still held her
-place on the carpet at her feet.</p>
-
-<p>“Why do you not go away?” she said, tempted once more to make a last
-effort for her own relief. “If you think it good of me to receive you as
-I do, why will you not listen to my entreaties, and go away? I will give
-you enough to live on; I will not grudge money; but I cannot bear the
-sight of you, you know that. It brings my sin, my great sin, to my mind.
-I repent it; but I cannot undo it,” cried Miss Susan. “Oh, God forgive
-me! But you, Giovanna, listen! You have done wrong, too, as well as
-I&mdash;but it has been for your benefit, not for your punishment. You should
-not have done it any more than me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Suzanne,” said Giovanna, “one must think of one’s self first;
-what you call sin does not trouble me. I did not begin it. I did what I
-was told. If it is wrong, it is for the belle-mère and you; I am safe;
-and I must think of myself. It pleases me to be here, and I have my
-plans. But I should like to show de l’amitié for you, Madame
-Suzanne&mdash;when I have thought first of myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“But it will be no better for yourself, staying here,” cried Miss Susan,
-subduing herself forcibly. “I will give you money&mdash;you shall live where
-you please&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Pardon,” said Giovanna, with a smile; “it is to me to know. I have mes
-idées à moi. You all think of yourselves first. I will be good friends
-if you will; but, first of all, there is <i>me</i>.”</p>
-
-<p>“And the child?” said Miss Susan, with strange forgetfulness, and a
-bizarre recollection, in her despair, of the conventional self-devotion
-to be expected from a mother.</p>
-
-<p>“The child, bah! probably what will be for my advantage will be also for
-his; but you do not think, Madame Suzanne,” said Giovanna with a laugh,
-regarding her closely with a look which,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_298" id="page_298"></a>{298}</span> but for its perfect good
-humor, would have been sarcastic, “that I will sacrifice myself, me, for
-the child?”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why should you make a pretence of loving him? loving him! if you
-are capable of love!” cried Miss Susan, in dismay.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna laughed. She took the little fellow up in her arms, and put his
-little rosy cheek against the fair oval of her own. “Tu m’aimes à
-présent,” she said; “that is as it ought to be. One cannot have a baby
-and not have de l’amitié for him; but, naturally, first of all I will
-think of myself.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is all pretence, then, your love,” cried Miss Susan, once more
-starting up wildly, with a sense that the talk, and the sight of her,
-and the situation altogether, were intolerable. “Oh, it is like you
-foreigners! You pretend to love the child because it is comme il faut.
-You want to be friendly with me because it is comme il faut. And you
-expect me, an honest Englishwoman, to accept this? Oh!” she cried,
-hiding her face in her hands, with a pang of recollection, “I was that
-at least before I knew you!”</p>
-
-<p>Curious perversity of nature! For the moment Miss Susan felt bitterly
-that the loss of her honesty and her innocence was Giovanna’s fault. The
-young woman laughed, in spite of herself, and it was not wonderful that
-she did so. She got up for the first time from the carpet, raising the
-child to her shoulder. But she wanted to conciliate, not to offend; and
-suppressed the inappropriate laughter. She went up to where Miss Susan
-had placed herself&mdash;thrown back in a great chair, with her face covered
-by her hands&mdash;and touched her arm softly, not without a certain respect
-for her trouble.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not pretend,” she said; “because it is comme il faut? but, yes,
-that is all natural. Yet I do not pretend. I wish to show de l’amitié
-for Madame Suzanne. I will not give up my ideas, nor do what you will,
-instead of that which I will; but to be good friends, this is what I
-desire. Bébé is satisfied&mdash;he asks no more&mdash;he demands not the
-sacrifice. Why not Madame Suzanne too?”</p>
-
-<p>“Go away, go away, please,” cried Miss Susan, faintly. She was not
-capable of anything more.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna shrugged her handsome shoulders, and gave an appealing look
-round her, as if to some unseen audience. She felt<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_299" id="page_299"></a>{299}</span> that nothing but
-native English stupidity could fail to see her good sense and honest
-meaning. Then, perceiving further argument to be hopeless, she turned
-away, with the child still on her shoulder, and ere she had reached the
-end of the passage, began to sing to him with her sweet, rich, untutored
-voice. The voice receded, carolling through all the echoes of the old
-house like a bird, floating up the great oaken staircase, and away to
-the extremity of the long corridor, where her room was. She was
-perfectly light-hearted and easy-minded in the resolution to do the best
-for herself; and she was perfectly aware that the further scheme she had
-concocted for her own benefit would be still more displeasing to the
-present mistress of the house. She did not care for that the least in
-the world; but, honestly, she was well-disposed toward Miss Susan, and
-not only willing, but almost anxious, so far as anxiety was possible to
-her, to establish a state of affairs in which they might be good
-friends.</p>
-
-<p>But to Miss Susan it was absolutely impossible to conceive that things
-so incompatible could yet exist together. Perhaps she was dimly aware of
-the incongruities in her own mind, the sense of guilt and the sense of
-innocence which existed there, in opposition, yet, somehow, in that
-strange concord which welds the contradictions of the human soul into
-one, despite of all incongruity; but to realize or believe in the
-strange mixture in Giovanna’s mind was quite impossible to her. She sat
-still with her face covered until she was quite sure the young woman and
-her child had gone, listening, indeed, to the voice which went so
-lightly and sweetly through the passages. How could she sing&mdash;that
-woman! whom if she had never seen, Susan Austin would still have been an
-honest woman, able to look everybody in the face! Miss Susan knew&mdash;no
-one better&mdash;how utterly foolish and false it was to say this; she knew
-that Giovanna was but the instrument, not the originator, of her own
-guilt; but, notwithstanding the idea having once occurred to her, that
-had she never seen Giovanna, she would never have been guilty, she
-hugged it to her bosom with an insane satisfaction, feeling as if, for
-the moment, it was a relief. Oh, that she had never seen her! How
-blameless she had been before that unhappy meeting! how free of all
-weight upon her conscience! and now, how burdened, how miserable, how
-despotic that conscience was! and her good name dependent upon the
-discretion<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_300" id="page_300"></a>{300}</span> of this creature, without discretion, without feeling, this
-false, bold foreigner, this intruder, who had thrust her way into a
-quiet house, to destroy its peace! When she was quite sure that Giovanna
-was out of the way, Miss Susan went to her own room, and looked
-piteously at her own worn face in the glass. Did that face tell the same
-secrets to others as it did to herself? she wondered. She had never been
-a vain woman, even in her youth, though she had been comely enough, if
-not pretty; but now, a stranger, who did not know Miss Susan, might have
-thought her vain. She looked at herself so often in the glass, pitifully
-studying her looks, to see what could be read in them. It had come to be
-one of the habits of her life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_301" id="page_301"></a>{301}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXII" id="CHAPTER_XXXII"></a>CHAPTER XXXII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> Winter passed slowly, as Winters do, especially in the silence of
-the country, where little happens to mark their course. The Autumnal
-fall of leaves lasted long, but at length cleared off with the fogs and
-damps of November, leaving the lawn and Priory Lane outside free from
-the faded garments of the limes and beeches. Slowly, slowly the earth
-turned to the deepest dark of Winter, and turned back again
-imperceptibly toward the sun. The rich brown fields turned up their
-furrows to the darkening damp and whitening frost, and lay still,
-resting from their labors, waiting for the germs to come. The trees
-stood out bare against the sky, betraying every knob and twist upon
-their branches; big lumps of gray mistletoe hung in the apple-trees that
-bordered Priory Lane; and here and there a branch of Lombardy poplar,
-still clothed with a few leaves, turning their white lining outward,
-threw itself up against the blue sky like a flower. The Austin Chantry
-was getting nearly finished, all the external work having been done some
-time ago. It was hoped that the ornamentation within would be completed
-in time for Christmas, when the chaplain, who was likewise to be the
-curate, and save (though Mr. Gerard mentioned this to no one) sixty
-pounds a year to the vicar, was to begin the daily service. This
-chaplain was a nephew of Dr. Richard’s, a good young man of very High
-Church views, who was very ready to pray for the souls of the Austin
-family without once thinking of the rubrics. Mr. Gerard did not care for
-a man of such pronounced opinions; and good little Dr. Richard, even
-after family feeling had led him to recommend his nephew, was seized
-with many pangs as to the young Ritualist’s effect upon the parish.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_302" id="page_302"></a>{302}</span></p>
-
-<p>“He will do what Miss Augustine wants, which is what I never would have
-done,” said the warden of the Almshouses. “He thinks he is a better
-Churchman than I am, poor fellow! but he is very careless of the
-Church’s directions, my dear; and if you don’t attend to the rubrics,
-where are you to find rest in this world? But he thinks he is a better
-Churchman than I.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, my dear, the rubrics have always been your great standard,” said
-the good wife; but as the Rev. Mr. Wrook was related to them by her
-side, she was reluctant to say anything more.</p>
-
-<p>Thus, however, it was with a careful and somewhat anxious brow that Dr.
-Richard awaited the young man’s arrival. He saved Mr. Gerard the best
-part of a curate’s salary, as I have said. Miss Augustine endowed the
-Chantry with an income of sixty pounds a year; and with twenty or thirty
-pounds added to that, who could object to such a salary for a curacy in
-a country place? The vicar’s purse was the better for it, if not
-himself; and he thought it likely that by careful processes of
-disapproval any young man in course of time might be put down. The
-Chantry was to be opened at Christmas; and I think (if it had ever
-occurred to her) that Miss Augustine might then have been content to
-sing her <i>Nunc Dimittis</i>; but it never did occur to her, her life being
-very full, and all her hours occupied. She looked forward, however, to
-the time when two sets of prayers should be said every day for the
-Austins with unbounded expectation.</p>
-
-<p>Up to the middle of November, I think, she almost hoped (in an abstract
-way, meaning no harm to her nephew) that something might still happen to
-Herbert; for Giovanna, who went with her to the Almshouse service every
-morning to please her, seemed endowed with heavenly dispositions, and
-ready to train up her boy&mdash;who was a ready-made child, so to speak, and
-not uncertain, as any baby must be who has to be born to parents not yet
-so much as acquainted with each other&mdash;to make the necessary sacrifice,
-and restore Whiteladies to the Church. This hope failed a little after
-November, because then, without rhyme or reason, Giovanna tired of her
-devotions, and went to the early service no longer; though even then
-Miss Augustine felt that little Jean (now called Johnny) was within her
-own power, and could be trained in the way in which he should go; but
-anyhow, howsoever it was to be accomplished, no doubt the double prayers
-for the race would accomplish<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_303" id="page_303"></a>{303}</span> much, and something at the sweetness of
-an end attained stole into Augustine’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>The parish and the neighborhood also took a great interest in the
-Chantry. Such of the neighbors as thought Miss Augustine mad, awaited,
-with a mixture of amusement and anxiety, the opening of this new chapel,
-which was said to be unlike anything seen before&mdash;a miracle of
-ecclesiastical eccentricity; while those who thought her papistical
-looked forward with equal interest to a chance of polemics and
-excitement, deploring the introduction of Ritualism into a quiet corner
-of the country, hitherto free of that pest, but enjoying unawares the
-agreeable stimulant of local schism and ecclesiastical strife. The taste
-for this is so universal that I suppose it must be an instinct of human
-nature, as strong among the non-fighting portion of the creation as
-actual combat is to the warlike. I need not say that the foundress of
-the Chantry had no such thoughts; her object was simple enough; but it
-was too simple&mdash;too onefold (if I may borrow an expressive word from my
-native tongue: ae-fauld we write it in Scotch) for the apprehension of
-ordinary persons, who never believe in unity of motive. Most people
-thought she was artfully bent on introducing the confessional, and all
-the other bugbears of Protestantism; but she meant nothing of the kind:
-she only wanted to open another agency in heaven on behalf of the
-Austins, and nothing else affected her mind so long as this was secured.</p>
-
-<p>The Chantry, however, afforded a very reasonable excuse to Kate and
-Sophy Farrel-Austin for paying a visit to Whiteladies, concerning which
-they had heard some curious rumors. Their interest in the place no doubt
-had considerably died out of late, since Herbert’s amendment in health
-had been proved beyond doubt. Their father had borne that blow without
-much sympathy from his children, though they had not hesitated, as the
-reader is aware, to express their own sense that it was “a swindle” and
-“a sell,” and that Herbert had no right to get better. The downfall to
-Farrel-Austin himself had been a terrible one, and the foolish levity of
-his children about it had provoked him often, almost past bearing; but
-time had driven him into silence, and into an appearance at least of
-forgetting his disappointment. On the whole he had no very deadly reason
-for disappointment: he was very well off without Whiteladies, and had he
-got Whiteladies, he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_304" id="page_304"></a>{304}</span> no son to succeed him, and less and less
-likelihood of ever having one. But I believe it is the man who has much
-who always feels most deeply when he is hindered from having more.</p>
-
-<p>The charm of adding field to field is, I suppose, a more keen and
-practical hunger than that of acquiring a little is to him who has
-nothing. Poverty does not know the sweetness that eludes it altogether,
-but property is fully aware of the keen delight of possession. The
-disappointment sank deep into Farrel-Austin’s heart. It even made him
-feel like the victim of retributive justice, as if, had he but kept his
-word to Augustine, Herbert might have been killed for him, and all been
-well; whereas now Providence preserved Herbert to spite him, and keep
-the inheritance from him! It seemed an unwarrantable bolstering up, on
-the part of Heaven and the doctors, of a miserable life which could be
-of very little good either to its owner or any other; and Farrel-Austin
-grew morose and disagreeable at home, by way of avenging himself on some
-one. Kate and Sophy did not very much care; they were too independent to
-be under his power, as daughters at home so often are under the power of
-a morose father. They had emancipated themselves beforehand, and now
-were strong in the fortresses of habit and established custom, and those
-natural defences with which they were powerfully provided. Rumors had
-reached them of a new inmate at Whiteladies, a young woman with a child,
-said to be the heir, who very much attracted their curiosity; and they
-had every intention of being kind to Herbert and Reine when they came
-home, and of making fast friends with their cousins. “For why should
-families be divided?” Kate said, not without sentiment. “However
-disappointed we may be, we can’t quarrel with Herbert for getting well,
-can we, and keeping his own property?” The heroes who assembled at
-afternoon tea grinned under their moustachios, and said “No.” These were
-not the heroes of two years ago; Dropmore was married among his own
-“set,” and Ffarington had sold out and gone down to his estates in
-Wales, and Lord Alf had been ruined by a succession of misfortunes on
-the turf, so that there was quite a new party at the Hatch, though the
-life was very much the same as before. Drags and dinners, and boatings
-and races and cricket-matches, varied, when Winter came on, and
-according to the seasons, by hunting, skating, dancing, and every other
-amusement procurable, went on like clock-work,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_305" id="page_305"></a>{305}</span> like treadmill work, or
-anything else that is useless and monotonous. Kate Farrel-Austin, who
-was now twenty-three in years, felt a hundred and three in life. She had
-grown wise, usual (and horrible) conclusion of girls of her sort. She
-wanted to marry, and change the air and scene of her existence, which
-began to grow tired of her as she of it. Sophy, on her way to the same
-state of superannuation, rather wished it too. “One of us ought
-certainly to do something,” she said, assenting to Kate’s homilies on
-the subject. They were not fools, though they were rather objectionable
-young women; and they felt that such life as theirs comes to be
-untenable after awhile. To be sure, the young men of their kind, the
-successors of Dropmore, etc. (I cannot really take the trouble to put
-down these young gentlemen’s names), did carry on for a very long time
-the same kind of existence; but they went and came, were at London
-sometimes, and sometimes in the country, and had a certain something
-which they called duty to give lines, as it were, to their life; while
-to be always there, awaiting the return of each succeeding set of men,
-was the fate of the girls. The male creatures here, as in most things,
-had the advantage of the others; except that perhaps in their
-consciousness of the tedium of their noisy, monotonous lot, the girls,
-had they been capable of it, had a better chance of getting weary and
-turning to better things.</p>
-
-<p>The Austin Chantry furnished the Farrel-Austins with the excuse they
-wanted to investigate Whiteladies and its mysterious guest. They drove
-over on a December day, when it was nearly finished, and by right of
-their relationship obtained entrance and full opportunity of inspection;
-and not only so, but met Miss Augustine there, with whom they returned
-to Whiteladies. There was not very much intercourse possible between the
-recluse and these two lively young ladies, but they accompanied her
-notwithstanding, plying her with mock questions, and “drawing her out;”
-for the Farrel-Austins were of those who held the opinion that Miss
-Augustine was mad, and a fair subject of ridicule. They got her to tell
-them about her pious purposes, and laid them up, with many a mischievous
-glance at each other, for the entertainment of their friends. When
-Stevens showed them in, announcing them with a peculiar loudness of tone
-intended to show his warm sense of the family hostility, there was no
-one in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_306" id="page_306"></a>{306}</span> drawing-room but Giovanna, who sat reclining in one of the
-great chairs, lazily watching the little boy who trotted about her, and
-who had now assumed the natural demeanor of a child to its mother. She
-was not a caressing mother even now, and in his heart I do not doubt
-Johnny still preferred Cook; but they made a pretty group, the rosy
-little fellow in his velvet frock and snow-white pinafore, and Giovanna
-in a black dress of the same material, which gave a most appropriate
-setting to her beauty. Dear reader, let me not deceive you, or give you
-false ideas of Miss Susan’s liberality, or Giovanna’s extravagance. The
-velvet was velveteen, of which we all make our Winter gowns, not the
-more costly material which lasts you (or lasted your mother, shall we
-say?) twenty years as a dinner dress, and costs you twice as many pounds
-as years. The Farrel-Austins were pretty girls both, but they were not
-of the higher order of beauty, like Giovanna; and they were much
-impressed by her looks and the indolent grace of her attitude, and the
-easy at-home air with which she held possession of Miss Susan’s
-drawing-room. She scarcely stirred when they came in, for her breeding,
-as may be supposed, was still very imperfect, and probably her silence
-prolonged their respect for her more than conversation would have done;
-but the child, whom the visitors knew how to make use of as a medium of
-communication, soon produced a certain acquaintance. “Je suis Johnny,”
-the baby said in answer to their question. In his little language one
-tongue and another was much the same; but in the drawing-room the mode
-of communication differed from that in the kitchen, and the child
-acknowledged the equality of the two languages by mixing them. “But
-mamma say Yan,” he added as an afterthought.</p>
-
-<p>The two girls looked at each other. Here was the mysterious guest
-evidently before them: to find her out, her ways, her meaning, and how
-she contemplated her position, could not be difficult. Kate was as usual
-a reasonable creature, talking as other people talk; while Sophy was the
-madcap, saying things she ought not to say, whose luck it was not
-unfrequently to surprise other people into similar indiscretions.</p>
-
-<p>“Then this charming little fellow is yours?” said Kate. “How nice for
-the old ladies to have a child in the house! Gentlemen don’t always care
-for the trouble, but where there are only ladies<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_307" id="page_307"></a>{307}</span> it is so cheerful; and
-how clever he is to speak both English and French.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna laughed softly. The idea that it was cheerful to have a child
-in the house amused her, but she kept her own counsel. “They teach
-him&mdash;a few words,” she said, making the w more of a v; and rolling the r
-a great deal more than she did usually, so that this sounded like
-vorrds, and proved to the girls, who had come to make an examination of
-her, that she knew very little English, and spoke it very badly, as they
-afterward said.</p>
-
-<p>“Then you are come from abroad? Pray don’t think us impertinent. We are
-cousins; Farrel-Austins; you may have heard of us.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes, I have heard of you,” said Giovanna with a smile. She had
-never changed her indolent position, and it gave her a certain pleasure
-to feel herself so far superior to her visitors, though in her heart she
-was afraid of them, and afraid of being exposed alone to their scrutiny.</p>
-
-<p>Kate looked at her sister, feeling that the stranger had the advantage,
-but Sophy broke in with an answering laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“It has not been anything very pleasant you have heard; we can see that;
-but we ain’t so bad as the old ladies think us,” said Sophy. “We are
-nice enough; Kate is sensible, though I am silly: we are not so bad as
-they think us here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I heard of you from my beau-père at Bruges,” said Giovanna. “Jeanot!
-’faut pas gêner la belle dame.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I like him,” said Kate. “Then you <i>are</i> from abroad? You are one of
-the Austins of Bruges? we are your cousins too. I hope you like England,
-and Whiteladies. Is it not a charming old house?”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna made no reply. She smiled, which might have been assent or
-contempt; it was difficult to say which. She had no intention of
-betraying herself. Whatever these young women might be, nothing could
-put them on her side of the question; this she perceived by instinct,
-and heroically refrained from all self-committal. The child by this time
-had gone to Sophy, and stood by her knee, allowing himself to be petted
-and caressed.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what a dear little thing! what a nasty little thing!” said Sophy.
-“If papa saw him he would like to murder him, and so should I. I suppose
-he is the heir?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_308" id="page_308"></a>{308}</span></p>
-
-<p>“But M. Herbert lives, and goes to get well,” said Giovanna.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, what a shame it is! Quel dommage, as you say in French. What right
-has he to get well, after putting it into everybody’s head that he was
-going to die? I declare, I have no patience with such hypocrisy! People
-should do one thing or another,” said Sophy, “not pretend for years that
-they are dying, and then live.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy, don’t say such things. She is the silliest rattle, and says
-whatever comes into her head. To be kept in suspense used to be very
-trying for poor papa,” said Kate. “He does not believe still that
-Herbert can live; and now that it has gone out of papa’s hands, it must
-be rather trying for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not angry with M. Herbert because he gets well,” said Giovanna
-with a smile. She was amused indeed by the idea, and her amusement had
-done more to dissipate her resentment than reason; for to be sure it was
-somewhat ludicrous that Herbert should be found fault with for getting
-well. “When I am sick,” she went on, “I try to get better too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, I think it is a shame,” said Sophy. “He ought to think of other
-people waiting and waiting, and never knowing what is going to happen.
-Oh! Miss Susan, how do you do? We came to ask for you, and when Herbert
-and Reine were expected home.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan came in prepared for the examination she had to go through.
-Her aspect was cloudy, as it always was nowadays. She had not the
-assured air of dignified supremacy and proprietorship which she once had
-possessed; but the Farrel-Austins were not penetrating enough to
-perceive more than that she looked dull, which was what they scarcely
-expected. She gave a glance at Giovanna, still reclining indolently in
-her easy chair; and curiously enough, quite against her expectation,
-without warning or reason, Miss Susan felt herself moved by something
-like a thrill of pleasure! What did it mean? It meant that Farrel’s
-girls, whom she disliked, who were her natural enemies, were not fit to
-be named in comparison with this young woman who was her torment, her
-punishment, her bad angel; but at all events hers, on her side pitted
-with her against them. It was not an elevated sort of satisfaction, but
-such as it was it surprised her with a strange gleam of pleasure. She
-sat down near Giovanna, unconsciously ranging herself on that side
-against the other; and then she relapsed into common<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_309" id="page_309"></a>{309}</span> life, and gave her
-visitors a very circumstantial account of Herbert and Reine&mdash;how they
-had wished to come home at Christmas, but the doctors thought it more
-prudent to wait till May. Kate and Sophy listened eagerly, consulting
-each other, and comparing notes in frequent looks.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, poor fellow! of course May will be better,” said Kate, “though I
-should have said June myself. It is sometimes very cold in May. Of
-course he will always be <i>very</i> delicate; his constitution must be so
-shattered&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“His constitution is not shattered at all,” said Miss Susan, irritated,
-as the friends of a convalescent so often are, by doubts of his
-strength. “Shattered constitutions come from quite different causes,
-Miss Kate&mdash;from what you call ‘fast’ living and wickedness. Herbert has
-the constitution of a child; he has no enemy but cold, and I hope we can
-take care of him here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Kate meant no harm,” said Sophy; “we know he could never have been
-‘fast.’ It is easy to keep straight when you haven’t health for anything
-else,” said this well-informed young woman.</p>
-
-<p>“Hush!” said her sister in an audible whisper, catching hold of the baby
-to make a diversion. Then Kate aimed her little broadside too.</p>
-
-<p>“We have been so pleased to make acquaintance with madame,” she said,
-using that title without any name, as badly instructed people are so apt
-to do. “It must be nice for you to feel yourself provided for, whatever
-happens. This, I hear, is the little heir?”</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Suzanne,” interrupted Giovanna, “I have told ces dames that I am
-glad M. Herbert goes to get well. I hope he will live long and be happy.
-Jean, chéri! dis fort ‘Vive M. Herbert!’ as I taught you, that ces dames
-may hear.”</p>
-
-<p>Johnny was armed with his usual weapon, the paper-knife, which on
-ordinary occasions Miss Susan could not endure to see in his hand; for I
-need not say it was her own pet weapon, which Giovanna in her ignorance
-had appropriated. He made a great flourish in the air with this
-falchion. “Vive M’sieu ’Erbert!” cried the child, his little round face
-flushed and shining with natural delight in his achievement. Giovanna
-snatched him up on her lap to kiss and applaud him, and Miss Susan, with
-a start of wonder, felt tears of pleasure come to her eyes. It was
-scarcely credible even to herself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_310" id="page_310"></a>{310}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he is the heir,” she said quickly, looking her assailants in the
-face, “that is, if Herbert has no children of his own. I am fortunate,
-as you say&mdash;more fortunate than your papa, Miss Kate.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who has only girls,” said Sophy, coming to the rescue. “Poor papa!
-Though if we are not as good as the men, we must be poor creatures,” she
-added with a laugh; and this was a proposition which nobody attempted to
-deny.</p>
-
-<p>As for Kate, she addressed her sister very seriously when they left
-Whiteladies. Things were come to a pass in which active measures were
-necessary, and a thorough comprehension of the situation.</p>
-
-<p>“If you don’t make up your mind at once to marry Herbert, that woman
-will,” she said to Sophy. “We shall see before six months are out. You
-don’t mind my advice as you ought, but you had better this time. I’d
-rather marry him myself than let him drop into the hands of an
-adventuress like that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do! I shan’t interfere,” said Sophy lightly; but in her heart she
-allowed that Kate was right. If one of them was to have Whiteladies, it
-would be necessary to be alert and vigorous. Giovanna was not an
-antagonist to be despised. They did not under-value her beauty; women
-seldom do, whatever fancy-painters on the other side may say.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan, for her part, left the drawing-room along with them, with so
-curious a sensation going through her that she had to retire to her room
-to get the better of it. She felt a certain thrill of gratefulness,
-satisfaction, kindness in the midst of her hatred; and yet the hatred
-was not diminished. This put all her nerves on edge like a jarring
-chord.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_311" id="page_311"></a>{311}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">H</span><span class="smcap">erbert</span> and Reine had settled at Cannes for the Winter, at the same time
-when Giovanna settled herself at Whiteladies. They knew very little of
-this strange inmate in their old home, and thought still less. The young
-man had been promoted from one point to another of the invalid resorts,
-and now remained at Cannes, which was so much brighter and less
-valetudinary than Mentone, simply, as the doctors said, “as a
-precautionary measure.” Does the reader know that bright sea-margin,
-where the sun shines so serene and sweet, and where the color of the sea
-and the sky and the hills and the trees are all brightened and glorified
-by the fact that the grays and chills of northern Winter are still close
-at hand? When one has little to do, when one is fancy free, when one is
-young, and happiness comes natural, there is nothing more delicious than
-the Riviera. You are able, in such circumstances, to ignore the touching
-groups which encircle here and there, some of the early doomed. You are
-able to hope that the invalids must get better. You say to yourself, “In
-this air, under this sky, no one can long insist upon being ill;” and if
-your own invalid, in whom you are most interested, has really mended,
-hope for every other becomes conviction. And then there are always
-idlers about who are not ill, to whom life is a holiday, or seems so,
-and who, being impelled to amuse themselves by force of circumstances,
-add a pleasant movement to the beautiful scene. Without even these
-attractions, is not the place in which you receive back your sick as
-from the dead always beautiful, if it were the dirtiest seaport or
-deserted village? Mud and gray sky, or sands of gold and heavenly vaults
-of blue, what matters? That was the first time since the inspired and
-glorious moment at Kandersteg that Reine had felt <i>sure</i> of Herbert<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_312" id="page_312"></a>{312}</span>’s
-recovery;&mdash;there was no doubting the fact now. He was even no longer an
-invalid, a change which at first was not nearly so delightful to his
-sister as she had expected. They had been all in all to each other for
-so long; and Reine had given up to Herbert not only willingly, but
-joyfully, all the delights of youth&mdash;its amusements, its companionships,
-everything. She had never been at a ball (grown up) in her life, though
-she was now over twenty. She had passed the last four years, the very
-quintessence of her youth, in a sick-room, or in the subdued goings out
-and gentle amusements suited to an invalid; and indeed, her heart and
-mind being fully occupied, she had desired no better. Herbert, and his
-comfort and his entertainment, had been the sum of all living to Reine.
-And now had come the time when she was emancipated, and when the young
-man, recovering his strength, began to think of other amusements than
-those which a girl could share. It was quite natural. Herbert made
-friends of his own, and went out with them, and made parties of
-pleasure, and manly expeditions in which Reine had no part. It was very
-foolish of her to feel it, and no critic could have been more indignant
-with her than she was with herself. The girl’s first sensation was
-surprise when she found herself left out. She was bewildered by it. It
-had never occurred to her as likely, natural, nay, necessary&mdash;which, as
-soon as she recovered her breath, she assured herself it was. Poor Reine
-even tried to laugh at herself for her womanish folly. Was it to be
-expected that Herbert should continue in the same round when he got
-better, that he should not go out into the world like other men? On the
-contrary, Reine was proud and delighted to see him go; to feel that he
-was able to do it; to listen to his step, which was as active as any of
-the others, she thought, and his voice, which rang as clear and gay. It
-was only after he was gone that the sudden surprise I have spoken of
-assailed her. And if you will think of it, it was hard upon Reine.
-Because of her devotion to him she had made no friends for herself. She
-had been out of the way of wanting friends. Madame de Mirfleur’s
-eagerness to introduce her, to find companions for her, when she paid
-the pair her passing visits, had always been one of the things which
-most offended Reine. What did she want with other companions than
-Herbert? She was necessary to him, and did any one suppose that she
-would leave him for pleasure? For pleasure!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_313" id="page_313"></a>{313}</span> could mamma suppose it
-would be any pleasure to her to be separate from her brother? Thus the
-girl thought in her absolute way, carrying matters with a high hand as
-long as it was in her power to do so. But now that Herbert was well,
-everything was changed. He was fond of his sister, who had been so good
-a nurse to him; but it seemed perfectly natural that she should have
-been his nurse, and had she not always said she preferred it to anything
-else in the world? It was just the sort of thing that suited Reine&mdash;it
-was her way, and the way of most good girls. But it did not occur to
-Herbert to think that there was anything astonishing, any hardship in
-the matter; nor, when he went out with his new friends, did it come into
-his head that Reine, all alone, might be dull and miss him. Yes, miss
-him, that of course she must; but then it was inevitable. A young fellow
-enjoying his natural liberty could not by any possibility drag a girl
-about everywhere after him&mdash;that was out of the question, of course. At
-first now and then it would sometimes come into his head that his sister
-was alone at home, but that impression very soon wore off. She liked it.
-She said so; and why should she say so if it was not the case? Besides,
-she could of course have friends if she chose. So shy Reine, who had not
-been used to any friends but him, who had alienated herself from all her
-friends for him, stayed at home within the four rather bare walls of
-their sitting-room, while the sun shone outside, and even the invalids
-strolled about, and the soft sound of the sea upon the beach filled the
-air with a subdued, delicious murmur. Good François, Herbert’s faithful
-attendant, used to entreat her to go out.</p>
-
-<p>“The weather is delightful,” he said. “Why will mademoiselle insist upon
-shutting herself up in-doors?”</p>
-
-<p>“I will go out presently, François,” Reine said, her pretty lips
-quivering a little.</p>
-
-<p>But she had no one to go out with, poor child! She did not like even to
-go and throw herself upon the charity of one or two ladies whom she
-knew. She knew no one well, and how could she go and thrust herself upon
-them now, after having received their advances coldly while she had
-Herbert? So the poor child sat down and read, or tried to read, seated
-at the window from which she could see the sea and the people who were
-walking about. How lucky she was to have such a cheerful window! But
-when<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_314" id="page_314"></a>{314}</span> she saw the sick English girl who lived close by going out for her
-midday walk leaning upon her brother’s arm, with her mother close by
-watching her, poor Reine’s heart grew sick. Why was it not she who was
-ill? if she died, nobody would miss her much (so neglected youth always
-feels, with poignant self pity), whereas it was evident that the heart
-of that poor lady would break if her child was taken from her. The poor
-lady whom Reine thus noted looked up at her where she sat at the window,
-with a corresponding pang in her heart. Oh, why was it that other girls
-should be so fresh and blooming while her child was dying? But it is
-very hard at twenty to sit at a bright window alone, and try to read,
-while all the world is moving about before your eyes, and the sunshine
-sheds a soft intoxication of happiness into the air. The book would fall
-from her hands, and the young blood would tingle in her veins. No doubt,
-if one of the ladies whom Reine knew had called just then, the girl
-would have received her visitor with the utmost dignity, nor betrayed by
-a word, by a look, how lonely she was; for she was proud, and rather
-perverse and shy&mdash;shy to her very finger-tips; but in her heart I think
-if any one had been so boldly kind as to force her out, and take her in
-charge, she would have been ready to kiss that deliverer’s feet, but
-never to own what a deliverance it was.</p>
-
-<p>No one came, however, in this enterprising way. They had been in Cannes
-several times, the brother and sister, and Reine had been always bound
-to Herbert’s side, finding it impossible to leave him. How could these
-mere acquaintances know that things were changed now? So she sat at the
-window most of the day, sometimes trying to make little sketches,
-sometimes working, but generally reading or pretending to read&mdash;not
-improving books, dear reader. These young people did not carry much
-solid literature about with them. They had poetry books&mdash;not a good
-selection&mdash;and a supply of the pretty Tauchnitz volumes, only limited by
-the extent of that enterprising firm’s reprints, besides such books as
-were to be got at the library. Everard had shown more discrimination
-than was usual to him when he said that Herbert, after his long
-helplessness and dependence, would rush very eagerly into the enjoyments
-and freedom of life. It was very natural that he should do so; chained
-to a sick-room as he had been for so long&mdash;then indulged with invalid
-pleasures, invalid<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_315" id="page_315"></a>{315}</span> privileges, and gradually feeling the tide rise and
-the warm blood of his youth swell in his veins&mdash;the poor young fellow
-was greedy of freedom, of boyish company, from which he had always been
-shut out&mdash;of adventures innocent enough, yet to his recluse mind having
-all the zest of desperate risk and daring. He had no intention of doing
-anything wrong, or even anything unkind. But this was the very first
-time that he had fallen among a party of young men like himself, and the
-contrast being so novel, was delightful to him. And his new friends
-“took to him” with a flattering vehemence of liking. They came to fetch
-him in the morning, they involved him in a hundred little engagements.
-They were fond of him, he thought, and he had never known friendship
-before. In short, they turned Herbert’s head, a thing which quite
-commonly happens both to girls and boys when for the first time either
-boy or girl falls into a merry group of his or her contemporaries, with
-many amusements and engagements on hand. Had one of these young fellows
-happened to fall in love with Reine, all would have gone well&mdash;for then,
-no doubt, the young lover would have devised ways and means for having
-her of the party. But she was not encouraging to their advances. Girls
-who have little outward contact with society are apt to form an
-uncomfortably high ideal, and Reine thought her brother’s friends a pack
-of noisy boys quite inferior to Herbert, with no intellect, and not very
-much breeding. She was very dignified and reserved when they ran in and
-out, calling for him to come here and go there, and treated them as
-somehow beneath the notice of such a very mature person as herself; and
-the young fellows were offended, and revenged themselves by adding ten
-years to her age, and giving her credit for various disagreeable
-qualities.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, he has a sister,” they would say, “much older than Austin&mdash;who
-looks as if she would like to turn us all out, and keep her darling at
-her apron-string.”</p>
-
-<p>“You must remember she has had the nursing of him all his life,” a more
-charitable neighbor would suggest by way of excusing the middle-aged
-sister.</p>
-
-<p>“But women ought to know that a man is not to be always lounging about
-pleasing them, and not himself. Hang it all, what would they have? I
-wonder Austin don’t send her home. It is the best place for her.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_316" id="page_316"></a>{316}</span></p>
-
-<p>This was how the friends commented upon Reine. And Reine did not know
-that even to be called Austin was refreshing to the invalid lad, showing
-him that he was at least on equal terms with somebody; and that the
-sense of independence intoxicated him, so that he did not know how to
-enjoy it enough&mdash;to take draughts full enough and deep enough of the
-delightful pleasure of being his own master, of meeting the night air
-without a muffler, and going home late in sheer bravado, to show that he
-was an invalid no more.</p>
-
-<p>After this first change, which chilled her and made her life so lonely,
-another change came upon Reine. She had been used to be anxious about
-Herbert all her life, and now another kind of anxiety seized her, which
-a great many women know very well, and which with many becomes a great
-and terrible passion, ravaging secretly their very lives. Fear for his
-health slid imperceptibly in her loneliness into fear for him. Does the
-reader know the difference? She was a very ignorant, foolish girl: she
-did not know anything about the amusements and pleasures of young men.
-When her brother came in slightly flushed and flighty, with some
-excitement in his looks, parting loudly with his friends at the door,
-smelling of cigars and wine, a little rough, a little noisy, poor Reine
-thought he was plunging into some terrible whirlpool of dissipation,
-such as she had read of in books; and, as she was of the kind of woman
-who is subject to its assaults, the vulture came down upon her, there
-and then, and began to gnaw at her heart. In those long evenings when
-she sat alone waiting for him, the legendary Spartan with the fox under
-his cloak was nothing to Reine. She kept quite still over her book, and
-read page after page, without knowing a word she was reading, but heard
-the pitiful little clock on the mantel-piece chime the hours, and every
-step and voice outside, and every sound within, with painful acuteness,
-as if she were all ear; and felt her heart beat all over her&mdash;in her
-throat, in her ears, stifling her and stopping her breath. She did not
-form any idea to herself of how Herbert might be passing his time; she
-would not let her thoughts accuse him of anything, for, indeed, she was
-too innocent to imagine those horrors which women often do imagine. She
-sat in an agony of listening, waiting for him, wondering how he would
-look when he returned&mdash;wondering if this was he, with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_317" id="page_317"></a>{317}</span> a renewed crisis
-of excitement, this step that was coming&mdash;falling dull and dead when the
-step was past, rousing up again to the next, feeling herself helpless,
-miserable, a slave to the anguish which dominated her, and against which
-reason itself could make no stand. Every morning she woke saying to
-herself that she would not allow herself to be so miserable again, and
-every night fell back into the clutches of this passion, which gripped
-at her and consumed her. When Herbert came in early and “like
-himself”&mdash;that is to say, with no traces of excitement or levity&mdash;the
-torture would stop in a moment, and a delicious repose would come over
-her soul; but next night it came back again the same as ever, and poor
-Reine’s struggles to keep mastery of herself were all in vain. There are
-hundreds of women who well know exactly how she felt, and what an
-absorbing fever it was which had seized upon her. She had more reason
-than she really knew for her fears, for Herbert was playing with his
-newly-acquired health in the rashest way, and though he was doing no
-great harm, had yet departed totally from that ideal which had been his,
-as well as his sister’s, but a short time before. He had lost altogether
-the tender gratitude of that moment when he thought he was being cured
-in a half miraculous, heavenly way, and when his first simple boyish
-thought was how good it became him to be, to prove the thankfulness of
-which his heart was full. He had forgotten now about being thankful. He
-was glad, delighted to be well, and half believed that he had some
-personal credit in it. He had “cheated the doctors”&mdash;it was not they who
-had cured him, but presumably something great and vigorous in himself
-which had triumphed over all difficulties; and now he had a right to
-enjoy himself in proportion to&mdash;what he began to think&mdash;the self-denial
-of past years. Both the brother and sister had very much fallen off from
-that state of elevation above the world which had been temporarily
-theirs in that wonderful moment at Kandersteg; and they had begun to
-feel the effect of those drawbacks which every great change brings with
-it, even when the change is altogether blessed, and has been looked
-forward to with hope for years.</p>
-
-<p>This was the position of affairs between the brother and sister when
-Madame de Mirfleur arrived to pay them a visit, and satisfy herself as
-to her son’s health. She came to them in her most<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_318" id="page_318"></a>{318}</span> genial mood, happy in
-Herbert’s recovery, and meaning to afford herself a little holiday,
-which was scarcely the aspect under which her former visits to her elder
-children had shown themselves. They had received her proposal with very
-dutiful readiness, but oddly enough, as one of the features of the
-change, it was Reine who wished for her arrival; not Herbert, though he,
-in former tunes, had always been the more charitable to his mother. Now
-his brow clouded at the prospect. His new-born independence seemed in
-danger. He felt as if mufflers and respirators, and all the old marks of
-bondage, were coming back to him in Madame de Mirfleur’s trunks.</p>
-
-<p>“If mamma comes with the intention of coddling me up again, and goes on
-about taking care,” he said, “by Jove! I tell you I’ll not stand it,
-Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma will do what she thinks best,” said Reine, perhaps a little
-coldly; “but you know I think you are wrong, Bertie, though you will not
-pay any attention to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are just like a girl,” said Herbert, “never satisfied, never able
-to see the difference. What a change it is, by Jove, when a fellow gets
-into the world, and learns the right way of looking at things! If you go
-and set her on me, I’ll never forgive you; as if I could not be trusted
-to my own guidance&mdash;as if it were not I, myself, who was most
-concerned!”</p>
-
-<p>These speeches of her brother’s cost Reine, I am afraid, some tears when
-he was gone, and her pride yielded to the effects of loneliness and
-discouragement. He was forsaking her, she thought, who had the most
-right to be good to her&mdash;he of whom she had boasted that he was the only
-being who belonged to her in the world; her very own, whom nobody could
-take from her. Poor Reine! it had not required very much to detach him
-from her. When Madame de Mirfleur arrived, however, she did not
-interfere with Herbert’s newly-formed habits, nor attempt to put any
-order in his mannish ways. She scolded Reine for moping, for sitting
-alone and neglecting society, and instantly set about to remedy this
-fault; but she found Herbert’s little dissipations tout simple, said not
-a word about a respirator, and rather encouraged him than otherwise,
-Reine thought. She made him give them an account of everything, where he
-had been, and all about his expeditions, when he came back at night, and
-never showed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_319" id="page_319"></a>{319}</span> even a shadow of disapproval, laughing at the poor little
-jokes which Herbert reported, and making the best of his pleasure. She
-made him ask his friends, of whom Reine disapproved, to dinner, and was
-kind to them, and charmed these young men; for Madame de Mirfleur had
-been a beauty in her day, and kept up those arts of pleasing which her
-daughter disdained, and made Herbert’s boyish companions half in love
-with her. This had the effect of restraining Herbert often, without any
-suspicions of restraint entering his head; and the girl, who half
-despised, half envied her mother’s power, was not slow to perceive this,
-though she felt in her heart that nothing could ever qualify her to
-follow the example. Poor Reine looked on, disapproving her mother as
-usual, yet feeling less satisfied with herself than usual, and asking
-herself vainly if she loved Herbert as she thought she did, would not
-she make any sacrifice to make him happy? If this made him happy, why
-could not she do it? It was because his companions were his inferiors,
-she said to herself&mdash;companions not worthy of Herbert. How could she
-stoop to them? Madame de Mirfleur had not such a high standard of
-excellence. She exerted herself for the amusement of the young men as if
-they had been heroes and sages. And even Reine, though she disapproved,
-was happier, against her will.</p>
-
-<p>“But, mon Dieu!” cried Madame de Mirfleur, “the fools that these boys
-are! Have you ever heard, my Reine, such bêtises as my poor Herbert
-takes for pleasantries? They give me mal au cœur. How they are bêtes,
-these boys!”</p>
-
-<p>“I thought you liked them,” said Reine, “you are so kind to them. You
-flatter them, even. Oh, does it not wound you, are you not ashamed, to
-see Bertie, my Bertie, prefer the noise&mdash;those scufflings? It is this
-that gives me mal au cœur.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bah! you are high-flown,” said the mother. “If one took to heart all
-the things that men do, one would have no consolation in this world.
-They are all less or more, bêtes, the men. What we have to do is to
-ménager&mdash;to make of it the best we can. You do not expect them to
-understand&mdash;to be like <i>us?</i> Tenez, Reine; that which your brother wants
-is a friend. No, not thee, my child, nor me. Do not cry, chérie. It is
-the lot of the woman. Thou hast not known whether thou wert girl or boy,
-or what difference there was, in the strange life you have led; but
-listen,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_320" id="page_320"></a>{320}</span> my most dear, for now you find it out. Herbert is but like
-others; he is no worse than the rest. He accepts from thee everything,
-so long as he wants thee; but now he is independent, he wants thee no
-more. This is a truth which every woman learns. To struggle is
-inutile&mdash;it does no good, and a woman who is wise accepts what must be,
-and does not struggle. What he wants is a friend. Where is the cousin,
-the Monsieur Everard, whom I left with you, who went away suddenly? You
-have never told me why he went away.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine’s color rose. She grew red to the roots of her hair. It was a
-subject which had never been touched upon between them, and possibly it
-was the girl’s consciousness of something which she could not put into
-words which made the blood flush to her face. Madame de Mirfleur had
-been very discreet on this subject, as she always was. She had never
-done anything to awaken her child’s susceptibilities. And she was not
-ignorant of Everard’s story, which Julie had entered upon in much
-greater detail than would have been possible to Reine. Honestly, she
-thought no more of Everard so far as Reine was concerned; but, for
-Herbert, he would be invaluable; therefore, it was with no match-making
-meaning that she awaited her daughter’s reply.</p>
-
-<p>“I told you when it happened,” said Reine, in very measured tones, and
-with unnecessary dignity; “you have forgotten, mamma. His affairs got
-into disorder; he thought he had lost all his money; and he was obliged
-to go at a moment’s notice to save himself from being ruined.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Madame de Mirfleur, “I begin to recollect. Après? He was not
-ruined, but he did not come back?”</p>
-
-<p>“He did not come back because he had to go to Jamaica&mdash;to the West
-Indies,” said Reine, somewhat indignant, “to work hard. It is not long
-since he has been back in England. I had a letter&mdash;to say he thought&mdash;of
-coming&mdash;” Here she stopped short, and looked at her mother with a
-certain defiance. She had not meant to say anything of this letter, but
-in Everard’s defence had betrayed its existence before she knew.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” said Madame de Mirfleur, wisely showing little eagerness, “such an
-one as Everard would be a good companion for thy brother. He is a man,
-voyez-vous, not a boy. He thought&mdash;of coming?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_321" id="page_321"></a>{321}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Somewhere&mdash;for the Winter,” said Reine, with a certain oracular
-vagueness, and a tremor in her voice.</p>
-
-<p>“Some-vere,” said Madame de Mirfleur, laughing, “that is large; and you
-replied, ma Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not reply&mdash;I have not time,” said Reine with dignity, “to answer
-all the idle letters that come to me. People in England seem to think
-one has nothing to do but to write.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is very true,” said the mother, “they are foolish, the English, on
-that point. Give me thy letter, chérie, and I will answer it for thee. I
-can think of no one who would be so good for Herbert. Probably he will
-never want a good friend so much as now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma!” cried Reine, changing from red to white, and from white to red
-in her dismay, “you are not going to invite Everard here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why not, my most dear? It is tout simple; unless thou hast something
-secret in thy heart against it, which I don’t know.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have nothing secret in my heart,” cried Reine, her heart beating
-loudly, her eyes filling with tears; “but don’t do it&mdash;don’t do it; I
-don’t want him here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Très-bien, my child,” said the mother calmly, “it was not for thee, but
-for thy brother. Is there anything against him?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, no! There is nothing against him&mdash;nothing!”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you are unreasonable, Reine,” said her mother; “but I will not go
-against you, my child. You are excited&mdash;the tears come to you in the
-eyes; you are not well&mdash;you have been too much alone, ma petite Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no; I am quite well&mdash;I am not excited!” cried the girl.</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur kissed her, and smoothed her hair, and bid her put on
-her hat and come out.</p>
-
-<p>“Come and listen a little to the sea,” she said. “It is soft, like the
-wind in our trees. I love to take advantage of the air when I am by the
-sea.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_322" id="page_322"></a>{322}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIV" id="CHAPTER_XXXIV"></a>CHAPTER XXXIV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> effect of this conversation, however, did not end as the talk itself
-did. Reine thought of little else all the rest of the day. When they got
-to the beach, Madame de Mirfleur, as was natural, met with some of her
-friends, and Reine, dropping behind, had leisure enough for her own
-thoughts. It was one of those lovely, soft, bright days which follow
-each other for weeks together, even though grim December, on that
-charmed and peaceful coast. The sea, as blue as a forget-me-not or a
-child’s eyes&mdash;less deep in tone than the Austin eyes through which Reine
-gazed at it, but not less limpid and liquid-bright&mdash;played with its
-pebbles on the beach like a child, rolling them over playfully, and
-sending the softest hus-sh of delicious sound through air which was full
-of light and sunshine. It was not too still, but had the refreshment of
-a tiny breeze, just enough to ruffle the sea-surface where it was
-shallow, and make edges of undulating shadow upon the shining sand and
-stones underneath, which the sun changed to gold. The blue sky to
-westward was turning into a great blaze of rose, through which its
-native hue shone in bars and breaks, here turning to purple and crimson,
-here cooling down to the wistfullest shadowy green. As close to the sea
-as it could keep its footing, a noble stone pile stood on a little
-height, rising like a great stately brown pillar, to spread its shade
-between the young spectator and the setting sun. Behind, not a stone’s
-throw from where she stood, rose the line of villas among their trees,
-and all the soft lively movement of the little town. How different from
-the scenes which Everard’s name conjured up before Reine&mdash;the soft
-English landscape of Whiteladies, the snowy peaks and the wild, sweet
-pastures of the Alpine valleys where they had been last together!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_323" id="page_323"></a>{323}</span></p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur felt that it would not harm her daughter to leave her
-time for thought. She was too far-seeing to worry her with interference,
-or to stop the germination of the seeds she had herself sown; and having
-soothed Reine by the influences of the open air and the sea, had no
-objection to leave her alone, and permit the something which was
-evidently in her mind, whatever it was, to work. Madame de Mirfleur was
-not only concerned about her daughter’s happiness from a French point of
-view, feeling that the time was come when it would be right to marry
-her; but she was also solicitous about her condition in other ways. It
-might not be for Reine’s happiness to continue much longer with Herbert,
-who was emancipating himself very quickly from his old bonds, and
-probably would soon find the sister who, a year ago, had been
-indispensable to him, to be a burden and drag upon his freedom, in the
-career of manhood he was entering upon so eagerly. And where was Reine
-to go? Madame de Mirfleur could not risk taking her to Normandy, where,
-delightful as that home was, her English child would not be happy; and
-she had a mother’s natural reluctance to abandon her altogether to the
-old aunts at Whiteladies, who, as rival guardians to her children in
-their youth, had naturally taken the aspect of rivals and enemies to
-their mother. No; it would have been impossible in France that an
-<i>affaire du cœur</i> should have dragged on so long as that between
-Everard and Reine must have done, if indeed there was anything in it.
-But there was never any understanding those English, and if Reine’s
-looks meant anything, surely this was what they meant. At all events, it
-was well that Reine should have an opportunity of thinking it well over;
-and if there was nothing in it, at least it would be good for Herbert to
-have the support and help of his cousin. Therefore, in whatever light
-you chose to view the subject, it was important that Everard should be
-here. So she left her daughter undisturbed to think, in peace, what it
-was best to do.</p>
-
-<p>And indeed it was a sufficiently difficult question to come to any
-decision upon. There was no quarrel between Reine and Everard, nor any
-reason why they should regard each other in any but a kind and cousinly
-way. Such a rapprochement, and such a curious break as had occurred
-between them, are not at all uncommon. They had been very much thrown
-together, and brought<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_324" id="page_324"></a>{324}</span> insensibly to the very verge of an alliance more
-close and tender; but before a word had been said, before any decisive
-step had been taken, Fate came in suddenly and severed them, “at a
-moment’s notice,” as Reine said, leaving no time, no possibility for any
-explanation or any pledge. I do not know what was in Everard’s heart at
-the moment of parting, whether he had ever fully made up his mind to
-make the sacrifices which would be necessary should he marry, or whether
-his feelings had gone beyond all such prudential considerations; but
-anyhow, the summons which surprised him so suddenly was of a nature
-which made it impossible for him in honor to do anything or say anything
-which should compromise Reine. For it was loss of fortune, perhaps
-total&mdash;the first news being exaggerated, as so often happens&mdash;with which
-he was threatened; and in the face of such news, honor sealed his lips,
-and he dared not trust himself to say a word beyond the tenderness of
-good-bye which his relationship permitted. He went away from her with
-suppressed anguish in his heart, feeling like a man who had suddenly
-fallen out of Paradise down, down to the commonest earth, but silenced
-himself, and subdued himself by hard pressure of necessity till time and
-the natural influences of distance and close occupation dulled the
-poignant feeling with which he had said that good-bye. The woman has the
-worst of it in such circumstances. She is left, which always seems the
-inferior part, and always is the hardest to bear, in the same scene,
-with everything to recall to her what has been, and nothing to justify
-her in dwelling upon the tender recollection. I do not know why it
-should appear to women, universally, something to be ashamed of when
-they give love unasked&mdash;or even when they give it in return for every
-kind of asking except the straightforward and final words. It is no
-shame to a man to do so; but these differences of sentiment are
-inexplicable, and will not bear accounting for. Reine felt that she had
-“almost” given her heart and deepest affections, without being asked for
-them. She had not, it is true, committed herself in words, any more than
-he had done; but she believed with sore shame that <i>he</i> knew&mdash;just as he
-felt sure (but without shame) that <i>she</i> knew; though in truth neither
-of them knew even their own feelings, which on both sides had changed
-somewhat, without undergoing any fundamental alteration.</p>
-
-<p>Such meetings and partings are not uncommon. Sometimes<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_325" id="page_325"></a>{325}</span> the two thus
-rent asunder at the critical moment, never meet again at all, and the
-incipient romance dies in the bud, leaving (very often) a touch of
-bitterness in the woman’s heart, a sense of incompleteness in the man’s.
-Sometimes the two meet when age has developed or altered them, and when
-they ask themselves with horror what they could possibly have seen in
-that man or that woman? And sometimes they meet again voluntarily or
-involuntarily, and&mdash;that happens which pleases heaven; for it is
-impossible to predict the termination of such an interrupted tale.</p>
-
-<p>Reine had not found it very easy to piece that broken bit of her life
-into the web again. She had never said a word to any one, never allowed
-herself to speak to herself of what she felt; but it had not been easy
-to bear. Honor, too, like everything else, takes a different aspect as
-it is regarded by man or woman. Everard had thought that honor
-absolutely sealed his lips from the moment that he knew, or rather
-believed, that his fortune was gone; but Reine would have been
-infinitely more ready to give him her fullest trust, and would have felt
-an absolute gratitude to him had he spoken out of his poverty, and given
-her the pleasure of sympathizing, of consoling, of adding her courage
-and constancy to his. She was too proud to have allowed herself to think
-that there was any want of honor in the way he left her, for Reine would
-have died rather than have had the pitiful tribute of a declaration made
-for honor’s sake; but yet, had it not been her case, but a hypothetical
-one, she would have pronounced it to be most honorable to speak, while
-the man would have felt a single word inconsistent with his honor! So we
-must apparently go on misunderstanding each other till the end of time.
-It was a case in which there was a great deal to be said on both sides,
-the reader will perceive. But all this was over; and the two whom a word
-might have made one were quite free, quite independent, and might each
-have married some one else had they so chosen, without the other having
-a word to say; and yet they could not meet without a certain
-embarrassment, without a sense of what might have been. They were not
-lovers, and they were not indifferent to each other, and on both sides
-there was just a little wholesome bitterness. Reine, though far too
-proud to own it, had felt herself forsaken. Everard, since his return
-from the active work which had left him little time to think, had felt
-himself slighted. She had said that, now Herbert was better, it was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_326" id="page_326"></a>{326}</span> not
-worth while writing so often! and when he had got over that unkind
-speech, and had written, as good as offering himself to join them, she
-had not replied. He had written in October, and now it was nearly
-Christmas, and she had never replied. So there was, the reader will
-perceive, a most hopeful and promising grievance on both sides. Reine
-turned over her part of it deeply and much in her mind that night, after
-the conversation with her mother which I have recorded. She asked
-herself, had she any right to deprive Herbert of a friend who would be
-of use to him for any foolish pride of hers? She could keep herself
-apart very easily, Reine thought, in her pride. She was no longer very
-necessary to Herbert. He did not want her as he used to do. She could
-keep apart, and trouble no one; and why should she, for any ridiculous
-self-consciousness, ghost of sentiment dead and gone, deprive her
-brother of such a friend? She said “No!” to herself vehemently, as she
-lay and pondered the question in the dark, when she ought to have been
-asleep. Everard was nothing, and could be nothing to her, but her
-cousin; it would be necessary to see him as such, but not to see much of
-him; and whatever he might be else, he was a gentleman, and would never
-have the bad taste to intrude upon her if he saw she did not want him.
-Besides, there was no likelihood that he would wish it; therefore Reine
-made up her mind that no exaggerated sentimentality on her part, no weak
-personal feeling, should interfere with Herbert’s good. She would keep
-herself out of the way.</p>
-
-<p>But the reader will scarcely require to be told that the letter written
-under this inspiration was not exactly the kind of letter which it
-flatters a young man to receive from a girl to whom he has once been so
-closely drawn as Everard had been to Reine, and to whom he still feels a
-visionary link, holding him fast in spite of himself. He received the
-cold epistle, in which Reine informed him simply where they were, adding
-a message from her brother: “If you are coming to the Continent, Herbert
-wishes me to say he would be glad to see you here,” in a scene and on a
-day which was as unlike as it is possible to imagine to the soft Italian
-weather, and genial Southern beach, on which Reine had concocted it. As
-it happened, the moment was one of the most lively and successful in
-Everard’s somewhat calm country life. He, who often felt himself
-insignificant, and sometimes slighted, was for that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_327" id="page_327"></a>{327}</span> morning at least in
-the ascendant. Very cold weather had set in suddenly, and in cold
-weather Everard became a person of great importance in his neighborhood.
-I will tell you why. His little house, which was on the river, as I have
-already said, and in Summer a very fine starting-point for
-water-parties, possessed unusually picturesque and well-planted grounds;
-and in the heart of a pretty bit of plantation which belonged to him was
-an ornamental piece of water, very prettily surrounded by trees and
-sloping lawns, which froze quickly, as the water was shallow, and was
-the pleasantest skating ground for miles round. Need I say more to show
-how a frost made Everard instantly a man of consequence? On the day on
-which Reine’s epistle arrived at Water Beeches, which was the name of
-his place, it was a beautiful English frost, such as we see but rarely
-nowadays. I do not know whether there is really any change in the
-climate, or whether it is only the change of one’s own season from
-Spring to Autumn which gives an air of change even to the weather; but I
-do not think there are so many bright, crisp, clear frosts as there used
-to be. Nor, perhaps, is it much to be regretted that the intense
-cold&mdash;which may be as champagne to the healthy and comfortable, but is
-death to the sick, and misery to the poor&mdash;should be less common than
-formerly. It was, however, a brilliant frosty day at the Water Beeches,
-and a large party had come over to enjoy the pond. The sun was shining
-red through the leafless trees, and such of them as had not encountered
-his direct influence were still encased in fairy garments of rime,
-feathery and white to the furthest twig. The wet grass was brilliantly
-green, and lighted up in the sun’s way sparkling water-diamonds, though
-in the shade it was too crisp and white with frost, and crackled under
-your feet. On the broad path at one end of the pond two or three older
-people, who did not skate, were walking briskly up and down, stamping
-their feet to keep them warm, and hurrying now and then in pairs to the
-house, which was just visible through the trees, to get warmed by the
-fire. But on the ice no one was cold. The girls, with their red
-petticoats and red feathers, and pretty faces flushed with the exercise,
-were, some of them, gliding about independently with their hands in
-their muffs, some of them being conducted about by their attendants,
-some dashing along in chairs wheeled by a chivalrous skater. They had
-just come out again, after a merry<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_328" id="page_328"></a>{328}</span> luncheon, stimulated by the best
-fare Everard’s housekeeper could furnish, and by Everard’s best
-champagne; and as the afternoon was now so short, and the sun sinking
-low, the gay little crowd was doing all it could to get an hour’s
-pleasure out of half-an-hour’s time, and the scene was one of perpetual
-movement, constant varying and intermingling of the bright-colored
-groups, and a pleasant sound of talk and laughter which rang through the
-clear air and the leafless trees.</p>
-
-<p>The few chaperons who waited upon the pleasure of these young ladies
-were getting tired and chilled, and perhaps cross, as was (I think)
-extremely natural, and thinking of their carriages; but the girls were
-happy and not cross, and all of them very agreeable to Everard, who was
-the cause of so much pleasure. Sophy and Kate naturally took upon them
-to do the honors of their cousin’s place. Everybody knows what a movable
-relationship cousinry is, and how it recedes and advances according to
-the inclination of the moment. To-day the Farrel-Austins felt themselves
-first cousins to Everard, his next-of-kin, so to speak, and comparative
-owners. They showed their friends the house and the grounds, and all the
-pretty openings and peeps of the river. “It is small, but it is a
-perfect little place,” they said with all the pride of proprietorship.
-“What fun we have had here! It is delightful for boating. We have the
-jolliest parties!”</p>
-
-<p>“In short, I don’t know such a place for fun all the year round,” cried
-Sophy.</p>
-
-<p>“And of course, being so closely related, it is just like our own,” said
-Kate. “We can bring whom we like here.”</p>
-
-<p>It was with the sound of all these pretty things in his ears, and all
-the pleasant duties of hospitality absorbing his attention, with
-pleasant looks, and smiles, and compliments about his house and his
-table coming to him on all sides, and a sense of importance thrust upon
-him in the most delightful way, that Everard had Reine’s letter put into
-his hand. It was impossible that he could read about it then; he put it
-into his pocket with a momentary flutter and tremor of his heart, and
-went on with the entertainment of his guests. All the afternoon he was
-in motion, flying about upon the ice, where, for he was a very good
-skater, he was in great demand, and where his performances were received
-with great applause; then superintending the muster of the carriages,
-putting<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_329" id="page_329"></a>{329}</span> his pretty guests into them, and receiving thanks and plaudits,
-and gay good-byes “for the present.” There was to be a dance at the
-Hatch that night, where most of the party were to reassemble, and
-Everard felt himself sure of the prettiest partners, and the fullest
-consideration of all his claims to notice and kindness. He had never
-been more pleased with himself, nor in a more agreeable state of mind
-toward the world in general, than when he shut the door of his cousins’
-carriage, which was the last to leave.</p>
-
-<p>“Mind you come early. I want to settle with you about next time,” said
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>“And Ev,” cried Sophy, leaning out of the carriage, “bring me those
-barberries you promised me for my hair.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard stood smiling, waving his hand to them as they drove away.
-“Madcaps!” he said to himself, “always with something on hand!” as he
-went slowly home, watching the last red gleam of the sun disappear
-behind the trees. It was getting colder and colder every moment, the
-chilliest of December nights; but the young man, in his glow of exercise
-and pleasure, did not take any notice of this. He went into his cosey
-little library, where a bright fire was burning, and where, even there
-in his own particular sanctum, the disturbing presence of those gay
-visitors was apparent. They had taken down some of his books from his
-shelves, and they had scattered the cushions of his sofa round the fire,
-where a circle of them had evidently been seated. There is a certain
-amused curiosity in a young man’s thoughts as to the doings and the
-sayings, when by themselves, of those mysterious creatures called girls.
-What were they talking about while they chatted round that fire, <i>his</i>
-fire, where, somehow, some subtle difference in the atmosphere betokened
-their recent presence? He sat down with a smile on his face, and that
-flattered sense of general importance and acceptability in his mind, and
-took Reine’s letter out of his pocket. It was perhaps not the most
-suitable state of mind in which to read the chilly communication of
-Reine.</p>
-
-<p>Its effect upon him, however, was not at all chilly. It made him hot
-with anger. He threw it down on the table when he had read it, feeling
-such a letter to be an insult. Go to Cannes to be of use, forsooth, to
-Herbert! a kind of sick-nurse, he supposed, or perhaps keeper, now that
-he could go out, to the inexperienced young fellow. Everard bounced up
-from his comfortable chair,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_330" id="page_330"></a>{330}</span> and began to walk up and down the room in
-his indignation. Other people nearer home had better taste than Reine.
-If she thought that he was to be whistled to, like a dog when he was
-wanted, she was mistaken. Not even when he was wanted;&mdash;it was clear
-enough that she did not want him, cold, uncourteous, unfriendly as she
-was! Everard’s mind rose like an angry sea, and swelled into such a
-ferment that he could not subdue himself. A mere acquaintance would have
-written more civilly, more kindly, would have thought it necessary at
-least to appear to join in the abrupt, cold, semi-invitation, which
-Reine transmitted as if she had nothing to do with it. Even her mother
-(a wise woman, with some real knowledge of the world, and who knew when
-a man was worth being civil to!) had perceived the coldness of the
-letter, and added a conciliatory postscript. Everard was wounded and
-humiliated in his moment of success and flattered vanity, when he was
-most accessible to such a wound. And he was quite incapable of
-divining&mdash;as probably he would have done in any one else’s case, but as
-no man seems capable of doing in his own&mdash;that Reine’s coldness was the
-best of all proof that she was not indifferent, and that something must
-lie below the studied chill of such a composition. He dressed for the
-party at the Hatch in a state of mind which I will not attempt to
-describe, but of which his servant gave a graphic account to the
-housekeeper.</p>
-
-<p>“Summat’s gone agin master,” that functionary said. “He have torn those
-gardenias all to bits as was got for his button-hole; and the lots of
-ties as he’ve spiled is enough to bring tears to your eyes. Some o’ them
-there young ladies has been a misconducting theirselves; or else it’s
-the money market. But I don’t think it’s money,” said John; “when it’s
-money gentlemen is low, not furious, like to knock you down.”</p>
-
-<p>“Get along with you, do,” said the housekeeper. “We don’t want no ladies
-here!”</p>
-
-<p>“That may be, or it mayn’t be,” said John; “but something’s gone agin
-master. Listen! there he be, a rampaging because the dog-cart ain’t come
-round, which I hear the wheels, and William&mdash;it’s his turn, and I’ll
-just keep out o’ the way.”</p>
-
-<p>William was of John’s opinion when they compared notes afterward. Master
-drove to the Hatch like mad, the groom said. He had never been seen to
-look so black in all his life before, for Everard<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_331" id="page_331"></a>{331}</span> was a peaceable soul
-in general, and rather under the dominion of his servants. He was,
-however, extremely gay at the Hatch, and danced more than any one, far
-outstripping the languid Guardsmen in his exertions, and taking all the
-pains in the world to convince himself that, though some people might
-show a want of perception of his excellences, there were others who had
-a great deal more discrimination. Indeed, his energy was so vehement,
-that two or three young ladies, including Sophy, found it necessary to
-pause and question themselves on the subject, wondering what sudden
-charm on their part had warmed him into such sudden exhibitions of
-feeling.</p>
-
-<p>“It will not answer at all,” Sophy said to her sister; “for I don’t mean
-to marry Everard, for all the skating and all the boating in the
-world&mdash;not now, at least. Ten years hence, perhaps, one might feel
-different&mdash;but now!&mdash;and I don’t want to quarrel with him either, in
-case&mdash;” said this far-seeing young woman.</p>
-
-<p>This will show how Reine’s communication excited and stimulated her
-cousin, though perhaps in a curious way.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_332" id="page_332"></a>{332}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXV" id="CHAPTER_XXXV"></a>CHAPTER XXXV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">E</span><small>VERARD’S</small> excited mood, however, did not last; perhaps he danced out
-some of his bitterness; violent exercise is good for all violent
-feeling, and calms it down. He came to himself with a strange shock,
-when&mdash;one of the latest to leave, as he had been one of the earliest to
-go&mdash;he came suddenly out from the lighted rooms, and noisy music, and
-chattering voices, to the clear cold wintry moonlight, deep in the
-frosty night, or rather early on the frosty morning of the next day.
-There are some people who take to themselves, in our minds at least, a
-special phase of nature, and plant their own image in the midst of it
-with a certain arrogance, so that we cannot dissociate the sunset from
-one of those usurpers, or the twilight from another. In this way Reine
-had taken possession of the moonlight for Everard. It was no doing of
-hers, nor was she aware of it; but still it was the case. He never saw
-the moon shining without remembering the little balcony at Kandersteg,
-and the whiteness with which her head rose out of the dark shadow of the
-rustic wooden framework. How could he help but think of her now, when
-worn out by a gayety which had not been quite real, he suddenly fell, as
-it were, into the silence, the clear white light, the frost-bound,
-chill, cold blue skies above him, full of frosty, yet burning stars, and
-the broad level shining of that ice-cold moon? Everard, like other
-people at his time of life, and in his somewhat unsettled condition of
-mind, had a way of feeling somewhat “low” after being very gay. It is
-generally the imaginative who do this, and is a sign, I think, of a
-higher nature; but Everard had the disadvantage of it without the good,
-for he was not of a poetical mind&mdash;though I suppose there must have been
-enough poetry in him to produce this reaction. When it came on,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_333" id="page_333"></a>{333}</span> as it
-always did after the noisy gayety of the Hatch, he had, in general, one
-certain refuge to which he always betook himself. He thought of
-Reine&mdash;Reine, who was gay enough, had nature permitted her to have her
-way, but whom love had separated from everything of the kind, and
-transplanted into solitude and quiet, and the moonlight, which, in his
-mind, was dedicated to her image; this was his resource when he was
-“low;” and he turned to it as naturally as the flowers turn to the sun.
-Reine was his imagination, his land of fancy, his unseen world, to
-Everard; but lo! on the very threshold of this secret region of dreams,
-the young man felt himself pulled up and stopped short. Reine’s letter
-rolled up before him like a black curtain shutting out his visionary
-refuge. Had he lost her? he asked himself, with a sudden thrill of
-visionary panic. Her image had embodied all poetry, all romance, to him,
-and had it fled from his firmament? The girls whom he had left had no
-images at all, so to speak; they were flesh and blood realities,
-pleasant enough, so long as you were with them, and often very amusing
-to Everard, who, after he had lingered in their society till the last
-moment, had that other to fall back upon&mdash;the other, whose superiority
-he felt as soon as he got outside the noisy circle, and whose soft
-influence, oddly enough, seemed to confer a superiority upon him, who
-had her in that private sphere to turn to, when he was tired of the
-rest.</p>
-
-<p>Nothing could be sweeter than the sense of repose and moral elevation
-with which, for instance, after a gay and amusing and successful day
-like this, he went back into the other world, which he had the privilege
-of possessing, and felt once more the mountain air breathe over him,
-fresh with the odor of the pines, and saw the moon rising behind the
-snowy peaks, which were as white as her own light, and that soft,
-upturned face lifted to the sky, full of tender thoughts and mysteries!
-If Reine forsook him, what mystery would be left in the world for
-Everard? what shadowy world, unrealized, and sweeter for being
-unrealized than any fact could ever be? The poor young fellow was seized
-with a chill of fright, which penetrated to the marrow of his bones, and
-froze him doubly this cold night. What it would be to lose one’s
-imagination! to have no dreams left, no place which they could inhabit!
-Poor Everard felt himself turned out of his refuge, turned out into the
-cold, the heavenly doors closed upon him all in a moment; and he could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_334" id="page_334"></a>{334}</span>
-not bear it. William, who thought his master had gone out of his mind,
-or fallen asleep&mdash;for what but unconsciousness or insanity could justify
-the snail’s pace into which they had dropped?&mdash;felt frozen on his seat
-behind; but he was not half so frozen as poor Everard, in his Ulster,
-whose heart was colder than his hands, and through whose very soul the
-shiverings ran.</p>
-
-<p>Next morning, as was natural, Everard endeavored to make a stand against
-the dismay which had taken possession of him, and succeeded for a short
-time, as long as he was fully occupied and amused, during which time he
-felt himself angry, and determined that he was a very badly-used man.
-This struggle he kept up for about a week, and did not answer Reine’s
-letter. But at last the conflict was too much for him. One day he rode
-over suddenly to Whiteladies, and informed them that he was going abroad
-for the rest of the Winter. He had nothing to do at Water Beeches, and
-country life was dull; he thought it possible that he might pass through
-Cannes on his way to Italy, as that was, on the whole, in Winter, the
-pleasantest way, and, of course, would see Herbert. But he did not
-mention Reine at all, nor her letter, and gave no reason for his going,
-except caprice, and the dulness of the country. “I have not an estate to
-manage like you,” he said to Miss Susan; and to Augustine, expressed his
-grief that he could not be present at the consecration of the Austin
-Chantry, which he had seen on his way white and bristling with Gothic
-pinnacles, like a patch upon the grayness of the old church. Augustine,
-whom he met on the road, with her gray hood over her head, and her hands
-folded in her sleeves, was roused out of her abstracted calm to a half
-displeasure. “Mr. Farrel-Austin will be the only representative of the
-family except ourselves,” she said; “not that I dislike them, as Susan
-does. I hope I do not dislike any one,” said the Gray Sister. “You can
-tell Herbert, if you see him, that I would have put off the consecration
-till his return&mdash;but why should I rob the family of four months’
-prayers? That would be sinful waste, Everard; the time is too short&mdash;too
-short&mdash;to lose a day.”</p>
-
-<p>This was the only message he had to carry. As for Miss Susan, her chief
-anxiety was that he should say nothing about Giovanna. “A hundred things
-may happen before May,” the elder sister said, with such an anxious,
-worried look as went to Everard’s heart. “I don’t conceal from you that
-I don’t want her to stay.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_335" id="page_335"></a>{335}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Then send her away,” he said lightly. Miss Susan shook her head; she
-went out to the gate with him, crossing the lawn, though it was damp, to
-whisper once again, “Nothing about her&mdash;say nothing about her&mdash;a hundred
-things may happen before May.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard left home about ten days after the arrival of Reine’s letter,
-which he did not answer. He could make it evident that he was offended,
-at least in that way; and he lingered on the road to show, if possible,
-that he had no eagerness in obeying the summons. His silence puzzled the
-household at Cannes. Madame de Mirfleur, with a twist of the
-circumstances, which is extremely natural, and constantly occurring
-among ladies, set it down as her daughter’s fault. She forgave Everard,
-but she blamed Reine. And with much skilful questioning, which was
-almost entirely ineffectual, she endeavored to elicit from Herbert what
-the state of affairs between these two had been. Herbert, for his part,
-had not an idea on the subject. He could not understand how it was
-possible that Everard could quarrel with Reine. “She is aggravating
-sometimes,” he allowed, “when she looks at you like this&mdash;I don’t know
-how to describe it&mdash;as if she meant to find you out. Why should she try
-to find a fellow out? a man (as she ought to know) is not like a pack of
-girls.”</p>
-
-<p>“Precisely,” said Madame de Mirfleur, “but perhaps that is difficult for
-our poor Reine&mdash;till lately thou wert a boy, and sick, mon ’Erbert; you
-forget. Women are dull, my son; and this is perhaps one of the things
-that it is most hard for them to learn.”</p>
-
-<p>“You may say so, indeed,” said Herbert, “unintelligible beings!&mdash;till
-they come to your age, mamma, when you seem to begin to understand. It
-is all very well for girls to give an account of themselves. What I am
-surprised at is, that they do not perceive at once the fundamental
-difference. Reine is a clever girl, and it just shows the strange
-limitation, even of the cleverest; now I don’t call myself a clever
-man&mdash;I have had a great many disadvantages&mdash;but I can perceive at a
-glance&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur was infinitely disposed to laugh, or to box her son’s
-ears; but she was one of those women&mdash;of whom there are many in the
-world&mdash;who think it better not to attempt the use of reason, but to
-ménager the male creatures whom they study so curiously. Both the sexes,
-indeed, I think, have about the same opinion of each other, though the
-male portion of the community have<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_336" id="page_336"></a>{336}</span> found the means of uttering theirs
-sooner than the other, and got it stereotyped, so to speak. We both
-think each other “inaccessible to reason,” and ring the changes upon
-humoring and coaxing the natural adversary. Madame de Mirfleur thought
-she knew men au fond, and it was not her practice to argue with them.
-She did not tell Herbert that his mental superiority was not so great as
-he thought it. She only smiled, and said gently, “It is much more facile
-to perceive the state of affairs when it is to our own advantage, mon
-fils. It is that which gives your eyes so much that is clear. Reine, who
-is a girl, who has not the same position, it is natural she should not
-like so much to acknowledge herself to see it. But she could not demand
-from Everard that he should account for himself. And she will not of you
-when she has better learned to know&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“From Everard? Everard is of little importance. I was thinking of
-myself,” cried Herbert.</p>
-
-<p>“How fortunate it is for me that you have come here! I should not have
-believed that Reine could be sulky. I am fond of her, of course; but I
-cannot drag a girl everywhere about with me. Is it reasonable? Women
-should understand their place. I am sure you do, mamma. It is home that
-is a woman’s sphere. She cannot move about the world, or see all kinds
-of life, or penetrate everywhere, like a man; and it would not suit her
-if she could,” said Herbert, twisting the soft down of his moustache. He
-was of opinion that it was best for a man to take his place, and show at
-once that he did not intend to submit to any inquisition; and this,
-indeed, was what his friends advised, who warned him against petticoat
-government. “If you don’t mind they’ll make a slave of you,” the young
-men said. And Herbert was determined to give all who had plans of this
-description fair notice. He would not allow himself to be made a slave.</p>
-
-<p>“You express yourself with your usual good sense, my son,” said Madame
-de Mirfleur. “Yes, the home is the woman’s sphere; always I have tried
-to make this known to my Reine. Is it that she loves the world? I make
-her enter there with difficulty. No, it is you she loves, and
-understands not to be separated. She has given up the pleasures that are
-natural to young girls to be with you when you were ill; and she
-understands not to be separated now.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_337" id="page_337"></a>{337}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Bah!” said Herbert, “that is the usual thing which I understand all
-women say to faire valoir their little services. What has she given up?
-They would not have been pleasures to her while I was ill; and she ought
-to understand. It comes back to what I said, mamma. Reine is a clever
-girl, as girls go&mdash;and I am not clever, that I know; but the thing which
-she cannot grasp is quite clear to me. It is best to say no more about
-it&mdash;<i>you</i> can understand reason, and explain to her what I mean.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, chéri,” said Madame de Mirfleur, submissively; then she added,
-“Monsieur Everard left you at Appenzell? Was he weary of the quiet? or
-had he cause to go?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why, he had lost his money, and had to look after it&mdash;or he thought he
-had lost his money. Probably, too, he found it slow. There was nobody
-there, and I was not good for much in those days. He had to be content
-with Reine. Perhaps he thought she was not much company for him,” said
-the young man, with a sentiment not unusual in young men toward their
-sisters. His mother watched him with a curious expression. Madame de
-Mirfleur was in her way a student of human nature, and though it was her
-son who made these revelations, she was amused by them all the same, and
-rather encouraged him than otherwise to speak his mind. But if she said
-nothing about Reine, this did not mean that she was deceived in respect
-to her daughter, or with Herbert’s view of the matter. But she wanted to
-hear all he had to say, and for the moment she looked upon him more as a
-typical representative of man, than as himself a creature in whose
-credit she, his mother, was concerned.</p>
-
-<p>“It has appeared to you that this might be the reason why he went away?”</p>
-
-<p>“I never thought much about it,” said Herbert. “I had enough to do
-thinking of myself. So I have now. I don’t care to go into Everard’s
-affairs. If he likes to come, he’ll come, I suppose; and if he don’t
-like, he won’t&mdash;that’s all about it&mdash;that’s how I would act if it were
-me. Hallo! why, while we’re talking, here he is! Look here&mdash;in that
-carriage at the door!”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, make my excuses, Herbert. I go to speak to François about a room
-for him,” said Madame de Mirfleur. What she did, in fact, was to dart
-into her own room, where Reine was sitting at work on some article of
-dress. Julie had much to do, looking after<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_338" id="page_338"></a>{338}</span> and catering for the little
-party, so that Reine had to make herself useful, and do things
-occasionally for herself.</p>
-
-<p>“Chérie,” said her mother, stooping over her, “thy cousin is come&mdash;he is
-at the door. I thought it best to tell you before you met him. For my
-part, I never like to be taken at the unforeseen&mdash;I prefer to be
-prepared.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine had stopped her sewing for the moment; now she resumed it&mdash;so
-quietly that her mother could scarcely make out whether this news was
-pleasant to her or not. “I have no preparation to make,” she said,
-coldly; but her blood was not so much under mastery as her tongue, and
-rushed in a flood to her face; her fingers, too, stumbled, her needle
-pricked her, and Madame de Mirfleur, watching, learned something at
-last&mdash;which was that Reine was not so indifferent as she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Me, I am not like you, my child,” she said. “My little preparations are
-always necessary&mdash;for example, I cannot see the cousin in my robe de
-chambre. Julie! quick!&mdash;but you, as you are ready, can go and salute
-him. It is to-day, is it not, that we go to see milady Northcote, who
-will be kind to you when I am gone away? I will put on my black silk;
-but you, my child, you who are English, who have always your toilette
-made from the morning, go, if you will, and see the cousin. There is
-only Herbert there.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma,” said Reine, “I heard Herbert say something when I passed the
-door a little while ago. It was something about me. What has happened to
-him that he speaks so?&mdash;that he thinks so? Has he changed altogether
-from our Herbert who loved us? Is that common? Oh, must it be? must it
-be?”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon Dieu!” cried the mother, “can I answer for all that a foolish boy
-will say? Men are fools, ma Reine. They pretend to be wise, and they are
-fools. But we must not say this&mdash;no one says it, though we all know it
-in our hearts. Tranquillize thyself; when he is older he will know
-better. It is not worth thy while to remember what he says. Go to the
-cousin, ma Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not care for the cousin. I wish he were not here. I wish there was
-no one&mdash;no one but ourselves; ourselves! that does not mean anything,
-now,” cried Reine, indignant and broken-hearted. The tears welled up
-into her eyes. She did not take what she had heard so calmly as her
-mother had done. She was sore and mortified, and wounded and cut to the
-heart.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_339" id="page_339"></a>{339}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Juste ciel!” cried Madame de Mirfleur, “thy eyes! you will have red
-eyes if you cry. Julie, fly toward my child&mdash;think not more of me. Here
-is the eau de rose to bathe them; and, quick, some drops of the eau de
-fleur de orange. I never travel without it, as you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not want any fleur de orange, nor eau de rose. I want to be as
-once we were, when we were fond of each other, when we were happy, when,
-if I watched him, Bertie knew it was for love, and nobody came between
-us,” cried the girl. Impossible to tell how sore her heart was, when it
-thus burst forth&mdash;sore because of what she had heard, sore with neglect,
-and excitement, and expectation, and mortification, which, all together,
-were more than Reine could bear.</p>
-
-<p>“You mean when your brother was sick?” said Madame de Mirfleur. “You
-would not like him to be ill again, chérie. They are like that, ma
-Reine&mdash;unkind, cruel, except when they want <i>us</i>, and then we must not
-be absent for a moment. But, Reine, I hope thou art not so foolish as to
-expect sense from a boy; they are not like us; they have no
-understanding; and if thou wouldst be a woman, not always a child, thou
-must learn to support it, and say nothing. Come, my most dear, my
-toilette is made, and thy eyes are not so red, after all&mdash;eyes of blue
-do not show like the others. Come, and we will say bon jour to the
-cousin, who will think it strange to see neither you nor me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Stop&mdash;stop but one moment, mamma,” cried Reine. She caught her mother’s
-dress, and her hand, and held her fast. The girl was profoundly excited,
-her eyes were not red, but blazing, and her tears dried. She had been
-tried beyond her powers of bearing. “Mamma,” she cried, “I want to go
-home with you&mdash;take me with you! If I have been impatient, forgive me. I
-will try to do better, indeed I will. You love me a little&mdash;oh, I know
-only a little, not as I want you to love me! But I should be good; I
-should try to please you and&mdash;every one, ma mère! Take me home with
-you!”</p>
-
-<p>“Reine, chérie! Yes, my most dear, if you wish it. We will talk of it
-after. You excite yourself; you make yourself unhappy, my child.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, no,” she cried; “it is not I. I never should have dreamed of
-it, that Herbert could think me a burden, think me<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_340" id="page_340"></a>{340}</span> intrusive,
-interfering, disagreeable! I cannot bear it! Ah, perhaps it is my fault
-that people are so unkind! Perhaps I am what he says. But, mamma, I will
-be different with you. Take me with you. I will be your maid, your
-bonne, anything! only don’t leave me here!”</p>
-
-<p>“My Reine,” said Madame de Mirfleur, touched, but somewhat embarrassed,
-“you shall go with me, do not doubt it&mdash;if it pleases you to go. You are
-my child as much as Babette, and I love you just the same. A mother has
-not one measure of love for one and another for another. Do not think
-it, chérie. You shall go with me if you wish it, but you must not be so
-angry with Herbert. What are men? I have told you often they are not
-like us; they seek what they like, and their own way, and their own
-pleasures; in short, they are fools, as the selfish always are. Herbert
-is ungrateful to thee for giving up thy youth to him, and thy brightest
-years; but he is not so unkind as he seems&mdash;that which he said is not
-what he thinks. You must forgive him, ma Reine; he is ungrateful&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Do I wish him to be grateful?” said the girl. “If one gives me a
-flower, I am grateful, or a glass of water; but gratitude&mdash;from
-Herbert&mdash;to me! Do not let us talk of it, for I cannot bear it. But
-since he does not want me, and finds me a trouble&mdash;mother, mother, take
-me home with you!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, chérie, yes; it shall be as you will,” said Madame de Mirfleur,
-drawing Reine’s throbbing head on to her bosom, and soothing her as if
-she had been still a child. She consoled her with soft words, with
-caresses, and tender tones. Probably she thought it was a mere passing
-fancy, which would come to nothing; but she had never crossed any of her
-children, and she soothed and petted Reine instinctively, assenting to
-all she asked, though without attaching to what she asked any very
-serious meaning. She took her favorite essence of orange flowers from
-her dressing-case, and made the agitated girl swallow some of it, and
-bathed her eyes with rose-water, and kissed and comforted her. “You
-shall do what pleases to you, ma bien aimée,” she said. “Dry thy dear
-eyes, my child, and let us go to salute the cousin. He will think
-something is wrong. He will suppose he is not welcome; and we are not
-like men, who are a law to themselves; we are women, and must do what is
-expected&mdash;what is reasonable. Come, chérie, or he will<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_341" id="page_341"></a>{341}</span> think we avoid
-him, and that something must have gone wrong.”</p>
-
-<p>Thus adjured, Reine followed her mother to the sitting-room, where
-Everard had exhausted everything he had to say to Herbert, and
-everything that Herbert had to say to him; and where the two young men
-were waiting very impatiently, and with a growing sense of injury, for
-the appearance of the ladies. Herbert exclaimed fretfully that they had
-kept him waiting half the morning, as they came in. “And here is
-Everard, who is still more badly used,” he cried; “after a long journey
-too. You need not have made toilettes, surely, before you came to see
-Everard; but ladies are all the same everywhere, I suppose!”</p>
-
-<p>Reine’s eyes gave forth a gleam of fire. “Everywhere!” she cried,
-“always troublesome, and in the way. It is better to be rid of them. I
-think so as well as you.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard, who was receiving the salutations and apologies of Madame de
-Mirfleur, did not hear this little speech; but he saw the fire in
-Reine’s eyes, which lighted up her proud sensitive face. This was not
-his Reine of the moonlight, whom he had comforted. And he took her look
-as addressed to himself, though it was not meant for him. She gave him
-her hand with proud reluctance. He had lost her then? it was as he
-thought.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_342" id="page_342"></a>{342}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVI" id="CHAPTER_XXXVI"></a>CHAPTER XXXVI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">R</span><span class="smcap">eine</span> did not go back from her resolution; she did not change her mind,
-as her mother expected, and forgive Herbert’s étourderie. Reine could
-not look upon it as étourderie, and she was too deeply wounded to
-recover the shock easily; but I think she had the satisfaction of giving
-an almost equal shock to her brother, who, though he talked so about the
-limitation of a girl’s understanding, and the superiority of his own,
-was as much wounded as Reine was, when he found that his sister really
-meant to desert him. He did not say a word to her, but he denounced to
-his mother the insensibility of women, who only cared for a fellow so
-long as he did exactly what they wished, and could not endure him to
-have the least little bit of his own way. “I should never have heard
-anything of this if I had taken her about with me everywhere, and gone
-to bed at ten o’clock, as she wished,” he cried, with bitterness.</p>
-
-<p>“You have reason, mon ’Erbert,” said Madame de Mirfleur; “had you cared
-for her society, she would never have left you; but it is not amusing to
-sit at home while les autres are amusing themselves. One would require
-to be an angel for this.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never thought Reine cared for amusement,” said Herbert; “she never
-said so; she was always pleased to be at home; it must all have come on,
-her love for gayety, to spite me.”</p>
-
-<p>Madame de Mirfleur did not reply; she thought it wisest to say nothing
-in such a controversy, having, I fear, a deep-rooted contempt for the
-masculine understanding in such matters at least. En revanche, she
-professed the most unbounded reverence for it in other matters, and
-liked, as Miss Susan did, to consult “a man” in all difficult questions,
-though I fear, like Miss Susan, it was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_343" id="page_343"></a>{343}</span> only the advice of one who
-agreed with her that she took. But with Herbert she was silent. What was
-the use? she said to herself. If he could not see that Reine’s
-indifference to amusement arose from her affection for himself, what
-could she say to persuade him of it? and it was against her principles
-to denounce him for selfishness, as probably an English mother would
-have done. “Que voulez-vous? it is their nature,” Madame de Mirfleur
-would have said, shrugging her shoulders. I am not sure, however, that
-this silence was much more satisfactory to Herbert than an explanation
-would have been. He was not really selfish, perhaps, only deceived by
-the perpetual homage that had been paid to him during his illness, and
-by the intoxicating sense of sudden emancipation now.</p>
-
-<p>As for Everard, he was totally dismayed by the announcement; all the
-attempts at self-assertion which he had intended to make failed him. As
-was natural, he took this, not in the least as affecting Herbert, but
-only as a pointed slight addressed to himself. He had left home to
-please her at Christmas, of all times in the year, when everybody who
-has a home goes back to it, when no one is absent who can help it. And
-though her invitation was no invitation, and was not accompanied by one
-conciliating word, he had obeyed the summons, almost, he said to
-himself, at a moment’s notice; and she for whom he came, though she had
-not asked him, she had withdrawn herself from the party! Everard said to
-himself that he would not stay, that he would push on at once to Italy,
-and prove to her that it was not her or her society that had tempted
-him. He made up his mind to this at once, but he did not do it. He
-lingered next day, and next day again. He thought it would be best not
-to commit himself to anything till he had talked to Reine; if he had but
-half an hour’s conversation with her he would be able to see whether it
-was her mother’s doing. A young man in such circumstances has an
-instinctive distrust of a mother. Probably it was one of Madame de
-Mirfleur’s absurd French notions. Probably she thought it not entirely
-comme il faut that Reine, now under her brother’s guardianship, should
-be attended by Everard. Ridiculous! but on the whole it was consolatory
-to think that this might be the mother’s doing, and that Reine was being
-made a victim of like himself. But (whether this also was her mother’s
-doing he could not tell)<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_344" id="page_344"></a>{344}</span> to get an interview with Reine was beyond his
-power. He had no chance of saying a word to her till he had been at
-least ten days in Cannes, and the time of her departure with Madame de
-Mirfleur was drawing near. One evening, however, he happened to come
-into the room when Reine had stepped out upon the balcony, and followed
-her there hastily, determined to seize the occasion. It was a mild
-evening, not moonlight, as (he felt) it ought to have been, but full of
-the soft lightness of stars, and the luminous reflection of the sea.
-Beyond her, as she stood outside the window, he saw the sweep of dim
-blue, with edges of white, the great Mediterranean, which forms the
-usual background on this coast. There was too little light for much
-color, only a vague blueness or grayness, against which the slim,
-straight figure rose. He stepped out softly not to frighten her; but
-even then she started, and looked about for some means of escape, when
-she found herself captured and in his power. Everard did not take any
-sudden or violent advantage of his luck. He began quite gently, with an
-Englishman’s precaution, to talk of the weather and the beautiful night.</p>
-
-<p>“It only wants a moon to be perfect,” he said. “Do you remember, Reine,
-the balcony at Kandersteg? I always associate you with balconies and
-moons. And do you remember, at Appenzell&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>It was on her lips to say, “Don’t talk of Appenzell!” almost angrily,
-but she restrained herself. “I remember most things that have happened
-lately,” she said; “I have done nothing to make me forget.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have I?” said Everard, glad of the chance; for to get an opening for
-reproach or self-defence was exactly what he desired.</p>
-
-<p>“I did not say so. I suppose we both remember all that there is to
-remember,” said Reine, and she added hastily, “I don’t mean anything
-more than I say.”</p>
-
-<p>“It almost sounds as if you did&mdash;and to see your letter,” said Everard,
-“no one would have thought you remembered anything, or that we had ever
-known each other. Reine, Reine, why are you going away?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why am I going away? I am not going what you call, away. I am going
-rather, as we should say, home&mdash;with mamma. Is it not the most natural
-thing to do?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_345" id="page_345"></a>{345}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Did you ever call Madame do Mirfleur’s house home before?” said
-Everard; “do you mean it? Are not you coming to Whiteladies, to your own
-country, to the place you belong to? Reine, you frighten me. I don’t
-understand what you mean.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do I belong to Whiteladies? Is England my country?” said Reine. “I am
-not so sure as you are. I am a Frenchwoman’s daughter, and perhaps, most
-likely, it will turn out that mamma’s house is the only one I have any
-right to.”</p>
-
-<p>Here she paused, faltering, to keep the tears out of her voice. Everard
-did not see that her lip was quivering, but he discovered it in the
-tremulous sound.</p>
-
-<p>“What injustice you are doing to everybody!” he cried indignantly. “How
-can you treat us so?”</p>
-
-<p>“Treat you? I was not thinking of you,” said Reine. “Herbert will go to
-Whiteladies in May. It is home to him; but what is there that belongs to
-a girl? Supposing Herbert marries, would Whiteladies be my home? I have
-no right, no place anywhere. The only thing, I suppose, a girl has a
-right to is, perhaps, her mother. I have not even that&mdash;but mamma would
-give me a home. I should be sure of a home at least&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not understand you, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is tout simple, as mamma says; everything is tout simple,” she said;
-“that Herbert should stand by himself, not wanting me; and that I should
-have nothing and nobody in the world. Tout simple. I am not complaining;
-I am only saying the truth. It is best that I should go to Normandy and
-try to please mamma. She does not belong to me, but I belong to her, in
-a way&mdash;and she would never be unkind to me. Well, there is nothing so
-very wonderful in what I say. Girls are like that; they have nothing
-belonging to them; they are not meant to have, mamma would say. It is
-tout simple; they are meant to ménager, and to cajole, and to submit;
-and I can do the last. That is why I say that, most likely, Normandy
-will be my home after all.”</p>
-
-<p>“You cannot mean this,” said Everard, troubled. “You never could be
-happy there; why should you change now? Herbert and you have been
-together all your lives; and if he marries&mdash;” Here Everard drew a long
-breath and made a pause. “You could not be happy with Monsieur, your
-stepfather, and all the little Mirfleurs,” he said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_346" id="page_346"></a>{346}</span></p>
-
-<p>“One can live, one can get on, without being happy,” cried Reine. Then
-she laughed. “What is the use of talking? One has to do what one must.
-Let me go in, please. Balconies and moonlights are not good. To think
-too much, to talk folly, may be very well for you who can do what you
-please, but they are not good for girls. I am going in now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Wait one moment, Reine. Cannot you do what you please?&mdash;not only for
-yourself, but for others. Everything will be changed if you go; as for
-me, you don’t care about me, what I feel&mdash;but Herbert. He has always
-been your charge; you have thought of him before everything&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“And so I do now,” cried the girl. Two big tears dropped out of her
-eyes. “So I do now! Bertie shall not think me a burden, shall not
-complain of me if I should die. Let me pass, please. Everard, may I not
-even have so much of my own will as to go out or in if I like? I do not
-ask much more.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard stood aside, but he caught the edge of her loose sleeve as she
-passed him, and detained her still a moment. “What are you thinking of?
-what have you in your mind?” he said humbly. “Have you changed, or have
-I changed, or what has gone wrong? I don’t understand you, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>She stood for a moment hesitating, as if she might have changed her
-tone; but what was there to say? “I am not changed that I know of; I
-cannot tell whether you are changed or not,” she said. “Nothing is
-wrong; it is tout simple, as mamma says.”</p>
-
-<p>What was tout simple? Everard had not a notion what was in her mind, or
-how it was that the delicate poise had been disturbed, and Reine taught
-to feel the disadvantage of her womanhood. She had not been in the habit
-of thinking or feeling anything of the kind. She had not been aware even
-for years and years, as her mother had said, whether she was girl or
-boy. The discovery had come all at once. Everard pondered dimly and with
-perplexity how much he had to do with it, or what it was. But indeed he
-had nothing to do with it; the question between Reine and himself was a
-totally different question from the other which was for the moment
-supreme in her mind. Had she been free to think of it, I do not suppose
-Reine would have felt in much doubt as to her power over Everard. But it
-was the other phase of her life which was uppermost for the moment.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_347" id="page_347"></a>{347}</span></p>
-
-<p>He followed her into the lighted room, where Madame de Mirfleur sat at
-her tapisserie in the light of the lamp. But when Reine went to the
-piano and began to sing “Ma Normandie,” with her sweet young fresh
-voice, he retreated again to the balcony, irritated by the song more
-than by anything she had said. Madame de Mirfleur, who was a musician
-too, added a mellow second to the refrain of her child’s song. The
-voices suited each other, and a prettier harmony could not have been,
-nor a more pleasant suggestion to any one whose mind was in tune.
-Indeed, it made the mother feel happy for the moment, though she was
-herself doubtful how far Reine’s visit to the Norman château would be a
-success. “Je vais revoir ma Normandie,” the girl sang, very sweetly; the
-mother joined in; mother and daughter were going together to that simple
-rural home, while the young men went out into the world and enjoyed
-themselves. What more suitable, more pleasant for all parties? But
-Everard felt himself grow hot and angry. His temper flamed up with
-unreasonable, ferocious impatience. What a farce it was, he cried
-bitterly to himself. What did that woman want with Reine? she had
-another family whom she cared for much more. She would make the poor
-child wretched when she got her to that detestable Normandie they were
-singing about with so much false sentiment. Of course it was all some
-ridiculous nonsense of hers about propriety, something that never could
-have come into Reine’s poor dear little innocent head if it had not been
-put there. When a young man is angry with the girl he is fond of, what a
-blessing it is when she has a mother upon whom he can pour out his
-wrath! The reader knows how very little poor Madame de Mirfleur had to
-do with it. But though she was somewhat afraid of her daughter’s visit,
-and anxious about its success, Reine’s song was very pleasant to her,
-and she liked to put in that pretty second, and to feel that her child’s
-sweet voice was in some sense an echo of her own.</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks, chérie,” she said when Reine closed the piano. “I love thy
-song, and I love thee for singing it. Tiens, my voice goes with your
-fresh voice well enough still.”</p>
-
-<p>She was pleased, poor soul; but Everard, glaring at her from the
-balcony, would have liked to do something to Madame de Mirfleur had the
-rules of society permitted. He “felt like hurling things at her,” like
-Maria in the play.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_348" id="page_348"></a>{348}</span></p>
-
-<p>Yet&mdash;I do not know how it came to pass, but so it was&mdash;even then Everard
-did not carry out his intention of making a start on his own account,
-and going off and leaving the little party which was just about to break
-up, each going his or her own way. He lingered and lingered still till
-the moment came when the ladies had arranged to leave. Herbert by this
-time had made up his mind to go on to Italy too, and Everard, in spite
-of himself, found that he was tacitly pledged to be his young cousin’s
-companion, though Bertie without Reine was not particularly to his mind.
-Though he had been partially weaned from his noisy young friends by
-Everard’s presence, Herbert had still made his boyish desire to
-emancipate himself sufficiently apparent to annoy and bore the elder
-man, who having long known the delights of freedom, was not so eager to
-claim them, nor so jealous of their infringement. Everard had no
-admiration for the billiard-rooms or smoking-rooms, or noisy, boyish
-parties which Herbert preferred so much to the society of his mother and
-sister. “Please yourself,” he said, shrugging his shoulders, as he left
-the lad at the door of these brilliant centres of society; and this
-shrug had more effect upon Herbert’s mind than dozens of moral lectures.
-His first doubt, indeed, as to whether the “life” which he was seeing,
-was not really of the most advanced and brilliant kind, was suggested to
-him by that contemptuous movement of his cousin’s shoulders. “He is a
-rustic, he is a Puritan,” Herbert said to himself, but quite
-unconsciously Everard’s shrug was as a cloud over his gayety. Everard,
-however, shrugged his shoulders much more emphatically when he found
-that he was expected to act the part of guide, philosopher, and friend
-to the young fellow, who was no longer an invalid, and who was so
-anxious to see the world. Once upon a time he had been very ready to
-undertake the office, to give the sick lad his arm, to wheel him about
-in his chair, to carry him up or down stairs when that was needful.</p>
-
-<p>“But you don’t expect me to be Herbert’s nurse all by myself,” he said
-ruefully, just after Madame de Mirfleur had made a pretty little speech
-to him about the benefit which his example and his society would be to
-her boy. Reine was in the room too, working demurely at her mother’s
-tapisserie, and making no sign.</p>
-
-<p>“He wants no nurse,” said Madame de Mirfleur, “thank God; but your
-society, cher Monsieur Everard, will be everything for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_349" id="page_349"></a>{349}</span> him. It will set
-our minds at ease. Reine, speak for thyself, then. Do not let Monsieur
-Everard go away without thy word too.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine raised her eyes from her work, and gave a quick, sudden glance at
-him. Then Everard saw that her eyes were full of tears. Were they for
-him? were they for Herbert? were they, for herself? He could not tell.
-Her voice was husky and strained very different from the clear carol
-with which this night even, over again, she had given forth the
-quavering notes of “Ma Normandie.” How he hated the song which she had
-taken to singing over and over again when nobody wanted it! But her
-voice just then had lost all its music, and he was glad.</p>
-
-<p>“Everard knows&mdash;what I would say,” said Reine. “He always was&mdash;very good
-to Bertie;” and here her tears fell. They were so big that they made a
-storm of themselves, and echoed as they fell, these two tears.</p>
-
-<p>“But speak, then,” said her mother, “we go to-morrow; there is no more
-time to say anything after to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine’s eyes had filled again. She was exercising great control over
-herself, and would not weep nor break down, but she could not keep the
-tears out of her eyes. “He is not very strong,” she said, faltering, “he
-never was&mdash;without some one to take care of him&mdash;before. Oh! how can I
-speak? Perhaps I am forsaking him for my own poor pride, after all. If
-he got ill what should I do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Chérie, if he gets ill, it will be the will of God; thou canst do no
-more. Tell what you wish to your cousin. Monsieur Everard is very good
-and kind; he will watch over him; he will take care of him&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I know, I know!” said Reine, under her breath, making a desperate
-effort to swallow down the rising sob in her throat.</p>
-
-<p>Through all this Everard sat very still, with a rueful sort of smile on
-his face. He did not like it, but what could he say? He had no desire to
-watch over Herbert, to take care of him, as Madame de Mirfleur said; but
-he was soft-hearted, and his very soul was melted by Reine’s tears,
-though at the same time they wounded him; for, alas! there was very
-little appearance of any thought for him, Everard, in all she looked and
-said.</p>
-
-<p>And then there followed a silence in which, if he had been a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_350" id="page_350"></a>{350}</span> brave man,
-he would have struck a stroke for liberty, and endeavored to get out of
-this thankless office; and he fully meant to do it; but sat still
-looking at the lamp, and said nothing, though the opportunity was
-afforded him. A man who has so little courage or presence of mind surely
-deserves all his sufferings.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_351" id="page_351"></a>{351}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">E</span><span class="smcap">verard</span> and Herbert made their tour through Italy without very much
-heart for the performance; but partly out of pride, partly because, when
-once started on a <i>giro</i> of any kind, it is easier to go on than to turn
-back, they accomplished it. On Herbert’s part, indeed, there was
-occasion for a very strong backbone of pride to keep him up, for the
-poor young fellow, whose health was not so strong as he thought, had one
-or two warnings of this fact, and when shut up for a week or two in Rome
-or in Naples, longed unspeakably for the sister who had always been his
-nurse and companion. Everard was very kind, and gave up a great deal of
-his time to the invalid; but it was not to be expected that he should
-absolutely devote himself, as Reine did, thinking of nothing in the
-world but Herbert. He had, indeed, many other things to think of, and
-when the state of convalescence was reached, he left the patient to get
-better as he could, though he was very good to him when he was
-absolutely ill. What more could any one ask? But poor Herbert wanted
-more. He wanted Reine, and thus learned how foolish it was to throw his
-prop away. Reine in the meanwhile wanted him, and spent many wretched
-hours in the heart of that still Normandy, longing to be with the
-travellers, to know what they were about, and how her brother arranged
-his life without her. The young men arrived at the Château Mirfleur at
-the earliest moment permissible, getting there in the end of April, to
-pick up Reine; and as they had all been longing for this meeting, any
-clouds that had risen on the firmament dispersed at once before the
-sunshine.</p>
-
-<p>They were so glad to be together again, that they did not ask why or how
-they had separated. And instead of singing “Ma Normandie,” as she had
-done at Cannes, Reine sang “Home,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_352" id="page_352"></a>{352}</span> sweet home,” bringing tears into the
-eyes of the wanderers with that tender ditty. Herbert and she were
-indeed much excited about their home-going, as was natural. They had not
-been at Whiteladies for six years, a large slice out of their young
-lives. They had been boy and girl when they left it, and now they were
-man and woman. And all the responsibilities of life awaited Herbert, now
-three-and-twenty, in full possession of his rights. In the first
-tenderness of the reunion Reine and he had again many talks over this
-life which was now beginning&mdash;a different kind of life from that which
-he thought, poor boy, he was making acquaintance with in billiard-rooms,
-etc. I think he had ceased to confide in the billiard-room version of
-existence, but probably not so much from good sense or any virtue of
-his, as from the convincing effect of those two “attacks” which he had
-been assailed by at Rome and Naples, and which proved to him that he was
-not yet strong enough to dare vulgar excitements, and turn night into
-day.</p>
-
-<p>As for Everard, it seemed to him that it was his fate to be left in the
-lurch. He had been told off to attend upon Herbert and take care of him
-when he had no such intention, and now, instead of rewarding him for his
-complaisance, Reine was intent upon cementing her own reconciliation
-with her brother, and making up for what she now represented to herself
-as her desertion of him. Poor Everard could not get a word or a look
-from her, but was left in a whimsical solitude to make acquaintance with
-Jeanot and Babette, and to be amiable to M. de Mirfleur, whom his wife’s
-children were not fond of. Everard found him very agreeable, being
-driven to take refuge with the honest, homely Frenchman, who had more
-charity for Herbert and Reine than they had for him. M. de Mirfleur,
-like his wife, found many things to be tout simple which distressed and
-worried the others. He was not even angry with the young people for
-their natural reluctance to acknowledge himself, which indeed showed
-very advanced perceptions in a step-father, and much forbearance. He set
-down all their farouche characteristics to their nationality. Indeed,
-there was in the good man’s mind, an evident feeling that the fact of
-being English explained everything. Everard was left to the society of
-M. de Mirfleur and the children, who grew very fond of him, and indeed
-it was he who derived the most advantage from his week in Normandy, if
-he had only been able to see it in that light. But I am not sure that
-he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_353" id="page_353"></a>{353}</span> did not think the renewed devotion of friendship between the brother
-and sister excessive; for it was not until they were ploughing the
-stormy seas on the voyage from Havre, which was their nearest seaport,
-to England, that he had so much as a chance of a conversation with
-Reine. Herbert, bound to be well on his triumphal return home, had been
-persuaded to go below and escape the night air. But Reine, who was in a
-restless condition, full of suppressed excitement, and a tolerable
-sailor besides, could not keep still. She came up to the deck when the
-night was gathering, the dark waves running swiftly by the ship’s side,
-the night-air blowing strong (for there was no wind, the sailors said)
-through the bare cordage, and carrying before it the huge black pennon
-of smoke from the funnel.</p>
-
-<p>The sea was not rough. There was something congenial to the commotion
-and excitement of Reine’s spirit in the throb and bound of the steamer,
-and in the dark waves, with their ceaseless movement, through which,
-stormy and black and full of mysterious life as they looked, the blacker
-solid hull pushed its resistless way. She liked the strong current of
-the air, and the sense of progress, and even the half-terror of that
-dark world in which this little floating world held its own between sky
-and sea. Everard tossed his cigar over the ship’s side when he saw her,
-and came eagerly forward and drew her hand through his arm. It was the
-first time he had been able to say a word to her since they met. But
-even then Reine’s first question was not encouraging.</p>
-
-<p>“How do you think Bertie is looking?” she said.</p>
-
-<p>Every man, however, be his temper ever so touchy, can be patient when
-the inducement is strong enough. Everard, though deeply tempted to make
-a churlish answer, controlled himself in a second, and replied&mdash;</p>
-
-<p>“Very well, I think; not robust, perhaps, Reine; you must not expect him
-all at once to look robust.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose not,” she said, with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“But quite <i>well</i>, which is much more important. It is not the degree,
-but the kind, that is to be looked at,” said Everard, with a great show
-of wisdom. “Strength is one thing, health is another; and it is not the
-most robustious men,” he went on with a smile, “who live longest,
-Reine.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_354" id="page_354"></a>{354}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I suppose not,” she repeated. Then after a pause, “Do you think, from
-what you have seen of him, that he will be active and take up a country
-life? There is not much going on at Whiteladies; you say you found your
-life dull?”</p>
-
-<p>“To excuse myself for coming when you called upon me, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! but I did not call you. I never should have ventured. Everard, you
-are doing me injustice. How could I have taken so much upon myself?”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would take a great deal more upon yourself. You did, Reine.
-You said, ‘Stand in my place.’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know; my heart was breaking. Forgive me, Everard. Whom could I
-ask but you?”</p>
-
-<p>“I will forgive you anything you like, if you say that. And I did take
-your place, Reine. I did not want to, mind you&mdash;I wanted to be with
-<i>you</i>, not Bertie&mdash;but I did.”</p>
-
-<p>“Everard, you are kind, and so cruel. Thanks! thanks a thousand times!”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not want to be thanked,” he said, standing over her; for she had
-drawn her hand from his arm, and was standing by the steep stairs which
-led below, ready for escape. “I don’t care for thanks. I want to be
-rewarded. I am not one of the generous kind. I did not do it for
-nothing. Pay me, Reine!”</p>
-
-<p>Reine looked him in the face very sedately. I do not think that his
-rudeness alarmed, or even annoyed her, to speak of. A gleam of malice
-came into her eyes; then a gleam of something else, which was, though it
-was hard to see it, a tear. Then she suddenly took his hand, kissed it
-before Everard had time to stop her, and fled below. And when she
-reached the safe refuge of the ladies’ cabin, where no profane foot
-could follow her, Reine took off her hat, and shook down her hair, which
-was all blown about by the wind, and laughed to herself. When she turned
-her eyes to the dismal little swinging lamp overhead, that dolorous
-light reflected itself in such glimmers of sunshine as it had never seen
-before.</p>
-
-<p>How gay the girl felt! and mischievous, like a kitten. Pay him! Reine
-sat down on the darksome hair-cloth sofa in the corner, with wicked
-smiles curling the corners of her mouth; and then she put her hands over
-her face, and cried. The other ladies, poor souls! were asleep or
-poorly, and paid no attention to all this pantomime. It was the happiest
-moment she had had for years, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_355" id="page_355"></a>{355}</span> this is how she ran away from it; but
-I don’t think that the running away made her enjoy it the less.</p>
-
-<p>As for Everard, he was left on deck feeling somewhat discomfited. It was
-the second time this had happened to him. She had kissed his hand
-before, and he had been angry and ashamed, as it was natural a man
-should be, of such an inappropriate homage. He had thought, to tell the
-truth, that his demand for payment was rather an original way of making
-a proposal; and he felt himself laughed at, which is, of all things in
-the world, the thing most trying to a lover’s feelings. But after
-awhile, when he had lighted and smoked a cigar, and fiercely
-perambulated the deck for ten minutes, he calmed down, and began to
-enter into the spirit of the situation. Such a response, if it was
-intensely provoking, was not, after all, very discouraging. He went
-downstairs after awhile (having, as the reader will perceive, his attack
-of the love-sickness rather badly), and looked at Herbert, who was
-extended on another dismal sofa, similar to the one on which Reine
-indulged her malice, and spread a warm rug over him, and told him the
-hour, and that “we’re getting on famously, old fellow!” with the utmost
-sweetness. But he could not himself rest in the dreary cabin, under the
-swinging lamp, and went back on deck, where there was something more
-congenial in the fresh air, the waves running high, the clouds breaking
-into dawn.</p>
-
-<p>They arrived in the afternoon by a train which had been selected for
-them by instructions from Whiteladies; and no sooner had they reached
-the station than the evidence of a great reception made itself apparent.
-The very station was decorated as if for royalty. Just outside was an
-arch made of green branches, and sweet with white boughs of the
-blossomed May. Quite a crowd of people were waiting to welcome the
-travellers&mdash;the tenants before mentioned, not a very large band, the
-village people in a mass, the clergy, and several of the neighbors in
-their carriages, including the Farrel-Austins. Everybody who had any
-right to such a privilege pressed forward to shake hands with Herbert.
-“Welcome home!” they cried, cheering the young man, who was so much
-surprised and affected that he could scarcely speak to them. As for
-Reine, between crying and smiling, she was incapable of anything, and
-had to be almost lifted into the carriage. Kate and Sophy Farrel-Austin
-waved their <span class="pagenum"><a name="page_356" id="page_356"></a>{356}</span>handkerchiefs and their parasols, and called out, “Welcome,
-Bertie!” over the heads of the other people. They were all invited to a
-great dinner at Whiteladies on the next day, at which half the county
-was to be assembled; and Herbert and Reine were especially touched by
-the kind looks of their cousins. “I used not to like them,” Reine said,
-when the first moment of emotion was over, and they were driving along
-the sunny high-road toward Whiteladies; “it shows how foolish one’s
-judgments are;” while Herbert declared “they were always jolly girls,
-and, by Jove! as pretty as any he had seen for ages.” Everard did not
-say anything; but then they had taken no notice of him. He was on the
-back seat, not much noticed by any one; but Herbert and Reine were the
-observed of all observers. There were two or three other arches along
-the rural road, and round each a little group of the country folks,
-pleased with the little show, and full of kindly welcomes. In front of
-the Almshouses all the old people were drawn up, and a large text, done
-in flowers, stretched along the front of the old red-brick building. “I
-cried unto the Lord, and He heard me,” was the inscription; and trim old
-Dr. Richard, in his trim canonicals, stood at the gate in the centre of
-his flock when the carriage stopped.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert jumped down amongst them with his heart full, and spoke to the
-old people; while Reine sat in the carriage, and cried, and held out her
-hands to her friends. Miss Augustine had wished to be there too, among
-the others who, she thought, had brought Herbert back to life by their
-prayers; but her sister had interposed strenuously, and this had been
-given up. When the Almshouses were passed there was another arch, the
-finest of all. It was built up into high columns of green on each side,
-and across the arch was the inscription, “As welcome as the flowers in
-May,” curiously worked in hawthorn blossoms, with dropping ornaments of
-the wild blue hyacinth from each initial letter. It was so pretty that
-they stopped the carriage to look at it, amid the cheers of some village
-people who clustered round, for it was close to the village. Among them
-stood a tall, beautiful young woman, in a black dress, with a rosy,
-fair-haired boy, whose hat was decorated with the same wreath of May and
-hyacinth. Even in that moment of excitement, both brother and sister
-remarked her. “Who was that lady?&mdash;you bowed to her,” said Reine, as
-soon as they had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_357" id="page_357"></a>{357}</span> passed. “By Jove! how handsome she was!” said Herbert.
-Everard only smiled, and pointed out to them the servants about the gate
-of Whiteladies, and Miss Susan and Miss Augustine standing out in the
-sunshine in their gray gowns. The young people threw the carriage doors
-open at either side, and had alighted almost before it stopped. And then
-came that moment of inarticulate delight, when friends meet after a long
-parting, when questions are asked in a shower and no one answers, and
-the eyes that have not seen each other for so long look through and
-through the familiar faces, leaping to quick conclusions. Everard (whom
-no one took any notice of) kept still in the carriage, which had drawn
-up at the gate, and surveyed this scene from his elevation with a sense
-of disadvantage, yet superiority. He was out of all the excitement and
-commotion. Nobody could look at him, bronzed and strong, as if he had
-just come back from the edge of the grave; but from his position of
-vantage he saw everything. He saw Miss Susan’s anxious survey of
-Herbert, and the solemn, simple complaisance on poor Augustine’s face,
-who felt it was her doing&mdash;hers and that of her old feeble chorus in the
-Almshouses; and he saw Reine pause, with her arms round Miss Susan’s
-neck, to look her closely in the eyes, asking, “What is it? what is it?”
-not in words, but with an alarmed look. Everard knew, as if he had seen
-into her heart, that Reine had found out something strange in Miss
-Susan’s eyes, and thinking of only one thing that could disturb her,
-leaped with a pang to the conclusion that Herbert was not looking so
-well or so strong as she had supposed. And I think that Everard, in the
-curious intuition of that moment when he was nothing but an onlooker,
-discovered also, that though Miss Susan looked so anxiously at Herbert,
-she scarcely saw him, and formed no opinion about his health, having
-something else much more keen and close in her mind.</p>
-
-<p>“And here is Everard too,” Miss Susan said; “he is not such a stranger
-as you others. Come, Everard, and help us to welcome them; and come in,
-Bertie, to your own house. Oh, how glad we all are to see you here!”</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan,” said Reine, whispering in her ear, “I see by your eyes
-that you think he is not strong still.”</p>
-
-<p>“By my eyes?” said Miss Susan, too much confused by many emotions to
-understand; but she made no disclaimer, only put her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_358" id="page_358"></a>{358}</span> hand over her
-eyebrows, and led Herbert to the old porch, everybody following almost
-solemnly. Such a home-coming could scarcely fail to be somewhat solemn
-as well as glad. “My dear,” she said, pausing on the threshold, “God
-bless you! God has brought you safe back when we never expected it. We
-should all say thank God, Bertie, when we bring you in at your own
-door.”</p>
-
-<p>And she stood with her hand on his shoulder, and stretched up to him
-(for he had grown tall in his illness) and kissed him, with one or two
-tears dropping on her cheeks. Herbert’s eyes were wet too. He was very
-accessible to emotion; he turned round to the little group who were all
-so dear and familiar, with his lip quivering. “I have most reason of all
-to say, ‘Thank God;’&nbsp;” the young man said, with his heart full, standing
-there on his own threshold, which, a little while before, no one had
-hoped to see him cross again.</p>
-
-<p>Just then the little gate which opened into Priory Lane, and was
-opposite the old porch, was pushed open, and two people came in. The jar
-of the gate as it opened caught everybody’s ear; and Herbert in
-particular, being somewhat excited, turned hastily to see what the
-interruption was. It was the lady to whom Everard had bowed, who had
-been standing under the triumphal arch as they passed. She approached
-them, crossing the lawn with a familiar, assured step, leading her
-child. Miss Susan, who had been standing close by him, her hand still
-fondly resting on Herbert’s shoulder, started at sight of the new-comer,
-and withdrew quickly, impatiently from his side; but the young man,
-naturally enough, had no eyes for what his old aunt was doing, but stood
-quite still, unconscious, in his surprise, that he was staring at the
-beautiful stranger. Reine, standing just behind him, stared too, equally
-surprised, but searching in her more active brain what it meant.
-Giovanna came straight up to the group in the porch. “Madame Suzanne?”
-she said, with a self-possession which seemed to have deserted the
-others. Miss Susan obeyed the summons with tremulous haste. She came
-forward growing visibly pale in her excitement. “Herbert,” she said,
-“and Reine,” making a pause after the words, “this is a&mdash;lady who is
-staying here. This is Madame Jean Austin from Bruges, of whom you have
-heard&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“And her child,” said Giovanna, putting him forward.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_359" id="page_359"></a>{359}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Madame Jean? who is Madame Jean?” said Herbert, whispering to his aunt,
-after he had bowed to the stranger. Giovanna was anxious about this
-meeting, and her ears were very sharp, and she heard the question. Her
-great black eyes shone, and she smiled upon the young man, who was more
-deeply impressed by her sudden appearance than words could say.</p>
-
-<p>“Monsieur,” she said with a curtsey, smiling, “it is the little child
-who is the person to look at, not me. Me, I am simple Giovanna, the
-widow of Jean; nobody; but the little boy is most to you: he is the
-heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“The heir?” said Herbert, turning a little pale. He looked round upon
-the others with bewilderment, asking explanations; then suddenly
-recollecting, said, “Ah, I understand; the next of kin that was lost. I
-had forgotten. Then, Aunt Susan, this is <i>my</i> heir?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, with blanched lips. She could not have uttered another
-word, had it been to deliver herself and the race from this burden
-forever.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna had taken the child into her arms. At this moment she swung him
-down lightly as a feather on to the raised floor of the porch, where
-they were all standing. “Jean,” she cried, “ton devoir!” The baby turned
-his blue eyes upon her, half frightened; then looked round the strange
-faces about him, struggling with an inclination to cry; then, mustering
-his faculties, took his little cap off with the gravity of a judge, and
-flinging it feebly in the air, shouted out, “Vive M. ’Erbert!” “Encore,”
-cried Giovanna. “Vive Monsieur ’Erbert!” said the little fellow loudly,
-with a wave of his small hand.</p>
-
-<p>This little performance had a very curious effect upon the assembled
-party. Surprise and pleasure shone in Herbert’s eyes; he was quite
-captivated by this last scene of his reception; and even Everard, though
-he knew better, was charmed by the beautiful face and beautiful attitude
-of the young woman, who stood animated and blooming, like the leader of
-an orchestra, on the lawn outside. But Reine’s suspicions darted up like
-an army in ambush all in a moment, though she could not tell what she
-was suspicious of. As for Miss Susan, she stood with her arms dropped by
-her side, her face fallen blank. All expression seemed to have gone out
-from it, everything but a kind of weary pain.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_360" id="page_360"></a>{360}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Who is she, Reine? Everard, who is she?” Herbert whispered anxiously,
-when, some time later, the three went off together to visit their
-childish haunts; the old playroom, the musicians’ gallery, the ancient
-corridors in which they had once frolicked. Miss Susan had come upstairs
-with them, but had left them for the moment. “Tell me, quick, before
-Aunt Susan comes back.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah!” cried Reine, with a laugh, though I don’t think she was really
-merry, “this is the old time back again, indeed, when we must whisper
-and have secrets as soon as Aunt Susan is away.”</p>
-
-<p>“But who is she?” said Herbert. They had come into the gallery
-overlooking the hall, where the table was already spread for dinner.
-Giovanna was walking round it, with her child perched on her shoulder.
-At the sound of the steps and voices above she turned round, and waved
-her hand to them. “Vive Monsieur ’Erbert!” she sang, in a melodious
-voice which filled all the echoes. She was so strong that it was nothing
-to her to hold the baby poised on her shoulder, while she pointed up to
-the figures in the gallery and waved her hand to them. The child, bolder
-this time, took up his little shout with a crow of pleasure. The three
-ghosts in the gallery stood and looked down upon this pretty group with
-very mingled feelings. But Herbert, for his part, being very sensitive
-to all homage, felt a glow of pleasure steal over him. “When a man has a
-welcome like this,” he said to himself, “it is very pleasant to come
-home!”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_361" id="page_361"></a>{361}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXVIII" id="CHAPTER_XXXVIII"></a>CHAPTER XXXVIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“M</span><span class="smcap">e</span>! I am nobody,” said Giovanna. “Ces dames have been very kind to me.
-I was the son’s widow, the left-out one at home. Does mademoiselle
-understand? But then you can never have been the left-out one&mdash;the one
-who was always wrong.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Reine. She was not, however, so much touched by this
-confidence as Herbert, who, though he was not addressed, was within
-hearing, and gave very distracted answers to Miss Susan, who was talking
-to him, by reason of listening to what Giovanna said.</p>
-
-<p>“But I knew that the petit was not nobody, like me; and I brought him
-here. He is the next, till M. Herbert will marry, and have his own
-heirs. This is what I desire, mademoiselle, believe me&mdash;for now I love
-Viteladies, not for profit, but for love. It was for money I came at
-first,” she said with a laugh, “to live; but now I have de l’amitié for
-every one, even this old Stefen, who do not love me nor my child.”</p>
-
-<p>She said this laughing, while Stevens stood before her with the tray in
-his hands, serving her with tea; and I leave the reader to divine the
-feelings of that functionary, who had to receive this direct shaft
-levelled at him, and make no reply. Herbert, whose attention by this
-time had been quite drawn away from Miss Susan, laughed too. He turned
-his chair round to take part in this talk, which was much more
-interesting than anything his aunt had to say.</p>
-
-<p>“That was scarcely fair,” he said; “the man hearing you; for he dared
-not say anything in return, you know.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_362" id="page_362"></a>{362}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, he do dare say many things!” said Giovanna. “I like to have my
-little revenge, me. The domestics did not like me at first, M. Herbert;
-I know not why. It is the nature of you other English not to love the
-foreigner. You are proud. You think yourselves more good than we.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not so, indeed!” cried Herbert, eagerly; “just the reverse, I think.
-Besides, we are half foreign ourselves, Reine and I.”</p>
-
-<p>“Whatever you may be, Herbert, I count myself pure English,” said Reine,
-with dignity. She was suspicious and disturbed, though she could not
-tell why.</p>
-
-<p>“Mademoiselle has reason,” said Giovanna. “It is very fine to be
-English. One can feel so that one is more good than all the world! As
-soon as I can speak well enough, I shall say so too. I am of no nation
-at present, me&mdash;Italian born, Belge by living&mdash;and the Belges are not a
-people. They are a little French, a little Flemish, not one thing or
-another. I prefer to be English, too. I am Austin, like all you others,
-and Viteladies is my ’ome.”</p>
-
-<p>This little speech made the others look at each other, and Herbert
-laughed with a curious consciousness. Whiteladies was his. He had
-scarcely ever realized it before. He did not even feel quite sure now
-that he was not here on a visit, his Aunt Susan’s guest. Was it the
-others who were his guests, all of them, from Miss Susan herself, who
-had always been the ‘Squire, down to this piquant stranger? Herbert
-laughed with a sense of pleasure and strangeness, and shy, boyish wonder
-whether he should say something about being glad to see her there, or be
-silent. Happily, he decided that silence was the right thing, and nobody
-spoke for the moment. Giovanna, however, who seemed to have taken upon
-her to amuse the company, soon resumed:</p>
-
-<p>“In England it is not amusing, the Winter, M. Herbert. Ah, mon Dieu!
-what a consolation to make the garlands to build up the arch! Figure to
-yourself that I was up at four o’clock this morning, and all the rooms
-full of those pretty aubépines, which you call May. My fingers smell of
-it now; and look, how they are pricked!” she said, holding them out. She
-had a pretty hand, large like her person, but white and shapely, and
-strong. There was a force about it, and about the solid round white arm
-with which she had tossed about the heavy child, which had impressed
-Herbert greatly at the time; and its beauty struck him all the more<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_363" id="page_363"></a>{363}</span>
-now, from the sense of strength connected with it&mdash;strength and
-vitality, which in his weakness seemed to him the grandest things in the
-world.</p>
-
-<p>“Did you prick your fingers for me?” he said, quite touched by this
-devotion to his service; and but for his shyness, and the presence of so
-many people, I think he would have ventured to kiss the wounded hand.
-But as it was, he only looked at it, which Reine did also with a
-half-disdainful civility, while Everard peeped over her shoulder, half
-laughing. Miss Susan had pushed her chair away.</p>
-
-<p>“Not for you altogether,” said Giovanna, frankly, “for I did not know
-you, M. Herbert; but for pleasure, and to amuse myself; and perhaps a
-little that you and mademoiselle might have de l’amitié for me when you
-knew. What is de l’amitié in English? Friendship&mdash;ah, that is grand,
-serious, not what I mean. And we must not say love&mdash;that is too much,
-that is autre chose.”</p>
-
-<p>Herbert, charmed, looking at the beautiful speaker, thought she blushed;
-and this moved him mightily, for Giovanna was not like a little girl at
-a dance, an ingénue, who blushed for nothing. She was a woman, older
-than himself, and not pretty, but grand and great and beautiful; nor
-ignorant, but a woman who knew more of that wonderful “life” which
-dazzled the boy&mdash;a great deal more than he himself did, or any one here.
-That she should blush while she spoke to him was in some way an
-intoxicating compliment to Herbert’s own influence and manly power.</p>
-
-<p>“You mean <i>like</i>,” said Reine, who persistently acted the part of a wet
-blanket. “That is what we say in English, when it means something not so
-serious as friendship and not so close as love&mdash;a feeling on the
-surface; when you would say ‘Il me plait’ in French, in English you say
-‘I like him.’ It means just that, and no more.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna shrugged her shoulders with a little shiver. “Comme c’est
-froid, ça!” she said, snatching up Miss Susan’s shawl, which lay on a
-chair, and winding it round her. Miss Susan half turned round, with a
-consciousness that something of hers was being touched, but she said
-nothing, and her eye was dull and veiled. Reine, who knew that her aunt
-did not like her properties interfered with, was more surprised than
-ever, and half alarmed, though she did not know why.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_364" id="page_364"></a>{364}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Ah, yes, it is cold, very cold, you English,” said Giovanna, unwinding
-the shawl again, and stretching it out behind her at the full extent of
-her white arms. How the red drapery threw out her fine head, with the
-close braids of black hair, wavy and abundant, twined round and round
-it, in defiance of fashion! Her hair was not at all the hair of the
-period, either in color or texture. It was black and glossy and shining,
-as dark hair ought to be; and she was pale, with scarcely any color
-about her except her lips. “Ah, how it is cold! Mademoiselle Reine, I
-will not say <i>like</i>&mdash;I will say de l’amitié! It is more sweet. And then,
-if it should come to be love after, it will be more natural,” she said
-with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>I do not know if it was her beauty, to which women are, I think, almost
-more susceptible than men, vulgar prejudice notwithstanding&mdash;or perhaps
-it was something ingratiating and sweet in her smile; but Reine’s
-suspicions and her coldness quite unreasonably gave way, as they had
-quite unreasonably sprung up, and she drew nearer to the stranger and
-opened her heart unawares, while the young men struck in, and the
-conversation became general. Four young people chattering all together,
-talking a great deal of nonsense, running into wise speculations, into
-discussions about the meaning of words, like and love, and de
-l’amitié!&mdash;one knows what a pleasant jumble it is, and how the talkers
-enjoy it; all the more as they are continually skimming the surface of
-subjects which make the nerves tingle and the heart beat. The old room
-grew gay with the sound of their voices, soft laughter, and exclamations
-which gave variety to the talk. Curious! Miss Susan drew her chair a
-little more apart. It was she who was the one left out. In her own
-house, which was not her own house any longer&mdash;in the centre of the
-kingdom where she had been mistress so long, but was no more mistress.
-She said to herself, with a little natural bitterness, that perhaps it
-was judicious and really kind, after all, on the part of Herbert and
-Reine, to do it at once, to leave no doubt on the subject, to supplant
-her then and there, keeping up no fiction of being her guests still, or
-considering her the head of the house. Much better, and on the whole
-more kind! for of course everything else would be a fiction. Her reign
-had been long, but it was over. The change must be made some time, and
-when so well, so appropriately as now? After awhile she went softly
-round behind the group, and secured her shawl. She did<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_365" id="page_365"></a>{365}</span> not like her
-personal properties interfered with. No one had ever done it except this
-daring creature, and it was a thing Miss Susan was not prepared to put
-up with. She could bear the great downfall which was inevitable, but
-these small annoyances she could not bear. She secured her shawl, and
-brought it with her, hanging it over the back of her chair. But when she
-got up and when she reseated herself, no one took any notice. She was
-already supplanted and set aside, the very first night! It was sudden,
-she said to herself with a catching of the breath, but on the whole it
-was best.</p>
-
-<p>I need not say that Reine and Herbert were totally innocent of any such
-intention, and that it was the inadvertence of their youth that was to
-blame, and nothing else. By-and-by the door opened softly, and Miss
-Augustine came in. She had been attending a special evening service at
-the Almshouses&mdash;a thanksgiving for Herbert’s return. She had, a curious
-decoration for her, a bit of flowering May in the waistband of her
-dress, and she brought in the sweet freshness of the night with her, and
-the scent of the hawthorn, special and modest gem of the May from which
-it takes its name. She broke up without any hesitation the lively group,
-which Miss Susan, sore and sad, had withdrawn from. Augustine was a
-woman of one idea, and had no room in her mind for anything else. Like
-Monsieur and Madame de Mirfleur, though in a very different way, many
-things were tout simple to her, against which many less single-minded
-persons broke their heads, if not their hearts.</p>
-
-<p>“You should have come with me, Herbert,” she said, half disapproving.
-“You may be tired, but there could be nothing more refreshing than to
-give thanks. Though perhaps,” she added, folding her hands, “it was
-better that the thanksgiving should be like the prayers, disinterested,
-no personal feeling mixing in. Yes, perhaps that was best. Giovanna, you
-should have been there.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, pardon!” said Giovanna, with a slight imperceptible yawn, “it was
-to welcome mademoiselle and monsieur that I stayed. Ah! the musique!
-Tenez! ma sœur, I will make the music with a very good heart, now.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is a different thing,” said Miss Augustine. “They trusted to
-you&mdash;though to me the hymns they sing themselves are<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_366" id="page_366"></a>{366}</span> more sweet than
-yours. One voice may be pleasant to hear, but it is but one. When all
-sing, it is like heaven, where that will be our occupation night and
-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, ma sœur,” said Giovanna, “but there they will sing in tune,
-n’est ce pas, all the old ones? Tenez! I will make the music now.”</p>
-
-<p>And with this she went straight to the piano, uninvited, unbidden, and
-began a <i>Te Deum</i> out of one of Mozart’s masses, the glorious rolling
-strains of which filled not only the room, but the house. Giovanna
-scarcely knew how to play; her science was all of the ear. She gave the
-sentiment of the music, rather than its notes&mdash;a reminiscence of what
-she had heard&mdash;and then she sang that most magnificent of hymns, pouring
-it forth, I suppose, from some undeveloped instinct of art in her, with
-a fervency and power which the bystanders were fain to think only the
-highest feeling could inspire. She was not bad, though she did many
-wrong things with the greatest equanimity; yet we know that she was not
-good either, and could not by any chance have really had the feeling
-which seemed to swell and tremble in her song. I don’t pretend to say
-how this was; but it is certain that stupid people, carnal and fleshly
-persons, sing thus often as if their whole heart, and that the heart of
-a seraph, was in the strain. Giovanna sang so that she brought the tears
-to their eyes. Reine stole away out from among the others, and put
-herself humbly behind the singer, and joined her soft voice, broken with
-tears, to hers. Together they appealed to prophets, and martyrs, and
-apostles, to praise the God who had wrought this deliverance, like so
-many others. Herbert, for whom it all was, hid his face in his clasped
-hands, and felt that thrill of awed humility, yet of melting, tender
-pride, with which the single soul recognizes itself as the hero, the
-object of such an offering. He could not face the light, with his eyes
-and his heart so full. Who was he, that so much had been done for him?
-And yet, poor boy, there was a soft pleased consciousness in his heart
-that there must be something in him, more than most, to warrant that
-which had been done. Augustine stood upright by the mantelpiece, with
-her arms folded in her sleeves, and her poor visionary soul still as
-usual. To her this was something like a legal acknowledgment&mdash;a receipt,
-so to speak, for value received. It was due to God, who, for certain
-inducements<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_367" id="page_367"></a>{367}</span> of prayer, had consented to do what was asked of Him. She
-had already thanked Him, and with all her heart; and she was glad that
-every one should thank Him, that there should be no stint of praise.
-Miss Susan was the only one who sat unmoved, and even went on with her
-knitting. To some people of absolute minds one little rift within the
-lute makes mute all the music. For my part, I think Giovanna, though her
-code of truth and honor was very loose, or indeed one might say
-non-existent&mdash;and though she had schemes in her mind which no very
-high-souled person could have entertained&mdash;was quite capable of being
-sincere in her thanksgiving, and not at all incapable of some kinds of
-religious feeling; and though she could commit a marked and unmistakable
-act of dishonesty without feeling any particular trouble in her
-conscience, was yet an honest soul in her way. This is one of the
-paradoxes of humanity, which I don’t pretend to understand and cannot
-explain, yet believe in. But Miss Susan did not believe in it. She
-thought it desecration to hear those sacred words coming forth from this
-woman’s mouth. In her heart she longed to get up in righteous wrath, and
-turn the deceiver out of the house. But, alas! what could she do? She
-too was a deceiver, more than Giovanna, and dared not interfere with
-Giovanna, lest she should be herself betrayed; and last of all, and, for
-the moment, almost bitterest of all, it was no longer her house, and she
-had no right to turn any one out, or take any one in, any more forever!</p>
-
-<p>“Who is she? Where did they pick her up? How do they manage to keep her
-here, a creature like that?” said Herbert to Everard, as they lounged
-together for half an hour in the old playroom, which had been made into
-a smoking-room for the young men. Herbert was of opinion that to smoke a
-cigar before going to bed was a thing that every man was called upon to
-do. Those who did not follow this custom were boys or invalids; and
-though he was not fond of it, he went through the ceremony nightly. He
-could talk of nothing but Giovanna, and it was with difficulty that
-Everard prevailed upon him to go to his room after all the emotions of
-the day.</p>
-
-<p>“I want to know how they have got her to stay,” he said, trying to
-detain his cousin that he might go on talking on this attractive
-subject.</p>
-
-<p>“You should ask Aunt Susan,” said Everard, not shrugging<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_368" id="page_368"></a>{368}</span> his shoulders.
-He himself was impressed in this sort of way by Giovanna. He thought her
-very handsome, and very clever, giving her credit for a greater amount
-of wisdom than she really possessed, and setting down all she had done
-and all she had said to an elaborate scheme, which was scarcely true;
-for the dangerous point in Giovanna’s wiles was that they were half
-nature, something spontaneous and unconscious being mixed up in every
-one of them. Everard resolved to warn Miss Susan, and put her on her
-guard, and he groaned to himself over the office of guardian and
-protector to this boy which had been thrust upon him. The wisest man in
-the world could not keep a boy of three-and-twenty out of mischief. He
-had done his best for him, but it was not possible to do any more.</p>
-
-<p>While he was thinking thus, and Herbert was walking about his room in a
-pleasant ferment of excitement and pleasure, thinking over all that had
-happened, and the flattering attention that had been shown to him on all
-sides, two other scenes were going on in different rooms, which bore
-testimony to a kindred excitement. In the first the chief actor was
-Giovanna, who had gone to her chamber in a state of high delight,
-feeling the ball at her feet, and everything in her power. She did not
-object to Herbert himself; he was young and handsome, and would never
-have the power to coerce and control her; and she had no intention of
-being anything but good to him. She woke the child, to whom she had
-carried some sweetmeats from the dessert, and played with him and petted
-him&mdash;a most immoral proceeding, as any mother will allow; for by the
-time she was sleepy, and ready to go to bed, little Jean was broad
-awake, and had to be frightened and threatened with black closets and
-black men before he could be hushed into quiet; and the untimely
-bon-bons made him ill. Giovanna had not thought of all that. She wanted
-some one to help her to get rid of her excitement, and disturbed the
-baby’s childish sleep, and deranged his stomach, without meaning him any
-harm. I am afraid, however, it made little difference to Jean that she
-was quite innocent of any evil intention, and indeed believed herself to
-be acting the part of a most kind and indulgent mother.</p>
-
-<p>But while Giovanna was playing with the child, Reine stole into Miss
-Susan’s room to disburden her soul, and seek that private delight of
-talking a thing over which women love. She<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_369" id="page_369"></a>{369}</span> stole in with the lightest
-tap, scarcely audible, noiseless, in her white dressing-gown, and light
-foot; and in point of fact Miss Susan did not hear that soft appeal for
-admission. Therefore she was taken by surprise when Reine appeared. She
-was seated in a curious blank and stupor, “anywhere,” not on her
-habitual chair by the side of the bed, where her table stood with her
-books on it, and where her lamp was burning, but near the door, on the
-first chair she had come to, with that helpless forlorn air which
-extreme feebleness or extreme preoccupation gives. She aroused herself
-with a look of almost terror when she saw Reine, and started from her
-seat.</p>
-
-<p>“How you frightened me!” she said fretfully. “I thought you had been in
-bed. After your journey and your fatigue, you ought to be in bed.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wanted to talk with you,” said Reine. “Oh, Aunt Susan, it is so
-long&mdash;so long since we were here; and I wanted to ask you, do you think
-he looks well? Do you think he looks strong? You have something strange
-in your eyes, Aunt Susan. Oh, tell me if you are disappointed&mdash;if he
-does not look so well as you thought.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan made a pause; and then she answered as if with difficulty,
-“Your brother? Oh, yes, I think he is looking very well&mdash;better even
-than I thought.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine came closer to her, and putting one soft arm into hers, looked at
-her, examining her face with wistful eyes&mdash;“Then what is it, Aunt
-Susan?” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“What is&mdash;what? I do not understand you,” cried Miss Susan, shifting her
-arm, and turning away her face. “You are tired, and you are fantastic,
-as you always were. Reine, go to bed.”</p>
-
-<p>“Dear Aunt Susan,” cried Reine, “don’t put me away. You are not vexed
-with us for coming back?&mdash;you are not sorry we have come? Oh, don’t turn
-your face from me! You never used to turn from me, except when I had
-done wrong. Have we done wrong, Herbert or I?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, child, no&mdash;no, I tell you! Oh, Reine, don’t worry me now. I have
-enough without that&mdash;I cannot bear any more.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan shook off the clinging hold. She roused herself and walked
-across the room, and put off her shawl, which she had drawn round her
-shoulders to come upstairs. She had not begun<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_370" id="page_370"></a>{370}</span> to undress, though Martha
-by this time was fast asleep. In the trouble of her mind she had sent
-Martha also away. She took off her few ornaments with trembling hands,
-and put them down on the table.</p>
-
-<p>“Go to bed, Reine; I am tired too&mdash;forgive me, dear,” she said with a
-sigh, “I cannot talk to you to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it, Aunt Susan?” said Reine softly, looking at her with anxious
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“It is nothing&mdash;nothing! only I cannot talk to you. I am not angry; but
-leave me, dear child, leave me for to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan,” said the girl, going up to her again, and once more
-putting an arm round her, “it is something about&mdash;<i>that</i> woman. If it is
-not us, it is her. Why does she trouble you?&mdash;why is she here? Don’t
-send me away, but tell me about her! Dear Aunt Susan, you are ill, you
-are looking so strange, not like yourself. Tell me&mdash;I belong to you. I
-can understand you better than any one else.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, hush, hush, Reine; you don’t know what you are saying. It is
-nothing, child, nothing! <i>You</i> understand me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Better than any one,” cried the girl, “for I belong to you. I can read
-what is in your face. None of the others know, but I saw it. Aunt Susan,
-tell me&mdash;whisper&mdash;I will keep it sacred, whatever it is, and it will do
-you good.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan leaned her head upon the fragile young creature who clung to
-her. Reine, so slight and young, supported the stronger, older woman,
-with a force which was all of the heart and soul; but no words came from
-the sufferer’s lips. She stood clasping the girl close to her, and for a
-moment gave way to a great sob, which shook her like a convulsion. The
-touch, the presence, the innocent bosom laid against her own in all that
-ignorant instinctive sympathy which is the great mystery of kindred, did
-her good. Then she kissed the girl tenderly, and sent her away.</p>
-
-<p>“God bless you, darling! though I am not worthy to say it&mdash;not worthy!”
-said the woman, trembling, who had always seemed to Reine the very
-emblem of strength, authority, and steadfast power.</p>
-
-<p>She stole away, quite hushed and silenced, to her room. What could this
-be? Not worthy! Was it some religious panic that had seized upon Miss
-Susan&mdash;some horror of doubt and darkness, like<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_371" id="page_371"></a>{371}</span> that which Reine herself
-had passed through? This was the only thing the girl could think of.
-Pity kept her from sleeping, and breathed a hundred prayers through her
-mind, as she lay and listened to the old clock, telling the hours with
-its familiar voice. Very familiar, and yet novel and strange&mdash;more
-strange than if she had never heard it before&mdash;though for many nights,
-year after year, it had chimed through her dreams, and woke her to many
-another soft May morning, more tranquil and more sweet even than this.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_372" id="page_372"></a>{372}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XXXIX" id="CHAPTER_XXXIX"></a>CHAPTER XXXIX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">N</span><span class="smcap">ext</span> day was the day of the great dinner to which Miss Susan had invited
-half the county, to welcome the young master of the house, and mark the
-moment of her own withdrawal from her long supremacy in Whiteladies.
-Though she had felt with some bitterness on the previous night the
-supposed intention of Herbert and Reine to supplant her at once, Miss
-Susan was far too sensible a woman to make voluntary vexation for
-herself, out of an event so well known and long anticipated. That she
-must feel it was of course inevitable, but as she felt no real wrong in
-it, and had for a long time expected it, there was not, apart from the
-painful burden on her mind which threw a dark shadow over everything,
-any bitterness in the necessary and natural event. She had made all her
-arrangements without undue fuss or publicity, and had prepared for
-herself, as I have said, a house, which had providentially fallen
-vacant, on the other side of the village, where Augustine would still be
-within reach of the Almshouses. I am not sure that, so far as she was
-herself concerned, the sovereign of Whiteladies, now on the point of
-abdication, would not have preferred to be a little further off, out of
-daily sight of her forsaken throne; but this would have deprived
-Augustine of all that made life to her, and Miss Susan was too strong,
-too proud, and too heroic, to hesitate for a moment, or to think her own
-sentiment worth indulging. Perhaps, indeed, even without that powerful
-argument of Augustine, she would have scorned to indulge a feeling which
-she could not have failed to recognize as a mean and petty one. She had
-her faults, like most people, and she had committed a great wrong, which
-clouded her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_373" id="page_373"></a>{373}</span> life, but there was nothing petty or mean about Miss Susan.
-After Reine had left her on the previous night, she had made a great
-effort, and recovered her self-command. I don’t know why she had allowed
-herself to be so beaten down. One kind of excitement, no doubt,
-predisposes toward another; and after the triumph and joy of Herbert’s
-return, her sense of the horrible cloud which hung over her personally,
-the revelation which Giovanna at any moment had it in her power to make,
-the evident intention she had of ingratiating herself with the
-new-comers, and the success so far of the attempt, produced a reaction
-which almost drove Miss Susan wild! If you will think of it, she had
-cause enough. She, heretofore an honorable and spotless woman, who had
-never feared the face of man, to lie now under the horrible risk of
-being found out&mdash;to be at the mercy of a passionate, impulsive creature,
-who could at any moment cover her with shame, and pull her down from her
-pedestal. I think that at such moments to have the worst happen, to be
-pulled down finally, to have her shame published to the world, would
-have been the best thing that could have happened to Miss Susan. She
-would then have raised up her humbled head again, and accepted her
-punishment, and raced the daylight, free from fear of anything that
-could befall her. The worst of it all now was this intolerable sense
-that there was something to be found out, that everything was not honest
-and open in her life, as it had always been. And by times this
-consciousness overpowered and broke her down, as it had done on the
-previous night. But when a vigorous soul is thus overpowered and breaks
-down, the moment of its utter overthrow marks a new beginning of power
-and endurance. The old fable of Antæus, who derived fresh strength
-whenever he was thrown, from contact with his mother earth, is
-profoundly true. Miss Susan had been thrown too, had fallen, and had
-rebounded with fresh force. Even Reine could scarcely see in her
-countenance next morning any trace of the emotion of last night. She
-took her place at the breakfast-table with a smile, with composure which
-was not feigned, putting bravely her burden behind her, and resolute to
-make steady head as long as she could against any storm that could
-threaten. Even when Herbert eluded that “business consultation,” and
-begged to be left free to roam about the old house, and renew his
-acquaintance with every familiar corner, she was able to accept the
-postponement<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_374" id="page_374"></a>{374}</span> without pain. She watched the young people go out even
-with almost pleasure&mdash;the brother and sister together, and Everard&mdash;and
-Giovanna at the head of the troop, with little Jean perched on her
-shoulder. Giovanna was fond of wandering about without any covering on
-her head, having a complexion which I suppose would not spoil, and
-loving the sun. And it suited her somehow to have the child on her
-shoulder, to toss him about, to the terror of all the household, in her
-strong, beautiful arms. I rather think it was because the household
-generally was frightened by this rough play, that Giovanna had taken to
-it; for she liked to shock them, not from malice, but from a sort of
-school-boy mischief. Little Jean, who had got over all his dislike to
-her, enjoyed his perch upon her shoulder; and it is impossible to tell
-how Herbert admired her, her strength, her quick, swift, easy movements,
-the lightness and grace with which she carried the boy, and all her
-gambols with him, in which a certain risk always mingled. He could not
-keep his eyes from her, and followed wherever she led, penetrating into
-rooms where, in his delicate boyhood, he had never been allowed to go.</p>
-
-<p>“I know myself in every part,” cried Giovanna gayly. “I have all
-visited, all seen, even where it is not safe. It is safe here, M.
-Herbert. Come then and look at the carvings, all close; they are
-beautiful when you are near.”</p>
-
-<p>They followed her about within and without, as if she had been the
-cicerone, though they had all known Whiteladies long before she had; and
-even Reine’s nascent suspicions were not able to stand before her frank
-energy and cordial ignorant talk. For she was quite ignorant, and made
-no attempt to conceal it.</p>
-
-<p>“Me, I love not at all what is so old,” she said with a laugh. “I prefer
-the smooth wall and the big window, and a floor well frotté, that
-shines. Wood that is all cut like the lace, what good does that do? and
-brick, that is nothing, that is common. I love stone châteaux, with much
-of window, and little tourelles at the top. But if you love the wood,
-and the brick, très bien! I know myself in all the little corners,” said
-Giovanna. And outside and in, it was she who led the way.</p>
-
-<p>Once again&mdash;and it was a thing which had repeatedly happened before
-this, notwithstanding the terror and oppression of her presence&mdash;Miss
-Susan was even grateful to Giovanna, who left her free to make all her
-arrangements, and amused and interested the new-comers,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_375" id="page_375"></a>{375}</span> who were
-strangers in a sense, though to them belonged the house and everything
-in it; and I doubt if it had yet entered into her head that Giovanna’s
-society or her beauty involved any danger to Herbert. She was older than
-Herbert; she was “not a lady;” she was an intruder and alien, and
-nothing to the young people, though she might amuse them for the moment.
-The only danger Miss Susan saw in her was one tragic and terrible danger
-to herself, which she had determined for the moment not to think of. For
-everybody else she was harmless. So at least Miss Susan, with an
-inadvertence natural to her preoccupied mind, thought.</p>
-
-<p>And there were a great many arrangements to make for the great dinner,
-and many things besides that required looking after. However distinctly
-one has foreseen the necessities of a great crisis, yet it is only when
-it arrives that they acquire their due urgency. Miss Susan now, for
-almost the first time, felt the house she had secured at the other end
-of the village to be a reality. She felt at last that her preparations
-were real, that the existence in which for the last six months there had
-been much that was like a painful dream, had come out suddenly into the
-actual and certain, and that she had had a change to undergo not much
-unlike the change of death. Things that had been planned only, had to be
-done now&mdash;a difference which is wonderful&mdash;and the stir and commotion
-which had come into the house with the arrival of Herbert was the
-preface of a commotion still more serious. And as Miss Susan went about
-giving her orders, she tried to comfort herself with the thought that
-now at last Giovanna must go. There was no longer any pretence for her
-stay. Herbert had come home. She had and could have no claim upon Susan
-and Augustine Austin at the Grange, whatever claim she might have on the
-inmates of Whiteladies; nor could she transfer herself to the young
-people, and live with Herbert and Reine. Even she, though she was not
-reasonable, must see that now there was no further excuse for her
-presence&mdash;that she must go. Miss Susan settled in her mind the allowance
-she would offer her. It would be a kind of blackmail, blood money, the
-price of her secret; but better that than exposure. And then, Giovanna
-had not been disagreeable of late. Rather the reverse; she had tried, as
-she said, to show de l’amitiè. She had been friendly, cheerful, rather
-pleasant, in her strange way. Miss Susan, with a curious feeling for
-which she could not quite<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_376" id="page_376"></a>{376}</span> account, concluded with herself that she
-would not wish this creature, who had for so long belonged to her, as it
-were&mdash;who had been one of her family, though she was at the same time
-her enemy, her greatest trouble&mdash;to fall back unaided upon the shop at
-Bruges, where the people had not been kind to her. No; she would, she
-said to herself, be very thankful to get rid of Giovanna, but not to see
-her fall into misery and helplessness. She should have an income enough
-to keep her comfortable.</p>
-
-<p>This was a luxury which Miss Susan felt she could venture to give
-herself. She would provide for her persecutor, and get rid of her, and
-be free of the panic which now was before her night and day. This
-thought cheered her as she went about, superintending the hanging of the
-tapestry in the hall, which was only put there on grand occasions, and
-the building up of the old silver on the great oak buffet. Everything
-that Whiteladies could do in the way of splendor was to be exhibited
-to-night. There had been no feast when Herbert came of age, for indeed
-it had been like enough that his birthday might be his death day also.
-But now all these clouds had rolled away, and his future was clear. She
-paid a solemn visit to the cellar with Stevens to get out the best
-wines, her father’s old claret and Madeira, of which she had been so
-careful, saving it for Herbert; or if not for Herbert, for Everard, whom
-she had looked upon as her personal heir. Not a bottle of it should ever
-have gone to Farrel-Austin, the reader may be sure, though she was
-willing to feast him to-night, and give him of her best, to celebrate
-her triumph over him&mdash;a triumph which, thank heaven! was all innocent,
-not brought about by plotting or planning&mdash;God’s doing, and not hers.</p>
-
-<p>I will not attempt to describe all the company, the best people in that
-corner of Berkshire, who came from all points, through the roads which
-were white and sweet with May, to do honor to Herbert’s home-coming. It
-is too late in this history, and there is too much of more importance to
-tell you, to leave me room for those excellent people. Lord Kingsborough
-was there, and proposed Herbert’s health; and Sir Reginald Parke, and
-Sir Francis Rivers, and the Hon. Mr. Skindle, who married Lord
-Markinhead’s daughter, Lady Cordelia; and all the first company in the
-county, down to (or up to) the great China merchant who had bought St.
-Dunstan’s, once the property of a Howard. It is rare to see a
-dinner<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_377" id="page_377"></a>{377}</span>-party so large or so important, and still more rare to see such
-a room so filled. The old musicians’ gallery was put to its proper use
-for the first time for years; and now and then, not too often, a soft
-fluting and piping and fiddling came from the partial gloom, floating
-over the heads of the well-dressed crowd who sat at the long, splendid
-table, in a blaze of light and reflection, and silver, and crystal, and
-flowers.</p>
-
-<p>“I wish we could be in the gallery to see ourselves sitting here, in
-this great show,” Everard whispered to Reine as he passed her to his
-inferior place; for it was not permitted to Everard on this great
-occasion to hand in the young mistress of the house, in whose favor Miss
-Susan intended, after this night, to abdicate. Reine looked up with soft
-eyes to the dim corner in which the three used to scramble and rustle,
-and catch the oranges, and I fear thought more of this reminiscence than
-of what her companion said to her, who was ignorant of the old times.
-But, indeed, the show was worth seeing from the gallery, where old
-Martha, and young Jane, and the good French Julie, who had come with
-Reine, clustered in the children’s very corner, keeping out of sight
-behind the tapestry, and pointing out to each other the ladies and their
-fine dresses. The maids cared nothing about the gentlemen, but shook
-their heads over Sophy and Kate’s bare shoulders, and made notes of how
-the dresses were made. Julie communicated her views on the subject with
-an authority which her auditors received without question, for was not
-she French?&mdash;a large word, which takes in the wilds of Normandy as well
-as Paris, that centre of the civilized world.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert sat with his back to these eager watchers, at the foot of the
-table, taking his natural place for the first time, and half hidden by
-the voluminous robes of Lady Kingsborough and Lady Rivers. The pink
-<i>gros grain</i> of one of those ladies and the gorgeous white <i>moire</i> of
-the other dazzled the women in the gallery; but apart from such
-professional considerations, the scene was a charming one to look at,
-with the twinkle of the many lights, the brightness of the flowers and
-the dresses&mdash;the illuminated spot in the midst of the partial darkness
-of the old walls, all gorgeous with color, and movement, and the hum of
-sound. Miss Susan at the head of the table, in her old point lace,
-looked like a queen, Martha thought. It was her apotheosis, her climax,
-the concluding<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_378" id="page_378"></a>{378}</span> triumph&mdash;a sort of phœnix blaze with which she meant
-to end her life.</p>
-
-<p>The dinner was a gorgeous dinner, worthy the hall and the company; the
-wine, as I have said, old and rare; and everything went off to
-perfection. The Farrel-Austins, who were only relations, and not of
-first importance as county people, sat about the centre of the table,
-which was the least important place, and opposite to them was Giovanna,
-who had been put under the charge of old Dr. Richard, to keep her in
-order, a duty to which he devoted all his faculties. Everything went on
-perfectly well. The dinner proceeded solemnly, grandly, to its
-conclusion. Grace&mdash;that curious, ill-timed, after-dinner grace which
-comes just at the daintiest moment of the feast&mdash;was duly said; the
-fruits were being served, forced fruits of every procurable kind, one of
-the most costly parts of the entertainment at that season; and a general
-bustle of expectation prepared the way for those congratulatory and
-friendly speeches, welcomes of his great neighbors to the young Squire,
-which were the real objects of the assembly. Lord Kingsborough even had
-cleared his throat for the first time&mdash;a signal which his wife heard at
-the other end, and understood as an intimation that quietness was to be
-enforced, to which she replied by stopping, to set a good example, in
-the midst of a sentence. He cleared his throat again, the great man, and
-was almost on his legs. He was by Miss Susan’s side in the place of
-honor. He was a stout man, requiring some pulling up after dinner when
-his chair was comfortable&mdash;and he had actually put forth one foot, and
-made his first effort to rise, for the third time clearing his throat.</p>
-
-<p>When&mdash;an interruption occurred never to be forgotten in the annals of
-Whiteladies. Suddenly there was heard a patter of small feet, startling
-the company; and suddenly a something, a pygmy, a tiny figure, made
-itself visible in the centre of the table. It stood up beside a great
-pyramid of flowers, a living decoration, with a little flushed rose-face
-and flaxen curls showing above the mass of greenery. The great people at
-the head and the foot of the table stood breathless during the commotion
-and half-scuffle in the centre of the room which attended this sudden
-apparition. “What is it?” everybody asked. After that first moment of
-excited curiosity, it became apparent that it was a child who had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_379" id="page_379"></a>{379}</span> been
-suddenly lifted by some one into that prominent place. The little
-creature stood still a moment, frightened; then, audibly prompted, woke
-to its duty. It plucked from its small head a small velvet cap with a
-white feather, and gave forth its tiny shout, which rang into the
-echoes.</p>
-
-<p>“Vive M. ’Erbert! vive M. ’Erbert!” cried little Jean, turning round and
-round, and waving his cap on either side of him. Vague excitement and
-delight, and sense of importance, and hopes of sugar-plums, inspired the
-child. He gave forth his little shout with his whole heart, his blue
-eyes dancing, his little cheeks flushed; and I leave the reader to
-imagine what a sensation little Jean’s unexpected appearance, and still
-more unexpected shout, produced in the decorous splendor of the great
-hall.</p>
-
-<p>“Who is it?” “What is it?” “What does it mean?” “Who is the child?”
-“What does he say?” cried everybody. There got up such a commotion and
-flutter as dispersed in a moment the respectful silence which had been
-preparing for Lord Kingsborough. Every guest appealed to his or her
-neighbor for information, and&mdash;except the very few too well-informed,
-like Dr. Richard, who guilty and self-reproachful, asking himself how he
-could have prevented it, and what he should say to Miss Susan, sat
-silent, incapable of speech&mdash;every one sent back the question. Giovanna,
-calm and radiant, alone replied, “It is the next who will succeed,” she
-cried, sending little rills of knowledge on either side of her. “It is
-Jean Austin, the little heir.”</p>
-
-<p>Lord Kingsborough was taken aback, as was natural; but he was a
-good-natured man, and fond of children. “God bless us!” he said. “Miss
-Austin, you don’t mean to tell me the boy’s married, and that’s his
-heir?”</p>
-
-<p>“It is the next of kin,” said Miss Susan, with white lips; “no more
-<i>his</i> heir than I am, but <i>the</i> heir, if Herbert had not lived. Lord
-Kingsborough, you will forgive the interruption; you will not disappoint
-us. He is no more Herbert’s heir than I am!” again she cried, with a
-shiver of agitation.</p>
-
-<p>It was the Hon. Mr. Skindle who supported her on the other side; and
-having heard that there was madness in the Austin family, that gentleman
-was afraid. “&nbsp;‘Gad, she looked as if she would murder somebody,” he
-confided afterward to the friend who drove him home.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_380" id="page_380"></a>{380}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Not <i>his</i> heir, but <i>the</i> heir,” said Lord Kingsborough,
-good-humoredly, “a fine distinction!” and as he was a kind soul, he made
-another prodigious effort, and got himself out of his seat. He made a
-very friendly, nice little speech, saying that the very young gentleman
-who preceded him had indeed taken the wind out of his sails, and
-forestalled what he had to say; but that, nevertheless, as an old
-neighbor and family friend, he desired to echo in honest English, and
-with every cordial sentiment, their little friend’s effective speech,
-and to wish to Herbert Austin, now happily restored to his home in
-perfect health and vigor, everything, etc.</p>
-
-<p>He went on to tell the assembly what they knew very well; that he had
-known Herbert’s father and grandfather, and had the happiness of a long
-acquaintance with the admirable ladies who had so long represented the
-name of Austin among them; and to each he gave an appropriate
-compliment. In short, his speech composed the disturbed assembly, and
-brought everything back to the judicious level of a great dinner; and
-Herbert made his reply with modest self-possession, and the course of
-affairs, momentarily interrupted, flowed on again according to the
-programme. But in the centre of the table, where the less important
-people sat, Giovanna and the child were the centre of attraction. She
-caught every one’s eye, now that attention had been called to her. After
-he had made the necessary sensation, she took little Jean down from the
-table, and set him on the carpet, where he ran from one to another,
-collecting the offerings which every one was ready to give him. Sophy
-and Kate got hold of him in succession, and crammed him with bonbons,
-while their father glared at the child across the table. He made his way
-even so far as Lord Kingsborough, who took him on his knee and patted
-his curly head. “But the little chap should be in bed,” said the kind
-potentate, who had a great many of his own. Jean escaped a moment after,
-and ran behind the chairs in high excitement to the next who called him.
-It was only when the ladies left the room that Giovanna caught him, and
-swinging him up to her white shoulder, which was not half so much
-uncovered as Kate’s and Sophy’s, carried him away triumphant, shouting
-once more “Vive M. ’Erbert!” from that eminence, as he finally
-disappeared at the great door.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_381" id="page_381"></a>{381}</span></p>
-
-<p>This was Giovanna’s first appearance in public, but it was a memorable
-one. Poor old Dr. Richard, half weeping, secured Everard as soon as the
-ladies were gone, and poured his pitiful story into his ears.</p>
-
-<p>“What could I do, Mr. Austin?” cried the poor little, pretty old
-gentleman. “She took him up before I could think what she was going to
-do; and you cannot use violence to a lady, sir, you cannot use violence,
-especially on a festive occasion like this. I should have been obliged
-to restrain her forcibly, if at all, and what could I do?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure you did everything that was necessary,” said Everard, with a
-smile. She was capable of setting Dr. Richard himself on the table, if
-it had served her purpose, instead of being restrained by him, was what
-he thought.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_382" id="page_382"></a>{382}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XL" id="CHAPTER_XL"></a>CHAPTER XL.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">he</span> evening came to an end at last. The great people went first, as
-became them, filling the rural roads with the ponderous rumble of their
-great carriages and gleam of their lamps. The whole neighborhood was
-astir. A little crowd of village people had collected round the gates to
-see the ladies in their fine dresses, and to catch the distant echo of
-the festivities. There was quite an excitement among them, as carriage
-after carriage rolled away. The night was soft and warm and light, the
-moon invisible, but yet shedding from behind the clouds a subdued
-lightness into the atmosphere. As the company dwindled, and ceremony
-diminished, a group gradually collected in the great porch, and at last
-this group dwindled to the family party and the Farrel-Austins, who were
-the last to go away. This was by no means the desire of their father,
-who had derived little pleasure from the entertainment. None of those
-ulterior views which Kate and Sophy had discussed so freely between
-themselves had been communicated to their father, and he saw nothing but
-the celebration of his own downfall, and the funeral of his hopes, in
-this feast, which was all to the honor of Herbert. Consequently, he had
-been eager to get away at the earliest moment possible, and would even
-have preceded Lord Kingsborough, could he have moved his daughters, who
-did not share his feelings. On the contrary, the display which they had
-just witnessed had produced a very sensible effect upon Kate and Sophy.
-They were very well off, but they did not possess half the riches of
-Whiteladies; and the grandeur of the stately old hall, and the
-importance of the party, impressed these young women of the world.
-Sophy, who was the younger, was naturally the less affected; but Kate,
-now five-and-twenty, and beginning to perceive very distinctly<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_383" id="page_383"></a>{383}</span> that all
-is vanity, was more moved than I can say. In the intervals of livelier
-intercourse, and especially during that moment in the drawing-room when
-the gentlemen were absent&mdash;a moment pleasing in its calm to the milder
-portion of womankind, but which fast young ladies seldom endure with
-patience&mdash;Kate made pointed appeals to her sister’s proper feelings.</p>
-
-<p>“If you let all this slip through your fingers, I shall despise you,”
-she said with vehemence.</p>
-
-<p>“Go in for it yourself, then,” whispered the bold Sophy; “I shan’t
-object.”</p>
-
-<p>But even Sophy was impressed. Her first interest, Lord Alf, had
-disappeared long ago, and had been succeeded by others, all very willing
-to amuse themselves and her, as much as she pleased, but all
-disappearing in their turn to the regions above, or the regions below,
-equally out of Sophy’s reach, whom circumstances shut out from the
-haunts of blacklegs and sporting men, as well as from the upper world,
-to which the Lord Alfs of creation belong by nature. Still it was not in
-Sophy’s nature to be so wise as Kate. She was not tired of amusing
-herself, and had not begun yet to pursue her gayeties with a definite
-end. Sophy told her friends quite frankly that her sister was “on the
-look-out.” “She has had her fun, and she wants to settle down,” the
-younger said with admirable candor, to the delight and much amusement of
-her audiences from the Barracks. For this these gentlemen well knew,
-though both reasonable and virtuous in a man, is not so easily managed
-in the case of a lady. “By Jove! I shouldn’t wonder if she did,” was
-their generous comment. “She has had her fun, by Jove! and who does she
-suppose would have <i>her</i>?” Yet the best of girls, and the freshest and
-sweetest, do have these heroes, after a great deal more “fun” than ever
-could have been within the reach of Kate; for there are disabilities of
-women which cannot be touched by legislation, and to which the most
-strong-minded must submit.</p>
-
-<p>However, Sophy and Kate, as I have said, were both moved to exertion by
-this display of all the grandeur of Whiteladies. They kept their father
-fuming and fretting outside, while they lingered in the porch with Reine
-and Herbert. The whole youthful party was there, including Everard and
-Giovanna, who had at last permitted poor little Jean to be put to bed,
-but who was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_384" id="page_384"></a>{384}</span> still excited by her demonstration, and the splendid
-company of which she had formed a part.</p>
-
-<p>“How they are dull, these great ladies!” she cried; “but not more dull
-than ces messieurs, who thought I was mad. Mon Dieu! because I was happy
-about M. ’Erbert, and that he had come home.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was very grand of you to be glad,” cried Sophy. “Bertie, you have
-gone and put everybody out. Why did you get well, sir? Papa pretends to
-be pleased, too, but he would like to give you strychnine or something.
-Oh, it wouldn’t do us any good, we are only girls; and I think you have
-a better right than papa.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks for taking my part,” said Herbert, who was a little uncertain
-how to take this very frank address. A man seldom thinks his own
-problematical death an amusing incident; but still he felt that to laugh
-was the right thing to do.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, of course we take your part,” cried Sophy. “We expect no end of fun
-from you, now you’ve come back. I am so sick of all those Barrack
-parties; but you will always have something going on, won’t you? And
-Reine, you must ask us. How delicious a dance would be in the hall!
-Bertie, remember you are to go to Ascot with <i>us</i>; you are <i>our</i> cousin,
-not any one else’s. When one is related to the hero of the moment, one
-is not going to let one’s glory drop. Promise, Bertie! you go with us?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am quite willing, if you want me,” said Herbert.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, if we want you!&mdash;of course we want you&mdash;we want you always,” cried
-Sophy. “Why, you are the lion; we are proud of you. We shall want to let
-everybody see that you don’t despise your poor relations, that you
-remember we are your cousins, and used to play with you. Don’t you
-recollect, Bertie? Kate and Reine used to be the friends always, because
-they were the steadiest; and you and me&mdash;we were the ones who got into
-scrapes,” cried Sophy. This, to tell the truth, was a very rash
-statement; for Herbert, always delicate, had not been in the habit of
-getting into scrapes. But all the more for this, he was pleased with the
-idea.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” he said half doubtfully, “I recollect;” but his recollections
-were not clear enough to enter into details.</p>
-
-<p>“Come, let us get into a scrape again,” cried Sophy; “it is<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_385" id="page_385"></a>{385}</span> such a
-lovely night. Let us send the carriage on in front, and walk. Come with
-us, won’t you? After a party, it is so pleasant to have a walk; and we
-have been such swells to-night. Come, Bertie, let’s run on, and bring
-ourselves down.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy, you madcap! I daresay the night air is not good for him,” said
-Kate.</p>
-
-<p>Upon which Sophy broke forth into the merriest laughter. “As if Bertie
-cared for the night air! Why, he looks twice as strong as any of us.
-Will you come?”</p>
-
-<p>“With all my heart,” said Herbert; “it is the very thing after such a
-tremendous business as Aunt Susan’s dinner. This is not the kind of
-entertainment I mean to give. We shall leave the swells, as you say, to
-take care of themselves.”</p>
-
-<p>“And ask me!” said bold Sophy, running out into the moonlight, which
-just then got free of the clouds. She was in high spirits, and pleased
-with the decided beginning she had made. In her white dress, with her
-white shoes twinkling over the dark cool greenness of the grass, she
-looked like a fairy broken forth from the woods. “Who will run a race
-with me to the end of the lane?” she cried, pirouetting round and round
-the lawn. How pretty she was, how gay, how light-hearted&mdash;a madcap, as
-her sister said, who stood in the shadow of the porch laughing, and bade
-Sophy recollect that she would ruin her shoes.</p>
-
-<p>“And you can’t run in high heels,” said Kate.</p>
-
-<p>“Can’t I?” cried Sophy. “Come, Bertie, come.” They nearly knocked down
-Mr. Farrel-Austin, who stood outside smoking his cigar, and swearing
-within himself, as they rushed out through the little gate. The carriage
-was proceeding abreast, its lamps making two bright lines of light along
-the wood, the coachman swearing internally as much as his master. The
-others followed more quietly&mdash;Kate, Reine, and Everard. Giovanna,
-yawning, had withdrawn some time before.</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy, really, is too great a romp,” said Kate; “she is always after
-some nonsense; and now we shall never be able to overtake them, to talk
-to Bertie about coming to the Hatch. Reine, you must settle it. We do so
-want you to come; consider how long it is since we have seen you, and of
-course everybody wants to see you; so unless we settle at once, we shall
-miss our chance&mdash;Everard too. We have been so long separated; and
-perhaps,”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_386" id="page_386"></a>{386}</span> said Kate, dropping her voice, “papa may have been
-disagreeable; but that don’t make any difference to us. Say when you
-will come; we are all cousins together, and we ought to be friends. What
-a blessing when there are no horrible questions of property between
-people!” said Kate, who had so much sense. “<i>Now</i> it don’t matter to any
-one, except for friendship, who is next of kin.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie has won,” said Sophy, calling out to them. “Fancy! I thought I
-was sure, such a short distance; men can stay better than we can,” said
-the well-informed young woman; “but for a little bit like this, the girl
-ought to win.”</p>
-
-<p>“Since you have come back, let us settle about when they are to come,”
-said Kate; and then there ensued a lively discussion. They clustered all
-together at the end of the lane, in the clear space where there were no
-shadowing trees&mdash;the two young men acting as shadows, the girls all
-distinct in their pretty light dresses, which the moon whitened and
-brightened. The consultation was very animated, and diversified by much
-mirth and laughter, Sophy being wild, as she said, with excitement, with
-the stimulation of the race, and of the night air and the freedom.
-“After a grand party of swells, where one has to behave one’s self,” she
-said, “one always goes wild.” And she fell to waltzing about the party.
-Everard was the only one of them who had any doubt as to the reality of
-Sophy’s madcap mood; the others accepted it with the naive confidence of
-innocence. They said to each other, what a merry girl she was! when at
-last, moved by Mr. Farrel-Austin’s sulks and the determination of the
-coachman, the girls permitted themselves to be placed in the carriage.
-“Recollect Friday!” they both cried, kissing Reine, and giving the most
-cordial pressure of the hand to Herbert. The three who were left stood
-and looked after the carriage as it set off along the moonlit road.
-Reine had taken her brother’s arm. She gave Everard no opportunity to
-resume that interrupted conversation on board the steamboat. And Kate
-and Sophy had not been at all attentive to their cousin, who was quite
-as nearly related to them as Bertie, so that if he was slightly
-misanthropical and inclined to find fault, it can scarcely be said that
-he had no justification. They all strolled along together slowly,
-enjoying the soft evening and the suppressed moonlight, which was now
-dim again, struggling faintly through a mysterious labyrinth of cloud.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_387" id="page_387"></a>{387}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I had forgotten what nice girls they were,” said Herbert; “Sophy
-especially; so kind and so genial and unaffected. How foolish one is
-when one is young! I don’t think I liked them, even, when we were last
-here.”</p>
-
-<p>“They are sometimes too kind,” said Everard, shrugging his shoulders;
-but neither of the others took any notice of what he said.</p>
-
-<p>“One is so much occupied with one’s self when one is young,” said
-middle-aged Reine, already over twenty, and feeling all the advantages
-which age bestows.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you think it is that?” said Herbert. He was much affected by the
-cordiality of his cousins, and moved by many concurring causes to a
-certain sentimentality of mind; and he was not indisposed for a little
-of that semi-philosophical talk which sounds so elevating and so
-improving at his age.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Reine, with confidence; “one is so little sure of one’s
-self, one is always afraid of having done amiss; things you say sound so
-silly when you think them over. I blush sometimes now when I am quite
-alone to think how silly I must have seemed; and that prevents you doing
-justice to others; but I like Kate best.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I like Sophy best. She has no nonsense about her; she is so frank
-and so simple. Which is Everard for? On the whole, there is no doubt
-about it, English girls have a something, a je ne sais quoi&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I can’t give any opinion,” said Everard laughing. “After your visit to
-the Hatch you will be able to decide. And have you thought what Aunt
-Susan will say, within the first week, almost before you have been seen
-at home?”</p>
-
-<p>“By Jove! I forgot Aunt Susan!” cried Herbert with a sudden pause; then
-he laughed, trying to feel the exquisite fun of asking Aunt Susan’s
-permission, while they were so independent of her; but this scarcely
-answered just at first. “Of course,” he added, with an attempt at
-self-assertion, “one cannot go on consulting Aunt Susan’s opinion
-forever.”</p>
-
-<p>“But the first week!” Everard had all the delight of mischief in making
-them feel the subordination in which they still stood in spite of
-themselves. He went on laughing. “I would not say anything about it
-to-night. She is not half pleased with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_388" id="page_388"></a>{388}</span> Madame Jean, as they call her. I
-hope Madame Jean has been getting it hot. Everything went off perfectly
-well by a miracle, but that woman as nearly spoiled it by her nonsense
-and her boy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Whom do you call that woman?” said Herbert coldly. “I think Madame Jean
-did just what a warm-hearted person would do. She did not wait for mere
-ceremony or congratulations prearranged. For my part,” said Herbert
-stiffly, “I never admired any one so much. She is the most beautiful,
-glorious creature!”</p>
-
-<p>“There was no one there so pretty,” said innocent Reine.</p>
-
-<p>“Pretty! she is not pretty: she is splendid! she is beautiful! By Jove!
-to see her with her arm raised, and that child on her shoulder&mdash;it’s
-like a picture! If you will laugh,” said Herbert pettishly, “don’t laugh
-in that offensive way! What have they done to you, and why are you so
-disagreeable to-night?”</p>
-
-<p>“Am I disagreeable?” said Everard laughing again. It was all he could do
-to keep from being angry, and he felt this was the safest way. “Perhaps
-it is that I am more enlightened than you youngsters. However beautiful
-a woman may be (and I don’t deny she’s very handsome), I can see when
-she’s playing a part.”</p>
-
-<p>“What part is she playing?” cried Herbert hotly. Reine was half
-frightened by his vehemence, and provoked as he was by Everard’s
-disdainful tone; but she pressed her brother’s arm to restrain him,
-fearful of a quarrel, as girls are so apt to be.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose you will say we are all playing our parts; and so we are,”
-said Reine. “Bertie, you have been the hero to-night, and we are all
-your satellites for the moment. Come in quick, it feels chilly. I don’t
-suppose even Everard would say Sophy was playing a part, except her
-natural one,” she added with a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>Everard was taken by surprise. He echoed her laugh with all the
-imbecility of astonishment. “You believe in them too,” he said to her in
-an aside, then added, “No, only her natural part,” with a tone which
-Herbert found as offensive as the other. Herbert himself was in a state
-of flattered self-consciousness which made him look upon every word said
-against his worshippers as an assault upon himself. Perhaps the lad
-being younger than his years, was still at the age when a boy is more in
-love with himself than any one else, and loves others according to their
-appreciation of that self which bulks so largely in his own eyes.
-Giovanna<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_389" id="page_389"></a>{389}</span>’s homage to him, and Sophy’s enthusiasm of cousinship, and the
-flattering look in all these fine eyes, had intoxicated Herbert. He
-could not but feel that they were above all criticism, these young, fair
-women, who did such justice to his own excellences. As for any
-suggestion that their regard for him was not genuine, it was as great an
-insult to him as to them, and brought him down, in the most humbling
-way, from the pedestal on which they had elevated him. Reine’s hand
-patting softly on his arm kept him silent, but he felt that he could
-knock down Everard with pleasure, and fumes of anger and self-exaltation
-mounted into his head.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t quarrel, Bertie,” Reine whispered in his ear.</p>
-
-<p>“Quarrel! he is not worth quarrelling with. He is jealous, I suppose,
-because I am more important than he is,” Herbert said, stalking through
-the long passages which were still all bright with lights and flowers.
-Everard, hanging back out of hearing, followed the two young figures
-with his eyes through the windings of the passage. Herbert held his head
-high, indignant. Reine, with both her hands on his arm, soothed and
-calmed him. They were both resentful of his sour tone and what he had
-said.</p>
-
-<p>“I dare say they think I am jealous,” Everard said to himself with a
-laugh that was not merry, and went away to his own room, and beginning
-to arrange his things for departure, meaning to leave next day. He had
-no need to stay there to swell Herbert’s triumph, he who had so long
-acted as nurse to him without fee or reward. Not quite without reward
-either, he thought, after all, rebuking himself, and held up his hand
-and looked at it intently, with a smile stealing over his face. Why
-should he interfere to save Herbert from his own vanity and folly? Why
-should he subject himself to the usual fate of Mentors, pointing out
-Scylla on the one side and Charybdis on the other? If the frail vessel
-was determined to be wrecked, what had he, Everard, to do with it? Let
-the boy accomplish his destiny, who cared? and then what could Reine do
-but take refuge with her natural champion, he whom she herself had
-appointed to stand in her place, and who had his own score against her
-still unacquitted? It was evidently to his interest to keep out of the
-way, to let things go as they would. “And I’ll back Giovanna against
-Sophy,” he said to himself, half jealous, half laughing, as he went to
-sleep.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_390" id="page_390"></a>{390}</span></p>
-
-<p>As for Herbert, he lounged into the great hall, where some lights were
-still burning, with his sister, and found Miss Susan there, pale with
-fatigue and the excitement past but triumphant. “I hope you have not
-tired yourself out,” she said. “It was like those girls to lead you out
-into the night air, to give you a chance of taking cold. Their father
-would like nothing better than to see you laid up again: but I don’t
-give them credit for any scheme. They are too feather-brained for
-anything but folly.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you mean our cousins Sophy and Kate?” said Herbert with some
-solemnity, and an unconscious attempt to overawe Miss Susan, who was not
-used to anything of this kind, and was unable to understand what he
-meant.</p>
-
-<p>“I mean the Farrel-Austin girls,” she said. “Riot and noise and nonsense
-are their atmosphere. I hope you do not like this kind of goings on,
-Reine?”</p>
-
-<p>The brother and sister looked at each other. “You have always disliked
-the Farrel-Austins,” said Herbert, bravely putting himself in the
-breach. “I don’t know why, Aunt Susan. But we have no quarrel with the
-girls. They are very nice and friendly. Indeed, Reine and I have
-promised to go to them on Friday, for two or three days.”</p>
-
-<p>He was three and twenty, he was acknowledged master of the house; but
-Herbert felt a certain tremor steal over him, and stood up before her
-with a strong sense of valor and daring as he said these words.</p>
-
-<p>“Going to them on Friday&mdash;to the Farrel-Austins’ for three or four days!
-then you do not mean even to go to your own parish church on your first
-Sunday? Herbert,” said Miss Susan, indignantly, “you will break
-Augustine’s heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, no, we did not say three or four days. I thought of that,” said
-Reine. “We shall return on Saturday. Don’t be angry, Aunt Susan. They
-were very kind, and we thought it was no harm.”</p>
-
-<p>Herbert gave her an indignant glance. It was on his lips to say, “It
-does not matter whether Aunt Susan is angry or not,” but looking at her,
-he thought better of it. “Yes,” he said after a pause, “we shall return
-on Saturday. They were very kind, as Reine says, and how visiting our
-cousins could possibly involve any harm<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_391" id="page_391"></a>{391}</span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That is your own affair,” said Miss Susan; “I know what you mean,
-Herbert, and of course you are right, you are not children any longer,
-and must choose your own friends; well! Before you go, however, I should
-like to settle everything. To-night is my last night. Yes, it is too
-late to discuss that now. I don’t mean to say more at present. It went
-off very well, very pleasantly, but for that ridiculous interruption of
-Giovanna’s&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not think it was ridiculous,” said Herbert. “It was very pretty.
-Does Giovanna displease you too?”</p>
-
-<p>Once more Reine pressed his arm. He was not always going to be coerced
-like this. If Miss Susan wants to be unjust and ungenerous, he was man
-enough, he felt, to meet her to the face.</p>
-
-<p>“It was very ridiculous, I thought,” she said with a sigh, “and I told
-her so. I don’t suppose she meant any harm. She is very ignorant, and
-knows nothing about the customs of society. Thank heaven, she can’t stay
-very long now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why can’t she stay?” cried Herbert, alarmed. “Aunt Susan, I don’t know
-what has come over you. You used to be so kind to everybody, but now it
-is the people I particularly like you are so furious against. Why? those
-girls, who are as pretty and as pleasant as possible, and just the kind
-of companions Reine wants, and Madame Jean, who is the most charming
-person I ever saw in this house. Ignorant! I think she is very
-accomplished. How she sang last night, and what an eye she has for the
-picturesque! I never admired Whiteladies so much as this morning, when
-she took us over it. Aunt Susan, don’t be so cross. Are you disappointed
-in Reine, or in me, that you are so hard upon the people we like most?”</p>
-
-<p>“The people you like most?” cried Miss Susan aghast.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Aunt Susan, I like them too,” said Reine, bravely putting herself
-by her brother’s side. I believe they both thought it was a most
-chivalrous and high-spirited thing they were doing, rejecting experience
-and taking rashly what seemed to them the weaker side. The side of the
-accused against the judge, the side of the young against the old. It
-seemed so natural to do that. The two stood together in their
-foolishness in the old hall, all decorated in their honor, and
-confronted the dethroned queen of it with a smile. She stood baffled and
-thunderstruck, gazing at them, and scarcely knew what to say.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_392" id="page_392"></a>{392}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Well, children, well,” she managed to get out at last. “You are no
-longer under me, you must choose your own friends; but God help you,
-what is to become of you if these are the kind of people you like best!”</p>
-
-<p>They both laughed softly; though Reine had compunctions, they were not
-afraid. “You must confess at least that we have good taste,” said
-Herbert; “two very pretty people, and one beautiful. I should have been
-much happier with Sophy at one hand and Madame Jean on the other,
-instead of those two swells, as Sophy calls them.”</p>
-
-<p>“Sophy, as you call her, would give her head for their notice,” cried
-Miss Susan indignant, “two of the best women in the county, and the most
-important families.”</p>
-
-<p>Herbert shrugged his shoulders. “They did not amuse me,” he said, “but
-perhaps I am stupid. I prefer the foolish Sophy and the undaunted Madame
-Jean.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan left them with a cold good-night to see all the lights put
-out, which was important in the old house. She was so angry that it
-almost eased her of her personal burden; but Reine, I confess, felt a
-thrill of panic as she went up the oak stairs. Scylla and Charybdis! She
-did not identify Herbert’s danger, but in her heart there worked a vague
-premonition of danger, and without knowing why, she was afraid.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_393" id="page_393"></a>{393}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLI" id="CHAPTER_XLI"></a>CHAPTER XLI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“G</span><span class="smcap">oing</span> away?” said Giovanna. “M. ’Erbert, you go away already? is it
-that Viteladies is what you call dull? You have been here so short of
-time, you do not yet know.”</p>
-
-<p>“We are going only for a day; at least not quite two days,” said Reine.</p>
-
-<p>“For a day! but a day, two days is long. Why go at all?” said Giovanna.
-“We are very well here. I will sing, if that pleases, to you. M.
-’Erbert, when you are so long absent, you should not go away to-morrow,
-the next day. Madame Suzanne will think, ‘They lofe me not.’&nbsp;”</p>
-
-<p>“That would be nonsense,” said Herbert; “besides, you know I cannot be
-kept in one place at my age, whatever old ladies may think.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! nor young ladies neither,” said Giovanna. “You are homme, you have
-the freedom to do what you will, I know it. Me, I am but a woman, I can
-never have this freedom; but I comprehend and I admire. Yes, M. ’Erbert,
-that goes without saying. One does not put the eagle into a cage.”</p>
-
-<p>And Giovanna gave a soft little sigh. She was seated in one of her
-favorite easy chairs, thrown back in it in an attitude of delicious easy
-repose. She had no mind for the work with which Reine employed herself,
-and which all the women Herbert ever knew had indulged in, to his
-annoyance, and often envy; for an invalid’s weary hours would have been
-the better often of such feminine solace, and the young man hated it all
-the more that he had often been tempted to take to it, had his pride
-permitted. But Giovanna had no mind for this pretty cheat, that looked
-like occupation.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_394" id="page_394"></a>{394}</span> In her own room she worked hard at her own dresses and
-those of the child, but downstairs she sat with her large, shapely white
-hands in her lap, in all the luxury of doing nothing; and this
-peculiarity delighted Herbert. He was pleased, too, with what she said;
-he liked to imagine that he was an eagle who could not be shut into a
-cage, and to feel his immense superiority, as man, over the women who
-were never free to do as they liked, and for whom (he thought) such an
-indulgence would not be good. He drew himself up unconsciously, and felt
-older, taller. “No,” he said, “of course it would be too foolish of Aunt
-Susan or any one to expect me to be guided by what she thinks right.”</p>
-
-<p>“Me, I do not speak for you,” said Giovanna; “I speak for myself. I am
-disappointed, me. It will be dull when you are gone. Yes, yes, Monsieur
-’Erbert, we are selfish, we other women. When you go we are dull; we
-think not of you, but of ourselves, n’est ce pas, Mademoiselle Reine? I
-am frank. I confess it. You will be very happy; you will have much
-pleasure; but me, I shall be dull. Voilà tout!”</p>
-
-<p>I need not say that this frankness captivated Herbert. It is always more
-pleasant to have our absence regretted by others, selfishly, for the
-loss it is to them, than unselfishly on our account only; so that this
-profession of indifference to the pleasure of your departing friend, in
-consideration of the loss to yourself, is the very highest compliment
-you can pay him. Herbert felt this to the bottom of his heart. He was
-infinitely flattered and touched by the thought of a superiority so
-delightful, and he had not been used to it. He had been accustomed,
-indeed, to be in his own person the centre of a great deal of care and
-anxiety, everybody thinking of him for his sake; but to have it
-recognized that his presence or absence made a place dull or the
-reverse, and affected his surroundings, not for his sake but theirs, was
-an immense rise in the world to Herbert. He felt it necessary to be very
-friendly and attentive to Giovanna, by way of consoling her. “After all,
-it will not be very long,” he said; “from Friday morning to Saturday
-night. I like to humor the old ladies, and they make a point of our
-being at home for Sunday; though I don’t know how Sophy and Kate will
-like it, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“They will not like it at all,” said Giovanna. “They want you to be to
-them, to amuse them, to make them happy; so do I, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_395" id="page_395"></a>{395}</span> same. When they
-come here, those young ladies, we shall not be friends; we shall fight,”
-she said with a laugh. “Ah, they are more clever than me, they will win;
-though if we could fight with the hands like men, I should win. I am
-more strong.”</p>
-
-<p>“It need not come so far as that,” said Herbert, complaisant and
-delighted. “You are all very kind, I am sure, and think more of me than
-I deserve.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am kind&mdash;to me, not to you, M. ’Erbert,” said Giovanna; “when I tell
-you it is dull, dull à mourir the moment you go away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yet you have spent a good many months here without Herbert, Madame
-Jean,” said Reine; “if it had been so dull, you might have gone away.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, mademoiselle! where could I have gone to? I am not rich like you; I
-have not parents that love me. If I go home now,” cried Giovanna, with a
-laugh, “it will be to the room behind the shop where my belle-mère sits
-all the day, where they cook the dinner, where I am the one that is in
-the way, always. I have no money, no people to care for me. Even little
-Jean they take from me. They say, ‘Tenez Gi’vanna; she has not the ways
-of children.’ Have not I the ways of children, M. ’Erbert? That is what
-they would say to me, if I went to what you call ’ome.”</p>
-
-<p>“Reine,” said Herbert, in an undertone, “how can you be so cruel,
-reminding the poor thing how badly off she is? I hope you will not think
-of going away,” he added, turning to Giovanna. “Reine and I will be too
-glad that you should stay; and as for your flattering appreciation of
-our society, I for one am very grateful,” said the young fellow. “I am
-very happy to be able to do anything to make Whiteladies pleasant to
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan came in as he said this with Everard, who was going away; but
-she was too much preoccupied by her own cares to attend to what her
-nephew was saying. Everard appreciated the position more clearly. He saw
-the grateful look with which Giovanna turned her beautiful eyes to the
-young master of the house, and he saw the pleased vanity and
-complaisance in Herbert’s face. “What an ass he is!” Everard thought to
-himself; and then he quoted privately with rueful comment,&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“&nbsp;‘On him each courtier’s eye was bent,<br /></span>
-<span class="i2">To him each lady’s look was lent:’<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="page_396" id="page_396"></a>{396}</span></p>
-
-<p class="nind">all because the young idiot has Whiteladies, and is the head of the
-house. Bravo! Herbert, old boy,” he said aloud, though there was nothing
-particularly appropriate in the speech, “you are having your innings. I
-hope you will make the most of them. But now that I am no longer wanted,
-I am going off. I suppose when it is warm enough for water parties, I
-shall come into fashion again; Sophy and Kate will manage that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, Everard, if I were you I should have more pride,” said Miss
-Susan. “I would not allow myself to be taken up and thrown aside as
-those girls please. What you can see in them baffles me. They are not
-very pretty. They are very loud, and fast and noisy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I think so too!” cried Giovanna, clapping her hands. “They are my
-enemies: they take you away, M. ’Erbert and Mademoiselle Reine. They
-make it dull here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Only for a day,” said Herbert, bending over her, his eyes melting and
-glowing with that delightful suffusion of satisfied vanity which with so
-many men represents love. “I could not stay long away if I would,” said
-the young man in a lower tone. He was quite captivated by her frank
-demonstrations of personal loss, and believed them to the bottom of his
-heart.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan threw a curious, half-startled look at them, and Reine raised
-her head from her embroidery; but both of these ladies had something of
-their own on their minds which occupied them, and closed their eyes to
-other matters. Reine was secretly uneasy that Everard should go away;
-that there should have been no explanation between them; and that his
-tone had in it a certain suppressed bitterness. What had she done to
-him? Nothing. She had been occupied with her brother, as was natural;
-any one else would have been the same. Everard’s turn could come at any
-time, she said to herself, with an unconscious arrogance not unusual
-with girls, when they are sure of having the upper hand. But she was
-uneasy that he should go away.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want to interfere with your pleasures, Herbert,” said Miss
-Susan, “but I must settle what I am to do. Our cottage is ready for us,
-everything is arranged; and I want to give up my charge to you, and go
-away.”</p>
-
-<p>“To go away!” the brother and sister repeated together with dismay.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_397" id="page_397"></a>{397}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Of course; that is what it must come to. When you were under age it was
-different. I was your guardian, Herbert, and you were my children.”</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan,” cried Reine, coming up to her with eager tenderness, “we
-are your children still.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I&mdash;am not at all sure whether it will suit me to take up all you
-have been doing,” said Herbert. “It suits you, why should we change; and
-how could Reine manage the house? Aunt Susan, it is unkind to come down
-upon us like this. Leave us a little time to get used to it. What do you
-want with a cottage? Of course you must like Whiteladies best.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Aunt Susan! what he says is not so selfish as it sounds,” said
-Reine. “Why&mdash;why should you go?”</p>
-
-<p>“We are all selfish,” said Herbert, “as Madame Jean says. She wishes us
-to stay because it is dull without us (‘Bien, très dull,’ said
-Giovanna), and we want you to stay because we are not up to the work and
-don’t understand it. Never mind the cottage; there is plenty of room in
-Whiteladies for all of us. Aunt Susan, why should you be disagreeable?
-Don’t go away.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish it; I wish it,” she said in a low tone; “let me go!”</p>
-
-<p>“But we don’t wish it,” cried Reine, kissing her in triumph, “and
-neither does Augustine. Oh, Aunt Austine, listen to her, speak for us!
-You don’t wish to go away from Whiteladies, away from your home?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Augustine, who had come in in her noiseless way. “I do not
-intend to leave Whiteladies,” she went on, with serious composure; “but
-Herbert, I have something to say to you. It is more important than
-anything else. You must marry; you must marry at once; I don’t wish any
-time to be lost. I wish you to have an heir, whom I shall bring up. I
-will devote myself to him. I am fifty-seven; there is no time to be
-lost; but with care I might live twenty years. The women of our house
-are long-lived. Susan is sixty, but she is as active as any one of you;
-and for an object like this, one would spare no pains to lengthen one’s
-days. You must marry, Herbert. This has now become the chief object of
-my life.”</p>
-
-<p>The young members of the party, unable to restrain themselves, laughed
-at this solemn address. Miss Susan turned away impatient, and sitting
-down, pulled out the knitting of which lately she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_398" id="page_398"></a>{398}</span> had done so little.
-But as for Augustine, her countenance preserved a perfect gravity. She
-saw nothing laughable in it. “I excuse you,” she said very seriously,
-“for you cannot see into my heart and read what is there. Nor does Susan
-understand me. She is taken up with the cares of this world and the
-foolishness of riches. She thinks a foolish display like that of last
-night is more important. But, Herbert, listen to me; you and your true
-welfare have been my first thought and my first prayer for years, and
-this is my recommendation, my command to you. You must marry&mdash;and
-without any unnecessary delay.”</p>
-
-<p>“But the lady?” said Herbert, laughing and blushing; even this very odd
-address had a pleasurable element in it. It implied the importance of
-everything he did; and it pleased the young man, even after such an odd
-fashion, to lay this flattering unction to his soul.</p>
-
-<p>“The lady!” said Miss Augustine gravely; and then she made a pause. “I
-have thought a great deal about that, and there is more than one whom I
-could suggest to you; but I have never married myself, and I might not
-perhaps be a good judge. It seems the general opinion that in such
-matters people should choose for themselves.”</p>
-
-<p>All this she said with so profound a gravity that the bystanders,
-divided between amusement and a kind of awe, held their breath and
-looked at each other. Miss Augustine had not sat down. She rarely did
-sit down in the common sitting-room; her hands were too full of
-occupation. Her Church services, now that the Chantry was opened, her
-Almshouses prayers, her charities, her universal oversight of her
-pensioners filled up all her time, and bound her to hours as strictly as
-if she had been a cotton-spinner in a mill. No cotton-spinner worked
-harder than did this Gray Sister; from morning to night her time was
-portioned out.</p>
-
-<p>I do not venture to say how many miles she walked daily, rain or shine;
-from Whiteladies to the Almshouses, to the church, to the Almshouses
-again; or how many hours she spent absorbed in that strange
-matter-of-fact devotion which was her way of working for her family. She
-repeated, in her soft tones, “I do not interfere with your choice,
-Herbert; but what I say is very important. Marry! I wish it above
-everything else in life.” And having said this, she went away.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_399" id="page_399"></a>{399}</span></p>
-
-<p>“This is very solemn,” said Herbert, with a laugh, but his laugh was not
-like the merriment into which, by-and-by, the others burst forth, and
-which half offended the young man. Reine, for her part, ran to the piano
-when Miss Augustine disappeared, and burst forth into a quaint little
-French ditty, sweet and simple, of old Norman rusticity.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“A chaque rose que je effeuille<br /></span>
-<span class="i1">Marie-toi, car il est temps,”<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p class="nind">the girl sang. But Miss Susan did not laugh, and Herbert did not care to
-see anything ridiculed in which he had such an important share. After
-all it was natural enough, he said to himself, that such advice should
-be given with great gravity to one on whose acts so much depended. He
-did not see what there was to laugh about. Reine was absurd with her
-songs. There was always one of them which came in pat to the moment.
-Herbert almost thought that this light-minded repetition of Augustine’s
-advice was impertinent both to her and himself. And thus a little gloom
-had come over his brow.</p>
-
-<p>“Messieurs et mesdames,” said Giovanna, suddenly, “you laugh, but, if
-you reflect, ma sœur has reason. She thinks, Here is Monsieur
-’Erbert, young and strong, but yet there are things which happen to the
-strongest; and here, on the other part, is a little boy, a little,
-little boy, who is not English, whose mother is nothing but a foreigner,
-who is the heir. This gives her the panique. And for me, too, M.
-’Erbert, I say with Mademoiselle Reine, ‘Marie-toi, car il est temps.’
-Yes, truly! although little Jean is my boy, I say mariez-vous with my
-heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“How good you are! how generous you are! Strange that you should be the
-only one to see it,” said Herbert, for the moment despising all the
-people belonging to him, who were so opaque, who did not perceive the
-necessities of the position. He himself saw those necessities well
-enough, and that he should marry was the first and most important. To
-tell the truth, he could not see even that Augustine’s anxiety was of an
-exaggerated description. It was not a thing to make laughter, and
-ridiculous jokes and songs about.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna did not desert her post during that day. She did not always
-lead the conversation, nor make herself so important in it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_400" id="page_400"></a>{400}</span> as she had
-done at first, but she was always there, putting in a word when
-necessary, ready to come to Herbert’s assistance, to amuse him when
-there was occasion, to flatter him with bold, frank speeches, in which
-there was always a subtle compliment involved. Everard took his leave
-shortly after, with farewells in which there was a certain consciousness
-that he had not been treated quite as he ought to have been. “Till I
-come into fashion again,” he said, with the laugh which began to sound
-harsh to Reine’s ears, “I am better at home in my own den, where I can
-be as sulky as I please. When I am wanted, you know where to find me.”
-Reine thought he looked at her when he said this with reproach in his
-eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I think you are wanted now,” said Miss Susan; “there are many things I
-wished to consult you about. I wish you would not go away.”</p>
-
-<p>But he was obstinate. “No, no; there is nothing for me to do,” he said;
-“no journeys to make, no troubles to encounter. You are all settled at
-home in safety; and when I am wanted you know where to find me,” he
-added, this time holding out his hand to Reine, and looking at her very
-distinctly. Poor Reine felt herself on the edge of a very sea of
-troubles: everybody around her seemed to have something in their
-thoughts beyond her divining. Miss Susan meant more than she could
-fathom, and there lurked a purpose in Giovanna’s beautiful eyes, which
-Reine began to be dimly conscious of, but could not explain to herself.
-How could he leave her to steer her course among these undeveloped
-perils? and how could she call him back when he was “wanted,” as he said
-bitterly? She gave him her hand, turning away her head to hide a
-something, almost a tear, that would come into her eyes, and with a
-forlorn sense of desertion in her heart; but she was too proud either by
-look or word to bid Everard stay.</p>
-
-<p>This was on Thursday, and the next day they were to go to the Hatch, so
-that the interval was not long. Giovanna sang for them in the evening
-all kinds of popular songs, which was what she knew best, old Flemish
-ballads, and French and Italian canzoni; those songs of which every
-hamlet possesses one special to itself. “For I am not educated,” she
-said; “Mademoiselle must see that. I do all this by the ear. It is not
-music; it is nothing but ignorance. These are the chants du peuple, and
-I am nothing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_401" id="page_401"></a>{401}</span> but one of the peuple, me. I am très-peuple. I never
-pretend otherwise. I do not wish to deceive you, M. ’Erbert, nor
-Mademoiselle.”</p>
-
-<p>“Deceive us!” cried Herbert. “If we could imagine such a thing, we
-should be dolts indeed.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna raised her head and looked at him, then turned to Miss Susan,
-whose knitting had dropped on her knee, and who, without thought, I
-think, had turned her eyes upon the group. “You are right, Monsieur
-’Erbert,” she said, with a strange malicious laugh, “here at least you
-are quite safe, though there are much of persons who are traitres in the
-world. No one will deceive you here.”</p>
-
-<p>She laughed as she spoke, and Miss Susan clutched at her knitting and
-buried herself in it, so to speak, not raising her head again for a full
-hour after, during which time Herbert and Giovanna talked a great deal
-to each other. And Reine sat by, with an incipient wonder in her mind
-which she could not quite make out, feeling as if her aunt and herself
-were one faction, Giovanna and Herbert another; as if there were all
-sorts of secret threads which she could not unravel, and intentions of
-which she knew nothing. The sense of strangeness grew on her so, that
-she could scarcely believe she was in Whiteladies, the home for which
-she had sighed so long. This kind of disenchantment happens often when
-the hoped-for becomes actual, but not always so strongly or with so
-bewildering a sense of something unrevealed, as that which pressed upon
-the very soul of Reine.</p>
-
-<p>Next morning Giovanna, with her child on her shoulder, came out to the
-gate to see them drive away. “You will not stay more long than
-to-morrow,” she said. “How we are going to be dull till you come back!
-Monsieur Herbert, Mademoiselle Reine, you promise&mdash;not more long than
-to-morrow! It is two great long days!” She kissed her hand to them, and
-little Jean waved his cap, and shouted “Vive M. ’Erbert!” as the
-carriage drove away.</p>
-
-<p>“What a grace she has about her!” said Herbert. “I never saw a woman so
-graceful. After all, it is a bore to go. It is astonishing how happy one
-feels, after a long absence, in the mere sense of being at home. I am
-sorry we promised; of course we must keep our promise now.”</p>
-
-<p>“I like it, rather,” said Reine, feeling half ashamed of herself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_402" id="page_402"></a>{402}</span> “Home
-is not what it used to be; there is something strange, something new; I
-can’t tell what it is. After all, though, Madame Jean is very handsome,
-it is strange she should be there.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, you object to Madame Jean, do you?” said Herbert. “You women are
-all alike; Aunt Susan does not like her either, I suppose you cannot
-help it; the moment a woman is more attractive than others, the moment a
-man shows that he has got eyes in his head&mdash;But you cannot help it, I
-suppose. What a walk she has, and carrying the child like a feather! It
-is a great bore, this visit to the Hatch, and so soon.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were pleased with the idea; you were delighted to accept the
-invitation,” said Reine, injudiciously, I must say.</p>
-
-<p>“Bah! one’s ideas change; but Sophy and Kate would have been
-disappointed,” said Herbert, with that ineffable look of complaisance in
-his eyes. And thus from Scylla which he had left, he drove calmly on to
-Charybdis, not knowing where he went.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_403" id="page_403"></a>{403}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLII" id="CHAPTER_XLII"></a>CHAPTER XLII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span><span class="smcap">here</span> had been great preparations made for Herbert’s reception at the
-Hatch. I say Herbert’s&mdash;for Reine, though she had been perforce included
-in the invitation, was not even considered any more. After the banquet
-at Whiteladies the sisters had many consultations on this subject, and
-there was indeed very little time to do anything. Sophy had been of
-opinion at first that the more gay his short visit could be made the
-better Herbert would be pleased, and had contemplated an impromptu
-dance, and I don’t know how many other diversions; but Kate was wiser.
-It was one good trait in their characters, if there was not very much
-else, that they acted for each other with much disinterestedness, seldom
-or never entering into personal rivalry. “Not too much the first time,”
-said Kate; “let him make acquaintance with us, that is the chief thing.”
-“But he mightn’t care for us,” objected Sophy. “Some people have such
-bad taste.” This was immediately after the Whiteladies dinner, after the
-moonlight walk and the long drive, when they were safe in the sanctuary
-of their own rooms. The girls were in their white dressing-gowns, with
-their hair about their shoulders, and were taking a light refection of
-cakes and chocolate before going to bed.</p>
-
-<p>“If you choose to study him a little, and take a little pains, of course
-he will like you,” said Kate. “Any man will fall in love with any woman,
-if she takes trouble enough.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is very odd to me,” said Sophy, “that with those opinions you should
-not be married, at your age.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear,” said Kate seriously, “plenty of men have fallen in love with
-me, only they have not been the right kind of men. I have been too fond
-of fun; and nobody that quite suited has<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_404" id="page_404"></a>{404}</span> come in my way since I gave up
-amusing myself. The Barracks so near is very much in one’s way,” said
-Kate, with a sigh. “One gets used to such a lot of them about; and you
-can always have your fun, whatever happens; and till you are driven to
-it, it seems odd to make a fuss about one. But what <i>you</i> have got to do
-is easy enough. He is as innocent as a baby, and as foolish. No woman
-ever took the trouble, I should say, to look at him. You have it all in
-your own hands. As for Reine, I will look after Reine. She is a
-suspicious little thing, but I’ll keep her out of your way.”</p>
-
-<p>“What a bore it is!” said Sophy, with a yawn. “Why should we be obliged
-to marry more than the men are. It isn’t fair. Nobody finds fault with
-them, though they have dozens of affairs; but we’re drawn over the coals
-for nothing, a bit of fun. I’m sure I don’t want to marry Bertie, or any
-one. I’d a great deal rather not. So long as one has one’s amusement,
-it’s jolly enough.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you could always be as young as you are now,” said Kate oracularly;
-“but even you are beginning to be passée, Sophy. It’s the pace, you
-know, as the men say&mdash;you need not make faces. The moment you are
-married you will be a girl again. As for me, I feel a grandmother.”</p>
-
-<p>“You <i>are</i> old,” said Sophy compassionately; “and indeed you ought to go
-first.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am just eighteen months older than you are,” said Kate, rousing
-herself in self-defence, “and with your light hair, you’ll go off
-sooner. Don’t be afraid; as soon as I have got you off my hands I shall
-take care of myself. But look here! What you’ve got to do is to study
-Herbert a little. Don’t take him up as if he were Jack or Tom. Study
-him. There is one thing you never can go wrong in with any of them,”
-said this experienced young woman. “Look as if you thought him the
-cleverest fellow that ever was; make yourself as great a fool as you can
-in comparison. That flatters them above everything. Ask his advice you
-know, and that sort of thing. The greatest fool I ever knew,” said Kate,
-reflectively, “was Fenwick, the adjutant. I made him wild about me by
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>“He would need to be a fool to think you meant it,” said Sophy,
-scornfully; “you that have such an opinion of yourself.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_405" id="page_405"></a>{405}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I had too good an opinion of myself to have anything to say to <i>him</i>,
-at least; but it’s fun putting them in a state,” said Kate, pleased with
-the recollection. This was a sentiment which her sister fully shared,
-and they amused themselves with reminiscences of several such dupes ere
-they separated. Perhaps even the dupes were scarcely such dupes as these
-young ladies thought; but anyhow, they had never been, as Kate said,
-“the right sort of men.” Dropmore, etc., were always to the full as
-knowing as their pretty adversaries, and were not to be beguiled by any
-such specious pretences. And to tell the truth, I am doubtful how far
-Kate’s science was genuine. I doubt whether she was unscrupulous enough
-and good-tempered enough to carry out her own programme; and Sophy
-certainly was too careless, too feather brained, for any such scheme.
-She meant to marry Herbert because his recommendations were great, and
-because he lay in her way, as it were, and it would be almost a sin not
-to put forth a hand to appropriate the gifts of Providence; but if it
-had been necessary to “study” him, as her sister enjoined, or to give
-great pains to his subjugation, I feel sure that Sophy’s patience and
-resolution would have given way. The charm in the enterprise was that it
-seemed so easy; Whiteladies was a most desirable object; and Sophy,
-longing for fresh woods and pastures new, was rather attracted than
-repelled by the likelihood of having to spend the Winters abroad.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Farrel-Austin, for his part, received the young head of his family
-with anything but delight. He had been unable, in ordinary civility, to
-contradict the invitation his daughters had given, but took care to
-express his sentiments on the subject next day very distinctly&mdash;had they
-cared at all for those sentiments, which I don’t think they did. Their
-schemes, of course, were quite out of his range, and were not
-communicated to him; nor was he such a self-denying parent as to have
-been much consoled for his own loss of the family property by the
-possibility of one of his daughters stepping into possession of it. He
-thought it an ill-timed exhibition of their usual love of strangers, and
-love of company, and growled at them all day long until the time of the
-arrival, when he absented himself, to their great satisfaction, though
-it was intended as the crowning evidence of his displeasure. “Papa has
-been obliged to go out; he is so sorry, but hopes you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_406" id="page_406"></a>{406}</span> will excuse him
-till dinner,” Kate said, when the girls came to receive their cousins at
-the door. “Oh, they won’t mind, I am sure,” said Sophy. “We shall have
-them all to ourselves, which will be much jollier.” Herbert’s brow
-clouded temporarily, for, though he did not love Mr. Farrel-Austin, he
-felt that his absence showed a want of that “proper respect” which was
-due to the head of the house. But under the gay influence of the girls
-the cloud speedily floated away.</p>
-
-<p>They had gone early, by special prayer, as their stay was to be so
-short; and Kate had made the judicious addition of two men from the
-barracks to their little luncheon-party. “One for me, and one for
-Reine,” she had said to Sophy, “which will leave you a fair field.” The
-one whom Kate had chosen for herself was a middle-aged major, with a
-small property&mdash;a man who had hitherto afforded much “fun” to the party
-generally as a butt, but whose serious attentions Miss Farrel-Austin, at
-five-and-twenty, did not absolutely discourage. If nothing better came
-in the way, he might do, she felt. He had a comfortable income and a
-mild temper, and would not object to “fun.” Reine’s share was a foolish
-youth, who had not long joined the regiment; but as she was quite
-unconscious that he had been selected for her, Reine was happily free
-from all sense of being badly treated. He laughed at the jokes which
-Kate and Sophy made; and held his tongue otherwise&mdash;thus fulfilling all
-the duty for which he was told off. After this morning meal, which was
-so much gayer and more lively than anything at Whiteladies, the
-new-comers were carried off to see the house and the grounds, upon which
-many improvements had been made. Sophy was Herbert’s guide, and ran
-before him through all the new rooms, showing the new library, the
-morning-room, and the other additions. “This is one good of an ugly
-modern place,” she said. “You can never alter dear old Whiteladies,
-Bertie. If you did we should get up a crusade of all the Austins and all
-the antiquarians, and do something to you&mdash;kill you, I think; unless
-some weak-minded person like myself were to interfere.”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall never put myself in danger,” he said, “though perhaps I am not
-such a fanatic about Whiteladies as you others.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t!” said Sophy, raising her hand as if to stop his mouth. “If you
-say a word more I shall hate you. It is small, to be sure; and if you
-should have a very large family when you marry”&mdash;she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_407" id="page_407"></a>{407}</span> went on, with a
-laugh&mdash;“but the Austins never have large families; that is one part of
-the curse, I suppose your Aunt Augustine would say! but for my part, I
-hate large families, and I think it is very grand to have a curse
-belonging to us. It is as good as a family ghost. What a pity that the
-monk and the nun don’t walk! But there <i>is</i> something in the great
-staircase. Did you ever see it? I never lived in Whiteladies, or I
-should have tried to see what it was.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you never live at Whiteladies? I thought when we were children&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Never for more than a day. The old ladies hate us. Ask us now, Bertie,
-there’s a darling. Well! he will be a darling if he asks us. It is the
-most delightful old house in the world, and I want to go.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then I ask you on the spot,” said Herbert. “Am I a darling now? You
-know,” he added in a lower tone, as they went on, and separated from the
-others, “it was as near as possible being yours. Two years ago no one
-supposed I should get better. You must have felt it was your own!”</p>
-
-<p>“Not once,” said Sophy. “Papa’s, perhaps&mdash;but what would that have done
-for us? Daughters marry and go away&mdash;it never would have been ours; and
-Mrs. Farrel-Austin won’t have a son. Isn’t it provoking? Oh, she is only
-our step-mother, you know&mdash;it does not matter what we say. Papa could
-beat her; but I am so glad, so glad,” cried Sophy, with aglow of smiles,
-“that instead of papa, or that nasty little French boy, Bertie, it is
-you, our cousin, whom we are fond of!&mdash;I can’t tell you how glad I am.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks,” said Herbert, clasping the hand she held out to him, and
-holding it. It seemed so natural to him that she should be glad.</p>
-
-<p>“Because,” said Sophy, looking at him with her pretty blue eyes, “we
-have been sadly neglected, Kate and I. We have never had any one to
-advise us, or tell us what we ought to do. We both came out too young,
-and were thrown on the world to do what we pleased. If you see anything
-in us you don’t like, Bertie, remember this is the reason. We never had
-a brother. Now, you will be as near a brother to us as any one could be.
-We shall be able to go and consult you, and you will help us out of our
-scrapes. I did so hope, before you came, that we should be friends; and
-now I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_408" id="page_408"></a>{408}</span> <i>think</i> we shall,” she said, giving a little pressure to the hand
-which still held hers.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert was so much affected by this appeal that it brought the tears to
-his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I think we shall, indeed,” he said, warmly,&mdash;“nay, we are. It would be
-a strange fellow indeed who would not be glad to be brother, or anything
-else, to a girl like you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Brother, <i>not</i> anything else,” said Sophy, audibly but softly. “Ah,
-Bertie! you can’t think how glad I am. As soon as we saw you, Kate and I
-could not help feeling what an advantage Reine had over us. To have you
-to refer to always&mdash;to have you to talk to&mdash;instead of the nonsense that
-we girls are always chattering to each other.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said Herbert, more and more pleased, “I suppose it is an
-advantage; not that I feel myself particularly wise, I am sure. There is
-always something occurring which shows one how little one knows.”</p>
-
-<p>“If <i>you</i> feel that, imagine how <i>we</i> must feel,” said Sophy, “who have
-never had any education. Oh yes, we have had just the same as other
-girls! but not like men&mdash;not like you, Bertie. Oh, you need not be
-modest. I know you haven’t been at the University to waste your time and
-get into debt, like so many we know. But you have done a great deal
-better. You have read and you have thought, and Reine has had all the
-advantage. I almost hate Reine for being so much better off than we
-are.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, really,” cried Herbert, laughing half with pleasure, half with a
-sense of the incongruity of the praise, “you give me a great deal more
-credit than I deserve. I have never been very much of a student. I don’t
-know that I have done much for Reine&mdash;except what one can do in the way
-of conversation, you know,” he added, after a pause, feeling that after
-all it must have been this improving conversation which had made his
-sister what she was. It had not occurred to him before, but the moment
-it was suggested&mdash;yes, of course, that was what it must be.</p>
-
-<p>“Just what I said,” cried Sophy; “and we never had that advantage. So if
-you find us frivolous, Bertie&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“How could I find you frivolous? You are nothing of the sort. I shall
-almost think you want me to pay you compliments&mdash;to say what I think of
-you.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_409" id="page_409"></a>{409}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I hate compliments,” cried Sophy. “Here we are on the lawn, Bertie, and
-here are the others. What do you think of it? We have had such trouble
-with the grass&mdash;now, I think, it is rather nice. It has been rolled and
-watered and mown, and rolled and watered and mown again, almost every
-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is the best croquet-ground in the county,” said the Major; “and why
-shouldn’t we have a game? It is pleasant to be out of doors such a
-lovely day.”</p>
-
-<p>This was assented to, and the others went in-doors for their hats; but
-Sophy stayed. “I have got rid of any complexion I ever had,” she said.
-“I am always out of doors. The sun must have got tired of burning me, I
-am so brown already,” and she put up two white, pink-fingered hands to
-her white-and-pink cheeks. She was one of those blondes of satin-skin
-who are not easily affected by the elements. Herbert laughed, and with
-the privilege of cousinship took hold of one of the pink tips of the
-fingers, and looked at the hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Is that what you call brown?” he said. “We have just come from the land
-of brown beauties, and I ought to know. It is the color of milk with
-roses in it,” and the young man, who was not used to paying compliments,
-blushed as he made his essay; which was more than Sophy, experienced in
-the commodity, felt any occasion to do.</p>
-
-<p>“Milk of roses,” she said, laughing; “that is a thing for the
-complexion. I don’t use it, Bertie; I don’t use anything of the kind.
-Men are always so dreadfully knowing about young girls’ dodges&mdash;” The
-word slipped out against her will, for Sophy felt that slang was not
-expedient, and she blushed at this slip, though she had not blushed at
-the compliment. Herbert did not, however, discriminate. He took the
-pretty suffusion to his own account, and laughed at the inadvertent
-word. He thought she put it in inverted commas, as a lady should; and
-when this is done, a word of slang is piquant now and then as a
-quotation. Besides, he was far from being a purist in language. Kate,
-however, the unselfish, thoughtful elder sister, sweetly considerate of
-the young beauty, brought out Sophy’s hat with her own, and they began
-to play. Herbert and Reine were novices, unacquainted (strange as the
-confession must sound) with this universally popular game; and Sophy
-boldly stepped into the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_410" id="page_410"></a>{410}</span> breech, and took them both on her side. “I am
-the best player of the lot,” said Sophy calmly. “You know I am. So
-Bertie and Reine shall come with me; and beat us if you can!” said the
-young champion; and if the reader will believe me, Sophy’s boast came
-true. Kate, indeed, made a brave stand; but the Major was middle-aged,
-and the young fellow was feeble, and Herbert showed an unsuspected
-genius for the game. He was quite pleased himself by his success;
-everything, indeed, seemed to conspire to make Herbert feel how clever
-he was, how superior he was, what an acquisition was his society; and
-during the former part of his life it had not been so. Like one of the
-great philosophers of modern times, Herbert felt that those who
-appreciated him so deeply must in themselves approach the sublime.
-Indeed, I fear it is a little mean on my part to take the example of
-that great philosopher, as if he were a rare instance; for is not the
-most foolish of us of the same opinion? “Call me wise, and I will allow
-you to be a judge,” says an old Scotch proverb. Herbert was ready to
-think all these kind people very good judges who so magnified and
-glorified himself.</p>
-
-<p>In the evening there was a very small dinner-party; again two men to
-balance Kate and Reine, but not the same men&mdash;persons of greater weight
-and standing, with Farrel-Austin himself at the foot of his own table.
-Mrs. Farrel-Austin was not well enough to come to dinner, but appeared
-in the drawing-room afterward; and when the gentlemen came upstairs,
-appropriated Reine. Sophy, who had a pretty little voice, had gone to
-the piano, and was singing to Herbert, pausing at the end of every verse
-to ask him, “Was it very bad? Tell me what you dislike most, my high
-notes or my low notes, or my execution, or what?” while Herbert,
-laughing and protesting, gave vehement praise to all. “I don’t dislike
-anything. I am delighted with every word; but you must not trust to me,
-for indeed I am no judge of music.”</p>
-
-<p>“No judge of music, and yet fresh from Italy!” cried Sophy, with
-flattering contempt.</p>
-
-<p>While this was going on Mrs. Farrel-Austin drew Reine close to her sofa.
-“I am very glad to see you, my dear,” she said, “and so far as I am
-concerned I hope you will come often. You are so quiet and nice; and all
-I have seen of your Aunt Susan I like, though I know she does not like
-us. But I hope, my dear,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_411" id="page_411"></a>{411}</span> you won’t get into the racketing set our girls
-are so fond of. I should be very sorry for that; it would be bad for
-your brother. I don’t mean to say anything against Kate and Sophy. They
-are very lively and very strong, and it suits them, though in some
-things I think it is bad for them too. But your brother could never
-stand it, my dear; I know what bad health is, and I can see that he is
-not strong still.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes,” said Reine eagerly. “He has been going out in the world a
-great deal lately. I was frightened at first; but I assure you he is
-quite strong.”</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Farrel-Austin shook her head. “I know what poor health is,” she
-said, “and however strong you may get, you never can stand a racket. I
-don’t suppose for a moment that they mean any harm, but still I should
-not like anything to happen in this house. People might say&mdash;and your
-Aunt Susan would be sure to think&mdash;It is very nice, I suppose, for young
-people; and of course at your age you are capable of a great deal of
-racketing; but I must warn you, my dear, it’s ruin for the health.”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, I don’t think we have any intention of racketing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, it is not the intention that matters,” said the invalid. “I only
-want to warn you, my dear. It is a very racketing set. You should not
-let yourself be drawn into it, and quietly, you know, when you have an
-opportunity, you might say a word to your brother. I dare say he feels
-the paramount value of health. Oh, what should I give now if I had only
-been warned when I was young! You cannot play with your health, my dear,
-with impunity. Even the girls, though they are so strong, have headaches
-and things which they oughtn’t to have at their age. But I hope you will
-come here often, you are so nice and quiet&mdash;not like the most of those
-that come here.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is Mrs. Austin saying to you, Reine?” asked Kate.</p>
-
-<p>“She told me I was nice and quiet,” said Reine, thinking that in honor
-she was bound not to divulge the rest; and they both laughed at the
-moderate compliment.</p>
-
-<p>“So you are,” said Kate, giving her a little hug. “It is refreshing to
-be with any one so tranquil&mdash;and I am sure you will do us both good.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine was not impressed by this as Herbert was by Sophy’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_412" id="page_412"></a>{412}</span> pretty
-speeches. Perhaps the praise that was given to her was not equally well
-chosen. The passionate little semi-French girl (who had been so
-ultra-English in Normandy) was scarcely flattered by being called
-tranquil, and did not feel that to do Sophy and Kate good by being “nice
-and quiet” was a lofty mission. What did a racketing set mean? she
-wondered. An involuntary prejudice against the house rose in her mind,
-and this opened her eyes to something of Sophy’s tactics. It was rather
-hard to sit and look on and see Herbert thus fooled to the top of his
-bent. When she went to the piano beside them, Sophy grew more rational;
-but still she kept referring to Herbert, consulting him. “Is it like
-this they do it in Italy?” she sang, executing “a shake” with more
-natural sweetness than science.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, I don’t know, but it is beautiful,” said Herbert. “Ask Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Reine is only a girl like myself. She will say what she thinks will
-please me. I have far more confidence in a gentleman,” cried Sophy; “and
-above all in you, Bertie, who have promised to be a brother to me,” she
-said, in a lower tone.</p>
-
-<p>“Did I promise to be a brother?” said poor, foolish Herbert, his heart
-beating with vanity and pleasure.</p>
-
-<p>And the evening passed amid these delights.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_413" id="page_413"></a>{413}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLIII" id="CHAPTER_XLIII"></a>CHAPTER XLIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span> <small>NEED</small> not follow day by day the course of Herbert’s life. Though the
-brother and sister went out a good deal together at first, being asked
-to all the great houses in the neighborhood, as became their position in
-the county and their recent arrival, yet there gradually arose a
-separation between Herbert and Reine. It was inevitable, and she had
-learned to acknowledge this, and did not rebel as at first; but a great
-many people shook their heads when it became apparent that,
-notwithstanding Mrs. Farrel-Austin’s warning, Herbert had been drawn
-into the “racketing set” whose headquarters were at the Hatch. The young
-man was fond of pleasure, as well as of flattery, and it was Summer,
-when all the ills that flesh is heir to relax their hold a little, and
-dissipation is comparatively harmless. He went to Ascot with the party
-from the Hatch, and he went to a great many other places with them; and
-though the friends he made under their auspices led Herbert into places
-much worse both for his health and mind than any the girls could lead
-him to, he remained faithful, so far, to Kate and Sophy, and continued
-to attend them wherever they went. As for Reine, she was happy enough in
-the comparative quiet into which she dropped when the first outbreak of
-gayety was over. Miss Susan, against her will, still remained at
-Whiteladies; against her will&mdash;yet it may well be supposed it was no
-pleasure to her to separate herself from the old house in which she had
-been born, and from which she had never been absent for so much as six
-months all her life. Miss Augustine, for her part, took little or no
-notice of the change in the household. She went her way as usual,
-morning and evening, to the Almshouses. When Miss Susan spoke to her, as
-she did sometimes, about the cottage which stood all this time furnished
-and ready for instant occupation,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_414" id="page_414"></a>{414}</span> she only shook her head. “I do not
-mean to leave Whiteladies,” she said, calmly. Neither did Giovanna, so
-far as could be perceived. “You cannot remain here when we go,” said
-Miss Susan to her.</p>
-
-<p>“There is much room in the house,” said Giovanna; “and when you go,
-Madame Suzanne, there will be still more. The little chamber for me and
-the child, what will that do to any one?”</p>
-
-<p>“But you cannot, you must not; it will be improper&mdash;don’t you
-understand?” cried Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna shook her head.</p>
-
-<p>“I will speak to M. Herbert,” she said, smiling in Miss Susan’s face.</p>
-
-<p>This then was the position of affairs. Herbert put off continually the
-settlement between them, begging that he might have a little holiday,
-that she would retain the management of the estate and of his affairs,
-and this with a certain generosity mingling with his inclination to
-avoid trouble; for in reality he loved the woman who had been in her way
-a mother to him, and hesitated about taking from her the occupation of
-her life. It was well meant; and Miss Susan felt within herself that
-moral cowardice which so often affects those who live in expectation of
-an inevitable change or catastrophe. It must come, she knew; and when
-the moment of departure came, she could not tell, she dared not
-anticipate what horrors might come with it; but she was almost glad to
-defer it, to consent that it should be postponed from day to day. The
-king in the story, however, could scarcely manage, I suppose, to be
-happy with that sword hanging over his head. No doubt he got used to it,
-poor wretch, and could eat and drink, and snatch a fearful joy from the
-feasting which went on around him; he might even make merry, perhaps,
-but he could scarcely be very happy under the shadow. So Miss Susan
-felt. She went on steadily, fulfilled all her duties, dispensed
-hospitalities, and even now and then permitted herself to be amused; but
-she was not happy.</p>
-
-<p>Sometimes, when she said her prayers&mdash;for she did still say her prayers,
-notwithstanding the burden on her soul&mdash;she would breathe a sigh which
-was scarcely a prayer, that it might soon be over one way or another,
-that her sufferings might be cut short; but then she would rouse herself
-up, and recall that despairing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_415" id="page_415"></a>{415}</span> sigh. Giovanna would not budge. Miss
-Susan made a great many appeals to her, when Reine was straying about
-the garden, or after she had gone to her innocent rest. She offered sums
-which made that young woman tremble in presence of a temptation which
-she could scarcely resist; but she set her white teeth firm, and
-conquered. It was better to have all than only a part, Giovanna thought,
-and she comforted herself that at the last moment, if her scheme failed,
-she could fall back upon and accept Miss Susan’s offer. This made her
-very secure, through all the events that followed. When Herbert
-abandoned Whiteladies and was constantly at the Hatch, when he seemed to
-have altogether given himself over to his cousins, and a report got up
-through the county that “an alliance was contemplated,” as the
-Kingsborough paper put it, grandly having a habit of royalty, so to
-speak&mdash;between two distinguished county families, Giovanna bore the
-contretemps quite calmly, feeling that Miss Susan’s magnificent offer
-was always behind her to fall back upon, if her great personal
-enterprise should come to nothing. Her serenity gave her a great
-advantage over Herbert’s feebler spirit. When he came home to
-Whiteladies, she regained her sway over him, and as she never indulged
-in a single look of reproach, such as Sophy employed freely when he left
-the Hatch, or was too long of returning, she gradually established for
-herself a superior place in the young man’s mind.</p>
-
-<p>As for Herbert himself, the three long months of that Summer were more
-to him than all the former years of his life put together. His first
-outburst of freedom on the Riviera, and his subsequent ramble in Italy,
-had been overcast by adverse circumstances. He had got his own way, but
-at a cost which was painful to him, and a great many annoyances and
-difficulties had been mingled with his pleasure. But now there was
-nothing to interfere with it. Reine was quiescent, presenting a smiling
-countenance when he saw her, not gloomy or frightened, as she had been
-at Cannes. She was happy enough; she was at home, with her aunts to fall
-back upon, and plenty of friends. And everybody and everything smiled
-upon Herbert. He was acting generously, he felt, to his former guardian,
-in leaving to her all the trouble of his affairs. He was surrounded by
-gay friends and unbounded amusements, amusements bounded only by the
-time that was occupied by them, and those human limitations which make
-it impossible<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_416" id="page_416"></a>{416}</span> to do two things at once. Could he have been in two
-places at once, enjoying two different kinds of pleasure at the same
-time, his engagements were sufficient to have secured for him a double
-enjoyment. From the highest magnates of the county, to the young
-soldiers of Kingsborough, his own contemporaries, everybody was willing
-to do him honor. The entire month of June he spent in town, where he had
-everything that town could give him&mdash;though their life moved rather more
-quickly than suited his still unconfirmed strength. Both in London and
-in the country he was invited into higher circles than those which the
-Farrel-Austins were permitted to enter; but still he remained faithful
-to his cousins, who gave him a homage which he could not expect
-elsewhere, and who had always “something going on,” both in town and
-country, and no pause in their fast and furious gayety. They were always
-prepared to go with him or take him somewhere, to give him the carte du
-pays, to tell him all the antecedents and history of this one and that
-one, and to make the ignorant youth feel himself an experienced man.
-Then, when it pleased him to go home, he was the master, welcomed by
-all, and found another beautiful slave waiting serene to burn incense to
-him.</p>
-
-<p>No wonder Herbert enjoyed himself. He had come out of his chrysalis
-condition altogether, and was enjoying the butterfly existence to an
-extent which he had never conceived of, fluttering about everywhere,
-sunning his fine new wings, his new energies, his manhood, and his
-health, and his wealth, and all the glories that were his. To do him
-justice, he would have brought his household up to town, in order that
-Reine too might have had her glimpse of the season, could he have
-persuaded them; but Reine, just then at a critical point of her life,
-declined the indulgence. Kate and Sophy, however, were fond of saying
-that they had never enjoyed a season so much. Opera-boxes rained upon
-them; they never wanted bouquets; and their parties to Richmond, to
-Greenwich, wherever persons of her class go, were endless. Herbert was
-ready for anything, and their father did decline the advantages, though
-he disliked the giver of them; and even when he was disagreeable,
-matrons were always procurable to chaperone the party, and preside over
-their pleasures. Everybody believed, as Sophy did, that there could be
-but one conclusion to so close an intimacy.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_417" id="page_417"></a>{417}</span></p>
-
-<p>“At all events, we have had a very jolly season,” said Kate, who was not
-so sure.</p>
-
-<p>And Herbert fully echoed the words when he heard them. Yes, it had been
-a very jolly season. He had “spent his money free,” which in the highest
-class, as well as in the lowest, is the most appropriate way in which a
-young man can make himself agreeable. He had enjoyed himself, and he had
-given to others a great many opportunities of enjoying themselves. Now
-and then he carried down a great party to Whiteladies, and introduced
-the <i>beau monde</i> to his beautiful old house, and made one of those fêtes
-champêtres for his friends which break so agreeably upon the toils of
-London pleasuring, and which supply to the highest class, always like
-the lowest in their peculiar rites, an elegant substitute for Cremorne
-and Rosherville. Miss Susan bestirred herself, and made a magnificent
-response to his appeals when he asked her to receive such parties, and
-consoled herself for the gay mob that disturbed the dignity of the old
-house, by the noble names of some of them, which she was too English not
-to be impressed by. And thus in a series of delights the Summer passed
-from May to August. Herbert did not go to Scotland, though he had many
-invitations and solicitations to do so when the season was over. He came
-home instead, and settled there when fashion melted away out of town;
-and Sophy, considering the subject, as she thought, impartially, and
-without any personal prejudice (she said), concluded that it must be for
-her sake he stayed.</p>
-
-<p>“I know the Duke of Ptarmigan asked him, and Tom Heath, and Billy
-Trotter,” she said to her sister. “Billy, they say, has the finest moors
-going. Why shouldn’t he have gone, unless he had some motive? He can’t
-have any shooting here till September. If it isn’t <i>that</i>, what do you
-suppose it can be!”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, at all events we have had a very jolly season,” said Kate, not
-disposed to commit herself; “and what we have to do is to keep things
-going, and show him the country, and not be dull even now.” Which
-admirable suggestion they carried out with all their hearts.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert’s thoughts, however, were not, I fear, so far advanced as Sophy
-supposed. It was not that he did not think of that necessity of marrying
-which Miss Augustine enforced upon him in precisely the same words,
-every time she saw him. “You are<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_418" id="page_418"></a>{418}</span> wasting time&mdash;you are wasting my time,
-Herbert,” she said to him when he came back to Whiteladies, in July.
-Frankly she thought this the most important point of view. So far as he
-was concerned, he was young, and there was time enough; but if she, a
-woman of seven-and-fifty, was to bring up his heir and initiate him into
-her ideas, surely there was not a moment to be lost in taking the
-preliminary steps.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert was very much amused with this view of the subject. It tickled
-his imagination so, that he had not been able to refrain from
-communicating it to several of his friends. But various of these
-gentlemen, after they had laughed, pronounced it to be their opinion
-that, by Jove, the old girl was not so far out.</p>
-
-<p>“I wouldn’t stand having that little brat of a child set up as the heir
-under my very nose; and, by Jove, Austin, I’d settle that old curmudgeon
-Farrel’s hopes fast enough, if I were in your place,” said his advisers.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert was not displeased with the notion. He played with it, with a
-certain enjoyment. He felt that he was a prize worth anybody’s pursuit,
-and liked to hear that such and such ladies were “after him.” The Duke
-of Ptarmigan had a daughter or two, and Sir Billy Trotter’s sister might
-do worse, her friends thought. Herbert smoothed an incipient moustache,
-late in growing, and consequently very precious, and felt a delightful
-complaisance steal over him. And he knew that Sophy, his cousin, did not
-despise him; I am not sure even that the young coxcomb was not aware
-that he might have the pick of either of the girls, if he chose; which
-also, though Kate had never thought on the subject, was true enough. She
-had faithfully given him over to her younger sister, and never
-interfered; but if Herbert had thrown his handkerchief to her, she would
-have thought it sinful to refuse. When he thought on the subject, which
-was often enough, he had a kind of lazy sense that this was what would
-befall him at last. He would throw his handkerchief some time when he
-was at the Hatch, and wheresoever the chance wind might flutter it,
-there would be his fate. He did not really care much whether it might
-happen to be Sophy or Kate.</p>
-
-<p>When he came home, however, these thoughts would float away out of his
-mind. He did not think of marrying, though Miss Augustine spoke to him
-on the subject every day. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_419" id="page_419"></a>{419}</span> thought of something else, which yet was
-not so far different; he thought that nowhere, in society or out of it,
-had he seen any one like Giovanna.</p>
-
-<p>“Did you ever see such a picture?” he would say to Reine. “Look at her!
-Now she’s sculpture, with that child on her shoulder. If the boy was
-only like herself, what a group they’d make! I’d like to have
-Marochetti, or some of those swells, down, to make them in marble. And
-she’d paint just as well. By Jove, she’s all the arts put together. How
-she does sing! Patti and the rest are nothing to her. But I don’t
-understand how she could be the mother of that boy.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna came back across the lawn, having swung the child from her
-shoulder on to the fragrant grass, in time to hear this, and smiled and
-said, “He does not resemble me, does he? Madame Suzanne, M. Herbert
-remarks that the boy is not dark as me. He is another type&mdash;yes, another
-type, n’est ce pas!”</p>
-
-<p>“Not a bit like you,” said Herbert. “I don’t say anything against Jean,
-who is a dear little fellow; but he is not like you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! but he is the heir of M. Herbert, which is better,” cried Giovanna,
-with a laugh, “until M. Herbert will marry. Why will not you marry and
-range yourself? Then the little Jean and the great Giovanna will melt
-away like the fogs. Ah, marry, M. Herbert! it is what you ought to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Are you so anxious, then, to melt away like the fog?&mdash;like the
-sunshine, you mean,” said the young man in a low voice. They were all in
-the porch, but he had gone out to meet her, on pretence of playing with
-little Jean.</p>
-
-<p>“But no,” said Giovanna, smiling, “not at all. I am very well here; but
-when M. Herbert will marry, then I must go away. Little Jean will be no
-more the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then I shall never marry,” said the young man, though still in tones so
-low as not to reach the ears of the others. Giovanna turned her face
-toward him with a mocking laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Bah! already I know Madame Herbert’s name, her little name!” she cried,
-and picked up the boy with one vigorous, easy sweep of her beautiful
-arms, and carried him off, singing to him&mdash;like a goddess, Herbert
-thought, like the nurse of a young Apollo. He was dreadfully
-disconcerted with this sudden withdrawal, and when Miss Augustine,
-coming in, addressed him in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_420" id="page_420"></a>{420}</span> her usual way, he turned from her
-pettishly, with an impatient exclamation:</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would give over,” he said; “you are making a joke of a
-serious matter. You are putting all sorts of follies into people’s
-heads.”</p>
-
-<p>It was only at Whiteladies, however, that he entertained this feeling.
-When he was away from home he would now and then consider the question
-of throwing the handkerchief, and made up his mind that there would be a
-kind of justice in it if the petit nom of the future Mrs. Herbert turned
-out to be either Sophy or Kate.</p>
-
-<p>Things went on in this way until, one day in August, it was ordained
-that the party, with its usual military attendants, should vary its
-enjoyments by a day on the river. They started from Water Beeches,
-Everard’s house, in the morning, with the intention of rowing up the
-river as far as Marlow, and returning in the evening to a late dinner.
-The party consisted of Kate and Sophy, with their father, Reine and
-Herbert, Everard himself, and a quantity of young soldiers, with the
-wife of one of them, four ladies, to wit, and an indefinite number of
-men. They started on a lovely morning, warm yet fresh, with a soft
-little breeze blowing, stirring the long flags and rushes, and floating
-the water-lilies that lurked among their great leaves in every corner.
-Reine and Everard had not seen much of each other for some time. From
-the day that he went off in an injured state of mind, reminding them
-half indignantly that they knew where to find him when he was wanted,
-they had met only two or three times, and never had spoken to each other
-alone. Everard had been in town for the greater part of the time,
-purposely taking himself away, sore and wounded, to have, as he thought,
-no notice taken of him; while Reine, on her part, was too proud to make
-any advances to so easily affronted a lover. This had been in her mind,
-restraining her from many enjoyments when both Herbert and Miss Susan
-thought her “quite happy”. She was “quite happy,” she always said; did
-not wish to go to town, preferred to stay at Whiteladies, had no desire
-to go to Court and to make her début in society, as Miss Susan felt she
-should. Reine resisted, being rather proud and fanciful and capricious,
-as the best of girls may be permitted to be under such circumstances;
-and she had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_421" id="page_421"></a>{421}</span> determinedly made herself “happy” in her country life, with
-such gayeties and amusements as came to her naturally. I think, however,
-that she had looked forward to this day on the river, not without a
-little hope, born of weariness, that something might happen to break the
-ice between Everard and herself. By some freak of fortune, however, or
-unkind arrangement, it so happened that Reine and Everard were not even
-in the same boat when they started. She thought (naturally) that it was
-his fault, and he thought (equally naturally) that it was her fault; and
-each believed that the accident was a premeditated and elaborately
-schemed device to hold the other off. I leave the reader to guess
-whether this added to the pleasure of the party, in which these two, out
-of their different boats, watched each other when they could, and
-alternated between wild gayety put on when each was within sight of the
-other, to show how little either minded&mdash;and fits of abstraction.</p>
-
-<p>The morning was beautiful; the fair river glided past them, here shining
-like a silver shield, there falling into heavenly coolness under the
-shadows, with deep liquid tones of green and brown, with glorified
-reflections of every branch and twig, with forests of delicious growth
-(called weeds) underneath its clear rippling, throwing up long blossomed
-boughs of starry flowers, and in the shallows masses of great cool flags
-and beds of water-lilies. This was not a scene for the chills and heats
-of a love-quarrel, or for the perversity of a voluntary separation. And
-I think Everard felt this, and grew impatient of the foolish caprice
-which he thought was Reine’s, and which Reine thought was his, as so
-often happens. When they started in the cooler afternoon, to come down
-the river, he put her almost roughly into his boat.</p>
-
-<p>“You are coming with me this time,” he said in a half-savage tone,
-gripping her elbow fiercely as he caught her on her way to the other,
-and almost lifted her into his boat.</p>
-
-<p>Reine half-resisted for the moment, her face flaming with respondent
-wrath, but melted somehow by his face so near her, and his imperative
-grasp, she allowed herself to be thrust into the little nutshell which
-she knew so well, and which (or its predecessors) had been called
-“Queen” for years, thereby acquiring for Everard a character for loyalty
-which Reine knew he did not deserve, though he had never told her so.
-The moment she had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_422" id="page_422"></a>{422}</span> taken her place there, however, Reine justified all
-Everard’s sulks by immediately resuming toward him the old tone. If she
-had not thus recovered him as her vizier and right-hand man, she would,
-I presume, have kept her anxiety in her own breast. As it was, he had
-scarcely placed her on the cushions, when suddenly, without a pause,
-without one special word to him, asking pardon (as she ought) for her
-naughtiness, Reine said suddenly, “Everard! oh, will you take care,
-please, that Bertie does not row?”</p>
-
-<p>He looked at her wholly aggravated, but half laughing. “Is this all I am
-ever to be good for?” he said; “not a word for me, no interest in me. Am
-I to be Bertie’s dry-nurse all my life? And is this all&mdash;?”</p>
-
-<p>She put her hand softly on his arm, and drew him to her to whisper to
-him. In that moment all Reine’s coldness, all her doubts of him had
-floated away, with a suddenness which I don’t pretend to account for,
-but which belonged to her impulsive character (and in her heart I do not
-believe she had ever had the least real doubt of him, though it was a
-kind of dismal amusement to think she had). She put up her face to him,
-with her hand on his arm. “Speak low,” she said. “Is there any one I
-could ask but you? Everard, he has done too much already to-day; don’t
-let him row.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard laughed. He jumped out of his boat and spoke to the other men
-about, confidentially, in undertones. “Don’t let him see you mean it,”
-he said; and when he had settled this piece of diplomacy, he came back
-and pushed off his own boat into mid-stream. “The others had all got
-settled,” he said. “I don’t see why I should run upon your messages, and
-do everything you tell me, and never get anything by it. Mrs. Sellinger
-has gone with Kate and Sophy, who have much more need of a chaperone
-than you have: and for the first time I have you to myself, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine had the strings of the rudder in her hands, and could have driven
-him back, I think, had she liked, but she did not. She let herself and
-the boat float down the pleasanter way. “I don’t mind,” she said softly;
-“for a long time I have had no talk with you&mdash;since we came home.”</p>
-
-<p>“And whose fault is that, I should like to know?” cried Everard, with a
-few long swift strokes, carrying the boat almost out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_423" id="page_423"></a>{423}</span> sight of the
-larger one, which had not yet started. “How cruel you are, Reine! You
-say that as if I was to blame; when you know all the time if you had but
-held up a little finger&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should I hold up a little finger?” said Reine, softly, leaning back
-in her seat. But there was a smile on her face. It was true, she
-acknowledged to herself. She had known it all the time. A little finger,
-a look, a word would have done it, though she had made believe to be
-lonely and dreary and half-forsaken and angry even. At which, as the
-boat glided down the river in the soft shadows after sunset, in the cool
-grayness of the twilight, she smiled again.</p>
-
-<p>But before they reached the Water Beeches, these cool soft shades had
-given way to a sudden cold mist, what country people call a “blight.” It
-was only then, I think, that these two recollected themselves. They had
-sped down the shining stream, with a little triumph in outstripping the
-other and larger boat, though it had four rowers, and Everard was but
-one. They had gone through the locks by themselves, leaving saucy
-messages for their companions, and it was only when they got safely
-within sight of Everard’s house, and felt the coldness of the “blight”
-stealing through them, that they recollected to wonder what had kept the
-others so long. Then Reine grew frightened, unreasonably, as she felt;
-fantastically, for was not Herbert quite well? but yet beyond her own
-power of control.</p>
-
-<p>“Turn back, and let us meet them,” she begged; and Everard, though
-unwilling, could not refuse to do it. They went back through the growing
-darkness, looking out eagerly for the party.</p>
-
-<p>“That cannot be them,” said Everard, as the long sweep of oars became
-audible. “It must be a racing boat, for I hear no voices.”</p>
-
-<p>They lay close by the bank and watched, Reine in an agony of anxiety,
-for which she could give no reason. But sure enough it was the rest of
-the party, rowing quickly down, very still and frightened. Herbert had
-insisted upon rowing, in spite of all remonstrances, and just a few
-minutes before had been found half fainting over his oar, shivering and
-breathless.</p>
-
-<p>“It is nothing&mdash;it is nothing,” he gasped, when he saw Reine, “and we
-are close at home.” But his heart panted so, that this was all he could
-say.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_424" id="page_424"></a>{424}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLIV" id="CHAPTER_XLIV"></a>CHAPTER XLIV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">W</span><span class="smcap">hat</span> a dismal conclusion it was of so merry a day! Herbert walked into
-the house, leaning upon Everard’s arm, and when some wine had been
-administered to him, declared himself better, and endeavored to prove
-that he was quite able to join them at supper, and that it was nothing.
-But his pale face and panting breast belied his words, and after awhile
-he acknowledged that perhaps it would be best to remain on the sofa in
-the drawing-room, while the others had their meal. Reine took her place
-by him at once, though indeed Sophy, who was kind enough, was ready and
-even anxious to do it. But in such a case the bond of kin is always
-paramount. The doctor was sent for at once, and Everard went and came
-from his guests at the dinner-table, to his much-more-thought-of guests
-in the cool, silent drawing-room, where Reine sat on a low chair by the
-sofa, holding her brother’s hand, and fanning him to give him air.</p>
-
-<p>“All right, old fellow,” poor Bertie said, whenever Everard’s anxious
-face appeared; but when Reine and he were left alone, he panted forth
-abuse of himself and complaints of Providence. “Just as I thought I was
-all right&mdash;whenever I felt a little freedom, took a little liberty&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Bertie,” said Reine, “you know you should not have done it. Dear,
-don’t talk now, to make it worse. Lie still, and you’ll be better. Oh,
-Bertie! have patience, have patience, dear!”</p>
-
-<p>“To look like a fool!” he gasped; “never good for anything.
-No&mdash;more&mdash;strength than a baby! and all those follows looking on.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie, they are all very kind, they are all very sorry. Oh, how can
-you talk of looking like a fool?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_425" id="page_425"></a>{425}</span></p>
-
-<p>“I do,” he said; “and the girls, too!&mdash;weaker, weaker than any of them.
-Sorry! I don’t want them to be sorry; and old Farrel gloating over it.
-Oh, God! I can’t bear it&mdash;I can’t bear it, Reine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie, be still&mdash;do you hear me? This is weak, if you please; this is
-unlike a man. You have done too much, and overtired yourself. Is this a
-reason to give up heart, to abuse everybody, to blaspheme&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“It is more&mdash;than being overtired,” he moaned; “feel my heart, how it
-goes!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, it is a spasm,” said Reine, taking upon her a composure and
-confidence she did not feel. “You have had the same before. If you want
-to be better, don’t talk, oh, don’t talk, Bertie! Be still, be quite
-still!”</p>
-
-<p>And thus she sat, with his hand in hers, softly fanning him; and half in
-exhaustion, half soothed by her words, he kept silent. Reine had harder
-work when the dinner was over, and Sophy and Kate fluttered into the
-room, to stand by the sofa, and worry him with questions.</p>
-
-<p>“How are you now? Is your breathing easier? Are you better, Bertie? oh,
-say you are a little better! We can never, never forgive ourselves for
-keeping you out so late, and for letting you tire yourself so.”</p>
-
-<p>“Please don’t make him talk,” cried Reine. “He is a little better. Oh,
-Bertie, Bertie, dear, be still. If he is quite quiet, it will pass off
-all the sooner. I am not the least frightened,” she said, though her
-heart beat loud in her throat, belying her words; but Reine had seen
-Farrel-Austin’s face, hungry and eager, over his daughters’ shoulders.
-“He is not really so bad; he has had it before. Only he must, <i>he must</i>
-be still. Oh, Sophy, for the love of heaven, do not make him speak!”</p>
-
-<p>“Nonsense&mdash;I am all right,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course he can speak,” cried Sophy, triumphantly; “you are making a
-great deal too much fuss, Reine. Make him eat something, that will do
-him good. There’s some grouse. Everard, fetch him some grouse&mdash;one can
-eat that when one can eat nothing else&mdash;and I’ll run and get him a glass
-of champagne.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, go away&mdash;oh, keep her away!” cried Reine, joining her hands in
-eager supplication.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_426" id="page_426"></a>{426}</span></p>
-
-<p>Everard, to whom she looked, shrugged his shoulders, for it was not so
-easy a thing to do. But by dint of patience the room was cleared at
-last; and though Sophy would fain have returned by the open window,
-“just to say good-bye,” as she said, “and to cheer Bertie up, for they
-were all making too great a fuss about him,” the whole party were
-finally got into their carriages, and sent away. Sophy’s last words,
-however, though they disgusted the watchers, were balm to Herbert.</p>
-
-<p>“She is a jolly girl,” he said; “you <i>are</i> making&mdash;too&mdash;much fuss.
-It’s&mdash;going off. I’ll be&mdash;all right&mdash;directly.”</p>
-
-<p>And then in the grateful quiet that followed, which no one disturbed,
-with his two familiar nurses, who had watched him so often, by his side,
-the excitement really began to lessen, the palpitation to subside. Reine
-and Everard sat side by side, in the silence, saying nothing to each
-other, almost forgetting, if that were possible, what they had been
-saying to each other as they glided, in absolute seclusion from all
-other creatures, down the soft twilight river. All the recent past
-seemed to melt into the clouds for them, and they were again at
-Appenzell, at Kandersteg, returned to their familiar occupation nursing
-their sick together, as they had so often nursed him before.</p>
-
-<p>Everard had despatched a messenger to Whiteladies, when he sent for the
-doctor; and Miss Susan, careful of Reine as well as of Herbert, obeyed
-the summons along with the anxious François, who understood the case in
-a moment. The doctor, on his arrival, gave also a certain consolation to
-the watchers. With quiet all might be well again; there was nothing
-immediately alarming in the attack; but he must not exert himself, and
-must be content for the moment at least to retire to the seclusion of an
-invalid. They all remained in Water Beeches for the night, but next
-morning were able to remove the patient to Whiteladies. In the morning,
-before they left, poor Everard, once more thrown into a secondary place,
-took possession of Reine, and led her all over his small premises. It
-was a misty morning, touched with the first sensation of Autumn, though
-Summer was all ablaze in the gardens and fields. A perfect tranquillity
-of repose was everywhere, and as the sun got power, and the soft white
-mists broke up, a soft clearness of subdued light, as dazzling almost as
-full sunshine, suffused the warm still atmosphere. The river glided
-languid<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_427" id="page_427"></a>{427}</span> under the heat, gleaming white and dark, without the magical
-colors of the previous day. The lazy shadows drooped over it from the
-leafy banks, so still that it was hard to say which was substance and
-which shadow.</p>
-
-<p>“We are going to finish our last-night’s talk,” said Everard.</p>
-
-<p>“Finish!” said Reine half-smiling, half-weeping, for how much had
-happened since that enchanted twilight! “what more is there to say?” And
-I don’t think there was much more to say&mdash;though he kept her under the
-trees on the river side, and in the shady little wood by the pond where
-the skating had been when he received her letter&mdash;saying it; so long,
-that Miss Susan herself came out to look for them, wondering. As she
-called “Reine! Reine!” through the still air, wondering more and more,
-she suddenly came in sight of them turning the corner of a great clump
-of roses, gay in their second season of bloom. They came toward her
-arm-in-arm with a light on their faces which it needed no sorcerer to
-interpret. Miss Susan had never gone through these experiences herself,
-but she understood at once what this meant, and her heart gave one leap
-of great and deep delight. It was so long since she had felt what it was
-to be happy, that the sensation overpowered her. It was what she had
-hoped for and prayed for, so long as her hopes were worth much, or her
-prayers. She had lost sight of this secret longing in the dull chaos of
-preoccupation which had swallowed her up for so long; and now this thing
-for which she had never dared to scheme, and which lately she had not
-had the courage even to wish for, was accomplished before her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh,” said Miss Susan, out of the depths of an experience unknown to
-them, “how much better God is to us than we are to ourselves! A just
-desire comes to pass without any scheming.” And she kissed them both
-with lips that trembled, and joy incredible, incomprehensible in her
-heart. She had ceased to hope for anything that was personally desirable
-to her; and, lo! here was her chief wish accomplished.</p>
-
-<p>This was all Hebrew and Sanskrit to the young people, who smiled to each
-other in their ignorance, but were touched by her emotion, and
-surrounded her with their happiness and their love, a very atmosphere of
-tenderness and jubilation. And the sun burst forth just then, and woke
-up all the dormant glow of color, as if to celebrate the news now first
-breathed to other ears than<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_428" id="page_428"></a>{428}</span> their own; and the birds, they thought,
-fell a-singing all at once, in full chorus. Herbert, who lay on the
-sofa, languid and pale, waiting for them to start on his drive home, did
-not observe these phenomena, poor boy, though the windows were open. He
-thought they were long of coming (as indeed they were), and was fretful,
-feeling himself neglected, and eager to get home.</p>
-
-<p>Whiteladies immediately turned itself into an enchanted palace, a castle
-of silence and quiet. The young master of the house was as if he had
-been transported suddenly into the Arabian nights. Everything was
-arranged for his comfort, for his amusement, to make him forget the
-noisier pleasures into which he had plunged with so much delight. When
-he had got over his sombre and painful disappointment, I don’t think
-poor Herbert, accustomed to an invalid existence, disliked the Sybarite
-seclusion in which he found himself. He had the most careful and tender
-nurse, watching every look; and he had (which I suspect was the best of
-it) a Slave&mdash;an Odalisque, a creature devoted to his pleasure&mdash;his
-flatterer, the chief source of his amusement, his dancing-girl, his
-singing-woman, a whole band of entertainers in one. This I need not say
-was Giovanna. At last her turn had come, and she was ready to take
-advantage of it. She did not interfere with the nursing, having perhaps
-few faculties that way, or perhaps (which is more likely) feeling it
-wiser not to invade the province of the old servants and the anxious
-relatives. But she took upon her to amuse Herbert, with a success which
-none of the others could rival. She was never anxious; she did not look
-at him with those longing, eager eyes, which, even in the depths of
-their love, convey alarm to the mind of the sick. She was gay and
-bright, and took the best view of everything, feeling quite confident
-that all would be well; for, indeed, though she liked him well enough,
-there was no love in her to make her afraid. She was perfectly patient,
-sitting by him for hours, always ready to take any one’s place, ready to
-sing to him, to read to him in her indifferent English, making him gay
-with her mistakes, and joining in the laugh against herself with
-unbroken good-humor. She taught little Jean tricks to amuse the invalid,
-and made up a whole series of gymnastic evolutions with the boy, tossing
-him about in her beautiful arms, a picture of elastic strength and
-grace. She was, in short&mdash;there was no other word for it&mdash;not Herbert’s
-nurse or companion, but his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_429" id="page_429"></a>{429}</span> slave; and there could be little doubt that
-it was the presence and ministrations of this beautiful creature which
-made him so patient of his confinement. And he was quite patient, as
-contented as in the days when he had no thought beyond his sick-room,
-notwithstanding that now he spoke continually of what he meant to do
-when he was well. Giovanna cured him of anxiety, made everything look
-bright to him. It was some time before Miss Susan or Reine suspected the
-cause of this contented state, which was so good for him, and promoted
-his recovery so much. A man’s nearest friends are slow to recognize or
-believe that a stranger has more power over him than themselves; but
-after awhile they did perceive it with varying and not agreeable
-sentiments. I cannot venture to describe the thrill of horror and pain
-with which Miss Susan found it out.</p>
-
-<p>It was while she was walking alone from the village, at the corner of
-Priory Lane, that the thought struck her suddenly; and she never forgot
-the aspect of the place, the little heaps of fallen leaves at her feet,
-as she stood still in her dismay, and, like a revelation, saw what was
-coming. Miss Susan uttered a groan so bitter, that it seemed to echo
-through the air, and shake the leaves from the trees, which came down
-about her in a shower, for it was now September. “He will marry her!”
-she said to herself; and the consequences of her own sin, instead of
-coming to an end, would be prolonged forever, and affect unborn
-generations. Reine naturally had no such horror in her mind; but the
-idea of Giovanna’s ascendancy over Herbert was far from agreeable to
-her, as may be supposed. She struggled hard to dismiss the idea, and she
-tried what she could to keep her place by her brother, and so resist the
-growing influence. But it was too late for such an effort; and indeed, I
-am afraid, involved a sacrifice not only of herself, but of her pride,
-and of Herbert’s affection, that was too much for Reine. To see his
-looks cloud over, to see him turn his back on her, to hear his querulous
-questions, “Why did not she go out? Was not Everard waiting? Could not
-she leave him a little freedom, a little time to himself?”&mdash;all this
-overcame his sister.</p>
-
-<p>“He will marry Giovanna,” she said, pouring her woes into the ear of her
-betrothed. “She must want to marry him, or she would not be there
-always, she would not behave as she is doing.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_430" id="page_430"></a>{430}</span></p>
-
-<p>“He will marry whom he likes, darling, and we can’t stop him,” said
-Everard, which was poor consolation. And thus the crisis slowly drew
-near.</p>
-
-<p>In the meantime another event utterly unexpected had followed that
-unlucky day on the river, and had contributed to leave the little
-romance of Herbert and Giovanna undisturbed. Mr. Farrel-Austin caught
-cold in the “blight” that fell upon the river, or in the drive home
-afterward; nobody could exactly tell how it was. He caught cold, which
-brought on congestion of the lungs, and in ten days, taking the county
-and all his friends utterly by surprise, and himself no less, to whom
-such a thing seemed incredible, was dead. Dead; not ill, nor in danger,
-but actually dead&mdash;a thing which the whole district gasped to hear, not
-finding it possible to connect the idea of Farrel-Austin with anything
-so solemn. The girls drove over twice to ask for Herbert, and had been
-admitted to the morning room, the cheerfullest room in the house, where
-he lay on his sofa, to see him, and had told him lightly (which was a
-consolation to Herbert, as showing him that he was not alone in
-misfortune) that papa was ill too, in bed and very bad. But Sophy and
-Kate were, like all the rest of the world, totally unprepared for the
-catastrophe which followed; and they did not come back, being suddenly
-plunged into all the solemn horror of an event so deeply affecting their
-own fortunes, as well as such affections as they possessed. Thus, there
-was not even the diversion of a rival to interrupt Giovanna’s
-opportunity. Farrel-Austin’s death affected Miss Susan in the most
-extraordinary way, so that all her friends were thunderstruck. She was
-overwhelmed; was it by grief for her enemy? When she received the news,
-she gave utterance to a wild and terrible cry, and rushed up to her own
-room, whence she scarcely appeared all the rest of the day. Next morning
-she presented to her astonished family a countenance haggard and pale,
-as if by years of suffering. What was the cause? Was it Susan that had
-loved him, and not Augustine (who took the information very calmly), or
-what was the secret of this impassioned emotion? No one could say. Miss
-Susan was like a woman distraught for some days. She would break out
-into moanings and weeping when she was alone, in which indulgence she
-was more than once surprised by the bewildered Reine. This was too
-extraordinary to be accounted for. Was it possible, the others asked<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_431" id="page_431"></a>{431}</span>
-themselves, that her enmity to Farrel-Austin had been but a perverse
-cloak for another sentiment?</p>
-
-<p>I give these wild guesses, because they were at their wits’ end, and had
-not the least clue to the mystery. So bewildered were they, that they
-could show her little sympathy, and do nothing to comfort her; for it
-was monstrous to see her thus afflicted. Giovanna was the only one who
-seemed to have any insight at this moment into the mind of Miss Susan. I
-think even she had but a dim realization of how it was. But she was
-kind, and did her best to show her kindness; a sympathy which Miss Susan
-revolted the rest by utter rejection of, a rejection almost fierce in
-its rudeness.</p>
-
-<p>“Keep me free from that woman&mdash;keep her away from me!” she cried wildly.</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Susan,” said Reine, not without reproach in her tone, “Giovanna
-wants to be kind.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, kind! What has come to us that I must put up with <i>her</i> kindness?”
-she cried, with her blue eyes aflame.</p>
-
-<p>Neither Reine nor any of the others knew what to say to this strange new
-phase in Miss Susan’s mysterious conduct. For it was apparent to all of
-them that some mystery had come into her life, into her character, since
-the innocent old days when her eyes were as clear and her brow, though
-so old, as unruffled as their own. Day by day Miss Susan’s burden was
-getting heavier to bear. Farrel’s death, which removed all barriers
-except the one she had herself put there, between Everard and the
-inheritance of Whiteladies; and this growing fascination of Herbert for
-Giovanna, which she seemed incapable of doing anything to stop, and
-which, she cried out to herself in the silence of the night, she never,
-never would permit herself to consent to, and could not bear&mdash;these two
-things together filled up the measure of her miseries. Day by day the
-skies grew blacker over her, her footsteps were hemmed in more terribly;
-until at last she seemed scarcely to know what she was doing. The
-bailiff addressed himself to Everard in a kind of despair.</p>
-
-<p>“I can’t get no orders,” he said. “I can’t get nothing reasonable out of
-Miss Austin; whether it’s anxiousness, or what, none of us can tell.”
-And he gave Everard an inquisitive look, as if testing him how far he
-might go. It was the opinion of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_432" id="page_432"></a>{432}</span> common people that Augustine had
-been mad for years; and now they thought Miss Susan was showing signs of
-the same malady.</p>
-
-<p>“That’s how things goes when it’s in a family,” the village said.</p>
-
-<p>Thus the utmost miserable endurance, and the most foolish imbecile
-happiness lived together under the same roof, vaguely conscious of each
-other, yet neither fathoming the other’s depths. Herbert, like Reine and
-Everard, perceived that something was wrong with Miss Susan; but being
-deeply occupied with his own affairs, and feeling the absolute
-unimportance of anything that could happen to his old aunt in
-comparison&mdash;was not much tempted to dwell upon the idea, or to make any
-great effort to penetrate the mystery; while she, still more deeply
-preoccupied with her wretchedness, fearing the future, yet fearing still
-more to betray herself, did not realize how quickly affairs were
-progressing, nor how far they had gone. It was not till late in
-September that she at last awoke to the fact. Herbert was better, almost
-well again, the doctor pronounced, but sadly shaken and weak. It was a
-damp, rainy day, with chills in it of the waning season, dreary showers
-of yellow leaves falling with every gust, and all the signs that an
-early ungenial Autumn, without those gorgeous gildings of decay which
-beguile us of our natural regrets, was closing in, yellow and humid,
-with wet mists and dreary rain. Everything dismal that can happen is
-more dismal on such a day, and any diversion which can be had indoors to
-cheat the lingering hours is a double blessing. Herbert was as usual in
-the morning-room, which had been given up to him as the most cheerful.
-Reine had been called away to see Everard, who, now that the invalid was
-better, insisted upon a share of her attention; and she had left the
-room all the more reluctantly that there was a gleam of pleasure in her
-brother’s eye as she was summoned. “Giovanna will stay with me,” he
-said, the color rising in his pale cheeks; and Reine fled to Everard,
-red with mortification and sorrow and anger, to ask him for the
-hundredth time, “Could nothing be done to stop it&mdash;could nothing be
-done?”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan was going about the house from room to room, feverishly
-active in some things by way of making up, perhaps from the
-half-conscious failing of her powers in others. She was restless, and
-could not keep still to look out upon the flying leaves,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_433" id="page_433"></a>{433}</span> the dreary
-blasts, the gray dismal sky; and the rain prevented her from keeping her
-miserable soul still by exercise out of doors, as she often did now,
-contrary to all use and wont. She had no intention in her mind when her
-restless feet turned the way of Herbert’s room. She did not know that
-Giovanna was there, and Reine absent. She was not suspicious more than
-usual, neither had she the hope or fear of finding out anything. She
-went mechanically that way, as she might have gone mechanically through
-the long turnings of the passage to the porch, where Reine and Everard
-were looking out upon the dismal Autumn day.</p>
-
-<p>When she opened the door, however, listlessly, she saw a sight which
-woke her up like a trumpet. Giovanna was sitting upon a stool close by
-Herbert’s sofa. One of her hands he was holding tenderly in his; with
-the other she was smoothing back his hair from his forehead, caressing
-him with soft touches and soft words, while he gazed at her with that
-melting glow of sentimentality&mdash;vanity or love, or both together, in his
-eyes&mdash;which no spectator can ever mistake. As Miss Susan went into the
-room, Giovanna, who sat with her back to the door, bent over him and
-kissed him on the forehead, murmuring as she did so into his bewitched
-and delighted ear.</p>
-
-<p>The looker-on was petrified for the first moment; then she threw up her
-hands, and startled the lovers with a wild shrill cry. I think it was
-heard all over the house. Giovanna jumped up from her stool, and Herbert
-started upright on his sofa; and Reine and Everard, alarmed, came
-rushing from the porch. They all gazed at Miss Susan, who stood there as
-pale as marble, gasping with an attempt to speak. Herbert for the moment
-was cowed and frightened by the sight of her; but Giovanna had perfect
-possession of her faculties. She faced the new-comers with a blush,
-which only improved her beauty, and laughed.</p>
-
-<p>“Eh bien!” she cried, “you have then found out, Madame Suzanne? I am
-content, me. I am not fond of to deceive. Speak to her, mon ’Erbert, the
-word is to thee.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Aunt Susan,” he said, trying to laugh too, but blushing, a hot
-uneasy blush, not like Giovanna’s. “I beg your pardon. Of course I ought
-to have spoken to you before; and equally of course now you see what has
-happened without requiring any explanation.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_434" id="page_434"></a>{434}</span> Giovanna, whom you have
-been so kind to, is going to be my wife.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan once more cried out wildly in her misery, “It cannot be&mdash;it
-shall not be! I will not have it!” she said.</p>
-
-<p>Once more Giovanna laughed, not offensively, but with a good-natured
-sense of fun. “Mon Dieu!” she said, “what can you do? Why should not we
-be bons amis? You cannot do anything, Madame Suzanne. It is all fixed
-and settled, and if you will think, it is for the best, it will arrange
-all.” Giovanna had a real desire to make peace, to secure de l’amitié,
-as she said. She went across the room toward Miss Susan, holding out her
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>And then for a moment a mortal struggle went on in Susan Austin’s soul.
-She repulsed wildly, but mechanically, the offered hand, and stood there
-motionless, her breast panting, all the powers of nature startled into
-intensity, and such a conflict and passion going on within her as made
-her blind and deaf to the world outside. Then suddenly she put her hand
-upon the nearest chair, and drawing it to her, sat down, opposite to
-Herbert, with a nervous shiver running over her frame. She put up her
-hand to her throat, as if to tear away something which restrained or
-suffocated her; and then she said, in a terrible, stifled voice,
-“Herbert! first you must hear what I have got to say.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_435" id="page_435"></a>{435}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLV" id="CHAPTER_XLV"></a>CHAPTER XLV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">G</span><span class="smcap">iovanna</span> looked at Miss Susan with surprise, then with a little
-apprehension. It was her turn to be uneasy. “Que voulez-vous? que
-voulez-vous dire?” she said under her breath, endeavoring to catch Miss
-Susan’s eye. Miss Susan was a great deal too impassioned and absorbed
-even to notice the disturbed condition of her adversary. She knew
-herself to be surrounded by an eager audience, but yet in her soul she
-was alone, insensible to everything, moved only by a passionate impulse
-to relieve herself, to throw off the burden which was driving her mad.
-She did not even see Giovanna, who after walking round behind Herbert,
-trying to communicate by the eyes with the woman whom all this time she
-had herself subdued by covert threats, sat down at last at the head of
-the sofa, putting her hand, which Herbert took into his, upon it.
-Probably this sign of kindness stimulated Miss Susan, though I doubt
-whether she was conscious of it, something having laid hold upon her
-which was beyond her power to resist.</p>
-
-<p>“I have a story to tell you, children,” she said, pulling instinctively
-with her hand at the throat of her dress, which seemed to choke her,
-“and a confession to make. I have been good, good enough in my way,
-trying to do my duty most of my life; but now at the end of it I have
-done wrong, great wrong, and sinned against you all. God forgive me! and
-I hope you’ll forgive me. I’ve been trying to save myself from
-the&mdash;exposure&mdash;from the shame, God help me! I have thought of myself,
-when I ought to have thought of you all. Oh, I’ve been punished! I’ve
-been punished! But perhaps it is not yet too late. Oh, Herbert, Herbert!
-my dear boy, listen to me!”</p>
-
-<p>“If you are going to say anything against Giovanna, you will lose your
-time, Aunt Susan,” said Herbert; and Giovanna leaned<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_436" id="page_436"></a>{436}</span> on the arm of the
-sofa, and kissed his forehead again in thanks and triumph.</p>
-
-<p>“What I am going to say first is against myself,” said Miss Susan. “It
-is three years ago&mdash;a little more than three years; Farrel-Austin, who
-is dead, came and told me that he had found the missing people, the
-Austins whom you have heard of, whom I had sought for so long, and that
-he had made some bargain with them, that they should withdraw in his
-favor. You were very ill then, Herbert, thought to be dying; and
-Farrel-Austin&mdash;poor man, he is dead!&mdash;was our enemy. It was dreadful,
-dreadful to think of him coming here, being the master of the place.
-That was my sin to begin with. I thought I could bear anything sooner
-than that.”</p>
-
-<p>Augustine came into the room at this moment. She came and went so
-noiselessly that no one even heard her; and Miss Susan was too much
-absorbed to note anything. The new-comer stood still near the door
-behind her sister, at first because it was her habit, and then, I
-suppose, in sympathy with the motionless attention of the others, and
-the continuance without a pause of Miss Susan’s voice.</p>
-
-<p>“I meant no harm; I don’t know what I meant. I went to break their
-bargain, to show them the picture of the house, to make them keep their
-rights against that man. It was wicked enough. Farrel-Austin’s gone, and
-God knows what was between him and us; but to think of him here made me
-mad, and I went to try and break the bargain. I own that was what I
-meant. It was not, perhaps, Christian-like; not what your Aunt
-Augustine, who is as good as an angel, would have approved of; but it
-was not wicked, not wicked, if I had done no more than that!</p>
-
-<p>“When I got there,” said Miss Susan, drawing a long breath, “I found
-them willing enough; but the man was old, and his son was dead, and
-there was nothing but daughters left. In the room with them was a
-daughter, a young married woman, a young widow&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, there was me,” said Giovanna. “To what good is all this narrative,
-Madame Suzanne? Me, I know it before, and Monsieur ’Erbert is not
-amused; look, he yawns. We have assez, assez, for to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“There was <i>she</i>; sitting in the room, a poor, melancholy,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_437" id="page_437"></a>{437}</span> neglected
-creature; and there was the other young woman, Gertrude, pretty and
-fair, like an English girl. She was&mdash;going to have a baby,” said Miss
-Susan, even at that moment hesitating in her old maidenliness before she
-said it, her old face coloring softly. “The devil put it into my head
-all at once. It was not premeditated; I did not make it up in my mind.
-All at once, all at once the devil put it into my head! I said suddenly
-to the old woman, to old Madame Austin, ‘Your daughter-in-law is in the
-same condition?’ She was sitting down crouched in a corner. She was said
-to be sick. What was more natural,” cried poor Miss Susan looking round,
-“than to think that was the cause?”</p>
-
-<p>Perhaps it was the first time she had thought of this excuse. She caught
-at the idea with heat and eagerness, appealing to them all. “What more
-natural than that I should think so? She never rose up; I could not see
-her. Oh, children,” cried Miss Susan, wringing her hands, “I cannot tell
-how much or how little wickedness there was in my first thought; but
-answer me, wasn’t it natural? The old woman took me up in a moment, took
-up more&mdash;yes, I am sure&mdash;more than I meant. She drew me away to her
-room, and there we talked of it. She did not say to me distinctly that
-the widow was not in that way. We settled,” she said after a pause, with
-a shiver and gasp before the words, “that anyhow&mdash;if a boy came&mdash;it was
-to be Giovanna’s boy and the heir.”</p>
-
-<p>Herbert made an effort at this moment to relinquish Giovanna’s hand,
-which he had been holding all the time; not, I believe, because of this
-information, which he scarcely understood as yet, but because his arm
-was cramped remaining so long in the same position; but she, as was
-natural, understood the movement otherwise. She held him for a second,
-then tossed his hand away and sprang up from her chair. “Après?” she
-cried, with an insolent laugh. “Madame Suzanne, you radotez, you are too
-old. This goes without saying that the boy is Giovanna’s boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, we know all this,” said Herbert, pettishly. “Aunt Susan, I cannot
-imagine what you are making all this fuss and looking so excited about.
-What do you mean? What is all this about old women and babies? I wish
-you would speak out if you have anything to say. Giovanna, come here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, throwing herself on the sofa beside him;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_438" id="page_438"></a>{438}</span> “yes, mon
-Herbert, mon bien-aimé. You will not abandon me, whatever any one may
-say?”</p>
-
-<p>“Herbert,” cried Miss Susan, “let her alone, let her alone, for God’s
-sake! She is guilty, guiltier than I am. She made a pretence as her
-mother-in-law told her, pretended to be ill, pretended to have a child,
-kept up the deceit&mdash;how can I tell how long?&mdash;till now. Gertrude is
-innocent, whose baby was taken; she thought it died, poor thing, poor
-thing! but Giovanna is not innocent. All she has done, all she has said,
-has been lies, lies! The child is not her child; it is not the heir. She
-has thrust herself into this house, and done all this mischief, by a
-lie. She knows it; look at her. She has kept her place by threatening
-me, by holding my disgrace before my eyes; and now, Herbert, my poor
-boy, my poor boy, she will ruin you. Oh, put her away, put her away!”</p>
-
-<p>Herbert rose up, trembling in his weakness. “Is this true, Giovanna?” he
-said, turning to her piteously. “Have you anything to say against it? Is
-it true?”</p>
-
-<p>Reine, who had been standing behind, listening with an amazement beyond
-the reach of words, came to her brother’s side, to support him at this
-terrible moment; but he put her away. Even Miss Susan, who was the chief
-sufferer, fell into the background. Giovanna kept her place on the sofa,
-defiant, while he stood before her, turning his back upon the elder
-offender, who felt this mark of her own unimportance, even in the fever
-of her excitement and passion.</p>
-
-<p>“Have you nothing to say against it?” cried Herbert, with anguish in his
-voice. “Giovanna! Giovanna! is it true?”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna shrugged her shoulders impatiently. “Mon Dieu,” she said, “I
-did what I was told. They said to me, ‘Do this,’ and I did it; was it my
-fault? It was the old woman who did all, as Madame Suzanne says&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“We are all involved together, God forgive us!” cried Miss Susan, bowing
-her head into her hands.</p>
-
-<p>Then there was a terrible pause. They were all silent, all waiting to
-hear what Herbert had to say, who, by reason of being most deeply
-involved, seemed suddenly elevated into the judge. He went away from the
-sofa where Giovanna was, and in front of which Miss Susan was sitting,
-as far away as he could get, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_439" id="page_439"></a>{439}</span> began to walk up and down the room in
-his excitement. He took no further notice of Giovanna, but after a
-moment, pausing in his angry march, said suddenly, “It was all on
-Farrel-Austin’s account you plunged into crime like this? Silence,
-Reine! it is crime, and it is she who is to blame. What in the name of
-heaven had Farrel-Austin done to you that you should avenge yourself
-upon us all like this?”</p>
-
-<p>“Forgive me, Herbert!” said Miss Susan, faintly; “he was to have married
-Augustine, and he forsook her, jilted her, shamed her, my only sister.
-How could I see him in this house?”</p>
-
-<p>And then again there was a pause. Even Reine made no advance to the
-culprit, though her heart began to beat loudly, and her indignation was
-mingled with pity. Giovanna sat gloomy; drumming with her foot upon the
-carpet. Herbert had resumed his rapid pacing up and down. Miss Susan sat
-in the midst of them, hopeless, motionless, her bowed head hidden in her
-hands, every help and friendly prop dropped away from her, enduring to
-the depths the bitterness of her punishment, yet, perhaps, with a
-natural reaction, asking herself, was there none, none of all she had
-been kind to, capable of a word, a look, a touch of pity in this moment
-of her downfall and uttermost need? Both Everard and Reine felt upon
-them that strange spell which often seems to freeze all outward action
-in a great emergency, though their hearts were swelling. They had both
-made a forward step; when suddenly, the matter was taken out of their
-hands. Augustine, perhaps, was more slow than any of them, out of her
-abstraction and musing, to be roused to what was being said. But the
-last words had supplied a sharp sting of reality which woke her fully,
-and helped her to understand. As soon as she had mastered it, she went
-up swiftly and silently to her sister, put her arms round her, and drew
-away the hands in which she had buried her face.</p>
-
-<p>“Susan,” she said, in a voice more real and more living than had been
-heard from her lips for years, “I have heard everything. You have
-confessed your sin, and God will forgive you. Come with me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Austine! Austine!” cried poor Miss Susan, shrinking, dropping to the
-floor at the feet of the immaculate creature who was to her as a saint.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_440" id="page_440"></a>{440}</span></p>
-
-<p>“Yes, it is I,” said Augustine. “Poor Susan! and I never knew! God will
-forgive you. Come with me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said the other, the elder and stronger, with the humility of a
-child; and she got up from where she had thrown herself, and casting a
-pitiful look upon them all, turned round and gave her hand to her
-sister. She was weak with her excitement, and exhausted as if she had
-risen from a long illness. Augustine drew her sister’s hand through her
-arm, and without another word, led her away. Reine rushed after them,
-weeping and anxious, the bonds loosed that seemed to have congealed her.
-Augustine put her back, not unkindly, but with decision. “Another time,
-Reine. She is going with me.”</p>
-
-<p>They were all so overawed by this sudden action that even Herbert
-stopped short in his angry march, and Everard, who opened the door for
-their exit, could only look at them, and could not say a word. Miss
-Susan hung on Augustine’s arm, broken, shattered, feeble; an old woman,
-worn out and fainting. The recluse supporting her, with a certain air of
-strength and pride, strangely unlike her nature, walked on steadily and
-firmly, looking, as was her wont, neither to the right hand nor the
-left. All her life Susan had been her protector, her supporter, her
-stay. Now their positions had changed all in a moment. Erect and almost
-proud she walked out of the room, holding up the bowed-down, feeble
-figure upon her arm. And the young people, all so strangely, all so
-differently affected by this extraordinary revelation, stood blankly
-together and looked at each other, not knowing what to say, when the
-door closed. None of the three Austins spoke to or looked at Giovanna,
-who sat on the sofa, still drumming with her foot upon the carpet. When
-the first blank pause was over, Reine went up to Herbert and put her arm
-through his.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, forgive her, forgive her!” she cried.</p>
-
-<p>“I will never forgive her,” he said wildly; “she has been the cause of
-it all. Why did she let this go on, my God! and why did she tell me
-now?”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna sat still, beating her foot on the carpet, and neither moved
-nor spoke.</p>
-
-<p>As for Susan and Augustine, no one attempted to follow them. No one
-thought of anything further than a withdrawal to their rooms of the two
-sisters, united in a tenderness of far older date<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_441" id="page_441"></a>{441}</span> than the memories of
-the young people could reach; and I don’t even know whether the impulse
-that made them both turn through the long passage toward the porch was
-the same. I don’t suppose it was. Augustine thought of leading her
-penitent sister to the Almshouse chapel, as she would have wished should
-be done to herself in any great and sudden trouble; whereas an idea of
-another kind entered at once into the mind of Susan, which, beaten down
-and shaken as it was, began already to recover a little after having
-thrown off the burden. She paused a moment in the hall, and took down a
-gray hood which was hanging there, like Augustine’s, a covering which
-she had adopted to please her sister on her walks about the roads near
-home. It was the nearest thing at hand, and she caught at it, and put it
-on, as both together with one simultaneous impulse they bent their steps
-to the door. I have said that the day was damp and dismal and hopeless,
-one of those days which make a despairing waste of a leafy country. Now
-and then there would come a miserable gust of wind, carrying floods of
-sickly yellow leaves from all the trees, and in the intervals a small
-mizzling rain, not enough to wet anything, coming like spray in the
-wayfarers’ faces, filled up the dreary moments. No one was out of doors
-who could be in; it was worse than a storm, bringing chill to the marrow
-of your bones, weighing heavy upon your soul. The two old sisters,
-without a word to each other, went out through the long passage, through
-the porch in which Miss Susan had sat and done her knitting so many
-Summers through. She took no farewell look at the familiar place, made
-no moan as she left it. They went out clinging to each other, Augustine
-erect and almost proud, Susan bowed and feeble, across the sodden wet
-lawn, and out at the little gate in Priory Lane. They had done it a
-hundred and a thousand times before; they meant, or at least Miss Susan
-meant, to do it never again; but her mind was capable of no regret for
-Whiteladies. She went out mechanically, leaning on her sister, yet
-almost mechanically directing that sister the way Susan intended to go,
-not Augustine. And thus they set forth into the Autumn weather, into the
-mists, into the solitary world. Had the departure been made publicly
-with solemn farewells and leave-takings, they would have felt it far
-more deeply. As it was, they scarcely felt it at all, having their minds
-full of other things. They went along Priory Lane,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_442" id="page_442"></a>{442}</span> wading through the
-yellow leaves, and along the road to the village, where Augustine would
-have turned to the left, the way to the Almshouses. They had not spoken
-a word to each other, and Miss Susan leaned almost helplessly in her
-exhaustion upon her sister; but nevertheless she swayed Augustine in the
-opposite direction across the village street. One or two women came out
-to the cottage doors to look after them. It was a curious sight, instead
-of Miss Augustine, gray and tall and noiseless, whom they were all used
-to watch in the other direction, to see the two gray figures going on
-silently, one so bowed and aged as to be unrecognizable, exactly the
-opposite way. “She have got another with her, an old ’un,” the women
-said to each other, and rubbed their eyes, and were not half sure that
-the sight was real. They watched the two figures slowly disappearing
-round the corner. It came on to rain, but the wayfarers did not quicken
-their pace. They proceeded slowly on, neither saying a word to the
-other, indifferent to the rain and to the yellow leaves that tumbled on
-their path. So, I suppose, with their heads bowed, and no glance behind,
-the first pair may have gone desolate out of Paradise. But they were
-young, and life was before them; whereas Susan and Augustine, setting
-out forlorn upon their new existence, were old, and had no heart for
-another home and another life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_443" id="page_443"></a>{443}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVI" id="CHAPTER_XLVI"></a>CHAPTER XLVI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">W</span><span class="smcap">hen</span> a number of people have suddenly been brought together accidentally
-by such an extraordinary incident as that I have attempted to describe,
-it is almost as difficult for them to separate, as it is to know what to
-do, or what to say to each other. Herbert kept walking up and down the
-room, dispelling, or thinking he was dispelling, his wrath and
-excitement in this way. Giovanna sat on the sofa motionless, except her
-foot, with which she kept on beating the carpet. Reine, after trying to
-join herself to her brother, as I have said, and console him, went back
-to Everard, who had gone to the window, the safest refuge for the
-embarrassed and disturbed. Reine went to her betrothed, finding in him
-that refuge which is so great a safeguard to the mind in all
-circumstances. She was very anxious and unhappy, but it was about
-others, not about herself; and though there was a cloud of disquietude
-and pain upon her, as she stood by Everard’s side, her face turned
-toward the others, watching for any new event, yet Reine’s mind had in
-itself such a consciousness of safe anchorage, and of a refuge beyond
-any one’s power to interfere with, that the very trouble which had
-overtaken them, seemed to add a fresh security to her internal
-well-being. Nothing that any one could say, nothing that any one could
-do, could interfere between her and Everard; and Everard for his part,
-with that unconscious selfishness <i>à deux</i>, which is like no other kind
-of selfishness, was not thinking of Herbert, or Miss Susan, but only of
-his poor Reine, exposed to this agitation and trouble.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, if I could only carry you away from it all, my poor darling!” he
-said in her ear.</p>
-
-<p>Reine said, “Oh, hush, Everard, do not think of me,” feeling,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_444" id="page_444"></a>{444}</span> indeed,
-that she was not the chief sufferer, nor deserving, in the present case,
-of the first place in any one’s sympathy; yet she was comforted. “Why
-does not she go away?&mdash;oh, if she would but go away!” cried Reine, and
-stood thus watching, consoled by her lover, anxious and vigilant, but
-yet not the person most deserving of pity, as she herself felt.</p>
-
-<p>While they thus remained as Miss Susan had left them, not knowing how to
-get themselves dispersed, there came a sudden sound of carriage wheels,
-and loud knocking at the great door on the other side of the house, the
-door by which all strangers approached.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, as if we were not bad enough already, here are visitors!” cried
-Reine. And even Herbert seemed to listen, irritated by the unexpected
-commotion. Then followed the sound of loud voices, and a confused
-colloquy. “I must go and receive them, whoever it is,” said Reine, with
-a moan over her fate. After awhile steps were heard approaching, and the
-door was thrown open suddenly. “Not here, not here,” cried Reine,
-running forward. “The drawing-room, Stevens.”</p>
-
-<p>“Beg pardon, ma’am,” said Stevens, flushed and angry. “It ain’t my
-fault. I can’t help it. They won’t be kep’ back, Miss Reine,” he cried,
-bending his head down over her. “Don’t be frightened. It’s the hold
-foreign gent&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Not here,” cried Reine again. “Oh, whom did you say? Stevens, I tell
-you not here.”</p>
-
-<p>“But he is here; the hold foreign gent,” said Stevens, who seemed to be
-suddenly pulled back from behind by somebody following him. If there had
-been any laughter in her, I think Reine would have laughed; but though
-the impulse gleamed across her distracted mind, the power was wanting.
-And there suddenly appeared, facing her, in the place of Stevens, two
-people, who took from poor Reine all inclination to laugh. One of them
-was an old man, spruce and dapper, in the elaborate travelling wraps of
-a foreigner, of the bourgeois class, with a comforter tied round his
-neck, and a large great coat with a hood to it. The other was a young
-woman, fair and full, with cheeks momentarily paled by weariness and
-agitation, but now and then dyed deep with rosy color. These two came to
-a momentary stop in their eager career, to gaze at Reine, but finally
-pushing past her, to her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_445" id="page_445"></a>{445}</span> great amazement, got before her into the room
-which she had been defending from them.</p>
-
-<p>“I seek Madame Suzanne! I seek the lady!” said the old man.</p>
-
-<p>At the sound of his voice Giovanna sprang to her feet; and as soon as
-they got sight of her, the two strangers made a startled pause. Then the
-young woman rushed forward and laid hold of her by the arm.</p>
-
-<p>“Mon bébé! mon enfant! donne-moi mon bébé!” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Eh bien, Gertrude! c’est toi!” cried Giovanna. She was roused in a
-moment from the quiescent state, sullen or stupefied, in which she had
-been. She seemed to rise full of sudden energy and new life. “And the
-bon papa, too! Tiens, this is something of extraordinary; but,
-unhappily, Madame Suzanne has just left us, she is not here. Suffer me
-to present to you my beau-père, M. Herbert; my belle-sœur Gertrude,
-of whom you have just heard. Give yourself the trouble to sit down, my
-parents. This is a pleasure very unattended. Had Madame Suzanne
-known&mdash;she talked of you toute à l’heure&mdash;no doubt she would have
-stayed&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna,” cried the old man, trembling, “you know, you must know, why
-we are here. Content this poor child, and restore to her her baby. Ah,
-traître! her baby, not thine. How could I be so blind&mdash;how could I be so
-foolish, and you so criminal, Giovanna? Your poor belle-mère has been
-ill, has been at the point of death, and she has told us all.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mon enfant!” cried the young woman, clasping her hands. “My bébé,
-Giovanna; give me my bébé, and I pardon thee all.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! the belle-mère has made her confession, then!” said Giovanna.
-“C’est ça? Poor belle-mère! and poor Madame Suzanne! who has come to do
-the same here. But none say ‘Poor Giovanna.’ Me, I am criminal, va! I am
-the one whom all denounce; but the others, they are then my victims, not
-I theirs!”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna, Giovanna, I debate not with thee,” cried the old man. “We say
-nothing to thee, nothing; we blame not, nor punish. We say, give back
-the child,&mdash;ah, give back the child! Look at her, how her color changes,
-how she weeps! Give her her bébé. We will not blame, nor say a word to
-thee, never!”</p>
-
-<p>“No! you will but leave me to die of hunger,” said Giovanna, “to die by
-the roads, in the fields, qu’importe? I am out<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_446" id="page_446"></a>{446}</span> of the law, me. Yet I
-have done less ill than the others. They were old, they had all they
-desired; and I was young, and miserable, and made mad&mdash;ah, ma Gertrude!
-by thee, too, gentle as thou look’st, even by thee!”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna, Giovanna!” cried Gertrude, throwing herself at her feet. Her
-pretty upturned face looked round and innocent, like a child’s, and the
-big tears ran down her cheeks. “Give me my bébé, and I will ask your
-pardon on my knees.”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna made a pause, standing upright, with this stranger clinging to
-her dress, and looked round upon them all with a strange mixture of
-scorn and defiance and emotion. “Messieurs,” she said, “and
-mademoiselle! you see what proof the bon Dieu has sent of all Madame
-Suzanne said. Was it my doing? No! I was obedient, I did what I was
-told: but, voyons! it will be I who shall suffer. Madame Suzanne is
-safe. You can do nothing to her; in a little while you will lofe her
-again, as before. The belle-mère, who is wicked, wickedest of all, gets
-better, and one calls her poor bonne-maman, pauvre petite mère! But me!
-I am the one who shall be cast away, I am the one to be punished; here,
-there, everywhere, I shall be kicked like a dog&mdash;yes, like a dog! All
-the pardon, the miséricorde will be for them&mdash;for me the punishment.
-Because I am the most weak! because I am the slave of all&mdash;because I am
-the one who has excuse the most!”</p>
-
-<p>She was so noble in her attitude, so grand in her voice and expression,
-that Herbert stood and gazed at her like one spellbound. But I do not
-think she remarked this, being for the moment transported out of herself
-by a passionate outburst of feeling&mdash;sense of being wronged&mdash;pity for
-herself, defiance of her enemies; and a courage and resolution mingling
-with all which, if not very elevated in their origin, were intense
-enough to give elevation to her looks. What an actress she would have
-made! Everard thought regretfully. He was already very pitiful of the
-forsaken creature at whom every one threw a stone.</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna, Giovanna!” cried the weeping Gertrude, clinging to her dress,
-“hear me! I will forgive you, I will love you. But give me my bébé,
-Giovanna, give me my child!”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna paused again, looking down upon the baby face, all blurred with
-crying. Her own face changed from its almost tragic form to a softer
-aspect. A kind of pity stole over it, then<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_447" id="page_447"></a>{447}</span> another and stronger
-sentiment. A gleam of humor came into her eyes. “Tenez,” she said, “I go
-to have my revenge!” and drawing her dress suddenly from Gertrude’s
-clasp, she went up to the bell, rang it sharply, and waiting, facing
-them all with a smile, “Monsieur Stevens,” she said, with the most
-enchanting courtesy, when the butler appeared, “will you have the
-goodness to bring to me, or to send to me, my boy, the little mas-ter
-Jean?”</p>
-
-<p>After she had given this order, she stood still waiting, all the
-profounder feeling of her face disappearing into an illumination of
-gayety and fun, which none of the spectators understood. A few minutes
-elapsed while this pause lasted. Martha, who thought Master Jean was
-being sent for to see company, hastily invested him in his best frock
-and ribbons. “And be sure you make your bow pretty, and say how do do,”
-said innocent Martha, knowing nothing of the character of the visit, nor
-of the tragical change which had suddenly come upon the family life. The
-child came in with all the boldness of the household pet into the room
-in which so many excited people were waiting for him. His pretty fair
-hair was dressed according to the tradition of the British nursery, in a
-great flat curl on the top of his little head. He had his velvet frock
-on, with scarlet ribbons, and looked, as Martha proudly thought, “a
-little gentleman,” every inch of him. He looked round him with childish
-complaisance as he came in, and made his little salute, as Giovanna had
-taught him. But when Gertrude rushed toward him, as she did at once, and
-throwing herself on her knees beside him, caught him in her arms and
-covered him with kisses, little Jean was taken violently by surprise. A
-year’s interval is eternity to such a baby. He knew nothing about
-Gertrude. He cried, struggled, fought to be free, and finally struck at
-her with his sturdy little fists.</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma, mamma!” cried little Jean, holding out appealing arms to
-Giovanna, who stood at a little distance, her fine nostrils expanded, a
-smile upon her lip, a gleam of mischief in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“He will know <i>me</i>,” said the old man, going to his daughter’s aid. “A
-moment, give him a moment, Gertrude. A moi, Jeannot, à moi! Let him go,
-ma fille. Give him a moment to recollect himself; he has forgotten,
-perhaps, his language, Jeannot, my child, come to me!”</p>
-
-<p>Jean paid no attention to these blandishments. When Gertrude,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_448" id="page_448"></a>{448}</span> weeping,
-released, by her father’s orders, her tight hold of the child, he rushed
-at once to Giovanna’s side, and clung to her dress, and hid his face in
-its folds. “Mamma, mamma, take Johnny!” he said.</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna stooped, lifted him like a feather, and tossed him up to her
-shoulder with a look of triumph. “There, thou art safe, no one can touch
-thee,” she said; and turning upon her discomfited relations, looked down
-upon them both with a smile. It was her revenge, and she enjoyed it with
-all her heart. The child clung to her, clasping both of his arms round
-hers, which she had raised to hold him fast. She laughed aloud&mdash;a laugh
-which startled every one, and woke the echoes all about.</p>
-
-<p>“Tiens!” she said, in her gay voice, “whose child is he now? Take him if
-you will, Gertrude, you who were always the first, who knew yourself in
-babies, who were more beloved than the stupid Giovanna. Take him, then,
-since he is to thee!”</p>
-
-<p>What a picture she would have made, standing there with the child, her
-great eyes flashing, her bosom expanded, looking down upon the plebeian
-pair before her with a triumphant smile! So Everard thought, who had
-entirely ranged himself on Giovanna’s side; and so thought poor Herbert,
-looking at her with his heart beating, his whole being in a ferment, his
-temper and his nerves worn to their utmost. He went away trembling from
-the sight, and beckoned Reine to him, and threw himself into a chair at
-the other end of the room.</p>
-
-<p>“What is all this rabble to us?” he cried querulously, when his sister
-answered his summons. “For heaven’s sake clear the house of
-strangers&mdash;get them away.”</p>
-
-<p>“All, Herbert?” said Reine, frightened.</p>
-
-<p>He made no further reply, but dismissed her with an impatient wave of
-his hand, and taking up a book, which she saw he held upside down, and
-which trembled in his hand, turned his back upon the new-comers who had
-so strangely invaded the house.</p>
-
-<p>As for these good people, they had nothing to say to this triumph of
-Giovanna. I suppose they had expected, as many innocent persons do, that
-by mere force of nature the child would turn to those who alone had a
-right to him. Gertrude, encumbered by her heavy travelling wraps,
-wearied, discouraged, and disappointed,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_449" id="page_449"></a>{449}</span> sat down and cried, her round
-face getting every moment more blurred and unrecognizable. M. Guillaume,
-however, though tired too, and feeling this reception very different
-from the distinguished one which he had received on his former visit,
-felt it necessary to maintain the family dignity.</p>
-
-<p>“I would speak with Madame Suzanne,” he said, turning to Reine, who
-approached. “Mademoiselle does not perhaps know that I am a relation, a
-next-of-kin. It is I, not the poor bébé, who am the next to succeed. I
-am Guillaume Austin, of Bruges. I would speak with Madame Suzanne. She
-will know how to deal with this insensée, this woman who keeps from my
-daughter her child.”</p>
-
-<p>“My aunt is&mdash;ill,” said Reine. “I don’t think she is able to see you.
-Will you come into another room and rest? and I will speak to Giovanna.
-You must want to rest&mdash;a little&mdash;and&mdash;something to eat&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>So far Reine’s hospitable instincts carried her; but when Stevens
-entered with a request from the driver of the cab which had brought the
-strangers hither, to know what he was to do, she could not make any
-reply to the look that M. Guillaume gave her. That look plainly implied
-a right to remain in the house, which made Reine tremble, and she
-pretended not to see that she was referred to. Then the old shopkeeper
-took it upon himself to send away the man. “Madame Suzanne would be
-uncontent, certainly uncontent, if I went away without to see her,” he
-said; “dismiss him then, mon ami. I will give you to pay&mdash;” and he
-pulled out a purse from his pocket. What could Reine do or say? She
-stood trembling, wondering how it was all to be arranged, what she could
-do; for though she was quite unaware of the withdrawal of Miss Susan,
-she felt that in this case it was her duty to act for her brother and
-herself. She went up to Giovanna softly, and touched her on the arm.</p>
-
-<p>“What are you going to do?” she said in a whisper. “Oh, Giovanna, have
-some pity upon us! Get them to go away. My Aunt Susan has been kind to
-you, and how could she see these people? Oh, get them to go away!”</p>
-
-<p>Giovanna looked down upon Reine, too, with the same triumphant smile.
-“You come also,” she said, “Mademoiselle Reine, you, too! to poor
-Giovanna, who was not good for anything.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_450" id="page_450"></a>{450}</span> Bien! It cannot be for
-to-night, but perhaps for to-morrow, for they are fatigued&mdash;that sees
-itself. Gertrude, to cry will do nothing; it will frighten the child
-more, who is, as you perceive, to me, not to thee. Smile, then&mdash;that
-will be more well&mdash;and come with me, petite sotte. Though thou wert not
-good to Giovanna, Giovanna will be more noble, and take care of thee.”</p>
-
-<p>She took hold of her sister-in-law as she spoke, half dragged her off
-her chair, and leading her with her disengaged hand, walked out of the
-room with the child on her shoulder. Reine heard the sound of an
-impatient sigh, and hurried to her brother’s side. But Herbert had his
-eyes firmly fixed upon the book, and when she came up to him waved her
-off.</p>
-
-<p>“Let me alone,” he said in his querulous tones, “cannot you let me
-alone!” Even the touch of tenderness was more than he could bear.</p>
-
-<p>Then it was Everard’s turn to exert himself, who had met M. Guillaume
-before, and with a little trouble got him to follow the others as far as
-the small dining-room, in which Reine had given orders for a hasty meal.
-M. Guillaume was not unwilling to enter into explanations. His poor
-wife, he said, had been ill for weeks past.</p>
-
-<p>“It was some mysterious attack of the nerves; no one could tell what it
-was,” the old man said. “I called doctor after doctor, if you will
-believe me, monsieur. I spared no expense. At last it was said to me,
-‘It is a priest that is wanted, not a doctor.’ I am Protestant,
-monsieur,” said the old shopkeeper seriously. “I replied with disdain,
-‘According to my faith, it is the husband, it is the father who is
-priest.’ I go to Madame Austin’s chamber. I say to her, ‘My wife,
-speak!’ Brief, monsieur, she spoke, that suffering angel, that martyr!
-She told us of the wickedness which Madame Suzanne and cette méchante
-planned, and how she was drawn to be one with them, pauvre chérie. Ah,
-monsieur, how women are weak! or when not weak, wicked. She told us all,
-monsieur, how she has been unhappy! and as soon as we could leave her,
-we came, Gertrude and I&mdash;for my part, I was not pressé&mdash;I said, ‘Thou
-hast many children, my Gertrude; leave then this one to be at the
-expense of those who have acted so vilely.’ And my poor angel said also
-from her sick-bed; but the young they are obstinate, they have no
-reason, and&mdash;behold us! We had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_451" id="page_451"></a>{451}</span> a bad, very bad traversée; and it
-appears that la jeune-là, whom I know not, would willingly send us back
-without the repose of an hour.”</p>
-
-<p>“You must pardon her,” said Everard. “We have been in great trouble, and
-she did not know even who you were.”</p>
-
-<p>“It seems to me,” said the old man, opening his coat with a flourish of
-offended dignity, “that in this house, which may soon be mine, all
-should know me. When I say I am Guillaume Austin of Bruges, what more
-rests to say?”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Monsieur Guillaume,” said Everard, upon whom these words, “this
-house, which may soon be mine,” made, in spite of himself, a highly
-disagreeable impression, “I have always heard that for yourself you
-cared nothing for it&mdash;would not have it indeed.”</p>
-
-<p>“I would not give that for it,” said the old man with a snap of his
-fingers; “a miserable grange, a maison du campagne, a thing of wood and
-stone! But one has one’s dignity and one’s rights.”</p>
-
-<p>And he elevated his old head, with a snort from the Austin nose, which
-he possessed in its most pronounced form. Everard did not know whether
-to take him by the shoulders and to turn him out of the house, or to
-laugh; but the latter was the easiest. The old shopkeeper was like an
-old cock strutting about the house which he despised. “I hate your
-England,” he said, “your rain, your Autumn, your old baraques which you
-call châteaux. For châteaux come to my country, come to the Pays Bas,
-monsieur. No, I would not change, I care not for your dirty England.
-But,” he added, “one has one’s dignity and one’s rights, all the same.”</p>
-
-<p>He was mollified, however, when Stevens came to help him off with his
-coats, and when Cook sent up the best she could supply on such short
-notice.</p>
-
-<p>“I thought perhaps, M. Austin, you would like to rest before&mdash;dinner,”
-said Reine, trembling as she said the last word. She hoped still that he
-would interrupt her, and add, “before we go.”</p>
-
-<p>But no such thought entered into M. Guillaume’s mind. He calculated on
-staying a few days now that he was here, as he had done before, and
-being made much of, as then. He inclined his head politely in answer to
-Reine’s remark, and said, Yes, he would be pleased to rest before
-dinner; the journey was long and very<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_452" id="page_452"></a>{452}</span> fatiguing. He thought even that
-after dinner he would retire at once, that he might be remis for
-to-morrow. “And I hope, mademoiselle, that your villanous weather will
-se remettre,” he added. “Bon Dieu, what it must be to live in this
-country! When the house comes to me, I will sell it, monsieur. The money
-will be more sweet elsewhere than in this vieux maison delabré, though
-it is so much to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you cannot sell it,” said Reine, flushing crimson, “if it ever
-should come to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who will prevent me?” said M. Guillaume. “Ah, your maudit law of
-heritage! Tiens! then I will pull it down, mademoiselle,” he said
-calmly, sipping the old claret, and making her a little bow.</p>
-
-<p>The reader may judge how agreeable M. Guillaume made himself with this
-kind of conversation. He was a great deal more at his ease than he had
-ever been with Miss Susan, of whom he stood in awe.</p>
-
-<p>“After this misfortune, this surprise,” he went on, “which has made so
-much to suffer my poor wife, it goes of my honor to take myself the
-place of heir. I cannot more make any arrangement, any bargain, monsieur
-perceives, that one should be able to say Guillaume Austin of Bruges
-deceived the world to put in his little son, against the law, to be the
-heir! Oh, these women, these women, how they are weak and wicked! When I
-heard of it I wept. I, a man, an old! my poor angel has so much
-suffered; I forgave her when I heard her tale; but that méchante, that
-Giovanna, who was the cause of all, how could I forgive&mdash;and Madame
-Suzanne? Apropos, where is Madame Suzanne? She comes not, I see her not.
-She is afraid, then, to present herself before me.”</p>
-
-<p>This was more than Reine’s self-denial could bear. “I do not know who
-you are,” she cried indignantly. “I never heard there were any Austins
-who were not gentlemen. Do not stop me, Everard. This house is my
-brother’s house, and I am his representative. We have nothing to do with
-you, heir or not heir, and know nothing about your children, or your
-wife, or any one belonging to you. For poor Giovanna’s sake, though no
-doubt you have driven her to do wrong through your cruelty, you shall
-have what you want for to-night. Miss Susan Austin afraid of <i>you</i>!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_453" id="page_453"></a>{453}</span>
-Everard, I cannot stay any longer to hear my family and my home
-insulted. See that they have what they want!” said the girl, ablaze with
-rage and indignation.</p>
-
-<p>M. Guillaume, perhaps, had been taking too much of the old claret in his
-fatigue, and he did not understand English very well when delivered with
-such force and rapidity. He looked after her with more surprise than
-anger when Reine, a little too audibly in her wrath, shut behind her the
-heavy oak door.</p>
-
-<p>“Eh bien?” he said. “Mademoiselle is irritable, n’est ce pas? And what
-did she mean, then, for Giovanna’s sake?”</p>
-
-<p>Everard held it to be needless to explain Reine’s innocent flourish of
-trumpets in favor of the culprit. He said, “Ah, that is the question.
-What do you mean to do about Giovanna, M. Guillaume?”</p>
-
-<p>“Do!” cried the old man, and he made a coarse but forcible gesture, as
-of putting something disagreeable out of his mouth, “she may die of
-hunger, as she said&mdash;by the road, by the fields&mdash;for anything she will
-get from me.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_454" id="page_454"></a>{454}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVII" id="CHAPTER_XLVII"></a>CHAPTER XLVII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">I</span> <small>NEED</small> not say that the condition of Whiteladies that evening was about
-as uncomfortable as could be conceived. Before dinner&mdash;a ceremonial at
-which Everard alone officiated, with the new-comers and Giovanna, all of
-whom ate a very good dinner&mdash;it had been discovered that Miss Susan had
-not gone to her own room, but to her new house, from which a messenger
-arrived for Martha in the darkening of the Winterly afternoon. The
-message was from Miss Augustine, written in her pointed, old-fashioned
-hand; and requesting that Martha would bring everything her mistress
-required for the night; Augustine forgot that she herself wanted
-anything. It was old John Simmons, from the Almshouses, who brought the
-note, and who told the household that Miss Augustine had been there as
-usual for the evening service. The intimation of this sudden removal
-fell like a thunderbolt upon the house. Martha, crying, packed her
-little box, and went off in the early darkness, not knowing, as she
-said, whether she was “on her head or her heels,” and thinking every
-tree a ghost as she went along the unfamiliar road, through the misty,
-dreary night. Herbert had retired to his room, where he would not admit
-even his sister, and Reine, sad and miserable, with a headache as well
-as a heartache, not knowing what was the next misfortune that might
-happen, wandered up and down all the evening through, fretting at
-Everard’s long absence, though she had begged him to undertake the
-duties of host, and longing to see Giovanna and talk to her, with a
-desire that was half liking and half hatred. Oh, how dared she, how
-dared she live among them with such a secret on her mind? Yet what was
-to become of her? Reine felt with a mixture of contempt and satisfaction
-that, so far as Herbert was concerned, Giovanna’s chances were all over
-forever. She flitted about the house, listening with wonder and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_455" id="page_455"></a>{455}</span> horror
-to the sound of voices from the dining-room, which were cheerful enough
-in the midst of the ruin and misery that these people had made. Reine
-was no more just, no more impartial, than the rest. She said to herself,
-“which <i>these people</i> had made,” and pitied poor Miss Susan whose heart
-was broken by it, just as M. Guillaume pitied his suffering angel, his
-poor wife. Reine on her side threw all the guilt upon that suffering
-angel. Poor Giovanna had done what she was told, but it was the wretched
-old woman, the vulgar schemer, the wicked old Fleming who had planned
-the lie in all its details, and had the courage to carry it out. All
-Reine’s heart flowed over with pity for the sinner who was her own. Poor
-Aunt Susan! what could she be thinking? how could she be feeling in the
-solitude of the strange new house! No doubt believing that the children
-to whom she had been so kind had abandoned her. It was all Reine could
-do to keep herself from going with Martha, to whom she gave a hundred
-messages of love. “Tell her I wanted to come with you, but could not
-because of the visitors. Tell her the old gentleman from Bruges&mdash;Bruges,
-Martha, you will not forget the name&mdash;came directly she had gone; and
-that I hope they are going away to-morrow, and that I will come to her
-at once. Give her my dear love, Martha,” cried the girl, following
-Martha out to the porch, and standing there in the darkness watching
-her, while Miss Susan’s maid walked out unwillingly into the night,
-followed by the under-gardener with her baggage. This was while the
-others were at dinner, and it was then that Reine saw the cheerful light
-through the great oriel window, and heard the voices sounding cheerful
-too, she thought, notwithstanding the strange scenes they had just gone
-through. She was so restless and so curious that she stole upstairs into
-the musicians’ gallery, to see what they were doing. Giovanna was the
-mistress of the situation still; but she seemed to be using her power in
-a merciful way. The serious part of the dinner was concluded, and little
-Jean was there, whom Giovanna&mdash;throwing sweetmeats across the table to
-Gertrude, who sat with her eyes fixed upon her as upon a goddess&mdash;was
-beguiling into recollection of and friendship with the new-comers.
-“C’est Maman Gertrude; c’est ton autre maman,” she was saying to the
-child. “Tiens, all the bonbons are with her. I have given all to her.
-Say ‘Maman Gertrude,’<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_456" id="page_456"></a>{456}</span> and she will give thee some.” There was a
-strained air of gayety and patronage about Giovanna, or so at least
-Reine thought, and she went away guiltily from this peep at them,
-feeling herself an eavesdropper, and thinking she saw Everard look up to
-the corner he too knew so well; and thus the evening passed, full of
-agitation and pain. When the strangers were got to their rooms at last,
-Everard found a little eager ghost, with great anxious eyes, upon the
-stairs waiting for him; and they had a long eager talk in whispers, as
-if anybody could hear them. “Giovanna is behaving like a brick,” said
-Everard. “She is doing all she can to content the child with the new
-people. Poor little beggar! I don’t wonder he kicks at it. She had her
-little triumph, poor girl, but she’s acting like a hero now. What do you
-think, Reine? Will Herbert go on with it in spite of all?”</p>
-
-<p>“If I were Herbert&mdash;” cried the girl, then stopped in her impulsive
-rapid outcry. “He is changed,” she said, tears coming to her eyes. “He
-is no longer my Bertie, Everard. No, we need not vex ourselves about
-that; we shall never hear of it any more.”</p>
-
-<p>“So much the better,” said Everard; “it never would have answered;
-though one does feel sorry for Giovanna. Reine, my darling, what a
-blessing that old Susan, God help her! had the courage to make a clean
-breast of it before these others came!”</p>
-
-<p>“I never thought of that,” said the girl, awestricken. “So it was, so it
-was! It must have been Providence that put it into her head.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was Herbert’s madness that put it into her head. How could he be
-such a fool! but it is curious, you know, what set both of them on it at
-the same time, that horrible old woman at Bruges, and <i>her</i> here. It
-looks like what they call a brain-wave,” said Everard, “though that
-throws a deal of light on the matter; don’t it? Queenie, you are as
-white as the China rose on the porch. I hope Julie is there to look
-after you. My poor little queen! I wonder why all this trouble should
-fall upon you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what is it to me in comparison?” said the girl, almost indignant;
-but he was so sorry for her, and his tender pity was in itself so sweet,
-that I think before they separated&mdash;her head still aching, though her
-heart was less sore&mdash;Reine, out of sympathy for him, had begun also to
-entertain a little pity for herself.</p>
-
-<p>The morning rose strangely on the disturbed household&mdash;rose<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_457" id="page_457"></a>{457}</span> impudently,
-without the least compassion for them, in a blaze of futile, too early
-sunshine, which faded after the first half of the day. The light seemed
-to look in mocking at the empty rooms in which Susan and Augustine had
-lived all their lives. Reine was early astir, unable to rest; and she
-had not been downstairs ten minutes when all sorts of references were
-made to her.</p>
-
-<p>“I should like to know, miss, if you please, who is to give the orders,
-if so be as Miss Susan have gone for good,” said Stevens; and Cook came
-up immediately after with her arms wrapped in her apron. “I won’t keep
-you not five minutes, miss; but if Miss Susan’s gone for good, I don’t
-know as I can find it convenient to stay. Where there’s gentlemen and a
-deal of company isn’t like a lady’s place, where there’s a quiet life,”
-said Cook. “Oh,” said Reine, driven to her wits’ end, “please, please,
-like good people, wait a little! How can I tell what we must do?” The
-old servants granted Reine the “little time” she begged, but they did it
-ungraciously and with a sure sense of supremacy over her. Happily she
-found a variety of trays with coffee going up to the strangers’ rooms,
-and found, to her great relief, that she would escape the misery of a
-breakfast with them; and François brought a message from Herbert to the
-effect that he was quite well, but meant to stay in his room till ces
-gens-là were out of the house. “May I not go to him?” cried Reine.
-“Monsieur is quite well,” François replied; “Mademoiselle may trust me.
-But it will be well to leave him till ce monsieur and ces dames have
-gone away.” And François too, though he was very kind to Mademoiselle
-Reine, gave her to understand that she should take precautions, and that
-Monsieur should not be exposed to scenes so trying; so that the
-household, with very good intentions, was hard upon Reine. And it was
-nearly noon before she saw anything of the other party, about whose
-departure she was so anxious. At last about twelve o’clock, perilously
-near the time of the train, she met Giovanna on the stairs. The young
-woman was pale, with the gayety and the triumph gone out of her. “I go
-to ask that the carriage may be ready,” said Giovanna. “They will go at
-midi, if Mademoiselle will send the carriage.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes,” said Reine, eagerly; “but you are ill, Giovanna; you are
-pale.” She added half timidly, after a moment, “What are you going to
-do?”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_458" id="page_458"></a>{458}</span></p>
-
-<p>Giovanna smiled with something of the bravado of the previous day. “I
-will derange no one,” she said; “Mademoiselle need not fear. I will not
-seek again those who have deserted me. C’est petit, ça!” she cried with
-a momentary outburst, waving her hand toward the door of Herbert’s room.
-Then controlling herself, “That they should go is best, n’est ce pas? I
-work for that. If Mademoiselle will give the orders for the carriage&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, yes,” said Reine, and then in her pity she laid her hand on
-Giovanna’s arm. “Giovanna, I am very sorry for you. I do not think you
-are the most to blame,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Blame!” said Giovanna, with a shrug of her shoulders, “I did as I was
-told.” Then two big tears came into her eyes. She put her white, large,
-shapely hands on Reine’s shoulders, and kissed her suddenly on both her
-cheeks. “You, you are good, you have a heart!” she said; “but to abandon
-the friends when they are in trouble, c’est petit, ça!” and with that
-she turned hastily and went back to her room. Reine, breathless, ran
-downstairs to order the carriage. She went to the door with her heart
-beating, and stood waiting to see what would happen, not knowing whether
-Giovanna’s kiss was to be taken as a farewell. Presently voices were
-heard approaching, and the whole party came downstairs; the old man in
-his big coat, with his cache-nez about his neck, Gertrude pale but
-happy, and last of all Giovanna, in her usual household dress, with the
-boy on her shoulder. Gertrude carried in her hand a large packet of
-bon-bons, and got hastily into the carriage, while her father stood
-bowing and making his little farewell speeches to Reine and Everard.
-Giovanna coming after them with her strong light step, her head erect,
-and the child, in his little velvet coat with his cap and feather,
-seated on her shoulder, his hand twisted in her hair, interested them
-more than all M. Guillaume’s speeches. Giovanna went past them to the
-carriage door; she had a flush upon her cheek which had been so pale.
-She put the child down upon Gertrude’s lap, and kissed him. “Mamma will
-come to Jean presently, in a moment,” she said. “Regarde donc! how much
-of bon-bons are in Mama Gertrude’s lap. Thou wilt eat them all, petit
-gourmand, and save none for me.”</p>
-
-<p>Then with a laugh and mocking menace she stepped back into a corner,
-where she was invisible to the child, and stood<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_459" id="page_459"></a>{459}</span> there motionless till
-the old man got in beside his daughter, and the carriage drove away. A
-little cry, wondering and wistful, “Mamma! mamma!” was the last sound
-audible as the wheels crashed over the gravel. Reine turned round,
-holding out her hands to the forlorn creature behind her, her heart full
-of pity. The tears were raining down in a storm from Giovanna’s eyes,
-but she laughed and shook them away. “Mon Dieu!” she cried, “I do not
-know why is this. Why should I love him? I am not his mother. But it is
-an attack of the nerfs&mdash;I cannot bear any more,” and drawing her hands
-out of Reine’s she fled with a strange shame and passion, through the
-dim passages. They heard her go upstairs, and, listening in some
-anxiety, after a few minutes’ interval, heard her moving about her room
-with brisk, active steps.</p>
-
-<p>“That is all right,” said Everard, with a sigh of relief. “Poor
-Giovanna! some one must be kind to her; but come in here and rest, my
-queen. All this is too much for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what is it to me in comparison?” cried Reine; but she suffered
-herself to be led into the drawing-room to be consoled and comforted,
-and to rest before anything more was done. She thought she kept an ear
-alert to listen for Giovanna’s movements, but I suppose Everard was
-talking too close to that ear to make it so lively as it ought to have
-been. At least before anything was heard by either of them, Giovanna in
-her turn had gone away.</p>
-
-<p>She came downstairs carefully, listening to make sure that no one was
-about. She had put up all her little possessions ready to be carried
-away. Pausing in the corridor above to make sure that all was quiet, she
-went down with her swift, light step, a step too firm and full of
-character to be noiseless, but too rapid at the present moment to risk
-awaking any spies. She went along the winding passages, and out through
-the great porch, and across the damp grass. The afternoon had begun to
-set in by this time, and the fading sunshine of the morning was over.
-When she had reached the outer gate she turned back to look at the
-house. Giovanna was not a person of taste; she thought not much more of
-Whiteladies than her father-in-law did. “Adieu, vieil baraque,” she
-said, kissing the tips of her fingers; but the half-contempt of her
-words was scarcely carried out by her face.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_460" id="page_460"></a>{460}</span> She was pale again, and her
-eyes were red. Though she had declared frankly that she saw no reason
-for loving little Jean, I suppose the child&mdash;whom she had determined to
-make fond of her, as it was not comme il faut that a mother and child
-should detest each other&mdash;had crept into her heart, though she professed
-not to know it. She had been crying, though she would not have admitted
-it, over his little empty bed, and those red rims to her eyes were the
-consequence. When she had made that farewell to the old walls she turned
-and went on, swiftly and lightly as a bird, skimming along the ground,
-her erect figure full of health and beautiful strength, vigor, and
-unconscious grace. She looked strong enough for anything, her firm foot
-ringing in perfect measure on the path, like a Roman woman in a
-procession, straight and noble, more vigorous, more practical, more
-alive than the Greek; fit to be made a statue of or a picture; to carry
-water-jars or grape-baskets, or children; almost to till the ground or
-sit upon a throne. The air cleared away the redness from her eyes, and
-brought color back to her cheeks. The <i>grand air</i>, the plein jour, words
-in which, for once in a way, the French excel us in the fine abundance
-and greatness of the ideas suggested, suited Giovanna; though she loved
-comfort too, and could be as indolent as heart could desire. But to-day
-she wanted the movement, the sense of rapid progress. She wore her usual
-morning-dress of heavy blue serge, so dark as to be almost black, with a
-kind of cloak of the same material, the end of which was thrown over the
-shoulder in a fashion of her own. The dress was perfectly simple,
-without flounce or twist of any kind in its long lines. Such a woman, so
-strong, so swift, so dauntless, carrying her head with such a light and
-noble grace, might have been a queen’s messenger, bound on affairs of
-life and death, carrying pardon and largesse or laws and noble
-ordinances of state from some throned Ida, some visionary princess.
-Though she did not know her way, she went straight on, finding it by
-instinct, seeing the high roof and old red walls of the Grange ever so
-far off, as only her penetrating eyes and noble height could have
-managed to see. She recovered her spirits as she walked on, and nodded
-and smiled with careless good-humor to the women in the village, who
-came to their doors to look after her, moved by that vague consciousness
-which somehow gets into the very atmosphere, of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_461" id="page_461"></a>{461}</span> something going on at
-Whiteladies. “Something’s up,” they all said; though how they knew I
-cannot tell, nor could they themselves have told.</p>
-
-<p>The gate of the Grange, which was surrounded by shrubberies, stood open,
-and so did the door of the house, as generally happens when there has
-been a removal; for servants and workpeople have a fine sense of
-appropriateness, and prefer to be and to look as uncomfortable as
-possible at such a crisis. Giovanna went in without a moment’s
-hesitation. The door opened into a square hall, which gave entrance to
-several rooms, the sitting-rooms of the house. One of these doors only
-was shut, and this Giovanna divined must be the one occupied. She
-neither paused nor knocked nor asked admittance, but went straight to
-it, and opening the door, walked, without a word, into the room in
-which, as she supposed, Miss Susan was. She was not noiseless, as I have
-said; there was nothing of the cat about her; her foot sounded light and
-regular with a frankness beyond all thought of stealth. The sound of it
-had already roused the lonely occupant of the room. Miss Susan was lying
-on a sofa, worn out with the storm of yesterday, and looking old and
-feeble. She raised herself on her elbow, wondering who it was; and it
-startled her, no doubt, to see this young woman enter, who was, I
-suppose, the last person in the world she expected to see.</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna, you!” she cried, and a strange shock ran through her, half of
-pain&mdash;for Reine <i>might</i> have come by this time, she could not but
-think&mdash;yet strangely mixed, she could not tell how, with a tinge of
-pleasure too.</p>
-
-<p>“Madame Suzanne, yes,” said Giovanna, “it is me. I know not what you
-will think. I come back to you, though you have cast me away. All the
-world also has cast me away,” she added with a smile; “I have no one to
-whom I can go; but I am strong, I am young; I am not a lady, as you say.
-I know to do many things that ladies cannot do. I can frotter and brush
-when it is necessary. I can make the garden; I can conduct your
-carriage; many things more that I need not name. Even I can make the
-kitchen, or the robes when it is necessary. I come to say, Take me then
-for your butlaire, like old Stefan. I am more strong than he; I do many
-more things. Ecoutez, Madame Suzanne! I am alone, very alone; I know not
-what may come to me, but one<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_462" id="page_462"></a>{462}</span> perishes not when one can work. It is not
-for that I come. It is that I have de l’amitié for you.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan made an incredulous exclamation, and shook her head; though I
-think there was a sentiment of a very different, and, considering all
-the circumstances, very strange character, rising in her heart.</p>
-
-<p>“You believe me not? Bien!” said Giovanna, “nevertheless, it is true.
-You have not loved me&mdash;which, perhaps, it is not possible that one
-should love me; you have looked at me as your enemy. Yes, it was tout
-naturel. Notwithstanding, you were kind. You spared nothing,” said the
-practical Giovanna. “I had to eat and to drink like you; you did not
-refuse the robes when I needed them. You were good, all good for me;
-though you did not love me. Eh bien, Madame Suzanne,” she said,
-suddenly, the tears coming to her eyes, “I love you! You may not believe
-it, but it is true.”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna! I don’t know what to say to you,” faltered Miss Susan,
-feeling some moisture start into the corners of her own eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Ecoutez,” she said again; “is it that you know what has happened since
-you went away? Madame Suzanne, it is true that I wished to be Madame
-Herbert, that I tried to make him love me. Was it not tout naturel? He
-was rich, and I had not a sou, and it is pleasant to be grande dame,
-great ladye, to have all that one can desire. Mon Dieu, how that is
-agreeable! I made great effort, I deny it not. D’ailieurs, it was very
-necessary that the petit should be put out of the way. Look you, that is
-all over. He abandons me. He regards me not, even; says not one word of
-pity when I had the most great need. Allez,” cried Giovanna,
-indignantly, her eyes flashing, “c’est petit, ça!” She made a pause,
-with a great expansion and heave of her breast, then resumed. “But,
-Madame Suzanne, although it happened all like that, I am glad, glad&mdash;I
-thank the bon Dieu on my knees&mdash;that you did speak it then, not now,
-that day, not this; that you have not lose the moment, the just moment.
-For that I thank the bon Dieu.”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna, I hope the bon Dieu will forgive us,” Miss Susan said, very
-humbly, putting her hands across her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope so also,” said Giovanna cheerfully, as if that matter were not
-one which disturbed her very much; “but it was good,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_463" id="page_463"></a>{463}</span> good that you
-spoke the first. The belle-mère had also remorse; she had bien de quoi!
-She sent them to say all, to take back&mdash;the child. Madame Suzanne,”
-cried Giovanna, “listen; I have given him back to Gertrude; I have
-taught him to be sage with her; I have made to smile her and the
-beau-père, and showed bounty to them. All that they would I have done,
-and asked nothing; for what? that they might go away, that they might
-not vex personne, that there might not be so much of talk. Tenez, Madame
-Suzanne! And they go when I am weary with to speak, with to smile, with
-to make excuse&mdash;they go, enfin! and I return to my chamber, and the
-little bed is empty, and the petit is gone away!”</p>
-
-<p>There was no chair near her on which she could sit down, and at this
-point she dropped upon the floor and cried, the tears falling in a
-sudden storm over her cheeks. They had long been gathering, making her
-eyes hot and heavy. Poor Giovanna! She cried like a child with keen
-emotion, which found relief in that violent utterance. “N’importe!” she
-said, struggling against the momentary passion, forcing a tremulous
-smile upon the mouth which quivered, “n’importe! I shall get over it;
-but figure to yourself the place empty, empty! and so still! Why should
-I care? I am not his mother,” said Giovanna; and wept as if her heart
-would break.</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan rose from her sofa. She was weak and tottered as she got up.
-She went to Giovanna’s side, laid her hand on her head, and stooping
-over her, kissed her on the forehead. “Poor thing! poor thing!” she
-said, in a trembling voice, “this is my doing, too.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is nothing, nothing!” cried Giovanna, springing up and shaking back
-a loose lock of her black hair. “Now, I will go and see what is to do.
-Put thyself on the sofa, Madame Suzanne. Ah, pardon! I said it without
-thought.”</p>
-
-<p>Miss Susan did not understand what it was for which Giovanna begged
-pardon. It did not occur to her that the use of the second person could,
-in any case, be sin; but Giovanna, utterly shocked and appalled at her
-own temerity, blushed crimson, and almost forgot little Jean. She led
-Miss Susan back to the sofa, and placed her there with the utmost
-tenderness. “Madame Suzanne must not think that it was more than an
-inadvertence, a fault of excitement, that I could take it upon me to say
-<i>thee</i> to my superior.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_464" id="page_464"></a>{464}</span> Oh, pardon! a thousand times. Now, I go to bring
-you of the thé, to shut the door close, to make quiet the people, that
-all shall be as Viteladies. I am Madame Suzanne’s servant from this
-hour.”</p>
-
-<p>“Giovanna,” said Miss Susan, who, just at this moment, was very easily
-agitated, and did not so easily recover herself, “I do not say no. We
-have done wrong together; we will try to be good together. I have made
-you suffer, too; but, Giovanna, remember, there must be nothing more of
-<i>that</i>. You must promise me that all shall be over between you and
-Herbert.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bah!” said Giovanna, with a gesture of disgust. “Me, I suffered, as
-Madame Suzanne says; and he saw, and never said a word; not so much as,
-‘Poor Giovanna!’ Allez! c’est petit, ça!” cried the young woman, tossing
-her fine head aloft with a pride of nature that sat well on her. Then
-she turned, smiling to Miss Susan on the sofa. “Rest, my mistress,” she
-said, softly, with quaint distinctness of pronunciation. “Mademoiselle
-will soon be here to talk, and make everything plain to you. I go to
-bring of the thé, me.”<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_465" id="page_465"></a>{465}</span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XLVIII" id="CHAPTER_XLVIII"></a>CHAPTER XLVIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">H</span><span class="smcap">erbert</span> came into the drawing-room almost immediately after Giovanna
-left. Francis had watched the carriage go off, and I suppose he thought
-that Giovanna was in it with the others, and his master, feeling free
-and safe, went down stairs. Herbert had not been the least sufferer in
-that eventful day and night. He had been sadly weakened by a course of
-flattery, and had got to consider himself, in a sense, the centre of the
-world. Invalidism, by itself, is nearly enough to produce this feeling;
-and when, upon a long invalid life, was built the superstructure of
-sudden consequence and freedom, the dazzling influence of unhoped for
-prosperity and well-being, the worship to which every young man of
-wealth and position is more or less subjected, the wooing of his
-cousins, the downright flattery of Giovanna, the reader will easily
-perceive how the young man’s head, was turned, not being a strong head
-by nature. I think (though I express the opinion with diffidence, not
-having studied the subject) that it is your vain man, your man whose
-sense of self-importance is very elevated, who feels a deception most
-bitterly. The more healthy soul regrets and suffers, but does not feel
-the same sting in the wound, that he does to whom a sin against himself
-is the one thing unpardonable. Herbert took the story of Giovanna’s
-deception thus, as an offence against himself. That she should have
-deceived others, was little in comparison; but him! that he should be,
-as it were, the centre of this plot, surrounded by people who had
-planned and conspired in such pitiful ways! His pride was too deeply
-hurt, his self-importance too rudely shaken, to leave him free to any
-access of pity or consideration for the culprits. He was not sorry even
-for Miss Susan; and toward Giovanna and her strange relatives, and the
-hideous interruption to his comfort and calm which they produced,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_466" id="page_466"></a>{466}</span> he
-had no pity. Nor was he able to discriminate between her ordinary
-character and this one evil which she had done. Being once lowered in
-his imagination, she fell altogether, his chief attraction to her,
-indeed, being her beauty, which heretofore had dazzled and kept him from
-any inquiry into her other qualities. Now he gave Giovanna no credit for
-any qualities at all. His wrath was hot and fierce against her. She had
-taken him in, defrauded him of those, tender words and caresses which he
-never, had he known it, would have wasted on such a woman. She had
-humbled him in his own opinion, had made him feel thus that he was not
-the great person he had supposed; for her interested motives, which were
-now evident, were so many detractions from his glory, which he had
-supposed had drawn her toward him, as flowers are drawn to the sun. He
-had so low an opinion of her after this discovery, that he was afraid to
-venture out of his room, lest he should be exposed to some encounter
-with her, and to the tears and prayers his embittered vanity supposed
-she must be waiting to address to him. This was the chief reason of his
-retirement, and he was so angry that Reine and Everard should still keep
-all their wits about them, notwithstanding that he had been thus
-insulted and wounded, and could show feeling for others, and put up with
-those detestable visitors, that he almost felt that they too must be
-included in the conspiracy. It was necessary, indeed, that the visitors
-should be looked after, and even (his reason allowed) conciliated to a
-certain extent, to get them away; but still, that his sister should be
-able to do it, irritated Herbert. He came down, accordingly, in anything
-but a gracious state of mind. Poor fellow! I suppose his sudden downfall
-from the (supposed) highest level of human importance, respected and
-feared and loved by everybody, to the chastened grandeur of one who was
-first with nobody, though master of all; and who was not of paramount
-personal importance to any one, had stung him almost beyond bearing.
-Miss Susan whom he felt he had treated generously, had deceived, then
-left him without a word. Reine, to whom, perhaps, he had not been kind,
-had stolen away, out of his power to affect her in any primary degree,
-had found a new refuge for herself; and Giovanna, to whom he had given
-that inestimable treasure of his love? Poor Herbert’s heart was sore and
-sick, and full of mortified feeling. No wonder he was querulous and
-irritable. He came into the room where the lovers were, offended even by
-the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_467" id="page_467"></a>{467}</span> sight of them together. When they dropped apart at his entrance, he
-was more angry still. Indeed, he felt angry at anything, ready to fight
-with a fly.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t let me disturb you,” he said; “though, indeed, if you don’t mind,
-and can put up with it for a few minutes, I should be glad to speak to
-you together. I have been thinking that it is impossible for me to go on
-in this way, you know. Evidently, England will not do for me. It is not
-October yet, and see what weather! I cannot bear it. It is a necessity
-of my nature, putting health out of the question, to have sunshine and
-brightness. I see nothing for it but to go abroad.”</p>
-
-<p>Reine’s heart gave a painful leap. She looked at Everard with a wistful
-question in her eyes. “Dear Bertie, if you think so,” she said
-faltering, “of course I will not object to what you like best. But might
-we not first consult the doctors? You were so well before that night.
-Oh, Bertie, you know I would never set myself against what was best for
-you&mdash;but I <i>should</i> like to stay at home, just for a little; and the
-weather will get better. October is generally fine, is it not, Everard?
-You ought to know&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t understand me,” said Herbert again. “You may stay at home as
-much as you like. You don’t suppose I want <i>you</i> to go. Look here, I
-suppose I may speak plainly to two people engaged to each other, as you
-are. Why shouldn’t you marry directly, and be done with it? Then you
-could live on at Whiteladies, and Everard could manage the property: he
-wants something to do&mdash;which would leave me free to follow my
-inclinations, and live abroad.”</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie!” cried Reine, crimson with surprise and pain.</p>
-
-<p>“Well! is there anything to make a fuss about? You mean to be married, I
-suppose. Why wait? It might be got over, surely, in a month or so. And
-then, Reine being disposed of,” he went on with the most curious
-unconsciousness, “would not need to be any burden on me; she would want
-no brother to look after her. I could move about as I please, which a
-man never can do when he has to drag a lady after him. I think my plan
-is a very good plan, and why you should find any fault with it,
-Reine&mdash;you for whose benefit it is&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Reine said nothing. Tears of mortification different from her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_468" id="page_468"></a>{468}</span> brother’s
-came into her eyes. Perhaps the mortification was unreasonable; for,
-indeed, a sister who allows herself to be betrothed does in a way take
-the first step in abandoning her brother! But to be cast off in this
-cool and sudden way went to her heart, notwithstanding the strong moral
-support she had of Everard behind her. She had served, and (though he
-was not aware of it) protected, and guided for so long the helpless lad,
-whose entire comfort had depended on her. And even Everard could not
-console her for this sudden, almost contemptuous, almost insolent
-dismissal. With her face crimson and her heart beating, she turned away
-from her ungrateful brother.</p>
-
-<p>“You ought not to speak to me so,” cried the girl with bitter tears in
-her eyes. “You should not throw me off like an old glove; it is not your
-part, Bertie.” And with her heart very heavy and sore, and her quick
-temper aflame, she hurried away out of the room, leaving them; and, like
-the others who had gone before, set off by the same oft-trodden road,
-through the village, to the Grange. Already Miss Susan’s new home had
-become the general family refuge from all evil.</p>
-
-<p>When Reine was gone, Bertie’s irritation subdued itself; for one man’s
-excited temper cannot but subdue itself speedily, when it has to beat
-against the blank wall of another man’s indifference. Everard did not
-care so very much if he was angry or not. He could afford to let Herbert
-and all the rest of the world cool down, and take their own way. He was
-sorry for the poor boy, but his temper did not affect deeply the elder
-man; his elder in years, and twice his elder in experience. Herbert soon
-calmed down under this process, and then they had a long and serious
-conversation. Nor did Everard think the proposal at all unreasonable.
-From disgust, or temper, or disappointment, or for health’s sake&mdash;what
-did it matter which?&mdash;the master of Whiteladies had determined to go
-abroad. And what so natural as that Reine’s marriage should take place
-early, there being no reason whatever why they should wait; or that
-Everard, as her husband, and himself the heir presumptive, should manage
-the property, and live with his wife in the old house? The proposal had
-not been delicately made, but it was kind enough. Everard forgave the
-roughness more readily than Reine could do, and accepted the good-will
-heartily, taking it for granted that brotherly kindness was its chief
-motive.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_469" id="page_469"></a>{469}</span> He undertook to convince Reine that nothing could be more
-reasonable, nothing more kind.</p>
-
-<p>“It removes the only obstacle that was in our way,” said Everard,
-grasping his cousin’s hand warmly. “God bless you, Bertie. I hope you’ll
-some time be as happy&mdash;more happy you can’t be.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Bertie took this salutation but grimly, wincing from every such
-touch, but refused at once Everard’s proposal that they should follow
-Reine to see Miss Susan.</p>
-
-<p>“You may go if you like,” he said; “people feel things in different
-ways, some deeper, some more lightly. I don’t blame you, but I can’t do
-it. I couldn’t speak to her if she were here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Send her a message, at least,” said Everard; “one word;&mdash;that you
-forgive her.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t forgive her!” cried the young man, hurrying back to the shelter
-of his room, where he shut himself up with François. “To-morrow we shall
-leave this cursed place,” he said in his anger to that faithful servant.
-“I cannot bear it another day.”</p>
-
-<p>Everard followed Reine to the Grange, and the first sight he saw made
-him thank heaven that Herbert was not of the party. Giovanna opened the
-door, to him, smiling and at her ease. She ushered him into Miss Susan’s
-sitting-room, then disappeared, and came back, bringing more tea,
-serving every one. She was thoroughly in her element, moving briskly
-about the old new house, arranging the furniture, which as yet was mere
-dead furniture without any associations, making a new Whiteladies out of
-the unfamiliar place.</p>
-
-<p>“It is like a conte des fées, but it is true,” she said. “I have always
-had de l’amitié for Madame Suzanne, now I shall hold the ménage, me. I
-shall do all things that she wishes. Tiens! it is what I was made for,
-Monsieur Everard. I am not born ladye, as you say. I am peuple, très
-peuple. I can work. Mon Dieu, who else has been kind to me? Not one. As
-for persons who abandon a friend when they have great need, <i>that</i> for
-them!” said Giovanna, snapping her fingers, her eyes flashing, her face
-reddening. “C’est petit, ça!”</p>
-
-<p>And there she remains, and has done for years. I am afraid she is not
-half so penitent as she ought to be for the almost crime<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_470" id="page_470"></a>{470}</span> which, in
-conjunction with the others, she carried out so successfully for a time.
-She shrugs her shoulders when by chance, in the seclusion of the family,
-any one refers to it; but the sin never lay very heavy on her
-conscience. Nor does it affect her tranquillity now. Neither is she
-ashamed of her pursuit of Herbert, which, so long as it lasted, seemed
-tout simple to the young woman. And I do not think she is at all
-conscious that it was he who threw her over, but rather has the
-satisfaction of feeling that her own disgust at his petitesse ended the
-matter. But while she has no such feeling as she ought to have for these
-enormities, she does feel deeply, and mentions sometimes with a burning
-blush of self-reproach, that once in an unguarded moment she addressed
-Miss Susan as “Thou!” This sin Giovanna will not easily forgive herself,
-and never, I think, will forget. So it cannot be said that she is
-without conscience, after all.</p>
-
-<p>And a more active, notable, delightful housewife could not be. She sings
-about the house till the old Grange rings with her magnificent voice.
-She sings when there is what she calls high mass in the Chantry, so that
-the country people from ever so many miles off come to hear her; and
-just as sweetly, and with still more energy, she sings in the Almshouse
-chapel, delighting the poor folks. She likes the hymns which are
-slightly “Methody,” the same ones that old Mrs. Matthews prefers, and
-rings the bell with her strong arm for old Tolladay when he has his
-rheumatism, and carries huge baskets of good things for the sick folk,
-and likes it. They say she is the handsomest woman in St. Austin’s
-parish, or in the county, some people think; and it is whispered in the
-Almshouses that she has had very fine “offers” indeed, had she liked to
-take them. I myself know for a fact that the rector, a man of the finest
-taste, of good family, and elegant manners, and fastidious mind, laid
-himself and all his attributes at the feet of this Diana, but in vain.
-And at the first sight of her the young priest of the Chantry, Dr.
-Richard’s nephew, gave up, without a struggle, that favorite doctrine of
-clerical celibacy, at which his uncle had aimed every weapon of reason
-and ridicule for years in vain. Giovanna slew this fashionable heresy in
-the curate’s breast with one laughing look out of her great eyes. But
-she would not have him, all the same, any more than the rector, but
-laughed and cried out, “Toi! I will be thy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_471" id="page_471"></a>{471}</span> mother, mon fils.”
-Fortunately the curate knew little French, and never quite made out what
-she had said.</p>
-
-<p>As for Miss Susan, though her health continued good, she never quite
-recovered her activity and vigor. She did recover her peace of mind
-completely, and is only entering the period of conscious old age now,
-after an interval of years, very contented and happy. Whiteladies, she
-declares, only failed her when her strength failed to manage it; and the
-old Grange has become the cheerfullest and brightest of homes. I am not
-sure even that sometimes, when her mind is a little confused, as all
-minds will be now and then, Miss Susan has not a moment’s doubt whether
-the great wickedness of her life has not been one of those things which
-“work together for good,” as Augustine says. But she feels that this is
-a terrible doctrine, and “will not do,” opening the door to all kinds of
-speculations, and affording a frightful precedent. Still, but for this
-great sin of hers, she never would have had Giovanna’s strong kind arm
-to lean upon, nor her cheery presence to make the house lively and
-sweet. Even Augustine feels a certain comfort in that cheery presence,
-notwithstanding that her wants are so few, and her habits so imperative,
-putting her life beyond the power of change or misfortune; for no change
-can ever deprive her of the Almshouses. Even on that exciting day when
-the sisters went forth from Whiteladies, like the first pair from
-Paradise, though affection and awakened interest brought Augustine for a
-moment to the head of affairs, and made her the support and stay of her
-stronger companion, she went to her Almshouse service all the same,
-after she had placed Susan on the sofa and kissed her, and written the
-note to Martha about her night-things. She did her duty bravely, and
-without shrinking;&mdash;then went to the Almshouses&mdash;and so continued all
-the rest of her life.</p>
-
-<p>Herbert, notwithstanding his threat to leave the place next day, stayed
-against his will till Reine was married, which she consented to be after
-awhile, without unnecessary delay. He saw Miss Susan only on the wedding
-day, when he touched her hand coldly, and talked of la pluie et le beau
-temps, as if she had been a stranger. Nothing could induce him to resume
-the old cordial relations with one who had so deceived him; and no doubt
-there will be people who will think Herbert in the right. Indeed, if I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_472" id="page_472"></a>{472}</span>
-did not think that Miss Susan had been very fully punished during the
-time when she was unsuspected, and carried her Inferno about with her in
-her own bosom, without any one knowing, I should be disposed to think
-she got off much too easily after her confession was made; for as soon
-as the story was told, and the wrong set right, she became comparatively
-happy&mdash;really happy, indeed&mdash;in the great and blessed sense of relief;
-and no one (except Herbert) was hard upon her. The tale scarcely crept
-out at all in the neighborhood. There was something curious, people
-said, but even the best-informed believed it to be only one of those
-quarrels which, alas! occur now and then even in the best-regulated
-families. Herbert went about the county, paying his farewell visits; and
-there was a fair assemblage of wealth and fashion at Reine’s marriage,
-which was performed in the Austin Chantry, in presence of all their
-connections. Then Herbert went abroad, partly for his health, partly
-because he preferred the freer and gayer life of the Continent, to which
-he had been so long accustomed, people said. He does not often return,
-and he is rather fretful, perhaps, in his temper, and dilettante in his
-tastes, with the look, some ladies say, of “a confirmed bachelor.” I
-don’t know, for my part, what that look is, nor how much it is to be
-trusted to; but, meanwhile, it suits Everard and Reine very well to live
-at Whiteladies and manage the property. And Miss Augustine is already
-seriously preparing for the task she has so long contemplated, the
-education of an heir. Unfortunately, Reine has only a girl yet, which is
-a disappointment; but better days may come.</p>
-
-<p>As for the Farrel-Austins, they sold the Hatch after their father’s
-death, and broke up the lively society there. Kate married her
-middle-aged Major as soon after as decency would permit, and Sophy
-accompanied them to the Continent, where they met Herbert at various gay
-and much-frequented places. Nothing, however, came of this; but, after
-all, at the end of years, Lord Alf, once in the ascendant in Sophy’s
-firmament, turned up very much out at elbows, at a German
-watering-place, and Sophy, who had a comfortable income, was content to
-buy his poor little title with it. The marriage was not very happy, but
-she said, and I hope thought, that he was her first love, and that this
-was the romance of her life. Mrs. Farrel-Austin, strange to tell, got<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_473" id="page_473"></a>{473}</span>
-better&mdash;quite better, as we say in Scotland&mdash;though she retained an
-inclination toward tonics as long as she lived.</p>
-
-<p>Old M. Guillaume Austin of Bruges was gathered to his fathers last year,
-so that all danger from his heirship is happily over. His daughter
-Gertrude has so many children, that a covert proposal has been made, I
-understand, to Miss Susan and Giovanna to have little Jean restored to
-them if they wish it. But he is associated with too many painful
-recollections to be pleasing to Miss Susan, and Giovanna’s robust
-organization has long ago surmounted that momentary wound of parting.
-Besides, is not Whiteladies close by, with little Queenie in the nursery
-already, and who knows what superior hopes?</p>
-
-<p class="c">THE END.</p>
-
-<hr class="full" />
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