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-The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Little House, by Coningsby Dawson
-
-This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere in the United States and most
-other parts of the world at no cost and with almost no restrictions
-whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms of
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-
-Title: The Little House
-
-Author: Coningsby Dawson
-
-Illustrator: Stella Langdale
-
-Release Date: October 21, 2015 [EBook #50274]
-Last Updated: March 12, 2018
-
-Language: English
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-Character set encoding: UTF-8
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-*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE LITTLE HOUSE ***
-
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-
-
-Produced by David Widger from page images generously
-provided by the Internet Archive
-
-
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-
-
-
-
-THE LITTLE HOUSE
-
-By Coningsby Dawson
-
-With Illustrations By Stella Langdale
-
-New York: John Lane Company
-
-1920
-
-
-
-
-[Illustration: 0001]
-
-[Illustration: 0008]
-
-[Illustration: 0009]
-
-
-TO
-
-THE LITTLE LADY
-
-
-
-
-
-THE LITTLE HOUSE
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I
-
-[Illustration: 9017]
-
-HE little house, tell this story. It was lived within my walls; not a
-line is invented and it was I, by my interfering, who brought about the
-happy ending. Who wants a story that does not end happily, especially a
-Christmas story? To have been responsible for the happy ending is pretty
-nearly as clever as to have made the story up out of one's own head or,
-as we houses say, out of one's own walls.
-
-Perhaps you never heard before of a house telling a story. If that be
-so, it is because you don't listen or because you go to bed too early.
-Unlike people, we houses sleep all day long; but after midnight we wake
-up and talk. When the clock strikes twelve, our stairs begin to crack
-and our windows to rattle and our floors to creak. If you ever hear
-these sounds, don't be frightened; they simply mean that the kind old
-walls that shelter you have begun to remember and to think. And we have
-so many things to remember and to think about, especially we old houses
-who have been standing for almost two hundred years. We have seen so
-much; we have been the friends of so many generations. More little
-children have been born beneath our roofs than we have stairs on which
-to count. We reckon things on our stairs, just as people reckon things
-on their fingers. When our stairs crack after midnight, it's usually
-because we're counting' the births and love-makings and marriages we
-have watched. We very often get them wrong because there are so many of
-them. Then the doors and windows and floors will chip in to correct us.
-“Ha,” a window will rattle, “you've forgotten the little girl who used
-to gaze through my panes in 1760 or thereabouts.” One of the doors will
-swing slowly on its hinges and, if anyone disputes with it, will bang,
-shouting angrily, “Wrong again--all wrong.” Then the walls and the
-windows and the doors and the floors all start whispering, trying to
-add up correctly the joys and sorrows they have witnessed in the years
-beyond recall.
-
-[Illustration: 0019]
-
-When that happens, if you're awake and listening, you'll hear us start
-adding afresh, from the lowest to the topmost stair.
-
-I am a London house and a very little house, standing in a fashionable
-square near Hyde Park. I have known my ups and downs. Once was the time
-when I was almost in the country and the link-boys used to make a fuss
-at having to escort my lady so far in her sedan-chair. It's a long way
-to the country now, for the city has spread out miles beyond me. Within
-sight through the trees at the end of the square red motor-buses pass,
-bumping their way rowdily down to Hammersmith and Kew. In my young days
-these places were villages, but I am told they are full of noises now.
-I have at least escaped that, for our square is a backwater of quiet and
-leads to nowhere, having an entrance only at one end. All the houses
-in the square were built at the same time as I was, which makes things
-companionable. We all look very much alike, with tiny areas, three stone
-steps leading up from the pavement, one window blinking out from the
-ground-floor, two blinking out from each of the other floors and a
-verandah running straight across us. In summer-time the verandah is
-gay with flowers. Our only difference is the colour we are painted,
-especially the colour of our doors. Mine is white; but some of our
-neighbours' are blue, some green, some red. We're very proud of the
-front-doors in our square. In the middle stands a railed-in garden,
-to which none but our owners have access. Its trees are as ancient as
-ourselves. Behind us, so hidden that it is almost forgotten, stands
-the grey parish-church, surrounded by a graveyard in which many of the
-people who have been merry in us rest.
-
-For some years we were what is known as a “gone down neighborhood,”
- till a gentleman who writes books bought us cheap, put us in repair and
-rented us to his friends. This has made us very select; since then we
-have become again fashionable.
-
-Now you know all that is necessary to form a mental picture of us.
-Because we are so small, we are sometimes spoken of as “Dolls' House
-Square.” All the things that I shall tell you I do not pretend to
-have witnessed, for houses have to spend their lives always in the one
-place--they cannot ride in taxis and move about. We gain our knowledge
-of how the world is changing by listening to the conversations of people
-who inhabit us; when night has fallen we mutter among ourselves, passing
-on to one another beneath the starlight down the lamp-lit streets
-the gossip we have overheard. Whatever of importance we miss, the
-churchbells tell us. Big Ben, with his sweet tenor voice, booming out
-the hours, is in this respect particularly thoughtful.
-
-[Illustration: 0025]
-
-So now, having explained myself, I come to my story of the little lady
-who needed to be loved, but did not know it, and the wounded officer who
-wanted rest.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
-[Illustration: 9029]
-
-HE little lady who needed to be loved, but did not know it, discovered
-me quite by accident. This story is a series of accidents; if it had
-not been for the _ifs_ and the _perhaps's_ and the _possibilities_ there
-wouldn't have been any story to tell.
-
-I was empty when she found me, for my late tenants had grown frightened
-and had moved into the country on account of airraids. They said that I
-was too near the giant searchlights and anti-aircraft guns of Hyde Park
-Corner to be healthy. If they weren't killed by bombs, sooner or later
-they would be struck by our own expended shell-cases that came toppling
-from two miles out of the clouds. So they had made their exit hurriedly
-in November, taking all their furniture and leaving me to spend my
-one-hundred-and-ninety-eighth Christmas in the company of a caretaker.
-
-It was shortly before Christmas when I first saw her. Night had settled
-peacefully down; it was about nine o'clock when the maroons and sirens
-began to give warning that the enemy was approaching. In an instant,
-like a lamp extinguished, the lights of London flickered and sank. Down
-the forests of streets innumerable doors swiftly opened and people came
-pattering out. Dragging half-clad children by the hand and carrying
-babies snatched up from their warm beds, they commenced to run hither
-and thither, seeking the faint red lights of shelters, where cellars and
-overhead protection might be found. Policemen, mounted on bicycles, rode
-up and down the thoroughfares, blowing whistles. Ambulances dashed by,
-tooting horns and clanging bells. From far and near out of the swamp
-of darkness rose a medley of panic and sound. Prodding the sky, like
-detectives with lanterns, searchlights hunted and turned back the edges
-of the clouds. Then ominously, with solemn anger, the guns opened up
-and in fierce defiance the first bomb fell. The pattering of feet ceased
-suddenly. Streets grew forlorn and empty. The commotion of living and
-the terror of dying were transferred from the earth to the air.
-
-I was standing deserted with my door wide open, for at the first signs
-of clamour the old woman, who was supposed to take care of me, had
-hobbled up from her basement and out on to the pavement in search of the
-nearest Tube Station. In her fear for her safety, she had forgotten to
-close my door, so there I stood with the damp air drifting into my hall,
-at the mercy of any chance vagrant.
-
-The guns had been booming for perhaps five minutes when I heard running
-footsteps entering the square. Our square is so shut in and small that
-it echoes like a church; every sound is startling and can be heard in
-every part of it. I could not see to whom the footsteps belonged on
-account of the trees and the darkness. They entered on the side farthest
-from me, from the street where the red motor-buses pass. When they had
-reached the top, from which there is no exit, they hesitated; then
-came hurrying back along the side on which they would have to pass me.
-_Tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap_ and panting breath--the sound of
-a woman's high-heeled shoes against the pavement. Accompanying the
-_tip-a-tap_ were funny, more frequent, shuffling noises, indistinct and
-confused. Three shadows grew out of the gloom, a small one on either
-side and a bigger one in the centre; as they drew near they resolved
-themselves into a lady in an evening-wrap and two children.
-
-I was more glad than I cared to own, for I'd been feeling lonely. Now
-that peace has come and we've won the war, I don't mind acknowledging
-that I'd been feeling frightened; at the time I wouldn't have confessed
-it for the world lest the Huns should have got to know it. We London
-houses, trying to live up to the example of our soldiers, always
-pretended that we liked the excitement of airraids. We didn't really; we
-quaked in all our bricks and mortar. One's foundations aren't what
-they were when one is a hundred-and-ninety-eight years old. So I'm not
-ashamed to tell you that I was delighted when the lady and her children
-came in my direction. I tried to push my front-door wider that they
-might guess that they were welcome. I was terribly nervous that they
-might pass in their haste without seeing that I was anxious to give them
-shelter. It was shelter that they were looking for. In coming into the
-square they had been seeking a shortcut home.
-
-They drew level without slackening their steps and had almost gone by
-me when, less than a quarter of a mile away, a bomb crashed deafeningly.
-Everything seemed to reel. Far and near you could hear the tinkling of
-splintered glass. The world leapt up red for a handful of seconds as
-though the door of a gigantic furnace had been flung open. Against
-the glow you could see the crouching roofs of houses, the crooked
-chimney-pots and the net-work of trees in the garden with their branches
-stripped and bare. The lady clutched at my railings to steady herself.
-Her face was white and her eyes were dark with terror. The last bomb had
-been so very close that it seemed as though the next must fall in the
-square itself. One of the searchlights had spotted the enemy and was
-following his plane through the clouds, holding it in its glare.
-
-“Mummy, it's all right. Don't be frightened. You've got me to take care
-of you.” It was the little boy speaking. Then he saw my _To Let_ sign
-above and pointed, “We'll go in here till it's over. Look, the door's
-wide open.”
-
-He tugged on her hand. With her arm about the shoulder of the little
-girl on the other side of her, she followed. The glow died down
-and faded. Soon the square was as secret and shadowy as it had been
-before--a tank full of darkness in which nothing stirred.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III
-
-[Illustration: 9037]
-
-EVER since I had been built had any visit quite as unceremonious as this
-occurred. Who was the strange lady? What was she doing wandering the
-streets at this hour unescorted? She was beautiful and richly gowned;
-her face was young, but very sad. I was anxious to learn more, so I
-listened intently.
-
-At first on entering, they halted just across the threshold, huddled
-together, the little lady with an arm flung about each of the children.
-She seemed to think that someone might be hidden in the darkness
-watching--someone to whom I belonged--for presently she addressed that
-supposed someone tremblingly: “We hope you don't mind, but the car
-forgot to come for us. Grandfather had been giving us a party. When we
-heard the warning, we tried to run home before the raid started; but
-we got lost. The Tube Stations were all so crowded that... And we found
-your door open, so we hope you don't mind us entering.”
-
-She paused nervously, waiting for someone to answer. A board creaked;
-apart from that the silence was unbroken.
-
-Speaking to herself more than to the children, “It's quite empty,” she
-said at last.
-
-“Shall I close the door, Mumsie?” the little boy questioned.
-
-“No, Robbie darling,” she whispered; “they might be angry, when they
-come back. I mean the people who live here.”
-
-“But it's dreadfully cold.”
-
-“Then let's go farther in and find somewhere to sit down till the raid
-is over.” They stumbled their way in the darkness through the hall and
-up the narrow staircase, where only one can walk abreast. Robbie went
-first on this voyage of discovery; he felt that if anything were hiding
-from them, his body would form a protection. His mother didn't want to
-lose sight of the street by climbing higher, but he coaxed her on
-from stair to stair. As pioneer of the expedition, he reached the tiny
-landing with the single door, which gives entrance to the drawing-room
-which occupies the whole of the second storey. Turning the handle he
-peeped in warily. Then, “Cheer up, Mummy,” he cried, “there's been a
-fire and there's a wee bit of it still burning.”
-
-The room was carpetless and bare of furniture, save for an old sofa with
-sagging springs that had been pulled up across the hearth. Perched on
-the bars of the grate sat a tin kettle, gasping feebly, with nearly all
-its water boiled away. Under the kettle a few coals glowed faintly and
-a weak flame jumped and sank, like a ghost trying to make up its mind to
-vanish. Through the tall French windows that opened on to the verandah
-one could see the sky lit up with the tumultuous display of monstrous
-fireworks. From high overhead, above the clatter of destruction and the
-banging of guns, came the long-drawn, contented humming of the planes.
-
-“They're right over us,” the little boy whispered.
-
-As if afraid that any movement on their part would draw the enemy's
-attention, they stood silent, clinging together, and listened. Oblongs
-of light, falling through the windows, danced and shifted. Once the
-beam of a searchlight groping through the shadows, gazed straight in
-and dwelt on them astounded, as if to say, “Well, I never! Who'd have
-thought to find you here?”
-
-They tiptoed over to the couch and sat down, making as little noise
-as possible, for they still weren't sure that they were welcome. They
-didn't speak or move for some time; with the excitement and running and
-losing their way they were very tired. Presently the little boy got up,
-and went and stood by the window looking out, with his legs astraddle
-and his hands behind his back like a man. He wore a sailor-suit and had
-bare, sturdy knees. He was very small to try to be so manly.
-
-[Illustration: 0041]
-
-“I'm not frightened, Mummy,” he said.
-
-“If father were here, he wouldn't be frightened.”
-
-She shifted her position so that she could glance proudly back at him.
-“Father was never frightened.”
-
-For the first time the little girl spoke. “If father were here, they
-wouldn't dare to come to London. I expect they knew...”
-
-“Yes, Joan,” her mother interrupted quickly, “I expect they knew.”
-
-“And when I'm a man they won't dare to come to London, either,” said
-Robbie. “How many of them did father...?”
-
-But at that moment, before he could finish his question, his mother
-pressed her finger against his lips warningly. Above the roar of what
-was going on in the clouds, she had heard another and more alarming
-sound; the front-door closed quietly, a match struck and then the slow
-deliberate tread of someone groping up the stairs.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV
-
-[Illustration: 9047]
-
-HE tread reached the landing and proceeded to mount higher. Then it
-hesitated. Another match was struck and it commenced to descend. On
-arriving at the landing again, it halted uncertain. The handle of
-the door was tried. The door swung open and a man peered across the
-threshold. No one spoke. The little lady on the couch drew Joan closer
-to her side and held her breath, hoping that the man might not observe
-them and that, when he had gone, they might escape. But the man did not
-go, he stood there on the alert, listening and searching the darkness.
-
-It was Robbie who spoke first. He had thrust his hands deep into his
-knickerbockers' pockets to gain courage. “What do you want? We think you
-might speak,” he said.
-
-The man laughed pleasantly. “I'm sorry if I've frightened you. I didn't
-know that anyone was here. I thought this was an empty house. Perhaps
-you weren't aware of it, but you'd left your front-door open.” Then,
-because no one replied, he added, “It's all right now; it's closed.”
-
-He wasn't looking at Robbie any longer. He was trying to probe the
-shadows by the fireplace, where he had caught the rustle of a woman's
-dress. He had caught something else--the faint sweet fragrance of
-Jacqueminot.
-
-“I've alarmed you,” he said. “I'm a stranger in London and I couldn't
-find any way out of your square. I strayed into your house for shelter.
-I'm sorry I intruded. Good-night to you all, however many there are of
-you.”
-
-He was actually going. It was impossible to see what he looked like, but
-he was evidently well-mannered and a gentleman. Suddenly to the lady
-in the lonely house, from being a creature of dread, he became a
-heaven-sent protector. Who could tell how many less desirable visitors
-might not call before the raid was ended? The care-taker might return.
-Were that to happen, it would be much more comfortable to have this
-male trespasser present to help make the explanations. Just as he was
-withdrawing, the lady rose from the shabby couch and called him back.
-
-“Oh, please, we'd much rather you didn't go.”
-
-“But who are we?”
-
-“I and Robbie and Joan. We did the same thing as you. The house doesn't
-belong to us. We got caught, just as you did. We were terribly scared
-and... and it's creepy being in an empty, strange house where you
-haven't any right to be.”
-
-Though she could only see the blur of him, she could feel the smile that
-was in his eyes when she had finished her appeal. And it was an appeal,
-eager and nervous and tremulous. The tears in her voice said much more
-than the words. As he turned on his heel, she heard the jingle of his
-spurs and guessed that he was a man in khaki.
-
-“I'm on my way to France,” he said, speaking slowly; “I only landed
-yesterday. I was lonely too; I didn't know a soul. A queer way to make a
-friend!”
-
-As he stepped into the room, the light from the windows fell on him; he
-was dressed in the uniform of an American officer.
-
-“Which are you?” he asked. “I've heard only your voice as yet. I'll do
-anything I can to help.”
-
-The little lady held out her hand, but her face was still in shadow. It
-was a very tiny hand. “It's good of you to be willing to stay with us,”
- she said gratefully.
-
-At that point their conversation languished. The circumstances were so
-unprecedented that they were at a loss what to say or how to act. It
-was he who broke the awkward silence: “We ought to be able to rouse this
-fire with a little effort.” He bent over it, trying to pull it together.
-“We need more coal. If you'll excuse me and won't be frightened while
-I'm gone, I'll run down and see what I can forage.”
-
-It seemed a long time that he was gone--so long that she had begun to be
-afraid that he'd taken his chance to slip out. She wouldn't have blamed
-him. In the last two years, since she'd been by herself, she'd become
-used to men doing things like that. She had ceased to bank overmuch on
-masculine chivalry. Few men had leisure to expend on a woman, however
-charming and beautiful, whose children had always to be included in the
-friendship.
-
-When she had made quite sure that he was no more chivalrous than other
-men, she heard him laboriously returning. He came in carrying a scuttle
-in one hand and some bundles of wood in the other. “And now we'll pull
-down the blinds,” he said, “and make a blaze and get her going.”
-
-On his knees before the hearth he started to work, ramming paper between
-the bars, piling sticks criss-cross and using his cheeks as bellows. In
-the intervals between his exertions he chatted, “I'm no great shakes
-at house-work. You mustn't watch me too closely or laugh at me. I'll do
-better than this when I've been at the Front, I guess. Are these your
-kiddies?... I suppose your husband's over there, where I'm going?”
-
-“He was.”
-
-“Oh, so you've got him back! You're lucky. Is he wounded or has he got a
-staff job in England?”
-
-“He'll never come back.”
-
-He paused in what he was doing and sat gazing into the flames which were
-licking at the wood. He hung his head. He ought to have thought of that;
-in the last few years so many Englishmen were dead. And then there came
-another reflection--the picture of what it must have cost her husband to
-say good-bye to his wife and children, and go marching away to anonymous
-glory. He wasn't married himself, but if he had been... It took enough
-bolstering up of one's courage to go when one was single; but to go when
-one was married... And yet selfishly, ever since he had put on khaki his
-paramount regret had been that, were he to peg out, he would leave no
-one to carry on in his stead. This air-raid was his first remote taste
-of warfare; within the next few weeks he was to know it in its full
-fury. What had impressed him most was the difference between war as
-imagined and witnessed. As imagined it had seemed the most immense of
-sports; as witnessed it was merely murder. Just before he had
-sought shelter he had seen where a bomb had fallen. People had been
-killed--people not so different from the mother and children hiding in
-this house. The suddenness of extinction had made him feel that in the
-game of life he had somehow “missed out.” There would be no woman to
-think of him as “her man” were he to go west. And here was the woman's
-price for such caring, “He'll never come back.”
-
-He turned his head slowly; by the light of the crackling wood for the
-first time he saw her. The little boy was lying wearied out, with
-his head bowed in her lap. The little girl sat drowsing against her
-shoulder.
-
-She herself was leaning forward, gazing at and beyond him with a
-curious air of resigned intensity. She seemed to him to be listening
-for someone, whom she knew in her heart was never coming. He noticed the
-white half-moon of her shoulders faintly showing beneath her chinchilla
-wrap. He noticed her string of perfect pearls, the single ring on
-her hand and the expensive simplicity of her velvet gown. He was
-sufficiently a man of the world to make a guess at her social station.
-But it wasn't her beauty or elegance that struck him, though they were
-strangely in contrast to the empty room in which she sat; it was her
-gentleness and expression of patient courage. He knew, as surely as if
-she had told him, that this empty room, in which he had found her, was
-the symbol of her days. It was with her as it was with himself; there
-was no man to whom she was “his woman.”
-
-“I've hurt you by the impertinence of my questions.”
-
-She smiled and shook her head. “You've not hurt me. Don't think that.
-I shouldn't like you to think that you'd hurt me or anything that would
-make you sad. Are you going to France soon?”
-
-“Tomorrow.”
-
-“Then you won't be here for Christmas. I wonder where you'll spend it.
-Perhaps next Christmas the war will be ended and you'll...” She caught
-the instant change in his expression. She had seen that look too often
-in soldiers' eyes when the future was mentioned not to know what it
-meant. She laid her hand on his arm impulsively. “But everyone who goes
-doesn't stay there. You'll be one of the lucky ones. You'll come back.
-I have that feeling about you. I know what's in your mind; you're a long
-way from home, you're going to face a great danger and you believe that
-everything is ended. You can only think of war now, but there are so
-many better things to do with life than fighting. All the better things
-will be here to welcome you, when you return.”
-
-He found himself talking to her in a way in which he had never spoken to
-any woman. Afterwards, when he recalled their conversation, he wondered
-why. Was it because she had filled him with so complete a sense of rest?
-One didn't have to explain things to her; she understood. He asked her
-how it was that she understood and she replied, “You don't have to go
-to war to learn how to endure. You can stay at home and yet beat off
-attacks in the front-line trench. We women defeat despair by keeping on
-smiling when there's nothing left to smile about, and by wearing pretty
-dresses when there's no one to take a pride in what we wear.”
-
-He retorted unguardedly, as he felt. “But there must be heaps of people
-who take a pride in you.”
-
-“You think so? You're unspoilt and generous. Life's a wonderful dream
-that lies all before you. You haven't known sorrow. Do you know what you
-seemed to be saying when you spoke to me through the shadows? 'Everybody
-has always loved and trusted me, so you love and trust me, too.' If it
-hadn't been for that, that I saw that you'd always been loved and were
-lonely for the moment, I shouldn't have sat here talking with you for
-the last hour. You'll get everything you want from life, if you'll only
-wait for it. You'll come back.”
-
-While he sat at her feet in the firelight, she had the knack of making
-him feel like a little boy who was being comforted. She kept aloof from
-him, but she mothered him with words. He found himself glancing up at
-her furtively to make sure that she wasn't as old as she pretended. She
-wasn't old at all--not a single day older than himself. He turned over
-in his mind what she had said about having no one to be proud of her. He
-would have given a lot for the chance to be proud of her himself. But he
-was going to France tomorrow--there was no time left for that. With
-so much fighting and dying to be done, it seemed as though there would
-never again be time for anything that was personal.
-
-The clamour in the skies had died down.
-
-The crash of guns had been growing infrequent; now it had subsided.
-The drone of planes could be no more heard. The invader had been driven
-back; hard on his heels our aerial cavalry were following across the
-Channel, awaiting their moment to exact revenge when he tried to land.
-
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-
-The restored normality seemed to rouse her reserve. Lifting the sleeping
-head from her lap, she whispered, “Wake up, Robbie; we can go home now.
-It's all over.”
-
-The officer had risen and stood leaning against the mantel, “So it's
-good-bye?”
-
-“I'm afraid so.”
-
-“You've made me happy when I least expected to be happy. Shall we meet
-again, I wonder?”
-
-She smiled at his seriousness. “Perhaps. One never knows what the good
-God will allow. We didn't expect to meet tonight.”
-
-He was sensitive to her evasion and laughed, pretending to make light
-of it. “We don't want them to think they've had burglars. We had better
-leave something for the coals we've burned.” He placed a pound note on
-the mantel.
-
-Taking Joan in his arms and going first, he led the way down the stairs.
-When they were out of the hall and the front-door had closed behind
-them, he left the little group on the steps and went in search of a
-taxi. After a lengthy expedition he found one and, by promising an
-excessive fare, induced the driver to accompany him back. He knew
-neither the name of the square nor the number of the house, so he had
-to keep his head out of the window and shout directions. On entering the
-square he searched the pavement ahead, but could catch no sign of his
-recent companions. He halted the cab against the curb at the point where
-he thought he had left them; he was made certain that it was the point
-when he saw the notice TO LET. Perhaps the caretaker had come back and
-invited them to enter till he returned. He rang the bell and knocked
-vigorously. The driver was eyeing him with suspicion. When his repeated
-knockings were unanswered, he got into the taxi and ordered him to move
-slowly round the square.
-
-She had completely vanished. Either she had picked up a conveyance for
-herself, while he had been engaged in his search, or else she had lost
-faith in him and had taken it for granted that he had deserted her. He
-did not know her name. She had given him no address. Tomorrow night
-he would be in France. He had neither the time nor the necessary
-information to hunt for her.
-
-In reply to the driver's request for further instructions, he growled
-the name of his hotel. Then he spread himself out on the cushions and
-gave way to disconsolate reflections. The night was full of smoke and
-heavy with the smell of a bonfire burnt out. Things had become again
-uninteresting. He told himself that the most wonderful hour of his life
-was ended.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V
-
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-
-HRISTMAS came and went unmerrily. The old woman who took care of me had
-known better days; she stayed in bed in an effort to forget. Next door,
-but one, a son had returned unexpectedly from the trenches. There were
-laughing, dancing and piano playing. I tried to share their happiness;
-but happiness isn't the same when it is borrowed second-hand. My rooms
-were cheerless and empty of all sound.
-
-I kept thinking of my air-raid visitors, wondering where they were and
-hoping that the American officer had re-found the little lady. If
-he had, I felt sure he would be good to her. I told myself a foolish
-fairy-story, as old houses will, of how, when the war was ended, they
-would drive up to my door together, as if by accident, and exclaim,
-“Why, it's the little house where we first met!” Then the TO LET sign
-would be taken down and, having fetched Joan and Robbie, we would all
-live together forever. With luck and love we might have smaller feet to
-toddle up and down my stairs.
-
-January, February, March commenced and ended, and the TO LET sign was
-still there. It seemed that nobody would ever want me. It was April now;
-to their nests in the railed-in garden of the square the last year's
-birds were coming back. Trees had become a mist of greenness. Tulips and
-daffodils were shining above the ground. In the window-boxes of other
-houses geraniums were making a scarlet flare. Without warning the dream,
-which had been no more than a dream, began to become a fact.
-
-I had been drowsing in the sun, taking no notice of what was happening,
-when I was suddenly awakened by a sharp rat-a-tat-tat. I came to myself
-with a start to find that the little lady, unaccompanied, was standing
-on my steps.
-
-She knocked again and then a third time. There could be no doubt about
-her determination to enter. At last the old woman heard her and dragged
-herself complainingly up from the basement. When the door had been
-narrowly opened, the little lady pushed it wider and stepped smartly
-into the hall with an exceedingly business-like air. “I have an order
-from the agents to view the house.”
-
-“I'm 'ard of 'earing. Wot did yer say? Speak louder.”
-
-“I have an order from the agents to look over the house.”
-
-“Let's see your order?”
-
-While the caretaker fumbled for her spectacles, she went on talking.
-“You won't like it. There's no real sense in your seeing it. It ain't
-much of a 'ouse--not modern, too little and all stairs.”
-
-It made me furious to hear her running me down and to have no chance to
-defend myself.
-
-“Nevertheless, I rather like it and I think I'll see it,” the little
-lady said.
-
-She went from room to room, making notes of the accommodations and
-thinking aloud as she set them down. “Four floors beside the basement.
-On the top floor two bedrooms; they'll do for Robbie and Joan and nurse.
-On the next floor one bedroom and a bathroom; I'll have that for myself.
-On the second floor one big room, running from front to back; that's
-where we'II have the parrot and the piano, and where I'll do my sewing.
-On the ground-floor a dining-room in front and a bedroom at the back;
-the bedroom at the back will do for cook. I won't have anyone sleeping
-below-stairs. It's a very wee house, but tremendously cosy. And what
-pretty views--the garden in the square in front, and the old grey church
-with its graveyard at the back! It's all so green and quiet, like being
-in the country.”
-
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-
-She had far out-distanced the caretaker, hurrying over the first two
-floors that she might get to the top by herself. Now, as she descended,
-she inspected each room more leisurely. As yet she had said no word that
-would indicate that she had recognised me. I wondered what her motive
-had been in coming; whether she had deliberately sought me or stumbled
-on me simply by accident. I would have known her anywhere, though I had
-been blind and deaf, by the fragrance of Jacqueminot that clung about
-her.
-
-She had come to the tiny landing on the second floor, when something
-familiar in her surroundings struck her. She stood there holding
-the handle of the door and wrinkling her forehead. “It's odd,” she
-whispered; “I can't understand it.” She turned the handle and entered.
-The room smelt stuffy; its windows had not been opened since she was
-last there. The sunlight, pouring in, revealed motes of dust which rose
-up dancing every time she stirred. In the grate were the accumulated
-ashes of many fires. Drawn across the hearth was the shabby couch.
-Nothing had been altered since she had left it. She passed her hand
-across her eyes, “It can't be; it would be too strange to find it like
-that.” Then she started to reconstruct the scene as she remembered it.
-“Robbie was there against the window, asking how many Huns his daddy had
-brought down, and I was sitting here in the shadow, when quite suddenly
-we heard his tread on the stairs. The door opened; he said something
-about being sorry that he'd frightened us, and then.... Why yes, I'm
-positive.” She stepped out onto the verandah and stood looking down into
-the square. When she turned to re-enter her eyes were moist and shining.
-“You _are_ the little house. Oh, little house, I've dreamt of you so
-often. Does he dream of you too, where he is out there? Was I right to
-run away and to doubt him? If you had a tongue you could tell me; did he
-say hard things about me when he found me gone on coming back?”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI
-
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-
-WO weeks later they took possession of me. They did it with so much
-friendliness that at the end of a month it was as though we had always
-lived together. Even the furniture fitted into all my odd nooks and
-angles as if it had been made especially for me. And, indeed, it might
-have been, for most of it was created in the reign of Queen Anne, at
-which period my walls were, as one might say, feeling their legs. It was
-very pleasant when night had settled down and everyone was sleeping, to
-listen to the conversations which were carried on between the new-comers
-and my own floors and stairs. One grandfather's clock was particularly
-interesting in his reminiscences. He had told the time to Dr. Johnson
-and had ticked away the great lexicographer's last hours. On this
-account he was inclined to be amusingly self-important; it was a
-permanent source of grievance with him that, so far as the present
-generation was concerned, his pedigree was unknown. There were times
-when he would work himself into such passions that his weights would
-drop with a bang. He was always sorry for it next morning and ashamed
-to face the little lady. As she came down to breakfast, she would catch
-sight of his hands and say, “So the poor old clock has stopped again!
-The old fellow's worn out. We shall have to send him to the mender's.”
-
-Perhaps it is hardly fair to repeat this gossip about one piece of the
-furniture, for everything, myself included, was old; whether we were
-tables, chairs or stair-cases, we all had our crochets and oddities.
-But, however much we differed among ourselves, we were united in adoring
-the youth of the little lady and her children. More than any of us the
-whispering parrot adored her.
-
-The whispering parrot was a traveller. He had come from Australia fifty
-years ago.
-
-He played so indispensable a part in producing the happy ending that he
-deserves an introduction.
-
-He had been the gift of the children's grandfather, a retired General.
-His plumage was Quaker grey, all except his breast and crest which were
-a wonderful rose-pink. He had black beady eyes which took in everything;
-what they saw, he invariably remembered. He had a confidential, hoarse
-way of speaking, that never rose above a whisper. When you heard him
-for the first time you supposed that he had a bad sore throat. He had
-a favorite question which he asked whenever he thought he was not being
-paid sufficient attention, “What shall we talk about?” He would ask it
-with his head cocked on one side, while he rubbed his feathers up and
-down the bars. “What shall we talk about?” he would ask the little lady
-as she sat sewing beneath the lamp of an evening. She was always by
-herself when the children had been put to bed. She had no callers and
-never went anywhere.
-
-“Talk about Polly!” she would say. “I don't know, you good grey bird.
-Did you think I was lonely? Well, let's see! Who loves Mummy best? Can
-you answer me that?”
-
-Then he would cock his head still farther on one side and pretend to
-think furiously. She would have to ask him several times before he would
-attempt an answer. Usually, when he got ready, he would clear his throat
-and whisper, “The dustman.” After which he would laugh as though his
-sides were aching: “What a naughty Polly! What a naughty Polly!”
-
-She would maintain a dignified silence till she had emptied her
-needle. Then she would glance at him reproachfully, “Think again, Mr.
-Impudence--not the dustman.”
-
-So he would think again, and having clambered all over his cage and hung
-upside down to amuse her, would hazard, “Polly?”
-
-“Not Polly.”
-
-Then he would make any number of suggestions, though he knew quite well
-the answer she required. After each wrong guess he would go off
-into gales of ghostly merriment. At last he would say very solemnly,
-“Robbie.”
-
-“Yes, Robbie,” she would reply and scratch his head; after which the
-game was ended. Soon she would fold away her work, put out the lights
-and climb the narrow stairs to her quiet bed.
-
-It seemed very sad that, when she was so young, she should have to spend
-so many hours in talking to a rascally old bird. One can be young for so
-short a time. How short, those who are old know best.
-
-There were evenings, however, when, after the parrot had answered
-“Robbie,” she would whisper, “I wonder!” and clasp her hands in her lap,
-gazing straight before her. On these evenings she would sit very late
-and would look down at her feet from time to time, as though expecting
-to see someone crouching there. Taxis would chug their way into the
-square and draw up at one or other of the dolls' houses. The taxi door
-would open and after a few seconds close with a bang. There would be the
-rustle of a woman's dress and the tripping of her slippered feet across
-the pavement; the bass muttering of her husband paying the driver;
-laughter; the rattling of a key in the latch; and silence. The little
-lady would sit quite motionless, listening to the secret homecomings
-of lovers. Then at last she would nod her head, “You're right, Polly, I
-expect. There's no one else. No doubt it's Robbie who loves me best.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII
-
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-
-UT it wasn't Robbie. The diningroom window was the first to make the
-discovery. Being on the ground-floor, it gazes across the pavement under
-the trees and sees many things after nightfall which are missed by the
-upper storeys. The first and second time that something unusual happened
-I was not told; not until the third time was I taken into the secret.
-The dining-room window does most of the watching for the entire house;
-it sees so much that it has learnt to be discreet.
-
-It was Armistice night when the unusual happening first occurred. London
-had gone mad with relief from suspense. Wherever a barrel-organ could be
-found people were dancing. Where more suitable music was not available,
-tin-cans were being beaten with a dervish, rhythmic monotony. Dance the
-people must. Their joy had gone into their feet; they could not convince
-themselves that peace had come till they had danced themselves to a
-standstill. They invented impromptu steps, dancing twenty abreast in the
-open spaces, humming any tune that caught their fancy, with their arms
-linked in those of strangers. But there were no strangers that night;
-everyone was a friend. Top-hats, evening-dress, corduroys and privates'
-uniforms hobnobbed together. A mighty roar of laughter and singing went
-up from thousands of miles of streets, dim-lit and dusk-drenched to
-ward off the ancient peril from the air. How suddenly unmodern peril
-had become! All London laughed; all England; all the world. The sound
-reached the Arctic; polar bears lumbered farther northward, stampeded by
-the strum of our guffaws. If there were inhabitants on Mars, they must
-have heard. The war was won. The news was so incredible that we had to
-make a noise to silence our doubts.
-
-Everything that could rejoice was out under the stars making merry.
-We had hidden so long, walked so stealthily, wept so quietly, hated so
-violently that our right to be happy was almost too terrible to bear.
-We expressed our joy foolishly, hysterically, inadequately by shouting,
-embracing, climbing lamp-posts, riding on the roofs of taxis. What did
-it matter so long as we expressed it and brought the amazing truth home
-to ourselves? The last cannon had roared. The final man had died in
-battle. The wicked waste of white human bodies was ended. There would be
-no more rushing for the morning papers and searching the casualty lists
-with dread; no more rumours of invasions; no more musterings for new
-offensives. The men whom we loved were safe; they had been reprieved at
-the eleventh hour. We should have them home presently, seated by their
-firesides. It seemed like the fulfilment of a prophet's ecstasy; as
-though sorrow and crying had passed away and forever there would be no
-death.
-
-There were two people who did not dance, climb lamp-posts, beat tin-cans
-and ride on the roofs of taxis that night. Perhaps they were the only
-two in London; they were both in Dolls' House Square. The little lady
-was one. She had tucked Joan and Robbie safely in their beds. She had
-kissed them “Good-night” and turned the gas on the landing to a jet. She
-had gone part way down the narrow stairs and then... and then she had
-come back. She had picked up Joan and carried her into Robbie's room.
-When the two heads were lying close together on the pillow, she had
-seated herself in the darkness beside them.
-
-The little boy stretched up his arms to pull her down; she resisted. His
-hands wandered over her face and reached her eyes. They were wet. His
-heart missed a beat. He knew what that meant. So often in the dark, dark
-night he had wakened with the sure sense that she was crying and had
-tiptoed down the creaking stairs to creep in beside her and place his
-small arms tightly about her.
-
-“Never mind; you have me, Mummy.” That was what he always said. He
-whispered it now.
-
-“Yes, I have my wee man.”
-
-“And me, Mummy,” Joan murmured sleepily.
-
-“Mummy knows. She has you both. Don't worry about her. She's feeling
-silly tonight.”
-
-“Because you're happy?” Joan questioned.
-
-“Yes, happy for so many little boys and girls whose soldier daddies will
-be coming back to them soon. Don't talk any more. Go sleepy-bye.”
-
-But Robbie knew that it wasn't happiness that made her cry; he knew that
-she was crying because she had no soldier to come back. What could he
-say to comfort her? His eyes grew drowsy while he thought about it. He
-waited till Joan was in Sleepy-bye Land, then with an effort he opened
-his eyes.
-
-“Mummy, do you know what I'd like best for Christmas?”
-
-“I thought you were sleeping. Don't tell me now. There's heaps of time.
-It's six weeks till Christmas.”
-
-“But Joan and I have talked about it,” he persisted. “We don't want him,
-if you don't want him.”
-
-“What is he, dear? If he doesn't cost too much, you shall have him.”
-
-Robbie procrastinated now that he had brought his mother to the point
-of listening. It was a delicate proposal that he was about to make. “I
-don't know whether you can get one,” he hesitated. “A boy at my school
-got one without asking, and it wasn't even Christmas.”
-
-He was sitting up in bed now, very intense and serious, and very much
-awake.
-
-“But you've not told me yet what it is you want. If you don't tell me, I
-can't say whether I can afford it.”
-
-She slipped her arm about the square little body and feeling how it
-trembled, held it close against her breast. He hid his face in the
-hollow of her neck. “Robbie's place,” she whispered. “If it's difficult
-to say, whisper it to mother there.”
-
-His lips moved several times before a sound came and then, “If it isn't
-too much trouble, we should like to have a Daddy.”
-
-Against his will she held him back from her, trying to see his eyes.
-“But why?”
-
-It was he who was crying now. “Oh Mummy, I didn't mean to hurt you....
-To be like all the other little boys and girls.” When at last he was
-truly asleep and she had come down to the lamp-lit room in which she
-sewed, she did not take up her work. The parrot tried to draw her into
-conversation with his eternal question, “What shall we talk about?”
-
-“Nothing tonight, Polly,” she said. Presently she crossed the room and,
-pulling back the curtains, stood staring out into the blackness. So her
-children had felt it, too--the weight of loneliness! She had tried so
-hard to prevent them from sharing it; had striven in so many ways to
-be their companion. Try as she would, she could never make up for a
-father's absence. She could never give them the sense of security that a
-man could have given without effort, even though he had loved them less.
-It was a bitter realisation--one which vaguely she had always dreaded
-must come to her. It was doubly bitter coming to her now, on a night
-when all the world was glad. She might be many things to her children;
-she could never be a man.... What did Robbie think? That you bought
-a father from an agency or engaged him through an advertisement? She
-smiled sadly, “Not so easy as that.”
-
-“What shall we talk about?” asked the parrot.
-
-She drew the curtains together, extinguished the lights and groped her
-way up to bed.
-
-But her eyes had not peered far enough into the blackness. There was
-another person in London who had not danced or climbed lamp-posts or
-ridden on the roofs of taxis that night. For three hours he had watched
-the little house from the shadow of the trees across the road. From the
-pavement, had you been passing, you would hardly have distinguished him
-as he leant against the garden-railings. The only time he gave a sign
-of his presence was when the red flare of his cigarette betrayed him. He
-did not seem to be planning harm to anyone; he could not have done much
-harm in any case, for the left sleeve of his coat hung empty. He was
-simply waiting for something that he hoped might happen. At last his
-patience was rewarded when she drew aside the curtain and stood with the
-lighted room behind her, staring out into the blackness. Only when she
-had again hidden herself and all the house was in darkness, did he turn
-to go. He was there the next night and the next. It was after his third
-night of watching that the dining-room window told me.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII
-
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-
-HE fourth night he was there again. By this time everything in the
-house, from the kettle in the kitchen to the carpet on the topmost
-landing, was aware that a one-armed man was hidden beneath the trees
-across the road, watching. The whole house was on the alert, listening
-and waiting--everybody, that is to say, except the people most
-concerned, who inhabited us. It seemed strange that they alone should be
-in ignorance. The grandfather clock did his best to tell them. “Beware;
-take care. Beware; take care,” he ticked as his pendulum swung to and
-fro. They stared him in the face and read the time by his hands, but
-they had no idea what he was saying.
-
-What could it be that the watching man wanted? Whatever it was, he
-wanted it badly, for it was by no means pleasant to stand motionless for
-several hours when the November chill was in the air. Nor did he seem
-to find it pleasant, for every now and then he coughed and shook himself
-like a dog inside his coat, and sunk his chin deeper into his collar.
-
-He had been there since six o'clock. He had seen the cook and the
-housemaid come up the area-steps and meet their respective sweethearts
-under the arc-light at the end of the square. There was only one other
-grown person in the house beside the little lady--Nurse; and Nurse had
-been in bed since the afternoon with a sick headache. He could not have
-known that. It was at precisely eight that he consulted his luminous
-wrist-watch, crossed the road, hesitated and raised the knocker very
-determinedly, as if he had only just arrived and had not much time to
-spare. _Rat-tat-tat!_ The sound echoed alarmingly through the silence.
-The little lady dropped her sewing in her lap and listened. The sound
-was repeated. _Rat-tat-tat!_ It seemed to say, “Come along. Don't keep
-me waiting. You've got to let me in sooner or later. You know that.”
-
-“It can't be the postman at this hour,” she murmured, “and yet it sounds
-like his knock.”
-
-Laying her work on the table beneath the lamp, she rose from her chair
-and descended. She opened the door only a little way at first, just wide
-enough for her to peer out, so that she could close it again if she saw
-anything disturbing.
-
-“So you do live here!” The man outside spoke gladly. “I guessed it could
-be no one else the moment I saw that the house was no longer empty.”
-
-She opened the door a few more inches. His tone puzzled her by its
-familiarity. His face had not yet come into the ray of light which
-slanted from the hall across the steps.
-
-“You don't recognise me?” he questioned. “I called to let you know that
-I did fetch that taxi. It's been on my mind that you thought I deserted
-you. Taxi-cabs were hard to find in an air-raid.”
-
-She flung the door wide. “Why it's----”
-
-She didn't know how to call him--how to put what he was into words. He
-had been simply “the American officer”--that was how she had named him
-in talking with the children. He had been often remembered, especially
-during the fireside hour when in imaginary adventures he had been the
-hero of many stories. How brave she had made him and how often she had
-feared that he was dead! There were other stories which she had told
-only to herself, when the children were asleep and the house was silent.
-And there he stood on the threshold, with the same gallant bearing and
-the same eager smile playing about his mouth. “I've always been loved
-and trusted; you love and trust me, too”--that was what his smile was
-saying to her.
-
-Her heart was beating wildly; but nothing of what she felt expressed
-itself in what she said. “I'm by myself. I've let the maids go out. I'm
-terribly apologetic for having treated you so suspiciously.”
-
-He laughed and stepped into the hall. “I seem fated to find you by
-yourself; you were alone last time. I'm in hospital and have to be back
-by ten. Won't you let me sit with you for half an hour?”
-
-He had begun to remove his top-coat awkwardly. His awkwardness attracted
-her attention.
-
-“Please let me do that for you.”
-
-“Oh, I'm learning to manage. It's all right.... Well, if you must.
-Thanks.” She didn't dare trust herself. There was a pricking sensation
-behind her eyes. She motioned to him to go first. As she followed him
-up the stairs, she gazed fixedly at his flattened left side, where the
-sleeve was tucked limply into the tunic-pocket. She knew that when she
-was again face to face with him she must pretend not to have noticed.
-
-He entered the room and stood staring round. “The same old room! But it
-didn't belong to you then. How did you manage it?”
-
-“Easily, but not on purpose.”
-
-“Truly, not on purpose?” His tone was disappointed.
-
-“No, not on purpose. I didn't know the name of the square or the number
-of the house that night. I stumbled on it months later by accident. It
-was still to let.”
-
-“So you took it? Why did you take it?”
-
-“Because I'd liked it from the first and it suited me,” she smiled. “Why
-else?”
-
-“I thought perhaps...”
-
-“Well, say it. You're just like Robbie. When Robbie wants to tell me
-something that's difficult, he has a special place against which he
-hides his face; it's easier to tell me there. You men are all such
-little boys. If it's difficult to tell, you do the same and say it
-without looking at me.”
-
-She reseated herself beneath the lamp and took up her sewing. “Now tell
-me, why did you want me to say that I took it on purpose?”
-
-“I don't quite know. Perhaps it was because, had I been you, I should
-have taken it on purpose. One likes to live in places where he has been
-happy, even though the happiness lasted only for an hour.”
-
-He wandered over to the couch before the fire and sat down where he
-could watch her profile and the slope of her throat beneath the lamp.
-The only sound was the prick of the needle and the quiet pulling through
-of the thread. It had all happened just as he would have planned it. He
-was glad that she was alone. He was glad that it was in this same room
-that they had met. He was glad in a curious unreasoning way for the
-faint fragrance of Jacqueminot that surrounded her. It had been just
-like this at the Front that he had thought of her--thought of her so
-intensely that he had almost caught the scent and the rustle of her
-dress, moving towards him through the squalor of the trench. Through all
-the horror the brief memory of her gentleness had remained with him. And
-what hopes he had built on that memory! He had told himself that, if he
-survived, by hook or by crook he would search her out. In hospital, when
-he had returned to England, all his impatience to get well had been to
-get to her. In his heart he had never expected success. The task had
-seemed too stupendous. And now here he was, sitting with her alone, the
-house all quiet, the fire shining, the lamp making a pool of gold among
-the shadows, and she, most quiet of all, taking him comfortably for
-granted and carrying on with her woman's work. At last he was at rest;
-not in love with her, he told himself, but at rest.
-
-It was she who broke the silence. “How did you know? What made you come
-so directly to this house?”
-
-He met her eyes and smiled. “Where else was there to come? It was the
-one place we both knew. I took a chance at it.” And then, after a
-pause, “No, that's not quite true. I was sent up to London for special
-treatment. The first evening I was allowed out of hospital, I hurried
-here and, finding that our empty house was occupied, stayed outside to
-watch it.”
-
-“But why to watch it?”
-
-“Because it was a million to one that you weren't the tenant. Before I
-rang the bell I wanted to make certain. You see I don't know your name;
-I couldn't ask to see the lady of the house. If she hadn't been you, how
-could I have explained my intrusion?”
-
-“And then you made certain?”
-
-He nodded. “You came to the window on Armistice night and stood for a
-few minutes looking out.”
-
-“I remember.” She shivered as if a cold breath had struck her. “I was
-feeling stupid and lonely; all the world out there in the darkness
-seemed so glad. I wish you had rung my bell. That was three nights ago.”
-
-“You mean why did I let three nights go by. I guess because I was a
-coward. I got what we call in America 'cold feet.' I thought...”
-
-He waited for her to prompt him. She sat leaning forward, her hands
-lying idle in her lap. He noticed, as he had noticed nearly a year
-ago, the half-moon that her shoulders made in the dimness. She was
-extraordinarily motionless; her motionlessness gave her an atmosphere
-of strength. When she moved her gestures said as much as words. Nothing
-that she did was hurried.
-
-“Tell me what you thought.” she said quietly. She spoke to him as she
-would have spoken to Robbie, making him feel very young and little. When
-she spoke like that there was not much that he would not have told her.
-
-“I thought that you might not remember me or want to see me. We met so
-oddly; after the lapse of a year you might easily have regarded my call
-as an impertinence.”
-
-“An impertinence!” There were tears in her eyes when she raised her
-head. “You lost your arm that I and my children might be safe, and you
-talk about impertinence.”
-
-“Oh, that!” He glanced down at his empty sleeve. “That's nothing. It's
-the luck of the game and might have happened to anybody.”
-
-“But you lost it for me,” she re-asserted, “that I might be safe. You
-must have suffered terribly.”
-
-Seeing her distress, he laughed gaily. “Losing an arm wasn't the worst
-that might have happened. I'm one of the fortunate ones; I'm still above
-ground. The thing wasn't very painful--nothing is when you've simply got
-to face it. It's the thinking about pain that hurts.... Hulloa, look
-at the time; I can just get back to the hospital by ten. If we're late,
-they punish us by keeping us in next night.”
-
-At the top of the stairs as she was seeing him out, he halted and looked
-back into the room. “It's quiet and cosy in there. I don't want
-to leave; I feel like a boy being packed off to school. You can't
-understand how wonderful it is after all the marching and rough times
-and being cut about to be allowed to sit by a fire with a woman. I loved
-to watch you at your sewing.”
-
-“It's because you're tired,” she said, “more tired than you know. You
-must come very often and rest.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX
-
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-
-N the weeks that followed the little house came to know him well.
-Everybody in the little house treated him as though his injury were a
-decoration, which had been won especially in their defence. They were
-prouder to see him come walking up their steps with his blue hospital
-band on his remaining arm, than if Sir Douglas Haig himself had called
-upon them. Nobody took any count of the frequency of his visits--nobody
-except himself. Nobody seemed to think it strange that the moment the
-doctors had finished his dressings, he should wander off to Dolls' House
-Square. Nobody seemed to guess just how fond he was of the little lady.
-He hardly guessed himself. There were times when he wondered exactly
-how fond he was. He did not believe he was in love with her; the feeling
-that he had was too gentle. He had always understood that love was
-exciting, passionate and tumultuous with dreads, whereas in her presence
-he knew neither fears nor hesitancies. He wasn't the least in terror
-that he would lose her. He felt simply safe, the way a ship might feel
-when the winds had ceased to buffet and it lay still in a sheltered
-harbour on a level keel. This feeling of safety struck him as an
-extraordinary sensation to be produced in a soldier by a woman; he was a
-trifle ashamed of it, as though it were not quite manly.
-
-While he spoke with her, he found himself believing with a child-like
-faith that all women were mothers and that the world was good. He knew
-that for the present he could not do without her, but he was at a
-loss to imagine what he would do with her for always. She was like
-religion--she went beyond him, was bigger and better. He only dimly
-understood her, but was comfortable in believing that everything
-hidden was as kind as the part he knew. In a strangely intimate way
-he worshipped her, as a child adores his mother, thinking her the most
-perfect and beautiful being in the world. He discovered in her a wisdom
-of which nothing in her conversation gave the least indication; her
-unhurried attitude towards life created the impression. If this were
-love, then all the hearsay information he had gathered on the subject
-was mistaken.
-
-There were days when, after his wound had been dressed and he had left
-the hospital, he made a pretence that he was not going to visit her. He
-told himself that he was making her a habit, and that to make a habit
-of anyone was foolish. Instead of going to Dolls' House Square, he
-would invent some urgent business and take himself off citywards. But
-expeditions in which she had no share soon grew flat. He would find
-himself thinking about her, wondering whether she was waiting for
-him. He would end up, as he always ended up, by jumping in a taxi and
-knocking on her door in Dolls' House Square.
-
-He never once found her out. There was invariably a welcome for him. He
-would take his seat by the fire in the quiet room and watch her sewing
-till the darkness deepened and the lamp had to be brought out. It didn't
-seem to matter much whether he talked or was silent; her contentment
-seemed complete when he was there. She made no effort to entertain him,
-which was the best proof of their friendship. She was perfectly willing
-that he should ignore her, if that was his mood, by reading the paper or
-playing with the children.
-
-Though she made no effort to entertain him, the entire household had
-re-organised itself in readiness for his sharp _rat-a-tat_. Everyone,
-without expressing the fact, recognised that it was nice to have a man
-about the house. When one rose in the morning, there was something to
-which to look forward now. A man dropping in, even occasionally, gave
-this group of women a sense of protection and of contact with the
-unwidowed world.
-
-To Robbie and Joan he stood for something midway between a big
-brother and a pal. They had sharp rivalries as to who should light his
-cigarette. It wasn't easy for him to grip the box between his knees
-and strike the match with only one hand. They watched him and by
-anticipating his wishes tried to constitute themselves his missing hand.
-
-When they were with him, the little lady withdrew into the background,
-making herself so still and self-effacing that it scarcely seemed that
-he had come to see her. It was as though she had three children; he
-appeared to be their friend much more than hers. He would carry them
-off to the Zoo, to matinees or to see the Christmas toys in the West End
-shops. Sometimes she would accompany them; more often she would listen
-to their adventures when they had returned. But she never was really
-left out. While they were absent from her, she formed the main topic of
-conversation. Of this she was well aware; if she had not been, she would
-not have been so happy.
-
-In a way she derived more pleasure from staying at home and picturing
-them laughing through the crowded streets, going into tea-shops, riding
-in taxis and coming back through the dusk together. The children looked
-so proud in their sole possession of a man, especially of a soldier who
-had been wounded. Had their father come through the war, that was how
-they would have looked in his company. She was glad that they should get
-away from skirts. He could give them something which it was not in her
-power to give, however much she loved them. She was only a woman. Her
-reward followed when they returned a little conscience-stricken at
-having left her, bringing with them a present as indisputable proof that
-she had been remembered.
-
-One evening in talking with her after the children had been put to bed,
-he asked her if she didn't think she ought to go out more often.
-
-“I know I ought.”
-
-“Then why don't you?”
-
-She smiled gently, thinking how little he knew of the world. “When
-you've not got your own man to take you, it's difficult. The world moves
-in pairs. A woman can't go to many places unaccompanied.”
-
-“But surely you don't need to. You must have quantities of friends who
-would be glad...”
-
-She cut him short. “When a woman is left by herself, she learns a good
-many things about men that she didn't suspect when she was married. The
-men she would trust herself with have their wives or fiancées--they have
-no time to trouble over shipwrecked women like myself. And the other
-kind of men... The world has no place for a widow. It doesn't mean to be
-unkind, but it simply doesn't know what to do with her. Unmarried women
-consider her an unfair rival; they think she's seeking a second chance
-before they've had their first. In the old days India solved the problem
-by burying us with our husbands. In England they do the same thing, only
-less frankly. It's rather stupid to have to live and yet to be treated
-as though you ought to be dead. One fights against it at first; then one
-gradually becomes reconciled to be out of the running. If one's wise,
-she puts all her living into her children.”
-
-“But that's not fair,” he spoke hotly.
-
-“It's the way it happens.”
-
-He sat frowning into the fire. What she had told him had upset all his
-preconceptions about her. Without looking at her, he re-started the
-conversation. “I've thought of you as being so happy. I always thought
-of you that way at the Front. I've pictured you as being perched high on
-a ledge out of reach of waves and storms. From the first you've given me
-the feeling that nothing could hurt or move you, and that nothing could
-hurt or move me while I was near you. It's a queer thing for a man to
-admit to a woman, but you make me feel absolutely safe.”
-
-“That's not so very queer,” she said, “because that's the way you make
-me feel.”
-
-“Do I? You're not laughing at me?” He swung round, leaning over the back
-of the couch, his entire attitude one of amazement.
-
-She met his surprise with a quiet smile. “I'm perfectly serious. But
-you know the reason why we feel so safe in each other's company? It's
-because, in our different ways, we're both lonely people. We're not like
-the rest of the world; we don't move in pairs. I'm lonely because I'm
-a woman on my own, and you're lonely because you're in hospital in a
-foreign country. We met just at the time when we could give each other
-courage.”
-
-“But you don't look lonely,” he protested; “one always thinks of
-lonely people as being sad and untidy. You always look so terrifically
-well-groomed and expensive. You create the impression that you're either
-going to or returning from a party. I never saw you when you weren't
-self-assured and occupied. I used to wonder how you spared me so much
-time from your engagements.”
-
-“Clever of me, wasn't it?”
-
-Instead of answering her, he came over and stood above where she sat
-stitching beneath the lamp. He was seeing her for the first time not
-as wise, self-reliant and fashionable, but as beautiful, alone and
-unprotected. He could almost feel the ache of the bruises she had
-suffered. He felt self-reproached; what had he given her? Up to now
-anything that he could have given had seemed too small to mention. He
-had taken from her continually, supposing that she had a surplus of
-everything. And all the while she had been sharing his own hunger for
-the presents that money cannot buy.
-
-“It's great to be alive, when you'd expected to be dead.”
-
-It was her turn to be surprised. She raised her head quickly,
-recognising a new earnestness in his tone.
-
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-
-“One doesn't talk much about what happened at the Front,” he said;
-“but one can't help feeling that his life was spared for some definite
-purpose. I believe the purpose was to be happy and to make others happy.
-I don't want to hog my own pleasure any more or to trifle in the old
-slovenly ways. I want to crowd every second with gratefulness for the
-mere fact of living. That's what's been bringing me here so often.
-That's why I've been so glad to carry Joan and Robbie away. Kiddies mean
-so tremendously much more to me than they did before I nearly died. And
-then there's home and women. I took them for granted once, but now...
-It's like saying one's prayers to be in a good woman's presence. I
-don't know if you at all understand me. I'm trying to thank you for what
-you've done....”
-
-And there his eloquence failed, leaving him gazing down at her and
-wondering whether she thought him foolish. She patted his hand, but
-she did not meet his eyes. “It's all right. Don't explain. I know what
-you're meaning to say.”
-
-“Do you?” He spoke doubtfully. “I think I was trying to ask you if we
-couldn't be happy together. I'm not married and I'm not engaged; but I'm
-not like the other men you mentioned.”
-
-“My dear boy, I never thought you were. If I had, you wouldn't have been
-here. You're honourable all the way through; I knew that the moment I
-saw you. Does that make you feel better?”
-
-He laughed happily. “Much. Do you know what I believe I've been trying
-to ask you through all this maze of words? If I get permission from the
-doctor to stay out late tomorrow night, would you be gay and go with me
-to a theatre?”
-
-Her eyes met his with gladness. “I should love it.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X
-
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-
-HAT evening at the theatre was the first conscious step in their
-experiment of being happy together. She received word from him at
-lunch-time that the doctor's permission had been granted and that he
-would call for her at seven. The news made her as excited as if she
-had never been to a theatre before in her life. She spent the afternoon
-before the mirror, brushing and re-brushing her hair, and in laying
-out all the pretty clothes which she knew men liked. It was three years
-since she had dressed with the deliberate intent that a man should
-admire her. Once to do that had been two-thirds of her life. To find
-herself doing it again seemed like waking from a long illness; she could
-hardly bring herself to believe that the monotony of sorrow was ended
-and that she was actually going to be happy again. She had been made to
-feel so long that to be happy would be disloyalty to past affections.
-
-She locked her bedroom door, for fear any of the servants should guess
-how she was occupied. She was filled with an exultant shame that she
-should still be capable of valuing so highly a man's opinion of her
-appearance. “But I will be happy,” she kept telling herself; “I have
-the right.” And then, in a whisper, “Oh, little house, you have been so
-kind. Wish me luck and say that he'll think me nice.”
-
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-
-Outside in the bare black cradle of the trees the November afternoon
-faded. Sparrows twittered of how winter was almost come. Against the
-cold melancholy of the London sky, like silhouettes crayoned on a wall
-of ice, roofs and chimneys stood smudged. In flickering pin-points of
-incandescence street-lamps wakened; night came drifting like a ship into
-harbour under shrouded sails.
-
-She had been sitting listening for a long time, haunted by childish
-fears that he would not come. At seven promptly a taxi panted into
-the square and drew up wheezing and coughing before the little house.
-Seizing her evening-wrap, she ran down the stairs and had her hand
-on the door before his knock had sounded. “I didn't want to keep you
-waiting,” she explained.
-
-He handed her into the cab. With a groan and a thump the engine pulled
-itself together and they made good their escape. As she settled back
-into her corner, pulling on her gloves, she watched him. So he also had
-regarded it as a gala-night! He was wearing a brand-new uniform and had
-been at extra pains to make his boots and belt splendid and shiny.
-She did her best not to be observed too closely, for her eyes were
-overbright and her color was high. She felt annoyed at herself for being
-so girlish.
-
-“It's tremendous fun. I haven't been to the theatre in the evening
-since... for years and years,” she whispered. “The war is really ended.
-I'm believing it for the first time.”
-
-They dined together at Prince's to the fierce discords of Jazz music.
-It suited her mood; it was primitive and reckless. Diners kept rising
-between courses and slipping out in pairs to where dancing was in
-progress. The whole world went in pairs tonight. And she had her man;
-no one could make her lonely for just this one night. It was exciting to
-her to notice how much more they seemed to belong to each other now that
-they were in public. He felt it also, for he showed his sense of pride
-and ownership in a hundred little ways. It was good to be owned after
-having been left so long discarded. As he faced her across the table, he
-had the air of believing that everybody was admiring her and envying him
-his luck. She was immensely grateful that he should think so. It was as
-though he could hear them saying, “How on earth did a one-armed fellow
-do it?” Had they asked him, he could only have told them, “The house was
-empty, so I entered.” Yes, and even he had not guessed how empty! But
-what had changed her? Knowing nothing about the locked door and how her
-afternoon had been spent, he was puzzled. All he knew was that the woman
-whom he had thought perfect, had revealed herself as more perfect. She
-had become radiantly beautiful in a way quite new and unexpected.
-
-Of the play to which they went she saw but little; all she realised was
-that it was merry--a fairy-tale of life. One does not notice much when
-the heart is swollen with gladness. People sang, and looked pretty, and
-fell in love. Everyone was paired and married before the curtain was
-rung down. Something, however, she did remember: two lilting lines which
-had been sung:
-
- And, while the sun is shining,
-
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
-
-They kept repeating themselves inside her head. Unconsciously in the
-darkness as they were driving home, she started humming them.
-
-“What did you say?” he questioned.
-
-“I didn't say anything. It was just a snatch from a tune we heard.”
-
-“Was it? Won't you hum it again?”
-
-So in the intermittent gloom of the passing lights she tried; but
-for some reason, inexplicable to herself, it made her feel choky. She
-couldn't reach the end. Gathering her wrap closer about her, she drew
-the fur collar higher to hide the stupid tears which had forced their
-way into her eyes.
-
-“I believe you're crying!” he exclaimed with concern. “Do tell me what's
-the matter.”
-
-“I'm too happy,” she whispered brokenly. The taxi drew up against the
-pavement with a jerk. There was no knowing what he might say next to
-comfort her. She both yearned to learn and dreaded. Flight was the safer
-choice. Before he could assist her, she had jumped out. “Come tomorrow
-and I'll thank you properly. I can't now. And... I'm sorry for having
-been a baby.” Catching at her skirts, she fled up the steps and let
-herself into the darkened house.
-
-Not until his wheels had moved reluctantly away, did she climb the
-narrow stairs to the room from which she had departed so gaily. Her
-solitariness had returned. She had had her own man for a handful of
-hours. They were ended.
-
-As she threw off her finery, she could still hear that voice
-persistently advising,
-
- And, while the sun is shining,
-
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
-
-In the darkness she flung herself down on the bed, burying her face in
-the pillow. “I want to; oh, I want to,” she muttered.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI
-
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-
-OR three weeks she followed the song's advice. No one knew how long
-happiness would last. With her it had never lasted. He would leave her
-presently; already he was anticipating an early return to America.
-
-“I shall feel terribly flat when you've gone,” she told him.
-
-“But I'll write. I'll write you the longest letters.”
-
-“Ah, but letters aren't the same as being together.”
-
-He didn't seem to share her need of him, and it hurt. If he did share
-it, it was unconsciously. He had yet to awaken to what the need meant.
-She had allowed him to become too sure of her, perhaps; had she kept him
-more uncertain, he might have awakened. In any case, it was too late to
-alter attitudes now and to think up reasons.
-
-He liked her in the jolliest kind of way as the most splendid of
-diversions; but she wasn't essential to him for all time--only for the
-present. She treasured no illusions about the longest letters. She knew
-men--the world was filled with women; out of sight would be out of mind.
-So every evening when he visited her, her heart was in her throat till
-she had made him confess that he had not yet received his embarkation
-orders. Some day he would tell her that he was going and would expect
-her to congratulate him. She would have to smile and pretend that
-she was glad for his sake. After that he would vanish and the long
-eventlessness would re-commence. He would write intimately and often at
-first; little by little new interests would claim him. There would be
-a blank and then, after a long silence, a printed announcement, curtly
-stating that he had found his happiness elsewhere.
-
-She saw herself growing old. The children would spring up so quickly.
-She would be left with her pride, to dress and make herself beautiful
-for an anonymous someone whose coming was indefinitely postponed. Youth
-would go from her. For interminable evenings, stretching into decades,
-she would watch afternoons fade into evenings. Everything would grow
-quiet. She would sit beneath the lamp at her sewing. The whispering
-parrot would take pity on her and croak, “What shall we talk about?”
- Even that game would end one day, for Robbie would become a man and
-marry. When that had happened it wouldn't be truthful for the parrot to
-tell her that Robbie loved her best. She would listen for the clock
-to strike, the fire to rustle, the coals to drop in the grate. Towards
-midnight taxis would enter the square. Lovers would alight. She would
-hear the paying of the fare, the tapping of a woman's high-heeled shoes
-on the pavement, the slipping of the key into the latch, the opening and
-closing of the door, and then again the silence. She would fold up her
-work, turn out the lights and stand alone in the darkness, invisible as
-a ghost.
-
-Ah, but he had not sailed yet. “Make hay, little girl, make hay.” His
-going was still only a threat. There was time, still time. She set a
-date to her respite. She would not gaze beyond it. If she could only
-have him till Christmas!
-
-Meanwhile he kept loyally to his contract that they should be happy
-together. He gave her lavishly of his time. If he guessed how much the
-gift meant, he said nothing to show it. He was like a great, friendly
-schoolboy in his cheerfulness; he filled every niche of her desire. Now,
-in the afternoon, when he took the children on adventures, she found
-herself included. On the return home, he shared with her the solemn rite
-of seeing them safely in bed. Then forth they would sally on some fresh
-excursion. Always and increasingly there was the gnawing knowledge that
-the end was nearer in sight--that soon to each of the habits they were
-forming they would have to say, “We have done it for the last time.”
-
-We, the bricks and mortar of the little house, watched her. We grew
-desperate, for we loved her. What we had observed and overheard by
-day we discussed together by night. If we could prevent it, we were
-determined that he should not go.
-
-“But, if he goes,” creaked the staircase, “he may return. They used to
-say in my young days that the heart grows fonder through absence.”
-
-“Rubbish,” banged the door on the first landing. “Rubbish, I say.”
-
-“He'll go,” ticked the grandfather clock pessimistically. “He'll go.
-He'll go.”
-
-“Not if I know it,” shouted the door and banged again.
-
-We had come to a few nights before Christmas. Which night I do not
-remember, but I recall that we had started our decorations. Mistletoe
-was hanging in the hall. Holly had been arranged along the tops of the
-picture-frames. The children had been full of whisperings and secrets.
-Parcels had already begun to arrive. They were handed in with a
-crackling of paper and smuggled upstairs to a big cupboard in which they
-were hidden from prying eyes. The children were now in bed, sleeping
-quietly for fear of offending Santa Claus. The little lady was in the
-room where she worked, checking over her list of presents. She had got
-something for everyone but Robbie; she had postponed buying Robbie's
-present for a very special reason of which we were all aware. Perhaps
-it was superstition; perhaps a desperate hope. He had told her what he
-wanted; it didn't look as if she would be able to get it. “It's no
-good waiting,” she told herself; “I shall have to buy him something
-tomorrow.” Just then, as if in answer to her thoughts, an impatient
-_rat-tat-tat_ re-sounded. It was his unmistakably, but he had never
-come so late as this before. All day she had listened and been full of
-foreboding; she had despaired of his ever coming. There was an interval
-after the door had been opened, during which he removed his coat. She
-could picture his awkwardness in doing it. Then the swift, leaping step
-of him mounting the stairs. Why had he delayed so long, only to come to
-her at the last moment in such a hurry? She rose from her chair to face
-him, her hands clenched and her body tense, as if to resist a physical
-blow. As he appeared in the doorway his lips were smiling. There was
-evidently something which he was bursting to tell her. On catching sight
-of her face he halted. His smile faded.
-
-“What's the matter? What's happened?” She unclenched her hands and
-looked away from him. “Nothing.”
-
-“There must be something. Something's troubling you. What have you been
-doing with yourself this evening?”
-
-Her gaze came back to him. She smiled feebly. “Wondering whether you
-were coming and worrying over Robbie's present.”
-
-“Robbie's present! That's nothing to worry over. We'II go together and
-choose one tomorrow. I'll have time.”
-
-“Time!” She straightened up bravely, the way she had rehearsed the scene
-so often in her imagination. “Then it's true. You won't be here for
-Christmas? You're sailing?”
-
-Her knowledge of his doings was uncanny. He came a step nearer, but she
-backed away. He realised her fear lest he should touch her. For a moment
-he was offended. Then, “My orders came today. How did you know? It was
-what I came to tell you.”
-
-“How did I know!” She laughed unsteadily. “How does one know anything?
-The heart tells one things sometimes. You'll be busy tomorrow--so many
-other things to think about. Robbie's present doesn't matter. It's
-growing late... Good-bye.” He stood astonished at her abruptness. What
-had he done that she should be so anxious to rid herself of him? When he
-did not seem to see her proffered hand, but stared at her gloomily,
-her nerves broke. “Go. Why don't you go?” she cried fiercely. “You know
-you'll be happy.”
-
-“You want me to go?” he asked quietly. Had she heard her own voice, she
-would have given way to weeping. With her handkerchief pressed tightly
-against her lips, she nodded.
-
-He turned slowly, looked back from the threshold for a sign of relenting
-and dragged his way haltingly down the stairs. In the hall beneath the
-mistletoe he paused to listen. He fancied he had heard the muttering
-of sobbing. So long as he paused he heard nothing; it was only when he
-began to move that again he thought he heard it. Having flung his coat
-about his shoulders, he eased his arm into the sleeve. This wasn't what
-he had come for--a very different ending!
-
-And now the chance of the little house had arrived. Windows, chairs,
-tables, walls, we had all pledged ourselves to help her. He attempted to
-let himself out; the frontdoor refused to budge. He pulled, tugged and
-worked at the latch without avail.
-
-“Shan't go. Shan't go. Shan't go,” ticked the grandfather's clock
-excitedly. Then the usual thing happened, which always happened when the
-grandfather's clock got excited.
-
-There was a horrible _whirr_ of the spring running down; the weights
-dropped with a bang.
-
-In the silence that followed he listened. She thought he had gone. There
-could be no mistake now; she was crying as if her heart would break.
-
-The stairs creaked to warn her as he ascended. She could not have heard
-them, for when he stepped into the room she took no notice. She had sunk
-to the floor and lay with her face hidden in the cushions of the chair,
-with the gold light from the lamp spilling over her. For some moments he
-watched her--the shuddering rise and fall of her shoulders.
-
-“You told me to go,” he said. “The little house won't let me; it was
-always kind to us.” And then, when she made no answer, “It's true. I've
-got my sailing orders. But it was you who told me to go.”
-
-She was listening now. He knew that, for the half-moon shoulders had
-ceased to shudder. The smell of Jacqueminot drew him to her. Bending
-over her, he stole one hand from beneath the buried face. “Do I need to
-go?”
-
-And still there was no answer. It was then that the old grey parrot
-spoke. He had pretended to be sleeping. “What shall we talk about?” he
-whispered hoarsely; and, when an interval had elapsed, “Robbie?”
-
-The little lady, who had needed to be loved, lifted up her tear-stained
-face and the wounded officer who had wanted rest, bent lower.
-
-“I don't need to go,” he whispered. “I came to bring you Robbie's
-present. He told me what he wanted.”
-
-
-THE END
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-Title: The Little House
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-THE LITTLE HOUSE
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-By Coningsby Dawson
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-With Illustrations By Stella Langdale
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-New York: John Lane Company
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-1920
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-[Illustration: 0001]
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-THE LITTLE LADY
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-THE LITTLE HOUSE
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-CHAPTER I
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-[Illustration: 9017]
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-HE little house, tell this story. It was lived within my walls; not a
-line is invented and it was I, by my interfering, who brought about the
-happy ending. Who wants a story that does not end happily, especially a
-Christmas story? To have been responsible for the happy ending is pretty
-nearly as clever as to have made the story up out of one's own head or,
-as we houses say, out of one's own walls.
-
-Perhaps you never heard before of a house telling a story. If that be
-so, it is because you don't listen or because you go to bed too early.
-Unlike people, we houses sleep all day long; but after midnight we wake
-up and talk. When the clock strikes twelve, our stairs begin to crack
-and our windows to rattle and our floors to creak. If you ever hear
-these sounds, don't be frightened; they simply mean that the kind old
-walls that shelter you have begun to remember and to think. And we have
-so many things to remember and to think about, especially we old houses
-who have been standing for almost two hundred years. We have seen so
-much; we have been the friends of so many generations. More little
-children have been born beneath our roofs than we have stairs on which
-to count. We reckon things on our stairs, just as people reckon things
-on their fingers. When our stairs crack after midnight, it's usually
-because we're counting' the births and love-makings and marriages we
-have watched. We very often get them wrong because there are so many of
-them. Then the doors and windows and floors will chip in to correct us.
-"Ha," a window will rattle, "you've forgotten the little girl who used
-to gaze through my panes in 1760 or thereabouts." One of the doors will
-swing slowly on its hinges and, if anyone disputes with it, will bang,
-shouting angrily, "Wrong again--all wrong." Then the walls and the
-windows and the doors and the floors all start whispering, trying to
-add up correctly the joys and sorrows they have witnessed in the years
-beyond recall.
-
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-
-When that happens, if you're awake and listening, you'll hear us start
-adding afresh, from the lowest to the topmost stair.
-
-I am a London house and a very little house, standing in a fashionable
-square near Hyde Park. I have known my ups and downs. Once was the time
-when I was almost in the country and the link-boys used to make a fuss
-at having to escort my lady so far in her sedan-chair. It's a long way
-to the country now, for the city has spread out miles beyond me. Within
-sight through the trees at the end of the square red motor-buses pass,
-bumping their way rowdily down to Hammersmith and Kew. In my young days
-these places were villages, but I am told they are full of noises now.
-I have at least escaped that, for our square is a backwater of quiet and
-leads to nowhere, having an entrance only at one end. All the houses
-in the square were built at the same time as I was, which makes things
-companionable. We all look very much alike, with tiny areas, three stone
-steps leading up from the pavement, one window blinking out from the
-ground-floor, two blinking out from each of the other floors and a
-verandah running straight across us. In summer-time the verandah is
-gay with flowers. Our only difference is the colour we are painted,
-especially the colour of our doors. Mine is white; but some of our
-neighbours' are blue, some green, some red. We're very proud of the
-front-doors in our square. In the middle stands a railed-in garden,
-to which none but our owners have access. Its trees are as ancient as
-ourselves. Behind us, so hidden that it is almost forgotten, stands
-the grey parish-church, surrounded by a graveyard in which many of the
-people who have been merry in us rest.
-
-For some years we were what is known as a "gone down neighborhood,"
-till a gentleman who writes books bought us cheap, put us in repair and
-rented us to his friends. This has made us very select; since then we
-have become again fashionable.
-
-Now you know all that is necessary to form a mental picture of us.
-Because we are so small, we are sometimes spoken of as "Dolls' House
-Square." All the things that I shall tell you I do not pretend to
-have witnessed, for houses have to spend their lives always in the one
-place--they cannot ride in taxis and move about. We gain our knowledge
-of how the world is changing by listening to the conversations of people
-who inhabit us; when night has fallen we mutter among ourselves, passing
-on to one another beneath the starlight down the lamp-lit streets
-the gossip we have overheard. Whatever of importance we miss, the
-churchbells tell us. Big Ben, with his sweet tenor voice, booming out
-the hours, is in this respect particularly thoughtful.
-
-[Illustration: 0025]
-
-So now, having explained myself, I come to my story of the little lady
-who needed to be loved, but did not know it, and the wounded officer who
-wanted rest.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II
-
-[Illustration: 9029]
-
-HE little lady who needed to be loved, but did not know it, discovered
-me quite by accident. This story is a series of accidents; if it had
-not been for the _ifs_ and the _perhaps's_ and the _possibilities_ there
-wouldn't have been any story to tell.
-
-I was empty when she found me, for my late tenants had grown frightened
-and had moved into the country on account of airraids. They said that I
-was too near the giant searchlights and anti-aircraft guns of Hyde Park
-Corner to be healthy. If they weren't killed by bombs, sooner or later
-they would be struck by our own expended shell-cases that came toppling
-from two miles out of the clouds. So they had made their exit hurriedly
-in November, taking all their furniture and leaving me to spend my
-one-hundred-and-ninety-eighth Christmas in the company of a caretaker.
-
-It was shortly before Christmas when I first saw her. Night had settled
-peacefully down; it was about nine o'clock when the maroons and sirens
-began to give warning that the enemy was approaching. In an instant,
-like a lamp extinguished, the lights of London flickered and sank. Down
-the forests of streets innumerable doors swiftly opened and people came
-pattering out. Dragging half-clad children by the hand and carrying
-babies snatched up from their warm beds, they commenced to run hither
-and thither, seeking the faint red lights of shelters, where cellars and
-overhead protection might be found. Policemen, mounted on bicycles, rode
-up and down the thoroughfares, blowing whistles. Ambulances dashed by,
-tooting horns and clanging bells. From far and near out of the swamp
-of darkness rose a medley of panic and sound. Prodding the sky, like
-detectives with lanterns, searchlights hunted and turned back the edges
-of the clouds. Then ominously, with solemn anger, the guns opened up
-and in fierce defiance the first bomb fell. The pattering of feet ceased
-suddenly. Streets grew forlorn and empty. The commotion of living and
-the terror of dying were transferred from the earth to the air.
-
-I was standing deserted with my door wide open, for at the first signs
-of clamour the old woman, who was supposed to take care of me, had
-hobbled up from her basement and out on to the pavement in search of the
-nearest Tube Station. In her fear for her safety, she had forgotten to
-close my door, so there I stood with the damp air drifting into my hall,
-at the mercy of any chance vagrant.
-
-The guns had been booming for perhaps five minutes when I heard running
-footsteps entering the square. Our square is so shut in and small that
-it echoes like a church; every sound is startling and can be heard in
-every part of it. I could not see to whom the footsteps belonged on
-account of the trees and the darkness. They entered on the side farthest
-from me, from the street where the red motor-buses pass. When they had
-reached the top, from which there is no exit, they hesitated; then
-came hurrying back along the side on which they would have to pass me.
-_Tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap_ and panting breath--the sound of
-a woman's high-heeled shoes against the pavement. Accompanying the
-_tip-a-tap_ were funny, more frequent, shuffling noises, indistinct and
-confused. Three shadows grew out of the gloom, a small one on either
-side and a bigger one in the centre; as they drew near they resolved
-themselves into a lady in an evening-wrap and two children.
-
-I was more glad than I cared to own, for I'd been feeling lonely. Now
-that peace has come and we've won the war, I don't mind acknowledging
-that I'd been feeling frightened; at the time I wouldn't have confessed
-it for the world lest the Huns should have got to know it. We London
-houses, trying to live up to the example of our soldiers, always
-pretended that we liked the excitement of airraids. We didn't really; we
-quaked in all our bricks and mortar. One's foundations aren't what
-they were when one is a hundred-and-ninety-eight years old. So I'm not
-ashamed to tell you that I was delighted when the lady and her children
-came in my direction. I tried to push my front-door wider that they
-might guess that they were welcome. I was terribly nervous that they
-might pass in their haste without seeing that I was anxious to give them
-shelter. It was shelter that they were looking for. In coming into the
-square they had been seeking a shortcut home.
-
-They drew level without slackening their steps and had almost gone by
-me when, less than a quarter of a mile away, a bomb crashed deafeningly.
-Everything seemed to reel. Far and near you could hear the tinkling of
-splintered glass. The world leapt up red for a handful of seconds as
-though the door of a gigantic furnace had been flung open. Against
-the glow you could see the crouching roofs of houses, the crooked
-chimney-pots and the net-work of trees in the garden with their branches
-stripped and bare. The lady clutched at my railings to steady herself.
-Her face was white and her eyes were dark with terror. The last bomb had
-been so very close that it seemed as though the next must fall in the
-square itself. One of the searchlights had spotted the enemy and was
-following his plane through the clouds, holding it in its glare.
-
-"Mummy, it's all right. Don't be frightened. You've got me to take care
-of you." It was the little boy speaking. Then he saw my _To Let_ sign
-above and pointed, "We'll go in here till it's over. Look, the door's
-wide open."
-
-He tugged on her hand. With her arm about the shoulder of the little
-girl on the other side of her, she followed. The glow died down
-and faded. Soon the square was as secret and shadowy as it had been
-before--a tank full of darkness in which nothing stirred.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III
-
-[Illustration: 9037]
-
-EVER since I had been built had any visit quite as unceremonious as this
-occurred. Who was the strange lady? What was she doing wandering the
-streets at this hour unescorted? She was beautiful and richly gowned;
-her face was young, but very sad. I was anxious to learn more, so I
-listened intently.
-
-At first on entering, they halted just across the threshold, huddled
-together, the little lady with an arm flung about each of the children.
-She seemed to think that someone might be hidden in the darkness
-watching--someone to whom I belonged--for presently she addressed that
-supposed someone tremblingly: "We hope you don't mind, but the car
-forgot to come for us. Grandfather had been giving us a party. When we
-heard the warning, we tried to run home before the raid started; but
-we got lost. The Tube Stations were all so crowded that... And we found
-your door open, so we hope you don't mind us entering."
-
-She paused nervously, waiting for someone to answer. A board creaked;
-apart from that the silence was unbroken.
-
-Speaking to herself more than to the children, "It's quite empty," she
-said at last.
-
-"Shall I close the door, Mumsie?" the little boy questioned.
-
-"No, Robbie darling," she whispered; "they might be angry, when they
-come back. I mean the people who live here."
-
-"But it's dreadfully cold."
-
-"Then let's go farther in and find somewhere to sit down till the raid
-is over." They stumbled their way in the darkness through the hall and
-up the narrow staircase, where only one can walk abreast. Robbie went
-first on this voyage of discovery; he felt that if anything were hiding
-from them, his body would form a protection. His mother didn't want to
-lose sight of the street by climbing higher, but he coaxed her on
-from stair to stair. As pioneer of the expedition, he reached the tiny
-landing with the single door, which gives entrance to the drawing-room
-which occupies the whole of the second storey. Turning the handle he
-peeped in warily. Then, "Cheer up, Mummy," he cried, "there's been a
-fire and there's a wee bit of it still burning."
-
-The room was carpetless and bare of furniture, save for an old sofa with
-sagging springs that had been pulled up across the hearth. Perched on
-the bars of the grate sat a tin kettle, gasping feebly, with nearly all
-its water boiled away. Under the kettle a few coals glowed faintly and
-a weak flame jumped and sank, like a ghost trying to make up its mind to
-vanish. Through the tall French windows that opened on to the verandah
-one could see the sky lit up with the tumultuous display of monstrous
-fireworks. From high overhead, above the clatter of destruction and the
-banging of guns, came the long-drawn, contented humming of the planes.
-
-"They're right over us," the little boy whispered.
-
-As if afraid that any movement on their part would draw the enemy's
-attention, they stood silent, clinging together, and listened. Oblongs
-of light, falling through the windows, danced and shifted. Once the
-beam of a searchlight groping through the shadows, gazed straight in
-and dwelt on them astounded, as if to say, "Well, I never! Who'd have
-thought to find you here?"
-
-They tiptoed over to the couch and sat down, making as little noise
-as possible, for they still weren't sure that they were welcome. They
-didn't speak or move for some time; with the excitement and running and
-losing their way they were very tired. Presently the little boy got up,
-and went and stood by the window looking out, with his legs astraddle
-and his hands behind his back like a man. He wore a sailor-suit and had
-bare, sturdy knees. He was very small to try to be so manly.
-
-[Illustration: 0041]
-
-"I'm not frightened, Mummy," he said.
-
-"If father were here, he wouldn't be frightened."
-
-She shifted her position so that she could glance proudly back at him.
-"Father was never frightened."
-
-For the first time the little girl spoke. "If father were here, they
-wouldn't dare to come to London. I expect they knew..."
-
-"Yes, Joan," her mother interrupted quickly, "I expect they knew."
-
-"And when I'm a man they won't dare to come to London, either," said
-Robbie. "How many of them did father...?"
-
-But at that moment, before he could finish his question, his mother
-pressed her finger against his lips warningly. Above the roar of what
-was going on in the clouds, she had heard another and more alarming
-sound; the front-door closed quietly, a match struck and then the slow
-deliberate tread of someone groping up the stairs.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV
-
-[Illustration: 9047]
-
-HE tread reached the landing and proceeded to mount higher. Then it
-hesitated. Another match was struck and it commenced to descend. On
-arriving at the landing again, it halted uncertain. The handle of
-the door was tried. The door swung open and a man peered across the
-threshold. No one spoke. The little lady on the couch drew Joan closer
-to her side and held her breath, hoping that the man might not observe
-them and that, when he had gone, they might escape. But the man did not
-go, he stood there on the alert, listening and searching the darkness.
-
-It was Robbie who spoke first. He had thrust his hands deep into his
-knickerbockers' pockets to gain courage. "What do you want? We think you
-might speak," he said.
-
-The man laughed pleasantly. "I'm sorry if I've frightened you. I didn't
-know that anyone was here. I thought this was an empty house. Perhaps
-you weren't aware of it, but you'd left your front-door open." Then,
-because no one replied, he added, "It's all right now; it's closed."
-
-He wasn't looking at Robbie any longer. He was trying to probe the
-shadows by the fireplace, where he had caught the rustle of a woman's
-dress. He had caught something else--the faint sweet fragrance of
-Jacqueminot.
-
-"I've alarmed you," he said. "I'm a stranger in London and I couldn't
-find any way out of your square. I strayed into your house for shelter.
-I'm sorry I intruded. Good-night to you all, however many there are of
-you."
-
-He was actually going. It was impossible to see what he looked like, but
-he was evidently well-mannered and a gentleman. Suddenly to the lady
-in the lonely house, from being a creature of dread, he became a
-heaven-sent protector. Who could tell how many less desirable visitors
-might not call before the raid was ended? The care-taker might return.
-Were that to happen, it would be much more comfortable to have this
-male trespasser present to help make the explanations. Just as he was
-withdrawing, the lady rose from the shabby couch and called him back.
-
-"Oh, please, we'd much rather you didn't go."
-
-"But who are we?"
-
-"I and Robbie and Joan. We did the same thing as you. The house doesn't
-belong to us. We got caught, just as you did. We were terribly scared
-and... and it's creepy being in an empty, strange house where you
-haven't any right to be."
-
-Though she could only see the blur of him, she could feel the smile that
-was in his eyes when she had finished her appeal. And it was an appeal,
-eager and nervous and tremulous. The tears in her voice said much more
-than the words. As he turned on his heel, she heard the jingle of his
-spurs and guessed that he was a man in khaki.
-
-"I'm on my way to France," he said, speaking slowly; "I only landed
-yesterday. I was lonely too; I didn't know a soul. A queer way to make a
-friend!"
-
-As he stepped into the room, the light from the windows fell on him; he
-was dressed in the uniform of an American officer.
-
-"Which are you?" he asked. "I've heard only your voice as yet. I'll do
-anything I can to help."
-
-The little lady held out her hand, but her face was still in shadow. It
-was a very tiny hand. "It's good of you to be willing to stay with us,"
-she said gratefully.
-
-At that point their conversation languished. The circumstances were so
-unprecedented that they were at a loss what to say or how to act. It
-was he who broke the awkward silence: "We ought to be able to rouse this
-fire with a little effort." He bent over it, trying to pull it together.
-"We need more coal. If you'll excuse me and won't be frightened while
-I'm gone, I'll run down and see what I can forage."
-
-It seemed a long time that he was gone--so long that she had begun to be
-afraid that he'd taken his chance to slip out. She wouldn't have blamed
-him. In the last two years, since she'd been by herself, she'd become
-used to men doing things like that. She had ceased to bank overmuch on
-masculine chivalry. Few men had leisure to expend on a woman, however
-charming and beautiful, whose children had always to be included in the
-friendship.
-
-When she had made quite sure that he was no more chivalrous than other
-men, she heard him laboriously returning. He came in carrying a scuttle
-in one hand and some bundles of wood in the other. "And now we'll pull
-down the blinds," he said, "and make a blaze and get her going."
-
-On his knees before the hearth he started to work, ramming paper between
-the bars, piling sticks criss-cross and using his cheeks as bellows. In
-the intervals between his exertions he chatted, "I'm no great shakes
-at house-work. You mustn't watch me too closely or laugh at me. I'll do
-better than this when I've been at the Front, I guess. Are these your
-kiddies?... I suppose your husband's over there, where I'm going?"
-
-"He was."
-
-"Oh, so you've got him back! You're lucky. Is he wounded or has he got a
-staff job in England?"
-
-"He'll never come back."
-
-He paused in what he was doing and sat gazing into the flames which were
-licking at the wood. He hung his head. He ought to have thought of that;
-in the last few years so many Englishmen were dead. And then there came
-another reflection--the picture of what it must have cost her husband to
-say good-bye to his wife and children, and go marching away to anonymous
-glory. He wasn't married himself, but if he had been... It took enough
-bolstering up of one's courage to go when one was single; but to go when
-one was married... And yet selfishly, ever since he had put on khaki his
-paramount regret had been that, were he to peg out, he would leave no
-one to carry on in his stead. This air-raid was his first remote taste
-of warfare; within the next few weeks he was to know it in its full
-fury. What had impressed him most was the difference between war as
-imagined and witnessed. As imagined it had seemed the most immense of
-sports; as witnessed it was merely murder. Just before he had
-sought shelter he had seen where a bomb had fallen. People had been
-killed--people not so different from the mother and children hiding in
-this house. The suddenness of extinction had made him feel that in the
-game of life he had somehow "missed out." There would be no woman to
-think of him as "her man" were he to go west. And here was the woman's
-price for such caring, "He'll never come back."
-
-He turned his head slowly; by the light of the crackling wood for the
-first time he saw her. The little boy was lying wearied out, with
-his head bowed in her lap. The little girl sat drowsing against her
-shoulder.
-
-She herself was leaning forward, gazing at and beyond him with a
-curious air of resigned intensity. She seemed to him to be listening
-for someone, whom she knew in her heart was never coming. He noticed the
-white half-moon of her shoulders faintly showing beneath her chinchilla
-wrap. He noticed her string of perfect pearls, the single ring on
-her hand and the expensive simplicity of her velvet gown. He was
-sufficiently a man of the world to make a guess at her social station.
-But it wasn't her beauty or elegance that struck him, though they were
-strangely in contrast to the empty room in which she sat; it was her
-gentleness and expression of patient courage. He knew, as surely as if
-she had told him, that this empty room, in which he had found her, was
-the symbol of her days. It was with her as it was with himself; there
-was no man to whom she was "his woman."
-
-"I've hurt you by the impertinence of my questions."
-
-She smiled and shook her head. "You've not hurt me. Don't think that.
-I shouldn't like you to think that you'd hurt me or anything that would
-make you sad. Are you going to France soon?"
-
-"Tomorrow."
-
-"Then you won't be here for Christmas. I wonder where you'll spend it.
-Perhaps next Christmas the war will be ended and you'll..." She caught
-the instant change in his expression. She had seen that look too often
-in soldiers' eyes when the future was mentioned not to know what it
-meant. She laid her hand on his arm impulsively. "But everyone who goes
-doesn't stay there. You'll be one of the lucky ones. You'll come back.
-I have that feeling about you. I know what's in your mind; you're a long
-way from home, you're going to face a great danger and you believe that
-everything is ended. You can only think of war now, but there are so
-many better things to do with life than fighting. All the better things
-will be here to welcome you, when you return."
-
-He found himself talking to her in a way in which he had never spoken to
-any woman. Afterwards, when he recalled their conversation, he wondered
-why. Was it because she had filled him with so complete a sense of rest?
-One didn't have to explain things to her; she understood. He asked her
-how it was that she understood and she replied, "You don't have to go
-to war to learn how to endure. You can stay at home and yet beat off
-attacks in the front-line trench. We women defeat despair by keeping on
-smiling when there's nothing left to smile about, and by wearing pretty
-dresses when there's no one to take a pride in what we wear."
-
-He retorted unguardedly, as he felt. "But there must be heaps of people
-who take a pride in you."
-
-"You think so? You're unspoilt and generous. Life's a wonderful dream
-that lies all before you. You haven't known sorrow. Do you know what you
-seemed to be saying when you spoke to me through the shadows? 'Everybody
-has always loved and trusted me, so you love and trust me, too.' If it
-hadn't been for that, that I saw that you'd always been loved and were
-lonely for the moment, I shouldn't have sat here talking with you for
-the last hour. You'll get everything you want from life, if you'll only
-wait for it. You'll come back."
-
-While he sat at her feet in the firelight, she had the knack of making
-him feel like a little boy who was being comforted. She kept aloof from
-him, but she mothered him with words. He found himself glancing up at
-her furtively to make sure that she wasn't as old as she pretended. She
-wasn't old at all--not a single day older than himself. He turned over
-in his mind what she had said about having no one to be proud of her. He
-would have given a lot for the chance to be proud of her himself. But he
-was going to France tomorrow--there was no time left for that. With
-so much fighting and dying to be done, it seemed as though there would
-never again be time for anything that was personal.
-
-The clamour in the skies had died down.
-
-The crash of guns had been growing infrequent; now it had subsided.
-The drone of planes could be no more heard. The invader had been driven
-back; hard on his heels our aerial cavalry were following across the
-Channel, awaiting their moment to exact revenge when he tried to land.
-
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-
-The restored normality seemed to rouse her reserve. Lifting the sleeping
-head from her lap, she whispered, "Wake up, Robbie; we can go home now.
-It's all over."
-
-The officer had risen and stood leaning against the mantel, "So it's
-good-bye?"
-
-"I'm afraid so."
-
-"You've made me happy when I least expected to be happy. Shall we meet
-again, I wonder?"
-
-She smiled at his seriousness. "Perhaps. One never knows what the good
-God will allow. We didn't expect to meet tonight."
-
-He was sensitive to her evasion and laughed, pretending to make light
-of it. "We don't want them to think they've had burglars. We had better
-leave something for the coals we've burned." He placed a pound note on
-the mantel.
-
-Taking Joan in his arms and going first, he led the way down the stairs.
-When they were out of the hall and the front-door had closed behind
-them, he left the little group on the steps and went in search of a
-taxi. After a lengthy expedition he found one and, by promising an
-excessive fare, induced the driver to accompany him back. He knew
-neither the name of the square nor the number of the house, so he had
-to keep his head out of the window and shout directions. On entering the
-square he searched the pavement ahead, but could catch no sign of his
-recent companions. He halted the cab against the curb at the point where
-he thought he had left them; he was made certain that it was the point
-when he saw the notice TO LET. Perhaps the caretaker had come back and
-invited them to enter till he returned. He rang the bell and knocked
-vigorously. The driver was eyeing him with suspicion. When his repeated
-knockings were unanswered, he got into the taxi and ordered him to move
-slowly round the square.
-
-She had completely vanished. Either she had picked up a conveyance for
-herself, while he had been engaged in his search, or else she had lost
-faith in him and had taken it for granted that he had deserted her. He
-did not know her name. She had given him no address. Tomorrow night
-he would be in France. He had neither the time nor the necessary
-information to hunt for her.
-
-In reply to the driver's request for further instructions, he growled
-the name of his hotel. Then he spread himself out on the cushions and
-gave way to disconsolate reflections. The night was full of smoke and
-heavy with the smell of a bonfire burnt out. Things had become again
-uninteresting. He told himself that the most wonderful hour of his life
-was ended.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V
-
-[Illustration: 9065]
-
-HRISTMAS came and went unmerrily. The old woman who took care of me had
-known better days; she stayed in bed in an effort to forget. Next door,
-but one, a son had returned unexpectedly from the trenches. There were
-laughing, dancing and piano playing. I tried to share their happiness;
-but happiness isn't the same when it is borrowed second-hand. My rooms
-were cheerless and empty of all sound.
-
-I kept thinking of my air-raid visitors, wondering where they were and
-hoping that the American officer had re-found the little lady. If
-he had, I felt sure he would be good to her. I told myself a foolish
-fairy-story, as old houses will, of how, when the war was ended, they
-would drive up to my door together, as if by accident, and exclaim,
-"Why, it's the little house where we first met!" Then the TO LET sign
-would be taken down and, having fetched Joan and Robbie, we would all
-live together forever. With luck and love we might have smaller feet to
-toddle up and down my stairs.
-
-January, February, March commenced and ended, and the TO LET sign was
-still there. It seemed that nobody would ever want me. It was April now;
-to their nests in the railed-in garden of the square the last year's
-birds were coming back. Trees had become a mist of greenness. Tulips and
-daffodils were shining above the ground. In the window-boxes of other
-houses geraniums were making a scarlet flare. Without warning the dream,
-which had been no more than a dream, began to become a fact.
-
-I had been drowsing in the sun, taking no notice of what was happening,
-when I was suddenly awakened by a sharp rat-a-tat-tat. I came to myself
-with a start to find that the little lady, unaccompanied, was standing
-on my steps.
-
-She knocked again and then a third time. There could be no doubt about
-her determination to enter. At last the old woman heard her and dragged
-herself complainingly up from the basement. When the door had been
-narrowly opened, the little lady pushed it wider and stepped smartly
-into the hall with an exceedingly business-like air. "I have an order
-from the agents to view the house."
-
-"I'm 'ard of 'earing. Wot did yer say? Speak louder."
-
-"I have an order from the agents to look over the house."
-
-"Let's see your order?"
-
-While the caretaker fumbled for her spectacles, she went on talking.
-"You won't like it. There's no real sense in your seeing it. It ain't
-much of a 'ouse--not modern, too little and all stairs."
-
-It made me furious to hear her running me down and to have no chance to
-defend myself.
-
-"Nevertheless, I rather like it and I think I'll see it," the little
-lady said.
-
-She went from room to room, making notes of the accommodations and
-thinking aloud as she set them down. "Four floors beside the basement.
-On the top floor two bedrooms; they'll do for Robbie and Joan and nurse.
-On the next floor one bedroom and a bathroom; I'll have that for myself.
-On the second floor one big room, running from front to back; that's
-where we'II have the parrot and the piano, and where I'll do my sewing.
-On the ground-floor a dining-room in front and a bedroom at the back;
-the bedroom at the back will do for cook. I won't have anyone sleeping
-below-stairs. It's a very wee house, but tremendously cosy. And what
-pretty views--the garden in the square in front, and the old grey church
-with its graveyard at the back! It's all so green and quiet, like being
-in the country."
-
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-
-She had far out-distanced the caretaker, hurrying over the first two
-floors that she might get to the top by herself. Now, as she descended,
-she inspected each room more leisurely. As yet she had said no word that
-would indicate that she had recognised me. I wondered what her motive
-had been in coming; whether she had deliberately sought me or stumbled
-on me simply by accident. I would have known her anywhere, though I had
-been blind and deaf, by the fragrance of Jacqueminot that clung about
-her.
-
-She had come to the tiny landing on the second floor, when something
-familiar in her surroundings struck her. She stood there holding
-the handle of the door and wrinkling her forehead. "It's odd," she
-whispered; "I can't understand it." She turned the handle and entered.
-The room smelt stuffy; its windows had not been opened since she was
-last there. The sunlight, pouring in, revealed motes of dust which rose
-up dancing every time she stirred. In the grate were the accumulated
-ashes of many fires. Drawn across the hearth was the shabby couch.
-Nothing had been altered since she had left it. She passed her hand
-across her eyes, "It can't be; it would be too strange to find it like
-that." Then she started to reconstruct the scene as she remembered it.
-"Robbie was there against the window, asking how many Huns his daddy had
-brought down, and I was sitting here in the shadow, when quite suddenly
-we heard his tread on the stairs. The door opened; he said something
-about being sorry that he'd frightened us, and then.... Why yes, I'm
-positive." She stepped out onto the verandah and stood looking down into
-the square. When she turned to re-enter her eyes were moist and shining.
-"You _are_ the little house. Oh, little house, I've dreamt of you so
-often. Does he dream of you too, where he is out there? Was I right to
-run away and to doubt him? If you had a tongue you could tell me; did he
-say hard things about me when he found me gone on coming back?"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI
-
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-
-WO weeks later they took possession of me. They did it with so much
-friendliness that at the end of a month it was as though we had always
-lived together. Even the furniture fitted into all my odd nooks and
-angles as if it had been made especially for me. And, indeed, it might
-have been, for most of it was created in the reign of Queen Anne, at
-which period my walls were, as one might say, feeling their legs. It was
-very pleasant when night had settled down and everyone was sleeping, to
-listen to the conversations which were carried on between the new-comers
-and my own floors and stairs. One grandfather's clock was particularly
-interesting in his reminiscences. He had told the time to Dr. Johnson
-and had ticked away the great lexicographer's last hours. On this
-account he was inclined to be amusingly self-important; it was a
-permanent source of grievance with him that, so far as the present
-generation was concerned, his pedigree was unknown. There were times
-when he would work himself into such passions that his weights would
-drop with a bang. He was always sorry for it next morning and ashamed
-to face the little lady. As she came down to breakfast, she would catch
-sight of his hands and say, "So the poor old clock has stopped again!
-The old fellow's worn out. We shall have to send him to the mender's."
-
-Perhaps it is hardly fair to repeat this gossip about one piece of the
-furniture, for everything, myself included, was old; whether we were
-tables, chairs or stair-cases, we all had our crochets and oddities.
-But, however much we differed among ourselves, we were united in adoring
-the youth of the little lady and her children. More than any of us the
-whispering parrot adored her.
-
-The whispering parrot was a traveller. He had come from Australia fifty
-years ago.
-
-He played so indispensable a part in producing the happy ending that he
-deserves an introduction.
-
-He had been the gift of the children's grandfather, a retired General.
-His plumage was Quaker grey, all except his breast and crest which were
-a wonderful rose-pink. He had black beady eyes which took in everything;
-what they saw, he invariably remembered. He had a confidential, hoarse
-way of speaking, that never rose above a whisper. When you heard him
-for the first time you supposed that he had a bad sore throat. He had
-a favorite question which he asked whenever he thought he was not being
-paid sufficient attention, "What shall we talk about?" He would ask it
-with his head cocked on one side, while he rubbed his feathers up and
-down the bars. "What shall we talk about?" he would ask the little lady
-as she sat sewing beneath the lamp of an evening. She was always by
-herself when the children had been put to bed. She had no callers and
-never went anywhere.
-
-"Talk about Polly!" she would say. "I don't know, you good grey bird.
-Did you think I was lonely? Well, let's see! Who loves Mummy best? Can
-you answer me that?"
-
-Then he would cock his head still farther on one side and pretend to
-think furiously. She would have to ask him several times before he would
-attempt an answer. Usually, when he got ready, he would clear his throat
-and whisper, "The dustman." After which he would laugh as though his
-sides were aching: "What a naughty Polly! What a naughty Polly!"
-
-She would maintain a dignified silence till she had emptied her
-needle. Then she would glance at him reproachfully, "Think again, Mr.
-Impudence--not the dustman."
-
-So he would think again, and having clambered all over his cage and hung
-upside down to amuse her, would hazard, "Polly?"
-
-"Not Polly."
-
-Then he would make any number of suggestions, though he knew quite well
-the answer she required. After each wrong guess he would go off
-into gales of ghostly merriment. At last he would say very solemnly,
-"Robbie."
-
-"Yes, Robbie," she would reply and scratch his head; after which the
-game was ended. Soon she would fold away her work, put out the lights
-and climb the narrow stairs to her quiet bed.
-
-It seemed very sad that, when she was so young, she should have to spend
-so many hours in talking to a rascally old bird. One can be young for so
-short a time. How short, those who are old know best.
-
-There were evenings, however, when, after the parrot had answered
-"Robbie," she would whisper, "I wonder!" and clasp her hands in her lap,
-gazing straight before her. On these evenings she would sit very late
-and would look down at her feet from time to time, as though expecting
-to see someone crouching there. Taxis would chug their way into the
-square and draw up at one or other of the dolls' houses. The taxi door
-would open and after a few seconds close with a bang. There would be the
-rustle of a woman's dress and the tripping of her slippered feet across
-the pavement; the bass muttering of her husband paying the driver;
-laughter; the rattling of a key in the latch; and silence. The little
-lady would sit quite motionless, listening to the secret homecomings
-of lovers. Then at last she would nod her head, "You're right, Polly, I
-expect. There's no one else. No doubt it's Robbie who loves me best."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII
-
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-
-UT it wasn't Robbie. The diningroom window was the first to make the
-discovery. Being on the ground-floor, it gazes across the pavement under
-the trees and sees many things after nightfall which are missed by the
-upper storeys. The first and second time that something unusual happened
-I was not told; not until the third time was I taken into the secret.
-The dining-room window does most of the watching for the entire house;
-it sees so much that it has learnt to be discreet.
-
-It was Armistice night when the unusual happening first occurred. London
-had gone mad with relief from suspense. Wherever a barrel-organ could be
-found people were dancing. Where more suitable music was not available,
-tin-cans were being beaten with a dervish, rhythmic monotony. Dance the
-people must. Their joy had gone into their feet; they could not convince
-themselves that peace had come till they had danced themselves to a
-standstill. They invented impromptu steps, dancing twenty abreast in the
-open spaces, humming any tune that caught their fancy, with their arms
-linked in those of strangers. But there were no strangers that night;
-everyone was a friend. Top-hats, evening-dress, corduroys and privates'
-uniforms hobnobbed together. A mighty roar of laughter and singing went
-up from thousands of miles of streets, dim-lit and dusk-drenched to
-ward off the ancient peril from the air. How suddenly unmodern peril
-had become! All London laughed; all England; all the world. The sound
-reached the Arctic; polar bears lumbered farther northward, stampeded by
-the strum of our guffaws. If there were inhabitants on Mars, they must
-have heard. The war was won. The news was so incredible that we had to
-make a noise to silence our doubts.
-
-Everything that could rejoice was out under the stars making merry.
-We had hidden so long, walked so stealthily, wept so quietly, hated so
-violently that our right to be happy was almost too terrible to bear.
-We expressed our joy foolishly, hysterically, inadequately by shouting,
-embracing, climbing lamp-posts, riding on the roofs of taxis. What did
-it matter so long as we expressed it and brought the amazing truth home
-to ourselves? The last cannon had roared. The final man had died in
-battle. The wicked waste of white human bodies was ended. There would be
-no more rushing for the morning papers and searching the casualty lists
-with dread; no more rumours of invasions; no more musterings for new
-offensives. The men whom we loved were safe; they had been reprieved at
-the eleventh hour. We should have them home presently, seated by their
-firesides. It seemed like the fulfilment of a prophet's ecstasy; as
-though sorrow and crying had passed away and forever there would be no
-death.
-
-There were two people who did not dance, climb lamp-posts, beat tin-cans
-and ride on the roofs of taxis that night. Perhaps they were the only
-two in London; they were both in Dolls' House Square. The little lady
-was one. She had tucked Joan and Robbie safely in their beds. She had
-kissed them "Good-night" and turned the gas on the landing to a jet. She
-had gone part way down the narrow stairs and then... and then she had
-come back. She had picked up Joan and carried her into Robbie's room.
-When the two heads were lying close together on the pillow, she had
-seated herself in the darkness beside them.
-
-The little boy stretched up his arms to pull her down; she resisted. His
-hands wandered over her face and reached her eyes. They were wet. His
-heart missed a beat. He knew what that meant. So often in the dark, dark
-night he had wakened with the sure sense that she was crying and had
-tiptoed down the creaking stairs to creep in beside her and place his
-small arms tightly about her.
-
-"Never mind; you have me, Mummy." That was what he always said. He
-whispered it now.
-
-"Yes, I have my wee man."
-
-"And me, Mummy," Joan murmured sleepily.
-
-"Mummy knows. She has you both. Don't worry about her. She's feeling
-silly tonight."
-
-"Because you're happy?" Joan questioned.
-
-"Yes, happy for so many little boys and girls whose soldier daddies will
-be coming back to them soon. Don't talk any more. Go sleepy-bye."
-
-But Robbie knew that it wasn't happiness that made her cry; he knew that
-she was crying because she had no soldier to come back. What could he
-say to comfort her? His eyes grew drowsy while he thought about it. He
-waited till Joan was in Sleepy-bye Land, then with an effort he opened
-his eyes.
-
-"Mummy, do you know what I'd like best for Christmas?"
-
-"I thought you were sleeping. Don't tell me now. There's heaps of time.
-It's six weeks till Christmas."
-
-"But Joan and I have talked about it," he persisted. "We don't want him,
-if you don't want him."
-
-"What is he, dear? If he doesn't cost too much, you shall have him."
-
-Robbie procrastinated now that he had brought his mother to the point
-of listening. It was a delicate proposal that he was about to make. "I
-don't know whether you can get one," he hesitated. "A boy at my school
-got one without asking, and it wasn't even Christmas."
-
-He was sitting up in bed now, very intense and serious, and very much
-awake.
-
-"But you've not told me yet what it is you want. If you don't tell me, I
-can't say whether I can afford it."
-
-She slipped her arm about the square little body and feeling how it
-trembled, held it close against her breast. He hid his face in the
-hollow of her neck. "Robbie's place," she whispered. "If it's difficult
-to say, whisper it to mother there."
-
-His lips moved several times before a sound came and then, "If it isn't
-too much trouble, we should like to have a Daddy."
-
-Against his will she held him back from her, trying to see his eyes.
-"But why?"
-
-It was he who was crying now. "Oh Mummy, I didn't mean to hurt you....
-To be like all the other little boys and girls." When at last he was
-truly asleep and she had come down to the lamp-lit room in which she
-sewed, she did not take up her work. The parrot tried to draw her into
-conversation with his eternal question, "What shall we talk about?"
-
-"Nothing tonight, Polly," she said. Presently she crossed the room and,
-pulling back the curtains, stood staring out into the blackness. So her
-children had felt it, too--the weight of loneliness! She had tried so
-hard to prevent them from sharing it; had striven in so many ways to
-be their companion. Try as she would, she could never make up for a
-father's absence. She could never give them the sense of security that a
-man could have given without effort, even though he had loved them less.
-It was a bitter realisation--one which vaguely she had always dreaded
-must come to her. It was doubly bitter coming to her now, on a night
-when all the world was glad. She might be many things to her children;
-she could never be a man.... What did Robbie think? That you bought
-a father from an agency or engaged him through an advertisement? She
-smiled sadly, "Not so easy as that."
-
-"What shall we talk about?" asked the parrot.
-
-She drew the curtains together, extinguished the lights and groped her
-way up to bed.
-
-But her eyes had not peered far enough into the blackness. There was
-another person in London who had not danced or climbed lamp-posts or
-ridden on the roofs of taxis that night. For three hours he had watched
-the little house from the shadow of the trees across the road. From the
-pavement, had you been passing, you would hardly have distinguished him
-as he leant against the garden-railings. The only time he gave a sign
-of his presence was when the red flare of his cigarette betrayed him. He
-did not seem to be planning harm to anyone; he could not have done much
-harm in any case, for the left sleeve of his coat hung empty. He was
-simply waiting for something that he hoped might happen. At last his
-patience was rewarded when she drew aside the curtain and stood with the
-lighted room behind her, staring out into the blackness. Only when she
-had again hidden herself and all the house was in darkness, did he turn
-to go. He was there the next night and the next. It was after his third
-night of watching that the dining-room window told me.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII
-
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-
-HE fourth night he was there again. By this time everything in the
-house, from the kettle in the kitchen to the carpet on the topmost
-landing, was aware that a one-armed man was hidden beneath the trees
-across the road, watching. The whole house was on the alert, listening
-and waiting--everybody, that is to say, except the people most
-concerned, who inhabited us. It seemed strange that they alone should be
-in ignorance. The grandfather clock did his best to tell them. "Beware;
-take care. Beware; take care," he ticked as his pendulum swung to and
-fro. They stared him in the face and read the time by his hands, but
-they had no idea what he was saying.
-
-What could it be that the watching man wanted? Whatever it was, he
-wanted it badly, for it was by no means pleasant to stand motionless for
-several hours when the November chill was in the air. Nor did he seem
-to find it pleasant, for every now and then he coughed and shook himself
-like a dog inside his coat, and sunk his chin deeper into his collar.
-
-He had been there since six o'clock. He had seen the cook and the
-housemaid come up the area-steps and meet their respective sweethearts
-under the arc-light at the end of the square. There was only one other
-grown person in the house beside the little lady--Nurse; and Nurse had
-been in bed since the afternoon with a sick headache. He could not have
-known that. It was at precisely eight that he consulted his luminous
-wrist-watch, crossed the road, hesitated and raised the knocker very
-determinedly, as if he had only just arrived and had not much time to
-spare. _Rat-tat-tat!_ The sound echoed alarmingly through the silence.
-The little lady dropped her sewing in her lap and listened. The sound
-was repeated. _Rat-tat-tat!_ It seemed to say, "Come along. Don't keep
-me waiting. You've got to let me in sooner or later. You know that."
-
-"It can't be the postman at this hour," she murmured, "and yet it sounds
-like his knock."
-
-Laying her work on the table beneath the lamp, she rose from her chair
-and descended. She opened the door only a little way at first, just wide
-enough for her to peer out, so that she could close it again if she saw
-anything disturbing.
-
-"So you do live here!" The man outside spoke gladly. "I guessed it could
-be no one else the moment I saw that the house was no longer empty."
-
-She opened the door a few more inches. His tone puzzled her by its
-familiarity. His face had not yet come into the ray of light which
-slanted from the hall across the steps.
-
-"You don't recognise me?" he questioned. "I called to let you know that
-I did fetch that taxi. It's been on my mind that you thought I deserted
-you. Taxi-cabs were hard to find in an air-raid."
-
-She flung the door wide. "Why it's----"
-
-She didn't know how to call him--how to put what he was into words. He
-had been simply "the American officer"--that was how she had named him
-in talking with the children. He had been often remembered, especially
-during the fireside hour when in imaginary adventures he had been the
-hero of many stories. How brave she had made him and how often she had
-feared that he was dead! There were other stories which she had told
-only to herself, when the children were asleep and the house was silent.
-And there he stood on the threshold, with the same gallant bearing and
-the same eager smile playing about his mouth. "I've always been loved
-and trusted; you love and trust me, too"--that was what his smile was
-saying to her.
-
-Her heart was beating wildly; but nothing of what she felt expressed
-itself in what she said. "I'm by myself. I've let the maids go out. I'm
-terribly apologetic for having treated you so suspiciously."
-
-He laughed and stepped into the hall. "I seem fated to find you by
-yourself; you were alone last time. I'm in hospital and have to be back
-by ten. Won't you let me sit with you for half an hour?"
-
-He had begun to remove his top-coat awkwardly. His awkwardness attracted
-her attention.
-
-"Please let me do that for you."
-
-"Oh, I'm learning to manage. It's all right.... Well, if you must.
-Thanks." She didn't dare trust herself. There was a pricking sensation
-behind her eyes. She motioned to him to go first. As she followed him
-up the stairs, she gazed fixedly at his flattened left side, where the
-sleeve was tucked limply into the tunic-pocket. She knew that when she
-was again face to face with him she must pretend not to have noticed.
-
-He entered the room and stood staring round. "The same old room! But it
-didn't belong to you then. How did you manage it?"
-
-"Easily, but not on purpose."
-
-"Truly, not on purpose?" His tone was disappointed.
-
-"No, not on purpose. I didn't know the name of the square or the number
-of the house that night. I stumbled on it months later by accident. It
-was still to let."
-
-"So you took it? Why did you take it?"
-
-"Because I'd liked it from the first and it suited me," she smiled. "Why
-else?"
-
-"I thought perhaps..."
-
-"Well, say it. You're just like Robbie. When Robbie wants to tell me
-something that's difficult, he has a special place against which he
-hides his face; it's easier to tell me there. You men are all such
-little boys. If it's difficult to tell, you do the same and say it
-without looking at me."
-
-She reseated herself beneath the lamp and took up her sewing. "Now tell
-me, why did you want me to say that I took it on purpose?"
-
-"I don't quite know. Perhaps it was because, had I been you, I should
-have taken it on purpose. One likes to live in places where he has been
-happy, even though the happiness lasted only for an hour."
-
-He wandered over to the couch before the fire and sat down where he
-could watch her profile and the slope of her throat beneath the lamp.
-The only sound was the prick of the needle and the quiet pulling through
-of the thread. It had all happened just as he would have planned it. He
-was glad that she was alone. He was glad that it was in this same room
-that they had met. He was glad in a curious unreasoning way for the
-faint fragrance of Jacqueminot that surrounded her. It had been just
-like this at the Front that he had thought of her--thought of her so
-intensely that he had almost caught the scent and the rustle of her
-dress, moving towards him through the squalor of the trench. Through all
-the horror the brief memory of her gentleness had remained with him. And
-what hopes he had built on that memory! He had told himself that, if he
-survived, by hook or by crook he would search her out. In hospital, when
-he had returned to England, all his impatience to get well had been to
-get to her. In his heart he had never expected success. The task had
-seemed too stupendous. And now here he was, sitting with her alone, the
-house all quiet, the fire shining, the lamp making a pool of gold among
-the shadows, and she, most quiet of all, taking him comfortably for
-granted and carrying on with her woman's work. At last he was at rest;
-not in love with her, he told himself, but at rest.
-
-It was she who broke the silence. "How did you know? What made you come
-so directly to this house?"
-
-He met her eyes and smiled. "Where else was there to come? It was the
-one place we both knew. I took a chance at it." And then, after a
-pause, "No, that's not quite true. I was sent up to London for special
-treatment. The first evening I was allowed out of hospital, I hurried
-here and, finding that our empty house was occupied, stayed outside to
-watch it."
-
-"But why to watch it?"
-
-"Because it was a million to one that you weren't the tenant. Before I
-rang the bell I wanted to make certain. You see I don't know your name;
-I couldn't ask to see the lady of the house. If she hadn't been you, how
-could I have explained my intrusion?"
-
-"And then you made certain?"
-
-He nodded. "You came to the window on Armistice night and stood for a
-few minutes looking out."
-
-"I remember." She shivered as if a cold breath had struck her. "I was
-feeling stupid and lonely; all the world out there in the darkness
-seemed so glad. I wish you had rung my bell. That was three nights ago."
-
-"You mean why did I let three nights go by. I guess because I was a
-coward. I got what we call in America 'cold feet.' I thought..."
-
-He waited for her to prompt him. She sat leaning forward, her hands
-lying idle in her lap. He noticed, as he had noticed nearly a year
-ago, the half-moon that her shoulders made in the dimness. She was
-extraordinarily motionless; her motionlessness gave her an atmosphere
-of strength. When she moved her gestures said as much as words. Nothing
-that she did was hurried.
-
-"Tell me what you thought." she said quietly. She spoke to him as she
-would have spoken to Robbie, making him feel very young and little. When
-she spoke like that there was not much that he would not have told her.
-
-"I thought that you might not remember me or want to see me. We met so
-oddly; after the lapse of a year you might easily have regarded my call
-as an impertinence."
-
-"An impertinence!" There were tears in her eyes when she raised her
-head. "You lost your arm that I and my children might be safe, and you
-talk about impertinence."
-
-"Oh, that!" He glanced down at his empty sleeve. "That's nothing. It's
-the luck of the game and might have happened to anybody."
-
-"But you lost it for me," she re-asserted, "that I might be safe. You
-must have suffered terribly."
-
-Seeing her distress, he laughed gaily. "Losing an arm wasn't the worst
-that might have happened. I'm one of the fortunate ones; I'm still above
-ground. The thing wasn't very painful--nothing is when you've simply got
-to face it. It's the thinking about pain that hurts.... Hulloa, look
-at the time; I can just get back to the hospital by ten. If we're late,
-they punish us by keeping us in next night."
-
-At the top of the stairs as she was seeing him out, he halted and looked
-back into the room. "It's quiet and cosy in there. I don't want
-to leave; I feel like a boy being packed off to school. You can't
-understand how wonderful it is after all the marching and rough times
-and being cut about to be allowed to sit by a fire with a woman. I loved
-to watch you at your sewing."
-
-"It's because you're tired," she said, "more tired than you know. You
-must come very often and rest."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX
-
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-
-N the weeks that followed the little house came to know him well.
-Everybody in the little house treated him as though his injury were a
-decoration, which had been won especially in their defence. They were
-prouder to see him come walking up their steps with his blue hospital
-band on his remaining arm, than if Sir Douglas Haig himself had called
-upon them. Nobody took any count of the frequency of his visits--nobody
-except himself. Nobody seemed to think it strange that the moment the
-doctors had finished his dressings, he should wander off to Dolls' House
-Square. Nobody seemed to guess just how fond he was of the little lady.
-He hardly guessed himself. There were times when he wondered exactly
-how fond he was. He did not believe he was in love with her; the feeling
-that he had was too gentle. He had always understood that love was
-exciting, passionate and tumultuous with dreads, whereas in her presence
-he knew neither fears nor hesitancies. He wasn't the least in terror
-that he would lose her. He felt simply safe, the way a ship might feel
-when the winds had ceased to buffet and it lay still in a sheltered
-harbour on a level keel. This feeling of safety struck him as an
-extraordinary sensation to be produced in a soldier by a woman; he was a
-trifle ashamed of it, as though it were not quite manly.
-
-While he spoke with her, he found himself believing with a child-like
-faith that all women were mothers and that the world was good. He knew
-that for the present he could not do without her, but he was at a
-loss to imagine what he would do with her for always. She was like
-religion--she went beyond him, was bigger and better. He only dimly
-understood her, but was comfortable in believing that everything
-hidden was as kind as the part he knew. In a strangely intimate way
-he worshipped her, as a child adores his mother, thinking her the most
-perfect and beautiful being in the world. He discovered in her a wisdom
-of which nothing in her conversation gave the least indication; her
-unhurried attitude towards life created the impression. If this were
-love, then all the hearsay information he had gathered on the subject
-was mistaken.
-
-There were days when, after his wound had been dressed and he had left
-the hospital, he made a pretence that he was not going to visit her. He
-told himself that he was making her a habit, and that to make a habit
-of anyone was foolish. Instead of going to Dolls' House Square, he
-would invent some urgent business and take himself off citywards. But
-expeditions in which she had no share soon grew flat. He would find
-himself thinking about her, wondering whether she was waiting for
-him. He would end up, as he always ended up, by jumping in a taxi and
-knocking on her door in Dolls' House Square.
-
-He never once found her out. There was invariably a welcome for him. He
-would take his seat by the fire in the quiet room and watch her sewing
-till the darkness deepened and the lamp had to be brought out. It didn't
-seem to matter much whether he talked or was silent; her contentment
-seemed complete when he was there. She made no effort to entertain him,
-which was the best proof of their friendship. She was perfectly willing
-that he should ignore her, if that was his mood, by reading the paper or
-playing with the children.
-
-Though she made no effort to entertain him, the entire household had
-re-organised itself in readiness for his sharp _rat-a-tat_. Everyone,
-without expressing the fact, recognised that it was nice to have a man
-about the house. When one rose in the morning, there was something to
-which to look forward now. A man dropping in, even occasionally, gave
-this group of women a sense of protection and of contact with the
-unwidowed world.
-
-To Robbie and Joan he stood for something midway between a big
-brother and a pal. They had sharp rivalries as to who should light his
-cigarette. It wasn't easy for him to grip the box between his knees
-and strike the match with only one hand. They watched him and by
-anticipating his wishes tried to constitute themselves his missing hand.
-
-When they were with him, the little lady withdrew into the background,
-making herself so still and self-effacing that it scarcely seemed that
-he had come to see her. It was as though she had three children; he
-appeared to be their friend much more than hers. He would carry them
-off to the Zoo, to matinees or to see the Christmas toys in the West End
-shops. Sometimes she would accompany them; more often she would listen
-to their adventures when they had returned. But she never was really
-left out. While they were absent from her, she formed the main topic of
-conversation. Of this she was well aware; if she had not been, she would
-not have been so happy.
-
-In a way she derived more pleasure from staying at home and picturing
-them laughing through the crowded streets, going into tea-shops, riding
-in taxis and coming back through the dusk together. The children looked
-so proud in their sole possession of a man, especially of a soldier who
-had been wounded. Had their father come through the war, that was how
-they would have looked in his company. She was glad that they should get
-away from skirts. He could give them something which it was not in her
-power to give, however much she loved them. She was only a woman. Her
-reward followed when they returned a little conscience-stricken at
-having left her, bringing with them a present as indisputable proof that
-she had been remembered.
-
-One evening in talking with her after the children had been put to bed,
-he asked her if she didn't think she ought to go out more often.
-
-"I know I ought."
-
-"Then why don't you?"
-
-She smiled gently, thinking how little he knew of the world. "When
-you've not got your own man to take you, it's difficult. The world moves
-in pairs. A woman can't go to many places unaccompanied."
-
-"But surely you don't need to. You must have quantities of friends who
-would be glad..."
-
-She cut him short. "When a woman is left by herself, she learns a good
-many things about men that she didn't suspect when she was married. The
-men she would trust herself with have their wives or fiances--they have
-no time to trouble over shipwrecked women like myself. And the other
-kind of men... The world has no place for a widow. It doesn't mean to be
-unkind, but it simply doesn't know what to do with her. Unmarried women
-consider her an unfair rival; they think she's seeking a second chance
-before they've had their first. In the old days India solved the problem
-by burying us with our husbands. In England they do the same thing, only
-less frankly. It's rather stupid to have to live and yet to be treated
-as though you ought to be dead. One fights against it at first; then one
-gradually becomes reconciled to be out of the running. If one's wise,
-she puts all her living into her children."
-
-"But that's not fair," he spoke hotly.
-
-"It's the way it happens."
-
-He sat frowning into the fire. What she had told him had upset all his
-preconceptions about her. Without looking at her, he re-started the
-conversation. "I've thought of you as being so happy. I always thought
-of you that way at the Front. I've pictured you as being perched high on
-a ledge out of reach of waves and storms. From the first you've given me
-the feeling that nothing could hurt or move you, and that nothing could
-hurt or move me while I was near you. It's a queer thing for a man to
-admit to a woman, but you make me feel absolutely safe."
-
-"That's not so very queer," she said, "because that's the way you make
-me feel."
-
-"Do I? You're not laughing at me?" He swung round, leaning over the back
-of the couch, his entire attitude one of amazement.
-
-She met his surprise with a quiet smile. "I'm perfectly serious. But
-you know the reason why we feel so safe in each other's company? It's
-because, in our different ways, we're both lonely people. We're not like
-the rest of the world; we don't move in pairs. I'm lonely because I'm
-a woman on my own, and you're lonely because you're in hospital in a
-foreign country. We met just at the time when we could give each other
-courage."
-
-"But you don't look lonely," he protested; "one always thinks of
-lonely people as being sad and untidy. You always look so terrifically
-well-groomed and expensive. You create the impression that you're either
-going to or returning from a party. I never saw you when you weren't
-self-assured and occupied. I used to wonder how you spared me so much
-time from your engagements."
-
-"Clever of me, wasn't it?"
-
-Instead of answering her, he came over and stood above where she sat
-stitching beneath the lamp. He was seeing her for the first time not
-as wise, self-reliant and fashionable, but as beautiful, alone and
-unprotected. He could almost feel the ache of the bruises she had
-suffered. He felt self-reproached; what had he given her? Up to now
-anything that he could have given had seemed too small to mention. He
-had taken from her continually, supposing that she had a surplus of
-everything. And all the while she had been sharing his own hunger for
-the presents that money cannot buy.
-
-"It's great to be alive, when you'd expected to be dead."
-
-It was her turn to be surprised. She raised her head quickly,
-recognising a new earnestness in his tone.
-
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-
-"One doesn't talk much about what happened at the Front," he said;
-"but one can't help feeling that his life was spared for some definite
-purpose. I believe the purpose was to be happy and to make others happy.
-I don't want to hog my own pleasure any more or to trifle in the old
-slovenly ways. I want to crowd every second with gratefulness for the
-mere fact of living. That's what's been bringing me here so often.
-That's why I've been so glad to carry Joan and Robbie away. Kiddies mean
-so tremendously much more to me than they did before I nearly died. And
-then there's home and women. I took them for granted once, but now...
-It's like saying one's prayers to be in a good woman's presence. I
-don't know if you at all understand me. I'm trying to thank you for what
-you've done...."
-
-And there his eloquence failed, leaving him gazing down at her and
-wondering whether she thought him foolish. She patted his hand, but
-she did not meet his eyes. "It's all right. Don't explain. I know what
-you're meaning to say."
-
-"Do you?" He spoke doubtfully. "I think I was trying to ask you if we
-couldn't be happy together. I'm not married and I'm not engaged; but I'm
-not like the other men you mentioned."
-
-"My dear boy, I never thought you were. If I had, you wouldn't have been
-here. You're honourable all the way through; I knew that the moment I
-saw you. Does that make you feel better?"
-
-He laughed happily. "Much. Do you know what I believe I've been trying
-to ask you through all this maze of words? If I get permission from the
-doctor to stay out late tomorrow night, would you be gay and go with me
-to a theatre?"
-
-Her eyes met his with gladness. "I should love it."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X
-
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-
-HAT evening at the theatre was the first conscious step in their
-experiment of being happy together. She received word from him at
-lunch-time that the doctor's permission had been granted and that he
-would call for her at seven. The news made her as excited as if she
-had never been to a theatre before in her life. She spent the afternoon
-before the mirror, brushing and re-brushing her hair, and in laying
-out all the pretty clothes which she knew men liked. It was three years
-since she had dressed with the deliberate intent that a man should
-admire her. Once to do that had been two-thirds of her life. To find
-herself doing it again seemed like waking from a long illness; she could
-hardly bring herself to believe that the monotony of sorrow was ended
-and that she was actually going to be happy again. She had been made to
-feel so long that to be happy would be disloyalty to past affections.
-
-She locked her bedroom door, for fear any of the servants should guess
-how she was occupied. She was filled with an exultant shame that she
-should still be capable of valuing so highly a man's opinion of her
-appearance. "But I will be happy," she kept telling herself; "I have
-the right." And then, in a whisper, "Oh, little house, you have been so
-kind. Wish me luck and say that he'll think me nice."
-
-[Illustration: 0127]
-
-Outside in the bare black cradle of the trees the November afternoon
-faded. Sparrows twittered of how winter was almost come. Against the
-cold melancholy of the London sky, like silhouettes crayoned on a wall
-of ice, roofs and chimneys stood smudged. In flickering pin-points of
-incandescence street-lamps wakened; night came drifting like a ship into
-harbour under shrouded sails.
-
-She had been sitting listening for a long time, haunted by childish
-fears that he would not come. At seven promptly a taxi panted into
-the square and drew up wheezing and coughing before the little house.
-Seizing her evening-wrap, she ran down the stairs and had her hand
-on the door before his knock had sounded. "I didn't want to keep you
-waiting," she explained.
-
-He handed her into the cab. With a groan and a thump the engine pulled
-itself together and they made good their escape. As she settled back
-into her corner, pulling on her gloves, she watched him. So he also had
-regarded it as a gala-night! He was wearing a brand-new uniform and had
-been at extra pains to make his boots and belt splendid and shiny.
-She did her best not to be observed too closely, for her eyes were
-overbright and her color was high. She felt annoyed at herself for being
-so girlish.
-
-"It's tremendous fun. I haven't been to the theatre in the evening
-since... for years and years," she whispered. "The war is really ended.
-I'm believing it for the first time."
-
-They dined together at Prince's to the fierce discords of Jazz music.
-It suited her mood; it was primitive and reckless. Diners kept rising
-between courses and slipping out in pairs to where dancing was in
-progress. The whole world went in pairs tonight. And she had her man;
-no one could make her lonely for just this one night. It was exciting to
-her to notice how much more they seemed to belong to each other now that
-they were in public. He felt it also, for he showed his sense of pride
-and ownership in a hundred little ways. It was good to be owned after
-having been left so long discarded. As he faced her across the table, he
-had the air of believing that everybody was admiring her and envying him
-his luck. She was immensely grateful that he should think so. It was as
-though he could hear them saying, "How on earth did a one-armed fellow
-do it?" Had they asked him, he could only have told them, "The house was
-empty, so I entered." Yes, and even he had not guessed how empty! But
-what had changed her? Knowing nothing about the locked door and how her
-afternoon had been spent, he was puzzled. All he knew was that the woman
-whom he had thought perfect, had revealed herself as more perfect. She
-had become radiantly beautiful in a way quite new and unexpected.
-
-Of the play to which they went she saw but little; all she realised was
-that it was merry--a fairy-tale of life. One does not notice much when
-the heart is swollen with gladness. People sang, and looked pretty, and
-fell in love. Everyone was paired and married before the curtain was
-rung down. Something, however, she did remember: two lilting lines which
-had been sung:
-
- And, while the sun is shining,
-
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
-
-They kept repeating themselves inside her head. Unconsciously in the
-darkness as they were driving home, she started humming them.
-
-"What did you say?" he questioned.
-
-"I didn't say anything. It was just a snatch from a tune we heard."
-
-"Was it? Won't you hum it again?"
-
-So in the intermittent gloom of the passing lights she tried; but
-for some reason, inexplicable to herself, it made her feel choky. She
-couldn't reach the end. Gathering her wrap closer about her, she drew
-the fur collar higher to hide the stupid tears which had forced their
-way into her eyes.
-
-"I believe you're crying!" he exclaimed with concern. "Do tell me what's
-the matter."
-
-"I'm too happy," she whispered brokenly. The taxi drew up against the
-pavement with a jerk. There was no knowing what he might say next to
-comfort her. She both yearned to learn and dreaded. Flight was the safer
-choice. Before he could assist her, she had jumped out. "Come tomorrow
-and I'll thank you properly. I can't now. And... I'm sorry for having
-been a baby." Catching at her skirts, she fled up the steps and let
-herself into the darkened house.
-
-Not until his wheels had moved reluctantly away, did she climb the
-narrow stairs to the room from which she had departed so gaily. Her
-solitariness had returned. She had had her own man for a handful of
-hours. They were ended.
-
-As she threw off her finery, she could still hear that voice
-persistently advising,
-
- And, while the sun is shining,
-
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
-
-In the darkness she flung herself down on the bed, burying her face in
-the pillow. "I want to; oh, I want to," she muttered.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI
-
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-
-OR three weeks she followed the song's advice. No one knew how long
-happiness would last. With her it had never lasted. He would leave her
-presently; already he was anticipating an early return to America.
-
-"I shall feel terribly flat when you've gone," she told him.
-
-"But I'll write. I'll write you the longest letters."
-
-"Ah, but letters aren't the same as being together."
-
-He didn't seem to share her need of him, and it hurt. If he did share
-it, it was unconsciously. He had yet to awaken to what the need meant.
-She had allowed him to become too sure of her, perhaps; had she kept him
-more uncertain, he might have awakened. In any case, it was too late to
-alter attitudes now and to think up reasons.
-
-He liked her in the jolliest kind of way as the most splendid of
-diversions; but she wasn't essential to him for all time--only for the
-present. She treasured no illusions about the longest letters. She knew
-men--the world was filled with women; out of sight would be out of mind.
-So every evening when he visited her, her heart was in her throat till
-she had made him confess that he had not yet received his embarkation
-orders. Some day he would tell her that he was going and would expect
-her to congratulate him. She would have to smile and pretend that
-she was glad for his sake. After that he would vanish and the long
-eventlessness would re-commence. He would write intimately and often at
-first; little by little new interests would claim him. There would be
-a blank and then, after a long silence, a printed announcement, curtly
-stating that he had found his happiness elsewhere.
-
-She saw herself growing old. The children would spring up so quickly.
-She would be left with her pride, to dress and make herself beautiful
-for an anonymous someone whose coming was indefinitely postponed. Youth
-would go from her. For interminable evenings, stretching into decades,
-she would watch afternoons fade into evenings. Everything would grow
-quiet. She would sit beneath the lamp at her sewing. The whispering
-parrot would take pity on her and croak, "What shall we talk about?"
-Even that game would end one day, for Robbie would become a man and
-marry. When that had happened it wouldn't be truthful for the parrot to
-tell her that Robbie loved her best. She would listen for the clock
-to strike, the fire to rustle, the coals to drop in the grate. Towards
-midnight taxis would enter the square. Lovers would alight. She would
-hear the paying of the fare, the tapping of a woman's high-heeled shoes
-on the pavement, the slipping of the key into the latch, the opening and
-closing of the door, and then again the silence. She would fold up her
-work, turn out the lights and stand alone in the darkness, invisible as
-a ghost.
-
-Ah, but he had not sailed yet. "Make hay, little girl, make hay." His
-going was still only a threat. There was time, still time. She set a
-date to her respite. She would not gaze beyond it. If she could only
-have him till Christmas!
-
-Meanwhile he kept loyally to his contract that they should be happy
-together. He gave her lavishly of his time. If he guessed how much the
-gift meant, he said nothing to show it. He was like a great, friendly
-schoolboy in his cheerfulness; he filled every niche of her desire. Now,
-in the afternoon, when he took the children on adventures, she found
-herself included. On the return home, he shared with her the solemn rite
-of seeing them safely in bed. Then forth they would sally on some fresh
-excursion. Always and increasingly there was the gnawing knowledge that
-the end was nearer in sight--that soon to each of the habits they were
-forming they would have to say, "We have done it for the last time."
-
-We, the bricks and mortar of the little house, watched her. We grew
-desperate, for we loved her. What we had observed and overheard by
-day we discussed together by night. If we could prevent it, we were
-determined that he should not go.
-
-"But, if he goes," creaked the staircase, "he may return. They used to
-say in my young days that the heart grows fonder through absence."
-
-"Rubbish," banged the door on the first landing. "Rubbish, I say."
-
-"He'll go," ticked the grandfather clock pessimistically. "He'll go.
-He'll go."
-
-"Not if I know it," shouted the door and banged again.
-
-We had come to a few nights before Christmas. Which night I do not
-remember, but I recall that we had started our decorations. Mistletoe
-was hanging in the hall. Holly had been arranged along the tops of the
-picture-frames. The children had been full of whisperings and secrets.
-Parcels had already begun to arrive. They were handed in with a
-crackling of paper and smuggled upstairs to a big cupboard in which they
-were hidden from prying eyes. The children were now in bed, sleeping
-quietly for fear of offending Santa Claus. The little lady was in the
-room where she worked, checking over her list of presents. She had got
-something for everyone but Robbie; she had postponed buying Robbie's
-present for a very special reason of which we were all aware. Perhaps
-it was superstition; perhaps a desperate hope. He had told her what he
-wanted; it didn't look as if she would be able to get it. "It's no
-good waiting," she told herself; "I shall have to buy him something
-tomorrow." Just then, as if in answer to her thoughts, an impatient
-_rat-tat-tat_ re-sounded. It was his unmistakably, but he had never
-come so late as this before. All day she had listened and been full of
-foreboding; she had despaired of his ever coming. There was an interval
-after the door had been opened, during which he removed his coat. She
-could picture his awkwardness in doing it. Then the swift, leaping step
-of him mounting the stairs. Why had he delayed so long, only to come to
-her at the last moment in such a hurry? She rose from her chair to face
-him, her hands clenched and her body tense, as if to resist a physical
-blow. As he appeared in the doorway his lips were smiling. There was
-evidently something which he was bursting to tell her. On catching sight
-of her face he halted. His smile faded.
-
-"What's the matter? What's happened?" She unclenched her hands and
-looked away from him. "Nothing."
-
-"There must be something. Something's troubling you. What have you been
-doing with yourself this evening?"
-
-Her gaze came back to him. She smiled feebly. "Wondering whether you
-were coming and worrying over Robbie's present."
-
-"Robbie's present! That's nothing to worry over. We'II go together and
-choose one tomorrow. I'll have time."
-
-"Time!" She straightened up bravely, the way she had rehearsed the scene
-so often in her imagination. "Then it's true. You won't be here for
-Christmas? You're sailing?"
-
-Her knowledge of his doings was uncanny. He came a step nearer, but she
-backed away. He realised her fear lest he should touch her. For a moment
-he was offended. Then, "My orders came today. How did you know? It was
-what I came to tell you."
-
-"How did I know!" She laughed unsteadily. "How does one know anything?
-The heart tells one things sometimes. You'll be busy tomorrow--so many
-other things to think about. Robbie's present doesn't matter. It's
-growing late... Good-bye." He stood astonished at her abruptness. What
-had he done that she should be so anxious to rid herself of him? When he
-did not seem to see her proffered hand, but stared at her gloomily,
-her nerves broke. "Go. Why don't you go?" she cried fiercely. "You know
-you'll be happy."
-
-"You want me to go?" he asked quietly. Had she heard her own voice, she
-would have given way to weeping. With her handkerchief pressed tightly
-against her lips, she nodded.
-
-He turned slowly, looked back from the threshold for a sign of relenting
-and dragged his way haltingly down the stairs. In the hall beneath the
-mistletoe he paused to listen. He fancied he had heard the muttering
-of sobbing. So long as he paused he heard nothing; it was only when he
-began to move that again he thought he heard it. Having flung his coat
-about his shoulders, he eased his arm into the sleeve. This wasn't what
-he had come for--a very different ending!
-
-And now the chance of the little house had arrived. Windows, chairs,
-tables, walls, we had all pledged ourselves to help her. He attempted to
-let himself out; the frontdoor refused to budge. He pulled, tugged and
-worked at the latch without avail.
-
-"Shan't go. Shan't go. Shan't go," ticked the grandfather's clock
-excitedly. Then the usual thing happened, which always happened when the
-grandfather's clock got excited.
-
-There was a horrible _whirr_ of the spring running down; the weights
-dropped with a bang.
-
-In the silence that followed he listened. She thought he had gone. There
-could be no mistake now; she was crying as if her heart would break.
-
-The stairs creaked to warn her as he ascended. She could not have heard
-them, for when he stepped into the room she took no notice. She had sunk
-to the floor and lay with her face hidden in the cushions of the chair,
-with the gold light from the lamp spilling over her. For some moments he
-watched her--the shuddering rise and fall of her shoulders.
-
-"You told me to go," he said. "The little house won't let me; it was
-always kind to us." And then, when she made no answer, "It's true. I've
-got my sailing orders. But it was you who told me to go."
-
-She was listening now. He knew that, for the half-moon shoulders had
-ceased to shudder. The smell of Jacqueminot drew him to her. Bending
-over her, he stole one hand from beneath the buried face. "Do I need to
-go?"
-
-And still there was no answer. It was then that the old grey parrot
-spoke. He had pretended to be sleeping. "What shall we talk about?" he
-whispered hoarsely; and, when an interval had elapsed, "Robbie?"
-
-The little lady, who had needed to be loved, lifted up her tear-stained
-face and the wounded officer who had wanted rest, bent lower.
-
-"I don't need to go," he whispered. "I came to bring you Robbie's
-present. He told me what he wanted."
-
-
-THE END
-
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- <h1>
- THE LITTLE HOUSE
- </h1>
- <h2>
- By Coningsby Dawson
- </h2>
- <h3>
- With Illustrations By Stella Langdale
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- <h4>
- New York: John Lane Company
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- <h3>
- 1920
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- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0009.jpg" alt="0009m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0009.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <h4>
- TO
- </h4>
- <h3>
- THE LITTLE LADY
- </h3>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2H_4_0001"> <b>THE LITTLE HOUSE</b> </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0001"> CHAPTER I </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0002"> CHAPTER II </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0003"> CHAPTER III </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0004"> CHAPTER IV </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0005"> CHAPTER V </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0006"> CHAPTER VI </a>
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- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0007"> CHAPTER VII </a>
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- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0008"> CHAPTER VIII </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0009"> CHAPTER IX </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0010"> CHAPTER X </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0011"> CHAPTER XI </a>
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <br /><br /> <br /><br />
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- <h1>
- THE LITTLE HOUSE
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- <p>
- <br /><br />
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- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0001" id="link2HCH0001"> </a>
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- <br /><br /><br /><br />
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- CHAPTER I
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- HE little house, tell this story. It was lived within my walls; not a line
- is invented and it was I, by my interfering, who brought about the happy
- ending. Who wants a story that does not end happily, especially a
- Christmas story? To have been responsible for the happy ending is pretty
- nearly as clever as to have made the story up out of one's own head or, as
- we houses say, out of one's own walls.
- </p>
- <p>
- Perhaps you never heard before of a house telling a story. If that be so,
- it is because you don't listen or because you go to bed too early. Unlike
- people, we houses sleep all day long; but after midnight we wake up and
- talk. When the clock strikes twelve, our stairs begin to crack and our
- windows to rattle and our floors to creak. If you ever hear these sounds,
- don't be frightened; they simply mean that the kind old walls that shelter
- you have begun to remember and to think. And we have so many things to
- remember and to think about, especially we old houses who have been
- standing for almost two hundred years. We have seen so much; we have been
- the friends of so many generations. More little children have been born
- beneath our roofs than we have stairs on which to count. We reckon things
- on our stairs, just as people reckon things on their fingers. When our
- stairs crack after midnight, it's usually because we're counting' the
- births and love-makings and marriages we have watched. We very often get
- them wrong because there are so many of them. Then the doors and windows
- and floors will chip in to correct us. &ldquo;Ha,&rdquo; a window will rattle, &ldquo;you've
- forgotten the little girl who used to gaze through my panes in 1760 or
- thereabouts.&rdquo; One of the doors will swing slowly on its hinges and, if
- anyone disputes with it, will bang, shouting angrily, &ldquo;Wrong again&mdash;all
- wrong.&rdquo; Then the walls and the windows and the doors and the floors all
- start whispering, trying to add up correctly the joys and sorrows they
- have witnessed in the years beyond recall.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0005" id="linkimage-0005"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0019.jpg" alt="0019m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0019.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- When that happens, if you're awake and listening, you'll hear us start
- adding afresh, from the lowest to the topmost stair.
- </p>
- <p>
- I am a London house and a very little house, standing in a fashionable
- square near Hyde Park. I have known my ups and downs. Once was the time
- when I was almost in the country and the link-boys used to make a fuss at
- having to escort my lady so far in her sedan-chair. It's a long way to the
- country now, for the city has spread out miles beyond me. Within sight
- through the trees at the end of the square red motor-buses pass, bumping
- their way rowdily down to Hammersmith and Kew. In my young days these
- places were villages, but I am told they are full of noises now. I have at
- least escaped that, for our square is a backwater of quiet and leads to
- nowhere, having an entrance only at one end. All the houses in the square
- were built at the same time as I was, which makes things companionable. We
- all look very much alike, with tiny areas, three stone steps leading up
- from the pavement, one window blinking out from the ground-floor, two
- blinking out from each of the other floors and a verandah running straight
- across us. In summer-time the verandah is gay with flowers. Our only
- difference is the colour we are painted, especially the colour of our
- doors. Mine is white; but some of our neighbours' are blue, some green,
- some red. We're very proud of the front-doors in our square. In the middle
- stands a railed-in garden, to which none but our owners have access. Its
- trees are as ancient as ourselves. Behind us, so hidden that it is almost
- forgotten, stands the grey parish-church, surrounded by a graveyard in
- which many of the people who have been merry in us rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- For some years we were what is known as a &ldquo;gone down neighborhood,&rdquo; till a
- gentleman who writes books bought us cheap, put us in repair and rented us
- to his friends. This has made us very select; since then we have become
- again fashionable.
- </p>
- <p>
- Now you know all that is necessary to form a mental picture of us. Because
- we are so small, we are sometimes spoken of as &ldquo;Dolls' House Square.&rdquo; All
- the things that I shall tell you I do not pretend to have witnessed, for
- houses have to spend their lives always in the one place&mdash;they cannot
- ride in taxis and move about. We gain our knowledge of how the world is
- changing by listening to the conversations of people who inhabit us; when
- night has fallen we mutter among ourselves, passing on to one another
- beneath the starlight down the lamp-lit streets the gossip we have
- overheard. Whatever of importance we miss, the churchbells tell us. Big
- Ben, with his sweet tenor voice, booming out the hours, is in this respect
- particularly thoughtful.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0006" id="linkimage-0006"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0025.jpg" alt="0025m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0025.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- So now, having explained myself, I come to my story of the little lady who
- needed to be loved, but did not know it, and the wounded officer who
- wanted rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0002" id="link2HCH0002"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER II
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0007" id="linkimage-0007"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9029.jpg" alt="9029 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9029.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE little lady who needed to be loved, but did not know it, discovered me
- quite by accident. This story is a series of accidents; if it had not been
- for the <i>ifs</i> and the <i>perhaps's</i> and the <i>possibilities</i>
- there wouldn't have been any story to tell.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was empty when she found me, for my late tenants had grown frightened
- and had moved into the country on account of airraids. They said that I
- was too near the giant searchlights and anti-aircraft guns of Hyde Park
- Corner to be healthy. If they weren't killed by bombs, sooner or later
- they would be struck by our own expended shell-cases that came toppling
- from two miles out of the clouds. So they had made their exit hurriedly in
- November, taking all their furniture and leaving me to spend my
- one-hundred-and-ninety-eighth Christmas in the company of a caretaker.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was shortly before Christmas when I first saw her. Night had settled
- peacefully down; it was about nine o'clock when the maroons and sirens
- began to give warning that the enemy was approaching. In an instant, like
- a lamp extinguished, the lights of London flickered and sank. Down the
- forests of streets innumerable doors swiftly opened and people came
- pattering out. Dragging half-clad children by the hand and carrying babies
- snatched up from their warm beds, they commenced to run hither and
- thither, seeking the faint red lights of shelters, where cellars and
- overhead protection might be found. Policemen, mounted on bicycles, rode
- up and down the thoroughfares, blowing whistles. Ambulances dashed by,
- tooting horns and clanging bells. From far and near out of the swamp of
- darkness rose a medley of panic and sound. Prodding the sky, like
- detectives with lanterns, searchlights hunted and turned back the edges of
- the clouds. Then ominously, with solemn anger, the guns opened up and in
- fierce defiance the first bomb fell. The pattering of feet ceased
- suddenly. Streets grew forlorn and empty. The commotion of living and the
- terror of dying were transferred from the earth to the air.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was standing deserted with my door wide open, for at the first signs of
- clamour the old woman, who was supposed to take care of me, had hobbled up
- from her basement and out on to the pavement in search of the nearest Tube
- Station. In her fear for her safety, she had forgotten to close my door,
- so there I stood with the damp air drifting into my hall, at the mercy of
- any chance vagrant.
- </p>
- <p>
- The guns had been booming for perhaps five minutes when I heard running
- footsteps entering the square. Our square is so shut in and small that it
- echoes like a church; every sound is startling and can be heard in every
- part of it. I could not see to whom the footsteps belonged on account of
- the trees and the darkness. They entered on the side farthest from me,
- from the street where the red motor-buses pass. When they had reached the
- top, from which there is no exit, they hesitated; then came hurrying back
- along the side on which they would have to pass me. <i>Tip-a-tap,
- tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap</i> and panting breath&mdash;the sound of a woman's
- high-heeled shoes against the pavement. Accompanying the <i>tip-a-tap</i>
- were funny, more frequent, shuffling noises, indistinct and confused.
- Three shadows grew out of the gloom, a small one on either side and a
- bigger one in the centre; as they drew near they resolved themselves into
- a lady in an evening-wrap and two children.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was more glad than I cared to own, for I'd been feeling lonely. Now that
- peace has come and we've won the war, I don't mind acknowledging that I'd
- been feeling frightened; at the time I wouldn't have confessed it for the
- world lest the Huns should have got to know it. We London houses, trying
- to live up to the example of our soldiers, always pretended that we liked
- the excitement of airraids. We didn't really; we quaked in all our bricks
- and mortar. One's foundations aren't what they were when one is a
- hundred-and-ninety-eight years old. So I'm not ashamed to tell you that I
- was delighted when the lady and her children came in my direction. I tried
- to push my front-door wider that they might guess that they were welcome.
- I was terribly nervous that they might pass in their haste without seeing
- that I was anxious to give them shelter. It was shelter that they were
- looking for. In coming into the square they had been seeking a shortcut
- home.
- </p>
- <p>
- They drew level without slackening their steps and had almost gone by me
- when, less than a quarter of a mile away, a bomb crashed deafeningly.
- Everything seemed to reel. Far and near you could hear the tinkling of
- splintered glass. The world leapt up red for a handful of seconds as
- though the door of a gigantic furnace had been flung open. Against the
- glow you could see the crouching roofs of houses, the crooked chimney-pots
- and the net-work of trees in the garden with their branches stripped and
- bare. The lady clutched at my railings to steady herself. Her face was
- white and her eyes were dark with terror. The last bomb had been so very
- close that it seemed as though the next must fall in the square itself.
- One of the searchlights had spotted the enemy and was following his plane
- through the clouds, holding it in its glare.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy, it's all right. Don't be frightened. You've got me to take care of
- you.&rdquo; It was the little boy speaking. Then he saw my <i>To Let</i> sign
- above and pointed, &ldquo;We'll go in here till it's over. Look, the door's wide
- open.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He tugged on her hand. With her arm about the shoulder of the little girl
- on the other side of her, she followed. The glow died down and faded. Soon
- the square was as secret and shadowy as it had been before&mdash;a tank
- full of darkness in which nothing stirred.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0003" id="link2HCH0003"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER III
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0008" id="linkimage-0008"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9037.jpg" alt="9037 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9037.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- EVER since I had been built had any visit quite as unceremonious as this
- occurred. Who was the strange lady? What was she doing wandering the
- streets at this hour unescorted? She was beautiful and richly gowned; her
- face was young, but very sad. I was anxious to learn more, so I listened
- intently.
- </p>
- <p>
- At first on entering, they halted just across the threshold, huddled
- together, the little lady with an arm flung about each of the children.
- She seemed to think that someone might be hidden in the darkness watching&mdash;someone
- to whom I belonged&mdash;for presently she addressed that supposed someone
- tremblingly: &ldquo;We hope you don't mind, but the car forgot to come for us.
- Grandfather had been giving us a party. When we heard the warning, we
- tried to run home before the raid started; but we got lost. The Tube
- Stations were all so crowded that... And we found your door open, so we
- hope you don't mind us entering.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She paused nervously, waiting for someone to answer. A board creaked;
- apart from that the silence was unbroken.
- </p>
- <p>
- Speaking to herself more than to the children, &ldquo;It's quite empty,&rdquo; she
- said at last.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Shall I close the door, Mumsie?&rdquo; the little boy questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;No, Robbie darling,&rdquo; she whispered; &ldquo;they might be angry, when they come
- back. I mean the people who live here.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But it's dreadfully cold.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then let's go farther in and find somewhere to sit down till the raid is
- over.&rdquo; They stumbled their way in the darkness through the hall and up the
- narrow staircase, where only one can walk abreast. Robbie went first on
- this voyage of discovery; he felt that if anything were hiding from them,
- his body would form a protection. His mother didn't want to lose sight of
- the street by climbing higher, but he coaxed her on from stair to stair.
- As pioneer of the expedition, he reached the tiny landing with the single
- door, which gives entrance to the drawing-room which occupies the whole of
- the second storey. Turning the handle he peeped in warily. Then, &ldquo;Cheer
- up, Mummy,&rdquo; he cried, &ldquo;there's been a fire and there's a wee bit of it
- still burning.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The room was carpetless and bare of furniture, save for an old sofa with
- sagging springs that had been pulled up across the hearth. Perched on the
- bars of the grate sat a tin kettle, gasping feebly, with nearly all its
- water boiled away. Under the kettle a few coals glowed faintly and a weak
- flame jumped and sank, like a ghost trying to make up its mind to vanish.
- Through the tall French windows that opened on to the verandah one could
- see the sky lit up with the tumultuous display of monstrous fireworks.
- From high overhead, above the clatter of destruction and the banging of
- guns, came the long-drawn, contented humming of the planes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;They're right over us,&rdquo; the little boy whispered.
- </p>
- <p>
- As if afraid that any movement on their part would draw the enemy's
- attention, they stood silent, clinging together, and listened. Oblongs of
- light, falling through the windows, danced and shifted. Once the beam of a
- searchlight groping through the shadows, gazed straight in and dwelt on
- them astounded, as if to say, &ldquo;Well, I never! Who'd have thought to find
- you here?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- They tiptoed over to the couch and sat down, making as little noise as
- possible, for they still weren't sure that they were welcome. They didn't
- speak or move for some time; with the excitement and running and losing
- their way they were very tired. Presently the little boy got up, and went
- and stood by the window looking out, with his legs astraddle and his hands
- behind his back like a man. He wore a sailor-suit and had bare, sturdy
- knees. He was very small to try to be so manly.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0009" id="linkimage-0009"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0041.jpg" alt="0041m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0041.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm not frightened, Mummy,&rdquo; he said.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;If father were here, he wouldn't be frightened.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She shifted her position so that she could glance proudly back at him.
- &ldquo;Father was never frightened.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- For the first time the little girl spoke. &ldquo;If father were here, they
- wouldn't dare to come to London. I expect they knew...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, Joan,&rdquo; her mother interrupted quickly, &ldquo;I expect they knew.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And when I'm a man they won't dare to come to London, either,&rdquo; said
- Robbie. &ldquo;How many of them did father...?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- But at that moment, before he could finish his question, his mother
- pressed her finger against his lips warningly. Above the roar of what was
- going on in the clouds, she had heard another and more alarming sound; the
- front-door closed quietly, a match struck and then the slow deliberate
- tread of someone groping up the stairs.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0004" id="link2HCH0004"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER IV
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0010" id="linkimage-0010"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9047.jpg" alt="9047 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9047.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE tread reached the landing and proceeded to mount higher. Then it
- hesitated. Another match was struck and it commenced to descend. On
- arriving at the landing again, it halted uncertain. The handle of the door
- was tried. The door swung open and a man peered across the threshold. No
- one spoke. The little lady on the couch drew Joan closer to her side and
- held her breath, hoping that the man might not observe them and that, when
- he had gone, they might escape. But the man did not go, he stood there on
- the alert, listening and searching the darkness.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was Robbie who spoke first. He had thrust his hands deep into his
- knickerbockers' pockets to gain courage. &ldquo;What do you want? We think you
- might speak,&rdquo; he said.
- </p>
- <p>
- The man laughed pleasantly. &ldquo;I'm sorry if I've frightened you. I didn't
- know that anyone was here. I thought this was an empty house. Perhaps you
- weren't aware of it, but you'd left your front-door open.&rdquo; Then, because
- no one replied, he added, &ldquo;It's all right now; it's closed.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He wasn't looking at Robbie any longer. He was trying to probe the shadows
- by the fireplace, where he had caught the rustle of a woman's dress. He
- had caught something else&mdash;the faint sweet fragrance of Jacqueminot.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I've alarmed you,&rdquo; he said. &ldquo;I'm a stranger in London and I couldn't find
- any way out of your square. I strayed into your house for shelter. I'm
- sorry I intruded. Good-night to you all, however many there are of you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was actually going. It was impossible to see what he looked like, but
- he was evidently well-mannered and a gentleman. Suddenly to the lady in
- the lonely house, from being a creature of dread, he became a heaven-sent
- protector. Who could tell how many less desirable visitors might not call
- before the raid was ended? The care-taker might return. Were that to
- happen, it would be much more comfortable to have this male trespasser
- present to help make the explanations. Just as he was withdrawing, the
- lady rose from the shabby couch and called him back.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, please, we'd much rather you didn't go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But who are we?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I and Robbie and Joan. We did the same thing as you. The house doesn't
- belong to us. We got caught, just as you did. We were terribly scared
- and... and it's creepy being in an empty, strange house where you haven't
- any right to be.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Though she could only see the blur of him, she could feel the smile that
- was in his eyes when she had finished her appeal. And it was an appeal,
- eager and nervous and tremulous. The tears in her voice said much more
- than the words. As he turned on his heel, she heard the jingle of his
- spurs and guessed that he was a man in khaki.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm on my way to France,&rdquo; he said, speaking slowly; &ldquo;I only landed
- yesterday. I was lonely too; I didn't know a soul. A queer way to make a
- friend!&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- As he stepped into the room, the light from the windows fell on him; he
- was dressed in the uniform of an American officer.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Which are you?&rdquo; he asked. &ldquo;I've heard only your voice as yet. I'll do
- anything I can to help.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The little lady held out her hand, but her face was still in shadow. It
- was a very tiny hand. &ldquo;It's good of you to be willing to stay with us,&rdquo;
- she said gratefully.
- </p>
- <p>
- At that point their conversation languished. The circumstances were so
- unprecedented that they were at a loss what to say or how to act. It was
- he who broke the awkward silence: &ldquo;We ought to be able to rouse this fire
- with a little effort.&rdquo; He bent over it, trying to pull it together. &ldquo;We
- need more coal. If you'll excuse me and won't be frightened while I'm
- gone, I'll run down and see what I can forage.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It seemed a long time that he was gone&mdash;so long that she had begun to
- be afraid that he'd taken his chance to slip out. She wouldn't have blamed
- him. In the last two years, since she'd been by herself, she'd become used
- to men doing things like that. She had ceased to bank overmuch on
- masculine chivalry. Few men had leisure to expend on a woman, however
- charming and beautiful, whose children had always to be included in the
- friendship.
- </p>
- <p>
- When she had made quite sure that he was no more chivalrous than other
- men, she heard him laboriously returning. He came in carrying a scuttle in
- one hand and some bundles of wood in the other. &ldquo;And now we'll pull down
- the blinds,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;and make a blaze and get her going.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- On his knees before the hearth he started to work, ramming paper between
- the bars, piling sticks criss-cross and using his cheeks as bellows. In
- the intervals between his exertions he chatted, &ldquo;I'm no great shakes at
- house-work. You mustn't watch me too closely or laugh at me. I'll do
- better than this when I've been at the Front, I guess. Are these your
- kiddies?... I suppose your husband's over there, where I'm going?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He was.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, so you've got him back! You're lucky. Is he wounded or has he got a
- staff job in England?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He'll never come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He paused in what he was doing and sat gazing into the flames which were
- licking at the wood. He hung his head. He ought to have thought of that;
- in the last few years so many Englishmen were dead. And then there came
- another reflection&mdash;the picture of what it must have cost her husband
- to say good-bye to his wife and children, and go marching away to
- anonymous glory. He wasn't married himself, but if he had been... It took
- enough bolstering up of one's courage to go when one was single; but to go
- when one was married... And yet selfishly, ever since he had put on khaki
- his paramount regret had been that, were he to peg out, he would leave no
- one to carry on in his stead. This air-raid was his first remote taste of
- warfare; within the next few weeks he was to know it in its full fury.
- What had impressed him most was the difference between war as imagined and
- witnessed. As imagined it had seemed the most immense of sports; as
- witnessed it was merely murder. Just before he had sought shelter he had
- seen where a bomb had fallen. People had been killed&mdash;people not so
- different from the mother and children hiding in this house. The
- suddenness of extinction had made him feel that in the game of life he had
- somehow &ldquo;missed out.&rdquo; There would be no woman to think of him as &ldquo;her man&rdquo;
- were he to go west. And here was the woman's price for such caring, &ldquo;He'll
- never come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He turned his head slowly; by the light of the crackling wood for the
- first time he saw her. The little boy was lying wearied out, with his head
- bowed in her lap. The little girl sat drowsing against her shoulder.
- </p>
- <p>
- She herself was leaning forward, gazing at and beyond him with a curious
- air of resigned intensity. She seemed to him to be listening for someone,
- whom she knew in her heart was never coming. He noticed the white
- half-moon of her shoulders faintly showing beneath her chinchilla wrap. He
- noticed her string of perfect pearls, the single ring on her hand and the
- expensive simplicity of her velvet gown. He was sufficiently a man of the
- world to make a guess at her social station. But it wasn't her beauty or
- elegance that struck him, though they were strangely in contrast to the
- empty room in which she sat; it was her gentleness and expression of
- patient courage. He knew, as surely as if she had told him, that this
- empty room, in which he had found her, was the symbol of her days. It was
- with her as it was with himself; there was no man to whom she was &ldquo;his
- woman.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I've hurt you by the impertinence of my questions.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled and shook her head. &ldquo;You've not hurt me. Don't think that. I
- shouldn't like you to think that you'd hurt me or anything that would make
- you sad. Are you going to France soon?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Tomorrow.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then you won't be here for Christmas. I wonder where you'll spend it.
- Perhaps next Christmas the war will be ended and you'll...&rdquo; She caught the
- instant change in his expression. She had seen that look too often in
- soldiers' eyes when the future was mentioned not to know what it meant.
- She laid her hand on his arm impulsively. &ldquo;But everyone who goes doesn't
- stay there. You'll be one of the lucky ones. You'll come back. I have that
- feeling about you. I know what's in your mind; you're a long way from
- home, you're going to face a great danger and you believe that everything
- is ended. You can only think of war now, but there are so many better
- things to do with life than fighting. All the better things will be here
- to welcome you, when you return.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He found himself talking to her in a way in which he had never spoken to
- any woman. Afterwards, when he recalled their conversation, he wondered
- why. Was it because she had filled him with so complete a sense of rest?
- One didn't have to explain things to her; she understood. He asked her how
- it was that she understood and she replied, &ldquo;You don't have to go to war
- to learn how to endure. You can stay at home and yet beat off attacks in
- the front-line trench. We women defeat despair by keeping on smiling when
- there's nothing left to smile about, and by wearing pretty dresses when
- there's no one to take a pride in what we wear.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He retorted unguardedly, as he felt. &ldquo;But there must be heaps of people
- who take a pride in you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You think so? You're unspoilt and generous. Life's a wonderful dream that
- lies all before you. You haven't known sorrow. Do you know what you seemed
- to be saying when you spoke to me through the shadows? 'Everybody has
- always loved and trusted me, so you love and trust me, too.' If it hadn't
- been for that, that I saw that you'd always been loved and were lonely for
- the moment, I shouldn't have sat here talking with you for the last hour.
- You'll get everything you want from life, if you'll only wait for it.
- You'll come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- While he sat at her feet in the firelight, she had the knack of making him
- feel like a little boy who was being comforted. She kept aloof from him,
- but she mothered him with words. He found himself glancing up at her
- furtively to make sure that she wasn't as old as she pretended. She wasn't
- old at all&mdash;not a single day older than himself. He turned over in
- his mind what she had said about having no one to be proud of her. He
- would have given a lot for the chance to be proud of her himself. But he
- was going to France tomorrow&mdash;there was no time left for that. With
- so much fighting and dying to be done, it seemed as though there would
- never again be time for anything that was personal.
- </p>
- <p>
- The clamour in the skies had died down.
- </p>
- <p>
- The crash of guns had been growing infrequent; now it had subsided. The
- drone of planes could be no more heard. The invader had been driven back;
- hard on his heels our aerial cavalry were following across the Channel,
- awaiting their moment to exact revenge when he tried to land.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0011" id="linkimage-0011"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0059.jpg" alt="0059m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0059.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- The restored normality seemed to rouse her reserve. Lifting the sleeping
- head from her lap, she whispered, &ldquo;Wake up, Robbie; we can go home now.
- It's all over.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The officer had risen and stood leaning against the mantel, &ldquo;So it's
- good-bye?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm afraid so.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You've made me happy when I least expected to be happy. Shall we meet
- again, I wonder?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled at his seriousness. &ldquo;Perhaps. One never knows what the good God
- will allow. We didn't expect to meet tonight.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was sensitive to her evasion and laughed, pretending to make light of
- it. &ldquo;We don't want them to think they've had burglars. We had better leave
- something for the coals we've burned.&rdquo; He placed a pound note on the
- mantel.
- </p>
- <p>
- Taking Joan in his arms and going first, he led the way down the stairs.
- When they were out of the hall and the front-door had closed behind them,
- he left the little group on the steps and went in search of a taxi. After
- a lengthy expedition he found one and, by promising an excessive fare,
- induced the driver to accompany him back. He knew neither the name of the
- square nor the number of the house, so he had to keep his head out of the
- window and shout directions. On entering the square he searched the
- pavement ahead, but could catch no sign of his recent companions. He
- halted the cab against the curb at the point where he thought he had left
- them; he was made certain that it was the point when he saw the notice TO
- LET. Perhaps the caretaker had come back and invited them to enter till he
- returned. He rang the bell and knocked vigorously. The driver was eyeing
- him with suspicion. When his repeated knockings were unanswered, he got
- into the taxi and ordered him to move slowly round the square.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had completely vanished. Either she had picked up a conveyance for
- herself, while he had been engaged in his search, or else she had lost
- faith in him and had taken it for granted that he had deserted her. He did
- not know her name. She had given him no address. Tomorrow night he would
- be in France. He had neither the time nor the necessary information to
- hunt for her.
- </p>
- <p>
- In reply to the driver's request for further instructions, he growled the
- name of his hotel. Then he spread himself out on the cushions and gave way
- to disconsolate reflections. The night was full of smoke and heavy with
- the smell of a bonfire burnt out. Things had become again uninteresting.
- He told himself that the most wonderful hour of his life was ended.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0005" id="link2HCH0005"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER V
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0012" id="linkimage-0012"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9065.jpg" alt="9065 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9065.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HRISTMAS came and went unmerrily. The old woman who took care of me had
- known better days; she stayed in bed in an effort to forget. Next door,
- but one, a son had returned unexpectedly from the trenches. There were
- laughing, dancing and piano playing. I tried to share their happiness; but
- happiness isn't the same when it is borrowed second-hand. My rooms were
- cheerless and empty of all sound.
- </p>
- <p>
- I kept thinking of my air-raid visitors, wondering where they were and
- hoping that the American officer had re-found the little lady. If he had,
- I felt sure he would be good to her. I told myself a foolish fairy-story,
- as old houses will, of how, when the war was ended, they would drive up to
- my door together, as if by accident, and exclaim, &ldquo;Why, it's the little
- house where we first met!&rdquo; Then the TO LET sign would be taken down and,
- having fetched Joan and Robbie, we would all live together forever. With
- luck and love we might have smaller feet to toddle up and down my stairs.
- </p>
- <p>
- January, February, March commenced and ended, and the TO LET sign was
- still there. It seemed that nobody would ever want me. It was April now;
- to their nests in the railed-in garden of the square the last year's birds
- were coming back. Trees had become a mist of greenness. Tulips and
- daffodils were shining above the ground. In the window-boxes of other
- houses geraniums were making a scarlet flare. Without warning the dream,
- which had been no more than a dream, began to become a fact.
- </p>
- <p>
- I had been drowsing in the sun, taking no notice of what was happening,
- when I was suddenly awakened by a sharp rat-a-tat-tat. I came to myself
- with a start to find that the little lady, unaccompanied, was standing on
- my steps.
- </p>
- <p>
- She knocked again and then a third time. There could be no doubt about her
- determination to enter. At last the old woman heard her and dragged
- herself complainingly up from the basement. When the door had been
- narrowly opened, the little lady pushed it wider and stepped smartly into
- the hall with an exceedingly business-like air. &ldquo;I have an order from the
- agents to view the house.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm 'ard of 'earing. Wot did yer say? Speak louder.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I have an order from the agents to look over the house.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Let's see your order?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- While the caretaker fumbled for her spectacles, she went on talking. &ldquo;You
- won't like it. There's no real sense in your seeing it. It ain't much of a
- 'ouse&mdash;not modern, too little and all stairs.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It made me furious to hear her running me down and to have no chance to
- defend myself.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Nevertheless, I rather like it and I think I'll see it,&rdquo; the little lady
- said.
- </p>
- <p>
- She went from room to room, making notes of the accommodations and
- thinking aloud as she set them down. &ldquo;Four floors beside the basement. On
- the top floor two bedrooms; they'll do for Robbie and Joan and nurse. On
- the next floor one bedroom and a bathroom; I'll have that for myself. On
- the second floor one big room, running from front to back; that's where
- we'II have the parrot and the piano, and where I'll do my sewing. On the
- ground-floor a dining-room in front and a bedroom at the back; the bedroom
- at the back will do for cook. I won't have anyone sleeping below-stairs.
- It's a very wee house, but tremendously cosy. And what pretty views&mdash;the
- garden in the square in front, and the old grey church with its graveyard
- at the back! It's all so green and quiet, like being in the country.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0013" id="linkimage-0013"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0069.jpg" alt="0069m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0069.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- She had far out-distanced the caretaker, hurrying over the first two
- floors that she might get to the top by herself. Now, as she descended,
- she inspected each room more leisurely. As yet she had said no word that
- would indicate that she had recognised me. I wondered what her motive had
- been in coming; whether she had deliberately sought me or stumbled on me
- simply by accident. I would have known her anywhere, though I had been
- blind and deaf, by the fragrance of Jacqueminot that clung about her.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had come to the tiny landing on the second floor, when something
- familiar in her surroundings struck her. She stood there holding the
- handle of the door and wrinkling her forehead. &ldquo;It's odd,&rdquo; she whispered;
- &ldquo;I can't understand it.&rdquo; She turned the handle and entered. The room smelt
- stuffy; its windows had not been opened since she was last there. The
- sunlight, pouring in, revealed motes of dust which rose up dancing every
- time she stirred. In the grate were the accumulated ashes of many fires.
- Drawn across the hearth was the shabby couch. Nothing had been altered
- since she had left it. She passed her hand across her eyes, &ldquo;It can't be;
- it would be too strange to find it like that.&rdquo; Then she started to
- reconstruct the scene as she remembered it. &ldquo;Robbie was there against the
- window, asking how many Huns his daddy had brought down, and I was sitting
- here in the shadow, when quite suddenly we heard his tread on the stairs.
- The door opened; he said something about being sorry that he'd frightened
- us, and then.... Why yes, I'm positive.&rdquo; She stepped out onto the verandah
- and stood looking down into the square. When she turned to re-enter her
- eyes were moist and shining. &ldquo;You <i>are</i> the little house. Oh, little
- house, I've dreamt of you so often. Does he dream of you too, where he is
- out there? Was I right to run away and to doubt him? If you had a tongue
- you could tell me; did he say hard things about me when he found me gone
- on coming back?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0006" id="link2HCH0006"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VI
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0014" id="linkimage-0014"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9075.jpg" alt="9075 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9075.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- WO weeks later they took possession of me. They did it with so much
- friendliness that at the end of a month it was as though we had always
- lived together. Even the furniture fitted into all my odd nooks and angles
- as if it had been made especially for me. And, indeed, it might have been,
- for most of it was created in the reign of Queen Anne, at which period my
- walls were, as one might say, feeling their legs. It was very pleasant
- when night had settled down and everyone was sleeping, to listen to the
- conversations which were carried on between the new-comers and my own
- floors and stairs. One grandfather's clock was particularly interesting in
- his reminiscences. He had told the time to Dr. Johnson and had ticked away
- the great lexicographer's last hours. On this account he was inclined to
- be amusingly self-important; it was a permanent source of grievance with
- him that, so far as the present generation was concerned, his pedigree was
- unknown. There were times when he would work himself into such passions
- that his weights would drop with a bang. He was always sorry for it next
- morning and ashamed to face the little lady. As she came down to
- breakfast, she would catch sight of his hands and say, &ldquo;So the poor old
- clock has stopped again! The old fellow's worn out. We shall have to send
- him to the mender's.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Perhaps it is hardly fair to repeat this gossip about one piece of the
- furniture, for everything, myself included, was old; whether we were
- tables, chairs or stair-cases, we all had our crochets and oddities. But,
- however much we differed among ourselves, we were united in adoring the
- youth of the little lady and her children. More than any of us the
- whispering parrot adored her.
- </p>
- <p>
- The whispering parrot was a traveller. He had come from Australia fifty
- years ago.
- </p>
- <p>
- He played so indispensable a part in producing the happy ending that he
- deserves an introduction.
- </p>
- <p>
- He had been the gift of the children's grandfather, a retired General. His
- plumage was Quaker grey, all except his breast and crest which were a
- wonderful rose-pink. He had black beady eyes which took in everything;
- what they saw, he invariably remembered. He had a confidential, hoarse way
- of speaking, that never rose above a whisper. When you heard him for the
- first time you supposed that he had a bad sore throat. He had a favorite
- question which he asked whenever he thought he was not being paid
- sufficient attention, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; He would ask it with his
- head cocked on one side, while he rubbed his feathers up and down the
- bars. &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; he would ask the little lady as she sat
- sewing beneath the lamp of an evening. She was always by herself when the
- children had been put to bed. She had no callers and never went anywhere.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Talk about Polly!&rdquo; she would say. &ldquo;I don't know, you good grey bird. Did
- you think I was lonely? Well, let's see! Who loves Mummy best? Can you
- answer me that?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Then he would cock his head still farther on one side and pretend to think
- furiously. She would have to ask him several times before he would attempt
- an answer. Usually, when he got ready, he would clear his throat and
- whisper, &ldquo;The dustman.&rdquo; After which he would laugh as though his sides
- were aching: &ldquo;What a naughty Polly! What a naughty Polly!&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She would maintain a dignified silence till she had emptied her needle.
- Then she would glance at him reproachfully, &ldquo;Think again, Mr. Impudence&mdash;not
- the dustman.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- So he would think again, and having clambered all over his cage and hung
- upside down to amuse her, would hazard, &ldquo;Polly?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Not Polly.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Then he would make any number of suggestions, though he knew quite well
- the answer she required. After each wrong guess he would go off into gales
- of ghostly merriment. At last he would say very solemnly, &ldquo;Robbie.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, Robbie,&rdquo; she would reply and scratch his head; after which the game
- was ended. Soon she would fold away her work, put out the lights and climb
- the narrow stairs to her quiet bed.
- </p>
- <p>
- It seemed very sad that, when she was so young, she should have to spend
- so many hours in talking to a rascally old bird. One can be young for so
- short a time. How short, those who are old know best.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were evenings, however, when, after the parrot had answered
- &ldquo;Robbie,&rdquo; she would whisper, &ldquo;I wonder!&rdquo; and clasp her hands in her lap,
- gazing straight before her. On these evenings she would sit very late and
- would look down at her feet from time to time, as though expecting to see
- someone crouching there. Taxis would chug their way into the square and
- draw up at one or other of the dolls' houses. The taxi door would open and
- after a few seconds close with a bang. There would be the rustle of a
- woman's dress and the tripping of her slippered feet across the pavement;
- the bass muttering of her husband paying the driver; laughter; the
- rattling of a key in the latch; and silence. The little lady would sit
- quite motionless, listening to the secret homecomings of lovers. Then at
- last she would nod her head, &ldquo;You're right, Polly, I expect. There's no
- one else. No doubt it's Robbie who loves me best.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0007" id="link2HCH0007"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VII
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0015" id="linkimage-0015"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9083.jpg" alt="9083 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9083.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- UT it wasn't Robbie. The diningroom window was the first to make the
- discovery. Being on the ground-floor, it gazes across the pavement under
- the trees and sees many things after nightfall which are missed by the
- upper storeys. The first and second time that something unusual happened I
- was not told; not until the third time was I taken into the secret. The
- dining-room window does most of the watching for the entire house; it sees
- so much that it has learnt to be discreet.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was Armistice night when the unusual happening first occurred. London
- had gone mad with relief from suspense. Wherever a barrel-organ could be
- found people were dancing. Where more suitable music was not available,
- tin-cans were being beaten with a dervish, rhythmic monotony. Dance the
- people must. Their joy had gone into their feet; they could not convince
- themselves that peace had come till they had danced themselves to a
- standstill. They invented impromptu steps, dancing twenty abreast in the
- open spaces, humming any tune that caught their fancy, with their arms
- linked in those of strangers. But there were no strangers that night;
- everyone was a friend. Top-hats, evening-dress, corduroys and privates'
- uniforms hobnobbed together. A mighty roar of laughter and singing went up
- from thousands of miles of streets, dim-lit and dusk-drenched to ward off
- the ancient peril from the air. How suddenly unmodern peril had become!
- All London laughed; all England; all the world. The sound reached the
- Arctic; polar bears lumbered farther northward, stampeded by the strum of
- our guffaws. If there were inhabitants on Mars, they must have heard. The
- war was won. The news was so incredible that we had to make a noise to
- silence our doubts.
- </p>
- <p>
- Everything that could rejoice was out under the stars making merry. We had
- hidden so long, walked so stealthily, wept so quietly, hated so violently
- that our right to be happy was almost too terrible to bear. We expressed
- our joy foolishly, hysterically, inadequately by shouting, embracing,
- climbing lamp-posts, riding on the roofs of taxis. What did it matter so
- long as we expressed it and brought the amazing truth home to ourselves?
- The last cannon had roared. The final man had died in battle. The wicked
- waste of white human bodies was ended. There would be no more rushing for
- the morning papers and searching the casualty lists with dread; no more
- rumours of invasions; no more musterings for new offensives. The men whom
- we loved were safe; they had been reprieved at the eleventh hour. We
- should have them home presently, seated by their firesides. It seemed like
- the fulfilment of a prophet's ecstasy; as though sorrow and crying had
- passed away and forever there would be no death.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were two people who did not dance, climb lamp-posts, beat tin-cans
- and ride on the roofs of taxis that night. Perhaps they were the only two
- in London; they were both in Dolls' House Square. The little lady was one.
- She had tucked Joan and Robbie safely in their beds. She had kissed them
- &ldquo;Good-night&rdquo; and turned the gas on the landing to a jet. She had gone part
- way down the narrow stairs and then... and then she had come back. She had
- picked up Joan and carried her into Robbie's room. When the two heads were
- lying close together on the pillow, she had seated herself in the darkness
- beside them.
- </p>
- <p>
- The little boy stretched up his arms to pull her down; she resisted. His
- hands wandered over her face and reached her eyes. They were wet. His
- heart missed a beat. He knew what that meant. So often in the dark, dark
- night he had wakened with the sure sense that she was crying and had
- tiptoed down the creaking stairs to creep in beside her and place his
- small arms tightly about her.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Never mind; you have me, Mummy.&rdquo; That was what he always said. He
- whispered it now.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, I have my wee man.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And me, Mummy,&rdquo; Joan murmured sleepily.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy knows. She has you both. Don't worry about her. She's feeling silly
- tonight.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because you're happy?&rdquo; Joan questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, happy for so many little boys and girls whose soldier daddies will
- be coming back to them soon. Don't talk any more. Go sleepy-bye.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- But Robbie knew that it wasn't happiness that made her cry; he knew that
- she was crying because she had no soldier to come back. What could he say
- to comfort her? His eyes grew drowsy while he thought about it. He waited
- till Joan was in Sleepy-bye Land, then with an effort he opened his eyes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy, do you know what I'd like best for Christmas?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought you were sleeping. Don't tell me now. There's heaps of time.
- It's six weeks till Christmas.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But Joan and I have talked about it,&rdquo; he persisted. &ldquo;We don't want him,
- if you don't want him.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What is he, dear? If he doesn't cost too much, you shall have him.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Robbie procrastinated now that he had brought his mother to the point of
- listening. It was a delicate proposal that he was about to make. &ldquo;I don't
- know whether you can get one,&rdquo; he hesitated. &ldquo;A boy at my school got one
- without asking, and it wasn't even Christmas.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was sitting up in bed now, very intense and serious, and very much
- awake.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you've not told me yet what it is you want. If you don't tell me, I
- can't say whether I can afford it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She slipped her arm about the square little body and feeling how it
- trembled, held it close against her breast. He hid his face in the hollow
- of her neck. &ldquo;Robbie's place,&rdquo; she whispered. &ldquo;If it's difficult to say,
- whisper it to mother there.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- His lips moved several times before a sound came and then, &ldquo;If it isn't
- too much trouble, we should like to have a Daddy.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Against his will she held him back from her, trying to see his eyes. &ldquo;But
- why?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It was he who was crying now. &ldquo;Oh Mummy, I didn't mean to hurt you.... To
- be like all the other little boys and girls.&rdquo; When at last he was truly
- asleep and she had come down to the lamp-lit room in which she sewed, she
- did not take up her work. The parrot tried to draw her into conversation
- with his eternal question, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Nothing tonight, Polly,&rdquo; she said. Presently she crossed the room and,
- pulling back the curtains, stood staring out into the blackness. So her
- children had felt it, too&mdash;the weight of loneliness! She had tried so
- hard to prevent them from sharing it; had striven in so many ways to be
- their companion. Try as she would, she could never make up for a father's
- absence. She could never give them the sense of security that a man could
- have given without effort, even though he had loved them less. It was a
- bitter realisation&mdash;one which vaguely she had always dreaded must
- come to her. It was doubly bitter coming to her now, on a night when all
- the world was glad. She might be many things to her children; she could
- never be a man.... What did Robbie think? That you bought a father from an
- agency or engaged him through an advertisement? She smiled sadly, &ldquo;Not so
- easy as that.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; asked the parrot.
- </p>
- <p>
- She drew the curtains together, extinguished the lights and groped her way
- up to bed.
- </p>
- <p>
- But her eyes had not peered far enough into the blackness. There was
- another person in London who had not danced or climbed lamp-posts or
- ridden on the roofs of taxis that night. For three hours he had watched
- the little house from the shadow of the trees across the road. From the
- pavement, had you been passing, you would hardly have distinguished him as
- he leant against the garden-railings. The only time he gave a sign of his
- presence was when the red flare of his cigarette betrayed him. He did not
- seem to be planning harm to anyone; he could not have done much harm in
- any case, for the left sleeve of his coat hung empty. He was simply
- waiting for something that he hoped might happen. At last his patience was
- rewarded when she drew aside the curtain and stood with the lighted room
- behind her, staring out into the blackness. Only when she had again hidden
- herself and all the house was in darkness, did he turn to go. He was there
- the next night and the next. It was after his third night of watching that
- the dining-room window told me.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0008" id="link2HCH0008"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VIII
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0016" id="linkimage-0016"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9095.jpg" alt="9095 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9095.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE fourth night he was there again. By this time everything in the house,
- from the kettle in the kitchen to the carpet on the topmost landing, was
- aware that a one-armed man was hidden beneath the trees across the road,
- watching. The whole house was on the alert, listening and waiting&mdash;everybody,
- that is to say, except the people most concerned, who inhabited us. It
- seemed strange that they alone should be in ignorance. The grandfather
- clock did his best to tell them. &ldquo;Beware; take care. Beware; take care,&rdquo;
- he ticked as his pendulum swung to and fro. They stared him in the face
- and read the time by his hands, but they had no idea what he was saying.
- </p>
- <p>
- What could it be that the watching man wanted? Whatever it was, he wanted
- it badly, for it was by no means pleasant to stand motionless for several
- hours when the November chill was in the air. Nor did he seem to find it
- pleasant, for every now and then he coughed and shook himself like a dog
- inside his coat, and sunk his chin deeper into his collar.
- </p>
- <p>
- He had been there since six o'clock. He had seen the cook and the
- housemaid come up the area-steps and meet their respective sweethearts
- under the arc-light at the end of the square. There was only one other
- grown person in the house beside the little lady&mdash;Nurse; and Nurse
- had been in bed since the afternoon with a sick headache. He could not
- have known that. It was at precisely eight that he consulted his luminous
- wrist-watch, crossed the road, hesitated and raised the knocker very
- determinedly, as if he had only just arrived and had not much time to
- spare. <i>Rat-tat-tat!</i> The sound echoed alarmingly through the
- silence. The little lady dropped her sewing in her lap and listened. The
- sound was repeated. <i>Rat-tat-tat!</i> It seemed to say, &ldquo;Come along.
- Don't keep me waiting. You've got to let me in sooner or later. You know
- that.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It can't be the postman at this hour,&rdquo; she murmured, &ldquo;and yet it sounds
- like his knock.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Laying her work on the table beneath the lamp, she rose from her chair and
- descended. She opened the door only a little way at first, just wide
- enough for her to peer out, so that she could close it again if she saw
- anything disturbing.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;So you do live here!&rdquo; The man outside spoke gladly. &ldquo;I guessed it could
- be no one else the moment I saw that the house was no longer empty.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She opened the door a few more inches. His tone puzzled her by its
- familiarity. His face had not yet come into the ray of light which slanted
- from the hall across the steps.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You don't recognise me?&rdquo; he questioned. &ldquo;I called to let you know that I
- did fetch that taxi. It's been on my mind that you thought I deserted you.
- Taxi-cabs were hard to find in an air-raid.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She flung the door wide. &ldquo;Why it's&mdash;&mdash;&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She didn't know how to call him&mdash;how to put what he was into words.
- He had been simply &ldquo;the American officer&rdquo;&mdash;that was how she had named
- him in talking with the children. He had been often remembered, especially
- during the fireside hour when in imaginary adventures he had been the hero
- of many stories. How brave she had made him and how often she had feared
- that he was dead! There were other stories which she had told only to
- herself, when the children were asleep and the house was silent. And there
- he stood on the threshold, with the same gallant bearing and the same
- eager smile playing about his mouth. &ldquo;I've always been loved and trusted;
- you love and trust me, too&rdquo;&mdash;that was what his smile was saying to
- her.
- </p>
- <p>
- Her heart was beating wildly; but nothing of what she felt expressed
- itself in what she said. &ldquo;I'm by myself. I've let the maids go out. I'm
- terribly apologetic for having treated you so suspiciously.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He laughed and stepped into the hall. &ldquo;I seem fated to find you by
- yourself; you were alone last time. I'm in hospital and have to be back by
- ten. Won't you let me sit with you for half an hour?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He had begun to remove his top-coat awkwardly. His awkwardness attracted
- her attention.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Please let me do that for you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, I'm learning to manage. It's all right.... Well, if you must.
- Thanks.&rdquo; She didn't dare trust herself. There was a pricking sensation
- behind her eyes. She motioned to him to go first. As she followed him up
- the stairs, she gazed fixedly at his flattened left side, where the sleeve
- was tucked limply into the tunic-pocket. She knew that when she was again
- face to face with him she must pretend not to have noticed.
- </p>
- <p>
- He entered the room and stood staring round. &ldquo;The same old room! But it
- didn't belong to you then. How did you manage it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Easily, but not on purpose.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Truly, not on purpose?&rdquo; His tone was disappointed.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;No, not on purpose. I didn't know the name of the square or the number of
- the house that night. I stumbled on it months later by accident. It was
- still to let.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;So you took it? Why did you take it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because I'd liked it from the first and it suited me,&rdquo; she smiled. &ldquo;Why
- else?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought perhaps...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Well, say it. You're just like Robbie. When Robbie wants to tell me
- something that's difficult, he has a special place against which he hides
- his face; it's easier to tell me there. You men are all such little boys.
- If it's difficult to tell, you do the same and say it without looking at
- me.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She reseated herself beneath the lamp and took up her sewing. &ldquo;Now tell
- me, why did you want me to say that I took it on purpose?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I don't quite know. Perhaps it was because, had I been you, I should have
- taken it on purpose. One likes to live in places where he has been happy,
- even though the happiness lasted only for an hour.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He wandered over to the couch before the fire and sat down where he could
- watch her profile and the slope of her throat beneath the lamp. The only
- sound was the prick of the needle and the quiet pulling through of the
- thread. It had all happened just as he would have planned it. He was glad
- that she was alone. He was glad that it was in this same room that they
- had met. He was glad in a curious unreasoning way for the faint fragrance
- of Jacqueminot that surrounded her. It had been just like this at the
- Front that he had thought of her&mdash;thought of her so intensely that he
- had almost caught the scent and the rustle of her dress, moving towards
- him through the squalor of the trench. Through all the horror the brief
- memory of her gentleness had remained with him. And what hopes he had
- built on that memory! He had told himself that, if he survived, by hook or
- by crook he would search her out. In hospital, when he had returned to
- England, all his impatience to get well had been to get to her. In his
- heart he had never expected success. The task had seemed too stupendous.
- And now here he was, sitting with her alone, the house all quiet, the fire
- shining, the lamp making a pool of gold among the shadows, and she, most
- quiet of all, taking him comfortably for granted and carrying on with her
- woman's work. At last he was at rest; not in love with her, he told
- himself, but at rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was she who broke the silence. &ldquo;How did you know? What made you come so
- directly to this house?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He met her eyes and smiled. &ldquo;Where else was there to come? It was the one
- place we both knew. I took a chance at it.&rdquo; And then, after a pause, &ldquo;No,
- that's not quite true. I was sent up to London for special treatment. The
- first evening I was allowed out of hospital, I hurried here and, finding
- that our empty house was occupied, stayed outside to watch it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But why to watch it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because it was a million to one that you weren't the tenant. Before I
- rang the bell I wanted to make certain. You see I don't know your name; I
- couldn't ask to see the lady of the house. If she hadn't been you, how
- could I have explained my intrusion?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And then you made certain?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He nodded. &ldquo;You came to the window on Armistice night and stood for a few
- minutes looking out.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I remember.&rdquo; She shivered as if a cold breath had struck her. &ldquo;I was
- feeling stupid and lonely; all the world out there in the darkness seemed
- so glad. I wish you had rung my bell. That was three nights ago.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You mean why did I let three nights go by. I guess because I was a
- coward. I got what we call in America 'cold feet.' I thought...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He waited for her to prompt him. She sat leaning forward, her hands lying
- idle in her lap. He noticed, as he had noticed nearly a year ago, the
- half-moon that her shoulders made in the dimness. She was extraordinarily
- motionless; her motionlessness gave her an atmosphere of strength. When
- she moved her gestures said as much as words. Nothing that she did was
- hurried.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Tell me what you thought.&rdquo; she said quietly. She spoke to him as she
- would have spoken to Robbie, making him feel very young and little. When
- she spoke like that there was not much that he would not have told her.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought that you might not remember me or want to see me. We met so
- oddly; after the lapse of a year you might easily have regarded my call as
- an impertinence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;An impertinence!&rdquo; There were tears in her eyes when she raised her head.
- &ldquo;You lost your arm that I and my children might be safe, and you talk
- about impertinence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, that!&rdquo; He glanced down at his empty sleeve. &ldquo;That's nothing. It's the
- luck of the game and might have happened to anybody.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you lost it for me,&rdquo; she re-asserted, &ldquo;that I might be safe. You must
- have suffered terribly.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Seeing her distress, he laughed gaily. &ldquo;Losing an arm wasn't the worst
- that might have happened. I'm one of the fortunate ones; I'm still above
- ground. The thing wasn't very painful&mdash;nothing is when you've simply
- got to face it. It's the thinking about pain that hurts.... Hulloa, look
- at the time; I can just get back to the hospital by ten. If we're late,
- they punish us by keeping us in next night.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- At the top of the stairs as she was seeing him out, he halted and looked
- back into the room. &ldquo;It's quiet and cosy in there. I don't want to leave;
- I feel like a boy being packed off to school. You can't understand how
- wonderful it is after all the marching and rough times and being cut about
- to be allowed to sit by a fire with a woman. I loved to watch you at your
- sewing.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's because you're tired,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;more tired than you know. You must
- come very often and rest.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0009" id="link2HCH0009"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER IX
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0017" id="linkimage-0017"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9109.jpg" alt="9109 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9109.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- N the weeks that followed the little house came to know him well.
- Everybody in the little house treated him as though his injury were a
- decoration, which had been won especially in their defence. They were
- prouder to see him come walking up their steps with his blue hospital band
- on his remaining arm, than if Sir Douglas Haig himself had called upon
- them. Nobody took any count of the frequency of his visits&mdash;nobody
- except himself. Nobody seemed to think it strange that the moment the
- doctors had finished his dressings, he should wander off to Dolls' House
- Square. Nobody seemed to guess just how fond he was of the little lady. He
- hardly guessed himself. There were times when he wondered exactly how fond
- he was. He did not believe he was in love with her; the feeling that he
- had was too gentle. He had always understood that love was exciting,
- passionate and tumultuous with dreads, whereas in her presence he knew
- neither fears nor hesitancies. He wasn't the least in terror that he would
- lose her. He felt simply safe, the way a ship might feel when the winds
- had ceased to buffet and it lay still in a sheltered harbour on a level
- keel. This feeling of safety struck him as an extraordinary sensation to
- be produced in a soldier by a woman; he was a trifle ashamed of it, as
- though it were not quite manly.
- </p>
- <p>
- While he spoke with her, he found himself believing with a child-like
- faith that all women were mothers and that the world was good. He knew
- that for the present he could not do without her, but he was at a loss to
- imagine what he would do with her for always. She was like religion&mdash;she
- went beyond him, was bigger and better. He only dimly understood her, but
- was comfortable in believing that everything hidden was as kind as the
- part he knew. In a strangely intimate way he worshipped her, as a child
- adores his mother, thinking her the most perfect and beautiful being in
- the world. He discovered in her a wisdom of which nothing in her
- conversation gave the least indication; her unhurried attitude towards
- life created the impression. If this were love, then all the hearsay
- information he had gathered on the subject was mistaken.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were days when, after his wound had been dressed and he had left the
- hospital, he made a pretence that he was not going to visit her. He told
- himself that he was making her a habit, and that to make a habit of anyone
- was foolish. Instead of going to Dolls' House Square, he would invent some
- urgent business and take himself off citywards. But expeditions in which
- she had no share soon grew flat. He would find himself thinking about her,
- wondering whether she was waiting for him. He would end up, as he always
- ended up, by jumping in a taxi and knocking on her door in Dolls' House
- Square.
- </p>
- <p>
- He never once found her out. There was invariably a welcome for him. He
- would take his seat by the fire in the quiet room and watch her sewing
- till the darkness deepened and the lamp had to be brought out. It didn't
- seem to matter much whether he talked or was silent; her contentment
- seemed complete when he was there. She made no effort to entertain him,
- which was the best proof of their friendship. She was perfectly willing
- that he should ignore her, if that was his mood, by reading the paper or
- playing with the children.
- </p>
- <p>
- Though she made no effort to entertain him, the entire household had
- re-organised itself in readiness for his sharp <i>rat-a-tat</i>. Everyone,
- without expressing the fact, recognised that it was nice to have a man
- about the house. When one rose in the morning, there was something to
- which to look forward now. A man dropping in, even occasionally, gave this
- group of women a sense of protection and of contact with the unwidowed
- world.
- </p>
- <p>
- To Robbie and Joan he stood for something midway between a big brother and
- a pal. They had sharp rivalries as to who should light his cigarette. It
- wasn't easy for him to grip the box between his knees and strike the match
- with only one hand. They watched him and by anticipating his wishes tried
- to constitute themselves his missing hand.
- </p>
- <p>
- When they were with him, the little lady withdrew into the background,
- making herself so still and self-effacing that it scarcely seemed that he
- had come to see her. It was as though she had three children; he appeared
- to be their friend much more than hers. He would carry them off to the
- Zoo, to matinees or to see the Christmas toys in the West End shops.
- Sometimes she would accompany them; more often she would listen to their
- adventures when they had returned. But she never was really left out.
- While they were absent from her, she formed the main topic of
- conversation. Of this she was well aware; if she had not been, she would
- not have been so happy.
- </p>
- <p>
- In a way she derived more pleasure from staying at home and picturing them
- laughing through the crowded streets, going into tea-shops, riding in
- taxis and coming back through the dusk together. The children looked so
- proud in their sole possession of a man, especially of a soldier who had
- been wounded. Had their father come through the war, that was how they
- would have looked in his company. She was glad that they should get away
- from skirts. He could give them something which it was not in her power to
- give, however much she loved them. She was only a woman. Her reward
- followed when they returned a little conscience-stricken at having left
- her, bringing with them a present as indisputable proof that she had been
- remembered.
- </p>
- <p>
- One evening in talking with her after the children had been put to bed, he
- asked her if she didn't think she ought to go out more often.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I know I ought.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then why don't you?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled gently, thinking how little he knew of the world. &ldquo;When you've
- not got your own man to take you, it's difficult. The world moves in
- pairs. A woman can't go to many places unaccompanied.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But surely you don't need to. You must have quantities of friends who
- would be glad...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She cut him short. &ldquo;When a woman is left by herself, she learns a good
- many things about men that she didn't suspect when she was married. The
- men she would trust herself with have their wives or fiancées&mdash;they
- have no time to trouble over shipwrecked women like myself. And the other
- kind of men... The world has no place for a widow. It doesn't mean to be
- unkind, but it simply doesn't know what to do with her. Unmarried women
- consider her an unfair rival; they think she's seeking a second chance
- before they've had their first. In the old days India solved the problem
- by burying us with our husbands. In England they do the same thing, only
- less frankly. It's rather stupid to have to live and yet to be treated as
- though you ought to be dead. One fights against it at first; then one
- gradually becomes reconciled to be out of the running. If one's wise, she
- puts all her living into her children.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But that's not fair,&rdquo; he spoke hotly.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's the way it happens.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He sat frowning into the fire. What she had told him had upset all his
- preconceptions about her. Without looking at her, he re-started the
- conversation. &ldquo;I've thought of you as being so happy. I always thought of
- you that way at the Front. I've pictured you as being perched high on a
- ledge out of reach of waves and storms. From the first you've given me the
- feeling that nothing could hurt or move you, and that nothing could hurt
- or move me while I was near you. It's a queer thing for a man to admit to
- a woman, but you make me feel absolutely safe.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;That's not so very queer,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;because that's the way you make me
- feel.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Do I? You're not laughing at me?&rdquo; He swung round, leaning over the back
- of the couch, his entire attitude one of amazement.
- </p>
- <p>
- She met his surprise with a quiet smile. &ldquo;I'm perfectly serious. But you
- know the reason why we feel so safe in each other's company? It's because,
- in our different ways, we're both lonely people. We're not like the rest
- of the world; we don't move in pairs. I'm lonely because I'm a woman on my
- own, and you're lonely because you're in hospital in a foreign country. We
- met just at the time when we could give each other courage.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you don't look lonely,&rdquo; he protested; &ldquo;one always thinks of lonely
- people as being sad and untidy. You always look so terrifically
- well-groomed and expensive. You create the impression that you're either
- going to or returning from a party. I never saw you when you weren't
- self-assured and occupied. I used to wonder how you spared me so much time
- from your engagements.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Clever of me, wasn't it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Instead of answering her, he came over and stood above where she sat
- stitching beneath the lamp. He was seeing her for the first time not as
- wise, self-reliant and fashionable, but as beautiful, alone and
- unprotected. He could almost feel the ache of the bruises she had
- suffered. He felt self-reproached; what had he given her? Up to now
- anything that he could have given had seemed too small to mention. He had
- taken from her continually, supposing that she had a surplus of
- everything. And all the while she had been sharing his own hunger for the
- presents that money cannot buy.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's great to be alive, when you'd expected to be dead.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It was her turn to be surprised. She raised her head quickly, recognising
- a new earnestness in his tone.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0018" id="linkimage-0018"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0119.jpg" alt="0119m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0119.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- &ldquo;One doesn't talk much about what happened at the Front,&rdquo; he said; &ldquo;but
- one can't help feeling that his life was spared for some definite purpose.
- I believe the purpose was to be happy and to make others happy. I don't
- want to hog my own pleasure any more or to trifle in the old slovenly
- ways. I want to crowd every second with gratefulness for the mere fact of
- living. That's what's been bringing me here so often. That's why I've been
- so glad to carry Joan and Robbie away. Kiddies mean so tremendously much
- more to me than they did before I nearly died. And then there's home and
- women. I took them for granted once, but now... It's like saying one's
- prayers to be in a good woman's presence. I don't know if you at all
- understand me. I'm trying to thank you for what you've done....&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- And there his eloquence failed, leaving him gazing down at her and
- wondering whether she thought him foolish. She patted his hand, but she
- did not meet his eyes. &ldquo;It's all right. Don't explain. I know what you're
- meaning to say.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Do you?&rdquo; He spoke doubtfully. &ldquo;I think I was trying to ask you if we
- couldn't be happy together. I'm not married and I'm not engaged; but I'm
- not like the other men you mentioned.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;My dear boy, I never thought you were. If I had, you wouldn't have been
- here. You're honourable all the way through; I knew that the moment I saw
- you. Does that make you feel better?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He laughed happily. &ldquo;Much. Do you know what I believe I've been trying to
- ask you through all this maze of words? If I get permission from the
- doctor to stay out late tomorrow night, would you be gay and go with me to
- a theatre?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her eyes met his with gladness. &ldquo;I should love it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0010" id="link2HCH0010"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER X
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0019" id="linkimage-0019"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9125.jpg" alt="9125 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9125.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HAT evening at the theatre was the first conscious step in their
- experiment of being happy together. She received word from him at
- lunch-time that the doctor's permission had been granted and that he would
- call for her at seven. The news made her as excited as if she had never
- been to a theatre before in her life. She spent the afternoon before the
- mirror, brushing and re-brushing her hair, and in laying out all the
- pretty clothes which she knew men liked. It was three years since she had
- dressed with the deliberate intent that a man should admire her. Once to
- do that had been two-thirds of her life. To find herself doing it again
- seemed like waking from a long illness; she could hardly bring herself to
- believe that the monotony of sorrow was ended and that she was actually
- going to be happy again. She had been made to feel so long that to be
- happy would be disloyalty to past affections.
- </p>
- <p>
- She locked her bedroom door, for fear any of the servants should guess how
- she was occupied. She was filled with an exultant shame that she should
- still be capable of valuing so highly a man's opinion of her appearance.
- &ldquo;But I will be happy,&rdquo; she kept telling herself; &ldquo;I have the right.&rdquo; And
- then, in a whisper, &ldquo;Oh, little house, you have been so kind. Wish me luck
- and say that he'll think me nice.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0020" id="linkimage-0020"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0127.jpg" alt="0127m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0127.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- Outside in the bare black cradle of the trees the November afternoon
- faded. Sparrows twittered of how winter was almost come. Against the cold
- melancholy of the London sky, like silhouettes crayoned on a wall of ice,
- roofs and chimneys stood smudged. In flickering pin-points of
- incandescence street-lamps wakened; night came drifting like a ship into
- harbour under shrouded sails.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had been sitting listening for a long time, haunted by childish fears
- that he would not come. At seven promptly a taxi panted into the square
- and drew up wheezing and coughing before the little house. Seizing her
- evening-wrap, she ran down the stairs and had her hand on the door before
- his knock had sounded. &ldquo;I didn't want to keep you waiting,&rdquo; she explained.
- </p>
- <p>
- He handed her into the cab. With a groan and a thump the engine pulled
- itself together and they made good their escape. As she settled back into
- her corner, pulling on her gloves, she watched him. So he also had
- regarded it as a gala-night! He was wearing a brand-new uniform and had
- been at extra pains to make his boots and belt splendid and shiny. She did
- her best not to be observed too closely, for her eyes were overbright and
- her color was high. She felt annoyed at herself for being so girlish.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's tremendous fun. I haven't been to the theatre in the evening
- since... for years and years,&rdquo; she whispered. &ldquo;The war is really ended.
- I'm believing it for the first time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- They dined together at Prince's to the fierce discords of Jazz music. It
- suited her mood; it was primitive and reckless. Diners kept rising between
- courses and slipping out in pairs to where dancing was in progress. The
- whole world went in pairs tonight. And she had her man; no one could make
- her lonely for just this one night. It was exciting to her to notice how
- much more they seemed to belong to each other now that they were in
- public. He felt it also, for he showed his sense of pride and ownership in
- a hundred little ways. It was good to be owned after having been left so
- long discarded. As he faced her across the table, he had the air of
- believing that everybody was admiring her and envying him his luck. She
- was immensely grateful that he should think so. It was as though he could
- hear them saying, &ldquo;How on earth did a one-armed fellow do it?&rdquo; Had they
- asked him, he could only have told them, &ldquo;The house was empty, so I
- entered.&rdquo; Yes, and even he had not guessed how empty! But what had changed
- her? Knowing nothing about the locked door and how her afternoon had been
- spent, he was puzzled. All he knew was that the woman whom he had thought
- perfect, had revealed herself as more perfect. She had become radiantly
- beautiful in a way quite new and unexpected.
- </p>
- <p>
- Of the play to which they went she saw but little; all she realised was
- that it was merry&mdash;a fairy-tale of life. One does not notice much
- when the heart is swollen with gladness. People sang, and looked pretty,
- and fell in love. Everyone was paired and married before the curtain was
- rung down. Something, however, she did remember: two lilting lines which
- had been sung:
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- And, while the sun is shining,
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p>
- They kept repeating themselves inside her head. Unconsciously in the
- darkness as they were driving home, she started humming them.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What did you say?&rdquo; he questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I didn't say anything. It was just a snatch from a tune we heard.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Was it? Won't you hum it again?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- So in the intermittent gloom of the passing lights she tried; but for some
- reason, inexplicable to herself, it made her feel choky. She couldn't
- reach the end. Gathering her wrap closer about her, she drew the fur
- collar higher to hide the stupid tears which had forced their way into her
- eyes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I believe you're crying!&rdquo; he exclaimed with concern. &ldquo;Do tell me what's
- the matter.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm too happy,&rdquo; she whispered brokenly. The taxi drew up against the
- pavement with a jerk. There was no knowing what he might say next to
- comfort her. She both yearned to learn and dreaded. Flight was the safer
- choice. Before he could assist her, she had jumped out. &ldquo;Come tomorrow and
- I'll thank you properly. I can't now. And... I'm sorry for having been a
- baby.&rdquo; Catching at her skirts, she fled up the steps and let herself into
- the darkened house.
- </p>
- <p>
- Not until his wheels had moved reluctantly away, did she climb the narrow
- stairs to the room from which she had departed so gaily. Her solitariness
- had returned. She had had her own man for a handful of hours. They were
- ended.
- </p>
- <p>
- As she threw off her finery, she could still hear that voice persistently
- advising,
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- And, while the sun is shining,
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p>
- In the darkness she flung herself down on the bed, burying her face in the
- pillow. &ldquo;I want to; oh, I want to,&rdquo; she muttered.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0011" id="link2HCH0011"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER XI
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0021" id="linkimage-0021"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9137.jpg" alt="9137 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9137.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- OR three weeks she followed the song's advice. No one knew how long
- happiness would last. With her it had never lasted. He would leave her
- presently; already he was anticipating an early return to America.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I shall feel terribly flat when you've gone,&rdquo; she told him.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But I'll write. I'll write you the longest letters.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Ah, but letters aren't the same as being together.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He didn't seem to share her need of him, and it hurt. If he did share it,
- it was unconsciously. He had yet to awaken to what the need meant. She had
- allowed him to become too sure of her, perhaps; had she kept him more
- uncertain, he might have awakened. In any case, it was too late to alter
- attitudes now and to think up reasons.
- </p>
- <p>
- He liked her in the jolliest kind of way as the most splendid of
- diversions; but she wasn't essential to him for all time&mdash;only for
- the present. She treasured no illusions about the longest letters. She
- knew men&mdash;the world was filled with women; out of sight would be out
- of mind. So every evening when he visited her, her heart was in her throat
- till she had made him confess that he had not yet received his embarkation
- orders. Some day he would tell her that he was going and would expect her
- to congratulate him. She would have to smile and pretend that she was glad
- for his sake. After that he would vanish and the long eventlessness would
- re-commence. He would write intimately and often at first; little by
- little new interests would claim him. There would be a blank and then,
- after a long silence, a printed announcement, curtly stating that he had
- found his happiness elsewhere.
- </p>
- <p>
- She saw herself growing old. The children would spring up so quickly. She
- would be left with her pride, to dress and make herself beautiful for an
- anonymous someone whose coming was indefinitely postponed. Youth would go
- from her. For interminable evenings, stretching into decades, she would
- watch afternoons fade into evenings. Everything would grow quiet. She
- would sit beneath the lamp at her sewing. The whispering parrot would take
- pity on her and croak, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; Even that game would
- end one day, for Robbie would become a man and marry. When that had
- happened it wouldn't be truthful for the parrot to tell her that Robbie
- loved her best. She would listen for the clock to strike, the fire to
- rustle, the coals to drop in the grate. Towards midnight taxis would enter
- the square. Lovers would alight. She would hear the paying of the fare,
- the tapping of a woman's high-heeled shoes on the pavement, the slipping
- of the key into the latch, the opening and closing of the door, and then
- again the silence. She would fold up her work, turn out the lights and
- stand alone in the darkness, invisible as a ghost.
- </p>
- <p>
- Ah, but he had not sailed yet. &ldquo;Make hay, little girl, make hay.&rdquo; His
- going was still only a threat. There was time, still time. She set a date
- to her respite. She would not gaze beyond it. If she could only have him
- till Christmas!
- </p>
- <p>
- Meanwhile he kept loyally to his contract that they should be happy
- together. He gave her lavishly of his time. If he guessed how much the
- gift meant, he said nothing to show it. He was like a great, friendly
- schoolboy in his cheerfulness; he filled every niche of her desire. Now,
- in the afternoon, when he took the children on adventures, she found
- herself included. On the return home, he shared with her the solemn rite
- of seeing them safely in bed. Then forth they would sally on some fresh
- excursion. Always and increasingly there was the gnawing knowledge that
- the end was nearer in sight&mdash;that soon to each of the habits they
- were forming they would have to say, &ldquo;We have done it for the last time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- We, the bricks and mortar of the little house, watched her. We grew
- desperate, for we loved her. What we had observed and overheard by day we
- discussed together by night. If we could prevent it, we were determined
- that he should not go.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But, if he goes,&rdquo; creaked the staircase, &ldquo;he may return. They used to say
- in my young days that the heart grows fonder through absence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Rubbish,&rdquo; banged the door on the first landing. &ldquo;Rubbish, I say.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He'll go,&rdquo; ticked the grandfather clock pessimistically. &ldquo;He'll go. He'll
- go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Not if I know it,&rdquo; shouted the door and banged again.
- </p>
- <p>
- We had come to a few nights before Christmas. Which night I do not
- remember, but I recall that we had started our decorations. Mistletoe was
- hanging in the hall. Holly had been arranged along the tops of the
- picture-frames. The children had been full of whisperings and secrets.
- Parcels had already begun to arrive. They were handed in with a crackling
- of paper and smuggled upstairs to a big cupboard in which they were hidden
- from prying eyes. The children were now in bed, sleeping quietly for fear
- of offending Santa Claus. The little lady was in the room where she
- worked, checking over her list of presents. She had got something for
- everyone but Robbie; she had postponed buying Robbie's present for a very
- special reason of which we were all aware. Perhaps it was superstition;
- perhaps a desperate hope. He had told her what he wanted; it didn't look
- as if she would be able to get it. &ldquo;It's no good waiting,&rdquo; she told
- herself; &ldquo;I shall have to buy him something tomorrow.&rdquo; Just then, as if in
- answer to her thoughts, an impatient <i>rat-tat-tat</i> re-sounded. It was
- his unmistakably, but he had never come so late as this before. All day
- she had listened and been full of foreboding; she had despaired of his
- ever coming. There was an interval after the door had been opened, during
- which he removed his coat. She could picture his awkwardness in doing it.
- Then the swift, leaping step of him mounting the stairs. Why had he
- delayed so long, only to come to her at the last moment in such a hurry?
- She rose from her chair to face him, her hands clenched and her body
- tense, as if to resist a physical blow. As he appeared in the doorway his
- lips were smiling. There was evidently something which he was bursting to
- tell her. On catching sight of her face he halted. His smile faded.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What's the matter? What's happened?&rdquo; She unclenched her hands and looked
- away from him. &ldquo;Nothing.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;There must be something. Something's troubling you. What have you been
- doing with yourself this evening?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her gaze came back to him. She smiled feebly. &ldquo;Wondering whether you were
- coming and worrying over Robbie's present.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Robbie's present! That's nothing to worry over. We'II go together and
- choose one tomorrow. I'll have time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Time!&rdquo; She straightened up bravely, the way she had rehearsed the scene
- so often in her imagination. &ldquo;Then it's true. You won't be here for
- Christmas? You're sailing?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her knowledge of his doings was uncanny. He came a step nearer, but she
- backed away. He realised her fear lest he should touch her. For a moment
- he was offended. Then, &ldquo;My orders came today. How did you know? It was
- what I came to tell you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;How did I know!&rdquo; She laughed unsteadily. &ldquo;How does one know anything? The
- heart tells one things sometimes. You'll be busy tomorrow&mdash;so many
- other things to think about. Robbie's present doesn't matter. It's growing
- late... Good-bye.&rdquo; He stood astonished at her abruptness. What had he done
- that she should be so anxious to rid herself of him? When he did not seem
- to see her proffered hand, but stared at her gloomily, her nerves broke.
- &ldquo;Go. Why don't you go?&rdquo; she cried fiercely. &ldquo;You know you'll be happy.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You want me to go?&rdquo; he asked quietly. Had she heard her own voice, she
- would have given way to weeping. With her handkerchief pressed tightly
- against her lips, she nodded.
- </p>
- <p>
- He turned slowly, looked back from the threshold for a sign of relenting
- and dragged his way haltingly down the stairs. In the hall beneath the
- mistletoe he paused to listen. He fancied he had heard the muttering of
- sobbing. So long as he paused he heard nothing; it was only when he began
- to move that again he thought he heard it. Having flung his coat about his
- shoulders, he eased his arm into the sleeve. This wasn't what he had come
- for&mdash;a very different ending!
- </p>
- <p>
- And now the chance of the little house had arrived. Windows, chairs,
- tables, walls, we had all pledged ourselves to help her. He attempted to
- let himself out; the frontdoor refused to budge. He pulled, tugged and
- worked at the latch without avail.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Shan't go. Shan't go. Shan't go,&rdquo; ticked the grandfather's clock
- excitedly. Then the usual thing happened, which always happened when the
- grandfather's clock got excited.
- </p>
- <p>
- There was a horrible <i>whirr</i> of the spring running down; the weights
- dropped with a bang.
- </p>
- <p>
- In the silence that followed he listened. She thought he had gone. There
- could be no mistake now; she was crying as if her heart would break.
- </p>
- <p>
- The stairs creaked to warn her as he ascended. She could not have heard
- them, for when he stepped into the room she took no notice. She had sunk
- to the floor and lay with her face hidden in the cushions of the chair,
- with the gold light from the lamp spilling over her. For some moments he
- watched her&mdash;the shuddering rise and fall of her shoulders.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You told me to go,&rdquo; he said. &ldquo;The little house won't let me; it was
- always kind to us.&rdquo; And then, when she made no answer, &ldquo;It's true. I've
- got my sailing orders. But it was you who told me to go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She was listening now. He knew that, for the half-moon shoulders had
- ceased to shudder. The smell of Jacqueminot drew him to her. Bending over
- her, he stole one hand from beneath the buried face. &ldquo;Do I need to go?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- And still there was no answer. It was then that the old grey parrot spoke.
- He had pretended to be sleeping. &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; he whispered
- hoarsely; and, when an interval had elapsed, &ldquo;Robbie?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The little lady, who had needed to be loved, lifted up her tear-stained
- face and the wounded officer who had wanted rest, bent lower.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I don't need to go,&rdquo; he whispered. &ldquo;I came to bring you Robbie's present.
- He told me what he wanted.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <h3>
- THE END
- </h3>
- <div style="height: 6em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-<pre>
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- <h1>
- THE LITTLE HOUSE
- </h1>
- <h2>
- By Coningsby Dawson
- </h2>
- <h3>
- With Illustrations By Stella Langdale
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- New York: John Lane Company
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- 1920
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- TO
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- <h3>
- THE LITTLE LADY
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- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2H_4_0001"> <b>THE LITTLE HOUSE</b> </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0001"> CHAPTER I </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0002"> CHAPTER II </a>
- </p>
- <p class="toc">
- <a href="#link2HCH0003"> CHAPTER III </a>
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- <a href="#link2HCH0004"> CHAPTER IV </a>
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- <a href="#link2HCH0011"> CHAPTER XI </a>
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- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <br /><br /> <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2H_4_0001" id="link2H_4_0001"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h1>
- THE LITTLE HOUSE
- </h1>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0001" id="link2HCH0001"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER I
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0004" id="linkimage-0004"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9017.jpg" alt="9017 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9017.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE little house, tell this story. It was lived within my walls; not a line
- is invented and it was I, by my interfering, who brought about the happy
- ending. Who wants a story that does not end happily, especially a
- Christmas story? To have been responsible for the happy ending is pretty
- nearly as clever as to have made the story up out of one's own head or, as
- we houses say, out of one's own walls.
- </p>
- <p>
- Perhaps you never heard before of a house telling a story. If that be so,
- it is because you don't listen or because you go to bed too early. Unlike
- people, we houses sleep all day long; but after midnight we wake up and
- talk. When the clock strikes twelve, our stairs begin to crack and our
- windows to rattle and our floors to creak. If you ever hear these sounds,
- don't be frightened; they simply mean that the kind old walls that shelter
- you have begun to remember and to think. And we have so many things to
- remember and to think about, especially we old houses who have been
- standing for almost two hundred years. We have seen so much; we have been
- the friends of so many generations. More little children have been born
- beneath our roofs than we have stairs on which to count. We reckon things
- on our stairs, just as people reckon things on their fingers. When our
- stairs crack after midnight, it's usually because we're counting' the
- births and love-makings and marriages we have watched. We very often get
- them wrong because there are so many of them. Then the doors and windows
- and floors will chip in to correct us. &ldquo;Ha,&rdquo; a window will rattle, &ldquo;you've
- forgotten the little girl who used to gaze through my panes in 1760 or
- thereabouts.&rdquo; One of the doors will swing slowly on its hinges and, if
- anyone disputes with it, will bang, shouting angrily, &ldquo;Wrong again&mdash;all
- wrong.&rdquo; Then the walls and the windows and the doors and the floors all
- start whispering, trying to add up correctly the joys and sorrows they
- have witnessed in the years beyond recall.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0005" id="linkimage-0005"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0019.jpg" alt="0019m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0019.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- When that happens, if you're awake and listening, you'll hear us start
- adding afresh, from the lowest to the topmost stair.
- </p>
- <p>
- I am a London house and a very little house, standing in a fashionable
- square near Hyde Park. I have known my ups and downs. Once was the time
- when I was almost in the country and the link-boys used to make a fuss at
- having to escort my lady so far in her sedan-chair. It's a long way to the
- country now, for the city has spread out miles beyond me. Within sight
- through the trees at the end of the square red motor-buses pass, bumping
- their way rowdily down to Hammersmith and Kew. In my young days these
- places were villages, but I am told they are full of noises now. I have at
- least escaped that, for our square is a backwater of quiet and leads to
- nowhere, having an entrance only at one end. All the houses in the square
- were built at the same time as I was, which makes things companionable. We
- all look very much alike, with tiny areas, three stone steps leading up
- from the pavement, one window blinking out from the ground-floor, two
- blinking out from each of the other floors and a verandah running straight
- across us. In summer-time the verandah is gay with flowers. Our only
- difference is the colour we are painted, especially the colour of our
- doors. Mine is white; but some of our neighbours' are blue, some green,
- some red. We're very proud of the front-doors in our square. In the middle
- stands a railed-in garden, to which none but our owners have access. Its
- trees are as ancient as ourselves. Behind us, so hidden that it is almost
- forgotten, stands the grey parish-church, surrounded by a graveyard in
- which many of the people who have been merry in us rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- For some years we were what is known as a &ldquo;gone down neighborhood,&rdquo; till a
- gentleman who writes books bought us cheap, put us in repair and rented us
- to his friends. This has made us very select; since then we have become
- again fashionable.
- </p>
- <p>
- Now you know all that is necessary to form a mental picture of us. Because
- we are so small, we are sometimes spoken of as &ldquo;Dolls' House Square.&rdquo; All
- the things that I shall tell you I do not pretend to have witnessed, for
- houses have to spend their lives always in the one place&mdash;they cannot
- ride in taxis and move about. We gain our knowledge of how the world is
- changing by listening to the conversations of people who inhabit us; when
- night has fallen we mutter among ourselves, passing on to one another
- beneath the starlight down the lamp-lit streets the gossip we have
- overheard. Whatever of importance we miss, the churchbells tell us. Big
- Ben, with his sweet tenor voice, booming out the hours, is in this respect
- particularly thoughtful.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0006" id="linkimage-0006"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0025.jpg" alt="0025m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0025.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- So now, having explained myself, I come to my story of the little lady who
- needed to be loved, but did not know it, and the wounded officer who
- wanted rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0002" id="link2HCH0002"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER II
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0007" id="linkimage-0007"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9029.jpg" alt="9029 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9029.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE little lady who needed to be loved, but did not know it, discovered me
- quite by accident. This story is a series of accidents; if it had not been
- for the <i>ifs</i> and the <i>perhaps's</i> and the <i>possibilities</i>
- there wouldn't have been any story to tell.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was empty when she found me, for my late tenants had grown frightened
- and had moved into the country on account of airraids. They said that I
- was too near the giant searchlights and anti-aircraft guns of Hyde Park
- Corner to be healthy. If they weren't killed by bombs, sooner or later
- they would be struck by our own expended shell-cases that came toppling
- from two miles out of the clouds. So they had made their exit hurriedly in
- November, taking all their furniture and leaving me to spend my
- one-hundred-and-ninety-eighth Christmas in the company of a caretaker.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was shortly before Christmas when I first saw her. Night had settled
- peacefully down; it was about nine o'clock when the maroons and sirens
- began to give warning that the enemy was approaching. In an instant, like
- a lamp extinguished, the lights of London flickered and sank. Down the
- forests of streets innumerable doors swiftly opened and people came
- pattering out. Dragging half-clad children by the hand and carrying babies
- snatched up from their warm beds, they commenced to run hither and
- thither, seeking the faint red lights of shelters, where cellars and
- overhead protection might be found. Policemen, mounted on bicycles, rode
- up and down the thoroughfares, blowing whistles. Ambulances dashed by,
- tooting horns and clanging bells. From far and near out of the swamp of
- darkness rose a medley of panic and sound. Prodding the sky, like
- detectives with lanterns, searchlights hunted and turned back the edges of
- the clouds. Then ominously, with solemn anger, the guns opened up and in
- fierce defiance the first bomb fell. The pattering of feet ceased
- suddenly. Streets grew forlorn and empty. The commotion of living and the
- terror of dying were transferred from the earth to the air.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was standing deserted with my door wide open, for at the first signs of
- clamour the old woman, who was supposed to take care of me, had hobbled up
- from her basement and out on to the pavement in search of the nearest Tube
- Station. In her fear for her safety, she had forgotten to close my door,
- so there I stood with the damp air drifting into my hall, at the mercy of
- any chance vagrant.
- </p>
- <p>
- The guns had been booming for perhaps five minutes when I heard running
- footsteps entering the square. Our square is so shut in and small that it
- echoes like a church; every sound is startling and can be heard in every
- part of it. I could not see to whom the footsteps belonged on account of
- the trees and the darkness. They entered on the side farthest from me,
- from the street where the red motor-buses pass. When they had reached the
- top, from which there is no exit, they hesitated; then came hurrying back
- along the side on which they would have to pass me. <i>Tip-a-tap,
- tip-a-tap, tip-a-tap</i> and panting breath&mdash;the sound of a woman's
- high-heeled shoes against the pavement. Accompanying the <i>tip-a-tap</i>
- were funny, more frequent, shuffling noises, indistinct and confused.
- Three shadows grew out of the gloom, a small one on either side and a
- bigger one in the centre; as they drew near they resolved themselves into
- a lady in an evening-wrap and two children.
- </p>
- <p>
- I was more glad than I cared to own, for I'd been feeling lonely. Now that
- peace has come and we've won the war, I don't mind acknowledging that I'd
- been feeling frightened; at the time I wouldn't have confessed it for the
- world lest the Huns should have got to know it. We London houses, trying
- to live up to the example of our soldiers, always pretended that we liked
- the excitement of airraids. We didn't really; we quaked in all our bricks
- and mortar. One's foundations aren't what they were when one is a
- hundred-and-ninety-eight years old. So I'm not ashamed to tell you that I
- was delighted when the lady and her children came in my direction. I tried
- to push my front-door wider that they might guess that they were welcome.
- I was terribly nervous that they might pass in their haste without seeing
- that I was anxious to give them shelter. It was shelter that they were
- looking for. In coming into the square they had been seeking a shortcut
- home.
- </p>
- <p>
- They drew level without slackening their steps and had almost gone by me
- when, less than a quarter of a mile away, a bomb crashed deafeningly.
- Everything seemed to reel. Far and near you could hear the tinkling of
- splintered glass. The world leapt up red for a handful of seconds as
- though the door of a gigantic furnace had been flung open. Against the
- glow you could see the crouching roofs of houses, the crooked chimney-pots
- and the net-work of trees in the garden with their branches stripped and
- bare. The lady clutched at my railings to steady herself. Her face was
- white and her eyes were dark with terror. The last bomb had been so very
- close that it seemed as though the next must fall in the square itself.
- One of the searchlights had spotted the enemy and was following his plane
- through the clouds, holding it in its glare.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy, it's all right. Don't be frightened. You've got me to take care of
- you.&rdquo; It was the little boy speaking. Then he saw my <i>To Let</i> sign
- above and pointed, &ldquo;We'll go in here till it's over. Look, the door's wide
- open.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He tugged on her hand. With her arm about the shoulder of the little girl
- on the other side of her, she followed. The glow died down and faded. Soon
- the square was as secret and shadowy as it had been before&mdash;a tank
- full of darkness in which nothing stirred.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0003" id="link2HCH0003"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER III
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0008" id="linkimage-0008"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9037.jpg" alt="9037 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9037.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- EVER since I had been built had any visit quite as unceremonious as this
- occurred. Who was the strange lady? What was she doing wandering the
- streets at this hour unescorted? She was beautiful and richly gowned; her
- face was young, but very sad. I was anxious to learn more, so I listened
- intently.
- </p>
- <p>
- At first on entering, they halted just across the threshold, huddled
- together, the little lady with an arm flung about each of the children.
- She seemed to think that someone might be hidden in the darkness watching&mdash;someone
- to whom I belonged&mdash;for presently she addressed that supposed someone
- tremblingly: &ldquo;We hope you don't mind, but the car forgot to come for us.
- Grandfather had been giving us a party. When we heard the warning, we
- tried to run home before the raid started; but we got lost. The Tube
- Stations were all so crowded that... And we found your door open, so we
- hope you don't mind us entering.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She paused nervously, waiting for someone to answer. A board creaked;
- apart from that the silence was unbroken.
- </p>
- <p>
- Speaking to herself more than to the children, &ldquo;It's quite empty,&rdquo; she
- said at last.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Shall I close the door, Mumsie?&rdquo; the little boy questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;No, Robbie darling,&rdquo; she whispered; &ldquo;they might be angry, when they come
- back. I mean the people who live here.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But it's dreadfully cold.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then let's go farther in and find somewhere to sit down till the raid is
- over.&rdquo; They stumbled their way in the darkness through the hall and up the
- narrow staircase, where only one can walk abreast. Robbie went first on
- this voyage of discovery; he felt that if anything were hiding from them,
- his body would form a protection. His mother didn't want to lose sight of
- the street by climbing higher, but he coaxed her on from stair to stair.
- As pioneer of the expedition, he reached the tiny landing with the single
- door, which gives entrance to the drawing-room which occupies the whole of
- the second storey. Turning the handle he peeped in warily. Then, &ldquo;Cheer
- up, Mummy,&rdquo; he cried, &ldquo;there's been a fire and there's a wee bit of it
- still burning.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The room was carpetless and bare of furniture, save for an old sofa with
- sagging springs that had been pulled up across the hearth. Perched on the
- bars of the grate sat a tin kettle, gasping feebly, with nearly all its
- water boiled away. Under the kettle a few coals glowed faintly and a weak
- flame jumped and sank, like a ghost trying to make up its mind to vanish.
- Through the tall French windows that opened on to the verandah one could
- see the sky lit up with the tumultuous display of monstrous fireworks.
- From high overhead, above the clatter of destruction and the banging of
- guns, came the long-drawn, contented humming of the planes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;They're right over us,&rdquo; the little boy whispered.
- </p>
- <p>
- As if afraid that any movement on their part would draw the enemy's
- attention, they stood silent, clinging together, and listened. Oblongs of
- light, falling through the windows, danced and shifted. Once the beam of a
- searchlight groping through the shadows, gazed straight in and dwelt on
- them astounded, as if to say, &ldquo;Well, I never! Who'd have thought to find
- you here?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- They tiptoed over to the couch and sat down, making as little noise as
- possible, for they still weren't sure that they were welcome. They didn't
- speak or move for some time; with the excitement and running and losing
- their way they were very tired. Presently the little boy got up, and went
- and stood by the window looking out, with his legs astraddle and his hands
- behind his back like a man. He wore a sailor-suit and had bare, sturdy
- knees. He was very small to try to be so manly.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0009" id="linkimage-0009"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0041.jpg" alt="0041m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0041.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm not frightened, Mummy,&rdquo; he said.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;If father were here, he wouldn't be frightened.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She shifted her position so that she could glance proudly back at him.
- &ldquo;Father was never frightened.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- For the first time the little girl spoke. &ldquo;If father were here, they
- wouldn't dare to come to London. I expect they knew...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, Joan,&rdquo; her mother interrupted quickly, &ldquo;I expect they knew.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And when I'm a man they won't dare to come to London, either,&rdquo; said
- Robbie. &ldquo;How many of them did father...?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- But at that moment, before he could finish his question, his mother
- pressed her finger against his lips warningly. Above the roar of what was
- going on in the clouds, she had heard another and more alarming sound; the
- front-door closed quietly, a match struck and then the slow deliberate
- tread of someone groping up the stairs.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0004" id="link2HCH0004"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER IV
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0010" id="linkimage-0010"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9047.jpg" alt="9047 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9047.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE tread reached the landing and proceeded to mount higher. Then it
- hesitated. Another match was struck and it commenced to descend. On
- arriving at the landing again, it halted uncertain. The handle of the door
- was tried. The door swung open and a man peered across the threshold. No
- one spoke. The little lady on the couch drew Joan closer to her side and
- held her breath, hoping that the man might not observe them and that, when
- he had gone, they might escape. But the man did not go, he stood there on
- the alert, listening and searching the darkness.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was Robbie who spoke first. He had thrust his hands deep into his
- knickerbockers' pockets to gain courage. &ldquo;What do you want? We think you
- might speak,&rdquo; he said.
- </p>
- <p>
- The man laughed pleasantly. &ldquo;I'm sorry if I've frightened you. I didn't
- know that anyone was here. I thought this was an empty house. Perhaps you
- weren't aware of it, but you'd left your front-door open.&rdquo; Then, because
- no one replied, he added, &ldquo;It's all right now; it's closed.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He wasn't looking at Robbie any longer. He was trying to probe the shadows
- by the fireplace, where he had caught the rustle of a woman's dress. He
- had caught something else&mdash;the faint sweet fragrance of Jacqueminot.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I've alarmed you,&rdquo; he said. &ldquo;I'm a stranger in London and I couldn't find
- any way out of your square. I strayed into your house for shelter. I'm
- sorry I intruded. Good-night to you all, however many there are of you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was actually going. It was impossible to see what he looked like, but
- he was evidently well-mannered and a gentleman. Suddenly to the lady in
- the lonely house, from being a creature of dread, he became a heaven-sent
- protector. Who could tell how many less desirable visitors might not call
- before the raid was ended? The care-taker might return. Were that to
- happen, it would be much more comfortable to have this male trespasser
- present to help make the explanations. Just as he was withdrawing, the
- lady rose from the shabby couch and called him back.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, please, we'd much rather you didn't go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But who are we?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I and Robbie and Joan. We did the same thing as you. The house doesn't
- belong to us. We got caught, just as you did. We were terribly scared
- and... and it's creepy being in an empty, strange house where you haven't
- any right to be.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Though she could only see the blur of him, she could feel the smile that
- was in his eyes when she had finished her appeal. And it was an appeal,
- eager and nervous and tremulous. The tears in her voice said much more
- than the words. As he turned on his heel, she heard the jingle of his
- spurs and guessed that he was a man in khaki.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm on my way to France,&rdquo; he said, speaking slowly; &ldquo;I only landed
- yesterday. I was lonely too; I didn't know a soul. A queer way to make a
- friend!&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- As he stepped into the room, the light from the windows fell on him; he
- was dressed in the uniform of an American officer.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Which are you?&rdquo; he asked. &ldquo;I've heard only your voice as yet. I'll do
- anything I can to help.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The little lady held out her hand, but her face was still in shadow. It
- was a very tiny hand. &ldquo;It's good of you to be willing to stay with us,&rdquo;
- she said gratefully.
- </p>
- <p>
- At that point their conversation languished. The circumstances were so
- unprecedented that they were at a loss what to say or how to act. It was
- he who broke the awkward silence: &ldquo;We ought to be able to rouse this fire
- with a little effort.&rdquo; He bent over it, trying to pull it together. &ldquo;We
- need more coal. If you'll excuse me and won't be frightened while I'm
- gone, I'll run down and see what I can forage.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It seemed a long time that he was gone&mdash;so long that she had begun to
- be afraid that he'd taken his chance to slip out. She wouldn't have blamed
- him. In the last two years, since she'd been by herself, she'd become used
- to men doing things like that. She had ceased to bank overmuch on
- masculine chivalry. Few men had leisure to expend on a woman, however
- charming and beautiful, whose children had always to be included in the
- friendship.
- </p>
- <p>
- When she had made quite sure that he was no more chivalrous than other
- men, she heard him laboriously returning. He came in carrying a scuttle in
- one hand and some bundles of wood in the other. &ldquo;And now we'll pull down
- the blinds,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;and make a blaze and get her going.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- On his knees before the hearth he started to work, ramming paper between
- the bars, piling sticks criss-cross and using his cheeks as bellows. In
- the intervals between his exertions he chatted, &ldquo;I'm no great shakes at
- house-work. You mustn't watch me too closely or laugh at me. I'll do
- better than this when I've been at the Front, I guess. Are these your
- kiddies?... I suppose your husband's over there, where I'm going?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He was.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, so you've got him back! You're lucky. Is he wounded or has he got a
- staff job in England?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He'll never come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He paused in what he was doing and sat gazing into the flames which were
- licking at the wood. He hung his head. He ought to have thought of that;
- in the last few years so many Englishmen were dead. And then there came
- another reflection&mdash;the picture of what it must have cost her husband
- to say good-bye to his wife and children, and go marching away to
- anonymous glory. He wasn't married himself, but if he had been... It took
- enough bolstering up of one's courage to go when one was single; but to go
- when one was married... And yet selfishly, ever since he had put on khaki
- his paramount regret had been that, were he to peg out, he would leave no
- one to carry on in his stead. This air-raid was his first remote taste of
- warfare; within the next few weeks he was to know it in its full fury.
- What had impressed him most was the difference between war as imagined and
- witnessed. As imagined it had seemed the most immense of sports; as
- witnessed it was merely murder. Just before he had sought shelter he had
- seen where a bomb had fallen. People had been killed&mdash;people not so
- different from the mother and children hiding in this house. The
- suddenness of extinction had made him feel that in the game of life he had
- somehow &ldquo;missed out.&rdquo; There would be no woman to think of him as &ldquo;her man&rdquo;
- were he to go west. And here was the woman's price for such caring, &ldquo;He'll
- never come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He turned his head slowly; by the light of the crackling wood for the
- first time he saw her. The little boy was lying wearied out, with his head
- bowed in her lap. The little girl sat drowsing against her shoulder.
- </p>
- <p>
- She herself was leaning forward, gazing at and beyond him with a curious
- air of resigned intensity. She seemed to him to be listening for someone,
- whom she knew in her heart was never coming. He noticed the white
- half-moon of her shoulders faintly showing beneath her chinchilla wrap. He
- noticed her string of perfect pearls, the single ring on her hand and the
- expensive simplicity of her velvet gown. He was sufficiently a man of the
- world to make a guess at her social station. But it wasn't her beauty or
- elegance that struck him, though they were strangely in contrast to the
- empty room in which she sat; it was her gentleness and expression of
- patient courage. He knew, as surely as if she had told him, that this
- empty room, in which he had found her, was the symbol of her days. It was
- with her as it was with himself; there was no man to whom she was &ldquo;his
- woman.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I've hurt you by the impertinence of my questions.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled and shook her head. &ldquo;You've not hurt me. Don't think that. I
- shouldn't like you to think that you'd hurt me or anything that would make
- you sad. Are you going to France soon?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Tomorrow.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then you won't be here for Christmas. I wonder where you'll spend it.
- Perhaps next Christmas the war will be ended and you'll...&rdquo; She caught the
- instant change in his expression. She had seen that look too often in
- soldiers' eyes when the future was mentioned not to know what it meant.
- She laid her hand on his arm impulsively. &ldquo;But everyone who goes doesn't
- stay there. You'll be one of the lucky ones. You'll come back. I have that
- feeling about you. I know what's in your mind; you're a long way from
- home, you're going to face a great danger and you believe that everything
- is ended. You can only think of war now, but there are so many better
- things to do with life than fighting. All the better things will be here
- to welcome you, when you return.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He found himself talking to her in a way in which he had never spoken to
- any woman. Afterwards, when he recalled their conversation, he wondered
- why. Was it because she had filled him with so complete a sense of rest?
- One didn't have to explain things to her; she understood. He asked her how
- it was that she understood and she replied, &ldquo;You don't have to go to war
- to learn how to endure. You can stay at home and yet beat off attacks in
- the front-line trench. We women defeat despair by keeping on smiling when
- there's nothing left to smile about, and by wearing pretty dresses when
- there's no one to take a pride in what we wear.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He retorted unguardedly, as he felt. &ldquo;But there must be heaps of people
- who take a pride in you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You think so? You're unspoilt and generous. Life's a wonderful dream that
- lies all before you. You haven't known sorrow. Do you know what you seemed
- to be saying when you spoke to me through the shadows? 'Everybody has
- always loved and trusted me, so you love and trust me, too.' If it hadn't
- been for that, that I saw that you'd always been loved and were lonely for
- the moment, I shouldn't have sat here talking with you for the last hour.
- You'll get everything you want from life, if you'll only wait for it.
- You'll come back.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- While he sat at her feet in the firelight, she had the knack of making him
- feel like a little boy who was being comforted. She kept aloof from him,
- but she mothered him with words. He found himself glancing up at her
- furtively to make sure that she wasn't as old as she pretended. She wasn't
- old at all&mdash;not a single day older than himself. He turned over in
- his mind what she had said about having no one to be proud of her. He
- would have given a lot for the chance to be proud of her himself. But he
- was going to France tomorrow&mdash;there was no time left for that. With
- so much fighting and dying to be done, it seemed as though there would
- never again be time for anything that was personal.
- </p>
- <p>
- The clamour in the skies had died down.
- </p>
- <p>
- The crash of guns had been growing infrequent; now it had subsided. The
- drone of planes could be no more heard. The invader had been driven back;
- hard on his heels our aerial cavalry were following across the Channel,
- awaiting their moment to exact revenge when he tried to land.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0011" id="linkimage-0011"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0059.jpg" alt="0059m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0059.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- The restored normality seemed to rouse her reserve. Lifting the sleeping
- head from her lap, she whispered, &ldquo;Wake up, Robbie; we can go home now.
- It's all over.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The officer had risen and stood leaning against the mantel, &ldquo;So it's
- good-bye?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm afraid so.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You've made me happy when I least expected to be happy. Shall we meet
- again, I wonder?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled at his seriousness. &ldquo;Perhaps. One never knows what the good God
- will allow. We didn't expect to meet tonight.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was sensitive to her evasion and laughed, pretending to make light of
- it. &ldquo;We don't want them to think they've had burglars. We had better leave
- something for the coals we've burned.&rdquo; He placed a pound note on the
- mantel.
- </p>
- <p>
- Taking Joan in his arms and going first, he led the way down the stairs.
- When they were out of the hall and the front-door had closed behind them,
- he left the little group on the steps and went in search of a taxi. After
- a lengthy expedition he found one and, by promising an excessive fare,
- induced the driver to accompany him back. He knew neither the name of the
- square nor the number of the house, so he had to keep his head out of the
- window and shout directions. On entering the square he searched the
- pavement ahead, but could catch no sign of his recent companions. He
- halted the cab against the curb at the point where he thought he had left
- them; he was made certain that it was the point when he saw the notice TO
- LET. Perhaps the caretaker had come back and invited them to enter till he
- returned. He rang the bell and knocked vigorously. The driver was eyeing
- him with suspicion. When his repeated knockings were unanswered, he got
- into the taxi and ordered him to move slowly round the square.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had completely vanished. Either she had picked up a conveyance for
- herself, while he had been engaged in his search, or else she had lost
- faith in him and had taken it for granted that he had deserted her. He did
- not know her name. She had given him no address. Tomorrow night he would
- be in France. He had neither the time nor the necessary information to
- hunt for her.
- </p>
- <p>
- In reply to the driver's request for further instructions, he growled the
- name of his hotel. Then he spread himself out on the cushions and gave way
- to disconsolate reflections. The night was full of smoke and heavy with
- the smell of a bonfire burnt out. Things had become again uninteresting.
- He told himself that the most wonderful hour of his life was ended.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0005" id="link2HCH0005"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER V
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0012" id="linkimage-0012"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9065.jpg" alt="9065 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9065.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HRISTMAS came and went unmerrily. The old woman who took care of me had
- known better days; she stayed in bed in an effort to forget. Next door,
- but one, a son had returned unexpectedly from the trenches. There were
- laughing, dancing and piano playing. I tried to share their happiness; but
- happiness isn't the same when it is borrowed second-hand. My rooms were
- cheerless and empty of all sound.
- </p>
- <p>
- I kept thinking of my air-raid visitors, wondering where they were and
- hoping that the American officer had re-found the little lady. If he had,
- I felt sure he would be good to her. I told myself a foolish fairy-story,
- as old houses will, of how, when the war was ended, they would drive up to
- my door together, as if by accident, and exclaim, &ldquo;Why, it's the little
- house where we first met!&rdquo; Then the TO LET sign would be taken down and,
- having fetched Joan and Robbie, we would all live together forever. With
- luck and love we might have smaller feet to toddle up and down my stairs.
- </p>
- <p>
- January, February, March commenced and ended, and the TO LET sign was
- still there. It seemed that nobody would ever want me. It was April now;
- to their nests in the railed-in garden of the square the last year's birds
- were coming back. Trees had become a mist of greenness. Tulips and
- daffodils were shining above the ground. In the window-boxes of other
- houses geraniums were making a scarlet flare. Without warning the dream,
- which had been no more than a dream, began to become a fact.
- </p>
- <p>
- I had been drowsing in the sun, taking no notice of what was happening,
- when I was suddenly awakened by a sharp rat-a-tat-tat. I came to myself
- with a start to find that the little lady, unaccompanied, was standing on
- my steps.
- </p>
- <p>
- She knocked again and then a third time. There could be no doubt about her
- determination to enter. At last the old woman heard her and dragged
- herself complainingly up from the basement. When the door had been
- narrowly opened, the little lady pushed it wider and stepped smartly into
- the hall with an exceedingly business-like air. &ldquo;I have an order from the
- agents to view the house.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm 'ard of 'earing. Wot did yer say? Speak louder.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I have an order from the agents to look over the house.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Let's see your order?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- While the caretaker fumbled for her spectacles, she went on talking. &ldquo;You
- won't like it. There's no real sense in your seeing it. It ain't much of a
- 'ouse&mdash;not modern, too little and all stairs.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It made me furious to hear her running me down and to have no chance to
- defend myself.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Nevertheless, I rather like it and I think I'll see it,&rdquo; the little lady
- said.
- </p>
- <p>
- She went from room to room, making notes of the accommodations and
- thinking aloud as she set them down. &ldquo;Four floors beside the basement. On
- the top floor two bedrooms; they'll do for Robbie and Joan and nurse. On
- the next floor one bedroom and a bathroom; I'll have that for myself. On
- the second floor one big room, running from front to back; that's where
- we'II have the parrot and the piano, and where I'll do my sewing. On the
- ground-floor a dining-room in front and a bedroom at the back; the bedroom
- at the back will do for cook. I won't have anyone sleeping below-stairs.
- It's a very wee house, but tremendously cosy. And what pretty views&mdash;the
- garden in the square in front, and the old grey church with its graveyard
- at the back! It's all so green and quiet, like being in the country.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0013" id="linkimage-0013"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0069.jpg" alt="0069m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0069.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- She had far out-distanced the caretaker, hurrying over the first two
- floors that she might get to the top by herself. Now, as she descended,
- she inspected each room more leisurely. As yet she had said no word that
- would indicate that she had recognised me. I wondered what her motive had
- been in coming; whether she had deliberately sought me or stumbled on me
- simply by accident. I would have known her anywhere, though I had been
- blind and deaf, by the fragrance of Jacqueminot that clung about her.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had come to the tiny landing on the second floor, when something
- familiar in her surroundings struck her. She stood there holding the
- handle of the door and wrinkling her forehead. &ldquo;It's odd,&rdquo; she whispered;
- &ldquo;I can't understand it.&rdquo; She turned the handle and entered. The room smelt
- stuffy; its windows had not been opened since she was last there. The
- sunlight, pouring in, revealed motes of dust which rose up dancing every
- time she stirred. In the grate were the accumulated ashes of many fires.
- Drawn across the hearth was the shabby couch. Nothing had been altered
- since she had left it. She passed her hand across her eyes, &ldquo;It can't be;
- it would be too strange to find it like that.&rdquo; Then she started to
- reconstruct the scene as she remembered it. &ldquo;Robbie was there against the
- window, asking how many Huns his daddy had brought down, and I was sitting
- here in the shadow, when quite suddenly we heard his tread on the stairs.
- The door opened; he said something about being sorry that he'd frightened
- us, and then.... Why yes, I'm positive.&rdquo; She stepped out onto the verandah
- and stood looking down into the square. When she turned to re-enter her
- eyes were moist and shining. &ldquo;You <i>are</i> the little house. Oh, little
- house, I've dreamt of you so often. Does he dream of you too, where he is
- out there? Was I right to run away and to doubt him? If you had a tongue
- you could tell me; did he say hard things about me when he found me gone
- on coming back?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0006" id="link2HCH0006"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VI
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0014" id="linkimage-0014"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9075.jpg" alt="9075 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9075.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- WO weeks later they took possession of me. They did it with so much
- friendliness that at the end of a month it was as though we had always
- lived together. Even the furniture fitted into all my odd nooks and angles
- as if it had been made especially for me. And, indeed, it might have been,
- for most of it was created in the reign of Queen Anne, at which period my
- walls were, as one might say, feeling their legs. It was very pleasant
- when night had settled down and everyone was sleeping, to listen to the
- conversations which were carried on between the new-comers and my own
- floors and stairs. One grandfather's clock was particularly interesting in
- his reminiscences. He had told the time to Dr. Johnson and had ticked away
- the great lexicographer's last hours. On this account he was inclined to
- be amusingly self-important; it was a permanent source of grievance with
- him that, so far as the present generation was concerned, his pedigree was
- unknown. There were times when he would work himself into such passions
- that his weights would drop with a bang. He was always sorry for it next
- morning and ashamed to face the little lady. As she came down to
- breakfast, she would catch sight of his hands and say, &ldquo;So the poor old
- clock has stopped again! The old fellow's worn out. We shall have to send
- him to the mender's.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Perhaps it is hardly fair to repeat this gossip about one piece of the
- furniture, for everything, myself included, was old; whether we were
- tables, chairs or stair-cases, we all had our crochets and oddities. But,
- however much we differed among ourselves, we were united in adoring the
- youth of the little lady and her children. More than any of us the
- whispering parrot adored her.
- </p>
- <p>
- The whispering parrot was a traveller. He had come from Australia fifty
- years ago.
- </p>
- <p>
- He played so indispensable a part in producing the happy ending that he
- deserves an introduction.
- </p>
- <p>
- He had been the gift of the children's grandfather, a retired General. His
- plumage was Quaker grey, all except his breast and crest which were a
- wonderful rose-pink. He had black beady eyes which took in everything;
- what they saw, he invariably remembered. He had a confidential, hoarse way
- of speaking, that never rose above a whisper. When you heard him for the
- first time you supposed that he had a bad sore throat. He had a favorite
- question which he asked whenever he thought he was not being paid
- sufficient attention, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; He would ask it with his
- head cocked on one side, while he rubbed his feathers up and down the
- bars. &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; he would ask the little lady as she sat
- sewing beneath the lamp of an evening. She was always by herself when the
- children had been put to bed. She had no callers and never went anywhere.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Talk about Polly!&rdquo; she would say. &ldquo;I don't know, you good grey bird. Did
- you think I was lonely? Well, let's see! Who loves Mummy best? Can you
- answer me that?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Then he would cock his head still farther on one side and pretend to think
- furiously. She would have to ask him several times before he would attempt
- an answer. Usually, when he got ready, he would clear his throat and
- whisper, &ldquo;The dustman.&rdquo; After which he would laugh as though his sides
- were aching: &ldquo;What a naughty Polly! What a naughty Polly!&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She would maintain a dignified silence till she had emptied her needle.
- Then she would glance at him reproachfully, &ldquo;Think again, Mr. Impudence&mdash;not
- the dustman.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- So he would think again, and having clambered all over his cage and hung
- upside down to amuse her, would hazard, &ldquo;Polly?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Not Polly.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Then he would make any number of suggestions, though he knew quite well
- the answer she required. After each wrong guess he would go off into gales
- of ghostly merriment. At last he would say very solemnly, &ldquo;Robbie.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, Robbie,&rdquo; she would reply and scratch his head; after which the game
- was ended. Soon she would fold away her work, put out the lights and climb
- the narrow stairs to her quiet bed.
- </p>
- <p>
- It seemed very sad that, when she was so young, she should have to spend
- so many hours in talking to a rascally old bird. One can be young for so
- short a time. How short, those who are old know best.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were evenings, however, when, after the parrot had answered
- &ldquo;Robbie,&rdquo; she would whisper, &ldquo;I wonder!&rdquo; and clasp her hands in her lap,
- gazing straight before her. On these evenings she would sit very late and
- would look down at her feet from time to time, as though expecting to see
- someone crouching there. Taxis would chug their way into the square and
- draw up at one or other of the dolls' houses. The taxi door would open and
- after a few seconds close with a bang. There would be the rustle of a
- woman's dress and the tripping of her slippered feet across the pavement;
- the bass muttering of her husband paying the driver; laughter; the
- rattling of a key in the latch; and silence. The little lady would sit
- quite motionless, listening to the secret homecomings of lovers. Then at
- last she would nod her head, &ldquo;You're right, Polly, I expect. There's no
- one else. No doubt it's Robbie who loves me best.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0007" id="link2HCH0007"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VII
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0015" id="linkimage-0015"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9083.jpg" alt="9083 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9083.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- UT it wasn't Robbie. The diningroom window was the first to make the
- discovery. Being on the ground-floor, it gazes across the pavement under
- the trees and sees many things after nightfall which are missed by the
- upper storeys. The first and second time that something unusual happened I
- was not told; not until the third time was I taken into the secret. The
- dining-room window does most of the watching for the entire house; it sees
- so much that it has learnt to be discreet.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was Armistice night when the unusual happening first occurred. London
- had gone mad with relief from suspense. Wherever a barrel-organ could be
- found people were dancing. Where more suitable music was not available,
- tin-cans were being beaten with a dervish, rhythmic monotony. Dance the
- people must. Their joy had gone into their feet; they could not convince
- themselves that peace had come till they had danced themselves to a
- standstill. They invented impromptu steps, dancing twenty abreast in the
- open spaces, humming any tune that caught their fancy, with their arms
- linked in those of strangers. But there were no strangers that night;
- everyone was a friend. Top-hats, evening-dress, corduroys and privates'
- uniforms hobnobbed together. A mighty roar of laughter and singing went up
- from thousands of miles of streets, dim-lit and dusk-drenched to ward off
- the ancient peril from the air. How suddenly unmodern peril had become!
- All London laughed; all England; all the world. The sound reached the
- Arctic; polar bears lumbered farther northward, stampeded by the strum of
- our guffaws. If there were inhabitants on Mars, they must have heard. The
- war was won. The news was so incredible that we had to make a noise to
- silence our doubts.
- </p>
- <p>
- Everything that could rejoice was out under the stars making merry. We had
- hidden so long, walked so stealthily, wept so quietly, hated so violently
- that our right to be happy was almost too terrible to bear. We expressed
- our joy foolishly, hysterically, inadequately by shouting, embracing,
- climbing lamp-posts, riding on the roofs of taxis. What did it matter so
- long as we expressed it and brought the amazing truth home to ourselves?
- The last cannon had roared. The final man had died in battle. The wicked
- waste of white human bodies was ended. There would be no more rushing for
- the morning papers and searching the casualty lists with dread; no more
- rumours of invasions; no more musterings for new offensives. The men whom
- we loved were safe; they had been reprieved at the eleventh hour. We
- should have them home presently, seated by their firesides. It seemed like
- the fulfilment of a prophet's ecstasy; as though sorrow and crying had
- passed away and forever there would be no death.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were two people who did not dance, climb lamp-posts, beat tin-cans
- and ride on the roofs of taxis that night. Perhaps they were the only two
- in London; they were both in Dolls' House Square. The little lady was one.
- She had tucked Joan and Robbie safely in their beds. She had kissed them
- &ldquo;Good-night&rdquo; and turned the gas on the landing to a jet. She had gone part
- way down the narrow stairs and then... and then she had come back. She had
- picked up Joan and carried her into Robbie's room. When the two heads were
- lying close together on the pillow, she had seated herself in the darkness
- beside them.
- </p>
- <p>
- The little boy stretched up his arms to pull her down; she resisted. His
- hands wandered over her face and reached her eyes. They were wet. His
- heart missed a beat. He knew what that meant. So often in the dark, dark
- night he had wakened with the sure sense that she was crying and had
- tiptoed down the creaking stairs to creep in beside her and place his
- small arms tightly about her.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Never mind; you have me, Mummy.&rdquo; That was what he always said. He
- whispered it now.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, I have my wee man.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And me, Mummy,&rdquo; Joan murmured sleepily.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy knows. She has you both. Don't worry about her. She's feeling silly
- tonight.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because you're happy?&rdquo; Joan questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Yes, happy for so many little boys and girls whose soldier daddies will
- be coming back to them soon. Don't talk any more. Go sleepy-bye.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- But Robbie knew that it wasn't happiness that made her cry; he knew that
- she was crying because she had no soldier to come back. What could he say
- to comfort her? His eyes grew drowsy while he thought about it. He waited
- till Joan was in Sleepy-bye Land, then with an effort he opened his eyes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Mummy, do you know what I'd like best for Christmas?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought you were sleeping. Don't tell me now. There's heaps of time.
- It's six weeks till Christmas.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But Joan and I have talked about it,&rdquo; he persisted. &ldquo;We don't want him,
- if you don't want him.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What is he, dear? If he doesn't cost too much, you shall have him.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Robbie procrastinated now that he had brought his mother to the point of
- listening. It was a delicate proposal that he was about to make. &ldquo;I don't
- know whether you can get one,&rdquo; he hesitated. &ldquo;A boy at my school got one
- without asking, and it wasn't even Christmas.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He was sitting up in bed now, very intense and serious, and very much
- awake.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you've not told me yet what it is you want. If you don't tell me, I
- can't say whether I can afford it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She slipped her arm about the square little body and feeling how it
- trembled, held it close against her breast. He hid his face in the hollow
- of her neck. &ldquo;Robbie's place,&rdquo; she whispered. &ldquo;If it's difficult to say,
- whisper it to mother there.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- His lips moved several times before a sound came and then, &ldquo;If it isn't
- too much trouble, we should like to have a Daddy.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Against his will she held him back from her, trying to see his eyes. &ldquo;But
- why?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It was he who was crying now. &ldquo;Oh Mummy, I didn't mean to hurt you.... To
- be like all the other little boys and girls.&rdquo; When at last he was truly
- asleep and she had come down to the lamp-lit room in which she sewed, she
- did not take up her work. The parrot tried to draw her into conversation
- with his eternal question, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Nothing tonight, Polly,&rdquo; she said. Presently she crossed the room and,
- pulling back the curtains, stood staring out into the blackness. So her
- children had felt it, too&mdash;the weight of loneliness! She had tried so
- hard to prevent them from sharing it; had striven in so many ways to be
- their companion. Try as she would, she could never make up for a father's
- absence. She could never give them the sense of security that a man could
- have given without effort, even though he had loved them less. It was a
- bitter realisation&mdash;one which vaguely she had always dreaded must
- come to her. It was doubly bitter coming to her now, on a night when all
- the world was glad. She might be many things to her children; she could
- never be a man.... What did Robbie think? That you bought a father from an
- agency or engaged him through an advertisement? She smiled sadly, &ldquo;Not so
- easy as that.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; asked the parrot.
- </p>
- <p>
- She drew the curtains together, extinguished the lights and groped her way
- up to bed.
- </p>
- <p>
- But her eyes had not peered far enough into the blackness. There was
- another person in London who had not danced or climbed lamp-posts or
- ridden on the roofs of taxis that night. For three hours he had watched
- the little house from the shadow of the trees across the road. From the
- pavement, had you been passing, you would hardly have distinguished him as
- he leant against the garden-railings. The only time he gave a sign of his
- presence was when the red flare of his cigarette betrayed him. He did not
- seem to be planning harm to anyone; he could not have done much harm in
- any case, for the left sleeve of his coat hung empty. He was simply
- waiting for something that he hoped might happen. At last his patience was
- rewarded when she drew aside the curtain and stood with the lighted room
- behind her, staring out into the blackness. Only when she had again hidden
- herself and all the house was in darkness, did he turn to go. He was there
- the next night and the next. It was after his third night of watching that
- the dining-room window told me.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0008" id="link2HCH0008"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER VIII
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0016" id="linkimage-0016"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9095.jpg" alt="9095 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9095.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HE fourth night he was there again. By this time everything in the house,
- from the kettle in the kitchen to the carpet on the topmost landing, was
- aware that a one-armed man was hidden beneath the trees across the road,
- watching. The whole house was on the alert, listening and waiting&mdash;everybody,
- that is to say, except the people most concerned, who inhabited us. It
- seemed strange that they alone should be in ignorance. The grandfather
- clock did his best to tell them. &ldquo;Beware; take care. Beware; take care,&rdquo;
- he ticked as his pendulum swung to and fro. They stared him in the face
- and read the time by his hands, but they had no idea what he was saying.
- </p>
- <p>
- What could it be that the watching man wanted? Whatever it was, he wanted
- it badly, for it was by no means pleasant to stand motionless for several
- hours when the November chill was in the air. Nor did he seem to find it
- pleasant, for every now and then he coughed and shook himself like a dog
- inside his coat, and sunk his chin deeper into his collar.
- </p>
- <p>
- He had been there since six o'clock. He had seen the cook and the
- housemaid come up the area-steps and meet their respective sweethearts
- under the arc-light at the end of the square. There was only one other
- grown person in the house beside the little lady&mdash;Nurse; and Nurse
- had been in bed since the afternoon with a sick headache. He could not
- have known that. It was at precisely eight that he consulted his luminous
- wrist-watch, crossed the road, hesitated and raised the knocker very
- determinedly, as if he had only just arrived and had not much time to
- spare. <i>Rat-tat-tat!</i> The sound echoed alarmingly through the
- silence. The little lady dropped her sewing in her lap and listened. The
- sound was repeated. <i>Rat-tat-tat!</i> It seemed to say, &ldquo;Come along.
- Don't keep me waiting. You've got to let me in sooner or later. You know
- that.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It can't be the postman at this hour,&rdquo; she murmured, &ldquo;and yet it sounds
- like his knock.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Laying her work on the table beneath the lamp, she rose from her chair and
- descended. She opened the door only a little way at first, just wide
- enough for her to peer out, so that she could close it again if she saw
- anything disturbing.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;So you do live here!&rdquo; The man outside spoke gladly. &ldquo;I guessed it could
- be no one else the moment I saw that the house was no longer empty.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She opened the door a few more inches. His tone puzzled her by its
- familiarity. His face had not yet come into the ray of light which slanted
- from the hall across the steps.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You don't recognise me?&rdquo; he questioned. &ldquo;I called to let you know that I
- did fetch that taxi. It's been on my mind that you thought I deserted you.
- Taxi-cabs were hard to find in an air-raid.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She flung the door wide. &ldquo;Why it's&mdash;&mdash;&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She didn't know how to call him&mdash;how to put what he was into words.
- He had been simply &ldquo;the American officer&rdquo;&mdash;that was how she had named
- him in talking with the children. He had been often remembered, especially
- during the fireside hour when in imaginary adventures he had been the hero
- of many stories. How brave she had made him and how often she had feared
- that he was dead! There were other stories which she had told only to
- herself, when the children were asleep and the house was silent. And there
- he stood on the threshold, with the same gallant bearing and the same
- eager smile playing about his mouth. &ldquo;I've always been loved and trusted;
- you love and trust me, too&rdquo;&mdash;that was what his smile was saying to
- her.
- </p>
- <p>
- Her heart was beating wildly; but nothing of what she felt expressed
- itself in what she said. &ldquo;I'm by myself. I've let the maids go out. I'm
- terribly apologetic for having treated you so suspiciously.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He laughed and stepped into the hall. &ldquo;I seem fated to find you by
- yourself; you were alone last time. I'm in hospital and have to be back by
- ten. Won't you let me sit with you for half an hour?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He had begun to remove his top-coat awkwardly. His awkwardness attracted
- her attention.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Please let me do that for you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, I'm learning to manage. It's all right.... Well, if you must.
- Thanks.&rdquo; She didn't dare trust herself. There was a pricking sensation
- behind her eyes. She motioned to him to go first. As she followed him up
- the stairs, she gazed fixedly at his flattened left side, where the sleeve
- was tucked limply into the tunic-pocket. She knew that when she was again
- face to face with him she must pretend not to have noticed.
- </p>
- <p>
- He entered the room and stood staring round. &ldquo;The same old room! But it
- didn't belong to you then. How did you manage it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Easily, but not on purpose.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Truly, not on purpose?&rdquo; His tone was disappointed.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;No, not on purpose. I didn't know the name of the square or the number of
- the house that night. I stumbled on it months later by accident. It was
- still to let.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;So you took it? Why did you take it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because I'd liked it from the first and it suited me,&rdquo; she smiled. &ldquo;Why
- else?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought perhaps...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Well, say it. You're just like Robbie. When Robbie wants to tell me
- something that's difficult, he has a special place against which he hides
- his face; it's easier to tell me there. You men are all such little boys.
- If it's difficult to tell, you do the same and say it without looking at
- me.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She reseated herself beneath the lamp and took up her sewing. &ldquo;Now tell
- me, why did you want me to say that I took it on purpose?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I don't quite know. Perhaps it was because, had I been you, I should have
- taken it on purpose. One likes to live in places where he has been happy,
- even though the happiness lasted only for an hour.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He wandered over to the couch before the fire and sat down where he could
- watch her profile and the slope of her throat beneath the lamp. The only
- sound was the prick of the needle and the quiet pulling through of the
- thread. It had all happened just as he would have planned it. He was glad
- that she was alone. He was glad that it was in this same room that they
- had met. He was glad in a curious unreasoning way for the faint fragrance
- of Jacqueminot that surrounded her. It had been just like this at the
- Front that he had thought of her&mdash;thought of her so intensely that he
- had almost caught the scent and the rustle of her dress, moving towards
- him through the squalor of the trench. Through all the horror the brief
- memory of her gentleness had remained with him. And what hopes he had
- built on that memory! He had told himself that, if he survived, by hook or
- by crook he would search her out. In hospital, when he had returned to
- England, all his impatience to get well had been to get to her. In his
- heart he had never expected success. The task had seemed too stupendous.
- And now here he was, sitting with her alone, the house all quiet, the fire
- shining, the lamp making a pool of gold among the shadows, and she, most
- quiet of all, taking him comfortably for granted and carrying on with her
- woman's work. At last he was at rest; not in love with her, he told
- himself, but at rest.
- </p>
- <p>
- It was she who broke the silence. &ldquo;How did you know? What made you come so
- directly to this house?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He met her eyes and smiled. &ldquo;Where else was there to come? It was the one
- place we both knew. I took a chance at it.&rdquo; And then, after a pause, &ldquo;No,
- that's not quite true. I was sent up to London for special treatment. The
- first evening I was allowed out of hospital, I hurried here and, finding
- that our empty house was occupied, stayed outside to watch it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But why to watch it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Because it was a million to one that you weren't the tenant. Before I
- rang the bell I wanted to make certain. You see I don't know your name; I
- couldn't ask to see the lady of the house. If she hadn't been you, how
- could I have explained my intrusion?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;And then you made certain?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He nodded. &ldquo;You came to the window on Armistice night and stood for a few
- minutes looking out.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I remember.&rdquo; She shivered as if a cold breath had struck her. &ldquo;I was
- feeling stupid and lonely; all the world out there in the darkness seemed
- so glad. I wish you had rung my bell. That was three nights ago.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You mean why did I let three nights go by. I guess because I was a
- coward. I got what we call in America 'cold feet.' I thought...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He waited for her to prompt him. She sat leaning forward, her hands lying
- idle in her lap. He noticed, as he had noticed nearly a year ago, the
- half-moon that her shoulders made in the dimness. She was extraordinarily
- motionless; her motionlessness gave her an atmosphere of strength. When
- she moved her gestures said as much as words. Nothing that she did was
- hurried.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Tell me what you thought.&rdquo; she said quietly. She spoke to him as she
- would have spoken to Robbie, making him feel very young and little. When
- she spoke like that there was not much that he would not have told her.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I thought that you might not remember me or want to see me. We met so
- oddly; after the lapse of a year you might easily have regarded my call as
- an impertinence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;An impertinence!&rdquo; There were tears in her eyes when she raised her head.
- &ldquo;You lost your arm that I and my children might be safe, and you talk
- about impertinence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Oh, that!&rdquo; He glanced down at his empty sleeve. &ldquo;That's nothing. It's the
- luck of the game and might have happened to anybody.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you lost it for me,&rdquo; she re-asserted, &ldquo;that I might be safe. You must
- have suffered terribly.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Seeing her distress, he laughed gaily. &ldquo;Losing an arm wasn't the worst
- that might have happened. I'm one of the fortunate ones; I'm still above
- ground. The thing wasn't very painful&mdash;nothing is when you've simply
- got to face it. It's the thinking about pain that hurts.... Hulloa, look
- at the time; I can just get back to the hospital by ten. If we're late,
- they punish us by keeping us in next night.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- At the top of the stairs as she was seeing him out, he halted and looked
- back into the room. &ldquo;It's quiet and cosy in there. I don't want to leave;
- I feel like a boy being packed off to school. You can't understand how
- wonderful it is after all the marching and rough times and being cut about
- to be allowed to sit by a fire with a woman. I loved to watch you at your
- sewing.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's because you're tired,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;more tired than you know. You must
- come very often and rest.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0009" id="link2HCH0009"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER IX
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0017" id="linkimage-0017"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9109.jpg" alt="9109 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9109.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- N the weeks that followed the little house came to know him well.
- Everybody in the little house treated him as though his injury were a
- decoration, which had been won especially in their defence. They were
- prouder to see him come walking up their steps with his blue hospital band
- on his remaining arm, than if Sir Douglas Haig himself had called upon
- them. Nobody took any count of the frequency of his visits&mdash;nobody
- except himself. Nobody seemed to think it strange that the moment the
- doctors had finished his dressings, he should wander off to Dolls' House
- Square. Nobody seemed to guess just how fond he was of the little lady. He
- hardly guessed himself. There were times when he wondered exactly how fond
- he was. He did not believe he was in love with her; the feeling that he
- had was too gentle. He had always understood that love was exciting,
- passionate and tumultuous with dreads, whereas in her presence he knew
- neither fears nor hesitancies. He wasn't the least in terror that he would
- lose her. He felt simply safe, the way a ship might feel when the winds
- had ceased to buffet and it lay still in a sheltered harbour on a level
- keel. This feeling of safety struck him as an extraordinary sensation to
- be produced in a soldier by a woman; he was a trifle ashamed of it, as
- though it were not quite manly.
- </p>
- <p>
- While he spoke with her, he found himself believing with a child-like
- faith that all women were mothers and that the world was good. He knew
- that for the present he could not do without her, but he was at a loss to
- imagine what he would do with her for always. She was like religion&mdash;she
- went beyond him, was bigger and better. He only dimly understood her, but
- was comfortable in believing that everything hidden was as kind as the
- part he knew. In a strangely intimate way he worshipped her, as a child
- adores his mother, thinking her the most perfect and beautiful being in
- the world. He discovered in her a wisdom of which nothing in her
- conversation gave the least indication; her unhurried attitude towards
- life created the impression. If this were love, then all the hearsay
- information he had gathered on the subject was mistaken.
- </p>
- <p>
- There were days when, after his wound had been dressed and he had left the
- hospital, he made a pretence that he was not going to visit her. He told
- himself that he was making her a habit, and that to make a habit of anyone
- was foolish. Instead of going to Dolls' House Square, he would invent some
- urgent business and take himself off citywards. But expeditions in which
- she had no share soon grew flat. He would find himself thinking about her,
- wondering whether she was waiting for him. He would end up, as he always
- ended up, by jumping in a taxi and knocking on her door in Dolls' House
- Square.
- </p>
- <p>
- He never once found her out. There was invariably a welcome for him. He
- would take his seat by the fire in the quiet room and watch her sewing
- till the darkness deepened and the lamp had to be brought out. It didn't
- seem to matter much whether he talked or was silent; her contentment
- seemed complete when he was there. She made no effort to entertain him,
- which was the best proof of their friendship. She was perfectly willing
- that he should ignore her, if that was his mood, by reading the paper or
- playing with the children.
- </p>
- <p>
- Though she made no effort to entertain him, the entire household had
- re-organised itself in readiness for his sharp <i>rat-a-tat</i>. Everyone,
- without expressing the fact, recognised that it was nice to have a man
- about the house. When one rose in the morning, there was something to
- which to look forward now. A man dropping in, even occasionally, gave this
- group of women a sense of protection and of contact with the unwidowed
- world.
- </p>
- <p>
- To Robbie and Joan he stood for something midway between a big brother and
- a pal. They had sharp rivalries as to who should light his cigarette. It
- wasn't easy for him to grip the box between his knees and strike the match
- with only one hand. They watched him and by anticipating his wishes tried
- to constitute themselves his missing hand.
- </p>
- <p>
- When they were with him, the little lady withdrew into the background,
- making herself so still and self-effacing that it scarcely seemed that he
- had come to see her. It was as though she had three children; he appeared
- to be their friend much more than hers. He would carry them off to the
- Zoo, to matinees or to see the Christmas toys in the West End shops.
- Sometimes she would accompany them; more often she would listen to their
- adventures when they had returned. But she never was really left out.
- While they were absent from her, she formed the main topic of
- conversation. Of this she was well aware; if she had not been, she would
- not have been so happy.
- </p>
- <p>
- In a way she derived more pleasure from staying at home and picturing them
- laughing through the crowded streets, going into tea-shops, riding in
- taxis and coming back through the dusk together. The children looked so
- proud in their sole possession of a man, especially of a soldier who had
- been wounded. Had their father come through the war, that was how they
- would have looked in his company. She was glad that they should get away
- from skirts. He could give them something which it was not in her power to
- give, however much she loved them. She was only a woman. Her reward
- followed when they returned a little conscience-stricken at having left
- her, bringing with them a present as indisputable proof that she had been
- remembered.
- </p>
- <p>
- One evening in talking with her after the children had been put to bed, he
- asked her if she didn't think she ought to go out more often.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I know I ought.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Then why don't you?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She smiled gently, thinking how little he knew of the world. &ldquo;When you've
- not got your own man to take you, it's difficult. The world moves in
- pairs. A woman can't go to many places unaccompanied.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But surely you don't need to. You must have quantities of friends who
- would be glad...&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She cut him short. &ldquo;When a woman is left by herself, she learns a good
- many things about men that she didn't suspect when she was married. The
- men she would trust herself with have their wives or fiancées&mdash;they
- have no time to trouble over shipwrecked women like myself. And the other
- kind of men... The world has no place for a widow. It doesn't mean to be
- unkind, but it simply doesn't know what to do with her. Unmarried women
- consider her an unfair rival; they think she's seeking a second chance
- before they've had their first. In the old days India solved the problem
- by burying us with our husbands. In England they do the same thing, only
- less frankly. It's rather stupid to have to live and yet to be treated as
- though you ought to be dead. One fights against it at first; then one
- gradually becomes reconciled to be out of the running. If one's wise, she
- puts all her living into her children.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But that's not fair,&rdquo; he spoke hotly.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's the way it happens.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He sat frowning into the fire. What she had told him had upset all his
- preconceptions about her. Without looking at her, he re-started the
- conversation. &ldquo;I've thought of you as being so happy. I always thought of
- you that way at the Front. I've pictured you as being perched high on a
- ledge out of reach of waves and storms. From the first you've given me the
- feeling that nothing could hurt or move you, and that nothing could hurt
- or move me while I was near you. It's a queer thing for a man to admit to
- a woman, but you make me feel absolutely safe.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;That's not so very queer,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;because that's the way you make me
- feel.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Do I? You're not laughing at me?&rdquo; He swung round, leaning over the back
- of the couch, his entire attitude one of amazement.
- </p>
- <p>
- She met his surprise with a quiet smile. &ldquo;I'm perfectly serious. But you
- know the reason why we feel so safe in each other's company? It's because,
- in our different ways, we're both lonely people. We're not like the rest
- of the world; we don't move in pairs. I'm lonely because I'm a woman on my
- own, and you're lonely because you're in hospital in a foreign country. We
- met just at the time when we could give each other courage.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But you don't look lonely,&rdquo; he protested; &ldquo;one always thinks of lonely
- people as being sad and untidy. You always look so terrifically
- well-groomed and expensive. You create the impression that you're either
- going to or returning from a party. I never saw you when you weren't
- self-assured and occupied. I used to wonder how you spared me so much time
- from your engagements.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Clever of me, wasn't it?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Instead of answering her, he came over and stood above where she sat
- stitching beneath the lamp. He was seeing her for the first time not as
- wise, self-reliant and fashionable, but as beautiful, alone and
- unprotected. He could almost feel the ache of the bruises she had
- suffered. He felt self-reproached; what had he given her? Up to now
- anything that he could have given had seemed too small to mention. He had
- taken from her continually, supposing that she had a surplus of
- everything. And all the while she had been sharing his own hunger for the
- presents that money cannot buy.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's great to be alive, when you'd expected to be dead.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- It was her turn to be surprised. She raised her head quickly, recognising
- a new earnestness in his tone.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0018" id="linkimage-0018"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0119.jpg" alt="0119m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0119.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- &ldquo;One doesn't talk much about what happened at the Front,&rdquo; he said; &ldquo;but
- one can't help feeling that his life was spared for some definite purpose.
- I believe the purpose was to be happy and to make others happy. I don't
- want to hog my own pleasure any more or to trifle in the old slovenly
- ways. I want to crowd every second with gratefulness for the mere fact of
- living. That's what's been bringing me here so often. That's why I've been
- so glad to carry Joan and Robbie away. Kiddies mean so tremendously much
- more to me than they did before I nearly died. And then there's home and
- women. I took them for granted once, but now... It's like saying one's
- prayers to be in a good woman's presence. I don't know if you at all
- understand me. I'm trying to thank you for what you've done....&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- And there his eloquence failed, leaving him gazing down at her and
- wondering whether she thought him foolish. She patted his hand, but she
- did not meet his eyes. &ldquo;It's all right. Don't explain. I know what you're
- meaning to say.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Do you?&rdquo; He spoke doubtfully. &ldquo;I think I was trying to ask you if we
- couldn't be happy together. I'm not married and I'm not engaged; but I'm
- not like the other men you mentioned.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;My dear boy, I never thought you were. If I had, you wouldn't have been
- here. You're honourable all the way through; I knew that the moment I saw
- you. Does that make you feel better?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He laughed happily. &ldquo;Much. Do you know what I believe I've been trying to
- ask you through all this maze of words? If I get permission from the
- doctor to stay out late tomorrow night, would you be gay and go with me to
- a theatre?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her eyes met his with gladness. &ldquo;I should love it.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0010" id="link2HCH0010"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER X
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0019" id="linkimage-0019"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9125.jpg" alt="9125 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9125.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- HAT evening at the theatre was the first conscious step in their
- experiment of being happy together. She received word from him at
- lunch-time that the doctor's permission had been granted and that he would
- call for her at seven. The news made her as excited as if she had never
- been to a theatre before in her life. She spent the afternoon before the
- mirror, brushing and re-brushing her hair, and in laying out all the
- pretty clothes which she knew men liked. It was three years since she had
- dressed with the deliberate intent that a man should admire her. Once to
- do that had been two-thirds of her life. To find herself doing it again
- seemed like waking from a long illness; she could hardly bring herself to
- believe that the monotony of sorrow was ended and that she was actually
- going to be happy again. She had been made to feel so long that to be
- happy would be disloyalty to past affections.
- </p>
- <p>
- She locked her bedroom door, for fear any of the servants should guess how
- she was occupied. She was filled with an exultant shame that she should
- still be capable of valuing so highly a man's opinion of her appearance.
- &ldquo;But I will be happy,&rdquo; she kept telling herself; &ldquo;I have the right.&rdquo; And
- then, in a whisper, &ldquo;Oh, little house, you have been so kind. Wish me luck
- and say that he'll think me nice.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0020" id="linkimage-0020"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="fig" style="width:50%;">
- <img src="images/0127.jpg" alt="0127m " width="100%" /><br />
- </div>
- <h5>
- <a href="images/0127.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </h5>
- <p>
- Outside in the bare black cradle of the trees the November afternoon
- faded. Sparrows twittered of how winter was almost come. Against the cold
- melancholy of the London sky, like silhouettes crayoned on a wall of ice,
- roofs and chimneys stood smudged. In flickering pin-points of
- incandescence street-lamps wakened; night came drifting like a ship into
- harbour under shrouded sails.
- </p>
- <p>
- She had been sitting listening for a long time, haunted by childish fears
- that he would not come. At seven promptly a taxi panted into the square
- and drew up wheezing and coughing before the little house. Seizing her
- evening-wrap, she ran down the stairs and had her hand on the door before
- his knock had sounded. &ldquo;I didn't want to keep you waiting,&rdquo; she explained.
- </p>
- <p>
- He handed her into the cab. With a groan and a thump the engine pulled
- itself together and they made good their escape. As she settled back into
- her corner, pulling on her gloves, she watched him. So he also had
- regarded it as a gala-night! He was wearing a brand-new uniform and had
- been at extra pains to make his boots and belt splendid and shiny. She did
- her best not to be observed too closely, for her eyes were overbright and
- her color was high. She felt annoyed at herself for being so girlish.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;It's tremendous fun. I haven't been to the theatre in the evening
- since... for years and years,&rdquo; she whispered. &ldquo;The war is really ended.
- I'm believing it for the first time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- They dined together at Prince's to the fierce discords of Jazz music. It
- suited her mood; it was primitive and reckless. Diners kept rising between
- courses and slipping out in pairs to where dancing was in progress. The
- whole world went in pairs tonight. And she had her man; no one could make
- her lonely for just this one night. It was exciting to her to notice how
- much more they seemed to belong to each other now that they were in
- public. He felt it also, for he showed his sense of pride and ownership in
- a hundred little ways. It was good to be owned after having been left so
- long discarded. As he faced her across the table, he had the air of
- believing that everybody was admiring her and envying him his luck. She
- was immensely grateful that he should think so. It was as though he could
- hear them saying, &ldquo;How on earth did a one-armed fellow do it?&rdquo; Had they
- asked him, he could only have told them, &ldquo;The house was empty, so I
- entered.&rdquo; Yes, and even he had not guessed how empty! But what had changed
- her? Knowing nothing about the locked door and how her afternoon had been
- spent, he was puzzled. All he knew was that the woman whom he had thought
- perfect, had revealed herself as more perfect. She had become radiantly
- beautiful in a way quite new and unexpected.
- </p>
- <p>
- Of the play to which they went she saw but little; all she realised was
- that it was merry&mdash;a fairy-tale of life. One does not notice much
- when the heart is swollen with gladness. People sang, and looked pretty,
- and fell in love. Everyone was paired and married before the curtain was
- rung down. Something, however, she did remember: two lilting lines which
- had been sung:
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- And, while the sun is shining,
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p>
- They kept repeating themselves inside her head. Unconsciously in the
- darkness as they were driving home, she started humming them.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What did you say?&rdquo; he questioned.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I didn't say anything. It was just a snatch from a tune we heard.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Was it? Won't you hum it again?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- So in the intermittent gloom of the passing lights she tried; but for some
- reason, inexplicable to herself, it made her feel choky. She couldn't
- reach the end. Gathering her wrap closer about her, she drew the fur
- collar higher to hide the stupid tears which had forced their way into her
- eyes.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I believe you're crying!&rdquo; he exclaimed with concern. &ldquo;Do tell me what's
- the matter.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I'm too happy,&rdquo; she whispered brokenly. The taxi drew up against the
- pavement with a jerk. There was no knowing what he might say next to
- comfort her. She both yearned to learn and dreaded. Flight was the safer
- choice. Before he could assist her, she had jumped out. &ldquo;Come tomorrow and
- I'll thank you properly. I can't now. And... I'm sorry for having been a
- baby.&rdquo; Catching at her skirts, she fled up the steps and let herself into
- the darkened house.
- </p>
- <p>
- Not until his wheels had moved reluctantly away, did she climb the narrow
- stairs to the room from which she had departed so gaily. Her solitariness
- had returned. She had had her own man for a handful of hours. They were
- ended.
- </p>
- <p>
- As she threw off her finery, she could still hear that voice persistently
- advising,
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- And, while the sun is shining,
- </p>
- <p class="indent20">
- Make hay, little girl, make hay.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br />
- </p>
- <p>
- In the darkness she flung herself down on the bed, burying her face in the
- pillow. &ldquo;I want to; oh, I want to,&rdquo; she muttered.
- </p>
- <p>
- <br /><br />
- </p>
- <hr />
- <p>
- <a name="link2HCH0011" id="link2HCH0011"> </a>
- </p>
- <div style="height: 4em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
- <h2>
- CHAPTER XI
- </h2>
- <p>
- <br /><br /><a name="linkimage-0021" id="linkimage-0021"> </a>
- </p>
- <div class="figleft" style="width:15%;">
- <img src="images/9137.jpg" alt="9137 " width="100%" /><br /><a
- href="images/9137.jpg"><img src="images/enlarge.jpg" alt="" /> </a>
- </div>
- <p>
- OR three weeks she followed the song's advice. No one knew how long
- happiness would last. With her it had never lasted. He would leave her
- presently; already he was anticipating an early return to America.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I shall feel terribly flat when you've gone,&rdquo; she told him.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But I'll write. I'll write you the longest letters.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Ah, but letters aren't the same as being together.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- He didn't seem to share her need of him, and it hurt. If he did share it,
- it was unconsciously. He had yet to awaken to what the need meant. She had
- allowed him to become too sure of her, perhaps; had she kept him more
- uncertain, he might have awakened. In any case, it was too late to alter
- attitudes now and to think up reasons.
- </p>
- <p>
- He liked her in the jolliest kind of way as the most splendid of
- diversions; but she wasn't essential to him for all time&mdash;only for
- the present. She treasured no illusions about the longest letters. She
- knew men&mdash;the world was filled with women; out of sight would be out
- of mind. So every evening when he visited her, her heart was in her throat
- till she had made him confess that he had not yet received his embarkation
- orders. Some day he would tell her that he was going and would expect her
- to congratulate him. She would have to smile and pretend that she was glad
- for his sake. After that he would vanish and the long eventlessness would
- re-commence. He would write intimately and often at first; little by
- little new interests would claim him. There would be a blank and then,
- after a long silence, a printed announcement, curtly stating that he had
- found his happiness elsewhere.
- </p>
- <p>
- She saw herself growing old. The children would spring up so quickly. She
- would be left with her pride, to dress and make herself beautiful for an
- anonymous someone whose coming was indefinitely postponed. Youth would go
- from her. For interminable evenings, stretching into decades, she would
- watch afternoons fade into evenings. Everything would grow quiet. She
- would sit beneath the lamp at her sewing. The whispering parrot would take
- pity on her and croak, &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; Even that game would
- end one day, for Robbie would become a man and marry. When that had
- happened it wouldn't be truthful for the parrot to tell her that Robbie
- loved her best. She would listen for the clock to strike, the fire to
- rustle, the coals to drop in the grate. Towards midnight taxis would enter
- the square. Lovers would alight. She would hear the paying of the fare,
- the tapping of a woman's high-heeled shoes on the pavement, the slipping
- of the key into the latch, the opening and closing of the door, and then
- again the silence. She would fold up her work, turn out the lights and
- stand alone in the darkness, invisible as a ghost.
- </p>
- <p>
- Ah, but he had not sailed yet. &ldquo;Make hay, little girl, make hay.&rdquo; His
- going was still only a threat. There was time, still time. She set a date
- to her respite. She would not gaze beyond it. If she could only have him
- till Christmas!
- </p>
- <p>
- Meanwhile he kept loyally to his contract that they should be happy
- together. He gave her lavishly of his time. If he guessed how much the
- gift meant, he said nothing to show it. He was like a great, friendly
- schoolboy in his cheerfulness; he filled every niche of her desire. Now,
- in the afternoon, when he took the children on adventures, she found
- herself included. On the return home, he shared with her the solemn rite
- of seeing them safely in bed. Then forth they would sally on some fresh
- excursion. Always and increasingly there was the gnawing knowledge that
- the end was nearer in sight&mdash;that soon to each of the habits they
- were forming they would have to say, &ldquo;We have done it for the last time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- We, the bricks and mortar of the little house, watched her. We grew
- desperate, for we loved her. What we had observed and overheard by day we
- discussed together by night. If we could prevent it, we were determined
- that he should not go.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;But, if he goes,&rdquo; creaked the staircase, &ldquo;he may return. They used to say
- in my young days that the heart grows fonder through absence.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Rubbish,&rdquo; banged the door on the first landing. &ldquo;Rubbish, I say.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;He'll go,&rdquo; ticked the grandfather clock pessimistically. &ldquo;He'll go. He'll
- go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Not if I know it,&rdquo; shouted the door and banged again.
- </p>
- <p>
- We had come to a few nights before Christmas. Which night I do not
- remember, but I recall that we had started our decorations. Mistletoe was
- hanging in the hall. Holly had been arranged along the tops of the
- picture-frames. The children had been full of whisperings and secrets.
- Parcels had already begun to arrive. They were handed in with a crackling
- of paper and smuggled upstairs to a big cupboard in which they were hidden
- from prying eyes. The children were now in bed, sleeping quietly for fear
- of offending Santa Claus. The little lady was in the room where she
- worked, checking over her list of presents. She had got something for
- everyone but Robbie; she had postponed buying Robbie's present for a very
- special reason of which we were all aware. Perhaps it was superstition;
- perhaps a desperate hope. He had told her what he wanted; it didn't look
- as if she would be able to get it. &ldquo;It's no good waiting,&rdquo; she told
- herself; &ldquo;I shall have to buy him something tomorrow.&rdquo; Just then, as if in
- answer to her thoughts, an impatient <i>rat-tat-tat</i> re-sounded. It was
- his unmistakably, but he had never come so late as this before. All day
- she had listened and been full of foreboding; she had despaired of his
- ever coming. There was an interval after the door had been opened, during
- which he removed his coat. She could picture his awkwardness in doing it.
- Then the swift, leaping step of him mounting the stairs. Why had he
- delayed so long, only to come to her at the last moment in such a hurry?
- She rose from her chair to face him, her hands clenched and her body
- tense, as if to resist a physical blow. As he appeared in the doorway his
- lips were smiling. There was evidently something which he was bursting to
- tell her. On catching sight of her face he halted. His smile faded.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;What's the matter? What's happened?&rdquo; She unclenched her hands and looked
- away from him. &ldquo;Nothing.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;There must be something. Something's troubling you. What have you been
- doing with yourself this evening?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her gaze came back to him. She smiled feebly. &ldquo;Wondering whether you were
- coming and worrying over Robbie's present.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Robbie's present! That's nothing to worry over. We'II go together and
- choose one tomorrow. I'll have time.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Time!&rdquo; She straightened up bravely, the way she had rehearsed the scene
- so often in her imagination. &ldquo;Then it's true. You won't be here for
- Christmas? You're sailing?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- Her knowledge of his doings was uncanny. He came a step nearer, but she
- backed away. He realised her fear lest he should touch her. For a moment
- he was offended. Then, &ldquo;My orders came today. How did you know? It was
- what I came to tell you.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;How did I know!&rdquo; She laughed unsteadily. &ldquo;How does one know anything? The
- heart tells one things sometimes. You'll be busy tomorrow&mdash;so many
- other things to think about. Robbie's present doesn't matter. It's growing
- late... Good-bye.&rdquo; He stood astonished at her abruptness. What had he done
- that she should be so anxious to rid herself of him? When he did not seem
- to see her proffered hand, but stared at her gloomily, her nerves broke.
- &ldquo;Go. Why don't you go?&rdquo; she cried fiercely. &ldquo;You know you'll be happy.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You want me to go?&rdquo; he asked quietly. Had she heard her own voice, she
- would have given way to weeping. With her handkerchief pressed tightly
- against her lips, she nodded.
- </p>
- <p>
- He turned slowly, looked back from the threshold for a sign of relenting
- and dragged his way haltingly down the stairs. In the hall beneath the
- mistletoe he paused to listen. He fancied he had heard the muttering of
- sobbing. So long as he paused he heard nothing; it was only when he began
- to move that again he thought he heard it. Having flung his coat about his
- shoulders, he eased his arm into the sleeve. This wasn't what he had come
- for&mdash;a very different ending!
- </p>
- <p>
- And now the chance of the little house had arrived. Windows, chairs,
- tables, walls, we had all pledged ourselves to help her. He attempted to
- let himself out; the frontdoor refused to budge. He pulled, tugged and
- worked at the latch without avail.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;Shan't go. Shan't go. Shan't go,&rdquo; ticked the grandfather's clock
- excitedly. Then the usual thing happened, which always happened when the
- grandfather's clock got excited.
- </p>
- <p>
- There was a horrible <i>whirr</i> of the spring running down; the weights
- dropped with a bang.
- </p>
- <p>
- In the silence that followed he listened. She thought he had gone. There
- could be no mistake now; she was crying as if her heart would break.
- </p>
- <p>
- The stairs creaked to warn her as he ascended. She could not have heard
- them, for when he stepped into the room she took no notice. She had sunk
- to the floor and lay with her face hidden in the cushions of the chair,
- with the gold light from the lamp spilling over her. For some moments he
- watched her&mdash;the shuddering rise and fall of her shoulders.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;You told me to go,&rdquo; he said. &ldquo;The little house won't let me; it was
- always kind to us.&rdquo; And then, when she made no answer, &ldquo;It's true. I've
- got my sailing orders. But it was you who told me to go.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- She was listening now. He knew that, for the half-moon shoulders had
- ceased to shudder. The smell of Jacqueminot drew him to her. Bending over
- her, he stole one hand from beneath the buried face. &ldquo;Do I need to go?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- And still there was no answer. It was then that the old grey parrot spoke.
- He had pretended to be sleeping. &ldquo;What shall we talk about?&rdquo; he whispered
- hoarsely; and, when an interval had elapsed, &ldquo;Robbie?&rdquo;
- </p>
- <p>
- The little lady, who had needed to be loved, lifted up her tear-stained
- face and the wounded officer who had wanted rest, bent lower.
- </p>
- <p>
- &ldquo;I don't need to go,&rdquo; he whispered. &ldquo;I came to bring you Robbie's present.
- He told me what he wanted.&rdquo;
- </p>
- <h3>
- THE END
- </h3>
- <div style="height: 6em;">
- <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />
- </div>
-
-
-
-
-
-
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-<pre>
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